diff --git "a/merged.txt" "b/merged.txt" new file mode 100644--- /dev/null +++ "b/merged.txt" @@ -0,0 +1,156506 @@ +Foreword + +WITH ITS PARADOXICAL TITLE, Sister Outsider, Audre Lorde’s most +influential book of prose, is ever more trenchant twenty-three years +after its first printing—surpassing even the reputation of her poetry, +which is no minor feat. Were she here among us in the funky U.S. +instead of floating somewhere over the Guinea Coast, Lorde would +still want and have to claim that “outsider” stance. These prose +works, much like her poetry, position her (and us), as Akasha Gloria +Hull said many years ago, “on the line,” refusing the safety of that +inside perimeter. I return to these texts again and always—in these +times of imperial and unnatural acts, like the war in Iraq and the +federal abandonment of the Gulf Coast survivors in the wake of +Hurricane Katrina. Sister is my sister no matter how I may reject her +counsel: “As Black people … we must move against not only those +forces which dehumanize us from the outside, but also against those +oppressive values which we have been forced to take into +ourselves.”1 No matter how angry Sister makes me with her +seemingly easy aphorisms: “For the master’s tools will never dismantle +the master’s house.”2 No matter how much Sister still asks the hard +questions: “Why do Black women reserve a particular voice of fury +and disappointment for each other? Who is it we must destroy when +we attack each other with that tone of predetermined and correct +annihilation?”3 +On the shelf with or at the bottom of that stack of other wellmined tomes—The Black Woman: An Anthology; Conditions: Five, The +Black Women’s Issue; Lesbian Fiction; Top Ranking—Sister is never far +from me. I retain several dog-eared, underlined, coffee-splotched +copies of her—at home, at work, on my nightstand—as necessary as +my eyeglasses, my second sight. +A fall semester of teaching my women’s studies seminar never +passes without deploying one of the following texts in theorizing + + feminist activism: “Age, Race, Class, and Sex: Women Redefining +Difference,” “An Open Letter to Mary Daly,” or “The Uses of Anger: +Women Responding to Racism.” In one paragraph, Lorde can +simultaneously blow away the entire Enlightenment project and use +its tools, too. +In 1990 I quoted myself in “Knowing the Danger and Going There +Anyway,” an article I wrote on Lorde for the Boston feminist +newspaper, Sojourner; I’ll change the sister trope and quote myself +again: “I said that Audre Lorde’s work is ’a neighbor I’ve grown up +with, who can always be counted on for honest talk, to rescue me +when I’ve forgotten the key to my own house, to go with me to a +tenants’ or town meeting, a community festival’.”4 In 1990, Lorde +was still walking among us. Sister Outsider has taken its creator’s +place as that good neighbor. And with this new edition, we will +have our good neighbor and sister for another generation. May +those of us who are Sister Outsider’s old neighbors continue to be +inspired by her luminous writing and may those new neighbors be +newly inspired. +—CHERYL CLARKE +2007 + + Introduction + +WHEN WE BEGAN EDITING Sister Outsider—long after the book had been +conceptualized, a contract signed, and new material written—Audre +Lorde informed me, as we were working one afternoon, that she +doesn’t write theory. “I am a poet,” she said. +Lorde’s stature as a poet is undeniable. And yet there can be no +doubt that Sister Outsider, a collection of essays and speeches drawn +from the past eight years of this Black lesbian feminist’s nonfiction +prose, makes absolutely clear to many what some already knew: +Audre Lorde’s voice is central to the development of contemporary +feminist theory. She is at the cutting edge of consciousness. +The fifteen selections included here, several of them published for +the first time, are essential reading. Whether it is the by now +familiar “Uses of the Erotic: The Erotic as Power,” opening us up to +the potential power in all aspects of our lives implicit in the erotic, +When I speak of the erotic, then, I speak of it as an assertion +of the life-force of women; of that creative energy +empowered, the knowledge and use of which we are now +reclaiming in our language, our history, our dancing, our +loving, our work, our lives.1 +or the recently authored “Eye to Eye: Black Women, Hatred, and +Anger,” probing the white racist roots of hostility between Black +women, +We are Black women born into a society of entrenched +loathing and contempt for whatever is Black and female. We +are strong and enduring. We are also deeply scarred.2 + + Lorde’s work expands, deepens, and enriches all of our +understandings of what feminism can be. +But what about the “conflict” between poetry and theory, +between their separate and seemingly incompatible spheres? We +have been told that poetry expresses what we feel, and theory states +what we know; that the poet creates out of the heat of the moment, +while the theorist’s mode is, of necessity, cool and reasoned; that +one is art and therefore experienced “subjectively,” and the other is +scholarship, held accountable in the “objective” world of ideas. We +have been told that poetry has a soul and theory has a mind and +that we have to choose between them. +The white western patriarchal ordering of things requires that we +believe there is an inherent conflict between what we feel and what +we think—between poetry and theory. We are easier to control +when one part of our selves is split from another, fragmented, off +balance. There are other configurations, however, other ways of +experiencing the world, though they are often difficult to name. We +can sense them and seek their articulation. Because it is the work of +feminism to make connections, to heal unnecessary divisions, Sister +Outsider is a reason for hope. +Audre Lorde’s writing is an impulse toward wholeness. What she +says and how she says it engages us both emotionally and +intellectually. She writes from the particulars of who she is: Black +woman, lesbian, feminist, mother of two children, daughter of +Grenadian immigrants, educator, cancer survivor, activist. She +creates material from the dailiness of her life that we can use to help +shape ours. Out of her desire for wholeness, her need to encompass +and address all the parts of herself, she teaches us about the +significance of difference—“that raw and powerful connection from +which our personal power is forged.”3 +A white Jewish lesbian mother, I first read “Man Child: A Black +Lesbian Feminist’s Response” several years ago as I was struggling +to accept the inevitability of my prepubescent son’s eventual +manhood. Not only would this boy of mine become a man +physically, but he might act like one. This awareness turned into a + + major crisis for me at a time and place when virtually all the lesbian +mothers I knew (who I realized, with hindsight, were also white) +either insisted that their “androgynous” male children would stay +that way, would not grow up to be sexist/misogynist men, or were +pressured to choose between a separatist vision of community and +their sons. I felt trapped by a narrow range of options. +Lorde, however, had wider vision. She started with the reality of +her child’s approaching manhood (“Our sons will not grown into +women”4) and then asked what kind of man he would become. She +saw clearly that she could both love her son fiercely and let him go. +In fact, for their mutual survival, she had no choice but to let him +go, to teach him that she “did not exist to do his feeling for him.”5 +Lorde and I are both lesbian mothers who have had to teach our +boys to do their own emotional work. But her son Jonathan is Black +and my son Joshua is white and that is not a trivial difference in a +racist society, despite their common manhood. As Lorde has written +elsewhere: +Some problems we share as women, some we do not. You +fear your children will grow up to join the patriarchy and +testify against you; we fear our children will be dragged +from a car and shot down in the street, and you will turn +your backs upon the reasons they are dying.6 +I read “Man Child,” and it was one of those occasions when I can +remember something major shifting inside me. +I came to understand it was not merely that Lorde knew more +about raising sons than I did, although I had been given expert +advice. I realized how directly Lorde’s knowledge was tied to her +difference—those realities of Blackness and lesbianism that placed +her outside the dominant society. She had information that I, a +white woman who had lived most of my life in a middle-class +heterosexual world, did not have, information I could use, +information I needed. + + For in order to survive, those of us for whom oppression is +as american as apple pie have always had to be watchers …7 +I was ashamed by my arrogance, frightened that my ignorance +would be exposed, and ultimately excited by the possibilities +becoming available to me. I made a promise to my future to try and +listen to those voices, in others and in myself, that knew what they +knew precisely because they were different. I wanted to hear what +they had to tell me. +Of course, the reverberations continue. +When I read “Man Child” again several years later, having done a +lot of work reclaiming my Jewish identity in the interim, I thought +about the complexities of my son being a white Jewish man in a +white Christian society. I had not seen this as an issue the first time +around; it is hard now to reconstruct my shortsightedness. +When we define ourselves, when I define myself, the place +in which I am like you and the place in which I am not like +you, I’m not excluding you from the joining—I’m +broadening the joining.8 +There is a further reduction of the distance between feeling and +thinking as we become aware of Lorde’s internal process. We watch +her move from “the chaos of knowledge … that dark and true depth +within each of us that nurtures vision”9 to “the heretical actions that +our dreams imply.”10 Understanding—the figuring out and piecing +together, the moving from one place to the next, provides the +connections. +What understanding begins to do is to make knowledge +available for use, and that’s the urgency, that’s the push, +that’s the drive.11 +Movement is intentional and life-sustaining. +Nowhere is this intentionality more evident than in “The +Transformation of Silence into Language and Action.” Here Lorde + + grapples with a possible diagnosis of cancer. “I had the feeling, +probably a body sense, that life was never going to be the +same….”12 She deals in public, at an academic gathering, in front of +700 women. She tells us that she is afraid but that silence is not a +protection. +And it [speaking] is never without fear; of visibility, of the +harsh light of scrutiny and perhaps judgment, of pain, of +death. But we have lived through all of those already, in +silence, except death. And I remind myself all the time now, +that if I were to have been born mute, and had maintained +an oath of silence my whole life for safety, I would still have +suffered, and I would still die. It is very good for +establishing perspective.13 +Lorde’s commitment to confront the worst so that she is freed to +experience the best is unshakeable. Although Sister Outsider spans +almost a decade of her work, nine of the fifteen pieces in this book +were written in the two years following Lorde’s discovery that she +might have/did have cancer. In the process of her growth, her +coming to terms and using what she has learned, she shows us +things we can take with us in our struggles for survival, no matter +what our particular “worst” may be. +What is there possibly left for us to be afraid of, after we +have dealt face to face with death and not embraced it? +Once I accept the existence of dying as a life process, who +can ever have power over me again?14 +Audre Lorde asks no more of us than she does of herself: that we +pay attention to those voices we have been taught to distrust, that +we articulate what they teach us, that we act upon what we know. +Just as she develops themes, reworking and building on them over +time to create theory, so, too, can we integrate the material of our +lives. + + Black woman, lesbian, feminist, mother of two children, daughter +of Grenadian immigrants, educator, cancer survivor, activist. The +essays and speeches in Sister Outsider give new resonance to that +fundamental but much abused feminist revelation that the personal +is political. We are all amplified by Audre Lorde’s work. +I am who I am, doing what I came to do, acting upon you +like a drug or a chisel to remind you of your me-ness, as I +discover you in myself.15 +—NANCY K. BEREANO +December 1983 + + Notes from a Trip to Russia* +SINCE I’VE RETURNED from Russia a few weeks ago, I’ve been dreaming +a lot. At first I dreamt about Moscow every night. Sometimes my +lover and I had returned there; sometimes I would be in warmer, +familiar places I had visited; sometimes in different, unfamiliar +cities, cold, white, strange. In one dream, I was making love to a +woman behind a stack of clothing in Gumm’s Department Store in +Moscow. She was ill, and we went upstairs, where I said to a +matron, “We have to get her to the hospital.” The matron said, “All +right, you take her over there and tell them that she needs a kidney +scan and a brain scan …” And I said, “No, they’re not going to do +that for me.” And she looked at me very strangely and she said, “Of +course they will.” And I realized I was in Russia, and medicine and +doctor bills and all the rest of that are free. +My dreams don’t come every night anymore, but it seems as if +they’ve gotten deeper and deeper so that I awake not really +knowing any of the content of them but only knowing that I’ve just +dreamt about Russia again. For a while, in my dreams, Russia +became a mythic representation of that socialism which does not yet +exist anywhere I have been. The possibilities of living in Russia +seem very different in some respects, yet the people feel so Western +European (so American, really) outside of Tashkent. And the +afternoons in Moscow are so dark and gloomy. + + I +The flight to Moscow was nine hours long, and from my +observations on the plane, Russians are generally as unfriendly to +each other as Americans are and just about as unhelpful. +There was a marvelously craggy-faced old blue-eyed woman in +her seventies wearing a babushka, with a huge coat roll. On the +plane everyone had one kind of huge coat roll or another except me. +When I stepped out into the Moscow weather I realized why. But +this woman was sitting in the seat right in front of me. She was +traveling alone and was too short to wield her roll easily. She tried +once, and she tried twice, and finally I got up and helped her. The +plane was packed: I’d never seen a plane quite so crowded before. +The old woman turned around and looked at me. It was obvious she +did not speak English because I had muttered something to her with +no reply. There was in her eyes a look of absolutely no rancor. I +thought with a quick shock how a certain tension in glances +between American Black and white people is taken for granted. +There was no thank you either, but there was a kind of simple +human response to who I was. And then as she turned to sit back +down, under her very dowdy cardigan I saw on her undersweater at +least three military-type medals, complete with chevrons. Hero of +the Republic medals, I learned later. Earned for hard work. +This is something that I noticed all over: the very old people in +Russia have a stamp upon them that I hope I can learn and never +lose, a matter-of-fact resilience and sense of their place upon the +earth that is very sturdy and reassuring. +I landed on September 10th about 3:30 P.M. Moscow time and +stepped out into a very raw, familiar greyness. There was a winter +smell to the air; almost nostalgic. The trees were Thanksgivingturned and the sky had that turkey-laden grey-pumpkin color. I saw +three large, square-faced women arm-in-arm, marching across the +airfield laughing and joking as they came. They were evidently +workers just going off shift — they had grey coveralls and jackets + + with engineer caps and carried lunch buckets. They stopped beside a +truck that had paused and started beating against the closed +window, drawing the attention of the other woman inside with +some half-hello/half-joke at the driver, who was obviously their +buddy, because they all pointed fingers at each other laughing +uproariously together there on the Moscow airstrip in the grim light, +swinging their lunch pails and cutting up. +My Intourist guided name was Helen, a very pleasant and +attractive large-boned young woman in her thirties. She was born in +the East, near Japan, and her father, who’d been a military man, +was dead. She lived with her mother now, and she said that she and +her mother had to learn to do a lot of things for themselves since +there are so few men around these days and service is so hard to +get. +In Russia you carry your own bags in airports and hotels. This, at +first, struck me as oppressive because, of course, carrying a laden +bag up seven flights of stairs when the elevator isn’t working is not +fun. But the longer I stayed there the fairer it seemed, because in +this country it appears that everything is seen in terms of food. That +is, the labor of one’s hands is measured by how much food you can +produce, and then you take that and compare its importance to the +worth of the other work that you do. Some men and women spend +their whole lives, for instance, learning and doing the infinitely slow +and patient handwork of retouching Persian Blue tiles down in +Samarkand to restore the ancient mausoleums. It is considered very +precious work. But antiquities have a particular value, whereas +carrying someone else’s bag does not have a very high priority +because it is not very productive either of beauty or worth. If you +can’t manage it, then that’s another story. I find it a very interesting +concept. +It’s about thirty miles from the airport to the city of Moscow, and +the road and the trees and the drivers could have been people from +Northern Westchester in late winter, except I couldn’t read any of +the signs. We would pass from time to time incredibly beautiful, old, +uncared for Russian-Orthodox-style houses, with gorgeous painted +wooden colors and outlined ornate windows. Some of them were + + almost falling down. But there was a large ornate richness about the +landscape and architecture on the outskirts of Moscow, even in its +grey winter, that seemed to tell me immediately that I was not at +home. +I stayed at the Hotel Younnost, which is one of the international +hotels in Moscow. The room was a square studio affair with +Hollywood bed couches, and a huge picture window looking +towards the National Stadium, over a railroad bridge, with a very +imposing view of the University buildings against the skyline. But +everything was so reminiscent of New York in winter that even as I +sat at 9:30 P.M. after dinner, writing, looking through the blinds, +there was the sound of a train and light on the skyline, and every +now and then the tail lights of an auto curving around between the +railroad bridge and the hotel. And it felt like a hundred nights that I +remembered along Riverside Drive, except that just on the edge of +the picture was the golden onion-shaped dome of a Russian +Orthodox church. +Before dinner I took a short walk. It was already growing dark, +but down the street from the hotel was the Stadium stop on the +Metro, which is a subway. I walked down there and into the Metro +station and I stood in front of the escalators for awhile just watching +the faces of the people coming and going. It felt like instant 14th +Street of my childhood, before Blacks and Latins colored New York, +except everyone was much more orderly and the whole place +seemed much less crowded. The thing that was really strangest of all +for the ten minutes that I stood there was that there were no Black +people. And the token collector and the station manager were +women. The station was very large and very beautiful and very +clean — shockingly, strikingly, enjoyably clean. The whole station +looked like a theater lobby — bright brass and mosaics and shining +chandeliers. Even when they were rushing, and in Moscow there’s +always a kind of rush, people lack the desperation of New York. One +thing that characterized all of these people was a pleasantness in +their faces, a willingness to smile, at least at me, a stranger. It was a +strange contrast to the grimness of the weather. + + There are some Black people around the hotel and I inquired of +Helen about the Patrice Lumumba University. This is a university +located in Moscow for students from African countries. There were +many Africans in and around the hotel when I got back from the +Metro station and I think many of them were here for the +Conference. Interestingly enough, most of them speak Russian and I +don’t. When I went downstairs to dinner, I almost quailed in front of +the linguistic task because I could not even find out where I was +supposed to sit, or whether I should wait to be seated. Whenever the +alphabet is unfamiliar, there are absolutely no cues to a foreign +language. A young Black man swaggered across my eyesight with +that particular swagger of fine, young Black men wanting to be +noticed and I said, “Do you speak English?” “Yes,” he said and +started walking very rapidly away from me. So I walked back to him +and when I tried to ask him whether I should sit down or wait to be +seated, I realized the poor boy did not understand a word that I +said. At that point I pulled out my two trusty phrase books and +proceeded to order myself a very delicious dinner of white wine, +boiled fish soup that was lemon piquant, olive rich, and fresh +mackerel, delicate, grilled sturgeon with pickled sauce, bread, and +even a glass of tea. All of this was made possible by great tenacity +and daring on my part, and the smiling forebearance of a very +helpful waiter who brought out one of the cooks from the kitchen to +help with the task of deciphering my desires. + + II +It’s very cold in Moscow. The day I arrived it snowed in the +morning and it snowed again today, and this is September 16th. My +guide, Helen, put her finger on it very accurately. She said that life +in Moscow is a constant fight against the cold weather, and that +living is only a triumph against death by freezing. Maybe because of +the cold, or maybe because of the shortage of food in the war years, +but everyone eats an enormous amount here. Tonight, because of a +slight error on the part of the waitress, Helen had two dinners and +thought very little about eating them both. And no one is terribly +fat, but I think that has a good deal to do with the weather. We had +wine at dinner tonight, and wine seems to be used a lot to loosen up +one’s tongue. It almost seems a prescription. At every dinner meal +there are always three glasses: one for water, one for wine, and one +for vodka, which flows like water, and with apparently as little +effect upon Russians. +A group from the conference with our Intourist guides went +sightseeing today. It’s hard to believe that today’s Sunday because +the whole city seems so full of weekday life, so intent on its own +purposes, that it makes the week seem extended by an extra day. +We saw the Novagrodsky Convent Museum and the brilliant, saucy +golden onion steeples that shock me back from the feeling this is +Manhattan. We went to see the University and of course many +plaques for many heroes, but I never saw one that moved me as +much as the tough old lady coming in on Aeroflot. And the Bolshoi +Ballet Theatre. It was rainy and grey and overcast — a New York +December day — and very imposing in the way the Grand +Concourse at 161st Street in the Bronx can be imposing in the +middle of December, or Columbus Circle. The golden onion steeples +on some older buildings are beautiful and they glisten all the time, +even in this weather, which makes them look like joyful promises on +the landscape, or fairy palaces, and the lovely colors of greens, +whites, yellows and oranges decorating and outlining windows + + make a wonderfully colorful accent in the greyness. I hope that I get +a chance to see the Pushkin Museum. +I was interviewed by a sweetly astute, motherly woman who was +one of the members of the Union of Soviet Writers. She was doing a +study of “Negro policy,” as she said, and of course she was very +interested in women in the States. We talked for a good two hours +and one of the things I told her was about the old woman on the +plane with the medals, and I asked her if she had any idea what +they were. She said the woman was probably an older farm worker +who had been awarded and named a “Hero of the Republic.” Those +were mostly given to people who worked very hard, she said. It was +interesting because earlier, at lunch, I had seen a side of Helen, my +interpreter, that surprised me. She was quite out of sorts with one of +the waitresses who did not wait on her quickly enough, and it does +take a long time to get waited on. Helen made a remark that the +workers rule the country, and her manner and response to that +seemed to be one of disgust, or at least rather put-off. I think Helen +felt that she was being discriminated against, or that she was at a +disadvantage, because she was an “intellectual,” a translator as well +as an interpreter. Which struck me as an odd kind of snobbishness +because Helen worked at least as hard, if not harder, than any +waitress, running after me and living my life as well as hers. +Because always, she stuck to me like white on rice. +We were at the University and our guide was talking to us, in +English, about the buildings, which had been built during Stalin’s +time. Material had been brought down from the Ukraine to sink into +the earth to build such buildings because Moscow, unlike New York, +is not built upon bedrock. This strikes me as strange, that this city of +oversize, imposing stone buildings should not be grounded on +bedrock. It’s like it remains standing on human will. While we were +standing in front of the reflecting pool having this discussion, a little +tow-headed boy sidled up to me with a completely international air, +all of ten years old, stood in front of me and with a furtive sideways +gesture, flipped his hand open. In the center of his little palm was a +button-pin of a red star with a soldier in the middle of it. I was +completely taken aback because I did not know what the kid wanted + + and I asked Helen who brushed the child off and shooed him away +so quickly I didn’t have a chance to stop her. Then she told me that +he wanted to trade for American buttons. That little kid had stood +off to the side and watched all of these strange Black people, and he +had managed to peg me as an American because, of course, +Americans are the only ones who go around wearing lots and lots of +buttons, and he had wanted to trade his red star button. I was +touched by the child, and also because I couldn’t help but think that +it was Sunday and he was probably hitting all the tourist spots. I’m +sure his parents did not know where he was, and I really wondered +what his mother would do if she knew. +The woman from the Writers’ Union who was doing her book on +Negro policy was, I’d say, a little older than I was, probably in her +early fifties, and her husband had been killed in the war. She had no +children. She offered these facts about herself as soon as we sat +down, talking openly about her life, as everybody seemingly does +here. I say seemingly because it only goes so far. And she, like my +guide and most women here, both young and old, seem to mourn +the lack of men. At the same time they appear to have shaken off +many of the traditional role-playing devices vis-a-vis men. Almost +everyone I’ve met has lost someone in what they call the “Great +Patriotic War,” which is our Second World War. +I was interviewed by Oleg this evening, one of the officials of the +Union of Soviet Writers, the people who had invited me to Russia +and who were footing the bill. In my interview with him I learned +the hotel that we’re staying in was originally a youth hostel and +Oleg apologized because it was not as “civilized,” so he said, as +other Moscow hotels. I came across this term civilized before, and I +wondered whether it was a term used around Americans or whether +it meant up to American standards. Increasingly I get a feeling that +American standards are sort of an unspoken norm, and that whether +one resists them, or whether one adopts them, they are there to be +reckoned with. This is rather disappointing. But coming back to the +hotel, I notice that the fixtures here are a little shabby, but they do +work, and the studio beds are a bit adolescent in size, but they are +comfortable. For a youth hostel it’s better than I would ever hope + + for. Of course, I can’t help but wonder why the African-Asian +Conference people should be housed in a youth hostel, particularly +an “uncivilized” one, but I don’t imagine that I’ll ever get an answer +to that. All hotel rooms cost the same in the Soviet Union. Utilities, +from my conversation with Helen while we were riding the Metro +down to send a cable, utilities are very inexpensive. The gas to cook +with costs sixteen kopecs a month which is less than one ruble +(about $3.00) and the most electricity Helen says that she uses, +when she’s translating all day long in winter, costs three rubles a +month. That is very expensive, she says. The two-room apartment +which she and her mother share costs eight rubles a month. +Oleg does not speak English, or does not converse in English. Like +many other people I was to meet during my stay in Russia, he +understands English although he does not let on. Oleg said through +Helen that he wants me to know it was very important for us to +meet other writers and that the point of the Conference was for us +to get together. I thanked him for the twenty-five rubles I had been +given as soon as I arrived here in Moscow, which I have been told +was a gift from the Union of Soviet Writers for pocket money. I +spoke of the oppressed people all over the world, meeting to touch +and to share, I spoke of South Africa and their struggle. Oleg said +something very curious. “Yes, South Africa is really very bad. It is +like a sore upon the body that will not heal.” This sounded to me +both removed and proprietary. Unclear. Willy, my South African +poet friend, lives in Tanzania now and he may be here, which I am +very excited about. + + III +We traveled south to Uzbekistan for the Conference, a five-hour +journey that became seven because of delays. We arrived in +Tashkent after dark following a long, exhausting plane ride. As I +have said, Russian planes are incredibly packed, every single inch +being taken up in seats. They absolutely utilize their air space. Even +coming from New York to Moscow it was like air mass transit. +Certainly from Moscow to Tashkent this was true since there were +150 delegates to the African-Asian Writers Conference, myself, one +observer, interpreters, and press personnel. All together, a traveling +group of about 250 people, which is a large group to move around a +country at least four or five times the size of the United States (and +in a standard, not wide-bodied, plane). +As we descended the plane in Tashkent, it was deliciously hot and +smelled like Accra, Ghana. At least it seemed to me that it did, from +the short ride from the airport to the hotel. The road to the city had +lots of wood and white marble all around broad avenues, and bright +street lights. The whole town of Tashkent had been rebuilt after the +1966 earthquake. We arrived tired and hot, to a welcome that +would make your heart grow still, then sing. Can you imagine 250 +of us, weary, cramped, hungry, disoriented, overtalked, underfed? It +is after dark. We step out of the plane and there before us are over a +hundred people and TV cameras, and lights, and two or three +hundred little children dressed in costumes with bunches of flowers +that they thrust upon each of us as we walked down the ramp from +the plane. “Surprise!” Well, you know, it was a surprise. Pure and +simple, and I was pretty damn well surprised. I was surprised at the +gesture, hokey or not, at the mass participation in it. Most of all, I +was surprised at my response to it; I felt genuinely welcomed. +So off to the hotel we went and I had the distinct feeling here, for +the first time in Russia, that I was meeting warm-blooded people; in +the sense of contact unavoided, desires and emotions possible, the +sense that there was something hauntingly, personally familiar — + + not in the way the town looks because it looked like nothing I’d +ever seen before, night and the minarets — but the tempo of life felt +hotter, quicker than in Moscow; and in place of Moscow’s +determined pleasantness, the people displayed a kind of warmth +that was very engaging. They are an Asian people in Tashkent. +Uzbeki. They look like the descendants of Ghengis Khan, some of +whom I’m sure they are. They are Asian and they are Russian. They +think and speak and consider themselves Russian, for all intents and +purposes so far as I can see, and I really wonder how they manage +that. On the other hand, the longer I stayed the more I realized +some of the personal tensions between North Russian and Uzbek are +national and some racial. +There are only four sisters in this whole conference. In the plane +coming to Tashkent, I sat with the three other African women and +we exchanged chitchat for 5½ hours about our respective children, +about our ex-old men, all very, very heterocetera. + + IV +Tashkent is divided into two parts. There’s the old part that +survived the huge earthquake of 1966, and there’s the newer part +which is on the outskirts of old Tashkent. It’s very new and very +modern, rebuilt in a very short time after the earthquake that +practically totaled the area. It was rebuilt by labor from all over the +Soviet Union. People came from the Ukraine, from Byelo-Russia, +from all over, and they rebuilt the city. And there are many +different styles of architecture in the new part of town because +every group who came built their own type of building. It’s almost a +memorial to what can be done when a large group of people work +together. It was one of the things that impressed me greatly during +my stay in Tashkent. The old part, which is really the center of +Tashkent, looks very, very much like a town in Ghana or Dahomey, +say Kumasi or Cotonou. In the daylight it looks so much like some +parts of West Africa that I could scarcely believe it. In fact, if +Moscow is New York in another space, in another color — because +both New York and Moscow have a little over eight million +population and should apparently have many of the same problems, +but Moscow seems to have handled them very differently — if +Moscow is New York, Tashkent is Accra. It is African in so many +ways — the stalls, the mix of the old and the new, the corrugated +tin roofs on top of adobe houses. The corn smell in the plaza, +although the plazas were more modern than in West Africa. Even +some flowers and trees, Calla lilies. But the red laterite smell of the +earth was different. +The people here in Tashkent, which is quite close to the Iranian +border, are very diverse, and I am impressed by their apparent +unity, by the ways in which the Russian and the Asian people seem +to be able to function in a multinational atmosphere that requires of +them that they get along, whether or not they are each other’s +favorite people. And it’s not that there are no individuals who are +nationalists, or racists, but that the taking of a state position against + + nationalism, against racism is what makes it possible for a society +like this to function. And of course the next step in that process +must be the personal element. I don’t see anyone attempting or even +suggesting this phase, however, and that is troublesome, for without +this step socialism remains at the mercy of an incomplete vision, +imposed from the outside. We have internal desires but outside +controls. But at least there is a climate here that seems to encourage +those questions. I asked Helen about the Jews, and she was rather +evasive, I think, saying only that there were Jews in government. +The basic position seems to be one of a presumption of equality, +even though there is sometimes a large gap between the expectation +and the reality. +We visited a film studio and saw several children’s cartoons +which handled their themes beautifully, deeply, with great humor, +and most notably, without the kind of violence that we have come +to associate with cartoons. They were truly delightful. +After two very busy days of meetings in Tashkent, we started out +at about 7:30 one morning by bus for Samarkand, the fabulous city +of Tamerlane the Great. After a short snooze on the bus I began to +feel a little more human, to look about me and the countryside. +We’re heading southeast from Tashkent, and Tashkent was +southeast of Moscow. The countryside is very beautiful. It feels +strange and familiar at the same time. This is cotton country. Miles +and miles of it, and trainloads of students were coming south from +Moscow on a two-week vacation to party and pick cotton. There was +a holiday atmosphere all around. We passed through small villages +where I could see little markets with women sitting cross-ankled on +the bare earth selling a few cabbages or a small tray of fruit. And +walls, behind which you could see adobe houses. Even the walls +themselves reminded me very much of West Africa, made of a clay +mud that cracks in the same old familiar patterns that we saw over +and over again in Kumasi and south of Accra. Only here the clay is +not red, but a light beige, and that is to remind me that this is the +USSR and not Ghana or Dahomey. Of course, the faces are white. +There are other differences that creep through also. The towns and +the villages are really in very good repair and there is a powerful + + railroad running parallel to our road. Long, efficient looking trains +and tanker cars and ten-car passenger trains pass by us, going +through switch houses with blue and white ceramic tiles and +painted roofs, all managed by women. Everything looks massive, +bigger, in Russia. The roads are wider, the trains longer, the +buildings bigger. The ceilings are higher. Everything seems to be on +a larger scale. +We stopped for a harvest festival lunch at a collective farm, +complete with the prerequisite but very engaging cultural +presentation, while vodka flowed. Then we all danced and sang +together with the busloads of students who had come to help pick +cotton. Later on along the roads there were literally hills of cotton +being loaded onto trains. +Each town that we pass through has a cafe, where the villagers +can come and spend an evening or chat or talk or watch TV or listen +to propaganda, who knows, but where they can meet. And all over, +in between very old looking villages, there are also new four story +buildings in progress, factories, new apartment houses. Trains full of +building slabs and other kinds of materials, coal and rock and +tractors pass by, even one with row after row after row of small +automobiles. There are three different Russian automobiles. This is +the cheapest, and most popular — hundreds and hundreds of cars +stacked, all the same lemon color. Obviously, that month the factory +was producing yellow. +I watched all of this industry pass and it came through to me on +that bus ride down to Samarkand that this land was not industrial so +much as it was industrious. There was a flavor of people working +hard and doing things and it was very attractive. On top of that, I +learned that this area between Tashkent and Samarkand was once +known as the “Hungry Desert” because although it was fertile, no +rain ever fell and it was covered with a coat of salt. Through +technology devised to lift the salt, and a great deal of human hands +and engineering, this whole area has been made to bloom, and it +really does bloom. It is being farmed, mostly with cotton. People +live here and there are massive irrigation ditches and pipes that +maintain trees where there are towns and collective farms. All + + through Uzbekistan the feeling of a desert having been reclaimed +and bearing huge fruit is very constant. Later on, as we headed on +south after the great feast, we stopped at an oasis, and I picked +some desert flowers that were growing — small little scrub flowers +that were growing in the sand. And just for so, I tasted one of them +and as honeysuckle is sweet, so is this flower salt. It was as if the +earth itself was still producing salt or still pouring salt into its +products. +There’s very beautiful marble throughout Uzbekistan. The stairs +of the hotels and sometimes the streets have a beautiful pink and +green marble. That was in Tashkent, which means “Stone City.” But +on this ride from Tashkent to Samarkand I saw no stones or rocks of +any kind near the road. I don’t know why, except that it is a +reclaimed desert. The roads felt very good, and they were very +broad because of course there was always heavy machinery and +trucking traveling back and forth. +We had another glowing welcome in Gulstan, which means the +“Hungry Desert.” This is now the village of roses. We visited a +collective farm, went into a house, saw the kindergarten. The +woman’s house into which we went was very impressive, as I said to +someone later at lunch who asked me what I thought. I said, “She +lives better than I do,” and in some ways she did. The collective +farm in Gulstan, called the Leningrad Collective, is one of the +wealthiest collectives in the area. I will never know the name of the +very kind young woman who opened her home to me, but I also will +not forget her. She offered me the hospitality of her house, and even +though we did not speak the same language, I felt that she was a +woman like myself, wishing that all of our children could live in +peace upon their own earth, somehow make fruitful the power of +their own hands. Through Helen, she spoke about her three +children, one of whom was only a nursing infant, and I spoke of my +two. I spoke in English and she spoke in Russian, but I felt very +strongly that our hearts spoke the same tongue. +I was reminded of her a few days later in Samarkand when Fikre, +an Ethiopian student at Patrice Lumumba University, and I went +shopping in the market. I remember the Moslem woman who came + + up to me in the marketplace, and she brought her little boy up to +me asking Fikre if I had a little boy also. She said that she had never +seen a Black woman before, that she had seen Black men, but she +had never seen a Black woman, and that she so much liked the way +I looked that she just wanted to bring her little boy and find out if I +had a little boy, too. Then we blessed each other and spoke good +words and then she passed on. +There was the accomplished and very eloquent young Asian +woman, an anthropology student, she said, who acted as our +museum guide in Samarkand and shared her great store of historical +knowledge with us. The night that we arrived in Samarkand and +again the next day in looking through the museums, I felt that there +were many things we were not seeing. For instance, we passed a +case where there are a number of coins which I recognized as +ancient Chinese coins because I’d used them for casting the I Ching. +I asked our guide if these were from China. She acted as if I’d said a +dirty word. And she said, “No, these were from right here in +Samarkand.” Now obviously they had been traded, and that was the +whole point, but of course I couldn’t read the Russian explanation +under it, and she evidently took great offense at my use of the word +China. In all of the women I’ve met here I feel an air of security and +awareness of their own powers as women, as producers, and as +human beings that is very affirming. But I also feel a stony rigidity, +a resistance to questioning that frightens me, saddens me, because it +feels destructive of progress as process. +We arrived in Samarkand about 9:30 P.M., quite wearied by a very +full day. We got into the main square just in time to catch the last +light-show at Tamerlane’s tomb. The less said about that the better. +But the following day, Helen, Fikre, and I played hooky from one +mausoleum and ran across the street and went to a market. It is very +reassuring and good as always. People in markets find a way of +getting down to the essentials of I have, you want; you have, I want. +The tile tombs and the midrasas (ancient schools) of Samarkand +are truly beautiful, intricate, and still. Incredibly painstaking work is +being done to restore them. I could feel stillness in my bones, + + walking through these places, knowing that so much history had +been buried there. I found two feathers in the Tomb of Bebe, +Timor’s favorite wife, and I felt almost as if I had come there to find +them. The Tomb of Bebe has beautiful minarets, but the Tomb itself +was never used. The mosque was never used. There is a story that +Bebe was Tamerlane’s favorite wife and he “loved her with all of his +heart.” However, he had many, many journeys to go upon and he +left her so often that he broke her heart and she died. When he +returned and found she was dead, he was very upset because he had +loved her so much, and he vowed that he would build the biggest +mausoleum in the world, the most ornate mosque for her, and that +is what he did. But then, just before it was completed, it collapsed. +They say it was due to an error of the architect, but it was never +used. One up for the lady shades. +The tile tombs and the midrasas are engrossing, but it’s the +market that caught my heart. We went later in that afternoon to +another meeting of solidarity for the oppressed people of +Somewhere. The only thing that I was quite sure of was that it was +not for the oppressed Black people of America, which point, of +course, I had questioned a number of days before and was still +awaiting a reply. So we stood in the hot sun at the porcelain factory +and it almost baked my brains, and I thought about a lot of things. +The peoples of the Soviet Union, in many respects, impress me as +people who can not yet afford to be honest. When they can be they +will either blossom into a marvel or sink into decay. What gets me +about the United States is that it pretends to be honest and therefore +has so little room to move toward hope. I think that in America +there are certain kinds of problems and in Russia there are certain +kinds of problems, but basically, when you find people who start +from a position where human beings are at the core, as opposed to a +position where profit is at the core, the solutions can be very +different. I wonder how similar human problems will be solved. But +I am not always convinced that human beings are at the core here, +either, although there is more lip service done to that idea than in +the U.S. + + I had a meeting the following day with a Madam Izbalkhan, who +was the head of the Uzbekistan Society of Friendship. This meeting +came about as a result of my request for clarification of my status +here at the Conference. When all was said and done, why was there +no meeting for oppressed peoples of Black America? Enough said. +Madam Izbalkhan talked two hours and she essentially said, well, +here’s what our revolution has done for us. And I felt she was +implying that any time you want to get yours going, you know, be +our guest, just don’t expect us to be involved. +But she talked most movingly of the history of the women of +Uzbekistan, a history which deserves more writing about than I can +give it here. The ways in which the women of this area, from 1924 +on, fought to come out from behind complete veiling, from Moslem +cloister to the twentieth century. How they gave their lives to go +bare-faced, to be able to read. Many of them fought and many of +them died very terrible deaths in this battle, killed by their own +fathers and brothers. It is a story of genuine female heroism and +persistence. I thought of the South African women in 1956 who +demonstrated and died rather than carry passbooks. For the Uzbeki +women, revolution meant being able to show their faces and go to +school, and they died for it. A bronze statue stands in a square of +Samarkand, monument to the fallen women and their bravery. +Madam went on to discuss the women of modern Uzbekistan and +how there was now full equality between the sexes. How many +women now headed collective farms, how many women Ministers. +She said there were a great many ways in which women governed; +there was no difference between men and women now in the Union +of Soviet Socialist Republics. I was touched by these statistics, of +course, but I also felt that there was a little more to it than met the +eye. It sounded too easy, too pat. Madam spoke of the daycare +centers, of kindergartens where children could be cared for on +collective farms. The kindergartens are free in large cities like +Moscow and Tashkent. But in Samarkand, there’s a nominal fee of +about two rubles a month, which is very little, she said. I asked her +one question, whether “men are encouraged to work in the +kindergartens to give the children a gentle male figure at an early + + age.” Madam Izbalkhan hesitated for a moment. “No,” she said. “We +like to believe that when the children come to the kindergarten they +acquire a second mother.” +Madam Izbalkhan was a very strong and beautiful and forthright +woman, excellently in charge of her facts, with a great deal of +presence, and I returned from my meeting with her almost +overwhelmed and over-graped. +The grapes in Uzbekistan are incredible fruit. They seem to have a +life of their own. They’re called “the bridesmaid’s little finger,” and +that’s about the size of them. They’re very long, and green, and +they’re absolutely the most delicious. +I came away with revolutionary women in my head. But I feel +very much now still that we, Black Americans, exist alone in the +mouth of the dragon. As I’ve always suspected, outside of rhetoric +and proclamations of solidarity, there is no help, except ourselves. +When I asked directly about the USSR’s attitude toward American +racism, Madam said reproachfully that of course the USSR cannot +interfere in the internal affairs of any other nation. I wish now I had +asked her about Russian Jews. +In Samarkand, Helen and I went looking for a fruit market. She +inquired directions from a man who had passed by with either his +little girl or his granddaughter, but I tend to think his little girl +because so many of the adults here in Uzbekistan look much older +than they are. It must be a quality of the dry air. Anyway, Helen +stopped to inquire directions to the market and this gave him an +opening, as frequently happens in Russia, to discuss anything. He +wanted to know from Helen whether I was from Africa, and when +he heard I was from America, then he really wanted to discuss +American Black people. There seems to be quite an interest in Black +Americans among the peoples of Russia, but it’s an interest that is +played down somewhat. Fikre, my Ethiopian companion who +studied at the university, was often questioned about me in Russian. +I had developed enough of an ear for the language to be able to +notice that. Fikre frequently did not say I was from America. Most +people in Tashkent and Samarkand who I met thought I was African +or from Cuba, and everyone is also very interested in Cuba. This + + fascination with all things American is something that keeps coming +up over and over again. +This man wanted to know from me whether American Black +people were allowed to go to school. I said yes, and Helen said yes +to him, and then he wanted to know if we were allowed to teach, +and I said yes, I was a professor at the University of the City of New +York. And he was surprised at that. He said that he had seen a +television program one time about the Black people of America. +That we had no jobs. So Helen started to answer him and he stopped +her. Then she angrily said he wanted me to speak because he +wanted to look at my face so he could see how I answered. I told +Helen to tell him that the question was not that we could never go +to college, but that frequently even when Black people went to +college, we had no jobs when we came out. That it was more +difficult for Black people to find work and make any kind of living, +and that the percentage of unemployment among American Black +people was far higher than that of American white people. +He pondered that a little while and then he asked, do Black +people have to pay for their doctors, too? Because that’s what TV +programs had said. I smiled a little at this and told him it’s not only +Black people who have to pay for doctors and medical care; all +people in America have to. Ah, he said. And suppose you don’t have +the money to pay? Well, I said, if you don’t have the money to pay, +sometimes you died. And there was no mistaking my gesture, even +though he had to wait for the translator to translate it. We left him +looking absolutely nonplussed, standing in the middle of the square +with his mouth open and his hand under his chin staring after me, +as in utter amazement that human beings could die from lack of +medical care. It’s things like that that keep me dreaming about +Russia long after I’ve returned. +There’s much that I think that Russian people now take for +granted. I think they take for granted free hospitalization and +medical care. They take for granted free universities and free +schooling as well as the presumption of universal bread, even with a +rose or two, although no meat. We are all more blind to what we +have than to what we have not. + + One night after midnight, Fikre and I were walking through a +park in Tashkent and we were approached by a Russian man with +whom Fikre had a short, sharp conversation, after which the man +bowed and walked away. Fikre would not tell me what they’d said, +but I had the strong feeling he had tried to pick one of us up, either +Fikre or me. Tashkent is, in some respects, a Russian playground. I +asked Fikre what the Soviet position was on homosexuality, and +Fikre answered that there was no public position because it wasn’t a +public matter. Of course, I know better than that, but I have very +few inroads into finding out the truth, and Helen is much too proper +to discuss anything sexual. + + V +The last few days after we returned to Moscow I got to meet one +woman I had noticed all through the Conference. She was an +Eskimo woman. Her name was Toni and she’s Chukwo. They are +from the part of Russia closest to Alaska, the part that wasn’t sold +by the Russians, across the Bering Straits. Toni did not speak English +and I didn’t speak Russian, but I felt as if we were making love that +last night through our interpreters. I still don’t know if she knew +what was going on or not, but I suspect that she did. +I had been extremely moved by her presentation earlier in the +day. We sat down to dinner, about ten of us, and Toni started +speaking to me through our interpreters. She said that she had been +searching for my eyes in the crowd all through her speech because +she felt as if she were talking to my heart. And that when she sang +the little song that she did, she sang it for a beginning that she +hoped for all of our people. And this lady cast, let me tell you, a +very powerful spell. There are only fourteen thousand Chukwo +people left. In her speech at one point she said, “It is a very sad +thing when a whole people ceases to exist.” And then she sang a +little song which she said her people sing whenever something new +happens. Her dark round eyes and seal-heavy hair flashed and +swung in time to her music. It sent a chill down my spine at the +time, because although there are 21 million Black Americans, I feel +like we’re an endangered species too, and how sad for our cultures +to die. I felt as if we alone, of all the people at the Conference, +shared that knowledge and that threat, Toni and I. At dinner Toni +kept telling me how beautiful I was, and how it was not only my +beauty that she would carry with her always but my words, and that +we should share our joys as well as our sorrows, and someday our +children would be able to speak freely with each other. She made +toast after toast to women and to their strength. All of this was +through our interpreters. I was trying to decide what to make of all +this when Toni got up, moved over, and sat down beside me. She + + touched my knee and kissed me, and so we sat all through dinner. +We held hands and we kissed, but any time we spoke to each other, +it was done through our interpreters, blond Russian girls who +smirked as they translated our words. I suppose Toni and I +connected somewhere in the middle of the Aleutians. +She kissed my picture on my book before she got up, thanked us +for dinner, and went off with the male Latvian delegate from Riga. + + VI +Now it is back to Moscow again, which is still cold and rainy. +Moscow across rainy rooftops looks about as dreary as New York +does, except the skyline is broken up by huge building cranes. There +is an incredible amount of building, it appears, going on all the time +in Moscow. There is in New York also, but it’s not so obvious on the +skyline. The buildings are not built in solid blocks the way they are +in New York. You’ll have perhaps two large apartment houses to a +block, set at different angles, with a lot of greenery and perhaps +some parks in between. In other words, it appears that quite a bit of +thought has been given to urban planning and how people like or +need to move about where they are. Both New York and Moscow +have a population of about eight million and in Moscow it is +possible and pleasant to walk out after dark without fear. Crime on +the streets seems not at all a problem in Moscow. The official reason +why and the actual reason why may be very different, but it is a +fact. I was struck by the sight of many people, even children, +walking through the parks after sundown. +Earlier, when I had first come to Moscow from the airport, I had +noticed quite heavy steady traffic, but there did not appear to be a +traffic jam or great delay although this was the time when most +people were coming home from work. It seemed quite an +achievement in a city of eight million people, and I thought Moscow +must be handling her problems of urban transportation in a new and +creative way. Of course, when I saw the Metro, I realized why. Not +only are the stations spotlessly clean, but the trains are quick and +comfortable, and I’d never really thought that it could be an actual +joy to ride on the subways. + + VII +It will take a while and a lot of dreams to metabolize all I’ve seen +and felt in these hectic two weeks. I haven’t even discussed the +close bonding I felt with some of the African writers and how +difficult it was to get to know others. I have no reason to believe +Russia is a free society. I have no reason to believe Russia is a +classless society. Russia does not even appear to be a strictly +egalitarian society. But bread does cost a few kopecs a loaf and +everybody I saw seemed to have enough of it. Of course, I did not +see Siberia, nor a prison camp, nor a mental hospital. But that fact, +in a world where most people — certainly most Black people — are +on a breadconcern level, seems to me to be quite a lot. If you +conquer the bread problem, that gives you at least a chance to look +around at the others. +So, for all of the double messages I received (and there were +many — because of the places in which I stayed, because of a kind +of both deference and unpleasantness that I received as an +American, and because no matter how much is said and done, +America still appears to have some kind of magic over many +countries), no matter what the shortcomings were, there is +enthusiasm about the people that I met in Russia, particularly the +people I met in Uzbekhistan. And I recognize some of the +contradictions and problems that they have. I am deeply suspicious +of the double messages that kept coming and of the fact that when +they are finished with you (and by they, I mean the government), +when they are finished with you, they drop you and you can fall +very far. So what’s new? I also am intrigued by the idea that there +are writers who are paid to be writers and that they survive and +they wield considerable power. I am also very well aware that if +what they write is not acceptable, then it never gets read or it never +gets printed. So what’s new? +But you do have a country there that has the largest reading +population in the world, that prints books of poetry in editions of + + 250,000 copies and those copies sell out in three months. +Everywhere you go, even among those miles of cotton being +harvested in the Uzbekhi sun, people are reading, and no matter +what you may say about censorship, they are still reading, and +they’re reading an awful lot. Some books are pirated from the West +because Russia does not observe International Copyright. In +Samarkhand, Ernest Gaines’ The Autobiography of Miss Jane Pittman +was the latest best seller. Now, how many Russian novels in +translation have you read this past year? +* These are edited journal entries from a two-week trip to Russia that I made in 1976 as + +the invited American observer to the African-Asian Writers Conference sponsored by the +Union of Soviet Writers. + + Poetry Is Not a Luxury* +THE QUALITY OF LIGHT by which we scrutinize our lives has direct +bearing upon the product which we live, and upon the changes +which we hope to bring about through those lives. It is within this +light that we form those ideas by which we pursue our magic and +make it realized. This is poetry as illumination, for it is through +poetry that we give name to those ideas which are — until the poem +— nameless and formless, about to be birthed, but already felt. That +distillation of experience from which true poetry springs births +thought as dream births concept, as feeling births idea, as +knowledge births (precedes) understanding. +As we learn to bear the intimacy of scrutiny and to flourish within +it, as we learn to use the products of that scrutiny for power within +our living, those fears which rule our lives and form our silences +begin to lose their control over us. +For each of us as women, there is a dark place within, where +hidden and growing our true spirit rises, “beautiful/and tough as +chestnut/stanchions against (y)our nightmare of weakness/”** and +of impotence. +These places of possibility within ourselves are dark because they +are ancient and hidden; they have survived and grown strong +through that darkness. Within these deep places, each one of us +holds an incredible reserve of creativity and power, of unexamined +and unrecorded emotion and feeling. The woman’s place of power +within each of us is neither white nor surface; it is dark, it is +ancient, and it is deep. +When we view living in the european mode only as a problem to +be solved, we rely solely upon our ideas to make us free, for these +were what the white fathers told us were precious. +But as we come more into touch with our own ancient, noneuropean consciousness of living as a situation to be experienced + + and interacted with, we learn more and more to cherish our +feelings, and to respect those hidden sources of our power from +where true knowledge and, therefore, lasting action comes. +At this point in time, I believe that women carry within ourselves +the possibility for fusion of these two approaches so necessary for +survival, and we come closest to this combination in our poetry. I +speak here of poetry as a revelatory distillation of experience, not +the sterile word play that, too often, the white fathers distorted the +word poetry to mean — in order to cover a desperate wish for +imagination without insight. +For women, then, poetry is not a luxury. It is a vital necessity of +our existence. It forms the quality of the light within which we +predicate our hopes and dreams toward survival and change, first +made into language, then into idea, then into more tangible action. +Poetry is the way we help give name to the nameless so it can be +thought. The farthest horizons of our hopes and fears are cobbled by +our poems, carved from the rock experiences of our daily lives. +As they become known to and accepted by us, our feelings and +the honest exploration of them become sanctuaries and spawning +grounds for the most radical and daring of ideas. They become a +safe-house for that difference so necessary to change and the +conceptualization of any meaningful action. Right now, I could +name at least ten ideas I would have found intolerable or +incomprehensible and frightening, except as they came after dreams +and poems. This is not idle fantasy, but a disciplined attention to the +true meaning of “it feels right to me.” We can train ourselves to +respect our feelings and to transpose them into a language so they +can be shared. And where that language does not yet exist, it is our +poetry which helps to fashion it. Poetry is not only dream and +vision; it is the skeleton architecture of our lives. It lays the +foundations for a future of change, a bridge across our fears of what +has never been before. +Possibility is neither forever nor instant. It is not easy to sustain +belief in its efficacy. We can sometimes work long and hard to +establish one beachhead of real resistance to the deaths we are +expected to live, only to have that beachhead assaulted or + + threatened by those canards we have been socialized to fear, or by +the withdrawal of those approvals that we have been warned to seek +for safety. Women see ourselves diminished or softened by the +falsely benign accusations of childishness, of nonuniversality, of +changeability, of sensuality. And who asks the question: Am I +altering your aura, your ideas, your dreams, or am I merely moving +you to temporary and reactive action? And even though the latter is +no mean task, it is one that must be seen within the context of a +need for true alteration of the very foundations of our lives. +The white fathers told us: I think, therefore I am. The Black +mother within each of us — the poet — whispers in our dreams: I +feel, therefore I can be free. Poetry coins the language to express +and charter this revolutionary demand, the implementation of that +freedom. +However, experience has taught us that action in the now is also +necessary, always. Our children cannot dream unless they live, they +cannot live unless they are nourished, and who else will feed them +the real food without which their dreams will be no different from +ours? “If you want us to change the world someday, we at least have +to live long enough to grow up!” shouts the child. +Sometimes we drug ourselves with dreams of new ideas. The head +will save us. The brain alone will set us free. But there are no new +ideas still waiting in the wings to save us as women, as human. +There are only old and forgotten ones, new combinations, +extrapolations and recognitions from within ourselves — along with +the renewed courage to try them out. And we must constantly +encourage ourselves and each other to attempt the heretical actions +that our dreams imply, and so many of our old ideas disparage. In +the forefront of our move toward change, there is only poetry to +hint at possibility made real. Our poems formulate the implications +of ourselves, what we feel within and dare make real (or bring +action into accordance with), our fears, our hopes, our most +cherished terrors. +For within living structures defined by profit, by linear power, by +institutional dehumanization, our feelings were not meant to +survive. Kept around as unavoidable adjuncts or pleasant pastimes, + + feelings were expected to kneel to thought as women were expected +to kneel to men. But women have survived. As poets. And there are +no new pains. We have felt them all already. We have hidden that +fact in the same place where we have hidden our power. They +surface in our dreams, and it is our dreams that point the way to +freedom. Those dreams are made realizable through our poems that +give us the strength and courage to see, to feel, to speak, and to +dare. +If what we need to dream, to move our spirits most deeply and +directly toward and through promise, is discounted as a luxury, then +we give up the core — the fountain — of our power, our +womanness; we give up the future of our worlds. +For there are no new ideas. There are only new ways of making +them felt — of examining what those ideas feel like being lived on +Sunday morning at 7 A.M., after brunch, during wild love, making +war, giving birth, mourning our dead — while we suffer the old +longings, battle the old warnings and fears of being silent and +impotent and alone, while we taste new possibilities and strengths. +* First published in Chrysalis: A Magazine of Female Culture, no. 3 (1977). +** From “Black Mother Woman,” first published in From A Land Where Other People Live + +(Broadside Press, Detroit, 1973), and collected in Chosen Poems: Old and New (W.W. Norton +and Company, New York, 1982) p. 53. + + The Transformation of Silence into Language and +Action* +I HAVE COME to believe over and over again that what is most +important to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at +the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood. That the speaking +profits me, beyond any other effect. I am standing here as a Black +lesbian poet, and the meaning of all that waits upon the fact that I +am still alive, and might not have been. Less than two months ago I +was told by two doctors, one female and one male, that I would +have to have breast surgery, and that there was a 60 to 80 percent +chance that the tumor was malignant. Between that telling and the +actual surgery, there was a three-week period of the agony of an +involuntary reorganization of my entire life. The surgery was +completed, and the growth was benign. +But within those three weeks, I was forced to look upon myself +and my living with a harsh and urgent clarity that has left me still +shaken but much stronger. This is a situation faced by many women, +by some of you here today. Some of what I experienced during that +time has helped elucidate for me much of what I feel concerning the +transformation of silence into language and action. +In becoming forcibly and essentially aware of my mortality, and +of what I wished and wanted for my life, however short it might be, +priorities and omissions became strongly etched in a merciless light, +and what I most regretted were my silences. Of what had I ever +been afraid? To question or to speak as I believed could have meant +pain, or death. But we all hurt in so many different ways, all the +time, and pain will either change or end. Death, on the other hand, +is the final silence. And that might be coming quickly, now, without +regard for whether I had ever spoken what needed to be said, or had +only betrayed myself into small silences, while I planned someday to +speak, or waited for someone else’s words. And I began to recognize + + a source of power within myself that comes from the knowledge +that while it is most desirable not to be afraid, learning to put fear +into a perspective gave me great strength. +I was going to die, if not sooner then later, whether or not I had +ever spoken myself. My silences had not protected me. Your silence +will not protect you. But for every real word spoken, for every +attempt I had ever made to speak those truths for which I am still +seeking, I had made contact with other women while we examined +the words to fit a world in which we all believed, bridging our +differences. And it was the concern and caring of all those women +which gave me strength and enabled me to scrutinize the essentials +of my living. +The women who sustained me through that period were Black +and white, old and young, lesbian, bisexual, and heterosexual, and +we all shared a war against the tyrannies of silence. They all gave +me a strength and concern without which I could not have survived +intact. Within those weeks of acute fear came the knowledge — +within the war we are all waging with the forces of death, subtle +and otherwise, conscious or not — I am not only a casualty, I am +also a warrior. +What are the words you do not yet have? What do you need to +say? What are the tyrannies you swallow day by day and attempt to +make your own, until you will sicken and die of them, still in +silence? Perhaps for some of you here today, I am the face of one of +your fears. Because I am woman, because I am Black, because I am +lesbian, because I am myself — a Black woman warrior poet doing +my work — come to ask you, are you doing yours? +And of course I am afraid, because the transformation of silence into +language and action is an act of self-revelation, and that always +seems fraught with danger. But my daughter, when I told her of our +topic and my difficulty with it, said, “Tell them about how you’re +never really a whole person if you remain silent, because there’s +always that one little piece inside you that wants to be spoken out, +and if you keep ignoring it, it gets madder and madder and hotter + + and hotter, and if you don’t speak it out one day it will just up and +punch you in the mouth from the inside.” +In the cause of silence, each of us draws the face of her own fear +— fear of contempt, of censure, or some judgment, or recognition, +of challenge, of annihilation. But most of all, I think, we fear the +visibility without which we cannot truly live. Within this country +where racial difference creates a constant, if unspoken, distortion of +vision, Black women have on one hand always been highly visible, +and so, on the other hand, have been rendered invisible through the +depersonalization of racism. Even within the women’s movement, +we have had to fight, and still do, for that very visibility which also +renders us most vulnerable, our Blackness. For to survive in the +mouth of this dragon we call america, we have had to learn this first +and most vital lesson — that we were never meant to survive. Not +as human beings. And neither were most of you here today, Black or +not. And that visibility which makes us most vulnerable is that +which also is the source of our greatest strength. Because the +machine will try to grind you into dust anyway, whether or not we +speak. We can sit in our corners mute forever while our sisters and +our selves are wasted, while our children are distorted and +destroyed, while our earth is poisoned; we can sit in our safe corners +mute as bottles, and we will still be no less afraid. +In my house this year we are celebrating the feast of Kwanza, the +African-american festival of harvest which begins the day after +Christmas and lasts for seven days. There are seven principles of +Kwanza, one for each day. The first principle is Umoja, which means +unity, the decision to strive for and maintain unity in self and +community. The principle for yesterday, the second day, was +Kujichagulia — self-determination — the decision to define +ourselves, name ourselves, and speak for ourselves, instead of being +defined and spoken for by others. Today is the third day of Kwanza, +and the principle for today is Ujima — collective work and +responsibility — the decision to build and maintain ourselves and +our communities together and to recognize and solve our problems +together. + + Each of us is here now because in one way or another we share a +commitment to language and to the power of language, and to the +reclaiming of that language which has been made to work against +us. In the transformation of silence into language and action, it is +vitally necessary for each one of us to establish or examine her +function in that transformation and to recognize her role as vital +within that transformation. +For those of us who write, it is necessary to scrutinize not only the +truth of what we speak, but the truth of that language by which we +speak it. For others, it is to share and spread also those words that +are meaningful to us. But primarily for us all, it is necessary to teach +by living and speaking those truths which we believe and know +beyond understanding. Because in this way alone we can survive, by +taking part in a process of life that is creative and continuing, that is +growth. +And it is never without fear — of visibility, of the harsh light of +scrutiny and perhaps judgment, of pain, of death. But we have lived +through all of those already, in silence, except death. And I remind +myself all the time now that if I were to have been born mute, or +had maintained an oath of silence my whole life long for safety, I +would still have suffered, and I would still die. It is very good for +establishing perspective. +And where the words of women are crying to be heard, we must +each of us recognize our responsibility to seek those words out, to +read them and share them and examine them in their pertinence to +our lives. That we not hide behind the mockeries of separations that +have been imposed upon us and which so often we accept as our +own. For instance, “I can’t possibly teach Black women’s writing — +their experience is so different from mine.” Yet how many years +have you spent teaching Plato and Shakespeare and Proust? Or +another, “She’s a white woman and what could she possibly have to +say to me?” Or, “She’s a lesbian, what would my husband say, or +my chairman?” Or again, “This woman writes of her sons and I have +no children.” And all the other endless ways in which we rob +ourselves of ourselves and each other. + + We can learn to work and speak when we are afraid in the same +way we have learned to work and speak when we are tired. For we +have been socialized to respect fear more than our own needs for +language and definition, and while we wait in silence for that final +luxury of fearlessness, the weight of that silence will choke us. +The fact that we are here and that I speak these words is an +attempt to break that silence and bridge some of those differences +between us, for it is not difference which immobilizes us, but +silence. And there are so many silences to be broken. +* Paper delivered at the Modern Language Association’s “Lesbian and Literature Panel,” + +Chicago, Illinois, December 28, 1977. First published in Sinister Wisdom 6 (1978) and The +Cancer Journals (Spinsters, Ink, San Francisco, 1980). + + Scratching the Surface: Some Notes on Barriers to +Women and Loving* +Racism: The belief in the inherent superiority of one race over +all others and thereby the right to dominance. +Sexism: The belief in the inherent superiority of one sex and +thereby the right to dominance. +Heterosexism: The belief in the inherent superiority of one +pattern of loving and thereby its right to dominance. +Homophobia: The fear of feelings of love for members of one’s +own sex and therefore the hatred of those feelings in others. +THE ABOVE FORMS of human blindness stem from the same root — an +inability to recognize the notion of difference as a dynamic human +force, one which is enriching rather than threatening to the defined +self, when there are shared goals. +To a large degree, at least verbally, the Black community has +moved beyond the “two steps behind her man” concept of sexual +relations sometimes mouthed as desirable during the sixties. This +was a time when the myth of the Black matriarchy as a social +disease was being presented by racist forces to redirect our +attentions away from the real sources of Black oppression. +For Black women as well as Black men, it is axiomatic that if we +do not define ourselves for ourselves, we will be defined by others +— for their use and to our detriment. The development of selfdefined Black women, ready to explore and pursue our power and +interests within our communities, is a vital component in the war +for Black liberation. The image of the Angolan woman with a baby +on one arm and a gun in the other is neither romantic nor fanciful. +When Black women in this country come together to examine our + + sources of strength and support, and to recognize our common +social, cultural, emotional, and political interests, it is a +development which can only contribute to the power of the Black +community as a whole. It can certainly never diminish it. For it is +through the coming together of self-actualized individuals, female +and male, that any real advances can be made. The old sexual +power relationships based on a dominant/subordinate model +between unequals have not served us as a people, nor as individuals. +Black women who define ourselves and our goals beyond the +sphere of a sexual relationship can bring to any endeavor the +realized focus of completed and therefore empowered individuals. +Black women and Black men who recognize that the development of +their particular strengths and interests does not diminish the other +do not need to diffuse their energies fighting for control over each +other. We can focus our attentions against the real economic, +political, and social forces at the heart of this society which are +ripping us and our children and our worlds apart. +Increasingly, despite opposition, Black women are coming +together to explore and to alter those manifestations of our society +which oppress us in different ways from those that oppress Black +men. This is no threat to Black men. It is only seen as one by those +Black men who choose to embody within themselves those same +manifestations of female oppression. For instance, no Black man has +ever been forced to bear a child he did not want or could not +support. Enforced sterilization and unavailable abortions are tools of +oppression against Black women, as is rape. Only to those Black +men who are unclear about the pathways of their own definition +can the self-actualization and self-protective bonding of Black +women be seen as a threatening development. +Today, the red herring of lesbian-baiting is being used in the Black +community to obscure the true face of racism/sexism. Black women +sharing close ties with each other, politically or emotionally, are not +the enemies of Black men. Too frequently, however, some Black +men attempt to rule by fear those Black women who are more ally +than enemy. These tactics are expressed as threats of emotional +rejection: “Their poetry wasn’t too bad but I couldn’t take all those + + lezzies.” The Black man saying this is code-warning every Black +woman present interested in a relationship with a man — and most +Black women are — that (1) if she wishes to have her work +considered by him she must eschew any other allegiance except to +him and (2) any woman who wishes to retain his friendship and/or +support had better not be “tainted” by woman-identified interests. +If such threats of labelling, vilification and/or emotional isolation +are not enough to bring Black women docilely into camp as +followers, or persuade us to avoid each other politically and +emotionally, then the rule by terror can be expressed physically, as +on the campus of a New York State college in the late 1970s, where +Black women sought to come together around women’s concerns. +Phone calls threatening violence were made to those Black women +who dared to explore the possibilities of a feminist connection with +non-Black women. Some of these women, intimidated by threats +and the withdrawal of Black male approval, did turn against their +sisters. When threats did not prevent the attempted coalition of +feminists, the resulting campus-wide hysteria left some Black +women beaten and raped. Whether the threats by Black men +actually led to these assaults, or merely encouraged the climate of +hostility within which they could occur, the results upon the women +attacked were the same. +War, imprisonment, and “the street” have decimated the ranks of +Black males of marriageable age. The fury of many Black +heterosexual women against white women who date Black men is +rooted in this unequal sexual equation within the Black community, +since whatever threatens to widen that equation is deeply and +articulately resented. But this is essentially unconstructive +resentment because it extends sideways only. It can never result in +true progress on the issue because it does not question the vertical +lines of power or authority, nor the sexist assumptions which dictate +the terms of that competition. And the racism of white women +might be better addressed where it is less complicated by their own +sexual oppression. In this situation it is not the non-Black woman +who calls the tune, but rather the Black man who turns away from + + himself in his sisters or who, through a fear borrowed from white +men, reads her strength not as a resource but as a challenge. +All too often the message comes loud and clear to Black women +from Black men: “I am the only prize worth having and there are +not too many of me, and remember, I can always go elsewhere. So if +you want me, you’d better stay in your place which is away from +one another, or I will call you ‘lesbian’ and wipe you out.” Black +women are programmed to define ourselves within this male +attention and to compete with each other for it rather than to +recognize and move upon our common interests. +The tactic of encouraging horizontal hostility to becloud more +pressing issues of oppression is by no means new, nor limited to +relations between women. The same tactic is used to encourage +separation between Black women and Black men. In discussions +around the hiring and firing of Black faculty at universities, the +charge is frequently heard that Black women are more easily hired +than are Black men. For this reason, Black women’s problems of +promotion and tenure are not to be considered important since they +are only “taking jobs away from Black men.” Here again, energy is +being wasted on fighting each other over the pitifully few crumbs +allowed us rather than being used, in a joining of forces, to fight for +a more realistic ratio of Black faculty. The latter would be a vertical +battle against racist policies of the academic structure itself, one +which could result in real power and change. It is the structure at +the top which desires changelessness and which profits from these +apparently endless kitchen wars. +Instead of keeping our attentions focused upon our real needs, +enormous energy is being wasted in the Black community today in +antilesbian hysteria. Yet women-identified women — those who +sought their own destinies and attempted to execute them in the +absence of male support — have been around in all of our +communities for a long time. As Yvonne Flowers of York College +pointed out in a recent discussion, the unmarried aunt, childless or +otherwise, whose home and resources were often a welcome haven +for different members of the family, was a familiar figure in many of + + our childhoods. And within the homes of our Black communities +today, it is not the Black lesbian who is battering and raping our +underage girl-children out of displaced and sickening frustration. +The Black lesbian has come under increasing attack from both +Black men and heterosexual Black women. In the same way that the +existence of the self-defined Black woman is no threat to the selfdefined Black man, the Black lesbian is an emotional threat only to +those Black women whose feelings of kinship and love for other +Black women are problematic in some way. For so long, we have +been encouraged to view each other with suspicion, as eternal +competitors, or as the visible face of our own self-rejection. +Yet traditionally, Black women have always bonded together in +support of each other, however uneasily and in the face of whatever +other allegiances which militated against that bonding. We have +banded together with each other for wisdom and strength and +support, even when it was only in relationship to one man. We need +only look at the close, although highly complex and involved, +relationships between African co-wives, or at the Amazon warriors +of ancient Dahomey who fought together as the King’s main and +most ferocious bodyguard. We need only look at the more promising +power wielded by the West African Market Women Associations of +today, and those governments which have risen and fallen at their +pleasure. +In a retelling of her life, a ninety-two-year-old Efik-Ibibio woman +of Nigeria recalls her love for another woman: +I had a woman friend to whom I revealed my secrets. She +was very fond of keeping secrets to herself. We acted as +husband and wife. We always moved hand in glove and my +husband and hers knew about our relationship. The villagers +nicknamed us twin sisters. When I was out of gear with my +husband, she would be the one to restore peace. I often sent +my children to go and work for her in return for her +kindnesses to me. My husband being more fortunate to get +more pieces of land than her husband, allowed some to her, +even though she was not my co-wife.* + + On the West Coast of Africa, the Fon of Dahomey still have twelve +different kinds of marriage. One of them is known as “giving the +goat to the buck,” where a woman of independent means marries +another woman who then may or may not bear children, all of +whom will belong to the blood line of the first woman. Some +marriages of this kind are arranged to provide heirs for women of +means who wish to remain “free,” and some are lesbian +relationships. Marriages like these occur throughout Africa, in +several different places among different peoples.** Routinely, the +women involved are accepted members of their communities, +evaluated not by their sexuality but by their respective places within +the community. +While a piece of each Black woman remembers the old ways of +another place — when we enjoyed each other in a sisterhood of +work and play and power — other pieces of us, less functional, eye +one another with suspicion. In the interests of separation, Black +women have been taught to view each other as always suspect, +heartless competitors for the scarce male, the all-important prize +that could legitimize our existence. This dehumanizing denial of self +is no less lethal than the dehumanization of racism to which it is so +closely allied. +If the recent attack upon lesbians in the Black community is based +solely upon an aversion to the idea of sexual contact between +members of the same sex (a contact which has existed for ages in +most of the female compounds across the African continent), why +then is the idea of sexual contact between Black men so much more +easily accepted, or unremarked? Is the imagined threat simply the +existence of a self-motivated, self-defined Black woman who will not +fear nor suffer terrible retribution from the gods because she does +not necessarily seek her face in a man’s eyes, even if he has fathered +her children? Female-headed households in the Black community +are not always situations by default. +The distortion of relationship which says “I disagree with you, so I +must destroy you” leaves us as Black people with basically +uncreative victories, defeated in any common struggle. This jugular +vein psychology is based on the fallacy that your assertion or + + affirmation of self is an attack upon my self — or that my defining +myself will somehow prevent or retard your self-definition. The +supposition that one sex needs the other’s acquiescence in order to +exist prevents both from moving together as self-defined persons +toward a common goal. +This kind of action is a prevalent error among oppressed peoples. It +is based upon the false notion that there is only a limited and +particular amount of freedom that must be divided up between us, +with the largest and juiciest pieces of liberty going as spoils to the +victor or the stronger. So instead of joining together to fight for +more, we quarrel between ourselves for a larger slice of the one pie. +Black women fight between ourselves over men, instead of pursuing +and using who we are and our strengths for lasting change; Black +women and men fight between ourselves over who has more of a +right to freedom, instead of seeing each other’s struggles as part of +our own and vital to our common goals; Black and white women +fight between ourselves over who is the more oppressed, instead of +seeing those areas in which our causes are the same. (Of course, this +last separation is worsened by the intransigent racism that white +women too often fail to, or cannot, address in themselves.) +At a recent Black literary conference, a heterosexual Black woman +stated that to endorse lesbianism was to endorse the death of our +race. This position reflects acute fright or a faulty reasoning, for +once again it ascribes false power to difference. To the racist, Black +people are so powerful that the presence of one can contaminate a +whole lineage; to the heterosexist, lesbians are so powerful that the +presence of one can contaminate the whole sex. This position +supposes that if we do not eradicate lesbianism in the Black +community, all Black women will become lesbians. It also supposes +that lesbians do not have children. Both suppositions are patently +false. +As Black women, we must deal with all the realities of our lives +which place us at risk as Black women — homosexual or +heterosexual. In 1977 in Detroit, a young Black actress, Patricia +Cowan, was invited to audition for a play called Hammer and was + + then hammered to death by the young Black male playwright. +Patricia Cowan was not killed because she was Black. She was killed +because she was a Black woman, and her cause belongs to us all. +History does not record whether or not she was a lesbian, but only +that she had a four-year-old child. +Of the four groups, Black and white women, Black and white +men, Black women have the lowest average wage. This is a vital +concern for us all, no matter with whom we sleep. +As Black women we have the right and responsibility to define +ourselves and to seek our allies in common cause: with Black men +against racism, and with each other and white women against +sexism. But most of all, as Black women we have the right and +responsibility to recognize each other without fear and to love +where we choose. Both lesbian and heterosexual Black women today +share a history of bonding and strength to which our sexual +identities and our other differences must not blind us. +* First published in The Black Scholar, vol. 9, no. 7 (1978). +* Iris Andreski, Old Wives Tales: Life-Stories of African Women (Schocken Books, New + +York, 1970), p. 131. + +** Melville Herskovits, Dahomey, 2 vols. (Northwestern University Press, Evanston, + +Illinois, 1967), 1:320–322. + + Uses of the Erotic: The Erotic as Power* +THERE ARE MANY kinds of power, used and unused, acknowledged or +otherwise. The erotic is a resource within each of us that lies in a +deeply female and spiritual plane, firmly rooted in the power of our +unexpressed or unrecognized feeling. In order to perpetuate itself, +every oppression must corrupt or distort those various sources of +power within the culture of the oppressed that can provide energy +for change. For women, this has meant a suppression of the erotic as +a considered source of power and information within our lives. +We have been taught to suspect this resource, vilified, abused, +and devalued within western society. On the one hand, the +superficially erotic has been encouraged as a sign of female +inferiority; on the other hand, women have been made to suffer and +to feel both contemptible and suspect by virtue of its existence. +It is a short step from there to the false belief that only by the +suppression of the erotic within our lives and consciousness can +women be truly strong. But that strength is illusory, for it is +fashioned within the context of male models of power. +As women, we have come to distrust that power which rises from +our deepest and nonrational knowledge. We have been warned +against it all our lives by the male world, which values this depth of +feeling enough to keep women around in order to exercise it in the +service of men, but which fears this same depth too much to +examine the possibilities of it within themselves. So women are +maintained at a distant/inferior position to be psychically milked, +much the same way ants maintain colonies of aphids to provide a +life-giving substance for their masters. +But the erotic offers a well of replenishing and provocative force +to the woman who does not fear its revelation, nor succumb to the +belief that sensation is enough. + + The erotic has often been misnamed by men and used against +women. It has been made into the confused, the trivial, the +psychotic, the plasticized sensation. For this reason, we have often +turned away from the exploration and consideration of the erotic as +a source of power and information, confusing it with its opposite, +the pornographic. But pornography is a direct denial of the power of +the erotic, for it represents the suppression of true feeling. +Pornography emphasizes sensation without feeling. +The erotic is a measure between the beginnings of our sense of +self and the chaos of our strongest feelings. It is an internal sense of +satisfaction to which, once we have experienced it, we know we can +aspire. For having experienced the fullness of this depth of feeling +and recognizing its power, in honor and self-respect we can require +no less of ourselves. +It is never easy to demand the most from ourselves, from our +lives, from our work. To encourage excellence is to go beyond the +encouraged mediocrity of our society is to encourage excellence. But +giving in to the fear of feeling and working to capacity is a luxury +only the unintentional can afford, and the unintentional are those +who do not wish to guide their own destinies. +This internal requirement toward excellence which we learn from +the erotic must not be misconstrued as demanding the impossible +from ourselves nor from others. Such a demand incapacitates +everyone in the process. For the erotic is not a question only of what +we do; it is a question of how acutely and fully we can feel in the +doing. Once we know the extent to which we are capable of feeling +that sense of satisfaction and completion, we can then observe +which of our various life endeavors bring us closest to that fullness. +The aim of each thing which we do is to make our lives and the +lives of our children richer and more possible. Within the +celebration of the erotic in all our endeavors, my work becomes a +conscious decision — a longed-for bed which I enter gratefully and +from which I rise up empowered. +Of course, women so empowered are dangerous. So we are taught to +separate the erotic demand from most vital areas of our lives other + + than sex. And the lack of concern for the erotic root and +satisfactions of our work is felt in our disaffection from so much of +what we do. For instance, how often do we truly love our work even +at its most difficult? +The principal horror of any system which defines the good in +terms of profit rather than in terms of human need, or which defines +human need to the exclusion of the psychic and emotional +components of that need — the principal horror of such a system is +that it robs our work of its erotic value, its erotic power and life +appeal and fulfillment. Such a system reduces work to a travesty of +necessities, a duty by which we earn bread or oblivion for ourselves +and those we love. But this is tantamount to blinding a painter and +then telling her to improve her work, and to enjoy the act of +painting. It is not only next to impossible, it is also profoundly cruel. +As women, we need to examine the ways in which our world can +be truly different. I am speaking here of the necessity for reassessing +the quality of all the aspects of our lives and of our work, and of +how we move toward and through them. +The very word erotic comes from the Greek word eros, the +personification of love in all its aspects — born of Chaos, and +personifying creative power and harmony. When I speak of the +erotic, then, I speak of it as an assertion of the lifeforce of women; +of that creative energy empowered, the knowledge and use of which +we are now reclaiming in our language, our history, our dancing, +our loving, our work, our lives. +There are frequent attempts to equate pornography and eroticism, +two diametrically opposed uses of the sexual. Because of these +attempts, it has become fashionable to separate the spiritual +(psychic and emotional) from the political, to see them as +contradictory or antithetical. “What do you mean, a poetic +revolutionary, a meditating gunrunner?” In the same way, we have +attempted to separate the spiritual and the erotic, thereby reducing +the spiritual to a world of flattened affect, a world of the ascetic +who aspires to feel nothing. But nothing is farther from the truth. +For the ascetic position is one of the highest fear, the gravest + + immobility. The severe abstinence of the ascetic becomes the ruling +obsession. And it is one not of self-discipline but of self-abnegation. +The dichotomy between the spiritual and the political is also false, +resulting from an incomplete attention to our erotic knowledge. For +the bridge which connects them is formed by the erotic — the +sensual — those physical, emotional, and psychic expressions of +what is deepest and strongest and richest within each of us, being +shared: the passions of love, in its deepest meanings. +Beyond the superficial, the considered phrase, “It feels right to +me,” acknowledges the strength of the erotic into a true knowledge, +for what that means is the first and most powerful guiding light +toward any understanding. And understanding is a hand-maiden +which can only wait upon, or clarify, that knowledge, deeply born. +The erotic is the nurturer or nursemaid of all our deepest +knowledge. +The erotic functions for me in several ways, and the first is in +providing the power which comes from sharing deeply any pursuit +with another person. The sharing of joy, whether physical, +emotional, psychic, or intellectual, forms a bridge between the +sharers which can be the basis for understanding much of what is +not shared between them, and lessens the threat of their difference. +Another important way in which the erotic connection functions +is the open and fearless underlining of my capacity for joy. In the +way my body stretches to music and opens into response, +hearkening to its deepest rhythms, so every level upon which I sense +also opens to the erotically satisfying experience, whether it is +dancing, building a bookcase, writing a poem, examining an idea. +That self-connection shared is a measure of the joy which I know +myself to be capable of feeling, a reminder of my capacity for +feeling. And that deep and irreplaceable knowledge of my capacity +for joy comes to demand from all of my life that it be lived within +the knowledge that such satisfaction is possible, and does not have +to be called marriage, nor god, nor an afterlife. +This is one reason why the erotic is so feared, and so often +relegated to the bedroom alone, when it is recognized at all. For + + once we begin to feel deeply all the aspects of our lives, we begin to +demand from ourselves and from our life-pursuits that they feel in +accordance with that joy which we know ourselves to be capable of. +Our erotic knowledge empowers us, becomes a lens through which +we scrutinize all aspects of our existence, forcing us to evaluate +those aspects honestly in terms of their relative meaning within our +lives. And this is a grave responsibility, projected from within each +of us, not to settle for the convenient, the shoddy, the +conventionally expected, nor the merely safe. +During World War II, we bought sealed plastic packets of white, +uncolored margarine, with a tiny, intense pellet of yellow coloring +perched like a topaz just inside the clear skin of the bag. We would +leave the margarine out for a while to soften, and then we would +pinch the little pellet to break it inside the bag, releasing the rich +yellowness into the soft pale mass of margarine. Then taking it +carefully between our fingers, we would knead it gently back and +forth, over and over, until the color had spread throughout the +whole pound bag of margarine, thoroughly coloring it. +I find the erotic such a kernel within myself. When released from +its intense and constrained pellet, it flows through and colors my life +with a kind of energy that heightens and sensitizes and strengthens +all my experience. +We have been raised to fear the yes within ourselves, our deepest +cravings. But, once recognized, those which do not enhance our +future lose their power and can be altered. The fear of our desires +keeps them suspect and indiscriminately powerful, for to suppress +any truth is to give it strength beyond endurance. The fear that we +cannot grow beyond whatever distortions we may find within +ourselves keeps us docile and loyal and obedient, externally defined, +and leads us to accept many facets of our oppression as women. +When we live outside ourselves, and by that I mean on external +directives only rather than from our internal knowledge and needs, +when we live away from those erotic guides from within ourselves, +then our lives are limited by external and alien forms, and we +conform to the needs of a structure that is not based on human + + need, let alone an individual’s. But when we begin to live from +within outward, in touch with the power of the erotic within +ourselves, and allowing that power to inform and illuminate our +actions upon the world around us, then we begin to be responsible +to ourselves in the deepest sense. For as we begin to recognize our +deepest feelings, we begin to give up, of necessity, being satisfied +with suffering and self-negation, and with the numbness which so +often seems like their only alternative in our society. Our acts +against oppression become integral with self, motivated and +empowered from within. +In touch with the erotic, I become less willing to accept +powerlessness, or those other supplied states of being which are not +native to me, such as resignation, despair, self-effacement, +depression, self-denial. +And yes, there is a hierarchy. There is a difference between +painting a back fence and writing a poem, but only one of quantity. +And there is, for me, no difference between writing a good poem +and moving into sunlight against the body of a woman I love. +This brings me to the last consideration of the erotic. To share the +power of each other’s feelings is different from using another’s +feelings as we would use a kleenex. When we look the other way +from our experience, erotic or otherwise, we use rather than share +the feelings of those others who participate in the experience with +us. And use without consent of the used is abuse. +In order to be utilized, our erotic feelings must be recognized. The +need for sharing deep feeling is a human need. But within the +european-american tradition, this need is satisfied by certain +proscribed erotic comings-together. These occasions are almost +always characterized by a simultaneous looking away, a pretense of +calling them something else, whether a religion, a fit, mob violence, +or even playing doctor. And this misnaming of the need and the +deed give rise to that distortion which results in pornography and +obscenity — the abuse of feeling. +When we look away from the importance of the erotic in the +development and sustenance of our power, or when we look away +from ourselves as we satisfy our erotic needs in concert with others, + + we use each other as objects of satisfaction rather than share our joy +in the satisfying, rather than make connection with our similarities +and our differences. To refuse to be conscious of what we are feeling +at any time, however comfortable that might seem, is to deny a +large part of the experience, and to allow ourselves to be reduced to +the pornographic, the abused, and the absurd. +The erotic cannot be felt secondhand. As a Black lesbian feminist, +I have a particular feeling, knowledge, and understanding for those +sisters with whom I have danced hard, played, or even fought. This +deep participation has often been the forerunner for joint concerted +actions not possible before. +But this erotic charge is not easily shared by women who continue +to operate under an exclusively european-american male tradition. I +know it was not available to me when I was trying to adapt my +consciousness to this mode of living and sensation. +Only now, I find more and more women-identified women brave +enough to risk sharing the erotic’s electrical charge without having +to look away, and without distorting the enormously powerful and +creative nature of that exchange. Recognizing the power of the +erotic within our lives can give us the energy to pursue genuine +change within our world, rather than merely settling for a shift of +characters in the same weary drama. +For not only do we touch our most profoundly creative source, +but we do that which is female and self-affirming in the face of a +racist, patriarchal, and anti-erotic society. +* Paper delivered at the Fourth Berkshire Conference on the History of Women, Mount + +Holyoke College, August 25, 1978. First published as a pamphlet by Out & Out Books. Now +published as a pamphlet by Kore Press. + + Sexism: An American Disease in Blackface* +BLACK FEMINISM is not white feminism in blackface. Black women +have particular and legitimate issues which affect our lives as Black +women, and addressing those issues does not make us any less +Black. To attempt to open dialogue between Black women and Black +men by attacking Black feminists seems shortsighted and selfdefeating. Yet this is what Robert Staples, Black sociologist, has +done in The Black Scholar. +Despite our recent economic gains, Black women are still the +lowest paid group in the nation by sex and race. This gives some +idea of the inequity from which we started. In Staples’ own words, +Black women in 1979 only “threaten to overtake black men” [italics +mine] by the “next century” in education, occupation, and income. +In other words, the inequity is self-evident; but how is it justifiable? +Black feminists speak as women because we are women and do +not need others to speak for us. It is for Black men to speak up and +tell us why and how their manhood is so threatened that Black +women should be the prime targets of their justifiable rage. What +correct analysis of this capitalist dragon within which we live can +legitimize the rape of Black women by Black men? +At least Black feminists and other Black women have begun this +much-needed dialogue, however bitter our words. At least we are +not mowing down our brothers in the street, or bludgeoning them to +death with hammers. Yet. We recognize the fallacies of separatist +solutions. +Staples pleads his cause by saying capitalism has left the Black +man only his penis for fulfillment, and a “curious rage.” Is this rage +any more legitimate than the rage of Black women? And why are +Black women supposed to absorb that male rage in silence? Why +isn’t that male rage turned upon those forces which limit his +fulfillment, namely capitalism? Staples sees in Ntozake Shange’s + + play For Colored Girls “a collective appetite for black male blood.” +Yet it is my female children and my Black sisters who lie bleeding +all around me, victims of the appetites of our brothers. +Into what theoretical analysis would Staples fit Patricia Cowan? +She answered an ad in Detroit for a Black actress to audition in a +play called Hammer. As she acted out an argument scene, watched +by the playwright’s brother and her four-year-old son, the Black +male playwright picked up a sledgehammer and bludgeoned her to +death. Will Staples’ “compassion for misguided black men” bring +this young mother back, or make her senseless death more +acceptable? +Black men’s feelings of cancellation, their grievances, and their +fear of vulnerability must be talked about, but not by Black women +when it is at the expense of our own “curious rage.” +If this society ascribes roles to Black men which they are not +allowed to fulfill, is it Black women who must bend and alter our +lives to compensate, or is it society that needs changing? And why +should Black men accept these roles as correct ones, or anything +other than a narcotic promise encouraging acceptance of other +facets of their own oppression? +One tool of the Great-American-Double-Think is to blame the +victim for victimization: Black people are said to invite lynching by +not knowing our place; Black women are said to invite rape and +murder and abuse by not being submissive enough, or by being too +seductive, or too … +Staples’ “fact” that Black women get their sense of fulfillment +from having children is only a fact when stated out of the mouths of +Black men, and any Black person in this country, even a “happily +married” woman who has “no pent-up frustrations that need +release” (!) is either a fool or insane. This smacks of the oldest sexist +canard of all time, that all a woman needs to “keep her quiet” is a +“good man.” File that one alongside “Some of my best friends +are …” +Instead of beginning the much-needed dialogue between Black +men and Black women, Staples retreats to a defensive stance +reminiscent of white liberals of the 60s, many of whom saw any + + statement of Black pride and self-assertion as an automatic threat to +their own identity and an attempt to wipe them out. Here we have +an intelligent Black man believing — or at least saying — that any +call to Black women to love ourselves (and no one said only) is a +denial of, or threat to, his Black male identity! +In this country, Black women traditionally have had compassion +for everybody else except ourselves. We have cared for whites +because we had to for pay or survival; we have cared for our +children and our fathers and our brothers and our lovers. History +and popular culture, as well as our personal lives, are full of tales of +Black women who had “compassion for misguided black men.” Our +scarred, broken, battered and dead daughters and sisters are a mute +testament to that reality. We need to learn to have care and +compassion for ourselves, also. +In the light of what Black women often willingly sacrifice for our +children and our men, this is a much needed exhortation, no matter +what illegitimate use the white media makes of it. This call for selfvalue and self-love is quite different from narcissism, as Staples +must certainly realize. Narcissism comes not out of self-love but out +of self-hatred. +The lack of a reasonable and articulate Black male viewpoint on +these questions is not the responsibility of Black women. We have +too often been expected to be all things to all people and speak +everyone else’s position but our very own. Black men are not so +passive that they must have Black women speak for them. Even my +fourteen-year-old son knows that. Black men themselves must +examine and articulate their own desires and positions and stand by +the conclusions thereof. No point is served by a Black male +professional who merely whines at the absence of his viewpoint in +Black women’s work. Oppressors always expect the oppressed to +extend to them the understanding so lacking in themselves. +For Staples to suggest, for instance, that Black men leave their +families as a form of male protest against female decision making in +the home is in direct contradiction to his own observations in “The +Myth of the Black Matriarchy.”* + + Now I am sure there are still some Black men who marry white +women because they feel a white woman can better fit the model of +“femininity” set forth in this country. But for Staples to justify that +act using the reason it occurs, and take Black women to task for it, +is not only another error in reasoning; it is like justifying the actions +of a lemming who follows its companions over the cliff to sure +death. Because it happens does not mean it should happen, nor that +it is functional for the well-being of the individual nor the group. +It is not the destiny of Black america to repeat white america’s +mistakes. But we will, if we mistake the trappings of success in a +sick society for the signs of a meaningful life. If Black men continue +to define “femininity” instead of their own desires, and to do it in +archaic european terms, they restrict our access to each other’s +energies. Freedom and future for Blacks does not mean absorbing +the dominant white male disease of sexism. +As Black women and men, we cannot hope to begin dialogue by +denying the oppressive nature of male privilege. And if Black males +choose to assume that privilege for whatever reason — raping, +brutalizing, and killing Black women — then ignoring these acts of +Black male oppression within our communities can only serve our +destroyers. One oppression does not justify another. +It has been said that Black men cannot be denied their personal +choice of the woman who meets their need to dominate. In that +case, Black women also cannot be denied our personal choices, and +those choices are becomingly increasingly self-assertive and femaleoriented. +As a people, we most certainly must work together. It would be +shortsighted to believe that Black men alone are to blame for the +above situations in a society dominated by white male privilege. But +the Black male consciousness must be raised to the realization that +sexism and woman-hating are critically dysfunctional to his +liberation as a Black man because they arise out of the same +constellation that engenders racism and homophobia. Until that +consciousness is developed, Black men will view sexism and the +destruction of Black women as tangential to Black liberation rather +than as central to that struggle. So long as this occurs, we will never + + be able to embark upon that dialogue between Black women and +Black men that is so essential to our survival as a people. This +continued blindness between us can only serve the oppressive +system within which we live. +Men avoid women’s observations by accusing us of being too +“visceral.” But no amount of understanding the roots of Black +woman-hating will bring back Patricia Cowan, nor mute her +family’s loss. Pain is very visceral, particularly to the people who +are hurting. As the poet Mary McAnally said, “Pain teaches us to +take our fingers OUT the fucking fire.”* +If the problems of Black women are only derivatives of a larger +contradiction between capital and labor, then so is racism, and both +must be fought by all of us. The capitalist structure is a manyheaded monster. I might add here that in no socialist country that I +have visited have I found an absence of racism or of sexism, so the +eradication of both of these diseases seems to involve more than the +abolition of capitalism as an institution. +No reasonable Black man can possibly condone the rape and +slaughter of Black women by Black men as a fitting response to +capitalist oppression. And destruction of Black women by Black men +clearly cuts across all class lines. +Whatever the “structural underpinnings” (Staples) for sexism in +the Black community may be, it is obviously Black women who are +bearing the brunt of that sexism, and so it is in our best interest to +abolish it. We invite our Black brothers to join us, since ultimately +that abolition is in their best interests also. For Black men are also +diminished by a sexism which robs them of meaningful connections +to Black women and our struggles. Since it is Black women who are +being abused, however, and since it is our female blood that is being +shed, it is for Black women to decide whether or not sexism in the +Black community is pathological. And we do not approach that +discussion theoretically. Those “creative relationships” which +Staples speaks about within the Black community are almost +invariably those which operate to the benefit of Black males, given +the Black male/female ratio and the implied power balance within a +supply and demand situation. Polygamy is seen as “creative,” but a + + lesbian relationship is not. This is much the same as how the +“creative relationships” between master and slave were always those +benefiting the master. +The results of woman-hating in the Black community are +tragedies which diminish all Black people. These acts must be seen +in the context of a systematic devaluation of Black women within +this society. It is within this context that we become approved and +acceptable targets for Black male rage, so acceptable that even a +Black male social scientist condones and excuses this +depersonalizing abuse. +This abuse is no longer acceptable to Black women in the name of +solidarity, nor of Black liberation. Any dialogue between Black +women and Black men must begin there, no matter where it ends. +* First published as “The Great American Disease” in The Black Scholar, vol. 10, no. 9 + +(May-June 1979) in response to “The Myth of Black Macho: A Response to Angry Black +Feminists” by Robert Staples in The Black Scholar, vol. 10, no. 8 (March-April 1979). + +* “The Myth of the Black Matriarchy” by Robert Staples in The Black Scholar, vol. 1, no. + +3–4 (January-February 1970). + +* From We Will Make A River, poems by Mary McAnnally (West End Press, Cambridge, + +Massachusetts, 1979), p. 27. + + An Open Letter to Mary Daly +The following letter was written to Mary Daly, author of +Gyn/Ecology,* on May 6, 1979. Four months later, having +received no reply, I open it to the community of women. +DEAR MARY, +With a moment of space in this wild and bloody spring,** I want +to speak the words I have had in mind for you. I had hoped that our +paths might cross and we could sit down together and talk, but this +has not happened. +I wish you strength and satisfaction in your eventual victory over +the repressive forces of the University in Boston. I am glad so many +women attended the speak-out, and hope that this show of joined +power will make more space for you to grow and be within. +Thank you for having Gyn/Ecology sent to me. So much of it is full +of import, useful, generative, and provoking. As in Beyond God The +Father, many of your analyses are strengthening and helpful to me. +Therefore, it is because of what you have given to me in the past +work that I write this letter to you now, hoping to share with you +the benefits of my insights as you have shared the benefits of yours +with me. +This letter has been delayed because of my grave reluctance to +reach out to you, for what I want us to chew upon here is neither +easy nor simple. The history of white women who are unable to +hear Black women’s words, or to maintain dialogue with us, is long +and discouraging. But for me to assume that you will not hear me +represents not only history, perhaps, but an old pattern of relating, +sometimes protective and sometimes dysfunctional, which we, as +women shaping our future, are in the process of shattering and +passing beyond, I hope. +I believe in your good faith toward all women, in your vision of a +future within which we can all flourish, and in your commitment to + + the hard and often painful work necessary to effect change. In this +spirit I invite you to a joint clarification of some of the differences +which lie between us as a Black and a white woman. +When I started reading Gyn/Ecology, I was truly excited by the +vision behind your words and nodded my head as you spoke in your +First Passage of myth and mystification. Your words on the nature +and function of the Goddess, as well as the ways in which her face +has been obscured, agreed with what I myself have discovered in +my searches through African myth/legend/religion for the true +nature of old female power. +So I wondered, why doesn’t Mary deal with Afrekete as an +example? Why are her goddess images only white, western +european, judeo-christian? Where was Afrekete, Yemanje, Oyo, and +Mawulisa? Where were the warrior goddesses of the Vodun, the +Dahomeian Amazons and the warrior-women of Dan? Well, I +thought, Mary has made a conscious decision to narrow her scope +and to deal only with the ecology of western european women. +Then I came to the first three chapters of your Second Passage, +and it was obvious that you were dealing with noneuropean women, +but only as victims and preyers-upon each other. I began to feel my +history and my mythic background distorted by the absence of any +images of my foremothers in power. Your inclusion of African +genital mutilation was an important and necessary piece in any +consideration of female ecology, and too little has been written +about it. To imply, however, that all women suffer the same +oppression simply because we are women is to lose sight of the +many varied tools of patriarchy. It is to ignore how those tools are +used by women without awareness against each other. +To dismiss our Black foremothers may well be to dismiss where +european women learned to love. As an African-american woman in +white patriarchy, I am used to having my archetypal experience +distorted and trivialized, but it is terribly painful to feel it being +done by a woman whose knowledge so much touches my own. +When I speak of knowledge, as you know, I am speaking of that +dark and true depth which understanding serves, waits upon, and + + makes accessible through language to ourselves and others. It is this +depth within each of us that nurtures vision. +What you excluded from Gyn/Ecology dismissed my heritage and +the heritage of all other noneuropean women, and denied the real +connections that exist between all of us. +It is obvious that you have done a tremendous amount of work for +this book. But simply because so little material on non-white female +power and symbol exists in white women’s words from a radical +feminist perspective, to exclude this aspect of connection from even +comment in your work is to deny the fountain of noneuropean +female strength and power that nurtures each of our visions. It is to +make a point by choice. +Then, to realize that the only quotations from Black women’s +words were the ones you used to introduce your chapter on African +genital mutilation made me question why you needed to use them at +all. For my part, I felt that you had in fact misused my words, +utilized them only to testify against myself as a woman of Color. For +my words which you used were no more, nor less, illustrative of this +chapter than “Poetry Is Not a Luxury” or any number of my other +poems might have been of many other parts of Gyn/Ecology. +So the question arises in my mind, Mary, do you ever really read +the work of Black women? Did you ever read my words, or did you +merely finger through them for quotations which you thought might +valuably support an already conceived idea concerning some old +and distorted connection between us? This is not a rhetorical +question. +To me, this feels like another instance of the knowledge, croneology and work of women of Color being ghettoized by a white +woman dealing only out of a patriarchal western european frame of +reference. Even your words on page 49 of Gyn/Ecology, “The +strength which Self-centering women find, in finding our +Background, is our own strength, which we give back to our Selves,” +have a different ring as we remember the old traditions of power +and strength and nurturance found in the female bonding of African +women. It is there to be tapped by all women who do not fear the +revelation of connection to themselves. + + Have you read my work, and the work of other Black women, for +what it could give you? Or did you hunt through only to find words +that would legitimize your chapter on African genital mutilation in +the eyes of other Black women? And if so, then why not use our +words to legitimize or illustrate the other places where we connect +in our being and becoming? If, on the other hand, it was not Black +women you were attempting to reach, in what way did our words +illustrate your point for white women? +Mary, I ask that you be aware of how this serves the destructive +forces of racism and separation between women — the assumption +that the herstory and myth of white women is the legitimate and +sole herstory and myth of all women to call upon for power and +background, and that nonwhite women and our herstories are +noteworthy only as decorations, or examples of female +victimization. I ask that you be aware of the effect that this +dismissal has upon the community of Black women and other +women of Color, and how it devalues your own words. This +dismissal does not essentially differ from the specialized +devaluations that make Black women prey, for instance, to the +murders even now happening in your own city. When patriarchy +dismisses us, it encourages our murderers. When radical lesbian +feminist theory dismisses us, it encourages its own demise. +This dismissal stands as a real block to communication between +us. This block makes it far easier to turn away from you completely +than to attempt to understand the thinking behind your choices. +Should the next step be war between us, or separation? Assimilation +within a solely western european herstory is not acceptable. +Mary, I ask that you re-member what is dark and ancient and +divine within yourself that aids your speaking. As outsiders, we +need each other for support and connection and all the other +necessities of living on the borders. But in order to come together +we must recognize each other. Yet I feel that since you have so +completely un-recognized me, perhaps I have been in error +concerning you and no longer recognize you. +I feel you do celebrate differences between white women as a +creative force toward change, rather than a reason for + + misunderstanding and separation. But you fail to recognize that, as +women, those differences expose all women to various forms and +degrees of patriarchal oppression, some of which we share and some +of which we do not. For instance, surely you know that for nonwhite +women in this country, there is an 80 percent fatality rate from +breast cancer; three times the number of unnecessary eventrations, +hysterectomies and sterilizations as for white women; three times as +many chances of being raped, murdered, or assaulted as exist for +white women. These are statistical facts, not coincidences nor +paranoid fantasies. +Within the community of women, racism is a reality force in my +life as it is not in yours. The white women with hoods on in Ohio +handing out KKK literature on the street may not like what you have +to say, but they will shoot me on sight. (If you and I were to walk +into a classroom of women in Dismal Gulch, Alabama, where the +only thing they knew about each of us was that we were both +Lesbian/Radical/Feminist, you would see exactly what I mean.) +The oppression of women knows no ethnic nor racial boundaries, +true, but that does not mean it is identical within those differences. +Nor do the reservoirs of our ancient power know these boundaries. +To deal with one without even alluding to the other is to distort our +commonality as well as our difference. +For then beyond sisterhood is still racism. +We first met at the MLA panel, “The Transformation of Silence +Into Language and Action.” This letter attempts to break a silence +which I had imposed upon myself shortly before that date. I had +decided never again to speak to white women about racism. I felt it +was wasted energy because of destructive guilt and defensiveness, +and because whatever I had to say might better be said by white +women to one another at far less emotional cost to the speaker, and +probably with a better hearing. But I would like not to destroy you +in my consciousness, not to have to. So as a sister Hag, I ask you to +speak to my perceptions. +Whether or not you do, Mary, again I thank you for what I have +learned from you. +This letter is in repayment. + + In the hands of Afrekete, +Audre Lorde +* Gyn/Ecology: The Metaethics of Radical Feminism (Beacon Press, Boston, 1978). +** In the spring of 1979, twelve Black women were murdered in the Boston area. + + Man Child: A Black Lesbian Feminist’s Response* +THIS ARTICLE IS NOT a theoretical discussion of Lesbian Mothers and +their Sons, nor a how-to article. It is an attempt to scrutinize and +share some pieces of that common history belonging to my son and +to me. I have two children: a fifteen-and-a-half-year-old daughter +Beth, and a fourteen-year-old son Jonathan. This is the way it +was/is with me and Jonathan, and I leave the theory to another +time and person. This is one woman’s telling. +I have no golden message about the raising of sons for other +lesbian mothers, no secret to transpose your questions into certain +light. I have my own ways of rewording those same questions, +hoping we will all come to speak those questions and pieces of our +lives we need to share. We are women making contact within +ourselves and with each other across the restrictions of a printed +page, bent upon the use of our own/one another’s knowledges. +The truest direction comes from inside. I give the most strength to +my children by being willing to look within myself, and by being +honest with them about what I find there, without expecting a +response beyond their years. In this way they begin to learn to look +beyond their own fears. +All our children are outriders for a queendom not yet assured. +My adolescent son’s growing sexuality is a conscious dynamic +between Jonathan and me. It would be presumptuous of me to +discuss Jonathan’s sexuality here, except to state my belief that +whomever he chooses to explore this area with, his choices will be +nonoppressive, joyful, and deeply felt from within, places of growth. +One of the difficulties in writing this piece has been temporal; this +is the summer when Jonathan is becoming a man, physically. And +our sons must become men — such men as we hope our daughters, +born and unborn, will be pleased to live among. Our sons will not +grow into women. Their way is more difficult than that of our + + daughters, for they must move away from us, without us. Hopefully, +our sons have what they have learned from us, and a howness to +forge it into their own image. +Our daughters have us, for measure or rebellion or outline or +dream; but the sons of lesbians have to make their own definitions +of self as men. This is both power and vulnerability. The sons of +lesbians have the advantage of our blueprints for survival, but they +must take what we know and transpose it into their own maleness. +May the goddess be kind to my son, Jonathan. +Recently I have met young Black men about whom I am pleased +to say that their future and their visions, as well as their concerns +within the present, intersect more closely with Jonathan’s than do +my own. I have shared vision with these men as well as temporal +strategies for our survivals and I appreciate the spaces in which we +could sit down together. Some of these men I met at the First +Annual Conference of Third World Lesbians and Gays held in +Washington D.C. in October, 1979. I have met others in different +places and do not know how they identify themselves sexually. +Some of these men are raising families alone. Some have adopted +sons. They are Black men who dream and who act and who own +their feelings, questioning. It is heartening to know our sons do not +step out alone. +When Jonathan makes me angriest, I always say he is bringing +out the testosterone in me. What I mean is that he is representing +some piece of myself as a woman that I am reluctant to +acknowledge or explore. For instance, what does “acting like a man” +mean? For me, what I reject? For Jonathan, what he is trying to +redefine? +Raising Black children — female and male — in the mouth of a +racist, sexist, suicidal dragon is perilous and chancy. If they cannot +love and resist at the same time, they will probably not survive. And +in order to survive they must let go. This is what mothers teach — +love, survival — that is, self-definition and letting go. For each of +these, the ability to feel strongly and to recognize those feelings is +central: how to feel love, how to neither discount fear nor be +overwhelmed by it, how to enjoy feeling deeply. + + I wish to raise a Black man who will not be destroyed by, nor +settle for, those corruptions called power by the white fathers who +mean his destruction as surely as they mean mine. I wish to raise a +Black man who will recognize that the legitimate objects of his +hostility are not women, but the particulars of a structure that +programs him to fear and despise women as well as his own Black +self. +For me, this task begins with teaching my son that I do not exist +to do his feeling for him. +Men who are afraid to feel must keep women around to do their +feeling for them while dismissing us for the same supposedly +“inferior” capacity to feel deeply. But in this way also, men deny +themselves their own essential humanity, becoming trapped in +dependency and fear. +As a Black woman committed to a liveable future, and as a +mother loving and raising a boy who will become a man, I must +examine all my possibilities of being within such a destructive +system. +Jonathan was three-and-one-half when Frances, my lover, and I +met; he was seven when we all began to live together permanently. +From the start, Frances’ and my insistence that there be no secrets +in our household about the fact that we were lesbians has been the +source of problems and strengths for both children. In the +beginning, this insistence grew out of the knowledge, on both our +parts, that whatever was hidden out of fear could always be used +either against the children or ourselves — one imperfect but useful +argument for honesty. The knowledge of fear can help make us free. +for the embattled +there is no place +that cannot be +home +nor is.* + + For survival, Black children in america must be raised to be +warriors. For survival, they must also be raised to recognize the +enemy’s many faces. Black children of lesbian couples have an +advantage because they learn, very early, that oppression comes in +many different forms, none of which have anything to do with their +own worth. +To help give me perspective, I remember that for years, in the +namecalling at school, boys shouted at Jonathan not — “your +mother’s a lesbian” — but rather — “your mother’s a nigger.” +When Jonathan was eight years old and in the third grade we +moved, and he went to a new school where his life was hellish as a +new boy on the block. He did not like to play rough games. He did +not like to fight. He did not like to stone dogs. And all this marked +him early on as an easy target. +When he came in crying one afternoon, I heard from Beth how +the corner bullies were making Johathan wipe their shoes on the +way home whenever Beth wasn’t there to fight them off. And when +I heard that the ringleader was a little boy in Jonathan’s class his +own size, an interesting and very disturbing thing happened to me. +My fury at my own long-ago impotence, and my present pain at +his suffering, made me start to forget all that I knew about violence +and fear, and blaming the victim, I started to hiss at the weeping +child. “The next time you come in here crying …,” and I suddenly +caught myself in horror. +This is the way we allow the destruction of our sons to begin — in +the name of protection and to ease our own pain. My son get beaten +up? I was about to demand that he buy that first lesson in the +corruption of power, that might makes right. I could hear myself +beginning to perpetuate the age-old distortions about what strength +and bravery really are. +And no, Jonathan didn’t have to fight if he didn’t want to, but +somehow he did have to feel better about not fighting. An old +horror rolled over me of being the fat kid who ran away, terrified of +getting her glasses broken. +About that time a very wise woman said to me, “Have you ever +told Jonathan that once you used to be afraid, too?” + + The idea seemed far-out to me at the time, but the next time he +came in crying and sweaty from having run away again, I could see +that he felt shamed at having failed me, or some image he and I had +created in his head of mother/woman. This image of woman being +able to handle it all was bolstered by the fact that he lived in a +household with three strong women, his lesbian parents and his +forthright older sister. At home, for Jonathan, power was clearly +female. +And because our society teaches us to think in an either/or mode +— kill or be killed, dominate or be dominated — this meant that he +must either surpass or be lacking. I could see the implications of this +line of thought. Consider the two western classic myth/models of +mother/son relationships: Jocasta/Oedipus, the son who fucks his +mother, and Clytemnestra/Orestes, the son who kills his mother. +It all felt connected to me. +I sat down on the hallway steps and took Jonathan on my lap and +wiped his tears. “Did I ever tell you about how I used to be afraid +when I was your age?” +I will never forget the look on that little boy’s face as I told him +the tale of my glasses and my after-school fights. It was a look of +relief and total disbelief, all rolled into one. +It is as hard for our children to believe that we are not +omnipotent as it is for us to know it, as parents. But that knowledge +is necessary as the first step in the reassessment of power as +something other than might, age, privilege, or the lack of fear. It is +an important step for a boy, whose societal destruction begins when +he is forced to believe that he can only be strong if he doesn’t feel, +or if he wins. +I thought about all this one year later when Beth and Jonathan, +ten and nine, were asked by an interviewer how they thought they +had been affected by being children of a feminist. +Jonathan said that he didn’t think there was too much in +feminism for boys, although it certainly was good to be able to cry if +he felt like it and not to have to play football if he didn’t want to. I +think of this sometimes now when I see him practising for his Brown +Belt in Tae Kwon Do. + + The strongest lesson I can teach my son is the same lesson I teach +my daughter: how to be who he wishes to be for himself. And the +best way I can do this is to be who I am and hope that he will learn +from this not how to be me, which is not possible, but how to be +himself. And this means how to move to that voice from within +himself, rather than to those raucous, persuasive, or threatening +voices from outside, pressuring him to be what the world wants him +to be. +And that is hard enough. +Jonathan is learning to find within himself some of the different +faces of courage and strength, whatever he chooses to call them. +Two years ago, when Jonathan was twelve and in the seventh grade, +one of his friends at school who had been to the house persisted in +calling Frances “the maid.” When Jonathan corrected him, the boy +then referred to her as “the cleaning woman.” Finally Jonathan said, +simply, “Frances is not the cleaning woman, she’s my mother’s +lover.” Interestingly enough, it is the teachers at this school who +still have not recovered from his openness. +Frances and I were considering attending a Lesbian/Feminist +conference this summer, when we were notified that no boys over +ten were allowed. This presented logistic as well as philosophical +problems for us, and we sent the following letter: +Sisters: +Ten years as an interracial lesbian couple has taught us +both the dangers of an oversimplified approach to the +nature and solutions of any oppression, as well as the danger +inherent in an incomplete vision. +Our thirteen-year-old son represents as much hope for our +future world as does our fifteen-year-old daughter, and we +are not willing to abandon him to the killing streets of New +York City while we journey west to help form a LesbianFeminist vision of the future world in which we can all +survive and flourish. I hope we can continue this dialogue in + + the near future, as I feel it is important to our vision and our +survival. +The question of separatism is by no means simple. I am thankful +that one of my children is male, since that helps to keep me honest. +Every line I write shrieks there are no easy solutions. +I grew up in largely female environments, and I know how crucial +that has been to my own development. I feel the want and need +often for the society of women, exclusively. I recognize that our own +spaces are essential for developing and recharging. +As a Black woman, I find it necessary to withdraw into all-Black +groups at times for exactly the same reasons — differences in stages +of development and differences in levels of interaction. Frequently, +when speaking with men and white women, I am reminded of how +difficult and time-consuming it is to have to reinvent the pencil +every time you want to send a message. +But this does not mean that my responsibility for my son’s +education stops at age ten, any more than it does for my daughter’s. +However, for each of them, that responsibility does grow less and +less as they become more woman and man. +Both Beth and Jonathan need to know what they can share and +what they cannot, how they are joined and how they are not. And +Frances and I, as grown women and lesbians coming more and more +into our power, need to relearn the experience that difference does +not have to be threatening. +When I envision the future, I think of the world I crave for my +daughters and my sons. It is thinking for survival of the species — +thinking for life. +Most likely there will always be women who move with women, +women who live with men, men who choose men. I work for a time +when women with women, women with men, men with men, all +share the work of a world that does not barter bread or self for +obedience, nor beauty, nor love. And in that world we will raise our +children free to choose how best to fulfill themselves. For we are +jointly responsible for the care and raising of the young, since that +they be raised is a function, ultimately, of the species. + + Within that tripartite pattern of relating/existence, the raising of +the young will be the joint responsibility of all adults who choose to +be associated with children. Obviously, the children raised within +each of these three relationships will be different, lending a special +savor to that eternal inquiry into how best can we live our lives. +Jonathan was three-and-a-half when Frances and I met. He is now +fourteen years old. I feel the living perspective that having lesbian +parents has brought to Jonathan is a valuable addition to his human +sensitivity. +Jonathan has had the advantage of growing up within a nonsexist +relationship, one in which this society’s pseudo-natural assumptions +of ruler/ruled are being challenged. And this is not only because +Frances and I are lesbians, for unfortunately there are some lesbians +who are still locked into patriarchal patterns of unequal power +relationships. +These assumptions of power relationships are being questioned +because Frances and I, often painfully and with varying degrees of +success, attempt to evaluate and measure over and over again our +feelings concerning power, our own and others’. And we explore +with care those areas concerning how it is used and expressed +between us and between us and the children, openly and otherwise. +A good part of our biweekly family meetings are devoted to this +exploration. +As parents, Frances and I have given Jonathan our love, our +openness, and our dreams to help form his visions. Most +importantly, as the son of lesbians, he has had an invaluable model +— not only of a relationship — but of relating. +Jonathan is fourteen now. In talking over this paper with him and +asking his permission to share some pieces of his life, I asked +Jonathan what he felt were the strongest negative and the strongest +positive aspects for him in having grown up with lesbian parents. +He said the strongest benefit he felt he had gained was that he +knew a lot more about people than most other kids his age that he +knew, and that he did not have a lot of the hang-ups that some +other boys did about men and women. + + And the most negative aspect he felt, Jonathan said, was the +ridicule he got from some kids with straight parents. +“You mean, from your peers?” I said. +“Oh no,” he answered promptly. “My peers know better. I mean +other kids.” +* First published in Conditions: Four (1979). +* From “School Note” in The Black Unicom (W.W. Norton and Company, New York, + +1978), p. 55. + + An Interview: Audre Lorde and Adrienne Rich* +Adrienne: What do you mean when you say that two essays, +“Poetry Is Not a Luxury” and “Uses of the Erotic” are really +progressions? +Andre: They’re part of something that’s not finished yet. I don’t +know what the rest of it is, but they’re clear progressions in feeling +out something connected with the first piece of prose I ever wrote. +One thread in my life is the battle to preserve my perceptions — +pleasant or unpleasant, painful or whatever … +Adrienne: And however much they were denied. +Audre: And however painful some of them were. When I think of +the way in which I courted punishment, just swam into it: “If this is +the only way you’re going to deal with me, you’re gonna have to +deal with me this way.” +Adrienne: You’re talking about as a young child? +Audre: I’m talking about throughout my life. I kept myself +through feeling. I lived through it. And at such a subterranean level +that I didn’t know how to talk. I was busy feeling out other ways of +getting and giving information and whatever else I could because +talking wasn’t where it was at. People were talking all around me +all the time — and not either getting or giving much that was useful +to them or to me. +Adrienne: And not listening to what you tried to say, if you did +speak. +Audre: When you asked how I began writing, I told you how +poetry functioned specifically for me from the time I was very +young. When someone said to me, “How do you feel?” or “What do +you think?” or asked another direct question, I would recite a poem, +and somewhere in that poem would be the feeling, the vital piece of +information. It might be a line. It might be an image. The poem was +my response. + + Adrienne; Like a translation into this poem that already existed of +something you knew in a preverbal way. So the poem became your +language? +Audre: Yes. I remember reading in the children’s room of the +library, I couldn’t have been past the second or third grade, but I +remember the book. It was illustrated by Arthur Rackham, a book of +poems. These were old books; the library in Harlem used to get the +oldest books, in the worst condition. Walter de la Mare’s “The +Listeners” — I will never forget that poem. +Adrienne: Where the traveler rides up to the door of the empty +house? +Audre: That’s right. He knocks at the door and nobody answers. +“ ‘Is there anybody there?’ he said.” That poem imprinted itself on +me. And finally, he’s beating down the door and nobody answers, +and he has a feeling that there really is somebody in there. Then he +turns his horse and says, “ ‘Tell them I came, and nobody answered. +That I kept my word.’ ” I used to recite that poem to myself all the +time. It was one of my favorites. And if you’d asked me, “What is it +about?” I don’t think I could have told you. But this was the first +reason for my own writing, my need to say things I couldn’t say +otherwise when I couldn’t find other poems to serve. +Adrienne: You had to make your own. +Audre: There were so many complex emotions for which poems +did not exist. I had to find a secret way to express my feelings. I +used to memorize my poems. I would say them out; I didn’t use to +write them down. I had this long fund of poetry in my head. And I +remember trying when I was in high school not to think in poems. I +saw the way other people thought, and it was an amazement to me +— step by step, not in bubbles up from chaos that you had to anchor +with words … I really do believe I learned this from my mother. +Adrienne: Learned what from your mother? +Andre: The important value of nonverbal communication, beneath +language. My life depended on it. At the same time, living in the +world, I didn’t want to have anything to do with the way she was +using language. My mother had a strange way with words: if one +didn’t serve her or wasn’t strong enough, she’d just make up + + another word, and then that would enter our family language +forever, and woe betide any of us who forgot it. But I think I got +another message from her … that there was a whole powerful world +of nonverbal communication and contact between people that was +absolutely essential and that was what you had to learn to decipher +and use. One of the reasons I had so much trouble growing up was +that my parents, my mother in particular, always expected me to +know what she was feeling and what she expected me to do without +telling me. And I thought this was natural. My mother would expect +me to know things, whether or not she spoke them … +Adrienne: Ignorance of the law was no excuse. +Audre: That’s right. It’s very confusing. But eventually I learned +how to acquire vital and protective information without words. My +mother used to say to me, “Don’t just listen like a ninny to what +people say in their mouth.” But then she’d proceed to say something +that didn’t feel right to me. You always learned from observing. You +have to pick things up nonverbally because people will never tell +you what you’re supposed to know. You have to get it for yourself, +whatever it is that you need in order to survive. And if you make a +mistake you get punished for it, but that’s no big thing. You become +strong by doing the things you need to be strong for. This is the way +genuine learning takes place. That’s a very difficult way to live, but +it also has served me. It’s been an asset as well as a liability. When I +went to high school, I found out that people really thought in +different ways — perceived, puzzled out, acquired information +verbally. I had such a hard time. I never studied; I literally intuited +all my teachers. That’s why it was so important to get a teacher who +I liked because I never studied, I never read my assignment, and I +would get all this stuff — what they felt, what they knew — but I +missed a lot of other stuff, a lot of my own original workings. +Adrienne: When you said you never read, you meant you never +read the assignments, but you were reading? +Audre: If I read things that were assigned, I didn’t read them the +way we were supposed to. Everything was like a poem, with +different curves, different levels. So I always felt that the ways I + + took things in were different from the ways other people took them +in. I used to practice trying to think. +Adrienne: That thing those other people presumably did. Do you +remember what that was like? +Andre: Yes. I had an image of trying to reach something around a +corner, that it was just eluding me. The image was constantly +vanishing. There was an experience I had in Mexico, when I moved +to Cuernavaca … +Adrienne: This was when you were about how old? +Andre: I was nineteen. I was commuting to Mexico City for +classes. In order to get to my early class I would catch a six o’clock +turismo in the village plaza. I would come out of my house before +dawn. You know, there are two volcanoes, Popocatepetl and +Ixtacuhuatl. I thought they were clouds the first time I saw them +through my windows. It would be dark, and I would see the snow +on top of the mountains and the sun coming up. And when the sun +crested, at a certain point, the birds would start. But because we +were in the valley it would still look like night. But there would be +the light of the snow. And then this incredible crescendo of birds. +One morning I came over the hill and the green, wet smells came +up. And then the birds, the sound of them I’d never really noticed, +never heard birds before. I was walking down the hill and I was +transfixed. It was very beautiful. I hadn’t been writing all the time I +was in Mexico. And poetry was the thing I had with words, that was +so important … And on that hill, I had the first intimation that I +could bring those two together. I could infuse words directly with +what I was feeling. I didn’t have to create the world I wrote about. I +realized that words could tell. That there was such a thing as an +emotional sentence. Until then, I would make these constructs and +somewhere in there would be a nugget, like a Chinese bun, a piece +of nourishment, the thing I really needed, which I had to create. +There on that hill, I was filled with the smell and feeling and the +way it looked, filled with such beauty that I could not believe … I +had always fantasized it before. I used to fantasize trees and dream +forest. Until I got spectacles when I was four I thought trees were +green clouds. When I read Shakespeare in high school, I would get + + off on his gardens and Spanish moss and roses and trellises with +beautiful women at rest and sun on red brick. When I was in Mexico +I found out this could be a reality. And I learned that day on the +mountain that words can match that, re-create it. +Adrienne: Do you think that in Mexico you were seeing a reality as +extraordinary and vivid and sensual as you had been fantasizing it +could be? +Audre: I think so. I had always thought I had to do it in my head, +make it up. I learned in Mexico that you can’t even make it up +unless it happens, or can happen. Where it happened first for me I +don’t know; I do remember stories my mother would tell us about +Grenada in the West Indies, where she was born … But that +morning in Mexico I realized I did not have to make beauty up for +the rest of my life. I remember trying to tell Eudora about this +epiphany, and I didn’t have the words for it. And I remember her +saying, “Write a poem.” When I tried to write a poem about the way +I felt that morning, I could not do it, and all I had was the memory +that there must be a way. That was incredibly important. I know +that I came back from Mexico very, very different, and much of it +had to do with what I learned from Eudora. But more than that, it +was a kind of releasing of my work, a releasing of myself. +Adrienne: Then you went back to the Lower East Side, right? +Audre: Yes, I went back to living with my friend Ruth, and I began +trying to get a job. I had had a year of college, but I could not +function in those people’s world. So I thought I could be a nurse. +And I was having such a hard time getting any kind of work. I felt, +well, a Practical Nursing license, and then I’ll go back to Mexico … +Adrienne: With my trade. +Audre: But that wasn’t possible either. I didn’t have any money, +and Black women were not given Practical Nursing fellowships. I +didn’t realize it at the time because what they said was that my eyes +were too bad. But the first thing I did when I came back was to +write a piece of prose about Mexico, called “La Llorona.” La Llorona +is a legend in that part of Mexico, around Cuernavaca. You know +Cuernavaca? You know the big barrancas? When the rains come to +the mountains, the boulders rush through the big ravines. The + + sound, the first rush, would start one or two days before the rains +came. All the rocks tumbling down from the mountains made a +voice, and the echoes would resound and it would be a sound of +weeping, with the waters behind it. Modesta, a woman who lived in +the house, told me the legend of La Llorona. A woman had three +sons and found her husband lying in another woman’s bed — it’s +the Medea story — and drowned her sons in the barrancas, drowned +her children. And every year around this time she comes back to +mourn the deaths. I took this story and out of a combination of ways +I was feeling I wrote a story called “La Llorona.” It’s a story +essentially of my mother and me. It was as if I had picked my +mother up and put her in that place: here is this woman who kills, +who wants something, the woman who consumes her children, who +wants too much, but wants not because she’s evil but because she +wants her own life, but by now it is so distorted.… It was a very +strange unfinished story, but the dynamic … +Adrienne: It sounds like you were trying to pull those two pieces +of your life together, your mother and what you’d learned in +Mexico. +Audre: Yes. You see, I didn’t deal at all with how strong my +mother was inside of me, but she was, nor with how involved I was. +But this story is beautiful. Pieces of it are in my head where the +poetry pool is, phrases and so on. I had never written prose before +and I’ve never written any since until just now. I published it under +the name Rey Domini in a magazine … +Adrienne: Why did you use a pseudonym? +Audre: Because … I don’t write stories. I write poetry. So I had to +put it under another name. +Adrienne: Because it was a different piece of you? +Audre: That’s right. I only write poetry and here is this story. But I +used the name Rey Domini, which is Audre Lorde in Latin. +Adrienne: Did you really not write prose from the time of that +story until a couple of years ago, when you wrote “Poetry Is Not a +Luxury”? +Audre: I couldn’t. For some reason, the more poetry I wrote, the +less I felt I could write prose. Someone would ask for a book review, + + or, when I worked at the library, for a precis about books — it +wasn’t that I didn’t have the skills. I knew about sentences by that +time. I knew how to construct a paragraph. But communicating +deep feeling in linear, solid blocks of print felt arcane, a method +beyond me. +Adrienne: But you’d been writing letters like wildfire, hadn’t you? +Audre: Well, I didn’t write letters as such. I wrote stream of +consciousness, and for people who were close enough to me this +would serve. My friends gave me back the letters I wrote them from +Mexico — strange, those are the most formed. I remember feeling I +could not focus on a thought long enough to have it from start to +finish, but I could ponder a poem for days, camp out in its world. +Adrienne: Do you think that was because you still had this idea +that thinking was a mysterious process that other people did and +that you had to sort of practice? That it wasn’t something you just +did? +Audre: It was a very mysterious process for me. And it was one I +had come to suspect because I had seen so many errors committed +in its name, and I had come not to respect it. On the other hand, I +was also afraid of it because there were inescapable conclusions or +convictions I had come to about my own life, my own feelings, that +defied thought. And I wasn’t going to let them go. I wasn’t going to +give them up. They were too precious to me. They were life to me. +But I couldn’t analyze or understand them because they didn’t make +the kind of sense I had been taught to expect through +understanding. There were things I knew and couldn’t say. And I +couldn’t understand them. +Adrienne: In the sense of being able to take them out, analyze +them, defend them? +Audre: … write prose about them. Right. I wrote a lot of those +poems you first knew me by, those poems in The First Cities,* way +back in high school. If you had asked me to talk about one of those +poems, I’d have talked in the most banal way. All I had was the +sense that I had to hold on to these feelings and that I had to air +them in some way. +Adrienne: But they were also being transformed into language. + + Audre: That’s right. When I wrote something that finally had it, I +would say it aloud and it would come alive, become real. It would +start repeating itself and I’d know, that’s struck, that’s true. Like a +bell. Something struck true. And there the words would be. +Adrienne: How do you feel writing connected for you with +teaching? +Audre: I know teaching is a survival technique. It is for me and I +think it is in general; the only way real learning happens. Because I +myself was learning something I needed to continue living. And I +was examining it and teaching it at the same time I was learning it. I +was teaching it to myself aloud. And it started out at Tougaloo in a +poetry workshop. +Adrienne: You were ill when you were called to go down to +Tougaloo? +Audre: Yes, I felt … I had almost died. +Adrienne: What was going on? +Audre: Diane di Prima — that was 1967 — had started the Poets +Press. And she said, “You know, it’s time you had a book.” And I +said, “Well, who’s going to print it?” I was going to put those poems +away because I found I was revising too much instead of writing +new poems, and that’s how I found out, again through experience, +that poetry is not Play-Doh. You can’t take a poem and keep reforming it. It is itself, and you have to know how to cut it, and if +there’s something else you want to say, that’s fine. But I was +repolishing and repolishing, and Diane said, “You have to print +these. Put ’em out.” And the Poets Press published The First Cities. +Well, I worked on that book, getting it together, and it was going +into press … I had gotten the proofs back and I started repolishing +again and realized, “This is going to be a book!” Putting myself on +the line. People I don’t even know are going to read these poems. +What’s going to happen? +It felt very critical, and I was in an absolute blaze of activity +because things were so bad at home financially. I went out and got a +job; I was with the two kids in the daytime and worked at the +library at night. Jonathan used to cry every night when I left, and I + + would hear his shrieks going down this long hall to the elevator. I +was working nights, and I’d apprenticed myself to a stained-glass +window-maker, and I was working in my mother’s office, and +making Christmas for my friends, and I became very ill — I had +overdone it. I was too sick to get up, and Ed answered the phone. It +was Galen Williams from the Poetry Center asking if I’d like to go as +poet-in-residence to Tougaloo, a Black college in Mississippi. I’d +been recommended for a grant. It was Ed who said, “You have to do +this.” My energy was at such a low ebb that I couldn’t see how. It +was very frightening to me, the idea of someone responding to me +as a poet. This book, by the way, hadn’t even come out yet, you +understand? +Adrienne: And suddenly you were already being taken seriously by +unseen people out there. +Andre: That’s right. In particular, I was asked to be public; to +speak as, rather than to. But I felt as if I’d come back from the dead +at that point, and so everything was up for grabs. I thought, hey, +very good, let’s see — not because I felt I could do it, I just knew it +was new and different. I was terrified to go south. Then there were +echoes of an old dream: I had wanted to go to Tougaloo years +before. My friend Elaine and I were going to join the Freedom +Riders in Jackson when we left California in 1961 to return to New +York, and Elaine’s mother got down on her knees in San Francisco +and begged us please not to do this, that they would kill us, and we +didn’t do it. So going to Tougaloo in Jackson was part of the +mythic … +Adrienne: But it sounds as if earlier you had been more romantic +about what going south would mean, and six years later, with two +kids and everything that had happened in between in the south … +Audre: I was scared. I thought: “I’m going.” Really, it was the first +thing that countered the fury and pain I felt at leaving that little boy +screaming every night. It was like — all right, if I can walk out and +hear that child screaming in order to go down to the library and +work every night, then I’m gonna be able at least to do something +that I want to find out about. So I went. + + Adrienne: Were you scared at Tougaloo, in terms of teaching, +meeting your first workshop? +Audre: Yes, but it was a nurturing atmosphere. I lived there for +two weeks before I went around really gathering people, and there +were eight students who were already writing poetry. The ways in +which I was on the line in Tougaloo … I began to learn about +courage, I began to learn to talk. This was a small group and we +became very close. I learned so much from listening to people. The +only thing I had was honesty and openness. And it was absolutely +necessary for me to declare, as terrified as I was, as we were +opening to each other, “The father of my children is white.” And +what that meant in Tougaloo to those young Black people then, to +talk about myself openly and deal with their hostility, their sense of +disillusionment, to come past that, was very hard. +Adrienne: It must have been particularly hard since you knew by +then that the marriage was going nowhere. It’s like having to defend +something that was not in itself defensible. +Audre: What I was defending was something that needed defense. +And this moved it out of “I’m defending Ed because I want to live +with him.” It was, “I’m defending this relationship because we have +a right to examine it and try it.” So there’s the northern Black poet +making contact with these young southern Black people who are not +saying, “This is what we need you for,” but were telling me by who +they were what they needed from me. In the poem “Black Studies”* +a lot of that starts coming through. Tougaloo laid the foundation for +that poem, that knowledge born five years later. My students +needed my perception, yet my perception of their need was different +from what they were saying. What they were saying aloud was, “We +need strong Black people,” but what they were also saying was that +their ideas of what strong was had come from our oppressors and +didn’t jibe with their feelings at all. +It was through poetry that we began to deal with these things — +formally. I knew nothing. Adrienne, I had never read a book about +poetry! I picked up one day a book by Karl Shapiro, a little thin +white book. I opened it and something he said made sense. “Poetry +doesn’t sell Cadillacs.” It was the first time I’d ever talked about + + writing; always before I’d listened — part of my being inarticulate, +inscrutable; I didn’t understand in terms of verbalization, and if I +did I was too terrified to speak anyway. But at Tougaloo we talked +about poetry. And I got the first copies of my book there at +Tougaloo. +I had never been in this relationship with Black people before. +Never. There had been a very uneasy dialogue between me and the +Harlem Writers’ Guild where I felt I was tolerated but never really +accepted — that I was both crazy and queer but would grow out of +it all. Johnny Clarke adopted me because he really loved me, and +he’s a kind man. And he taught me wonderful things about Africa. +And he said to me, “You are a poet. You are a poet. I don’t +understand your poetry but you are a poet, you are.” So I would get +this underlining of me. “You’re not doing what you’re supposed to +do, but, yes, you can do it and we totally expect you to. You are a +bright and shining light. You’re off on a lot of wrong turns — +women, the Village, white people, all of this, but you’re young yet. +You’ll find your way.” So I would get these double messages, this +kind of underlining and rejection at the same time. It reduplicated +my family, you see. In my family it was: “You’re a Lorde, so that +makes you special and particular above anybody else in the world. +But you’re not our kind of Lorde, so when are you going to +straighten out and act right?” +Adrienne: And did you feel, there in the Harlem Writers’ Guild, +the same kind of unwritten laws that you had to figure out in order +to do right? +Audre: Yes, I would bring poems to read at the meetings. And +hoping, well, they’re gonna tell me actually what it is they want, +but they never could, never did. +Adrienne: Were there women in that group, older women? +Audre: Rosa Guy was older than I, but she was still very young. I +remember only one other woman, Gertrude McBride. But she came +in and out of the workshop so quickly I never knew her. For the +most part, the men were the core. My friend Jeannie and I were +members but in a slightly different position; we were in high school. + + Adrienne: And so Tougaloo was an entirely different experience of +working with other Black writers. +Audre: When I went to Tougaloo, I didn’t know what to give or +where it was going to come from. I knew I couldn’t give what +regular teachers of poetry give, nor did I want to, because they’d +never served me. I couldn’t give what English teachers give. The +only thing I had to give was me. And I was so involved with these +young people — I really loved them. I knew the emotional life of +each of those students because we would have conferences, and that +became inseparable from their poetry. I would talk to them in the +group about their poetry in terms of what I knew about their lives, +and that there was a real connection between the two that was +inseparable no matter what they’d been taught to the contrary. +I knew by the time I left Tougaloo that teaching was the work I +needed to be doing, that library work — by this time I was head +librarian at the Town School — was not enough. It had been very +satisfying to me. And I had a kind of stature I hadn’t had before in +terms of working. But from the time I went to Tougaloo and did that +workshop, I knew: not only, yes, I am a poet, but also, this is the +kind of work I’m going to do. +Practically all the poems in Cables to Rage* I wrote in Tougaloo. I +was there for six weeks. I came back knowing that my relationship +with Ed was not enough: either we were going to change it or end +it. I didn’t know how to end it because there had never been any +endings for me. But I had met Frances at Tougaloo, and I knew she +was going to be a permanent person in my life. However, I didn’t +know how we were going to work it out. I’d left a piece of my heart +in Tougaloo not just because of Frances but because of what my +students there had taught me. +And I came back, and my students called me and told me — they +were all of them also in the Tougaloo choir — they were coming to +New York to sing in Carnegie Hall with Duke Ellington on April 4, +and I covered it for the Clarion-Ledger, in Jackson, so I was there, +and while we were there Martin Luther King was killed. +Adrienne: On that night? + + Audre: I was with the Tougaloo choir at Carnegie Hall when he +was killed. They were singing “What the World Needs Now Is Love.” +And they interrupted it to tell us that Martin Luther King had been +killed. +Adrienne: What did people do? +Audre: Duke Ellington started to cry. Honeywell, the head of the +choir, said, “The only thing we can do here is finish this as a +memorial.” And they sang again, “What the World Needs Now is +Love.” The kids were crying. The audience was crying. And then the +choir stopped. They cut the rest of it short. But they sang that song +and it kept reverberating. It was more than pain. The horror, the +enormity of what was happening. Not just the death of King, but +what it meant. I have always had the sense of Armageddon and it +was much stronger in those days, the sense of living on the edge of +chaos. Not just personally, but on the world level. That we were +dying, that we were killing our world — that sense had always been +with me. That whatever I was doing, whatever we were doing that +was creative and right, functioned to hold us from going over the +edge. That this was the most we could do while we constructed +some saner future. But that we were in that kind of peril. And here +it was reality, in fact. Some of the poems — “Equinox”* is one of +them — come from then. I knew then that I had to leave the library. +And it was just about this time that Yolanda took my book, The First +Cities, to Mina Shaughnessy* who had been her teacher, and I think +she said to Mina, “Why don’t you have her teach?” — because that’s +the way, you know, Yolanda is. +Adrienne: But also, Mina would have listened to that. +Audre: So Yolanda came home and said, “Hey, the head of the +SEEK** English program wants to meet you. Maybe you can get a +job there.” And I thought, I have to lay myself on the line. It’s not +going back south and being shot at, but when Mina said to me, +“Teach,” it was as threatening as that was. I felt at the time, I don’t +know how I’m gonna do it, but that’s the front line for me. And I +talked to Frances about this, because we’d had the Tougaloo +experience, and I said, “If I could go to war, if I could pick up a gun +to defend the things I believe, yes — but what am I gonna do in a + + classroom?” And Frances said, “You’ll do just what you did at +Tougaloo.” And the first thing that I said to my SEEK students was, +“I’m scared too.” +Adrienne: I know I went in there in terror. But I went in white +terror; you know, now you’re on the line, all your racism is going to +show … +Audre: I went in in Audre terror, Black terror. I thought, I have +responsibility to these students. How am I going to speak to them? +How am I going to tell them what I want from them — literally — +that kind of terror. I did not know how to open my mouth and be +understood. And my commadre, Yolanda, who was also a student in +the SEEK program, said, “I guess you’re just going to have to talk to +them the same way you talk to me because I’m one of them and +you’ve gotten across to me.” I learned every single thing in every +classroom. Every single class I ever walked into was like doing it +anew. Every day, every week. But that was the exciting thing. +Adrienne: Did you teach English 1 — that back-to-back course +where you could be a poet, a writing teacher, and not teach +grammar, and they had an English instructor to teach the grammar? +That was the only way I could have started doing it either. +Audre: I learned to teach grammar. And then I realized that we +can’t separate these two things. We have to do them together +because they’re integral. That’s when I learned how important +grammar is, that part of the understanding process is grammatical. +That’s how I taught myself to write prose. I kept learning and +learning. I’d come into my class and say, “Guess what I found out +last night. Tenses are a way of ordering the chaos around time.” I +learned that grammar was not arbitrary, that it served a purpose, +that it helped to form the ways we thought, that it could be freeing +as well as restrictive. And I sensed again how as children we learn +this, and why. It’s like driving a car: once we know it we can choose +to discard it or use it, but you can’t know if it has useful or +destructive power until you have a handle on it. It’s like fear: once +you put your hand on it, you can use it or push it away. I was saying +these things in class and dealing with what was happening with +Frances and me, what was going on with this insane man I lived + + with who wanted to continue pretending life could be looked at one +way and lived another. All this, every bit of it funneling into that +class. My children were just learning to read in school, and that was +important too because I could watch their processes. Then it got +even heavier when I went up to Lehmann College and was teaching +a class on racism in education, teaching these white students how it +was, the connections between their lives and the fury … +Adrienne: You taught a course on racism for white students at +Lehmann? +Audre: They were inaugurating a program in the Education +Department for these white kids going into teaching in the New +York City schools. Lehmann used to be 99 percent white, and it was +these students coming out of the Education Department who were +going to teach Black children in the city schools. So the course was +called “Race and the Urban Situation.” I had all these white students +wanting to know, “What are we doing? Why are our kids hating us +in the classroom?” I could not believe that they did not know the +most elementary level of interactions. I would say, “When a white +kid says 2 + 2 = 4, you say ‘right.’ In the same class, when a Black +kid stands up and says 2 + 2 = 4, you pat him on the back, you +say, ‘Hey, that’s wonderful.’ But what message are you really +giving? Or what happens when you walk down the street on your +way to teach? When you walk into class? Let’s play act a little.” And +all the fear and loathing of these young white college students +would come pouring out; it had never been addressed. +Adrienne: They must have been mostly women, weren’t they? In +the Education Department? +Audre: Yes, mostly women, and they felt like unwilling sacrifices. +But I began to feel by the end of two terms that there ought to be +somebody white doing this. It was terribly costly emotionally. I +didn’t have more than one or two Black students in my class. One of +them dropped out saying this wasn’t right for him, and I thought, +wait a minute, racism doesn’t just distort white people — what +about us? What about the effects of white racism upon the ways +Black people view each other? Racism internalized? What about +Black teachers going into ghetto schools? And I saw there were + + different problems, that were just as severe, for a Black teacher +going into New York City schools after a racist, sexist education. +Adrienne: You mean in terms of expectations? +Audre: Not just in terms of expectations, but of self-image, in +terms of confusion about loyalties. In terms of identifying with the +oppressor. And I thought, who is going to start to deal with that? +What do you do about it? This was where I wanted to use my +energies. Meanwhile, this is 1969, and I’m thinking, what is my +place in all this? There were two Black women in the class, and I +tried to talk to them about us, as Black women, having to get +together. The Black organizations on the campuses were revving up +for the spring actions. And the women said, “You are insane, our +men need us.” It was a total rejection. “No, we can’t come together +as women. We’re Black.” But I had to keep trying to straighten out +the threads because I knew the minute I stopped trying to straighten +this shit out, it was going to engulf me. So the only hope I had was +to work at it, work on all the threads. My love with Frances, Ed, the +children, teaching Black students, the women. +And in ’69 came the Black and Puerto Rican occupation at City +College. Black students outside of class on the barricades. Yolanda +and I would bring over soup and blankets and see Black women +being fucked on tables and under desks. And while we’d be trying to +speak to them as women, all we’d hear is, “The revolution is here, +right?” Seeing how Black women were being used and abused was +painful — putting those things together. I said, “I want to teach +Black students again.” I went to John Jay College and discussed a +course with the dean on racism and the urban situation, and he said, +“Come teach it.” I taught two courses, that one and another new +course I introduced to the English Department, which approached +remedial writing through creative writing. It was confrontation +teaching. +Adrienne: John Jay was largely a police college, right? +Audre: It had been a police college, but I began in 1970 after open +admissions started, and John Jay was now a four-year senior college +with a regular enrollment as well as an enrollment of City +uniformed personnel. There were no Black teachers in English or + + history. Most of our incoming freshmen were Black or Puerto Rican. +And my demeanor was very unthreatening. +Adrienne: I’ve seen your demeanor at John Jay and it was not +unthreatening, but that was a bit later … +Audre: … and also, I was a Black woman. So then I came in and +started this course and really meant business. And it was very +heavily attended. A lot of Black and white policemen registered for +it. And literally, I used to be terrified about the guns. +Adrienne: They were wearing guns? +Audre: Yes. And since open admissions made college accessible to +all high school graduates, we had cops and kids off the block in the +same class. In 1970, the Black Panthers were being murdered in +Chicago. Here we had Black and white cops, and Black and white +kids off the block. Most of the women were young, Black, together +women who had come to college now because they’d not been able +to get in before. Some of them were SEEK students, but not all, and +this was the one chance for them. A lot of them were older. They +were very streetwise, but they had done very little work with +themselves as Black women. They had done it only in relation to, +against, whitey. The enemy was always outside. I did that course in +the same way I did all the others, which was learning as I went +along, asking the hard questions, not knowing what was coming +next. I wish I had recorded some of it. Like the young white cop in +the class saying, “Yeah, but everybody needs someone to look down +on, don’t they?” By then I’d learned how to talk. Things weren’t all +concise or refined, but enough of it got through to them; their own +processes would start. I came to realize that in one term that is the +most you can do. There are people who can give chunks of +information, perhaps, but that was not what I was about. The +learning process is something you can incite, literally incite, like a +riot. And then, just possibly, hopefully, it goes home, or on. +By that time the battle over the Black Studies Department had +started at John Jay. And again I saw the use and abuse of women, of +Black people, saw how Black studies was being used by the +university in a really cynical fashion. A year later, I returned to the +English Department. I had made a number of enemies. One of the + + attempts to discredit me among Black students was to say I was a +lesbian. Now by this time I would have considered myself +uncloseted, but I had never discussed my own poetry at John Jay, +nor my sexuality. I knew, as I had always known, that the only way +you can head people off from using who you are against you is to be +honest and open first, to talk about yourself before they talk about +you. It wasn’t even courage. Speaking up was a protective +mechanism for myself — like publishing “Love Poem” in Ms. +magazine in 1971 and bringing it in and putting it up on the wall of +the English Department. +Adrienne: I remember hearing you read “Love Poem” on the Upper +West Side, a coffeehouse at 72nd Street. It was the first time I’d +heard you read it. And I think it was about that time, the early +seventies. You read it. It was incredible. Like defiance. It was +glorious. +Audre: That’s how I was feeling, back against the wall, because as +bad as it is now, the idea of open lesbianism in the Black +community was — I mean, we’ve moved miles in a very short time +— totally horrible. My publisher called and literally said he didn’t +understand the words of “Love Poem.” He said, “Now what is this +all about? Are you supposed to be a man?” And he was a poet! And +I said, “No, I’m a loving woman.” +Adrienne: Well, don’t tell me that your publisher had never heard +of lesbians. +Audre: I’m sure he had, but the idea that I’d write a poem … +Adrienne: … That one of his poets in the Broadside Series … +Audre: That’s right. And he was a sensitive man. He was a poet. +Adrienne: But he did print your work. +Audre: Yes, he did. But he didn’t print that poem, the first time +around. “Love Poem” was supposed to have been in From a Land +Where Other People Live. +Adrienne: And it wasn’t published in that book? You took it out? +Audre: Yes. But when you heard me read “Love Poem,” I had +already made up my mind that I wasn’t going to be worrying any +more over who knows and who doesn’t know that I have always +loved women. One thing has always kept me going — and it’s not + + really courage or bravery, unless that’s what courage or bravery is +made of — is a sense that there are so many ways in which I’m +vulnerable and cannot help but be vulnerable, I’m not going to be +more vulnerable by putting weapons of silence in my enemies’ +hands. Being an open lesbian in the Black community is not easy, +although being closeted is even harder. +When a people share a common oppression, certain kinds of skills +and joint defenses are developed. And if you survive you survive +because those skills and defenses have worked. When you come into +conflict over other existing differences, there is a vulnerability to +each other which is desperate and very deep. And that is what +happens between Black men and women because we have certain +weapons we have perfected together that white women and men +have not shared. I said this to someone, and she said, very rightly, +the same thing exists within the Jewish community between Jewish +men and Jewish women. I think the oppression is different, but the +same mechanism of vulnerability exists. When you share a common +oppression you have certain additional weapons against each other +because you’ve forged them in secret together against a common +enemy. It’s a fear that I’m still not free of and that I remember all +the time when I deal with other Black women: the fear of the excomrade. +Adrienne: In “Poetry Is Not a Luxury,” you wrote: “The white +fathers told us, ‘I think, therefore I am,’ and the Black mother +within each of us — the poet — whispers in our dreams, ‘I feel, +therefore I can be free.’ ” I’ve heard it remarked that here you are +simply restating the old stereotype of the rational white male and +the emotional dark female. I believe you were saying something +very different, but could you talk a little about that? +Audre: I have heard that accusation, that I’m contributing to the +stereotype, that I’m saying the province of intelligence and +rationality belongs to the white male. But if you’re traveling a road +that begins nowhere and ends nowhere, the ownership of that road +is meaningless. If you have no land out of which the road comes, no +place that road goes to, geographically, no goal, then the existence + + of that road is totally meaningless. Leaving rationality to the white +man is like leaving him a piece of that road that begins nowhere +and ends nowhere. When I talk about the Black mother in each of +us, the poet, I don’t mean the Black mothers in each of us who are +called poets, I mean the Black mother … +Adrienne: Who is the poet? +Audre: The Black mother who is the poet exists in every one of us. +Now when males or patriarchal thinkers (whether male or female) +reject that combination, then we’re truncated. Rationality is not +unnecessary. It serves the chaos of knowledge. It serves feeling. It +serves to get from this place to that place. But if you don’t honor +those places, then the road is meaningless. Too often, that’s what +happens with the worship of rationality and that circular, academic, +analytic thinking. But ultimately, I don’t see feel/think as a +dichotomy. I see them as a choice of ways and combinations. +Adrienne: Which we are constantly making. We don’t make it once +and for all. We constantly have to be making it, depending on where +we are, over and over. +Audre: But I do think that we have been taught to think, to codify +information in certain old ways, to learn, to understand in certain +ways. The possible shapes of what has not been before exist only in +that back place, where we keep those unnamed, untamed longings +for something different and beyond what is now called possible, and +to which our understanding can only build roads, But we have been +taught to deny those fruitful areas of ourselves. I personally believe +that the Black mother exists more in women; yet she is the name for +a humanity that men are not without. But they have taken a +position against that piece of themselves, and it is a world position, +a position throughout time. And I’ve said this to you before, +Adrienne, I feel that we’re evolving. In terms of a species … +Adrienne: That women are evolving … +Audre: That the human race is evolving through women. That it’s +not by accident that there are more and more women — this sounds +crazy, doesn’t it — women being born, women surviving … and +we’ve got to take that promise of new power seriously, or we’ll +make the same mistakes all over again. Unless we learn the lessons + + of the Black mother in each of us, whether we are Black or not … I +believe this power exists in men also but they choose not to deal +with it; which is, as I learned, their right. Hopefully this choice can +be affected, but I don’t know. I don’t believe this shift from +conquering problems to experiencing life is a one-generational shot +or a single investment. I believe it’s a whole signature which you try +to set in motion and have some input into. But I’m not saying that +women don’t think or analyze. Or that white does not feel. I’m +saying that we must never close our eyes to the terror, to the chaos +which is Black which is creative which is female which is dark +which is rejected which is messy which is … +Adrienne: Sinister … +Audre: Sinister, smelly, erotic, confused, upsetting … +Adrienne: I think we have to keep using and affirming a +vocabulary that has been used negatively and perjoratively. And I +assume that’s the statement you’re making in that sentence, that +you make over and over in your poetry. And it’s nothing as +simplistic as saying “Black is beautiful,” either. +Audre: There’s nothing beautiful about a black machine. You +know, Adrienne, when I was in high school, the editor of the school +magazine said to me, softening her rejection of a poem, “After all, +Audre, you don’t want to be a sensualist poet.” +Adrienne: I was told, as a poet, you’re not supposed to be angry, +you’re not supposed to be personal. +Audre: After I published “Uses of the Erotic,” a number of women +who read it said that this is antifeminist, that the use of the erotic as +a guide is … +Adrienne: Antifeminist? +Audre: Is reducing us once again to the unseen, the unusable. That +in writing it I am returning us to a place of total intuition without +insight. +Adrienne: And yet, in that essay you’re talking about work and +power, about two of the most political things that exist. +Audre: Yes, but what they see is … and I address this at the very +beginning: I try to say that the erotic has been used against us, even +the word itself, so often, that we have been taught to suspect what is + + deepest in ourselves, and that is the way we learn to testify against +ourselves, against our feelings. When we talk in terms of our lives +and our survival as women, we can use our knowledge of the erotic +creatively. The way you get people to testify against themselves is +not to have police tactics and oppressive techniques. What you do is +to build it in so people learn to distrust everything in themselves +that has not been sanctioned, to reject what is most creative in +themselves to begin with, so you don’t even need to stamp it out. A +Black woman devaluating another Black woman’s work. The Black +women buying that hot comb and putting it in my locker at the +library. It wasn’t even Black men; it was Black women testifying +against ourselves. This turning away from the erotic on the part of +some of our best minds, our most creative and analytic women, is +disturbing and destructive. Because we cannot fight old power in +old power terms only. The only way we can do it is by creating +another whole structure that touches every aspect of our existence, +at the same time as we are resisting. +Adrienne: And as you were saying about courses, Black studies, +women’s studies: this is not just a question of being “allowed” to +have our history or literature or theory in the old power framework. +It is every minute of our lives, from our dreams to getting up and +brushing our teeth to when we go to teach … +Audre: There are different choices facing Black and white women +in life, certain specifically different pitfalls surrounding us because +of our experiences, our color. Not only are some of the problems +that face us dissimilar, but some of the entrapments and the +weapons used to neutralize us are not the same. +Adrienne: I wish we could explore this more, about you and me, +but also in general. I think it needs to be talked about, written +about: the differences in alternatives or choices we are offered as +Black and white women. There is a danger of seeing it in an all-ornothing way. I think it is a very complex thing. White women are +constantly offered choices or the appearance of choices. But also +real choices that are undeniable. We don’t always perceive the +difference between the two. + + Audre: Adrienne, in my journals I have a lot of pieces of +conversations that I’m having with you in my head. I’ll be having a +conversation with you and I’ll put it in my journal because +stereotypically or symbolically these conversations occur in a space +of Black woman/white woman where it’s beyond Adrienne and +Audre, almost as if we’re two voices. +Adrienne: You mean the conversations you have in your head and +your journal, or the conversations we’re having on this earth? +Audre: The conversations that exist in my head that I put in the +journal. This piece, I think, is one of them — about the different +pitfalls. I’ve never forgotten the impatience in your voice that time +on the telephone, when you said, “It’s not enough to say to me that +you intuit it.” Do you remember? I will never forget that. Even at +the same time that I understood what you meant, I felt a total +wipeout of my modus, my way of perceiving and formulating. +Adrienne: Yes, but it’s not a wipeout of your modus. Because I +don’t think my modus in unintuitive, right? And one of the crosses +I’ve borne all my life is being told that I’m rational, logical, cool — I +am not cool, and I’m not rational and logical in that icy sense. But +there’s a way in which, trying to translate from your experience to +mine, I do need to hear chapter and verse from time to time. I’m +afraid of it all slipping away into: “Ah, yes, I understand you.” You +remember, that telephone conversation was in connection with the +essay I was writing on feminism and racism. I was trying to say to +you, don’t let’s let this evolve into “You don’t understand me” or “I +can’t understand you” or “Yes, of course we understand each other +because we love each other.” That’s bullshit. So if I ask for +documentation, it’s because I take seriously the spaces between us +that difference has created, that racism has created. There are times +when I simply cannot assume that I know what you know, unless +you show me what you mean. +Audre: But I’m used to associating a request for documentation as +a questioning of my perceptions, an attempt to devalue what I’m in +the process of discovering. +Adrienne: It’s not. Help me to perceive what you perceive. That’s +what I’m trying to say to you. + + Audre: But documentation does not help one perceive. At best it +only analyzes the perception. At worst, it provides a screen by +which to avoid concentrating on the core revelation, following it +down to how it feels. Again, knowledge and understanding. They +can function in concert, but they don’t replace each other. But I’m +not rejecting your need for documentation. +Adrienne: And in fact, I feel you’ve been giving it to me, in your +poems always, and most recently in the long prose piece you’ve +been writing,* and in talks we’ve been having. I don’t feel the +absence of it now. +Audre: Don’t forget I’m a librarian. I became a librarian because I +really believed I would gain tools for ordering and analyzing +information. I couldn’t know everything in the world, but I would +gain tools for learning it. But that was of limited value. I can +document the road to Abomey for you, and true, you might not get +there without that information. I can respect what you’re saying. +But once you get there, only you know why, what you came for, as +you search for it and perhaps find it. +So at certain stages that request for documentation is a blinder, a +questioning of my perceptions. Someone once said to me that I +hadn’t documented the goddess in Africa, the woman bond that +moves throughout The Black Unicorn.* I had to laugh. I’m a poet, not +a historian. I’ve shared my knowledge, I hope. Now you go +document it, if you wish. +I don’t know about you, Adrienne, but I have a difficult enough +time making my perceptions verbal, tapping that deep place, +forming that handle, and documentation at that point is often +useless. Perceptions precede analysis just as visions precede action +or accomplishments. It’s like getting a poem … +That’s the only thing I’ve had to fight with, my whole life, +preserving my perceptions of how things are, and later, learning +how to accept and correct at the same time. Doing this in the face of +tremendous opposition and cruel judgment. And I spent a long time +questioning my perceptions and my interior knowledge, not dealing +with them, being tripped by them. + + Adrienne: Well, I think that there’s another element in all this +between us. Certainly in that particular conversation on the +telephone where I said you have to tell me chapter and verse. I’ve +had great resistance to some of your perceptions. They can be very +painful to me. Perceptions about what goes on between us, what +goes on between Black and white people, what goes on between +Black and white women. So, it’s not that I can just accept your +perceptions unblinkingly. Some of them are very hard for me. But I +don’t want to deny them. I know I can’t afford to. I may have to +take a long hard look and say, “Is this something I can use? What do +I do with this?” I have to try to stand back and not become +immersed in what you so forcefully are pronouncing. So there’s a +piece of me that wants to resist wholly, and a piece that wants to +accept wholly, and there’s some place in between where I have to +find my own ground. What I can’t afford is either to wipe out your +perceptions or to pretend I understand you when I don’t. And then, +if it’s a question of racism — and I don’t mean just the overt +violence out there but also all the differences in our ways of seeing +— there’s always the question: “How do I use this? What do I do +about it?” +Audre: “How much of this truth can I bear to see/ and still live/ +unblinded?/ How much of this pain/ can I use?”* What holds us all +back is being unable to ask that crucial question, that essential step +deflected. You know the piece I wrote for The Black Scholar?** The +piece was useful, but limited, because I didn’t ask some essential +question. And not having asked myself that question, not having +realized that it was a question, I was deflecting a lot of energy in +that piece. I kept reading it over, thinking, this isn’t quite what it +should be. I thought at the time I was holding back because it would +be totally unacceptable in The Black Scholar. That wasn’t it, really. I +was holding back because I had not asked myself the question: +“Why is women loving women so threatening to Black men unless +they want to assume the white male position?” It was a question of +how much I could bear, and of not realizing I could bear more than +I thought I could at the time. It was also a question of how could I +use that perception other than just in rage or destruction. + + Adrienne: Speaking of rage and destruction, what do you really +mean by the first five lines of “Power”?*** +Audre: “The difference between poetry/ and rhetoric/ is being/ +ready to kill yourself/ instead of your children.” What was I feeling? +I was very involved in a case … +Adrienne: The white policeman who shot the Black child and was +acquitted. We had lunch around the time you were writing that +poem and you were full of it. +Audre: I was driving in the car and heard the news on the radio +that the cop had been acquitted. I was really sickened with fury, and +I decided to pull over and just jot some things down in my notebook +to enable me to cross town without an accident because I felt so sick +and so enraged. And I wrote those lines down — I was just writing, +and that poem came out without craft. That’s probably why I was +talking to you about it because I didn’t feel it was really a poem. I +was thinking that the killer had been a student at John Jay and that +I might have seen him in the hall, that I might see him again. What +was retribution? What could have been done? There was one Black +woman on the jury. It could have been me. Now I am here teaching +in John Jay College. Do I kill him? What is my effective role? Would +I kill her in the same way — the Black woman on the jury. What +kind of strength did she, would I, have at the point of deciding to +take a position … +Adrienne: Against eleven white men … +Audre: … that atavistic fear of an articulated power that is not on +your terms. There is the jury — white male power, white male +structures — how do you take a position against them? How do you +reach down into threatening difference without being killed or +killing? How do you deal with things you believe, live them not as +theory, not even as emotion, but right on the line of action and +effect and change? All of those things were riding in on that poem. +But I had no sense, no understanding at the time, of the connections, +just that I was that woman. And that to put myself on the line to do +what had to be done at any place and time was so difficult, yet +absolutely crucial, and not to do so was the most awful death. And +putting yourself on the line is like killing a piece of yourself, in the + + sense that you have to kill, end, destroy something familiar and +dependable, so that something new can come, in ourselves, in our +world. And that sense of writing at the edge, out of urgency, not +because you choose it but because you have to, that sense of +survival — that’s what the poem is out of, as well as the pain of my +spiritual son’s death over and over. Once you live any piece of your +vision it opens you to a constant onslaught. Of necessities, of +horrors, but of wonders too, of possibilities. +Adrienne: I was going to say, tell it on the other side. +Audre: Of wonders, absolute wonders, possibilities, like meteor +showers all the time, bombardment, constant connections. And then, +trying to separate what is useful for survival from what is distorted, +destructive to self. +Adrienne: There’s so much with which that has to be done — +rejecting the distortions, keeping what we can use. Even in work +created by people we admire intensely. +Audre: Yes, a commitment to being selectively open. I had to do +that with my physical survival. How am I going to live with cancer +and not succumb to it in the many ways that I could? What do I +have to do? And coming up against, there’s no one to tell you even +possibilities. In the hospital I kept thinking, let’s see, there’s got to +be someone somewhere, a Black lesbian feminist with cancer, how’d +she handle it? Then I realized, hey, honey, you are it, for now. I +read all of those books and then I realized, no one can tell me how +to do it. I have to pick and choose, see what feels right. +Determination, poetry — well that’s all in the work. +Adrienne: I’m thinking about when you had just had the first +biopsy, in 1977, and we were both supposed to speak on a panel in +Chicago. On “The Transformation of Silence into Language and +Action.” And you said there was no way you were going to the MLA +— remember? That you couldn’t do it, you didn’t need to do it, that +doing it could not mean anything important to you. But in fact you +went out there and said what you said, and it was for yourself but +not only for yourself. +Audre: You said, “Why don’t you tell them about what you’ve just +been through?” And I started saying, “Now that doesn’t have + + anything to do with the panel.” And as I said that, I felt the words +“Silence,” “Transformation.” I hadn’t spoken about this +experience.… This is silence.… Can I transform this? Is there any +connection? Most of all, how do I share it? And that’s how a setting +down became clear on paper, as if the connections became clear in +the setting down. That paper* and “A Litany for Survival”** came +about at the same time. I had the feeling, probably a body sense, +that life was never going to be the same. If not now, eventually, this +was something I would have to face. If not cancer, then somehow, I +would have to examine the terms and means as well as the whys of +my survival — and in the face of alteration. So much of the work I +did, I did before I knew consciously that I had cancer. Questions of +death and dying, dealing with power and strength, the sense of +“What am I paying for?” that I wrote about in that paper, were +crucial to me a year later. “Uses of the Erotic” was written four +weeks before I found out I had breast cancer, in 1978. +Adrienne: Again, it’s like what you were saying before, about +making the poems that didn’t exist, that you needed to have exist. +Audre: The existence of that paper enabled me to pick up and go +to Houston and California; it enabled me to start working again. I +don’t know when I’d have been able to write again, if I hadn’t had +those words. Do you realize, we’ve come full circle, because that is +where knowing and understanding mesh. What understanding +begins to do is to make knowledge available for use, and that’s the +urgency, that’s the push, that’s the drive. I don’t know how I wrote +the long prose piece I have just finished, but I just knew that I had +to do it. +Adrienne: That you had to understand what you knew and also +make it available to others. +Audre: That’s right. Inseparable process now. But for me, I had to +know I knew it first — I had to feel. +* This interview, held on August 30, 1979 in Montague, Massachusetts, was edited from + +three hours of tapes we made together. It was commissioned by Marilyn Hacker, the guest + +editor of Woman Poet: The East (Women-In-Literature, Reno, Nevada, 1981), where a + + portion of it appears. The interview was first published in Signs, vol. 6, no. 4 (Summer +1981). + +* The First Cities (Poets Press, New York, 1968). +* New York Head Shop and Museum (Broadside Press, Detroit, 1974), pp. 52–56. +* Cables to Rage (Paul Breman, Heritage Series, London, 1970). +* First published in From a Land Where Other People Live (Broadside Press, Detroit, 1973), + +and collected in Chosen Poems: Old and New (W.W. Norton and Company, New York, 1982), +pp. 39–40. + +* Mina Shaughnessy (1924–78), then director of the SEEK Writing Program at the City + +College, City University of New York. + +** “Search for Education, Elevation, and Knowledge”: A pre-baccalaureate program in + +compensatory education in the City University of New York in which a number of writerteachers participated in the 1960s and early 1970s. + +* Zami: A New Spelling of My Name, originally published by Persephone Press in 1982 and + +reissued by Crossing Press in 1983. + +* The Black Unicorn (W.W. Norton and Company, New York, 1978). +* From “Need: A Choral of Black Women’s Voices” in Chosen Poems, p. 115. +** “Scratching the Surface: Some Notes on Barriers to Women and Loving,” see p. 45. +*** The Black Unicorn, pp. 108–110. +* See “The Transformation of Silence into Language and Action,” see p. 40. +** The Black Unicorn, p. 31. + + The Master’s Tools Will Never Dismantle the Master’s +House* +I AGREED TO TAKE PART in a New York University Institute for the +Humanities conference a year ago, with the understanding that I +would be commenting upon papers dealing with the role of +difference within the lives of american women: difference of race, +sexuality, class, and age. The absence of these considerations +weakens any feminist discussion of the personal and the political. +It is a particular academic arrogance to assume any discussion of +feminist theory without examining our many differences, and +without a significant input from poor women, Black and Third +World women, and lesbians. And yet, I stand here as a Black lesbian +feminist, having been invited to comment within the only panel at +this conference where the input of Black feminists and lesbians is +represented. What this says about the vision of this conference is +sad, in a country where racism, sexism, and homophobia are +inseparable. To read this program is to assume that lesbian and +Black women have nothing to say about existentialism, the erotic, +women’s culture and silence, developing feminist theory, or +heterosexuality and power. And what does it mean in personal and +political terms when even the two Black women who did present +here were literally found at the last hour? What does it mean when +the tools of a racist patriarchy are used to examine the fruits of that +same patriarchy? It means that only the most narrow perimeters of +change are possible and allowable. +The absence of any consideration of lesbian consciousness or the +consciousness of Third World women leaves a serious gap within +this conference and within the papers presented here. For example, +in a paper on material relationships between women, I was +conscious of an either/or model of nurturing which totally dismissed +my knowledge as a Black lesbian. In this paper there was no + + examination of mutuality between women, no systems of shared +support, no interdependence as exists between lesbians and womenidentified women. Yet it is only in the patriarchal model of +nurturance that women “who attempt to emancipate themselves pay +perhaps too high a price for the results,” as this paper states. +For women, the need and desire to nurture each other is not +pathological but redemptive, and it is within that knowledge that +our real power is rediscovered. It is this real connection which is so +feared by a patriarchal world. Only within a patriarchal structure is +maternity the only social power open to women. +Interdependency between women is the way to a freedom which +allows the I to be, not in order to be used, but in order to be +creative. This is a difference between the passive be and the active +being. +Advocating the mere tolerance of difference between women is +the grossest reformism. It is a total denial of the creative function of +difference in our lives. Difference must be not merely tolerated, but +seen as a fund of necessary polarities between which our creativity +can spark like a dialectic. Only then does the necessity for +interdependency become unthreatening. Only within that +interdependency of different strengths, acknowledged and equal, +can the power to seek new ways of being in the world generate, as +well as the courage and sustenance to act where there are no +charters. +Within the interdependence of mutual (nondominant) differences +lies that security which enables us to descend into the chaos of +knowledge and return with true visions of our future, along with the +concomitant power to effect those changes which can bring that +future into being. Difference is that raw and powerful connection +from which our personal power is forged. +As women, we have been taught either to ignore our differences, +or to view them as causes for separation and suspicion rather than +as forces for change. Without community there is no liberation, only +the most vulnerable and temporary armistice between an individual +and her oppression. But community must not mean a shedding of + + our differences, nor the pathetic pretense that these differences do +not exist. +Those of us who stand outside the circle of this society’s +definition of acceptable women; those of us who have been forged +in the crucibles of difference — those of us who are poor, who are +lesbians, who are Black, who are older — know that survival is not +an academic skill. It is learning how to stand alone, unpopular and +sometimes reviled, and how to make common cause with those +others identified as outside the structures in order to define and seek +a world in which we can all flourish. It is learning how to take our +differences and make them strengths. For the master’s tools will never +dismantle the master’s house. They may allow us temporarily to beat +him at his own game, but they will never enable us to bring about +genuine change. And this fact is only threatening to those women +who still define the master’s house as their only source of support. +Poor women and women of Color know there is a difference +between the daily manifestations of marital slavery and prostitution +because it is our daughters who line 42nd Street. If white american +feminist theory need not deal with the differences between us, and +the resulting difference in our oppressions, then how do you deal +with the fact that the women who clean your houses and tend your +children while you attend conferences on feminist theory are, for +the most part, poor women and women of Color? What is the theory +behind racist feminism? +In a world of possibility for us all, our personal visions help lay +the groundwork for political action. The failure of academic +feminists to recognize difference as a crucial strength is a failure to +reach beyond the first patriarchal lesson. In our world, divide and +conquer must become define and empower. +Why weren’t other women of Color found to participate in this +conference? Why were two phone calls to me considered a +consultation? Am I the only possible source of names of Black +feminists? And although the Black panelist’s paper ends on an +important and powerful connection of love between women, what +about interracial cooperation between feminists who don’t love each +other? + + In academic feminist circles, the answer to these questions is +often, “We did not know who to ask.” But that is the same evasion +of responsibility, the same cop-out, that keeps Black women’s art +out of women’s exhibitions, Black women’s work out of most +feminist publications except for the occasional “Special Third World +Women’s Issue,” and Black women’s texts off your reading lists. But +as Adrienne Rich pointed out in a recent talk, white feminists have +educated themselves about such an enormous amount over the past +ten years, how come you haven’t also educated yourselves about +Black women and the differences between us — white and Black — +when it is key to our survival as a movement? +Women of today are still being called upon to stretch across the +gap of male ignorance and to educate men as to our existence and +our needs. This is an old and primary tool of all oppressors to keep +the oppressed occupied with the master’s concerns. Now we hear +that it is the task of women of Color to educate white women — in +the face of tremendous resistance — as to our existence, our +differences, our relative roles in our joint survival. This is a +diversion of energies and a tragic repetition of racist patriarchal +thought. +Simone de Beauvoir once said: “It is in the knowledge of the +genuine conditions of our lives that we must draw our strength to +live and our reasons for acting.” +Racism and homophobia are real conditions of all our lives in this +place and time. I urge each one of us here to reach down into that deep +place of knowledge inside herself and touch that terror and loathing of +any difference that lives there. See whose face it wears. Then the +personal as the political can begin to illuminate all our choices. +* Comments at “The Personal and the Political Panel,” Second Sex Conference, New + +York, September 29, 1979. + + Age, Race, Class, and Sex: Women Redefining +Difference* +MUCH OF WESTERN EUROPEAN history conditions us to see human +differences +in +simplistic +opposition +to +each +other: +dominant/subordinate, good/bad, up/down, superior/inferior. In a +society where the good is defined in terms of profit rather than in +terms of human need, there must always be some group of people +who, through systematized oppression, can be made to feel surplus, +to occupy the place of the dehumanized inferior. Within this society, +that group is made up of Black and Third World people, workingclass people, older people, and women. +As a forty-nine-year-old Black lesbian feminist socialist mother of +two, including one boy, and a member of an interracial couple, I +usually find myself a part of some group defined as other, deviant, +inferior, or just plain wrong. Traditionally, in american society, it is +the members of oppressed, objectified groups who are expected to +stretch out and bridge the gap between the actualities of our lives +and the consciousness of our oppressor. For in order to survive, +those of us for whom oppression is as american as apple pie have +always had to be watchers, to become familiar with the language +and manners of the oppressor, even sometimes adopting them for +some illusion of protection. Whenever the need for some pretense of +communication arises, those who profit from our oppression call +upon us to share our knowledge with them. In other words, it is the +responsibility of the oppressed to teach the oppressors their +mistakes. I am responsible for educating teachers who dismiss my +children’s culture in school. Black and Third World people are +expected to educate white people as to our humanity. Women are +expected to educate men. Lesbians and gay men are expected to +educate the heterosexual world. The oppressors maintain their +position and evade responsibility for their own actions. There is a + + constant drain of energy which might be better used in redefining +ourselves and devising realistic scenarios for altering the present +and constructing the future. +Institutionalized rejection of difference is an absolute necessity in +a profit economy which needs outsiders as surplus people. As +members of such an economy, we have all been programmed to +respond to the human differences between us with fear and loathing +and to handle that difference in one of three ways: ignore it, and if +that is not possible, copy it if we think it is dominant, or destroy it if +we think it is subordinate. But we have no patterns for relating +across our human differences as equals. As a result, those differences +have been misnamed and misused in the service of separation and +confusion. +Certainly there are very real differences between us of race, age, +and sex. But it is not those differences between us that are +separating us. It is rather our refusal to recognize those differences, +and to examine the distortions which result from our misnaming +them and their effects upon human behavior and expectation. +Racism, the belief in the inherent superiority of one race over all others +and thereby the right to dominance. Sexism, the belief in the inherent +superiority of one sex over the other and thereby the right to dominance. +Ageism. Heterosexism. Elitism. Classism. +It is a lifetime pursuit for each one of us to extract these +distortions from our living at the same time as we recognize, +reclaim, and define those differences upon which they are imposed. +For we have all been raised in a society where those distortions +were endemic within our living. Too often, we pour the energy +needed for recognizing and exploring difference into pretending +those differences are insurmountable barriers, or that they do not +exist at all. This results in a voluntary isolation, or false and +treacherous connections. Either way, we do not develop tools for +using human difference as a springboard for creative change within +our lives. We speak not of human difference, but of human +deviance. +Somewhere, on the edge of consciousness, there is what I call a +mythical norm, which each one of us within our hearts knows “that + + is not me.” In america, this norm is usually defined as white, thin, +male, young, heterosexual, christian, and financially secure. It is +with this mythical norm that the trappings of power reside within +this society. Those of us who stand outside that power often identify +one way in which we are different, and we assume that to be the +primary cause of all oppression, forgetting other distortions around +difference, some of which we ourselves may be practising. By and +large within the women’s movement today, white women focus +upon their oppression as women and ignore differences of race, +sexual preference, class, and age. There is a pretense to a +homogeneity of experience covered by the word sisterhood that does +not in fact exist. +Unacknowledged class differences rob women of each others’ +energy and creative insight. Recently a women’s magazine collective +made the decision for one issue to print only prose, saying poetry +was a less “rigorous” or “serious” art form. Yet even the form our +creativity takes is often a class issue. Of all the art forms, poetry is +the most economical. It is the one which is the most secret, which +requires the least physical labor, the least material, and the one +which can be done between shifts, in the hospital pantry, on the +subway, and on scraps of surplus paper. Over the last few years, +writing a novel on tight finances, I came to appreciate the enormous +differences in the material demands between poetry and prose. As +we reclaim our literature, poetry has been the major voice of poor, +working class, and Colored women. A room of one’s own may be a +necessity for writing prose, but so are reams of paper, a typewriter, +and plenty of time. The actual requirements to produce the visual +arts also help determine, along class lines, whose art is whose. In +this day of inflated prices for material, who are our sculptors, our +painters, our photographers? When we speak of a broadly based +women’s culture, we need to be aware of the effect of class and +economic differences on the supplies available for producing art. +As we move toward creating a society within which we can each +flourish, ageism is another distortion of relationship which +interferes without vision. By ignoring the past, we are encouraged to +repeat its mistakes. The “generation gap” is an important social tool + + for any repressive society. If the younger members of a community +view the older members as contemptible or suspect or excess, they +will never be able to join hands and examine the living memories of +the community, nor ask the all important question, “Why?” This +gives rise to a historical amnesia that keeps us working to invent the +wheel every time we have to go to the store for bread. +We find ourselves having to repeat and relearn the same old +lessons over and over that our mothers did because we do not pass +on what we have learned, or because we are unable to listen. For +instance, how many times has this all been said before? For another, +who would have believed that once again our daughters are +allowing their bodies to be hampered and purgatoried by girdles +and high heels and hobble skirts? +Ignoring the differences of race between women and the +implications of those differences presents the most serious threat to +the mobilization of women’s joint power. +As white women ignore their built-in privilege of whiteness and +define woman in terms of their own experience alone, then women +of Color become “other,” the outsider whose experience and +tradition is too “alien” to comprehend. An example of this is the +signal absence of the experience of women of Color as a resource for +women’s studies courses. The literature of women of Color is seldom +included in women’s literature courses and almost never in other +literature courses, nor in women’s studies as a whole. All too often, +the excuse given is that the literatures of women of Color can only +be taught by Colored women, or that they are too difficult to +understand, or that classes cannot “get into” them because they +come out of experiences that are “too different.” I have heard this +argument presented by white women of otherwise quite clear +intelligence, women who seem to have no trouble at all teaching +and reviewing work that comes out of the vastly different +experiences of Shakespeare, Molière, Dostoyefsky, and Aristophanes. +Surely there must be some other explanation. +This is a very complex question, but I believe one of the reasons +white women have such difficulty reading Black women’s work is +because of their reluctance to see Black women as women and + + different from themselves. To examine Black women’s literature +effectively requires that we be seen as whole people in our actual +complexities — as individuals, as women, as human — rather than +as one of those problematic but familiar stereotypes provided in this +society in place of genunine images of Black women. And I believe +this holds true for the literatures of other women of Color who are +not Black. +The literatures of all women of Color recreate the textures of our +lives, and many white women are heavily invested in ignoring the +real differences. For as long as any difference between us means one +of us must be inferior, then the recognition of any difference must +be fraught with guilt. To allow women of Color to step out of +stereotypes is too guilt provoking, for it threatens the complacency +of those women who view oppression only in terms of sex. +Refusing to recognize difference makes it impossible to see the +different problems and pitfalls facing us as women. +Thus, in a patriarchal power system where whiteskin privilege is a +major prop, the entrapments used to neutralize Black women and +white women are not the same. For example, it is easy for Black +women to be used by the power structure against Black men, not +because they are men, but because they are Black. Therefore, for +Black women, it is necessary at all times to separate the needs of the +oppressor from our own legitimate conflicts within our +communities. This same problem does not exist for white women. +Black women and men have shared racist oppression and still share +it, although in different ways. Out of that shared oppression we +have developed joint defenses and joint vulnerabilities to each other +that are not duplicated in the white community, with the exception +of the relationship between Jewish women and Jewish men. +On the other hand, white women face the pitfall of being seduced +into joining the oppressor under the pretense of sharing power. This +possibility does not exist in the same way for women of Color. The +tokenism that is sometimes extended to us is not an invitation to +join power; our racial “otherness” is a visible reality that makes that +quite clear. For white women there is a wider range of pretended + + choices and rewards for identifying with patriarchal power and its +tools. +Today, with the defeat of ERA, the tightening economy, and +increased conservatism, it is easier once again for white women to +believe the dangerous fantasy that if you are good enough, pretty +enough, sweet enough, quiet enough, teach the children to behave, +hate the right people, and marry the right men, then you will be +allowed to co-exist with patriarchy in relative peace, at least until a +man needs your job or the neighborhood rapist happens along. And +true, unless one lives and loves in the trenches it is difficult to +remember that the war against dehumanization is ceaseless. +But Black women and our children know the fabric of our lives is +stitched with violence and with hatred, that there is no rest. We do +not deal with it only on the picket lines, or in dark midnight alleys, +or in the places where we dare to verbalize our resistance. For us, +increasingly, violence weaves through the daily tissues of our living +— in the supermarket, in the classroom, in the elevator, in the clinic +and the schoolyard, from the plumber, the baker, the saleswoman, +the bus driver, the bank teller, the waitress who does not serve us. +Some problems we share as women, some we do not. You fear +your children will grow up to join the patriarchy and testify against +you, we fear our children will be dragged from a car and shot down +in the street, and you will turn your backs upon the reasons they are +dying. +The threat of difference has been no less blinding to people of +Color. Those of us who are Black must see that the reality of our +lives and our struggle does not make us immune to the errors of +ignoring and misnaming difference. Within Black communities +where racism is a living reality, differences among us often seem +dangerous and suspect. The need for unity is often misnamed as a +need for homogeneity, and a Black feminist vision mistaken for +betrayal of our common interests as a people. Because of the +continuous battle against racial erasure that Black women and Black +men share, some Black women still refuse to recognize that we are +also oppressed as women, and that sexual hostility against Black +women is practiced not only by the white racist society, but + + implemented within our Black communities as well. It is a disease +striking the heart of Black nationhood, and silence will not make it +disappear. Exacerbated by racism and the pressures of +powerlessness, violence against Black women and children often +becomes a standard within our communities, one by which +manliness can be measured. But these woman-hating acts are rarely +discussed as crimes against Black women. +As a group, women of Color are the lowest paid wage earners in +america. We are the primary targets of abortion and sterilization +abuse, here and abroad. In certain parts of Africa, small girls are still +being sewed shut between their legs to keep them docile and for +men’s pleasure. This is known as female circumcision, and it is not a +cultural affair as the late Jomo Kenyatta insisted, it is a crime +against Black women. +Black women’s literature is full of the pain of frequent assault, not +only by a racist patriarchy, but also by Black men. Yet the necessity +for and history of shared battle have made us, Black women, +particularly vulnerable to the false accusation that anti-sexist is antiBlack. Meanwhile, womanhating as a recourse of the powerless is +sapping strength from Black communities, and our very lives. Rape +is on the increase, reported and unreported, and rape is not +aggressive sexuality, it is sexualized aggression. As Kalamu ya +Salaam, a Black male writer points out, “As long as male domination +exists, rape will exist. Only women revolting and men made +conscious of their responsibility to fight sexism can collectively stop +rape.”* +Differences between ourselves as Black women are also being +misnamed and used to separate us from one another. As a Black +lesbian feminist comfortable with the many different ingredients of +my identity, and a woman committed to racial and sexual freedom +from oppression, I find I am constantly being encouraged to pluck +out some one aspect of myself and present this as the meaningful +whole, eclipsing or denying the other parts of self. But this is a +destructive and fragmenting way to live. My fullest concentration of +energy is available to me only when I integrate all the parts of who I +am, openly, allowing power from particular sources of my living to + + flow back and forth freely through all my different selves, without +the restrictions of externally imposed definition. Only then can I +bring myself and my energies as a whole to the service of those +struggles which I embrace as part of my living. +A fear of lesbians, or of being accused of being a lesbian, has led +many Black women into testifying against themselves. It has led +some of us into destructive alliances, and others into despair and +isolation. In the white women’s communities, heterosexism is +sometimes a result of identifying with the white patriarchy, a +rejection of that interdependence between women-identified women +which allows the self to be, rather than to be used in the service of +men. Sometimes it reflects a die-hard belief in the protective +coloration of heterosexual relationships, sometimes a self-hate +which all women have to fight against, taught us from birth. +Although elements of these attitudes exist for all women, there +are particular resonances of heterosexism and homophobia among +Black women. Despite the fact that woman-bonding has a long and +honorable history in the African and African-american communities, +and despite the knowledge and accomplishments of many strong +and creative women-identified Black women in the political, social +and cultural fields, heterosexual Black women often tend to ignore +or discount the existence and work of Black lesbians. Part of this +attitude has come from an understandable terror of Black male +attack within the close confines of Black society, where the +punishment for any female self-assertion is still to be accused of +being a lesbian and therefore unworthy of the attention or support +of the scarce Black male. But part of this need to misname and +ignore Black lesbians comes from a very real fear that openly +women-identified Black women who are no longer dependent upon +men for their self-definition may well reorder our whole concept of +social relationships. +Black women who once insisted that lesbianism was a white +woman’s problem now insist that Black lesbians are a threat to +Black nationhood, are consorting with the enemy, are basically unBlack. These accusations, coming from the very women to whom we +look for deep and real understanding, have served to keep many + + Black lesbians in hiding, caught between the racism of white women +and the homophobia of their sisters. Often, their work has been +ignored, trivialized, or misnamed, as with the work of Angelina +Grimke, Alice Dunbar-Nelson, Lorraine Hansberry. Yet womenbonded women have always been some part of the power of Black +communities, from our unmarried aunts to the amazons of +Dahomey. +And it is certainly not Black lesbians who are assaulting women +and raping children and grandmothers on the streets of our +communities. +Across this country, as in Boston during the spring of 1979 +following the unsolved murders of twelve Black women, Black +lesbians are spearheading movements against violence against Black +women. +What are the particular details within each of our lives that can +be scrutinized and altered to help bring about change? How do we +redefine difference for all women? It is not our differences which +separate women, but our reluctance to recognize those differences +and to deal effectively with the distortions which have resulted from +the ignoring and misnaming of those differences. +As a tool of social control, women have been encouraged to +recognize only one area of human difference as legitimate, those +differences which exist between women and men. And we have +learned to deal across those differences with the urgency of all +oppressed subordinates. All of us have had to learn to live or work +or coexist with men, from our fathers on. We have recognized and +negotiated these differences, even when this recognition only +continued the old dominant/subordinate mode of human +relationship, where the oppressed must recognize the masters’ +difference in order to survive. +But our future survival is predicated upon our ability to relate +within equality. As women, we must root out internalized patterns +of oppression within ourselves if we are to move beyond the most +superficial aspects of social change. Now we must recognize +differences among women who are our equals, neither inferior nor + + superior, and devise ways to use each others’ difference to enrich +our visions and our joint struggles. +The future of our earth may depend upon the ability of all women +to identify and develop new definitions of power and new patterns +of relating across difference. The old definitions have not served us, +nor the earth that supports us. The old patterns, no matter how +cleverly rearranged to imitate progress, still condemn us to +cosmetically altered repetitions of the same old exchanges, the same +old guilt, hatred, recrimination, lamentation, and suspicion. +For we have, built into all of us, old blueprints of expectation and +response, old structures of oppression, and these must be altered at +the same time as we alter the living conditions which are a result of +those structures. For the master’s tools will never dismantle the +master’s house. +As Paulo Freire shows so well in The Pedagogy of the Oppressed,* +the true focus of revolutionary change is never merely the +oppressive situations which we seek to escape, but that piece of the +oppressor which is planted deep within each of us, and which knows +only the oppressors’ tactics, the oppressors’ relationships. +Change means growth, and growth can be painful. But we +sharpen self-definition by exposing the self in work and struggle +together with those whom we define as different from ourselves, +although sharing the same goals. For Black and white, old and +young, lesbian and heterosexual women alike, this can mean new +paths to our survival. +We have chosen each other +and the edge of each others battles +the war is the same +if we lose +someday women’s blood will congeal +upon a dead planet +if we win +there is no telling + + we seek beyond history +for a new and more possible meeting.** +* Paper delivered at the Copeland Colloquium, Amherst College, April 1980. +* From “Rape: A Radical Analysis, An African-American Perspective” by Kalamu ya + +Salaam in Black Books Bulletin, vol. 6, no. 4 (1980). +* Seabury Press, New York, 1970. +** From “Outlines,” unpublished poem. + + The Uses of Anger: Women Responding to Racism* +Racism. The belief in the inherent superiority of one race over all +others and thereby the right to dominance, manifest and implied. +Women respond to racism. My response to racism is anger. I have +lived with that anger, ignoring it, feeding upon it, learning to use it +before it laid my visions to waste, for most of my life. Once I did it +in silence, afraid of the weight. My fear of anger taught me nothing. +Your fear of that anger will teach you nothing, also. +Women responding to racism means women responding to anger; +the anger of exclusion, of unquestioned privilege, of racial +distortions, of silence, ill-use, stereotyping, defensiveness, +misnaming, betrayal, and co-optation. +My anger is a response to racist attitudes and to the actions and +presumptions that arise out of those attitudes. If your dealings with +other women reflect those attitudes, then my anger and your +attendant fears are spotlights that can be used for growth in the +same way I have used learning to express anger for my growth. But +for corrective surgery, not guilt. Guilt and defensiveness are bricks +in a wall against which we all flounder; they serve none of our +futures. +Because I do not want this to become a theoretical discussion, I +am going to give a few examples of interchanges between women +that illustrate these points. In the interest of time, I am going to cut +them short. I want you to know there were many more. +For example: +• I speak out of direct and particular anger at an academic +conference, and a white woman says, “Tell me how you feel but +don’t say it too harshly or I cannot hear you.” But is it my manner +that keeps her from hearing, or the threat of a message that her life +may change? +• The Women’s Studies Program of a southern university invites a +Black woman to read following a week-long forum on Black and + + white women. “What has this week given to you?” I ask. The most +vocal white woman says, “I think I’ve gotten a lot. I feel Black +women really understand me a lot better now; they have a better +idea of where I’m coming from.” As if understanding her lay at the +core of the racist problem. +• After fifteen years of a women’s movement which professes to +address the life concerns and possible futures of all women, I still +hear, on campus after campus, “How can we address the issues of +racism? No women of Color attended.” Or, the other side of that +statement, “We have no one in our department equipped to teach +their work.” In other words, racism is a Black women’s problem, a +problem of women of Color, and only we can discuss it. +• After I read from my work entitled “Poems for Women in +Rage,”* a white woman asks me: “Are you going to do anything with +how we can deal directly with our anger? I feel it’s so important.” I +ask, “How do you use your rage?” And then I have to turn away +from the blank look in her eyes, before she can invite me to +participate in her own annihilation. I do not exist to feel her anger +for her. +• White women are beginning to examine their relationships to +Black women, yet often I hear them wanting only to deal with little +colored children across the roads of childhood, the beloved +nursemaid, the occasional second-grade classmate — those tender +memories of what was once mysterious and intriguing or neutral. +You avoid the childhood assumptions formed by the raucous +laughter at Rastus and Alfalfa, the acute message of your mommy’s +handerkerchief spread upon the park bench because I had just been +sitting there, the indelible and dehumanizing portraits of Amos ’n +Andy and your daddy’s humorous bedtime stories. +• I wheel my two-year-old daughter in a shopping cart through a +supermarket in Eastchester in 1967, and a little white girl riding +past in her mother’s cart calls out excitedly, “Oh look, Mommy, a +baby maid!” And your mother shushes you, but she does not correct +you. And so fifteen years later, at a conference on racism, you can +still find that story humorous. But I hear your laughter is full of +terror and dis-ease. + + • A white academic welcomes the appearance of a collection by +non-Black women of Color.* “It allows me to deal with racism +without dealing with the harshness of Black women,” she says to +me. +• At an international cultural gathering of women, a well-known +white american woman poet interrupts the reading of the work of +women of Color to read her own poem, and then dashes off to an +“important panel.” +If women in the academy truly want a dialogue about racism, it +will require recognizing the needs and the living contexts of other +women. When an academic woman says, “I can’t afford it,” she may +mean she is making a choice about how to spend her available +money. But when a woman on welfare says, “I can’t afford it,” she +means she is surviving on an amount of money that was barely +subsistence in 1972, and she often does not have enough to eat. Yet +the National Women’s Studies Association here in 1981 holds a +conference in which it commits itself to responding to racism, yet +refuses to waive the registration fee for poor women and women of +Color who wished to present and conduct workshops. This has made +it impossible for many women of Color — for instance, Wilmette +Brown, of Black Women for Wages for Housework — to participate +in this conference. Is this to be merely another case of the academy +discussing life within the closed circuits of the academy? +To the white women present who recognize these attitudes as +familiar, but most of all, to all my sisters of Color who live and +survive thousands of such encounters — to my sisters of Color who +like me still tremble their rage under harness, or who sometimes +question the expression of our rage as useless and disruptive (the +two most popular accusations) — I want to speak about anger, my +anger, and what I have learned from my travels through its +dominions. +Everything can be used / except what is wasteful / (you will need / to +remember this when you are accused of destruction.)* +Every woman has a well-stocked arsenal of anger potentially +useful against those oppressions, personal and institutional, which +brought that anger into being. Focused with precision it can become + + a powerful source of energy serving progress and change. And when +I speak of change, I do not mean a simple switch of positions or a +temporary lessening of tensions, nor the ability to smile or feel +good. I am speaking of a basic and radical alteration in those +assumptions underlining our lives. +I have seen situations where white women hear a racist remark, +resent what has been said, become filled with fury, and remain +silent because they are afraid. That unexpressed anger lies within +them like an undetonated device, usually to be hurled at the first +woman of Color who talks about racism. +But anger expressed and translated into action in the service of +our vision and our future is a liberating and strengthening act of +clarification, for it is in the painful process of this translation that +we identify who are our allies with whom we have grave +differences, and who are our genuine enemies. +Anger is loaded with information and energy. When I speak of +women of Color, I do not only mean Black women. The woman of +Color who is not Black and who charges me with rendering her +invisible by assuming that her struggles with racism are identical +with my own has something to tell me that I had better learn from, +lest we both waste ourselves fighting the truths between us. If I +participate, knowingly or otherwise, in my sister’s oppression and +she calls me on it, to answer her anger with my own only blankets +the substance of our exchange with reaction. It wastes energy. And +yes, it is very difficult to stand still and to listen to another woman’s +voice delineate an agony I do not share, or one to which I myself +have contributed. +In this place we speak removed from the more blatant reminders +of our embattlement as women. This need not blind us to the size +and complexities of the forces mounting against us and all that is +most human within our environment. We are not here as women +examining racism in a political and social vacuum. We operate in +the teeth of a system for which racism and sexism are primary, +established, and necessary props of profit. Women responding to +racism is a topic so dangerous that when the local media attempt to +discredit this conference they choose to focus upon the provision of + + lesbian housing as a diversionary device — as if the Hartford +Courant dare not mention the topic chosen for discussion here, +racism, lest it become apparent that women are in fact attempting to +examine and to alter all the repressive conditions of our lives. +Mainstream communication does not want women, particularly +white women, responding to racism. It wants racism to be accepted +as an immutable given in the fabric of your existence, like +eveningtime or the common cold. +So we are working in a context of opposition and threat, the cause +of which is certainly not the angers which lie between us, but rather +that virulent hatred leveled against all women, people of Color, +lesbians and gay men, poor people — against all of us who are +seeking to examine the particulars of our lives as we resist our +oppressions, moving toward coalition and effective action. +Any discussion among women about racism must include the +recognition and the use of anger. This discussion must be direct and +creative because it is crucial. We cannot allow our fear of anger to +deflect us nor seduce us into settling for anything less than the hard +work of excavating honesty; we must be quite serious about the +choice of this topic and the angers entwined within it because, rest +assured, our opponents are quite serious about their hatred of us +and of what we are trying to do here. +And while we scrutinize the often painful face of each other’s +anger, please remember that it is not our anger which makes me +caution you to lock your doors at night and not to wander the +streets of Hartford alone. It is the hatred which lurks in those +streets, that urge to destroy us all if we truly work for change rather +than merely indulge in academic rhetoric. +This hatred and our anger are very different. Hatred is the fury of +those who do not share our goals, and its object is death and +destruction. Anger is a grief of distortions between peers, and its +object is change. But our time is getting shorter. We have been +raised to view any difference other than sex as a reason for +destruction, and for Black women and white women to face each +other’s angers without denial or immobility or silence or guilt is in +itself a heretical and generative idea. It implies peers meeting upon + + a common basis to examine difference, and to alter those distortions +which history has created around our difference. For it is those +distortions which separate us. And we must ask ourselves: Who +profits from all this? +Women of Color in america have grown up within a symphony of +anger, at being silenced, at being unchosen, at knowing that when +we survive, it is in spite of a world that takes for granted our lack of +humanness, and which hates our very existence outside of its +service. And I say symphony rather than cacophony because we have +had to learn to orchestrate those furies so that they do not tear us +apart. We have had to learn to move through them and use them for +strength and force and insight within our daily lives. Those of us +who did not learn this difficult lesson did not survive. And part of +my anger is always libation for my fallen sisters. +Anger is an appropriate reaction to racist attitudes, as is fury +when the actions arising from those attitudes do not change. To +those women here who fear the anger of women of Color more than +their own unscrutinized racist attitudes, I ask: Is the anger of women +of Color more threatening than the woman-hatred that tinges all +aspects of our lives? +It is not the anger of other women that will destroy us but our +refusals to stand still, to listen to its rhythms, to learn within it, to +move beyond the manner of presentation to the substance, to tap +that anger as an important source of empowerment. +I cannot hide my anger to spare you guilt, nor hurt feelings, nor +answering anger; for to do so insults and trivializes all our efforts. +Guilt is not a response to anger; it is a response to one’s own actions +or lack of action. If it leads to change then it can be useful, since it +is then no longer guilt but the beginning of knowledge. Yet all too +often, guilt is just another name for impotence, for defensiveness +destructive of communication; it becomes a device to protect +ignorance and the continuation of things the way they are, the +ultimate protection for changelessness. +Most women have not developed tools for facing anger +constructively. CR groups in the past, largely white, dealt with how +to express anger, usually at the world of men. And these groups + + were made up of white women who shared the terms of their +oppressions. There was usually little attempt to articulate the +genuine differences between women, such as those of race, color, +age, class, and sexual identity. There was no apparent need at that +time to examine the contradictions of self, woman as oppressor. +There was work on expressing anger, but very little on anger +directed against each other. No tools were developed to deal with +other women’s anger except to avoid it, deflect it, or flee from it +under a blanket of guilt. +I have no creative use for guilt, yours or my own. Guilt is only +another way of avoiding informed action, of buying time out of the +pressing need to make clear choices, out of the approaching storm +that can feed the earth as well as bend the trees. If I speak to you in +anger, at least I have spoken to you: I have not put a gun to your +head and shot you down in the street; I have not looked at your +bleeding sister’s body and asked, “What did she do to deserve it?” +This was the reaction of two white women to Mary Church Terrell’s +telling of the lynching of a pregnant Black woman whose baby was +then torn from her body. That was in 1921, and Alice Paul had just +refused to publicly endorse the enforcement of the Nineteenth +Amendment for all women — by refusing to endorse the inclusion of +women of Color, although we had worked to help bring about that +amendment. +The angers between women will not kill us if we can articulate +them with precision, if we listen to the content of what is said with +at least as much intensity as we defend ourselves against the manner +of saying. When we turn from anger we turn from insight, saying we +will accept only the designs already known, deadly and safely +familiar. I have tried to learn my anger’s usefulness to me, as well as +its limitations. +For women raised to fear, too often anger threatens annihilation. +In the male construct of brute force, we were taught that our lives +depended upon the good will of patriarchal power. The anger of +others was to be avoided at all costs because there was nothing to +be learned from it but pain, a judgment that we had been bad girls, + + come up lacking, not done what we were supposed to do. And if we +accept our powerlessness, then of course any anger can destroy us. +But the strength of women lies in recognizing differences between +us as creative, and in standing to those distortions which we +inherited without blame, but which are now ours to alter. The +angers of women can transform difference through insight into +power. For anger between peers births change, not destruction, and +the discomfort and sense of loss it often causes is not fatal, but a +sign of growth. +My response to racism is anger. That anger has eaten clefts into +my living only when it remained unspoken, useless to anyone. It has +also served me in classrooms without light or learning, where the +work and history of Black women was less than a vapor. It has +served me as fire in the ice zone of uncomprehending eyes of white +women who see in my experience and the experience of my people +only new reasons for fear or guilt. And my anger is no excuse for not +dealing with your blindness, no reason to withdraw from the results +of your own actions. +When women of Color speak out of the anger that laces so many +of our contacts with white women, we are often told that we are +“creating a mood of hopelessness,” “preventing white women from +getting past guilt,” or “standing in the way of trusting +communication and action.” All these quotes come directly from +letters to me from members of this organization within the last two +years. One woman wrote, “Because you are Black and Lesbian, you +seem to speak with the moral authority of suffering.” Yes, I am +Black and Lesbian, and what you hear in my voice is fury, not +suffering. Anger, not moral authority. There is a difference. +To turn aside from the anger of Black women with excuses or the +pretexts of intimidation is to award no one power — it is merely +another way of preserving racial blindness, the power of +unaddressed privilege, unbreached, intact. Guilt is only another +form of objectification. Oppressed peoples are always being asked to +stretch a little more, to bridge the gap between blindness and +humanity. Black women are expected to use our anger only in the +service of other people’s salvation or learning. But that time is over. + + My anger has meant pain to me but it has also meant survival, and +before I give it up I’m going to be sure that there is something at +least as powerful to replace it on the road to clarity. +What woman here is so enamoured of her own oppression that +she cannot see her heelprint upon another woman’s face? What +woman’s terms of oppression have become precious and necessary +to her as a ticket into the fold of the righteous, away from the cold +winds of self-scrutiny? +I am a lesbian woman of Color whose children eat regularly +because I work in a university. If their full bellies make me fail to +recognize my commonality with a woman of Color whose children +do not eat because she cannot find work, or who has no children +because her insides are rotted from home abortions and +sterilization; if I fail to recognize the lesbian who chooses not to +have children, the woman who remains closeted because her +homophobic community is her only life support, the woman who +chooses silence instead of another death, the woman who is terrified +lest my anger trigger the explosion of hers; if I fail to recognize +them as other faces of myself, then I am contributing not only to +each of their oppressions but also to my own, and the anger which +stands between us then must be used for clarity and mutual +empowerment, not for evasion by guilt or for further separation. I +am not free while any woman is unfree, even when her shackles are +very different from my own. And I am not free as long as one person +of Color remains chained. Nor is any one of you. +I speak here as a woman of Color who is not bent upon +destruction, but upon survival. No woman is responsible for altering +the psyche of her oppressor, even when that psyche is embodied in +another woman. I have suckled the wolf’s lip of anger and I have +used it for illumination, laughter, protection, fire in places where +there was no light, no food, no sisters, no quarter. We are not +goddesses or matriarchs or edifices of divine forgiveness; we are not +fiery fingers of judgment or instruments of flagellation; we are +women forced back always upon our woman’s power. We have +learned to use anger as we have learned to use the dead flesh of +animals, and bruised, battered, and changing, we have survived and + + grown and, in Angela Wilson’s words, we are moving on. With or +without uncolored women. We use whatever strengths we have +fought for, including anger, to help define and fashion a world +where all our sisters can grow, where our children can love, and +where the power of touching and meeting another woman’s +difference and wonder will eventually transcend the need for +destruction. +For it is not the anger of Black women which is dripping down +over this globe like a diseased liquid. It is not my anger that +launches rockets, spends over sixty thousand dollars a second on +missiles and other agents of war and death, slaughters children in +cities, stockpiles nerve gas and chemical bombs, sodomizes our +daughters and our earth. It is not the anger of Black women which +corrodes into blind, dehumanizing power, bent upon the +annihilation of us all unless we meet it with what we have, our +power to examine and to redefine the terms upon which we will live +and work; our power to envision and to reconstruct, anger by +painful anger, stone upon heavy stone, a future of pollinating +difference and the earth to support our choices. +We welcome all women who can meet us, face to face, beyond +objectification and beyond guilt. +* Keynote presentation at the National Women’s Studies Association Conference, Storrs, + +Connecticut, June 1981. + +* One poem from this series is included in Chosen Poems: Old and New (W.W. Norton and + +Company, New York, 1978), pp. 105–108. + +* This Bridge Called My Back: Writings by Radical Women of Color edited by Cherríe + +Moraga and Gloria Anzaldua (Kitchen Table: Women of Color Press, New York, 1984), first +published in 1981. + +* From “For Each of You,” first published in From A Land Where Other People Live + +(Broadside Press, Detroit, 1973), and collected in Chosen Poems: Old and New (W.W. Norton +and Company, New York, 1982), p. 42. + + Learning from the 60s* +MALCOLM X IS a distinct shape in a very pivotal period of my life. I +stand here now — Black, Lesbian, Feminist — an inheritor of +Malcolm and in his tradition, doing my work, and the ghost of his +voice through my mouth asks each one of you here tonight: Are you +doing yours? +There are no new ideas, just new ways of giving those ideas we +cherish breath and power in our own living. I’m not going to +pretend that the moment I first saw or heard Malcolm X he became +my shining prince, because it wouldn’t be true. In February 1965 I +was raising two children and a husband in a three-room flat on +149th Street in Harlem. I had read about Malcolm X and the Black +Muslims. I became more interested in Malcolm X after he left the +Nation of Islam, when he was silenced by Elijah Muhammad for his +comment, after Kennedy’s assassination, to the effect that the +chickens had come home to roost. Before this I had not given much +thought to the Nation of Islam because of their attitude toward +women as well as because of their nonactivist stance. I’d read +Malcolm’s autobiography, and I liked his style, and I thought he +looked a lot like my father’s people, but I was one of the ones who +didn’t really hear Malcolm’s voice until it was amplified by death. +I had been guilty of what many of us are still guilty of — letting +the media, and I don’t mean only the white media — define the +bearers of those messages most important to our lives. +When I read Malcolm X with careful attention, I found a man +much closer to the complexities of real change than anything I had +read before. Much of what I say here tonight was born from his +words. +In the last year of his life, Malcolm X added a breadth to his +essential vision that would have brought him, had he lived, into +inevitable confrontation with the question of difference as a creative + + and necessary force for change. For as Malcolm X progressed from a +position of resistance to, and analysis of, the racial status quo, to +more active considerations of organizing for change, he began to +reassess some of his earlier positions. One of the most basic Black +survival skills is the ability to change, to metabolize experience, +good or ill, into something that is useful, lasting, effective. Four +hundred years of survival as an endangered species has taught most +of us that if we intend to live, we had better become fast learners. +Malcolm knew this. We do not have to live the same mistakes over +again if we can look at them, learn from them, and build upon +them. +Before he was killed, Malcolm had altered and broadened his +opinions concerning the role of women in society and the +revolution. He was beginning to speak with increasing respect of the +connection between himself and Martin Luther King, Jr., whose +policies of nonviolence appeared to be so opposite to his own. And +he began to examine the societal conditions under which alliances +and coalitions must indeed occur. +He had also begun to discuss those scars of oppression which lead +us to war against ourselves in each other rather than against our +enemies. +As Black people, if there is one thing we can learn from the 60s, it +is how infinitely complex any move for liberation must be. For we +must move against not only those forces which dehumanize us from +the outside, but also against those oppressive values which we have +been forced to take into ourselves. Through examining the +combination of our triumphs and errors, we can examine the +dangers of an incomplete vision. Not to condemn that vision but to +alter it, construct templates for possible futures, and focus our rage +for change upon our enemies rather than upon each other. In the +1960s, the awakened anger of the Black community was often +expressed, not vertically against the corruption of power and true +sources of control over our lives, but horizontally toward those +closest to us who mirrored our own impotence. +We were poised for attack, not always in the most effective +places. When we disagreed with one another about the solution to a + + particular problem, we were often far more vicious to each other +than to the originators of our common problem. Historically, +difference had been used so cruelly against us that as a people we +were reluctant to tolerate any diversion from what was externally +defined as Blackness. In the 60s, political correctness became not a +guideline for living, but a new set of shackles. A small and vocal +part of the Black community lost sight of the fact that unity does not +mean unanimity — Black people are not some standardly digestible +quantity. In order to work together we do not have to become a mix +of indistinguishable particles resembling a vat of homogenized +chocolate milk. Unity implies the coming together of elements +which are, to begin with, varied and diverse in their particular +natures. Our persistence in examining the tensions within diversity +encourages growth toward our common goal. So often we either +ignore the past or romanticize it, render the reason for unity useless +or mythic. We forget that the necessary ingredient needed to make +the past work for the future is our energy in the present, +metabolizing one into the other. Continuity does not happen +automatically, nor is it a passive process. +The 60s were characterized by a heady belief in instantaneous +solutions. They were vital years of awakening, of pride, and of error. +The civil rights and Black power movements rekindled possibilities +for disenfranchised groups within this nation. Even though we +fought common enemies, at times the lure of individual solutions +made us careless of each other. Sometimes we could not bear the +face of each other’s differences because of what we feared those +differences might say about ourselves. As if everybody can’t +eventually be too Black, too white, too man, too woman. But any +future vision which can encompass all of us, by definition, must be +complex and expanding, not easy to achieve. The answer to cold is +heat, the answer to hunger is food. But there is no simple monolithic +solution to racism, to sexism, to homophobia. There is only the +conscious focusing within each of my days to move against them, +wherever I come up against these particular manifestations of the +same disease. By seeing who the we is, we learn to use our energies + + with greater precision against our enemies rather than against +ourselves. +In the 60s, white america — racist and liberal alike — was more +than pleased to sit back as spectator while Black militant fought +Black Muslim, Black Nationalist badmouthed the non-violent, and +Black women were told that our only useful position in the Black +Power movement was prone. The existence of Black lesbian and gay +people was not even allowed to cross the public consciousness of +Black america. We know in the 1980s, from documents gained +through the Freedom of Information Act, that the FBI and CIA used +our intolerance of difference to foment confusion and tragedy in +segment after segment of Black communities of the 60s. Black was +beautiful, but still suspect, and too often our forums for debate +became stages for playing who’s-Blacker-than-who or who’s-poorerthan-who games, ones in which there can be no winners. +The 60s for me was a time of promise and excitement, but the 60s +was also a time of isolation and frustration from within. It often felt +like I was working and raising my children in a vacuum, and that it +was my own fault — if I was only Blacker, things would be fine. It +was a time of much wasted energy, and I was often in a lot of pain. +Either I denied or chose between various aspects of my identity, or +my work and my Blackness would be unacceptable. As a Black +lesbian mother in an interracial marriage, there was usually some +part of me guaranteed to offend everybody’s comfortable prejudices +of who I should be. That is how I learned that if I didn’t define +myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people’s fantasies +for me and eaten alive. My poetry, my life, my work, my energies +for struggle were not acceptable unless I pretended to match +somebody else’s norm. I learned that not only couldn’t I succeed at +that game, but the energy needed for that masquerade would be lost +to my work. And there were babies to raise, students to teach. The +Vietnam War was escalating, our cities were burning, more and +more of our school kids were nodding out in the halls, junk was +overtaking our streets. We needed articulate power, not conformity. +There were other strong Black workers whose visions were racked +and silenced upon some imagined grid of narrow Blackness. Nor + + were Black women immune. At a national meeting of Black women +for political action, a young civil rights activist who had been +beaten and imprisoned in Mississippi only a few years before, was +trashed and silenced as suspect because of her white husband. Some +of us made it and some of us were lost to the struggle. It was a time +of great hope and great expectation; it was also a time of great +waste. That is history. We do not need to repeat these mistakes in +the 80s. +The raw energy of Black determination released in the 60s +powered changes in Black awareness and self-concepts and +expectations. This energy is still being felt in movements for change +among women, other peoples of Color, gays, the handicapped — +among all the disenfranchised peoples of this society. That is a +legacy of the 60s to ourselves and to others. But we must recognize +that many of our high expectations of rapid revolutionary change +did not in fact occur. And many of the gains that did are even now +being dismantled. This is not a reason for despair, nor for rejection +of the importance of those years. But we must face with clarity and +insight the lessons to be learned from the oversimplification of any +struggle for self-awareness and liberation, or we will not rally the +force we need to face the multidimensional threats to our survival in +the 80s. +There is no such thing as a single-issue struggle because we do not +live single-issue lives. Malcolm knew this. Martin Luther King, Jr. +knew this. Our struggles are particular, but we are not alone. We are +not perfect, but we are stronger and wiser than the sum of our +errors. Black people have been here before us and survived. We can +read their lives like signposts on the road and find, as Bernice +Reagon says so poignantly, that each one of us is here because +somebody before us did something to make it possible. To learn +from their mistakes is not to lessen our debt to them, nor to the hard +work of becoming ourselves, and effective. +We lose our history so easily, what is not predigested for us by the +New York Times, or the Amsterdam News, or Time magazine. Maybe +because we do not listen to our poets or to our fools, maybe because +we do not listen to our mamas in ourselves. When I hear the deepest + + truths I speak coming out of my mouth sounding like my mother’s, +even remembering how I fought against her, I have to reassess both +our relationship as well as the sources of my knowing. Which is not +to say that I have to romanticize my mother in order to appreciate +what she gave me — Woman, Black. We do not have to romanticize +our past in order to be aware of how it seeds our present. We do not +have to suffer the waste of an amnesia that robs us of the lessons of +the past rather than permit us to read them with pride as well as +deep understanding. +We know what it is to be lied to, and we know how important it is +not to lie to ourselves. +We are powerful because we have survived, and that is what it is +all about — survival and growth. +Within each one of us there is some piece of humanness that +knows we are not being served by the machine which orchestrates +crisis after crisis and is grinding all our futures into dust. If we are +to keep the enormity of the forces aligned against us from +establishing a false hierarchy of oppression, we must school +ourselves to recognize that any attack against Blacks, any attack +against women, is an attack against all of us who recognize that our +interests are not being served by the systems we support. Each one +of us here is a link in the connection between antipoor legislation, +gay shootings, the burning of synagogues, street harassment, attacks +against women, and resurgent violence against Black people. I ask +myself as well as each one of you, exactly what alteration in the +particular fabric of my everyday life does this connection call for? +Survival is not a theory. In what way do I contribute to the +subjugation of any part of those who I define as my people? Insight +must illuminate the particulars of our lives: who labors to make the +bread we waste, or the energy it takes to make nuclear poisons +which will not biodegrade for one thousand years; or who goes +blind assembling the microtransistors in our inexpensive +calculators? +We are women trying to knit a future in a country where an Equal +Rights Amendment was defeated as subversive legislation. We are +Lesbians and gay men who, as the most obvious target of the New + + Right, are threatened with castration, imprisonment, and death in +the streets. And we know that our erasure only paves the way for +erasure of other people of Color, of the old, of the poor, of all of +those who do not fit that mythic dehumanizing norm. +Can we really still afford to be fighting each other? +We are Black people living in a time when the consciousness of +our intended slaughter is all around us. People of Color are +increasingly expendable, our government’s policy both here and +abroad. We are functioning under a government ready to repeat in +El Salvador and Nicaragua the tragedy of Vietnam, a government +which stands on the wrong side of every single battle for liberation +taking place upon this globe; a government which has invaded and +conquered (as I edit this piece) the fifty-three square mile sovereign +state of Grenada, under the pretext that her 110,000 people pose a +threat to the U.S. Our papers are filled with supposed concern for +human rights in white communist Poland while we sanction by +acceptance and military supply the systematic genocide of apartheid +in South Africa, of murder and torture in Haiti and El Salvador. +American advisory teams bolster repressive governments across +Central and South America, and in Haiti, while advisory is only a +code name preceding military aid. +Decisions to cut aid for the terminally ill, for the elderly, for +dependent children, for food stamps, even school lunches, are being +made by men with full stomachs who live in comfortable houses +with two cars and umpteen tax shelters. None of them go hungry to +bed at night. Recently, it was suggested that senior citizens be hired +to work in atomic plants because they are close to the end of their +lives anyway. +Can any one of us here still afford to believe that efforts to +reclaim the future can be private or individual? Can any one here +still afford to believe that the pursuit of liberation can be the sole +and particular province of any one particular race, or sex, or age, or +religion, or sexuality, or class? +Revolution is not a one-time event. It is becoming always vigilant +for the smallest opportunity to make a genuine change in + + established, outgrown responses; for instance, it is learning to +address each other’s difference with respect. +We share a common interest, survival, and it cannot be pursued in +isolation from others simply because their differences make us +uncomfortable. We know what it is to be lied to. The 60s should +teach us how important it is not to lie to ourselves. Not to believe +that revolution is a one-time event, or something that happens +around us rather than inside of us. Not to believe that freedom can +belong to any one group of us without the others also being free. +How important it is not to allow even our leaders to define us to +ourselves, or to define our sources of power to us. +There is no Black person here who can afford to wait to be led +into positive action for survival. Each one of us must look clearly +and closely at the genuine particulars (conditions) of his or her life +and decide where action and energy is needed and where it can be +effective. Change is the immediate responsibility of each of us, +wherever and however we are standing, in whatever arena we +choose. For while we wait for another Malcolm, another Martin, +another charismatic Black leader to validate our struggles, old Black +people are freezing to death in tenements, Black children are being +brutalized and slaughtered in the streets, or lobotomized by +television, and the percentage of Black families living below the +poverty line is higher today than in 1963. +And if we wait to put our future into the hands of some new +messiah, what will happen when those leaders are shot, or +discredited, or tried for murder, or called homosexual, or otherwise +disempowered? Do we put our future on hold? What is that +internalized and self-destructive barrier that keeps us from moving, +that keeps us from coming together? +We who are Black are at an extraordinary point of choice within +our lives. To refuse to participate in the shaping of our future is to +give it up. Do not be misled into passivity either by false security +(they don’t mean me) or by despair (there’s nothing we can do). +Each of us must find our work and do it. Militancy no longer means +guns at high noon, if it ever did. It means actively working for +change, sometimes in the absence of any surety that change is + + coming. It means doing the unromantic and tedious work necessary +to forge meaningful coalitions, and it means recognizing which +coalitions are possible and which coalitions are not. It means +knowing that coalition, like unity, means the coming together of +whole, self-actualized human beings, focused and believing, not +fragmented automatons marching to a prescribed step. It means +fighting despair. +And in the university, that is certainly no easy task, for each one +of you by virtue of your being here will be deluged by opportunities +to misname yourselves, to forget who you are, to forget where your +real interests lie. Make no mistake, you will be courted; and nothing +neutralizes creativity quicker than tokenism, that false sense of +security fed by a myth of individual solutions. To paraphrase +Malcolm — a Black woman attorney driving a Mercedes through +Avenue Z in Brooklyn is still a “nigger bitch,” two words which +never seem to go out of style. +You do not have to be me in order for us to fight alongside each +other. I do not have to be you to recognize that our wars are the +same. What we must do is commit ourselves to some future that can +include each other and to work toward that future with the +particular strengths of our individual identities. And in order to do +this, we must allow each other our differences at the same time as +we recognize our sameness. +If our history has taught us anything, it is that action for change +directed only against the external conditions of our oppressions is +not enough. In order to be whole, we must recognize the despair +oppression plants within each of us — that thin persistent voice that +says our efforts are useless, it will never change, so why bother, +accept it. And we must fight that inserted piece of self-destruction +that lives and flourishes like a poison inside of us, unexamined until +it makes us turn upon ourselves in each other. But we can put our +finger down upon that loathing buried deep within each one of us +and see who it encourages us to despise, and we can lessen its +potency by the knowledge of our real connectedness, arcing across +our differences. + + Hopefully, we can learn from the 60s that we cannot afford to do +our enemies’ work by destroying each other. +What does it mean when an angry Black ballplayer — this +happened in Illinois — curses a white heckler but pulls a knife on a +Black one? What better way is there to police the streets of a +minority community than to turn one generation against the other? +Referring to Black lesbians and gay men, the student president at +Howard University says, on the occasion of a Gay Student Charter +on campus, “The Black community has nothing to do with such filth +— we will have to abandon these people.” [italics mine] Abandon? +Often without noticing, we absorb the racist belief that Black people +are fitting targets for everybody’s anger. We are closest to each +other, and it is easier to vent fury upon each other than upon our +enemies. +Of course, the young man at Howard was historically incorrect. As +part of the Black community, he has a lot to do with “us.” Some of +our finest writers, organizers, artists and scholars in the 60s as well +as today, have been lesbian and gay, and history will bear me out. +Over and over again in the 60s I was asked to justify my existence +and my work, because I was a woman, because I was a Lesbian, +because I was not a separatist, because some piece of me was not +acceptable. Not because of my work but because of my identity. I +had to learn to hold on to all the parts of me that served me, in spite +of the pressure to express only one to the exclusion of all others. +And I don’t know what I’d say face to face with that young man at +Howard University who says I’m filth because I identify women as +my primary source of energy and support, except to say that it is my +energy and the energy of other women very much like me which has +contributed to his being where he is at this point. But I think he +would not say it to my face because name-calling is always easiest +when it is removed, academic. The move to render the presence of +lesbians and gay men invisible in the intricate fabric of Black +existence and survival is a move which contributes to fragmentation +and weakness in the Black community. +In academic circles, as elsewhere, there is a kind of name-calling +increasingly being used to keep young Black women in line. Often as + + soon as any young Black woman begins to recognize that she is +oppressed as a woman as well as a Black, she is called a lesbian no +matter how she identifies herself sexually. “What do you mean you +don’t want to make coffee take notes wash dishes go to bed with +me, you a lesbian or something?” And at the threat of such a +dreaded taint, all too often she falls meekly into line, however +covertly. But the word lesbian is only threatening to those Black +women who are intimidated by their sexuality, or who allow +themselves to be defined by it and from outside themselves. Black +women in struggle from our own perspective, speaking up for +ourselves, sharing close ties with one another politically and +emotionally, are not the enemies of Black men. We are Black women +who seek our own definitions, recognizing diversity among +ourselves with respect. We have been around within our +communities for a very long time, and we have played pivotal parts +in the survival of those communities: from Hat Shep Sut through +Harriet Tubman to Daisy Bates and Fannie Lou Hamer to Lorraine +Hansberry to your Aunt Maydine to some of you who sit before me +now. +In the 60s Black people wasted a lot of our substance fighting +each other. We cannot afford to do that in the 80s, when +Washington, D.C. has the highest infant mortality rate of any U.S. +city, 60 percent of the Black community under twenty is +unemployed and more are becoming unemployable, lynchings are +on the increase, and less than half the registered Black voters voted +in the last election. +How are you practicing what you preach — whatever you preach, +and who exactly is listening? As Malcolm stressed, we are not +responsible for our oppression, but we must be responsible for our +own liberation. It is not going to be easy, but we have what we have +learned and what we have been given that is useful. We have the +power those who came before us have given us, to move beyond the +place where they were standing. We have the trees, and water, and +sun, and our children. Malcolm X does not live in the dry texts of his +words as we read them; he lives in the energy we generate and use +to move along the visions we share with him. We are making the + + future as well as bonding to survive the enormous pressures of the +present, and that is what it means to be a part of history. +* Talk delivered at the Malcolm X Weekend, Harvard University, February 1982. + + Eye to Eye: Black Women, Hatred, and Anger* +Where does the pain go when it goes away?** +EVERY BLACK WOMAN in America lives her life somewhere along a +wide curve of ancient and unexpressed angers. +My Black woman’s anger is a molten pond at the core of me, my +most fiercely guarded secret. I know how much of my life as a +powerful feeling woman is laced through with this net of rage. It is +an electric thread woven into every emotional tapestry upon which I +set the essentials of my life — a boiling hot spring likely to erupt at +any point, leaping out of my consciousness like a fire on the +landscape. How to train that anger with accuracy rather than deny +it has been one of the major tasks of my life. +Other Black women are not the root cause nor the source of that +pool of anger. I know this, no matter what the particular situation +may be between me and another Black woman at the moment. Then +why does that anger unleash itself most tellingly against another +Black woman at the least excuse? Why do I judge her in a more +critical light than any other, becoming enraged when she does not +measure up? +And if behind the object of my attack should lie the face of my +own self, unaccepted, then what could possibly quench a fire fueled +by such reciprocating passions? +When I started to write about the intensity of the angers between +Black women, I found I had only begun to touch one tip of a threepronged iceberg, the deepest understructure of which was Hatred, +that societal deathwish directed against us from the moment we +were born Black and female in America. From that moment on we +have been steeped in hatred — for our color, for our sex, for our +effrontery in daring to presume we had any right to live. As children +we absorbed that hatred, passed it through ourselves, and for the + + most part, we still live our lives outside of the recognition of what +that hatred really is and how it functions. Echoes of it return as +cruelty and anger in our dealings with each other. For each of us +bears the face that hatred seeks, and we have each learned to be at +home with cruelty because we have survived so much of it within +our own lives. +Before I can write about Black women’s anger, I must write about +the poisonous seepage of hatred that fuels that anger, and of the +cruelty that is spawned when they meet. +I have found this out by scrutinizing my own expectations of +other Black women, by following the threads of my own rage at +Blackwomanness back into the hatred and despisal that embroidered +my life with fire long before I knew where that hatred came from, +or why it was being heaped upon me. Children know only +themselves as reasons for the happenings in their lives. So of course +as a child I decided there must be something terribly wrong with me +that inspired such contempt. The bus driver didn’t look at other +people like that. All the things my mother had warned me not to do +and be that I had gone right ahead and done and been must be to +blame. +To search for power within myself means I must be willing to +move through being afraid to whatever lies beyond. If I look at my +most vulnerable places and acknowledge the pain I have felt, I can +remove the source of that pain from my enemies’ arsenals. My +history cannot be used to feather my enemies’ arrows then, and that +lessens their power over me. Nothing I accept about myself can be +used against me to diminish me. I am who I am, doing what I came +to do, acting upon you like a drug or a chisel to remind you of your +me-ness, as I discover you in myself. +America’s measurement of me has lain like a barrier across the +realization of my own powers. It was a barrier which I had to +examine and dismantle, piece by painful piece, in order to use my +energies fully and creatively. It is easier to deal with the external +manifestations of racism and sexism than it is to deal with the +results of those distortions internalized within our consciousness of +ourselves and one another. + + But what is the nature of that reluctance to connect with each +other on any but the most superficial levels? What is the source of +that mistrust and distance maintained between Black women? +I don’t like to talk about hate. I don’t like to remember the +cancellation and hatred, heavy as my wished-for death, seen in the +eyes of so many white people from the time I could see. It was +echoed in newspapers and movies and holy pictures and comic +books and Amos ’n Andy radio programs. I had no tools to dissect it, +no language to name it. +The AA subway train to Harlem. I clutch my mother’s sleeve, her +arms full of shopping bags, christmas-heavy. The wet smell of +winter clothes, the train’s lurching. My mother spots an almost seat, +pushes my little snowsuited body down. On one side of me a man +reading a paper. On the other, a woman in a fur hat staring at me. +Her mouth twitches as she stares and then her gaze drops down, +pulling mine with it. Her leather-gloved hand plucks at the line +where my new blue snowpants and her sleek fur coat meet. She +jerks her coat closer to her. I look. I do not see whatever terrible +thing she is seeing on the seat between us — probably a roach. But +she has communicated her horror to me. It must be something very +bad from the way she’s looking, so I pull my snowsuit closer to me +away from it, too. When I look up the woman is still staring at me, +her nose holes and eyes huge. And suddenly I realize there is +nothing crawling up the seat between us; it is me she doesn’t want +her coat to touch. The fur brushes past my face as she stands with a +shudder and holds on to a strap in the speeding train. Born and bred +a New York City child, I quickly slide over to make room for my +mother to sit down. No word has been spoken. I’m afraid to say +anything to my mother because I don’t know what I’ve done. I look +at the sides of my snowpants, secretly. Is there something on them? +Something’s going on here I do not understand, but I will never +forget it. Her eyes. The flared nostrils. The hate. +My three-year-old eyes ache from the machinery used to test +them. My forehead is sore. I have been poked and prodded in the +eyes and stared into all morning. I huddle into the tall metal and + + leather chair, frightened and miserable and wanting my mother. On +the other side of the eye clinic’s examining room, a group of young +white men in white coats discuss my peculiar eyes. Only one voice +remains in my memory. “From the looks of her she’s probably +simple, too.” They all laugh. One of them comes over to me, +enunciating slowly and carefully, “OK, girlie, go wait outside now.” +He pats me on the cheek. I am grateful for the absence of harshness. +The Story Hour librarian reading Little Black Sambo. Her white +fingers hold up the little book about a shoebutton-faced little boy +with big red lips and many pigtails and a hatful of butter. I +remember the pictures hurting me and my thinking again there +must be something wrong with me because everybody else is +laughing and besides the library downtown has given this little book +a special prize, the library lady tells us. +SO WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU, ANYWAY? DON’T BE SO +SENSITIVE! +Sixth grade in a new catholic school and I am the first Black +student. The white girls laugh at my braided hair. The nun sends a +note home to my mother saying that “pigtails are not appropriate +attire for school,” and that I should learn to comb my hair in “a +more becoming style.” +Lexie Goldman and I on Lexington Avenue, our adolescent faces +flushed from springtime and our dash out of high school. We stop at +a luncheonette, ask for water. The woman behind the counter smiles +at Lexie. Gives us water. Lexie’s in a glass. Mine in a paper cup. +Afterward we joke about mine being portable. Too loudly. +My first interview for a part-time job after school. An optical +company on Nassau Street has called my school and asked for one of +its students. The man behind the counter reads my application and +then looks up at me, surprised by my Black face. His eyes remind +me of the woman on the train when I was five. Then something else +is added, as he looks me up and down, pausing at my breasts. +My light-skinned mother kept me alive within an environment +where my life was not a high priority. She used whatever methods +she had at hand, few as they were. She never talked about color. My + + mother was a very brave woman, born in the West Indies, +unprepared for america. And she disarmed me with her silences. +Somewhere I knew it was a lie that nobody else noticed color. Me, +darker than my two sisters. My father, darkest of all. I was always +jealous of my sisters because my mother thought they were such +good girls, whereas I was bad, always in trouble. “Full of the devil,” +she used to say. They were neat, I was untidy. They were quiet, I +was noisy. They were well-behaved, I was rowdy. They took piano +lessons and won prizes in deportment. I stole money from my +father’s pockets and broke my ankle sledding downhill. They were +good-looking, I was dark. Bad, mischievous, a born troublemaker if +ever there was one. +Did bad mean Black? The endless scrubbing with lemon juice in +the cracks and crevices of my ripening, darkening, body. And oh, +the sins of my dark elbows and knees, my gums and nipples, the +folds of my neck and the cave of my armpits! +The hands that grab at me from behind the stairwell are Black +hands. Boys’ hands, punching, rubbing, pinching, pulling at my +dress. I hurl the garbage bag I’m carrying into the ashcan and jerk +away, fleeing back upstairs. Hoots follow me. “That’s right, you +better run, you ugly yaller bitch, just wait!” Obviously, color was +relative. +My mother taught me to survive from a very early age by her own +example. Her silences also taught me isolation, fury, mistrust, selfrejection, and sadness. My survival lay in learning how to use the +weapons she gave me, also, to fight against those things within +myself, unnamed. +And survival is the greatest gift of love. Sometimes, for Black +mothers, it is the only gift possible, and tenderness gets lost. My +mother bore me into life as if etching an angry message into marble. +Yet I survived the hatred around me because my mother made me +know, by oblique reference, that no matter what went on at home, +outside shouldn’t oughta be the way it was. But since it was that +way outside, I moved in a fen of unexplained anger that encircled +me and spilled out against whomever was closest that shared those +hated selves. Of course I did not realize it at the time. That anger lay + + like a pool of acid deep inside me, and whenever I felt deeply, I felt +it, attaching itself in the strangest places. Upon those as powerless +as I. My first friend asking, “Why do you go around hitting all the +time? Is that the only way you know how to be friends? +What other creature in the world besides the Black woman has had +to build the knowledge of so much hatred into her survival and keep +going? +It is shortly after the Civil War. In a grey stone hospital on 110th +Street in New York City a woman is screaming. She is Black, and +healthy, and has been brought here from the South. I do not know +her name. Her baby is ready to be born. But her legs have been tied +together out of a curiosity masquerading as science. Her baby births +itself to death against her bone. +Where are you seven-year-old Elizabeth Eckford of Little Rock, +Arkansas? It is a bright Monday morning and you are on your way +to your first day of school, draped in spittle, white hatred running +down your pink sweater and a white mother’s twisted mouth +working — savage, inhuman — wide over your jaunty braids held +high by their pink ribbons. +Numvulo has walked five days from the bleak place where the +lorry deposited her. She stands in the Capetown, South Africa rain, +her bare feet in the bulldozer tracks where her house once was. She +picks up a piece of soaked cardboard that once covered her table +and holds it over the head of her baby strapped to her back. Soon +she will be arrested and taken back to the reserve, where she does +not even speak the language. She will never get permission to live +near her husband. +The bicentennial, in Washington, D.C. Two ample Black women +stand guard over household belonging piled haphazardly onto a +sidewalk in front of a house. Furniture, toys, bundles of clothes. One +woman absently rocks a toy horse with the toe of her shoe, back and +forth. Across the street on the side of a building opposite is a sign +painted in story-high black letters, GOD HATES YOU. + + Addie Mae Collins, Carol Robertson, Cynthia Wesley, Denise +McNair. Four little Black girls, none more than ten years of age, +singing their last autumn song in a Sunday church school in +Birmingham, Alabama. After the explosion clears it is not possible to +tell which patent leather Sunday shoe belongs to which found leg. +What other human being absorbs so much virulent hostility and still +functions? +Black women have a history of the use and sharing of power, from +the Amazon legions of Dahomey through the Ashanti warrior queen +Yaa Asantewaa and the freedom fighter Harriet Tubman, to the +economically powerful market-women guilds of present West Africa. +We have a tradition of closeness and mutual care and support, from +the all-woman courts of the Queen Mothers of Benin to the presentday Sisterhood of the Good Death, a community of old women in +Brazil who, as escaped slaves, provided escape and refuge for other +enslaved women, and who now care for each other.* +We are Black women born into a society of entrenched loathing +and contempt for whatever is Black and female. We are strong and +enduring. We are also deeply scarred. As African women together, +we once made the earth fertile with our fingers. We can make the +earth bear as well as mount the first line of fire in defense of the +King. And having killed, in his name and in our own (Harriet’s rifle +speaks, shouldered in the grim marsh), we still know that the power +to kill is less than the power to create, for it produces an ending +rather than the beginning of something new. +Anger — a passion of displeasure that may be excessive or +misplaced but not necessarily harmful. Hatred — an emotional habit +or attitude of mind in which aversion is coupled with ill will. Anger, +used, does not destroy. Hatred does. +Racism and sexism are grown-up words. Black children in america +cannot avoid these distortions in their living and, too often, do not +have the words for naming them. But both are correctly perceived +as hatred. + + Growing up, metabolizing hatred like a daily bread. Because I am +Black, because I am woman, because I am not Black enough, +because I am not some particular fantasy of a woman, because I AM. +On such a consistent diet, one can eventually come to value the +hatred of one’s enemies more than one values the love of friends, +for that hatred becomes the source of anger, and anger is a powerful +fuel. +And true, sometimes it seems that anger alone keeps me alive; it +burns with a bright and undiminished flame. Yet anger, like guilt, is +an incomplete form of human knowledge. More useful than hatred, +but still limited. Anger is useful to help clarify our differences, but +in the long run, strength that is bred by anger alone is a blind force +which cannot create the future. It can only demolish the past. Such +strength does not focus upon what lies ahead, but upon what lies +behind, upon what created it — hatred. And hatred is a deathwish +for the hated, not a lifewish for anything else. +To grow up metabolizing hatred like daily bread means that +eventually every human interaction becomes tainted with the +negative passion and intensity of its by-products — anger and +cruelty. +We are African women and we know, in our blood’s telling, the +tenderness with which our foremothers held each other. It is that +connection which we are seeking. We have the stories of Black +women who healed each other’s wounds, raised each other’s +children, fought each other’s battles, tilled each other’s earth, and +eased each other’s passages into life and into death. We know the +possibilities of support and connection for which we all yearn, and +about which we dream so often. We have a growing Black women’s +literature which is richly evocative of these possibilities and +connections. But connections between Black women are not +automatic by virtue of our similarities, and the possibilities of +genuine communication between us are not easily achieved. +Often we give lip service to the idea of mutual support and +connection between Black women because we have not yet crossed +the barriers to these possibilities, nor fully explored the angers and +fears that keep us from realizing the power of a real Black + + sisterhood. And to acknowledge our dreams is to sometimes +acknowledge the distance between those dreams and our present +situation. Acknowledged, our dreams can shape the realities of our +future, if we arm them with the hard work and scrutiny of now. We +cannot settle for the pretenses of connection, or for parodies of selflove. We cannot continue to evade each other on the deepest levels +because we fear each other’s angers, nor continue to believe that +respect means never looking directly nor with openness into another +Black woman’s eyes. +I was not meant to be alone and without you who understand.* + + I. +I know the anger that lies inside of me like I know the beat of my +heart and the taste of my spit. It is easier to be angry than to hurt. +Anger is what I do best. It is easier to be furious than to be yearning. +Easier to crucify myself in you than to take on the threatening +universe of whiteness by admitting that we are worth wanting each +other. +As Black women, we have shared so many similar experiences. +Why doesn’t this commonality bring us closer together instead of +setting us at each other’s throats with weapons well-honed by +familiarity? +The anger with which I meet another Black woman’s slightest +deviation from my immediate need or desire or concept of a proper +response is a deep and hurtful anger, chosen only in the sense of a +choice of desperation — reckless through despair. That anger which +masks my pain that we are so separate who should most be together +— my pain — that she could perhaps not need me as much as I need +her, or see me through the blunted eye of the haters, that eye I +know so well from my own distorted images of her. Erase or be +erased! +I stand in the Public Library waiting to be recognized by the Black +woman library clerk seated a few feet behind the desk. She seems +engrossed in a book, beautiful in her youth and self-assuredness. I +straighten my glasses, giving a tiny shake to my bangles in the +process just in case she has not seen me, but I somehow know she +has. Otherwise motionless, she slowly turns her head and looks up. +Her eyes cross mine with a look of such incidental hostility that I +feel pilloried to the wall. Two male patrons enter behind me. At +that, she rises and moves toward me. “Yes,” she says, with no +inflection at all, her eyes carefully elsewhere. I’ve never seen this +young woman before in my life. I think to myself, “now that’s what +you call an attitude,” recognizing the rising tension inside of me. + + The art, beyond insolence, of the Black girl’s face as she cuts her +elegant sidelong glance at me. What makes her eyes slide off of +mine? What does she see that angers her so, or infuriates her, or +disgusts her? Why do I want to break her face off when her eyes do +not meet mine? Why does she wear my sister’s face? My daughter’s +mouth turned down about to suck itself in? The eyes of a furious +and rejected lover? Why do I dream I cradle you at night? Divide +your limbs between the food bowls of my least favorite animals? +Keep vigil for you night after terrible night, wondering? Oh sister, +where is that dark rich land we wanted to wander through together? +Hate said the voice wired in 3/4 time printed in dirty type all the +views fit to kill, me and you, me or you. And whose future image have +we destroyed — your face or mine — without either how shall I look +again at both — lacking either is lacking myself. +And if I trust you what pale dragon will you feed our brown flesh to +from fear, self-preservation, or to what brothered altar all innocent of +loving that has no place to go and so becomes another face of terror or +of hate? +A dumb beast endlessly recording inside the poisonous attacks of +silence — meat gone wrong — what could ever grow in that dim lair and +how does the child convert from sacrifice to liar? +My blood sister, across her living room from me. Sitting back in her +chair while I talk earnestly, trying to reach her, trying to alter the +perceptions of me that cause her so much pain. Slowly, carefully, +and coldly, so I will not miss one single scathing word, she says, “I +am not interested in understanding whatever you’re trying to say — +I don’t care to hear it.” +I have never gotten over the anger that you did not want me as a +sister, nor an ally, nor even a diversion one cut above the cat. You +have never gotten over the anger that I appeared at all. And that I +am different, but not different enough. One woman has eyes like my +sister who never forgave me for appearing before she had a chance +to win her mother’s love, as if anybody ever could. Another woman +wears the high cheekbones of my other sister who wanted to lead + + but had only been taught to obey, so now she is dedicated to ruling +by obedience, a passive vision. +Who did we expect the other to be who is not yet at peace with +our own selves? I cannot shut you out the way I shut the others out +so maybe I can destroy you. Must destroy you? +We do not love ourselves, therefore we cannot love each other. +Because we see in each other’s face our own face, the face we never +stopped wanting. Because we survived and survival breeds desire for +more self. A face we never stopped wanting at the same time as we +try to obliterate it. +Why don’t we meet each other’s eyes? Do we expect betrayal in +each other’s gaze, or recognition? +If just once we were to feel the pain of all Black women’s blood +flooding up to drown us! I stayed afloat buoyed by an anger so deep +at my loneliness that I could only move toward further survival. +When one cannot influence a situation it is an act of wisdom to +withdraw.* +Every Black woman in america has survived several lifetimes of +hatred, where even in the candy store cases of our childhood, little +brown niggerbaby candies testified against us. We survived the +wind-driven spittle on our child’s shoe and pink flesh-colored +bandaids, attempted rapes on rooftops and the prodding fingers of +the super’s boy, seeing our girlfriends blown to bits in Sunday +School, and we absorbed that loathing as a natural state. We had to +metabolize such hatred that our cells have learned to live upon it +because we had to, or die of it. Old King Mithridates learned to eat +arsenic bit by bit and so outwitted his poisoners, but I’d have hated +to kiss him upon his lips! Now we deny such hatred ever existed +because we have learned to neutralize it through ourselves, and the +catabolic process throws off waste products of fury even when we +love. +I see hatred +I am bathed in it, drowning in it +since almost the beginning of my life + + it has been the air I breathe +the food I eat, the content of my perceptions; +the single most constant fact of my existence +is their hatred … +I am too young for my history** +It is not that Black women shed each other’s psychic blood so +easily, but that we have ourselves bled so often, the pain of +bloodshed becomes almost commonplace. If I have learned to eat +my own flesh in the forest — starving, keening, learning the lesson +of the she-wolf who chews off her own paw to leave the trap behind +— if I must drink my own blood, thirsting, why should I stop at +yours until your dear dead arms hang like withered garlands upon +my breast and I weep for your going, oh my sister, I grieve for our +gone. +When an error of oversight allows one of us to escape without the +full protective dose of fury and air of contemptuous disdain, when +she approaches us without a measure of distrust and reserve flowing +from her pores, or without her eyes coloring each appraisal of us +with that unrelenting sharpness and suspicion reserved only for each +other, when she approaches without sufficient caution, then she is +cursed by the first accusation of derision — naive — meaning not +programmed for defensive attack before inquiry. Even more than +confused, naive is the ultimate wipeout between us. +Black women eating our own hearts out for nourishment in an +empty house empty compound empty city in an empty season, and +for each of us one year the spring will not return — we learned to +savor the taste of our own flesh before any other because that was +all that was allowed us. And we have become to each other +unmentionably dear and immeasurably dangerous. I am writing +about an anger so huge and implacable, so corrosive, it must destroy +what it most needs for its own solution, dissolution, resolution. Here +we are attempting to address each others’ eyes directly. Even if our +words taste sharp as the edge of a lost woman’s voice, we are +speaking. + + II +A Black woman, working her years, committed to life as she lives it, +the children fed and clothed and loved as she can into some strength +that does not allow them to encyst like horse chestnuts, knowing all +the time from the start that she must either kill them or eventually +send them into the deathlands, the white labyrinth. +I sat at our Thanksgiving Day table listening to my daughter talk +about the university and the horrors of determined invisibility. Over +the years I have recorded her dreams of death at their hands, +sometimes glorious, sometimes cheap. She tells me of the teachers +who refuse to understand simple questions, who look at her as if she +were a benign — meaning powerless — but unsightly tumor. She +weeps. I hold her. I tell her to remember the university doesn’t own +her, that she has a home. But I have let her go into that jungle of +ghosts, having taught her only how to be fleet of foot, how to +whistle, how to love, and how not to run. Unless she has to. It is +never enough. +Black women give our children forth into a hatred that seared our +own young days with bewilderment, hoping we have taught them +something they can use to fashion their own new and less costly +pathways to survival. Knowing I did not slit their throats at birth +tear out the tiny beating heart with my own despairing teeth the +way some sisters did in the slaveships chained to corpses and +therefore was I committed to this very moment. +The price of increasing power is increasing opposition.* +I sat listening to my girl talk about the bent world she was +determined to reenter in spite of all she was saying, because she +views a knowledge of that world as part of an arsenal which she can +use to change it all. I listened, hiding my pained need to snatch her +back into the web of my smaller protections. I sat watching while +she worked it out bit by hurtful bit — what she really wanted — +feeling her rage wax and wane, feeling her anger building against + + me because I could not help her do it nor do it for her, nor would +she allow that. +All mothers see their daughters leaving. Black mothers see it +happening as a sacrifice through the veil of hatred hung like sheets +of lava in the pathway before their daughters. All daughters see +their mothers leaving. Black girls see it happening through a veil of +threatened isolation no fire of trusting pierces. +Last month I held another Black woman in my arms as she sobbed +out the grief and deprivation of her mother’s death. Her +inconsolable loss — the emptiness of the emotional landscape she +was seeing in front of her — spoke out of her mouth from a place of +untouchable aloneness that could never admit another Black woman +close enough again to matter. “The world is divided into two kinds +of people,” she said, “those who have mothers and those who don’t. +And I don’t have a mother anymore.” What I heard her saying was +that no other Black woman would ever see who she was, ever trust +or be trusted by her again. I heard in her cry of loneliness the source +of the romance between Black women and our mommas. +Little Black girls, tutored by hate into wanting to become +anything else. We cut our eyes at sister because she can only reflect +what everybody else except momma seemed to know — that we +were hateful, or ugly, or worthless, but certainly unblessed. We +were not boys and we were not white, so we counted for less than +nothing, except to our mommas. +If we can learn to give ourselves the recognition and acceptance +that we have come to expect only from our mommas, Black women +will be able to see each other much more clearly and deal with each +other much more directly. +I think about the harshness that exists so often within the least +encounter between Black women, the judgment and the sizing up, +that cruel refusal to connect. I know sometimes I feel like it is worth +my life to disagree with another Black woman. Better to ignore her, +withdraw from her, go around her, just don’t deal with her. Not just +because she irritates me, but because she might destroy me with the +cruel force of her response to what must feel like an affront, namely + + me. Or I might destroy her with the force of mine, for the very same +reason. The fears are equal. +Once I can absorb the particulars of my life as a Black woman, +and multiply them by my two children and all the days of our +collective Black lives, and I do not falter beneath the weight — what +Black woman is not a celebration, like water, like sunlight, like rock +— is it any wonder that my voice is harsh? Now to require of myself +the effort of awareness, so that harshness will not function in the +places it is least deserved — toward my sisters. +Why do Black women reserve a particular voice of fury and +disappointment for each other? Who is it we must destroy when we +attack each other with that tone of predetermined and correct +annihilation? We reduce one another to our own lowest common +denominator, and then we proceed to try and obliterate what we +most desire to love and touch, the problematic self, unclaimed but +fiercely guarded from the other. +This cruelty between us, this harshness, is a piece of the legacy of +hate with which we were inoculated from the time we were born by +those who intended it to be an injection of death. But we adapted, +learned to take it in and use it, unscrutinized. Yet at what cost! In +order to withstand the weather, we had to become stone, and now +we bruise ourselves upon the other who is closest. +How do I alter course so each Black woman’s face I meet is not +the face of my mother or my killer? +I loved you. I dreamed about you. I talked to you for hours in my sleep +sitting under a silk-cotton tree our arms around each other or braiding +each other’s hair or oiling each other’s backs, and every time I run into +you on the street or at the post office or behind the Medicaid desk I want +to wring your neck. +There are so many occasions in each of our lives for righteous fury, +multiplied and dividing. +• Black women being told that we can be somehow better, and are +worse, but never equal. To Black men. To other women. To human +beings. + + • The white academic feminist who tells me she is so glad This +Bridge Called My Back* exists, because now it gives her a chance to +deal with racism without having to face the harshness of Black +undiluted by other colors. What she means is she does not have to +examine her own specific terror and loathing of Blackness, nor deal +with the angers of Black women. So get away with your dirty ugly +mean faces, all screwed up all the time! +• The racist filmstrip artist who I thought I had handled so +patiently and well. I didn’t blow up his damned machine. I +explained how his racial blindness made me feel and how his film +could be altered to have some meaning. He probably learned +something about showing Black images. Then I came home and +almost tore up my house and my lover because some invitations +happened to be misprinted. Not seeing where the charge of rage was +born. +• A convicted Black man, a torturer of women and children, armytrained to be a killer, writes in his journal in his death cell: +“I am the type of person you are most likely to find driving a +Mercedes and sitting in the executive offices of 100 big +corporations.” And he’s right. Except he’s Black. +How do we keep from releasing our angers at them upon +ourselves and each other? How do I free myself from this poison I +was force-fed like a Strasburg goose until I vomited anger at the +least scent of anything nourishing, oh my sister the belligerent lift of +your shoulder the breath of your hair.… We each learned the craft of +destruction. It is all they knew to allow us, yet look how our words +are finding each other again. +It is difficult to construct a wholesomeness model when we are +surrounded with synonyms for filth. But not impossible. We have, +after all, survived for a reason. (How do I define my impact upon +this earth?) I begin by searching for the right questions. +Dear Leora, +For two Black women to enter an analytic or therapeutic +relationship means beginning an essentially uncharted and + + insecure journey. There are no prototypes, no models, no +objectively accessible body of experience other than +ourselves by which to examine the specific dynamics of our +interactions as Black women. Yet this interaction can affect +all the other psychic matter attended profoundly. It is to +scrutinize that very interaction that I sought you out +professionally, and I have come to see that it means picking +my way through our similarities and our differences, as well +as through our histories of calculated mistrust and desire. +Because it has not been done before or at least not been +noted, this particular scrutiny is painful and fraught with +the vulnerability of all psychic scrutinies plus all of the +pitfalls created by our being Black women in a white male +world, and Black women who have survived. This is a +scrutiny often sidestepped or considered unimportant or +beside the point. EXAMPLE: I can’t tell you how many good +white psychwomen have said to me, “Why should it matter +if I am Black or white?” who would never think of saying, +“Why does it matter if I am female or male?” EXAMPLE: I +don’t know who you are in supervision with, but I can bet +it’s not with another Black woman. +So this territory between us feels new and frightening as +well as urgent, rigged with detonating pieces of our own +individual racial histories which neither of us chose but +which each of us bears the scars from. And those are +particular to each of us. But there is a history which we +share because we are Black women in a racist sexist +cauldron, and that means some part of this journey is yours, +also. +I have many troubled areas of self that will be neither new +nor problematic to you as a trained and capable +psychperson. I think you are a brave woman and I respect +that, yet I doubt that your training can have prepared you to +explore the tangle of need, fear, distrust, despair, and hope +which operates between us, and certainly not to the depth + + necessary. Because neither of us is male nor white, we +belong to a group of human beings that has not been +thought worthy of that kind of study. So we have only who +we are, with or without the courage to use those selves for +further exploration and clarification of how what lies +between us as Black women affects us and the work we do +together. +Yet if we do not do it here between us, each one of us will +have to do it somewhere else, sometime. +I know these things: I do not yet know what to do about +them. But I do want to make them fit together to serve my +life and my work, and I don’t mean merely in a way that +feels safe. I don’t know how they can further and illuminate +your life and work, but I know they can. It is sometimes +both the curse and the blessing of the poet to perceive +without yet being able to order those perceptions, and that +is another name for Chaos. +But of course it is out of Chaos that new worlds are born. +I look forward to our meeting eye to eye. +Audre + + III +There has been so much death and loss around me recently, without +metaphor or redeeming symbol, that sometimes I feel trapped into +one idiom only — that one of suffering and its codicil, to bear. The +same problem exists with anger. I have processed too much of it +recently, or else the machinery is slowing down or becoming less +efficient, and it creeps into my most crucial interchanges. +Perhaps this is why it is often easier for Black women to interact +with white women, even though those interactions are often a dead +end emotionally. For with white women there is a middle depth of +interaction possible and sustainable, an emotional limit to +relationships of self upon self acknowledged. +Now why is this not so with Frances, who is white, and whom I +meet at a depth beyond anyone? When I speak of Frances and me I +am talking about a relationship not only of great depth but one of +great breadth also, a totaling of differences without merging. I am +also speaking of a love shaped by our mutual commitment to hard +work and confrontation over many years, each of us refusing to +settle for what was easy, or simple, or acceptably convenient. +That middle depth of relationship more usually possible between +Black and white women, however, is less threatening than the +tangle of unexplored needs and furies that face any two Black +women who seek to engage each other directly, emotionally, no +matter what the context of their relationship may be. This holds true +for office workers and political activists as well as lovers. But it is +through threading this tangle that new visions of self and possibility +between Black women emerge. Again, I am speaking here of social +relationships, for it is crucial that we examine dynamics between +women who are not lovers as well as between women who are. +I ask myself, do I ever use my war against racism to avoid other +even more unanswerable pain? And if so, doesn’t that make the +energy behind my battles against racism sometimes more tenuous, +or less clearheaded, or subject to unexpected stresses and + + disappointments? White people can never truly validate us. For +example: At this point in time, were racism to be totally eradicated +from those middle range relationships between Black women and +white women, those relationships might become deeper, but they +would still never satisfy our particular Black woman’s need for one +another, given our shared knowledge and traditions and history. +There are two very different struggles involved here. One is the war +against racism in white people, and the other is the need for Black +women to confront and wade through the racist constructs +underlying our deprivation of each other. And these battles are not +at all the same. +But sometimes it feels like better a righteous fury than the dull +ache of loss, loss, loss. My daughter leaving her time of +daughterhood. Friends going away in one way or another. +… as those seemingly alike mature, nature emphasizes their +uniqueness and the differences become more obvious.* +How often have I demanded from another Black woman what I +had not dared to give myself — acceptance, faith, enough space to +consider change? How often have I asked her to leap across +difference, suspicion, distrust, old pain? How many times have I +expected her to jump the hideous gaps of our learned despisals +alone, like an animal trained through blindness to ignore the +precipice? How many times have I forgotten to ask this question? +Am I not reaching out for you in the only language I know? Are +you reaching for me in your only salvaged tongue? If I try to hear +yours across our differences does/will that mean you can hear +mine? +Do we explore these questions or do we settle for that secret +isolation which is the learned tolerance of deprivation of each other +— that longing for each other’s laughter, dark ease, sharing, and +permission to be ourselves that we do not admit to feeling, usually, +because then we would have to admit the lack; and the pain of that +lacking, persistent as a low-grade fever and as debilitating? +Do we reenact these crucifixions upon each other, the avoidance, +the cruelty, the judgments, because we have not been allowed Black +goddesses, Black heroines; because we have not been allowed to see + + our mothers and our selves in their/our own magnificence until that +magnificence became part of our blood and bone? One of the +functions of hatred is certainly to mask and distort the beauty which +is power in ourselves. +I am hungry for Black women who will not turn from me in anger +and contempt even before they know me or hear what I have to say. +I am hungry for Black women who will not turn away from me even +if they do not agree with what I say. We are, after all, talking about +different combinations of the same borrowed sounds. +Sometimes exploring our differences feels like marching out to +war. I hurl myself with trepidation into the orbit of every Black +woman I want to reach, advancing with the best of what I have to +offer held out at arms length before me — myself. Does it feel +different to her? At the same time as I am terrified, expecting +betrayal, rejection, the condemnations of laughter, is she feeling +judged by me? +Most of the Black women I know think I cry too much, or that I’m +too public about it. I’ve been told that crying makes me seem soft +and therefore of little consequence. As if our softness has to be the +price we pay out for power, rather than simply the one that’s paid +most easily and most often. +I fight nightmare images inside my own self, see them, own them, +know they did not destroy me before and will not destroy me now if +I speak them out, admit how they have scarred me, that my mother +taught me to survive at the same time as she taught me to fear my +own Blackness. “Don’t trust white people because they mean us no +good and don’t trust anyone darker than you because their hearts +are as Black as their faces.” (And where did that leave me, the +darkest one?) It is painful even now to write it down. How many +messages like that come down to all of us, and in how many +different voices, how many different ways? And how can we +expunge these messages from our consciousness without first +recognizing what it was they were saying, and how destructive they +were? + + IV +What does it take to be tough? Learned cruelty? +Now there is bound to be a voice saying that Black women have +always helped one another, haven’t we? And that is the paradox of +our inner conflict. We have a strong and ancient tradition of +bonding and mutual support, and the memorized threads of that +tradition exist within each of us, in opposition to the anger and +suspicion engendered by self-hate. +When the world moved against me with a disapproving frown / It was +sister put the ground back under my feet.* +Hearing those words sung has always provoked the most profound +and poignant sense of loss within me for something I wanted to feel +and could not because it had never happened for me. There are +some Black women for whom it has. For others of us, that sense of +being able to depend upon rock bottom support from our sisters is +something we dream about and work toward, knowing it is possible, +but also very problematic across the realities of fear and suspicion +lying between us. +Our anger, tempered over survival fires, shuttered behind +downcast eyelids, or else blazing out of our eyes at the oddest times. +Looking up from between the legs of a lover, over a notebook in the +middle of a lecture and I almost lost my train of thought, ringing up +groceries in the supermarket, filling out the form behind the +unemployment office window, stepping out of a, cab in the middle +of Broadway on the arm of a businessman from Lagos, sweeping +ahead of me into a shop as I open the door, looking into each others +eyes for a split second only — furious, cutting, sisters. My daughter +asking me all the time when she was a little girl, “Are you angry +about something, Mommy?” +As Black women, we have wasted our angers too often, buried +them, called them someone else’s, cast them wildly into oceans of +racism and sexism from which no vibration resounded, hurled them +into each other’s teeth and then ducked to avoid the impact. But by + + and large, we avoid open expression of them, or cordon them off in +a rigid and unapproachable politeness. The rage that feels illicit or +unjustified is kept secret, unnamed, and preserved forever. We are +stuffed with furies, against ourselves, against each other, terrified to +examine them lest we find ourselves in bold print fingered and +named what we have always felt and even sometimes preferred +ourselves to be — alone. And certainly, there are enough occasions +in all our lives where we can use our anger righteously, enough for +many lifetimes. We can avoid confrontation with each other very +readily. It is so much easier to examine our anger within situations +that are (relatively) clearcut and emotionally unloaded. It is so +much easier to express our anger in those middle depth +relationships that do not threaten genuine self-exposure. And yet +always that hunger for the substance known, a hunger for the real +shared, for the sister who shares. +It is hard to stand up in the teeth of white dismissal and +aggression, of gender hatred and attack. It is so much harder to +tackle face-on the rejection of Black women who may be seeing in +my face some face they have not discarded in their own mirror, who +see in my eyes the shape they have come to fear may be their own. +So often this fear is stoked between Black women by the feared loss +of a male companion, present or sought after. For we have also been +taught that a man acquired was the sole measure of success, and yet +they almost never stay. +One Black woman sits and silently judges another, how she looks, +how she acts, how she impresses others. The first woman’s scales +are weighted against herself. She is measuring the impossible. She is +measuring the self she does not fully want to be. She does not want +to accept the contradictions, nor the beauty. She wishes the other +woman would go away. She wishes the other woman would become +someone else, anyone other than another Black woman. She has +enough trouble dealing with being herself. “Why don’t you learn to +fly straight,” she says to the other woman. “Don’t you understand +what your poor showing says about us all? If I could fly I’d certainly +do a better job than that. Can’t you put on a more together show? + + The white girls do it. Maybe we could get one to show you how.” +The other woman cannot speak. She is too busy keeping herself +from crashing upon the ground. She will not cry the tears which are +hardening into little sharp stones that spit from her eyes and +implant themselves in the first woman’s heart, who quickly heals +over them and identifies them as the source of her pain. + + V +There are myths of self-protection that hold us separate from each +other and breed harshness and cruelty where we most need softness +and understanding. +1. That courtesy or politeness require our not noticing each other +directly, only with the most covert of evaluating glances. At all +costs, we must avoid the image of our fear. “How beautiful your +mouth is” might well be heard as “Look at those big lips.” We +maintain a discreet distance between each other also because that +distance between us makes me less you, makes you less me. +When there is no connection at all between people, then anger is +a way of bringing them closer together, of making contact. But +when there is a great deal of connectedness that is problematic or +threatening or unacknowledged, then anger is a way of keeping +people separate, of putting distance between us. +2. That because we sometimes rise to each other’s defense against +outsiders, we do not need to look at devaluation and dismissal +among ourselves. Support against outsiders is very different from +cherishing each other. Often it is a case of “like needs like.” It +doesn’t mean we have to appreciate that like or our need of it, even +when that like is the only thin line between dying and living. +For if I take the white world’s estimation of me as Black-womansynonymous-with-garbage to heart, then deep down inside myself I +will always believe that I am truly good for nothing. But it is very +hard to look absorbed hatred in the face. It is easier to see you as +good for nothing because you are like me. So when you support me +because you are like me, that merely confirms that you are nothing +too, just like me. It’s a no-win position, a case of nothing supporting +nothing and someone’s gonna have to pay for that one, and it sure +ain’t gonna be me! When I can recognize my worth, I can recognize +yours. +3. That perfection is possible, a correct expectation from ourselves +and each other, and the only terms of acceptance, humanness. (Note + + how very useful that makes us to the external institutions!) If you +are like me, then you will have to be a lot better than I am in order +to even be good enough. And you can’t be because no matter how +good you are you’re still a Black woman, just like me. (Who does +she think she is?) So any act or idea that I could accept or at least +examine from anyone else is not even tolerable if it comes from you, +my mirror image. If you are not THEIR image of perfection, and you +can’t ever be because you are a Black woman, then you are a +reflection upon me. We are never good enough for each other. All +your faults become magnified reflections of my own threatening +inadequacies. I must attack you first before our enemies confuse us +with each other. But they will anyway. +Oh mother, why were we armed to fight with cloud-wreathed swords +and javelins of dust? “Just who do you think you are, anyway?” Who +I am most afraid of (never) meeting. + + VI +The language by which we have been taught to dismiss ourselves +and our feelings as suspect is the same language we use to dismiss +and suspect each other. Too pretty — too ugly. Too Black — too +white. Wrong. I already know that. Who says so. You’re too +questionable for me to hear you. You speak THEIR language. You +don’t speak THEIR language. Who do you think you are? You think +you’re better than anybody else? Get out of my face. +We refuse to give up the artificial distances between us, or to +examine our real differences for creative exchange. I’m too different +for us to communicate. Meaning, I must establish myself as not-you. +And the road to anger is paved with our unexpressed fear of each +other’s judgment. We have not been allowed to experience each +other freely as Black women in america; we come to each other +coated in myths, stereotypes, and expectations from the outside, +definitions not our own. “You are my reference group, but I have +never worked with you.” How are you judging me? As Black as you? +Blacker than you? Not Black enough? Whichever, I am going to be +found wanting in some way … +We are Black women, defined as never-good-enough. I must +overcome that by becoming better than you. If I expect enough from +myself, then maybe I can become different from what they say we +are, different from you. If I become different enough, then maybe I +won’t be a “nigger bitch” anymore. If I make you different enough +from me, then I won’t need you so much. I will become strong, the +best, excel in everything, become the very best because I don’t dare +to be anything else. It is my only chance to become good enough to +become human. +If I am myself, then you cannot accept me. But if you can accept +me, that means I am what you would like to be, and then I’m not +“the real thing.” But then neither are you. WILL THE REAL BLACK +WOMAN PLEASE STAND UP? + + We cherish our guilty secret, buried under exquisite clothing and +expensive makeup and bleaching creams (yes, still!) and hair +straighteners masquerading as permanent waves. The killer instinct +toward any one of us who deviates from the proscribed cover is +precise and deadly. +Acting like an insider and feeling like the outsider, preserving our +self-rejection as Black women at the same time as we’re getting over +— we think. And political work will not save our souls, no matter +how correct and necessary that work is. Yet it is true that without +political work we cannot hope to survive long enough to effect any +change. And self-empowerment is the most deeply political work +there is, and the most difficult. +When we do not attempt to name the confusion of feelings which +exist between sisters, we act them out in hundreds of hurtful and +unproductive ways. Never speaking from the old pain, to beyond. As +if we have made a secret pact between ourselves not to speak, for +the expression of that unexamined pain might be accompanied by +other ancient and unexpressed hurtings embedded in the stored-up +anger we have not expressed. And that anger, as we know from our +flayed egos of childhood, is armed with a powerful cruelty learned +in the bleakness of too-early battles for survival. “You can’t take it, +huh!” The Dozens. A Black game of supposedly friendly rivalry and +name-calling; in reality, a crucial exercise in learning how to absorb +verbal abuse without faltering. +A piece of the price we paid for learning survival was our +childhood. We were never allowed to be children. It is the right of +children to be able to play at living for a little while, but for a Black +child, every act can have deadly serious consequences, and for a +Black girl child, even more so. Ask the ghosts of the four little Black +girls blown up in Birmingham. Ask Angel Lenair, or Latonya Wilson, +or Cynthia Montgomery, the three girl victims in the infamous +Atlanta murders, none of whose deaths have ever been solved. +Sometimes it feels as if I were to experience all the collective +hatred that I have had directed at me as a Black woman, admit its +implications into my consciousness, I might die of the bleak and + + horrible weight. Is that why a sister once said to me, “white people +feel, Black people do”? +It is true that in america white people, by and large, have more +time and space to afford the luxury of scrutinizing their emotions. +Black people in this country have always had to attend closely to the +hard and continuous work of survival in the most material and +immediate planes. But it is a temptation to move from this fact to +the belief that Black people do not need to examine our feelings; or +that they are unimportant, since they have so often been used to +stereotype and infantalize us; or that these feelings are not vital to +our survival; or, worse, that there is some acquired virtue in not +feeling them deeply. That is carrying a timebomb wired to our +emotions. +There is a distinction I am beginning to make in my living +between pain and suffering. Pain is an event, an experience that must +be recognized, named, and then used in some way in order for the +experience to change, to be transformed into something else, +strength or knowledge or action. +Suffering, on the other hand, is the nightmare reliving of +unscrutinized and unmetabolized pain. When I live through pain +without recognizing it, self-consciously, I rob myself of the power +that can come from using that pain, the power to fuel some +movement beyond it. I condemn myself to reliving that pain over +and over and over whenever something close triggers it. And that is +suffering, a seemingly inescapable cycle. +And true, experiencing old pain sometimes feels like hurling +myself full force against a concrete wall. But I remind myself that I +HAVE LIVED THROUGH IT ALL ALREADY, AND SURVIVED. +Sometimes the anger that lies between Black women is not +examined because we spend so much of our substance having to +examine others constantly in the name of self-protection and +survival, and we cannot reserve enough energy to scrutinize +ourselves. Sometimes we don’t do it because the anger’s been there +so long we don’t know what it is, or we think it’s natural to suffer +rather than to experience pain. Sometimes, because we are afraid of +what we will find. Sometimes, because we don’t think we deserve it. + + The revulsion on the woman’s face in the subway as she moves +her coat away and I think she is seeing a roach. But I see the hatred +in her eyes because she wants me to see the hatred in her eyes, +because she wants me to know in only the way a child can know +that I don’t belong alive in her world. If I’d been grown, I’d +probably have laughed or snarled or been hurt, seen it for what it +was. But I am five years old. I see it, I record it, I do not name it, so +the experience is incomplete. It is not pain; it becomes suffering. +And how can I tell you I don’t like the way you cut your eyes at +me if I know that I am going to release all the unnamed angers +within you spawned by the hatred you have suffered and never felt? +So we are drawn to each other but wary, demanding the instant +perfection we would never expect from our enemies. But it is +possible to break through this inherited agony, to refuse +acquiescence in this bitter charade of isolation and anger and pain. +I read this question many times in the letters of Black women, +“Why do I feel myself to be such an anathema, so isolated?” I hear it +spoken over and over again, in endless covert ways. But we can +change that scenario. We can learn to mother ourselves. +What does that mean for Black women? It means we must +establish authority over our own definition, provide an attentive +concern and expectation of growth which is the beginning of that +acceptance we came to expect only from our mothers. It means that +I affirm my own worth by committing myself to my own survival, in +my own self and in the self of other Black women. On the other +hand, it means that as I learn my worth and genuine possibility, I +refuse to settle for anything less than a rigorous pursuit of the +possible in myself, at the same time making a distinction between +what is possible and what the outside world drives me to do in +order to prove I am human. It means being able to recognize my +successes, and to be tender with myself, even when I fail. +We will begin to see each other as we dare to begin to see +ourselves; we will begin to see ourselves as we begin to see each +other, without aggrandizement or dismissal or recriminations, but +with patience and understanding for when we do not quite make it, +and recognition and appreciation for when we do. Mothering + + ourselves means learning to love what we have given birth to by +giving definition to, learning how to be both kind and demanding in +the teeth of failure as well as in the face of success, and not +misnaming either. +When you come to respect the character of the time you will not have +to cover emptyness with pretense.* +We must recognize and nurture the creative parts of each other +without always understanding what will be created. +As we fear each other less and value each other more, we will +come to value recognition within each other’s eyes as well as within +our own, and seek a balance between these visions. Mothering. +Claiming some power over who we choose to be, and knowing that +such power is relative within the realities of our lives. Yet knowing +that only through the use of that power can we effectively change +those realities. Mothering means the laying to rest of what is weak, +timid, and damaged — without despisal — the protection and +support of what is useful for survival and change, and our joint +explorations of the difference. +I recall a beautiful and intricate sculpture from the court of the +Queen Mother of Benin, entitled “The Power Of The Hand.” It +depicts the Queen Mother, her court women, and her warriors in a +circular celebration of the human power to achieve success in +practical and material ventures, the ability to make something out +of anything. In Dahomey, that power is female. + + VIII +Theorizing about self-worth is ineffective. So is pretending. Women +can die in agony who have lived with blank and beautiful faces. I +can afford to look at myself directly, risk the pain of experiencing +who I am not, and learn to savor the sweetness of who I am. I can +make friends with all the different pieces of me, liked and disliked. +Admit that I am kinder to my neighbor’s silly husband most days +than I am to myself. I can look into the mirror and learn to love the +stormy little Black girl who once longed to be white or anything +other than who she was, since all she was ever allowed to be was +the sum of the color of her skin and the textures of her hair, the +shade of her knees and elbows, and those things were clearly not +acceptable as human. +Learning to love ourselves as Black women goes beyond a +simplistic insistence that “Black is beautiful.” It goes beyond and +deeper than a surface appreciation of Black beauty, although that is +certainly a good beginning. But if the quest to reclaim ourselves and +each other remains there, then we risk another superficial +measurement of self, one superimposed upon the old one and almost +as damaging, since it pauses at the superficial. Certainly it is no +more empowering. And it is empowerment — our strengthening in +the service of ourselves and each other, in the service of our work +and future — that will be the result of this pursuit. +I have to learn to love myself before I can love you or accept your +loving. You have to learn to love yourself before you can love me or +accept my loving. Know we are worthy of touch before we can reach +out for each other. Not cover that sense of worthlessness with “I +don’t want you” or “it doesn’t matter” or “white folks feel, Black +folks DO.” And these are enormously difficult to accomplish in an +environment that consistently encourages nonlove and cover-up, an +environment that warns us to be quiet about our need of each other, +by defining our dissatisfactions as unanswerable and our necessities +as unobtainable. + + Until now, there has been little that taught us how to be kind to +each other. To the rest of the world, yes, but not to ourselves. There +have been few external examples of how to treat another Black +woman with kindness, deference, tenderness or an appreciative +smile in passing, just because she IS; an understanding of each +other’s shortcomings because we have been somewhere close to +that, ourselves. When last did you compliment another sister, give +recognition to her specialness? We have to consciously study how to +be tender with each other until it becomes a habit because what was +native has been stolen from us, the love of Black women for each +other. But we can practice being gentle with ourselves by being +gentle with each other. We can practice being gentle with each +other by being gentle with that piece of ourselves that is hardest to +hold, by giving more to the brave bruised girlchild within each of +us, by expecting a little less from her gargantuan efforts to excel. We +can love her in the light as well as in the darkness, quiet her frenzy +toward perfection and encourage her attentions toward fulfillment. +Maybe then we will come to appreciate more how much she has +taught us, and how much she is doing to keep this world revolving +toward some livable future. +It would be ridiculous to believe that this process is not lengthy +and difficult. It is suicidal to believe it is not possible. As we arm +ourselves with ourselves and each other, we can stand toe to toe +inside that rigorous loving and begin to speak the impossible — or +what has always seemed like the impossible — to one another. The +first step toward genuine change. Eventually, if we speak the truth +to each other, it will become unavoidable to ourselves. +* An abbreviated version of this essay was published in Essence, vol. 14, no. 6 (October + +1983). I wish to thank the following women without whose insights and support I could + +not have completed this paper: Andrea Canaan, Frances Clayton, Michelle Cliff, Blanche + +Wiesen Cook, Clare Coss, Yvonne Flowers, Gloria Joseph, Adrienne Rich, Charlotte Sheedy, +Judy Simmons and Barbara Smith. This paper is dedicated to the memory of Sheila +Blackwell Pinckney, 1953–1983. + +** From a poem by Dr. Gloria Joseph. + + Grenada Revisited: An Interim Report* +THE FIRST TIME I came to Grenada I came seeking “home,” for this was +my mother’s birthplace and she had always defined it so for me. +Vivid images remained of what I saw there and of what I knew it +could become. +• Grand Anse Beach was a busy thoroughfare in the early, direct +morning. Children in proper school uniforms carrying shoes, trying +to decide between the lure of a coco palm adventure to one side and +the delicious morning sea on the other, while they are bound +straightforward to well-worn chalky desks. +• The mended hem of the print dress the skinny old woman wore, +swinging along down the beach, cutlass in hand. Oversized, high +rubber boots never once interfering with her determined step. Her +soft shapeless hat. Underneath, sharp, unhurried eyes snapped out +from chocolate skin dusted grey with age. +• Another woman, younger, switch held between elbow and waist, +driving seven sheep that look like goats except goats carry their tails +up and sheep down. +• The Fat-Woman-Who-Fries-Fish-In-The-Market actually did, and +it was delicious, served on the counterboards with her fragrant +chocolate-tea in mugs fashioned from Campbell’s Pork ’n Beans cans +with metal handles attached. +• The full moon turning the night beach flash green. +I came to Grenada for the first time eleven months before the +March 13, 1979 bloodless coup of the New Jewel Movement which +ushered in the People’s Revolutionary Government (PRG) of +Grenada under Prime Minister Maurice Bishop. This brought an end +to twenty-nine years of Sir Eric Gairy’s regime — wasteful, corrupt, +and United States sanctioned. +The road from tiny Pearl’s Airport in Grenville, up over Grand +Etang mountain through Beauregard and Birch Grove, a rainbow of + + children calling after us down the one narrow road through these +hamlets cut into the hills. Tree ferns straight up like shingles along +the mountainside. In 1978 there was only one paved road in +Grenada. During the People’s Revolutionary Government, all roads +were widened and reworked, and a functioning bus service was +established that did more than ferry tourists back and forth to the +cruise ships lying at anchor in the careenage. Wild banana fronds, +baligey, in clumps below the road’s slope. Stands of particular trees +within the bush — red cocoa fruit, golden apple, mango, breadfruit, +peach-ripe nutmeg, banana. Girls on the road to Annandale, baskets +of laundry balanced on their heads, hands on hips, swaying, +reminiscent of 100 roads through Africa. +Grenada, tiny spice island, is the second largest producer of +nutmeg in the world. Its cocoa has a 45 percent fat content and sells +for premium prices on the world market. But Grenadians pay eight +times more than that price if they wish to drink processed hot +chocolate, all of which is imported. +The second time I came to Grenada I came in mourning and fear +that this land which I was learning had been savaged, invaded, its +people maneuvered into saying thank you to their invaders. I knew +the lies and distortions of secrecy surrounding the invasion of +Grenada by the United States on October 25, 1983; the +rationalizations which collapse under the weight of facts; the facts +that are readily available, even now, from the back pages of the New +York Times. +1. That the St. Georges Medical School students were in danger. +Officials of the school deny this.1 Students deny this.2 The U.S. +government had received assurances from General Hudson Austin of +the Revolutionary Military Council guaranteeing the students’ +safety. These assurances were ignored.3 +2. That the U.S. was invited to intervene by the signers of an +Organization of Eastern Caribbean States Treaty. This would only have +been internationally legal had Grenada invaded another island.4 The +decision to invade was made by four of the seven signatories. The +invitation itself was actually drafted by the U.S. State Department +and sent down to the Eastern Caribbean nations.5 + + 3. That Grenada threatened U.S. security because of the construction +of a military airport and the stockpiling of an arsenal of modern +weapons. Grenada’s new airport is a civilian airport built to +accommodate tourists. It has been in planning for over twenty-five +years, half financed by several western european countries and +Canada. According to Plessey, the British firm who underwrote the +project, the airport was being built to civil, not military, standards.6 +All U.S. reports on Grenada now stress the necessity of this airport +for a Grenadian tourist industry.7 The “stockpile” of weapons was +less than two warehouses. Of 6,300 rifles, about 400 were fairly +modern; the rest were very old, and some antique.8 +As even Arthur Schlesinger, Jr. observed, “Now we launch a sneak +attack on a pathetic island of 110,000 people with no army, no navy +or air force, and claim a glorious victory.”9 +A group of men and women mend the road ahead of us with hoes +and rock hammers, wheelbarrows, and other hand tools. They step +to one side as we pass by. One woman wipes her face with the end +of her headcloth, leaning upon the handle of her scythe. Another +woman is barefooted, young, but when she smiles I see all of her +front teeth are missing. The PRG brought free medical care to +Grenada, and no more school fees. Most estate workers and peasants +in the small villages saw a dentist for the first time in their lives. +Literacy was raised by teacher education and a planned each-oneteach-one program through the countryside. +Revolution. A nation decides for itself what it needs. How best to +get it. Food. Dentists. Doctors. Roads. When I first visited Grenada +in 1978, one-third of the farmable land in the country lay idle, +owned by absentee landlords who did not work it. The PRG required +that plans be filed either for farming that land, turning it over to +those who would, or deeding it to the state. Small banana +collectives started. Fishing cooperatives. Beginning agro-industry. +The World Bank notes the health of the Grenadian economy, +surpassing all other Caribbean economies in the rate of its growth +and stability despite the opposition of the U.S. Unemployment dips +from 40 percent to 14 percent. Now there is no work again. + + Four years ago, the U.S. acted through the International Monetary +Fund to assure that there would be no western money available for +the Grenadian economy, much less for protecting her shores from an +invasion threatened by Gairy operating out of San Diego, California, +where he had sought asylum. When the PRG sought economic aid +from the U.S. in 1979 to help rebuild the infrastructure of a country +fallen into despair during the twenty-nine years of Gairy’s regime, +the U.S. response was to offer the insult of $5000 from an +ambassador’s discretionary fund! Now it is 1983, post-invasion, and +the conquerors are promising Grenadians welfare, their second main +exportable drug. Three million dollars thus far, administered under +U.S. guns, so long as the heads that take it are bowed. +Had the amount this invasion cost each one of us in taxes been +lent to the PRG when it requested economic aid from the U.S. five +years ago, the gratitude of Grenadians would have been real, and +hundreds of lives could have been saved. But then Grenada would +have been self-defined, independent; and, of course, that could not +be allowed. What a bad example, a dangerous precedent, an +independent Grenada would be for the peoples of Color in the +Caribbean, in Central America, for those of us here in the United +States. +The ready acceptance by the majority of americans of the +Grenadian invasion and of the shady U.S. involvement in the events +leading up to the assassination of Prime Minister Maurice Bishop +both happen in an america whose moral and ethical fiber is +weakened by racism as thoroughly as wood is weakened by dry rot. +White america has been well-schooled in the dehumanization of +Black people. A Black island nation? Why, don’t be ridiculous! If +they weren’t all so uppity, we’d have enough jobs and no recession. +The lynching of Black youth and shooting down of Black women, 60 +percent of Black teenagers unemployed and rapidly becoming +unemployable, the presidential dismantling of the Civil Rights +Commission, and more Black families below the poverty line than +twenty years ago — if these facts of american life and racism can be +passed over as unremarkable, then why not the rape and annexation +of tiny Black Grenada? + + The Pentagon has been spoiling for a fight it could win for a long +time; the last one was the battle for Inchon in the 1950s. How better +to wipe out the bitter memories of Vietnam defeats by Yellow +people than with a restoration of power in the eyes of the american +public — the image of american marines splashing through a little +Black blood? “… to keep our honor clean” the marine anthem says. +So the american public was diverted from recession, unemployment, +the debacle in Beirut, from nuclear madness and dying oceans and a +growing national depression and despair, by the bombing of a +mental hospital where fifty people were killed. Even that piece of +proud news was withheld for over a week while various cosmetic +stories were constructed. Bread and circuses. +If the United States is even remotely interested in seeing +democracy flourish in the Caribbean, why does it continue to +support Haiti and the Dominican Republic, two of the most corrupt +and repressive governments in the Americas? The racism that coats +the U.S. government lies about Grenada is the same racism that +blinded american eyes to the Black faces of 131 Haitians washed up +on shore in Miami, drowned fleeing the Duvalier regime. It is the +same racism that keeps american eyes turned aside from the +corrosive apartheid eating like acid into the face of White South +Africa and the Reagan government which shares her bed under the +guise of “constructive engagement.” White South Africa has the +highest standard of living of any nation in the world, and 50 percent +of Black South Africa’s children die before they are five. A statistic. +The infant mortality rate for Black americans is almost twice that of +white americans — in the most highly industrialized country in the +world. White america has been well-schooled in the acceptance of +Black destruction. So what is Black Grenada and its 110,000 Black +lives? +Unemployment in Grenada dropped 26 percent in four years.10 +On October 25, 1983 american Corsair missiles and naval shells and +mortars pounded into the hills behind Grenville, St. Georges, +Gouyave. American marines tore through homes and hotels +searching for “Cubans.” Now the Ministries are silent. The state +farms are at a standstill. The cooperatives are suspended. The + + cannery plant in True Blue is a shambles, shelled to silence. On the +day after the invasion, unemployment was back up to 35 percent. A +cheap, acquiescent labor pool is the delight of supply side +economics. One month later, the U.S. Agency for International +Development visits Grenada. They report upon the role of the +private sector in Grenada’s future, recommending the revision of tax +codes to favor private enterprise (usually foreign), the development +of a labor code that will ensure a compliant labor movement, and +the selling off of public sector enterprises to private interests.11 How +soon will it be Grenadian women who are going blind from +assembling microcomputer chips at $.80 an hour for international +industrial corporations? “I used to work at the radio station,” says a +young woman on the beach, shrugging. “But that ended in the war.” +This short, undeclared, and cynical war against Grenada is not a +new direction for american foreign policy. It is merely a blatant +example of a 160-year-old course of action called the Monroe +Doctrine. In its name america has invaded small Caribbean and +Central American countries over and over again since 1823, +cloaking these invasions under a variety of names. Thirty-eight such +invasions occurred prior to 1917 before the Soviet Union even +existed. For example, in 1897, U.S. marines landed in Puerto Rico to +fight the Spanish-American War. They never left. +Beginning in 1981, the United States rehearsed the invasion of +Grenada openly. It practiced the war game Ocean Venture in which it +bombed the Puerto Rican island of Vieques, calling it “Amber of the +Amberdines” (Grenada of the Grenadines). In this grisly makebelieve, a situation is supposed to occur where americans are held +hostage. As we know, this was the first excuse used to justify the +invasion of Grenada. As for americans really being in danger, there +were still over 500 resident american citizens who chose to remain +in Grenada during and after the invasion. But since Ocean Venture +appears to be the script, we must remember that it also calls for the +assassination of the Prime Minister of Amber. Are we now to believe +that the U.S./CIA was not involved directly or indirectly with Prime +Minister Maurice Bishop’s death? Was the coup which served as the +opening for Ocean Venture to become a reality merely an unhappy + + coincidence of personal intrigue, or was it an event lengthily +orchestrated by clever manipulators? +The Pentagon has admitted in secret Congressional briefings that +it knew of the coup against Bishop two weeks before it happened.12 +The Ranger unit participating in the invasion had spent six days +between September 23 and October 2, 1983 practicing the takeover +of an airport and the liberation of hostages, a maneuver about +which the Pentagon had requested no publicity.13 One Senator +disclosed that there were CIA agents accompanying the seventy +students flown out of Grenada on October 26, the day after the +invasion.14 +There will be a long and painstaking search for answers to these +questions. +P.S.Y.O.P.S., the psychological operations unit of the U.S. +occupation forces — a new development heard from in combat here +for the first time — was quick to plaster St. Georges and the rest of +Grenada with posters of Bernard Coard and General Hudson Austin, +stripped naked and blindfolded, holding them up to ridicule and +scorn as the slayers of the Grenadian people’s beloved Maurice +Bishop. It is well known that had Bishop lived, Grenada would have +fought any invasion down to the last child. So scapegoats for his +death were essential. The details of the power struggles which +occurred within the New Jewel Movement Party — if such they +were — are yet to be known and assuredly complex. Yet months +later, these men are still being held incommunicado in Richmond +Hill prison, St. Georges, by “security forces,” non-Grenadian. They +have not been charged nor brought to trial as of this writing, nor +have the forty-odd other Grenadians still detained with them. +Nothing is now heard of the two americans known to have been +involved in the last days of the Bishop regime, one of whom was +wanted on a weapons charge here in the U.S., and one of whom +holds passports in two countries.15 Who were they working for and +on what side? Their identities have never been divulged — a +favorite tactic to cover destabilization operatives — and their +existence attested to only by one line in the back pages of the New +York Times. So, too, was the assertion by Ambassador to France + + Evan Galbraith on public TV that the U.S. was involved in Grenada +“weeks before Bishop’s death.”16 +A West German nurse working in Grenada, Regina Fuchs, reports +she was jailed and relentlessly interrogated after being falsely +accused of harboring fugitives by two americans, one of whom, +Frank Gonzales, identified himself to her as CIA.17 +The action in Grenada served many purposes for the United +States, provided the grounds for many tests. A major one was +addressed to the concern long expressed by the Pentagon as to +whether or not Black american soldiers could be gotten to fire upon +other Black people. This becomes a vital question as the U.S. +military-industrial complex executes increasingly military solutions +to this country’s precarious position in the Third World, where the +U.S. either ignores or stands upon the wrong side of virtually every +single struggle for liberation by oppressed peoples. Of course, there +were also lesser tests. In addition to trying out new armaments, +there was the question of whether the marines liked their new Nazistyle helmets. They did not because they couldn’t shave in them. +And whether the new army uniforms were too heavy to be worn +comfortably in the tropics. They were.18 +Listen to the language that came from the Pentagon, orchestrated +by the psychological warfare experts operating in Grenada. +• We got there just in time. +• Not an invasion, a rescue mission. +• Mopping up. +• It was our turf. We had every right. +• Armed thugs (the Grenadian militia). +• An Idi Amin-type character, capable of taking hostages (General +Austin.) +• Imprisoned for spreading ill will among the people. +This language is calculated to reduce a Black nation’s aspirations +in the eyes and ears of white americans already secretly terrified by +the Black Menace, enraged by myths of Black Progress, at the same + + time encouraged by government action never to take the life of a +Black person seriously. +Even many Black americans, threatened by some spectre of a +socialism that is mythic and undefined at best, have bought the +government line of “them” against “us.” But which one of us as a +Black american has ever taken the time to examine this threat of +socialism for any reality nearly as destructive as racism is within all +of our lives? With the constant manipulation of the media, many +Black americans are honestly confused, defending “our” invasion of +Black Grenada under a mistaken mirage of patriotism. +Nineteen eighty-four is upon us, and doublethink has come home +to scramble our brains and blanket our protest. +In addition to being a demonstration to the Caribbean community +of what will happen to any country that dares to assume +responsibility for its own destiny, the invasion of Grenada also +serves as a naked warning to thirty million African-americans. +Watch your step. We did it to them down there and we will not +hesitate to do it to you. Internment camps. Interrogation booths. +Isolation cells hastily built by U.S. occupation forces. Blindfolded +stripped prisoners. House-to-house searches for phantom Cubans. +Neighbors pressured to inform against each other. No strange gods +before us. U.S. soldiers at roadblocks and airports, assisted by +former members of Gairy’s infamous Mongoose Gang, carrying +notebooks with lists of Bishop and PRG sympathizers.19 The tactics +for quelling a conquered people. No courts, no charges, no legal +process. Welfare, but no reparation for damaged businesses, +destroyed homes and lives. Street passes. Imprisonment of “troublemakers.” The new radio station blaring The Beach Boys rock group +music hour after hour. +Whose country was Grenada? +Hundreds of Grenadian bodies are buried in unmarked graves, +relatives missing and unaccounted for, survivors stunned and +frightened into silence by fear of being jailed and accused of +“spreading unrest among the people.” No recognition and therefore +no aid for the sisters, mothers, wives, children of the dead, families +disrupted and lives vandalized by the conscious brutality of a + + planned, undeclared war. No attention given to the Grenadian +bodies shipped back and forth across the sea in plastic bodybags +from Barbados to Grenada to Cuba and back again to Grenada. After +all, they all look alike, and besides, maybe if they are flown around +the world long enough they will simply disappear, or become +invisible, or some other peoples’ sacrifice. +“My brother died in Calliste when they shot up the house,” Isme +said, “because they thought Cubans were living there. My father lost +his arm and a leg. They took him to hospital in Barbados but he +passed away there. His body was brought back to Pearl’s Airport but +I’ve got to borrow some money now to bring him home for his +funeral.” +Weeks after the invasion, Grenadians were still smelling out and +burying bodies which lay all over the island. The true casualty +figures will never be known. No civilian body count is available. +Even the bodies of Maurice Bishop and his slain ministers are never +positively identified, no doubt to forestall any possible enshrinement +by the people who loved him, no doubt to make the task of +smearing his popular memory more easily accomplished. It has +already begun. +For the first time in an american war, the american press was kept +out until the stage could be set. This extends by precedent the +meaning of military censorship in this country. At the time, it also +deflected attention from the invasion itself. Mission accomplished +with “surgical precision” meant attempting to conceal the bombing +and destruction of civilian homes, the destruction of a hospital and +a radio station and police headquarters; attempting to conceal the +american heavy transports left mangled on the side of the road by +soldiers not trained to drive to the left, and the civilian cars those +army vehicles collided with. It meant the appropriation, use, and +destruction of homes and stores and other businesses with no +compensation. When the american press was finally admitted after +the cosmetic cleanup, we were treated to photographs of smiling +Grenadians welcoming their conquerors (look what your tax dollars +have bought). But no photos of the signs calling for information + + about neighbors. No photos of the signs throughout the countryside +calling for an end to yankee imperialism. NO BISHOP NO REVO. +So what did Revolution in Grenada mean? It meant the +inauguration of an agro-industry which for the first time in the +island’s history processed the island’s own fruit, its own coffee, +under its own brand, Spice Isle Foods. Canned products from their +own soil available in stores. The beginning of a fishing and fishprocessing industry. In a country rich with tropical fruit, whose +waters abound with fish, why should the most common fruit juice +be Florida orange juice, the most commonly used fish, imported +saltfish from Canada? +It meant almost doubling the number of doctors on the island +from twenty-three to forty, a health center set up in every parish for +the first time, a dental clinic. It meant a public health anti-mosquito +cleanup campaign implemented by the National Youth Organization +that successfully protected Grenada from the wave of Dengue Fever +sweeping through the rest of the Caribbean in the summer of +1981.20 +It meant twelve-year-old Lyndon Adams of L’Esterre, Carriacou, +teaching a seventy-three-year-old woman how to read and write as +part of the each-one-teach-one program against functional illiteracy +conducted by the Center for Popular Education. This highly +successful program enlisted the aid of one of the most brilliant +educators of all time, Paulo Friere, head of the World Council of +Churches’ literacy program. When the echos of Ocean Venture +drifted across the Caribbean from Vieques in 1981, and the stench +of the threat of U.S. invasion hung over the hills from Grand Etang +to Harvey Vale, Lyndon, one of the youngest teachers in the CPE +program, was quoted as saying: “Before the revolution we were not +in the light. I will never give up. I rather they kill me dead than I go +work for them if they come to take over we land and try to oppress +we again.” His seventy-three-year old neighbor and student says: “In +L’Esterre now, I find things is plenty better and getting better still. +And look how the children developing and doing good! For that +boy’s age I find he was doing all right!”21 + + The american medical student who witnessed the shooting of the +first american marine killed landing on Grenada resists the +prompting of her TV interviewer. Pockets of foreign resistance. Cubans +hiding in the hills. “Oh no, he wasn’t shot by Cubans. It was an old +man and his son, firing from their house.” Lyndon Adams and his +neighbor are not Cuban. The old man and his son defending their +home were not Cubans. They were Grenadians who dared to believe +that they could have a right to define themselves and the future of +their nation independent of the United States. +Grenada is a highly stratified society made up of a large, +extremely poor mass of estate workers and small land-holding +peasants, a small but growing group of urban service workers, and a +tiny well-to-do middle class, civil servants and landed, who +traditionally have involved themselves with the economics of +import-export rather than the economics of national production. The +Bishop government was becoming a successful bridge between these +different groups. Problems of color ism and classism are deep, farreaching, and very complex legacies left from successive +colonialisms. Grenadians, rightly so, are highly resistant to any +external suggestions of a superficial solution. By bringing the goals +of these diverse groups together, the Revolution became even more +threatening to the U.S. +To the average Grenadian, the United States is a large but dim +presence where some dear relative now lives. Until the information +campaigns of the PRG, the lack of international news coverage and +commentary kept Grenadians largely unaware of the U.S. position in +world politics and its history of institutionalized racism and +classism. Ronald Reagan was seen as a fatherly movie star +unconnected to policies of systematic economic and military +oppression of people of Color throughout the developing countries +of the world. +But the average Grenadian is also extremely involved with the +political affairs of his and her own country, wherever there is room +beyond survival concerns for such involvement. Facets of the +October events surface in every conversation, guarded or +unguarded, casual or otherwise. + + The conflicts in the New Jewel Movement, Bishop’s house arrest, +the subsequent demonstration of ten thousand Grenadians, the +second smaller march which resulted in Bishop’s liberation and +murder along with other Ministers and hundreds of Grenadians on +Richmond Hill, and the four-day military curfew that followed these +events left terror in the hearts of all Grenadians. Any ending seemed +preferable at the time. +The U.S.-operated Spice Island Radio went into operation the +afternoon of the invasion, and most Grenadians obtained whatever +information they got about events from posters and handbills put up +around the countryside by P.S.Y.O.P.S. Rumors have been rife +among the people, attempting to explain the inexplicable. One +shopgirl in St. Georges told me she had heard the reason why the +army fired upon the people at Fort Rupert was because “the +Russians had put tablets into their milk that would make them shoot +anybody on sight.” +It remains to be seen if the future plans of the U.S. for Grenada +will justify the vision of many Grenadians of the United States as +savior. Even now this view is not nearly as widespread as the +american media would have us believe. Says a newly unemployed +nineteen-year-old laborer in St. Georges, “They can call it a rescue +mission all they want, but I haven’t been rescued yet.” There is +much pain beneath the veneer of gratitude: too many fathers and +uncles and brothers and daughters injured and killed because “the +americans thought there were Cubans living in there.” All over +Grenada I felt the deadening effect of horror and disbelief in every +conversation about the war, often beneath a surface animation. +I came to Grenada my second time six weeks after the invasion, +wanting to know she was still alive, wanting to examine what my +legitimate position as a concerned Grenadian-american was toward +the military invasion of this tiny Black nation by the mighty U.S. I +looked around me, talked with Grenadians on the street, the shops, +the beaches, on porches in the solstice twilight. Grenada is their +country. I am only a relative. I must listen long and hard and ponder +the implications of what I have heard, or be guilty of the same quick + + arrogance of the U.S. government in believing there are external +solutions to Grenada’s future. +I also came for reassurance, to see if Grenada had survived the +onslaught of the most powerful nation on earth. She has. Grenada is +bruised but very much alive. Grenadians are a warm and resilient +people (I hear my mother’s voice: “Island women make good wives. +Whatever happens, they’ve seen worse”), and they have survived +colonizations before. I am proud to be of stock from the country that +mounted the first Black english-speaking People’s Revolution in this +hemisphere. Much has been terribly lost in Grenada, but not all — +not the spirit of the people. Forward Ever, Backward Never22 is more +than a mere whistle in the present dark. + + Preface + +This book is the product of a deep sense that we cannot +and do not want to make sense of the world alone. In +our individual academic projects, we consider state +racism from the perspectives of the disciplines we work +in: law, anthropology, geography, international relations, +sociology, cultural studies and literature. In our political +organising, we try to push back against the state, to +imagine new horizons of possibility outside of its logic, +and to form bonds of solidarity capable of challenging its +power. In collaborating on this book, we sought to create +a space apart from the pressures of academic research and +without the urgency of activism; a space to think, together, +about the changing face of racism in Britain. +As we were working on the book, friends and colleagues +often asked how, as a group of eight, we were writing +together. More than once we were asked what we were up to. +Was this some strange new cult? Who was ventriloquising +who? The actuality was less dramatic. Rather than divide +into smaller groups which would each produce a chapter, +we opted for an anarchic mix of collective thinking, noisy +and very funny discussion, silent writing and remote +editing. We usually met for a few hours in one of our offices +(or via video link during the Covid-19 lockdown), with +some questions in mind, usually generated from an initial +exchange of gossip or fury. As our discussions evolved, +someone would map the conversation on a whiteboard or + + PREFACE + +◆ + +ix + +flipchart paper, tracing the connections and keeping track +of key points. Realising we were running out of time, we +would wind down the discussion to write, separately, in +silence (exam conditions!) for an hour or so. We would +then collate the pages and read through each other’s work. +The more we worked like this, the more synergy our +writing took on. +Our aim was that when we read the final product, we +would no longer be able to recall who had written what. In +a landscape of personal brands and an academic culture +that values celebrity over collaboration, working against +the imperative to be a distinct, singular voice offered us a +different approach to the challenge of writing. Collaboration also helped us to cope with the dizzying instability of +life in contemporary Britain. We wrote the book between +March 2019 and July 2020, during which time the mood +music of authoritarian nationalism grew louder and +louder. Meeting in person was a way to listen more closely +to that music, to try to distil the relationship between what +was being said and what was being done by the state, and +to examine the cacophony of timeline media by placing it +at a remove, if only for a few hours. Critical inquiry was a +kind of group therapy, as the final throes of Theresa May’s +short, disastrous premiership gave way to Johnsonism. +The book’s title, Empire’s Endgame, reflects our starting +point. This project began life as an homage to an earlier +collectively authored book, The Empire Strikes Back, +published in 1982 by a group at Birmingham’s Centre for +Contemporary Cultural Studies. We wanted to explore +what a collective project to analyse and dismantle state +racism might look like in our differently troubled and + + x + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +troublesome time. One parallel has been the dominance +of the fantasy blockbuster in our collective cinematic +imagination, something Greta Thunberg has decried, +with some accuracy, by saying: +How can we tackle climate change if the adults are +obsessed over a children’s movie series based on Legos?1 +And so the ‘Endgame’ in our title is less a clever reference +to the Samuel Beckett play and more a reference to the +Avengers film. Avengers: Endgame is, infamously, the +much marketed crescendo of a series of films depicting +the Marvel universe. Through the second decade of +the twenty-first century, an extensive series of Marvel +superhero movies – plus a smaller parallel DC universe +and a resurrection of the Star Wars series – dominated +English-language cinema culture. As the world became +increasingly chaotic, with an end to any pretence that there +existed a political class fit to address the urgent and deadly +challenges of forced migration, internal war and climate +catastrophe, the displacement and spectacularisation of +collective fears into a neo-mythic world of superheroes felt +both symptomatic and all too understandable. Yet, despite +the will to distraction, the endgame analysis of Marvel also +echoed our own. In both of our accounts, and in the face +of violence and climate disaster, something cataclysmic +seemed to be on its way. Underneath all the bravado and +show of the immensely powerful, there was weakness and +the threat of imminent obsolescence. For all the fanfares +of a remade authoritarian nationalism, all the buffoonish + + PREFACE + +◆ + +xi + +showing off and refashioned fantasies of omniscience, the +period we examine is one of imperial decline. +The ascendancy of authoritarian nationalism that +we trace here – however triumphant the national mood +music – only makes sense through the lens of decline. We +are familiar with the many premature announcements +of end-times, and laughed about this often in our time +together, but remain convinced that we are witnessing, +at last and with so many casualties, the endgame of one +imperial phase. Of course, and again learning from +Marvel, we are also aware that the endgame itself can take +a long time to play out. +Nevertheless, and in the spirit of trying to think +historically about an all too troubling present, what we +present here is a peculiarly British experience of endings. +There are, no doubt, global parallels. Clearly there are +other buffoons, although refracted through the class +performances of other cultures. There are other places +where the state remakes itself by rendering populations +unintelligible or disentitled. Other forms of almost similar +(but not quite) collapse of our planet on fire. At the same +time, what we describe in the following chapters should +be understood as the last gasp of one imperial formation, +with all the excess, irrationality and clapped-out posturing +of a former power’s demise. We started out hoping that +this endgame might, eventually, open the possibility of +something better. Now, as we complete our work, it looks +as if a lot more of us might have to die first. +Another impetus for this work was our collective desire +to extricate ourselves from the relentless immediacy of +the internet, with far too much political energy taken + + xii + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +up in digesting, decrying and responding to non-debate +via social media. Working together was also a way of +quietening that noise and pausing to reassess what we felt +the noise could tell us about the larger political landscape, +with all of its dangers and possibilities. +We’re not immune to the confected dramas of social +and timeline media; indeed, many of our conversations +began with one of us enraged at the latest scandal dividing +anti-racist Twitter. But gathering together in person to +think, write and plot together offered some respite from +the atomising effects of digital life. Taking time to write +sometimes felt like an indulgence, given the scale of our +political and ecological crises. But while none of us believe +writing or thinking is any substitute for political action, +this project has offered us some sustenance for the messy +work of organising. We hope something here sustains you +in taking action too. + + Introduction: Racialised +Mythologies in Times of Neglect, +Cruelty and Expulsion + +Living in a world long disfigured by the violent, +world-making force of racism, we have no choice but to be +anti-racist. However, to act effectively against racism, we +need to be able to describe it, to keep up with its shifting +forms. As Cedric Robinson puts it: ‘Race presents all the +appearance of stability. History, however, compromises +this fixity. Race is mercurial – deadly and slick.’1 Cultures +and practices of racism are rooted (and routed) in empire +and yet they are constantly shifting in form and function. +Racism is historically specific. We therefore need to ask +how racial meanings and hierarchies are made and remade +in our times. This book is our attempt to describe how +racism has been working its deadly magic in contemporary +Britain over the last few years. Because we view racism as +historically specific and messy, we have found it necessary +to map some of the complex relations between empire, +racist culture, state practices and political economy. This +means connecting the most overt manifestations of racist +culture – the name calling, the racist street violence, the +zealous anti-immigrant politics – to the shifting practices +of a security-oriented state seeking legitimacy in times of +unbearable economic uncertainty. + + 2 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +Britain is not a happy place. The market-oriented +prosperity promised by Thatcherism and New Labour +has proved for many to be hollow. While some aspects of +the post-war consensus remain influential and continue +to be circulated as the underlying common sense of UK +political life, in reality the NHS and council homes that +defined the boom years of the 1950s and 1960s are being +privatised and stripped to the bone, accelerating the crises +in housing, health and social care. The austerity imposed +on other parts of the welfare state which followed the 2008 +financial crisis has brought increased hardship and frustration, through both a lack of services and cuts to public +sector jobs. On top of this, a deregulated labour market, +zero-hour contracts and the gig economy mean that work, +if you can get it, is precarious and low paid. In this context, +reactionary nationalism is mobilised for political gain, and +migrants, whether constructed as workers or scroungers, +documented or illegal, have shouldered much of the blame +for finance capitalism’s fiscal calamities. A nostalgia for +empire and the euphoria of world war victory has displaced +demands for a return to post-war welfarism.2 The crisis of +legitimacy for governments that cannot provide the jobs +and prosperity promised by market-led growth has been +partially reconciled by new covenants, promises to protect +the nation from violent crime, terrorism and immigrants. +In the following chapters we trace how shifting ideological repertoires of race and nation legitimate new +forms of state power and practice in the context of this +‘organised abandonment’.3 Many of the questions which +frame this book take the earlier work of cultural studies +as their prompt and guide – particularly that of Stuart + + INTRODUCTION + +◆ + +3 + +Hall, Paul Gilroy and others working at the Centre for +Contemporary Cultural Studies in Birmingham.4 We are +interested in how crises of political legitimacy are articulated in relation to themes of race, cultural difference, +law and order, militarism, nationalism, gender, sexuality +and the family – often expressed in profoundly visceral +and violent registers. We recognise that shifts in economic +relations fundamentally shape political, ideological and +cultural formations, and that crises of capital accumulation and profitability organise the more immediate terrain +of political struggle. However we refuse the class reductionism which imagines that political interventions need +focus only on the ‘economic base’, and all else will follow, +and we reject the view that racism is a straightforward +effect of economic crisis.5 +We are interested in the political practices and logics +that work through race, that signal race explicitly or +implicitly, and that make and remake race in the present. +This is why we ask throughout the book: what kind of +state do we have now, and how is its programme of cruelty, +neglect and expulsion justified ideologically? When +trying to understand race and racism in Britain today, we +need to analyse how racist state practices – immigration +controls, counter-terror measures and criminal justice +policies – seem to address people’s real problems and +lived experiences. In other words, we need to think about +the relationship between state racism and the making +of political subjectivities. This project of making and +remaking political subjectivities cannot be understood +without attention to the place of (post)imperial racial + + 4 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +anxieties and the sense of pervasive loss that animates +political imaginations. +Our argument is not simply that racism tricks people into +blaming their economic hardship on racialised outsiders. +This is true but it is too flat. Beyond ‘false consciousness’ +arguments, we are interested in the kinds of affects and +political subjectivities that are brought into being through +practices and representations of state neglect, cruelty and +racialised expulsion. These practices do not only make +racists, they also produce political subjects who long for +authority, closure and certainty in ways which exceed the +racial and implicate all of us. In our view, these desires and +frustrations are inevitably shaped by the digital character +of so much political and social life today, and thus our +analysis of racism is also about how people communicate +and imagine collectively on social media. +Mapping this terrain is far from straightforward. +Racialised crises reveal the fault lines of a wider destabilisation, and thus the difficulty of even describing racism is +a measure of our collective confusion in these unsettling +times. That said, there is value in describing and drawing +connections, even as the ground moves beneath our feet. +For us, the return (if it ever went away) of race as an +organising term in a time of crisis is the opening question +not the closing answer. In part, this stems from a shared +belief that defeating the dehumanising violence of racism +requires an agility and openness to surprise, because +the one thing our enemies do well, do better than us, is +to retain the element of surprise. The weary cynicism of +anti-racists who proclaim that they have seen it all before, +that racism is endless, timeless and monolithic, prevents + + INTRODUCTION + +◆ + +5 + +us from seeing how things change. The point is not to say +how things are always the same but to understand how we +and ours continue to be shafted in spite of other changes. +Things might still be awful but they are not awful in the +same way. +This, then, is where we begin – with the shared belief +that it is not so easy to understand the times we are in. In +particular, strange and multiple remakings of racism have +taken on a heightened significance, but connecting these +eruptions to economic and national crisis is no simple +task. From this difficult starting point, this book seeks to +deepen our understanding of racism in Britain, beyond +Tory-bashing and outside the restrictive tempos set by +public scandal and parliamentary squabbling. +Hopefully this book also offers some tools for moving +beyond accounts of racism that become stuck documenting structural inequalities or interpersonal humiliations, +realities which should not be taken lightly, but which +cannot, on their own, offer us a way out analytically. We +hope the book provides some useful tools for thinking +the problem differently, for understanding the present +moment in new ways and, ultimately and most importantly, for building analytical connections that can inform +political struggle. Before we begin our analysis of racialised +folk devils in contemporary Britain, we thought it would +be useful to explain what we mean by the neglectful state, +which frames our argument in the subsequent chapters. In +the next section, we offer a brief account of how neglect, +cruelty and expulsion have defined British state practices +over the past ten years of austerity. + + 6 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +* + +* + +* + +‘You cut, we bleed’ was the cri de cœur popularised by the +feminist direct action group Sisters Uncut in the second +decade of the twenty-first century, highlighting the relationship between austerity and gender-based violence. +While it can be read as a direct demand to re-invest in +services for survivors of domestic violence, this powerful +assertion also speaks to the wider context of state abandonment and violence. It challenges a post-financial crisis +common sense, in which those most in need of welfare +support now face scrutiny, neglect and criminalisation +– or a combination of all three. In more ways than one, +cuts lead to bloodshed, and while these new cruelties +disproportionately impact racialised people, the resulting +poverty, despair, violence and death are by no means +confined to them. +Unlike some of its European neighbours, Britain did +not experience austerity as an external imposition. There +were no European Bank bailout conditions to meet, no +fraught negotiations with the Troika. Instead, Britain’s +twenty-first-century austerity has been coded in terms of +regaining control after the alleged profligacy of an earlier +New Labour administration. As a result, British austerity +has been narrated as an expression of sovereignty – ‘we are +all in it together’ – as opposed to an external imposition +undermining sovereignty, as in Greece and Italy. Despite +this, the punishing features of twenty-first-century +austerity in Britain are similar to those of other austeritystricken European economies. +What is distinctive is the folding of ‘austerity’ (always +presented as a necessity, an emergency response that is + + INTRODUCTION + +◆ + +7 + +beyond political challenge) into a longer-standing British +political narrative and a decades-long attack on any vestige +of the state as a redistributive actor. Britain had deregulated +its labour market under the Blair government, proclaiming the benefits of ‘flexibility’ at work. The UK economy +fell into its dangerous reliance on financial services in this +period, a factor that impacted heavily following the 2008 +crash, when income inequality increased further, making +Britain one of the most unequal societies in Europe – +establishing what Danny Dorling calls ‘peak inequality’.6 +All of this began long before the arrival of post-crash +austerity. Indeed, the demonisation of welfare recipients +similarly predates austerity, and it is these economic and +social policies that together set the stage for the breaking +apart of cultures of mutuality. +In an echo of the enforced austerity imposed in parts of +southern Europe, Britain has seen a massive rolling back of +state spending more broadly. In particular, services administered through local government have been slashed, with +an extreme impact on libraries, children’s centres, youth +services and support for the vulnerable, including notable +cuts to services relating to domestic violence, mental +health and disability support. Alongside this squeeze on +services and public spaces, the terms of state support +have changed. Conditionality has become central to the +benefits system – claimants must fulfil various demands +in order to receive assistance, with requirements ranging +from evidencing an active pursuit of employment and +attending assessment meetings, to undertaking unpaid +work placements. This has been pursued independently of +the pressures of austerity. Taken together, the long-stand- + + 8 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +ing political campaign to delegitimise claiming welfare +benefits, even for the most vulnerable and including those +in very low-paid work, and the stripping back of state +spending, have worked together to create levels of poverty +and hardship unseen for many decades. When we refer +to the neglectful, as opposed to the welfarist, state, this is +what we mean. +We have lived through several decades of the state in +retreat, except in its punitive functions. Healthcare and +state schools remain national structures of provision, +but even here the segmentation through restructuring +(health trusts) and creeping privatisation (academies) +reframes our contact with these services. We might think +of ourselves as becoming accustomed to the radically +transformed landscape of a post-crash global economy. +This means that some devastating practices of dividing, +rationing and excluding have become pretty much +institutionalised across the board. Think here of welfare +sanctioning, societal tolerance for street homelessness and +food insecurity, the assorted practices of bordering, and +perhaps the end of demands for a ‘good job’ by mainstream +political parties. Taken together these represent a lessening +of expectations and so a grudging acceptance that life’s +hardships will not, and perhaps cannot, be ameliorated by +state intervention. Meanwhile, we can observe a greater +tolerance for state-administered punishment for those +deemed lesser or alien – the criminal, the migrant, the +benefits ‘cheat’. Assessments and algorithms connect the +police and border officials who lurk in what remains of +the welfare state, while hospitals, schools and community + + INTRODUCTION + +◆ + +9 + +centres become sites where ‘terrorists’, ‘gangsters’ and +‘illegals’ can be best rooted out. +At least two generations have been disciplined to +expect (and receive) little or nothing from the state except +punishment or the threat of punishment. While claiming +subsistence benefits, such as the dole or housing benefit, +always included humiliation before bureaucratic power, +the process of claiming the means of survival today has +been made increasingly onerous, requiring repeated +evidence, and exposing the claimant to the risk of further +punishment if the demands of the claims process are +mis-performed. Of the 130,000 preventable deaths arising +from austerity,7 the most tragically sickening stories +recount the impact of benefit sanctions as a form of social +murder: the cutting off of all means of sustenance, systemic +‘failures’ leading to emaciated bodies, empty fridges and +signs of self-harm. The suicides. +These are tragedies coming not from direct cuts, +although the squeezing of resources shapes the practices. +Instead, suffering is inflicted as punishment for failure to +adhere to the terms of conditionality. We are interested +in how this threat of punishment for expressing need +reshapes popular consciousness. Previously, studies of +British racism would interpret the punishment of some as +a form of reassurance to others. It was thought that those +who ‘belonged’ were those who were not being punished, +and who were therefore invited to identify with the state +that acted to exclude Others in their name. But are there +any constituencies at present who feel embraced by a sense +of belonging that is staged by affirmative state practices? It +seems hard to imagine. + + 10 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +In an earlier moment of cultural studies there is the sense +that in the 1960s and 1970s (perhaps even into the 1980s) +the response to tense ‘race relations’ vacillated between +more policing and carceral punishment, on the one hand, +and various kinds of social reform on the other. Scholars +associated with the Centre for Contemporary Cultural +Studies described the former as repressive and the latter +as preventive. Now we have entered a period where social +reform is off the table altogether. There is much less talk +about lack of investment in communities, or deprivation +as a cause of crime or unrest. Instead the approach to +prevention simply involves more social control. This +approach is based on containment and partial or complete +exclusion via prevention orders, ASBOs, omnipresent +surveillance, digital technologies of control and, as we +will explore shortly, pre-criminal forms of punishment. +In effect, there is no such thing as inclusion or belonging +in positive terms, only in negative terms. And there is no +social reform option. Only the promise of security for +some (rarely fulfilled), and more coercion, prevention and +repression for others. +The neglectful and/or punitive state employs long-standing practices of racialised exclusion, punishment and +scapegoating, but the terms of secure belonging are much +more unstable than they were before. There remains a +spectacular element to state racism, a familiar theatrics in +which some are monstered as an example to and entertainment for others. Yet the harshness of the times also +rebalances this process away from the pleasures of racist +spectacle (‘these abject people are nothing like us and this +is what they deserve’) and towards the increasingly explicit + + INTRODUCTION + +◆ + +11 + +threat of racist example (‘there is little that distinguishes +me and mine from these abject people; what is done to +them could be done to us and this realisation further fuels +my rage’). +In recent memory, and in particular in the first ten to +15 years of the twenty-first century, we observed manifold +attacks on allegedly unproductive groups, particularly +welfare claimants defined as ‘scroungers’. These attacks +appeared to be central to the justification for the further +retrenchment of the welfare state, austerity and increasingly conditional access to public goods. But after over a +decade of austerity the terms of exclusion and belonging +have changed. The British public is well aware that the +majority of the poor and the majority of those dependent +on food banks are actually working but in menial, low-paid +jobs. If not in the grind of poverty pay, the burgeoning +poor are the recipients of the innovative punishments of +the welfare state, a fall into abjection which increasing +numbers must fear. +In this shift from an external social enemy to internalised fear of abjection, some of these arguments about +‘idle benefit scroungers’ have lost their popular appeal. +The spectacle of the ‘scrounger’ seems of another time, +occasionally resurrected by one or other new right-winger +eager for clicks, but no longer a reliable hook for popular +rage. In their place, ever-present racialised threats have to +come to carry even more of the ideological load. In other +words, we are suggesting that after ten years of brutal +austerity, the welfare-bashing of ‘idle whites’ has lost +much of its resonance and ideological efficacy. As a result, +racism and nativism are being enlisted to do more work as + + 12 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +the rightward political forces seek to capture the loyalties +of dispossessed white Britons by emphasising their +‘nativeness’ and besiegement by the nation’s enemies. And +all of this despite an ongoing confusion, demonstrated by +Brexit, about what the terms of nativeness and nationalism +might be in this time. +In this strange moment when political parties of the +right seem to offer few or no concrete promises, and the +Conservative Party can win a general election with the +slimmest pretence of a manifesto, we might surmise that +the privations of austerity and a socio-economic system +structured to maintain extreme inequality have become +recoded as a loss of racialised power and prestige. Material +hardship and the humiliations associated with showing +need threaten to unravel the ‘wages of whiteness’. We +borrow this term from W.E.B. Du Bois, who posited that +racial identification offered working-class whites a sense +of racial superiority to ‘compensate’ for their exploitation +and prevent them from finding common cause with black +workers.8 The racialised nationalism of this moment, +then, is one that redirects the very real disappointment +and dispossession arising from economic crisis, the fragmentation of the welfare state and the doubling down of +punitive state practices. Multiple privation is re-articulated +as a fall from grace. And grace is misremembered as a state +of happy racialised prestige. +The strong sense that we might not all make it and, +perhaps, that we are not supposed to, seems to range +across the fears articulated by racists about territory +and culture, by schoolchildren about the planet, by the +government about global pandemics, and by everyone in + + INTRODUCTION + +◆ + +13 + +the struggle to make ends meet. Our fear is an outcome +of state practices of engineered neglect, so that we learn +to fight and fear each other in the contest for the means +of life. Something here is also aligned to the emergence of +a global economy which seems to render ever increasing +numbers of people disposable. It feels different from the +disposability of people during violent periods of colonialism and global war in previous centuries. There is an +‘end-of-the-worldism’ that seems to characterise our dark +times. +As should be evident from this brief discussion, our view +is that there is no simple causal relationship between the +economic and the cultural. It is not simply that economic +realities determine racist culture – there is always struggle, +negotiation, setbacks, contradictions and unpredictability. +The mood of our times, structured by the economic, is +one of atomisation, anxiety and unsteadiness. The lived +experience of crisis makes the racist politics of fear and +expulsion resonate in new ways. In the chapter which +follows this introduction, we apply some of these points to +help explain the racialised mythologies and most salient +‘folk devils’ that have taken hold in British politics over the +last few years. In the context of inequality and precarity, +austerity without end, and when the state has nothing to +offer except the impossible promise of security, the figures +of the ‘gangster’, the ‘immigrant’ and the ‘terrorist’ work +their perverse magic, distorting democratic possibilities +and licensing the worst kinds of authoritarianism. +The book is split into five parts. The first four parts are +composed of three short chapters and the final part of two +concluding chapters. In Part 1, ‘Racialising the Crisis’, we set + + 14 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +the scene in contemporary Britain, drawing connections +between different racialised ‘folk devils’ who have been +conscripted to help explain and resolve Britain’s multiple +crises. Racialised ‘folk devils’ have long been enlisted to +justify relations of domination and obscure the real causes +of people’s insecurity. But our intention in Part 1 is to say +something more precise about how racism is working in +this moment. As such, we are interested in who becomes +a racialised ‘folk devil’, and how they are constructed, and +then with what kinds of state practices they help legitimate. +In Chapter 1 we ask who is to be punished, and who might +be contingently exempt, by critically examining the 2018 +‘Windrush scandal’. In Chapter 2 we discuss the so-called +‘knife-crime epidemic’ and the use of pre-criminal forms +of control and prevention in response to it. Finally, in +Chapter 3 we discuss the myriad ‘gangs’ of Britain, whose +apparent ubiquity licenses new forms of control, criminalisation and expulsion. +In Part 2, we examine ‘The Persistence of Nationalism’. +In Chapter 4 we discuss the colonial amnesia, nostalgia +and melancholia that fuel Britain’s confused nationalist convulsions. We think it necessary here to discuss +Powellism in some detail, and to outline the characters +from the racial drama who still populate public discourse. +In Chapter 5 we develop a critique of leftist nationalisms, +so-called ‘progressive patriotisms’. We argue that demands +for a welfare state which ignores or plays down the +question of borders and citizenship plagued the Corbyn +project and remains unresolved by the British left. In +Chapter 6 we tackle the limits of representation, those +entrepreneurial and state-friendly anti-racisms that have + + INTRODUCTION + +◆ + +15 + +been developed with gusto in recent years, energised by +the Twitter timelines which favour hot takes, call-outs and +easily quantifiable measures of influence, legitimacy and +fame. We dwell on the power of social media to undo the +historically informed, internationally contextualised and +carefully thought-out analyses of racism so desperately +needed in these times of multiple crises. +In Part 3, ‘State Patriarch’, we analyse state racism and +nationalism through gender. In Chapter 7 we discuss the +relationship between gender, sexuality and the nation +state in historical perspective. We trace the changing +nature of the state patriarch in the move from welfarism +to neoliberal authoritarianism and ask: what kind of state +patriarch do we have today? In Chapter 8 we engage with +the political scandals that emerged when large numbers +of girls were sexually exploited in post-industrial towns +in northern England. During the time of the abuse, local +institutions largely ignored the young victims (white +and Asian), who were tainted by their class position and +proximity to Asian men. Yet when these cases became a +national scandal, these white girls were transformed into +symbols of national purity who had been violated by +racial Others (Muslim men in particular). Rather than +addressing the sexism, misogyny and institutional neglect +which leaves vulnerable girls exposed to predatory men +and sexual violence, the demand for ‘justice’ became part +of a racist campaign that reaffirmed the nation’s role as +patriarchal protector. Finally, in Chapter 9 we consider the +increased salience of the buffoon in the theatre of British +politics, most obviously in the figure of Boris Johnson. We +ask how and why are buffoonish strongmen at the helm + + 16 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +of so much nationalist resurgence, and why is their antielitist posturing somehow seductive? +In Part 4, ‘Send in the Army’, we explore the centrality +of militarism and marshal metaphors to British racism. +In Chapter 10 we discuss the longing for authority that +underwrites authoritarianism in contemporary Britain, +made plain in the repeated calls to ‘send in the army’ to +deal with ‘social problems’. In Chapter 11 we route the +militarisation of everyday life, and policing in particular, +through a colonial history of counterinsurgency and +conflict. Finally, in Chapter 12, we engage in a short +discussion of the wider logics of zero-sum-game politics. +We observe that this logic underwrites not only debates +about race and migration, but also men’s rights activism +and trans exclusionary feminisms. +In Part 5 we conclude by first reflecting on the Covid-19 +pandemic – which emerged as we were trying to tie this +book project up. In Chapter 13 we discuss the ways in which +our analysis in the book proved depressingly prescient +when it came to the political (mis)management of the +coronavirus crisis. In response to the pandemic, the UK +government turned to nativist posturing, war analogies, +strongman buffoonery and new policing powers. The +neglectful-cum-authoritarian state was in full display and +tens of thousands died needlessly as a result. In Chapter 14 +we offer some final reflections on languages and practices +of collective grief, hope and survival. + + PART 1 + +Racialising the Crisis + + C HAPTE R O NE + +Windrush + +‘Never was so much owed by so many to so few’, it +began. This wartime quote by Winston Churchill … is +to me the most apt way of expressing the gratitude of +the Caribbean high commissioners and the West Indian +diaspora for the incredible work by Amelia Gentleman. +– The High Commissioner for Barbados, +quoted in the Foreword by Katherine Viner to +Amelia Gentleman’s The Windrush Betrayal (2019)1 + +It wasn’t Labour who cut the Border Force. It was the +Tories. Labour’s last manifesto committed to adding +five hundred extra border guards, over and above the +level we will inherit from this Government. They are +vital in the fight against people-traffickers, and the +drug and gun smugglers, as well as preventing illegal +immigration. +– Diane Abbott’s speech on Labour’s plans for a simpler, +fairer immigration system, September 20182 + +In spring 2018, British politics was dominated by what +came to be known as the ‘Windrush scandal’. The scandal +concerned older Caribbean migrants who had moved to +the UK before 1973, and who therefore should have had +a ‘right of abode’ (permanent and unconditional right of +residence and re-entry), but who instead had been treated + + 20 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +as ‘illegal immigrants’ and denied access to healthcare, +welfare benefits and housing. In some cases, ‘Windrush +migrants’ were deported. In one case, a man who had lived +in the UK since 1969 lost his job at a local council because +new immigration rules stipulated he had to have a passport +to work. Having never left the country since his arrival in +Britain, he could not produce the necessary documentation and so was left with no job and no recourse to claim +out-of-work benefits. Another member of the ‘Windrush +generation’ had lived in the UK since he was five months +old. After travelling to the Caribbean to visit his sick +mother he was denied re-entry at the UK border. Another +man of Caribbean heritage who had lived in the UK for +40 years was given a £5,000 hospital bill after his immigration status was checked. Finding he had no residency +status, the council evicted him from his home, and he was +discharged from hospital onto the streets, ineligible for a +state-funded hostel as an ‘illegal immigrant’. +There were over 50,000 people of Caribbean heritage +who potentially faced similar problems, as the border +moved from the airports and docks to housing offices, job +centres, hospitals, schools, workplaces and streets. This +expansion and internalisation of the border was part of +the Conservative Party’s policy to make the UK a ‘hostile +environment’ for undocumented migrants (although these +policies were very much a continuation/extension of New +Labour immigration policy). In responding to moral panic +about immigrants stealing jobs, welfare benefits, or both, +the government made proof of legal status mandatory +for access to the basic means of existence: employment, +housing, healthcare, education, a bank account, a driving + + WINDRUSH + +◆ + +21 + +licence. This is the hostile environment: the system of +immigration checks and data-sharing which saw the +expansion of everyday, everywhere bordering. +Over a number of months in 2018, left and liberal media +outlets began to collect the stories of these long-settled +British Caribbeans who had been illegalised, made destitute and banished. Soon, other sections of the press, +including those on the right, began to cover the ‘Windrush +scandal’. One Daily Mail editorial summed up the paper’s +position: ‘The Windrush scandal is yet another example +of how poorly Britain treats those to whom it owes a +great debt and how twisted our bureaucratic morals are.’3 +Meanwhile, Brexit campaigner and far-right Conservative +MP Jacob Rees-Mogg described the ‘hostile environment’ +as ‘fundamentally un-British’.4 Both the Mail and ReesMogg used the scandal in an attempt to revalorise people +from the Commonwealth as ‘deserving migrants’, while +petitioning for a ‘hard Brexit’ that would extricate Britain +from the EU’s ‘twisted’, ‘un-British’ bureaucracy, and make +the lives of many EU nationals in Britain increasingly +difficult and insecure. +In other words, outrage was not directed at the ‘hostile +environment’ per se, which the government had created +to root out ‘illegal immigrants’. Rather, the scandal was +seen by the Mail and others as an example of ‘how it is +those who play by the rules and do the right thing who get +punished – while those who act on the sly seem only to +get rewarded for it’. The ‘Windrush scandal’ demonstrated +the lack of respect for good old British ‘common sense’: +the ‘bad migrants’ flood in, stealing jobs and benefits, +while the good ones get punished. The story was thereby + + 22 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +made familiar in a very particular way: the point was that +the Home Office was totally dysfunctional, rather than +immigration controls being inherently punitive, violent +and racist. +Across the political spectrum, ‘Windrush migrants’ +were celebrated for their contributions to the nation. The +fact that the treatment of this particular group of ‘migrants’ +became a national scandal, with a consensus across the +political spectrum that the Home Office had acted not +only unlawfully but also immorally, was surprising for a +number of reasons. First, it was surprising because the +tabloids are always talking about Britain as ‘a soft touch +for migrants’. Normally we are told that migrants are +bad and controls are too weak, so it was disorienting to +have a public scandal where the migrants were good and +the controls were too harsh. But the consensus on the +treatment of Windrush victims was even more surprising +given that all of the Windrush generation were black +and many of them worked in lower-income jobs or were +welfare claimants. This is the same economic demographic +– ‘benefit scroungers’ and ‘job stealers’ – who are the target +of popular outrage in debates about immigration. +However, unlike in most of the hateful political and +media discourse on migrants, victims of the Windrush +scandal were portrayed as elderly, respectable and +law-abiding, and the well-rehearsed yarn about them +having been invited over to help with the post-war effort +prevailed. The ‘Windrush generation’ did not summon +images of ‘illegal border crossings’, ‘breaking point’, or +threats of crime and terrorism. They were not dangerously +mobile, but settled, orderly and respectable. Thus, the + + WINDRUSH + +◆ + +23 + +‘Windrush generation’ were folded into the national ‘we’, +reclaimed as our war veterans, our bus conductors and our +caring nurses. The Windrush scandal clearly played on +the politics of respectability, economic contribution (even +if historical) and good citizenship. As ever, the incorporation of black people into the national fold was partial, +conditional and retractable. +Importantly, the opportunity to connect the Windrush +scandal to the decimation of the welfare state and the +wider demonisation of ‘illegal immigrants’ was missed by +the left. The scandal became ultimately about immigration +policies being applied to the wrong migrants, or applied in +the wrong way. We should pause at this point to reiterate +that ‘hostile environment’ policies involve denying ‘illegal +immigrants’ the right to healthcare, housing, employment +and education, as well as a driving licence and the ability +to open a bank account – effectively denying people access +to the means of life on the basis of immigration status. +Many people incensed by the ‘Windrush scandal’ were +against these immigration policies in general, but the +overall tenor of the public debate involved special pleading +for one particular group of ‘citizens’, rather than a wider +interrogation of the exclusionary and expulsive logics of +the immigration regime as a whole. +With some political imagination, the Windrush scandal +should have allowed us to challenge received understandings of ‘illegal immigrants’, ‘foreign criminals’ and ‘welfare +claimants’. After all, it should be easy enough to recognise +that ‘illegal immigrants’ are simply those non-citizens who +have been categorised as ‘illegal’ by law, a juridical group +rather than a social one. ‘Illegal immigrants’, who share + + 24 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +their lives with other migrants and citizens, are illegal only +insofar as they have been subjected to an arbitrary legal +process. Furthermore, the racist treatment experienced +by the Windrush generation in the 1950s and ’60s, widely +acknowledged across the political spectrum, should not +be disconnected from the disproportionate enforcement +of immigration controls against black and brown people +today. Not all migrants are policed equally, and thus some +are more likely to be made foreign through subjection to +coercive state power. However, politicians, journalists and +activists from across the left emphasised that Windrush +migrants were distinct from ‘illegal immigrants’. David +Lammy MP, in a rare and rousing speech in the Commons, +suitably timed for maximum social media shares, reminded +us that victims of the scandal included ‘a British citizen +who paid taxes for 40 years’. Lammy’s steadfast separation +of Windrush migrants, who were to be understood as +citizens, from the real ‘illegal immigrants’, was repeated +across the Labour Party. +These repeated references to tax records and national +insurance contributions were more than proof of longterm residency. They served to construct the ‘Windrush +generation’ as respectable, industrious people who ‘play +by the rules’. Referring to Windrush scandal victims as +‘citizens’ (which in law was not quite true) worked to +separate their treatment from the violence enacted against +other non-citizens – the violence of immigration raids, +indefinite detention and mass deportation flights, to +destinations which include the Caribbean. While some +commentators reminded us that post-war migrants were +hardly welcomed by white Britons or the British state + + WINDRUSH + +◆ + +25 + +when they arrived, and others sought to historicise British +citizenship as an imperial form of political membership +later restricted to exclude ‘coloured’ migrants, there was +a strong tendency, even among the left and anti-racists, +to separate the violation of ‘Windrush migrants’ from +the wider treatment of ‘migrants’. Indeed, Diane Abbott +appeared on BBC’s Question Time to explain that the issue +of ‘illegal immigration’ must not be confused with the +ill-treatment of ‘Windrush migrants’, before promising +that the Labour Party would ‘bear down on the numbers +of illegal immigrants’ once in power. Evidently, immigration enforcement becomes visible as violence only when it +affects certain groups – in this case ‘Windrush migrants’ +who migrated, legally and respectfully, way back when. +* + +* + +* + +Perhaps the clearest indication of the limits of this +newfound hospitality came when Sajid Javid, as Home +Secretary, explained that members of the ‘Windrush +generation’ with criminal records would be fully excluded +from compensation and legal recourse. Having a criminal +record, however minor or from however long ago, was +enough to erase over 45 years of residence. Even in that +rarest of moments in British politics when there was widespread sympathy for one particular group of ‘migrants’, +the spectre of ‘criminal history’ was enough to brand some +‘Windrush migrants’ as unwanted guests who had abused +our hospitality. Exile remained perfectly proportionate in +these cases, never mind what people were returned to. The + + 26 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +mere mention of criminality was enough to set the nation +into default mode: ‘send them back’. +Clearly, if the ‘Windrush migrants’ were to be considered +British, and welcomed into the national fold, they were +incorporated because they were law-abiding. They had +proved, over time, that they were not ‘lesser breeds without +the law’. Indeed, the Windrush migrants were contrasted +explicitly and implicitly with younger, law-breaking black +Britons during this period. Newspapers which sympathetically covered the Caribbean grandparents you might help +cross the road, or allow in front of you in the queue at +the post office, presented at the same time a very different +image of ‘Black Britain’ in their inner pages. The national +outrage over the ‘Windrush scandal’ was matched by a +much more hostile collective outrage over youth violence, +because the other big news story of spring 2018 was the +so-called ‘knife-crime epidemic’. +Commentators made a point of emphasising statistics +from particular cities (mainly London), in which the +majority of ‘knife crime’ victims and perpetrators were +black men and boys – and often the focus was specifically +on ‘black Caribbean’ teenagers. ‘Black youth’ were once +again vilified as sources of danger, violence and moral +decline, and violence was linked to the family (read ‘absent +fathers’) and the nihilism of contemporary urban life (read +‘black culture’). While wayward black youth symbolised a +national crime crisis, their soft, neglectful or inept parents +were also held responsible. As such, these later generations were separated from the sympathetic protection and +welfare afforded to the ‘Windrush generation’ who came +before them. Echoing repeated moral panics directed at + + WINDRUSH + +◆ + +27 + +black Britons over the last seven decades, ‘knife crime’ +called for a law-and-order response. It was time for the +police and the state to reassert control in the context of +spiralling lawlessness, urban decline and a nation lacking +discipline and confidence. +While the state tends to have a clear line when it comes +to dealing with crime, the British left have struggled with +how to respond to problems of violence in oppressed, +lower-income communities. At best, the left is able to +identify the social harms caused by a lack of social provision (housing, education, healthcare), and to recognise +how this can lead young people in particular to be more +likely to be affected by and implicated in violence. But +the British left mostly seem unable to say that while one +individual harming another is morally wrong, so is having +uniformed agents force human beings into cages. Without +a compelling critique of police and prisons, much of the +left falls back on the carceral logic which divides society +into victims and perpetrators. It then becomes possible +to argue for the effectiveness of ‘evidence-led’, ‘targeted’ +policing – perhaps with a sprinkling of unconscious-bias +training for good measure. +Arguments are made for policing to be carried out +by officers who are ‘part of the community’, which in +addition to black and brown officers also sees police +occupying schools, youth clubs and places of worship. +Without a critical language, the left implicitly consents +to these police powers which are then challenged only for +being used ‘at random’ (as if those subjected to stop and +search are ever identified randomly), or for being used in +a discriminatory manner (as if there were any other way + + 28 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +in which such powers could be used). This poverty of +understanding, and lack of effective articulation, results +in the left focusing on a defence of the welfare state, which +includes the call for more police. Indeed, more bobbies +on the beat has a homely leftish resonance as well as an +authoritarian rightish one. Constrained by this logic, the +police and the prison system are perceived as flawed, +but still fundamentally necessary. Such constraints limit +demands to diversity drives, community consultations, +equality impact assessments, increased funding and, in +extreme cases, public inquiries. +What should have been learnt from the ‘Windrush +scandal’ – from the illegalisation and expulsion of +long-settled Commonwealth citizens – was that racist discrimination persists across a range of state institutions +and practices, and that this takes new forms as punitive, +everyday borders proliferate. The exclusionary logic of +immigration controls – according to which ‘migrants’ +take jobs, resources and public goods and therefore need +to be excluded – operates to justify and obscure the wider +disentitlement and abandonment of citizens. Conditionality and punitiveness in the benefits system can then +be reframed as protecting citizens from queue-jumping +immigrants. Moreover, the total surveillance and exclusion of ‘illegal immigrants’, managed via comprehensive +data-sharing initiatives, allows the government to trial +new forms of conditionality and punitiveness that can +then be rolled out more widely – just as charging migrants +to use the NHS provides an ominous trial run for further +privatisation. Defining ‘Windrush migrants’ as wronged + + WINDRUSH + +◆ + +29 + +citizens, and contrasting them with ‘illegal immigrants’, +does little to illuminate these connections. +All this is to say that the ‘Windrush scandal’ was not +some un-British aberration, but an inevitable outcome +of aggressive immigration policies enforced by racist +institutions as part of a larger bid to further delegitimise +any remaining investment in the caring, welfarist state. In +short, ‘hostile environment’ immigration policies work in +combination with the politics of austerity. And policies +surrounding immigration, welfare and crime can only +be understood when considered in their relation.5 We +have observed that the sympathy for Windrush migrants +was highly conditional and had no effect on the ongoing +demonisation of over-policed and criminalised young +black people. Indeed, declarations of the Windrush +migrants’ worthiness may have even been nourished and +vindicated by their being placed in opposition to young +people accused of ‘knife crime’. In the next chapter we +examine the ‘knife-crime epidemic’ in more detail, considering the state practices which are trialled and licensed +through this racist politics of law and order. + + CH APT E R T WO + +‘Knife Crime’: +Prevention and Order + +[There are] definitely more younger people involved … +more knives involved with the serious violence on the +streets … This, for my officers, in 2016/17/18, felt like +the extra use of extraordinary force by groups on other +young people to be a new phenomenon. +– Cressida Dick, Met Police Commissioner, 20191 + +I want criminals to feel terror. +– Conservative Home Secretary Priti Patel, 20192 + +Debates about crime in the second decade of the twentyfirst century have been dominated by moral panic about +‘knife crime’. This panic has been based partly on a real +problem of violence in lower-income communities. +Figures released in 2019 indicated that police-recorded +violent crime had risen by almost a fifth in England and +Wales. In the same year, crimes involving blades rose by +12 per cent and almost 40,000 such offences were reported +to police (although the 2019 figures fell short of the 2006 +peak for injures involving knives).3 +However, crime statistics are always slippery, reflecting +policing practices and the uneven enforcement of the law +as much as some discrete and measurable thing called + + ‘KNIFE CRIME’: PREVENTION AND ORDER + +◆ + +31 + +‘crime’. ‘Knife crime’ is not a criminal offence in itself, but +an amalgam of already existing offences (carrying a bladed +article, robbery, burglary, grievous bodily harm, murder, +etc.). By grouping together a number of existing offences, +the police, politicians and the press can convey the idea +that ‘knife crime’ is new, or is at least worse than anything +Britain has seen before. This begs the question of why the +category of ‘knife crime’ has risen to such prominence in +national politics. Like new categories of crime from earlier +periods, such as ‘mugging’, the problem of ‘knife crime’ +is seen to have been introduced to Britain by racialised +outsiders, therefore requiring new forms of policing and +penalisation. Such moral panics are effective because they +promise that the expansion of violent policing will be +reserved for racialised outsiders, from whom the nation +needs protecting. +The racism that associates violent crime with black youth +in Britain has been well-documented.4 For example, Tony +Blair declared in 2007 that the problem of violent crime +would not be solved ‘by pretending it isn’t young black kids +doing it’,5 paving the way for the racialised policing of the +‘gang’ which we unpack in the next chapter. More recently, +the Metropolitan Police’s response to the evidence of +racial disproportionality in stop and searches has been to +suggest that young people of ‘African-Caribbean heritage’ +are more likely than white people to be perpetrators and +victims of ‘knife crime’.6 Quite how police officers are +able to distinguish people of ‘African-Caribbean heritage’ +from other people racialised as black is unclear, but the +police assure us that stop and search offers a crucial way to +apprehend criminals and keep young people safe. + + 32 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +Similarly, in March 2019, in a TV debate on ‘knife crime’ +with the rapper and writer Akala, Piers Morgan stated: +‘statistically, it looks like in London, right now … the +perpetrators and the victims appear to be almost exclusively young black men’. Morgan went on to ask Akala, +‘do you think there is a racial element to that in terms of +any cultural issues, racial issues?’ The statistic, it turned +out, was a fabrication, but Akala’s response to Morgan was +instructive. He said, ‘clearly throughout human history, +black people have not remotely had anything resembling +a monopoly on violence. Over the last few years [in] some +of the most horrendous knife attacks, both the victims and +the perpetrators have been white and they’ve not been +from London.’ +The local geographies of violence and policing are +therefore worth remarking on here. In areas coded as +‘black’ – like Brixton, Tottenham and Ladbroke Grove in +London, Moss Side in Manchester, Chapeltown in Leeds, +and Handsworth in Birmingham – stabbing incidents are +less newsworthy, unless the victim is especially young. +‘Knife crime’ in these areas is considered notable in news +and political discourse less because the victims deserve +our sympathies but more as a quantitative confirmation +of the association between race and criminality (‘black on +black crime’). Not coincidentally, these are the areas that +are most heavily policed and in which there have been +historic confrontations between the police and young +black people. +On the other hand, when stabbing victims are seen to +be innocent – which often means white and from less +urban areas – offences tend to be especially newsworthy. + + ‘KNIFE CRIME’: PREVENTION AND ORDER + +◆ + +33 + +When 17-year-old Jodie Chesney was murdered in a park +in Romford, a part of London that is almost in Essex, the +story was on the front pages for some time. The suspected +attackers were reported to be black males. Two young +men, aged 17 and 19, were later convicted after admitting +to killing Jodie in a case of mistaken identity. Peter +Chesney, Jodie’s father, featured regularly in London and +national newspapers, in the aftermath of the murder and +during the trial, invited to offer his opinion on how the +government should better tackle ‘knife crime’ – the +­­ moral +authority and demands of the victim have long been at +the centre of Britain’s carceral culture. Peter Chesney went +on to found the Jodie Chesney Foundation, which ‘aims +to set up a hotline, staffed by youth workers and ex-gang +members, that parents, siblings and friends of at-risk +children can call with their concerns about knives and +county lines drug gangs’. +The inclusion of county lines drug gangs is telling, +referring to concerns about urban gangs expanding their +supply chains into towns and rural areas. This is about +familiar crimes (read: urban, black) occurring in new +places (read: non-urban, white). Despite the language +of ‘protecting young people from grooming’ within +government talk on county lines, the real fear is that +black criminality is migrating out of black urban enclaves +and spreading, virus-like, into unsuspecting parts of the +country. In short, where crime happens matters, and +contested geographies of policing, racism and belonging +get mobilised in debates about the ‘knife-crime epidemic’ +and ‘county lines drug gangs’. Part of the fear is that the + + 34 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +police will lose the ability to contain if not to control such +instances of (black) violence and criminality. +The circulation of a discourse around the so-called +‘knife-crime epidemic’ is therefore significant not simply +for the ideological association of race and crime. Just as +with the ‘mugging crisis’ of the early 1970s, today’s moral +panic has also led, unsurprisingly, to calls for an increase in +police powers, particularly stop and search. The Conservative Party manifesto of November 2019 confirmed their +core commitment to tougher policing of ‘knife crime’: +Police will be empowered by a new court order to target +known knife carriers, making it easier for officers to +stop and search those convicted of knife crime. Anyone +charged with knife possession will appear before magistrates within days not weeks. Those who use a knife as a +weapon should go to prison.7 +The police, politicians and much of the press have +repeatedly ignored research indicating the failure of +stop and search to yield crime prevention and detection +outcomes. Available statistics suggest that disproportionality in the use of stop-and-search powers has increased +in the context of the ‘knife-crime epidemic’, with black +people being 4.3 times more likely to be stopped than +white people in 2018, compared with 2.6 times in 2014.8 +However, in our view the variable scale factor here only +tells us so much. Whether black people are two times, five +times, eight times, or 26 times more likely to be stopped +by the police, the number is always too high, and the + + ‘KNIFE CRIME’: PREVENTION AND ORDER + +◆ + +35 + +number itself feels unreal. What actually changes in our +understanding when we modify the multiplier? +What is clear is that young black boys and men in +particular neighbourhoods are intensely over-policed, +repeatedly stopped and searched, often humiliated and +treated with disrespect by the police. During most searches, +the police do not find anything, and when they do it tends +to be small amounts of cannabis.9 In this context, the +discourse surrounding ‘knife crime’ seems only to fuel the +disproportionate and racist policing practices that already +deny working-class young black men rights to freedom +of association, free movement in public space and the +presumption of innocence. +And yet, documenting the racial disproportionality and +ineffectiveness of policing practices risks taking the police +at their word, assuming that there could be a rational and +proportionate way of enforcing racially conceived laws. +The racism surrounding ‘knife crime’ is about more than +the uneven implementation of the law, it is about the very +conception and formulation of ‘crime’. If racism forms +the definition of criminal problems from the outset, +then ‘fact-checking’ the police only gets us so far. When +a particular ‘criminal problem’ (i.e. knife crime) is fixed +onto a particular ‘criminal population’ (i.e. young black +men), policing is racial and racist by definition. In this +instance, aggressive stop-and-search policies, apparently +targeting ‘knife crime’, but in practice primarily identifying ‘drugs offences’, are enforced against young people +long familiar with heavy-handed, racist policing. None +of this is likely to have any positive impact in reducing +youth violence. But if the primary motivation for heavier + + 36 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +policing is not preventing harm, but the symbolic demonstration of authority, order and discipline, then this is +hardly surprising. +* + +* + +* + +The response to ‘knife crime’ has not only been to conduct +more stop and searches, but also to criminalise young +people who are suspected of carrying knives. During the +time we were writing this book, the government was legislating ‘knife-crime prevention orders’ (via the Offensive +Weapons Act 2019), which like ASBOs before them +operate without the due process protections of criminal +law. Under these prevention orders, the police need only +to convince a magistrate that an individual is ‘more likely +than not’ to have carried a blade on at least two occasions. +That is, the individual subject to a knife-crime prevention +order does not need to have been convicted of carrying +a knife, caught by police while carrying a knife, or even +seen by a member of the public carrying a knife. Thus, +the offences do not have to have been proven beyond +reasonable doubt, only evidenced on a ‘balance of probabilities’, as more likely than not to have been committed, a +much lower standard of proof. +These prevention orders can be used against individuals as young as twelve – enforcing curfews and placing +restrictions on where they can go, who they can associate +with, and even imposing limitations on social media +use, apparently to stop gang rivalries escalating online.10 +Young people merely suspected of knife carrying will thus +be subject to limitations on their movements and associ- + + ‘KNIFE CRIME’: PREVENTION AND ORDER + +◆ + +37 + +ations, and any breach of the order is a criminal offence +that can result in up to two years in prison. A twelve year +old might be accused of knife carrying based on police +intelligence, receive a knife crime prevention order, and +then risk incarceration if they travel to a certain area, meet +with a particular friend or relative, or access Instagram or +Snapchat. A moral panic centred on ‘knife crime’, a new +category of crime, creates a new problem that is then +subject to prevention and order. +However, referring to these processes as criminalisation largely misses the point. These forms of control are +pre-criminal, post-criminal or extra-criminal. Indeed, +knife-crime prevention orders present obvious links with +counter-terror policing (which involves intense online +surveillance and the criminalisation of associations and +sympathies) and immigration policy (which sees people +deported because their removal is deemed ‘conducive to +the public good’, or denied citizenship because they are +deemed ‘more likely than not’ to be of ‘bad character’). +The connection here between knife-crime prevention +orders, counter-terror policing and immigration policy is +that they all rely on expelling racialised people from the +albeit limited protections of criminal law. Processes of +racialisation are both cause and effect of this pre-criminalisation. +In relation to ‘knife crime’, police and politicians have +also turned, again, to the problem of ‘black culture’ – and +this time the culprit is drill music (a subgenre of rap). The +police have defined drill music as an apparent driver of the +purported increase in ‘knife crime’, and then, borrowing +from anti-gang initiatives used by the LAPD, have + + 38 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +convinced judges to pass injunctions that prevent artists +from referring to specific names, places or events in their +lyrics, arguing that their mere mention would constitute +an incitement of violence. Suspended sentences have been +handed out to musicians with no criminal record, while +the media have stoked moral panic around the genre, +reproducing similar panics to those around rock and roll, +reggae and grime music.11 +For example, Valentini, a rapper from Thurrock in +Essex, had an injunction imposed that prevented him +from wearing hoodies or face coverings and stipulated +that he could not produce ‘any audio or video online that is +threatening, abusive, insulting, incites violence, promotes +criminal activity, shows weapons or makes reference to +gang affiliations’.12 In late 2019, using a ‘rap translator’ +(a native informer perhaps?), the police were able to +convince a court that Valentini had rapped about weapons +in a newly released song. Valentini was then jailed for 19 +weeks as a result. What is important here is that the police +were not able to present evidence of Valentini committing +violent crime or selling drugs, but successfully argued that +his music depicting these themes constituted guilt and +demonstrated his involvement in ‘gang crime’. In another +example, two drill rappers from Brixton, Skengdo and +AM, were targeted by police and sections of the media. +Following violence in south London, the rappers were +banned from referring to any specific people, places or +events. Detective Inspector Luke Williams of the Lambeth +and Southwark Gang’s Unit confirmed: ‘The court found +that violence in drill music can, and did in this case, +amount to gang-related violence.’13 Some months later, + + ‘KNIFE CRIME’: PREVENTION AND ORDER + +◆ + +39 + +after performing their song, ‘Attempted 1.0’, at a London +concert in December 2018, the Metropolitan Police +handed both rappers a two-year suspended sentence +(meaning that if they were to offend during those two +years, they would be incarcerated for nine months). +In the policing of drill, we see again the evasion of due +process protections and the extension of police powers +through injunctions and pre-criminal modes of social +control. The policing of sympathies and incitements, +involving online surveillance and data capture, echoes +the policing and (pre-)criminalisation of ‘terror suspects’. +Indeed, the police reached for new powers precisely by +labelling drill artists as terrorists.14 Like the anti-terror +powers used in the UK’s anti-radicalisation policy, Prevent, +these restrictions did not target violence or unlawful +behaviour itself, but the alleged ‘promotion’ of such +behaviour, in this case through artistic expression. Most +pressingly for our argument, these authoritarian moves to +control and police racialised threats, whether of the ‘black +gang’ or the ‘Muslim terrorist’, are not distinct phenomena, +but implicate and refer to one another. Counter-terror +powers can be employed against drill artists, just as ideas +about dangerous ‘gangs’ prove mutable in the context of +widespread racial threat. We develop these points in the +next chapter. +By constructing ‘knife crime’ as both new and ‘on the +rise’, the problem becomes something alien, something +which descends on the respectable and law-abiding people +of Britain from outside. And yet, these offences occur in +British cities, committed by young men raised in Britain. +In this way, ‘knife crime’ is both alien – unlike other kinds + + 40 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +of street crime and violence – and yet cultivated in those +uncontrolled spaces in the heart of the national territory, +in urban centres, housing estates and black families. In +this way ‘knife crime’ induces panic because it reminds +‘decent’ and ‘hard-working’ Britons that their country is +not their own and is not safe for their children. Criminal +youth subcultures offer a dystopian vision of where the +nation is headed. These fears invariably play on wider +concerns about immigration – past and future – and +fuel alarm surrounding demographic shifts and moral +decline. These feelings of existential threat explain why +‘knife crime’ becomes the main news story at a particular +moment: not because of concern about young black +men at risk of violence, but because the spectacle of that +uncontrolled violence mobilises widespread anxieties +over national identity, cultural difference and insecurity +in ways that prove politically useful. + + CH APT E R T HR E E + +Gang Land + +Commander Jim Stokley, Scotland Yard’s most senior +officer responding to gang crime, told The Times ‘there +isn’t specific legislation’ for gangs, adding: ‘Clearly we +can’t use terrorism legislation [but] in consultation with +the CPS, we have found some existing legislation which +we are going to use.’ +– ‘Police to treat gangs like terror suspects with +tough new laws’, Telegraph, 30 May 20181 + +As a cop I always used to stop and search, but now +police live in fear of being called racist. +– Andrew O’Hagan, Telegraph, 13 November 20182 + +The spectre of the ‘gang’ has a long history in Britain. +While it was long used to denote groups of outlaws in +various forms, in the twentieth century the term became +racialised through a number of interconnected problems, +including Irish migration to the British mainland early in +the century and later the policing of ‘gangs’ of dissidents in +British colonies including Kenya and Malaya.3 In post-war +Britain, the influence of American frames on race and +racism bolstered concerns about ‘gangs’ of ‘coloured’ +criminals. By the twenty-first century, dispersal orders +introduced by New Labour gave the police the power to + + 42 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +break up gatherings larger than two, as both black and +Asian youths came to symbolise Britain’s ‘gang’ problem. +As the first decade of the twenty-first century drew to +a close, the media became fixated on ‘gangs’. London’s +Evening Standard published investigative reports into +the ‘Gangs of London’, while other regional newspapers +decried the gangsters of ‘Gunchester’ and ‘Shottingham’ +(Manchester and Nottingham).4 These ‘gangs’ were represented by images of young black men, hooded, masked +or in mugshots. None of this felt new necessarily, except +perhaps in its intensity. For over a decade the police had +lobbied for more power and weapons, implementing +targeted programmes, such as Operation Trident, with +the explicit aim of policing ‘gangs’ in black communities. These were accompanied by calls for longer prison +sentences, massive increases in stop-and-search powers, +and public hand-wringing about the breakdown of the +nuclear family, the lack of suitable role models, and a justice +system weakened by political correctness and concerns +about human rights. We can trace these discourses on +race, crime and disorder through Enoch Powell, Margaret +Thatcher, Tony Blair, David Cameron, Theresa May, and +now Boris Johnson. +However, it is worth pausing to question the specific +work performed by the image of ‘the gang’. Crucially, ‘the +gang’ mediates between the individual offender and the +wider group from which they hail, with its alien culture, +propensity to violence and incorrigible cultural difference. +The inherently racial character of ‘the gang’ explains the +flurry of policies and laws designed to identify, contain +and criminalise ‘gangs’. + + GANG LAND + +◆ + +43 + +Since 2012, the Metropolitan Police have been using +a database called the Gangs Violence Matrix to identify, +assess and measure potential harm and risk emanating +from particular young people. This risk-assessment tool +is designed to give the police a means of defining and +ranking people described as ‘gang-associated’. However, it +is not clear how someone gets on the Matrix, or how they +get off it. What is clear is that the vast majority of those on +the Gangs Matrix are black, which does not correspond to +rates of ‘serious youth violence’. +Researchers Patrick Williams and Becky Clarke analysed +gangs policing in London, Nottingham and Greater +Manchester. They found that 72 per cent of people on the +London Gangs Matrix were black, while only 27 per cent of +serious youth violence was committed by black people in +London (the figures in Greater Manchester were starker: +81 per cent of ‘gang members’ were black while only 6 per +cent of serious youth violence was committed by black +people).5 Amnesty International found that ‘40 per cent of +people listed on the Matrix have no record of involvement +in any violent offence in the past two years and 35 per cent +have never committed any “serious offence”’.6 +As the same Amnesty report explains, the policing of +gangs relies on online surveillance: +The type of data collection that underpins the Gangs +Matrix focuses law enforcement efforts disproportionately on black boys and young men. It erodes their +right to privacy based on what may be nothing more +than their associates in the area they grow up and how +they express their subculture in music videos and social + + 44 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +media posts. Officials in borough Gangs Units monitor +the social media pages and online interactions of people +they consider to be ‘at risk’ of gang involvement, interfering with the privacy of a much larger group of people +than those involved in any kind of wrongdoing. +Here we see the use of social media analysis and online +surveillance within contemporary policing practices. The +use of big data reflects the wider turn towards predictive +policing technologies. As others have noted, the opacity of +policing combined with the opacity of machine-learning +algorithms portends troubling times ahead for those +concerned with limiting the reach of the state.7 +Being gang-identified, despite the absence of substantive +evidence, can have significant implications beyond the +criminal justice system. Information on ‘gang associations’ +is regularly shared between government agencies, which +can impact the ability of an individual, and their family, +to access social housing, education and welfare benefits. +Increasingly, for those who lack British citizenship, police +intelligence on ‘suspected gang involvement’ is used to +build deportation cases, often against individuals who +moved to the UK as infants, and who have no criminal +record, but who it is decided on a ‘balance of probabilities’ +are more likely than not to have committed crimes. Under +a policy called Operation Nexus, many people have been +deported on the basis of such ‘non-convictions’.8 +While the ‘gang’ is used to construct racialised forms of +suspect criminality, it also makes possible certain forms +of collective punishment, especially in criminal cases +involving ‘Joint Enterprise’. Joint Enterprise is ‘a doctrine + + GANG LAND + +◆ + +45 + +of common law which has been developed by the courts +in cases where more than one person is to be prosecuted +for the same offence’, the logic being that if a group of +people were ‘in it together’, and had ‘common purpose’ in +conspiring to commit crime together, they should be held +collectively responsible. This means that people can be +held liable for crimes committed by other people, even if +they were not present when the crime was committed. This +has particular implications for young black men identified +as belonging to ‘a gang’, and many Joint Enterprise cases +rely on invoking ‘the gang’ as the narrative thread for +such ‘common purpose’. This is worrying when the very +definition of ‘gangs’ through police intelligence is both +empirically flimsy and heavily racialised.9 +To give one example, in Manchester in 2016 a teenager +was stabbed to death in Moss Side. Thirteen young men +and boys were charged with his killing; eleven were sent +to prison, with seven sentenced to life for murder (one +of them had remained in his car during the fight, and +another was twenty metres away when the stabbing took +place), and four convicted of manslaughter. In this case, +like many others, it was the image of ‘the gang’ that held +the prosecution’s argument together, weaving together a +case from patchy evidence, but successfully persuading +the judge to ignore the simple claim made by all the +defendants: that they were not part of a gang and thus +there was no ‘common purpose’. +Unsurprisingly, the number of black people serving +custodial sentences for Joint Enterprise convictions – +mostly for murder with sentences of over 15 years – is +highly disproportionate. While the incarceration of black + + 46 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +people in Britain is already more disproportionate than +in the US, the rate for Joint Enterprise cases is even more +striking. For those convicted under Joint Enterprise at +the time of writing, 57.4 per cent are black and minority +ethnic (37.7 per cent black/black British, 4.7 per cent +Asian and 15.5 per cent mixed race). Non-white people +also serve longer sentences under Joint Enterprise than +white groups, and ‘the gang’ is invoked much more often +to justify their ‘common purpose’. According to Patrick +Williams and Becky Clarke, who surveyed 241 prisoners +convicted under Joint Enterprise laws, over three quarters +of the black and brown interviewees (78.9 per cent) +reported that references to ‘gangs’ featured in their cases +in court, whereas only 38.5 per cent of white interviewees +had ‘the gang’ mentioned in their cases. Moreover, 97 per +cent of those who reported that ‘gangs’ were introduced in +court disputed the ‘gang’ label and ‘dismissed it as untrue, +a “made up” feature of the prosecution’s argument’.10 +Because ‘gangs’, like other fears around crime and +disorder, concern ‘black youth’, a set of seasoned arguments about black cultural pathology find renewed +articulation. The racialisation of ‘black Britons’, especially +African-Caribbeans, has long operated through ideas +about ‘cultural deprivation’. Perhaps more urgently, these +cultures of criminality and outlawry are seen to be contagious, as sometimes appealing to white Britons, visible +in the fact that multi-racial urban cultures seem particularly shaped by black cultural forms. In short, ‘black +criminality’ is a reflection of cultures which themselves +might poison other young people living in urban Britain, +and this is another factor motivating heavy-handed + + GANG LAND + +◆ + +47 + +punishment. Ideas about black culture as contagion have +a long history, as does the appeal of black cultural forms +within youth culture. Perhaps black cultural forms do have +greater appeal to wider British society – not as poison but +as inspiration – following the retreat of the welfare state +and the concomitant waning of political legitimacy. As +Stormzy’s intervention in electoral politics in November +2019 reminds us, there is good reason for the Conservative +Party and its backers to be concerned that these energies +might one day be organised into more effective support +for social democracy. +* + +* + +* + +The Conservative Party Manifesto of November 2019 +should be read with these cases in mind. Where it +promises to provide 10,000 more prison places, and to +ensure that serious criminals receive tougher punishments – ending automatic release at the halfway point for +example – we can predict where the heavy punishment +will fall. It was Boris Johnson as Mayor of London who +announced plans to punish gangs collectively for the acts +of individual members, even when Joint Enterprise was +not being pursued by prosecutors.11 This racist collective +punishment gets justified through the discursive and +cultural work performed by ‘the gang’. As we have argued, +‘the gang’ works incredibly well to justify the most severe +punishments available to the British state: the curtailment +of civil liberties (such as freedom of movement and +self-expression), life imprisonment and, in the case of +non-citizens, permanent exile. + + 48 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +However, while there is a particular history to its racialisation as black, ‘the gang’ is a highly mobile and protean +signifier of racial otherness which can be qualified in +other ways. There are Albanian, Somali and Asian gangs, +and ‘illegal immigration’ is blamed on ‘trafficking gangs’ +and ‘gang-masters’. Perhaps most visibly, child sexual +exploitation has been blamed on ‘Pakistani grooming +gangs’, which have become the most visceral marker of +anti-Muslim sentiment in British politics. We discuss +‘Pakistani grooming gangs’ at length in Part 3 of the book, +but it is important to note here that this concern about +‘grooming gangs’ reveals a wider set of crises and contestations over gender, sexuality and culture. +The ‘Pakistani grooming gang’ has been mobilised as +a unique and existential threat to white girls, rehashing +familiar fears of miscegenation, paedophilia and the +civilisationist rhetoric of the ‘War on Terror’. The far-right +has made political capital out of the organised abuse of +young women and girls by claiming that white men need +to protect their women from this alien threat, further +arguing that the state has been weakened by political correctness. Alongside this reading of ‘grooming gangs’, there +has been a more liberal concern over the anti-feminist +and anti-LGBT positions of Britain’s Muslim communities +themselves. The ‘grooming gang’ encapsulates here the +depraved sexualities of Muslim men, whose male pathology +is seen to be nurtured by ethnic segregation, patriarchal +family structures and by Islam itself. Meanwhile, the +‘black gang’ is also seen to be an effect of deficient masculinities, particularly with reference to ‘absent fathers’ +and a ‘lack of good role models’, which then produce the + + GANG LAND + +◆ + +49 + +violent and nihilistic expressions of masculinity exhibited +by those wayward and rootless teenagers carrying knives +and producing drill music. +It is hardly surprising that the racialisation of particular +‘folk devils’ works through gender and sexuality, and that +figurations of ‘the gang’ seem well placed to capture the +group threat. However, what is particularly threatening +about ‘the gang’ is that it represents an alternative form +of social organisation. Part of this racial threat presented +by black people, Muslims and various racial Others +relies, therefore, not only on individual wrongdoing but +on what that wrongdoing supposedly tells us about the +group. These collective threats to the nation are imagined +to play by their own, different, rules, and therefore to be +acculturated within some other moral order and system +of authority, embedded in an alternative and unknowable +form of social organisation – both dangerous and +seductive. As well as the ‘grooming gangs’ themselves, +gangs involved in ‘knife crime’, county lines drug dealing, +or terrorist cells each do their own kinds of ‘grooming’ +– with their own lexicon, imagery and sinister system of +values. This produces the conviction that this alternative +system should at the very least be visible to the state and +the nation, giving birth to an industry of interpreters, +investigators, rehabilitators and enforcers, in a typically +colonial/anthropological mode. +Importantly, these alternative forms of social organisation become particularly threatening at a time of +waning political legitimacy and nationalist resurgence. +And so Muslims must condemn terrorism and confirm +their commitment to tolerance, democracy and the rule + + 50 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +of law. Black people must ‘disprove stereotypes’, while +stressing their claim to the Commonwealth and therefore +to British citizenship and belonging. Immigrants must +speak English, learn ‘British values’, and pass the Life in +the UK test. This compulsory demand to perform loyalty +to the nation symbolically guards against ‘home-grown +terrorism’, ‘grooming gangs’ and ‘knife crime’ among +other things, but it is clearly connected to the broader +realisation that many people in Britain are finding sources +of authority and belonging elsewhere. People are not +comporting themselves in accordance with the ideals of +nationalist respectability, which is why David Cameron’s +‘muscular liberalism’ professed that it was not enough +merely to abide by the law – citizens must actively invest +in Britishness itself. The British state demands a monopoly +on the legitimate use of grooming. +There is a recognisable colonial lineage to these dynamics. Alternative currents of power have, from colonial +contexts to modern multicultural Britain, been tolerated +by the state if they organised people into productive work +relations and respectable family structures. Indirect rule +and multiculturalism both rely on respecting cultural +leaders and customary law so long as this does not challenge the ultimate authority of the British government. +This managerial calibration of difference is what the +‘British value’ of tolerance amounts to. When racialised +groups present more substantive challenges to state +authority, however – when they protest, riot and resist – +they can then be suppressed legitimately, and the British +state can remain virtuous in the face of ungrateful and +uncivilised groups. Equally, it was colonialism which used + + GANG LAND + +◆ + +51 + +race to determine who was worthy of the law – and who +was subject to civil law and who to martial law. Colonial +regimes also produced propertied white men as the individual bearers of rights, while racially inferior groups +could be subject to collective punishment without any +concern for due process rights. +‘Gang crime’, ‘knife crime’ and ‘radicalisation’ are not, it +is worth restating, criminal offences in themselves. They +are categories of crime, produced by melding together a +collection of already existing offences, popular fears and +racist images. The definitions of ‘the gang’ or of ‘extremism’ +remain so fluid and ambiguous that they allow for the +production of suspect communities, rather than individual +suspects. Black working-class boys – in both urban areas +where policing is most prevalent and in more rural areas +(particularly since the rise in ‘county lines’ policing) – are +all potential gang members. Muslims from a range of +ethnic backgrounds, of all age groups from primary school +upwards, are assumed to be potentially ‘radicalised’ and +susceptible to ‘extremism’. Non-citizens, and indeed all of +us, must prove our right to reside before renting a house, +taking up employment or visiting the doctor – we are all +perpetually demonstrating our ‘legality’. Surveillance and +data-gathering technologies enacted through the Gangs +Matrix, Prevent and the immigration system advance +the pre-emptive policing of racialised populations. The +Muslim, the immigrant and the black become subject +to collective punishment precisely because their criminality and deviance represent an existential threat, and +narratives on ‘the gang’ are fundamental to the production +of this feeling of siege. Muslims want to overthrow liberal + + 52 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +democracy and impose an alternative religious order, +while young black people threaten our safety and civility +while seducing urban white working-class youth to their +ways. +Politicians are right when they observe that the nation is +losing its lustre for many young people, but most often it +is not displaced by any coherent alternative form. Instead, +we have individualised media environments, in which +social and timeline media determine cultural value(s). +Relatedly, public institutions and public spaces have been +decimated, and it is corporations that increasingly define +where we go, what we see and how we feel, organising +social and cultural life in ways beyond the reach of the +hollowed-out state. In this context, the reaction of the state +to the ‘gang’, in its many incarnations, illustrates that its +authority is threatened. In responding to various pressures +on its legitimacy, law-and-order policing is used both to +repress alternative currents of power and to replace the +state influence formerly occupied by the welfare system. +In this way, the policing of gangs is a kind of displacement +from the wider concerns about waning state authority and +governmental legitimacy. As a result, it is hard to imagine +how the state would define itself, in terms of a necessary +defence of the nation, without ‘knife crime’, ‘terrorism’ +and ‘mass migration’ – especially when war has become so +unpopular in the wake of Afghanistan and Iraq. With the +abandonment of welfarism, the state’s main purpose and +promise is to keep us safe. This promise of security underwrites the authoritarianism and militarism of political +culture at this moment of crisis, as we discuss in Part 4. + + GANG LAND + +◆ + +53 + +Importantly, it seems to us that ‘gangs’ are central to +several different configurations of racial threat. The +construction of migrants, criminals, terrorists and sex +offenders as members of ‘gangs’ works to racialise the +source of danger, emphasising that alternative modes of +social organisation fuel violence and criminality. This +then licenses the exclusion of particular populations +from legal protections and due process rights (through, +e.g., knife-crime prevention orders, control orders, deprivation of citizenship and deportation). Law has always +operated to segment the population into those who can be +saved, rehabilitated, protected or included, and those who +cannot. Those excluded from legal protection become +the defining boundary of ‘state responsibility’. Today, the +racialisation of national insecurity licenses wider moves to +expand executive power and circumvent the meagre protections afforded by the independent judiciary, thereby +transforming the state and the fundamental practices +through which it gets defined. It is worth keeping in mind +that by highlighting the authoritarian nature of the state, +we are not valorising the liberal state’s laws and practices +of previous decades. Rather, we are seeking to trace transformations in how the political is delineated and therefore +what new forms of authoritarian power become possible in +their wake. It is in this vein that the chapters which follow +in Part 2 seek to trace the form and content of nationalist +appeal in Britain today. + + PART 2 + +The Persistence of Nationalism + + C HAPTE R F O UR + +Nationalist Convulsions + +[T]he word we used to use was sovereignty. It’s about +self-government. It’s about identity. It’s about whether +we are a proper nation or not. This is about us governing +our country, it’s about us controlling our borders ... We +need to be saying ‘we want our country back’. And we’re +going to get it. And June 23 is going to be Independence +Day. +– Nigel Farage, April 2016 + +If politics in the West is ever to return to normal +rather than becoming even more polarized, white +interests will need to be discussed. I realize this is very +controversial for left-modernists. Yet not only is white +group self-interest legitimate, but I maintain that in an +era of unprecedented white demographic decline it is +absolutely vital for it to have a democratic outlet. +– Professor Eric Kaufmann, author of Whiteshift1 + +As we were completing this work, the dangerous forces +of nationalism were all too apparent. The heart-breaking +2019 general election saw the resurrection of an overtly +nationalistic and racist government led by Boris Johnson. +The right was consolidated as the Tory Party swept up the +votes of erstwhile UKIP and Brexit Party voters. Johnson’s + + 58 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +government took victory with the enthusiastic endorsement of Trump, following a political playbook influenced, +if not scripted, by Steve Bannon. More broadly, as the +troubled decade of the twenty-teens has ended, the full +violence of exclusionary nationalisms has been unleashed +across the globe – with re-education camps for Uighur +Muslims in China, and the spectre of mass internment +and statelessness targeting Muslims in India. Meanwhile, +in Myanmar, Aung San Suu Kyi defended the genocidal +violence against the Rohingya as a matter of national +security, and in Hungary, Prime Minister Viktor Orbán’s +popular campaign to harden the eastern flank of Fortress +Europe has trapped people on the border, starving in +camps. The richest nation on earth continues to cage +children at its border, and while the infrastructure for this +violence was developed during the ‘liberal years’ of Clinton +and Obama (as well as Bush), the aggressive and spectacular violation of racialised Others is absolutely central to +Trump’s mode of governance in the USA. Comparable +regimes in Brazil under Bolsonaro, and Turkey under +Erdogan, point to the wider set of alliances and confluences being forged between authoritarian strongmen and +their ultra-nationalist mandates. +In this chapter we focus on the British story, considering the stubborn allure of nationalism in British political +culture. Importantly, appeals to the nation transcend neat +political divisions of left and right. Although as a group +we do not subscribe to a singular ‘line’, we all approach the +pull of nationalism with scepticism, even in its welfarist +incarnations. Historically, the British nation has only +ever existed with colonies and has therefore constructed + + NATIONALIST CONVULSIONS + +◆ + +59 + +a national identity through a triumphalist sense of its own +imperial greatness, in which the British national character +is defined in opposition to the uncivilised nature of +colonial subjects. British nationalism necessarily relies on +the structured and purposeful forgetting of the violence +and domination that characterised empire, while simultaneously lamenting the loss of global power and prestige +when Britannia ruled the waves. Perversely, in the context +of Brexit, the Leave side were able to narrate the UK’s +membership in the European Union as one of colonial +subjugation: Boris Johnson claimed the EU ‘relegated +Britain to the status of a colony’, and Nigel Farage hailed +the referendum result as Britain’s ‘Independence Day’. +This distinctly British, or more accurately English, mix of +colonial amnesia, nostalgia and melancholia underwrites +the persistence of racism in British political and cultural +life and explains the profound longing for authority, +repression and the expulsion of racialised outsiders that +this book charts. Put most simply, the history of this +political and social formation means that British nationalism is unavoidably racial and racist, and any attempts to +repurpose it for progressive or leftist ends are myopic and +dangerous (see Chapter 5). +Others have gone into far greater detail demonstrating +how British nationalism and racism are co-constitutive, +with Paul Gilroy remarking that ‘British nationalism +cannot be purged of its racialized contents any more easily +than a body can be purged of the skeleton that supports +it.’2 More recently, social theorist Sivamohan Valluvan has +argued that European colonial legacies mean ‘Western +nation-making projects render race an inevitable and + + 60 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +indispensable presence that is continually remade.’3 As he +argues, the nation’s content, its inside, only gains meaning +and substance through what it excludes, the outside. The +challenge for us, then, is to theorise racism in relation +to the shifting work performed by nationalism, which +remains dangerous and persistent precisely because it +successfully appeals to various political constituencies +and imaginaries – including sadly on the left. There is +no salvation in left nationalisms. However, in our view, +sometimes the desire to name and centre race can obscure +the centrality of nationalism to contemporary racisms. In +other words, a willingness to talk about race sometimes +forecloses a more careful analysis of the politics of nation. +In some cases this encourages a politics of representation +and inclusion that, as we argue, bolsters rather than +challenges nationalist rhetorics. +Unlike some other states, Britain struggles to pin +down its definitive nation-building moment. As a result, +nationalistic nostalgia may be referencing quite different +incarnations of the nation (although this is true for most +nationalisms). Sometimes it is the apparently austere +Victorian values championed at the height of imperial +power, but more often it is the euphoria of victory in the +Second World War and the boom years that followed. The +post-war establishment of the NHS and Britain’s welfare +state can therefore associate the nationalism of war with +the humanity underpinned by the social democratic +reforms that followed it, not to mention the defeat of +Nazism. This nostalgia, then, is not only for an imagined +national greatness, but also for a time when the state could +really do something, really police behaviour, really embody + + NATIONALIST CONVULSIONS + +◆ + +61 + +patriarchal authority, and really act on the world stage. +For this reason, the remaking of state practices – which +have become increasingly defined by cruelty, neglect and +austerity – is experienced, culturally, as a diminution of +national status. In other words, the moment of English +nationalism that finds form through Brexit takes the +disruption and disappointment of state neglect and +rearticulates it as an outcome of national decline. In an +echo of other English and British nationalisms, this +iteration of nationalism includes a strange amalgamation +of anti-elitism with a longing for authoritarianism. +In this nostalgia, there is a desire for the state to +demonstrate its power in a manner that we, the citizenaudience, can understand. This power is not necessarily +coercive, but it is always firm. There remains a collective +memory of a state – the welfare state – whose interventions +demonstrated understanding and care, a state that sought +to provide the healthcare, housing and education we +all wanted. But this power was also authoritative. It +instilled values and, when necessary, imposed law and +order, meting out the justice we deserved. Some of the +eruptions of racialised panic we describe in this book +circle back to this nostalgia for an imagined powerful, +competent state. The repetitive quest for a ‘progressive’ +nationalism is therefore perhaps best understood as a +response to the widely circulated view that something has +been lost. This view of the nation, which frames it as an +almost empty vessel into which progressive, rather than +reactionary, policies can be poured, means that demands +to provide more funding for police officers on our streets +are considered a simple defence of essential, benevolent, + + 62 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +public services, rather than calls bound up in the violent +project of nation-building. +While it remains clear that the gains of the welfare +system – council housing, free education and universal +healthcare – are being eroded, these material losses are +often combined with other narratives of cultural loss and +national decline. This register of loss attaches most strongly +to the mythic ‘white working class’, who are understood to +have been ‘left behind’ by globalisation. The formulation +of the ‘left behind’ is framed as a loss not simply to the +gain of elites, but also to the gain of ethnic outsiders who +have been favoured by political correctness and reverse +discrimination. The suggestion that ‘multiculturalism’ has +been imposed on a native population by the elite, without +discussion or consent, echoes long-standing far-right +narratives which present ‘the elite’ as predominantly +Jewish, conspiring to dilute or eradicate the apparent +whiteness of the indigenous working class by encouraging +immigration and multiculturalism. +While ‘the great replacement’ theory is a far-right +ideological repertoire, similar arguments find voice +through political demography, the most respectable form +of scientific racism in our times. Respected professors +with prominent media profiles publish popular books +on the ‘legitimate concerns’ of white majorities faced +with demographic decline.4 In order to understand the +stubborn persistence of these nativist currents – whether +conservative and traditionalist, or liberal and even leftist +– it is necessary to introduce the cast of characters British +nationalism seeks to organise. To do so, we should return + + NATIONALIST CONVULSIONS + +◆ + +63 + +to the paradigmatic expression of this drama: Enoch +Powell’s 1968 ‘Rivers of Blood’ speech. +* + +* + +* + +In a Birmingham speech calling for an end to ‘coloured’ +immigration, forewarning the scourge of black criminality +and announcing the moral decline of the nation, Powell +helped to reinvigorate English racism and fascism. He +claimed that ‘the decent, ordinary Englishman’, the rightful +protagonist of the national drama, faced an existential +threat, as a deluge of immigrants, enabled by a mischievous Labour government, threatened his livelihood, his +culture and his autonomy. The element of Powell’s speech +that continues to resonate is the story he tells of Britain +as a nation under threat, and the dichotomy he sets up +between the ‘ordinary working man’ – white and a citizen +– and the migrant worker. The migrant always remains +both racialised and outside of Britain’s national story, +regardless of the rights granted to Commonwealth and +colony subjects by the 1948 British Nationality Act, and +the centuries of military, economic, social and political +connections forged by empire. Indeed, for Powell, black +and brown Britons born in the UK would remain migrants +(and so we remain: second and third generation migrants +still). Though Powell’s ‘Rivers of Blood’ speech was viewed +by many of his contemporaries as a blatant and embarrassing expression of racism, in its long afterlife it has been +transformed into an apocryphal story of globalisation.5 +Powell’s famous anecdote has become an enduring story +that goes something like this: + + 64 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +The Commonwealth immigrant came to Britain a +full citizen, to a country which knew no discrimination +between one citizen and another, and he was granted +the same rights as every other citizen, from the right to +vote to the right to free treatment under the National +Health Service. But while for the immigrant entry to this +country was an admission to privileges and opportunities, +the implications for the existing population were not so +rosy. For reasons they could not comprehend, ‘ordinary +Englishmen’ found themselves made ‘strangers in their +own country’. They found their wives unable to obtain +hospital beds in childbirth, their children unable to obtain +school places, their homes and neighbourhoods changed +beyond recognition and their plans and prospects for +the future thwarted. At work they found that employers +hesitated to apply to the immigrant worker the standards +of discipline and competence required of the native-born +worker. These ordinary Englishmen began to hear, as time +went by, more and more voices which told them they were +now unwanted. +The story has three main characters. The first is +the migrant – who may not technically be any more +of a ‘migrant’ than someone moving from Cardiff to +Canterbury, but is a migrant in the sense of being a +racialised outsider. The migrant has been gifted the opportunity to escape the inevitable destitution of the kind that +befalls his countrymen ‘back home’, and he now hopes to +enjoy the comforts of Western life – which he did not build +and to which he is not inherently entitled. The second +character is the ‘global/metropolitan elite’ – the bosses, +the government, the PC brigade – whose unexplained + + NATIONALIST CONVULSIONS + +◆ + +65 + +affinity for immigrants, whether it be metropolitan ‘virtue +signalling’ or employer demand for cheap and exploitable +labour, has led to Britain’s undoing. The final character is +the white native: Powell compellingly centred ‘the decent, +ordinary fellow Englishman’, what some among the contemporary right, as well as the centre and left, now call +the traditional working class or, better yet, the ‘left behind’. +It is at the expense of these respectable and indigenous +Englishmen that the processes of post-war migration and +multiculturalism have wrought their disruption. +In order to make way for these racial aliens, the white +citizen had to lose out – losing their industrialised jobs +to outsourcing and undercutting foreign workers, their +high streets to foreign shops and foreign crowds, and +their safety and security to ‘black crime’. The majority +lost control of how their country looks and feels – and, +fast-forwarding to 2016, it was the language of sovereignty which fuelled the campaign of those who wanted +their country back. In this story, Powellism is reheated to +suggest that immigrant workers are the nefarious winners +of neoliberal globalisation; their coalition with the global +and political elite has left the white citizen-worker behind. +Perhaps it is this last part of the story that resonates most +sharply with sections of the left – where the exclusion of +immigrants is enlisted primarily to defend and revalorise +the native worker. +Central to the Powellist narrative is the claim that +‘races’, or civilisations, exist in irreconcilable silos. Fixed +in their immutable difference, they must compete with +one another for scarce resources. This zero-sum-game +logic has infused racism since Powell’s fateful interven- + + 66 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +tion. During the apparently ‘liberal’ years of Blair and +Cameron, Britain went about this management of difference more politely: through the language of integration, +British values, security and fiscal responsibility. Britain’s +political establishment became slick advocates of a putatively modern, liberal nationalism, attempting to weave +seamlessly between multicultural inclusivity and the muscular exclusivity of nationalism. Powellism remained an +implicit anchor, but one which could remain submerged +except at crisis points, such as the 7/7 bombings or the +2011 riots, where the ungrateful children of Commonwealth migrants were once again in the spotlight as an +existential danger to the nation. Cameron, nonetheless, +tried to maintain a crisper, more corporate vision of the +nation, setting his own party up as an antidote to the +bigoted ramblings of the tabloid press and the ‘fruitcakes, +loonies and closet racists’ of UKIP, as he described them. +It was, perhaps, his underestimation of the potency rather +than the absurdity of Powellite nationalism that precipitated Cameron calling a referendum on Britain’s EU +membership, a vote which he and his allies in New Labour +were confident they would win. +As blind to the power of British nationalism as some +of their adversaries on the progressive left, the Remain +establishment (in its Tory, Labour and other incarnations) +was as surprised by the resurgence of a presumed-dead +Powellism as they were by the Leave victory in the EU +referendum. For New Labour, neoliberal multiculturalism +– the promotion of a colour-blind take on Thatcherism’s +meritocratic promise – was generally seen as an effective +antidote to Powellite racism, which was framed primarily + + NATIONALIST CONVULSIONS + +◆ + +67 + +as narrow-minded ‘intolerance’ of other cultures which +could be educated or legislated away. Even after Cameron +declared multiculturalism a failure,6 the Remain alliance +still presumed the political project of a monocultural +nation to be a thing of the past. How wrong they were. The +rest, as we know, is history. After the EU referendum, and +the elections which followed, naked nationalism moved +from supporting actor to leading role. As a result, many +liberal and even left-wing actors now set their sights on +reforming rather than defeating nationalism – a point we +discuss in the next chapter. +Falling back on the familiarity of nationalism, then, is +not confined to party politics. The longing for the anchor +of nationalism, with its heady mythologies and promise +of a shared emotional world, extends notably to socialists and anti-racists. As we warn, however, the attempt to +reform nationalism, or to develop a ‘progressive patriotism’ that can render progressive policies more appealing +to ‘traditional voters’, is a dangerous strategy. There is no +nationalist appeal without nostalgia and loss, and as Owen +Hatherley rightly reminds us: ‘whenever the left thinks it +can turn the past to its own advantage, it is outplayed by +the right’.7 In the next chapter, we develop this critique of +‘progressive patriotism’. + + C HAPTE R F I VE + +Progressive Patriotism + +To win back the ex-industrial towns where people have +turned out in large numbers for Farage, Labour needs +to talk about more than economics. It needs to fight +personal insecurity, crime, drugs, antisocial behaviour +and organised crime as enthusiastically as it fights +racism. It needs to sideline all voices who believe having +a strong national security policy is somehow ‘imperialist’. It needs to forget scrapping Trident. The reluctance +to speak this language this is, I believe, what left Labour +over-reliant on triangulating to accommodate the proBrexit views of some voters in these towns. +– Paul Mason1 + +Nationalism is never simply a means to other political +ends, not least left collectivism. Nationalism is always, +in the final instance, about its own exclusionary racisms +– anything else is a convenient bedfellow rallied to make +its appeal more likely. +– Sivamohan Valluvan2 + +In this chapter, we consider the puzzling and yet continuing appeal of nationalism for the progressive and +anti-racist left, despite the many horrors unleashed by +nationalist forces in our time. Most of all, we try to unpack + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +69 + +what is at stake in the various calls for a ‘progressive +nationalism/patriotism’. Such calls have been particularly +insistent in the United Kingdom, despite, or perhaps due +to, the uneasy binding of nations that are ‘united’ in this +overarching ‘nation’. Yet the explicitly stated goal of the +Scottish Nationalist Party – to hold another referendum +on Scottish independence and secede from the United +Kingdom – is only intermittently included in musings on +the progressive potential of a differently imagined nationalism. Similarly, the political aspirations of Northern +Ireland seem far away from the attempts to remake Britishness in a manner that can encompass the multicultural. +Given these peculiar silences, we can presume that when +British commentators propose a progressive nationalism, +they mean a nationalism that can include and perhaps +even embrace black and brown people, rather than a +nationalism that addresses and resolves the challenges of +the union. So, if talk of progressive nationalism must be +understood as talk about race, ironically, it is also simultaneously a refusal to acknowledge the unresolved and +volatile issues which continue to unsettle this nation of +nations. +In the previous chapter we emphasised the importance +of Powell’s ‘Rivers of Blood’ speech for setting the terms +of debate on issues surrounding race and immigration +in British politics. It is on the discursive terrain shaped +by Powellism that attempts at liberal and left nationalisms compete with their authoritarian counterparts. +While New Labour’s use of focus groups and the processes +of population segmentation perfected by corporate +marketing teams might look rather quaint against our + + 70 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +new algorithmic horizons, the habit of viewing the electorate as divided into tidy sociological categories has come +with disastrous effects, not least in shoring up the view +that people’s beliefs and desires are inherent rather than +shaped by political processes. For New Labour, this view +birthed the myth of triangulation: the idea that one simply +had to promise policies that would mediate between +two data points, a third way, thereby appealing to a large +enough cross-section of the electorate to win an election. +It is in this attempt to find a third way between nationalism and anti-racist socialism that the left too often paints +itself into a corner. +* + +* + +* + +The basic premise of the progressive nationalist argument is +that patriotism is at once desirable and a basic, immovable +fact of the British national psyche. The problem for progressive nationalists is that the right (and worse, the +far-right) have obtained a political monopoly on its use +and thus fill it with regressive or conservative content. +Race and racism play a key role in the construction of +this argument. The right’s nationalism is problematic for +the progressive nationalist because it is used to articulate +nativism, racism, jingoism, xenophobia, etc. +Rather than interrogating how the nation has become +the primary mechanism through which racism is articulated in Britain, progressive nationalists instead tell us +we simply need to fill this signifier with new, progressive, +maybe even anti-racist content. In fact, they argue that not +doing so is precisely the reason why right-wing nation- + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +71 + +alism is winning this particular ideological battle. In The +Progressive Patriot, Billy Bragg put it thus: ‘Reluctant to +make any concessions to reactionary nationalism, we +have, by default, created a vacuum, leaving it to the likes of +the BNP and the Daily Mail to decide who does and who +doesn’t belong here.’3 More recently Zoe Williams wrote: +‘bad nationalism’, the suspicious and anti-immigrant +kind, the ‘hostile environment’ kind, the static kind, +the kind that, out of nowhere, thinks sovereignty is the +burning issue of the day and that building a wall will +solve anything, thrives not because the majority secretly +thought this all along, but because there is no countervailing narrative of ‘good nationalism’.4 +A key part of the progressive nationalist argument is +therefore about changing the national story Britain tells +of itself. This, we are told, will allow for a patriotism no +longer grounded in the love of British (white) supremacy +but instead found in histories of working-class solidarity +and social justice. Williams described this as ‘Danny Boyle +Nationalism’ in reference to the ‘radical’ and ‘inclusive’ +story told by Boyle in the opening ceremony of the 2012 +London Olympics. Here, the ‘Greatness’ of Britain was +retold through the abolition of slavery, the Suffragettes, +the making of the NHS, the arrival of SS Empire Windrush, +and J.K. Rowling. +However, such ‘radical’ re-imaginations of British +history have produced an uneasy consensus across the +political spectrum. In the aftermath of the 2019 general +election, Labour MP Liam Byrne diagnosed Labour’s + + 72 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +electoral defeat as rooted in its inability to contend with +‘the allure of patriotism’ and emphasised its importance +in reviving support for the Labour Party. Curiously, a few +weeks later, Daniel Hannan, a Conservative MEP, also +suggested Labour’s electoral defeat could be explained +by Jeremy Corbyn’s lack of patriotism. In their interventions, both Byrne and Hannan expressed a pride in the +Levellers, Chartists and the Suffragettes.5 The invocation +of radical history in the service of patriotism is clearly not +restricted to the left, then. Indeed, in 2014, on winning +the parliamentary seat for Rochdale for the right-wing UK +Independence Party (UKIP), MP Mark Reckless declared +that his party stood in the tradition of the Levellers and +Chartists, adding, ‘The radical tradition, which has stood +and spoken for the working class, has found a new home +in UKIP.’ +That explicitly racist and xenophobic political forces +have been able to cash-in on ‘progressive’ articulations of +nationalism should perhaps give left-wing advocates pause +for thought. Indeed, this cross-party consensus betrays +the racial work performed by nationalist discourses. Each +offer selective readings of British history where the nation’s +constitutive imperial violences are suppressed precisely +to enable feelings of pride and love. Whereas right-wing +nationalism practices an imperial nostalgia, progressive +nationalism appears to depend on imperial aphasia – a +deliberate forgetting of a colonial past. At the same time, +the histories that make the cut of progressive nationalist narratives tend to erase ostensibly ‘working-class’ or +‘radical’ movements that placed the imperial-national +formation of Britain itself into question.6 We are encour- + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +73 + +aged to remember the Chartists but not the Mau Mau; the +Suffragettes but not the British Black Panther Party. +The allure of progressive patriotism therefore relies on a +set of assumptions about the value of differently racialised +people; foreigners are placed outside of progressive narratives of a nation supposedly grounded in working-class +solidarity. These foreigners might be included as desirable +and redeemable, but only when placed in the service of +the nation. When they do not perform this function, they +remain undesirable or unseen. In turn, the existence of +the nation and its reproduction is placed beyond question +or challenge, especially when that challenge is expressed +by Britain’s Others. Progressive nationalism, in spite of +its disavowals of xenophobia and its celebration of multi­ +culturalism, reproduces an imperial ordering of British +politics. +The ideological contortions of progressive nationalism +are most clearly visible in contemporary debates around +immigration. Indeed, the ‘progressive’ often comes to +a battle over nationalism armed with little more than a +paternalistic notion of immigration as the source of some +welcome ‘cultural diversity’ and, more importantly, a +seemingly bottomless ‘migrant work ethic’ that runs our +economy. In this fashion, the left finds itself using the +same playbook as the so-called centre. As a ‘Remainer’ on +the BBC’s Question Time asked, ‘If we stop migration, who +will serve us our coffees in Pret?’ While ostensibly offering +a sensible pro-migrant position, such interventions articulate colonial logics of value extraction, whereby racialised +Others are allowed to survive on the condition that they + + 74 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +service our consumption requirements, or clean up our +(sometimes literal) shit. +The left’s focus on migrants as workers – even if it is +emphasised that they pay in more than they take out +– merely sharpens the tensions that right-wing nationalism claims to reconcile. The migrant worker, with his +robot-like body and his ability to work for hours and +hours without toilet breaks, a living wage, or complaint, +does indeed appear as a threat to your job and your livelihood. The progressive nationalist logic accepts that +because racialised minorities are undervalued, it is inevitable that their labour will be sold on the market for less. +The poor conditions for migrant workers are presented +as a rational outcome of market forces – a constructed +social inferiority coupled with an imposed ‘migrant work +ethic’ which undermines the collective bargaining power +of native workers. While Powell’s infamous speech focuses +on culture rather than economics, it nonetheless supplies +a highly compelling emotional repertoire for progressive nationalism; we have to keep them and their robotic +bodies out, so we aren’t forced to compete unfairly with +them in the labour market. +The Powellite instincts of progressive nationalists thus +preclude alternative political possibilities: what if we were +to challenge the movement of capital rather than labour? +What if we were to prioritise improving the working conditions and collective bargaining of migrant workers? +What if migrants who did not work at all were still ‘valued’? +Such responses would require progressive nationalists to +question the borders which separate workers into citizens +and migrants, and thus the very boundaries of the nation + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +75 + +that they seem at such pains to protect and reproduce. +In contrast, an understanding of race as a construction undermines bordering as a solution. If we see race +as something put on us, rather than coming from us, it is +clear that the state doesn’t respond to race but endlessly +remakes it – borders are the mechanism that categorises +and racialises us, making some of us cheaper, less entitled +to welfare, care and safety than others, and positioning +migrant workers in a perpetual state of violence, neglect +and intraclass conflict. +* + +* + +* + +When Jeremy Corbyn’s first engagement after his surprise +election as leader of the Labour Party in 2015 was to speak +at the Refugees Welcome rally, we saw a glimpse of possibility that a left-wing electoral project might resist the +urge to compete on the dangerous terrain of nationalism. +Indeed, the energy and optimism of the Corbyn project +suggested a decisive break with the technocratic politics +championed by Labour since Blairism. The emergence of +the Corbyn project showed that this technocratic approach +was one that could potentially be discarded. In the explicitly socialist rhetoric of ‘the many not the few’ there was +the potential to revive an understanding of social divisions +as political and, as a result, subject to change. +Further, there was an implicit understanding of a multiracial working class as the constituency whose needs and +desires the Labour Party ought to represent. Unfortunately, many associated with the Corbyn project happily +swallowed the myth of the ‘white working class’ as a + + 76 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +discrete social group and regurgitated the New Labourite +project of triangulation as the means to win their support. +Their indulgence of this myth, though indefensible, is not +difficult to understand. Following the success of the Leave +campaign and Trump’s victory in the USA soon after, the +media coalesced around the Powellist idea that the ‘white +working class’ had been ‘left behind’ by globalisation. The +Brexit vote was viewed, then, as the ‘white working class’ +in revolt. +Commentators attached to the Corbyn project, but +sceptical about its ability to win an election without +appealing to the ‘white working class’, sought a return to +triangulation, in the form of a Labour immigration policy +that would offer the necessary racist sop. Pundits closely +aligned with the Corbyn project, such as Paul Mason, have +been disturbingly quick to adopt this approach.7 +In 2017, Mason stated: ‘Free movement does not just +suppress wage growth at the low end. It says to people +with strong cultural traditions, a strong sense of place and +community (sometimes all they have left from the industrial era) that “your past does not matter”.’8 The claim here +is that ‘mass migration’ negatively impacts wage growth – +although it is not made clear how migration is to blame +for precarity and poor labour market regulation – while +also having negative ‘cultural impacts’. These negative +‘cultural impacts’ are presented as primarily felt in crestfallen postindustrial towns, those forgotten places always +contrasted with apparently thriving metropolitan cities. +This distinction between the ‘metropolitan multicultural +bubble’, and the ‘left-behind post-industrial town’ is a +trope that captivates pundits across the political spectrum + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +77 + +despite the fact that age, profession and home ownership +work as much better predictors for voting patterns. +Depressingly, these lazy binaries between city and town, +multicultural and white, thriving and forgotten, have been +echoed increasingly by people associated with the Labour +Party in the wake of the 2019 December election. To the +extent that such distinctions between city and town hold, +they are an effect of the UK’s constituency-based, firstpast-the-post electoral system, wherein voters in marginal +seats hold all the electoral sway. Rather than critiquing +this system, and the limitations it sets on the formation +of left-wing constituencies, these commentators have +decided to reinvigorate tropes about the ‘left behind’ and +their ‘legitimate concerns’, joining the chorus of politicians +floundering to resolve the issues in ‘towns’ and ‘heartlands’. +Even the Corbyn continuity candidate, Rebecca LongBailey, made a play for ‘progressive patriotism’ in her bid +for leadership, while in April 2020 the party’s new leader, +the apparently ‘forensic’ Sir Keir Starmer, entertained +some erstwhile Labour voters in Bury, Greater Manchester, +over a Zoom call, reassuring them that he did not think +their vote for Brexit, love of the monarchy, or flag-waving, +represented anything like racism. He later confirmed, ‘I +wouldn’t be leader of the Labour Party if I wasn’t patriotic’, +to preface his pro-police, pro-armed forces positions.9 +One might argue that there is no purity in party politics, +and winning elections takes strategy and compromise. For +some this might indicate a limit point for any electoral +project, for others a question over what constitutes an +acceptable ‘compromise’. For many left nativists, however, +the desire to exclude ‘immigrants’ is not only about + + 78 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +winning over voters or even protecting workers. Many +on the left imagine politics in decidedly national terms; +questions of liberty, equality and justice become questions +about British people and the relations between them. +This means not only abandoning internationalism but +also, often, blaming immigrants. In this view, immigrants +not only undercut wages, they also bring disintegration +and unwanted social change: terrorism, crime and alien +cultures – too many, too quickly. And this concerns more +than the numbers; immigrants represent the disruption of +an imagined working-class community, established across +generations and firmly rooted in place, at home. +This, the story goes, has been the basis of labour +movement strength in this country: industries located +in communities where traditions of work, of mobilisation and of resistance all flow down through generations +and beyond the workplace into the community. This is a +model of labour organisation that relies not only on people +knowing each other, but also on knowing each other’s +people – a familial saga where class identity and political +education are remade as part of the experience of being +together in a place. The incursion of ‘newcomers’ brings +new challenges and, in the most frenzied of left nationalisms, is regarded as an attack on the working class. +Versions of this nostalgia for a different moment of +class experience can be seen in Gordon Brown’s uncomfortable call for ‘British jobs for British workers’ in 2007, +and its anticipation of Brexit’s reheated Powellism. The +pop-sociological arm of this nostalgic nativism can be +found in David Goodhart’s warped claims for rootedness as a defence against the metropolitan elite (‘Is your + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +79 + +tribe the “Somewheres” or the “Anywheres”’?).10 Finally, +as discussed above, in the flurry of post-voting punditry +(following both the Brexit referendum and the 2019 +general election), we saw the entire left commentariat +offer their strategy for how to capture the hearts, minds +and votes of the ‘left behind’, those town-dwellers in +former heartlands. +Our point is that many who are broadly aligned to the +left also desire nationalist certainty and patriotic homeliness, and there is a troubling convergence between left +and right on issues relating to race and nation. The ‘progressive’ in ‘progressive nationalism’ might translate as +‘we will exclude immigrants for the sake of workers and +equality’, but the forms of statecraft and the racist logics +licensed by these arguments are much the same. This is +why the Corbyn project was so hopeful, such a sharp turn +from the ‘controls on immigration’ mugs of Ed Miliband’s 2015 campaign. Corybn’s political programme and +his base was much less easily seduced by the politics of +nativism, and much more unwilling to concede ground in +the race-to-the-bottom politics of excluding immigrants. +This was not because the movement was especially ethnically diverse, or always avowedly anti-racist (although +both of these things may have played some part in some +places), but because Corbynism mobilised more substantively ‘progressive’ forces, people on the left who had +otherwise engaged in social movements rather than parliamentary politics. +The danger in the wake of the 2019 election result – and +the mass desertion of the party by radical, socialist and +anti-racist younger members – is that Labour’s misguided + + 80 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +attempts to ‘win back voters’ will now fall back on the +lowest common denominator: the popular, violent and +wholly negative desire to punish, exclude and expel ‘foreigners’, ‘criminals’ and racialised outsiders of various +stripes. Early signs from Keir Starmer suggest that this +looks likely. +* + +* + +* + +The electoral left’s attempts to capture the pull of +nationalism have been predictable and dispiriting, as was +the failure of the Corbyn project to cultivate a politics of +pro-migrant internationalism that could challenge nativist +racism. Yet it is worth remembering that in the 1960s, +Powell was an outlier, not just from polite society but +also from his own party. The first to call for privatisation, +Powell upturned assumptions by revealing that a host of +working-class Tories could be won by nationalist appeal, +anti-immigrant politics and the aspirational possibilities +that would later define Thatcherism. Powell’s movement +previewed the break up of the post-war social-democratic +consensus, but sixties Britain was the wrong moment, +and this kooky imperial throwback the wrong man. +After ‘Rivers of Blood’, Powell left the political main stage +humiliated, but, unbeknown at the time, Powellism laid +the foundations for the remaking of Britain. The thinktanks that had championed Powell, such as the Institute +of Economic Affairs, had the ear of the Conservative +Party, and the anti-immigration army Powell inspired +were waiting for another leader to speak to their fears. +Following a few false starts, ten years after ‘Rivers of + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +81 + +Blood’, the new right found their messiah. Thatcher rode +to power on a path cleared by Powellism, privatising +industries and passing the British Nationality Act 1981, +making real things that seemed impossible in the 1960s. +There is now the idea being advanced across the left +that, following the rejection of Corbynism at the 2019 +general election, the only path to victory for Labour in +the future is to triangulate towards nationalism.11 We are +being told that we must accept that Powellism has so fundamentally transformed the British electorate that the left +can only hope to win voters back by embracing ‘legitimate’ fears around identity, immigration and culture. This +is the wrong lesson to learn from Powellism. It may have +been a joke at the time, but Britain has now sold almost +every state industry, almost every newspaper spews daily +anti-immigrant bile, and Nigel Farage was, for a time, the +country’s kingmaker. +The failure of Corbynism as an electoral project in +2015–19 is absolute. Corbyn was toxic to a Brexit-hungry +Britain. But the idea that this era can be dismissed as a cult +of personality, or student politics writ large, or a throwback +to the 1970s, is misplaced. Though Jeremy Corbyn is no +longer the leader of the Labour Party, ideas like the Green +New Deal or Universal Basic Income are not going away +(even more so following the state responses to Covid-19), +and neither are the constituencies that formed around the +Corbyn project likely to disappear completely (we must +hope that we will assemble in new and imaginative ways). +The networks of new media and intellectual hubs are +here to stay. The 18–30 year olds, with their precarity and +uncertain futures, are highly politicised and remarkably + + 82 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +quick to mobilise, their younger comrades even quicker. +More importantly, the issues that pushed Corbyn into his +unlikely leadership will remain with us – in fact, they will +likely get worse with income inequality, precarious jobs +and housing crises, the threat of climate change and automation all gathering speed. In another historical moment, +with another leader and with the lessons of this failure +having been learnt, the historical forces and ideas that +drove ‘Corbynism’ may yet still remake British politics. +Let us conclude by re-emphasising the key problem +faced by left nationalisms: they must, from their very +inception, draw boundaries between what or whom is +inside the nation, and what or whom remains outside its +borders. This necessity does not simply disrupt solidarity, it is necessarily anti-solidarity. Describing ‘progressive +patriotisms’ as nativist is not simply name-calling. Nativism literally means the politics of ‘natives first’, and while +people might pursue a ‘left nativism’ in a desperate bid +for electoral gain, this hand is always played better by +the right. The deck has been rigged in their favour, and +the characters positioned by the Powellist narrative make +much more sense on their terms. Importantly, once mobilised, the forces of nativism cannot be contained, especially +in times of uncertainty, abandonment and neglect. Yet the +progressive nationalists still imagine that there is some +middle ground up for grabs where they can win votes and +stem the forces of racist nationalism. +In our critique of progressive nationalists, we often +accuse them of ‘throwing migrants under the bus’, but +perhaps this is the wrong metaphor. Progressive nationalism means letting ‘them’ drown and watching ‘them’ fall + + PROGRESSIVE PATRIOTISM + +◆ + +83 + +from the undercarriages of planes. In times of deepening +global crises and ecological catastrophe, any arguments for +controlling immigration converge with lifeboat ethics, in +which some must die so others can live – ‘they’ must die so +that ‘we’ can live. In this context, ‘internationalism’ is not +only a well-worn socialist slogan, but a strategy for survival +on a drastically changed planet, and one that is much +harder to dispense with for the migrants and ‘minorities’ +already here, whose familial, cultural and affective worlds +do not end at the white cliffs of Dover. Considered this way, +the apparently ‘progressive’ character of patriotism reveals +itself, like the cliffs, as necessarily white, even if it likes +to accommodate some colour for marketing purposes. + + CH APT E R SI X + +The Limits of Representation + +Our head of state [the Queen] represents the nation and +its people, and symbolises our values and culture. In a +diverse multicultural society, surely it is wrong to automatically, a priori deny this honoured, revered role to +our non-white citizens? +– Peter Tatchell1 + +Together, we stand in solidarity with the Black +community – our employees, customers, and partners – +in the fight against systemic racism and injustice. +– Amazon2 + +As we have shown, the electoral and trade union-affiliated British left continues to flirt with nationalism, law +and order, and other elements of Powellist politics, in an +attempt to win over the mythic ‘white working class’. To +challenge and dismantle this dangerous configuration, we +need to nurture vibrant anti-racist political cultures and +institutions. However, anti-racists of several generations +have often been ensnared by the politics of representation. +This can be seen in calls to bring diversity to the police +force, to the boardrooms of the FTSE 100, and to any +and every institutional space we inhabit. The implication +underlying such calls is that changing the faces of those ‘in + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +85 + +power’ will, in itself, change the outcomes of institutional +power, where anti-racism becomes little more than representation, inclusion and diversity. This is a non-solution +to the problem of racism. +The call for representation promises to combat the +exclusion of racialised minorities from spaces of prestige +and influence (often articulated through the language of +‘erasure’ or ‘taking up space’), while offering a point of identification and affirmation for other people of colour. The +politics of representation feels as if it should work because +it can be a relief to finally see someone who looks like +you in your place of work making institutional decisions. +Representation is not empty – it means something when +people who are not white, not middle class, and not men +take up roles from which they were formerly excluded. +And of course it matters how people feel, and what reaches +their hearts; the emotional register of being is an essential +element of any effective political project. However, we +want to argue that more is at stake when we are persuaded +to scale back our political imaginations in this way. In this +sense, the politics of representation limits claims; it says +‘no more than representative participation and no more +transformation than having enough of each constituency’. +It also leads us into a very particular conceptualisation of +the space of politics and the workings of racism. +Importantly, representation serves to anchor anti-racist +mobilising back within the tight confines of the nation. +The normative logic of representative democracy, in +which your MP represents your views, filters through the +omnipresent discourse of racial essentialism to suggest +that someone who looks like you will represent your views + + 86 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +better. This plays out in miniature elsewhere, but the idea +remains tied to the notion that anti-racism is essentially a +demographic question in which the only way to offset the +(inevitable) marginalisation of being a ‘minority’ is to be +better represented among the powerful. +Let us begin this critique of representational politics, +somewhat unimaginatively, with the university. In the +last decade, student campaigns have appeared at multiple +universities, often under the heading of ‘decolonising the university’ but comprising various demands and +approaches. The most cited demands in the mainstream +media have been for universities to diversify both teaching +staff and the curriculum. However, there have been many +more demands, some of which take more symbolic forms +(removing statues, changing decor), or take student +welfare and belonging as their central concern (better +well-being services for students of colour). In these +demands, many of which might improve university life on +some level, the university itself – its formal structures, its +purpose, its organisation – remains intact. Other demands +are more structural – calling for universities to divest from +research linked to military funding, to lower or abolish +tuition fees, to cut the rate of rent in student halls – and +would involve a more radical reorganisation of the institution. Yet these too presuppose the desirability of the +university and often take place at relatively elite, Russell +Group or University of London universities. Part of the +reason it matters that these conversations take place in +elite spaces is because of the ways in which they tend to +focus on the experience of students of colour in a predominantly white environment – which is not the case at many + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +87 + +lower-ranked universities. As such, many of the demands +(both the more symbolic forms, as well as those relating to +curriculum and academic staff) aim to change the experience of isolation for students of colour. +The point here is that representational politics, in the +first instance, tends to begin from those who already have +some kind of institutional affiliation: university students, +professionalised employees, British citizens. Part of the +reason for its seductive power then is the practical ease +with which it can be incorporated into institutional structures. Though demands for diversity are still sometimes +met with hostility (both from within the institution in +question, and beyond it), we nonetheless underscore the +ways in which representational politics often sideline the +question of what is being diversified. To give a historical +example, Cambridge University was more diverse in the +early twentieth century than it is now, as it was a key site +for the education of native elites, who were instrumental +to indirect rule in the British Empire. We can see, then, +the central function of class in questions of representation. Though articulated across the political spectrum, +including by many working-class people, representation +is largely an elite discourse. The question of who would +clean the ‘decolonised’ university is rarely asked. +These days, it seems as though every institution is ripe +for a conversation about diversity. When Meghan Markle +officially joined the royal family, the press searched for +responses from liberal anti-racists. Many lined up to offer +their celebratory assessments, claiming that the inclusion +of a black (or ‘mixed race’, depending on the pundit) +woman into the monarchy was evidence that Britain had + + 88 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +progressed far beyond its racist past (or in a less enthusiastic register, that if we want evidence of Britain’s ongoing +problem with race and racism, then we need look no +further than the media’s negative coverage of Markle). +While commentators rejoiced or cautioned, more critical +observers noted that late capitalism loves multiculturalism, so there is little reason why late feudalism shouldn’t +also be giving it a go – such institutions of power need to +reform in order to conserve and reproduce their power. +Anti-racist thinkers, from Sivanandan to Gilroy, have +remarked on the cynical opportunism of individuals from +racialised minorities in Britain, who have stepped forward +to be representatives of both black politics and the British +state or big business. All that is required of these liberal +anti-racists, therefore, is for them to shout loud enough for +capital and/or the state to hear them – with social media +providing a useful platform for their worthy bellows. The +number of supposedly radical or anti-racist figures who +happily take up their place on the honours list – in which +recognition is explicitly tied to the celebration of empire – +offers a biannual example of how an anti-racism focused +on representation treats the nation as the sole receptacle of +politics. Within this logic, the nation state’s symbolic head, +the monarch, appearing more diverse is a common-sense +victory for anti-racism. By positing racism as a process +of exclusion from sites of power and of public visibility, +we imagine politics as a bounded community where to be +included is to overcome racism. The validity of the British +nation is consequently treated as beyond question, now +naturalised and legitimated through the politics of representation. + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +89 + +Representative anti-racism also offers its own distinctive +form of anti-racist nationalism through a set of assumptions about precisely who or what is represented. Usually +this ‘who’ or ‘what’ is understood as a coherent and discrete +‘community’ defined by some homogeneous and absolute +racial, ethnic or cultural lineage. While this might furnish +the representational authority of ‘community leaders’, it +is also the same assumption that informs racist demands +for racialised communities to speak out against so-called +‘atrocities’ or ‘crimes’ carried out by their members. It is +now a common part of Britain’s racist repertoire to demand +‘the Muslim community’ denounce acts of ‘terror’, or for +‘the black community’ to distance itself from ‘gang crime’. +A common and quite legitimate anti-racist response to +such racism is to question why a shared ethnicity should +imply shared responsibility or accountability, especially +when this demand is never directed at white people. +However, this anti-racist criticism is often forgotten – +even by its own proponents – when applied to the wider +politics of anti-racist representation and identification. +In fact, the notion of homogeneous and coherent ‘communities’ is conjured afresh when individual experience +and identity is centred as a source of authority on ‘black’ +or ‘brown’ issues (or even, indeed, ‘white’ guilt). Discrete, +homogeneous and coherent ‘communities’ reappear when +anti-racists encourage individuals to root out specific +forms of racism or other oppressions in ‘their own communities’. Equally, when inclusion, diversity or representation +is advocated, one underlying assumption is that representatives – community leaders, CEOs, MPs, etc. – will +either better support the interests of their ‘communities’ + + 90 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +or enable some sort of anti-racist trickle-down that will be +to the benefit of the whole ‘community’. +The assumption here – that a sociological category of +people share a discrete and homogeneous set of beliefs or +interests – flattens significant political, class, gendered and +other differences between people who ostensibly share the +same ‘community’. While disavowing the possibility of +political difference, this anti-racist nationalism rests on +(and actively reproduces) an ethnic or racial absolutism +whereby distinct and hermetic communities exhaust the +identities and politics of individuals within them. Here, +race is seen less as a construction, even less so as a historically specific power relation, and more as some fixed +and pre-social essence that determines social being. A +politics of representation thus reproduces not only the +nation but also the same understandings of race, ethnicity +and nation that underpin racist thinking. In its most +grotesque forms, representational anti-racism finds itself +policing community boundaries and judging the validity +of anti-racist politics on the basis of pseudo-biological categorisations and ethnic lineage. +* + +* + +* + +While, at best, demands for representation by anti-racists +in previous generations, both in Britain and its colonies, +were accompanied by more radical critiques of the state, +representation for the sake of inclusion and not transformation is the norm today. Such liberal anti-racisms have +built transnational links across Europe, with ‘People of +Colour’ networks across the continent being developed, + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +91 + +unseen in previous generations. These networks can be +partly attributed to emergent communities of colour across +Europe establishing themselves following migration from +the continent’s various colonies. But rather than these +networks – convened mostly online and at conferences +– providing a gateway for black and brown Brits to build +transnational links with non-Anglophone peoples and +struggles in the Global South, the conversations remain +Euro-parochial. Questions of where in Europe representation is better or worse dominate debates, with the renewed +language of ‘coloniality’ emptied out of its anti-colonial +content and used to refer to a simple lack of institutional +representation. +This politics of representation can often rely on a +reading of anti-racist histories which both begins with +post-war migration and remains focused on the confines +of European nation states. Its narrative in which hopeful +‘economic migrants’ from the colonies arrived in Europe, +looking for a new life in the mother country, but were +shocked to experience racism, presents the history of +anti-racism as a campaign to be represented. This is flawed +for two broad reasons. First, the diversity quotas, affirmative action policies and representation drives demanded +by liberal anti-racists are not new to European governance. +The colonial project required very similar initiatives. For +indirect colonialisation, the training of civil servants led to +huge numbers of ‘natives’ becoming state representatives. +As noted above, senior colonial state agents were trained +at Oxford and Cambridge. French overseas departments +such as Martinique in the Caribbean required similar +processes of black representation. Furthermore, decolo- + + 92 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +nisation in colonies with settlers, such as Kenya, led to a +second wave of diversity initiatives as ‘natives’ were incorporated into the highest seats of state power in an attempt +to ensure their allegiance to the old colonial power. +The second problem with this ahistorical and parochial +reading of the genealogy of anti-racism is that it separates +anti-racism from anti-imperialism. Rather than simply a +series of nation-building projects, seeking national sovereignty for each colonised nation (perhaps the preeminent +form of representation), anti-imperialism understood its +goal as breaking the global colourline. This meant dismantling the world system in which states compete for +power and building a new world system based on solidarity and co-operation. This fundamentally anti-state +and anti-capitalist component of anti-racism’s genealogy +remains, at best, a legacy to which lip service is paid +by liberal anti-racists demanding representation. For +example, a short film circulated widely on social media, +putatively aimed at celebrating the lives of Olive Morris +and Claudia Jones, was brought to the viewer in partnership with Uber. The grotesque contradiction of this +corporate tie-in was obscured by the film’s presentation of +these women as examples of the power of black feminism, +actively obscuring the anti-imperialist, socialist politics +for which they fought. +Previous generations of anti-racists looked to the +Global South for transnational links, and we can partially +attribute this to the polarised political landscape of the +1960s and ’70s, in which decolonisation and struggles +against apartheid provided clear goodies and baddies, as +well as winners and losers. Palestine remains the most + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +93 + +committed site of anti-imperial solidarity today, precisely +for this reason (although the repeated claim that criticism +of the Israeli state is motivated by anti-Semitism has +rendered this conversation more messy and difficult).3 +With the rise of the far-right in states such as India, Turkey +and Brazil, there is a renewed urgency to connect anti-racism with radical change in the Global South. While we +do not wish to romanticise the anti-racist movements of +previous decades, there can be little doubt that connections to the Global South, socialism and anti-imperialism +were stronger (although such interconnecting solidarities are becoming more amplified again as we write). The +question therefore is how can the visible injustices often +most easily illustrated by a lack of representation be used +as an avenue for a more material anti-imperialist and +anti-racist political praxis, in a world which is no longer +decolonising, and in which new internationalist possibilities need desperately to be affirmed? This is a question +which becomes all the more difficult as anti-racist debate +and discourse becomes not only limited by the succour of +inclusion, representation and celebrity, but must also be +performed and broadcast within the confines of 280 characters. +* + +* + +* + +Digital media does not act as a neutral medium for the +transmission of political ideas but actively shapes contemporary politics. The politics of representation are no +exception. Arguably, the liberal politics of representation +have been uniquely transformed by social media, which + + 94 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +has reshaped our sense of the individual, community +and society. It is on social media that ostensibly radical +demands for representation are pursued with the most +vigour and volume. Twitter threads, YouTube vlogs and +Tumblr pages have been effective ways for individuals and +groups to harness digital technology and reach large audiences. While some of these uses of social media platforms +provide an alternative and radical criticism of state and +corporate media outlets, others demand inclusion, representation and often, most importantly, payment. +Pay and conditions for workers are some of the oldest +demands of leftist politics, but today’s timeline demands +remain rooted in individual, neoliberal logics. Ensuring +an institution pays an anti-racist organiser or educator for +their labour is of course not a bad thing in and of itself. The +problem is when demands for payment sit within the logic +of market competition rather than collective bargaining. +While these market logics are structurally reproduced by +the atomised nature of work, they lead to zero-sum games, +where cultural producers, educators and journalists are +compelled to compete with each other over limited spaces +online, in exhibitions and on other platforms. Who, or +what, takes up space in these areas of social, cultural and +political life becomes about who is doing the work rather +than what work is actually being done. +This environment compels people gendered or racialised into different categories or identities to compete with +each other, to be the most underrepresented, the most +oppressed, and therefore most worthy of platform, space +and payment. Rather than seeing connections between +different forms of oppression, a hierarchy is constructed, + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +95 + +in which one oppressed category, identity or group is +implicated in the oppression of another, based on where +they sit in this hierarchy. In its crudest form, this can +look like a mathematical appraisal, in which some social +privileges put people lower down the hierarchy of oppression. Recounting your list of identities by beginning a +political statement with those two all-important words +‘as a…’ demonstrates the degree of validity, authenticity, accurateness and radicalism of the observation or +analysis which follows. Declaring the oppressive attitudes +you have expressed in the past, or that exist within ‘your’ +community, is one of the ways people pre-empt being +‘called out’ or ‘cancelled’. Anti-racism becomes a challenge +for activists to ‘talk to your racist uncle’, as if intercommunal bigotry were the source, rather than the symptom, of +racism. Similarly, a political criticism can be easily rejected +if it is posed by someone from a privileged identity, even +when the identity in question is unrelated to the criticism +in question. +Much of the language of this form of liberal online +anti-racism is wrapped up in the language of radical +politics. Its advocates demand representation and rehearse +individualising analyses of privilege, but they also cite revolutionary activists and thinkers, asserting that racism +is ‘systemic’ and considering their politics to be ‘decolonial’. Yet, unlike earlier anti-colonial traditions which +articulated a separatist nationalism – the creation of a +black nation with its own institutions and power structures, for example – more recent articulations appear +more ambiguous as to their end goal. Their criticisms of +the system are structural and revolutionary, but the tactics + + 96 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +proposed are generally individualistic and demands are +limited to reforming institutions to better pay, include and +represent individuals from specific identity groups. +This process is best illustrated through the ways in +which campaigners like Olive Morris or Claudia Jones +are presented through the prism of identity, as described +above. What is important is that they are working class, not +communists or socialists. The focus is on the fact that they +are black women, not black feminists. Thus, the identities +of these organic intellectuals and activists are not a starting +point for their political campaigns and ideas. Rather, their +identities are their politics. Crucially, lionising a member +of the working class, a black person, or a woman is compatible with state and profit-making institutions. The +problems arise only when a political position which seeks +to dismantle the state or capitalist social relations is taken +into account, and therefore ideas, or better yet quotations +from such individuals, are carefully selected and curated +to mystify radical politics, or reduce them to the status +of footnote. The winner, here, is the social industry – the +tech platforms making money from Angela Davis memes +and images of Jayaben Desai on the picket line in a sari +– while anti-racist movements are reduced to a dazzling +digital spectacle. +We observe on social media a particular tendency +towards what Paul Gilroy variously terms ethnic absolutism, purity-seeking and the longing for racial fixity, +certainty and closure.4 These anti-humanist tendencies have been fashionable for a long time, well before +the introduction of timeline media, but they are perhaps +taking new form, or new salience, in the context of Twitter + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +97 + +politics. While Twitter can be a medium for expressions of solidarity and care, it is scandal that tends to +prove most generative of likes, retweets and replies, and +therefore proves most valuable to Twitter’s (algorithmic) +business model. This inbuilt tendency to scandal fuels a +culture of outrage and malice in which individuals and +their character are subject to often brutal assaults – in +particular when they are determined to have been inauthentic and deceitful, and especially when this relates to +their racialisation. Conflicts over who speaks about what +seem particularly heated online, and in ways which are +often disconnected from a wider critique of power. This +is a reflection of the zero-sum game politics we discuss in +Chapter 12, but it also rewards forms of ethnic and racial +authenticity which we view as profoundly troubling. +Conversations about political blackness – as well as the +erasures inherent in the government-speak, ‘Black and +Minority Ethnic’ (BAME) – are especially tense sites of +conflict in this context. While we recognise that there is +an important conversation to be had about relations of +power and voice within anti-racist organisations, debate +online often seems totally disconnected from political +action and strategy – and from a wider critique of the state +and big business. To give one example, when the British +army posted a tweet as part of its #blackhistorymonth +campaign, the tweet was widely condemned not because +it came from the army, which saw fit to use black history +month as a marketing opportunity, but because the tweet +wrongly included Asians. The moral of the story is that +Asians are not black, and the army showed its disdain for +black people through its lazy disregard for racial specificity, + + 98 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +rather than in their attempt to recruit them to contemporary imperialist wars via the opportunistic white-washing +of colonial history. +Social and timeline media fuel the prevalence of forms +of race-talk which hinge on privilege and cultural appropriation, where racism becomes what Fanon calls a +‘mental quirk … a psychological flaw’.5 It is in the realm of +sovereign experience that the ultimate truths of racial difference and hierarchy can be gleaned, and these can then +be shared through online testimony. Of course, people are +not wrong to be outraged by interpersonal, racist humiliation, but in our view the affective registers of social +media tend to reward expressions of outrage and distrust, +leading us all to the inevitable conclusion that multi-racial +coalition is impossible because we can never understand +the experiences of someone with a different identity. +The purity of experience finds a particular affective +charge on the timeline, and this explains why we saw young +white people joining the 2020 BLM protests holding signs +that read: ‘I will never understand, but I stand.’ Why does +not understanding constitute a necessary and primary +qualification in the context of a street mobilisation against +racist police violence? Another sign read, ‘I am racist +because the system is racist.’ White guilt and self-flagellation have become the order of the day, and this is clearly +connected to the centring of experience and testimony +online. When experience is centred in this way, authenticity and purity hold sway, and this often proves toxic when +political movements and organisations seek to build coalitions and develop their strategies. Scandals concerning +impurity and inauthenticity abound. Sadly, in-fighting + + THE LIMITS OF REPRESENTATION + +◆ + +99 + +has always been characteristic of progressive movements, +because we really care about what we are fighting for. But +online it is not even clear that there is any, even vague, +shared project. +Our interest here is not with fixing social media as one +thing; all darkness and doom. Our own friendships and +collaborations were mediated by social media, as we too +vied for attention, offered our own ‘hot takes’, and ended up +incredibly anxious after public Twitter spats with the politically adjacent. We inhabit the same fraught terrain (even +if some of us have deleted our accounts). It is important +to remember, then, that the highly addictive attention +economy trades on our outrage and on scandal, but we also +know that alongside the compulsive consumer hits there is +the emergence of something like a political education based +on sharing and non-deference, where there is little distinction between serious analysis and comedy. The timeline +can be a component of a dispersed and uncontainable +alternative political culture, memefied but not hopeless. + + PART 3 + +State Patriarch + + C HAPTE R SE VE N + +Our Heart Belongs to Daddy + +The expansion of Europe was not just a matter of ‘Christianity and commerce’, it was also a matter of copulation +and concubinage. +– Ronald Hyam1 + +Families matter. I don’t doubt that many of the rioters +out last week have no father at home. Perhaps they +come from one of the neighbourhoods where it’s +standard for children to have a mum and not a dad … +where it’s normal for young men to grow up without a +male role model, looking to the streets for their father +figures, filled up with rage and anger. So if we want to +have any hope of mending our broken society, family +and parenting is where we’ve got to start. +– David Cameron’s speech on the fightback +after the riots, August 2011 + +Our moment, in which capitalist production is increasingly digitised, has enabled a hitherto unknown +proliferation of sexual representation. In fact, the not-soslow creep of social media into all aspects of everyday life +leads to an increasingly blurry line between sexual act and +sexual representation. Alongside its other functions, the +internet continues to serve as an enormous global porn + + 104 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +machine. Sex is present everywhere, spoken covertly and +overtly, but the fiction of its separateness from geopolitics, nation-building and state power must be continually +maintained. We are encouraged to view sex through the +prism of private, individual choice, reducing ‘sexual politics’ to a question of removing any barriers to individual +sexual freedom. This limited and neoliberal conception of +sexual politics emerges from a racialised social formation +in which sex has long been a barometer of ‘civilisation’, and +discourses of respectability have proven both flexible and +durable. +As we know from the contribution of post/anti-colonial +feminist theory, sexuality and gender have always been +central to the constitution of race. Alongside skulls and +jawbones, eighteenth- and nineteenth-century anatomy +and anthropology textbooks displayed diagrams of the +genitals of colonised, and specifically enslaved, peoples.2 +The perceived ‘overdevelopment’ of sexual organs such as +the penis, clitoris and labia was read as empirical evidence +of a biologically determined, dysfunctional, sexual excess. +This is extrapolated to mean an animalistic and morally +deficient or unevolved character. Sex is therefore part +of the process of racialisation that has persisted across +colonial and postcolonial settings. +Imperial discourses in eighteenth- and nineteenthcentury Europe constructed national cultures around +ideals of respectability, rationality and honour.3 The prescribed order of the nuclear, heteronormative family +represented the appropriate form of socialisation for +national citizens of European states. The poor of the British +mainland, but more acutely the ‘savage’ cultures found + + OUR HEART BELONGS TO DADDY + +◆ + +105 + +in the colonies, became the antithesis of the respectable +British family. The absence of respectable family structures was enlisted to explain the inability of both groups +to comply with social and legal norms. For colonised +subjects, only civilising missions, colonial penal justice, +or the whip gave any hope of reform. The legacies of this +family-nation nexus continue to play out in the spectacles surrounding migrant Others in Britain, with their +purportedly alien cultures, steadfastly unwilling or unable +to commit themselves to the familial norms of European +civilisation. In the European imagination, sexual deviance +is a vital signifier for identifying how and why racialised +Others come to embody moral degeneracy. By unpacking +this process, we point to the manner in which the patriarchal nation/state remakes itself in our time, with the moral +panic surrounding ‘grooming gangs’ explored in the next +chapter as a central case study. +As we know, sexuality and gender have been central to +justifications for twenty-first-century imperialism. This +logic is epitomised in Spivak’s famous idiom, ‘white men +saving brown women from brown men’, which neatly +summarises gendered colonial logics, from the British +Raj to the occupation of Afghanistan.4 Spivak’s formulation focuses on the position of the racialised woman who +must be ‘saved’ from her backward culture and barbaric +menfolk. More recent work such as Jasbir Puar’s conceptualisation of ‘homonationalism’5 and Sara Farris’s +‘femonationalism’6 extend this principle in order to +theorise how contemporary formations of Euro-American imperialism are justified as a means of defending +the rights of women and/or LGBT+ communities, most + + 106 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +often from ‘Islam’. In the mid-2000s, new migrants to the +Netherlands were shown a video of two men kissing and a +woman sunbathing topless and asked to give their opinion +as a test of their suitability for Dutch society’s ‘liberal’ +mores. More recently, a test administered as part of the +Prevent regime in the UK asked children for their opinion +on homosexuality. By baking a particular brand of liberal +gay rights into state practices, the state confirms itself as +the arbiter of sexual norms. Those who fall outside of these +norms – or, indeed, are perceived to do so – are viewed as +threats to the nation. We also know that sexuality plays +an integral role in the constitution of the state. Jyoti Puri’s +seminal work on the sexual state outlines how, particularly in times of crisis or weakness, the state turns to the +government of sexuality in order to (re)produce itself as +cohesive and in control.7 +With this in mind, we want to think about the state in +terms of the figure of the patriarch. If the state can usefully +be described as a patriarch, then what kind of a patriarch +is it? In the post-war years, the welfarist state sought to +organise populations through the management of gender +roles and family units, rewarding some normative behaviours and penalising the deviant through the allocation +of welfare. This involved creating systems of discipline +designed to corral the wayward back into socially acceptable and economically productive lifestyles. This previous +moment referenced the role of the patriarch explicitly, +positioning the state as a substitute for inadequate, absent +or improper fathers. The fantasy of happy (white) nuclear +families is there in Beveridge’s original vision of the welfare +state, with the family allowance and national insurance + + OUR HEART BELONGS TO DADDY + +◆ + +107 + +designed to supplement and bolster the fragile nuclear +household. For the citizens who received the benefits of +universal provision, there was an attendant obligation to +demonstrate worthiness; if not respectability, at least the +ability to be made respectable. After so many years of austerity, we are in danger of forgetting the humiliations of +the previous era of welfarism. Even when the payment was +there to be made, performing abasement, gratitude and +forbearance was all part of demonstrating deservingness. +Since then state policies have been remade and state +bureaucracies transformed. The state no longer enters +everyday life as the audience for our respectable conduct. +The safeguards put in place to ensure poor and low-income +individuals weren’t ‘cheating’ the system have shifted. +This was illustrated by New Labour’s ‘No Ifs, No Buts’ +campaign against benefit fraud, and the Conservative’s +image of benefit claimants ‘with the blinds down’ while the +rest of us go to work. These moral panics conjured images +of the hypervisible claimant taking home two salaries, or +the invisible claimant hiding from respectable society – +markers of which had to be avoided by those attempting +to navigate the welfare system. +More recently, screen cultures have depersonalised +encounters with state power, stripping away the opportunity to explain personal circumstances and impending +catastrophe, and displacing respectability as a useful +element in dealing with bureaucracies. The online portal +does not care about your manners, or the cleanliness of +your children, or whether you are signalling an aspirant +attitude. It is open only to hear if there is any reason to +bar you from access or to delay your punishment – upload + + 108 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +documents here (‘Computer says No’). The increased +punitiveness and conditionality at the heart of the benefit +system has seen hundreds of thousands of people sanctioned and their benefits removed each year, while the +number of rough sleepers has doubled. It bears repeating +that such policies of cruelty and neglect led to an estimated +130,000 excess deaths in the years 2010–17.8 +Yet, despite this decimation of the welfare state, the +nation remains a family matter. We are schooled to +consider ourselves as (largely undeserving) members +of a national family, albeit a family in crisis and decline. +It is this long shadow of familial thinking in the name +of nation that returns us to considerations of the state +and state power as the actions of a patriarch. Again, our +question is: what kind of state patriarch emerges in a time +of post-welfare securitisation? +* + +* + +* + +We started this book by describing the last ten years of +state practice in terms of cruelty and neglect, and these +are surely terms – ‘cruelty’ and ‘neglect’ – that summon +gendered images of power and protection (or lack thereof). +Like an unloving and angry father, the state patriarch +is cold and often brutal. Increasingly, he abandons and +expels those within the family, kicking us out of the house, +renouncing his role as protector of our welfare, even as +he puffs up his chest at any mention of possible foreign +invasion. Most of the time he ignores us, no matter what +we do to get his attention, until there is some wider gain +to be made from him playing saviour. Perhaps it is too + + OUR HEART BELONGS TO DADDY + +◆ + +109 + +easy to imagine the state as a man in this way (when in +fact the state is never just one thing). Yet it is important +to remember that the very languages of power as well as +the terms we use to critique them have gendered associations and implications. When Britain is described as a +‘soft touch’ for migrants, for example, it is clear that the +feminisation is inseparable from the complaint; these are +institutions that should be tough and firm, not soft. In our +view, by sharpening our appreciation for the work done by +gender, and thus by characterising the state as a patriarch, +we might be able to describe contemporary statecraft in +useful ways. +The mantra of the state patriarch is that its citizens and +those within its jurisdiction live by the grace of the state. +What they get is neither a question of what they deserve +nor of what they are entitled to. Rather, what they get they +should be grateful for and they should not depend upon +its continued provision. The welfare state, rather than +ensuring that basic needs are met within a system based +on solidarity, is now a bureaucratised torture chamber, +symptomatic of the state patriarch’s contempt for its +‘unproductive population’. The neglectful state prioritises +punishment above redistribution. In fact, this shift in style +arises from a concerted attack on the attempts to institute +a redistributive state. The transformation of welfare (and +of all state services) is the culmination of a long-standing campaign to discredit state-managed endeavours in +general. We have been trained to regard the state as a +poor manager, an inefficient distributor of resources and +an inhibitor of human innovation.9 Only by protecting +our individual freedom, defending borders, neutralis- + + 110 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +ing foreign threats and maintaining law and order, can +the state be trusted. In other words, the state patriarch +is neglectful, inefficient and abusive, and we cannot rely +on him to support us – but he is good in a fight, or so he +says. +The job of the state patriarch today is to convince +the national population that his role is and should be +limited to securing the nation from war and terrorism. +The state patriarch’s focus on national security and law +and order as its primary motivation means the national +project remains a racial project, one in which a besieged +whiteness continues to connote innocence and (partial) +entitlement, in a context in which people racialised as +black or Muslim, in particular, are constructed as violent +and threatening. +While the threat of death from a terrorist attack is seen +as violence from which the state is obligated to protect +its citizens, premature death as a result of not having the +means to keep oneself and one’s family alive is, most often, +considered the failing of an individual and their family. +Keeping citizens alive is only necessary when the threat +is posed by deviant Others, not by the slower, but more +pervasive, more deadly, violence of post-welfare capitalism. Again, the patriarch will not have anyone else coming +into his home and harming his children, but if they die or +are killed on his watch then that is nobody else’s business. +When large numbers of people die suddenly due to structural violence, such as was the case in the Grenfell Tower +fire, the coronial and legal process is only interested in the +immediate causes of death. Once this is determined, the +matter of premature death is laid to rest. Whilst the law has + + OUR HEART BELONGS TO DADDY + +◆ + +111 + +never been concerned with the individual as embedded +in a social reality, its depoliticising role is amplified in a +context in which the state has increasingly withdrawn +from providing for its citizens’ basic needs. The law plays +an important role in legitimising the state patriarch’s +organised neglect and cruelty towards its citizens and +those within its jurisdiction. +What in fact keeps citizens and those within Britain’s +jurisdiction alive in these crises are the responses of civil +society, religious organisations, charities and philanthropists. Whereas once upon a time those of us on the left +might have criticised or warned against these interventions for fear that they replace the state, or send a signal +that the state need not fund particular initiatives, now we +are forced into a position of both accepting and building +such community responses – now we know that the alternative is that people are left to die, as many have been as a +result of austerity policies. +As we have argued, the techniques of dispossession and +disrespect have already been trialled on black and brown +populations, both through the previous incarnations of +institutional racisms and in the long-standing violence of +immigration control. We might add that a segment of the +‘white working class’ – the roughs, those who would not +or could not become respectable – has shared this long +history of understandable distrust of the state patriarch. +Yet the palpable disappointment in the face of such rapid +national decline has been experienced by many as a loss +of racialised privilege and status. The problem is less that +foreigners have arrived to take over public services than +the sense that the loss of access to public goods is a loss + + 112 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +of the wages of whiteness. This story of loss at the hands +of racial Others takes on a violently misogynistic cast in +relation to ‘grooming gangs’, our focus in the next chapter, +in which the bodies of white girls are implicitly viewed as +the threatened property of white men. + + C HAPTE R E I GH T + +‘Pakistani Grooming Gangs’ + +Britain has a problem with British Pakistani men raping +and exploiting white girls. There. I said it. Does that +make me a racist? Or am I just prepared to call out this +horrifying problem for what it is? +– Sarah Champion, Labour MP for Rotherham, 2017 + +British citizenship is a privilege that confers particular +entitlements and benefits, including the right to a British +passport and the right to vote in general elections. It is +not in the public interest that individuals who engage +in serious and/or organised crime, which constitutes +a flagrant abuse of British values, enjoy those entitlements and benefits. +– Home Office in notice of decision +to deprive three members of the +‘Rochdale grooming gang’ of their citizenship + +The term ‘child sexual exploitation’ was used officially +in the UK for the first time in 2009 in a Department of +Education document. Since then, Britain has seen a +series of high-profile convictions of groups of men found +guilty of child sexual exploitation. The vast majority of +publicised convictions have been of British Asian men, +which was quickly translated into the media-speak of the + + 114 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +‘Pakistani Grooming Gang’. This moral panic replayed +familiar mythologies of the ‘gang’ – characterised by alien +cultural practices, operating under a racialised honour +code, and demonstrating an uncontainable deviant masculinity – and yet the spectre of the Pakistani grooming +gang also added something new to the repertoire of +both official and popular racisms. The far-right English +Defence League rebuilt its crumbling organisation on the +basis of revulsion to what they termed ‘rape jihad gangs’. +Sarah Champion, then Labour MP for Rotherham, was +forced to resign from the Shadow Cabinet after authoring +an article in The Sun titled ‘British Pakistanis ARE raping +white girls … and we must face up to it’ – an article quoted +approvingly by (even) more explicitly racist columnists, +and criticised by both the Muslim Council of Britain and +the Board of Deputies of British Jews. For our project, +these troubling events exemplify a particular moment in +the reshaping of state racism. +The ‘grooming gangs’ story has been a key site of +contestation in recent years – always with a racial +modifier, whether ‘Asian’, ‘Pakistani’ or ‘Muslim’. The +interchangeability or collapsing of the racialising term +here is important but not our main focus; we will refer to +‘Pakistani grooming gangs’ for the rest of this chapter, not +least because the old slur ‘Paki’ sits within the discourse +as a silent but animating term. The term ‘gang’ is heavily +freighted and operates to connect this moral panic to others +that have emerged during moments of crisis (see Chapter +3). Claire Alexander’s work on ‘the Asian Gang’, which +emerged as a folk devil in the late 1990s, is helpful here. +She suggests that ‘The Asian Gang carries with its more + + ‘PAKISTANI GROOMING GANGS’ + +◆ + +115 + +embracing generic counterpart the assertion of threat, of +anger, of alienation, of violence, but it also carries its own +culturally specific twists – of culture conflict, religious +antipathy, of alienness and unknowability, of introspective, +intra-ethnic hatred.’1 The return of this idea of ‘the Asian +Gang’ in a new, highly sexualised register builds on this +older discourse. Further, and as argued in Chapter 3, ‘the +gang’ in general is a racialised signifier that is in a constant +state of renewal in Britain, but which always refers back to +black youth coded as criminal, feckless, hyper-masculine +and dangerous; a reboot of the ‘mugger’ folk devil of the +1970s. In the coinage of the ‘Pakistani grooming gang’ +the various associations act upon each other, allowing for +multiple and overlapping racial registers to interact and +become strengthened in their connections. +The ‘Pakistani grooming gangs’ have been leveraged +for Islamophobic purposes by both state and non-state +actors with remarkable success. ‘On street CSE’ (Child +Sexual Exploitation) is viewed as the result of a degenerate, uniquely Muslim, culture of sexual deviancy. The +narrative goes that white girls are chosen precisely for +their whiteness, as Pakistani men have a unique disdain +for white women, viewing them as ‘easy targets’ while +apparently respecting girls in their own community whose +‘honour’ must be protected. ‘Culture’ and ‘honour’ here +are the operative racialising terms, signalling an incorrigible otherness defined by atavistic and insular gender +roles, and a violent, excessive masculinity that is, in the +end, an overcompensation for an inherent lack of genuine +manliness, which is coded as respectable, bourgeois and + + 116 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +civilised. In this discourse, real men are restrained but not +too restrained, and kept in check by the nuclear family. +The idea of degraded white femininity plays an important +role here too. The statutory bodies charged with protecting young people (social services, children services, the +police, the CPS, and so on) knew that many teenagers were +being systematically abused but viewed this as a result of +a set of poor lifestyle choices made by feckless, underclass +girls with chaotic lives who were beyond the help of the +state. Essentially, these institutions viewed white girls as +choosing to engage in voluntary sexual relationships with +much older men, in voluntary group sex, in voluntary +prostitution. The ethnicity of the perpetrators becomes +evidence of a sexual deviancy in the victims too, confirming them as beyond the help of the state because they have +betrayed the codes of whiteness-as-respectability, both in +the ways that poor women, across race, are always coded +as sexually excessive, and more specifically because of +their association with Pakistani men. Take, for example, a +case in Rochdale which the CPS didn’t prosecute because +they thought there was no chance of a conviction, despite +physical, DNA evidence. Essentially, it did not think a jury +would believe the victims. The disbelief and disregard +shown by state services is projected onto the public. +As well as breathing new life into age-old discourses +surrounding the sexual excess and dysfunction of +‘dangerous brown men’,2 the grooming gangs framework +consolidated key far-right talking points about the state +that have now found their way into the mainstream. The +far-right argued not only that brown men were more likely +to commit sexual violence – and that the sexual violence + + ‘PAKISTANI GROOMING GANGS’ + +◆ + +117 + +of brown men was more savage and degrading than that +of white men – but that the inaction of the authorities +was a consequence of the state being too soft on immigrants and minorities. It became the ‘gotcha’ question +levelled at anyone mildly progressive, positioned as irrefutable evidence that this whole anti-racism business +(understood through the prism of ‘political correctness’) +had gone too far – that police and local government did +not take action because they were afraid of being seen as +racists. A spectre filled the British public’s imagination, of +towns like Rochdale and Rotherham being run by ‘Asian +gangs’, who were so locally powerful they were above the +law and local politics; whole towns were ‘no-go-zones’ for +whites. It was a manifestation of Enoch Powell’s dystopic +premonition (see Chapter 4), that ‘one day, the black man +will have the whip hand over the white man’. +The state was portrayed as ‘soft’ on migrants and +‘minorities’, even afraid of them, and in turn as betraying +the nation, which had been mapped onto the bodies of +young white girls. The possibility of there being grooming +victims of colour was not only ignored, but actively +refuted. The moral panic relied on the idea that ‘Pakistani +grooming gangs’ targeted white women because they were +white. As a result, there has been very little press attention +when girls of colour have come forward regarding the +same men, as in the case of Shabir Ahmed, whose identity +was concealed from the press during the first trial as a +second was pending. That the second trial involved an +Asian victim had no discernible impact on the narrative +that white women were targeted for their whiteness. +Indeed, the vulnerability and naivety of the young white + + 118 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +women came to represent the weakness of the liberal state, +besieged by multiculturalism. +The nation, made vulnerable by unfettered immigration +is, like these young girls, in need of protective intervention from the sensible, firm authority of the nationalist +state. The idea of state and financial elites (what Steve +Bannon calls ‘globalists’) as allies of immigrants and +people of colour against the ‘white working class’ was +strongly consolidated in this story. This framing achieved +several things: it created political space for excessive performances of state force to compensate for this appearance +of weakness; it consolidated and reinforced racialised +notions of belonging and ‘invasion’; it gave the far-right +an opportunity to position itself as the only voice willing +to ‘speak the truth’ on behalf of the victims, providing the +space for legitimisation and support; and it enabled the +far-right to position itself as the primary anti-state/antielite force, creating a sense of ‘emergency’ and need for +‘intervention’ at the state level. Importantly, this racialising set of processes also meant that the interaction +between patriarchal violence and state neglect, which led +to so many young people being harmed, was minimised +and obscured. +* + +* + +* + +Despite our concerns about the racist forces mobilised +around so-called ‘Pakistani grooming gangs’, we are also +cautious about enlisting ‘grooming’ primarily as a hook on +which to hang an analysis of resurgent racisms or reconfigurations of the state. It is also important to sit with + + ‘PAKISTANI GROOMING GANGS’ + +◆ + +119 + +the scale of this organised sexual exploitation and abuse +of young women and girls in Rotherham, Rochdale and +elsewhere, even while dissecting the racism which frames +how it became a public scandal. That said, we resist the +idea that any attempt to historicise and understand can +be seen as an expression of sympathy, a tendency that +has been amplified through online culture. None of what +we identify constitutes ‘an excuse’. Instead, our concern +is to comprehend how and why certain issues became +speakable, and how this speakability was framed as a reassertion of white nationalism. +In 2014, Operation Stovewood was created as the +largest law enforcement investigation into non-familial +child sexual abuse in the UK. This occurred in response +to the Independent Inquiry into Child Sexual Exploitation led by Alexis Jay, which estimated that 1,400 children +in Rotherham had been subjected to sexual exploitation between 1997 and 2013. The scandal of Rotherham +contributed to a greatly increased public awareness and +understanding of child sexual exploitation. The early +coverage focused almost exclusively on the allegation that +Pakistani men were predisposed to acts of paedophilia +against white girls. Meanwhile, the parallel scandals of +large-scale abuse by the celebrity Jimmy Savile, plus the +long-running cases against the Catholic Church brought +by victims of child abuse, were treated as matters of +criminal justice and individual pathology, not national +security or societal breakdown. The institutional culture +of the BBC or the religious teachings of Catholicism were +not enlisted to explain widespread abuse and subsequent +cover-ups. More broadly, while the sexual exploitation of + + 120 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +children by Muslim men became speakable, it was not +connected to the more widespread issue of abuse within +families and households. The nuclear family, the most +consistent and prevalent site for sexual abuse, continues +to be flagged as a bulwark against sexual violence, rather +than as an incubator of it. +Of course, it is unsurprising that the revelations in +Rotherham and other northern towns were immediately explained through Pakistani and/or Muslim cultural +practices. The ‘grooming gangs’ story had especially +visceral political effects because of the wider force of +anti-Muslim racism. Muslims have been constructed as +‘enemies within’, the foremost racialised outsiders of the +twenty-first century, a century thus far disfigured by the +unending violence of the ‘War on Terror’. Therefore, the +sexual violence of particular Muslim men against particular white girls readily came to symbolise a wider existential +threat. Without attenuating the scale of the violence in +places like Rotherham and Rochdale, the most important +factor in the making of a public scandal and national crisis +was the fact that the perpetrators were Muslim. This much +should be obvious. However, we also want to extend this +account to consider, albeit briefly, some less discussed +factors that shaped the grooming scandal. +We suggest two important and under-remarked frames +to the belated recognition of large-scale abuse. Firstly, the +impact of feminist-informed practice among key workers +in local government and social services. The transformation in public understanding of child sexual exploitation +and the sexual abuse of children more generally has arisen +through the concerted efforts of activists and profession- + + ‘PAKISTANI GROOMING GANGS’ + +◆ + +121 + +als, influenced by the availability of feminist approaches +to practice.3 Certainly, it has been a struggle to persuade +a range of authorities that sexually active teenagers could +be ‘victims’, but in the belated recognition of this fact by +some practitioners, it was possible to push back against +the misogynistic dismissal of these young women. +Secondly, we are particularly interested in how the +processes of institutional retreat in deindustrialised landscapes frame this story. Rotherham, along with other +increasingly mythologised ‘northern towns’, exemplifies +one aspect of changing urban geographies. The landscape +of smaller cities and towns in England, particularly in the +Midlands and the North, reflects a longer history of deindustrialisation, the death of local high streets, and a crisis +of local services and institutions exacerbated by austerity. +We might note that this remaking of public space without +amenities, either public or retail, and the attendant retreat +from occupying public space in day-to-day life, is experienced across many locations. For our purposes, what is +of interest is the manner in which the remaking of public +space, the retreat of official institutions and the decline +of the formal economy come to be narrated together as a +racialised story. +There are some points to note: the so-called ‘night-time +economy’ outside larger conurbations revolves disproportionately around take-aways and taxi ranks.4 For most +of Britain, this is what the 24-hour economy looks like – +low-cost take-aways and transport alongside old and new +forms of low-paid work such as cleaning, call centres, +security and logistics. Whereas larger cities have sought +to regenerate their local economies through enhancing + + 122 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +hospitality industries (as can be seen in Newcastle and +Birmingham for example), smaller towns have had little +access to the new economies of conferences, hotels, bars +and restaurants. Instead, segments of economic activity +which were already highly racialised come to make up +the landscape of local ‘night life’ – small-scale take-aways +often associated with particular minority communities, +and taxi and chauffeur work undertaken disproportionately by British Pakistani men. For young people who +cannot or do not want to go home, these are the only +places to go. +The combined impact of cumulative deindustrialisation, uneven state presence and the increasing visibility +of alternative networks of economic activity coincided +with another set of racialised anxieties. As local political +landscapes became less predictable – a trajectory that +anticipated the outcome of the EU referendum – the accusation that some racialised communities had infiltrated +mainstream politics and official institutions through the +use of illegitimate networks of kinship and alliance came +into play. After scandals around the alleged misuse of +postal votes among South Asian communities in Britain, +the idea of the ‘kinship network’ that evades and overrides +official structures in order to grab political power has +become associated with Pakistani and Bangladeshi communities in particular.5 The heightened inspection of +Pakistani and Bangladeshi political participation arose +also as a result of surprise and suspicion at the relatively +rapid ascendance of these communities in the tightly gated +world of UK party politics. Particularly at a local level, +the ‘clan’, a group bonded by kinship and able to bypass + + ‘PAKISTANI GROOMING GANGS’ + +◆ + +123 + +the niceties of formal politics or business, was regarded +as the secret source of community power.6 When the +long-running horror of street grooming and child sexual +exploitation became associated with Pakistani men, the +implication that secret clans had colonised previously +respectable places, replacing or overriding or corrupting +reliable systems of authority, hovered in the background. +* + +* + +* + +The significance of the ‘Pakistani grooming gangs’ as a +symptom of our current crisis is, we think, the way that +the state’s systematic marginalisation and neglect of vulnerable people is then mobilised to justify a rapidly +expanding authoritarianism. Sexual moral panics offer an +effective way to do this as sex is always viewed through the +ahistorical prism of morality – sex is assumed to be totally +private, yet sexual deviance quickly becomes the subject +of public scrutiny. This moral panic is particularly durable +because it seems to threaten the stability of white gender +roles and, crucially, the white family. National sovereignty +becomes a way to rescue a beleaguered white masculinity +which has the capacity to defend its women. However, the +nation state has no monopoly on the exploitation of this +moral panic – the far-right have made more effective and +triumphalist use of it. +That said, in taking an extraordinary approach to +sentencing, the state has sought to keep pace with the +far-right. Abdul Aziz, Adil Khan and Qari Abdul Rauf, +who were convicted alongside six others in Rochdale, +have been stripped of their citizenship and are due to be + + 124 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +deported to Pakistan at the end of their prison terms. The +idea of citizenship as a ‘privilege’, something which can be +taken away, is an ascendent and aggressive trend in British +politics. Its presence here is notable, we think, for what it +shows us about the tremendous animating force of race +within the state’s authoritarian arsenal. +Traditionally this power has been used as part of +Britain’s counter-terrorism strategy, with ‘suspected terrorists’ stripped of their British citizenship, usually while +abroad, and sometimes to allow for their extrajudicial +execution via drone strike. Though there was some initial +controversy regarding this policy of denationalisation, it +was easily folded into the authoritarian logics of the War +on Terror. But the case of Aziz, Khan and Rauf is the first +instance of citizenship stripping following serious criminality without a national security component. It represents +an important case in the expansion of powers to denationalise and therefore to banish. +Another deprivation of citizenship case which made the +headlines – causing controversy and stimulating public +debate – was that of Shamima Begum, who in 2019 had +her citizenship stripped for travelling to Syria to ‘join +the Islamic State’.7 This decision was made surprisingly +quickly given that she was born in the UK and had only +ever lived in Britain until her departure in 2015. In this +case, the government suggested that Shamima Begum and +her child (implicitly guilty by dint of parentage) should +apply for Bangladeshi citizenship, which she, and her +child, would be able to claim through their parents or +grandparents. Not only does this enable the British government to circumvent legal protections against making + + ‘PAKISTANI GROOMING GANGS’ + +◆ + +125 + +its citizens stateless, but it also speaks to the relationship +between race and national citizenship. The framing of +Begum as a ‘jihadi bride’ speaks to the fantasy of Muslims +as hyper-fertile, a claim Samuel Huntington maintains +in his meticulous cataloguing of birth rates in majority +Muslim countries in The Clash of Civilisations.8 Despite +Begum having been a minor when she left Britain, she +is not framed as a misguided victim like the British girls +targeted by ‘grooming gangs’, but as an enthusiastic participant in archaic, repressive and authoritarian Islamic +family relations. These differently sexualised teenagers +became contrasting representations of the nation’s moral +decline. +While the white girls of Rochdale and Rotherham +symbolised the (threatened) purity of the nation, the +treacherous Begum became its antithesis. Begum became +not-British, only British-born. In her legal expulsion +from the nation, we see in starkly material terms how +black and brown Britons are made foreign, demonstrating with particular clarity the link between racist culture +and legal process, which operate together to ensure that +minoritised British citizens can be sent ‘back’ to where +they are ‘really from’. For both ‘groomers’ and ‘ISIS brides’, +citizenship stripping is made both possible and acceptable by their racialisation as Muslim, which implicitly +connects these acts of sexual violence and abuse to issues +of national security. Defending the respectable national +family becomes the primary job of the state patriarch, to +be achieved by whatever means necessary, international +and human rights laws be damned. + + C HAPTE R NI NE + +(Powerful) Men Behaving Badly + +If parliament were a reality TV show the whole lot of us +would have been voted out of the jungle by now. But at +least we could have watched the speaker being forced to +eat a kangaroo testicle. +– Boris Johnson, first speech to +Conservative Party conference as leader + +Yet the factor that more often than not the fascist leader +appears as a ‘ham actor’ and ‘asocial psychopath’ is a +clue to the fact that rather than sovereign sublimity, +he has to convey some of the sense of inferiority of the +follower, he has to be a ‘great little man’. +– Alberto Toscano, ‘Notes on Late Fascism’, 20171 + +The state patriarch is a figure through which we imagine +the changing incarnations of state practice and power. Of +course, he is a character – a way of thinking of the state +as embodied. This embodiment is a kind of domestication, maybe even an eroticisation; it’s a way of thinking +of the state as a man. In this chapter we ask, what kind +of a man is he? And although we are poking fun a little, +we also adopt this approach as a continuation of far more +orthodox accounts of statecraft. While we reject the naturalisation of the nation state as a family, we take seriously + + (POWERFUL) MEN BEHAVING BADLY + +◆ + +127 + +the impact of this common-sense conception. If the +nation state is a family, the public behaviour of its patriarchal head is a sign. In a time of insistently mediatised +sociality, the performances of masculinity by government +are part of how the state’s patriarchal imperatives – the +processes of neglect and expulsion we have described – +are enacted and justified. So, we see a kind of old-style +‘being a man’ become, once again, central to the theatre of +UK politics. As always, phallic women can ascend in the +ranks, though never in the role of buffoon, which has now +eclipsed that of the statesman in this drama. Meanwhile, +the performance of a gentle or ambiguous masculinity +retains its stigma. +When we say this, it can seem too obvious and too +familiar. Of course, we know already that the state engages +in displays of hegemonic masculinity, and puts forward the +body of the leader as a point of identification. If anything, +we learn our languages of political performance through +these histories of display; the monarch enacts the power +of the office, but also embodies that power with reference +to the hand of God; the elected leader presents himself as +the essence of the nation, whether as an everyman or as +an emblematic fragment of the national whole. However, +in the rise and convergence of authoritarian leaders we +see the displacement of a familiar slick, managerial masculinity with something more aggressive. As others have +noted, we appear to be living in the age of the buffoon. Not +only Boris Johnson, all mumbles and blond dishevelment, +but also Trump’s violently assertive stupidity, Bolsonaro’s +inexplicable denial of coronavirus, and Modi’s claim that +drinking cow urine could guard against Covid-19. We + + 128 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +are witnessing the emergence of the elite buffoon as the +incarnation of state power in our time of democratically +enabled authoritarianism. +The buffoon appears as an apparent response to the disappointments of formal politics. A significant component +of the performance of political buffoonery revolves around +purporting to understand and share popular dissatisfaction and distrust of the political class. Buffoonery is a +method of disassociating from the political class, which +is viewed as inauthentic because it is controlled, managed +and overly concerned with its image and the need to triangulate every issue. The buffoon bypasses these niceties +of political propriety. Instead, we are led to believe, he is +just like us – undisciplined, authentic, out of patience with +politics as usual. +Wilful idiocy becomes, then, a seemingly fitting +response to the limits and disappointments of politics as +we have known it. It would be a foolish person indeed who +underestimates the attraction of the clown in such circumstances. The buffoon’s power is that he offers an alternative +to the carefully calibrated messages of the managed politician. This is not a polished deception. The clown wrecks +the place and looks to us – the audience, taught for so long +to know our place and be grateful – for approval. Don’t we +all want to wreck things, break the rules, tear it all apart? +The buffoon plays out our fantasies of destructive power; +he acts as our undisciplined avatar, reaches into our unruly +hearts and says, forget about civility and obedience, this is +what power really looks like. +The buffoon is a version of the familiar irreverent +man-child, remade for our anti-political times. Physi- + + (POWERFUL) MEN BEHAVING BADLY + +◆ + +129 + +cally undisciplined, sexually questionable, clownish in his +disregard for the niceties of self-presentation and personal +grooming, these are men who seek to embody power in +a way that asserts they are beyond ridicule. Laugh as you +wish – it doesn’t change who is in charge here. Say they are +inappropriate or uncouth and you reveal only the limits of +your own understanding. The point is that the whole repertoire of the inappropriate – the employment of improper +speech, the call to the profane as a gesture of populism – is +central to this particular project to personify power. There +is, perhaps, a harking back to an anti-clerical mode of +politics, where disruption is performed as a release from +authority. But in this carnival, it is the already powerful +who adopt the costume and mannerisms of the irreverent +fool. This is the king playing court jester, rather than the +jester mocking the king. +Of course, the buffoon is never really one of us. Far +from demonstrating a disruption of politics, his antics +act to consolidate unaccountable power. Perhaps you +still believed in some outdated fictions of democracy? +Perhaps you thought that power should be accountable? +The buffoon is here to let you know that power is immune +from reason and there is no evidence, no argument, that +can sway the actions of the state patriarch gone rogue. If +anything, the wilful performance of idiocy itself becomes +a demonstration of power. If the buffoon pretends to be +beyond reason or argument, then reason and argument +become irrelevant as checks on the exercise of power. +This process should be understood as another aspect of +the refiguring of the state patriarch. It works to dismantle +expectations of state accountability because how can a + + 130 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +fool be accountable to anyone? This wilful embrace of +irrationality, which produces a dangerously unpredictable political terrain, has become part of the new legend +of power. We all search for the meaning behind and the +reason for the decisions of the government, only to find +that power has no need to make itself legible to us. In Westminster’s mishandling of the coronavirus pandemic, we +saw this play out with fatal consequences as numbers were +fudged, deaths were dismissed and scientific evidence was +discarded daily. The neglectful state presents the buffoon +as the best we can hope for, as the father-figure for whom +we long but who can only let us down. He is the embodiment of the state patriarch for our times of tactical neglect; +the veering between know-nothingness and aggression +confirms how little we can expect from this particular +mode of the daddy-state. +The theatre of politics constructs a façade that persistently and aggressively distracts from rather than blocks +out the processes of neglect, expulsion and hostility that +characterise the neglectful state. This theatrical rendering +of political manoeuvres is purposefully hapless, though +we all know that the bumbling is a front. Indeed, we’re +supposed to know that it’s a front; like the lies, the silliness +is a demonstration of power. The disintegration of the +already bankrupt political system into a series of personality contests, set pieces, Twitter spats and petty scandals +ensures that the workings of government feel foolish and +distant, emphasising the huge gulf between the political +elite and the rest of the population. This gap serves to +underscore a sense of powerlessness, much like the +workings of austerity. Everyone knows that the system + + (POWERFUL) MEN BEHAVING BADLY + +◆ + +131 + +by which your benefits are sanctioned is immoral and +illogical, but it cannot be challenged. Just as everyone +knows the government is not fit for purpose and suspects +that the mechanisms of representative democracy are +incapable of holding the buffoons to account. +This age of the buffoon feeds on the popular resonance +of elite masculine misbehaviour. We know that rich men +behave badly – we are inured to this ‘fact’. Knowing it is +part of joining the world of the citizen-observer. So we +witness one scandal after another, each seemingly more +unlikely and ridiculous, and with a particular focus on +sexual scandals. But this all passes as little more than +entertainment. Admittedly, there is something pleasurably anti-establishment in poking fun at the powerful, but it +is a distraction nevertheless. At the same time, the famous +buffoons of our age are revealed to be sexually ill-disciplined and also (probably) guilty of sexual assault, yet the +repetition of such revelations ensures that such candidates +build a following and public presence where such matters +are already accounted for. Their misogyny is a ballast +against the #MeToo movement rather than something +that can be held to account by it. +In the process, it is confirmed again in the minds of the +public that political leaders are, necessarily, buffoonish. +Perhaps our ability to recognise and laugh at their buffoonery works to reassure us that politics is not so serious, that +the collapse of effective political institutions is unimportant. We have not been fooled this time, we congratulate +ourselves, we understand that politics is the arena of fools. +But while the public is persuaded increasingly of the +worthless and laughable character of leading members of + + 132 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +the political class, in the process accepting that democracy +is broken and we should now just enjoy the spectacle of +scandals, the resources of the state are redeployed for +other ends. There are, after all, still publicly owned assets +to be diverted into cronyish hands. Networks of the global +right to be squeezed into new arenas of public life. Private +providers to be introduced to the opportunities arising +from state retreat. Speculators interested to benefit from +the turbulence unleashed by politically powerful buffoons. +Dispossession is experienced and narrated as racialised rage – because what was once (imagined to be) given +as an unquestionable right of citizenship, with citizenship here unquestioned for white populations, must now +either be earned or cannot be accessed at all. There is little +sign of this rage turning against the political class. Instead, +there is widespread disinterest and disillusionment with +political institutions. How can we be angry at such fools? +Their wilful triviality seems to devalue our anger – eager to +turn any disagreement into another trivialised moment of +entertainment, with no arena for serious politics. Politics +seems unable to be serious now, despite the hardship and +the deaths. Why waste our breath trying to engage with +those unable to do anything at all except pursue their +own individualistic careerism? The neglectful state has +trained us to lower our expectations of both institutions +and political process. Even if we get his attention, this state +patriarch can do nothing but terrorise. + + PART 4 + +Send in the Army + + C HAPTE R T E N + +Longing for Authority + +If these thugs want war, let’s give it to them. Either send +in the Army to sort them out, or better still, put them in +the Army and arrange for them to be sent to Afghanistan and bring our brave troops home. +– P. Adams, Bexhill, East Sussex, +letter to the Daily Mail following the 2011 riots + +Ministers have drawn up plans to send in the army to +deliver food, medicines and fuel in the event of shortages +if Britain crashes out of the EU without a deal. +– Sunday Times, 29 July 2018 + +The UK armed forces ‘stand ready’ to intervene in the +knife-crime epidemic, the defence secretary has said. +Gavin Williamson said military personnel ‘would +always be ready to respond’ to calls for help, while the +Ministry of Defence ‘always stands ready to help any +government department’. +– Independent, 6 March 2019 + +Up to 20,000 military personnel are being put on standby +in a new Covid Support Force and could ‘backfill’ police +counter terrorism roles, act as prison guards or help +with Border Force checks. +– Daily Express, 20 March 2020 + + 136 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +The military will support the Home Office in their work +to combat Channel crossings. +– Ministry of Defence source, BBC News, 10 August 2020 + +In the last few years, calls to ‘send in the army’ have +become recurrent and increasingly insistent. This +reveals something important about our present crisis. +The demand to ‘send in the army’ points to a popular +desire for authority and order – a desire that blurs into +the enraged will to contain, constrain and ‘order’ those +untidy Others who seem to threaten the nation. In other +words, calls to ‘send in the army’ reflect the intensity of the +anger reserved for racialised ‘illegal immigrants’, ‘terrorists’ and ‘gangsters’, those internal enemies we discussed +in the first part of the book. At the same time, calls for +paramilitary intervention to deal with social problems, or +perceived social problems, are reinforced by a widespread, +social obligation to honour the armed forces and official +versions of their history. What, then, might we learn about +racism in Britain through reflecting on these intensifying +calls to ‘send in the army’? +If ‘criminals’, especially racialised figures such as ‘terrorists’ and ‘gangsters’, are defined as failed and unwanted +citizens, who deserve nothing from state and society, and +who should be excluded and expelled, then soldiers are +their polar opposite. Soldiers – our boys (and for progressive nationalists, our girls) – put their lives on the line for +queen and country, and by extension for us, the people. +British people, therefore, owe them a debt which is to be +paid in unlimited, unwavering support. Soldiers, we are +constantly told, understand better than anyone else the + + LONGING FOR AUTHORITY + +◆ + +137 + +importance of the nation, its security and its interests. +The compulsory requirement that we honour, respect and +remember ‘our boys’ constructs the soldier as the model +British citizen, which is a central tenet of militarisation. +In this way, the soldier-citizen could not be further from +the ‘terrorist’ or the ‘gangster’, even as both groups are +imagined as working-class young men engaged in collective violence. The British citizen who chooses to join +the armed forces, and so to serve queen and country, +thus reminds us that the ‘terrorist’ and the ‘gangster’ also +choose not to serve but to defile this great nation. +But why do people long for the intervention of the +military, rather than the police or non-coercive forms of +state intervention? In part, it is because the basic requirements of life are not in place for many and are only +uncertainly accessible for others. The army stands in +here as an effective authority, unlike the failing and ineffectual post-welfare state. The longing for authoritarian +intervention belongs to this sense of disempowerment: +things have always been like this and there is nothing we +can do – but there is someone stronger than us, if only they +can be called upon. The call for the army is also a refusal +of the niceties of human rights and the assorted procedural conventions of civil society. So, despite the worrying +acceptance of violence and violation, the call of popular +militarism is a call to be saved from the disorder and overindulgence of modern life; a call for protection from the +enemies that exist in foreign lands, at our borders and +on our streets. Alongside these appeals to patriarchal +authority, summoning the army is also an admission of +weakness and frailty. It concedes to our desperate and + + 138 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +lonely existence, recognising that promises of fulfilment +and autonomy, to be achieved through the (technologised +and hyper-mediatised) market, are ringing hollow. For all +the rhetoric of choice, the call to send in the army reveals +the fear that there are no meaningful or effective social +agents in sight. Not me, with my personal brand and my +atomised existence, nor anyone else. For all the talk about +doing for oneself, there is a pervasive uncertainty about +how the world might be shaped and a doubt about our +ability to make any mark on it. +This is also a time in which the state, if acknowledged, is +regarded as weak or failing or corrupt. ‘The people’ cannot +rely on this broken machinery. Instead, we are encouraged +to imagine another non-democratic state that can really +meet our needs, unencumbered by the procedural politics +of quangos, red tape and ‘experts’. Into this terrain, the +army enters as a forgotten agent from an earlier time. This +is the agency of the state, but instructed by emergency and +therefore regarded as above the corruptions of political +life. The army wields state power, but deals in matters of +life and death, emerging to defend the nation in times of +existential crisis. Importantly, it is regarded as above and +apart from the political class. When it acts, it is not based +on self-interest, but on the national interest. The army +becomes the vernacular term for ‘the law’, the real law +beyond the ugly skirmishes between competing groups, +the law writ large that cannot be escaped. The deployment +of the law may be violent, even to the point of death, but it +is not unfair. Consequently, embodying both the law and +the nation provides the army with impunity and protection from government, courts and national culture. + + LONGING FOR AUTHORITY + +◆ + +139 + +There are, unsurprisingly, a number of racialised +elements to this formation. The army suggests an underlying ability to distinguish between full citizens and hidden +enemies. If the structures of entitlement are in disarray, +the army promises to be among the last institutions to +‘know’ who is the us that deserves protection, and who +requires exclusion, expulsion or incarceration. Inevitably, militarism is a reassertion of the nation. The army is +the martial expression of the nation and the ability of the +army to act, as the last standing effective political agent, +rehabilitates the nation. The rush to militarise everyday +life through incursions into schools, television and high +streets, as well as celebrations of military endeavour +and guilt-trips about what the government is and is not +doing for ‘our heroes’, are all attempts to resurrect a kind +of national backbone.1 These martial overtures allay the +deep-seated fears that we are alone, weak and unable to do +anything to defend ourselves against the multiple threats +we face. The enactment of state violence upon the bodies +of variously racialised groups serves as a kind of distraction from the extent of political decline. This is everyday +militarism as spectacle, at once designed to reassure and +threaten, doling out punishments to those who do not +quite belong as a counter-intuitive method of quieting the +fears of others. +However, this longing for the intervention of the armed +forces cannot be explained without a close interrogation +of the policies designed to inculcate this very longing. +In other words, it is not simply that the British people +currently long for military authority because of state +failure and economic woe, but also because lots of money + + 140 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +and resources have been committed to positioning the +armed forces in particular ways over recent years. Military +values are not organic and bottom-up, and policies surrounding the armed forces also reflect the specific actions +of military leaders and elites who have lobbied successive +governments into taking particular positions. There is a +complicated story to be told here about the relationship +between military leaders, the government, and different +sections of the public. +In more general terms, we may consider war and +army-worship to be central to all processes of nation-building, but in the UK we can observe since the 2003 invasion +of Iraq a very concerted effort to ensure the armed +forces are honoured, memorialised and made visible. +For example, in 2007 Gordon Brown ordered a review of +the armed forces which made tens of recommendations +that were subsequently implemented. These included +recommendations for: the wider wearing of uniforms, a +British Armed Forces Day, improving contact between the +military and civilians, and encouraging support for servicemen and women through military and veterans’ cards +and military discounts. The review also suggested efforts +to increase engagement with the armed forces among +young people, for instance via the expansion of Combined +Cadet Forces in state schools, putting military topics into +the national curriculum and bringing soldiers into schools +(for example, in 2012 the government introduced the +‘troops to teachers’ scheme, designed to support people +leaving the armed forces and to promote military values in +schools). Furthermore, the centenary anniversaries of the +Great War, celebrated in 2014 and 2018, carefully curated + + LONGING FOR AUTHORITY + +◆ + +141 + +the memorials so as to edit out the anti-war sentiment +that ran through so many of the cultural offerings of those +who lived through the conflict. Instead, the centenary +exhibitions romanticised the sacrifice of the soldiers of +yesteryear through over 2,500 memorials across Britain +(there are now so many that Historic England is unable to +keep count) as well as temporary installations such as a sea +of poppies covering the grounds of the Tower of London. +These efforts to consolidate the standing of the armed +forces must be situated in the context of the long and +difficult wars in Iraq and Afghanistan. The war in Iraq was +unpopular from the beginning, while the war in Afghanistan became increasingly so as the number of troops dying +in Helmand increased markedly from 2006 onwards. +Indeed, while the armed forces are overwhelmingly +venerated in public opinion, war is often not. However, +as these wars became less popular, soldier worship only +intensified (at least as a policy, if not necessarily in the +public imaginary). It is in this context that we might +interpret the calls to ‘send in the army’ at home. The army +should be sent in not only because it is above and outside +both politics and political correctness, but also because +soldiers themselves will be much safer when deployed at +home. A win-win scenario emerges in which the absolute +authority and overwhelming force of the army can be +channelled to restore order and neutralise the nation’s +outlaws, while ‘our boys’ will be invulnerable to death and +maiming. Expensive and pointless wars abroad should be +aborted and the armed forces should be redeployed here, +as and when necessary. We see similar arguments made +in relation to ‘aid’: why are we spending all our money + + 142 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +abroad when we can’t look after our own? This extends +the meaning of those calls to ‘bring our troops home’. The +troops, once home, might remain troops, fighting in wars +they cannot lose against the nation’s internal enemies. +* + +* + +* + +In the context of fears surrounding the UK crashing out of +the European Union without a trade deal, the armed forces +were again called upon to deliver food and medicine, +to assist with traffic problems at ports and to deal with +shortages of fuel and other essentials in the event of Britain +withdrawing without a deal. It was notable that some supporters of the UK’s departure from the EU turned to the +(fabricated) memory of rationing to argue that the British +people could easily weather any shortages inflicted by a +no-deal Brexit: +I was born before the start of World War Two and +brought up during the war … we all suffered from +extreme food rationing, fuel shortages, cold houses, +clothes rationing, walking everywhere, and the rest. +Folks moaned a bit but, generally speaking, we got on +with it. We kept our freedom from foreign domination, +and that’s all we want now. (Letter to Derby Telegraph, +21 December 2018) +The latest absurdity from the renewed Project Fear +is that a no-deal Brexit would lead to serious food +shortages. Quite apart from the fact that we managed +perfectly well before we joined the European project, + + LONGING FOR AUTHORITY + +◆ + +143 + +I remember that, in my early childhood, we lived with +food rationing, and did not suffer unduly. We did so +because we valued our democracy more than we feared +any temporary inconvenience. This is true today, as +we struggle to regain our freedom to control our own +affairs. (Letter to Daily Telegraph, 8 August 2019) +The EU referendum created the conditions for a resurfacing of an all-too-familiar British imperial nostalgia, +although one that works most often without any explicit +reference to empire. The narratives on what a vote to exit +the European Union could offer Britain were expressed in +terms of ‘taking back control’ over our laws and borders. +Clearly, discussions of reclaiming sovereignty and putting +the ‘Great’ back into Great Britain invoke the history and +loss of imperial greatness, even if this cannot be spoken. +This is why the Second World War is made to carry the +apparently great and noble history of this white island +nation. As Valluvan argues, the ‘pivot towards the Second +World War circumvents the ghosts of colonial brutality +that otherwise threaten to haunt Britain’s past’.2 In this +way, invocations of Second World War triumph – with +their Keep Calm and Carry On spirit, all rationing and the +Blitz – hark back to a time when the nation knew itself, +before mass migration, ‘Islamic terrorism’ and ‘black +street crime’, a time when Britannia ruled the waves, not +in the name of naked imperialism but in the service of civilisation, liberty and development. +In comparison to the romanticised tragic glory of the +world wars, the era of imperial Britain’s global supremacy +is remembered in far less detail. Culturally, the world + + 144 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +wars have been immortalised as the essential moments of +Britain’s self-image. From the cinema of The Dam Busters +and Dunkirk, to the literature of The Railway Children +and Birdsong, the experience of enduring the world wars +is so seared into the national consciousness that Winston +Churchill was voted the greatest ever Briton in a 2002 BBC +poll for his inspiration as a wartime leader. By contrast, +the key figures and details of the British Empire are hazy +within our collective memory. The East India Company or +Royal Niger Company attract nowhere near the same level +of memorialisation, and once famous imperial folk heroes +like the missionary David Livingstone or Charles Gordon +(the martyr of British Sudan) have largely disappeared +from the British public consciousness. Even Churchill’s +own history as an imperialist was hardly mentioned in his +celebration as the greatest Briton. +Furthermore, what is notable about all of the books +and films that have built up Britain’s ongoing fascination +with the world wars is that they reimagine both wars as +a primarily domestic story, making Britain the site of the +conflict. Britain never endured an invasion during either +war but this doesn’t stop them operating as popular touchstones for imagining the consequences of not aggressively +policing Britain’s borders. The popular memory of the +Second World War goes straight from Dunkirk, the Battle +of Britain and the Blitz in 1940 to the D-Day landings in +1944. Major British operations in the intervening years +– such as the Battle of Cape Matapan fought off the Mediterranean coast in 1941, or Operation Torch in North +Africa from 1942 – barely get a mention in these cultural +representations of the Second World War, perhaps because + + LONGING FOR AUTHORITY + +◆ + +145 + +they would underline the global scale of both the war and +the British Empire. They might also disrupt the self-image +of Britain by showing how it spent the majority of the war +years defending the empire as opposed to saving Europe +from the Nazis. The (warped) memory of the war does +a great deal to reinforce the feeling that Britain – the +country that has invaded the most nations on earth – is a +land haunted by an ever-present threat of invasion. Those +who promise to prevent such invasions, the brave British +armed forces, remain peerless national heroes. +This psychic structure reveals a deeply set imperial +amnesia which allows Britain to be constructed in political +discourse as an isolated island-nation, standing small +and alone in the face of threats to its sovereignty from +the imperial EU.3 Britain’s perceived loss of sovereignty +to the EU is symptomatic of a politics that is articulated +and enacted as a zero-sum game, wherein one individual or group’s political gain is necessarily understood as +another’s loss. Such thinking seems to resonate because +of its alignment with a well-worn common sense in the +practice of international relations and diplomacy: that +the conditions of security for one nation are by necessity +the conditions of insecurity for other nations; that the +national interest, understood as security and survival, is +never the same as that of other nations; and that authority +can only be legitimately practised within the boundaries +of the nation. +That this ‘realism’ has re-emerged in the last few years +with exceptional popular vigour is telling. It articulates a +distrust of a ‘globalist’ political class that has supposedly +prioritised liberal cosmopolitanism over the nation (for + + 146 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +example through the EU, market integration, standardisation of laws and norms, and freedom of movement). +Against these ‘globalists’, our new realists insist on preserving the priority and sanctity of the nation as the +most desirable, indeed the only possible, form of political +community and authority. This produces an ideological +alignment between demands for sovereignty and a politics +of racism articulated through various perceived threats to +the nation: the loss of authority to the EU and ‘globalism’, +but also the migrants the EU brings, the terrorists whose +travel the EU facilitates, the human rights legislators of the +European courts that protect various ‘gangs’ from punishment or expulsion. Appeals to sovereignty animate British +racism with renewed legitimacy while appearing to offer +the solution to various racialised ‘problems’, namely the +authority to put up borders against external threats and +punish or expel internal ones. +This is perhaps why for Britain the unforeseen cataclysm of Brexit funnels pre-existing tendencies – colonial +nostalgia, distrust of the political class, disengagement +from democratic processes and mainstream media, loss +of employment stability and the ability to plan one’s lifecourse, and the all-round decline of some regions – into a +political rhetoric that appears to centre almost exclusively +around the question of sovereignty. Our view is that sovereignty here functions as a kind of fetish-object, collapsing +a range of desires and anxieties, but is never itself the thing +at issue. Instead, it might be more helpful to think of this +as a moment of longing for someone else to take power. +Despite the calls to take back control, what is being enacted +is a deep desire to be controlled, to be under control, for + + LONGING FOR AUTHORITY + +◆ + +147 + +someone to make the situation controlled. It should come +as no surprise that the military (sexy uniforms, a flair for +violence) repeatedly appear as one possible candidate for +this job. +As the state retreats from much of its former biopolitical role, and the landscapes of everyday life are remade +as dangerous spaces of contest between increasingly +desperate populations, the call for violent state intervention enters the repertoire of populism. It infects the +discourse of both left and right as well as an everyday +populism with no established political home. Anti-politics might be a global phenomenon, but in contemporary +Britain it is racialised in a manner which reflects both a +colonial past and a declining imperial present. This is why +calls to send in the army resonate most clearly when the +sources of disorder are marked by ‘race’, alien religion and +a stubborn foreignness. +The call to enable the military to act with impunity – +articulated as a response to human rights gone too far, +particularly in relation to attempts to hold British military +personnel to account for war crimes against civilians – +signals a wider wish to institute an authority beyond any +accountability. Such fantasies of authoritarianism are only +a hair’s breadth away from other dangerous fantasies of +the supremacist nation. Even when ideas of nation and +race are not referenced explicitly, the desire to replace +inadequate, corrupt civilian institutions with efficient, +honourable military ones becomes tied to other illiberal +tendencies that enable a revamped state racism. This +includes the view that political institutions do not ‘work’, +that is, do not deliver the basics of life or security. Instead, + + 148 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +we are persuaded that forces unconstrained by the niceties +of political accountability are more effective and, because +of this, more able to give us what we want and need. In +this context, state racisms against recognisable racialised +folk devils serve to answer the popular call for an effective +authoritarianism, demonstrating the coercive power of +the state and repositioning the population as grateful +recipients of unquestionable authority. + + CH APT E R E LE VE N + +Militarisation on the Mainland +The answer lies not in pouring more troops into the +jungle, but in the hearts and minds of the people. The +shooting side of this business is only 25% of the trouble +and the other 75% lies in getting the people of this +country behind us. +– Sir Gerald Templer, 19521 + +‘You are not a criminal, but you are on the wrong side. +You must be restrained until this trouble is over.’ It was +of course contrary to the principles of British justice but +it was merciful. +– Sir Frank Kitson, Gangs and Counter-Gangs +[in British Kenya], 1960 + +We’re in a far more dangerous society than we have +ever been and so we have to have the correct equipment +to deal with that … We’re not asking for mandatory +arming of all officers, but what they are asking for is for +more specially-trained officers. We have to stick to the +stringent criteria, and the criteria for handling a firearm +in the UK is still the toughest in the world … If you look +at the last two to three years, the number of assaults +on police are going up unrecognisably. The average +constable doesn’t hold the same authority. When I was a +child, you didn’t dare blink at a police officer. +Ken Marsh, Chairman of the Metropolitan +Police Federation, 20172 + + 150 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +Honour, self-restraint and efficiency were the selfdeclared defining features of UK militarism in the twentieth +century. Respect for civilians, commitment to the rules of +engagement and the pursuit of ‘just wars’ against tyranny +are fundamental to Britain’s national self-image in the +history of European power politics. Nineteenth-century +Prussian military theorist Carl von Clausewitz provided +the canonical account of international conflict between +European states with his famed treatise, On War. Warfare +between recognised states came to be determined by a set +of traditional markers: uniformed combatants, clear and +measurable military objectives, an idea of a point of conclusion and a distinction from the operations of everyday, +peaceful life. However, conflicts within the colonial sphere +did not take the form of Clausewitzian warfare; they +blurred the lines between war and policing. Colonial and +imperial wars differed from inter-state conflicts among +European nations, and this was particularly pronounced +in the twentieth century, as European powers sought to +hold onto crumbling empires in a changing global order. +The British state has prided itself on its ‘hearts and +minds’ military tactics in the colonies, and its approach +to ‘policing by consent’ on the mainland – apparently +only using violence as a last resort in both instances. +However, Britain’s approach to countering ‘terrorism’ has +seen military occupations, spectacular violence, and in +some instances resettlements and expulsions on a scale +approaching ethnic cleansing. Indeed, both direct and +indirect colonial rule worked partly because the threat +of direct domination was always apparent. India in the +1850s, Morant Bay in Jamaica in the 1860s, Malaysia in + + MILITARISATION ON THE MAINLAND + +◆ + +151 + +the 1940s and Kenya in the 1950s are just some examples +of when the British army rounded up suspects in their tens +of thousands, incarcerating, interrogating and massacring +‘terrorists’, ‘insurgents’ and ‘rebels’ in an effort to maintain +colonial order. Mass arrest, indefinite detention and violent +paramilitary policing were key policies in these ‘Emergencies’, and went on to stain Britain’s enduring legacy in the +north of Ireland. Across the British Empire, on the front +lines of colonial occupation, policing and militarism were +often indistinguishable. State violence was designed not to +detect or prevent crime but to maintain order. +In colonial conflicts, little distinction is made between +armed combatants and everyday civilians. This kind of +conflict does not have a fixed point which allows one to say, +‘the war is won’. Rather, militaristic violence becomes part +of the fabric of everyday life under occupation. Despite +these realities, Britain’s reputation as a civil, respectable and +law-abiding military force remains essential to the nation’s +image of itself, and cultivating the myth of a peaceful end +to empire, and an orderly transition into the British Commonwealth, is as important as Churchillian myths about +Britain’s brave and solitary resistance to fascism in the +Second World War. This moralism at the heart of British +militarism underwrites the popular campaigns which +have railed against the application of human rights law +in cases against ‘our boys’ for their actions in Afghanistan or Iraq (after all, murder is not murder in the ‘fog +of war’).3 Soliciting equal fury among these same patriots +and armed forces enthusiasts are the calls for apologies, or +even reparations, for colonial crimes. Pundits and politicians are aghast at this dredging up of alleged crimes from + + 152 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +a different time, for which they claim there is little substantial evidence (perhaps it was lost with the burning of +colonial records?),4 and which they say were far too long +ago to render a trial fair or appropriate now anyway. +Several scholars have argued that a reckoning with +colonial histories can help us understand the character +of war and militarism today.5 Of course, many people +thinking and writing about war have observed the decline +in traditional warfare since the end of the Second World +War – the increasing proportion of civilian casualties in +conflicts and wars against counterinsurgents rather than +other states – but this becomes less novel when considered in light of colonial conflict. The distinction between +military and civilian, war and peace, battleground and +safe zone has been further eroded in the twenty-first +century, not least because of developments in total surveillance and precision drone strikes. Nightmarishly, the +zone of conflict can now be totalled in on an individual +– within a room, within their house.6 The global War on +Terror is everywhere and without end. Importantly for our +purposes, these logics of contemporary militarism inflect +how racism functions in contemporary Britain. Of course, +the British nation is produced through its exclusions, and +the language of war remains pivotal: the War on Terror, +the war on county lines, the ‘all-out war on gangs and +gang culture’.7 Dominant ideas about enmity, counter-terrorism and security, with their colonial lineages, today +frame the militarisation of British political culture, and +this helps explain how militarised policing practices are +justified with regard to familiar racial foes: the Muslim, +the immigrant and the black criminal. + + MILITARISATION ON THE MAINLAND + +* + +* + +◆ + +153 + +* + +The militarisation of everyday life in contemporary +Britain may appear to be a new phenomenon, but, like so +many innovations, it is a colonial aftershock, making its +belated appearance on the shores of the mother country. +The British state ‘sending in the army’ to deal with a civil +crisis is often considered an historical exception, confined +to events like the Peterloo Massacre or the Troubles in +Northern Ireland (the military occupation of Ireland is, +of course, only exceptional in as far as it is a colony which +became part of the United Kingdom). However, Britain’s +more distant colonies were, and in some cases continue +to be, subject to paramilitary force when the natives +were considered threatening or unruly. It should come as +little surprise, therefore, that today people from formerly +colonised populations living in Britain are not only +framed as exceptionally threatening or unruly, but are also +subjected to militarised forms of governance. As we have +argued throughout this book, the racialised folk devils of +the terrorist, gangster and immigrant are all subjected to +policies and practices which, in one way or another, legitimate ‘sending in the army’. +The creeping militarisation of the police in contemporary Britain follows the emergence of non-white +Commonwealth migrants moving to and settling in the +mother country. The Troubles in Ireland provided the +material infrastructure for militarised policing on the +British mainland, while the ever increasing presence of +racialised immigration provided the discursive justification. From the 1980s onwards, in response to the urban + + 154 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +revolts which began in St Paul’s, Bristol in 1980, and Brixton, south London, before spreading across England in +1981, paramilitary policing techniques were transplanted +from the colonial context. Armoured police were trained +to use rubber bullets and CS spray: the latter of which was +used for the first time in Toxteth, Liverpool, in 1981, while +police armed with rubber bullets were deployed to contain +the Broadwater Farm uprisings in 1985. While officers +were not ordered to fire in the latter case, Sir Kenneth +Newman of the Met Police warned that such tactics were +now necessary for dealing with urban disorder (rubber +bullets have been fired in Northern Ireland but never on +the British mainland). +We should here reflect on the civil unrest in August +2011, sparked by the police killing of an unarmed black +man, Mark Duggan, who was shot dead in a manner reminiscent of the shoot-to-kill policies of the paramilitary +forces in Northern Ireland. Duggan was being pursued by +the police as part of the decade-long Operation Trident, +established to focus specifically on serious violence within +the black population; referred to as ‘black on black’ crime +in the early 2000s, but now more frequently referred to +as ‘gang crime’. The police killing of Duggan followed a +three-year spike in police use of stop-and-search powers +designed to combat so-called ‘gang violence’. In August +2011, David Cameron, speaking from a professionally +graffitied youth centre in his Oxfordshire constituency, +announced his ‘all-out war on gangs and gang culture’. +He described gangs as a ‘major criminal disease’ that had +‘infected our streets’. + + MILITARISATION ON THE MAINLAND + +◆ + +155 + +As noted in Part 1, the policing of ‘gangs’ involves ‘intelligence gathering’ using (native) informants, cultural +analysts surveying social media, and the broader criminalisation of those who simply live, study or socialise +together. This rounding up of suspects is not dissimilar +to counterinsurgency policing in Britain’s colonies, and +the militarisation of policing provided additional weight +to Cameron’s declaration of war, accompanied by the +increased use of tasers, the purchase of water cannons and +the expansion of the number of armed officers. A decade +before, Tony Blair had launched his own war at home with +the domestic ‘War on Terror’, proudly proclaiming, ‘the +police tell me what power they need and I give it to them’. +Part of these new police powers allowed officers ‘to take +account of a person’s ethnic origin in selecting persons to +be stopped in response to a specific terrorist threat’.8 This +power was eventually repealed following a ruling of the +European Court of Human Rights. Despite such successful legal challenges, the War on Terror continues: teachers, +doctors, academics and social workers are all incorporated +into Britain’s counterinsurgency programme through the +Prevent policy, enlisted to identify signs of ‘radicalisation’ +and ‘extremism’ among ‘service-users’. +This policing of sympathies – the desire to identify and +record ‘radicalisation’ and support for ‘terrorism’, and +to chart the interiority of the nation’s potential ‘internal +enemies’, which of course ends up capturing much broader +anti-imperialist impulses – has been accompanied by more +overt forms of militarism. One year on from the ‘2011 riots’ +following the police murder of Mark Duggan, thousands +of uniformed soldiers were deployed to provide security + + 156 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +for the 2012 London Olympics, the biggest deployment +of troops on the mainland since the Second World War +(13,500 troops in total). London was ‘wired up with a +new range of scanners, biometric ID cards, number-plate +and facial-recognition CCTV systems, disease tracking +systems, new police control centres and checkpoints’, +while surface-to-air missile systems scanned the skies +and unmanned drones surveilled the stadiums.9 We now +expect to see police officers armed with machine-guns at +major travel terminals, and armed operatives trained by +Northern Ireland paramilitary forces exercising shootto-kill operations in civilian areas, such as that which led +to the police killing Brazilian plumber Jean Charles de +Menezes in 2005. +The firearms unit that killed Menezes were part of +Britain’s domestic counter-terror police, but received their +training from the SAS. The shoot-to-kill policy which saw +Menezes executed as he walked through Stockwell underground station mirrored the tactics of British Special +Forces. Through a global circulation of counter-terror +military strategists, practices and consultants, paramilitary policing in Palestine, Northern Ireland and Britain +now all share the hallmarks of lethal force as first resort. +Here, the British military mythology of minimum force, +due process and ‘hearts and minds’ becomes exposed +for its frank absurdity. The racial nature of paramilitary +policing is hard to miss here; a Catholic Brazilian plumber +is mistaken for a Muslim Arab due to them both ‘having +Mongolian eyes’, according to the officers responsible for +the killing, which illustrates the slippery character of ‘the + + MILITARISATION ON THE MAINLAND + +◆ + +157 + +Muslim’ as a racial category and the persistence of the +racial taxonomies of colonial science. +Perhaps the most consistent racialised folk devil, for +which the armed forces must be called into action, has +been the spectre of the recently arrived, or imminently +arriving, migrant. Migrants are often constructed as potential ‘terrorists’, ‘criminals’ and ‘sex offenders’, but they are +more widely demonised for taking jobs, claiming out-ofwork benefits and putting a strain on public services. ‘The +migrant’ is effectively an empty vessel into which myriad +anxieties can be poured. This has found renewed urgency +in the last few years, as increasing numbers attempt to +enter Britain on small boats travelling from France. This +requires we ‘send forth the navy’. Right-wing commentators have recently declared the need for gunboats to +patrol Britain’s maritime borders, while politicians claim +sea-crossing migrants must be turned away as a matter +of deterrence.10 In summer 2020, we saw the Home +Office request that the Ministry of Defence deploy navy +vessels in the Dover Straits, while Home Secretary Priti +Patel appointed a former Royal Marine to the new role +of ‘Clandestine Channel Threat Commander’. While this +reassertion of naval power silently reaffirms the hope that +Britain might once again ‘rule the waves’, it also reflects +the paranoiac convulsions of a political culture obsessed +with scanning the border for signs of danger and restlessly +pursuing the expulsion of all foreign pollutants. These +anti-immigrant anxieties and revulsions inevitably culminate in militarised calls for further securitisation, closure +and expulsion. + + 158 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +It seems worth reflecting for a moment on the case of +the Stansted 15, a group of radical environmental-migrant +activists who successfully grounded a mass deportation +charter flight in March 2017. After their action prevented +the deportation of roughly 60 migrants to Ghana, +Nigeria and Sierra Leone, the Home Office changed +tactics. Rather than fly from commercial airports, some +mass deportation charter flights now fly from Royal Air +Force bases, such as Brize Norton. Of course, charter +flights were already a form of militarised border control; +they emerged largely because of difficulties entailed in +deporting people on commercial flights, especially in the +wake of some passengers and pilots refusing to fly with +people resisting deportation. Charter flights – usually +leaving from Stansted airport, even if by cover of darkness +in the early hours – were therefore a means of undercutting the possibility of resistance and solidarity, especially +in its spontaneous forms. The use of military bases for +charter flights marks another escalation, crystallising the +sense that migrants, by virtue of not being citizens, are +not civilians either. Their expulsion, like that of ‘terrorists’, +occurs in a murky extra-legal space created by an excess of +state sovereignty and a disregard for human rights. +Having watched the prosecution and sentencing of +those undertaking similar actions before them, the +Stansted 15 protestors expected to be charged with aggravated trespass. They were, at first, only to then have the +charges upped to ‘intentional disruption of services at +an aerodrome’, a terrorist offence introduced under the +1990 Aviation and Maritime Security Act, a law passed +in response to the Lockerbie bombing in 1988. The 15 + + MILITARISATION ON THE MAINLAND + +◆ + +159 + +activists were convicted of these offences in Chelmsford +Crown Court in December 2018, and potentially faced +sentences of up to life imprisonment for endangering the +safety of the airport. Fortunately, none of them were incarcerated. They were given fines and community service. +But their treatment – particularly as a mostly white, university-educated group with an excellent legal team – is +indicative of some important shifts. They were treated +not as civilian protestors, acting on conscience, defending +human rights and exercising their right to free speech +within a liberal democracy, but as enemies of the state – +not only criminals but terrorists. +In their treatment we see the ways in which dissent is +increasingly viewed as treachery and sedition. The observation that they would have received prison terms had +they been black or Muslim – which became one of the hot +takes on Twitter around the time of the trial – was not +only obvious and patronising (clearly this was something +the groups had considered and strategised around), it also +missed the most disconcerting aspect of this case for all +of us who might want to engage in acts of dissent and +resistance. If middle-class presenting and mostly white +activists can be convicted of terrorism offences for non-violent political actions, then the goalposts have shifted. The +terrorism net has been cast even wider, and this limits all +of our political horizons. +As David Gee explains: +a culture of militarism is part of our way of life as a +society. A militarist outlook is embedded in certain +perceptions of British nationhood and its security, in + + 160 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +political orientations and the policies that come from +them, in our fears and hopes for the future, in the +language we use and the stories we tell about the way +the world works, and in our entertainment, arts, and +media productions.11 +Another important way in which the army is being +called in is through the interpellation of people as surveilled and securitising subjects, willing to report and +always reminded that the threat of terror is everywhere +(‘see it, say it, sorted’). If militarisation can be defined as +‘the contradictory and tense social process in which civil +society organizes itself for the production of violence’,12 +then contemporary processes of militarisation rely on the +persistent production of banal yet ubiquitous threats. In +daily life, a whole range of people are encouraged, and +sometimes instructed, to participate in the practices of +everyday security (this is true with the Prevent duty for +example). These instructions and encouragements are not +designed to ‘change our minds’. These are not practices +based in conceptions of consciousness. You do not have to +believe in the War on Terror, for example. What you must +do is be edged into co-operation through actions, so that +the bureaucratic organisation of public life or working life +or educational life places you in a position of participation +and complicity. There is something in this that prefigures +a deeper authoritarianism. Once participating, you are no +longer the suspect. When they come for the suspect, you +are just another bystander. + + CH APT E R T WE LVE + +Zero-sum Game + +All I ever wanted was to love women, and in turn to +be loved by them back. Their behavior towards me has +only earned my hatred, and rightfully so! I am the true +victim in all of this. I am the good guy. Humanity struck +at me first by condemning me to experience so much +suffering. I didn’t ask for this. I didn’t want this. I didn’t +start this war … I wasn’t the one who struck first … But +I will finish it by striking back. I will punish everyone. +And it will be beautiful. Finally, at long last, I can show +the world my true worth. +– Elliot Rodger manifesto (killed six and +injured 14 in Isla Vista, California) + +Nobody was waiting for a vegan bloody sausage, you +PC-ravaged clowns. +– Piers Morgan, 2019 + +Following the Conservative victory in the 2019 general +election, news surfaced on social media of an upswing in +racist abuse. Incidents of people of colour being goaded, +mocked and jeered at in public spaces were undergirded +by more intimate kinds of aggression, including black +and brown families being informed by their neighbours +that the Tory victory meant they ought to pack their bags; +repatriation was nigh. In many ways, this was a rerun of + + 162 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +the days following the Brexit referendum result in 2016. +Then, much of the tone was elated, triumphant – we won! +Following the Tory landslide in 2019, the triumphalism +took a new form. Instead of merely cawing over their +victory, the right seemed to be most virulent when celebrating our defeat. Even as the final results were trickling +in on December 13th, a jubilant white man took to the +streets of Brixton, shouting ‘you lose! you lose!’ at black +and brown commuters entering the tube station. Our +loss was their gain, but it was our loss that tasted sweetest +to them. More importantly, this man and many others +viewed this zero-sum game through the prism of race; it +was a triumph not only against the Remoaners, and not +only against the racialised folk devils we have been discussing, but against all immigrants, their children and +their children’s children. +It was also seen as a victory against constraint of all kinds, +against the idea that one must keep one’s bigotry behind +closed doors. That said, bigotry has been out in the open +– selling newspapers, winning election campaigns and +greasing the wheels of nationalism’s constitutive exclusions – for decades. But the myth that people are policed +by the diktats of ‘political correctness’ or ‘woke culture’ +nonetheless holds firm. As a result, Johnson’s record of +calling gay men ‘tanktop-wearing bumboys’, saying that +women who wear the burkha look like ‘letterboxes’, and +having an altercation with his girlfriend that sounded so +aggressive the neighbours called the police was, for many, +an attractive, perhaps even a reassuring, prospect rather +than a sign of being unfit for office. In Johnson, many saw +their own bigotry, albeit with the money, position and + + ZERO-SUM GAME + +◆ + +163 + +power necessary to cast those views as common sense (see +Chapter 9). +As such, it should be no surprise that it was not just +racist attacks that rose following Johnson’s victory, but +also an onslaught of homophobia and transphobia.1 The +gender politics of the authoritarian turn bear some consideration here. We are witnessing the rapid development +of ‘culture wars’ that thrive off a zero-sum thesis on all +resources, material or otherwise: one person’s gain is +another’s loss. If basic respect is shown to black and brown +people, it must come at the cost of white people’s access to +dignity. The culture wars can thus frame the increase in +relative power and dignity of women or trans people as a +threat to men or cisgender people, laying the foundation +for men’s rights campaigners and TERFs (‘trans exclusionary radical feminists’). The zero-sum thesis is the key +driver of the culture wars; it offers some rationale for why +highly insignificant phenomena (a vegan sausage roll, a +stranger’s gender) can become charged sites of conflict. +If you believe the fulfilment of another’s desire is always +at the expense of your own, then someone else’s gain, +however minor, will always be your loss. +The logic of a zero-sum game underpins the network of +interconnected moral panics, some of which we map out +in this book, around which political discourse converges +and congeals. Social life is understood in increasingly +Darwinian terms; the survival of the fittest has been +reimagined as a shoot-em-up platform game – singular, +disembodied, territorial, violent, masculine, exhilarating, +yet simultaneously scared, defensive, nativist in the most +privatised of conceptions with lesser and/or dangerous + + 164 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +others representing a threat that must be quashed if the +embattled family is to survive. We see this in TERFism, +which claims that trans women are in fact devious men +threatening and usurping the place of ‘real’ women, as well +as their sexual dignity. There are only enough resources +(emotional and moral as well as material) either for trans +women or for cis women, but not both – it’s them or us. +We might note the prominence of an organisation called +Woman’s Place UK2 in the TERF landscape as an interesting example of the retrograde politics produced by +this logic – the name at once spoofing a previous patriarchal framing of the world yet also seeking to reclaim +an imagined territory of women’s rights, a place where +the sovereign claims of cis-women are beyond question +or disruption. TERF logic relies on strict hierarchies and +schematic divisions – women have a particular place, +violated by men, they must also guard it against trans +interlopers. +An event held by an anti-trans organisation called ‘We +Need to Talk UK’, entitled ‘“Transgenderism” and the War +on Women’, offers an instructive example. The name of the +organisation echoes a key tenet of the culture war, which +is that opinions that diverge from or contest a set of liberal +orthodoxies are being silenced. Further, the event was +originally to be held at Millwall football club but had to be +moved after the venue received complaints. As a result, the +group collaborated with Conservative MP David Davies +to hold the event in the House of Commons – the same +David Davies who voted against gay marriage, is sceptical +about climate change and is a staunch critic of the Human + + ZERO-SUM GAME + +◆ + +165 + +Rights Act. Trans exclusionary radical feminists find +themselves making strange bedfellows indeed. +The expanding terrain of digital subcultures organised +around renewing the primacy of masculinity operates +through a similar premise. The gains made by feminism +over the second half of the twentieth century are viewed +as having displaced men from their rightful place of +dominance. Crucially, the story goes that feminism has not +brought us closer to equality but has created a situation of +female supremacy: a feminisation of society that puts men +at a disadvantage, a disadvantage imagined as the coming +together of a loss of ‘jobs for men’, a loss of the unquestioned +social status of manhood apparently enjoyed by previous +generations, and a loss of sexual access to women’s bodies. +Though this backlash against the successes of the women’s +liberation movement has been a staple of public discourse +for decades, the early 2000s saw a new iteration in the form +of the claim, stridently expressed, that men were, in fact, +the victims of a society run by and for women. Fathers4Justice were the most prominent exponents of this idea; +they sought to redress what they viewed as institutionalised discrimination against fathers, particularly in family +courts. While the case for co-parenting after divorce, and +the expectation that men share equally in the labour of +childcare, are prominent feminist concerns, Fathers4Justice viewed feminism as the source of their suffering. This +position chimed with the ‘postfeminist’ rhetoric of New +Labour, which viewed equality as a question of legislation +and common sense and attempted to sever the residual +connections between the Labour Party and the feminist, +anti-racist and anti-war movements that had come out of + + 166 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +the New Left. As a result, while the stunts Fathers4Justice +pulled were viewed as unnecessary or hysterical, the +underlying premise that feminism needed to be kept under +control and equality managed by the state remained, and +has helped to usher in these digital subcultures. +Within this new global ‘mens’ rights’ network, disproportionate rates of male suicide3 and homelessness,4 +as well as poor provision for male victims of domestic +violence, are taken to be the outcome of feminism.5 +Further, the fact that men are, globally, more likely to be +conscripted as soldiers becomes similarly implicated in +female supremacy. The fact that Men’s Rights Activists +(MRAs) focus on these gendered discrepancies – rather +than aligning themselves with anti-war activists, housing +campaigners or organisations for survivors of domestic +violence – helps to illuminate the porous membrane +between MRAs and the wider alt-right political movement. +Incels (short for involuntary celibates), on the other hand, +turn their attention to the iniquities of the sexual marketplace. Incels view the world according to strict sexual +hierarchies, with ‘Chads’ and ‘Staceys’ (conventionally +attractive men and women) at the top. This rather adolescent understanding of sexual life takes a more sinister turn +in its detour through evolutionary psychology, through +which incels assert that even women on the lower end of +the sexual hierarchy are ‘programmed’ to be demanding, +high maintenance and committed to dating men who +are at the top of the scale, leaving ordinary men, such as +themselves, at a disadvantage. It is worth noting here that +this elaboration of the old adage that ‘nice guys finish last’ +evidences forms of loneliness, alienation and resentment + + ZERO-SUM GAME + +◆ + +167 + +that could be taken as paradigmatic of the current conjuncture. Yet it is their organisation along the lines of the +zero-sum game that connects this emotional terrain to the +militarisation of social life and the turn to authoritarian +nationalism. However, across all of these domains, men +understand themselves to be under threat – whether physically, socially or psychologically – from powerful and +malicious women protected by the conspiracy of ‘political +correctness’ or ‘woke culture’. Taken together, we can see +TERFS, incels and Men’s Rights Activists as key players +in the ‘culture wars’ that now dominate the political +landscape, and which both feed off and intersect with the +more explicitly racial dynamics. +However, as indicated, the zero-sum game is at its most +visible when it concerns race. The language of ‘white genocide’, perhaps the most explicit rendering of this idea, has +gained significant purchase in the mainstream, including in universities. As mentioned previously, Professor of +Politics Eric Kaufmann asserts that people have ‘natural’ +racial affinities and that ‘racial self-interest’ is an intelligible sentiment, distinct from racism. In his book Whiteshift, +Kaufmann develops his particular brand of demographic +racism, arguing that as ‘white people’ become a smaller +global plurality, Western nations ought to orient their +immigration policies around the ‘cultural comfort’ of +these white national majorities. To promote his book, +Kaufmann appeared at an event hosted by the libertarian (perhaps, more accurately, contrarian) website Spiked, +whose panellists were asked to respond to the question: +‘Is rising ethnic diversity a threat to the West?’ The fact +that these moral panics regarding shifting demograph- + + 168 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +ics, gender norms and sexual practices express themselves +in the language of ‘debate’ is notable for retaining a rhetorical connection to the old forms of democracy (and +to their theatrical forms) which are, increasingly, viewed +as anachronistic, idealistic and failed. Yet the notion of +rational debate serves to rehabilitate these ideals, and +recast the left, feminists and anti-racists as the enemies of +free speech – the real agents of repression. +These ‘debates’ are highly visible as televised spectacles, but they begin on social media, which functions as +a kind of anti-democracy, like looking at democracy in +a funhouse mirror. The appearance of being able to say +whatever you want to the whole world is a powerful and +seductive illusion. In fact, utterances on social media +are highly ritualised within a dense set of formal codes. +In many ways, the world of social media is the perfect +microcosm in which to view the internal workings of +ideology; the sheer volume of material and relative ease +of identifying trends and tropes allows us to watch ideas +form, fracture and renew. But the chaotic, cacophonous +chamber of social media hides the direction of power. +Consider the way in which social media backlash offers +the illusion of collective power; a celebrity or brand will say +something racist or sexist, tweets and Instagram posts will +accrue, critiquing their mistake and demanding redress, +and the company or celebrity will issue an apology. This +process is often swift and exhilarating – it can feel highly +compelling, like watching a sport – and gives the sense +that powerful figures are accountable to ordinary people. +In fact, these processes strengthen our affective ties to + + ZERO-SUM GAME + +◆ + +169 + +celebrities or brands, while also making profit for social +media platforms. +The sense of democratic potential operates through a +binary functionality; like/don’t like, retweet/ignore. This +binary functionality precludes most forms of uncertainty +or nuance but, perhaps most importantly, interpellates us all to have an opinion. It demands engagement +and encourages us to view that engagement as a social +necessity. This binary functionality has an educative +function for the new authoritarianism. We become accustomed to polarised, violent, divisive, individualistic and +mob-like discourse, centred around moral purity and +evacuated of political content. These technologies are also +highly anxiety-inducing, which further encourages the +desire for forms of collectivity, calm and certainty. +The falling standards of living induced by neoliberal +capitalism and an aggressive programme of austerity, +alongside increasingly violent forms of detention, incarceration and social death for the poorest and the racialised in +Britain, must be taken as primary. Nonetheless, the modes +of mediation and consumption that structure everyday +life are indivisible from the operations of the authoritarian state. What we can begin to see is the way in which +these binary discursive regularities encourage a desire for +older forms of political collectivity centred on the nation. +Portions of the left (and some liberals) who desire this +kind of collectivity (or, interestingly, assume others do) are +trying to harness these desires through the non sequitur of +progressive nationalism, while most others have dropped +the progressive part altogether, and are advocating for variations on the theme of militarised nationalism. This has + + 170 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +become audible in the refrain – sung by MPs from across +the political spectrum, as well as their compadres in the +media with whom they share the hymn sheet – to ‘send +in the army’. This desire for a military presence is more +than a capitulation to the sense of eternal and omnipresent threat orchestrated by the everyday theatrics of the +War on Terror; rather, it is a kind of forward-looking +nostalgia. It is both the desire for the Blitz-spirit version +of national collectivity (hence all the elated talk of postBrexit rationing) and the yearning for the certainties of +collective national stability post-democracy, overseen by a +militaristic state patriarch. + + PART 5 + +What Now? + + C HAPTE R T HI RTE E N + +Covid-19: A Real Crisis + +We go out and we clap. We clap awkwardly. We clap reluctantly because healthcare workers should not be troopified, +because they are not our blood sacrifice, because they should +not have to go to work and put themselves and their families +at risk. We clap reluctantly because Boris and Matt Hancock +are clapping too, the very people who are responsible for the +social murder of hundreds of thousands of people, by refusing +to act against the spread of the virus, but also by presiding +over a decade of austerity. We clap because our neighbours +are clapping, even the ones who irritate us, the ones who +closed the door in the face of canvassers, telling them they +don’t vote. If they’re clapping, this has to mean something. +We don’t want to clap. We want to rage, but we clap anyway. +Why? Because this is as close to anything in-person and collective as we have encountered in this crisis. We are tempted +to give in to the cynicism which would see us retreat inside, +but we don’t. We continue to clap awkwardly. We want +to shout, ‘don’t fucking vote Tory next time’, but we don’t, +because we don’t want to break this. Not yet. +We are already grieving. We can’t sit still. Our hands shake +and we need to keep them busy. We can’t think about what +we thought about before. We feel guilty eating nice things, +guilty when the postman comes to the door. Yesterday a +13-year-old child died alone. His parents and sisters can’t + + 174 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +go to his funeral because they are all in isolation. There are +people on ventilators, there are people choking on their own +phlegm, there are people who can’t breathe, there are people, +so many people, dying alone. +* + +* + +* + +We have been writing about ‘crisis’ throughout – that has +very much been the point – and yet to call the coronavirus pandemic ‘another crisis’ obviously underplays the +epochal transformations now underway. In short, this +is what a real crisis looks like. Millions abruptly unemployed; the prime minister telling people to ‘stay at home’; +police given powers to disperse any individual from public +space; and the skies empty of planes and full of police helicopters, while the ambulance sirens reverberate, so often, +too loud, on otherwise quiet roads. We do not yet know +what will come in its wake, but a deep global economic +recession seems unavoidable. The crisis will also shift +state practices and political subjectivities in ways that +we cannot yet predict. However, before looking, despairingly or otherwise, to what lies in store, we first reflect +on how the arguments presented so far can help explain +the UK government’s woeful response to the coronavirus +pandemic. If any doubted the extent to which state neglect +has become normalised in Britain, the Covid-19 crisis has +confirmed the ascendancy of that neglect as an active, +wilful, targeted technique of state power. Under Boris +Johnson, the UK has lurched from one half-articulated +non-policy to another – in the process, seemingly referencing many of the recurring symbols of British popular + + COVID-19: A REAL CRISIS + +◆ + +175 + +nationalism in a manner that goes beyond farce to all-out +horror-show. +Throughout this book we have tried to describe the +neglectful state from several angles and with different +lighting. Much of what we have discussed belongs to the +aftermath of the 2008 financial crash: austerity amalgamated with the securitisation practices honed through +the War on Terror, and the bordering machinery that has +become so central to disciplinary techniques across the +world. However, this moment might just be passing, and +this book has been our attempt to understand the world +moving beneath our feet. We have suggested that the will +to balance targeted neglect at racial others with some +meaningful appeal to belonging or entitlement for a significant section of the population seems almost gone. The +ability of the state to administer a totalised machinery at +all, even if only to administer differential neglect, is now +in question. If anything, we are entering a new phase of +rapid realignment in state practices and an active disruption of what has gone before. And yet, just as we were +working on concluding this book and trying to reflect on +the new Boris Johnson-led government, with its particular brand of authoritarianism, the Covid-19 pandemic hit +and with it the contours of our political, economic and +cultural conjuncture twisted and warped. +The deadly costs of the neglectful British state have +been made tragically clear over even the first stages of the +Covid-19 crisis, which seems likely to haunt the political +and economic structure of the globe for the foreseeable +future. At the time of writing, a combination of incompetence, malice and an investment in the economy above + + 176 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +people have led to the UK suffering the highest coronavirus death toll in Europe. However, we can already see that +those in power are appealing to the nation’s patriotism +and nativism to distract from their murderous mismanagement which has caused Britain’s death toll to be so +much worse than comparable European neighbours. It is +this dynamic – of fatal neglect cross-cut with exuberant +jingoism, of corporate state capture behind a flimsy screen +of strongman theatrics – that we have explored through +this book and which has intensified during the present +crisis. The actions – and more importantly the inactions +– of the British state in the face of the global pandemic +appear to confirm our earlier analysis of the emergence +of a neglectful state that works through the militarised +figure of the patriarch. We have been alarmed to see how +prescient our terms for the embodiment of parallel state +practices have been. +Unsurprisingly, the language of war has been mobilised. +We were called to enter into battle. We were asked to +protect NHS workers on the frontline by staying at home. +We would summon our Blitz spirit to get through this as +a great nation. We were now in a war with an invisible +but deadly enemy. We were told to pull together to ensure +victory. As a result, the government press releases and the +mostly unhelpful journalistic commentary (a poor substitute for investigation and proper reportage) amounted +to little more than health and martial metaphors falling +in on one another, or tying one another in knots, without +actually telling us very much. But the martial metaphors +were not only that. In fact, the state’s most decisive and +immediate action was to introduce emergency measures + + COVID-19: A REAL CRISIS + +◆ + +177 + +through the Coronavirus Act. The Act introduced +‘certainly the most severe restrictions ever imposed, going +further than the regulations made under, respectively, +the Defence of the Realm Act 1914 and the Emergency +Powers (Defence) Act 1939] during the two world wars’.1 +This was not just a metaphorical war, but a war made real +by emergency laws and state practices. The Coronavirus +Bill breezed through Parliament with literally no opposition from the Labour Party or the Lords, despite it quite +evidently being extreme, authoritarian, lacking proper +oversight and with an expansive time limit. That the +emergency might become the norm was already predictable at this early stage of legislating, while the government +still floundered on public health policy and responsible +action to save lives. +The celebration of the 75th anniversary of VE day in +the midst of the lockdown allowed for the romanticisation of the Blitz, Dunkirk and all things Second World +War that we have argued creates an image of Britain as +the heroic underdog, rather than an oppressive imperial +overlord. As people up and down the country broke +lockdown to celebrate the myth of an innate, British +spirit of sacrifice, the line between historical re-enactment and history repeating itself became eerily blurred. +Comparisons between the coronavirus lockdown and the +Blitz emerged almost immediately, despite the deaths this +time being caused by state mismanagement rather than +Luftwaffe bombs. Nativism has also served as an answer to +this existential crisis of the British state, with echoes of the +anti-Chinese rhetoric that was common in Britain at the +end of the nineteenth century following the aftermath of + + 178 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +the opium wars. Brexit Party leader Nigel Farage claimed +that coronavirus shows us that ‘it is time we all challenged +China’, and blamed the initial location of the virus as the +cause of the problem, despite that reasoning’s inability to +explain the striking difference in the death toll between +Britain and, say, Germany. Any mention of the disproportionate number of deaths suffered by Britain’s black and +Asian communities during this crisis has been dismissed +as ‘divisive’, or, perhaps more perniciously, as attributable +to genetic difference. As ever, biological ‘race’ retains its +allure, especially in matters of health and medicine, as the +certainties of absolute genetic difference safely cloud the +ongoing force of structural racism as social fact. +In the days following UK lockdown, online cultures +began to comment on the (perhaps uniquely British, in its +popular articulation) love of boot-licking. To lick the boots +of the strict and unresponsive authority figure is a jokey +recurrent theme in the British pornographic imagination +– arising, no doubt, from the disproportionate cultural +influence of militarised forms of upper-class schooling +and the ritualised sexualised punishment within these +spaces. This image is an apt index of and uncomfortable +commentary on Britain’s oddly unresolved class politics. +Despite histories and presents of militant working-class +resistance, the idea that many of us bow to our masters, +and, more than this, love the process of prostration, +registers something peculiar but undeniably persistent +about British political culture. In both his militarised and +neglectful incarnations, the state patriarch can be positioned as the recipient of boot-licking abjection – and he +is suitably unresponsive to such gestures. However, what, + + COVID-19: A REAL CRISIS + +◆ + +179 + +Covid has painfully revealed is the absence of any effective +authority figure wearing the boots. The British state has +been floundering, talking tough or talking us down, but +revealed every day as unable to exercise the titillatingly +militarised authority promised before Covid. Instead, we, +the population, look to our habits of boot-licking only to +find the emptiness and the terror of longing for authority +when that authority reveals its inadequacy. +* + +* + +* + +The myth that drove Conservative austerity policies in the +aftermath of the last economic crisis – the myth that ‘we +are all in it together’ – appears to have been jettisoned by +the new leadership of Boris Johnson and his chief strategist Dominic Cummings, seemingly the only person +to whom Johnson feels an undying loyalty. Johnson and +Cummings make little pretence that their policies are for +the greater good. They represent and defend ‘their people’ +and feed off the politics of division. Both built their careers +through the Brexit referendum by tying Britain’s relationship with the European Union to a culture war about +British identity, and calling on their supporters to relive +the imagined glories of yesteryear. Specifically linking +Brexit to the most romantic moments in British military +history, Johnson argued that Remainers had forgotten that +‘Napoleon, Hitler, various people tried this out ... The EU +is an attempt to do this by different methods.’ After that +approach proved successful in the referendum, Johnson +and Cummings have continued to repeat a similar refrain +as they have gained greater and greater state power. + + 180 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +The entry of Boris Johnson to the elected office of prime +minister with a large majority (previously his ascent had +bypassed the electorate) has empowered, apparently, +the still shadowy figure of Cummings. Cummings’s +own understanding of British history is one in which, +following the Shangri-la of the Victorian Empire, Britain +spends the twentieth century making ‘colossal error after +error’;2 now that he has his hands on the instruments of +state, Cummings appears determined to use them to once +again provide the British ruling class with the power it +had enjoyed in the past. Under his direction, we have seen +displays of carelessness towards previously settled niceties +of political life. Despite the highly questionable partisanship (in favour of the Conservative Party) of much of +the news media, key journalists were asked to leave an +early Johnson press briefing in an orchestrated display +of overturning public accountability. Any dissent within +the cabinet, however weedy, has been shut down, most +notably with the theatrical expulsion of Sajid Javid. Judges +have been put on notice – with government plans to limit +access to judicial review, a particularly chilling threat after +the battle between Johnson’s previous government and +the judiciary on the issue of proroguing Parliament. A +few months later, in August 2020, Home Secretary Priti +Patel attacked ‘activist lawyers’ and promised that her new +immigration laws would ‘send the left into meltdown’. +What we are being promised, it seems, is not a better +functioning state (the axing of Public Health England in +August 2020 is telling here), but rather the fulfilment of +the electoral promise to ‘Get Brexit Done’, and to ‘crush +the saboteurs’.3 + + COVID-19: A REAL CRISIS + +◆ + +181 + +We seem set for another strange experiment, the imposition of the shock doctrine on a domestic population. If +this is the endgame of empire, then it really is a nasty case +of the colonial subject coming home. In this openly celebrated coming disruption, breaking apart institutions +is always considered a good thing. Such a gambit can be +popular, for a while, because institutions of state have failed +so miserably to meet the needs of much of the population. +However, despite its claims to be decentring a political +elite, this is no democratising project. Instead we see a still +undecided process of realignment within the ruling class. +The British state has been captured by a far-right cabal and, +despite the forwarding of imperial nostalgia, is subject to +the whims and interests of a transnational capitalist class, +even as this class is undergoing transformation. Already +in its first months, the Johnson government announced +legislation that disregards and bullies ‘business interests’, +who are told to give up their reliance on migrant labour, +learn to retain staff, automate or die. It is hard to shake the +sense that this is a planned chaos, which includes actively +shrinking the economy (for a time at least), perhaps introducing even more punitive policies, including varieties +of workfare and fast-tracking automation with all of the +resulting political disruption. While some voters might +have been attracted by the implicit promise that whiteness +would count for something again, what comes next might +be shocking and painful for us all. +Without wishing to be over-dramatic (and in the full +awareness that the left frames every defeat as an opening +for fascism), the odd standoff between the new government and ‘business interests’ reveals something new + + 182 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +at play. On the one hand, the expulsion of dissent from +cabinet also enabled the inclusion of another well-connected member of the transnational billionaire class +(Rishi Sunak, unexpected and unlikely heart-throb of +middle England). On the other, British business is being +ordered to withdraw from practices established through a +relative ease in hiring migrant workers and an expectation +of relative ease when trading across borders. The changing +set of class alliances, brokered by a state machinery willing +to abandon recent practices of elite alliance-building, is +something to which we must be alert. In 2019 the Home +Office announced that it was moving forward with the +government’s promise to introduce ‘a points-based immigration system’, dropping the previously oft-repeated +rhetorical descriptor, ‘Australian-style’. In vox pop Twitter +videos, Priti Patel, surrounded by scientists in white coats, +repeated the mantra that Britain is ‘taking back control of +its immigration system’. What this means in reality is far +from what the Australian system actually entails. The UK’s +proposals make for a far more restrictive immigration +system which significantly limits permanent settlement +prospects for skilled and qualified migrants. Those who +come must fulfil the English-speaking requirement, and +the proposals make no allowance for visas for ‘low-skilled’ +migrants. The government’s rationale is that +UK businesses will need to adapt and adjust to the end +of free movement, and we will not seek to recreate the +outcomes from free movement within the points-based +system. As such, it is important that employers move +away from a reliance on the UK’s immigration system + + COVID-19: A REAL CRISIS + +◆ + +183 + +as an alternative to investment in staff retention, productivity, and wider investment in technology and +automation.4 +Essentially this is a reiteration of the British jobs for +British workers slogan, but one which envisions British +workers properly as being machines. Meanwhile, there is +some allowance made for ‘seasonal workers’, who will be +able to come to perform particular agricultural tasks for a +maximum period of six months, ensuring that settlement +is not an option for so-called low/unskilled migrants. The +‘seasonal workers pilot’ increased the number of seasonal +workers the agricultural sector is permitted to employ +from outside the EU from 2,500 to 10,000 in time for the +2020 harvest. This scheme is described as a response ‘to +the specific temporary requirements’ of the sector. The +government is taking its cue from the right-wing, nationalist political moment, stating in its press release that it has +‘listened to the clear message from the 2016 referendum +and the 2019 general election and will end the reliance on +cheap, low-skilled labour coming into the country’. It is +clear that the government considers itself to be delivering +on Brexit’s promise to ‘take back control’. It proclaims it is +‘ending free movement, taking back control of our borders’. +It is well aware that its new immigration policies will create +a gap in terms of labour market needs, stating that: ‘It is +estimated 70% of the existing EU workforce would not +meet the requirements of the skilled worker route, which +will help to bring overall numbers down in future.’5 +How quickly the tables have turned, then, as Britain +struggles to come to terms with the woeful unprepared- + + 184 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +ness of its health service in the midst of a global pandemic. +The NHS in particular is ill-equipped and unprepared for +coping in a pandemic after more than a decade of underfunding and privatisation. During lockdown, migrant +NHS staff whose visas were about to expire were told that +they would be automatically renewed so that they could +focus on fighting Covid-19. Having faced daily abuse +from patients, asking if they can see a white doctor – and +harangued by a media unquestioningly rehearsing the line +that there are too many migrants in Britain, taking jobs +not for them, not paying taxes and draining the welfare +state – NHS staff are now being told they are needed. +They were applauded weekly by the public, as though they +were soldiers marching into war. ‘Key-worker’ migrants, +working in the NHS, in transport, as refuse collectors, +were told they were needed more than ever and must put +themselves and their families at risk to save a people who +so recently elected a government on the promise that it +would rid the country of people like them. +After the War on Terror, the 2008 financial crash +and Brexit, the Covid-19 crisis appears to be the fourth +horseman heralding a dramatic redeployment of state +violence in the twenty-first century to redraw the contours +of British society. Johnson announced a ‘New Deal’, +drawing on the language of American social reform, to +convince his new supporters in the former Labour heartlands of his commitment to investing in the ‘left behind’ +areas. Of course, Johnson will offer some rewards to those +who catapulted him to electoral victory in December +2019. However, the cabal of transnational capitalists associated with the Johnson and Cummings project – both + + COVID-19: A REAL CRISIS + +◆ + +185 + +those within government, such as Somerset Capital Management partner, Jacob Rees-Mogg, or those outside of +government, like James Dyson – will act as a counterbalance to even the most limited form of nationalist social +welfare. The ultimate aim of the Johnson government +until the next election is to use this moment to open up +new opportunities for British capital, both at home and +overseas, whilst also depriving cultural institutions that +have been set up as ‘enemies of the people’ – the BBC, universities, artistic institutions, an independent judiciary +– of the ability to challenge the narrative set by the state. + + CHAPTE R F O URTE E N + +Shared Grief, +Hope and Resistance + +We began this book by observing that Britain is not a happy +place, not least for those of us committed to challenging racism. However, throughout the process of writing +the book, events plunged us into new depths of despair. +For those who had campaigned for the Labour Party in +the 2019 election – including us – the days following the +decisive defeat were marked by painful, thwarted and +largely unsuccessful attempts to grieve the lost opportunity. Even before the votes were counted, think-pieces +amassed trying to explain why the mythic ‘Red Wall’ had +crumbled, and each factor (Corbyn, anti-Semitism, the +media, Brexit, deindustrialisation) was seized upon and +discarded in turn. Solutions were offered (community +organising, protest, Keir Starmer), in an attempt to stave +off the depression. These proclamations, refutations and +solutions were marked by a kind of desperation; the turn +to authoritarianism was undeniable, irresistible. Though +the Tories had fought the election on a manifesto so thin +and sloganeering that it was difficult to determine the +precise outlines of the Cummings–Johnson agenda, it was +clear that it would be contoured by an intensified nativist +racism. And then 2020 hit, with a global pandemic that +only sharpened the dividing line between those who get to + + SHARED GRIEF, HOPE AND RESISTANCE + +◆ + +187 + +live and those who are left to die. And yet, even as we tried +to close out this book with some final words on Covid-19, +the country was rocked by the largest anti-racist street +mobilisation in British history following the brutal police +murder of George Floyd in Minneapolis. How to make +sense of it all, again? +Our sense is that while the apocalypse looms globally, +the end-times take on a particular flavour in the UK. +The core argument framing this book is that we cannot +describe this moment in Britain solely in terms of the rise +of something, of nativist authoritarianism perhaps, but +must also pay attention to the overbearing sense of decline +– the decline of Britain’s greatness, the end of empire. This +acute awareness of being at the end of one thing, and the +beginning of something else, whose form is unstable and +unclear, is a condition that inspires both hope and dread. +In the few months since lockdown, we have watched +with horror as fascists effectively mobilised in ‘defence’ +of everything – from Brexit, to Tommy Robinson, to the +statue of Winston Churchill. But the lows of witnessing +Nazi salutes in Parliament Square were matched by the +highs of watching a multi-racial crowd pull down a statue +of the slave trader Edward Colston, before throwing him +into the Bristol harbour where his ships used to dock. +The cacophonous moment we are in suggests multiple, +contingent openings through which the languages and +grammars of a new world might emerge. Looking at the +form and reception of the UK Black Lives Matter (BLM) +movement in 2020, it is clear that something significant +has shifted since the first iteration of BLM four years +ago. As in 2016, the protests against racist state violence + + 188 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +emerged hand in hand with demands for the toppling +of statues of colonisers and slave traders (in 2016, it was +Rhodes Must Fall). Activists, again, made connections +between histories of colonial violence and contemporary +forms of state racism. But the scale and context of the 2020 +movement has revealed new outcomes and opportunities. +Protestors in 2016 were denounced as fringe, far too +radical to be entertained. The removal of statues was +rejected outright – with Oxford chancellor and former +colonial governor of Hong Kong Chris Patten calling +on protesting students to ‘think about being educated +elsewhere’, proposing China as a potential destination.1 +By 2020, institutions from the Metropolitan Police to the +Conservative Party clamoured to express sympathy for +the movement – especially while it still remained largely +a conversation about the US. The hundreds of thousands +who took to the streets condemning systemic, institutional racism shook the British establishment. Suddenly, +the removal of statues appeared an easy compromise, in +the face of the largest anti-racist protest movement in +British history. Removals of statues which uncritically +commemorate colonialism from museums, universities +and town squares proliferated in 2020. Concurrently, such +a concession has enabled the more radical demands of +BLM, such as defunding the police, to enter mainstream +political debate. +Before Covid, we had already observed the resurgence +of a more expansive street politics, more multiple, more +promiscuous, something beyond the usual deference and +good manners of British political life. This re-awakening +of the street is, in part, what powered the Corbyn moment; + + SHARED GRIEF, HOPE AND RESISTANCE + +◆ + +189 + +the coming together of an assorted multitude, spanning +street and community organisers, new or reinvigorated +party members, Momentum, trade unionists and all sorts +of people who didn’t really believe in a parliamentary road +to socialism but could not pass on the possibility this particular Labour leadership might open. All of this chimed +with the re-emergence of a street politics that seemed +to confirm a general understanding of politics moving +beyond formal institutional practices and out into the +spaces of everyday life. +Even before the Corbyn moment, the twenty-first +century was already a time of renewed street politics, +including in Britain. While the heady hopes of Occupy or +of the revolutions of the squares remained distant for most +of the country, the habit of protest has extended. Now, +Britain too has an established culture of street protest, +perhaps characterised by dressing up, face-painting and +twee and/or scatological placards. The energies unleashed +in the protests against the 2003 invasion of Iraq laid a +foundation here. The coming together of very diverse +segments of the population, including notably the whiter +middle classes with Muslim and migrant working-class +communities, combined with memorable home-made +protest accessories, signalled an opening to previously +rare forms of political communication and conversation. +Fast forward to Remain – a movement unable to shake +its middle-class cultural references, despite a wider base +among supporters. Once again, tweeness stands in for a +particular political sensibility – respectable outrage, performance of a shared consciousness; jokes and costumes +abounded. The reported good humour of Remain events + + 190 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +became part of the political message, insinuating that +Leavers were angry, violent, lacking in such genteel +good manners. Some anti-racists whispered quietly their +uncomfortable suspicion that Remainers had never had +their sense of entitlement questioned before. Worse still, +it was difficult to avoid the more cosmopolitan nationalist undertones of the EU flag-waving. In its own way, this +performance subtly (and not so subtly) excluded racialised Others seen as not belonging within the borders of +the European project. But still, at least people were out on +the street. +When Extinction Rebellion came on the scene, the +critique of hidden and not-so-hidden racism and nationalism was less whispered. XR presented a particularly +and peculiarly British incarnation of the authority-loving +rebel. Despite the rhetoric of rebellion, the overly friendly +relationship with the police revealed the imagined membership of such actions. Groups involved in legal observing +at protests and support for those suffering police violence +warned against the XR approach, with its failure to understand the persistence of state violence and police racism. +Yet, in the context of many years of wilful state neglect and +a takeover of formal political spaces by the performance of +buffoonery, we might understand the plaintive tweeness +of both Remain and Extinction Rebellion as a kind of call +for an effective state patriarch. +Despite the costume of protest, often quite literally the +most costumed of protests, these are movements that long +for authority to take control and to make things work again. +Remainers were openly nostalgic for a time they characterised as a European idyll of tolerance, free movement + + SHARED GRIEF, HOPE AND RESISTANCE + +◆ + +191 + +and excellent cheese and wine, handily skipping over the +violences of Fortress Europe and the archipelago of camps +and detention centres making up the other landscape +underlying ‘free movement’. If only we could return to a +grown-up politics where a sensible authority figure could +put their foot down, overturn the silly tantrum of the referendum vote to leave the European Union, and make +things go back to normal. XR, despite a more astute reading +of the enormity of the climate crisis, also revealed a deep +love of authority, garlanding the police force in the hope +that a renewed authoritarianism could be repurposed to +save a humanity who really don’t know what is good for +them or for the planet. This critique is not an attempt to +write off the movement altogether, and certainly not the +many thousands of people who took to the streets in both +XR and anti-Brexit protests. We recognise that the specific +motivations and prescriptions of participants in these +mass protests are not homogeneous. +That said, we think the whole idea of mass protest to +force governments to take action on climate crisis often +represents a form of longing for an effective and more +authoritarian state. For some of the younger climate protesters on the other hand – especially the school strikers +– there was no longing for the caring state that came before +the neglectful one, and no cuddly deference to the police. +This generational shift is also racially contoured, and it +should therefore be unsurprising that these young activists +held placards that read ‘Fuck the Home Office’, intuitively +connecting climate breakdown to global migration flows +and the dehumanisation of people moving across and into +Europe. This was in stark contrast to XR’s comms strategy, + + 192 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +which emphasised the ‘destruction of all we hold dear’ +precisely by invoking our nation, our people, our ecosystems and our future generations to come. XR deferred +to the nation, even if strategically, in ways that the +school strikers found uninspiring and irrelevant. Related +questions of generational change and difference were also +manifest in the BLM mobilisations. +Again, it is worth remarking on the sheer scale of the +BLM mobilisation in May and June. Following the police +murder of George Floyd, protests against police brutality +and anti-black racism spread across the globe. In Britain, +we witnessed several weeks of repeated protests, sometimes every day, and not only in multicultural cities but in +towns and villages with seemingly no memory of anti-racist street mobilisation. Indeed, the protests were recurrent +and country-wide. It is particularly significant that the +issues Corbyn’s Labour conceded on most – the case +against police, prisons and violent borders – became the +very issues around which one of the most geographically +and racially diverse street mobilisations in generations +galvanised. Indeed, from 2017–19, Corbynism moved +from its more grassroots and explicitly anti-racist political +positions towards its own particular brand of law-andorder posturing. Apparently as part of its anti-austerity +programme, Labour promised to invest in border guards, +prisons and police, offering citizens the personal and +national security that Tory cutbacks failed to deliver. The +failure of this manoeuvre undoubtedly contributed to the +shift from the ballot box back to the street as the focus of +collective anti-racist energy. The youthfulness of the protestors was especially notable on the streets, in London at + + SHARED GRIEF, HOPE AND RESISTANCE + +◆ + +193 + +least (which is not unrelated to the dangers of Covid-19 +infection for older people). The people organising the +protests were also young, often engaging in radical politics +for the first time, learning as they went. +The protests in smaller towns, sometimes in very white +places, were especially interesting, and reflect not only +a sense of disgust at violent police murder, but a wider +rejection of the Johnson–Cummings project, a rejection +of the ways in which people are being interpellated as +white natives by the authoritarian government. In other +words, it was not only about the video of George Floyd +– although we should not underestimate the power of +repeatedly watching and sharing the footage of a person +being brutally murdered – it was also a wider chorus of +people saying: if this is the project of whiteness, we do not +want it, not in our names, we want other cultural coordinates, not this absurd closure to the world, not this inflated +sense of national significance and superiority. It matters, +then, that the protests emerge as the far-right consolidates global power. People on the streets were screaming +their fury at Donald Trump, Boris Johnson and Brexit. +Put simply, far-right nationalism has bolstered people’s +energies for anti-racist solidarity. But it is also hard to +imagine these protests emerging in the same way without +the pandemic and the lockdown. +With Covid-19 and lockdown, everything was blown +open. People were spat out of their normal, routine, +regulated ways of being, and suddenly lots of things were +up for grabs. We were told to stay at home, millions of +people were paid not to go to work, schools were closed, +cities went quiet and we grew bored, frustrated, fearful + + 194 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +and appreciative. Despite the suffering, there was a sense +of renewed possibility. Business as usual went on pause +and it became clear that things could be radically remade, +in terms of how or if we worked, how we related to each +other, how we spent time and money. We discovered that +our jobs are fake or bullshit, and that our employers and +governments put profit before our welfare. We came to +appreciate that we were really living through history, and +there was a new world being reborn. +In the UK (and in the US), the pandemic revealed the +neglect and withdrawal of the state in all other functions +but the punitive. The state could not distribute basic masks +for nurses, but retained an incredibly well-resourced, militarised, police force. They now patrolled the parks, asking +people to sit further from one another, or to keep moving, +or to go home, sometimes fining people, especially black +people, for breaking the new Covid-19 rules. Meanwhile, +the extent to which employers were willing to exploit +and disregard the safety of workers became more clearly +exposed. Covid confirmed that we are living in a failed state +(or what Pankaj Mishra usefully termed a ‘flailing state’),2 +and the bobbies on the beat seemed to offer scant protection from a deadly virus. In this context, the widespread +protests against police racism were about several things: a +reflection of various forms of frustration combined with a +new sense of opened possibility; a rejection of the Johnson +government and its nativist appeals; and a feeling for some +that when society is remade after Covid-19, these are the +kinds of political projects we want to align ourselves with. +That said, there are more guarded and cautious ways to +interpret the ubiquity of support for the BLM cause. We + + SHARED GRIEF, HOPE AND RESISTANCE + +◆ + +195 + +shared our collective annoyance at overbearing displays +of white guilt and self-flagellation, along with empty +celebrity and corporate promises to ‘take responsibility’. As white individuals asked, often very publicly: how +can I abdicate from my privilege? The answer was often, +by ‘doing work on yourself ’, or, perhaps more usefully, +by shedding money. This was a kind of (neo)liberal reparation. In this version, structural racism is hardly the +product of state power or capitalist exploitation, but a collective lack of privilege-checking on the part of a white +majority. Moreover, the immediacy of George Floyd’s +death in the UK clearly reflects the dominance of events +and frames from the US. Police racism in the US is often +afforded more press attention, and reported on more critically than similar instances in the UK. Consequently, this +can further embolden arguments which acknowledge the +need for radical change in America, but reduce racism to +individual bias in ‘far less racist’ Britain. Yet at many of +the protests, people held posters and chanted the names +of some of the many people who have been killed by the +police, or in state custody, in the UK – Mark Duggan, Joy +Gardner, Sean Rigg, Kingsley Burrell, Sarah Reed – and +it was clear that a certain kind of historical and political +education was happening as the mobilisations developed +and endured. +The United Families and Friends Campaign (UFFC), a +coalition of families from across the country campaigning for justice for loved ones killed in state custody, was +an important presence at the BLM protests, and a key +site of political education. UFFC, which holds a protest +march on the last Saturday of October every year, is not + + 196 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +a campaign that anyone chooses to join, but one that +families and friends are forced to join when their loved +ones are killed at the hands of the state. As a result, UFFC +is not a campaign made up solely of black people, because +those who are killed by state agents are not divided neatly +along racial lines, even as black people are disproportionately impacted. Neither state violence nor anti-racist +organising are neatly configured along racial lines, and in +Britain our families – the ones we choose and those we +do not – are often not set up that way. There are always +other people in the room. And so any sense of static racial +hierarchies, with those always at the bottom and those +always at the top, comes into conflict with what happens +on the ground. UFFC reflects this. It remains a campaign +for which the most visible leadership and spokespeople +are black women, but it is still necessarily a multi-ethnic +group. Importantly, radical black politics is a vital part of +the campaign, defined by a version of anti-racism which +draws links between colonialism, class struggle and police +racism. We make this point because during the BLM mobilisation, and attendant debates online, we witnessed the +co-articulation of some very radical and some very essentialist ideas. Arguments that separated racism from class +struggle were most commonly conveyed through the idea +that white people should be individual ‘allies’. This call for +individual self-reflection and change, though important, +came to replace a tradition of collective struggles (in solidarity) with people of colour. UFFC is one example of how +resistance to state violence exceeds neat divisions of fixed +racial categories or racialised experiences. This complicates the individualising categories of victim and ally by + + SHARED GRIEF, HOPE AND RESISTANCE + +◆ + +197 + +demonstrating how struggles for collective liberation are +shared and the possibility of solidarity is explored (and +perhaps tentatively realised) not through abstract debate +but through collective struggle. +The connections made between the Grenfell campaign +and BLM were especially heartening in this regard. Until +now it has been difficult for the Grenfell Tower victims’ +families to politically organise around questions of racism +as a causal factor in the fire. This is partly due to their +racialisation as Muslim and/or migrants, unable to articulate their subjection to racism in the context of the +War on Terror and a hostile environment that excludes +migrants from housing and social rights. Indeed, the +Grenfell Tower inquiry excluded the question of racism +from its terms of investigation. But in the context of the +BLM uprisings, Grenfell survivors responded by making +the crucial connection between the fire and racist police +killings, asserting that their loved ones couldn’t breathe +either. Hisam Choucair, who lost six family members in +the fire, drew parallels between the killing of George Floyd +and the fire. He said, ‘When my sister rang the fire brigade +she said, “We cannot breathe.” This is a similar phrase +used in America at the moment.’3 On Monday, 6 July 2020, +the words ‘We can’t breathe’ were projected onto Grenfell +Tower. This powerful action pronounced that the Grenfell +disaster was also an effect of racist state violence. Leslie +Thomas QC, who is representing a group of bereaved +families at the inquiry, stated: +The Grenfell fire did not happen in a vacuum … A +majority of the Grenfell residents who died were people + + 198 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +of colour. Grenfell is inextricably linked with race. It is +the elephant in the room. This disaster happened in a +pocket of one of the smallest yet richest boroughs in +London. Yet the community affected was predominantly working class. That is the stark reality that cannot +be ignored.4 +This development marks a powerful and necessary +embrace of a coalitional anti-racist politics and an acknowledgement of the limitations and depoliticising +effect of formal channels such as that of the inquiry. It is +through interventions like those made by Grenfell United and UFFC that the connections between anti-racism +and class struggle are forged, articulated and emboldened. +Despite the essentialising tendencies of some of its supporters, then, the BLM protests have been the largest +anti-racist street mobilisation against state violence we +have seen, ever, with tens of thousands of mostly young +people out in the streets, collectively registering their rage, +grief and determination to build another world. Amid +these mobilisations, lively conversations on (prison and +police) abolition offered an exciting frame through which +to forge radical new multi-racial constituencies. Importantly for us, theories and principles emerging out of +prison abolition avoid the traps we have delineated in this +book. Abolition centres state violence, and focuses on how +punitive, surveilling and carceral state practices make and +remake racial division and hierarchy. For the new generation of abolitionists, racism is never reduced to the +interpersonal. There is a rejection of both the authoritarian state practices and the political subjectivities we have + + SHARED GRIEF, HOPE AND RESISTANCE + +◆ + +199 + +charted in this book – a rejection of punishment and retribution – and instead a gesturing towards a politics of care, +openness to the Other, and love. These radical critiques +of state racism also orient themselves to the future, and +therefore snub any nostalgia for the homey nation that +orients so many on the ‘white left’. Central to conversations about abolition is also a gendered analysis of the +state, and a commitment to supporting survivors of sexual +and gender-based violence. If this book has looked at +neglect and authoritarianism – as well as the subjectivisation of people as longing for authority, racist closure, +the past and daddy – then the abolition frame rejects this +offering, and moves us towards that socialist anti-racist +future that we stubbornly keep dreaming up, imagining +and sometimes tasting. +That abolition politics is now speakable in Britain +suggests something other than the familiar longing for +post-war welfarism; don’t let us mourn for a time before +the neglectful state, and don’t promise you’ll send a good +cop, instead let us clear out the space for something new and +different. If we are to survive these particular end-times, +and build liveable futures on a warming planet, we cannot +stay oriented to that less bad past. The abolition frame is +deceptively simple perhaps because it remains so oriented +by something like love; abolish prisons, abolish police, +abolish capitalism, but also let us learn to see and care +about one another here and now. Empire’s endgame, on +the other hand, offers smaller and smaller constituencies +less and less. The fear and fantasises of disaster nationalism demonstrate that capitalism really seems not to be +working for many of us. As crises multiply, the weaknesses, + + 200 + +◆ + +EMPIRE’S ENDGAME + +contradictions and empty promises are further exposed, +and opportunities for radical new visions emerge. It is +impossible to predict the course of this new set of abolitionist energies. The only certainty is that every end is +also a beginning. Britain’s decline is an invitation to build +futures in which more of us, all of us, can breathe. + + INTRODUCTION + +THE RISE AND FALL OF TOMORROW + +The child, the future of nations, must be tended to with all the elements necessary +to the production of civilization, progress and social perfection. +—Ramón Rosa, Primer Congreso Pedagógico Centro Americano 1893 + +The military raped them [women]. It didn’t even respect the right to live of those +not yet born. The Army [soldiers] grabbed pregnant women, they cut them, they +opened their stomachs, they took out their babies. They also murdered the newly +born, they took babies from their mothers’ breasts and one-­year-­olds and threw +them into the river and they drowned. One of the soldiers who threw a child into +the river called out, “Adiós, niño.” +—Massacre at Río Pixcayá, Aldea Estancia de la Virgen, San Martín Jilotepeque, +March 18, 1982, Caso Ilustrativo numero 50, Memoria del Silencio + +When the woman entered the small apartment [in Guatemala City’s Zone 3] that +she shared with her nephew [a member of the gang Mara Salvatrucha], she saw a +blurred rush of movement and heard her nephew yell, “Get out of here!” She stood +for an instant, shocked to realize that her nephew and several boys hovered over +two girls whom they had tightly tied up. The woman turned and ran for help. A few +hours later, the dead bodies of these two girls, marked by rape, were found in the +street a few blocks away. +—Personal communication, Guatemala City, November 2003 + +I + +n the 1800s and most of the 1900s, first the Guatemalan Liberal Party and +later reformists and revolutionaries envisioned “La Juventud” (Youth) to be +in the vanguard of a modernity that would arise from within a city conceived +as a beacon in a rural and savage wilderness.1 Following the defeat of the +popular and revolutionary organizations and years of neoliberal policies, by + + 2000 Guatemala City was among the poorest and most dangerous cities on +the continent, and La Juventud had gone down the drain with it.2 Catapulted +from the category of “heroic” into that of “criminal,” urban youth replaced +los subversivos as the enemies of society. For two hundred years a symbol of +beautiful tomorrows, La Juventud has been turned upside down to signify +the radically dangerous present, chaos and death, an obstacle to the future +instead of its herald. +The experiences of urban youth at the outset of the twenty-­first century +are haunted by the last century’s catastrophic failure to win the struggle that +shaped it: the fight for a different Guatemala, one with a dignified life for +all, one beyond mere survival.3 The terrifying boys and the murdered girls in +the third epigraph live and die within the legacy of devastation shown in the +second one. The ideological use of the child in the first represents the salvation fantasy of liberalism: the continual displacement of the inequalities of +capitalism to a more just future that has never arrived and that now seems +to have vanished from the horizon. Today the big question for many youth is +how to cross borders to find work. +When I first arrived in Guatemala in 1978, the now-infamous gangs +called Maras had no discursive or literal presence. Instead, the vitality of the +popular movement permeated everywhere I went, from aldeas in Huehuetenango to Guatemala City. The year before, over 100,000 Guatemala City residents had turned out to greet 80 Maya Mam miners who had walked from +the Cuchumatanes Mountains to the capital to publicize their struggle to +win a union in a tungsten mine, and all along the way, down the 370 kilometers of the winding Pan-­American Highway, villagers and townspeople +had prepared food, fiestas, and sleeping space for them. In 1978, shantytown dwellers, bus drivers, factory and state workers, students, and almost +everyone else in Guatemala City brought it to a halt to raise wages and stop +an increase in bus fares. In mid-­1979 the call for a democratic and revolutionary Guatemala was pervasive, and many people sat by their radios listening to the Sandinistas take Managua. In early 1980, the entire workforce of +the plantations and mills of the Southern Coast struck, arming themselves +with machetes and with the esprit of their slogan “Cabeza Clara, Corazón +Solidario, Puño en Alto” (Clear Head, Strong Heart, Fist Raised). It did not +seem unrealistic to think revolution was on the horizon. Not only did tens of +thousands join the revolutionary fronts in the late 1970s and early 1980s, in +some areas of Guatemala these new recruits pushed the guerrilla leadership +to take stronger military initiatives. +Urban youth have a long history within this landscape of social protest. +Even though they were a numerical minority in the midst of their peers, the +2 + +Introduction + + primary, secondary, and university students who joined political movements +were a dominant presence in the public school system from the 1950s (if +not earlier) until the early 1980s. They were among the first to openly challenge the post-­1954 military regimes, when a handful of secondary students +from the Escuela Normal and the Instituto Rafael Aqueche organized the +dynamic and militant Frente Unido del Estudiantado Guatemalteco Organi­ +zado (United Front of Guatemalan Students, fuego) in 1958 and configured a new generation of radical militants, even before the Cuban Revolution.4 Thousands of city students became activists over the coming decades. +Urban students joined rail and other workers in April–May 1962, Guatemala +City’s “May 1968,” six years early. They enthusiastically—even euphorically—­ +supported peasant and worker groups throughout the 1960s and 1970s. They +went into the countryside to learn from the rural poor; they secretly joined +the guerrilla groups; and, despite increased disappearances of students, +they marched against the state in Guatemala City in the tens of thousands +after the Panzós Massacre in 1978. On May 1, 1980, they marched in greater +numbers, this time with their faces covered, under banners reading “For a +Revolutionary and Democratic Guatemala,” and “Nicaragua Today, Guatemala Tomorrow,” in the last truly massive demonstration of the century. +The uproar about the Maras came on the heels of the military’s breakneck +defeat of that possible future of popular revolution that was achieved by +the scorched-­earth genocidal campaigns of the early 1980s. The Maras made +their first public appearance in 1985, when they joined students from the +Instituto Rafael Aqueche to protest a bus fare increase. The subsequent massive publicity generated by the media, politicians, and the National Police +about the presumed dangers of these new gangs contrasted sharply with +the absence of news about the army campaigns in the countryside. This new +discourse concerning unruly urban youth not only furthered the silence surrounding state violence in the 1980s, it put into motion an astonishing reversal of truth, a lie that was part of the war: youngsters were the source of +violence and other dangers from which the state would protect its good citizens in order to create a new social reality. A study done in these same years, +however, refuted the propaganda that the Maras were a threat: it showed +that the mareros offered clues, but not danger, to the world around them. +Although anxious about life, they celebrated it, and they concerned themselves with the communities that surrounded them. Their “us” included the +poor, and the burgueses and the “asshole wealthy” constituted their “them.”5 +But the Maras changed. By the time of the 1996 Peace Accords the gangs +had become morbid, and that has only increased with time. Worlds unto +themselves, the gangs have come to form a subjective “us,” and everyone +The Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +3 + + else, including the poor, constitutes “them.” Too many gang members in +Guatemala City have become the victimizers that they were once falsely accused of being (see figure intro.1). Although without a doubt still accused of +far more crimes than they commit, as the Mexican scholar Rossana Reguillo +Cruz points out, the Maras also “unfortunately actively participate in the +propagation of their own legend.”6 Invented and real, they huddle together +around violent identities and practices that make them more than “a series +of photos and video clips” to turn the public toward mano dura (iron fist) +politics.7 Within them has settled, to quote the Guatemalan epidemiologist +Dr. José García Noval, “a violence that . . . concretizes itself in actions of extreme cruelty.”8 +Cut Out of History +The youth in Maras have become increasingly involved not only in violence, a +term that describes many modalities, but in violent deaths. I argue that their +turn from life toward death is related to larger transformations that have +taken place in a short period of time in Guatemala. I suggest that the way the +gangs changed, and not just how they are in a frozen snapshot in time, needs +to be understood within a historical context of several overlapping dynamics. One is the defeat of a decades-­old urban subculture in working-­class +barrios that emanated from the popular movements of 1954–80. Another +is the inextricably related means and effects of that defeat, which include a +military victory through genocidal war, neoliberal policies that have diminished social services for the urban poor, unemployment in a city where employment refers to a physically exhausting job at not even survival wages, and +a legal system that is currently in complete collapse. In addition, and most +emphasized by journalists and many researchers, in the mid-­1990s members of two gangs from Los Angeles, Mara-­18 (m-­18) and Mara Salvatrucha +(ms-­13), arrived, and they had ties to the sale of drugs. The growth of the +drug trade, and of drug use in urban neighborhoods, has been rapid. By +one estimate, by 2000 almost 80 percent of the cocaine shipped from South +America to the United States flowed through Guatemala. The appearance of +skilled entrepreneurs who use violence as a marketing strategy in a country in permanent economic crisis is an element in the history of the gangs. +One thing facilitates another: a weak economy and an inoperative legal system allow global organized crime to flourish and to incorporate mareros as +cheap labor within a system of networks that employs down-­and-­out youth +everywhere in the world, and keeps them that way by making sure they have +little cash. +4 + +Introduction + + FIGURE INTRO.1 Mareros in El Hoyón Prison, Escuintla, 2005. However +real, this photograph of threatening and tattooed mareros exemplifies +the clichéd image that has been used with success everywhere in Guatemala to incite fear, to garner support for politicians from the extreme +Right, and to justify increased military ­involvement in civilian life. +Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + I underline historical specificity and politics to argue that in many ways +these young people’s coexistence with violent death, including with their +own murders, is intimately related to what can be framed as the Guatemalan +state’s successful use of spectacular and reverberating necropolitics.9 Starting roughly in 1980 and into the 1990s, sovereignty rested on the absolute +negation of life in order to put an end to over fifty years of unfinished history +in which radical political movements had polarized Guatemala in a battle +for its destiny. The cohabitation with death that has come to inform Maras +is tied to the success of a violence that was, in the words of the Guatemalan writer Juan Carlos Mazariegos, “an excess of reality.”10 It is the product +of what this military victory and its consequences have spawned in subjectivities and everyday life: a Guatemala wherein practices and mentalities of +solidarity, trust, and mutual concern have been ripped apart to strain and +erode, in the words of the late Jesuit psychologist Ignacio Martín-­Baró, assassinated by the Salvadoran Army in 1989, the “collective capacity to work +and love.”11 +An extreme and a minority among youth in Guatemala City, a small painful intrusion that hurts and impairs, the splinter in the eye that is the “best +magnifying glass,” the apolitical Maras have crystallized necropolitics into +what I call necroliving.12 In the city, the postwar mareros control life through +their power to take it away. For many youth in the Maras, threatening to kill +and killing have become practices about the scarce daily options for earning +a living, and about maintaining order, teaching lessons, and achieving identity and respect, especially for young men for whom the values tied to other +male identities—such as the gallant breadwinner—and the possibilities of +achieving alternate masculinities have diminished. This does not mean that +every marero kills. Rather, I am suggesting that within the mareros’ social +imaginary, in Charles Taylor’s sense of that “common understanding which +makes possible common practices,” violent death controls the management of life, short as that may be.13 The average marero is murdered by the +time he or she is twenty-­two. Perhaps even worse: one’s own early demise is +part of the marero imaginary, and the average gang member expects to die by +that age.14 +Hardly any members of the violent Maras of the 1990s and onward directly experienced war, although a few did or thought they did. Most were +born in the 1980s or later, and they came of age in a Guatemala City largely +remade and reassembled by violence. They remember the stories of cadavers +and not of the struggles for social justice. In her commentary on the juvenile +mareros in a reform center who danced after tearing out the heart and other +internal organs of a teacher named Jorge Emilio Winter Viaurre on March 3, +6 + +Introduction + + 2009, a Guatemalan journalist wrote that Guatemalan children live in “a society in which problems are generally resolved by death.”15 Immersed in the +legacy of political sovereignty through the manufacture of horrific deaths +and surrounded by violent deaths, by murdering or by imagining death in +their magical religious rites, gang members struggle to control death as well +as life. Necroliving deracinates death. The Guatemalan psychiatrist Rodolfo +Kepfer points out that mareros’ preoccupation with death is part of a prevalent thanatophobia. He thinks, “In Guatemala death is perceived as a traumatic event that depends on others, it is not seen as a natural part of life. +This creates the phobia that death is everywhere, lurking in other people and +‘I too’ [referring to youth] can arrest it with violence.”16 Murder becomes +“natural death,” the normal way to die. Making the living dead starts to seem +to be what humans do to one another, by their very nature. This materializes +what the Chilean psychologist Elizabeth Lira calls the “devaluation of life,” +hatred or the dehumanization of self and others, that has its grand finale in +the morgue.17 +A Planet of Gangs +Guatemala City’s Maras are not the only gangs or the only very violent ones +currently in cities on our “planet of slums,” and the literature devoted to +them is vast.18 A variety of approaches are evident in sociology, psychology, +criminal justice, communications, and several other disciplines, with no +single definition of “gang” emerging. However, some strong common core +arguments are apparent. Most studies of urban gangs in Central America +and the rest of the Americas see them as consequences of an array of “multiple marginalities”—a key phrase in the literature—that includes urban decay and unemployment; social abandonment and domestic abuse; school +absenteeism; and the lack of mobility, community, social recognition, and +identity.19 In addition, many authors emphasize that for males gaining masculine identity can be particularly important aspect of gang life, and they +underscore how lethal “performing male” can be when violence, masculinity, and gaining respect bleed into one another.20 However, neither the +pursuit of masculinity nor multiple marginalities explain change or differences, describe subjectivities, or suggest how cruel or kindly a turn masculinity can take.21 +From those outlaw bands of Robin Hoods and the gangs that fortify urban +political machinery, to the Almighty Latin King/Queen Nation (alkqn), a +gang that developed a male identity based on respect for women, different +gangs have varied worldviews, principles, and social relationships, and they +The Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +7 + + change over time. Within their short lifetime, Guatemala City’s Maras have +gone, as Adiós Niño discusses, from protecting neighbors to abusing them. +All that is encompassed by history—whether unemployment, racism, military recruitment, or the criminalization of immigration—counts. This point +is elucidated in many studies, such as those by José Miguel Cruz about Maras +in El Salvador, and the works of David Brotherton and Luis Barrios on the +alkqn, of Tom Hayden on gangs in Los Angeles, and of John Hagedorn, +whose book about global gangs makes arguments similar to mine about +the connections between gangs, the fall of social movements, and the rise +of neoliberal polices.22 The Mexican writer Marco Lara Klahr wryly underscores that gangs evolve out of contemporary histories in his book Hoy te +toca la muerte: El imperio de las Maras visto desde dentro, when he quotes the distinguished Honduran dramatist Tito Estrada: “Look, after all is said and done, +what we should ask about the Maras is what happened to the Latin American +working class.”23 +Adiós Niño focuses on the connections among transformations in the +Maras, Guatemala, and Guatemala City. It is situated within an emergent literature about youth gangs in Honduras, Guatemala, El Salvador, and Nicaragua, where the misleadingly dubbed “Central American gangs” exist.24 +Generally these studies are based on respect for what gang members say, +as well as on surveys and official data, and on considerations of the tattoos, language, music, graffiti, and clothes that distinguish them. No one +doubts that graffiti stake a gang’s urban space or that clothes mark a collective ­identity. Most writers approach gangs as emotional communities, and +try, to quote Rossana Reguillo Cruz, to “develop a vision that doesn’t lose +youth as subject but instead understands their multiple ‘roles’ and social +interactions.”25 +Adiós Niño addresses several questions that hover over this growing literature. One concerns the notion that the gangs and their violence are apolitical. I argue that this is a misleading conceptualization. While it is descriptively accurate that neither the Maras nor their violence fall within the realm +of what one sociologist defines as political violence, a “politico-­ideological +conflict between authoritarian states and more or less well defined armed +or unarmed opponents,” the Maras have come out of a political crucible, +and politicians have found political uses for them that range from no doubt +paying them to disrupt rallies for rival candidates to using images of them +to garner support for right-­wing candidates.26 The politically generated depoliticization of youth is in itself a historical watershed that has changed +Guatemalan urban politics. That Maras are not “political” is politics. +A tendency to depoliticize the discussion about the gangs is inherent in +8 + +Introduction + + studies that downplay the importance of state violence in favor of an analysis +that invokes a more general barrio violence that has origins in, and is intertwined with, social exclusion.27 This is a second knotty theme within discussions about gangs in the Central American region. Using declared war as +the marker, a deductive argument gets made that because Honduras had no +such war, the wars in El Salvador, Guatemala, and Nicaragua could not have +much explanatory power in relationship to the Maras and, by extension, if +these are “LA gangs,” war has no significance whatsoever because Los Angeles has not been the site of declared war since 1846. Yet Honduras has had +extraordinary state terror, as the Honduran sociologist Leticia Salomón discusses in her work. Official wars are not all that is at stake in terms of histories of political violence. Nicaragua, which had a war, has far less violent +pandillas. The war was different: the 1980s Contra War was not about Nicaraguan state terror against its own population, and the destruction of political +groups in Managua did not take place on the scale of that in Guatemala City. +No doubt many distinctions could be added. In emphasizing the influence +that the means and results of state terrorism have had on the history of the +Maras in Guatemala City, I keep company with the political scientist José +Miguel Cruz, who urges researchers to complicate their analysis of gang life +in San Salvador and go beyond focusing on the “back and forth” between +San Salvador and Los Angeles by giving greater consideration to the impact +El Salvador’s long war has had.28 +The related question in the literature is, simply put, whether or not the +gangs are “LA gangs.” The relationship between Maras in Los Angeles and +those in Central America is a subject that has attracted scholars, particularly +given the interest in global and transnational studies, as well as journalists +and agencies such as Homeland Security. The dynamics of the cross-­border +movements of youth and organizations between Los Angeles and San Salvador, and the effects of these on urban geography that Elana Zilberg and +Juan Carlos Narváez Gutierrez analyze, seem more intense than do those +between Los Angeles and cities in Honduras, Nicaragua, and Guatemala, +where a murder in Pico-­Union at dawn does not spell a killing in Guatemala +City at dusk, to use Narváez Gutiérrez’s example.29 But even in the case of +San Salvador, what does it mean, as José Miguel Cruz asks, that most youth +in San Salvador’s gangs have never been outside of El Salvador? +The topic of the consequences of peoples, institutions, and cultures moving across borders is a vast one. At least since the heyday of the Mexican +Pedro Infante movies and on through Mexican rock ’n’ roll, Pink Floyd, +heavy metal, and so on, Guatemalan youth have felt the effect of “world” +youth cultures. Because of immigration and new forms of communication, +The Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +9 + + they do now at an amazing rate. There is a difference between living in Guatemala City and listening to the Beatles and living in Guatemala City and being +on Facebook with kin, even with their U.S. friends, in Lynn, Massachusetts. +Yet either way, the manner in which youth interpret and use received culture is not determined by that culture, and questions concerning how it is +understood and how it changes remain. Discussions about the global processes acknowledge the fundamental importance of “local actors” and conditions.30 The young man in cholo-­style pants who related to me the ms-­13 +“born in Ramparts” story and used codified hand gestures from LA street +gangs is part of an “imaginary community” whose members may never cross +borders.31 As we talked, we stood in front of his mother’s barely roofed-­over +two-­room home in Tierra Nueva II, a shantytown partly inhabited by war +refugees and their children, and one with a turbulent history of political mobilization and demobilization. He has no work, and he left school because, +as he puts it, it was “a waste of my time.” His gang world in Guatemala City +is as much if not more about the close-­ups of political, economic, cultural, +and social geography as it is about the Los Angeles that he and others evoke. +Although Adiós Niño looks at the Maras at three levels of analysis—the transregional, the national, and the city—it privileges the last two. +To situate the young men and women in these gangs in Guatemala City’s +barrios and in Guatemalan history does not mean that the Maras are not informed by events, cultures, people, and commerce beyond national borders, +as I make clear. Likewise, to argue in favor of the Maras’ historical specificity does not imply that the Guatemalan gangs do not share similarities +with gangs elsewhere in the world where cities have high rates of unemployment, drugs, violent officials, and a population in which almost 50 percent is under twenty-­five years. No doubt for youth everywhere, there exist +versions of the banners on the border between Guatemala and Mexico that +advertise the wages, three meals a day, and “security” offered by Zeta, the +Mexican drug mafia. +Unfortunately Guatemala is not the only country in the world in which +anxious elites try to handle the growing numbers of those excluded from +the labor market through forms of terror, and convert those without steady +work into a central piece of their politics of “citizen security.”32 In addition, +it is hardly the only country where state terror has a home. The manufacture +of slow and horrific deaths by sovereign power is not so uncommon, and +“the state of exception” is less exceptional than suggested by much scholarship about modern political power that has concentrated heavily on political +control through the smooth operations of social engineering. Guatemalan +military and civilian professionals learned terrorism from their counterparts +10 + +Introduction + + from, among other places, Algeria, Argentina, France, Israel, the United +States, and South Africa because, from Europe to Africa and other parts of +the world, the modern condition has included acts of genocide and political control through psychologically and physically crude and sophisticated +methods of inflicting pain. Moreover, ritual mutilations and the savor with +which they have been carried out belong to a few centuries’ worth of modern cross-­cultural, racist, and political atrocities that include the lynching of +African Americans and grotesque massacres of Native Americans enjoyed by +victimizers and onlookers. Whether public or private, state terror has been +a part of a modern global times in every continent, and so have the consequential troubled individual and collective subjectivities. +Especially within the last few decades of the twentieth century and the +first of the twenty-­first, violent urban gangs have multiplied within what +Robert Desjarlais and Arthur Kleinman title “violence and demoralization +in the new world order.” It is not inspiring to younger generations that the +increase of poverty in countries that have immense wealth continues, and +that the world’s greatest material production is of the means to destroy life. +That this is accompanied by the ever-­creative market-­bound manufacture +of complex cultural arrangements consisting of images, sounds, and narratives that display varieties of violent deaths and make clear the adrenal +thrills and existential highs of killing, and sometimes of being killed, in +countless movies and other increasingly intimate forms of media hardly encourages what can be called “respect” for human beings among our world’s +youth or adults. Still, to talk of a “new world order” does not mean that the +world has become one place. +Childhood, Adolescence, and Violence in Guatemala’s Dumpy Modernity +Informed by Philippe Ariès’s much criticized yet indelibly influential book +Centuries of Childhood, the framework often used for studies of the history of +childhood and youth in Europe and the United States would by implication +allot the lives of many Guatemalan children and youth to the categories premodern or traditional or, most arrogantly, “underdeveloped.”33 Instead of +cataloging Guatemala as a “not-­yet” or a developing country, we need to +recognize it as a modern country, and its modernity is just what it is. The +juxtaposition of old and new, the so-­called traditional with the latest now +“modern,” the computers in homes without running water, the huipil-­clad +Maya girl who sells used clothes from the United States (that might have +been originally hecho en Guatemala) in front of a shelter for street children +sponsored by a Catholic center located in New York City; the sickly shoe-­ +The Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +11 + + shine boy with his fashionable sunglasses; the rip-­off fashion jeans; and the +Che T-­shirts that fill the street markets to the fascination of foreigners and +nationals alike—all speak not only of poverty and creativity but also of a historically specific modern condition. +What might appear oppositional has been allied or unified into its own +field of the modern. By the year 2010, this capitalist modernity could not +provide Guatemala City with a safe walk or a regular—clean or dirty—water +supply in its mundanely named Zones 1–8, 11, 12, 17–21, and others not in +the confined wealthy areas, much less develop national wealth and distribute it to an increasingly poor population. More frustrating is the reality that +gains fought for and won at some point in the twentieth century—such as +the right to unionize, social security, land reform, a legal system, a living +wage, the extension of public education and medical care, paved roads, and +adequate bus service—have either been destroyed (unions, a living wage, +land reform), stand in permanent disrepair (roads, bus service, railroads, +public education), are continually falling apart (medical care, social security), or exist in name only (the legal system). As presented in James Ferguson’s Expectations of Modernity: Myths and Meanings of Urban Life on the Zambian +Copperbelt, the resourceful and modern Zambian former copper miner named +George Kabamba, who is holding on to life despite being “destitute, sick, +living in rags in a leaky tent in a malaria-­ridden swamp,” would find kindred +lives in Guatemala.34 +The Argentine philosopher Enrique Dussel wrote that in Latin America, +modernity was born with the Conquest for both the conquered and the conquerors, as well as those imported from Africa as slaves. As many have argued, the brutalities of colonialism, slavery and forced labor, racism, spiritual suppression, and the robbery of common resources in the hundreds of +years since 1492 have been historically inherent to, and not an aberration or +disfiguration of, modern capitalist times. Exploitation and the superexploitation of the socially constituted “darker races”—whether through the postcolonial forced labor systems, child labor, sweat shops, or maquiladoras— +are not some gray transition toward the modern or the developed any more +than these are on the periphery of capitalism.35 Being situated on this violent +“underside” that is at once an ignored center has been the complex condition of Latin American and Caribbean modernity and capitalism, not a sign +that these are not there. +The construction of La Juventud played an especially important part in +this trajectory of modernity in Guatemala, where capitalist modernization +has meant keeping part of the population excluded from liberal rights. In +the 1860s, Enrique Palacios, a member of La Sociedad Económica de Amigos +12 + +Introduction + + del País (Economic Society of the Friends of the Nation) who worked to +develop Guatemalan export agriculture and trade relations with England, +wrote clearly about the relationship between modern times and a Maya +population that he did not want to disappear in the blaring light of the new: +“The majority of the population will not be an active element of progress, +but rather an instrument [of it].”36 This instrumental majority was the Maya +labor force of children, youth, and adults on coffee plantations, one guaranteed through forced labor laws and other legal and extralegal mechanisms +of control. The sophisticated delegates to the Guatemala City 1893 Conferencia Pedagógica, who planned to implement innovative pedagogy nationally, equivocated when it came to the Maya, who composed most of the +population within the national territory. They concluded that the children +of los indios were to be given kindergarten education within plantations, one +adapted to their special condition as agricultural workers. For this reason, +it was decreed that “school hours be reduced to the minimum . . . without +exceeding three hours a day, finding in each area the time most adequate +with regards to the climate, the seasons, cultivation and other specific circumstances.”37 “Progress” depended on these “qualifications” within liberalism. Throughout the first part of the twentieth century and until 1944, +Liberal Party dictators obstructed the development of an all-encompassing +national citizenry; it was a privilege conferred on very few. +The social construction of La Juventud as non-Maya, urban middle- and +upper-class students became vital to the new nation. In the course of the +nineteenth century, La Juventud was projected repeatedly not only as a vanguard of modernity, but also as a solution to the so-­called Indian Problem, +the dilemma of how to build a “civilized nation” in a territory where the +majority were uncivilized “indios.” Initially drawn to John Locke’s notion of +a child’s mind as a blank slate, intellectuals concerned with the question of +building a modern nation and a citizenship saw public education as salvation. If children’s minds were blank, an ideal and monocultural education +could rescue children from the complexities of their family origins. At first +rejecting or ignoring social Darwinist ideas as these appeared in Guatemala, +they focused their attention on new pedagogies coming from Europe, and +thus their attraction for the German Friedrich Froebel’s kindergartens, especially (theoretically speaking) for Maya toddlers.38 But Guatemala could not +get away from keeping “indios” as noncitizens, who composed an exceptionally cheap labor force for its modernization through export agriculture. +That plans for a territorial-wide public education ran afoul again and again +did not stop the ideological uses of La Juventud, which grew to be an inflated +and racialized symbol. Children of los “indios” and of all rural people, fell +The Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +13 + + out of the category of La Juventud soon enough, leaving it non-­Maya and +urban. +In the late nineteenth century, Guatemalan elites and intellectuals marked +off infancy, childhood, and youth as stages in “the perfection of civilization” +and mankind.39 A veritable cult of La Juventud developed around annual +Festivales de Minerva of the Liberal Party dictator Manuel Estrada Cabrera, +in which costumed schoolchildren and youth paraded around cardboard +floats representing “La Ciencia” in celebration of “El Progreso.”40 By the +1920s, adolescence had become a keyword in national discourse. At midcentury, President Dr. Juan José Arévalo, one of Guatemala’s premier statesmen, an educator, and author of La adolescencia como evasión y retorno, saw the +cultivation of adolescents as the nation’s most urgent task to prevent what +he described as the psychological disease of fascist and feminine submissiveness that threatened human history. He urged creating strong masculine leaders through his innovative Escuelas Tipo Federación (Federation +Schools) school system.41 After the 1954 coup, it was above all the political +Left that kept alive a mythology around La Juventud to the effect that it had a +revolutionary essence and a responsibility toward the nation, now redefined +in terms of “el pueblo.” +Although infancy, childhood, and adolescence have been constructs used +by Guatemalan professionals to describe so-­called universal truths, these +“stages” have not been widespread experiences. For the well-­to-­do minority, +childhood and adolescence have long pointed to times and spaces of private schooling; art and sports lessons; university education; foreign travel; +long engagements; clubs and parties; and, for fifteen-­year-­old girls, elaborate quinceañeras, which are not, as they are among the urban poor, followed +by a life of paid or unpaid labor. For decades, having or not having this adolescence has been inside the consciousness of all city youth, whether they +are poor or wealthy. It has become a “norm” in which the majority of youth +do not participate. The notion of teenager, with its connotations of volatility, +rebellion and fun, was not employed until the second half of the twentieth +century, when it became an aspiration of many.42 +In contrast to representations of urban youth as either a heroic vanguard +of modernity or a decadent plague, at no point has there been a homogeneous “Youth.” Embedded in distinct kin life and history—and growing +up within particular class, gender, cultural, and community constructions, +experiences, and relationships—children and young people are heterogeneous, and they have varied relationships to power. Looking at specific +young lives yields the complexity of the general issue of being “young” and +the limitations of framing childhood and adolescence as “modern” or “tra14 + +Introduction + + ditional” or of defining a society or culture as “child centered” or “adult +centered.” This is a city where, at the beginning of the twenty-­first century, +child labor is significant within the family wage economy, and so is the all-­ +important modern education that families see as a solution to their economic woes. Walter, a friend of mine who is adored by his parents, attends a +public secondary school and works at night in his father’s tailor shop stitching imitation Levi’s jeans to sell in the informal economy to style-­conscious +youth at colegios (private schools) in order to buy food in the open market for +his extended family. +Whether rural or urban, Maya or Ladino, prepuberty or postpuberty, most +youth in Guatemala have had little time or space for themselves, and the borders between childhood, adolescence, and adulthood have long been blurry +in the eyes of the beholders. A nine-­year-­old who looks after his relatives, +works, or both might be considered and treated as a young man, not a niño; a +fifteen-­year-­old soldier is a man; and a fifteen-­year-­old mother from las clases +populares is a woman. A pregnant fifteen-­year-­old from the upper classes who +can have an abortion in Miami is just a “niñita tontita” (silly young girl). +Street children are called children, no matter their age; gang members are +youth criminals, not children, no matter their age; and the elite have applied +the term niños to Mayas of all ages since the 1500s. +The institutions of public education and the law make distinctions between age groups, even if the wider community and the work world do not, +and the state violates its own codes. Legal minors end up, illegally, in adult +prisons. Children can legally work at age fourteen, yet children under fourteen have been and continue to be agricultural, construction, transport, +domestic, and sex workers; vendors of goods and services; and laborers in +high-­risk jobs in the production of limestone, coffee, and fireworks, as well +as in high-­risk situations along the border with Mexico.43 In the new times +of the 2000s, the large Legumex factory, part of the “modern” as opposed +to “traditional” sector of the economy, employs children under fourteen +from 7 am until 7 pm to cut hundreds of pounds of vegetables and fruits +daily for export. They stand in cold water, receive one half the Guatemalan +minimum wage, and get no benefits.44 These children are having their childhoods; they are not short adults in an old-­fashioned society. Disappointing +adults, exploitation, abuse, and violent everyday upheavals have made small +delights too scarce and dependency on adults too fragile. For decades there +have been children and youth who have figured that they might be better off +on their own. +In Minor Omissions, one of the few volumes concerning the history of Latin +American children, Tobias Hecht suggests that the study of children is indisThe Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +15 + + pensable to the understanding of the larger society and ought not be subsumed within the history of women and families.45 I add that it is especially the marginal minorities among the young—such as war orphans, gang +members, and youth who make homes in the streets—who reflect and address central problems and not subcultural or subsidiary ones. Sitting at the +intersection of the personal, subjective, social, and familial on the one hand, +and larger categories such as modernity and capitalism on the other, young +people are uniquely located, and through them our historical lens widens. +We can see the mareros of today that way: a warning about all the points of +that complex crossroads. +“The Law of the Conservation of Violence” +The state terror that went on before the war escalated in the 1980s was horrific enough, but opposition to it and an explanatory discourse about it +prevented it from being absolute. Children who grew up in the late 1970s +formed the Maras from within a broad social imaginary of class solidarity +that still persisted in the early 1980s. But state violence escalated rapidly, intensifying in ways that were clearly traumatic.46 In response to a first draft +of this manuscript in which I described several massacres, an anonymous +reader for Duke University Press who was astutely cautioning against substituting shocking description for analysis wrote: “[A] concern I have . . . +[is] the explicit representations of army violence. . . . I understand why it is +important, [but] I found the chapter deeply traumatizing—arbitrary details +haunted me for several days after reading it. I wonder whether it is necessary to traumatize the reader.” The violence in Guatemala cannot be communicated adequately, as is suggested by the many discussions concerning +the crisis of representing the reality of the unimaginable. That is part of the +power of an “excess of reality,” of something that cannot be real and is real. +Yet depictions and approximations must be made in order to avoid furthering the silence surrounding it, leaving it as if incomprehensible and isolating those who experience it.47 Trying to place the reader closer to these +experiences is an attempt to communicate reality. The manuscript reviewer +was right on the mark to find the material traumatizing. Trauma is exactly +what readers need to know. +In his book How Societies Remember, the sociologist Paul Connerton argues +that the body “re-­enacts the past” of social history by “conveying and sustaining memories” through inscription and incorporation.48 I am not suggesting that killing people is a “cultural posture” in Guatemala, although a +few cynics might. The insight that bodies reenact society’s past at least sug16 + +Introduction + + gests the possibility that the extreme violence of the mareros in the postwar period is a mimetic way of having or storing the war, especially because +it is neither completely remembered nor completely forgotten. Someone is +“acting out,” to use Dominick La Capra’s formulation, what went on without a clear idea of it.49 Pierre Bourdieu puts a similar thought in motion in +other terms when he writes about the assault on the welfare state in Europe: +“You cannot cheat with the law of the conservation of violence: all violence is paid +for. . . . The structural violence exerted by the financial markets, in the form +of layoffs, loss of security, etc., is matched sooner or later in the form of suicides, crime and delinquency, drug addiction, alcoholism, a whole host of +minor and major everyday acts of violence.”50 In Guatemala, this “law of the +conservation of violence” is complicated by war, trauma, and the silences +about both, which is not to say that Guatemalans are all suicidal and criminal, but the “whole host” is everywhere evident. +Despite the lack of immediate and satisfying answers, the question of the +relationship between history, violence, and trauma must be kept in mind. +There is too much extreme violence and trauma in the world to risk leaving +aside the historical weight of these realities on the grounds that we do not +fully understand them. Cathy Caruth has suggested that being traumatized +by what breaches “the mind’s experience of time, self and the world” is necessary for surviving the unimaginable. To be traumatized is constructive in +the face of destruction.51 This paradox, in which the displacing of what cannot be “placed” due to the inability to absorb the unimaginable—this distancing from experience even as it happens, as well as afterward, as protection—has a terrible catch to it. The experience, in one way or another, +returns “uncontrolled and repetitive” to have a strong continued life “because violence inhabits, incomprehensibly, the very survival of those who +have lived beyond it that it may be witnessed best in the future generations +to whom this survival is passed on.”52 +This study does not prove a relationship between trauma, the “law of the +conservation of violence,” and escalating postwar violence of the Maras in +Guatemala City. However, it is a plea to pay heed to the historical agency of +horror and trauma, an entreaty that adds fuel to the argument that should +need none concerning the urgency of breaking public silences and ending +impunity. If the law of the return is valid, and if Guatemala does not end impunity, “claim” its experience, and know its history, then it might drown in +another sea of blood in the name of nothing. Ordinary Guatemalans need +be the protagonists of their history and bring the entire miserable crew that +has engineered this apparatus of political violence to justice, and then some. +Healing is an elusive concept, and if healing means the restoration of mind, +The Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +17 + + heart, body, and soul, it may never happen. Truth telling and trials cannot +change what Martín-­Baró calls the “underlying problem of the traumatogenic social relations that are part of an oppressive system that led to war.”53 +Over and above telling the truth and bringing the guilty to justice, the whole +social, political, and economic structure needs transformations based on +human solidarity and our revolutionized imaginations. +Part of the problem concerning the evolution of these gangs is that the +revolutionary groups did not think much about the gangs at all. In the +1980s, representatives of revolutionary groups called mareros lumpen or— +worse—spies, and turned their backs on them. This helped leave youth open +to recruitment by professionals, including those in army intelligence, for +whom violence is the means of business. Why turn our backs on gangs? +There is nothing at all wrong with a gang as a type of social organization. +Youth form groups as spaces in which to speak emotional truths, refashion +identities, and cultivate their own opinions and voice. The strong points of +the powerful relationships among young people who have been marginalized can be intense trust, loyalty, friendship, and love, as Aragon’s beautiful +cover photograph of two boys living out on the streets suggests. Perhaps +the life expressed in their faces and in the gentle gesture of one boy’s hand +on his companion’s arm can avert the death foretold in the fumes the other +sniffs from the glue bottle he clutches. +The Structure and Genesis of This Book +Adiós Niño is a history of the present dedicated to not saying good-­bye to +children. This introductory chapter has placed my basic argument within +discussions about the gangs, and in the framework of the larger history of a +modernity that has its constructions of young people and its uses for them. +Chapter 1, “Death and Politics,” describes in broad terms the two historical periods—the 1950s to the 1980s, and the 1980s to the early 2000s—that +formed the universe in which Maras evolved. It gives the background, and +sometimes the foreground, for the material presented in chapters 2 and 3, +in which many of the events, people, and places first presented in chapter 1 +reappear as the camera focuses in, so to speak, on the Maras and specific +aspects of city and national life. Chapter 2, “1980s: The Gangs to Live For,” +takes the reader back to the times in which the Maras first appeared, and +chapter 3, “1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For,” follows them forward +into the 2000s. Titled “Democracy and Lock-­Up,” chapter 4 continues by +discussing the discourse around delincuencia and citizenship, and the rise of +a prison system that revives violence to presumably ensure democracy and +18 + +Introduction + + citizen security. The concluding chapter, “Open Ending,” concerns the alternatives that young men and women who leave the gangs face. +I am an oral historian, which in this particular case involved doing fieldwork and writing down my observations as well as conducting interviews. +The research for this book took place over more than a decade in different +parts of the city, including some in which I lived, and in different settings, +ranging from homes to shelters for the homeless. I spoke and spent time +with youth in and out of the Maras, social workers, psychologists, neighbors, parents, and others, some of whom I came to know personally. Those +whom I quote are cited, and dozens more are not, even though in one way +or another they are all present. Conversations varied: some went on intermediately for long periods of time, and others were short; some were structured or semi-­structured interviews and others were informal. In addition +to fieldwork and interviews, I have also drawn on newspaper articles by investigative journalists, essays and reports by professionals, and other published material, including surveys and data on gangs gathered by a variety of +organizations that each have had their own researchers and perspectives.54 +No one book can do everything. With luck, this study about what Saskia +Sassen calls “concrete localities” can serve others in the community of +people studying gangs in Guatemala and elsewhere in Central America to +deepen knowledge through comparison and contrast.55 I hope this book will +also help the English-­language reader to comprehend Guatemala and empathize with its people, who constantly revitalize their lives. +In the final months of my writing and cutting and more writing and +more cutting of this manuscript, the still-­life paintings of the Italian painter +Giorgio Morandi repeatedly came to mind. Over and over again, he painted +similar objects, which entranced him and whose integrity he wished to respect. This book feels “over and over again.” It has been a long time in the +making. I first studied the gangs before my first child, Ana, was born in 1987 +in Guatemala City. After my second child, Jasmin, was born in 1990 in New +York City, I returned to Guatemala to look at the general question of urban +youth. After taking up residence in New York City and then in Boston, I kept +coming back to Guatemala City to see my friends, do research, and finish +Hacer la juventud: Jóvenes de tres generaciones de una familia trabajadora en la Ciudad de +Guatemala, which was published in 2005. Mareros kept coming my way, especially while, accompanied by my daughters, I kept meeting street children. +The last time I talked with a young person in a Mara was in 2008; I was +alone, an older woman from the United States. Have I been the adequate +or appropriate person to write about youth gangs? Can we “fit” in some +psychological, sociological, or historical sense with what we study? It has +The Rise and Fall of Tomorrow + +19 + + become customary for scholars to make arguments about why they are +suited to their particular topics and themes. I cannot make any claims that I +am a good match: I did not grow up in Guatemala City, much less in a gang +there or anywhere; I have never spent more than a night in jail, and not in +Guatemala, and so forth. It is simply that one thing led to another. +Because I wanted to understand how ordinary people make exceptional +history, in the early 1980s I researched and wrote Trade Unionists against Terror: Guatemala City, 1954–1985, a book about urban labor activists who fought +for life against all odds and who ultimately turned state murder around into +an inspirational tool and thus kept their dead compañeros present, and life +meaningful. Still living in Guatemala City in the mid-­1980s and working +with a new research institute, I and others researched mareros for a political reason: we needed to understand these new gangs because the publicity about them that was creating new fears in a wartime city was based on +absolutely no information. Subsequently it became hard for me to let go of +this thread, especially after it was clear that the opposite of what had protected the sanity of the labor movement was under way: murder was and is +being utilized to indeed kill life. I spoke with street children who were joining ms-­13 and m-­18 in the late 1990s, and most of those youth are dead. +One young man, Estuardo, an m-­18 member murdered in 1998 by ms-­13, +was dedicated heart and soul to historical memory, and his most important +memories were of his mother’s memories. Because I knew Estuardo and +other youth, it fell to me to write this book. +Morandi kept painting those bowls, bottles, and other containers over +and over, a bit differently each time. Writing this book, I kept drawing and +redrawing the same terrain over and over, reframing the material from the +same interviews again and again. Looking at his paintings and my manuscript, I worry that the gang members are too shoved against one another, +that they do not have space to breathe, and don’t quite emerge, that the table +or surface upon which they rest is not wide enough. Hopefully this book +gives enough so that readers can pick them up and look at them again with +the consideration and compassion they all deserve. + +20 + +Introduction + + DEATH AND POLITICS, 1950s–2000s + +I feel terrible when I talk about all this. I don’t want to upset [anyone]. +—Excerpt from the unpublished autobiography of Rodrigo Sic Ixpancoc, ex-­soldier +of the Guatemalan Army, El Periódico, November 4, 2010 + +“To Remember Is to Feel a Knife Tear into You” + +S + +itting on a chair in small apartment in Guatemala City’s Zone 3, Victor +recounted that in 1985, when he was fifteen, he and his friends founded +Mara Plaza Vivar Capitol with companionship and competing in an upcoming break dance competition in mind. But a few months later, he explained, Army Intelligence (g-­2) stopped him and a few others who were +hanging out in a semi-occupied shopping center on the main strip of the +shabby downtown Sexta Avenida in Zone 1, shoved them in a van, and took +them to a military base, where they received a few days of training. Then, +in his words, “They took us up to the mountain in a truck with some nicas +[Nicaraguans] to some village . . . and we had on rubber boots and pretended to be egyptos [members of the guerrilla group Ejército Guerrillero +de los Pobres (Guerrilla Army of the Poor, egp)], the nicas called a meeting +and people [the villagers] came and the soldiers came down all of a sudden +and killed everyone . . . [it was] a massacre.” He went on to say that he was +soon dumped back on to Sexta Avenida, and within days he had taken off +to Mexico in fear of g-­2 because, he said, “the others [the mareros with him] +were killed.” In Mexico, he worked with the Mexican drug ring La Eme for +many years. At age twenty-­eight, a full thirteen years later, he said, he returned in 1998 to a changed Guatemala City and joined Mara Salvatrucha +(ms-­13), which had arrived in the 1990s. +The abrupt and murderous military intervention that changed Victor’s life +almost beyond recognition in 1985 is a small version of the experiences of + +1 + + millions from 1980 to 1996, when over 100,000 primarily unarmed people +died violently in massacres that came at dawn like thunderbolts, and millions fled without destination. Marked by this history, Victor mentioned only +fragments of it to me. We spoke in 2002, six years after the Peace Accords +officially ended the war. Victor told me that he has no idea what the war was +about. He said, “It just was.”1 +The 1996 Peace Accords that formally stopped the thirty-­six-­year war between the Guatemalan military and revolutionary groups over Guatemala’s +destiny brought tremendous relief because, at last, the war had ended. +Among other important agreements, the Accords mandated constitutional +amendments to redefine Guatemala as a multicultural nation, limit the +army’s mission, resettle displaced peoples, allow civil society groups, and +reform the judicial system. However, virtually none of its provisions were +or have been implemented because, basically, the war concluded with a victory for the Guatemalan military, the state, and the economic status quo, +and with the demise of a long revolutionary era.2 To begin to understand +how deeply this defeat cut into and transformed Guatemala City in the last +decades of the twentieth century, when the Maras evolved, it is necessary +to appreciate that since the 1954 coup that overthrew a democratic government, the very existence of strong resistance to oppression and repression +was as important as the oppression and repression. In the decades following the 1954 coup, many Guatemalans understood and portrayed the power +of the state and of wealthy elites as temporal and historical, not absolute. +Even with its ups and downs, the popular movement made exploitation and +state violence in some way or another provisional because these could be assaulted by demonstrations, strikes, occupations, and citywide uprisings, as +well as by a social imaginary that made challenging domination possible. +The movement generated the knowledge that violence is the political tool of +the state and of elites. From that perspective, Victor’s 2002 understanding +of the war indicates a loss of ideological mooring; the war was not something that “just was.” +In other words, what ended with the Peace Accords was more than the +civil war. A way of knowing the world and acting within it had been shattered. The dynamism of an urban subculture of class solidarity wherein +jokes get made, songs created and heard, leaflets written, small newspapers +mimeographed, banners painted and seen, and political conversations held, +was no longer there. To put this into the subjective and emotional framework in which life is lived: the ability to give voice, the “euphoria of ethical +activism,” the existence of a sense of historical purpose on a grand scale, +and the vivacity and hope that animated the popular movement had pre22 + +Chapter 1 + + vented people from succumbing to fear for generations; then, abruptly, all +that life was lost and death emerged exultant.3 After decades of struggle +against what was widely perceived as an immoral political economy, the +chance for an immediate alternative was vanquished. Grinding into dust the +project of progressive social change cut down collective understandings of +life as humanly malleable for humanistic aims. By the twenty-­first century +these visions seem to have become charred remains of plans for a future +that required a revolutionary human praxis. What could have been memories +of deaths that served to secure revolutionary victory now elicit despair and +anger because so many died in vain. In 2010 an artist from the generation +of the 1970s said with infinite sadness: “To remember is to feel a knife tear +into you.”4 +Political violence in the second half of twentieth-­century Guatemala +was spectacular. It exceeded that of other countries in the Americas: Guatemala had the highest per capita number of “disappeared,” it was one of two +countries where acts of genocide took place, and it was there that the worst +military massacres on the continent happened.5 Guatemala was also distinguished in this period by the force of its popular and revolutionary movements. The depth of the state violence that did not stop them is one measure +of their profundity, and so are the even greater horrors that it took to finally +destroy them. +Violence takes many forms, has varied consequences, and conjures up +different images.6 The extreme forms of political violence that overtook +Guatemalan history and came to have a cultural weight and political role +in it, held together and overlapped with structural, symbolic, and everyday +forms of violence.7 Yet these are not all equivalent. Given that violence is +varied and embedded in daily life, we need to distinguish a limited sense of +this term and concept to capture the violence that “consciously or purposely +breaks into the inner existential shell of a person i.e. into that room in which +there is no other hiding place. A room from which there is no escape, the +body of the human being.”8 To make explicit the varied worlds of power, +hope, pain, and conflict in which the youth who joined gangs grew up, this +chapter continues by contrasting two periods, 1954–80 and 1980–2000s, decades during which the kind of violence that converted life into a “space of +death” emerged as a historical protagonist, as if on its own.9 +Normal Guatemalan State Violence: 1954–1980 +Guatemala was politically globalized on a grand scale in June 1954, when, in +full anticommunist armor, the United States allied with Guatemalan elites +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +23 + + to violently end the country’s singular attempt at a democratic reformist government, one based on electoral politics, civil liberties, and national capitalism. In the years that followed the famous 1954 coup, a symbol of Cold War +politics everywhere, the United States and the Guatemalan military and political and economic elite developed a system of rule consisting of electoral +politics supported by a liberal constitution that guaranteed civil liberties and +of constant state terrorism. These forms of sovereignty went hand in hand. +The United States showcased Guatemala as a model of its foreign policy of +promoting democracy, poured in investments that furthered manufacturing +and large-­scale capitalist agriculture, and collaborated with the Guatemalan state to build an extensive system of terror based on thousands of informants and on death squads that brought so-­called subversives into secret +centers and slowly tortured them to death in the tens of thousands.10 During +the apogee of electoral democracy, modernization, and economic growth +under the reformist government of Julio César Méndez Montenegro (1966– +70), death squads disappeared an average of forty-­three persons every five +days.11 This durable arrangement lasting decades distinguishes the Guatemalan experience from those of countries such as Argentina, Brazil, and +Chile, where the suspension of constitutional rule signaled comparatively +shorter periods of outright military rule and terror. +This mix of terror and constitutional rule started in the wake of the 1954 +coup. In the months following it, many 1944–54 government officials and +supporters were charged and often shot or imprisoned for “subversion” +under anticommunist legislation. But soon thereafter and especially after +armed opposition emerged in 1960, activists and their friends and families rarely went to jail. For the most part, punishment meant death, and it +happened without accusations, trials, bullets, electric chairs, firing squads, +or gallows and trap doors. Death arrived slowly via ropes, bites, sticks, +matches, knives, machetes, fingernails, rocks, and blowtorches, by means +that were, to quote Michel Foucault on the ancien régime, “inexplicable phenomena that the extension of man’s imagination creates out of the barbarous and the cruel.”12 +Foucault’s discussion of the creation and reproduction of the body politic +through mechanisms of discipline and punishment offers insight into modern Guatemala, although with a twist. The types of violence and physical torture of bodies that Foucault argued were foundational to an archetypal ancien régime underwrote capitalist modernization and constitutional rule in +Guatemala. In the case of Guatemala, in Foucault’s formulation of the biopolitics that manufacture the life of members of modern nations as “a power +bent on generating forces, making them grow, and ordering them, rather +24 + +Chapter 1 + + than one dedicated to impeding them, making them submit or destroying +them,” the words “in addition to” need to replace “rather than.”13 Foucault +recognized the rule over life through death.14 He conceptualized sovereignty +as the ultimate power over life and death, but he wrote that a shift occurred +in the modern age: “One might say that the ancient right to take life or let +live was replaced by a power to foster life. . . . Now [in the modern period] it +is over life, through its unfolding, that power establishes its domain; death +is power’s limit, the moment that escapes it; death becomes the most secret +aspect of existence, the most ‘private.’”15 In post-­1954 Guatemala, death +was not “power’s limit.” The death-­squad tortures produced death that was +not “simply the withdrawal of the right to live.” These tortures rested on the +“whole quantitative art of pain,” calculated to “carry pain almost to infinity.” +The death squads’ vocation was that “art of maintaining life in pain” in ways +not unlike those that Foucault describes in great detail as “the spectacular +of torture.”16 +One difference is that these slow tortures were not part of the sort of +public spectacular to which Foucault refers. Instead, a phenomenon perhaps more insidious and even more terrifying replaced this or added a new +dimension to it. Within the death-­squad system, grotesque torture to create +the most painful death occurred in secret, but the catch is that almost everyone in the city knew about it. It was on view within the imagination because +the bodies turned up, and their gashes and mutilations told stories. Foucault wrote that in ceremonies of public execution, “the main character was +the people, whose real and immediate presence was required for the performance.” He thought that if execution took place in secret, it “would scarcely +have any meaning.”17 +But what if “real and immediate presence” is in the imagination, a sort +of modern individual private theater that everyone had? The scarred bodies +provided the public performances in which the mind’s eye had to do a horrible double work of staging the scene and being its impotent spectator at +the same time. Where does the mind go when the newspapers report in detail about a man who turns up dead in a ravine, burned with a blowtorch +on the stomach and elsewhere, his tongue cut out and his face beaten in so +severely that his lips were swollen and his teeth broken, or about a woman +and her baby found tortured and murdered? Her breasts had bite marks and +her underclothing was bloody. Her two-­year-­old son had had his fingernails +pulled out. What the bodies told of their deaths became the public spectacle. That bodies appeared with their proverbial “signs of torture” “reactivated” state power because the agony of an excruciating death was on full +display, a spectacle of what happens and can happen to anyone, one that +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +25 + + takes place first somewhere unknown, and a second time in the imagination.18 This death-­in-­life state barbarism was already part of politics before +the massacres of the 1980s, the period many call “the war.”19 +What the Italian philosopher Giorgio Agamben delineates as the “camp,” +in reference to concentration camps established at various points in modern +history and most notoriously by the Nazi Party, in which “the most absolute +condition inhumana ever to appear on Earth was realized,” belonged to Guatemalan death-­squad victims over and over for decades in concealed locations and to the imagination of those who were not there, except that they +arrived in their mind’s eye, without presence or power, again and again.20 +Tortures seemingly beyond the power of conceptualization, much less execution, went on, conceived and executed. This was national political rule, +not a concentration camp, not a strategy to exterminate a group from the +body politic, but a strategy to control the entire body politic. Those who were +not tortured—the witnesses who had no access to the event that they had +to actualize in their heads—were not called upon to coproduce this system +of terror, as Germans were in their acquisition of and complicity with anti-­ +Semitism in what the historian Claudia Koonz calls a “Nazi conscience.”21 +Racism against Mayas saturated and saturates national life, but the Guatemalan state organized fear and sadism, not Ladinos (the common term for +non-­Maya), against an urban popular political movement that included both +city Ladinos and Mayas. +In the late 1970s, Gabriel Aguilera Peralta, Jorge Romero Imery, Enrique +Torres-­Lezama, and Ricardo Galindo Gallardo did quantitative research on +Guatemalan state violence in the post-­1954 period. Their findings were published in Costa Rica in 1981 under the title Dialéctica del terror en Guatemala. +Many have repeated and none have improved on the book’s principal argument for the years 1963–79. Dialéctica del terror details how the counterrevolutionary state renewed its power through waves of terror.22 When popular +discontent and mass struggle advanced, so did state brutality, which in turn +caused social conflict to decrease, and with that so did state violence. Made +even more determined by the repression, the popular organizations then +took advantage of the diminished repression to emerge with even greater +force and so forth until, so the authors optimistically believed, the movement would inevitably triumph. Tragically, even before the book’s publication, Romero Imery and Galindo Gallardo were kidnapped. Imery’s mangled +body turned up months afterward, and Galindo Gallardo was never seen +again. By then the state had started to turn its “normal” terrorism into a +massive terrorist onslaught that upended predictions about an ultimate +backfiring of violence. +26 + +Chapter 1 + + Years later, to clarify the base level of “normal” state violence before +1980, the archdiocese report on human rights violations, the Recuperación de +la Memoria Histórica (Recovery of Historical Memory, remhi), memorably +noted: “For decades—and not including the war—the appearance of tortured corpses was part of waking up every morning, whether reading the +newspaper or traveling footpaths and roadways.”23 Footpaths and newspapers: this violence was rural and urban; it has always been and remains +today much worse against the Maya population in the countryside. At the +same time, in this period state terror had a specific visibility in the city. The +several daily newspapers covered demonstrations and assassinations and +carried photos of the disappeared and of severely disfigured bodies. And +because Guatemala City was at once the country’s political, administrative, +financial, and industrial capital, it was central to protest and repression. It +concentrated spaces of power that ranged from the national public university, with its radical schools of law, engineering, journalism, and medicine; +to the land government agency to which peasants brought their disputes; to +the offices of the labor union headquarters and the rooms where clandestine revolutionary cadre met; and to the “Telecommunications Center” that +housed state intelligence and loomed tall behind the National Palace for all +to see. Terror and state violence permeated everything from jokes to literature. There was hardly a poet, essayist, or novelist of the period who did not +write about it; a journalist who did not report almost daily on it; a visual artist who did not represent it; or a city resident who did not know of someone +“disappeared.” +The Power of Life +The Lazarus-­like urban popular movements that these 1954–80 levels of +state sadism failed to destroy had strong wellsprings. One was the indelible +legacy of the 1944–54 years, which was sustained by the quick underground +regrouping of Guatemalan communists after the coup and by the overwhelming popularity of that brief era.24 Although the ten years of reform +government were not utopian ones, they represented a new Guatemala. For +government to have even contemplated, much less realized, a land reform, +improved working conditions, housing, day care, and medical attention, +constituted a historical miracle in a country with a centuries-­long history +of the vast majority’s subjugation. A new Guatemala was not a dream: it had +happened once, it was taken away; and it could happen again. +The 1944–54 nationalist discourse rooted in the concept of self-­ +determination of nations became markedly anti-­imperialist after the coup. +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +27 + + This radical nationalism was reinforced by the 1959 Cuban Revolution, an +event with specific resonance in Guatemala because it validated armed revolution in contrast to the decision made by President Jacobo Árbenz in 1954 to +not take up arms against U.S. military intervention. Radical nationalism resulted in a serious challenge to the Guatemalan state, when anti-­imperialist +military officers in Guatemala City tried to stage a coup in 1960 and, in the +wake of their failure, started the country’s first armed guerrilla movement, +one that was soon informed by Marxism and strengthened by students who +entered its ranks following a citywide insurrection in 1962. +Anti-­imperialism, versions of Marxism, and radical nationalism were +powerful ideologies among many, including professors, workers, lawyers, +and schoolteachers—the latter being a group vital to the 1944–54 leadership and one whose influential union stayed on the Left. Intertwined with +these views was the unfolding of remarkable changes in the church that reverberated throughout Guatemala. Clergy and lay religious workers who +were revolutionized from being supporters of the status quo to instigators +against it, made the Gospel an argument for class militancy, and configured +Jesus as a militant who blessed the struggle of the poor against the rich.25 +The effects of this potent combination of perspectives included the growth +of the labor movement and the disruption of many disciplinary institutions, +including the urban public school system. +The Normal Schools, the teacher-­training institutes that presumably +“normalized” youth to “normalize” other youth, are one instance of a breakdown and an inversion of the machinery of sovereignty. Opened in the 1880s +to regulate youth by ingraining the small and large features of discourses +and bodily social behavior that would perpetuate the national status quo +as it shifted in the late nineteenth century, the Normal Schools were basically militarized until the 1944 Revolution. In accord with its social aims, +the generation of 1944 revolutionaries intentionally reshaped the Normal +Schools into progressive and internally democratic institutions that defined +nationalism in terms of specific programs for the popular social good, for +instance, land reform and labor laws, and that trained free-­thinking leaders +destined for national prominence.26 After 1954 and for decades thereafter, +the students, teachers, and even administrators of Normal Schools held on +to those ideals, and graduates were more likely to join radical groups or turn +into leftist professionals than become stolid and conformist cogs within the +disciplinary machinery (see figures 1.1 and 1.2). Hardly a school term passed +without a major protest in Guatemala City’s Instituto Normal Central para +Varones or the Instituto para Señoritas Belén, to name the two most prestigious public teacher-­training schools for boys and girls, respectively. +28 + +Chapter 1 + + FIGURE 1.1 Student review parade at the Instituto de Varones, a ­Normal +School, Guatemala City, 1914. The Liberal Party dictator Manuel +­Estrada Cabrera (1898–1920) mandated that military studies be added +to the positivist curriculum. These students were emblematic of the +­educated youth who, if obedient, symbolized “Progress and Order.” +­Photographed by José García Sánchez. Credit: José García Sánchez. Desfile del +Instituto de Varones. Ciudad de Guatemala, 1914. Colección de José García Sánchez. +Fototeca Guatemala, CIRMA. + + FIGURE 1.2 Student demonstration against the militarization of government, Guatemala City, 1960. Soon after the 1954 coup against the reformist government of Jacobo Árbenz (1951–54), girls, boys, and young +women and men organized FUEGO in schools such as the Normal +Schools and boldly took to the streets to demand rights. Many of these +students joined the armed struggle in the countryside that started in +1961. The prominent sign to the left reads “FIRE, NOT ASHES.” Anonymous photographer. Credit: Anónimo. Pancartas y carteles de la manifestación en +contra del Gobierno de Ydígoras Fuentes. Ciudad de Guatemala, Julio de 1960. Archivo de +fotografías de El Imparcial. Fototeca Guatemala, CIRMA. + + The shallow discourse of anticommunism and developmentalism could +not fend off the associative enthusiasm that resounded in the city. The +regime’s political economy brought little or no hope to Guatemala City’s +emerging working classes during a period in which manufacturing, transport, and the service sectors grew.27 Developmentalism permitted urban social programs to flounder and brought new industries that hired mean managers, paid miserable wages for long hours of hard work, neglected safety, +and had no respect for employees or labor laws that permitted unions and +guaranteed conditions. The post-­1954 coup Constitution’s guarantee of liberties such as the right to organize and to form electoral parties encouraged +labor unions and other urban groups to try to use it in their favor, with few +successes. Again and again state brutality threw off track trade union and +grassroots legal struggles as well as campaigns for structural change by reformist politicians.28 With the failures of progressive electoral parties and +the chronic inability of the Ministry of Labor to address labor disputes in the +background, by the second half of the 1970s many people had grown weary +of legal means and were attuned to ideas about armed revolutionary change. +This was especially the case after the state responded inadequately to a 1976 +earthquake, as well as following an October 1978 uprising in Guatemala City +that united workers of the state and private sectors, students, and neighborhood youth and other pobladores, who went on strike, barricaded streets, took +over barrios, and fought security forces to bring the city to a complete halt. +They successfully prevented a ten-centavo bus fare increase and raised the +minimum wage. It took this urban rebellion to make these hardly revolutionary changes, and victory was short lived, because a flood of kidnappings +by state agents and the refusal of authorities to actually grant a new wage +minimum quickly followed. It is impossible to think that the youth who +grew up in Guatemala City and joined Maras in the early 1980s missed this +weeks-­long episode of the urban population in open revolt. +Between the 1954 coup and the 1980s war, urban children and youth and +the adults surrounding them lived in many milieus, and not just one of terror, that both directly contested terrorism or “simply” kept sensibilities of +humanism and solidarity vibrant. The public face of what could be called a +plebeian culture of people united by social class and a tumultuous history +that had an unfinished air because the 1954 coup had derailed a new Guatemala was constantly visible. It was evident in so small a detail as the pleasure taken by most residents in the annual Huelga de Dolores (Strike of Sorrows), in which masked students disrupted the city with their satiric floats +and placards making fun of the country’s dominant institutions. It was +even more apparent in the May 1 marches, which did not primarily honor a +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +31 + + distant past of repression and worker unrest. Every year Guatemala City’s +International Workers’ Day march and rally revitalized itself by directing +attention to that year’s ups and downs, and by the flow of old and young eloquent speakers who called for immediate changes and kept alive notions of +alternate possibilities. All this had the effect of restraining despair and unfocused angers. During all these years and right into the 1980s, there were +no especially violent youth gangs in the city. Going at least back to the 1940s, +boys and young men sometimes joined minor street gangs called pandillas +that engaged in petty crime and brawled against one another without dominating or tormenting neighborhood life or killing one another.29 +For decades the social life of many boys and girls and young men and +women in the popular urban areas had more or less centered, for better or +worse, on romance, tedious low or unpaid work, family, school, sports, and +even church activities. Within the context of everyday life the discussion +groups and the social improvement agenda of the Young Catholic Worker +movement attracted youth in the late 1950s and into the 1960s, when more +radical priests and other religious figures drawn to liberation theology had +influence and support in the barrios.30 Although young people knew about +state terrorism, its tactics belonged to an “other side” that had not yet overtaken the city, and not to their side of the proverbial tracks. In the 1970s +young people were often students in the politicized public school system +and/or workers who sometimes joined labor unions (or at the very least +knew about them), neighborhood betterment associations, street protests, +or, hand in hand with their families, the land invasions that followed the +1976 earthquake. They lived near older militants and others in neighborhoods that were milieus of active class solidarity. A trade unionist characterized his neighborhood in La Parroquia, Zone 6, in the late 1970s with the +words “when it came to demonstrations everyone went.”31 At least they did +up to a point. +The War in the 1980–1990s +The military made a qualitative leap in its methods in the 1980s that had +continuities and ruptures with the state violence that preceded it. Of course +it continued to be extremely cruel. Among other changes, an official suspension of the Constitution legalized state barbarism; it became massive +and aboveground; uniformed soldiers and members of official Civil Patrols +rather than death squads committed it; and it came very fast to quickly reach +unparalleled levels of sadism, even for Guatemala. This upsurge in terror +affected the city drastically, and it had far worse results in rural Maya com32 + +Chapter 1 + + munities, where the military committed acts of genocide premised on its +racism and its historic fear of Maya rebellion. In the Maya highlands, the +military had a strategy that was, to quote one army official’s unknowingly +perfect formulation of necropolitics, “planned down to the last detail to destroy every sign of life.”32 This intensified war’s aim was, for once and for all, +absolute annihilation of, rather than containment of, popular movements in +both city and countryside. +Writing about the countryside, the historian Greg Grandin places the +start of this escalation in March 1978 in the town of Panzós, Alta Verapaz, +when army soldiers fired an unarmed crowd and killed over thirty Q’eqchi’ +Maya women and men who had gathered to discuss threats to their lands. +In the city, where tens of thousands of urbanites protested what they immediately named “The Panzós Massacre,” there was in 1978–79 a sharp increase in kidnappings in Guatemala City. It could be argued that the police +firebombing that killed over thirty people who had peacefully occupied the +Spanish embassy in January 1980 to protest and publicize the war in rural +areas made the war “official” in the city. What followed left no doubt that +the state had declared all-­out war there. Uniformed police kidnapped students from the funeral march for those killed at the Spanish embassy a few +days after the assault on it. Thirty-­one secondary and university students +and factory workers were kidnapped in one day during the May 1 protest +that year. On June 21, the narcotics squad division of the National Police +“disappeared” twenty-­seven trade unionists in broad daylight out of a labor +central’s office a few blocks from the National Palace. On July 14, uniformed +police shot and killed nine students and injured forty more on the University of San Carlos campus. On August 24, seventeen trade unionists were +kidnapped from a presumably secret meeting. By September 1980, the open +popular movement had shut down, and the revolutionary groups endeavored to stage hit-­and-­run propaganda actions in the city. +In the first few months of 1981, the Guatemalan Army formally stepped +in. Soldiers, tanks, and helicopters launched a full-­fledged urban counterinsurgency, destroyed the safehouses of the revolutionary groups, and killed or +captured dozens of cadre, while others fled to the mountains.33 Even though +the city seemed a graveyard, some thought the coordinated revolutionary +fronts would respond to this urban counterinsurgency with an urban offensive, as had recently happened in Nicaragua. These supporters felt part of +a national guerrilla military campaign because at the time the Guatemalan +Army started its scorched-­earth campaigns in 1981, the population of entire +parts of the largely Maya departments of El Quiché, Huehuetenango, the +Verapaces, and Chimaltenango were supporting and joining revolutionary +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +33 + + fronts.34 Residents—especially those in the poorer areas of the city, where +the distinction between city and countryside is blurred by the steady movement of people between them—heard bits and pieces about both advances +of the guerrillas and the army’s massacres in rural areas during the early +1980s, but it took time for city people to realize how weak the revolutionary +fronts were. Left-­wing discourse still remained relevant in Guatemala City +despite the army’s advances. When the Maras first formed in the early 1980s, +the military’s use of violent death was already proving to be a definitive way +to control life in rural areas, but the gangs did not utilize death in that way, +or at all. +One Becomes, and Is Not Born, a Killer +According to the United Nations Report of the Commission for Historical +Clarification (ceh), in the first years of the 1980s, the army and other state +forces committed 91 percent of the human rights crimes carried out between 1962 and the 1996 Peace Accords.35 These crimes consisted of 626 +massacres that left more than 100,000 people dead, more than 55,000 children orphaned, and well over 1.5 million internal and external refugees.36 +Of the 626 massacres between 1960 and 1996, 554 took place between 1981 +and 1982. By the close of those two years, the number of dead later counted +as victims of acts of genocide was complete. The Guatemalan Army was unconstrained, the guerrillas could mount no large military offensive, and the +international community remained silent. Massacres that the Guatemalan +anthropologist Ricardo Falla has described as “collective torture,” rather +than battles, constituted these campaigns, according to the thousands of +testimonies collected by the un ceh and the Guatemalan Archdiocese.37 +When the military escalated the war, it obliged a large percentage of the +Guatemalan male population to participate in turning the death-squad system of sadism into public spectacles in hundreds of “red” and “pink” zones +in the countryside.38 The army involved hundreds of thousands of Guatemalans, mostly Maya, in causing “pain almost to infinity” to hundreds of thousands of Guatemalans, who were in their majority Maya, in a short period +of time. As a case in point, in a twenty-­four-­day period the Maya municipality of Rabinal in Alta Verapaz alone experienced twenty-­eight massacres +in which around five thousand people were killed, representing almost 20 +percent of the population in that area.39 +Part of the manufacture of death was the production of those who killed, +as in any war, but in this case that did not include relying on or constructing +patriotism and an image of an ideal nation for which war must be waged, +34 + +Chapter 1 + + except in the most superficial sense. Manolo Vela Castañeda’s research on +the military shows that the regime did not build an army in order to pursue +“war in the name of life,” to use Foucault’s description of twentieth-­century +war and genocide.40 Bereft of the support of the urban majority in the early +1980s, frightened to wade into the waters of openly recruiting from among a +concentrated population that had as recently as May 1, 1980, marched under +banners of “democracy and socialism” in numbers of over fifty thousand, +the military made little attempt at propaganda designed to win the city over +to, much less explain, the war. For a few months in the early 1980s, General +Efraín Ríos Montt, Pentecostal and chief of staff, gave Sunday “sermons” +on television to explain the “crisis” as a moral one that could be answered +only by “cleaning house.”41 In kind with other urban war propaganda, his +talks aimed to frighten and not to convince. In this period, the army television channel showed the Guatemalan Army’s pride, its elite force of killers +called the kaibiles, “cleaning house.” They grabbed hens, pulled the feathers +out, and ate them live with the animal blood splattering all over their contorted faces.42 On other channels, these scenes of kaibiles interrupted soap +operas. +The principal mechanism for constituting a fighting force to massacre in +the countryside took place in the countryside, where military commanders +forced Maya males into the army. For the most part they were rounded up +in village markets, then hauled away on trucks to military bases, where they +were barbarized through three months of abuses to turn them into cruel +soldiers who lacked any trace of idealism.43 In his unpublished manuscript, +Rodrigo Sic Ixpancoc, from Rabinal Baja Verapaz, describes what happened +to him: A local military commissioner arrived at his home to inform him +he had to “ir a comer arroz [literally, to go eat rice]” and serve in the army. +During his three-­month training, he was beaten repeatedly, stripped naked, +not allowed to eat or sleep for long periods, screamed at—“Chicken,” “Indio +shit,” “Guerrillero”—tortured, taught to torture, and told that “if his mother +was a guerrillera, an india shit, he had to kill her.” His manuscript describes +details that repeatedly emerge in the un ceh’s Memoria del Silencio report of +training that included the promotion of Maya self-­hatred, beatings, rape, +and even debt peonage among its forced recruits. This was a war devoid of +love between officers and soldiers or among soldiers or of nation. +Recruits spent twenty-­seven weeks receiving instruction in absolute obedience and “contempt for life and the savoring of violence.”44 The recruits +repeatedly recounted the presentation of pointless murder as if it were an +exhilarating event. As one reported, a training instructor “yelled to me, +‘Hurry, you are missing something good.’ And when I got there they only +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +35 + + had one of the boys [referring to three either recruits or civilians brought +into the base] left, and they were cutting off his head. That is what I was +missing.”45 Recruits were exhorted to take the so-­called step of death: killing someone as a proof of competence. Instructors encouraged recruits to +compete with one another in designing ways to torture the communist guerrillas. One recounted: “The instructors gave lessons and awoke the creativity +and the imagination so that each one would think of a torture even more refined than the last. One said he would take off the guerrillas’ shoes, make +a wound and put salt and lime in it. The next invented something else. He +would poke out eyes with needles and on it went.”46 At the end of 1981, military commissioners organized the Patrullas de Autodefensa Civil (Civil Self-­ +Defense Patrols, pacs). The pacs incorporated all male villagers between +fifteen and sixty, armed them with sticks and machetes, and ordered them to +rape, steal, murder, and massacre in their neighboring and sometimes their +own communities, or be killed (see figure 1.3).47 At the height of the war, +the pacs included almost one million Guatemalans in a country of eight +million; over 40 percent of the entire male population was forced or socialized into fratricide. A former pac member stated that these groups were not +created to protect villagers, as the military had claimed; instead it was, he +said, to “kill our own brothers. . . . We are all are sick with what they made us +do.”48 The pacs carried out almost one-­half of the massacres in some areas +under the orders of military commanders.49 +The murder of children is perhaps the strongest example of the design to +inflict “infinite pain.” In massacre after massacre, soldiers drew and quartered or decapitated children with dull machetes, raped them, and ripped +the unborn out of pregnant women in front of relatives and other community members.50 In one massacre, an entire village had to listen to the gang +rape of one small girl for hours before she and the others were killed. In a +variation of this, soldiers raped mothers in front of their children.51 People +remember the massacre at Cuarto Pueblo in 1982, and they told how soldiers put “wires, red, red hot from the fire into them [the villagers], stuck +them into their mouths, and all the way down to their stomachs . . . not +caring if the person was a little child.”52 In the case of the community of Río +Negro, on March 13, 1982, soldiers and Civil Patrollers entered the village, +pulled people out of their homes, ate breakfast, played marimba music, +made women and girls dance with them, and raped the youngest ones. A +survivor testified that the soldiers then killed 70 women and 107 children; in +the words of one witness, “they hung some from the trees, they killed others +with machetes and they fired at others. They took the little children and +threw them against the stones.”53 In another massacre, soldiers went into a +36 + +Chapter 1 + + FIGURE 1.3 The uses of youth: this photograph of Civil Patrollers in the +countryside, July 1985, suggests the ages at which almost one million males, for the most part Mayas, were obliged to join the Civil SelfDefense Patrols. Behind them, children watch. Credit: Anónimo. “Patrulla de +Autodefensa Civil” organizada durante el conflicto armado interno. Guatemala, 28 de Julio de +1985. Archivo de fotografías de El Gráfico. Fototeca Guatemala, CIRMA. + + hamlet and seized twelve men and boys and twelve women and girls. After +directing the women and girls to get twelve hens and pots, they ordered the +sons to kill their fathers. A witness stated, “If the son was the one not complying, then the father had to stain his hands by killing his son.” After that +the clay pots with the twelve hens inside were put on fire, and the women +began to cook. A survivor testified: “The army screamed at them to make +sure the food was well-­prepared. . . . While the food cooked, the men died +and the soldiers burnt them. . . . When they were all burned up, they [the +soldiers] applauded and started eating.”54 +The above descriptions come from survivors in answer to set questions +asked by human rights researchers in the late 1990s. Despite the problems +involved in taking testimonies, witnesses of massacres detailed how in community after community, large numbers of soldiers arrived before dawn and +quickly set up what can only be called death spaces in which they “destroyed +every sign of life.” The military did not miss much in its calculations. Soldiers burned the houses and fields, ate the animals, arrived on religious +days, made sure the children and the unborn died first and in the most horrible ways, poisoned wells with dead bodies, and killed the esteemed elderly +with old work tools.55 +Perhaps the words beyond words of a survivor of the massacre of 350 of +his fellow villagers at the Finca San Francisco in 1982, words that he used to +describe his state of mind when he arrived in a Mexican town after fleeing +across the border, break though the numbing literal descriptive style of the +accounts given to human rights workers, and open onto the sheer incomprehensibility of existence and knowledge in the aftermath of an episode that +obliterates the known world: “Is it 11 in the morning? I arrive in Santa Maria. +Like a drunk I cannot see if it is daylight. I come without sadness. I think +nothing. Without food, without food, without a jacket. Without clothes. I +am nobody. Without a hat. Completely nobody.”56 Another villager who had +fled that massacre testified that a soldier had taken out a child’s heart and +put it to his mouth.57 +After the 1980–83 massacres, the army expanded its control over territory and local structures and placed survivors in resettlement camps that +provided food, work, and Pentecostal services, and thus it could be said +that it started cranking up the machinery of life, such as it was. By the early +1990s, the majority within the military high command felt secure enough to +start a years-­long period of negotiating to reach a final accord. As victor, the +military could began to advertise the new discursive reality of “peace” and +“democracy.” The guerrilla fronts still existed, and they engaged the army in + +38 + +Chapter 1 + + skirmishes, but the fronts had lost popular support definitively by the late +1980s, and the 1996 Peace Accords ended an armed struggle that was already +over.58 +How could this war, terrible in the city and much worse in the countryside, not have an effect on the evolution of urban gangs? However formulated or expressed—whether in ways very fragmented, hardly unrecognizable, or more colored in—all this history and all those who lived through it, +got around. Millions of people suddenly left one place and went to another, +and sometimes on to others. Thousands fled into the mountains, where +some joined hidden settlements called Comunidades de Pueblos en Resistencia (Communities of People in Resistance) to live off the land, and thousands crossed the border into Mexico, where many went into refugee camps. +Others became undocumented immigrants who either stayed in Mexico or +traveled to the United States, where they disappeared in large cities, especially in the Los Angeles area in the 1980s and 1990s. It is estimated that +between 50,000 and 200,000 left the country, yet 1.3 million fled the four +hardest-­ +hit highland departments.59 Uncounted numbers of displaced +moved about within Guatemala. +At least fifty-­five thousand war refugees came into Guatemala City and +quietly moved into the poorest areas of the city, where, if they were Maya, +they often shed their clothes and languages for fear of being pursued. The +mother of Estuardo, an ms-­1 3 member killed by Mara-­18 (m-­1 8) in 1998, +escaped into an area of Guatemala City called Tierra Nueva I after a massacre killed the other members of her family in the early 1980s. In 1984, at +fourteen, Edgar Guarchaj came from the Department of El Quiché to live +in the streets of Guatemala City to make money to send back home so that +his father could pay another man to serve his shift in the pac in order to +have the time he needed to work his land to keep the family alive.60 Edgar +remained tied to his family and stayed with relatives in the city, but thousands of orphaned children turned up on Guatemala City streets. Soldiers +even brought orphans to a group home for children. In the words of a social +worker there: “The same army [that massacred] would bring these children +and say that so and so ‘was the only survivor of a battle’; to us this meant of +a destroyed hamlet. This was very hard. . . . These children did not talk, at +first we social workers thought that they were deaf mute, but little by little +we discovered it was from the trauma of being present at the assassination +of their parents and of their community. . . . We did not dare keep records +for fear of reprisals, and we became human archives.”61 + +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +39 + + Human Archives in Los Angeles +Escaping war and seeking opportunities, tens of thousands of Guatemalans and Salvadorans went to California in the 1980s and 1990s, where they +were pulled toward the long-­standing Spanish-­speaking neighborhoods of +Los Angeles. Norma Stoltz Chinchilla and Nora Hamilton discuss how large +numbers of these immigrants settled in Pico-­Union, a part of Westlake, +located within the Ramparts division of the Los Angeles Police Department +in the southern central part of Los Angeles, an area relatively cut off from +others by freeways and other obstacles. They brought a new presence to this +small dense world, one of the poorest areas of the city and 80 percent Hispanic by the 1980s. Life there was as difficult as in the worst of urban areas in +the United States: the average income was $15,000; it had an 85 percent high +school dropout rate; and it was plagued by crowded schools, overcrowded +housing, inadequate services, and a dearth of recreational facilities, conditions that would deteriorate with the recession of the early 1990s.62 This +was a period of urban deindustrialization and the deregulation of government programs such as drug and alcohol rehabilitation centers and English +as a Second Language classes. As in other cities in the United States facing +similar problems in these especially hard times, gangs and drugs dealers increased in Pico-Union and neighboring areas.63 +Los Angeles, including Pico-Union, has a long history of gangs, written +about by James Diego Vigil and others.64 Gangs and youth clubs probably +date from the White Fence in 1929, which was started to protect Mexicans +and Mexican Americans from racism. The story of gangs in Los Angeles history includes the heyday of zoot suit cultures of African Americans, Mexican Americans, and Mexicans in the 1940s, and the more recent Crips and +Bloods. According to Vigil, none of this was characterized by excessive brutality toward others or themselves. What Vigil calls “escalating violence” +in the 1950s and 1960s was “self-­contained” and involved “set battles.” He +writes, “The modern notion of the ultraviolent street gang or predator did +not prevail.” Major transformations came with crack and guns in the 1970s +and 1980s, and sharpened in the 1990s, with the incorporation of gang members into the Mexican drug ring La Eme, and the arrival of Central American +youth marked by war.65 +Numerous writers have emphasized that ms-­1 3 and m-­18 in Guatemala +City are Los Angeles gangs because they started there; nonetheless, they +also started as specifically Guatemalan and Salvadoran gangs in Los Angeles.66 Boys and young men who came from Guatemala and from El Salvador, where twelve years of civil war ended in 1992, brought memories of +40 + +Chapter 1 + + war-­related experiences that had to be recontextualized in the midst of new +difficulties of racism, rejection, and unemployment in an unfamiliar city.67 +Especially given the push within academia to go beyond the boundaries of +nation, it has been tempting to treat these gangs as a “global” phenomenon +because of this Los Angeles nexus, as well as the Mexican one. Then again, +even though these youth move across borders and experience the transcultured worlds of Los Angeles and of Mexican towns and cities, and they +pick up meaningful slogans, names, institutional frameworks, and tactics— +for example, the Southern United Raza (the nonaggression pact between +gangs)—they are still what cultural historian Peter Fritzsche calls “bounded +subjects” whose subjectivities had been shaped by the “national experience” +and whose bodies are sometimes literally scarred by the nation-­state.68 In +their studies, James Diego Vigil and Tom Hayden both connect the violence +of the Central Americans gangs in Pico-­Union to state barbarism in Central +America.69 +From my perspective ms-­13 and m-­18 could well be placed inside an as +yet unwritten history of ex-­soldiers from Central America that someone +should research. An ex-­soldier from either the Salvador Army or the rebel +army nicknamed Flaco Stoner founded Wonder-­13 in the 1980s to defend +his compatriots from Mexican Americans gangs. It soon became known as +Mara Salvatrucha, to honor its Salvadoran members, although it welcomed +Guatemalans and Hondurans excluded from other Latino gangs.70 In addition, with the numbers of Central Americans coming into the area, youth +from El Salvador, Guatemala, and Honduras took over an older, once Mexican American, 1950s gang known as 18th Street and later called m-­18, Mara­18, or Barrio-­18.71 The impact of both military training and the more general +war experience was evident to them and to others. The Los Angeles Police +Department heard that ms-­13 gang members were “outstanding” in their +cruelty because they had been trained by no less a talent than that of the +U.S. Special Forces in El Salvador.72 Neighbor youth noted that these gangs +of Guatemalan, Salvadoran, and Honduran youth brought a new level of +violence to the area, which soon provoked escalations of violence in other +gangs. One young man in Pico-­Union described the change in m-­18 after Salvadorans took over: “[Before] they [m-­18 members] were junior high school +guys . . . like punks in the way they dressed, T-­shirts with skulls and long +hair. . . . The truth is later [m-­18] became so large and so different from the +cholo gangs, this stuff of just looking for violence and no more than that . . . +they [the Salvadorans] just kill [because] some bato [dude] gives them an +ugly look. . . . They always shot to kill.”73 +Ernesto Miranda, another founding ms-­13 member and ex–Salvadoran +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +41 + + military solider explained the intensity of ms-­13 brutality: “[In Salvador] +we were taught to kill our own people, no matter if they were from your +own blood. If your father was the enemy, you had to kill him, so the training during the war in our country served to make us one of the most violent +gangs of the United States.”74 In the following description, a perceptive and +astute young man in ms-­13 captures this connection between the heightened cruelty of Salvadoran and Guatemalan gang members in Los Angeles, +and the state terror in their home countries: +The difference between the Mexicans and Salvadorans or Central Americans in general is this: Mexicans usually come from states like Michoacán. They live in a small town and are mainly agricultural. They do have +violence from feuds, drug war, or now LA barrio violence. Generally +speaking, they are not initially violent when they come to the US. El Salvador and Guatemala are another story. It was common to walk out of a +tienda and see a street splattered with brain particles and blood. People +in Guatemala were getting kidnapped and tortured to the point of insanity. In the main university in Guatemala City, students were forced +to give classes due to the fact that all the professors had gotten smoked, +one by one. . . . If you reach the age of 15 in Guatemala without having to +identify [the body of ] a relative you were blessed. These people [Guatemalans] saw carnage that even the Faces of Death [snuff videos] chose +not to use.75 +In his view, the pornography of snuff films, with their raw footage of— +among much else—real life in real-­time rapes, massacres, train crashes, +murders, and bodies flying out of exploded buildings, cannot hold a candle +to the experience of violence inside the social wreckage of a collapsed moral +universe in which you leave your everyday corner store to find brain particles +all over the street outside. +With the many sweeps that the Los Angeles police made in the Ramparts +District, members of m-­18 and ms-­13, including Flaco Stoner, ended up in +the California prison system, where (accounts claim) they made tight connections with La Eme. When and why a deadly rivalry between ms-­13 and +m-­18 started is not clear, but it predates the U.S. Immigration and Naturalization Service (ins) massive deportation of Central Americans back to +their countries of origin. What started as a trickle of ins deportations in +the early 1990s turned into a flood that included incarcerated gang members by 1996. Taken from prisons and flown home in shackles, these deportees brought with them ms-­13 and m-­18, as well as whatever slogans, clothing styles, hand signals, and vocabulary had not already traveled to Central +42 + +Chapter 1 + + America through the media and immigration. ms-­13 and m-­18 absorbed +and reorganized local Maras in Guatemala City into clikas with names such +as “Los Locos,” which then formed the base of the ms-­13 or m-­18 pyramids. +Each clika was under the supervision of a veterano; veteranos designated palabras (words) who communicated between the clikas. Members of m-­18 and +ms-­13 with whom I spoke in Guatemala City in the late 1990s told me that +the youth of each clika had their identities affirmed by going through initiation rituals—for instance, receiving the ms-­13 baptism of thirteen blows +to the body and the cult knowledge of the changing meanings of the gang +symbols that came from Los Angeles. +“Shadows of War” in Guatemala City +The war and its aftermath combined with changing demographics and an +economic crisis to alter Guatemala City. Neoliberal restructuring programs +affected Guatemala City, as they did Los Angeles and other cities around +the world. Perhaps no more social services, for instance public clinics, got +eliminated in Guatemala City than in Pico-­Union, but residents had even +fewer resources at the outset. The substantial industrial development that +took place in the 1950s and 1960s under the Central American Common +Market had already started to unravel by the late 1970s as a consequence +of the 1973 oil crisis. The cutbacks in production in workplaces such as the +large unionized cavisa glass and acricasa thread companies turned into +shutdowns in the last two decades of the twentieth century, making worse +already drastic problems of gainful employment in a city that was booming +demographically. Low-­wage maquiladoras, the sole growth industry in the +1980s and 1990s, did not offer enough jobs to compensate for those lost in +the 1980s, much less create new ones in a city with one of the world’s highest growth rates. The population had gone from less than a million in 1975 +to almost three million by 1996, with those under twenty-­five constituting +over one-­half the urban population.76 The áreas marginales, exceptionally poor +areas (see figures 1.4 and 1.5), grew as they never had before: of 161 identified in 1998, a full 111 formed after 1991. A 1996 survey of áreas marginales +found that 34 percent of the households earned less than a “survival” income.77 Most analysts argue that war refugees, whom the sociologists Santiago Bastos and Manuela Camus evocatively name “shadows of war” in a +study of urban settlements, account for their rapid growth. +Even though the displaced in the city rarely spoke directly about the massacres in fear of the consequences, which included reprisals, new designations and much else signaled the war.78 Where once rural-­to-­urban migrants +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +43 + + FIGURE 1.4 Two boys standing around on a stretch of the Avenida Bolívar +in Zone 8, Guatemala City, a city with little to offer youth, 2000. Credit: +Andrea Aragón. + + FIGURE 1.5 A mother, Guatemala City, 2002. The city streets hold out +even less for young people with children. From the series Inhalando +muerte. Credit: Andrea Aragón. + + had identities that reflected their work and place of origin—the tailor from +Todos Santos or the saleswoman from Totonicapán—now there were refugees, victims, ex-­soldiers, ex-­p acs, survivors, widows, and orphans. Like +those who went across borders, war refugees in the city carried terrible +memories into a situation where they were often alone, with few to console +or understand them. Despite their silence about the war, in one way or another they communicated their feelings as well as some version of their experiences to their children and others. Because human rights workers generally did not gather testimonies in the áreas marginales, the memories of +these refugees in the city were not reconstituted and affirmed as part of a +“collective war memory,” however complex that notion, its production, and +its uses may be.79 Without some community in which to develop a collective understanding of how mistrust, uncertainties, anger, hopelessness, and +fear are grounded in specific events and people, all these sensations became +unspecific and even more overwhelming because they seem to have no roots +outside of a blur called “the situation” that was out of their control.80 +The growing number of poor areas and the presence of a war-­related migrant population constituted one shift in urban life. Another was that the +more established city neighborhoods changed radically in the late 1980s and +1990s because they all but lost their politics to the state terror.81 Neighborhood involvement became tied to the infrastructure of global nongovernmental organizations (ngos) by the early 1990s. In many areas, vertically +structured civic life replaced the horizontal political life of the earlier period. +The number of ngos increased dramatically, and institutions representing +city and state departments, such as the medical clinics and pharmacies run +by the municipality with funds from the Ministry of Health, diminished. In +contrast to the 1970s, grassroots groups became few in number and only +local in perspective. This meant that grassroots agency and everything that +went with that—from starting from scratch in someone’s front room and +getting up the nerve to go door to door, to developing analysis, strategy, +and tactics in relation to the Guatemalan state and its agencies—had all +but died off. By the 1990s, community improvement committees generally +sought financing and advice from hierarchical agencies with international +ties. Outspoken residents became entangled in trying to win changes “from +above” rather than in mobilizing “from below.” With many ngos working +in barrios, competition about funding from these agencies often divided +community leaders. Communities tended to become further depoliticized +because the ngos encouraged residents to resolve their problems through +the medium of the ngos, instead of bringing them to the attention of the +broader public and the state, as had grassroots organizations in the 1970s, +46 + +Chapter 1 + + when neighborhood residents boldly inserted themselves into national politics (see figure 1.6).82 To confound this new absence of horizontal solidarities, the barrios had lost to state violence the left-­wing religious workers +who had envisioned creating “God’s kingdom on Earth.” Tierra Nueva, later +called Tierra Nueva I, started by a liberation theology priest in 1976 and +where the Mara Las Cobras was born in the early 1980s, is an example of a +community built with a new world in mind. +The history of its offspring, Tierra Nueva II, illustrates the deep political +change in barrios. In 1985, the teenage son of a religious left-­wing organizer +of the original Tierra Nueva I launched Tierra Nueva II with his friends. A +Mara called Mara Nene were born with the invasion; it was part of its “heat,” +as one described the marero support for the new community.83 But within +a few years, the combination of well-­funded ngos and selective state violence undermined the power of the original organizers and of their visions +for a community-­run Tierra Nueva II. Death threats forced one organizer +into exile and others out of activism. What was once a rivalry about break +dance contests between the Maras Nene in Tierra Nueva II and Las Cobras +in Tierra Nueva I became a violent one over territorio that included neighborhood streets, stores, and women’s bodies. Las Cobras destroyed Mara Nene +at the end of the decade and went on to become violent within the gang and +neighborhood. +Much had changed in these milieus. By the late 1980s and increasingly as +time passed, dozens of Pentecostal sects dominated Tierra Nueva I and II +and other areas. Trucks mounted with sound systems blasted taped messages of sin and salvation incessantly to summon residents to services that +went on during the day and evening for hours. Unlike liberation theology +adherents, most pastors believed, in the words of one, that “the poor will +always be with us. The poor choose to be poor.”84 Pentecostal pastors emphasized that nothing could be done about the fact that life was hell, and +this portrayal of earthly impotence and hopelessness resonated in the wake +of the defeat of projects for social change.85 The Pentecostal message emphasized the constancy of crisis and the absence of human control outside of individual willpower about the individual self. Nothing could have +seemed truer. These churches grew like wildfire. For young people, this city +life in the 1990s bore few traces of the experiences and ideas of the popular and revolutionary movements of the 1970s. The majority in Guatemala +City was under eighteen, and what were startling transformations for older +generations made up normal life for young people. This was a city that was +losing its cultural texture, one in which people continually experienced the +instability of the nation’s relationship to its past. +Death and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +47 + + FIGURE 1.6 The neighborhood of Esperanza in Mezquital, Guatemala +City, 2005. Fifteen hundred families led a land invasion in 1984 to +establish the urban settlement of Mezquital in Zone 12. War refugees +were among the tens of thousands who came to live here. Over the +years, Mezquital has been the scene of the twists and turns of grassroots organizations, nongovernmental organizations, state repression, +Pentecostal churches, Maras, community initiatives against Maras, and +“social cleansing” campaigns. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + The growth of violence following the war is notorious, and it happened +in this urban crucible stripped of its political and ethical past. Today, Guatemala City is one of the most dangerous places in the world, with an average +of a murder by gunfire “for every hour of the day,” as one newspaper journalist phrased it.86 The Guatemalan human rights ombudsman Sergio Morales stated that in 2008 there was more violence each day than there had +been daily during the war.87 Most deaths are by gunfire. Most of those who +die are youth. By one count, 80 percent of gun-­related deaths are of youth +between fifteen and seventeen.88 This violence is generally not related to +the political views of those killed, but that too continues. Women and men +who have opposed mining companies and hydroelectric projects, occupied +unused lands to prevent starvation, and sought to protect the environment +have been killed, and so have workers trying to unionize. +There is complete impunity. In the wake of the war, the state has shown +itself either unwilling or incapable of preventing crime. The new National +Civil Police, the presumably reformed police mandated by the Peace Accords, +simply does not pursue criminal investigations. A 2002 study revealed that +for every hundred cases reported to the judicial system, only ten received +any response at all, and in 2005, only 1 percent of those accused of “crimes +against life” were ever brought to a hearing.89 Mental health professionals— +who seem the chroniclers of the period—report that this impunity causes +despair, fear, paranoia, physical illness, and rage ignited over and over by +helplessness. Impunity has led to the formation of barrio vigilante groups +that beat up and even kill real or supposed young criminals. Impunity means +that there exists absolutely no buffer between the community and crime except community action, which can take many forms. Impunity functions as +a model whereby transgression of the law is seen as the normal way and the +only way.90 +Violence has taken a long journey. In the 1950s, 1960s and 1970s, notions +of violence were qualified and analytical. Violence was not perceived, understood, discussed, measured, or judged outside of a particular context. Although in countries such as Colombia, the term “La violencia” was a familiar one, it was uncommon in Guatemala. Whether in social science and +humanities publications, banners, or the bulletins of campesino leagues, +Maya cultural organizations, urban trade unions, and university and secondary student groups, violence was represented as state terrorism, structural +and everyday oppression, and armed self-­defense. Not only the revolutionary movement but also the popular movement and many religious figures +defended armed violence as necessary and just. It was not until the 1990s +that the defense of revolutionary violence and people’s war became increasDeath and Politics, 1950s–2000s + +49 + + ingly subdued in the face of military successes. The military has never muted +its defense of its actions, which it defines as “restoring order,” the opposite of the chaos of violence. It justified its own behavior, which it never +called violent, in terms of “social cleansing,” or it used the language of the +Cold War National Security Doctrine to argue that the cancer of subversion +needed to be cut out, a medical rather than a military phrasing. +Now ubiquitous, the unqualified term “La violencia” started to be used +after the decisive massacres of the early 1980s, and it has held different +meanings depending on who uses it, where, and when. It became a code +for state violence for survivors who lived under military rule. For some, “La +violencia” was and has remained a euphemism for state violence, a way for +survivors to speak about the past in seemingly apolitical, and thus protected, +language. It also became a way for the army, Pentecostals, and others to describe “El conflicto.” For many, especially younger generations, “La violencia” (and not the history of popular movements, guerrillas, state power and +military strategy, struggles for land and higher wages, ideas, and ideals) +tells the story of Guatemala’s past. Within this vision, a faceless “La violencia” consumed the past, and the present must be protected from it. The +historically focused Memoria del silencio report, which analyzes causes and assigns blame, has been poorly circulated in Guatemala. For those who attend +school, most curricula deal superficially with “El conflicto” and “La violencia” as the past from which Guatemala has evolved into a “post-­conflict” +democratic society.91 This new public sphere rhetoric of “conflict” and +“post-­conflict” suggests that conflict—surely a necessary condition of a +healthy society—is negative. Whether the issue is land invasions or protests +against mining, anything that questions the status quo is viewed as negative +because it reintroduces conflict and drags to the foreground the muck of “La +violencia.” Progressive groups have had a hard time reclaiming a language of +resistance. Everyone must be nonviolent; otherwise they are part of “it.”92 +In everyday talk now in Guatemala City, “La violencia comes,” “La violencia +arrives,” “La violencia prevents us,” “La violencia surrounds us,” “La violencia forces us,” “La violencia frightens us,” and so on. And “it” does all these +things. +Of 170 children under the age of eleven, questioned in 2010 in what the +National Civil Police call a “red” (high-­crime) neighborhood in Guatemala +City, 135 said that they had witnessed murders, and they could often describe in detail where the bullets went and the way the blood squirted out to +quickly turn clothing red. Given an average of eighteen violent deaths daily +in the first months of 2010, no doubt most of these children actually did see +murders, and not on television (see figure 1.7). +50 + +Chapter 1 + + FIGURE 1.7 Neighborhood residents watch the scene of a murder in +Zone 5, Guatemala City, 2005. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + Marco Garavito, head of La Liga de Higiene Mental, a mental health collective, describes how the police typically put up a yellow cordon around +the crime scene, but they place it right next to the body. “Why not at thirty +meters?” he asks with the enormous frustration because so simple a change +would help keep these deaths at least at a spatial distance. Children slip +under the ropes to look closely at the bodies, which are often of youth from +the neighborhood. If not literally known, the dead are familiar types, the +people the children might be a few years later. A reporter asks Garavito, +“What will happen to these children? What psychological damage will they +suffer, what will happen to them in the future?” Garavito replies, “It takes +no investigation to see that violence affects them . . . to the degree they become accustomed[,] they reproduce it. They see it as normal, natural.”93 +To challenge this, La Liga runs a program that takes as its point of departure and arrival the notion that violence is a “decision, not an obligation.” If +young people have internalized violence as the natural means of living, they +assume life demands it, or in the words of the Liga, “obliges” it. To invert +this and say, “violence is a decision” denaturalizes it, makes it someone’s +responsibility, and brings youth back inside the “old” social imaginary of +cause and effect and human agency and away from the passivity of Victor’s +“it just was” discourse. +To return to Victor, introduced at the start of this chapter: In what massacre did Victor take part? Was he trying to impress or frighten with a tall +story? He gave slight information, but what he said could certainly be true. +The “high-­intensity” massacres were over by the time the army picked him +up, but “low-­intensity” ones continued. If he did make it up, he did not invent the material. Clearly he knew things about these massacres, and this +knowledge was part of his archive. His description was flat, without remorse +or horror. If the military did not seize and train him, and then take him to +the highlands to play a part in a massacre, perhaps he told this personal +narrative in order to belong somewhere in the larger Guatemalan story of +war, about which he had no shame or pride because he was part of what +“just was.” + +52 + +Chapter 1 + + 1980s: THE GANGS TO LIVE FOR + +I joined because there was emptiness inside me, a little loneliness, a bit of sadness. Maybe we are all alike in this. I joined through a bunch of girlfriends with +whom I was very heavy. We’ve shared sorrows and joys. I think the Mara is a group +of people who need affection. Some of us want to escape the mess in our homes. +Sometimes we think we can create a new world. +—Researchers’ interview with Maritza, Mara de la 4, March 1987 + +W + +hen he was nine years old, Aníbal López told his parents that he had had +a vision of an earthquake. A few days later, in the early morning of February 1976, a 7.5-­magnitude earthquake with an epicenter close to Guatemala City struck. More than twenty-­three thousand persons, most of whom +lived in conditions of poverty, died as a result of this tremor and a strong +aftershock, and tens of thousands more were injured and left homeless. The +López family’s rented apartment in Barrio La Florida, Zone 19, was badly +damaged, as were most of the over ninety thousand casas precarias (precarious homes) in the city.1 In late March, the López family was one of many who +joined a well-­organized land invasion led by a revolutionary Catholic priest +onto a defunct coffee plantation on the outskirts of Zone 7, not far from La +Florida. This response to disaster was the result of theological reflections +into the meaning of the earthquake between the priest and a small group of +residents in the old barrio El Gallito in Zone 3, a neighborhood so poor that +families lived in one room that served as all rooms. The group decided, in the +words of one member, “the earthquake had been a warning from el Señor to +leave El Gallito shantytowns” and develop “a communitarian identity.” They +christened their settlement Tierra Nueva.2 +For a few years, a neighborhood committee that was inspired by liberation theology’s emphasis on building a here-­and-­now Reign of God on Earth +ran Tierra Nueva with “the notion of a little socialism in terms of solidarity” + +2 + + and “without bars or houses of prostitution.”3 The settlement grew, and over +time residents mobilized to obtain water, electricity, paved streets, garbage +collection, and a sewage system. They provided themselves with a medical clinic and started discussion groups as well as a daycare center in part +financed by workers from the radical Coca-­Cola Workers’ Union. Years later +state violence, corruption, and the imperatives and finances of the state and +ngos undermined Tierra Nueva’s politics, but for a period of time, this attempt at an alternate everyday modernity emerged in both the imagination +and practice.4 Problems such as alcoholism or unemployment were framed +in social terms and widely discussed in community circles. This was a loose +form of a “creative imaginary,” wherein individuals and collectives attempt +to define themselves, in contrast to the ontology of “being determined.”5 +The radical politics of Tierra Nueva belonged to the milieu of solidarity +and social justice that prevailed in neighborhoods, factories, and schools. +With fewer than one million residents in the 1970s, Guatemala City was the +country’s commercial and political center, and it had recently become the +site of Guatemala’s singular industrial development. Stretched out over a +high plateau cut through with deep ravines and edged by mountains, the city +was divided into twenty-­one zones. The zones were packed with people and +housing, but green areas still dotted neighborhoods, many of which were +the consequence of unplanned urban spread. Except in the wealthy sections +of the city, social life took place in empty lots, green areas, and designated +soccer fields; at church and home and in streets, bars, houses of prostitution, the city’s central plaza, and its downtown in Zone 1. At midcentury, the +urban population consisted of skilled artisans; a small middle class; an elite +class; and a lower-­class majority that labored in service, transport, construction and other sectors, was poor and primarily Ladino or mestizo, with a far +smaller number of Mayas. In the 1970s, these social classes remained; the +city, however, was also becoming a proletarian one and rural migrants were +adding to its numbers and ethnic texture. Factories gave many zones a new +profile, and some of these factories even seemed a centerpiece for their size +and bustle. The hard work, general mistreatment, low wages, and managerial violence against women and men in these new factories were challenged +by workers.6 Unions were big news: factory sit-­ins and strikes were on the +radio and in the press, with workers taking their grievances to the public. +A major event in the city, International Workers’ Day on May 1, drew tens +of thousands to the city’s central plaza with prounion and antigovernment +banners. As was discussed in the last chapter, city residents mobilized again +and again. Aníbal’s generation was perhaps too young to enter the ranks of +revolutionary organizations or the other groups that students and young +54 + +Chapter 2 + + workers joined, but it came of age within the ethos or the habitus, in Pierre +Bourdieu’s sense, of the decades-­long fight between the state and the popular movement.7 +Because Aníbal had predicted one of the worst earthquakes in Central American history, as he grew up in Tierra Nueva, his extended family +brought their worries to him, placed a lit candle in front of him, and asked +him questions such as “where is so and so?” or “is so and so hurt?” His successes—for example, correctly envisioning an uncle delayed on the highway +but not injured, dead, or missing—won him a reputation as a seer, and he +was treated with special respect. Encouraged by his older brother, in the +early 1980s he joined a new Tierra Nueva gang called Brek Las Cobras—brek +as in break dancing—and later named Mara Las Cobras, which consisted +of neighborhood boys and girls in their teens. His art career began in those +years.8 +For Aníbal, being in Las Cobras enhanced his sense of himself among +peers who appreciated his talents.9 He designed the graphics on Las Cobras’ +signature black T-­shirts. He loved the group favorites, Jethro Tull and Led +Zeppelin, enjoyed dancing, and was proud to win the title “Rey del Brek” in +an annual dance contest in which gang members competed in 1985. That +same year, another new gang, Mara Nene, took part in a land invasion led +by the seventeen-­year-­old left-­wing son of a founder of Tierra Nueva and +established the settlement of Tierra Nueva II right above what then became +renamed as Tierra Nueva I, discussed in chapter 1. +The mid-­1980s was the period when, without ending the war, the Guatemalan military returned the country to constitutional rule after evaluating the success of its counterinsurgency scorched-­earth campaigns in rural +areas. Even if what became known as a “transition to democracy” was a tactic designed by the military to garner respectability while it continued the +war, it provided at least enough space in the city for small mobilizations that +remained informed by progressive ideals. In 1984, over four hundred Coca-­ +Cola workers occupied the Coca-­Cola facilities for an entire year to protect +their union. An attempt was made to start a radical labor confederation to +replace the one destroyed in 1980, and a new organization, Grupo de Apoyo +Mutuo (Group of Mutual Support, gam), which united relatives of the disappeared to demand their loved ones safe and sound, held its first public +march in 1984.10 Urban land invasions, such as the one that created Tierra +Nueva II, grew, and in September 1985, just before president-elect Vinicio +Cerezo of the centrist Partido Demócrata Cristiano (Christian Democratic +Party, pdc) took office with his promise of a “government for and by the +people,” secondary students from the Rafael Aqueche Institute in downtown +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +55 + + Guatemala City took to the streets to stop an increase in bus fares, with the +support of the bus drivers and the participation of youth from the neighborhood breks. In retrospect, these urban demonstrations in the mid-­1980s +were the last in the twentieth-­century city with those kinds of 1970s left-­ +wing politics. The point here is that gang members were part of this brief +reappearance of protest. +The mid-­1980s also saw the first massive advertising campaigns aimed +at the urban youth market. Brightly colored ads portraying happy youth +wearing Levi’s jeans, Reebok or Nike footwear, and expensive accessories +appeared on television, which was becoming ubiquitous in barrios for the +first time, and on billboards. This relentless multinational crusade to get +youth from all social classes and ethnic backgrounds to desire goods that +formed part of a fantasy “world youth culture” had effects. It was impossible to live in the city and miss this loud second coming of capitalism, in +which messages about the benefits of consuming what were virtually lavish +goods replaced the discredited promises of the post-­1954 economic development. This consumerism intensified life for working-­class youth, who already faced many demands and dilemmas. Desires to have a youth style that +required its own expensive international accoutrements had the potential +to push to calamity already-­untenable emotional, cultural, and economic +situations wherein youth from poor homes were expected to work, to study, +and to be a stable part of the time-­honored family wage economy. It is in +this context of a fading Left presence, a return to civilian government, and a +marked growth of advertising that the Maras emerged. +Real Maras Become Imaginary Ones +By 1987, boys and girls from age six to late teens had created over sixty +gangs, which were sometimes dubbed breks but more often Maras. They +gave them names that suggested mischief, rebellion, fun, trouble, a place, +gringo-­isms, masculinity, or some combination of these traits. Maras named +Los Guerreros, Las Pirañas, El Ruso, Los Pulpos, Los Garañones, Tigresa, +Ángeles Infernales, Las Brujas, Los Angelitos, Nais, Relax, Vacas, Botudos, +Sexta Calle, Los Motines Paraíso, adi, Los Títeres, Guevudos, Zope, Callejeros, Mara 33, Apache, Miau Miau, 3 de Julio, Las Llantas, Motley Crew, El +Ceviche, La Isla, and Mara five came to include as many as one thousand +children and teenagers who joined together to socialize; listen to the music +of Led Zeppelin, Jethro Tull, the Grateful Dead, Queen, and other groups +from the United States and Great Britain; and live with group and individual +style, attitude, and personality. They earned reputations for their own strik56 + +Chapter 2 + + ing character. Their lower-class “strutting” drew fire from better-­off students at private colegios, who even started gangs called Bourgeois and AntiBrek, which declared “war” on the Maras for being “vulgar” and “uppity.” +Decrying the appropriation of break dancing, a member of Bourgeois and +Anti-Brek explained: “I fight with the breks because they are servants, vulgar +types, because they rob, because of the way they dress. When brek dancing +was in style, the bourgeois started to dance brek until it went out of style, +but the poor kept dancing.”11 Victor, a founder of Mara Plaza Vivar Capitol, +and Carlos Rafael Soto, head of Public Relations of the National Police, told +me the same story about the origin of the widespread use of the term Mara +for these gangs. They both separately said that the National Police spread the +use of the term Mara in September 1985 during the protest against the bus +fare. Soto remembered, “The September protesters used no organizational +form or name so we called them ‘Maras’ from that Brazilian movie.” Victor +recalled, “The guys from the press and the cops said ‘here comes the Marabunta!’ and that’s how it came to us and we started to be the Mara Plaza +Vivar Capitol.”12 +A year later, these Maras were front-­page news. Under the headline “Grenade Exploded in Discothèque,” the daily El Gráfico reported that a youth in a +“yellow bus with a black strip” threw a hand grenade at a crowd of teenagers +in front of a discothèque named La Montaña Púrpura. One of the wounded, a +ten-­year-­old on his way to Zone 1 to get a pair of sneakers, recounted to the +journalist from El Gráfico that Mara youths in a school bus descended upon +him and his friends, snatched gold chains, and fled.13 Within a day, the National Police spokesperson Soto explained to the media that the grenade had +exploded in front of this discothèque at which loitered drugged youth who +belonged to Mara 33, a criminal band from Zone 6 that had its origins in +television programs from the United States and in misguided parenting. In +his words, “This evil affecting our youth is the fault of irresponsible parents +who have permitted their children to live in complete freedom.”14 Common +images of delinquent life—such as the abuse of school property, weapons, +gold chains, free-wheeling minors, Zone 1, and discos—­materialized in the +story, and Soto used many of the loaded words—drugs, foreign, bad parents, drugs, freedom—of the ensuing anti-­Mara narrative. +Without evidence, the National Police, press, and politicians quickly +linked these Maras to urban problems such as street crime, prostitution, and +the sale and use of drugs. The magistrate for minors, who directed the frail +juvenile court system, pointed to the “disintegration of the family.”15 Social +workers, even female ones with children, cited “women working outside the +home” as the “fundamental cause” of juvenile delinquency.16 Catchphrases +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +57 + + about “imitating foreigners,” “foreign movies,” “lack of nationalism,” and +“imitating Negros” occurred again and again. The head of the juvenile delinquency bureau of the National Police told me: “Rock music incites youth to +fight. We copy a lot . . . we don’t appreciate our own culture. Guatemalan +citizens who work abroad bring records, this infiltrates our culture, there is +also the effect of the Negroes in the U.S., the Maras are like Negro gangs, or +like Stallone’s Cobras.” Speaking without irony, in the midst of civil war, he +added, “Or look at that movie Warriors, now that had ­impact!”17 +Members of the Pentecostal movement were emerging in the mid-­1980s +as the city’s new professionals in the wake of the military’s destruction of +the intellectual community in fields such as psychology and sociology, and +they incorporated this mix of nationalist, racist, and pro-­family rhetoric into +a religious discourse of Satanism that surpassed that of criminalization. +Pentecostal fanaticism had echoes of what the historian Virginia Garrard-­ +Burnett suggests was Guatemala’s religious language of war, one best exemplified by nationally televised speeches of the early 1980s that proselytized about the urgency of the covenant between God and man to cleanse +society of evil, and were given by Pentecostal general Efraín Ríos Montt, who +directed acts of genocide.18 +With unchallenged authority, Pentecostals became in the 1980s the most +organized and outspoken experts on gangs in the city, and they drew on +the international fame of born-­again Christianity successes with gangs +such as New York City’s famous Mau Maus. Pentecostal members, as chapter 4 elaborates, became important officials in government agencies who +did not hesitate to be outspoken about their conservative religious vision of +the roots of social problems. A Pentecostal counselor working in the Welfare Secretariat insisted to me that “the term Mara is Hindu for ‘death to +the soul.’ . . . They are Satanic, they use the anti-­Christ number 767 and +their music encourages incest and necrophilia.”19 A widely circulated Pentecostal pamphlet titled La música roc y sus peligros warns that the Maras played +rock music incessantly to promote “Satanic themes, pornography, materialism and chaos. . . . The popular singer Michael Jackson casts spells of terror in his music and video ‘Thriller.’ ac-­d c has songs like ‘Injected Poison’ +and the Evil Way on their album ‘Highway to Hell.’ The group ‘Queen’ has +been popular. . . . Many think that ‘Queen’ means “queen’ but aside from +that, ‘queen’ is an expression used in the street for homosexual transvestite. +Theirs is a Satanic philosophy of homosexuality and the number one danger +to which we must be alert.”20 A respected Pentecostal psychologist, Roberto +Morales del Pinar, who directed a home for runaway girls and young women +and wrote a regular newspaper column, described in horror to me how, in +58 + +Chapter 2 + + one U.S. rock video, teenagers throw their father out the window. According +to him, “In the Mara Satan appears to them [mareros], blood flows, wounds +open, hate grows. . . . Satan conducts their death cults.” Morales del Pinar +thought it took fire to fight such fire, as it had, he pointed out to me, against +the communists.21 +The newly elected ruling pdc did not use this particular language. +It made the “crisis of youth” a central issue and set up an underfinanced +agency called National Plan for Youth to provide alternatives to gang life. It +sponsored conferences, and even gave a few Mara youth office space in the +National Youth Institute, an older establishment that trained future leaders. +The pdc directed the new Ministries of Culture, Education, Labor, and +Health—not the National Police or religious group—to confront the challenge of the Maras. However, the pdc did not confront the Pentecostal view, +though party officials knew that the gangs represented no danger because +the pdc had commissioned a study that showed the Maras to be composed +of fairly average urban youth who at the worst broke minor laws. That these +findings were not publicized and circulated facilitated confusion and fear, +allowing the pdc to maintain favorable ties with the burgeoning and well-­ +financed Pentecostal movement. +Research about Mareros +Young social scientists within the National Plan for Youth, who were genuinely concerned that their work would contribute to making party policy, +directed the pdc’s study. They conducted two straightforward surveys that +consisted of asking young women and men in the gangs multiple-­choice +questions. Forty filled out a questionnaire in 1987, and a year later, five Mara +leaders who worked with the National Plan asked 290 gang members the +same questions. The two surveys coincided on all but matters of age and gender. In the smaller study, 20 percent were female, and in the second, larger +study in 1988, 44 percent were female. In the first survey, 80 percent of the +youth were ages fifteen to nineteen, and in the second, 73 percent were ages +twelve to fifteen. The sheer percentages of females and children who belonged to the Maras undercut the images that the media, the police, and the +Pentecostal descriptions evoked, as did all the results. +According to both surveys, of the religious majority in the Maras, 24 percent belonged to Pentecostal churches and the rest were Catholic; 27 percent checked “no religion.” Eighty percent lived at the birth family’s home. +Ninety percent were born and bred in cities; 86 percent were single. Most +spent their free time “hanging out” with Mara friends with whom they had +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +59 + + “very tight” relationships, and few regularly watched television. All were literate, 61 percent attended elementary or secondary school, and the rest had +dropped out of school. Eighty-­three percent did not work either because +they studied or because they could find no work; 21 percent occasionally +stole items. Most who worked in the formal economy earned little. When +the questionnaire asked about aspirations for the future, 55 percent stated +they wanted to study, 19 percent wanted to work, 2 percent wanted to form +a family, 1 percent wanted to immigrate to the United States, 19 percent had +“no aspirations,” and the rest had no reply. +Queried about what might improve their future prospects, 64 percent replied “nothing,” 24 percent “study,” 9 percent “work,” and 3 percent “rob.” +Over half had taken illegal drugs, usually marijuana. Over 80 percent felt +“happy” in their Maras, and 85 percent were “in agreement with the rules +guiding the Maras because they were not imposed norms, but arrived at +through consensus.” Almost 100 percent had a positive view of their Mara +as “angry, but with internal solidarity and respect” and declared that they +had entered because of the “necessity of youth to unite.” Only 8 of the 290 +youths in the second survey said that they wished to leave the Maras in order +to become “good citizens.” +Whatever their shortcomings, the surveys at least revealed that Maras +were composed of young people who seemed to be more or less “normal,” +except that they were better educated than most city youth, they stole goods, +and they moved within milieus of their own creation. Probably a citywide +survey of adults would have found comparable replies about religion and +wages but not about literacy, immigration, stealing, drugs, and, most important, belonging to a space perceived as one of solidarity, respect, happiness, and democracy. The pdc researchers, themselves products of the +1960–70s, realized that the Maras had a relationship with that immediate +political legacy. They concluded their report by defining the Maras as “a phenomenon of organized protest,” which was not a negative description in +their eyes.22 +That same year, wishing to analyze the abrupt, shrill emphasis on juvenile +crime in a nation racked by extraordinary state violence and shaken by the +loss of dynamic popular politics, the social worker Nora Marina Figueroa, +the psychologist Marta Yolanda Maldonado Castillo, and I did a qualitative +study of the Maras under the auspices of the independent research institution the Asociación para el Avance de las Ciencias Sociales en Guatemala (Association for the Advancement of Social Sciences in Guatemala, +avancso). I wrote up the results in a monograph titled Por sí mismos: Un estudio preliminar de las “Maras” en la Ciudad de Guatemala, published by avancso +60 + +Chapter 2 + + in 1988.23 We had decided to study these gangs of children and youth because publicity about them had become alarmingly predominant at a time of +complete silence surrounding the murders of the tens of thousands of children and youth in the highlands. The dangers these gangs posed might well +be fantasy, we thought, and meant to distract attention from military massacres, yet the anxieties being created were real. Giving answers to simple +questions concerning who these youth were, what they were doing, and +what they thought they were doing aimed to clarify the public discussion. +We interviewed dozens of members about family, work, school, violence, +their gangs, their social lives, and their general views of life. And, after we +spent several months passing time and talking with mareros from ten different Maras, we made the general observation that most of them were calm, +well spoken, and thoughtful, not mindlessly imitative, obsessive, or hostile. +Concerned about love and acceptance, they did not want to be misunderstood by us or the media, and they were usually eager to talk (see figure 2.1). +The young people and children with whom we spoke came from poor, +working-­class, and lower middle-­class families. Their parents labored in +the informal and formal economies, most commonly as vendors, artisans, +construction workers, day laborers, and domestic servants. They often described home life to be tense because of financial and emotional strains. +Silvio, an eighteen-­year-­old member of Mara five, depicted his family: “My +whole life has been a Calvary because my father is an alcoholic. There is no +way to stop him! But my mother is the best in the world, everyone says so. +I have a sister and the two of us suffer. . . . He doesn’t have any money, not +even so we can eat. Today he came home drunk at 5 pm. But I have a grandmother who lives in the USA . . . she loves us, she helps us, thanks to her I +study.”24 As this predicament of alcoholism in Silvio’s “whole” family illustrates, troubles were not confined to the single-­parent households. Speaking of her emotional ties to her hard-­working nuclear family, Lupe explained +in a disheartened tone and without cynicism, “I have almost no relationship +with them. . . . I don’t know what to talk to them about.”25 +The gang members’ views about the family, which they clearly perceived +as the basic social unit of life, revealed deep feelings about what constituted +a problem and what a solution. In all but ten of the descriptions of family +life that we heard, fathers and other men such as stepfathers and boyfriends +were irresponsible, alcoholic, and violent. Yolanda, age fourteen and a member of Mara Belén, explained that her mother, whom Yolanda adored, was a +prostitute in a nightclub in Zone 1. Yolanda was furious at her mother: “I’m +mad at her because she wants to marry some guy and I don’t want him to +live in the house. I haven’t talked to her for two months. My little brother +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +61 + + FIGURE 2.1 Snapshot of Miguel, a member of Mara five, taken in +­ uatemala City in 1987 by the author. Despite the publicity about the +G +Maras’ Satanic criminality, in the 1980s no professional photographers +were taking pictures of Mara members, who were hardly menacing in +appearance. Credit: Deborah T. Levenson. + + doesn’t like him either. This guy is rotten. He beats my mother.”26 Rafael, +a seventeen-­year-­old from Mara 33, said of his family, “The truth is that I +don’t even know my father. I live with my stepfather, but he fights with me +and I have to confront him all the time. My mother sells food, she makes +stuffed chilies, tostados, atoles. . . . One day I’ll invite you. My stepfather is a +drunk who likes to fight, he’s always loaded and my old lady and my brothers +and sisters and I have to put up with this because there is no other way.”27 A +sixteen-­year-­old Mara 33 member, Hernán, lived with his mother and father, +but his relationship with his father was “terrible, a mess, because he is hotheaded.”28 Sixteen-­year-­old Marvin from Mara Garañones did not know +what happened to his father: “I lived with my grandmother until I was fifteen, when she died, and so I had to go live with my mother and stepfather. +I don’t get along with him. Every so often he beats me and kicks me out.”29 +Even worse than this general violence that many recounted to us were accounts of sexual abuse. Girls and young women told us of fathers, uncles, +or stepfathers who had raped them in their households, in familial beds or +patios, on floors or tables. Angeles, a fourteen-­year-­old former member of +a Mara, recounted that she and other young girls wrote a play that represented the girls’ tribulations for a project named Chicas de Hoy (The Girls of +Today), run by a private organization. The plot was one of adult male against +young female, and it told the tragic “every young woman’s” story of a girl +first deserted by her father and then raped repeatedly by her stepfather. +These descriptions were about men, and not all family members. Out of +all the mareros with whom we spoke, just one thought that his household +was an unconditionally good place and a “real home.” Berlin, an eighteen-­ +year-­old from Mara 33, an orphan who lived alone with his grandmother, +commented that he and his grandmother got along “super bien, we have +good vibrations.”30 Even through the praise Berlin gave his family of two +was unique, grandmothers always, and mothers sometimes, emerged in +the family stories as good people and as saviors, in contrast to adult males. +Silvio’s brief portrait of his family was common: his father wasted family +income on alcohol, and, as he put it, his mother was the “best,” and “everyone says so.” The working maternal grandmother in the United States who +paid for the children’s expenses out of her wages was a common figure +in these families. Lucia, a thirteen-­year-­old from Mara de la 4, lived with +younger siblings, a father who drank and, in her words, “yells at everyone in +the house,” and a disabled mother who depended on her mother’s monthly +Western Union money wires from New York City. Lucia pointedly credited +her grandmother for paying her mother’s medical expenses, which included +an expensive wheelchair.31 +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +63 + + Social workers used the vague concept of the “disintegrated family” in +order to explain youth delinquency and as a synonym for “familial crisis,” +yet conversations with these professionals made it clear that they knew that +male alcoholism and domestic violence created crises in many two-­parent +households, and that they saw wife beating and machismo as widespread +problems that “everyone knows about.”32 That awareness of “what everyone +knows” did not become operable knowledge. The aim of the social work with +youth was to unite children with their families and reinforce child–­parent +relationships, and not to honor and support youth, especially females, who +had the sense to detest the men in their households. In addition and no doubt +related to the wish to repair “broken” families, social workers looked at us +in despair when we suggested that legal steps be taken against these men. +In contrast to the social workers, these youths did not seem to want to +mend their birth families, nor to hold as dear a vague ideal of the nuclear +family. Their knowledge of what the general concept of “familial crisis” +meant came from their emotional experiences, and they had their own solution: a redefined family, the Mara. They consistently used the term family to +refer to their Maras. Without deserting their birth kin, the young women +and men with whom we spoke wanted better families, not the status quo +“traditional” ones. These young people slept at their birth family’s home +most of the time, and at the same time they created new families inside their +Maras. They often ate together, a traditional family activity, in fast-­food restaurants, and they kept track of one another’s whereabouts. Yolanda, who +lived with her mother, said, “Like the others say, for me the Mara is my +family, the best one in the world. There you have someone who loves you +and tells you so.” Sitting next to Yolanda in a Wendy’s restaurant, where our +conversation took place, sixteen-­year-­old Tono added that their Mara was +“like family, but nicer, because no one bawls you out. Instead each person +is like who they are, and that’s all there is to it.”33 Here was the new family, +simply enough, warm and accepting. Hernán evaluated family in relation +to his views on freedom and acceptance: “I think that family puts a lot of +pressure on you, and because of that you seek your own group, a new family, +so you can be free to be what you want to be and not how others want you +to be.” For Calixto, at twenty-­four the oldest Mara member we met and the +only one who had immigrated to Mexico and the United States to work, Mara +adi was his Guatemalan anchor. He said, “The Mara is all I have . . . it’s +my only family. There are friends, girls, and a lot of things that I cannot explain. When I am far away, there’s someone here for me, someone to write +to, someone you want to see.”34 Silvio said that he “joined the Mara through +friends. You talk, and go along getting to know each other, until it’s like a +64 + +Chapter 2 + + really good family.” Maritza, whose Mara de la 4 was at one point an all-­girl +gang, explained: “I joined because there was emptiness inside me, a little +loneliness, a bit of sadness. Maybe we are all alike in this. I joined through a +bunch of girlfriends with whom I was very heavy. We’ve shared sorrows and +joys. I think the Mara is a group of people who need affection. Some of us +want to escape the mess in our homes. Sometimes we think we can create +a new world.”35 Being encircled by affectionate and empathetic peers made +up Maritza’s new world, and that interrupted, and thankfully so, a life spent +being constantly at pains with a “mess.” +Articulate in the conversations that we initiated, the youths had never +sought out a priest or a nun, a friendly schoolteacher, or any other adult for +guidance or solace. Their space belonged to them, and in their space they did +what they enjoyed, at a distance from adults. Sexuality was central to this +distance because the new family of the Mara did not disapprove of sex for +young people. It did not necessarily introduce sex, but the gang members +admitted to it. Inside the Maras, sex flourished as exploration and as an item +of conversation. What was a silent truth elsewhere—that many girls willfully had sex with boys before marriage—was not hidden, which is not to +say that there existed sexual equality or that abuse did not go on during this +early phrase of the Maras, as it would constantly in the 1990s. Notwithstanding serious problems, in the mid-­1980s arguably the only space where youth +heterosexuality and homosexuality were undisguised and unashamed realities was within some of the Maras. Hernán cheerfully described his Mara in +the working-­class neighborhood where he had lived all his life, as consisting +of “twenty eight guys and two dykes.” His own lover was male. He explained, +“The heavy thing is that in the Mara you learn to be freer in every sense. So, if +a guy has sexual relations with a guy, no big deal. Same thing with the girls.” +Maritza, who had had an amorous relationship with another girl, said that +her greatest wish was to “find a girl or boy who in all honesty loves me and +loves that I love her or him.” +However, in drawing a closed circle around their Maras, the gang members did not leave their birth kin emotionally. They were loyal and proud +members of the family wage economy as well; they never complained about +this fact or rebelled against it. Everyone in their households worked, and— +this was the only departure from the cdp report in our findings—so did +the mareros. Lupe, the fifteen-­year-­old member of Mara Pirañas, hawked +clothes in the large El Guarda market, her mother sold fruits juices in a +smaller one, and her father worked in construction. Another fifteen-­year-­ +old, Joel, from Mara Belén, had a part-­time job in a shoe factory. He explained to us, “My father leaves at six in the morning and comes home at +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +65 + + eight at night. . . . My mother works in a store. My brothers and sister each +work on their own, and I’m almost never at home.”36 Rocío, a twelve-­year-­ +old girl, who had just joined Mara 33, worked alongside her mother sewing +fashionable clothes that her older sister then sold to shops in Zone 1.37 Maritza picked coffee alongside her mother when she was small, then washed +clothes, and more recently worked in sales earning Q150 a month. Earning +Q160 a month, América worked sixty hours weekly in an upscale bakery in +Zone 1, and gave part of her earnings to her mother.38 Isabel, a seventeen-­ +year-­old in the Mara Plaza Vivar Capitol, made thirty quetzals a week babysitting to help pay her younger brother’s school expenses, such as a uniform, +a notebook, and a pencil.39 Rafael explained, “I have worked in everything, +like the rest of us [in the family]! Can you believe that when I was a little +kid, I collected plastic bags in the garbage dump? After that I gathered old +newspapers and sold them in the market. After that I worked as a mechanic, +which is very tiring work, and after that in a supermarket. There are eight +of us plus my mother—it is a lot [to support].” Hernán worked in the informal economy, selling nail clippers, scissors, sunglasses, key chains, and +change purses out of his school knapsack; he averaged Q150 a month. He +said, “With that I can help my mother and buy my own things, because my +father does not even have money to buy his own cigarettes.” Marvin earned +one hundred quetzals a month as a carpenter’s helper and gave most of it to +his mother. He hated her husband, who hit him and sometimes threw him +out, but by giving her money, Marvin remained an indispensable son inside +the circle of kin. Having money was obviously a form of power. The mareros’ +ability to get money, and not necessarily their ability to hold down a job, gave +them a positive sense of themselves and allowed them to help kin. +Within the context of the Mara as a means to empowerment and self-­ +esteem, robbery noticeably widened the horizons of many mareros. As +workers, these youths were poorly paid for what was generally unskilled +labor. As thieves, they made more money, a point many learned while working, and they also had the opportunity to develop interesting skills. When +the Pepsi-­Cola Company employed Alejandro, a sixteen-­year-­old Mara five +member, at fifteen quetzals a week as an auxiliary on a delivery truck, he discovered he and others could make fifteen quetzals a day stealing and selling crates. In 1987, as a full-­time thief who stole from tourists traveling to +the colonial town of Antigua, Alejandro was king: he earned eight hundred +quetzals during Holy Week that year. He was proud of his abilities, and he +explained at length his exploits riding back and forth on a bus between Antigua and Guatemala City, happy to allow gringas to “practice their Spanish on +me,” while he cut their backpacks and slipped out whatever his fingers could +66 + +Chapter 2 + + manage to mine. That was his specialty. He said that mareros usually had +one, whether it was opening car locks, stripping cars, cutting glass, slitting +pocketbooks and pockets, or fencing goods. Like others, Alejandro stressed +that this sort of activity meant “nothing really serious” to those robbed, and +that he took “nothing of importance,” such as a passport. +By working or more productively by stealing, the mareros could award +their new selves new necessities, provide old necessities for their families, +and maintain their accustomed selves. Hernán explained, “I have money for +my father’s cigarettes, and I get what I want to,” as he waved a handsome +gold wristband around. Lupe pickpocketed to provide cash for “my mother +and sunglasses for me.” Robbery could yield the new material culture of +youth without hurting one’s family. Berlin, for example, looking great in +a brand-­name wool sweater, fashion jeans, and new clean white Nikes, explained to us how he had acquired his stylish apparel: “I stole the sneakers +from a burgués [a bourgeois], these pants from another, and that’s how I get +along, getting what I need to live.” +As Berlin said, he and other youth in the Maras stole from burgueses, +snobs, and those who had money, or had the nerve to appear as if they did. +They positioned their victims as the class enemy, and their crimes class justified. Calixto, who helped support his mother and siblings, explained, “I’ve +robbed everything from a piece of bread to a car, and with that I am saying +everything! I am a professional thief, which is a bit more elegant then ‘delinquent,’ but I’ve always robbed from people who have money, robbing from +the poor is evil.” Silvio said, “Look, the only people I steal from are people +with money, because robbing from an equal would not be right. I grabbed +chains from the chicks at Monte María, Belga, and other private schools.” +Rafael, the seventeen-­year-­old from Mara 33, said, “I’ve taken what I need, +and I have robbed from the rich. Taking from the burgueses is like taking a +strand of hair from a cat, and you have to survive one way or another.” Lupe +explained, “I slit the pocket books of two burgueses. . . . I took stuff from +some others as well. . . . Last year I bought my mother a pair of shoes for +Christmas so she doesn’t have to use sandals anymore. You want to know +what else? I bought a Christmas tree. It was the first time we had a Christmas tree. We in the Mara, we have to steal from the burgueses because they +have things we don’t have, and it doesn’t affect them.” Even if they sometimes stole from the lower middle class, even if they categorized potential +victims as bourgeois in a purely visual and unreliable way, mareros were self-­ +conscious about presenting their actions as belonging to the class world of +the deserving poor. If robbing helped their own, it was morally correct. Their +language and recognition of their social location reflected a class and moral +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +67 + + awareness that came from the recent urban movements. They never robbed +within their own neighborhoods, and this represented a significant and a, +sadly, short-­lived consciousness, a choosing of sides that came from a critical awareness, a framing of their situation, and not from a “primitive” or +subconscious “speaking” that the oppressed “have” by virtue of oppression. +A few of them had been at the margins of activism. Maritza was involved +in a movement to fire a reactionary school principal. Silvio had been in a +secretive political association in public school. His social commentary on +his school days was meant to educate us, the researchers. He explained that +he was expelled because of his membership in the student group, but he was +more interested in pointing out the following: “I want a different education, +something that is really helpful and not a lot of crap that what the hell do +you want to waste your time with it anyway? It would be great if the teachers +taught in an interesting way and not just by dictation after dictation. You get +tired and then you lose interest in your studies because you are treated as an +object that should not talk, move or think, basically [someone] who should +not really exist.” Silvio called Mara five a weapon of social justice. He said +he initially joined it “because I have a strong desire to fight for my rights, +which society has denied me.” +In addition, their cultural taste exemplified their proximity to the popular +movement and their alertness to the dilemmas of youth, war, and unhappy +families. La historia oficial (The Official Story), an intensely emotional Argentine film that condemns dictatorship and advocates in no uncertain terms +for victims of the Dirty War, was one favorite. The other was Pink Floyd’s The +Wall, a music-­driven movie depicting the construction and the possible demotion of a young man’s separation (the wall) of self from self and from the +world; this young man came from a family damaged by war. It would be hard +to think of two movies from that era that spoke, and spoke in generationally +distinct artistic styles, so deeply to the Guatemalan realities of parents and +youth struggling inconclusively to get loose from webs made tight by violence. +Their other opinions reflected their political and social sensibilities. +They unanimously described Ronald Reagan and President Vinicio Cerezo, +a member of the pdc, in negative terms—Cerezo as “a greedy asshole”— +and they painted Archbishop Próspero Penados del Barrio, a campaigner for +social justice, in positive terms. They dismissed Madonna as empty headed +and Michael Jackson as a “sell-­out” because they thought he rejected his +own roots. They overwhelmingly selected Rigoberta Menchú, whose autobiographical narrative was published in Spanish in 1983, and Che Guevara +as the “people I most admire.” One young man had an artistically arranged +68 + +Chapter 2 + + scrapbook, which he regularly updated, of clippings about the Nicaraguan +Sandinistas that went back to 1979. In reply to the question “What would +you do if you were president?” came answers such as “Fight so that all can +live equally,” and “I’d bring down the rich and give it all to the poor.” Most +identified the worst problem in the city as the cost of living. +In 1987, a handful of trade unionists in the city, including some from the +Coca-­Cola union, decided to hold a May 1 demonstration, the first public +one since 1980. With the media image of the mareros in mind, and in order +to forestall any problems, the labor activists approached Mara Plaza Vivar +Capitol about the march because this Mara was close to its route and final +rallying point. Mara Plaza Vivar Capitol told them that “we mareros are from +the working class and we would never harm the working class.”40 And after a +right-­wing attempted coup against the civilian government on May 11, 1988, +Mara five (Silvio’s Mara) ran a classified ad in the newspaper Prensa Libre +that read, “This business of wanting to put an end to government is no good. +Youth wants peace, not violence. When will we be heard? Mara five.” +These young people defended themselves against class wounds, including +the modern urban one of being excluded from style. In the 1980s, when advertising introduced Reebok, Adidas, and Nike, the power footwear priced +at the equivalent of a worker’s monthly wage and that only upper-­class youth +could afford, it turned into a class problem. Berlin’s narrative of the origins of Mara 33—with over one hundred members, it was one of the largest +gangs in the city at that time—illustrates how close the gangs stood to class +organizing, and how, instead, they took the road of class stealing. For decades and through the 1970s, boys played sports in nationally produced +­i ncatecu sneakers. He said, +It all started when we played soccer on the Barrio San Antonio team [in +1985]. We qualified for the juvenile championship, and we were supposed +to play in the final, but some burgueses had up to a couple of pair [of +Nikes] each. We watched them, and then we jumped them, and we took +their shoes and some other stuff. . . . You begin to realize that even soccer is only for the burgueses. We started going to parties. We got to know +other guys, and we started to get together to talk about the problems +each one had. Then we realized the desire to stick together. When one of +the guys was really down, we helped out, but all of a sudden, we realized +that we could have everything that was in style by ripping it off, or as they +say, “borrowing.” +Berlin brought together many elements of lower-­class life in the city in +the 1980s. It was virtually impossible to carry out the daily activities of life +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +69 + + (e.g., the simple leisure activity of soccer) without struggle. With no movements for higher wages, stealing became one of the few avenues through +which working-­class youth could obtain material improvement. In the case +of soccer, they thought that if they had Nike footwear they might win the +game, and all the esteem that accompanied victory. In any case, why should +Berlin and his friends not have those same high-­quality goods? At points +in his description, Berlin could have been talking about the formation of +a trade union or grassroots neighborhood group. After all, his Mara was a +local organization devoted to getting the needs of working-­class met, except +that some of these needs were defined by a global generational code; they +were outside of the accustomed social essentials, and the means to their satisfaction was robbery. +One of the most pensive teenagers with whom we spoke, Maritza, explained her crime in terms of power relations and injustice, and expressed +ambivalence about the consumerism that flooded the city: +Yes, I have robbed. You, what do you know? Maybe it never hurt you not +to have what others had. I don’t know the explanation, the why of social +classes, why some have and others don’t. Lady, this pain I carry inside +me drowns me, and I don’t know how to stop it. The first time I stole +was from a teacher who asked me to help her carry some oranges to her +house. I waited. It was very hot. I thought she would give me one. But +she didn’t. I took one and also an ornament. I was scared. I thought she +would find out but she didn’t. . . . +You want to hear something? I love perfume. But it would be a sin to +ask my mother for it, because she has nothing. So once I was on a bus and +I took some [a perfume flask] from a snobby-­t ype girl. I was frightened +and I felt guilty but there was no other way. . . . Here in school they ask +you to buy materials—they told us to buy special paper once and I didn’t +have a penny, so I stole some from a companion. I wish someone, maybe +you, would explain to me why one has to have objects and things one cannot buy. A while back, I stole a Parker pen from a girl. The saddest part +was that when I had it, I didn’t feel what I thought I would feel. +Maritza wove a world of class injury and class defense into her account of +robbery. Hurt by elitism and abuse of a child’s obedience to a teacher, she +expressed anger and humiliation. Wanting to have the perfume yet sensitive to her mother’s poverty, she protected her mother and her own desire +by robbing someone she imagined would not be adversely affected. Needing items required by her school (an important arena for Maritza), she stole + +70 + +Chapter 2 + + from companions. But she recognized that she was talking about robbing +peers, not the wealthy. She stopped her narrative at precisely that moment to +interrogate her petty thievery. Maritza was a thoughtful young woman, and +she questioned her pursuit. What was so good about these commodities if +obtaining them in this way risked friendship and brought nothing but anxiety? It was impossible not to be on her side. +Several youth in the Maras, including Maritza, cautioned us about the +Maras. She told us that in some Maras, boys gang-­raped girls. Rafael made +the haunting comment that his Mara was “very tight—it follows you everywhere because it is inside of you. Sometimes you feel good with the group +but sometimes there’s a prison inside you that you can’t escape.” As much as +these young people were not mindless imitators of television, dulled by bad +habits, or cowed by the dominant ideas in Guatemalan society, and as much +as the Maras could provide a better family and at least some space to act and +think creatively, the danger of authoritarianism existed. Rafael went on to +say, “The only thing I don’t like inside the Mara is that one is apparently free, +but inside one’s head one is afraid to do things for fear of being rejected.” +Maritza commented: “You can say the Mara doesn’t influence you, but the +moment comes when you realize that to have their support, you have to be +and do what others want. And that’s where you get confused. I try to be myself, but I have trouble, so the result is that sometimes I end up being what +others want me to be. . . . Well, here’s another angle which is a consolation: +it [the Mara] is not so great, but it would be worse without it.” +As appealing as the young people we spoke with were, we concluded our +study without too much optimism. Despite the powerful critiques and commentaries of society that these young women and men made, they were not +trying to alter the already rapidly changing world of Guatemala City. They +spent time together smoking marijuana and hanging out, not organizing. +The moral affirmation of stealing from the “burgueses” and giving to themselves and other poor people was an important part of the mareros’ identity, but we knew that they knew they were not always stealing from the rich +to give to the poor and when they talked about having stolen particular car +parts from a particular model car, they had no idea whom they defrauded. +Some of the robbery went beyond gold chains, sneakers, and perfumes. +The market dictated much of their robbery, and the more money they +wanted, the more the market controlled them. Consequently, they ended +up “expropriating” from the not-­so-­well-­off. In 1987, the high demand on +car parts for Toyota sedans and pickups made these makes prime targets. +These were two models often used by lower middle-­class and working-­class + +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +71 + + people who had saved long and hard to purchase vehicles in order to start a +small business, such as one hauling sand to construction sites. Moreover, +the more a particular Mara became involved in theft as a primary activity, +the more hierarchical and secretive the gang became. In one Mara gang, +all the goods went “up” to a leader who fenced them, and then some money +came “down, to be divided equally.” According to two irritated members of +that Mara, the price the goods brought remained a mystery. In that particular gang, a gendered division of labor meant that pickpocketing belonged +to females because of their small quick fingers—the same reason used for +employing women in textiles—while boys stole and sold “heavy goods.” As +a consequence, girls earned less. +An original and daring sexual frankness and openness to love characterized some Maras. However, the gendered life within them was sometimes +no worse or better than that in Guatemalan society in general, and there also +existed an exaggerated masculinity, a hypermasculinity. Mara youth, male +and female, tended to appear to be very tough, a trait commonly gendered as +male. A macho style among homosexuals and heterosexuals was apparent in +the Maras, even though it did not dominate all the members. There seemed +to be little prejudice against male homosexuality and “masculine” lesbians, +the “dykes” that Hernán mentioned, but “feminine” girls did not stand out, +and few wanted to converse with us. Timid, they would become the target of +abuse, as the next chapter discusses. +We concluded our 1987 study thinking that the Maras and their members +were diverse and complex, and that these youth and their gangs were challenged and framed by the deep and fast-­paced changes going around them +in the city. Life in the gangs offered friendship, love, music, dance, sex, +money, and excitement. Above all, Maras gave a sense of a life-­affirming +identity and community in the face of social decomposition and the transformation of old communities, yet without disconnecting them from their +families and their old communities and without destroying their identities as sons and daughters, friends, and neighbors. These gangs etched a +new geography: they had constructed a place called mibarrio in which a new +family of generational peers could flourish, and at the same time this space +for discovery did not replace or irrevocably divide them from el barrio. Some +violence went on, but it was neither an imperative nor as dangerous and +hateful as the violence in their households, their city, or their nation. Mareros spoke about what they construed as critical matters, such as love, sexuality, money, family, identity, and leisure, without violent tropes and metaphors. Juan Carlos Núñez, a Jesuit anthropologist doing fieldwork in Barrio + +72 + +Chapter 2 + + San Antonio in Zone 6 in the 1980s, described the local Mara as being vital +and having solidarity: “To live in the Mara is to live in a network. It is about +creating a soccer or basketball team, it’s about creating community organization.”41 +These Maras came out of the generative environment of the revolutionary +and popular urban movement, a milieu that included an anticapitalist discourse that emphasized the morality of class solidarity and social equality, +precisely when those political groups were being destroyed. Because the +Maras were gangs of young thieves disarticulated from radical political +organizing, they combined two legacies, one of pandillas and the other of +left-­wing student and worker movements, into something new: affectionate +groups that had a measure of critical consciousness about relationships and +a sense of solidarity with the poor that did not become involved in politics. +Based on friendships that often preceded their existence, the Maras of +the 1980s seemed to have faded, at least from public view, by the end of +the 1980s. By their late teens or twenties, most Mara members we had met +had left the gangs to enter the ordinary, everyday life of the urban poor in +the 1990s, which often entailed work at low pay in the formal sector, and +sometimes immigration. Although an unusual story in many respects, the +trajectory of Aníbal López, the artist who was once a Las Cobras member, +is suggestive of the creativity of the mareros and of the power of the subjective world in which they grew up. Like many other youth in and out of +gangs, he emigrated in the late 1980s. He went through Mexico without +documents. He made his way by drawing pictures of Christ in exchange for +food and lodging in small towns along the route to the U.S. border, which +he crossed to continue on to visit his brother, a Mormon in Utah, before +making the return trip, again without papers. Back in Guatemala, he became a well-­known artist. His art is marked by the sharp awareness of social +realities that we found in our interviews with mareros in the 1980s. In one +early piece, he printed typical surnames of Maya, working-class mestizo, +and wealthy and well-­known families on separate cardboard boxes that the +viewer could then move around, to reorder the ethnic and class structure of +Guatemala, with perhaps the Maya on top (see figure 2.2). He made images +that addressed historical puzzles of national identity: in pen and ink he drew +a Guatemalan male without skin and labeled him “Ladino” (the term used +for mestizo that has the implication of non-­Maya), under which he placed +“50% + 50% = 100%” plus a stamp that read “sale” (in English). To further capture the ethnic ambiguity and working-­class quality of Ladinos, he +penned common-­use and imaginative definitions of Ladino on the reverse + +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +73 + + FIGURE 2.2 Untitled, by Aníbal López (A-­1 53167), Guatemala City, 1998. +These cardboard boxes represent a partial reorganization of Guatemalan hierarchy with Maya surnames spread around, including near +the top, slightly lower than “1492,” a date that marks the birth of the +“Ladino.” On the bottom sits Bauer, a family name connected to the +ownership of the Palo Gordo sugar plantation, one known for its repressive labor practices. The viewer can rearrange the boxes. Credit: +Deborah T. Levenson. + + side of the picture. Engaging the historical construction of a Guatemalan, +he dates his work using the Conquest of the Americas as the baseline, and +he initials his pieces with his resident card number. +As are others who joined these gangs in the mid-­1980s, Aníbal is part of +a generation almost suspended in historical time between what now seems +the shutter-­shot moment of an urban popular movement’s peak and its +quick bloody demise. Because the mareros carried within them memories +of a breathtaking historical period in city life, and at the same time because +their gangs originated on this cusp of a sharp change that would demolish the world in which they grew up, their Maras—five, de la 4, 33, and +Las Cobras, to name a few—were rich in life, ambiguities, creativities, and +contradictions and they had the possibility of developing in different directions, for better or worse. + +1980s: The Gangs to Live For + +75 + + 1990s AND BEYOND: THE GANGS TO DIE FOR + +If you talk, you are dead. +—Author interview with Short, a member of ms-­13, Guatemala City, 2005 + +[The worst effect of war is] the undermining of our social relations because our +social relations are the scaffolding we rely on to construct ourselves historically, +both as individuals and as a human community. Whether or not it manifests itself +in individual disorders, the deterioration of social interaction is itself a serious +social disturbance. . . . A society that becomes accustomed to using violence to +solve its problems big and small is a society in which the roots of human relations +are diseased. +—Ignacio Martín-­Baró, sj, Writings for a Liberation Psychology, 115 + +The mareros’ thinking is military thinking that is always reproducing war, they +live in war with the logic of war, thinking of the enemy’s attack. [They live within] +a militarized culture of obedience, discipline and the fulfillment of orders and +­missions. +—Interview with Rodolfo Kepfer, psychiatrist, El Centro Correccional de +Menores Etapa 2, San José Pinula, Guatemala + +A + +founding member of Mara Plaza Vivar Capitol back in 1985, Victor returned to Guatemala in 1998. He was twenty-­eight years old, and the war +had only recently ended. He sought out his old gang because, he explained, +the only family he wanted now in the city was his Mara. It was “all over” with +his mother: “She does not like me.” After thirteen years of living in Mexico +and working with gangs there, he found that the mareros in Guatemala +City had become “more sophisticated,” “Mara five is with 18 [Mara-­18, or +m-­1 8], and mibarrio Plaza Vivar Capitol is with ms [Mara Salvatrucha, or + +3 + + ms-­13].” Identifying himself as a veterano, a name he said referred to someone who had killed, he joined ms-­13 to assume a “leadership role” and dedicate himself to gang rivalry. Speaking in military terms, he told me that +“everyone sees themselves as soldiers serving mibarrio [my gang / my place] +in a war without any Geneva Code.” His response to my query about his reference to the Geneva Code was “war without rules.” When I asked him to +explain what that gang war was about, he gave the same explanation as he +did for the civil war: “Who knows, it’s the way it is.”1 +Guatemala City had changed dramatically since Victor’s teen years. Consumption of hard drugs, especially crack, had become pandemic. Video +shops now dotted neighborhood blocks. Small weapons were everywhere, +and private security was one of the few growing urban enterprises. Military +and ex-­military men had created an expanding industry of over two hundred +companies that employed thirty-­five thousand people by 2002, more than +twice the nation’s fifteen thousand policemen. Private security companies +hired out men and women to protect individuals, hotels, restaurants, malls, +small stores, private homes, and gated communities, the last of which were +increasing in number in response to the rising common violence against +people and property.2 It was difficult to not spot guns bulging out of shirts, +pants, and jackets on any routine walk through the center of the city. +It was no longer possible, as it had been in 1987, to walk down Sexta +Avenida in Zona 1, change dollars on the black market in the empty lot behind Plaza Vivar Capitol, and strike up a friendly conversation with young +people who called themselves breks and mareros and who sported brand-­ +name clothes. By 2000, youth in and around Maras had become secretive. +At the same time, photographs of them as muscular tattooed young men +stripped to the waist or behind prison fences had become ubiquitous in the +media. Tall tales proliferated. By the early 2000s, mythological numbers had +appeared: the Federal Bureau of Investigation (fbi) claimed that 200,000 +mareros, an army, “operated” in Guatemala. The National Civil Police, reorganized from the ill-­reputed National Police, gave wildly divergent numbers without explanation: a 2002 figure of 50,000 was reduced to 10,833 in +2003.3 Another source, the Association for the Prevention of Crime, stated +in 2006 that 165,000 youth belonged to Maras nationally.4 These fluctuating +numbers, tattoos that were said to be Satanic symbols, and the constant +evocation of the Maras’ “international links,” one that for some had echoes +of the old “international communist plots,” spread panic. Without proof or +hesitation, the influential U.S. Army War College scholar Max G. Manwaring cited the Maras as the major reason for the dramatically increasing crime +rates in Guatemala and elsewhere in the region.5 In the brilliant noir police +78 + +Chapter 3 + + novel of the late Mexican novelist Rafael Ramírez Heredia, La Mara, set in +the diseased and rotting no-­exit southern border town Ciudad Hidalgo, the +Mara represent barbarism in all its diabolical colors.6 +Studies by many ngos and the United States Agency for International +Development (usaid) have not dispelled or confirmed the criminal image, +which in effect adds to the sense of mystery. Their findings offer little or +nothing in relation to literal transgressions and offenses. These reports concur on major points: gangs are hierarchical, and most members have little +status or power. The youth in Maras are primarily male, 75 percent by one +count. With some exceptions, they come from poor and lower middle-­class +backgrounds. Most have basic schooling. The age span is broad, ranging +from six to the late twenties. A report done by the Demoscopía research +group under the auspices of a Swedish International Development Agency +(Asdi) found that a number of youth in Maras are parents, and that the majority of mareros work at odd jobs in the formal, informal, and illicit economies.7 With its focus on combating criminal rings, usaid investigated the +Maras’ organizational structure. Its report presents the Maras’ tight organization pyramid with “organized crime” on top, followed by, and in descending order, “transnational gang leadership,” “gang cell [clika] members,” +“neighborhood gang members,” and finally “children at risk.” Having said +this, the usaid report concludes with the statement “no one Mara fits all,” +one that leaves much up in the air.8 +Researching in the postwar city, I found that some youth made comments such as “I am a marero,” because they smoked marijuana or crack +with members of one or another clika of ms-­13 or m-­18, were involved in +fights, attended the burials, or some combination of these activities. Alberto +presents an example of how different the various senses of belonging can +be. He said he was “with ms-­13.” Since childhood, he had known an ms-­13 +leader nicknamed Maté who had been a barrio character infamous for habitual bullying. Maté was the offspring of a middle-­class family well known +because it ran the local pharmacy, and his murder caused consternation in +the area, even though most people there did not like him. Mourning death, +including that of Maté, was a neighborhood question. “We showed up [at +the burial]. We are with ms-­13,” Alberto told me. He also said that he had +never been “baptized” (inducted). I asked if his mother had gone as well to +the burial, and he said yes, “of course the whole family, we all went . . . they +[Maté’s family] are neighbors.” It is hard to put Alberto in the same category +with youth who are violently baptized into groups, obey codes, and take actions that divorce themselves from neighborhood loyalties and the “we” of +family.9 +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +79 + + Perspectives and Perceptions of City Residents +Urban residents have sometimes referred to a whole range of youth when +they have spoken of mareros. However, their larger, more general discussions about “Las Maras” refer to those feared by residents. Poll after poll +in this postwar period has established that Guatemalans see the Maras as +one of the nation’s greatest threats. This belief persists even though sections of the city without Maras are plagued by crime, and no proof actually +demonstrates that major crimes such as femicide are linked to them. That +being stated, there can be absolutely no question about the gangs’ extremely +negative impact on the city’s neighborhoods.10 In contrast to El Salvador and +Nicaragua, polls have showed that city communities never feel protected +by the presence of Maras, who form their own rivaling “pockets” of territorio that break the larger community.11 According to residents in barrios and +colonias, social workers, and street educators, gang violence shot up in the +1990s, and it has become increasingly ugly and constant as the years pass.12 +In a 1998 study on a colonia in Zone 6, residents described acute changes in +daily life that made mistrust, fear, and the acquisition of weapons realistic +reactions to the gangs. There, gangs broke up community events such as +dances or meetings, their presence divided people along the lines of their +offspring’s affiliation in rival Maras, and their constant warring with one another made walking around nerve racking and sleeping difficult. One woman +said, “Ten years ago you could come in [to the area] at nine at night.” By 1997 +that was impossible, and in addition, between 8 pm and 4 am, “gunfire and +screaming [went] on.”13 In 2003, residents in that same area reported that +gang members beat children to force them to join and sometimes killed +them if they refused.14 +Within many neighborhoods, mareros have used public spaces without +reserve, whether school grounds, plazas, soccer fields, or even churches, +and these have become dangerous spaces that parents caution children to +avoid (see figures 3.1 and 3.2).15 Afraid of what can happen once children +leave the home, parents sometimes stop sending them to school, and even +more dramatically, afraid that their children will be forced to join the Maras +to gain “protection” from the consequences of not joining, they sometimes +send them out of the country. In U.S. immigration courts, undocumented +Guatemalans increasingly cite threats from mareros, as well as accounts of +persecution, including rape and murder by mareros, to argue against their +deportations.16 Fears of persecution by mareros show up in explanations +about immigration among Guatemala City residents living on Mexico’s +southern border.17 +80 + +Chapter 3 + + FIGURE 3.1 Life in Ciudad de Sol, a populous working-­class neighborhood in the metropolitan area, 2005. Mara Salvatrucha (MS-­13) dominates Ciudad de Sol. The dramatic wall mural on the left shows a cemetery with a gravestone marked RIP, the English-language initials of +rest in peace. Graffiti art has become an important part of the Maras’ +aesthetic, élan, and territorial mapping. No renter, property owner, or +storekeeper requests these murals, which represent danger to residents. +Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + FIGURE 3.2 A girl walks by a towering MS-­13 graffiti in Ciudad de Sol, +2005. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + The effect of the Maras over parts of Guatemala City has been made worse +by the fact that no dust seems to settle between the rival gangs. Residents +say that the spaces mareros occupy are always contested ones, and the fights +between gangs are constant. Gun fights between clikas of ms-­13 and m-­18 +have led to fires, especially in the poorer settlements that firemen refuse to +enter because police do not have substations in them. This seemingly uncontrollable violence and the subsequent rapid decline of property values +have forced many residents to flee middle-­class, working-­class, and completely poverty-­stricken areas.18 The rivalry has been apparently even worse +in several towns that border the city, such as Villa Nueva and Mixco, as well +as Palín and Amatitlán to the south, where ms-­13 and m-­18 have had a competing presence for years. +This combination of (1) Mara violence, as well as adult crime unrelated to +Maras, and (2) the lack of any meaningful official crime prevention or arrests +has left barrio residents in an impossible situation. The National Civil Police +has at times come into neighborhoods to “clean out” gangs, but this has led +to more confusion and insecurity. Police pick up youth who are never seen +again (see figures 3.3 and 3.4). In addition, street workers and others have +implicated police in extortion rackets and murder. A bus driver who refused +to pay “war” taxes fled the country with his family after his daughter was +shot and killed by a bullet fired from an apartment belonging to a policeman.19 One gang minister told me that the police threaten to kill the mareros unless they bring in a certain amount of money and that the police raise +the sum at will, which keeps the gang members in a state of panic.20 In this +ongoing madness, nothing buffers community residents from criminal violence; even the street lights do not function. Violent civilian action in the +countryside against presumed mareros has been widely reported. However, +there have also been cases in the city, as the anthropologist Manuela Camus +points out, of shopkeepers and barrio residents beating up or killing suspected criminals.21 It is the logic of violence. A woman in the Colonia Primero de Julio told Camus that she would not “have someone locked up [in +prison]. What for? So that in three days when that person is free they come +looking for payback?”22 +Two examples illustrate how impunity and changes in the Maras have +shifted life and subjectivities on the broad citywide scale. The first involves +workers at the Coca-­Cola Bottling Plant in Guatemala City. This workers’ +union is historically famous for its heroic persistence in the face of multiple +assassinations of its leaders and members by state agents, for its radical +political stances, and for withstanding an attempted plant shutdown when +four hundred workers occupied the premises for one year (1984–85). Two +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +83 + + FIGURE 3.3 A member of MS-­1 3 watches out of a door as police patrol +Ciudad de Sol, 2005. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + FIGURE 3.4 In an abandoned church in Mezquital, Guatemala City, a +father speaks about his missing son to the photographer Victor J. +Blue. On July 18, 2005, policemen picked up his son off a street in +broad daylight. His family has looked everywhere without finding any +trace of him. The ruined church was his son’s M-­1 8 hangout. The wall +graffiti reads “Only for Locos.” Locos is the name of his son’s clika. +Whether or not mareros choose to discuss their birth families in their +self-­presentations, their worried families are part of their lives. Credit: +Victor J. Blue. + + years later the union, one of the few that survived heightened repression, +sponsored the first public May 1 demonstration since 1980. As the last chapter describes, Coca-­Cola union leaders were among those who approached +Mara Plaza Vivar Capitol, Victor’s old Mara, whose members hung out along +the march’s planned route, and were relieved—given the negative press the +Maras got—to receive the gang’s enthusiastic support. At that time, Coca-­ +Cola workers carried weapons to defend against themselves against political +assassination. +In contrast, by the early 2000s the union had pragmatically backed away +from radical politics. Coca-­Cola deliverymen had taken to paying war taxes +to those mareros who controlled the territorios through which the Coke +trucks passed to supply retailers, and the union had petitioned the company +for compensation for war taxes and for armed protection.23 In 2008, a Coca-­ +Cola deliveryman recounted his experiences. His route covered a neighborhood in Zone 7, where he regularly paid taxes to the clika of a Mara. Over +time, he sensed growing tensions and to offset more troubles, he befriended +a gang leader he then hired to further protect the truck for the hours that he +spent in the area; thus he paid a “tax” and a “wage.” Even with all that “protection,” his regular assistant who hauled the crates was almost “gunned +down without any motive by a kid in a gang.” Reflecting on the militant history of the union, he commented, “It is one thing to die for something,” and +another to be killed for nothing by “some sick crazy kid.”24 +A far worse situation has developed for transportation workers. Bus +drivers unionized under radical leadership in the 1944–54 period, and their +union was one of the first to regroup following the 1954 coup. By the 1970s, +the bus workers’ union had succeeded in organizing drivers across the +dozens of small and large companies that ran Guatemala City’s poorly organized transportation system. In October 1978, the union allied with urban +residents, students, and workers in what turned into an urban insurrection +sparked by an increase in bus fares. The union struck in support of city residents, and it maintained a high profile in subsequent political demonstrations against state terror and for popular revolution. Unlike the Coca-­Cola +workers’ union, the bus drivers’ union did not survive the early 1980s waves +of state assassinations. But even without a union, the drivers went out on +strike in September 1985 in solidarity with young people, including gang +members, who took to the streets to protest an increase in fares. +After the 1996 Peace Accords, a new and apolitical union started up, one +that lacked historic ties with the old bus drivers’ unions. Few drivers joined +it until robberies of riders and drivers became dramatic, and the union developed its profile by petitioning for police protection, a request that was +86 + +Chapter 3 + + not granted. Robbing bus passengers and drivers became routine, but after +the Maras initiated impuestos de circulación (circulation taxes), and demanded +a Christmas holiday bonus, the drivers went on strike demanding police protection in 2002, and again in 2003, when the circulation tax increased from +twenty to forty dollars a week.25 Following these unsuccessful strikes, the +murders of drivers and their helpers started and spiraled upward. Between +2006 and 2008, 512 city bus drivers and sixty of their assistants were assassinated. In 2008, almost two hundred were killed. They were usually shot +while they drove, and presumably by the gangs who collected these taxes, +although no one has been ever been brought to trial for these killings or for +subsequent ones. In the month of February 2008 a dozen drivers were shot +dead in two days. During one day in March 2009, two drivers were murdered +in three hours; in 2009, 146 drivers and their assistants were murdered, and +so it has continued.26 One driver, companion of several drivers who had +been shot dead on the job, explained to a journalist that he took home $150 +a week after paying out $90 in circulation taxes, and he added that he could +not afford to quit. He said, “It [the money] is not enough to live, and I might +die, but I can’t find another job.”27 With support from the municipal government, the bus companies have established a fund for widows and orphans of +drivers who, like widows of the war, have organized. +A new crime-­induced “dividing practice” seems to ally the majority of +city residents, who are poor people, on the same side of the barricades with +the state and the right-­wing politicians against whom residents have historically fought. Yet however much anger at, and fear of, youth gangs exists, +Coca-­Cola workers, bus drivers, and many city people are not so naive as to +think that these robberies and murders start and stop with young people or +that old enemies are suddenly friends. Mareros from ms-­13 and m-­18 extort +from delivery truck drivers and stores, and from bus drivers and neighborhood merchants, but everyone wonders what adult syndicate collects the +money. Speaking generally of both the plausibility and purposes of skilled +and professional manipulation of the mareros, Rodolfo Kepfer, a Guatemala +City psychiatrist who worked for many years at a youth detention center, said +in an interview: “The Mara is not autonomous. There are powers behind it. +There is a system here, a logic, and a well-­established hierarchy. There are +periods when only members of a certain gang and not another get sent to +jail, or periods when they are only involved in one specific sort of crime and +not another. . . . All of which makes one think there are master plans that are +not elaborated by these children who form the Maras. Who gives them arms? +Who teaches them military tactics?”28 Given the impunity and the obvious +political and economic clout of the drug trade kings, it has been impossible +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +87 + + to delve into this far-­reaching question of the uses of mareros as cheap labor +for well-­structured maneuvers that land youth in jail, instead of those who +pull the strings. +What can seem to be contradictory views in the neighborhoods reflect +other types of awareness of the Maras’ complexities as victims. Those residents who tell of terrible assaults by gang members, call for mano dura, and +do not necessarily oppose lynching suspected delinquents on the spot do not +necessarily see the Maras as monolithic or evil. Their efforts to protect their +own lives do not mean they have lost sight of the larger picture. They will +often bracket their horror stories with remarks such as “they are not all like +that” or “that bunch just gets high and listens to music. They don’t do anything.”29 They point out that mareros belong to a shared and difficult world +of the barrios and that they sometimes suffer domestic abuse. It was with +grief, despair, and worry for both victim and victimizer that a schoolteacher +told a reporter how she saw a young gang member shoot his girlfriend in +the face at close range.30 In a lunchtime discussion among a group of professionals in a youth shelter in 1997 regarding the deterioration of city life +and the problem of gangs, a social worker offered what sounded like a line +from a Bertolt Brecht play: “If only we got mad at the system again.”31 +Mental health experts and religious figures situate the mareros at that +same threshold between life and death at which the gang members place +themselves and their victims. The most well-­known figure in the world of +gang ministry is the Jesuit priest Padre Manolo Maquieira, who died in 2006 +at age sixty of a heart attack. In 1996, Padre Manolo started pastoral work +with gang members in three poor Zone 6 colonias in which ms-­13 was +powerful. By 2001, he had created a youth club that provided children and +teenagers with art classes, sports groups, and discussion circles, only to later +realize that the rival gang m-­18 was using the club as a recruiting ground to +develop its capacity to wage war against ms-­13 for control of the area. Disillusioned, eight years after he arrived in Zone 6, he judged the gang members to be beyond repair and shifted his attention, as did others, to “children +at risk,” a term for those who were in danger of joining the gangs or being +killed by them, as several he knew had been.32 He thought the gang members were self-­hating and in no way rebels against society. He wrote that they +were “rebels against life and against themselves,” their violence was a “form +of suicide, of self-­punishment.”33 Working with former gang members in a +reform center just outside the city, the social worker Herbert Sánchez told +me that, like alcoholics who every day must choose not to drink, the youth +with whom he works must “choose life over death every day.”34 Interviewed +after self-­described mareros cut out the heart of a forty-­five-­year-­old school88 + +Chapter 3 + + teacher, Jorge Emilio Winter Vidaurre, with the proclamation “he lived long +enough,” the psychologist and youth worker Marco Garavito stated that “a +sense of life no longer exists among mareros.”35 +The Mareros’ Sense: “Why Should I Talk?” +When I resumed research in the late 1990s, the first time I met mareros was +when two members of ms-­13 entered a leaky makeshift black plastic encampment full of street children in Zone 6, where I sat with a street educator who was doing medical checkups. Straight out of a photograph, with +dark-­colored tattoos on their arms and dressed in black, the two looked +muscular and healthy, even jaunty, and they contrasted with the malnourished, drugged, and sick street children who huddled on filthy mattresses +and looked up attentively at these two larger-­than-­life figures. After directing the street educator to look over a wound one had, the mareros retreated. +The street educator said that they would return to shake down the children +after we had departed. +To my surprise, a week later I saw one of the two ms-­13 youth I had seen +in Zone 6 sitting by himself in a common space inside an ngo crisis shelter +for street children. We recognized one another and introduced ourselves. He +said that his name was Luis Arturo, he was seventeen years old, and he was +leaving ms-­13. Because the penalty for that would be, he explained, death +without trial, he had entered the shelter, where he bided time to “consider +the options.” He described himself as a “professional” drug salesman because he did not take drugs and insisted on immediate cash payment and not +goods. The Mara seemed a business association, and not his friendship cohort. A muscular body builder who regularly worked out in a gym in Zone 1 +in Guatemala City, Luis Arturo spoke about “mibarrio” as a sales region, one +he had to fight over with other clikas. He normally lived alone in a “so-­so” +pension, but he now stayed in the shelter. The “involvement of the National +Police in the trade” had become a “permanent threat” to his life in ms-­13, so +it was best to leave it all. Having listened to him, I asked him if we could take +the time to talk more about his life, and he replied, “Why should I talk about +my life?”36 He shrugged, and we both drifted off. It was impossible for me +to conceptualize how to “interview” anyone who did not want to talk.37 Possibly I was the problem, for many reasons. Nonetheless, as I proceeded with +my work of finding and talking to youth, the difficulties of having conversations started to become its own topic. When I later asked Short, a young man +in the Maras I did befriend, about this, he shot off the statement “To talk is +to die.” To make the point, he refused to respond to my further queries about +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +89 + + what that meant.38 Perhaps if I were male, and better yet if I had lived for an +extended period of time in a particular barrio full of gang members, things +might have been different. Nonetheless, a sharp contrast existed between +the youth in gangs I had met in the 1980s and those I was encountering in +the late 1990s and 2000s. +The young women and men in gangs in the mid-­1980s enjoyed conversing and turning over ideas. No one asked us, “Why should I talk about my +life?” Eager to talk about almost anything in open-­ended discussions, they +often took the conversational initiative and hoped to present themselves as +“good” within the framework of a class struggle between rich and poor. +To have the myths surrounding them exploded seemed just, and to be just +was part of their narrative of themselves. Why not talk? The assumption of +communication was in place. But with the striking exception of those who +left the Mara and a very few others, the youth with whom I spoke in the late +1990s and 2000s did not look to talk, much less interpret. It would be an +understatement to say that the language of class had disappeared among +the postwar mareros. Talk of “the poor” and “the rich,” much less the poor +against the rich, had diminished. +As time went on, I discovered that I was not alone with this predicament +of finding it difficult to have lengthy conversations with mareros. Foreign +journalists and sociologists have sometimes paid mareros in cash, goods, +or favors for interviews. In the early 2000s, the Guatemalan sociologist +Anneliza Tobar Estrada, who did none of that, developed a project in a high-­ +security prison that concerned the mareros’ “perception and criticism of +Guatemalan society and their proposals about what should be done,” research that would involve the mareros and that explicitly honored them. +After conferring with their clika higher-­ups via cell phone from the jail, the +mareros refused to participate. “Why should we?” they said, and she shifted +her research toward a few ex-­mareros and the professionals who worked +with gangs.39 +Not talking, as in “to talk is to die,” could be read as a pact that creates +a potent sense of belonging. It is no doubt related to ms-­13’s and m-­18’s +multifarious relationships with adult criminal rings that manipulate youth +inside a dangerous world in which fortunes are made and talk is dangerous. +But it also reflects a larger political and social landscape that does not encourage young people from the popular barrios to speak, much less to analyze. Little was brought forth by my mention of subjects that mareros “ran +with” on their own in the 1980s, such as work, family matters, school life, +presidents, and movies. But the deeper issue concerns what they did choose +to focus on in conversations. +90 + +Chapter 3 + + What mareros most wanted to pencil in was their inclusion in a tightly +knitted group that aimed to fight to the death. Many youth said that friendship was what initially attracted them to the clikas of ms-­13 and m-­18, but in +what did friendship consist? The internal life of the Maras had shifted away +from dancing or the possession of expensive consumer goods to a focus on +drugs, painful rites of loyalty, and annihilating the other gang. A seventeen-­ +year-­old ms-­13 member named Carrito explained, “We dedicate ourselves to +killing gang members who aren’t from mibarrio and that’s it—day after day, +someone dies every day—every day our life is the same except it’s a different +person who dies . . . one day one of theirs, one day one of ours.”40 Thirteen-­ +year-­old m-­1 8 member CC described to me how one day he would die in a +gang fight because his life consisted of “matando a ellos, matado por ellos” +(killing them and being killed by them). A boy named Gato told me, “We +die one day to the next.” Phrases appeared and reappeared in conversations +such as “we only think about killing,” “nothing matters to us.”41 Fifteen-­ +year-­old Junior said, “In the group we learn to be bad. We like to kill. We +only think about killing, about revenge, about violence. Other people’s lives +don’t matter to us.” Using the beautiful name Orquídia, one youth, who was +covered with what he counted to be fifty-­five tattoos, insisted that to enter +his clika of ms-­13, one had to kill members of rival clikas. He said, “Definitely the more people you smoke, the more respect, the faster you move up +in the gang,” and added, “We only kill other gang members . . . my turn [to +be killed by the enemy gang] will come.”42 +An amiable fifteen-­year-­old named Abel, a member of ms-­13, explained +to me that after he had been kicked out of his home, he went directly to the +National Airport because he thought he could sneak on an airplane. Instead +he met a kindly cleaning woman who paid him to help her and took him +home. She tried but could not maintain him, so she brought him to a crisis +shelter that, because Abel was stable and did not take drugs, placed him in +a group home for teenage boys. It was there that he discovered drugs and +ms-­13. He explained: “They [ms-­13] offered me a barrio. I wanted one, and +they had asked me, so I joined. To join I had a baptism. They took turns hitting me, hard, thirteen times, thirteen seconds each blow. . . . You need the +Mara to defend you . . . you need friends for fights. As they say, ‘If someone +touches you, they are touching everyone.’ There isn’t a night without a fight. +The firemen don’t come. Nobody comes. I fight. I am prepared. I don’t have +any obligations. If I die, so what?”43 Later killed in a gang fight, a street child +recounted his experiences in ms-­13: “A bunch of us little kids entered the +ms-­13 together. One of us was five years old. The majority of us are dead now. +They [m-­18 leaders] killed them. . . . Five people died at my hands. The last +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +91 + + time I killed was last year. I gave a tiro de gracias [coup de grâce] in the forehead, right here.”44 +Tattoos gave great poignancy to this constant rehearsal of killing, killed, +shooting, shot, dying, dead. Although many of the youth I met did not have +the facial tattoos that have attracted photographers, and many had desisted +from using tattoos because these made them a target, the corporal aesthetic +of tattooing had replaced the designer clothes of the 1980s. Large and small +tattoos announced and named like no fashion sunglasses or brand-­name +jeans could. At first glance, the specifics of any one person seemed to vanish into a meta-­identity signaled by tattoos of Satan, the sad and the happy +clown, Christ, “forgive me mama for this crazy life,” unicorns, tigers, the +Mexican Virgin of Guadalupe, numbers, gang names in block letters, crowns +of thorns, and wrist tattoos of thorns and chains. But what was being announced was personal identity. Tattoos were autobiographies. Carrito said +that tattoos “cuenta la historia” (tell the story). Lounging on an old car seat +outside of his mother’s small place, two rooms of a long row of rooms in El +Gallito, Zone 3, Short read out his tattoos to me: “2” represented the number of his children, “3” referred to his zone, “rest in Peace, Julio” was a reference to a friend who died, “March 3” was the day of Julio’s death, “Shirley” +referred to an ex-­lover, “Chiki” was the name of his girlfriend, and “Los +Locos” was his clika. Sitting next to Short and with Short’s encouragement, +Jonny read his tattoos aloud to me: “16” was the number of the months he +spent in the Centro Preventivo in Zone 18, one tear drop represented the +number of people he had killed, a heart represented “what I left behind, “la +Chaka” was an ex-­lover, and a sad clown face was a “picture of me.”45 +Short and Jonny lived in the same poor neighborhood where they had +grown up, as did most of the youth I met. None of the youth with whom I +spoke had been to Los Angeles, and a few had never been to areas of Guatemala City that might count as urban highlights, such as the fancy Avenida +de la Reforma or the city zoo. All these youth read and wrote, but did so +only minimally, except for one young man who claimed that he kept all the +account books for ms-­13 in Zone 18. None found school interesting. Several had common Maya surnames and were stereotypically indigenous in appearance, but no one replied to any query about ethnicity or to specific questions about the world outside of the hyperpresent gang life. They each had a +nickname, and they called themselves mareros, and not indigenas, Mayas, +Ladinos, mestizos, or chumos (a term for poor Ladinos or mestizos).46 They +knew that they amounted to being big, bad kids with tattoos (even if they +do not have tattoos), the type who kill (even if they did not). They knew that +they would all burn in hell, and they all loved their mothers, but they were +92 + +Chapter 3 + + loyal to their gang above all else, and for that they killed and were killed. +They presented a repetitive script. They may have been making stories up +or exaggerating, but violence and death were at the tips of their tongues. +Sometimes tattooed and other times clean of tattoos, they spoke about the +“rules,” about being beaten and beating others. Killing and being killed construct life and destiny, which consists of their death. This story of and belief +in the “fight to the death” for mibarrio seems to answer the puzzle of life for +these youth in a world that is, to borrow a phrase, “ontologically insecure +and existentially uncertain” (see figure 3.5).47 +The question I repeatedly asked about why m-­18 and ms-­13 clikas fight +to the death got similar responses: “Así es” (It just is like that) or “saber” +(who knows). “Being malo [bad] is the only way to live, because life is bad,” +said one youth. The one specific explanation for the intergang killings concerned revenge. After Short’s close friend Julio was killed, he told me, “After +my tears dried, I did what I had to.” He and other gang members caught +someone in the rival gang and got even. He concluded: “It was ‘an eye for +an eye.’” Carrito, who describes himself as a “professional car thief,” said +that “life demands malo . . . it’s part of life” and that is “how it is,” “la violencia” is life. “It” (death/violence) happens, and the mareros have found +a way around it because they are inside of “it,” and not waiting for “it” to +arrive. This suicidal fatalism is described by the Guatemalan psychologist +Mariano Gonzáles as the mental condition of “accepting hopelessness” +in which there is no “human project.”48 In a horrid reverse of modernity’s +theme of making one’s way in life, these youth control their destiny of death +by “making” their own deaths in the fight against an “enemy” who is themselves in the mirror of the rival gang. + +That young men and boys from similar backgrounds and with similar +troubles compose one another’s enemies is paralleled by negative feelings +about self. Writing about mareros he had known for years, Padre Manolo +noted, “They have low self-­esteem, continually they repeat . . . ‘we are +bad.’”49 I heard the same over and over: “Soy malo” (I am bad/evil); “Somos +malos” (We are bad/evil). When these youth say “malo,” they refer to evil, +bad, and badly behaved, and not “bad” as in a positive reversal. One youth +told me that he wished he could change, and his family wished he could +as well, but “that’s life—it’s evil, so it’s necessary to be evil.”50 Simultaneously, mareros defend themselves against society’s relentless negativity +toward them. One said, “Society hates us. They hate us, and they look at us, +they see a tattoo, and they judge us. We aren’t perfect, you know. But all they +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +93 + + FIGURE 3.5 Members of MS-­13, 2005. Not all mareros have tattoos, +a­ lthough in images of them they almost invariably do. This photograph +is an exception. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + think is that we are bad people. They are just assholes.”51 Former marero +William told the researcher Anneliza Tobar, “Society isn’t ours, it belongs +to others,” and “when we join the gang, we look with indifference at the rest +of the world.”52 Society is an enemy, the rival gang is an enemy, and each +gang is entrenched in its mibarrio, a remarkable movable space given materiality by the presence of mareros who can show up in places from prisons +and buses to el barrio. +Tragically, the el barrio of neighborhoods, streets, and markets where +these youth have grown up and usually live appears to be configured in their +geographical imagining as prey. Padre Manolo observed this to be true especially if they lived in their old neighborhoods: “Their aspiration is not to be a +youth from Barrio X. It is to be a youth from outside Barrio X who owns Barrio X.”53 The “outside” from which they descend might be the Los Angeles of +their desires where they may have never been, and they return to beat up on +the actual location of their own history of families, schools, and the dramas +of their own lives. The youth I spoke with had relatives who most likely worried night and day about them, but what the mareros wanted to highlight +was that they had broken with their families, even if they still slept at home. +Victor articulated this in stark terms: when I asked him where he was born, +he replied, “I was born with the Mara, without it I am nothing.”54 The common tattoo “forgive me mother for my crazy life” both retains the sanctity of +mother love and distances oneself from it. The tattooed youth is not leaving +his vida loca; he is requesting forgiveness for not leaving it. When I asked +Short about his kin, he replied that his mother thought that he was “malo,” +and he added that she was not part of “mi vida.” Yet, we were sitting outside +of her house, where he lived. These youth may well support families, but that +was not part of their self-­presentation, as it was in the 1980s. Surrounded +by a seemingly endless parade of lives of poverty and failure, in their minds +the mareros have severed themselves from “esa vida”—“that life.” They break +with it, and even literally break it. +Rosa ended up murdering an elderly woman. Here is her account to a +social worker: +We all lived in the same house. It’s a really big house, and everyone went +there every day. There was a kind of temple. I was supposed to cut my +veins and let drops of my blood fall into a big well. Everyone in the Mara +had put their blood into that well. . . . During some rituals, some people +fall down, others see eyes in the flames, some see someone being killed, +or the things they do to you if you leave the gang. After joining the Mara, +I killed an old woman because they told me I had to kill somebody, and +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +95 + + to sacrifice their blood. . . . I pushed her, and when I touched her afterward, she wasn’t breathing any more. She was an [old] woman who lived +with her grandchildren. They were from a rival gang. I had killed their +grandma. I felt so bad, like I had killed my own grandma. . . . I don’t remember exactly what happened. The Mara has also tried to kill me—once +with a gun, once with a knife, and another time with a car.55 +It is hard to imagine a more radical rupture from “esa vida,” or a more forced +hell-­fire bonding than these theatrics of death and Rosa’s real-­life execution +of an elderly woman. Rosa said that though she thought of killing herself, +she fled instead, as the final chapter discusses, and went into hiding for +months. +For males, admissions of shame or fear would ruin their mystique of male +power through physical talent and the ability to endure to the end without +emotions. Violence was gendered as male. Padre Manolo pointed out, and +I observed, that some young women in the Maras identify themselves with +masculinity. Eighteen-­year-­old Carmen told me said that she joined a clika +because she wanted to be “like a man, to be ready, to fight, to jump someone . . . to go to blows.” In Carolina’s opinion, “women can’t get things +done and machos can and that’s what I need to be.” I asked Carolina to what +things she referred when she said “get things done,” and I added that in her +barrio in Zone 6, women held households together emotionally and economically. She knew that, “but you know,” she replied, “when it’s necessary +to . . . handle a bad situation . . . all the things the clika needs to take care +of, to protect, to be protected.” Her reply to the question “From what?” was +“la violencia.”56 According to her, females are ranked. Those who are tough +enough to endure beatings as an initiation ritual rather than rape—the “acceptance” of rape signals weakness—have a higher status in the Mara and a +chance at being a clika leader. +Folding violence, masculinity, and Mara into one another has left girls +and young women who identify as feminine without a Mara identity, and, +in conversations, they positioned themselves on the sidelines. Many said +that they had joined the Maras because their boyfriends were mareros. +Sixteen-­year-­old Chata’s comments were similar to those of the other girls. +Chata declared her membership in ms-­13, but she spoke of “doing things +for them,” or “with them.” She had no identity as one of “them.” “They” +were “los muchachos,” the boys with whom one gets, in her words, “used to +having sex. . . . At first you don’t want to and feel terrible.” Feminine females +provide sexual “favors” and run gang errands—especially in the back and +forth between prisons—clean, cook, and look after children and often asso96 + +Chapter 3 + + ciate themselves with their boyfriends’ otherwise neglected birth families. +Their status reflects that of females in the larger society, yet worse. +Foot Soldiers +The marero has turned into a gendered killer/killed persona, a male warrior, the winner of the contest to decide Guatemalan history who is also a +loser, the dead warrior. Gang members routinely call themselves “soldiers” +who “fight and die for mibarrio.” The many meanings that masculinity has +had have narrowed to one, and all others have atrophied. Masculinity has +come to hinge on the capacity to give violence and take it, without limits, including the cap of mortality. This warriors’ work is what the really powerful +men, whether generals or members of the economic elite, have had in their +back pockets for generations, and they can pull it out and put it back in as +need be. In the marero’s life there is only this violent masculinity, without +the degrees, titles, money, prestige, social networks, mobility, and other +resources that the Guatemalan elites and military men have had in plentitude and that allow for many masculine identities, whether of padre, patrón, +or patria. +For mareros necroliving has presumably kept their lives under their control by giving them space, identity, unconditional friendship, and a way to +earn a living. They can use it to wreak havoc with a world that has failed them +by messing up public transportation, redesigning neighborhood life, driving +down real estate values, causing decreases in school attendance, and even +provoking flight across borders. Finally, it can protect them, through death, +from their own futures. Boys turn into young men and then into adults in +their twenties without leaving the gangs until they die from life in the gang. +Padre Manolo thought the presence of adults in their early twenties in the +Maras indicated a fear of entering an adulthood that would be similar to +that of their fathers, uncles, and other men in their neighborhoods, many of +whom have not succeeded in life. He placed both extended memberships in +the Mara and the early deaths of mareros in that context: they had lived and +died as “youths and thus did not fail as men.”57 Over one-­half of the mareros +that Padre Manolo had known over a ten-­year period died in fights. They beat +adulthood to the punch and did not become, as the song “Hombres Fracasados” (Failed men) puts it, “failed men who could not be what they could +have been.” +Often surprisingly humble, sometimes domestically abused, and increasingly disconnected and alienated, urban young men and women and boys +and girls for whom Ladinismo, Maya ethnicity, and Guatemalan citizenship +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +97 + + continually depreciate into a cultural nothingness are drawn or forced into +the imaginary of necroliving. In the gangs’ understanding of the world, the +once clearly drawn lines between victim and victimizer, between ruler and +ruled, have been blurred. It appears that only violent death can sort out who +is which in a contest that is never settled for long and in which positions +constantly flip as today’s victor is tomorrow’s victim. The lifeblood of the +mareros’ efficacy flows from their promise to kill and to be killed. In the late +1990s, one simple tattoo signaled Mara membership in Guatemala City. It +consisted of three small dots between the thumb and the index finger that +stood for hospital, prison, and morgue. +The feisty 1980s mareros are one unusual reminder of an era of social +struggle. Those of the postwar period are part of the heritage of war, and +they portend the permanency of the war in everyday life. Neither rebels nor +conformists, they are orphans of the world, not only of Guatemala. They have +been criminalized by adults and even criminalized by the U.S. Department of +Homeland Security for all manner of evils. These young people bring to mind +those Hannah Arendt once called in another context “the most symptomatic group,” those “forced to live outside the common world,”58 in this case, +mareros who reproduce the traumas that cast them outside that “common +world,” to end these traumas in death. +The Maras’ Smallest Veins +Mareros are part of the fraught and narrow universe of destitute children +and teenagers living in the city’s streets (see figures 3.6–3.7).59 Generally +ignored or brutalized and despised by adults, these youth are often addicted +to glue and without the means of making a living. Their ages vary (although +they are called street children), their numbers grew in the last decades of +the twentieth century as a direct or indirect result of the war, and by the +early 2000s their offspring formed a second generation. In a complex relationship involving protection and exploitation, these street children inhabit the margins of the gangs, and they sometimes drift into them to run +errands or become more full-­fledged participants. The Maras are the only +social grouping that they can actually join and still be street children. Unlike +humanitarian workers, the Maras do not try to tug these children away from +the street living to which they are habituated, with which they identify and +where their close friends are found.60 The gangs can even hold out a pathway. Guillermo, a twelve-­year-­old Honduran who ended up in the streets in +Zone 1 by hitching rides to Guatemala City after Hurricane Mitch destroyed +his home in 1998, told me that his friends in ms-­13 would help him go to +98 + +Chapter 3 + + FIGURE 3.6 Young people living out on the street, Séptima Avenida, +Zone 1, Guatemala City, 2002. Credit: Andrea Aragón. + + FIGURE 3.7 Neighborhood kids in their hangout, Guatemala City, 1999. +Credit: Jonny Raxón/Fotokids, 1999. + + Houston, where he had relatives who worked in car wash. Here were real +possibilities: connections with risk takers, undocumented immigration, a +job in a car wash in the United States.61 +For some, the mareros are heroes who have mastered what it takes. I met +children in a shelter in the late 1990s who proudly showed off their magic +marker tattoos “ms” or “18.” One boy, Carlos, looked forward to being in a +Mara clika when he was “stronger.” The clika seemed to be that inevitable +violent defense against a painful world. A teenager named Rubén filled out +the following questionnaire during one of his brief stays in a shelter: +What is your family like? +My family is my parents and my brothers and sisters. My older sister is +named Ana. She is studying to be a schoolteacher. My little sister, Claudia, +doesn’t go to school yet. My brother is named Oscar and everyone calls +him “coco.” He has a bicycle and my family is lucky. We live very happily. +My mother is very scared, and my father likes to fight. +What are you like? +I am cheerful. My character is rebellious and people provoke me a lot. I +am respectful and responsible. +Write what you would like your family to be like: +I wish that they were very cheerful and that all my brothers and sisters +were tough like me. I wish Rony and the others would study a lot and enjoy life. I wish my older brother were head of Mara-­18 so that my mother +would be happier, less sad.62 +Anxious about a family that he conjured up as happy, Rubén imagined that +the power of the Maras—if only his brother were “head”—might make his +family truly happy. A social worker told me that Rubén joined a Mara, or at +least hung out with one and “got into trouble.” His file shows that he died in +1998 for “reasons unknown.” +Estuardo Edwin Mendoza is another youth from the streets who joined +a Mara. I met him in a shelter in 1997 when he was fourteen years old, tall +for his age, pale, and sad. The first time we talked, we sat together watching +the rain pour into the patio. He said that he had been sick for a “lifetime” +because he had caught susto during the war, and it “just never went away.”63 +He told me about the massacre in his family’s hamlet and the dead bodies +he had seen, “many many dead, some hung, some burnt.” “The army killed +people because the people hid the guerrillas, the army killed babies. The +people did not say where the guerrillas had gone. I touched dead bodies after +the soldiers had cut them up with machetes. I went running into the night. +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +101 + + The soldiers were painted with charcoal and they had knives. . . . The army +killed four of my brothers even before I was born. I saw the soldiers throw +fuel over the houses and burn them.” His mother, he went on to say, escaped +from the hamlet after a massacre, which probably took place between 1981 +and 1982, and found her way down the mountains and into Guatemala City. +Estuardo thought this was the second time war had destroyed her family and +left her displaced. She told him she had left El Salvador “after her parents +were killed by soldiers” and she had “walked on a highway with bombs falling all around her.” He remembered that she always said, “Why did I leave +one war for another?” +According to a social worker report, Estuardo had never been outside of +the capital. He was born in a public hospital in Guatemala City in 1983 and +lived with his mother for years in the settlement of Tierra Nueva II, one that +absorbed war refugees in the 1980s and 1990s.64 According to Estuardo, he +left home at age ten because “my mother said she could not support me. My +mother doesn’t like me. . . . This is sad, I love my mother so much. When +my mother hit me, she said it was because the blood of Salvadorans made +her cruel.” After making a home visit, the social worker added to her report +that Estuardo had three siblings, and his mother earned Q350 monthly and +paid Q350 to rent a “small, dark room without much furniture.” The equation of rent and salary could have been an error. However, it is not surprising +that she earned only enough to pay the rent. Even if she earned a bit more, +how much could have been left for food or clothes, much less school fees or +bus fares? Not atypically, the social worker faulted the mother for not being +the mother she could not possibly have been. She wrote in her report, “The +mother has been irresponsible with her children. There is no communication between them, she is dedicated only to her work [outside the house].”65 +Estuardo stayed in Guatemala City’s streets for the rest of his life, and +sometimes he stopped by his mother’s place. Beaten by policemen in two +incidents, he survived for a while. Out of exhaustion, he occasionally entered +this shelter near the busy downtown area in Zone 1. Here he and other boys +could sleep, eat, get medical attention, and attend classes on topics such as +“what must be done to improve oneself,” “how to take advantage of life’s +opportunities,” “aids and its consequences,” and “the family and the child’s +role in the family,” provided that they did not use drugs. He would stay in +this large converted mansion with its showers and friendly staff, food, and +bunk beds until he was kicked out for breaking that cardinal rule, just to +return a few months later and repeat this pattern. His thin file dates back +to his first arrival there 1995. It gives his vital statistics, notes that he came +from a family of “refugees from the countryside,” and describes his behavior +102 + +Chapter 3 + + during his stays—“difficult,” “incommunicative,” and “complains of stomach pains.” A volunteer music teacher had penciled into the margins, “Estuardo loves to play guitar and drums . . . although at first he didn’t like the +guitar, he has the possibility to express himself musically. He is helpful and +cooperative, and sometimes he has his difficult moments.”66 Small wonder, +in every sense. +Not yet born at the time of the massacre in his family’s hamlet, he nevertheless described it as if he had been there, even actively: “I touched dead +bodies. . . . I went running into the woods.” Recovering a sense of himself +and his mother from these images, his experiences of other people’s memories at least kept him allied with a part of his family he had never directly +known yet so affected him, and these memories gave him a history that explained the situation of his difficult existence, including his mother’s anger +at him.67 Feeling ill could represent a “cultural document” that kept him +close to his own truths and to the larger emotional and historic “we” within +his trajectory.68 +He explained to me that he joined m-­1 8 because he wanted to “estar en +algo” (be in something); here was the jagged edge of some “we.” Yet, at the +bottom rung of the intense m-­18 hierarchy, he referred to the gang members as “them” and admired “them because they are loyal, they know how to +handle stuff, they are malo, and that is what you need because life is malo.” +In the gang, he felt “protected.”69 This indicates the extremity of his situation; a year later he was dead because of his membership. In revenge for a +presumably m-­18 killing of an ms-­13 member, someone in ms-­13 shot him +with an m16 assault rifle in early 1998. His murder was impersonal. He could +have been anyone in the gang. +The war and its aftermath run through all of this. Violent death marked +both ends of his life, which spanned the Guatemalan state’s production of +violent death as a means of political power, to Estuardo’s demise within a +world of youth who can produce death as a means of getting by for a while. +The war formed what Pierre Bourdieu called a system of dispositions, “a past +which survives in the present and tends to perpetuate itself into the future by +making itself present in practices structured according to its principles.”70 +The war put his life in place, organized it, and made violent death his most +familiar terrain and his destiny. +Estuardo’s insistent preservation of the memory of the massacre rang +heroic and moral in light of the silence surrounding the war in 1997. He +talked. Even though many children were in the streets because of the war, +social workers rarely alluded to it in reports and conversations in order to +protect their work and the children, and there existed no public discussion of +1990s and Beyond: The Gangs to Die For + +103 + + it. The transparency of Estuardo’s absorption in and memory of a massacre +that he knew through others was uncommon among the street children I +met in the late 1990s, even though many were war orphans.71 Recalling conversations with Estuardo, I am struck by his recollection of the massacre, +especially because his memories defied the “amnesia of genesis” that overtook Guatemala in reference to military violence. It is difficult to reconcile +the chronology he presents—he was not born until after his mother left the +massacred village—except to say that the way he put it all together underscores his subjective sense of war’s presence and power. +What chances did Estuardo have, living within the effective power of violent death because it was the greatest historical force within his life, a life +spent growing up in the streets and in a “small dark” space with a hardworking and underpaid woman in an urban neighborhood pockmarked at a distance by the war? Outside of the Mara—and the crisis shelter, which never +worked out for him, because he could not meet the difficult requirement of +kicking his addiction—there were no open doors in his life and no way to +understand more deeply his most foundational and entrenched memories. +To quote Cathy Caruth in her discussion of the relationship between history +and trauma, his history is precisely the way in which he was “implicated +in other peoples’ traumas.”72 And we (myself and other adults who passed +through his life) are implicated in the tragedy of not having been able to +protect this child from becoming a victim of a system of dispositions that +reproduced war without the war, and a target of the many in which he took +part, and from which he died.73 + +104 + +Chapter 3 + + DEMOCRACY AND LOCK-­U P + +I too have known Satan, I can bring them [mareros] to Christ. +—Panamá, Pentecostal street worker, interviewed by the author, Guatemala City, +March 1987 + +The devil is my jefe. +—Words said to have been mumbled by m-­18 member Áxel Danilo Ramírez +Espinoza (alias Smiley), “public enemy number one,” El Periódico, April 17, 2009 + +Who are we? We are the majority, worker, business executive, housewife, athlete, +chewing gum vendor, we are those who drive in the latest model Mercedes Benz +and those who take the bus or walk in the street. We are the people who do something constructive and positive for our country and our families and who every day +confront the chaos and violence caused by “mareros,” those juvenile gangs. We are +humble people, normal people who work to reach what is difficult but not impossible to achieve: peace. +—National Civil Police of Guatemala, teléfono 110, “Unidos Contra Las Maras,” +public relations advertisement + +T + +he National Civil Police’s “United against the Maras” poster advertises an +alignment of Guatemalans who run the gamut, absurdly and obscenely, +from a chewing gum vendor to the owner of a new Mercedes-Benz. No matter who they are, the argument goes, all share a normality that is threatened by the noncitizen others: the “mareros.” Nothing could more invert +the 1954–80 progressive social imaginary, or more confuse our understandings than the portrayal by the National Civil Police. Policemen sometimes +dip into and even control the earnings from the “war taxes” mareros collect; +it is likely that the gum vendor has been harassed by a policeman at some +point in her or his life; the owner of that new Mercedes-Benz might well + +4 + + have bought it with drug money; and the business executive is not part of a +“humble” majority that includes workers and housewives. +However preposterous, the poster is hardly surprising. From the moment +the Maras appeared on the streets of Guatemala City in 1985, mareros have +been represented as threats to democracy, peace, toil, and the everyday life. +Over decades of ever-­increasing clamor about youth delinquency, neither +political parties nor state agencies—be these mano dura or reformist—have +seriously studied the gangs in a sustained manner, or developed noteworthy +programs to face up to the problems that gangs pose or that youth encounter. Attention has focused on the imaginary marero, and the real ones +face a world of police, media people, and others who insist on that diabolical +image and push the marero to fit what sometimes starts to stick. +This chapter deals with the complexities and the consequences of varied +responses to the mareros. It first discusses how expert demonologists in the +Pentecostal movement staked out the terrain of handling the Maras during +the war. It then recounts what has happened to the whole configuration of +Mara power and powerlessness, discussed in the previous chapter, after the +postwar state laid claim to a role as engineer of a new Guatemala based on +law, and moved gang members into the institutional setting of the penitentiary system. Finally, it addresses the reality that going to jail has become a +new—by now routine—stage in the lives of mareros, and that controlling +jails in the name of National Citizen Security has enhanced the power of +military and ex-military men. Prisons today reproduce the Maras, and they +fuel the success of conservative political movements led by men who present +themselves as necessary specialists in the management of violence. +Neoliberalism and Pentecostals in the 1980s +Structural adjustment programs imposed in the 1980s resulted in substantial cutbacks in funds to the state’s Welfare Secretariat, which since 1961 +has had jurisdiction over needy and troubled youth. By its own account it +could only look after 4.69 percent of its potential clientele by 1987.1 By that +year, the Tratamiento y Orientación de Menores (Treatment and Orientation for Minors, tom), the branch of the secretariat charged with rehabilitating or protecting juveniles, housed and serviced a mere 250 children and +teenagers in its five centers, and even these group homes were barely supplied.2 In addition, the leadership of tom had no vision of its work. Social +workers—who had to scurry about after working hours to solicit money for +notebooks and pencils as well as supplies such as bandages, soap, toilet + +106 + +Chapter 4 + + paper, soft drinks, and plastic utensils from companies such as Johnson & +Johnson and Coca-­Cola—drew up a long list of criticisms of tom that included “programs that do not represent the needs of the majority, inappropriate solutions, lack of rational and scientific planning, lack of evaluation +and supervision.”3 Psychologists at tom appraised it in these words: “The +achievements have been minimal, especially regarding reeducation, the raison d’être of the institution.”4 One professional evaluator summed up his +1987 report by saying that the leadership of tom was “in another world.”5 +As a consequence of incompetence, financial crisis, and the ruling Christian Democratic Party’s inability to rise to the occasion, the care of needy +and troubled youth was turned over to Pentecostals. Given their widespread +influence, Pentecostals confronted no opposition when they assumed a role +as social engineer, and their religiosity blurred the designation of privatization. As chapter 2 discussed, the Pentecostals in Guatemala had been involved in governance since the war escalated in 1980. For a period they ran a +leadership training program for state functionaries and figures such as the +born-­again Christian General Efraín Ríos Montt, an architect of massacres +who justified his actions in the language of fire and brimstone.6 In this conjunction of a presumably reformist civilian government without funds, and +the growing ubiquity of well-­funded Pentecostalism, there seemed nothing +unusual about tom inviting Pentecostals into its centers. Members from +the largest of these churches in Guatemala City, the Iglesia de Cristo Elim +(Church of Christ, elim), regularly went to tom centers to sing, talk, and +give counsel. With the approval of tom officials, they brought with them +easy-­to-­read pamphlets on important topics such as drugs and alcohol. +With the aim of orienting youth to better guide other youth away from the +world of Maras, Pentecostals opened a ministry named Juventud para Cristo +(Youth for Christ), which regularly sent volunteers into public schools such +as the important teacher training school Instituto Normal de Señoritas +Belén, and the large vocational high schools. Such was the situation of Pentecostal ascendancy that in 1987 the Judicial Magistrate for Youth joined +with the unicef program to create an alliance, the Comisión Nacional +Acción por los Niños (National Commission of Action for Children, conani), in which Pentecostals had an important part.7 Its vice-­president was +a Pentecostal street worker, and the Pentecostal ex-­director of the Treasury +Police, who was later dismissed because of his relationship to death squads, +ran the conani-­supported groups such as one named Hombrecito. With +conani’s support, numerous Pentecostal reform centers came into being. +In the 1980s the most vocal and authoritative Pentecostals advocated + +Democracy and Lock-­Up + +107 + + mental discipline and physical punishments for wayward youth. The Pentecostal psychologist Roberto Morales del Pinar, who directed a home for +female ex–gang members and homeless girls in Zone 11, spoke in a professional capacity when he said he believed in corporal punishment and in the +importance of his close authoritarian relationships with the girls, who had +to call him “Papi.” His associate, a Nicaraguan nicknamed Panamá, went +into the streets “where Satan works,” to save young people. Panamá had +been in the Contra forces in Nicaragua, where he developed a drug habit, +but he had a revelation in which Christ walked toward him, and he gave up +his addiction. He was a strong and politically shrewd young adult and a self-­ +confessed killer. After he and I had conversed and toured Pentecostal centers together over a period of months, it occurred to me that Panamá could +easily have had ties with the Guatemalan military, and with pride. +One place Panamá took me to was a group home in Zone 1 named Casa Mi +Hogar, a one-­story 1930s building. Inside Casa Mi Hogar was a small, dirty, +foul-­smelling patio, off of which were four dormitories, an office, and a +kitchen. It housed more youngsters than the state-­run reform center Gaviotas did at that time. The patio was the central space, and every time I visited, +the more than 138 young men and boys and some 20 girls who resided there +were standing up in this cramped, sun-­filled or rain-­soaked space, and they +invariably looked distressed. According to the Casa Mi Hogar’s director, the +youth stood for hours “to achieve discipline and formation.” What sort of +“home” was this? It was one to which the National Police directly brought +kids, straight from the street, and to which judges sent young people for rehabilitation. The state remunerated Casa Mi Hogar for services. In his early +sixties, the director described himself to me as a former drug addict who had +once been part of Centuriones, a 1960s shock brigade of a right-­wing political party, and later met Jesus Christ and converted to Pentecostalism inside +the elim church. He explained to me that he was a sinner who had been +saved in order to save others. Without any prompting on my part, he further +explicated that his work inside the strategic hamlets into which the military +had herded villagers after massacres illustrated his dedication to the salvation of souls. Punishment such as war cleansed sinners, and once cleansed +they could “love themselves and develop themselves.”8 +Pentecostalism as a neoliberal solution to youth reform became institutionalized in 1992 when the born-­again Christian conservative president +Jorge Serrano Elías took office, while the civil war continued. He brought +the Pentecostal organization Rehabilitación de los Marginados (Rehabilitation of the Marginalized, remar) from Spain, and his government paid it +to officially manage Gaviotas. In charge of the daily schedule and discipline, +108 + +Chapter 4 + + remar staff regularly beat the interned boys with baseball bats, brooms, +and firewood in special isolation rooms; held mandatory Bible classes; and +ripped crosses off the boys’ necks. remar expanded its services to other +state institutions and established its own private centers, where adults hurt +and humiliated young people, and to which courts dispatched them.9 Despite international attention to these abuses, remar continued to work in +the prisons after Pentecostals temporarily left important administrative and +advisory positions at the time of the 1996 Peace Accords. The born-­again +Ríos Montt entered the political arena after 1996, but his religious language +met a provisional riposte in politicians such as Ramiro de León Carpio and +Álvaro Arzú who, however religious, claimed modern expertise based on +education and political experience, and not on a relationship with God. +The Postwar Crossover +Whether of a new generation or survivors of older generations struggling for +identity and place, urban middle-­class professionals and others came to believe that any hope for creating a democratic and constitutional Guatemala +rested on laws and their implementation, and not on revolution. In this +context, there appeared a veritable renaissance of interest in legal means +of social reform and control, and criminal justice was central to this.10 The +Supreme Court judge and prison reform advocate José Francisco de Mata +Vela hailed a new 1990s Penal Code that included the replacement of the inquisitorial model with the accusatory system, “the most important moment +in Guatemalan legal history.” He located this event within a new dawn of +“political and economical facts that have changed the sequence of human +history, as have disappearance of the Berlin Wall, the end of the Cold War, +the democratization of all countries . . . [and in Guatemala] the construction +of a democratic country, in the constitutional state of law.”11 Now liberal +democracy could flourish unencumbered by the exigencies of the Cold War +and the communist threats that had so twisted it out of shape. +With optimism about the promise of an era during which nonmilitary +laws and civilian structures would secure democracy, prestigious institutions in the country such as the Office of the Human Rights of the Archbishop of Guatemala, the University of Rafael Landívar, and the new Institute +of Comparative Penal Science Studies of Guatemala sponsored a landmark +2000 conference titled “Prisiones: El Desafío del Nuevo Milenio” (Prisons: +Challenge of the new millennium). This meeting brought specialists from +Latin American and European countries to Guatemala, and it placed Guatemalan professionals inside the ongoing global discussion about the worldDemocracy and Lock-­Up + +109 + + wide prison crisis, one that has given new life to ideals of reform and rehabilitation programs and the protection of prisoners’ rights. In this postwar +period, papers, conferences, university theses, and organizations concerned +with prison reform have proliferated in Guatemala, and they all urge sweeping legislation on prisons and their administration.12 Even if all this has resulted in little change, the penitentiary system entered into the play of national history for the first time in Guatemala after the Peace Accords. +Some context is necessary. It would be hard to argue that the claim made +for many Latin American countries concerning the centrality of the penitentiary system to “strategies of control and discipline and the construction of +hegemonic visions of society,” or to “the construction of a national state,” +has been the case in Guatemalan history.13 According to the first large-­scale +study of the system, done in 2000, “there has never existed the minimum +criteria for prison administration” in Guatemalan history.14 The novel ideas +about the penal system that developed in Europe in the 1800s circulated in +Guatemala, made a small mark, and never went further than the construction of architectural performance pieces that simulated modernity.15 The +Liberal Party built the first national prisons at the end of the nineteenth century. Established in 1877 and based on the European model of reeducation +through moral uplift and workshops for “the women’s arts,” the women’s +prison Santa Teresa rapidly deteriorated into no more than a filthy lock-­up. +The larger Central Penitentiary for Men was carefully laid out according to +the “plans of the best European penitentiaries.” Furnished with a library, a +school with twelve classrooms, and a small soccer field, it opened in 1881 +to house 500 prisoners, and soon thereafter held 1,500 men in chaotic conditions of “vice, misery, horror and death.”16 This was the central national +prison for men until the end of the 1960s.17 The Central’s population remained at a steady 1,500 until the 1954 coup, when it jumped to 2,500 due +to the jailing of political prisoners under anticommunist laws, then dropped +back to 1,500, probably because death squads took over punishment.18 +In the early 1960s, the physical structure of the Central Penitentiary collapsed. To replace it, three new national farm prisons were built, the most +important one being El Pavón, located in Fraijanes, a town near the capital. +Again, modern ideas dominated planning, and the prison grounds were landscaped to include agricultural and manufacturing centers to rehabilitate and +train the incarcerated through useful labor and reeducation, but, as in the +past, few programs got implemented. Soon after El Pavón opened, prisoners +massively revolted in direct response to the terrible conditions that prevailed +from the outset and to the fatal beating of two inmates by guards in 1968, +during a national state of siege directed at the urban popular movement in +110 + +Chapter 4 + + Guatemala City and the guerrilla movement in the east of the country. As +prisoners started to tear El Pavón apart, the army sent tanks and soldiers into +the sprawling complex, and gunmen sprayed machine gun rounds of bullets on the prisoners from a hovering helicopter. An unknown number were +killed, and order was restored.19 As this chapter suggests, nothing of this +nature has since taken place, though conditions have, if anything, worsened +within Guatemala’s growing number of adult jails and juvenile reformatories. +The adult penitentiary system now includes thirty-­five prisons administered by either the Dirección General del Sistema Penitenciario (General +Administration of the Penitentiary System, dgsp) or regional authorities. +Among these are El Pavón, El Pavoncito, and Fraijanes 2 in Fraijanes in the +department of Guatemala; El Centro Preventivo in Zone 18 at the edge of +Guatemala City; El Boquerón in Cuilapa, Santa Rosa; and El Hoyón in Escuintla. The Welfare Secretariat currently manages several reformatories for +minors that are in and around Guatemala City and house 430 boys and a +smaller number of girls. These include Gaviotas for boys and Gorriones for +girls, both of which are located in Guatemala City, and El Centro Preventivo +Etapa 2 for boys, which is located in San José Pinula, a small town forty-­five +minutes by car from the capital. +Whether for minors or adults, these centers and jails have been incoherently organized and managed for decades. In juvenile reformatories, youths +are not separated by “crime,” an imprecise term in this context. According +to a study done in the 1990s, over 80 percent of the girls in Gorriones were +there because they were at “social risk.”20 In all these detention centers those +judged to have committed deeds of “little social impact” are mixed with +youth accused of homicide and kidnapping.21 Moreover, those convicted of +these acts and sentenced for longer periods are often not transferred to adult +prisons when they reach eighteen. All these youth, and especially those in +centers that still have staff from remar , face beatings, have no recourse +or legal counsel, and are often there “until rehabilitated,” a status that remains undefined. Few teachers, social workers, psychologists, or medical +professionals are available to these young people. One study describes the +youth detention center Etapa 2 as “in chaos” and the Welfare Secretariat “incapable of providing security of inmates, as recent mutinies have shown, in +which adolescents have been killed and wounded.”22 +For many years, the adult prisons throughout Guatemala have housed a +steady population of approximately 8,500 inmates. Of these, over 90 percent +are male, the majority are from lower-­class backgrounds, 40 percent are between eighteen and twenty-­two years of age, and well over three-­quarters +are awaiting trial. Those who are convicted are incarcerated together no matDemocracy and Lock-­Up + +111 + + ter whether they have been found guilty of petty theft or multiple homicides. +Prison conditions are notoriously terrible for most inmates. They live in overcrowded cells without light, air, mattresses, or sanitary facilities. Worse, +water is scarce. As one example, a single faucet from which water trickles +for at most three hours a day serves 330 inmates in El Hoyón, located in the +hottest part of the country. Because prisoners need cash to survive and few +prisons have work programs, inmates sell drugs and their bodies, and they +wash clothes or clean for the wealthy inmate minority that lives in special +quarters.23 To add to this, corruption and violent humiliation of prisoners +have been the operational principles of guards. An observer noted that in +one center, guards “force inmates to clean toilets with their hands, floors on +their bare knees, sleep standing up and other degradations.”24 Guards have +accepted money for everything from renting out mattresses to facilitating +escapes and opening doors to allow in extralegal executioners.25 +It was at the end of the twentieth century that this corrupt and decrepit +prison system slowly started to replace barrios and factories to become the +new publicized site of urban struggles—or rather of disputes about the management of power—that would become increasingly central in the popular +imagination. The stage for this was set by groups of inmates who took over +the internal functioning of some prisons in the 1990s in response to the +disastrous state of affairs inside them. They organized Comités de Orden y +Disciplina (Committees of Order and Discipline, cods) that made prisons +safer for visitors and inmates, implemented strict disciplinary codes, and demanded fees from prisoners to provide for cleaning equipment, prison security against internal theft, and the salaries of cod staff. The most famous +cod was at El Pavón, one that inmates started to stop the constant robbery +and rape of visitors. Over the years, it created what journalists described +as “a country within a country,” or “a small town run by inmates.”26 The +cod operated all the criminal rackets inside El Pavón smoothly, and it controlled internal strife in favor of the cod’s board members. The cod supplied goods, liquor, drugs, and prostitutes; collected fees from the inmates +who ran the prison’s lively commercial center, which included a pizzeria, a +pool hall, a call center, a butcher shop, a tortillería, various repair stalls, and +a hardware store; charged rent for structures, land, and land use; and helped +arrange the sale of homes built by departing inmates. The cod brought a +sort of peace to El Pavón, which boasted of having the best housing for the +wealthy minority in the nation’s prison system. Although the majority of inmates were poor and lived inside old cells with or without mattresses, the +rich had well-­built homes with gardens (and gardeners), refrigerators, and +gym equipment.27 For years, reformers, human rights advocates, and mano +112 + +Chapter 4 + + dura politicians all argued emphatically that the central problem in the penitentiary system was, in the words of one, that “the state has given control to +the prisoners.”28 In reality, this “prisoner power” consolidated the control +of a small minority of inmates that threw crumbs to lower-­class ones, had +ties with external elites, and tried to use the growing inmate population of +mareros as foils within their behind-­the-­walls maneuvers. +A Place in This World +A group of researchers who minister to incarcerated gang members has +suggested that by 2002, by which time the gang presence had become concentrated within the system, prison life represented a new stage of Mara +history.29 The significance of jails is one result of the policy adopted by authorities of grouping gang members together in the same prisons, and even +in the same cell-­blocks. With some fifteen hundred inmates, the largest +penal complex in the country, El Pavón holds some three dozen mareros. +This contrasts sharply with the smaller El Hoyón, which has approximately +300 mareros out of almost the same total of inmates; the Centro Preventivo +in Zone 18, which has had over 250 members of Mara-18 (m-­18) jammed into +one small section known as the “11”; and the high-­security jail El Boquerón, +where some 100 mareros represent over half of those incarcerated there.30 +The same pattern of keeping large numbers of gang members together has +existed in the juvenile reformatories (see figure 4.1). +Increased incarcerations and the tight grouping of mareros have had +many consequences. One of these is simply that the penitentiary system has +become the single most important place for mareros in Guatemalan society. +It is their center of sociability par excellence, one where they continue to reference and elaborate on gang identity, maintain contact with gang members +and leaders through their cell phones, and meet each other’s wives and children and other relatives on visiting days, and one where one marero’s visiting sister might become another marero’s lover. Locked in together, they +are locked into each other: already intense gang loyalties become even more +high pitched; in prisons, mareros are only that, and in those closed shared +spaces they can recuperate their fantasies. They use gang language and signals, get new tattoos and shave their hair off over and over; their main sights +are each other’s bodies, and they are together day and night, eating, sleeping, cleaning, and sitting around. Vital to their need to be physically strong, +they do strenuous exercise routines as a group. According to one report, +“There exists no specified area for exercise [in the jail], they [gang members] +play soccer in the patios, they do exercises endlessly—sit-­ups, push-­ups— +Democracy and Lock-­Up + +113 + + FIGURE 4.1 Members of M-­18 sitting together in El Hoyón Prison, +­Escuintla, 2005. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + wherever they can to stay in shape.”31 The many photographs of mareros behind prison fences attest to the fact that these youth maintain their bodies +and their style. Categorized as mareros, they also call upon themselves to act +as mareros, and they continue the war between Mara Salvatrucha (ms-­1 3) +and m-­1 8 behind bars.32 The mareros have marked out territories, and they +fight for them. +When the mareros have opposed prison authorities, it has been to retain and expand their space within the penal system, rather than oppose +their incarceration in it. The several uprisings of gang members in prisons +and youth centers have involved taking guards hostage as leverage to win +demands that will improve prison life for them as mareros. They have consistently sought increased visitation privileges and the right to carry cell +phones at all times. However, the sharpest disputes have concerned transfers, which are matters of mibarrio solidarity, protection, and survival. The +policy of putting mareros together in jails does not mean that mareros from +the same gangs are necessarily together in the same centers. Mareros have +rioted repeatedly to stop the reassignment of members of their mibarrio to +jails that are rival strongholds, and to bring members of the same gang into +the same prison. Examples of this are the taking of hostages around those +paired demands at El Boquerón and the Centro Preventivo in Zone 18 in +2005; the Centro Preventivo and El Pavoncito in 2006; El Hoyón, Etapa 2 in +San José de Pinula and El Pavoncito in 2007; and Etapa 2 in 2009. These disputes have usually left prisoners and hostages wounded or dead. +Taking Fire +Despite their concentrated numbers and gang adherence, mareros’ power +in prisons is limited. Outside of El Hoyón in Escuintla and juvenile centers such as Etapa 2, mareros have not become the authoritative group of +inmates within the system because they have faced stiff competition from +incarcerated state agents and members of the Colombian and Guatemalan mafias, as well as from important outside groups. Vulnerable as lower-­ +class youth without lawyers or wealthy relatives, mareros have been targets +for powerful prisoners and, above all, for politicians and military men who +entrap gang members and use them, as well as the all-­important uproar +around them, in dangerous dramas that go beyond jails. +The first publicized case of this nature took place in the Centro Preventivo, Zone 18, where the ex-­colonel Bryan Lima Oliva and a former member of the presidential guard, José Obdulia Villanueva (both incarcerated +for the murder of the human rights advocate Bishop Juan Gerardi), joined +Democracy and Lock-­Up + +115 + + together with other ex-­military men who awaited trial there. Under Lima +Oliva’s leadership, this cohort of inmates took control of the prison through +the cod and, according to testimony later taken from prisoners by human +rights organizations, “demanded monthly payments from inmates in return for security, cable television, food, water, light, cigarettes and maintenance.”33 At the lower end of the prison hierarchy, mareros complained of +physical abuse at the hands of Lima Oliva and his friends, and this exploded +on February 12, 2003, into a fight that left over fifteen mareros dead. It also +left Obdulia Villanueva beheaded. In a show of power, Lima Oliva announced +from prison over national radio that his bodyguards had immediately killed +Villanueva’s killers in their cells. Lima Oliva explained that mareros had decapitated Villanueva because “they respond to their instincts and are hostile +to military men” and that he and his “thousands [milles] of fellow inmates +would begin daily executions of gang members if these were not removed.” +Prison administrators complied and transferred two hundred inmates, including mareros.34 Years later, the discovery of Lima Oliva’s prison account +books revealed thousands of dollars in loans that were paid back in gems, +cars, and furniture; the cell phone numbers of Mexican Zeta leaders and ex-­ +kaibiles; and notes on what homes to rent for purposes of drug distribution +and how to stock them—“washer, drier, television, 5 laptops, 200 hand grenades”—as well as on rental fees for chairs and tables within the prison for +inmates’ visitors.35 The mareros had lost out to a trans-­regional military-­run +capitalist company that operated on every profitable level possible, had its +headquarters in the maximum-­security section of a large prison, and might +have had its own reasons for getting rid of Villanueva. +The vulnerability of the mareros and the imperative of unity were apparent to at least some gang members. At the time of the 2003 transfers, leaders +in ms-­1 3 and m-­1 8 signed a nonaggression pact that went into effect in +prisons and reform centers throughout the country. Based on a Los Angles +model and known as Southern United Raza, or Sur, in Guatemala it stipulated that ms-­13 and m-­18 would continue to fight outside, but not inside, +the penitentiary system (see figure 4.2). During the two years Sur lasted, +the intense fighting between ms-­13 and m-­18 inmates ceased. However, the +pact suddenly and brutally broke down. It is unclear how hand grenades +and others arms got inside El Hoyón in Escuintla, the most overcrowded +and run-­down prison, or by what means the news of the collapse of Sur so +quickly spread throughout the country. According to reports, at 8:30 am on +August 16, 2005, young men in ms-­13 threw grenades into a cell of members of m-­18 and continued their assault with firearms.36 Over the next three + +116 + +Chapter 4 + + FIGURE 4.2 Gang members from M-­18 in El Hoyón Prison, Escuintla, +walk by a wall inscribed with the words “Southern United Raza,” in +reference to the nonaggression pact between MS-­13 and M-­18 that prohibited rival clikas from fighting within penitentiary walls. It remained +in effect from 2003 to 2005. Escuintla, 2005. Credit: Victor Blue. + + hours, ms-­13 attacked m-­18 members with weapons that included knives, +9 mm pistols, revolvers, and Uzis at prisons at some distance from Escuintla, +such as El Pavón; a prison in Quetzaltenango in the western highlands; one +in Mazaltenango on the piedmont; and the male juvenile detention center +Gaviotas in Guatemala City. Thirty youth between ages eighteen and twenty +died, most of these inside El Hoyón, where sixty more were hospitalized +with cuts and gunshot wounds.37 Every news outlet covered the aftermath +of this bloody national battle in detail. Images of the shirtless, tattooed +wounded young men and the tattooed dead lying on floors patently slippery +with blood, of bereft families, and of panicked neighbors in areas near the +prisons circulated for weeks (see figures 4.3–4.5). President Óscar Berger, +of the center-­right Gran Alianza Nacional (Grand National Alliance, gana), +stated that he was relieved no one had escaped and called for a rapid completion of forty-­nine cells that would expand Fraijanes 2, the high-­security +prison next to El Pavón.38 His minister of the Interior, Carlos Vielmann, declared that this was not a “mutiny but a breakdown in the internal order of +the penitentiary system.”39 There was no investigation of any aspect of this +tragedy.40 +Whoever propelled it, this war continued. On September 4, the National +Police reported that ms-­13 members managed to “force” their way into a detention center, open fire, blow off the heads of two members of m-­18, and +go on to kill ten more. Two weeks later this scenario repeated itself almost +down to the last detail. On September 19, according to National Police, three +ms-­13 mareros between the ages of fourteen and seventeen walked into the +juvenile reform center Etapa 2 in San José Pinula with an ak-­47 and several +pistols. They killed several members of m-­18, two of whom they beheaded. +The severed heads were placed in the outdoor space. Policemen and soldiers +subsequently arrived, and the three were taken to Gaviotas. Later, however, +one of the boys reported he had been picked up by the police and taken to +the site of the crime; the second stated he had just been visiting; and the +third, after declaring he knew his rights, remained silent. They were never +charged. In a scenario that is hauntingly reminiscent of the war, and one in +which the military was praised for its actions, all that clearly emerged about +the events of the day was a televised video that showed two severed heads +and the arrival of the armed forces, whose commander announced that the +army had been called there in response to an “assault by a commando.”41 In +this case, the criminals who were the “other” necessary to the definition of +the good citizen that Michel Foucault describes in his classic work Discipline +and Punish: The Birth of the Prison, might well have been invented, and the way + +118 + +Chapter 4 + + FIGURE 4.3 A mother waits for news of her incarcerated son in the aftermath of the August 2005 riots in El Hoyón Prison, Escuintla, that broke +the nonaggression pact. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + FIGURE 4.4 Family members arrive at the morgue in Escuintla to look for +their loved ones, 2005. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + FIGURE 4.5 Neighborhood boys search through the mess of discarded +and ripped remains of the fighting, Escuintla, 2005. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + in which the prison system has become central to the national history is by +facilitating the postwar reemergence of the Guatemalan military as a social +force for the good of the good citizenry against, in this case, a few teenagers. +Yet more is going on than the creation of the “other.” A year later, the +state assaulted El Pavón. On September 25, 2006, Interior Minister Carlos +Vielmann, National Police head Erwin Sperisen, and Alejandro Giammattei, the director of the national penitentiary system, personally led an attack force on the prison that consisted of three thousand members of the +army and the National Civil Police, four tanks, and three helicopters, which +flew over the heads of the fifteen hundred inmates. According to the official version, the troops marched forward against gunfire coming from the +prison for thirty minutes, after which they entered, secured the prison in +fifty minutes, and in the process killed seven “armed and combative prisoners.” Vielmann, Giammattei, and Sperisen accompanied President Berger +on an immediate tour of the captured grounds. The Berger government +quickly produced a video titled take control of a Territory Controlled by Criminals and subtitled take control of a Paradise for Juvenile Delinquents. The film +follows the soldiers as they occupied the prison premises, walked through +the wreckage of shops and buildings, and peeked into elite inmate homes +replete with Jacuzzis, refrigerators, and televisions. The assault was a public spectacle, had a name—Operación Pavo Real (Operation Peacock)—and +made it into both national and international news. +What did not make the news was that a criminal ring controlled El Pavón. +At the time of the assault the head of the cod was a drug lord named Luis +Alfonso Zepeda, who had been sentenced in the early 1990s to twenty-­six +years for having committed multiple assassinations. Zepeda and his business partners administered an El Pavón prison town complex that included +a school called Escuela de Arte Senderos de Libertad (The Paths of Liberty School of Arts); a cocaine-­processing laboratory run by a well-­known +Colombian mafia inmate, Jorge “El Loco” Batres Pinto; and an auto repair +shop where numbers were erased off the chassis of robbed cars before these +vehicles were sent back to the street for sale.42 Operación Pavo Real succeeded in destroying the cod. No gunfire was exchanged between prisoners +and soldiers. A group of hooded men who entered with the soldiers and +policemen went down a lineup of the fifteen hundred men with photos in +their hands and pulled out Zepeda and five prisoners who were associates +of El Loco. El Loco escaped the lineup and took refuge in his luxurious El +Pavón residence, where he was soon discovered in his garden. The bodies of +all seven turned up with signs of torture.43 Four years later, Vielmann, Giammattei, and Sperisen would flee Guatemala when the un Comisión Inter122 + +Chapter 4 + + nacional contra la Impunidad en Guatemala (International Commission +against Impunity in Guatemala, cicig) revealed that this offensive against +El Pavón settled a struggle about who controlled a large sector of the drug +and stolen goods market. +In the twenty-­first century the Guatemalan penitentiary system has become “a country within a country.” It is one of no doubt several control centers of the growing illegal economy. The description here of the configuration of prison conflicts from 2003 to 2005 illustrates that these fights are +between important business and political figures who operate across walls +and use both the mareros and invisibility of what goes on inside prisons to +their advantage. Though the conflict at El Pavón did not involve mareros, +officials who were culprits in this drama had presented the pre-­assault state +of affairs in the prison as a “paradise for juvenile delinquents,” +despite this being a prison for adults, not minors. Even in their absence, the +mareros have been dodging bullets. +In a subsequent fight between powerful adult criminals that again +brought world attention to Guatemala’s prison system, mareros tried to +avoid the trap that they saw coming. This time, they demanded that legal authorities protect them. On February 19, 2007, three Salvadoran congressmen +widely known to be connected to the drug trade were ambushed and murdered on their way to Guatemala City, along with their driver. Four members +of the criminal investigation unit of the Guatemalan National Civil Police +subsequently confessed to these murders, and they were confined in the +maximum-­security prison in El Boquerón, an ms-­13 stronghold. A few days +later, the four policemen were shot to death in their cells at close range. A +riot immediately broke out in the prison. Aware that they might be blamed, +members of ms-­13 took a guard hostage and threatened to kill him unless authorities declared them innocent. They held their hostage at the very +moment that the same officials involved at El Pavón—Vielmann, Sperisen, +and Giammattei—were accusing the mareros of having slit the throats of +the policemen—apparently they had not heard that the latter were gunned +down—because, in their words, “mareros hate police.” Alert to the utility +of human rights discourse, the mareros insisted that the human rights ombudsman and television crews be brought inside the prisons to, as they put +it, “protect their human rights.” The ombudsman came, and the mareros released their hostage. Nonetheless, thirteen mareros were charged with the +murder of the four policemen. Months later, the charges were dropped for +lack of evidence, and the thirteen stayed in El Boquerón to complete their +original sentences. The following month, “Small,” one of the thirteen, was +decapitated and his body burned in his cell.44 +Democracy and Lock-­Up + +123 + + Making Youth Crazy +Who orchestrates this madness? Because a video from a closed-­circuit +camera fell into the hands of the human rights ombudsman in 2006, it is +possible to see the degree to which authorities brutally manipulate youth. +In June 2006, m-­18 youth attacked ms-­13 members in the juvenile center +Etapa 2 in San José Pinula, murdered them, and mutilated their bodies. +What the video picked up is that at 5 pm that day, the prison wardens threw +blankets over the entrance to the section where m-­18 youth were detained, +and thus blocked the view of the camera and of a guard in a turret overlooking the wing. Over the next forty minutes, wardens went into the area +under the blanket with objects not identifiable on the film. Ten minutes before the trouble started, the guard in the turret went on a dinner break, without being replaced. At 6:30 pm, three members of m-­18 emerged from behind the blanket and entered the area where ms-­13 youth lived, one that was +presumably shut off by a locked door. During the next forty minutes, gang +members attacked with sharp instruments, severed body limbs, and crushed +skulls. A few minutes after the fight had started, someone had called the +National Civil Police, which entered and left after two minutes. The policemen returned thirty-­eight minutes later, the three boys from m-­18 were back +behind their blanket, and the policemen found three boys dead, with their +limbs scattered, and six badly wounded boys, from whom no statements +were taken. The human rights ombudsman presented the video to the un +special rapporteur, who brought accusations against Giammattei that have +yet to be resolved.45 +A contrast to the resulting chorus of “out of control” is at once obvious +and startling: this was a tightly controlled sequence of events, right down +to a stage manager who stopped the policemen from bungling the timing +of their entrance and to the erasure of media publicity concerning the video. +The venue for this manipulation was not an adult jail such as El Boquerón, +where mareros have demonstrated some ability to hold their own, but a reform center for minors in an isolated setting in the countryside. This was the +second terrifying and eerie news-­making disaster at Etapa 2. It occurred a +year following the incident, cited earlier, in which three boys were arrested +for beheadings in which they probably had no involvement. It has been difficult to investigate what was at issue in these two episodes that resulted in +the deaths of young mareros; however, the leadership given by police and +prison personnel in the 2006 murders is evident. +It was in the same Etapa 2 in San José Pinula that youth murdered a +schoolteacher three years later. On March 3, 2009, a few days following a +124 + +Chapter 4 + + search by authorities in which cell phones were seized from the resident +youth and visitation rights taken away as a punishment, several boys took +hostage two custodians, a cook, and two teachers, including forty-­five-­year-­ +old Jorge Emilio Winter Vidaurre, who worked in one of the few programs at +Etapa 2. The boys demanded that the cell phones be returned, that visiting +privileges be restored, and that two youths recently transferred to another +juvenile center be brought back. With the words “we aren’t kidding,” they +shut the hostages in a room and waited to start negotiations; taking hostages had become the leverage common throughout the penal system. The +Etapa 2 administrator did not negotiate. She called the National Civil Police, +whose elite special forces encircled the prison. The boys responded by crushing Winter Vidaurre’s skull and cutting out his heart. In view of the police +and residents of San José de Pinula who by then surrounded Etapa 2, the +boys came out into the central patio, danced, and yelled that Winter Vidaurre +“had lived long enough.” The police seized the youths, who held their fingers +high in a gang sign, and took them out of the building to await trial in the +adult Centro Preventivo, Zone 18, where they keep company with hundreds +of mareros who were crammed into Section 11 of that prison.46 The psychiatrist Rodolfo Kepfer, who worked at Etapa 2 at the time, said that when +“the boys are upset, they get violent, obsessed, single-­minded like addicts, +almost glazed over. After something happens, you stay away until they are +calmed down.” Following the initial riot over the cell phones, Kepfer had unsuccessfully warned Winter Vidaurre and others to absent themselves for a +few days after the youth rioted over their cell phones. +Winter Vidaurre’s grotesque murder and the boys’ disdainful boasting +caused widespread horror and panic. State authorities had to act forcefully +to project a vision of tenacious pursuit of mareros. Close on the heels of +Winter Vidaurre’s death, President Álvaro Colom, of the social democratic +party Unidad Nacional de la Esperanza (National Unity of Hope, une), announced that “careful police intelligence and the cooperation of citizens +over time” had led to the discovery of the identity of no less a persona than +the shadowy figure behind the bus extortion rackets that have left hundreds +of bus drivers and assistants dead in recent years and months. Colom’s attorney general, Salvador Gándara, proclaimed Áxel Danilo Rodríguez, alias +Smiley, a twenty-­two-­year-­old leader of m-­18, mastermind of these crimes +and, in addition, the culprit in the recent murder of a well-­to-­do Korean +couple.47 Only weeks later, police captured this “public enemy number one” +following a gun fight in Zone 10 of Mixco. +Smiley was already an urban legend, an example of what Foucault cited as +the historic failure of the modern penal system to rehabilitate the criminal +Democracy and Lock-­Up + +125 + + and its success “in producing delinquency, a specific type.” A child of that +system, Smiley was born in Colonia Primero de Julio in Zone 9, joined m-­18 +when he was ten, and soon thereafter was arrested for extortion and sent to +the juvenile center Gaviotas, where he killed two young members of ms-­13 +during the large-­scale multiprison battle between ms-­13 and m-­18 in August +2005. For that, the judge sentenced him to five additional years and moved +him into the adult prison, even though he was a minor, from which he was +released for “good behavior” shortly thereafter. He returned to the streets to +become “public enemy number one.” +His 2009 capture received wide publicity and high praise from and for +President Colom. Upon his arrest, Smiley denied the charges. He stated that +he was responsible for killing ms-­13 rivals in August 2005 but not the bus +drivers or the Korean couple. He called Gándara a “thief just like me, except +he doesn’t have tattoos.” At an unusual press conference held in the police +precinct following his arrest, Smiley spoke and looked like the marero who +had been fantasized about for decades. Covered with tattoos, low voiced, +and short on words, in answer to reporters’ provocative and aggressive questions, he said that killing people satisfied him and that he was a thief. He +was heard to have muttered, “The devil is my jefe.” A few months later, the +judge dropped the charges concerning the bus drivers and the Korean couple +for lack of evidence and instead charged Smiley with “bearing weapons” to +keep him in preventive custody in Zone 18’s Centro Pre­ventivo.48 +Keeping up his momentum, Smiley held up his end as the perfect delinquent. One year later, he was part of an m-­18 uprising coordinated by cell +phone calls from the newly reinforced high-­security cells at jail Fraijanes +2 and from the Centro Preventivo, Zone 18, at precisely noon on April 23, +2010. The mareros in both prisons took hostages and demanded the transfer of dozens of m-­18 members from Fraijanes 2 to the Centro Preventivo in +Zone 18. After days of a standoff, the human rights ombudsman negotiated +a settlement to “protect the lives of the hostages.” The hostages were released, and the m-­18 members taken in heavily guarded trucks in middle of +the night to the Centro Preventivo, Zone 18, where their presence increased +the number of m-­18 members from (according to the press) 272 to 366.49 +On and on it goes. The “transition to democracy” cannot succeed without citizen security, which, because of these tattooed young gangsters, cannot happen without ironclad prisons. Yet the deep social changes that might +root out the causes of misery and crime cannot happen because of well-­ +dressed criminals in power who, as Smiley observed, do not have tattoos. +These youth seem shackled into this sequence. Foucault frames the mas- + +126 + +Chapter 4 + + FIGURE 4.6 A member of MS-­1 3 cries out as Guatemalan soldiers in +downtown Guatemala City haul him and a woman away, to where +is not known, 2005. The fate of both youth remains unclear. Credit: +Victor J. Blue. + + sive prison uprisings of the 1970s that inspired his thinking as “revolts, at +the level of the body, against the very body of the prison.” He writes that “at +issue was not whether the prison environment was too harsh or too aseptic, +too primitive or too efficient but its very materiality as an instrument and +vector of power.”50 In sharp contrast to the revolts referred to by Foucault, +such as the uprising in the Attica Correctional Facility in upstate New York +in 1971, the conflicts in Guatemala’s prisons and juvenile centers in the early +2000s have been the consequence of mareros and others fighting to buttress +their places within the prison system. The prisons have sustained the delinquents and created the disorders that, however disruptive, also do not challenge the “vector of power” (see figure 4.6). +Clean and Dirty Bodies +Fighting crime has been central to political campaigns for decades.51 Elected +to the presidency in 2011, the ex-­general and kaibil Otto Pérez Molina, member of the Partido Patriota (Patriotic Party, pp), has long fashioned himself as the tough guy, a man who once directed battles and now can stop +“narcotraficantes, Maras and others.”52 His unsuccessful 2007 bid as well as +the successful 2011 campaign focused on youth in televised advertisements +in which every type of youth, and dozens of them—Maya, Ladino, male, +female, clean shaven, neatly bearded, arty, middle class, worker, and student—cheerfully advocate and repeat over and over “mano dura,” including in Maya languages. No matter whether hip or church-­bound in their +look, they contrast with those looming figures: the nonnational (LA), menacing, almost faceless because of tattoos, hypervisible, blue with ink mareros whose bodies call so much attention to themselves. The public cannot +read the stories that the marking on the mareros’ bodies tell. All the public +seems to see is what is said about symbols of Satan. The clean bodies of the +Guatemalan youth in the television videos represent a new Guatemala, one +disassociated from the tattooed body’s presumed representational schema +of violence and chaos. Perhaps the images of the mareros’ bodies are meant +to replace or confuse memories of the kaibiles’ blood-­smeared faces. + +128 + +Chapter 4 + + OPEN ENDING + +If something does not go well, you have to cover up the holes, like on the stage +set. When an actor makes a mistake he goes on, like nothing happened. The public +doesn’t know the script. You don’t have to go into all the mistakes. +—Fu (Juan Manuel Orozco Ambrosio), ex-­marero, educator, and theater +performer and producer, killed April 5, 2009; El Periódico, November 30, 2008 + +I want to say that I knew Fu and Chuky [a second assassinated actor and ex–gang +member], and they were great people and their death hurts me and because of this +same violence I had to leave and live outside in a foreign country, but I will never +forget my brave friends. I send my condolences to the family of Fu and Chuky from +North Carolina. +—Flakita de la Frutal, El Periódico, May 3, 2009 + +T + +he political violence of the Guatemalan ruling elite is the result of calculated decisions about wealth and power, but mareros have no political +power or wealth. Their violence is part of the unspoken story of subjectivities that have been created by the absence of positive means of power over +life and by fear, terror, and the difficult material conditions that have been +part of Guatemalan history. A tragic legacy of Guatemala’s late twentieth-­ +century history, the mareros of the twenty-­first century are not rebels: sadly, +they adhere to the standards set by Guatemala’s ruling elites, drug lords, +military leaders, and too many other influential people. +The backbone of this book has been the backstory of the current gangs. +In the course of the decades since the 1980s, they have been vilified and victimized, and some of their members have responded in kind. Today clikas +of the Maras with names such as Rokers, Los Locos, and Los Metalles, and +young people who hang out and call themselves mareros are in the city and + +5 + + in most of the country’s twenty-­two departments. They have become central figures in the minds of many, and a political windfall for authoritarian +political parties. As I have stressed, some of these youth may not be violent, but their preoccupation with violence and with death and their crimes +against ordinary people alert us to a world in deep trouble. Young people +who were once imagined as leading humanity into the great mythical future +of the metanarrative of modernity, where “things are getting better, better +all the time,” are now shoved into corners by the past. This book has argued +that capitalist modernity’s promises have not borne fruit for youth, and it +has traced the discourses and identities available to youth and the deeply violent and changing Guatemala in which these have arisen. “Youth” was once +a temporal fix on capitalist development’s failure to deliver in present time; +it was the quintessential symbol of a bright national future on an always-­ +distant and luminous horizon. “Youth” now seems to signal a marketing +niche, the biggest in the world, and a horrific social problem. +Fortunately, girls and boys and young women and men are more than +metaphors, symbols, objects, or images. They are subjects who transcend +the frozen singular categories of identity such as delinquent and street child +that obscure our vision (see figure 5.1). Young killers and thieves might also +be overworked day laborers, artists on the side, and anxious parents; they +are not simply wind-­up toy soldiers without emotions. Many experience repulsion, yet feel immobilized inside of a persona named marero who must +follow the lethal orders of others. +That youth abandon gangs gives hope, and so does the harrowing reality +that they do so despite incalculable difficulties. The Maras ms-­13 and m-­18 +“green-­light” (give the death warrant to) youth who leave except, it has been +claimed, in cases of conversion to Pentecostalism or of special permissions +for “good behavior,” which means that those who are requesting a “leave” +have complied with orders and accomplished tasks that include homicide. It +has been argued that youth who quit do so only in obedience to these Mara +guidelines, and therefore only within the gang’s regime of law.1 But youth +in fact do quit otherwise. Ex-­mareros turn up in all kinds of places through +the help of adults who have made no pacts with Mara leaders, or even without any adult support. Ex–gang members can be found working in jobs in +the informal and formal economies; they can show up as artists such as +Carlos Pérez (see figure 5.2), and as street educators and youth advocates. +That they desert the Maras even at the risk of green-­lighting brings to mind +political activists of the early period who chose lives that they deemed meaningful despite knowing that they might die as a consequence.2 Drawn into +macabre gangs to which they can become faithful unto death, these children +130 + +Chapter 5 + + FIGURE 5.1 A young man in the bustle of Guatemala City’s Central Park, +Zone 1, 1999. Youth are more complex than identifications such as +“­marero,” “student,” and “worker,” or “Ladino,” “mestizo,” and “Maya” +suggest. Credit: Andrea Aragón. + + FIGURE 5.2 Artist Carlos Pérez, ex-­marero, Guatemala, 2010. Credit: +­Copyright © Donna DeCesare, 2010. + + and young women and men also can “decide for life”—certainly a kind of +politics—though they might die for that. +Exiting through Pentecostalism +The Pentecostal ministry has had successes, and this is a topic on its own +that is beyond the scope of this book. Based on interviews with ex–gang +members, Robert Brenneman’s Homies and Hermanos: God and Gangs in Central +America offers a fine study of conversion. My own experiences in the early +2000s made clear to me that the Pentecostals’ methods and rhetoric have +changed over time, and these now vary from approaches centered on the +hell-­and-­brimstone punishments such as those meted out in the reform +centers by the brutal staff of remar, to the patience and kindliness given +by individual pastors and particular ministries. In the best of the Pentecostal +centers, youth join gentle communities, take the enormous step of entering +detoxification programs, and do not necessarily have a relationship to the +political affiliations of some of the megachurches, such as the ultraconservative El Shaddai Ministries.3 Pentecostals have ministered to ex-­mareros +over the years through clubs such as Rescate Maras Para Cristo and encouraged them to open small cooperative businesses such as bakeries. Often +with the assistance of the Guatemalan government, international groups +and Guatemalan companies, these non-­Catholic Christian groups have been +involved in attempts to reform mareros since the 1980s, as chapter 4 notes. +Moreover, because of the stated agreement between Pentecostals and some +Mara leaders affirming that members who leave to convert will not be killed, +in the minds of many young people the Pentecostals offer what seems to +amount to a lifeboat. Youth sometimes join Pentecostal groups out of fear of +the consequences of not joining (see figure 5.3). Ghastly public executions +of mareros have added urgency to a safe passage out of the gangs. In 2005, +a Pentecostal pastor recruited an entire clika of over thirty boys in the town +of Palín, near the capital, after several men burned three mareros alive in a +public “social cleansing.”4 +Conversion stories are profound and speak to the real agency of those +who, in their words, “encounter Christ.” Once saved, young people give +emotional accounts of parental and other adult mistreatment, public testimonies that help them become more sympathetic to themselves and others. +Many become activists for the ministries that guide them. Yet the notion that +youth abandon the Maras only through Pentecostal conversion suggests that +youth will not leave without the assurance that they will not be killed, and +without strong religious persuasion and adult control over their every step. +Open Ending + +133 + + FIGURE 5.3 Ex-­members of MS-­1 3 attending a Pentecostal service in +Palín, a town not far from Guatemala City, 2005. They renounced the +gang and joined the church after being frightened by the lynching of +three of their members. Credit: Victor J. Blue. + + This account of “departure only through Pentecostal groups” is deceptive +because gangs have sometimes green-­lighted ex-­members who converted. +It is also misleading because it suggests that fear always paralyzes youth, or +that they lack the internal and moral conviction necessary to make a radical +break on their own without a group that gives them narratives, standards, +and regulations to which they need to conform, and which are conformist.5 +These assumptions are belied by the fact that some youth just take a chance +and desert, sometimes following the birth of their children, or in simple +­disgust.6 +Just Quitting +The Guatemalan therapist Herbert Sánchez spent years working with young +men who had abandoned the Maras. In his conversations with me in the late +1990s, he emphasized that youth he counseled had lived in conditions where +“death and hatred” determine everyday life. In line with this, he sought out +the writings of the Viennese psychotherapist Viktor E. Frankl, a survivor of +the Nazi concentration camps, because Sánchez believed that these youth +had to “survive the death camps.” He drew on Frankl’s argument that one +can endure in situations that are constantly life threatening and soul deadening, as long as one gives life meaning, and that otherwise one cannot +live.7 He labored hard to create a therapeutic community where youth had +to live at a “high level of consciousness” as he phrased it, and struggle to +give meaning to their shattered lives through physical exertion, discussion, +love, and positive deeds toward others. The meaning of meaning, he said in +response to my asking, is catching a passion about and for life (see figure +5.4).8 In his view this represents a conversion to one’s own life. +Using a different vocabulary, ex-­mareros expressed this resolution to +make lives that made sense to them in defiance of death’s apparent omnipotence. Alfredo got out after police killed his two brothers in a “social +cleansing” operation in La Limonada. Still in La Limonada, Alfredo now +works with an agency that involves neighborhood youth in sports and +other recreational activities. Sitting inside a storefront drinking a beer, his +eighteen-­year-­old friend and coworker José told me he left because he “got +fed up. . . . The leaders thought they were tough but they got too tough, they +would just say ‘liquidate Fulano’ [so-­and-­so]” and he simply did not want +to murder people. In a different ambience, Luis, a young man in a Catholic +group home, said with a smile that he quit because he “fell in love.” Another, +Rolando, explains his quitting as “I just decided to”; “I became a parent,” +he said, and did not “want my kid to have my life.” When I asked Rolando +Open Ending + +135 + + FIGURE 5.4 Street educators found these children living in the central +bus terminal in Guatemala City and brought them to live in this group +home, 1998. A number of former street children have developed organizations to alleviate the problems of homeless youth. Credit: Deborah T. +Levenson. + + whether he feared being killed by his old gang, he made the important observation that the probability of being killed while in the gang was higher: +he said he would be “dead already anyway, in the clika, because of someone +who would have jumped me.”9 +Rosa (see chapter 3) was suicidal because she took the life of an elderly +woman—“I was ready to, I don’t know, ready to kill myself. My heart ached, +I went to live with an aunt.” Rosa stayed out of sight for a while and then +found a job. She put her reason for leaving as “I killed. . . . I really needed to +get out of the Maras. . . . I didn’t have friends. I hardly ever saw my sister, +because she found out I’ve been in a Mara. She beat me. I didn’t think much +when I was younger, but now I know what is right and what is wrong. . . . +When I grow up, I want to be a doctor. I want to have children, and I am +going to give them lots of advice and all the love that I wasn’t given.” Rosa +left without the protection of the Pentecostals to pursue her goals of being +a loving parent and becoming a doctor who could help people who had been +in her situation. +Not all youth who leave make it. Notwithstanding that some who abandon the Maras without playing by gang rules escape green-­lighting, many +others do not. Evidence indicates that getting away from gang life by leaving +the country is particularly offensive to gang leaders, perhaps because in +doing so youth remove themselves from the total control of “territory.” +One tragic example concerns Edgar Chocoy, who joined ms-­13 at twelve in +Guatemala City and left it two years later because, in his words, he “was not +cut out for it” and he did not like the violence. +Years afterward, Edgar recounted to the U.S. immigration lawyer Kimberly Baker Medina that when he dropped out of ms-­13 in 2002 at fourteen, +the gang demanded that he pay three thousand quetzals a week to not be +killed—a particularly horrific example of necroliving. He would have had +to engage in continual big-­time robbery to come up with such a large sum. +Instead he hid in Guatemala City for a short period of time before he decided to leave the country and reunite with his mother, who had emigrated +to Los Angeles almost a decade before, while he was still a toddler. Upon +receiving news of his situation and his planned journey, she sent money to +pay a coyote (the person paid to guide those without papers across borders). +In kind with the hundreds of children who go north from Central America +to search for or otherwise reunite with their mothers, he went through an +uncertain and terrifying journey that involved crossing rivers; concealing +himself; pretending to be Mexican; getting on buses in foreign lands; and +defending himself from thieves, hunger, sickness, officials, and despair.10 +After he arrived in Los Angeles, life was hard. He had troubles with schoolOpen Ending + +137 + + mates because of gang rivalries there and his presumed inclusion in one of +them. First his school kicked him out, and after a spell, so did his mother, +who hardly knew him and did not want “problems” because she had other +children (siblings Edgar barely knew) in her house. Afraid to stay homeless +in the street, alone without real friends, Edgar went to the apartment of an +older Spanish-­speaking schoolmate, a gang member who proceeded to use +Edgar as an armed drug runner. While he was there, and even while working +for the gang—his resource for food and shelter—he found out about Homeboy Industries, a program founded by Jesuit Father Greg Boyle, which opens +its arms to gang members. He went there for help, and there he decided to +start the painful process of getting rid of his tattoos, tattoos that he saw as +a major source of trouble because they identified him with gangs. +Then in 2003, the Los Angeles police arrested him for possession of +cocaine base. The charge was adjudicated because of Edgar’s age. However, +because he had no papers, he was sent to an internment camp in Colorado +to await deportation. In the camp he entered the loose weave of solidarity +among detainees, and he learned about the possibility of applying for asylum, which he did through contacts he pursued while in detention. He met +Kimberly Baker Medina, and together they built his case against deportation +around the argument that he would be green-­lighted by ms-­13 if he returned +to Guatemala, one the judge rejected despite letters and testimony from experts in Guatemala and in the United States who supported his claim, and +in spite of an offer from an aunt in Virginia to care for him. In early 2004, +two-­and-­one-­half weeks following his deportation back to Guatemala City, +he was shot the first time he dared leave what was essentially a hiding place +in a relative’s house in Villa Nueva, on the city’s edge. He had stepped out +into the doorway to watch a religious procession pass, and a few moments +later, he was dead. He was sixteen (see figure 5.5).11 +Edgar left Guatemala to save his life from the Mara, but U.S. laws and Los +Angeles life made that impossible, and then a U.S. judge returned him to +Guatemala marked to die because the judge ruled that Edgar did not “belong +to a social group” that suffers persecution.12 It is a tragedy that illustrates +that the gangs do carry out their own laws when they want to. It also shows +that U.S. judges are capable of ignoring facts put right in front of their eyes: +ex-­mareros are a persecuted group. But all that killed Edgar did not define +him. He defined his own life by trying to find a way into a better one. His life +is marked by his triumphs. Here is a youth of startling valor, one we must +assume had a sense of self-­worth. He abandoned ms-­13 on his own and on +his own tried to figure out a life for himself, a task that included crossing +two borders, the entire length of Mexico and the Sonora Desert, and jour138 + +Chapter 5 + + FIGURE 5.5 Edgar Chocoy, an ex-­member of MS-­13 who fled to the United +States to escape gang life, Colorado, 2003. Edgar was deported by a U.S. +judge who rejected Edgar’s plea that he would be killed if returned to +Guatemala. He was shot to death by MS-­13 shortly after arriving back in +Guatemala. Credit: Kimberly Baker Medina. + + neying into a huge strange city, without papers, to a mother he hardly knew. +In a new country, without speaking English, and through people he barely +knew, he found resources in his Herculean effort to establish traction in his +constantly falling-­apart world. What more can we ask of a young person, +stigmatized at every turn, alone, and without the named identities, signposts, and spaces given by citizenship, work, school, or family? +Disidentifying: “The Public Doesn’t Know the Script” +Eight years before he died, Juan Manuel Orozco Ambrosio, known as Fu, +got out of m-­18 when he joined a theater group that had arrived in the barrio where he lived. “At first,” Fu told a friend, “I led a double life. During the +day I would be at rehearsals and at night in the rollo [the gang activities].” +Subsequently, at nineteen, he left m-­18 for good because he had found a real +passion, what Herbert Sánchez would call a meaning. Fu explained, “With +theater I could leave who I was for a while and put myself in someone else’s +life. It was therapy. In these journeys I found myself.” He pursued a career in +performing arts through the organization Caja Lúdica, an artistic collective +devoted to, in its own words, “promoting a culture of peace among people +and demanding an end to violence and impunity.”13 Another ex-­marero in +Caja Lúdica described its work in an interview with a journalist in 2009. “We +want to touch the human fiber in each person, to awaken that side that has +been lost in the system. We have to look at ourselves, to recognize ourselves +and see the power we have.”14 +Started in 2000 by theater people who had done similar work in Colombia, Caja Lúdica encourages youth to think about the history that generates +the violent crucible of their “coming of age” so that they can emerge from +subjugation (see figure 5.6). There exist other drama troupes in Guatemala +City that also seek out gang members and other barrio youth to fashion true +stories on a stage, whether that be a field or a street. These groups have +helped generate skits based on the most gruesome truths about the war. In +these, children reenact what happened to their parents and grandparents, +and to that degree these young performers reclaim the “unclaimed experience” at the heart of trauma.15 +A young woman in her teens in the Zone 12 settlement of Mezquital, +which started in 1985, the same year the Maras came out in public, Estela +is a street performer. She reminds one of Maritza (a member of the Maras +in the 1980s; see chapter 3). She can tell it like it is: “We have the ability to +change this country, and stop all this aggression that we’re living through. +The future is in our hands.” “Mezquital” she explains to visitors, +140 + +Chapter 5 + + was created by people invading the land when they came here as refugees +during the war. People fled here and raised their children here. The violence stems from that. . . . After the war there were a lot of traumatized +young people with lots of violence in their heads and they kill each other. +So it is dangerous. +It’s important for everyone [to have the chance to express themselves], +but we live in a culture that says we can’t do anything. Through [theater] +you find out that everyone has the same value. When you see others on +stilts or juggling, you feel better straightaway because you see that it’s +possible.16 +For Fu and other ex-­mareros, the world of playing has offered a sensibility +and mechanisms to develop themselves through the re-­creation of life +itself—settings, characters, scripts, plots, surprise endings, varied clothing, and new faces through makeup, dance, music, and—on stilts—a new +height, literally. Fu flourished in it. He even traveled to Germany as part of +a performing arts troupe, and m-­18 had accepted this new life and ceased +to brand him a traitor. But the old endless rivalry between m-­18 with ms-­13 +gave him problems. In 2008, Fu was left paralyzed and confined to a wheelchair after an ms-­13 member, who had participated in a workshop Fu ran, +shot him. His response was to continue his theater work—“no reason to remain seated,” he joked from his wheelchair—as a script writer and director +of educational comedies, and he opened a business that ran parties for children to support himself and his family (see figure 5.7).17 +Fu was shot to death as he sat in his wheelchair playing cards with a +group of children outside his house on April 5, 2009, and a few weeks later, +on May 23, two other members of Caja Lúdica were killed. These were ex-­ +mareros Saulo Fernando Gómez Estrada, known as both “el Chuky” and +Solo Estilos, who break danced and designed a line of clothes that he was +about to trademark; and Nexus Pineda, an ex-­marero nicknamed El Gordo +who had established a community youth center in the Mario Alioto, a neighborhood in Guatemala City named after a student leader and political activist +in the 1980s who was bludgeoned to death by police. Ten days later, shortly +after a memorial for Fu, El Gordo, and Chuky, Caja Lúdica break dancers, +actors, stilt walkers, and musicians Osmar Fernando Leiva Mejía, René Alexander Pérez Cruz, José Omar Pérez Cruz, Nelson Leonel Aguirre Tobar, and +Juan María López were gunned down.18 +Why? Although it is possible that mareros killed them because they had +left their Maras, all these youth had been out of the gangs for years. What coincided with their deaths was the growing success of theatrical groups such +Open Ending + +141 + + FIGURE 5.6 A parade performance presented by one of the several youth +theater groups in downtown Guatemala City, 2007. Credit: Copyright © +Donna DeCesare, 2007. + + FIGURE 5.7 Ex-marero Juan Manuel Orozco Ambrosio, known as “Fu,” +photographed playing his part in an evening street performance by the +theatre group Caja Lúdica. Courageous and determined, Fu helped create +critical spaces and autonomous voices for youth. Credit: Copyright © Donna +DeCesare, 2007. + + as Caja Lúdica in barrios. Some see these killings in the light of that. Following a third memorial service, one young person in the theater group said that +the dead youth “represented a threat to those who had economic interests in +their neighborhoods, who exploit youth. Their murders were also a way to +frighten others who might want to make change in these zones.”19 +According to the local official in the area, “various men who traveled in a +vehicle and jumped out and opened fire” carried out the murders in May and +April.20 Youth who write their own scripts—young women such as Estela +and young men turning into adults such as Fu—who leave the Mara and +know that they can rewrite the play, and that they are authors behind the +scenes, are politically dangerous. By animating life so, they pose a threat to +the micropower of death used to run neighborhoods. +This short final chapter concludes the book but not the history. Movements against domination and injustice always appear at one point or another, and so will the counterparts of Edgar, Fu, Estela, and other young +people who have their own thoughts and their own moments in time. +These youths, and not the celebrated and the fictional obedient La Juventud of nineteenth- and twentieth-century national fantasies, need to be our +heroes. However inconspicuous they are in the grand scale of things, they +push against the grain of despondency and they delineate the possibility, +once again, of a different Guatemala, with new lines. + +144 + +Chapter 5 + + AUTH O R'S N OT E + +A s a student o f history, having completed a master's degree and PhD +in the discipline, I am grateful for all I learned from my professors +and from the thousands of texts I studied. But I did not gain the +perspective presented in this book from those professors or studies. +This came from outside the academy. +My mother was part Indian, most likely Cherokee, born in Jop­ +lin, Missouri. Unenrolled and orphaned, having lost her mother to +tuberculosis at age four and with an Irish father who was itinerant +and alcoholic, she grew up neglected and often homeless along with +a younger brother. Picked up by authorities on the streets of Harrah, +Oklahoma, the town to which their father had relocated the family, +she was placed in foster homes where she was abused, expected to be +a servant, and would run away. When she was sixteen, she met and +married my father, of Scots-Irish settler heritage, eighteen, and a +high school dropout who worked as a cowboy on a sprawling cattle +ranch in the Osage Nation. I was the last of their four children. As +a sharecropper family in Canadian County, Oklahoma, we moved +from one cabin to another. I grew up in the midst of rural Native +communities in the former treaty territory of the Southern Cheyenne +and Arapaho Nations that had been allotted and opened to settlers +in the late nineteenth century. Nearby was the federal Indian board­ +ing school at Concho. Strict segregation ruled a mong the Black, +white, and Indian towns, churches, and schools in Oklahoma, and I +had little interchange with Native people. My mother was ashamed +of being part Indian. She died of alcoholism. +In California during the r9 6os, I was active in the civil rights, +anti-apartheid, anti-Vietnam War, and women's liberation move­ +ments, and ultimately, the pan-Indian movement that some labeled + +xi + + xii + +Author's Note + +Red Power. I was recruited to work on Native issues in 1970 by the +remarkable Tuscarora traditionalist organizer Mad Bear Anderson, +who insisted that I must embrace my Native heritage, however frag­ +ile it might be. Although hesitant at first, following the Wounded +Knee siege of 1973 I began to work-locally, around the country, +and internationally-with the American Indian Movement and the +International Indian Treaty Council. I also began serving as an ex­ +pert witness in court cases, including that of the Wounded Knee de­ +fendants, bringing me into discussions with Lakota Sioux elders and +activists. Based in San Francisco during that volatile and historic +period, I completed my doctorate in history in 1974 and then took +a position teaching in a new Native American studies program. My +dissertation was on the history of land tenure in New Mexico, and +during 1978-198 1 I was visiting director of Native American stud­ +ies at the University of New Mexico. There I worked collaboratively +with the All Indian Pueblo Council, Mescalero Apache Nation, Na­ +vajo Nation, and the Dinebe'iina Nahiilna be Agha'diit'ahii (DNA) +People's Legal Services, as well as with Native students, faculty, and +communities, in developing a research institute and a seminar train­ +ing program in economic development. +I have lived with this book for six years, starting over a dozen +times before I settled on a narrative thread. Invited to write this +ReVisioning American History series title, I was given parameters: +it was to be intellectually rigorous but relatively brief and written +accessibly so it would engage multiple audiences. I had grave misgiv­ +ings after having agreed to this ambitious project. Although it was +to be a history of the United States as experienced by the Indigenous +inhabitants, how could I possibly do justice to that varied experience +over a span of two centuries? How could I make it comprehensible +to the general reader who would likely have little knowledge of Na­ +tive American history on the one hand, but might consciously or +unconsciously have a set narrative of US history on the other? Since +I was convinced of the inherent importance of the project, I per­ +sisted, reading or rereading books and articles by North American +Indigenous scholars, novelists, and poets, as well as unpublished dis­ +sertations, speeches, and testimonies, truly an extraordinary body +of work. + + Author's Note + +I 've come to realize that a new periodization of US history is +needed that traces the Indigenous experience as opposed to the fol­ +lowing standard division: Colonial, Revolutionary, Jacksonian, Civil +War and Reconstruction, Industrial Revolution and Gilded Age, +Overseas Imperialism, Progressivism, World War I , Depression, +New Deal, World War II, Cold War, and Vietnam War, followed by +contemporary decades. I altered this periodization to better reflect +Indigenous experience but not as radically as needs to be done. This +is an issue much discussed in current Native American scholarship. +I also wanted to set aside the rhetoric of race, not because race +and racism are unimportant but to emphasize that Native peoples +were colonized and deposed of their territories as distinct peoples­ +hundreds of nations-not as a racial or ethnic group. "Coloniza­ +tion," "dispossession," "settler colonialism," "genocide"-these are +the terms that drill to the core of US history, to the very source of the +country's existence. +The charge of genocide, once unacceptable by establishment aca­ +demic and political classes when applied to the United States, has +gained currency as evidence of it has mounted, but it is too often ac­ +companied by an assumption of disappearance. So I realized it was +crucial to make the reality and significance of Indigenous peoples' +survival clear throughout the book. Indigenous survival as peoples +is due to centuries of resistance and storytelling passed through the +generations, and I sought to demonstrate that this survival is dy­ +namic, not passive. Surviving genocide, by whatever means, is re­ +sistance: non-Indians must know this in order to more accurately +understand the history of the United States. +My hope is that this book will be a springboard to dialogue about +history, the present reality of Indigenous peoples' experience, and +the meaning and future of the United States itself. +A note on terminology: I use " Indigenous," " Indian," and "Native" +interchangeably in the text. Indigenous individuals and peoples in +North America on the whole do not consider "Indian" a slur. Of +course, all citizens of Native nations much prefer that their nations' +names in their own language be used, such as Dine ( Navajo), Haude­ +nosaunee ( Iroquois), Tsalagi (Cherokee), and Anishinaabe (Ojibway, + +xiii + + xiv + +Author's Note + +Chippewa). I have used some of the correct names combined with +more familiar usages, such as " Sioux" and " Navajo." Except in ma­ +terial that is quoted, I don't use the term "tribe." " Community," +"people," and " nation" are used instead and interchangeably. I also +refrain from using "America" and "American" when referring only +to the United States and its citizens. Those blatantly imperialistic +terms annoy people in the rest of the Western Hemisphere, who are, +after all, also Americans. I use "United States" as a noun and "US" +as an adjective to refer to the country and "US Americans" for its +citizens. + + I NT R ODU CTI O N + +TH I S L A N D + +We are here to educate, not forgive. +We are here to enlighten, not accuse. +-Willie Johns, Brighton Seminole Reservation, Florida + +Under the crust of that portion of Earth called the United States of +America-"from California . . . to the Gulf Stream waters"-are +interred the bones, villages, fields, and sacred objects of American +Indians. 1 They cry out for their stories to be heard through their de­ +scendants who carry the memories of how the country was founded +and how it came to be as it is today. +It should not have happened that the great civilizations of the +Western Hemisphere, the very evidence of the Western Hemisphere, +were wantonly destroyed, the gradual progress of humanity inter­ +rupted and set upon a path of greed and destruction. 2 Choices were +made that forged that path toward destruction of life itself-the +moment in which we now live and die as our planet shrivels, over­ +heated. To learn and know this history is both a necessity and a +responsibility to the ancestors and descendants of all parties. +What historian D avid Chang has written about the land that +became Oklahoma applies to the whole United States: "Nation, race, +and class converged in land."3 Everything in US history is about the +land-who oversaw and cultivated it, fished its waters, maintained +its wildlife; who invaded and stole it; how it became a commod­ +ity ( "real estate" ) broken into pieces to be bought and sold on the +market. +US policies and actions related to Indigenous peoples, though + +· + + 2 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +often termed "racist" or "discriminatory," are rarely depicted as +what they are: classic cases of imperialism and a particular form of +colonialism-settler colonialism. As anthropologist Patrick Wolfe +writes, "The question of genocide is never far from discussions of set­ +tler colonialism. Land is life-or, at least, land is necessary for life."4 +The history of the United States is a history of settler colonial­ +ism-the founding of a state based on the ideology of white su­ +premacy, the widespread practice of African slavery, and a policy +of genocide and land theft. Those who seek history with an upbeat +ending, a history of redemption and reconciliation, may look around +and observe that such a conclusion is not visible, not even in utopian +dreams of a better society. +Writing US history from an Indigenous peoples' perspective re­ +quires rethinking the consensual national narrative. That narrative +is wrong or deficient, not in its facts, dates, or details but rather in +its essence. Inherent in the myth we've been taught is an embrace of +settler colonialism and genocide. The myth persists, not for a lack +of free speech or poverty of information but rather for an absence +of motivation to ask questions that challenge the core of the scripted +narrative of the origin story. How might acknowledging the reality +of US history work to transform society? That is the central question +this book pursues. +Teaching Native American studies, I always begin with a sim­ +ple exercise. I ask students to quickly draw a rough outline of the +United States at the time it gained independence from Britain. In­ +variably most draw the approximate present shape of the United +States from the Atlantic to the Pacific-the continental territory not +fully appropriated until a century after independence. What became +independent in 1 78 3 were the thirteen British colonies hugging the +Atlantic shore. When called on this, students are embarrassed be­ +cause they know better. I assure them that they are not alone. I call +this a Rorschach test of unconscious "manifest destiny," embedded +in the minds of nearly everyone in the United States and around the +world. This test reflects the seeming inevitability of US extent and +power, its destiny, with an implication that the continent had previ­ +ously been terra nullius, a land without people. +Woody Guthrie's "This Land Is Your Land" celebrates that the + + Introduction: This Land + +land belongs to everyone, reflecting the unconscious manifest des­ +tiny we live with. But the extension of the United States from sea to +shining sea was the intention and design of the country's founders. +" Free" land was the magnet that attracted European settlers. Many +were slave owners who desired limitless land for lucrative cash crops. +After the war for independence but preceding the writing of the US +Constitution, the Continental Congress produced the Northwest +Ordinance. This was the first law of the incipient republic, revealing +the motive for those desiring independence. It was the blueprint for +gobbling up the British-protected Indian Territory ( " Ohio Coun­ +try" ) on the other side of the Appalachians and Alleghenies. Britain +had made settlement there illegal with the Proclamation of 1 76 3. +In 1801, President Jefferson aptly described the new settler-state's +intentions for horizontal and vertical continental expansion, stating: +" However our present interests may restrain us within our own lim­ +its, it is impossible not to look forward to distant times, when our +rapid multiplication will expand itself beyond those limits and cover +the whole northern, if not the southern continent, with a people +speaking the same language, governed in similar form by similar +laws." This vision of manifest destiny found form a few years later in +the Monroe Doctrine, signaling the intention of annexing or domi­ +nating former Spanish colonial territories in the Americas and the Pa­ +cific, which would be put into practice during the rest of the century. +Origin narratives form the vital core of a people's unifying iden­ +tity and of the values that guide them. In the United States, the +founding and development of the Anglo-American settler-state in­ +volves a narrative about Puritan settlers who had a covenant with +God to take the land. That part of the origin story is supported and +reinforced by the Columbus myth and the " Doctrine of Discovery." +According to a series of late-fifteenth-century papal bulls, European +nations acquired title to the lands they "discovered" and the Indig­ +enous inhabitants lost their natural right to that land after Europe­ +ans arrived and claimed it. 5 As law professor Robert A. Williams +observes about the Doctrine of Discovery: +Responding to the requirements of a paradoxical age of Re­ +naissance and Inquisition, the West's first modern discourses + +3 + + 4 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +of conquest articulated a vision of all humankind united +under a rule of law discoverable solely by human reason. Un­ +fortunately for the American Indian, the West's first tentative +steps towards this noble vision of a Law of Nations contained +a mandate for Europe's subjugation of all peoples whose radi­ +cal divergence from European-derived norms of right conduct +signified their need for conquest and remediation. 6 +The Columbus myth suggests that from US independence on­ +ward, colonial settlers saw themselves as part of a world system of +colonization. " Columbia," the poetic, Latinate name used in refer­ +ence to the United States from its founding throughout the nine­ +teenth century, was based on the name of Christopher Columbus. +The " Land of Columbus" was-and still is-represented by the im­ +age of a woman in sculptures and paintings, by institutions such as +Columbia University, and by countless place names, including that +of the national capital, the District of Columbia. 7 The 1798 hymn +" Hail, Columbia" was the early national anthem and is now used +whenever the vice president of the United States makes a public ap­ +pearance, and Columbus Day is still a federal holiday despite Co­ +lumbus never having set foot on the continent claimed by the United +States. +Traditionally, historians of the United States hoping to have suc­ +cessful careers in academia and to author lucrative school textbooks +became protectors of this origin myth. With the cultural upheavals +in the academic world during the 19 60s, engendered by the civil +rights movement and student activism, historians came to call for +objectivity and fairness in revising interpretations of US history. +They warned against moralizing, urging instead a dispassionate +and culturally relative approach. Historian Bernard Sheehan, in an +influential essay, called for a "cultural conflict" understanding of +Native-Euro-American relations in the early United States, writing +that this approach "diffuses the locus of guilt."8 In striving for " bal­ +ance," however, historians spouted platitudes: "There were good +and bad people on both sides." "American culture is an amalgama­ +tion of all its ethnic groups." "A frontier is a zone of interaction be­ +tween cultures, not merely advancing European settlements." + + Introduction: This Land + +L ater, trendy postmodernist studies insisted on Indigenous +"agency" under the guise of individual and collective empowerment, +making the casualties of colonialism responsible for their own de­ +mise. Perhaps worst of all, some claimed (and still claim) that the +colonizer and colonized experienced an "encounter" and engaged +in "dialogue," thereby masking reality with justifications and ratio­ +nalizations-in short, apologies for one-sided robbery and murder. +In focusing on "cultural change" and "conflict between cultures," +these studies avoid fundamental questions about the formation of +the United States and its implications for the present and future. +This approach to history allows one to safely put aside present re­ +sponsibility for continued harm done by that past and the questions +of reparations, restitution, and reordering society. 9 +Multiculturalism became the cutting edge of post-civil-rights­ +movement US history revisionism. For this scheme to work-and +affirm US historical progress-Indigenous nations and communities +had to be left out of the picture. As territorially and treaty-based +peoples in North America, they did not fit the grid of multicultur­ +alism but were included by transforming them into an inchoate +oppressed racial group, while colonized Mexican Americans and +Puerto Ricans were dissolved into another such group, variously +called "Hispanic" or " Latino." The multicultural approach empha­ +sized the "contributions" of individuals from oppressed groups to +the country's assumed greatness. Indigenous peoples were thus cred­ +ited with corn, beans, buckskin, log cabins, parkas, maple syrup, +canoes, hundreds of place names, Thanksgiving, and even the con­ +cepts of democracy and federalism. But this idea of the gift-giving +Indian helping to establish and enrich the development of the United +States is an insidious smoke screen meant to obscure the fact that the +very existence of the country is a result of the looting of an entire +continent and its resources. The fundamental unresolved issues of +Indigenous lands, treaties, and sovereignty could not but scuttle the +premises of multiculturalism. +With multiculturalism, manifest destiny won the day. As an +example, in 1994 , Prentice Hall (part of Pearson Education) pub­ +lished a new college-level US history textbook, authored by four +members of a new generation of revisionist historians. These radical + +5 + + 6 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +social historians are all brilliant scholars with posts in prestigious +universities. The book's title reflects the intent of its authors and +publisher: Out of Many: A History of the American People. The ori­ +gin story of a supposedly unitary nation, albeit now multicultural, +remained intact. The original cover design featured a multicolored +woven fabric-this image meant to stand in place of the discredited +"melting pot." Inside, facing the title page, was a photograph of a +Navajo woman, dressed formally in velvet and adorned with heavy +sterling silver and turquoise j ewelry. With a traditional Navaj o +dwelling, a hogan, in the background, the woman was shown kneel­ +ing in front of a traditional loom, weaving a nearly finished rug. +The design? The Stars and Stripes! The authors, upon hearing my +objection and explanation that Navajo weavers make their livings +off commissioned work that includes the desired design, responded: +" But it's a real photograph." To the authors' credit, in the second +edition they replaced the cover photograph and removed the Navajo +picture inside, although the narrative text remains unchanged. +Awareness of the settler-colonialist context of US history writ­ +ing is essential if one is to avoid the laziness of the default position +and the trap of a mythological unconscious belief in manifest des­ +tiny. The form of colonialism that the Indigenous peoples of North +America have experienced was modern from the beginning: the ex­ +pansion of European corporations, backed by government armies, +into foreign areas, with subsequent expropriation of lands and re­ +sources. Settler colonialism is a genocidal policy. Native nations and +communities, while struggling to maintain fundamental values and +collectivity, have from the beginning resisted modern colonialism +using both defensive and offensive techniques, including the mod­ +ern forms of armed resistance of national liberation movements and +what now is called terrorism. In every instance they have fought for +survival as peoples. The objective of US colonialist authorities was +to terminate their existence as peoples-not as random individuals. +This is the very definition of modern genocide as contrasted with +premodern instances of extreme violence that did not have the goal +of extinction. The United States as a socioeconomic and political +entity is a result of this centuries-long and ongoing colonial process. + + Introduction: This Land + +Modern Indigenous nations and communities are societies formed +by their resistance to colonialism, through which they have carried +their practices and histories. It is breathtaking, but no miracle, that +they have survived as peoples . +To say that the United States i s a colonialist settler-state is not +to make an accusation but rather to face historical reality, without +which consideration not much in US history makes sense, unless +Indigenous peoples are erased. But Indigenous nations, through re­ +sistance, have survived and bear witness to this history. In the era +of worldwide decolonization in the second half of the twentieth cen­ +tury, the former colonial powers and their intellectual apologists +mounted a counterforce, often called neocolonialism, from which +multiculturalism and postmodernism emerged. Although much +revisionist US history reflects neocolonialist strategy-an attempt +to accommodate new realities in order to retain the dominance­ +neocolonialist methods signal victory for the colonized. Such ap­ +proaches pry off a lid long kept tightly fastened . One result has been +the presence of significant numbers of Indigenous scholars in US +universities who are changing the terms of analysis. The main chal­ +lenge for scholars in revising US history in the context of colonialism +is not lack of information, nor is it one of methodology. Certainly +difficulties with documentation are no more problematic than they +are in any other area of research. Rather, the source of the problems +has been the refusal or inability of US historians to comprehend the +nature of their own history, US history. The fundamental problem is +the absence of the colonial framework. +Through economic penetration of Indigenous societies, the Eu­ +ropean and Euro-American colonial powers created economic de­ +pendency and imbalance of trade, then incorporated the Indigenous +nations into spheres of influence and controlled them indirectly or +as protectorates, with indispensable use of Christian missionaries +and alcohol. In the case of US settler colonialism, land was the pri­ +mary commodity. With such obvious indicators of colonialism at +work, why should so many interpretations of US political-economic +development be convoluted and obscure, avoiding the obvious? To +some extent, the twentieth-century emergence of the field of "US + +7 + + 8 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +West" or " Borderlands" history has been forced into an incomplete +and flawed settler-colonialist framework. The father of that field of +history, Frederick Jackson Turner, confessed as much in 1 9 0 1 : " Our +colonial system did not start with the Spanish War [1 8 9 8 ] ; the U. S . +had had a colonial history and policy from the beginning o f the +Republic; but they have been hidden under the phraseology of 'inter­ +state migration' and 'territorial organization."' 1 0 +Settler colonialism, as an institution or system, requires violence +or the threat of violence to attain its goals. People do not hand over +their land, resources, children, and futures without a fight, and that +fight is met with violence. In employing the force necessary to ac­ +complish its expansionist goals, a colonizing regime institutionalizes +violence. The notion that settler-indigenous conflict is an inevitable +product of cultural differences and misunderstandings, or that vio­ +lence was committed equally by the colonized and the colonizer, +blurs the nature of the historical processes. Euro-American colonial­ +ism, an aspect of the capitalist economic globalization, had from its +beginnings a genocidal tendency. +The term "genocide" was coined following the Shoah, or Ho­ +locaust, and its prohibition was enshrined in the United Nations +convention adopted in 194 8 : the UN Convention on the Prevention +and Punishment of the Crime of Genocide. The convention is not +retroactive but is applicable to US-Indigenous relations since 19 8 8 , +when the U S Senate ratified it. The terms of the genocide convention +are also useful tools for historical analysis of the effects of colonial­ +ism in any era. In the convention, any one of five acts is considered +genocide if "committed with intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a +national, ethnical, racial or religious group": +killing members of the group; +causing serious bodily or mental harm to members of the group; +deliberately inflicting on the group conditions of life +calculated to bring about its physical destruction in whole +or in part; +imposing measures intended to prevent births within the +group; +forcibly transferring children of the group to another group . 1 1 + + Introduction: This Land + +9 + +In the 1990s, the term "ethnic cleansing" became a useful descrip­ +tive term for genocide. +US history, as well as inherited Indigenous trauma, cannot be +understood without dealing with the genocide that the United +States committed against Indigenous peoples. From the colonial pe­ +riod through the founding of the United States and continuing in +the twenty-first century, this has entailed torture, terror, sexual +abuse, massacres, systematic military occupations, removals of In­ +digenous peoples from their ancestral territories, and removals of +Indigenous children to military-like boarding schools. The absence +of even the slightest note of regret or tragedy in the annual celebra­ +tion of the US independence betrays a deep disconnect in the con­ +sciousness of US Americans. +Settler colonialism is inherently genocidal in terms of the geno­ +cide convention. In the case of the British North American colo­ +nies and the United States, not only extermination and removal +were practiced but also the disappearing of the prior existence of +Indigenous peoples-and this continues to be perpetuated in local +histories. Anishinaabe (Ojibwe) historian Jean O'Brien names this +practice of writing Indians out of existence "firsting and lasting." +All over the continent, local histories, monuments, and signage nar­ +rate the story of first settlement: the founder(s), the first school, first +dwelling, first everything, as if there had never been occupants who +thrived in those places before Euro-Americans. On the other hand, +the national narrative tells of "last" Indians or last tribes, such as +"the last of the Mohicans," " Ishi, the last Indian," and End of the +Trail, as a famous sculpture by James Earle Fraser is titled.12 +Documented policies of genocide on the part of US administra­ +tions can be identified in at least four distinct periods: the Jackso­ +nian era of forced removal; the California gold rush in Northern +California; the post-Civil War era of the so-called Indian wars in +the Great Plains; and the 1950s termination period, all of which are +discussed in the following chapters . Cases of genocide carried out +as policy may be found in historical documents as well as in the +oral histories of Indigenous communities. An example from 1 8 7 3 +is typical, with General William T. Sherman writing, " We must +act with vindictive earnestness against the Sioux, even to their + + 10 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +extermination, men, women and children . . . during an assault, +the soldiers can not pause to distinguish between male and female, +or even discriminate as to age." 13 As Patrick Wolfe has noted, the +peculiarity of settler colonialism is that the goal is elimination of +Indigenous populations in order to make land available to settlers. +That project is not limited to government policy, but rather involves +all kinds of agencies, voluntary militias, and the settlers themselves +acting on their own . 14 +In the wake of the US 1950s termination and relocation poli­ +cies, a pan-Indigenous movement arose in tandem with the power­ +ful African American civil rights movement and the broad-based +social justice and antiwar movements of the 19 60s. The Indigenous +rights movement succeeded in reversing the US termination pol­ +icy. However, repression, armed attacks, and legislative attempts +to undo treaty rights began again in the late 1970s, giving rise to +the international Indigenous movement, which greatly broadened +the support for Indigenous sovereignty and territorial rights in the +United States. +The early twenty-first century has seen increased exploitation +of energy resources begetting new pressures on Indigenous lands. +Exploitation by the largest corporations, often in collusion with +politicians at local, state, and federal levels, and even within some +Indigenous governments, could spell a final demise for Indigenous +land bases and resources. Strengthening Indigenous sovereignty and +self-determination to prevent that result will take general public +outrage and demand, which in turn will require that the general +population, those descended from settlers and immigrants, know +their history and assume responsibility. Resistance to these power­ +ful corporate forces continues to have profound implications for US +socioeconomic and political development and the future. +There are more than five hundred federally recognized Indigenous +communities and nations, comprising nearly three million people +in the United States. These are the descendants of the fifteen mil­ +lion original inhabitants of the land, the majority of whom were +farmers who lived in towns. The US establishment of a system of + + Introduction: This Land + +Indian reservations stemmed from a long British colonial practice +in the Americas. In the era of US treaty-making from independence +to 1 8 7 1 , the concept of the reservation was one of the Indigenous +nation reserving a narrowed land base from a much larger one in ex­ +change for US government protection from settlers and the provision +of social services. In the late nineteenth century, as Indigenous resis­ +tance was weakened, the concept of the reservation changed to one +of land being carved out of the public domain of the United States +as a benevolent gesture, a "gift" to the Indigenous peoples. Rheto­ +ric changed so that reservations were said to have been "given" or +"created" for Indians. With this shift, Indian reservations came to +be seen as enclaves within state' boundaries. Despite the political +and economic reality, the impression to many was that Indigenous +people were taking a free ride on public domain. +Beyond the land bases within the limits of the 3 10 federally rec­ +ognized reservations-among 554 Indigenous groups-Indigenous +land, water, and resource rights extend to all federally acknowl­ +edged Indigenous communities within the borders of the United +States. This is the case whether "within the original or subsequently +acquired territory thereof, and whether within or without the limits +of a state," and includes all allotments as well as rights-of-way run­ +ning to and from them. 1 5 Not all the federally recognized Indigenous +nations have land bases beyond government buildings, and the lands +of some Native nations, including those of the Sioux in the Dakotas +and Minnesota and the Ojibwes in Minnesota, have been parceled +into multiple reservations, while some fifty Indigenous nations that +had been removed to Oklahoma were entirely allotted-divided by +the federal government into individual Native-owned parcels. Attor­ +ney Walter R. Echo-Hawk writes: +In 1 8 8 1 , Indian landholdings in the United States had plum­ +meted to 156 million acres. By 1 9 3 4 , only about 50 million +acres remained (an area the size of Idaho and Washington) +as a result of the General Allotment Act of 1 8 87. During +World War II, the government took 500,000 more acres for +military use. Over one hundred tribes, bands, and Rancherias + +11 + + 12 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +relinquished their lands under various acts of Congress during +the termination era of the 1950s. By 1 9 5 5 , the indigenous land +base had shrunk to just 2. 3 percent of its original size. 16 +As a result of federal land sales, seizures, and allotments, most +reservations are severely fragmented. Each parcel of tribal, trust, +and privately held land is a separate enclave under multiple laws +and jurisdictions. The Dine (Navajo) Nation has the largest con­ +temporary contiguous land base among Native nations: nearly six­ +teen million acres, or nearly twenty-five thousand square miles, the +size of West Virginia. Each of twelve other reservations is larger +than Rhode Island, which comprises nearly eight hundred thou­ +sand acres, or twelve hundred square miles, and each of nine other +reservations is larger than Delaware, which covers nearly a million +and a half acres, or two thousand square miles. Other reservations +have land bases of fewer than thirty-two thousand acres, or fifty +square miles. 17 A number of independent nation-states with seats in +the United Nations have less territory and smaller populations than +some Indigenous nations of North America. +Following World War II, the United States was at war with much of +the world, just as it was at war with the Indigenous peoples of North +America in the nineteenth century. This was total war, demand­ +ing that the enemy surrender unconditionally or face annihilation. +Perhaps it was inevitable that the earlier wars against Indigenous +peoples, if not acknowledged and repudiated, ultimately would in­ +clude the world. According to the origin narrative, the United States +was born of rebellion against oppression-against empire-and +thus is the product of the first anticolonial revolution for national +liberation. The narrative flows from that fallacy: the broadening +and deepening of democracy; the Civil War and the ensuing "second +revolution," which ended slavery; the twentieth-century mission to +save Europe from itself-twice; and the ultimately triumphant fight +against the scourge of communism, with the United States inheriting +the difficult and burdensome task of keeping order in the world. It's +a narrative of progress. The 19 60s social revolutions, ignited by the +African American liberation movement, complicated the origin nar- + + Introduction: This Land + +13 + +rative, but its structure and periodization have been left intact. After +the 19 60s, historians incorporated women, African Americans, and +immigrants as contributors to the commonweal. Indeed, the revised +narrative produced the "nation of immigrants" framework, which +obscures the US practice of colonization, merging settler colonial­ +ism with immigration to metropolitan centers during and after the +industrial revolution. Native peoples, to the extent that they were in­ +cluded at all, were renamed " First Americans" and thus themselves +cast as distant immigrants. +The provincialism and national chauvinism of US history produc­ +tion make it difficult for effective revisions to gain authority. Schol­ +ars, both Indigenous and a few non-Indigenous, who attempt to +rectify the distortions, are labeled advocates, and their findings are +rejected for publication on that basis. Indigenous scholars look to +research and thinking that has emerged in the rest of the European­ +colonized world. To understand the historical and current experi­ +ences of Indigenous peoples in the United States, these thinkers and +writers draw upon and creatively apply the historical materialism of +Marxism, the liberation theology of Latin America, Frantz Fanon's +psychosocial analyses of the effects of colonialism on the colonizer +and the colonized, and other approaches, including development +theory and postmodern theory. While not abandoning insights +gained from those sources, due to the "exceptional" nature of US +colonialism among nineteenth-century colonial powers, Indigenous +scholars and activists are engaged in exploring new approaches. +This book claims to be a history of the United States f� om an +Indigenous peoples' perspective but there is no such thing as a col­ +lective Indigenous peoples' perspective, j ust as there is no mono­ +lithic Asian or European or African peoples' perspective. This is +not a history of the vast civilizations and communities that thrived +and survived between the Gulf of Mexico and Canada and between +the Atlantic Ocean and the Pacific. Such histories have been writ­ +ten, and are being written by historians of Dine, Lakota, Mohawk, +Tlingit, Muskogee, Anishinaabe, Lumbee, Inuit, Kiowa, Cherokee, +Hopi, and other Indigenous communities and nations that have +survived colonial genocide. This book attempts to tell the story of + + 14 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +the United States as a colonialist settler-state, one that, like colonial­ +ist European states, crushed and subjugated the original civilizations +in the territories it now rules. Indigenous peoples, now in a colonial +relationship with the United States, inhabited and thrived for mil­ +lennia before they were displaced to fragmented reservations and +economically decimated. +This is a history of the United States. + + ON E + +F O L L O W THE C O R N + +Carrying their flints and torches, Native Americans +were living in balance with Naturebut they had their thumbs on the scale. +-Charles C. Mann, I49I + +Humanoids existed on Earth for around four million years as hunt­ +ers and gatherers living in small communal groups that through +their movements found and populated every continent. Some two +hundred thousand years ago, human societies, having originated in +Sub-Saharan Africa, began migrating in all directions, and their de­ +scendants eventually populated the globe. Around twelve thousand +years ago, some of these people began staying put and developed ag­ +riculture-mainly women who domesticated wild plants and began +cultivating others. +As a birthplace of agriculture and the towns and cities that fol­ +lowed, America is ancient, not a "new world ." Domestication of +plants took place around the globe in seven locales during approxi­ +mately the same period, around 8500 BC. Three of the seven were in +the Americas, all based on corn: the Valley of Mexico and Central +America (Mesoamerica); the South- Central Andes in South Amer­ +ica; and eastern North America. The other early agricultural cen­ +ters were the Tigris-Euphrates and Nile River systems, Sub-Saharan +Africa, the Yellow River of northern China, and the Yangtze River +of southern China. During this time, many of the same human so­ +cieties began domesticating animals. Only in the American conti­ +nents was the parallel domestication of animals eschewed in favor +of game management, a kind of animal husbandry different from + +15 + + 16 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +that developed in Africa and Asia. In these seven areas, agriculture­ +based "civilized" societies developed in symbiosis with hunting, +fishing, and gathering peoples on their peripheries, gradually envel­ +oping many of the latter into the realms of their civilizations, except +for those in regions inhospitable to agriculture. + +T H E SAC R E D CO R N F O O D + +Indigenous American agriculture was based o n corn. Traces o f cul­ +tivated corn have been identified in central Mexico dating back ten +thousand years . Twelve to fourteen centuries later, corn production +had spread throughout the temperate and tropical Americas from +the southern tip of South America to the subarctic of North Amer­ +ica, and from the Pacific to the Atlantic Ocean on both continents. +The wild grain from which corn was cultivated has never been iden­ +tified with certainty, but the Indigenous peoples for whom corn was +and is their sustenance believe it was a sacred gift from their gods. +Since there is no evidence of corn on any other continent prior to +its post- Columbus dispersal, its development is a unique invention +of the original American agriculturalists. Unlike most grains, corn +cannot grow wild and cannot exist without attentive human care. +Along with multiple varieties and colors of corn, Mesoamericans +cultivated squash and beans, which were extended throughout the +hemisphere, as were the many varieties and colors of potato cul­ +tivated by Andean farmers beginning more than seven thousand +years ago. Corn, being a summer crop, can tolerate no more than +twenty to thirty days without water and even less time in high tem­ +peratures. Many of the areas where corn was the staple were arid or +semiarid, so its cultivation required the design and construction of +complex irrigation systems-in place at least two thousand years be­ +fore Europeans knew the Americas existed. The proliferation of ag­ +riculture and cultigens could not have occurred without centuries of +cultural and commercial interchange among the peoples of North, +Central, and South America, whose traders carried seeds as well as +other goods and cultural practices. +The vast reach and capacity of Indigenous grain production im- + + Follow the Corn + +pressed colonialist Europeans . A traveler in French-occupied North +America related in 1 669 that six square miles of cornfields sur­ +rounded each Iroquois village. The governor of New France, follow­ +ing a military raid in the r 6 8 os, reported that he had destroyed more +than a million bushels (forty-two thousand tons) of corn belonging +to four Iroquois villages.1 Thanks to the nutritious triad of corn, +beans, and squash-which provide a complete protein-the Ameri­ +cas were densely populated when the European monarchies began +sponsoring colonization projects there. +The total population of the hemisphere was about one hundred +million at the end of the fifteenth century, with about two-fifths in +North America, including Mexico. Central Mexico alone supported +some thirty million people . At the same time, the population of Eu­ +rope as far east as the Ural Mountains was around fifty million. +Experts have observed that such population densities in precolo­ +nial America were supportable because the peoples had created a +relatively disease-free paradise. 2 There certainly were diseases and +health problems, but the practice of herbal medicine and even sur­ +gery and dentistry, and most importantly both hygienic and ritual +bathing, kept diseases at bay. Settler observers in all parts of the +Americas marveled at the frequent bathing even in winter in cold +climates. One commented that the Native people "go to the river +and plunge in and wash themselves before they dress daily." Another +wrote: "Men, women, and children, from early infancy, are in the +habit of bathing." Ritual sweat baths were common to all Native +North Americans, having originated in Mexico.3 Above all, the ma­ +jority of the Indigenous peoples of the Americas had healthy, mostly +vegetarian diets based on the staple of corn and supplemented by +wild fish, fowl, and four-legged animals. People lived long and well +with abundant ceremonial and recreational periods. + +U P F R O M M E X I CO + +As on the two other major continental landmasses-Eurasia and +Africa-civilization in the Americas emerged from certain popu­ +lation centers, with periods of vigorous growth and integration + +17 + + 18 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +interspersed with periods of decline and disintegration. At least a +dozen such centers were functioning in the Americas when Euro­ +peans intervened. Although this is a history of the part of North +America that is today the United States, it is important to follow +the corn to its origins and briefly consider the peoples' history of the +Valley of Mexico and Central America, often called Mesoamerica. +Influences from the south powerfully shaped the Indigenous peoples +to the north (in what is now the United States) and Mexicans con­ +tinue to migrate as they have for millennia but now across the arbi­ +trary border that was established in the US war against Mexico in +1 846-4 8 . +The first great cultivators of corn were the Mayans, initially cen­ +tered in present-day northern Guatemala and the Mexican state of +Tabasco. Extending to the Yucatan peninsula, the Mayans of the +tenth century built city-states- Chichen-Itza, Mayapan, Uxmal, +and many others-as far south as Belize and Honduras. Mayan +villages, farms, and cities extended from tropical forests to alpine +areas to coastal and interior plains. During the five-century apex +of Mayan civilization, a combined priesthood and nobility gov­ +erned. There was also a distinct commercial class, and the cities +were densely populated, not simply bureaucratic or religious centers. +Ordinary Mayan villages in the far-flung region retained fundamen­ +tal features of clan structures and communal social relations. They +worked the nobles' fields, paid rent for use of land, and contributed +labor and taxes to the building of roads, temples, nobles' houses, +and other structures. It is not clear whether these relations were +exploitative or cooperatively developed. However, the nobility drew +servants from groups such as war prisoners, accused criminals, debt­ +ors, and even orphans. Although servile status was not hereditary, +this was forced labor. Increasingly burdensome exploitation of labor +and higher taxes and tribute produced dissension and uprisings, re­ +sulting in the collapse of the Mayan state, from which decentralized +polities emerged. +Mayan culture astonishes all who study it, and it is often com­ +pared to Greek (Athenian) culture. At its core was the cultivation +of corn; religion was constructed around this vital food. The Ma­ +yan people developed art, architecture, sculpture, and painting, em- + + Follow the Corn + +ploying a variety o f materials, including gold and silver, which they +mined and used for jewelry and sculpture, not for use as currency. +Surrounded by rubber trees, they invented the rubber ball and court +ball games similar to modern soccer. Their achievements in math­ +ematics and astronomy are the most impressive. By 3 6 BC they had +developed the concept of zero. They worked with numbers in the +hundreds of millions and used extensive dating systems, making pos­ +sible both their observations of the cosmos and their unique calendar +that marked the passage of time into the future. Modern astrono­ +mers have marveled at the accuracy of Mayan charts of the move­ +ments of the moon and planets, which were used to predict eclipses +and other events. Mayan culture and science, as well as governmen­ +tal and economic practices, were influential throughout the region. +During the same period of Mayan devel opment, the Olmec civi­ +lization reigned in the Valley of Mexico and built the grand me­ +tropolis of Teotihuacan. Beginning in AD 7 5 0 , Toltec civilization +dominated the region for four centuries, absorbing the Olmecs. Co­ +lossal buildings, sculptures, and markets made up the Toltec cit­ +ies, which housed extensive libraries and universities. They created +multiple cities, the largest being Tula. The Toltecs' written language +was based on the Mayan form, as was the calendar they used in +scientific research, particularly in astronomy and medicine. Another +nation in the Valley of Mexico, the Culhua, built the city-state of +Culhuacan on the southern shore of Lake Texcoco, as well as the +city-state of Texcoco on the eastern shore of the lake. In the late +fourteenth century, the Tepanec people rose in an expansionist drive +and subjugated Culhuacan, Texcoco, and all their subject peoples +in the Valley of Mexico. They proceeded to conquer Tenochtitlan, +which was located on an island in the middle of the immense Lake +Texcoco and had been built around 1 3 25 by the Nahuatl-speaking +Aztecs who had migrated from northern Mexico (today's Utah). The +Aztecs had entered the valley in the twelfth century and been in­ +volved in toppling the Toltecs.4 +In 1 4 26, the Aztecs of Tenochtitlan formed an alliance with the +Texcoco and Tlacopan peoples and overthrew Tepanec rule. The +allies proceeded to wage war against neighboring peoples and even­ +tually succeeded in gaining control over the Valley of Mexico. The + +19 + + 20 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +Aztecs emerged as dominant in the Triple Alliance and moved to +bring all the peoples of Mexico under their tributary authority. +These events paralleled ones in Europe and Asia during the same +period, when Rome and other city-states were demolished and occu­ +pied by invading Germanic peoples, while the Mongols of the Eur­ +asian steppe overran much of Russia and China. As in Europe and +Asia, the invading peoples assimilated and reproduced civilization. +The economic basis for the powerful Aztec state was hydraulic +agriculture, with corn as the central crop. Beans, pumpkins, toma­ +toes, cocoa, and many other food crops flourished and supported a +dense population, much of it concentrated in large urban centers. +The Aztecs also grew tobacco and cotton, the latter providing the +fiber for all cloth and clothing. Weaving and metalwork flourished, +providing useful commodities as well as works of art. Building tech­ +niques enabled construction of enormous stone dams and canals, +as well as fortress-like castles made of brick or stone. There were +elaborate markets in each city and a far-flung trade network that +used routes established by the Toltecs. +Aztec merchants acquired turquoise from Pueblos who mined +it in what is now the US Southwest to sell in central Mexico where +it had become the most valued of all material possessions and +was used as a means of exchange or a form of money. 5 Sixty-five +thousand turquoise artifacts in Chaco Canyon, New Mexico, are +evidence of the importance of turquoise as a major precolonial com­ +modity. Other items were also valuable marketable commodities in +the area, salt being close to turquoise in value. Ceramic trade goods +involved interconnected markets from Mexico City to Mesa Verde, +Colorado. Shells from the Gulf of California, tropical bird feath­ +ers from the Gulf Coast area of Mexico, obsidian from Durango, +Mexico, and flint from Texas were all found in the ruins of Casa +Grande (Arizona), the commercial center of the northern frontier. +Turquoise functioning as money was traded to acquire macaw and +parrot feathers from tropical areas for religious rituals, seashells +from coastal peoples, and hides and meat from the northern plains. +The stone has been found in precolonial sites in Texas, Kansas, and +Nebraska, where the Wichitas served as intermediaries, carrying +turquoise and other goods farther east and north. Crees in the Lake + + Follow the Corn + +Superior region and communities in what is today Ontario, Canada, +and in today's Wisconsin acquired turquoise through trade. 6 +Traders from Mexico were also transmitters of culture and fea­ +tures such as the Sun Dance religion in the Great Plains, and the cul­ +tivation of corn by the Algonquin, Cherokee, and Muskogee (Creek) +peoples of the eastern half of North America were transmitted from +Central America. The oral and written histories of the Aztecs, Cher­ +okees, and Choctaws record these relations. Cherokee oral history +tells of their ancestors' migrations from the south and through Mex­ +ico, as does Muskogee history.7 +Although Aztecs were apparently flourishing culturally and eco­ +nomically, as well as being militarily and politically strong, their +dominance was declining on the eve of Spanish intrusion. Being +pressed for tribute through violent attacks, peasants rebelled and +there were uprisings all over Mexico. Montezuma II, who came to +power in 1 5 0 3 , might have succeeded in his attempt to reform the +regime, but the Spanish overthrew him before he had the opportu­ +nity. The Mexican state was crushed and its cities leveled in Cortes's +three-year genocidal war. Cortes's recruitment of resistant commu­ +nities all over Mexico as allies aided in toppling the central regime. +Cortes and his two hundred European mercenaries could never have +overthrown the Mexican state without the Indigenous insurgency he +co-opted. The resistant peoples who allied with Cortes to overthrow +the oppressive Aztec regime could not yet have known the goals of +the gold-obsessed Spanish colonizers or the European institutions +that backed them. + +T H E N O RTH + +What i s n ow the US Southwest once formed, with today's Mexican +states of Sonora, Sinaloa, and Chihuahua, the northern periphery of +the Aztec regime in the Valley of Mexico. Mostly an alpine, arid, and +semiarid region cut with rivers, it is a fragile land base with rainfall +a scarce commodity and drought endemic. Yet, in the Sonora Desert +of present-day southern Arizona, communities were practicing agri­ +culture by 2100 BC and began digging irrigation canals as early as + +21 + + 22 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +1 25 0 BC. The earliest evidence of corn in the area dates from 2000 + +BC, introduced by trade and migration between north and south. +Farther north, people began cultivating corn, beans, squash, and +cotton around 1 5 0 0 BC. Their descendants, the Akimel O'odham +people (Pimas), call their ancestors the Huhugam (meaning "those +who have gone " ) , which English speakers have rendered as "Ho­ +hokam." The Hohokam people left behind ball courts similar to +those of the Mayans, multistory buildings, and agricultural fields. +Their most striking imprint on the land is one of the most extensive +networks of irrigation canals in the world at that time. From AD +9 0 0 to 1 4 5 0 , the Hohokams built a canal system of more than eight + +hundred miles of trunk lines and hundreds more miles of branches +serving local sites. The longest known canal extended twenty miles. +The largest were seventy-five to eighty-five feet across and twenty +feet deep, and many were leak-proof, lined with clay. One canal +system carried enough water to irrigate an estimated ten thousand +acres. 8 Hohokam farmers grew surplus crops for export and their +community became a crossroads in a trade network reaching from +Mexico to Utah and from the Pacific Coast to New Mexico and +irito the Great Plains. By the fourteenth c entury, Hohokams had +dispersed, living in smaller communities. +The famed Anasazi people of Chaco Canyon on the Colorado +Plateau-in the present-day Four Corners region of Arizona, New +Mexico, Colorado, and Utah-thrived from AD 850 to 1 25 0 . An­ +cestors of the Pueblos of New Mexico, the Anasazi constructed +more than four hundred miles of roads radiating out from Chaco. +Averaging thirty feet wide, these roads followed straight courses, +even through difficult terrain such as hills and rock formations. +The highways connected some seventy-five communities. Around +the thirteenth century, the Anasazi people abandoned the Chaco +area and migrated, building nearly a hundred smaller agricultural +city-states along the northern Rio Grande valley and its tributaries. +Northernmost Taos Pueblo was an important trade center, handling +buffalo products from the plains, tropical bird products, copper +and shells from Mexico, and turquoise from New Mexican mines. +Pueblo trade extended as far west as the Pacific Ocean, as far east as +the Great Plains, and as far south as Central America. + + Follow the Corn + +Other major peoples in the region, the Navaj os ( Dine) and +Apaches, are of Athabascan heritage, having migrated to the region +from the subarctic several centuries before Columbus. The majority +of the Dine people did not migrate and remain in the original home­ +land in Alaska and northwestern Canada. Originally a hunting and +trading people, they interacted and intermarried with the Pueblos +and became involved in conflicts between villages engendered by +disputes over water usage, with Dine and Apache groups allied with +one or another of the riverine city-states.9 +The island peoples of the Gulf of Mexico and the Caribbean Ba­ +sin were an integral part of the cultural, religious, and economic +exchanges with the peoples from today's Guyana, Venezuela, Co­ +lombia, Panama, Costa Rica, Nicaragua, Honduras, Guatemala, +Mexico, Texas, Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, and Florida. Wa­ +ter, far from presenting a barrier to trade and cultural relations, +served as a means of connecting the region's peoples. Precolonial +Caribbean cultures and cultural connections have been very little +studied, since many of these peoples, the first victims of Columbus's +colonizing missions, were annihilated, enslaved and deported, or +later assimilated enslaved African populations with the advent of +the Atlantic slave trade. The best known are the Caribs, Arawaks, +Tainos, and the Chibchan-speaking peoples. Throughout the Ca­ +ribbean islands and rim are also descendants of Maroons-mixed +Indigenous and African communities-who successfully liberated +themselves from slavery, such as the Garifuna people ( " Black Car­ +ibs " ) along the coast of the western Caribbean.1 0 +From the Atlantic Ocean to the Mississippi River and south to +the Gulf of Mexico lay one of the most fertile agricultural belts in +the world, crisscrossed with great rivers. Naturally watered, teem­ +ing with plant and animal life, temperate in climate, the region was +home to multiple agricultural nations. In the twelfth century, the +Mississippi Valley region was marked by one enormous city-state, +Cahokia, and several large ones built of earthen, stepped pyramids, +much like those in Mexico. Cahokia supported a population of tens +of thousands, larger than that of London during the same period. +Other architectural monuments were sculpted in the shape of gi­ +gantic birds, lizards, bears, alligators, and even a r , 3 3 0 -foot-long + +23 + + 24 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +serpent. These feats of monumental construction testify to the levels +of civic and social organization. Called "mound builders" by Euro­ +pean settlers, the people of this civilization had dispersed before the +European invasion, but their influence had spread throughout the +eastern half of the North American continent through cultural influ­ +ence and trade. 1 1 What European colonizers found in the southeast­ +ern region of the continent were nations of villages with economies +based on agriculture and corn the mainstay. This was the territory +of the nations of the Cherokee, Chickasaw, and Choctaw and the +Muskogee Creek and Seminole, along with the Natchez Nation in +the western part, the Mississippi Valley region. +To the north, a remarkable federal state structure, the Haude­ +nosaunee confederacy-often referred to as the Six Nations of the +Iroquois Confederacy-was made up of the Seneca, Cayuga, On­ +ondaga, Oneida, and Mohawk Nations and, from early in the nine­ +teenth century, the Tuscaroras. This system incorporated six widely +dispersed and unique nations of thousands of agricultural villages +and hunting grounds from the Great Lakes and the St. Lawrence +River to the Atlantic, and as far south as the Carolinas and inland +to Pennsylvania. The Haudenosaunee peoples avoided centralized +power by means of a clan-village system of democracy based on +collective stewardship of the land. Corn, the staple crop, was stored +in granaries and distributed equitably in this matrilineal society by +the clan mothers, the oldest women from every extended family. +Many other nations flourished in the Great Lakes region where now +the US- Canada border cuts through their realms. Among them, the +Anishinaabe Nation (called by others Ojibwe and Chippewa) was +the largest. +The peoples of the prairies of central North America spanned an +expanse of space from West Texas to the subarctic between the Mis­ +sissippi River and the Rocky Mountains. Several centers of develop­ +ment in that vast region of farming and bison-dependent peoples +may be identified: in the prairies of Canada, the Crees; in the Da­ +kotas, the Lakota and Dakota Sioux; and to their west and south, +the Cheyenne and Arapaho peoples. Farther south were the Ponca, +Pawnee, Osage, Kiowa, and many other nations, with buffalo num­ +bering sixty million. Territorial disputes inevitably occurred, and + + Follow the Corn + +25 + +diplomatic skills as well as trade were highly developed for conflict +resolution. +In the Pacific Northwest, from present-day Alaska to San Fran­ +cisco, and along the vast inland waterways to the mountain barriers, +great seafaring and fishing peoples flourished, linked by culture, +common ceremonies, and extensive trade. These were wealthy peo­ +ples living in a comparative paradise of natural resources, including +the sacred salmon. They invented the potlatch, the ceremonial dis­ +tribution or destruction of accumulated goods, creating a culture of +reciprocity. They crafted gigantic wooden totems, masks, and lodges +carved from giant sequoias and redwoods. Among these communi­ +ties speaking many languages were the Tlingit people in Alaska and +the salmon-fishing Salish, Makah, Hoopa, Pomo, Karok, and Yurok +people. +The territory between the Sierra Nevada and Rocky Mountains +in the West, now called the Great Basin, was a harsh environment +that supported small populations before European colonization, as +it does today. Yet the Shoshone, Bannock, Paiute, and Ute peoples +there managed the environment and built permanent villages. + +G OV E R N A N C E + +Each Indigenous nation or city-state or town comprised a n indepen­ +dent, self-governing people that held supreme authority over internal +affairs and dealt with other peoples on equal footing. Among the +factors that integrated each nation, in addition to language, were +shared belief systems and rituals and clans of extended families that +spanned more than one town. The system of decision making was +based on consensus, not majority rule. This form of decision making +later baffled colonial agents who could not find Indigenous officials +to bribe or manipulate. In terms of international diplomacy, each of +the Indigenous peoples of western North America was a sovereign +nation. First the Spanish, French, and British colonizers, and then +the US colonizers, made treaties with these Indigenous governments. +Indigenous governance varied widely in form. 12 East of the Mis­ +sissippi River, towns and federations of towns were governed by + + 26 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +family lineages. The male elder of the most powerful clan was the +executive. His accession to that position and all his decisions were +subject to the approval of a council of elders of the clans that were +represented in the town. In this manner, the town had sovereign +authority over its internal affairs. In each sovereign town burned a +sacred fire symbolizing its relationship with the spirit beings. A town +could join other towns under the leadership of a single leader. Eng­ +lish colonists termed such groupings of towns "confederacies" or +"federations." The Haudenosaunee people today retain a fully func­ +tioning government of this type. It was the Haudenosaunee constitu­ +tion, called the Great Law of Peace, that inspired essential elements +of the US Constitution. 13 Oren Lyons, who holds the title of Faith­ +keeper of the Turtle Clan and is a member of the Onondaga Council +of Chiefs, explains the essence of that constitution: "The first princi­ +ple is peace. The second principle, equity, justice for the people . And +third, the power of the good minds, of the collective powers to be of +one mind: unity. And health. All of these were involved in the basic +principles. And the process of discussion, putting aside warfare as a +method of reaching decisions, and now using intellect." 14 +The Muskogees ( Creeks), Seminoles, and other peoples in the +Southeast had three branches of government: a civil administra­ +tion, a military, and a branch that dealt with the sacred. The lead­ +ers of each branch were drawn from the elite, and other officials +were drawn from prominent clans. Over the centuries preceding +European colonialism, ancient traditions of diplomacy had devel­ +oped among the Indigenous nations. Societies in the eastern part of +the continent had an elaborate ceremonial structure for diplomatic +meetings among representatives of disparate governments . In the +federations of sovereign towns, the leading town's fire represented +the entire group, and each member town sent a representative or two +to the federation's council. Thus everyone in the federation was rep­ +resented in the government's decision making. Agreements reached +in such meetings were considered sacred pledges that the representa­ +tives made not only to one another but also to the powerful spirit +looking on. The nations tended to hold firm to such treaties out of +respect for the sacred power that was party to the agreements. Rela­ +tions with the spirit world were thus a major factor in government. 15 + + Follow the Corn + +The roles of women varied among the societies of eastern North +America. Among the Muskogees and other southern nations, women +hardly participated in governmental affairs. Haudenosaunee and +Cherokee women, on the other hand, held more political authority. +Among the Mohawks, Oneidas, Onondagas, Cayugas, Senecas, and +Tuscaroras, certain female lineages controlled the choice of male +representatives for their clans in their governing councils. Men were +the representatives, but the women who chose them had the right to +speak in the council, and when the chosen representative was too +young or inexperienced to be effective , one of the women might +participate in council on his behalf. Haudenosaunee clan mothers +held the power to recall unsatisfactory representatives. Charles C . +Mann, author o f I49 I : New Revelations of the Americas before +Columbus, calls it "a feminist dream." 1 6 +According to the value system that drove consensus building and +decision making in these societies, the community's interest over­ +rode individual interests. After every member of a council had had +his or her say, any member who still considered a decision incorrect +might nevertheless agree to abide by it for the sake of the commu­ +nity's cohesion. In the rare cases in which consensus could not be +reached, the segment of the community represented by dissenters +might withdraw from the community and move away to found a +new community. This was similar to the practice of the nearly one +hundred autonomous towns of northern New Mexico. + +S T E WA R D S O F T H E L A N D + +By the time of European invasions, Indigenous peoples had occupied +and shaped every part of the Americas, established extensive trade +networks and roads, and were sustaining their populations by adapt­ +ing to specific natural environments, but they also adapted nature to +suit human ends. Mann relates how Indigenous peoples used fire to +shape and tame the precolonial North American landscape. In the +Northeast, Indigenous farmers always carried flints . One English +observer in 1 63 7 noted that they used the flints "to set fire of the +country in all places where they come."17 They also used torches for + +27 + + 28 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +night hunting and rings of flame to encircle animals to kill. Rather +than domesticating animals for hides and meat, Indigenous com­ +munities created havens to attract elk, deer, bear, and other game. +They burned the undergrowth in forests so that the young grasses +and other ground cover that sprouted the following spring would +entice greater numbers of herbivores and the predators that fed on +them, which would sustain the people who ate them both. Mann +describes these forests in r49 r : " Rather than the thick, unbroken, +monumental snarl of trees imagined by Thoreau, the great eastern +forest was an ecological kaleidoscope of garden plots, blackberry +rambles , pine barrens , and spacious groves of chestnut, hickory, and +oak." Inland a few miles from the shore of present-day Rhode Is­ +land, an early European explorer marveled at the trees that were +spaced so that the forest "could be penetrated even by a large army." +English mercenary John Smith wrote that he had ridden a galloping +horse through the Virginia forest. In Ohio, the first English squat­ +ters on Indigenous lands in the mid-eighteenth century encountered +forested areas that resembled English parks, as they could drive car­ +riages through the trees. +Bison herds roamed the East from New York to Georgia (it's no +accident that a settler city in western New York was named Buffalo). +The American bison was indigenous to the northern and southern +plains of North America, not the East, yet Native peoples imported +them east along a path of fire, as they transformed forest into fal­ +lows for the bison to survive upon far from their original habitat. +Historian William Cronon has written that when the Haudeno­ +saunee hunted buffalo, they were "harvesting a foodstuff which they +had consciously been instrumental in creating." As for the " Great +American Desert," as Anglo -Americans called the Great Plains, the +occupants transformed that too into game farms . Using fire, they +extended the giant grasslands and maintained them. When Lewis +and Clark began their trek up the Missouri River in 1 8 04 , ethnolo­ +gist Dale Lott has observed, they beheld "not a wilderness but a +vast pasture managed by and for Native Americans." Native Ameri­ +cans created the world's largest gardens and grazing lands-and +thrived.18 +Native peoples left an indelible imprint on the land with systems + + Follow the Corn + +of roads that tied nations and communities together across the entire +landmass of the Americas. Scholar David Wade Chambers writes: +The first thing to note about early Native American trails and +roads is that they were not just paths in the woods following +along animal tracks used mainly for hunting. Neither can they +be characterized simply as the routes that nomadic peoples +followed during seasonal migrations. Rather they constituted +an extensive system of roadways that spanned the Americas, +making possible short, medium and long distance travel . That +is to say, the Pre - C olumbian Americas were laced together +with a complex system of roads and paths which became the +roadways adopted by the early settlers and indeed were ulti­ +mately transformed into major highways . 1 9 +Roads were developed along rivers, a n d many Indigenous roads +in North America tracked the Mississippi, Ohio, Missouri, Colum­ +bia, and Colorado Rivers, the Rio Grande, and other major streams. +Roads also followed seacoasts. A major road ran along the Pacific +coast from northern Alaska (where travelers could continue by boat +to Siberia) south to an urban area in western Mexico. A branch of +that road ran through the Sonora Desert and up onto the Colorado +Plateau, serving ancient towns and later communities such as those +of the Hopis and Pueblos on the northern Rio Grande. +From the Pueblo communities, roads eastward carried travelers +onto the semiarid plains along tributaries of the Pecos River and up +to the communities in what is now eastern New Mexico, the Texas +Panhandle, and West Texas. There were also roads from the north­ +ern Rio Grande to the southern plains of western Oklahoma by +way of the Canadian and Cimarron Rivers. The roads along those +rivers and their tributaries led to a system of roads that followed riv­ +ers from the Southeast. They also connected with ones that turned +southwestward toward the Valley of Mexico. +The eastern roads connected Muskogee (Creek) towns in present­ +day Georgia and Alabama. From the' Muskogee towns, a major +route led north through Cherokee lands, the Cumberland Gap, and +the Shenandoah Valley region to the confluence of the Ohio and + +29 + + 30 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Scioto Rivers . From that northeastern part of the continent, a trav­ +eler could reach the West Coast by following roads along the Ohio +River to the Mississippi, up the Mississippi to the mouth of the Mis­ +souri, and along the Missouri westward to its headwaters . From +there, a road crossed the Rocky Mountains through South Pass in +present- day Wyoming and led to the Columbia River. The Columbia +River road led to the large population center at the river's mouth on +the Pacific Ocean and connected with the Pacific Coast road . + +CO R N + +North America i n 1 49 2 was not a virgin wilderness but a network +of Indigenous nations, peoples of the corn. The link between peoples +of the North and the South can be seen in the diffusion of corn +from Mesoamerica. Both Muskogees and Cherokees, whose original +homelands in North America are located in the Southeast, trace +their lineage to migration from or through Mexico. Cherokee histo ­ +rian Emmet Starr wrote: +The Cherokees most probably preceded by several hundred +years the Muskogees in their exodus from Mexico and swung +in a wider circle, crossing the Mississippi River many miles +north of the mouth of the Missouri River as indicated by the +mounds . . . . The Muskogees were probably driven out of +Mexico by the Aztecs, Toltecs or some other of the northwest­ +ern tribal invasions of the ninth or preceding centuries. This is +evidenced by the customs and devices that were long retained +by the Creeks. 2 0 +Another Cherokee writer, Robert Conley, tells about the oral +tradition that claims Cherokee origins in South America and sub­ +sequent migration through Mexico. Later, with US military inva­ +sions and relocations of the Muskogee and Cherokee peoples, many +groups split off and sought refuge in Mexico, as did others under +pressure, such as the Kickapoos. 2 1 +Although practiced traditionally throughout the Indigenous ag- + + Follow the Corn + +31 + +ricultural areas of North America, the Green Corn Dance remains +strongest among the Muskogee people. The elements of the ritual +dance are similar to those of the Valley of Mexico. Although the +dance takes various forms among different communities, the core of +it is the same, a commemoration of the gift of corn by an ancestral +corn woman. The peoples of the corn retain great affinities under +the crust of colonialism. +This brief overview of precolonial North America suggests the +magnitude of what was lost to all humanity and counteracts the +settler-colonial myth of the wandering Neolithic hunter. These were +civilizations based on advanced agriculture and featuring polities . +I t is essential t o understand the migrations a n d Indigenous peoples' +relationships prior to invasion, North and South, and how colonial­ +ism cut them off, but, as we will see, the relationships are being +reestablished. + + TWO + +C U LT U RE O F C O N Q U E S T + +The discovery of gold and silver in America, the extirpation, +enslavement and entombment in mines of the aboriginal +population, the beginning of the conquest and looting +of the East Indies, the turning of Africa into a warren +for the commercial hunting of black-skins, signaled the +rosy dawn of the era of capitalist production. These idyllic +proceedings are the chief moments of prior accumulation. +-Karl Marx, from "Genesis of the Industrial Capitalist," Capital + +H O W I T BEGAN + +The late anthropologist Edward H . Spicer wrote that the initial Eu­ +ropeans who participated in colonization of the Americas were heirs +to rich and ancient cultures, social relations, and customs in their +lands of origin, whether Spain, France, Holland, or England. In the +passage to the Americas and encountering the Indigenous inhabi­ +tants, they largely abandoned the webs of European social relations. +What each actually participated in was a culture of conquest-vio­ +lence, expropriation, destruction, and dehumanization. 1 +Spicer's observation is true, but the culture of conquest didn't +start with Europeans crossing the Atlantic. European institutions +and the worldview of conquest and colonialism had formed several +centuries before that. From the eleventh through the thirteenth cen­ +turies, Europeans conducted the Crusades to conquer North Africa +and the Middle East, leading to unprecedented wealth in the hands +of a few. This profit-based religion was the deadly element that Eu­ +ropean merchants and settlers brought to the Americas. In addi- + +32 + + Culture of Conquest + +tion to seeking personal wealth, colonizers expressed a Christian +zeal that j ustified colonialism. Along with that came the militaristic +tradition that had also developed in western Europe during the Cru­ +sades (literally, "carrying of the cross " ) . Although the popes, begin­ +ning with Urban II, called for most of the ventures, the crusading +armies were mercenary outfits that promised the soldiers the right to +sack and loot Muslim towns and cities, feats that would gain them +wealth and prestige back home. Toward the end of the thirteenth +century, · the papacy began directing such mercenaries to crush do­ +mestic "enemies" in their midst, as well-pagans and commoners +in general, especially women (as ostensible witches) and heretics . In +this way, knights and noblemen could seize land and force the com­ +moners living on it into servitude . Historian Peter Linebaugh notes +that whereas the anti-Muslim Crusades were attempts to control +the lucrative Muslim trade routes to the Far East, the domestic cru­ +sades against heretics and commoners were carried out to terrorize +poor people and at the same time to enlist them in the lucrative and +adventurous yet holy venture: " Crusading was thus a murderous +device to resolve a contradiction by bringing baron and commoner +together in the cauldron of religious war." 2 +The first population forcibly organized under the profit motive­ +whose labor was exploited well before overseas exploitation was +possible-was the European peasantry. Once forced off their land, +they had nothing to eat and nothing to sell but their labor. In addi­ +tion, entire nations, such as Scotland, Wales, Ireland, Bohemia, the +Basque Country, and Catalonia, were colonized and forced under +the rule of various monarchies. The Moorish Nation and the Sep­ +hardic Jewish minority were conquered and physically deported by +the Castilian/Aragon monarchy from the Iberian Peninsula-a long­ +term project culminating in group expulsions beginning in 1492, the +year Columbus sailed to America. +The institutions of colonialism and methods for relocation, de­ +portation, and expropriation of land had already been practiced, +if not perfected, by the end of the fifteenth century. 3 The rise of the +modern state in western Europe was based on the accumulation of +wealth by means of exploiting human labor and displacing millions +of subsistence producers from their lands. The armies that did this + +33 + + 34 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +work benefited from technological innovations that allowed the de­ +velopment of more effective weapons of death and destruction. When +these states expanded overseas to obtain even more resources, land, +and labor, they were not starting anew. The peoples of the Caribbean, +Central America, Mexico, and the Andes were the first overseas vic­ +tims . West and South Africa, North America, and the rest of South +America followed. Then came all of Africa, the Pacific, and Asia . +The sea voyages of European explorers and merchants in the late +fifteenth and early sixteenth centuries were not the first of their kind. +These voyagers borrowed the techniques for long- distance sea travel +from the Arab world. Before the Arabs ventured into the Indian +Ocean, Inuits ( Eskimos) plied the Arctic Circle in their kayaks for +centuries and made contacts with many peoples, as did Norse, South +Asian, Chinese, Japanese, Peruvian, and Melanesian and Polynesian +fishing peoples of the Pacific . Egyptian and Greek knowledge of the +seas most likely extended beyond the Mediterranean, into the At­ +lantic and Indian Oceans. Western European seagoing merchants +and the monarchies that backed them would differ only in that they +had developed the bases for colonial domination and exploitation +of labor in those colonies that led to the capture and enslavement of +millions of Africans to transport to their American colonies . + +L A N D A S P R I VAT E P R O P E R T Y + +Along with the cargo o f European ships, especially o f the later Brit­ +ish colonizing ventures, came the emerging concept of land as pri­ +vate property. Esther Kingston-Mann, a specialist in Russian land +tenure history, has reconstructed the elevation of land as private +property to "sacred status" in sixteenth-century England. 4 The En­ +glish used the term "enclosure " to denote the privatization of the +commons. During this time, peasants, who constituted a large ma­ +jority of the population, were evicted from their ancient common +lands. For centuries the commons had been their pasture for milk +cows and for running sheep and their source for water, wood for +fuel and construction, and edible and medicinal wild plants . With­ +out these resources they could not have survived as farmers , and + + Culture of Conquest + +35 + +they did not survive as farmers after they lost access to the com­ +mons. Not only were the commons privatized during the sixteenth +and seventeenth centuries, they were also transformed into grazing +lands for commercial sheep production, wool being the main do­ +mestic and export commodity, creating wealth for a few and im­ +poverishment for the many. Denied access to the former commons, +rural subsistence farmers and even their children had no choice but +to work in the new woolen textile factories under miserable condi­ +tions-that is, when they could find such work for unemployment +was high. Employed or not, this displaced population was available +to serve as settlers in the North American British colonies, many of +them as indentured servants, with the promise of land. After serving +their terms of indenture, they were free to squat on Indigenous land +and become farmers again. In this way, surplus labor created not +only low labor costs and great profits for the woolens manufacturers +but also a supply of settlers for the colonies, which was an "escape +valve " in the home country, where impoverishment could lead to +uprisings of the exploited. The sacred status of property in the forms +of land taken from Indigenous farmers and of Africans as chattel +was seeded into the drive for Anglo-American independence from +Britain and the founding of the United States. +Privatization of land was accompanied by an ideological drive +to paint the commoners who resisted as violent, stupid, and lazy. +The English Parliament, under the guise of fighting backwardness, +criminalized former rights to the commons. Accompanying and fa­ +cilitating the privatization of the commons was the suppression of +women, as feminist theorist Silvia Federici has argued, by conj uring +witchcraft. Those accused of witchcraft were poor peasant women, +often widows, while the accusers tended to be wealthier, either their +landlords or employers, individuals who controlled local institutions +or had ties to the national government. Neighbors were encouraged +to accuse one another. 5 Witchcraft was considered mainly a female +crime, especially at the peak of the witch hunts between 1 5 5 0 and + +1 650, when more than 80 percent of those who were charged with +witchcraft, tried, convicted, and executed were women. In England, +those accused of witchcraft were mostly elderly women, often beg­ +gars, sometimes the wives of living laborers but usually widows . + + 36 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +Actions and local occurrences said to indicate witchcraft included +nonpayment of rent, demand for public assistance, giving the "evil­ +eye," local die-offs of horses or other stock, and mysterious deaths +of children. Also among the telltale actions were practices related to +midwifery and any kind of contraception . The service that women +provided among the poor as healers was one of a number of vestiges +from pre- Christian, matrilineal institutions that once predominated +in Europe. It is no surprise that those who had held on to and per­ +petuated these communal practices were those most resistant to the +enclosure of the commons, the economic base of the peasantry, as +well as women's autonomy. 6 +The traumatized souls thrown off the land, as well as their de­ +scendants, became the land-hungry settlers enticed to cross a vast +ocean with the promise of land and attaining the status of gentry. +English settlers brought witch hunting with them to Jamestown, +Virginia, and to Salem, Massachusetts. In language reminiscent of +that used to condemn witches, they quickly identified the Indigenous +populations as inherently children of Satan and " servants of the +devil " who deserved to be killed. 7 Later the Salem authorities would +justify witch trials by claiming that the English settlers were inhabit­ +ing land controlled by the devil. + +W H I T E S U P R E M ACY A N D C L A S S + +Also part o f the Christian colonizers' outlook was a belief i n white +supremacy. As an 1 8 7 8 US Protestant evangelical hymn suggests­ +"Are your garments spotless? I Are they white as snow? I Are they +washed in the blood of the lamb? "-whiteness as an ideology in­ +volves much more than skin color, although skin color has been +and continues to be a key component of racism in the United States. +White supremacy can be traced to the colonizing ventures of the +Christian Crusades in Muslim-controlled territories and to the Prot­ +estant colonization of Ireland. As dress rehearsals for the coloniza­ +tion of the Americas, these proj ects form the two strands that merge +in the geopolitical and sociocultural makeup of US society. +The Crusades in the Iberian Peninsula ( Spain and Portugal today) + + Culture of Conquest + +and expulsion of Jews and Muslims were part of a process that cre­ +ated the core ideology for modern colonialism-white supremacy­ +and its justification for genocide . The Crusades gave birth to the +papal law of limpieza de sangre -cleanliness of blood-for which +the Inquisition was established by the Church to investigate and +determine. Before this time the concept of biological race based on +" blood" is not known to have existed as law or taboo in Christian +Europe or anywhere else in the world. 8 As scapegoating and sus­ +picion of Conversos (Jews who had converted to Christianity) and +Moriscos (Muslims who had converted to Christianity) intensified +over several centuries in Christian-controlled Spain, the doctrine +of limpieza de sangre was popularized. It had the effect of granting +psychological and increasingly legal privileges to " Old Christians," +both rich and poor, thus obscuring the class differences between the +landed aristocracy and land-poor peasants and shepherds . Whatever +their economic station, the " Old Christian" Spanish were enabled +to identify with the nobility. As one Spanish historian puts it, "The +common people looked upwards, wishing and hoping to climb, and +let themselves be seduced by chivalric ideals: honour, dignity, glory, +and the noble life."9 Lope de Vega, a sixteenth-century contempo­ +rary of Cervantes, wrote : " Soy un hombre , I aunque de villana casta, + +I limpio de sangre y jamas I de hebrea o mora manchada" ( I am a +man, although of lowly status, yet clean of blood and with no mix­ +ture of Jewish or Moorish blood). +This cross-class mind-set can be found as well in the stance of +descendants of the old settlers of British colonization in North +America. This then is the first instance of class leveling based on +imagined racial sameness-the origin of white supremacy, the es­ +sential ideology of colonial projects in America and Africa. As +Elie Wiesel famously observed, the road to Auschwitz was paved +in the earliest days of Christendom . Historian David Stannard, in + +American Holocaust, adds the caveat that the same road led straight +through the heart of America . 1 0 The ideology of white supremacy +was paramount in neutralizing the class antagonisms of the landless +against the landed and distributing confiscated lands and properties +of Moors and Jews in Iberia, of the Irish in Ulster, and of Native +American and African peoples. + +37 + + 38 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Great Britain, emerging as an overseas colonial power a century +after Spain did, absorbed aspects of the Spanish racial caste system +into its colonialist rationalizations, particularly regarding African +slavery, but it did so within the context of Protestantism, which +imagined a chosen people founding and raising a New Jerusalem. +The English did not j ust adapt the habits and experiences of Spanish +colonization; they had their own prior experience, which actually +constituted overseas imperialism. During the early seventeenth cen­ +tury the English conquered Ireland and declared a half-million acres +of land in the north open to settlement. The settlers who served early +settler colonialism came mostly from western Scotland. England +had previously conquered Wales and Scotland, but it had never be­ +fore attempted to remove so large an Indigenous population and +plant settlers in their place as in Ireland. The ancient Irish social +system was systematically attacked, traditional songs and music +forbidden, whole clans exterminated, and the remainder brutal­ +ized. A "wild Irish" reservation was even attempted. The "planta­ +tion" of Ulster was as much a culmination of, as it was a departure +from, centuries of intermittent warfare in Ireland. In the sixteenth +century, the official in charge of the Irish province of Munster, Sir +Humphrey Gilbert, ordered that +the heddes of all those (of what sort soever thei were) which +were killed in the daie, should be cutte off from their bodies +and brought to the place where he [Gilbert] incamped at night, +and should there bee laied on the ground by eche side of the +waie ledying into his owne tente so that none could come into +his tente for any cause but commonly he muste passe through +a lane of heddes which he used ad terrorem . . . . [It brought] +greate terrour to the people when thei sawe the heddes of their +dedde fathers, brothers, children, kindsfolke, and friends . 1 1 +The English government paid bounties for the Irish heads. Later +only the scalp or ears were required. A century later in North Amer­ +ica, Indian heads and scalps were brought in for bounty in the same +manner. Although the Irish were as " white" as the English, trans- + + Culture of Conquest + +forming them into alien others to be exterminated previewed what +came to be perceived as racialist when applied to Indigenous peoples +of North America and to Africans. +At that conj uncture, both in the Christian Crusades against +Muslims and England's invasion of Ireland, the transition from re­ +ligious wars to the genocidal mode of colonialism is apparent. The +Irish under British colonial rule, well into the twentieth century, +continued to be regarded as biologically inferior. During the mid­ +nineteenth century, influenced by social Darwinism, some English +scientists peddled the theory that the Irish (and all people of color) +had descended from apes, while the English were descendants of +"man," who had been created by God "in his own image ." Thus the +English were "angels" and the Irish (and other colonized peoples) +were a lower species, which today US " Christian Identity " white +supremacists call "mud people," inferior products of the process of +evolution . 1 2 The same Sir Humphrey Gilbert who had been in charge +of the colonization of Ulster planted the first English colonial settle ­ +ment in North America in Newfoundland in the summer of 1 5 8 3 . +In the lead-up to the formation of the United States, Protestantism +uniquely refined white supremacy as part of a politico-religious +ideology. + +T E R M I N A L N A R R AT I V E S + +According to the current consensus among historians, the wholesale +transfer of land from Indigenous to Euro-American hands that oc­ +curred in the Americas after 1492 is due less to European invasion, +warfare, and material acquisitiveness than to the bacteria that the +invaders unwittingly brought with them. Historian Colin Calloway +is among the proponents of this theory, and he writes that "epidemic +diseases would have caused massive depopulation in the Americas +whether brought by European invaders or brought home by Na­ +tive American traders."13 Such an absolutist assertion renders any +other fate for the Indigenous peoples improbable. Professor Callo­ +way is a careful and widely respected historian of Indigenous North + +39 + + 40 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +America, but his conclusion articulates a default assumption. The +thinking behind the assumption is both ahistorical and illogical in +that Europe itself lost a third to one-half of its population to infec­ +tious disease during medieval pandemics. The principal reason the +consensus view is wrong and ahistorical is that it erases the effects of +settler colonialism with its antecedents in the Spanish " Reconquest" +and the English conquest of Scotland, Ireland, and Wales. By the +time Spain, Portugal, and Britain arrived to colonize the Americas, +their methods of eradicating peoples or forcing them into depen­ +dency and servitude were ingrai �ed, streamlined, and effective. If +disease could have done the job, it is not clear why the European +colonizers in America found it necessary to carry out unrelenting +wars against Indigenous communities in order to gain every inch of +land they took from them-nearly three hundred years of colonial +warfare, followed by continued wars waged by the independent re­ +publics of the hemisphere. +Whatever disagreement may exist about the size of precolonial +Indigenous populations, no one doubts that a rapid demographic de­ +cline occurred in the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries, its timing +from region to region depending on when conquest and colonization +began. Nearly all the population areas of the Americas were reduced +by 90 percent following the onset of colonizing projects, decreasing +the targeted Indigenous populations of the Americas from one hun­ +dred million to ten million. Commonly referred to as the most ex­ +treme demographic disaster-framed as natural-in human history, +it was rarely called genocide until the rise of Indigenous movements +in the mid-twentieth century forged questions . +US scholar Benjamin Keen acknowledges that historians "accept +uncritically a fatalistic 'epidemic plus lack of acquired immunity' ex­ +planation for the shrinkage of Indian populations, without sufficient +attention to the socioeconomic factors . . . which predisposed the +natives to succumb to even slight infections . " 14 Other scholars agree . +Geographer William M. Denevan, while not ignoring the existence +of widespread epidemic diseases, has emphasized the role of warfare, +which reinforced the lethal impact of disease. There were military +engagements directly between European and Indigenous nations, +but many more saw European powers pitting one Indigenous na- + + Culture of Conquest + +tion against another or factions within nations, with European allies +aiding one or both sides, as was the case in the colonization of the +peoples of Ireland, Africa , and Asia . Other killers cited by Denevan +are overwork in mines, frequent outright butchery, malnutrition and +starvation resulting from the breakdown of Indigenous trade net­ +works, subsistence food production and loss of land, loss of will to +live or reproduce (and thus suicide, abortion, and infanticide) , and +deportation and enslavement. 1 5 Anthropologist Henry Dobyns has +pointed to the interruption of Indigenous peoples' trade networks . +When colonizing powers seized Indigenous trade routes, the ensu­ +ing acute shortages, including food products, weakened populations +and forced them into dependency on the colonizers, with European +manufactured goods replacing Indigenous ones. D obyns has esti­ +mated that all Indigenous groups suffered serious food shortages +one year in four. In these circumstances, the introduction and pro­ +motion of alcohol proved addictive and deadly, adding to the break­ +down of social order and responsibility. 16 These realities render the +myth of "lack of immunity," including to alcohol, pernicious. +Historian Woodrow Wilson Borah focused on the broader arena +of European colonization, which also brought depopulation in the +Pacific Islands, Australia, western Central America, and West Af­ +rica . 17 Sherburne Cook-a ssociated with Borah in the revisionist +Berkeley School, as it was called-studied the attempted destruc­ +tion of the California Indians. Cook estimated 2 , 245 deaths among +peoples in Northern California-the Wintu, Maidu, Miwak, Omo, +Wappo, and Yokuts Nations-in late- eighteenth-century armed +conflicts with the Spanish, while some 5 ,ooo died from disease and +another 4 ,000 were relocated to missions. Among the same people +in the second half of the nineteenth century, US armed forces killed + +4 ,000, and disease killed another 6,ooo. Between 1 8 5 2 and 1 8 67, +US citizens kidnapped 4 ,000 Indian children from these groups in +California. Disruption of Indigenous social structures under these +conditions and dire economic necessity forced many of the women +into prostitution in goldfield camps, further wrecking what vestiges +of family life remained in these matriarchal societies . 1 8 +Proponents o f the default position emphasize attrition b y disease +despite other causes equally deadly, if not more so. In doing so they + +41 + + 42 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +refuse to accept that the colonization of America was genocidal by +plan, not simply the tragic fate of populations lacking immunity to +disease. In the case of the Jewish Holocaust, no one denies that more +Jews died of starvation, overwork, and disease under Nazi incarcer­ +ation than died in gas ovens, yet the acts of creating and maintaining +the conditions that led to those deaths clearly constitute genocide. +A nthropologist Michael V. Wilcox asks, " What if archaeologists +were asked to explain the continued presence of descendant com­ +munities five hundred years after Columbus instead of their disap ­ +pearance or marginality ? " Cox calls for the active dismantling of +what he terms "terminal narratives"-"accounts of Indian histories +which explain the absence, cultural death, or disappearance of In­ +digenous people s . " 1 9 + +GOLD FEVER + +Searching f� r gold, Columbus reached many o f the islands of the Ca­ +ribbean and mapped them. Soon, a dozen other soldier-merchants +mapped the Atlantic coast from the northern Maritimes to the tip of +South America. From the Iberian Peninsula came merchants, mer­ +cenaries, criminals, and peasants. They seized the land and prop­ +erty of Indigenous populations and declared the territories to be +extensions of the Spanish and Portuguese states. These acts were +confirmed by the monarchies and endorsed by the papal authority +of the Roman Catholic Church. The Treaty of Tordesillas in 1 494 +divided the " New World " between Spain and Portugal with a line +drawn from Greenland south through what is now Brazil. Called the +D octrine of Discovery, it claimed that possession of the entire world +west of that line would be open to Spanish conquest and all east of it +to Portuguese conquest. +The story is well known. In 1492, Columbus sailed with three +ships on his first voyage at the behest of Ferdinand, King of Ara­ +gon, and Isabella, Queen of Castille. The marriage of Ferdinand and +Isabella in 1 4 69 had led to the merger of their kingdoms into what +would become the core of the Spanish state . Columbus planted a +colony of forty of his men on "Espanola" (now the Dominican Re- + + Culture of Conquest + +public and Haiti) and returned to Spain with Indigenous slaves and +gold . In 1 493 , Columbus returned to the Caribbean with seventeen +ships, more than a thousand men, and supplies. He found that the +men he had left on the first trip had subsequently been killed by +the Indigenous inhabitants . After planting another settlement, Co­ +lumbus returned to Spain with four hundred Arawak slaves. With +seven ships, Columbus returned to the Caribbean in 1 4 9 8 , reaching +what is now Venezuela, and he made a fourth and final voyage in + +1 5 0 2 , this time touching the Caribbean coast of Central America. +In 1 5 1 3 , Vasco Nuiiez de Balboa crossed the Isthmus of Panama +and charted the Pacific coast of the Americas. Juan Ponce de Leon +claimed the Florida peninsula for Spain in l s r 3 . In l 5 21, following +a three-year bloodbath and overthrow of the Aztec state, Hernando +Cortes proclaimed Mexico as New Spain. Parallel with the cr_u shing +of Mexican resistance were Ferdinand Magellan's explorations and +charting of the Atlantic coast of the South American continent, fol­ +lowed by Spanish wars against the Inca Nation of the Andes. In both +Mexico and Peru, the conquistadors confiscated elaborate artwork +and statuary made of gold and silver to be melted down for use as +money. During the same period, the Portuguese laid waste to what is +today Brazil and began a thriving slave trade that would funnel mil­ +lions of enslaved Africans to South America, beginning the lucrative +Atlantic slave trade. +The consequences of this amassing of fortunes were first felt in the +catastrophe experienced by small farmers in Europe and England. +The peasants became impoverished, dependent workers crowded +into city slums . For the first time in human history, the maj ority of +Europeans depended for their livelihood on a small wealthy minor­ +ity, a phenomenon that capitalist-based colonialism would spread +worldwide. The symbol of this new development, indeed its cur­ +rency, was gold . Gold fever drove colonizing ventures, organized +at first in pursuit of the metal in its raw form. Later the pursuit +of gold became more sophisticated, with planters and merchants +establishing whatever conditions were necessary to hoard as much +gold as possible . Thus was born an ideology: the belief in the inher­ +ent value of gold despite its relative uselessness in reality. Investors, +monarchies , and parliamentarians devised methods to control the + +43 + + 44 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +processes of wealth accumulation and the power that came with +it, but the ideology behind gold fever mobilized settlers to cross the +Atlantic to an unknown fate. Subj ugating entire societies and civili­ +zations, enslaving whole countries, and slaughtering people village +by village did not seem too high a price to pay, nor did it appear +inhumane. The systems of colonization were modern and rational, +but its ideological basis was madness. + + THREE + +C U LT O F THE C O VE N A N T + +For all the land which thou seest, +to thee will I give it and to thy seed forever. +- + +Genes i s 1 3 : 1 5 + +And I will establish my covenant between me and thee and +thy seed after thee in their generations for an everlasting +covenant, to be a God unto thee, and to thy seed after thee. +-Genesis 1 7 : 7 + +M Y T H OF T H E P R I S T I N E W I L D E R N E S S + +With the onset o f colonialism i n North America, control of the land +was wrenched away from the Indigenous peoples, and the forests grew +dense, so that later European settlers were unaware of the former cul­ +tivation and sculpting and manicuring of the landscape. Abandoned +fields of corn turned to weeds and bushes. Settlers chopped down +trees in New England until the landscape was nearly bare.1 One ge­ +ographer notes, "Paradoxical as it may seem, there was undoubtedly +much more 'forest primeval' in 1 8 5 0 than in 1650."2 Anglo-Ameri­ +cans who did observe Native habitat management in action misun­ +derstood what they saw. Captain John Palliser, traveling through +the prairies in the 1 8 50s, complained about the Indians' "disastrous +habit of setting the prairie on fire for the most trivial and worse than +useless reasons." In 1937, Harvard naturalist Hugh Raup claimed +that the "open, park-like woods" written about in earlier times had +been, "from time immemorial, characteristic of vast areas in North +America" and could not have been the result of human management. 3 + +45 + + 46 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +In the founding myth of the United States, the colonists acquired +a vast expanse of land from a scattering of benighted peoples who +were hardly using it-an unforgivable offense to the Puritan work +ethic. The historical record is clear, however, that European colo­ +nists shoved aside a large network of small and large nations whose +governments, commerce, arts and sciences, agriculture, technolo­ +gies, theologies, philosophies, and institutions were intricately de­ +veloped, nations that maintained sophisticated relations with one +another and with the environments that supported them. By the +early seventeenth century, when British colonists from Europe be­ +gan to settle in North America, a large Indigenous population had +long before created "a humanized landscape almost everywhere," +as William Denevan puts it. 4 Native peoples had created town sites, +farms, monumental earthworks, and networks of roads, and they +had devised a wide variety of governments, some as complex as +any in the world. They had developed sophisticated philosophies of +government, traditions of diplomacy, and policies of international +relations. They conducted trade along roads that crisscrossed the +landmasses and waterways of the American continents. Before the +arrival of Europeans, North America was indeed a "continent of +villages," but also a continent of nations and federations of nations. 5 +Many have noted that had North America been a wilderness, +undeveloped, without roads, and uncultivated, it might still be so, +for the European colonists could not have survived. They appro­ +priated what had already been created by Indigenous civilizations. +They stole already cultivated farmland and the corn, vegetables, to­ +bacco, and other crops domesticated over centuries, took control of +the deer parks that had been cleared and maintained by Indigenous +communities, used existing roads and water routes in order to move +armies to conquer, and relied on captured Indigenous people to iden­ +tify the locations of water, oyster beds, and medicinal herbs. His­ +torian Francis Jennings was emphatic in addressing what he called +the myth that "America was virgin land, or wilderness, inhabited by +nonpeople called savages": +European explorers and invaders discovered an inhabited +land. Had it been pristine wilderness then, it would possibly + + Cult of the Covenant + +be so still today, for neither the technology nor the social orga­ +nization of Europe in the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries +had the capacity to maintain, of its own resources, outpost +colonies thousands of miles from home. Incapable of conquer­ +ing true wilderness, the Europeans were highly competent in +the skill of conquering other people,' and that is what they did. +They did not settle a virgin land. They invaded and displaced +a resident population. +This is so simple a fact that it seems self-evident. 6 + +T H E C A LV I N I S T O R I G I N S T O R Y + +All modern nation-states claim a kind of rationalized origin story +upon which they fashion patriotism or loyalty to the state. When +citizens of modern states and their anthropologists and historians +look at what they consider "primitive" societies, they identify their +"origin myths," quaint and endearing stories, but fantastic ones, +not grounded in "reality." Yet many US scholars seem unable (or +unwilling) to subject their own nation-state's founding story to the +same objective examination. The United States is not unique among +nations in forging an origin myth, but most of its citizens believe it +to be exceptional among nation-states, and this exceptionalist ide­ +ology has been used to justify appropriation of the continent and +then domination of the rest of the world. It is one of the few states +founded on the covenant of the Hebrew Torah, or the Christian bor­ +rowing of it in the Old Testament of the Bible. Other covenant states +are Israel and the now-defunct apartheid state of South Africa, both +of which were founded in 194 8 .7 Although the origin stories of these +three covenant states were based on Judea- Christian scripture, they +were not founded as theocracies. According to the myths, the faith­ +ful citizens come together of their own free will and pledge to each +other and to their god to form and support a godly society, and their +god in turn vouchsafes them prosperity in a promised land. +The influence of the scriptures was pervasive among many of the +Western social and political thinkers whose ideas the founders of +the first British colonies in North America drew upon. Historian + +47 + + 48 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +Donald Harman Akenson points to the way that "certain societies, +in certain eras of their development," have } ooked to the scriptures +for guidance, and likens it to the way "the human genetic code oper­ +ates physiologically. That is, this great code has, in some degree, di­ +rectly determined what people would believe and when they would +think and what they would do."8 Dan Jacobson, a citizen of Boer­ +ruled South Africa, whose parents were immigrants, observes that, +like the Israelites, and their fellow Calvinists in New England, +[the Boers] believed that they had been called by their God to +wander through the wilderness, to meet and defeat the hea­ +then, and to occupy a promised land on his behalf . . . . A sense +of their having been summoned by divine decree to perform +an ineluctable historical duty has never left the Boers, and has +contributed to both their strength and their weakness.9 +Founders of the first North American colonies and later of the +United States had a similar sense of a providential opportunity to +make history. Indeed, as Akenson reminds us, "it is from [the] scrip­ +tures that western society learned how to think historically." The +key moment in history according to covenant ideology "involves the +winning of 'the Land' from alien, and indeed evil, forces."1 0 +The principal conduit of the Hebrew scriptures and covenant ide­ +ology to European Christians was John Calvin, the French religious +reformer whose teachings coincided with the advent of the European +invasion and colonization of the Americas. The Puritans drew upon +Calvinist ideology in founding the Massachusetts Bay Colony, as did +the Dutch Calvinist settlers of the Cape of Good Hope in founding +their South African colony during the same period. Calvinism was +a Protestant Christian movement with a strong separatist political +component. In accord with the doctrine of predestination, Calvin +taught that human free will did not exist. Certain individuals are +"called" by God and are among the "elect." Salvation therefore has +nothing to do with one's actions; one is born as part of the elect or +not, according to God's will. Although individuals could not know +for certain if they were among the elect, outward good fortune, es­ +pecially material wealth, was taken to be a manifestation of elec­ +tion; conversely, bad fortune and poverty, not to speak of dark skin, + + Cult of the Covenant + +49 + +were taken as evidence of damnation. "The attractiveness of such +a doctrine to a group of invading colonists . . . is obvious," Aken­ +son observes, "for one could easily define the natives as immuta­ +bly profane, and damned, and oneself as predestined to virtue." 1 1 +Since another sign o f justification was a person's ability to abide +by the laws of a well-ordered society, Calvin preached the obliga­ +tion of citizens to obey lawful authority. In fact, they should do so +even when that authority was lodged in poor leaders (one of the +seeds for "my country right or wrong"). Calvin led his Huguenot +followers across the border into Geneva, took political control of +the city-state, and established it as a republic in l 54 I . The Calvin­ +ist state enacted detailed statutes governing every aspect of life and +appointed functionaries to enforce them. The laws reflected Calvin's +interpretation of the Old Testament; dissenters were forced to leave +the republic, and some were even tortured and executed. +Although the US Constitution represents for many US citizens a +covenant with God, the US origin story goes back to the Mayflower +Compact, the first governing document of the Plymouth Colony, +named for the ship that carried the hundred or so passengers to what +is now Cape Cod, Massachusetts, in November 1 620. Forty-one of +the "Pilgrims," all men, wrote and signed the compact. Invoking +God's name and declaring themselves loyal subjects of the king, the +signatories announced that they had journeyed to northern "Vir­ +ginia," as the eastern seaboard of North America was called by the +English, "to plant the First Colony " and did therefore "Covenant +and Combine ourselves together in a Civil Body Politic" to be gov­ +erned by "just and equal Laws" enacted "for the general good of the +Colony, unto which we promise all due submission and obedience." +The original settlers of Massachusetts Bay Colony, founded in 1 630, +adopted an official seal designed in England before their journey. +The central image depicts a near-naked native holding a harmless, +flimsy-looking bow and arrow and inscribed with the plea, " Come +over and help us." 12 Nearly three hundred years later, the official +seal of the US military veterans of the "Spanish-American War" (the +invasio!1 and occupation of Puerto Rico, Cuba, and the Philippines) +showed a naked woman kneeling before an armed US soldier and a +sailor, with a US battleship in the background. One may trace this + + 50 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +recurrent altruistic theme into the early twenty-first century, when +the United States still invades countries under the guise of rescue. +In other modern constitutional states, constitutions come and +go, and they are never considered sacred in the manner patriotic +US citizens venerate theirs. Great Britain has no written constitu­ +tion. The Magna Carta arguably comes close, but it does not reflect +a covenant. US citizens did not inherit their cult-like adherence to +their constitution from the English. From the Pilgrims to the found­ +ers of the United States and continuing to the present, the cultural +persistence of the covenant idea, and thus the bedrock of US patrio­ +tism, represents a deviation from the main course in the develop­ +ment of national identities . Arguably, both the 1948 birth of the +state of Israel and advent of Nationalist Party rule of South Africa +were emulations of the US founding; certainly many US Americans +closely identify with the state of Israel, as they did with Afrikaner­ +ruled South Africa. Patriotic US politicians and citizens take pride +in "exceptionalism." Historians and legal theorists characterize US +statecraft and empire as those of a "nation of laws," rather than one +dominated by a particular class or group of interests, suggesting a +kind of holiness. +The US Constitution, the Mayflower Compact, the Declaration +of Independence, the writings of the " Founding Fathers," Lincoln's +Gettysburg Address, the Pledge of Allegiance, and even Martin +Luther King Jr.'s "I Have a Dream" speech are ·all bundled into +the covenant as sacred documents that express the US state reli­ +gion. An aspect of this most visible in the early twenty-first century +is the burgeoning "gun lobby," based on the sanctity of the Sec­ +ond Amendment to the C onstitution. In the forefront of these +Second Amendment adherents are the descendants of the old settlers +who say that they represent "the people " and have the right to bear +arms in order to overthrow any government that does not in their +view adhere to the God-given covenant. +Parallel to the idea of the US Constitution as covenant, politi­ +cians, journali�ts, teachers, and even professional historians chant +like a mantra that the United States is a "nation of immigrants.'' +From its beginning, the United States has welcomed-indeed, often +solicited, even bribed-immigrants to repopulate conquered terri- + + Cult of the Covenant + +tories "cleansed" of their Indigenous inhabitants . From the mid­ +nineteenth century, immigrants were recruited to work mines, raze +forests, construct canals and railroads, and labor in sweatshops, +p + +factories, and commercial farm fields. In the late twentieth century, +technical and medical workers were recruited. The requirements for +their formal citizenship were simple: adhere to the sacred covenant +through taking the Citizenship Oath, pledging loyalty to the flag, +and regarding those outside the covenant as enemies or potential +enemies of the exceptional country that has adopted them, often +after they escaped hunger, war, or repression, which in turn were +often caused by US militarism or economic sanctions. Yet no mat­ +ter how much immigrants might strive to prove themselves to be as +hardworking and patriotic as descendants of the original settlers, +and despite the rhetoric of E pluribus unum, they are suspect. The +old stock against which they are judged inferior includes not only +those who fought in the fifteen-year war for independence from Brit­ +ain but also, and perhaps more important, those who fought and +shed (Indian) blood, before and after independence, in order to ac­ +quire the land. These are the descendants of English Pilgrims, Scots, +Scots-Irish, and Huguenot French-Calvinists all-who took the +land bequeathed to them in the sacred covenant that predated the +creation of the independent United States. These were the settlers +who fought their way over the Appalachians into the fertile Ohio +Valley region, and it is they who claimed blood sacrifice for their +country. Immigrants, to be accepted, must prove their fidelity to the +covenant and what it stands for. + +S E T T L E R C O LO N I A L I S M A N D T H E U L S T E R - S C O T S + +The core group o f frontier settlers were the Ulster-Scots-the Scots­ +Irish, or "Scotch-Irish," as they called themselves.13 Usually the de­ +scendants of these Scots-Irish say their ancestors came to the British +colonies from Ireland, but their journey was more circuitous than +that. The Scots-Irish were Protestants from Scotland who were re­ +cruited by the British as settlers in the six counties of the province of +Ulster in northern Ireland. The British had seized these half-million + +51 + + 52 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +acres from Ireland in the early seventeenth century, driven the in­ +digenous Irish farmers from it, and opened it to settlement under +English protection. This coincided with the English plantation of +two colonies on the Atlantic coast of North America and the begin­ +ning of settler colonialism there. These early settlers came mostly +from the Scottish lowlands. Scotland itself, along with Wales, had +preceded Ireland as colonial notches in the belt of English expan­ +sion. Britain's colonization of Indigenous lands in North America +was foreshadowed by its colonization of northern Ireland. By 1 6 3 0 +the new settlers i n Ulster-21,000 Britons, including some Welsh, +and 1 5 0 ,000 Lowland Scots-were more numerous than British set­ +tlers in all of North America at the time. In 1 64 1 , the indigenous +Irish rebelled and killed ten thousand of the settlers, yet Protestant +Scots settlers continued to pour in. In some formerly Irish areas, +they formed a majority of the population. They brought with them +the covenant ideology of Calvinism that had been the work of the +Scotsman John Knox. Later John Locke, also a Scot, would secular­ +ize the covenant idea into a "contract," the social contract, whereby +individuals sacrifice their liberty only through consent. An insid­ +iously effective example, the US economic system, was based on +Locke's theories. 14 +So it was that the Ulster-Scots were already seasoned settler co­ +lonialists before they began to fill the ranks of settlers streaming +toward the North American British colonies in the early eighteenth +century, many of them as indentured servants. Before ever meeting +Indigenous Americans, the Ulster settlers had perfected scalping for +bounty, using the indigenous Irish as their victims. As this chapter +and the following one show, the Scots-Irish were the foot soldiers of +British empire building, and they and their descendants formed the +shock troops of the "westward movement" in North America, the +expansion of the US continental empire and the colonization of its +inhabitants. As Calvinists (mostly Presbyterian), they added to and +transformed the Calvinism of the earlier Puritan settlers into the +unique ideology of the US settler class. 1 5 +In one o f history's great migrations, nearly a quarter-million +Scots-Irish left Ulster for British North America between 1 7 1 7 and +1 7 75 . Although a number left for religious reasons, the maj ority + + Cult of the Covenant + +were losers in the struggle over Britain's Irish policies, which brought +economic ruin to Ireland's wool and linen industries. Hard times +were magnified by prolonged drought, and so the settlers pulled up +stakes and moved across the Atlantic. This is a story that would re­ +peat itself time and time again in settler treks across North America, +the majority of migrants ending up landless losers in the Monopoly +game of European settler colonialism. +The majority of Ulster-Scot settlers were cash-poor and had to +indenture themselves to pay for their passage to North America. +Once settled, they came to predominate as soldier-settlers. Most +initially landed in Pennsylvania, but large numbers soon migrated to +the southern colonies and to the backcountry, the British colonies' +western borders, where they squatted on unceded Indigenous lands. +Among frontier settlers, Scots-Irish predominated among settlers +of English and German descent. Although the majority remained +landless and poor, some became merchants and owners of planta­ +tions worked by slaves, as well as politically powerful. Seventeen +presidents of the United States have been of Ulster-Scots lineage, +from Andrew Jackson, founder of the Democratic Party, to Ronald +Reagan, the Bushes, Bill Clinton, and Barack Obama on his moth­ +er's side. Theodore Roosevelt characterized his Scots-Irish ancestors +as "a stern, virile, bold and hardy people who formed the kernel +of that American stock who were the pioneers of our people in the +march westwards."1 6 Perhaps as influential as their being presidents, +educators, and businessmen, the Scots-Irish engendered a strong set +of individualist values that included the sanctity of glory in war­ +fare. They made up the officer corps and were soldiers of the regu­ +lar army, as well as the frontier-ranging militias that cleared areas +for settlement by exterminating Indigenous farmers and destroying +their towns. +The Seven Years' War between the British and the French ( 1 75463) was fought both in Europe and in North America, where the +British colonists called it the French and Indian War because it was +mainly a British war against the Indigenous peoples, some of whom +formed alliances with the French. The British colonial militias con­ +sisted largely of frontier Scots-Irish settlers who wanted access to +Indigenous farmland in the Ohio Valley region. By the time of OS + +53 + + 54 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +independence, Ulster-Scots made up 1 5 percent of the population +of the thirteen colonies, and most were clustered in majority num­ +bers in the backcountry. During the war for settler independence +from Britain, most settlers who had emigrated directly from Scot­ +land remained loyal to the British Crown and fought on that side. In +contrast, the Scots-Irish were in the forefront of the struggle for inde­ +pendence and formed the backbone of Washington's fighting forces. +Most of the names of soldiers at Valley Forge were Scots-Irish. They +saw themselves, and their descendants see themselves, as the true +and authentic patriots, the ones who spilled rivers of blood to secure +independence and to acquire Indigenous lands-gaining blood rights +to the latter as they left bloody footprints across the continent.17 +During the last two decades of the eighteenth century, first- and +second-generation Scots-Irish continued to pour westward into the +Ohio Valley region, West Virginia, Kentucky, and Tennessee. They +were the largest ethnic group in the westward migration, and they +maintained many of their Scots-Irish ways. They tended to move +three or four times, acquiring and losing land before settling at least +somewhat permanently. Scots-Irish settlers were overwhelmingly +farmers rather than explorers or fur traders. They cleared forests, +built log cabins, and killed Indians, forming a human wall of colo­ +nization for the new United States and, in wartime, employing their +fighting skills effectively. Historian Carl Degler writes that "these +hardy, God-fearing Calvinists made themselves into a veritable hu­ +man shield of colonial civilization." 18 The next chapter explores the +kind of counterinsurgent warfare they perfected, which formed the +basis of US militarism into the twenty-first century. +The Calvinist religion of the Scots-Irish, Presbyterianism, was +in numbers of faithful soon second only to those of New England's +Congregationalist Church. But on the frontier, Scots-Irish devotion +to the formal Presbyterian Church waned. New evangelical off­ +shoots refashioned Calvinist doctrines to decentralize and do away +with the Presbyterian hierarchy. Although they continued to regard +themselves as chosen people of the covenant, commanded by God +to go into the wilderness to build the new Israel, the Scots-Irish also +saw themselves, as their descendants see themselves, as the true and +authentic patriots, entitled to the land through their blood sacrifice. + + Cult of the Covenant + +S A C R E D L A N D B E C O M E S R E A L E S TAT E + +The land won through North American bloodshed was not necessar­ +ily conceived in terms of particular parcels for a farm that would be +passed down through generations. Most of the settlers who fought +for it kept moving on nearly every generation. In the South many lost +their holdings to land companies that then sold it to planters seeking +to increase the size of their slave-worked plantations. Without the +unpaid forced labor of enslaved Africans, a farmer growing cash +crops could not compete on the market. Once in the hands of set­ +tlers, the land itself was no longer sacred, as it had been for the Indig­ +enous. Rather, it was private property, a commodity to be acquired +and sold-every man a possible king, or at least wealthy. Later, +when Anglo-Americans had occupied the continent and urbanized +much of it, this quest for land and the sanctity of private property +were reduced to a lot with a house on it, and "the land" came to +mean the country, the flag, the military, as in "the land of the free" +of the national anthem, or Woody Guthrie's "This Land Is Your +Land." Those who died fighting in foreign wars were said to have +sacrificed their lives to protect "this land" that the old settlers had +spilled blood to acquire. The blood spilled was largely Indigenous. +These then were the settlers upon which the national myths are +based, the ultimately dispensable cannon fodder for the taking of +the land and the continent, the foot soldiers of empire, the "yeoman +farmers" romanticized by Thomas Jefferson. They were not of the +ruling class, although a few slipped through and later were drawn in +by the ruling class as elected officials and military officers, thereby +maintaining the facade of a classless society and a democratic em­ +pire. The founders were English patricians, slave owners, large land +barons, or otherwise successful businessmen dependent on the slave +trade and exports produced by enslaved Africans and on property +sales. When descendants of the settler class, overwhelmingly Pres­ +byterian or otherwise Calvinist Protestant, were accepted into the +ruling class, they usually became Episcopalians, members of an elite +church linked to the state Church of England. As we look at the +bloody deeds of the settlers in acquiring and maintaining land, the +social class context is an essential element. + +55 + + FOU R + +B L O O DY F O O TP R I N TS + +For the "first 2 0 0 years of our military heritage, then, Americans +depended on arts of war that contemporary professional soldiers +supposedly abhorred: razing and destroying enemy villages and +"fields; killing enemy women and children; raiding settlements for +captives; intimidating and brutalizing enemy noncombatants; +and assassinating enemy leaders. . . . In the frontier wars between +1 6 0 7 and 1 8 1 4 , Americans forged two elements- unlimited +war and irregular war- into their "first way of war. +-John Grenier, The First Way of War + +Within days of the assassination of Osama bin Laden, on May 2 , +201 1 , i t was revealed that the Navy SEAL team executing the mis­ +sion had used the code name Geronimo for its target. 1 A May 4 +report in the New York Daily News commented, "Along with the +unseen pictures of Osama Bin Laden's corpse and questions about +what Pakistan knew, intelligence officials' reasons for dubbing the +Al Qaeda boss 'Geronimo' remain one of the biggest mysteries of +the Black Ops mission." The choice of that code name was not a +mystery to the military, which also uses the term "Indian Coun­ +try" to designate enemy territory and identifies its killing machines +and operations with such names as UH-1 B/C Iroquois, OH- 5 8 0 +Kiowa, OV-1 Mohawk, OH- 6 Cayuse, AH-64 Apache, S - 5 8/H- 3 4 +Choctaw, UH-60 Black Hawk, Thunderbird, and Rolling Thunder. +The last of these is the military name given to the relentless carpet­ +bombing of Vietnam peasants in the mid- 19 6os. There are many +other current and recent examples of the persistence of the colonial­ +ist and imperialist sensibilities at the core of a military grounded + +56 + + Bloody Footprints + +in wars against the Indigenous nations and communities of North +America. +On February 19, 199 1 , Brigadier General Richard Neal, brief­ +ing reporters in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia, stated that the US military +wanted to be certain of speedy victory once it committed land forces +to "Indian Country." The following day, in a little-publicized state­ +ment of protest, the National Congress of American Indians pointed +out that fifteen thousand Native Americans were serving as combat +troops in the Persian Gulf. Neither Neal nor any other military au­ +thority apologized for the statement. The term "Indian Country" in +cases such as this is not merely an insensitive racial slur, tastelessly +but offhandedly employed to refer to the enemy. It is, rather, a tech­ +nical military term, like "collateral damage" or "ordnance," that +appears in military training manuals and is regularly used to mean +" behind enemy lines." It is often shortened to "In Country." This us­ +age recalls the origins and development of the US military, as well as +the nature of US political and social history as a colonialist project. +Furthermore, "Indian Country " is a legal term that identifies Native +jurisdiction under US colonial laws but is also an important tool +for Native nations to use in maintaining and expanding their land +bases in the process of decolonization. "Indian Country," the legal +term, includes not only federally recognized reservation territories, +but also informal reservations, dependent Native communities and +allotments, and specially designated lands. 2 + +R O OT S O F G E N O C I D E + +I n The First Way of War: American War Making o n the Frontier, +1 6 0 7-1814 , military historian John Grenier offers an indispensable + +analysis of the colonialist warfare against the Indigenous peoples of +the North American territories claimed by Great Britain. The way of +war largely devised and enacted by settlers formed the basis for the +founding ideology and colonialist military strategy of the indepen­ +dent United States, and this approach to war is still in force in the +twenty-first century. 3 Grenier writes that he began his study with +the goal of tracing the historical roots of the use of unlimited war + +57 + + 58 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +by the United States, war whose purpose is to destroy the will of +the enemy people or their capacity to resist, employing any means +necessary but mainly by attacking civilians and their support sys­ +tems, such as food supply. Today called " special operations" or +"low-intensity conflict," that kind of warfare was first used against +Indigenous communities by colonial militias in Virginia and Mas­ +sachusetts. These irregular forces, made up of settlers, sought to +disrupt every aspect of resistance as well as to obtain intelligence +through scouting and taking prisoners. They did so by destroying +Indigenous villages and fields and intimidating and slaughtering en­ +emy noncombatant populations. 4 +Grenier analyzes the development of the US way of war from +1 607-1 8 1 4 , during which the US military was forged, leading to +its reproduction and development into the present. US historian +Bernard Bailyn calls the period " barbarous" and a "conflict of +civilizations," but Bailyn represents the Indigenous civilization as +"marauders" that the European settlers needed to get rid of. 5 From +this formative period, Grenier argues, emerged problematic charac­ +teristics of the US way of war and thereby the characteristics of its +civilization, which few historians have come to terms with. +In the beginning, Anglo settlers organized irregular units to bru­ +tally attack and destroy unarmed Indigenous women, children, and +old people using unlimited violence in unrelenting attacks. During +nearly two centuries of British colonization, generations of settlers, +mostly farmers, gained experience as "Indian fighters" outside any +organized military institution. Anglo-French conflict may appear to +have been the dominant factor of European colonization in North +America during the eighteenth century, but while large regular +armies fought over geopolitical goals in Europe, Anglo settlers in +North America waged deadly irregular warfare against the Indig­ +enous communities . Much of the fighting during the fifteen-year +settlers' war for independence, especially in the Ohio Valley region +and western New York, was directed against Indigenous resisters +who realized it was not in their interest to have a close enemy of +settlers with an independent government, as opposed to a remote +one in Great Britain. Nor did the fledgling US military in the 1 790s +carry out operations typical of the state-centered wars occurring in + + Bloody Footprints + +Europe at the time. Even following the founding of the professional +US Army in the r 8 ros, irregular warfare was the method of the US +conquest of the Ohio Valley and Mississippi Valley regions. Since +that time, Grenier notes, irregular methods have been used in tan­ +dem with operations of regular armed forces. +The chief characteristic of irregular warfare is that of the extreme +violence against civilians, in this case the tendency to seek the utter +annihilation of the Indigenous population. "In cases where a rough +balance of power existed," Grenier observes, "and the Indians even +appeared dominant-as was the situation in virtually every frontier +war until the first decade of the 19th century- [settler] Americans +were quick to turn to extravagant violence."6 +Many historians who acknowledge the exceptional one-sided co­ +lonial violence attribute it to racism. Grenier argues that rather than +racism leading to violence, the reverse occurred: the out-of-control +momentum of extreme violence of unlimited warfare fueled race +hatred. " Successive generations of Americans, both soldiers and ci­ +vilians, made the killing of Indian men, women, and children a de­ +fining element of their first military tradition and thereby part of a +shared American identity. Indeed, only after seventeenth- and early­ +eighteenth-century Americans made the first way of war a key to be­ +ing a white American could later generations of 'Indian haters,' men +like Andrew Jackson, turn the Indian wars into race wars." By then, +the Indigenous peoples' villages, farmlands, towns, and entire na­ +tions formed the only barrier to the settlers' total freedom to acquire +land and wealth. Settler colonialists again chose their own means of +conquest. Such fighters are often viewed as courageous heroes, but +killing the unarmed women, children, and old people and burning +homes and fields involved neither courage nor sacrifice. +So it was from the planting of the first British colonies in North +America. Among the initial leaders of those ventures were military +men-mercenaries-who brought with them their previous war ex­ +periences in Britain's imperialist, anti-Muslim Crusades. Those who +put together and led the first colonial armies, such as John Smith in +Virginia, Myles Standish at Plymouth, John Mason in Connecticut, +and John Underhill in Massachusetts, had fought in the bitter, bru­ +tal, and bloody religious wars ongoing in Europe at the time of the + +59 + + 60 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +first settlements . They had long practiced burning towns and fields +and killing the unarmed and vulnerable. "Tragically for the Indian +peoples of the Eastern Seaboard," Grenier observes, "the merce­ +naries unleashed a similar way of war in early Virginia and New +England."7 + +S E T T L E R - PA R A S I T E S C R E AT E T H E V I R G I N I A C O L O N Y + +The first Jamestown settlers lacked a supply line and proved unable +or unwilling to grow crops or hunt for their own sustenance. They +decided that they would force the farmers of the Powhatan Confed­ +eracy-some thirty polities-to provide them with food. Jamestown +military leader John Smith threatened to kill all the women and +children if the Powhatan leaders would not feed and clothe the set­ +tlers as well as provide them with land and labor. The leader of the +confederacy, Wahunsonacock, entreated the invaders: +Why should you take by force that from us which you can +have by love ? Why should you destroy us, who have provided +you with food? What can you get by war? . . . What is the +cause of your jealousy? You see us unarmed, and willing to +supply your wants, if you will come in a friendly manner, and +not with swords and guns, as to invade an enemy. 8 +Smith's threat was carried out: war against the Powhatans started +in August 1 609 and the destruction of the Powhatans became the +order of the day. The war dragged on for a year until the English +governor, Thomas Gage, ordered forces mobilized by George Percy, +a mercenary who had fought in the Netherlands, "to take revenge " +and destroy the Indigenous population. In his report following the +assault, Percy gloated over the gruesome details of killing all the +children. Despite the terrorizing tactics of the settlers, the Powhat­ +ans were able to protect their grain storage buildings and force the +Jamestown settlers to shelter within their colonial fortress.9 Mean­ +while the Powhatans organized a stronger confederacy. In 1 62 2 , +they attacked a l l the English settlements along the James River, kill- + + Bloody Footprints + +ing 3 5 0-a third of the settler population. Unable to eliminate the +Indigenous population by force of arms, the colonists resorted to a +" feedfight," as Grenier identifies it-systematic destruction of all +the Indigenous agricultural resources.1 0 A dozen years later an even +greater conflict broke out, the Tidewater War ( 1 644-46). Hardly a +war, it consisted rather of settlers continuously raiding Indigenous +villages and fields with the goal of starving the people out of the +area. There followed three decades of peace, from which the set­ +tlers inferred that total war and expulsion of the Indigenous people +worked. The few Indigenous families that remained in eastern Vir­ +ginia were under the absolute dominance of the English. It was clear, +Grenier points out, that "the English would tolerate Indians within +and near their settlements provided they essentially neither saw nor +heard them."11 In the absence of Indigenous sources of food and +labor, the colonists brought in enslaved Africans and indentured +European servants to do the work. +By 1 676, the settler population of Virginia had mushroomed +and English tobacco farmers were encroaching on the lands of the +Susquehannock people. When the Susquehannocks resisted, a war +broke out that went badly for the English. In 1676, the Virginia +House of Burgesses formed a mounted force of 1 25 men to range +through a particular cluster of Indigenous villages and thereby over­ +come Susquehannock resistance. 1 2 This was the immediate back­ +ground of Bacon's Rebellion, so beloved by populist US historians +and those who search for the onset of racialized servitude in the +British colonies. The rebellion occurred when Anglo settler-farmers +along with landless indentured servants-both Anglo and African +-took into their own hands the slaughter of Indigenous farmers +with the aim of taking their land. The plantation owners who ruled +the colony were troubled, to be sure, by the interracial aspect of +the uprising. Soon after, Virginia law made greater distinction be­ +tween indentured servants and slaves and codified the permanent +status of slavery for Africans.13 The point is an important one, but +there is a larger issue. Bacon's Rebellion affected the development +of genocidal policies aimed at the Indigenous peoples-namely, the +creation of wealth in the colonies based on landholding and the use +of landless or land-poor settler-farmers as foot soldiers for moving + +61 + + 62 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +the settlement frontier deeper into Indigenous territories. 14 That the +rebellion's leader, Nathaniel Bacon, was a wealthy planter reveals +the relationship between the wealthy landed settlers and the poorer, +often landless, settlers . Historian Eric Foner rightly concludes that +the rebellion was a power play by Bacon against the Virginia gov­ +ernor William Berkeley and his planter allies, as Bacon's financial +backers included other wealthy planters opposed to Berkeley. 15 + +I N T H E N A M E OF G O D + +What transpired up the coast i n the founding and growth of the +New England colony was different, at least at first. Just before the +1 620 landing of the Mayflower, smallpox had spread from English +trading ships off the coast to the Pequot fishing and farming com­ +munities on land, greatly reducing the population of the area the +Plymouth Colony would occupy. King James attributed the epidemic +to God's "great goodness and bounty toward us." 1 6 Consequently, +those who survived in the Indigenous communities had little means +to immediately resist the settlers' expropriation of their lands and +resources. Sixteen years later, however, the Indigenous villages had +recovered and were considered a barrier to the settlers moving into +Pequot territory in Connecticut. A single violent incident triggered +a devastating Puritan war against the Pequots in what the colony's +annals and subsequent history texts call the Pequot War. +The Puritan settlers, as if by instinct, jumped immediately into a +hideous war of annihilation, entering Indigenous villages and kill­ +ing women and children or taking them hostage . The Pequots re­ +sponded by attacking English settlements, including Fort Saybrook +in Connecticut. Connecticut authorities commissioned mercenary +John Mason to lead a force of soldiers from that colony and Mas­ +sachusetts to one of the two Pequot strongholds on the Mystic River. +Pequot fighters occupied one of the forts, while the other one con­ +tained only women, children, and old men. The latter was the one +John Mason targeted. Slaughter ensued. After killing most of the +Pequot defenders, the soldiers set fire to the structures and burned +the remaining inhabitants alive . 17 + + Bloody Footprints + +This kind of war was alien to the Indigenous peoples.18 Accord­ +ing to their ways of war, when relations between groups broke down +and conflict came, warfare was highly ritualized, with quests for +individual glory, resulting in few deaths . Colonial wars inevitably +drew other Indigenous communities in on one side or the other. Dur­ +ing the Pequot War, neighboring Narragansett villages allied with +the Puritans in hopes of reaping a large harvest of captives, booty, +and glory. But after the carnage was done, the Narragansetts left the +Puritan side in disgust, saying that the English were "too furious" +and "slay[ed] too many men." After having made the Pequots the en­ +emy, the settlers set out to complete the destruction. Fewer than two +hundred half-starved Pequots remained of the two thousand at the +beginning of the war. Although they had ceased fighting and were +without any means of defense, the settlers started a new attack on +the Pequots. The colony commissioned the mercenary Mason and +his murderous crew of forty men to burn the few remaining homes +and fields. 1 9 Puritan William Bradford wrote at the time in his His­ + +tory of Plymouth Plantation: +Those that scaped the fire were slaine with the sword; some +hewed to peeces, others rune throw with their rapiers, so as +they were quickly dispatchte, and very few escaped. It was +conceived they thus destroyed about 400 at this time. It was a +fearful sight to see them thus frying in the fyer, and the streams +of blood quenching the same, and horrible was the stincke and +sente there of, but the victory seemed a sweete sacrifice, and +they gave the prayers thereof to God, who had wrought so +wonderfully for them, thus to inclose their enemise in their +hands, and give them so speedy a victory over so proud and +insulting an enimie. 20 +The other Indigenous nations of the region assessed what was in +store for them and accepted tributary status under the colonial au­ +thority. +During the late seventeenth century, Anglo settlers in New En­ +gland began the routine practice of scalp hunting and what Gre­ +nier identifies as "ranging"-the use of settler-ranger forces . By + +63 + + 64 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +that time, the non-Indigenous population of the English colony in +North America had increased sixfold, to more than 1 5 0,000, which +meant that settlers were intruding on more of the Indigenous home­ +lands. Indigenous resistance followed in what the settlers called +King Philip's War. 21 Wampanoag people and their Indigenous al­ +lies attacked the settlers' isolated farms, using a method of guerrilla +warfare that relied on speed and caution in striking and retreating. +The settlers scorned this kind of resistance as "skulking," and re­ +sponded by destroying Indigenous villages-again extirpation. But +Indigenous guerrilla attacks continued, and so the commander of +the Plymouth militia, Benjamin Church, studied Indigenous tactics +in order to develop a more effective kind of preemption. He peti­ +tioned the colony's governor for permission to choose sixty to sev­ +enty settlers to serve as scouts, as he called them, for what he termed +"wilderness warfare." In July 1 676, the first settler-organized ranger +force was the result. The rangers-60 settlers and 140 colonized In­ +digenous men-were to "discover, pursue, fight, surprise, destroy, or +subdue" the enemy, in Church's words. The inclusion of Indigenous +fighters on the colonists' side has marked settler colonialism and for­ +eign occupations ever since. 22 The settler-rangers could learn from +their Native aides, then discard them. In the following two decades, +Church perfected his evolving method of annihilation. + +"REDSKINS" + +Indigenous people continued to resist by burning settlements and +killing and capturing settlers. As an incentive to recruit fighters, +colonial authorities introduced a program of scalp hunting that +became a permanent and long-lasting element of settler warfare +against Indigenous nations. 23 During the Pequot War, Connecticut +and Massachusetts colonial officials had offered bounties initially +for the heads of murdered Indigenous people and later for only their +scalps, which were more portable in large numbers. But scalp hunt­ +ing became routine only in the mid- 1 67os, following an incident +on the northern frontier of the Massachusetts colony. The practice +began in earnest in 1 69 7 when settler Hannah Dustin, having mur- + + Bloody Footprints + +dered ten of her Abenaki captors in a nighttime escape, presented +their ten scalps to the Massachusetts General Assembly and was re­ +warded with bounties for two men, two women, and six children. 24 +D ustin soon became a folk hero among New England settlers. +Scalp hunting became a lucrative commercial practice. The settler +authorities had hit upon a way to encourage settlers to take off on +their own or with a few others to gather scalps, at random, for the +reward money. "In the process," John Grenier points out, "they +established the large-scale privatization of war within American +frontier communities."25 Although the colonial government in time +raised the bounty for adult male scalps, lowered that for adult fe­ +males, and eliminated that for Indigenous children under ten, the +age and gender of victims were not easily distinguished by their +scalps nor checked carefully. What is more, the scalp hunter could +take the children captive and sell them into slavery. These practices +erased any remaining distinction between Indigenous combatants +and noncombatants and introduced a market for Indigenous slaves. +Bounties for Indigenous scalps were honored even in absence of war. +Scalps and Indigenous children became means of exchange, cur­ +rency, and this development may even have created a black market. +Scalp huntin g was not only a profitable privatized enterprise but +also a means to eradicate or subj ugate the Indigenous population of +the Anglo-American Atlantic seaboard. 26 The settlers gave a name +to the mutilated and bloody corpses they left in the wake of scalp­ +hunts: redskins. +This way of war, forged in the first century of colonization­ +destroying Indigenous villages and fields, killing civilians, ranging, +and scalp hunting-became the basis for the wars against the Indig­ +enous across the continent into the late nineteenth century. 27 + +C O L O N I A L E X PA N S I O N + +Having cleared the Indigenous populations from much of the coastal +region from New England to the Carolinas, another wave of settlers +employed the same kind of warfare in establishing the colony of +Georgia beginning in 1 73 2 . Technically, it was the part of Spanish- + +65 + + 66 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +occupied Florida called Guale. From the time the first settlers squat­ +ted on Indigenous land in Georgia, rangers were in the forefront of +ethnic cleansing, clearing the region for British settlement. Briga­ +dier General James Oglethorpe, commander in chief of the Georgia +colony, tried but failed to turn his own small regular army into rang­ +ers, so he commissioned Hugh Mackay Jr. to organize the regulars +into a Highland ranger force. A settler agent for the Georgia colony, +Mackay was a former British army officer and a Scots Highlander. +The Highlanders were reputed to be tough, fearless fighters-in +other words, brutal killers. h was unusual at the time to put a local +militia officer in command of army regulars.28 +The Indigenous population of Georgia consisted primarily of the +Cherokee Nation. The colonizers realized it would be impossible to +persuade the Cherokees to accept or defend Georgia settlers if war +broke out between Britain and Spain over British encroachment into +Spanish Guale. Traders from Carolina had already brought small­ +pox and rum to the Cherokees, which had killed many in their vil­ +lages and made them suspicious of all English people. Oglethorpe +himself visited Cherokee towns but was rebuffed. Meanwhile Span­ +ish agents were also trying to win over the Cherokees to fight on +their side against the British. In the fall of 1 7 3 9 , on the verge of +war, Oglethorpe won commitment from some Cherokee villages in +exchange for corn, but he was aware that, like other Indigenous na­ +tions, the Cherokees would likely play one colonial power against +the other for their own interests and could change sides at any mo­ +ment. In December, English invasion farther into Spanish territory +began. Anglo and Scots rangers and their Indigenous allies destroyed +Spanish plantations and intimidated the Maroon communities in +northern Florida composed of local Indigenous families and escaped +African slaves from the British colonies. The rangers sacked and +looted, burned and pillaged, while hunting scalps of Spanish-allied +Indigenous people and runaway slaves. Lasting nearly a month, the +operations ravaged Florida, in part because the Spanish put up little +fight. During the 1 740s, the British War Office and Parliament com­ +missioned two companies of colonial rangers and authorized more +than a hundred men for full-time duty in the Highland Rangers in +Georgia. 29 Ranging, looting, and scalp hunting continued. + + Bloody Footprints + +WA R T H AT T U R N S T H E T I D E + +The decade leading up to the outbreak of the French and Indian +War ( 1 754-63), known in Europe as the Seven Years" War, saw con­ +flict on the British-French frontiers in New England, New York, +and Nova Scotia, all of which were well populated with Indigenous +villages of various nations as well as French settlers called Acadi­ +ans. 30 A clash of interests among British settlers, Indigenous com­ +munities, and Acadians in the region of the present-day Canadian +Maritime Provinces led to a four-year conflict that the British called +King George's War. Although Britain had gained nominal posses­ +sion of Nova Scotia, it could not control the population of Acadians +and the mixed communities of intermarried Acadians and Mi'kmaq +and Malisset people. The Acadian-Indigenous villages insisted +on neutrality in the British and French disputes, and the power­ +ful Haudenosaunee confederacy supported them in that stance. But +British imperialists wanted the land, and they permitted Anglo­ +American settlers to play a prominent role in the fighting, which +included ranging and scalp hunting. By the end of the war, settler­ +rangers dominated the British military presence in Nova Scotia , +setting off sustained Acadian-Indigenous resistance against British +rule. 31 +At the outbreak of the French and Indian War, while the Brit­ +ish regular army and navy focused on French imperial positions in +the Maritimes, the settler militia forces continued ranging against +the Acadian-Indigenous villages, which led to an expulsion of the +Acadians, sometimes known today as the Great Upheaval. In a pe­ +riod of weeks, British army forces and colonial militias forced four +thousand noncombatants out of Nova Scotia, and at least half that +number died in the Acadian diaspora . Some eight thousand escaped +deportation by fleeing into the woods. The Acadians thus became +the largest population of European settlers in North American +history to be forcibly dispersed. This feat was accomplished with +slaughter, intimidation, and plunder. By this time, there was no hesi­ +tation on the part of Anglo settlers to consider unarmed civilians of +all ages as appropriate targets of violence. +Major General Jeffery Amherst-after whom Amherst, Mas- + +67 + + 68 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +sachusetts is named-commanded the British army in the North +American theater of the Seven Years' War. In 1 75 9 , Amherst ap­ +pointed Major Robert Rogers, the seasoned leader of New England's +Rogers's Rangers and perhaps the most famous and admired ranger +in frontier lore, to lead a force of settler-rangers, British volunteers, +and allied Stockbridge Indigenous scouts-all to be handpicked by +Rogers. Amherst ordered them to attack a resistant Abenaki village +in the St. Lawrence River Valley. Although Amherst ordered Rogers +not to allow torture or killing of women or children, the commander +would have known about these rangers' reputation of sparing no +one in their blood-drenched raids on Indigenous villages. In com­ +missioning Rogers, Amherst effectively sanctioned settler-ranger +counterinsurgent warfare. In general, the British military not only +tolerated but made use of the settlers' dirty war, in the Cherokee +war, the subsequent French and Indian War, and in the effort to +crush Pontiac's Rebellion of 1 763 , in which Amherst is best known +for his support of using germ warfare against Indigenous people. 32 +" Could it not be contrived," Amherst wrote to a subordinate officer, +"to Send the Small Pox among those Disaffected Tribes of Indians ? +We must, on this occasion, Use Every Stratagem in our power to +Reduce them." The colonel promised to do his best. 33 Amherst then +gave orders "to bring them [Pontiac's forces and allies] to a proper +Subjection" until "there was not an Indian Settlement within a thou­ +sand Miles of our Country."34 +In the southern part of the French and Indian War, the British in +1 760 found their war-making capacity overwhelmed by the Chero­ +kee Nation. So here too they turned to rangers. In the spring, when +the Cherokee Nation challenged British authority, Amherst rushed +regular regiments to Charleston under the command of Colonel Ar­ +chibald Montgomery with orders to punish the Cherokees as quickly +as possible so the soldiers could return north and j oin in the im­ +minent attack on Montreal. In previous wars against Indigenous +nations, British commanders had assigned ranger groups specific +missions, but in the Cherokee war, the British military forces, in­ +cluding regulars, would target noncombatants. A few months ear­ +lier, the North Carolina governor had conjured the strategy that +would be used: + + Bloody Footprints + +69 + +In Case a War must be proclaimed, the three Southern Prov­ +inces of Virginia and the Carolinas should exert their whole +force, enter into and destroy all the [Cherokee] Towns of those +at War with us, and make as many of them as we should take +their Wives and Children Slaves, by sending them to the Islands +[West Indies] if above I O years old . . . and to allow IO lbs ster­ +ling for every prisoner taken and delivered in each Province. 35 +This was the plan adopted. Commander Montgomery was well +aware that even with irregular warfare the military could not defeat +the Cherokees in their own country and that he would need set­ +tlers and Indigenous allies serving as scouts and guides. He added to +his troop strength three hundred settler-rangers, forty local militia +members, and fifty Catawba allies. The Cherokee Nation had not +succeeded in forming a confederation with the Muskogees or Chick­ +asaws, so their villages were vulnerable. The first target was the au­ +tonomous Cherokee town of Estatoe, comprising some two hundred +homes and two thousand people. Montgomery's forces set all the +homes and buildings afire, picking off individuals who tried to flee, +while others who hid inside were burned alive. One after another, +towns were set ablaze until the Cherokees organized a resistance +strong enough to drive out the attackers. The British claimed to have +crushed Cherokee resistance, but they had not, and the Cherokees +laid siege to British forts . A year later, British forces struck again, this +time even harder, and overwhelmed the Cherokees in their capital of +Etchoe and destroyed it. The British then moved on to the other Cher­ +okee towns, burning them too. D uring the month-long, one-sided +battle of annihilation, the British razed fifteen towns and burned +fourteen hundred acres of corn. Five thousand Cherokees were made +homeless refugees, and the number of deaths remained uncounted. 36 +Another weapon of war was alcohol, accelerating in the eigh­ +teenth century. In 1754, a Catawba leader known as King Hagler by +English colonists petitioned the North Carolina authorities: +Brothers, here is one thing you yourselves are to blame very +much in; that is you rot your grain in tubs, out of which you +take and make strong spirits. + + 70 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +You sell it to our young men and give it [to] them, many +times; they get very drunk with it [and] this is the very cause +that they oftentimes commit those crimes that is offensive to +you and us and all through the effect of that drink. It is also +very bad for our people, for it rots their guts and causes our +men to get very sick and many of our people has lately died by +the effects of that strong drink, and I heartily wish you would +do something to prevent your people from daring to sell or +give them any of that strong drink, upon any consideration +whatever, for that will be a great means of our being free from +being accused of those crimes that is committed by our young +men and will prevent many of the abuses that is done by them +through the effect of that strong drink. 37 +King Hagler continued to petition for years for an embargo on liquor +without succeeding. +Britain's victory at the end of the French and Indian War in 1 763 +led to English domination of world trade, sea power, and colonial +holdings for a century and a half.38 In the Treaty of Paris ( 1 763) +France ceded Canada and all claims east of the Mississippi to Brit­ +ain. In the course of the war, Anglo settlers had gained strength in +numbers and security in relation to Indigenous peoples just outside +the British-occupied colonies. Even there, significant numbers of set­ +tlers had squatted on Indigenous lands beyond the colonies' putative +boundaries, reaching into the Ohio Valley region. To the settlers' +dismay, soon after the Treaty of Paris was signed, King George III +issued a proclamation that prohibited British settlement west of the +Allegheny-Appalachian mountain ? arrier, ordering those who had +settled there to relinquish their claims and move back east of the +line. However, British authorities did not commit enough troops to +the frontier to enforce the edict effectively. As a result, thousands +more settlers poured over the mountains and squatted on Indig­ +enous lands. +By the early 1 770s, terror against Indigenous people on the part +of Anglo settlers increased in all the colonies, and speculation in +western lands was rampant. In the southern colonies especially, +farmers who had lost their land in competition with larger, more + + Bloody Footprints + +efficient, slave-worked plantations rushed for western land. These +settler-farmers thus set, as Grenier writes, "a prefigurative pattern +of U. S . annexation and colonization of Indigenous nations across +the continent for the following century: a vanguard of farmer­ +settlers led by seasoned 'Indian fighters,' calling on authorities/ +militias of the British colonies, first, and the U.S. government/army +later, to defend their settlements, forming the core dynamic of U. S . +'democracy."'39 +The French and Indian War would later be seen as the trigger +for independence of the settler population, in which the distinctly +"American" nation was born. This mythology was expressed in the +1 8 2 6 novel The Last of the Mahicans: A Narrative of 1 75 7, in which +the author-land speculator James Fenimore Cooper-created a us­ +able settler-colonial history. Blockbuster Hollywood adaptations of +the book in 193 2 and 1992 reinforced the mythology. But the 1940 +film, based on the best-selling novel Northwest Passage, which is +considered a classic and remains popular due to repeated television +showings, goes even further in portraying the bloodthirsty merce­ +naries, Rogers's Rangers, as heroes for their annihilation of a village +of Abenakis. 40 + +T H E O H I O CO U N T RY + +The settlers' war for independence from Britain paralleled a decade +of " Indian wars" ( 1 774-83), all with settler-rangers using extreme +violence against Indigenous noncombatants with the goals of total +subjugation or expulsion. The British governor of Virginia, John +Murray, the Fourth Earl of Dunmore, sided with British settlers who +wanted land in the Ohio Country (in part because he was himself a +land speculator) . In his view, no royal policy could prevent settlers' +seizure of Indigenous land. In early 1 774 , the Shawnee Nation in the +Ohio Valley region responded to settler encroachment on its farm­ +lands and hunting grounds by raiding illicit settlements and chasing +out land surveyors. The settlers seem to have been waiting for just +such an excuse to retaliate viciously. Dunmore commissioned 1 5 0 +Virginia settler-rangers t o destroy Shawnee towns, and h e mobilized + +71 + + 72 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +the Virginia militia to invade the Ohio Valley and to "proceed di­ +rectly to their Towns, and if possible destroy their Towns and maga­ +zines and distress them in every other way that is possible."41 +During "Lord Dunmore's War," Shawnees and other Indigenous +peoples in what the Anglo separatists would soon call the Northwest +Territory realized that they were in a life-or-death struggle with these +murdering bands of settlers who were led by a wealthy land specula­ +tor, intent on destroying their nation and wiping them from the face +of the earth. This realization led to another recurrent factor in the +onslaught of European colonial ventures: the appearance of an ac­ +commodationist faction within the Shawnee Nation that accepted a +humiliating peace agreement. Dunmore demanded all the Shawnee +hunting grounds in what would later become, following US indepen­ +dence, the state of Kentucky.42 Although Virginia did not get all the +land Dunmore demanded, Dunmore's War was only the beginning +of a three-decade war against the Shawnee Nation and its allies. +That alliance was led militarily in its resistance by the great Tecum­ +seh, born in 1 76 8 , who had grown up in the midst of unrelenting +warfare against his people, along with his brother, Tenskwatawa, +also known as the Prophet and the movement's spiritual leader.43 +Dunmore's War pushed the Shawnees into an alliance with the +British against the separatists in 1777· Indigenous warriors struck +scattered squatter settlements throughout the Upper Ohio Valley +region, driving hundreds of settlers from Shawnee territory. But the +tide of war between the British and the separatists turned, allow­ +ing the Continental Congress to focus on the Ohio Country and +organize an offensive to annihilate the Shawnee Nation. Five hun­ +dred separatist fighters, composed of both militiamen and regu­ +lars, waged a genocidal war. Rampaging against combatants and +noncombatants alike, the ranger force fell on the staunchly neu­ +tral towns of the Delaware Nation, torturing and killing women +and children. In one particularly twisted incident, the settler troops +slaughtered a Delaware boy who had been bird hunting alone. A +near-riot ensued among the troops over who had the right to claim +the "honor" of the kill. The Continental Congress sent a thousand +more fighters with orders to "proceed, without delay, to destroy such +towns of hostile tribes of Indians as he [Brigadier General Lachlan + + Bloody Footprints + +Mcintosh] in his discretion shall think will most effectually chastise +and terrify the savages, and check their ravages on the frontiers ." +The Shawnees moved out of the way of the raiders to avoid the at­ +tacks, but the killing went on unabated. 44 +The settlers' escalation of extreme violence in the Ohio Country +led to perhaps the most outrageous war crime, which showed that +Indigenous conversion to Christianity and pacifism was no protec­ +tion from genocide. Moravian missionizing among the ravaged Del­ +aware communities in Pennsylvania had produced three Moravian +Indian villages in the decades before the war for independence had +begun. Residents of one of the settlements, named Gnadenhutten, in +eastern Ohio, were displaced by British troops during fighting in the +area, but were able to return to harvest their corn. Soon afterward, +in March 1 7 8 2 , a settler militia from Pennsylvania under the com­ +mand of David Williamson appeared and rounded up the Delawares, +telling them they had to evacuate for their own safety. There were +forty-two men, twenty women, and thirty-four children in the group +of Delawares. The militiamen searched their belongings to confis­ +cate anything that could be used as a weapon, then announced that +they were all to be killed, accusing them of having given refuge to +Delawares who had killed white people. They were also accused of +stealing the household items and tools they possessed, because such +items should only belong to white people. Condemned to death, the +Delawares spent the night praying and singing hymns. In the morn­ +ing, Williamson's men marched over ninety people in pairs into two +houses and methodically slaughtered them. One killer bragged that +he personally had bludgeoned fourteen victims with a cooper's mal­ +let, which he had then handed to an accomplice. "My arm fails me," +he was said to have announced. " Go on with the work."45 This ac­ +tion set a new bar for violence, and atrocities that followed routinely +surpassed even that atrocity.4 6 +A year earlier, the Delaware leader Buckongeahelas had addressed +a group of Christianized Delawares, saying that he had known some +good white men, but that the good ones were a small number: +They do what they please. They enslave those who are not of +their color, although created by the same Great Spirit who + +73 + + 74 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +created us. They would make slaves of us if they could, but as +they cannot do it, they kill us. There is no faith to be placed +in their words. They are not like the Indians, who are only en­ +emies while at war, and are friends in peace. They will say to +an Indian: "My friend, my brother." They will take him by the +hand, and at the same moment destroy him. And so you will +also be treated by them before long. Remember that this day +I have warned you to beware of such friends as these. I know +the long knives; they are not to be trusted.47 + +H OW T H E S E TT L E R S W O N I N D E P E N D E N C E + +Both the British and their settler separatist opponents realized that +the key to victory on the southern frontier of the thirteen colonies +was an alliance with the Cherokee Nation. Despite constant attacks +on its villages and crops, and with refugees and disease, the enor­ +mous Cherokee Nation remained intact with a well-functioning +government. To win the Cherokees to their side, British authorities +provided weaponry and money to Cherokee towns while separat­ +ist representatives tried to persuade the towns to remain neutral by +threatening their complete destruction. Neutrality was the most the +settlers could hope for. The settlers' viciousness toward Indigenous +people caused them to be despised and spurred some Cherokees to +take sides against them. A few Cherokee towns that had been hit +hardest by settler-rangers responded by attacking squatter settle­ +ments, destroying several in the Carolinas in 1776. Following such +attacks, separatists quickly announced their determination to de­ +stroy the Cherokee Nation. The North Carolina delegation to the +Continental Congress declared, "The gross infernal breach of faith +which they [the Cherokees] have been guilty of shuts them out from +every pretension to mercy, and it is surely the policy of the Southern +Colonies to carry fire and Sword into the very bowels of their coun­ +try and sink them so low that they may never be able again to rise +and disturb the peace of their Neighbors."48 +In the summer and fall of 1776, more than five thousand set­ +tler-rangers from Virginia, Georgia, and North and South Carolina + + Bloody Footprints + +stormed through Cherokee territory.49 William Henry Drayton, a +leader of the Anglo separatists from Charleston, had met with the +Cherokees in 1 775 . After the Cherokee attack that prompted the +separatists' 1776 scorched-earth campaign, he recommended that +"the nation be extirpated, and the lands become the property of the +public. For my part, I shall never give my voice for a peace with the +Cherokee Nation upon any other terms than their removal beyond +the mountains."5 0 As Cherokees fled, abandoning their towns and +fields, the soldiers seized, killed, and scalped women and children, +taking no prisoners. 51 +In mid-1780, eighty Virginia separatist settler-rangers attacked +the Shawnees in southern Ohio and spent a month destroying and +looting their towns and fields. At the same time, the Cherokee Nation +regained momentum in its resistance, raiding squatters' settlements +within its territory. In retaliation, North Carolina sent five hundred +mounted rangers to burn Cherokee towns, with orders to "chas­ +tise that nation and reduce them to obedience." During the win­ +ter of 1 7 8 0 - 8 1 , the separatist seven-hundred-man Virginia militia +wreaked destruction again in the Cherokee Nation. On Christmas +Day, the militia commander wrote to Thomas Jefferson, then a Vir­ +ginia delegate to the Continental Congress, that a detachment had +"surprised a party of Indians, [and taken] one scalp, and Seventeen +Horses loaded with clothing and skins and House furnishings"-a +clear sign that these were noncombatant refugees trying to flee. The +commander also reported that his forces had thus far destroyed the +principal Cherokee towns of Chote, Scittigo, Chilhowee Togue, Mi­ +cliqua, Kai-a-tee, Sattoogo, Telico, Hiwassee, and Chistowee, along +with several smaller villages. +All told, more than a thousand homes had been laid waste, and +some fifty thousand bushels of corn and other provisions either +burned or looted.52 At this point, the Virginia and North Carolina +separatist authorities pooled their manpower and materiel and orga­ +nized a force that effected a broad sweep of annihilation through the +Cherokee towns, driving residents out into present-day middle Ten­ +nessee and northern Alabama, where they exterminated Indigenous +families and burned down the towns in that area too. +Throughout the war between separatist settlers and the forces of + +75 + + 76 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +the monarchy, armed settlers waged total war against Indigenous +people, largely realizing their objectives. The Cherokees were forced +to accept tributary status, yet the attacks continued. It would take +nearly a half century after US independence was won to forcibly +remove the Cherokee Nation from the South, but the effort was un­ +relenting. For the settlers squatting on Indigenous lands across the +1 763 Proclamation Line of King George III, the wars waged by set­ +tlers during the war of independence were a continuation of those +their ancestors and other predecessors had waged since the early +seventeenth century. Some historians portray the British as the or­ +ganizers of Indigenous resistance during this period. The separatist +colonial oligarchy that drew up the Declaration of Independence +in 1 776 certainly took that view. Yet, as Grenier points out, the +Indigenous people were well aware that negotiating with a faraway +empire would yield much better outcomes than would dealing with +the government of extermination-minded settlers. 53 + +T H E H AU D E N OSAU N E E + +O n the western edge of the colony of New York, a s i n the southern +colonies, settlers were invading and squatting on the territory of the +Haudenosaunee (Six Nations Iroquois) by the mid- 1 77os. As with +the Cherokee Nation, the British and the separatists knew that the +Haudenosaunee would be an important factor in their war, and, as +with the Cherokee Nation, both parties sent representatives to the +Haudenosaunee councils to appeal for their support. Each member +nation of the confederacy had its own specific interests because each +had had different experiences in the previous century and a half of +British and French intrusion. Much of the French and Indian War +had been fought in their territories, with Indigenous people doing +most of the actual fighting on both sides. In 1 775 , the Mohawk Na­ +tion allied with the British against the separatist settlers . The Sen­ +eca Nation had early on considered the British to be an intractable +enemy but with the separatist war looming was more afraid of the +settlers, and so the Senecas followed the Mohawks' lead into a Brit­ +ish alliance. The Cayuga, Tuscarora, and Onondaga Nations did not + + Bloody Footprints + +choose sides. Only the Christianized Oneidas conceded support for +the separatist settlers. +In response to the decisions by five of the Iroquois Nations, Gen­ +eral George Washington wrote instructions to Major General John +Sullivan to take peremptory action against the Haudenosaunee, "to +lay waste all the settlements around . . . that the country may not be +merely overrun but destroyed . . . . [Y]ou will not by any means, lis­ +ten to any overture of peace before the total ruin of their settlements +is effected . . . . Our future security will be in their inability to injure +us . . . and in the terror with which the severity of the chastisement +they receive will inspire them." Sullivan replied, "The Indians shall +see t h at there is malice enough in our hearts to destroy everything +that contributes to their support."54 +By 1 779 , the Continental Congress had decided to start with the +Senecas. Three armies were mustered to scorch the earth across New +York and converge at Tioga, the principal Seneca town, in what +is now northern Pennsylvania. Their orders were to wipe out the +Senecas and any other Indigenous nation that opposed their sepa­ +ratist project, burning and looting all the villages, destroying the +food supply, and turning the inhabitants into homeless refugees. The +separatist governments of the New York and Pennsylvania colonies +offered rangers for the project, and, as an incentive for enlistment, +the Pennsylvania assembly authorized a bounty on Seneca scalps, +without regard to sex or age. This combination of Continental Army +regulars, settler-rangers, and commercial scalp hunters ravaged +most of Seneca territory. +With the Iroquois Confederacy disunited regarding the war, the +Continental Army forces were practically unimpeded in their tri­ +umphal and deadly march. In another scenario typically resulting +from European and Anglo-American colonialism and neocolonial­ +ism, civil war erupted within the Iroquois Confederacy itself, with +Mohawks destroying Oneida villages. The Oneidas could no longer +give their separatist allies intelligence. "By 1 7 8 1 ," Grenier observes, +"after three seasons of the Indian war, New York's frontier had be­ +come a no-man's-land."55 + +77 + + FIVE + +THE B I R TH O F A N AT I O N + +Our nation was born in genocide . . . . We are perhaps +the only nation which tried as a matter of national +policy to wipe out its indigenous population. Moreover, +we elevated that tragic experience into a noble crusade. +Indeed, even today we have not permitted ourselves +to reject or feel remorse for this shameful episode. +-Martin Luther King Jr. + +The British withdrew from the fight to maintain their thirteen +colonies in 1 7 8 3 , in order to redirect their resources to the conquest +of South Asia. The British East India Company had been operat­ +ing in the subcontinent since 1600 in a project parallel to Britain's +colonization of the North American Atlantic Coast. Britain's trans­ +fer to the United States of its claim to the Ohio Country spelled +a nightmarish disaster for all Indigenous peoples east of the Mis­ +sissippi. Britain's withdrawal in 1 7 8 3 did not end military actions +against Indigenous peoples but rather was a prelude to unrestrained +violent colonization of the continent. In negotiations to end the +war, Britain did not insist on consideration for the Indigenous na­ +tions that resisted the settlers' war of secession. In the resulting 1 7 8 3 +Treaty o f Paris, the Crown transferred t o the United States owner­ +ship of all its territory south of the Great Lakes, from the Mississippi +to the Atlantic, and north of Spanish-occupied Florida. Muskogee +Creek leader Alexander McGillivray expressed the general Indig­ +enous view: "To find ourselves and country betrayed to our enemies +and divided between the Spaniards and Americans is cruel and un­ +generous."1 + +78 + + The Birth of a Nation + +T H E N EW O R D E R + +Wars continued for another century, unrelentingly and without +pause, and the march across the continent used the same strategy +and tactics of scorched earth and annihilation with increasingly +deadly firepower. Somehow, even "genocide" seems an inadequate +description for what happened, yet rather than viewing it with hor­ +ror, most Americans have conceived of it as their country's manifest +destiny. +With the consolidation of the new state, the United States of +America, by 1 790, the opportunity for Indigenous nations to negoti­ +ate alliances with competing European empires against the despised +settlers who intended to destroy them was greatly narrowed. Nev­ +ertheless, Indigenous nations had defied the founding of the inde­ +pendent United States in a manner that allowed for their survival +and created a legacy-a culture of resistance-that has persisted. By +the time of the birth of the US republic, Indigenous peoples in what +is now the continental United States had been resisting European +colonization for two centuries. They had no choice given the aspira­ +tions of the colonizers: total elimination of Native nations or sur­ +vival. Precolonial Indigenous societies were dynamic social systems +with adaptation built into them. Fighting for survival did not require +cultural abandonment. On the contrary, the cultures used already +existing strengths, such as diplomacy and mobility, to develop new +mechanisms required to live in nearly constant crisis. There is always +a hard core of resistance in that process, but the culture of resistance +also includes accommodations to the colonizing social order, includ­ +ing absorbing Christianity into already existing religious practices, +using the colonizer's language, and intermarrying with settlers and, +more importantly, with other oppressed groups, such as escaped Af­ +rican slaves. Without the culture of resistance, surviving Indigenous +peoples under US colonization would have been eliminated through +individual assimilation. +A new element was added in the independent Anglo-American le­ +gal regime: treaty making. The US Constitution specifically refers to +Indigenous nations only once, but significantly, in Article r, Section + +79 + + 80 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +8 : " [Congress shall have Power] to regulate Commerce with foreign +Nations and among the several States, and with the Indian Tribes." +In the federal system in which all powers not specifically reserved for +the federal government go to the states, relations with Indigenous +nations are unequivocally a federal matter. +Although not mentioned as such, Native peoples are implied in +the Second Amendment. Male settlers had been required in the +colonies to serve in militias during their lifetimes for the purpose +of raiding and razing Indigenous communities, the southern colo­ +nies included, and later states' militias were used as "slave patrols." +The Second Amendment, ratified in 1 79 1 , enshrined these irregular +forces into law: "A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the se­ +curity of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, +shall not be infringed." The continuing significance of that "free­ +dom" specified in the Bill of Rights reveals the settler-colonialist +cultural roots of the United States that appear even in the present as +a sacred right. 2 +US genocidal wars against Indigenous nations continued un­ +abated in the 1 790s and were woven into the very fabric of the new +nation-state. The fears, aspirations, and greed of Anglo-American +settlers on the borders of Indigenous territories perpetuated this +warfare and influenced the formation of the US Army, much as the +demands and actions of backcountry settlers had shaped the co­ +lonial militias in North America. Owners of large, slave-worked +plantations sought to expand their landholdings while small farm +owners who were unable to compete with the planters and were +pushea off their land now desperately sought cheap land to support +their families. The interests of both settler groups were in tension +with those of state and military authorities who sought to build a +new professional military based on Washington's army. Just as the +US government and its army were taking form, a number of settle­ +ments on the peripheries of Indigenous nations threatened to secede, +prompting the army to make rapid expansion into Indigenous terri­ +tories a top priority. Brutal counterinsurgency warfare would be the +key to the army's destruction of the Indigenous peoples' civilization +in the Ohio Country and the rest of what was then called the North­ +west over the first quarter-century of US independence. 3 + + The Birth of a Nation + +T O TA L WA R I N O H I O S E T S T H E S TA G E + +The first Washington administration was consumed by the crisis +engendered by its inability to quickly conquer and colonize the Ohio +Country over which it claimed sovereignty.4 D uring the Confedera­ +tion period, before the US Constitution was written and ratified, the +Indigenous nations in that region had access to a constant supply +of British arms and had formed effective political and military al­ +liances, the first of them forged by Mohawk leader Joseph Brant +during the 1 7 8 0s . Washington's administration determined that +only war, not diplomacy, would break up the Indigenous alliances . +Secretary of War Henry Knox told the army commander of Fort +Washington (where Cincinnati is today) that "to extend a defensive +and efficient protection to so extensive a frontier, against solitary, +or small parties of enterprising savages, seems altogether impos­ +sible. No other remedy remains, but to extirpate, utterly, if possible, +the said Banditti."5 These orders could not be implemented with a +conventional army engaged in regular warfare. Although federal of­ +ficers commanded the army, the fighters were nearly all drawn from +militias made up primarily of squatter settlers from Kentucky. They +were unaccustomed to army discipline but fearless and willing to +kill to get a piece of land to grab or some scalps for bounty. +The army found the Miami vil lages they planned to attack +already deserted, so they set up a base in one of the villages and +waited for a Miami assault. But the assault was not forthcoming. +When the commander sent out small units to find the Miamis, +these search-and- destroy missions were ambushed and sent flee­ +ing by allied Miamis and Shawnees under the leadership of Little +Turtle (Meshekinnoqquah) and Blue Jacket (Weyapiersenwah). The +deserted towns had been bait to lure the invaders into ambushes. +The commander reported to the War Department that his forces +had burned three hundred buildings and destroyed twenty thousand +bushels of corn . Those were likely facts, but his claim to have bro ­ +ken up the Indigenous political and military organization was not +accurate. Knox apparently knew that more than food and property +destruction would be needed to quell resistance. He ordered the +commanders to recruit five hundred weathered Kentucky mounted + +81 + + 82 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +rangers to burn and loot Miami towns and fields along the Wabash +River. They were to capture women and children as hostages to use +as terms of surrender. +In carrying out these orders, the marauding rangers demonstrated +what they could accomplish with unmitigated violence and a total +lack of scruples and respect for noncombatants. They destroyed the +Miamis' two largest towns and took forty-one women and children +captive, then sent warnings to the other towns that the same would +be their lot unless they surrendered unconditionally: " Your war­ +riors will be slaughtered, your towns and villages ransacked and de­ +stroyed, your wives and children carried into captivity, and you may +be assured that those who escape the fury of our mighty chiefs shall +find no resting place on this side of the great lakes." Yet the Indians +of the Ohio Country continued to fight, well aware of the likely +consequences. The Seneca leader Cornplanter called the colonizers +the "town destroyers." He described how, during the destruction +and suffering that troops wreaked on the western Iroquois, Seneca +"women look behind them and turn pale, and our children cling +close to the necks of their mothers."6 +Despite the primary use of settler militias, President Washington +insisted that the new government had to develop a professional army +that would enhance US prestige in the eyes of European countries . +He also thought that the cost of using mercenaries, at four times +that of regular troops, was too high. But whenever regular troops +were sent into the Ohio Country, the Indigenous resisters drove +them out. Reluctantly, Washington resigned himself to the neces­ +sity of using what were essentially vicious killers to terrorize the +region, thereby annexing land that could be sold to settlers . The +sale of confiscated land was the primary revenue source for the new +government. +In late 1 79 1 , the War Department notified Ohio squatters to call +out their rangers for an offensive. Major General "Mad" Anthony +Wayne was charged with restructuring the units of the army under +his command to function as irregular forces. Washington and other +officials were aware that Wayne was unreliable and an alcoholic, but +it appeared that such characteristics might be useful for the dirty + + The Birth of a Nation + +war ahead. Between 1 79 2 and 1 794 , Wayne put together a com­ +bined force of regulars with a large contingent of experienced rang­ +ers. He enthusiastically embraced such counterinsurgent tactics as +destroying food supplies and murdering civilians. +Among the fifteen hundred mounted rangers in the first mission +was the talented William Wells with his group of rangers. When he +was thirteen, Wells had been captured by the Miamis and then had +lived with them for nine years, marrying Little Turtle's daughter. +Under his father-in-law's command, Wells had fought the invading +settlers and the US Army. In 1 792, Wells was chosen to represent the +Miami Nation in a negotiation with the United States, but on arrival +for talks he encountered a brother from the family he had been sepa­ +rated from for a decade. He was persuaded to return to Kentucky +and served as a ranger for the US Army. 7 +Wayne's troops and rangers managed to enter the Ohio Coun­ +try and establish a base they called Fort Defiance (in northwestern +Ohio), in what had been the heart of the Indigenous alliance led by +Little Turtle. 8 Wayne then made an ultimatum to the Shawnees: "In +pity to your innocent women and children, come and prevent the +further effusion of your blood." The Shawnee leader Blue Jacket +refused submission, and the US forces began destroying Shawnee +villages and fields and murdering women, children, and old men. +On August 20, 1 794 , at Fallen Timbers, the main Shawnee fighting +force was overpowered. Even after this US victory, the rangers con­ +tinued for three days laying waste to Shawnee houses and cornfields. +After creating a fifty-mile swath of devastation, the invading forces +returned to Fort Defiance. The defeat at Fallen Timbers was a severe +blow to the Indigenous nations of the Ohio Country, but they would +reorganize their resistance during the following decade. +The US conquest of southern Ohio was formalized in the 1795 +Treaty of Greenville, a victory based on vicious irregular warfare. +The nations of the region no longer had the British and the French +and the settlers to play against one another, but rather were now +faced with the determined imperialist thrust of an independent re­ +public that had to coddle settlers if they were to recruit any into their +service.9 + +83 + + 84 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +TECUMSEH + +Over the following decade, more settlers poured over the Appala­ +chians, squatting on Indigenous lands, and even building towns, +anticipating that the US military, land speculators, and civilian insti­ +tutions would follow. +In the Ohio Country, the Shawnee brothers Tecumseh and Ten­ +skwatawa began building a concerted Indigenous resistance in the +early nineteenth century. From their organizing center, Prophet's +Town, founded in 1 8 07, Tenskwatawa and his fellow organizers +traveled throughout Shawnee towns calling for a return to their cul­ +tural roots, which had been eroded by the assimilation of Anglo­ +American practices and trade goods, especially alcohol. 1 0 Abuse of +alcohol (and drugs) is epidemic like diseases in communities sub­ +jected to colonization or other forms of domination, particularly +in crowded and miserable refugee situations. This is the case in all +parts of the world, not only among Native peoples of North Amer­ +ica. Alcohol was an item in the tool kit of colonialists who made +it readily and cheaply available. Christian missionaries often took +advantage of these dysfunctional conditions to convert, offering not +only food and housing but also discipline to avoid alcohol. But this +was itself a form of colonial submission. +Significantly, Tecumseh did not limit his vision to the Ohio +Country but also envisaged organizing all the peoples west to the +Mississippi, north into the Great Lakes region, and south to the Gulf +of Mexico. He visited other Indigenous nations, calling for unity in +defiance of the squatters' presence on their lands. He presented a +program that would end all sales of Indigenous land to settlers . Only +then would settlers' migrations in search of cheap land cease and the +establishment of the United States in the West be prevented. An alli­ +ance of all Indigenous nations could then manage Indigenous lands +as a federation. His program, strategy, and philosophy mark the +beginning of pan-Indigenous movements in Anglo-colonized North +America that established a model for future resistance. Joseph Brant +and Pontiac had originated the strategy in the 1 7 8 0s, but Tecumseh +and Tenskwatawa forged a pan-Indigenous framework made all the + + The Birth of a Nation + +85 + +more potent by combining Indigenous spirituality and politics while +respecting the particular religions and languages of each nation. 1 1 +The evolving Indigenous alliance posed a serious barrier t o con­ +tinued Anglo-American squatting and land speculation and acquisi­ +tions in the trans-Appalachian region. With previous Indigenous +resistance movements, such as those led by Little Turtle and Blue +Jacket, during peace negotiations in the wake of ruinous US wars of +annihilation, leaders of factions had become "agency chiefs" who +agreed to land sales without the consent of those they purported +to represent. The colonized communities had fallen into economic +dependency on trade goods and federal annuities, incurring debts +that led to the forfeiture of what land remained in their hands. The +emerging younger generation was contemptuous of such chiefs, +whom they perceived as selling out their people. Anglo-American +settlers and speculators exerted increased pressure and issued new +threats of annihilation, provoking anger and calls for retaliation but +also a renewed spirit of resistance. +By l 8 ro, new Indigenous alliances challenged squatter settlers +in the Indiana and Illinois Territories at a time when war between +the United States and Great Britain was looming. Fearing that the +British would unite with the Indigenous alliances to prevent the US +imperialist goal to dominate the continent, these settlers drafted +a petition to President James Madison, demanding that the gov­ +ernment act preemptively: "The safety of the persons and property +of this frontier can never be effectually secured, but by the break­ +ing up of the combination formed by the Shawnee Prophet on the +Wabash." 12 +In 1 8 09 , Indiana's territorial governor, William Henry Harri­ +son, badgered and bribed a few destitute Delaware, Miami, and +Potawatomi individuals to sign the Treaty of Fort Wayne, accord­ +ing to which these nations would hand over their land in what is +now southern Indiana for an annual annuity. Tecumseh promptly +condemned the treaty and those who signed it without the approval +of the peoples they represented . Harrison met with Tecumseh at +Vincennes in 1 8 10, along with other delegates of the allied Shawnee, +Kickapoo, Wyandot, Peoria, Ojibwe, Potawatomi, and Winnebago + + 86 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +Nations. The Shawnee leader informed Harrison that he was leaving +for the South to bring the Muskogees, Choctaws, and Chickasaws +into the alliance. +Harrison, now convinced that Tecumseh's brother Tenskwatawa, +the Prophet, was the source of the renewed Indigenous militancy, +reasoned that destroying Prophet's Town would crush the resistance. +It would present a clear choice to the many Indigenous people who +supported the militant leaders: cede more land to the United States +and take the money and trade goods, or suffer further annihilation. +He decided to strike in Tecumseh's absence. Having served as Gen­ +eral Wayne's aide-de-camp in the Fallen Timbers attacks, Harrison +knew how to keep his regular army forces from being ambushed. He +assembled Indiana and Kentucky rangers-seasoned Indian killers +-and some US Army regulars. At the site of what is today Terre +Haute, Indiana, the soldiers constructed Fort Harrison on Shaw­ +nee land-a symbol of their intention to remain permanently. The +people in Prophet's Town were aware of the military advance, but +Tecumseh had warned them not to be drawn into a fight, because +the alliance was not yet ready for war. Tenskwatawa sent scouts to +observe the enemy's movements. The US forces arrived on the edge +of Prophet's Town at dawn on November 6, r 8 u . Seeing no alter­ +native to overriding his brother's instructions, Tenskwatawa led an +assault before dawn the following morning. Only after some two +hundred of the Indigenous residents had fallen did the troops over­ +power them, burning the town, destroying the granary, and looting, +even digging up graves and mutilating the corpses. This was the fa­ +mous " battle" of Tippecanoe that made Harrison a frontier hero to +the settlers and later helped elect him president.13 +The US Army's destruction of the capital of the alliance outraged +Indigenous peoples all over the Old Northwest, prompting fight­ +ers of the Kickapoos, Winnebagos, Potawatamis, and even Creeks +from the South to converge on a British garrison at Fort Malden in +Canada to obtain supplies with which to fight. Contrary to the false +US assumption that Tecumseh was a mere tool of the British, he had +been unwilling to enter into a British alliance because Europeans +had proved so unreliable in the past. But now he spoke for unified +and coordinated Indigenous-led war on the United States that the + + The Birth of a Nation + +British could support if they wished but not control. President Madi­ +son, speaking to Congress in seeking a declaration of war against +Great Britain, argued: "In reviewing the conduct of Great Britain +toward the United States our attention is necessarily drawn to the +warfare j ust renewed by the savages on one of our extensive fron­ +tiers-a warfare which is known to spare neither age nor sex and +to be distinguished by features peculiarly shocking to humanity."14 +During the summer of 1 8 1 2 , the Indigenous alliance struck US +installations and squatter settlements with little help from the Brit­ +ish. The US forts at present-day Detroit and D earborn fell. Among +the inhabitants of Fort Dearborn, Kentucky ranger William Wells +was killed and his body mutilated as that of a despised turncoat. In +the fall, Indigenous forces attacked Anglo-American squatter settle­ +ments all over Illinois and Indiana Territories. The US rangers at­ +tempting to track and kill the Indigenous fighters found destroyed +and abandoned Anglo-American settlements, with thousands of set­ +tlers driven from their homes. In response, Harrison turned the mi­ +litias loose on Indigenous fields and villages with no restrictions on +their behavior. The head of the Kentucky militia mustered two thou­ +sand armed and mounted volunteers to destroy Indigenous towns +near today's Peoria, Illinois, but without success. A reversal came +in the fall of 1 8 1 3 , when Tecumseh was killed in the Battle of the +Thames and the Indigenous army was destroyed. Throughout the +eighteen-month war, militias and rangers attacked Indigenous civil­ +ians and agricultural resources, leaving behind starving refugees.15 + +A S S A U LT O N T H E C H E R O K E E N AT I O N + +In the unconquered Indigenous region of the Old Southwest, parallel +resistance took place during the two decades following US inde­ +pendence, with similar tragic results, thanks to extirpative settler +warfare. Tennessee (formerly claimed, but not settled, by the British +colony of North Carolina) was carved out of the larger Cherokee +Nation and became a state in 1796. Its eastern part, particularly the +area around today's Knoxville, was a war zone. The mostly Scots­ +Irish squatters, attempting to secure and expand their settlements, + +87 + + 88 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +were at war with the resistant Cherokees called " Chickamaugas." +The settlers hated both the Indigenous people whom they were at­ +tempting to displace as well as the newly formed federal government. +In 1 7 8 4 , a group of North Carolina settlers, led by settler-ranger +John Sevier, had seceded from western Carolina and established the +independent country of Franklin with Sevier as president. Neither +North Carolina nor the federal government had exerted any con­ +trol over the settlements in the eastern Tennessee Valley region. In +the summer of 1 7 8 8 , Sevier ordered an unprovoked, preemptive at­ +tack on the Chickamauga towns, killing thirty villagers and forcing +the survivors to flee south. Sevier's actions formed a template for +settler-federal relations, with the settlers implementing the federal +government's final solution, while the federal government feigned an +appearance of limiting settler invasions of Indigenous lands. 16 +Facing the fierce resistance of Indigenous nations in the Ohio +Country and the fighting between the Muskogee Nati on and the +state of Georgia, Washington's administration sought to contain +Indigenous resistance in the South. Yet now the settlers were pro­ +voking the Cherokees in what would soon be the state of Tennes­ +see. Secretary of War Knox claimed to believe that the thickness of +settlers' development, converting Indigenous hunting grounds into +farms, would slowly overwhelm the Indigenous nations and drive +them out. He advised the squatters' leaders to continue building, +which would attract more illegal settlers. This disingenuous view +ignored the fact that the Indigenous farmers were well aware of the +intentions of the settlers to destroy them and seize their territories. +In the 1 7 8 5 Treaty of Hopewell between the federal government +and the Cherokee Nation, the United States had agreed to restrict +settlement to the east of the Blue Ridge Mountains. The several +thousand squatter families who claimed nearly a million acres of +land in precisely that zone were not about to abide by the treaty. +Knox saw the situation as a showdown with the settlers and a test +of federal authority west of the mountain chains, from Canada to +Spanish Florida. The settlers did not believe that the federal gov­ +ernment meant to protect their interests, which encouraged them +to go it alone. In the face of constant attacks, the Cherokees were +desperate to halt the destruction of their towns and fields. Many + + The Birth of a Nation + +were starving, more without shelter, on the move as refugees, with +only the Chickamauga fighters as a protective force fighting off the +seasoned ranger-settler Indian killers. In July 1 79 1 , the Cherokees +reluctantly signed the Treaty of Holston, agreeing to abandon any +claims to land on which the Franklin settlements sat in return for an +annual annuity of $100,000 from the federal government.17 +The United States did nothing to halt the flow of squatters into +Cherokee territory as the boundary was drawn in the treaty. A year +after the treaty was signed, war broke out, and the Chickamau­ +gas, under the leadership of Dragging Canoe, attacked squatters, +even laying siege to Nashville.18 The war continued for two years, +with five hundred Chickamauga fighters joined by Muskogees and +a contingent of Shawnees from Ohio, led by Cheeseekau, one of Te­ +cumseh's brothers, who was later killed in the fighting. The settlers +organized an offensive against the Chickamaugas. The federal In­ +dian agent attempted to persuade the Chickamaugas to stop fighting, +warning that the frontier settlers were "always dreadful, not only to +the warriors, but to the innocent and helpless women and children, +and old men." The agent also warned the settlers against attacking +Indigenous towns, but he had to order the militia to disperse a mob +of three hundred settlers, who, as he wrote, out of "a mistaken zeal +to serve their country" had gathered to destroy "as many as they +could of the Cherokee towns."19 Sevier and his rangers invaded the +Chickamaugas' towns in September 1 79 3 , with a stated mission of +total destruction. Although forbidden by the federal agent to attack +the villages, Sevier gave orders for a scorched-earth offensive. +By choosing to attack at harvesttime, Sevier intended to starve +out the residents . The strategy worked. Soon after, the federal agent +reported to the secretary of war that the region was pacified, with +no Indigenous actions since "the visit General Sevier paid the [Cher­ +okee] nation." A year later, Sevier demanded absolute submission +from the Chickamauga villages lest they be wiped out completely. +Receiving no response, a month later 1 ,750 Franklin rangers at­ +tacked two villages, burning all the buildings and fields-again near +the harvest-and shooting those who tried to flee. Sevier then re­ +peated his demand for submission, requiring the Chickamaugas to +abandon their towns for the woods, taking only what they could + +89 + + 90 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +transport. He wrote: "War will cost the United States much money, +and some lives, but it will destroy the existence of your people, as a +nation, forever." The remaining Chickamauga villages agreed to al­ +low the settlers to remain in Cherokee country. +In squatter settlements, ruthless leaders like Sevier were not the +exception but the rule. Once they had full control and got what they +wanted, they made their peace with the federal government, which +in turn depended on their actions to expand the republic's territory. +Sevier went on to serve as a US representative from North Carolina +and as governor of Tennessee. To this day, such men are idolized +as great heroes, embodying the essence of the "American spirit." A +bronze statue of John Sevier in his ranger uniform stands today in +the National Statuary Hall of the US Capitol. 2 0 + +M U S KO G E E R E S I S TA N C E + +The Muskogee Nation officially had remained neutral i n the war be­ +tween the Anglo-American settlers and the British monarchy. None­ +theless, many individual Muskogees had taken the opportunity to +raid and harass squatters within their national territories in Georgia, +Tennessee, and South Carolina. When the United States was formed, +the Muskogee Nation turned to Spanish Florida for an alliance in +trying to stop the flow of squatters into their territory. Spain had an +interest in the alliance as a buffer to its holdings, which at the time in­ +cluded the lower Mississippi and the city of New Orleans. The squat­ +ters believed that the Muskogees and the Spanish officials, as well as +the British, were in cahoots to keep them out of western Georgia and +present-day Alabama and considered the Muskogee Nation to be the +main barrier to their permanent settlement in the region, particu­ +larly Georgia. The Muskogees called the squatters ecunnaunuxulgee +-"people greedily grasping after the lands of the red people ." +The federal government negotiated with the Muskogee Nation +for a new boundary and for more settlements and trade, in ex­ +change for $60,000 a year in goods. The squatters did everything +they could to provoke the Muskogees to war, while ignoring the +treaty's provisions. They slaughtered hundreds of deer in the Mus- + + The Birth of a Nation + +kogee deer parks, with the intention of wiping out the livelihood of +Muskogee hunters, who also made up the resistance forces. But the +War Department was complicit, using money due to the Muskogees +under the treaty to divide them by bribing leaders (miccos) and thus +isolating the insurgents from their communities. Eighty Muskogee +fighters j oined the Chickamaugas when they were still fighting, and +together they attacked the Cumberland district of Tennessee in early + +1792, while others struck Georgia squatters in Muskogee territory. +It was then that Shawnee delegates, sent by Tecumseh, visited from +the Ohio Country to encourage the Muskogees to drive the squatters +from their lands, as the Shawnees h � d done successfully up to that +time. Secretary of War Knox wrote to the federal agent in Georgia +that he knew the Muskogee militants were "a Banditti, and do not +implicate the whole nor any considerable part of that Nation. The +hostilities of the Individuals arise from their own disposition, and +are not probably dictated, either by the Chiefs, or by any Towns or +other respectable classes of the Indians."21 +By this time, in the process of the preceding British coloniza­ +tion and continuing with US colonization of the Muskogee Nation +and other southeastern Indigenous nations, an Indigenous client +class-called "compradors" by Africans, "caciques" in Spanish­ +colonized America-essential to colonialist projects, was firmly in +place. This privileged class was dependent on their colonial masters +for their personal wealth. This class division wracked the traditional +relatively egalitarian and democratic Indigenous societies inter­ +nally. This small elite in the Southeast embraced the enslavement +of Africans, and a few even became affluent planters in the style +of southern planters, mainly through intermarriage with Anglos. +The trading posts established by US merchants further divided Mus­ +kogee society, pulling many deeply into the US economy through +dependency and debt, and away from the Spanish and British trad­ +ing firms, which had previously left their lands undisturbed. This +method of colonization by co-optation and debt proved effective +wherever employed by colonial powers in the world, but only when +it was accompanied by extreme violence at any sign of indigenous +insurgency. The United States moved across North America in this +manner. While most Muskogees continued to follow their traditional + +91 + + 92 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +democratic ways in their villages, the elite Muskogees were making +decisions and compromises on their behalf that would bear tragic +consequences for them all. +Federal authorities in 1 79 3 identified five hundred Muskogee +towns where they believed the majority of insurgents resided. Secre­ +tary of War Knox called on the Georgia militia for federal service. +The federal Indian agent notified the War Department that the set­ +tlers were set on assaulting the Muskogees and asked that a thou­ +sand. federal troops be deployed to occupy the insurgent Muskogee +towns. Although the War Department rejected that idea and war +was postponed, the restless Georgian militiamen deserted after hav­ +ing rushed to the Muskogee territory to loot, burn, and kill, only to +be forced to wait. Persistent squatter attacks on Muskogee farmers, +traders, and towns continued. +During the winter of 1 793-94, Georgia border squatters formed +an armed group of landless settlers. The leader, Elijah Clarke, was +a veteran Indian killer and had been a major general in the Georgia +militia during the war of independence, in which he commanded +rangers to destroy Indigenous towns and fields. As a US patriot hero, +Clarke was certain that his former troops would never take up arms +against him. Clarke and his rangers declared the independence of +their own republic, but Georgia state authorities captured him and +destroyed the rebel stronghold. Still, Clarke's action sent a strong +message to state and federal authorities that landless squatters were +determined to take Indigenous lands. They would get the leader they +needed for that purpose a decade later. Meanwhile, the elite of the +Muskogee towns were successful in marginalizing the insurgents, +while the federal government increased grants, and the wealthy class +of Muskogees established trading posts, making whiskey cheaply +available to impoverished Muskogees. 22 + +T H E D I E I S CAST + +The successful settler intrusion into western Georgia made Ala­ +bama and Mississippi the next objectives for the rapidly expand­ +ing slave-worked plantation economy, which, along with land sales + + The Birth of a Nation + +of occupied Indigenous lands by private speculators, was essential +to the US economy as a whole. The plantation economy required +vast swaths of land for cash crops, even before cotton was king, +leaving in its wake destroyed Indigenous national territories and +Anglo settlers who would fight and die driving out the Indigenous +communities yet remain landless themselves, moving on to the next +frontier to try again. US colonization produced the subsequent +hideous slavery-based rule of the Old Southwest, which would flour­ +ish for seven more decades. Unlike in the Ohio Country, the Wash­ +ington administration avoided force and in doing so alienated settlers +in the region. By preventing them from wiping out the Muskogees, +the federal government was seen as the enemy, just as the British au­ +thority had been for an earlier generation of determined settlers. But +that would soon change with the Muskogee War of 1 8 1 3 - 1 4 , nar­ +rated in the following chapter, in which, as Robert V. Remini puts it +in Andrew Jackson and His Indian Wars, "Tennessee frontiersman +Andrew Jackson, commanding both regular Army troops and fron­ +tiersmen, personally guaranteed that the Creeks would feel the full +brunt of total war."23 +During 1 8 rn-1 5 , then, two parallel wars were ongoing, one in +the Ohio Country-the Old Northwest-which ended with the de­ +feat of the Tecumseh-led alliance, and the other the war against +the Muskogee Nation in 1 8 1 3 -1 4 . Unlike the 1 8 1 2-15 war between +Britain and the United States, with which these wars overlapped, +the situation did not return to things being as they had been before, +but rather culminated in the elimination of Indigenous power east +of the Mississippi. US conquest was not determined by the defeat of +the British in battle in 1 8 1 5 , but rather by genocidal war and forced +removal.24 +US leaders brought counterinsurgency out of the pre-indepen­ +dence period into the new republic, imprinting on the fledgling +federal army a way of war with formidable consequences for the +continent and the world. Counterinsurgent warfare and ethnic +cleansing targeting Indigenous civilians continued to define US war +making throughout the nineteenth century, with markers such as +the three US counterinsurgent wars against the Seminoles through +the Sand Creek Massacre of 1 8 64 to Wounded Knee in 1 8 9 0 . Early + +93 + + 94 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +on, regular armies had incorporated these strategies and tactics as a +way of war to which it often turned, although frequently the regular +army simply stood by while local militias and settlers acting on their +own used terror against Indigenous noncombatants. +Irregular warfare would be waged west of the Mississippi as it +had been earlier against the Abenakis, Cherokees, Shawnees, Mus­ +kogees, and even Christian Indians. In the Civil War, these methods +played a prominent role on both sides. Confederate regular forces, +Confederate guerrillas such as William Quantrill, and General Sher­ +man for the Union all engaged in waging total war against civilians. +The pattern would continue in US military interventions overseas, +from the Philippines and Cuba to Central America, Korea, Vietnam, +Iraq, and Afghanistan. The cumulative effect goes beyond simply +the habitual use of military means and becomes the very basis for US +American identity. The Indian-fighting frontiersmen and the "val­ +iant" settlers in their circled covered wagons are the iconic images +of that identity. The continued popularity of, and respect for, the +genocidal sociopath Andrew Jackson is another indicator. Actual +men such as Robert Rogers, Daniel Boone, John Sevier, and David +Crockett, as well as fictitious ones created by James Fenimore Coo­ +per and other best-selling writers, call to mind D. H . Lawrence's +"myth of the essential white American" -that the "essential Ameri­ +can soul" is a killer. 25 + + SIX + +TH E L A S T O F THE M O H I C A N S +A N D A N D R E W J AC K S O N ' S +WH I TE R E P U B L I C + +The settler's work is to make even dreams of liberty +impossible for the native. The native's work is to imagine +all possible methods for destroying the settler. +-Frantz Fanon, The Wretched of the Earth + +In 1 8 03 , the Jefferson administration, without consulting any af­ +fected Indigenous nation, purchased the Louisiana Territory from +Napoleon Bonaparte. Louisiana comprised 8 2 8 ,000 square miles, +and its addition doubled the size of the United States. The territory +encompassed all or part of multiple Indigenous nations, including +the Sioux, Cheyenne, Arapaho, Crow, Pawnee, Osage, and Coman­ +che, among other peoples of the bison. It also included the area that +would soon be designated Indian Territory (Oklahoma), the site of +relocation of Indigenous peoples from west of the Mississippi. Fif­ +teen future states would emerge from the taking: all of present-day +Arkansas, Missouri, Iowa, Oklahoma, Kansas, and Nebraska; Min­ +nesota west of the Mississippi; most of North and South Dakota; +northeastern New Mexico and North Texas; the portions of Mon­ +tana, Wyoming, and Colorado east of the Continental Divide; and +Louisiana west of the Mississippi River, including the city of New Or­ +leans. The territory pressed against lands occupied by Spain, includ­ +ing Texas and all the territory west of the Continental Divide to the +Pacific Ocean. These would soon be next on the US annexation list. 1 +At the time, many US Americans saw the purchase as a strate­ +gic means of averting war with France while securing commerce + +95 + + 96 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +on the Mississippi. But it was not long before some began eyeing it +for settlement and others proposing an "exchange" of Indigenous +lands in the Old Northwest and Old Southwest for lands west of +the Mississippi. 2 Before turning to conquest and . colonization west +of the Mississippi, the slavery-based rule of the Southeast would be +ethnically cleansed of Indigenous peoples. The man for the job was +Andrew Jackson. + +CA R E E R B U I L D I N G T H R O U G H G E N O C I D E + +Neither superior technology nor a n overwhelming number of set­ +tlers made up the mainspring of the birth of the United States or the +spread of its power over the entire world. Rather, the chief cause was +the colonialist settler-state's willingness to eliminate whole civiliza­ +tions of people in order to possess their land. This trend of exter­ +mination became common in the twentieth century as the United +States seized military and economic control of the world, capping +five hundred years of European colonialism and imperialism. 3 The +canny Prussian Otto von Bismarck, founder and first chancellor +( 1 8 7 1-90) of the German empire, was prescient in observing, "The +colonization of North America has been the decisive fact of the +modern world. "4 Jefferson was its architect. Andrew Jackson was +the implementer of the final solution for the Indigenous peoples east +of the Mississippi. +Andrew Jackson was an influential Tennessee land speculator, +politician, and wealthy owner of a slave-worked plantation, the +Hermitage. He was also a veteran Indian killer. Jackson's family +personified the Protestant Scots-Irish migration to the borderlands +of empires. Jackson's Scots-Irish parents and two older brothers ar­ +rived in Pennsylvania from County Antrim in Northern Ireland in +1 7 6 5 . The Jacksons soon moved to a Scots-Irish community on the +North Carolina border with South Carolina. Jackson's father died +after a logging accident a few weeks before Andrew's birth in 1 767. +Life was hard for a single mother and three children on the frontier. +At age thirteen, with little education, Jackson became a courier for +the local regiment of the frontier secessionists in their war of in- + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +dependence from Britain. Jackson's mother and his brothers died +during the war, leaving him an orphan. He worked at various j obs, +then studied law and was admitted to the bar in the Western Dis­ +trict of North Carolina, which would later become the state of Ten­ +nessee. Through his legal work, most of which related to disputed +land claims, he acquired a plantation near Nashville worked by 150 +slaves. He helped usher in Tennessee as a state in 1 79 6, then was +elected as its US senator, an office he quit after a year to become a +judge in the Tennessee Supreme Court for six years. +As the most notorious land speculator in western Tennessee, +Jackson enriched himself by acquiring a portion of the Chickasaw +Nation's land. It was in 1 8 0 1 that Jackson first took command of the +Tennessee militia as a colonel and began his Indian-killing military +career. After his brutal war of annihilation against the Muskogee +Nation, Jackson continued building his national military and po­ +litical career by tackling the resistant Seminoles in what are known +as the Seminole Wars. In 1 8 3 6, during the second of these wars, +US Army general Thomas S . Jesup captured the popular Anglo at­ +titude toward the Seminoles: "The country can be rid of them only +by exterminating them." By then Jackson was finishing his second +term as the most popular president in US history to that date, and +the policy of genocide was embedded in the highest office of the US +government. 5 +In the Southeast, the Choctaws and Chickasaws turned exclu­ +sively to US traders once the new US republic effectively cut off ac­ +cess to the Spanish in Florida. Soon they were trapped in the US +trading world, in which they would run up debts and then have +no way to pay other than by ceding land to creditors who were of­ +ten acting as agents of the federal government. This was no acci­ +dental outcome but was foreseen and encouraged by Jefferson. In +1 8 0 5 , the Choctaws ceded most of their lands to the United States +for $50,000, and the Chickasaws relinquished all their lands north +of the Tennessee River for $20,000. Many Choctaws and Chicka­ +saws thus became landless participants in the expanding plantation +economy, burdened by debts and poverty. 6 +The division of the Muskogee (Creek) Nation and the rise of +Andrew Jackson as a result led to his eventual elevation to the + +97 + + 98 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +presidency and carrying out of the final solution-elimination of all +the Indigenous communities east of the Mississippi through forced +removal. After the Choctaws and Chickasaws lost most of their ter­ +ritories, only the Muskogees continued to resist the United States. +The Muskogee Nation was a federation of autonomous towns +located in the valleys of the many rivers that crisscross what are now +the states of Alabama, Tennessee, and parts of Georgia and Florida. +The Lower Creeks inhabited and farmed in the eastern part of this +region watered by the Chattahoochee, Flint, and Apalachicola Riv­ +ers, while the Upper Creeks lived west of them, in the valleys of +the Coosa, Tallapoosa and Alabama Rivers. Following US indepen­ +dence, the Muskogees were divided by settler colonialism. Lower +Creek villages became economically dependent on settlers and emu­ +lated settlers' values, including ownership of African slaves. This +was largely due to two decades of diligent work on the part of US +Indian agent Benjamin Hawkins. He was in charge of the US gov­ +ernment's "civilization" project, lending the settler moniker " Five +Civilized Tribes" to describe the great agricultural nations of the +Southeast. Hawkins's mission was to instill Euro-American values +and practices in Indigenous peoples-including the profit motive, +privatization of property, debt, accumulation of wealth by a few, +and slavery-allowing settlers to gain the land and assimilate the +Muskogees. At the time of independence, hundreds of settlers were +squatting illegally on lands of Muskogees of the Lower Creek towns, +and that is where Hawkins concentrated, leaving the Muskogees up­ +river alone. However, traditionalists among the Upper Creeks, who +had allied with Tecumseh and the Shawnee confederation, under­ +stood that they would be next, as they saw the twenty-year Hawkins +project transforming some citizens of the Lower Creek towns into +wealthy plantation and slave owners, while the majority became +landless and poor. +Traditionalist fighters, called Red Sticks due to the color of +their wooden spears, began an offensive against collaborating Up­ +per Creeks and settlers that ended in civil war during 1 8 1 3 . The +Red Sticks created chaos that affected Hawkins's scheme, as they +attacked anyone associated with his program. Their effectiveness, +however, provoked a genocidal counteroffensive not officially autho- + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +rized by the federal government, led by Andrew Jackson who was +then head of the Tennessee militias. Jackson threatened to form his +own mercenary army to drive the Muskogees " into the ocean" if the +government failed to eradicate the insurgents.7 Although Jackson +and his fellow Tennesseans made it clear that their goal was extermi­ +nation of the Muskogee Nation, their rhetoric claimed self-defense. +In a serie s of search-and-destroy missions over three months prior to +. +the final assault on the Red Sticks, Jackson's mercenaries killed hun­ +dreds of Muskogee civilians, pursuing without mercy even homeless +and starved refugees seeking shelter and safety. By this point, the +Red Sticks had killed most of the Muskogee Nation livestock both +to deprive US soldiers of food and to rid Muskogee culture of the +colonizers' influence. 8 +Both Shawnee fighters and Africans who had freed themselves +from slavery allied with the Red Sticks. With all their families they +set up a fortified encampment at Tohopeka at the Horseshoe Bend +on the Tallapoosa River in present-day Alabama. Jackson proceeded +to mobilize Lower Creek fighters and some Cherokee allies against +the Red Sticks. In March 1 8 1 4 , with seven hundred mounted mili­ +tiamen and six hundred Cherokee and Lower Creek fighters, Jack­ +son's armies attacked the Red Stick stronghold. The mercenaries +captured three hundred Red Stick wives and children and held them +as hostages to induce Muskogee surrender. Of a thousand Red Stick +and allied insurgents, eight hundred were killed. Jackson lost forty­ +nme men. +In the aftermath of "the Battle of Horseshoe Bend," as it is +known in US military annals, Jackson's troops fashioned reins for +their horses' bridles from skin stripped from the Muskogee bodies, +and they saw to it that souvenirs from the corpses were given "to the +ladies of Tennessee."9 Following the slaughter, Jackson justified his +troops' actions: "The fiends of the Tallapoosa will no longer murder +our women and children, or disturb the quiet of our borders . . . . +They have disappeared from the face of the Earth . . . . How lamen­ +table it is that the path to peace should lead through blood, and over +the carcasses of the slain! But it is in the dispensation of that provi­ +dence, which inflicts partial evil to produce general good." 10 +Horseshoe Bend marked the end of the Muskogees' resistance in + +99 + + 100 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +their original homeland. As historian Alan Brinkley has observed, +Jackson's political fortunes depended on the fate of the Indians­ +that is, their eradication. 1 1 +The surrender document the Muskogee Nation was forced t o sign +in 1 8 1 4 , the Treaty of Fort Jackson, asserted that they had lost under +"principles of national justice and honorable war." Andrew Jackson, +the only US negotiator of the treaty, insisted on nothing less than +the total destruction of the Muskogee Nation, which the Muskogees +had no power to refuse or negotiate. These terms of total surrender +shocked the small group of Muskogee plantation and slave own­ +ers, who thought that they had been thoroughly accepted by the US +Americans. They had fought alongside the Anglo militias against +the majority Red Sticks in the war just concluded, yet all Muskogees +were now to be punished equally. To no avail did the "friendlies" +prostrate themselves before Jackson at the treaty meeting, begging +that they and their holdings be spared. Jackson told them that the +extreme punishment exacted upon them should teach all those who +would try to oppose US domination. "We bleed our enemies in such +cases," he explained, "to give them their senses."12 Military histo­ +rian Grenier observes that "Jackson's 'bleeding' of the Muskogees +marks a culminating point in American military history as the end +of the Transappalachian East's Indian wars . . . . The conquest of +the West was not guaranteed by defeating the British Army in battle +in 1 8 1 5 , but by defeating and driving the Indians from their home­ +lands." 13 +The treaty obliged surviving Muskogees to move onto western +remnants of their homelands, and Jackson, far from being repri­ +manded for his genocidal methods, won a commission from Presi­ +dent James Madison as major general in the US Army. The territory +that would become Alabama and Mississippi now lay open to An­ +glo-American settlement, an ominous green light to the expansion +of plantation slavery. The Muskogee War thus inscribed a US policy +of ethnic cleansing onto an entire Indigenous population. The policy +originated by Andrew Jackson in that war would be reconfirmed +politically when he became president in 1 8 2 8 . 14 +The Upper Creek Muskogees who remained in Alabama surren- + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +dered to Jackson and ceded twenty-three million acres of their ances­ +tral lands to the United States in the Treaty of Fort Jackson. The Red +Sticks, however, j oined the resistant Seminole Nation in the Florida +Everglades and three more decades of Muskogee resistance ensued. +During this period, Anglo-American slave owners, and Andrew +Jackson in particular, were determined to destroy the safe havens +that Seminole towns offered to Africans who escaped from slav­ +ery. 1 5 The Seminole Nation had not existed under that name prior +to European colonization. The ancestral towns of the Indigenous +people who became known as Seminoles were located along rivers +in a large area of what is today Alabama, Georgia, South Carolina, +and the Florida Panhandle. In the mid-eighteenth century, Waka­ +puchasee (Cowkeeper) and his people separated from the Coweta +Muskogees and moved south into what was then Spanish-occupied +Florida. As Spain, Britain, and later the United States decimated +Indigenous towns throughout the Southeast, survivors, including +self-emancipated Africans, established a refuge in Seminole territory +in Spanish Florida in the Everglades. European incursions came in +the form of military attacks, disease, and disruption of trade routes, +causing collapse and realignments within and between the towns. 1 6 +The Seminole Nation was born of resistance and included the +vestiges of dozens of Indigenous communities as well as escaped +Africans, as the Seminole towns served as refuge. In the Caribbean +and Brazil, people in such escapee communities were called Ma­ +roons, but in the United States the liberated Africans were absorbed +into Seminole Nation culture. Then, as now, Seminoles spoke the +Muskogee language, and much later (in 1957) the US government +designated them an "Indian tribe." The Seminoles were one of the +" Five Civilized Tribes" ordered from their national homelands in +the 1 8 3 0s to Indian Territory (later made part of the state of Okla­ +homa). +The United States waged three wars against the Seminole Na­ +tion between 1 8 1 7 and 1 8 5 8 . The prolonged and fierce Second +Seminole War ( 1 8 3 5-4 2) was the longest foreign war waged by the +United States up to the Vietnam War. The US military further de­ +veloped its army, naval, and marine capabilities in again adopting a + +101 + + 102 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +counterinsurgency strategy, in this case against the Seminole towns +in the Everglades. Once again US forces targeted civilians, destroyed +food supplies, and sought to destroy every last insurgent. What US +military annals call the First Seminole War ( 1 8 1 7-19) began when +US authorities entered Spanish Florida illegally in an attempt to re­ +cover US plantation owners' "property": former African slaves. The +Seminoles repelled the invasion. In 1 8 1 8 , President James Monroe +ordered Andrew Jackson, then a major general in the US Army, to +lead three thousand soldiers into Florida to crush the Seminoles and +retrieve the Africans among them. The expedition destroyed a num­ +ber of Seminole settlements and then captured the Spanish fort at +Pensacola, bringing down the Spanish government, but it failed in +destroying Seminole guerrilla resistance and the Seminoles did not +agree to hand over any former slaves. "Armed occupation was the +true way of settling a conquered country," Senator Thomas Hart +Benton of Missouri said at the time, reflecting a popular blend of +militarism and white-supremacist Christian identity. "The children +of Israel entered the promised land, with implements of husbandry +in one hand, and the weapons of war in the other."17 The United +States annexed Florida as a territory in 1 8 19 , opening it to Anglo­ +American settlement. In l 8 2 I Jackson was appointed military com­ +mander of Florida Territory. The Seminoles never sued for peace, +were never conquered, and never signed a treaty with the United +States, and although some were rounded up and sent in 1 8 3 2 to +Oklahoma, where they were given a land base, the Seminole Nation +has never ceased to exist in the Everglades. + +T H E M Y T H I C A L F O U N D AT I O N O F S E T T L E R PAT R I OT I S M + +Between 1 8 1 4 and 1 8 2 4 , three-fourths of present-day Alabama and +Florida, a third of Tennessee, a fifth of Georgia and Mississippi, and +parts of Kentucky and North Carolina became the private property +of white settlers-all of the land seized from Indigenous farmers. In +1 8 2 4 , the first permanent US colonial institution was established. +First named the Office of Indian Affairs and placed tellingly within +the Department of War, the agency was transferred to the Depart- + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +103 + +ment of Interior twenty-five years later following the annexation +of half of Mexico. In making this transfer, the federal government +showed overconfidence in assuming that armed Indigenous resis­ +tance to US aggression and colonization had ended. Such resistance +would continue for another half century. +Whereas white supremacy had been the working rationalization +for British theft of Indigenous lands and for European enslavement +of Africans, the bid for independence by what became the United +States of America was more problematic. Democracy, equality, and +equal rights do not fit well with dominance of one race by another, +much less with genocide, settler colonialism, and empire. It was +during the l 8 2os-the beginning of the era of Jacksonian settler +democracy-that the unique US origin myth evolved reconciling +rhetoric with reality. Novelist James Fenimore Cooper was among +its initial scribes. +Cooper's reinvention of the birth of the United States in his novel + +The Last of the Mahicans has become the official US origin story. +Herman Melville called Cooper "our national novelist."18 Cooper +was the wealthy son of a US congressman, a land speculator who +built Cooperstown, named after himself, in upstate New York +where he grew up. His hometown was christened all-American with +the establishment of the National Baseball Hall of Fame there in +19 3 6, during the Depression. Expelled from Yale, Cooper joined the +navy, then married and began writing. In 1 8 2 3 , he published The + +Pioneers, the first book in his Leatherstocking Tales series, the other +four being The Last of the Mahicans, The Prairie, The Pathfinder, +and The Deers/ayer (the last published in 1 8 4 1 ) . Each featured the +character Natty Bumppo, also called variously, depending on his +age, Leatherstocking, Pathfinder, or Deerslayer. Bumppo is a Brit­ +ish settler on land appropriated from the Delaware Nation and is +buddies with its fictional Delaware leader Chingachgook (the "last +Mohican" in the myth). Together the Leatherstocking Tales narrate +the mythical forging of the new country from the 1 75 4-63 French +and Indian War in The Last of the Mahicans to the settlement of the +plains by migrants traveling by wagon train from Tennessee. At +the end of the saga Bumppo dies a very old man on the edge of the +Rocky Mountains, as he gazes east. 1 9 + + 104 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +The Last of the Mahicans, published in 1 8 26, was a best seller +throughout the nineteenth century and has been in print continu­ +ously since, with two Hollywood movies based on the story, the +most recent made in 199 2 , the Columbus Quincentennial.2° Cooper +devised a fictional counterpoint of celebration to the dark under­ +belly of the new American nation-the birth of something new and +wondrous, literally, the US American race, a new people born of +the merger of the best of both worlds, the Native and the European, +not biological merger but something more ephemeral, involving +the dissolving of the Indian. In the novel, Cooper has the last of the +"noble" and "pure" Natives die off as nature would have it, with +the " last Mohican" handing the continent over to Hawkeye, the +nativized settler, his adopted son. This convenient fantasy could be +seen as quaint at best if it were not for its deadly staying power. +Cooper had much to do with creating the US origin myth to which +generations of historians have dedicated themselves, fortifying what +historian Francis Jennings has described as "exclusion from the pro­ +cess of formation of American society and culture": +In the first place they [US historians] exclude Amerindians (as +also Afro-Americans) from participation, except as foils for +Europeans, and thus assume that American civilization was +formed by Europeans in a struggle against the savagery or +barbarism of the nonwhite races. This first conception implies +the second-that the civilization so formed is unique. In the +second conception uniqueness is thought to have been created +through the forms and processes of civilization's struggle on a +specifically American frontier. Alternatively, civilization was +able to triumph because the people who bore it were unique +from the beginning-a Chosen People or a super race. Either +way American culture is seen as not only unique but better +than all other cultures, precisely because of its differences +from them.21 + +US exceptionalism weaves through much of the literature produced +in the United States, not only the writing of historians. Although + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +Wallace Stegner decried the devastation wrought by imperialism +on Indigenous peoples and the land, he reinforced the idea of US +uniqueness by reducing colonization to a twist of fate that produced +some charming characteristics: +Ever since Daniel Boone took his first excursion over Cumber­ +land Gap, Americans have been wanderers . . . . With a conti­ +nent to take over and Manifest Destiny to goad us, we could +not have avoided being footloose. The initial act of emigration +from Europe, an act of extreme, deliberate disaffiliation, was +the beginning of a national habit. +It should not be denied, either, that being footloose has al­ +ways exhilarated us. It is associated in our minds with escape +from history and oppression and law and irksome obligations, +with absolute freedom, and the road has always led west. Our +folk heroes and our archetypal literary figures accurately re­ +flect that side of us. Leatherstocking, Huckleberry Finn, the +narrator of Moby Dick, all are orphans and wanderers; any of +them could say, "Call me Ishmael." The Lone Ranger has no +dwelling place except the saddle. 22 +The British novelist and critic D. H. Lawrence, who lived in +northern New Mexico for two years, conceptualized the US origin +myth, invoking Cooper's frontiersman character Deerslayer: "You +have there the myth of the essential white America. All the other +stuff, the love, the democracy, the floundering into lust, is a sort of +by-play. The essential American soul is hard, isolate, stoic, and a +killer. It has never yet melted."23 +Historian Wai-chee Dimock points out that nonfiction sources of +the time reflected the same view: +The United States Magazine and Democratic Review summed +it up by arguing that whereas European powers "conquer only +to enslave," America, being "a free nation," "conquers only +to bestow freedom." . . . Far from being antagonistic, "em­ +pire" and "liberty" are instrumentally conjoined. If the for­ +mer stands to safeguard the latter, the latter, in turn, serves +to justify the former. Indeed, the conjunction of the two, + +105 + + 106 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +of freedom and dominion, gives America its sovereign place +in history-its Manifest Destiny, as its advocates so aptly +called it. 24 +Reconciling empire and liberty-based on the violent taking of +Indigenous lands-into a usable myth allowed for the emergence +of an enduring populist imperialism. Wars of conquest and ethnic +cleansing could be sold to "the people"-indeed could be fought for +by the young men of those very people-by promising to expand +economic opportunity, democracy, and freedom for all. +The publication arc of the Leatherstocking Tales parallels the +Jackson presidency. For those who consumed the books in that pe­ +riod and throughout the nineteenth century-generations of young +white men-the novels became perceived fact, not fiction, and the +basis for the coalescence of US American nationalism. Behind the +legend was a looming real-life figure, the archetype that inspired +the stories, namely, Daniel Boone, an icon of US settler colonialism. +Boone's life spanned from 1 7 3 4 to 1 8 20, precisely the period cov­ +ered in the Leatherstocking series. Boone was born in Berks County, +Pennsylvania, on the edge of British settlement. He is an avatar of +the moving colonial-Indigenous frontier. To the west lay "Indian +Country," claimed through the Doctrine of Discovery by both Brit­ +ain and France but free of European settlers save for a few traders, +trappers, and soldiers manning colonial outposts. +Daniel Boone died in 1 8 2 0 in Missouri, a part of the vast ter­ +ritory acquired in the 1 8 03 Louisiana Purchase. When Missouri +opened for settlement, the Boone family led the initial settlers there. +His body was taken for burial in Frankfort, Kentucky, the covenant +heart of the Ohio Country, Indian Country, for which the revolution +had been fought and in which he had been the trekker superhero, +almost a deity. Daniel Boone became a celebrity at age fifty in 1784, +a year after the end of the war of independence. Real estate entre­ +preneur John Filson, seeking settlers to buy property in the Ohio +Country, wrote and self-published The Discovery, Settlement and + +Present State of Kentucke, along with a map to guide illegal squat­ +ters . The book contained an appendix about Daniel Boone, purport­ +edly written by Boone himself. That part of the book on Boone's + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +107 + +"adventures" subsequently was published as "The Adventures of +Col. Daniel Boone" in the American Magazine in 1 7 8 7, then as a +book. Thereby a superstar was born-the mythical hero, the hunter, +the "Man Who Knows Indians,'' as Richard Slotkin has described +this US American archetype: +The myth of the hunter that had grown up about the figure +of Filson's Daniel Boone provided a framework within which +Americans attempted to define their cultural identity, social +and political values, historical experience, and literary aspira­ +tions . . . . Daniel Boone, Washington, Franklin, and Jefferson +were heroes to the whole nation because their experiences had +reference to many or all of these common experiences. "The +Hunters of Kentucky,'' a popular song that swept the nation +in 1 8 22-2 8 , helped elect Andrew Jackson as President by as­ +sociating him with Boone, the hero of the West. 25 +Yet the Leatherstocking's positive twist on genocidal colonialism +was based on the reality of invasion, squatting, attacking, and colo­ +nizing of the Indigenous nations. Neither Filson nor Cooper created +that reality. Rather, they created the narratives that captured the +experience and imagination of the Anglo-American settler, stories +that were surely instrumental in nullifying guilt related to genocide +and set the pattern of narrative for future US writers, poets, and +historians. + +COM M A N D E R AND C H I E F + +Andrew Jackson is enshrined in most US history texts in a chapter +titled "The Age of Jackson," "The Age of Democracy," "The Birth +of Democracy," or some variation thereon. 26 The Democratic Party +claims Jackson and Jefferson as its founders. Every year, state and +national Democratic organizations hold fund-raising events they call +Jefferson-Jackson Dinners. They understand that Thomas Jefferson +was the thinker and Jackson the doer in forging populist democracy +for full participation in the fruits of colonialism based on the oppor­ +tunity available to Anglo settlers. + + 108 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +Jackson carried out the original plan envisioned by the found­ +ers-particularly Jefferson-initially as a Georgia militia leader, +then as an army general who led four wars of aggression against the +Muskogees in Georgia and Florida, and finally as a president who +engineered the expulsion of all Native peoples east of the Mississippi +to the designated "Indian Territory." As the late Cherokee principal +chief Wilma Mankiller wrote in her autobiography: +The fledgling United States government's method of dealing +with native people-a process which then included systematic +genocide, property theft, and total subjugation-reached its +nadir in 1 8 3 0 under the federal policy of President Andrew +Jackson. More than any other president, he used forcible re­ +moval to expel the eastern tribes from their land. From the +very birth of the nation, the United States government truly +had carried out a vigorous operation of extermination and +removal. Decades before Jackson took office, during the ad­ +ministration of Thomas Jefferson, it was already cruelly ap­ +parent to many Native American leaders that any hope for +tribal autonomy was cursed. So were any thoughts of peaceful +coexistence with white citizens .27 +It's not that Jackson had a "dark side," as his apologists rational­ +ize and which all human beings have, but rather that Jackson was +the Dark Knight in the formation of the United States as a colonial­ +ist, imperialist democracy, a dynamic formation that continues to +constitute the core of US patriotism. The most revered presidents­ +Jefferson, Jackson, Lincoln, Wilson, both Roosevelts, Truman, +Kennedy, Reagan, Clinton, Obama-have each advanced populist +imperialism while gradually increasing inclusion of other groups +beyond the core of descendants of old settlers into the ruling mythol­ +ogy. All the presidents after Jackson march in his footsteps. Con­ +sciously or not, they refer back to him on what is acceptable, how +to reconcile democracy and genocide and characterize it as freedom +for the people. +Jackson was a national military hero, but he was rooted in the +Scots-Irish frontier communities, most of whose people, unlike + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +him, remained impoverished. Their small farms were hard-pressed +to compete with large plantations with thousands of acres of cot­ +ton planted and each tended by hundreds of enslaved Africans. +Land-poor white rural people saw Jackson as the man who would +save them, making land available to them by ridding it of Indians, +thereby setting the pattern of the dance between poor and rich US +Americans ever since under the guise of equality of opportunity. +When Jackson was inaugurated in 1 8 29 , he opened the White House +to the public, the majority in attendance being humble poor whites. +Jackson was easily reelected in 1 8 3 2 , although landless settlers had +acquired very little land, and what little they seized was soon lost +to speculators, transformed into ever larger plantations worked by +slave labor. +The late Jackson biographer Michael Paul Ragin observed: +Indian removal was Andrew Jackson's major policy aim in +the quarter-century before he became President. His Indian +wars and treaties were principally responsible for dispossess­ +ing the southern Indians during those years. His presidential +Indian removal finished the job . . . . During the years of Jack­ +sonian Democracy, 1 8 24-5 2 , five of the ten major candidates +for President had either won reputations as generals in Indian +wars or served as Secretary of War, whose major responsibil­ +ity in this period was relations with the Indians. Historians, +however, have failed to place Indians at the center of Jackson's +life. They have interpreted the Age of Jackson from every per­ +spective but Indian destruction, the one from which it actually + +developed historically. 28 + +Once elected president, Jackson lost no time in initiating the +removal of all the Indigenous farmers and the destruction of all +their towns in the South. In his first annual message to Congress, +he wrote: "The emigration should be voluntary, for it would be as +cruel as unjust to compel the aborigines to abandon the graves of +their fathers and seek a home in a distant land. But they should be +distinctly informed that if they remain within the limits of the States +they must be subject to their laws. In return for their obedience as +individuals they will without doubt be protected in the enjoyment + +109 + + 110 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +of those possessions which they have improved by their industry."29 +This political code language barely veils the intention to forcibly +remove the Cherokee, Chickasaw, Choctaw, Muskogee, and Semi­ +nole Nations, followed by all other Indigenous communities from +east of the Mississippi River, except for the many who could not be +rounded up and remained, without land, without acknowledgment, +until the successful struggles of some of them for recognition in the +late twentieth century. +The state of Georgia saw Jackson's election as a green light and +claimed most of the Cherokee Nation's territory as public land. +The Georgia legislature resolved that the Cherokee constitution +and laws were null and void and that Cherokees were subject to +Georgia law. The Cherokee Nation took a case against Georgia +to the US Supreme Court. With Chief Justice John Marshall writ­ +ing for the maj ority, the Court ruled in favor of the Cherokees. +Jackson ignored the Supreme Court, however, in effect saying that +John Marshall had made his decision and Marshall would have to +enforce it if he could, although he, Jackson, had an army while +Marshall did not. +While the case was working its way through the courts , gold +was discovered in Georgia in 1 8 29 , which quickly brought some +forty thousand eager gold seekers to run roughshod over Cherokee +lands, squatting, looting, killing, and destroying fields and game +parks. Under authority granted by the Indian Removal Act, passed +by Congress in 1 8 3 0 , the United States drew up a treaty that would +cede all Cherokee lands to the government in exchange for land in +" Indian Territory." The US government held Cherokee leaders in +jail and closed their printing press during negotiations with a few +handpicked Cherokees, who provided the bogus signatures Jackson +needed as a cover for forced removal. 30 + +TRA I LS O F TEARS + +Not only the great southern nations were driven into exile, but also +nearly all the Native nations east of the Mississippi were forced off +their lands and relocated to Indian Territory, seventy thousand peo- + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +111 + +pie in all. During the Jacksonian period, the United States made +eighty-six treaties with twenty-six Indigenous nations between New +York and the Mississippi, all of them forcing land sessions, includ­ +ing removals. Some communities fled to Canada and Mexico rather +than going to Indian Territory. 31 When Sauk leader Black Hawk +led his people back from a winter stay in Iowa to their homeland +in Illinois in 1 8 3 2 to plant corn, the squatter settlers there claimed +they were being invaded, bringing in both Illinois militia and federal +troops. The " Black Hawk War" that is narrated in history texts was +no more than a slaughter of Sauk farmers. The Sauks tried to defend +themselves but were starving when Black Hawk surrendered under +a white flag. Still the soldiers fired, resulting in a bloodbath. In his +surrender speech, Black Hawk spoke bitterly of the enemy: +You know the cause of our making war. It is known to all +white men. They ought to be ashamed of it. Indians are not +deceitful. The white men speak bad of the Indian and look +at him spitefully. But the Indian does not tell lies. Indians do +not steal. An Indian who is as bad as the white men could +not live in our nation; he would be put to death and eaten up +by the wolves . . . . We told them to leave us alone, and keep +away from us; they followed on, and beset our paths, and they +coiled themselves among us, like the snake. They poisoned us +by their touch. We were not safe. We lived in danger. 32 +The Sauks were rounded up and driven onto a reservation called Sac +and Fox. +Most Cherokees had held out in remaining in their homeland +despite pressure from federal administrations from Jefferson on to +migrate voluntarily to the Arkansas- Oklahoma-Missouri area of +the Louisiana Purchase territory. The Cherokee Nation addressed +removal: +We are aware that some persons suppose it will be for our +advantage to remove beyond the Mississippi. We think other­ +wise. Our people universally think otherwise . . . . We wish to +remain on the land of our fathers. We have a perfect and origi­ +nal right to remain without interruption or molestation. The + + 112 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +treaties with us, and laws of the United States made in pursu­ +ance of treaties, guarantee our residence and our privileges, +and secure us against intruders. Our only request is, that these +treaties may be fulfilled, and these laws executed. 33 +A few contingents of Cherokees settled in Arkansas and what +became Indian Territory as early as 1 8 1 7. There was a larger migra­ +tion in 1 8 3 2 , which came after the Indian Removal Act. The 1 8 3 8 +forced march o f the Cherokee Nation, now known a s the Trail of +Tears, was an arduous journey from remaining Cherokee homelands +in Georgia and Alabama to what would later become northeast­ +ern Oklahoma. After the Civil War, journalist James Mooney inter­ +viewed people who had been involved in the forced removal. Based +on these firsthand accounts, he described the scene in 1 8 3 8 , when +the US Army removed the last of the Cherokees by force: +Under [General Winfield] Scott's orders the troops were dis­ +posed at various points throughout the Cherokee country, +where stockade forts were erected for gathering in and hold­ +ing the Indians preparatory to removal. From these, squads +of troops were sent to search out with rifle and bayonet every +small cabin hidden away in the coves or by sides of mountain +streams, to seize and bring in as prisoners all the occupants, +however or wherever they might be found. Families at dinner +were startled by the sudden gleam of bayonets in the doorway +and rose up to be driven with blows and oaths along the weary +miles of trail that led to the stockade. Men were seized in their +fields or going along the road, women were taken from their +wheels and children from their play. In many cases, on turn­ +ing for one last look as they crossed the ridge, they saw their +homes in flames, fired by the lawless rabble that followed on +the heels of the soldiers to loot and pillage . So keen were these +outlaws on the scene that in some instances they were driv­ +ing off the cattle and other stock of the Indians almost before +the soldiers had fairly started their owners in the other direc­ +tion. Systematic hunts were made by the same men for Indian +graves, to rob them of the silver pendants and other valuables + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +deposited with the dead. A Georgia volunteer, afterward a +colonel in the Confederate service, said: "I fought through the +civil war and have seen men shot to pieces and slaughtered by +thousands, but the Cherokee removal was the cruelest work I +ever knew."34 +Half of the sixteen thousand Cherokee men, women, and chil­ +dren who were rounded up and force-marched in the dead of winter +out of their country perished on the journey. +The Muskogees and Seminoles suffered similar death rates in +their forced transfer, while the Chickasaws and Choctaws lost +around 15 percent of their people en route. An eyewitness account +by Alexis de Tocqueville, the French observer of the day, captures +one of thousands of similar scenes in the forced deportation of the +Indigenous peoples from the Southeast: +I saw with my own eyes several of the cases of misery which +I have been describing; and I was the witness of sufferings +which I have not the power to portray. +At the end of the year 1 8 3 1 , whilst I was on the left bank +of the Mississippi at a place named by Europeans Memphis, +there arrived a numerous band of Choctaws (or Chactas, as +they are called by the French in Louisiana). These savages had +left their country, and were endeavoring to gain the right bank +of the Mississippi, where they hoped to find an asylum which +had been promised them by the American government. It was +then the middle of winter, and the cold was unusually severe; +the snow had frozen hard upon the ground, and the river was +drifting huge masses of ice. The Indians had their families +with them; and they brought in their train the wounded and +sick, with children newly born, and old men upon the verge +of death. They possessed neither tents nor wagons, but only +their arms and some provisions. I saw them embark to pass +the mighty river, and never will that solemn spectacle fade +from my remembrance. No cry, no sob was heard amongst +the assembled crowd; all were silent. Their calamities were +of ancient date, and they knew them to be irremediable. The + +113 + + 114 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Indians had all stepped into the bark which was to carry them +across, but their dogs remained upon the bank. As soon as +these animals perceived that their masters were finally leav­ +ing the shore, they set up a dismal howl, and, plunging all +together into the icy waters of the Mississippi, they swam after +the boat.35 +In his biography of Jackson, Rogin points out that this was no +endgame: "The dispossession of the Indians . . . did not happen once +and for all in the beginning. America was continually beginning +again on the frontier, and as it expanded across the continent, it +killed, removed, and drove into extinction one tribe after another."3 6 +Against all odds, some Indigenous peoples refused to be removed +and stayed in their traditional homelands east of the Mississippi. +In the South, the communities that did not leave lost their tradi­ +tional land titles and status as Indians in the eyes of the government, +but many survived as peoples, some fighting successfully in the late +twentieth century for federal acknowledgment and official Indig­ +enous status. In the north, especially in New England, some states +had illegally taken land and created guardian systems and small +reservations, such as those of the Penobscots and Passamaquoddies +in Maine, both of which won lawsuits against the states and at­ +tained federal acknowledgment during the militant movements of +the 19 70s. Many other Native nations have been able to increase +their land bases. + +T H E P E R S I STENCE O F D E N IAL + +Andrew Jackson was born to squatters under British rule on Indig­ +enous land. His life followed the trajectory of continental imperial­ +ism as he made his career of taking Indigenous land, from the time +of Jefferson's presidency to the elimination of Indigenous nations +east of the Mississippi. This process was the central fact of US poli­ +tics and the basis for the US economy. Two-thirds of the US popula­ +tion of nearly four million at the time of independence lived within +fifty miles of the Atlantic Ocean. During the following half century, +more than four million settlers crossed the Appalachians, one of the + + The Last of the Mahicans and Andrew Jackson's White Republic + +largest and most rapid migrations in world history. Jackson was an +actor who made possible the implementation of the imperialist proj ­ +ect of the independent United States, but he was also an exponent +of the Euro-American popular will that favored imperialism and the +virtually free land it provided them. +D uring the period of Jackson's military and executive power, a +mythology emerged that defined the contours and substance of the +US origin narrative, which has weathered nearly two centuries and +remains intact in the early twenty-first century as patriotic cant, a +civic religion invoked in Barack Obama's presidential inaugural ad­ +dress in January 2009 : +In reaffirming the greatness of our nation, we understand that +greatness is never a given. It must be earned. Our journey has +never been one of shortcuts or settling for less. +It has not been the path for the faint-hearted, for those who +prefer leisure over work, or seek only the pleasures of riches +and fame. +Rather, it has been the risk-takers, the doers, the makers of +things-some celebrated, but more often men and women ob­ +scure in their labor-who have carried us up the long, rugged +path towards prosperity and freedom. +For us, they packed up their few worldly possessions and +traveled across oceans in search of a new life. For us, they +toiled in sweatshops and settled the West, endured the lash of +the whip and plowed the hard earth. +For us, they fought and died in places like Concord and +Gettysburg; Normandy and Khe Sanh. +Time and again these men and women struggled and sac­ +rificed and worked till their hands were raw so that we might +live a better life. They saw America as bigger than the sum of +our individual ambitions; greater than all the differences of +birth or wealth or faction. +This is the journey we continue today. 37 +Spoken like a true descendant of old settlers. President Obama raised +another key element of the national myth in an interview a few days + +115 + + 116 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +later with Al Arabiya television in Dubai. Affirming that the United +States could be an honest broker in the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, +he said: "We sometimes make mistakes. We have not been perfect. +But if you look at the track record, as you say, America was not born +as a colonial power." +The affirmation of democracy requires the denial of colonialism, +but denying it does not make it go away. + + SEVEN + +SE A TO S H I N I N G S E A + +These Spaniards [Mexicans] are the meanest looking +race of people I ever saw, don't appear more civilized +than our Indians generally. Dirty, "filthy looking creatures. +- + +Capta i n Lemuel Ford, 1835 + +That the Indian race of Mexico must recede before us, is quite as +certain as that that is the destiny of our own Indians. +-Waddy Thompson Jr., 183 6 + +Captain Lemuel Ford of the First Dragoons, United States Army, +made the above observation in his diary, referring to Comanche­ +ros, Mexican traders in northern Mexico who traded and intermar­ +ried primarily with Comanches on the plains. Waddy Thompson Jr. +served as a US diplomat to Mexico from 1842 to 1 84 4 . 1 Army offi­ +cers like Ford and diplomats like Thompson were not exceptional in +their racist views. Indian hating and white supremacy were part and +parcel of "democracy" and "freedom." +The populist poet of Jacksonian democracy, Walt Whitman, sang +the song of manhood and the Anglo-American super race that had +been steeled through empire. As an enthusiastic supporter of the US +war against Mexico in 1846, Whitman proposed the stationing of +sixty thousand US troops in Mexico in order to establish a regime +change there "whose efficiency and permanency shall be guaranteed +by the United States. This will bring out enterprise, open the way for +manufacturers and commerce, into which the immense dead capi­ +tal of the country [Mexico] will find its way."2 Whitman explicitly +grounded this prescription in racism: "The nigger, like the lnjun, +will be eliminated; it is the law of the races, history. . . . A superior + +117 + + 118 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +grade of rats come and then all the minor rats are cleared out." The +whole world would benefit from US expansion: "We pant to see our +country and its rule far-reaching. What has miserable, inefficient +Mexico . . . to do with the great mission of peopling the New World +with a noble race ? "3 In September 1 846, when General Zachary +Taylor's troops captured Monterrey, Whitman hailed it as " ''another +clinching proof of the indomitable energy of the Anglo-Saxon char­ +acter."4 Whitman's sentiments reflected the established US origin +myth that had the frontier settlers replacing the Native peoples as +historical destiny, adding his own theoretical twist of what would +later be called social Darwinism. + +US O V E R S E A S I M P E R I A L I S M + +Traversing the continent "from sea to shining sea" was hardly a natu­ +ral westward procession of covered wagons as portrayed in Western +movies . The US invasion of Mexico was carried out by US marines, +by sea, through Veracruz, and the early colonization of California +initially progressed from the Pacific coast, reached from the Atlantic +coast by way of Tierra del Fuego. Between the Mississippi River +and the Rockies lay a vast region controlled by Indigenous nations +that were neither conquered nor colonized by any European power, +and although the United States managed to annex northern Mexico, +large numbers of settlers could not reach the Northern California +goldfields or the fertile Willamette Valley region of the Pacific North­ +west without army regiments accompanying them. Why then does +the popular US historical narrative of a "natural" westward move­ +ment persist? The answer is that those who still hold to the narrative +remain captives of the ideology of "manifest destiny," according +to which the United States expanded across the continent to assume +its preordained size and shape. This ideology normalizes the succes­ +sive invasions and occupations of Indigenous nations and Mexico +as not being colonialist or imperialist, rather simply ordained prog­ +ress. In this view, Mexico was j ust another Indian nation to be +crushed. + + Sea to Shining Sea + +The US invasion of Mexico has also been characterized as the +first US "foreign" war, but it was not. By 1 846, the United States +had invaded, occupied, and ethnically cleansed dozens of foreign +nations east of the Mississippi. Then there were the Barbary Wars. +The opening lyric of the official hymn of the US Marine Corps, +composed and adopted soon after the invasion of Mexico, " From +the Halls of Montezuma to the shores of Tripoli," refers in part to +1 8 01-5 , when the marines were dispatched by President Thomas +Jefferson to invade the Berber Nation of North Africa. This was the +"First Barbary War," the ostensible goal of which was to persuade +Tripoli to release US sailors it held hostage and to end "pirate " attacks +on US merchant ships.5 The " Second Barbary War," in 1 8 15-16, +ended when pasha Yusuf Karamanli, ruler of Tripoli, agreed not to +exact fees from US ships entering their territorial waters. +By this time, throughout Spain's American colonies, wars of in­ +dependence flamed, the leaders of these revolutions inspired by the +French Revolution and the Haitian Revolution. A successful inde­ +pendence movement arose in France's Caribbean plantation slave +colony of Haiti in 1 8 0 1 , when the majority enslaved African popu­ +lation overthrew the French planters and declared an independent +nation-state. This was the first permanently successful national lib­ +eration movement against European colonialism in the world. The +prevailing myth claims that the colonized peoples fighting for inde­ +pendence from Spain were inspired by successful US secession from +Britain but this is a dubious claim. +Simon Bolivar was a major leader of the independence move­ +ments in South America. He visited liberated Haiti in 1 8 1 5 , a trip +that sharpened his hatred for slavery and led to its abolishment in +the independent nations that formed in South America. Bolivar and +liberator Jose de San Martin were founders of the unitary republic +they named Gran Colombia, which survived from 1 8 19 to 1 8 3 0 with +Bolivar as president. Subsequently, Gran Colombia splintered into +the nation-states of Venezuela, Colombia (which then included Pan­ +ama), Ecuador, Peru, and Bolivia. A similar unitary nation formed +in Central America called the United Provinces of Central America, +with its capital in Guatemala City, which existed from l 8 2 I to 1 8 4 1 , + +119 + + 120 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +thereafter splitting into the present separate small states. In both +cases the larger and stronger unitary federations were subject to eco­ +nomic intervention and domination by the British and US empires. +Father Miguel Hidalgo, a priest who was instrumental in the +Mexican independence movement, was deeply assimilated into In­ +digenous society in Mexico, and the maj ority of the movement's +insurgent fighters were drawn from Indigenous nations. Most of the +actual fighters in the independence movements led by San Martin +and Bolf var in South America were also Indigenous, representing +their communities and nations, fighting for their own liberation as +peoples. In striking contrast, the US war of independence targeted +the Indigenous nations as enemies. The Indigenous communities in +the new South American republics were soon dominated economi­ +cally and politically by national landed elites that consolidated their +power following the wars of independence. However, Indigenous +peoples whose ancestors fought for liberation from Spanish colo ­ +nialism have never forgotten their important role in those revolu­ +tionary movements and realize that the liberation process continues. +The Indigenous peoples of Latin America feel they own those revo­ +lutions, whereas the US secession from Great Britain was the inten­ +tional founding of a white republic that planned elimination of the +Indigenous peoples as territorial-based, collective societies. +The period of US intervention to annex and dominate former +Spanish territories in the Americas began not in 1 8 9 8 with the +Spanish-American War, as most history texts claim, but rather nearly +a century before, during Jefferson's presidency, with the Zebulon M. +Pike expedition of 1 8 0 6-7. Those historians who track "continental +expansion" separately from clear actions of US imperialism rarely +note the juxtaposition in time and presidential administration of the +interventions in North Africa and Mexico on the eve of its liberation +from Spain. Like the Lewis and Clark expedition, completed the +same year that Pike set off, the Pike expedition was a military proj ­ +ect ordered by President Jefferson. Lewis and Clark had headed into +the far reaches of the newly acquired Louisiana Territory to gather +intelligence on the Mandan, Hidatsa, Paiute, Shoshone, Ute, and +many other nations in the huge swath of territory between the Rock- + + Sea to Shining Sea + +ies and the Pacific, bordered by Spanish-occupied territory on the +west and south and British Canada on the north. 6 Pike and his small +force of soldiers and Osage hostages had orders to illegally enter +Spanish territory to gather information that would later be used for +military invasion. Under the guise of having gone astray, Pike and +his contingent found themselves inside Spanish-occupied northern +New Mexico (today's southern Colorado), where they "discovered" +Pikes Peak and built a fort. Ultimately, as they had undoubtedly +planned, they were taken into custody by Spanish authorities who +transported them to Chihuahua, Mexico, allowing Pike and his men +to observe and make notes about northern Mexico on the way. More +important, they collected information on Spanish military resources +and behavior and the location of and relations among civilian popu­ +lations . Pike was released, and in l 8 r o published his findings. Later +titled The Expeditions of Zebulon Montgomery Pike, the book was +a best seller.7 + +U S C O L O N I Z AT I O N O F N O R T H E R N M E X I C O + +The instability of the impoverished new republic of Mexico, as it +emerged in 1 8 2 1 from more than three centuries of Spanish colonial­ +ism and an exhausting war of national liberation, put it in a weak +position to defend its territory against US aggression . With Spain +out of the way, the United States could pursue its own policy of im­ +perialism without risking a difficult war with European imperialist +powers-what George Washington had referred to in his farewell +address when he warned against "foreign entanglements ." Once +Mexico was independent, its newly formed government immediately +opened its borders to trade, something Spanish authorities had never +allowed. US trader William Becknell arrived at Taos in the Mexican +province of Nuevo Mexico from St. Louis in 1 8 2 1 , and a US trading +party led by Sylvester Pattie arrived in 1 8 2 4 . 8 Traders based in St. +Louis, at the time the effective western frontier outpost of the United +States, began extending their business to New Mexico. Until the +publication of Pike's book in l 8 ro, US merchants had shown little + +121 + + 122 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +interest in trading in Mexico. Pike's account of the potential profits +to be made inspired them to set out to capture that trade. 9 +US traders would help pave the way t o US political control of +northern Mexico through what came to be known as the "Ameri­ +can party of Taos." Christopher Houston " Kit" Carson would play +a major role in the success of the US invasion of northern Mex­ +ico as he continued work as a colonial mercenary. Born in 1 8 09 in +Kentucky, Carson was a fur trapper and entrepreneur, as well as a +noted Indian hater and killer, who had left his family's homestead +in Missouri for New Mexico at age sixteen. Most of the US citizens +who made up the American party, including Carson, married into +wealthy Spanish-identified families in New Mexico who had not +favored independence from Spain, creating a strong Anglo affinity +within the local ruling class. The goal of this clique was to attract, +and thus monopolize, the trade in furs with Indigenous and other +trappers, with the ultimate goal of US annexation. As a magnet, the +traders would offer low-priced manufactured goods, from clothing +to kitchenware, tools, and furniture. St. Louis was connected to +transatlantic trading houses in cities on the East Coast, so it had the +advantage of better variety and quality of goods than those of Chi­ +huahua traders, who relied on the declining port of Veracruz. Bent's +Fort (near present-day La Junta, Colorado) became the economic +center for the fur trade in northern New Mexico, rivaling only John +Jacob Astor's American Fur Company in North America. Missouri +merchants circumvented the Mexican prohibition against exports +of silver and gold (lifted briefly for silver between 1 8 2 8 and 1 8 3 5 ) +through smuggling and bribery. 1 0 +St. Louis soon replaced Chihuahua as the entrepot for the north­ +ern Mexico trade, and the elite of Mexico's northern provinces be­ +came parties to the US objective of incorporating the territory into +the United States. As early as 1 8 24 , Missouri senator Thomas Hart +Benton introduced a bill in the US Senate on behalf of citizens of +Missouri for a US government survey of the Santa Fe Trail to the +Mexican border. In 1 8 3 2 , President Andrew Jackson began using +US troops to protect caravans of merchandise on the Santa Fe Trail +going to northern Mexico from possible interference by Indigenous +peoples whose territories they crossed without permission. + + Sea to Shining Sea + +123 + +In addition to New Mexico, US citizen residents laid groundwork +for the annexation of Mexico in Texas and California as well. The +Spanish Cortes (parliament) had enacted a law in 1'8 13 that autho­ +rized provincial authorities to make private property land grants, +and this practice of granting land to individuals, including foreign­ +ers, was continued under the independent Mexican government +until 1 8 2 8 . In 1 8 23 , Mexico's despotic ruler Agustin de Iturbide +enacted a colonization law authorizing the national government to +enter into a contract granting land to an empresario, or promoter, +who was required to recruit a minimum of two hundred families to +settle the grant. Only applied in the province of Texas, many such +grants were sought by and granted to slave-owning Anglo-American +entrepreneurs, despite slavery being illegal in Mexico, making pos­ +sible their dominance in the province and leading to Mexico's loss of +Texas in 1 8 3 6 . 1 1 +Senator Benton, h i s son-in-law Captain John C . Fremont, and +Kit Carson also helped pave the way for the invasion of Northern +California. In the early 1 840s, Benton and his daughter, Jessie-Fre­ +mont's wife-built a booster press to entice settlers to the Oregon +Territory as well as to settle in the Mexican province of California. +At the same time, Fremont and his guide Carson mounted five ex­ +peditions to gather information, laying the groundwork for military +conquest. The third expedition illegally entered the Sacramento Val­ +ley region from the north in early 1 846, just before the United States +declared war against Mexico. Fremont encouraged Anglo settlers in +the Central Valley to side with the United States, promising military +protection if war broke out. Once a US warship was positioned for +war, Fremont was appointed lieutenant colonel of the California +Battalion, as if it had all been planned in advance. 12 +Exploration and intelligence gathered by Pike, followed by infil­ +tration and settlement of northern Mexican provinces preceded by +US entrepreneurs, finally culminated in military invasion and war. US +forces fought their way from Mexico's main commercial port of +Veracruz on the Gulf of Mexico to the capital, Mexico City, nearly +three hundred miles away. The US Army occupied the capital until +the Mexican government agreed to cede,its northern territories, cod­ +ified in the 1 848 Treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo. Texas had become a + + 124 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +US state at the end of 1 845 . California quickly acquired statehood +in 1 8 50, followed by Nevada in 1 8 64 , Colorado in 1 876, Wyoming +in 1 89 0 , Utah in 1 8 9 6, but the more densely populated Arizona and +New Mexico not until 19 1 2 . +The Land Ordinance o f I ] 8 5 had established a national system +for surveying and distributing land, and as one historian has noted, +" Under the May 1785 ordinance, Indian land would be auctioned off +to the highest bidder."13 The Northwest Ordinance of 1 7 8 7, albeit +guaranteeing Indigenous occupancy and title, set forth an evolution­ +ary colonization procedure for annexation via military occupation, +territorial status, and finally statehood. Conditions for statehood +would be achieved when the settlers outnumbered the Indigenous +population, which in the cases of both the Mexican cession area and +the Louisiana Purchase territory required decimation or forced re­ +moval of Indigenous populations. In this US system, unique among +colonial powers, land became the most important exchange com­ +modity for the accumulation of capital and building of the national +treasury. To understand the genocidal policy of the US government, +the centrality of land sales in building the economic base of the US +wealth and power must be seen. Apologists for US expansionism see +the 1 7 8 7 ordinance not as a reflection of colonialism, but rather as +a means of "reconciling the problem of liberty with the problem of +empire," in historian Howard Lamar's words. 14 +Following the Mexican War, the United States faced problems +more pressing than that of reconciling conflicting ideologies . For +one thing, the vast majority in the annexed territory were Indigenous +peoples or Mexican farmers and ranchers, landed communities. As +for the Navajos, Apaches, and Utes who had resisted for centuries all +colonization efforts by the Spanish and then the Mexican authori­ +ties, they continued to resist the new colonial regime. To understand +how the peoples of these regions responded to the US invasion and +conquest, and to understand their particular relationship with the +United States today, it is essential to understand their history under +Spanish colonization. + + Sea to Shining Sea + +INDIGENOUS PEOPLES OF +OCCU P I E D N O RT H E R N M E X I CO + +Although the Spanish Crown had dispatched explorers such as +Coronado, Cabeza de Baca, and others, and had established trading +and military posts and towns along the North American Atlantic +Coast and in Florida and along the Gulf Coast as far as the Missis­ +sippi, Spanish settler-colonialist rule did not begin north of the Rio +Grande until 159 8 . The soldier-settler colonizing mission launched +a brutal military assault on the Pueblo towns in New Mexico and +imposed state and church institutions. The colonizers found a thriv­ +ing irrigation-based agriculture supporting a population living in +ninety-eight interrelated city-states (pueblos, the Spanish called +them), and within two decades they reduced the towns to twenty­ +one. 15 Perhaps most provocative, given the Pueblos' extensive rituals +and numerous religious feast days, the Franciscan missionaries for­ +bade Pueblo religious practices and forced Christianity upon them. +As Spanish repression and labor exploitation intensified, the Pueblos +organized a revolution that also was supported by the unconquered +Navaj os, Apaches, and Utes, and the Hopi towns to the west in +what is now Arizona . They were joined by the servant and laboring +class of captive Indigenous and Mestizos in the Spanish capital at +Santa Fe. In 1680, they drove the Spanish out of New Mexico, leav­ +ing the Pueblos free for twelve years before a new and permanent +colonizing mission arrived. 1 6 During another l 3 o years of Spanish +rule before Mexico's independence, the Pueblos were strictly con­ +trolled and forced to provide foot soldiers for Spanish forays against +the Navaj os, Apaches, and Utes who were never colonized by the +Spanish. Mexico ousted the Franciscans and left the Pueblos to their +own lives, although much of their territory had been lost to perma nent settlers. +The two largest Mexican provinces annexed by the United States, +Coahuila y Tejas (Texas) and California, were more sparsely popu­ +lated and not as tightly centralized and organized as New Mex­ +ico. After 1692, as the Spanish Crown sent an army to invade and +reoccupy the Rio Grande Pueblos, it also sought effective control +and settlement of California and Texas, in part to create a large + +125 + + 126 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +buffer with competing French, British, and Russian imperialism. +After two centuries of dominance in the Americas, the Spanish state +was crumbling politically and economically. Having experienced a +depression in silver production in their American colonies and grow­ +ing competition from other European powers, the Spanish settled +on maintaining and expanding its northern holdings to hold back +French and British encroachment into the mining areas of the inte­ +rior of New Spain (Mexico). +In what is now the state of Texas, Spain built forts and expropri­ +ated land from the local Indigenous people, granting it to Spanish +settlers to farm and ranch. The first Spanish town in Texas, San An­ +tonio, was established in 1 7 1 8 , and Franciscan missionaries founded +the Mission San Antonio de Valero (the Alamo) . Spanish forts, mis­ +sions, and settlements dotted the territory, especially along the Rio +Grande from Matamoras to Laredo. The Indigenous peoples of +Texas included the Lupin Apaches, Jumanos, Coahuiltecans, Tonka­ +was, Karankawas, and Caddos, all of whom were more vulnerable +to colonization than the more mobile Comanches and Wichitas in +West Texas. By the time of Mexican independence, the Indigenous +population of the province was around fifty thousand, while Span­ +ish settlers numbered around thirty thousand. +During the first decade of Mexican independence, some ten thou­ +sand Cherokees, Seminoles, Shawnees, and many other Indigenous +communities east of the Mississippi avoided forced removal to In­ +dian Territory and escaped the iron heel of the United States, tak­ +ing refuge in Mexico. One such community was the people of the +Coahuila Kikapu (Kickapoo) Nation, forced out of its homeland +when Wisconsin was opened for settlement. The Tohono O'odam +Nation did not move anywhere, but the redrawn 1 8 4 8 border split +their homeland. The independent Republic of Mexico provided land +grants for their various communities. With Texas's independence +from Mexico, then US annexation, many moved south of the im­ +posed new border. 17 +The Republic of Mexico opened a door to US domination by +granting land to Anglo immigrants. During the first decade of Mexi­ +can independence, some thirty thousand Anglo-American farmers +and plantation owners, along with their slaves, poured into Texas, + + Sea to Shining Sea + +127 + +receiving development land grants. By the time Texas became a US +state in 1 845 , Anglo settlers numbered 1 60 , 0 0 0 . 1 8 Mexico abol­ +ished slavery in 1 8 29 , which affected the Anglo-American settlers' +quest for wealth in building plantations worked by enslaved Afri­ +cans. They lobbied the Mexican government for a reversal of the ban +and gained only a one-year extension to settle their affairs and free +their bonded workers-the government refused to legalize slavery. +The settlers decided to secede from Mexico, initiating the famous +and mythologized 1 8 3 6 Battle of the Alamo, where the mercenaries +James Bowie and Davy Crockett and slave owner William Travis +were killed. Although technically an Anglo-American loss, the siege +of the Alamo served to stir Anglo patriotic passions, and within a +month at the decisive Battle of San Jacinto, Mexico handed over the +province. This was a great victory for the Andrew Jackson admin­ +istration, for Jackson's brother, Mason, who was one of the Texas +planters, and especially for the alcoholic settler-warrior hero Sam +Houston: The former governor of Tennessee, Houston was made +commander in chief of the Texas army and president of the new +"Texas republic," which he helped guide to US statehood in 1 8 4 5 . +O n e o f the first acts o f the pro-slavery independent government was +to establish a counterinsurgency force that-as its name, the Texas +Rangers, suggests-followed the "American way of war" in destroy­ +ing Indigenous towns, eliminating Native nations in Texas, pursu­ +ing ethnic cleansing, and suppressing protest from Tejanos, former +Mexican citizens. 19 +Mission San Francisco de Asis, also called Mission Dolores, was +a Spanish Franciscan mission established on the Pacific Coast at the +same time as the Presidio (military base) at San Francisco-1 776, +the year that Anglo-Americans declared independence from Brit­ +ain. The purpose of the garrison was twofold: to protect the mis­ +sion from Indigenous inhabitants whose territory the Spanish were +usurping and to round up those same people and force them to live +and work for the Franciscan friars at the mission. Mission Dolores +was the sixth of the twenty-one Franciscan missions established be­ +tween 1 769 and 1 8 2 3 , when Mexico disbanded the missions. The +establishment of the missions and presidios from San Diego and +Los Angeles and Santa Barbara to Carmel, San Francisco, and So- + + 128 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +noma, traces the colonization of California's Indigenous nations. +The five-hundred-mile road that connected the missions was called +El Camino Real, the Royal Highway. +The Spanish military in California was divided into four districts, +each with Franciscan missions and strategically located presidios. +The 1 769 establishment of the first presidia in San Diego coincided +with establishment of the first Franciscan mission in California. The +second presidia was based in Monterey in 1 770, to defend the six +missions in the area as well as the mercury mines in the Santa Cruz +Mountains. Monterey became the capital and the only port of entry +for shipments to and from Spanish California, and it remained so +until 1 846, when the United States seized California. +These California Franciscan missions and their founder, Junipero +Serra, are extravagantly romanticized by modern California resi­ +dents and remain popular tourist sites. Very few visitors notice, +however, that in the middle of the plaza of each mission is a whip ­ +ping post. The history symbolized by that artifact is not dead and +buried with the generations of Indigenous bodies buried under the +California crust. The scars and trauma have been passed on from +generation to generation. Putting salt in the wound, as it were, Pope +John Paul II in 19 8 8 beatified Junipero Serra, the first step toward +sainthood. California Indigenous peoples were insulted by this act +and organized to prevent the sanctification of a person they consider +to have been an exponent of rape, torture, death, starvation, and +humiliation of their ancestors and the attempted destruction of their +cultures. Serra would take soldiers with him, randomly kidnapping +Indigenous individuals and families, recording these captures in his +diaries, as in this instance: " [When] one fled from between their [the +soldiers'] hands, they caught the other. They tied him, and it was all +necessary, for, even bound, he defended himself that they should not +bring him, and flung himself on the ground with such violence that +he scraped and bruised his thighs and knees. But at last they brought +him . . . . He was most frightened and very disturbed." 20 In 1 8 7 8 , a +old Kamia man named Janitin told an interviewer of his experience +as a child: "When we arrived at the mission, they locked me in a +room for a week . . . . Every day they lashed me unjustly because I +did not finish what I did not know how to do, and thus I existed for + + Sea to Shining Sea + +many days until I found a way to escape; but I was tracked and they +caught me like a fox." He was fastened to the stage and beaten to +unconsciousness. +California Indigenous peoples resisted this totalitarian order. +These insurgent actions are also recorded in official records and +diaries, but they seem to have interested few historians until the +civil rights era of the 1950s and 19 60s, when California Indigenous +peoples began to do their own research. They found that no mission +escaped uprising from within or attacks from outside by communi­ +ties of the imprisoned along with escapees. Guerrilla forces of up to +two thousand formed. Without this resistance, there would be no +descendants of the California Native peoples of the area colonized +by the Spanish. 21 +Under the protection of the US Army, beginning in 1 8 4 8 , gold +seekers from all over the world brought death, torture, rape, star­ +vation, and disease to the Indigenous peoples whose ancestral ter­ +ritories included the sought-after goldfields north and east of San +Francisco . As Alejandro Murguia describes it, unlike the Native +peoples for whom gold was irrelevant, the forty-niners "hungered +for gold with a sickness": +They would do anything for it. They left families, homes, ev­ +erything behind; they sailed for eight months aboard leaky, +smelly ships to reach California; others, captains and sailors, +jumped ship at San Francisco, leaving a fleet of abandoned +brigs, barks, and schooners to rot by the piers. They slaugh­ +tered all the game they could find and so muddied the rivers +and creeks with silt that the once plentiful salmon couldn't +survive. The herds of elk and deer, the food source for Native +Americans, were practically wiped out in one summer. The +miners cheated and killed each other in the gold fields. 22 +In a true reign of terror, US occupation and settlement extermi­ +nated more than one hundred thousand California Native people +in twenty-five years, reducing the population to thirty thousand by +1 8 70-quite possibly the most extreme demographic disaster of all +time. 23 Here too, against impossible odds, the Indigenous resisted + +129 + + 130 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +and survived to tell the story. Had they not done so, there would be +no Indigenous peoples remaining in Northern California, because +the objective was to eradicate them. From the onset of the California +gold rush, crazed "gold bugs" invade� Indigenous territories, terror­ +izing and brutally killing those who were in their path. These settlers +seemed to require no military assistance in running roughshod over +unarmed Indigenous residents of fishing communities in a bountiful +paradise of woods, rivers, and mountains. The role left for the US +Army was to round up the starving Indigenous refugees to transport +them to established reservations in Oregon and Oklahoma. + +THE WH ITE MAN'S BURDEN + +The two-year invasion and occupation of Mexico was a joyful ex­ +perience for most US citizens , as evidenced by Walt Whitman's +populist poetry. Its popularity was possible because of buoyant na­ +tionalism, and the war itself accelerated the spirit of nationalism +and confirmed the manifest destiny of the United States. Besides +new weapons of war and productive capacity brought about by the +emerging industrial revolution, there was also an advance in print­ +ing and publishing techniques, which increased the book publishing +market from $2.5 million in 1 8 3 0 to $ 1 2 .5 million in 1 8 5 0 . Most +of the books published during the five-year period leading up to, +during, and after the invasion were war-mongering tracts . Euro­ +American settlers were nearly all literate, and this was the period +of the foundational "American literature," with writers James Fen­ +imore Cooper, Walt Whitman, Edgar Allan Poe, John Greenleaf +Whittier, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, James Russell Lowell, +Ralph Waldo Emerson, Henry David Thoreau, Nathaniel Haw­ +thorne, and Herman Melville all active-each of whom remains +read, revered, and studied in the twenty-first century, as national +and nationalist writers, not as colonialists. +Although some of the writers, like Melville and Longfellow, paid +little attention to the war, most of the others either fiercely sup­ +ported it or opposed it. Whitman, a supporter, was also enamored +of the violent Indian- and Mexican-killing Texas Rangers. Whit- + + Sea to Shining Sea + +man saw the war as bolstering US self-respect and believed that a +"true American" would be unable to resist "this pride in our vic­ +torious armies." Emerson opposed the war as he did all wars. His +opposition to the Mexican War was based, however, not just on his +pacifism but also on his belief that the Mexican "race" would poison +Anglo-Americans through contact, the " heart of darkness" fear. +Emerson supported territorial expansion at any cost but would have +preferred it take place without war. +Most of the writers of the era were obsessed with heroism. Oppo­ +sition to the Mexican War came from writers who were active abo­ +litionists such as Thoreau, Whittier, and Lowell. They believed the +war was a plot of southern slave owners to extend slavery, punishing +Mexico for having outlawed slavery when it became independent +from Spain. However, even the abolitionists believed in the "mani­ +fest destiny of the English race," as Lowell put it in 1 8 59, "to occupy +this whole continent and to display there that practical understand­ +ing in matters of government and colonization which no other race +has given such proof of possessing since the Romans." 24 +President James K. Polk, who presided over the war, saw its sig­ +nificance as an example of how a democracy could carry on and win +a foreign war with as much "vigor" as authoritarian governments +were able to do. He believed that an elected civilian government with +its volunteer people's army was even more effective than European +monarchies in the quest for empire. The victory over Mexico proved +to the European powers, he felt, that the United States was their +equal. Standing tall through military victory over a weak country: +it was not Ronald Reagan or George W. Bush who thought up that +idea. The tradition is as old as the United States itself. +The US war against Mexico did more than annex half of Mexico. +A debate that turned deadly ensued over whether the acquired terri­ +tory would allow slavery and it brought on a civil war that produced +a million casualties. The US Civil War allowed for the reorganiza­ +tion and modernization of the military and streamlined counterin­ +surgency operations-that is, ones targeting civilians. A rehearsal +for this streamlining is found in the aftermath of the Mexican War +in the US Army counterinsurgency against the fierce resistance of +the Apaches in the portions of the territory annexed from Mexico + +131 + + 132 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +in 1 8 4 8 that later became the states of New Mexico and Arizona, as +well as across the new border into what remained Mexico. The First +and Second US Army Dragoons (cavalry troops) were employed for +this purpose, elite mounted troops well equipped and trained for +the desert terrain. During the period between the Mexican War and +the Civil War, Indigenous resistance was led by Gila Apache leader +Mangas Coloradas to maintain the Apaches' traditional lands and +way of life. The dragoons employed the "first way of war," total +war, encouraging field units to attack Apache villages and destroy +crops and kill livestock, slaughtering women and children and old +men left in the villages while the young men were engaged elsewhere +fighting the dragoons. 25 This kind of warfare against Indigenous +peoples continued throughout the Civil War and ratcheted up in the +northern plains and Southwest afterward, producing the term that +the US military use to this day all over the world when referring to +enemy territory: "Indian Country." + + E I G HT + +" I N D I A N CO U N TRY" + +Buffalo were dark rich clouds moving upon the rolling hills +and plains of America. And then the 'flashing steel came +upon bone and -flesh. +-Simon J. Ortiz, from Sand Creek + +The US Army on the eve of the Civil War was divided into seven +departments-a structure designed by John C. Calhoun during the +Monroe administration . By 1 8 60 , six of the seven departments, +comprising 1 8 3 companies, were stationed west of the Mississippi, +a colonial army fighting the Indigenous occupants of the land. In +much of the western lands, the army was the primary US govern­ +ment institution; the military roots to institutional development +run deep. +President Abraham Lincoln was inaugurated in March 1 8 61, two +months after the South had seceded from the union. In April, the +Confederate States of America (CSA) seized the army base at Fort +Sumter near Charleston, South Carolina. Of more than a thousand +US Army officers, 2 8 6 left to serve the CSA, half of them being West +Point graduates, most of them Indian fighters, including Robert E . +Lee. Three o f the seven army department commanders took leader­ +ship of the Confederate Army. Based on demographics alone, the +South had little chance of winning, so it is all the more remarkable +that it persisted against the Union for more than four years. The +1 8 60 population of the United States was nearly thirty-two mil­ +lion, with twenty-three million in the twenty-two northern states, +and about nine million in the eleven southern states. More than a +third of the nine million Southerners were enslaved people of Af­ +rican heritage. Within the CSA, 76 percent of settlers owned no + +133 + + 134 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +slaves. Roughly 60-70 percent of those without slaves owned fewer +than a hundred acres of land. Less than 1 percent owned more than +a hundred slaves. Seventeen percent of settlers in the South owned +one to nine slaves, and only 6.5 percent owned more than ten. Ten +percent of the settlers who owned no slaves were also landless, while +that many more managed to barely survive on small dirt farms. The +Confederate Army reflected the same kind of percentages.1 Those +who, even today, claim that "states' rights" caused Southern seces­ +sion and the Civil War use these statistics to argue that slavery was +not the cause of the Civil War, but that is false. Every settler in the +Southern states aspired to own land and slaves or to own more land +and more slaves, as both social status and wealth depended on the +extent of property owned. Even small and landless farmers relied +on slavery-based rule: the local slave plantation was the market for +what small farmers produced, and planters hired landless settlers as +overseers and sharecroppers. Most non-slave-owning settlers sup­ +ported and fought for the Confederacy. + +L I N CO L N ' S " F R E E S O I L" F O R S E T T L E R S + +Abraham Lincoln's campaign for the presidency appealed to the vote +of land-poor settlers who demanded that the government "open" +Indigenous lands west of the Mississippi. They were called "free­ +soilers," in reference to cheap land free of slavery. New gold rushes +and other incentives brought new waves of settlers to squat on In­ +digenous land. For this reason, some Indigenous people preferred +a Confederate victory, which might divide and weaken the United +States, which had grown ever more powerful. Indigenous nations in +Indian Territory were more directly affected by the Civil War than +anywhere else. As discussed in chapter 6, the southeastern nations­ +the Cherokees, Muskogees, Seminoles, Choctaws, and Chickasaws +( " Five Civilized Tribes")-were forcibly removed from their home­ +lands during the Jackson administration, but in the Indian Terri­ +tory they rebuilt their townships, farms, ranches, and institutions, +including newspapers, schools, and orphanages. Although a tiny +elite of each nation was wealthy and owned enslaved Africans and + + "Indian Country " + +135 + +private estates, the majority of the people continued their collective +agrarian practices. All five nations signed treaties with the Confed­ +eracy, each for similar reasons. Within each nation, however, there +was a clear division based on class, often misleadingly expressed as +a conflict between "mixed-bloods" and "full-bloods." That is, the +wealthy, assimilated, slave-owning minority that dominated politics +favored the Confederacy, and the non-slave-owning poor and tradi­ +tional majority wanted to stay out of the Anglo-American civil war. +Historian David Chang found that Muskogee nationalism and well­ +founded distrust of federal power played a major role in bringing +about that nation's strategic alliance with the Confederacy. Chang +writes: "Was the Creek council's alliance with the South a racist de­ +fense of slavery and its class privileges, or was it a nationalist defense +of Creek lands and sovereignty? The answer has to be 'both."'2 +John Ross, principal chief of the Cherokee Nation, at first called +for neutrality, but changed his mind for reasons similar to the Mus­ +kogees and asked the Cherokee council for authority to negotiate +a treaty with the CSA. Nearly seven thousand men of the five na­ +tions went into battle for the Confederacy. Stand Watie, a Chero­ +kee, held the post of brigadier general in the Confederate Army. +His First Indian Brigade of the Army of the Trans-Mississippi ,was + +among the last units in the field to surrender to the Union Army on +June 23 , 1 8 6 5 , more than two months after Lee's surrender of the +Army of Northern Virginia at Appomattox Courthouse in April +1 8 6 5 . During the war, however, many Indigenous soldiers became +disillusioned and went over to the Union forces, along with enslaved +African Americans who fled to freedom. 3 +Another story is equally important, though less often told. A +few months after the war broke out, some ten thousand men in +Indian Territory, made up of Ind igenous volunteers, along with +African Americans who had freed themselves and even some Anglo­ +Americans, engaged in guerrilla warfare against the Confederate +Army. They fought from Oklahoma into Kansas, where many of +them joined unofficial Union units that had been organized by abo­ +litionists who had trained with John Brown years earlier. This was +not likely the kind of war the Lincoln administration had desired-a +multiethnic volunteer Union contingent fighting pro-slavery forces + + 136 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History o f the United States + +in Missouri, where enslaved Africans escaped to j oin the Union +side.4 The self-liberation by African Americans, occurring all over +the South, led to Lincoln's 1 8 63 Emancipation Proclamation, which +allowed freed Africans to serve in combat. +In Minnesota, which had become a non-slavery state in 1 8 5 9 , the +Dakota Sioux were on the verge of starvation by 1 8 62. When they +mounted an uprising to drive out the mostly German and Scandi­ +navian settlers, Union Army troops crushed the revolt, slaughtering +Dakota civilians and rounding up several hundred men. Three hun­ +dred prisoners were sentenced to death, but upon Lincoln's orders +to reduce the numbers, thirty-eight were selected at random to die +in the largest mass hanging in US history. The revered leader Little +Crow was not among those hanged, but was assassinated the follow­ +ing summer while out picking raspberries with his son; the assassin, +a settler-farmer, collected a $ 500 bounty. 5 +One of the young Dakota survivors asked his uncle about the +mysterious white people who would commit such crimes. The uncle +replied: +Certainly they are a heartless nation. They have made some +of their people servants-yes, slaves . . . . The greatest object of +their lives seems to be to acquire possessions-to be rich. They +desire to possess the whole world. For thirty years they were +trying to entice us to sell them our land. Finally the outbreak +gave them all, and we have been driven away from our beauti­ +ful country. 6 + +T H E G E N O C I DA L A R M Y O F T H E W E ST + +To free the professional soldiers posted in the West to fight against +the Confederate Army in the East, Lincoln called for volunteers +in the West, and settlers responded, coming from Texas, Kansas, +California, Washington, Oregon, Colorado, Nebraska, Utah, and +Nevada. Having few Confederates to fight, they attacked people +closer to hand, Indigenous people. Land speculators in the trans­ +Mississippi West sought statehood for the occupied former Mexican +territories in order to attract settlers and investors . Their eagerness to + + "Indian Country " + +137 + +undertake the ethnic cleansing of the Indigenous residents to achieve +the necessary population balance to attain statehood generated +strong anti-Indian hysteria and violent actions. Preoccupied with +the Civil War in the East, the Lincoln administration did little to +prevent vicious and even genocidal actions on the part of territorial +authorities consisting of volunteer Indian haters such as Kit Carson. +The mode of maintaining settler "law and order" set the pattern +for postwar genocide. In the most infamous incident involving mi­ +litias, the First and Third Colorado Volunteers carried out the Sand +Creek Massacre. Although assigned to guard the road to Santa Fe, +the units mainly engaged in raiding and looting Indigenous com­ +munities. John Chivington, an ambitious politician known as the +" Fighting Parson," led the Third Colorado.7 +By 1 8 61, displaced and captive Cheyennes and Arapahos, under +the leadership of the great peace seeker Black Kettle, were incar­ +cerated in a US military reservation called Sand Creek, near Fort +Lyon in southeastern Colorado. They camped under a white flag +of truce and had federal permission to hunt buffalo to feed them­ +selves. In early 1 8 64 , the Colorado territorial governor informed +them that they could no longer leave the reservation to hunt. Despite +their compliance with the order, on November 29 , 1 8 64 , Chiving­ +ton took seven hundred Colorado Volunteers to the reservation . +Without provocation or warning, they attacked, leaving dead 105 +women and children and 2 8 men. Even the federal commissioner +of Indian affairs denounced the action, saying that the people had +been "butchered in cold blood by troops in the service of the United +States." In its 1 8 65 investigation, the Congress Joint Committee on +the Conduct of the War recorded testimonies and published a report +that documented the aftermath of the killings, when Chivington +and his volunteers burned tepees and stole horses. Worse, after the +smoke had cleared, they had returned and finished off the few sur­ +vivors while scalping and mutilating the corpses-women and men, +young and old, children, babies. Then they decorated their weapons +and caps with body parts-fetuses, penises, breasts, and vulvas­ +and, in the words of Acoma poet Simon Ortiz, " Stuck them I on +their hats to dry I Their fingers greasy I and slick."8 Once back in +Denver, they displayed the trophies to the adoring public in Denver's + + 138 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +Apollo Theater and in saloons. Yet, despite the detailed report of the +deeds, neither Chivington nor any of his men were reprimanded or +prosecuted, signaling a free field for killing. 9 +US Army colonel James Carleton formed the Volunteer Army of +the Pacific in 1 8 6 1 , based in California. In Nevada and Utah, a Cali­ +fornia businessman, Colonel Patrick Connor, commanded a militia +of a thousand California volunteers that spent the war years mas­ +sacring hundreds of unarmed Shoshone, Bannock, and Ute people +in their encampments. Carleton led another contingent of militias +to Arizona to suppress the Apaches, who were resisting colonization +under the great leader Cochise. At the time, Cochise observed: +When I was young I walked all over this country, east and +west, and saw no other people than the Apaches. After many +summers I walked again and found another race of people had +come to take it. How is it? Why is it that the Apaches wait to +die-that they carry their lives on their finger nails? . . . The +Apaches were once a great nation; they are now but few. . . . +Many have been killed in battle. 10 +Following a scorched-earth campaign against the Apaches, +Carleton was promoted to the rank of brigadier general and placed +in command of the Department of New Mexico. He brought in the +now-seasoned killing machine of Colorado Volunteers to attack +the Navajos, on whom he declared total war. He enlisted as his +principal commander in the field the ubiquitous Indian killer Kit +Carson . 1 1 With unlimited authority and answering to no one, Car­ +leton spent the entire Civil War in the Southwest engaged in a series +of search-and-destroy missions against the Navajos. The campaign +culminated in March 1 8 64 in a three-hundred-mile forced march of +eight thousand Navajo civilians to a military concentration camp +at Bosque Redondo in the southeastern New Mexico desert, at the +army base at Fort Sumner, an ordeal recalled in Navajo oral history +as the " Long Walk." One Navajo named Herrero said, +Some of the soldiers do not treat us well. When at work, if we +stop a little they kick us or do something else . . . . We do not +mind if an officer punishes us, but do not like to be treated + + "Indian Country " + +139 + +badly by the soldiers. Our women sometimes come to the tents +outside the fort and make contracts with the soldiers to stay +with them for a night, and give them five dollars or something +else. But in the morning they take away what they gave them +and kick them off. This happens most every day. 12 +At least a fourth of the incarcerated died of starvation. Not until +1 8 68 were the Navajos released and allowed to return to their home­ +land in what is today the Four Corners area. This permission to re­ +turn was not based on the deadly conditions of the camp, rather that +Congress determined that the incarceration was too expensive to +maintain.13 For these noble deeds, Carleton was appointed a major +general in the US Army in 1 8 6 5 . Now he led the Fourth Cavalry in +scorched-earth forays against Plains Indians. +These military campaigns against Indigenous nations constituted +foreign wars fought during the US Civil War, but the end of the +Civil War did not end them. They carried on unabated to the end of +the century, with added killing technology and more seasoned kill­ +ers, including African American cavalry units. Demobilized officers +and soldiers often could not find jobs, and along with a new gen­ +eration of young settlers-otherwise unemployed and often seeking +violent adventure-they joined the army of the West, some of the of­ +ficers accepting lower ranks in order to get career army assignments. +Given that war was centered in the West and that military achieve­ +ment had come to foster prestige, wealth, and political power, every +West Point graduate sought to further his career by volunteering +in the army. Some of their diaries echo those of combat troops in +Vietnam, Afghanistan, and Iraq, who later were troubled by the +atrocities they witnessed or committed. But most soldiers persevered +in their ambition to succeed. +Prominent Civil War generals led the army of the West, among +them Generals William Tecumseh Sherman, Philip Sheridan (to +whom is ascribed the statement "The only good Indian is a dead +Indian" ), George Armstrong Custer, and Nelson A. Miles. The army +would make effective use after 1 8 65 of innovations made during the +Civil War. The rapid-fire Gatling gun, first used in battle in 1 8 62 , +would be employed during the rest o f the century against Indigenous + + 140 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +civilians. Non-technological innovations were perhaps even more +important, the Civil War having fostered an extreme patriotic ideol­ +ogy in the Union Army that carried over into the Indian wars. Now +more centralized under presidential command, US forces relied less +on state contributions and were thus less subject to their control. +The prestige of the Department of War rose within the federal gov­ +ernment, so that it had far more leeway to send troops to steamroll +over Indigenous peoples who challenged US dominion. +The Union Army victory over the Confederate Army transformed +the South into a quasi-captive nation, a region that remains the +poorest of the United States well over a century later. The situa­ +tion was similar to that in South Africa two decades later when the +British defeated the Boers (descendants of the original seventeenth­ +century Dutch settlers) . As the British would later do with the Boers, +the US government eventually allowed the defeated southern elite +to return to their locally powerful positions, and both US southern­ +ers and Boers soon gained national political power. The powerful +white supremacist southern ruling class helped further militarize +the United States, the army practically becoming a southern institu­ +tion. Following the effective Reconstruction experiment to empower +former slaves, the US occupying army was withdrawn, and African +Americans were returned to quasi-bondage and disenfranchisement +through Jim Crow laws, forming a colonized population in the South. + +C O LO N I A L P O L I CY P R E C E D E S +M I L I TA R Y I M P L E M E N TAT I O N + +I n the midst of war, Lincoln did not forget his free-soiler settler +constituency that had raised him to the presidency. During the Civil +War, with the southern states unrepresented, Congress at Lincoln's +behest passed the Homestead Act in 1 8 62 , as well as the Morrill Act, +the latter transferring large tracts of Indigenous land to the states +to establish land grant universities. The Pacific Railroad Act pro­ +vided private companies with nearly two hundred million acres of +Indigenous land. 14 With these land grabs, the US government broke +multiple treaties with Indigenous nations. Most of the western ter- + + "Indian Country " + +141 + +ritories, including Colorado, North and South Dakota, Montana, +Washington, Idaho, Wyoming, Utah, New Mexico, and Arizona, +were delayed in achieving statehood, because Indigenous nations re­ +sisted appropriation of their lands and outnumbered settlers. So the +colonization plan for the West established during the Civil War was +carried out over the following three decades of war and land grabs. +Under the Homestead Act, i .5 million homesteads were granted to +settlers west of the Mississippi, comprising ne·arly three hundred +million acres (a half-million square miles) taken from the Indigenous +collective estates and privatized for the market. 1 5 This dispersal of +landless settler populations from east of the Mississippi served as +an "escape valve," lessening the likelihood of class conflict as the +industrial revolution accelerated the use of cheap immigrant labor. +Little of the land appropriated under the Homestead Acts was +distributed to actual single-family homesteaders. It was passed in­ +stead to large operators or land speculators. The land laws appeared +to have been created for that result. An individual could acquire +1 , 1 20 or even more acres of land, even though homestead and pre­ +emption (legalized squatting) claims were limited to 1 60 acres.1 6 A +claimant could obtain a homestead and secure title after five years +or pay cash within six months. Then he could acquire another 160 +acres under preemption by living on another piece of land for six +months and paying $ i . 2 5 per acre. While acquiring these titles, he +could also be fulfilling requirements for a timber culture claim of +1 60 acres and a desert land claim of 640 acres, neither of which re­ +quired occupancy for title. Other men within a family or other part­ +ners in an enterprise could take out additional desert land claims to +increase their holdings even more. As industrialization quickened, +land as a commodity, "real estate," remained the basis of the US +economy and capital accumulation.17 The federal land grants to the +railroad barons, carved out of Indigenous territories, were not lim­ +ited to the width of the railroad tracks, but rather formed a check­ +erboard of square-mile sections stretching for dozens of miles on +both sides of the right of way. This was land the railroads were free +to sell in parcels for their own profit. The 1 8 63-64 federal banking +acts mandated a national currency, chartered banks, and permitted +the government to guarantee bonds. As war profiteers, financiers, + + 142 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +and industrialists such as John D. Rockefeller, Andrew Carnegie, +and J. P. Morgan used these laws to amass wealth in the East, Le­ +land Stanford, Collis P. Huntington, Mark Hopkins, and Charles +Crocker in the West grew rich from building railroads with eastern +capital on land granted by the US government.18 +Indigenous nations, as well as Hispanos, resisted the arrival of +railroads crisscrossing their farms, hunting grounds, and homelands, +bringing settlers, cattle, barbed wire fencing, and mercenary buffalo +hunters in their wake. In what proved a prelude to the genocidal +decades to follow, the Andrew Johnson administration in 1 8 67-68 +sent army and diplomatic representatives to negotiate peace treaties +with dozens of Indigenous nations. The 3 7 1 treaties between Indig­ +enous nations and the United States were all promulgated during the +first century of US existence. 1 9 Congress halted formal treaty mak­ +ing in 1 8 7 1 , attaching a rider to the Indian Appropriation Act of that +year stipulating "that hereafter no Indian nation or tribe within the +territory of the United States shall be acknowledged or recognized +as an independent nation, tribe, or power with whom the United +States may contract by treaty. Provided, further, that nothing herein +contained shall be construed to invalidate or impair the obligation +of any treaty heretofore lawfully made and ratified with any such +Indian nation or tribe."2 0 This measure meant that Congress and +the president could now make laws affecting an Indigenous nation +with or without negotiations or consent. Nevertheless, the provision +reaffirmed the sovereign legal status of those Indigenous nations +that had treaties. During the period of US-Indigenous treaty mak­ +ing, approximately two million square miles of land passed from +Indigenous nations to the United States, some of it through treaty +agreements and some through breach of standing treaties. +In an effort to create Indigenous economic dependency and com­ +pliance in land transfers, the US policy directed the army to destroy +the basic economic base of the Plains Nations-the buffalo. The +buffalo were killed to near extinction, tens of millions dead within a +few decades and only a few hundred left by the 'r 8 8 os. Commercial +hunters wanted only the skins, so left the rest of the animal to rot. +Bones would be gathered and shipped to the East for various uses. +Mainly it was the army that helped realize slaughter of the herds. 21 + + "Indian Country " + +Old Lady Horse of the Kiowa Nation could have been speaking for +all the buffalo nations in her lament of the loss: +Everything the Kiowas had came from the buffalo . . . . Most +of all, the buffalo was part of the Kiowa religion. A white buf­ +falo calf must be sacrificed in the Sun Dance. The priests used +parts of the buffalo to make their prayers when they healed +people or when they sang to the powers above. +So, when the white men wanted to build railroads, or when +they wanted to farm or raise cattle, the buffalo still protected +the Kiowas. They tore up the railroad tracks and the gardens. +They chased the cattle off the ranges. The buffalo loved their +people as much as the Kiowas loved them. +There was war between the buffalo and the white men. The +white men built forts in the Kiowa country, and the woolly­ +headed buffalo soldiers shot the buffalo as fast as they could, +but the buffalo kept coming on, coming on, even into the post +cemetery at Fort Sill. Soldiers were not enough to hold them +back. +Then the white men hired hunters to do nothing but kill the +buffalo. Up and down the plains those men ranged, shooting +sometimes as many as a hundred buffalo a day. Behind them +came the skinners with their wagons. They piled the hides and +bones into the wagons until they were full, and then took their +loads to the new railroad stations that were being built, to be +shipped east to the market. Sometimes there would be a pile +of bones as high as a man, stretching a mile along the railroad +track. +The buffalo saw that their day was over. They could pro­ + +tect their people no longer. 22 + +Another aspect of US economic development that affected the +Indigenous nations of the West was merchant domination. All over +the world, in European colonies distant from their ruling centers, +mercantile capitalists flourished alongside industrial capitalists and +militaries, and together they determined the mode of colonization. +Mercantile houses, usually family-owned, were organized to carry + +143 + + 144 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +goods over long stretches of water or sparsely populated lands to +their destinations. The merchants' sources of commodities in re­ +mote regions were the nearby small farmers, loggers, trappers, and +specialists such as woodworkers and metalsmiths. The commodities +were then sent to industrial centers for credit against which money +could be drawn. Thus, in the absence of a system of indirect credit, +merchants could acquire scarce currency for the purchase of for­ +eign goods. The merchant, thereby, became the dominant source of +credit for the small operator as well as for the local capitalist. Mer­ +cantile capitalism thrived in colonial areas, with many of the first +merchant houses originating in the Levant among Syrians ( Leba­ +nese) and Jews. Even as mercantile capitalism waned in the twenti­ +eth century, it left its mark on Native reservations where the people +relied on trading posts for credit, a market for their products, and +commodities of all kinds-an opportunity for super-exploitation. +Merchants and traders, often by intermarrying Indigenous women, +also came to dominate Native governance on some reservations.23 +As noted above, at the end of the Civil War the US Army hardly +missed a beat before the war "to win the West" began in full force. +As a far more advanced killing machine and with seasoned troops, +the army began the slaughter of people, buffalo, and the land itself, +destroying the natural tall grasses of the plains and planting short +grasses for cattle, eventually leading to the loss of the topsoil four +decades later. William Tecumseh Sherman came out of the Civil War +a major general and soon commanded the US Army, replacing war +hero Ulysses S. Grant when Grant became president in 1 8 69 . As +commanding general through 1 8 8 3 , Sherman was responsible for the +genocidal wars against the resistant Indigenous nations of the West. +Sherman's family was among the first generation of settlers who +rushed to the Ohio Valley region after the total war that drove the +people of the Shawnee Nation out of their homes, towns, and farms. +Sherman's father gave his son the trophy name Tecumseh after the +Shawnee leader who was killed by the US Army. The general had +been a successful lawyer and banker in San Francisco and New York +before he turned to a military career. During the Civil War, most fa­ +mously in the siege of Atlanta, he made his mark as a proponent and +practitioner of total war, scorched-earth campaigns against civil- + + "Indian Country " + +145 + +ians, particularly targeting their food supplies . This had long been +the colonial and US American way of war against the Indigenous +peoples east of the Mississippi. Sherman sent an army commission +to England to study English colonial campaigns worldwide, looking +to employ successful English tactics for the US wars against Indig­ +enous peoples. In Washington, Sherman had to contend with the +upper echelons of the military that were under the sway of Carl von +Clausewitz's book On War, which dealt with conflict between Euro­ +pean nation-states with standing armies. This dichotomy of training +the US military for standard European warfare but also training it +in colonial counterinsurgency methods continues in the twenty-first +century. Although a man of war, Sherman, like most in the US rul­ +ing class, was an entrepreneur at heart, and his mandate as head of +the army and his passion were to protect the Anglo conquest of the +West. Sherman regarded railroads a top priority. In a letter to Grant +in 1 8 67 he wrote, "We are not going to let a few thieving, ragged +Indians stop the progress of [the railroads] ."24 +An alliance of the Sioux, Cheyenne, and Arapaho Nations was +blocking the "Bozeman Trail," over which thousands of crazed gold +seekers crashed through Indigenous territories in the Dakotas and +Wyoming in. 1 8 66 to reach newly discovered goldfields in Montana. +The army arrived to protect them, and in preparation for construct­ +ing Fort Phil Kearny, Lieutenant Colonel William Fetterman led +eighty soldiers out to clear the trail in December 1 8 66 . The Indig­ +enous alliance defeated them in battle. Strangely, this being war, +the defeat of the US Army in the battle has come down in historical +annals as "the Fetterman Massacre." Following this event, General +Sherman wrote to Grant, who was still army commander: "We must +act with vindictive earnestness against the Sioux, even to their exter­ +mination, men, women, and children." Sherman made it clear that +"during an assault, the soldiers can not pause to distinguish between +male and female, or even discriminate as to age."25 +In adopting total war in the West, Sherman brought in its most +notorious avatar, George Armstrong Custer, who proved his met­ +tle right away by leading an attack on unarmed civilians on No­ +vember 27, 1 8 68 , at the Southern Cheyenne reservation at Washita +Creek in Indian Territory. Earlier, at the Colorado Volunteers' 1 8 64 + + 146 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Sand Creek Massacre, the Cheyenne leader Black Kettle had es­ +caped death. He and other Cheyenne survivors were then forced to +leave Colorado Territory for a reservation in Indian Territory. Some +young Cheyenne men, determined to resist reservation confinement +and hunger, decided to hunt and to fight back with guerrilla tac­ +tics. Since the army was rarely able to capture them, Custer resorted +to total war, murdering the incarcerated mothers, wives, children, +and elders. When Black Kettle received word from Indigenous spies +within the army ranks that the mounted troops of the Seventh Cav­ +alry were leaving their fort and headed for the Washita reservation, +he and his wife rode out at dawn in a snowstorm, unarmed, to at­ +tempt to talk with Custer and assure him that no resisters were pres­ +ent on the reservation. Upon Black Kettle's approaching the troops +with a hoisted white flag, Custer ordered the soldiers to fire, and a +moment later Black Kettle and his wife lay dead. All told, the Sev­ +enth Cavalry murdered over a hundred Cheyenne women and chil­ +dren that day, taking ghoulish trophies afterward. 26 + +C O LO N I A L S O L D I E R S + +Many of the intensive genocidal campaigns against Indigenous ci­ +vilians took place during the administration of President Grant, +1 8 69 -77. In 1 8 66, two years before Grant's election, Congress had +created two all-African American cavalry regiments that came to +be called the buffalo soldiers . Some four million formerly enslaved +A fricans were free citizens in 1 8 6 5 , thanks to the Emancipation +Proclamation, which took effect in January 1 8 63 . The legislation +was intended to have a demoralizing effect on the CSA, but it gave +belated official recognition to what was already fact: many African +Americans, especially young men, had freed themselves by fleeing +servitude and joining Union forces .27 Up to 1 8 6 2 , Africans had been +barred from serving in their own capacity in the army. Now the +Union Army incorporated them but at lower pay and in segregated +units under white officers. The War Department created the federal +Bureau of Colored Troops, and one hundred thousand armed Afri­ +cans served in the unit. Their courage and commitment made them + + "Indian Country " + +the best and most effective fighters, although they had the highest +mortality rate. At the end of the Civil War, 1 8 6,ooo Black soldiers +had fought and 3 8 ,000 had died (in combat and from disease), a +higher death toll than that of any individual state. The state with +the highest casualty count was New York, with troops comprising +mostly poor white immigrant soldiers, largely Irish. After the war +many Black soldiers, like their poor white counterparts, remained +in the army and were assigned to segregated regiments sent west to +crush Indigenous resistance. +This reality strikes many as tragic, as if oppressed former slaves +and Indigenous peoples being subjected to genocidal warfare should +magically be unified against their common enemy, "the white man." +In fact, this is precisely how colonialism in general and colonial war­ +fare in particular work. It is not unique to the United States, but +rather a part of the tradition of European colonialism since the Ro ­ +man legions . The British organized whole armies of ethnic troops +in South and Southwestern Asia, the most famous being the Gur­ +khas from Nepal, who fought as recently as Margaret Thatcher's +war against Argentina in 1983 .28 The buffalo soldiers were such a +specially organized colonial military unit. As Stanford L . Davis, +a descendant of a buffalo soldier, writes: +Slaves and the black soldiers, who couldn't read or write, had +no idea of the historical deprivations and the frequent geno­ +cidal intent of the U . S . government toward Native Americans. +Free blacks, whether they could read and write, generally had +no access to first-hand or second-hand unbiased informa­ +tion on the relationship. Most whites who had access often +didn't really care about the situation. It was business as usual +in the name of "Manifest Destiny." Most Americans viewed +the Indians as incorrigible and non-reformable savages. Those +closest to the warring factions or who were threatened by it, +naturally wanted government protection at any cost. 29 +Many Black men opted for army service for survival reasons, as it +gave them food and shelter, pay and a pension, and even some glory. +The United States had its own motives for assigning Black troops to + +147 + + 148 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +the West. Southerners and the eastern population did not want thou­ +sands of armed Black soldiers in their communities. There was also +fear that if they demobilized, the labor market would be flooded. +For US authorities, it was a good way of getting rid of the Black sol­ +diers and the Indians. +The Civil War also set the template for the rapid "Americaniza­ +tion" of immigrants. Jewish immigrants fought on both sides in the +war, and as individuals they earned a level of freedom from US big­ +otry they had never experienced before. +Indian scouts and soldiers were essential to the army as well, +both as individuals and as nations making war on other Indigenous +nations. Many decades later, Native Americans have continued to +volunteer in US wars in percentages far beyond their populations. +Wichita Nation citizen Stan Holder appeared in a 1974 documentary +film on the Vietnam War, Hearts and Minds, in which he explained +his volunteering for service. While growing up he had heard the +older people's stories about Wichita warriors, and, looking around, +the only warriors he could identify were marines, so he enlisted in +what he considered a warrior society. It is no accident that the US +Marine Corps evokes that image in angry young men. As with Black +men who volunteered in the Indian wars and enlisted and served in +other wars, Native men seized the security and potential glory of the +colonialist army. +The explicit purpose of the buffalo soldiers and the army of the +West as a whole was to invade Indigenous lands and ethnically +cleanse them for Anglo settlement and commerce. As Native his­ +torian Jace Weaver has written: "The Indian Wars were not fought +by the blindingly white American cavalry of John Ford westerns but +by African Americans and Irish and German immigrants."30 The +haunting Bob Marley song " Buffalo Soldier" captures the colonial +experience in the United States: " Said he was a buffalo soldier I Win +the war for America."31 +The army of the West was a colonial army with all the problems +of colonial armies and foreign occupation, principally being hated +by the people living under occupation. It's no surprise that the US +military uses the term "Indian Country" to refer to what it considers +enemy territory. Much as in the Vietnam War, the 1 9 8 0s covert wars + + "Indian Country " + +in Central America, and the wars of the early twenty-first century +in Muslim countries, counterinsurgent army volunteers in the late­ +nineteenth-century US West had to rely heavily on intelligence from +those native to the land, informers and scouts. Many of these were +double agents, reporting back to their own people, having j oined +the US Army for that purpose. Failing to find guerrilla fighters, the +army resorted to scorched-earth campaigns, starvation, attacks on +and removals of civilian populations-the weapons of counterinsur­ +gency warfare. During the Soviet counterinsurgency in Afghanistan +in the 19 8 0s, the UN High Commissioner for Refugees called the +effect "migratory genocide"-an apt term to apply retrospectively +to the nineteenth-century US counterinsurgency against Indigenous +peoples.32 + +A N N I H I L AT I O N U N TO TOTA L S U R R E N D E R + +The US Army's search-and-destroy missions and forced relocations +(ethnic cleansing) in the West are well documented but perhaps not +normally considered in the light of counterinsurgency. +Mari Sandoz recorded one such story in her 1 9 5 3 best-selling +work of nonfiction Cheyenne Autumn, on which John Ford based +a 1 9 64 film.33 In 1 8 7 8 , the great Cheyenne resistance leaders Little +Wolf and Dull Knife led more than three hundred Cheyenne civil­ +ians from a military reservation in Indian Territory, where they had +been forcibly confined, to their original homeland in what is today +Wyoming and Montana. They were eventually intercepted by the +military, but only following a dramatic chase covered by newspa­ +per reporters. So much sympathy was aroused in eastern cities that +the Cheyennes were provided a reservation in a part of their origi­ +nal homeland. A similar feat was that of the Nimi'ipuu (Nez Perce) +under Chief Joseph, who tried to lead his people out of military +incarceration in Idaho to exile in Canada. In 1 877, pursued by two +thousand soldiers of the US cavalry led by Nelson Miles, Nimi'ipuu +led eight hundred civilians toward the Canadian border. They held +out for nearly four months, evading the soldiers as well as fighting +hit-and-run battles, while covering seventeen hundred miles. Some + +149 + + 150 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +were rounded up and placed in Pauls Valley, Oklahoma, but they +soon left on their own and returned to their Idaho homeland, even­ +tually securing a small reservation there. +The longest military counterinsurgency in US history was the war +on the Apache Nation, 1 8 5 0 - 8 6 . Goyathlay, known as Geronimo, +famously led the final decade of Apache resistance. The Apaches +and their Dine relatives, the Navajos, did not miss a beat in continu­ +ing resistance to colonial domination when the United States an­ +nexed their territory as a part of the half of Mexico taken in 1 8 4 8 . +The Treaty o f Guadalupe Hidalgo between the United States and +Mexico, which sealed the transfer of territory, even stipulated that +both parties were required to fight the "savage" Apaches. By 1 877 +the army had forced most Apaches into inhospitable desert reserva­ +tions. Led by Geronimo, Chiricahua Apaches resisted incarceration +in the San Carlos reservation designated for them in Arizona. When +Geronimo finally surrendered-he was never captured-the group +numbered only thirty-eight, most of those women and children, +with five thousand soldiers in pursuit, which meant that the insur­ +gents had wide support both north and south of the recently drawn +US-Mexico border. Guerrilla warfare persists only if it has deep +roots in the people being represented, the reason it is sometimes +called "people's war." Obviously, the Apache resistance was not a +military threat to the United States but rather a symbol of resistance +and freedom. Herein lies the essence of counterinsurgent colonialist +warfare: no resistance can be tolerated. Historian William Apple­ +man Williams aptly described the US imperative as "annihilation +unto total surrender."34 +Geronimo and three hundred other Chiricahuas who were not +even part of the fighting force were rounded up and transported by +train under military guard to Fort Marion, in St. Augustine, Florida, +to j oin hundreds of other Plains Indian fighters already incarcer­ +ated there. Remarkably, Geronimo negotiated an agreement with +the United States so that he and his band would surrender as prison­ +ers of war, rather than as common criminals as the Texas Rangers +desired, which would have meant executions by civil authorities. +The POW status validated Apache sovereignty and made the cap­ +tives eligible for treatment according to the international laws of + + "Indian Country " + +151 + +war. Geronimo and his people were transferred again, to the army +base at Fort Sill in Indian Territory, and lived out their lives there . +The US government had not yet created the term "unlawful combat­ +ant," which it would do in the early twenty-first century, depriving +legitimate prisoners of war fair treatment under international law. +During the Grant administration, the United States began ex­ +perimenting with new colonial institutions, the most pernicious of +which were the boarding schools, modeled on Fort Marion prison. +In 1 8 75 , Captain Richard Henry Pratt was in charge of transporting +seventy-two captive Cheyenne and other Plains Indian warriors from +the West to Fort Marion, an old Spanish fortress, dark and dank. +After the captives were left shackled for a period in a dungeon, Pratt +took their clothes away, had their hair cut, dressed them in army +uniforms, and drilled them like soldiers. " Kill the Indian and save +the man" was Pratt's motto. This "successful" experiment led Pratt +to establish the Carlisle Indian Industrial School in Pennsylvania +in 1 8 79 , the prototype for the many militaristic federal boarding +schools set up across the continent soon after, augmented by dozens +of Christian missionary boarding schools. The decision to establish +Carlisle and other off-reservation boarding schools was made by +the US Office of Indian Affairs, later renamed the Bureau of Indian +Affairs ( BIA). The stated goal of the project was assimilation. Indig­ +enous children were prohibited from speaking their mother tongues +or practicing their religions, while being indoctrinated in Christian­ +ity. As in the Spanish missions in California, in the US boarding +schools the children were beaten for speaking their own languages, +among other infractions that expressed their humanity. Although +stripped of the languages and skills of their communities, what they +learned in boarding school was useless for the purposes of effective +assimilation, creating multiple lost generations of traumatized indi­ +viduals.35 +Just before the centennial of US independence, in late June 1 8 76, +then-Lieutenant Colonel Custer, commanding 225 soldiers of the +Seventh Cavalry, prepared to launch a military assault on the civil­ +ians living in a cluster of Sioux and Cheyenne villages that lay along +the Little Bighorn River. Led by Crazy Horse and Sitti �g Bull, the +Sioux and Cheyenne warriors were ready for the assault and wiped + + 152 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +out the assailants, including Custer, who after death was promoted +to general. The proud author of multiple massacres of Indigenous +civilians, starting during the Civil War with his assault on unarmed +and reservation-incarcerated Cheyennes on the Washita in Indian +Territory, Custer "died for your [colonialist] sins," in the words of +Vine Deloria Jr. 3 6 A year later, Crazy Horse was captured and im­ +prisoned, then killed trying to escape. He was thirty-five years old. +Crazy Horse was a new kind of leader to emerge after the Civil +War, at the beginning of the army's wars of annihilation in the +northern plains and the Southwest. Born in 1 8 4 2 in the shadow of +the sacred Paha Sapa (Black Hills) , he was considered special, a quiet +and brooding child. Already the effects of colonialism were present +among his people, particularly alcoholism and missionary influence. +Crazy Horse became a part of the Akicita, a traditional Sioux so­ +ciety that kept order in villages and during migrations. It also had +authority to make certain that the hereditary chiefs were doing their +duty and dealt harshly with those who did not. Increasingly dur­ +ing Crazy Horse's youth, the primary concern was the immigrant +defilement of the Sioux territory. A steady stream of Euro-American +migrants clotted the trail to Oregon Territory. Young militant Sioux +wished to drive them away, but the Sioux were now dependent on +the trail for supplies. In 1 849, the army arrived and planted a base, +Fort Laramie, in Sioux territory. Sporadic fighting broke out, leading +to treaty meetings and agreements, most of which were bogus army +documents signed by unauthorized individuals. Crazy Horse was a +natural in guerrilla warfare, becoming legendary among his people. +Although Crazy Horse and other militants did not approve of the +1 8 68 US treaty with the Sioux, some stability held until Custer's +soldiers found gold in the Black Hills. Then a gold rush was on, with +hordes of prospectors from all over converging and running ram­ +pant over the Sioux. The treaty had ostensibly been a guarantee that +such would not occur. Soon after, the Battle of the Little Bighorn put +an end to Custer but not to the invasion. +Indigenous peoples in the West continued to resist, and the sol­ +diers kept hunting them down, incarcerating them, massacring ci­ +vilians, removing them, and stealing their children to haul off to +faraway boarding schools. The Apache, Kiowa, Sioux, Ute, Kick- + + "Indian Country " + +apoo, Comanche, Cheyenne, and other nations were attacked, leav­ +ing community after community decimated. By the 1 890s, although +some military assaults on Indigenous communities and valiant In­ +digenous armed resistance continued, most of the surviving Indig­ +enous refugees were confined to federal reservations, their children +transported to distant boarding schools to unlearn their Indigenous­ +ness. + +G H O S T DA N C I N G + +Disarmed, held in concentration camps, their children taken away, +half starved, the Indigenous peoples of the West found a form of +resistance that spread like wildfire in all directions from its source, +thanks to a Paiute holy man, Wovoka, in Nevada. Pilgrims journeyed +to hear his message and to receive directions on how to perform the +Ghost Dance, which promised to restore the Indigenous world as it +was before colonialism, making the invaders disappear and the buf­ +falo return. It was a simple dance performed by everyone, requiring +only a specific kind of shirt that was to protect the dancers from +gunfire. In the twentieth century Sioux anthropologist Ella Deloria +interviewed a sixty-year-old Sioux man who remembered the Ghost +Dance he had witnessed fifty years before as a boy: +Some fifty of us, little boys about eight to ten, started out +across country over hills and valleys, running all night. I know +now that we ran almost thirty miles. There on the Porcupine +Creek thousands of Dakota people were in camp; all hurrying +about very purposefully. In a long sweat lodge with openings +at both ends, people were being purified in great companies +for the holy dance, men by themselves and women by them­ +selves, of course . . . . +The people, wearing the sacred shirts and feathers, now +formed a ring. We were in it. All joined hands. Everyone was +respectful and quiet, expecting something wonderful to hap­ +pen. It was not a glad time, though. All wailed cautiously and +in awe, feeling their dead were close at hand. + +153 + + 154 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +The leaders beat time and sang as the people danced, going +round to the left in a sidewise step. They danced without rest, +on and on, and they got out of breath but still they kept go­ +ing as long as possible. Occasionally someone thoroughly +exhausted and dizzy fell unconscious into the center and lay +there "dead." Quickly those on each side of him closed the gap +and went right on. After a while, many lay about in that con­ +dition. They were now "dead" and seeing their dear ones. As +each one came to, she, or he, slowing sat up and looked about, +bewildered, and then began wailing inconsolably. . . . +Waking to the drab and wretched present after such a +glowing vision, it was little wonder that they wailed as if their +poor hearts would break in two with disillusionment. But at +least they had seen! The people went on and on and could not +stop, day or night, hoping perhaps to get a vision of their own +dead, or at least to hear the visions of others . They preferred +that to rest or food or sleep. And so I suppose the authorities +did think they were crazy-but they weren't. They were only +terribly unhappy. 37 +When the dancing began among the Sioux in 1 89 0 , reservation +officials reported it as disturbing and unstoppable. They believed +that it had been instigated by Hunkpapa Teton Sioux leader Tatanka +Yotanka (Sitting Bull), who had returned with his people in 1 8 8 1 +from exile i n Canada. H e was put under arrest and imprisoned in +his home, closely guarded by Indian police. Sitting Bull was killed by +one of his captors on December 1 5 , 1 8 9 0 . +A l l Indigenous individuals and groups living outside designated +federal reservations were considered "fomenters of disturbance," as +the War Department put it. Following Sitting Bull's death, military +warrants of arrest were issued for leaders such as Big Foot, who +was responsible for several hundred civilian refugees who had not +yet turned themselves in to the designated Pine Ridge Reservation. +When Big Foot heard of Sitting Bull's death and that the army was +looking for him and his people-350 Lakotas, 230 of them women +and children-he decided to lead them through the subzero weather +to Pine Ridge to surrender. En route on foot, they encountered US + + "Indian Country " + +troops. The commander ordered that they be taken to the a rmy +camp at Wounded Knee Creek, where armed soldiers surrounded +them. Two Hotchkiss machine guns were mounted on the hillside, +enough firepower to wipe out the whole group. During the night, +Colonel James Forsyth and the Seventh Cavalry, Custer's old regi­ +ment, arrived and took charge. These soldiers had not forgotten +that Lakota relatives of these starving, unarmed refugees had killed +Custer and decimated his troops at the Little Bighorn fourteen years +earlier. With orders to transport the refugees to a military stockade +in Omaha, Forsyth added two more Hotchkiss guns trained on the +camp, then issued whiskey to his officers . The following morning, +December 29 , 1 8 9 0 , the soldiers brought the captive men out from +their campsites and called for all weapons to be turned in. Search­ +ing tents, soldiers confiscated tools, such as axes and knives. Still +not satisfied, the officers ordered skin searches. A Winchester rifle +turned up. Its young owner did not want to part with his beloved ri­ +fle, and, when the soldiers grabbed him, the rifle fired a shot into the +air. The killing began immediately. The Hotchkiss guns began fir­ +ing a shell a second, mowing down everyone except a few who were +able to run fast enough . Three hundred Sioux lay dead. Twenty­ +five soldiers were killed in "friendly fire."38 Bleeding survivors were +dragged into a nearby church. Being Christmastime, the sanctuary +was candlelit and decked with greenery. In the front, a banner read: +PEACE ON EARTH AND GOOD WILL TO MEN. + +The Seventh Cavalry attack on a group of unarmed and starving +Lakota refugees attempting to reach Pine Ridge to accept reserva­ +tion incarceration in the frozen days of December 1 8 9 0 symbol­ +izes the end of Indigenous armed resistance in the United States. +The slaughter is ca lled a battle in US military annals. Congres­ +sional Medals of Honor were bestowed on twenty of the soldiers +involved. A monument was built at Fort Riley, Kansas, to honor +the soldiers killed by friendly fire. A battle streamer was created to +honor the event and added to other streamers that are displayed at +the Pentagon, West Point, and army bases throughout the world. L. +Frank Baum, a Dakota Territory settler later famous for writing The + +Wonderful Wizard of Oz, edited the Aberdeen Saturday Pioneer at +the time. Five days after the sickening event at Wounded Knee, on + +155 + + 156 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +January 3 , 1 89 1 , he wrote, "The Pioneer [sic] has before declared +that our only safety depends upon the total extermination of the +Indians. Having wronged them for centuries we had better, in order +to protect our civilization, follow it up by one more wrong and wipe +these untamed and untamable creatures from the face of the earth. " 39 +Three weeks before the massacre, General Sherman had made +clear that he regretted nothing of his three decades of carrying out +genocide. In a press conference he held in New York City, he said, +"Injins must either work or starve. They never have worked; they +won't work now, and they will never work." A reporter asked, " But +should not the government supply them with enough to keep them +from starvation? " " Why," Sherman asked in reply, "should the gov­ +ernment support 260,000 able-bodied campers ? No government +that the world has ever seen has done such a thing."4 0 +The reaction of one young man to Wounded Knee is represen­ +tative but also extraordinary. Plenty Horses attended the Carlisle +school from 1 8 8 3 to 1 8 8 8 , returning home stripped of his language, +facing the dire reality of the genocide of his people, with no tradi­ +tional or modern means to make a living. He said, "There was no +chance to get employment, nothing for me to do whereby I could +earn my board and clothes, no opportunity to learn more and re­ +main with the whites. It disheartened me and I went back to live as +I had before going to school."41 Historian Philip Deloria notes: "The +greatest threat to the reservation program . . . was the disciplined In­ +dian who refused the gift of civilization and went 'back to the blan­ +ket,' as Plenty Horses tried."42 But it wasn't simple for Plenty Horses +to find his place. As Deloria points out, he had missed the essential +period of Lakota education, which takes place between the ages of +fourteen and nineteen. Due to his absence a nd Euro-American influ­ +ence, he was suspect among his own people, and even that world +was disrupted by colonialist chaos and violence. Still, Plenty Horses +returned to traditional dress, grew his hair long, and participated +in the Ghost Dance. He also j oined a band of armed resisters, and +they were present at Pine Ridge on December 29, 1 8 9 0 , when the +bloody bodies were brought in from the Wounded Knee Massacre. +A week later, he went out with forty other mounted warriors who +accompanied Sioux leaders to meet Lieutenant Edward Casey for + + "Indian Country " + +possible negotiations. The young warriors were angry, none more +than Plenty Horses, who pulled out from the group and got behind +Casey and shot him in the back of his head. +Army officials had to think twice about charging Plenty Horses +with murder. They were faced with the corollary of the recent army +massacre at Wounded Knee, in which the soldiers received Congres­ +sional Medals of Honor for their deeds. At trial, Plenty Horses was +acquitted due to the state of war that existed. Acknowledging a state +of war was essential in order to give legal cover to the massacre. +As a late manifestation of military action against Indigenous +peoples, Wounded Knee stands out. Deloria notes that in the preced­ +ing years, the Indian warrior imagery so prevalent in US American +society was being replaced with "docile, pacified Indians started out +on the road to civilization." +Luther Standing Bear, for example, recounts numerous occa­ +sions on which the Carlisle Indian Industrial School students +were displayed as docile and educable Indians. The Carlisle +band played at the opening of the Brooklyn Bridge in 1 8 8 3 +and then toured several churches. Students were carted around +East Coast cities. Standing Bear himself was placed on display +in Wanamaker's Philadelphia department store, locked in a +glass cell in the center of the store and set to sorting and pric­ +ing jewelry.43 + +GREED IS GOOD + +During the final phase of military conquest of the continent, surviv­ +ing Indigenous refugees were deposited in Indian Territory, piled on +top of each other in smaller and smaller reservations. In 1 8 8 3 , the +first of several conferences were held in Mohonk, New York, of a +group of influential and wealthy advocates of the "manifest destiny" +policy. These self-styled "friends of the Indians" developed a policy +of assimilation soon formulated into an act of Congress written by +one of their members, Senator Henry Dawes: the General Allotment +Act of 1 8 87. Arguing for allotment of collectively held Indigenous + +157 + + 158 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +lands, Dawes said: "The defect of the [reservation] system was ap­ +parent. It is [socialist] Henry George's system and under that there is +no enterprise to make your home any better than that of your neigh­ +bors. There is no selfishness, which is at the bottom of civilization. +Till this people will consent to give up their lands, and divide among +their citizens so that each can own the land he cultivates they will +not make much more progress." Although allotment did not cre­ +ate the desired selfishness, it did reduce the overall Indigenous land +base by half and furthered both Indigenous impoverishment and US +control. In 1 8 8 9 , a part of Indian Territory the federal government +called the Unassigned Lands, left over after allotment, was opened +to settler homesteading, triggering the " Oklahoma Run." +Oil had been discovered in Indian Territory, but the Dawes Allot­ +ment Act could not be applied to the five Indigenous nations removed +from the South, because their territories were not technically reser­ +vations, rather sovereign nations. In contradiction to the terms of +the removal treaties, Congress passed the Curtis Act in r 8 9 8 , which +unilaterally deposed the sovereignty of those nations and mandated +allotment of their lands. Indigenous territories were larger than the +sum of r 6o -acre allotments, so the remaining land after distribution +was declared surplus and opened to homesteading. +Allotment did not proceed in Indian Territory without fierce re­ +sistance. Cherokee traditionalist Redbird Smith rallied his brethren +to revive the Keetoowah secret society. Besides direct action, they +also sent lawyers to argue before Congress. When they were over­ +ridden, they formed a community in the Cookson Hills, refusing to +participate in privatization. Similarly, the Muskogee Creeks resisted, +led by Chitto Harjo, who was lovingly nicknamed Crazy Snake. +He led in the founding of an alternate government, with its capital +a settlement they called Hickory Ground. More than five thousand +Muskogees were involved. Captured and j ailed, when freed Harjo +led his people into the woods and carried on the fight for another +decade. He was shot by federal troops in r9 r 2 , but the legacy of the +Crazy Snake resistance remains a strong force in eastern Oklahoma. +Muskogee historian Donald Fixico describes a contemporary en­ +clave: "There is a small Creek town in Oklahoma which lies within +the Creek Nation. The name of this town is Thlopthlocco. Thlopth- + + "Indian Country " + +159 + +locco is a small independent community which operates almost +independently. They are not very much dependent on the federal +government, nor are they dependent on the Creek Nation. So they're +kind of a renegade group."44 +In 19 07, Indian Territory was dissolved and the state of Okla­ +homa entered the Union. Under the Dawes and Curtis Acts, priva­ +tization of Indigenous territories was imposed on half of all federal +reservations, with a loss of three-fourths of the Indigenous land base +that still existed after decades of army attacks and wanton land +grabs. Allotment continued until 19 3 4 , when it was halted by the In­ +dian Reorganization Act, but the land taken was never restored and +its former owners were never compensated for their losses, leaving +all the Indigenous people of Oklahoma (except the Osage Nation) +without effective collective territories and many families with no +land at all.45 +The Hopi Nation resisted allotment with partial success. In 1 8 9 4 , +they petitioned the federal government with a letter signed b y every +leader and chief of the Hopi villages: +To the Washington Chiefs: +During the last two years strangers have looked over our +land with spy-glasses and made marks upon it, a:nd we know +but little of what it means. As we believe that you have no +wish to disturb our Possessions we want to tell you some­ +thing about this Hopi land. +None of us were asked that it should be measured into +separate lots, and given to individuals for they would cause +confusion. +The family, the dwelling house and the field are insepa­ +rable, because the woman is the heart of these, and they rest +with her. Among us the family traces its kin from the mother, +hence all its possessions are hers . The man builds the house +but the woman is the owner, because she repairs and pre­ +serves it; the man cultivates the field, but he renders its har­ +vest into the woman's keeping, because upon her it rests to +prepare the food, and the surplus of stores for barter depends +upon her thrift. + + 160 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +A man plants the fields of his wife, and the fields assigned +to the children she bears, and informally he calls them his, +although in fact they are not. Even of the field which he +inherits from his mother, its harvests he may dispose of at +will, but the field itself he may not. 4 6 +The petition continues, explaining the matriarchal communal +society and why dividing it up for private ownership would be un­ +thinkable. Washington authorities never replied and the government +continued to carve up the lands, finally giving up because of Hopi +resistance. In the heart of New Mexico, the nineteen Indigenous +city-states of the Pueblo Indians organized resistance under US oc­ +cupation using the legal system as a means of survival, as they had +under Spanish colonialism and in their relationship with the republic +of Mexico. In the decades after they had lost their autonomous po­ +litical status under Mexico and were counted as former Mexican cit­ +izens under US law, both Hispanos and Anglo squatters encroached +upon the Pueblos' ancestral lands. The only avenue for the Pueblos +was to use the US court of private land claims . The following report +reflects their status in the eyes of the Anglo-American j udiciary: +Occasionally the court room at Santa Fe would be enlivened +by a squad of Indians who· had j ourneyed thither from their +distant Pueblos as witnesses for their grant. These delegations +were usually headed by the governor of their tribe, who ex­ +hibited great pride in striding up to the witness stand and be­ +ing sworn on the holy cross; wearing a badge on his breast, a +broad red sash round his waist, and clad in a white shirt, the +full tail of which hung about his Antarctic zone like the skirt +of a ballet dancer, and underneath which depended his baggy +white muslin trousers, a la Chinese washee-washee. The grave +and imperturbable bow which the governor gave to the judges +on the bench, in recognition of their equa lity with himself +as official dignitaries, arrayed in that grotesque fashion, was +enough to evoke a hilarious bray from a dead burro.47 + + "Indian Country " + +161 + +Without redress for their collective land rights under the claims +court, the Pueblos had no choice but to seek federal Indian trust +status. After they lost in their first attempt, finally in r9r3 the US Su­ +preme Court reversed the earlier decision and declared the Pueblos +wards of the federal government with protected trust status, stating: +"They are essentially a simple, uninformed, inferior people."48 +At the beginning of the twentieth century, sculptor James Earle +Fraser unveiled the monumental and iconic sculpture The End of + +the Trail, which he had created exclusively for the triumphal r9r5 +Panama-Pacific International Exposition in S a n Francisco, Califor­ +nia. The image of the near naked, exhausted, dying Indian mounted +on his equally exhausted horse proclaimed the final solution, the +elimination of the Indigenous peoples of the continent. The follow­ +ing year, Ishi, the California Yani who had been held captive for five +years by anthropologists who studied him, died and was proclaimed +"the last Indian." Dozens of other popular images of "the vanishing +Indian" were displayed during this period. The film industry soon +kicked in, and Indians were killed over and over on screens viewed +by millions of children, including Indian girls and boys. +With utter military triumph on the continent, the United States +then set out to dominate the world, but the Indigenous peoples re­ +mained and persisted as the "American Century" proceeded. + + NINE + +U S T R I U M PHA L I S M +A N D PE ACE TI M E C O L O N I A L I S M + +There is one feature in the expansion of the peoples of white, or +European, blood during the past four centuries which should never +be lost sight of, especially by those who denounce such expansion +on moral grounds. On the whole, the movement has been fraught +with lasting benefit to most of the peoples already dwelling in the +lands over which the expansion took place. +-Theodore Roosevelt, " T he Expansion of the White Races," 1909 + +I did not know then how much was ended. When I look back +now from this high hill of my old age, I can still see the butchered +women and children lying heaped and scattered all along the +crooked gulch as plain as when I saw them with eyes still young. +And I can see that something else died there in the bloody mud, +and was buried in the blizzard. A people's dream died there. It was +a beautiful dream . . . the nation's hoop is broken and scattered. +There is no center any longer, and the sacred tree is dead. +-Black Elk, 1 9 3 0 , on the massacre at Wounded Knee + +Although US imperialism abroad might seem at first to fall outside +the scope of this book, it's important to recognize that the same +methods and strategies that were employed with the Indigenous peo­ +ples on the continent were mirrored abroad. While the Indigenous +Americans were being brutally colonized, eliminated, relocated, and +killed, the United States from its beginning was also pursuing over­ +seas dominance. Between 1798 and 1 8 27, the United States inter­ +vened militarily twenty-three times from Cuba to Tripoli ( Libya) +to Greece. There were seventy-one overseas interventions between + +162 + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +l 8 3 J and 1 896, on all continents, and the United States dominated +most of Latin America economically, some countries militarily. The +forty interventions and occupations between 1 8 9 8 and 1919 were +conducted with even more military heft but using the same methods +and sometimes the same personnel. + +CO N N E CT I O N S + +U S colonies established during 189 8-1919 include Hawai'i (formerly +called the Sandwich Islands), Alaska, Puerto Rico, the Virgin Is­ +lands, Guam, American Samoa, the Marshall Islands, and Northern +Mariana. Most of these, and dozens more islands depopulated in the +Pacific and Indian Oceans and the Caribbean for military bases and +bomb testing, remain colonies (called "territories" and "common­ +wealths" ) in the twenty-first century. 1 +One of the first outspoken proponents of transoceanic imperial­ +ism was former abolitionist William H . Seward who was Lincoln's +secretary of state and who considered it the destiny of the United +States to dominate the Pacific Ocean. Seward did everything possi­ +ble to fulfill that perceived destiny, including arranging the purchase +of Alaska in 1 8 67. In early 1 874 , the United States began military +control of Hawai'i, and in 1 8 9 8 it annexed the islands after over­ +throwing the Hawai'ian queen, Liliuokalani. Following post-World +War II ascendancy to statehood, Indigenous Hawai'ians and Alas­ +kan Natives were brought under similar US colonial rule as Native +Americans.2 +Overseas ventures gained increasingly exuberant public support +in the late nineteenth century. In the best-selling book Our Country + +( 1 8 8 5) the Reverend Josiah Strong of the American Home Mission­ +ary Society argued that the United States had inherited the mantle of +Anglo-Saxonism and, as a superior race, had a divine responsibility +to control the world. By 1914 there were six thousand US Protestant +missionaries in China and thousands of others in every other part +of the non-European world, and they remained, as from the early +seventeenth century, ensconced in Native American communities. +The United States built the naval " Great White Fleet" and ex- + +163 + + 164 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +panded the army from twenty-five thousand to nearly three hundred +thousand men by the time it invaded and occupied Cuba, undermin­ +ing the ongoing independence movement against Spain there. While +US troops were headed to Havana Harbor in 1 8 9 8 , Admiral George +Dewey led the US Navy to intervene in the Philippines-purport­ +edly to assist a force of thirty thousand indigenous Filipino rebels +who had won and declared their independence from Spain. Dewey +referred to the Filipinos as "the Indians" and vowed to "enter the +city [Manila] and keep the Indians out."3 It took the United States +three more years to crush the Filipino " lhdian" resistance to US oc­ +cupation, the army using counterinsurgency techniques practiced +against the Indigenous nations of the North American continent, +including new forms of torture such as water-boarding, and under +many of the same army commanders. Twenty-six of the thirty US +generals in the Philippines had been officers in the " Indian wars."4 +Major General Nelson A. Miles, who had commanded the army in +campaigns against Indigenous peoples, was put in general command +of the army in the Philippines war. +The continuity between invading and occupying sovereign In­ +digenous nations in order to achieve continental control in North +America and employing the same tactics overseas to achieve global +control is key to understanding the future of the United States in +the world. The military provided that continuity. As a colonel in +the 1 8 70s, Nelson Miles had been in charge of pursuing every last +Sioux and herding them onto reservations guarded by troops or re­ +cently trained Indian police. The reservations were not safe havens +for the incarcerated . Struck By the Ree told of multiple horrors of +daily life on the Yankton Sioux Reservation, which was not out +of the ordinary: +Another time when General Sully came up he passed through +the middle of our field, turned all his cattle and stock into our +corn and destroyed the whole of it . . . . The soldiers set fire to +the prairie and burnt up four of our lodges and all there was +in them . . . . The soldiers are very drunken and come to our +place-they have arms and guns; they run after our women +and fire into our houses and lodges; one soldier came along + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +165 + +and wanted one of our young men to drink, but he would +not, and turned to go away, and the soldier shot at him. Be­ +fore the soldiers came along we had good health; but once the +soldiers come along they go to my squaws and want to sleep +with them, and the squaws being hungry will sleep with them +in order to get something to eat, and will get a bad disease, +and then the squaws turn to their husbands and give them the +bad disease. 5 +As related in chapter 8 , Miles had also led the army's pursuit of +Chief Joseph and the Nez Perce as they sought to escape to Canada, +and in 1 8 8 6 Miles took charge of the War Department's efforts to +capture Geronimo, commanding five thousand soldiers, a third of the +army's combat force, along with five hundred Apache scouts forced +into service and thousands of volunteer settler militiamen. In 1 8 9 8 , +now general i n chief o f the army, Miles personally commanded the +army forces that seized Puerto Rico. Miles's second in command, +General Wesley E. Merritt, was assigned to head the military inva­ +sion of the Philippines. He had served under Custer, fighting Sioux +and Cheyenne resistance. Commanding the army occupation of the +Philippines was General Henry W. Lawton, to whom Geronimo had +turned himself in, making Lawton an instant hero for "capturing" +Geronimo. Lawton had led troops in Cuba before going to the Phil­ +ippines. Ironically, Filipino insurgents under the leadership of a man +named Geronimo killed Lawton in an attack. What these US officers +had learned in counterinsurgency warfare in North America they +applied against the Filipinos. Younger officers would apply lessons +learned in the Philippines to future imperial ventures, or in at least +one case, pass them to a son. General Arthur MacArthur, father of +World War II general Douglas MacArthur, chased Filipino guerrilla +leader Emilio Aguinaldo, finally capturing him. 6 +By this time, Theodore Roosevelt was president. His corporate­ +friendly militarism, particularly his rapid development of the navy +and his carefully staged performance as leader of the Rough Riders +militia in Cuba, brought him to the presidency. He was popular with +both settlers and big business. Roosevelt referred to Aguinaldo as +a "renegade Pawnee" and observed that Filipinos did not have the + + 166 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +right to govern their country just because they happened to occupy +it. Two hundred thousand US soldiers fought in the Philippines, suf­ +fering seven thousand casualties ( 3 .5 percent). Twenty percent of the +Philippine population died, mostly civilians, as a result of the US Ar­ +my's scorched-earth strategy (food deprivation, targeting civilians +for killing, and so on) and displacement.7 In 1904 Roosevelt pro­ +nounced what has come to be known as the Roosevelt Corollary to the +Monroe Doctrine. It mandated that any nation engaged in "chronic +wrong-doing" -that is, did anything to threaten perceived US eco­ +nomic or political interests-would be disciplined militarily by the +United States, which was to serve as an "international police power."8 +As the US economy rapidly industrialized, the army also inter­ +vened frequently on the side of big business in domestic conflicts be­ +tween corporations and workers. Troops were used for this purpose +in the Great Railroad Strike of 1 8 77-the first nationwide work +stoppage-begun by railroad workers protesting wage cuts. Begun +in West Virginia, the strike soon spread along rail lines from ocean +to ocean and from north to south. General Philip Sheridan and his +troops were called in from the Great Plains, where they had been +campaigning against the Sioux, to halt the strike in Chicago. +Industrialization affected farming as machinery replaced farm­ +ers' hands and cash crops came to prevail. Large operators moved in +and banks foreclosed on small farmers, leaving them landless. Farm­ +ers' movements, most of them socialist-leaning and anti-imperialist, +opposed military conscription and US entry into World War I-the +"rich man's war," as they called it. Tens of thousands protested and +carried out acts of civil disobedience. In August 1 9 1 7, white, Black, +and Muskogee tenant farmers and sharecroppers in several eastern +and southern Oklahoma counties took up arms to stop conscrip­ +tion, with a larger stated goal of overthrowing the US government +to establish a socialist commonwealth. These more radically minded +grassroots socialists had organized their own Working Class Union +(WCU), with Anglo-American, African American, and Indigenous +Muskogee farmers forming a kind of rainbow alliance. Their plan +was to march to Washington, DC, motivating millions of working +people to arm themselves and to j oin them along the way. After a +day of dynamiting oil pipelines and bridges in southeastern Okla- + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +167 + +homa, the men and their families created a liberated zone where they +ate, sang hymns, and rested. By the following day, heavily armed +posses supported by police and militias stopped the revolt, which +became known as the Green Corn Rebellion. Those who didn't get +away were arrested and received prison sentences. The rebellion is +today considered as the waning voice of the people pushed off the +land, but it also reflects the crisis induced by the forced allotment +of Indigenous territories and the reality of a multiethnic resistance +movement, a rare occurrence in US colonialist history. 9 +At the same time, landless Indigenous farmers were launching a +revolution in Mexico. Before President Wilson put General John J. +Pershing at the head of the American Expeditionary Forces in Eu­ +rope in 1917, the president had sent him to lead troops, mainly buf­ +falo soldiers, inside Mexico for nearly a year to stop the revolution +in the north led by Francisco "Pancho" Villa. The military interven­ +tion did not go well . Even the Mexican federal troops fighting Villa +resented the presence of US soldiers. About the only notable success +for the US military expedition was the killing of Villa's second-in­ +command by a young lieutenant named George Patton. 10 + +M A R KETS K I L L + +The extension of US military power into the Pacific and Caribbean +was not militarism for its own sake. Rather, it was all about secur­ +ing markets and natural resources, developing imperialist power +to protect and extend corporate wealth. Indigenous peoples in the +United States were severely affected by US industrialization and the +development of corporations. In a study of corporations in Indian +Territory, historian H . Craig Miner defines the corporation as "an +organization legally authorized by charter to act as a single indi­ +vidual, characterized by the issuance of stock and the limitation of +liability of its stockholders to the amount of their respective invest­ +ment . . . an artificial person that could not be held accountable in a +manner familiar to the American Indian way of thinking. Individual +responsibility could be masked in corporate personality . . . a legal +abstraction."11 + + 168 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +The burgeoning of the corporation brought about a new era of +attacks on Indigenous governments, lands, and resources. After the +military power and resistance of Indigenous nations and communi­ +ties were stifled by the growing US military machine following the +Civil War, compliance on the part of Indigenous leaders became +necessary for survival. Miner argues that "industrial civilization" +diminishes the relevance of persons or communities in its way and +also notes that industrial civilization is not exactly the same as "in­ +dustrialization," that it is something quite different and more per­ +vasive. Industrial civilization justified exploitation and destruction +of whole societies and expansion without regard for the sovereignty +of peoples; it promoted individualism, competition, and selfishness +as righteous character traits. 12 The means by which the US govern­ +ment assured corporate freedom to intrude in Indigenous territories +was federal trusteeship, the very instrument that was mandated to +protect them. +Beginning at the end of the Civil War, government funds from +Indigenous land sales or royalties were not distributed to reservation +citizens or held by their governments; rather they were held in trust +and managed in Washington. The Bureau of Indian Affairs, without +Indigenous peoples' consent, invested Indigenous funds in railroad +companies and various municipal and state bonds. For instance, +the Cherokee national fund and the Muskogee Creek Orphan Fund +were so invested. Indigenous leaders were well aware of these prac­ +tices but were powerless to stop them. They certainly did protest, as +evidenced by a petition filed by the Chickasaw Nation: "The Indians +did not lend this money; the United States lent it, to increase the +value of its multiple states . . . . But now the attempt is made to force +the Indian to contribute his pittance to the growth of all this pros­ +perity and power; and this, too, when the United States, triumphant +over the perils that once surrounded it, is more than ever able to be +liberal, although nothing more is asked of it than to be just." 13 +Cherokee official Lewis D owning, writing in 1 8 69 that rules +would have to be agreed on and adhered to, noted the differences +between Indigenous values and those of American businessmen, "in +that industry, habit, and energy of character which is the result of the +development of the idea of accumulation." Free development with- + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +169 + +out restraint of consensual policy would not do, Downing declared: +"To us, it appears that once cut loose from our treaty moorings, +we will roll and tumble upon the tempestuous ocean of American +politics and congressional legislation, and shipwreck [will] be our +inevitable destination."14 +Entering the 1920s, Indigenous peoples were at their lowest +point-both in population and possibility for survival after decades +of violent military operations during and following the Civil War, +along with federal theft of Indigenous treaty-guaranteed funds and +then two decades of allotment of Indigenous lands. Then the US +government imposed unsolicited citizenship on American Indians +with the Indian Citizenship Act of 1924, gesturing toward assimila­ +tion and dissolving the nations. It was a boom time for the national +economy, but life threatening for Native Americans everywhere . +Robert Spott of the Yurok Nation in Northern California, also an +army veteran of World War I, described his community's situation, +which could have been applied to every Native community. Speak­ +ing before the Commonwealth Club of San Francisco in 1926, he +said: +There are many Indian women that are almost blind, and they +only have one meal a day, because there is no one to look after +them. Most of these people used to live on fish, which they +cannot get, and on acorns, and they are starving. They hardly +have any clothing to cover them. Many children up along the +Klamath River have passed away with disease. Most of them +from tuberculosis. There is no road into there where the In­ +dians are. The only road they have got is the Klamath River. +To reach doctors they have to take their children down the +Klamath River to the mouth of the Klamath. It is 24 miles +to Crescent City, where we have to go for doctors. It costs us +$25 . o o . Where are the poor Indians to get this money from to +get a doctor for their children ? They go from place to place +to borrow money. If they cannot get it, the poor child dies +without aid. Inside of four or five years more there will be +hardly any Indians left upon the Klamath River. +I came here to notify you that something has to be done. + + 1 70 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +We must have a doctor, and we must have a school to educate +our children, and we must have a road upon the Klamath +River besides the bank of the river . . . . +My father was an Indian chief, and we used to own every­ +thing there. When the land was allotted they allotted him only +ten acres, a little farm of land which is mostly gravel and rock, +with little scrubby trees and redwood . . . . +Often we see a car go past. It is the Indian Service. Do you +suppose the man driving that car would stop ? Always he has +no time for the Indians, and the car with some one from the +U . S . A . Indian Service goes past just like a tourist.15 +Natives j oined African Americans, Mexican Americans, and +Chinese immigrants as targets of individual racial discrimination +between the end of Reconstruction in the South in the l 8 8os to the +mid-twentieth century. Jim Crow segregation reigned in the South, +where more than five thousand African Americans were lynched. 1 6 +As Black people fled terror and impoverishment in the South, their +populations grew in northern and midwestern cities where they still +faced discrimination and violence. Chicago, Tulsa, and dozens of +other cities were marred by deadly "race riots" against African Amer­ +icans.17 The virulent and organized racism of the 1920s spilled over +to other peoples of darker hue. The pseudoscience of eugenics and +racial purity was more robust in the United States than in Europe, +further solidifying the ideology of white supremacy. For Indigenous +peoples, this was manifest in development of US government policy +measuring "blood quantum" in order to qualify for Indigenousness, +replacing culture (especially language) and self-identification. While +African Americans were classified as such by the measure of "one +drop of blood," Indigenous people were increasingly called to prove +their degree of ancestry as a significant fraction. + +N E W D E A L T O T E R M I N AT I O N + +Some relief for Indigenous nations came with the 1930s New Deal. +The Roosevelt administration's programs to combat economic col­ +lapse included an acknowledgment of Indigenous self-determina- + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +171 + +tion. Roosevelt appointed anthropologist and self-identified socialist +John Collier as US commissioner of Indian affairs in 193 3 . 18 As a +young activist scholar in 1922, Collier had been hired by the Gen­ +eral Federation of Women's Clubs to assist the Pueblo Indians of +New Mexico in their land-claims struggle, a proj ect that culmi­ +nated in success when Congress passed the 1924 Pueblo Lands Act. +Having lived at Taos Pueblo, whose residents practiced traditional +lifeways, Collier had developed respect for the communal social re­ +lations he observed in Indigenous communities and had confidence +that these peoples could govern themselves successfully and even in­ +fluence a move toward socialism in the United States. He understood +and agreed with Indigenous opposition to assimilation as individu­ +als into the general society-what the ongoing allotment in severalty +of Native collective estates and the Indian Citizenship Act of 1924 +sought to institutionalize. +As commissioner for Indian affairs, in consultation with Native +communities, Collier drafted and successfully lobbied for passage +of the Wheeler-Howard bill, which became the Indian Reorganiza­ +tion Act (IRA) of 1 9 3 4 · One of its provisions was to end further +allotment of Indigenous territories, which was immediately imple­ +mented, although already allotted land was not restored. Another +provision committed the federal government to purchase available +land contiguous to reservations in order to restore lands to relevant +Native nations. The IRA's main provision was more controversial +with Indigenous peoples, calling for the formation of "tribal gov­ +ernments." In a gesture toward self-determination, the IRA did not +require any Indigenous nation to accept the law's terms, and several, +including the Navajo Nation, declined. The IRA was limited in that +it did not apply to the relocated Native nations in Oklahoma; sepa­ +rate legislation was later drawn up for their unique circumstances. 1 9 +The Navajo Nation, with the largest land base and population +among Indigenous peoples in the United States, soundly rejected +signing off on the IRA. The Great Depression of the 1930s was, in +the words of postwar Navajo chairman Sam Ankeah, "the most +devastating experience in [Navajo] history since the imprisonment +at Fort Sumner from 1 8 64-1 8 6 8 ."20 When Collier became commis­ +sioner in 1933 , he pushed for reduction of Navajo sheep and goats + + 1 72 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +as part of a larger New Deal conservation scheme to stem stock +overgrazing. He badgered the twelve Navajo Council members into +accepting the reduction, promising unlikely new jobs under the Ci­ +vilian Conservation Corps to replace lost income. Collier suggested, +without basis, that soil erosion in the Navajo Reservation was re­ +sponsible for the silting up of the Boulder Dam site. His action likely +was influenced by agribusinesses that wanted to get rid of all small +producers in order to create an advantage to Anglo settler ranchers +in New Mexico and Arizona. 2 1 The process is still bitterly remem­ +bered by Navajos. With traumatized Navajos watching, government +agents shot sheep and goats and left them to rot or cremated them +after dousing them with gasoline. At one site alone, thirty-five goats +were shot and left to rot. One hundred fifty thousand goats and fifty +thousand sheep were killed in this manner. Oral history interviews +tell of the pressure tactics on the Navajos, including arrests of those +who resisted, and express bitterness over the destruction of their +livestock. As Navajo Council member Howard Gorman said: +All of these incidents broke a lot of hearts of the Navajo people +and left them mourning for years. They didn't like it that the +sheep were killed; it was a total waste. That is what the people +said. To many of them livestock was a necessity and meant +survival . Some people consider livestock as sacred because +it is life's necessity. They think of livestock as their mother. +The cruel way our stock was handled is something that should +never have happened. 22 +In addition to the trauma experienced by the Navajos, the effect of +the reductions was to impoverish the owners of small herds. +For those Native nations, the majority, that did accept the In­ +dian Reorganization Act, a negative consequence was that English­ +speaking Native elites, often aligned with Christian denominations, +signed on to the law and formed authoritarian governments that +enriched a few families and undermined communal traditions and +traditional forms of governance, a problem that persists. However, +the IRA did end allotment and set a precedent for acknowledg­ +ing Indigenous self-determination and recognizing collective and + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +1 73 + +cultural rights, a legal reality that made it difficult for those who +sought to undo the incipient empowerment of Indigenous peoples +in the 19 50s. +The Truman administration pushed out John Collier, among +many other progressive Roosevelt appointees. Following the end of +World War II, attitudes among the ruling class and Congress regard­ +ing Indigenous nations turned from supporting autonomy to their +elimination as peoples with a new regimen of individual assimila­ +tion. In 1946 Congress established the Indian Claims Commission +and the Indian Claims Court to legitimize the prior illegal federal +taking of Indigenous treaty lands. Between 1946 and 1 9 5 2-the +cutoff date for filing claims-370 petitions representing 8 5 0 claims +were filed on behalf of Indigenous nations. Although the govern­ +ment's stated purpose was to clear title for lands illegally taken, +the claims mechanism barred restitution of lands taken illegally or +acquiring new ones to replace the loss. Settlement was limited to +monetary compensation based on the property's value at the time +of the taking, and without interest. Adding insult to injury, any ex­ +penditure made by the federal government on behalf of the Indige­ +nous nations making claims was subtracted from the overall award, +thereby penalizing the Indigenous people for services they had not +requested. The average interval between filing a claim and receiving +an award was fifteen years. +In creating the Indian Claims Commission, Congress was ac­ +knowledging the fact that the federal government had illegally seized +Indigenous lands guaranteed by treaties. That validation became +useful in Indigenous strategies for strengthening sovereignty and +pursuing restitution of the land rather than monetary compensa­ +tion. On the other hand, the process became a stepping-stone to +ending federal acknowledgment of Indigenous nations altogether. +The Eisenhower administration lost no time in collaborating with +Congress to weaken federal trust responsibility, transferring Indian +education to the states and moving Indian health care from the Bu­ +reau of Indian Affairs to the Department of Health. +This policy trend toward assimilation culminated in the Ter­ +mination Act (House Concurrent Resolution r o 8 ) in 195 3 , which +provided-in Orwellian language-that Congress should, "as + + 1 74 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +quickly as possible, move to free those tribes listed from Federal +supervision and control and from all disabilities and limitations spe­ +cially applicable to Indians." Under termination, the federal trust +protection and transfer payments guaranteed by treaties and agree­ +ments would end. Dillon S. Myer, who had headed the War Re­ +location Authority that administered the concentration camps for +US citizens of Japanese descent, was, significantly, the Eisenhower +administration's commissioner of Indian affairs to implement ter­ +mination. 23 Commissioner Myer noted that Indigenous consent was +immaterial, saying, " We must proceed even though Indian coopera­ +tion may be lacking in certain cases."24 In the same year, Congress +imposed Public Law 2 8 0 that transferred police power on reserva­ +tions from the federal government to the states. +Despite the piecemeal eating away of Indigenous landholdings +and sovereignty and federal trust responsibility based on treaties, +the US government had no constitutional or other legal authority +to deprive federally recognized Native nations of their inherent +sovereignty or territorial boundaries. It could only make it nearly +impossible for them to exercise that sovereignty, or, alternatively, +eliminate Indigenous identity entirely through assimilation, a form +of genocide. The latter was the goal of the 1 9 5 6 Indian Relocation +Act ( Public Law 949 ) . With BIA funding, any Indigenous individual +or family could relocate to designated urban industrial areas-the +San Francisco Bay Area, Los Angeles, Phoenix, Dallas, Denver, +Cleveland-where BIA offices were established to make housing and +job training and placement available. This project gave rise to large +Native urban populations scattered among already poor and strug­ +gling minority working-class communities, holding low-skilled jobs +or dealing with long-term unemployment. Yet many of these mostly +young migrants were influenced by the civil rights movement emerg­ +ing in cities in the 1950s and 19 60s and began their own distinct +intertribal movements organized around the urban American Indian +centers they established. In one of the largest of the relocation des­ +tinations, the San Francisco Bay Area, this would culminate in the +eighteen-month occupation of Alcatraz in the late 19 60s. + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +1 75 + +C I V I L R I G HTS ERA B EG I N S + +The founding of the National Congress of American Indians (NCAI) +in 1944 had marked a surge of Indigenous resistance. An extraordi­ +nary group of Native leaders emerged in the 1950s, including D'Arcy +McNickle (Flathead), Edward Dozier (Santa Clara Pueblo), Helen +Peterson (Northern Cheyenne/Lakota), and dozens of others from +diverse nations . Without their efforts, the termination period would +have been more damaging than it was, possibly ending Indigenous +status altogether. As a result of their organizing, the government +ceased enforcing termination in 1 9 6 1 , though the legislation (e­ +mained on the books until its repeal in 19 8 8 . 25 However, by 1960, +more than a hundred Indigenous nations had been terminated . A +few were later able to regain federal trusteeship through protracted +court battles and demonstrations, which took decades and financial +hardship. Indigenous leaders such as Ada Deer and James White of +the terminated Menominee Nation played key roles in the struggle +to have Indigenous cases heard by Congress and by the Supreme +Court in suits and appeals. The restitution movement attracted pub­ +licity through community organizing and direct action. 26 Postwar +Indigenous resistance operated in relation to a United States far +wealthier and more powerful than before, but also within the era +of decolonization and human rights inaugurated with establishment +of the United Nations and adoption of its Universal Declaration of +Human Rights as well as the Convention on the Prevention and +Punishment of the Crime of Genocide in 194 8 . Native leaders paid +attention and were inspired. +Native organizing, like the organization of the African American +desegregation and voting rights movement, developed within the +context of a nationalistic anticommunist ideology that intensified +with the Cold War and nuclear arms race in the 19 50s. This second +great Red Scare (the first had been in the wake of World War I) tar­ +geted the labor movement under the guise of combating the "com­ +munist threat" from the Soviet Union. 27 It also attacked the civil +rights and self-determination movements of the period, and racism +broadened and flourished. The wars against Japan and then Korea, + + 176 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +along with the successful Chinese communist revolution, revived +the early-twentieth-century racist fear of a " yellow peril." Mexi­ +can migrant workers largely replaced the Asian agricultural work­ +ers displaced by the Japanese American internment, but in 1 9 5 3 +" Operation Wetback," as the federal program was called, forced the +deportation of more than a million Mexican workers, in the pro­ +cess subjecting millions of US citizens of Mexican heritage to illegal +search and arrest. Native Americans continued to experience brutal­ +ity, including rape and detention in the border towns on the edges +of reservation lands, at the hands of citizens as well as law enforce­ +ment officials. The situation of African Americans was one of con­ +tinued legalized segregation in the South, and extralegal but open +discrimination elsewhere. Then, thanks to the long and hard work +of the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People +(NAACP) in 1954, the US Supreme Court ordered desegregation of +public schools. Years of persistent and little-publicized civil rights +organizing, particularly in the South, burst into public view with +the bus boycott in Montgomery, Alabama, the following year. The +white response was murderous: a well-funded campaign by White +Citizens' Councils that formed all over the country, accusing civil +rights activists of communist influence and infiltration. When white +vigilantes bombed and burned Black churches, it was said that "the +communists" were doing it to gain sympathy for integration. +As national liberation movements surged in European colonies +in Africa and Asia, the United States responded with counterin­ +surgency. The US Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) was formed in + +1947 and expanded in size and global reach during the Eisenhower +administration under director Allen Dulles, brother of Eisenhower's +secretary of state, John Foster Dulles. The CIA instrumentalized the +overthrow of the democratically elected governments of Iran in 1953 + +a n d Guatemala in 1954. 28 Guatemala had been the leading light i n +developing the Inter-American Indian Institute, a 1940 treaty-based +initiative that Dave Warren and D'Arcy McNickle were involved +with. Following the coup, the institute headquarters relocated from +Guatemala City to Mexico City, but there it no longer had the same +clout. Covert action came to be the primary means of counterinsur­ +gency, while military invasion remained an option as in Vietnam fol- + + US Triumphalism and Peacetime Colonialism + +lowing a decade of covert counterinsurgency there. In the buildup to +the US war in Vietnam, the CIA set the stage with its "secret war" in +Laos, organizing the indigenous Hmong as a CIA-sponsored army. +After Iran and Guatemala, the CIA engineered coups in Indonesia, +the Congo, Greece, and Chile, while attempting assassinations or +coups that failed in Cuba, Iraq, Laos, and other countries. +Two years before John F. Kennedy took office as president of the +United States, the Cuban people, after decades of struggle and years +of urban and rural organizing and guerrilla war, deposed the cor­ +rupt and despised dictator Batista, who had been financed and sup­ +ported by the United States to the bitter end. The CIA spent the next +several years trying to assassinate revolutionary leader Fidel Castro +and made many attempts to invade, the most infamous of which +was the 1961 Bay of Pigs fiasco. Many Cubans who left Cuba for +the United States after the revolution were recruited as CIA opera­ +tives. The revolution in Cuba, just ninety miles off the Florida coast, +would be a touchstone for increasingly radicalized young people +in the United States, but even more so for the Indigenous peoples +of Latin America, which resonated with Native American activists +seeking self-determination to their north. + +177 + + TEN + +G HO S T DA N CE P R O P HE C Y +A N AT I O N I S C O M I N G + +The whole world is coming, +A nation is coming, a nation is coming, +The Eagle has brought the message to the tribe. +-from the Lakota Ghost Dance song, "Maka' Sito'maniyafi" + +Little Wounded Knee is turned into a giant world. +-Wallace Black Elk, 1973 + +T H E N EW FRONTI E R + +Seventy years after the Wounded Knee Massacre, when the con­ +quest of the continent was said to have been complete, and with +Hawai'i and Alaska made into states, rounding out the fifty stars +on today's flag, the myth of an exceptional US American people +destined to bring order out of chaos, to stimulate economic growth, +and to replace savagery with civilization-not just in North America +but throughout the world-proved to have enormous staying power. +A key to John F. Kennedy's political success was that he revived +the " frontier" as a trope of populist imperialism openly based on the +drama and popular myth of "settling" the continent, of "taming" +a different sort of " wilderness." In Kennedy's acceptance speech at +the 1960 Democratic National Convention in Los Angeles, historian +Richard Slotkin writes, the presidential nominee "asked his audi­ +ence to see him as a new kind of frontiersman confronting a differ­ +ent sort of wilderness: 'I stand tonight facing west on what was once + +178 + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +1 79 + +the last frontier. From the lands that stretch 3 0 0 0 miles behind me, +the pioneers of old gave up their safety, their comfort and sometimes +their lives to build a new world here in the West . . . . We stand today +on the edge of a new frontier . . . a frontier of unknown opportuni­ +ties and paths, a frontier of unfulfilled hopes and threats.'" 1 +Kennedy's use of " new frontier" to encapsulate his campaign +echoed debates about US history that had begun more than six de­ +cades earlier. In 1894, historian Frederick Jackson Turner had pre­ +sented his history-making " frontier thesis," claiming that the crisis +of that era was the result of the closing of the frontier and that a new +frontier was nee.ded to fill the ideological and spiritual vacuum cre­ +ated by the completion of settler colonialism. The "Turner Thesis" +served as a dominant school of the history of the US West through +most of the twentieth century. The frontier metaphor described Ken­ +nedy's plan for employing political power to make the world the new +frontier of the United States. Central to this vision was the Cold War, +what Slotkin calls "a heroic engagement in the 'long twilight strug­ +gle"' against communism, to which the nation was summoned, as +Kennedy characterized it in his inaugural address. Soon after he took +office, that struggle took the form of a counterinsurgency program +in Vietnam. "Seven years after Kennedy's nomination," Slotkin re­ +minds us, "American troops would be describing Vietnam as 'Indian +Country' and search-and-destroy missions as a game of 'Cowboys +and Indians'; and Kennedy's ambassador to Vietnam would justify a +massive military escalation by citing the necessity of moving the 'In­ +dians' away from the 'fort' so that the 'settlers' could plant 'corn.'"2 +The movement of Indigenous peoples to undo what generations +of "frontier" expansionists had wrought continued during the Viet­ +nam War era and won some major victories but more importantly +a shift in consensus, will, and vision toward self-determination and +land restitution, which prevails today. Activists' efforts to end ter­ +mination and secure restoration of land, particularly sacred sites, +included Taos Pueblo's sixty-four-year struggle with the US gov­ +ernment to reclaim their sacred Blue Lake in the Sangre de Cristo +Mountains of New Mexico. In the first land restitution to any Indig­ +enous nation, President Richard M. Nixon signed into effect Public + + 180 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Law 9 1 - 5 5 0 on December 1 5 , 1970, which had been approved with +bipartisan majorities in Congress. President Nixon stated, "This is a +bill that represents j ustice, because in 1906 an injustice was done in +which land involved in this bill-4 8 ,000 acres-was taken from the +Taos Pueblo Indians. The Congress of the United States now returns +that land to whom it belongs."3 +In hearings held in the preceding years by the Senate Subcom­ +mittee on Indian Affairs, members expressed fear of establishing a +precedent in awarding land-based on ancient use, treaties, or ab­ +original ownership-rather than monetary payment. As one witness +testifying in opposition to the return of Taos lands said, "The his­ +tory of the land squabbles in New Mexico among various groups of +people, including Indian-Americans and Spanish Americans, is well +known. Substantially every acre of our public domain, be it national +forest, state parks, or wilderness areas is threatened by claims from +various groups who say they have some ancestral right to the land to +the exclusion of all other persons . . . which can only be fostered and +encouraged by the present legislation if passed."4 +Although the Senate subcommittee members finally agreed to +the Taos claim by satisfying themselves that it was unique, it did +in fact set a precedent. 5 The return of Blue Lake as a sacred site +begs the question of whether other Indigenous sacred sites remain­ +ing as national or state parks or as US Forest Service or Bureau of +Land Management lands and waterways should also be returned. +Administration of the Grand Canyon National Park has been par­ +tially restored to its ancestral caretakers, the Havasupai Nation, +but other federal lands have not. A few sites, such as the volcanic El +Malpais, a sacred site for the Pueblo Indians, have been designated +as national monuments by executive order rather than restored as +Indigenous territory. The most prominent struggle has been the La­ +kota Sioux's attempt to restore the Paha Sapa, or Black Hills, where +the odious Mount Rushmore carvings have scarred the sacred site . +Called the " Shrine of Democracy" by the federal government, it is +anything but that; rather it is a shrine of in-your-face illegal occupa­ +tion and colonialism. + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +181 + +RESURGENCE + +The return of Taos Blue Lake was not a gift from above. I n addition +to the six-decade struggle of Taos Pueblo, the restitution took place +in the midst of a renewed powerful and growing Native American +struggle for self-determination. The movement's energy was evident +when twenty-six young Native activists and students founded the +National Indian Youth Council (NIYC) in 1961, based in Albuquer­ +que, New Mexico. From twenty-one different Native nations, some +from reservations or small towns and others from relocated families +far from home, the founders included Gloria Emerson and Herb +Blatchford ( both Navajo), Clyde Warrior ( Ponca from Oklahoma), +Mel Thom (Paiute from Nevada), and Shirley Hill Witt (Mohawk). +Cherokee anthropologist Robert K. Thomas mentored the militant +young activists. Although primarily committed to local struggles, +their vision was international. As Shirley Hill Witt put it: "At a time +when new nations all over the globe are emerging from colonial con­ +trol, their right to choose their own course places a vast burden of +responsibility upon the most powerful nations to honor and protect +those rights . . . . The Indians of the United States may well present +the test case of American liberalism."6 +In 1964, the NIYC organized support for the ongoing Indigenous +struggle to protect treaty-guaranteed fishing rights in Washington +State. Actor Marlon Brando took an interest and provided finan­ +cial support and publicity. The "fish-in" movement soon put the +tiny community at Frank's Landing in the headlines. Sid Mills was +arrested there on October 1 3 , 19 68 . Eloquently, he explained his +actions: +I am a Yakima and Cherokee Indian, and a man. For two years +and four months, I've been a soldier in the United States Army. +I served in combat in Vietnam-until critically wounded . . . . +I hereby renounce further obligation in service or duty to the +United States Army. +My first obligation now lies with the Indian People fight­ +ing for the lawful Treaty to fish in usual and accustomed wa­ +ter of the Nisqually, Columbia and other rivers of the Pacific + + 182 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Northwest, and in serving them in this fight in any way pos­ +sible . . . . +Just three years ago today, on October 1 3 , 1 9 6 5 , 19 women +and children were brutalized by more than 45 armed agents of +the State of Washington at Frank's Landing on the Nisqually +river in a vicious, unwarranted attack . . . . +Interestingly, the oldest human skeletal remains ever found +in the Western Hemisphere were recently uncovered on the +banks of the Columbia River-the remains of Indian fisher­ +men. What kind of government or society would spend mil­ +lions of dollars to pick upon our bones, restore our ancestral +life patterns, and protect our ancient remains from damage­ +while at the same time eating upon the flesh of our living Peo­ +ple? +We will fight for our rights.7 +Hank Adams with other local leaders founded the Survival of +American Indians Association, which was composed of the Swin­ +omish, Nisqually, Yakama, Puyallup, Stilaguamish, and other Indig­ +enous peoples of the Pacific Northwest to carry on the fishing-rights +struggle. 8 The backlash from Anglo sport fishers was swift and vio­ +lent, but in 1973 fourteen of the fishing nations sued Washington +State, and, in a reflection of changed times, the following year US +District Court Judge George Boldt found in their favor. He validated +their right to 50 percent of fish taken "in the usual and accustomed +places" that were designated in the 1 8 50s treaties, even where those +places were not under tribal control. This was a landmark decision +for historical Indigenous sovereignty over territories outside desig­ +nated reservation boundaries. +The NIYC saw itself as an engine for igniting local organizing, +a +m rshaling community organizing proj ects with access to funds +from the Johnson administration's "War on Poverty," the mandate +of which was to implement the principles of economic and social +equality intended by authors of the Civil Rights Act of 19 64 . In­ +terethnic alliances, including a significant representation of Native +peoples, developed during the mid-19 6os. These culminated in the +19 68 Poor People's Campaign spearheaded by the Reverend Mar- + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +183 + +tin Luther King Jr. , which consisted of community organizing and +leading marches across the country. In the final month of campaign +planning, Dr. King was assassinated on April 4, 19 6 8 . Thousands of +marchers arrived in Washington, DC, in the next month and gath­ +ered in a tent city, then remained there for six weeks.9 +While local actions multiplied in Native communities and na­ +tions, the spectacular November 19 69 seizure and eighteen-month +occupation of Alcatraz Island in San Francisco Bay grabbed wide +media attention. An alliance known as Indians of All Tribes was ini­ +tiated by Native American students and community members living +in the Bay Area. They built a thriving village on the island that drew +Native pilgrimages from all over the continent, radicalizing thou­ +sands, especially Native youth. Indigenous women leaders were par­ +ticularly impressive, among them Madonna Thunderhawk, LaNada +Means War Jack, Rayna Ramirez, and many others who continued +organizing into the twenty-first century. The Proclamation of the In­ +dians of All Tribes expressed the level of Indigenous solidarity that +was attained and the j oyful good humor that ruled: +We, the Native Americans, reclaim the land known as Alca­ +traz Island in the name of all American Indians by right of +discovery. +We wish to be fair and honorable in our dealings with the +Caucasian inhabitants of this land, and hereby offer the fol­ +lowing treaty: +We will purchase said Alcatraz Island for twenty-four dol­ +lars (24) in glass beads and red cloth, a precedent set by the +white man's purchase of a similar island about 3 0 0 years ago. +We will give to the inhabitants of this island a portion of the +land for their own to be held in trust by the American Indians +Government and by the bureau of Caucasian Affairs to hold in +perpetuity-for as long as the sun shall rise and the rivers go +down to the sea. We will further guide the inhabitants in the +proper way of living. We will offer them our religion, our edu­ +cation, our life-ways, in order to help them achieve our level of +civilization and thus raise them and all their white brothers up +from their savage and unhappy state . . . . + + 184 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Further, it would be fitting and symbolic that ships from +all over the world, entering the Golden Gate, would first see +Indian land, and thus be reminded of the true history of this +nation. This tiny island would be a symbol of the great lands +once ruled by free and noble Indians. 10 +Despite the satirical riff on the history of US colonialism, the +group made serious demands for five institutions to be established +on Alcatraz: a Center for Native American Studies; an American +Indian Spiritual Center; an Indian Center of Ecology that would do +scientific research on reversing pollution of water and air; a Great +Indian Training School that would run a restaurant, provide job +training, market Indigenous arts, and teach "the noble and tragic +events of Indian history, including the Trail of Tears, and the Mas­ +sacre of Wounded Knee"; and a memorial, a reminder that the island +had been established as a prison initially to incarcerate and execute +California Indian resisters to US assault on their nations. 1 1 +Under orders from the Nixon White House, the Indigenous resi­ +dents remaining on Alcatraz were forced to evacuate in June r97 r . +Indigenous professors Jack Forbes and David Risling, who were +in the process of establishing a Native American studies program +at the University of California, Davis, negotiated a grant from the +federal government of unused land near Davis, where the institu­ +tions demanded by Alcatraz occupants could be established. A two­ +year Native-American- Chicano college and movement center, D - Q +(Deganawidah- Quetzalcoatl) University, was founded, while U C +Davis became the first US university t o offer a doctorate in Native +American studies. +During this period of intense protest and activism, alliances +among Indigenous governments-including the National Congress +of American Indians (NCAI) led by young Sioux attorney Vine De­ +loria Jr.-turned militant demands into legislation. A year before +the seizure of Alcatraz, Ojibwe activists Dennis Banks and Clyde +Bellecourt founded the American Indian Movement (AIM), which +initially patrolled the streets around Indigenous housing projects in +Minneapolis . 12 Going national, AIM became involved at Alcatraz. +With the rather bitter end of the island occupation, as Paul Smith and + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +185 + +Robert Warrior write: "The future of Indian activism would belong +to people far angrier than the student brigades of Alcatraz. Urban +Indians who managed a life beyond the bottles of cheap wine cruelly +named Thunderbird would continue down the protest road." 13 +With the Vietnam War still raging and the reelection of Richard +Nixon in November 1972 imminent, a coalition of eight Indigenous +organizations-AIM, the National Indian Brotherhood of Canada +(later renamed Assembly of First Nations), the Native American +Rights Fund, the National Indian Youth Council, the National +American Indian Council, the National Council on Indian Work, +National Indian Leadership Training, and the American Indian +Committee on Alcohol and Drug Abuse-organized "The Trail of +Broken Treaties." Armed with a "20 -Point Position Paper" that fo­ +cused on the federal government's responsibility to implement Indig­ +enous treaties and sovereignty, caravans set out in the fall of 1972. +The vehicles and numbers of participants multiplied at each stop, +converging in Washington, D C , one week before the presidential +election. Hanging a banner from the front of the Bureau of Indian +Affairs building that proclaimed it to be the " Native American Em­ +bassy," hundreds of protesters hailing from seventy-five Indigenous +nations entered the building to sit in. BIA personnel, at the time +largely non-Indigenous, fled, and the capitol police chain-locked the +doors announcing that the Indigenous protesters were illegally occu­ +pying the building. The protesters stayed for six days, enough time +for them to read damning federal documents that revealed gross +mismanagement of the federal trust responsibility, which they boxed +up and took with them. The Trail of Broken Treaties solidified In­ +digenous alliances, and the "20 -Point Position Paper," 14 the work +mainly of Hank Adams, provided a template for the affinity of hun­ +dreds of Native organizations. Five years later, in 1977, the docu­ +ment would be presented to the United Nations, forming the basis +for the 2007 UN Declaration on the Rights of Indigenous Peoples. +Three months after the BIA building takeover, Oglala Lakota +traditional people at the Pine Ridge Sioux Reservation in South Da­ +kota invited the American Indian Movement to assist them in halt­ +ing collusion between their tribal government, formed under the +terms of the Indian Reorganization Act, and the federal government + + 186 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +that had crushed the people and further impoverished them. The +people opposed the increasingly authoritarian reign of the elected +tribal chairman, Richard Wilson. They invited AIM to send a del­ +egation to support them. On February 27, 1973 , long deliberations +took place in the Pine Ridge Calico Hall between the local people +and AIM leaders, led by Russell Means, a citizen of Pine Ridge. The +AIM activists were well known following the Trail of Broken Trea­ +ties Caravan, and upon AIM's arrival, the FBI, tribal police, and the +chairman's armed special unit, the Guardians of the Oglala Nation +(they called themselves "the GOON squad"), mobilized. The meet­ +ing ended with a consensus decision to go to Wounded Knee in a +caravan to protest the chairman's misdeeds and the violence of his +GOONs. The law enforcement contingent followed and circled the +protesters. Over the following days, hundreds of more armed men +surrounded Wounded Knee, and so began a two-and-a-half-month +siege of protesters at the 1 8 9 0 massacre site. The late-twentieth­ +century hamlet of Wounded Knee was made up of little more than a +trading post, a Catholic church, and the mass grave of the hundreds +of Lakotas slaughtered in 1 8 9 0 . Now armed personnel carriers, +Huey helicopters, and military snipers surrounded the site, while +supply teams of mostly Lakota women made their way through the +military lines and back out again through dark of night. + +WO U N D E D K N E E 1 8 9 0 A N D 1 973 + +The period between the "closing of the frontier," marked by the + +1 8 9 0 Wounded Knee Massacre, and the 1973 siege of Wounded +Knee, which marks the beginning of Indigenous decolonization in +North America, is illuminated by following the historical experience +of the Sioux. The first international relationship between the Sioux +Nation and the US government was established in 1 8 0 5 with a treaty +of peace and friendship two years after the United States acquired +the Louisiana Territory, which included the Sioux Nation among +many other Indigenous nations. Other such treaties followed in 1 8 1 5 +and 1 8 2 5 . These peace treaties had n o immediate effect o n Sioux po­ +litical autonomy or territory. By 1 8 3 4 , competition in the fur trade, + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +with the market dominated by the Rocky Mountain Fur Company, +led the Oglala Sioux to move away from the Upper Missouri to the +Upper Platte near Fort Laramie. By 1 846, seven thousand Sioux had +moved south. Thomas Fitzpatrick, the Indian agent in 1 846, rec­ +ommended that the United States purchase land to establish a fort, +which became Fort Laramie. "My opinion," Fitzpatrick wrote, "is +that a post at, or in the vicinity of Laramie is much wanted, it would +be nearly in the center of the buffalo range, where all the formidable +Indian tribes are fast approaching, and near where there will eventu­ +ally be a struggle for the ascendancy [in the fur trade] ."15 Fitzpatrick +believed that a garrison of at least three hundred soldiers would be +necessary to keep the Indians under control. +Although the Sioux and the United States redefined their rela­ +tionship in the Fort Laramie Treaty of 1 8 5 1 , this was followed by +a decade of war between the two parties, ending with the Peace +Treaty of Fort Laramie in 1 8 6 8 . Both of these treaties, though not +reducing Sioux political sovereignty, ceded large parts of Sioux terri­ +tory by establishing mutually recognized boundaries, and the Sioux +granted concessions to the United States that gave legal color to the +Sioux's increasing economic dependency on the United States and +its economy. During the half century before the 1 8 5 1 treaty, the +Sioux had been gradually enveloped in the fur trade and had become +dependent on horses and European-manufactured guns, ammuni­ +tion, iron cookware, tools, textiles, and other items of trade that +replaced their traditional crafts. On the plains the Sioux gradually +abandoned farming and turned entirely to bison hunting for their +subsistence and for trade. This increased dependency on the buf­ +falo in turn brought deeper dependency on guns and ammunition +that had to be purchased with more hides, creating the vicious circle +that characterized modern colonialism. With the balance of power +tipped by mid-century, US traders and the military exerted pressure +on the Sioux for land cessions and rights of way as the buffalo popu­ +lation decreased. The hardships for the Sioux caused by constant +attacks on their villages, forced movement, and resultant disease +and starvation took a toll on their strength to resist domination. +They entered into the 1 8 68 treaty with the United States on strong +terms from a military standpoint-the Sioux remained an effective + +187 + + 188 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +guerrilla fighting force through the 1 8 8 0s, never defeated by the US +army-but their dependency on buffalo and on trade allowed for +escalated federal control when buffalo were purposely exterminated +by the army between 1 870 and 1 876. After that the Sioux were fight­ +ing for survival. +Economic dependency on buffalo and trade was replaced with +survival dependency on the US government for rations and com­ +modities guaranteed in the 1 8 68 treaty. The agreement stipulated +that "no treaty for the cession of any portion or part of the reser­ +vation herein described which may be held in common shall be of +any validation or force against the said Indians, unless executed +and signed by at least three fourths of all the adult male Indians." +Nevertheless, in 1 876, with no such validation, and with the discov­ +ery of gold by Custer's Seventh Cavalry, the US government seized +the Black Hills-Paha Sapa-a large, resource-rich portion of the +treaty-guaranteed Sioux territory, the center of the great Sioux Na­ +tion, a religious shrine and sanctuary. When the Sioux surrendered +after the wars of 1 8 7 6-77, they lost not only the Black Hills but +also the Powder River country. The next US move was to change the +western boundary of the Sioux Nation, whose territory, though at­ +rophied from its original, was a contiguous block. By 1 8 7 7, after the +army drove the Sioux out of Nebraska, all that was left was a block +between the rn3rd meridian and the Missouri, thirty-five thousand +square miles of land the United States had designated as Dakota +Territory (the next step toward statehood, in this case the states +of North and South Dakota). The first of several waves of north­ +ern European immigrants now poured into eastern Dakota Terri­ +tory, pressing against the Missouri River boundary of the Sioux. At +the Anglo-American settlement of Bismarck on the Missouri, the +westward-pushing Northern Pacific Railroad was blocked by the +reservation. Settlers bound for Montana and the Pacific Northwest +called for trails to be blazed and defended across the reservation. +Promoters who wanted cheap land to sell at high prices to immi­ +grants schemed to break up the reservation. Except for the Sioux +units that continued to fight, the majority of the Sioux people were +unarmed, had no horses, and were unable even to feed and clothe +themselves, dependent upon government rations. + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +189 + +Next came allotment. Before the Dawes Act was even imple­ +mented, a government commission arrived in Sioux territory from +Washington, DC, in 1 8 8 8 with a proposal to reduce the Sioux Na­ +tion to six small reservations, a scheme that would leave nine million +acres open for Euro-American settlement. The commission found +it impossible to obtain signatures of the required three-fourths of +the nation as required under the 1 8 68 treaty, and so returned to +Washington with a recommendation that the government ignore the +treaty and take the land without Sioux consent. The only means to +accomplish that goal was legislation, Congress having relieved the +government of the obligation to negotiate a treaty. Congress com­ +missioned General George Crook to head a delegation to try again, +this time with an offer of $ r . 5 0 per acre. In a series of manipula­ +tions and dealings with leaders whose people were now starving, the +commission garnered the needed signatures. The great Sioux Nation +was broken into small islands soon surrounded on all sides by Euro­ +pean immigrants, with much of the reservation land a checkerboard +with settlers on allotments or leased land. 1 6 Creating these isolated +reservations broke the historical relationships between clans and +communities of the Sioux Nation and opened areas where Euro ­ +peans settled. It also allowed the Bureau of Indian Affairs to ex­ +ercise tighter control, buttressed by the bureau's boarding school +system. The Sun Dance, the annual ceremony that had brought +Sioux together and reinforced national unity, was outlawed, along +with other religious ceremonies. Despite the Sioux people's weak +position under late-nineteenth-century colonial domination, they +managed to begin building a modest cattle-ranching business to +replace their former bison-hunting economy. In 1903 , the US Su­ +preme Court ruled, in Lone Wolf v. Hitchcock, that a March 3 , +1 8 7 1 , appropriations rider was constitutional and that Congress had +"plenary" power to manage Indian property. The Office of Indian +Affairs could thus dispose of Indian lands and resources regardless +of the terms of previous treaty provisions. Legislation followed that +opened the reservations to settlement through leasing and even sale +of allotments taken out of trust. Nearly all prime grazing lands came +to be occupied by non-Indian ranchers by the 1920s. +By the time of the New Deal-Collier era and nullification of + + 190 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +Indian land allotment under the Indian Reorganization Act, non­ +Indians outnumbered Indians on the Sioux reservations three to one. +However, the drought of the mid- to late-19 3 o s drove many settler +ranchers off Sioux land, and the Sioux purchased some of that land, +which had been theirs. However, "tribal governments" imposed +in the wake of the Indian Reorganization Act proved particularly +harmful and divisive for the Sioux.17 Concerning this measure, the +late Mathew King, elder traditional historian of the Oglala Sioux +(Pine Ridge), observed: "The Bureau of Indian Affairs drew up the +constitution and by-laws of this organization with the Indian Reor­ +ganization Act of 1 9 3 4 · This was the introduction of home rule . . . . +The traditional people still hang on to their Treaty, for we are a +sovereign nation. We have our own government." 18 " Home rule," or +neocolonialism, proved a short-lived policy, however, for in the early +1950s the United States developed its termination policy, with leg­ +islation ordering gradual eradication of every reservation and even +the tribal governments. 1 9 At the time of termination and relocation, +per capita annual income on the Sioux reservations stood at $ 3 5 5 , +while that i n nearby South Dakota towns was $ 2 , 5 0 0 . Despite these +circumstances, in pursuing its termination policy, the Bureau of In­ +dian Affairs advocated the reduction of services and introduced its +program to relocate Indians to urban industrial centers, with a high +percentage of Sioux moving to San Francisco and Denver in search +of j obs. 2 0 +Mathew King has described the United States throughout its his­ +tory as alternating between a "peace" policy and a "war" policy +in its relations with Indigenous nations and communities, saying +that these pendulum swings coincided with the strength and weak­ +ness of Native resistance. Between the alternatives of extermina­ +tion and termination (war policies) and preservation (peace policy), +King argued, were interim periods characterized by benign neglect +and assimilation. With organized Indigenous resistance to war pro­ +grams and policies, concessions are granted. When pressure light­ +ens, new schemes are developed to separate Indians from their land, +resources, and cultures. Scholars, politicians, policymakers, and the +media rarely term US policy toward Indigenous peoples as colonial- + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +ism. King, however, believed that his people's country had been a +colony of the United States since 1 8 9 0 . +The logical progression o f modern colonialism begins with eco­ +nomic penetration and graduates to a sphere of influence, then to +protectorate status or indirect control, military occupation, and fi­ +nally annexation. This corresponds to the process experienced by +the Sioux people in relation to the United States. The economic pen­ +etration of fur traders brought the Sioux within the US sphere of in­ +fluence. The transformation of Fort Laramie from a trading post, the +center of Sioux trade, to a US Army outpost in the mid-nineteenth +century indicates the integral relationship between trade and colonial +control. Growing protectorate status established through treaties +culminated in the 1 8 6 8 Sioux treaty, followed by military occupa­ +tion achieved by extreme exemplary violence, such as at Wounded +Knee in 1 8 9 0 , and finally dependency. Annexation by the United +States is marked symbolically by the imposition of US citizenship on +the Sioux (and most other Indians) in 1924 . Mathew King and other +traditional Sioux saw the siege of Wounded Knee in 1973 as a turn­ +ing point, although the violent backlash that followed was harsh. +Two decades of collective Indigenous resistance culminating at +Wounded Knee in 1973 defeated the 1950s federal termination pol­ +icy. Yet proponents of the disappearance of Indigenous nations seem +never to tire of trying. Another move toward termination developed +in 1977 with dozens of congressional bills to abrogate all Indian +treaties and terminate all Indian governments and trust territories. +Indigenous resistance defeated those initiatives as well, with another +caravan across the country. Like colonized peoples elsewhere in +the world, the Sioux have been involved in decolonization efforts +since the mid-twentieth century. Wounded Knee in 1973 was part +of this struggle, as was their involvement in UN committees and +international forums. 2 1 However, in the early twenty-first century, +free-market fundamentalist economists and politicians identified the +communally owned Indigenous reservation lands as an asset to be +exploited and, under the guise of helping to end Indigenous poverty +on those reservations, call for doing away with them-a new exter­ +mination and termination initiative. + +191 + + 192 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +" I N D I A N WA R S " AS A T E M P L AT E F O R +T H E U N I T E D S TAT E S I N T H E W O R L D + +The integral link between Wounded Knee i n 1 8 9 0 and Wounded +Knee in 1973 suggests a long-overdue reinterpretation of Indigenous­ +US relations as a template for US imperialism and counterinsurgency +wars. As Vietnam veteran and author Michael Herr observed, we +"might as well say that Vietnam was where the Trail of Tears was +headed all along, the turnaround point where it would touch and +come back to form a containing perimeter."22 Seminole Nation Viet­ +nam War veteran Evan Haney made the comparison in testifying at +the Winter Soldier Investigations: "The same massacres happened to +the Indians . . . . I got to know the Vietnamese people and I learned +they were just like us . . . . I have grown up with racism all my life. +When I was a child, watching cowboys and Indians on TV, I would +root for the cavalry, not the Indians. It was that bad. I was that far +toward my own destruction."23 +As it happened, the fifth anniversary of the My Lai massacre in +Vietnam occurred at the time of the 1973 siege of Wounded Knee. +It was difficult to miss the analogy between the 1 8 9 0 Wounded +Knee massacre and My Lai, 1968. Alongside the front-page news +and photographs of the Wounded Knee siege that was taking place +in real time were features with photos of the scene of mutilation +and death at My Lai. Lieutenant William "Rusty" Calley was then +serving his twenty-year sentence under house arrest in luxurious of­ +ficers' quarters at Fort Benning, Georgia, near his hometown. Yet he +remained a national hero who received hundreds of support letters +weekly, who was lauded by some as a POW being held by the US +military. One of Calley's most ardent defenders was Jimmy Carter, +then governor of Georgia. In 1974 , President Richard Nixon would +pardon Calley. One of the documented acts, among many, that +Calley committed and ordered others to carry out at My Lai took +place when he saw a baby crawling from a ditch filled with mu­ +tilated, bloody bodies. He picked the baby up by a leg, threw the +infant back into the pit, and then shot the baby point-blank. My +Lai was one of thousands of such slaughters led by officers just like +Calley, who a few weeks before My Lai had been observed throwing + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +193 + +a stooped old man down a well and firing his automatic rifle down +the shaft. +The ongoing siege at Wounded Knee in 1973 elicited some rare +journalistic probing into the 1 8 9 0 army massacre. In 1970, univer­ +sity librarian Dee Brown had written the book Bury My Heart at + +Wounded Knee, which documented a n d told the 1 8 9 0 Wounded +Knee story, among many other such nineteenth-century anti-Indian +crimes and tragedies . The book was a surprise best seller, so the +name Wounded Knee resonated with a broad public by 1973 . On the +front page of one newspaper, editors placed two photographs side by +side, each of a pile of bloody, mutilated bodies in a ditch. One was +from My Lai in 1968, the other from the Wounded Knee army mas­ +sacre of the Lakota in 1 89 0 . Had they not been captioned, it would +have been impossible to tell the difference in time and place. +During the first US military invasion of Iraq, a gesture intended +to obliterate the "Vietnam Syndrome," on February 19, 199 1 , Briga­ +dier General Richard Neal, briefing reporters in Riyadh, Saudi Ara­ +bia, stated that the US military wanted to ensure a speedy victory +once it committed land forces to "Indian Country." The following +day, in a little-publicized statement of protest, the National Con­ +gress of American Indians pointed out that fifteen thousand Native +Americans were serving as combat troops in the Persian Gulf. As we +have seen, the term " Indian Country" is not merely an insensitive +racial slur to indicate the enemy, tastelessly employed by accident. +Neither Neal nor any other military authority apologized for the +statement, and it continues to be used by the military and the media, +usually in its shortened form, "In Country," which originated in the +Vietnam War. "Indian Country" and "In Country" are military +terms of trade, like other euphemisms such as "collateral damage" +(killing civilians) and "ordnance" (bombs) that appear in military +training manuals and are used regularly. "Indian Country" and "In +Country" mean "behind enemy lines." Its current use should serve +to remind us of the origins and development of the US military, as +well as the nature of our political and social history: annihilation +unto unconditional surrender. +When the redundant "ground war," more appropriately tagged +a "turkey shoot," was launched, at the front of the miles of killing + + 194 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +machines were armored scouting vehicles of the Second Armored +Calvary Regiment (ACR), a self-contained elite unit that won fame +during World War II when it headed General Patton's Third Army +crossing Europe. In the Gulf War, the Second ACR played the role +of chief scouts for the US Seventh Corps. A retired ACR commander +proudly told a television interviewer that the Second ACR had been +formed in the 1 8 3 0s to fight the Seminoles, and that it had its first +great victory when it finally defeated those Indians in the Florida +Everglades in 1 8 3 6 . The Second ACR in the vanguard of the ground +assault on Iraq thus symbolized the continuity of US war victories +and the source of the nation's militarism: the Iraq War was just +another Indian war in the US military tradition. After weeks of +high-tech bombing in Iraq followed by a caravan of armored tanks +shooting everything that moved, the US Special Forces entered Iraqi +officers' quarters in Kuwait City. There they found carrier pigeons +in cages and notes in Arabic strewn over a desk, which they inter­ +preted to mean that the Iraqi commanders were communicating +with their troops, and even with Baghdad, using the carrier pigeons. +High-tech soldiers had been fighting an army that communicated +by carrier pigeon-as Shawnees and Muskogees had done two cen­ +turies earlier. +Twelve years after the Gulf War, a US military force of three +hundred thousand invaded Iraq again. A little-read report from As­ +sociated Press correspondent Ellen Knickmeyer illustrates the sym­ +bolic power of Indian wars as a source of US military memory and +practice. Once again we find the armored scouting vehicles and their +troops retracing historical bloody footprints as they perform their +" Seminole Indian war dance": +Capt. Phillip Walford's men leaped into the air and waved +empty rifles in an impromptu desert war dance . . . . +With thousands of M 1 A 1 Abrams tanks, Bradley fighting +vehicles, Humvees and trucks, the mechanized infantry unit +known as the " Iron Fist" would be the only U . S . armored +division in the fight, and would likely meet any Iraqi defenses +head on. +" We will be entering Iraq as an army of liberation, not + + Ghost Dance Prophecy + +195 + +domination," said Wolford, of Marysville, Ohio, directing the +men of his 4th Battalion, 64th Armor Regiment to take down +the U.S. flags fluttering from their sand-colored tanks. +After a brief prayer, Wolford leaped into an impromptu +desert war dance. Camouflaged soldiers j oined him, j ump ­ +ing up and down in the sand, chanting and brandishing rifles +carefully emptied of their rounds. 24 + +H I S T O RY N OT PA S T + +In April 2007, a l l the news seemed t o be coming from Virginia and +was about murder-the murder of Indigenous farmers that com­ +menced four hundred years before with the founding of Jamestown +and the rampage at nearby Virginia Tech University on April 1 6 , + +2007. Yet n o one commented i n the media o n the juxtaposition of +these bookends of colonialism. Jamestown was famously the first +permanent settlement that gave birth to the Commonwealth of Vir­ +ginia, the colonial epicenter of what became the United States of +America nearly two centuries later, the colony out of which was +carved the US capital, Washington, on the river whose mouth lay up +the coast. A few years after Jamestown was established, the more +familiar and revered colony of Plymouth was planted by English +religious dissidents, under the auspices of private investors with +royal approval, as with Jamestown, and the same mercenary activi­ +ties personified by Captain John Smith. This was the beginning of +British overseas colonialism, after the conquest and colonization of +Scotland, Wales, and Ireland turned England into Great Britain. The +Virginia Tech killings were described in 2007 as the worst "mass +killing," the "worst massacre," in US history. Descendants of massa­ +cred Indigenous ancestors took exception to that designation . It was +curious with the media circus surrounding the Jamestown celebra­ +tion, and with Queen Elizabeth and President Bush presiding, that +journalists failed to compare the colonial massacres of Powhatans +four centuries earlier and the single, disturbed individual's shootings +of his classmates. The shooter himself was a child of colonial war, +the US war in Korea. + + 196 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Meditating on the five major US wars since World War II-in +Korea, Vietnam, Iraq (1991), Afghanistan, and Iraq (2003 )-with +flashes of historical memory of Jamestown, the Ohio Valley, and +Wounded Knee, brings us to the essence of US history. A red thread +of blood connects the first white settlement in North America with +today and the future. As military historian John Grenier puts it: +U. S . people are taught that their military culture does not +approve of or encourage targeting and killing civilians and +know little or nothing about the nearly three centuries of war­ +fare-before and after the founding of the U. S .-that reduced +the Indigenous peoples of the continent to a few reservations +by burning their towns and fields and killing civilians, driv­ +ing the refugees out-step by step-across the continent . . . . +[V] iolence directed systematically against noncombatants +through irregular means, from the start, has been a central +part of Americans' way of war. 25 + + ELEVEN + +THE D O C T R I N E O F D I S C OVE RY + +The whip covers the fault. +-D'Arcy McNickle, The Surrounded + +Native liberty, natural reason, and survivance +are concepts that originate in narratives, +not in the mandates of monarchies, papacies, +severe traditions, or federal policies. +-Gerald Vizenor, The White Earth Nation + +In 1 9 8 2 , the government of Spain and the Holy See (the Vatican, +which is a nonvoting state member of the United Nations) proposed +to the UN General Assembly that the year 1992 be celebrated in the +United Nations as an "encounter" between Europe and the peoples +of the Americas, with Europeans bearing the gifts of civilization +and Christianity to the Indigenous peoples. To the shock of the +North Atlantic states that supported Spain's resolution (including +the United States and Canada), the entire African delegation walked +out of the meeting and returned with an impassioned statement con­ +demning a proposal to celebrate colonialism in the United Nations, +which was established for the purpose of ending colonialism. 1 +The " Doctrine o f Discovery " had reared its head i n the wrong +place. The resolution was dead, but it was not the end of efforts by +Spain, the Vatican, and others in the West to make the Quincenten­ +nial a cause for celebration. +Only five years before the debacle in the UN General Assembly, +the Indigenous Peoples of the Americas conference at the UN's Ge­ +neva headquarters had proposed that 1992 be made the UN "year + +197 + + 198 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +of mourning" for the onset of colonialism, African slavery, and +genocide against the Indigenous peoples of the Americas, and that +October l 2 be designated as the UN International Day of the World's +Indigenous Peoples. As the time drew near to the Quincentennial, +Spain took the lead in fighting the Indigenous proposals. Spain and +the Vatican also spent years and huge sums of money preparing for +their own celebration of Columbus, enlisting the help of all of the +countries of Latin America except Cuba, which refused (and paid +for this in withdrawn Spanish financial investments). In the United +States, the George H. W. Bush administration cooperated with the +project and produced its own series of events. In the end, compro­ +mise won at the United Nations: Indigenous peoples garnered a De­ +cade for the World's Indigenous Peoples, which officially began in + +1994 but was inaugurated at UN headquarters in New York in De­ +cember 1992. August 9, not October 1 2 , was designated as the an­ +nual UN International Day for the World's Indigenous Peoples, and +the Nobel Peace Prize went to Guatemalan Mayan leader Rigoberta +Menchu, announced in Oslo on October 1 2 , 199 2 , a decision that +infuriated the Spanish government and the Vatican. The organized +celebrations of Columbus flopped, thanks to multiple, highly visible +protests by Indigenous peoples and their allies. Particularly, support +grew for the work of Indigenous peoples at the United Nations to +develop new international law standards. +According to the centuries-old Doctrine of Discovery, European +nations acquired title to the lands they "discovered," and Indigenous +inhabitants lost their natural right to that land after Europeans had +arrived and claimed it.2 Under this legal cover for theft, Euro-Amer­ +ican wars of conquest and settler colonialism devastated Indigenous +nations and communities, ripping their territories away from them +and transforming the land into private property, real estate. Most of +that land ended up in the hands of land speculators and agribusiness +operators, many of which, up to the mid-nineteenth century, were +plantations worked by another form of private property, enslaved +Africans. Arcane as it may seem, the doctrine remains the basis for +federal laws still in effect that control Indigenous peoples' lives and +destinies, even their histories by distorting them. + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +199 + +T H E W H I P O F C O LO N I A L I S M + +From the mid-fifteenth century to the mid-twentieth century, most +of the non-European world was colonized under the Doctrine of +Discovery, one of the first principles of international law Christian +European monarchies promulgated to legitimize investigating, map­ +ping, and claiming lands belonging to peoples outside Europe. It +originated in a papal bull issued in 1 4 5 5 that permitted the Portu­ +guese monarchy to seize West Africa. Following Columbus's infa­ +mous exploratory voyage in 1492, sponsored by the king and queen +of the infant Spanish state, another papal bull extended similar +permission to Spain. Disputes between the Portuguese and Spanish +monarchies led to the papal-initiated Treaty of Tordesillas ( 1 494), +which, besides dividing the globe equally between the two Iberian +empires, clarified that only non- Christian lands fell under the dis­ +covery doctrine. 3 This doctrine on which all European states relied +thus originated with the arbitrary and unilateral establishment of +the Iberian monarchies' exclusive rights under Christian canon law +to colonize foreign peoples, and this right was later seized by other +European monarchical colonizing proj ects . The French Republic +used this legalistic instrument for its nineteenth- and twentieth­ +century settler colonialist projects, as did the newly independent +United States when it continued the colonization of North America +begun by the British. +In 1 79 2 , not long after the US founding, Secretary of State +Thomas Jefferson claimed that the Doctrine of Discovery developed +by European states was international law applicable to the new US +government as well. In 1 8 23 the US Supreme Court issued its deci­ +sion in Johnson v. Mcintosh. Writing for the majority, Chief Justice +John Marshall held that the Doctrine of Discovery had been an es­ +tablished principle of European law and of English law in effect +in Britain's North American colonies and was also the law of the +United States. The Court defined the exclusive property rights that +a European country acquired by dint of discovery: "Discovery gave +title to the government, by whose subjects, or by whose authority, +it was made, against all other European governments, which title + + 200 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +might be consummated by possession." Therefore, European and +Euro-American "discoverers" had gained real-property rights in the +lands of Indigenous peoples by merely planting a flag. Indigenous +rights were, in the Court's words, "in no instance, entirely disre­ +garded; but were necessarily, to a considerable extent, impaired." +The Court further held that Indigenous "rights to complete sover­ +eignty, as independent nations, were necessarily diminished." Indig­ +enous people could continue to live on the land, but title resided with +the discovering power, the United States. A later decision concluded +that Native nations were "domestic, dependent nations ." +The Doctrine of Discovery is so taken for granted that it is rarely +mentioned in historical or legal texts published in the Americas. The +UN Permanent Forum on Indigenous Peoples, which meets annually +for two weeks, devoted its entire 201 2 session to the doctrine.4 Three +decades earlier, as Indigenous peoples of the Americas began assert­ +ing their presence in the UN human rights system, they had pro­ +posed such a conference and study. The World Council of Churches, +the Unitarian Universalist Church, the Episcopal Church, and other +Protestant religious institutions, responding to demands from Indig­ +enous peoples, have made statements disassociating themselves from +the Doctrine of Discovery. The New York Society of Friends (Quak­ +ers), in denying the legitimacy of the doctrine, asserted in 201 2 that +it clearly "still has the force of law today" and is not simply a medi­ +eval relic. The Quakers pointed out that the United States rational­ +izes its claims to sovereignty over Native nations, for instance in the +2005 US Supreme Court case, City of Sherrill v. Oneida Nation of + +Indians. The statement asserts: " We cannot accept that the Doctrine +of Discovery was ever a true authority for the forced takings of lands +and the enslavement or extermination of peoples."5 The Unitarian +Universalist Association (UUA) resolution regarding this is particu­ +larly powerful and an excellent model. The UUA "repudiate(s) the +D octrine of Discovery as a relic of colonialism, feudalism, and reli­ +gious, cultural, and racial biases having no place in the modern day +treatment of indigenous peoples." The Unitarians resolved to "ex­ +pose the historical reality and impact of the Doctrine of Discovery +and eliminate its presence in the contemporary policies, programs, +theologies, and structures of Unitarian Universalism; and . . . in- + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +vite indigenous partners to a process of Honor and Healing (often +called Truth and Reconciliation)." They additionally encouraged +"other religious bodies to reject the use of the Doctrine of Discovery +to dominate indigenous peoples" and resolved to collaborate with +groups "to propose a specific Congressional Resolution to repudiate +this doctrine . . . and call upon the United States to fully implement +the standards of the U.N. Declaration on the Rights of Indigenous +Peoples in the U. S . law and policy without qualifications."6 + +TA N G L E D C O N T R A D I C T I O N S + +US officials get tangled in the contradictions inherent in the attempt +to legitimize empire building through the Doctrine of Discovery and +the origin story of making a clear break from the British empire. The +rhetoric is often baffling, particularly when it references US Ameri­ +can cultural memory of the wars against Native nations, as it did +following the declaration of the "War on Terror" after the terrorist +attacks of September n, 2oo r . +In early 2 o n , a Yemeni citizen, Ali Hamza a l Bahlul, was serving +a life sentence at Guantanamo as an "enemy combatant," a military +tribunal having convicted him of crimes associated with his service +to al- Qaeda as Osama bin Laden's media secretary. The Center for +Constitutional Rights (CCR) issued a statement prior to the hearing +in the appeal of Bahlul's conviction. In arguing that Bahlul's convic­ +tion be upheld, a Pentagon lawyer, navy captain Edward S. White, +relied on a precedent from an 1 8 1 8 tribunal. In his thirty-seven-page +military commissions brief, Captain White wrote: "Not only was +the Seminole belligerency unlawful, but, much like modern-day al +Qaeda, the very way in which the Seminoles waged war against U. S. +targets itself violate the customs and usages of war." The CCR ob­ +jected to this passage in the government's brief. "The court should +. . . reject the government's notable reliance on the 'Seminole Wars' +of the l 8 oos, a genocide that led to the Trail of Tears," the CCR +declared. "The government's characterization of Native American +resistance to the United States as 'much like modern-day al Qaeda' +is not only factually wrong but overtly racist, and cannot present + +201 + + 202 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +any legitimate legal basis to uphold Mr. Bahlul's conviction."7 In +response, the Pentagon's general counsel issued a letter stating that +the US government stood by its precedent. + +" W E W I S H T O C O N T I N U E T O E X I S T" + +The question of self-determination of peoples is a recent historical +phenomenon integral both to the formation of modern European +nation-states and to the gradual formation of an imperialist world +system eventually led by the United States. National integration and +state formation occurred first in western Europe as its states estab­ +lished colonies and colonial regimes in Africa, Asia, the Pacific, the +Americas, and the Caribbean, and as the United States established +itself as an independent state. These conquests afforded European +states and the United States access to vast resources and labor that +in turn allowed them to industrialize and to create efficient bu­ +reaucratic structures and political republicanism. At the end of this +process, with decolonization of European holdings in the twenti­ +eth century, self-determination became a major global issue eventu­ +ally incorporating all human beings as citizens of nation-states. The +creation of nation-states and the redrawing of national boundaries +that this often entailed inevitably raised the questions of which na­ +tional, ethnic, religious, and linguistic communities were included +and whether their consent or participation would be required. There +are peoples and nations without their own states, locked under a +state authority that may or may not be willing to respond to their de­ +mands for autonomy within the existing state. If the state is not will­ +ing, the peoples or nations may choose to insist on independence. +That is the work of self-determination. +In the United States, Indigenous nations that seek political auton­ +omy or even independence engage in nation building-that is, devel­ +oping Indigenous governance and an economic base. For decades, +Native activists and organizers in North America have worked tire­ +lessly to establish the validity of treaties and to foster and protect +the self-determination and sovereignty of Indigenous nations. The +nations seek control of their social and political institutions without + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +compromising what they consider unique and essential cultural val­ +ues. The central concern for Indigenous peoples in the United States +is prevailing upon the federal government to honor hundreds of trea­ +ties and other agreements concluded between the United States and +Indigenous nations as between two sovereign states. Demands to +have treaties and agreements upheld have never abated, and they +have accelerated since the end of the termination era. However, the +Indigenous concept of nation and sovereignty is quite distinct from +the Western model of the state as the final arbiter of decision mak­ +ing, based on police enforcement. Rather, as Indigenous lawyer and +activist Sharon Venne has put it, "We know the laws given to us by +the Creator. It is an obligation. It is a duty. It is the future of our +[children's] children. We cannot like the non-indigenous people who +make rules and regulations and change them when they don't like +the rule or regulation. We were given the laws by the Creator. We +have to live the laws. This is sovereignty of Indigenous Peoples."8 +Following the 1973 standoff at Wounded Knee, the American +Indian Movement brought together more than five thousand Indig­ +enous representatives, including ones from Latin America and the +Pacific, in a ten-day gathering that founded the International In­ +dian Treaty Council (HTC), which then applied for and received UN +nongovernmental consultative status in 1975 . The HTC proceeded +to organize the first conference to be held at the United Nations +on Indigenous Peoples of the Americas in 1977· At this conference, +Northern Cheyenne tribal judge Marie Sanchez opened the proceed­ +mgs: +Members of this conference, delegates, and my brothers and +sisters who are present here today. +We are the target for the total final extermination of us as +people. +The question I would like to bring forth to this conference, +to the delegates from other countries here present, is why have +you not recognized us as sovereign people before ? Why did +we have to travel this distance to come to you? Had you not +thought that the United States Government in its deliberate +and systematic attempt to suppress us, had you not thought + +203 + + 204 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +that that was the reason they did not want to recognize us as +sovereign people ? The only positive thing that I feel should +come out of this conference, if you are going to include us as +part of the international family is for you to recognize us, for +you to give us this recognition. Only with that can we con­ +tinue to live as completely sovereign people. +And you also, because you are part of the family of this +world, you should also be very concerned, because the com­ +mon enemy is your enemy too, and that enemy dictates policy +to your governments also. I warn you not to be so dependent +on the country that we are under, on the government that we +are under. We have demonstrated to you how many hundreds +of years we have survived. +We wish to continue to exist.9 +This international work at the United Nations grew slowly at first, +but by the mid-198os it was attracting grassroots Indigenous rep­ +resentatives from around the world and constructing important +initiatives. +The global Indigenous cause reached a major milestone in 2007 +when the UN General Assembly passed the Declaration on the +Rights of Indigenous Peoples. Only four members of the assembly +voted in opposition, all of them Anglo settler-states-the United +States, Canada, New Zealand, and Australia. All four, with some +embarrassment, later changed their votes to approval.1 0 Leo Kills­ +back reflects the perceptions of most Native people that the declara­ +tion might " bring western cultures out of their old world of savagery +and closer to humanity," noting the example of the end of World +War II: +After the fall of Nazi Germany, its leaders were publicly os­ +tracized, tried, convicted, and executed for war crimes at the +Nuremburg trials. This led to the Genocide Convention and +the Universal Declaration of Human Rights . Nazi society +members affirmed that the Holocaust occurred and some were +forced to visit concentration camps only feet from their place +of residence. Under truth and reconciliation German society + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +205 + +began to rebuild itself, and with the end of their savage world, +they and numerous other countries adopted Holocaust-denial +laws. This is exactly how a society moved from one reality to +another. 1 1 +For Indigenous peoples in North America an important action +within the UN human rights framework was the 1 9 8 7 mandate +given to a UN special rapporteur, Miguel Alfonso Martinez, to in­ +vestigate the status of treaties and agreements between Indigenous +nations and the original colonial powers and the national govern­ +ments that now claim authority over Indigenous nations by virtue +of those treaties. The UN Study on Treaties, completed in 1999, +is a useful tool for Indigenous peoples in the United States in their +continuing struggles for land restoration and sovereignty. The in­ +vestigation concluded that Indigenous treaty rights in the United +States have contemporary effective status. The special rapporteur +based this finding largely on the US Constitution, which in Article +VI provides that "all treaties made, or which shall be made, under +the Authority of the United States, shall be the supreme Law of the +Land; and the Judges in every State shall be bound thereby, any +Thing in the Constitution or Laws of any State to the Contrary not­ +withstanding." Article I, Section 8, of the Constitution explicitly +includes relations with Indigenous nations as among the powers of +Congress: "To regulate Commerce with foreign Nations, and among +the several States, and with the Indian Tribes."12 + +LAN D C LA I M S + +With a large part of Indigenous nations' territories and resources in +what is now the United States taken through aggressive war, outright +theft, and legislative appropriations, Native peoples have vast claims +to reparations and restitution. Indigenous nations negotiated numer­ +ous treaties with the United States that included land transfers and +monetary compensation, but the remaining Indigenous territories +have steadily shrunk due to direct federal appropriation by various +means as well as through government failure to meet its obligation to + + 206 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +protect Indigenous landholdings as required under treaties. The US +government has acknowledged some of these claims and has offered +monetary compensation. However, since the upsurge of Indian rights +movements in the 19 60s, Indigenous nations have demanded restora­ +tion of treaty-guaranteed land rather than monetary compensation. +Native Americans, including those who are legal scholars, ordi­ +narily do not use the term "reparations" in reference to their land +c �aims and treaty rights. Rather, they demand restoration, restitu­ +tion, or repatriation of lands acquired by the United States outside +valid treaties . These demands for return of lands and water and +other resource rights illegally taken certainly could be termed "rep­ +arations," but they have no parallel in the monetary reparations +owed, for example, to Japanese Americans for forced incarceration +or to descendants of enslaved Africa.n Americans. No monetary +amount can compensate for lands illegally seized, particularly those +sacred lands necessary for Indigenous peoples to regain social coher­ +ence. One form of Native claim does seek monetary compensation +and might provide a template for other classes. Of the hundreds of +lawsuits for federal trust mismanagement that Indigenous groups +have filed, most since the 19 60s, the largest and best known is the + +Cobell v. Salazar class-action suit, initially filed in 1 9 9 6 and settled +in 201 i . The individual Indigenous litigants, from many Native na­ +tions, claimed that the US Department of the Interior, as trustee +of Indigenous assets, had lost, squandered, stolen, and otherwise +wasted hundreds of millions of dollars dating back to the forced +land allotment beginning in the late l 8 8os. By the end of 2009, it +was clear that the case was headed for a decision favoring the Indig­ +enous groups when the lead plaintiffs, representing nearly a half­ +million Indigenous individuals, accepted a $3 . 4-billion settlement +proposed by the Obama administration. The amount of the settle­ +ment was greater than the half-billion dollars that the court would +likely have awarded. However, what was sacrificed in the settlement +was a detailed accounting of the federal government's misfeasance. +As one reporter lamented: "The result will see some involved with +the case, especially lawyers, become quite rich, while many Indi­ +ans-the majority, in all likelihood-will receive about a third of +what it takes to feed a family of four for just one year."13 + + The Doctrifle of Discovery + +207 + +Another important form of reparations is the repatriation of re­ +mains of dead ancestors and burial items. After considerable struggle +on the part of Indigenous religious practitioners, Congress enacted +the Native American Graves Protection and Repatriation Act of + +1990 (NAGPRA), which requires that museums return human re­ +mains and burial items to the appropriate Indigenous communities. +It is fitting that Congress used the term "repatriation" in the act. +Before NAGPRA, the federal government had used "repatriation" +to describe the return of remains of prisoners of war to foreign na­ +tions. Native American nations are sovereign as well, and Congress +correctly characterized the returns as repatriations. 14 +Although compensation for federal trust mismanagement and +repatriation of ancestral remains represent important victories, land +claims and treaty rights are most central to Indigenous peoples' fight +for reparations in the United States. The case of the great Sioux +Nation exemplifies the persistence among Indigenous nations and +communities to protect their sovereignty and cultures. The Sioux +have never accepted the validity of the US confiscation of Paha Sapa, +the Black Hills. Mount Rushmore is controversial among Native +Americans because it is located in the Black Hills. Members of the +American Indian Movement led occupations of the monument be­ +ginning in 197 ! . Return of the Black Hills was the major Sioux +demand in the 19 73 occupation of Wounded Knee. 1 5 Due to a de­ + +_ + +cade of intense protests and occupations by the Sioux, on July 23 , + +1980, in United States v. Sioux Nation of Indians, the US Supreme +Court ruled that the Black Hills had been taken illegally and that +remuneration equal to the initial offering price plus interest-nearly + +$106 million-be paid. The Sioux refused the award and continued +to demand return of the Black Hills. The money remained in an +interest-bearing account, which by 2010, amounted to more than + +$757 million. The Sioux believe that accepting the money would +validate the US theft of their most sacred land. The Sioux Nation's +determination to repatriate the Black Hills attracted renewed me­ +dia attention in 201 r . A segment of the PBS NewsHour titled " For +Great Sioux Nation, Black Hills Can't Be Bought for $ r . 3 Billion" +aired on August 24 . The reporter described a Sioux reservation as +one of the most difficult places in which to live in the United States: + + 208 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Few people in the Western Hemisphere have shorter life ex­ +pectancies. Males, on average, live to j ust 48 years old, fe­ +males to 5 2 . Almost half of all people above the age of 40 have +diabetes. +And the economic realities are even worse. Unemployment +rates are consistently above 80 percent. In Shannon County, +inside the Pine Ridge Reservation, half the children live in +poverty, and the average income is $ 8 ,ooo a year. +But there are funds available, a federal pot now worth more +than a billion dollars. That sits here in the U . S . Treasury De­ +partment waiting to be collected by nine Sioux tribes. The +money stems from a 1 9 8 0 Supreme Court ruling that set aside + +$105 million to compensate the Sioux for the taking of the +Black Hills in 1 877, an isolated mountain range rich in miner­ +als that stretched from South Dakota to Wyoming. The only +problem: The Sioux never wanted the money because the land +was never for sale.1 6 +That one of the most impoverished communities in the Americas +would refuse a billion dollars demonstrates the relevance and signifi­ +cance of the land to the Sioux, not as an economic resource but as +a relationship between people and place, a profound feature of the +resilience . of the Indigenous peoples of the Americas. + +E C O N O M I C S E L F - D E T E R M I N AT I O N + +The relationship of economic development and Indigenous peoples +in the United States is not a twentieth-century phenomenon. The +collusion of business and government in the theft and exploitation +of Indigenous lands and resources is the core element of coloniza­ +tion and forms the basis of US wealth and power. By the end of the +nineteenth century, Indigenous communities had little control over +their resources or their economic situations, receiving only royalties +for mining and leasing, funds held in trust in Washington. Dur­ +ing the Johnson administration's War on Poverty, most reservation +economic development was spurred by funding and grants from the + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +209 + +Economic Development Administration, the Office of Economic +Opportunity, and other government agencies. The Bureau of Indian +Affairs began a program to woo industrial plants to reservations, +promising cheap labor and infrastructure investment. The largest +such experiment was that of the giant electronics company Fair­ +child's assembly plant in the Navajo Nation. +Established at the town of Shiprock (in the northeastern part of +the reservation, in New Mexico) in 1969, the plant became the sin­ +gle largest industrial employer in New Mexico by 1975 · Twelve hun­ +dred Navajos made up the initial workforce. By 1974 , the numbers +had lessened to a thousand, but still Navajos were 95 percent of the +workforce. Then, during 1974-75, the Navajo workforce shrunk to +six hundred. Fairchild's Mountain View, California, headquarters +claimed that Navajos were quitting, something very common in the +electronics assembly industry. Non-Indians were being hired to re­ +place Navajos. What actually had been happening were layoffs, not +resignations. The federal government subsidized the wages for the +six-month training period on the job, for which little training is re­ +quired, and Fairchild was laying off those workers whom they would +have to pay and hiring new trainees at no cost. Local Navaj o activ­ +ists and former Fairchild employees, along with help from American +Indian Movement leaders, organized a protest at the plant, which +led to the workers occupying it. Fairchild decommissioned the plant +and moved it overseas. Documents recovered by protesters revealed +that Fairchild was seeking a pretext to break its lease. The Navajo +Nation had built the plant to Fairchild's specifications at a cost of +three and a half million dollars . 17 +The Indian Self-D etermination Act of 1975 validated Indig­ +enous control over their own social and economic development +with continuation of federal financial obligations under treaties +and agreements . Acting upon the new mandate, a number of In­ +digenous nations with mineral resources formed the Council of +Energy Resource Tribes (CERT). Patterned after the federation of +oil-producing states, OPEC (Organization of the Petroleum Export­ +ing Countries), CERT sought to renegotiate mineral leases that the +BIA had practically given away to energy companies. Native lands +west of the Mississippi held considerable resources: 30 percent of the + + 210 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +low-sulfur coal in the United States, 5 percent of the oil, 10 percent +of the natural gas, and 80 percent of the uranium. CERT was able +to establish a center of information and action in Denver to serve its +members with technical and legal assistance. The Jicarilla Apache +Nation slapped a severance tax on the oil and gas taken from their +lands . A corporate legal challenge to this wound up in the Supreme +Court, which found that Native nations had the right to tax corpo­ +rations that operated in their boundaries. +Navaj o chairman Peter MacDonald was the force behind the +founding of CERT and was its first director. But he quickly found +his scheme of mining as the basis for economic development chal­ +lenged by young Navajos who perceived the downside of ecological +destruction. Strip-mining of coal and uranium in the Navajo Na­ +tion was bad enough, but then a coal-gasification plant was estab­ +lished to feed into the Navajo electricity-generating plant that sent +power to Phoenix and Los Angeles but provided Navajos with little +or none. Navajo activist John Redhouse, who became director of +the National Indian Youth Council, led decades of struggle against +unrestricted mining, with new generations continuing the fight. 18 +Like many de-industrializing US cities and states in the 1 9 8 0s, +some Native nations turned to gaming for revenue. In 1986, they +formed the National Indian Gaming Association for the purpose of +lobbying state and federal governments and to represent the interests +of its members. But in 19 8 8 Congress passed the Indian Gaming +Regulatory Act, which gave the states some control over gaming, a +dangerous surrender of sovereignty for those Native nations operat­ +ing casinos. Indigenous gaming operations now constitute a $26 bil­ +lion industry annually that employs three hundred thousand people, +with about half the 5 64 federally recogn ized nations operating ca­ +sinos of various sizes. Profits have been used in myriad ways, some +for per capita payments, others earmarked for educational and lin­ +guistic development, housing, hospitals, and even investing in larger +projects such as the Smithsonian Institution's National Museum of +the American Indian. A good portion of profits go to lobbying politi­ +cians of state and federal governments. The Indian gaming lobby in +California, for instance, is second only to the prison guards union +in the state.19 + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +211 + +T H E N A R R AT I V E O F DYS F U N C T I O N + +The mainstream media and books regularly expose and denounce +the poverty and social dysfunction found in Indigenous communi­ +ties. Rates of alcoholism and suicide are far higher than national av­ +erages, and higher even than in other communities living in poverty. +In a book of case studies of poverty and neglected sites of deteriora­ +tion in the United States, j ournalist Chris Hedges offered an impas­ +sioned account of the Pine Ridge Reservation. 20 +As well-meaning and accurate as such portrayals are, however, +they miss the specific circumstances that reproduce Indigenous pov­ +erty and social scarring-namely, the colonial condition. As Vine +Deloria Jr. and other Native American activists and scholars have +emphasized, there is a direct link between the suppression of Indige­ +nous sovereignty and the powerlessness manifest in depressed social +conditions. Deloria Jr. explained that for the Sioux, everyone has +responsibility and rituals to perform that involve a particular ge­ +ography. In their case, this means sites in the Black Hills: " Some of +the holy men up there will say that a lot of the social problems with +the Sioux are the result of losing the Black Hills, so you couldn't +perform your duties and become a contributor to the ongoing cre­ +ation. And consequently, people began to fall away and they started +to suffer and they started to fight among themselves."21 In continu­ +ing to disregard treaty rights and deny restitution of sacred lands +such as the Black Hills, the federal government prevents Indigenous +communities from performing their most elemental responsibilities +as inscribed in their cultural and religious teachings. In other words, +sovereignty equates to survival-nationhood instead of genocide. +Ethnographer Nancy O estreich Lurie provocatively described +Indian drinking as "the world's oldest on-going protest demon­ +stration."22 The effects of continued colonization form similar pat­ +terns among Indigenous communities throughout the Americas, +as well as among the Maori of New Zealand and the Australian +Aborigines. 23 +The experience of generations of Native Americans in on- and +off-reservation boarding schools, run by the federal government or +Christian missions, contributed significantly to the family and so- + + 212 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +cial dysfunction still found in Native communities. Generations of +child abuse, including sexual abuse-from the founding of the first +schools by missionaries in the 1 8 3 0s and the federal government in +1 8 75 until most were closed and the remaining ones reformed in +the l97os-traumatized survivors and their progeny.24 In 2002, a +coalition of Indigenous groups started the Boarding School Healing +Project, which documented through research and oral history the +extensive abuses that go beyond individual casualties to disruption +of Indigenous life at every level. Sun Elk was the first child from the +very traditional Taos Pueblo to attend the Carlisle Indian Industrial +School, spending seven years there beginning in 1 8 8 3 . After a harsh +reentry into Taos society, he told his story: +They told us that Indian ways were bad. They said we must +get civilized. I remember that word too. It means " be like +the white man." I am willing to be like the white man, but I +did not believe Indians' ways were wrong. But they kept teach­ +ing us for seven years. And the books told how bad the In­ +dians had been to the white men-burning their towns +and killing their women and children. But I had seen white +men do that to Indians. We all wore white man's clothes +and ate white man's food and went to white man's churches +and spoke white man's talk. And so after a while we also be­ +gan to say Indians were bad. We laughed at our own people +and their blankets and cooking pots and sacred societies and +dances. 25 +Corporal punishment was unknown in Indigenous families but +was routine in the boarding schools. Often punishment was inflicted +for being "too Indian" -the darker the child, the more often and +severe the beatings. The children were made to feel that it was crimi­ +nal to be Indian. 2 6 A woman whose mother experienced boarding +school related the results: +Probably my mother and . . . her brothers and sisters were the +first in our family to go to boarding school. . . . And the sto­ +ries she told . . . were horrendous. There were beatings . There + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +[was] a very young classmate-I don't know how old they +were, probably preschool or grade school-who lost a hand +in having to clean this machine that baked bread or cut dough +or something, and having to kneel for hours on cold basement +floors as punishment . . . . My mother lived with a rage all her +life, and I think the fact that they were taken away so young +was part of this rage and how it-the fallout-was on us as a +family.27 +Ponca historian Roger Buffalohead verifies that testimony: +The idea of corporal punishment, so foreign to traditional In­ +dian cultures, became a way of life for those students return­ +ing from their educational experience. +Yet you find by the thirties and forties in most Native +communities, where large numbers of young people had, in +the previous years, attended boarding schools, an increasing +number of parents who utilized corporal punishment in the +raising of their children, so that although you can't prove a +direct connection, I think you can certainly see that boarding +school experiences, where corporal punishment was the name +of the game, had [their] impact on the next generations of na­ +tive people. 28 +Sexual abuse of both girls and boys was also rampant. One +woman remembers: "We had many different teachers during those +years; some got the girls pregnant and had to leave . . . . [One teacher] +would put his arms around and fondle this girl, sometimes taking +her on his lap . . . . When I got there, Mr. M put his arm around me +and rubbed my arm all the way down. He rubbed his face against +mine." At one mission school, a priest was known for his sexual ad­ +vances. "Anyway, I ended up beside him [the priest] . . . and all of a +sudden he started to feel my legs . . . . I was getting really uncomfort­ +able and he started trying to put his hands in my pants ."29 Nuns also +participated in sexual abuse: "A nun was sponge bathing me and +proceeded to go a little too far with her sponge bathing. So I pushed +her hand away. She held my legs apart while she strapped the insides +of my thighs. I never stopped her again."3 0 + +213 + + 214 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Much documentation and testimony attest to the never-ending +resistance by children in boarding schools. Running away was the +most common way to resist, but there were also acts of nonparticipa­ +tion and sabotage, secretly speaking their languages and practicing +ceremonies. This surely accounts for their survival, but the damage +is nearly incomprehensible. Mohawk historian Taiaiake Alfred asks, +" What is the legacy of colonialism ? Dispossession, disempower­ +ment, and disease inflicted by the white man, to be sure . . . . Yet the +enemy is in plain view: residential schools, racism, expropriation, +extinguishment, warship, welfare."31 +Indigenous women, in particular, have continued to bear the +brunt of sexual violence, both within families and by settler preda­ +tors. Incidence of rape on reservations has long been astronomical. +The colonialist restrictions on Indigenous policing authority on +reservations-yet another legacy of the Doctrine of Discovery and +the impairment of Indigenous sovereignty-opened the door to +perpetrators of sexual violence who knew there would be no con­ +sequences for their actions. 32 Under the US colonial system, jurisdic­ +tion for crimes committed on Native lands falls to federal and state +authorities because Native justice can be applied only to reserva­ +tion residents, and then only for misdemeanors. One in three Native +American women has been raped or experienced attempted rape, +and the rate of sexual assault on Native American women is more +than twice the national average. For five years after publication of +a scathing 2007 report by Amnesty International, Native American +and women's organizations, including the National Organization +for Women (NOW), lobbied Congress to add a new section to the + +1994 Violence Against Women Act (VAWA) addressing the special +situation of Native American women living on reservations. 33 The +added provision would allow Native nations' courts jurisdiction to +arrest and prosecute non-Native men who enter reservations and +commit rape. At the end of 201 2 , the Republican-dominated US +Congress denied reauthorization of the VAWA, because it included +the provision. In March 2013 , however, that opposition was over­ +come, and President Barack Obama signed the amended act back +into law-a small step forward for Native sovereignty. + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +215 + +I N D I G E N O U S G OV E R N A N C E + +For generations, Native nations, occasionally with the help of fed­ +eral or state government, treated the symptoms of colonialism. But +with the powerful Indigenous self-determination movements of the +second half of the twentieth century, those nations participated in +drafting and instituting new international law that supports their +aspirations, and they began working on shoring up their sovereignty +through governance . Through this work, US Indigenous peoples +have reconceptualized their current forms of government based on +new constitutions that reflect their specific cultures. Navajo think­ +ing on a future constitution expresses that desire. Like some other +Native nations, the Navajo, the most populous and the one holding +the largest land base in the United States, has never had a constitu­ +tion. But others do have constitutions similar to that of the United +States. Nearly sixty Native nations adopted constitutions before + +193 4 · Following the Indian Reorganization Act of that year, another +1 3 0 nations wrote constitutions according to federal guidelines but +without significant participation of their citizenry. 34 The movement +to create, revise, or rewrite constitutions has seen notable success +in two instances during the first decade of the twenty-first century. +From 2004 to 2006 the Osage Nation, located in northeastern +Oklahoma, engaged in a contentious process of reform that pro­ +duced a new constitution. The preamble reflects the extraordinary +context and content of the new law: +We the Wah-zha-zhe, known as the Osage People, having +formed as Clans in the far distant past, have been a People and +as a People have walked this earth and enjoyed the blessing of +Wah-kon-tah for more centuries than we truly know. +Having resolved to live in harmony, we now come together +so that we may once more unite as a Nation and as a Peo­ +ple, calling upon the fundamental values that we hold sacred: +Justice, Fairness, Compassion, Respect for and Protection of +Child, Elder, All Fellow Beings, and Self. +Paying homage to generations of Osage leaders of the past + + 216 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +and present, we give thanks for their wisdom and courage. +Acknowledging our ancient tribal order as the foundation of +our present government, first reformed in the r 8 8 r Constitu­ +tion of the Osage Nation, we continue our legacy by again +reorganizing our government. +This Constitution, created by the Osage People, hereby +grants to every Osage citizen a vote that is equal to all others +and form a government that is accountable to the citizens pf +the Osage Nation. +We, the Osage People, based on centuries of being a People, +now strengthen our government in order to preserve and per­ +petuate a full and abundant Osage way of life that benefits all +Osages, living and as yet unborn. 35 +Similarly, in 2009 , the White Earth Nation of the Anishinaabeg +(Ojibwe people) adopted a new constitution. White Earth is located +in central Minnesota and is one of a number of Anishinaabe reserva­ +tions in Minnesota, with others in Wisconsin, South Dakota, and +Canada. The preamble to the White Earth constitution is revealing: +The Anishinaabeg of the White Earth Nation are the ances­ +tors of a great tradition of continental liberty, a native con­ +stitution of families, totemic associations. The Anishinaabeg +create stories of natural reason, of courage, loyalty, humor, +spiritual inspiration, survivance, reciprocal altruism, and na­ +tive cultural sovereignty. +We the Anishinaabeg of the White Earth Nation in order +to secure an inherent and essential sovereignty, to promote +traditions of liberty, justice, and peace, and reserve common +resources, and to ensure the inalienable rights of native gov­ +ernance for our posterity, do constitute, ordain, and establish +this Constitution of the White Earth Nation. 36 +Gerald Vizenor, a citizen of the White Earth Nation, best-sell­ +ing author, and leading intellectual, participated in the writing of +this constitution. Explaining the concept of "survivance," a term he +coined, he stresses that it originates in Indigenous narratives: "The + + The Doctrine of Discovery + +conventions of survivance create a sense of Native presence over +nihility and victory. Survivance is an active presence: it is not ab­ +sence, deracination, or ethnographic oblivion, and survivance is the +continuance of narratives, not a mere reaction, however pertinent. +Survivance stories are renunciations of dominance, the unbearable +sentiments of tragedy, and the legacy of victimry."37 +The Doctrine of Discovery is dissolving in light of these profound +acts of sovereignty. But neither arcane colonial laws nor the his­ +torical trauma of genocide simply disappear with time, certainly +not when conditions of life and consciousness perpetuate them. The +Indigenous self-determination and sovereignty movement is not only +transforming the continent's Indigenous communities and nations +but also, inevitably, the United States. The ways it is doing that are +explored in the concluding chapter. + +21 7 + + C O N C LU S I O N + +THE F U T U RE O F THE U N I TE D S TATE S + +That the continued colonization of American Indian nations, +peoples, and lands provides the United States the economic +and material resources needed to cast its imperialist gaze +globally is a fact that is simultaneously obvious within and yet continually obscured by- what is essentially a settler +colony's national construction of itself as an ever more perfect +multicultural, multiracial democracy. . . . [T]he status of +American Indians as sovereign nations colonized by the +United States continues to haunt and inflect its raison d'etre. +-Jodi Byrd + +The conventional narrative of US history routinely segregates the +" Indian wars" as a subspecialization within the dubious category +"the West." Then there are the westerns, those cheap novels, movies, +and television shows that nearly every US American imbibed with +mother's milk and that by the mid-twentieth century were popular +in every corner of the world. 1 The architecture of US world domi­ +nance was designed and tested by this period of continental US mili­ +tarism, which built on the previous hundred years and generated its +own innovations in total war. The opening of the twenty-first cen­ +tury saw a new, even more brazen form of US militarism and impe­ +rialism explode on the world scene when the election of George W. +Bush turned over control of US foreign policy to a long-gestating +neoconservative and warmongering faction of the Pentagon and its +civilian hawks. Their subsequent eight years of political control in­ +cluded two major military invasions and hundreds of small wars em­ +ploying US Special Forces around the globe, establishing a template +that continued after their political power waned. + +218 + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +" I N J U N CO U N T RY" + +One highly regarded military analyst stepped forward to make the +connections between the " Indian wars " and what he considered +the country's bright imperialist past and future. Robert D. Kaplan, +in his 2005 book Imperial Grunts, presented several case studies +that he considered highly successful operations: Yemen, Colom­ +bia, Mongolia, and the Philippines, in addition to ongoing complex +projects in the Horn of Africa, Afghanistan , and Iraq.2 While +US citizens and many of their elected representatives called for end­ +ing the US military interventions they knew about-including Iraq +and Afghanistan-Kaplan hailed protracted counterinsurgencies in +Africa, Asia, the Middle East, Latin America, and the Pacific. He +presented a guide for the US controlling those areas of the world +based on its having achieved continental dominance in North Amer­ +ica by means of counterinsurgency and employing total and unlim­ +ited war. +Kaplan, a meticulous researcher and influential writer born in +1 9 5 2 in New York City, wrote for major newspapers and magazines + +before serving as "chief geopolitical strategist" for the private se­ +curity think tank Stratfor. Among other prestigious posts, he has +been a senior fellow at the Center for a New American Security +in Washington, D C , and a member of the Defense Policy Board, a +federal advisory committee to the US Department of Defense. In +2 o r r , Foreign Policy magazine named Kaplan as one of the world's + +"top r o o global thinkers." Author of numerous best-selling books, +including Balkan Ghosts and Surrender or Starve, Kaplan became +one of the principal intellectual boosters for US power in the world +through the tried-and-true "American way of war." This is the way +of war dating to the British-colonial period that military historian +John Grenier called a combination of "unlimited war and irregular +war," a military tradition "that accepted, legitimized, and encour­ +aged attacks upon and the destruction of noncombatants, villages +and agricultural resources . . . in shockingly violent campaigns to +achieve their goals of conquest."3 +Kaplan sums up his thesis in the prologue to Imperial Grunts, +which he subtitles "Injun Country": + +219 + + 220 + +An Indigenous Peoples ' History of the United States + +By the turn of the twenty-first century the United States mili­ +tary had already appropriated the entire earth, and was ready +to flood the most obscure areas of it with troops at a moment's +notice. +The Pentagon divided the planet into five area commands­ +similar to the way that the Indian Country of the American +West had been divided in the mid-nineteenth century by the +U. S . Army. . . . [A]ccording to the soldiers and marines I met +on the ground in far-flung corners of the earth, the compari­ +son with the nineteenth century was . . . apt. "Welcome to +lnjun Country" was the refrain I heard from troops from Co­ +lombia to the Philippines, including Afghanistan and Iraq. To +be sure, the problem for the American military was less [Is­ +lamic] fundamentalism than anarchy. The War on Terrorism +was really about taming the frontier. 4 +Kaplan goes on to ridicule "elites in New York and Washington" +who debate imperialism in "grand, historical terms," while indi­ +viduals from all the armed services interpret policy according to the +particular circumstances they face and are indifferent to or unaware +of the fact that they are part of an imperialist project. This book +shows how colonialism and imperialism work. +Kaplan challenges the concept of manifest destiny, arguing that +" it was not inevitable that the United States should have an empire +in the western part of the continent." Rather, he argues, western +empire was brought about by "small groups of frontiersmen, sepa­ +rated from each other by great distances ." Here Kaplan refers to +what Grenier calls settler "rangers," destroying Indigenous towns +and fields and food supplies. Although Kaplan downplays the role of +the US Army compared to the settler vigilantes, which he equates to +the modern Special Forces, he acknowledges that the regular army +provided lethal backup for settler counterinsurgency in slaughtering +the buffalo, the food supply of Plains peoples, as well as making +continuous raids on settlements to kill or confine the families of the +Indigenous fighters.5 Kaplan summarizes the genealogy of US mili­ +tarism today: + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +Whereas the average American at the dawn of the new mil­ +lennium found patriotic inspiration in the legacies of the Civil +War and World War II, when the evils of slavery and fascism +were confronted and vanquished, for many commissioned and +noncommissioned officers the U. S . Army's defining moment +was fighting the " Indians." +The legacy of the Indian wars was palpable in the numer­ +ous military bases spread across the South, the Middle West, +and particularly the Great Plains: that vast desert and steppe +comprising the Army's historical "heartland," punctuated by +such storied outposts as Forts Hays, Kearney, Leavenworth, +Riley, and Sill. Leavenworth, where the Oregon and Santa Fe +trails separated, was now the home of the Army's Command +and General Staff College; Riley, the base of George Arm­ +strong Custer's 7th Cavalry, now that of the l St Infantry Divi­ +sion; and Sill, where Geronimo lived out the last years of his +life, the headquarters of the U.S. Artillery. . . . +While microscopic in size, it was the fast and irregular +military actions against the Indians, memorialized in bronze +and oil by Remington, that shaped the nature of American +nationalism. 6 +Although Kaplan relies principally on the late-nineteenth-century +source of US counterinsurgency, in a footnote he reports what he +learned at the Airborne Special Operations Museum in Fayetteville, +North Carolina: " It is a small but interesting fact that members +of the 101st Airborne Division, in preparation for their parachute +drop on D -Day, shaved themselves in Mohawk style and applied war +paint on their faces."7 This takes us back to the pre-independence +colonial wars and then through US independence and the myth pop­ +ularized by The Last of the' Mahicans. +Kaplan debunks the argument that the attacks on the World +Trade Center and the Pentagon on September n, 2001, brought the +United States into a new era of warfare and prompted it to estab­ +lish military bases around the world. Prior to 2001, Kaplan rightly +observes, the US Army's Special Operations Command had been + +221 + + 222 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +carrying out maneuvers since the 1980s in " 1 70 countries per year, +with an average of nine 'quiet professionals' on each mission. Amer­ +ica's reach was long; its involvement in the obscurest states protean. +Rather than the conscript army of citizen soldiers that fought World +War II, there was now a professional military that, true to other +imperial forces throughout history, enjoyed the soldiering life for its +own sake."8 +On October 13, 20I I , testifying before the Armed Services Com­ +mittee of the US House of Representatives, General Martin Dempsey +stated: "I didn't become the chairman of the Joint Chiefs to oversee +the decline of the Armed Forces of the United States, and an end +state that would have this nation and its military not be a global +power. . . . That is not who we are as a nation." + +T H E R E T U R N OF L E G A L I Z E D TO R T U R E + +Bodies-tortured bodies, sexually violated bodies, imprisoned bod­ +ies, dead bodies-arose as a primary topic in the first years of the +George W. Bush administration following the September 2001 at­ +tacks with a war of revenge against Afghanistan and the overthrow +of the government of Iraq. Afghans resisting US forces and others +who happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time were +taken into custody, and most of them were sent to a hastily con­ +structed prison facility on the US military base at Guantanamo Bay, +Cuba, on land the United States appropriated in its 1 8 9 8 war against +Cuba. Rather than bestowing the status of prisoner of war on the +detainees, which would have given them certain rights under the Ge­ +neva Conventions, they were designated as "unlawful combatants," +a status previdusly unknown in the annals of Western warfare. As +such, the detainees were subjected to torture by US interrogators +and shamelessly monitored by civilian psychologists and medical +personnel. +In response to questions and condemnations from around the +globe, a University of California international law professor, John +C. Yoo, on leave to serve as assistant US attorney general in the Jus- + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +tice Department's Office of Legal Counsel, penned in March 2003 +what became the infamous "Torture Memo." Not much was made +at the time of one of the precedents Yoo used to defend the designa­ +tion "unlawful combatant," the US Supreme Court's 1873 opinion +in Modoc Indian Prisoners. +In 1872, a group of Modoc men led by Kintpuash, also known as +Captain Jack, attempted to return to their own country in Northern +California after the US Army had rounded them up and forced them +to share a reservation in Oregon. The insurgent group of fifty-three +was surrounded by US troops and Oregon militiamen and forced +to take refuge in the barren and rugged lava beds around Lassen +Peak, a dormant volcano, a part of their ancestral homeland that +they knew every inch of. More than a thousand troops commanded +by General Edward R. S. Canby, a former Civil War general, at­ +tempted to capture the resisters, but had no success as the Modocs +engaged in effective guerrilla warfare. Before the Civil War, Canby +had built his military career fighting in the Second Seminole War +and later in the invasion of Mexico. Posted to Utah on the eve of +the Civil War, he had led attacks against the Navaj os, and then be­ +gan his Civil War service in New Mexico. Therefore, Canby was a +seasoned Indian killer. In a negotiating meeting between the general +and Kintpuash, the Modoc leader killed the general and the other +commissioners when they would allow only for surrender. In re­ +sponse, the United States sent another former Civil War general in +with more than a thousand additional soldiers as reinforcements, +and in April 1 8 73 these troops attacked the Modoc stronghold, +this time forcing the Indigenous fighters to flee. After four months +of fighting that cost the United States almost $soo,ooo-equal to +nearly $ 1 0 million currently-and the lives of more than four hun­ +dred of its soldiers and a general, the nationwide backlash against +the Modocs was vengeful.9 Kintpuash and several other captured +Modocs were imprisoned and then hanged at Alcatraz, and the Mo ­ +doc families were scattered and incarcerated on reservations. Kint­ +puash's corpse was embalmed and exhibited at circuses around the +country. The commander of the army's Pacific Military Division at +the time, Lieutenant General John M. Schofield, wrote of the Modoc + +223 + + 224 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +War in his memoir, Forty-Six Years in the Army: "If the innocent +could be separated from the guilty, plague, pestilence, and famine +would not be an unjust punishment for the crimes committed in this +country against the original occupants of the soil." 1 0 +Drawing a legal analogy between the Modoc prisoners and the +Guantanamo detainees, Assistant US Attorney General Yoo em­ +ployed the legal category of homo sacer: in Roman law, a person +banned from society, excluded from its legal protections but still +subject to the sovereign's power. 1 1 Anyone may kill a homo sacer +without it being considered murder. As Jodi Byrd notes, " One begins +to understand why John C. Yoo's infamous March 1 4 , 2003 , torture +memos cited the 1 8 6 5 Military Commissions and the 1 873 The Mo­ + +doc Indian Prisoners legal opinions in order to articulate executive +power in declaring the state of exception, particularly when The +Modoc Indian Prisoners opinion explicitly marks the Indian com­ +batant as homo sacer to the United States."12 To buttress his claim, +Yoo quoted from the 1873 Modoc Indian Prisoners opinion: +It cannot be pretended that a United States soldier is guilty +of murder if he kills a public enemy in battle, which would be +the case if the municipal law were in force and applicable to +an act committed under such circumstances . All the laws +and customs of civilized warfare may not be applicable to an +armed conflict with the Indian tribes upon our western fron­ +tier; but the circumstances attending the assassination of +Canby [Army general] and Thomas [U. S . peace commissioner] +are such as to make their murder as much a violation of the +laws of savage as of civilized warfare, and the Indians con­ +cerned in it fully understood the baseness and treachery of +their act.13 +Byrd points out that, according to this line of thinking, any­ +one who could be defined as " Indian" could thus be killed legally, +and they also could be held responsible for crimes they committed +, +against any US soldier. "As a result, citizens of American Indian +nations become in this moment the origin of the stateless terrorist +combatant within U . S . enunciations of sovereignty." 14 + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +225 + +R A M P E D - U P M I L I TA R I Z AT I O N + +The Chagos Archipelago comprises more than sixty small coral +islands isolated in the Indian Ocean halfway between Africa and +Indonesia, a thousand miles south of the nearest continent, India. +Between 1968 and 1973 , the United States and Britain, the latter +the colonial administrator, forcibly removed the indigenous inhab ­ +itants of the islands , the Chagossians . Most of the two thousand +deportees ended up more than a thousand miles away in Mauritius +and the Seychelles, where they were thrown into lives of poverty and +forgotten. The purpose of this expulsion was to create a major US +military base on one of the Chagossian islands, Diego Garcia. As if +being rounded up and removed from their homelands in the name +of global security were not cruel enough, before being deported the +Chagossians had to watch as British agents and US troops herded +their pet dogs into sealed sheds where they were gassed and burned. +As David Vine writes in his chronicle of this tragedy: +The base on Diego Garcia has become one of the most se­ +cretive and powerful US military facilities in the world, help ­ +ing to launch the invasions of Afghanistan and Iraq (twice), +threatening Iran, China, Russia, and nations from southern +Africa to southeast Asia, host to a secret CIA detention cen­ +ter for high-profile terrorist suspects, and home to thousands +of U. S . military personnel and billions of dollars in deadly +weaponry. 15 +The Chagossians are not the only indigenous people around the +world that the US military has displaced . The military established +a pattern during and after the Vietnam War of forcibly removing +indigenous peoples from sites deemed strategic for the placement of +military bases. The peoples of the Bikini Atoll in the South Pacific +and Puerto Rico's Vieques Island are perhaps the best-known ex­ +amples, but there were also the lnughuit of Thule, Greenland, and +the thousands of Okinawans and Indigenous peoples of Microne­ +sia. During the harsh deportation of the Micronesians in the 1970s, +the press took some notice. In response to one reporter's question, + + 226 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Secretary of State Henry Kissinger said of the Micronesians: "There +are only ninety thousand people out there. Who gives a damn ? " 16 +This is a statement of permissive genocide . +By the beginning of the twenty-first century, the United States +operated more than 900 military bases around the world, including + +287 in Germany, 1 3 0 in Japan, 106 in South Korea, 89 in Italy, 5 7 +i n the British Isles, 21 i n Portugal, and 1 9 i n Turkey. The number +also comprised additional bases or installations located in Aruba, +Australia, Djibouti, Egypt, Israel, Singapore, Thailand, Kyrgyzstan , +Kuwait, Qatar, Bahrain, the United Arab Emirates, Crete, Sicily, Ice­ +land, Romania, Bulgaria, Honduras, Colombia, and Cuba (Guan­ +tanamo Bay), among many other. locations in some 150 countries, +along with those recently added in Iraq and Afghanistan. 17 +In her book The Militarization of Indian Country, Anishinaabe +activist and writer Winona LaDuke analyzes the continuing nega­ +tive effects of the military on Native Americans, considering the +consequences wrought on Native economy, land, future, and people, +especially Native combat veterans and their families. Indigenous ter­ +ritories in New Mexico bristle with nuclear weapons storage, and +Shoshone and Paiute territories in Nevada are scarred by decades of +aboveground and underground nuclear weapons testing. The Navajo +Nation and some New Mexico Pueblos have experienced decades of +uranium strip mining, the pollution of water, and subsequent deadly +health effects. "I am awed by the impact of the military on the world +and on Native America," LaDuke writes. " It is pervasive. " 18 +Political scientist Cynthia Enloe, who specializes in US foreign +policy and the military, observes that US culture has become even +more militarized since the attacks on the World Trade Center and the +Pentagon. Her analysis of this trend draws on a feminist perspective: +Militarization . . . [is] happening at the individual level, when +a woman who has a son is persuaded that the best way she can +be a good mother is to allow the military recruiter to recruit +her son so her son will get off the couch. When she is persuaded +to let him go, even if reluctantly, she's being militarized. She's +not as militarized as somebody who is a Special Forces soldier, +but she's being militarized all the same. Somebody who gets + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +excited because a jet bomber flies over the football stadium to +open the football season and is glad that he or she is in the sta­ +dium to see it, is being militarized. So militarization is not just +about the question "do you think the military is the most im­ +portant part of the state ? " (although obviously that matters). +It's not just "do you think that the use of collective violence is +the most effective way to solve social problems ? "-which is +also a part of militarization. But it's also about ordinary, daily +culture, certainly in the United States . 1 9 +As John Grenier notes, however, the cultural aspects o f militari­ +zation are not new; they have deep historical roots, reaching into the +nation's British-colonial past and continuing through unrelenting +wars of conquest and ethnic cleansing over three centuries. +Beyond its sheer military utility, Americans also found a use +for the first way of war in the construction of an "American +identity." . . . [T]he enduring appeal of the romanticized myth +of the "settlement" (not the conquest) of the frontier, either +by "actual" men such as Robert Rogers or Daniel Boone or +fictitious ones like Nathaniel Bumppo of James Fenimore +Cooper's creation, poiQts to what D. H. Lawrence called the +"myth of the essential white American."2 0 +The astronomical number of firearms owned by US civilians, +with the Second Amendment as a sacred mandate, is also intricately +related to militaristic culture. Everyday life and the culture in gen­ +eral are damaged by ramped-up militarization, and this includes +academia, particularly the social sciences, with psychologists and +anthropologists being recruited as advisors to the military. Anthro ­ +pologist David H. Price, in his indispensable book Weaponizing An­ +thropology, remarks that "anthropology has always fed between +the lines of war." Anthropology was born of European and US co­ +lonial wars. Price, like Enloe, sees an accelerated pace of militariza­ +tion in the early twenty-first century: "Today's weaponization of +anthropology and other social sciences has been a long time coming, +and post-9/r r America's climate of fear coupled with reductions in + +227 + + 228 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +traditional academic funding provided the conditions of a sort of +perfect storm for the militarization of the discipline and the acad­ +emy as a whole."21 +In their ten-part cable television documentary series and seven­ +hundred-page companion book The Untold History of the United + +States, filmmaker Oliver Stone and historian Peter Kuznick ask: +" Why does our country have military bases in every region of the +globe, totaling more than a thousand by some counts ? Why does +the United States spend as much money on its military as the rest +of the world combined ? Why does it still possess thousands of nu­ +clear weapons, many on hair-trigger alert, even though no nation +poses an imminent threat? "22 These are key questions. Stone and +Kuznick condemn the situation but do not answer the questions. +The authors see the post-World War II development of the United +States into the world's sole superpower as a sharp divergence from +the founders' original intent and historical development prior to the +mid-twentieth century. They quote an Independence Day speech by +President John Quincy Adams in which he condemned British co­ +lonialism and claimed that the United States "goes not abroad, in +search of monsters to destroy." Stone and Kuznick fail to mention +that the United States at the time was invading, subjecting, coloniz­ +ing, and removing the Indigenous farmers from their land, as it had +since its founding and as it would through the nineteenth century. +In ignoring that fundamental basis for US development as an impe­ +rialist power, they do not see that overseas empire was the logical +outcome of the course the United States chose at its founding. + +N O RT H A M E R I CA I S A C R I M E S C E N E + +Jodi Byrd writes: "The story of the new world is horror, the story +of America a crime." It is necessary, she argues, to start with the +origin of the United States as a settler-state and its explicit intention +to occupy the continent. These origins contain the historical seeds of +genocide. Any true history of the United States must focus on what +has happened to (and with) Indigenous peoples-and what still hap­ +pens. 23 It's not just past colonialist actio n s but also "the continued + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +229 + +colonization of American Indian nations, peoples, and lands" that +allows the United States "to cast its imperialist gaze globally" with +"what is essentially a settler colony's national construction of itself +as an ever more perfect multicultural, multiracial democracy," while +"the status of American Indians as sovereign nations colonized by +the United States continues to haunt and inflect its raison d'etre." +Here Byrd quotes Lakota scholar Elizabeth Cook-Lynn, who spells +out the connection between the " Indian wars" and the Iraq War: +The current mission of the United States to become the center +of political enlightenment to be taught to the rest of the world +began with the Indian wars and has become the dangerous +provocation of this nation's historical intent. The historical con­ +nection between the Little Big Horn event and the " uprising" in +Baghdad must become part of the political dialogue of Amer­ +ica if the fiction of decolonization is to happen and the hoped­ +for deconstruction of the colonial story is to come about. 24 +A "race to innocence" is what occurs when individuals assume +that they are innocent of complicity in structures of domination and +oppression.25 This concept captures the understandable assump­ +tion made by new immigrants or children of recent immigrants to +any country. They cannot be responsible, they assume, for what +occurred in their adopted country's past. Neither are those who are +already citizens guilty, even if they are descendants of slave owners, +Indian killers, or Andrew Jackson himself. Yet, in a settler society +that has not come to terms with its past, whatever historical trauma +was entailed in settling the land affects the assumptions and behav­ +ior of living generations at any given time, including immigrants and +the children of recent immigrants. +In the United States the legacy of settler colonialism can be seen +in the endless wars of aggression and occupations; the trillions spent +on war machinery, military bases, and personnel instead of social +services and quality public education; the gross profits of corpora­ +tions, each of which has greater resources and funds than more than +half the countries in the world yet pay minimal taxes and provide +few jobs for US citizens; the repression of generation after generation + + 230 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +of activists who seek to change the system; the incarceration of the +poor, particularly descendants of enslaved Africans; the individual­ +ism, carefully inculcated, that on the one hand produces self-blame +for personal failure and on the other exalts ruthless dog-eat-dog +competition for possible success, even though it rarely results; and +high rates of suicide, drug abuse, alcoholism, sexual violence against +women and children, homelessness, dropping out of school, and gun +violence. +These are symptoms, and there are many more, of a deeply trou­ +bled society, and they are not new. The large and influential civil +rights, student, labor, and women's movements of the 1950s through +the 1970s exposed the structural inequalities in the economy and +the historical effects of more than two centuries of slavery and bru­ +tal genocidal wars waged against Indigenous peoples. For a time, US +society verged on a process of truth seeking regarding past atroci­ +ties, making demands to end aggressive wars and to end poverty, +witnessed by the huge peace movement of the 1970s and the War on +Poverty, affirmative action, school busing, prison reform, women's +equity and reproductive rights, promotion of the arts and humani­ +ties, public media, the Indian Self-Determination Act, and many +other initiatives. 26 +A more sophisticated version of the race to innocence that helps +perpetuate settler colonialism began to develop in social movement +theory in the 1990s, popularized in the work of Michael Hardt and +Antonio Negri. Commonwealth, the third volume in a trilogy, is +one of a number of books in an academic fad of the early twenty­ +first century seeking to revive the Medieval European concept of the +commons as an aspiration for contemporary social movements. 27 +Most writings about the commons barely mention the fate of Indig­ +enous peoples in relation to the call for all land to be shared. Two +Canadian scholar-activists, Nandita Sharma and Cynthia Wright, +for example, do not mince words in rejecting Native land claims +and sovereignty, characterizing them as xenophobic elitism. They +see Indigenous claims as "regressive neo-racism in light of the global +diasporas arising from oppression around the world."28 +Cree scholar Lorraine Le Camp calls this kind of erasure of Indig­ +enous peoples in North America "terranullism," harking back to the + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +231 + +characterization, under the Doctrine of Discovery, of purportedly +vacant lands as terra nullis.19 This is a kind of no-fault history. From +the theory of a liberated future of no borders and nations, of a vague +commons for all, the theorists obliterate the present and presence +of Indigenous nations struggling for their liberation from states of +colonialism. Thereby, Indigenous rhetoric and programs for decolo­ +nization, nationhood, and sovereignty are, according to this project, +rendered invalid and futile. 3° From the Indigenous perspective, as +Jodi Byrd writes, "any notion of the commons that speaks for and +as indigenous as it advocates transforming indigenous governance or +incorporating indigenous peoples into a multitude that might then +reside on those lands forcibly taken from indigenous peoples does +nothing to disrupt the genocidal and colonialist intent of the initial +and now repeated historical process."31 + +B O DY PA R T S + +Another aspect o f the demand for US public dominion appears +under the guise of science. Despite the passage in 1990 of the Na­ +tive American Graves Protection and Repatriation Act (NAGPRA), +some researchers under the cloak of science have fought toot� and +nail not to release the remains and burial offerings of some two mil­ +lion Indigenous people held in storage, much of it uncataloged, in +the Smithsonian Institution and other museums and by universities, +state historical societies, National Park Service offices, warehouses, +and curio shops. Until the r99os, archaeologists and physical an­ +thropologists claimed to need the remains-which they labeled "re­ +sources" or "data," but rarely as "human remains"-for "scientific" +experimentation, but most were randomly stored in boxes. 32 +In doing so, they also challenge the definition of "Native Ameri­ +can" and the claimants' right to sovereignty. They even accuse Na­ +tive Americans of being anti-science for seeking to repatriate the +remains of their relatives. 33 However, since anthropologist Franz +Boas in r9 r r discredited the theories of racial superiority and in­ +feriority upon which such research was premised, little actual ex­ +amination of the Indigenous body parts has taken place. When + + 232 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +Ishi-identified by Anglos in 19n as the last of the Yahi people +of Northern California-died in 1916, the University of California +at Berkeley anthropologist who had studied him and his culture, +Arthur Kroeber, insisted on an Indigenous traditional burial and +no autopsy, according to Ishi's wishes. When asked about the cause +of science, Kroeber said: "If there is any talk about the interest of +science, say for me that science can go to hell. . . . Besides I cannot +believe that any scientific value is materially involved. We have hun­ +dreds of Indian skeletons that nobody ever comes to study."34 +Despite Kroeber's stance, Ishi's brain was removed and preserved +and sent to the Smithsonian Institution in Washington. As anthro­ +pologist Erik Davis observes, the bodies have never had scientific +value. Rather, they have become a fetish, "a marker of value, the +power of which derives specifically from the obscuring of the refer­ +ent to which it originally referred. It is my claim that Indian identity, +and its material form, the dead Native body, has functioned for a +very long time, and with increasing power, as a fetish marking the +possession of land by those who have conquered it already."35 +The " Kennewick Man" phenomenon of the 1990s revealed much +about the pathology Davis references. In 1996, a nearly complete +skeleton and skull were found on a riverbank on traditional land +of the Umatilla Nation near Kennewick, Washington. The county +coroner determined that the bones were ancient-at least nine thou­ +sand years old-and therefore Native American. Under NAGRA +they should be handed over to the Umatilla authorities. But a local +archaeologist, James C. Chatters, asked to examine the remains. +Several weeks later Chatters called a press conference at which he +proclaimed the remains to be "Caucasoid" and with a story to tell. +Up to that moment, little attention had been paid to the find, but +with Chatters's claims it became a public sensation fueled by head­ +lines such as "Europeans Invade America: 20,000 BC" (Discover), +" Was So meone Here before the Native Americans ? " (New Yorker), +"America before the Indians" ( US News and World Report), and +" Hunt for the First Americans" (National Geographic). The archae­ +ologist had made a series of logical conclusions from a bogus prem­ +ise: the remains were ancient; the skeleton and skull were said not +to resemble those of living Natives, and might be more akin to those + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +233 + +of modern Europeans, therefore, Europeans were the "first Ameri­ +cans." The Archaeological Institute of America dismissed such +claims, denouncing the already discredited "science" of determining +racial characteristics projected back in time. Yet the claims stuck in +the public mind and media bias. +Clearly the controversy was not about science, but rather about +Native claims of antiquity, sovereignty, and rights, and settler re­ +sentment. Chatters made this clear when he was interviewed on the +CBS program 6 0 Minutes: "The tribe's fight against further testing +of Kennewick Man is based largely on fear, fear that if someone +was here before they were, their status as sovereign nations, and all +that goes with it-treaty rights, and lucrative casinos . . . could be +at risk." The white supremacist group Asutru Folk Assembly made a +similar assessment: " Kennewick Man is our kin . . . . Native Ameri­ +can groups have strongly contested this idea, perceiving that they +have much to lose if their status as the 'First Americans' is over­ +turned. We will not let our heritage be hidden by those who seek to +obscure it."3 6 +Chatters claimed that Kennewick Man "has so many stories to +tell. . . . When you work with these individuals you develop an em­ +pathy, it's like you know another individual intimately."37 Erik Da­ +vis, calling this identification with the remains a scientist studies +"pathological ventriloquism," points out that even the judge who +sided with Chatters in the dispute with the Umatilla Nation got into +the act, saying that the remains were "a book that they can read, +a history written in bone instead of on paper, j ust as the history +of a region may be 'read' by observing layers of rock or ice, or the +rings of a tree."38 Forty-five years ago, archaeologist Robert Silver­ +berg wrote about the appeal of "lost tribes" to Anglo-Americans: +"The dream of a lost prehistoric race in the American heartland was +profoundly satisfying, and if the vanished ones had been giants, or +white men, or Israelites, or Danes, or Toltecs, or great white Jewish +Toltec Vikings, so much the better."39 Anything but Indians, for that +would provide evidence reminding Anglo settlers' descendants that +the continent was stolen, genocide committed, and the land repopu­ +lated by settlers who seek authenticity but never find it because of +the lie they live with, suspecting the truth and fearing it. + + 234 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +G H O S T S A N D D E M O N S TO H I D E F R O M + +A living symbol of the genocidal history of the United States, as +well as a kind of general subconscious knowledge of it, is the "Win­ +chester Mystery House," a tourist site in the Santa Clara (Silicon) +Valley of Northern California. Fifty miles south of San Francisco, it +is billed as a ghost house on billboards that start appearing in Or­ +egon to the north and San Diego to the south. Sarah L. Winchester, +the wealthy widow of William Wirt Winchester, built the Victorian +mansion to avoid and elude ghosts, although there is no record of +any ghosts ever having found their way into her home. It could be +said, perhaps, that Mrs. Winchester's project from 1 8 84 to her death +in 1922 was a success. She likely was well aware of the widely pub­ +licized Ghost Dance in 1890, which led to the killing of Sitting Bull +and the Wounded Knee massacre . The dancers believed that the +dance would bring back their dead warriors. +It makes sense that Mrs. Winchester felt the need to guard herself +from the ghosts of those killed by the Winchester repeating rifle, +which her late husband's father had invented and produced in 1 8 66, +with later models being even more lethal. Mrs. Winchester inherited +the fortune accumulated by her husband's family through sales of +the rifle. There was one major purchaser: the US Department of +War. The chief reason for the War Department's purchases of the +rifle in great quantities: to kill Indians. The rifle was a technological +innovation designed especially for the US Army's campaigns against +the Plail).s Indians following the Civil War. +The Winchester house amazes all who tour it. There are five +floors, more or less, since they are staggered. Each room in itself +appears normal, decorated in the late-nineteenth-century Victorian +mode. But there is more than meets the eye in getting from parlors +to bedrooms to kitchen to closets and from floor to floor. Numerous +stairways dead-end, and secret trapdoors hide the actual stairways . +Closet doors open to walls, and pieces of furniture are really doors +to closets. Huge bookcases serve as entrances to adjoining rooms. +Part of the house was unfinished when the widow died, as she had +construction workers building every day from dawn to dusk, adding +rooms and traps until her death. Visitors trekking through the wid- + + Conclusion: The Future of the United States + +235 + +ow's home are astounded, and perhaps saddened, by the evidence +all around them of the fears and anguish of an obviously mentally +disturbed person. Yet there is another possibility: a sense of the scaf­ +folding that supports US society, a kind of hologram in the minds of +each and every person on the continent. +Mrs. Winchester might have been more aware of the truth than +most people and therefore fearful of its consequences. Regardless, in +continuing to find or invent enemies across the globe, expand what +is already the largest military force in the world, and add to an elab­ +orate global network of military bases, all in the name of national +or global "security," does not the United States today resemble Mrs. +Winchester constantly trying to foil her ghosts ? The guilt harbored +by most is buried and expressed in other ways, on a larger scale, as +"regeneration through violence," in Richard Slotkin's phrasing. + +THE FUTU RE + +How then can US society come to terms with its past? How can it ac­ +knowledge responsibility? The late Native historian Jack Forbes al­ +ways stressed that while living persons are not responsible for what +their ancestors did, they are responsible for the society they live in, +which is a product of that past. Assuming this responsibility pro­ +vides a means of survival and liberation. Everyone and everything in +the world is affected, for the most part negatively, by US dominance +and intervention, often violently through direct military means or +through proxies. It is an urgent concern. Historian and teacher Juan +Gomez- Quinones writes, "American Indian ancestries and heritages +ought to be integral to K-1 2 curriculums and university explora­ +tions and graduate expositions . . . [with] full integration of Na­ +tive American histories and cultures into academic curriculums. " +Gomez- Quinones coins a measure o f intelligence in the United +States the "Indigenous Quotient."4 0 +Indigenous peoples offer possibilities for life after empire, pos­ +sibilities that neither erase the crimes of colonialism nor require the +disappearance of the original peoples colonized under the guise of +including them as individuals. That process rightfully starts by hon- + + 236 + +An Indigenous Peoples' History of the United States + +oring the treaties the United States made with Indigenous nations, +by restoring all sacred sites, starting with the Black Hills and includ­ +ing most federally held parks and land and all stolen sacred items +and body parts, and by payment of sufficient reparations for the +reconstruction and expansion of Native nations. In the process, the +continent will be radically reconfigured, physically and psychologi­ +cally. For the future to be realized, it will require extensive educa­ +tional programs and the full support and active participation of the +descendants of settlers, enslaved Africans, and colonized Mexicans, +as well as immigrant populations. +In the words of Acoma poet Simon Ortiz: + +The future will not be mad with loss and waste though the +memory will +Be there: eyes will become kind and deep, and the bones of +this nation +Will mend after the revolution. 41 + + Preface +I was not anxious to write this book. Writing an autobiography at my age +seemed presumptuous. Moreover, I felt that to write about my life, what I +did, what I thought and what happened to me would require a posture of +difference, an assumption that I was unlike other women — other Black +women — and therefore needed to explain myself. I felt that such a book +might end up obscuring the most essential fact: the forces that have made +my life what it is are the very same forces that have shaped and misshaped +the lives of millions of my people. Furthermore I am convinced that my +response to these forces has been unexceptional as well, that my political +involvement, ultimately as a member of the Communist Party, has been a +natural, logical way to defend our embattled humanity. +The one extraordinary event of my life had nothing to do with me as an +individual — with a little twist of history, another sister or brother could +have easily become the political prisoner whom millions of people from +throughout the world rescued from persecution and death. I was reluctant to +write this book because concentration on my personal history might detract +from the movement which brought my case to the people in the first place. I +was also unwilling to render my life as a personal "adventure" — as though +there were a "real" person separate and apart from the political person. My +life would not lend itself to this anyway, but even if it did, such a book +would be counterfeit, for it could not convey my overwhelming sense of +belonging to a community of humans — a community of struggle against +poverty and racism. +When I decided to write the book after all, it was because I had come to +envision it as a political autobiography that emphasized the people, the +events and the forces in my life that propelled me to my present +commitment. Such a book might serve a very important and practical +purpose. There was the possibility that, having read it, more people would +understand why so many of us have no alternative but to offer our lives — +our bodies, our knowledge, our will — to the cause of our oppressed + + people. In this period when the covers camouflaging the corruption and +racism of the highest political offices are rapidly falling away, when the +bankruptcy of the global system of capitalism is becoming apparent, there +was the possibility that more people — Black, Brown, Red, Yellow and +white — might be inspired to join our growing community of struggle. +Only if this happens will I consider this project to have been worthwhile. + + PART ONE: Nets +The net will be torn by the horn of a leaping calf. . . + +I + +AUGUST 9, 1970 + +believe I thanked her but I am not sure. Perhaps I simply watched her dig +into the shopping bag and accepted in silence the wig she held out to me. +It lay like a small frightened animal in my hand. I was alone with Helen +hiding from the police and grieving over the death of someone I loved. Two +days earlier, in her house perched on a hill in Los Angeles' Echo Park, I +learned of the Marin County Courthouse revolt and the death of my friend +Jonathan Jackson. Two days earlier I had never heard of Ruchell Magee, +James McClain or William Christmas — the three San Quentin prisoners +who, along with Jonathan, had been involved in the revolt which left him, +McClain and William Christmas dead. But on that evening, it seemed as +though I had known them for a very long time. +I walked toward the bathroom and stood before the mirror trying to fit the +ends of my hair under the tight elastic. Like broken wings my hands +floundered about my head, my thoughts completely dissociated from their +movement. When finally I glanced into the mirror to see whether there were +still bits of my own hair unconcealed by the wig, I saw a face so filled with +anguish, tension and uncertainty I did not recognize it as my own. With the +false black curls falling over a wrinkled forehead into red swollen eyes, I +looked absurd, grotesque. I snatched the wig off my head, threw it on the +floor and hit the sink with my fist. It remained cold, white and +impenetrable. I forced the wig back on my head. I had to look normal; I +could not arouse the suspicion of the attendant in the station where we +would have to gas up the car. I didn't want to attract the attention of +someone who might drive up alongside us and look in our direction while +we waited at an intersection for the light to turn green. I had to look as +commonplace as a piece of everyday Los Angeles scenery. + + I told Helen that we would leave as soon as it got dark. But night would not +shake off the day that kept clinging to its edges. We waited. Silently. +Hidden behind drawn curtains, we listened to the street noises coming +through the slightly opened balcony window. Each time a car slowed down +or stopped, each time footsteps tapped the pavement outside, I held my +breath — wondering whether we might have waited too long. +Helen didn't talk very much. It was better that way. I was glad that she had +been with me during these last days. She was calm and did not try to bury +the gravity of the situation under a mound of aimless chatter. +I don't know how long we had been sitting in the dimly lit room when +Helen broke the silence to say that it was probably not going to get any +darker outside. It was time to leave. For the first time since we discovered +that the police were after me, I stepped outside. It was much darker than I +thought, but not dark enough to keep me from feeling vulnerable, +defenseless. +Outside in the open, entangled in my grief and anger was also fear. A plain +and simple fear so overwhelming, and so elemental that the only thing I +could compare it to was that sense of engulfment I used to feel as a child +when I was left alone in the dark. That indescribable, monstrous thing +would be at my back, never quite touching me, but always there ready to +attack. When my mother and father asked me what it was that made me so +afraid, the words I used to describe this thing sounded ridiculous and stupid. +Now with each step, I could feel a presence which I could describe easily. +Images of attack kept flashing into my mind, but they were not abstract — +they were clear pictures of machine guns breaking out of the darkness, +surrounding Helen and me, unleashing fire . . . + +Jonathan's body had lain on the hot asphalt of the parking lot outside the +Marin County Civic Center. I saw them on the television screen dragging +him from a van, a rope tied around his waist . . . +In Jon's seventeen years he had seen more brutality than most people can +expect to see in a lifetime. From the time he was seven, he had been + + separated from his older brother George by prison bars and hostile guards. +And I had once stupidly asked him why he smiled so seldom. + +The route from Echo Park down to the Black neighborhood around West +Adams was very familiar to me. I had driven it many times. But tonight the +way seemed strange, full of the unknown perils of being a fugitive. And +there was no getting around it — my life was now that of a fugitive, and +fugitives are caressed every hour by paranoia. Every strange person I saw +might be an agent in disguise, with bloodhounds waiting in the shrubbery +for their master's command. Living as a fugitive means resisting hysteria, +distinguishing between the creations of a frightened imagination and the +real signs that the enemy is near. I had to learn how to elude him, outsmart +him. It would be difficult, but not impossible. +Thousands of my ancestors had waited, as I had done, for nightfall to cover +their steps, had leaned on one true friend to help them, had felt, as I did, the +very teeth of the dogs at their heels. +It was simple. I had to be worthy of them. +The circumstances that created my hunted state were perhaps a bit more +complicated, but not all that different. Two years before, SNCC had held a +fund-raising cocktail party. After the party, the police had raided the +Bronson Street apartment of Franklin and Kendra Alexander — who were +members of the Communist Party, and two of my closest friends — where a +few of the group had gathered. Money and guns were confiscated and +everyone there was arrested on charges of armed robbery. As soon as they +discovered that one of the weapons — a .380 automatic — was registered in +my name, they called me in for questioning. The charges did not stand up in +court and, after a few nights in jail, the sisters and brothers were released +and the guns returned to their owners. +The same .380 which the Los Angeles Police had reluctantly returned to me +then was now in the hands of the Marin County authorities, having been +used during the courthouse revolt. The judge presiding over James +McClain's trial had been killed and the district attorney prosecuting the case + + had been wounded. Even before Franklin told me about the police lurking +around my house, I knew they would be after me. Over the last months I +had been spending practically all my time helping to build a mass +movement to free the Soledad Brothers — Jonathan's brother, George, John +Clutchette and Fleeta Drumgo — who were facing a fraudulent murder +charge inside Soledad Prison. I had just been fired from my teaching +position at the University of California by Governor Ronald Reagan and the +Regents because I was a member of the Communist Party. No one needed +to tell me that they would exploit the fact that my guns had been used in +Marin in order to strike out at me once more. +By August 9, agents (Los Angeles police? FBI?) were swarming like angry +wasps around Kendra, Franklin and my roommate, Tamu. Other members +of the Che-Lumumba Club — our Party collective — and the Soledad +Brothers Defense Committee had told Franklin they were also under +surveillance. Coming up to Helen and Tim's apartment in Echo Park that +day, it had taken Franklin several hours to shake off the police tail — +several hours of dodging and hiding, of changing cars in vacant alleys and +of going in front doors and leaving by the back. He was afraid to risk +another trip to get in touch with me. It might not be as successful. +If a full-fledged search were initiated, Helen and Tim's place would not be +safe. I had known them for a number of years, and although they were not +members of any movement organization, they had a history of radical +political activity. Sooner or later, their names would appear in some +policeman's notebook. We had to make a quick, camouflaged move. +The address given to Helen and me was located on a quiet, well-kept street +in the West Adams area. The house was an older duplex encircled by nicely +shaped hedges and flowers in bloom. After saying an awkward good-bye to +Helen, I left the car and timidly rang the doorbell. What if we had +misunderstood the house number and this was the wrong place? Anxiously +waiting for the door to open, I wondered what the people were like, how +they looked, how they would react to me. All I knew was that the woman, +Hattie, and her husband, John, were Black people sympathetic to the +movement. They had no questions when I arrived, and they ignored the +usual formalities. They simply took me in, accepted me — totally and with + + the affection and devotion ordinarily reserved for family. They allowed +their lives to be disrupted by my presence. For my protection, they +reorganized their routines in order that one of them would be in the house +all the time. +Excuses were made to their regular visiting friends so no one would know +that I was there. +After a few days, I began to feel as settled and comfortable as I could in +such circumstances. It seemed as though I might be able to learn how to +close my eyes for a few hours at night without falling into some terrifying +nightmare about what had happened in Marin. I was even beginning to get +used to the old iron bed which folded down out of the dining room wall. I +was almost able to concentrate on the anecdotes Hattie told me about her +career as an entertainer and how she had plowed her way through all the +discrimination to assert herself as the dancer she wanted to be. +I was ready to hole up there indefinitely; that is, until the times were more +auspicious. But the search for me had intensified (conservative newscaster +George Putnam had announced on his TV program in L.A. that it extended +even to Canada). Clearly it was best to get out of the state for a while. +I hated what I was doing: the nighttime moves, the veiling of eyes, the +whole atmosphere of stealth and secretness. Although it was true that, for a +long time, I had been convinced that the day would come when many of us +would have to go underground, the realization of my fears didn't stop me +from hating this furtive, clandestine existence. + +A friend, David Poindexter, was in Chicago. I had not seen him for a long +while, but I was certain that he would drop everything to help. I was +prepared to make the trip alone and did not expect Hattie to insist on +staying with me until I found David. I wondered at the source of her +strength. It was as if she had to do this thing, regardless of the jeopardy to +her own life. + + After the preparations were made, we drove all night to Las Vegas. My +friends had asked an older Black man — whom I met for the first time that +night — to accompany us on that leg of the journey. +All dressed up, Hattie looked very much like the dancer she had been in her +younger years. With the grace and dignity of a Josephine Baker, she turned +heads wherever she went. In the Vegas airport, for the first time since I had +gone underground, I was walking among people, and each time a white man +stared at us harder than I thought he should, my pounding heart identified +him as an agent. +Everyone knew that O'Hare Airport in Chicago was a center of intrigue and +heavy CIA-FBI surveillance. We slipped through the throngs of people, +frantically searching for David, who had not been there to meet us at the +gate. I was cursing him under my breath, although I knew he was probably +not to blame. It turned out that the message sent to him had been too cryptic +and he had thought I would come straight to his place. We ended up taking +a taxi there. +Hattie left after seeing me safely into David's apartment overlooking the +calm waters of Lake Michigan. Although I was glad to see him, I had +grown so close to Hattie that it hurt to see her leave. When we embraced, I +couldn't say thank you — those words were far too small for someone who +had risked her life to help save mine. +David was in the middle of a remodeling job on his apartment, and +practically everything was in disarray. Wallpaper half-pasted on the walls, +furniture piled up in the middle of the living room, paintings, little +sculptures and other objects spread randomly across the couch. +I had forgotten how much David liked to talk. Whether he was discussing a +problem of politics or telling you about a spot you had on your blouse, he +was always glib. In the first five minutes he hit me with so many things that +I had to ask him to slow down and backtrack a bit. +After I put down my things and splashed some cold water on my face, we +went into his study and sat down on the thick blue carpet amid the +deshelved books strewn across the room. There we talked about the + + situation. He couldn't cancel his trip out West, which was scheduled for the +next day, he said, but he would shorten it in order to be back in a few days. +The prospect of spending the next days alone was appealing. I could use the +time to orient myself, to reflect on the coming weeks, to pull myself +together. The solitude would be good. +Later, David introduced me to Robert Lohman, who lived in the same +building. Robert Lohman was, at the moment of the introduction, David's +"very close friend." Someone who could be trusted, who, over the next +days, would be available any time I needed him to look in on me, see to it +that food was in the refrigerator and, if I felt like company, be happy to +come up. +It was afternoon when I met Robert. By evening, he and David had been +drawn into a ferocious argument about their jointly owned automobile. +(Suppose David were captured driving me in a car that was registered to +Robert . . .) When the hurling of words had subsided, their friendship was in +ruins and Robert was in our eyes a potential informer. This forced us to +rethink all of our plans. +David and I drove another car through the heavy night rain to the house +where he and his wife had lived before her death. He refused to listen when +I tried to apologize for driving this wedge into his life, for wrecking his +friendships, forcing him, ultimately, to cancel his important trip to the West. +All these things were trivial, he said. +Before David fell asleep (I sat up all night) we decided that it would be best +to leave the city the next day. +My disguise had been all right for the first leg of the trip. But it was not +good enough for a situation that would grow increasingly more dangerous. +The curly wig, too close to the shape of my natural, did not really change +the appearance of my face. Before we left Chicago, a young Black woman, +to whom I identified myself as David's cousin in trouble, gave me another +wig that was straight and stiff, with long bangs and elaborate spitcurls. She +pulled out half of my eyebrows, glued false eyelashes to my lids, covered +my face with all sorts of creams and powders and put a little black dot just + + above the corner of my lip. I felt awkward and over-painted, but I doubted +my own mother could have recognized me. +We had decided to head for Miami. Since airports were more closely +watched than anyplace else, we plotted a ground route — by car to New +York and by train to Miami. After the car was rented and David had packed +his things, we set out on this wild odyssey, the details of which we had to +improvise as we went along. +In a turnpike motel on the outskirts of Detroit, I turned on the television to +watch the news. "Today, Angela Davis, wanted on charges of murder, +kidnapping and conspiracy in connection with the Marin County +Courthouse shootout, was seen leaving the home of her parents in +Birmingham, Alabama. She is known to have attended a meeting of the +local branch of the Black Panther Party. When Birmingham authorities +finally caught up with her, she managed to outrun them, driving her 1959 +blue Rambler . . ." +Was it my sister they were talking about? But she was supposed to be in +Cuba. And the last time I had seen my car, it was parked outside Kendra +and Franklin's on 50th Street in L.A. +I was afraid for my parents. The FBI and the local police force must have +been hovering around the house like buzzards. Knowing that the lines were +tapped, I had not risked a phone call. All I could do was hope that Franklin +had found some way to tell them that I was safe. +In the city of Detroit, we lost ourselves in the crowds as we searched for an +optometrist who could quickly make me up a pair of glasses. I hadn't been +home since the news of the rebellion, and had no luggage. I had to buy +some clothes so I could get out of the things I had been wearing for the last +few days. +From Detroit, we drove on to New York, where we boarded a train that took +almost two days to arrive in Miami. There, under the blinding late summer +sun, I barricaded myself inside an unfurnished apartment David rented, +waiting for the times to change. I felt almost as much a prisoner as if I had +been locked up in a jail and often felt jealous because David could go out + + when he wished — he even traveled back to Chicago. I stayed in, read and +watched television news: draconic repression of the Palestinian movement +by King Hussein of Jordan; the first of the major prison rebellions at the +Tombs in New York. +There was never any news of George. Of George, John, Fleeta, Ruchell, +San Quentin . . . + +*** + +Toward the end of September, signs pointed to a hot and deadly pursuit. +David's mother, who lived near Miami, told him that two men had come to +her house inquiring as to his whereabouts. The old fears erupted again, and +I began to seriously doubt that it would be possible to elude the police +without leaving the country altogether. But each time I considered going +abroad, the thought of being indefinitely exiled in some other country was +even more horrible than the idea of being locked up in jail. At least in jail I +would be closer to my people, closer to the movement. +No. I would not leave the country, but I thought that I could lead the FBI to +believe that I had managed to get out. The last thing I did in that bare +Miami apartment was to draw up a statement to be delivered to someone +who could release it to the press. I wrote about Jonathan's youthful, even +romantic, determination to challenge the injustices of the prison system and +about the tremendous loss we had experienced when he was killed on +August 7 in Marin County. I affirmed my innocence and, implying that I +was already out of the country, promised that when the political climate in +California became less hysterical, I would return to clear myself through the +courts. Meanwhile, I wrote, the struggle would go on. + +OCTOBER 13, 1970 + + We were back in New York. I had been underground about two months. +With the familiar tightness in my stomach, the now habitual knot in my +throat, I woke up, got dressed, and struggled with my disguise. Another +tedious twenty minutes trying to get the eye make-up to look presentable. +More impatient pulls at the wig, trying to lessen the discomfort of the tightfitting elastic. I tried to forget that today, perhaps tomorrow, perhaps any of +a long string of days to come, might be the day of my capture. +When David Poindexter and I left the Howard Johnson Motor Lodge late +that morning in October, the situation had become desperate. We were +rapidly running out of money and everyone we knew was under +surveillance. Wandering through the surrounding Manhattan neighborhood, +we thought about our next move. Strolling down Eighth Avenue, lost in +crowds of New Yorkers oblivious to everything going on around them, I felt +better than I had in the motel. Hoping to calm our nerves, we decided to +spend the afternoon at the movies. To this day I do not remember what +movie we saw. I was hopelessly preoccupied with problems of eluding the +police, wondering how much longer I could tolerate isolation, knowing that +to contact anyone would be suicide. +The movie was over shortly before six. David and I talked very little as we +headed in the direction of the motel. We passed the broken-down shops on +Eighth Avenue and were crossing over to the motel side of the street when +suddenly I seemed to see police agents all around me. Surely this was just +another one of my recurring fits of paranoia. Yet as we walked through the +glass doors of the motel, I had a sudden impulse to turn around and race +back into the anonymous crowds I had just left. But if my instincts were +correct, if all these nondescript white men were in fact policemen +surrounding us, then the slightest abrupt move on my part would give them +the excuse they needed to shoot us down on the spot. I remembered how +they had murdered li'l Bobby Hutton, how they shot him in the back after +telling him to run. If, on the other hand, my instincts were groundless, my +running would only arouse suspicion. I had no choice but to keep on +walking. Inside the lobby, my fears seemed to be confirmed in every +straight-looking white man standing around. I was positive that all these +men were agents standing in a formation previously agreed upon, preparing +themselves for attack. But nothing happened. As nothing had happened in + + the motel in Detroit, when I had also been certain that we were about to be +captured. As nothing had happened on the countless other occasions when +my unnaturally high level of tension had transformed perfectly ordinary +events into scenes of impending capture. +I wondered what David was thinking. It seemed like a long time since we +had said anything to each other. He could conceal his nervousness in tight +situations and, besides, we rarely talked about those moments when we +must both have suspected that the police were about to pounce upon us. +When we made it past the front desk, I breathed a sigh of relief. Nothing +had broken. This was probably just another normal day in the life of this +typical New York motel. +I was just beginning to recuperate when a plump, redfaced white man, +wearing what could have been the short, regulation haircut of a policeman, +got into the elevator with us. My fears were rekindled. I again held my +ritual soliloquy: He was probably an executive; after all, if you're being +pursued, all white men with short hair and plain suits look like police +agents. Besides, if they had really caught up with us, wouldn't it have been +more logical for them to make the arrest downstairs? +During the interminable elevator ride to the seventh floor, I convinced +myself that my overactive imagination had created this aura of danger, and +that we would probably make it safely through that day. One more day. +Out of the habit of living in clandestinity, I lingered behind several yards +while David went ahead to check out the room. While he was turning the +key in the lock, which appeared to present more difficulties than usual, +someone opened a door on the other side of the corridor. A frail figure +peered through and, although he didn't look like a policeman, his sudden +appearance sent me tumbling back into my terrifying fantasies. Of course, +this pale little man could have simply been a motel guest on his way to +dinner. But something told me that the scenario of the arrest had begun and +that this man was number one in the cast. I thought I felt someone behind +me. The man in the elevator. Now there was not the slightest trace of +uncertainty in my mind. This was the real thing. + + Precisely at the moment when all panic should have broken loose inside me, +I felt calmer and more composed than I had in a long time. I lifted my head +higher and began to stride confidently toward my room. As I passed the +open door facing my room, the frail man reached out and grabbed my arm. +He said nothing. More agents were pouring out behind him and others were +streaming out of a room across the hall. "Angela Davis?" "Are you Angela +Davis?" The questions were coming from all directions. I glared at them. +During the ten or twelve seconds between the elevator and the point of +confrontation, all kinds of thoughts tore through my mind. I remembered +the television program I had watched in the Miami apartment: The FBI — a +typical, inane TV melodrama of agents pursuing fugitives, complete with +the final violent encounter which left the pursued with bullets in their skulls +and the FBI agents shown as heroes. Just as I moved to turn off the set, a +photograph of me flashed on the screen as if it were a part of the +fictionalized FBI pursuit. "Angela Davis," a deep voice said, "is one of the +FBI's ten most wanted criminals. She is wanted for the crimes of murder, +kidnapping and conspiracy. She is very likely armed, so if you see her, do +not try to do anything. Contact your local FBI immediately." In other words, +let your "very likely armed" FBI have the honor of shooting her down. +David and I were unarmed. If they pulled out their weapons we wouldn't +have a chance. As the frail man reached for me, I saw the guns coming out. +I imagined the deafening noise of gunshots and our bodies lying in pools of +blood in the corridor of the Howard Johnson motel. +They forced David into a room on the right side of the corridor and shoved +me into one on the left. There they ripped the wig off my head, cuffed my +hands behind me and fingerprinted me on the spot. All the while pelting me +with the same question: "Are you Angela Davis?" "Angela Davis?" "Angela +Davis?" I said nothing. Obviously they had gone through similar scenes +many times before. They had rehearsed this moment with the false arrests +of scores, perhaps hundreds of tall, light-skinned Black women with large +naturals. Only the fingerprints would tell them whether they had caught the +real one this time. The prints were compared. The panic on the chief's face +was replaced by relief. His underlings were ransacking my purse like +bandits. As I stood there, determined to preserve my dignity, elaborate + + preparations were being made to get me out. I could hear them alerting +other agents who must have been stationed at various points in and outside +of the motel. All these "precautions," all these dozens of agents fit in +perfectly with the image they had constructed of me as one of the country's +ten most wanted criminals: the big bad Black Communist enemy. +About ten agents shoved me through the crowd that had already gathered in +the downstairs lobby and on the sidewalk. A long caravan of unmarked cars +was waiting. Speeding through the streets, I caught a glimpse of another +caravan taking David to some unknown destination. +My hands were so tightly cuffed behind me that if I had not balanced my +body on the very edge of the back seat, the circulation in my arms would +have stopped. The agent in the front seat turned around and, smiling, said, +"Miss Davis, would you like a cigarette?" +I spoke for the first time since the capture. "Not from you." +Inside the FBI headquarters, where the caravan came to a halt, I was met by +a woman with bleached-out hair who looked more like a truck-stop waitress +than the police matron she was. She searched me in a little room that looked +like a gynecologist's office, although my short knit skirt and thin cotton +blouse couldn't have concealed a weapon of any description. +Later, in a room with fluorescent lights flooding bright red vinyl couches, +some agents strode in with stacks of papers in their hands. They took seats +directly opposite me and spread out their papers, confident that they were +about to get into a long, involved interrogation. Before they formulated +their first question, I told them I had nothing to say to the FBI. +I knew that they could not legally hold me for any period of time without +allowing me to contact a lawyer. Nevertheless, each time I demanded access +to a telephone, they ignored me. +Finally, they said that an attorney, Gerald Lefcourt, was on the telephone +and that I could speak to him. I had never met Lefcourt before, but his name +was familiar to me in connection with his work for the twenty-one members +of the Black Panther Party on trial in New York. + + In a gigantic room, a telephone with its receiver off the hook sat on one of +the scores of desks. But Lefcourt was not on the other end, only silence. +Looking around the room, I noticed my belongings spread out on some of +the desks a few yards away from where I was sitting. David's possessions +were scattered on another series of desks. Agents were hovering over our +things, going through them meticulously. +The bearers of the handcuffs, who had removed them for the search and the +mug shots and fingerprints, reappeared to fasten them on my wrists once +more. I wondered why they cuffed my hands in front this time. +Going down in the elevator, my thoughts were far away. I was trying to +figure out how to reach a comrade or a friend. When the doors slid open, +furious flashes of light jolted me out of my reflections. That's why they had +cuffed my hands in front. As far as I could see, reporters and photographers +were crowded into the lobby. +Trying hard not to look surprised, I lifted my head, straightened my back +and, between the two agents, made the long walk through the light flashes +and staccato questions toward the caravan waiting outside. +When the wailing of the sirens tapered off and the caravan began to slow +down, I realized that I was somewhere in Greenwich Village. As the car +turned into a dark driveway, a corrugated aluminum door began to rise and +once again, crowds of photographers with flashing lights jumped out of the +shadows. The red brick wall surrounding this tall archaic structure looked +very familiar, but it took me a few moments to locate it in my memory. Of +course; it was the mysterious place I had seen so often during the years I +attended Elisabeth Irwin High School, not too far from there. It was the +New York Women's House of Detention, which stood there at the main +intersection in the Village, at Greenwich and Sixth avenues. +While the car was rolling into the prisoners' entrance, a flock of memories +fought for my attention. Walking to the subway station after school, I used +to look up at this building almost every day, trying not to listen to the +terrible noises spilling from the windows. They were coming from the +women locked behind bars, looking down on the people passing in the +streets, and screaming incomprehensible words. + + At age fifteen I accepted some of the myths surrounding prisoners. I did not +see them as quite the criminals society said they were, but they did seem +aliens in the world I inhabited. I never knew what to do when I saw the +outlines of women's heads through the almost opaque windows of the jail. I +could never understand what they were saying — whether they were crying +out for help, whether they were calling for someone in particular, or +whether they simply wanted to talk to anyone who was "free." My mind +was now filled with the specters of those faceless women whom I had not +answered. Would I scream out at the people passing in the streets, only to +have them pretend not to hear me as I once pretended not to hear those +women? +The inside of this jail stood in stark contrast to the building I had just left. +The FBI headquarters was modern, antiseptically clean, its plastic texture +illuminated by fluorescent lights. The Women's House of Detention was +old, musty, dreary and dim. The floor of the receiving room was unpainted +cement, dirt from the shoes of thousands of prisoners, policemen and +matrons etched into its surface. There was a single desk where all the +paperwork seemed to be done, and rows of long benches which looked as +though they had once been pews in a storefront church. +I was told to sit on the front bench in the right-hand row. A few other +women were scattered unsystematically throughout the benches. Some, I +learned, had just been booked; others had come in from a day in court. Food +was brought in to us, but I had no appetite for the wrinkled hot dogs and +cold potatoes. +Suddenly there was a loud rumble outside the gate. Scores of women were +walking up to the entrance, waiting for the iron gate to be opened. I +wondered what could have led to such a massive bust, but one of the sisters +inside told me that these were the women returning from court on the last +bus. +All the women I could see were either Black or Puerto Rican. There were +no white prisoners in the group. One of the Puerto Rican sisters called out, +"Are you Spanish?" At first I didn't think she could mean me, but then I +remembered how I must have looked with my hair straight and flat after the +agents had snatched the wig away. I said "no" with as warm a tone as I + + could manage, trying to convey that it did not really matter: the same jailers +would be holding the same hammer over our heads. While the women who +had returned from court were still standing outside the iron gates, I was led +out of the room. I thought that I was on my way to the cells, but instead I +found myself in a large windowless room, a dim light bulb barely +illuminating the center of the ceiling. There were the same filthy cement +floors, drab yellow tile walls and two very old office desks. +A robust white matron was in charge. When I discovered, amid the papers +taped to the wall, my picture and description on an FBI Wanted poster, she +snatched it down. My eyes shifted to the next poster. To my surprise it bore +the photograph and description of a woman whom I had known in high +school. Kathy Boudin had been in my eleventh and twelfth grade classes at +Elisabeth Irwin High School. Now she was on the FBI's Wanted list. +When the work shift changed, I was still waiting in that dingy room. A new +officer was sent to guard me. She was black, she was young — younger +than I — she wore a natural, and as she approached, she showed none of the +belligerence and arrogance I had learned to associate with jail matrons. +It was a disarming experience. Yet it was not the fact that she was Black +that threw me. I had encountered Black matrons before — in jails in San +Diego and Los Angeles — but it was her manner: unaggressive and +apparently sympathetic. +At first she was taciturn. But after a few minutes, in a quiet voice, she told +me, "A lot of officers here — the Black officers — have been pulling for +you. We've been hoping all along that you would get to someplace that was +safe." +I wanted to talk to her, but I felt it was best to be wary of any involved +conversation. For all I knew, she might have been instructed to assume this +sympathetic posture. If I appeared to be deluded by her sympathy, if I +appeared to become familiar with her, it would lend credibility should she +decide to lie about the content of our conversations. I would be safer if I +maintained the distance, the formality. + + Thinking that I might be able to pry some information out of her about my +predicament, I asked her why the delay was so long. She didn't know all the +details, she said, but she thought that they were trying to decide how they +could keep me away from the main jail population. The problem was the +lack of facilities for isolation. It was her feeling that they would put me in +4b, the area of the jail reserved for women with psychological problems. +I looked at her in disbelief. If they locked me up in a tank for mental +patients, their next step might be to declare me insane. Perhaps they would +try to say that communism is a psychological illness — something akin to +masochism, exhibitionism or sadism. +Surprised at my reaction, she tried to console me by saying that I'd probably +be happier there — sometimes the women would ask to be moved to the +"mental" cellblock because they couldn't tolerate the noise in the main +population. But to me, jail was jail — there were no degrees of better or +worse. And nothing could detract from the thought that they wanted to +isolate me because they feared the impact the mere presence of a political +prisoner would have on the other women. +I reminded the officer that I had not yet made the two telephone calls due +me. I needed a lawyer, and I knew I had the right to contact one. +"A lawyer by the name of John Abt has been trying to get in to see you," +she said. "But visiting hours for attorneys are over at five o'clock. I'm sorry +I can't do anything." +"If I can't see him, at least I ought to be able to call him." +"These people," she said, "haven't decided how to deal with you. They say +you're a federal prisoner, under the jurisdiction of the federal marshals. We +have federal prisoners all the time. The marshals are the ones who should +have let you make the two phone calls. At least, that's what the captain +said." +"For five hours," I insisted, "I have been trying to make a phone call, and +everybody I ask gives me the run-around." + + "You know, no prisoners here are actually allowed to use the phone. You +have to write out your number and your message on a form and a special +officer does the calling." +I started to protest, but soon realized that nothing I said would make them +give me access to a telephone that evening. The only thing they +relinquished was a card John Abt had left at the front gate. +The crowd of women just back from court had apparently been "processed," +and I could now return to the receiving room to await my turn for this +mysterious "process." As I entered the room, I saw a figure lying on a +hospital cart, almost completely covered with a sheet. I didn't know whether +it was living or dead. It was simply there, unattended, in the least +conspicuous corner of the receiving room. When I tried to inspect it as +carefully as I could from a distance, I noticed an elevation in the middle that +seemed to be moving. It was a pregnant prisoner about to deliver — and +soon. Wasn't anybody going to do anything? Were they going to let her have +the baby right here in this dump? Even if they did take her to a halfway +decent hospital, what would happen to the infant once it was born? Would it +be placed in an orphanage while she did her time? I felt angry but helpless +as I watched the sister go further and further into labor. Soon the iron gates +opened, and the attendants of a police ambulance came to take her away. I +watched them carry the stretcher into the night. +At last it was my turn. The print of my forefinger was stamped on an orange +card, which, they informed me, was the jail identification that every +prisoner had to keep with her at all times. Then came another body search. I +vigorously protested this second search — the FBI had already done it once. +The officer assigned to search me was ambivalent about the procedure. +While I undressed in the shower room, she discreetly pretended to be +looking for something. She gave me a hospital dressing gown and directed +me to sit on a bench outside a closed door. From the women already waiting +there, I learned that we were about to be searched internally. Each time +prisoners left the jail for a court appearance, and upon their return, they had +to submit to a vaginal and rectal examination. +It was one A.M. before they actually booked me into the jail. There were +only three women left in the receiving room. One of them stared at me for a + + long time and finally asked whether I was Angela Davis. When I smiled +and nodded, she said that coming in from court she had seen crowds outside +demonstrating for me. All kinds of people — young, old, Black, white. +"What? Where?" I was tremendously excited by the possibility that people +in the movement were near. +The sister told us to be quiet for a moment. If we listened especially hard, +we might be able to hear some of the chants. Sure enough, muffled rhythms +were penetrating these massive walls. Just outside the building, the sister +said, they were chanting, "Free Angela Davis." The sister describing the +scene was in jail for possession of heroin. (The first thing she was going to +do when she got out, she said, was to look up her connection.) With an +expression of triumph on her face, she assured me that I was going to win. +She said this knowing that according to jail standards, I was facing very +heavy charges. +The entire jail was shrouded in darkness when I finally reached the cell in +4b. It was no more than four and a half feet wide. The only furnishings were +an iron cot bolted to the floor and a seatless toilet at the foot of the bed. +Some minutes after they had locked me in, the officer in charge of that unit +— another young Black woman — came to the iron door. She whispered +through the grating that she was shoving a piece of candy under the door. +She sounded sincere enough, but I couldn't take any chances. I didn't want +to be paranoid, but it was better to be too distrustful than not cautious +enough. I was familiar with jailhouse "suicides" in California. For all I +knew, there might be poison in the candy. +The first night in jail, I had no desire to sleep. I thought about George and +his brothers in San Quentin. I thought about Jonathan. I thought about my +mother and father and hoped that they would make it through this ordeal. +And then I thought about the demonstration outside, about all the people +who had dropped everything to fight for my freedom. +I had just been captured; a trial awaited me in California on the charges of +murder, kidnapping and conspiracy. A conviction on any one of these +charges could mean death in the gas chamber. One would have thought that +this was an enormous defeat. Yet, at that moment, I was feeling better than I + + had felt in a long time. The struggle would be difficult, but there was +already a hint of victory. In the heavy silence of the jail, I discovered that if +I concentrated hard enough, I could hear echoes of slogans being chanted +on the other side of the walls. "Free Angela Davis." "Free All Political +Prisoners." + +The key rattling in the cell-gate lock startled me. A guard was opening the +gate for a plump young Black woman wearing a faded blue prisoner's +uniform and holding a big tray in her hands. +Smiling, she said in a very soft voice, "Here's your breakfast. Do you want +some coffee?" +Her gentle manner was comforting and made me feel like I was among +human beings again. I sat up on the cot, thanked her and told her that I +would very much like a cup of coffee. +Looking around, I realized that there was no place to put the food — the +bed and the toilet were the only furnishings in the tiny cell. But the sister, +obviously having gone through this many times before, had already stooped +down to a squatting position and was placing the food on the floor: a small +box of cornflakes, a paper cup filled with watery milk, two pieces of plain +white bread and a paper cup into which she began to pour the coffee. +"Is there any black coffee?" I asked her, partly because I didn't drink coffee +with milk and partly because I wanted an excuse to exchange a few more +words with her. +"When they give it to us, it's already like this," she answered, "but I'll see +what I can do about getting you some black coffee tomorrow." +The guard told me I had to get ready for my court appearance. Then she +slammed the gate on the young woman's exit. While she was unlocking the +next cell, the sister whispered through the bars, "Don't worry about a thing. +We're all on your side." And she disappeared down the corridor. + + I looked down at my breakfast, and saw that a roach had already discovered +it. I left it all spread out on the bare floor untouched. +After I had gone through the elaborate steps involved in getting dressed for +court, a matron led me downstairs. A crowd of white men was milling +around the receiving room. Seeing me, they swept toward me like vultures +and clamped handcuffs around my wrists, which still ached from the +previous day. Outside, shiny tan cars crowded into the cobblestone +courtyard. It was still dark when the caravan reached the federal courthouse. +A glimpse of the morning paper's boldlettered headlines, peeping out from +under some man's arm, stunned me: ANGELA DAVIS CAPTURED IN +NEW YORK. It suddenly struck me that the huge crowd of press people +summoned by the FBI the evening before had probably written similar +headline stories throughout the country. Knowing that my name was now +familiar to millions of people, I felt overwhelmed. Yet I knew that all this +publicity was not really aimed at me as an individual. Using me as an +example, they wanted to discredit the Black Liberation Movement, the Left +in general and obviously also the Communist Party. I was only the occasion +for their manipulations. +The holding cell where I spent the next several hours was cleaner than the +jail cell I had just left and looked like a giant, unfinished bathroom. It had +sparkling white tile walls and a light-colored linoleum floor. A seatless +toilet stood in one of the corners. Long metal benches lined the three walls. +One of the federal bureaucrats came into the cell. +"I have nothing to say," I told him, "until I see my lawyer." +"Your father's lawyer is waiting outside," he said. +My father's lawyer? Perhaps it was a friend posing as my "father's lawyer" +in order to get permission to see me. +In a large hall filled with rows of desks, John Abt was waiting to see me. +Although I had never met him before I knew about the trials in which he +had successfully defended members of our Party. With a great feeling of +relief, I sat down to talk with him. + + "I waited for hours last night at the jail, but they refused to let me in," John +said. "I had to get your father to call them before they would let me see you +this morning." +He went on to explain that I was about to be arraigned on the federal +charges — interstate flight to avoid prosecution. Before he had gotten very +far in his discussion of the legal proceedings before us, a group of people +pressed through a door at the other end of the room. Without my glasses, +which the FBI had not bothered to return, the people's faces were blurred. +Noticing a young Black woman involved in a heated exchange with the +marshals, I squinted in order to see her more clearly. +"That's Margaret!" I shouted. +Margaret Burnham was a very old friend of mine. During my youngest +years, her family and mine had lived in the same housing project in +Birmingham. When the Burnhams moved to New York, we visited them +every summer for four years, then we alternated the visits — sometimes +they would come to Birmingham and we would go to New York. Our +families had been so close that I had always considered Margaret, her +sisters Claudia and Linda, and her brother Charles more family than friends. +I had not seen her for several years. +She had been in Mississippi, gotten married and given birth to a child. I +knew that she had recently graduated from law school and I assumed she +was now practicing in New York. +"Margaret," I called, as loudly as I could, "come on over." Apparently this +was enough to settle the argument she was having with the marshal, for he +did nothing to prevent her from walking over to the desk where John and I +were. It felt so good to embrace her. +"Margaret," I said to her, "I'm so glad you came. You don't know how glad I +am to see you." As we started talking about personal things, I almost forgot +that there was business to be taken care of. +"Can you work on the case?" I asked her finally, disperately hoping she +would say yes. + + "You know I will, Angela," she answered, "If that's what you think I should +do." +It was as if half the battle had already been won. +John Abt went on to explain the legal situation. +Back in August, Marin County had charged me with murder, kidnapping +and conspiracy to commit murder and rescue prisoners. On the basis of an +FBI agent's affidavit declaring that I had been seen by "reliable sources" in +Birmingham, a federal judge had issued a warrant charging me with +"interstate flight to avoid prosecution." +It was possible, John said, that I might be "removed" to California, which +meant that without further litigation I would simply be transferred from the +New York Federal District to the California Federal District. But more than +likely, he surmised, I would be "turned over" to the State of New York for +extradition to California, and we would be able to challenge California in +the New York courts. +As we were winding up this conference, David walked into the room, +encircled by guards. I hadn't seen him since our arrest. He looked as if he +hadn't slept either. +In a cool, crisp tone, he called out to me, "Remember now, no matter what, +we're going to beat this thing." +"No talking between the prisoners," a voice announced. It could have come +from any one of the marshals standing around. +"O.K., David," I said, ignoring the command. "You be sure to keep strong +yourself." +I had never seen a courtroom so small. With its marred walls of blond +wood, it had the worn-out elegance of an old mansion. There was just +enough room for the bench and a single row of chairs lining the back wall. +The smallness of the courtroom exaggerated the height of the judge's bench. +The judge himself was little, like his courtroom. He was wearing old- + + fashioned plastic-rimmed glasses, and his white hair was spread sparsely +over his head. I thought about Soledad guard O. G. Miller perched in his +gun tower, aiming his carbine at the three brothers he killed in the yard in +January. +There were no spectators. The only non-official people were reporters — +and there were not very many of them. As I entered, a sister sitting in the +seat closest to the door held up a copy of the hardcover edition of George's +Soledad Brother. This was the first time I had seen the book, which I had +read in manuscript. +The arraignment on the federal charges was short and to the point. All the +prosecutor was required to do was to prove, for the record, that I was the +Angela Davis named in the warrant. The bail figure was a farce. Who could +even contemplate raising $250,000 to get me out of jail? +It was still early — late morning or early afternoon — when I returned to +the holding cell. The last time I had been in the cell, my thoughts had been +monopolized by the problem of finding a lawyer. Now that I had two fine +lawyers whom I trusted and loved, I could no longer ward off thoughts of +my imprisonment. I was alone with the shiny tile walls and the gray steel +bars. Walls and bars, nothing more. I wished I had a book or, if not +something to read, at least a pencil and a sheet of paper. +I fought the tendency to individualize my predicament. Pacing from one +end of this cell to the other, from a bench along one wall to a bench along +the other, I kept telling myself that I didn't have the right to get upset about +a few hours of being alone in a holding cell. What about the brother — +Charles Jordon was his name — who had spent, not hours, but days and +weeks in a pitch-dark strip cell in Soledad Prison, hardly large enough for +him to stretch out on the cold cement, reeking of urine and human +excrement because the only available toilet was a hole in the floor which +could hardly be seen in the dark. +I thought about the scene George had described in the manuscript of his +book — the brother who had painted a night sky on the ceiling of his cell, +because it had been years since he had seen the moon and stars. (When it +was discovered, the guards painted over it in gray.) And there was Ericka + + Huggins at Niantic State Farm for Women in Connecticut. Ericka, Bobby, +the Soledad Brothers, the Soledad 7, the Tombs Rebels and all the countless +others whose identities were hidden behind so much concrete and steel, so +many locks and chains. How could I indulge even the faintest inclination +toward selfpity? Yet I paced faster across the holding cell. I walked with the +determination of someone who has someplace very important to go. At the +same time, I was trying not to let the jailers see my agitation. +When someone finally opened the gate, it was late in the evening. Margaret +and John were waiting to accompany me to a court appearance in the same +courtroom we had appeared in that morning. Aside from us, there were not +"civilians" in the courtroom, not even the reporters from the morning +session. I wondered what kind of secret appearance this was going to be. +The elderly judge announced that he was rescinding the bail and releasing +me on my own recognizance. I was sure I had misheard his words. But +already, the Feds were approaching me to unlock the handcuffs. The judge +said something else, which I hardly heard, and then suddenly several New +York policemen moved in to replace the federal handcuffs with their own +manacles. +With the New York handcuffs binding my wrists, there was a trip to a musty +police precinct office, where I was officially booked as a prisoner of the +State of New York. Forms, fingerprints, mug shots — the same routine. The +New York police seemed to be as confused as their surroundings. Amid all +the papers haphazardly strewn on desks and counters, they were running +around like novices. Their incompetence calmed me. It must have been +around ten in the evening when one of them announced that there would be +yet another court appearance. (Did Margaret and John know about this third +court session?) +The courtroom in the New York County Courthouse was larger than any I +had ever seen. Its high ceilings and interminable rows of benches made it +look like a church from another era. Most courtrooms are windowless, but +this one seemed especially isolated from the outside world. It was so dimly +lit, with hardly anyone but policemen sitting randomly on the benches, that +I had the impression that what was about to happen was supposed to be +hidden from the people outside. + + Neither Margaret nor John was there. When they told me that I had to be +arraigned before a New York judge, I said that I wasn't budging from my +seat until they contacted my lawyers. I was prepared to wait the whole +night. +When John finally arrived, he said that the police had directed him to the +wrong courtroom. He had been running all over New York trying to find +me. After hours of waiting, the court appearance lasted all of two minutes. +Back at the jail, I was so physically and emotionally exhausted that I only +wanted to sleep. Even the hard cell cot in the "mental" ward felt +comfortable. But as soon as I closed my eyes, I was jolted out of my +exhaustion by piercing screams in a language which sounded Slavic. They +came from a cell at the other end of the corridor. Footsteps approached the +cell in the darkness. Voices tried to calm the woman in English but could +not assuage her terror. I listened to her all night — until they took her away +in the morning. + +The same unpalatable breakfast — cornflakes, powdered milk and stale +white bread — was placed on the unswept floor of my cell the next +morning. As she had promised, Shirley, who had brought my breakfast the +morning before, had found me a cup of black coffee. Accompanying her +this time was a tall, slim Puerto Rican woman wearing a very short natural. +She introduced herself as "just Tex" and went on to say that when the sisters +in her corridor learned that I was in 4b, they wanted me to know that they +were convinced we would win. +After Shirley and Tex had gone, I called through the bars, telling the officer +to bring me my cigarettes — they had kept them when I came from court +the night before. +"You can't have a cigarette now," she called from the day room. "You'll +have to wait till cigarette time, like the rest of the inmates." She spoke as if +it were against the regulations not to understand that smoking took place +only at "cigarette time." When she came around a half-hour later, she gave + + me a single cigarette and insisted on lighting it herself through the grating +of the cell door. "Sorry, these are the rules. We have to follow the rules." +The corridor was quiet that morning. When I had finished my cigarette, I +called to the guard once more. +"I'm ready to take my shower and get dressed." +She came back to my cell. "I can't let you out right now." +"I want to brush my teeth, take a shower and put on something other than +this gown." +"I can't let you out. Hasn't anyone explained the rules of 4b? The ‘girls' can +only come out of their cells when two officers are on duty." (All prisoners +— whether they were sixteen or sixty-were referred to as "girls.") +Nothing, I later discovered, absolutely nothing was allowed inside the cells +— not only were cigarettes and matches banned, but also books, writing +materials, toothbrushes, soap, washcloths, clothes and shoes. Before being +locked into her cell, each prisoner was always checked to make sure she +had removed her underwear and was wearing nothing except the flimsy, +light-green nightgown she was given. A book or a magazine? How could +they be used to inflict injury on oneself? And toilet paper? We could not +even keep a roll of toilet paper in the cell. Like dependent infants, each time +we wanted to use the toilet, we had to call the officer to bring us paper. +Shortly before lunch, the second officer arrived and the cell doors were +unlocked. A strange melange of women emerged from the cells: one very +young Black woman, short and heavyset, with her natural thinning out on +one side. Something seemed to be churning her up inside. Another Black +woman with straight hair, and an incredibly serene expression. She was far +away from this jail in her thoughts. A white woman with dyed red hair, +looking young one moment and very old the next, who began to pace +frantically around the day room, mumbling incomprehensibly under her +breath. And a young white woman, small, frail, with short blond hair, who +seemed on the verge of panic, but didn't know how to express it. + + The women did not even notice that a new prisoner had been thrown in with +them. Except for the woman who continued to pace, they each found places +at the table in the day room and sat separate from one another, as if there +were a mutual agreement that they would all refrain from invading the +others' turf. After they took their seats, they became completely absorbed in +themselves, blank stares telling me that no matter how much I wanted to +talk, it would be futile to approach any of them. +Later I learned that these women received Thorazine with their meals each +day and, even if they were completely sane, the tranquilizers would always +make them uncommunicative and detached from their surroundings. After a +few hours of watching them gaze silently into space, I felt as though I had +been thrown into a nightmare. +Even there in the day room where the eyes of the officers were constantly +following our most subtle gestures, we were not allowed to hold a pack of +cigarettes or matches. If you wanted a cigarette, you approached the officer +sitting at the desk, and she handed you one from your pack and lit it for +you. If you were a chain smoker, as I was at the time, and especially if you +had kept your sanity and your sobriety, this little ceremony was itself +maddening. +I had loudly protested being kept in 4b from the very first day. I didn't +belong there — or had I been judged a mental case? The officer said I had +been placed in 4b not because I was psychologically unsound, but for my +own safety and to keep me from disrupting the life of the jail. I was not +persuaded. +I began to make as many requests as I could think of. I knew that there must +be some kind of library in the building, so I asked to visit it, certain that +if I read only the piles of Reader's Digests lying around, I too would be a +candidate for Thorazine. The message which came back was that I could +order books from the library, and they would be brought up to me. The +same rule applied to the commissary — I could order whatever I needed, +and it would be delivered to me. I had never seen the library or the +commissary, but when virtually nothing came back in response to my lists, I +realized that I had terribly overestimated both of these jail institutions. Even + + items like a ball-point pen or a natural comb were not sold in commissary +and were therefore considered "contraband." +The day was dragging, and I was beginning to wonder whether they were +planning to deny me contact with my attorneys. Either Margaret or John +should have certainly come to see me by now. When I made inquiries about +my attorneys' visits, the officer said that they had received instructions that +although I was allowed to have counsel visits, I was to go nowhere without +an "escort." (The jail euphemism for a guard.) Normally all a prisoner +needed was a pass. At last the call came announcing the arrival of the +lawyers. Going to meet them was my first opportunity to walk through any +part of the jail at a normal hour — when the prisoners were not locked in or +sleeping. +Women awaiting trial were always allowed to wear their own clothes. The +women in 4b, however, the "mental cases," wore the uniforms of sentenced +women, so I had to go down to the ground floor for my first visit in a dungcolored, unhemmed cotton dress, at least two sizes too large and about five +inches above my ankles. I had washed my hair that morning and had my +natural back for the first time in almost two months — but since we weren't +allowed to use natural combs, my hair was in hopeless disarray. Yet +excitement about my trip to the main floor totally annihilated any worry +about my appearance. +When the iron door was opened, sounds peculiar to jails and prisons poured +into my ears — the screams, the metallic clanging, officers' keys clinking. +Some of the woman noticed me and smiled warmly or threw up their fists in +gestures of solidarity. The elevator stopped on the third floor, where the +commissary was located. The women who were waiting for the elevator +recognized me and told me in a cordial, sisterly way, their words sometimes +reinforced with their fists, that they were on my side. These were the +"dangerous women" who might attack me because they didn't like +"Communists," had I not been hidden away in 4b. This and subsequent trips +to the main floor were further evidence of what I already knew: that the +administration's allegations that the prison population might harm me were +nonsense. + + On the first floor I was directed to a booth which became a regular hangout +over the next weeks. The first problem I discussed with Margaret and John +was what we could do to get me out of 4b and into the main population. As +we talked we noticed that the guard stationed at the table outside the booths +was trying her best to listen to our conversation. +In the days that followed, familiarity with the routine in 4b did not diminish +the horror of living behind bars. I not only pressed harder for my own +release, but I was becoming increasingly persuaded that something had to +be done about this maximum security arrangement camouflaged as a +therapeutic cellblock. Regardless of why the women in 4b had been placed +there, they were all being horribly damaged. Whatever problems they had +had initially were not solved, but rather systematically aggravated. I could +see the erosion of their will taking place even during the short time I spent +there. +In the cell next to me lived a white woman somewhere between thirty and +forty-five years old who had lost all contact with reality. Each night before +she fell asleep the cellblock shook with her screams. Sometimes her +rantings and ravings filled the air long after midnight. Her vile language, +her weird imagery bespeckled with the most vulgar kind of racial epithets +made me so angry that it was all I could do to prevent myself from trying to +break through the steel and concrete that separated her cell from mine. I +was convinced that she had been placed there intentionally as a part of the +jailers' efforts to break me. +When I saw this pitiful figure the next morning, it was clear that her +sickness was so far advanced — some stage of schizophrenia — that she +was beyond the reach of argument. Her illness had become a convenient +vehicle for the expression of the racism which had grown like maggots in +her unconscious. Each night, and every morning before breakfast came, she +went through a prolonged ritual which took the form of a violent argument +with some invisible figure in her cell. More often than not, this figure would +be a Black man, and he would be attacking her with a kind of sexual +perversity which would have been inconceivable had not her own verbal +imagery been so vivid. She would purge this figure from her cell with a + + series of incantations. When her imagined attacker assumed some other +position, it brought about a corresponding change in her incantations. +One morning in the day room, Barbara, the young Black woman from the +cell directly across from mine, broke her habitual silence to tell me she had +refused her daily dose of Thorazine. It was very simple: she was tired of +feeling like a vegetable all the time. She was going to resist the Thorazine +and was going to get out of 4b. She knew about my own attempts to get out, +and if we were both transferred she said she would like very much to be my +"cellie" in the main population. +In the cell next to Barbara's was a very young white woman who appeared +to receive larger doses of Thorazine than any of the others. One day when +she was not so spaced out, she wanted to know if I could help her with her +case. (She was back from court and evidently had not been drugged so she +would look more or less normal for the judge.) When I asked her about her +charges, tears streamed down her face as she said repeatedly, "I could never +do anything like that. I couldn't kill my own baby." +She didn't understand where she was and had no comprehension whatever +of the judicial system. Who were her friends, she wanted me to tell her, and +who were the ones who wanted to put her away? She had been afraid to talk +to her lawyer, for fear he would tell the judge. Now she was thoroughly +crushed because a doctor who had sworn himself to secrecy had just taken +the stand and divulged everything she had told him. All she wanted now +was just a little Thorazine. She wanted to get away, forget, get high. +Perhaps the most tragic of them all was Sandra — the teenager charged +with arson. She was one of the women who had been in the receiving room +the night I was arrested. I had noticed then that her hair was coming out in +patches and had assumed that she had ringworm. My first day in 4b, she +came out of the cell for meals. The second day, she ignored the key +unlocking her cell gate at mealtimes. She silently and systematically pulled +her hair out by the roots. From that day on, whenever I saw her, she was +sitting quietly on her bed, yanking out hair by the handful. By the time I +left, she was as thin as a wishbone, and all that was left of her natural was a +few clumps of hair on one side of her pitiful hairless head. + + Of all the officers who were sent to do duty in 4b — and there were +different ones almost every day — no one cared about this young woman, +no one except a sweet, motherly Black woman officer, who seemed quite +out of character in her guard's uniform. The few times she was on duty, she +would tenderly coax the poor girl out of her depression, draw words from +her tortured soul, bring her out of her cell into the day room and persuade +her to eat a little. But this officer was rarely there, and she was only one +person poised against an entire system in which there was nothing to +encourage concern for a prisoner who was being slowly, hopelessly +engulfed by her desperation. +The week I spent in 4b was far worse than my worst fantasies of solitary +confinement. It was torture to be surrounded by these women who urgently +needed professional help. It was all the more torturous because each time I +tried to help one of them out of her misery, I would discover that a wall — +far more impervious than the walls of our cells — stood between us. I could +not keep from becoming depressed myself when their "doctor" came to +examine them — he simply prescribed larger doses of Thorazine, chloral +hydrate, or other tranquilizers. +Even if prisoners with severe psychological problems were given more +attention, I wonder whether the approach would be fundamentally different +from what I witnessed in 4b. Psychology as it is generally practiced is not +geared to cure. Often it does not reach the root of the problem because it +does not recognize the social origin of many forms of mental illness. +How could the woman next door to me even begin to be cured if the +psychologist treating her was not aware of the way in which racism, like an +ancient plague, infects every joint, muscle and tissue of social life in this +country? This woman was rotting in a snake pit of racism, flagellating +herself daily with her obscene and graphic imagination. In order to +understand her illness, it would be necessary to start with the illness of the +society — for it was from the society that she had so perfectly learned how +to hate Black people. +Trapped in this wasteland inhabited by the sick, the drugged, and their +indifferent keepers, my life revolved around Margaret's daily visits. They +were oases, refreshing reentries into humanity. Our conversations — about + + the little world of our childhood, our families, and the larger world of global +politics, the movement, the case — sustained me more than anything else +during this period. She brought messages from my parents, and continually +assured my mother that my health was good and my spirits were high. +Margaret was my only link to my comrades, my friends, and she kept me +from being totally swallowed up by the madness of that dungeon. +She had grown very strong. Coupled with the responsibilities of her fulltime job at the NAACP Legal Defense Fund and her total devotion to her +six-year-old son, she was doing a full-time job on the case. And knowing +how much I looked forward to her visits, she rarely missed a day. +She came into the case fighting and kept it up for the entire twenty months. +That first morning in the Federal Building she had reached me only after +fighting her way through an assemblage of marshals. When she came to +visit me in jail, the jailers said she didn't look like a lawyer: she seemed too +young to have passed the bar in New York. And besides, she was Black and, +to complete the unpopular combination, she was a woman. When she had +established her right to visit me as my lawyer, she launched into an +interminable battle with the jail administration over my rights. +The first skirmish was fought in order to get me out of 4b. Margaret +submitted request upon request to the administration, demanding that I be +placed in some more normal section of the jail. She went from one officer +to another, up the hierarchy from lieutenant to captain to deputy +superintendent to the superintendent herself. Margaret insisted that she +could not carry on a sensible conversation with this warden. (My own +encounters with the woman confirmed everything I had heard about her +from lawyers and prisoners alike. Unfortunately, she was Black. She was +probably chosen for that reason — she had proved to be a convenient tool +for the higher-ups in the New York Department of Corrections.) +Nowhere along the hierarchy could any reason for my incarceration in 4b +be given, aside from the ridiculous notion that the other women might +attack me if I were not kept in a safely guarded place. By now we had +accumulated enough evidence through my trips from the cellblock to the +main floor for lawyers' visits to demonstrate the affection which the vast +majority of the women felt for me. + + A little more than a week had passed when the warden informed Margaret +that I was to be moved to the main population. I was extremely excited, but +did not want to make it appear to the officers that this move was anything +more than what I was due and had expected all along. Shortly before dinner, +a young, emaciated-looking Puerto Rican officer came to fetch me from 4b. +I gathered up my belongings — jail-issued dresses and underwear and the +magazines I had managed to have brought in, said my good-byes to the +women (even though most were irretrievably spaced out on drugs), and +followed the officer through the iron door. I called to the women who were +in the dining room across from the elevator and asked them to say good-bye +to Shirley and Tex, who had brought our meals in 4b. When they heard I +was leaving they both came running out, asking me to try to get back down +that way to see them if I could. +The bed assigned me in the tenth-floor dormitory, where at least a hundred +women were sleeping, was in the very front of the hall, only a few yards +away from the officer's desk. After a tasteless dinner in the diningrecreation room next door, I struck up conversations with a number of +women. Many of the women were recuperating and were assigned to the +dormitory because they needed to be near the hospital across the hall in case +some problem arose. Some had just had babies. +Others were elderly women who might not have survived the regular jail +routine. +One woman looked familiar. I soon realized that she was the pregnant +woman I had seen the night I was arrested. When I asked her how her baby +was, she was surprised that I knew about it. After I explained, she said that +she had been in so much pain then that she had no memory of what had +happened. We had a lively conversation about the jail, her case, her +personal problems. Finally she got up enough nerve to ask me to explain +what communism was. Some of the other women began to listen. We were +in the back of the hall; there were no officers around, yet I knew they would +find out that we were holding political talks. Most of the women seemed +honestly interested and I snatched the opportunity to tell them that most of +what they had heard about communism was a carefully woven network of +lies. + + While I was arranging my personal effects in the small cabinet at the side of +my bed, a young white woman came up to me and in an almost inaudible +voice whispered, "I am a political prisoner also." She explained that a friend +of her husband's had been arrested for possession of explosives in Oakland. +They had apparently been tied into this affair by the police and were later +arrested in New York. Their case was still in the extradition stages. She had +given birth to a baby and was waiting here in almost total ignorance of +developments in the lawsuit against them. (Later I learned that the officers +had given her the name "Weatherman" although she didn't seem to have +anything to do with that organization.) +That evening I received my introduction to a wellknown institution in any +prison — the grapevine. Several of the women told me that they had just +heard "through the grapevine" that I had been transferred from 4b to the +tenth floor for security reasons. The administration was afraid, so they said, +that with the help of outside friends, I might attempt to escape from the +fourth floor. Apparently it had been done before. There were even rumors +that they had already uncovered some plot to rescue me. I don't know +whether these were fantasies of the prisoners or of the jailers; in any event, I +didn't completely dismiss the possibility that the administration was +impelled by fear to transfer me to the tenth floor. It was amusing but also +frightening, for if they had already acted on such irrational grounds, there +was no telling what else they might try. +Sure enough, the very next day I was told that I was about to be transferred +to another part of the jail. I protested being bounced back and forth like a +Ping-Pong ball, but actually I didn't mind the move, thinking that I was +going into the regular population. I hated the lack of privacy in the +dormitory. If I decided to do some reading or writing, it was impossible to +retreat, except perhaps into a bathroom stall. At least in the cellblocks, the +cell would provide a hint of privacy. I had no idea that my longing for some +degree of seclusion was about to be overfulfilled. The main population I +thought I was about to enter turned out to be a hurriedly improvised special +isolation room separated from all of the corridors on the sixth floor. +Outraged, I demanded to know what was going on, but of course there was +no explanation from the officer who had silently led me away. After all, she + + said, she was only following the instructions of her supervisor. It was not +hard to see the probable connection between the harmless discussion with +the sisters upstairs about communism and this abrupt and unexplained move +into solitary confinement. +I looked around the cell in angry disbelief. It seemed especially illogical +that after they had transferred me from the psychiatric cellblock to the +dormitory, they would now isolate me altogether. Even as these thoughts +sifted through my head, I realized that it was futile to try to understand the +perverted logic of jailers. +I learned later that this room was ordinarily used by the doctor, ostensibly +for medical examinations. The isolation units which had existed in the past +had been dismantled years ago, in an effort to remove from view the most +blatant instances of inhumanity. Needless to say, they had not succeeded; +inhumanity seethed from all the cracks and crevices of that place. +As the work shifts changed — first at midnight, then early the next +morning, there was a noticeable changing of the guard in front of the door. I +began to realize that they had assigned someone to watch me twenty-four +hours a day. Not only had they isolated me, they had placed me under +maximum security. +Later that night I looked out the window at the "free" people passing down +Greenwich Avenue. I listened to the night sounds of the Village and paced +back and forth in the room. When I finally got into bed, I kept my eyes +open: I didn't want to be caught off guard in the middle of the night. +The next morning it struck me that there was no shower in this cell. I began +to wonder quite seriously whether they would construct a "special facility" +for me. When I announced to the officer outside the door that I was ready +for my daily shower, she said I would have to wait. It took over an hour to +arrange for my shower because all the women had to be cleared from the +corridor and locked into their cells before I was let out of mine. The officer +unlocked the door and directed me through an iron gate into a long corridor +of cells. + + This was the first time I had a chance to get a closer look at a corridor in the +main jail population. When they weren't locked in their cells, I later +discovered, the prisoners spent most of their time in corridors like these, +sitting on cold, filthy cement floors. Apparently none of the cells had waste +baskets, because paper and dirt were strewn along the entire length of the +corridor — as if it had been casually thrown through the bars. +The shower was no more sanitary — a dead mouse huddled under the bench +as if to be a little less obtrusive. When I emerged, I did not feel any cleaner +than before, but I had gained a little satisfaction from the fact that my +demand for this shower had forced the jailers to submit in a small way. +When Margaret and John came in, I gave them a detailed account of the +most recent offensive launched by the jail administration. We began to map +out plans for our counteroffensive. Our response had to be both political +and legal. There would be a federal lawsuit filed on the grounds that I was +the victim of undue discrimination. The political campaign would have to +reveal the precedent the jail administration and government were trying to +set in the treatment of political prisoners. +At that time, the Department of Corrections must have felt it was extremely +important to establish methods of quarantining resistance and radicalism in +order to prevent their large-scale diffusion. In September, a month before, +the Tombs had erupted in massive collective protests. Obviously, every +prison in New York was searching for new ways of preventing these +explosions. If we did not publicly contest the efforts to segregate me from +the rest of the women, this apparatus would be ready and waiting for +anyone deemed a political threat. +I decided to dramatize the situation by declaring myself on a hunger strike +for as long as I was kept in isolation — I would hold my own on this side of +the walls while things got rolling on the other side. It was not difficult to go +on a hunger strike. If the food had looked palatable, it would have been +hard; but the unsavory dishes they placed before me actually facilitated the +strike. After taking a look at the food, I felt more like vomiting than eating. +Of the many officers assigned to guard me during those weeks, there were a +few who were unmistakably sympathetic. I learned from them that the +warden had instructed them to prevent any exchange of words between me + + and the other women — not even a greeting was allowed. The friendly +officers ignored this order, in spite of the fact that if their superiors had +become aware of the understanding they had reached with me, they could +have been brought up on charges of insubordination. +I also learned from one of these officers that when they came on duty, they +took charge of a log entitled "Angela Davis' Daily Activities." Every hour +on the hour, they were supposed to make an entry describing my activities +of the previous hour — whether I had been reading (if so, what), writing, +exercising — that exhausted the extent of the activities I could pursue in +such confined quarters. +Some of them also told me that they had been instructed to conduct a +thorough search of my quarters each time there was a changing of the +guard. The friendlier ones didn't bother with the search. But those who took +this duty seriously announced their presence at the post by entering the cell, +intently looking around at the barren walls as if they might conceal a +weapon, and finally by going through the drawers of the bed table. One eye +always following my movements. +Unfortunately, I cannot describe the sympathetic officers or refer to them by +name. My words might mean the loss of their jobs. They were an interesting +conglomeration of Black women, both young and old, whose political +sentiments ranged from "liberal" to straight-out sympathy with the most +militant wings of the Black Liberation Movement. +They all explained that they had been driven by necessity to apply for this +kind of job. Apparently it was one of the highest-paying jobs in New York +that did not require a college education. In a way, these officers were +prisoners themselves, and some of them were keenly aware that they were +treading ambiguous waters. Like their predecessors, the Black overseers, +they were guarding their sisters in exchange for a few bits of bread. And +like the overseers, they too would discover that part of the payment for their +work was their own oppression. For example, overtime was compulsory. +And because of the military discipline to which they were forced to submit, +failure to work overtime was punishable as insubordination. Sixteen-hour +workdays, a few times a week, were never out of the ordinary for the young + + officers who held no seniority, and for the older ones who weren't wellliked in the top echelons of the jail hierarchy. +Still, even though their own grievances were reason enough to become +involved in protest, whatever positive role they could play inside the jail +was limited — they certainly could not revolutionize the penal system. But +within these limitations there were a number of important things they did +do. For instance, they communicated messages from prisoners to the +outside, when it was not possible to send them through normal channels. +They brought in "contraband" articles, such as natural combs. They got +literature to the prisoners — particularly political literature that was banned +from the library. If serious study groups were formed by women who +wanted to learn more about the Black or Puerto Rican Liberation +movements, sometimes these officers served as a shield between them and +the administration. +All these things imply risks. These officers repeatedly pointed out that when +two of their colleagues had been discovered to have ties with the Black +Panther Party, they were swiftly discharged. While they were willing to risk +losing their jobs, they thought it was more beneficial to the prisoners to do +whatever they could manage within the jail system itself, than to become +martyrs without reason. Yet a few of them said that if things reached a +crisis, they would shed the uniform and join the army of the prisoners. +Of course, it was difficult to judge the seriousness and depth of their +commitment, but it cheered me to see one of them coming to assume the +guard post. Then I could talk with some of the sisters from the floor. One +afternoon, the sisters from the two corridors nearest my cell marched +single-file past my door chanting, "Free Angela. Free our sister." +Through the grapevine I learned that there were women all over the jail who +were carrying out a hunger strike in sympathy with mine. I was especially +moved when I heard that Shirley was organizing a hunger strike on the +fourth floor. Since she worked in the kitchen, it must have required an +unusually big effort on her part. As for myself, I had a glass of juice three +times a day at meal times, lots of water and exercise. That, along with the +New York Times, which now came daily, the one or two books I had, and the +visits from Margaret and John, were enough to keep me going. + + While I was in solitary, I finally began to receive regular evening visits +from several friends. An officer would stand just close enough to hear my +side of the conversation. (I assumed that they summarized it in the log +book.) I was not a stranger to visiting arrangements in jails, for I had visited +friends and comrades in prison on many occasions. But this visiting room +was by far the worst I had seen. It is not unusual to have to speak to a +visitor through a glass pane, but the panes in the House of Detention were +less than a square foot in size, and the rust-colored dirt that covered them +made it impossible to get a clear look at the person who had come to see +you. The prisoners had to stand up during these twenty-minute visits and +shout into telephones which inevitably seemed to stop functioning just +when the most important part of the conversation had gotten under way. +One evening while I was still in solitary, I received a visit from Kendra +Alexander, who had been subpoenaed to New York along with her husband +Franklin to testify before the Grand Jury in the case against David +Poindexter. She informed me that the demonstration protesting my solitary +confinement was about to begin. They knew more or less where my room +was located — I had carefully detailed the areas of Greenwich Avenue I +could see from my window. The demonstrators were to gather on the corner +of Greenwich and West Tenth. +I ran back upstairs. The officer guarding me was one of the friendlier ones, +and turned her head and closed her ears while I spread the news. On five or +six floors, the women who lived in the corridors with windows looking out +on Greenwich Avenue would be able to see and hear the demonstration. +It was an enthusiastic crowd. Their shouts "Free Angela! Free all our +sisters!" rang through the night. Looking down from my cell window, I +became altogether engrossed in the speeches, sometimes losing the +sensation of captivity, feeling myself down there on the street with them. +My mind flashed back to past demonstrations — "Free the Soledad +Brothers," "Free Bobby and Ericka," "Free Huey," "End the war in +Vietnam," "Stop police killings in our community now . . ." + + Jose Stevens, a Communist leader from Harlem, had wound up his speech. +Franklin was addressing his words, full of passion, to all the prisoners +locked up in the Women's House of Detention. Then my sister, Fania, took +the megaphone. The sound of her voice shocked me back into the reality of +my situation, for I momentarily had forgotten that this demonstration was +centered around me. I had been so absorbed in the rally that I had actually +felt as if I were down there in the streets with them. Reflecting upon the +impenetrability of this fortress, on all the things that kept me separated from +my comrades barely a few hundred yards away, and reflecting on my +solitary confinement — this prison within a prison that kept me separated +from my sisters in captivity — I felt the weight of imprisonment perhaps +more at that moment than at any time before. +My frustration was immense. But before my thoughts led me further in the +direction of self-pity, I brought them to a halt, reminding myself that this +was precisely what solitary confinement was supposed to evoke. In such a +state the keepers could control their victim. I would not let them conquer +me. I transformed my frustration into raging energy for the fight. +Against the background of the chants ringing up from the demonstration +below, I took myself to task for having indulged in self-pity. What about +George, John and Fleeta, and my codefendant, Ruchell Magee, who had +endured far worse than I could ever expect to grapple with? What about +Charles Jordan and his bout with that medieval strip-cell in Soledad Prison? +What about those who had given their lives — Jonathan, McClain and +Christmas? +The experience of the demonstration had worked up so much tension in me +that I felt none of the debilitating effects of the fast. I did an extra heavy set +of exercises to sufficiently lower my energy level so I could lie in bed in +relative calm. There was no question of getting a full night's sleep. On this +evening, I had to be especially vigilant. All was quiet in the jail, but I was +convinced that the demonstration had aroused the jailers, and I had to hold +myself in readiness in case they decided to strike sometime during the +night. +On the tenth day of the hunger strike, at a time when I had persuaded +myself that I could continue indefinitely without eating, the Federal Court + + handed down a ruling enjoining the jail administration from holding me any +longer in isolation and under maximum security conditions. They had +decided — under pressure, of course — that this unwarranted punishment +was meted out to me because of my political beliefs and affiliation. The +court was all but saying that Commissioner of Corrections George McGrath +and Jessie Behagan, the superintendent of the Women's House of D., were +so fearful of letting the women in the jail discover what communism was +that they preferred to violate my most basic constitutional rights. +This ruling came as a surprise. I hadn't expected it to be so swift and to the +point. It was an important victory, for we had firmly established that those +in the Department of Corrections in New York would not have a clear +course before them when they attempted to persecute the next political +prisoner delivered into their hands. At the same time, however, I did not put +it past the jail administration to concoct another situation which might not +be solitary confinement, but which would give me an equally bad time. This +thought subdued my delight at the news of the injunction. +Next destination: seventh floor, C corridor. When I arrived, there was a big +shake-up going on. Women were being moved out, others were coming in. +For a moment the thought struck me that they were preparing a special +corridor for informers, jailer's confidantes — and me. But as it turned out, +the lawsuit had forced the administration to get on its toes — so-called +"first offenders" were supposed to be jailed separately from those who had +already spent time in the House of Detention. Apparently the necessary +shifts were being made. +There was little time to learn my way about before all the cell gates were +locked, but some of my neighbors gave me a guided tour of my 8' x 5' cell. +Because mine was the corner cell — the one which could be easily spied on +from the officer's desk in the main hallway — it was also the smallest one +on the corridor; the double bunk made it appear even smaller. The fixtures +— the bed, the tiny sink, the toilet — were all arranged in a straight line, +leaving no more than a width of two feet of floor at any point in the cell. +The sisters helped me improvise a curtain in front of the toilet and sink so +they could not be seen from the corridor. They showed me how to use +newspaper wrapped in scrap cloth to make a seat cover so the toilet could + + be turned into a chair to be used at the iron table that folded down from the +wall in front of it. I laughed out loud at the thought of doing all my writing +while sitting on the toilet stool. +Lock-in time was approaching; a sister remembered that she had forgotten +to warn me about one of the dangers of night life in the House of D. +"'Mickey' will be trying to get into your cell tonight," she said, and I would +have to take precautionary steps to "keep him out." +"Mickey?" Was there some maniac the jailers let loose at night to pester the +women? +The sister laughingly told me she was referring to the mice which +scampered about in the darkness of the corridors looking for cell doors not +securely stuffed with newspapers. +It became a nightly ritual: placing meticulously folded newspapers in the +little space between the gate and the floor and halfway up the gate along the +wall. +Despite the preventive measures we took, Mickey could always chew +through the barricade in at least one cell, and we were often awakened by +the shouts of a woman calling the officer to get the mouse out. One night +Mickey joined me in the top bunk. When I felt him crawling around my +neck, I brushed him away thinking that it was roaches. When I finally +realized what it was, I called for the broom — our only weapon against +him. Apparently mousetraps were too expensive, and they were not going to +exterminate. +There was one good thing about Mickey. His presence reassured us that +there were no rats in the vicinity. The two never share the same turf. +In a sense our daily struggles with Mickey — with all the various makeshift +means devised to get the better of him — were symbolic of a larger struggle +with the system. Indulging in a flight of fancy, I would sometimes imagine +that all the preparations that were made at night to ward off those creatures +were the barricades being erected against that larger enemy. That hundreds +of women, all over the jail, politically conscious, politically committed, + + were acting in revolutionary unison. That first evening, shortly after the +sister had helped me stuff the gate with newspapers, an officer called out, +"Lock-in time, girls. Into your cells." As the women slid their heavy iron +gates closed, loud metallic crashing noises thundered from all four corridors +of the seventh floor. I could hear the same sounds at a distance echoing +from throughout the jail. (In 4b, I had never been able to figure out what all +this commotion was about. The first time I heard it, I thought a rebellion +had been unleashed.) +The officer came around to count each prisoner, and at 9 P.M. all lights in +the corridor and cells were turned off by a master switch. In the darkness, a +good night ritual was acted out. One sister shouted good night to another, +calling her by name. The latter, catching the identity of the voice, would +shout good night, also calling the first sister by name. Early on, someone +from my corridor called out warmly, "Good night, Angela!" But having +learned hardly anyone's name, much less to recognize their voices, I was an +outsider to this ritual and could only respond with a lonesome, unsupported, +though no less vigorous, "good night." My call sparked off good night +shouts to me, which came not only from my own corridor but from the +others as well. I am sure that there had never been such a prolonged "saying +of good nights." The officers did not interrupt, though silence should have +prevailed long before. + +Life in jail was arranged and controlled from above in accordance with +pragmatic principles of the worst order. Just enough activities were +provided to distract the prisoners from any prolonged reflection upon their +wretched condition. The point was to fill up the day with meaningless +activities, empty diversions. +As a result, a whole network of institutions was there to absorb the energies +of the prisoners. Commissary, needless to say, was an important aspect of +survival in captivity. Three days out of the week women awaiting trial +visited this small store to purchase the little things that made life slightly +less intolerable. Mondays and Wednesdays, there was a three-dollar limit on +what we could buy; on Fridays we could spend one dollar more. The +coveted articles on sale were such things as cigarettes, cosmetics, primitive + + writing materials — pencils (but no pens) and lined pads, and stamps; +knitting and crocheting paraphernalia; and foodstuffs such as cookies, +candies, sugar, instant coffee and hot chocolate. Unless you were pregnant, +the only available source of real milk was the commissary. +The centrality of commissary emerges from the deprivation which is such +an important element of official control and authority. In jail, you learn that +nothing can be taken for granted; the normal need-fulfillment process is +shattered. You cannot assume that even your most basic needs will be +satisfied. There are always strings attached. If you conduct yourself in such +a way as to provoke an officer to place you in lockup, you lose your +commissary privileges. If you happen not to have cigarettes, you must +simply do without. The threat of withdrawing commissary privileges is a +powerful negative stimulus. +Another method used to fill time was the church services each Sunday +morning. Out of curiosity, I went down to the chapel on the first Sunday I +spent in the main population. I was surprised at the number of prisoners in +attendance. But soon I realized that many of the women had ulterior +motives unrelated to any serious religious feelings. It was one of the two +consistent meeting places where women from one part of the jail could see +and converse with their friends from other floors. +The other weekly meeting place was the movies — that is, if the projector +was not broken. Not even the curiosity that attracted me to the church +services could make me attend one of these insipid Hollywood movies. +Needless to say, it was a favorite trysting place of homosexual couples. +For those who enjoyed reading, the library would have been a saving grace +had it not been for the fact that the vast majority of the books were +mysteries, romances and just plain bad literature whose sole function was to +create emotional paths of escape. During my days of solitary confinement, +after Margaret had persuaded the warden that I should have access to +reading material, I spent a few sessions alone in the library. Within a short +time I had combed the entire place, turning up only a few books which held +the slightest interest: A book on the Chinese Revolution by Edgar Snow, the +autobiography of W. E. B. DuBois and a book on communism written by an +astonishingly objective little-known author. + + After my discovery of these books, my thoughts kept wandering back to +their enigmatic presence. And suddenly it hit me: they had probably been +read by Elizabeth Gurley Flynn, Claudia Jones or one of the other +Communist leaders who had been persecuted under the Smith Act during +the McCarthy era. I myself had been told that if I received any books during +my time there, I would have to donate them to the library — which was a +pleasure, considering the state of that so-called place of learning. As I +turned the pages of those books, I felt honored to be following in the +tradition of some of this country's most outstanding heroines: Communist +women leaders, especially the Black Communist Claudia Jones. +If you wanted books which were not in the library, they had to be mailed +directly from the publisher. I decided to have as many books sent to me as +possible, so as to provide, for succeeding prisoners, literature that was more +interesting, more relevant, more serious than the trash on the shelves of the +library. Apparently, the jailers saw through my scheme, especially when ten +copies of George Jackson's Soledad Brother came in, for they harshly +informed me that none of my books were to leave my hands. They would +follow me to whichever jail I went. +The few remaining jail institutions were even more limited. There were +short exercise periods on the roof of the building. This, I admit, was my +favorite activity, and as long as the weather permitted, I looked forward +with great pleasure to our volleyball games atop the jail. On the roof, in +enclosed rooms, there were also arts and crafts, dancing, and games such as +cards and Scrabble. With this, the range of activities behind the walls was +practically complete. It was amazing, however, how much time could be +consumed in these things, most of which contributed not in the least to the +educational, cultural or social development of the prisoners. The main +purpose of these pastimes was to encourage, in a subtle way, obedience and +submissiveness. +Jails and prisons are designed to break human beings, to convert the +population into specimens in a zoo — obedient to our keepers, but +dangerous to each other. In response, imprisoned men and women will +invent and continually invoke various and sundry defenses. Consequently, +two layers of existence can be encountered within almost every jail or + + prison. The first layer consists of the routines and behavior prescribed by +the governing penal hierarchy. The second layer is the prisoner culture +itself: the rules and standards of behavior that come from and are defined by +the captives in order to shield themselves from the open or covert terror +designed to break their spirits. +In an elemental way, this culture is one of resistance, but a resistance of +desperation. It is, therefore, incapable of striking a significant blow against +the system. All its elements are based on an assumption that the prison +system will continue to survive. Precisely for this reason, the system does +not move to crush it. (In fact, it sometimes happens that there is an underthe-table encouragement of the prisoners' subculture.) I was continually +astonished by the infinite details of the social regions which the women in +the House of Detention considered their exclusive domain. This culture was +contemptuously closed to the keepers. I sometimes wandered innocently +through the doors and found myself thoroughly disoriented. A telling +example happened on my second day in population. A sister asked me, +"What did you think of my grandfather? He said he saw you this morning." +I was sure I had misheard her question, but when she repeated it, I told her +she must be mistaken, because I had no idea who her grandfather was. +Besides, I hadn't had any visitors that day. But the joke was on me. I was in +a foreign country and hadn't learned the language. I discovered from her +that a woman prisoner who had come by my cell earlier in the day was the +"grandfather" to whom she was referring. Because she didn't seem eager to +answer any questions, I contained my curiosity until I found someone who +could explain to me what the hell was going on. +A woman a few cells down gave me a fascinating description of a whole +system through which the women could adopt their jail friends as relatives. +I was bewildered and awed by the way in which the vast majority of the jail +population had neatly organized itself into generations of families: mothers/ +wives, fathers/husbands, sons and daughters, even aunts, uncles, +grandmothers and grandfathers. The family system served as a defense +against the fact of being no more than a number. It humanized the +environment and allowed an identification with others within a familiar +framework. + + In spite of its strong element of escapism and fantasy, the family system +could solve certain immediate problems. Family duties and responsibilities +were a way in which sharing was institutionalized. Parents were expected to +provide for their children, particularly the young ones, if they could not +afford "luxury items" from commissary. +Like filial relationships outside, some sons and daughters had, or +developed, ulterior motives. Quite a few of them joined certain families +because the material benefits were greater there. +What struck me most about this family system was the homosexuality at its +core. But while there was certainly an overabundance of homosexual +relationships within this improvised kinship structure, it was nevertheless +not closed to "straight" women. There were straight daughters and +husbandless, i.e., straight, mothers. +I recall with fondness a young woman of sixteen, with a very intense +beauty, who told me plainly and simply one day that she was going to +consider me her mother. Although I shared my commissary with her (and +others as well) when she didn't have enough money in her account, she +never once asked me for anything. She was quiet, serious and very curious +about the Black Liberation movement. My obligations to her seemed to +consist primarily of carrying on discussions with her about the movement. +Housed with the "adolescents" in another corridor on my floor, she always +managed with a calm firmness to persuade the officers to let her into my +corridor. +Since the majority of the prisoners seemed to be at least casually involved +in the family structure, there had to be a great number of lesbians +throughout the jail. Homosexuality is bound to occur on a relatively large +scale in any place of sexually segregated confinement. I knew this before I +was arrested. I was not prepared, however, for the shock of seeing it so +thoroughly entrenched in jail life. There were the masculine and feminine +role-playing women; the former, the butches, were called "he." During the +entire six weeks I spent on the seventh floor, I could not bring myself to +refer to any woman with a masculine pronoun, although some of them, if +they hadn't been wearing the mandatory dresses, would never have been +taken for women. + + Many of them — both the butches and the femmes — had obviously +decided to take up homosexuality during their jail terms in order to make +that time a little more exciting, in order to forget the squalor and +degradation around them. When they returned to the streets they would +rejoin their men and quickly forget their jail husbands and wives. +An important part of the family system was the marriages. Some of them +were extremely elaborate — with invitations, a formal ceremony, and some +third person acting as the "minister." The "bride" would prepare for the +occasion as if for a real wedding. +With all the marriages, the seeking of trysting places, the scheming which +went on by one woman to catch another, the conflicts and jealousies — with +all this — homosexuality emerged as one of the centers around which life in +the House of Detention revolved. Certainly, it was a way to counteract some +of the pain of jail life; but objectively, it served to perpetuate all the bad +things about the House of Detention. "The Gay Life" was all-consuming; it +prevented many of the women from developing their personal +dissatisfaction with the conditions around them into a political +dissatisfaction, because the homosexual fantasy life provided an easy and +attractive channel for escape. +One of the corridors on the fourth floor, where the psychiatric bloc was +located, was reserved for women with heavy heroin habits. When I caught +glimpses of them during my trips to the elevator, I was struck by their +physical deterioration. Their bodies were marred with leprous-like sores. +These were the abscesses caused by dirty needles. Others had needle tracks +all over their legs and arms and, because these veins had collapsed, they had +begun to inject the drug into the veins in their necks. +The most tragic sight of all was the very young addicts, many of whom +could have been no more than fourteen, despite the age they had given the +police. Most of them had absolutely no intention of staying off the drug +once they returned to the streets. To me, it was beyond comprehension that +they could witness the most sordid effects of heroin while they were in jail +and not be provoked to reconsider their own flirtations with the drug — +flirtations that frequently became full-scale addiction. + + Sometimes women with very heavy habits were brought in and left to kick +alone in their cells. They would scream in agony all night long and not a +single officer would help them. One evening an emaciated young woman +was placed in the cell across from mine. By the time we were supposed to +lock in for the night, she was doubled over, her whole face distorted in +anguish. She needed medical help fast, but no doctor was forthcoming. +Sisters in my corridor began to tell stories of women who had been in +similar conditions and, left alone in their cells to kick, had died during the +night. We decided that we would refuse to lock in unless she received +medical attention immediately. Only after we took this stand did a doctor +come to examine her and take her to the hospital. +There were many other occasions when we were forced to intervene in +order to ensure medical help for one of our ill sisters. The most horrifying +case of all was that of a woman on our corridor who began to complain one +weekend about severe pains in her chest. On Monday morning at sick call, +she saw one of the elderly white doctors, who told her that her problem was +psychosomatic — the result of sitting around all day doing nothing. The +doctor's advice to her was to "get a job." (If you were awaiting trial, as this +sister was, you didn't even get the five or ten cents an hour that the +sentenced prisoners received.) +The sister's pains grew worse over the next days, and finally we decided +that we would have to issue a collective threat in order to force the jailers to +get her the medical attention she needed. We refused to lock in until a +competent doctor examined her. That day she didn't return to the cell; we +later discovered that they had found tumors in her breasts and had rushed +her to a hospital for tests and a possible mastectomy, if the tumors were +found to be malignant. +The negligence toward the prisoners' health was also reflected in the daily +routine of the jail. If pregnant women could not afford to buy a carton of +milk on the three days we went to commissary, the only way they could +supplement the three skimpy glasses of milk they received at mealtimes +would be through our scheming. After I began to have problems with my +eyes (a court injunction had allowed an outside doctor to examine me), a + + special diet, including milk, was prescribed for me. On numerous +occasions, I smuggled my milk to a pregnant sister. +The first two weeks went by torturously slowly. I had the feeling that I had +been in jail for a very long time. However, as soon as the jail routine began +to inexorably impose itself, the days flowed imperceptibly into one another, +and there seemed to be little difference between three days and three weeks. +At six o'clock each morning, the dim lights went on and the gates were +unlocked for breakfast. Eight o'clock was the first lock-in of the day, and it +lasted as long as it took to count prisoners and silverware to make sure a +person or a spoon was not missing. Cleaning, doctor's rounds, mail time and +commissary on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Then lunch and silver +count, followed by the 3 P.M. lock-in and count. Depending on the day of +the week, afternoons were for roof exercises, the library or, once in a while, +a movie. Dinner, silver count, visits, 8 P.M. lock-in and count and all lights +out at nine. +I was fortunate to have Margaret's almost daily visits. John came as often as +he could, and I received frequent visits from the lawyers working with +Margaret on the suits around the jail conditions. They were Haywood +Burns, the Director of the National Conference of Black Lawyers, and two +members of the organization, Harold Washington and Napoleon Williams. +We discussed the progress of the jail suit and the legal fight to prevent my +extradition. John and Margaret were prepared to appeal the New York +decision to return me to California all the way up through the appellate +courts to the U.S. Supreme Court. +Those who had family or friends eagerly awaited the moment, after dinner, +when the officer distributed the visit slips to the small crowd gathered +behind the bars at the end of each corridor. Evening visits never lasted +longer than twenty minutes; nevertheless they broke up the monotony of the +days. +Once my lawyers had pressured the jail bureaucracy to let me have the +regular evening visits — shortly after I was released from solitary — I had +visitors practically every night. Whenever my sister Fania, Franklin and +Kendra Alexander, Bettina Aptheker and other friends and comrades were + + in town, they came in to see me. Exactly twenty minutes after the beginning +of a visit, I could expect to hear the loud announcement that time was up; it +usually took just about that long to get into a serious conversation. +I always looked forward to Charlene Mitchell's visits. She was a close +friend and member of the Political Committee (the leadership body) of the +Communist Party. In the 1968 Presidential elections, she was our Party's +candidate for President. Charlene had had a lot to do with my decision to +join the Party, and over the last years my friendship with her had taught me +a great deal about what it means to be a Communist. When the FBI pursuit +began, without a hint of hesitation, she had placed herself in jeopardy in +order to save my life. It was always frustrating to talk to her through the +faulty telephones, and I was always painfully aware of the glass and wall +which separated us. It would have meant so much to have simply been able +to embrace her — or even to squeeze her hand. One evening, I had an +exciting visit with Henry Winston, the chairman of the Communist Party. +Winnie, as our comrades affectionately called him, was born in Mississippi +and, being both Black and a Communist, he had been an important target of +the raging anti-communism of the forties and fifties. Close to ten years of +prison, during which a brain tumor remained untreated, had left him almost +totally blind. I had never seen him in person before his visit to the House of +D. From the other side of the clouded pane, he greeted me with a very +gentle voice, and I felt he could see me with far greater perceptiveness than +someone with perfect eyesight. He wanted to know about my health, the jail +food, and how I was being treated by the officers. He assured me that the +Party was totally committed to the fight for my freedom and that he, +personally, would do whatever was necessary to ensure victory. +I thought about my family all the time. Not a day passed when I did not +worry about how my mother, who was still in Birmingham, was standing up +to the whole ordeal. Despite my desire to see her, I told Margaret not to +encourage her to make the trip to New York. She is such a sensitive person +that I was afraid that she might not be able to bear the strain of seeing her +daughter behind bars in a filthy, mouse-ridden jail. I was very reluctant to +subject her to the frustration of a twenty-minute visit through telephones, +concrete and the tiny, dirty window. + + Mother was determined to see me, regardless of the conditions. When she +told us she was coming to New York, Margaret worked for days to arrange +for a "special visit" — in the social worker's office. Finally, when Margaret +told the jailers that my mother had broken her foot and would find it +difficult to stand during the visit, they agreed to the special visit. +Experience had taught me to be skeptical about everything. I didn't really +believe that Mother would be allowed in the interior of the jail until the +moment she actually arrived. She came walking in on crutches that +morning, her foot still in a cast. When she put her arms around me, I could +feel the tension throughout her body. For her benefit, I tried to appear +especially cheerful. In an effort to conceal my thinness, I had worn the +largest of the four jail-issued dresses. Even under normal circumstances, she +gets upset when I lose a couple of pounds; during my fast I had lost fifteen +pounds. Though she tried to appear in high spirits, I could tell from the deep +furrows in her forehead that she was deeply disturbed. We talked about the +family — Daddy, who was still at home; Benny, whose wife, Sylvia, and +child I had not yet seen, and Fania, who was now a few months pregnant. +Although she did not say it, I felt that my father was taking the whole thing +rather hard, and I told her to tell him there was nothing to worry about — it +was just a matter of time. Whenever I said something as optimistic as this, I +am sure she must have been thinking about the gas chamber in California. +So I kept telling her that there wasn't a doubt in my mind that I would soon +be free — out there with her. +It was good that the New York Committee to Free Angela Davis had +organized several events in which they invited Mother to participate. I knew +it would hearten her to see that there were many people concerned about my +fate. Several of the sympathetic officers attended a reception in her honor. +This was particularly important, for she could see that even among those +who were supposed to be my jailers there were women who wanted to join +the mass movement against repression. +In addition to these officially sanctioned visits, I received numerous "street +visits." Though illegal, this was a well established custom among the +prisoners. Friends would simply shout up to the jail windows from the street +below. One evening after lock-in, several women from the Harlem Black + + Women to Free Angela Davis gathered on Greenwich Avenue to inform me +about the activities they had planned on my behalf. I saw a policeman walk +over to one of them and obviously issue a warning; when she continued to +call up to me, he grabbed her and dragged her away. + +Once I felt settled in the main population, my thoughts naturally turned +toward the possibility of collective political activity in jail. Many people are +unaware of the fact that jail and prison are two entirely different +institutions. People in prison have already been convicted. Jails are +primarily for pertrial confinement, holding places until prisoners are either +convicted or found innocent. More than half of the jail population have +never been convicted of anything, yet they languish in these cells. Because +the bail system is inherently biased in the favor of the relatively well-off, +jails are disproportionately inhabited by the poor, who cannot afford the fee. +The O.R. program — which allows one to be released without posting +bond, on one's own recognizance — is heavily tainted with racism. At least +ninety-five percent of the women in the House of D. were either Black or +Puerto Rican. +The biggest problem jail prisoners face is how to get out on bail. The +political issue, therefore, is how accused men and women can benefit +equally from the so-called presumption of innocence by being free until +proven guilty. I assumed that this was the issue around which we could +most effectively organize sisters in the House of D. — and, in fact, this is +what we later did. +Originally the jailers had insisted that I had been placed in solitary +confinement for my own protection — the women on the corridor would be +hostile toward me, they said, because of my Communist politics. It was all a +lie. The women were hospitable from the first moment, and they were +loving and protective. Nothing illustrated this more clearly than the +demonstration staged by the sixth-floor women in front of my solitary cell +and the hunger strike which began to spread throughout the jail in solidarity +with my action. Throughout my stay I received numerous written messages +of support from the sisters. (Any written communication between prisoners + + is illegal; these notes are called "kites" because of the shape they are folded +in for easy concealment.) +On the seventh floor, only a few days had gone by when the sisters wanted +to talk about the movement — and this was on their own initiative, without +the least prodding from me. We talked about racism and how it is not just +the attitude that Black people are inferior. Racism, in the first place, is a +weapon used by the wealthy to increase the profits they bring in — by +paying Black workers less for their work. We talked about the way racism +confuses white workers, who often forget that they are being exploited by a +boss and instead vent their frustrations on people of color. On the corridor +and in the recreation room, we had numerous discussions on the meaning of +communism; the sisters were especially interested in hearing about my +experiences in Cuba in 1969 — a trip which had proved to me what +socialism can do to eradicate racism. +One evening, after lock-up, a loud question broke the silence. It came from +a sister who was reading a book I had lent her. +"Angela, what does 'imperialism' mean?" +I called out, "The ruling class of one country conquers the people of another +in order to rob them of their land, their resources, and to exploit their labor." +Another voice shouted, "You mean treating people in other countries the +way Black people are treated here?" +This prompted an intense discussion that bounced through the cells, from +my corridor to the one across the hall and back again. +Although I had ten copies of Soledad Brother, George's letters from prison, +in my box in the library, not a single one was allowed on the +corridor. Some of the friendly officers, however, smuggled a number of +copies in from the outside. These became the most valuable pieces of +contraband in the jail. They were always in demand and were widely read. +When I wrote George of the enthusiastic reception of his book among the +sisters there, it gave him pleasure to know that they were learning to relate +to the movement through studying his individual political evolution. But + + there was one question that disturbed him: how were the sisters responding +to the attitude toward Black women manifested in some of his early letters? +In the past he had seen Black women as often acting as a deterrent to the +involvement of Black men in the struggle. He had since discovered that this +generalization was wrong, and was deeply concerned that the other women +in the jail be informed of this. +Needless to say, there were reprisals for our activities. One sister was +especially hard hit. Harriet had been in the House of D. many times before +and knew her way through the crevices of this jail far better than many of +the officers. I had first met her during my stint in solitary. Her job in the +laundry room allowed her to travel throughout the jail, and she was the only +prisoner permitted to enter my cell. When she came, she always brought +something with her — when I told her my pencil would not stay sharp, she +brought me a contraband ballpoint pen. +Harriet had known Joan Bird and Afeni Shakur of the New York Panther 21 +while they were in the House of D. She was intensely interested in +becoming a part of the movement for the liberation of her people. Later, +when I was moved to the seventh floor, she came each day on her laundry +missions and brought "kites" and news from the other floors. +As the weeks passed, the jailers began to grow wary of the solidarity +welding us all together, and security became visibly tighter. Harriet was +ordered to keep away from my cell and from the other women in that +corridor. They assigned another woman to bring the laundry to the floor. +Until this moment, Harriet had had relatively decent relationships with the +officers, even with the higher-ups. She had one of the most enviable jobs, +for it meant she could go anywhere in the eleven-floor jail without explicit +permission. After she was prohibited from being on our floor, she proudly +threw this "privilege" right back into the jailers' faces. She quit her job and +refused to talk, except with hostility, to the officers who were responsible +for the order. Many did not understand why Harriet took such a drastic way +out — and, considering the structures of imprisonment, this was +unequivocally drastic. She got the word to me that this incident involved +fundamental and principled issues, on which she would never accept a +compromise. + + A real togetherness was developing. I was anxious to strengthen this sense +of community, and I knew it needed more than books and discussions to +thrive. In order to keep it alive, I invited the sisters to join me in exercising +in the corridors. Exercising was an indispensable requirement for my own +survival in jail. Often I could not fall asleep unless I exercised to the point +of exhaustion. +After a few days of doing calisthenics together, we added some simple +karate movements. One of the women who also knew a little karate helped +out with the instruction. It was not long before rumors were flying through +official jail circles that I was teaching karate to the women in preparation +for a confrontation with the jailers. They ordered it stopped, but we found a +way to do it anyhow. Once the calisthenic phase of the exercises was over, a +woman kept watch at the gate while we punched and kicked our way down +the length of the corridor. +As my stay in the House of Detention was drawing to a close, a number of +women's groups in New York began to organize a bail fund for the women +inside the House of Detention. There were women who spent months in jail +simply because they didn't have fifty dollars to make their bail. As this +work was being accomplished outside, there was organizing going on +within. The problem was to prevent the bail fund from becoming just +another service organization to provide bail for women inside, much the +same way as lawyers are provided by Legal Aid. We came up with an ideal +solution: the women who would receive funds from the organization outside +were to be elected collectively by the women in each corridor. When a +woman was elected to be a beneficiary, she would not only have her bail +paid, but would have responsibilities to the bail fund as well. Once out on +the streets, she would have to work with the fund, helping to raise money; +making whatever political contributions she could to the development of the +organization. + +DECEMBER 21, 1970 +On a cold Sunday afternoon a massive demonstration took place down on +Greenwich Avenue. It was spearheaded by the bail fund coalition and the + + New York Committee to Free Angela Davis. So enthusiastic was the crowd +that we felt compelled to organize some kind of reciprocal display of +strength. We got together in our corridor, deciding on the slogans we would +shout and how to make them come out in unison — even though we were +going to be spread down the corridor in different cells, screaming from +different windows. I had never dreamed that such powerful feelings of pride +and confidence could develop among the sisters in this jail. +Chants thundered on the outside: "One, two, three, four, the House of D. has +got to go!" "Free our Sisters, Free Ourselves," and other political chants that +were popular at the time. After a while, we decided to try out our chants. It +was far easier for us to be heard through the windows by the people outside +than it was for us to be heard by ourselves, separated as we were by the +thick concrete walls dividing the cells. Although our slogans may not have +been transmitted in the most harmonious style, we managed to get our +message across: "Free the Soledad Brothers," "Free Erika," "Free Bobby," +"Long Live Jonathan Jackson." +While the chants of "Free Angela" filled me with excitement, I was +concerned that an overabundance of such chants might set me apart from +the rest of my sisters. I shouted one by one the names of all the sisters on +the floor participating in the demonstration. "Free Vernell! Free Helen! Free +Amy! Free Joann! Free Laura! Free Minnie!" I was hoarse for the next +week. +As the demonstration moved into full swing, an officer unlocked the gate to +our corridor and shouted to us to stop all the noise. We refused. They sent a +captain to try to halt the demonstration. She approached me in my cell to +say there would be sanctions for all of us if we did not calm down. Our +exchange was heated. Within a matter of minutes, a confrontation had +brewed. Shouts began to come from across the hall — the sisters in the next +corridor had decided to join. There was nothing this captain could do to +make us acquiesce; every word she uttered kindled our combativeness. The +more militant we became, the less confident she became, and finally she left +the corridor in defeat. +As long as there were demonstrators outside, we continued our chants. Even +after they left, the floor was throbbing with excitement. We were proud of + + the staunch position we had taken vis-a-vis the bureaucracy. In this +atmosphere of triumph, it was a cruel letdown for us to discover that the +Supreme Court in Washington had just denied our appeal, and that I would +soon be extradited to California. It was a Sunday; I assumed I would be +taken back to the West Coast on Monday or Tuesday. +That night, still hot with the ardor of the demonstration, locked up in the +darkness of their cells, the women staged a spontaneous demonstration of +support. "One, two, three, four. We won't let Angela go!" "Five, six, seven, +eight. We won't let them through the gate!" Shoes were banging on the cell +bars; chants grew louder. An officer tried meekly to calm them down but +had no success. A very vocal sister who was in one of the adolescent +corridors was told to keep it quiet, but when she refused and all the sisters +came vociferously to her aid, the officers hit her, knowing that all we could +do was scream. They dragged her away to 4a — the punitive isolation unit. +Frustrated by our inability to help her, we called out threats and beat even +more loudly on the bars of our cells. +Someone noticed a sympathetic-looking white couple on Greenwich +Avenue staring up in wonderment at the building, which was shaking with +the clamor of protests from our floor. We called down to them that a sister +had just been beaten and was probably being put through the third degree +down in the hole. We were bold that evening. We shouted out loud and clear +the names and ranks of the officers who had pulled her from her cell. We +asked the couple to call the underground press and as many Left +organizations as they could to let them know that we were expecting an +even more severe crackdown. (I later discovered that they had spent the +evening contacting everyone they felt could help us.) +A few hours passed and nothing unusual happened. The pace of our activity +gradually eased off until the floor was silent. As I was dozing off to sleep, I +was jolted into wakefulness by a bright light shining in my face. One of the +"friendly" officers was aiming a flashlight at me. My lawyer was +downstairs, she said. They were going to permit me to have a special visit +with him so that he could inform me about my rights with respect to the +forthcoming extradition. It was indeed strange to have an attorney's visit at +three in the morning, but on the other hand, John had been in Washington + + all day for the Supreme Court extradition hearing. He had probably returned +late and now expected me to be extradited before the night was over. +As soon as the elevator came to a stop on the main floor, I realized that they +had just successfully played a confidence game on me. There were white +police-types in civilian clothes casually standing around in the area outside +the receiving room. The white assistant warden, dressed in her Sunday best, +was conferring with some of them. A deputy warden, who at times had tried +to wear a human mask, had been waiting for the elevator doors to open. She +appeared to be in charge of the operation. +She bluntly informed me that I should prepare for a strip search. I angrily +refused. Sarcastically, reminding them that they had told me that my lawyer +was waiting for me, I walked over to the bench where prisoners waited to +be called for visits and took a seat. +All around me was an acceleration of activity, which I pretended not to +notice. The deputy warden approached me once more, this time +accompanied by the woman second in command only to the warden. Again +she told me to prepare for the strip search. Again I refused. Whether I +agreed or not, she said, the search would take place, implying that if +necessary they would use force. The two then left the area, apparently to +confer about the situation with the police-types. They returned several +times, sometimes bringing an officer who had hitherto been relatively nice +to me. While they played the role of the stick, they wanted her to be the +carrot. +As this confrontation was growing more heated, two familiar officers +dressed in civilian clothes quietly crept into the room. When I saw them I +was puzzled. Of all the officers in the House of Detention, they had been +among the few for whom I had had a certain amount of respect. One was +the librarian; the other worked at the front desk, checking in the attorneys +when they came for visits. +For the moment, they were totally passive, bystanders as it were. Just as I +was about to ask them what they were doing in the jail at that time of night, +out of the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of two men in guard's +uniforms approaching me from behind. This was the first time I had seen + + male guards in the House of D. My mind flashed back to what the sisters +had said about these "last resort" guards — the jail's riot squad — who were +always on call for situations where force was deemed necessary. Realizing +why they were there, I jumped up, took a battle stance and prepared to +defend myself. One of them grabbed my arm. I kicked him. When the other +man came to his aid, they both knocked me to the floor. By the time I could +get up, the deputy warden and some of her female helpers were in on the +action — as if two male prison guards weren't capable of subduing me. +At this moment, the two officers standing on the sidelines could no longer +bear their position of neutrality. They both threw themselves into the fight. +Their entrance into the battle was a shock — were they too willing to go to +bat for the enemy? But it was even more of a shock to discover that they +were not trying to subdue me but rather were beating the men who, by now, +were really roughing me up. +The fight turned into a free-for-all. No one really knew who was on who's +side. In all the confusion, both men managed to grab me, each one seizing +an arm. They bent each arm upward behind my back in a hold that was +impossible to break. +Bruised and breathless, there was nothing I could do to prevent them from +locking the handcuffs. I knew that my rights had been violated; they were +abducting me before I had even had the opportunity to learn the results of +the Supreme Court decision from my lawyer. But for the time being, there +was little I could do, except wait until I reestablished contact with my +comrades outside. +My hands bound behind me, I was shoved, protesting, into a side room. +Seeing that I was wearing the sleeveless cotton jail dress and canvas +sneakers without socks, the librarian warned me it was very cold outside. I +told her that my "court clothes" were at the booking desk. +The receptionist got my two civilian outfits: the navy-blue skirt and the +blouse I had been wearing the day of my arrest, and a pair of wool pants +and lightweight suede jacket. But I could not put them on because my hands +were locked behind my back. The two women helped me slide my legs into + + the pants, which I wore under the dress, and wrapped the jacket around my +shoulders. +I tried to concentrate on the concrete. Was I heading for the airport or would +the extradition be carried out by train — or by car, as had been the case with +Bobby Seale some months ago? The uncertainty was nerve-rending. +With the receptionist on one side and the librarian on the other, I walked +slowly through the prisoners' gate onto the cold cobblestones of the +courtyard. My anger gave way to pangs of regret at having to leave behind +all my friends locked up in that filth. Vernell . . . Would they drop that +phony murder charge? Helen . . . Would she go home? Amy . . . so old, so +warm . . . What would happen to her? Pat . . . Would she write her book +exposing the House of D.? And the organizing for the bail fund . . . Would it +continue? Harriet . . . So committed to the struggle — would they continue +to try to break her will? +The police van was waiting in the courtyard, the same van they had used to +take me to court. Through the heavy grill on the windows, I could see +nothing in the darkness. But suddenly, as the van rolled through the +courtyard gates, I heard a thunderous burst of shouts of support. I could not +figure out how so many people had learned I was being taken away that +night. Later I found out they had come in response to the calls made by the +white couple on Greenwich Avenue. + +Not a single light illuminated the gigantic courtyard of the Tombs. All I +could see was the outline of a collection of cars parked in the center, and the +shadows of human figures moving back and forth between the vehicles. The +atmosphere was reminiscent of postwar spy movies. A dozen white men +swarming around their unmarked police cars, nervously awaiting the end of +this transaction, this histrionic ceremony of repression unfolding under the +dim glow of flashlights. +New York removed its handcuffs. California produced theirs and locked +them around my wrists. + + New York turned over documents. California aimed its flashlights on the +papers before accepting them with approval. +New York handed over my clothes and a gray denim bag of shoes. +California received them, as if by accepting my possessions, it was +asserting control over my life. +The librarian and the receptionist, who had accompanied me this far, stood +silently by. It was as if their individual identities were fading away. They +appeared disturbed by their powerlessness. "I hope things turn out all right," +one of them said. In spite of herself, she sounded like someone who must +say something cheerful to a terminally ill patient. +The scene had a choreographed air about it. In the same silent rhythm, New +York moved toward the van and California trudged toward the extradition +vehicle. Something about the undisturbed perfection of this operation was +far more terrifying than the extradition itself. I had to do something, +anything, to disrupt their performance. Impulsively, I stopped short. Hands +automatically tightened around weapons in answer to my little gesture of +refusal. +"These handcuffs are too tight — and there's no reason why my hands need +to be locked behind my back. If you're thinking about getting me into this +car, you can think about changing these handcuffs." +At least I had smashed their rhythm of inevitability. At least I had taken +them by surprise, and with no one to give them cues, they were +momentarily at a loss. +Still startled, and as if he were following the orders of a superior, the cop in +charge instructed one of the others to unlock the cuffs and redo them with +my hands in front. +This caravan without beginning and without end was the epitome of the +insane violence of the state. It would speed through the city, then abruptly +stop. Anonymous policemen would jump out of cars, whisper to one +another, then some of the cars would head in one direction and others would + + go in the opposite direction. When we reached a tunnel, the cars came to a +halt while the roadblock they were setting up for us was secured. +I had not realized how cold it was until I felt my body shivering and heard +my teeth chattering. The man to my right was holding my wool skirt and +blouse. Perhaps if I wrapped the skirt around my feet and used the blouse to +cover my hands, I might be warmer. +At first he didn't object to my request for the skirt, but while I was +awkwardly trying to wrap it around my feet with my manacled hands, he +lunged toward me as if he expected me to aim a gun at him. For a moment I +thought he had gone berserk. Only a madman could think that I might have +concealed a weapon in those flimsy clothes, which moreover had already +been searched by the FBI and the jailers at the House of D. Then it occurred +to me that anyone in his place would have done the same thing — it was the +madness of the institution he served that was driving him to hysterically +search the hem of my skirt and the seams of my blouse. +We had been driving so long I was beginning to wonder whether they were +planning to go the whole stretch across country this way. But when I +ventured a question about our destination, the man to my right, after a bit of +hesitation, said that it was McGuire Air Force Base in New Jersey. So in +addition to armed agents, police, the attorney general's offices of two states, +even the military had been brought in. +We drove onto the base and then shot diagonally across an airfield +submerged in the darkness of the early winter morning. The plane was not +yet visible, only the light shining through its windows. Did they expect an +airborne battle? Is that why they called on the Air Force? It would hardly +have surprised me if someone told me fighter planes were going to escort +me to California. +As we got closer to the aircraft, I saw little clusters of people lined up in a +U-formation around the stairway descending from the tail of the old freight +plane. Agents with weapons in their hands. Shot guns. Rifles. Machine +guns. + + What if I tripped while I was walking toward the plane? Their attack +reflexes would be set off. And my body would be riddled with bullets. +Since this operation was being conducted in secrecy, away from the eyes of +the press, there would be no one to contradict them if they said I was trying +to escape. +With slow determination, despite my locked wrists, I managed a smooth +descent from the automobile. Moving toward the plane, each step was full +of effort. The gun barrels were tracing my path. +Flanked by plainclothes and uniformed men, two women were stationed at +the top of the movable stairs. One was short and thin, with drab brown hair. +Her keen-featured pale face betrayed the uncertainty of the novice. The +older woman was tall and heavy-featured. Her hair had the look of a recent +trip to the beauty parlor. I could tell immediately that she was strongly +committed to her job; a policewoman par excellence. She seemed to enjoy +being in charge of me, surrounded by those armed men who, in the event of +an incident, would have to take instructions from her. +Throughout the trip, she was the one who most conspicuously imposed +herself on me. Each time I shifted position, even slightly, she got up from +her seat to inspect the small area surrounding me. And when I had to use +the toilet, she insisted on stuffing herself inside the tiny booth. As she +intently watched me urinate, I couldn't resist asking, "Do you think I'm +going to flush myself down the toilet?" +She seemed a fitting representative of the government of California. That +state held the dubious distinction of being one of the most advanced in the +country when it came to quelling resistance. California could already claim +more than its share of victims. I could trace the history of my political +involvement there by the number of funerals I had attended. +During this interminable flight I wondered whether I too would become one +of its victims. My confidence in the movement was invaded by the terrible +specter of San Quentin, that fortress of horrors hanging over the San +Francisco Bay as though it were clinging to the fringes of civilization. I +thought about Aaron Henry, the last victim to be strangled by gas in San +Quentin's death chamber. On the date of his execution, his mother begged + + for an audience with the governor. Ronald Reagan felt no compassion for +her. He never even bothered to acknowledge her presence. Sitting on that +plane, I thought of her and every Black mother like her. It took twelve hours +to fly from one end of the country to the other. Twelve hours for my +thoughts to roam from one end of my life to the other. I thought of my +family. What would happen to my mother, my father, Reggie, Benny, +Fania? It had been so long since the days when we were all together — at +home, secure, sheltered. +But had there ever really been such a time? Hadn't the people on that +airplane always been there, holding us with hatred in their eyes, preying +upon our lives? + + PART TWO: Rocks +I have a home in that rock, don't you see? . . . + +T + +he big white house on top of the hill was not far from our old +neighborhood, but the distance could not be measured in blocks. The +government housing project on Eighth Avenue where we lived before was a +crowded street of little red brick structures — no one of which was different +from the other. Only rarely did the cement surrounding these brick huts +break open and show patches of green. Without space or earth, nothing +could be planted to bear fruit or blossoms. But friends were there — and +friendliness. +In 1948 we moved out of the projects in Birmingham, Alabama, to the large +wooden house on Center Street. My parents still live there. Because of its +steeples and gables and peeling paint, the house was said to be haunted. +There were wild woods in back with fig trees, blackberry patches and great +wild cherry trees. +On one side of the house was a huge Cigar tree. There was space here and +no cement. The street itself was a strip of orange-red Alabama clay. It was +the most conspicuous house in the neighborhood — not only because of its +curious architecture but because, for blocks around, it was the only house +not teeming inside with white hostility. We were the first black family to +move into that area, and the white people believed that we were in the +vanguard of a mass invasion. +At the age of four I was aware that the people across the street were +different — without yet being able to trace their alien nature to the color of +their skin. What made them different from our neighbors in the projects was +the frown on their faces, the way they stood a hundred feet away and glared +at us, their refusal to speak when we said "Good afternoon." An elderly +couple across the street, the Montees, sat on their porch all the time, their +eyes heavy with belligerence. Almost immediately after we moved there the + + white people got together and decided on a border line between them and +us. Center Street became the line of demarcation. Provided that we stayed +on "our" side of the line (the east side) they let it be known we would be left +in peace. If we ever crossed over to their side, war would be declared. Guns +were hidden in our house and vigilance was constant. +Fifty or so yards from this hatred, we went about our daily lives. My +mother, on leave from her teaching job, took care of my younger brother +Benny, while waiting to give birth to another child, my sister Fania. My +father drove his old orange van to the service station each morning after +dropping me off at nursery school. It was next door to the Children's Home +Hospital — an old wooden building where I was born and where, at two, I +had my tonsils removed. I was fascinated by the people dressed in white +and tried to spend more time at the hospital than at the nursery. I had made +up my mind that I was going to be a doctor — a children's doctor. +Shortly after we moved to the hill, white people began moving out of the +neighborhood and Black families were moving in, buying old houses and +building new ones. A Black minister and his wife, the Deyaberts, crossed +into white territory, buying the house right next to the Montees, the people +with the hateful eyes. +It was evening in the spring of 1949. I was in the bathroom washing my +white shoelaces for Sunday School the next morning when an explosion a +hundred times louder than the loudest, most frightening thunderclap I had +ever heard shook our house. Medicine bottles fell off the shelves, shattering +all around me. The floor seemed to slip away from my feet as I raced into +the kitchen and my frightened mother's arms. +Crowds of angry Black people came up the hill and stood on "our" side, +staring at the bombed-out ruins of the Deyaberts' house. Far into the night +they spoke of death, of white hatred, death, white people, and more death. +But of their own fear they said nothing. Apparently it did not exist, for +Black families continued to move in. The bombings were such a constant +response that soon our neighborhood became known as Dynamite Hill. +The more steeped in violence our environment became, the more +determined my father and mother were that I, the first-born, learn that the + + battle of white against Black was not written into the nature of things. On +the contrary, my mother always said, love had been ordained by God. White +people's hatred of us was neither natural nor eternal. She knew that +whenever I answered the telephone and called to her, "Mommy, a white +lady wants to talk to you," I was doing more than describing the curious +drawl. Every time I said "white lady" or "white man" anger clung to my +words. My mother tried to erase the anger with reasonableness. Her +experiences had included contacts with white people seriously committed to +improving race relations. Though she had grown up in rural Alabama, she +had become involved, as a college student, in anti-racist movements. She +had worked to free the Scottsboro Boys and there had been whites — some +of them Communists — in that struggle. Through her own political work, +she had learned that it was possible for white people to walk out of their +skin and respond with the integrity of human beings. She tried hard to make +her little girl — so full of hatred and confusion — see white people not so +much as what they were as in terms of their potential. She did not want me +to think of the guns hidden in drawers or the weeping black woman who +had come screaming to our door for help, but of a future world of harmony +and equality. I didn't know what she was talking about. +When Black families had moved up on the hill in sufficient numbers for me +to have a group of friends, we developed our own means of defending our +egos. Our weapon was the word. We would gather on my front lawn, wait +for a car of white people to pass by and shout the worst epithets for white +people we knew: Cracker. Redneck. Then we would laugh hysterically at +the startled expressions on their faces. I hid this pastime from my parents. +They could not know how important it was for me, and for all of us who +had just discovered racism, to find ways of maintaining our dignity. + +From the time we were young, we children would go to the old family farm +in Marengo County. Our paternal grandmother and my Uncle Henry's +family lived on the same land and in an ancient, unpainted weatherbeaten +cabin similar to the one in which my father and all his sisters and brothers +had been born. A visit to the country was like a journey backward into +history; it was a return to our origins. + + If there had been a mansion nearby, their cabin could have easily been the +slave quarters of a century ago. The little house had two small bedrooms, a +kitchen in the back and a common room where we children slept on pallets +spread out on the floor. Instead of electricity, there were kerosene lanterns +for the few hours of darkness before we went to bed. Instead of plumbing, +there was a well outside where we drew water to drink and to heat over an +open fire in the yard for our weekly baths in huge metal tubs. The outhouse +frightened me when I was very young, so I urinated in a white enamel pot +and would go into the brush to have a bowel movement rather than enter the +putrid-smelling little house with the hole in the wooden plank where you +could look down and see all the excrement floating around. +The family ate well; I did not realize then that this was probably one of the +few pleasures that was available in a life which was work from sunup to +sundown, when you were so exhausted that you could only think about +recuperating for the next day's work. As a child on the farm, I did not +distinguish work from play because the work there was novel to me and +because I was not forced to do it all the time. When I fed the chickens, I +would laugh at the way they all raced for the feed and gulped it down. +When I gathered the eggs and fed the slop to the hogs, milked the cows and +led the workhorses to the watering trough, I was enjoying myself. +Going to the country, to the green open spaces of the cotton and tobacco +fields, was going to my own vision of paradise. I loved to chase the +chickens barefoot, ride the work horses bareback, help take the few cows to +pasture in the early hours of the morning. The only amusement available +that was totally unrelated to the work of the farm was the refreshing swims +in the nearby creek — "the crick," we called it — and the exciting trips into +the swamps to explore this wonderful world inhabited by bizarre, crawling, +slimy creatures. +Every Sunday after returning from the little wooden church a few miles +down the road, there would be fried chicken and biscuits baked in the wood +stove and spread with home-churned butter, greens and sweet potatoes from +the fields, and fresh sweet milk from the cows in the barn. +Around the time I was twelve years old, my grandmother died. She had +stayed with us in Birmingham for a while but had since moved to California + + to take turns living with my father's sisters and brothers who had trekked +out to the West Coast in search of the mythical opportunities open to Black +people there. Her body was brought back to Marengo County, Alabama, to +be consecrated and buried in her little hometown of Linden. It was a +tremendous blow to me, for she had always been a symbol of strength, of +age, wisdom and suffering. +We had learned from her what slavery had been like. She was born only a +few years after the Emancipation Proclamation, and her parents had been +slaves themselves. She did not want us to forget that. When we were taught +about Harriet Tubman and the Underground Railroad in school, it was my +grandmother's image that always came to mind. +Not yet having accepted the finality of death, I still had a nebulous notion of +an afterlife. Therefore amid all the desperate crying and shouting at the +funeral, there were visions in my head of my grandmother going to join +Harriet Tubman, where she would look down peacefully upon the +happenings in this world. Wasn't she being lowered into the same soil where +our ancestors had fought so passionately for freedom? +After her burial the old country lands took on for me an ineffable, aweinspiring dimension: they became the stage on which the history of my +people had been acted out. And my grandmother, in death, became more +heroic. I felt a strange kind of unbreakable bond, vaguely religious, with her +in that new world she had entered. + +The summer before I went to school, I spent several months with Margaret +Burnham's family in New York. Compared to Birmingham, New York was +Camelot. I spent a rapt summer visiting zoos, parks, beaches, playing with +Margaret, her older sister Claudia, and their friends, who were Black, +Puerto Rican and white. With my Aunt Elizabeth, I rode buses and sat in the +seat right behind the driver. +That summer in New York made me more more keenly sensitive to the +segregation I had to face at home. Back home in Birmingham, on my first +bus ride with my teen-aged cousin Snookie, I broke away from her and + + raced for my favorite place, directly behind the driver. At first, she tried to +coax me out of the seat by cheerfully urging me to come with her to a seat +in the back. But I knew where I wanted to sit. When she insisted I had to get +up, I wanted to know why. She didn't know how to explain it. I imagine the +whites were amused at her dilemma, and the Black people were perhaps just +a little embarrassed about their own acquiescence. My cousin was +distraught; she was the center of attention and had no notion of what to do. +In desperation she whispered in my ear that there was a toilet in the back +and if we didn't hurry she might have an accident. When we reached the +back and I saw there was no toilet, I was angry not only because I had been +tricked and lost my seat, but because I didn't know who or what to blame. +Near my father's service station downtown was a movie house called The +Alabama. It reminded me of the ones in New York. Day and night the front +of the building glittered with bright neon lights. A luxurious red carpet +extended all the way to the sidewalk. On Saturdays and Sundays, the +marquee always bore the titles of the latest children's movies. When we +passed, blond-haired children with their mean-looking mothers were always +crowded around the ticket booth. We weren't allowed in The Alabama — +our theaters were the Carver and the Eighth Avenue, and the best we could +expect in their roach-infested auditoriums was reruns of Tarzan. "If only we +lived in New York . . ." I constantly thought. When we drove by the +amusement park at the Birmingham Fairgrounds, where only white children +were allowed, I thought about the fun we had at Coney Island in New York. +Downtown at home, if we were hungry, we had to wait until we retreated +back into a Black neighborhood, because the restaurants and food stands +were reserved for whites only. In New York, we could buy a hot dog +anywhere. In Birmingham, if we needed to go to the toilet or wanted a drink +of water, we had to seek out a sign bearing the inscription "Colored." Most +Southern Black children of my generation learned how to read the words +"Colored" and "White" long before they learned "Look, Dick, look." +I had come to look upon New York as a fusion of the two universes, a place +where Black people were relatively free of the restraints of Southern +racism. Yet during subsequent visits, several incidents sullied this image of +racial harmony. Between the ages of six and ten, I spent a part of most +summers in the city. My mother was working toward her master's degree in + + education, attending New York University during the summers. She always +took her children along. In my mother's circle of friends, there was a couple +whose futile efforts to find a place to live had brought them and their +friends to despair. After listening to vague conversations on the subject, I +managed to pry out of the adults the reason for their difficulty: she was +Black and he was white. +Another situation in New York was in even sharper contradiction to the +myth of Northern social harmony and justice. When I was around eight, the +McCarthy period had reached a peak. Among the Communists forced +underground was James Jackson, whom my parents knew from the time he +and his family had lived in Birmingham. I did not really understand what +was going on at the time; I only knew that the police were looking for my +friend Harriet's father. Whenever I was with the Jackson children, they +would point out the men following them who were always no more than +half a block away. They were stern-looking white men dressed in suits, no +matter how hot the weather got. They even started following our family, +afterward questioning whomever we had visited during the day. +Why were they looking for my friend's father? He had done nothing wrong; +he had committed no crime — but he was Black, and he was a Communist. +Because I was too young to know what a Communist was, the meaning of +the McCarthy witch hunts escaped me. As a result, I understood only what +my eyes saw: evil white men out to get an innocent Black man. And this +was happening not in the South, but in New York, the paragon of racial +concord. +Like New York, California was thought to be far more advanced than the +South. During my childhood, I heard numerous stories about the golden +opportunities available to Black people on the West Coast. Great westward +pilgrimages were still being made by the poor and the jobless. One of my +father's brothers and two of his sisters had joined the Black emigration to +the West. We occasionally visited them in Los Angeles. +Some of the relatives had created comfortable circumstances for themselves +— one of my aunts who had gone into real estate was even buying property +in the hills of Hollywood. But another side of the family was in such +difficult straits they were living off welfare. It depressed me to visit my + + cousins and discover that they did not have enough food in the house for a +single decent meal — and that six or seven of them were living in a onebedroom apartment. I recall their asking my father repeatedly if he would +not give them some money so they could at least put some food in the +refrigerator. + +My childhood friends and I were bound to develop ambivalent attitudes +toward the white world. On the one hand there was our instinctive aversion +toward those who prevented us from realizing our grandest as well as our +most trivial wishes. On the other, there was the equally instinctive jealousy +which came from knowing that they had access to all the pleasurable things +we wanted. Growing up, I could not help feeling a certain envy. And yet I +have a very vivid recollection of deciding, very early, that I would never — +and I was categorical about this — never harbor or express the desire to be +white. This promise that I made to myself did nothing, however, to drive +away the wishdreams that filled my head whenever my desires collided +with a taboo. So, in order that my daydreams not contradict my principles, I +constructed a fantasy in which I would slip on a white face and go +unceremoniously into the theater or amusement park or wherever I wanted +to go. After thoroughly enjoying the activity, I would make a dramatic, +grandstand appearance before the white racists and with a sweeping gesture, +rip off the white face, laugh wildly and call them all fools. +Years later, when I was in my teens, I recalled this childish daydream and +decided, in a way, to act it out. My sister Fania and I were walking +downtown in Birmingham when I spontaneously proposed a plan to her: We +would pretend to be foreigners and, speaking French to each other, we +would walk into the shoe store on 19th Street and ask, with a thick accent, +to see a pair of shoes. At the sight of two young Black women speaking a +foreign language, the clerks in the store raced to help us. Their delight with +the exotic was enough to completely, if temporarily, dispel their normal +disdain for Black people. +Therefore, Fania and I were not led to the back of the store where the one +Black clerk would normally have waited on us out of the field of vision of +the "respectable" white customers. We were invited to take seats in the very + + front of this Jim Crow shop. I pretended to know no English at all and +Fania's broken English was extremely difficult to make out. The clerks +strained to understand which shoes we wanted to try on. +Enthralled by the idea of talking to foreigners — even if they did happen to +be Black — but frustrated about the communication failure, the clerks sent +for the manager. The manager's posture was identical. With a giant smile he +came in from his behind-the-scenes office saying, "Now, what can I do for +you pretty young ladies?" But before he let my sister describe the shoes we +were looking for, he asked us about our background — where were we +from, what were we doing in the States and what on earth had brought us to +a place like Birmingham, Alabama? "It's very seldom that we get to meet +people like you, you know." With my sister's less than elementary +knowledge of English, it required a great effort for her to relate our +improvised story. After repeated attempts, however, the manager finally +understood that we came from Martinique and were in Birmingham as part +of a tour of the United States. +Each time this man finally understood something, his eyes lit up, his mouth +opened in a broad "Oh!" He was utterly fascinated when she turned to me +and translated his words. The white people in the store were at first +confused when they saw two Black people sitting in the "whites only" +section, but when they heard our accents and conversations in French, they +too seemed to be pleased and excited by seeing Black people from so far +away they could not possibly be a threat. +Eventually I signaled to Fania that it was time to wind up the game. We +looked at him: his foolish face and obsequious grin one eye-blink away +from the scorn he would have registered as automatically as a trained +hamster had he known we were local residents. We burst out laughing. He +started to laugh with us, hesitantly, the way people laugh when they suspect +themselves to be the butt of the joke. +"Is something funny?" he whispered. +Suddenly I knew English, and told him that he was what was so funny. "All +Black people have to do is pretend they come from another country, and + + you treat us like dignitaries." My sister and I got up, still laughing, and left +the store. +I had followed almost to the t the scenario of my childhood daydream. + +In September 1949, Fania had just turned one, and my brother Benny was +about to turn four. Having spent three years playing the same games in +nursery school and visiting the hospital next door, I was ready for +something different and had pleaded to go early to elementary school. On +the Monday after Labor Day, wearing my stiff new red plaid dress, I +jumped into my father's truck, eager to begin my first day at "big" school. +The road to school took us down Eleventh Court across the overpass above +the railroad tracks, through the street dividing the Jewish Cemetery in half +and three blocks up the last hill. Carrie A. Tuggle School was a cluster of +old wooden frame houses, so dilapidated that they would have been +instantly condemned had they not been located in a Black neighborhood. +One would have thought that this was merely a shoddy collection of houses +built on the side of a grassless hill if it had not been for the children milling +around or the fenced-in grave out front, bearing a sign indicating that Carrie +A. Tuggle, founder of the school, was buried there. +Some of the houses were a motley whitewashed color. Others were covered +with ugly brownish-black asphalt siding. That they were spread throughout +an area of about three square blocks seemed to be proof of the way the +white bureaucracy had gone about establishing a "school" for Black +children. Evidently, they had selected a group of rundown houses and, after +evicting the inhabitants, had declared them to be the school. These houses +stood all along a steep incline; at the bottom of the hill, there was a large +bowl-shaped formation in the earth, covered with the red clay that is +peculiar to Alabama. This empty bowl had been designated the playground. Houses similar to the school buildings were located around the +other sides of the bowl, houses whose outsides and insides were falling to +pieces. + + My mother, a primary school teacher herself, had already taught me how to +read, write and do simple arithmetic. The things I learned in the first grade +were far more fundamental than school learning. I learned that just because +one is hungry, one does not have the right to a good meal; or when one is +cold, to warm clothing, or when one is sick, to medical care. Many of the +children could not even afford to buy a bag of potato chips for lunch. It was +agonizing for me to see some of my closest friends waiting outside the +lunchroom silently watching the other children eating. +For a long time, I thought about those who ate and those who watched. +Finally I decided to do something about it. Knowing that my father returned +from his service station each evening with a bag of coins, which he left +overnight in a kitchen cabinet, one night I stayed awake until the whole +house was sleeping. +Then, trying to overcome my deep fear of the dark, I slipped into the +kitchen and stole some of the coins. The next day I gave the money to my +hungry friends. Their hunger pangs were more compelling than my pangs +of conscience. I would just have to suffer the knowledge that I had stolen +my father's money. My feelings of guilt were further appeased by reminding +myself that my mother was always taking things to children in her class. +She took our clothes and shoes — sometimes even before we had outgrown +them — and gave them to those who needed them. Like my mother, what I +did, I did quietly, without any fanfare. It seemed to me that if there were +hungry children, something was wrong and if I did nothing about it, I would +be wrong too. +This was my first introduction to class differences among my own people. +We were the not-so-poor. Until my experiences at school, I believed that +everyone else lived the way we did. We always had three good meals a day. +I had summer clothes and winter clothes, everyday dresses and a few +"Sunday" dresses. When holes began to wear through the soles of my shoes, +although I may have worn them with pasteboard for a short time, we +eventually went downtown to select a new pair. +The family income was earned by both my mother and father. Before I was +born, my father had taken advantage of his hard-earned college degree, +from St. Augustine's in Raleigh, North Carolina, to secure a position + + teaching history at Parker High School. But life was especially difficult +during those years; his salary was as close to nothing as money could be. So +with his meager savings he began to buy a service station in the Black +section of downtown Birmingham. +My mother who, like my father, came from a very humble background, also +worked her way through college and got a job teaching in the Birmingham +elementary school system. The combined salaries were nothing to boast +about, yet enough to survive on, and much more than was earned by the +typical Southern Black family. They had managed to save enough to buy +the old house on the hill, but they had to rent out the upstairs for years to +make the mortgage payments. Until I went to school I did not know that this +was a stunning accomplishment. +The prevailing myth then as now is that poverty is a punishment for +idleness and indolence. If you had nothing to show for yourself, it meant +that you hadn't worked hard enough. I knew that my mother and father had +worked hard — my father told us stories of walking ten miles to school +each day, and my mother had her collection of anecdotes about the difficult +life she had led as a child in the little town of Sylacauga. But I also knew +that they had had breaks. +My preoccupation with the poverty and wretchedness I saw around me +would not have been so deep if I had not been able to contrast it with the +relative affluence of the white world. Tuggle was all the shabbier when we +compared it to the white school nearby. From the top of the hill we could +see an elementary school for white children. Solidly built of red brick, the +building was surrounded by a deep-green lawn. In our school, we depended +on potbellied coal stoves in winter, and when it rained outside, it rained +inside. By the time a new building was constructed to replace the brokendown old one, I was too old to spend more than a year or so in its +classrooms, which were reserved for the lower grades. +There were never enough textbooks to go around, and the ones that were +available were old and torn, often with the most important pages missing. +There was no gym for sports periods — only the "bowl." On rainy days +when the bowl's red clay was a muddy mess, we were cooped up +somewhere in one of the shacks. Tuggle was administered and controlled as + + a section of the "Birmingham Negro Schools" by an all-white Board of +Education. Only on special occasions did we see their representatives face +to face — during inspections or when they were showing off their "Negro +schools" to some visitor from out of town. Insofar as the day-to-day +activities were concerned, it was Black people who ran the school. +Perhaps it was precisely these conditions that gave us a strong positive +identification with our people and our history. We learned from some of our +teachers all the traditional ingredients of "Negro History." From the first +grade on, we all sang the "Negro National Anthem" by James Weldon +Johnson when assemblies were convened — either along with or sometimes +instead of "The Star Spangled Banner" or "My Country, 'Tis of Thee." I +recall being very impressed with the difference between the official +anthems, which insisted that freedom was a fact for everybody in the +country, and the "Negro National Anthem," whose words were of +resistance. And although my singing voice was nothing I wanted to call +attention to, I always sang the last phrases full blast: "Facing the rising sun, +till a new day is born, let us march on till victory is won!" +As we learned about George Washington, Thomas Jefferson and Abraham +Lincoln, we also became acquainted with Black historical figures. Granted, +the Board of Education would not permit the teachers to reveal to us the +exploits of Nat Turner and Denmark Vesey. But we were introduced to +Frederick Douglass, Sojourner Truth and Harriet Tubman. +One of the most important events each year at Tuggle was Negro History +Week. Special events were planned for assembly, and in all grades each +child would be responsible for a project about a Black historical or +contemporary figure. Throughout those years, I learned something about +every Black person "respectable" enough to be allotted a place in the history +books — or, as far as contemporary people were concerned, who made their +way into "Who's Who in Negro America" or Ebony magazine. The +weekend before Negro History Week each year, I was always hard at work +— creating my poster, calling on the assistance of my parents, clipping +pictures, writing captions and descriptions. +Without a doubt, the children who attended the de jure segregated schools +of the South had an advantage over those who attended the de facto + + segregated schools of the North. During my summer trips to New York, I +found that many of the Black children there had never heard of Frederick +Douglass or Harriet Tubman. At Carrie A. Tuggle Elementary School, +Black identity was thrust upon us by the circumstances of oppression. We +had been pushed into a totally Black universe; we were compelled to look +to ourselves for spiritual nourishment. Yet while there were those clearly +supportive aspects of the Black Southern school, it should not be idealized. +As I look back, I recall the pervasive ambivalence at school, an +ambivalence which I confronted in virtually every classroom, and every +school-related event. On the one hand, there was a strong tendency +affirming our identity as Black people that ran through all the school +activities. But on the other hand, many teachers tended to inculcate in us the +official, racist explanation for our misery. And they encouraged an +individualistic, competitive way out of this torment. We were told that the +ultimate purpose of our education was to provide us with the skills and +knowledge to lift ourselves singly and separately out of the muck and slime +of poverty by "our own bootstraps." This child would become a doctor, this +one a lawyer; there would be the teachers, the engineers, the contractors, the +accountants, the businessmen — and if you struggled extraordinarily hard, +you might be able to approach the achievements of A. G. Gaston, our local +Black millionaire. +This Booker T. Washington syndrome permeated every aspect of the +education I received in Birmingham. Work hard and you will be rewarded. +A corollary of this principle was that the road would be harder and rockier +for Black people than for their white counterparts. Our teachers warned us +that we would have to steel ourselves for hard labor and more hard labor, +sacrifices and more sacrifices. Only this would prove that we were serious +about overcoming all the obstacles before us. It often struck me they were +speaking of these obstacles as if they would always be there, part of the +natural order of things, rather than the product of a system of racism, which +we could eventually overturn. +I continued to have my doubts about this "work and ye shall be rewarded" +notion. But, I admit, my reaction was not exactly straightforward. On the +one hand, I did not entirely believe it. It didn't make sense to me that all +those who had not "made it" were suffering for their lack of desire and the + + defectiveness of their will to achieve a better life for themselves. If this +were true, then, great numbers of our people — perhaps the majority — had +really been lazy and shiftless, as white people were always saying. +But on the other hand, it seemed that I was modeling my own aspirations +after precisely that "work and be rewarded" principle. I had made up my +mind that I was going to prove to the world that I was just as good, just as +intelligent, just as capable of achieving as any white person. At that time — +and until my high school years in New York — I wanted to become a +pediatrician. Never once did I doubt that I would be able to execute my +plans — after elementary school, high school, then college and medical +school. But I had a definite advantage: my parents would see to it that I +attended college, and would help me survive until I could make it on my +own. This was not something that could be said for the vast majority of my +schoolmates. +The work-and-be-rewarded syndrome was not the only thing which seemed +to fly in the face of the positive sense of ourselves. We knew, for example, +that whenever the white folks visited the school we were expected to "be on +our P's and Q's," as our teachers put it. I could not understand why we had +to behave better for them than we behaved for ourselves, unless we really +did think they were superior. The visitors from the Board of Education +always came in groups — groups of three or four white men who acted like +they owned the place. Overseers. Sometimes if the leader of the group +wanted to flaunt his authority he looked us over like a herd of cattle and +said to the teacher, "Susie, this is a nice class you have here." We all knew +that when a white person called a Black adult by his or her first name it was +a euphemism for "Nigger, stay in your place." When this white assault was +staged, I tried to decipher the emotions on the teacher's face: acquiesence, +obsequiousness, defiance, or the pain of realizing that if she did fight back, +she would surely lose her job. +Once a Black teacher did fight back. When the white men called him +"Jesse" in front of his class, he replied in a deep but cold voice, "In case you +have forgotten, my name is Mr. Champion." He knew, as the words left his +lips, that he had just given up his job. Jesse Champion was a personal friend +of my parents, and I was appalled by the silence that reigned among the + + Black community following his act. It probably stemmed from a collective +sense of guilt that his defiance was the exception and not the norm. +Nothing in the world made me angrier than inaction, than silence. The +refusal or inability to do something, say something when a thing needed +doing or saying, was unbearable. The watchers, the head shakers, the back +turners made my skin prickle. I remember once when I was seven or eight, I +went along with my friend Annie Laurie and her family on a trip to the +country. At the house we visited, a dog was running around in the yard. +Soon another dog appeared. Without any warning the two animals were +tearing at each other's throats. Saliva was flying and blood gushed from the +wounds. Everyone was just standing, looking, doing nothing. It seemed we +would stand there all day watching the hot Alabama sun beat down on the +stupid, pointless fight of two dogs gnawing out each other's guts and eyes. I +couldn't stand it any longer; I rushed in and tried to pull the dogs apart. It +wasn't until after the screaming adults had dragged me away that I thought +about the danger. But then it didn't matter; the fight had been stopped. +The impulse I felt then was with me at other fights. Fights not between +animals but between people, but equally futile and meaningless. All through +school there were absurd battles — some brief, but many sustained and +deadly. I frequently could not keep from stepping in. +The children fought over nothing — over being bumped, over having toes +stepped on, over being called a name, over being the target of real or +imagined gossip. They fought over everything — split shoes, and cement +yards, thin coats and mealless days. They fought the meanness of +Birmingham while they sliced the air with knives and punched Black faces +because they could not reach white ones. +It hurt me. The fight in which my girl friend Olivia got stabbed with a knife. +It hurt to see another friend, Chaney — furious when a teacher criticized +her in front of the class — stand up, grab the nearest chair and fly into the +teacher with it. The whole class turned into one great melee, some assisting +Chaney, others trying to rescue the teacher, and the rest of us trying to break +up the skirmish. + + It hurt to see us folding in on ourselves, using ourselves as whipping posts +because we did not yet know how to struggle against the real cause of our +misery. + +Time did not cool the anger of the white people who still lived on the hill. +They refused to adapt their lives to our presence. Every so often a +courageous Black family moved or built on the white side of Center Street, +and the simmering resentment erupted in explosions and fires. On a few +such occasions, Police Chief Bull Conner would announce on the radio that +a "nigger family" had moved in on the white side of the street. His +prediction "There will be bloodshed tonight" would be followed by a +bombing. So common were the bombings on Dynamite Hill that the horror +of them diminished. +On our side, old houses abandoned by their white inhabitants were +gradually bought up, and the woods where we picked blackberries were +giving way to new brick houses. By the time I was eight or nine, we had a +whole neighborhood of Black people. When the weather was warm, all the +children came out after dark to play hide and go seek. There were many +hiding places within our boundaries, which were not less than one or two +square blocks. The night made the game more exciting, and we could +pretend we were outsmarting the white folks. +Sometimes we actually dared to penetrate their turf. "I dare you to go up on +the Montees' porch," one of us would say. Whoever took him up would +leave us on our side of the street as he hesitantly crossed over into enemy +territory, tiptoed up the Montees' cement steps, touched the wooden porch +with one shoe as if he were testing a hot stove, then raced back to us. When +it was my turn, I could virtually hear the bombs going off as I ran up the +steps and touched the Montee porch for the first time in my life. When this +game began to lose its aura of danger, we made it more challenging. Instead +of just touching the porch, we had to run to the door, ring the bell and hide +in the bushes around their house, while the old woman or old man came +out, trying to figure out what was going on. When they finally caught on to +our game, even though they could seldom find us, they stood on the porch +screaming, "You little niggers better leave us alone!" + + In the meantime my playmates and school friends were learning how to call +each other "nigger," or what, unfortunately, was just as bad in those days, +"black" or "African," both of which were considered synonymous with +"savage." My mother never allowed anyone to say the word "nigger" in the +house. (For that matter, no "bad words" — "shit," "damn," not even "hell" +could be uttered in her presence.) If we wanted to describe an argument we +had had with someone, we had to say, "Bill called me that bad word that +starts with an n." Eventually, my mouth simply refused to pronounce those +words for me, regardless of how hard I might want to say them. +If, in the course of an argument with one of my friends, I was called +"nigger" or "black," it didn't bother me nearly so much as when somebody +said, "Just because you're bright and got good hair, you think you can act +like you're white." It was a typical charge laid against light-skinned +children. +Sometimes I used to secretly resent my parents for giving me light skin +instead of dark, and wavy instead of kinky hair. I pleaded with my mother +to let me get it straightened, like my friends. But she continued to brush it +with water and rub vaseline in it to make it lie down so she could fix the +two big wavy plaits which always hung down my back. On special +occasions, she rolled it up in curlers made out of brown paper to make my +Shirley Temple Curls. +One summer when our Brownie troop was at Camp Blossom Hill, it started +to rain as we were walking from the mess hall to our cabins, and the girls' +hands immediately went for their heads. The water was no threat to my +unstraightened hair, so I paid no attention to the rain. One of the girls +switched out and said, "Angela's got good hair. She can stroll in the rain +from now to doomsday." I know she wasn't intentionally trying to hurt me, +but I felt crushed. I ran back to my cabin, threw myself on the bunk +sobbing. +My cousins Snookie, Betty Jean and their mother, Doll, lived in Ketona, +Alabama. I always loved to spend the weekend with them, because I knew +they would put the hot comb over the wood fire and run it through my hair +until it was straight as a pin. If I begged my mother long enough, she would +let me wear it to school for a few days before she made me wash it out. + + Downtown near the post office was the Birmingham Public Library. It was +open only to white people, but in a hidden room in the building, accessible +only through a secret back entrance, a Black librarian had her headquarters. +Black people could pass lists of books to her, which she would try to secure +from the library. +As a result of my mother's encouragement and prodding, books became a +gratifying diversion for me. Mother taught me how to read when I had +hardly reached my fourth year and eventually, when I was a little older, we +both established a quota system for the number of books I should be reading +per week. My mother or father picked up my books downtown, or else the +Black librarian, Miss Bell, would bring them by the house. +Later a new Black library was built down the hill, on the corner of Center +Street and Eighth Avenue. The new red brick library, with its shiny +linoleum floors and varnished tables, became one of my favorite hangouts. +For hours at a time, I read avidly there — everything from Heidi to Victor +Hugo's Les Miserables, from Booker T. Washington's Up From Slavery to +Frank Yerby's lurid novels. +Reading was far more satisfying than my weekly piano lessons and +Saturday morning dance classes. For my fifth Christmas, my mother and +father had gotten enough money together to buy me a full-sized piano. Once +a week I trudged over to Mrs. Chambliss' house, dutifully played my scales +and compositions, suffering the humiliation of being screamed at if I made +a mistake. When the lesson was over, I paid her seventy-five cents and, if it +was dark, waited for Mother or Daddy to pick me up so I wouldn't have to +walk by the cemetery alone. On the other six days, I had to practice before I +went out in the neighborhood with my friends. Around the end of May each +year, Mrs. Chambliss' recital took place either at St. Paul's Methodist +Church or the 16th Street Baptist Church two blocks away from my father's +service station. With my hair in curls, wearing a ruffled organdy dress, rigid +with nervousness, I tapped out the piece I had been practicing for months. +The reward for the ordeal was three whole months without the pressure of +piano lessons. +Saturday mornings I joined scores of leotard-clad girls at the Smithfield +Community Center in the projects where we used to live. There Mrs. Woods + + and her helpers made sure we did our plies and arabesques. Ballet during +the first part of the class, then tap, soft shoe. My natural clumsiness defied +the delicate ballet steps, so I always tried to find a place to hide in one of +the back rows. For a while, my little brother, Benny, was coming along, so I +had the added responsibility of taking care of him. One morning as we were +walking down Center Street, he ran out in front of me — straight across +Ninth Avenue. A bus came screeching to a stop, practically knocking him +down. Trembling violently, I ran to rescue him. He was totally oblivious to +the fact that he had almost been killed. During the warm-up exercises, I was +still shaking. Suddenly I felt something warm streaming down my legs. I +dropped to the floor, into the puddle of my urine, so humiliated I couldn't +bear to look up at the staring faces of the other pupils. A girl named Emma +came over and put her arms around my shoulder. Saying, "Angela, don't +worry. Let's go outside," she led me away. She never knew how much her +gesture meant to me. Still, having to face this same crowd every Saturday +filled me with shame. + +Some years back, Black visitors to Birmingham had all of three post cards +from which to choose if they wanted a souvenir of the Black section of the +city. Sixteenth Street Baptist Church. Parker High School. A. G. Gaston's +Funeral Home. Perhaps the white people who made the photographs and +retouched them in bright reds and yellows had decided that our lives could +be summarized by church, school and funerals. Once we were born, we got +religion and a sprinkling of learning; then there was nothing left to do but +die. +They tried to make this sprinkling of learning appear to come from the most +impressive institution of education around. On the picture post card, Parker +looked brand new, whiter than if it had been whitewashed the day before, +and had bright-green grass painted in front, where the dry dust refused to +yield even a weed. Above the picture, stamped in bold black print, were the +words: "A. H. Parker High School, Largest in the World for Colored Pupils" +— as if there should have been tourists from every region of the globe +coming to get a glimpse of this wonder. + + Perhaps, on its face, the statement was true — I don't think anyone ever did +the research to confirm or contradict it. But whatever truth it contained +rested squarely on the miserable conditions of Black people. If Parker was +the "largest high school for colored pupils," it was for the same reason that +there was not a single public high school in Harlem and the same reason +that the education of Black youth in South Africa doesn't merit a grain of +consideration. When my mother was high school age, the "world's largest" +had been called Industrial High School, and it was the only Black high +school for hundreds of miles around. She lived in the small town of +Sylacauga, at least seventy-five miles from the city. The only way she could +hope to get an education beyond the eighth grade was to leave her family +and move to Birmingham. +My friends and I were not overly eager to enter high school. When we +graduated from Carrie A. Tuggle Elementary School, we had to enter +Parker Annex, several blocks away from the main building. This was a +cluster of beaten-up wooden huts not much different from what we had just +left. +When we arrived on the first day we discovered that the inside of these +structures was even more dilapidated than the outside. Unpainted wooden +floors, ancient walls covered with graffiti no one ever bothered to remove. +We realized that when the season began to turn, we would have to depend +on the archaic potbellied stove in the corner of each house — we called +them Shack I, Shack II, etc. +Very few of my classes were stimulating — biology, chemistry, +mathematics were the subjects that interested me most. My history classes +were a farce. +Farcical not so much because of the teachers' deficiency as the deficiency of +the textbooks assigned by the Board of Education. In our American History +book I discovered that the Civil War was the "War for Southern +Independence" and that Black people much preferred to be slaves than to be +free. After all, the books pointed out, the evidence of our ancestors' cheerful +acceptance of their plight was the weekly Saturday night singing and +dancing sessions. In elementary school, we had already been taught that +many of the songs by slaves had a meaning understood only by them. + + "Swing Low, Sweet Chariot" for instance also referred to the journey +toward freedom in this life. But there was nothing about this in our high +school textbooks. The teachers either had too much on their hands keeping +the classes orderly or else they were not as concerned as our elementaryschool teachers were about presenting us with an accurate picture of Black +history. +The inner-directed violence which was so much a part of our school lives at +Tuggle accelerated at Parker to the point where it verged on fratricide. +Hardly a day would pass without a fight — in class or outside. And on one +warm and windswept day — right there in the schoolyard — one of my +schoolmates actually succeeded in knifing all life from another. +We seemed to be caught in a whirlpool of violence and blood from which +none of us could swim away. +About the time I entered high school, the civil rights movement was +beginning to awaken some Black Alabamians from their deep but fretful +sleep. But judging from the general inactivity at Parker High School, you +never would have known that Rosa Parks had refused to move to the back +of the bus in Montgomery on December 4, 1955, or that Martin Luther King +was leading a full-scale bus boycott there, just a hundred miles away, or +that, in fact, there was supposed to be a budding bus movement in +Birmingham. +Some of us were affected by the boycott, however. On a few occasions, a +small group of my schoolmates and I spontaneously decided to sit in the +front of the bus to show our support of our sisters and brothers. Inevitably, a +shouting match ensued between us and the bus driver. The Black people on +the bus were forced to take sides. Because there was no extensive organized +movement at that time in Birmingham, some of them were afraid of our +audacity and implored us to do what the white man said. +Around this time, the NAACP was declared illegal in Alabama, and its +members were threatened with imprisonment. My parents were both +members and determined not to allow Bull Conner and company to scare +them into submission. Like others who related to the movement, my parents +received bomb threats, but they continued to pay their dues until the + + NAACP was officially dissolved and replaced by the Alabama Christian +Movement for Human Rights, headed by Reverend Fred Shuttlesworth. +On the day after Christmas in 1956, the bus protest in Birmingham was +scheduled to be launched by the ACMHR. Having decided to crush it +before it had a chance to gather momentum, the racists, encouraged by Bull +Conner, pulled out of the closet their old trusty weapons: the sticks of +dynamite we had come to know so well. Christmas night, a roaring +explosion ripped through the home of Reverend Shuttlesworth. They had +planted the bomb beneath the house, directly under the bed where the +minister was sleeping. People said that it was a miracle of God that +everything around him was blown to pieces, yet the minister escaped +without a scratch. We learned the next day that he had taken a neighbor who +had been hurt during the explosion to the hospital and had returned home by +bus, riding in the front. Later that day quite a number of people followed +Reverend Shuttlesworth's example and were subsequently arrested. +I was very agitated during those days. Something was happening which +could change our lives. But I was too young, so I was told (I was twelve), +and a girl at that, to be exposed to the billy clubs and violence of the police. +As the years passed, however, and the needs of the movement increased, it +became necessary to incorporate every man, woman and child who was +willing into all levels of protest activity. In fact, shortly thereafter, the +Shuttlesworth children began to play leading roles in ACMHR's work. +While these upheavals were exploding in the streets of Birmingham, little +of it penetrated Parker's campus. Over the next three years, the movement +reached high points and then lulled. The daily schedule of classes, +complemented by football and basketball games went on. The off-campus +social life of the Black middle class continued undisturbed — except for the +usual, routine racist incidents. +For instance, one Sunday some friends and I were driving home from the +movies. Among those in the car was Peggy, a girl who lived down the +street. She was very light-skinned, with blond hair and green eyes. Her +presence usually provoked puzzled and hostile stares because white people +were always misidentifying her as white. This time it was a policeman who +mistook her for a white person surrounded by Black people. And just as my + + friends were about to drop me off in front of the house, he forced us over to +the side, demanding to know what we niggers were doing with a white girl. +He ordered us out of the car and searched all of us, except Peggy, whom he +separated from the group. In Alabama at that time, there was a state statute +which prohibited all except economic intercourse between Blacks and +whites. The cop threatened to throw all of us in jail, including Peggy, whom +he called a "nigger lover." +When Peggy angrily explained that she was Black like all the rest of us, the +cop was obviously embarrassed. He worked off his embarrassment by +harassing us with foul language, hitting some of the boys and searching +every inch of the car for some excuse to take us to jail. This was a routine +incident, perhaps even milder than most, but no less enraging because it +was typical. +At fourteen, in my junior year, I felt restless and exceedingly limited. The +provincialism of Birmingham bothered me, and I had not yet been swept up +into the Civil Rights Movement to the extent that it could forge for me a +solid raison d'etre. I could not define or articulate the dissatisfaction I felt. I +simply had the sensation of things closing in on me — and I wanted to get +out. The time was fast approaching when, in order not to be outcasts, girls +my age in middle-class circles had to play an active role in the established +social life of the Black community. I hated the big formal dances and felt +very awkward and out of place at the one or two such events I attended. I +had to get away. One way or another, I was going to leave Birmingham. +I discovered two avenues of escape: the early entrance program at Fisk +University in Nashville and an experimental program developed by the +American Friends Service Committee, through which Black students from +the South could attend integrated high schools in the North. I applied for +both and, after some months, learned that I had been accepted by both. +With medical school in mind, at first I had a strong inclination toward the +Fisk alternative. Fisk would not only be an escape from the provincialism I +detested, it would also mean that I could more easily pursue my plans to +become a pediatrician; Meharry Medical School was right on its campus. +And Fisk was among the most academically prestigious Black universities +in the country. It was the Fisk of W. E. B. DuBois. But it was also the + + University of the Black Bourgeoisie par excellence, and I could predict that +my disinclination to become involved in purely social affairs would create +enormous personal problems. Probably if I did not pledge a sorority, I +would remain an outsider. +As far as the American Friends' program was concerned, I had been able to +gather only the most rudimentary information. I knew that the school I +would attend, Elisabeth Irwin High School, was in New York and that I +would live with a white family in Brooklyn. Though I knew nothing about +the school, New York still fascinated me. I thought of all the things I had +not been able to do for the first fifteen years of my life. I could do them in +New York. I had a very undeveloped appreciation of music or the theater; I +could look forward to exploring a whole new cultural universe. +Ready and willing to accept the challenge of the unknown, I was only a +little frightened. My mother thought more about the dangers I might +confront, and though she wanted me to receive a fuller education, she was +distressed about my having to leave home. I was only fifteen and she feared +that a year on a university campus, surrounded by men and women much +older than I, would rob me of the rest of my childhood and make me mature +before my time. I don't think she quite realized that any Black child +growing up in the South is forced to mature "before her time" anyway. But +when she considered New York, all she could see was a gigantic house of +horrors. Elisabeth Irwin was located in Greenwich Village, which, to her, +was the haven of weird beatniks. +My own preference was Elisabeth Irwin High School, New York City, +where I would live in the home of W. H. Melish. But because of Mother's +misgivings, I was willing to content myself with Fisk. We telephoned the +Melishes in New York and informed them with regret of our decision. I +tried to think about the positive side of Fisk: In four years, I would be +nineteen and could attend Meharry Medical School; a few years later I +would be curing children. +With my suitcases packed and my mind snapped shut, I was ready to go +(even if I had not bought all the suggested clothes on the list, such as +formals for various occasions). One or two days before I was to leave, my +father, my dear father, broke out of his normal reticence and asked me to + + tell him frankly what I wished to do. But before I could answer, he said he +wanted to tell me about some of his own experiences during his brief stay at +Fisk. (He had graduated from St. Augustine College in Raleigh, North +Carolina, but had done some graduate work at Fisk.) It was a very good +school, he said. But to accomplish anything there you had to enter the place +with an unwavering conception of what you were going to do. I had to see +both sides of Fisk, he said, its historical significance to Black people — and +its problems as well. +By the time we wound up the conversation, I knew that I would not be +attending Fisk University, at least not that year. I would just have to +persuade my mother that I was capable of defending myself against +whatever dangers might be lurking in the streets of New York. + +For better or for worse, I boarded the train for New York. The trip itself was +symbolic. Getting on in the Black section of the train, I was surrounded by +friends and acquaintances from Birmingham who were on their way to +schools located along the route to New York. As the Jim Crow train moved +through Alabama, Georgia, and up through Washington, my friends left the +train in small groups. Some were going to Morehouse, Spellman, or Clark, +in Atlanta, and the final group got off in Washington to attend Howard +University. At each major train stop, the familiarity of the surroundings +eroded a little more. By the time the train slid out of Washington, I had been +abandoned to the company of strangers and to the strangeness of white +people entering the car and taking seats which had been "For Colored" +throughout the Southern states. +The prospects both excited and worried me. I had already assumed an +obligation to live and study with white people over the next two years, but +could I accustom myself to being around them all the time? In spite of the +fact that, theoretically at least, the white people I was going to relate to at +home and at school were committed, on some level, to fight for the equality +of my people, the impact of racism upon me had been so tremendous that I +knew I would have to exercise great effort to fit into a predominantly white +world. I would have to be open and guarded at the same time. I would be +watchful — prepared for any early sign of slight or hostility. (I did not yet + + know that what I would also encounter was white liberals' tendency to be +oversolicitous of their few Black acquaintances.) But I would try hard to be +at ease, to be accessible to whatever humaneness and kindness they might +show me. I felt an almost unbearable tension — it was as if I were two +persons, two faces of a Janus head. One profile stared disconsolately into +the past — the fretful, violent, confining past broken only by occasional +splotches of meaning, and by the love I had for my family. The other gazed +with longing and apprehension into the future — a future glowing with +challenge, but also harboring the possibility of defeat. +Reverend and Mrs. Melish were waiting for me in Pennsylvania Station +when the train arrived. From the first moment I had heard about them, and +the sacrifices they had made for the progressive movement, I had a great +respect for both of them. At the height of the McCarthy period, Reverend +Melish (who, together with his father, was the pastor of the largest +Episcopal church in Brooklyn) had used his pulpit to defend the victims of +McCarthy's witch-hunting insanity. He had preached about the need for true +Christians to fight all forms of injustice and repression. Moreover, he was at +that time a member of the Soviet-American Friendship Organization, and in +those days, McCarthy and company didn't distinguish between defending +the right of a people to be Communist and being a Communist oneself. +The Melishes had gone through a period of fierce and turbulent struggle +with the hierarchy of the Episcopal Church; there had been the calumny of +the public media, the ecclesiastical trial and finally the loss of the church. +But their suffering had simply made them stronger and more determined. +There were three sons in the Melish family: two older and one younger than +me. One was in the twelfth grade and another in the seventh grade at +Elisabeth Irwin. I felt a little more comfortable knowing that someone +would be helping me orient myself in this school which was, from all +accounts, unlike any I had ever heard of. +I got settled at the house, and tried to explore the neighborhood. It was a +relief to learn that the house was located in the heart of the Black +community — in Bedford Stuyvesant on the corner of Kingston and St. +Marks. It took me a while to realize that Black people too were affected by +the character of New York. You did not go out on the street — especially if + + you were a woman — and strike up a conversation with a passing brother. +In Birmingham, it would be considered the height of arrogance to pass one +of your people on the street without a greeting like "Good evening." But +here, they looked at you as though you were deranged if you spoke to a +stranger on the street. +Before the official opening of the semester, I went with Mrs. Melish to visit +the school and meet some of the teachers. Elisabeth Irwin High School, on +the edge of Greenwich Village, was such a small brick building in the +middle of a block of two-story apartment buildings, that you would have +never noticed that it was a school unless you happened to pass by in the +morning when school was about to begin or in the evening when it was +letting out. +The history of the school impressed me. It had been conceived some +decades before as an experiment within the public education system in +progressive education. When the New York Board of Education decided to +drop the experiment, the teachers themselves resolved to take over the +school and guarantee its continued existence. They transformed it into a +private school, asking tuition fees of those who attended, and made +themselves collective owners of the institution. +Aside from the high school there was an elementary school and +kindergarten as well, located in a red brick building on Bleecker Street, +appropriately called The Little Red School House. In each grade, from four +years old through the twelfth grade, there was a single class, consisting of +from twenty-five to thirty students. The preview trip to the school +completely shattered my ideas of what schools were supposed to be like. +All the teachers I had ever known had been conservative in appearance: the +men had worn suits and ties, the women simple but dressy clothes. One of +the first teachers I was introduced to was wearing a pair of beat-up jeans, a +wild-colored short-sleeved shirt, and tennis shoes, and much of his face was +hidden by a beard. I was further stunned by the fact that I was introduced to +them by their first names. Even the director of the school, a sympathetic, +white-haired, dignified New England gentleman — even he was presented +by his first name. + + Because it was a small school and because a sizeable number of students +had entered it at age four and stayed until they graduated from high school, +there was an inevitable tendency toward clannishness. I sensed this familylike atmosphere immediately and was not completely sure whether I was +going to be capable of integrating myself into it. +In trying to get a more complete picture of this school, talking to the +Melishes and others who knew something about it, I learned that many of +the present teachers had been placed on the blacklist (whitelist?) by the +Board of Education and were therefore not permitted to teach in any public +school. Their politics ranged from liberal to radical, including leanings +toward communism, or so I thought. +Trying to put all this together, I felt as if I were swimming alone in +unexplored waters. I did not know the undercurrents, I could never tell +whether I was in deep or shallow waters or maybe a swamp or quicksand. +And I had no guide who understood my strengths, my weaknesses — the +strengths and handicaps of a young Black woman from the racist South. +As I leaped over the hurdles presented by my new environment, I began to +feel more comfortable at home and at school. When I learned about +socialism in my history classes, a whole new world opened up before my +eyes. For the first time, I became acquainted with the notion that there could +be an ideal socioeconomic arrangement; that every person could give to the +society according to his ability and his talents, and that in turn he could +receive material and spiritual aid in accordance with his needs. +I did not yet understand scientific socialism, but I tried to comprehend the +utopian socialist experiments we discussed in our history classes. I was +fascinated by these groups of people who resolved to isolate themselves +entirely in order to build a new miniature socialist, human society. I did not +stop with the material we read about in our history books. I went to the +library and read whatever I could find about Robert Owens and the other +leaders of that movement. +Perhaps it was the romantic strain in me which attracted me to the Utopian +socialists. Because when I began to consider the real possibility of solving +the problems of my people, and the problems of exploited white people as + + well, I could not find the transition from the real world of oppression and +racism and injustice and the ideal world of communism. Perhaps a few +people here and there might save their souls from the corruption of +capitalism, but small collective, communist agricultural societies were +definitely no way to liberate millions and millions of people. +The Communist Manifesto hit me like a bolt of lightning. I read it avidly, +finding in it answers to many of the seemingly unanswerable dilemmas +which had plagued me. I read it over and over again, not completely +understanding every passage or every idea, but enthralled nevertheless by +the possibility of a communist revolution here. I began to see the problems +of Black people within the context of a large working-class movement. My +ideas about Black liberation were imprecise, and I could not find the right +concepts to articulate them; still, I was acquiring some understanding about +how capitalism could be abolished. +I was particularly impressed by a passage in the Manifesto which portrayed +the proletariat as the savior of all oppressed people: "All previous historical +movements were movements of minorities, or in the interests of minorities. +The proletarian movement is the self-conscious, independent movement of +the immense majority, in the interest of the immense majority. The +proletariat, the lowest stratum of our present society, cannot stir, cannot +raise itself up, without the whole super-incumbent strata of official society +being sprung into the air." +What struck me so emphatically was the idea that once the emancipation of +the proletariat became a reality, the foundation was laid for the +emancipation of all oppressed groups in the society. Images surged up in +my mind of Black workers in Birmingham trekking every morning to the +steel mills or descending into the mines. Like an expert surgeon, this +document cut away cataracts from my eyes. The eyes heavy with hatred on +Dynamite Hill; the roar of explosives, the fear, the hidden guns, the +weeping Black woman at our door, the children without lunches, the +schoolyard bloodshed, the social games of the Black middle class, Shack +I/Shack II, the back of the bus, police searches — it all fell into place. What +had seemed a personal hatred of me, an inexplicable refusal of Southern +whites to confront their own emotions, and a stubborn willingness of Blacks + + to acquiesce, became the inevitable consequence of a ruthless system which +kept itself alive and well by encouraging spite, competition and the +oppression of one group by another. Profit was the word: the cold and +constant motive for the behavior, the contempt and the despair I had seen. +Now I sensed a need to change some of my ideas about liberation. I realized +then that despite my superficial aversion for some of the social activities of +the Black middle class, I had been depending on it to guide the workers, the +jobless and the poor among us to freedom. +Of course, the most powerful impact the Manifesto had on me — what +moved me most — was the vision of a new society, without exploiters and +exploited, a society without classes, a society where no one would be +permitted to own so much that he could use his possessions to exploit other +human beings. After the communist revolution "we shall have an +association, in which the free development of each is the condition for the +free development of all." +The final words of the Manifesto moved me to an overwhelming desire to +throw myself into the communist movement: +The Communists disdain to conceal their views and aims. They openly +declare that their ends can be attained only by the forcible overthrow +of all existing social conditions. Let the ruling classes tremble at a +Communist revolution. The proletarians have nothing to lose but their +chains. They have a world to win. +WORKERS OF ALL COUNTRIES, UNITE! +Quite coincidentally, around the same time that I read the Communist +Manifesto, I was invited by a friend to attend meetings of a youth +organization called Advance. She was a daughter of a member of the +Communist Party, and Advance was a Marxist-Leninist youth organization +with fraternal ties with the Party. Many of the meetings were held in the +house of Herbert Aptheker — the much-respected Communist historian — +with his daughter Bettina Aptheker playing a major leadership role in the +organization. + + Eugene Dennis, the son of the Communist leader of the same name, was +also a part of the group, as was Mary Lou Patterson, the daughter of the +formidable Black Communist lawyer William Patterson. It was Patterson +who carried the petition protesting the genocide of Black people to the +United Nations in 1954. James Jackson's daughter Harriet, Mary Lou, and +Margaret and Claudia Burnham, were already close friends of mine; now +through our activities in Advance we became truly "comrades in arms." +Herbert Aptheker was teaching a course on the fundamentals of Marxism at +the American Institute for Marxist Studies. Along with other members of +Advance, I attended his lectures, which helped me to penetrate the +mysteries in the Manifesto. +Advance participated in all the peace demonstrations that were being +organized at the time by SANE (the Committee for a Sane Nuclear Policy) +and the civil rights demonstrations in solidarity with the movement in the +South. The first sit-ins had been launched on February 1, 1960, in +Greensboro, North Carolina, and had spread throughout the South. After the +demand for employment of Black clerks in F. W. Woolworth variety store +was introduced, every Saturday morning we lugged our picket signs and +literature down to the Woolworth's on Forty-Second Street, set up the line +and tried to persuade New Yorkers not to patronize the store until it agreed +to hire black clerks in the South. +Although I was involved in the movement in that way I felt cheated: +precisely at the moment I had decided to leave the South a movement was +mushrooming at home. In 1961, when the bus carrying the freedom riders +arrived at the Greyhound Depot in Birmingham, I called my parents to tell +them that I wanted to come home — and to please send me the money for +the trip. When they told me it was best that I stay in New York and finish +out my last year of studies there, I was too distressed and frustrated to keep +my mind on my schoolwork. Each time I saw photographs or television +coverage of the police aiming high-power hoses at demonstrators, sicking +dogs on little children, I closed the door to my room so the Melishes would +not see me cry. +They were exciting years — and I have never regretted my decision to +spend them in New York. But they were years of tension. The Janus head + + was still fixed — one eye full of longing to be in the fray in Birmingham, +the other contemplating my own future. It would be a long time before the +two profiles came together and I would know the direction to both the past +and the future. + + PART THREE: Waters +I go into genesis' landscape +of rumblings, collisions, and waters . . . +FEDERICO GARCIA LORCA + +P + +SEPTEMBER 1961 + +erched on an enormous boulder protruding from a grassy knoll on the +outskirts of Waltham, Massachusetts, is a brass sculpture of Justice +Louis Brandeis, his arms outstretched, winglike, as if he were about to take +flight — as if there were nowhere else to go. + +I had come to assume that in order to safeguard its unorthodoxy, Elisabeth +Irwin had spun a cocoon around itself. During those two years in New York +I never quite overcame the sense of being out of place, of being an outsider +who had penetrated that cocoon by accident. Nevertheless, I confronted it +head on. And when the atmosphere became too close, too oppressive, I +could always tear away a piece of the wall and slip out to other worlds — +my childhood friends, Margaret and Claudia, Mary Lou Patterson, Phyllis +Strong; political work in Advance; my Black and Puerto Rican friends at +the Youth Center run by Mrs. Melish in Brooklyn. +Brandeis University was different. There were no roads leading outside. +Its physical and spiritual isolation were mutually reinforcing. There was +nothing in Waltham but a clock factory, and Cambridge and Boston were +unreachable for those of us who couldn't afford a car. +I searched the crowds of freshmen for others who were Black. Just knowing +they were there would have made me feel a little more comfortable. But the +full scholarship Brandeis had bestowed upon me was apparently a guilt- + + motivated attempt to increase their Black freshman population of two. We +three were all female. I was glad that one of them, Alice, lived on the same +floor as I. +Although Alice and I struck up a friendship immediately, it did not +essentially alter my attitude toward the college. I felt alienated, angry, alone +and would have left the campus if I had had the courage and had known +where to go. Since I was there — to stay, it seemed — I lived with this +alienation and began to cultivate it in a romantic sort of way. If I felt alone, +I refused to feel sorry for myself and refused to fight it by actively seeking +friends; I would be alone, aloof, and would appear to enjoy it. It didn't help +the situation that I had gotten very much involved in the writings of the socalled Existentialists. Camus. Sartre. I retreated into myself and rejected +practically everything outside. +Only in the artificial surroundings of an isolated, virtually all-white college +campus could I have allowed myself to cultivate this nihilistic attitude. It +was as if in order to fight off the unreal quality of my environment, I leaped +desperately into another equally unreal mode of living. +During that first semester, I didn't study very much. I told myself that the +courses I was compelled to take were irrelevant anyway. I stayed out of the +social life of the school, or would wander into a formal dance in the blue +jeans I wore all the time — just for the sake of making a point. I called +myself a communist, but refused to be drawn into the small campus +movement because I felt that the politicos had approached me in an +obviously patronizing manner. It seemed as if they were determined to help +the "poor, wretched Negroes" become equal to them, and I simply didn't +think they were worth becoming equal to. +The one thing that did excite me during that freshman year was the news +that James Baldwin was scheduled to deliver a series of lectures on +literature. Since I had first discovered Go Tell It on the Mountain, I read all +of Baldwin's writings I could find. When he came to Brandeis, I made sure I +captured a front seat. But he had hardly gotten into his lecturing when the +news broke that the world was teetering on the edge of the abyss of World +War III. The Cuban Missile Crisis had erupted. + + James Baldwin announced that he could not continue his lectures without +contradicting his moral conscience and abdicating his political +responsibilities. In the meantime, a campus-wide rally was being pulled +together, while students roamed the campus, either in a silent daze or else +screaming out their fear that the world was about to be consumed in a +nuclear holocaust. +Some of them got into cars and took off in a panic, saying they were on +their way to Canada. What was so striking about the students' response to +the crisis was its strongly selfish quality. They were not interested in the +fact that the people of Cuba were in terrible jeopardy — or even that +millions of innocent people elsewhere might be destroyed if a nuclear +conflict broke out. They were interested in themselves, in saving their own +lives. Girlfriends and boyfriends went off together to get in their last little +bit of love. +By the time the rally took place, large numbers of students had gone off by +themselves and they were not able to hear the powerful speeches given by +James Baldwin, Herbert Marcuse (this was the first time I heard him) and +several other professors and graduate students. The point of their speeches +was not to be frightened, not to despair, but to put pressure on the +government to withdraw its threat. +It was good to feel part of a movement and once again be participating in +rallies, teach-ins, demonstrations. But when the crisis was over, things +settled back into their old grooves. During the brief period of protest, I was +drawn toward the people with whom I felt I had most in common — the +foreign students. I became friends with an Indian man, who was very gentle +and had a keen sense of what was happening around us. It was my +friendship with Lalit more than anything else, I suppose, that helped me +understand concretely the interconnectedness of the freedom struggles of +peoples throughout the world. I was profoundly moved when he talked +about the incredible misery of his people in India. As he spoke I found +myself constantly thinking about my people in Birmingham, my people in +Harlem. +I also became friends with Melanie, a young woman from the Philippines, +and Mac, a South Vietnamese woman about to be deported because she was + + opposed to Diem. Around the same time, I entered into a close friendship +with Lani, probably because we both felt so outside things at Brandeis. +Flo Mason, one of my friends from Elisabeth Irwin, and I corresponded +regularly. I don't remember who initially conceived the idea, but we both +decided to attend the Eighth World Festival for Youth and Students in +Helsinki, Finland, the following summer. I was eager to meet revolutionary +youth from other parts of the world, but my decision to make this trip was +also motivated by a simple desire to leave the country in order to get a +better perspective on things. It seemed that the farther I became removed +from my home, my roots, the more restricted I felt and the farther I wanted +to go. +The rest of the year I worked to earn money for the trip. I refiled books in +the library stacks, filed cards in the Biology Department, and worked in +Chomondeleys, the campus coffee shop. And I found a job in a two-bit soda +parlor in Waltham. Having gotten back into the habit of studying, between +my jobs and my books I didn't have very much time to do anything else. +Even my social life — I was seeing a German student, Manfred Clemenz, +around this time — consisted mostly of coffee in the cafeteria after an +evening of studying. +Then it was June. My festival scholarship called for doing some volunteer +work at the Festival Committee Headquarters in New York: typing, +mimeographing, mailings. The Brandeis charter plane took us to London, +where I wandered alone about the city for a day or two before my train left +for Paris. My friend Harriet Jackson was going to meet me at the Gare du +Nord, but a strike threw all the schedules awry, and there I was in Paris +alone, knowing no one and without the slightest idea of how to find Harriet. +After a few days in a dirty hotel in the Latin Quarter exploring the city, and +reading with horror the racist slogans scratched on walls throughout the city +threatening death to the Algerians, I finally made contact with my friend. +She had left a note at American Express in hopes that I would think of +going there. By the time Flo arrived, we had moved into a tiny room on the +top floor of an apartment building in the Sixteenth Arrondissement so close +to the Eiffel Tower that from the one-foot-square window pane, you could +see the elevator rising and falling. The chambre de bonne had been rented + + by one of Harriet's friends who was studying in Paris and had agreed to let +us use it while she was away. +One of ten such rooms, it could only be reached by climbing six flights of a +rusty fire-escape type stairway. Like all the others, it had no plumbing, only +a filthy toilet bowl and a cold-water hydrant at the end of the corridor. +There was just enough space for a bed, a small closet, a table, and floor +room for an air mattress and a pallet. Flo, Harriet and I took turns sleeping +on the bed, the air mattress and the floor. We thought it was crowded in our +room until we became acquainted with the people across the hall — a frail +woman from Martinique trying to live in the same amount of space with her +four robust daughters, ranging in age from about fourteen to twenty. Having +just arrived from the Caribbean, they all left each day in search of work. +Each evening they returned with nothing to show for their day but tired +bodies, a little less money and, frequently, horror stories of being mistaken +for Algerian women. +The three of us rushed around Paris being tourists, doing the things that cost +the least and gave discounts to students: the Louvre, the Rodin Museum, +Moliere at La Comedie Française (which cost one franc for students). +Hanging around the crowded cafes along the Boulevard St. Michel, we met +people with interesting and exciting stories to tell — especially when it +came to their distaste for the French. They were Africans, Haitians, other +Antillais and Algerians. We were introduced to working-class Algerian +eating places, hidden in the network of back streets in the Latin Quarter. +To be an Algerian living in Paris in 1962 was to be a hunted human being. +While the Algerians were fighting the French army in their mountains and +in the Europeanized cities of Algiers and Oran, paramilitary terrorist groups +were falling indiscriminately upon men and women in the colonialist capital +because they were, or looked like, Algerians. +In Paris, bombs were exploding in cafes frequented by North Africans, +bloody bodies were discovered in dark side streets and anti-Algerian graffiti +marred the sides of buildings and the walls of metro stations. One afternoon +I attended a demonstration for the Algerian people in the square in front of +the Sorbonne. When the flics broke it up with their high-power water hoses, + + they were as vicious as the redneck cops in Birmingham who met the +Freedom Riders with their dogs and hoses. +The new places, the new experiences I had expected to discover through +travel turned out to be the same old places, the same old experiences with a +common message of struggle. +After Harriet left for the Soviet Union, Flo and I decided spontaneously to +board a train for Geneva, but ended up trying to hitch-hike with a Swiss +student just back from the University of Wisconsin. It was typical of our +luck that it happened to be July 14 — anniversary of the storming of the +Bastille — and thus virtually impossible to catch a ride. We got as far as +Orly Airport, just on the outskirts of the city, pitched the Swiss student's +tent in a field, ate dinner at the airport and bedded down for the night, with +him outside guarding the tent. Not doing very much better the next +morning, we caught buses and trains till we reached Lausanne, where the +student's mother put us up for a few days. +With its quaint little houses built on ascending levels on the slopes of hills, +Lausanne was the cleanest, most beautiful city I had seen. Now I +understood why the wealthy sent their children to Switzerland. +From Lausanne, it was Geneva, back to Paris and on to Finland for the +festival. The drab, monotonous postwar architecture of Helsinki concealed +the tremendous vibrancy of the youth who were gathering there from all +over the world. +In the brief two weeks of the festival, there were spectacular cultural +programs, mass political rallies and countless seminars on the struggle in +Africa, Latin America, Asia, the Middle East. The most exciting dimension +of the festival, in my own opinion, came from the bilateral delegation +meetings, because they were occasions for more intimate contact with the +youth of other lands. +The cultural presentation given by the Cuban delegation was the most +impressive event of the festival. Not that they performed in the most +polished, sophisticated manner, but because their performance conveyed a +fiercely compelling spirit of revolution. They were the youth of a revolution + + that was not yet three years old. With the U.S. delegation as audience, the +Cubans satirized the way wealthy American capitalists had invaded their +country and robbed them of all traces of sovereignty. They presented their +attack on the invaders in plays, songs and dances. During those days, long +before women's liberation had been placed on the agenda, we watched the +Cuban militia women zealously defending their people's victory. +It is not easy to describe the strength and enthusiasm of the Cubans. One +event however illustrates their infectious dynamism and the impact they had +on us all. At the end of their show, the Cubans did not simply let the curtain +fall. Their "performance," after all, had been much more than a mere show. +It had been life and reality. Had they drawn the curtain and bowed to +applause, it would have been as if their commitment was simply "art." The +Cubans continued their dancing, doing a spirited conga right off the stage +and into the audience. Those of us openly enthralled by the Cubans, their +revolution and the triumphant beat of the drums rose spontaneously to join +their conga line. And the rest — the timid ones, perhaps even the agents — +were pulled bodily by the Cubans into the dance. Before we knew it we +were doing this dance — a dance brought into Cuban culture by slaves +dancing in a line of chains — all through the building and on into the +streets. Puzzled Finns looked on in disbelief at hundreds of young people of +all colors, oblivious to traffic, flowing down the streets of Helsinki. +Though it was the dominant theme, camaraderie was not the whole story of +the festival. In keeping with the dictates of the Cold War, the CIA had +planted its agents and informers in all the strategic areas of the festival, +including the delegation from the United States. (A fact later admitted by +the Agency). Provocations were frequent and assumed varied forms. +Members of the delegation from the German Democratic Republic were +kidnapped, for example, tear-gas bombs were set off in crowds during mass +events and Hell's-Angels types picked fistfights with delegates in the streets +of downtown Helsinki. +After saying good-bye to my new friends, and spending some time visiting +my German friend, Manfred, I returned to the States to find an FBI +investigator awaiting me. + + "What were you doing at that Communist Youth Festival this summer?" the +agent wanted to know. "Don't you know how we feel about Communists? +Don't you know what we do to Communists?" + +*** + +The experiences of the summer still very much alive, I felt older and more +confident as I entered my second year at Brandeis. Meeting people from all +over the world had taught me how important it was to be able to tear down +the superficial barriers which separated us. Language was one of those +barriers which could be removed easily. I decided to major in French. That +year I immersed myself totally in my work: Flaubert, Balzac, Baudelaire, +Rimbaud and the thousands of pages of Proust's A La Recherche du Temps +Perdu. My interest in Sartre was still quite keen — every spare moment I +could find, I worked my way through his writings: La Nausee, Les Mains +Sales, Les Sequestres d'Altona, and the rest of the earlier and later plays, +and the novels comprising the sequence Les Chemins de la Liberté. I read +some of his philosophical and political essays and even tried my hand at +L'Etre et le Néant. Since I had to contend with the isolation of the campus +in one way or another, I decided to make constructive use of it by spending +most of my waking hours in the library or in some hidden place with my +books. +At first I roomed with Lani, but since we both preferred to live alone, she +moved into a single when one became available. Tina, a Swedish friend, +who wanted to live off-campus with a friend, pretended to move into my +room, thus leaving me with the privacy I desired. +Gwen and Woody, graduate students at the university, were in charge of the +Ridgewood men's dormitories. The fact that we were Black and had +common friends in Birmingham made us feel close even before we got to +know each other. If they wanted to go out on evenings and weekends, they +could always count on me to stay with their baby boy while I studied. And +whenever I felt like talking, they were ready to listen and give advice. + + It was a quiet, subdued year on the campus — until the smug sense of +comfort which reigned over this white liberal college was abruptly shattered +by the appearance of Malcolm X. In the largest auditorium on campus, +Gwen, Woody and I sat one-third of the way back, engulfed, it seemed, by +the white crowd waiting breathlessly to hear this man who was the +spokesman for the prophet Elijah Mohammed. Elijah Mohammed called +himself the messenger of the Islamic God, Allah, chosen to reveal Allah's +message to Black people in the United States. +Years before, at Parker High School, one of our classmates had been +arrested for selling a "Black Muslim' newspaper. He was a gentle-looking, +soft-spoken boy who kept to himself. Several times I had tried +unsuccessfully to talk to him. On the day following his arrest, I learned for +the first time that there was a nationwide organization of "Black Muslims" +and, not questioning the prevailing propaganda, I thought they were a +strange sect of people ranting and raving about Allah's future destruction of +all white people — a group essentially unable to help solve the problem of +racism. For a long time it bothered me that this classmate of mine was a +member of the Muslims. I could not reconcile my own stereotyped notion +of the Muslims with his sensitivity. I waited for him to get out of jail and +return to school so I could ask him who the Muslims really were. But I +never saw him again. +Finally Malcolm strode in, immaculately dressed, encircled by +conservatively dressed, clean-shaven men, and women in long flowing +robes. From their manner of carrying themselves I could feel the pride +emanating from them. Quietly they took their seats in the first three rows. +Malcolm, accompanied by several of the men, walked onstage. +Malcolm X began his speech with a subdued eloquence, telling about the +religion of Islam and its relevance to Black people in the United States. I +was fascinated by his description of the way Black people had internalized +the racial inferiority thrust upon us by a white supremacist society. +Mesmerized by his words, I was shocked to hear him say, speaking directly +to his audience, "I'm talking about you! You!! You and your ancestors, for +centuries, have raped and murdered my people!" He was addressing himself +to an all-white crowd and I wondered whether Gwen, Woody and the four + + or five other Black people in the audience felt, from that moment on, as +outrageously misplaced as I did. Malcolm was addressing himself to white +people, chastising them, informing them of their sins, warning them of the +Armageddon to come, in which they would all be destroyed. Although I +experienced a kind of morbid satisfaction listening to Malcolm reduce +white people to virtually nothing, not being a Muslim, it was impossible for +me to identify with his religious perspective. I kept thinking that it must be +a tremendous experience to hear him speaking to a Black audience. For the +white people, listening to Malcolm had been disorienting and disturbing. It +was interesting that most of them were so bent on defending themselves and +on distinguishing themselves from the slave master and the Southern +segregationist it never struck them that they themselves could begin to do +something concrete to fight racism. +Earlier in the year I had applied for a place in the Hamilton College Junior +Year in France Program. After receiving the news of my acceptance, I +fought hard with the Brandeis scholarship office, until they finally agreed to +do the unprecedented by extending my regular scholarship to cover my +third-year studies in France. + +By the time the two busloads of us arrived from Paris, the resort of Biarritz, +on the Bay of Biscay, near the border of Spain, had already been abandoned +by the wealthy tourists. This was where we were to have our preparatory +language courses. Deserted, the gaudy beach-side casinos seemed even +more decadent than if they had been teeming with voracious vacationing +gamblers. The countless trinket shops lining the arcade-covered streets had +a ravaged appearance that was exaggerated by the absence of customers. +The shopkeepers looked desperate, as if they were wondering how to +survive the next months without the tourists' money, and at the same time +relieved that they had managed to survive the summer onslaught. +Walking through the streets of Biarritz, I felt like someone wandering into a +place where a long drunken party had just broken up. The last staggering +guests had already gone home, but no one had gotten around to cleaning up +the mess. The traces of the summer orgy were embarrassing — like dirty +underwear inadvertently left behind — and at the same time infuriating. I + + could see them squandering enormous wealth without the vaguest feeling of +compassion for those whose slavery had created that wealth. +Not long after our arrival, a curious thing happened in the abandoned city: +there was a sudden, massive flea invasion, the likes of which the working +people of Biarritz had never seen before. For days, it was impossible to find +a single patch of land or air uninfested by fleas. In our classrooms, the +teacher could hardly be heard over the constant scratching. People scratched +in cafes, movie theaters, bookstores, and they scratched just walking down +the street. People with sensitive skin were beginning to look like lepers, +their arms and legs covered with infected bites. Like everyone else's, my +sheet was covered with little spots of blood. +If Ingmar Bergman had done a movie on the oppressive, parasitical tourists +who come to Biarritz, and had included the flea invasion in his script, critics +would have written that his symbolism was too blatant. In this city in its +odd position of trying to recuperate from tourists and fleas — in this group +of typically American students which without my presence would have +been lily-white — my old familiar feelings of disorientation were rekindled. + +SEPTEMBER 16, 1963 +After class I asked the three or four students with whom I was walking to +wait a moment while I bought a Herald Tribune. My attention divided +between walking and listening to the conversation, just skimming the paper, +I saw a headline about four girls and a church bombing. At first I was only +vaguely aware of the words. Then it hit me! It came crashing down all +around me. Birmingham. 16th Street Baptist Church. The names. I closed +my eyes, squeezing my lids into wrinkles as if I could squeeze what I had +just read out of my head. When I opened my eyes again, the words were +still there, the names traced out in stark black print. +"Carole," I said, "Cynthia. They killed them." +My companions were looking at me with puzzled expressions. Unable to +say anything more, I pointed to the article and gave the newspaper to an + + outstretched hand. +"I know them. They're my friends . . ." I was spluttering. +As if she were repeating lines she had rehearsed, one of them said, "I'm +sorry. It's too bad that it had to happen." +Before she spoke I was on the verge of pouring out all the feelings that had +been unleashed in me by the news of the bomb which had ripped through +four young Black girls in my hometown. But the faces around me were +closed. They knew nothing of racism and the only way they knew how to +relate to me at that moment was to console me as if friends had just been +killed in a plane crash. +"What a terrible thing," one of them said. I left them abruptly, unwilling to +let them have anything to do with my grief. +I kept staring at the names. Carole Robertson. Cynthia Wesley. Addie Mae +Collins. Denise McNair. Carole — her family and my family had been close +as long as I could remember. Carole, plump, with long wavy braids and a +sweet face, was one of my sister's best friends. She and Fania were about +the same age. They had played together, gone to dancing lessons together, +attended little parties together. Carole's older sister and I had constantly had +to deal with our younger sisters' wanting to tag along when we went places +with our friends. Mother told me later that when Mrs. Robertson heard that +the church had been bombed, she called to ask Mother to drive her +downtown to pick up Carole. She didn't find out, Mother said, until they +saw pieces of her body scattered about. +The Wesleys had been among the Black people to move to the west side of +Center Street. Our house was on Eleventh Court; theirs was on Eleventh +Avenue. From our back door to their back door was just a few hundred feet +across a gravel driveway that cut the block in two. The Wesleys were +childless, and from the way they played with us it was obvious that they +loved children. I remembered when Cynthia, just a few years old, first came +to stay with the Wesleys. Cynthia's own family was large and suffered from +the worst poverty. Cynthia would stay with the Wesleys for a while, then +return to her family — this went on until the stretches of time she spent + + with the Wesleys grew longer and her stays at home grew shorter. Finally, +with the approval of her family, the Wesleys officially adopted her. She was +always immaculate, her face had a freshly scrubbed look about it, her +dresses were always starched and her little pocketbook always matched her +newly shined shoes. When my sister Fania came into the house looking +grubby and bedraggled, my mother would often ask her why she couldn't +keep herself clean like Cynthia. She was a thin, very sensitive child and +even though I was five years older, I thought she had an understanding of +things that was far more mature than mine. When she came to the house, +she seemed to enjoy talking to my mother more than playing with Fania. +Denise McNair. Addie Mae Collins. My mother had taught Denise when +she was in first grade and Addie Mae, although we didn't know her +personally, could have been any Black child in my neighborhood. +When the lives of these four girls were so ruthlessly wiped out, my pain +was deeply personal. But when the initial hurt and rage had subsided +enough for me to think a little more clearly, I was struck by the objective +significance of these murders. +This act was not an aberration. It was not something sparked by a few +extremists gone mad. On the contrary, it was logical, inevitable. The people +who planted the bomb in the girls' restroom in the basement of 16th Street +Baptist Church were not pathological, but rather the normal products of +their surroundings. And it was this spectacular, violent event, the savage +dismembering of four little girls, which had burst out of the daily, +sometimes even dull, routine of racist oppression. +No matter how much I talked, the people around me were simply incapable +of grasping it. They could not understand why the whole society was guilty +of this murder — why their beloved Kennedy was also to blame, why the +whole ruling stratum in their country, by being guilty of racism, was also +guilty of this murder. Those bomb-wielding racists, of course, did not plan +specifically the deaths of Carole, Cynthia, Addie Mae and Denise. They +may not have even consciously taken into account the possibility of +someone's death. They wanted to terrorize Birmingham's Black population, +which had been stirred out of its slumber into active involvement in the +struggle for Black liberation. They wanted to destroy this movement before + + it became too deeply rooted in our minds and our lives. This is what they +wanted to do and they didn't care if someone happened to get killed. It +didn't matter to them one way or the other. The broken bodies of Cynthia, +Carole, Addie Mae and Denise were incidental to the main thing — which +was precisely why the murders were even more abominable than if they had +been deliberately planned. + +In November our group moved to Paris. I was assigned to the Lamotte +family at 13 bis rue Duret, a little ways from the Arc de Triomphe. Two +other women from the Hamilton program lived there too. Jane was on the +third floor with M. and Mme. Lamotte and their three children. Christie and +I shared one of the two bedrooms in the smaller second-floor apartment of +M. Lamotte's mother. Each morning she brought us a big wooden tray with +two large bowls of cafe au lait, pieces of a freshly baked baguette, and two +hunks of butter. In the evening we had dinner with the family upstairs. We +walked through the old cobblestone courtyard to the metro station around +the corner, and traveled underground on the old red trains to the Latin +Quarter to attend our classes. Most of mine were at the section of the +Sorbonne called the Institut de Preparation et de Perfectionnement de +Professeurs de Français a L'Etranger. +In the Sorbonne, I always felt as if I were in church — it was centuries old, +with tremendous pillars holding up uncommonly high ceilings which +displayed faded old paintings. The sacredness exuded by the place forced +thousands of students inside to observe the silence. My business there +seemed incongruous with the surroundings. My studies were devoted +almost entirely to contemporary literature — one course on contemporary +French novels, another on plays, one on poetry and one on Ideas. The only +other course I took was organized by the Hamilton program itself and +required attending the theater each week and discussing and writing about +the plays we had seen. By the time the year was up, I had the feeling I had +seen most of what was interesting on the stage in Paris — including the +Peking Opera and the Ballet Africaine from Guinea. +When the news broke in Paris that Kennedy had been shot, everyone rushed +down to the U.S. Embassy. Kennedy's assassination was certainly no source + + of joy to me. Though his hands were far from clean (I kept remembering the +Bay of Pigs), killing him was not going to solve any problems. Besides, the +Vice President from Texas and his cronies in the oil monopolies would +probably only make things worse for my people. Nevertheless, I felt out of +place at the Embassy, surrounded by crowds of "Americans in Paris" and it +was difficult to identify with their weeping. I wondered how many of them +had shed tears — or had truly felt saddened — when they read the Herald +Tribune story about the murders of Carole, Cynthia, Addie Mae and Denise. +Later on in the year, I accompanied a friend who had been invited to attend +the Vietnamese Tet celebration. That night, two New Year's programs were +taking place — one organized and attended by the South Vietnamese who +remained loyal to Diem and the other organized and attended by the North +Vietnamese, together with the socialist and other opposition forces in the +South. We attended the North Vietnamese celebration. Held in a gigantic +stadium in a working-class district of Paris, it was a grand seven-hour +spectacle consisting of songs, comedy acts, acrobatic numbers and skits, all +full of the vigor of their struggle and conveying a message that did not +require an understanding of Vietnamese. Like the thousands of Vietnamese +sitting around the stadium, I was enchanted. But I was shocked back to the +brutal realities of their experiences by the recurring satires directed against +the U.S. government and its military. The longest and most vehement +applause and laughter were always at the appearance of an actor dressed up +like a U.S. GI, who was the butt of jokes or, in more serious episodes, fell +in defeat. + +Although I was on the verge of receiving a degree in French Literature, +what I really wanted to study was philosophy. I was interested in Marx, his +predecessors and his successors. Over the last years, whenever I could find +the time, I read philosophy on the side. I didn't really know what I was +doing, except that it gave me a feeling of security and comfort to read what +people had to say about such formidable things as the universe, history, +human beings, knowledge. +During my second year at Brandeis, I had picked up Eros and Civilization +by Herbert Marcuse and had struggled with it from beginning to end. That + + year he was teaching at the Sorbonne. When I arrived in Paris the following +year, he was already back at Brandeis, but people were still raving about his +fantastic courses. When I returned to Brandeis, the first semester of my +senior year was so crowded with required French courses that I could not +officially enroll in Marcuse's lecture series on European political thought +since the French Revolution. Nevertheless, I attended each session, rushing +in to capture a seat in the front of the hall. Arranged around the room on +progressively higher levels, the desks were in the style of the UN General +Assembly room. When Marcuse walked onto the platform, situated at the +lowest level of the hall, his presence dominated everything. There was +something imposing about him which evoked total silence and attention +when he appeared, without his having to pronounce a single word. The +students had a rare respect for him. Their concentration was not only total +during the entire hour as he paced back and forth while he lectured, but if at +the sound of the bell Marcuse had not finished, the rattling of papers would +not begin until he had formally closed the lecture. +One day, shortly after the semester began, I mustered up enough courage to +put in a request for an interview with Marcuse. I had decided to ask him to +help me draw up a bibliography on basic works in philosophy. Having +assumed I would have to wait for weeks to see him, I was surprised when I +was told he would be free that very afternoon. +From afar, Marcuse seemed unapproachable. I imagine the combination of +his stature, his white hair, the heavy accent, his extraordinary air of +confidence, and his wealth of knowledge made him seem ageless and the +epitome of a philosopher. Up close, he was a man with inquisitive sparkling +eyes and a fresh, very down-to-earth smile. +Trying to explain my reasons for the appointment, I told him that I intended +to study philosophy in graduate school, perhaps at the university in +Frankfurt, but that my independent reading in philosophy had been +unsystematic — without regard for any national or historical relations. +What I wanted from him — if it was not too much of an imposition — was +a list of works in the sequence in which I ought to read them. And if he +gave me permission, I wanted to enroll in his graduate seminar on Kant's +Critique of Pure Reason. + + "Do you really want to study philosophy?" Professor Marcuse asked, slowly +and placing emphasis on each word. He made it sound so serious and so +profound — like an initiation into some secret society which, once you join, +you can never leave. I was afraid that a mere "yes" would ring hollow and +inane. +"At least, I want to see if I am able," was about the only thing I could think +of to answer. +"Then you should begin with the Pre-Socratics, then Plato and Aristotle. +Come back again next week and we will discuss the Pre-Socratics." +I had no idea that my little request would develop into stimulating weekly +discussions on the philosophers he suggested, discussions which gave me a +far more exciting and vivid picture of the history of philosophy than would +have emerged from a dry introduction-to-philosophy course. +Shortly after the Nazi seizure of power in Germany, Marcuse had emigrated +to the United States, along with a group of intellectuals who had established +the Institut fur Sozialforschung. Among them were Theodor Adorno and +Max Horkheimer. They had continued their work for a number of years in +this country, but after the defeat of the fascists, they reestablished the +Institute as a part of the regular university in Frankfurt. I had first become +acquainted with the work of the Institute through Manfred Clemenz, the +German student I had met my first year at Brandeis. During the summer +after my studies in France, I had spent several weeks in Frankfurt attending +a few of Adorno's lectures, and getting to know some of the students there. +At that time, my knowledge of German was minimal, but the people around +me translated the essential points of the lectures into English or French. +Later I read all of Adorno's and Horkheimets works that had been translated +into English or French, in addition to Marcuse's writings. In this way I had +acquainted myself with their thought, which was collectively known as +Critical Theory. +During that last year at Brandeis, I made up my mind to apply for a +scholarship to study philosophy at the university in Frankfurt. Marcuse +confirmed my conviction that this was the best place to study, given my +interest in Kant, Hegel and Marx. The remaining months of the school year + + were consumed by intensive preparation in philosophy, German language +and the final requirements for my B.A. degree, including a year-long honors +project on the Phenomenological Attitude, which I thought I had discovered +in the works of the contemporary French novelist Robbe-Grillet. The most +challenging and fulfilling course was the graduate seminar that Marcuse +conducted on the Critique of Pure Reason. Poring over a seemingly +incomprehensible passage for hours, then suddenly grasping its meaning +gave me a sense of satisfaction I had never experienced before. +My parents were not overjoyed at the idea of my leaving the country again, +particularly since I had not yet decided how long I wanted to remain in +Germany. Nevertheless, they were extremely proud to attend the graduation +ceremony, where they heard my name called among the Phi Beta Kappas +and magna cum laudes. I gave my mother the diplomas, certificates and +medals and we packed up the things I had accumulated over the last four +years, dropped off my friend Celeste in Providence and headed down the +highway for Birmingham. +Along the way, we stopped at a liquor store where my father bought several +bottles of bourbon to take home with him — in Alabama's state-controlled +liquor stores, the only brands available were the ones approved by the +government. (We always thought that one of Wallace's relatives must be the +owner of the factory producing all the off-the-wall brands of alcohol, which +you never saw anyplace except in Alabama.) We crossed over into +Tennessee very late that night, and because we knew that we'd never find a +motel run by Black people where we could spend the night, we decided to +drive straight through to Birmingham. +In one of those towns along the highway in Tennessee, around two in the +morning, we heard a siren screaming behind us. The fat, tobacco-chewing +cop, letting his white Tennessee drawl tumble out of a grotesque smile, said +to my father, "Y'all know y'alls driving too fast. Git out of the car." All the +time he was fingering the holster strapped to his waist. I thought about the +stories I had heard about Black people or Northern whites disappearing for +weeks, sometimes forever, in these small-town jails. The cop searched the +front of the car and told my father to open the trunk. When he saw all the +suitcases, he seemed startled and immediately asked where we were coming + + from. After my father said that he had just attended his daughter's college +graduation, the cop assumed a less slovenly posture and became more +official. But when he saw the bourbon, his eyes lit up. +"This is a dry county, y'all know. No liquor allowed nowhere in the +jurisdiction." +"The bottles are unopened and we're only passing through," my father +insisted. +"Don't make no difference. The county is dry and ain't no liquor allowed no +kind of way. Y'all can do thirty days in jail for this. And the judge ain't even +in town — won't be back till next week. Look like y'all gone have to stay in +jail till he get back." +When my father talked about getting in touch with his lawyer, the cop said, +"I tell you what. I'm gon do you a favor. Treat ya like I treat my boys +around here. Git back in the car and follow me into town." He took the +whiskey to the patrol car. +Thinking we were headed for the police station, and knowing that it would +be fatal to try to get away, we followed the police car through the dark +streets. When it came to a halt, there was nothing around which bore the +faintest resemblance to a police station. We were in an unpaved alley and +the cop was opening a garage door. Although this wasn't the first time we +had been trapped into a situation like this, we were all silently nervous. +"Davis," my mother said, "I don't think you should go in there. There's no +telling what he might try to do." But there wasn't the slightest trace of fear +in my father — in fact, I have never seen him afraid of anything. He went +on in while we waited on tenterhooks in the car. After what seemed like +hours he came out with a wry smile on his face. Starting up the car, he told +us, chuckling, "All the man wanted was the liquor and twenty dollars." It +was a small-time racket which he probably pulled whenever he caught up +with Black people driving through the town. The alternative to giving him +the twenty dollars would probably have been much more terrible than the +thirty days in jail. + + When I boarded the boat sailing for Germany, Watts was burning. I felt +again the tension of the Janus head — leaving the country at that time was +hard for me. But in a little more than a week, I was on the other side of the +ocean. +My stipend consisted of the boat fare and a hundred dollars a month — for +rent, food, tram fare to and from the university, books, and whatever else I +needed. +As I searched the city for a room, the agencies kept telling me, "Es tut uns +leid, aber wir haben keine Zimmer fur Auslander." "Sorry but we don't have +rooms for foreigners," their attitude clearly implying, "Our rooms are only +for good Aryans." +In historical time, twenty years is not very long — half the people I saw on +the streets, and practically all the adults, had gone through the experience of +Hitler. And in West Germany, unlike the German Democratic Republic, +there had been no determined campaign to attack the fascist and racist +attitudes which had become so deeply embedded. +Eventually, after days of reading the fine print of the Frankfurter +Allgemeiner, I found a little room near the zoo, on the top floor of a postwar +apartment building — like the chambre de bonne I had lived in in Paris. +The family to whose apartment the room was attached seemed to be +exceptional, as far as the masses of West Germans were concerned. They +were curious and concerned about the condition of Black people in the +United States and they never failed to draw the appropriate parallels +between the Nazi oppression of the Jews in their country and the repression +of my people in the United States. They repeatedly invited me to their +apartment for dinner and discussions. In the beginning when my German +was not very polished, these discussions helped me orient myself to the +language. +During the first few weeks, I didn't understand a word of what Adorno was +saying. Not only were the concepts difficult to grasp, but he spoke his own +special aphoristic variety of German. It was a consolation to discover that + + most German students attending his lectures for the first time were having +almost as much trouble understanding Adorno as I. +I saw old friends from previous trips to Europe, and entered into new +friendships as well. It was a great relief to find that not too far from me +lived a young Black man from Indiana who had been stationed in Frankfurt +as a GI and had decided to stay on to pursue his studies in literature at the +university. We were good friends throughout my stay in Germany. I was +friendly with a group of Haitian students, a Black South African and two +couples who, like myself, had come from the United States to study with +Adorno. +I was paying eighty marks a month for my room — practically a quarter of +the hundred dollars I had to live on. Almost inevitably, when the end of the +month approached, I was eating nothing but Quark (something between +yogurt and cottage cheese), and writing my parents for a few dollars to tide +me over until the next check came in. I was very relieved to find a room on +Adalbertstrasse, near the university, which cost only a few marks a month. +It was in a massive old building of crumbling red brick, an abandoned +factory which the owner rented out I imagine in order to avoid paying a +watchman. +The three floors of one side were occupied by a sculptor who fashioned +huge abstract metal forms which he kept in the courtyard. The side I moved +into had been taken over by a group of students, all as poor as I. The entire +place cost us seventy-five marks (less than twenty dollars) a month, and it +could comfortably accommodate up to five people in the little nooks that +had served as offices when the factory was in operation. +It was a dilapidated old abandoned building with dirty cement floors, no +showers — not even hot water — and no central heating, only potbellied +coal stoves. But paying only about five dollars a month for rent and a few +more dollars for coal during the winter months, I could afford to eat a little +better — even buying meat a couple of days a week — and was able to buy +more books and a new blouse once in a while. As throughout Europe, +cultural events could always be attended by students at a great discount, so +for about fifty cents, I could see a movie or go to the theater, the opera, the +ballet or a museum. + + During the spring of my first year there, all the students who had received +scholarships from the exchange program were given a trip to Berlin from +whatever section of Germany they happened to be living in. Anxious to see +Socialist Germany, I spent most of the time in Berlin, the capital of the +German Democratic Republic. Each day, I walked across at Checkpoint +Charlie — the border point for people with passports from capitalist +countries. Crowds of white tourists from the United States would be +standing in line, probably waiting to cross the border in order to tell people +they had seen the other side of the "wall" — so they could say, in Kennedy's +war-filled words, "Ich bin ein Berliner," that is, I am ready to fight +communism. The tourists were always complaining about the wait. But I +never had any trouble — each time I went across, I would receive the signal +to go on only a few moments after I had shown my passport. This was their +way of showing their solidarity with Black people. +Claudia and Margaret Burnham's stepbrother Bob had recently come +through Frankfurt, stayed a while at the "factory" and then gone on to study +at the Brecht Theater in Berlin. Through him, I was introduced to several +people in the GDR who showed me around the city. Living in Bob's +apartment building was a group of Cubans — the national director of the +ballet and several of his assistants. I was amazed at their youth — the +director was in his early twenties and the rest around the same age. They +talked about their efforts to more fully integrate the African element of +Cuban culture into their classical dances and described the way in which +they were developing the old Yoruba dances which, before the revolution, +had been restricted to the remote areas of the country where Black people +still retained African customs. +Esther and James Jackson, old friends of my parents from Birmingham, +were in Berlin at the time. Jim, the International Affairs Director of the +Communist Party, U.S.A., was representing the party at the May Day +celebration. I spent an evening with them. We talked about the old days +when Jim had been underground, and how puzzled I had been as a child, +seeing those sinister white men following us all over New York looking for +him; Jim was one of the lucky ones whom the FBI never succeeded in +tracking down. We discussed the socialist transformation of the GDR and +its active campaign against the remnants of fascism in the mentality of the + + people. The next day I watched the parade, participated in the May Day +Festivities and then went on back through Checkpoint Charlie to catch my +plane for Frankfurt. +When the West German police said they were going to detain me at the +airport, I was certain they were going to accuse me of being too friendly +with the people in the GDR — and, of course, they would have been +correct. But, according to them, the reason they wouldn't let me board the +plane had to do with my failure to check out with the Frankfurt police when +I had moved, some months before, out of the room near the zoo, and had +not registered with the police station near the factory. I could never get used +to the incredible bureaucracy in which one must become embroiled merely +as a prerequisite for living an ordinary life. Everyone, citizen or foreigner, +not registered at the nearest police station — and there was no lack of them +— was technically liable to arrest, including those visiting with friends for +only a few days. Although I had registered when I moved into the first place +(the process is called Anmeldung — announcing one's arrival), it had not +crossed my mind to tell them I was leaving (called Ausmeldung) and to go +through the Anmeldung at the Adalbertstrasse police station. The West +Berlin police were serious: they were talking about deporting me. It took +several hours before I could persuade them that my failure to register had +been an innocent omission. After it was all over and they had left the threat +of deportation hanging over me unless I cleared myself the next day with +the Frankfurt police, I was still positive that the harassment was a little +retaliatory action for my trip to the GDR. + +Frankfurt was a very intensive learning experience. Stimulating lectures and +seminars conducted by Theodor Adorno, Jurgen Habermass, Professor +Haag, Alfred Schmidt, Oscar Negt. Tackling formidable works, such as all +three of Kant's Critiques and the works of Hegel and Marx as well (in one +seminar, we spent an entire semester analyzing about twenty pages of +Hegel's Logic). +Most of the students living in the factory studied either philosophy or +sociology. Many were members of S.D.S. — Sozialistischer Deutscher +Studentenbund, the German Socialist Student League. And they were very + + seriously striving to arrive at some form of practical resistance capable of +ultimately overturning the enemy system. Aside from the concern with the +social contradictions inside their own country, they consistently tried to +force an internationist awareness among their members. I participated in +rallies and demonstrations directed against U.S. aggression in Vietnam. +Those of us who were not citizens had to be especially careful because an +arrest would mean a sure deportation. One demonstration, which took place +outside the U.S. Embassy, was particularly dangerous. Chanting "U.S. raus, +U.S. raus, U.S. raus aus Vietnam!" and "Ho, Ho, Ho Chi Minh!" the crowds +of demonstrators were attacked almost immediately by mounted police. +One young woman was trampled under the hooves of the horses. Since it +had been decided beforehand that we would resist this expected attack, the +agreed upon hit-and-run, disruptive tactics were put into operation. The idea +was to move along the main street leading to the center of the city, +disrupting the functioning of the tramway. As the crowds of demonstrators +marched down the main street on the sidewalks on both sides of the street, +some would periodically separate from the group and sit down on the +tramway tracks. Watching the approach of the police, they waited until the +very last moment to run into the refuge of the crowd. Not all of us made it. +When it was my turn to do the sitting and running, I had to make sure I was +fast enough to reach the safety of the crowd, not wanting to have a case +foisted upon me by the West German courts. After several hours of sitting +and running, and a sizeable number of arrests, we made it to the +Hauptwache, the center of the city, and listened to an arousing speech by +Rudi Dutsche, the Chairman of S.D.S., who was later shot in the head by a +would-be assassin who said he was inspired by the assassination of Martin +Luther King. +Toward the end of my second year, a mass student demonstration, organized +by S.D.S. in Berlin protesting the visit by the Shah of Iran, was attacked by +the Shah's security, aided by the West Berlin police, with such terrible force +that it ended in the death of a student — Ben Ohnesorge, who was attending +his first political protest. The response throughout West Germany was swift +and intense. In Frankfurt, there were mass gatherings, demonstrations and +teach-ins. + + I was most impressed by the consciousness of the student movement when I +heard about the Berlin campaign led by S.D.S. against the movie Africa +Adio, directed by two Roman playboy-types, dealing with the ousting of the +colonialists from Africa. Not only was this movie thoroughly racist in that it +depicted the African Liberation Fighters as aggressors against the pure, +educated, civilized whites, but the directors went so far as to stage actual +killings in order to do on-the-spot documentary coverage of Africa. S.D.S. +members in Berlin tore up a theater which refused to boycott the film. +Students and workers were being drawn en masse into the arena of political +protest in Germany. At the same time, great upheavals were taking place in +the States. +My decision to study in Frankfurt had been made in 1964, against the +backdrop of relative political tranquility. But by the time I left in the +summer of 1965, thousands of sisters and brothers were screaming in the +streets of Los Angeles that they had observed the rules of the game long +enough, too long. +Watts was exploding; furiously burning. And out of the ashes of Watts, +Phoenix-like, a new Black militancy was being born. +While I was hidden away in West Germany the Black Liberation Movement +was undergoing decisive metamorphoses. The slogan "Black Power" sprang +out of a march in Mississippi. Organizations were being transfigured — The +Student Non-Violent Coordinating Committee, a leading civil rights +organization, was becoming the foremost advocate of "Black Power." The +Congress on Racial Equality was undergoing similar transformations. In +Newark, a national Black Power Conference had been organized. In +political groups, labor unions, churches and other organizations, Black +caucuses were being formed to defend the special interests of Black people. +Everywhere there were upheavals. +While I was reading philosophy in Frankfurt, and participating in the +rearguard of S.D.S., there were young Black men in Oakland, California, +who had decided that they had to wield arms in order to protect the +residents of Oakland's Black community from the indiscriminate police +brutality ravaging the area. Huey Newton, Bobby Seale, li'l Bobby Hutton + + — those were some of the names that reached me. One day in Frankfurt I +read about their entrance into the California Legislature in Sacramento with +their weapons in order to safeguard their right (a right given to all whites) to +carry them as instruments of self-defense. The name of this organization +was the Black Panther Party for Self-Defense. +The more the struggles at home accelerated, the more frustrated I felt at +being forced to experience it all vicariously. I was advancing my studies, +deepening my understanding of philosophy, but I felt more and more +isolated. I was so far away from the terrain of the fight that I could not even +analyze the episodes of the struggle. I did not even have the knowledge or +understanding to judge which currents of the movement were progressive +and genuine and which were not. It was a difficult balance I was trying to +maintain, and it was increasingly hard to feel a part of the collective coming +to consciousness of my people. +I am certain that what I was feeling was a variation and reflection of the +same feelings that were overwhelming larger and larger numbers of Black +people abroad. Many others of us must have felt pained, when reading +about some new crisis in the struggle at home, to be hearing about it +secondhand. +I had thought mine was the perfect dilemma: the struggle at home versus +the need to remain in Frankfurt until the completion of my doctorate, for I +was certain that Frankfurt was far more conducive to philosophical studies +than any other place. But each day it was becoming clearer to me that my +ability to accomplish anything was directly dependent on my ability to +contribute something concrete to the struggle. +Adorno had readily agreed to direct my work on a doctoral dissertation. But +now I felt it would be impossible for me to stay in Germany any longer. +Two years was enough. I arranged for an appointment with Adorno at the +Institute and explained to him that I had to go home. In my correspondence +with Marcuse, he had already agreed to work with me at the University of +California in San Diego, where he had accepted a position after having been +practically pushed out of Brandeis for political reasons. I wanted to +continue my academic work, but I knew I could not do it unless I was + + politically involved. The struggle was a life-nerve; our only hope for +survival. I made up my mind. The journey was on. + + PART FOUR: Flames +fire eaters from the sun +we shall lay the high white dome to siege +cover screams with holy wings, in those days +we shall be terrible +HENRY DUMAS + +I + +t was the summer of 1967. On the way home I stopped off in London to +attend a conference where Herbert Marcuse and Stokely Carmichael +were among the main speakers. It was good to talk to Herbert and his wife +Inge, whom I had not seen for quite some time, and I was looking forward +to hearing Stokely's presentation. Convened around the theme "The +Dialectics of Liberation," the conference was headquartered in a huge +railroad turntable called the Roundhouse. The gathering was an unlikely +conglomeration of Marxist theoreticians, philosophers, sociologists and +psychologists, radical political activists, hippies and Black Power +advocates. In the enormous barn-like structure, its floor covered with +sawdust, the air reeked heavily of marijuana, and there were rumors that +one speaker, a psychologist, was high on acid. Stokely Carmichael and +Michael X, the militant West Indian leader of community struggles in +London, were the two central figures of the small Black contingent in +attendance. +My natural hair style, in those days still a rarity, identified me as a +sympathizer with the Black Power Movement. Immediately I was +approached by the group around Michael and Stokely. +Between conference sessions I spent my time with Stokely and Michael X's +group, accompanied them to meetings in London ghettos, helping on +occasion to pull the gatherings together. I was struck by the degree to which +West Indian communities in London were mirror images of Black +communities at home. These warm, receptive, fiery, enthusiastic people + + were also searching for some way to avenge themselves. As in the United +States, there was a natural inclination to identify the enemy as the white +man. Natural because the great majority of white people, both in the United +States and England, have been carriers of the racism which, in reality, +benefits only a small number of them — the capitalists. Because the masses +of white people harbor racist attitudes, our people tended to see them as the +villains and not the institutionalized forms of racism, which, though +definitely reinforced by prejudiced attitudes, serve, fundamentally, only the +interests of the rulers. When white people are indiscriminantly viewed as +the enemy, it is virtually impossible to develop a political solution. Such +were my thoughts as I moved through the conference. I learned more about +the new movement there in London than from all the reading I had done. I +was learning that as long as the Black response to racism remained purely +emotional, we would go nowhere. Like the playground fights at Parker +High, like the sporadic headless anger of those who fell under police clubs +in Alabama — it would solve nothing in the long run. +As I listened to Stokely's words, cutting like a switchblade, accusing the +enemy as I had never heard him accused before, I admit I felt the cathartic +power of his speech. But I also wanted to know where to go from there. I +was distressed to discover that among some of the Black leaders there was +the tendency to completely dismiss Marxism as "the white man's thing." It +had been clear to me for a long time that in order to achieve its ultimate +goals, the Black Liberation struggle would have to become a part of a +revolutionary movement, embracing all working people. It was also clear to +me that this movement must push in the direction of socialism. And I knew +that Black people — Black workers — had an important leadership role to +play in the overall fight. Therefore I found it disappointing that the +nationalist posture of the Black leaders in London involved a strong +resistance to socialism. I was encouraged, however, to learn that Stokely +was about to make a trip to Cuba. Once he saw Black, Brown, and white +people constructing together their socialist society, he would be compelled, +so I thought, to reexamine his own position. When I asked Stokely about +movement contacts in Southern California, he told me about Tommy J., a +community leader in Los Angeles. The address he gave me was in Watts. + + When I arrived in Southern California a few weeks later, one of the first +things I did was look up the address Stokely had given me. There was no +such number. After desperately knocking on door after door, it was clear +that no one in the neighborhood had ever heard of Tommy J. Because I was +straining toward a permanent involvement, not being able to find this +brother depressed me enormously. Reluctantly, I left for San Diego without +any contacts in or concrete information about the movement in Southern +California. +In San Diego, the only people I knew were graduate students in the +philosophy department, primarily students who were there because of +Marcuse. Ricky Sherover and Bill Leiss, for example, had been graduate +students at Brandeis during my senior year and had accompanied Marcuse +to UCSD. Nevertheless, I did manage to get the telephone numbers of two +Black community leaders: the director of a youth organization in San +Diego, and a man who I later discovered was a member of the Communist +Party. +I telephoned the first brother. +"Hello, this is Angela Davis. I've just arrived in San Diego to study +philosophy at the university. I've been abroad for the last two years, and I +want to try to contribute whatever I can to the Black movement here. +Someone gave me your name and number . . ." +At the end of my little speech there was only silence. I did not realize then +how I must have sounded — like an effervescent adolescent, or like an +agent trying to worm her way to the inside. The silence continued for a +while, then he finally promised to call me soon and tell me about a meeting +I could attend. I didn't detect very much enthusiasm in his voice and I didn't +really expect to hear from him after I hung up. I was right. +The days clumped by, the chances of a speedy acceptance into the San +Diego community becoming more and more remote. Sometimes I would get +into my car and, out of sheer frustration, drive into San Diego and head +toward Logan Heights, where the largest concentration of Black people +lived, and drive around aimlessly, daydreaming, trying to devise some way +of escaping this terrible isolation. + + There was little more to do than wait for classes at the university to begin. +And so I studied, socialized with the philosophy students and professors, +and waited, waited. At last the dormitories came alive with students +returning to campus. As the resident student body grew, so did my +disappointment. Not everyone had arrived, but I was hard at work searching +every corner and crevice for sisters and brothers. Each day brought on a +more profound dejection, for there were still no Black people on campus. +I was like an explorer who returns to his homeland after many years, with +precious bounty and no one to give it to. I believed my energy, my +commitment, my convictions were the treasure I had accumulated, and I +looked high and low for a way to spend it. I roamed the campus, examined +the bulletin boards, read the newspapers, talked to everyone who might +know: Where are my people? It was as if I would be churned up and +destroyed inside by these irrepressible desires to become a part of a +liberation movement if I did not soon discover an outlet for them. +Therefore, I turned to the radical students' organization on campus, and +participated in the planning of an action against the war in Vietnam. +In 1967 masses of people had not yet arrived at the conclusion that the war +ought to come to an immediate halt. Consequently many of our efforts to +talk to the people in the streets of San Diego were immediately and abruptly +rebuffed. Many refused to even take our literature. But since this was my +first demonstration in the United States, for a number of years, I was +enthusiastic and excited. The hostile attitudes of the people in the streets +gave me all the more reason to talk harder, longer and more persuasively. +As zealous as I felt, as clearly as I understood the political necessity for this +demonstration, I still experienced a sense of alienation among these +students. Emotionally I was a stranger — in a way that I had never been a +stranger among white people before. It was not the feeling of my childhood +in the South. It was not the alienation I experienced in New York upon +realizing that many of the whites around me were going out of their way to +make me feel that they were not racist. It was a new strangeness that I felt. +But one I would have to deal with later. +Meanwhile, the contingent of police overseeing our demonstration grew +larger. A police car was stationed on every corner now. Uniformed and + + plainclothes agents were all around. San Diego was not used to such +demonstrations. That its defenses would be extreme could have been +predicted beforehand. +When the atmosphere seemed to be reaching a boiling point, the decision +was made to return to the campus and pick up reinforcements. Since my '58 +Buick was one of the largest cars we had, I accepted the assignment of +making the fifteen mile trip back to La Jolla. But by the time we reached +the university, a call had come in telling us that arrests had already been +made. +The next step was to retrieve the prisoners. We mustered up enough for the +bond. Three of us, a man, another woman and I, went down to the jail, +posted the money and awaited the release of our companions. The charges +that had been lodged against them were still an enigma to us. We inquired +about the precise circumstances surrounding the arrest. Previously we had +been told that the charge was "obstructing pedestrian traffic." +Since no one in the front office could satisfy us, we were directed to the +chambers of the patrol captain. We entered into a dark room musty with the +odor of San Diego justice. Again, we posed the question. Why the arrests? +Again the answer was mechanically spouted out to us: "obstructing +pedestrian traffic on the sidewalk." We were persistent. What does that +mean? We ourselves were passing out literature as well; we knew we did +not prevent anyone from passing. "Well," said the patrol captain, "as long as +you are standing on the sidewalk, you may be considered to be obstructing +pedestrian traffic." +"Then how many times have you arrested Jehovah's Witnesses distributing +their religious literature?" +Silence. +"Sir, could you be a little more explicit and a little clearer in your +explanation of the reasons for the arrests of our friends?" +The captain began to say something, but became so completely tongue-tied +he was not able to get the words out. Finally, out of sheer frustration and + + evidently disturbed by our logic, he blurted out — "It is not the police's job +to understand the law; that is the job of the district attorney. If you want to +understand the meaning of this law, go to the D.A.!" +Although we realized that we were in the chambers of our enemy, this +remark was so stupid and so funny that all three of us roared with laughter. +"Get out of this place! Get out!" the captain, now out of control, screamed. +We were trying to regain our composure when we noticed him dialing a +number on his telephone. In less than a minute, his office was full of +policemen who came for a single purpose: to throw us into jail. +Our male companion was carted off; Anna and I were handcuffed and +pushed into the back seat of a patrol car parked in the steaming hot +courtyard of the city jail complex. The windows were closed, and we saw +that police cars have no door handles on the inside. The police officer +slammed the doors and walked away. Fifteen minutes passed, then twenty. +The heat had become absolutely intolerable. Sweat was pouring down our +faces and our clothes were drenched. We banged on the windows and +screamed. No one came. +Just as our fear began to approach panic, the officer walked toward the car, +got in and started up the motor. +"What do you girls do for a living?" he asked. +"We don't have jobs," we answered. +"If you don't have a job, then we can pin vagrancy on you." +"We have money in our purses; that proves we aren't vagrants." +"That's even better," he said. "If you have money, but no job, we can charge +you with robbery — or better than that, armed robbery." +On the way to the jail, we looked at San Diego through the windows of the +police car. The screeching of the siren attracted stares from the crowds of +people in the downtown area. What were they thinking? Were we + + prostitutes, drug users, robbers, or had we gotten caught in a confidence +game? I doubt if the idea crossed any of their minds that we might be +revolutionaries. +In the woman's section of the county jail, we were directed to a room and +instructed to remove all of our clothes in the presence of a matron. Anna +and I protested this degradation long and hard before we were forced to +acquiesce. The next stage was a hot shower in a room where a heavy iron +door was locked behind us. After being left for an hour in the shower room, +we were placed in separate silvery-colored, padded cells, where we had to +suffer through another waiting period. Thinking I could use some of this +time constructively, I scratched political slogans on the walls with a burnt +match for the benefit of the sisters who would occupy this cell next. +Many hours passed before the mug shots and fingerprints were finally +taken, our booking sheet written up. We made the telephone calls due us +and, dressed in prisoner's uniforms, were taken to the jail population +upstairs. +They put us in a large tank separated from the outside corridor by a double +gate of electrically operated bars. The first gate slid open at the push of a +button. Anna and I stepped inside between the two gates. It slid closed. +Only when it was securely locked did the second gate leading into the tank +open. +The tank itself was as depressingly sterile as jail tanks are meant to be. It +was divided into two sections — one with the bunks for sleeping and the +other for eating and game-playing. We explained to each sister who +inquired what we had done to be arrested. Our explanation singled us out, in +1967, as curiosities. Many of the sisters, in jail on such charges as +possession of drugs and prostitution, tried to comfort us. They felt that the +charges against us were silly and would be dropped. +They were right. At long last we were released. +In the meantime other demonstrators had informed the news media that +three people in San Diego had been arrested when they tried to inquire +about the nature of a law. A rock station based in Los Angeles was running + + a spot every hour: "Have you heard about the people down south who got +arrested because they wanted to know about the law?" +The university agreed to lodge an official protest, and within two days, the +district attorney of San Diego dropped the charges and made a formal +apology. +A few days later, during a meeting of the group that had organized the +demonstration, I was excited to see a young Black couple sitting on the +other side of the room. They were the first Black students I had seen on the +campus — and their presence at the meeting meant they were interested in +the movement. After the meeting, we introduced ourselves, and within a +short time Liz and Ed and I decided to try to organize a Black Student +Union. We began by systematically investigating the dormitories, asking +whether there were any Black students on the floor. After we combed all the +halls, we attacked the graduate departments, going into the main office of +each one with pen and paper, requesting the names of all Black students and +employees. We also involved Black workers; if we hadn't we would have +been too small to get the attention we needed to function. +We made contact with some fifteen to twenty Black students and workers. +About ten of them showed up at our meeting, leaving us quite proud of our +first efforts at independent political organizing. One Black professor +attended the meeting and agreed to act as the group's sponsor. Soon another +professor, from Jamaica, became heavily involved in the work of the +organization. +We realized that to be successful we would have to establish ties with +similar groups. Otherwise, when making demands, it would be hard to +convince the university administration of our strength. We decided therefore +to affiliate, in a loose way, with the Black Students' Council at San Diego +State College, and to seek community ties as well. +It struck me, about this time, that I was being looked upon as somewhat of a +leader of the Black movement at the university. It was not that I had sought +out this position; it simply emerged that, despite my two-year absence, I +was one of the most experienced organizers on campus. + + We discovered that the San Diego Black Conference — a coalition of +community organizations spearheaded by Ron Karenga's US-Organization +— was trying to build support for a Black seaman, Ed Lynn, who was +challenging racial discrimination at Balboa Naval Base. Liz, Ed and I +decided to attend the Thursday night meeting of the conference. The facts +surrounding Ed Lynn's case were classic. It had created a huge stir at the +base when Ed circulated a petition protesting race prejudice, asking both +Black and white seamen to sign. In the course of this petition drive, Ed had +charged that President Johnson condoned racism in the military. Within a +short time he was told that he faced court-martial for having made +"offensive" statements about the President of the United States. +The small meeting was being held at a community center in Logan Heights. +The participants stared at the three strangers who said they were +representing Black students at the University of San Diego — no one had +ever heard of our group. Some probably thought we were agents. We +worked hard to persuade them that we were genuinely interested in the case +of Ed Lynn. Ed himself was quite willing to let us help him in his defense. +He readily accepted our invitation to speak about his case at the university +and enthusiastically greeted our idea of setting up a permanent table on the +campus plaza with literature on him and the battle at Balboa Naval Base. In +this way, the Black Student Council entered into a close working +relationship with Ed Lynn. In the course of these activities, Ed and I became +good friends. + +The Second Baptist Church in Watts glowed with colorful African patterns +and fabrics — the women wore "traditional" long dresses of red, purple, +orange and yellow; the men wore bubas that rivaled in every way the fiery +beauty of the women's clothes. The walls of the registration room were +alive with poster art that hailed Blackness as an ancient and peerless beauty. +It was November of 1967, and my exhilaration was as bright and intense as +the colors that dappled the room. I was a stranger to this kind of gathering +and found literally staggering the energy and resolve of the people attending +the Black Youth Conference. London and San Diego had been sad + + miniatures compared to this massive display of strength. I walked around +calling everyone sister and brother; smiling, elated, high on love. +I came down. Slowly, at first, but then with a jolt. +A gun battle broke out during the first hours between two organizations — +The United Front and Ron Karenga's US-Organization. Beneath the façade +of unity, under the wonderful colors of the bubas, lay strong ideological +differences and explosive political conflicts, and perhaps even agents +provocateurs. I knew it was as important to understand this side of the +movement as the nicer side — but my idealism had received a strong, and +probably necessary, kick in the teeth. I was expecting too much, needing too +much, and my eagerness to learn and submerge myself in this movement +made me giddy with excitement. +In the midst of the chaos which followed the shooting, I read the literature, +sat in on some of the workshops, and discovered that about the only thing +we really had in common was skin color. No wonder unity was fragile. +There were the cultural nationalist organizations, talking about a new +culture, a new value system, a new life-style among Black people. There +were the severely anti-white factions who felt that only the most drastic +measure — elimination of all white people — would give Black people the +opportunity to live unhampered by racism. Others simply wanted to +separate and build a distinct Black nation within the United States. And +some wanted to return to Africa, the land of our ancestors. +There were those who felt the most urgent task of the movement was to +refine the spirit of confrontation among Black people. They wanted to spark +mass uprisings, such as the Watts and Detroit rebellions. Related to them +were those who called upon us all to "pick up the gun" as the major weapon +of liberation and transformation — although they seldom seemed to know +exactly what it was they wanted to usher in with the gun. +There were the pseudo-militant groups that insisted that the racist +establishment should be challenged — but only in order to pressure the big +foundations to finance service programs which they themselves would +develop and, probably, profit from. Indicative of the confusion was the fact + + that one workshop went so far as to propose before the plenary session the +use of drums as a new means of communication among Black people in the +cities. +It seemed to me that two steady rays of lucidity shone through the +confusion — James Forman of SNCC (Student Non-Violent Coordinating +Committee) and Franklin Alexander of the Communist Party. Forman spoke +to the plenum of the conference and emphatically defended the proposition +that we could not afford to make a skin analysis alone; we also needed a +class analysis. I watched Franklin as he co-chaired a workshop on the +subject of Black Politics and Economics. His presentation was clear and +incisive: power relationships which placed Black people at the bottom +stemmed from the use of racism as a tool of the economically ascendant +class — the capitalists. Racism meant more profits and, insofar as white +workers are concerned, division and confusion. +After the conference adjourned, I was invited, quite by happenstance, to +attend a small house meeting where James Forman and Ralph Featherstone +talked about their recent trip to Africa. They gave a fascinating, detailed +account of what they had seen in Tanzania, and discussed plans to establish +within SNCC a "skill bank" through which Black people here with special +scientific and technical skills could commit themselves to spending certain +periods of time in Africa. Besides Franklin and Kendra Alexander, at this +meeting there were representatives of an organization called the Black +Panther Party. It was a small cadre group which felt its role was to develop +theoretical analyses of the Black movement, as well as to build structures +within the existing movement. It bore no relationship to Huey Newton and +Bobby Seale's Black Panther Party for Self Defense, except that both had +taken their names from the Lowndes County Black Panther Party in +Alabama. In fact, to distinguish it from Huey and Bobby's party, it was +called the Black Panther Political Party. +This meeting was the beginning of my long and deep relationship with +many of the members of the BPPP. Their understanding of the Black +Liberation Movement was far more sophisticated and more satisfying than +what I had discovered in San Diego. Though I continued my commitment to + + both the university and the community in San Diego, I found real strength +and vision in L.A. +One of my missions during this trip to Los Angeles was to contact speakers +for a San Diego rally we were planning in support of Ed Lynn. Leaders of +several groups agreed to come: John Floyd, the chairman of the Black +Panther Political Party; Brother Crook, a leader of the Community Alert +Patrol; Ron Karenga, whose US-Organization was popular in San Diego; +and Walter Bremond, the chairman of the Black Congress, a working +coalition of Black organizations in the area of Los Angeles. +In organizing for this rally back in San Diego, I ran headlong into a +situation which was to become a constant problem in my political life. I was +criticized very heavily, especially by male members of Karenga's +organization, for doing "a man's job." Women should not play leadership +roles, they insisted. A woman was supposed to "inspire" her man and +educate his children. The irony of their complaint was that much of what I +was doing had fallen to me by default. The arrangements for the publicity +of the rally, for instance, had been in a man's hands, but because his work +left much to be desired, I began to do it simply to make sure that it got +done. It was also ironical that precisely those who criticized me most did +the least to ensure the success of the rally. +I became acquainted very early with the widespread presence of an +unfortunate syndrome among some Black male activists — namely to +confuse their political activity with an assertion of their maleness. They saw +— and some continue to see — Black manhood as something separate from +Black womanhood. These men view Black women as a threat to their +attainment of manhood — especially those Black women who take +initiative and work to become leaders in their own right. The constant +harangue by the US men was that I needed to redirect my energies and use +them to give my man strength and inspiration so that he might more +effectively contribute his talents to the struggle for Black liberation. + +*** + + For me revolution was never an interim "thing-to-do" before settling down; +it was no fashionable club with newly minted jargon, or new kind of social +life — made thrilling by risk and confrontation, made glamorous by +costume. Revolution is a serious thing, the most serious thing about a +revolutionary's life. When one commits oneself to the struggle, it must be +for a lifetime. +As 1968 got under way I realized how much I needed to find a collective. +Floating from activity to activity was no revolutionary anything. Individual +activity — sporadic and disconnected — is not revolutionary work. Serious +revolutionary work consists of persistent and methodical efforts through a +collective of other revolutionaries to organize the masses for action. Since I +had long considered myself a Marxist, the alternatives open to me were +very limited. +I had already begun to consider the possibility of joining the Communist +Party, and had been involved in numerous discussions about this with +Kendra and Franklin Alexander. In January I was among those invited to +attend an open meeting of the Che-Lumumba Club at Charlene Mitchell's +house; she was the founding chairwoman of this Black collective of the +Party. Charlene made a presentation on the relationship between reform and +revolution. Her paper was brilliant. It was the most lucid analysis I had +encountered of the way to organize people around their own daily problems +and, through this, propel them in the direction of the revolutionary +overthrow of the capitalist system. +But because there were too many unanswered questions in my own mind, I +did not join the Party at that time. Since my high school days in New York, +and since the summer of 1962 when I had attended the Eighth World Youth +Festival in Helsinki, I had been more or less out of touch with members of +the Communist Party. Instead, I had been relating to Marxist groups and +theoreticians and activists who were often strongly critical of members of +the traditional Communist parties. Later, looking back upon my European +days, I realized how deeply I had been influenced by the anti-communism +which permeated the European Left movement. I saw the Communist +parties as being too conservative and behind the times in their uncritical + + attitude toward the working class. In this respect, I thought that there was +no hope for white workers in the United States — they had been irreparably +corrupted by racism on the one hand and concessions by the ruling class on +the other. +Yet, even if these particular problems had not bothered me, I was illprepared to join the Party right then. Still, to become a Communist is to +make a lifetime commitment that requires a great deal of serious thinking +about whether one has the knowledge, the strength, the stamina and the +discipline that a Communist must have. During the first months of 1968 I +let joining the Party remain an open question. +The Black Panther Party, however, appeared flexible enough to accept +Marxist ideas. It was a small collective of young Black people, the majority +of whom came from the Black intelligentsia — students, teachers, and a +professor or two. +I had become acquainted with some of the members of the BPPP after the +Youth Conference in November, and had started to develop some +friendships with a few of them. When they decided, early in January, to +broaden their membership by three, they issued one invitation to a brother +at California State who had a reputation as a very good writer. The second +was extended to Franklin Alexander, and the third to myself. I accepted the +invitation. Inviting Franklin was, I thought, a sign of their willingness to +open up to Marxist ideas. I saw them as an interim political base from +which I could think over and decide upon the ultimate political direction I +was going to take. They, in turn, saw me as their representative down south +in San Diego. The BPPP was a member organization of the Los Angeles +Black Congress — a broad coalition of community groups in the area. +Around this time the Black Panther Party for Self Defense, whose highest +leader, Minister of Defense Huey Newton, was in prison, decided to build a +chapter in Los Angeles. +Unfortunately some of their new recruits moved into that territory with +belligerent claims of the exclusivity of the name "Black Panther Party." One +afternoon, when I was in the Black Congress Building, I caught the eye of a +brother drinking a bottle of wine — something prohibited, as I recall, in the + + Congress building. I turned my eyes from him and began to walk down the +corridor toward an office. As I passed him, he pulled a gun out of his pocket +and, with lightning speed, grabbed me by the shoulder, pointed the piece +toward my temple and pulled me into the nearest office. +He wanted to talk, he said. His words were slurred and his breath clotted +with wine. He wanted to talk about the Black Panther Party and his Black +Panther Party for Self Defense. The wine bottle, the slurred words, the fact +that he had a gun and I had nothing told me that if I didn't want my head +blown off, I had better remain as tight-lipped as possible. So I listened. +"The Black Panther Party for Self Defense," he screamed, "demands that +your motherfuckin' party get rid of the name the Black Panther Party. In +fact, you better change it to the motherfuckin' Pink Pussycat Party. And if +you haven't changed your name by next Friday, we are going to off you all." +To make sure I knew that he was dead serious, he told me that he had found +out that I lived in San Diego; that he had my address and that I could expect +someone to knock on my door if we didn't do what they were demanding. +(In all fairness to Huey's Black Panther Party, it is important to say that this +screaming drunk with a gun was later expelled from the Panthers for being +an agent provocateur.) +A crisis situation had erupted. Other members of our group were similarly +threatened. Guns were the common persuaders; death was the consequence +of disobedience. I could do one of two things — obey him or get my own +protection. I chose the latter and, for a while, was fully armed at all times. I +knew that if I were ever stopped by the police and searched, I could end up +in jail, yet if I did not take that risk, I could very easily end up dumped in an +alley somewhere with a bullet in my brain. +We held emergency meeting after emergency meeting, but during that brief +period, were unable to resolve this crisis. Some members wanted an open +confrontation with the Panthers for Self Defense, even if it meant coming to +blows. Others simply wanted to ignore the threats, insisting that the +Panthers were bluffing. And there were one or two who were willing to +quit, bend under the Panthers' threats and disband the organization. + + The final solution came about as a result of a fortuitous trip of James +Forman to Los Angeles. He came to town to speak at a rally organized by +the New Politics Convention. We seized the occasion to acquaint him with +the strife between the two organizations and to get his ideas on how to +prevent this conflict from erupting into open warfare. After giving our +predicament some thought, he said he had a proposal. +He prefaced his proposal by telling us of recent efforts to strengthen +relations between SNCC and the Panthers for Self Defense. They had both +agreed to move toward a merger between the two organizations. Stokely +Carmichael had already been appointed Prime Minister of the BPP, Rap +Brown became Minister of Justice, and Forman himself became Minister of +International Affairs. +One of the obstacles to the consolidation of the merger was the +geographical separation of the headquarters of the organizations: SNCC +was in New York; the BPP was in the San Francisco Bay area. Forman felt +it was essential to build a strong SNCC chapter on the West Coast. If we +would consider transforming ourselves into Los Angeles SNCC, Forman +said, our problems as well as SNCC's might be solved. First of all, our +name would no longer be an issue. We would also acquire new national +dimensions for our own collective and overcome, thereby, some of the +provincialism that plagued us. From Forman's standpoint we would be +assisting SNCC — which then was considered by many to be the leading +force in the Black Liberation Movement — to build a base on the West +Coast. Finally we would be able to cement the relationship between the +BPP and SNCC. If a lasting coalition were to develop, it would be a +tremendous advance. +At first there was opposition. Some called Forman's recommendation too +superficial to provide a lasting solution to our problems. They said we +would have to deal with the brothers like the one who put the gun to my +head whether we remained in our old clothes or whether we put on the new +clothes of SNCC. +I was in favor of joining SNCC — not because I thought that the merger +was going to dispel the discord between us and the new L.A. Panthers, but +rather because I respected the historical contributions SNCC had made to + + the movement. The peace talk, however, in no way encouraged me to relax +my own vigilance. The trusty weapon was still within reach at all times. +Most of the sisters and brothers on our side were equally wary and did not +immediately disarm themselves. +With everyone still on pins and needles, a peace-making meeting was +called. It was an impressive gathering. With the exception of two or three of +our members who had dropped out, all of us were present. On the Panthers' +side, the line-up was all the major leaders (except Huey, of course, who had +been arrested in October). Eldridge Cleaver was present. Until that meeting, +most of us knew very little about him except that he was the "Minister of +Information" who was "underground," according to the designation that +followed the title each week in their newspaper. Bobby Seale was there, +Emory Douglas and li'l Bobby Hutton, as well as seven or eight others. +I was most impressed by li'l Bobby. He was human, natural, and so clearly +unconcerned about fitting the image of a cold, calculating revolutionary. Li'l +Bobby initiated a friendly conversation with me by asking some everyday, +down-home questions: where I was from, what I did. He had a beautiful +smile and an uncorrupted, youthful enthusiasm. After talking to him for a +few mintues, I knew that he was serious about the struggle and that there +was little, if any, egoism in his motives. +The light conversation with li'l Bobby was the only relief for me in a +meeting that was otherwise shrouded in tension. +When, a few months later, I heard that li'l Bobby had been shot, I felt as if it +were a brother of mine who had been murdered by the Oakland police. +For better or worse, it was decided by both groups that our first common +effort would be the issuing of a call to the entire Black Liberation +Movement on the West Coast for two mass meetings — one in Northern +California, and the other in Southern California — to demand Huey +Newton's freedom on the occasion of his birthday. +The most widely known political prisoner, Huey Newton was an important +symbol of Black militancy. At a time when it was perfectly legal to carry +unconcealed weapons in California, he and his comrades had armed + + themselves in order to protect the Black community in Oakland from the +arbitrary brutality of the Oakland Police Department. Because he had posed +a serious threat to their authority, they had cornered him in a situation +which left him with a bullet in his stomach and one policeman dead. Huey +was awaiting trial for murder. We turned our energies full force to +organizing this rally and to making it a major event. +We enlisted the support of the Black Congress and, after a series of hassles, +we secured the Sports Arena for the meeting. It was the largest indoor +meeting place in Los Angeles at the time. We printed thousands of leaflets, +bought advertisements or asked for free time on radio and television +stations. +It was an exciting evening. Although the turnout was not what we had +expected, practically the entire main floor of the arena was full. The list of +speakers was impressive: Stokely Carmichael, Rap Brown, Bobby Seale, +James Forman, Reis Tijerina, Ron Karenga. +The importance of the rally was obvious. I was, therefore, especially +disturbed by the content of some of the speeches. Stokely, for example, +spoke of socialism as "the white man's thing." Marx, he said, was a white +man and therefore irrelevant to Black Liberation. "As Black people," +Stokely shouted, "we have to forget about socialism, which is a European +creation, and have to start thinking about African communalism." +His speech was all the more disturbing because I knew that he had been in +Cuba the preceding summer and had been warmly received wherever he +went. He had officially congratulated the Cuban people — Black, Brown +and white — for their superb achievements in building socialism. +Moreover, I knew for a fact that he had publicly stated that his trip to Cuba +had unequivocally demonstrated to him that socialism alone could liberate +Black people. In a socialist country, to people whose sisters and brothers, +and mothers and fathers had given their lives in the defense of their socialist +revolution, Stokely had said that he was convinced that socialism was the +answer for his people as well. Now that he was back in the United States, +where the official propaganda made socialism less popular, he was +opportunistically reversing his position. Because he knew how to turn a +phrase, he had the audience applauding, not so much what he said as his + + way of saying it. I was glad he was no longer the chairman of SNCC, +because after hearing such a speech, I would have left the organization on +the spot. +The speech of Rap Brown, who had replaced Stokely in the chairmanship of +SNCC, was one of the best of the evening. +A serious problem permeated the entire rally. We were supposed to be +calling for mass support for Huey Newton. However, no strategy followed, +graced or even decorated this demand. There were no specific, concrete +proposals placed before the people in attendance. In response to the appeal, +the applause was ample enough, but where were we to go from there? The +only answer to this question was the slogan "The sky is the limit." That is to +say, if Huey Newton was convicted and sentenced to death, the ruling class +could expect a hundred police stations to be attacked, fifty power plants to +be bombed, etc., etc., etc. It wasn't even clear whether the speakers were +saying that they themselves would carry out these demolitions, or whether +they were appealing to the people in attendance to go out and respond in +this way if Huey was convicted. The gaping void was a clear-cut line of +action spelling out the way to organize masses of people in struggle in order +to guarantee that Huey Newton would be set free. +At this time, Rap Brown faced several very serious charges — clearly +fraudulent — stemming from his speeches and political activity. He had +been released on bail with the proviso that he remain within the boundaries +of Manhattan, New York, except for trips to confer with his attorney. He +was on just such a trip then to meet with William Kuntsler — a convenient +trip for us because he had been able to speak at the rallies celebrating +Huey's birthday. +We did not know — Rap did not know — that he would not get very far +when he left California. He was to be seized by the FBI, reimprisoned, this +time with a bail of $100,000, plus an extra $25,000 for allegedly insulting +the arresting officer. +Our first grass-roots organizing effort was, therefore, a bail campaign for +the national chairman of our organization. We decided to circulate a petition +demanding that the exorbitant sum be lowered. At the same time, we began + + to organize a door-to-door drive to raise money for Rap's bond. Sisters and +brothers were recruited to go out on weekends, into the community — in +houses, churches, community centers, shopping centers, we asked people to +put their donations into our coin cans and sign the petition. +The modesty of this approach was surpassed only by its success. As a result +of the all-day expeditions with the cans labeled "Let Rap rap," we attracted +a sizeable number of sisters and brothers to our organization. Increasing +SNCC's membership on the Coast was an important gain, over and above +the money that was collected and the message that reached large numbers of +Black people in Los Angeles. +Shortly after our campaign to support Rap had gotten off the ground, we +opened up a headquarters on Jefferson Avenue near Arlington. When my +university responsibilities for the week were fulfilled, I would jump into my +beat-up 1958 Buick and race up the highway from La Jolla to Los Angeles, +heading straight to SNCC headquarters to join the others in getting down to +the real business of struggle. +We felt we had the energy of stallions and the confidence of eagles as we +rushed into the neighborhoods of L.A. — on the streets, in houses, +campuses, offices — driving, walking, meeting, greeting. We experienced +the heights of brotherhood and sisterhood doing something openly, freely +and above ground about our own people. This was no sly manipulation of +the establishment, marked by compromise and gradualism. Nor was it the +individual heroism of some one person whose outrage had reached the point +of no return. Our stance was public and our commitment was to our people +— and for some of us, to the class. The time was indeed ours to seize. In +spite of the absence of a homogeneous ideology, in spite of the disparate +ways in which problems were approached, we knew we could not retire to +reflect, could not halt the tide until every detail was worked out to +everyone's satisfaction. Like new alchemists we lit the fire and trusted the +heat to refine our recipe for victory. +Those were exciting times. The potential we had for building a mass +movement among Black people in L.A. was staggering, and we went to +work straightaway, pounding out a more comprehensive program for our +organizers to follow. We were on our own. Because of the origins of our + + membership, we were not under the direct authority of the national +organization of SNCC. Moreover, the merger with the Panthers had all but +dissolved. After a minor run-in with Eldridge and company over the money +raised during the February 18 rally, whatever superficial agreement had +initially prevailed withered away for want of a mutual desire to sustain it. +Fortunately, overt hostilities had also withered. +Although we tried to learn from the organizing experiences of SNCC — +particularly during the year of its greatest influence in the South — we did +not feel committed to follow rigidly the same line or program which had +been developed by SNCC. For all intents and purposes, we were an +autonomous organization. +With all the gusto of the novice, I accepted the responsibility for drawing up +plans for a "Liberation School" and for being its director once it was +established. +It was during this period of work on the bail campaign for Rap that we +learned about a brutal police murder committed on the very day of the +February 18 rally. One evening while we were in the office — and, if I +recall correctly, Franklin, Bobbie Hodges, John Floyd, myself and others +were deeply embroiled in a fiery discussion about the significance of +Marxism for the Black Liberation struggle — two brothers came in (one of +whom was the author Earl Ofari). They gave us the gory details of the +police slaying of eighteen-year-old Gregory Clark not too far from our +office. The brothers appealed to us to immediately organize a movement of +resistance. +The next day some of us went out to investigate the facts of the killing and +to explore the sentiment of the community. According to Gregory's family +and friends and witnesses to the act, these were the facts: On a warm +afternoon in February, Gregory Clark and a friend were cruising down +Washington Boulevard in a late-model Mustang. They were drinking soda +pop, the cans covered by brown paper bags. When they reached Vineyard, +they were motioned over to the curb by an LAPD cop who, according to the +brother who survived, told them that they didn't look like they "fit" the car +they were driving. Then, seeing the brown bags and without a shred of +proof, he accused them of drinking beer while driving. + + The two brothers protested, the witnesses said. They had the registration to +prove that they hadn't stolen the car and the cans themselves were proof of +what they had been drinking. But the cop, Warren B. Carleson, refused to +hear their explanation. All he heard was niggers talking back to a white man +in uniform. Ordering them out of their car, he prepared to handcuff them. +Perhaps Gregory began to raise his voice in protest. Perhaps he snatched his +hands away to prevent the cop from clamping on the handcuffs. Perhaps he +did nothing. In any case, there was a brief scuffle before Carleson locked +the manacles around his wrists. The victim was caught, but Carleson did not +stop there. According to those watching the encounter, he knocked Gregory +Clark to the sidewalk, and while he lay face down, his hands cuffed behind +him, Carleson shot Gregory in the back of the head with a .38 revolver. +As I stood there on the corner of Washington and Vineyard, staring at the +two-week-old bloodstains on the sidewalk, this scene unfolded before me in +all its original horror. But the hurt and the rage meant nothing by +themselves. What was needed was an organized struggle. +Over a hundred people showed up at the community meeting we called. +They listened avidly as witnesses to the murder told what they had seen. +The community people eagerly accepted our suggestion that we should +mobilize people to attend the coroner's inquest which would determine, for +the benefit of officialdom, whether charges should be pressed against the +cop or whether the act was a legitimate expression of his duty as a "peace +officer." +We did not feel that we were strong enough at that point to influence the +outcome of the inquest simply by our presence. More than likely they +would declare that the killing of Gregory Clark was a "justifiable +homicide." But large numbers of people there would certainly alert the +ruling cliques that we were preparing ourselves for battle. +The scenario unfolded as we knew it would: the panel accepted Carleson's +version of the story: He had been frightened; thinking that Gregory Clark +might be armed (prostrate with his hands cuffed behind him?), he shot him +in self defense. The verdict: justifiable homicide. + + Still, there was partial victory: the leaflets we had sent out into the +community; the vigilance at the inquest. Our promises to expose the +Gregory Clark case put the LAPD on the spot. We had sent people to track +Carleson down on his beat and photograph him for our literature, but the +LAPD had secreted him somewhere. That evening Carleson was +interviewed by a major television station and forced to justify his act before +the eyes of thousands of people, and our photographer snapped a +photograph of him which we used to announce a People's Tribunal. +Carleson was going to be tried by the people he had offended. The sisters +and brothers who had been attracted to SNCC by the protests we were +spearheading constituted themselves into a People's Tribunal Committee. A +date was set for the trial to be held in South Park. While some were +selecting the "lawyers," "judges," those who would play significant roles in +the trial, other SNCC and People's Tribunal Committee members composed +and printed the literature. I was in the propaganda department. Of all the +material we produced, I was most proud of the poster which carried the +photograph of Carleson which had been shot from the television set. If we +had been consciously seeking a picture of a typical "racist pig," we couldn't +have made a better choice. Carleson's soul was fully revealed in his face. +Printed across the poster in large, broad letters was the word "Wanted." +Under the photograph was the description: "LAPD Cop for the Murder of +Brother Gregory Clark." +These posters were put up all over the Black community — the area where +the brother was killed was saturated with them. Fact sheets about the case +and leaflets announcing the trial were distributed door-to-door, after work at +factories, in churches, and wherever Black people were. +The fruits of our labors were a tremendous awareness in the community of +the case of Gregory Clark and a very large turnout at the people's trial. +The prosecuting attorney was Ben Wyatt, a Black lawyer and community +activist. No one wanted to accept the position of defense attorney, but +finally Deacon Alexander — Franklin's brother — accepted this unenviable +role. The panel of judges consisted of a variety of persons active in the +Black community, all representative of organizations which counted +themselves among the advocates of Black Liberation. + + If someone accused us of being one-sided, we made no claims to +impartiality. We were not trying to duplicate the bourgeois judicial system +which tries to conceal its class and race bias behind meaningless procedures +and empty platitudes about democracy. We were demanding justice — +about which Black people needed to be defiant and passionate. After +hundreds of years of suffering the most persistently one-sided bestiality and +violence, how could we seriously assume a posture of unbiased observers? +The witnesses were called; they gave their testimony of events leading up to +and following Gregory's death. Other witnesses were called to give "expert +testimony" on the unchecked racism in the LAPD. Past police murders in +the Black community were documented, stitch by stitch, and a tapestry of +racist horrors was woven. At the center of this tapestry was Gregory Clark, +whose killer was arrogantly screaming "self-defense." We tried and +convicted Carleson — not for being the originator and sole perpetrator of +the crime, but because he had been an all-too-willing accomplice in the +routine business of a racist system. Warren B. Carleson had not acted alone; +he had helped the system to add one more victim to its rolls. And it was for +this that he deserved the maximum penalty. +"You have heard the evidence against the defendant and you have also +heard his defense. Are the people ready to pronounce their verdict?" +"Guilty! Guilty! Guilty!" roared the audience, and their unanimous +thunderous verdict tore through the park air like bullets. +It would have been anticlimactic for the process to end with the mere +rendering of the verdict. Yet we could not carry out a penalty unless it +involved the continuation of our collective struggle. Our proposal to the +Tribunal was therefore that we pressure the city councilmen, particularly +the Black representatives, to call for Carleson to be tried for murder. As a +dramatization of the seriousness of our proposal, we wanted to bring +hundreds of people, thousands if possible, to City Hall; people who would +demand that the popular verdict of guilty be given its due consideration. +It was too little. Following all the excitement, the sensations of strength, the +will to resist that had been aroused during the course of the trial itself, the +proposal seemed too conservative. + + "Death! Death!" screamed a group of people. Others voiced their +agreement. "Death to the pig," brothers continued to shout. Appoint a +commission to execute the sentence, they said. They were volunteering. +Rage had transported these brothers into a desperate fantasy world. I +understood how they felt. When I saw Gregory Clark's blood on the +sidewalk, rage had pulled my instincts in the very same direction. But +understanding the real value of mass action, I therefore had something else +to lean on, something which could absorb my anger and set it on the right +track. +Chaos reigned in the crowd. The reactions were partly the product of pentup frustrations which were seeking the easiest way out. They were partly +the result of conscious encouragement of the "pick up the gun" movement, +perhaps aided by agents provocateurs sent into our midst to disrupt. +It was Franklin who pulled things back together. He had done an +irreproachable job of presiding over the tribunal and the confusion +presented a supreme test of his ability to lead masses of people. It was +awesome to see him almost effortlessly gather up all the pieces of the +meeting and mold them back into something whole. He moved with the +people, identified with their desire to see the swift execution of the justice +they demanded. He explained the fact that though we were growing +stronger, the balance of power was still overwhelmingly on the side of the +enemy. It would not begin to shift until we could bring increasingly greater +numbers of people into our movement. That was what would have the +greatest impact upon those who pretended to rule us. Our strategy therefore +had to be that of reaching out to more and more of our people, bringing +them over to our side. +By the time Franklin was ready to close the Tribunal, people were eagerly +agreeing with and applauding the proposal that we make a journey to City +Hall to lodge our demands. His phenomenal capacity to reach out to people +made a deep impression on me, not only as an individual, but also — even +more so — as a Communist. The respect he had commanded, the clarity of +his explanation and the forcefulness of his method of presenting it were +rooted in years of experience he had accumulated as a member of the +Communist Party. + + APRIL 4, 1968 +I spent the morning at the SNCC office. In the afternoon, I went down to +the Los Angeles Committee to Defend the Bill of Rights to see about some +material I wanted to have printed. +The normal course of that Thursday was shattered by a scream "Martin +Luther King has been shot!" A stonelike incredulity locked my face. The +wound was in the head, put there by a white assassin, and there was little +hope that he would survive. +My disbelief gave way to a sadness which made me feel, for the time being, +very helpless, like I was sinking. An amorphous sense of guilt fell upon me. +We had severely criticized Martin Luther King for his rigid stance on +nonviolence. Some of us, unfortunately, had assumed that his religion, his +philosophical nonviolence and his concentration on "civil rights," as +opposed to the larger liberation struggle, had rendered him an essentially +harmless leader. Never would any of us have predicted that he would be +struck down by an assassin's bullet. Never would any of us have predicted +that he would have needed our protection. I don't think we had realized that +his new notion of struggle — involving poor people of all colors, involving +oppressed people throughout the world — could potentially present a great +threat to our enemy. It was not coincidental, I thought, that on that day he +had been marching in the streets with sanitation workers on strike. +Back at the SNCC office, my anger and sorrow over the death of Dr. King +could find its proper expression — its collective expression. Together with +my SNCC comrades, I discussed the way we were going to fight back. +Many people in the community would be looking to us, L.A. SNCC, for +leadership. We were going to need all the mind and muscle we could find. +The crisis of King's assassination had erupted at the precise moment when +we were having some serious problems among our own cadre, some of +whom preferred to be TV revolutionaries and to excite crowds with militant +rhetoric — but they didn't like the unromantic day-to-day work of building +an enduring organization. Since the People's Tribunal, Franklin had + + emerged as the most capable leader of all our cadres. His competence and +magnetism provoked envy among the Hollywood revolutionaries and +stimulated undercurrents of anti-communism which had further complicated +our internal situation. Yet, if we did not act immediately, we would be +abdicating our responsibility to the Black community. Franklin was not in +town. He had taken advantage of the relative quiet around L.A. to visit +Kendra, who was attending an Ideological School for Communist Party +cadres in New York. At the time of the assassination, he was driving across +country — he called us from Chicago to ask what we thought he should do. +We wanted him to turn around and head back to L.A. +That night in New York, the streets of Harlem and Bedford-Stuyvesant were +teeming with angry Black youth attacking white businesses with stones and +bottles — and the police sent to repress them. Raleigh, North Carolina, was +in rebellion and Jackson, Mississippi, and Nashville, Tennessee, were on the +verge of exploding. +Ghettos all over Los Angeles could easily reach the boiling point and +reenact August 1965 once more. We knew that some elements would +encourage spontaneous outbursts of a collective frustration and desperation, +playing right into the hands of the police, for we were certain that the +LAPD would be only too happy to have the opportunity to test all their new +"riot-equipment." Every Black person who appeared to be disturbed about +the assassination of Martin Luther King would be a potential target of +attack. Many of its members having been recruited from the Deep South, +the LAPD was perhaps the most vicious in the country — and more +important than its viciousness, it was also the best equipped. +A physical confrontation had to be avoided, for in it the Black community +would be doomed. Nevertheless, the eagerness to fight back could not be +permitted to wither away — it had to be channeled into a political direction. +We needed a mass political event to put forth a call for a renewed, intensive +struggle against racism: Racism was Martin Luther King's assassin, and it +was racism that had to be attacked. +The Black Congress ratified that position. All the member organizations +agreed to work toward a mass rally call for an escalation of the battle +against racism. Meanwhile, we had to develop a crescendo of mass + + activities which would climax with the rally. The community had to be kept +in movement without being pushed to the point of explosion. The day after +the assassination, we asked high school students to participate in a +campaign to explain the assassination to the community and to distribute +literature asking our people to attend a meeting at the Second Baptist +Church. Our three mimeograph machines were rolling twenty-four hours a +day, printing the leaflets to be distributed by hundreds of high school +students who waited in and outside the office at every moment of the day. +Some people accused us of trying to "calm down" the community and of +assuming a conservative stance before the fact of the assassination. These +accusations came from those who advocated immediate rebellion. Our +strategy, however, was proven correct, for the day after the murder, the +police were themselves ready to provoke a rebellion. The scouts we sent out +to investigate the mood of the community returned with reports of police +provocations all over the city. Machine guns had been mounted atop the +major police stations in the ghetto; the operators were at their posts at all +times. That evening, a younger brother, with blood streaming down his face, +walked into the office and told us that he had been beaten up by the police +on the other side of town and was dropped off in front of our office. We +took care of his wounds and saw to it that he got home. +Tension was mounting; we felt as if we were on top of a simmering volcano +which could explode at any moment. On April 5, the day following the +assassination, Lyndon B. Johnson had issued orders to the Secretary of +Defense to utilize all the force that was necessary to safeguard "law and +order." By April 6, there were twenty people dead throughout the country: +nine in Chicago, five in Washington, two in Detroit and one each in New +York, Tallahassee, Minneapolis and Memphis, the place of the +assassination. A thousand had been wounded and two thousand had been +arrested. Twenty-three cities were in rebellion. +The night of the meeting at the Second Baptist Church, we left three +brothers from our security force to keep watch over the office. The situation +was very tense; anything might happen. The brothers stayed there as a +safeguard against police frenzy. + + The first sign of trouble was that no one answered our knocks when we +returned to the office after the church meeting. Bobbie and I were about to +get angry at the brothers for leaving their posts at such a critical moment. +But we knew they were extremely trustworthy — it didn't seem likely that +they would have left the office unguarded. +The front door was unlocked — something was wrong. Inside, chairs were +turned over, literature had been snatched from the shelves and scattered all +over the floor and our Rap Brown poster had been ripped to pieces. In the +mimeograph room, the drums of our machines had been slashed with +broken glass. Mimeo ink had been randomly squirted on the floor and the +walls. +Within a few minutes the two women who ran the restaurant next door +came rushing into the office. They told us that approximately ten to fifteen +black-and-white police cars had pulled up in front of the office. Some +police had gone around to the back door. We saw that it had been chopped +down with an ax. According to the two sisters, about ten minutes later, the +police had led our three security brothers out the front door, their wrists +cuffed together. They had shoved them into a patrol car and sped away. +It was not coincidental that they had attacked our printing machines. The +work of our organization was, in the first place, educational. We had just +produced hundreds of thousands of leaflets protesting Dr. King's murder, +explaining the racist forces behind his assassination and suggesting how we +should manifest our resistance. Although they did not often admit it, the +ruling circles feared this educational approach far more than they feared the +rhetorical threats to "off the pigs." They knew that our strategy was to +organize the masses and that increasing numbers of people were looking to +us for knowledge and leadership. +We recuperated from the initial shock and set aside our rage long enough to +inspect the mess more closely and to start the wheels moving to post bail +for the brothers. Someone suggested we eat, and turned the fire on under the +big pot of spaghetti which had been cooked earlier in the day. Bowls were +passed out, and we were starting to eat, when someone shouted, "Hey, +there's a nail in this spaghetti." It was true. Tacks were in his food and in the + + other bowls as well — they had been stirred into the pot by the police who +had broken into our office. +We decided to leave the office as it was, including the pot of spaghetti on +the stove and to call a press conference for the following morning. So that +the press could see with their own eyes the malicious work of the "brave" +police. + +By the end of April 1968, L.A. SNCC was barely two months old. But it +had developed into one of the most important organizations in the L.A. +Black community. Our People's Tribunal Committee, still active around +Gregory Clark's case, dealt with police brutality and repression. We had +built a youth organization — SNCC Youth Corps — which had attracted +over fifty active members, and the Liberation School, which was under my +charge, drew scores of people each time it convened. +Our telephone rang constantly; people were continually reporting acts of +discrimination and repression to us, asking for our leadership on how to +counter them. The office was hardly ever empty: it was a place where +people came to find out about the struggle, how they could participate in it. +As the organization grew stronger, the truly committed cadres were being +separated from the staff members who wanted the credit but not the +responsibility for building SNCC. On the original central staff there had +been six men and three women. The three women on the staff — Bobbie, +Rene and myself — always had a disproportionate share of the duties of +keeping the office and the organization running. Now only two of the men +were doing anything significant in the organization — Franklin, of course, +and a brother by the name of Frank, who headed the security and SNCC +Youth Corps. Bobbie, Rene and I worked full time. Some of the brothers +came around only for staff meetings (sometimes), and whenever we women +were involved in something important, they began to talk about "women +taking over the organization" — calling it a matriarchal coup d'etat. All the +myths about Black women surfaced. Bobbie, Rene and I were too +domineering; we were trying to control everything, including the men — +which meant by extension that we wanted to rob them of their manhood. By + + playing such a leading role in the organization, some of them insisted, we +were aiding and abetting the enemy, who wanted to see Black men weak +and unable to hold their own. This condemnation was especially bitter +because we were one of the few organizations on the Black Liberation Front +in Los Angeles, and probably in the country, where women did play a +leading role. It was a period in which one of the unfortunate hallmarks of +some nationalist groups was their determination to push women into the +background. The brothers opposing us leaned heavily on the male +supremacist trends which were winding their way through the movement, +although I am sure that some of them were politically mature enough to +understand the reactionary nature of these trends. After all, it had been a +voice of the Johnson administration, Daniel Moynihan, who in 1966 had +rekindled the theory of the slavery-induced Black matriarchate, maintaining +that the dominant role of Black women within the family and, by extension, +within the community was one of the central causes of the depressed state +of the Black community. +The brothers knew this; they also knew that Bobbie, Rene and I, together +with Franklin and Frank, had moved into leadership of SNCC because of +their own defective commitments. Still, they were determined to have a +fight. I knew things were bad; that we were on the verge of something +serious, perhaps devastating. But I did not know that this skirmish was +going to mushroom into open warfare. +Franklin and Frank, naturally, fought on our side. When the work of the +organization slowed down, adversely affected by this internal struggle, we +decided to call New York SNCC headquarters for help. Forman was out of +the country; some other national staff person said he would come out. But +when he arrived, he was not so much interested in the specific difficulties +we had called him about as in the general quality of the work we were +doing in L.A. He summarily dismissed our problem of male-female +political relationships, saying that it was not important enough to merit a +special discussion. They would be solved, he said, in the course of dealing +with other problems. What this brother wanted to discuss was the great +dissimilarity between our organization and the other SNCC chapters across +the country, especially the national operation in New York. He was right, of +course. We had formulated our own strategy and program without regard to + + the policies of New York SNCC. In fact, we received hardly any input from +national SNCC, except permission to use the name and the initial advice we +got from Forman. +The brother from New York complained that the office was not +"businesslike"; there were too many people "hanging around" who "were +not sitting behind desks." We weren't fulfilling what should have been one +of our major duties, i.e., fund-raising for the national organization. He +admonished us for not arranging enough cocktail parties up in the hills +where the more affluent of our people could be persuaded to share their +prosperity with SNCC. +I was personally criticized for the courses I had included in the curriculum +for the Liberation School. Whereas I saw the school as being a +consciousness-raising vehicle, as imparting political education to the +community, the brother from New York thought it should be geared +fundamentally toward teaching skills to the community — skills such as +radio and TV repair and computer programming. The school, he said, +should become an instrument of survival; it should teach people the +knowledge they required in order to get a job. While the need for jobs and +job skills was at a crisis level in Black communities, it was not the role of +the SNCC Liberation School to be a job-training center. My overall vision +of the school I directed was of a place where political understanding was +forged and sharpened, where consciousness became explicit and was urged +in a revolutionary direction. This is why I taught and found others to teach +courses on such topics as Current Developments in the Black Movement, +Liberation Movements in the Third World, and Community Organizing +Skills. +The national representative also criticized my inclusion of courses +involving Marxist ideas. After all, Black people were afraid of communism, +he said; they would be alienated from the organization if they thought +communists were around. This was the first signal that an all-out attack on +Franklin was brewing. +After a fund-raising event during the brother's stay in L.A. (we did have +fund-raising events in order to cover our own local expenses), Franklin +invited some of the brothers on security to his apartment. They had the + + money which had been collected as well as the weapons to protect it. Using +the pretext that there was noise coming from the apartment, the police broke +in, arrested all the brothers, confiscated the money and the weapons (all of +which were legally owned) and charged them with armed robbery. +It was not difficult to discern the motive of this seemingly arbitrary attack. +A rally was scheduled for the next morning in front of City Hall to climax +the series of confrontations with the City Council on the Gregory Clark +case. Franklin was the central figure of the rally. A large mobilization was +expected, and the police hoped to cut the sting out of the rally by +imprisoning Franklin. The arraignment was set at the same time as the rally, +and there was no chance of getting him released on bail before the court +appearance that Monday morning. +The police doubtless expected us to cancel the mobilization — or even if +we didn't, they probably thought it would be a defeat for the People's +Tribunal Committee to try to pull it off in the absence of their leader. That +morning in front of City Hall, the people attending the mobilization +decided, almost spontaneously, to take the demonstration to the courthouse +across the street and demand Franklin's immediate release. The eager crowd +streamed into the halls of the courthouse and filled to capacity the +courtroom where the arraignment was taking place. Without an explanation, +the judge suddenly announced that he was dropping all charges against +Franklin and the other brothers. +Franklin was unwashed and unshaven, and it was easy to see that he had not +slept that night in jail. Nevertheless, he led the rally with his usual vigor, +and it seemed that the people were even more militant than if the police had +not tried to intervene. Having witnessed the evidence of their collective +power — the release of Franklin in response to their demands — they were +raring to fight for more such victories. +The next day, the L.A. Times published an extensive article on the rally and +the way Franklin's release was achieved. In the article, Franklin was called +a "Maoist Communist." As a member of the Communist Party, U.S.A., +Franklin was not, of course, a Maoist. Yet the brother from the New York +office was mesmerized by this phrase, even though he knew it to be false. I +imagine he didn't care what kind of communist Franklin was. It was the fact + + that he was a communist at all and that the news media had seized upon this +that worried him so much. +The Times article prompted him to call a meeting of the staff and other +SNCC workers. I discovered later that certain select staff members had been +informed that the purpose of the meeting was to discuss the advisability of +having a Communist play a leading role in the organization. I had not been +informed, for they knew where my politics and my loyalties were. +The SNCC representative's presentation before the gathering was as simple +as it was opportunistic. SNCC simply could not afford to be associated with +Communists. It had been incorrect to permit Franklin to play such a +"visible" role in the organization, particularly without consulting the New +York office first. He was expelling Franklin, so he insisted, in line with the +policy of the national organization, and was further decreeing that the office +and the operation should be purged of all traces of communism and +Marxism. Silence. Was this going to be a reenactment of the McCarthy +purges? Franklin's brother Deacon and I were the only ones who resisted +this move at all. And we were a tiny fraction of those present. Obviously, +we had left a fatal defect in the organization we had built if a man from the +New York office could come in and expel the leading figure from our midst +without even a feeble effort at resistance. Or was it that the fear of +communism was so powerful that it could engender compromises of +principle and concessions of all the things we had fought so hard to attain? +It was a depressing time. I felt alienated from sisters and brothers whom I +had not only considered my comrades in arms, but whom I had come to +regard as close friends as well. Franklin had been unilaterally kicked out of +the organization without having been given the opportunity to defend +himself before the people who had looked upon him as their comrade and +their leader. Franklin, Deacon and I caucused about our next moves. My +first instinct was to resign. But after the discussion, we decided that Deacon +and I should stick it out a while longer; perhaps we could help the others +back to political sanity. +But it was too late. The first concession, the first endorsement of an +irrational, anti-Communist policy, the first act of tolerance toward an +autocratic, apolitical businessman-type who called himself a revolutionary + + was the beginning of the end of our organization. The national +representative appointed a chairman who assumed the same dictatorial +stance. And one by one, this chairman effectively isolated all the good +people in SNCC. I was relieved of my position as director of the Liberation +School, at which point I submitted my resignation and from the sidelines +watched the rest first pushed around and then pushed out of the +organization. Within a matter of weeks, only the shell of what we had +created was left. Whereas we had had over two hundred workers whom we +could count on and hundreds more who could be mobilized, by the +beginning of the summer there were no more than ten people left. +L.A. SNCC was dead. The office closed down and people wondered what +had happened to all of us. This was a victory for reactionary forces. The +downfall of SNCC could not have been better planned if it had been the +work of an agent of the government. +Hours, days were consumed by exhausting discussions about the +destruction of L.A. SNCC. Could the final downfall have been avoided? +What had we done wrong? Could we have brought the majority of the staff +over to our side? Could we have convinced them to withdraw from the +national organization? After all, we had built everything without assistance +from New York. +Kendra, who had been attending a Party School during the crucial period, +criticized Franklin, as well as Deacon and myself, for not having waged a +more determined battle from the outset against the little signs of anticommunism. There had been signs — passive acquiescence in anticommunism as well as active encouragement of it — but these signs had +been either subtle or sporadic and disconnected. I had not realized that they +could be the germs of a collective attitude which could erupt so abruptly +into a witch hunt. +I felt that I was not entirely without blame, for on occasion I had agreed to +certain anti-Communist notions prevalent on the Left. I had not done this in +any official capacity or in circumstances involving formal meetings. Yet, in +casual conversations around the office, I had sometimes joined the others in +putting Franklin on the spot. We had accused the Communist Party of not +paying sufficient attention to the national and racial dimensions of the + + oppression of Black people, and therefore submerging the special +characteristics of our oppression under the general exploitation of the +working class. I had gone along with others in criticizing, from an ultra-left +standpoint, the general "conservatism" of the Party. +It was not that I shouldn't have criticized the Communist Party at all. The +point was that I had made these charges without having carefully +investigated the Party's positions. Given the circumstances, my statements +— especially coming, as they did, from someone who called herself a +Marxist — may have encouraged in some way the widespread no-struggle +attitude toward the anti-communism. +From this point forward I tried to acquire the information I needed in order +to decide whether I wanted to become a member of the Communist Party. +At this stage in my life and my political evolution — even more than during +the San Diego days — I needed to become a part of a serious revolutionary +party. I wanted an anchor, a base, a mooring. I needed comrades with whom +I could share a common ideology. I was tired of ephemeral ad-hoc groups +that fell apart when faced with the slightest difficulty; tired of men who +measured their sexual height by women's intellectual genuflection. It wasn't +that I was fearless, but I knew that to win, we had to fight and the fight that +would win was the one collectively waged by the masses of our people and +working people in general. I knew that this fight had to be led by a group, a +party with more permanence in its membership and structure and more +substance in its ideology. Confrontations were opportunities to be met; +problems were entanglements to be sorted out with the right approach, the +correct ideas. And I needed to know and respect what I was doing. Until +now all our actions seemed to end, finally, in an ellipsis — three dots of +irresolution, inconsistency and ineffectiveness. +During that depressing time, I reread Lenin's What Is To Be Done, and it +helped me to clarify my own predicament. I read Du Bois again, +particularly his statements around the time he decided to join the +Communist Party. +Since Frankfurt, since London, since San Diego, I had been wanting to join +a revolutionary party. Of all the parties that called themselves revolutionary +or Marxist-Leninist, the Communist Party, in my opinion, alone did not + + overstate itself. Despite my criticisms of some aspects of the Party's +policies, I had already reached the conclusion that it would be the +Communist Party or, for the time being, nothing at all. +But before I could make my decision I had to examine it, study it. The CheLumumba Club, the Black cell of the Party in Los Angeles, was the section +of the Party which interested me. I wanted to know what its role and +responsibilities were within the Party and how it maintained its identity and +consistency as its cadres involved themselves in the Black Liberation +Movement. As with all the other Communist parties, the basic unit of the +CPUSA was and remains the "club" (or cell, as it is called in other +countries). In general, the club is composed of from five to twenty +members. There are sections, districts, states, regions, and finally the +national leadership, which carries out policy which is made by periodic +national conventions. Insofar as the democratic centralist structure of the +Party was concerned, the Che-Lumumba Club was just like any other club. +Yet it did have a special role, originating from the fact that Black +Communists in Los Angeles had fought within the Party for a club that +would be all Black and whose primary responsibility would be to carry +Marxist-Leninist ideas to the Black Liberation struggle in L.A. and to +provide leadership for the larger Party as far as the Black movement was +concerned. +The club had been established in 1967 — at a time when the Black +movement was approaching its zenith. The Communist Party was bound to +be affected by the stirrings in the ghettos from Harlem to Watts. Because +L.A. was the scene of one of the first recent, full-scale Black uprisings, it +seemed inevitable that the Che-Lumumba Club would come into existence +in that city. +The knowledge I gained about the Che-Lumumba Club did not satisfy me +completely, because I had little firsthand knowledge of the larger Party. +Kendra and Franklin, therefore, introduced me to some of the white +comrades. I began to pay visits to Dorothy Healey, who was then the +District Organizer of Southern California. We had long, involved +discussions — sometimes arguments — about the Party, its role within the +movement, its potential as the vanguard party of the working class; its + + potential as the party that would lead the United States from its present, +backward, historically exploitative stage to a new epoch of socialism. I +immensely enjoyed these discussions with Dorothy and felt that I was +learning a great deal from them, regardless of whether I ultimately decided +to become a Communist myself. + +In July 1968, I turned over my fifty-cents — the initial membership dues — +to the chairman of the Che-Lumumba Club, and became a full-fledged +member of the Communist Party, U.S.A. Shortly thereafter I had to retreat +to La Jolla in order to do the last intensive preparations for my Ph.D. +qualifier examinations. For weeks and weeks I only studied. Days, I studied +in my office at the university. Evenings, I worked — often well into the +night — in the isolated house in Del Mar which friends lent me for the last +part of the summer. My thoughts became so thoroughly wedded to +philosophical things that I even found myself dreaming sometimes about +the ideas of Spinoza, Kant, Hegel. I had wanted to pass the exams at this +time and not wait until after my second year of classes, as was the normal +procedure. This meant that I had to study on my own works that I would +have ordinarily read in connection with courses. I had to work, work and +work — until the point of absolute saturation. +As exam week approached, the simmering desperation among graduate +students preparing to take the test exploded into open panic. In the middle +of a discussion, for example, someone might break into tears for no +apparent reason. The fear of not passing was omnipresent. And there was +something that was feared even more than flunking the exams: passing +them with a terminal master's degree and thus being shut out of the Ph.D. +program entirely. If one simply flunked the exams, one could always take +them again in the spring. But a terminal master's was the end. +It was a great relief to learn that I had done quite well on the examinations. +Having passed them, I began to work on the prospectus for my dissertation, +and became a teaching assistant in the Philosophy Department, a further +requirement for the Ph.D. About half of each week I spent researching and +teaching in La Jolla and the other half I devoted to my political work in Los +Angeles. + + I was glad to be in a position to resume attending the weekly CheLumumba meetings. It was an extremely important period for us. In June, +Charlene Mitchell, our founding chairperson, had been selected by the +national convention to be our Party's candidate for President, thus becoming +the first Black woman ever to run for that office. We were immensely proud +that the first Black woman presidential candidate was also a Communist. +Because it had been twenty-eight years since the Communist Party had +participated in the presidential elections, her candidacy marked the +beginning of a new era for the Party. The vestiges of McCarthyism were +being repudiated, and more and more people were realizing that they had to +be defeated once and for all. +During September and October, Charlene was constantly on the road, +speaking in some twenty-one states and Puerto Rico as well. (No other +candidate even bothered to go to Puerto Rico.) In Southern California, we +campaigned for Charlene outside factory gates, at union meetings, in +churches, on campuses, in the streets and everywhere else our message +might fall on a receptive ear. Naturally we harbored no illusions about the +outcome of the elections. Therefore we weren't so much interested in the +number of votes she would pull, as in her ability to reach people who +otherwise would never have been inspired to consider political alternatives +outside the Republican and Democratic parties, and economic alternatives +outside monopoly capitalism. Charlene's candidacy gave us the opportunity +to speak about socialism as a real solution to the problems confronting the +working class, and especially Black and Brown people. +Around this time Charlene's brother, Deacon, and I entered into discussions +with leaders of the L. A. Black Panther Party, who had approached us about +working with their Party. They were considering opening an office on the +West Side of the city and wanted Deacon to lead that section. I was asked to +participate in the political education program. In view of the fact that all the +other members of the club were already deeply involved in mass +movements of one kind or another, we both gave serious thought to this +idea. Some of our comrades were active in the antiwar movement, pushing +for an approach among antiwar activists which recognized the relation +between aggression in Vietnam and racism and repression at home. Others, +including Kendra and Franklin, were working with students, primarily at + + Southwest Junior College. I felt that it would be important for some of us to +assist in the work of the Black Panther Party which, at that time, was like a +magnet drawing large numbers of young Black people, all over the country, +into its ranks. +After a series of meetings with the Panthers to air problems and explain and +set aside past hostilities, and following discussion of the proposal in the +Che-Lumumba Club, Deacon and I both agreed to go into the Panther Party. +We found a building for the West Side office on Seventh Avenue and +Venice Boulevard, and within a few days young sisters and brothers from +the surrounding community began to stream in. No sooner were programs +organized than they were bulging with eager young people. From threethirty in the afternoon, when the junior high school students came in, until +ten at night, the office was the scene of meetings, classes and discussions on +such topics as the Black Liberation Struggle in the United States, the +Movement in the Los Angeles Area, Strategy and Tactics in Community +Organizing, and Marxist-Leninist Theory of Revolution. +If I still retained any of the elitism which almost inevitably insinuates itself +into the minds of college students, I lost it all in the course of the Panther +political education sessions. When we read Lenin's State and Revolution, +there were sisters and brothers in the class whose public school education +had not even allowed them to learn how to read. Some of them told me how +they had stayed with the book for many painful hours, often using the +dictionary to discover the meaning of scores of words on one page, until +finally they could grasp the significance of what Lenin was saying. When +they explained, for the benefit of the other members of the class, what they +had gotten out of their reading, it was clear that they knew it all — they had +understood Lenin on a far more elemental level than any professor of social +science. +Not long after the office opened, we learned about a brutal killing which +had occurred in the neighborhood. This was the account given us: One +evening when a young brother had tried to buy some beer in a liquor store +nearby, the owner refused to accept his money in the absence of +identification proving him to be of age. Angry about not being able to get +his beer, he said a few strong words to the owner and stormed out of the + + store. Apparently for no other reason than sheer frustration, the brother +kicked over a garbage can standing on the corner. The owner grabbed his +weapon, hidden under the counter, and fired through the glass door, +instantly killing this brother who had done nothing more than vent his anger +on a garbage can outside. When later questioned about the incident, the +owner claimed he had a right to protect his property. The irony of this +tragedy was that we had just been reading about the function of the state as +providing protection for the propertied classes. It was clear that if people +did not make their protests heard, this shell of an excuse would be accepted +without question by the courts. That is to say, they would accept the owner's +claim that the life of this young Black man was worth less than a five-dollar +garbage can. +We assumed responsibility for organizing the community to see to it that +this man was brought to justice. This meant marches through the streets of +the surrounding neighborhood, door-to-door leafletting, street rallies, +particularly on the parking lot of the store, and a constant picket line urging +people to withdraw their patronage from this man we considered a +murderer. As a result, the store's business dwindled down to a mere fraction +of what it had been, and criminal charges of manslaughter were filed +against the owner. As usual, however, he did not even spend a night in jail, +since his bail was so low that it was tantamount to no bail at all. Still, we +were determined that he be prosecuted for — and convicted of — murder. +This movement gathered momentum. Classes and meetings at the office had +reached a total attendance of over two hundred. We were having to deal +with much more concentrated police harassment. Suddenly, in the midst of +all this, crisis struck at the Black Panther Party. Nationally, numbers of +police agents had been discovered to be infiltrators inside the Party. A purge +began. Once it was initiated, it began to engulf many sisters and brothers +who were as innocent as any of those advocating the purge. It was my +opinion that some of the enemy sympathizers who themselves should have +been purged had made their way into the decision-making process, where it +was determined who would be expelled and who would remain in the Party. +The West Side office was practically decimated. Deacon was called up on +the question of his membership in the Communist Party — in very much +the same way he might have been called before the Subversive Activities + + Control Board. Obviously, there was something more behind this than +simply the fact that he was a Communist — this had certainly been known +by all at the time he was approached to join the intermediate leadership of +the Black Panther Party. Moreover, they did not even confront me with the +ultimatum given Deacon — namely, to choose one of the two parties — +Black Panther or Communist. (This had been discussed before we entered +the Panther Party, and it had been agreed on both sides that the two parties +were not in competition with each other and that thus there existed no +problem of conflict of loyalties.) +Needless to say, this was the perfect moment for the enemy to move in and +take advantage of the disarray and confusion. Sure enough, around this +time, a leading member of the BPP — one who had helped a great deal with +the building of the West Side section — was found one morning in an alley +with a bullet through his brain. Shortly thereafter, around the middle of +January, before we had had a chance to recuperate from the shock of +Franco's death, Deacon and I heard a flash on the radio: two leaders of the +BPP, Bunchy Carter and Jon Huggins, had been shot to death during a +meeting of the Black Student Union on the campus of UCLA. That very +day I had planned to visit Jon and his wife Ericka to continue the dialogue +about the problems within the Party. With a few sisters and brothers from +the West Side office, we rushed over to the apartment to make sure nothing +had happened to Ericka and her newborn child. By the time we arrived, the +police were just completing their raid. Justifying their arrests of the sisters +and brothers in the apartment, including Ericka and the baby, they said they +had word that the Panthers might try to retaliate for the killings of their +people. This was absurd, because at that point, no one was fully aware of +the circumstances surrounding the murders. It was only later that we +learned that two members of Ron Karenga's US-Organization were the ones +who actually pulled the trigger. +Many times before, movement leaders and activists had been felled by the +bullets of police, conscious agents or crazy, confused brothers who let +themselves be used. We had cried before, we had attended funerals before, +and we had felt and expressed rage at seeing the life of a brother, a +comrade, so cruelly blown out of him. We knew that for the moment our +commitment meant that we were chained to a vicious circle of violence — + + in this way our enemies were trying to force us to retreat in fear. In a sense, +therefore, we always expected the violence, we knew it was coming, though +we could never predict the next target. Yet each time it struck, it was +equally devastating to us. No matter how many times it was repeated, there +was no getting used to it. +For me personally, the death of Jon Huggins was especially painful — of all +the Panther leaders, he and Ericka were among the ones to whom I felt +closest. Despite all the problems which had recently arisen, I had an +enormous respect and admiration for him and felt he was in good faith in +his determination to find a solution to the crisis within the Party. I was +convinced then, as I remain today, the police were involved in some way in +his murder because they feared his strength and his will to always do what +was best for his people. +Ericka and the other sisters and brothers were released late that night. When +she walked through the gates of Sybil Brand Institute for Women into the +hard rain cutting through the night outside, she seemed as strong as ever. +Seeing our sadness, our empathy with the pain she was surely suffering, she +said, "What's wrong with you all? We can't stop now. We've got to keep on +struggling." That was a moment I shall never forget. The sisters who had +been with her inside the jail said that she was the one who had kept +everyone's spirits high. She was the one who had most resolutely continued +to carry the banner of struggle. +Amid all the speculation about the motives behind the killing and the verbal +attacks on US-Organization, we attended Bunchy's funeral, and Ericka left +for Connecticut to bury her husband and to find a safe place for her young +daughter Maya. We learned that she had immediately begun to organize a +chapter of the Black Panther Party in New Haven where, a few months +later, police arrested her on a charge of conspiracy to murder. +Meanwhile, things quieted down around the BPP in Los Angeles, and +because the problems surrounding Deacon's membership in the CP were +never resolved, I felt it would be unprincipled of me to continue to work +with the Panthers. I decided to spend the rest of the school year on the +campus in La Jolla, where I worked again on a day-to-day basis with the +Black Student Council. At the beginning of the second quarter, the sisters + + and brothers in the leadership of the organization all agreed that something +was needed to set our membership in motion once more. We needed an +issue around which to struggle. But what was the right issue? What was the +most magnetic and most dramatic issue? Each of us thought seriously and +intensely; our individual proposals were argued out in meetings that seemed +never to end. +Finally, we reached unanimous agreement. Since the San Diego Campus of +the university was to consist, ultimately, of a series of separate colleges, we +decided that it would be just and appropriate to demand that the next +college — the third college — be expressly devoted to the needs of students +from oppressed social groups. Specifically, it should serve the needs of +Black students, Chicano students and white students of working-class +origin. While tightening our already close relationship with the Chicano +students in the Mexican-American Youth Association, we drew up plans for +our college. In order to project the radical character of our demands, we +decided to call it Lumumba-Zapata College — after the assassinated +Congolese revolutionary leader, Patrice Lumumba, and the Mexican +revolutionary, Emiliano Zapata. We wanted our goals to be transparent: +Lumumba-Zapata College, in our theoretical formulation, was to be a place +where our peoples could acquire the knowledge and skills we needed in +order to more effectively wage our liberation struggles. +After a brief period of strategy planning sessions, we decided that the time +was right to confront the university administration. One afternoon the +members of our two organizations streamed into the chancellor's office, +insisting that he listen to our demands. I had been designated by the sisters +and brothers to read the statement collectively drawn up by the BSC and +MAYA. Along with our demands for Lumumba-Zapata College, we issued +a very serious warning: in the event that the chancellor refused to negotiate, +we would not guarantee that the university would continue to function +undisturbed. +As could have been predicted, the chancellor did indeed refuse. His refusal +was our signal for an all-out offensive: more rallies, demonstrations and +confrontations. We knew that in order to be effective we needed the support +of a significant number of students and faculty. Our actions, therefore, were + + designed to attract as many of the white students and professors as possible. +Some white students were involved from the outset, since one very +important aspect of our demands was the integration into the college of +white students from working-class backgrounds. But we needed many +more; we aimed to draw hundreds into the movement for Lumumba-Zapata +and hoped to eventually bring the majority of the students over to our side. +Only in this way could we isolate the administration, and thus force it to +accept our demands. +Our actions were climaxed first by an appearance of our organizations in an +Academic Senate meeting. With the aid of sympathetic professors — +including Herbert Marcuse and others in the Philosophy Department — we +began to win over a sizeable number of faculty members to our position. +The next dramatic demonstration of our demands was a takeover of the +registrar's office. As a result of our occupation of one of the central nerves +of the university, the administration and those professors who were not +already convinced were made to understand the seriousness of our position. +We had put up a fierce struggle. Large numbers of UCSD students had +experienced the radicalization that was occurring on campuses throughout +the country. The university hierarchy decided, apparently, that it was best to +make the concessions we were demanding, rather than risk a prolonged +disruption of campus activities. To tell the truth, we had not really expected +them to agree so readily to our notion of the third college. And when they +did, those of us leading the movement knew that despite our victory — of +which all of us were proud — Lumumba-Zapata College would never +become the revolutionary institution we had originally projected. +Concessions were going to be inevitable, however the creation of the +college would bring large numbers of Black, Brown and working-class +white students into the university. And it would be a real breakthrough to +have a college in which students would exercise more control over the +education they received. +At the end of the school year, as I prepared to leave for a conference in +Oakland, and go from there to Cuba, students selected by our organizations +were settling down to a summer of drawing up concrete curriculum, faculty +and administrative proposals for the college. The fight was not over. On the + + contrary, it had just begun. The most important responsibility resting with +us was to ensure that whoever became involved in the college — students +and faculty alike, carried on the legacy of struggle out of which the idea of +Lumumba-Zapata was born. + +The era of massive national conferences was still in full force. In July 1969, +movement activists, Black, Brown and white, from throughout the country, +converged in Oakland, California, to attend a conference called by the +Black Panther Party to found a United Front Against Fascism. +The organizational theory behind the conference was excellent: people with +various ideologies — the broadest possible representation of people — +joined together to forge a United Front to combat the increasingly ferocious +repression. But there were problems with the conference, and I was perhaps +overly sensitive, since I had just recently been forced to break my relatively +close ties with the Panthers. The basic difficulty, I thought, was that we +were being asked to believe that the monster of fascism had already broken +loose and that we were living in a country not essentially different from +Nazi Germany. Certainly, we had to fight the mounting threat of fascism, +but it was incorrect and misleading to inform people that we were already +living under fascism. Moreover, the resistance dictated by such an analysis +would surely lead us in the wrong direction. First, in seeking to include +absolutely everyone who had an interest in overthrowing that fascism, we +might be pushed into the arms of the liberals. Our revolutionary thrust +would thus be blunted. And if we were not led in that direction, we would +be pressed toward the opposite end of the political spectrum. For, if we +believed we were living under genuine fascism, it would mean that virtually +all democratic channels of struggle were closed and we should immediately +and desperately rush into the armed struggle. +In many of the speeches, the word "fascism" was used interchangeably with +the word "racism." Certainly, there was a definite relationship between +racism and fascism. If a full-blown fascism ever erupted in the United +States, it would certainly ride on the back of racism in much the same way +that anti-Semitism provided the handle for German fascism in the thirties. +But to think that racism was fascism and fascism was racism was to cloud + + the vision of those who were attracted to the struggle. It was to hamper their +own political development and to impede the organized mass fight against +racism, against political repression — and especially in defense of the +embattled Panthers. +In the midst of the confusion, Herbert Aptheker, the Communist historian, +made an excellent presentation, laying out the relationship between racism +today and the potential of fascism tomorrow. For me, it confirmed the +correctness of my decision to join the Communist Party almost a year ago +to that date. +With all its obvious flaws, the conference was nevertheless one of the most +important political events of the season. It established the basis for breaking +out of the narrow nationalism so prevalent in the Black Liberation +Movement and pointed the way for alliances between people of color and +white people around issues which involved us all. +As soon as the conference had adjourned, Kendra and I boarded a plane for +Mexico City, where we joined the remaining members of a delegation of +Communists invited by the Cubans to spend a month in the "first free +territory of America." I was nervous and depressed during the flight to +Mexico: my purse had been stolen while I slept in a Haight-Ashbury park, +and I had no money and no passport. Kendra had lent me enough for the +ticket to Mexico City, but I was less than certain of being able to secure a +passport before the others took off for Cuba. My only hope was that the +Cubans would let me enter the country without my traveling papers. +Not only did the passport present problems insofar as the trip was +concerned, we all had to worry about concealing our intentions from the +Mexicans, who, on several occasions, have deported activists from the +United States trying to get to Cuba. During the student demonstrations of +1968, when the police had massacred crowds of people, a group of activists, +among whom were Bobbie Hodges and Babu (with whom I had worked in +SNCC) were in Mexico City attempting to get a plane for Cuba. They had +all been detained by the police, interrogated about the purpose of their trip +(were they going to receive guerrilla training?) and asked about their +participation in the student rebellion in Mexico City. The outcome of the +whole affair was deportation for them all. They had been randomly and + + separately placed on planes leaving Mexico — Bobbie, for instance, had +ended up in Paris. +We devised a plan to elude the Mexican police. As soon as we landed, we +would look up the address of the Cuban Embassy, where our visas were +supposed to be waiting, and check into a hotel somewhere in the vicinity. +After we had deposited our luggage, we would go out on foot to locate the +Embassy. The next morning, we would make a dash for it. We knew that if +the police discovered us before we got inside the Embassy, we might be +detained before we could even obtain our visas. After receiving the visas, +we would remain in the Embassy and at the last moment we would rush for +the airport, stopping off for our luggage on the way. +That night we walked for hours, but in vain, for we could not find the +Cuban Embassy anywhere in the neighborhood. Only after much wandering +the next day did we discover on the other side of town another street with +exactly the same name. The Cuban Embassy was located there. Reaching +the Embassy finally without incident (although we noticed men outside who +appeared to be U.S. agents), we were told that our visas had not yet arrived +and that unfortunately it would not be possible for us to leave for Havana +that evening. It was Monday and if everything could be arranged in time, +we could take the Friday plane to Cuba. +And then came the coup de grace. Explaining that my passport had been +stolen two days before, I asked whether I could board the plane without it. +Trying to console me, the Cuban comrade told me that they were not the +ones who required the passports; it was the Mexican immigration +department. No one could leave Mexico for Cuba without first presenting +their papers to the Mexican authorities. The comrade suggested that I go to +the U.S. Embassy there in Mexico City and attempt to get a new passport as +quickly as possible. +I was not at all optimistic about being able to get my passport replaced. The +State Department still kept lists of Communists and often refused to deliver +passports to our comrades until a lawyer challenged them in the courts. +Kendra, for instance, thinking she had lost her passport, had put in an +application some six weeks before the trip. Normally a passport is ready +within a week after one applies, but each time Kendra inquired, they told + + her that there was no information concerning the date her passport would be +ready. Luckily she found her misplaced passport before we left the country, +because the new one had still not arrived. Another member of our +delegation had also waited for weeks for his passport and at that moment in +Mexico City was awaiting word from his lawyer, who was dealing with the +State Department. I was still willing to try any scheme we could concoct in +order to acquire a passport by Friday. I returned to the hotel, picked out the +nicest clothes I had — the ones which would identify me as an innocuous +tourist whose passport and money had just been stolen. At the U.S. +Embassy, I tearfully explained that I had been planning this trip through +Mexico, Central America and South America for over a year, and my +vacation plans had been ruined by some thief. A friend was waiting for me +in Nicaragua and I had no way of reaching her. Wasn't it possible to get a +passport on some kind of emergency basis? The Embassy official took pity +on me and by the next afternoon, there was a new passport waiting for me. +The ploy had been pulled off; I had obviously aroused no suspicions, so +they had issued the passport without first checking with the State +Department in Washington. +We had almost given up when the visas finally came through. With the +exception of Jim — whose passport was still in the hands of some +bureaucrat in the State Department — we all prepared to take the Friday +flight to Havana. Whoever was about to board the Cuban plane had to agree +to be photographed by the Mexican immigration officials. No one, not even +the nun on her way to Cuba, doubted that these photos would soon end up +in the files of the CIA. We were not completely cured of our paranoia until +we had actually lifted off the ground. +As we were flying over the lush Havana Green Belt, studded with tall, +graceful palm trees, the pilot announced over the loudspeaker, "You are +about to land on the first free territory of America." Several minutes later, +when the plane touched the runway, everyone on the plane spontaneously +burst into applause. +It was the day before Cuba's most important national holiday — the 26th of +July. On this date in 1953, Fidel led an assault on the Moncada Garrison, a +central base for the dictator Batista's army and a well-known symbol of his + + power. Though Fidel and his comrades were all either killed or arrested, +people viewed their courageous act as the first great challenge to Batista's +dictatorship. After the ultimate triumph of the revolution, July 26th, the Day +of the National Rebellion, continued to be celebrated as the anniversary of +the first armed attack of the revolution. +Ordinarily there would have been a mass rally at the Plaza de la Revolucion +at which Fidel and other leaders would have spoken to the hundreds of +thousands in attendance. This year July 26 would mark the beginning of an +agricultural campaign to process more sugar cane than ever before in the +history of their economy. To be exact, they wanted to produce ten million +tons of sugar. Instead of going to the Plaza on July 26, everyone was going +to the fields to work. While it would be an honor to participate in the +Campaign of the Ten Millions, I must confess that I was disappointed that +there would be no rally at the Plaza. This was the first time since the +triumph of the revolution that the traditional celebration would not take +place. +Colorful billboard posters lined the road from the airport to the hotel: +posters about the Campana de los Diez Milliones; posters of El Che; posters +praising the people of Vietnam. Many of these billboards had been used in +the past to advertise U.S. products, bearing slogans such as "Drink CocaCola," and "The Pause that Refreshes." I felt a great satisfaction knowing +that the Cubans had ripped down these trademarks of global exploitation +and had replaced them with warm and stirring symbols that had real +meaning for the people. The sense of human dignity was palpable. +Our bus carried us across the grounds of the Havana University, reserved +for two hundred years for the sons and daughters of the wealthy. Now the +students were the children of workers and peasants — Black and Brown as +well as white. +The bus stopped in front of the Havana Libre, formerly the Havana Hilton, +now freed from the veined fingers of decadent old capitalists. This was the +first time I had stayed in such a fancy hotel. Its elaborateness, however, was +quieted by the guests: workers on vacation, young couples on their +honeymoons and by the compañeros who staffed the hotel — men and +women with none of the servility usually associated with bellboys, + + chambermaids and waiters, people who would never accept the tip that +natives of capitalist countries are accustomed to giving. +In the early morning hours of July 26, we drove to the fields. Buses, vans, +trucks and automobiles were packed with young and old, proudly dressed in +work clothes, singing as they made their way to the country. It seemed as if +every able-bodied resident of Havana was rushing to the fields as though to +a joyous carnival. On these faces reigned the serenity of meaningful work +— the passion of commitment. They were finished with the politics of class +and race, done with the acid bile of outdoing one's neighbor for the sake of +materially rising above him. +The sugar cane campaign was closely connected with work in other realms +of agriculture. The higher the rate of productivity in preparing and +harvesting tobacco, citrus fruit, coffee, etc., the more the workers would be +able to devote their energies to cane-cutting. Our first trip to the countryside +was to the coffee fields in the Havana Green Belt. On July 26 we spent the +day hoeing away the weeds and breaking up the soil around the coffee +plants to permit them to grow unhindered. +It was a hard day. In the white-hot sunlight sweat drenched my clothes +before I had hardly gotten started. I was in fairly good condition but the +hoeing was difficult work for me. The Cubans, on the other hand, did it +with ease. I was determined to ignore the sun and to keep the same pace as +the hundreds of compañeros around me. Even when a spell of vertigo +threatened to overcome me, I said nothing and refused to stop. +Being North Americans, we all felt we had to constantly demonstrate our +worth. At the precise moment when I was certain I was going to faint, +Kendra chopped her foot with the hoe and I had to accompany her to the +first aid station. It was a convenient "out," but I returned to the fields still +determined to survive the day. Besides, I had to build up my endurance for +the coming week, which we were going to spend cutting cane in the +province of Oriente on the eastern end of the island. +After a shower, a change of clothes and a few moments' rest in the airconditioned comfort of the Havana Libre, I left the hotel with one of the +comrades from our delegation to explore the streets of Havana. The old + + Spanish architecture in some parts of the center made me think back to the +War of Independence, the Black General Antonio Maceo, wounded some +eighty times before he finally fell. Down on the Malecon, we saw the statue +erected by the United States. The eagle at its tip was missing. The +revolutionaries tore it down after their march on Havana. +We saw a young militia woman wielding a machine gun on guard duty in +front of her work center. Wearing the light blue shirt with epaulets, olivegreen pants, military boots, she defended her assigned territory. With the +archenemy so near — Florida was a mere ninety miles away — one of the +most noticeable aspects of everyday life in Cuba was bound to be defense. +People were still talking about the Bay of Pigs invasion as if it had +happened only yesterday. Eight years had passed since the burial ceremony +for the seven who were killed when airplanes from the United States and its +bases in Guatemala and Nicaragua had bombed the airports in three Cuban +cities. On April 16, 1961, Fidel had proclaimed the socialist character of the +Cuban Revolution and called upon his people to mobilize themselves lest +the "puppets of imperialism expand their acts of aggression." Sure enough, +the very next day, Cuban exiles — trained by the CIA with participation by +the Kennedy administration — landed with U.S. ships and planes on Playa +Giron. +Eight years was indeed a short span of time, considering that the Cubans +were trying to build a new world and would fight to the death for their right +to build it. U.S. aggression had expressed itself in other ways as well. Using +the presence of Soviet missiles on Cuban soil as an excuse, the Kennedy +administration openly declared its intention to annihilate the Cuban +Revolution even if it meant a thermonuclear catastrophe. And during the +days of the October crisis, the world tottered above the abyss. Moreover, +there was the U.S.-imposed economic blockade; there were U.S. troops on +Guantanamo Base in Oriente, and news had leaked out that Kennedy had +actually discussed the issue of whether to assassinate the Prime Minister, +Fidel Castro. +One of the mass organizations very much in evidence from one end of the +island to the other was the Committee to Defend the Revolution. During our +first walk through the streets of Havana, we had noticed that on at least one + + house door in every block there was a poster in red, white and blue, with the +words "Comite de Defensa de la Revolucion." +The origin of this organization had been spontaneous. On September 28, +1960, during a rally at which Fidel was reporting on his trip to the United +Nations, two bombs were set off by someone in the crowd. Fidel's response +was swift: +We are going to establish a system of collective vigilance and then +we're going to see if the lackeys of Imperialism will be able to operate, +because we live all over the city; there is not a single apartment +building in this city, nor is there any block, any square block, that is +not widely represented here. . . . We are going to establish a +Committee of Revolutionary Vigilance in every square block, so that +the people stand vigilance, so that the people see everything, so that +the enemy understands that when the masses of people are organized, +there is no imperialist nor lackey of the imperialists, nor sell-out to the +imperialists, nor instruments of the imperialists that will be able to +operate again.1 +By 1969, there were CDR's in literally every block on the island. It was +amusing to recall some of the propaganda which was floating around in the +United States about the Cuban Revolution — particularly the lies about the +Committee for the Defense of the Revolution. According to the government +propagandists, this was a spy organization, something like the FBI, that +snooped around gathering intelligence on the people and communicating it +to the government. This was obviously absurd, since the majority of the +Cuban population belonged to the CDR's; they had joined because they +wanted to help root out the saboteurs and enemy agents who were trying to +subvert the Cuban Revolution. Another widely accepted falsehood about +Cuba had to do with the role of Fidel Castro. According to the propaganda, +he was not only a "tyrannical dictator," imposing an iron will upon his +people; he was projected as an infallible charismatic figure, whom the +people were expected to worship. After seeing all the spectacular posters of +Che Guevara and other leaders of the revolution, I looked hard for pictures +and posters of Fidel. The only ones I could find were historical in character +— in which he was shown with guerrillas in a typical scene of battle. But + + there were no portraits of the Prime Minister anywhere to be seen. When I +asked some of the compañeros why there were many portraits of Che to be +seen but absolutely none of Fidel, they told me that he himself had +prohibited people from mounting pictures of him in their offices or work +centers. This upset people sometimes, I learned, for they thought he was +more self-effacing than was necessary. +Talking to almost any Cuban about Fidel, it soon became clear that they did +not see him as being anything more than extraordinarily intelligent, +exceptionally committed, and an extremely warm human being endowed +with great leadership talents. He made mistakes, human errors, and people +loved him in large part because of his honesty with them. Fidel was their +leader, but most important he was also their brother, in the largest sense of +the word. +We spent a week in the small village of Santa Maria II, located in the sugar +center, Antonio Guiterras, living in log cabins with cement floors in an +encampment which normally served as a Party retreat camp for political +education. Our eating place was an open area with a roof to shade it from +the sometimes unbearably hot Oriente sun. The toilet was a regular +outhouse, until plumbing was installed toward the end of our stay. The +shower was a cement stall into which we took large buckets of cold water +fetched from the one faucet on the grounds. +We were roughing it, even by Cuban standards. We followed the regular +routine: up at five, breakfast and out to the fields with our machetes. Back +in the camp by eleven; lunch and rest during the noon hours when the +sweltering tropical heat would be dangerous even for those accustomed to +it. Back in the fields by three, and by six it was time to lay down the +machetes for the day. +Cane-cutting was far more difficult and fatiguing than the work in the +coffee fields. But again, I was determined to do at least my share, and I +meticulously followed the system: A powerful stroke at the root of the +plant; careful strokes down the side of the stalk to shave off the leaves; then +the last motion of slicing the stalks into pieces the right size for processing. +It was hard, and the heat was even more intolerable because our clothes +were blue jeans, heavy long-sleeved work shirts, high-top boots, and + + gloves. All this was for protection from the liquid that seeped out of the +cane leaves and could cause a severe skin rash. It didn't take me long to +accept the fact that during the working hours of each day I was going to be +soaking wet with sweat. In two days I was able to get into the swing of it; I +had recovered my energy, it seemed, and could work alongside a Cuban +compañero — though I did suspect that he was slowing his pace to remain +with me. +One day I remarked to a Cuban how I admired his skill in cutting cane — it +was almost like an art, the way he did it. He thanked me for the +compliment, but quickly added that his skill was a skill that needed to +become obsolete. Cane-cutting was inhuman toil, he said. Before the +revolution thousands had had to depend for their survival on working like +animals during the cane season. Many of them would end up having to cut +off a finger with the machete for a little insurance money to make ends meet +a little while longer. +The job of cutting cane had become qualitatively different since the +revolution. No one was a cane-cutter by trade any longer; during the cane +season everyone pitched in. Also profits for others were not being squeezed +from their sweat and toil. They knew that the returns from sugar sales +abroad would be used to raise the living standards of the Cuban people as a +whole — new schools would be built, more hospitals constructed; child +care centers would multiply, better housing would be available to those who +had the greatest need. +Even so, this Cuban said, the business of cutting cane was work not fit for +human beings; it made you old before your time. He continued to do it +because he knew that he was working for the day when his sons and their +children would not have to toil under the sweltering sun. Mechanization of +the entire industry was on the agenda, but the rapidity with which it could +be put into operation depended on the sacrifices they were all willing to +make. +In this way he subtly criticized me for having romanticized something +which was really nothing more than terribly hard work. It was then that I +began to realize the true meaning of underdevelopment: it is nothing to be + + utopianized. Romanticizing the plight of oppressed people is dangerous and +misleading. +As the time went by, Kendra and I and the rest of us began to feel as if we +had taken root in this small village in Oriente. We had met almost every +resident; we knew the Communist Party headquarters well and we knew all +the children in the barrio. Despite the language barrier, the children +accepted us as members of the family. They helped me with my Spanish +lessons each day. I was extremely embarrassed that I had not learned a little +Spanish before the trip, for it is an affront to a people to visit them before +having attempted to learn their language. Because I spoke Spanish so +poorly, never having studied it, I felt less inhibited with the children. They +were patient, corrected me and helped me find words when no dictionary +was available. +It was a sad day indeed when we had to pack up our things and board the +bus, ready to move on to the next stage of our journey. All of us cried — +men and women alike, in our delegation as well as on the Cuban side. The +hardest part for me was saying good-bye to the children. A young boy of +about nine or ten, who had always been the toughest one of his group, +seemed reluctant to come up and say good-bye. I thought that it was his +natural shyness. Just before I got into the bus, I went over to him and gave +him a kiss on the cheek. He tore away from me and ran as fast as he could. +But once in the bus, I saw him standing behind a tree, trying to conceal +himself as his body shook with sobs. The tears that had been flooding my +own eyes slid down my face. +We had an unusually rugged schedule over the next weeks: schools, +hospitals, child care centers, historical spots, a workers' resort center, the +University of Santiago, a dam, a rice-producing center. +Wherever we went, we were immensely impressed by the results of the +fierce struggle that had been waged against racism after the triumph of the +revolution. The first executive decrees of the new government had been to +abolish segregation in the cities, brought to Cuba by corrupt capitalists from +the United States. Now it was simply a crime to discriminate against Black +people in any way, including the use of racist language. What was more +important, of course, was the destruction of the material base of racism — + + weeding it out of the economy. During our trip, we saw Black people in +leadership in factories, schools, hospitals and wherever else we went. It was +clear to us — and Kendra, Carlos and I, the three Black members, +incessantly discussed it — that only under socialism could this fight against +racism have been so successfully executed. +Around the end of August, our delegation, together with a larger Puerto +Rican delegation, boarded a Cuban freighter which would take us on the +first leg of our trip back home as it transported cement to the French +Antilles. The freighter steered out of the Santiago Bay that evening. By the +time we had cleared the island, the moonless night made it impossible to +see land or sea. We were settling down, finding our way around the ship, +and along with the large Puerto Rican delegation returning via this route, +we were trying to get acquainted with the crew. The captain was a twentysix-year-old ex-philosophy student, with whom I was eager to discuss +philosophy. This was his first voyage manning this ship and, like us, he was +having to familiarize himself with the ship and the crew as well. +As we sailed farther into the darkness, a plane suddenly flew low over the +ship at lightning speed. Before I could collect my thoughts, it crossed above +us once more. As Kendra and I rushed toward the captain's bridge to find +out what was going on, one of the crew members told us calmly that this +was an exhibition of aggression by a U.S. aircraft carrier enforcing the +economic blockade. +By means of lights, the U.S. carrier began signaling to our ship to identify +itself and its mission. Of course, they could see the Cuban flag; this whole +episode was the routine harassment which Cuban ships confronted +whenever they sailed out of their own waters. We signaled back that before +we identified ourselves, we wanted the name and mission of the party +desiring the information. +Amusement mingled with tension during these moments of our encounter +with the U.S. aircraft carrier. Suddenly in the near distance, a bizarre, +soundless explosion-effect lit up the darkness. At first, it looked like a +miniature mushroom cloud. A second later, it seemed to be heading directly +toward us. I was too frightened to ask what was going on; if this was lethal +gas, there was no way for us to escape. Finally, it engulfed the ship with its + + bright light, illuminating the whole area as if it were high noon. A crew +member then remarked that it must be a new flare, and that the United +States was using the blockade to test it. +We finally shook off the North American military men and enjoyed for a +few days the legendary beauty of the Caribbean. We passed the politically +not so beautiful countries of Haiti and Santo Domingo, and at last received +instructions that the ship was to dock in Guadeloupe. +I did not like the idea of being responsible for communications with the +Guadeloupeans, but I was the only one on board who knew French, so I had +no other choice. +Our delegation had very little luggage. But the Puerto Rican delegation had +boxes of books which the Cubans had given them for their bookstore in San +Juan. I was careful to ask the customs people whether or not they wanted to +inspect all the packages. We wished to avoid any kind of incident on the +island, and the Puerto Ricans wanted to make sure they would be able to +mail the packages to San Juan from Basse-Terre, the port where we had +docked. The Frenchman told me not to worry about a thing; all they wanted +to see was our passports. After they were stamped, we would be completely +clear. +The Cuban captain had the name of a women who would allow us to eat at +her restaurant-hotel and would let us leave our belongings there while we +made arrangements for a flight to Puerto Rico. After depositing our things, I +went to an agency to buy plane tickets for the twenty-five of us. Some of +the Puerto Rican brothers began to cart their packages to the post office. +I was negotiating with the travel agent when one of the Puerto Rican +comrades broke into the office, frantically explaining that all the packages +had been confiscated. The police had confiscated the passports of several +members of their delegation, and it seemed that they had been charged with +a crime. Because of the language barrier, they did not fully understand what +was happening. They needed me as an interpreter. +As I walked through the streets of Basse-Terre, I was certain that this was a +minor misunderstanding which could be instantly cleared up. The passports + + would be returned and we would be on our way to Puerto Rico later that +night. The comrades led me down a broken-down street, through a dark +driveway into a dingy garage which was being used as a storage area, +apparently by the French Customs Department. In the dim light of this +cellar, about ten members of the Puerto Rican Delegation were standing in a +circle around an old French colonialist who was waving their passports in +the air while he ranted about communism infiltrating the "free French +world" of Guadeloupe. The faces of the Puerto Rican brothers were +distorted in incomprehension. +Calmly, but quite firmly, I asked him what it was that disturbed him so +much. My cool-headed posture did not sober him, as I had hoped, but rather +set him off on a tirade that was even more vitriolic than the first. He was +accusing us all of being agents of Cuban communism, bringing communist +propaganda to foment revolution on this tranquil island where the "natives" +loved their French governors and had peacefully coexisted with them for so +many decades. I thought to myself that it would have indeed been a good +thing if in such a short time we could have fomented an insurrection there. +Unfortunately, our presence on the island had nothing to do with +revolutionary activity. +When he quieted down, I began to tell him the simple truth: Some of us +were Communists — I, for example — and some of us were not. We were +returning from a trip to Cuba and hoped to leave Guadeloupe on the next +plane to Puerto Rico. As for the books and literature, we had no intention of +leaving a single one of them in Guadeloupe. Their destination was a +bookstore in Puerto Rico. Besides, they were written in Spanish and as far +as I knew, French, not Spanish, was the language spoken in Guadeloupe. +Moreover, the majority of the books were not political in character, but +rather were classical and contemporary Spanish-language literature of all +sorts. +When I tried to catch my breath to move on to the next part of my speech in +French, the man made a wild sweeping gesture, moved from one side of the +room to the other and pointed an accusing finger at me: "Mademoiselle, +vous êtes communiste!" he screamed, a horrified look crumpling his face. + + My casual reference to myself as a Communist had apparently confirmed +his worst suspicions. +I knew that I was carrying on a dialogue with a raving lunatic. But despite +the bizarre circumstances, in this dingy cellar on the terrain of French +Imperialism, I felt called upon to defend my Party, Cuba, the Socialist +Countries, the World Communist Movement and the cause of oppressed +people across the globe. "Oui, Monsieur, je suis communiste et je le +considere un des plus grands honneurs humains, parce que nous luttons +pour la liberation totale de la race humaine." Yes, I am a Communist and I +consider it one of the greatest honors, because we are struggling for the +total liberation of the human race. +In the heat of this quarrel, I had not bothered to ask the comrades standing +around what kind of approach they wanted to take to the situation. With my +speech I had gotten them even more deeply involved. The Frenchman's face +had turned bright-red, and he furiously threatened to lock us all up for five +years and throw the books into the sea. Obviously it was time to bring this +dialogue to a different level. After all, they were in power on this island and +if we didn't watch out, we could really find ourselves locked away in a +dungeon with no one knowing our whereabouts. +I repeated my original statement: we had not come to Guadeloupe on any +political mission. We simply found this to be the most convenient way of +returning to our own countries. But the man wouldn't be appeased. He +began to tear open some of the boxes which were piled up on the floor. +When he discovered a box of Tri-Continentals, a revolutionary periodical +published in Cuba, he asked me where all that classical Spanish literature +was supposed to be. He ripped open another box, discovering this time +something that sent him soaring to new heights of rage: posters depicting +Jesus Christ, with haloed head, wielding a carbine on his shoulder. For him, +this was the straw that broke the camel's back. He completely lost control, +and literally fell on the floor waving his arms and legs, bellowing +inarticulate sounds. I stared incredulously at this desperate creature and +decided to wait quietly until his fit had subsided. +Uniformed men entered the room, as though they were going to arrest us. +As it turned out, they wanted all the passports that they had not yet + + confiscated. I told them that they had no right to seize our passports — we +weren't even formally charged with a crime. One of the colonialists +announced that we were to appear before a judge the following morning for +the reading of the charges and the trial. If we did not want to give up our +passports, then detention in jail was the alternative. Imagining what the +dungeons must have been like, and realizing that we would be without any +kind of movement to back us, hidden away on this island in the Caribbean, +we all decided that we would turn over our passports and take advantage of +our freedom to make some plans for escape. +Using some of the captain's connections with sympathetic Cubans living on +the island, we made contact with a Black woman, a respected lawyer and a +leading member of the Communist Party of Guadeloupe. +Mattre Archimede was a big woman with very dark skin, penetrating eyes, +and unassailable confidence. I will never forget the first meeting we had +with her. I felt as if I were in the presence of a very great woman. As for our +predicament, there was never any doubt in my mind that she would rescue +us. But I was so impressed by her personality, by the respect that she clearly +commanded as a Communist, even from the colonialists, that for a while +our problem became a secondary concern for me. If I had surrendered to my +desires, I would have remained on the island to learn from this woman. +Over the next days, she worked tenaciously at negotiating with the customs +officials, the police, the judges. We learned that there was indeed a law +which could be legitimately invoked — insofar as colonial laws could be +legitimate — to put us behind bars for a substantial period of time. The only +way out was a compromise: the colonialists would let us leave the island +only under the condition that the Puerto Ricans leave the literature behind. +We fought this, of course, but at least we had won the first stage of our +battle. Our final decision was to take our passports, leave Guadeloupe and +leave the question of the books in the hands of Mattre Archimede, who +promised to do everything possible to retrieve them. +In an informal ceremony, we thanked Mattre Archimede for her invaluable +assistance. With affection, we took leave of her, the woman who had +allowed us to stay at her hotel, the Cuban captain and the ship crew. Then +we headed for the other side of the island, Point-à-Pitre, where we caught a + + plane the next morning for Puerto Rico. From there, we North Americans +took off for New York. + +The Cuban trip had been a great climax in my life. Politically I felt +infinitely more mature, and it seemed that the Cubans' limitless +revolutionary enthusiasm had left a permanent mark on my existence. I had +expected to spend a few days in New York, then go directly to my place in +Cardiff-by-the-Sea, where I could quietly reflect on my Cuban experiences +before I began the year teaching at UCLA. +I did not discover until I returned to the coast that an FBI agent had +published an article in the campus newspaper about a Communist who had +recently been hired by the Philosophy Department. William Divale revealed +in his article that he had been instructed by the FBI to infiltrate the +Communist Party. Undoubtedly he had also been instructed to publish the +article about my membership in the Party. +Another article had appeared in the San Francisco Examiner, under the byline of Ed Montgomery, one of the most reactionary reporters in the state. +According to him, I was not only a member of the Communist Party, +U.S.A., but (despite the contradiction) I was a Maoist as well. The article +alleged that I also belonged to the Students for a Democratic Society and +the Black Panther Party. Moreover, he said he had information that I was a +gun runner for the Black Panther Party, and that he knew for a fact that I +had been under surveillance for some time by the San Diego Police +Department. +When I read this nonsense, I laughed. But at the same time, I sensed that I +was in the midst of a serious situation. My suspicions were confirmed when +I learned that the governing body of the university — under the leadership +of Governor Ronald Reagan — had instructed the chancellor of the Los +Angeles campus to formally ask me whether I was a member of the +Communist Party. +I was somewhat shocked, I admit, by this march of events. Not that I had +expected the issue of my membership in the Communist Party to be totally + + ignored. What shocked me was the ceremonious character of the +confrontation and what seemed the beginning of an inquisition a la +McCarthy. +When I accepted the job at UCLA, I was unaware of the regulation in the +Regents' handbook — dating back to 1949 — prohibiting the hiring of +Communists. This clearly unconstitutional statute was pulled out of the +closet, and invoked by Ronald Reagan and company in order to prevent me +from teaching at UCLA. +As this whole affair was brewing, I realized that the personal goals I had set +for myself were about to collide head-on with the political requirements of +my life. Originally I had not intended to begin working that year. I had not +yet completed my Ph.D. dissertation and wanted to get that out of the way +before I went out job-seeking. Later I had decided to accept the position at +UCLA because its light teaching load would leave me the time and +flexibility I needed to finish writing the thesis. I wanted desperately to get +that part of my academic life behind me. But now, I had been challenged. +To accept the challenge meant that I would have to abandon the idea of +receiving my degree before the end of that school year. +My comrades in the Che-Lumumba Club immediately committed +themselves to building a campaign within the Black community in Los +Angeles around my right to teach at UCLA. White comrades were active as +well. On the campus, the Black Student Union and the Black Professors' +organization took up the banner. Large numbers of students and professors +began to understand the need to fight the Regents' political encroachments +on the autonomy of the university. +The unanimous position of the Philosophy Department was to condemn the +Regents for interrogating me about my political beliefs and affiliations. +None of them had been asked, as a condition of their employment, whether +they were members of the Democratic, Republican, or any other party. The +chairman of the Philosophy Department, Donald Kalish, had assumed a +principled, unyielding position from the outset. It was largely because of his +work, and the efforts of the few Black professors, that the movement to +support my right to teach expanded throughout the faculty. + + The stage was set for the battle. The first step was to answer the chancellor's +letter asking me whether I was a member of the Communist Party. Only my +lawyer — John McTernan — and a few close friends and comrades were +aware of the way I was going to reply to the question. Most people assumed +that I would invoke the Fifth Amendment to the Constitution, declining to +answer on the grounds that I might incriminate myself. During the +McCarthy era, this had been the strategy of most Communists, for at that +time, if it could be established that a person was a Communist, he or she +could be sentenced, under the Smith Act, to many years in prison. Gus Hall +and Henry Winston, the General Secretary and the Chairman of our Party, +had spent almost ten years of their lives behind walls. Since there was going +to be a fight in any event, I preferred to pick the combat area, and to +determine myself the terms of the struggle. The Regents had moved in with +an attack on me. Now I would assume the offensive and would move in +with an attack on them. +I answered the chancellor's letter with an unequivocal affirmation of my +membership in the Communist Party. I strongly protested the posing of the +question in the first place, but made it clear to them that I was prepared to +fight openly, as a communist. +My reply caught the Regents unawares, and some of them considered my +announcement of my membership in the Communist Party a personal +affront. I am sure that they had taken for granted that I would call upon the +Fifth Amendment. Their strategy, in turn, would have been to publicly +ransack my immediate past in order to prove that I was in fact a +Communist. +They countered my move with an impetuous, angry response: they +announced their intention to fire me. +The racists and anti-Communists throughout the state responded with furor. +Threatening calls and letters poured into the Philosophy Department and +into the offices of the Communist Party. A man broke into the Philosophy +Department offices and physically attacked Don Kalish. A special telephone +line had to be installed in my office, so that all my calls could be screened +before they reached me. The campus police had to be placed on alert at all + + times. Several times they had to check out my car because of bomb threats I +had received. +For security purposes, a brother was assigned by my comrades in CheLumumba to stay with me at all times, and I had to change many of my +personal habits and remold them for the requirements of security. Things +which I had taken for granted for so long were now completely out of the +question. If, for instance, I got bogged down on some work I was doing, I +could no longer go out alone for a walk or a drive at two o'clock in the +morning. If I needed cigarettes at an hour when most people were sleeping, +I would have to wake Josef and ask him to go with me. +It was difficult for me to accept the necessity of someone's being with me +practically all the time, and I was constantly criticized by members of the +Che-Lumumba Club for taking security so lightly. Kendra and Franklin +Alexander kept reminding me that if anything ever happened to me they +would be the ones to be blamed. Whenever I made light of the need for +security, they reminded me of all the incidents that had already occurred. +There had been the time when I was pursued by the police while driving +home alone at night. They had followed me for some distance and as I +slowed down to turn into my driveway, the cops aimed their spotlight into +the car and kept it trained on me until I reached the door. I had assumed that +this was just one more of their attempts to harass me, so I ignored them. But +afterward, a comrade remarked I underestimated them — they could have +been setting me up for an assassination. +It wasn't just a question of police either. The comrades would often remind +me that out of the thousands of threats that had been made on my life, there +might be one person crazy enough to actually try to kill me. Just one +person, one crazy person. +After our first victory in court — an injunction prohibiting the Regents +from firing me for political reasons ��� the hate letters and threats multiplied +in number and ferocity. Bomb threats were so frequent that after a while the +campus police stopped checking under the hood of my car for explosives. +Of necessity, I had to learn the procedure myself. One afternoon, a Black +plainclothesman interrupted my class to tell me that serious threats had been +received and that the campus police had instructed him to guard me until I + + was ready to go home. That day several calls had been received at various +points on the campus warning that I would not get off the grounds alive. +Apparently the same person had made calls all over Los Angeles, to friends +and acquaintances of mine and people involved in the movement. When I +walked out of the classroom, Franklin, Gregory and several other comrades +from Che-Lumumba were waiting to take me home, their long coats not +quite concealing the shotguns and rifles they had brought along. We all +remembered that barely a year ago John Huggins and Bunchy Carter, two +members of the Black Panther Party, had been shot to death on that campus +— not far from where I was holding my class. +If the need for constant security made life unwieldy for me, it was only one +facet of the larger problem of getting used to the fact that I had been +transformed into a public figure overnight. I hated being the center of such +excessive attention. The snooping, often parasitic news reporters jarred my +nerves. And I loathed being stared at like a curiosity object. I had never +aspired to be a "public revolutionary"; my concept of my revolutionary +vocation had been vastly different. Still, I had accepted the challenge which +the state initiated and if that meant I had to become a public personality, +then I would have to be that personality — despite my own discomfort. +But there were the enormously moving moments which more than +compensated for the unpleasant aspects of my public life. Once I was +grocery shopping in the supermarket near my house. I could tell that the +middle-aged Black woman behind a nearby cart thought she recognized me. +When our eyes met, hers lit up. She rushed over and asked, "Are you +Angela Davis?" When I smiled and said yes, tears came into her eyes. I +wanted to hug her, but she was faster than I. With a firm, warm embrace, +she told me in a motherly way, "Don't worry, child. We're behind you. We're +not going to let them take your job. Just keep on fighting." +If this one moment had been the only fruit of the many seasons I had +devoted to the movement, it would have made all the sacrifices worthwhile. +There was never a doubt in my mind that my mother and father, in their +own gentle way, would stand with me. I knew they would not bend under +the terrible pressures to denounce their "Communist daughter." At the same + + time I realized that the more strongly they defended me, the more their own +safety would be placed in jeopardy; I worried a great deal about them. +As I thought of their being exposed to the most virulent Southern racism +and anti-communism, my apprehension mingled with fears I had +experienced during my childhood in Birmingham. I remembered how +terrified I had felt when I heard the bombs explode, ripping to pieces the +houses across the street. I remembered how my father's weapons had +always been waiting in his top drawer in anticipation of an attack. I thought +about the time when the slightest sound was enough to send my father or +my brothers searching for a hidden explosive device outside. One night +after the publicity broke, I spoke to my youngest brother, Reginald, who +was attending college in Ohio. He, too, was very much afraid that our +parents might come under attack and he wanted to go back to Birmingham +to protect them. +Whenever I talked to our mother and father, they assured me that things +were going well. Perhaps there had been no physical assault, but I could +detect in their voices that they were being hurt in other ways. Maybe +someone who was supposed to be a friend had been frightened away +because he did not want to be associated with the parents of a Communist. +The psychological impact of anti-communism on ordinary people in this +country runs very deep. There is something about the word "communism" +that, for the unenlightened, evokes not only the enemy, but also something +immoral, something dirty. +Among the many reasons for my decision to publicly talk about my +membership in the Communist Party, was my belief that I could help +explode some of the myths on which anti-communism thrives. If only +oppressed people could see that Communists are profoundly concerned +about them, they would be forced to reevaluate their irrational fear of "the +Communist Conspiracy." +I soon discovered that in the ghetto, among poor and working-class Black +people, anti-Communist reactions were often not deeply ingrained. To relate +only one example: A brother who lived across the street from me came over +one day and asked me what communism was. "There must be something + + good about it," he said, "because the man is always trying to convince us +that it's bad." +But in Birmingham, the image most people had of me was doubtlessly +abstract and irrational. Many people who had known me as a child, people +who still wanted to love me, probably assumed very simply that I had been +captured, led astray and brainwashed by the Communists. I could imagine +them using every euphemism they could think of in order to avoid calling +me such a dirty name as Communist. +While I was home during the Christmas break, my mother admitted that +people who had counted themselves among her friends had broken down +under the pressure. Some, she said, had abruptly stopped calling or coming +around to visit. Some of my father's customers at the service station had +suddenly disappeared. +Yet at the same time, she insisted, many of her friends had taken forthright +positions in my defense. If someone even implied that I had been innocently +lured into the Communist Party, they would firmly declare that I had made +up my own mind about my political affiliations. +My mother and father had always encouraged my sister, my brothers and +me to be independent. From the time we were very small, they repeatedly +counseled us to forget about what other people said and to do what we felt +was right. I was proud that both my parents were determined to defend my +right to seek an independent, revolutionary answer to the oppression of our +people. +I kept in close touch with my brother Ben, who is a football player with the +Cleveland Browns. If there were any repercussions on his job because I was +a Communist, I wanted to be prepared to defend him immediately. +Although nothing overt happened at that time — the problems were still to +come — he was very much conscious of the conspicuous silence which +surrounded him. No one had even asked him whether he was with me or +against me. +My sister, Fania, was living only a hundred miles away in the San Diego +area at the time. She and her husband, Sam, were attending the University + + of California in San Diego. There was a greater than average concern about +the UCLA affair there because I had attended the university for two years +and was officially still a philosophy graduate student, studying for my +doctorate under Professor Herbert Marcuse. +I had kept my little apartment near the university in Cardiff-by-the-Sea, +thinking that it would be a perfect refuge when I wanted to get away from +the hectic pace of Los Angeles. Since the rent was forty dollars a month and +my place in Los Angeles was only eighty dollars, I had decided I could +afford to keep the two places. Fania and Sam had stayed there before they +moved into a place of their own. Afterward, they continued to use it +whenever they felt like it. +After the Regents fired me, and my membership in the Communist Party +was thoroughly publicized and attacked in the press throughout the state, I +could not help worrying about Fania and Sam. The San Diego area was +home territory for the Minutemen, Southern California's version of the Ku +Klux Klan. The police were not much better. With recent memories of being +followed by the police for being in the leadership of the Black Student +Council at UCSD, I warned them to be on their guard. +My fears were not unfounded. One morning in the fall the telephone beside +my bed rang so early that I knew something was wrong. My heart was +beating fast when I said hello. +"Angela," whispered a voice which I immediately recognized as my sister's, +"Sam's been shot." She sounded like she was talking in her sleep. Her words +were so unreal. +"What do you mean?" I asked unbelievingly. +"The pigs shot Sam," was all she said. +She didn't say whether he was still alive, and fearing the worst, I didn't want +to ask. Instead, trying to sound calm, I asked her to tell me exactly what had +happened. + + Two sheriff's deputies had broken into their house and fired on Sam, hitting +him in the shoulder. He had grabbed the shotgun they kept in the house, +fired back and run them out of the house. When she said that he was in the +hospital, I felt tremendous relief; now I could ask her how he was doing. +The bullet had lodged a mere quarter of an inch from his spine. But it had +already been removed, and she thought he was going to be all right. The +biggest problem at that moment was that they had placed him under arrest. +As soon as he was released from the hospital, they were going to put him in +jail. +She said she was calling from Evelyn and Barry's — the upstairs section of +the house in Cardiff where my apartment was. I told her to hold on, and that +I'd drive down as soon as I could. +After I woke Josef and told him, I called Kendra and Franklin to have them +alert the other comrades. Kendra said she was going with me. Franklin +volunteered to go to Riverside, where I was scheduled to speak at the +university that day. After apologizing for my absence and delivering a +speech himself, he said he would head for San Diego. +When we arrived in Cardiff, we found Evelyn and Barry in a state of panic. +Shortly after Fania called me, several sheriff's cars had pulled up in front of +the house. With their weapons drawn, they had rushed in announcing that +they had a warrant for the arrest of Fania Davis Jordon. They had +handcuffed her and led her away to a patrol car. Some police had ransacked +both my apartment and Evelyn and Barry's place upstairs. Evelyn was in a +state of rage because one of the cops had aimed his rifle at her baby. +Hearing the infant squirming in his bed behind a closed door, the cop had +broken into the room, pointing his weapon at the bed. +Both Fania and Sam were subsequently charged with "attempted murder of +a peace officer." It took two days to raise the money for their bail — and it +would have taken much longer were it not for the fact that Herbert and Inge +Marcuse contributed a substantial sum. +The story of their arrest was splashed across newspapers up and down the +state. ANGELA DAVIS KIN ARRESTED FOR ATTEMPTED MURDER + + was a typical headline. In all the papers I saw, with the exception of the +People's World and a few underground weeklies, the fact most emphasized +was that Fania and Sam Jordon were the sister and brother-in-law of the +"selfavowed Communist," Angela Davis. +Later Fania told us that the cops and matrons had continually called her +"Angela" and had tried to rile her with their vulgar, anti-Communist +remarks. +I publicly accused the San Diego Sheriff's Department of collaborating, in +the basest way, with the most reactionary forces of the state. In particular, I +charged them with carrying Ronald Reagan's racist, anti-Communist +policies to the extremes of premeditated murder. In the scuffle in their +house, Sam would certainly have been killed if Fania had not been as bold +as she was. After the cop had fired on Sam and hit him once, she grabbed +his gun arm, deflecting the rest of the bullets into a nearby wall. +Fania and Sam were indicted twice by the Grand Jury. Both times, the judge +assigned to the case realized how futile it was to try to prosecute them and +dropped the charges. But their case dragged on for well over a year. +At the turn of the year, with one academic quarter behind me, my job was +temporarily secure. The courts had declared unconstitutional the rule +prohibiting the hiring of Communists. Everyone knew that although the +Regents had been immobilized for the time being, they were seeking other +ways of eliminating me before the beginning of the next school year. They +had devised a system of provocation and espionage carried out by people +posing as students in my classes; I was struggling with them daily. +As time went by, it became clear that the assault on my job was only a tiny +part of a systematic plan to disarm and destroy the Black Liberation +struggle and the entire radical movement. The fight for my job had to be +interwoven with a larger fight for the survival of the movement. +Repression was on the rise throughout the country. The worst victims of +judicial frame-ups and police violence were members of the Black Panther +Party. Bobby Seale and Ericka Huggins had been indicted in New Haven. +Fred Hampton and Mark Clark were murdered by Chicago policemen as + + they slept in their beds. And in Los Angeles, the Black Panther Party +headquarters was raided by the Los Angeles Police Department and their +special tactical squad, with the National Guard and the Army on alert. +I witnessed this raid firsthand and, along with my comrades, helped to +organize resistance within the Black community. Our success in pulling +together a grass-roots challenge to this repression put the city and state +government on the defensive for a short time. It also doubtlessly increased +their desire to eliminate all of us. +Early one morning — toward five A.M. — I received a telephone call about +an emergency situation at the Panther headquarters on Central Avenue. The +police had tried to break into the office, but the sisters and brothers inside +had held them off and were still fighting back, guns in hand. I woke Josef +and told him to get dressed as quickly as he could — I would explain the +rest in the car. +The area surrounding the office had been cordoned off; each station of the +blockade was at least three blocks away from the shooting. Circling the +area, we caught sight of a figure spread out against a wall, being frisked by +a policeman. When I looked more closely I saw it was Franklin. Kendra and +a few other comrades were standing some twenty-five yards down the +street. We jumped out of the car to ask them what was going on. +They said they had been trying to get as close as possible to the scene of the +battle when a policeman had come up and aimed his shotgun at Franklin, +ordering him up against the wall. Kendra, Taboo and the others had been +told that if they didn't get out of the way their heads would be blown off. It +was Franklin who interested them. When they found a piece of Party +literature on him, they said something like "You dirty Communist" and led +him away to a patrol car. +All the while gunshots could be heard in the background. As we walked +down Central Avenue toward the police cordon, dawn was just beginning to +break. In the new day's light, armed figures, dressed in black jumpsuits, +were creeping snakelike along the ground or hiding behind telephone poles +and cars parked along the avenue. From time to time, they discharged their +weapons. + + More black-clad figures were stationed on roofs along the entire block +where the office was located. A helicopter hovered overhead. A bomb had +just been dropped on the roof of the Panther office. Regular Los Angeles +patrolmen were swarming throughout the entire area. +None of these cops were talking to one another. Their concentration on the +attack had a hypnotic, even insane quality about it. They were like robots. +The assault was too efficient to have been spontaneous. It appeared to have +been planned well in advance, perhaps even down to the position of each +cop. +The silence was almost total, broken only by the sound of gunshots. If shots +were still being fired from the office, this was the only evidence that at least +some of the Panthers were still alive. +A few people were standing around in the area. One woman looked +extremely pained each time she heard a burst of shots. Her daughter, I +learned, was inside. From our observation point — through the binoculars +we had secured — the situation looked dismal. Between the guns and the +dynamite, the office had been practically destroyed. The woman said +nothing. No words could have expressed the terrible anguish that stood so +clearly in her eyes. +I walked over to her and, as gently as possible, told her not to worry. I told +her about the chains of telephone calls that had been started, carrying the +message to people throughout the city to rush down to the Panther office +immediately. There would soon be hundreds of people out in the streets. +Their presence alone would force the police to retreat. Her daughter +Tommie was going to be all right. +By seven A.M. people from the neighborhood and from throughout the city +had crowded into the area. But the cordon had been extended. Only those of +us who had come down early were close enough to see what was +happening. We found ourselves inside the cordon. +Kendra and I and the other members of our club were extremely worried +about Franklin. We were torn between the need to stand vigilance over the +battle and our desire to find out what the police had done with him. I + + volunteered to try to get out of the cordon, survey the situation outside, +determine whether Franklin was around and try to return. Josef was going +with me. +We discovered an alley which we thought would take us safely through the +cordon, but just as we thought we were on the other side, we caught sight of +some policemen and had to turn around. Looking for another alley, we +noticed a group of children from the neighborhood. Realizing that they +probably knew the area better than anyone, we asked them whether they +could get us through the blockade. They eagerly agreed and proceeded to +lead us through labyrinthine walkways, backyards and alleys which could +not be seen from the streets. If someone sighted the police, a sign was +given, and we quickly retreated and tried another route. +Finally we made it to the other side. There were crowds of people with +anger written all over their faces. As we searched the area for Franklin, we +met scores of movement sisters and brothers we knew. We reached the +block where Jefferson High School is located. The police motorcycle corps +was parading in front of the school, trying to pull off a grand show of force. +Over a hundred cops, all trying to look tough, and managing only to look +racist, were speeding through the streets. They gunned the motors of their +cycles, thinking the roar was the sound of their own power. At that moment, +I saw in this scene historical traces of Hitler's troops trying to terrorize the +Jews into submission. +One young sister, moved by righteous indignation, picked up a bottle and +threw it into the procession. The motorcycle parade came to a halt. There +was an extraordinary moment of tension. Many of us were certain that a +full-scale confrontation was about to explode. But this peacock parade of +force was only for show. The cops had not been ordered to go into combat. +The procession started up again and the pigs continued to flaunt their +presence through the ghetto. Rumors were sprouting in the crowd and +spreading at full speed. Peaches was dead, someone said. Bunchy and +Yvonne Carter's baby was in the office, according to someone else, and had +been killed by the pigs. The crowd's anger was mounting. Its size was +greater than the visible police force. The students from Jefferson High +School were angry. People who lived in the community were angry. + + One woman who had just gotten off work was telling a small group that she +couldn't even get to her own house because the police had blocked off that +area. "These pigs think they can come into our community and take over." +Some wanted to fight. Others counseled caution for the moment, because +those inside the Panther office were still in danger. +Josef and I continued to search for Franklin. Finally, we saw him walking in +our direction on the other side of the street. We were about to run over to +him when we noticed him subtly motioning us away. He returned shortly, +telling us that he had thought he was being followed and didn't want to +jeopardize us. +He had been working with the students at Jefferson High School, helping +them to prepare the conditions for a community rally inside the school. +Totally absorbed by the immediate problems of the rally, he had almost +forgotten the incident of earlier that morning. The police had locked him in +the patrol car and had parked it close to the Panther headquarters. He had +literally been able to see the bullets flying. After an hour or so, they had +driven him off and had pushed him out of the car some ten blocks away in a +typical act of police harassment. +The location of the LAPD Command Post had been discovered, so Franklin +told us. Someone returned to Central Avenue to get Kendra and the other +comrades while we headed for the house which the chief of police had +taken over as his headquarters. It was surrounded by cops, and reporters +were swarming all over the place. Some of them recognized me and +immediately wanted to know whether I had come to act as an +"intermediary" between the police and the Panthers. I told them in so many +words that I had nothing but contempt for the LAPD. My loyalties were +with the sisters and brothers under attack. +The woman who lived across from the house which had been +commandeered by the LAPD was indignant about the police invasion of the +community. She offered us — sisters and brothers from the Panthers, the +Black Student Alliance and Che-Lumumba — the use of her house as +headquarters for the resistance. A call went through to the Panther office. +The sisters and brothers inside were all still alive, although most of them +had been shot up and hurt in the explosion. + + They said they were prepared to leave the building, but only if community +people and the press could observe them coming out. They realized that if +they had not defended themselves from the beginning, they might have all +been shot down in cold blood. They had tried to hold out until we could +gather enough people to witness the aggression, as well as to stand watch as +they lay down their weapons and left the building. +A piece of white fabric was thrown out of the window. Everyone was silent. +When the sisters and brothers walked out, eleven of them altogether, they +were all standing strong. They were bleeding, their clothes were torn, and +they were dirty from the debris of the explosion. But they were still +standing strong. I found out later that Peaches had been shot in both legs. +Yet she had marched proudly out of the building. +When the last of the eleven had come out, a huge roar of applause and +cheers surged up from the crowd. Slogans were triumphantly shouted: +"Power to the People." "No more pigs in our community." This was indeed +a victory. The police had crept into the community in the early hours of the +morning and launched a murderous attack on the Panthers. Without a doubt, +they had planned to kill as many as they could and capture the rest, thus +destroying the Panther chapter in Los Angeles. But with the support of the +people outside, the Panthers had emerged victorious. +With the sisters and brothers out of the building, the crowd grew bolder. +One sister actually jumped out and hit one of the cops from behind. Before +he realized what had hit him, she was back under the cover of the crowd. +The students Franklin had talked to earlier had made preparations for a +rally. They had informed their administration that they were going to use +the gym for a community meeting to protest the unwarranted police raid on +the Panther headquarters. The word was passed in the crowd to move over +to Jefferson for the rally. +Emotions were high. The speeches were passionate. All carried the theme +of the need to protect and defend the Panthers and the need to protect and +defend the community. Some of the students gave speeches, as did a brother +from the Black Student Alliance, Franklin and myself. By the time the rally +was over, the students had called for a walkout so that they could spread the + + news of the attack throughout the Los Angeles Black community. They +committed themselves to help mobilize the community for the coming fight, +and we all walked out of the hall singing, "I want to be a Mau Mau. Just +like Malcolm X. I want to be a Mau Mau. Just like Martin Luther King." +In order to organize the resistance, a coalition was established between the +Black Panther Party, the Black Student Alliance and our Che-Lumumba +Club. On the basis of this coalition of the Black Left, we felt we could call +for a broad united resistance emanating from all sectors of the Black +community. +That night we sponsored a meeting, attended by delegates from Black +organizations throughout the city. This body approved a call for a general +strike two days later in the Black community. On that day, we would hold a +massive protest rally on the steps of City Hall. We had about thirty-six +hours to put the rally together. It was no time at all, but the quicker the +community reacted in an organized way, the more effective our protest +would be. +That very night, thousands of leaflets were printed. The next morning, +teams saturated the community with literature about the attack and the need +to resist. The local Black radio station and an underground FM station gave +us free time to issue the strike call and to publicize the rally. Others +announced the rally as a part of the news. +I personally recorded spot announcements and held press conferences, since +my name was known in the community. Yet I also felt the need to involve +myself on a grass-roots level. I needed to acquire a sense of the mood of the +community — and that could not be done from behind a microphone. +A team was on its way to Jordon Down Projects in Watts to distribute +leaflets. I decided to go along. In all my experience of door-to-door +community work, never had I seen such unanimous acceptance of our +appeal. Literally no one was abrupt, no one tried to shut us out, and all +agreed that we had to resist the attack on the Panthers. Many of the people +recognized me, and I was surprised that they also volunteered their support +for me in the fight for my job. Virtually every person with whom I spoke + + made a firm promise to observe the general strike and to attend the rally the +next morning. +There were problems back at the Panther office. The woman who lived in +the house behind the office had reported that early in the morning the police +had returned and shot tear-gas cartridges into the office. The fumes were +stronger now than shortly after the attack had halted. It was impossible to +remain inside for any length of time without becoming sick. +It was decided, as a result, to hold a vigil in front of the office at all times. +Participants in the vigil would form themselves into shifts in order to clean +out all the debris. When the sun went down, there were still more than a +hundred people taking part in the vigil. The tear-gas fumes had not abated +and most of the group was clustered at the end of the block so no one would +be overcome by the gas. The plans were to keep the vigil going throughout +the night. Franklin led the group in freedom songs. +While the singers were warming up, I noticed some strange movements in +the area: police cars creeping by — unmarked, but unmistakably police cars +with agents peering out at us. I assumed that this was the normal +surveillance. It seemed unlikely that they would try anything on a group +which included not only the usual young movement people, but ministers, +professors, politicians as well. +The singing broke into full blast. Perhaps the police felt affronted by the +words of "Freedom Is a Constant Struggle" and "I Woke Up This Morning +with My Mind Staid On Freedom" because they abruptly interrupted with a +voice projected through a loudspeaker. "The Los Angeles Police +Department has declared this an illegal assembly. If you do not move out, +you will be subject to arrest. You have exactly three minutes to disperse." +Even if we had tried, we could not have dispersed in three minutes. We +decided immediately not to disperse, but rather to form ourselves into a +moving picket line. As long as we kept moving, we would not be an +"assembly" and would theoretically have the right to remain. Senator +Mervyn Dymally, a Black state senator, decided that he was going to speak +to the policeman in charge, thinking he could calm them down. + + The line stretched from the corner where the group had been singing, well +past the office, which was near the next corner. +I moved toward the end nearest the Panther office. It was dark and difficult +to determine exactly what was happening at the other corner. Suddenly +there was a dash of the crowd. Thinking that this had been precipitated by +nothing more serious than a show of force at the other end, I turned to calm +everybody and tell them not to run. But at that moment, I saw a swarm of +the black-suited cops who had executed the attack on the office the day +before. They were already beating people further down, and some of them +were about to converge on us. +I had been facing the crowd. I turned quickly, but before I could break into +a run, I was knocked to the ground. I hit my head on the pavement and was +momentarily stunned. During those seconds of semi-consciousness, I felt +feet trampling on my head and body and it flashed through my mind that +this was a terrible way to die. +A brother screamed, "Hey, that's Angela down there." Immediately, hands +were pulling me up. I could see the billy clubs smashing into these brothers' +heads. Someone told me later that as soon as the police realized who I was, +they had come after me with their sticks. +Once on my feet, I ran as fast as I could. +This was insane. Clearly, the police had no intention of arresting us. They +only wanted to beat us. Even Senator Dymally hadn't been immune. After +his futile conversation with the chief of police, I learned later, he had been +the first to be hit. +We raced through the neighborhood, across lawns, through alleys, wherever +it seemed we could find temporary refuge. As I ran across a front yard with +some sisters and brothers I didn't even know, I heard a voice coming from +the dark porch, telling us to come in. We ran into the house, lay down on +the floor and tried to catch our breath. It was a middle-aged Black woman +who had opened her doors to us. When I tried to thank her, she said that +after what had happened the day before, this was the very least she could +do. + + We were on a side street, off Central Avenue. I looked through the draperies +in the front room and could see nothing except a police car cruising by. +Then I noticed some of our people on a porch across the street and decided I +would try to get over to that house. +In all the excitement, I hadn't noticed how badly I had been bruised by the +fall. Blood was streaming down my leg and my knee was throbbing with +pain. But there was no time to think about that now. I thanked the woman, +said good-bye and ran toward the house across the street as fast as I could. +The family who lived there had allowed a comrade from our Party to +organize a first-aid station in the house. People with blood all over their +faces were already waiting to be tended, and a squad had gone out +searching for others who were wounded. Apparently, people throughout the +neighborhood had opened their doors. Their spontaneous show of solidarity +had saved us from a real massacre. +I was worried about Kendra, Franklin, Tamu, Taboo and the rest of my CheLumumba comrades whom I had not yet seen. The Panther leaders not +under arrest as a result of the original assault were also missing, as were key +members of the Black Student Alliance. A brother from the BSA said he +would accompany me around the neighborhood in order to determine what +had happened to our friends. People were crowded in the storefronts along +Central Avenue. By hiding in the shadows along the way, we were able to +reach one of the storefronts without incident. The people we were worried +about were among the crowds in the storefronts. One person had been +arrested. +On Central Avenue, a squadron of cops in black jumpsuits was marching in +formation. When they saw one of our people in the street, several of them +would jump out of line, swing at the person with their billy clubs and then +calmly fall back into the march. It appeared they were determined to hold +us prisoner indefinitely in these houses and storefronts. +Later, we learned that the police in the black jumpsuits were members of +the Los Angeles Police Department's counter-insurgency force — the +Special Weapons and Tactical Squad. Subsequent research determined that +the SWAT Squad was composed primarily of Vietnam veterans. For over a + + year, they had been in training, learning how to wage counter-urban +guerrilla warfare, learning how to "quell" riots, and obviously also how to +provoke them. They had made their public debut with the attack on the +Panther office. Their offensive against our vigil was their second official +appearance. +The attack on us had begun around six o'clock in the evening. It wasn't until +ten-thirty or eleven that it appeared we might be able to leave the houses +and storefronts. Around that time, one of Senator Dymally's aides got word +to us that the police were prepared to retreat if we all left the area +immediately. Whether or not this guarantee was good was a matter for +speculation. +Even in this moment of crisis, our most important concern was making the +rally a success. Most of the organizers and speakers for the meeting were +down on Central Avenue. There was only one logical explanation for this +ruthless siege: the police were trying to sabotage our rally. We had to take +the chance of trying to get people out of the area so that we could go on +with preparations for the mass meeting. +The exit took place without incident. After almost everyone had left, +Kendra and I, together with other comrades, headed for a house to hold an +emergency Che-Lumumba meeting. Everyone was cautioned to shake off +all police tails before arriving. +There we discussed a proposal we were going to present to other members +of the coalition the next morning: a march, at the conclusion of the rally, to +the county jail where the Panthers were being held. The march would +culminate in a demonstration raising the demand for their immediate +freedom. +In the middle of our discussions, the brother on security out front rushed +into the room to tell us that the police were cruising by in unusual numbers. +They had discovered our meeting place, and we had no idea what they +would try to do. Our uncertainty, our firm belief based on previous +experience that the Los Angeles Police would stop at nothing to crush their +adversaries meant that we would have to prepare for the worst. + + Weapons were checked out, loaded and distributed. In the formidable +silence, in the tension-laden room, we waited in readiness. Fortunately, the +attack did not materialize. Despite the excitement and the threat of an +assault looming over us, we managed to get through our meeting early +enough to catch a few hours' sleep before the rally. Everyone else was going +home. But it was too dangerous to go to my house on Raymond Street. I +had to resign myself to sleeping on Kendra and Franklin's floor. +I woke up the next morning with a terrible feeling of apprehension that only +a few hundred people might show up. If the rally were poorly attended, then +L.A. ruling circles, particularly the LAPD, might take it as a sign that the +Black community was accepting the repression without resisting it. The +police could therefore claim a mandate to escalate their aggression. They +would attempt to totally obliterate the Black Panther Party and would move +on to other militant Black organizations. The arbitrary police violence in the +ghetto would mount. +With these fears digging at my stomach, I drove down to City Hall with +Kendra, Franklin and other members of the club. It was about an hour and a +half before the meeting was scheduled to begin. We arrived early to see that +equipment was set up and raise the question of the march with the others. +What we saw when we arrived made us all feel euphoric. At least a +thousand people were already on the steps — and four-fifths of them were +Black. People were still steadily streaming into the area. +By the time the first speaker took the microphone, the crowd had swelled to +eight or ten thousand strong. It was a magnificent multitude, studded with +signs and banners demanding an end to police repression, demanding a halt +to the offensive against the Panthers, demanding immediate release of the +captured Panthers. The speeches were powerful. As we had previously +agreed, the theme of the rally — the theme of all the speeches — was +genocide. The aggression against the Panthers embodied the racist policy of +the U.S. government toward Black People. Carried to its logical conclusion, +this policy was a policy of genocide. +The Panthers had been charged with conspiracy to assault police officers. In +my speech, I turned the idea of conspiracy around and charged Ed Davis, + + the Chief of Police, and Sam Yorty, the mayor of L.A., with conspiring with +U.S. Attorney General John Mitchell and J. Edgar Hoover to decimate and +destroy the Black Panther Party. +Months later, the existence of just such a plan was revealed to the public. +The government had decided to wipe out the BPP throughout the entire +country. J. Edgar Hoover had called the Panthers "the greatest threat to the +internal security of the country," and police forces in most of the major +cities had moved on local Panther chapters. +As I emphasized in my speech, our defense of the Panthers had to be a +defense of ourselves as well. If the government could carry out its racist +aggression against them without fearing resistance, then it would soon be +directed against other organizations and would finally engulf the entire +community. +We needed more than a one-day stand. Papers circulated in the crowd to be +signed by those who wanted to play an active role in organizing the mass +movement we needed. By the time the speeches were over, the people were +in a fighting mood. Franklin took the microphone and called for the march +and demonstration. It was instantly approved with unanimous and roaring +applause. We set out for the jail. +When we reached the County Courthouse where the jail was located, the +collective anger was so great that the people could not be contained. Defiant +throngs pressed forward through the doors of the building. So great was +their rage that they began to destroy everything in sight. As they attacked +the coin machines in the lobby, they were probably fantasizing about +ripping down the iron bars of the jail upstairs. +There were only two ways out of the lobby — one exit on each side. If the +police decided to attack, it would be a bloodbath, without a doubt. They +only had to lock off the exits and we would be bottled in the building, with +no place to run, no room for maneuvering. +But the crowd was ungovernable. I tried to get their attention. But my voice +does not carry well without the aid of a microphone and it was drowned out +in the clamor. It was Franklin who eventually assumed the role he always + + seems to excel in: he stood at the top of the lobby steps and with his voice +blasting forth like a trumpet, he elicited complete silence from the raging +demonstrators. He explained our immediate tactical disadvantages. The +police had already sealed off one of the entrances. They were stationed +throughout the area and could fall upon us in just a matter of minutes. +It was not enough to explain the dangers of the moment. What had to be +emphasized was that the Panther prisoners would be freed by the actions of +a mass movement. The militant protests of a movement of masses, the +determined thrust of thousands of people, could force our enemy to release +the sisters and brothers upstairs. Rather than waste our energies giving vent +to our frustrations, we should be trying to organize ourselves into a +permanent movement to defend our fighters and to defend ourselves. +The people left the courthouse and the demonstration continued outside in +full force and with unabated enthusiasm. Thousands marched around the +jailhouse chanting slogans of resistance. +Later, the street in front of the Panther office was overflowing with people +who came down to assist in the ongoing work of this movement. In all +respects, this had been an extraordinarily triumphant day. The rally had +more than served its purpose. But in order to realize the potential of what +we had just witnessed, much day-to-day organizing was needed. Sisters and +brothers would have to commit themselves to work that might not be as +visible or dramatic as what we had just done, but which, in the final +analysis, would be infinitely more effective. +In the aftermath of the rally, its immediate effects could already be seen. +For a while, at least, there was a noticeable let-up of police violence in the +community. +If you were stopped, you could see that the L.A. police were not as selfconfident and certainly not as arrogant as they had been before. By the +same token, the collective confidence, pride and courage of the community +was definitely on the rise. I felt deeply gratified each time someone in the +community expressed his satisfaction to me that something was finally +being done about the brutality and insanity of the police. + + Around the time of the attack on the Panther office, a strange series of +events drove me out of my apartment on Raymond Street. The day the +police besieged the Panthers, Che-Lumumba comrades and members of the +BSA had come over to the apartment to discuss strategy. The meeting had +hardly gotten started when the manager of the apartment house burst into +my living room frantically raving about my harboring Panthers. If we didn't +leave the premises immediately, he said, he would call the police. +Apparently, he was afraid that the cops were going to shoot up the house +just as they had shot up the office and homes of the Panthers. +At first, I argued with the man, telling him that he had allowed the police to +do exactly what they wanted to do to the Black community — namely to +inflict terror on everyone. But he could not be calmed down. So we finally +decided that since we already had enough trouble on our hands and didn't +want to land in jail because of the stupidity of a house manager, we would +leave for another comrade's house. +It was only the beginning. His conduct became increasingly eccentric. +Frequently, when he heard me descending the stairs (my apartment was just +over his), he would come out on the porch and, as I locked my door +downstairs, he silently stared at me with the most peculiar kind of hostility. +He would stand there, following me with his eyes until I had driven off in +my car. (This, incidentally, happened to be at a time when there was no +security person living at the house. Josef had to move out and we hadn't +found anyone to replace him. I was happy though at the thought of being +liberated from the stringent security precautions.) +I didn't let the man's odd behavior bother me — I figured that as long as I +paid the eighty dollars rent each month, he could hold nothing against me. I +did think that one of two things was wrong with him: either he was a little +psychotic or took drugs from time to time. The latter possibility was quite +realistic, because my neighborhood was saturated with drugs. +One day, I found the man again waiting for me on the front porch. As soon +as I appeared, he started to babble incoherently about my holding him +prisoner in his own house. He was saying something about hearing my + + voice coming from upstairs, hypnotizing him and forcing him to stay in the +house the whole weekend. He kept asking me what I was doing to him. And +he mumbled something about communism — about Communists being able +to brainwash people. +I was in a hurry that day and could not be bothered with his madness, so I +told him that he was crazy or had been drinking too much or taking too +much dope and went on about my business. The next morning, on my way +to UCLA, I was stopped by the police, who told me they had received a +complaint about me from a man in the neighborhood. According to their +story, the man had told them that I was out to kill him and through hypnosis +had already forced him to put a gun to his head. The cop was arrogant as he +told me that unfortunately they couldn't take me in because the man had +refused to sign a complaint. I told the cop that he knew as well as I did that +the man was crazy and that there was no basis whatever for their leveling +any charges against me. Trying to conclude this little encounter on a note of +victory, the cop added that the man had officially informed the police that if +anything happened to him, they should come for me. His tone implied that +he almost hoped that something would happen to this man so that they +could arrest me for the crime. +By now, I was used to the police stopping me on the slightest pretext — or +for no reason at all — so this incident was quickly shoved to the back of my +mind. But later on that week, this whole insane sequence of events came to +a climax. It was on the day I finally got around to buying a decent +secondhand dining room table. One of the comrades from Che-Lumumba +helped me transport it from the store to the house. When we arrived, the +man came out on the porch and, as he had done many times before, stared at +us with antagonism written all over his face as we struggled to get the table +up the stairs. The job accomplished, we came downstairs and noticed with +some astonishment that the man was lying on the back seat of his car, which +was parked out in front of the house. As we got into my car, he raised +himself up to watch us driving off. I casually remarked to Gregory that my +manager had been behaving very strangely over the last weeks. +After I dropped Gregory off and ran some errands, I returned to the house +alone to do some work. It was dusk and when I drove up, I noticed a figure + + rising up on the back seat of the man's car. I couldn't believe that he was +still there. He must have been sinking deeper and deeper into his psychosis, +I thought. Yet I didn't feel that his sickness was any great menace to me. +Pushing him out of my mind, I went on upstairs to get into my work. +When some time had passed and I noticed that it had gotten completely +dark, I got up from my desk to close the curtains in my front room. As I +closed the curtains and was looking at nothing in particular outside, my +eyes fell upon the house manager's car, which was now in the middle of the +street. He was at the steering wheel and was intently staring up at my +apartment. Noticing that I had discovered him, he drove off. For the first +time, I began to think that this man just might be crazy enough to try +something. The car drove up in front of the house again. Closing the curtain +and peering through a small opening so he would not see me, I stood there +for some fifteen minutes until I could determine that he was systematically +circling the block, stopping each time, apparently to make sure I was still +upstairs. +If it had been the cops or the FBI, I would not have been so worried — for +they did this all the time. Obviously my house manager was mad and it was +impossible to predict his next moves. Having decided that the most +reasonable thing was to go for help, I left the house, just as the man had +pulled off to circle the block once again. Or at least I thought he was going +to circle the block. I drove the half-block down Raymond to Jefferson and +as I turned, I realized that he had been waiting for me at the corner. +He fell right in behind me, tailing me with his front fender less than a foot +from my back fender. I accelerated, trying to shake him off and found +myself driving fifty miles an hour down Jefferson Boulevard. But his '69 +model car was in far better shape than my '59 Rambler, so he had no trouble +staying right on my back fender. +On the corner of Jefferson and Western there was a newly opened +supermarket where I had just recently begun to shop. The manager of the +store, a Black man in his early forties, was always especially friendly to me +whenever I came in — surely he would help me shake off this madman. + + I made a sharp right turn into the driveway of the market's parking lot — +and the man turned in right behind me. I pulled into the first parking space I +saw, rushed out of the car and was about to run into the store when I noticed +that the man had waited for me in the driveway. To get to the store, I had to +cross in front of his car. Taking a deep breath, I decided to run for it. But the +man was quick — almost quick enough to run me over. Fortunately I +jumped back in time to escape, and was only brushed by the car's fender. I +ran into the store. +What I hadn't wanted to admit to myself since I first sensed I was in a +potentially dangerous situation, I had to admit now: He was actually trying +to kill me. Although I hadn't the faintest idea what his motive might be, +there was no doubt in my mind about his intentions — he had tried to run +me down. +My friend the store manager was more than willing to help; he sent his +security personnel out to look for the man while I called Franklin and +Kendra to tell them what had happened. That evening after I had made it to +their house, the first thing on the agenda was criticism and self-criticism. It +had been foolish for me to move around without some kind of security. +After all, I might well become a target because this man had evidently been +severely influenced by all the propaganda about communism. Thinking that +Communists could "brainwash" people, and confusing brainwashing with +hypnosis, he had convinced himself that I was able to hypnotize him into +doing things against his own will. +The collective decision was that I should not stay at my Raymond Street +apartment alone again and that I should move as soon as possible. I hated to +give up my eighty-dollar-a-month six-room apartment. It had really grown +on me over the last seven months, and I was sure I wouldn't be able to find +such a good deal again. Nonetheless, I had to agree — the house manager +was a dangerous man and we knew for a fact that he had a weapon +downstairs. +The pieces of this fantastic story did not completely fall together until I was +in the process of moving out. In one of his moments of lucidity, the man +came upstairs and wanted to talk. After making sure that he didn't have a +weapon and confirming that my gun was within reach, my sister and I + + decided to let him in. He began by apologizing profusely about what had +happened, explaining that he had heard voices that night instructing him to +kill me before I killed him. Fania began to put him through the third degree: +Did he realize what he was saying? Why had the voices told him to kill me? +All he knew was what had happened that weekend when I kept him locked +up in the house and made him do all kinds of things, including holding a +gun up to his own head before a mirror. Fania asked how he knew it was I +who was behind all that. The voice was coming from my apartment, he +replied — and besides, he could recognize my voice. The night he tried to +kill me, other voices had possessed him, convincing him that it was my life +or his. When he failed to run me down, he had gone to the house of an +acquaintance and had all but destroyed their garage — he had simply gone +wild. +The strangest thing about his whole confession was an account he gave of +what he had done that weekend when I was supposedly holding him +prisoner. He had written poems about himself and me. By this time, Fania +was thoroughly fascinated with his story, and persuaded, for the moment at +least, that he was harmless, she asked him to go and get the poems. He +returned with a huge sheaf of papers that looked like the manuscript for a +book. With great curiosity, Fania and I leafed through these papers with +dialogues carefully printed in pencil in a childlike writing. We both knew +that the man was semiliterate and could imagine the incredible effort that +must have gone into the creation of those poems. A constant theme broke +through the poems: the man felt some kind of attraction toward me. But it +was couched in the ambivalence that stemmed from his socially inflicted +fear of communism. I was a Communist, a monster, yet at the same time +educated and, in his eyes at least, somewhat physically attractive. The +poems brought into play a constant conflict between those two poles. +It was clear that this man's writings were the work of someone stumbling +into madness. I suggested very strongly that he see a doctor and explained +to him that I was preparing to move, since it was impossible to predict when +he might go into one of his trances again. He halfway agreed, but at the +same time was manifestly disturbed by the fact that I would no longer be +living above him. + + I was angered by the fact that I had to move, but at the same time, felt sorry +for this man and wondered just how much of his illness was the product of +his being Black in a racist, anti-Communist world. +With these thoughts, I left the neighborhood, the man and his sickness, and +moved into an apartment on 45th Street with Tamu Ushindi and her baby. +Tamu had been a member of the club for some years; her husband, also a +comrade, was about to go to jail for a number of months in connection with +a high school demonstration in 1968. We had found a place large enough to +hold the three of us; it was conveniently located some five blocks from +Franklin and Kendra's, and we knew that the neighbors were friendly and +would shield us in the event of a police attack. + +One afternoon as I sat working in my office at UCLA, I heard a knock at +the door. Without looking up, I said, "Come in." A moment later, a white +man in uniform, with guns swinging from his hips and a sheaf of papers in +his hand, was standing in front of my desk. The brother on security +immediately stood up beside him. Startled and expecting the worst, I asked +him who he was and what he wanted. +"County marshal," he said. "You have been subpoenaed to appear in court." +He dropped the papers on my desk. +I picked them up and asked what it was about. His job, he said, was only to +deliver the subpoena; he had no idea what was in it. The marshal turned and +walked out. +The papers did not reveal anything more than the date for the court +appearance, a courtroom number and a name which was entirely unfamiliar +to me. Someone who called himself Hekima had subpoenaed me to appear +as a witness on his behalf. +Confused and full of apprehension, I telephoned my attorney. John's advice +was to wait until the court date and try to determine at that time what the +story was. He said that a lawyer in his firm would accompany me. + + On the date designated in the subpoena, Wendell Holmes — a young Black +attorney in the firm — went with me down to the County Courthouse. +Inside the courtroom, a trial was under way. A white man and a Black man +were arguing. The white man was the district attorney. The Black man, +articulately conducting the defense, seemed to be the defendant as well. +So this is the mysterious Hekima, I thought. When he saw me, he nodded +and smiled warmly. His face was just as unfamiliar as his name and I still +could not imagine why I had been called to testify on his behalf. +Wendell approached the dock and, explaining to the bailiff that I was a +witness in the case, asked him to arrange a conference with the defendant +during the next recess. At the break, I walked up to Hekima and extended +my hand. We went through the four movements of the solidarity handshake. +As I took a seat at the defense table, he told me that he was very happy that +I had responded. "You want me to testify in your defense?" I asked him. He +nodded his head and went on to explain why he had subpoenaed me. +Some years ago, Hekima had been convicted of murder. The charges +stemmed from an incident during which a white man had been robbed by +several Black men. In the course of the scuffle, the white man fell, hit his +head on the cement sidewalk and died shortly thereafter. Though it was an +open question whether Hekima had personally struck the man, it was clear +that he had been with the group. His conviction of first-degree murder had +been recently overturned by an appellate court. This time, he said, he was +conducting his own defense. This time he was going to present a "political +defense." He was going to try to demonstrate before the jury how racism +and poverty could drive Black men and women to desperate solutions. +He did not want to justify the killing of the white man — even though it had +been clearly accidental. Nor did he wish to say that it was all right to rob +people. What he wanted to do was to point the finger at the real criminal: a +society which keeps Black people imprisoned in such atrocious conditions +of oppression that too often it is a question of stealing or going under. +Having read about my fight for my job at UCLA, he felt that I could assist +him in constructing his defense. He wanted to call me to the stand as an +expert on the socioeconomic function of racism. I would testify about such + + things as the incidence of unemployment in our communities; that most of +the time at least 30 percent of the young people in black ghettos across the +country are unable to find work. He wanted me to talk about the things that +white people generally try to ignore — about the starvation and severe +malnutrition which Black people still suffer. +"What is a Black man to do," he asked, "when he has applied for jobs day in +and day out, when his unemployment insurance is running out, when he +can't pay his exorbitant rent for his rundown apartment, when his wife is +desperate, when his children are hungry? What is he to do?" He spoke in a +voice haunted by personal tragedies. +The more Hekima talked, the more compelled I felt to do whatever I could +to help him. +I would not be called to the stand that day, he said. The prosecutor had not +yet rested his case. Moreover, it was going to require a struggle to convince +the judge to allow him to present a defense of that kind. +As the trial unfolded over the coming days, the judge openly displayed his +favoritism for the prosecutor and his disdain for Hekima. He had no +intention of allowing me to testify. +Eventually Hekima was denied the right to present the defense he had so +carefully worked out. The judge did not want the Black Liberation +Movement to be brought into his courtroom. +Since I was on Hekima's witness list, I could meet with him in the attorney's +visiting room at the county jail. There we would not be separated by a glass +wall and could talk directly to each other, rather than over the telephone as +in the regular visiting room. +During our visits, Hekima always spoke very softly — perhaps as a result +of his many years in confinement — but knowing that he had much more to +say than could be said during the short time we spent together, he also +spoke rapidly. He was incisive and intense. He never looked down while he +spoke. His eyes were always fixed on mine. + + I was fascinated by the hours I spent with him, and began to learn, for the +first time, about the transformation prisoners were undergoing. A new +consciousness had taken root. It was not simply the consciousness of those +who were in prison for political reasons. This was a mass phenomenon. +Prisoners — particularly Black prisoners — were beginning to think about +how they got there — what forced them into prison. They were beginning +to understand the nature of racism and class bias. They were beginning to +recognize that regardless of the specific details of their individual cases, +most of them were in prison because they were Black, Brown and poor. +The jailers placed a limit on my visits: after two three-hour meetings in the +attorney's room, I had to see Hekima in the visiting room during regular +visiting hours. When he was convicted the second time, he did not allow +himself the luxury of depression. He immediately began to work feverishly +on his appeal. I agreed to become his legal runner, which meant that I +would deliver legal papers to and from the jail and run errands relating to +his case on the outside. With that relationship we could resume our +meetings in the attorney's room, which continued throughout the next +months — throughout the period of my involvement with the Soledad +Brothers Defense Committee. There, under the hostile glares of jail guards, +I became convinced that there were impending explosions behind the walls, +and that if we did not begin to build a support movement for our sisters and +brothers in prison, we were no revolutionaries at all. + +Around the middle of February, I picked up the Los Angeles Times and +noticed on the front page a large photograph of three very striking Black +men. Their faces were serene and strong, but their waists were draped in +chains. Chains bound their arms to their sides and chains shackled their +legs. "They are still trying to impress upon us that we have not yet escaped +from bondage," I thought. Angry and frustrated, I began to read the story. It +was about Soledad Prison. +Soledad Prison was a household word in the Black community. During my +last two years in Los Angeles, I must have heard it a million times. There +was San Quentin, there was Folsom — and there was Soledad. + + Soledad is the Spanish word for solitude. Solitude Prison — this name +seemed to expose what the prison was trying to hide. When Josef was living +in my apartment, he told me how they had kept him in solitary confinement +during most of his imprisonment. He still bore the stamp of Soledad. He +still preferred solitude. For hours and often days he would stay on the +sunporch which was his bedroom, reading, thinking, alone. And when he +talked, it was always in a soft whisper of a voice — as if not to disturb the +massive silence that had so long surrounded him. +The L.A. Times article reported the indictment of George Jackson, John +Clutchette and Fleeta Drumgo for the murder of a guard at Soledad Prison. +An entire month had elapsed since the killing took place. Why had it taken +so long to return the indictments? I wondered why the author had not +commented on this time lag. The article reeked of deception and +evasiveness. It seemed that the Times was trying to turn public opinion +against the accused men even before the trial got started. If one accepted the +article on its face, one would have come away with the assumption that the +three men were guilty. +During the next days, I kept thinking of the faces of those brothers. Three +beautiful virile faces pulled out of the horrible anonymity of prison life. +A few weeks later, the Che-Lumumba Club was contacted about a meeting +on the Soledad situation. It was being arranged by the Los Angeles +"Committee to Defend the Bill of Rights," which wanted to discuss the +mounting of a mass campaign to free the three from Soledad. +I was drowning in work, but I simply couldn't stop thinking about those +three haunting faces in the newspaper. I had to attend the meeting; even if I +only became involved in a minimal way, at least I would be doing +something. +The night of the meeting, Tamu, Patrice Neal — another club member — +and I went down to the run-down old Victoria Hall. (It had been famous +once for its swinging Saturday night dances. Now, in this hall, people were +no longer having fun. They were talking about a very serious thing, about +liberation.) + + About a hundred people answered the call. Though they were +predominantly Black, a sizeable number of white people had turned up as +well. There were young people, older people and people who were +obviously attending their first political meeting. There were those who had +come because they had sons, husbands and brothers in Soledad Prison. +Seated behind the long tables stretched across the front of the hall were Fay +Stender, lawyer for George Jackson, George's mother and sisters — +Georgia, Penny and Frances Jackson — Inez Williams, Fleeta's mother, and +Doris Maxwell, the mother of John Clutchette. +Speaking of Soledad, Fay Stender explained that from the warden down to +the guards, the prison hierarchy had a long history of promoting racial +enmity in the prison population. As long as the Black, Chicano and white +prisoners were at each other's necks, the prison administration knew they +would not have to worry about serious challenges to their authority. +As in an old Southern town, segregation in Soledad Prison was almost total. +All activities were arranged so that racial mingling would not occur — or so +that when it did occur, the prisoners would be in a posture of battle. With +the collaboration of some of the white prisoners, Soledad had developed its +own counterpart to the Ku Klux Klan — a group called the "Aryan +Brotherhood." Tension in the prison was so thick that even the most +innocuous meeting between the races was bound to set off an explosion. +Before January 13, 1970, exercise periods, like everything else, were +segregated. On that day, with no explanation, the guards sent Black, +Chicano and white prisoners to exercise together in the newly constructed +yard. Not a single guard was assigned to accompany them. The explosion +was inevitable. A fight erupted between a Black prisoner and a white +prisoner, and within a few minutes, there was havoc. +O. G. Miller had the reputation of being a hard-line racist, and was known +to be an expert marksman. He was stationed in the gun tower that day. He +carefully aimed his carbine and fired several times. Three men fell: W. L. +Nolen, Cleveland Edwards, Alvin Miller. They were all Black. A few days +later the Monterey County Grand Jury was convened to hear the case of O. +G. Miller. As could have been predicted, he was absolved of all + + responsibility for the deaths of the three brothers. The Grand Jury ruled that +he had done nothing more serious than commit "justifiable homicide." +There was a brutal familiarity about this story. As I listened to Fay Stender's +narration, the specter of Leonard Deadwilder invaded my thoughts. As he +was rushing his pregnant wife to the hospital in Los Angeles, a white +handkerchief attached to the antenna to indicate an emergency, the cops +stopped him for speeding and without even seeking an explanation, they +shot him to death. It was called justifiable homicide by the courts. I +remembered Gregory Clark, the eighteen-year-old Black child who was +stopped by the police because "he didn't look like he fit the Mustang he was +driving." Though Gregory Clark was himself unarmed, the cop said he +moved in self-defense. As the brother lay defenseless, face down on a hot +ghetto sidewalk, his hands cuffed behind him, he was shot in the back of the +head. Later the courts ruled that the cop had committed "justifiable +homicide." +"Justifiable Homicide" — these innocuously official words conjured up the +untold numbers of unavenged murders of my people. +Fay Stender's story recaptured my attention. She was talking about the +Soledad prisoners' proud attempts to challenge this judicial endorsement of +a clearly racist assassination. Spontaneously and with the intense +desperation of men in chains, the Black prisoners had shouted unexecutable +threats meant for the assassin O. G. Miller, and banged angrily at the bars of +their cells. Soledad Prison pulsated with resistance. A guard inadvertently +stumbled into the brothers' fierce but chaotic rebellion and was engulfed by +their collective desire for revenge. No one knew who pushed the guard over +the railing. +This was the beginning of the story of George Jackson, John Clutchette and +Fleeta Drumgo. There was no evidence that they had killed the guard. But +there was evidence that George, John and Fleeta were "militants"; they had +been talking with their fellow captives about the theory and practice of +liberation. The prison bureaucracy was going to hold them symbolically +responsible for the spontaneous rebellion enacted by the prisoners. They +were charged with the murder of the guard. The prison hierarchy wanted to +throw them into San Quentin's death chamber and triumphantly parade their + + gassed bodies before thousands of California prisoners, as examples of what +the prison and the State did to those who refused to observe the silence of +acceptance. +Fay Stender's legal analysis left us to suffer in the privacy of our individual +emotions. But when Georgia Jackson began to speak, her voice brought a +new dimension to our meeting, her words expressed her unashamed +maternal pain. Georgia Jackson, Black, woman, mother; her infinite +strength undergirded her plaintive words about her son. When she began to +talk about George, a throbbing silence came over the hall. "They took +George away from us when he was only eighteen. That was ten years ago." +In a voice trembling with emotion, she went on to describe the incident +which had robbed him of the little freedom he possessed as a young boy +struggling to become a man. He was in a car when its owner — a casual +acquaintance of his — had taken seventy dollars from a service station. +Mrs. Jackson insisted that he had been totally oblivious of his friend's +designs. Nevertheless, thanks to an inept, insensitive public defender, +thanks to a system which had long ago stacked the cards against young +Black defendants like George, he was pronounced guilty of robbery. The +matter of his sentencing was routinely handed over to the Youth Authority. +With angry astonishment I listened to Mrs. Jackson describe the sentence +her son had received: one year to life in prison. One to life. And George had +already done ten times the minimum. I was paralyzed by the thought of the +absolute irreversibility of his last decade. And I was afraid to let my +imagination trace out the formidable reality of those ten years in prison. A +determination began to swell in me to do everything within the limits of the +possible to save George from the gas chamber. +Fleeta Drumgo was his mother's only son. She spoke about her pain quietly +but intensely, and appealed to us to rescue her son from his enemies. The +mother of John Clutchette told us how she had received a note bearing the +single word "Help." This was the first sign that the three brothers were +being set up by the prison bureaucracy. Alone she could do nothing to help +John, Fleeta or George. Only we, the people, could hope to stop the legal +lynching which was planned for them. + + By the time these women had finished, the prosecution appeared to have the +logic and coherence of a conspiracy against the brothers — against them, +their politics, their principles, their commitment. There was only one +question: What were we prepared to do to prevent the consummation of the +conspiracy? We addressed ourselves to the details of building a mass +movement to fight for our brothers' freedom. The chairperson asked for +volunteers to participate in the various subcommittees which needed to be +set up — fund-raising, publicity, research, etc. +Although I already felt totally committed to George, John and Fleeta, I +knew that I had too many responsibilities to assume a major role in the +defense committee. The fight for my job raged on and was sending me up +and down the California coast, exposing and challenging Ronald Reagan, +and seeking support for our side. +I was active in the Che-Lumumba Club, working in the area of political +education. And, of course, I had to prepare for the two sets of lectures I was +giving at UCLA. I was already killing myself trying to fulfill all these +responsibilities. How could I possibly find time to be active on a day-to-day +basis in the Soledad Brothers Defense Committee? +Even though these were my thoughts as the subcommittees were being +constituted, my arm shot up when they asked for volunteers for the +subcommittee on campus involvement. Something more elemental than +timetables and prior commitments had seized me and made me agree to +coordinate the committee's efforts in the local colleges and universities. +The decision had been made. How to find time was a secondary question. I +thought about my initial reluctance to take on a substantial role. How +presumptuous it had been to weigh the outcome of the fight for my job +against the outcome of the fight for the lives of these men. At UCLA I was +fighting for my right as a Black woman, as a Communist, as a +revolutionary, to hold on to my job. In Soledad Prison, George Jackson, +John Clutchette, Fleeta Drumgo were fighting for their rights as Black men, +as revolutionaries, to hold on to their lives. Same struggle. Same enemies. +The majority of the students and professors — except on the very +reactionary campuses — agreed at least in principle with my academic + + freedom to teach, regardless of the fact that I was a Communist. I could +utilize the widespread interest in the struggle around my job and the natural +curiosity of people who wanted to see "a real, live, self-avowed +Communist" to get onto the campuses and to call for support of the Soledad +Brothers. +At the end of the meeting at Victoria Hall, the members of the campus +subcommittee got together and decided to hold the first meeting the +following week. I volunteered Kendra and Franklin's place on 50th Street. +In the meantime we would try to recruit sympathetic students and +professors from schools in the area to attend the meeting. We would try to +devise proposals for the organizing efforts we were going to carry out in the +Los Angeles academic community. +I left the meeting with a new sense of direction. I thought about George, +John and Fleeta. We had to find some way to let them know that they were +no longer alone. That soon there would be thousands of combative voices +shouting "Free the Soledad Brothers" and thousands willing to fight for +them. +I was still busy working out an agenda for the meeting when Kendra ran +into the bedroom, excitedly describing what was going on in the living +room. "You won't believe how many people are out there. It's not even eight +o'clock, and the place is already so crowded that they're sitting on the floor." +Kendra and Franklin's eighty-dollar-a-month duplex was located in an area +on the East Side which had seen a lot of action during the 1965 Watts +Rebellion. +Their place on 50th Street wasn't too far from the apartment on 45th which +Tamu and I had recently moved to. From their front porch you could see +South Park, which had a long history of militant mass rallies. Since the +Che-Lumumba Club hadn't yet acquired a headquarters, Kendra and +Franklin's one-bedroom place had become something of a center. We held +our meetings in their living room, and whenever a club member who +couldn't afford to rent an apartment needed a place to stay, the living room +floor was always available. + + If we had wanted to hold a mass meeting, it would have been a simple +matter to do a door-to-door leafleting in the surrounding community. But +we had not distributed any literature about this meeting because it was only +to be a gathering of the subcommittee on campus activities. Consequently it +was with tremendous astonishment that I greeted the fifty-odd sisters and +brothers who had assembled in the living room. The word had gotten +around that a meeting about George, John and Fleeta was going to take +place. So they came — unaware that it was originally planned as a special +meeting to talk about building support on the campuses. In fact the majority +of the people who came were not even students or professors, but rather +workers or ex-prisoners or people who had experienced some personal +clash with the California prison system. Some of the brothers there had +even done time with George, John or Fleeta; others had known them when +they were on the streets in Los Angeles. Mrs. Jackson was there with her +daughter Frances. Inez Williams and Doris Maxwell were also present. +Those of us who had organized the meeting were extremely moved to see +how deeply these sisters and brothers had been affected when they heard the +news of the frame-up. We could feel the enthusiasm which agitated the +meeting. All these people — Black, some young, some old, workers, +students, ex-prisoners — all of them were ready to defend and liberate the +three brothers at Soledad. +With so many people at the meeting, we couldn't confine the discussion to +campus activities alone. We simply could not tell the people that they were +at the wrong meeting; this enormous excitement had to be seized at that +moment and channeled into active protest. People eagerly volunteered to +write and mimeograph literature about the case, and others volunteered to +organize community leafleting teams. We talked about a mass rally to be +held in a few weeks. The picnic which had been discussed in the Victoria +Hall meeting was brought up again and volunteers agreed to immediately +begin work on it. +Things were in motion. People were caught up in the immense and +passionate desire to get their teeth into something — something that would +shake the judges from their benches; that would tear down the indifference +of greedy public defenders and peel the cruelty from the eyes of prison + + guards. They wanted for once to fight the machine that had ground them — +their fathers, their brothers, their sons — into the dirt. Many of them knew +George, John or Fleeta — but their anger, like mine, was for every Black +mother's son whose life had been frozen or destroyed in the Soledads of this +country. They didn't need to be educated or informed — they knew. The +gray walls, the sound of chains had touched not only their lives, but the +lives of all Black people in the country. Somewhere, at some time, they +knew or knew of someone who wore those chains. They had moved from +ancient and individual despair, resignation, and savage fury to a Hydraheaded unit that said with one voice: "No more. It stops here." It was +natural and right that this group become the nucleus toward which the +permanent Soledad Committee gravitated. And the position I had initially +accepted — coordinator of campus activities — was soon transformed into +the leadership position of the entire Los Angeles committee. Though I knew +that I would have to push myself to the very limits of my capabilities, it did +not even enter my mind to step down. The exhilaration I felt in +experiencing all this energy and enthusiasm could have persuaded me to +drop everything else. +Within a few short weeks, the campaign to free the Soledad Brothers was +being talked about all over the Black community, the college campuses and +Left political circles throughout the city. Our "Free the Soledad Brothers" +buttons were being worn by many people. A brother in the BSU at UCLA +had donated some silk-screen posters of the brothers, and a printing +operation had produced masses of them at no cost to the committee. +Wherever movement activities were going on — meetings, rallies, +conferences — and at concerts and other events in the Black community, +there were always committee activists, armed with literature, posters and +buttons, inviting people to attend our weekly meetings at the 50th Street +house. +At the rally downtown, Penny Jackson and I spoke on behalf of the brothers +and were joined by other Black community leaders: Masai, then Minister of +Education of the Black Panther Party, spoke about the frame-up of the +Soledad Brothers as part of the same trend of repression manifested in the +police attacks on his party. + + At UCLA, we moved to build a Soledad Brothers — Bobby Seale-Ericka +Huggins Defense Committee, and organized a rally which attracted +thousands of students. The members of the committee who worked at the +L.A. County Hospital invited me to speak about the case at a meeting of +hospital workers. Frances Jackson and I accepted an invitation to speak at +San Diego State College. It was a good rally, but we had to make a quick +exit to make sure that the prominently and abundantly posted Minutemen +did not carry out the threats of violence they had made against us. After that +rally, I went over to the university in La Jolla to give another speech on the +Brothers, after which I helped to pull a committee together down there. +Even though Fania and Sam were still very much entangled in their own +case, they were eager to build the Soledad Brothers Defense Committee in +La Jolla. +Our work was gaining momentum, and its impact on the community was +growing stronger. The committee's numbers were increasing each week, +reflecting the growth in strength of the broader defense campaign. I stepped +up my own personal involvement. No requests for speaking engagements +were turned down — but I made it clear that any speech I gave would be on +the Soledad Brothers case, and whatever honorarium I received would be +donated to the Soledad Brothers Defense Fund. Loyola College in L.A. +Pasadena City College. University of San Francisco. University of the +Pacific. Monterey Junior College. University of California at Santa Cruz. +Palisades High School. There were also the churches and the social groups, +including sororities and fraternities that were being stimulated by the +growing political involvement of the sisters and brothers around them. +I had become so totally immersed in traveling and speaking engagements +that when a pretrial hearing took place in Monterey County on May 8, I +could not join the delegation from our committee. I had never seen the +Soledad Brothers and had been looking forward to attending the hearing, if +only to catch a glimpse of them. A few days earlier, I had received a +message from George, saying that they were all eager to see us. +Kendra, Tamu and a few committee members made the seven-hour drive to +Salinas, along with the families of the brothers. Having discovered that +John Clutchette was the same John she had known in high school, Kendra + + was especially excited about seeing him after so many years. Reluctantly, I +stayed home and worked on my course lectures. +Everyone who had attended the hearing came back to L.A. recharged by +their contact with the Brothers and angered by what they had seen and +heard in the courtroom. +At the conclusion of the hearing, Frances, Penny and Mrs. Jackson had been +able to visit with George. He wanted me to know, they said, how grateful he +and the other Brothers were — but that they had all been disappointed that I +had not come. +The next hearing was a week off. I planned my schedule in order to take the +day off for the trip to Salinas. In addition to the families, three of us were +going up this time. Cheryl Dearmon, from UCLA, and Carl X, from the +Che-Lumumba Club, were going to ride with me. Dearmon, as her friends +called her, was active in the BSU at the university and had been one of the +first to join the campaign around my job. Because she was tall, lightskinned and wore a full natural, she was constantly being mistaken for me +— even, sometimes, by the police who were assigned to keep me under +surveillance. +I had planned to take my trusty old 1959 Rambler, but no one else shared +my confidence that the car would make it along the steep winding route +leading to Salinas. Overruled, I agreed to drive Kendra and Franklin's +station wagon. +When we left the highway on the Salinas turnoff, we still had a few minutes +to spare. As I drove through the streets of this city, my eyes instinctively +searched for Black faces in the cars and among the little groups of sidewalk +strollers. There was not one Black person in sight. There was a laziness +about Salinas and a small-town atmosphere which reminded me of the +South. The white people looked Southern. Their faces seemed to convey +that familiar combination of inanity and a desperate striving to feel superior +to something. I wondered whether the many Chicanos whom I saw walking +the streets had heard about the Soledad Brothers case. This was where +Cesar Chavez and the Farm Workers Union had been conducting an + + organizing campaign. Perhaps, I thought, we could solicit support from +them, should the trial take place in Monterey County. +We had no trouble finding the courthouse. As in most small Southern +towns, it dominated the downtown area. White and massive, its architecture +in neoclassical design, the courthouse was surrounded by little parking lots +filled with sheriff's patrol cars and a whole array of official vehicles with +Monterey County stamped on their sides. This was the famous Monterey +County — scenic, luxurious — where thousands of people converged each +year to relax to the sound of their favorite jazz musicians. The Monterey +Jazz Festival, Big Sur, Carmel Valley — it all sounded so soothing and +idyllic. It was such a perfect cover for the Soledad persecution of prisoners, +the repression of Chicano farm workers, the Aryan Brotherhood, and Judge +Campbell, who had made no secret of his intention to deliver George, John +and Fleeta into the hands of their executioner. Being in Salinas was like +having ventured into enemy territory. +Trying to be inconspicuous as we looked for a parking space, we ran into +the Jackson family as they were arriving. +After following them to the lot behind the courthouse, we all walked into +the building. Like most courthouses I had seen, this one had a plastic, shiny +veneer. Its sparkling marble walls and antiseptically clean floor almost +seemed designed to hide the dirty racist business being conducted there. It +was as if the sheer weight of the marble, the inhuman tidiness of the halls +alone spelled justice. Could there be bribery behind pinkveined Vienna +marble? Could the sound of footsteps on those glistening floors be that of +any other than the most righteous? How could those massive doors open +onto any but the most fair and compassionate litigation? +Here as elsewhere Justice was an image — heavy, slick and wholly +deceptive. +The Bay Area Soledad Committee had done an excellent job of mobilizing +people to attend the hearing. The line outside Judge Campbell's courtroom +stretched down the other end of the corridor. While it was good to see so +many people already involved in the campaign, I was distressed by the fact +that so few Black people were there. (Later, I discovered that the problem + + was the composition of the committee — it was active and had attracted +numbers of enthusiastic members, but the Black people on the committee +could be counted on one hand.) +When Georgia saw all the people, she told me that it didn't make sense for +us to stand in this long line; the courtroom couldn't even seat all those +already waiting. I had never felt so crushed. After all the shifting of +schedules to make time for the hearing; after all the feverish running around +to make sure we arrived on time; after all this, I wasn't going to get in. Full +of rage, I saw myself standing outside the doors while the hearing took +place, waiting breathlessly for some news of the proceedings. +Georgia tried to cheer me up by saying that there was still a chance that +something could be arranged. Dearmon and I took the hint, and when the +bailiffs opened the doors for the families, we both slipped inconspicuously +into the chambers. +Inside the crowded courtroom, the silence palpitated with the frustration of +people powerfully stimulated by the tangible presence of the enemy. The +red-faced bailiffs stationed along the walls stared at us with the hostility +they had learned for their role. We waited. I hoped that something would +soon happen to break this incredible tension before it exploded of its own +accord. +Despite, or because of, this intense waiting, the sudden appearance of a fat, +hard-looking uniformed white man startled us all. As he waddled through +the door behind the bench, he epitomized the fascist atmosphere of this +hearing. We knew already that Judge Campbell would try to tighten the +knots of the conspiracy. +He would try to lock the Brothers more securely into a fate leading +unwaveringly to the death chamber. The presence of this Soledad guard was +supposed to instill awe and fear in us. We were supposed to feel impotent +before the apparatus he represented. We were supposed to already smell the +odor of cyanide. +But we did not feel afraid, we did not feel impotent. And we vigorously +applauded the heroes of our struggle as they strode proudly, courageously, + + powerfully into the courtroom. The chains draping their bodies did not +threaten us; they were there to be broken, destroyed, smashed. The sight of +those shackles designed to alarm us, to make the prisoners appear +"dangerous," "mad," only made us itch to tear the metal from their wrists, +their ankles. I knew that my own anger was shared by all. The bile rose in +my throat. But more powerful than the taste of outrage was the dominating +presence of the Brothers, for the Brothers were beautiful. Chained and +shackled, they were standing tall and they were beautiful. +George looked even more vibrant than I had imagined. I had thought that +the scars of the last decade would be immediately apparent. But there was +not a trace of resignation, not the least stamp of the bondage in which he +spent all the years of his adult life. He walked tall, with more confidence +than I had ever seen before. His shoulders were broad and muscular, his +tremendous arms sculptures of an ancient strength, and his face revealed the +depth of his understanding of our collective condition and his own refusal +to be overwhelmed by this oppression. I could hardly believe the refreshing +beauty of his smile. +John was the tallest of the three. Dark, with handsome, well-wrought +features, there was an appealing earthiness about the way he walked into the +courtroom. And Fleeta, so visibly full of hope. He greeted us with his +beautiful, unrestrained smile. +It was so wrong that they should be the ones to wear these clanging chains. +Whatever the time it took, whatever the energy, these chains would be +broken. +The hearing itself was a series of formal denials of every motion the +defense lawyers tried to argue. Predictably, it was punctuated with the little +racist quips for which Judge Campbell was already notorious — such as +telling the spectators to remember that they were not sitting at a barbeque +table. Amid all the screaming back and forth between prosecution lawyers, +defense lawyers and the bench, the Brothers were calm and self-contained. +During the proceedings, George read through a huge sheaf of papers. +Wearing his black-rimmed glasses and reading with intense concentration, +he looked very studious, like the teacher he had become for so many +brothers in prisons up and down the state. + + At the end of the morning session, I approached the defense table, hoping to +exchange a few words with them. The guards said nothing when George +walked over to the rail to speak to me. There was no time for formal +introductions, and there was none of the stiffness that usually characterizes +first meetings. George spoke as if our friendship already had a long, full +history behind it. +"Angela, did you get my letter?" he asked. +"The note you sent to the house last week?" I referred to a short letter on +prison stationery mailed through official channels, in which he asked me to +apply for regular correspondence with him. +"No, I'm talking about a long letter on yellow legal paper. You didn't get it +yet?" +"No, I haven't seen it." +"Damn it. I wanted you to read it before you came in today." +Obviously, there was something quite important about the letter. I wondered +what it was. +"H. probably has the letter. Do you know her?" He spoke rapidly, now that +our time was running out. +I shook my head. +"She's around here somewhere. She shouldn't be too hard to find. But make +sure you get the letter before you leave." +"Don't worry, George," I assured him, "if it's around, I'll find it." +There was so much more I wanted to say. But from the beginning of the +conversation, the bailiffs had been screaming for the courtroom to be +cleared. The Soledad guards were growing restless and seemed to be +looking for a superior to order them to move in on the little crowd around +the Brothers. Reluctantly, we said our good-byes. + + I didn't find the letter that day, but I did manage to find out who H. was. She +did have the letter, but not with her. We made arrangements for it to reach +me over the next days. + +The first time I saw Jonathan Jackson, he reminded me of my youngest +brother, Reginald. Like Reggie, he was tall, light-skinned, with a full head +of sandy- colored hair. I had been invited to speak at the annual conference +of the L.A. Committee to Defend the Bill of Rights. The organizers of the +conference had selected the prison struggle as its major theme and had +asked the families of the three Soledad Brothers to attend. Mrs. Jackson, +Penny and Jonathan, together with Inez Williams and some of John +Clutchette's relatives, participated in the workshop on prisons and political +prisoners. +Sometime after the May 16 hearing, Georgia and Penny Jackson asked me +to attend a meeting of the Democratic Club in Pasadena, which was headed +by Don Wheeldin, a Black man who had a long history of involvement in +progressive causes. He wanted to raise the issue of the Soledad Brothers +case before this meeting in order to appeal to the membership for financial +and political support. A sister named Fannie, who was a student at UCLA +and one of the leading activists in the Soledad Committee, had driven us +there. Since we had to drop Georgia and Penny off when the meeting was +over, they invited us to stop by the house for coffee. +It was late when we arrived, and everyone in the Jackson home had already +gone to bed. The four of us were sitting around the dining-room table +discussing the meeting we had just left and waiting for the coffee to brew, +when Jonathan appeared in the doorway, in his bathrobe and rubbing the +sleep from his eyes. With a faint smile, he mumbled, "What's all the noise +about? Can't anyone get some sleep around here?" And he walked on in, +took a seat at the table and joined in the conversation. +This was the first time I had exchanged more than a few words of greeting +with Jonathan. George had mentioned him in the letter, praising him for his +intelligence and especially for his unshakable commitment to him. He had +said that Jon was somewhat withdrawn and had asked me to try to get him + + interested in attending the Soledad meetings at Kendra and Franklin's. I +decided to talk to him about the committee right then. +Jonathan only wanted to talk about George. All of his interests, all of his +activities were bound up in some way with his brother in Soledad. At +sixteen, Jonathan was carrying a burden which most adults would refuse. +The last time he had seen George on the "free" side of the walls, he was a +seven-year-old. From that time to this, there had been the visits overseen by +armed guards in Chino, Folsom, San Quentin, Soledad. And the letters. The +letters in which they had developed the relationship which should have +unfolded at home, in the streets, in the gym, on the baseball field. But +because it had been cramped into prison visitors' cubicles, into two-page, +censored letters, the whole relationship revolved around a single aim — +how to get George out here, on this side of the walls. +Jonathan was extremely proud of the relationship he had with his brother, +proud of its maturity and of the trust George had in him. In the course of +our conversation, he brought out a thick sheaf of letters he had received +from the various prisons his brother had inhabited over the last ten years. +He wanted us to read George's descriptions of the brutal treatment he and +the other brothers had received at the hands of the prison guards. +Without ever having been involved in mass movements, he instinctively +understood the need to get large numbers of people pushing for the freedom +of his brother. As he talked about his experiences at Pasadena High School, +where he was finishing his third year, he bitterly complained about the +apathy of most of his classmates. They didn't know what struggle was all +about, he said — particularly the white students, who were in the majority +at the school. He showed Fannie and me an article which he had written in +the school newspaper, running down the facts of the Soledad Brothers case +and criticizing the students for not being involved in issues such as this. +The article was brilliantly written. Like George, he expressed himself in +powerful and compelling language. Recalling that George had said in his +letter that we should try to attract Jonathan to the work of the defense +committee, I told him that we were sorely in need of good writers to get the +literature of the committee together. As Fannie and I were leaving, I said we +were expecting to see him at the next meeting. + + Jon was present at the next meeting on 50th Street and after that he rarely +missed a session. He never said much during the meetings, but when it +came to producing material and distributing it, he was a dedicated worker. +As the Soledad Committee gained in influence, and as its work became +more complicated and demanding, I began to spend a great deal of time +with the Jackson family. Frances, Penny or Georgia and I frequently had +joint speaking engagements in order to publicize the activities of the +committee. More often than not, Jonathan accompanied us. We grew closer, +and I came to look upon him not only as a brother in struggle, but as +something like a blood brother as well. +My communications with George became more regular. We too grew closer. +As we agreed and disagreed with each other on political questions, a +personal intimacy also began to develop between us. In his letters, which +dealt for the most part with subjects such as the need to popularize +communist ideas among the Black masses, the need to develop the prison +movement, the role of women in the movement, etc., George also talked +about himself, his past life, his own personal desires and aspirations, his +fantasies about women, his feelings about me. "I've been thinking about +women a lot lately," he once wrote. "Is there anything sentimental or +otherwise wrong with that? That couldn't be. It's never bothered me too +much before, the sex thing. I would do my exercise and the hundreds of +katas, stay busy with something . . ." +I came to know George not only through the letters we exchanged, but also +through the people who were close to him — through Jon and the rest of the +Jackson family, through John Thorne, who, as his lawyer, saw him +regularly. The closer I felt to George, the more I found myself revealing to +those who knew George a side of me I usually kept hidden except from the +most intimate of friends. In the letters I managed to get to him I responded +not only to the political questions he posed; I also told him that my feelings +for him had grown deeper than a political commitment to struggle for his +freedom; I felt a personal commitment as well. George knew about the tons +of hate mail which poured into my office at UCLA demanding that I be +expelled from the university. He knew about the many threats which had +been made on my life and was concerned for my safety. George was aware + + that whenever I appeared in a public situation, sisters and brothers from the +Che-Lumumba Club did security duty. Yet, he didn't think this was enough. +From his own experience — behind walls — he was convinced one could +never be too vigilant. Besides, the sisters and brothers from Che-Lumumba +were necessarily abstract for him. He had never seen them and knew them +only through my letters. He knew and trusted Jonathan much more than +anyone else on this side of the walls. He wrote me that he wanted Jon to +stay with me as much as possible. Jon also received a message from his +brother asking him to make sure that I was secure from the racists and +reactionaries who might try to make me a martyr. +When George's book Soledad Brother was being prepared for publication, +he asked me to read over the manuscript and make suggestions for +improvements. The evening I received it, I thought I would skim through a +few of the letters, saving the bulk of the book for another time. But once I +got started, it was impossible to put the manuscript down until I had seen +every word — from the first letter to the last. I was astounded. The +formidable magnetism of the letters came not only from their content, not +only from the way they traced George's personal and political evolution +over the last five years — but even more from the way they articulated so +clearly, so vividly, the condition of our people inside prison walls and +outside. And in several passages George stated so precisely, so naturally, the +reasons our liberation could only be achieved through socialism. + +On June 15, one of the most important of all the pretrial motions in the +Soledad case was scheduled to be heard in Salinas. The lawyers were going +to move for a change of venue. I drove up with Mrs. Jackson, Frances and +Jonathan. Two other carloads of our committee members had also been +mobilized to attend the hearing. Fannie Haughton, my sister Fania, Mitsuo +Takahashi, Jamala and several others were there to represent the L.A. +movement. +We had expected a fierce courtroom battle, but we had not expected the +judge to be so audacious as to ban the Brothers themselves from the scene +of the hearing. Apparently the Salinas officials had been frightened by the +sight of large numbers of people from all parts of the state who had come to + + attend the hearing. The judge had issued an order prohibiting the Soledad +guards from bringing the Brothers to the courthouse. +When the lawyers and the spectators learned about this ploy, pandemonium +broke loose. The lawyers were screaming at the judge and the audience +joined in. In the midst of all this, Fay Stender shouted that we were all there +only to assure that the trial was moved to a place where the Brothers would +stand a better chance of being fairly judged. By now, the judge was in a +state of total confusion. He simply did not know how to cope with the +supporters in the courtroom. Answering Fay, he screamed something like +"All right, you can have your change of venue. Where do you want the trial +to take place?" +"San Francisco," she immediately responded, thinking, as she later told us, +that there was not the slightest possibility that he would accept her +suggestion. +"All right," the judge said now, almost in a state of panic, "I am ordering +that the trial be moved to San Francisco." With this, and without even +formally adjourning court, he left the bench and headed for his chambers. +We rejoiced over our victory. We had won the change of venue, which we +expected would be denied, as all the other motions had been. The victory +was important: a trial in San Francisco would be far more public, it would +require far less effort to fill the courtroom, and it would be far easier to +mobilize demonstrators to stand vigilance each day. +For the Soledad Brothers Defense Committee, the months of June and July +were filled with spirited activity. All of us worked assiduously to publicize +and expand the movement for the freedom of George, John and Fleeta. +On June 19, our L.A. group sponsored a demonstration and rally outside the +State Building, which houses the Department of Corrections and the Parole +Board. Quite coincidentally, this happened to be the day when the Regents +were meeting to deliberate on the question of my position at UCLA. This +was both a boon and a disadvantage. + + On the one hand, it meant that we would receive far more publicity than we +had hoped for, since all the reporters seeking my response to the Regents' +decision would find their way to the demonstration. But on the other hand, +it could prove fatal to the goal of our demonstration if it overshadowed the +cause of the Soledad Brothers. +Before we went down to the State Building that morning, I decided that +whatever the decision of the Regents, and regardless of the number of +reporters around, I would forestall all comment on that situation until we +had completed our actions around the Soledad Brothers. +At the rally, Masai Hewitt, Minister of Education of the Black Panther +Party, spoke on behalf of his imprisoned comrades, Bobby and Ericka, +Huey and the scores of others so that the Soledad case would be seen as one +of the crests of a mounting wave of repression. Since Josef had done time in +Soledad, we asked him to describe his experiences behind the walls in order +to give people an understanding of the forces which had led to the frame-up +of the Soledad Brothers. Jane Fonda, who had eagerly agreed to participate +in the rally, was on hand to make the appeal for funds. I spoke of the work +of our committee in organizing for the freedom of the Brothers. I told how +we had come to the conclusion that it was not enough to fight around +individual cases. We had to do that and much more. A movement was +burgeoning behind the walls, and sisters and brothers needed our support +and solidarity. The demands we were going to present to the Adult +Authority reflected our resolve to expand our movement; they were +demands on behalf of all prisoners. +With my speech, the rally was over. We fell into formation and marched +across the street to the building housing the California Adult Authority — +the Prison Parole Board. There were hundreds in our ranks as we poured +into the building, into the elevators, and streamed several flights up the +stairs until we reached the offices of the Adult Authority. For the occasion +we had printed posters demanding the freedom of the Soledad Brothers, +Bobby and Ericka, and all political prisoners and listing our demands to the +Department of Corrections and the Adult Authority. All along our route, we +had pasted the posters on the walls. + + The crowd was beautiful in its varied composition: Black, Chicano, Asian +and white. There were young people, many over thirty and some much +older. Workers, students, and professionals were in our ranks. A fairly good +representation from UCLA included the chairman of the Philosophy +Department, Donald Kalish, who could always be called upon to lend his +support to progressive causes. I was extremely happy to see that the two +young Black women who were clerical workers in the department — +Connie and Betty — had come out to participate. Some passers-by had also +joined in the demonstration. +A small-scale confrontation took place between us and the Adult Authority +people when we demanded a meeting with the members of the board. +Surrounded by hundreds of chanting demonstrators, they were searching for +some way out. They insisted that the board members were not in Los +Angeles, but rather were meeting in some other part of the state. When they +had learned of our intentions to stage this demonstration on the date of their +monthly meeting in L.A., they had probably moved the meeting elsewhere. +We were not so much interested in pushing the confrontation further. We +had served notice on them of our intentions. +Not long after the demonstration had come alive, several reporters informed +me that the Regents were done with their meeting and had already released +their decision: I was not going to be rehired for the coming year. Now that +our demonstration had been successfully concluded, we prepared to hold a +press conference on the sidewalk outside the State Building. It seemed that +the news media had been following a conscious policy of minimal or no +coverage of the Soledad Brothers movement. I was determined that they not +get away with it this time. Thus I made a point of phrasing all my responses +in such a way that each sentence said something about the relationship +between my firing and the repression of the Soledad Brothers and other +political prisoners. The Regents could no longer invoke the statute +prohibiting the employment of Communists at the university; the court +injunction against the Regents on this issue was still in effect. Moreover, +they had been unable to produce any evidence that I had been delinquent in +the performance of my academic duties. Not even the secret ad hoc +committee of professors appointed by the Regents to investigate my + + classroom activity had come up with anything the Regents considered +useful. +Thus the Board of Regents was left only with the notion that my political +speeches outside the classroom were "unbefitting a university professor." +Interestingly, this decision was announced on the very day of one of these +speeches in which I had "unbefittingly" charged high government officials, +including Ronald Reagan himself, with participating in and condoning a +conspiracy to suppress all radical political activists, particularly those in +prison. +Members of our Defense Committee were all pleased to learn that the +photograph accompanying the story about my firing had been snapped +while we were walking the picket line. It carried the message of our fight +through the international wire services to people all over the world: I was +carrying a sign reading save the soledad brothers from legal lynching and +Jonathan, walking close behind me, carried a sign reading end political +repression in prisons. +A few days after our June 19 demonstration, a statewide meeting of the +Soledad Defense Committee took place in San Jose at the home of Joan and +Betsy Hammer. On the agenda was the question of strategy for the +upcoming San Francisco trial. The committee in San Francisco was not +nearly as strong as it should have been, especially in the Black community. +It was obvious that there had to be more grass-roots work in San Francisco +and Oakland in order to lay the groundwork for the large-scale participation +in the events around the trial. I was asked whether I would consider +spending some time in San Francisco during the summer to help with these +tasks. I said I had to think it over very carefully. +Back in Los Angeles, our committee held cocktail parties to raise funds. We +sponsored a showing of a film on Vietnam, The Year of the Pig; there was +quite a successful mass rally at the Unitarian Church on Eighth Street. One +of the Soledad Committee's most outstanding fund-raisers was the art +auction we pulled together. A number of artists, Black and white, +professional and amateur, agreed to donate their works. Two brothers who +operated an art gallery in the Crenshaw area of L.A. (and who, incidentally, +had attended nursery school with me in Birmingham) readily agreed to let + + us use their place for the showing. We planned many more such events for +the remainder of the summer and the fall. +As all these activities unfolded, the academic part of my life was also +demanding attention. Knowing that under ordinary circumstances — that is, +if the UCLA affair had not exploded into an all-consuming aspect of my life +— the dissertation would have already been done, I now wanted to get it +behind me as quickly as possible. By the end of the summer, it absolutely +had to be finished. This was the goal I set for myself. My work was going +to be facilitated by the research grant I had received from the university for +the months of July, August and September. +While there was no question of my ceasing to be active in the Soledad +Committee, I did want to pare down my political involvements to a +minimum. I began to make certain practical changes. In the apartment, I +tried to reestablish my study, which had been taken over by the work of the +committee. I moved the mimeograph machine and the other materials being +used by the committee from my study into our adjacent dining room. I had +thought that I would then be able to develop a work routine involving at +least eight hours of study a day. But by the summer our apartment on 45th +had become a real center, an office and a "crash pad." People constantly +dropped by to inform themselves about the work of the committee — and +this was good, because it meant that we had created a movement which was +attracting many people in the community. Tamu's husband, Malcolm, had +been released from prison and was now living at the house, and a friend of +theirs from Canada was sleeping on the couch. Baby Kendra had reached +the age where she required a great deal of attention. Whenever she was +around, I simply could not resist the temptation to play with her. All this +added up to the fact that the only time I could accomplish serious work on +my dissertation was after everyone in the house was asleep. Sometimes I +worked from one or two A.M. until six or seven. But since I never slept +during the day, it became impossible for me to keep up this pace. +Feeling very frustrated about my work, I decided to look for a small, +inexpensive apartment where I could hide away during the hours I wanted +to work. The place I finally found was located on 35th Street, just ten +blocks away from the other apartment. The rent was only seventy-five + + dollars, which meant I could still pay half the rent at the other place and +continue to stay there when I needed to. Remembering the experience of the +phone on 45th ringing at all hours of the day and night, I decided to keep +this apartment free of its incursions, receiving all my calls on 45th. +Since I couldn't move in until the first of July, Georgia Jackson invited me +to spend the intervening time out at their house in Pasadena so I'd have a +quiet place to work. On the first, I moved my books and papers, my desk +and typewriter and a bed into the new place. Over the next month, I allowed +nothing to interrupt my studying, with the one exception of the Soledad +Committee. +Around the middle of July, I made a short trip to the Bay Area to speak +about the Soledad Brothers at a meeting of activists from various +organizations in San Francisco, Berkeley and Oakland. Since the venue of +the trial had been changed, the Brothers had been transferred from Soledad +to San Quentin. Jonathan and his father were driving up to see George +around the time of the meeting, so we all went up together. +The meeting was being held at the office of the National Lawyers Guild. +Together with Fay Stender and other members of the Bay Area Soledad +Committee, I spoke of the importance of broadening the movement around +the Brothers, especially in the months and weeks preceding the trial. The +Left throughout the Bay Area had to be mobilized, and there had to be a +concentrated organizing effort focused on the Black community. A brother +from the Black Panther Party assured us that they would assume a large part +of the responsibility of getting masses of Black people involved in the +attempt to save the Brothers' lives. +Present at the meeting were representatives of the Defense Committee, +which was doing a highly successful job developing support for a group of +Chicano activists on trial at that time — Los Siete de la Raza. We agreed +upon a loose coalition between our groups and decided that we would +launch the new era of our work to free political prisoners with a mass rally +in San Francisco on August 12. Charles Garry, attorney for Los Siete, +eagerly agreed to speak at the rally, and I said I would speak as well. + + George's lawyer, John Thorne, had filed a motion with a San Francisco +judge requesting that I be recognized as George's legal investigator — +which was essentially the same thing I had done for Hekima. Since I was +there, we both went to the courthouse in order to argue the motion that day. +On the same floor where John was arguing the motion, the trial of Los Siete +was in session. I sat in for a while, made the sign of solidarity to the +brothers and talked for a few minutes with Charles Garry about the +coordination of the work of the committees around the two groups of +political prisoners. +While I was in the Bay Area, the Soledad Committee activists once again +raised the question of my spending a little time up there to help with the +organizing of the committee. Having just found the apartment where I could +devote most of my days to my dissertation, I was hesitant to seriously +entertain the possibility of dismantling everything again. But the Bay Area +Committee was not in the best of shape and could no doubt benefit from the +experiences we had accumulated in Los Angeles. I told them that I would +think about it, but in the event that I could not come, I would try to +persuade one of the more experienced Black members of our group to come +up instead. +I was thinking about my roommate Tamu. +Around the beginning of August, I had decided that it might be possible for +me to spend a few weeks in the Bay Area, particularly since the library on +the Berkeley campus was far more complete in works relating to the topic +of my thesis than the UCLA library, and I was going to have to do the last +part of my research there anyway. I thought it might be possible to spend +some time in the Bay Area, dividing my days between the University and +the Soledad Brothers Defense Committee. Around the beginning of August +I went up to see about a place and check out the library. + +AUGUST 7, 1970 +Courtroom number one, presided over by Judge Harold Haley, was in +session. On trial was James McClain, a prisoner from San Quentin who had + + been charged with assault in connection with a recent incident at the prison. +Acting as his own attorney, he had already begun to present his defense. +When Jonathan entered the courtroom and took a seat in the spectator +section, Ruchell Magee, another San Quentin prisoner and a witness for the +defense, was being examined by McClain. Jonathan sat there for a while. +Then he stood up, a carbine in his hand, and directed everyone in the +courtroom to freeze. McClain and Ruchell joined Jonathan, as did William +Christmas, who was waiting to testify in a nearby holding cell. +Some of the sheriff's people later testified that the brothers shouted out, +"Free the Soledad Brothers!" Others claimed they heard "Free Our brothers +at Folsom!" and yet others, "Free All Political Prisoners!" The prosecutor +maintained that the purpose of the revolt was to have the Soledad Brothers +released from prison. +The judge, a shotgun taped to his neck, the district attorney prosecuting the +case and several jurors were led by the brothers into a van parked in the lot +outside. A San Quentin guard fired on the van. Then a barrage of shots tore +into the van and when the smoke had cleared, all except one inside had +either been killed or wounded. Judge Haley was dead. D.A. Garry Thomas +was wounded. A woman juror was wounded. McClain and Christmas were +dead. Ruchell was wounded. +And Jon . . . +When I learned about the revolt later that evening, when I saw the Marin +County scene on television, I kept repeating out loud, "There must be some +mistake. That can't be Jonathan, not our Jon. It can't be. He was so alive, so +strong." +Jonathan had just turned seventeen. A few months earlier, George had +written me: +Jon is a young brother and he is just a little withdrawn, but he is +intelligent and loyal. . . . He is at that dangerous age where confusion +sets in and sends brothers either to the undertaker or to prison. He is a +little better off than I was and than most brothers his age. He learns +fast and can distinguish the real from the apparent, provided someone + + takes the time to present it. Tell the brothers never to mention his green +eyes and his skin tone. He is very sensitive about it and he will either +fight or withdraw. Do you understand? You know that some of us don't +bother to be righteous with each other. He has had a great deal of +trouble these last few years behind that issue. It isn't right. He is a loyal +and beautiful black man-child. I love him. +And Jon's feelings for George had overshadowed everything else in his life. +Jon was still so young, yet I don't think he had ever really been a child. He +had been robbed of his childhood by a society that had kept his brother +behind bars for almost as long as he could remember. +Seven is the age when most boys play with bright-red plastic water guns. +But at seven, Jon knew that guns were big and gray and that when they +were drawn from a prison guard's holster and the trigger was pulled they did +not eject a fresh stream of water. They shot bullets that brought streams of +blood and death. Death. From the age of seven on, Jonathan saw George +only during prison visits. He saw his brother living with the reality of death, +every day, every hour, every moment. +During the few months of our friendship, I don't think I realized how +wracked he must have been by that decade of accumulated frustrations, by +that terrible sense of impotence before the walls, the bars, the guns, and +those tidy courtrooms presided over by fastidious white judges. +Now the enemy had closed in on Jon, who had tried to make some dent in +the formidable prison system which was turning his brother — all his +brothers and sisters — around and around, faster and faster in a vicious +orbit of misery and brutality, frame-ups and assassinations. +In those days following the revolt in the courthouse, I tried to dispel my +blind rage over Jonathan's death in order for my anger to become +constructive. I knew that there was only one way to avenge Jon's death — +through struggle, political struggle, through people in motion, fighting for +all those behind the walls. +Not to fight in this way was to leave Jonathan forever lying on the asphalt +— lying there in his own blood as though that was where he belonged. Not + + to fight would be to forever deny him — all the young and unborn +Jonathans — the beauty of lush green mountains instead of cold gray bars, +the freshness of a trip to the seaside, instead of a dismal journey into a +Soledad Prison visiting room. A childhood full of smiles and nice toys and +older brothers who are beautiful, strong and free . . . + + PART FIVE: Walls +The hand between the candle and the wall +Grows large on the wall. . . . +It must be that the hand +Has a will to grow larger on the wall, +To grow larger and heavier than +the wall. . . +WALLACE STEVENS + +W + +DECEMBER 22, 1970 + +hen the plane landed in California after the twelve-hour extradition +trip across country, there were as many armed men waiting outside +as there had been on the East Coast airfield to oversee my departure. The +sheriff's deputies and policemen seemed to be lost among the hundreds of +men wearing the uniforms of the United States Air Force. They were +stationed throughout the area and lined both sides of the route taken by the +caravan as it sped through the base. +The trip lasted ten or fifteen minutes. Then the caravan turned into the +Marin County Civic Center, which I recognized from newspaper +photographs taken since the August 7 revolt. The car in which I was riding +drove into a garage, and a steel gate immediately banged down. On the +other side of the gate, a crowd had gathered, and when I got out of the car, +they let out a clamorous "Free Angela Davis and all political prisoners!" +Still handcuffed, I made the sign of solidarity with a double fist. +Although I hadn't recognized any of the people, their presence rejuvenated +me, like the roars of support in New York on the day of my arrest. A few +seconds after I had raised my fists, I was pushed into an elevator that +opened into the booking area of the jail upstairs. And for the third time + + since I was arrested, I went through the same ritual: the forms, mug shots +and fingerprints. +The difference between the Marin County Jail and the Women's House of +Detention in New York was stark. Seeing the House of D. for the first time, +I had been repelled by its consummate filth. The Marin County Jail, on the +other hand, was strikingly, antiseptically clean. There were no mice +scurrying about the shiny floors. There were no graffiti on the newly +painted walls. Whereas the House of D. had been dingy, dim and dungeonlike, this jail was painfully bright. I was used to the sixty-watt bulb in my +New York cell; my eyes burned from the bright fluorescent lights here. +During the booking I noticed a set system of small television screens behind +the desk. The entire jail was obviously subject to the surveillance of closedcircuit TV. I wondered whether I would find a camera in my cell. +Once the booking process was over, and I had made sure they gave me +receipts for everything I had brought from New York, the matron signaled +for the door at the end of the corridor to be opened. A button was pressed; +the metal door slid heavily into the wall. This mechanical perfection was +much more frightening than the archaic fixtures of the House of D. +With an entourage of female guards, I walked down a corridor lined with +iron doors, windowless except for small square peepholes. At the end of the +corridor we turned right and faced two single cells separated by a tiny +shower cubicle which opened directly onto the corridor. A TV camera, +mounted on the ceiling, pointed in the direction of the cells. +The head matron unlocked the last of the two cells. As I walked in, my +feelings were ambivalent: anger at being subjected to the will of racist +jailers again; slight relief at finally being alone with time to think. +Once the gates were locked behind me and the matrons had left me alone +(although they were probably watching me on TV), I examined my +surroundings. Larger than my cell in the House of D., this one was about +seven feet square. Extending from one wall was a metal slab with a threeinch mattress on top. On the opposite wall was a pale-gray combined toiletand-sink fixture — the water from the basin drained down into the toilet + + bowl. To brush your teeth or wash your face, it was necessary to stand over +the open toilet bowl. The only other furnishings in the cell were a twelveinch shelf with two clothes hooks underneath and a small metal table +attached to a round wooden stool. +I stretched out on the little mattress and tried to imagine what was +happening on the other side of the walls. I hadn't had a chance to speak to +either Margaret or John after the Supreme Court ruled that I was to be +returned to California. I was certain that they would both come out +immediately, but as yet there was no word. No word from them or from +anyone else. +I was still lying there, staring at the ceiling, trying to sort out my thoughts, +when a matron came to say that a lawyer was waiting to see me. Expecting +to see Margaret or John, I followed the matron into the lawyers' visiting +booth. On the other side of the metal screen was Terrence Kayo Hallinan, a +Bay Area lawyer who had been involved in the defense committee, and +Carolyn Craven, whom I had known from Los Angeles, who was at that +time a reporter for the local educational television network. Carolyn had +been able to get in as Kayo's legal assistant. When the jailers learned +afterward that she was also a news reporter, they announced that only +"attorneys of record" would be allowed in the jail. That meant that until +Margaret or John arrived from New York, I would literally be held +incommunicado. +With nothing to keep me occupied but the thoughts racing through my head, +I wondered about my brothers in San Quentin. I knew that not far from this +jail was that medieval fortress, surrounded by water, where they were +holding George captive. Did he know that I was now in California? Perhaps +I would soon receive a message from him and the brothers with him in the +Adjustment Center, the very worst section of the prison. Thinking about +them, reflecting upon our common predicament, I was able to rise above the +depressing and threatening solitude +I did not sleep that night — and I did not even try to shut out the +speculations about my future, about George's, John's, Fleeta's, Ruchell's. I +knew the gas chamber was waiting for us all. Then, like an omen from hell +sent to verify my wildest fears, a woman's screams shattered the silence. I + + could feel my heart beating like a frightened caged bird. In between her +bloodcurdling screams she seemed to be pleading: "Let me out of here! Let +me out of here!" Her shrieks were made more terrifying and disorienting +because I was unfamiliar with my surroundings. Except for my cell, the one +next door, and the visitor's booth down the hall, I had no idea of where +things were. The screaming continued. The cries were so close and I felt so +powerless. Darkness lay on me like a coffin lid, closing my first day at +Marin County Jail. +Early the next morning Margaret and John came in to see me. Shortly +afterward I was led down the maze of underground corridors through which +prisoners were taken from their cells to their court appearances. My +arraignment on the charges of murder, kidnapping and conspiracy was +scheduled for that morning. Margaret and John requested a continuance for +the arraignment, explaining that the legal team was just in the process of +being formed. After the presiding judge of Marin County granted our +request, he officially announced that he, as well as all the other judges in the +county, had disqualified himself because his relationship to Judge Haley +would probably prevent him from presiding fairly over the case. He then +handed down a gag order designed to prohibit me, the lawyers, and anyone +directly or tangentially connected with the case from making public +statements about evidence which might come up during the course of the +suit. +Everything was modern and spotless in this courtroom. +The lights, shining much brighter than daylight, accentuated the newness. In +this neat, pretty room, I thought, men and women are sent to dirty cells, +some to the death chamber just across the way at San Quentin. As I had +learned from press accounts, the courtrooms — and the entire Marin +County Civic Center — had been designed by Frank Lloyd Wright. For the +courtrooms, he had used a motif of circles. In the one where my first court +appearance took place, the ceiling had a large round panel with lights +encircling it. The fixtures of the room were arranged to correspond with the +circle above — the judge's bench, the jury box, and the tables for the +prosecution and defense — all were strategically placed to form a circle. + + Later I discovered that in designing the courtrooms, Wright had had +something very definite in mind. He wanted to depict the nature of justice +in the United States. The participants in a trial, he believed, should not be +seen as struggling against one another. On the contrary, judge, jury, +prosecutor and defendant are holding hands around a circle in the common +pursuit of justice. +When I learned about Wright's hand-holding message, I thought about the +game we used to play as children — "Ring around the rosie, Pocket full of +posies . . . Ashes, Ashes . . ." — and the way the game itself picked certain +children to be "out." There was absolutely nothing I had in common with +the men sitting around the courtroom circle. My comrades, my friends and I +— we all saw these men as the manipulators of a judicial game that was +rigged against me. We therefore had to continually strengthen the people's +movement that was our only hope of beating the odds. Two days later, in +fact, the National United Committee to Free Angela Davis (NUCFAD), led +by my sister Fania and my comrade Franklin, held a Christmas day vigil +outside the Civic Center. The walls of my windowless cell were far too +thick for their chants to penetrate. But I could feel them and I felt happy and +strong because of them. + +*** + +Now that I was in Marin County, I had to prepare to face my accusers on +their ground. A legal team had to be formed. John was planning to go back +to the East Coast once the question of the lawyers was squared away, but +Margaret was going to stay. I would have to have complete and total +confidence in my lawyers; in a very literal sense, I was entrusting my life to +them. Margaret and I already had established that deep trust, for we loved +each other as sisters. +There were many criteria which I hoped the other members of the legal +team would satisfy. Naturally I wanted lawyers who would be compatible +with me and with each other. We would be spending many months working + + together. However, there was one criterion that outweighed all the others. I +had to have lawyers who agreed that the case was a political one. They had +to be sensitive to the fact that the trial would be political in every respect. +Moreover, the courtroom battle would be interwoven with a battle +conducted by a mass movement. The lawyers would have to understand +from the outset that what happened in the courtroom would of necessity be +related to and coordinated with the campaign in the streets. +Hayward Burns, the president of the National Conference of Black +Lawyers, had put me in touch with Howard Moore. On the day I was +extradited from New York, I had talked with Howard, who had flown in +from Atlanta at my request. It was clear during our first conversation in the +New York jail that in trying civil rights cases in the South, he saw his +lawyer role as part of a larger effort to defend oppressed people who were +fighting for their freedom. When Howard talked about the struggle, there +was an intensity about him that convinced me that the most important thing +in his life was the liberation of Black people. He understood immediately +why I thought it was important for me to participate directly in the defense. +The evidence being mounted against me was political evidence: my +speeches at rallies, my leadership in the mass movement to free the Soledad +Brothers, my membership in the Communist Party. My politics were at +stake and it was up to me to defend them. Howard had agreed that one of +the first motions we filed should call for my participation in the legal team. +Aside from Howard's strong political commitment and his expertise as a +lawyer, he was also a warm human being. I liked him. The decision was +made. Margaret called his office to ask whether he would be willing to take +on the major responsibility of the case. He agreed at once and Franklin left +for Atlanta to finalize the agreement. The first hurdle had been surmounted. +I felt tremendously relieved. +Although Howard had agreed to shoulder the main burden of the trial, +previous commitments in his Atlanta law practice prevented his coming to +California permanently before the beginning of April. During the three +intervening months, we needed lawyers to work on the pretrial motions. +And for the team that would eventually try the case, we needed one or two + + lawyers who had been admitted to practice, on a regular basis, before the +California Bar. +We asked three lawyers to join the team for purposes of filing and arguing +the pretrial motions: Al Brotsky, who was a partner in Charles Garry's firm +and whose office he put at the disposal of the other lawyers; Michael Ugar, +whom I had known while he taught in the law school at UCLA; and Dennis +Roberts, a friend and colleague of Michael's. Later, Sheldon Otis, a wellknown trial lawyer from Detroit, also joined the team. +The physical arrangement of the jail seemed to be designed to utilize the +minimum amount of space for everything. The little lawyers' booth in the +women's section could accommodate one lawyer uncomfortably; two could +squeeze in if they weren't too large, one sitting and the other standing +behind the chair. My side of the metal screen was equally small — +whenever I was forced to sit in the booth for any length of time, it took me +some time to conquer the claustrophobia I had developed in jail. +At first I was thoroughly confused by the legal jargon with which the +lawyers discussed the case. When I was sealed in the tiny booth, these +mysterious terms would whirl around in my head. "One of our first motions +has to be the ‘Nine ninety-five,'" someone said. What did a "Nine ninetyfive" have to do with my life and the attempt to rescue it from the death +chamber? I hadn't the slightest idea what it meant. +The lack of space for lawyers' meetings was the cause of the first major +skirmish with the jailers. The issue was as clear as the legitimacy of our +complaint. If they did not furnish us with some opportunity to meet as a +group, they would be denying me a basic, constitutional right — the right to +counsel of my own choice. But the overseers of the jail made it clear that +they did not feel compelled to respect my rights, and they were not going to +yield an inch without a fierce struggle. Jails are thoughtless places. +Thoughtless in the sense that no thinking is done by their administrations; +no problem-solving or rational evaluation of any situation slightly different +from the norm. The void created by this absence of thought is filled by rules +and the fear of establishing a precedent (meaning a rule they had not yet +digested). Before we could even approach the major battle for my life — to +create weapons to slay the monster, as it were, we had to spend endless + + energy fighting minnows. Because of the rules by which prisons survive, +the only wellspring of passion left to their administrators is the proximity of +pain and death. Those quickest to kill were always those most outraged by +the infraction of a rule. +After they agreed to provide us with a place for a lawyers' conference, they +made arrangements for a heavily "secured" meeting in what turned out to be +the sheriff's staff room. It was the captain who came to fetch me, +surrounded by uniformed and armed guards. Grim-faced guards were +stationed along the way. It seemed to me that they had mobilized half their +police force. Who could believe that they seriously regarded me as such an +enormous threat? It was much more likely that they were trying to make me +appear to be so dangerous that scores of guards were needed to hold me +down. It was part of the conspiracy to find me guilty before I even had a +chance to be tried. The closer we got to the staff room, where there were +windows and doors to the outside world, the greater the number of guards +and the smaller the space between them. Just before entering the meeting +room, I had to walk down a narrow aisle created by two shoulder-toshoulder rows of deputies. Did they think I was going to run for it? It was +McGuire Air Force Base all over again. But then it struck me that these men +were probably even more dangerous than the ones at the base in New +Jersey: they were the same men who had been disarmed and held at bay by +Jonathan — by a seventeen-year-old man-child. No doubt they were +thinking about the August 7 revolt. No doubt their behavior was motivated +by a combination of shame and embarrassment and an obsessive yearning +for vengeance. + +JANUARY 5, 1971 +At the push of a button, the iron door closing off the women's section slid +open. I was on my way to the courtroom where I would be formally charged +by the state of California with murder, kidnapping and conspiracy. After the +long walk through the underground prisoners' corridors, I was directed into +a holding cell just outside the courtroom. A few minutes later, Captain +Teague, the chief of the detail, pulled out his keys from his gun belt, opened + + the door with a commanding gesture and said, "Miss Davis, you may enter +now." +When I walked into the courtroom, there was thunderous applause and my +eyes were momentarily blinded by flash bulbs and bright lights. Looking +straight into the spectator section, straining to see familiar faces, I raised my +fist to acknowledge their reception. +Some days later, looking at a photograph of that moment, I was struck by +the glaring incongruity of the scene. There I was, my face adorned with a +glowing smile; my unencumbered arm raised high. At the table a few feet to +my right, there sat Ruchell Magee, whom I had not yet seen. He was +tangled up in a mess of chains, a trace of a grimace on his face, as if he +were trying to find a more comfortable way of coping with the chains. +Had I seen Ruchell sooner, my first gesture would have been to reach out to +him, to affirm the bond between us. Then I would have turned to show my +gratitude to the supporters. Ruchell and I should have been able to +acknowledge, together, their presence. Only when I sat down in the seat +which faced the door I had just entered, did I see the chained Black man +who was my co-defendant. When I did see him, I smiled as warmly as I +could, trying to tell him that I loved him and that we were together. Ruchell +smiled back. +The arrangement seemed all wrong. We were so far away from each other. +The judge's bench was closer to me than Ruchell's chair. So was the +prosecutor's. Ruchell was all the way on the other side of the courtroom. +This "justice in the round" seemed intent on breaking up the natural alliance +between my brother and me. I was furious and upset. It even looked as if I +were there on my side of the circle with five good movement lawyers, while +Ruchell sat with his court-appointed attorney, Leonard Bjorkland. +When I read the San Francisco Chronicle the following day, I could detect +the beginnings of a campaign to publicly pit me against Ruchell. The article +on the arraignment began: "Angela Davis, accused of murder and +kidnapping, strode confidently into a Marin County courtroom, raised a +clenched fist, and later told the judge, 'I am innocent of all charges.'" About +fifteen paragraphs into the article was the sentence: "There was a gasp from + + courtroom spectators when Ruchell Magee, a San Quentin convict charged +as a co-conspirator with Miss Davis, was brought into the circular room +from an adjoining holding cell." +That was on January 6. On January 18, the same reporter wrote an article +which began: "They call Ruchell Magee ‘the other defendant' in the Angela +Davis case . . . overshadowed by the newly acclaimed heroine of black +revolutionaries." And then: "If Magee is a revolutionary it is the prison +environment — not a course of intellectual endeavor — that has made him +one." +That was the way the press tried to push Ruchell and me as far from each +other as possible in the eyes of the public. Even in the autobiographical +sketch of Ruchell, I was made the point of comparison: "Magee's prison life +began when he was 16, at about the same age Miss Davis, the daughter of a +middle class family, earned a scholarship to Brandeis University. . . . In the +years that Miss Davis followed a college career that took her through +Europe and finally to the University of California at San Diego to study for +her Ph.D. under Herbert Marcuse, Magee studied law books in his cell." +It seemed that the intent of the article was to burn away all semblance of +solidarity between us — to turn those who supported me against Ruchell +and to turn those who supported Ruchell against me. They wanted disunity +and division; for divided, we would both be most vulnerable. Unity was the +only sure way to carry us both to victory. +When the superficies of our two lives were set aside, what they had in +common could easily be seen. It all boiled down to the fact that we were +Black and in our own ways had tried to fight the forces that were strangling +our people. +I had always thought it was fortuitous that I was among those who had +escaped the worst. One small twist of fate and I might have drowned in the +muck of poverty and disease and illiteracy. That is why I never felt I had the +right to look upon myself as being any different from my sisters and +brothers who did all the suffering, for all of us. When I later learned how +Ruchell had spent his thirty-two years, it became so clear that he was +among them. + + Born in Louisiana, he had been convicted as a boy of thirteen of the +"attempted rape" of a white girl and had been locked up in Angola State +Penitentiary. He grew to adulthood behind those walls, where just to live +out another day was a constant fight. Eight years later, the authorities told +him he could leave the prison — that is, if his mother agreed to take him to +another state. They left for California. Ruchell was on the streets for just a +little more than a year when the Los Angeles police picked him up for being +involved in a trivial fight with another brother. With such a heavy record +behind him, they did not bother to give him even the appearance of a fair +trial. The system was poised against him, even to the extent that his courtappointed lawyer entered, over Ruchell's objection, a plea of "not guilty for +reasons of insanity." When the trial was over, Ruchell had been sentenced to +life in prison, having been convicted of kidnapping. (The allegation had +simply been that he drove the brother in question a few blocks in a car.) +Ruchell was all of us, not only in the way he was made a scapegoat of +racism, but also in his resiliency, in his refusal to concede defeat. The +schools in Louisiana had not taught him to read and write. Behind walls in +California, by using the Constitution of the United States as his reader he +conquered his illiteracy. He read law books and became sufficiently +conversant with the law to write briefs on his own case, which he filed with +the appropriate courts. With nothing to fall back on but his own sheer +determination, he became such an efficient lawyer that an appellate court +reversed his conviction on the basis of an argument he had made. +But the second time around, his trial also led to a conviction, for they +refused to recognize his right to defend himself. Again, he was sold out by a +court- appointed lawyer. But even in face of this second conviction, Ruchell +did not give up. He continued to file briefs with the courts — and not only +for himself, but for other brothers as well. At the same time, he wrote to +everyone on the outside whom he felt could assist him in exposing the +injustice done to him. +Ironically, I did not realize that I, too, had received one of those letters from +Ruchell until it was presented in court, having been taken from my +apartment by the FBI. It was one of the hundreds of letters I received each +week during the affair at UCLA. Because I had no one to help me with my + + mail, it had remained buried under all the other unanswered letters. If I had +only known then. + +The Women's Section of the Marin County Jail was obviously designed +under the assumption that few female arrests would be made in this county, +which ranks among the wealthiest in the country. The very small percentage +of Black, Chicano and poor people bore a direct relationship to what the +authorities felt their female jail needs would be. Counting the sick bay, the +isolation cells and the juvenile tank, there were a mere seventeen beds on +the women's side. +One would have thought that this small-scale jail would produce matrons +with less impersonal, less brutal responses. And, in fact, my first impression +of the female jailers was that they were amateurs groping around for the +role they felt matrons should play. But precisely because they were +straining to be good jailers, they frequently chose to assume the most +extreme posture they could manage. +Shortly after I arrived, I had a run-in with one of the matrons, the first of an +unending series of such conflicts. It happened on a Sunday in January. I had +spent part of the morning reading the least boring sections of the San +Francisco Examiner. During the late morning, I was called out for a visit, +but I had hardly gotten past the formalities of the introduction when a +raving matron broke into the visiting cubicle. +"Where's the razor blade? Just give it up! If you don't hand over the razor +blade, you'll see what we can do . . ." +I didn't know what she was talking about. The last time I had even seen a +razor blade was before my arrest. I didn't respond. +She continued her cryptic demands. "Unless you produce the razor blade +immediately, you won't be able to finish this visit." +I stared her straight in the eye for a few seconds and finally asked her what +she was talking about. + + "What happened to the razor blade in your newspaper?" she asked +frantically. +"What razor blade? What newspaper?" I asked. +I finally gathered from her sometimes incoherent remarks that the Sunday +paper had carried an advertisement for some brand of razor blades and that +a sample had been included. +"I don't read the advertisements," I said. "If there was a razor blade in the +paper, it must still be there." +I told her that if she'd stop being so hysterical, she could have the ridiculous +razor blade. And I walked down the corridor to my cell. The bulky paper +was stacked up on the bed. Not about to help her with her searching +business, I told her to get the razor blade herself. Still frantic, she tore +through the paper until she found the advertisement. When she pulled it out +and, with a vicious scowl on her face, showed me that the razor blade was +missing, I was certain that I was being set up by someone. +"Obviously," I said, "someone has removed the razor blade. But that's your +problem, not mine. I haven't the slightest idea what happened to it . . ." +As I expected, she spat loud, bold threats at me. "You won't have another +visit until you give up the razor blade. We're going to cut out your +commissary privileges. And if you think that you're going to call or see +your lawyers before you produce the razor blade, you're wrong. You're +wrong." +I tried to keep myself from blowing up. I had to show them that they +weren't going to provoke me with such pettiness. "I have said all I'm going +to say," I answered. "It's clear that I couldn't have a rational discussion with +you, even if I wanted to. One thing, though. I do know something about my +rights. I know full well that you cannot prevent me from seeing my +attorney. Just try — and you'll have a real fight on your hands." +I turned around abruptly and sat on my bed. "You may leave now," I said. +Still flustered, she whirled around and rushed out, almost forgetting to lock + + the gate behind her. +Alone in my cell, I thought about the dilemma. If they dared, they could +hold me incommunicado indefinitely. But I kept reassuring myself that if +they really tried to prevent my lawyers from seeing me, the lawyers would +find some way to get in. +Late that afternoon, shortly before the matron's shift was up, she came back +to my cell looking embarrassed. "I guess I have to apologize to you, Miss +Davis," she said hesitatingly. "A deputy at the booking desk took the razor +blades out of all the papers before they were sent in." +"They aren't going to get off so easily," I thought to myself. +The next day I went into the matron's office to put through the daily +telephone call which all prisoners were allowed to make. In a loud and +disdainful voice, I related to Brotsky every detail of the razor-blade +incident. I wanted the matrons to know that whenever they challenged me, I +was ready for a fight. +The lawyers' protests, addressed to various levels of the jail hierarchy, put +them on the defensive. The National United Committee to Free Angela +Davis joined in. I could see that they were beginning to fear the rapidly +developing mass movement. They knew that any unjustified attack on me +could be exposed. +Very early in my stay at the Marin County Jail, I was introduced to the +jailers' racist bias. The same matron involved in the razor-blade incident +unlocked my cell one day and brusquely told me to come with her. Dressed +in full uniform and carrying a shoulder bag, she was apparently about to +leave the jail. +"I'm not going anywhere until I find out what's going on," I said. +"Just come on," she said. +When I refused, she conceded that there was an emergency in the building. +Still not satisfied, I demanded that she explain further and finally got her to + + admit that a bomb threat had been called in, and the entire complex was +being evacuated. The women prisoners would be taken to a bomb shelter +downstairs. +I was accustomed to being handcuffed with my arms behind me — it had +become a part of the routine. When the three other women prisoners were +brought out into the corridor (and this was for months the only direct +contact I had with other prisoners), the manner in which we were +handcuffed revealed the blatant racism of the matrons. There was a Black +woman and a Chicana woman. They were cuffed to each other, the right +arm of one locked to the left arm of the other. The one remaining prisoner +was a white woman. The matrons had done nothing to restrain her +movements. So there we were, me with both arms manacled behind me, the +Black woman chained to the Chicana woman, and the white woman with +both hands free. + +The Marin County jailers were determined to hold me in solitary +confinement, so we began to press for relief from the court. The pretense +was the same as in New York. That is to say, it wasn't that I was so +dangerous. On the contrary, it was my life they were trying to safeguard. +They were afraid, they said, that some fanatic anti-Communist or someone +who was excessively affected by the death of Judge Haley might try to do +me some harm. And how easy it was to get arrested in Marin County, they +said. Someone might actually commit a petty crime to get into the jail — +and get me. The jailers had to consider these things, they said. +The judge refused therefore to issue an order permitting me to go into the +main population — he wanted a detailed, documented motion from us, +specifying precisely the conditions of my incarceration and setting forth in +legal terms the reasons we felt I should not be kept in solitary. This was a +typical way of reversing the process of justice. Whenever my rights were +violated — it was up to us to show why they should not be violated. +Doubtlessly the judge knew what he was doing because he ultimately went +along with a compromise solution. He did not allow me to "mingle" with +the other women; instead he ordered the jailers to provide permanent + + facilities for meetings with the team of lawyers, a request we had made in +the same motion. +These permanent meeting facilities were established "within the security +area," i.e., behind a series of electrically operated, heavy iron doors, and +within the range of the closed circuit TV monitor system. Inside one of +those rooms, behind the iron door with the little peephole window, was +what they called the juvenile cell. It was adjacent to the matron's office. All +they had to do was pull down a metal flap on their side and they could spy +on me through a porthole-type window. This cell was slightly larger than +mine. The walls were painted the same drab gray, the concrete floors the +same institutional rust-color. It contained bunk beds — i.e., metal slabs +extending from the wall, with a thin mattress like the one I slept on every +night. There were a few other superficial differences between it and my cell +— the toilet bowl was not attached to the sink, and there was a shower +inside. But the only difference that mattered to me was the skylight above. +By this time I was so starved for a bit of natural light that I rejoiced when I +discovered that on occasion I would be able to tell whether it was light or +dark outside. The skylight was translucent, rather than transparent, so I +could not really see the sky, but I could hear airplanes passing above and on +rainy days the monotony of my surroundings would be broken by the sound +of raindrops. In my nighttime dream fantasies, I climbed through this +skylight to freedom. +At first, when the attorneys came, I was escorted to and from my cell to the +meeting room. Later, though, we managed to convince the judge that if he +did not intend to relax the solitary conditions any time soon, I should have +access to this conference room even when the lawyers were not present. +Emphasizing for his benefit the fact that I had already announced my +intention to file a motion to act as one of the counsels in my case, we made +the point that it was the responsibility of the jail to furnish adequate access +to legal materials as well as facilities where they could be studied. He +agreed, then, that I could use the conference room — the juvenile cell — as +a work area between the hours of eight in the morning and ten in the +evening. + + We had won a minor skirmish, which was the signal for the jailers to +retaliate. Since they knew that they couldn't violate the judge's order to +allow me access to the working quarters, they contrived as many annoying +trivial rules as their little minds could discover. First, they declared that it +was against the rules for me to take my meals in the work cell. The twosecond trip around the corner and a few yards down the corridor could only +take place after they had brought breakfast to my sleeping quarters. Come +lunchtime, they opened the door of the work cell and directed me back to +my sleeping cell. After lunch — the trip back; dinner, the same. The only +time this routine could be broken was if one of the lawyers happened to be +visiting me in the work area — then I could take my meals there. +The fact that this cell was to be the area where I worked on my case, they +pushed to absurdity: because I was supposed to be working there, I could +not also eat there; I could not do my daily exercises there. But they could do +nothing to prevent me from doing calisthenics, katas, or headstands when I +felt like it in the work cell. Often I exercised precisely at the moment when +I knew they were peeping in on me. +The work I managed to do in jail required far more than normal powers of +concentration. In that state of almost continuous solitude, getting totally +involved in my work was a fundamental condition of survival and sanity. +The jailers knew this and were willing to resort to the paltriest acts, hoping +to obstruct me in some small way. The head matron was especially good at +this. +I can't say I was able to dismiss everything they did. There were things +which I found merely exasperating, and there were other things which +really angered and frustrated me. Often lunch or dinner time would find me +deeply immersed in work — reading or writing a statement, letter or +something I simply wanted to write for my own benefit. A matron would +open the door for me to return to the sleeping/eating cell to take my meal. +During my unsavory, solitary meal — it hardly ever took me more than ten +minutes either to consume it or to decide that I wasn't going to eat it — I +continued to think about the work I had been doing. Naturally, as soon as I +was done with the food, I was eager to return to my work. A half-hour +would pass without my cell gate having been opened. Forty-five minutes, + + an hour. At these times I simply could not contain my frustration and would +scream as loud as I could for them to come and unlock the gate. Inevitably +the more I screamed, the longer they would wait before they came with the +key. Sometimes they tried to justify the delay by saying, for example, that a +prisoner was being booked and fingerprinted in the corridor — no prisoner, +at that point, was allowed to lay eyes on me. Other times, they snidely said +that they were sorry that they could not eat as fast as I — and they weren't +going to let me disturb their leisurely meal. This situation became so +unbearable that rather than put up with it I decided to skip meals when my +work might be disrupted. +For months, this work cell was the center of a constantly raging battle +between the head matron and me. She noticed, for instance, through her spy +window that I would sometimes lie down on the bottom bunk in the work +cell and read in that position. Within a short time, the mattresses were +removed from the cell. Afterward, to show her that she had not disturbed +my routine, I would lie down on the metal slab — the thin mattresses hadn't +made the bed much more comfortable anyway. This matron and the others +were particularly incensed when we got the news that David Poindexter had +been acquitted on the federal charges of harboring a fugitive. (They could +not prove that David knew that the FBI, as well as the California Police, +was looking for me.) +I wondered, at times, just how much I was allowing myself to be diverted +by these inane episodes. Realizing how easy it is to lose perspective when +you are imprisoned — particularly if you cannot communicate with others +who share your condition — I wondered whether I was reacting to trivial +incidents as if they were a matter of survival. I feared becoming obsessively +wound up in these small things, because if I did, this in itself could be a +way for the jailers to control my mind. There was a pill-taking ritual, for +example, which seemed to hold a special importance for one particular +matron. Her obnoxious personality was surpassed only by her stupidity. She +actually believed that if she gave me an aspirin for a headache or for cramps +that I was going to follow her instructions and lift my tongue up so she +could see whether I had swallowed it or whether I was hiding it until she +left the cell. It was this same matron, in fact, who once tried to prohibit +Margaret from bringing books in to me. One Saturday morning Margaret + + had brought me some hardcover books and one paperback anthology on +fascism. This matron believed all paperback books were novels. She +allowed Margaret to bring in the hardbacks, but not the "storybook," as she +called the book on fascism. According to this dull-witted woman, I was not +allowed to have "storybooks," that is, fiction, in my work cell — and The +Nature of Fascism was such a book. +The Marin County Jail doctor misdiagnosed a rash I had contracted, and +while he was treating me with antihistamines for what he said was an +allergy, the rash spread over my entire body. This gave us the leverage we +needed to demand that a doctor from the outside be able to visit me. Bert +Small, a young Black movement doctor who ran the Panthers' Free Health +Center, immediately recognized my rash as a jail fungus that had progressed +so far it was going to be difficult to cure. Bert began to come in at least +once a week to examine me. During his visits a matron always stood +outside the cell, peering at us through the bars. Once we discovered that a +second matron was hiding with a note pad in the shower adjacent to the cell +and was obviously taking down everything we said. +After a few weeks, Bert was told not to hug me (he always greeted me with +a big hug). Soon afterward, they told him that all non-medical conversation +was forbidden. Since the matrons were not very smart, we developed +without too much trouble a code language in which we could discuss just +about anything without their understanding. +Of all the matrons, there was only one who went out of her way to be kind. +Timid and soft-spoken, she was young and obviously inexperienced in +police work. I imagine she was one of the women they hired when they +used my presence in the jail as an excuse to increase the number of female +deputies. One night when this deputy was on duty alone, a sister in the main +tank screamed out, just before lights went out, "Good night, Angela." As +loudly as I could, I screamed back, "Good night." (The main tank was two +hundred feet down the corridor, around the corner and at the end of the next +corridor.) +For several months this deputy continued to be silent while I carried on +conversations and developed friendships with women prisoners whom I had +never seen and whom I could never hope to see. On the day Ericka Huggins + + and Bobby Seale were acquitted of murder charges in New Haven, we held +a regular celebration. Once this matron handed me two bars of candy which +the sisters in the main tank had sent as presents. When I opened them, I +discovered long letters — kites — concealed under the wrappers. + +Thursdays and Sundays were women's visiting days in Marin County Jail. +During the first six months, I received my visits only after all the other +women had finished, since no contact between us was allowed. As long as +the person had identification, anyone could come in to see me. NUCFAD +arranged visits, more often than not, with people I had not yet met. Often +the visits were strained, introductions rendered difficult by the glass and +telephones separating me from the visitor. And usually by the time we got +settled into a conversation, it was time for the visit to end. +After voluminous, well-documented motions were filed, the judge finally +issued an order that legal investigators of our designation be admitted into +the jail during certain hours of the day. I could visit them in the regular +lawyers' booth when they came alone; when an attorney of record was +present, they were let into the work cell. Legal investigators, at various +times during the year, were Franklin and Kendra, Fania, Charlene, +Cassandra Davis, and Bettina Aptheker. +I had first met Bettina in New York when we were both high school age. +She was among the friends introduced to me by Claudia and Margaret +Burnham. At that time, Bettina was in the leadership of Advance, the youth +organization I joined, which had fraternal ties with the Communist Party. +What subsequently remained most vividly in my mind about Bettina was +the way she had described a trip she made to the Soviet Union. I had been +enormously impressed by the egalitarianism she said she witnessed. She +had visited the apartment of a worker and the apartment of a doctor; the +doctor's she said, was no more luxurious than the worker's. Bettina's father, +Herbert Aptheker, was the director of the Institute for Marxist Studies, and I +felt excited and enlightened by the lectures I heard him deliver. +In 1964, some years later, Bettina emerged as one of the key leaders of the +Berkeley Free Speech Movement, which prepared the way for the campus + + rebellion of the sixties. When she visited me in Los Angeles at the time of +the struggle around my job, it had been about ten years since I had seen her. +Writing for the World Magazine (the magazine section of our Party's daily +newspaper), she interviewed me about the fight to keep my position at +UCLA. When we saw each other after that, it was always only for a short +time and in the midst of some political urgency. I had felt frustrated that we +weren't able to find the time to sit down and talk in relaxed surroundings. +At the time I was extradited to California, she was living in San Jose with +her husband, Jack Kurzweil, who was a professor at California State +University in San Jose. Their child Joshua was around four years old. +Bettina was just finishing the manuscript of her book The Academic +Rebellion: A Marxist Critique. She had decided to devote a large part of her +time to working on the National United Committee. I was happy to learn +that she could also spare the time to act as one of the legal investigators on +the case, for this meant that she could visit me for longer periods and +outside the regular visiting hours. +During one of her earliest visits, Bettina mentioned that the Defense +Committee in England wanted to publish a book of writings by and about +me and the movement for my freedom. They asked us to put together a +packet of materials out of which they could select the literature for the +book. +After some discussion, Bettina and I decided that a more accurate and +complete representation of the movement could be included in the book if it +were compiled by the Committee here. Moreover, if it were done here, it +could also be used as an organizing tool for the campaign in this country. +Immediately after this discussion, Bettina and I began to work on the +project ourselves. +From the inception of the idea, we saw the book as an instrument through +which people could deepen their knowledge of repression, through which +people could become acquainted with cases of political prisoners, and could +learn what was really happening behind the walls in general. I insisted that +the content of the book should not only revolve around my case, but had to +relate to other political prisoners as well — George, John, Fleeta, Ruchell +and the many incarcerated sisters and brothers throughout the country. One + + of the central theses of the book would be the need to reevaluate the +traditional definition of "political prisoner," as a result of the intensification +of racism. Aside from the scores of men and women in prison because of +their political beliefs and activities, there were many thousands more who +had been framed or had received disproportionately long sentences for the +sole reason that they were Black or Brown. The book had to provide a voice +not only for the political prisoners in the strict sense of the term, but also for +those who were victimized in one way or another by the racism of the +police-court-prison apparatus. +Bettina and I both wrote articles concerning prisons and political prisoners. +During long meetings in jail, rendered difficult by the glass and telephones +or the mesh of metal between us, we made our decisions about the other +materials to be included. The jailers would not allow the investigators to +bring anything into the jail except a pad of blank paper and a pencil. +Therefore all the materials had to be given to me by one of the attorneys. +And the things Bettina wanted to discuss, she had to try to memorize before +she came. +Finally, after several months of intensive work, the book was practically +done. George, Jon, Fleeta and Ruchell, as well as Bobby and Ericka had +contributed writings. Howard and Margaret had written about essential legal +aspects of the case, and Fania, Franklin and Kendra had written about the +mass movement. Out of the innumerable appeals which had been made on +my behalf, we selected a representative number both from the United States +and abroad. To begin the book, we used James Baldwin's moving letter to +me. "Some of us, white and black," he wrote, "know how great a price has +already been paid to bring into existence a new consciousness, a new +people, an unprecedented nation. If we know, and do nothing, we are worse +than the murderers hired in our name. If we know, then we must fight for +your life as though it were our own — which it is — and render impassable +with our bodies the corridor to the gas chamber. For, if they take you in the +morning, they will be coming for us that night." It struck us that the title of +the anthology should be If They Come in the Morning. +Originally, it had been our intention to have the book published by a +movement company. After all, we did not see it as destined for mass + + commercial distribution — it was to be an organizing weapon. But it had to +come out immediately, if it was to have any impact on the campaign for my +freedom and the freedom of other political prisoners. At that time, no +movement publishing operation had the resources to bring it out so quickly. +As a result, we gave the book to a Black company, The Third Press. +Unfortunately we did not realize that the over-riding interest of this +company was to push the book commercially — even at the expense of +misrepresenting it as a book authored (rather than edited) by me. +But despite the problems, the publication of the book was an important +event for all of us behind walls. One of the most moving things Ruchell said +to me was that If They Come in the Morning, which contained a large +section on his life and his case, had done more to expose the state's +persecution of him than anything else. +At the same time arrangements had been made for legal investigators to +visit me, the judge had ordered the jailers to allow potential defense +witnesses to come back to the work cell in the presence of an attorney of +record. My parents and Benny and Reggie were able to see me in this way. +When my mother and father came out on March 16 for the opening of the +pretrial motions and the big rally outside the Civic Center, we had spoken to +each other in the booth, through glass, on telephones. It was good, finally, +to be able to embrace them. Herbert Marcuse and his wife Inge came up +several times. And our Party leaders, Henry Winston, Jim Jackson and +William Paterson, came in together from New York. +I anxiously awaited the visits of George's lawyer John Thorne because it +was one of the ways I kept up with what was happening with George and +the other brothers in San Quentin. Margaret, Howard and Sheldon visited +George, John, Fleeta and Ruchell as often as they could manage. +In the month of June, Howard argued the bail motion before the new judge +in the case, Richard Arnason, who had been brought in from Sonoma +County. Everyone's hopes were high — everyone's except mine, that is — +that Arnason would rule in our favor. The issue was simple; persons +accused of capital crimes were not to be released on bail when the "proof of +guilt is evident and the presumption thereof great." The corollary was that + + the lack of sufficient evidence meant that the accused person should be let +out pending trial. Howard and Kendra were as certain that I would be +released as they were of their own lives and were both trying to cheer me up +with promises of freedom tomorrow. During the bail hearing, Albert Harris +felt so confident that Arnason would deny our motion that he said into the +record: "When she checks out of the Marin County Jail, if she is released on +bail, she might as well be given an air travel credit card along with her +belongings, because we will never see her again." +When Arnason said no, I felt the vise closing once more, but I did not feel +terribly shocked, having expected him to take the easiest way out anyway. +Kendra cried and Howard was more depressed than I had ever known him +to be. +It appeared that the motions the judge did grant were an attempt to +compensate for the terrible blow he had delivered in denying bail. Arnason +said yes to our contention that I should be allowed to act as co-counsel in +the case. And because bail had been denied, he agreed to order that more +favorable conditions (especially for the preparation of the case) be +established at once within my jail cell. +He ordered that I be given access to a typewriter and that, like the other +women, I be allowed to have a radio. He even ordered the matron to allow +me to spend brief periods of time with the women in the main section. I +discovered that things in the main tank in the corridor around the corner +were not very different from what I had seen in the House of Detention in +New York. I rediscovered how vitally important it was to resist every +destructive current of prison life . . . +For jails and prisons are deadly places. There was the mesmerizing inanity +of television; a few boring high school texts, some mysteries and a lot of +unbelievably bad fiction. The women could write if they wished, but the +small note-paper, which was seldom available, discouraged serious writing +in favor of casual notes which would be censored anyway before they were +mailed. Even getting hold of a pencil could be an extensive and complex +undertaking. There were the well-worn cards and games, indispensable +props for every jail — things to coat the fact of imprisonment with sugary +innocuousness, fostering an imperceptible regression back to childhood. As + + I had noticed from the parlance at the House of D., in the jailers' eyes, +whether we are sixteen or seventy, we are "girls." They loved to watch over +their child-prisoners happily engrossed in harmless games. Any pastime +that was intellectually demanding seemed suspect. The jailers in Marin +County were extremely hostile to allowing a chess game in, and agreed to it +only if it fit silly specifications. The one finally admitted to the day room +was toy-like, a child's version of chess. +One other jail "outlet" was overwhelmingly sexist. It was the stubborn +presence of the washing machine, clothes dryer and ironing paraphernalia +which, discounting the metal tables and backless stools, were the sole +furnishings of the day room. The "reasoning" behind this was presumably +that women, because they are women, lack an essential part of their +existence if they are separated from their domestic chores. The men's linens +and jail clothes were sent elsewhere for laundering; the women were +expected to tend to their own. If they did not volunteer to do the washing +and ironing, a work schedule was imposed. This work system also proved +to be racist. When, out of boredom, many women volunteered to do the +washing, black women were consistently rejected. But when no one +volunteered, black women were ordered to do it. +In the midst of all this, sleep emerges as a kind of luxury. Just because it +involves unconsciousness, the complete negation of an already empty +existence, it becomes the least monotonous way to pass the time. The +matrons encouraged us to think of sleep as a privilege by making the +availability of a bed during the day a reward for "good conduct." If, for +instance, a woman was not up, fully dressed, with her blankets tidily tucked +under the mattress, when breakfast arrived at 6:30 A.M., then all the women +in that cell would lose their "bed privileges" for that day. They were all +locked in the adjacent day room, where the only resting places were stools. +They are serious people, jailers, thoroughly caught up in the glitter of their +badges. When challenged, this seriousness shows its true face. A young +Black woman prisoner was told that since she was occasionally let out of +the jail on a work-furlough program, she could not join the other prisoners +in the television day room. TV was not very important to her, but this +reprisal made her furious. She told the matron that her badge didn't give her + + the right to punish her so. In response, the matron called upon a power +greater than her badge — her racism. She told the Black woman that she +had "overstepped her color." This incident stirred a terrific battle among the +women, and interestingly enough the battle lines defied racial demarcation: +though all of the Black women supported the sister, some white women did +too. +This badge-seriousness extends into areas that are truly deadly. Many times +when I rode in the elevator with armed guards on my way to a court +appearance, the men would unsnap their gun holsters — all a show for my +eyes alone. + +JULY 8, 1971 +Howard, John Thorne and I followed the jailers through the brightly lit +prisoners' corridors into a holding cell in the courtroom area. A seatless +toilet stood in the corner and two wooden benches lined opposite walls of +the narrow cell. The upper half of one of the walls was made of transparent +plexiglass. It was just a little smaller than the one where Ruchell and I +waited for our court appearances. +Although I should have known what to expect, the heavy metallic rattling +which precipitously dissipated our silence startled me. The chains, locks, +shackles, handcuffs, whose rumblings I had first heard in the courtroom in +Salinas, now sounded very familiar. On the other side of the glass wall, +George was descending the stairs for an all-day meeting between him and +his lawyers and me and my lawyers. +Since I was now officially recognized as co-counsel for myself, the judge +had agreed to issue an order for a meeting between me and each of the +Soledad Brothers and my codefendant, Ruchell. A few days later, I wrote +George about my impressions of that first moment. +"A scene frozen in my mind: I am standing in the little glass cubicle +downstairs, standing waiting, loving, desiring and then hot cold rage when +the chains begin to rattle as you slowly descend the stairs . . . I'm supposed + + to rip off the chains. I'm supposed to fight your enemies with my body, but I +am helpless, powerless. I contain the rage inside, I do nothing. I stand there +watching, forced to assume the posture of a disinterested spectator, the +whole scene perceived through glass, laboratory-like, mad at them for +thrusting this upon me, mad at myself for doing nothing. Mad at myself too +because I could not fail to see how much counter force you were exerting +upon yourself, each step, long, hard, unwilling to be restrained by chains +and pigs, your entire body with each foot movement in a hard sway . . ." +As soon as he came into the cell and saw that we were there, the disdain on +his face immediately dissolved into the smile I remembered so well from +Salinas. Instinctively, his first gesture was to try to reach out. An embrace. +He had forgotten that his wrists were chained to his waist and that he could +only move them a few inches. With my free hands — they had not cuffed +me this time — I tried to make up for his chains. +Eight hours was not long enough. We talked about everything, but there was +not enough time. We discussed our strategy for the defense and talked about +the possibility of George's testifying during the trial. He was certain that we +would beat the case. I told him that our victory would have to be a victory +together. All of us. + +Subsequently there was an all-day meeting with Ruchell. It came at a +critical time. Though we were both solidly united on our political approach +to the case, we did not entirely agree on the way it should be attacked from +a legal standpoint. Ruchell wanted the trial transferred from the jurisdiction +of the State of California to the federal court system. Based on his years of +experience with the California courts, he was convinced that they wanted +his life. He felt that the chances of minimizing the repressive and racist +treatment both of us were receiving would be greater if we could agree +upon this strategy of removal. I had studied this strategy, I had reflected +upon it, and had held long discussions with Margaret and Howard about the +viability of Ruchell's position. Finally, I had decided that it would be best +for us to fight it out on the state court level. + + Among the many reasons for my decision, one pertained in a very practical +way to our ability to get the best possible jury. In federal court, it was the +judge who questioned potential jurors and made all decisions concerning +the presence or lack of biases in them. In state court, on the other hand, we, +the defense, could demand the right to conduct an extensive voir dire of +potential jurors, probing into areas such as racism and anti-communism. +Huey Newton's case had already established the precedent as the result of +Charles Garry's work in picking the jury. It would not be possible to +conduct this kind of courtroom investigation into the jurors' backgrounds if +we litigated the case in federal court. +During the many months of the pretrial period, Ruchell and I held brief +discussions about this in the holding cell where we waited in the mornings +for court to be convened and during recesses. We corresponded with each +other about our differences. Margaret, Sheldon and Howard visited Ruchell +in San Quentin, arguing out all the pros and cons of removal. It was +important to me that we reach agreement on this, because my position from +the very beginning had been that he and I should go to trial together. There +had been much pressure, from many quarters, including from the judge +himself, to sever the cases. But the position of our defense team had always +been that all such efforts to separate us had to be resisted. +So long as the situation regarding removal was in abeyance, we had not +been able to proceed with many of our pretrial motions. Proceedings at the +state court level might possibly jeopardize Ruchell's fight for removal. It +was a difficult predicament. +When the time came to throw aside all indecisiveness in order to begin +serious litigation of the case, Ruchell and I were still at odds on our +respective legal positions. +This is where we were, at the beginning of the eight-hour jail meeting. +Lawyers — mine and Ruchell's — were present, as were members of our +committees. At times, the arguments became rather heated. But even with +all this, there was no breach of the solidarity which bound us together. +Ruchell made a point of letting it be understood that this was a technical +disagreement on legal strategy and not a fundamental rupture between us. + + When it appeared that this gap between our legal positions was not going to +close before the end of the meeting, I felt compelled, for the sake of unity, +to make a concession: I proposed that in conjunction with Ruchell's efforts, +I file a motion for removal, but only under the condition that if the motion +were denied in federal court, Ruchell would agree to jointly fight the case in +state court. He gave his approval to my proposal. +Later, I could see that our agreement was defective from the outset, more a +result of our desperation than a real attempt to solve our differences. For +Ruchell was certain beyond a doubt that the judge would grant the removal +motion, and didn't earnestly consider the possibility of a denial. I was +equally certain — beyond a doubt — that the motion would in fact be +denied, so I never earnestly considered the possibility of fighting the case in +federal court. +The motion was denied. Rather than begin litigation in state court, Ruchell +decided he wanted to pursue the removal strategy further. I knew how +passionately he was committed to his position, so I could not really blame +him for what he did. But, now, the impasse we had hoped we would elude +subbornly imposed itself. If we wanted to get on with our respective +defenses, there was only one way to confront the impasse — and both of us +understood this. Severance now was the only way out. Severance was a +word I hadn't wanted to hear, but since we were both wedded with equal +conviction to our own particular strategies, we had to move for the +separation. Immediately afterward, our Committee issued a statement to the +press: +On Monday, July 19, Judge Richard Arnason granted a motion to sever +the case brought against Angela Davis and Ruchell Magee by the State +of California. . . . From the inception of the frame-up the general mass +media, joined in by dubious "left friends" have attempted to drive a +wedge between Angela and Ruchell. The devices have ranged from +phoney and racist comparisons between Angela and Ruchell all the +way to the establishment of a hierarchy of political prisoners. Angela +and Ruchell have devoted many hours to the co-ordination of legal +strategies. During the first seven months of pretrial hearings they made +continuous attempts at developing complementary legal strategies. + + However, unable to coordinate their strategies, the final result was a +severance motion agreed upon by both defendants. +. . . It should be clear that the decision to sever was not reflective of +political divergencies. Nor did it bear upon substantive issues of the +legal defense, Rather differences were procedural in nature . . . +Ruchell will attempt to take [the] battle to Federal court, and Angela +will attempt to fight the same battle in a state court. But both believe +that without a massive, Black-led movement which uses the courtroom +as only one forum of struggle, this battle will not be won. And we will +win. +For those of us around the country who are actually struggling to build +a mass movement capable of freeing all political prisoners, our +responsibilities are doubled. The cases of Ruchell Magee and Angela +Davis must be taken before the people with the idea of providing +masses of people with a close insight into the oppression of the penal +system . . . +The first anniversary of the insurrection which was seized upon to +frame Angela and Ruchell is soon approaching. Committees in +California and throughout the country are commemorating August 7 +through various activities, ranging from rallies and teach-ins to +memorial services. In Pasadena, California, a park is being dedicated +to the memory of Jonathan Jackson. It is through these kinds of +activities that people will come to understand the conditions against +which Ruchell and our slain brothers were fighting on August 7, 1970. + +AUGUST 21, 1971 +In the little lawyers' booth in the visiting area, Bettina and I were trying +hard to finish the manuscript of If They Come in the Morning. When +Howard arrived, bringing Barbara Ratliff, who was doing the research for +one of our legal motions, all three of them were able to come back to the +work cell. We had hardly gotten settled when the big key turned in the lock, + + the door swung open and, addressing Howard, the woman deputy +announced, "Mr. Moore, you'll have to leave. +There's an emergency in the building." +It had been months since the last bomb scare. Nevertheless, the procedure +was not unfamiliar to us. +"We'll be back when it's over," Howard said. And the three of them left the +cell. I assumed that the woman deputy would return shortly to direct me and +the other prisoners to the bomb shelter downstairs, as had been done the last +time, but a half-hour, then an hour, passed, and no one had appeared at the +door. She finally came back to the cell and told me she had instructions to +take me to the sleeping cell. When I asked what was going on, she refused +to say anything more than that she was simply following the orders she had +received. +I don't know how many hours I lay on my cot, staring at the ceiling, letting +my imagination run wild. I waited. I waited for some word from one of +them, from Howard, Margaret, someone. It was very late when the deputy +came back to my cell and told me, "Mr. Moore is waiting for you." She +unlocked the gate and I walked a few steps behind her. Turning the corridor +corner, I saw Margaret and Howard standing in front of the work-cell door. +Margaret's eyes were red and swollen, and the only time I had seen that +expression of utter desperation on her face before was the morning about +ten years ago when her mother came into the bedroom where we were +sleeping to tell her and the other children that their father had died of a heart +attack that night. Howard was sweating heavily, his forehead was all +wrinkled, his eyes were squinted, and he was breathing hard as if from +exhaustion. +I looked at them, feeling something giving way inside me. We were alone, +in the cell, the door closed behind us, and no one had yet broken the silence. +During the last interminable hours of waiting I had fought back broken +pictures of an explosion at San Quentin that kept trying to insinuate +themselves into my thoughts. How many times had George said that the war +declared on him by his jailers could break out into open combat at the + + slightest provocation? I was screaming inside. "Don't let it be that +something has happened to George." But the louder I screamed, the more +their faces told me that something had happened — that the worst had +happened. +"George?" I asked, leaving his name hanging there. I didn't want to make +my question more concrete. +Howard nodded. +"He's not . . .?" +Howard bowed his head, and I was aching with hope that I had not really +heard that little, almost inaudible "yes." +I reached out to Margaret, who broke into huge sobs, and we stood there, +holding on to each other. I felt frozen, unable to move, unable to bring +words out of my mouth, unable to bring tears to my eyes. As if someone +had encased me in ice. +"The pigs killed him, Angela." Howard's voice penetrated my +consciousness from the distance. "They murdered him. Shot him in the +back." +Already the key was turning and the deputy was telling them they had to +leave. +Back in the cell, I woke up from the frozen nightmare to face the reality of +George's death. It was then, alone in the darkness, that I began to cry. +I thought about Georgia, Robert, Penny, Frances, Delora, and George's +nephews and nieces. It was in this way they had to observe the first +anniversary of Jonathan's death. +George was a symbol of the will of all of us behind bars, and of that +strength which oppressed people always seem to be able to pull together. +Even when we think the enemy has stripped us of everything, left us bereft +even of our souls. The strength that comes out of an almost biological need + + to feel that we have something to say about the direction of our lives. That +need had gnawed at George, behind bars all of his adult life — and, what +was most important, he had known how to give the clearest, most universal +expression to that need, and his writings had aroused people all over the +world. +The sisters in the House of Detention in New York had learned something +important about themselves when they read Soledad Brother. When my +message reached George in San Quentin that the women were exhilarated +by the book, but disturbed by his earlier uncomplimentary remarks about +Black women, he apologized and wanted them all to understand his +misjudgment. +Tonight men and women in every prison in the country were probably +awake, like me, mourning and trying to channel their anger constructively. +People all over the world must be talking about vengeance — constructive +organized mass retaliation. +The next day it seemed as if the whole world were inside my cell. Every +seat around the work table was occupied. At first, it was difficult to get the +words moving in conversation — no one knew quite where to begin. When +I looked at Charlene, Kendra, Franklin, Margaret, Howard . . . I couldn't +keep back the tears. Then Franklin broke into sobs. +It was Charlene or Kendra who said that the Committee had begun to +organize a vigil outside San Quentin — the lives of the other brothers had to +be safeguarded, and the conditions of George's murder had to be +investigated immediately. They said that reports were seeping out of the +prison about brutal beatings and horrifying torture sessions. Already our +Committee had contacted Rep. Ron Dellums, Assemblyman Willie Brown, +Dr. Carleton Goodlett and many other concerned public people, asking +them to demand that they be allowed to tour San Quentin, interview the +prisoners about the events that had led to George's death, and examine the +wounds inflicted upon the brothers by guards. +After they had left, to rush back to the work of organizing the counterattack, +I tried to compose a statement to be released to the press. + + "George knew," I wrote, "that the price of his intense revolutionary +commitment was having to live each day fighting off potential death blows. +"George's example of courage in the face of the spectre of summary +execution; his insights honed in the torment of seven years of solitary +confinement; his perseverance in the face of overwhelming odds will +continue to be a source of inspiration to all our sisters and brothers inside +prison walls and outside." +I wrote about the Jackson family: "Their grief is deep. In little more than a +year, two of their sons, George and Jonathan, were felled by fascist bullets. +I express my love to Georgia and Robert Jackson, Penny, Frances and +Delora. +"For me, George's death has meant the loss of a comrade and revolutionary +leader, but also the loss of an irretrievable love . . . I can only say that in +continuing to love him, I will try to express that love in the way he would +have wanted — by reaffirming my determination to fight for the cause +George died defending. With his example before me, my tears and grief are +rage at the system responsible for his murder. He wrote his epitaph when he +said: +‘Hurl me into the next existence, the descent into hell won't turn me. I'll +crawl back to dog his trail forever. They won't defeat my revenge, never, +never. I'm part of a righteous people who anger slowly but rage undamned. +We'll gather at his door in such a number that the rumbling of our feet will +make the earth tremble.'" +Then I was left with the radio. +All day long one station broadcast readings from George's book, and the allnews station began to develop the preposterous story that George had +smuggled a bulky pistol, hidden under a wig, from the visiting area to the +Adjustment Center, the most heavily guarded section of San Quentin. I +listened to the radio talk shows. The majority of the people who called in to +the shows suspected that something was very wrong inside San Quentin; +that whatever was askew was not the fault of the prisoners, but of the prison +hierarchy. The most consistent aspect of these responses was the belief that + + the prison administration had taken them for fools. Over and over again, +people commented on the contempt the administration had shown by not +even constructing a sensible story. Who on earth would believe that the tale +about the wig justified all the violence unleashed on the prisoners? +George was dead, and the deeply personal pain I felt would have strangled +me had I not turned it into a proper and properly placed rage. I could not +dwell on my own loss. Any individual gnashing of teeth would bring me to +my knees. Personal sadness in that still gray cell under the hateful eyes of +my jailers might break the cords of will that held me together. George's +death would be like a lodestone, a disc of steel deep inside me, magnetically +drawing toward it the elements I needed to stay strong and fight all the +harder. It would refine my hatred of jailers, position my contempt for the +penal system, and cement my bonds with other prisoners. It would give me +the courage and energy I needed for a sustained war against the malevolent +racism that had killed him. He was gone, but I was here. His dreams were +mine now. + +AUGUST 3, 1971 +Judge Keating takes the stand. He looks pitifully thin, and the deep wrinkles +in his face make him look older than his years. Something about him +reminds me of the racists who peopled my childhood. I feel confident and +eager as I rise to question him about his judgment in selecting the Marin +County Grand Jury. This time I am launching the attack. +Our position was that the indictment against me had been returned by a +Grand Jury (that needed only eight minutes and no extended discussion to +indict me) that was racist and non-representative. A hearing was granted us +to determine whether the judges' selection of the Grand Jury was based on +their own race and class prejudices. We believed that the judges were +unacquainted with the black community, the working class community, and +the youth community, and therefore could not have picked representative +jurors. + + We were well into the examination when I produced a photograph which +Margaret had given me. Approaching the witness stand, I handed him the +picture and asked him whether it was a true representation of his house (and +by implication of his wealth). Surprised and annoyed by the fact that we +had photographed his home, he mumbled, under his breath, but loud enough +for the court reporter to hear, "Judges don't have any civil rights or privacy, +huh? The people that enforce the civil rights don't have any. Yes, that's my +house. I might say it might be dangerous to do that again. . . . We don't take +kindly to burglars up there." +When I asked Keating whether he would consider recommending a member +of the Black Panther Party to serve on the Grand Jury, he said: "They are +the blatant racists outside Adolph Hitler." And he went on to insist that +"they are advocates of hatred, violence and murder. . . . They spew hatred +and violence and murder all over." He added that this also held true for the +Communist Party. +I was speechless, shocked not so much that these were his sentiments as by +the fact that a Superior Court judge had shouted these statements into a +permanent court record. +A survey we conducted confirmed the deep-seated racist and antiCommunist prejudices of the average resident of the county. Judge Keating +was a typical Marin County resident. How could my trial take place in the +Civic Center, next door to Judge Haley's courtroom? We prepared to argue +our motion for a change in the venue of the trial. For, a trial here would be a +ceremonial slaughter, a sure prelude to San Quentin's gas chamber. All the +Superior Court judges in the county had confessed that they could not fairly +preside over my trial. That grand gesture disengaging themselves was to me +another way of saying that they were hopelessly convinced of my guilt. +Our survey demonstrated that the majority of the people in Marin County, +who were both white and wealthy, believed me guilty of kidnapping, +murder and conspiracy. But even more telling, they believed that I was +guilty of something worse — of being a Communist, of being a Black +woman. Many of them felt outraged that I had been allowed to teach the +children of decent white Californians. If they could vote on the matter, they +would banish me forever from the universities in California. + + Since that survey had been conducted George had been murdered by San +Quentin guards. The hysteria whipped up around these events — designed +to turn the victims into the criminals — was pervasive. Public opinion in +this wealthy white county considered anyone who spoke out on behalf of +San Quentin prisoners as guilty as they presumed the prisoners to be. +Our motion for a change of venue was thorough and well-documented. +Judge Arnason, the presiding judge called in from another county, had no +choice but to grant it. But we didn't want just any change of location for the +trial. Any Black person knows that there are only a few places in the state +of California where even the semblance of a fair trial could take place. If +there was to be a trial, we wanted it to take place in San Francisco, where +we could hope to pull some Black people from the jury panel. But those +who determined the locality of the trial didn't want to go to San Francisco, +sprawled on the other side of the bridge, with its multicolored people of +many social opinions and political persuasions. San Francisco was too +unpredictable; the potential of a large local movement rising up to be +vigilant over the trial was much too strong. +They wanted a more tranquil place, a place where controversies were +smothered by soft-spoken civilities. A place where Black people did not +live in large numbers, but where there were enough leading Black figures in +the community to veil the existence of racism. They wanted a place with +substantial geographical stature, but without political color, and especially +without a tradition of progressive political struggles. +That place, we discovered, was to be San Jose. Marin County jailers and +sheriffs accepted this change of venue as a personal defeat. Their faces +wore expressions of deep regret — regret that they could not preside over +the slaughter themselves. With undisguised pleasure, they refused to give us +the smallest hint about the date or hour of the move. Howard and Margaret +warned me that I should be prepared to leave at a moment's notice, and had +brought me cardboard boxes to pack my things: books, papers, letters that I +had accumulated over the last year in that jail. +Their warnings served me well. One morning around three or four A.M. the +chief matron woke me, screeching that I had better be ready in a few + + minutes. I was prepared. There was nothing to do but wash and brush my +teeth. + +DECEMBER 2, 1971 +The trip to San Jose was much longer than I had expected. Even though I +didn't know much about the geography of Northern California, I could tell +that they were taking a roundabout route for what they called "security +reasons." I had been hoping to see San Francisco or Berkeley, or some place +with normal (but for me extraordinary) scenes of human activity. But when +I arrived at the jail in Palo Alto, I had no pleasant memories to bring in with +me. The trip had been freeway all the way, the caravan traveling far above +the speed limit. And until we began the approach to Palo Alto, it had been +pitch-dark. +A slight, pale man was riding in the car with me. At the time I didn't know +that he was the under-sheriff of Santa Clara County. He did not have the +usual manner of a law enforcement officer. He seemed unsure of himself. +He tried to console me, to assure me that the stint I was going to do in the +jail there would be much more tolerable than the year of horrors I had just +left in Marin County. But jail was jail. Unless you had resigned yourself to +the fact of being locked up, there were no degrees of better or worse. +As with the FBI, as with the New York House of D., as with the Marin +County Jail, now with the Santa Clara Jail, the ritual: Name . . . Address . . . +Age . . . Birthplace . . . Previous arrests . . . etc., etc., etc. Mug shots . . . +fingerprints . . . Would there ever come a time when I would finally be +booked out? +I had learned that each time a prisoner is booked she has a right to two +phone calls. I called my lawyers first so they would know I had arrived, and +then my parents. I hardly ever had the chance to talk to them on the phone +except when I was being booked into a new jail. They were overjoyed to +hear my voice, yet at the same time frustrated and tense about what this new +situation might bring. Mother said she was coming out before Christmas. +My younger brother, Reggie, on work leave from his college, was also + + going to come to the West Coast. My mother was trying to concentrate on +things that would let her escape the reality of my predicament. Although +she remained strong until the end, I think the whole ordeal was harder on +her than on anyone. I asked whether she had started eating regularly again, +and whether she had managed to gain back some of the weight she had lost. +Each time we saw each other or talked, we ended up admonishing each +other for the same reasons. She reminded me this time to eat more and try +to gain my own weight back. I asked her not to worry so much and +reluctantly said good-bye. +As soon as I hung up the receiver, a shaded door to the left of the booking +area was unlocked. We walked into a short and narrow hall and as I glanced +to my right, I saw the most frightening jail cell I had yet seen. The area was +walled off in glass. On the other side of the glass was a twelve-by-two-foot +corridor, off of which were two cells. Each cell was about six feet by eight +feet. One contained the metal slab bed, a thin mattress, toilet and sink; the +other was a padded cell completely lined with a heavy tufted fabric painted +a silvery gray. The padding was broken by a single hole in the floor which +served as a toilet. +"You have to take off your clothes," the matron said. +She handed me a dress, some pajamas, a sweater, and a pair of underpants, +a bra, some socks and rubber thonged slippers. I told her I would put on the +clothes but not the underwear. She insisted that I had to give up my own +underwear and put on the county's. I was serious about not wearing jail +underwear. In New York, wearing unsterilized underwear, I had contracted +a terrible fungus which had spread all over my body and had taken months +to finally cure. I told the matron she could have my underwear but nothing +she said or did was going to make me put on those jail panties. +Female jailers must have something of the voyeuse in them — even those +who are not homosexual inevitably stand and watch you with deep interest +while you strip down to the nude. This matron must have been unconscious +of the intensity with which she was looking at me, because when I asked +her what she found so interesting, she looked terribly embarrassed, and left +abruptly. + + The faded, smock-like dress was too tight and too short. The drab gray +sweater would not reach my waist, and its sleeves came halfway up my +arms. I could not pull the white children's socks over my heels nor fit into +the rubber slippers. I threw the slippers and socks through the open door +into the corridor. +Then I realized how cold it was in that cell. Not only was it cold, the toilet +was leaking and water was running all over the floor. I stepped out into the +cell corridor to shout a complaint, but no one was in sight, and the door to +the larger corridor was locked. I told myself that Margaret and Howard +would be there soon, and we could begin to fight these sub-human +conditions. In the tight childish smock, without underwear, and barefoot, I +was freezing, so I put the pajama bottoms on under the dress, the tiny +sweater over it, and the pajama top over the sweater. I imagine I looked +absurd. +Since there was no place to sit, I climbed up on the bunk, pulled the army +blanket over my shoulders and tried to concentrate on the book I had +brought along. I had hardly gotten through one page when a matron with +long, flaming-red hair came through the door into the corridor outside. She +unlocked the door and, sounding somewhat kindly, I thought, asked whether +I cared for breakfast. I said yes. Five minutes later she came back, saying +that I wasn't "eligible" for breakfast. She had checked with the Marin +County people and they had told her that I had had tea — tea! — before my +trip down. Since that was the case, I didn't have anything coming until +lunchtime. +"You people just don't know what it means to behave like humans, do you?" +I blurted out. +Quickly but silently she darted out of the cell. I scolded myself for having +said yes in the first place to her nice offer and tried to get back into my +book. +Later, when Margaret came, and saw me all huddled up in the blanket, +freezing above a water-logged floor, her mouth fell open. "They must be +kidding!" she said. "I've been inside a lot of jails, but this beats them all." + + Her outrage made me feel a little better. For a while, I had been wondering +whether I was overreacting. And then I thought of the descriptions George +had given of the many dungeons they had thrown him into over the last +decade. This place couldn't be as bad as O Wing in Soledad or the +Adjustment Center in San Quentin or solitary in Folsom or any of the other +cells where they had tried to squeeze the will and determination out of +George. +"This place isn't even a jail," I told Margaret. "It's what they call a ‘holding +facility' — a place to keep prisoners for a few hours or maybe overnight. +But they want to keep me here for months. I can't believe it," I went on, +"there isn't enough room in here to do exercises, even the ones where you +stand in place." +We decided to draw a scale sketch of the cell, with an accompanying +description. We wanted the Committee to use it in their press release and +propaganda about the conditions of my confinement. +Margaret left to give the drawing to the Committee. "Hold on," she said, +"there will be some big changes around here very soon!" +I smiled at her. "Margaret, you know I'll be O.K." +A little later the matron led a young, very desolate-looking white woman +past my cell. I heard a gate being unlocked next door. She must be in on a +drug bust, I figured. Not feeling like talking to someone I couldn't see, I +said nothing to her but went back to the inner cell, got back on the top bunk +and continued to read The Female Eunuch until Margaret and Howard +came. +They brought news that the Committee was already putting wheels into +motion. All over the country and even in other countries people were +receiving communications about the conditions under which I was being +held. In a matter of hours telegrams and telephone calls began to pour into +the sheriff's office. Sheriff James Geary, who regarded himself as a man of +liberal persuasions, responded to this massive protest and ordered some +changes. In an interview that appeared in the San Jose Mercury, he +lamented the fact that people all over the country thought he had shoved me + + into the most wretched of dungeons. One woman, he said, had protested my +being kept in a "heatless hole, barefoot, wading in water up to her ankles." +Not only were there physical changes such as heat, clothing, and shoes, but +the manner of the jailers changed. Some of them had become almost kind: +"Miss Davis, is there anything you need?" "Are you sure everything is all +right?" "How was your dinner?" "Do you have any complaints?" "Would +you like anything in particular tomorrow?" +Before the downpour of protests, meals were tasteless TV dinners, justified +by the jailers by the fact that prisoners were rarely there longer than a day +or so. After the protests, a cook was brought in and the jailers suggested to +the lawyers that I could have a television in my cell, and could keep the +radio and electric typewriter I had acquired in Marin. +With these innovations the cell became cluttered. Magnanimously the +jailers opened the door to the padded cell for my use. Thus I came to have +what, in the prosecutor's propaganda, became a "two-room suite." A tworoom suite consisting of a six-by-eight cell and an even smaller padded cell, +the toilet hole of which backed up one day and covered my books and the +floor with liquid excrement. +Just as the "two-room suite" was a farce, so was "my own private +television" of which the prosecutor constantly spoke. My television was +"private" only because they insisted on keeping me in solitary confinement. +The prosecutor never mentioned that in the regular women's jail a color +television was available for the prisoners. Nor that when I got mine I +insisted on one for the prisoner next door and that when the jailers refused, +the Committee purchased a TV for her as well. During those days, as the +conditions of my imprisonment improved, I felt a profound sadness welling +up within me. What had been done for me had, so far, been done only for +me. But I was haunted by the specters of all those sisters and brothers +whose lives were eroding in other jails. Ruchell, Fleeta, John, Luis, Johnnie +Spain, David Johnson, Hugo Pinell, Willie Tate, Earl Gibson, Larry Justice, +Lee Otis Johnson, Martin Sostre, Marie Hill, the Attica Brothers . . . The +names kept tolling in my ears. My head was bursting with jumbled images +of their dungeons, their keepers — terror-ridden images that made the +improvement of my own physical circumstances extremely painful for me. + + The tremendous energy of the movement which had so swiftly transformed +my jail situation was energy my sisters and brothers had a more than equal +right to. I tried to assuage some of my pain by establishing contact with +sisters and brothers in prisons all over the country. +Compulsively almost, for hours at a time, I answered letter after letter from +prisoners — letters which had piled up over the months in Marin when the +jailers refused to give me all of my mail. More than ever before I felt a need +to cement my links to every other prisoner. My very existence, it seemed, +was dependent on my ability to reach out to them. I decided then and there +that if I was ever free, I would use my life to uphold the cause of my sisters +and brothers behind walls. + +Shortly before the change of venue, Sheldon had had to leave the case for +personal reasons. And with the pretrial motions at an end, the original legal +team had been disbanded. Around this time, we asked Doris Walker, a +lawyer with a long history of involvement in progressive causes, to join the +team. We welcomed her participation not only because of her qualifications +as an attorney and her unquestionable commitment to the struggle, but also +because we felt it was politically important for women to assume visible +roles in the defense. +Once the transfer to Santa Clara County took place, we had to move quickly +to make the last addition to the legal team. There were Howard, Margaret +and Dobby. We wanted one additional lawyer. During the original +discussion about lawyers in the House of D. in New York, the name of Leo +Branton came up along with Howard's as one of the first lawyers we wanted +to speak to about taking the case. I was particularly interested in Leo +Branton because he had been one of the few lawyers courageous enough to +defend Communists during the Smith Act Trials. Recently, he had come out +of retirement to take the case of the L.A. Panthers which stemmed from the +January 1970 police attack on their office. +When we first approached him about the defense team, he was all tied up in +the Panther case and could not therefore assume another major +responsibility. As a result of a misunderstanding — our impression was that + + he had left the country after his involvement in the Panther case terminated +— we had not contacted him since the fall of 1970. When Dobby told me +that he had appeared extremely receptive about the idea of joining the team +now, I was absolutely delighted. Shortly afterward, he made a trip from +L.A. to San Jose to discuss his entrance into the case. +I had seen Leo once before — very briefly during one of the pretrial +hearings of the L.A. Panthers. At that time he wore a mustache. Because +everyone was talking about this tremendous Black lawyer who felt so +strongly about the Panthers that he had come out of retirement to defend +them, I retained an impression that he was well up in the years. On the day +his visit was scheduled, I saw a young-looking man with a well-developed +physique, dressed very sharply. It did not enter my mind that this could be +the Leo Branton who had come out of retirement to take the Panther case — +but who was he? +I was so shocked that after Howard introduced him, one of the first things I +asked him was how old he was. As it turned out, he had retired at the age of +forty-five and had gone with his wife Geri to live in Mexico for a while. +Leo's background was fascinating. He had tried the Smith Act cases, had +gone to the South in the early sixties to defend Civil Rights workers and +eventually had become one of the few Black lawyers to represent people in +the entertainment field. He had been, for example, the attorney for Nat King +Cole, and at the time we asked him to come into the case, he was handling +the Jimi Hendrix's estate in England, on behalf of his family. +The outcome of our discussion was that Leo would become an attorney of +record as soon as he completed the litigation in England. His decision was a +source of pleasure and pride for us all. With Margaret, Howard, Dobby and +Leo, our legal team was now the best we could hope for. This was an +indisputable step in the direction of victory! +Soon after the move, I began to attend court regularly on pretrial matters. +The jailers insisted on making the ten-minute trip to downtown San Jose +some three hours before court was scheduled to begin. The caravan of +armed men would leave between five-thirty and five forty-five in the +morning. Some cars drove ahead of the unmarked car I rode in; some were +behind, and there was always a car moving alongside. If their intention was + + to make the trip inconspicuously, they were hardly successful. Each +morning a whole series of machinations and manipulations was necessary +to keep this formation in shape as it sped at over seventy miles an hour to +San Jose. Early one morning, as I was dressing for one of these predawn +trips, I turned on the radio as I always did upon waking. There was a news +flash: "Yesterday evening the Supreme Court of the State of California +voted to abolish the death penalty on the grounds that it is cruel and unusual +and thus unconstitutional." I was convinced at first that I had misheard the +announcement. I had talked many times with Anthony Amsterdam, the +attorney who prepared the papers and argued the death penalty case before +the high court. He had visited me in jail while preparing our appeal of the +bail denial before the federal court. At no time did he seem optimistic about +the outcome of his case. But there it was. The death penalty annulled. +My thoughts at that moment flew to the brothers in San Quentin with +pending cases carrying the death penalty. No longer could Ruchell be +condemned to die in the gas chamber so near his cell. John Cluchette could +not now be killed by the state. Fleeta, my brother, as much like a blood +brother as Benny or Reggie; my dear Fleeta would not lose his life to the +cyanide tablets dropped in the acid beneath the death chair. Johnnie Spain, +Luis Talamante, Hugo Pinell, David Johnson, Willie Tate — the state could +not take any more of their lives than prison had done already. Earl Gibson +and Larry Justice would escape the official death that is often the lot of +those who refuse to be obsequious before their keepers. +I laughed out loud. If I had been anywhere else I would have shouted, but +there in the solitude of that jail I held my joy. +Margaret came in. I could tell that she had already heard the news: she was +almost dancing with excitement. We hugged each other. I told her that this +was one day I wouldn't mind being in San Quentin's Adjustment Center on +Death Row. "There must be a carnival going on now over there," I said. +Margaret was animatedly saying something about Howard preparing for a +bail hearing that morning. +"Bail hearing?" I asked. "What kind of bail hearing?" + + Margaret looked at me as if I were a little crazy. +"Angela," she said, "the death penalty has been abolished. Don't you realize +that this undercuts the whole legal basis for Judge Arnason's denial of bail? +He has nowhere to turn now. He has to let you out!" +Of course! In his original decision denying me bail, Arnason had +emphatically stated that if not for the fact that I was accused of a capital +crime, he would be more than willing to set me free on bail. Now there +were no capital crimes. Arnason's words were on the record. The argument +he had invoked when he rejected our bail motion no longer held water. +According to the judge's own argument, I was now "legally" eligible for +bail. +In my joy that Fleeta, the other brothers, and I could not be condemned to +death, I had forgotten all about bail. We howled then. It was the first time I +had laughed freely and deeply in sixteen months. +"We called Judge Arnason early this morning," Margaret said, "and he's +already agreed to hold a bail hearing today. Howard and Dobby are trying to +get copies of the Supreme Court decision now. They should be here in a few +minutes. And Franklin, Kendra and the rest of the Committee are frantically +trying to raise the bail money." +I had been close to euphoria when Margaret said that I would certainly be +out on bail soon. But the more concrete she became, the more she began to +talk about the facts and specifics, the more my euphoria dwindled away into +an overwhelming pessimism. +"This judge isn't going to let me out on bail," I said, "not after all these +months, not now, right on the eve of the trial. Just wait. He'll find a loophole +somehow." +I didn't want to dampen Margaret's enthusiasm, but I remembered only too +vividly our experience when the bail motion had been argued the last time. +Virtually everyone in the Committee had been positive that we would win. I +think that I was the only one — the lawyers included — who had profound +reservations about the possibility of being released. So when Arnason + + announced that he could not "legally" release me, it was such a terrible +letdown for everyone, creating such an all-pervasive climate of gloom that +it was hard to pick up the pieces and start the movement rolling again. I felt +that another enormous defeat would be disastrous for the movement. There +was also the psychological damage such a defeat would have on me; I had +to husband my strength in order to survive. I could not allow myself to +build up my hopes for release, which would only be shattered by the +arbitrary words of a white man in the black robes of the judiciary. Certainly, +there was a remote possibility that I might be released on bail, but in the +opinion I was forming now, it was precisely that, a remote possibility. +Moreover I was certain that Arnason would not make the decision alone. +The real decision, I thought, would be made on levels of government much +higher than that of a Superior Court judge. +We entered chambers for the preliminary bail hearing. I had already plotted +out the scenario in my mind. Arnason, in his efforts to be the fairest judge +possible, would agree to reconsider his ruling and, in fact, would hold a +new bail hearing. But between now and the time he held the substantive +hearing, he would have pried into each one of his law books, read the +Supreme Court decision a thousand times for a loophole, and would +announce on the day of the hearing that he was terribly distressed, but the +law prohibited him from releasing me on bail. +When the three lawyers and I moved into the judicial chambers, we came +face to face with a despondent-looking prosecutor, Albert Harris. Howard +presented our extremely simple argument for bail: 1) The previous denial of +bail was based entirely on the capital nature of the charges against me; 2) +Only hours ago, the Supreme Court had abolished the death penalty — +there was no such thing as a capital crime; 3) Ergo, I should be granted bail +immediately. +So convinced were Howard and Dobby of the infallibility of their argument +that they had a bondsman waiting at the back door of the court. But my +pessimistic appraisal was correct. The judge set a date for yet another +hearing. He said he needed time to review the Supreme Court decision, and +that the prosecutor needed time to prepare his answer to our argument. + + FEBRUARY 23 +The bail hearing was set for Wednesday — in chambers. The judge +responded to Howard's vigorous resistance to a closed hearing by saying +that if we wanted to have the proceedings in open court, he would be only +too happy to accommodate us — but he would have to postpone the date of +the hearing for quite a while. We well understood the significance of this. In +my state of mind I regarded it as a very broad hint that the motion would +once more be denied. If not, why would he shy away from holding the +hearing before the public? +Kendra, Franklin and Margaret kept trying to persuade me that this time the +judge had no way out. In Margaret's "professional opinion," she kept +reminding me, the law could not supply him with a loophole. Not this time. +All of us, however, understood Howard's reticence on the subject. The last +time he had been so sure — and had suffered so much for me when the +denial came down. Almost everyone else was telling me to pack everything, +to be on the alert so that when the decision was rendered, I could walk +through the gates without a second's delay. +But I refused to pack, to make any gesture that might lead someone — +particularly the jailers — to believe that I really thought I was going to get +out. I recalled only too vividly, and with a great deal of depression, the +arrogant deportment of the Marin County matrons and sheriff's deputies +after the judge had said "denied" to our bail motion in June the year before. +Finally, quivering with nervousness, I had to submit to the handcuffs and be +led through the steel doors for the court appearance. I was hyper-conscious +of every gesture I had to make: how to hold my manacled hands outward, +turn my back to the car, sit down on the edge of the seat and slide myself to +the middle. I never accepted the help of a jailer, no matter how difficult it +was to get into the car. So many times before, I had strained to absorb every +little detail along the route from the jail to the courthouse. On some of these +trips I had enjoyed the sight of children playing in the street; on others I +examined with sadness the faces of Black maids on their way to work for +the Palo Alto rich. But always there was the stark and obscene Moffett +Airfield, the coven from which planes were sent to kill Laotians, +Vietnamese and Cambodians. + + Now I might be seeing these scenes through the window of a police car for +the last time — yet I could not persuade myself that there was even a +remote possibility that it might be true. I felt as though I were walking a +tightrope. If I continued to reject the possibility of receiving bail, my +pessimism could send me plummeting into an abyss of depression. But if, +on the other hand, I succeeded in convincing myself that today would be the +day, I ran the risk of the fall from euphoria into an even deeper abyss. +During the next few minutes, I tried desperately to maintain my balance. I +kept looking for that medium between total pessimism and unrestrained +optimism. Just to walk the rope a little longer. +There we were, arranging ourselves in the judge's chambers for the +pronouncement of the verdict: Margaret, Howard, Dobby and myself on one +side of the room; Albert Harris and Clifford Thompson on the other, and the +judge in his great throne-like chair in the center. +Arnason's nonchalance must have been deliberate. Because of the casual +way he announced his decision, we had no opportunity to let loose our +screams of triumph. Sixteen months of imprisonment were coming to a +close. Just like that. +The lawyers discussed conditions of bail with the judge. Without yet feeling +the impact of my impending freedom, I wondered why he had finally +decided to set me free. It was certainly not because he personally wanted to +release me before trial. If that had been the case, he could have let me out +months ago. He would not have had to wait for the abolition of the death +penalty. Neither was it only because of the new court decision that Arnason +had granted our motion. He could have very easily accepted the prosecutor's +proposition that the Supreme Court decision would not be final for ninety +days yet; therefore, he should wait out those three months and release me +then — assuming no revisions were made in the decision. (Later I +discovered that every judge in the state of California who had heard a bail +motion on the basis of the abolition of the death penalty had followed the +prosecutor's suggestion and waited out the ninety days.) +It was not the judge. +It was not the law. + + Only one other explanation remained. That very morning, the judge himself +had given me a glimpse into what had motivated him to grant bail. +He spoke about ". . . the mail I've received in the last two days and the +telephone calls, none of which I have personally taken, but which my staff +has taken, from . . . a tremendous number of states and telegrams from +foreign countries. It is a case of amazing interest." +The real reason he felt compelled to hand down a decision in our favor had +to do with the mushrooming defense campaign. Arnason did not mean to +imply that he was "yielding to public pressure." Yet it was clear that the +tremendous agitation of millions of people had affected him. +This realization brought to mind the many heated arguments we had had +around the bail movement — arguments which usually found me alone on +one side and Fania, Kendra, Franklin and the other Committee leaders on +the other. It had been about a year since the bail campaign was launched. I +had profound reservations about devoting so much of the energy of the +campaign to the single question of bail. In the first place, I had been certain +that there would not be the flimsiest chance of victory. In the second place I +thought the political content of the bail issue too weak. It did not permit +people to express their resistance to the system of repression, which was not +only behind my own imprisonment but was why so many others were +languishing in prison. +Only after many months had passed did I begin to understand my own +misjudgment. True, the demand for bail was not a revolutionary demand. +True, it did not of itself expose the rotten core of the capitalist system. But +precisely because a bail demand was something which could appeal to +anyone who wanted to side with justice, it allowed the campaign to reach +out to many thousands of people who at that time could not have been +stimulated to call for my complete freedom. They would not go on record +demanding my freedom, but they would go on record demanding that I be +released pending the determination of my innocence — or guilt — by a +court of law. +The participation of so many people had been in itself phenomenal, but +what impressed me most and what convinced me of the correctness of the + + bail fight was the way in which the people who waged the fight began to +evolve politically. Many of them began to involve themselves in other areas +of the campaign. Once they had been exposed to the realities of the prison +and judicial systems, they were forced to give serious consideration to the +political repression we spoke about. In learning about my case they learned +about the Soledad Brothers, about the subhuman conditions of the jails, +about the indeterminate-sentence law, under which George had been given a +term of from one year to life for something which, had he been white and +well-off, would have resulted in probation at worst. They learned about +racism and how it pervaded every corner of the prison system. And they +learned about the dynamic which makes racism an essential ingredient of +the political persecution of revolutionaries and progressives. Many who +began, reluctantly, demanding bail, ended up as strong and effective leaders +of the campaign. +Arnason told us that the defense and the prosecution had to agree on the +conditions of bail before he could formally set the bond, which he said +would be $102,500 — of which $2,500 had to be paid directly to the court +in cash. The prosecution, of course, tried to see that, once on the outside, I +would be imprisoned within so many restrictions that I might as well be in +jail. +The battle raged on. Harris used the opportunity to lash out against the +Committee (whose presence always seemed to offend him personally). He +insisted I was not to attend or participate in anything that was organized by +or had anything whatever to do with the National United Committee to Free +Angela Davis. If he had had his way, I would not have been able to +associate with my own sister, because she was one of the national +coordinators of the defense campaign. Harris seemed to see as his main +enemy not me, but rather this multitudinous movement which had risen up +to jam his apparatus of persecution. +It seemed as if many hours had gone by when we had finally reached the +point of agreement — or rather of truce. Outside, a large assembly of sisters +and brothers had gathered to wait out the hearing and receive news of the +decision firsthand. What we knew from the opening moments of the +hearing, they knew not at all. When Howard and Dobby had to get legal + + papers from the office, the judge instructed them to keep silent about his +decision, to speak to no newsperson, to go directly to the office and come +directly back. Margaret and I went into the jury deliberation room to wait. +We hoped that Howard would ignore — just a little — the judge's +instructions. +Suddenly a huge roar was heard in the courthouse. Cheers, screams, +laughter. The message had gotten to the people. And it was their own +victory they were claiming. It was at that moment that the emotions I had +had to contain during that long hearing were suddenly unleashed. It was +right that it should be so; that my own happiness should emerge and merge +with the emotions of those who had created it. +Howard and Dobby returned shortly. I told Howard that I knew he would +not be able to keep the bail a secret when he went out. +"But I didn't say anything," Howard insisted. "I walked out with as straight +a face as possible. I could see how tense and upset Franklin and Kendra and +the others were. Still, I kept walking. Then Franklin ran up to me, and all I +did was smile. I was smiling all over — I couldn't help it. Franklin didn't +need anything else. He hugged me, Kendra, and then all pandemonium +broke loose." +Now we had to get down to the concrete. Where was the money and +property for the bond coming from? There were problems with the +bondsman, Howard said. The one they had expected to use (a so-called +"movement" bondsman) had apparently gotten cold feet at the last moment +and begun talking about the way Eldridge Cleaver had split the country. +This bondsman had proved himself such a racist, Howard said, that even if +he changed his mind, we couldn't use him on principle. +In situations where bad news had to be broken, Howard had a way of +assuming a fatherly air. There in the jury room, he told me very tenderly +that I should expect to have to hole up for a few days while the bond was +raised and a bondsman was found. +There had been Aretha Franklin's public promise some months before to put +up the money for the bond. Now she was out of the country, but when my + + mother reached her, she said she was still willing to go bail for me. The +problem was that she had to remain abroad for a while longer, and the +money could not be released without her personal signature. +The Committee kept on looking. They quickly raised $2,500 to be handed +over to the court and $10,000 to be kept on hand for the 10 percent bail +bondsman's fee when the $100,000 in property was found. This time, when +I rode back to jail, my hands cuffed, in the caravan of armed men, I felt +strong. What had just unfolded was incontrovertible proof of the power of +the people. +Back in my cell, I lay down feeling a profound sadness. Why me and not +the others? I could not get rid of a sense of guilt. But I knew that my +freedom would be significant only if I used it to push on for the freedom of +those whose condition I had shared. +All of a sudden people were coming back to my cell. Franklin said that I +would be getting out right away. What did he mean? Stephanie came in +with this same cryptic news. Then Howard explained that they had found +someone who was willing to put up his property as bond. Someone who had +simply appeared, attracted to us by the magnetism of the movement. A +white farmer from Fresno County, who had inherited a large stretch of land +from his father, and who was a sympathizer with our movement. Soon there +was news of another possibility. The bondsman whose office was +downstairs from our legal offices in San Jose had decided to take over the +operation. Negotiations were being conducted right outside the jail. Finally +Howard came in with the joltingly exciting news: the bond had definitely +been raised; all that remained was the paper work! I wanted to scream with +joy. But the sluggish jail bureaucracy hindered the natural flow of my +emotions. Every second of waiting now was like the months and seasons I +had spent waiting behind bars. I could not shed the ugly jail clothes fast +enough and pull on the purple pants Kendra had brought — pants too small +for her and certainly too tight for me. My hands were trembling so I could +hardly dress. Yet, seconds later, I was out front at the booking desk waiting +for the jailers (who were silently burning with rage) to push the buttons +which would fling open the gates. + + The first gate was sliding open at its own maddeningly slow pace. One step +and that threshold was crossed. My heart pounded as I waited for the gate +behind me to slam shut with the hateful banging sound that had seared my +nerves so many times before. This was the last time. I stepped through the +next gate that was opening before me and was greeted by a tumultuous roar. +I threw my arms around the first person I saw outside, Refu, a brother I had +known in L.A. I wanted to embrace every sister and brother in the crowd. +Jail, imprisonment, sheriffs, chains — all that was far behind. For security +reasons we had to leave the jail grounds quickly. Refu gently reminded me +that I would have time to see all the people in safer surroundings. Margaret +and I got into Victoria Mercado's yellow Mustang and plowed through the +supporters and reporters who had converged on the car. Speeding down the +freeway, we screamed, laughed and kissed each other. I was out there; no +guards, no police car, no handcuffs. "Everyone's meeting over at Bettina +and Jack's," someone said. +When we walked into the house, my face was hurting from smiling and +laughing so much. Margaret's six-year-old son, Hollis, and Bettina and +Jack's four-year-old, Joshua, were both there. With the special tenderness +that young children can show, Joshua asked me, "Angela, are you really +free?" And Hollis was so ecstatic he flung his arms around my neck. +There were the members of the national staff, the leaders and activists from +the San Jose Committee, and committees from throughout the Bay Area, all +gathered under one roof. I thought back on all the difficulties we had +confronted trying to organize the Soledad Brothers Defense Committee. My +admiration for the leaders of my committee was limitless. I was meeting +many of them for the first time, all these beautiful sisters and brothers who +had snatched my life from the pale hands of racist persecution. +I met in a back room with the leaders of the Chicano Defense Organization. +El Comite Para la Defensa de los Presos Politicos had given special +attention to my case. Their support was critical in Santa Clara County, +where the Chicano population outnumbered the Blacks. Victoria Mercado, a +Chicana sister who had joined the national staff of the Committee very +early, had spent many months working in San Jose with El Comite. + + Throughout the evening an unbroken stream of people came in. In the midst +of all that, I picked up the telephone and dialed Birmingham. Mother and +Daddy. Knowing the deep personal pain they had suffered, and their +complete devotion to the fight, I felt happier for their sake than I did for my +own. Our emotions were so high that the telephone seemed more a barrier +than a medium of communication. Then I had to call my brother Benny and +his wife Sylvia. Their commitment was both personal and political, and we +had come to love each other even more. Then the New York calls. I had to +reach Charlene, who had tackled the formidable job of handling the national +campaign. Afterward I called Winnie. Henry Winston, chairman of our +Party, and Gus Hall, our General Secretary, had together carried the +message of the campaign to the world. +Then a problem insinuated itself. Franklin ran it down. Hundreds had +assembled at Solidarity Center — the office of the San Jose Committee — +to celebrate. +They were waiting impatiently for me to drop by. Since the bail order +included a prohibition on my speaking to or being present at any large +gathering organized by the Committee, the suggestion was that I not go. +What should I do? The first violation of my bail condition could be seized +upon as a reason for putting me back in jail. Should I play it safe and follow +the judge's order to the t? For some selfish concern for this little bit of +freedom, should I ignore the sisters and brothers who had given so much? +Court order or no court order, I was accountable only to those who had +fought with and for me. If in fulfilling my obligations to them, I was risking +my freedom, then so be it. If I stayed with the people, I would never be +alone. +As we entered the Solidarity Center the crowd broke into a long, thunderous +ovation — an ovation that almost made up for my last eighteen months in +clandestinity and prison. + +*** + + We had already decided that I would move in with Margaret. Bob and +Barbara Lindsay, friends of ours in San Jose, had lent her a house for the +duration of the case. For sixteen months Margaret had visited me in jails — +New York, Marin County, Santa Clara; now it was strange to know that we +could go to sleep and wake up under the same roof. Like many years ago, +when she spent the summer in our house in Birmingham, or when I stayed +with her family in New York. +It was futile to even try to fall asleep, so I spent these first hours of silence +and darkness in thought. It was frightening to think about the profound +impact jail had had on me. My responses were still geared to the sparseness +of jail surroundings, to the thick hostility pervading the whole environment. +Being accustomed to sleeping on a slab only slightly wider than my body, it +felt peculiar to be able to roll over in Margaret's big bed. +There was something else about this house that saddened me and broke the +spell of celebration. The house had belonged to Barbara Lindsay's mother, a +beautiful woman named Emma Stern. I had come to know her as the whitehaired old lady, lines deeply etched in her face, who had written the first +pamphlet on the Soledad Brothers. Over seventy years old, she had been +one of the most active leaders of the Soledad Defense Committee. In the +summer of 1971 she fell ill. For a while she was in and out of the hospital +and seemed to be recovering. When George was killed, the forces keeping +her alive must have been consumed by sorrow. Shortly after George's +funeral, Emma Stern died. + +FEBRUARY 24 +There was not enough time to savor the first morning of sun shining on the +lush backyard. I wanted to abandon myself to primitive sensations: +stretching out on the grass, soaking up the solar warmth and energy I had +missed so much in my succession of cells. But I had to restrain this +compulsion to touch trees, watch clouds and listen to the sound of children's +voices. In a little while I had to face the press and confront the media and +the millions they reach. + + Just then the bell announced Fania's arrival. She had worked so hard on the +campaign, traveling throughout the world, that she was not even there when +I was released. She had had a speaking engagement that night in Idaho. We +embraced each other, full to bursting with the deferred joy of the last +eighteen months. Sisters, we had become comrades. +After the press conference, we made our way to Bettina and Jack's, where +Gus Hall was waiting to see me. Gus understood better than anyone what I +was feeling. He had spent some eight years in Leavenworth Federal +Penitentiary. He described the moment when they first learned that the +judge had granted him bail. The news arrived in the midst of a session of +the Party Congress. They were torn, he said, between the impulse to make +the announcement immediately and the knowledge that the news would +hopelessly disrupt the remainder of the meeting. They risked disruption, +and the rest of the day's business gave way. Accompanying Gus on this trip +was Luis Figueroa, a leader of the Communist Party and Senator from +Chile. Short, with a huge mustache falling over his lips, he was like a +benevolent uncle. In his warm, down-to-earth manner, Gus asked me +whether I'd like to have dinner with a few comrades from the area. I +accepted, and someone reminded me that we must hurry to meet my +mother's plane. +I had suffered through such painful prison visits with my mother. She was +such a sensitive person, especially about her children, I could only begin to +sense the anguish my imprisonment caused her. If there was a single +overriding personal reason why I wanted to be free, it was for my mother's +sake. +As she stepped off the jet that afternoon, there was a radiance about her +which I had never seen before. Eisa, my young niece, was in her arms. In an +instant, we were entangled in hugs. No jailers to sully the privacy of this +meeting. +After dinner, when I had finished one glass of champagne — all I dared to +drink — I toasted practically everyone who was present. Spontaneously we +began to sing "The Internationale": "Arise ye prisoners of starvation . . ." +and immediately afterward "The Negro National Anthem." My mother's + + voice sang loud and clear: "Lift every voice and sing till earth and heaven +ring . . ." Even the Black waiters joined in. + +FEBRUARY 25 +The burly white policeman in charge was evidently jarred by my +appearance. His voice quivered with rage as he told me to step behind the +white line over there. How many mug shots did this make? +Like the other cops lining the walls, he was wearing a dark-blue jumpsuit +with a matching baseball cap. One could have easily mistaken him for a +parking-lot attendant, a television repairman or an auto mechanic. But there +was that heavy pistol swinging from his waist, and the two-foot truncheon +his right hand was so tightly gripping. +When the photographer was done, the same fury-laden voice directed me to +another white line — this one reserved for the women. My steps heavy with +hesitation, I moved from the line to the other side of the screen. I held my +breath while they frisked my body, dug their fingers in my hair, and asked +me to lower my underpants. +Kendra, Victoria, Franklin and Rodney were already acquainted with the +special routine in the San Francisco County Courthouse for those attending +the Soledad Brothers' trial. But Mother, Sylvia and Benny were incredulous, +outraged and horrified by this degrading prelude to the court session. +It was frightening to realize the regular trial-goers had to submit themselves +to these humiliating searches day after day. Undoubtedly, the repetition +conferred a dangerous aura of normality on this manifestly fascist routine. +Undoubtedly, it had already created a dangerous precedent for political +trials in the future. +Names were recorded, special seats assigned, photos taken for the San +Francisco Police and the FBI. And inside, we in the spectator section were +separated from the scene of the trial by a bulletproof shield extending the +entire width of the courtroom. + + Behind the plexiglass, things took on a staged appearance. Ritualistically, it +seemed, the figures marched in to assume their habitual places: defense, +prosecution, the twelve jurors and four alternates; finally, John and Fleeta, +whose strength and beauty seemed to split the bulletproof glass. We reached +out for one another. +It was difficult to concentrate on the facts at hand, so thoroughly was I +haunted by the thought that I was free and they were still in chains. The +circle had closed. As a free woman before, I had vowed to fight relentlessly +for their freedom. John, Fleeta and George . . . This new freedom must be +no different. +This is what I had planned to tell John during the meeting the lawyers had +arranged for the lunch break. But I should have realized that things were +moving along too smoothly. Upstairs in the holding area, the Chicano guard +gave us the news. Unfortunately, he said, Judge Vauvaris had changed his +mind. No meeting with John Clutchette. +My immense disappointment subsided slightly when I realized that John's +cell was visible from the counter where I stood. The guard did not object +when I called out to him, telling him to hold tight and keep strong; it was +only a matter of time. +Downstairs a huge throng of people had gathered, and the press had been +alerted to my presence. Conceivably, because of this the judge could +construe my attendance at the Soledad Brothers' trial as a violation of the +bail order. But at this point, that didn't matter very much. What mattered +was that I reaffirm my commitment to the fight to free all political prisoners +— first and foremost, the Soledad Brothers. It was important not only +because it put me where I wanted to be — back in the struggle — but also +because of the meaning it would have for all the sisters and brothers who +had fought for my freedom. If I could not be satisfied with my freedom +alone, they could not be satisfied either. + + PART SIX: Bridges +Walls turned sideways are bridges + +E + +arly one Saturday morning during my first year at Brandeis, my friend +Lani and I decided to hitchhike up north to see the fishing boats in +Gloucester, Massachusetts. We had plans to stay the night. But since we +knew no "adults" in Gloucester, we had to engage in a small transgression +of the ridiculously puritanical rules governing the conduct of female +students. Signing out of our dormitory, we indicated that we had permission +from our parents to visit a family in New York, whose name and address we +gave. (They were people who would know how to act if any checking was +done.) +Gloucester was magnificent, with its multicolored autumnal trees, the +massive beauty of its seaside boulders, its throng of ships and fishermen. +For hours we walked along the coast, then we toured the little streets dating +from the eighteenth century. Though we were practically moneyless, a nice +man in a little restaurant gave us as much food as we could eat and wouldn't +hear of letting us work off our meal. +When the sun's warmth began to fade away, we had to reconsider our +original intention to sleep out on the beach. With no money, we could +hardly think about checking into a motel, so we said good-bye to the friends +we had made in the town and headed back down the highway with our +thumbs as our only means of transportation. +It was late by the time we reached the campus in Waltham, later than the +curfew hour for first-year female students. If we risked crossing the campus +to Hamilton quadrangle, where our dorm was situated, we would probably +be picked up by the security men and charged with curfew violation. Even +if we weren't picked up during the run for it, it was very probable that we'd +be caught as we tried to get into the dorm unnoticed. + + Ridgewood — the men's dorms — were on the edge of the campus, right +off the highway where our ride had dropped us. There wouldn't be much +security around those dorms, so we decided to ask a friend to give up his +room for the night. When we woke him, he was quite willing to find +another bed and give us the two beds in his room for the night. The next +morning we got up early and made it back to our rooms without incident. +Somehow — we never found out exactly how — word got back to the Dean +of Women that we had "spent the night in the men's dorms." She called us +in to say that we were going to have to stand trial before the women's +tribunal. Lani and I were incredulous. This whole thing was absurd — stand +trial before a group of upper-class women brainwashed into believing that +because we were young women, what we had done was immoral. We had to +appear before this tribunal or be expelled from the university — because we +had simply wanted to enjoy the beauty of an autumn day, and had not +allowed the rules to inhibit us. +In the bare, windowless room, Lani and I sat on one side of the long table. +The members of the tribunal sat on the other side. +"Don't you know that you have marred the reputation of this university by +accepting rides from strangers?" +We both looked with disgust at the student who pronounced these words. +"Brandeis' reputation must really be marred," I retorted, "with all the +hitchhiking that's done around here." +"Decent students do their hitchhiking on the campus, and not on strange +roads." +A long contest followed, with the tribunal women hurling their invective at +us, and Lani and me treating their words with the derision they merited. +As we knew when we walked into the room, the verdict was guilty, and the +sentence was the maximum. For thirty days we were "dormed," meaning +that we had to be in our rooms every day after dinner and remain there or +give proof that we were studying in the library for the evening. + + I never forgot the self-righteous condemnation of that tribunal. They were +convinced they had a right to play God, master and mother. Since we +refused to accept their way of life, we were "moral criminals" and they +wanted to see us punished. + +FEBRUARY 28 +As the first potential jurors were brought into the courtroom, I thought back +on that little mock trial which had unfolded more than a decade ago. I felt +the same sense of unreality, the feeling that the same sort of game was +being played, the contestants with the dangerously obsolete ideas having an +unfair advantage. +But this was another game — more deadly. And the risks were far higher +than thirty days in my bedroom. +On the desk directly in front of our table, a brown wooden raffle box is spun +around. When it comes to a stop, the clerk reaches inside and pulls out a +slip of paper. He reads the name carefully, pronouncing each syllable +distinctly. People upstairs are watching and listening on a television +monitor. Downstairs in the courtroom we are keenly conscious of the +cameras and microphones transmitting our actions to that roomful of +strange people corresponding to the names and numbers on our jury list. +Shortly after her name was called, Mrs. Marjorie Morgan appeared and took +her seat in the witness box. Mrs. Marjorie Morgan, who described herself as +the wife of a retired tractor shop owner. Mrs. Marjorie Morgan . . . +provincial and biased . . . Mrs. Marjorie Morgan, who didn't hesitate to tell +Leo, who was examining her, that she thought I was "probably guilty" of +murder, kidnapping and conspiracy, and that I never should have been +allowed to teach at UCLA. It was illegal and improper, she insisted, for +Communists to teach at a university. The only decent trait she exhibited was +her honesty about her inability to judge me fairly. The judge was thus +forced to eliminate her from the panel. + + The questioning of potential jurors — the voir dire — was divided into two +parts. First the potential juror was asked about his or her exposure to +publicity about me and the case. If the judge was satisfied that pretrial +publicity had not created irreversible prejudice against me, then that person +was temporarily seated in one of the twelve jury seats. When the jury box +was full, the second stage of the voir dire began, during which we +intensively questioned the potential jurors on a whole range of subjects. We +attempted to draw out any hidden racist, pro-police or other biases which +might surface as a result of evidence produced during the trial. +The next day an even bolder anti-Communist was examined. William +Waugh, when asked about his attitude toward Communists, said that "if +anyone wants to be a Communist, it seems they could go back where they +come from." That, he admitted, included me as well — if I wanted to be a +Communist, I should go back to where Communists are in power. But +because he would not agree that this position would affect his ability to give +me a fair trial if I were tried for something unrelated to communism, he was +not unseated. For the time being, he remained on the panel. +But this was also the day when Mrs. Janie Hemphill was called in. Mrs. +Hemphill was the only Black woman in the entire pool of potential jurors. +A robust woman in her early forties, she pleasantly insisted that she could +give me a fair trial. But before she even uttered a word, we were certain that +Albert Harris, the prosecutor, would strike her from the panel at the earliest +possible moment. +A few days later, when she was voir dired in depth, she poignantly +described her background. I was so moved by what she said that I almost +forgot that this was a part of the process of selecting a jury that might send +me back to the other side of the walls. When Howard asked her about the +jobs she had held, she took us back to Arizona, where she had picked cotton +and cut onions at the age of twelve. "Later," she said, "I was a short-order +cook. I went to Los Angeles and I worked as a short-order cook . . . And I +also worked in a sandwich factory for those trucks that pass by . . . When I +first came to San Jose, I did domestic work and I worked at Spivey's as a +dish-washer." + + As she spoke, she reminded me of my mother — her fight to get out of +Good Water, Alabama, to get herself through high school and college doing +all the odd jobs she could find. All this in order to finally get a job teaching +in a little school. +Mrs. Hemphill's story was the universal story of the Black woman in a +world that wants to see her crushed. Mrs. Hemphill had overcome. My +mother had overcome. But many others had not. The system was poised +against us. That was what had come through so powerfully in Mrs. +Hemphill's words. My own present predicament was, on a different level, +evidence of that same politically, economically, socially hostile world +which almost every Black woman must contend with every day of her life. +On March 13, fifteen days after the jury selection had opened, Mrs. +Hemphill was eliminated by one of the prosecution's peremptory +challenges. She was the only Black person to have been questioned in the +witness box. Court was adjourned. +The next day, March 14, we accepted the jury as constituted. It was not +because we were satisfied with the people who sat in the box. By no means +— after all, the only Black person had been eliminated by Harris. Yet, from +our cursory investigation of the remainder of the jury venire, we were +convinced that the combination of jurors we had on March 14 was probably +better than anything else we could hope for. If we had continued to +challenge those whom we felt were most prejudiced, then it was certain that +Harris would challenge those whom we felt had the greatest inclinations +toward fairness. They would be picked off one by one, as he had already +picked off Janie Hemphill and the few others who did not seem totally +prosecution-prone. +We were hoping that our instincts were correct about Mrs. Mary Timothy, +whose son had been a conscientious objector to the Vietnam war. During +the voir dire, she had come across as a fiercely independent person who, we +thought, would know how to hold her own. If only she, and the few others +we had been vaguely pleased with, would look at the evidence objectively +and with intelligence, and would refuse to be swayed by the demagogic +tricks of the prosecution, we could hope for a hung jury at least. + + When the jury was sworn in on March 14, it included a woman whose +presence on the panel had worried us from the very beginning. When +Howard had examined her on the question of communism, she had said that +Communists seek to obtain their goals "kind of by force." +"And when you say ‘force,'" Howard asked, "what are you referring to? +What do you mean?" +"Subversive," the woman answered, ". . . this type of thing. I really don't +know . . ." +"Now, you say a ‘subversive' type of thing. Could you tell us what a +subversive type of thing is, in your opinion?" +"I can reduce it," she said, "to terms of my eleven-year-old, and that would +be 'sneaky.'" +When Howard asked her how she would define "sneaky," she tried to +explain her use of that word by saying, "I kind of reduced it to an +oversimplification. I am just not that well educated. You read and hear +about their activities, that they try to promote riots. I don't know this to be a +fact. This is what we read in the paper." +Howard was convinced that she was putting on a show every time she tried +to appear naively unaware of things and thus capable of being a fair juror. +After all, she was the daughter of a retired sheriff's captain — a man who +had spent over twenty-five years of his life in what Mrs. Titcomb termed +"police work." +During the voir dire, Howard had asked her whether she had Black friends. +She answered, "Oh, we had some very dear Black friends many years ago +that moved away from this area. There is a family behind us that we are +friends with." +Asked when she last had Blacks in her home as social guests, she +responded, "Blacks in my home as social guests . . . My children have them +in almost daily." On March 14, she was sworn in, along with eleven other +jurors. But, a few days after the swearing of the jury, she was relieved of her + + responsibilities. The spectators and the press were told that she was leaving +because of "personal reasons." Few people ever heard the real story. +Perhaps if the transcript had not been kept sealed, the media would not have +been so quick to praise the U.S. court system for its guaranteed fairness to +everyone. +It all started when the sketch and description of the jury appeared in the +papers on the day following our acceptance of it. Judge Arnason's clerk said +that a call came into his office that day from a person who identified herself +as the juror's daughter. The clerk described her voice as hysterical — all she +could say was "If my mother remains on the jury, God help Angela Davis." +The defense team and the prosecution had been urgently called into the +judge's chambers to hear the account of this incident. What did we suggest +be done? We insisted that the daughter be brought into chambers so that she +could elaborate on her fears that her mother was out to get me. +She was pale, of slight build and appeared to be much younger than her +eighteen years. It was apparent that she was not accustomed to such official +surroundings. She seemed timid and a bit frightened. I wanted to ask her +what it was that impelled her to take this great risk. Had she been reached in +some way by the movement for my freedom? It could only have been this +movement that had compelled her to become aware of her own individual +political responsibility, even if it entailed an attack on her mother. +I could not help feeling sorry for her as she stared apprehensively at all the +strange people sitting around the walls of the judge's chambers. Even the +judge felt moved, and in a fatherly gesture, he walked over to her, placed +his arm around her shoulder and told her gently that there was nothing to be +frightened about. When some of the terrible tension subsided, we were able +to get down to the business of the session. Yes, she was certain that her +mother would vote for a conviction, regardless of the evidence that was +presented. Her mother had never liked Black people, and had told her +daughter not to make friends with Black children. The one Black girl friend +the daughter had had as a child could not visit her at her house — not only +because her mother would not allow it, but also because the girl's parents +would not let her be subjected to a woman who was known in the + + community for her anti-Black feelings. The daughter had cried on one of +her birthdays because her friend could not attend. +After we had waded our way through the facts of this episode, the daughter +began to relate, with not a small amount of confusion, a story about a Black +boyfriend of hers, on whom her mother had spewed her vitriolic racism. +The second stage of this encounter involved a meeting with the juror where +we confronted her with the accusations her daughter had made. Of course, +she insisted that everything her daughter had said was a lie. She said that +she and the daughter had never been able to get along — of all her children, +this was the one she liked least. +What about the little Black girl friend her daughter had not been allowed to +bring home as a child? The story was a fabrication, she insisted. Then, what +about the Black boyfriend? Her daughter had told her she had been raped, +according to the woman. +No, she had not lied during the voir dire. No, she would not voluntarily step +down. She felt she had a right to serve on this jury, and she was determined +to carry out her civic responsibilities. +This woman seemed ready to risk almost anything to stay on that jury and +convict me. We threatened to bring her daughter back in to confront her +face to face with the charges of racism. But she was more than willing to +face up to her daughter. We had to go further. Was she prepared to listen to +her daughter and all the other witnesses we could uncover make these +accusations on the witness stand, before the court, the spectators, the press +and the world? She reflected for a moment, and then decided that she would +back out altogether. The world was a little more than she was willing to take +on. + +MARCH 27 +When court recessed for lunch, Kendra and I were the last to leave. +Suddenly Leo came rushing back into the courtroom shouting, "The + + Soledad Brothers were acquitted." We screamed, we hugged each other, we +jumped up and down. "The Soledad Brothers are free." Our loud, +unrestrained, joyous cries pealed through the empty courtroom. +I was laughing and crying with joy, but thinking also, Why not George? If +only they had let him live a little while longer. +Relaxing in his chambers, Judge Arnason had heard our wild yells and had +come rushing to the door. Looking somewhat frightened and probably +fearing the worst, he asked in a soft voice whether something had +happened. The three of us could only repeat what we had been screaming: +"The Soledad Brothers were acquitted." +This was the opening day of the trial. Two autumns, two winters, two +springs had already been consumed by the preliminary skirmishes. Now, at +last, we had moved into the final, decisive contest. And the exoneration of +John and Fleeta was like an omen portending our future victory. +This victory would confirm one of the fundamental elements of my defense: +the political character of my involvement in the movement to defend the +Soledad Brothers and the strategy of developing mass protests and mass +resistance to the persecution of the Brothers. +Harris had attempted to work up the jury with an absurd theory of my +having been impelled to commit murder, kidnapping and conspiracy by my +"boundless and all-consuming passion" for George. By purging his case of +the original political accusations, the prosecutor thought he was being +shrewd. In the indictment, the first "overt act" of the "conspiracy" had been +my participation in a rally on June 19, 1970, for the immediate freedom of +the Soledad Brothers. Policemen had testified before the Grand Jury that I +had advocated the release of the Soledad Brothers, at this rally, as well as in +other meetings and assemblies. Now, because so many people accepted the +idea that I was a political prisoner, the prosecution was on the defensive. +Harris was undoubtedly afraid to use the key evidence he had initially relied +upon. This was the impact of the mass campaign, the central theme of +which was the repressive, political character of the prosecution. + + "There will be no evidence offered by the prosecution over the next few +weeks," he insisted before the jury, "of the exercise by the defendant of her +right of free speech and assembly under the First Amendment, except for +certain letters that she wrote. You will be satisfied that the case of the +prosecution does not rest in any degree whatever upon the nature of the +political views of the defendant, whatever they may be. +"The evidence will show that the claim of political persecution, the claim +that the defendant is a political prisoner, the claim that the defendant is the +subject of prosecution because of her political beliefs — all of these claims +are false and without foundation." +But if he weeded out the "political evidence," the prosecutor had to build +another framework for the case. This new framework was based on the +motive of passion. I simply wanted to liberate, he said, a man whom I +loved. +Throughout his opening statement, although he was diligently trying to +make political considerations seem totally irrelevant to the case, politics +kept creeping back in. "This morning," he said, "you heard of evidence +through her books that this teacher of philosophy is a student of violence. +[He was referring to two books, The Politics of Violence and Violence and +Social Change.] Other evidence that we will present will show the +defendant does not live only in the world of books and ideas, but that she is +committed to action, that she is committed to violence." +But then, he tried to backtrack: "Her own words will reveal that beneath the +cool academic veneer is a woman fully capable of being moved to violence +by passion. The evidence will show that her basic motive was not to free +political prisoners, but to free the one prisoner that she loved. The basic +motive for the crime was the same motive underlying hundreds of criminal +cases across the United States every day. That motive was not abstract. It +was not founded basically on any need, real or imagined, for prison reform. +It was not founded on a desire for social justice. It was founded simply on +the passion that she felt for George Jackson. . . ." +On the second day of the trial we had our chance to attack the prosecution's +case. Since we had decided a few days before that I would deliver the + + opening statement to the jury, I had spent every moment of the last days +discussing it with the lawyers and preparing my notes. Now I felt certain +that we could tear the prosecution's case to pieces. +Our weapons were together. Our legal team was in good shape — Howard, +Margaret, Leo, Dobby and myself. The mass movement had unprecedented +global strength. Fania, Franklin, Charlene, Kendra, Rob, Victoria, Phyllis, +Stephanie, Bettina and the others on the staff were accomplished organizers. +They were preparing to steer the movement across the finish line. +Besides, this new twist, this new theory of passion that Harris had +propounded, left the state's case even shoddier, if that were possible, than it +had been in the beginning. This was a last-ditch approach to the trial, +developed and elaborated when it became clear that the political case would +simply not be accepted. +On this second day of the trial, as Victoria and Rodney Barnett, who were +in charge of my personal security, drove with me through the unfamiliar +San Jose streets, my thoughts were totally absorbed by the task I thought I +would soon be carrying out. +As we neared the Santa Clara Civic Center, we noticed an unusually large +crowd milling around the building. Armed sheriff's deputies were running +around the yard. Others were posted atop the roofs of the Civic Center +buildings. +Ignorant of what the commotion was all about, I thought that whatever it +was that was going down, it must be a part of the larger conspiracy to send +me to prison for life. Every day, people entering the courtroom — +spectators, press people, we ourselves, and even the jurors — had to submit +to metal detectors, humiliating frisks, and for the audience and the press, +cameras which took mug shots of them. Now the whole area was occupied +by deputies toting shotguns, rifles and machine guns. +Looking around the yard, I saw some of the jurors sitting on the municipal +court steps, and others on the benches on the opposite side of the yard. +Someone said there was an escape attempt in progress, involving prisoners + + in the men's county jail located in the same complex of buildings as the +courthouse. +The sheriff's deputy guarding the back entrance, where the lawyers entered +the courtroom, refused to let me through. +The building was under emergency security measures, he said, and no one +could leave or enter. We discovered later that the press people had been +locked in the pressroom, the spectators had been locked in the corridor +outside the courtroom, and a few jurors who had already entered the +building were locked up in the jury room. +When the judge rescinded the security measures for the participants in the +trial, and we all gathered in the courtroom, he announced that the trial +would be adjourned until the next morning and immediately dismissed the +jurors for the day. +Apparently three men being held in the county jail while they waited to be +transferred to various prison facilities had decided to make a run for +freedom. They had taken hostages and had attempted to negotiate their +release. But, as if they were following the example of the San Quentin +guards, the sheriff's deputies moved at the first clear moment to shoot their +way out of the negotiations. The person who had been considered the leader +of the effort was killed, and the other two were captured. +The evening papers carried headlines like JAIL ESCAPE TRY AT +ANGELA TRIAL SITE. And a number of articles contained lengthy +comparisons between this incident and the August 7 revolt. Whether it was +planned this way or not, the suggestion planted in the minds of many who +read the accounts was that we had something to do with the escape attempt. +This episode, which came before we had even had a chance to present our +case to the jury, raised some very difficult questions for us. On the one +hand, the only way to ensure that I would not be judged by a jury with +prejudices grown sharper from their experience of the escape attempt would +be to move at once for a mistrial. But on the other hand, if we did move for +and were granted a mistrial, then the jury selection process would start from + + scratch again. Since we felt we had already picked the very best jury Santa +Clara could offer, a new jury could only be worse. +The defense team and the campaign organizers met throughout the evening +before we finally agreed upon a definitive position: a brief voir dire of the +jurors to determine whether they had become more biased against me as a +result of the escape attempt they had witnessed. +The next day, at the conclusion of the individual examinations of the jurors, +we decided that the damage was not irreparable. We would move on with +the trial. + +The podium was behind the prosecutor's table and slightly to the left. +Arranging my notes, preparing to begin our statement, I could see Harris +squirming in his seat. +"The prosecutor," I said to them, "has introduced you to a very long and +complicated path down which he hopes his evidence will lead you in the +course of this trial. He says that this path will point squarely in the direction +of my guilt. He says that his evidence is so conclusive that it will eliminate +every doubt in your minds with respect to my guilt, and that you will have +no choice but to convict me of these very serious crimes of murder, +kidnapping and conspiracy. +"But we say to you, members of the jury, that the prosecutor's evidence +itself will demonstrate to you that this case is no case at all. The evidence +will show that I am totally innocent of all the charges against me. It will +reveal that the prosecutor's case is entirely without substance. It will reveal +that his case is based on conjecture, guesswork, speculation . . . +"The prosecutor began on Monday by telling you that this case against me, +basically, is a case involving the crime of passion. He said that my passion +for George Jackson was so great that it knew no bounds, that it had no +respect for human life. + + "He went on to say later in the statement that I was not concerned with the +struggle to free political prisoners, that I was not concerned with the +movement to improve the character of prison life in this country. He told +you that he intends to prove that I was exclusively interested in the freedom +of one man, of George Jackson, and that that interest was motivated by pure +passion. +"Members of the jury . . . the evidence will show that when I was indicted, +the Grand Jury of Marin County considered evidence of my participation in +the movement to free the Soledad Brothers, not only George Jackson, but +also Fleeta Drumgo and John Clutchette. +"The evidence will show that the first overt act of the conspiracy count +consists of a description of a rally in which I participated, around the +freedom of the Soledad Brothers. On June 19, 1970, I was exercising +constitutionally guaranteed rights — rights guaranteed to me by the First +Amendment — when I participated in this rally which dealt with the +persecution of the Soledad Brothers, with other political prisoners, and +prison conditions in general. Yet, this was supposed to be the first overt act +of a conspiracy to free the Soledad Brothers, through the events of August +seventh. +"The evidence will show, members of the jury, that this indictment +provoked widespread concern, concern throughout the world, that I was a +victim of political repression. I ask you whether or not it would not be +reasonable to infer that the prosecutor is aware that no fair-minded juror +would convict me on the basis of such evidence. Therefore, he has said to +you that he will present no evidence of my participation in the struggle to +free the Soledad Brothers. What he has done is that he has transformed the +character of this case. +"Now he will have you believe that I am a person who would commit the +crimes of murder, kidnapping and conspiracy, having been motivated by +pure passion. He would have you believe that lurking behind my external +appearance are sinister and selfish emotions and passions which, in his +words, know no bounds. "Members of the jury, this is utterly fantastic. It is +utterly absurd. Yet it is understandable that Mr. Harris would like to take +advantage of the fact that I am a woman, for in this society women are + + supposed to act only in accordance with the dictates of their emotions and +passions. I might say that this is clearly a symptom of the male chauvinism +which prevails in our society." +I had not realized that these remarks would strike such a responsive chord +in a number of the women jurors. I tried throughout my statement to watch +the jury closely for its responses. As I spoke about the male supremacist +character of Harris' case, heads nodded and receptive expressions broke out +on some of the female faces. They too had known the experience of being +accused because they were women of acting irrationally and according to +emotions rather than logic. "The evidence will show," I continued, "that my +involvement in the movement to free the Soledad Brothers began long +before I had any personal contact with George Jackson. You will learn that +shortly after Fleeta Drumgo, John Clutchette and George Jackson were +indicted by a Monterey County Grand Jury . . . I began to attend public +meetings designed to lay the basis for a movement to publicly defend them +from the unfounded charges that they had killed a guard behind the walls of +Soledad Prison . . . +"The evidence will show that my own efforts to free George Jackson always +expressed themselves within the context of a movement to free all the +Soledad Brothers and to free all men and women who are unjustly +imprisoned." +Describing the Soledad Brothers Defense Committee, I told the jury that ". . +. our meetings were open to anyone who wanted to participate in them . . . +We organized demonstrations, rallies, leafleting campaigns and various +other informational and educational activities. . . . +"Members of the jury, you will see when testimony is adduced to this effect, +that we sought out those kinds of activities which permitted us to involve +ever greater numbers of people in the public defense of the Soledad +Brothers." +And emphasizing what we felt would be the critical element of our defense, +I told them that "testimony will make it clear that we felt that the influence +of large numbers of people would help win them an acquittal and that they +would be freed in that way from an unjust prosecution. + + "Members of the jury, we were correct in our understanding of the Soledad +Brothers' case, for Monday morning as you sat here listening to the +prosecution's opening statement, and as you heard that I was not interested +in furthering the movement to free the Soledad Brothers, the ultimate fruits +of our labor were attained. The twelve men and women who, for a period of +many, many months had listened to all the evidence that the prosecution +could muster against the Soledad Brothers, ended up, in the courtroom in +San Francisco, by pronouncing the two surviving Soledad Brothers not +guilty. And if George Jackson had not been struck down by a San Quentin +Prison guard in August of last year, he too would have been freed in that +way from that unjust prosecution." +I continued the statement by describing in detail the activities of the +Soledad Defense Committee, and placing them in the framework of my +experiences in the struggle for Black Liberation and for the rights of all +working people — Chicano, Puerto Rican, Indian, Asian and white. I spoke +about my experiences in the Black Student Council at the university in San +Diego, the Black Student Alliance, the Black Congress, SNCC, the +California Teachers Federation, the Black Panther Party, the Che-Lumumba +Club and the antiwar movement. +I tried to show the jury how my activities around the defense of the Soledad +Brothers were part of a history of involvement in the movement to defend +and free political prisoners such as Huey Newton, the New York Panther +21, Bobby Seale and Ericka Huggins, the Los Angeles Panther 18 and the +seven other brothers from Soledad Prison also charged with killing a guard. +"The evidence will show," I told them, "that I corresponded with the +Soledad 7, and that I expressed to them my love and my compassion and +my solidarity with their struggle. . . . +"The prosecutor has said that this trial has nothing to do with a political +frame-up, but, members of the jury, during the entire time I was involved in +the movement to free the Soledad Brothers, I was the object of an extensive +spy campaign. The prosecutor himself is in possession of numerous reports +made to various police agencies throughout the state of California about my +activities on behalf of the Soledad Brothers. He has police reports on rallies + + where I spoke. He has films of demonstrations where I and others +proclaimed our support for the Soledad Brothers. +"The prosecutor contends that I was not interested in bringing about prison +reform, but he has in his possession police reports made specifically for the +administration at Soledad Prison concerning my activities. +"The prosecutor contends that, during the period prior to August 7, I was a +mere creature of passion, that I was not genuinely striving toward the +elimination of repression in the prisons, but he has evidence that will refute +his own contentions, evidence gathered by an entire network of police spies +and spies from the Department of Corrections on the content of my political +efforts to free George Jackson, Fleeta Drumgo and John Clutchette. +"But, members of the jury, he has told you that you will not see this +evidence. He will present no evidence of that sort. He will present no such +evidence because, if he did, it would show you the process whereby an +innocent person can be set up and accused of outrageous crimes. No, he will +not bring this evidence to you. He will continue to tell you that I am not the +person you see standing before you, but rather an evil, sinister creature +pushed to the brink of disaster by ungovernable emotions and passions." +When the time came to deal with my relationship with Jonathan, I placed it +within the context of the relationships I had developed with the families of +all three Brothers. Referring to the Soledad Brothers Defense Committee, I +told the jury that "Jonathan Jackson was a unique part of our group, for he +brought with him the angry frustrations and concerns of a young man who +had no memories of his older brother except those which had been obscured +by prison bars. Jonathan was a child of seven when his brother was first +taken to prison, and for ten long years he accompanied various members of +his family to various prisons throughout the state of California to visit with +his brother. +"These visits must have left an indelible impression on him about what a +prisoner's life was like, and I know, though he was only seventeen years +old, he must have been extremely and intimately sensitive to the plight, the +frustrations, the feelings of depression and futility that men like James +McClain, Ruchell Magee and William Christmas must have felt. And I + + might say that now, in retrospect, I understand the frustration, the very deep +frustration and the very deep desperation that Jonathan must have been +experiencing." +Next I moved on to the question of the guns and the other physical evidence +which Harris was using to try to prove that I was guilty. I touched upon the +facts which we did not contest: +"This is a sick kind of game which the prosecutor has been playing. He has +invented a scheme, a diagram, a conspiracy, and then he fits his conspirator, +his criminal into that picture. There is a crime scene, a plan. And he seeks +ways of pulling me into it so that it still appears plausible. But since I +committed no crimes and since all my activities were open and above +board, the prosecutor is left with only one alternative. He must shape his +circumstantial case out of the ordinary circumstances of everyday life. And +he leaves it to you, members of the jury, to supply the missing link which +converts ordinary activity into criminal conduct." After two hours of +explaining the outlines of our defense to the jury, I felt confident enough to +tell them: +". . . We have reached the conclusion of our opening statement, and we ask +you to think toward the conclusion of this trial, when you will have sat +patiently, almost to the point of exhaustion, and will have heard all sides of +the heated contest which is to unfold in this courtroom, when you will have +sat in calm reflection and deliberation. We have the utmost confidence that +your verdict will be a just verdict. We have the utmost confidence that your +verdict will be the only verdict that the evidence and justice demand in this +case. We are confident that the case will terminate with your +pronouncement of two words —'Not Guilty'." +Of course, we were not nearly so certain as I had made it appear, for we +knew that some of the jurors were probably more prosecution-prone than +objective judges of fact. The legal team had observed them meticulously +during both the state's presentation and our own. A couple of them seemed +far more engrossed in the story the prosecution had concocted than in the +defense I had presented. Yet at the same time, we thought that a number of +them, such as Ralph Delange, the maintenance electrician, and Mary +Timothy, had listened very carefully to the analysis I had proposed. + + At the end of my statement, I was exhausted and kept wondering whether I +had said the right things in the right way. The outline I had given them was +going to have to serve as the background against which they would judge +months of prosecution testimony. (Harris said, at first, that his case would +last six months.) Had I put it forcefully enough for them to retain our +analysis of the facts — or would they remember only the neat little scheme +the prosecutor had provided? There would be no more argument until the +very end of the trial and the conclusion was so far away. +Coolly and calmly, Judge Arnason assumed control over the courtroom. +"Thank you, Miss Davis. Before we proceed with the calling of the first +witness, we will take a recess at this time, and this will hopefully be the +regular recess of the afternoon, so we will give you a little break time. +Thank you." + +Testimony began. The prosecution called to the stand several women who, +on August 7, 1970, had been listening to Ruchell Magee testify on behalf of +James McClain when Jonathan came into the courtroom. Harris was visibly +stunned when one of the women described McClain's manner as "almost +gentle." +Harris presented to the jury horrifying, bloody photographs, in poster-sized +enlargements. It was only because of Judge Arnason's sense of propriety +that the prosecutor did not succeed in entering into evidence the pictures of +Judge Haley with half his head blown off by a shotgun blast. +I had to close my eyes and keep my anguish and rage to myself when he +brought out the photographs of Jonathan lying dead inside the van, and on +the cement where he had been dragged with a rope. +During the first phase of the testimony, the prosecutor had strategically +decided to avoid all mention of my name. He simply wanted to establish +what had happened at each instant as the rebellion had unfolded. +We used our cross-examination to defend Jonathan, Ruchell, McClain and +Christmas, to refute Harris' allegations that they were brutal terrorists. + + Already this early in the trial, his theories began to erode, both because of +their internal defectiveness and as a result of our attacks during crossexamination. +He could not prove, for example, definitively — "beyond a reasonable +doubt," in judicial parlance — that there had been a demand advanced to +"free the Soledad Brothers." We pursued this because Ruchell had written in +a publicized letter to me that the plan had been totally different — it had not +been to hold hostages until the Soledad Brothers, or any other prisoners, +were freed. It had not even been to guarantee their own escape. They +wanted simply to reach a radio station, Ruchell said, where they could +expose to the world the railroads so many of them had received instead of +trials, the incredibly wretched conditions of their existence behind walls +and, in particular, the recent murder by San Quentin guards of a prisoner +named Fred Billingslea. +Many of the witnesses who had been on the scene in the courtroom had not +heard "Free the Soledad Brothers." Others heard no demand at all. Some +had heard "Free the brothers at Folsom." Captain Teague — the same +Captain Teague who had overseen all the operations around me when I was +in the Marin jail — was certain he had heard "Free all political prioners," +but he admitted that this was a slogan widely used at rallies and +demonstrations of the Left, and could have very well been an exclamation +as opposed to a ransom demand. Sheriff Montanas of Marin County, +according to the theory of the prosecution, had received a telephone call +from McClain from the courtroom. It was during this phone conversation +that McClain is supposed to have demanded the freedom of the Soledad +Brothers in exchange for the hostages. Naturally, everyone was expecting +the sheriff to relate this conversation to the jury from the witness stand. Yet +Montanas never testified for the prosecution. +This is not to say that plenty of his coworkers did not take the stand — and +not only sheriff's deputies from Marin County (many of whom had been +assigned to guard me in the Marin jail), but also cops from all the cities in +the area — San Rafael, Novota — not to mention the San Quentin guards. +Harris tried to recreate with mathematical precision every single instant of +the incident. He became so involved in minutiae — who was standing at + + what point when, and for how many seconds — that he did not even realize +that his interminable procession of witnesses grew tedious and began +visibly to bore some of the jurors. +When Sergeant Murphy from San Quentin testified, Leo cross-examined +him on the policy of the prison regarding escapes. +"And to be certain I understand the significance of that policy, sir, does that +policy mean that if people are attempting to escape, and if they have +hostages, and if the guards are able to prevent that escape, that they are to +prevent that escape even if it means that every hostage is killed?" +Sergeant Murphy's emotionless answer: "That is correct." +"And that means, whether they are holding one judge or five judges, or one +woman or twenty women or one child or twenty children, that the policy of +the San Quentin guards is that, at all costs, they must prevent the escape. Is +that right?" +"That also includes the officers that work in the institution, sir." +"All right. Even if they are holding other officers who work at the +institution, that should not deter the San Quentin correctional officers from +preventing an escape at all costs. Is that right?" +"That is correct." +"In other words, it is more important to prevent the escape than to save +human life. Is that correct?" +"Yes, sir." + +The courtroom was on tenterhooks. Jurors, press and spectators waited +anxiously, intensely, for the prosecutor to reach the critical passage in my +letter to George. But he went on and on, his monotonic words falling flatly +on the otherwise unbroken silence of the hall. + + "‘To choose between various paths of survival means the objective +availability of alternatives. I hope you don't take this as an apologetic +stance. I'm only trying to understand the forces that have led us, Black +women, to where we are now. Why did your mother offer you reprimands +instead of the flaming sword? Which is equivalent to posing the same +question about every other Black woman — and not only with respect to the +sons, but the daughters, too (this is really crucial). In Cuba last summer I +saw some very beautiful Vietnamese warriors — all female. And we know +that the Algerian war for national liberation would have been doomed to +defeat from the very beginning without the active participation of Algerian +women. In Cuba, I saw women patrolling the streets with rifles on their +backs — defending the revolution. But also young compañeras educating +their husbands and lovers — demythologizing machismo. After all, if +women can fight, manage factories, then men ought to be able to help with +the house, children . . . +"But returning to the question: We have learned from our revolutionary +ancestors that no individual act or response can seize the scepter of the +enemy. The slave lashes out against his immediate master, subdues him, +escapes, but he has done nothing more than take the first step in the long +spiral upwards towards liberation. +I could see the beads of perspiration rolling down Albert Harris' face as he +struggled to read my letter to George before the jury. Often, his reading +reminded me of that of a child who knows how to pronounce the syllables, +but is unaware of the sense of what he is reading. +"And often that individual escape is an evasion of the real problem." +Harris read the last sentence as if he were noticing it for the first time. As if +he were realizing that my words offered no proof whatever of my +participation in the August 7 rebellion; that, on the contrary, they tended to +exonerate me from the crimes he had charged me with. Although it +appeared as if he wanted to be done with it and throw the whole bunch of +letters away, he could not stop. He continued, monotonously, falteringly. +"‘It is only when all the slaves are aroused from their slumber, articulate +their goals, choose their leaders, make an unwavering commitment to + + destroy every single obstacle which might prevent them from transcribing +their visions of a new world onto the soil of the earth, into the flesh and +blood of men . . . +'A mother cannot help but cry out for the survival of her own flesh and +blood.'" +Harris read this as if he were a foreign student of English repeating a +sentence uttered by the teacher. I looked into the jury box. A few of the +women, particularly Mrs. Timothy, seemed to be straining to understand his +motive in reading these passages. +"We have been forbidden to reach out for the truth about survival — that it +is a collective enterprise and must be offensive, rather than defensive — for +us, the principle of survival dictates the annihilation of all that compels us +to order our lives around that principle." +He pronounced "annihilation" with extra emphasis, as was the case with +every word which he thought had something to do with violence. +"Anxieties, frustrations engendered by the specter of a child dead of +starvation focus our minds and bodies on the most immediate necessities of +life. The "job" harangue, the "make yourself something" harangue. +Exhortations grounded in fear, a fear brought into being and sustained by a +system which could not subsist without the poor, the reserve army of +unemployed, the scapegoat. +"Survival instincts perverted and misdirected by a structure which coerces +me to kick my jobless man out of the house so the social worker doesn't +stop those welfare checks which I need to feed my hungry child." +He rushed through this sentence in order to make it as unobtrusive as +possible. +"A labyrinthine network of murderous institutions in order to allow my man +no flexibility, no room, lets me receive the checks, lets me in the back door +to scrub floors (so the reserve labor force remains alive) and has the +audacity to consider that a favor in return for which I must submit to the + + white rapist and/or subjugate my Black man. The principle of (un) Just +Exchange is omnipotent." +Harris pulled out his wrinkled white handkerchief and wiped the sweat from +his face. This pause was obviously deliberate. He was about to read the +section he felt was most incriminating of all. It was as if by setting this +passage off with a pause, he could make the jury forget all the other ideas +expressed in the letter and focus their attention and their memories +exclusively on these things. +"Frustrations, aggressions cannot be repressed indefinitely. Eventual +explosion must be expected. But if the revolutionary path is buried beneath +an avalanche of containment mechanisms, we, Black women, aim our +bullets in the wrong direction and moreover, we don't even understand the +weapon. +'For the Black female, the solution is not to become less aggressive, not to +lay down the gun, but to learn how to set the sights correctly, aim +accurately, squeeze rather than jerk and not be overcome by the damage. +We have to learn how to rejoice when pigs' blood is spilled.'" +Harris had spoken slowly, with all the determination and drama he could +muster. +I hoped that the jury was not as unintelligent as he counted on their being. +Some of them must have heard of metaphor. +Harris reverted to his previous monotone. +"But all this presupposes that the Black male will have purged himself of +the myth that his mother, his woman, must be subdued before he can wage +war on the enemy. Liberation is a dialectical movement — the Black man +cannot free himself as a Black man unless the Black woman can liberate +herself from all this muck — and it works the other way around. And this is +only the beginning. +'Is it coincidental that Leroi Jones and Ron Karenga and the whole lot of +cowardly cultural nationalists demand the total submission of the Black + + female as rectification for the "century-long wrongs she has done the Black +Male." Like you said, George, there are certain obvious criteria for +measuring the extent to which counter-revolution is being nourished by +those who call themselves our companions in struggle. Their attitude +toward whites is one criterion. Their attitude toward women, another.'" +I thought that Harris wanted to steer the jury's attention away from my +criticism of the indiscriminately anti-white nationalists in the movement. +He was depending on them to instinctively associate me with the anti-white +wing of the Black Liberation Movement, and thus to be reinforced in their +already existing political biases. +"Women's liberation in the revolution is inseparable from the liberation of +the male." +He read this last sentence as if it had no apparent meaning." +"I have rambled. I hope I have not been talking in tautologies." +Here, he had recourse to the same intentional pause as before. The last part +of the letter was what he wanted to read most dramatically, most +emphatically. This is what he wanted them to retain. +"Jon and I have made a truce. As long as I try to combat my tendencies to +remind him of his youth, he will try to combat his male chauvinism. Don't +come down on me before you understand — I never said Jon was too young +for anything, I just mentioned how incredible it is that in spite of Catholic +school, etc., he refused to allow society to entrap him in adolescence. But +still, he doesn't dig any mention of age." +The words had rung out strangely when Harris had tried to project his +voice: "I never said Jon was too young for anything . . ." This phrase, which +I had casually scratched down on paper, this phrase, with which I meant to +tell George that I knew how much he loved and respected his brother, this +phrase, Harris wanted to utilize as a virtual confirmation of his conspiracy +theory. But he had just started; there was still more: + + "The night after I saw you in court, for the first time in months, I dreamt (or +at least the dream was significant enough to work its way into my +consciousness) we were together, fighting pigs, winning. We were learning +to know each other." +It was as if Harris wanted the jury to think that I was so wrapped up in this +so-called conspiracy that I conspired even in my dreams. +"I love you. Revolutionary Greetings from Che-Lumumba and the Soledad +Brothers Defense Committee. Angela." +When Harris reached the end of the letter, he inhaled deeply and allowed a +tremendous sigh to escape. He did not display the confidence which one +would have expected from a prosecutor who has just presented critical +portions of his evidence. On the contrary, his demeanor seemed to bespeak +a profound sense of defeat. And his sigh was a sigh of relief — as if he +never thought he would reach the end of this letter he had been forced to +recite like a schoolboy. +The ambivalence I felt was disarming. On the one hand, seeing the letter as +evidence, I had the impulse to proclaim once more the utter bankruptcy of +the state's case — it was with this kind of evidence that they had kept me in +jail for those sixteen months. But on the other hand, I felt depressed at +having to see my most intimate feelings hurled out into the public like that +through the calculating and cold presentation of the prosecutor. And the +unmitigated grief was revived, the grief at Jon's death, the grief at George's +death, and the burning anger at their murderers. I couldn't cry, I couldn't +scream. I had to sit there at the counsel table, waiting for the next piece of +evidence which the prosecutor was going to use to try to convince the jury +of my guilt. +One of the next witnesses to take the stand was Mrs. Otelia Young. A Black +woman, about sixty years of age, she was rather short, and her back was +bent as if from decades of hard labor. But she approached the stand with +firm, determined steps. Her face, although not quite in a frown, revealed an +almost angry seriousness. I wondered whether people were interpreting this +determination, this seriousness, as being directed against me; the jurors +looked puzzled. + + Mrs. Young had lived in the flat downstairs from me in the house on 35th +Place. We had exchanged greetings numerous times, and I had used the +telephone in her apartment on several occasions. I had liked her a lot — +there was a vitality about her that was obviously the secret of her survival. +The sparkle in her eyes and her pleasantly caustic sense of humor had made +me want to pursue a more than casual friendship with her. But there had +been no time. +She had seen Jonathan at the house a few times, and they had hit it off quite +well, both of them enjoying the subdued game of dozens they played. With +unmistakable affection, Jon would say, "How are you doing, you old hag?" +And before he had a chance to catch his breath, she would retaliate with +"What have you been up to, you crazy yellow-haired brat?" And they would +go on. +Now she was being asked by the state to testify against me. +Harris was trying to set the stage for his conspiracy theory. By his usual +method of trying to convert everything I had done in the period prior to the +Marin rebellion into conspiratorial activity, he was going to attempt to +prove — so he said in his opening remarks — that I had obtained the 35th +Place flat expressly for the purpose of conspiring with Jonathan, who, he +said, had also moved into the place. He was calling Mrs. Otelia Young to +prove his hypothesis. +Yes, she said, she had seen Jonathan Jackson at the house on 35th Place. +Had he been there often? No, not often, just a few times. Had she seen me +moving into the flat, bringing my things in a white station wagon? Yes, she +said, she had seen the station wagon. Was Jonathan with me when I moved +in — had he moved the things upstairs? No, the station wagon was full of +books, and I carried them all up alone. +Bewildered expressions were all over the courtroom. We could tell that the +jurors were wondering why Harris had bothered to call Mrs. Young to the +stand at all. We had already figured that he would call all the Black people +he could muster — almost regardless of what they would say. A racist ploy +— based on the idea that jurors would think twice about my innocence if + + Black people were acting as state's witnesses. But obviously Mrs. Young's +testimony had backfired. +One thing that stood out particularly was her answer to Harris' question +regarding her employment status. +"Do you spend a good deal of time at work?" +"Yes, I work — I work from seven o'clock in the morning to eight o'clock, +eight-thirty at night." She spoke angrily and from deep down in her throat, +sending her words thundering across the courtroom. Everyone understood +immediately that she was a domestic worker in some white family's +household, doing its drudgery every day from breakfast time to dinner time. +I wondered whether some of the jurors thought back to what I had written +George about Black women. Did they realize that I had been writing about +Otelia Young and all her sisters in the struggle for survival? +It was apparent that Harris had interrupted the examination without having +brought it to a conclusion. He had been the aggressor in this duel, but he +could not summon up the courage to fight it out to the end. +There was no need for us to cross-examine, so Mrs. Young stepped down +from the stand as proudly as she had walked up to it. Her eyes were aimed +directly in front of her — toward the door in the back of the courtroom. It +was therefore startling to us all when she reached the railing and abruptly +turned in my direction to give me an immense, almost extravagant, smile. +With the old sparkle back in her eyes, she greeted me with an affectionate, +prolonged "Hi," and waved her hand the way one waves at little children. +March had been rapidly consumed by our efforts to pick a jury that would +penetrate the smoke screen of the scores of witnesses the state was calling. +(Their original list had included over four hundred.) Now there was nothing +left of April. +I had long since forgotten how to relax; though I could never become really +settled in the mode of existence imposed upon us, there was something very +frightening about the way the trial developed a life of its own — a life that +was devouring our lives. Monday through Thursday, Margaret and I would + + rush out of the house for our nine-fifteen appointment with the judge, jury +and prosecutor, as if we were running off to a job or trying to make it to +classes. On Fridays, I had to report to the Santa Clara County Probation +Department so that they could be sure that I had not jumped bail. +Saturdays and Sundays were our meeting days — days on which we +evaluated our legal positions, days of criticism, self-criticism, arguments, +and finally collective agreement on what was to be our courtroom posture +for the coming week. Then there were meetings with the staff of the +Defense Committee, where ideas for mass dissemination of trial literature +were aired and formulated, where demonstrations and rallies were planned, +where the global defense effort was coordinated with the events unfolding +inside the courtroom. +But it was not only my life that had been appropriated by this case. +Margaret, Howard, Leo, Dobby — they worked incessantly. Charlene, +Kendra, Franklin, Fania, Bettina, Stephanie, Rob, Victoria, Rodney, and all +the other leaders of the mass campaign had ordered their lives entirely +around building the movement. Even on the day Fania's baby was born, she +had spent a few hours at the jail discussing the campaign with me. Several +months later, she asked Mother to keep Eisa with her in Birmingham so that +all her time could be devoted to organizing. When Mother traveled around +the country and through Canada, appealing to people to support me and all +political prisoners, she carried Eisa around with her in her arms. +On May 4, one of the prosecution's star witnesses told the story the +prosecution hoped would convince the jury, definitively, of my guilt. Alden +Flemming, a plump, pink-complexioned man whose clothes sort of hung off +him, was the owner of a service station situated at the foot of one of the +entrances to the Marin County Civic Center. He testified that he had seen +me with Jonathan at his service station on August 6, the day before the +revolt. Cross-examination revealed that he had originally identified me +from a group of photographs so carefully selected as to leave him no other +choice. The group included several mug shots of straight-haired Black +women with their names written across the photos. There was a picture each +of Fania, Penny Jackson, Georgia Jackson, and about six or seven shots of +me, all taken during the highly publicized June 19 Soledad rally, which was + + also the day I was fired from my UCLA position. In some of the photos I +am speaking into a microphone, and one of them even showed Jonathan +walking at my side. No one could have failed to miss the point — +Flemming was being asked to identify Angela Davis. +In court, he not only identified all of my pictures in the group, he pointed to +my sister Fania as well and said he wasn't quite sure, but he thought that the +picture of Penny Jackson might also be me. When Leo asked him about his +experiences in relating to Black people, he hastily informed us that 20 +percent of his customers were Black — which seemed incredible in a +county whose population was barely 3 percent Black. +"Do you have any experience in having seen Black women with Afro hair +styles?" Leo asked. +"Yes." +"Have you seen them many times in your life?" +"Since it has been popular." +"All right, and how long would you say that the Afro hair style has been a +popular hair style for Black women?" +"Oh, maybe seven years." +"And I take it that during that period of time you have seen many Black +women wearing Afro hair styles? Would that be a fair statement?" +"Twenty percent of the people that come into my station." +"You mean all of the people that come into your station wear Afro hair +styles?" +"I would say fifteen of the twenty percent." +"So you have seen an awful lot of Black women with Afro hair styles?" +"Right." + + Then Leo pursued another line. +"How many light-complexioned Black people have you had the experience +of seeing in your lifetime?" +"As fair as this lady is, I would say not more than ten." +(Any Black person or anyone who has spent any time around Black people +would know that if 20 percent of his customers were really Black, he would +have seen a great number of people with skin as light as mine, and many +with much lighter skin.) +"Is that one of the things that helped you identify her?" +"Yes." +"Anything else?" +"Her features." +And when Leo asked him to be more specific in describing what it was that +was outstanding about my features, he said: +"Well, she has, I would say, large eyes. The cheek bones are higher. I +wouldn't say she has as strong a face, as heavy a face as what colored +people have." +Then Leo asked the inevitable question, mockingly, pronouncing "colored +people" with Flemming's own accent. +"Is there a certain kind of face that 'colored people,' in your opinion, usually +have?" +After stammering a bit, Flemming finally said, "Well, I would say the ones I +have dealt with, their faces are flatter, +"Faces are flatter?" +"Yes." + + "And Miss Davis' face was not flat, and that made her unusual. Is that +right?" +"Well, I — I don't think she has a flat face." +Leo looked Flemming in the eye, allowed a noticeable pause to intervene, +then said, "Mr. Flemming, don't you think that all colored people look +alike?" +And, as if he were definitively proving his veracity before the jury, he +answered without hesitation, "Not in Miss Davis' case." +It was clear that this man's attitudes were so permeated with racism that he +would be unable to make an honest identification of a Black person even if +his life depended on it. The results of our cross-examination were never +published in the established press — what received all the publicity was the +direct examination by Harris, the scenario of which, we believed, had been +perfected and rehearsed beforehand. +The jury appeared to be impressed by a bit of Perry Mason dramatics that +Howard came up with. Unbeknownst to me, he had asked Kendra a week +before to drive him out to Marin, where they stopped in the Flemming +Service Station. As he was permitted to do with any of the prosecutor's +witnesses, he questioned Flemming about the content of the statement he +had given the attorney general. Before they left, however, Kendra got out of +the car, asked Flemming to check the oil, and, making herself as obvious as +she could, she engaged him in a bit of casual conversation. +It came as a surprise to me when Leo asked Flemming whether he had ever +seen the Black woman sitting next to me behind the counsel table. I +assumed he was merely trying to confuse the witness. Flemming answered +that although he had never seen her in person, he thought he remembered +seeing a news story in which her picture appeared. As it turned out, +although he had insisted that he had seen no more than ten Black women as +light-skinned as I, he had absolutely no recollection of having talked to +Kendra in his service station. + + While the lawyers were hammering away at the most important evidence of +the prosecution, the sisters and brothers on the Committee stoked the fires +in the streets, among the people. The more the movement for my freedom +increased in numbers, strength and confidence, the more imperative it +became for everyone to see it not as something exceptional but as a small +part of a great fight against injustice, one bough in a solidly rooted tree of +resistance. It was not only political repression, but racism, poverty, police +brutality, drugs, and all the myriad ways Black, Brown, Red, Yellow and +white working people are kept chained to misery and despair. And it was +not only within the United States of America, but in countries like Vietnam, +with the bombs falling like rain from U.S. B52's, burning and +dismembering innocent children. +We wanted the culminating mass demonstration of the campaign to bring all +these struggles together in a single, unified dramatization of our power. All +our separate movements — political prisoners, welfare rights, national +liberation, labor, women, antiwar — might generate storms here and there. +But only a mighty union of them all could beget the great hurricane to +topple the whole edifice of injustice. +Many other organizations joined our Committee in issuing a call for a Rally +against Racism, Repression and the War, to be held at the site of my trial — +San Jose, California — on the twenty-sixth of May. The bail conditions +prohibited me from being present at the rally. However, I was fortunate that +the people who lived across the street from the park, directly behind the +podium, put their house fully at our disposal. I watched and listened to the +rally from a room in their attic. +The crowd was not only impressive in its numbers — thousands came from +throughout the state — but, more important, because of its composition, +which was evenly divided between Black, Chicano and white. And it wasn't +the usual crowd of demonstration-going politicos, particularly since so +many of them came from San Jose, which knew no long tradition of radical +political protest. One could sense the pulsating freshness and enthusiasm of +those who felt impelled, for the first time in their lives, to add their voices +to this united demand for justice. + + The speakers included Richard Hatcher, the Black mayor of Gary, Indiana; +Sister Mary McAllister, one of the defendants in the Harrisburg 8 Trial; +Phillip de la Cruz from the United Farmworkers; Raul Ruiz representing La +Raza Unida Party; Pat Sumi, who spoke on the relation between the +women's movement and repression, and Franklin Alexander, speaking on +behalf of our Committee. +When the speeches were over and the multicolored crowd was hoarse from +screaming its approval, no one could deny that at least a spiritual victory +had been won. All that was necessary now was to carefully plot our next +moves and skillfully execute them, both inside the courtroom and out in the +streets. + +Over the last months, the lawyers — particularly Dobby and Margaret — +had put together an impressive assembly of defense witnesses. We had +known from the outset that we had to worry not so much about contesting +the facts of the case — since there was no clear-cut factual case against me +— as about the politics implied in the prosecutor's presentation. Since the +prosecutor, in a last-ditch effort, had resorted to his passion theory, we were +going to have to present the true picture of my involvement with the +Soledad case, especially with George, and provide, for the jury, a panoramic +view of my previous political involvement, particularly as it concerned +political prisoners. We were in a dilemma because, while we wanted to +present our witnesses, the emptiness of the prosecutor's case was so obvious +that a defense was not really necessary to crack it. Harris had not proved me +guilty beyond a reasonable doubt. Thus we were under no obligation +whatever to prove that I was innocent. +We had several long, rather heated meetings on what the nature of the +defense should be. Among the legal team and campaign leaders close to the +legal situation, some felt that the prosecution was so flimsy that to present a +defense would be to confer upon it a legitimacy and credibility that it could +not claim on its own. I felt, at first, that we should go on with the full-blown +defense we had planned, not so much because a defense was legally +necessary to my particular case as because I saw it as a tremendously +effective way to expose the government's repressive methods of silencing + + all its opponents. Perhaps the firmness with which I defended this position +also had something to do with my subjective unwillingness to throw months +of preparation out the window. Margaret, Dobby and I had been working +together for ages, it seemed, on my testimony and the political evidence +which would be presented through other witnesses. +The advocates of the "no defense" posture reminded us that throughout the +trial we had been exposing these methods of repression — and there was +yet the final argument in which it would all be summed up. And redirecting +our attention to the trial itself, they pointed out that we had told the jury +throughout that the burden of proof lay with the prosecutor — not with the +defense. If the prosecutor could not prove his case "beyond a reasonable +doubt," then we were not required to utter a word of defense. If we +presented a defense which spanned weeks and months, the jurors might +think we were afraid of something they themselves had missed during the +presentation of the state's case. But on the other hand, if there were no +defense at all, the jury might think we were silent because we had nothing +to say in response. +After the arguments were over and the tempers had subsided, in the end we +all agreed upon a third approach to the defense — a short line of witnesses +with testimony that was succinct both in the factual and the political points. +The end was near. After Leo had argued the motion for a directed verdict, +which Arnason predictably denied, we put on our two-and-a-half-day +defense. Several comrades, a friend and a lawyer whom I had seen in San +Francisco during the days prior to the Revolt, testified about my reasons for +being in the Bay Area at that time. We examined the friend whose house I +was visiting when I learned about the Revolt and the death of Jonathan. My +roommate Tamu took the stand to give evidence about the weapons. She +explained that the guns and ammunition were used by members of the CheLumumba Club for target practice and that the place where they were kept +— in the house on 45th — was easily accessible to a whole number of +sisters and brothers. Our final witness was Dr. Robert Buckout, an expert on +eyewitness testimony. He described experiments and showed slides which +demonstrated that people have a natural tendency to fill in details +themselves about individuals and events they cannot fully remember. One + + experiment which seemed to impress the jury involved a white college +student who walked around on a campus with a black bag on his head. As it +turned out, large numbers of those who were later questioned about him +were certain they had seen a Black man. +We closed our defense, Harris put several rebuttal witnesses on the stand +and then made his closing argument before the jury. His confidence had +eroded considerably since the opening day of the trial, and I had the feeling +he just wanted to get the whole thing over with. +Leo presented the closing argument for the defense. There were moments +when I became so involved in his presentation — which was eloquent and +moving — that I found myself forgetting that it was my life at stake. He +closed the argument by referring to the defense lawyers: +"We have carried on our shoulders a great responsibility. We've tried to +carry that responsibility with truth and with dignity. With these last few +words of mine, we are now going to transfer that responsibility from our +shoulders to yours. We hope that in so doing that when you twelve people, +tried and true, write the final chapter in the case of the People vs. Angela +Davis, you will be able to say that you were chosen, you served, you +considered and you brought back the only verdict that could comport with +justice in this case. And that is a verdict of not guilty. I'm sure you will." +That Friday morning shortly before noon, the jury retired to the hidden +room upstairs. Courtroom spectators, movement activists, press people, +gathered on the grass in front of the courthouse to participate in or observe +the vigil organized by the Committee. The lawn outside the courthouse was +crowded with signs, children, food, dogs and games. +Horst, a journalist from the GDR who had been with the trial from the +beginning, had been asking us out to lunch for weeks. Always we had to +decline because we were meeting about something during lunch breaks. +With the jury out, there was nothing left to meet about, so I went along to +lunch with Horst, Margaret, Stephanie, Kendra, Franklin, Victoria, Rodney, +Benny and Sylvia. We were still in the bar waiting to be seated when one of +the waiters called me to the phone which the bartender pulled out from +behind the counter. + + No one said a word as I picked up the receiver. It was Fania. +"Angela. Wait a minute. The judge wants to talk to you." +"What's going on?" I asked. "What does the judge want with me?" +"I don't know any more than you. He only asked me if I knew where you +were. I have to tell him you're on the line." +"It's the judge," I said in a loud whisper to the others, with my hand over the +mouthpiece. We all thought the inevitable: +"A verdict already!" The intervening silence was long and made me wonder +whether he was coming at all. +But he finally picked up the receiver and asked, "Miss Davis? Where are +you?" +Fania knew where we were. I had a funny feeling that there might have +been some reason for keeping this from Judge Arnason. But why would she +have called in the first place if she didn't want him to know where we were? +"We're at the Plateau Seven," I answered. "Why?" +Ignoring my question, and with a great urgency in his voice, he said, "Don't +leave. Stay there until I contact you again." He switched off the +conversation as abruptly as he had begun. +Before we had time to find words for our many speculations — a verdict? +jury tampering? threats? — men in plain clothes, obviously policemen, +slipped into the bar and planted themselves at various points in the room. +Someone tried to reduce the tension by suggesting that we order our meals. +The waiter led us through a corridor, where we noticed more +plainclothesmen apparently trying to be inconspicuous, into a private dining +area. The room was much too large for our small group and the table +appeared to have been set for a banquet — certainly not for us. Franklin, +Victoria, Rodney and Benny were quite worried about our security. What if +there had been a threat — and it was about to be carried out? Franklin was + + going to check out the restaurant floor in order to see whether anything +unusual was going on, but he was stopped by a policeman who had posted +himself on the other side of the door to our room. +"I thought there was some reason for this room," Franklin said when he +returned to the table. "They've actually locked us up in here, and policemen +are guarding the doors." +A few minutes later Howard came in with Lieutenant Tamm, the public +relations man for the sheriff's department. Howard was out of breath. +"There's been a hijacking and they think the hijackers want you to come +with them." +We were all stunned. It didn't make any sense at all. +"The judge wants a meeting. Dobby and Leo are already there. You and +Margaret should come with me." +Lieutenant Tamm said nothing. +Outside the Plateau Seven, two police cars were waiting. The meeting in +court was brief and shed no further light on the situation. "I'm not taking +you into custody, Miss Davis," Arnason said in the presence of all the +attorneys, "but for your own safety, I'm asking you to stay here in the +courtroom until we get this problem solved." +It had not occurred to me before that moment that they might think that I +was involved in staging the hijacking. After all, if I had really wanted to +leave, there were less risky ways to do it and I needn't have waited until the +deliberations began. +Leo and Dobby had ascertained a few more details. According to the FBI +agent, who had stationed himself there in the courthouse, a plane had been +commandeered by four Black men after taking off in Seattle. Demands had +been transmitted over the plane's radio. The agent said that when they +landed at the San Francisco Airport, they wanted me to be at the end of the +runway with $500,000 and five parachutes. (There were supposed to be four +men.) I was to wear a white dress. + + Fortunately, I was dressed in red. If I had happened to put on a white dress +that morning, some people undoubtedly would have been convinced that I +had a part in the hijacking. +Since there was no telling how long we were going to be closed up in the +courtroom, Howard arranged for the family to join us. +Lieutenant Tamm came in and announced that the hijackers had plastic +explosives on board and that they were threatening, if their demands were +not met, to blow up the plane with its nearly one hundred passengers. +While we sat around in the courtroom, Leo and Dobby were listening, in the +judge's chambers, for more developments in the hijacking. Leo came out +and informed us that under no conditions would Arnason allow me to be +taken to the airport. Later Dobby came over, shaking her head and smiling +wryly. "You won't believe what just happened. Apparently the plane just +landed at Oakland Airport. The FBI agent was on the phone, in a panic, +telling someone to get the plane back into the air — all their agents are in +San Francisco dressed up as airplane attendants; there's only one agent in +Oakland." +It was about seven o'clock when the real story of the hijacking finally came +to light. And it had absolutely nothing to do with me, white dresses or +parachutes. My name, in fact, had never once been mentioned by the +hijackers. There weren't even four hijackers. All these embellishments were +tacked onto the story while it moved from the radio control tower through +the FBI to us. We couldn't help speculating that the FBI had tried to draw +me into the hijacking in order to disrupt the jury deliberations. +The San Jose News was on street corners all over the city, carrying the +headline story HIJACKERS DEMAND ANGELA, based on the earlier +erroneous FBI reports. Although the judge had ordered all televisions +removed from the jurors' motel rooms, there was still no guarantee that one +of them might not catch a glimpse of a headline somewhere between the +courthouse and their motel rooms. If one of the jurors did see the newspaper +and was influenced by it, a mistrial could be declared. We could only hope +that they knew nothing. + + Out of all the chaos of the first day of deliberations, there was one +undisputed cause for celebration. Ms. Mary Timothy was elected +forewoman of the jury. From the very beginning we had considered her as +among the most honest and most objective of the jurors. During the voir +dire we had been heartened to learn that her son had refused to be inducted +into the U.S. Army. During the period when the bombing of Vietnam was +particularly fierce, she had come to court wearing a button bearing the +three-pronged peace symbol. Throughout the trial we had directed the jury's +attention to the prosecutor's efforts to exploit the prevailing stereotypes +about women, persistently attacking his case for its attempt to portray me as +an irrational, emotion-driven female. That Ms. Timothy had been chosen to +preside over the discussions indicated that members of the jury were +thinking about the question of social discrimination against women. Their +first active gesture as a jury was a rejection of the notion that only men are +qualified to lead. +Howard had a theory about the deliberations, which we heard him expound +repeatedly during the last days of the trial. If they decided to acquit, it +would be a verdict which was unanimous from the start, they would stay +out not more than a few hours. If they stayed out longer than a day, they +would probably be out for a very long time and, in the end, would be unable +to reach a decision. Friday we were so concerned about that plane en route +from Seattle to San Francisco that we hardly had time to worry about the +verdict. Saturday morning, Howard was saying that they would be in before +lunch. So when the clerk called Moorpark Apartments to say that the judge +wanted to see one of the lawyers, we thought they might be nearing a +verdict. Anxious and silent, we all went down to the courthouse. But there +was no verdict at hand, only a request from the jury to have some of the +evidence delivered to them. However, our spirits were lifted somewhat +when we noticed that the note to the judge was signed "Mary Timothy, +foreMs." We took this little bit of humor as a sign that there was no outand-out battle in progress. +Outside on the grass, the vigil was in full force. After shooing away the +reporters, Victoria, Rodney and I walked through the crowd, eating +sandwiches from the big basket of food, playing with the babies and +thanking people for their encouragement. + + Among the vigilants was Andy Montgomery, one of the San Jose Black +community's leading spokesmen and an active member of the San Jose +Defense Committee. It was he who had found an office and lodgings for the +members of the legal staff. He had spoken on my behalf at meetings of the +Black Caucus and had gotten members of the caucus involved in the +campaign. He had successfully appealed to the members of his church to +join the campaign and was generally responsible for much of the local +activity around the case. Friday we had promised that, in the event the jury +was still deliberating, we would have dinner at his house. As it turned out, +everyone who had any connection with the case at all was either inside +Andy's house or outside in the street — my family, the lawyers and their +families, Bettina, Kendra and Franklin, Rodney, Victoria, and members of +the San Jose Committee. +The dinner at Andy's was supposed to be a respite from our purgatory of +waiting. But tensions were too agonizing for quiet relaxation. When I +arrived at Andy's, a double rope was turning in the middle of the street, and +Margaret was jumping to screams of "Faster! Faster!" I joined her. After +getting entangled in the ropes a few times, I got it and didn't want to stop. It +was the way we jumped rope when as a child I spent the summer in New +York. Bettina jumped, Howard, Leo, Charlene — and we even managed to +persuade my father to join in. When he got started, he didn't want to stop +either. A little way down the street, Benny had gotten a football game +together and we shouted at the players for disrupting our rope-jumping with +misthrown passes. +When the chicken and ribs, potato salad, greens and cornbread were ready, +we ate as though we were celebrating the end of a long famine. No one +talked very much about the trial, but the word had begun to circulate in the +neighborhood that we were over at Andy's, and for the rest of the evening +there was an interminable stream of visitors. +In the end, we discovered that we had played a little too hard — Kendra +was the casualty of our premature celebration. During the football game she +had twisted her ankle, and Franklin had to take her to the hospital for xrays, an Ace bandage and crutches. Perhaps we had overdone it, but the + + tightness in my chest had almost disappeared, and worrying about Kendra's +sprained ankle made us slightly less anxious about the jury's decision. + +*** + +JUNE 4 +It was Sunday morning. We assumed we were at the beginning of an all-day +wait, and hadn't yet bothered to check in with one another. I had spent the +night at Leo and Geri's Moorpark apartment. Leo and I had gotten absorbed +in our chronic debate about the weight of the mass movement in influencing +the direction of the case. +All of a sudden, Howard broke into the apartment, out of breath — he had +run all the way from his apartment on the other side of the complex. He +simply told us that it was time to go. For an instant, I didn't even understand +what "time to go" meant. The idea that the jury would reach a verdict on +Sunday morning was so unlikely that I had not even bothered to get +dressed. Without telling him, I had more or less accepted Howard's theory +of the deliberations. +The last moments were the most agonizing of all. We had been waiting for +two days while the jury deliberated, for three months while the trial +unfolded, for twenty-two months since the Marin County revolt, and now +we were told that we had to wait until the press assembled before we could +hear the pronouncement of the verdict. In that back room where we had +waited so many times for court to convene, my lawyers kept reassuring me +and themselves that there was no way the verdict could be anything but Not +Guilty. Besides, with the shabbiness of the case and the mass movement +pushing on, there was never any question of a guilty verdict. And, in fact, +we had never considered that as an alternative — it was either acquittal or +hung jury. Now a hung jury could be ruled out: they had already announced +that they had reached a verdict. There was, however, one possibility we +were all reluctant to discuss — a compromise verdict, which, though + + theoretically illegal, happened all the time in jury trials where multiple +charges had been lodged against defendants. But no one had said, at least +not in my presence, "The only thing we really have to worry about is an +acquittal on the murder and kidnapping counts and a conviction on the +conspiracy." +Leo tried to cut away some of the tension by pointing out that we would +know the moment the jury entered the courtroom: the expressions on their +faces — especially Ms. Timothy's and Mr. Delange's — would betray the +decision they had reached. Of course, none of this helped very much. The +suspense, the anxiety — all this was beyond remedy. I couldn't sit down for +more than a minute without jumping up to pace off some of the strain. And +when I began to pace, I had to sit down again, for the room was far too +small to contain my energy. I could only clench my teeth and dig my +fingernails deep into my palms. Margaret kept telling me that all we had to +do was to keep cool for a few minutes more; everything would soon be +behind us. Kendra was fighting hard to keep herself together. +When we went into the courtroom area, people were crowded into the +corridor, but apparently members of the press still hadn't arrived; and we +had to wait some more. Out in the corridor Mother insisted that she wanted +to wait outside while the verdict was announced. As I tried to calm her and +reassure her that I would soon be free, my own strength and my own +confidence began to return. +Somewhere in the corridor crowd, a voice began to hum softly — a Negro +spiritual. Someone else picked up the tune, adding the words "Woke up this +morning with my mind staid on freedom." Before long everyone, including +my mother, had joined in. Captain Johnson, who had been the terror of both +the press and the people attending the trial, walked out, looked around, and +for the first time that anyone could remember, said nothing to object. +At last we took our places in the courtroom. Howard, Dobby and Leo sat at +the table, and I sat against the barrier with Margaret on one side and Kendra +on the other. The bailiff announced the entrance of the judge. Within +minutes the jury began to walk through the door. At the sight of the first +juror, Margaret, who had been the calmest of us all, let out a muffled "Oh + + no," and slid down into her chair. I leaned over and gave her the same +words of comfort she had given me. She sobbed softly. +I looked at the jurors filing in, searching for reassuring signs in their faces. +But they were all expressionless, as if they had purged themselves of every +trace of emotion. I broke out in a sweat and felt my whole body go weak. +There was not a hint of the usual warmth in Ms. Timothy's face, which was +cold and marble-like, and the sparkle in Delange's eyes had turned into a +dull stare directed at no one in particular. Like a fragment from a broken +record, Leo's words roared through my brain. "We'll know immediately +what the verdict is, from the expressions on their faces." +During the judicial ritual preceding the reading of the verdict, I was +searching for some explanation of this sudden transformation of the jury's +posture. Their faces said "Conviction." "Guilty." But this was impossible, +illogical, absurd. Unless the whole thing had been a grand hoax. Unless +they had consciously tried to delude us these last months, and these glacial +stares were the reality behind the masks they had finally shedded. I wanted +to rush over and rescue my mother from the consequences. Born of +desperation and incomprehension, these disjointed thoughts shook me so +furiously that I had to strain to hear the clerk as he read the papers Ms. +Timothy had turned over to the court. +The first count was murder. There was a loud, clear "Not Guilty." Heavy +sobs fell into the moment of silence that followed. It was Franklin. It felt +like everyone was breathing deep and hard and with the rhythm of a single +being. The second count was kidnapping. "Not Guilty" rang out again. +Franklin was crying louder. I did not think I could hold on much longer. But +I had to hear the last verdict, the conspiracy count. My right hand tightened +around Kendra's, the other around Margaret's. +When the clerk read off "Not Guilty" for the third time, we screamed, +laughed, cried and embraced — completely oblivious to the banging of the +judge's gavel. He wanted to close the trial with the same decorum with +which he had presided. He read a rather long quote from Twelve Men by G. +K. Chesterton, congratulated defense, prosecution and jury, dismissed the +last from their duties and declared case number 52613, People of California +vs. Angela Y. Davis, closed. + + In her joy, my mother looked so beautiful she reminded me of the +photographs of her when she was very young. I felt happier for her than for +anyone else, including myself. +The last thing I felt like was a press conference — I didn't feel like +structuring my thoughts and emotions in order to articulate them before +cameras and microphones — yet it was the only way I could speak to and +thank all the people. As we entered the pressroom, the members of the jury +were just concluding their conference. Never having exchanged a word with +any of them, I was not sure how to relate to them. I stood at the door. The +juror to leave the platform first was the one whom we had all thought was +most sympathetic to the prosecution. I wondered what her reaction would +be. When she approached, I extended one hand, but she reached out with +both her arms, hugged me and said, "I am so happy for you." All the other +jurors followed her example. +A crowd had assembled in front of the courthouse. As soon as they heard +the verdict, people had rushed down to the Civic Center. With the gag rule +and the bail restrictions behind us, I could speak before a crowd for the first +time in the twenty-two months since the revolt. I thanked them for coming, +for all their support, and said that it was time to deploy our forces for the +freedom of Ruchell, the San Quentin 6 and all other political prisoners. +From the courthouse we went over to Gloria and David's house, where my +parents had been staying. Family, lawyers, friends, comrades, Committee +workers, and most of the jurors — we all sat in the sun on the grass in the +backyard. I sank deep into the moment, husbanding this delight, hoarding it. +For I knew it would be short-lived. Work. Struggle. Confrontation lay +before us like a rock-strewn road. We would walk it . . . +But first the grass, the sun . . . and the people. + + Epilogue +At the victory party the evening of the verdict, our joy knew no bounds and +our celebration no restraints. Yet in the echoes of our laughter and the +frenzy of our dancing there was also caution. If we saw this moment of +triumph as a conclusion and not as a point of departure, we would be +ignoring all the others who remained draped in chains. We knew that to +save their lives, we had to preserve and build upon the movement. +This was the concern of the NUCFAD staff meeting called by Charlene on +Monday evening, the very day after the acquittal. Fearing that some local +committees might consider their mission accomplished, we decided to send +out immediately a communique requesting that they all keep their +operations alive. To ensure that this message filtered down to the masses, +we decided that I would go on a speaking tour. While expressing our +gratitude to the people who had joined the movement which achieved my +freedom, I would appeal to them to stay with us as long as racism or +political repression kept Ruchell, Fleeta, the Attica brothers or any other +human being behind bars. +My freedom was not yet a week old when I left with Kendra, Franklin and +Rodney for Los Angeles. From there we went to Chicago and on to Detroit, +where close to 10,000 people attended the rally. In New York I spoke at the +fund-raising concert at Madison Square Garden, which had been organized +months earlier by our Legal Defense Fund. +An enormous political responsibility had been thrust upon me — and I was +more frightened than I had ever been in my life because I knew that human +lives were at stake. Our ability to keep the movement alive offered the only +hope to our sisters and brothers behind walls. In the mass meetings, +attended by predominantly Black people, I explained that my presence +before them signified nothing more and nothing less than the tremendous +power of united, organized people to transform their will into reality. Many +others also deserved to be the beneficiaries of their power. + + I went on to Dallas and Atlanta and, after spending some time with my +family in Birmingham, prepared to make a month-long tour abroad. The +international campaign had not only exerted serious pressure on the +government, it had also stimulated the further growth of the mass +movement at home. At the center of the international movement was the +socialist community of nations. It was for this reason that we decided to +visit the USSR, including Central Asia, the German Democratic Republic, +Bulgaria, Czechoslovakia and Cuba. The last stop was to be Chile. +We saw the trip as a natural continuation of the tour through the United +States, its foremost purpose being to thank the people who had contributed +to the fight for my freedom and to turn their attention to other political +prisoners. In those countries rallies were attended by more people than I had +ever before seen assembled in one place — hundreds of thousands, for +example in the GDR, and close to three-quarters of a million in Cuba. In +Havana I mentioned the case of Billy Dean Smith in my speech, a Black +G.I. antiwar activist charged with the murder of two white U. S. officers in +Vietnam. When the Prime Minister, Fidel Castro, delivered his speech, he +vowed on behalf of the Cuban people that as they had fought for my +liberation, they would raise their voices now for the freedom of Billy Dean +Smith. By the next morning, as if by magic, the walls of Havana were +covered with posters demanding that Billy Dean Smith be set free. As we +traveled up and down the island, children who had painted pictures and +composed songs about Billy Dean wanted to be sure we were going to save +their hermano. +Here at home, work was already under way to strengthen the united front +which could save Billy Dean and eventually all political prisoners. +Immediately, I began another tour of campuses and communities to +publicize, raise funds for and gather information about political prisoners +for the organization we were building Today, a year and a half later, we +have consolidated the National Alliance Against Racist and Political +Repression, which has chapters in twenty-one states. Our membership +consists of Black, Chicano, Puerto Rican, Asian, Indian and white people. +We are proud that we have been able to forge unity among Communists, +Socialists, radical Democrats, and nationalists; between ministers and nonchurchgoers; between workers and students. All of us understand that unity + + is the most potent weapon against racism and political persecution. As I +write this epilogue, we are preparing to take thousands of people to North +Carolina on July 4 for a national demonstration. For we must ensure that the +Black leader Reverend Ben Chavis is not sentenced to the 262 years in +prison on the charges which that state has leveled against him. We must +liberate Donald Smith, sentenced at age sixteen to forty years behind bars +because he participated in the movement at his high school. And we must +rescue our innocent sister Marie Hill, whose death sentence, pronounced +when she was sixteen, is now a sentence of living death — life without +possibility of parole. +Across this country, there are hundreds and thousands more like Reverend +Chavis, Donald Smith and Marie Hill. We — you and I — are their only +hope for life and freedom. +June 21, 1974 + + 1 +Introduction—Prison Reform or Prison +Abolition? +In most parts of the world, it is taken for granted that whoever is convicted +of a serious crime will be sent to prison. In some countries—including the +United States—where capital punishment has not yet been abolished, a +small but significant number of people are sentenced to death for what are +considered especially grave crimes. Many people are familiar with the +campaign to abolish the death penalty. In fact, it has already been abolished +in most countries. Even the staunchest advocates of capital punishment +acknowledge the fact that the death penalty faces serious challenges. Few +people find life without the death penalty difficult to imagine. +On the other hand, the prison is considered an inevitable and permanent +feature of our social lives. Most people are quite surprised to hear that the +prison abolition movement also has a long history—one that dates back to +the historical appearance of the prison as the main form of punishment. In +fact, the most natural reaction is to assume that prison activists—even those +who consciously refer to themselves as “antiprison activists”—are simply +trying to ameliorate prison conditions or perhaps to reform the prison in +more fundamental ways. In most circles prison abolition is simply +unthinkable and implausible. Prison abolitionists are dismissed as utopians +and idealists whose ideas are at best unrealistic and impracticable, and, at +worst, mystifying and foolish. This is a measure of how difficult it is to +envision a social order that does not rely on the threat of sequestering +people in dreadful places designed to separate them from their communities +and families. The prison is considered so “natural” that it is extremely hard +to imagine life without it. + + It is my hope that this book will encourage readers to question their own +assumptions about the prison. Many people have already reached the +conclusion that the death penalty is an outmoded form of punishment that +violates basic principles of human rights. It is time, I believe, to encourage +similar conversations about the prison. During my own career as an +antiprison activist I have seen the population of U.S. prisons increase with +such rapidity that many people in black, Latino, and Native American +communities now have a far greater chance of going to prison than of +getting a decent education. When many young people decide to join the +military service in order to avoid the inevitability of a stint in prison, it +should cause us to wonder whether we should not try to introduce better +alternatives. +The question of whether the prison has become an obsolete institution +has become especially urgent in light of the fact that more than two million +people (out of a world total of nine million) now inhabit U.S. prisons, jails, +youth facilities, and immigrant detention centers. Are we willing to relegate +ever larger numbers of people from racially oppressed communities to an +isolated existence marked by authoritarian regimes, violence, disease, and +technologies of seclusion that produce severe mental instability? According +to a recent study, there may be twice as many people suffering from mental +illness who are in jails and prisons than there are in all psychiatric hospitals +in the United States combined.1 +When I first became involved in antiprison activism during the late +1960s, I was astounded to learn that there were then close to two hundred +thousand people in prison. Had anyone told me that in three decades ten +times as many people would be locked away in cages, I would have been +absolutely incredulous. I imagine that I would have responded something +like this: “As racist and undemocratic as this country may be [remember, +during that period, the demands of the Civil Rights movement had not yet +been consolidated], I do not believe that the U.S. government will be able to +lock up so many people without producing powerful public resistance. No, +this will never happen, not unless this country plunges into fascism.” That +might have been my reaction thirty years ago. The reality is that we were +called upon to inaugurate the twenty-first century by accepting the fact that +two million people—a group larger than the population of many countries + + —are living their lives in places like Sing Sing, Leavenworth, San Quentin, +and Alderson Federal Reformatory for Women. The gravity of these +numbers becomes even more apparent when we consider that the U.S. +population in general is less than five percent of the world’s total, whereas +more than twenty percent of the world’s combined prison population can be +claimed by the United States. In Elliott Currie’s words, “[t]he prison has +become a looming presence in our society to an extent unparalleled in our +history or that of any other industrial democracy. Short of major wars, mass +incarceration has been the most thoroughly implemented government social +program of our time.”2 +In thinking about the possible obsolescence of the prison, we should ask +how it is that so many people could end up in prison without major debates +regarding the efficacy of incarceration. When the drive to produce more +prisons and incarcerate ever larger numbers of people occurred in the 1980s +during what is known as the Reagan era, politicians argued that “tough on +crime” stances—including certain imprisonment and longer sentences— +would keep communities free of crime. However, the practice of mass +incarceration during that period had little or no effect on official crime rates. +In fact, the most obvious pattern was that larger prison populations led not +to safer communities, but, rather, to even larger prison populations. Each +new prison spawned yet another new prison. And as the U.S. prison system +expanded, so did corporate involvement in construction, provision of goods +and services, and use of prison labor. Because of the extent to which prison +building and operation began to attract vast amounts of capital—from the +construction industry to food and health care provision—in a way that +recalled the emergence of the military industrial complex, we began to refer +to a “prison industrial complex.”3 +Consider the case of California, whose landscape has been thoroughly +prisonized over the last twenty years. The first state prison in California was +San Quentin, which opened in 1852.4 Folsom, another well-known +institution, opened in 1880. Between 1880 and 1933, when a facility for +women was opened in Tehachapi, there was not a single new prison +constructed. In 1952, the California Institution for Women opened and +Tehachapi became a new prison for men. In all, between 1852 and 1955, + + nine prisons were constructed in California. Between 1962 and 1965, two +camps were established, along with the California Rehabilitation Center. +Not a single prison opened during the second half of the sixties, nor during +the entire decade of the 1970s. +However, a massive project of prison construction was initiated during +the 1980s—that is, during the years of the Reagan presidency. Nine prisons, +including the Northern California Facility for Women, were opened +between 1984 and 1989. Recall that it had taken more than a hundred years +to build the first nine California prisons. In less than a single decade, the +number of California prisons doubled. And during the 1990s, twelve new +prisons were opened, including two more for women. In 1995 the Valley +State Prison for Women was opened. According to its mission statement, it +“provides 1,980 women’s beds for California’s overcrowded prison +system.” However, in 2002, there were 3,570 prisoners5 and the other two +women’s prisons were equally overcrowded. +There are now thirty-three prisons, thirty-eight camps, sixteen +community correctional facilities, and five tiny prisoner mother facilities in +California. In 2002 there were 157,979 people incarcerated in these +institutions, including approximately twenty thousand people whom the +state holds for immigration violations. The racial composition of this prison +population is revealing. Latinos, who are now in the majority, account for +35.2 percent; African-Americans 30 percent; and white prisoners 29.2 +percent.6 There are now more women in prison in the state of California +than there were in the entire country in the early 1970s. In fact, California +can claim the largest women’s prison in the world, Valley State Prison for +Women, with its more than thirty-five hundred inhabitants. Located in the +same town as Valley State and literally across the street is the second-largest +women’s prison in the world—Central California Women’s Facility—whose +population in 2002 also hovered around thirty-five hundred.7 +If you look at a map of California depicting the location of the thirtythree state prisons, you will see that the only area that is not heavily +populated by prisons is the area north of Sacramento. Still, there are two +prisons in the town of Susanville, and Pelican Bay, one of the state’s +notorious super-maximum security prisons, is near the Oregon border. + + California artist Sandow Birk was inspired by the colonizing of the +landscape by prisons to produce a series of thirty-three landscape paintings +of these institutions and their surroundings. They are collected in his book +Incarcerated: Visions of California in the Twenty-first Century.8 +I present this brief narrative of the prisonization of the California +landscape in order to allow readers to grasp how easy it was to produce a +massive system of incarceration with the implicit consent of the public. +Why were people so quick to assume that locking away an increasingly +large proportion of the U.S. population would help those who live in the +free world feel safer and more secure? This question can be formulated in +more general terms. Why do prisons tend to make people think that their +own rights and liberties are more secure than they would be if prisons did +not exist? What other reasons might there have been for the rapidity with +which prisons began to colonize the California landscape? +Geographer Ruth Gilmore describes the expansion of prisons in +California as “a geographical solution to socio-economic problems.”9 Her +analysis of the prison industrial complex in California describes these +developments as a response to surpluses of capital, land, labor, and state +capacity. +California’s new prisons are sited on devalued rural land, most, in +fact on formerly irrigated agricultural acres . . . The State bought +land sold by big landowners. And the State assured the small, +depressed towns now shadowed by prisons that the new, recessionproof, +non-polluting +industry +would +jump-start +local +10 +redevelopment. +But, as Gilmore points out, neither the jobs nor the more general +economic revitalization promised by prisons has occurred. At the same +time, this promise of progress helps us to understand why the legislature +and California’s voters decided to approve the construction of all these new +prisons. People wanted to believe that prisons would not only reduce crime, +they would also provide jobs and stimulate economic development in outof-the-way places. + + At bottom, there is one fundamental question: Why do we take prison for +granted? While a relatively small proportion of the population has ever +directly experienced life inside prison, this is not true in poor black and +Latino communities. Neither is it true for Native Americans or for certain +Asian-American communities. But even among those people who must +regrettably accept prison sentences—especially young people—as an +ordinary dimension of community life, it is hardly acceptable to engage in +serious public discussions about prison life or radical alternatives to prison. +It is as if prison were an inevitable fact of life, like birth and death. +On the whole, people tend to take prisons for granted. It is difficult to +imagine life without them. At the same time, there is reluctance to face the +realities hidden within them, a fear of thinking about what happens inside +them. Thus, the prison is present in our lives and, at the same time, it is +absent from our lives. To think about this simultaneous presence and +absence is to begin to acknowledge the part played by ideology in shaping +the way we interact with our social surroundings. We take prisons for +granted but are often afraid to face the realities they produce. After all, no +one wants to go to prison. Because it would be too agonizing to cope with +the possibility that anyone, including ourselves, could become a prisoner, +we tend to think of the prison as disconnected from our own lives. This is +even true for some of us, women as well as men, who have already +experienced imprisonment. +We thus think about imprisonment as a fate reserved for others, a fate +reserved for the “evildoers,” to use a term recently popularized by George +W. Bush. Because of the persistent power of racism, “criminals” and +“evildoers” are, in the collective imagination, fantasized as people of color. +The prison therefore functions ideologically as an abstract site into which +undesirables are deposited, relieving us of the responsibility of thinking +about the real issues afflicting those communities from which prisoners are +drawn in such disproportionate numbers. This is the ideological work that +the prison performs—it relieves us of the responsibility of seriously +engaging with the problems of our society, especially those produced by +racism and, increasingly, global capitalism. + + What, for example, do we miss if we try to think about prison expansion +without addressing larger economic developments? We live in an era of +migrating corporations. In order to escape organized labor in this country— +and thus higher wages, benefits, and so on—corporations roam the world in +search of nations providing cheap labor pools. This corporate migration +thus leaves entire communities in shambles. Huge numbers of people lose +jobs and prospects for future jobs. Because the economic base of these +communities is destroyed, education and other surviving social services are +profoundly affected. This process turns the men, women, and children who +live in these damaged communities into perfect candidates for prison. +In the meantime, corporations associated with the punishment industry +reap profits from the system that manages prisoners and acquire a clear +stake in the continued growth of prison populations. Put simply, this is the +era of the prison industrial complex. The prison has become a black hole +into which the detritus of contemporary capitalism is deposited. Mass +imprisonment generates profits as it devours social wealth, and thus it tends +to reproduce the very conditions that lead people to prison. There are thus +real and often quite complicated connections between the +deindustrialization of the economy—a process that reached its peak during +the 1980s—and the rise of mass imprisonment, which also began to spiral +during the Reagan-Bush era. However, the demand for more prisons was +represented to the public in simplistic terms. More prisons were needed +because there was more crime. Yet many scholars have demonstrated that +by the time the prison construction boom began, official crime statistics +were already falling. Moreover, draconian drug laws were being enacted, +and “three-strikes” provisions were on the agendas of many states. +In order to understand the proliferation of prisons and the rise of the +prison industrial complex, it might be helpful to think further about the +reasons we so easily take prisons for granted. In California, as we have +seen, almost two-thirds of existing prisons were opened during the eighties +and nineties. Why was there no great outcry? Why was there such an +obvious level of comfort with the prospect of many new prisons? A partial +answer to this question has to do with the way we consume media images of +the prison, even as the realities of imprisonment are hidden from almost all +who have not had the misfortune of doing time. Cultural critic Gina Dent + + has pointed out that our sense of familiarity with the prison comes in part +from representations of prisons in film and other visual media. +The history of visuality linked to the prison is also a main +reinforcement of the institution of the prison as a naturalized part of +our social landscape. The history of film has always been wedded to +the representation of incarceration. Thomas Edison’s first films +(dating back to the 1901 reenactment presented as newsreel, +Execution of Czolgosz with Panorama of Auburn Prison) included +footage of the darkest recesses of the prison. Thus, the prison is +wedded to our experience of visuality, creating also a sense of its +permanence as an institution. We also have a constant flow of +Hollywood prison films, in fact a genre.11 +Some of the most well known prison films are: I Want to Live, Papillon, +Cool Hand Luke, and Escape from Alcatraz. It also bears mentioning that +television programming has become increasingly saturated with images of +prisons. Some recent documentaries include the A&E series The Big House, +which consists of programs on San Quentin, Alcatraz, Leavenworth, and +Alderson Federal Reformatory for Women. The long-running HBO program +Oz has managed to persuade many viewers that they know exactly what +goes on in male maximum-security prisons. +But even those who do not consciously decide to watch a documentary or +dramatic program on the topic of prisons inevitably consume prison images, +whether they choose to or not, by the simple fact of watching movies or TV. +It is virtually impossible to avoid consuming images of prison. In 1997, I +was myself quite astonished to find, when I interviewed women in three +Cuban prisons, that most of them narrated their prior awareness of prisons +—that is, before they were actually incarcerated—as coming from the many +Hollywood films they had seen. The prison is one of the most important +features of our image environment. This has caused us to take the existence +of prisons for granted. The prison has become a key ingredient of our +common sense. It is there, all around us. We do not question whether it +should exist. It has become so much a part of our lives that it requires a +great feat of the imagination to envision life beyond the prison. + + This is not to dismiss the profound changes that have occurred in the way +public conversations about the prison are conducted. Ten years ago, even as +the drive to expand the prison system reached its zenith, there were very +few critiques of this process available to the public. In fact, most people had +no idea about the immensity of this expansion. This was the period during +which internal changes—in part through the application of new +technologies—led the U.S. prison system in a much more repressive +direction. Whereas previous classifications had been confined to low, +medium, and maximum security, a new category was invented—that of the +super-maximum security prison, or the supermax. The turn toward +increased repression in a prison system, distinguished from the beginning of +its history by its repressive regimes, caused some journalists, public +intellectuals, and progressive agencies to oppose the growing reliance on +prisons to solve social problems that are actually exacerbated by mass +incarceration. +In 1990, the Washington-based Sentencing Project published a study of +U.S. populations in prison and jail, and on parole and probation, which +concluded that one in four black men between the ages of twenty and +twenty-nine were among these numbers.12 Five years later, a second study +revealed that this percentage had soared to almost one in three (32.2 +percent). Moreover, more than one in ten Latino men in this same age range +were in jail or prison, or on probation or parole. The second study also +revealed that the group experiencing the greatest increase was black +women, whose imprisonment increased by seventy-eight percent.13 +According to the Bureau of Justice Statistics, African-Americans as a whole +now represent the majority of state and federal prisoners, with a total of +803,400 black inmates—118,600 more than the total number of white +inmates.14 During the late 1990s major articles on prison expansion +appeared in Newsweek, Harper’s, Emerge, and Atlantic Monthly. Even +Colin Powell raised the question of the rising number of black men in +prison when he spoke at the 2000 Republican National Convention, which +declared George W. Bush its presidential candidate. +Over the last few years the previous absence of critical positions on +prison expansion in the political arena has given way to proposals for prison + + reform. While public discourse has become more flexible, the emphasis is +almost inevitably on generating the changes that will produce a better +prison system. In other words, the increased flexibility that has allowed for +critical discussion of the problems associated with the expansion of prisons +also restricts this discussion to the question of prison reform. +As important as some reforms may be—the elimination of sexual abuse +and medical neglect in women’s prison, for example—frameworks that rely +exclusively on reforms help to produce the stultifying idea that nothing lies +beyond the prison. Debates about strategies of decarceration, which should +be the focal point of our conversations on the prison crisis, tend to be +marginalized when reform takes the center stage. The most immediate +question today is how to prevent the further expansion of prison populations +and how to bring as many imprisoned women and men as possible back into +what prisoners call “the free world.” How can we move to decriminalize +drug use and the trade in sexual services? How can we take seriously +strategies of restorative rather than exclusively punitive justice? Effective +alternatives involve both transformation of the techniques for addressing +“crime” and of the social and economic conditions that track so many +children from poor communities, and especially communities of color, into +the juvenile system and then on to prison. The most difficult and urgent +challenge today is that of creatively exploring new terrains of justice, where +the prison no longer serves as our major anchor. + + 2 +Slavery, Civil Rights, and Abolitionist +Perspectives Toward Prison +“Advocates of incarceration . . . hoped that the +penitentiary would rehabilitate its inmates. +Whereas philosophers perceived a ceaseless state +of war between chattel slaves and their masters, +criminologists hoped to negotiate a peace treaty of +sorts within the prison walls. Yet herein lurked a +paradox: if the penitentiary’s internal regime +resembled that of the plantation so closely that the +two were often loosely equated, how could the +prison possibly function to rehabilitate criminals?” +—Adam Jay Hirsch15 + +The prison is not the only institution that has posed complex challenges to +the people who have lived with it and have become so inured to its presence +that they could not conceive of society without it. Within the history of the +United States the system of slavery immediately comes to mind. Although +as early as the American Revolution antislavery advocates promoted the +elimination of African bondage, it took almost a century to achieve the +abolition of the “peculiar institution.” White antislavery abolitionists such +as John Brown and William Lloyd Garrison were represented in the +dominant media of the period as extremists and fanatics. When Frederick +Douglass embarked on his career as an antislavery orator, white people— +even those who were passionate abolitionists—refused to believe that a + + black slave could display such intelligence. The belief in the permanence of +slavery was so widespread that even white abolitionists found it difficult to +imagine black people as equals. +It took a long and violent civil war in order to legally disestablish the +“peculiar institution.” Even though the Thirteenth Amendment to the U.S. +Constitution outlawed involuntary servitude, white supremacy continued to +be embraced by vast numbers of people and became deeply inscribed in +new institutions. One of these post-slavery institutions was lynching, which +was widely accepted for many decades thereafter. Thanks to the work of +figures such as Ida B. Wells, an antilynching campaign was gradually +legitimized during the first half of the twentieth century. The NAACP, an +organization that continues to conduct legal challenges against +discrimination, evolved from these efforts to abolish lynching. +Segregation ruled the South until it was outlawed a century after the +abolition of slavery. Many people who lived under Jim Crow could not +envision a legal system defined by racial equality. When the governor of +Alabama personally attempted to prevent Arthurine Lucy from enrolling in +the University of Alabama, his stance represented the inability to imagine +black and white people ever peaceably living and studying together. +“Segregation today, segregation tomorrow, segregation forever” are the +most well known words of this politician, who was forced to repudiate them +some years later when segregation had proved far more vulnerable than he +could have imagined. +Although government, corporations, and the dominant media try to +represent racism as an unfortunate aberration of the past that has been +relegated to the graveyard of U.S. history, it continues to profoundly +influence contemporary structures, attitudes, and behaviors. Nevertheless, +anyone who would dare to call for the reintroduction of slavery, the +organization of lynch mobs, or the reestablishment of legal segregation +would be summarily dismissed. But it should be remembered that the +ancestors of many of today’s most ardent liberals could not have imagined +life without slavery, life without lynching, or life without segregation. The +2001 World Conference Against Racism, Racial Discrimination, +Xenophobia, and Related Intolerances held in Durban, South Africa, + + divulged the immensity of the global task of eliminating racism. There may +be many disagreements regarding what counts as racism and what are the +most effective strategies to eliminate it. However, especially with the +downfall of the apartheid regime in South Africa, there is a global +consensus that racism should not define the future of the planet. +I have referred to these historical examples of efforts to dismantle racist +institutions because they have considerable relevance to our discussion of +prisons and prison abolition. It is true that slavery, lynching, and +segregation acquired such a stalwart ideological quality that many, if not +most, could not foresee their decline and collapse. Slavery, lynching, and +segregation are certainly compelling examples of social institutions that, +like the prison, were once considered to be as everlasting as the sun. Yet, in +the case of all three examples, we can point to movements that assumed the +radical stance of announcing the obsolescence of these institutions. It may +help us gain perspective on the prison if we try to imagine how strange and +discomforting the debates about the obsolescence of slavery must have been +to those who took the “peculiar institution” for granted—and especially to +those who reaped direct benefits from this dreadful system of racist +exploitation. And even though there was widespread resistance among +black slaves, there were even some among them who assumed that they and +their progeny would be always subjected to the tyranny of slavery. +I have introduced three abolition campaigns that were eventually more or +less successful to make the point that social circumstances transform and +popular attitudes shift, in part in response to organized social movements. +But I have also evoked these historical campaigns because they all targeted +some expression of racism. U.S. chattel slavery was a system of forced +labor that relied on racist ideas and beliefs to justify the relegation of people +of African descent to the legal status of property. Lynching was an +extralegal institution that surrendered thousands of African-American lives +to the violence of ruthless racist mobs. Under segregation, black people +were legally declared second-class citizens, for whom voting, job, +education, and housing rights were drastically curtailed, if they were +available at all. + + What is the relationship between these historical expressions of racism +and the role of the prison system today? Exploring such connections may +offer us a different perspective on the current state of the punishment +industry. If we are already persuaded that racism should not be allowed to +define the planet’s future and if we can successfully argue that prisons are +racist institutions, this may lead us to take seriously the prospect of +declaring prisons obsolete. +For the moment I am concentrating on the history of antiblack racism in +order to make the point that the prison reveals congealed forms of antiblack +racism that operate in clandestine ways. In other words, they are rarely +recognized as racist. But there are other racialized histories that have +affected the development of the U.S. punishment system as well—the +histories of Latinos, Native Americans, and Asian-Americans. These +racisms also congeal and combine in the prison. Because we are so +accustomed to talking about race in terms of black and white, we often fail +to recognize and contest expressions of racism that target people of color +who are not black. Consider the mass arrests and detention of people of +Middle Eastern, South Asian, or Muslim heritage in the aftermath of the +September 11, 2001 attacks on the Pentagon and World Trade Center. +This leads us to two important questions: Are prisons racist institutions? +Is racism so deeply entrenched in the institution of the prison that it is not +possible to eliminate one without eliminating the other? These are questions +that we should keep in mind as we examine the historical links between +U.S. slavery and the early penitentiary system. The penitentiary as an +institution that simultaneously punished and rehabilitated its inhabitants was +a new system of punishment that first made its appearance in the United +States around the time of the American Revolution. This new system was +based on the replacement of capital and corporal punishment by +incarceration. +Imprisonment itself was new neither to the United States nor to the +world, but until the creation of this new institution called the penitentiary, it +served as a prelude to punishment. People who were to be subjected to +some form of corporal punishment were detained in prison until the +execution of the punishment. With the penitentiary, incarceration became + + the punishment itself. As is indicated in the designation “penitentiary,” +imprisonment was regarded as rehabilitative and the penitentiary prison was +devised to provide convicts with the conditions for reflecting on their +crimes and, through penitence, for reshaping their habits and even their +souls. Although some antislavery advocates spoke out against this new +system of punishment during the revolutionary period, the penitentiary was +generally viewed as a progressive reform, linked to the larger campaign for +the rights of citizens. +In many ways, the penitentiary was a vast improvement over the many +forms of capital and corporal punishment inherited from the English. +However, the contention that prisoners would refashion themselves if only +given the opportunity to reflect and labor in solitude and silence disregarded +the impact of authoritarian regimes of living and work. Indeed, there were +significant similarities between slavery and the penitentiary prison. +Historian Adam Jay Hirsch has pointed out: +One may perceive in the penitentiary many reflections of chattel slavery as +it was practiced in the South. Both institutions subordinated their subjects to +the will of others. Like Southern slaves, prison inmates followed a daily +routine specified by their superiors. Both institutions reduced their subjects +to dependence on others for the supply of basic human services such as +food and shelter. Both isolated their subjects from the general population by +confining them to a fixed habitat. And both frequently coerced their +subjects to work, often for longer hours and for less compensation than free +laborers.16 +As Hirsch has observed, both institutions deployed similar forms of +punishment, and prison regulations were, in fact, very similar to the Slave +Codes—the laws that deprived enslaved human beings of virtually all +rights. Moreover, both prisoners and slaves were considered to have +pronounced proclivities to crime. People sentenced to the penitentiary in the +North, white and black alike, were popularly represented as having a strong +kinship to enslaved black people.17 +The ideologies governing slavery and those governing punishment were +profoundly linked during the earliest period of U.S. history. While free +people could be legally sentenced to punishment by hard labor, such a + + sentence would in no way change the conditions of existence already +experienced by slaves. Thus, as Hirsch further reveals, Thomas Jefferson, +who supported the sentencing of convicted people to hard labor on road and +water projects, also pointed out that he would exclude slaves from this sort +of punishment. Since slaves already performed hard labor, sentencing them +to penal labor would not mark a difference in their condition. Jefferson +suggested banishment to other countries instead.18 +Particularly in the United States, race has always played a central role in +constructing presumptions of criminality. After the abolition of slavery, +former slave states passed new legislation revising the Slave Codes in order +to regulate the behavior of free blacks in ways similar to those that had +existed during slavery. The new Black Codes proscribed a range of actions +—such as vagrancy, absence from work, breach of job contracts, the +possession of firearms, and insulting gestures or acts—that were +criminalized only when the person charged was black. With the passage of +the Thirteenth Amendment to the Constitution, slavery and involuntary +servitude were putatively abolished. However, there was a significant +exception. In the wording of the amendment, slavery and involuntary +servitude were abolished “except as a punishment for crime, whereof the +party shall have been duly convicted.” According to the Black Codes, there +were crimes defined by state law for which only black people could be +“duly convicted.” Thus, former slaves, who had recently been extricated +from a condition of hard labor for life, could be legally sentenced to penal +servitude. +In the immediate aftermath of slavery, the southern states hastened to +develop a criminal justice system that could legally restrict the possibilities +of freedom for newly released slaves. Black people became the prime +targets of a developing convict lease system, referred to by many as a +reincarnation of slavery. The Mississippi Black Codes, for example, +declared vagrant “anyone/who was guilty of theft, had run away [from a +job, apparently], was drunk, was wanton in conduct or speech, had +neglected job or family, handled money carelessly, and . . . all other idle and +disorderly persons.”19 Thus, vagrancy was coded as a black crime, one +punishable by incarceration and forced labor, sometimes on the very +plantations that previously had thrived on slave labor. + + Mary Ellen Curtin’s study of Alabama prisoners during the decades +following emancipation discloses that before the four hundred thousand +black slaves in that state were set free, ninety-nine percent of prisoners in +Alabama’s penitentiaries were white. As a consequence of the shifts +provoked by the institution of the Black Codes, within a short period of +time, the overwhelming majority of Alabama’s convicts were black.20 She +further observes: +Although the vast majority of Alabama’s antebellum prisoners were white, +the popular perception was that the South’s true criminals were its black +slaves. During the 1870s the growing number of black prisoners in the +South further buttressed the belief that African Americans were inherently +criminal and, in particular, prone to larceny.21 +In 1883, Frederick Douglass had already written about the South’s +tendency to “impute crime to color.”22 When a particularly egregious crime +was committed, he noted, not only was guilt frequently assigned to a black +person regardless of the perpetrator’s race, but white men sometimes sought +to escape punishment by disguising themselves as black. Douglass would +later recount one such incident that took place in Granger County, +Tennessee, in which a man who appeared to be black was shot while +committing a robbery. The wounded man, however, was discovered to be a +respectable white citizen who had colored his face black. +The above example from Douglass demonstrates how whiteness, in the +words of legal scholar Cheryl Harris, operates as property.23 According to +Harris, the fact that white identity was possessed as property meant that +rights, liberties, and self-identity were affirmed for white people, while +being denied to black people. The latter’s only access to whiteness was +through “passing.” Douglass’s comments indicate how this property interest +in whiteness was easily reversed in schemes to deny black people their +rights to due process. Interestingly, cases similar to the one Douglass +discusses above emerged in the United States during the 1990s: in Boston, +Charles Stuart murdered his pregnant wife and attempted to blame an +anonymous black man, and in Union, South Carolina, Susan Smith killed +her children and claimed they had been abducted by a black carjacker. The +racialization of crime—the tendency to “impute crime to color,” to use + + Frederick Douglass’s words—did not wither away as the country became +increasingly removed from slavery. Proof that crime continues to be +imputed to color resides in the many evocations of “racial profiling” in our +time. That it is possible to be targeted by the police for no other reason than +the color of one’s skin is not mere speculation. Police departments in major +urban areas have admitted the existence of formal procedures designed to +maximize the numbers of African-Americans and Latinos arrested—even in +the absence of probable cause. In the aftermath of the September 11 attacks, +vast numbers of people of Middle Eastern and South Asian heritage were +arrested and detained by the police agency known as Immigration and +Naturalization Services (INS). The INS is the federal agency that claims the +largest number of armed agents, even more than the FBI.24 +During the post-slavery era, as black people were integrated into southern +penal systems—and as the penal system became a system of penal servitude +—the punishments associated with slavery became further incorporated into +the penal system. “Whipping,” as Matthew Mancini has observed, “was the +preeminent form of punishment under slavery; and the lash, along with the +chain, became the very emblem of servitude for slaves and prisoners.ʺ25 As +indicated above, black people were imprisoned under the laws assembled in +the various Black Codes of the southern states, which, because they were +rearticulations of the Slave Codes, tended to racialize penality and link it +closely with previous regimes of slavery. The expansion of the convict lease +system and the county chain gang meant that the antebellum criminal +justice system, which focused far more intensely on black people than on +whites, defined southern criminal justice largely as a means of controlling +black labor. According to Mancini: +Among the multifarious debilitating legacies of slavery was the conviction +that blacks could only labor in a certain way—the way experience had +shown them to have labored in the past: in gangs, subjected to constant +supervision, and under the discipline of the lash. Since these were the +requisites of slavery, and since slaves were blacks, Southern whites almost +universally concluded that blacks could not work unless subjected to such +intense surveillance and discipline.26 + + Scholars who have studied the convict lease system point out that in +many important respects, convict leasing was far worse than slavery, an +insight that can be gleaned from titles such as One Dies, Get Another (by +Mancini), Worse Than Slavery (David Oshinsky’s work on Parchman +Prison),27 and Twice the Work of Free Labor (Alex Lichtenstein’s +examination of the political economy of convict leasing).28 Slave owners +may have been concerned for the survival of individual slaves, who, after +all, represented significant investments. Convicts, on the other hand, were +leased not as individuals, but as a group, and they could be worked literally +to death without affecting the profitability of a convict crew. +According to descriptions by contemporaries, the conditions under which +leased convicts and county chain gangs lived were far worse than those +under which black people had lived as slaves. The records of Mississippi +plantations in the Yazoo Delta during the late 1880s indicate that +the prisoners ate and slept on bare ground, without blankets or mattresses, +and often without clothes. They were punished for “slow hoeing” (ten +lashes), “sorry planting” (five lashes), and “being light with cotton” (five +lashes). Some who attempted to escape were whipped “till the blood ran +down their legs”; others had a metal spur riveted to their feet. Convicts +dropped from exhaustion, pneumonia, malaria, frostbite, consumption, +sunstroke, dysentery, gunshot wounds, and “shackle poisoning” (the +constant rubbing of chains and leg irons against bare flesh).29 +The appalling treatment to which convicts were subjected under the lease +system recapitulated and further extended the regimes of slavery. If, as +Adam Jay Hirsch contends, the early incarnations of the U.S. penitentiary in +the North tended to mirror the institution of slavery in many important +respects, the post-Civil War evolution of the punishment system was in very +literal ways the continuation of a slave system, which was no longer legal in +the “free” world. The population of convicts, whose racial composition was +dramatically transformed by the abolition of slavery, could be subjected to +such intense exploitation and to such horrendous modes of punishment +precisely because they continued to be perceived as slaves. +Historian Mary Ann Curtin has observed that many scholars who have +acknowledged the deeply entrenched racism of the post-Civil War structures + + of punishment in the South have failed to identify the extent to which +racism colored common-sense understandings of the circumstances +surrounding the wholesale criminalization of black communities. Even +antiracist historians, she contends, do not go far enough in examining the +ways in which black people were made into criminals. They point out—and +this, she says, is indeed partially true—that in the aftermath of +emancipation, large numbers of black people were forced by their new +social situation to steal in order to survive. It was the transformation of +petty thievery into a felony that relegated substantial numbers of black +people to the “involuntary servitude” legalized by the Thirteenth +Amendment. What Curtin suggests is that these charges of theft were +frequently fabricated outright. They “also served as subterfuge for political +revenge. After emancipation the courtroom became an ideal place to exact +racial retribution.” 30 In this sense, the work of the criminal justice system +was intimately related to the extralegal work of lynching. +Alex Lichtenstein, whose study focuses on the role of the convict lease +system in forging a new labor force for the South, identifies the lease +system, along with the new Jim Crow laws, as the central institution in the +development of a racial state. +New South capitalists in Georgia and elsewhere were able to use the +state to recruit and discipline a convict labor force, and thus were +able to develop their states’ resources without creating a wage labor +force, and without undermining planters’ control of black labor. In +fact, quite the opposite: the penal system could be used as a +powerful sanction against rural blacks who challenged the racial +order upon which agricultural labor control relied.31 +Lichtenstein discloses, for example, the extent to which the building of +Georgia railroads during the nineteenth century relied on black convict +labor. He further reminds us that as we drive down the most famous street +in Atlanta—Peachtree Street—we ride on the backs of convicts: “[T]he +renowned Peachtree Street and the rest of Atlanta’s well-paved roads and +modern transportation infrastructure, which helped cement its place as the +commercial hub of the modern South, were originally laid by convicts.”32 + + Lichtenstein’s major argument is that the convict lease was not an +irrational regression; it was not primarily a throwback to precapitalist +modes of production. Rather, it was a most efficient and most rational +deployment of racist strategies to swiftly achieve industrialization in the +South. In this sense, he argues, “convict labor was in many ways in the +vanguard of the region’s first tentative, ambivalent, steps toward +modernity.ʺ33 +Those of us who have had the opportunity to visit nineteenth-century +mansions that were originally constructed on slave plantations are rarely +content with an aesthetic appraisal of these structures, no matter how +beautiful they may be. Sufficient visual imagery of toiling black slaves +circulate enough in our environment for us to imagine the brutality that +hides just beneath the surface of these wondrous mansions. We have learned +how to recognize the role of slave labor, as well as the racism it embodied. +But black convict labor remains a hidden dimension of our history. It is +extremely unsettling to think of modern, industrialized urban areas as +having been originally produced under the racist labor conditions of penal +servitude that are often described by historians as even worse than slavery. +I grew up in the city of Birmingham, Alabama. Because of its mines— +coal and iron ore—and its steel mills that remained active until the +deindustrialization process of the 1980s, it was widely known as “the +Pittsburgh of the South.” The fathers of many of my friends worked in these +mines and mills. It is only recently that I have learned that the black miners +and steelworkers I knew during my childhood inherited their place in +Birmingham’s industrial development from black convicts forced to do this +work under the lease system. As Curtin observes, +Many ex-prisoners became miners because Alabama used prison labor +extensively in its coalmines. By 1888 all of Alabama’s able male prisoners +were leased to two major mining companies: the Tennessee Coal and Iron +Company (TCI) and Sloss Iron and Steel Company. For a charge of up to +$18.50 per month per man, these corporations “leased,” or rented prison +laborers and worked them in coalmines.34 +Learning about this little-acknowledged dimension of black and labor +history has caused me to reevaluate my own childhood experiences. + + One of the many ruses racism achieves is the virtual erasure of historical +contributions by people of color. Here we have a penal system that was +racist in many respects—discriminatory arrests and sentences, conditions of +work, modes of punishment—together with the racist erasure of the +significant contributions made by black convicts as a result of racist +coercion. Just as it is difficult to imagine how much is owed to convicts +relegated to penal servitude during the nineteenth and twentieth centuries, +we find it difficult today to feel a connection with the prisoners who +produce a rising number of commodities that we take for granted in our +daily lives. In the state of California, public colleges and universities are +provided with furniture produced by prisoners, the vast majority of whom +are Latino and black. +There are aspects of our history that we need to interrogate and rethink, +the recognition of which may help us to adopt more complicated, critical +postures toward the present and the future. I have focused on the work of a +few scholars whose work urges us to raise questions about the past, present, +and future. Curtin, for example, is not simply content with offering us the +possibility of reexamining the place of mining and steelwork in the lives of +black people in Alabama. She also uses her research to urge us to think +about the uncanny parallels between the convict lease system in the +nineteenth century and prison privatization in the twenty-first. +In the late nineteenth century, coal companies wished to keep their +skilled prison laborers for as long as they could, leading to denials +of “short time.” Today, a slightly different economic incentive can +lead to similar consequences. CCA [Corrections Corporation of +America] is paid per prisoner. If the supply dries up, or too many are +released too early, their profits are affected . . . Longer prison terms +mean greater profits, but the larger point is that the profit motive +promotes the expansion of imprisonment.35 +The persistence of the prison as the main form of punishment, with its +racist and sexist dimensions, has created this historical continuity between +the nineteenth- and early-twentieth-century convict lease system and the +privatized prison business today. While the convict lease system was legally +abolished, its structures of exploitation have reemerged in the patterns of + + privatization, and, more generally, in the wide-ranging corporatization of +punishment that has produced a prison industrial complex. If the prison +continues to dominate the landscape of punishment throughout this century +and into the next, what might await coming generations of impoverished +African-Americans, Latinos, Native Americans, and Asian-Americans? +Given the parallels between the prison and slavery, a productive exercise +might consist in speculating about what the present might look like if +slavery or its successor, the convict lease system, had not been abolished. +To be sure, I am not suggesting that the abolition of slavery and the lease +system has produced an era of equality and justice. On the contrary, racism +surreptitiously defines social and economic structures in ways that are +difficult to identify and thus are much more damaging. In some states, for +example, more than one-third of black men have been labeled felons. In +Alabama and Florida, once a felon, always a felon, which entails the loss of +status as a rights-bearing citizen. One of the grave consequences of the +powerful reach of the prison was the 2000 (s)election of George W. Bush as +president. If only the black men and women denied the right to vote because +of an actual or presumed felony record had been allowed to cast their +ballots, Bush would not be in the White House today. And perhaps we +would not be dealing with the awful costs of the War on Terrorism declared +during the first year of his administration. If not for his election, the people +of Iraq might not have suffered death, destruction, and environmental +poisoning by U.S. military forces. +As appalling as the current political situation may be, imagine what our +lives might have become if we were still grappling with the institution of +slavery—or the convict lease system or racial segregation. But we do not +have to speculate about living with the consequences of the prison. There is +more than enough evidence in the lives of men and women who have been +claimed by ever more repressive institutions and who are denied access to +their families, their communities, to educational opportunities, to productive +and creative work, to physical and mental recreation. And there is even +more compelling evidence about the damage wrought by the expansion of +the prison system in the schools located in poor communities of color that +replicate the structures and regimes of the prison. When children attend +schools that place a greater value on discipline and security than on + + knowledge and intellectual development, they are attending prep schools for +prison. If this is the predicament we face today, what might the future hold +if the prison system acquires an even greater presence in our society? In the +nineteenth century, antislavery activists insisted that as long as slavery +continued, the future of democracy was bleak indeed. In the twenty-first +century, antiprison activists insist that a fundamental requirement for the +revitalization of democracy is the long-overdue abolition of the prison +system. + + 3 +Imprisonment and Reform +“One should recall that the movement for +reforming the prisons, for controlling their +functioning is not a recent phenomenon. It does +not even seem to have originated in a recognition +of failure. Prison ‘reform’ is virtually +contemporary with the prison itself: it constitutes, +as it were, its programme.” +—Michel Foucault36 + +It is ironic that the prison itself was a product of concerted efforts by +reformers to create a better system of punishment. If the words “prison +reform” so easily slip from our lips, it is because “prison” and “reform” +have been inextricably linked since the beginning of the use of +imprisonment as the main means of punishing those who violate social +norms. As I have already indicated, the origins of the prison are associated +with the American Revolution and therefore with the resistance to the +colonial power of England. Today this seems ironic, but incarceration +within a penitentiary was assumed to be humane—at least far more humane +than the capital and corporal punishment inherited from England and other +European countries. Foucault opens his study, Discipline and Punish: The +Birth of the Prison, with a graphic description of a 1757 execution in Paris. +The man who was put to death was first forced to undergo a series of +formidable tortures ordered by the court. Red-hot pincers were used to burn +away the flesh from his limbs, and molten lead, boiling oil, burning resin, +and other substances were melted together and poured onto the wounds. + + Finally, he was drawn and quartered, his body burned, and the ashes tossed +into the wind.37 Under English common law, a conviction for sodomy led to +the punishment of being buried alive, and convicted heretics also were +burned alive. “The crime of treason by a female was punished initially +under the common law by burning alive the defendant. However, in the year +1790 this method was halted and the punishment became strangulation and +burning of the corpse.ʺ38 +European and American reformers set out to end macabre penalties such +as this, as well as other forms of corporal punishment such as the stocks and +pillories, whippings, brandings, and amputations. Prior to the appearance of +punitive incarceration, such punishment was designed to have its most +profound effect not so much on the person punished as on the crowd of +spectators. Punishment was, in essence, public spectacle. Reformers such as +John Howard in England and Benjamin Rush in Pennsylvania argued that +punishment—if carried out in isolation, behind the walls of the prison— +would cease to be revenge and would actually reform those who had broken +the law. +It should also be pointed out that punishment has not been without its +gendered dimensions. Women were often punished within the domestic +domain, and instruments of torture were sometimes imported by authorities +into the household. In seventeenth-century Britain, women whose husbands +identified them as quarrelsome and unaccepting of male dominance were +punished by means of a gossip’s bridle, or “branks,” a headpiece with a +chain attached and an iron bit that was introduced into the woman’s +mouth.39 Although the branking of women was often linked to a public +parade, this contraption was sometimes hooked to a wall of the house, +where the punished woman remained until her husband decided to release +her. I mention these forms of punishment inflicted on women because, like +the punishment inflicted on slaves, they were rarely taken up by prison +reformers. +Other modes of punishment that predated the rise of the prison include +banishment, forced labor in galleys, transportation, and appropriation of the +accused’s property. The punitive transportation of large numbers of people +from England, for example, facilitated the initial colonization of Australia. + + Transported English convicts also settled the North American colony of +Georgia. During the early 1700s, one in eight transported convicts were +women, and the work they were forced to perform often consisted of +prostitution.40 +Imprisonment was not employed as a principal mode of punishment until +the eighteenth century in Europe and the nineteenth century in the United +States. And European prison systems were instituted in Asia and Africa as +an important component of colonial rule. In India, for example, the English +prison system was introduced during the second half of the eighteenth +century, when jails were established in the regions of Calcutta and Madras. +In Europe, the penitentiary movement against capital and other corporal +punishments reflected new intellectual tendencies associated with the +Enlightenment, activist interventions by Protestant reformers, and structural +transformations associated with the rise of industrial capitalism. In Milan in +1764, Cesare Beccaria published his Essay on Crimes and Punishments,41 +which was strongly influenced by notions of equality advanced by the +philosophes—especially Voltaire, Rousseau, and Montesquieu. Beccaria +argued that punishment should never be a private matter, nor should it be +arbitrarily violent; rather, it should be public, swift, and as lenient as +possible. He revealed the contradiction of what was then a distinctive +feature of imprisonment—the fact that it was generally imposed prior to the +defendant’s guilt or innocence being decided. +However, incarceration itself eventually became the penalty, bringing +about a distinction between imprisonment as punishment and pretrial +detention or detention until the infliction of punishment. The process +through which imprisonment developed into the primary mode of stateinflicted punishment was very much related to the rise of capitalism and to +the appearance of a new set of ideological conditions. These new conditions +reflected the rise of the bourgeoisie as the social class whose interests and +aspirations furthered new scientific, philosophical, cultural, and popular +ideas. It is thus important to grasp the fact that the prison as we know it +today did not make its appearance on the historical stage as the superior +form of punishment for all times. It was simply—though we should not +underestimate the complexity of this process—what made most sense at a +particular moment in history. We should therefore question whether a + + system that was intimately related to a particular set of historical +circumstances that prevailed during the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries +can lay absolute claim on the twenty-first century. +It may be important at this point in our examination to acknowledge the +radical shift in the social perception of the individual that appeared in the +ideas of that era. With the rise of the bourgeoisie, the individual came to be +regarded as a bearer of formal rights and liberties. The notion of the +individual’s inalienable rights and liberties was eventually memorialized in +the French and American Revolution. “Liberté, Egalité, Fraternité” from +the French Revolution and “We hold these truths to be self-evident: all men +are created equal . . .” from the American Revolution were new and radical +ideas, even though they were not extended to women, workers, Africans, +and Indians. Before the acceptance of the sanctity of individual rights, +imprisonment could not have been understood as punishment. If the +individual was not perceived as possessing inalienable rights and liberties, +then the alienation of those rights and liberties by removal from society to a +space tyrannically governed by the state would not have made sense. +Banishment beyond the geographical limits of the town may have made +sense, but not the alteration of the individual’s legal status through +imposition of a prison sentence. +Moreover, the prison sentence, which is always computed in terms of +time, is related to abstract quantification, evoking the rise of science and +what is often referred to as the Age of Reason. We should keep in mind that +this was precisely the historical period when the value of labor began to be +calculated in terms of time and therefore compensated in another +quantifiable way, by money. The computability of state punishment in terms +of time—days, months, years—resonates with the role of labor-time as the +basis for computing the value of capitalist commodities. Marxist theorists of +punishment have noted that precisely the historical period during which the +commodity form arose is the era during which penitentiary sentences +emerged as the primary form of punishment.42 +Today, the growing social movement contesting the supremacy of global +capital is a movement that directly challenges the rule of the planet—its +human, animal, and plant populations, as well as its natural resources—by + + corporations that are primarily interested in the increased production and +circulation of ever more profitable commodities. This is a challenge to the +supremacy of the commodity form, a rising resistance to the contemporary +tendency to commodify every aspect of planetary existence. The question +we might consider is whether this new resistance to capitalist globalization +should also incorporate resistance to the prison. +Thus far I have largely used gender-neutral language to describe the +historical development of the prison and its reformers. But convicts +punished by imprisonment in emergent penitentiary systems were primarily +male. This reflected the deeply gender-biased structure of legal, political, +and economic rights. Since women were largely denied public status as +rights-bearing individuals, they could not be easily punished by the +deprivation of such rights through imprisonment. 43 This was especially true +of married women, who had no standing before the law. According to +English common law, marriage resulted in a state of “civil death,” as +symbolized by the wife’s assumption of the husband’s name. Consequently, +she tended to be punished for revolting against her domestic duties rather +than for failure in her meager public responsibilities. The relegation of +white women to domestic economies prevented them from playing a +significant role in the emergent commodity realm. This was especially true +since wage labor was typically gendered as male and racialized as white. It +is not fortuitous that domestic corporal punishment for women survived +long after these modes of punishment had become obsolete for (white) men. +The persistence of domestic violence painfully attests to these historical +modes of gendered punishment. +Some scholars have argued that the word “penitentiary” may have been +used first in connection with plans outlined in England in 1758 to house +“penitent prostitutes.” In 1777, John Howard, the leading Protestant +proponent of penal reform in England, published The State of the Prisons,44 +in which he conceptualized imprisonment as an occasion for religious selfreflection and self-reform. Between 1787 and 1791, the utilitarian +philosopher Jeremy Bentham published his letters on a prison model he +called the panopticon.45 Bentham claimed that criminals could only +internalize productive labor habits if they were under constant surveillance. + + According to his panopticon model, prisoners were to be housed in single +cells on circular tiers, all facing a multilevel guard tower. By means of +blinds and a complicated play of light and darkness, the prisoners—who +would not see each other at all—would be unable to see the warden. From +his vantage point, on the other hand, the warden would be able to see all of +the prisoners. However—and this was the most significant aspect of +Bentham’s mammoth panopticon—because each individual prisoner would +never be able to determine where the warden’s gaze was focused, each +prisoner would be compelled to act, that is, work, as if he were being +watched at all times. +If we combine Howard’s emphasis on disciplined self-reflection with +Bentham’s ideas regarding the technology of internalization designed to +make surveillance and discipline the purview of the individual prisoner, we +can begin to see how such a conception of the prison had far-reaching +implications. The conditions of possibility for this new form of punishment +were strongly anchored in a historical era during which the working class +needed to be constituted as an army of self-disciplined individuals capable +of performing the requisite industrial labor for a developing capitalist +system. +John Howard’s ideas were incorporated in the Penitentiary Act of 1799, +which opened the way for the modern prison. While Jeremy Bentham’s +ideas influenced the development of the first national English penitentiary, +located in Millbank and opened in 1816, the first full-fledged effort to +create a panopticon prison was in the United States. The Western State +Penitentiary in Pittsburgh, based on a revised architectural model of the +panopticon, opened in 1826. But the penitentiary had already made its +appearance in the United States. Pennsylvania’s Walnut Street Jail housed +the first state penitentiary in the United States, when a portion of the jail +was converted in 1790 from a detention facility to an institution housing +convicts whose prison sentences simultaneously became punishment and +occasions for penitence and reform. +Walnut Street’s austere regime—total isolation in single cells where +prisoners lived, ate, worked, read the Bible (if, indeed, they were literate), +and supposedly reflected and repented—came to be known as the + + Pennsylvania system. This regime would constitute one of that era’s two +major models of imprisonment. Although the other model, developed in +Auburn, New York, was viewed as a rival to the Pennsylvania system, the +philosophical basis of the two models did not differ substantively. The +Pennsylvania model, which eventually crystallized in the Eastern State +Penitentiary in Cherry Hill—the plans for which were approved in 1821— +emphasized total isolation, silence, and solitude, whereas the Auburn model +called for solitary cells but labor in common. This mode of prison labor, +which was called congregate, was supposed to unfold in total silence. +Prisoners were allowed to be with each other as they worked, but only +under condition of silence. Because of its more efficient labor practices, +Auburn eventually became the dominant model, both for the United States +and Europe. +Why would eighteenth- and nineteenth-century reformers become so +invested in creating conditions of punishment based on solitary +confinement? Today, aside from death, solitary confinement—next to +torture, or as a form of torture—is considered the worst form of punishment +imaginable. Then, however, it was assumed to have an emancipatory effect. +The body was placed in conditions of segregation and solitude in order to +allow the soul to flourish. It is not accidental that most of the reformers of +that era were deeply religious and therefore saw the architecture and +regimes of the penitentiary as emulating the architecture and regimes of +monastic life. Still, observers of the new penitentiary saw, early on, the real +potential for insanity in solitary confinement. In an often-quoted passage of +his American Notes, Charles Dickens prefaced a description of his 1842 +visit to Eastern Penitentiary with the observation that “the system here is +rigid, strict, and hopeless solitary confinement. I believe it, in its effects, to +be cruel and wrong.” +In its intention I am well convinced that it is kind, humane, and +meant for reformation; but I am persuaded that those who devised +this system of Prison Discipline, and those benevolent gentlemen +who carry it into execution, do not know what it is that they are +doing. I believe that very few men are capable of estimating the +immense amount of torture and agony that this dreadful punishment, +prolonged for years, inflicts upon the sufferers . . . I am only the + + more convinced that there is a depth of terrible endurance in it +which none but the sufferers themselves can fathom, and which no +man has a right to inflict upon his fellow-creature. I hold this slow +and daily tampering with the mysteries of the brain to be +immeasurably worse than any torture of the body . . . because its +wounds are not upon the surface, and it extorts few cries that human +ears can hear; therefore I the more denounce it, as a secret +punishment which slumbering humanity is not roused up to stay.46 +Unlike other Europeans such as Alexis de Tocqueville and Gustave de +Beaumont, who believed that such punishment would result in moral +renewal and thus mold convicts into better citizens,47 Dickens was of the +opinion that “[t]hose who have undergone this punishment MUST pass into +society again morally unhealthy and diseased.”48 This early critique of the +penitentiary and its regime of solitary confinement troubles the notion that +imprisonment is the most suitable form of punishment for a democratic +society. +The current construction and expansion of state and federal supermaximum security prisons, whose putative purpose is to address +disciplinary problems within the penal system, draws upon the historical +conception of the penitentiary, then considered the most progressive form of +punishment. Today African-Americans and Latinos are vastly +overrepresented in these supermax prisons and control units, the first of +which emerged when federal correctional authorities began to send +prisoners housed throughout the system whom they deemed to be +“dangerous” to the federal prison in Marion, Illinois. In 1983, the entire +prison was “locked down,” which meant that prisoners were confined to +their cells twenty-three hours a day. This lockdown became permanent, thus +furnishing the general model for the control unit and supermax prison.49 +Today, there are approximately sixty super-maximum security federal and +state prisons located in thirty-six states and many more supermax units in +virtually every state in the country. +A description of supermaxes in a 1997 Human Rights Watch report +sounds chillingly like Dickens’s description of Eastern State Penitentiary. + + What is different, however, is that all references to individual rehabilitation +have disappeared. +Inmates in super-maximum security facilities are usually held in +single cell lock-down, commonly referred to as solitary confinement +. . . [C]ongregate activities with other prisoners are usually +prohibited; other prisoners cannot even be seen from an inmate’s +cell; communication with other prisoners is prohibited or difficult +(consisting, for example, of shouting from cell to cell); visiting and +telephone privileges are limited.50 +The new generation of super-maximum security facilities also rely on +state-of-the-art technology for monitoring and controlling prisoner conduct +and movement, utilizing, for example, video monitors and remotecontrolled electronic doors.51 “These prisons represent the application of +sophisticated, modern technology dedicated entirely to the task of social +control, and they isolate, regulate and surveil more effectively than anything +that has preceded them.”52 +I have highlighted the similarities between the early U.S. penitentiary— +with its aspirations toward individual rehabilitation—and the repressive +supermaxes of our era as a reminder of the mutability of history. What was +once regarded as progressive and even revolutionary represents today the +marriage of technological superiority and political backwardness. No one— +not even the most ardent defenders of the supermax—would try to argue +today that absolute segregation, including sensory deprivation, is restorative +and healing. The prevailing justification for the supermax is that the horrors +it creates are the perfect complement for the horrifying personalities +deemed the worst of the worst by the prison system. In other words, there is +no pretense that rights are respected, there is no concern for the individual, +there is no sense that men and women incarcerated in supermaxes deserve +anything approaching respect and comfort. According to a 1999 report +issued by the National Institute of Corrections, +Generally, the overall constitutionality of these [supermax] programs +remains unclear. As larger numbers of inmates with a greater diversity of +characteristics, backgrounds, and behaviors are incarcerated in these +facilities, the likelihood of legal challenge is increased.53 + + During the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries, absolute solitude and +strict regimentation of the prisoner’s every action were viewed as strategies +for transforming habits and ethics. That is to say, the idea that imprisonment +should be the main form of punishment reflected a belief in the potential of +white mankind for progress, not only in science and industry, but at the +level of the individual member of society as well. Prison reformers mirrored +Enlightenment assumptions of progress in every aspect of human—or to be +more precise, white Western—society. In his 1987 study Imagining the +Penitentiary: Fiction and the Architecture of Mind in Eighteenth-Century +England, John Bender proposes the very intriguing argument that the +emergent literary genre of the novel furthered a discourse of progress and +individual transformation that encouraged attitudes toward punishment to +change.54 These attitudes, he suggests, heralded the conception and +construction of penitentiary prisons during the latter part of the eighteenth +century as a reform suited to the capacities of those who were deemed +human. +Reformers who called for the imposition of penitentiary architecture and +regimes on the then existing structure of the prison aimed their critiques at +the prisons that were primarily used for purposes of pretrial detention or as +an alternative punishment for those who were unable to pay fines exacted +by the courts. John Howard, the most well known of these reformers, was +what you might today call a prison activist. Beginning in 1773, at the age of +forty-seven, he initiated a series of visits that took him “to every institution +for the poor in Europe . . . [a campaign] which cost him his fortune and +finally his life in a typhus war of the Russian army at +Cherson in 1791.”55 At the conclusion of his first trip abroad, he +successfully ran for the office of sheriff in Bedfordshire. As sheriff he +investigated the prisons under his own jurisdiction and later “set out to visit +every prison in England and Wales to document the evils he had first +observed at Bedford.”56 +Bender argues that the novel helped facilitate these campaigns to +transform the old prisons—which were filthy and in disarray, and which +thrived on the bribery of the wardens—into well-ordered rehabilitative +penitentiaries. He shows that novels such as Moll Flanders and Robinson + + Crusoe emphasized “the power of confinement to reshape personalityʺ57 +and popularized some of the ideas that moved reformers to action. As +Bender points out, the eighteenth-century reformers criticized the old +prisons for their chaos, their lack of organization and classification, for the +easy circulation of alcohol and prostitution they permitted, and for the +prevalence of contagion and disease. +The reformers, primarily Protestant, among whom Quakers were +especially dominant, couched their ideas in large part in religious +frameworks. Though John Howard was not himself a Quaker—he was an +independent Protestant—nevertheless +[h]e was drawn to Quaker asceticism and adopted the dress “of a plain +Friend.” His own brand of piety was strongly reminiscent of the Quaker +traditions of silent prayer, “suffering” introspection, and faith in the +illumining power of God’s light. Quakers, for their part, were bound to be +drawn to the idea of imprisonment as a purgatory, as a forced withdrawal +from the distractions of the senses into silent and solitary confrontation with +the self. Howard conceived of a convict’s process of reformation in terms +similar to the spiritual awakening of a believer at a Quaker meeting.58 +However, according to Michael Ignatieff, Howard’s contributions did not +so much reside in the religiosity of his reform efforts. +The originality of Howard’s indictment lies in its “scientific,” not in +its moral character. Elected a Fellow of the Royal Society in 1756 +and author of several scientific papers on climatic variations in +Bedfordshire, Howard was one of the first philanthropists to attempt +a systematic statistical description of a social problem.59 +Likewise, Bender’s analysis of the relationship between the novel and the +penitentiary emphasizes the extent to which the philosophical +underpinnings of the prison reformer’s campaigns echoed the materialism +and utilitarianism of the English Enlightenment. The campaign to reform +the prisons was a project to impose order, classification, cleanliness, good +work habits, and self-consciousness. He argues that people detained within +the old prisons were not severely restricted—they sometimes even enjoyed +the freedom to move in and out of the prison. They were not compelled to + + work and, depending on their own resources, could eat and drink as they +wished. Even sex was sometimes available, as prostitutes were sometimes +allowed temporary entrance into the prisons. Howard and other reformers +called for the imposition of rigid rules that would “enforce solitude and +penitence, cleanliness and work.”60 +“The new penitentiaries,” according to Bender, “supplanting both the old +prisons and houses of correction, explicitly reached toward . . . three goals: +maintenance of order within a largely urban labor force, salvation of the +soul, and rationalization of personality.”61 He argues that this is precisely +what was narratively accomplished by the novel. It ordered and classified +social life, it represented individuals as conscious of their surroundings and +as self-aware and self-fashioning. Bender thus sees a kinship between two +major developments of the eighteenth century—the rise of the novel in the +cultural sphere and the rise of the penitentiary in the socio-legal sphere. If +the novel as a cultural form helped to produce the penitentiary, then prison +reformers must have been influenced by the ideas generated by and through +the eighteenth-century novel. +Literature has continued to play a role in campaigns around the prison. +During the twentieth century, prison writing, in particular, has periodically +experienced waves of popularity. The public recognition of prison writing +in the United States has historically coincided with the influence of social +movements calling for prison reform and/or abolition. Robert Burns’s I Am +a Fugitive from a Georgia Chain Gang,62 and the 1932 Hollywood film +upon which it was based, played a central role in the campaign to abolish +the chain gang. During the 1970s, which were marked by intense organizing +within, outside, and across prison walls, numerous works authored by +prisoners followed the 1970 publication of George Jackson’s Soledad +Brother63 and the anthology I coedited with Bettina Aptheker, If They Come +in the Morning.64 While many prison writers during that era had discovered +the emancipatory potential of writing on their own, relying either on the +education they had received prior to their imprisonment or on their +tenacious efforts at self-education, others pursued their writing as a direct +result of the expansion of prison educational programs during that era. + + Mumia Abu-Jamal, who has challenged the contemporary dismantling of +prison education programs, asks in Live from Death Row, +What societal interest is served by prisoners who remain illiterate? What +social benefit is there in ignorance? How are people corrected while +imprisoned if their education is outlawed? Who profits (other than the +prison establishment itself) from stupid prisoners?65 +A practicing journalist before his arrest in 1982 on charges of killing +Philadelphia policeman Daniel Faulkner, Abu-Jamal has regularly produced +articles on capital punishment, focusing especially on its racial and class +disproportions. His ideas have helped to link critiques of the death penalty +with the more general challenges to the expanding U.S. prison system and +are particularly helpful to activists who seek to associate death penalty +abolitionism with prison abolitionism. His prison writings have been +published in both popular and scholarly journals (such as The Nation and +Yale Law Journal) as well as in three collections, Live from Death Row, +Death Blossoms,66 and All Things Censored.67 +Abu-Jamal and many other prison writers have strongly criticized the +prohibition of Pell Grants for prisoners, which was enacted in the 1994 +crime bill,68 as indicative of the contemporary pattern of dismantling +educational programs behind bars. As creative writing courses for prisoners +were defunded, virtually every literary journal publishing prisoners’ writing +eventually collapsed. Of the scores of magazines and newspapers produced +behind walls, only the Angolite at Louisiana’s Angola Prison and Prison +Legal News at Washington State Prison remain. What this means is that +precisely at a time of consolidating a significant writing culture behind bars, +repressive strategies are being deployed to dissuade prisoners from +educating themselves. +If the publication of Malcolm X’s autobiography marks a pivotal moment +in the development of prison literature and a moment of vast promise for +prisoners who try to make education a major dimension of their time behind +bars,69 contemporary prison practices are systematically dashing those +hopes. In the 1950s, Malcolm’s prison education was a dramatic example of +prisoners’ ability to turn their incarceration into a transformative +experience. With no available means of organizing his quest for knowledge, + + he proceeded to read a dictionary, copying each word in his own hand. By +the time he could immerse himself in reading, he noted, “months passed +without my even thinking about being imprisoned. In fact, up to then, I +never had been so truly free in my life.ʺ70 Then, according to Malcolm, +prisoners who demonstrated an unusual interest in reading were assumed to +have embarked upon a journey of self-rehabilitation and were frequently +allowed special privileges—such as checking out more than the maximum +number of books. Even so, in order to pursue this self-education, Malcolm +had to work against the prison regime—he often read on his cell floor, long +after lights-out, by the glow of the corridor light, taking care to return to bed +each hour for the two minutes during which the guard marched past his cell. +The contemporary disestablishment of writing and other prison +educational programs is indicative of the official disregard today for +rehabilitative strategies, particularly those that encourage individual +prisoners to acquire autonomy of the mind. The documentary film The Last +Graduation describes the role prisoners played in establishing a four-year +college program at New York’s Greenhaven Prison and, twenty-two years +later, the official decision to dismantle it. According to Eddie Ellis, who +spent twenty-five years in prison and is currently a well-known leader of the +antiprison movement, “As a result of Attica, college programs came into the +prisons.ʺ71 +In the aftermath of the 1971 prisoner rebellion at Attica and the +government-sponsored massacre, public opinion began to favor prison +reform. Forty-three Attica prisoners and eleven guards and civilians were +killed by the National Guard, who had been ordered to retake the prison by +Governor Nelson Rockefeller. The leaders of the prison rebellion had been +very specific about their demands. In their “practical demands” they +expressed concerns about diet, improvement in the quality of guards, more +realistic rehabilitation programs, and better education programs. They also +wanted religious freedom, freedom to engage in political activity, and an +end to censorship—all of which they saw as indispensable to their +educational needs. As Eddie Ellis observes in The Last Graduation, +Prisoners very early recognized the fact that they needed to be better +educated, that the more education they had, the better they would be able to + + deal with themselves and their problems, the problems of the prisons and +the problems of the communities from which most of them came. +Lateef Islam, another former prisoner featured in this documentary, said, +“We held classes before the college came. We taught each other, and +sometimes under penalty of a beat-up.” +After the Attica Rebellion, more than five hundred prisoners were +transferred to Greenhaven, including some of the leaders who continued to +press for educational programs. As a direct result of their demands, Marist +College, a New York state college near Greenhaven, began to offer collegelevel courses in 1973 and eventually established the infrastructure for an +on-site four-year college program. The program thrived for twenty-two +years. Some of the many prisoners who earned their degrees at Greenhaven +pursued postgraduate studies after their release. As the documentary +powerfully demonstrates, the program produced dedicated men who left +prison and offered their newly acquired knowledge and skills to their +communities on the outside. +In 1994, consistent with the general pattern of creating more prisons and +more repression within all prisons, Congress took up the question of +withdrawing college funding for inmates. The congressional debate +concluded with a decision to add an amendment to the 1994 crime bill that +eliminated all Pell Grants for prisoners, thus effectively defunding all higher +educational programs. After twenty-two years, Marist College was +compelled to terminate its program at Greenhaven Prison. Thus, the +documentary revolves around the very last graduation ceremony on July 15, +1995, and the poignant process of removing the books that, in many ways, +symbolized the possibilities of freedom. Or, as one of the Marist professors +said, “They see books as full of gold.” The prisoner who for many years had +served as a clerk for the college sadly reflected, as books were being +moved, that there was nothing left to do in prison—except perhaps +bodybuilding. “But,” he asked, “what’s the use of building your body if you +can’t build your mind?” Ironically, not long after educational programs +were disestablished, weights and bodybuilding equipment were also +removed from most U.S. prisons. + + 4 +How Gender Structures the Prison System +“I have been told that I will never leave prison if I +continue to fight the system. My answer is that one must +be +alive in order to leave prison, and our current +standard of +medical care is tantamount to a death sentence. +Therefore, I have no choice but to continue . . . +Conditions +within the institution continually reinvoke +memories of +violence and oppression, often with devastating +results. +Unlike other incarcerated women who have come +forward +to reveal their impressions of prison, I do not feel +‘safer’ +here because ‘the abuse has stopped.’ It has not +stopped. It +has shifted shape and paced itself differently, but it +is as +insidious and pervasive in prison as ever it was in +the +world I know outside these walls. What has ceased +is my +ignorance of the facts concerning abuse—and my + + willingness to tolerate it in silence.” +—Marcia Bunny72 + +Over the last five years, the prison system has received far more attention +by the media than at any time since the period following the 1971 Attica +Rebellion. However, with a few important exceptions, women have been +left out of the public discussions about the expansion of the U.S. prison +system. I am not suggesting that simply bringing women into the existing +conversations on jails and prisons will deepen our analysis of state +punishment and further the project of prison abolition. Addressing issues +that are specific to women’s prisons is of vital importance, but it is equally +important to shift the way we think about the prison system as a whole. +Certainly women’s prison practices are gendered, but so, too, are men’s +prison practices. To assume that men’s institutions constitute the norm and +women’s institutions are marginal is, in a sense, to participate in the very +normalization of prisons that an abolitionist approach seeks to contest. +Thus, the title of this chapter is not “Women and the Prison System,” but +rather “How Gender Structures the Prison System.” Moreover, scholars and +activists who are involved in feminist projects should not consider the +structure of state punishment as marginal to their work. Forward-looking +research and organizing strategies should recognize that the deeply +gendered character of punishment both reflects and further entrenches the +gendered structure of the larger society. +Women prisoners have produced a small but impressive body of literature +that has illuminated significant aspects of the organization of punishment +that would have otherwise remained unacknowledged. Assata Shakur’s +memoirs,73 for example, reveal the dangerous intersections of racism, male +domination, and state strategies of political repression. In 1977 she was +convicted on charges of murder and assault in connection with a 1973 +incident that left one New Jersey state trooper dead and another wounded. +She and her companion, Zayd Shakur, who was killed during the shootout, +were the targets of what we now name racial profiling and were stopped by + + state troopers under the pretext of a broken taillight. At the time Assata +Shakur, known then as Joanne Chesimard, was underground and had been +anointed by the police and the media as the “Soul of the Black Liberation +Army.” By her 1977 conviction, she either had been acquitted or had +charges dismissed in six other cases—upon the basis of which she had been +declared a fugitive in the first place. Her attorney, Lennox Hinds, has +pointed out that since it was proven that Assata Shakur did not handle the +gun with which the state troopers were shot, her mere presence in the +automobile, against the backdrop of the media demonization to which she +was subjected, constituted the basis of her conviction. In the foreword to +Shakur’s autobiography Hinds writes: +In the history of New Jersey, no woman pretrial detainee or prisoner has +ever been treated as she was, continuously confined in a men’s prison, +under twenty-four-hour surveillance of her most intimate functions, without +intellectual sustenance, adequate medical attention, and exercise, and +without the company of other women for all the years she was in their +custody.74 +There is no doubt that Assata Shakur’s status as a black political prisoner +accused of killing a state trooper caused her to be singled out by the +authorities for unusually cruel treatment. However, her own account +emphasizes the extent to which her individual experiences reflected those of +other imprisoned women, especially black and Puerto Rican women. Her +description of the strip search, which focuses on the internal examination of +body cavities, is especially revealing: +Joan Bird and Afeni Shakur [members of the Black Panther Party] had told +me about it after they had been bailed out in the Panther 21 trial. When they +had told me, I was horrified. +“You mean they really put their hands inside you, to search you?” I had +asked. +“Uh-huh,” they answered. Every woman who has ever been on the rock, +or in the old house of detention, can tell you about it. The women call it +“getting the finger” or, more vulgarly, “getting finger-fucked.” +“What happens if you refuse?” I had asked Afeni. + + “They lock you in the hole and they don’t let you out until you consent to +be searched internally.” +I thought about refusing, but I sure as hell didn’t want to be in the hole. I +had had enough of solitary. The “internal search” was as humiliating and +disgusting as it sounded. You sit on the edge of this table and the nurse +holds your legs open and sticks a finger in your vagina and moves it around. +She has a plastic glove on. Some of them try to put one finger in your +vagina and another one up your rectum at the same time.75 +I have quoted this passage so extensively because it exposes an everyday +routine in women’s prisons that verges on sexual assault as much as it is +taken for granted. Having been imprisoned in the Women’s House of +Detention to which Joan Bird and Afeni Shakur refer, I can personally +affirm the veracity of their claims. Over thirty years after Bird and Afeni +Shakur were released and after I myself spent several months in the +Women’s House of Detention, this issue of the strip search is still very +much on the front burner of women’s prison activism. In 2001 Sisters +Inside, an Australian support organization for women prisoners, launched a +national campaign against the strip search, the slogan of which was “Stop +State Sexual Assault.” Assata Shakur’s autobiography provides an +abundance of insights about the gendering of state punishment and reveals +the extent to which women’s prisons have held on to oppressive patriarchal +practices that are considered obsolete in the “free world.” She spent six +years in several jails and prisons before escaping in 1979 and receiving +political asylum by the Republic of Cuba in 1984, where she lives today. +Elizabeth Gurley Flynn wrote an earlier account of life in a women’s +prison, The Alderson Story: My Life as a Political Prisoner.76 At the height +of the McCarthy era, Flynn, a labor activist and Communist leader, was +convicted under the Smith Act and served two years in Alderson Federal +Reformatory for Women from 1955 to 1957. Following the dominant model +for women’s prisons during that period, Alderson’s regimes were based on +the assumption that “criminal” women could be rehabilitated by +assimilating correct womanly behaviors—that is, by becoming experts in +domesticity—especially cooking, cleaning, and sewing. Of course, training +designed to produce better wives and mothers among middle-class white + + women effectively produced skilled domestic servants among black and +poor women. Flynn’s book provides vivid descriptions of these everyday +regimes. Her autobiography is located in a tradition of prison writing by +political prisoners that also includes women of this era. Contemporary +writings by women political prisoners today include poems and short stories +by Ericka Huggins and Susan Rosenberg, analyses of the prison industrial +complex by Linda Evans, and curricula for HIV/AIDS education in +women’s prisons by Kathy Boudin and the members of the Bedford Hills +ACE collective.77 +Despite the availability of perceptive portrayals of life in women’s +prisons, it has been extremely difficult to persuade the public—and even, on +occasion, to persuade prison activists who are primarily concerned with the +plight of male prisoners—of the centrality of gender to an understanding of +state punishment. Although men constitute the vast majority of prisoners in +the world, important aspects of the operation of state punishment are missed +if it is assumed that women are marginal and thus undeserving of attention. +The most frequent justification for the inattention to women prisoners and +to the particular issues surrounding women’s imprisonment is the relatively +small proportion of women among incarcerated populations throughout the +world. In most countries, the percentage of women among prison +populations hovers around five percent.78 However, the economic and +political shifts of the 1980s—the globalization of economic markets, the +deindustrialization of the U.S. economy, the dismantling of such social +service programs as Aid to Families of Dependent Children, and, of course, +the prison construction boom—produced a significant acceleration in the +rate of women’s imprisonment both inside and outside the United States. In +fact, women remain today the fastest-growing sector of the U.S. prison +population. This recent rise in the rate of women’s imprisonment points +directly to the economic context that produced the prison industrial complex +and that has had a devastating impact on men and women alike. +It is from this perspective of the contemporary expansion of prisons, both +in the United States and throughout the world, that we should examine +some of the historical and ideological aspects of state punishment imposed +on women. Since the end of the eighteenth century, when, as we have seen, +imprisonment began to emerge as the dominant form of punishment, + + convicted women have been represented as essentially different from their +male counterparts. It is true that men who commit the kinds of +transgressions that are regarded as punishable by the state are labeled as +social deviants. Nevertheless, masculine criminality has always been +deemed more “normal” than feminine criminality. There has always been a +tendency to regard those women who have been publicly punished by the +state for their misbehaviors as significantly more aberrant and far more +threatening to society than their numerous male counterparts. +In seeking to understand this gendered difference in the perception of +prisoners, it should be kept in mind that as the prison emerged and evolved +as the major form of public punishment, women continued to be routinely +subjected to forms of punishment that have not been acknowledged as such. +For example, women have been incarcerated in psychiatric institutions in +greater proportions than in prisons.79 Studies indicating that women have +been even more likely to end up in mental facilities than men suggest that +while jails and prisons have been dominant institutions for the control of +men, mental institutions have served a similar purpose for women. That is, +deviant men have been constructed as criminal, while deviant women have +been constructed as insane. Regimes that reflect this assumption continue to +inform the women’s prison. Psychiatric drugs continue to be distributed far +more extensively to imprisoned women than to their male counterparts. A +Native American woman incarcerated in the Women’s Correctional Center +in Montana related her experience with psychotropic drugs to sociologist +Luana Ross: +Haldol is a drug they give people who can’t cope with lockup. It makes you +feel dead, paralyzed. And then I started getting side effects from Haldol. I +wanted to fight anybody, any of the officers. I was screaming at them and +telling them to get out of my face, so the doctor said, “We can’t have that.” +And, they put me on Tranxene. I don’t take pills; I never had trouble +sleeping until I got here. Now I’m supposed to see [the counselor] again +because of my dreams. If you got a problem, they’re not going to take care +of it. They’re going to put you on drugs so they can control you.80 +Prior to the emergence of the penitentiary and thus of the notion of +punishment as “doing time,” the use of confinement to control beggars, + + thieves, and the insane did not necessarily distinguish among these +categories of deviancy. At this phase in the history of punishment—prior to +the American and French Revolutions—the classification process through +which criminality is differentiated from poverty and mental illness had not +yet developed. As the discourse on criminality and the corresponding +institutions to control it distinguished the “criminal” from the “insane,” the +gendered distinction took hold and continued to structure penal policies. +Gendered as female, this category of insanity was highly sexualized. When +we consider the impact of class and race here, we can say that for white and +affluent women, this equalization tends to serve as evidence for emotional +and mental disorders, but for black and poor women, it has pointed to +criminality. +It should also be kept in mind that until the abolition of slavery, the vast +majority of black women were subject to regimes of punishment that +differed significantly from those experienced by white women. As slaves, +they were directly and often brutally disciplined for conduct considered +perfectly normal in a context of freedom. Slave punishment was visibly +gendered—special penalties, were, for example, reserved for pregnant +women unable to reach the quotas that determined how long and how fast +they should work. In the slave narrative of Moses Grandy, an especially +brutal form of whipping is described in which the woman was required to +lie on the ground with her stomach positioned in a hole, whose purpose was +to safeguard the fetus (conceived as future slave labor). If we expand our +definition of punishment under slavery, we can say that the coerced sexual +relations between slave and master constituted a penalty exacted on women, +if only for the sole reason that they were slaves. In other words, the +deviance of the slave master was transferred to the slave woman, whom he +victimized. Likewise, sexual abuse by prison guards is translated into +hypersexuality of women prisoners. The notion that female “deviance” +always has a sexual dimension persists in the contemporary era, and this +intersection of criminality and sexuality continues to be racialized. Thus, +white women labeled as “criminals” are more closely associated with +blackness than their “normal” counterparts. +Prior to the emergence of the prison as the major form of public +punishment, it was taken for granted that violators of the law would be + + subjected to corporal and frequently capital penalties. What is not generally +recognized is the connection between state-inflicted corporal punishment +and the physical assaults on women in domestic spaces. This form of bodily +discipline has continued to be routinely meted out to women in the context +of intimate relationships, but it is rarely understood to be related to state +punishment. +Quaker reformers in the United States—especially the Philadelphia +Society for Alleviating the Miseries of Public Prisons, founded in 1787— +played a pivotal role in campaigns to substitute imprisonment for corporal +punishment. Following in the tradition established by Elizabeth Fry in +England, Quakers were also responsible for extended crusades to institute +separate prisons for women. Given the practice of incarcerating +criminalized women in men’s prisons, the demand for separate women’s +prisons was viewed as quite radical during this period. Fry formulated +principles governing prison reform for women in her 1827 work, +Observations in Visiting, Superintendence and Government of Female +Prisoners, which were taken up in the United States by women such as +Josephine Shaw Lowell and Abby Hopper Gibbons. In the 1870s, Lowell +and Gibbons helped to lead the campaign in New York for separate prisons +for women. +Prevailing attitudes toward women convicts differed from those toward +men convicts, who were assumed to have forfeited rights and liberties that +women generally could not claim even in the “free world.” Although some +women were housed in penitentiaries, the institution itself was gendered as +male, for by and large no particular arrangements were made to +accommodate sentenced women. +The women who served in penal institutions between 1820 and 1870 +were not subject to the prison reform experienced by male inmates. +Officials employed isolation, silence, and hard labor to rehabilitate +male prisoners. The lack of accommodations for female inmates +made isolation and silence impossible for them and productive labor +was not considered an important part of their routine. The neglect of +female prisoners, however, was rarely benevolent. Rather, a pattern + + of overcrowding, harsh treatment, and sexual abuse recurred +throughout prison histories.81 +Male punishment was linked ideologically to penitence and reform. The +very forfeiture of rights and liberties implied that with self-reflection, +religious study, and work, male convicts could achieve redemption and +could recover these rights and liberties. However, since women were not +acknowledged as securely in possession of these rights, they were not +eligible to participate in this process of redemption. +According to dominant views, women convicts were irrevocably fallen +women, with no possibility of salvation. If male criminals were considered +to be public individuals who had simply violated the social contract, female +criminals were seen as having transgressed fundamental moral principles of +womanhood. The reformers, who, following Elizabeth Fry, argued that +women were capable of redemption, did not really contest these ideological +assumptions about women’s place. In other words, they did not question the +very notion of “fallen women.” Rather, they simply opposed the idea that +“fallen women” could not be saved. They could be saved, the reformers +contended, and toward that end they advocated separate penal facilities and +a specifically female approach to punishment. Their approach called for +architectural models that replaced cells with cottages and “rooms” in a way +that was supposed to infuse domesticity into prison life. This model +facilitated a regime devised to reintegrate criminalized women into the +domestic life of wife and mother. They did not, however, acknowledge the +class and race underpinnings of this regime. Training that was, on the +surface, designed to produce good wives and mothers in effect steered poor +women (and especially black women) into “free world” jobs in domestic +service. Instead of stay-at-home skilled wives and mothers, many women +prisoners, upon release, would become maids, cooks, and washerwomen for +more affluent women. A female custodial staff, the reformers also argued, +would minimize the sexual temptations, which they believed were often at +the root of female criminality. +When the reform movement calling for separate prisons for women +emerged in England and the United States during the nineteenth century, +Elizabeth Fry, Josephine Shaw, and other advocates argued against the + + established idea that criminal women were beyond the reach of moral +rehabilitation. Like male convicts, who presumably could be “corrected” by +rigorous prison regimes, female convicts, they suggested, could also be +molded into moral beings by differently gendered imprisonment regimes. +Architectural changes, domestic regimes, and an all-female custodial staff +were implemented in the reformatory program proposed by reformers,82 +and eventually women’s prisons became as strongly anchored to the social +landscape as men’s prisons, but even more invisible. Their greater +invisibility was as much a reflection of the way women’s domestic duties +under patriarchy were assumed to be normal, natural, and consequently +invisible as it was of the relatively small numbers of women incarcerated in +these new institutions. +Twenty-one years after the first English reformatory for women was +established in London in 1853, the first U.S. reformatory for women was +opened in Indiana. The aim was to +train the prisoners in the “important” female role of domesticity. Thus an +important role of the reform movement in women’s prisons was to +encourage and ingrain “appropriate” gender roles, such as vocational +training in cooking, sewing and cleaning. To accommodate these goals, the +reformatory cottages were usually designed with kitchens, living rooms, +and even some nurseries for prisoners with infants.83 +However, this feminized public punishment did not affect all women in +the same way. When black and Native American women were imprisoned +in reformatories, they often were segregated from white women. Moreover, +they tended to be disproportionately sentenced to men’s prisons. In the +southern states in the aftermath of the Civil War, black women endured the +cruelties of the convict lease system unmitigated by the feminization of +punishment; neither their sentences nor the labor they were compelled to do +were lessened by virtue of their gender. As the U.S. prison system evolved +during the twentieth century, feminized modes of punishment—the cottage +system, domestic training, and so on—were designed ideologically to +reform white women, relegating women of color in large part to realms of +public punishment that made no pretense of offering them femininity. + + Moreover, as Lucia Zedner has pointed out, sentencing practices for +women within the reformatory system often required women of all racial +backgrounds to do more time than men for similar offenses. “This +differential was justified on the basis that women were sent to reformatories +not to be punished in proportion to the seriousness of their offense but to be +reformed and retrained, a process that, it was argued, required time.”84 At +the same time, Zedner points out, this tendency to send women to prison for +longer terms than men was accelerated by the eugenics movement, “which +sought to have ‘genetically inferior’ women removed from social +circulation for as many of their child-bearing years as possible.ʺ85 +At the beginning of the twenty-first century, women’s prisons have begun +to look more like their male counterparts, particularly facilities constructed +in the contemporary era of the prison industrial complex. As corporate +involvement in punishment expands in ways that would have been +unimaginable just two decades ago, the prison’s presumed goal of +rehabilitation has been thoroughly displaced by incapacitation as the major +objective of imprisonment. As I have already pointed out, now that the +population of U.S. prisons and jails has surpassed two million people, the +rate of increase in the numbers of women prisoners has exceeded that of +men. As criminologist Elliot Currie has pointed out, +For most of the period after World War II, the female incarceration rate +hovered at around 8 per 100,000; it did not reach double digits until 1977. +Today it is 51 per 100,000 . . . At the current rates of increase, there will be +more women in American prisons in the year 2010 than there were inmates +of both sexes in 1970. When we combine the effects of race and gender, the +nature of these shifts in the prison population is even clearer. The prison +incarceration rate for black women today exceeds that for white men as +recently as 1980.86 +Luana Ross’s study of Native American women incarcerated in the +Women’s Correctional Center in Montana argues that “prisons, as employed +by the Euro-American system, operate to keep Native Americans in a +colonial situation.”87 She points out that Native people are vastly +overrepresented in the country’s federal and state prisons. In Montana, +where she did her research, they constitute 6 percent of the general + + population, but 17.3 percent of the imprisoned population. Native women +are even more disproportionately present in Montana’s prison system. They +constitute 25 percent of all women imprisoned by the state.88 +Thirty years ago, around the time of the Attica uprising and the murder of +George Jackson at San Quentin, radical opposition to the prison system +identified it as a principal site of state violence and repression. In part as a +reaction to the invisibility of women prisoners in this movement and in part +as a consequence of the rising women’s liberation movement, specific +campaigns developed in defense of the rights of women prisoners. Many of +these campaigns put forth—and continue to advance—radical critiques of +state repression and violence. Within the correctional community, however, +feminism has been influenced largely by liberal constructions of gender +equality. +In contrast to the nineteenth-century reform movement, which was +grounded in an ideology of gender difference, late-twentieth-century +“reforms” have relied on a “separate but equal” model. This “separate but +equal” approach often has been applied uncritically, ironically resulting in +demands for more repressive conditions in order to render women’s +facilities “equal” to men’s. A clear example of this can be discovered in a +memoir, The Warden Wore Pink, written by a former warden of Huron +Valley Women’s Prison in Michigan. During the 1980s, the author, Tekla +Miller, advocated a change in policies within the Michigan correctional +system that would result in women prisoners being treated the same as men +prisoners. With no trace of irony, she characterizes as “feminist” her own +fight for “gender equality” between male and female prisoners and for +equality between male and female institutions of incarceration. One of these +campaigns focuses on the unequal allocation of weapons, which she sought +to remedy: +Arsenals in men’s prisons are large rooms with shelves of shotguns, rifles, +hand guns, ammunition, gas canisters, and riot equipment . . . Huron Valley +Women’s arsenal was a small, five feet by two feet closet that held two +rifles, eight shotguns, two bullhorns, five handguns, four gas canisters, and +twenty sets of restraints.89 + + It does not occur to her that a more productive version of feminism +would also question the organization of state punishment for men as well +and, in my opinion, would seriously consider the proposition that the +institution as a whole—gendered as it is—calls for the kind of critique that +might lead us to consider its abolition. +Miller also describes the case of an attempted escape by a woman +prisoner. The prisoner climbed over the razor ribbon but was captured after +she jumped to the ground on the other side. This escape attempt occasioned +a debate about the disparate treatment of men and women escapees. Miller’s +position was that guards should be instructed to shoot at women just as they +were instructed to shoot at men. She argued that parity for women and men +prisoners should consist in their equal right to be fired upon by guards. The +outcome of the debate, Miller observed, was that +escaping women prisoners in medium or higher [security] prisons are +treated the same way as men. A warning shot is fired. If the prisoner fails to +halt and is over the fence, an officer is allowed to shoot to injure. If the +officer’s life is in danger, the officer can shoot to kill.90 +Paradoxically, demands for parity with men’s prisons, instead of creating +greater educational, vocational, and health opportunities for women +prisoners, often have led to more repressive conditions for women. This is +not only a consequence of deploying liberal—that is, formalistic— notions +of equality, but of, more dangerous, allowing male prisons to function as the +punishment norm. Miller points out that she attempted to prevent a female +prisoner, whom she characterizes as a “murderer” serving a long term, from +participating in graduation ceremonies at the University of Michigan +because male murderers were not given such privileges. (Of course, she +does not indicate the nature of the woman’s murder charges—whether, for +instance, she was convicted of killing an abusive partner, as is the case for a +substantial number of women convicted of murder.) Although Miller did +not succeed in preventing the inmate from participating in the +commencement, in addition to her cap and gown, the prisoner was made to +wear leg chains and handcuffs during the ceremony.91 This is indeed a +bizarre example of feminist demands for equality within the prison system. + + A widely publicized example of the use of repressive paraphernalia +historically associated with the treatment of male prisoners to create +“equality” for female prisoners was the 1996 decision by Alabama’s prison +commissioner to establish women’s chain gangs. After Alabama became the +first state to reinstitute chain gangs in 1995, then State Corrections +Commissioner Ron Jones announced the following year that women would +be shackled while they cut grass, picked up trash, or worked a vegetable +garden at Julia Tutwiler State Prison for Women. This attempt to institute +chain gangs for women was in part a response to lawsuits by male +prisoners, who charged that male chain gains discriminated against men by +virtue of their gender.92 However, immediately after Jones’s announcement, +Governor Fob James, who obviously was pressured to prevent Alabama +from acquiring the dubious distinction of being the only U.S. state to have +equal- opportunity chain gangs, fired him. +Shortly after Alabama’s embarrassing flirtation with the possibility of +chain gangs for women, Sheriff Joe Arpaio of Maricopo County, Arizona— +represented in the media as “the toughest sheriff in America”—held a press +conference to announce that because he was “an equal opportunity +incarcerator,” he was establishing the country’s first female chain gang.93 +When the plan was implemented, newspapers throughout the country +carried a photograph of chained women cleaning Phoenix’s streets. Even +though this may have been a publicity stunt designed to bolster the fame of +Sheriff Arpaio, the fact that this women’s chain gang emerged against the +backdrop of a generalized increase in the repression inflicted on women +prisoners is certainly cause for alarm. Women’s prisons throughout the +country increasingly include sections known as security housing units. The +regimes of solitary confinement and sensory deprivation in the security +housing unit (SHU) in these sections within women’s prisons are smaller +versions of the rapidly proliferating super-maximum security prisons. Since +the population of women in prison now consists of a majority of women of +color, the historical resonances of slavery, colonization, and genocide +should not be missed in these images of women in chains and shackles. +As the level of repression in women’s prisons increases, and, +paradoxically, as the influence of domestic prison regimes recedes, sexual +abuse—which, like domestic violence, is yet another dimension of the + + privatized punishment of women—has become an institutionalized +component of punishment behind prison walls. Although guard-on-prisoner +sexual abuse is not sanctioned as such, the widespread leniency with which +offending officers are treated suggests that for women, prison is a space in +which the threat of sexualized violence that looms in the larger society is +effectively sanctioned as a routine aspect of the landscape of punishment +behind prison walls. +According to a 1996 Human Rights Watch report on the sexual abuse of +women in U.S. prisons: +Our findings indicate that being a woman prisoner in U.S. state prisons can +be a terrifying experience. If you are sexually abused, you cannot escape +from your abuser. Grievance or investigatory procedures, where they exist, +are often ineffectual, and correctional employees continue to engage in +abuse because they believe they will rarely be held accountable, +administratively or criminally. Few people outside the prison walls know +what is going on or care if they do know. Fewer still do anything to address +the problem.94 +The following excerpt from the summary of this report, entitled All Too +Familiar: Sexual Abuse of Women in U.S. State Prisons, reveals the extent +to which women’s prison environments are violently sexualized, thus +recapitulating the familiar violence that characterizes many women’s +private lives: +We found that male correctional employees have vaginally, anally, and +orally raped female prisoners and sexually assaulted and abused them. We +found that in the course of committing such gross misconduct, male officers +have not only used actual or threatened physical force, but have also used +their near total authority to provide or deny goods and privileges to female +prisoners to compel them to have sex or, in other cases, to reward them for +having done so. In other cases, male officers have violated their most basic +professional duty and engaged in sexual contact with female prisoners +absent the use of threat of force or any material exchange. In addition to +engaging in sexual relations with prisoners, male officers have used +mandatory pat-frisks or room searches to grope women’s breasts, buttocks, +and vaginal areas and to view them inappropriately while in a state of + + undress in the housing or bathroom areas. Male correctional officers and +staff have also engaged in regular verbal degradation and harassment of +female prisoners, thus contributing to a custodial environment in the state +prisons for women that is often highly sexualized and excessively hostile.95 +The violent sexualization of prison life within women’s institutions raises +a number of issues that may help us develop further our critique of the +prison system. Ideologies of sexuality—and particularly the intersection of +race and sexuality—have had a profound effect on the representations of +and treatment received by women of color both within and outside prison. +Of course, black and Latino men experience a perilous continuity in the +way they are treated in school, where they are disciplined as potential +criminals; in the streets, where they are subjected to racial profiling by the +police; and in prison, where they are warehoused and deprived of virtually +all of their rights. For women, the continuity of treatment from the free +world to the universe of the prison is even more complicated, since they +also confront forms of violence in prison that they have confronted in their +homes and intimate relationships. +The criminalization of black and Latina women includes persisting +images of hypersexuality that serve to justify sexual assaults against them +both in and outside of prison. Such images were vividly rendered in a +Nightline television series filmed in November 1999 on location at +California’s Valley State Prison for Women. Many of the women +interviewed by Ted Koppel complained that they received frequent and +unnecessary pelvic examinations, including when they visited the doctor +with such routine illnesses as colds. In an attempt to justify these +examinations, the chief medical officer explained that women prisoners had +rare opportunities for “male contact,” and that they therefore welcomed +these superfluous gynecological exams. Although this officer was +eventually removed from his position as a result of these comments, his +reassignment did little to alter the pervasive vulnerability of imprisoned +women to sexual abuse. +Studies on female prisons throughout the world indicate that sexual abuse +is an abiding, though unacknowledged, form of punishment to which +women, who have the misfortune of being sent to prison, are subjected. + + This is one aspect of life in prison that women can expect to encounter, +either directly or indirectly, regardless of the written policies that govern the +institution. In June 1998, Radhika Coomaraswamy, the United Nations +Special Rapporteur for Violence Against Women, visited federal and state +prisons as well as Immigration and Naturalization detention facilities in +New York, Connecticut, New Jersey, Minnesota, Georgia, and California. +She was refused permission to visit women’s prisons in Michigan, where +serious allegations of sexual abuse were pending. In the aftermath of her +visits, Coomaraswamy announced that “sexual misconduct by prison staff is +widespread in American women’s prisons.”96 +This clandestine institutionalization of sexual abuse violates one of the +guiding principles of the United Nations’ Standard Minimum Rules for the +Treatment of Prisoners, a UN instrument first adopted in 1955 and used as a +guideline by many governments to achieve what is known as “good prison +practice.” However, the U.S. government has done little to publicize these +rules and it is probably the case that most correctional personnel have never +heard of these UN standards. According to the Standard Minimum Rules, +Imprisonment and other measures which result in cutting off an offender +from the outside world are afflictive by the very fact of taking from the +person the right of self-determination by depriving him of his liberty. +Therefore the prison system shall not, except as incidental to justifiable +segregation or the maintenance of discipline, aggravate the suffering +inherent in such a situation.97 +Sexual abuse is surreptitiously incorporated into one of the most habitual +aspects of women’s imprisonment, the strip search. As activists and +prisoners themselves have pointed out, the state itself is directly implicated +in this routinization of sexual abuse, both in permitting such conditions that +render women vulnerable to explicit sexual coercion carried out by guards +and other prison staff and by incorporating into routine policy such +practices as the strip search and body cavity search. +Australian lawyer/activist Amanda George has pointed out that +[t]he acknowledgement that sexual assault does occur in institutions for +people with intellectual disabilities, prisons, psychiatric hospitals, youth + + training centres and police stations, usually centres around the criminal acts +of rape and sexual assault by individuals employed in those institutions. +These offences, though they are rarely reported, are clearly understood as +being ”crimes” for which the individual and not the state is responsible. At +the same time as the state deplores “unlawful” sexual assaults by its +employees, it actually uses sexual assault as a means of control. +In Victoria, prison and police officers are vested with the power and +responsibility to do acts which, if done outside of work hours, would be +crimes of sexual assault. If a person does not “consent” to being stripped +naked by these officers, force can lawfully be used to do it . . . These legal +strip searches are, in the author’s view, sexual assaults within the definition +of indecent assault in the Crimes Act 1958 (Vic) as amended in section 39.98 +At a November 2001 conference on women in prison held by the +Brisbane-based organization Sisters Inside, Amanda George described an +action performed before a national gathering of correctional personnel +working in women’s prisons. Several women seized control of the stage +and, some playing guards, others playing the roles of prisoners, dramatized +a strip search. According to George, the gathering was so repulsed by this +enactment of a practice that occurs routinely in women’s prisons +everywhere that many of the participants felt compelled to disassociate +themselves from such practices, insisting that this was not what they did. +Some of the guards, George said, simply cried upon watching +representations of their own actions outside the prison context. What they +must have realized is that “without the uniform, without the power of the +state, [the strip search] would be sexual assault.”99 +But why is an understanding of the pervasiveness of sexual abuse in +women’s prisons an important element of a radical analysis of the prison +system, and especially of those forward-looking analyses that lead us in the +direction of abolition? Because the call to abolish the prison as the +dominant form of punishment cannot ignore the extent to which the +institution of the prison has stockpiled ideas and practices that are hopefully +approaching obsolescence in the larger society, but that retain all their +ghastly vitality behind prison walls. The destructive combination of racism +and misogyny, however much it has been challenged by social movements, + + scholarship, and art over the last three decades, retains all its awful +consequences within women’s prisons. The relatively uncontested presence +of sexual abuse in women’s prisons is one of many such examples. The +increasing evidence of a U.S. prison industrial complex with global +resonances leads us to think about the extent to which the many +corporations that have acquired an investment in the expansion of the prison +system are, like the state, directly implicated in an institution that +perpetuates violence against women. + + 5 +The Prison Industrial Complex +“For private business prison labor is like a pot of +gold. No strikes. No union organizing. No health +benefits, unemployment insurance, or workers’ +compensation to pay. No language barriers, as in +foreign countries. New leviathan prisons are being +built on thousands of eerie acres of factories inside +the walls. Prisoners do data entry for Chevron, +make telephone reservations for TWA, raise hogs, +shovel manure, and make circuit boards, +limousines, waterbeds, and lingerie for Victoria’s +Secret, all at a fraction of the cost of ‘free labor.’” +—Linda Evans and Eve Goldberg100 + +The exploitation of prison labor by private corporations is one aspect +among an array of relationships linking corporations, government, +correctional communities, and media. These relationships constitute what +we now call a prison industrial complex. The term “prison industrial +complex” was introduced by activists and scholars to contest prevailing +beliefs that increased levels of crime were the root cause of mounting prison +populations. Instead, they argued, prison construction and the attendant +drive to fill these new structures with human bodies have been driven by +ideologies of racism and the pursuit of profit. Social historian Mike Davis +first used the term in relation to California’s penal system, which, he +observed, already had begun in the 1990s to rival agribusiness and land +development as a major economic and political force.101 + + To understand the social meaning of the prison today within the context +of a developing prison industrial complex means that punishment has to be +conceptually severed from its seemingly indissoluble link with crime. How +often do we encounter the phrase “crime and punishment”? To what extent +has the perpetual repetition of the phrase “crime and punishment” in +literature, as titles of television shows, both fictional and documentary, and +in everyday conversation made it extremely difficult to think about +punishment beyond this connection? How have these portrayals located the +prison in a causal relation to crime as a natural, necessary, and permanent +effect, thus inhibiting serious debates about the viability of the prison +today? +The notion of a prison industrial complex insists on understandings of the +punishment process that take into account economic and political structures +and ideologies, rather than focusing myopically on individual criminal +conduct and efforts to “curb crime.” The fact, for example, that many +corporations with global markets now rely on prisons as an important +source of profit helps us to understand the rapidity with which prisons +began to proliferate precisely at a time when official studies indicated that +the crime rate was falling. The notion of a prison industrial complex also +insists that the racialization of prison populations—and this is not only true +of the United States, but of Europe, South America, and Australia as well— +is not an incidental feature. Thus, critiques of the prison industrial complex +undertaken by abolitionist activists and scholars are very much linked to +critiques of the global persistence of racism. Antiracist and other social +justice movements are incomplete with attention to the politics of +imprisonment. At the 2001 United Nations World Conference Against +Racism held in Durban, South Africa, a few individuals active in +abolitionist campaigns in various countries attempted to bring this +connection to the attention of the international community. They pointed +out that the expanding system of prisons throughout the world both relies on +and further promotes structures of racism even though its proponents may +adamantly maintain that it is race-neutral. +Some critics of the prison system have employed the term “correctional +industrial complex” and others “penal industrial complex.” These and the +term I have chosen to underscore, “prison industrial complex,” all clearly + + resonate with the historical concept of a “military industrial complex,” +whose usage dates back to the presidency of Dwight Eisenhower. It may +seem ironic that a Republican president was the first to underscore a +growing and dangerous alliance between the military and corporate worlds, +but it clearly seemed right to antiwar activists and scholars during the era of +the Vietnam War. Today, some activists mistakenly argue that the prison +industrial complex is moving into the space vacated by the military +industrial complex. However, the so-called War on Terrorism initiated by +the Bush administration in the aftermath of the 2002 attacks on the World +Trade Center has made it very clear that the links between the military, +corporations, and government are growing stronger, not weaker. +A more cogent way to define the relationship between the military +industrial complex and the prison industrial complex would be to call it +symbiotic. These two complexes mutually support and promote each other +and, in fact, often share technologies. During the early nineties, when +defense production was temporarily on the decline, this connection between +the military industry and the criminal justice /punishment industry was +acknowledged in a 1994 Wall Street Journal article entitled “Making Crime +Pay: The Cold War of the ’90s”: +Parts of the defense establishment are cashing in, too, sensing a logical new +line of business to help them offset military cutbacks. Westinghouse +Electric Corp., Minnesota Mining and Manufacturing Co, GDE Systems (a +division of the old General Dynamics) and Alliant Techsystems Inc., for +instance, are pushing crime fighting equipment and have created special +divisions to retool their defense technology for America’s streets.102 +The article describes a conference sponsored by the National Institute of +Justice, the research arm of the Justice Department, entitled “Law +Enforcement Technology in the 21st Century.” The secretary of defense was +a major presenter at this conference, which explored topics such as, “The +role of the defense industry, particularly for dual use and conversion.” +Hot topics: defense-industry technology that could lower the level of +violence involved in crime fighting. Sandia National Laboratories, +for instance, is experimenting with a dense foam that can be sprayed +at suspects, temporarily blinding and deafening them under + + breathable bubbles. Stinger Corporation is working on “smart guns,” +which will fire only for the owner, and retractable spiked barrier +strips to unfurl in front of fleeing vehicles. Westinghouse is +promoting the “smart car,” in which minicomputers could be linked +up with big mainframes at the police department, allowing for +speedy booking of prisoners, as well as quick exchanges of +information...103 +But an analysis of the relationship between the military and prison +industrial complex is not only concerned with the transference of +technologies from the military to the law enforcement industry. What may +be even more important to our discussion is the extent to which both share +important structural features. Both systems generate huge profits from +processes of social destruction. Precisely that which is advantageous to +those corporations, elected officials, and government agents who have +obvious stakes in the expansion of these systems begets grief and +devastation for poor and racially dominated communities in the United +States and throughout the world. The transformation of imprisoned bodies +—and they are in their majority bodies of color—into sources of profit who +consume and also often produce all kinds of commodities, devours public +funds, which might otherwise be available for social programs such as +education, housing, childcare, recreation, and drug programs. +Punishment no longer constitutes a marginal area of the larger economy. +Corporations producing all kinds of goods—from buildings to electronic +devices and hygiene products—and providing all kinds of services—from +meals to therapy and healthcare—are now directly involved in the +punishment business. That is to say, companies that one would assume are +far removed from the work of state punishment have developed major +stakes in the perpetuation of a prison system whose historical obsolescence +is therefore that much more difficult to recognize. It was during the decade +of the 1980s that corporate ties to the punishment system became more +extensive and entrenched than ever before. But throughout the history of the +U.S. prison system, prisoners have always constituted a potential source of +profit. For example, they have served as valuable subjects in medical +research, thus positioning the prison as a major link between universities +and corporations. + + During the post-World War II period, for example, medical +experimentation on captive populations helped to hasten the development of +the pharmaceutical industry. According to Allen Hornblum, +[T]he number of American medical research programs that relied on +prisoners as subjects rapidly expanded as zealous doctors and researchers, +grant-making universities, and a burgeoning pharmaceutical industry raced +for greater market share. Society’s marginal people were, as they had +always been, the grist for the medical-pharmaceutical mill, and prison +inmates in particular would become the raw materials for postwar profitmaking and academic advancement.104 +Hornblum’s book, Acres of Skin: Human Experiments at Holmesburg +Prison, highlights the career of research dermatologist Albert Kligman, who +was a professor at the University of Pennsylvania. Kligman, the “Father of +RetinA,” 105 conducted hundreds of experiments on the men housed in +Holmesburg Prison and, in the process, trained many researchers to use +what were later recognized as unethical research methods. +When Dr. Kligman entered the aging prison he was awed by the +potential it held for his research. In 1966, he recalled in a newspaper +interview: “All I saw before me were acres of skin. It was like a +farmer seeing a fertile field for the first time.” The hundreds of +inmates walking aimlessly before him represented a unique +opportunity for unlimited and undisturbed medical research. He +described it in this interview as “an anthropoid colony, mainly +healthy” under perfect control conditions.106 +By the time the experimentation program was shut down in 1974 and +new federal regulations prohibited the use of prisoners as subjects for +academic and corporate research, numerous cosmetics and skin creams had +already been tested. Some of them had caused great harm to these subjects +and could not be marketed in their original form. Johnson and Johnson, +Ortho Pharmaceutical, and Dow Chemical are only a few of the +corporations that reaped great material benefits from these experiments. +The potential impact of corporate involvement in punishment could have +been glimpsed in the Kligman experiments at Holmesburg Prison as early as + + the 1950s and 1960s. However, it was not until the 1980s and the increasing +globalization of capitalism that the massive surge of capital into the +punishment economy began. The deindustrialization processes that resulted +in plant shutdowns throughout the country created a huge pool of +vulnerable human beings, a pool of people for whom no further jobs were +available. This also brought more people into contact with social services, +such as AFDC (Aid to Families with Dependent Children) and other +welfare agencies. It is not accidental that “welfare, as we have known it”— +to use former President Clinton’s words—came under severe attack and was +eventually disestablished. This was known as “welfare reform.” At the same +time, we experienced the privatization and corporatization of services that +were previously run by government. The most obvious example of this +privatization process was the transformation of government-run hospitals +and health services into a gigantic complex of what are euphemistically +called health maintenance organizations. In this sense we might also speak +of a “medical industrial complex.ʺ107 In fact, there is a connection between +one of the first private hospital companies, Hospital Corporation of +America—known today as HCA—and Corrections Corporation of America +(CCA). Board members of HCA, which today has two hundred hospitals +and seventy outpatient surgery centers in twenty-four states, England, and +Switzerland helped to start Correctional Corporations of America in 1983. +In the context of an economy that was driven by an unprecedented +pursuit of profit, no matter what the human cost, and the concomitant +dismantling of the welfare state, poor people’s abilities to survive became +increasingly constrained by the looming presence of the prison. The +massive prison-building project that began in the 1980s created the means +of concentrating and managing what the capitalist system had implicitly +declared to be a human surplus. In the meantime, elected officials and the +dominant media justified the new draconian sentencing practices, sending +more and more people to prison in the frenzied drive to build more and +more prisons by arguing that this was the only way to make our +communities safe from murderers, rapists, and robbers. +The media, especially television . . . have a vested interest in +perpetuating the notion that crime is out of control. With new +competition from cable networks and 24-hour news channels, TV + + news and programs about crime . . . have proliferated madly. +According to the Center for Media and Public Affairs, crime +coverage was the number-one topic on the nightly news over the +past decade. From 1990 to 1998, homicide rates dropped by half +nationwide, but homicide stories on the three major networks rose +almost fourfold.108 +During the same period when crime rates were declining, prison +populations soared. According to a recent report by the U.S. Department of +Justice, at the end of the year 2001, there were 2,100,146 people +incarcerated in the United States.109 The terms and numbers as they appear +in this government report require some preliminary discussion. I hesitate to +make unmediated use of such statistical evidence because it can discourage +the very critical thinking that ought to be elicited by an understanding of the +prison industrial complex. It is precisely the abstraction of numbers that +plays such a central role in criminalizing those who experience the +misfortune of imprisonment. There are many different kinds of men and +women in the prisons, jails, and INS and military detention centers, whose +lives are erased by the Bureau of Justice Statistics figures. The numbers +recognize no distinction between the woman who is imprisoned on drug +conspiracy and the man who is in prison for killing his wife, a man who +might actually end up spending less time behind bars than the woman. +With this observation in mind, the statistical breakdown is as follows: +There were 1,324,465 people in “federal and state prisons,” 15,852 in +“territorial prisons,” 631,240 in “local jails,” 8,761 in “Immigration and +Naturalization Service detention facilities,” 2,436 in “military facilities,” +1,912 in “jails in Indian country,” and 108,965 in “juvenile facilities.” In the +ten years between 1990 and 2000, 351 new places of confinement were +opened by states and more than 528,000 beds were added, amounting to +1,320 state facilities, representing an eighty-one percent increase. Moreover, +there are currently 84 federal facilities and 264 private facilities.110 +The government reports, from which these figures are taken, emphasize +the extent to which incarceration rates are slowing down. The Bureau of +Justice Statistics report entitled “Prisoners in 2001” introduces the study by +indicating that “the Nation’s prison population grew 1.1%, which was less + + than the average annual growth of 3.8% since yearend 1995. During 2001 +the prison population rose at the lowest rate since 1972 and had the smallest +absolute increase since 1979.”111 However small the increase, these +numbers themselves would defy the imagination were they not so neatly +classified and rationally organized. To place these figures in historical +perspective, try to imagine how people in the eighteenth and nineteenth +centuries—and indeed for most of the twentieth century—who welcomed +the new, and then quite extraordinary, system of punishment called the +prison might have responded had they known that such a colossal number +of lives would be eventually claimed permanently by this institution. I have +already shared my own memories of a time three decades ago when the +prison population was comprised of a tenth of the present numbers. +The prison industrial complex is fueled by privatization patterns that, it +will be recalled, have also drastically transformed health care, education, +and other areas of our lives. Moreover, the prison privatization trends—both +the increasing presence of corporations in the prison economy and the +establishment of private prisons—are reminiscent of the historical efforts to +create a profitable punishment industry based on the new supply of “free” +black male laborers in the aftermath of the Civil War. Steven Donziger, +drawing from the work of Norwegian criminologist Nils Christie, argues: +[C]ompanies that service the criminal justice system need sufficient +quantities of raw materials to guarantee long-term growth . . . In the +criminal justice field, the raw material is prisoners, and industry will do +what is necessary to guarantee a steady supply. For the supply of prisoners +to grow, criminal justice policies must ensure a sufficient number of +incarcerated Americans regardless of whether crime is rising or the +incarceration is necessary.112 +In the post-Civil War era, emancipated black men and women comprised +an enormous reservoir of labor at a time when planters—and industrialists +—could no longer rely on slavery, as they had done in the past. This labor +became increasingly available for use by private agents precisely through +the convict lease system, discussed earlier, and related systems such as debt +peonage. Recall that in the aftermath of slavery, the penal population +drastically shifted, so that in the South it rapidly became disproportionately + + black. This transition set the historical stage for the easy acceptance of +disproportionately black prison populations today. According to 2002 +Bureau of Justice Statistics, African-Americans as a whole now represent +the majority of county, state, and federal prisoners, with a total of 803,400 +black inmates—118, 600 more than the total number of white inmates. If +we include Latinos, we must add another 283,000 bodies of color.113 +As the rate of increase in the incarceration of black prisoners continues to +rise, the racial composition of the incarcerated population is approaching +the proportion of black prisoners to white during the era of the southern +convict lease and county chain gang systems. Whether this human raw +material is used for purposes of labor or for the consumption of +commodities provided by a rising number of corporations directly +implicated in the prison industrial complex, it is clear that black bodies are +considered dispensable within the “free world” but as a major source of +profit in the prison world. +The privatization characteristic of convict leasing has its contemporary +parallels, as companies such as CCA and Wackenhut literally run prisons +for profit. At the beginning of the twenty-first century, the numerous private +prison companies operating in the United States own and operate facilities +that hold 91,828 federal and state prisoners.114 Texas and Oklahoma can +claim the largest number of people in private prisons. But New Mexico +imprisons forty-four percent of its prison population in private facilities, +and states such as Montana, Alaska, and Wyoming turned over more than +twenty-five percent of their prison population to private companies.115 In +arrangements reminiscent of the convict lease system, federal, state, and +county governments pay private companies a fee for each inmate, which +means that private companies have a stake in retaining prisoners as long as +possible, and in keeping their facilities filled. +In the state of Texas, there are thirty-four government-owned, privately +run jails in which approximately 5,500 out-of-state prisoners are +incarcerated. These facilities generate about eighty million dollars annually +for Texas.116 One dramatic example involves Capital Corrections +Resources, Inc., which operates the Brazoria Detention Center, a +government-owned facility located forty miles outside of Houston, Texas. + + Brazoria came to public attention in August 1997 when a videotape +broadcast on national television showed prisoners there being bitten by +police dogs and viciously kicked in the groin and stepped on by guards. The +inmates, forced to crawl on the floor, also were being shocked with stun +guns, while guards—who referred to one black prisoner as “boy”—shouted, +“Crawl faster!ʺ117 In the aftermath of the release of this tape, the state of +Missouri withdrew the 415 prisoners it housed in the Brazoria Detention +Center. Although few references were made in the accompanying news +reports to the indisputably racialized character of the guards’ outrageous +behavior, in the section of the Brazoria videotape that was shown on +national television, black male prisoners were seen to be the primary targets +of the guards’ attacks. +The thirty-two-minute Brazoria tape, represented by the jail authorities as +a training tape—allegedly showing corrections officers “what not to do”— +was made in September 1996, after a guard allegedly smelled marijuana in +the jail. Important evidence of the abuse that takes place behind the walls +and gates of private prisons, it came to light in connection with a law-suit +filed by one of the prisoners who was bitten by a dog; he was suing +Brazoria County for a hundred thousand dollars in damage. The Brazoria +jailors’ actions—which, according to prisoners there, were far worse than +depicted on the tape—are indicative not only of the ways in which many +prisoners throughout the country are treated, but of generalized attitudes +toward people locked up in jails and prisons. +According to an Associated Press news story, the Missouri inmates, once +they had been transferred back to their home state from Brazoria, told the +Kansas City Star: +[G]uards at the Brazoria County Detention Center used cattle prods +and other forms of intimidation to win respect and force prisoners to +say, “I love Texas.” “What you saw on tape wasn’t a fraction of +what happened that day,” said inmate Louis Watkins, referring to the +videotaped cellblock raid of September 18, 1996. “I’ve never seen +anything like that in the movies.”118 +In 2000 there were twenty-six for-profit prison corporations in the United +States that operated approximately 150 facilities in twenty-eight states.119 + + The largest of these companies, CCA and Wackenhut, control 76.4 percent +of the private prison market globally. CCA is headquartered in Nashville, +Tennessee, and until 2001, its largest shareholder was the multinational +headquartered in Paris, Sodexho Alliance, which, through its U.S. +subsidiary, Sodexho Marriott, provides catering services at nine hundred +U.S. colleges and universities. The Prison Moratorium Project, an +organization promoting youth activism, led a protest campaign against +Sodexho Marriott on campuses throughout the country. Among the +campuses that dropped Sodexho were SUNY Albany, Goucher College, and +James Madison University. Students had staged sit-ins and organized rallies +on more than fifty campuses before Sodexho divested its holdings in CCA +in fall 2001.120 +Though private prisons represent a fairly small proportion of prisons in +the United States, the privatization model is quickly becoming the primary +mode of organizing punishment in many other countries.121 These +companies have tried to take advantage of the expanding population of +women prisoners, both in the United States and globally. In 1996, the first +private women’s prison was established by CCA in Melbourne, Australia. +The government of Victoria “adopted the U.S. model of privatization in +which financing, design, construction, and ownership of the prison are +awarded to one contractor and the government pays them back for +construction over twenty years. This means that it is virtually impossible to +remove the contractor because that contractor owns the prison.ʺ122 +As a direct consequence of the campaign organized by prison activist +groups in Melbourne, Victoria withdrew the contract from CCA in 2001. +However, a significant portion of Australia’s prison system remains +privatized. In the fall of 2002, the government of Queensland renewed +Wackenhut’s contract to run a 710-bed prison in Brisbane. The value of the +five-year contract is $66.5 million. In addition to the facility in Brisbane, +Wackenhut manages eleven other prisons in Australia and New Zealand and +furnishes health care services in eleven public prisons in the state of +Victoria.123 In the press release announcing this contract renewal, +Wackenhut describes its global business activities as follows: + + WCC, a world leader in the privatized corrections industry, has +contracts/awards to manage 60 correctional /detention facilities in North +America, Europe, Australia, South Africa and New Zealand with a total of +approximately 43,000 beds. WCC also provides prisoner transportation +services, electronic monitoring for home detainees, correctional health care +and mental health services. WCC offers government agencies a turnkey +approach to the development of new correctional and mental health +institutions that includes design, construction, financing, and operations.124 +But to understand the reach of the prison industrial complex, it is not +enough to evoke the looming power of the private prison business. By +definition, those companies court the state within and outside the United +States for the purpose of obtaining prison contracts, bringing punishment +and profit together in a menacing embrace. Still, this is only the most +visible dimension of the prison industrial complex, and it should not lead us +to ignore the more comprehensive corporatization that is a feature of +contemporary punishment. As compared to earlier historical eras, the prison +economy is no longer a small, identifiable, and containable set of markets. +Many corporations, whose names are highly recognizable by “free world” +consumers, have discovered new possibilities for expansion by selling their +products to correctional facilities. +In the 1990s, the variety of corporations making money from +prisons is truly dizzying, ranging from Dial Soap to Famous Amos +cookies, from AT&T to health-care providers . . . In 1995 Dial Soap +sold $100,000 worth of its product to the New York City jail system +alone . . . When VitaPro Foods of Montreal, Canada, contracted to +supply inmates in the state of Texas with its soy-based meat +substitute, the contract was worth $34 million a year.125 +Among the many businesses that advertise in the yellow pages on the +corrections.com Web site are Archer Daniel Midlands, Nestle Food Service, +Ace Hardware, Polaroid, Hewlett-Packard, RJ Reynolds, and the +communications companies Sprint, AT&T, Verizon, and Ameritech. One +conclusion to be drawn here is that even if private prison companies were +prohibited—an unlikely prospect, indeed—the prison industrial complex +and its many strategies for profit would remain relatively intact. Private + + prisons are direct sources of profit for the companies that run them, but +public prisons have become so thoroughly saturated with the profitproducing products and services of private corporations that the distinction +is not as meaningful as one might suspect. Campaigns against privatization +that represent public prisons as an adequate alternative to private prisons +can be misleading. It is true that a major reason for the profitability of +private prisons consists in the nonunion labor they employ, and this +important distinction should be highlighted. Nevertheless, public prisons are +now equally tied to the corporate economy and constitute an ever-growing +source of capitalist profit. +Extensive corporate investment in prisons has significantly raised the +stakes for antiprison work. It means that serious antiprison activists must be +willing to look much further in their analyses and organizing strategies than +the actual institution of the prison. Prison reform rhetoric, which has always +undergirded dominant critiques of the prison system, will not work in this +new situation. If reform approaches have tended to bolster the permanence +of the prison in the past, they certainly will not suffice to challenge the +economic and political relationships that sustain the prison today. This +means that in the era of the prison industrial complex, activists must pose +hard questions about the relationship between global capitalism and the +spread of U.S.-style prisons throughout the world. +The global prison economy is indisputably dominated by the United +States. This economy not only consists of the products, services, and ideas +that are directly marketed to other governments, but it also exercises an +enormous influence over the development of the style of state punishment +throughout the world. One dramatic example can be seen in the opposition +to Turkey’s attempts to transform its prisons. In October 2000, prisoners in +Turkey, many of whom are associated with left political movements, began +a “death fast” as a way of dramatizing their opposition to the Turkish +government’s decision to introduce “F-Type,” or U.S.-style, prisons. +Compared to the traditional dormitory-style facilities, these new prisons +consist of one- to three-person cells, which are opposed by the prisoners +because of the regimes of isolation they facilitate and because mistreatment +and torture are far more likely in isolation. In December 2000, thirty +prisoners were killed in clashes with security forces in twenty prisons.126 + + As of September 2002, more than fifty prisoners have died of hunger, +including two women, Gulnihal Yilmaz and Birsen Hosver, who were +among the most recent prisoners to succumb to the death fast. +“F-Type” prisons in Turkey were inspired by the recent emergence of the +super-maximum security—or supermax—prison in the United States, which +presumes to control otherwise unmanageable prisoners by holding them in +permanent solitary confinement and by subjecting them to varying degrees +of sensory deprivation. In its 2002 World Report, Human Rights Watch paid +particular attention to the concerns raised by +the spread of ultra-modern “super-maximum” security prisons. Originally +prevalent in the United States . . . the supermax model was increasingly +followed in other countries. Prisoners confined in such facilities spent an +average of twenty-three hours a day in their cells, enduring extreme social +isolation, enforced idleness, and extraordinarily limited recreational and +educational opportunities. While prison authorities defended the use of +super-maximum security facilities by asserting that they held only the most +dangerous, disruptive, or escape-prone inmates, few safeguards existed to +prevent other prisoners from being arbitrarily or discriminatorily transferred +to such facilities. In Australia, the inspector of custodial services found that +some prisoners were being held indefinitely in special high security units +without knowing why or when their isolation would end.127 +Among the many countries that have recently constructed supermaximum security prisons is South Africa. Construction was completed on +the supermax prison in Kokstad, KwaZulu-Natal in August 2000, but it was +not officially opened until May 2002. Ironically, the reason given for the +delay was the competition for water between the prison and a new low-cost +housing development.128 I am highlighting South Africa’s embrace of the +supermax because of the apparent ease with which this most repressive +version of the U.S. prison has established itself in a country that has just +recently initiated the project of building a democratic, non-racist, and +nonsexist society. South Africa was the first country in the world to create +constitutional assurances for gay rights, and it immediately abolished the +death penalty after the dismantling of apartheid. Nevertheless, following the +example of the United States, the South African prison system is expanding + + and becoming more oppressive. The U.S. private prison company +Wackenhut has secured several contracts with the South African +government and by constructing private prisons further legitimizes the trend +toward privatization (which affects the availability of basic services from +utilities to education) in the economy as a whole. +South Africa’s participation in the prison industrial complex constitutes a +major impediment to the creation of a democratic society. In the United +States, we have already felt the insidious and socially damaging effects of +prison expansion. The dominant social expectation is that young black, +Latino, Native American, and Southeast Asian men—and increasingly +women as well—will move naturally from the free world into prison, +where, it is assumed, they belong. Despite the important gains of antiracist +social movements over the last half century, racism hides from view within +institutional structures, and its most reliable refuge is the prison system. +The racist arrests of vast numbers of immigrants from Middle Eastern +countries in the aftermath of the attacks on September 11, 2001, and the +subsequent withholding of information about the names of numbers of +people held in INS detention centers, some of which are owned and +operated by private corporations, do not augur a democratic future. The +uncontested detention of increasing numbers of undocumented immigrants +from the global South has been aided considerably by the structures and +ideologies associated with the prison industrial complex. We can hardly +move in the direction of justice and equality in the twenty-first century if +we are unwilling to recognize the enormous role played by this system in +extending the power of racism and xenophobia. +Radical opposition to the global prison industrial complex sees the +antiprison movement as a vital means of expanding the terrain on which the +quest for democracy will unfold. This movement is thus antiracist, +anticapitalist, antisexist, and antihomophobic. It calls for the abolition of the +prison as the dominant mode of punishment but at the same time recognizes +the need for genuine solidarity with the millions of men, women, and +children who are behind bars. A major challenge of this movement is to do +the work that will create more humane, habitable environments for people +in prison without bolstering the permanence of the prison system. How, + + then, do we accomplish this balancing act of passionately attending to the +needs of prisoners—calling for less violent conditions, an end to state +sexual assault, improved physical and mental health care, greater access to +drug programs, better educational work opportunities, unionization of +prison labor, more connections with families and communities, shorter or +alternative sentencing—and at the same time call for alternatives to +sentencing altogether, no more prison construction, and abolitionist +strategies that question the place of the prison in our future? + + 6 +Abolitionist Alternatives +“Forget about reform; it’s time to talk about +abolishing jails and prisons in American society . . +. Still—abolition? Where do you put the prisoners? +The ‘criminals’? What’s the alternative? First, +having no alternative at all would create less crime +than the present criminal training centers do. +Second, the only full alternative is building the +kind of society that does not need prisons: A +decent redistribution of power and income so as to +put out the hidden fire of burning envy that now +flames up in crimes of property—both burglary by +the poor and embezzlement by the affluent. And a +decent sense of community that can support, +reintegrate and truly rehabilitate those who +suddenly become filled with fury or despair, and +that can face them not as objects—‘criminals’— +but as people who have committed illegal acts, as +have almost all of us.” +—Arthur Waskow, Institute for Policy Studies129 + +If jails and prisons are to be abolished, then what will replace them? This is +the puzzling question that often interrupts further consideration of the +prospects for abolition. Why should it be so difficult to imagine alternatives +to our current system of incarceration? There are a number of reasons why +we tend to balk at the idea that it may be possible to eventually create an + + entirely different—and perhaps more egalitarian—system of justice. First of +all, we think of the current system, with its exaggerated dependence on +imprisonment, as an unconditional standard and thus have great difficulty +envisioning any other way of dealing with the more than two million people +who are currently being held in the country’s jails, prisons, youth facilities, +and immigration detention centers. Ironically, even the anti-death penalty +campaign tends to rely on the assumption that life imprisonment is the most +rational alternative to capital punishment. As important as it may be to +abolish the death penalty, we should be conscious of the way the +contemporary campaign against capital punishment has a propensity to +recapitulate the very historical patterns that led to the emergence of the +prison as the dominant form of punishment. The death penalty has coexisted +with the prison, though imprisonment was supposed to serve as an +alternative to corporal and capital punishment. This is a major dichotomy. A +critical engagement with this dichotomy would involve taking seriously the +possibility of linking the goal of death penalty abolitionism with strategies +for prison abolition. +It is true that if we focus myopically on the existing system—and perhaps +this is the problem that leads to the assumption that imprisonment is the +only alternative to death—it is very hard to imagine a structurally similar +system capable of handling such a vast population of lawbreakers. If, +however, we shift our attention from the prison, perceived as an isolated +institution, to the set of relationships that comprise the prison industrial +complex, it may be easier to think about alternatives. In other words, a more +complicated framework may yield more options than if we simply attempt +to discover a single substitute for the prison system. The first step, then, +would be to let go of the desire to discover one single alternative system of +punishment that would occupy the same footprint as the prison system. +Since the 1980s, the prison system has become increasingly ensconced in +the economic, political and ideological life of the United States and the +transnational trafficking in U.S. commodities, culture, and ideas. Thus, the +prison industrial complex is much more than the sum of all the jails and +prisons in this country. It is a set of symbiotic relationships among +correctional communities, transnational corporations, media conglomerates, +guards’ unions, and legislative and court agendas. If it is true that the + + contemporary meaning of punishment is fashioned through these +relationships, then the most effective abolitionist strategies will contest +these relationships and propose alternatives that pull them apart. What, +then, would it mean to imagine a system in which punishment is not +allowed to become the source of corporate profit? How can we imagine a +society in which race and class are not primary determinants of +punishment? Or one in which punishment itself is no longer the central +concern in the making of justice? +An abolitionist approach that seeks to answer questions such as these +would require us to imagine a constellation of alternative strategies and +institutions, with the ultimate aim of removing the prison from the social +and ideological landscapes of our society. In other words, we would not be +looking for prisonlike substitutes for the prison, such as house arrest +safeguarded by electronic surveillance bracelets. Rather, positing +decarceration as our overarching strategy, we would try to envision a +continuum of alternatives to imprisonment—demilitarization of schools, +revitalization of education at all levels, a health system that provides free +physical and mental care to all, and a justice system based on reparation and +reconciliation rather than retribution and vengeance. +The creation of new institutions that lay claim to the space now occupied +by the prison can eventually start to crowd out the prison so that it would +inhabit increasingly smaller areas of our social and psychic landscape. +Schools can therefore be seen as the most powerful alternative to jails and +prisons. Unless the current structures of violence are eliminated from +schools in impoverished communities of color—including the presence of +armed security guards and police—and unless schools become places that +encourage the joy of learning, these schools will remain the major conduits +to prisons. The alternative would be to transform schools into vehicles for +decarceration. Within the health care system, it is important to emphasize +the current scarcity of institutions available to poor people who suffer +severe mental and emotional illnesses. There are currently more people with +mental and emotional disorders in jails and prisons than in mental +institutions. This call for new facilities designed to assist poor people +should not be taken as an appeal to reinstitute the old system of mental +institutions, which were—and in many cases still are—as repressive as the + + prisons. It is simply to suggest that the racial and class disparities in care +available to the affluent and the deprived need to be eradicated, thus +creating another vehicle for decarceration. +To reiterate, rather than try to imagine one single alternative to the +existing system of incarceration, we might envision an array of alternatives +that will require radical transformations of many aspects of our society. +Alternatives that fail to address racism, male dominance, homophobia, class +bias, and other structures of domination will not, in the final analysis, lead +to decarceration and will not advance the goal of abolition. +It is within this context that it makes sense to consider the +decriminalization of drug use as a significant component of a larger strategy +to simultaneously oppose structures of racism within the criminal justice +system and further the abolitionist agenda of decarceration. Thus, with +respect to the project of challenging the role played by the so-called War on +Drugs in bringing huge numbers of people of color into the prison system, +proposals to decriminalize drug use should be linked to the development of +a constellation of free, community-based programs accessible to all people +who wish to tackle their drug problems. This is not to suggest that all +people who use drugs—or that only people who use illicit drugs—need +such help. However, anyone, regardless of economic status, who wishes to +conquer drug addiction should be able to enter treatment programs. +Such institutions are, indeed, available to affluent communities. The most +well known program is the Betty Ford Center, which, according to its Web +site, “accepts patients dependent on alcohol and other mood altering +chemicals. Treatment services are open to all men and women eighteen +years of age and older regardless of race, creed, sex, national origin, +religion or sources of payment for care.ʺ130 However, the cost for the first +six days is $1,175 per day, and after that $525 per day.131 If a person +requires thirty days of treatment, the cost would amount to $19,000, almost +twice the annual salary of a person working a minimum-wage job. +Poor people deserve to have access to effective, voluntary drug treatment +programs. Like the Betty Ford program, their operation should not be under +the auspices of the criminal justice system. As at the Ford Center, family +members also should be permitted to participate. But unlike the Betty Ford + + program, they should be free of charge. For such programs to count as +“abolitionist alternatives,” they would not be linked—unlike existing +programs, to which individuals are “sentenced”—to imprisonment as a last +resort. +The campaign to decriminalize drug use—from marijuana to heroin—is +international in scope and has led countries such as the Netherlands to +revise their laws, legalizing personal use of such drugs as marijuana and +hashish. The Netherlands also has a history of legalized sex work, another +area in which there has been extensive campaigning for decriminalization. +In the cases of drugs and sex work, decriminalization would simply require +repeal of all those laws that penalize individuals who use drugs and who +work in the sex industry. The decriminalization of alcohol use serves as a +historical example. In both these cases, decriminalization would advance +the abolitionist strategy of decarceration—that is, the consistent reduction in +the numbers of people who are sent to prison—with the ultimate aim of +dismantling the prison system as the dominant mode of punishment. A +further challenge for abolitionists is to identify other behaviors that might +be appropriately decriminalized as preliminary steps toward abolition. +One obvious and very urgent aspect of the work of decriminalization is +associated with the defense of immigrants’ rights. The growing numbers of +immigrants—especially since the attacks on September 11, 2001—who are +incarcerated in immigrant detention centers, as well as in jails and prisons, +can be halted by dismantling the processes that punish people for their +failure to enter this country without documents. Current campaigns that call +for the decriminalization of undocumented immigrants are making +important contributions to the overall struggle against the prison industrial +complex and are challenging the expansive reach of racism and male +dominance. When women from countries in the southern region are +imprisoned because they have entered this country to escape sexual +violence, instead of being granted refugee status, this reinforces the +generalized tendency to punish people who are persecuted in their intimate +lives as a direct consequence of pandemics of violence that continue to be +legitimized by ideological and legal structures. + + Within the United States, the “battered women’s syndrome” legal defense +reflects an attempt to argue that a woman who kills an abusive spouse +should not be convicted of murder. This defense has been abundantly +criticized, both by detractors and proponents of feminism; the former do not +want to recognize the pervasiveness and dangers of intimate violence +against women and the latter challenge the idea that the legitimacy of this +defense resides in the assertion that those who kill their batterers are not +responsible for their actions. The point feminist movements attempt to +make—regardless of their specific positions on battered women’s syndrome +—is that violence against women is a pervasive and complicated social +problem that cannot be solved by imprisoning women who fight back +against their abusers. Thus, a vast range of alternative strategies of +minimizing violence against women—within intimate relationships and +within relationships to the state—should be the focus of our concern. +The alternatives toward which I have gestured thus far—and this is only a +small selection of examples, which can also include job and living wage +programs, alternatives to the disestablished welfare program, communitybased recreation, and many more—are associated both directly and +indirectly with the existing system of criminal justice. But, however +mediated their relation might be to the current system of jails and prisons, +these alternatives are attempting to reverse the impact of the prison +industrial complex on our world. As they contest racism and other networks +of social domination, their implementation will certainly advance the +abolitionist agenda of decarceration. +Creating agendas of decarceration and broadly casting the net of +alternatives helps us to do the ideological work of pulling apart the +conceptual link between crime and punishment. This more nuanced +understanding of the social role of the punishment system requires us to +give up our usual way of thinking about punishment as an inevitable +consequence of crime. We would recognize that “punishment” does not +follow from “crime” in the neat and logical sequence offered by discourses +that insist on the justice of imprisonment, but rather punishment—primarily +through imprisonment (and sometimes death)—is linked to the agendas of +politicians, the profit drive of corporations, and media representations of +crime. Imprisonment is associated with the racialization of those most likely + + to be punished. It is associated with their class and, as we have seen, gender +structures the punishment system as well. If we insist that abolitionist +alternatives trouble these relationships, that they strive to disarticulate crime +and punishment, race and punishment, class and punishment, and gender +and punishment, then our focus must not rest only on the prison system as +an isolated institution but must also be directed at all the social relations +that support the permanence of the prison. +An attempt to create a new conceptual terrain for imagining alternatives +to imprisonment involves the ideological work of questioning why +“criminals” have been constituted as a class and, indeed, a class of human +beings undeserving of the civil and human rights accorded to others. +Radical criminologists have long pointed out that the category +“lawbreakers” is far greater than the category of individuals who are +deemed criminals since, many point out, almost all of us have broken the +law at one time or another. Even President Bill Clinton admitted that he had +smoked marijuana at one time, insisting, though, that he did not inhale. +However, acknowledged disparities in the intensity of police surveillance— +as indicated by the present-day currency of the term “racial profiling” +which ought to cover far more territory than “driving while black or +brown”—account in part for racial and class-based disparities in arrest and +imprisonment rates. Thus, if we are willing to take seriously the +consequences of a racist and class-biased justice system, we will reach the +conclusion that enormous numbers of people are in prison simply because +they are, for example, black, Chicano, Vietnamese, Native American or +poor, regardless of their ethnic background. They are sent to prison, not so +much because of the crimes they may have indeed committed, but largely +because their communities have been criminalized. Thus, programs for +decriminalization will not only have to address specific activities that have +been criminalized—such as drug use and sex work—but also criminalized +populations and communities. +It is against the backdrop of these more broadly conceived abolitionist +alternatives that it makes sense to take up the question of radical +transformations within the existing justice system. Thus, aside from +minimizing, through various strategies, the kinds of behaviors that will +bring people into contact with the police and justice systems, there is the + + question of how to treat those who assault the rights and bodies of others. +Many organizations and individuals both in the United States and other +countries offer alternative modes of making justice. In limited instances, +some governments have attempted to implement alternatives that range +from conflict resolution to restorative or reparative justice. Such scholars as +Herman Bianchi have suggested that crime needs to be defined in terms of +tort and, instead of criminal law, should be reparative law. In his words, +“[The lawbreaker] is thus no longer an evil-minded man or woman, but +simply a debtor, a liable person whose human duty is to take responsibility +for his or her acts, and to assume the duty of repair.”132 +There is a growing body of literature on reshaping systems of justice +around strategies of reparation, rather than retribution, as well as a growing +body of experiential evidence of the advantages of these approaches to +justice and of the democratic possibilities they promise. Instead of +rehearsing the numerous debates that have emerged over the last decades— +including the most persistent question, “What will happen to the murderers +and rapists?”—I will conclude with a story of one of the most dramatic +successes of these experiments in reconciliation. I refer to the case of Amy +Biehl, the white Fulbright scholar from Newport Beach, California, who +was killed by young South African men in Guguletu, a black township in +Capetown, South Africa. +In 1993, when South Africa was on the cusp of its transition, Amy Biehl +was devoting a significant amount of her time as a foreign student to the +work of rebuilding South Africa. Nelson Mandela had been freed in 1990, +but had not yet been elected president. On August 25, Biehl was driving +several black friends to their home in Guguletu when a crowd shouting +antiwhite slogans confronted her, and some of them stoned and stabbed her +to death. Four of the men participating in the attack were convicted of her +murder and sentenced to eighteen years in prison. In 1997, Linda and Peter +Biehl—Amy’s mother and father—decided to support the amnesty petition +the men presented to the Truth and Reconciliation Commission. The four +apologized to the Biehls and were released in July 1998. Two of them— +Easy Nofemela and Ntobeko Peni—later met with the Biehls, who, despite +much pressure to the contrary, agreed to see them.133 According to +Nofemela, he wanted to say more about his own sorrow for killing their + + daughter than what had been possible during Truth and Reconciliation +hearings. “I know you lost a person you love,” he says he told them during +that meeting. “I want you to forgive me and take me as your child.”134 +The Biehls, who had established the Amy Biehl Foundation in the +aftermath of their daughter’s death, asked Nofemela and Peni to work at the +Guguletu branch of the foundation. Nofemela became an instructor in an +after-school sports program and Peni an administrator. In June 2002, they +accompanied Linda Biehl to New York, where they all spoke before the +American Family Therapy Academy on reconciliation and restorative +justice. In a Boston Globe interview, Linda Biehl, when asked how she now +feels about the men who killed her daughter, said, “I have a lot of love for +them.” After Peter Biehl died in 2002, she bought two plots of land for them +in memory of her husband so that Nofemela and Peni can build their own +homes.135 A few days after the September 11 attacks, the Biehls had been +asked to speak at a synagogue in their community. According to Peter +Biehl, “We tried to explain that sometimes it pays to shut up and listen to +what other people have to say, to ask: ‘Why do these terrible things happen? +’ instead of simply reacting.”136 + + AFFIRMATION +I believe in liv ing. +I believe in the spectrum +of Beta days and Gamma people. +I believe in sunshine. +In windmills and waterfalls, +tricycles and rocking chairs. +And i believe that seeds grow into sprouts. +And sprouts grow into trees. +I believe in the magic of the hands. +And in the wisdom of the eyes. +I believe in rain and tears. +And in the blood of infinity. +I believe in life . +And i have seen the death parade +march through the torso of the earth, +sculpting mud bodies in its path. +I have seen the destruction of the daylight, +and seen bloodthirsty maggots +prayed to and saluted. +I have seen the kind become the blind +and the blind become the bind +in one easy lesson. +I have walked on cut glass. +I have eaten crow and blunder bread +and breathed the stench of indi fference. +I have been locked by the lawless; +Handcuffed by the haters. +Gagged by the greedy. +And, if i know any thing at all, +it's that a wall is just a wall +and nothing more at all. +It can be broken down. +I beli�e in liv ing. +I believe in birth. +I believe in the sweat of love +and in the fire of truth. +And i believe that a lost ship, +steered by tired, seasick sailors, +can still be guided home +to port. + +I + + Chapter 1 + +here were lights and sirens. Zayd was dead. +My mind knew that Zayd was dead. The air was like +cold glass. Huge bubbles rose and burst. Each one felt +like an explosion in my chest. My mouth tasted like +blood and dirt. The car spun around me and then +something like sleep overtook me. In the background i +could hear what sounded like gunfire. But i was fading +and dreaming. +Suddenly, the door flew open and i felt mysel f +being dragged out onto the pavement. Pushed and +punched, a foot upside my head, a kick in the stom­ +ach. Police were everywhere. One had a gun to my +head. +"Which way did they go?" he was shouting. +"Bitch, you'd better open your goddamn mouth or I'll +blow your goddamn head off!" +I nodded my head across the highway. I was sure +that nobody had gone that way. A few of the cops were +off and running. +One pig said, "We oughta finish her off." But the +others were all busy around the car, searching it. They +were pulling and prodding. +"Ya find the gun?" they kept asking each other. +Later, one of them asked another, "Should we put'er in +the car?" +"Naw. Let'er lay in the gutter where she belongs. +Just get'er out of the way." +I felt mysel f being dragged by the feet across the +pavement. My chest was on fire. My blouse was purple +with blood. I was convinced that my arm had been +shot off and was hanging inside my shirt by a few +strips of flesh. I could not feel it. +Finally the ambulance came and they moved me +into it. Being moved was agony, but the blankets were + +3 + + ASSATA +4 + +worth it. I was so cold. The medics examined me. I tried to talk, +but only bubbles came out. I was foaming at the mouth. +"Where's she hit?" they asked each other as if i wasn't there. +They concluded their examination. I was relieved. +"Let's move it," one of them said. +"O.K., but wait a minute," said the driver and he got out. "Hit +twice," i heard him say. "We gotta wait." The driver slammed the +door. +He said something else but i didn't understand it. Time +passed. I was floating off again. It felt so weird, like a dream, a +nightmare. More time passed. It seemed like forever. I was in and +out, in and out. +A rough voice asked, "Is she dead yet?" I floated off again. I +heard another voice. "Is she dead yet ?" I wondered how long the +ambulance had been sitting there. The attendants looked nervous. +The bubbles in my chest felt like they were growing bigger. When +they burst, my whole chest shattered. I faded again and it was down +South in the summertime. I thought about my grandmother. At last +the ambulance was moving. "If i live," i remember thinking, "i'll +only have one arm." +The hospital is glaring white. Everybody i see is white. Everyone +seems to be waiting. All at once they are in motion. Blood pressure, +pulse, needles, etc. Two detectives come in. I know they're detec­ +tives because they look like detectives. One of them has a face like a +bulldog, with jowls hanging down the sides. They supervise the +nurse as she cuts off my clothes. After a while, one of them dabs my +fingertips with what look like Q-tips. Later i find out that this is the + +neutron activation test to determine whether or not i have fired a +weapon. Another one then tries to fingerprint me, but he has +trouble because my hand is dead. +"Gimme the dead man's kit." He puts my fingers into spoon­ +looking things used to fingerprint dead people. They begin to ask +me questions, but a bunch of doctors come in. One of them, who +appears to be the head doctor, examines me. He pokes and prods, +throwing me around like a rag doll. then, like he is going to kill me, +he jerks me around so that i'm on my stomach. The pain is like an +electric shock. I moan. +"Don't cry now, girlie," he says. "Why'd you shoot the +trooper? Why'd you shoot the trooper ?" +I want to kick him in his face. I know he would kill me if he +had the chance. I can see the scalpel slipping. One of the other +doctors says something about calling the operating room. "Hell +no!" is all i can think of. "Hell no !" + + After a while, they all leave. Then a Black nurse comes into the +am glad as I could be to see her. She bends over me. +"What is your name?" she asks. "What is your name?" +I think about it and decide to say nothing. If i tell them my +name they will know who i am and they will kill me for sure. +"What is your name?" she keeps asking, enunciating each +syllable in the way that people talk to someone who has trouble +hearing or understanding. "What is your name? What is your +address ? Where do you live?" Her voice is getting louder. "We need +JOur signature, miss," she says, waving a piece of paper in front of +me. "We need your permission for treatment, in case we have to +operate." She repeats the same thing, over and over. "Who shall we +contact in case of emergency?" (I think that's kind of funny.) "What +is your name? Where do you live?" I close my eyes, wishing she +would go away. She keeps right on talking. +I drift off, thinking about my arm. It is still there. +"Nerve damage. Paralyzed," i heard them say. It has never +occurred to me. It isn't that bad, i remember thinking. I can live +with that if i have to. +More voices, other voices, grating my ears and my con­ +SCIousness. +"She can talk," one is saying. "The doctor says she can talk. +Where were you going? What is your name? Where were you +coming from? Who was in the car with you ? How many of you were +there? I know she can hear me." +I keep my eyes closed. One of them leans down real close to +me. I feel his breath on my cheek. And smell it. +"I kno� you can hear me and I know you can talk, and if you +don't hurry up and start talking, I'm gonna bash your face in for +you." +My eyes fly open in spite of myself. Immediately they are all in +my face, throwing question after question at me. I say nothing. +After a while, i close my eyes again. +"Oh, she doesn't feel good," one of them says in a sweet, +mocking voice. "Where does it hurt? Here? Here ? HERE?" +With each here comes a crash. I look around wildly, but no +one is there. More thumps and punches, but none of them hurts as +bad as my chest is hurting. I try to scream but i know immediately +that that's a mistake. My chest erupts and i think i am gonna die. +They go on and on. Questions and bangs. I think they will never +stop. +A woman's voice. "Telephone." +"Thank you," one of them says, giving me an ugly grin. They +are gone. +room. I + +ASSATA + +5 + + ASSATA +6 + +Another pig comes in. A Black pig. In uniform. He comes +closer and i see that he is not a cop but a hospital security guard. +He stands not too far from where i am lying and i can see he is not +at all hostile. His face breaks into a kind of reserved smile and, very +discreetly, he clenches his fist and gives me the power sign. That +man will never know how much better he made me feel at that +moment. +The detectives come back with a nurse. They begin to move the +stretcher. My mind races. Where are they taking me ? The only +place i can think of is the operating room. When we arrive at the x­ +ray room, i'm thankful. Because i have to move around, the X-rays +are painful, but the technician is cool. X-rays are over and i am +rolled down the hallway, determined to keep my eyes closed. All of +a sudden, flashes of light. My eyes pop open. This time they are +taking my picture. +The police photographer asks, "Don't you wanna give us a +smile? Come on. Give us a smile." +I close my eyes again. We are moving. The stretcher stops. One +of the pigs tells the nurse he has a headache. She volunteers to get +him something. +The stretcher is moving again. Where the hell are they taking +me? Again the light is changing and, although my eyes are closed, i +can feel the difference. It feels like i'm in the dark. I can't take it +any longer and i look. The room is dark, but there is some light. +My eyes slowly adjust. There's something lying next to me. I can +see an outline. Something in plastic. Something-my mind slowly +realizes that it is a man in a plastic bag. And that the man is Zayd. +My body stiffens. My mind spins. +One of the troopers says, "That's what's gonna happen to you +before the night is over if you don't tell us what we want to know." +I say nothing, but inside i'm raging. "Dogs ! Swine! Filthy pigs ! +Dirty slimy scum ! Bastards ! Sons of bitches !" I rage on and on. "I +wouldn't tell you the right time of day," i remember thinking. "I +wouldn't tell you that shit stinks !" +The night crawls along. Nurses, doctors, and troopers. I am +still scared, but i am just as angry and evil as i am scared. The +detectives are in and out and, when nobody is there except them, +they get in their digs and bangs. But after a while i don't think +about them too much. I am thinking about living, about surviving, +thinking about what is going to happen next. They are gonna do +what they are gonna do and there isn't much i can do about it. I +just have to be myself, stay as strong as i can, and do my best. That's +all. There is nowhere to run and i am in no shape to try. I realize + + how isolated and vulnerable i am. What if i really do need an +operation ? I need help from the outside world. I have to try to get +word out to someone. The Black nurse has been back and forth, +asking me the same questions. Each time i have closed my eyes until +she goes away. I decide to ask her to get in touch with my people +the next time she comes by. Maybe she will be cool. She is my best +shot; the guard is long gone. +I doze off for a little while. When i wake up, a nurse and a +priest are standing over me. The priest is mumbling and seems to +be rubbing something on my forehead. At first i don't understand +what he is doing. Then it dawns on me. Last rites. Last rites are for +the dying. +"Go away," i say out loud. I don't have the strength to say +anything else. But i know i don't want anybody's last rites. I am not +going to die, and even if i do die, i'm not going to die nobody's +hypocrite. +The Black nurse comes back and starts her questions again. +Before she can get started good, i beckon her to come closer. There +is no one else around. I ask her to get in contact with my lawyer +(who is also my aunt). I give her my name and ask her to make the +call herself. She has a hard time understanding me and keeps +asking me to repeat my name. I can barely talk, and each time she +asks me to repeat myself, i feel like screaming. Then it occurs to me +that Assata is foreign to her ears. She has probably never heard the +name before. So i give her my slave name. Then i give her the +number and she is off and running. +Two minutes later the detectives are on me like white on rice. +They threaten and plead, reason and offer me the world. They hurl +question after question at me, acting crazier than before. One plays +the nice cop who is trying to save me from the bad cop, if only i will +cooperate. I am tired and their act is even tireder. I can see exhaus­ +tion in their faces. The whole night is coming down on me. Their +voices begin to sound far away. I can't take it anymore. They can go +to hell. I am going to sleep. This time i am going out for real. +When i wake up the stretcher is moving. After a little while we +arrive at the intensive care part of the hospital. The place is packed +with nurses. I am elated. All i want to do is sleep. Soon i'm drifting +off again. +I wake up and it's the next day. The doctors are making their +rounds. One of them, an intern i think, is very kind to me. They +examine me and spend the rest of the morning doing blood tests, +X-rays, EKGs, etc., etc. +Soon i learn that they're going to move me again. I also find + +ASSATA +7 + + ASSATA + +8 + +out that i'm in middlesex county hospital. I hear the nurses talking. +They are glad i am being moved because the police are driving them +crazy. +When they come to move me it looks like a police parade. The +rooms i am moved to are called the Johnson Suite. I can't believe it. +I have never imagined that hospitals have rooms like this. There is a +sitting room, a huge hospital-equipped room (where i am kept), a +den, a kitchen, a full bathroom and another little room whose +purpose i will never learn. They transfer me to the bed and hand­ +cuff one of my legs to the side rail. +I keep looking around. It is elegant and clearly for rich people. +I am probably the first Black person who has ever been in this +room. And the only reason i am there is for security. They have +sealed off the doors and no one can enter except through the sitting +room next door where three state troopers are stationed. Two +regulars and one sergeant. +The police radio in the room cackles all day long. "A carload +of suspicious-looking coloreds in a white Ford coupe." "A sus­ +picious-looking Negro walking near the hospital in a blue jacket +and sneakers." No suspicious-looking white people are reported. +From listening to the police talk next door, and to the radio, i learn +that the hospital is saturated with state troopers. They seem to be +under the impression that somebody is going to try and break me +out. I feel better. The Demerol has me flying a little and makes it +easier for me to lie in the contorted position i am forced into +because of the cuff on my leg. +Later that afternoon, it begins again. Detectives and more +detectives. Questions and more questions. This time the questions +are different. Now they want to know about the Black Liberation +Army: how big is it; what cities is it in; who is in it, etc., etc. But +the main focus of their questions centers around "the guy that got +away." I am delighted ! I figure that Sundiata is somewhere safe by +now, cooling out. +They are more careful where and how they hit me now. I guess +they don't want to leave any marks. One sticks his fingers in my +eyes. I don't know what he has on his fingertips, but whatever it is +burns like hell. I think I am gonna be blind forever. He says he will +keep doing it until i am completely blind. I close my eyes and hold +them as tight as i can. He strikes me a few more times. Some of the +stuff gets into my eyes anyway. Burning tears pour down my face +and my whole head is throbbing. I think he is going to keep on, but +he begins to curse me, calling me all kind of nigger bitches. Finally, +he and the others leave. + + On one of those first days, a white doctor comes to examine +me. He acts very nice, sweet as pie. He examines me slowly, the +whole time making friendly conversation. I wonder what kind of +specialist he is since i haven't seen him before and i know he isn't +one of the regulars. He says he knows how terrible i must feel and +makes a big deal of protesting that i am chained to the bed. He +keeps on talking and, after a while, pulls a chair close to the bed. +Then he starts to ask friendly little questions. The conversation +goes something like this: +"Those guys on the turnpike are rough. They'll give you a +ticket for anything. I take the turnpike every day. You live in jersey? +I live in Newark. You ever been there? You must really be lonely up +here. I'll bet you really need someone to talk to. I went to medical +school in New York. You're from there, aren't you ?" +I get suspicious and say nothing to him. I tell him i want to go +to sleep and he leaves. I never saw him again, but to this day i'm +convinced he was some kind of police or FBI agent. +On the third or fourth day, most of my troubles came to an end. +Well, not really, but the punch, bang, poke, and prod part of my +troubles ended. A nurse with a German accent came to my aid. She +was one of the morning nurses, very professional and exacting, to +the point that she could be a pain in the neck. But she was a +lifesaver. It was she who had first protested the tightness of the +handcuff on my leg. My leg had begun to swell and she had +insisted they loosen it and that the cuff be covered with gauze. Of +course, as soon as she was gone they tightened it again, but the +gauze helped somewhat. I could tell by the little things she said and +did that she knew what was going on. One morning she came in as +usual and, after she had finished her normal routine, she reached +behind the bed, pulled at something, and then handed me an +electric call button on a cord. +"Anytime you need me or need anything from the nurses, just +press this button," she said. "Don't be afraid to use it," she added, +giving me a knowing look. +I could have kissed her. Later, when she returned to the room, +after the troopers realized i had the call button, one came in behind +her. +"Is there any way to disconnect that thing?" he asked. "She +might hurt someone with it or hurt herself." +"No," she said, "there is no way to remove it. If you pull it out, +it will just keep ringing in the nurses' station. She is having diffi­ +culty breathing and she needs it." + +ASSATA +9 + + ASSATA +IO + +"Right on !" i thought. "Das ist richtig." +After that, whenever the police came within two feet of my +bed, i would push the button. Finally, they gave up the idea of +beating on me and contented themselves with threats and other +kinds of harassment. A favorite was to stand in the door and point +their guns at me. Each day was my last day on earth. Each night was +my last night. After a while, i became accustomed. Immune. Some­ +times they would cock a gun i didn't know was empty, give a long, +impassioned speech, and then pull the trigger. Other times i was +invited to a game of Russian roulette. they all expressed a bitter +hatred for me. They were state troopers and i was accused of killing +one of them. +Every day there were three shifts of police. When they changed +shifts, the two troopers would salute the sergeant. Some saluted an +army salute, but others saluted like the nazis did in Germany. They +held their hands in front of them and clicked their heels. I couldn't +believe it. One day one of them came in and gave me a speech about +how he fought in World War II on the wrong side. He went on and +on and there was no question that he believed everything he said. +He talked about how messed up the world is. How decent people +couldn't walk the streets. He said that if Hitler had won, the world +wouldn't be in the mess it is in today, that niggers like me, no-good +niggers, wouldn't be going around shooting new jersey state troopers. +He went on to say that the white race had invented everything +because they were smart and worked hard, that other races wanted +to riot and use terrorism to take everything the white race had +worked so hard to get. I had a hard time keeping my mouth shut. +He talked about empires, the Roman, the Greek, the Spanish, the +British. He told me white people created empires because they were +more civilized than the rest of the world. White people created +ballet and opera and symphonies. "Did you ever hear of a nigger +writing a symphony?" he asked. Every day he gave me a speech +about nazism. Sometimes other nazis would join in. I asked him if +there were a lot of nazis in the state troopers, but he just laughed +and kept on talking. +When i was in the Black Panther Party, we used to call the +police "fascist pigs," but i had called them fascists not because i +believed they were nazis but because of the way they acted in our +communities. As many times as i had referred to police as fascists, +these shocked me by the truth of my own rhetoric. I later learned +that the state troopers in new jersey was started by a German, that +their uniforms were patterned after some type of German uniform + + (very similar to the uniforms South African police wear), that they +are notorious for stopping Black, Hispanic, and long-haired people +on the turnpike and beating, harassing, and arresting them. +The nazis headed the harassment campaign against me. They +spit in my food and turned down the thermostat in the room until +it was freezing. For a while their campaign centered on keeping me +from sleeping. They stamped their feet on the floor, sang songs all +night, played with their guns, shouted, etc. I told the nurses about +it, but it was no use. +I could deal with whatever they were putting out, but how long +would this go on? I had heard nothing from the outside world, and +i didn't even know if anybody knew where i was or whether i was +dead or alive. My chest was feeling better, but i still could hardly +breathe: I thought i was past the point of needing an operation, but +i wasn't sure if it was because of the painkillers they had given me or +because i was really getting better. +Every day i asked them to contact my lawyer, and every day +they said they had tried but there was no answer. I knew that was a +lie because Evelyn had an answering service. Every day i asked them +to contact my family. The response to this was usually obscene. +"Oh, you got a family, do you ? Is your mother a nigger whore +like you ? We don't allow no pickaninnies at this hospital." +They went on and on about my family until they found some­ +thing else to go on and on about. Whoever said that no news is +good news had to be out of his mind. +Well, there was news, but it wasn't good news. They told me +they had arrested Sundiata. At first i didn't believe them, but they +were too glib and arrogant. I knew something had happened. +"We got your friend," they said, "and he's singing like a bird. +Yeah, he's singing like a bird, and he's giving you all the weight. It's +a good thing for you he didn't know what color undies you had on +or he would have told us that. We know where you were coming +from. We know where you were going. We know that you stopped +at a Howard Johnson. He even told us what you ordered and that +you just love potato chips." +"What?" i thought. "How did they know that?" Then i re­ +membered that we had bought potato chips at a Howard Johnson +on the turnpike. Maybe someone had seen me and remembered. +"Yes, Clark Squire tells us that you took the trooper's gun and +shot him in the head. Now, you wouldn't do a thing like that, +would you ? Well, JoAnne, you're in a hell of a fix. If I were you, I +wouldn't let him get away with it. It's a low-down thing to do, +giving all the weight to a woman. I'll make a deal with you. You tell + +ASSATA +II + + ASSATA +I2 + +us everything that happened and I promise we'll go light on you. I +just don't like to see you get a bad break, that's all. You know, +you're facing a lot of time in prison, the way things stand, if he +testifies against you. You could get life in prison or even the chair, +but all you have to do is tell us what happened and we'll see to it +that you do just a couple of years and go home. You're young. You +don't want to rot away your whole life in prison, do you ? Maybe +you think you owe something to the cause. You think he's thinking +about the cause now ? No, he's singing his head off, trying to give +you all the weight. They're all the same. They talk all this shit about +Black people, equal rights, civil rights, but when it comes down to +the wire, all they care about is their hide. He's thinking about his +hide and you better think about yours. You think the cause gives a +damn about you? Your own people don't give a damn about you. +To them you're just a common criminal. Now I'm giving you this +one chance to save yourself and come clean. If you don't take it, +you're a fool." +They really did think Black people were stupid. Their line had +to be the oldest in the book. He was sitting there like he just knew +his corny little speech had done the trick. I said nothing. If you +don't say anything to them, they have nothing to turn around and +use against you. "Divide and conquer" has always been their +motto. +When they realized i wasn't going to talk, they began to leave. +Then one came back. "Oh," he said, "I almost forgot to read you +your rights." He pulled out this little card and read from it. " 'You +have the right to remain silent. . . . You have the right to . . . etc. ' I +wouldn't want you to say that we didn't read you your rights." +Thursday afternoon. They're letting me make a phone call. I don't +believe it. I call my aunt. She's not in. The answering service +answers. I don't know who else to call. The only lawyers whose +names i know worked on the Panther 21 trial. I call them at +random. No one is in, but secretaries promise to give them mes­ +sages. I'm disappointed but i feel a lot better. Things are looking +up. +It is Friday. From the activity in the room next door, i can tell +something is up. Voices and whispers. They are back and forth, in +and out, arranging this, moving that. The police radio is jumping. +What is happening? Whatever it is, it can't be too bad, i think. They +are leaving me alone. In a little while a policewoman comes in. She +is in a brown uniform and her insignia says "Sheriff's Depanment." + + She's Black or Hispanic. I can't tell exactly, except that she isn't +white. Then some more police come in, dressed in uniforms similar +to hers. Then more police. They are state troopers. One of them +moves to the door and stands at attention. Then some men in suits +come in. Then a man comes in with a stenographic machine. +"The Honorable Joseph F. Bradshaw, State of New Jersey, +County of Middlesex. All rise." +Then this judge walks in with a black robe on. One of the men +in a suit reads the charges against me: +We are here today to serve complaints upon you for the matters +arising out of the shooting of May 2 of 1973. I will read you the +complaints, leave copies with you of the charges that will be pending +against you. The Judge will then advise you on the arraignment of +such rights you may have . . . . +. . . you are charged under Complaint Number 119977, by +Detective Taranto, New Jersey State Police, who says on the 2nd of +May, 1973, within the confines of the Township of East Brunswick, +County of Middlesex, that you unlawfully and illegally resisted a +lawful arrest being made by New Jersey State Trooper James Harper +by discharging a dangerous pistol and wounding the said James +Harper and fleeing the scene of the incident, all in violation of N.J.S. +2A:85-1. . . . +You are also charged, . . . under complaint Number S 119979, +by Detective Sergeant Taranto of the New Jersey State Police, who +says that on the 2nd of May, 1973, within the Township of East +Brunswick, County of Middlesex, that you did commit an Atrocious +Assault and Battery upon New Jersey State Trooper James Harper by +shooting, wounding and maiming the said James Harper with a +hand gun then and there discharged by the defendant, all in viola­ +tion of N.J.S. 2A:90-1. +In the Second Count you are charged by the said officer who +says that defendant Joanne Deborah Chesimard did on the afore­ +mentioned date and place unlawfully and illegally assault the said +James Harper with intent to kill, murder and slay him by use of a +hand gun then and there held by the defendant, all in violation of +N.J.S. 2A:9 0- 2. +It further charges in the Third Count that the aforementioned +defendant did at the above mentioned time and place commit an +unlawful and illegal assault and battery on a law enforcement officer, +to wit, one James Harper, a duly sworn Trooper of the New Jersey +State Police, by discharging a firearm and wounding the said James +Harper, all in violation of N.J.S. 2A:90-4 . . . . +In S 119980 you are charged with illegally and unlawfully +committing the crime of murder by willfully and with malice + +ASSATA + +I3 + + ASSATA + +aforethought shooting, killing and slaying New Jersey State Trooper +Werner Foerster, all in violation of N.J.S. 2A:11 3-1 and N.J.S. +2A:85-14.... +You are further being charged under S 119981 with one count, +wherein Detective Sergeant Taranto charges you on the 2nd day of +May, 197 3, within the Township of East Brunswick, County of +Middlesex, that you did unlawfully, illegally and with malice +aforethought cause or affect the murder of James Coston a/kla Zayd +Shakur, while resisting or avoiding a lawful arrest then and there +being affected by New Jersey State Trooper James Harper, all in +violation of N.J.S. 2A:11 3- 2.... +You are charged with S 119982 by State Police Sergeant Louis +Taranto, that on the 2nd day of May, 197 3, in the Township of East +Brunswick, County of Middlesex, you unlawfully and illegally pos­ +sessed on your person, under your custody and control, an illegal +weapon, to wit, one Browning 9 milimeter automatic pistol, one +Browning automatic .380 caliber, one .38 caliber Llama automatic +pistol, serial number 248 31, all without having obtained any neces­ +sary permit for the carrying of same, in violation of N.J.S. +2A:151-41 (a).... +You are further charged in Complaint S 119983, wherein De­ +tective Sergeant Taranto says on the 2nd day of May, 197 3, in the +Township of East Brunswick, County of Middlesex, that you did +unlawfully and illegally and forcibly take from the person of New +Jersey State Trooper Werner Foerster a .38 caliber revolver by vio­ +lence,to wit, by shooting, slaying and killing the same Werner +Foerster, all in violation of N.J.S. 2A:141-1. +The Second Count of that Complaint charges you with com­ +mitting that act while being armed, in violation of N.J.S. +2A:151-5.. .. +...you are being charged by State Trooper Detective Sergeant +Taranto, Complaint S 119984, who says on the 2nd day of May, +197 3, in the Township of East Brunswick, County of Middlesex, +that you did illegally, unlawfully conspire with James Coston, a/k/a +Zayd Shakur and one John Doe to commit the crime of murder of +the said Trooper Werner Foerster, and in the affectuation of said +conspiracy did execute the following overt acts: +1.That the said defendant Joanne Deborah Chesimard did have +in her possession a pistol with which to affectuate the ends of the +conspiracy on the above-mentioned time and ... at the above­ +mentioned place. +2. The above named defendant Joanne Deborah Chesimard in +concert with and by common scheme and plan did assault Trooper +James Harper and otherwise distharge her weapon at the said +Trooper James Harper with the intent to affect the ends of the + + conspiracy by otherwise wounding, maiming or killing him, all in +violation of N.J.S. 2A:98-1 and N.J.S. 2A:113-1. +1 think he will never stop. Half of the charges i don't even +understand. 1 interrupt the proceedings. "I don't have a lawyer +here," i protest. "I would like to have a lawyer present." They ignore +me and keep on reading. +"How do you plead?" they ask me. +"I would like to have a lawyer present. Don't i have a right to a +lawyer?" +"That will not be necessary," the judge says coldly. "Enter a +plea of not guilty for the defendant." +And just as quickly as they entered, the procession departs. +Later the same policewoman comes back. She stands rigidly +against the wall. Her face is a mask. "Oh, no !" i think. "Court +again ? What are they gonna do, railroad me here and now?" 1 +imagine myself being tried right there in the bed with no lawyer. +The door opens. It is Evelyn-my lawyer and aunt. She is the +most beautiful sight in the world. She embraces me and sits down +next to me. As usual, she is business first. +"I only have five minutes," she tells me. "They told me that 1 +couldn't see you. 1 had to go to court and get a court order to see +you. The judge would give us only five minutes apiece. Your mother +and sister are outside. So talk fast." +We look up. The police are practically standing in our mouths. +"I would like to talk with my client in private," Evelyn says. +"Would you please move back. This is an outrage. This is an +attorney-client visit and we have a constitutional right to privacy." +The police move back one inch. 1 tell Evelyn about the kan­ +garoo court in the morning. My mouth moves so fast it's like one of +those old-style movies, but a talkie. 1 can see from the expression +on her face that i must look horrible. +"How are they treating you?" she asks. +1 don't have time to tell her the whole story, but i have to let +her know what is going on. 1 don't know what they will do next. 1 +have to try to get someone to put pressure on them to stop. 1 tell her +some of it, but i just can't tell her the worst things. Her face looks +so pitiful and every time i tell her something else, her hands shake. +"Try to do what you can," i say. +"Time's up. Time's up, miss !" +Evelyn makes her futile protests. "I need to talk with my +client. This is just not enough time." + +ASSATA +I5 + + ASSATA +I6 + +"Sorry, miss. Time's up !" They move toward her like they +are +. +going to beat her up. +Then she is gone. 1 brace myself for my mother and my sister. +It has been such a long time since i have seen them. 1 don't know +what to expect. +My mother comes in. She looks worried but strong. She kisses +me. +"I'm proud of you," she says. +The words spin around me, weaving a warm blanket of love. 1 +am so happy. 1 can hardly contain myself. My mother is proud of +me. She loves me and she is proud of me. +Too soon the time with my mother is up. My sister comes in. +She has her hair wrapped in a turban and she looks so pale. As +soon as she sees me, she breaks out crying. Tears stream down her +already puffy face. 1 can tell she has been crying a lot. +"I love you," she says simply. +We don't do a lot of talking, but i feel so very close to her +during those few minutes. +"Time's up." Again. And then she is gone. +1 lie there full of emotion. All of this is so hard on my family. +They look vulnerable and shaken. This is maybe harder on them +than it is on me. 1 wish there was something i can do to make them +happy. +Two Black nurses were very kind to me. When they were on duty, +they would go out of their way to make sure i was all right. They +made frequent trips to my room, for which i was especially grateful +during those first days. +"If you need anything, just ring," they said knowingly. +One night one of the nurses came in and gave me three books. +I hadn't even thought about reading. The books were a godsend. +They had been carefully selected. One was a book of Black poetry, +one was a book called Black Women in White Amerika, and the +third was a novel, Siddhartha, by Hermann Hesse. Whenever i tired +of the verbal abuse of my captors, i would drown them out by +reading the poetry out loud. "Invictus" and "If We Must Die" were +the poems i usually read. 1 read them over and over, until i was sure +the guards had heard every word. The poems were my message to +them. +When i read the book about Black women, i felt the spirits of +those sisters feeding me, making me stronger. Black women have +been struggling and helping each other to survive the blows of life +since the beginning of time. And when i read Siddhartha, a peace + + came over me. I felt a unity with all things living. The world, in +spite of oppression, is a beautiful place. I would say "Om" softly to +myself, letting my lips vibrate. I felt the birds, the sun, and the trees. +I was in communion with all the forces on the earth that truly love +people, in communion with all the revolutionary forces on the +earth. +I was definitely getting better. They were even unchaining me +so that i could hobble to the bathroom every now and then, with +the help of the nurse. I was still weak and, when i returned from the +bathroom, i would flop on the bed as if i had just accomplished a +great physical feat. But at least now i knew what was wrong with +me. During those first days i could barely ask, and when i did, they +acted as if my condition were some top secret information i was not +privy to. I had three bullet holes. There was a bullet in my chest (it's +still there); an injured lung with fluid in it, a broken clavicle, and a +paralyzed arm with undetermined damage to the nerves. I kept +asking if i would be able to use my hand again. One or two doctors +said, flatly, no. The others said, "Maybe yes, maybe no." +Anyway, i was gonna live. +STORY + +You died. +I cried. +And kept on getting up. +A little slower. +And a lot more deadly. + +ASSATA +I7 + + Chapter 2 + +IS + +he FBI cannot find any evidence that i was +born. On my FBI Wanted poster, they list my birth +date as July 1 6, 1 947, and, in parentheses, "not sub­ +stantiated by birth records." +Anyway, i was born. I am the older of two chil­ +dren. My sister, Beverly, was born five years later. The +name my momma gave me was JoAnne Deborah By­ +ron. I am told that i was a fat, happy baby and that i +was talking in complete sentences when i was about +nine months old. They say that i was lazy, though, that +i talked way before i learned to walk. Everybody says +that i had my days mixed up with my nights and kept +everybody up all night. (I'm still pretty much a night +owl.) The only other tale i remember hearing about +my babyhood was that i would scream at the top of +my lungs whenever anybody wearing furs or feathers +came near me. (I'm still not too fond of furs and +feathers.) +My mother and father were divorced shortly after +i was born. I lived with my mother, my aunt (now +Evelyn Williams), my grandmother (Lulu Hill), and +my grandfather (Frank Hill) in a house in the Brick­ +town section of Jamaica, New York. The only thing i +remember about that house is the backyard, which i +loved, and the huge dog next door. I remember the +dog well because he terrified me. To my young eyes he +looked like a giant, a canine version of King Kong or +Mighty Joe Young. (I'm still not too wild about dogs.) +When i was three years old, my grandparents sold the +house and moved down South. I moved with them. +We moved into a big wooden house on Seventh +Street in Wilmington, North Carolina. It was the +house my grandfather had grown up in. It had a +wraparound porch with a big green swing and, of + + course, rosebushes in the front yard and a pecan tree in the back. +My grandfather originally thought that the house had belonged to +my great-grandfather, Pappa Linc (short for Lincoln), but they +found out he had only been given the use of the house for his +lifetime. Pappa Linc had worked as a chauffeur for one of the most +prominent white families in Wilmington and, the story goes, had +been a prominent member of the Black community. He and my +great-grandmother, Momma Jessie, had worked hard all their lives, +had raised eleven children in that house, and had died under the +impression that the house was theirs. Fine print and white lawyers +have a way of robbing Black people of what is theirs. My grand­ +parents were forced to buy the house again. +"Who's better than you?" +"Nobody." +"Who?" +"Nobody. " +"Get that head up." +"Yes." +"Yes, who?" +"Yes, Grandmommy." +"I want that head held up high, and i don't want you taking +no mess from anybody, you understand?" +"Yes, Grandmommy." +"Don't you let me hear about anybody walking over my +grandbaby. " +"No, Grandmommy." +"I don't want nobody taking advantage of you, you hear +me.2" +"Yes, i hear you." +"Yes, who?" +"Yes, Grandmommy." + +All of my family tried to instill in me a sense of personal dignity, but +my grandmother and my grandfather were really fanatic about it. +Over and over they would tell me, "You're as good as anyone else. +Don't let anybody tell you that they're better than you." My +grandparents strictly forbade me to say "yes ma'am" and "yes sir" +or to look down at my shoes or to make subservient gestures when +talking to white people. "You look them in the eye when you talk +to them," i was told. "And speak up like you've got some sense." I +was told to speak in a loud, clear voice and to hold my head up +high, or risk having my grandparents knock it off my shoulders. + +ASSATA + +I9 + + ASSATA +20 + +My grandparents were big on respect. I was to be polite and +respectful to adults, to say "good morning" or "good evening" as i +passed the neighbors' houses. Any kind of back talk or sass was +simply out of the question. My grandparents didn't even permit me +to answer questions with a simple "yes" or "no." Instead I had to +say "yes, Grandmother" or "no, Grandfather." But when it came to +dealing with white people in the segregated South, my grand­ +mother would tell me, menacingly, "Don't you respect nobody that +don't respect you, you hear me?" "Yes, Grandmother," i would +answer, my voice almost a whisper. "Speak up !" she would tell me +repeatedly, something she seemed hell-bent on making me do. She +would send me to the store with clear instructions on what to bring +back. I was, under no circumstances, to come home with inferior +goods, something which happened all too often to Black people in +the South. " You tell them that you don't want any garbage, and +you'd better not come back with any," she would warn me. If the +store owner sold me something that my grandmother didn't like, i +would have to return to the store and get the thing changed or get +my money back. "You speak up loud and clear. Don't let me have +to go down to that store." Scared to death of the fuss my grand­ +mother would make if she had to go to the store herself, i would +hurry back to the store, prepared to raise almighty hell. +Whenever my grandmother heard about somebody being mis­ +treated, especially if it was a man mistreating a woman, she would +glare at me and say, "Don't you let anybody mistreat you, you hear? +We're not raising you up to be mistreated, you hear? I don't want +you taking no mess off of nobody, you understand ?" "Yes, Grand­ +mother," i would answer, for what seemed like the millionth time, +wondering why my grandmother liked to repeat herself so often. +The tactics that my grandparents used were crude, and i hated it +when they would repeat everything so often. But the lessons that +they taught me, more than anything else i learned in life, helped me +to deal with the things i would face growing up in amerika. +But a lot of times, for my grandparents, pride and dignity were +hooked up to things like position and money. For them, being "just +as good" as white people meant having what white people had. +They would tell me to go to school and study so that i could have a +nice house and nice clothes and a nice car. "White people don't +want to see us with nothing," they would tell me. "That's why +you've got to get your education so that you can be somebody and +have something in life." Becoming "somebody" in life just didn't +mean too much to me. I wanted to feel happy, to feel good. My +awareness of class differences in the Black community came at an + + early age. Although my grandmother taught me more about being ASSATA +proud and strong than anyone i know, she had a lot of Booker T. +ZI +Washington, pull yourself up by the bootstraps, "talented tenth" +ideas. She had worked hard and had made a decent living as a +pieceworker in a factory, but she had other ideas for me. She was +determined that i would become part of Wilmington's talented +tenth-the privileged class-part of the so-called Black bour­ +geOISIe. +One of her first steps was to sternly forbid me to play with +"alley rats." It was impossible for me to obey her orders since i had +absolutely no idea what an alley rat was. I often became the +unwitting object of my grandmother's fury, charged with the crime +of alley rat playing. My grandmother, writhing with annoyance, +would threaten me with untold punishments if i continued my evil +ways. I received strict orders to abandon my penchant for alley rats +and play with "decent children." But we could never agree on who +"decent children" were. Decent children, to my grandmother, were +a whole 'nother story. +"Decent children" came from "decent families". How did you +know what a decent family was ? A decent family lived in a decent +house. How did you know what a decent house was? A decent +house was fixed up nice and had a sidewalk in front of it. Decent +families didn't let their kids play in the street with no shoes on and +didn't let their kids say "ain't." Little did my grandmother know +that ain't was my favorite word once i got two feet out of her +hearing range. My grandmother had a little alley rat right under +her roof and she didn't even know it. Alley rats supposedly lived in +alleys, in run-down shacks, but my grandmother would often call +one of my friends an alley rat even if the kid didn't live in an alley. +Dutifully, to put some sense in my head, she would take me to +visit "decent children." These decent little souls were invariably the +offspring of Wilmington's Black doctors, lawyers, preachers, and +undertakers. Schoolteachers, barbershop owners, and the editor of +the "colored" newspaper were also decent. In most of these "de­ +cent" little play sessions, the other kids and I would stand around +looking at each other awkwardly. Sometimes we would get it on +and have some fun. But more often than not, it would be glare-at­ +each-other time or show-and-tell time (the kids showing me their +toys and such while the grownups oohed and aahed). The worst +times were eating at the preacher'S house, where they would take an +hour saying grace, or playing ball with the undertaker's daughter. +She always wanted to play ball and i was scared to death that the +ball was going to roll into the part where they kept the dead people + + ASSATA and end up in the mouth of some corpse. My grandmother would +have caught a shitfit if she had known that one of her favorite little +22 +decent kids' favorite game was playing show and tell with his ding­ +a-ling and threatening to pee on everybody. +After these visits, my grandmother would chirp for a week +about how nice my little decent friends were and about how nicely +we had played together, while i would groan silently and keep the +expression on my face one shade away from insolence. My grand­ +mother and i waged a standoff battle damn near until i was grown. +It wasn't that i wanted to defy her, it was that i just liked who i +liked. I didn't care what kind of house my friends had or whether +or not they lived in alleys. All that mattered was whether i liked +them. I was convinced then, and i'm still convinced, that in some +things kids have a lot more sense than adults. +But, to my young mind, life in Wilmington was exciting. There +were always new places to go and new cousins, aunts, and uncles to +meet. One of my favorite relatives was Aunt Lou. She was Momma +Jessie's sister and she lived across town. She was my grandfather's +only remaining relative in Wilmington, the rest having moved up +North or out West. Aunt Lou had a magic house, full of all kinds of +flavors, textures, smells, and things. There were whole worlds in her +house to explore. She would always feed me something good to eat +and then let me run wild. +I didn't know until i was grown that Aunt Lou had a son. His +name was Uncle Willie and he died before i was born. Uncle Willie +was something of a legend around Wilmington during the twenties, +thirties, and forties. Whenever he came to town, they say, Aunt Lou +would plead and moan and worry until he was in safer territory up +North. They say that he would tear down the "colored" and "white +only" signs and break the Jim Crow laws at whim. He would go +around demanding his rights and denouncing the oppression of +Black people, and it is logical that no one who loved him felt the +least bit comfortable until he was long gone. They called him "Wild +Willie" or "that crazy Indian" (he was supposedly Black and Cher­ +okee), but people called him that because of his nature. They say he +had a lot of friends and that he died of natural causes. +The rest of the relatives i met came from my grandmother'S +side. My grandmother'S family lived in Seabreeze, outside of +Wilmington, close to Carolina Beach. Their last name was Free­ +man, and they were famous for being high-strung, quick-tempered, +and emotional. They seldom worked for anybody, choosing instead +to live on the land their father had left them. They worked as +farmers and fishermen, and they owned small stores. I have also + + heard that they were in the bootleg business. My grandmother's +father was a Cherokee Indian. He died when my grandmother was +very young. Nobody knows too much about him, except that, +somehow, he acquired a great deal of land and left it to his children. +The land was very valuable because much of it bordered either on +the river or on the ocean. Everybody had a different theory about +what my great-grandfather had done to acquire it. But it was +because of this land that my grandparents had moved down South. +In 1 950, the year we moved to Wilmington, the South was +completely segregated. Black people were forbidden to go many +places, and that included the beach. Sometimes they would travel +all the way to South Carolina just to see the ocean. My grand­ +parents decided to open a business on their land. It consisted of a +restaurant, lockers where people could change their clothes, and an +area for dancing and hanging out. +The popular name for the beach was Bop City, although my +grandparents insisted on calling it Freeman's Beach. Throughout +my childhood, the name Freeman had no particular significance. It +was a name just like any other name. It wasn't until i was grown +and began to read Black history that i discovered the significance of +the name. After slavery, many Black people refused to use the last +names of their masters. They called themselves "Freeman" instead. +The name was also used by Africans who were freed before slavery +was "officially" abolished, but it was mainly after the abolition of +chattel slavery that many Black people changed their names to +Freeman. After learning this, i saw my ancestors in a new light. +For me, the beach was a wonderful place, and to this day there +is no place on this earth that i love more. I have never seen a beach +more beautiful than it was then, before they decided to build a +canal right through the property of my grandparents. It is now just +a pale shadow of what it used to be, most of it destroyed by erosion. +But back then there were majestic sand dunes covered with tall sea +grass where my cousins and i would build forts, houses, and, +sometimes, cities. When time permitted, we spent hours hiding and +making sneak attacks on one another. The sand was fine and clean +and, in the beginning of summer, we could find j ust about every +imaginable kind of sea shell. When the sun got too hot, we would +sit in the old blue jeep my grandfather drove and play with frilly +things like paper dolls and teacups. After i learned to read, i would +sit in the sun, under the huge hats my grandmother always made +me wear, and read one book after another. +Every other week my grandfather went to the "colored" library +on Red Cross Street and the librarian would send ten or so books + +ASSATA + +23 + + ASSATA + +for me to read. As soon as i finished reading them, my grandfather +would go and get another batch. My imagination was vivid. With +fragments of pirates and the Bobbsey Twins floating around, i +would sit looking out at the ocean and think about everything. I +imagined all the places i had read about on the other side of the +ocean and wondered if i would ever see them. And, of course, i +daydreamed about all kinds of stuff, most of it silly. +But my days were not spent simply daydreaming. My grand­ +parents were firm believers in work. They had worked all of their +lives and there was no way they were gonna tolerate any "lazy­ +good-for-nothin's" around them. Every day there were chores to do +and there was no playing until they were completed. I did things +like putting the potato chips on the racks, putting sodas in the +cooler, wiping the tables clean, etc. When customers were there, i +would sell small stuff like potato chips, Nabs, pickles, and pickled +pigs' feet. I would also set the tables and bring customers things +they needed. But my main job was collecting fifty cents for parking. +Because there was no road to our beach (the paved road ended with +the white section), my grandparents had to pay for a dirt road and +parking lot to be laid over the sand. Truckloads of dirt were +brought and a steamroller mashed it down so that it was hard +enough to drive on. This was an expensive process, so my grand­ +parents decided to charge fifty cents for parking. I could count and +make change at a very early age, so it was my job to collect the fifty +cents. During the week it wasn't too time-consuming, but on the +weekends, if the weather was nice, it was an all-day job. +Cars and buses of people came from all over North Carolina, +South Carolina, and Virginia. There were church groups, school +groups, social clubs, women's clubs, boy scouts, and girl scouts. All +kinds of people would come to the beach, some with a little money +and some that you could tell were real poor. In all the years i spent +on that beach, only one or two people hassled me. Most of them +treated me very kindly, just like i was their kid. +The people who came to the beach fascinated me. I loved to see +them come and go. After a while, i would recognize the regulars +and it didn't take me too long to learn their names. Some of them +gave me tips, which i usually spent on the picolo (jukebox). There +were lots of lovers and i spent some of my time spying on them in +the parking lot, but they weren't too interesting. All they did was +squirm a lot. Checking license plates (i could recognize almost all +of the states' license plates on sight) and collecting bugs (i had a +huge collection) were much more interesting. But watching families +was better, on their picnics with their fried chicken, potato salads, + + and watermelons. Some of them looked so happy you could tell +they didn't get a chance to go to many picnics. And i was always on +the watch for kids to play with when 1 wasn't busy. +Then there were the goodtimers. Their cars smelled like whis­ +key. They would dance a lot, eat a lot, spend a lot on the picolo, and +many times i would wonder if they had made it home all right. +A lot of poor people came to the beach. Sometimes the floors +of their raggedy old cars or trucks were half rotted out. Usually a +lot of little children were with them and they wouldn't have bathing +suits. They went swimming in whatever clothes they had worn to +the beach, and half the time the little kids wore nothing. Then there +were those who came to put on airs, usually in the evening, all +dressed up, to eat dinner. +Many would say, "I can't stand the sun," "I'm too Black +already, 1 ain't goin' out in no sun." It was amazing the number of +people who said they were too Black already. We looked at them +like they were crazy because we loved the sun. But the umbrellas for +rent went like hotcakes. Some people draped clothes and blankets +around the umbrellas so that no light penetrated whatsoever. One +lady always put a paper bag on her head and poked holes in it for +her eyes. Some of the women refused to go near the water because +they were afraid their hair would "go bad." +One of the moving things for me was when someone saw the +ocean for the first time. It was amazing to watch. They would stand +there, in awe, overpowered and overwhelmed, as if they had come +face to face with God or with the vastness of the universe. 1 +remember one time a preacher brought an old lady to the beach. +She was the oldest-looking person i had ever seen. She said that she +just wanted to see the ocean before she died. She stood there in one +spot for so long she looked like she was in a trance. Then, with the +help of the preacher, she hobbled around, picked up the mundane +shells, and put them into her handkerchief as if they were the most +precious things in the world. +1 loved to eat (still do) and the beach was right up my alley. +Right now, when i think of the fried chicken and fish dinners, my +mouth starts to water. But what really sends me off is remembering +those seafood platters with fish, shrimps, oysters, deviled crab, +clam fritters, and french fries with lettuce and tomatoes on the side. +If my memory is any good, i think they sold for $ 1 .50. +Next to food, music was my love. Fats Domino, Nat King +Cole, Chuck Berry, Little Richard, the Platters, Brook Benton, +Bobby "Blue" Bland, James Brown, Dinah Washington, Maxine +Brown, Big Maybelle were some of the people 1 listened to during + +ASSATA + +25 + + ASSATA + +26 + +those beach years. I loved to dance. They would play that music and +i would dance my natural heart out. That was another way i +collected tips. People would egg me on, "Go on, gal, go. Boy, looket +that little girl dance." But i loved to see people dance, too. Many a +time my grandmother or grandfather had to call me out of the +trance i was in watching somebody dance instead of doing my +chores. +At night, my cousins, who sometimes came over to work on +the beach, told ghost stories. They loved to tell them to me because +i would get scared out of my wits. They would tell me about people +who came back from the dead, about snakes that could crawl a +hundred miles an hour and beat you to death with their tails, and +about red phantoms and haints and all kinds of other horrible +things. My imagination was vivid, and before the night was over the +sea grass turned to monsters and the wind made ghost howls. +Sometimes even my grandmother and grandfather would get +into the ghost story sessions. My grandfather's favorite one goes +like this: He was driving home in a terrible storm one night. It was +lightning and thundering like crazy. He saw lightning hit a tree +ahead of him and saw the tree fall across the road. He tried to stop, +but it was too late. He braced himself to hit the tree, but nothing +happened. The car went smoothly through it as if it weren't there. +He turned around and, sure enough, the tree was still lying across +the road. He swears that the story is true and i'm convinced that he +thoroughly believes it is. +We were, however, visited by real, live ghosts. They were the +phantoms of the parking lot. It seems that the white citizens of +Wilmington and Carolina Beach were not at all happy that my +grandparents had dared to build on the land and to start a "col­ +ored" business. We were too close for their comfort. So they would +visit us from time to time to express their disapproval. I don't know +for a fact that they were card-carrying members of the Klan, but, +judging from their behavior, i think they were. But then, of course, +they weren't wearing their sheets. They could've just been red­ +blooded amerikan boys out for some good clean fun. The parking +lot was made of dirt, and cars spinning around on it at breakneck +speed would ruin it in no time. Two or three of them would ride +around the parking lot, spinning and skidding, while they shouted +curses and racist insults. One time they fired guns in the air. I +remember seeing them and hearing them out there and wondering +what they were gonna do next. More than once i saw my grand­ +father go to where he kept his gun and carry it quietly to where he + + had been sitting. Somehow this made me more afraid, because i +knew that he, too, thought they were scary. +Finally my grandfather put a big fat chain, almost as big as the +kind used to anchor ships, across the road at the entrance to the +parking lot. This soon eliminated our nightly visitors. +One night, as my grandmother and i were fastening the chain +in place and locking it, a white man drove up to the lot and, in an +arrogant tone of voice, ordered my grandmother to open the gate so +that he could turn his car around. My grandmother, looking very +dignified, said, "No, I can't let you do that." Then, in a nicer voice, +he asked my grandmother again to open the gate. "No," she said +again. "Come on now, auntie, I got a mammy in my house. Now +open the gate and lemme turn around." "Wha'd you say?" asked +my grandmother. "I said I got a mammy in my house, now come +on, open up. " My grandmother leaned over in the man's face. +"I don't care how many mammies you got in your house. I +don't care if you've got a hundred mammies in your house, you're +gonna back out of here tonight. And I want you off of my property +now! Right now!" +That man turned as red as a redneck can turn and started to +back his car up. The road was very narrow, barely wide enough for +one car, and there was no way he could turn around without +getting stuck in the sand. He backed up for more than a quarter of +a mile. As we looked at him backing up, my grandmother and i +laughed so hard the tears fell from our eyes. +Every day when we drove from the house on Seventh Street to +the beach, we passed a beautiful park with a zoo. And every day i +would beg, plead, whine, and nag my grandmother to take me to +the zoo. It was almost an obsession. She would always say that +"one day" she would take me, but "one day" never came. I would +sit in the car pouting, thinking how mean she was. I thought that +she had to be the meanest woman on the face of the earth. Finally, +with the strangest look on her face, she told me that we were not +allowed in the zoo. Because we were Black. +When we were on the beach we shopped at Carolina Beach. It +had an amusement park, but of course Black people were not +permitted to go in. Every time we passed it i looked at the merry-go­ +round and the Ferris wheel and the little cars and airplanes and my +heart would just long to ride them. But my favorite forbidden ride +had little boats in a pool of water, and every time i passed them i felt +frustrated and deprived. Of course, peristent creature that i am, i +always asked to be taken on the rides, knowing full well what the + +ASSATA + +27 + + ASSATA + +28 + +answer would be. One summer my mother and sister and i were +walking down the boardwalk. My mother was spending part of her +summer helping my grandparents in the business. As soon as we +neared the rides, i went into my usual act. I continued, ad nauseam, +until my mother, grinning, said. "All right now, I'm gonna try to get +us in. "When we get over there, I don't want to hear one word out of +either of you. Just let me do the talking. And if they ask you +anything, don't answer. Okay? Okay!" +My mother went over to the ticket booth and began talking. I +didn't understand a word she was saying. The lady at the ticket +window kept telling my mother that she couldn't sell her any +tickets. My mother kept talking, very fast, and waving her hands. +The manager came over and told my mother she couldn't buy any +tickets and that we couldn't go into the park. My mother kept +talking and waving her hands and soon she was screaming this +foreign language. I didn't know if she was speaking a play language +or a real one. Several other men came over. They talked to my +mother. She continued. After the men went to one side and had a +conference, they returned and told the ticket seller to give my +mother the tickets. +I couldn't believe it. All at once we were laughing and giggling +and riding the rides. All the white people were staring at us, but we +didn't care. We were busy having a ball. "When i got into one of +those little boats, my mother practically had to drag me out. I was +in my glory. When we finished the rides we went to the Dairy +Queen for ice cream. We sang and laughed all the way home. +When we got home my mother explained that she had been +speaking Spanish and had told the managers that she was from a +Spanish country and that if he didn't let us in she would call the +embassy and the United Nations and i don't know who all else. We +laughed and talked about it for days. But it was a lesson i never +forgot. Anybody, no matter who they were, could come right off the +boat and get more rights and respect than amerikan-born Blacks. +My first school experience was Mrs. Perkins's school in +Wilmington. It was a little two-room school on Red Cross Street +where i learned the fundamentals of reading, writing, and arith­ +metic. I was four years old. Mrs. Perkins's school was the closest +thing to nursery school that Black people in Wilmington had, but +she didn't play that baby play stuff. We were there to learn. I was +prone to colds, however, and i guess the potbellied stove in the +school didn't give off enough heat. I was out sick more than i was in + + school. But i learned enough so that when i went to first grade, +aoerything was easy. I could already read. +I spent most of first grade in New York with my mother, the +rest of the first and all of the second down South with my grand­ +parents. I went to Gregory Elementary School in Wilmington. My +reachers knew my grandparents well and gave them daily reports of +my progress. The teachers were strict and believed solemnJy in the +paddle, but we learned. +Of course, our school was segregated, but the teachers took +more of an interest in our lives because they lived in our world, in +the same neighborhoods. They knew what we were up against and +what we would be facing as adults, and they tried to protect us as +much as they could. More than once we were punished because +some children had made fun of a student who was poor and badly +dressed. I'm not saying that segregation was a good system. Our +schools were inferior. The books were used and torn, handed down +from white schools. We received only a fraction of the state money +allotted to white schools, and the conditions under which many +Black children received an education can only be described as +horrible. But Black children encountered suppport and understand­ +ing and encouragement instead of the hostile indifference they often +met in the "integrated" schools. +There was a big dirt yard next to the school where we would +play and fight. We grew up fighting; it was really hard to get +through school without a few fights, just to survive. But i always +wondered what made people fight. Especially after we learned +about wars. I used to look out on the remains of the sunken ship +that tilted up in front of our beach and wonder how people had +died in it. It was covered with green moss and i imagined skeletons +floating around inside. The ship had been sunk during the Civil +War and i always wondered if it carried Northerners or South­ +erners. Back in those days i used to think the Northerners were the +good guys. +But I never could make much sense out of war. I remember +being taught that World War I was the war to end all wars. Well, we +know that was a lie because there was World War II. I remember a +teacher telling us that World War I was started because Prince +Ferdinand, somewhere in Austria, got killed. (When we learned +history, we were never taught the real reasons for things. We were +just taught useless trivia, simplistic facts, key phrases, and mis­ +cellaneous, meaningless dates.) I couldn't understand it. What were +people all the way in amerika doing in a war because some prince + +ASSATA + +29 + + ASSATA + +30 + +got killed in Austria ? I could just imagine going home and telling +my grandmother that i got in a fight because some dude in Europe +got killed. +They made war sound so glorious in school, so heroic. But the +wars we had on the way home from school and in the playground +were anything but glorious. Besides the cuts and scratches we +received on our battleground, we were likely to get spanked for +fighting or for getting our clothes dirty. I was pretty lucky in that +respect. When my grandmother would discover that i was all in one +piece she wouldn't make too much of a fuss. I guess i looked pretty +much the same after a fight as i did any other day when i came +home from school. I was a natural tomboy and a natural slob. My +blouse was always hanging out of my skin, one of my socks always +fell down in my shoe, and my hair always flew wild around my +head. I always managed to get something torn and dirty and, +because i was awkward and clumsy, i always looked like a victim of +about fifty wars. +Most of our fights started over petty disputes like stepped-on +shoes, flying spitballs, and the contested ownership of pens and +pencils. But behind our fights, self-hatred was clearly visible. +"Nappy head, nappy head, I catch your ass, you goin' be +dead. " +"You think you Black and ugly now; I'm gonna beat you till +you purple." +"You just another nigga to me. Ima show you what I do with +niggas like you." +"You better shut your big blubber lips." +We would call each other "jungle bunnies" and "bush +boogies." We would talk about each other's ugly, big lips and flat +noses. We would call each other pickaninnies and nappy-haired so­ +and-so's. +"Act your age, not your color," we would tell each other. +"You gon thank me when I'm through with you, Ima beat you +so bad, I'm gon beat the black offa you." +Black made any insult worse. When you called somebody a +"bastard," that was bad. But when you called somebody a "Black +bastard," now that was terrible. In fact, when i was growing up, +being called "Black," period, was grounds for fighting. +"Who you callin' Black ?" we would say. We had never heard +the words "Black is beautiful" and the idea had never occurred to +most of us. +I hated for my grandmother to comb my hair. And she hated +to comb it. My hair has always been thick and long and nappy and + + it would give my grandmother hell. She has straight hair, so she was +impatient with mine. When she combed my hair she always remem­ +bered something i had done wrong the day before or earlier that +day and popped me in the head with the comb. She would always +tell me during these sessions, "Now, when you grow up, I want you +to marry some man with 'good hair' so your children will have +good hair. You hear me ?" "Yes, Grandmother." I used to wonder +why she hadn't followed her own advice since my grandfather's +hair is far from straight, but i never dared ask. My grandmother +just said what everybody knew was a common fact: good hair was +better than bad hair, meaning that straight hair was better than +nappy hair. +When my sister Beverly was little, i remember teasing her +about her lips. She has big, beautiful lips, but back then we looked +at them as something of a liability. I never thought of them as +ugly-my sister has always seemed very pretty to me-but her lips +were something good to tease her about. I once told her, "With +those big lips, the only thing you've got going for you is your long +hair; you better never cut it off." I will never know how much +damage all my "teasing" did to my sister. But i was only saying +what everybody knew: little, thin lips were better than big, thick +lips. Everybody knew that. +There was one girl in our school whose mother made her wear +a clothespin on her nose to make it thin. There were quite a few +girls who tried to bleach their skin white with bleaching cream and +who got pimples instead. And, of course, we went to the beauty +parlor and got our hair straightened. I couldn't wait to go to the +beauty parlor and get my hair all fried up. I wanted Shirley Temple +curls just like Shirley Temple. I hated the smell of fried hair and +having my ears burned, but we were taught that women had to +make great sacrifices to be beautiful. And everybody knew you had +to be crazy to walk the streets with nappy hair sticking out. And of +course long hair was better than short hair. We all knew that. +We had been completely brainwashed and we didn't even +know it. We accepted white value systems and white standards of +beauty and, at times, we accepted the white man's view of ourselves. +We had never been exposed to any other point of view or any other +standard of beauty. From when i was a tot, i can remember Black +people saying, "Niggas ain't shit." "You know how lazy niggas +are." "Give a nigga an inch and he'll take a mile." Everybody knew +what "niggas" like to do after they eat: sleep. Everybody knew that +"niggas" couldn't be on time; that's why there was c.p.t. (colored +people's time). "Niggas don't take care of nothin'." "Niggas don't + +ASSATA + +3I + + ASSATA + +32 + +stick together." The list could go on and on. To varying degrees we +accepted these statements as true. And, to varying degrees, we each +made them true within ourselves because we believed them. +I entered third grade in P.S. 154 in Queens. The school was almost +all white, and i was the only Black kid in my class. Everybody in my +family was glad i was going to school in New York. "The schools +are better," they said. "You'll get a better education up North than +in that segregated school down South." +School up North was much different for me than school down +South. For one thing, the teachers (they were all white-i don't +remember having any Black teachers until i was in high school) +were always grinning at me. And the older i got, the less i liked +those grins. I didn't have a name for them then, but now i call them +the "little nigga grins." +My third grade teacher was young, blond, very prissy, and +middle class. Whenever i came into the room she would show me +all thirty-two of her teeth, but there was nothing sincere about her +smile. It never made me feel good. There was always something +unnatural and exaggerated about her behavior with me. On my +first or second day in class she was teaching us penmanship. "Does +anyone know how to make a capital L in script?" she asked. +Nobody raised a hand. Timidly, i did. "You know how to do it?" +she asked incredulously. "Yes," i told her, "we had that last year +down South." "Well, come and write it on the blackboard, then," +she told me. I wrote my pitiful little second grade L on the black­ +board. After looking at me and nodding, she made a big, fancy L +next to mine. +"Is this what you're trying to make, JoAnne ?" Her expression +was smug. The whole class broke out laughing. I wanted to go +somewhere and hide. After that, it seemed that every time i men­ +tioned something i learned down South she got mad. She never saw +my raised hand. When she couldn't ignore it, like when no one else +raised theirs, she would say something like "Oh, do you know the +answer, JoAnne ?" +Every holiday a class was assigned to put on a play. There were +plays for Columbus Day, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas. +Our class had George Washington's birthday, and our play was +about his cutting down this cherry tree when he was a little boy. I +was selected to be in the play. I was tickled pink and so proud. I was +cast as one of the cherry trees. The teacher put some green crepe +paper over my head and told me to stand at the back of the stage +where i was to stay until the end of the play. Then the cherry trees +were supposed to sway from side to side and sing: "George Wash- + + ington never told a lie, never told a lie, he never told a lie. George +Washington never told a lie, and the truth goes marching on." +I didn't know what a fool they had made out of me until i grew +up and started to read real history. Not only was George Wash­ +ington probably a big liar, but he had once sold a slave for a keg of +rum. Here they had this old craka slavemaster, who didn't give a +damn about Black people, and they had me, an unwitting little +Black child, doing a play in his honor. When George Washington +was fighting for freedom in the Revolutionary War, he was fighting +for the freedom of "whites only." Rich whites, at that. After the so­ +called Revolution, you couldn't vote unless you were a white man +and you owned a plot of land. The Revolutionary War was led by +some rich white boys who got tired of paying heavy taxes to the +king. It didn't have anything at all to do with freedom, justice, and +equality for all. +Again, in the fourth grade, i was the only Black kid in my +class. My teacher, Mr. Trobawitz, was cool, though, and a very +good teacher. He had modern ideas about teaching, and instead of +making us read those old boring readers, he had us read real books +and write reports about them. His class was always interesting. He +told us all kinds of jokes and stories and he seemed to be sincerely +concerned about us. That year we were learning about the Civil +War and about Lincoln's freeing the slaves. Like all the other +teachers, Mr. Trobawitz taught us "fairy-tale history," but at least +he made it interesting. That year i was crazy about Lincoln. I +memorized the entire "0 Captain ! My Captain!" by Walt Whit­ +man and recited it to the class. +Little did i know that Lincoln was an archracist who had +openly expressed his disdain for Black people. He was of the +opinion that Black people should be forcibly deported to Africa or +anywhere else. We had been taught that the Civil War was fought to +free the slaves, and it was not until i was in college that i learned +that the Civil War was fought for economic reasons. The fact that +"official" slavery was abolished was only incidental. Northern in­ +dustrialists were fighting to control the economy. Before the Civil +War, the northern industrial economy was largely dependent on +southern cotton. The slave economy of the South was a threat to +northern capitalism. What if the slaveholders of the South decided +to set up factories and process the cotton themselves? Northern +capitalists could not possibly compete with slave labor, and their +capitalist economy would be destroyed. To ensure that this didn't +happen, the North went to war. +When i was still in the fourth grade, i fell off a swing and broke +my leg. Mr. Trobawitz came to my house and gave me lessons and + +ASSATA + +33 + + ASSATA + +34 + +assignments. When i returned to school, Mr. Trobawitz had left to +teach in college. Everybody in the class was sad. A bird-beaked, +stick-to-the-book, teach-by-rote teacher replaced him. She made us +go back to reading in the readers and changed the desks around so +that once again we were sitting in rows. I didn't like her and she +bored me to death. +One time our class had a dance. It was a big event for me since +i loved to dance. The white kids couldn't dance for nothing. They +looked like a bunch of drunken kangaroos, hopping all over the +place, out of time with the music. I sat there with my hand over my +mouth trying to suppress my laughter. I ached to get out there and +show them how to do it. But nobody asked me to dance. I don't +think it ever occurred to them, and, if it did, they knew better. +Dancing with a "nigger" was surely good for a week or so of +teasing. But these whites were not at all out in the open with their +racism. It was undercover, like their parents' racism. Anyhow, i just +sat there, looking at them flop around until this one kid (i'll never +forget his name: Richard Kennedy; he was a poor Irish kid with red +hair) came over to where i was sitting and said, "If you give me a +dime, i'll dance with you." The sad part of the story is that i almost +gave him the dime. +In the fifth grade, i was put into the class of the school's most +notorious battle-ax, Mrs. Hoffler. I knew from the first day it was +going to be a long, hot year. The only good thing was that there was +anoth er Black kid in the class. The teacher put us in the back, next +to each other. His name was David' something, but i called him +David Peacan. The teacher was one of those military types and her +classes resembled boot camp. We were told where to sit, how to sit, +and what kind of notebooks, pens, pencils, etc., to use. She permit­ +ted no talking and gave tons of homework. Her punishment for +everything was extra homework. Whenever somebody got caught +talking or doing anything she disapproved of, she gave extra home­ +work. When you didn't have your homework, she gave extra home­ +work. And every time she gave you extra homework she wrote your +name on the blackboard and refused to remove it until you had +turned in the "punishment." By the time i left her class my name +covered practically the entire blackboard. +David and i were her favorite targets. The whole class would be +in an uproar, but we were the only ones she saw with our mouths +open. The more she rode our backs, the more rebellious i became. I +would sit in the back of the class and make jokes about her. +One day when we were talking and giggling, she came up and +pulled David out of his seat by the ear, twisting it until the whole + + side of his face was red and contorted with pain. I made up my +mind right then and there that she wasn't going to do it to me. A +few days later, she came after me. When she put her hands on me, i +kicked her or hit her. I don't remember which. Anyway, the next +thing i knew i was in the principal's office being sent home with a +note. I was scared to death my mother would find out, so i signed +the note myself and brought it to school the next day. My signature +didn't fool anybody. To make a long story short, when my mother +found out i confessed everything and i told her about Mrs. Hoffler. +I think she had some idea about what was going on because she +had seen a change in me. I had always been very quiet and obedient +in school. My mother went to the school, talked to the teacher and +the principal, and demanded i be moved to another class. It's a +good thing she wasn't one of those parents who believe the teacher +is always right because i don't know what would have happened. I +guess the fact that she's a teacher and is acutely aware of the racism +and hostility that Black children are exposed to from the time they +enter school had something to do with it. +I don't remember the name of my other fifth grade teacher +except that it was a mile long and began with a Z, but she was very +nice and a very good teacher. She introduced us to art, literature, +and philosophy. I remember studying the French Revolution in her +class. She made names like Marie Antoinette, Charlotte Corday, +and Robespierre come alive. She talked about philosophers like +Rousseau who influenced the thinking of the period and about how +the French Revolution was influenced by the amerikan Revolution. +She even showed us pictures of the art and architecture of the +period. She was the first teacher (one of a very few) who taught +subjects as if they related to each other. +Before i was in her class, i would never have imagined that +history was connected to art, that philosophy was connected to +science, and so on. The usual way that people are taught to think in +amerika is that each subject is in a little compartment and has no +relation to any other subject. For the most part, we receive frag­ +ments of unrelated knowledge, and our education follows no log­ +ical format or pattern. It is exactly this kind of education that +produces people who don't have the ability to think for themselves +and who are easily manipulated. +As we grew older, the differences between the Black and white, +the poor and rich students grew bigger and bigger. Once a new +teacher told us to make mobiles as homework. Most of us brought +in cardboard, wood, or paper mobiles. One kid brought in a +mobile made out of metals-not just one kind of metal, but metals + +ASSA1:A + +35 + + ASSATA + +of different colors. I was in awe of this kid who had the resources to +cut all those different, perfectly formed geometric shapes. Calder +would have taken notice. +The school was in a largely Jewish, middle-class neigh­ +borhood. There was a little island of Black people in the middle, +and that was where i lived. It was almost completely segregated +from the white section. The school was right in the middle. In most +of the Black families the mother and father both worked, and many +worked two or three jobs and weren't able to spend a lot of time in +the school. But some of the white parents were there for every little +thing from trips to cookie selling. And talk about pushy parents ! +To this day, i believe that some of them did most of their kids' +homework. Black kids wrote a composition or a book report on +plain lined paper and handed it in. Some of the white kids pre­ +sented their reports bound in expensive binders, some were typed, +and each page was covered with plastic. I could just imagine asking +my mother to type my homework for me or to give me money to +buy binders and plastic sheets. She would surely have thought i had +gone crazy. The white kids came to school with all kinds of junk: +expensive pen and pencil sets, compasses, and one kid even had a +slide rule, which i doubt he had the faintest idea how to use. +The older they grew, the more snobbish the white kids became. +They were always talking about what they had and what their +parents had bought them. One girl, Marsha, horribly ugly to me, +was always dressed like some kid in the movies or on TV. She was +one of the super-snobs in the class. One day she came to school +with weird-looking mittens on. She said they were made of +chinchilla and that it was the most expensive fur in the world. I +raced home to ask my mother. I just knew she had to be lying +because i had never even heard of chinchilla and everybody i knew +thought that mink was the most expensive fur on the market. I was +really shocked when my mother told me she was telling the truth. +Every year when we came back to school, we would inevitably +be told to write a composition entitled "My Summer Vacation." +Usually we stood in front of the room and read our compositions +aloud. I was always fascinated by some of the places these kids had +been to during the summer: places like Spain, England, Brazil, and +Bermuda. Some of them even brought slides and movies of their +trips. After they finished talking, i wouldn't even want to read my +compositon about being down South with my grandparents. +One of the things that had been drilled into my head since +birth was that we were just as good as white people. "You show +those white people that you are just as good as they are," i was told. + + This meant that i was to get good marks in school, that i was to +always be neat and clean when i went to school, that i was to speak +as "properly" as they did, and that i would show them whenever i +could that Black people (we called ourselves Negroes then) could +do whatever white people could do and that we could appreciate +what white people appreciated. +I was supposed to be a child version of a goodwill ambassador, +out to prove that Black people were not stupid or dirty or smelly or +uncultured. I carried out this mission as best i could to show that i +was as good as they were. I never questioned the things they +thought were good. White people said classical music was the +highest form of music; white people said that ballet was the highest +form of dance; and i accepted those things as true. After all, wasn't i +as cultured as they were ? And everything that they wanted, i wanted. +If they wanted poodle jackets, i wanted a poodle jacket. If they +wanted a Star of David necklace, i wanted a Star of David necklace. +If they wanted a Revlon doll, i wanted a Revlon doll. If they could +act snobby, then i could act snobby. I saved my culture, my music, +my dancing, the richness of Black speech for the times when i was +with my own people. I remember how those kids would talk about +gefilte fish and matzos. It would never have occurred to me to talk +about black-eyed peas and rice or collard greens and ham hocks. I +would never have given them an opportunity to ridicule me. Any­ +way, half the white people thought that all we ate was grits and +watermelon. In many ways i was living a double existence. +I became interested in television in the fifth or sixth grade. Or, +rather, i should say that that was about the time television started to +corrode my brain. You name any stupid show that existed back in +those days and it was probably one of my favorites. "Ozzie and +Harriet," "Leave It to Beaver," "Donna Reed," "Father Knows +Best," "Bachelor Father," "Lassie," etc. After a while i wanted to be +just like those people on television. After all, they were what +families were supposed to be like. +Why didn't my mother have freshly baked cookies ready when +i came home from school? Why didn't we live in a house with a +backyard and a front yard instead of an ole apartment? I remember +looking at my mother as she cleaned the house in her old raggedy +housecoat with her hair in curlers. "How disgusting," i would +think. Why didn't she clean the house in high heels and shirtwaist +dresses like they did on television? I began to resent my chores. The +kids on television never had any work to do. All they did was their +homework and then they went out to play. They never went to the +laundromat or did the shopping. They never had to do the dishes or + +ASSATA + +37 + + ASSATA + +scrub the floor or empty the garbage. They didn't even have to +make their own beds. And the kids on television got everything they +wanted. Their parents never said, "I don't have the money, I can't +afford it." I had very little sympathy for my mother. It never +occurred to me that she worked all day, went to school at night, +cooked, cleaned, washed and ironed, raised two children, and, in +her "spare" time, graded tests and papers and wrote her thesis. I +was furious with her because she wasn't like Donna Reed. +And, of course, the commericals took another toll. I wanted +everything i saw. My mother always bought Brand X. I would be so +exasperated when we went shopping. I wanted her to buy Hostess +Twinkies and Silvercup white bread. Instead, she bought whole +wheat bread and apples. She would never get good cereals like +Sugar Crunchies and Coco Puffs. She always bought some stuff +that was supposed to be good for us. I thought she was crazy. If +Hostess Twinkies were good enough for the kids on TV, then why +weren't they good enough for me ? But my mother remained un­ +moved. And i remained disgusted. I was a puppet and i didn't even +know who was pulling the strings. +One year everybody was wearing buttons on their coats. Some +had writing on them and others had pictures of movie stars. I went +somewhere with my mother and my aunt, and they asked me if i +wanted a button. I picked out one with Elvis Presley on it. All the +kids at school thought Elvis Presley was cool. I wore that button +religiously, all winter, and that summer, when i went down South, i +went to see one of Elvis Presley's movies. +In Wilmington, at that time, there was only one movie theater +where Black people were allowed to go. It was called the Bailey +Theater. Once you bought your ticket, you went up a long staircase +on the side of the theater to the second balcony, the "colored" +section. Shame on you if you were nearsighted. The movie was like +all the rest of Elvis's movies-fQrgettable ! When it was over, i went +downstairs. All the white kids were leaving with pictures of Elvis +Presley that they had bought. I started to walk to my grandparents' +restaurant on Red Cross Street, but then i turned around and +walked back. If the white kids could have a picture of Elvis, then so +could i. At least i was gonna try. I knew it would be absolutely no +use to go to the ticket booth and ask the woman anything. She +would most assuredly say no. So i walked right on past her, straight +into the white section of the theater. What a surprise it was ! It was +j ust like the movies in New York. They had soda machines, a butter +popcorn machine, and all kinds of candy and potato chips and +things. Upstairs in the "colored" section, they had some old, stale +plain popcorn and a few candy bars and that was it. + + The moment i walked in, all the action stopped. Everybody's +eyes were on me. 1 walked over to the counter where they were +selling the pictures. Before i could open my mouth, the salesgirl +told me, "You're in the wrong section; just go outside and go up +the stairs on the side." +"I want to buy a picture of Elvis Presley," i said. +"What'd you say, again ?" she drawled. +"I want to buy a picture of Elvis Presley," i repeated. "They +don't have any upstairs." +"Well, 1 don't know," she said. "I'll have to get the manager." +She said something to the other woman behind the counter and +then left. By this time a crowd had gathered around me. +"What's she doing in here?" they kept asking each other. +"Now, she knows better," somebody was saying. "Look, Ma, a +colored girl." "Ya get lost, honey?" "What's she want?" "Don't +they have no pictures in the colored section ? " "What's she need +with a picture anyway?" +The crowd was all around me, gawking. It seemed like the +manager would never come. +"Can't she read ? Don't she know that we don't allow no +colored in here?" "I don't know what it's about. Something about a +picture." "Came walking right in here bold as day." +Finally the salesgirl came back. A man was with her. All eyes +were fixed on the manager. He took one look at me and another at +the crowd forming around me. +"Give her the picture and get'er out of here," he told the +salesgirl. Hurriedly, she sold me the picture. +"All right, folks, it's all over now. Go on about your business." +1 took my picture and went prancing out into the daylight. 1 +was feeling good. It seemed funny when i thought about it. The +looks on those crakas' faces, all puffed up like balloons. 1 had a +good time, laughing all the way to my grandparents' restaurant. +And of course the minute i got there, i told everybody what hap­ +pened. 1 was just so proud. 1 took my picture and put it on the back +counter right next to the funeral parlor calendar. The picture +stayed there a few days until Johnnie from the cab stand across the +street came and told me that Elvis had said the only thing a Black +person could do for him was to buy his records and shine his shoes. +Quietly, i slid the picture into obscurity, then oblivion. (Later i read +that Elvis had given Spiro Agnew a gold-plated .357 Magnum and +had volunteered to work for the FBI.) +Evelyn, my aunt, was the heroine of my childhood. She was +always taking me places and "exposing me to things," as she called +it. She took me to museums-i think we visited just about every + +ASSATA + +39 + + ASSATA + +museum in the city of New York. She turned me into a real art +lover. Before i was ten, i could recognize a Van Gogh on sight, and i +knew what cubism, surrealism, and abstract expressionism were. +Picasso, Gauguin, Van Gogh, and Modigliani were my favorite +artists. I didn't know the name of one Black artist in those days. +Very few, if any, museums exhibited the work of Black artists, so i +just assumed that Black people weren't too good at painting. But i +learned about African art from my mother. From the time i can +remember, my mother always had African sculpture in the house. It +was the only kind she had. I always loved those pieces and it really +annoyed me when i took art history in school and the teacher +referred to African art as primitive. In fact, if the art was by anyone +else but a white person, it was called primitive art. +In addition to museums, Evelyn would take me to see plays +and movies, and we would experiment with all kinds of restaurants. +We would go to parks, go bicycle riding, and it was Evelyn who +gave me my first rowboat lesson. She was very sophisticated and +knew all kinds of things. She was right up my alley because i was +forever asking all kinds of questions. I wanted to know everything. +She would give me a book and say, "Read this," and i would eat up +that book like it was ice cream. +It was Evelyn who took me to see my first show at the Apollo. +We saw Frankie Lymon and the Teenagers. I was walking on +clouds. After that, as soon as i learned to ride the subway by myself, +i went to the daytime shows. If my mother and my aunt had +known, they would have had a fit. I guess people wondered what +this little girl was doing in the Apollo all by herself, but nobody +ever bothered me. I was always pretty lucky that way. +Barbara was a little girl who lived next door to us in Queens. +She was my main friend and foe for quite a while. One day i saw her +leaving her house wearing a white dress and a little white veil like a +bride wears. Everything she had on was white, all the way down to +her shoes. She even had a little white Bible in her hands. I thought +she was gonna be in a Tom Thumb wedding like they have down +South. So i went up to her and asked her who she was marrying. +She said she was making her first communion, that she was Catho­ +lic. +Well, i became an instant convert. I wanted to wear a white +dress and dress up like a bride, too. And Catholics even got out +early from school on Wednesdays. I raced home to tell my mother. +My mother was very permissive where religion was concerned. She +gave us carte blanche to be Catholics, Baptists, Methodists, or +whatever. So i started going to mass and to catechism classes on +Wednesday. + + The Catholic Church was like no other church i had ever been +to. Down South i always went to church. But those services were +rich with music and emotion. I would sit caught up in the music +and watch those people who had "got happy" or "got the spirit" +jumping around all over the place. I was never holy-holy, but i had +liked going to church. In the Black churches that i had been in, the +air was charged. The music rocked and the preacher preached and +sang at the same time. People felt free to do what they needed to do. +H they felt like dancing, they danced; if they felt like praying, they +prayed; if they felt like screaming, they screamed; and if they felt +like crying, they cried. The church was there to give them strength +and to get them through the long week ahead of them. Where we +lived in Queens, there was no Black church. +The Catholic Church was different. It was silent and cold. The +music was terrible and you couldn't understand nine-tenths of the +service. But what fascinated me was the spookiness of it. They had +so much weird stuff attached to their religion. When you walked in +the door, you had to cross yourself with holy water; then, before +you could sit down, you had to genuflect. And throughout the +mass, you were forever up and down, sitting, standing, and kneel­ +ing. And there was so much stuff to learn. The stations of the cross, +rosary beads, lighting candles, going to confession. It was all so +spooky i just knew that this had to be the real god. The nuns really +tripped me out. They walked around with rings on their fingers +saying they were married to God. That was really weird. And they +could never have children or "do it," and people said they had bald +heads under their habits. I was simply overwhelmed. +The catechism class was nothing like Sunday school. They +never told good stories about Jesus and we never sang "Yes, Jesus +Loves Me. " In catechism class, we learned all about the saints-it +seemed like they had a million of them. And then there was the +Virgin Mary. They made a big deal out of her. They even had us +praying to her. I would do it, but that story was always kind of hard +for me to swallow. Nothing about the Catholics was simple; they +even had different kinds of hell. They had a special one for babies +and then they had one in between and then they had the sho nuff, +sho nuff hell. +They even had two kinds of sin. I can still hear that nun, as if it +were yesterday. Now, a venial sin is a sin that's not so bad; it's a +white sin. But a mortal sin is terrible; it is a black sin. +The night before i was to make my first communion, i had to +run to the church with my baptismal certificate. They needed it to +prove i had been baptized. My mother had had a hell of a time +finding it. I was tickled to be going because they told me to bring it + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +to the convent where the nuns lived. 1 had been dying to see what it +looked like inside. It was just as cold and lifeless as the church. +When i gave the nun my baptismal certificate, she looked at it and +almost jumped out of her chair. "Oh, no, this won't do," she said. +"This is not a Catholic baptismal certificate. You weren't really +baptized." +"What?" i said. "I was too baptized. " +"No, you weren't," she said. "It's not a Catholic baptism, s o it +doesn't count. You'll have to be baptized tonight or you can't make +your first communion tomorrow." +1 was not ready for that one. 1 caught an instant attitude. She +was talking about my godparents like they were dirt under her feet. +They called my mother and told her she had to come to the church. +Then they got these total strangers from somewhere and told me +they were supposed to be my godparents and they baptized me. 1 +never saw those people again, and if you ask me their names i +couldn't tell you. 1 had had a godmother all my life and here they +were telling me she wasn't my godmother because she wasn't +Catholic. They really made me mad that day, but i didn't say too +much about it. 1 really wanted to make my first communion. 1 did +and, later, my confirmation, but i never looked at them the same. +The sixth grade passed along rather uneventfully. There was +another Black in my class, Gail. We became friendly, but my +relationships with the white kids deteriorated even more. They +made it pretty evident that they didn't care too much for me, and i +made it clear right back that i didn't care for them. The thing i +disliked most about them was their assumptions about me. For one +thing, they automatically assumed that i was stupid, and they +would really act surprised when i showed i had some brains. One of +the biggest fights i had was when this kid in my class couldn't find +some pen that his father had given him and accused me of stealing +it. 1 waited for him outside the classroom and as soon as he came +out the door, i jumped on him like a crazy person. Some teachers +broke us up. "I'm surprised at you," they kept saying. "I never +thought you'd act that way." I was usually very quiet and well +behaved. They acted like i had jumped on that boy for nothing, and +they couldn't understand why i was so angry. As a matter of fact, +even i didn't understand. Then. +Outside of school was a whole 'nother matter. When i wasn't +doing homework or chores, i would go "exploring." My bicycle +was one of the great loves of my life. I would jump on it and ride all +over Queens. Sometimes on Saturdays or Sundays i would ride all +day long, leaving early in the morning and returning as late as i was + + allowed to. And if i wasn't on my bicycle, i was somewhere playing +with my friends. We played everything from house to handball. I +played with the boys more than with the girls because the boys had +better games. I loved punch ball and handball, anything that in­ +volved running. The playground was right across the street from my +house and i took full advantage of everything that was there. I +played hopscotch, marbles, and cowboys and Indians. I always +wanted to be an Indian and would hide over or under something +and leap out shrieking at the top of my lungs. I guess i was unusual +in that respect, because most of the kids wanted to be cowboys. +I was always rough and clumsy and i played everything as if my +life depended on it. Some of the girls didn't like to play with me +because they said i was too rough. And i was always excluded from +the rope-jumping sessions. I was too clumsy to jump double-Dutch +and they didn't even like me to turn because they said i was +"uneven-handed." +But i always had one best friend and she was always a girl. I +had other friends to play with and hang out with, but i always had +one special friend that i could really talk to. We would go to the +candy store and the movies and places like that and we would sit +and talk for hours about j ust anything. By the time i reached the +sixth grade, i began to idolize and imitate the big kids who went to +junior high school. I couldn't wait to grow up. The grownup world +was so exciting, and when you were grown up you could do +anything you wanted to. Besides, i was beginning to feel different. I +was beginning to be interested in boys. + +ASSATA +43 + + ASSATA + +44 + +CRACKERJACKS + +I coulda told you, +in the old days, +in the park, +or skating down some hill +what it was all about. +I coulda sat next to you +on some stairway +and gave you half my bubblegum, +and, in between the bubbles +and the giggles, +I coulda told you. +But we are grown up now. +And it is all so complicated +when you dig somebody. +Now, when i open up my crackerjacks, +I find no heart-shaped ring. +Only a puzzle +that i don't wanna solve. + + Chapter 3 + +t seemed like the middle of the night. Some­ +one was calling me. Waking me up. What did they +want? Suddenly i was aware of all kinds of activity. +Police, the crackling of walkie-talkies. The place was +buzzing. +"Here, put this on," one of them said, handing +me a bathrobe. +"What's going on ?" i asked. +"You're being moved." +"Where am i being moved to ?" +"You'll find out when you get there." +A wheelchair was waiting. I figured they were +taking me to jail. There was a caravan of police cars +outside the hospital. It looked like i was gonna be in a +parade again. +The ride was pleasant. Just looking at houses and +trees and people passing by in cars was good. We +arrived at the prison at sunrise, in the middle of no­ +where. It was an ugly, two-story brick building. They +pushed me up the stairs to the second floor. +I was put in a cell with two doors. A door of bars +was on the inside, and directly outside of that was a +heavy metal door with a tiny peephole that i could +barely see through. The cell contained a cot with a +rough green blanket on it and a dirty white wooden +bench with a hundred names scratched on it. Adjacent +to the cell was the bathroom, with a sink, a toilet, and +a shower. Hanging above the sink was the bottom of a +pot or pan. It was supposed to serve as a mirror, but i +could barely see myself in it. There was one window +covered by three thick metal screens facing a parking +lot, a field, and, in the distance, a wooded area. +I walked around the cell, to the bath, to the + +45 + + ASSATA + +window, to the door. Back and forth until i had tired myself out. I +was still pretty weak. Then i lay down on the cot and wondered +what this place was going to be like. Here i was, my first day in +pnson. +In about an hour, a guard unlocked the outside door and +asked me if i wanted breakfast. I said, "Yes," and in a few minutes +she came back with eggs and bread in a plastic bowl and a metal +cup containing something that was supposed to be coffee. +The eggs didn't taste too bad. "Maybe prison food isn't as bad +as they say it is," i remember thinking. +I heard voices and it was clear they weren't police voices. Then +the radio came on. Black music. It sounded so good. I looked +through the peephole and saw faces, weird and distorted because of +the concave glass, but Black faces to match the Black voices i had +heard. +"How y'all doin' ?" i asked. +No response. Then i realized how thick the metal door was, so +i shouted this time: "How y'all doin' ?" A chorus of muffled "Fine" s +came back. I was feeling good. Real people were just on the other +side of the wall. +The guard opened the metal door and handed me some uni­ +forms, maid's uniforms-royal blue, white buttons, collars, and +cuffs. +I kept trying them on until two of them fit. Then she gave me a +huge cotton slip that looked like a tent dress and a nightgown that +looked exactly like the slip. +"You are entitled to a clean uniform once a week." +"Once a week?" i nearly screeched. They had to be crazy. +Behind the guard, through the open door, i could see some of the +women standing around. They were all, it seemed, Black. They +smiled and waved at me. It was so good to see them, it was like a +piece of home. +"When are you going to unlock me and let me go out there ?" i +asked, motioning to the other women. The guard looked surprised. +"I don't know. You'll have to ask the warden." +"Well, when can i see the warden ?" i pushed. +"I don't know." +"Well, why am i being locked in here? Why can't i go out there +with the other women ?" +"I don't know." +"Then why can't you let me out?" +"We were told you were to remain in your room." +"Well, how long am i supposed to stay in here locked up like +this?" +" + + "I don't know." +1 saw it was useless. "Would you please tell the warden or the +sheriff that i would like to see him ?" i requested. +The guard locked the door and was gone. +The metal door was unlocked again. An ugly, shriveled white +woman stood in front of the bars. "My name is Mrs. Butterworth +and 1 am the warden of the women's section of the workhouse." +She reminded me of a dilapidated horse. "Well, JoAnne, is there +something 1 can do for you?" +1 didn't like her looks or her tone of voice, but i decided to +ignore that for the moment and get to the business at hand. +"When can i be unlocked from this cell and go outside in the +big room with the other women ?" +"Well, 1 don't know, JoAnne. Why do you want to go out +there?" +"Well, i don't want to stay in here all day, locked up by +myself." +"Why, JoAnne, don't you like your room? It's a very nice room. +We had it painted just for you." +"That's not the point," i said. "I would like to know when i +will be able to be with the other women." +"Well, JoAnne, 1 don't know when you'll be able to come out. +You see, we have to keep you in here for your own safety because +there are threats on your life. You know, JoAnne," she said, lower­ +ing her voice like she was speaking confidentially, "cop killers are +not very popular in correctional institutions." +"Have any of the women here made threats against me?" +"Well, 1 don't know, but I'm sure they have." +"I'll bet," i said to myself. "Nobody has threatened my life. +They just don't want to let me outta here." +"Well, JoAnne, the important thing is for you to behave and to +cooperate with us so that we'll be able to send a good report to the +judge. It's important for our girls to behave like ladies." +This woman was making me sick. Did she think i was fool +enough to believe that either she or the judge was gonna help me in +any way ? But it was the superior-sounding tinge to her voice that +really ticked me off. +"Butterworth, is it?" i asked. "What's your first name ?" +"Why, 1 never tell my girls my first name." +"I'm not one of your girls. I'm a grown woman. Why don't you +tell people your first name ? Are you ashamed of it?" +"No, JoAnne, I'm not ashamed of my name. It's a matter of +respect. 1 am the warden here. My girls call me Mrs. Butterworth +and 1 call them by their first names." + +ASSATA + +47 + + ASSATA + +"Well, you haven't done anything for me to respect you for. I +give people respect only when they earn it. Since you won't tell me +your first name, then i want you to call me by my last name. You +can either call me Ms. Shakur or Ms. Chesimard. " +"I'm not going to call you by your last name. I'm going to +continue calling you JoAnne." +"Well, that's okay by me, if you can stand me calling you Miss +Bitch whenever i see you. I don't give anybody respect when they +don't respect me." +"Lock the door," she told the guard and walked away. +Days passed. Evelyn called the sheriff, the warden (there were +two wardens in that jail: Butterworth and a man named Cahill. +Cahill had all the power, though. Butterworth was only a fig­ +urehead) and everybody else. Nothing more could be done outside +of going to kourt. +I had little or no feeling in my right arm. I knew i needed +physical therapy if i was ever to use it again. I had learned to write +with my left hand, but that was no substitute. I needed a more +specific diagnosis of exactly what had been damaged before i would +know whether or not i would ever use it again, even with physical +therapy. +Isolation was driving me up the walls. I needed materials to +write and to draw, paint, or sketch. All my requests went unheeded. +I was permitted nothing, including peanut oil and a small ball to +aid movement in my arm. +When the jail doctor examined me i asked him about my arm. +"Why, we doctors aren't gods, you know. There's nothing +anyone can do when someone is paralyzed." +"But they said i might get better," I protested. "Oh, yes, and +the physical therapist at Roosevelt Hospital said that some peanut +oil might help." +"Peanut oil ?" he asked, laughing. "That's a good one. I can't +write a prescription for that now, can I ? My advice to you is to +forget about all of that stuff. You don't need any of it. Sometimes in +life we just have to accept things that are unpleasant. You still have +one good arm." +I kept talking but i could see i was wasting my time. He had no +intention of even trying to help me. "Well, would you at least +prescribe some vitamin B?" +"All right, but you really don't need it." +Every time they called me to see the doctor after that, i went +reluctantly. He would take my arm out of the sling and move it +back and forth about two inches. "Oh, yes, you're getting better," +he would say. I always asked about physical therapy and he always +said there was nothing he could do. + + Finally, Evelyn went to court. Some of the items we petitioned +for were ridiculous. In addition to physical therapy and nerve tests, +we asked for peanut oil, a rubber ball, a rubber grip, books, and +stuff to draw or paint with. The kourt finally granted a physical +therapist if we would find one and pay the bill, but i never got one. +It seems that no physical therapist in Middlesex County was will­ +ing to come to the prison to treat me, and only a physical therapist +from Middlesex County was permitted. +But i did get the peanut oil and the grip. And in a short time i +had a whole physical therapy program worked out. +I was receiving a lot of mail from all over the country. Most of +it came from people i didn't know, mostly militant Black people, +either in the streets or in prison. I got some hate mail, though, and +some letters from religious people who were trying to save my soul. +I wasn't able to answer all of those letters because the prison +permitted us to write only two letters a week, subject to inspection +and censorship by the prison authorities. It was hard for me to +write anyway. I was also very paranoid about letters. I could not +bear the thought of the police, FBI, guards, whoever, reading my +letters and getting daily insight on how i was feeling and thinking. +But i would like to offer my sincerest apology to those who were +kind enough to write to me over the years and who received no +answer. +I spent my first month at the middlesex county workhouse +writing. Evelyn had brought some newspaper clippings and it was +obvious the press was trying to railroad me, to make me seem like a +monster. According to them i was a common criminal, just going +around shooting down cops for the hell of it. I had to make a +statement. I had to talk to my people and let them know what i was +about, where i was really coming from. The statement seemed to +take forever to write. I wanted to make a tape of it and enlisted +Evelyn's help. As my lawyer, she was dead set against it and advised +me not to make the tape. But as a Black woman living in amerika, +Evelyn understood why it was important and necessary. When the +prosecutor found out about the tape he tried to get her thrown off +the case. She was ordered by the court never to bring a tape +recorder again when she visited me. +I made the tape of "To My People" on July 4, 1 973, and it was +broadcast on many radio stations. Here is what I said: + +Black brothers, Black sisters, i want you to know that i love you +and i hope that somewhere in your hearts you have love for me. My +name is Assata Shakur (slave name joanne chesimard), and i am a +revolutionary. A Black revolutionary. By that i mean that i have + +ASSATA +49 + + ASSATA +50 + +declared war on all forces that have raped our women, castrated our +men, and kept our babies empty-bellied. +I have declared war on the rich who prosper on our poverty, the +politicians who lie to us with smiling faces, and all the mindless, +heartless robots who protect them and their property. +I am a Black revolutionary, and, as such, i am a victim of all the +wrath, hatred, and slander that amerika is capable of. Like all other +Black revolutionaries, amerika is trying to lynch me. +I am a Black revolutionary woman, and because of this i have +been charged with and accused of every alleged crime in which a +woman was believed to have participated. The alleged crimes in +which only men were supposedly involved, i have been accused of +planning. They have plastered pictures alleged to be me in post +offices, airports, hotels, police cars, subways, banks, television, and +newspapers . They have offered over fifty thousand dollars in rewards +for my capture and they have issued orders to shoot on sight and +shoot to kill. +I am a Black revolutionary, and, by definition, that makes me a +part of the Black Liberation Army. The pigs have used their news­ +papers and TVs to paint the Black Liberation Army as vicious, +brutal, mad-dog criminals. They have called us gangsters and gun +molls and have compared us to such characters as john dillinger and +ma barker. It should be clear, it must be clear to anyone who can +think, see, or hear, that we are the victims. The victims and not the +criminals. +It should also be clear to us by now who the real criminals are. +Nixon and his crime partners have murdered hundreds of Third +World brothers and sisters in Vietnam, Cambodia, Mozambique, +Angola, and South Africa. As was proved by Watergate, the top law +enforcement officials in this country are a lying bunch of criminals. +The president, two attorney generals, the head of the fbi, the head of +the cia, and half the white house staff have been implicated in the +Watergate crimes. +They call us murderers, but we did not murder over two hun­ +dred fifty unarmed Black men, women, and children, or wound +thousands of others in the riots they provoked during the sixties. The +rulers of this country have always considered their property more +important than our lives. They call us murderers, but we were not +responsible for the twenty-eight brother inmates and nine hostages +murdered at attica. They call us murderers, but we did not murder +and wound over thirty unarmed Black students at Jackson State-or +Southern State, either. +They call us murderers, but we did not murder Martin Luther +King, Jr., Emmett Till, Medgar Evers, Malcolm X, George Jackson, +Nat Turner, James Chaney, and countless others. We did not murder, +by shooting in the back, sixteen-year-old Rita Lloyd, eleven-year-old +Rickie Bodden, or ten-year-old Clifford Glover. They call us mur- + + derers, but we do not control or enforce a system of racism and +oppression that systematically murders Black and Third World peo­ +ple. Although Black people supposedly comprise about fifteen per­ +cent of the total amerikkkan population, at least sixty percent of +murder victims are Black.For every pig that is killed in the so-called +line of duty, there are at least fifty Black people murdered by the +police. +Black life expectancy is much lower than white and they do +their best to kill us before we are even born. We are burned alive in +fire-trap tenements. Our brothers and sisters OD daily from heroin +and methadone. Our babies die from lead poisoning. Millions of +Black people have died as a result of indecent medical care. This is +murder.But they have got the gall to call us murderers. +They call us kidnappers, yet Brother Clark Squire (who is +accused, along with me, of murdering a new jersey state trooper) was +kidnapped on April 2, 1969, from our Black community and held +on one million dollars' ransom in the New York Panther 21 conspir­ +acy case. He was acquitted on May 13, 1971, along with all the +others, of 156 counts of conspiracy by a jury that took less than two +hours to deliberate. Brother Squire was innocent. Yet he was kid­ +napped from his community and family. Over two years of his life +was stolen, but they call us kidnappers. We did not kidnap the +thousands of Brothers and Sisters held captive in amerika's con­ +centration camps. Ninety percent of the prison population in this +country are Black and Third World people who can afford neither +bail nor lawyers. +They call us thieves and bandits.They say we steal. But it was +not we who stole millions of Black people from the continent of +Africa. We were robbed of our language, of our Gods, of our culture, +of our human dignity, of our labor, and of our lives.They call us +thieves, yet it is not we who rip off billions of dollars every year +through tax evasions, illegal price fixing, embezzlement, consumer +fraud, bribes, kickbacks, and swindles. They call us bandits, yet +every time most Black people pick up our paychecks we are being +robbed. Every time we walk into a store in our neighborhood we are +being held up.And every time we pay our rent the landlord sticks a +gun into our ribs. +They call us thieves, but we did not rob and murder millions of +Indians by ripping off their homeland, then call ourselves pioneers. +They call us bandits, but it is not we who are robbing Africa, Asia, +and Latin America of their natural resources and freedom while the +people who live there are sick and starving. The rulers of this +country and their flunkies have committed some of the most brutal, +vicious crimes in history. They are the bandits. They are the mur­ +derers. And they should be treated as such.These maniacs are not fit +to judge me, Clark, or any other Black person on trial in amerika. +Black people should and, inevitably, must determine our destinies. + +ASSATA +JI + + ASSATP + +52 + +Every revolution in history has been accomplished by actions, +although words are necessary. We must create shields that protect us +and spears that penetrate our enemies. Black people must learn how +to struggle by struggling. We must learn by our mistakes. +I want to apologize to you, my Black brothers and sisters, for +being on the new jersey turnpike. I should have known better. The +turnpike is a checkpoint where Black people are stopped, searched, +harassed, and assaulted. Revolutionaries must never be in too much +of a hurry or make careless decisions. He who runs when the sun is +sleeping will stumble many times. +Every time a Black Freedom Fighter is murdered or captured, +the pigs try to create the impression that they have quashed the +movement, destroyed our forces, and put down the Black Revolution. +The pigs also try to give the impression that five or ten guerrillas are +responsible for every revolutionary action carried out in amerika. +That is nonsense. That is absurd. Black revolutionaries do not drop +from the moon. We are created by our conditions. Shaped by our +oppression. We are being manufactured in droves in the ghetto +streets, places like attica, san quentin, bedford hills, leavenworth, +and sing sing. They are turning out thousands of us. Many jobless +Black veterans and welfare mothers are joining our ranks. Brothers +and sisters from all walks of life, who are tired of suffering passively, +make up the BLA. +There is, and always will be, until every Black man, woman, and +child is free, a Black Liberation Army. The main function of the +Black Liberation Army at this time is to create good examples, to +struggle for Black freedom, and to prepare for the future. We must +defend ourselves and let no one disrespect us. We must gain our +liberation by any means necessary. +It is our duty to fight for our freedom. +It is our duty to win. +We must love each other and support each other. +We have nothing to lose but our chains: +In the spirit of: +Ronald Carter +William Christmas +Mark Clark +Mark Essex +Frank "Heavy" Fields +Woodie Changa Olugbala Green +Fred Hampton +Lil' Bobby Hutton +George Jackson +Jonathan Jackson + + James McClain +Harold Russell +Zayd Malik Shakur +Anthony Kumu Olugbala White +We must fight on. + +The workhouse had a whole heap of rules, most of them +stupid. No newspapers or magazines were permitted. When i asked +why we couldn't read newspapers, they told me that newspapers +were "inflammatory." Obviously, if a person read in the paper that +his or her sister had been raped, he would wait until the rapist +came to jail and then do him bodily harm. +"But," i protested, "the other inmates watch television and +listen to the radio (i wasn't allowed either). They could receive the +same information that way or from a visit from home." +"In that case," the warden told me, "we don't let you read +newspapers because they are a fire hazard." +One of the saddest rules prohibited children from visiting their +mothers in jail. I could see the children waiting outside, looking up +at that ugly old building with sad, frustrated faces. Their mothers +would run to the only window that faced the parking lot just to get +a glimpse of their children. Yelling out of the window was a no-no, +but once in a while somebody would get carried away. Sometimes +their frantic screams went unheard. +Gradually, i began to know the women. They were all very +kind to me and treated me like a sister. They laughed like hell when +i told them that i was supposedly being protected from them. Those +first days, before i had really learned to maneuver with one hand, +they did whatever they could to make things easier for me. They +volunteered to iron my uniforms and sneak them into the laundry +to be washed more than once a week. When they told me their +charges and the time they were doing, i couldn't believe it. Quite a +few of them were doing time for the numbers, either six months or +a year. In New York, doing time for number running was prac­ +tically unheard of, and it certainly didn't get six months or a year. +Everybody in the world knows that the numbers business keeps the +cops fat. These women hadn't hurt anybody or stolen anything, yet +they were sitting in jail, probably busted by the same cops that they +paid off. Their only crime was competing with the state lottery. +Most of them had already been sentenced. If the sentence was less +than a year, time was served in the county jail rather than in the +state penitentiary. +If i had expected to find so-called hardened criminals or big- + +ASSATA + +53 + + ASSATA +54 + +time female gangsters or gun molls in the workhouse, i would have +been sadly disappointed. The rest of the women who weren't doing +time for the numbers were in for some form of petty theft, like +shoplifting or passing bad checks. Most of those sisters were on +welfare and all of them had been barely able to make ends meet. +The courts had shown them no mercy. They brought in this sister +shortly after i arrived who was eight months pregnant and had been +sentenced to a month for shoplifting something that cost less than +twenty dollars. +Later a middle-aged sister began coming to the workhouse on +weekends. She worked during the week and served her six-month +sentence for drunken driving on weekends. Knowing that white +women with the same charges would never have received such a +sentence, i thought it was harsh. But i didn't realize how harsh until +she told me that she had been arrested for drunken driving in the +driveway of her own house. She hadn't even been on a public road. +She also told me that the cops had arrested her because they didn't +like the way she talked to them. +In that jail it was nothing to see a woman brought in all beat +up. In some cases, the only charge was "resisting arrest." A Puerto +Rican sister was brought in one night. She had been so badly beaten +by the police that the matron on duty didn't want to admit her. "I +don't want her dying on my shift," she kept saying. It was days +before this sister was able to get out of bed. +In spite of it all, those sisters kept the place jumping. They told +all kinds of funny stories about their lives, things they had seen and +experienced. Some had a natural knack for comedy. What amazed +me was the way they told the saddest stories in the world and made +everybody laugh about them. +Girl, that nigga was always in my pocketbook stealing my +money. And all he did with it was blow it at the racetracks. Girl, +that man spent so much money on the racetracks, he made me +wish i was a horse. One day i fixed his ass, though. I was sick and +tired of his mess. Betcha he won't go in nobody's pocketbook no +time soon. I put a mousetrap in that sucker. Girl, you should have +heard that nigga howl. +My husband and me, we used to fight like cats and dogs. And +he was jealous as the day is long. Chile, we went to the bar this +night and the nigga got all high, and started thinkin ' i was messing +around with some dude at the bar. As soon as we got outside, boy, + + he jumped on me like a gorilla jumps on a banana. Don't you ASSATA +know that man hit me so hard he knocked my teeth straight out of +55 +my mouth. "Now, hold on a minute!" i told that fool. "We can +fight later. I ain't got no 'nother four hundred dollars to spend on +no false teeth. " Chile, we was drunk as skunks, down on our knees +for 'bout an hour looking for those teeth. And when that fool +found them, he said the teeth jumped up and tried to bite him. +Lord, chile, that man is a fool. +1 could listen to these stories only when the outside door was +open. During the day they had a female "sheriff's officer" posted +outside my cell. When she was there, the door usually stayed open. +The whole time i was at that jail i saw very few white women. +The few who did come were there only a few hours or a day or so +before they were bailed out. There was one white woman who was +busted on the turnpike with fifty pounds of reefer. Everyone waited +to see what her bail would be. Then we found out she had been +released on her own recognizance (that is, without bond). To be +released on recognizance in the state of new jersey, one of the +requirements is jersey residence. The woman lived in Vermont. But +nobody was really shocked. She was white. +1 was going crazy in that little cell. The only time they let me +out was for visits and to see the so-called doctor. 1 have always been +an active and restless person, and being locked up in that little cage +all day drove me wild. 1 needed to stretch my legs. 1 started to run +around the cell. 1 would run in this tiny circle until i was exhausted. +Two or three days after i started, the warden, Miss Bitch, accom­ +panied by some male guards, visited me. +"We hear that you are running around your cell," she said. +"You will have to stop this activity at once." +"What? Why ?" +"Because you are disturbing the people downstairs." +"What people ?" +"There is an office underneath you and you are disturbing the +workers." +"Are you crazy ? They'll just have to be disturbed. 1 don't run +for that long anyhow. If you let me go out into the yard to exercise +with the other women, i'll stop running around my cell." +"I order you to stop running around your room." +"I don't remember joining your army," i said. "When i join +your army, then you can order me around." +She left in a huff and i kept on running. That was the end of + + ASSATA + +that. I have to thank her, though. If she hadn't come and harassed +me, i would have probably given up running around that tiny space +in a few days. +The food in the workhouse was horrible. Actually, it was +disgusting. The food there is worse than the food in any jail that i +have been in since, and that is quite an accomplishment. I would sit +and wait for lunch or dinner, hungry as hell, and they would bring +me some greenish-brown iridescent chunks floating around in a +watery liquid (liver stew, they called it) or some lamb fat floating +around in some water which was supposed to be lamb stew. And +that nasty-looking, foul-smelling stuff tasted much worse than it +looked. The place was infested with flies and so was the food. The +only thing edible was eggs, when they had them, and mashed +potatoes. I lived off the nuts and candy i bought from the commiss­ +ary and the fruit my family brought on visits. +Every single day for one whole week they brought us this nasty +stuff that was supposed to be ravioli. Well, that was the last straw. +We all decided to go on a food strike. I wrote a petition which +everybody signed and we sent it down to the warden's office. Later, +the warden agreed to discuss making the food more edible, but he +refused to talk to me. He said the fact that i had referred to the food +as "slop" showed i was unreasonable. The food was better for a few +days, and then it reverted to the same old nasty slop. +The woman sheriff's officer who guarded me had to be the +oldest "dumb" blonde alive. She played the part to a bust. She was +nosy and was the world's biggest gossip. Every time she saw me she +smiled and pretended to be oh so friendly. One day some workmen +were drilling a big hole in the wall to install new electrical circuits. +Of course, as soon as she came in, the nosy sheriff's officer began +her questions. +"What are they building?" +I said, "Haven't you heard? Well, you know, they passed a +special law and they're going to execute me. They're building the +gas chamber now." +"Well !" she said indignantly. "Well ! Nobody told me about +it." And she rushed off to find out why no one had informed her. +The lights were turned off every night at ten. I was lucky +because there was a night switch that i controlled in the bathroom +adjacent to my cell. I would move the cot so that i was in as much +light as possible and i would read way into the night. When i tired +of reading, i'd turn off the light and look out the window. Outside, +police patrolled the area. A lot of times there were two police on +foot who seemed to be standing around near the parking lot. They + + carried rifles and shotguns. One night, in my usual condition of +boredom, while standing at the window and feeling mischievous, i +cried out a birdlike sound in the shrillest voice i could muster: +"Eeeeenk, eeeenk, eeeeenk, eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeenk." The pigs +started looking around like crazy. They jerked this way and that +way as if they thought someone was behind them. Again i cried, +"Eeeeeeenk, eeeeeeeeenk, eeeeeeeeewa, eeeeeeeeeeeewa." This time +they really jumped around. You would have thought it was World +War II and the Japanese were two feet away. I waited awhile. When +they calmed down, in a voice even shriller than before, i cried, +"Naaaaaaeeeeee, naaaaeeeeeee, naaaaaaeeeeeeeeeeee. " They +pointed their guns and actually walked backward, prepared to fire +at anything moving. Then, quite by accident, my metal cup fell to +the floor. Well, in a second they were down on the ground, crawl­ +ing, holding their rifles. When i saw these fools crawling around on +the ground like that, i just couldn't take it anymore. I laughed until +i was sick. Great, big, bad police, crawling around scared of their +own shadows. Every once in a while i tried it again with different +police and usually the results were similar, but it was never as good +as that first night. +Because i had a broken clavicle, i had to wear a figure-eight +brace around my shoulders. It was made of foam and cotton with a +tiny belt buckle fastener in the back, about a half-inch wide. One +morning, as i was eating, the guard came in my cell and took it. +"You can't have this." +"Why ?" +"Because it contains metal," she replied. "You can't have +anything with metal on it. " Now, there i was, sitting on a metal cot, +drinking out of a I- + +' On December 1 1 , 1 9 78, attorney Lennox Hinds, on behalf of the National Conference +of Black Lawyers, the National Alliance Against Racism, and the Commission for Racial +Justice of the United Church of Christ, sent a petition to the United Nations Commission on +Human Rights alleging a "consistent pattern of gross . . . violations of human rights and +fundamental freedoms of certain classes of prisoners in the United States because of their +race, economic status, and political beliefs." In response to the petition, seven international +jurists visited a number of prisoners on August 3-20, 1 9 79, and reported their findings. +They listed four categories of prisoners, the first of which were political prisoners, defined as +"a class of victims of FBI misconduct through the COINTELPRO strategy and other forms of +illegal governmental conduct who as political activists have been selectively targeted for +provocation, false arrests, entrapment, fabrication of evidence, and spurious criminal pros­ +ecutions. This class is exemplified by at least: The Wilmington Ten, the Charlotte Three, +Assata Shakur, Sundiata Acoli, Imari Obadele and other Republic of New Africa defendants, +David Rice, Ed Poindexter, Elmer 'Geronimo' Pratt, Richard Marshall, Russell Means, Ted +Means and other American Indian Movement defendants." +They considered my case in the section of their report dealing with solitary con­ +finement: "One of the worst cases is that of ASSATA SHAKUR, who spent over rwenty +months in solitary confinement in rwo separate men's prisons subject to conditions totally +unbefitting any prisoner. Many more months were spent in solitary confinement in mixed or +all-women's prisons. Presently, after protracted litigation, she is confined at Clinton Correc­ +tional Facility for Women in maximum security. She has never on any occasion been +punished for any infraction of prison rules which might in any way justify such cruel or +unusual treatment." + + against the wall, away from the guard's surveillance so that i could +have a little privacy while i was sleeping. The guards ordered me to +move the bed into the middle of the floor. 1 refused. The next day +workmen nailed the bed to the floor in the center of the cell. They +even peeked through the window in the bathroom when i was on +the toilet or taking a shower. When i covered the peephole with a +towel or a uniform, they ordered me to remove it and threatened to +take away all towels and uniforms if i continued covering the +window. 1 didn't refuse, i simply ignored them. After a while they +gave up. A month later one of the sergeants told me that i was +permitted to cover the window when i used the bathroom. But only +for three minutes. +There were twelve four-foot-Iong fluorescent light bulbs in the +cage that were blinding. When i got ready to go to sleep the first +night, i asked the guard to turn off the lights. She refused. "I can't +see you if the light isn't on." +"How in the world can you miss me? You can see everything in +the cell." +"Sorry." +They kept me under those blinding lights for days. 1 felt like i +was going blind. 1 was seeing everything in doubles and triples. +When Evelyn, my lawyer, came to see me, i complained. Finally, +after Evelyn accused them of torture, they turned the lights off at +eleven. But every ten or fifteen minutes they would shine a huge +floodlight into the cell. +Then the trial started. First, motions were argued. Practically +all of our motions were denied. All the prosecution's were granted. +Then jury selection began before Judge John E. Bachman. +When they brought in the first jury panel i thought i was gonna +have a heart attack. There were only a few Blacks speckled here and +there, and the panel looked more like a lynch mob than a j ury. +Most of the jurors openly glared at us, as if they would kill us if +they could. Half said they thought we were guilty. The other half, +although they didn't say it right out, answered questions like they +believed more or less that we probably were guilty. 1 was convinced +some of them deliberately lied just to get on the jury and convict us. +Most of the few Black people excused themselves on the grounds of +hardship. They had children, families, jobs and simply could not +afford to be on a lengthy jury trial. If ever there was a case of the +blues, i had it. +"Do something," i kept telling the lawyers. "Do something!" +"What can we do?" the lawyers would answer. "We're doing +the best we can." + +ASSATA + +67 + + AS SATA + +68 + +It was true, but i just could not accept it. This was my life they +were talking about. I must have bugged the lawyers to death. +"Object to this, object to that," i would tell them. +"Our objection is already on the record." +"Well, object again anyway." I was outraged, trapped and +helpless. Whenever a juror said something that revealed out-and­ +out prejudice, the judge would try to clean it up. Poor Ray Brown, +one of the defense lawyers, caught most of my fire. +"I want you to object. " +"On what basis ?" he would ask. +"Don't you see it? The judge is asking leading questions." +"But the judge is legally allowed to ask leading questions +during j ury selection." +"Well, object anyway." I knew nothing about law then. I had +never even seen a trial. I just couldn't understand how the j udge +could be so blatantly prejudiced in favor of the prosecution and +there was nothing we could do about it. +"Why can't y'all be like Perry Mason?" i asked the lawyers +jokingly. +"Did you ever see Perry Mason defend a Black defendant?" +Ray Brown answered. +Sundiata was a lifesaver. He would try to calm me down and +would explain what to expect. Logically, i accepted what he said, +but i was still frantic. +"We just can't let ourselves be railroaded," i'd say, coming up +with one wild idea after another. Sundiata would patiently explain +why none of my fantastic ideas would work. After a while of +participating in my own legal lynching, i became convinced that +Sundiata and i should fire the lawyers and defend ourselves. In that +way we wouldn't be tied to those stupid rules and we could say +anything we wanted to. +"That's not true," Sundiata told me. "Even if you defend +yourself, you're still bound by their rules." +"How am i supposed to know those rules ? I'm not a lawyer. +And i still have a constitutional right to defend myself. " +"True, but you still have to play according to their rules or they +can bind and gag you. Look at what they did to Bobby Seale." +Every time i looked up at the jury box, i'd argue the point +again. But i also knew that i didn't know one thing about the law, +and it was hard to picture myself actually defending myself. Evelyn +was always repeating the old cliche that a person who defends +himself has a fool for a lawyer. +As we came closer and closer to completing the selection of + + the jury, i became more and more upset. Then, one day, a kid who +couldn't have been more than twenty was being examined as a +potential juror. He spilled the beans. The judge asked him if he had +an opinion of the case and he said, "They say she's guilty." The +judge questioned him further and he blurted it all out. The pro­ +spective jurors in the jury room were talking about the case, al­ +though they had been ordered not to discuss it. The judge asked +what they were saying. +"They say she's guilty." +"Only Mrs. Chesimard?" the judge asked. +"They're saying they're Black, they're guilty." +At that moment the lawyers were all on their feet, talking a +mile a minute. They demanded a complete investigation of what +was going on in the jury room. They wanted the juror asked more +questions. They wanted the jurors to whom he talked questioned. +The judge immediately realized the boy had opened a can of +worms. He did everything he could to avoid opening the can any +further, but it had gotten out of his control. He finally agreed to +conduct an impartial investigation. This time, when he questioned +the jurors, he was very careful to downplay the gravity of what was +going on in the jury room. But the other jurors substantiated what +the boy had said. Our lawyers filed a motion asking that the jury be +selected from another county because we couldn't get a fair trial in +Middlesex. The assignment judge, not Judge Bachman, was to +decide the motion. Meanwhile, the trial was stopped. +Evelyn told me the decision. The assignment judge had deter­ +mined that it was in fact true that we couldn't get a fair trial in +Middlesex County. The jury was to be picked from Morris County. +"Where's that?" i asked Evelyn. She said she hadn't the faintest +idea. Then Ray Brown came in. +"Where in the world is Morris County?" i asked him. +"Well," he said, "I'll tell you." Morris County was almost +completely white with very few Black people and even fewer His­ +panics and Asians. +"What does that mean ? Are there ten percent Black people? +Five percent? Or what?" +"A whole lot fewer." +"A jury of your peers," Evelyn said bitterly. +"What can we- do?" i asked. +"We'll just have to wait and see." +"Can't we get the trial moved somewhere else where there are +more Black people?" +"We can try, but don't get your hopes up too high." + +ASSATA + +69 + + ASSATA +70 + +I was coming back to earth, and fast. +The trial had been postponed for about a month, until Janu­ +ary, because they needed time to secure the jail in Morristown, in +Morris County. +"Maybe," i thought, "the lawyers will come up with some­ +thing by then." I really didn't expect too much, but it seemed like +such an obvious trick, such an obvious ploy, to ensure that we +didn't receive a fair trial by a j ury of our peers that i thought maybe +something could be done about it. I was naive in those days. I knew +it in theory, but i had not seen enough to accept the fact that there +was absolutely no j ustice whatsoever for Black people in amerika. I +still had some hope left. But they had taken something that was +supposed to help us and turned it against us. They had used the law +to abuse the law. +"Now, all we have to do," i reasoned, "is get the facts and +figures and prove that they are trying to deny us a fair trial." How +little did i know! + + Chapter 4 + +unior high school had its advantages and +its disadvantages. It was more impersonal and much +more confusing than elementary school, but it gave +me the chance to move around and change classes, +which i liked. Generally my subjects bored me, with +the exception of English, history, and a newfound love +of ceramics. Parsons Junior High School in Queens +was mostly white. A lot of the Black kids had been put +into remedial or what we called "dumb" classes. It +never ceased to amaze me that the kids who were so +smart in the street were always in the dumb classes. +In junior high everybody was going with some­ +one. When girls got together to talk, the subject was +always boys: who was cute, who was going with +whom, who was fresh, etc., etc. A cute boy was tall, +slim but well built, and usually had light skin. A boy +was considered super-fine if, in addition to light skin, +he had funny-colored eyes. Hazel and green eyes were +the best. If a boy was popular or good at sports he +usually got a play, but in general the boys we talked +about were tall, not too dark, and handsome. +One of my earliest admirers was this boy named +Joe. He was new in our neighborhood, from down +South or somewhere, because everyone said he was +country. He was real dark and had a long body with +short little legs. He liked me, and, in the beginning, i +think i kinda liked him too. Then everyone started +teasing me, saying he was my boyfriend and saying he +looked like a black frog because his legs were so short. +At that age, i was worried to death about what every­ +one thought of me. I wanted desperately to be one of +the pack and i didn't want anybody to make fun of +me. So whenever anybody said i liked Joe, i would + + ASSATA +72 + +deny it to the bitter end and talk about him worse than everybody +else. But Joe was very sweet to me. Every time he saw me he would +smile and say something nice. On Valentine's Day he gave me a +beautiful big valentine and some candy. One day, in the spring, i +heard somebody calling my name outside my bedroom window. It +was Joe. Quickly, he put a flower on the sill and ran away. Every day +after that he did the same thing. When i would see him on the +street, i would smile. I was really touched by the flowers. Then one +day my mother saw him at the window putting a flower on the sill. +"You tell that boy to stay away from that window," she said. +"Now he's putting flowers in the window, the next thing you know +he'll be trying to climb in." But she still thought it was kinda cute. +The next thing i knew she was telling all her friends about it. While +i was embarrassed, it also made me think i was cute. No boy had +every paid me that much attention before and i loved it. +One day i was coming from the store and i saw Joe. He started +walking beside me. He was kinda shy and he had never said +anything to me except "You look nice" or "You look pretty." This +day we tried to make conversation as we went along. Then, all of a +sudden, he said, "Will you go with me ? I want you to be my girl." +Somehow i was shocked. Did he really think i would go with him +and ruin my reputation forever? +"No," i answered. +"No," he repeated. "Why not?" +I didn't know what to say. My tongue became heavy and +twisted, I started to stutter. Nothing came out of my mouth. "Why +not?" he asked again. I stammered and stuttered and then, with icy +bluntness, i said, "Because you're too black and ugly." I will never +forget the look on his face. He looked at me with such cold hatred +that i was stunned. I was instantly sorry for what i had said, but +there was no taking it back. He looked at me as if he despised me +more than anyone else on the face of the earth. I felt so ugly and +dirty and depraved. I was shaken to the bone. For weeks, maybe +months, afterward, i was haunted by what happened that day, by +the snakes that had crawled out of my mouth. The sneering hatred +on his face every time i saw him after that made me know there was +nothing i could do to make it up to him. There was nothing i could +do but change myself. Not for him, but for me. And i did change. +After that i never said "Black" and "ugly" in the same sentence and +never thought it. Of course, i couldn't undo all the years of self­ +hatred and brainwashing in that short time, but it was a beginning. +And although i still cared too much about what people thought +about me, i always tried hard after that to stand on my own two + + feet, to stand by what i felt and thought and not just be a robot. I +didn't always succeed, but i always tried like hell. +Mostly, when i was young, the news didn't seem real. In fact, +my vision of the world was like a comic strip: In China they ate +fortune cookies and the men wore braids; in Africa they lived in +huts, wore bones in their noses, and were cannibals; in South +Amerika they wore big hats, slept in the middle of the day, drank a +lot of rum, and danced the cha-cha. The only place, besides the +United States, that i could talk about with anything resembling +realism was Europe. And my perception of Europe was almost as +unreal. The first president i remember was Eisenhower and even he +didn't seem real. My mother said that all he did was play golf. +When he gave a speech on TV, we turned the channel, and, if he +was on all the stations, we turned the TV off. +Only the news concerning Black people made any impact at all +on me. And it seemed that each year the news got worse. The first of +the really bad news that i remember was Montgomery, Alabama. +That was when i first heard of Martin Luther King. Rosa Parks had +been arrested for refusing to give her seat to a white woman. The +Black people boycotted the buses. It was a nasty struggle. Black +people were harassed and attacked and, if i remember correctly, +Martin Luther King's house was bombed. Then came Little Rock. I +can still remember those ugly, terrifying white mobs attacking those +little children who were close to my own age. When the news about +Little Rock came on, you could hear a pin drop at my house. We +would all sit there horrified. Sometimes, afterward, somebody +would say something, but usually we would just sit there lost in our +own thoughts. I guess there was nothing to say. And each year i +would sit in front of that box, watching my people being attacked +by white mobs, being bitten by dogs, beaten and water-hosed by +police, arrested and murdered. Then the news seemed too real. +The older i got, the more i seemed to grow into myself. My +mother and stepfather were having all kinds of problems. They were +fussing and fighting like cats and dogs. They were like a whole lot +of other Black people in that respect. They were catching hell every +day on their jobs, in society, and they took their frustrations out on +each other. To make matters worse, she was a teacher and he +worked in the post office: she had been to college and he hadn't. As +far as i'm concerned, if a Black man and woman make a marriage +work in amerika, they've accomplished a miracle. Because every­ +thing is against them. Just being poor is one of their biggest +obstacles. Most of the arguments are about money. It's hard as hell +to be loving and caring when you can't pay the bills and you don't + +ASSATA +73 + + ASSATA +74 + +know where the next dollar is coming from. And the way that we're +brought up to think adds insult to injury. It's changing a little bit +now, but when i was growing up, every white man on television was +able to support his family with no particular strain. There was no +need for his wife to work. Her job was to stay home and take care +of the kids. Black people accepted those role models for themselves +even though they had very little to do with the reality of their own +existence and survival. +While my parents were going through their changes, i was +going through mine. I was at the age where i questioned everything. +The world was beginning to have more and more impact on me. I +was curious about, and wanted to experience, everything. On week­ +ends, whenever i could, i would take off. I went to the movies or to +the library, but my favorite activity was riding subways and buses. I +would hop on any subway or bus, ride until i got tired, then get off +at any stop and walk around. Sometimes i talked to people or +played handball with kids my age. Other times i just walked and +looked. I went into all kinds of neighborhoods-white, Black, +Puerto Rican, Chinatown too. But Harlem was my favorite place. I +was fascinated by the street life. I was always trying to figure out +what was going on. Everything was so colorful and busy. Men +standing on the corner drinking, boys playing basketball, hustlers +buzzing up and down the streets huddling and making deals. It was +the land of dream books, kitchenettes, and Johnnie Walker Red. I +loved the stores. From the market on Park Avenue to the greasy fish +joints, to the candy stores that sold penny candy and penny ciga­ +rettes and god knows what else. I would walk and look and think. +The world for me then was a big question mark, and the biggest +question of all was where i fit in. +I was always late getting home and in trouble. It was like i had +some kind of disease. I could never make it home on time. I would +leave with the best intentions, but as soon as i got out in the street, +it was as if i was in a trance. I would forget all about the time until +it was too late. And half the time when i realized that it was getting +dark, i didn't even know where i was, much less how to get home. +My mother would talk to me, slap me, shake me, punish me, but +nothing worked. I was a lost cause. I was running away from home +and i didn't even know it. And one thing always led to another. I +was turning into a fantastic liar. As soon as i got near home i began +making up lies. When i look back at it now, i know my mother must +have wanted to choke me when she heard those farfetched crea­ +tions, but at the time i thought they were brilliant. As the problems + + in my family intensified, i ran away consciously instead of uncon­ +sciously. +The first time i ran away, i went to Evelyn's house. She wasn't +home so i fell asleep on the stairway. When she came home, she +thought i was some kind of drunken bum, so she walked by me and +went to her apartment. I came back the next day and she talked to +me, played shrink and family counselor, and sent me home. It +worked for a while, but things were a mess. My mother and i +couldn't see eye to eye about anything, and i was just as stubborn +and self-willed as she was. And even when i tried to do right, it just +seemed like i couldn't do anything that made her happy. And when +my mother and stepfather were at each other's throats, it drove me +wild. I would simply get my coat and walk out. Some days i just +didn't come back. +At times, running away was fun and exciting. At other times it +was miserable, cold, and lonely. The part i dug about it, though, +was surviving. Being out there, face to face with the raunchiest side +of life was like living on a roller-coaster, everything hurling itself at +you at breakneck speed. It was one hell of an education, and, when +i think about it, i was one lucky chile. So many things could have +happened to me, and almost did. +The first time i ran away i had just the clothes on my back and +very little money. I rode the subway and slept in hallways until i just +couldn't take it anymore. Then i started talking to people. One of +the first people i met was this boy named David. I told him that my +mother was in the hospital and that i didn't have any other family in +New York and i was scared to stay home alone. He took me home +to his mother's house and we told his mother the same story. She +said it would be okay for me to spend the night. They lived in the +Farragut Projects in Brooklyn. David took me out and introduced +me to all his friends. We got along fine until nighttime. Then it was +war-an all-night wrestling match. When he wasn't attacking me, +he was begging and pleading and thinking up a thousand argu­ +ments why i should give him some. I told him i was afraid of getting +pregnant. He went and got this big jar of Vaseline and told me that, +if you used Vaseline, you couldn't get pregnant. I was dumb, but +not that dumb. I told him to go to hell, and the wrestling match +continued. After a day or two at David's, i was ready to move on. +Besides, his mother was getting suspicious. +My next new friend was a girl. I couldn't take any more +Davids. Tina lived in the Fort Greene section of Brooklyn with her +mother and her brother in a brownstone house. It was a rickety old + +ASSATA + +75 + + ASSATA + +house and half of it looked like it was condemned. There was +nothing whatsoever in that house that was orderly. There were +rooms with all kinds of j unk in them, stacked almost to the ceiling: +tables, chairs, record players, old radios. I told the same old story +to Tina's mother and she was sweet as pie. I could stay there just as +long as i wanted, she said. In fact, she said, she "just loved to have +young people around her." And she wasn't lying either. All day +long there was a procession of people in and out of that house, and +most of them were young. When Tina's mother saw that i didn't +have any clothes, she said, "We'll j ust have to take you shopping." I +remember thinking how nice she was, to be willing to spend money +on me, a stranger. The next morning we went down to Fulton +Street. +"All right," she told me, "now I want you to go with Tina into +A&S and pick out what you want; I'll be here at the soda place. +Just remember where everything is." +Off we went, Tina and I. I was happy as a jaybird; my clothes +were kind of on the funky side. When we got inside the store, i +started to pick up things and got ready to try them on. +"Be cool," said Tina. "Don't you know what size you wear?" +"Yeah," i said. "Why?" +"Let's j ust get the stuff and get out of here. If you like some­ +thing, just say so. Don't go picking it up and putting it on and +carrying on." +"O.K.," i said, thinking that she was strange. I liked a plaid +kilt with a big safety pin and a blouse and sweater to match. +"This will go with it, too," Tina said, pointing to a white +blouse. "Now you just do what i tell you. Step in this." +"Step in what?" i said, looking down. +"Be cool, fool!" Tina whispered. "Just keep looking ahead and +help me pull this thing up." She had already got half the skirt up +around my thighs. Finally we got the skirt up and fastened under +my own skirt. "O.K., let's get out of here," Tina said. "Wait a +minute. Roll that skirt up, it's hanging down, and don't look +down !" I was scared out of my wits, but i started to roll. +"Not your skirt, fool," Tina whispered, "the one underneath." +Well, i was walking and rolling and trying to look cool and, if +anyone had seen me, i know i musta looked like a slapstick +comedy. But somehow we made it out of there. I expected the police +to come swooping down on us at any moment. Tina's mother was +still sitting in the same place, sipping on a soda. +"How'd it go ?" she asked Tina. +"She's O.K.," Tina said. "She don't know nothin', but she was + + cool." I felt like fainting. Everybody else's mother i knew would +knock you down if they even thought you were stealing. This was +surely something new. I just kept staring at Tina's mother. She +must've seen me staring at her, too, because she told me, "That's +right, i steal and my kids steal, too. They tryin' to take my house +from me. Tryin' to take everythin' i got. I got to survive by the best +way i know how. But it ain't really stealing; it's just a discount. You +need a discount, high as these stores is. We call it the 'five-finger +discount.' " She started laughing. +When we got to the house, she said, "All right, let's see all the +pretty clothes you got." Tina took the blouses and sweater from +somewhere and i took the skirt from under my skirt. "That's all you +got?" +"Yeah," said Tina. "She don't know how to do nothin', an' we +was takin' too long." +"Y'all didn't get no underwear?" Tina's mother asked. +"No." +"Well, here," she said, giving us some money. "Go to the five +and dime and buy some. And I don't want y'all taking nothin', ya +hear? I didn't raise no nickel-and-dime-store kids, understan' ?" +"Yes." And we were gone. +"We're gon teach you how to deal," Tina said on the way from +the store. I just looked at her. My mind was spinning. Then i +started to feel glad about it. We had gotten over. We had gotten over +tough. The idea of five-finger discounts was beginning to appeal to +me. And it was easy as hell. +That night i dressed up in my new clothes and went with Tina +and her brother to hang out. He was on the quiet side, and evil­ +looking, but he turned out to be nice. We were going to a party at +the Fort Greene Projects. We stopped and bought some french fries +and Thunderbird. At the party, Tina introduced me to Tyrone. It +was love at first sight. I thought he was the cutest boy i'd ever seen. +Tyrone was the warlord of the Fort Greene Chaplins, and i thought +it was just so romantic, like West Side Story. We sat in the hallway, +drinking wine and smoking cigarettes. I had smoked before, but i +had never drunk any wine. The music was playing and the lights +were down low and i was feeling goooooooddd. They were playing +those old slow sides like "Wind," "Gloria," "In the Still of the +Night," "Sunday Kind of Love." We went inside and started to +dance. I was in love and dancing on clouds, whirling around the +dance floor. I was whirling and spinning, and all of a sudden i was +outside, holding onto some bench for dear life, drunk as a skunk +and sick as a dog. When i was finally able to stand, Tyrone walked + +ASSATA + +77 + + ASSATA + +me to Tina's house. We held hands all the way and he made a big +deal out of kissing me good night, although i'll never understand +how he could stand my vomit-tasting mouth. +1 woke up the next morning feeling like elephants had been +doing the Watusi on my forehead and like i was walking on my +eyelids. Tina's mother wanted me to go someplace with her. 1 got +up, washed, and got dressed. "What kind of jewelry do you like?" +she asked me. +"I don't know," i said. "I guess i like rubies because they are +my birthstone." +"Oh, no ! You look like a girl that's made strictly for dia­ +monds." +"Really ?" i asked, flattered. +"Oh yeah, diamonds are a girl's best friend. And I'm gonna +show you how to get some." She spent the morning and most of the +afternoon showing me how to do just that. "You have nothin' to +worry about," she kept telling me. "Even if they catch you, they +can't do nothin' to you, you're a kid. " 1 was supposed to go in a +store and talk very proper. 1 was to ask the price of everything and +tell the clerk that my father gave me $80 to spend, but that i had +some money of my own. Tina and her brother would come in and +create a diversion and, while everyone was looking at them, i was to +put the biggest earrings i could get in my mouth under my tongue. +1 was to say something to the salesman and walk calmly out of the +store. There were a few more parts to the plan, but i don't re­ +member them. She had me practice talking with things under my +tongue. +When we got to the store, i thought i was going to die of fright. +1 acted like i didn't know Tina and her brother and went in as +planned. The store was pretty crowded and i went into my act. 1 was +so scared, i felt like i was having hot flashes. At first the salesman +acted like he didn't want to show me anything, but when i told him +about the $80 and my extra money, he hurried up and pulled out +trays. 1 held them up, saying, "Do you think she'll like these ? Do +you think she'll like these better?" Then, all of a sudden, Tina and +her brother came running into the store. They were laughing real +loud and chasing and grabbing each other. 1 almost forgot what i +was supposed to be doing because 1 was so busy watching them. +Then i remembered and, when i saw that no one was watching, i +picked up the biggest earrings i saw and put them into my mouth. +"I don't see anything Mommy would really like," i said. "Maybe +i'll come back later." 1 started walking to the door. 1 just knew that +that man was going to call me back. + + "Miss," someone called. I felt like dropping through the floor. +I looked out of the corner of my eye and saw that it was another +salesman calling someone else. I walked out of the store, turned a +corner, and ran. I was halfway to Tina's house before they caught +up with me. The earrings were still in my mouth. +"Did you get over?" Tina asked me. I looked at her almost as if +i didn't know her. "Did you cop or not?" she asked again, impa­ +tiently. Finally, i spit the earrings out into my hand. +"Shit," said Tina's mother, "them's pretty numbers there, I like +them myself." As it turned out, the earrings were for pierced ears +and my ears weren't pierced. "Sell them to me," Tina's mother said. +"I'll give you $20 for them." +"It's a deal," i told her. I was glad as hell to get $20. I didn't +care about no diamond earrings and i needed some money to get +away and try to find a job. I was convinced that i wasn't cut out to +be no thief. +That night we went out to celebrate. Tina's mother had given +me $20 plus $2 extra for good work and she had also given me a +pretty, gold-colored dress and nice black shoes. I was dressed up +clean as the board of health and we all had some money in our +pockets and were ready to "do it." We looked for Tyrone but he +wasn't home. We walked all around the projects until we found +him. He was at the house of these twins Jessie and James, or +something like that. They all went downstairs for some kinda +meeting. Everybody said they were gonna fight. They were at war +with another gang, the Bishops, and one of their members had got +messed up by the Bishops. Finally, the meeting was over and Tyrone +came and hung out with us. But it wasn't the same. He spent the +whole night talking about what he was gonna do to the Bishops. +And if he wasn't talking about that, he was talking about the fights +he'd had before, gang fights, school fights, fight fights, etc. It +seemed like his whole life was fighting. +"Why?" i kept thinking. "Why was he so into fighting?" The +question was on the tip of my tongue, but i just couldn't bring +myself to ask it. I tried to imagine the future, Mrs. Tyrone +whateverhisnamewas, and the children. Me, packing his lunch as he +went off to fight the Bishops. Somehow, the picture didn't work. I +was tired of this adventure. I was ready to go home. Whatever the +consequences ! + +ASSATA +79 + + Chapter 5 + +80 + +II right, Chesimard, pack +your things. You're being moved." +"Moved ? Where ?" +"You'll find out when you get there." +"Then i'd like to call my lawyer." +"You can call your lawyer when you get where +you're going." +1 kept trying to find out where they were taking +me. The continuation of the jersey trial, after the +change of venue to Morristown, was still a month +away. Maybe they were just moving me ahead of time. +Maybe they were taking me back to the workhouse. 1 +wasn't too worried, though. Anywhere was better +than that basement in the middlesex county jail. The +sheriff came down with a piece of paper in his hand. +"Where am i going?" i asked him. +"I have a federal order to produce you," he said, +waving the paper around. "You are being turned over +to the custody of the federal goverment." +"What for ?" +"I don't know. You'll have to ask the feds." +My abrupt transfer from one jail to another, +without either notice to my lawyers or explanation to +me, was a scenario that would be repeated over and +over again during the next few years. +After our motion for a change of venue from +Middlesex County was granted in October 1 973, i was +returned to the basement of the middlesex county jail, +where i believed i would remain until the trial resumed +in Morris County on January 4, 1 974. Evelyn imme­ +diately swung into action, contacting the national Jury +Project to explore the level of racism in Morris County +and preparing a number of motions she anticipated + + would have to be made before the morris county kourt. In addition, +she was working on the continuous motion to remove me from +solitary confinement in the middlesex county jail that was then +before the new jersey federal district kourt. The underlying argument of the motion-that this kind of confinement destroyed my +ability to adequately participate in preparation for my trial-had to +be supported by psychological data and the opinions of experts. +Evelyn was trying to find psychologists and sociologists willing to +provide their professional assessments in support of the motion. She +was also trying to locate a forensic pathologist, a ballistics expert, a +forensic chemist, and other specialists we needed for the trial, and +trying to raise money to pay them. +I was aware that there were two indictments outstanding +against me for alleged bank robberies. Evelyn had been told that +trials for these charges would follow the trial in jersey. One of the +indictments was for a Bronx bank robbery that occurred in Septem­ +ber 1 972. I had been indicted for this crime along with Kamau, +Avon White, and others in the federal kourt, southern district of +New York, located in Foley Square in lower Manhattan. +I knew that Evelyn had made a motion before the southern +district j udge, gagliardi, to have that trial postponed until after the +termination of the jersey trial. Having learned that the motion had +been granted, i didn't connect the move to New York with the bank +robbery trial. I was wrong. +The trip was the usual high-security endless procession of cars. +And, as usual, i enjoyed the ride. Just the walk from the door of the +jail to the car did me good-it had been so long since i had seen +daylight or breathed fresh air. I looked at the trees and the grass and +the sky as if i had never seen them before. It was a gloriously +beautiful day. +When the feds told me they were taking me to New York to go +to trial, i didn't know what in the world was going on, but i was +sure Evelyn would straighten things out. There was no way in hell i +could go to trial in federal kourt. Not unless they gave us time to +prepare for it and canceled the jersey trial. There was no way that +Evelyn could deal with both trials at the same time. She was +working so hard i couldn't keep track of all that she was doing. +I knew we had arrived somewhere in Queens, but i didn't +know where. There was no courthouse in the direction we had +gone. The car came to a bridge where pigs were stationed, pointing +rifles and shotguns. On the other side of the bridge were more +police. +"Where are we ? Where is this place?" + +ASSATA + +8I + + ASSATA +82 + +"You are now on Rikers Island. This will be your new home +for a while," the marshal told me. +"It'll never be my home." +I looked around while they waited for clearance to pass +through the gate. There were huge, ugly buildings in front of us, not +old or dilapidated as i had imagined when i pictured Rikers Island, +but institutional-looking nevertheless. +"Are all these buildings jails ?" i asked. +"Yep," said the marshal. "They're all jails. There are a lot of +criminals in the world." +"Everybody in jail isn't a criminal," i told him. "And they've +got a lot of criminals locking people up. They've got a gang of +criminals in the White House. " +The marshal just grunted. The car turned into a modern brick +building. There were no old-fashioned bars, just jalousied window­ +bar combinations. I was brought into a large receiving room and +locked into one of the small rooms that lined the sides, empty +except for some benches and a dirty bathroom. After a long wait, i +was taken out to be printed and photographed. I was returned to +the room, then called out again to fill out forms. I immediately got +into a hassle about the forms: i had left the line for "address" +blank. +"Where do you live?" +"I don't live anywhere. I'm in jail. And i've been in jail for six +months." +"Well, where did you live before that?" +"I don't remember." And it wasn't a lie. I remembered the +place, but i couldn't even begin to tell anyone the address. While i +was underground i made it a habit never to remember addresses. I +used landmarks to remember a place, and i never had trouble +locating any place i had been to once, but even if i visited it a +hundred times, i never looked at the address. +"Well, where does your mother live?" +"Why ?" +"We need an address." +"I haven't lived with my mother in years." +"Well, give me the address anyway." +"I don't know if my mother would want you to have her +address. I'll have to ask her." +The guard insisted, but that line was left blank. The guard was +a Black woman with an Afro. And there was another one, next to +her, with a lopsided wig on. She was Black, too. In fact, most of the +guards i had seen so far were Black. I was quickly to find out that + + the overwhelming majority of guards in the female jail at Rikers are +Black. But when they opened their mouths and expressed their +opinions, you wondered. But that's another story. +After i had been waiting for what seemed like hours, they +brought in a whole bunch of women. It was wonderful. They were +real, live people, talking and laughing. It had been so long since i +had even heard a conversation. I just sat there staring at them. I +know i must have looked like i was crazy, staring like i was, but i +just couldn't help it. I was overwhelmed. I could barely talk, +though. When someone asked my name i stammered and stuttered. +My voice was so low everyone constantly asked me to repeat myself. +That was one of the things that always happened to me after long +periods of solitary confinement: i would forget how to talk. +The next phase was the strip and search. There were two +groups of women: those who were returning from kourt and those +who, like me, were new admissions. We were directed to stand in +little booths and take off all our clothes. Then we were told to turn +around, squat, run our fingers through our hair, lift up our feet and +open our mouths. This was for everybody. The next step was only +for the new admissions. They put us in shower stalls without +curtains, we were told to take a shower, and then were given this +stuff which they told us to put it in our hair and on our pubic hairs +and wash with it. +"What is this for ?" i asked. +"It's for lice and crabs," the guard said. It was humiliating. +The last stage was the "search." Every woman who came into the +building had to go through this process, even if she had been +nowhere but to kourt. Joan Bird and Afeni Shakur had told me +about it after they had been bailed out in the Panther 21 trial. +When they had told me, i was horrified. +"You mean they really put their hands inside you, to search +you ?" i had asked. +"Vh-huh," they had answered. Every woman who has ever +been on the rock, or in the old house of detention, can tell you +about it. The women call it "getting the finger" or, more vulgarly, +"getting finger-fucked." +"What happens if you refuse?" i had asked Afeni. +"They lock you in the hole and they don't let you out until you +consent to be searched internally." +I thought about refusing, but i sure as hell didn't want to be in +the hole. I had had enough of solitary. The "internal search" was as +humiliating and disgusting as it sounded. You sit on the edge of this +table and the nurse holds your legs open and sticks a finger in your + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +vagina and moves it around. She has a plastic glove on. Some of +them try to put one finger in your vagina and another one up your +rectum at the same time. Anyway, i had an instant, mile-long +attitude. I wanted to punch that nurse clear to oblivion. Afterward, +the guards had the nerve to tell me that a mistake had been made +and a doctor would have to make a complete examination. I was +just too disgusted. He was a filthy-looking man who looked more +like a Bowery bum than a doctor. He coughed all over me without +even covering his mouth, and his fingernails looked like he had +spent the last five years in a coal mine. The only good thing about +him was that he was quick. He rattled diseases off like he was an +auctioneer and asked me if i had had them. Then he gave me a one­ +minute examination, took my blood, and that was it. +I was kept in the receiving room until long after everyone had +left. Then a pleasant enough guard, with a scar on her nose and +mouth, took me to my cell. We went down a corridor that seemed +to be a mile long to a hallway where a guard sat inside a glass cage. +Buttons and knobs and lights decorated the cage. It looked like the +inside of some kind of spaceship. +"Open up five," the guard who had brought me said. +There was a thumping sound and then a humming sound and +then nothing. +"You can go to your room now." +"Go where ?" i asked. +"Just walk down the hall and the door will be open. You'll see +it. " +The hallway was long. When i got to the cell, the light came +on. When i went in, the door slid shut behind me. It was something +out of a science-fiction movie. The long halls, the sliding door, the +control panel. "Space jail," i said to myself. Inside, there was a cot, +a dirty sink, a seatless toilet, and a roll of toilet paper. I was tired +and wanted to go to sleep. +"I'm turning the light out now," a voice said over the microphone. +The light went out, but a yellow light stayed on. +"Turn the little light of� please," i called to the guard. +Again, a voice came on over a microphone. "The light must +stay on. It is there for your own protection." +The light stayed on and i went to sleep. +Morning! The doors slid open. +"Breakfast, ladies !" came over the microphone. It was early, +but i was anxious to get dressed and look around. The first thing +that hit me was the smell. I don't care what jail i've been in, they all + + stink. They have a smell unlike any smell on earth. Like blood and +sweat and feet and open sores and, if misery has a smell, like misery. +The walls of the cell were covered with obscenities and love declarations. "Apache loves Carmen;" "Linda and Lil bit;" "India and +Rosa-true love, always." From the window i could see a small +paved yard with grass growing between the cracks in the pavement +and then another long building. +A few women were in the dayroom, but most stayed in their +cells, which were barren except for the toothpaste writing that +covered the walls. In prison, toothpaste serves many functions, one +of which is glue to hang up pictures. A few of the cells were "fixed +up" with pictures from magazines hung on the walls and a knitted +or crocheted afghan on the bed. Clothes, in cardboard boxes, were +on the floor. The women looked evil and ashen. They glanced at me +with only vague interest and went about their business. They were +all Black or Hispanic. +I took a shower and spent the rest of the morning walking +back and forth. Some of the women were bloated, with swollen +hands and feet. A few had a real strange look about them. One sat +in a chair, her eyes crusted with sleep, giggling quietly to herself. A +group of women sat at a table playing spades. They asked me if i +wanted to play, and since i had never heard of the game, volun­ +teered to teach me. It turned out to be like whist, only spades are +always trumps. Then it was lock-in time again, the second one for +the day. The first had come after breakfast. +There were two women on either side of me who had been +locked in their cells all day. "Don't you want to come out?" i asked, +stupidly. They broke up laughing. +"No," one said, "I like it here." When she stopped laughing, +she told me she was "locked." That meant she was locked into her +cell until she was seen by the Board. +"What's the Board ?" i asked. +"It's the Disciplinary Board. When you get an infraction, they +lock you up until you see the Board." +"Then they let you out?" +"Sometimes, but we're going to PSA." +"What's that?" +"It's the hole, the bing. This is 2 Main, where you go before +they take you to the Board; then, after that, if they think you +haven't done enough time down here, they send you to PSA." (PSA +stands for punitive segregation area: solitary.) +"You mean you don't stay in this part all the time?" +"No. We're on the sentence side. We only had to come here + +ASSATA + +85 + + ASSATA +86 + +because we stole the medication. We stole almost everything on the +medication truck and drank it. Coke almost OD'd. That's why +we're down here. This part is for people who have infractions or for +crazy people." +"Crazy people?" +"Yeah !" the one named Coke answered. "They've got some +real bugs down here. How come you here?" +"I don't know. 1 got here yesterday and this is where they put +me." +"You got a homicide? " +"A homicide?" +"Yeah, a homicide. You here for murder?" +"I have a homicide case in new jersey, but i'm here for a bank +robbery trial." +"That's probably why they got you down here," they specu­ +lated. "They probably gonna move you soon." They asked a million +questions. +"Who did you kill ?" +"I didn't kill anybody." +"Well, who did they say you killed?" +"A cop, a new jersey state trooper." +"Oh, shit. You gon have a hard way to go. You didn't really do +it?" +"No." +"You got a bank robbery, too. Did you rob the bank ? How +much money did you get ?" +"I didn't get any money because i didn't rob the bank." +"Yeah ? Then your boyfriend did it and put the blame on you?" +"No, i don't have a boyfriend." +"Oh, so you like girls funny ?" They laughed. "You're kinda +cute. Ya wanna go with me ?" one of them joked. "You ever do time +before?" +"No, never." +"You got any other cases?" +"Yeah, i have another bank robbery." +"Did you do that one?" +"No !" +"Well, damn, they got you all hooked up !" the one called +Delores said. "How come they tryin' to frame you up like that?" +"Because i'm a revolutionary. They say that i'm in the Black +Liberation Army." +"Oh, oh, 1 know you. You that girl 1 read about in the papers. +Yeah, what's your name ?" + + "Assata, Assata Shakur, but my slave name is JoAnne +Chesimard. " +"Yeah, you the one. I never thought I'd meet you. How you +doin' ?" +"Yeah," Coke said, "I saw your picture on TV, but you look +different now." +"How?" i asked. +"When I saw your picture I thought you was much bigger. And +much blacker, too." +"Really ?" I laughed. It was a statement i heard over and over. +Everybody told me they thought i was bigger, blacker, and uglier. +When i asked people what they thought i looked like, they would +describe someone about six feet tall, two hundred pounds, and very +dark and wild-looking. +"Bad as them papers said you was, I j ust knew you had to look +bad. And here you are, just a little ole thing." +I asked them what they were in prison for. In the course of +those next few days i was to learn a whole new vocabulary. Jostling +was pickpocketing; boosting was shoplifting; juggling paper was +writing bad checks and dragging or playing drag was conning. +Later that evening a woman who had j ust come from kourt +told me that Phyllis wanted me to come to the gym at 8 :30. I was +overjoyed. I had heard that Simba was on the rock, but i thought +they might move her to make sure we had no chance to be together. +The gym was large. Women were playing handball and basketball, +dancing, sitting on the bleachers, and talking. Finally, behind a +clump of women, i saw Simba. We embraced and both just sat +there, trying to get out all the words that were in our hearts. So +much had happened since we had seen each other. We had been +close when we were both members of the Black Panther Party. For a +while we had lived together. She was always a real earthy sister with +a heart of gold. She told me about her case, about the other +comrades she was in touch with, and, then, that she was pregnant. +Homey was her nickname for her lover, the baby's father, Kakuyan +Olugbala. He was a beautiful revolutionary brother, and he was +murdered by the New York police. Kakuyan and i had gotten to +know each other pretty well while we were both at the Harlem +branch of the Black Panther Party. He was one of the brothers who, +in the days of the Panther Party's lumpen ideology, would be called +lumpen. He was raised in Harlem around 1 1 6th Street and 8th +Avenue, a relaxed, easy kind of person, but a fighter to the heart. +He loved weapons and was a genius with them. +I was glad about her pregnancy and sad at the same time: she + +ASSATA + + ASSATA +88 + +was facing twenty-five years. Although i tried to be cheerful, i guess +she could see the concerned expression on my face. +"Don't worry," she told me. "These people can lock us up, but +they can't stop life, just like they can't stop freedom. This baby was +meant to be born, to carry on. They murdered Homey, and so this +baby, like all our children, is going to be our hope for the future." I +would think about her words many times later. +It's early in the morning. It feels like a quarter to zero and i want to +sleep. I hear my name vaguely over the microphone. Something +about kourt. They are calling me for kourt. Hurriedly i roll out of +bed, shower, dress, comb my hair, and i'm ready to go. They bring +breakfast on the food truck. I can't even stand the look of food, +much less eat anything. +"All right, court ladies, time to go to the receiving room," the +microphone wails. It's too early in the morning for that thing. I +want to tear it out of the ceiling. I stumble down to the receiving +room, still not fully awake. It's 7:20 A.M. I sit in the receiving room +for three hours. Finally, the marshals come. Now they want me to +hurry. One of them chains me up. First he shackles my feet; then he +puts a chain around my waist, fastens the handcuffs to the chain, +and handcuffs on my hands. I can barely walk. Or shuffle. +Kourt, dull, gray, dull green. They are putting me into the bull +pen. I don't know why they call it a bull pen, though i have often +speculated. +"Attorney visit," one of the marshals calls as he opens the bars +to let me out. +We go to the end of the hall. Evelyn is puffing and huffing. She +always puffs and huffs when she's angry. In a few minutes, i know +that she will begin pacing and tapping her feet. +"They're trying to force us to go to trial right away," she tells +me. "You know I've been busy, drawing up motions for federal +court." +"What do you mean, federal kourt? Aren't we in federal +kourt?" +"Yes, but if the judge denies our motion for postponement, I +want to be ready to go straight into the circuit court." +"What's the circuit kourt?" It was all Greek to me. +"That's where we appeal if the judge issues an unfavorable +opinion." +We go on talking. Evelyn is trying to explain to me and i am +trying to explain to her that we can't possibly go to trial. "There's +no way in the world you can be ready to go to trial right now." I am +ranting. + + "I know, 1 know," Evelyn replies. +1 rant and rave indignantly while Evelyn tries to explain the +law to me. They call us to court. The judge is gagliardi. He looks +just like what he is: a racist dog craka. Kamau comes into the +courtroom. 1 am delighted to see him. He has aged. He's grinning, +but under the grin his face is hungry. 1 wonder what he's thinking. +Bob Bloom, Kamau's lawyer, is up on his feet talking. He is asking +for a postponement. Everything he says is logical and makes sense. +Evelyn gets up and starts to rap. She is talking pure unmitigated +truth and logic. The judge looks at the ceiling. 1 predict the outcome of the hearing and keep turning around to look at the +audience. Friendly, familiar faces smiling at me. 1 don't want them +to ever stop. The judge denies our motion for a postponement. The +judge denies all our motions. 1 want to scream, "Dirty dog, slimy +pig, you're not a judge. You're just another prosecutor." +1 look at the prosecutor. He's smug. His face is unreal-like a +poster. He looks like a 1 940 war poster. John Q. Public. 1 keep +staring at him. Nobody could look that corny. He's like a ghost +from the past. I'm convinced he doesn't know it's 1973 . The +lawyers ask for a joint meeting and the judge says yes, but make it +short. The lawyers outline the strategy of the appeals. +"What are our chances on this appeal ?" i ask. +"There's a chance," Evelyn says. "Slim, maybe, but a chance. If +the courts are interested in justice, well, of course, they'll support +our position." We all know how big an "if" it is. +The next time we went to kourt five days later it had snowed. The +trees were bare and covered with ice and, though i don't like winter, +it was a beautiful sight. As soon as i arrived in the kourthouse, +Evelyn was there to tell me that the circuit court had denied all of +our appeals, and gagliardi was talking about going to trial that day. +"I just want you to understand that there is no way that 1 can +adequately defend you on this short notice. 1 haven't had time to +prepare pretrial motions, 1 have received no discovery material, and +1 haven't even had time to think about an appropriate defense +because 1 haven't been able to find out the basic facts of the case. 1 +just want you to know that." +"I know," i told her, "and i know you're doing the best that +you can." +"At any rate," Evelyn said, "if worse comes to worst, you'll +have a solid issue for appeal." +It was a depressing picture. We clearly were being railroaded. +We went before the judge. Again, he was arrogant and belligerent, +determined to force us to go to trial right away. Again, she asked + +ASSATA + +89 + + ASSATA + +the judge for a postponement, but her arguments fell on deaf ears. +He ruled that we could have a joint conference later, but the trial +would begin immediately. +As we left the courtroom, Akilah was standing in the hallway +with Ksissay, Kamau's two-year-old daughter. As he walked near +her, she held out her arms to him. Kamau took about two steps +toward her and the marshals jumped him and began beating him. I +jumped on the marshals and tried to pull them off. In an instant +there was one hell of a fight in the hallway. Finally, the marshals +drew their guns and forced us to lie down on the floor with our +arms spread apart. We lay there while they stomped our backs and +kicked us as they handcuffed our hands behind our backs. Akilah +ran to tell everybody what was going on as Ksissay screamed +hysterically. I will never forget the haunting scream of that child as +she watched her father being brutally beaten. +After the fight, the marshals were vicious and vindictive. They +did everything they could to provoke and harass us. Newspapers +reported that we had attacked the marshals. +Kamau and i decided that we weren't just going to let ourselves +be railroaded quietly. This so-called trial was such a blatant miscar­ +riage of justice that we weren't even going to participate in it. And +we didn't want Evelyn and Bob Bloom to participate in it either. +"Just sit there and don't say anything," we told them. "We'll +do the talking." And do the talking we did. +At the next kourt session, gagliardi asked the lawyers if they +were prepared to begin picking the jury. Both of them made state­ +ments to the effect that since it was impossible for them to represent +us adequately, we had requested that they remain "mute." +"All right, then, we'll proceed with you or without you," the +judge roared. "Bring in the panel." +As soon as the jury panel entered the kourtroom, Kamau and i +began to tell them what was going on. We told the jury that he had +been appointed by Nixon and that he was persecuting us because of +our political beliefs, that he was the same judge who had just given +Mitchell and Stans, the Watergate defendants, who did not have +one fraction of the valid reasons for an adjournment that we had, +an extended postponement. After a while, the judge ordered us +removed from the courtroom. Jury selection continued with only +the judge and the prosecutor participating. Every so often the judge +would send the marshals back to ask us if we were going to +"behave." +"Of course," we would tell the marshals. +Once returned to the courtroom, we "behaved." Again we told + + the jury what was happening and that the judge was trying to +railroad us. As soon as we began to talk, the judge ordered us from +the kourt. "Whenever we were about to be thrown out, the marshals +vied for positions closest to us and for the opportunity to grab us, +twist our hands behind our backs, and get their licks in. To avoid +being manhandled, as soon as the judge said, "Remove the defend­ +ant from the courtroom," i would say, "The defendant will remove +herself. " Most of the time it worked, but one day the marshals were +so gung ho they jumped on me and started brutalizing me in open +kourt. Evelyn jumped up like she was ready to fight and stood +between me and them, holding them away with an outstretched +arm. +She complained to the judge. My arm and hand had not yet +fully recovered and i was still partially paralyzed. Evelyn's remarks +made the marshals more vicious. They became so brutal that all of +the spectators began to cry out. As the marshals carried me out of +the kourtroom, the spectators chanted, "Railroad, railroad." The +judge ordered them removed. As i was being taken downstairs, i +could hear the commotion. People were chanting and yelling and +screaming. The marshals, i later found out, had beaten some of +them. I sat in the bull pen, lost in my thoughts, when they brought +a white woman and man down the hallway and put the woman in +the cell with me. I looked at her without much interest. +"Assata," she said, "I'm go glad to have finally met you. But I +never thought it would be this way." +I looked at her blankly. +"My name is Natalie Rosenstein. I was upstairs. I was one of +the spectators in the courtroom when they started pushing and +shoving and beating people." +"What?" i said. "You're kidding!" +"No. We didn't move fast enough, so they arrested us," she +said, referring to herself and the white man. +""What did they charge you with ?" +"Obstructing justice. " +After that, Kamau and i were banned from the kourtroom. We +were put into a freezing room next to the kourtroom where a +loudspeaker had been installed so we could listen to the trial. In the +beginning, they slammed the door shut. At first, we wanted the +door open because it was so cold and the warmth from the rest of +the building helped. Then we began to enjoy the privacy. It was +good to be able to talk to each other without someone looking +down our throats. Because we knew that sooner or later they would +open the door and stare at us, we would open it. + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +"Let some heat in. It's freezing in here." +"The door stays closed." After a while, they locked it. +One of the first things that Kamau and i had discussed was +Islam. He had been a Muslim for some time and was deep into it. +He was seriously trying to convince me to convert and become a +practicing, active Muslim. I had always said that if i had any +religion, it was Islam, but i had never practiced it. Because of Elijah +Muhammad and Malcolm X, the Muslim influence over our strug­ +gle has been very strong, but it had always been difficult for me to +accept the idea of an all-powerful, all-seeing, all-knowing god. +And, i reasoned, how could i be expected to love and worship a god +whose "master plan" included the enslavement, torture, and +murder of Black people ? +Kamau argued that Islam was a just religion, opposed to +oppression. "Oppression is worse than slaughter," he quoted from +the Holy Koran. "A true Muslim is a true revolutionary. There is no +contradiction between being a Muslim and being a revolutionary." +I didn't know much about it, but i agreed to seriously check it out. +Muslim services were held regularly on Rikers Island, and Simba +and i began to attend. +Talking to Kamau was so good for me. Solitary had affected +me really badly. I had closed up inside myself and had forgotten +how to relate in an open way with people. We spent whole days +laughing and talking and listening to the kourtroom madness in +between. Each day we grew closer until, one day, it was clear to both +of us that our relationship was changing. It was growing physical. +We began to touch and to hold each other and each of us was like +an oasis to the other. For a few days the question of sex was there. +Then, one day, we talked about it. Surely, it was possible. But, i +thought, the consequences ! Pregnancy was certainly a possibility. I +was facing life in prison. Kamau would also be in prison for a long +time. The child would have no mother and no father. +Kamau said, "If you become pregnant and you have a child, +the child will be taken care of. Our people will not let the child +grow up like a weed." I thought about it. That was true, but the +child would suffer. "All our children suffer," Kamau said. "We +can't guarantee our children a future in a world like this. Struggling +is the only guarantee our children will ever have for a future. You +may never have another chance to have a child." +"I have to think," i told him. My mind was screaming. Who +would take care of my baby ? I thought about what Simba had said +about our children being our hope for the future. I had never +wanted a child. Since i was a teenager i had always said that the + + world was too horrible to bring another human being into. And a +Black child. We see our children frustrated at best. Noses pressed +against windows, looking in. And, at worst, we see them die from +drugs or oppression, shot down by police, or wasted away in jail. +My head was swimming. What had my mother and grandmother +and great-grandmother thought when they brought their babies +into this world? What had my ancestors thought when they +brought their babies into this world, only to see them flogged and +raped, bought and sold. 1 thought and thought. How many Black +children are separated from their parents? How many grow up with +their grandmothers and grandfathers? Didn't i stay with my grand­ +parents until my mother had finished school and was on her feet? 1 +remembered all the discussions i had had. "I'm a revolutionary," i +had said. "I don't have time to sit at home and make no babies." +"Do you think that you're a machine?" a brother had asked +me. "Do you think you were put on this earth to fight and nothing +else?" +1 thought about what Zayd had always told me. "While you're +alive, girl, you betta live." +"I am about life," i said to myself. "I'm gonna live as hard as i +can and as full as i can until i die. And i'm not letting these +parasites, these oppressors, these greedy racist swine make me kill +my children in my mind, before they are even born. I'm going to live +and i'm going to love Kamau, and, if a child comes from that +union, i'm going to rejoice. Because our children are our futures +and i believe in the future and in the strength and rightness of our +struggle." 1 was ready for whatever happened. 1 relaxed and let +nature take its course. +When something important was happening in the kourtroom, +we listened. But, usually, whatever was happening droned on in +boring chatter that amounted to nothing. Lawyers have the habit of +turning ten words into a hundred and saying nothing more in the +process. The trial was like something out of some playwright's +imagination. We called it the "vaudeville show." Evelyn and Bob, +after registering their daily protests, sat mute. The judge raved and +ranted. The pigs barked like vicious dogs. The "witnesses" lied like +crazy. The jurors (who had been picked solely by the prosecution) +looked and listened expressionlessly. There were a couple of Black +jurors, and although we held little hope we would be acquitted, we +placed the microscopic hope we did have in the Black jurors. Even +though we had presented no defense, had not participated in the +trial, we thought that there was a slim chance they might not go +along with the program. Black people are generally not as brain- + +ASSATA +93 + + ASSATA +94 + +washed as white people when it comes to the so-called system of +justice. +The whole kourt process began to take its toll on me. Half the +time i wasn't eating because they usually served pork for lunch and, +sometimes, they had pork for dinner. Breakfast was out of the +question. 1 could never figure out what they gave us. 1 called it +"monster stew." 1 was always freezing and i didn't have a coat. My +mother had brought me one, but i had given it to Simba. She was +pregnant and needed it more than i did. One night, when i returned +from kourt, i began to feel awful, like a knife was stabbing me in +my side. 1 could hardly breathe. 1 went to the prison doctor and the +diagnosis was plueurisy. When the judge learned i was sick and +unable to come to kourt, he had a fit. He acted like i had gotten +sick just to delay the trial. The next time i saw the prison doctor, he +was nervous and shook up. +"They keep calling me about you," he said. "They want you +back in court right away. They want to know how fast 1 can have +you back in the courtroom." +"Who keeps calling you?" i asked. +"Everybody. People. I've got to get you back in court as soon as +possible. " +And that's exactly what he did. +Every day they brought us into the kourtroom. And, every +day, as soon as the j ury came in, we began to tell them what was +happening, that we were being forced to trial without being given +time to prepare a defense. And every day, the judge ordered us +removed from the kourtroom and cited us for contempt. It was +comical. +"What are you going to do ?" i would ask him, after i had been +cited for contempt for the hundredth time. "Put me in jail? Lock me +up ?" +One day, when the j udge had been particularly crazy and the +marshals had been particularly brutal, Evelyn just couldn't take it +anymore. +"I'm not going to sit here and watch this spectacle," she said. +"If you won't permit me to defend my client, there is no purpose in +my being here." And with that, she got up and started to leave. +"Get back in here," the judge yelled. "I order you to get back +here and sit down." +Evelyn kept walking. +"If you don't come back and sit down, I'm citing you for +contempt." +Evelyn walked out of the kourtroom. The judge cited her for + + contempt. (In 1 975, after all appeals, including the supreme kourt +of the united states, were denied, she served the ten-day sentence in +maximum security at the westchester county jail for women.) +The trial soon ended and we waited patiently for the verdict. +Evelyn and Bob gave us lectures. "Expect nothing but the worst. +There's a chance, but it's slim." Kamau and i waited for the convic­ +tion. One day of jury deliberation passed. Two days passed. The +jury seemed to be taking forever. We wondered what was taking +them so long. It was an open-and-shut case. We had cross-exam­ +ined no witnesses, presented no defense. Kamau and i spent the +time tenderly, savoring our last few moments together. +The next morning Evelyn and Bob came in, grinning. "It's a +hung jury," they giggled. "gagliardi is fit to be tied. They're going to +call us into court in a few minutes. We just thought we'd come in +and give you the good news." Ten minutes later we were in the +kourtroom. The judge was grimly thanking and dismissing the jury. +The marshals looked like they wanted to fight. The prosecutor +looked like he wanted to cry. We found out later that a lone Black +juror had refused to convict us. He had heard us. The look on +gagliardi's face gave me great pleasure. I looked at him and gave +him my most meaningful smile. His face turned red and he looked +away. +Afterward, we met with the lawyers. We were still giddy and in +a state of shock. "What does this mean? Are they going to try us +again?" +"They're going to try you again, and right away," Evelyn told +us. "The new trial will begin on Monday." +Kamau and i looked at each other. We were sick of this case +but were ecstatic that we were going to have more time together. +"Are we going to have the same judge?" +"No," Bob said. "They've got to assign a new judge." +Evelyn was caught up in our gleeful mood, but, as usual, she +was business first. "We've got to come up with a trial strategy." +Sitting in that courtroom day after day and watching that fiasco +enabled us to do one thing. We were able to see and analyze their +case. "I feel that now we are ready to go to trial." +"They don't have a case," Bob said. "I don't even know how +they got an indictment." +"We know," Kamau and i said. +"Their case is utterly absurd," Evelyn said. +"We know," Kamau and i droned again. +"Their witnesses are as phony as three-dollar bills," Evelyn +said. + +ASSATA +95 + + ASSATA + +"We know." +"They don't have one piece of physical evidence," Evelyn +ranted. "No photographs, no fingerprints, no witnesses, no +nothing." +"We know," Kamau and i chanted in unison. +"They couldn't possibly have any evidence," i said. "We +weren't there." +"Well, 1 know that," Evelyn said indignantly. "That's not the +point." +Bob and Kamau looked perplexed. Evelyn and i just looked at +each other and smiled knowingly. We had found out in new jersey +how "evidence" could appear out of nowhere and other evidence +disappear. +Evelyn and i have a very close relationship. We love each other +intensely and we get along wonderfully. Usually ! But when we +argue or disagree, it's awful. We are both outraged that the other +one doesn't agree or see our point and we feel betrayed and furious. +And neither of us has the mildest temper in the world. Add to that +the tremendous pressure we were both under, and you have the +recipe for fireworks. +During one of our strategy meetings, Evelyn and i locked +horns. Try as we might, we couldn't reach any kind of agreement. +After a while, we weren't even communicating. It became a matter +of who had the last word and the final decision. +"I'm the lawyer," she yelled. "I know what I'm doing! If you +aren't going to listen to me, then what's the point of having me +defend you ?" +"I'm the client," i yelled back. "I'm the one who's gonna do +the twenty-five years in prison if you're wrong." +"What you're saying is that you don't trust me or my judg­ +ment." Evelyn said. Our argument went from bad to worse. After a +while we were saying all kinds of things we didn't mean to each +other. +"I don't need this shit," Evelyn stormed. "What the hell do 1 +need to defend you for? You haven't got an ounce of sense." +"You don't have to defend me if your don't want to," i re­ +sponded. "Don't do me any favors." +"You need all the favors you can get," Evelyn countered. +"Well, i don't need them from you. 1 can defend my damn self +as well as you can." +"I'd like to see you try it. 1 don't need this mess." +"I will. I don't need you either." + + "Well, go ahead and defend your stupid self then." Evelyn +screamed. +"I will." +After the argument i was tired and blank. All the tension had +been drained out of my body. I was still mad, but i was sorry, too. +Evelyn was probably right, and i was probably crazy. It's so hard +working with someone who is so close to you. It's like having your +mother or your wife or husband as your lawyer. It's real hard to be +objective. Personal stuff sometimes gets in the way. I didn't know +whether i was being a sane adult or a rebellious child. +The next time we came to kourt, i could see right away that +Evelyn was still angry with me. I fully intended to try and make up, +but her cold manner made me draw back and get mad all over +agam. +"Is your decision still the same?" she asked coldly. +"Yes," i responded icily. +"Judge," she told the new judge, "I wish to be relieved from +the case. Ms. Shakur wishes to retain another lawyer." +"Is this true?" the judge asked me. +"Yes. I want to defend myself." A little while later she was off +the case. +As i sat in the bull pen feeling stupid and stubborn, the guard +brought in a public defender. Gagliardi had assigned him because +he didn't like the way Evelyn was behaving. I told him i didn't want +him to represent me, that i was representing myself, the judge had +assigned him to my case. +"What did you do before you were a public defender?" +He told me that "once upon a time" he had been a prosecutor. +That was the end of the conversation. I would rather have had an +alligator for a lawyer. I don't even remember his name, but he sat +through both trials as my supposed lawyer, even though i refused to +even speak to him. +Since i was now defending myself, i was entitled to a lawyer as +an adviser. Everyone suggested lawyers, but most of them were +white leftists. I wanted, if at all possible, a Black woman. Not just +any Black woman lawyer, but someone who was in tune with the +politics of the Black Liberation struggle. +One of the names given me was Flo (Florence) Kennedy. She +was a Black lawyer who was very active in the women's movement, +well known on the speaking circuit from coast to coast and more +renowned as a feminist and political activist than as a lawyer. She fit +the bill perfectly. She was just what i wanted. + +ASSATA +97 + + ASSATA + +Some argued against her. +"But, Assata," they said, "she's not a trial lawyer. Flo is not a +criminal lawyer. You need both, someone who can give you sound +advice." 1 was unmoved by their arguments. "She's wild; she's +flamboyant and eccentric; she might scare the jury." +"She can't be any wilder than this case is," i countered. +"Besides, i don't need a crimnal lawyer because this isn't a criminal +case. 1 need a political lawyer. " +1 was in a wild mood and i was determined to handle the case +the way i saw fit. 1 wasn't expecting any such thing as justice! This +case was like something out of The Twilight Zone and i was +convinced that it couldn't be treated like a normal, run-of-the-mill +criminal trial. 1 was determined to use this case to expose the deceit +and crookedness of the government. A meeting between Flo and me +was arranged. Flo warned me over and over about her lack of trial +experience. +"You know, darling, that 1 haven't been inside a courtroom to +try a case in years." +"I don't care," i said. "You've been out in the world; you know +what reality is and that's enough." +Flo agreed to be my legal adviser. And i was ready to go to +trial. + + Chapter 6 + +y mother and stepfather +broke up and my mother, my sister, and i moved to a +new apartment in a housing complex in South Ja­ +maica near New York Boulevard and Foch. One side +was the projects and the other side was the co-op +where we lived, but they looked about the same to me. +Compared to Jamaica, Parsons Gardens, where we +had lived, was a little black dot. South Jamaica, Ja­ +maica, Hollis, Bricktown, St. Albans, Springfield Gar­ +dens, South Ozone, etc., were all joined together to +make up a Black city. You could live your whole life in +Jamaica and the only time you'd see a white face was +when you shopped on Jamaica Avenue or when the +insurance man came around. At one time, Jamaica +was all white. Black people had moved out to the +Island to escape the ghettos of Harlem and Brooklyn. +They bought old houses at exorbitant prices, only to +find that, within a few years, their "nice" neigh­ +borhoods had turned into the crime-ridden, drug­ +ridden, poverty-stricken places they had run from. +I loved Jamaica, and i was just starting to get into +the beat of it and to know my way around when my +mother and i had one of our terrible arguments. I +don't even remember what the argument was about, +but i was hardheaded, stubborn, and under the im­ +pression that a grave injustice had been done to me. +The next day i got up, packed my clothes, and headed +straight for the Village. Greenwich Village was where +artists and musicians and all kinds of weird people +were supposed to live. I was fascinated by the idea of +beatniks and bohemians, even though i had never met +any. I figured that if i belonged anyplace, it must be +the Village. + +99 + + ASSATA +IOO + +1 walked around with my suitcase until i was exhausted. 1 + +remember thinking that people here didn't look that different from +anybody else. 1 found a place to check my suitcase and spent the +rest of the day going around door to door asking people if they had +any jobs available. Most didn't even look up at me, they just gave a +flat no. At the end of the day, i was tired, disgusted, and hungry. 1 +had nowhere to live and not the slightest idea what i was going to +do next. 1 went back for my suitcase, but the place was closed. After +that, i just walked aimlessly until i reached a little park. 1 sat down +on a bench, tired as hell and unable to take another step. After a +while, a little white guy with bumps on his face sat down next to +me and started talking. 1 didn't understand half the things he said, +but he seemed nice enough. When he asked me if i wanted to go to +a restaurant across the street with him, i gladly accepted. 1 was +starving. It was an Italian restaurant and the scent in the air was +heavenly. 1 ordered enough to feed a mule. The guy talked about all +these people i didn't know and about his job. He kept saying +people on his job were conspiring to get him fired. +"I worked there for eight years and they didn't even give me +any notice." He told me over and over that the company he had +worked for had stolen two of his inventions and patented them and +that when he tried to get paid for them and to get credit for his +ideas, the company tried to get rid of him. +"What did they do?" i asked. +"They did everything. They stole my files and my papers and +then spread rumors about me." He said he was some kind of +engineer. "I should never have trusted them," he kept saying. "You +can't trust anybody." +When the food came i ate like i had spent a lifetime starving. +"Doesn't this food taste funny to you?" the guy asked. 1 tasted +some more and it was good. +"There's nothing wrong with mine," i told him. +"There's something wrong with this food," he said loudly. +"What did they do to my food?" +The waiter came and tried to calm the guy down. "I don't +understand," the waiter said, "but if you'd like, I'll bring you +another plate." Although the guy said it was better, he still thought +it tasted a little funny. To change the subject, i told him a sad story +about my mother being in the hospital and that i had nowhere to +stay. +"Oh, you can stay at my place," he said. Then, seeing how i +was looking at him, he added, "I have an extra bed." +"No funny business ?" + + "No funny business," he promised. He paid the check and we +left. +His apartment was a tiny one-bedroom unit with a dirty +kitchen and a green moldy-looking rug. The living room was neat +and sterile. There was a plain brown couch that turned into a bed. 1 +asked him for something to sleep in and plopped down into the +bed. He kept talking, but i closed my eyes and pretended to sleep. +After a while he went into his bedroom and shut off the light. 1 +woke up during the night to go to the bathroom, stumbling around +disoriented until i finally found it. When i came out of the +bathroom, i went into the kitchen for some water. While i was there +the guy came in. His face was all puffed up and red. +"What are you looking for?" +"Some water." +"Oh, no, you're not," he screeched. "You've been creeping +around this house looking for something." +"What?" i asked. "You're crazy." +"Oh, no, my dear, that's what they want me to think. I'm not +crazy in the least. What were you looking for? Who sent you ? You +didn't find anything, did you ? Well, you can tell them, 1 haven't +invented anything else for them to steal." +"I don't know what you're talking about. Nobody sent me no +place and i wasn't looking for anything. " +"Oh, no ! You were just going for a little moonlight stroll. Do +you think I'm some kind of fool? 1 took you in off the street, out of +kindness, and here you try and deceive me. They really fooled me +this time. 1 never thought they'd send a nigger. A nigger spy." +"Your momma is a nigger," i told him, "and you're a crazy son +of a bitch." 1 threw on my clothes as i cursed him out. +"Spy. Spy," he kept saying. +"Your mother is a spy, and you can drop dead as far as i'm +concerned. " +1 slammed the door and walked out into the early morning. +The sun was beginning to come up. 1 walked until i found a +drugstore open and ordered tea and an English muffin. 1 bought a +toothbrush, toothpaste, and some makeup so that i would look +older. 1 was going to get a job if it killed me. 1 got my suitcase, +found a bathroom to wash up in, changed clothes, and checked the +suitcase again. 1 bought a couple of newspapers. This time i was +going to be systematic about it. +1 saw an ad for a waitress and counter girl. That was something +i knew i could do. The place was in downtown Brooklyn. 1 hopped +on the first train in that direction and got there about 8 : 30 in the + +ASSATA +IOI + + ASSATA +I02 + +morning. The cafeteria was in a factory building and was solely for +the factory workers. The manager had black and white hair and +was big, fat, and sloppy. He wasn't so anxious to hire me at first, so +i told him a sob story about coming from down South to help my +mother who was in the hospital and that i needed a job as soon as +possible. Finally, after looking me up and down, he hired me and +said i could start right then and there. 1 was grinning from ear to +ear. +1 was supposed to spend the morning making salads and +sandwiches and other things for lunchtime. But around ten o'clock, +all these men started coming for coffee break. The manager had me +running around like crazy, toasting bread, buttering buns, and +getting the men their orders. +"Move faster, move faster," he kept telling me. Every time he +told me to move faster i tried until it seemed that it wasn't humanly +possible for anyone to have moved faster. Then i noticed he was +always brushing against me. His hands were always "accidentally" +touching my behind. I'd move his hand away but that only seemed +to make him bolder. Every time i bent over to get something out of +the freezer or off the food shelves, he would try to slide his hands +up my dress. After a while, i began slapping his hands away. This, +too, seemed to make him bolder. Finally i told him, in a nice, quiet +voice, "Would you please keep your hands off me ? Would you keep +them to yourself?" +"Whattaya talkin' about?" he said, acting surprised. "I ain't +done nothin' to ya." +As the day wore on, he accelerated his shouting at me. "Can't +you move any faster ?" he would yell. "Get that lead outa your ass." +He stopped putting his hands on me for a while, but in about an +hour he was right back to his old tricks. He acted like it was some +kind of joke or something. I didn't think it was funny worth a +damn. Lunchtime was super-busy and i was moving super-fast. +After lunch, we started getting ready for afternoon coffee break and +after that we started getting ready for dinner. Dinner was from 4:30 +to 6:30, and 7:00 was quitting time. When dinnertime came, i was +tired and miserable. I needed the job desperately, but the manager +was driving me wild putting his hands all over me. When i told him +to stop, he would grin, throw his hands in the air, and say, "What +am 1 doing? What am I doing?" Then he started a new trick. He'd +pull the elastic of my panties through the uniform and let it pop +like a rubber band. +"Stop it !" i yelled. "Just stop it!" +"Stop what? What am 1 doin'?" + + By the time dinner was over i knew i couldn't take it anymore. +Bad as i needed the job, i couldn't take that big fat pig's hands all +over me. Just before i was ready to go home, i told him. +"Look, if you can't keep your hands to yourself, i'll quit. 1 +can't take it anymore." +"Whattaya mean, you'll quit? You're fired. You got lead in your +ass and you don't know how to treat your boss. Now get the hell +outta here." +"Just give me my money and i will. " +"I ain't gonna give you shit," he said, " 'cause you ain't did +shit." +"Look, mister, you gonna pay me my money. 1 worked hard +and i want my money." +"Come back at the end of the week." +"No, i want my money now. 1 need it now." +"You ain't gettin' nothin' now, 1 told ya. Come back at the end +of the week." +"No, you're giving me my money now; i want my money !" +"Well, you ain't gettin' it." +"I'll call the cops on you," i bluffed. +"I'll call the cops on you," he said, "if you don't get your ass +outta here." +"You better give me my money," i repeated, looking wild and +about ready to jump out a real bag. +Some people from the factory came in and stood at the back of +the cafeteria looking. +"Keep your voice down," he said, acting like he was going to +be cooperative and pay me. "I'll tell you what. You come in the +back with me now and I'll pay you for an extra day. I'll even let you +keep your job, and, if you're good, I'll even give you a little extra +change." +"I'm not going any damn where with you. Just give me my +money !" +"Now, why do you want to be like that?" he asked, putting his +hands on my shoulder. 1 was hot and fit to be tied. +"Get your hands off me," i yelled. "You don't want nobody to +know what kind of a dog you are. Well, i'm gonna tell everybody. If +you don't give me my money, i'm gonna make you wish you had. +I'm gonna tell everybody what you are." 1 started to walk to where +people were working in the factory part. +"All right, all right," he said. "Here's your goddamn money. +Just get the hell outta here." +The people who had been standing in the back moved up + +ASSATA +I03 + + ASSATA +I04 + +closer to see what was going on. The man went to the register and +counted out my money. 1 was dead tired and felt like a fool, but at +the same time i felt kinda good inside. 1 was still in the same boat, +but i was thirteen dollars richer and i had enough self-respect not to +let any old lecherous white man feel up and down my body. +1 had enough money altogether to rent a cheap hotel room. 1 +got my suitcase and checked into a hotel. 1 think it was the Hotel +Albert. After i had hung up my clothes and taken a shower, i +decided to get something to eat. Downstairs in the lobby, there was +this big, tall Black woman, dressed to kill. She had black hair with +silver streaks running through it, long false eyelashes and a lot of +makeup. +"Well, look at the baby !" she said, looking straight at me. "Pa­ +lease tell me how you wound up in this joint? Are you straight from +Alabama, dar-ling? Where are you going, honey?" +1 j ust looked at her. +"Do you speak, dar-ling? Can you talk? Where are you going, +honey?" +"I'm going out to eat," i said, a little wary. +"Where are you going to eat, love?" +"I don't know." +"Well, come with me, honey. We can eat together. I'm having a +starvation attack." +1 j ust stood there looking at her. +"Well, come on, love. You don't want me to die of malnutri­ +tion, now, do you ? Do you like Chinese food?" +"Yes," i told her, wondering why she was taking all of this +interest in me and wondering how she knew i was new at the hotel. +We walked around until we came to a Chinese restaurant. The +whole time she talked nonstop. Suddenly i remembered how little +money i had. 1 had intended to eat a hot dog or something. +"Look," i told her, "i don't have enough money to go in there. +This place looks expensive and i'm kinda on the broke side. Maybe +another time i'll come eat with you." +"Listen, love," she said, "I didn't drag you all this way to eat +alone. 1 hate to eat alone so you're just stuck with my company. It +looks like I'm gonna have to treat your broke ass to dinner." +1 was extremely grateful. Miss Shirley (that's what she called +herself) was one helluva talker. She sounded sophisticated and +country at the same time. She was from Georgia, but she had been +in New York for a long time. She had lived in the Village for a long +time, too, although she said she was a gypsy. 1 ordered something +like chop suey, the cheapest thing on the menu. + + "What is you tryin' to do, honey?" she said. "Make me sick ? +Look, you sit there with your ears open and let me do the order­ +ing." She ordered all this stuff and, when it came, we feasted. There +was so much we could barely finish it. +"That's better, honey. Now Mother can join the living." +The waiter came and asked if we wanted anything else. +"If I can't have you," Miss Shirley said with a wink, "I'd like +the check." +The waiter, a tall, thin Chinese man, blushed and hurried +away. This is one bold chick, i remember thinking. +"How long is your place rented for?" Miss Shirley asked. +"Until tomorrow." +"What are you going to do after that?" +"I'll find another job," i told her. Then i told her about my job +at the cafeteria. She laughed her head off. +"Well, honey," she asked me, "what in the hell are you running +from or what in the hell are you running to?" +I told her the sad tale about my mother in the hospital. +"Do you actually expect me to believe that mess ?" +I swore up and down that it was true. +"I ain't no fool, honey, and I been out in these streets long +enough to know that you running from something, and if you don't +want to tell me, that's your business. But I like you and I'll try to +help you if I can." I was grateful and i didn't know what to say so i +didn't say anything. +"Look, I've got this friend that works on Bleecker Street. He +wants to take some time off to hang out with his friend, but he +doesn't want to lose his job. You could work in his place until he +comes back." +"Fine," i said. I was down for anything-well, almost. We went +to the care and a skinny white dude came up to us. +"Sit down and rest yourselves. I'll be back in a minute." +We sat down at a little round table. +"You want some espresso ?" the guy asked. +"Sure," Miss Shirley said. He brought two little cups of black +stuff. I took one sip and thought i was gonna choke. Miss Shirley +cracked up. "Well, I can see that you're not initiated. I'm gonna +have to do something about your education." +I arranged to take the guy's job for four days and he showed +me what i had to do. "If you forget anything, or have any ques­ +tions, ask the sailor," he said, pointing to a man with tattoos up +and down his arms. I was to begin work the next afternoon at four. +I still didn't know how i was going to pay my rent at the hotel for + +ASSATA +I05 + + ASSATA +Io6 + +the next few days because i wouldn't be paid for my work at the +cafe until the guy came back from his vacation. I told Miss Shirley +what i was thinking. +"I'll talk to Freddie," she said, "and see if he'll let my good +friend have a little credit. If not, you can come up to my place and +sleep on the floor. We went back to the hotel and found Freddie. He +didn't want to give me any credit. Miss Shirley kept haggling. +"How much money do you have ?" she asked me. +"Fifteen dollars." +"Well, give me ten and I'll lend you the rest so you can rent a +room for a week." +I gave her the money and Freddie told me i had to move to +another room, which was fine with me. The room was tiny, but at +least it had a bathroom and i had somewhere to stay for the rest of +the week. I was grateful as hell for Miss Shirley. +"Well," she told me, "you get a good night's sleep. Mother has +to go to work." +"Where do you work ?" +"Anywhere I have to," she said. "Anywhere I can." +I was dog-tired and the bed was like an oasis. I woke up the +next afternoon. It was almost one o'clock. I took a shower, got +dressed, and went to find something to eat. Then i went back to the +hotel and knocked on Miss Shirley's door. She opened the door +with a razor in her hand. I almost fainted. She was shaving her face. +Miss Shirley was a man. When she saw my reaction, she fell out +laughing. +"You got a lot to learn, sugar. Ya got a lot to learn." We both +sat there laughing up a storm. Somehow, it was funny as hell. +I went to work early that afternoon. The job wasn't bad and i +could eat all i wanted, which meant i didn't have to buy dinner. The +tips weren't that much, but i'd be able to live on them until the guy +came back. +Any Black woman, practically anywhere in amerika, can tell +you about being approached, propositioned, and harassed by white +men. Many consider all Black women potential prostitutes. In the +Village, this phenomenon was ten times worse than elsewhere. It +was almost impossible to go from one corner to the next without +some white man hissing at you, following you, or jingling the +money in his pockets. One morning in the park, i met a couple, +about my age, from Harlem, who had run away from home and +were now living in a room in the Village. I told them that i had run +away, too, and we became instant comrades. We got into a discus­ +sion about how white men are always approaching Black women. + + "Yeah," they giggled, "but we got something for they ass." +"Yeah?" i asked. +"Yeah. We fix them right up." +"How?" i asked. Then they told me. The Murphy game was +their game. They told me how it worked and i fell out laughing. 1 +thought it was a brilliant scheme. +"You want to try it? 1 know them ofays'll dig you." +1 was anxious to try this new scheme because it was "big" +money and i would be able to pay Miss Shirley back and get a real +place of my own. The first night, after my job was over, i met Pat +and Ronnie in the park. Pat and i were the bait and Ronnie was the +protection. We were all to walk separately on different sides of the +street so that we could see each other. 1 had dressed up and put on +makeup to look older. About five minutes after we started walking, +a white man came up to me. He said he liked the way i walked and +wanted to take me someplace. +"I'm on my way to a party," i told him. "It's going to be a real +hot party." +"Yeah ? What kind of party is it going to be ?" +"What kind of party would you like it to be ?" +"A party for two," he said. +"I know a place where they've got some very nice private rooms +and they're not too expensive. It's a private club. You've gotta join +first." +"How much does it cost?" +"Fifteen for the room, fifteen to join the club, and fifteen for +the babysitter." +"You don't look old enough to have a kid." +"The babysitter's for my little sister." +We argued about the price. He thought it was too high. I kept +telling him how he was getting a deal and that, once he joined, he +would be a member for a year and could go there anytime he +wanted and get some action. Finally he agreed to pay. When we got +to the building, i told him to give me the money so i could go +upstairs and pay the people. +"By the way," i said, "would you tell me what kind of work you +do ? These people are very particular about who joins their club." +"I work for a bank." 1 could see from his face he was lying. +"I'll be right back. Don't you go nowhere." +1 ran up the stairs and opened the door to the roof. Carefully, i +closed it behind me. Then i went over about ten roofs until i came +to the one i was supposed to come down from. 1 tried the door. It +wouldn't budge. Somebody had locked it. 1 went to the next roof. + +ASSATA +I07 + + ASSATA +Io8 + +Luckily, the door opened. I ran down the stairs and came out +around the corner from where the man was standing. Hurriedly, i +walked to where i was supposed to meet Pat and Ronnie. +"How'd it go ?" they asked. +"Easy as pie," i answered. +"Okay, let's do another one." I was scared to try another one +because i was scared i would run into the man again. +"We can go up around 14th Street. We've got another building +staked out around there." +"Okay," i told them, "but let's check it out first." I explained +about the door that wouldn't open. We got to the new place, +checked it out, then went to 14th Street. In a matter of twenty +minutes Pat and i had each caught a fish. I was worried to death we +would bump into each other. I rushed my man to the building, got +the money, and hurried to the meeting place. I waited and waited. It +seemed like an eternity until they came. Pat had seen me with my +man and had the good sense to go to a different building than the +one I took my man to. We were all in high spirits. +"See how easy it is ?" Pat asked me. +"Yeah. It's a breeze." +We split up the money. We had each made $45. I rushed back +to the hotel. Miss Shirley was there and we went up to her room for +a drink. I felt like a millionaire. I had the money i had made +working in the cafe plus the $45 . I whipped out my bankroll and +paid Miss Shirley back. +"Now, girl, I know you ain't got no rich uncle. How'd you get +all that money?" +I told her everything. I thought i was so slick. +"Girl, is you crazy ? Do you know what one of these men will +do to you if they find you in the street? Girl, these people out in this +street don't give a damn about you. This street will eat your ass +alive. Honey, I know what I'm talking 'bout. You done run away, +ain't you?" +"Yeah," i told her. "I ran away." +"I knew it all the time. Well, honey, I can't make you go home. +If I tried, you'd only run away again, but you're wasting your time +and your life out here. These people don't care nothin' 'bout you. +All they want to do is suck your blood. You a smart girl. What you +need to do is go home and finish school." +"I'm never going home." +"Well, if you insist on staying out here in these streets, you +better start acting like you got some sense. Don't you never let +nobody use you and make a fool outta you. What if one of those + + men had been a crazy man and followed you upstairs ? What if the ASSATA +other door had been locked and you hadn't been able to get out? +I09 +Where was your so-called protection? You mean to tell me that you +gon risk your life for fifteen dollars ? Girl, this Village ain't nothin' +to play around with. They got some crazy mens around here that is +killing up young girls like you and one of 'em cuts their titties off. +Girl, as far as 1 can see, that young boy Ronnie don' wanna be +nothin' but a pimp. He ain't done one thing to earn that money. +You better start to use your head." +1 could see Miss Shirley knew what she was talkin' about. "But +what am i gonna do, Miss Shirley? You know how hard it is to find +a job." +"Don't worry, honey, I'll come up with something." +The next day when i went down to the lobby, Freddie was +behind the desk. "I hear you're lookin' for a job," he said. +"Uh-huh. " +"You know anything about bein' a barmaid?" +"No," i told him. +"Well, ya go over to this place, Tony'S, on 3rd Street and ask +for a guy named Chuck. Tell him i sent you." +"Thanks. Thanks a lot." 1 went over to Tony's and talked to +Chuck. "Do you have any openings?" i asked him. +"Sure, we always have openings for foxes like you." He +laughed. "Do you know the setup ?" +"No." +"Fifteen dollars a night and you get a quarter for each drink +and a dollar for each bottle of champagne." +1 looked at him blankly. +"Your job is to sit and look pretty and keep the customers +happy and buying. You work from eight in the evening to four in +the morning when the place closes. What you do after that is your +business. Just don't make any deals on the premises." +"Yes," i answered warily. +"Well, then, see you tonight." +When i got back to the hotel, i told Miss Shirley about my new +job. "All right, honey, but you be real careful. There are a whole lot +of crazy peoples 'round here. And you keep looking for a real job so +you can go to school at night. Now, come on upstairs and let me +show you how to put your face on. You look like a two-bit hoe." +At ten to eight i was at Tony's. Chuck was there and introduced +me to the barmaid. Her name was Joyce. "Come here for a minute, +honey," she told me and went to the end of the bar. 1 followed her. +"You like whiskey sours? " + + ASSATA +I IO + +"I guess so. I never had one. " +"Whatever you do, don't get drunk. I'm going to make your +drinks without the whiskey. If a customer come in and I know he's +the suspicious type, I'll make you a real one. If you want a drink +with the whiskey in it, just order with your hands folded. There's +not too much I can do about the champagne. I'll try to keep +pouring it into the man's glass. But it's not too bad and the bottles +are small. " +"Okay. Thanks." +I went to the bar and sat down. In a few minutes a couple of +white guys came in. They sat two seats down from me and kept +looking in my direction. +"Would you like a drink?" one said. +"Okay," i answered. +"What are you drinking?" +"A whiskey sour." And so began what seemed like a never­ +ending parade of whiskey-less whiskey sours. It got so that even the +smell of the stuff made me sick. Once in a while i would ask the +barmaid to put some whiskey in one, but i have never been much of +a drinker. +Most of the customers were white men who were looking for +some action. I found most of them to be crude, boring, and creepy. I +would sit there, making up different stories to tell them just to keep +myself amused. Another object of these stories was to get them to +spend as much money as possible. If i thought that the man would +go for a sob story and hand over some money, i would tell him a +real tearjerker. Other times i pretended to be a college girl going to +NYU. This made them less likely to be bold. When i played a +college girl, i usually said i was a math major because people never +know the first thing about math. One night, though, after i told this +guy my math major story, he asked me some questions about +integrals and imaginary numbers. I didn't have the faintest idea +what the guy was talking about. It turned out he taught math at +NYU. +"I know you're lying," he told me. +"Of course, i am. Who in the hell is going to be interested in +the life of a waitress?" +The guy broke out laughing. "That deserves a drink," he said. +"Bring the lady another drink. " After that, the guy (i called him +Mr. Math) came by every so often to hang out. He would buy +drinks and we would sit there cracking jokes. +"How's your thesis going?" he would ask. + + "Fine," i'd answer. "I'm doing a chronological study about the +social significance of two and two equaling four." +I had a few other regulars. Most of them came in to tell me +their troubles. They either had wife trouble or job trouble. Some +were drunks who just wanted somebody to drink with, and others +just liked the challenge of trying to seduce a young girl. +A lot of the other girls were prostitutes. The few who weren't +were either just out to make some extra money or they were +alcoholics. Most of the women were very nice and protective of me. +The prostitutes liked me because i was always sending them busi­ +ness and was always discreet about it. Soon i made friends with the +guys in the jazz quartet that worked there regularly. I've always +loved jazz and i would clap and shout and let them know i enjoyed +the music. The piano player and i became especially tight. I called +him my big brother and he was very protective of me. When the +place closed, he and maybe one or two of the group would walk me +home. If it was raining, he would send me home in a cab. Closing +time was the roughest time of all. Some of the men thought that +buying drinks entitled them to more than conversation. But Chuck +was a good bouncer and could spot a problem before it became +serious. If a guy was getting out of hand, Chuck would approach +him, tell him that i was the sister of one of the guys in the band and +that if he didn't treat me with respect, he would let him have it. +At times some real freaks and weirdos hung out there. There +was one guy who had bought the panties of almost every woman +who worked at Tony's, paying them each $15. I asked him what he +did with them. He laughed and told me he hung them on the walls +of his apartment. When i told one of the other girls, she laughed. +"Girl, you believe that? That guy takes them home and holds +them over his nose. He's a sniff freak." +But any woman at Tony's had to be careful. Some of the men +who came around were real dangerous. On nights when things +were slow and there were no customers in the place, the women +would tell horror stories about all the crazy men they had run into. +I was big for my age and well built and, with all the makeup i +wore, i could usually pass for eighteen. I told everybody i was +nineteen. The white people never questioned my age, but the Black +people would, sooner or later, realize i was younger than i let on. +Some of them even guessed i had run away and would take me to +the side and encourage me to go home. After a while, all the +women who worked at the place teased me about not having a +boyfriend. + +ASSATA +III + + ASSATA +I I2 + +"This girl don't like men and she don't like women. Here's a +girl that let's her fingers do the walking!" +When they teased me i wanted to crawl into a crack somewhere +and hide. The more embarrassed i became, the more they laughed. +A new bass player came to work for the band and i developed an +instant crush on him. I was convinced i was in love. In a short time, +everybody knew about my crush. But the bass player paid me no +mind at all. I did everything i could think of to attract his attention, +but he just ignored me. Near closing time, his white girlfriend +would come and they would leave together. I hated her. She looked +so smug. One weekday night, it was pouring rain outside and the +place was empty. The bass player said to me, "I'm writing a song for +you. You want to hear it? " I could have fainted. I was grinning from +ear to ear. +"Yes, i'd like to hear it." +Da da da ta ta da da de de. +Da da da ta ta da da de de de Jailbait! +Da da da ta ta da da de de, +Da da da ta ta da da de de de Jailbait!" + +The rest of the group chimed in, "Jailbait, jailbait," and the whole +place cracked up. I could have died right then and there. That was +the end of my crush. When i thought about it later, though, it was +funny. +A lot of the Black men that i met in the Village were hung up +on white women. Some of them would come right out and tell you, +"Man, i can't dig no spade chick. Gimme an ofay every day." When +i asked them why, they said white women are sweeter, Black women +are evil; white women are more understanding, Black women are +more demanding. One of the things that really infuriated me was +when they called Black women sapphire. "You know how you +nigga women are, sapphire, evil." A lot of these guys would have +trampled over my face just to get to a white woman. +At times, i really got sick of being around so many grown +people. I'd either sneak back into my oId neighborhood or hang +out with Pat and Ronnie. One night they were going to a party +uptown. I was dying to be with kids my own age, so i told Chuck i +was taking the night off. When we got to the party, it was dull and +tired, so Pat and Ronnie went off to find some reefer. They loved the +stuff, but i was scared of it. I waited and waited for them to get +back. I started to talk to a boy, who seemed really nice, about how +dull the party was. He said he knew of a boss party that was going + + to be happening later. I waited for Pat and Ronnie to come back, +but they never did. +"Why don't you come to the party with me ?" the boy asked. +"It's at my house and I'm sure you'll have a good time." +Finally i said i would go. He seemed so nice. He lived in some +projects near Spanish Harlem. When we got to his house, no one +was there. I started to leave, but he said his friends were all at a ball +game and they would be there afterward. In a little while, the +doorbell rang and, sure enough, all these people came in. After a +minute i noticed they were all boys. +"Excuse me," the boy said. Then they all went into another +room for a minute. When they returned they were whispering and +talking .under their breaths and i could tell that they were up to +something. +"Where are the girls ?" i asked. "Oh, they're coming." One +came and sat next to me. He put his hand on my leg. I moved it +away. +"Come on, baby, why you wanna act like that?" +"Come here, man," one of them said. I could sense that +something was wrong. I didn't know what they were up to, but i +knew they were up to something. I picked up my pocketbook and +my sweater. +"I'll have to be going." +"No, baby, you ain't goin' nowhere." +"I've got to go." I started walking toward the door. One of +them grabbed my arm and yanked me away from the door. +"Sit your ass down, bitch. We've got plans for you." +I knew it now. They were going to rape me. I had heard people +talking about "trains," but i had never thought it would happen to +me. I sat still for a minute. Then i made a wild break for the door. +They tried to grab me and i fought like hell. The fight didn't last +too long, though, because in a minute they had me held down on +the floor. They were pulling up my skirt and taking my blouse off. I +cried and screamed. +"Shut up, bitch," one of them said, slapping my face. I begged +them for mercy. I told them i was a virgin. +"There's always a first time, baby," someone sneered. I begged +and pleaded. I cried and cried. I couldn't believe they could be so +heartless. But they were. The boy who brought me there was +arguing with another boy about who would be first. I couldn't +believe it. It was a nightmare. They were arguing and carrying on as +if i wasn't even human, as if i was some kind of thing. I felt so scared + +ASSATA +I I3 + + ASSATA +I I4 + +and betrayed. I had trusted this boy. The argument between them +was heated. I hoped they would fight and kill each other. I kept +begging for mercy, pleading with them. They paid me no attention. +One of them came over to me as if he felt sorry for me. +"Don't worry, baby, it won't hurt. You'll see. You'll like it." +"Okay," i heard the boy who had brought me there say, "you +can go first, man," and the other boy started toward me. I jumped +up and tried to run, but i was cornered. One tried to grab me and, +in the process, he knocked over an ashtray. +"Be careful, man," said the boy whose house it was. "My +mother will kill me if the house gets messed up." +That was my cue. I picked up a vase and threw it at the wall. I +picked up a lamp and something else, crying and screaming at the +same time. +"You might get me, but i'm gonna mess up your mother's +house before you do." +The boy who was supposed to go first made a leap for me and +missed. I kicked over the table and knocked over a plant that was +on the stand. +"Get back ! Get back !" i screamed. +The boy whose house it was grabbed the boy who was sup­ +posed to go first. +"Come on, man, my mother will kill me." +"Get back! Get back!" i screamed. "I'm gonna throw this lamp +straight into that mirror." There was a big mirror hanging behind +the couch. "Get them out of here. Get them out of here or i'll fuck +this house up." I was shaking and crying, but i was serious as hell. I +was gonna mess that boy's house up so bad no one would recognize +it. "Get them out of here," i said, kicking the table over. +"Come on," the boy said. "Y'all got to get out of here. My +mother's gonna have a fit." +"You crazy bitch," one of them said to me. "Come on, let's +jump on her, man, she can't do that much damage." +"It's the man's house," one of the others said. "Come on, let's +go." +"Get 'em out of here," i screeched at the top of my lungs. +"That's okay," one of them said. "We'll wait for you outside, +baby." +Slowly, in what seemed forever, they left. Only the boy who +had brought me remained. I could see that he was trying to figure +out some way to j ump me. +"Don't come near me. You better stay back." I didn't know + + what i was gonna do next. They were all waiting for me outside. 1 +couldn't call the police because the police were looking for me. +"Get back," i told the boy who looked like he was trying to +ease up close to me. "All right, get away from the door." 1 still had +the lamp and something else in my hands. "Get back there," i told +him, indicating the back of the apartment, "or i'll smash your +house up." When he moved back i looked through the peephole. +There was nobody in the hallway. "They must be waiting down­ +stairs," i thought. "All right," i yelled, "get over by the door." He +moved to the door. "Now get out in the hallway and knock on one +of your neighbor's doors and bring a grownup back here." +"What?" +"You heard me, sucker. Now move." +"It wasn't my idea. 1 didn't want to do it. 1 had to." +"I don't want to hear that shit. Just get your ass out in that hall +or i'll mess up your house so bad your mother won't even think it's +her house." +"Please," the boy said. +"Please, my ass," i screamed. "If you don't get out there and +knock on one of those doors, you can forget about your mother's +house." +He went outside into the hallway. 1 slammed the door after +him and watched through the peephole as he knocked on a door. A +lady answered, and i opened the door and started begging her to +help me. +"Please, miss, help me. They're trying to get me," i screamed, +crying all over again. 1 still had the lamp in my hand. "Please walk +me downstairs to the subway or to a cab." +"What happened, honey?" she asked. +"They tried to do it to me," i cried. +The woman looked at me and then at the boy. "You wait there +for a minute, honey," she said. Then she and her husband came +out. "Don't worry, nothin's going to happen to you now." They +brought me downstairs and put me into a cab. +1 thought a lot about those boys after that night. 1 hated them, +but what i couldn't understand is why they hated me so much. +Everybody was always saying what a dog-eat-dog world it was. +There were all kinds of people in the world and most of them +seemed unhappy. Everybody seemed to be in their own bag and few +seemed to care about anybody else. 1 had read this play by Sartre. +The play ended with the conclusion that hell is other people, and, +for a while, i agreed. + +ASSATA + +I IS + + ASSATA + +II6 + +Back then, when i was growing up, boys gang-banging or +gang-raping a girl was a pretty common thing. They called it +pulling a train. It didn't happen to any particular kind of girl. It +happened to girls who were at the wrong place at the wrong time. +The boys talked about it like it was a joke or a game, like they were +"only" out to have some "fun." If a girl was caught on the wrong +side of a park or in the wrong territory or on the wrong street, she +was a target. It was a common thing back then for boys to down­ +grade girls and cuss at them in the street. It was common for them +to go to bed with girls and talk about them like dogs the next day. +It was common for boys to deny they were the fathers of their +babies. And it was common for boys to beat girls up and knock +them around. And then the girls would get hard too. +"If the nigga ain't got no money, 1 don't want to be bothered." +"If the nigga ain't got no car, then later for him." +The more i watched how boys and girls behaved, the more i +read and the more i thought about it, the more convinced i became +that this behavior could be traced directly back to the plantation, +when slaves were encouraged to take the misery of their lives out on +each other instead of on the master. The slavemasters taught us we +were ugly, less than human, unintelligent, and many of us believed +it. Black people became breeding animals: studs and mares. A +Black woman was fair game for anyone at any time: the master or a +visiting guest or any redneck who desired her. The slavemaster +would order her to have six with this stud, seven with that stud, for +the purpose of increasing his stock. She was considered less than a +woman. She was a cross between a whore and a workhorse. Black +men internalized the white man's opinion of Black women. And, if +you ask me, a lot of us still act like we're back on the plantation +with massa pulling the strings. +After my close call uptown, i became more skeptical of every­ +body. 1 was much more careful about the situations that i let myself +fall into. 1 would talk to the men at Tony's but, more and more, i +became "strickly business." The more i saw of street life, the uglier +it was. +One day, as i was walking down 8th Street, i saw one of my +aunt's friends. Her name was Abbie or Addie or something like that +and she was as big as a truck. 1 turned my head hoping she +wouldn't recognize me. +"Joey, Joey !" i heard her cry out. 1 kept walking. She kept +calling. 1 kept walking. Then i felt her grab my arm. +"I know you," she said. "You're Joey. Your aunt and your +mother are worried to death about you." + + "I don't know what you're talking about," i said. "My name is +Joyce and i don't know you or anyone else that you're talking +about." +"Come off it, Joey," she said. "You're not fooling me. Come +with me while I call your aunt." She had my arm in an iron grip. I +thought of making a run for it, but she was too big to play with. +She took me to some bar and told me to sit at the counter while she +made the call. As soon as she started dialing i made a beeline for +the door. She was right on top of me, grabbing me with that iron +grip. "You're not going anywhere until your aunt gets down here." +In half an hour, Evelyn was on the scene throwing questions at me +left and right. +"Where have you been ? What have you been doing? Where +have you been staying? What have you been doing for money? How +have you been eating?" she asked-and a million questions more. +When Evelyn questioned me, she sounded like a lawyer cross­ +examining a witness. In about an hour i had broken down and told +her everything. She demanded that i take her to the hotel where i +was staying. After i had packed my things, she told the guy behind +the desk, "Do you know that you've had a thirteen-year-old girl +staying here? I could have you prosecuted for contributing to the +delinquency of a minor." The guy looked at me like he j ust +couldn't believe it. I could have crawled under the floor. Then she +called up Tony's and told him the same thing. I was dying of +embarrassment, but in a way i was glad it was over. I was getting +tired of the streets. I was tired of being grown and i wanted to be a +kid again. + +ASSATA +II7 + + Chapter 7 + +II8 + +amau and i were acquitted in the +bank robbery trial in the Southern District of New +York on January 28, 1 973, and on the following day i +was returned to new jersey. When i arrived at the +morristown jail, there was a clump of reporters and +photographers standing around. Morristown looked +just like smalltown, usa. The jail was an ugly building +attached to the kourthouse. There were a few other +women in the jail and i was kept away from them. The +only time i saw them was when i was being taken to or +from my cell. They all appeared to be white, although +i found out later that one was Black. The guards were +all women, as old as the hills, and they had been +working at the jail for an eternity. +There was a television and a radio in the cell, and +it had been so long since i had been able to watch the +news on television or listen to a static-free radio sta­ +tion that i went crazy. And i had turned into a crochet +fiend. My poor mother was the unfortunate recipient +of my early "creations." Brave, devoted person that she +was, she thought they were pure genius. +We learned there were few, if any, Black jurors on +the panel for the new trial. The news was depressing. +The panel was selected from the voting rolls, and, since +candidates running for office seldom represent the in­ +terests of Black and poor people, Blacks and the poor +don't vote. But failing to vote means they don't sit on +juries. Any chance that we would receive something +even remotely resembling a fair trial was slim. We +decided to try to have the trial removed to federal +court. The chance of the feds taking over was slim, but +it was worth the try. If the trial was held in the federal + + kourt in Newark, at least we'd be assured of a few more Black jurors +on the jury panel. +There were countless joint legal meetings, countless strategy +sessions, and countless kourt appearances. My first look at the +Morris County jury panel flung me into a terrible depression. There +were only two or three Black jurors on each panel and they looked +like extras in a soap opera. As a matter of fact, the whole jury panel +looked like escapees from a soap opera. They dressed differently +and had a whole different air about them than New York people. +Morristown was supposed to be one of the ten richest counties in +the country, and, looking at these people, i believed it. 1 could just +see trying to explain to them what poor Black people in big cities +go through. How could they understand someone becoming a +Black revolutionary? They had so little to revolt against. They had +bought the amerikan dream lock, stock, and barrel and seemed +unaware that, for the majority of Black and Third World people, +the amerikan dream is the amerikan nightmare. +Evelyn and i had resolved our differences and she was back on +the case. She, Ray Brown, and Charles McKinney, Sundiata's law­ +yer, worked hard on the motion to remove the trial to federal kourt. +But after a hearing, the federal judge remanded the case back to the +state kourt. He hadn't even listened to our arguments. So we were +right back where we had started: picking a jury in Morris County. +Jury selection droned on tediously. Sundiata and i kept our­ +selves from falling asleep or from having nervous breakdowns by +laughing and talking. Just seeing Sundiata every day was such a +comfort to me. We made up all kinds of little games and jokes, +especially guessing the answers j urors would give to the trial +judge's questions. We got to be pretty good at it. We could look at a +person and pretty much know what he was going to say. Some +glared at us hatefully while they waited to be called, as if they +couldn't wait to give their opinion that we were guilty. They were so +sure of exactly what happened. They recited detail after detail from +newspapers and TV. +"Where were you hiding that night on the turnpike ?" i wanted +to scream at them. "I didn't see you!" +Others gave us crooked smiles in the hope that we would think +they sympathized with us and would leave them on the jury. But +there was not one bigot in the kourtroom. None of them said they +had any prejudice against Black people. +"Do you have any Black friends ?" the judge asked. +"Of course." But when asked if they had ever invited a Black +person to their homes or been to the home of a Black person, the + +ASSATA + +I I9 + + ASSATA +I20 + +answer was, invariably, no. On one panel, the judge asked every­ +body if they had ever called a Black person a nigger. They all said +no, except for one woman, who said, "Well, when I was a child, we +used to say 'Eeny, meeny, miny, mo, catch a nigger by the toe.' " +After that, a whole bunch of them said the same thing. Sometimes +their answers were so phony they were a joke. Except the joke was +on us. +One day, a man being questioned told the judge what he had +read about the case in newspapers and what he had heard on radio +and TV. He tried to make it seem that he had just incidentally +come across the news stories and that he had not really followed the +case or paid much attention to it. Further, he denied having been +affected by any of it. +"Have you ever read a book called Target Blue?" +Only a day or two before, the defense team had asked that that +question be included in the voir dire. Robert Daley, who at one time +was the public relations and publicity director for the New York +City Police Department, had written the book Target Blue. An +excerpt from the book was "coincidentally" printed in New York +magazine on almost the exact day our trial was to begin. One or +two chapters were about the Black Liberation Army. The book was +a collection of sensationalism, groundless accusations, and outright +lies. The few facts that were in those two chapters were distorted +beyond recognition. I was referred to by name. Daley implied that i +had been responsible for the deaths of numerous policemen. He +called me the "soul" of the Black Liberation Army, the "mother +hen" that "kept them fighting and kept them moving." According +to the book, i had also robbed numerous banks and blown up a +police car with a hand grenade during a police chase. +"Have you ever read Target Blue?" the judge asked. +"Er, er, yes." +Immediately the defense team submitted requests to the judge +that additional questions be asked. +"When did you read this book?" +"As a matter of fact, I'm reading it now." Not only had he been +reading the book, but he had it upstairs in the jury room. Although +the defense team asked for an investigation, the judge refused. It +was obvious the man had brought the book to court to show to the +other jurors and that they had discussed it. After a lot of arguments +made by our lawyers, the judge agreed to dismiss that juror and +others in the panel with whom he had been close. +One day i was informed that the nazi party was demonstrating +outside the court, marching up and down, complete with + + swastikas, b rown uniforms, and helmets. They carried "White +power," "Save our police," and "Death penalty" placards. Other +signs were printed with racist statements. Rumor spread that a +cross had been burned in front of the home of one of our support­ +ers. At the end of the day the nazis almost got into a fight with +some of the few Black residents in Morristown. +A lot of people don't know it, but they've got more nazis and +Ku Klux Klan in jersey than a little bit. Some of my friends call it +"up South." Lou Myers, who was later one of my lawyers on this +case, is from Mississippi. One day, in all earnestness, he told me he +would rather try a case in Mississippi any day than try one in jersey. +I couldn't understand it. I was growing weaker and weaker. My +energy seemed to have gone down the drain. All i wanted to do was +sleep. I chided myself for trying to escape from reality instead of +facing it. I had seen women in j ail sleep their whole time away. I was +afraid that was happening to me. I was so easily upset and reacted +to everything in an exaggerated manner. My nerves were terrible. +Every little thing affected me. All i did, all day, when there was no +kourt, was sleep, eat, watch television, and listen to the radio. I was +eating like food was going out of style. This also convinced me my +nerves were going bad. I have seen people in prison gain twenty, +thirty, forty, fifty pounds eating out of nerves and boredom. It gets +to the point when all you have to look forward to is the meals. And +that in itself is pitiful, because anyone who has ever been in prison +knows how terrible the food is. Yet i was gulping that stuff down +just like it was Mom's home cooking. +It wasn't until i sat down one day to do my exercises that i +really suspected what could be wrong. I could barely get through +ten sit-ups. Everything added up. I didn't dare hope, but, at the +same time, down deep inside, i knew. As sure as i knew my own +name, i knew that i was pregnant. But what was i to do next? I +knew i had to see the doctor, but what in the world was i going to +say? I had been in prison for eight months and it would really be +weird to say, " Hey, i think i'm pregnant." I wanted to know for sure +whether i was or not, but if i wasn't i didn't want the doctor to +know my business. Because if i was, it would be only a matter of +time before the whole world would know. +First thing the next morning, i saw the prison doctor. I told +him all my symptoms, dropping hint after hint. He told me there +was nothing to worry about, that i was j ust constipated. +As time wore on, it became harder and harder to wake up in +the morning. When the guards came to wake me for kourt, i would + +ASSATA +I2I + + ASSATA + +I22 + +simply roll over and continue sleeping. They did everything to get +me out of bed. They called. They threatened. They banged on the +bars and anything else they could think of. +"Just don't come in this cell," i would tell them, feeling evil as +the day is long. "You come in here and you put your hands on me +and i'ma take your head right offa your shoulders." They must have +known i meant it because they kept their distance until i was awake. +I didn't care what they thought or said as long as they didn't put +their hands on me. I wanted them to leave me alone. All i wanted to +do was sleep. +I walked into kourt whenever i got up, no matter what time it +was. The judge would go on and on about my lateness and admon­ +ish my lawyers for not having me in kourt on time, but it was +hopeless. I didn't care what the judge said, what the guards said, or +what anybody said. All i wanted to do was sleep. +I told Sundiata and one or two of the lawyers that i thought i +was pregnant. They looked at me blankly, puzzled, as if i had an +overactive imagination. Each day i felt more and more weird. I felt +fragile and sick. I went back to the prison doctor, dropping more +and more hints. I repeated my symptoms. Queasy stomach, stom­ +ach getting bigger, sick in the mornings, sleep all the time, etc. But +he still didn't get the message and kept telling me this stuff about +an intestinal disorder. I didn't know what to do next. +One day i woke up and could hardly move. I was sick as a dog +and dizzy to boot. I got up for a minute, then sank back down on +the cot, holding onto it for dear life. They called the prison doctor. +I repeated the symptoms again, and this time he ordered some tests. +He asked for a urine specimen. I was sure he had sent for a +pregnancy test. I waited a few days and heard nothing. Then the +nurse came and asked me for more urine. I was certain this meant +the pregnancy test was positive and they were retesting just to be +sure. I gave her the urine sample and waited. +When the doctor called me to his office, i knew he was going +to tell me i was pregnant. Instead, he was smug and acted really on +the stupid side. He kept making snide little remarks and i could tell +he was trying to make fun of me. I asked him what was wrong with +me and he repeated the same old stuff about a bowel disorder. +Then he asked me some questions about my sex life. +"Ask your momma about her sex life," i said and went out of +his office, slamming the door. Later that day, Ray Brown and Evelyn +came to see me. Ray was in a jovial mood, laughing his head off. +"Well, you've really done it this time. I don't know what we're + + going to do with you. His honor is going to give you a strong +reprimand for getting pregnant during his trial. " +"You mean i'm really pregnant?" +"It was in the doctor's report to the judge. Didn't you know ?" +"No," i told him. "I was j ust in that slimy bastard's office this +morning and he told me that i had something wrong with my +intestines. +"He's pulling your leg," Ray said. "They did two or three +pregnancy tests on you and they all came back positive. You're +pregnant, all right. I can't believe it." +Evelyn was in a state of shock. "It's something," she said. Then +she looked into space for a long time. "It's something. " +"Judge Bachman's having a fit," Ray said. "I hear the FBI is +going to conduct an investigation to determine how you got preg­ +nant. " +"Well, they better not try to come 'round me asking no ques­ +tions," i told them. "I'll tell them that this baby was sent by the +Black creator to liberate Black people. I'll tell 'em that this baby is +the new Black messiah, conceived in a holy way, come to lead our +people to freedom and justice and to create a new Black nation." +Sundiata and McKinney had joined us. Sundiata was elated. +He couldn't get over it. He sat there grinning and slapping his knee. +"I think it's beautiful," he kept saying. "I think it's absolutely +beautiful." Everyone was in a j ubilant mood. I was glad. I hadn't +known how they would react. +"It's amazing," Evelyn said. "Out of all this misery a new life is +conceived." +I was caught up in the mood, but i couldn't wait to get off +alone in my cell to think about this. What had seemed like a remote +dream was coming true. A baby. My mind was jumping and +dancing. +I spent the next few days in a virtual daze. A joyous daze. A +person was inside of me. Someone who was going to grow up to +walk and talk, to love and laugh. To me it was the miracle of all +miracles. And deeply spiritual. The odds against this baby being +conceived were so great it boggled my mind. And yet it was happen­ +ing. It seemed so right, so beautiful, in surroundings that were so +ugly. I was filled with emotion. Already, i was deeply in love with +this child. Already, i talked to it and worried about it and wondered +how it was feeling and what it was thinking. I would lie in my cell +wondering about his or her life, wondering what kind of life it +would have. What kind of people it would love, what kind of values + +ASSATA + +I23 + + ASSATA +I24 + +it would have, and what it would think of all the madness that +would surround it. Sometimes i felt so helplessly protective, won­ +dering when my baby would be called nigger for the first time, +wondering when the full horror and degradation of being Black in +amerika would descend on my baby. How many wolves hid behind +the bushes to eat my child ? +But there were s o many happy things that i thought about, +too. I wondered when would be the first time my child would sit +down and seriously appreciate the glory of a sunset and marvel at +the wonders of nature. Or when he or she would smack lips and +lick fingers over a sweet potato pie, or kiss strawberries and drink +lemonade. It has always intrigued me how the world can be so +beautiful and so ugly at the same time. I wanted, with all my being, +for my baby to experience the many types and sides of love and +friendship and to know and understand selflessness and generosity, +struggle and sacrifice, honesty, courage, and so many of the senti­ +ments that have given me strength and have made my life worth +living. In these days, i was in such a state of sensitivity and thought +that i barely noticed what was going on around me. +The next time my mother came to see me, my sister was with +her. I was so happy to see them both. When i say "see," it is +something of an overstatement, because in morristown j ail there are +little windows that you and your visitors peek through, and there +are little holes through which you are supposed to talk, but to +make yourself heard you are obliged to shout. +"Honey, you look pale," my mother shouted. +"Mommy, i 'm pregnant." +"What is it, honey?" +"I'm pregnant, Mommy." +My mother smiled blandly. I repeated myself and she began to +laugh. "How many months are you?" +"No, seriously, Mommy, i'm pregnant." +"Well, so am I," my mother said, this time laughing heartily. "I +think it was my hysterectomy that caused it." +"No, Mommy," i pleaded. "You don't understand. I'm preg­ +nant. I'm not j oking." +"Who's joking, honey? Pregnancy is a serious matter," she +said, trying to keep a straight face, "especially when the baby is +born under immaculate conception and god is the father." She and +my sister were having a giggling fit. "What are you going to name +the baby?" my sister added. "Jesus?" +They just carried on. The more i insisted i was pregnant, the + + more they laughed and cracked jokes. But, finally, my mother +stopped laughing. +"Are you really pregnant?" +I told her that it happened in the kourt and that Kamau was +the father. +"How do you feel ? " +"Actually, kind of funny," i told her. " I can barely move and +i'm just so tired. " +I n the visiting room on the prisoners' side, there were no +chairs, so you had to stand up and talk. I was so tired, i just +couldn't stand any longer. I sat down on the floor, leaning on the +wall behind me so that they could see me. I couldn't see them, but +we shouted to each other until the visit was over. I went up to my +cell after the visit ended and immediately fell out. My mother went +to the warden to complain about their refusal to provide chairs. +The next day Evelyn came to see me. "Your mother called me +last night all the way from Morristown, as soon as she left you. She +was worried to death that, with all you've been through, you'd +finally been driven crazy. I told her not to worry, that you are, in +fact, pregnant. I think she's in a state of shock. So's your sister. It's +all over the papers. I brought them for you." +I couldn't believe it. Sure enough, there were the articles. The +one in the New York Daily News, i remember, was especially +sordid. All of the papers speculated about who the father was and +how i had managed to become pregnant in jail. One of them hinted +that a prison guard was the father. +"I'm sick, Auntie, i feel awful." +"Well, that's what happens when you 're pregnant. You get +morning sickness and all sorts of other strange ailments. It's only +normal." +"Maybe you're right, but i'm having these pains down here," i +told her, pointing to where the pains were. "And i can barely stand +up." +She told me to go see the doctor and i told her how the doctor +had acted. +"Well, go see him anyway, and have him examine you thor­ +oughly. Meanwhile, I'll try to have you seen by a private gynecolo­ +gist as soon as possible. I'll probably have to go to court. " +She promised that she would do all that she could to get an +outside doctor, and i went upstairs to see the jail doctor. +"Why did you lie to me and tell me all that junk about a bowel +disorder?" was the first thing i asked him. + +ASSATA + +I2 5 + + ASSATA +I26 + +"Well, you lied. I just figured I'd get back at you. Anyway, you +found out, like I knew you would." +I told him about my pains and he examined me. +"What's wrong?" i asked, anxiously. +"There's a chance you're threatening to abort." +"What? " i practically screamed. +"There's a chance that you're going to abort." +"I don't want no abortion," i cried out. +"It's probably the best course you could take now, and I'd +recommend it. But that's not what I was talking about. I said that +there was a chance you could spontaneously abort, have a miscar­ +riage." +"Oh no ! " i moaned. "What are you going to do ?" +"Relax. It's probably nothing serious. It's nothing much to +worry about. " +"What do you mean, nothing much to worry about. I want this +baby. " +"Well, I can't force you to d o anything, but m y advice i s to +have an abortion. It will be better for you and for everyone else." +"I don't want nobody's abortion. But what are you going to do +about this miscarriage thing? Isn't there something you can give me +to keep me from having a miscarriage ? Isn't there something that i +can take to make sure i don't lose this baby?" +"No. There's nothing I can do now. We have to wait and see +what happens." +"What do you mean, wait and see what happens ? If i have a +miscarriage, then it will be too late. Can't you call a gynecologist ?" +"No. There's nothing I can do right now. " +"You mean there's nothing you will do right now, don't you ?" +"Take i t any way you want to." +"Won't you at least call a gynecologist in to see me? You're not +a specialist in this area." +"I don't need you to tell me what my specialties are," he said +angrily. "It would be best for everybody concerned if you have an +abortion, no matter which way you have it." +"Just who is everybody concerned ?" +"Don't you worry about it. My advice to you is that you +should go to your cell and lie down. Just lie down and rest your +mind. Just lie down and stay off your feet. And if you go to the +bathroom and see a lump in the toilet, don't flush it. It's your +baby. " +I raced out of his office and, when i got t o m y cell, i lay o n the +cot crying. I was worried to death. As far as i could see, they were + + out to kill my baby. I couldn't lose this baby now, not now. It was +meant to be; this baby was our hope. Our hope for the future. I +tried to calm myself. I didn't want the baby to feel my anguish. +Finally, i fell asleep. +The next morning, i waited anxiously for Evelyn and Ray +Brown. Ray came first. I told him what had happened. +"Please," i begged, "get a doctor we can trust to see me today." +"I'll try to get one as soon as I can," Ray assured me. "I'll have +to make some phone calls and then I've got to talk to the j udge. +He's having a fit, you know. He wants to resume the trial today. +Don't worry, everything is going to be all right." +Ray and Evelyn came back in about an hour. "Don't worry," +they told me, "the trial has been postponed until there is a report +from our doctor. The j udge has permitted you to be examined by +your own gynecologist, and he's coming this afternoon, so cheer +up." They did their best to take my mind off everything and to +make me feel better. That day i felt worse than ever before. +"Is the doctor Black ?" +"No, he's a Ku Klux Klan doctor," Ray Brown joked. I felt like +my insides were going to drop out on the floor at any minute. Ray +went outside to meet the doctor and came back followed by a tall, +brown-skinned man. The man sure as hell didn't look like no +doctor. He looked like Mr. Superfly himself. He had on a long fur +coat, a j umpsuit, and platform shoes. But when i looked into his +face, i was reassured. He was kind and very self-assured. He was +gentle when he examined me and i was truly grateful. He asked a +whole lot of questions in a careful, painstaking manner. I was really +impressed. +"Would you tell me your name again?" i asked him, ashamed +that i had forgotten it. +"Sure. That's an easy order. Ernest Wyman Garrett." He prac­ +ticed in Newark and there was an air of Newark about him. I liked +him instantly. He was one of those rare breed of Black professionals +who haven't lost contact with the masses of Black people. He didn't +have one trace of the affected bourgie speech and mannerisms that +are so popular among the Black middle class. +I waited nervously for the verdict. "There's no doubt about it. +You're pregnant. But I found blood in the vaginal canal, which can +be a sign that something is wrong. There's a possibility that you are +threatening to abort. This doesn't mean that you are going to have a +miscarriage. The chances are good that you won't. The odds and +medical statistics are in your favor. +He explained the different possibilities and the treatment he + +ASSATA + +I2 7 + + ASSATA +I28 + +was prescribing. I asked a million questions and, when he left, felt a +whole lot better, just knowing there was someone i could trust +taking care of me and the baby. +The days that followed are blurry in my mind. Most of the time +i slept. The warden and the sheriff and the powers that were didn't +like the idea of my having my own doctor, though. In their minds, +the butcher, jailhouse-quackhouse doctor was good enough for me. +And the fact that Dr. Garrett was Black infuriated them. They +refused to let him examine me unless a white doctor, hired by the +state, was present, and for the report to the judge, the white doctor +had to examine me. Fortunately, he agreed with my doctor's find­ +ings. There was a lot of activity going on around me that I didn't +understand. I was too out of it to try. I could see, though, that +Evelyn and Ray were worried. I wanted to help them, to get to the +bottom of what was happening, but i just didn't have the energy. +About two days after his first visit, Dr. Garrett came to visit +me. When he finished examining me, he said, "Assata, I don't want +to worry you, but I think you should be hospitalized. It's nothing +serious, strictly a precautionary measure. You're in no condition to +proceed with a trial. You need a few weeks of complete bedrest. +There is a possibility the judge will try to push you into that trial +right away, without regard for your medical condition. Assata, there +is no way we are going to let that happen. I am prepared to fight all +the way for your right as a human being to receive decent medical +care and for your baby to be born healthy. I'm doing the same for +you as I would for any other patient. You should be hospitalized. +There isn't a responsible doctor in the world who wouldn't agree +with that opinion. And I'm prepared to testify in any court that to +deny you proper medical care would be tantamount to committing +murder. I will be going, in a very short time, to give a medical +report about your condition to the judge. I will do my best to +convince him of the seriousness of this matter. I think he'll listen to +reason. I'm sure the judge will go along with the findings of two +board-certified gynecologists. But if worse comes to worst, and the +judge denies our motion, I will see to it personally that this j ail and +the courtroom are surrounded by the right-to-life people by tomor­ +row morning." +I was too shot out to say much more than thank you. I was +scared to death for my baby, but i knew that everything that could +be done was being done and that was a load off my mind. I got +dressed and waited for them to come and take me to kourt. I +wanted to hear what was going on. When they didn't come for me, i +became worried. What was going on ? Why weren't they bringing + + me to kourt? Why were they taking so long? What were they going +to do ? Were they going to try to make me go to trial like this ? What +were they planning to do? +Evelyn and Ray came in strutting and beaming. I knew every­ +thing was going to be all right. "What happened? Why didn't they +bring me to kourt?" +"You're too sick to go to court." Evelyn laughed. "Haven't you +heard that they don't let pregnant women into court? They figure +it's a disease and are afraid everybody will catch it. We felt it was +much better for you not to be moved. It went fine. They'll be taking +you to a hospital as soon as they can make the arrangements. Dr. +Garrett did a great job. After that speech, there was no way the +judge was gonna force you to go to trial in your condition. The trial +has been severed and Sundiata will go on with the trial alone." +"What?" i exclaimed. "But we had agreed that we would be +tried together. Why can't they wait until i'm better?" +"Now, Assata, you know they're not gonna wait for you to +have your baby to try Sundiata. They claim that being here in +Morristown is costing them a fortune." +"It will be cheaper to try us together," i said. "Well, can't i at +least see Sundiata and say good-bye to him?" +"We'll try," they said, "but we doubt if there will be time or if +the sheriff will consent to it." +"I'm going to miss Sundiata." +"Yes. We know. " +Later they put me on a stretcher and wheeled me into an +ambulance. "Don't worry," i told the baby, "you're gonna be all +right. " + +ASSATA + +I29 + + ASSATA + +I3 0 + +LOVE + +Love is contraband in Hell, +cause love is an acid +that eats away bars. +But you, me, and tomorrow +hold hands and make vows +that struggle will multiply. +The hacksaw has two blades. +The shotgun has two barrels. +We are pregnant with freedom. +We are a conspiracy. + + Chapter 8 + +fter the Village, i lived with +Evelyn on 80th Street between Amsterdam and Co­ +lumbus in Manhattan. She had a garden apartment in +a brownstone. Nothing grew in the garden but weeds, +and it was where our neighbors threw their garbage. +The apartment was one big room that we used for +sleeping, eating, and living; it had a kitchen and a +bathroom with an old-fashioned toilet up on a plat­ +form and an overhead tank so that you had to pull on +a little chain to flush it. Evelyn always referred to it as +the dump. She had it fixed up nicely, but it was just too +small for two people, especially if one of them was me. +I was a slob, and Evelyn went to great pains to train +me in neatness. In a small place like that, when just a +few things are out of place it looks like a hurricane +passed through. And many times after a long day's +work, poor Evelyn would be greeted with a hurricane, +a tornado, and an earthquake at the same time. Grad­ +ually, i learned to keep things in something vaguely +resembling order. +The neighborhood, for me, was exciting, full of +character and different flavors. Central Park and +Riverside Park were nearby, and i immediately fell in +love with both of them. Then, also, there were plenty +of museums nearby; i spent hour upon hour in the +Museum of Natural History chld the Metropolitan +Museum of Art. They were free then, and full of fas­ +cinating things. There were all kinds of stores for me +to explore and examine, even though most of the time +i didn't have any money. I was delighted with it all. +And it was my first clear glimpse of the hierarchy of +amerikan society. +Eightieth Street, like many of the nearby streets, + +I3 I + + ASSATA + +I) 2 + +was changing. Most of the changing, however, had taken place +before i got there. Most of the Germans had moved out and Blacks +and Puerto Ricans were moving in. Evelyn told me that when she +moved there it was so safe she had slept, in the summer, with the +back door open and just the screen door latched. On 80th Street +there might be three, four, five, or more people huddled into a one­ +room apartment. Sometimes the apartments were rented furnished +with nothing but an old saggy bed, a chest of drawers, and a beat­ +up refrigerator and stove. You could usually tell them from the +outside by the paper-thin plastic curtains shimmying in the wind. +Most of the people on 8 0th Street were poor, although here and +there were a few renovated apartments that catered to a clientele +that was a little richer, usually "night people." +Seventy-ninth Street was directly behind us, but there was a +world of difference between the two . It was an upper-middle-class +street. Doctors and lawyers and a lot of performers lived there. +Every day after school, i would hear an opera singer practicing. +Maybe that's why i developed a profound dislike for opera. The +people on 79th Street wouldn't dream of socializing with the +people on 80th Street. They recognized our existence with a mix­ +ture of amusement, fear, and dislike. Eighty-first Street between +Central Park West and Columbus Avenue was even richer. The +lobbies were elegant and the doormen were splendidly attired. They +were, for the most part, all white and not even slightly aware of the +people who lived only a block away. +Farther over, toward the river, near West End Avenue or River­ +side Drive, there was a middle-class neighborhood. The buildings +were usually old, grandiose, and well kept. The people who lived +there were mostly white, of course, with a few Blacks and mixed +couples thrown in. The Upper West Side, as the neighborhood was +called, was supposed to be a "liberal" stronghold. I have never +really understood exactly what a "liberal" is, though, since i have +heard "liberals" express every conceivable opinion on every conceiv­ +able subject. As far as i can tell, you have the extreme right, who are +fascist, racist capitalist dogs like Ronald Reagan, who come right +out and let you know where they're coming from. And on the +opposite end, you have the left, who are supposed to be committed +to justice, equality, and human rights. And somewhere between +those two points is the liberal. As far as i'm concerned, "liberal" is +the most meaningless word in the dictionary. History has shown +me that as long as some white middle-class people can live high on +the hog, take vacations to Europe, send their children to private +schools, and reap the benefits of their white skin privileges, then + +'" + + they are "liberals." But when times get hard and money gets tight, +they pull off that liberal mask and you think you're talking to Adolf +Hitler. They feel sorry for the so-called underprivileged just as long +as they can maintain their own privileges. +Sometimes i walked over to the East Side, on the other side of +Central Park. If Riverside Drive was like another city, then the East +Side was like another world. English nannies pushed fancy baby +carriages (they called them trams) through the eastern side of +Central Park. The only Black people you saw were servants or, like +me, those just passing through. Fifth Avenue, Park Avenue, chauf­ +feur-driven cars, diamonds, and furs. The Upper East Side was for +the sho nuff rich. When i'd walk through those streets, some +looked at me as if i was an object from a museum or something. +Once or twice, a doorman actually stopped me and asked where i +was going. But i kept walking and looking. Sometimes, i'd have +some fun and walk into one of the stores. I couldn't believe there +were people who paid that kind of money for things. As soon as i'd +step in, the salespeople were right on me. Sometimes i said i was +just looking. Other times i would ask for outrageous things, like +pickled feet. Usually, they would say, "What? What? What?" and i +would burst out laughing. One time, i went into a grocery store and +was asked who my mistress was. +I was always crazy about art and made it a point to visit any +art gallery i discovered. Sometimes they acted snooty or disgusted. +At first, i felt uneasy and out of place. But after a while, whenever +they acted disgusted, i made a point of asking the price of each +piece. They would turn so red and swell up so much that it was +comical. I remember hating some of those people, but at the same +time i wanted to be rich like them. Back then, i thought being rich +was the solution to everything. +Four blocks from where we lived, there was still another world: +84th Street between Amsterdam and Columbus. Before it was torn +down, it was voted the worst block in the city. When i was a kid, i +never would have imagined that people could live so bad. Living in +some of those apartments was like living in a coffin. I swear, there +was one building that, when you walked past it in the summer, it +stunk so bad it made you want to drop to your knees. Usually, i'd +just sit on some stoop and watch the street. There was always +something going on. Men standing around with do-rags on their +" +heads, covering greasy process hairdos, making deals, laughing and +talking and looking at the women passing by. Drunks and fights +and drunken fights. The street was always alive and swarming with +people. Survival and life were hanging out in the open like laundry + +ASSATA +I3 3 + + ASSATA + +I3 4 + +for everyone to see. Arguments, dirty deals, misery, and malice ran +out into the streets like pus from open sores. There was something +horrible and foreboding about the street, yet exciting at the same +time. +Lil-Bit, who went to my school, lived on 84th Street. Her +nickname was Lil-Bit, but i called her Fruit-fly because she was +crazy about fruit. I liked to hang out with her because she was a +good walker; we could walk for hours without getting tired. One +day she asked me to come with her to get something from her +house. When we got there i couldn't believe it. I thought i had seen +some messed-up cribs before, but hers took the cake. She lived in a +tiny little pea-green closet of a room, covered with wall-to-wall +roaches. I just kept staring at Lil-Bit. She walked around in that +horror house like it was normal. She didn't even try to kill the +roaches. She just brushed them aside if they got in her way. When i +left, i itched and scratched for hours. +When i met Lil-Bit's mother and started getting to know her +and some of her neighbors, i got my first lesson in hopelessness. +Lil-Bit's mother used to work in factories and laundries as a presser. +But she burned her hand real bad and was on some kind of +disability. She lived from day to day and from check to check. She +was always sick, and sometimes her cough was so bad i thought she +was going to die any minute. She acted like she was too tired or too +weak to do much of anything. They had a hot plate, but most of the +time they didn't even cook. They just ate sandwiches, usually lunch +meat on white bread. Lil-Bit's mother never went anywhere except +to the clinic or to the welfare office or to the bar on Amsterdam. +Sometimes she would get drunk and start crying about some man +she used to go with. She didn't know anything about what was +going on in the world and she didn't seem to care. Eighty-fourth +Street was her world and other worlds didn't really exist. When i +was with Lil-bit and her mother i felt all kinds of things. Sometimes +disgust and anger because they accepted anything and lived any old +kind of way. Other times i felt sorry for them, and, still other times, +i relaxed and enjoyed them because they were so easy and down to +earth. But whenever i hung out with them it was down on the +stoop. I would never go up into that house. +Evelyn kept my excursions at a bare minimum, though. She +was strict and didn't play around. Every day, after school, i had to +be in the house by four o'clock, and she would call home just to see +that i had arrived safely. Evelyn didn't want me in the street too +much because she said the neighborhood was bad and she didn't +want me to get in any trouble. And she also wanted me to stay at + + home and do my homework. After homework, i read. I have never +been too fond of television and, besides, Evelyn had an excellent +library. Those books were like food to me. Fiction and poetry were +my favorites, although i liked history and psychology, too. I also +liked to read about other countries and about all the different +religions in the world. The only books i never touched were +Evelyn's law books. They were dry and boring and Greek to me. +Evelyn was a store of knowledge and she knew about a whole +range of subjects. We were always discussing or debating some­ +thing. Hanging out with Evelyn, i started to think that i was cool +and sophisticated and grown up and that i knew it all. You couldn't +tell me nothing. I was just too cool. Evelyn and i went to museums +and art galleries and the theater. On Broadway, off Broadway, she +was turning me on to so many things. I started to view movies as an +art form instead of just entertainment. I was learning what and how +to order at restaurants. And my vocabulary and control of the +English language were expanding greatly. +But life with Evelyn definitely had its ups and downs. Some­ +times we got along famously and other times it was terrible. Evelyn +was super-honest and she just could not tolerate my lying. I would +try to tell the truth and try to be honest, but sometimes, especially +if i was in a tight situation, i would lie. I had been in the habit of +lying and it was easy for me to fall back into the old pattern. But it +was futile to lie to Evelyn because she was a lawyer and would +cross-examine me until i would inevitably trip myself up. Little by +little, i got out of the habit, but it was a long and constant battle +between us. +Our financial situation also had its ups and downs. One week +we were "rich" and the next week we were "poor." Evelyn was +determined to be a trial lawyer and to be in private practice. Most +of her clients were Black and poor and most of the time they didn't +have money to pay her. But Evelyn would defend them anyway. She +was always up in arms about some injustice or other. I used to call +her the "last angry woman." But whenever somebody did pay her, +we were "rich." We would go out and celebrate. For a week or so +we ate steaks and lamb chops, went to restaurants, took taxis; the +next week we would be right back to riding subways and eating +hamburgers. Evelyn was generous and extravagant, and she had +absolutely no head for business. I usually did the shopping for us +since i was more tight-fisted and practical. Once in a whil;, i'd be +tempted to give myself a "five-finger discount," but Evelyn was so +honest that it rubbed off on me. I was becoming so goody-goody i +couldn't stand myself. I really underwent a great change. + +ASSATA +I3 5 + + ASSATA + +I3 6 + +Evelyn had great plans for my future. I was going to Junior +High School 44, but Evelyn wasn't satisfied with the education i +was receiving. J. H. S. 44 wasn't a bad school, but we were learning +at a much slower pace than at my school in Queens. I don't +remember too much about the school except for the music classes. +Most of the class was Black or Puerto Rican and we all loved music. +But we hated music class with a passion. The teacher talked to us as +though we were inferior savages, incapable of appreciating the finer +things in life. She lectured about symphonies and concertos and +sonatas and the like in a snooty voice. A boy would mimic the +gestures and expressions of the teacher and the rest of us would +giggle and snicker as she played music. The teacher became more +and more exasperated, saying, "Listen ! Can't you listen ? Don't you +have ears? Can't you appreciate anything? I'm trying to get you to +appreciate music and you all act as though you're deaf. I want you +to stop talking! I want you to stop talking and listen ! Do you hear +me ? " We got louder and louder and the teacher became more and +more disgusted. She would scream at us and call us names like +hooligans and ignoramuses. And we returned her insults. +We hated her because she thought the music she liked was so +superior. She didn't recognize that we had our own music and that +we loved music. For her, there was no other music except Bach and +Beethoven and Mozart. To her, we were uncultured and uncouth. +For her, Latin music, jazz, rhythm and blues were trashy and we +were trash. She was a racist who would have denied it to the bitter +end. A lot of people don't know how many ways racism can +manifest itself and in how many ways people fight against it. When +i think of how racist, how Eurocentric our so-called education in +amerika is, it staggers my mind. And when i think back to some of +those kids who were labeled "troublemakers" and "problem stu­ +dents," i realize that many of them were unsung heroes who fought +to maintain some sense of dignity and self-worth. +Evelyn strongly "suggested" that i enter Cathedral High +School in the ninth grade. I was not at all happy about the idea +since i hated wearing a uniform and Catholic schools had a reputa­ +tion for being so strict. But Evelyn kept on strongly suggesting and +i got the message. I didn't mind the Catholic religious part of it, +though, since i was going to mass regularly and i was kind of holy, +holy that year. I took the test for Cathedral and passed, and it was +firm that i was going to enter Cathedral the next September. I even +started to feel happy about it. It was a change and i have always +been a person who likes a change of scenery. +I usually spent my weekends with one of my girlfriends or + + with my mother as much as possible. Toni was cool to hang out +with and she knew where all the parties were. But we never had +deep conversations so we never got really close. Bonnie and i met +through Toni and began what was to be a best-friend relationship +with an argument about Abraham Lincoln. We argued for hours +until Bonnie's aunt told us to shut up and go to bed, since neither +of us knew what we were talking about. Bonnie lived in the same +building my mother lived in, and after that night we became close +friends and talked about every subject on earth. Bonnie knew more +than i did about what was happening in the world and we spent +hours talking about Medgar Evers, sit-ins, freedom riders, etc. We +began to write poetry about love and Black people, and sometimes +we wrote morbid poetry about hate and death. As soon as we +finished a poem we'd call each other and read it. After a while, we +read poetry together. Dorothy Parker and Edna St. Vincent Millay +were our idols. We read everything they wrote and even memorized +their poems. After that, we read all different kinds of poets. We +were "deep" and were forever in the library or a bookstore trying to +find another poet who was "deep," too. The more we read, the +more we wrote. And it came in handy in the street. If we didn't like +somebody, or if we had some dispute with someone, we wrote a +poem about them. We made up all kinds of "dozens" poems and +laughed our heads off. We were young and old, happy and sad at +the same time. +Usually, every summer, i went down South to visit my grand­ +parents. When they had the business on the beach, i loved it. But +they had lost two different buildings on the beach, both destroyed +by hurricanes. After the last one was leveled, they operated a +restaurant on Red Cross Street. I liked working in the restaurant +sometimes, but it wasn't as much fun as working on the beach. +One of the last summers that i spent down South, the NAACP +rented a building a few doors from my grandparents' restaurant, +which was a great source of interest to me. I was forever walking by, +standing in the doorway, or sliding discreetly into the building to +see what was going on. I could hear them talk about integrating the +South by sitting in, praying in, singing in, and about nonviolence. I +was glad because i surely wanted segregation to end. I had grown +up exposed to the degrading, dehumanizing side of segregation. I +remember that when we traveled from North to South and vice +versa we really felt the sting of segregation more acutely than at +other times. We'd drive hours without being able to stop adywhere. +Sometimes we would pull into a filthy old gas station, buy gas, and +then be told that we were not permitted to use their filthy old + +ASSATA + +I3 7 + + ASSATA + +bathroom because we were Black. 1 can remember clearly squatting +in the bushes with mosquitoes biting my bare buttocks, and my +grandmother handing me toilet paper, because we could not find a +place with a "colored" bathroom. Sometimes we were hungry, but +there was no place to eat. Other times we were sleepy and there was +no hotel or motel that would admit us. If i sit and add up all the +"colored" toilets and drinking fountains in my life and all of the +back-of-the-buses or the Jim Crow railway cars or the places i +couldn't go, it adds up to one great ball of anger. +And so, when i saw these NAACP people, i was ready to do +whatever it was that they were going to do. But they were very +confusing. One day i was hanging around in the office and two men +were talking about nonviolence and self-control. Then he walked +around the room asking everybody questions. +"What would you do if they pushed you ?" +"Nothing. I'd j ust keep on doing what i came to do." +"What would you d o if they kicked you?" +"I'd pray to the Lord to forgive them for their sins." +"What would you do if they spit on you?" +"I'd just go on singing." +Well , that was just too much for me. I could take someone +pushing me, hitting me, kicking me, but to sit there and let some +craka dog spit on me, well, just the idea of it made me want to +fight. To me, if someone spit on you, it was worse than hitting you, +especially if they spit in your face. I tried to tell myself that i would +just sit there and take it, but every muscle in my body, every instinct +i had, rebelled against it. The man continued around the room +asking everybody the same questions. When he came to me, 1 +answered the same, too, except for the spitting question. +"I don't know," i told him. +"What do you mean, you don't know?" +"I just don't know." +"Well, little sister, we can see that you're just not ready. If you +want your freedom, there's no sacrifice that's too big to make." +Everybody looked at me as if i was some kind of stupid idiot. 1 +felt bad, but i still couldn't get used to the idea of letting somebody +spit on me. The man said i wasn't ready, and i had to agree with +him. +When i think back to those days, i feel such admiration and +respect for the spirit of struggle and sacrifice that my people ex­ +hibited. They went up against white mobs, water hoses, vicious +dogs, the Ku Klux Klan, trigger-happy nightstick-wielding police, +armed only with their belief in j ustice and their desire for freedom. + + I remember how i felt in those days. I wanted to be an amer­ +ikan j ust like any other amerikan. I wanted a piece of amerika's +apple pie. I believed we could get our freedom just by appealing to +the consciences of white people. I believed that the North was really +interested in integration and civil rights and equal rights. I used to +go around saying "our country," "our president," "our govern­ +ment." When the national anthem was played or the pledge of +allegiance spoken, i stood at attention and felt proud. I don't know +what in the hell i was feeling proud about, but i felt the juice of +patriotism running through my blood. +I believed that if the South could only be like the North, then +everything would be all right. I believed that we Black people were +really making progress and that the government, the president, the +supreme kourt, and the congress were behind us, so we couldn't go +wrong. I believed that integration was really the solution to our +problems. I believed that if white people could go to school with us, +live next to us, work next to us, they would see that we were really +good people and would stop being prejudiced against us. I believed +that amerika was really a good country, like my teachers said in +school, "the greatest country on the face of the earth." I grew up +believing that stuff. Really believing it. And, now, twenty-odd years +later, it seems like a bad joke. +Nobody in the world, nobody in history, has ever gotten their +freedom by appealing to the moral sense of the people who were +oppressing them. Once you study and really get a good under­ +standing of the way the system in the United States works, then you +see, without a doubt, that the civil rights movement never had a +chance of succeeding. White people, whether they are from the +North or from the South, whether it was in 1960 or 1980, benefit +from the oppression of Black people. Those who believe that the +president or the vice-president and the congress and the supreme +kourt run this country are sadly mistaken. The almighty dollar is +king; those who have the most money control the country and, +through campaign contributions, buy and sell presidents, con­ +gressmen, and judges, the ones who pass the laws and enforce the +laws that benefit their benefactors. +The rich have always used racism to maintain power. To hate +someone, to discriminate against them, and to attack them because +of their racial characteristics is one of the most primitive, reaction­ +ary, ignorant ways of thinking that exists. +A war between the races would help nobody and free nobody +and should be avoided at all costs. But a one-sided race wa. with +Black people as the targets and white people shooting the guns is + +ASSATA + +I 39 + + ASSATA + +worse. We will be criminally negligent, however, if we do not deal +with racism and racist violence, and if we do not prepare to defend +ourselves against it. + +STRANGER + +Everything you love +is from a different world. +Hungry, +you turn your nose up +at my peas and rice. + + Chapter 9 + +was taken to Roosevelt Hospital in +Metuchen, new jersey, and shackled to the bed by my +foot. Dr. Garrett had established that i was one month +pregnant. When he visited me he demanded that the +shackles be removed at once (based on the elementary +principle that proper treatment, both mental and +physical, of a woman threatening miscarriage would +not seem to include being chained to a bedpost). My +mental stability was also threatened by the round-the­ +clock guards who sat outside my hospital room with +shotguns trained at my head. +After ten days, i was discharged from the hospital +over the objections of my doctor, brought to the mid­ +dlesex county j ail for men, and kept in solitary con­ +finement from February 1 974 until May 1 974. +At first, they wouldn't even give me milk. Since +pork was served as a staple meat almost daily, i began +to slowly starve. (In county jails it goes like this: one +sheet, one horse blanket, a metal cup ; your cell is +raided if you have luxuries, like salt.) They did every­ +thing they could to thwart the care Dr. Garrett was +trying to give me. They hired their own doctor and +insisted that whenever my doctor saw me, their man +had to be present. This meant a severe limitation on +the number of visits Dr. Garrett could arrange because +their doctor happened often "not to make it" out to +the prison on the days examinations had been agreed +to and scheduled. +My lawyers had initiated a lawsuit against the +state of new jersey in federal court charging medical +maltreatment and dietary abuse. Before the date the +hearing was scheduled, i was extradited to the State of +New York, which made the federal court action moot. + +I4 I + + ASSATA + +When i arrived at Rikers Island again, i was anemic and mal­ +nourished, according to my entrance physical. New jersey had +been giving me iron pills, but i was anemic up to the last blood test +before giving birth. +The pregnancy, or "special," diet at Rikers, in addition to the +regular food, was powdered milk, juice, and a hard-boiled egg +daily. This was my diet until i gave birth, and things seemed to go +normally. +Meanwhile, the lawyers obtained another court order from the +New York court permitting Dr. Garrett to continue treating me. +When he first came to Rikers, i was in the infirmary. They told him +the court order was "no good" and that he couldn't see me. I was +left in a room for three days with a woman who turned out later to +have active tuberculosis. It was May and they had turned the heat +off. It got cold again and women who were having seizures, meth­ +adone withdrawal, and one sister who they said had pneumonia all +piled blankets on their beds. The sister got worse and worse. +Finally, they brought her to Elmhurst Hospital where they dis­ +covered she did have tuberculosis. I found this out later, when she +was returned to Rikers, kept in isolation, and the doctors wore +masks and gloves when they visited her. +I also had monilia, a vaginal discharge, which worsened be­ +cause the Montefiore Hospital doctors assigned to Rikers could not +agree about how it should be treated. They refused to treat the +condition at all until my culture was returned from Elmhurst Hos­ +pital. By the time they managed to get the culture back, the whole +inside of my thigh was chapped raw from the discharge, and i could +barely walk. +Montefiore Hospital and the Health and Hospital Corpora­ +tion went to court to prevent Dr. Garrett from delivering my baby. +Their position was that since i was a prisoner it was not necessary +for me to have the doctor of my choice. They also said he was +"disruptive" because, when he did manage to see me, he "often +wrote in my chart," which they found very disturbing. The kourt +upheld them. I was only a prisoner! +I went into labor the morning of September 1 0, 1974, at 4 +A.M. on 2 Main at Rikers, where i had been kept in the psycho +ward. I got out of bed, took a shower, braided my hair, and packed. +My labor was mild, a pinch every half hour, which rapidly became +a pinch every fifteen minutes. At 1 1 A.M. i was sure i was on my way, +but i had no doctor to confirm it, and i refused to go to the +infirmary. Around noon i asked to call Dr. Garrett and they some­ +how got hold of him. (He was at Elmhurst Hospital trying to + + persuade them to let him deliver my baby. ) At about 3 P.M., he +arrived at Rikers and i went up to the infirmary to meet him. He +told me that i was "effaced" and definitely in labor. I would not +allow the other doctors there to examine me. +I was taken to Elmhurst Hospital in a motorcade. It looked to +me like a million police cars buzzing around the vehicle in which i, +a woman in labor, was riding. And they all followed. Into Elmhurst +Hospital and up to the delivery room. They surrounded the hospi­ +tal. +There was a demonstration outside of Elmhurst Hospital in +support of my right to choose the doctor who would deliver my +baby, and Evelyn and Dr. Garrett held a press conference at the +hospital to explain the situation. There were actually two po­ +licewomen inside the labor room and several outside. I was having +contractions every five minutes. Finally, i let one of their doctors, a +resident, examine me to see how the labor was progressing-which +turned out to be a terrible mistake. When he finished, i was +bleeding. After that, there was no way I would let any of them touch +me again. I ordered them to bring me a stethoscope (to see if the +baby's heart was beating normally) and a few other instruments i +would need because, i said, "I am delivering the baby myself." +It was a standoff for a couple of hours. Then a nurse told me to +walk around to ease the pain and encourage labor. I got up, then +pretended to fall out (knowing how afraid they were of lawsuits), +and the doctors rushed over to pick me off the floor. I knew they +were worried. I stated again, "I am delivering the baby myself." I +checked the baby's heart with the stethoscope. It was beating +normally. +That, or the press conference, or the demonstration outside of +the building seemed to do it. They told me that if i signed a release +statement absolving them of all responsibility, they would let Dr. +Garrett deliver my baby. I signed, making certain that they had no +control over Dr. Garrett or over anything having to do with my +labor. And that was that. +He took over. He examined me, listened to the baby's heart, +and, at some point, broke my water. He explained carefully every­ +thing that would happen and answered all my questions. He gave +me a local anesthetic in the cervix. I didn't want Demerol or a +saddle block, but the paracervical block seemed O.K. At this point +i was very tired. +After that i was still in labor but felt little pain. I went to sleep +for a while. I woke up about 3 :30 A.M. and i could feel the baby +lowering and thought i could feel the baby's head. I called the + +ASSATA + +I4 3 + + ASSATA +I44 + +nurse. She said, without looking, that i wasn't "ready" yet. When i +insisted, she looked and went running for Dr. Garrett. They +wheeled me into delivery, he gave me a local anesthetic, and did the +episiotomy. I pushed three times and she was here. At 4:00 A.M., +Kakuya Amala Olugbala Shakur was born. I said, "Check that +baby out" (just to ensure her subsequent safety). The birth itself +was peaceful and beautiful-out of sight. It's very important for a +woman to go through the birth experience with people she trusts. +Later that day, September 1 1 , they still hadn't brought me the +baby. Dr. Garrett had gone home to sleep and, when he returned, at +6 P.M. that day, i still hadn't seen the baby. He reminded them that i +was supposed to breastfeed her. They told him he hadn't "written a +prescription" for breastfeeding. Finally, they brought me the baby +and i breastfed her every four hours-another incredibly beautiful +experience. The nurses from the nursery were very friendly and +kind and kept me informed about the baby's condition. But the +staff in D-l l , the psycho ward where i was kept in a tiny, guarded +room, were something else again. +They allowed me only one shower a day. No toothbrush or +toothpaste, only mouthwash. They don't furnish it, a friend can't +bring it, and the prison won't allow it. I had to beg them for a bra +while i was nursing. The prison refused to let me bring one. Many +strange doctors tried to examine me to hasten my discharge and +get rid of me. I came close to physically brawling with a couple of +them because i refused their examinations. Finally, they discharged +me anyway, without the consent of my doctor. The Commissioner +of Corrections, Benjamin Malcolm, had signed a paper taking all +responsibility for my discharge. +They put me in an ambulance, chained me to a stretcher, and +brought me back to the Women's House of Detention at Rikers +Island. They took me straight to the infirmary and said, "You will +have to stay here and be examined." I was really depressed, having +been separated so abruptly from my baby. I said, "I don't want to +be here. I won't be examined here. Send me to PSA [punitive +segregation area: solitary confinement], anywhere. I don't care. I +just have to be somewhere by myself. Just leave me alone." +That's not quite what they did. When i refused examination, i +walked out of the infirmary and they called the goon squad (several +large female officers). They all jumped on me and started beating +me. They had me on the floor--eventually my arms and legs were +chained. They dragged me by the chains to PSA and stopped only +when a nurse asked them to please stop. So they put me on a +mattress and dragged the mattress. They took me to the observa- + + tion room and left me, hands and feet cuffed. I had no sanitary +napkins, no means to wash myself. The cuffs cut into my skin (the +scars are still visible), and my wrists were bleeding. Later i found +out that i had received an infraction for slapping an officer in the +face while they were beating me. +I still refused their medical examination. They finally brought +me napkins. I was left on a mattress, on the floor, no bed and no +shower. I was there for two weeks. I continued to refuse all their +medical attention, insisting that Dr. Garrett examine me. I refused +to eat, so eventually my breasts, which were full of milk, stopped +hurting. They offered doctors of all kinds and drugs (mainly tran­ +quilizers). They sent the psychiatrist, who had the nerve to ask me +if i was depressed. The Disciplinary Board met in front of my cell +and gave me an additional sentence of fourteen days in PSA. All +other inmates were cleared out of PSA. During this time i was still +refusing most food. I was so weak i fainted a couple of times. At +that time it was also Ramadan, when it is forbidden to eat until +sundown for the whole two weeks. I j ust ate once a day, when the +food was edible, and for the first few days I ate nothing at all. +After two weeks, they said, "If you agree to be vaginally +searched, you can go to your floor." I did and went to my floor. The +next day the captain came down to my cell and informed me that +they had decided to lock me up again for refusing a complete +physical from the medical staff assigned to Rikers from Montefiore +Hospital. What had happened was that when i was returned to my +floor they told me that Dr. Garrett had been permitted to examine +me and that he was at Rikers Island, that my lawyer had gone to +court and the court had ruled that i could be examined by Dr. +Garrett. So i waited. A white doctor came in and said in order for +me to see my doctor, i must see him and be examined by him first. I +refused. Then they brought in a Black doctor, who greeted me with, +"Hey, soul sister. " He was really sneaky. I refused him, too. So Dr. +Garrett was forced to leave and I was put back in PSA. They +threatened me with administrative segregation, so i sat on the floor +and refused to move when my sentence in PSA was up. They gave +me an infraction and a verbal reprimand and said the vaginal +search would be sufficient. Then the next day they locked me up +agam. +This time, i was locked in my cell for a month. I continued to +refuse most food. They let me out to shower whenever they felt like +it. I began a hunger strike at one point, and after a few days in the +tiny cell i was sick. I wondered how long i would have to hold out. +Evelyn had filed a writ of habeas corpus before the brooklyn + +ASSATA + +I45 + + ASSATA + +federal kourt against Commissioner Malcolm and Essie Murph, +superintendent of the Women's House of Detention on Rikers, to +force them to release me from punitive segregation. I was to appear +in kourt for the hearing, but I didn't know the date. Then a deputy +told me, "Your court date's been postponed. And your lawyer sends +her advice: see a doctor." It was a lie. But I believed it. I was +examined by the prison doctors under what I thought was Evelyn's +advice. +So i was no longer locked. Just in j ail. And separated from my +child. + +LEFTOVERS-WHAT I S LEFT + +After the bars and the gates +and the degradation, +What is left? +After the lock ins and the lock outs +and the lock ups, +What is left? +I mean, after the chains that get entangled + +in the grey of one's matter, +After the bars that get stuck +in the hearts of men and women, +What is left? +After the tears and disappointments, +After the lonely isolation, +After the cut wrist and the heavy noose, +What is left? +I mean, like, after the commissary kisses + +and the get-your-shit-off blues, +After the hustler has been hustled, +What is left? +After the murderburgers and the goon squads +and the tear gas, +After the bulls and the bull pens +and the bull shit, +What is left? +Like, after you know that god +can't be trusted, +After you know that the shrink +is a pusher, + + that the word is a whip +and the badge is a bullet, +What is left? +After you know that the dead +are still walking, +After you realize that silence +is talking, +that outside and inside +are just an illusion, +What is left? +I mean, like, where is the sun? +Where are her arms and +where are her kisses ? +There are lip-prints on my pillow­ +i am searching. +What is left? +I mean, like, nothing is standstill +and nothing is abstract. +The wing of a butterfly +can't take flight. +The foot on my neck is part +of a body. +The song that i sing is part +of an echo. +What is left? +I mean, like, love is specific. +Is my mind a machine gun? +Is my heart a hacksaw? +Can i make freedom real ? Yeah ! +What is left? +I am at the top and bottom +of a lower-archy. +I am an earth lover +from way back. +I am in love with +losers and laughter. +I am in love with +freedom and children. +Love is my sword +and truth is my compass. +What is left? + +ASSATA + +I4 7 + + Chapter 1 0 + +I4 8 + +he next several years of high school passed +uneventfully. Because i was spending weekends with +my mother, we became closer. During my seventeenth +year, however, i decided to quit school, get a job, and +live on my own. +My entrance into the working world was a rude +awakening. I didn't even know what most of the want +ads meant. Auditor, copywriter, accounts receivable, +key punch operator were all foreign words to me. +Every day i hit the pavement with my best "office­ +looking" clothes on and a pair of high-heel torture +shoes. Every day i came home more frustrated than the +day before. I didn't know how to do anything, had no +experience, and was Black to boot. Finally, i paid some +employment agency one or two weeks' salary for the +privilege of getting me one of those dingy, boring, +$95 -dollar-a-week jobs. I was one of those slaves +where you pay a fifth of your salary for taxes, some +more for social security, another $5 a month for union +dues, and the rest was not even enough to die on. +It seemed that the whole world was made up of +things i couldn't afford. After i paid the rent on my +furnished room, spent carfare, and bought food, i had +just enough money to buy an air sandwich. The only +saving grace was that i didn't have too much time to +hang out. I was going to night school, so i would leave +my boring job and go to boring night school to di­ +agram sentences, memorize garbage, and prepare for a +high school diploma that meant nothing in the job +market. My life was being spent pushing around +meaningless papers that had nothing to do with liv­ +ing. I wasn't doing anything positive. I wasn't making +anything, creating anything, or contributing to anything. After a while, i wanted to tell them to take their + + papers and their job and shove it. +But at first i wasn't like that. After weeks of looking for a job, i +was grateful just to have one. I didn't think about low pay, indecent +working conditions, no medical benefits, only one week vacation. I +was just happy to be working. I identified with the job and talked +about "our" company and told people what "we" manufactured. I +wasn't making two cents over lunch money and talked like i owned +the place. I remember once i was working at some joint where they +made trailers. I had a job pushing papers. I told one of my aunt's +friends that she should buy one of those trailers if she ever wanted +one. She looked at me like i was crazy. "Why ?" she asked. "Are they +going to give me a discount?" I felt so stupid. It hit me. They +wouldn't even give me a discount and i was working there. +The longer i worked at those places, the shorter my patience +got. Half the time i didn't even want to hear that rinky-dink stuff +they talked about at the office. I got sick of listening to gossip about +the bosses and this and that and who was messing with who. After +a while, i stayed pretty much to myself, and when i wasn't busy i +would stick a book between some pages and read. That was back in +the mid-sixties and papers were filled with stories about riots. +At the time, i really didn't know what to think about the riots. +The only thing i can remember thinking was that i wanted to see +the rioters win. In the office there was a group of secretaries who +worked for the president or the vice-presidents. They looked down +on those of us who worked in the general office and treated us like +we were nothing. One day, i was in the bathroom and one secretary +came in. She was spraying hair spray on a puffed-up French roll that +was so hard it looked like it had been baked on. She began talking +about this and that. I was surprised because she never talked to me. +Then she started about the riots, "what a shame it was" that "those +people" were so stupid and dumb for rioting because they were just +tearing up their own neighborhoods and burning down their own +houses. I didn't say anything. She prodded: "I said, isn't it a +shame? Isn't it?" I didn't know what to say. It was true that Black +people were burning down Black neighborhoods, but i didn't know +how to deal with the question. She kept insisting. Finally, i said, +"Yes," and walked out. +I was disgusted with myself. I hadn't wanted to agree with her, +but i didn't know what else to say. I spent half the night thinking +until i felt i had the answer. A few days later, the subject came up +again. This time the whole bunch of front-office secretaries, who +were friendly with the office manager, came into the general office. +Before they had a chance to get any words out after "riot," i was on + +ASSATA +I 49 + + ASSATA + +IS O + +their case. "What do you mean, they're burning down their houses? +They don't own those houses. They don't own those stores. I'm +glad they burned down those stores because those stores were +robbing them in the first place !" They stood with their mouths +open. +After that, the office manager went out of her way to hassle +me. Miscellaneous whites began to ask my opinion about the riots, +and i made sure they weren't disappointed. I knew it wouldn't be +long before they fired me. The only reason i didn't quit was that i +had nowhere to go and nothing else lined up. When i was finally +fired, i was relieved. +Because my girlfriend Bonnie and i read a lot of fiction and poetry, +we thought we were intellectuals. Neither of us had finished high +school, but we used to go to this place on Broadway called the West +End, dressed in what we believed to be our scholastic finery. It was +one of those real college-type places, with pastrami sandwiches and +pitchers of dark beer. We sat around trying to look "deep" until +someone sat down and talked to us. After a while, we made friends +with some African students who were studying at Columbia. +I loved to listen to the Africans. They were intense, serious, and +had so much dignity. I was introduced to African customs, and they +spent hours explaining the various aspects of their cultures. Bonnie +asked about their marriage ceremonies because she was dying to +get married. I asked about the food because i loved it: curried +chicken, groundnut stew (chicken in peanut sauce), and corn bread +that you cook over the stove. You would break off a little piece, roll +it into a ball, dip your thumb in the middle and make a spoon that +you would fill with gravy and eat. It really made me think about +how bad they've done us. We know everything about spaghetti and +egg rolls and crepes suzette, but we don't know the first thing about +our own food. When i was a little kid, if you had asked me what +Africans ate, i would have answered, "People !" +One day, Vietnam came up. It was around 1 964 and the +movement against the war had not yet blown up in full force. +Someone asked me what i thought. I didn't have the faintest idea. +Back then, the only thing i read in the papers was the headlines, +crime stories, comics, or the horoscope. I said, "It's �ll right, i +guess." All of a sudden there was complete silence. "Would you +mind explaining, sister, what you mean by 'it's all right, i guess' ?" +The brother's voice was mocking. I said something like "You know, +the war we're fighting over there, you know, for democracy. " It was +clear, from the expressions around me, that i had said the wrong + + thing. The brother i had come with looked like he wanted to crawl +under the floor. "Who's fighting for democracy?" somebody asked. +"We are. The United States." And then, as an afterthought, i added, +"You know, they're over there fighting communism. Fighting for +democracy." The brother held his head in his hands as if he had a +headache. I knew i had said something wrong, but i couldn't figure +out what. Thinking i had failed to state my case strongly enough, i +continued repeating everything i had heard on television. Babbling. +Which only made matters worse. +When i finished, the brother asked me if i knew anything +about the history of Vietnam. I didn't. He told me. He explained +French colonialization, exploitation, brutalization, the starvation +and illiteracy; the long fight waged and won in the North and the +u.s. involvement in propping up a phony government after the +French got their butts kicked. +The brother was talking about names, places, and events just +like he was from Vietnam or something. I sat there with my mouth +hanging open. He knew all this stuff and he wasn't even studying +history. I couldn't believe that this African, who didn't even live in +the u.s. or in Asia, could know more than me who had friends and +neighbors who were fighting over there. +Then he defined the u.s. government's role, that it was fighting +for money, to defend the interests of u.s. corporations and to +establish military bases. I didn't know whether to believe him or +not. I had never heard of such a thing. "What about democracy?" i +asked him. "Don't you believe in democracy ?" Yes, he said, but the +government the u.s. was supporting was not a democracy but a +bloodthirsty dictatorship. He started running all kinds of names +and dates on me and there was no way i could respond. There he +was, talking about the u.s. government just like somebody would +talk about a criminal. I just couldn't relate to it. But my mind was +blown. +Despite that, i continued saying the first thing that came into +my head: that the u.s. was fighting communists because they +wanted to take over everything. When someone asked me what +communism was, i opened my mouth to answer, then realized i +didn't have the faintest idea. My image of a communist came from +a cartoon. It was a spy with a black trench coat and a black hat +pulled down over his face, slinking around corners. In school, we +were taught that communists worked in salt mines, that they +weren't free, that everybody wore the same clothes, and that no one +owned anything. The Africans rolled with laughter. +I felt like a bona fide clown. One of them explained that + +ASSATA +I5 I + + ASSATA +I5 2 + +communism was a political-economic system, but i wasn't listen­ +ing. I was just digging on myself. I had been hooping and hollering +about something that i didn't even understand. I knew i didn't +know what the hell communism was, and yet i'd been dead set +against it. Just like when you're a little kid and they get you to +believe in the bogeyman. You don't know what the hell the +bogeyman is, but you hate him and you're scared of him. +I never forgot that day. We're taught at such an early age to be +against the communists, yet most of us don't have the faintest idea +what communism is. Only a fool lets somebody else tell him who +his enemy is. I started remembering all the stupid stuff people told +me when i was little. "Don't trust West Indians because they'll stab +you in the back." "Don't trust Africans because they think they are +better than we are." "Don't hang out with Puerto Ricans because +they all stick together and will gang up on you." +I had learned, through experience, that they were all lies told +by stupid people, but i never thought i could be so easily tricked +into being against something i didn't understand. It's got to be one +of the most basic principles of living: always decide who your +enemies are for yourself, and never let your enemies choose your +enemies for you. +After that, i began to read about what was happening in +Vietnam. What the Africans had said was true. There were also +articles about the u.s. army in Vietnam, their involvement in tor­ +ture and forcing Vietnamese women to sell their bodies j ust to +survive. +I was so confused. It just didn't make any sense to me. "Our +government couldn't do anything that bad," i told Bonnie. There +had to be some other information. I couldn't even understand what +"we" were doing there in the first place. Some kind of treaty, they +said, but it didn't make any sense. I got so disgusted at one point +that i said i wasn't going to read the news anymore. +"Ignorance is bliss," Bonnie said. +"The hell it is," i answered. I damn sure didn't want to be as +ignorant as i had been. When you don't know what's going on in +the world you're at a definite disadvantage. I decided i 'd keep trying +to follow what was happening, but i still couldn't believe the u.s. +was doing all the foul things i was reading in the newspapers. +"What do you mean, you don't believe it?" Bonnie asked. "Just +take a look at what they're doing to you." +The difference between the Africans and the other friends i +hung out with that summer was startling. I remember one day at +the beach. Everybody is hee-hee happy. It's party time. A multi- + + colored umbrella stands defiantly against the breeze. Blankets and +silly-looking beach towels color the beach, along with soda cans +and bottles of Bacardi and Johnnie Walker Black. Healthy-looking +Black men, wearing turned-down sailor hats and college sweat­ +shirts with cutoff sleeves, lug ice chests and other stuff back and +forth. An improvised outdoor sound system has been hooked up +and Martha and the Vandellas are wailing in the background. +I am insisting on reading James Baldwin even though the wind +keeps flapping the pages. Anguished voices scream and moan from +the pages. Compressed ghettos threaten to explode. Poverty and fire +and brimstone boil over into a deadly stew, but the "beautiful" +people refuse to let me read in peace. My girlfriend has insisted on +"fixing me up" with "Mr. Wonderful," who turns out to be an +egomaniac decked out in monogrammed swimming trunks, a +matching terrycloth robe, and a monogrammed towel to boot. Mr. +Wonderful consents to grace me with his presence. His looks and +manner tell me that i should be grateful because he is definitely +what's happening. His ride is a red MG convertible, his crib is in +Esplanade Gardens, and his gig is an assistant manager for some +bank downtown. He is kool from his reel-to-reel tapedeck to his +color TV, right down to his shaggy "bachelor rug," which he +leeringly tells me about. +He drinks Remy Martin cognac and Harvey's Bristol Cream, +uses a cologne i can't pronounce, and i wait, expectantly, for him to +tell me his brand of toothpaste. He goes on and on about his +trinkets and status symbols. "Look at this monogrammed mother­ +fucker," i think to myself. He is smug and insinuating. A Black +version of "Bachelor Knows Best," or some such thing. I want to go +back to James Baldwin, but i am surrounded by a group of people +that talk too loud, looking and thinking somewhat like Mr. Won­ +derful. They are talking about Karmann Ghias, Porsches, Cor­ +vettes, and other cars that are deemed "in." +The conversation drifts on to co-ops and high-rise apartment +complexes. A young man, who has mentioned more than once that +he is an accountant, tells us the benefits of buying "property" on +the Island. An insurance salesman says that he sells insurance out +on the Island and pulls some business cards out of a little silver­ +colored case which he "just happens to have handy" in his beach +bag. A redheaded schoolteacher who has eyes for the accountant +says that she has always wanted a house on the Island with a big +kitchen. After talk about the Island has exhausted itself, the con­ +versation turns to places to go. French and Mexican restaurants are +definitely "in," with a restaurant that sells fifty different kinds of + +ASSATA + +IS3 + + ASSATA +I 54 + +crepes winning hands down. One of the men, who is a poverty +pimp, says that he has moved his offices to the Red Rooster bar and +restaurant. Somebody laughingly asks if he isn't afraid to go into +Harlem "with all them niggas." Everybody has some favorite res­ +taurant on top of some building downtown. They don't talk about +the food, just the scenery. Mr. Wonderful says he has a Playboy key +and often eats at the Playboy Club. +I smile uneasily, feeling out of place. All this talk is giving me a +headache. Some fraternity brothers invite me to dance. One tells me +that i look like a Delta girl. "How does a Delta girl look ?" i ask. +"Just like you in a swimsuit." Mr. Wonderful glares at them. I am +picking up snatches of conversation from all around me. Talks of +grants, poverty programs, and democratic politics. Talk of the +NFL, and the football season. Talk of Bergdorf Goodman, Bloom­ +ingdale'S, and Saks Fifth Avenue. About speedboats and cruisers +which nobody owns but everybody wants to. +Whiskey flows like water, and the speedboats turn into yachts. +Everybody is just crazy about the islands: Jamaica, Bermuda, +Nassau. Everybody is so chic. I'm so tired of hearing about it that I +want to send them somewhere by way of foot-mine ! It's a disgrace. +Social workers talking about their clients like dogs, teachers who +don't like to teach. A probation officer complaining about how +dangerous his job is. A bunch of money-worshipers putting on a +front for each other. Somebody asks me if i have my thing together. +"Which thing?" i want to know. I take a walk up to the house to get +away from it all. Some women are in the bathroom smoking reefer +and blowing their hair dry. I go fishing in my bag for some aspirin. +"Where'd you buy your suit?" one asks me. I don't want to say +Klein's, but i say it anyway. "They have some nice things, some­ +times," she says without conviction, dismissing me as a bargain +basement case. They go back to talking about people and hair +going back. They are putting on makeup to look like Black Barbie +dolls on the beach. +I go back outside feeling like i'm from another planet. I feel +lonely and serious. Something has been happening to me, a change +that has been a long time coming. I want to be real. Am i the only +bad-doing, hand-to-mouth, barely-making-it Black woman there? +The struggle i 've been going through and the struggle i 've been +seeing is too hard to lie about and i don't even want to try. I want to +help free the ghetto, not run away from it, leaving my people +behind. I don't want to style and profile in front of nobody. I want +somebody i can relate to and talk about serious shit with. +This party is a lost cause. I get my beach towel and my book + + and ease on down the beach a little piece. Looking out at the ocean, +i wonder how many of our people lie buried there, slaves of another +era. I'm not quite sure what freedom is, but i know damn well what +it ain't. How have we gotten so silly, i wonder. I get back off into +James Baldwin. I don't give a damn if Sag Harbor sags into +oblivion. Me and James Baldwin are communicating. His fiction is +more real than this reality. +My patience was zero. I didn't want to wait for something to +happen. I was into living and living for now. I was hungry, starving +for life, but at the same time i was growing more and more cynical +every day. I wanted to go everywhere, do everything, and be every­ +thing, all at the same time. I wanted to experience everything, know +how everything felt. I had many zigzag conflicting ideas rolling +around in my head at the same time. One day i was happy just to be +alive and young and moving. The next day i felt like the world was +coming to an end. Everything in my life was jagged, sharp, un­ +finished edges. Nothing happened calmly. Nothing was like i had +thought it would be when i was little. +My friends were dying from OD and going into the army. My +girlfriends had babies and were looking and sounding old. Nice old +men sitting in the park weren't nice old men at all but were busy +masturbating under their newspapers. I got so i didn't believe in +anything. It seemed that everybody was in some kind of bag, the +dope bag, the whiskey brown paper bag, the j esus bag, the love +bag, the sex bag, the make-it bag, and none of those bags were +doing anybody any good. I was looking for my own bag, but the +pickings were slim. I kept on looking nevertheless, running and +moving and hanging out until i was running myself ragged. One +day i'd be downtown hanging out with my hippy, blippy (Black +hippy) friends. The next night i'd be uptown hanging out with the +hustlers. But nothing seemed like it was for real, you know ? The +same dudes who would be talking slick and sniffing coke out of +$50 bills one day would be scrounging and begging for a loan the +next. Even the most successful hustlers seemed to be nothing but +flunkies and potential fall guys for the mafia. My friends from +downtown weren't much better. At best, most of them were profes­ +sional escape artists, into escaping the problems of the Black com­ +munity or those of the white community. Some of them tried to +escape through drugs, tripping over worlds that didn't exist on +some kind of inner-space odyssey. But in their case, the drugs were +usually not entirely self-destructive, although i know at least one +who zoomed dead out of this world and didn't come back. + +ASSATA +I 55 + + ASSATA + +Through my hippy/blippy friends, i got turned on to a lot of things, +though. I got into poets like Allen Ginsberg, Sylvia Plath, Fer­ +linghetti, all kinds of novelists, music, food, etc. I didn't relate to +everything i checked out, but my horizons got a whole lot broader. +My growing impatience with petty bourgeois upward-bound +"Negroes" came to a head when i went to work with a Black +employment agency. Evelyn had gotten me a job there as a typist. +The agency was located in Rockafella Center in the same building +with Johnson Publications, the publishers of Ebony and Jet maga­ +zines. I was happy as hell to get the job since i was tired of working +for white people. The people in the office were nice and the at­ +mosphere was completely lacking in tension. The boss was decent +enough, and i had a pretty good relationship with him and his +secretary, under whom i worked. At first i was excited, glad to be +around so many Black people who seemed to be doing so good. +Everybody was into making it, moving up the ladder. Black men +and women with long lists of degrees, and briefcases, were in and +out of the place. They were sharp, dressed to a tee, and talking +about junior executive training programs, poverty programs, etc. +Some of them talked about those companies as if they were going +to be the president of the board of directors in five years. +Once in a while i went to lunch with a young man who +worked at Johnson Publications. But we always got into arguments. +Especially about Ebony magazine. Half the time, in the fashion +section they would have these elaborate evening gowns that cost +thousands of dollars. When i asked him what Black people could +afford to buy them and whether they were gonna wear them to the +corner bar, he got insulted. He was one of those Black people who +think that you are free if you can go in a store and buy expensive +things. I told him that the only Black woman who could afford +those dresses was johnson's wife, and he got even more insulted. He +told me that everything was changing, everything was so much +better. I said that if things were so much better, how come every +time a Black person got a good job or was a manager or something, +it was news and was printed in Ebony. Our relationship ended +abruptly when he accused me of always trying to bring Black +people down and make it seem like we don't have nothing. I ended +the matter by cursing him out and that was that. +These Black people went around acting as if there was no such +thing as prejudice and that all you had to do was study and you +could be president of the world. At the agency, we were working +hard for an equal opportunity conference. The idea was to have +Black college graduates from all over the country participate in + + interviews with representatives from the major corporations in +amerika. Almost all of the big corporations were involved, and the +graduates paid a substantial fee, plus transportation and hotel fees, +to participate in the conference. It worked like this: students made +out resumes and the corporate personnel officers decided which +applicants they wanted to see. It was a big, plush affair in a major +New York hotel, with the penthouse suite and quite a few lower +floors rented out to the conferencp• 1 just knew that hundreds of +these young, "qualified" Black people were going to get jobs. 1 was +proud to have helped bring the conference about. It lasted a few +days, and by the time it was over, i was ready to go somewhere and +have a good cry. +Some of those Black graduates had spent hundreds of dollars +to come to the conference and didn't have one interview. The only +graduates the corporations even wanted to see were math, science, +engineering, and business majors. Some corporations only wanted +to interview graduates in very specialized categories, like petroleum +engineering or geological engineering. Since most had majored in +subjects like English, history, sociology, etc., they were out of the +running from the j ump. +1 was shocked and upset. After the conference, i went out with +one of the Black "executives" i had met in the agency. "I don't +understand it," i kept telling him. "Why would those companies +pay all that money to participate in the conference if they aren't +really interested in hiring anybody? It doesn't make any sense." +"It makes a lot of sense, if you think about it." +"Huh ? 1 don't understand." +"Listen," he went on, "the government says that in order for +those companies to keep their contracts, they have to at least make +an effort to look for 'qualified Black personnel.' The law doesn't +say they have to hire anybody. The law says they've only got to +look." +1 was furious. They had used poor dumb me just like they use +a drug dealer to conspire against his own people. 1 was part of the +plot and i didn't even know it. There were some Blacks who got +jobs, but mainly the thing was a sham, to make things look good +on paper. My friend and i got stupidly drunk, singing oldies by the +Sherrills on Lexington Avenue, he telling me about what bastards +the bosses were and about the trials and treacheries of the demo­ +cratic party machine and telling me how i was gonna get another +job as a go-go dancer in the ladies' room. +About a week later, i made up a resume, described myself as a +college graduate, and was hired as a marketing assistant. 1 didn't + +ASSATA + +I5 7 + + ASSATA +IS 8 + +believe in anything, and i wasn't gonna follow anyone's rules but +my own. I got fired from that job a couple of weeks later, got +another college job, and got fired from that too. I didn't care. I was +going to deal with them just like they dealt with us. One time i got +a job as a bookkeeper. I didn't know the first thing about it, but +after i got the job i bought a couple of "bookkeeping made easy" +books and when i didn't understand something I told them that we +used a different system at the last place i worked. +The job involved a lot of cash and i had to be bonded. When +you get bonded, they do a background check on you. The job +wasn't too bad, and the boss was cool. It was an excellent way to +learn bookkeeping and the insurance business. I knew they would +fire me as soon as the report came in, but i didn't care. One day, my +boss threw a detective's report on my desk. It had my name on it. I +swallowed hard, knowing it was my last day. The more i read it, the +more surprised i became. The report verified everything i had said: +"Subject attended such and such high school," subject . . . gradu­ +ated from such and such college," "subject worked at such and +such places." They even reported that i lived on a quiet tree-lined +street and that they had talked to my neighbors and learned that i +was a nice person. I cracked up all the way home. Everything is a lie +in amerika, and the thing that keeps it going is that so many people +believe the lie. +But my patience was getting shorter and my temper was terri­ +ble. I was quick to tell people what i thought of them, and even i +was surprised by my bluntness. Bonnie kept telling me, "Slow +down, you're speeding, somebody's gonna give you a ticket." She +was almost as restless and crazy as i was. We would check out +things happening and make a joke of them. The world seemed to +be so big and fixed and we couldn't think of anything to change it. +Bonnie encouraged me to stop lying about going to college and go +for real. "If you're smart enough to fool them, then you're smart +enough to play their game." I knew that what she said made sense, +but i had hated my last days in high school and had no desire to +study anything else. +The only other person who stayed on my case and prodded me +to go back to school was my friend from Kenya. We had grown to +be serious friends. And we dug each other much more as friends +than as lovers. He was studying economics out on Long Island, and +we didn't get a chance to see each other much. Sometimes on the +weekend we would hang out together. He was one of the few people +i knew who was serious about almost everything he did in life and +whose conversation was not just about his small world but about + + the whole world. One weekend we had arranged to hang out. I +think we were supposed to go and hear somebody play at Count +Basie's club. My apartment looked like some kind of hurricane had +hit it, and i was trying to ease out the door without letting him in. +Somehow he managed to get a glimpse inside. "No, we aren't going +anywhere," he said. "How can you live like this? If your house +looks like this i can just imagine what your head looks like." +I was embarrassed, but i had to admit he was right. I had +everything thrown every which way, clothes flung all over the place. +It was a wreck. He suggested that instead of going out he would +help me clean up and get organized. "You'll be all right if you just +get yourself organized. You can do almost anything you want as +long as you organize yourself to do it. " I decided he was right. It +was time to get my life in some kind of order. It was time to take +control. Life was like a bus: you could either be a passenger and go +along for the ride, or you could be the driver. I didn't have the +foggiest idea where i wanted to go, but i knew that i wanted to +drive. I decided the first thing i would do was go back to school. I +returned home to live with my mother in her new apartment in +Flushing, Queens. + +C U LTURE + +i must confess that waltzes +do not move me. +i have no sympathy +for symphonies. +i guess i hummed the Blues +too early, +and spent too many midnights +out wailing to the rain. + +ASSATA +I 59 + + Chapter 1 1 + +n July 19, 1 973, while i was still +at the middlesex county workhouse, i was brought to +the u.s. district kourt for the eastern district of New +York in Brooklyn, which has jurisdiction over all +federal crimes committed in the counties of Brooklyn +and Queens. I was taken there by federal writ to be +arraigned on an indictment in which Andrew Jackson +and i were accused of having robbed a bank in the +county of Queens on August 23, 1971 . While there +were a lot of indictments against me all over New York +State i didn't even know about that summer, this is one +i surely could not have missed, because the bank sur­ +veillance photo taken of the woman holding up the +bank with a gun was put on wanted posters that were +pasted up in every subway station, posted in every +bank and post office, and blown up in full-page news­ +paper advertisements. They hit the streets on August +24, 1971, and remained even after my arrest on May + +2, 1 973. + +I 60 + +Under the photo was the name Joanne Deborah +Chesimard. Above the photo were the words +" WANTED FOR BANK ROBBERY : $ 1 0,000 re­ +ward." +After the feds took a mug shot of me and fin­ +gerprinted me, i was arraigned, pled not guilty, and +was returned to the workhouse on the same day. I +heard nothing further about this indictment until Jan­ +uary 1 , 1 975, when the feds brought me back to the +eastern district kourt. Only this time it was to have me +photographed. +The prosecutor has made a motion to have me +photographed in the same angle, wearing the same +kind of glasses, wig, and dress as the woman who had + + been photographed by the bank cameras during the robbery. The ASSATA +judge, a notorious, racist pig, is sure to grant the motion. I have +I 6I +decided to refuse. As far as i am concerned, the reasons are obvious. You put anybody in a monkey suit and they're gonna end up +looking like a monkey. Besides, someone had told me about some +trick the FBI uses. They take a photo of you in the same angle as the +bank photo and superimpose a transparency of the bank photo +over it. If you are unfortunate enough to have two eyes, a nose, and +lips, in more or less the same place, you end up looking like the +bank robber, no matter what you really look like. When i was +arraigned i had permitted them to take all the photographs of me +they wanted, and that, as far as i was concerned, was enough. +We enter the kourtroom. The judge is on the bench. The (. +kourtroom has been rearranged. FBI agents, with cameras, are +standing on top of tables. A group of federal marshals are buzzing +around nervously like flies that smell rot. They are waiting for +action. Evelyn gets up and says her piece. The judge ignores what +she is saying and orders me to be photographed. I refuse, stating +my objections as strongly as i can. In a hot second, the marshals +and the FBI agents are crawling all over me. They seem to be trying +to jerk my head off my shoulders. The judge has ordered that i am +to be photographed, today, now, and that all the force necessary to +take the pictures in the way the FBI wants to take them is to be +used. +The FBI, the marshals, and i end up on the kourtroom floor, +with me on the bottom. I hear Evelyn in the background. "Let the +record reflect that the marshals are twisting my client's arms behind +her back." "Let the record reflect that the marshals are choking my +client." "Let the record reflect that there are five marshals manhan­ +dling my client." Evelyn goes on and on while the marshals twist +me, jerk me, strangle me, kick me, and literally try to beat me into +submission. The assault goes on and on with Evelyn putting it, +blow by blow, into the record. Finally, it is over. The marshals lead +me back into the holding pen. I lie on the bench like a rag doll with +the stuffing hanging out, feeling like i have just been stampeded by +a herd of buffalo. +Evelyn comes back for a lawyer's visit. She looks j ust as tired as +i feel. +"That was unbelievable," she exclaims. "How's your arm ? Are +you okay?" +More or less, i tell her. My body is aching and my bad arm's +numb. I sit back marveling at how cool Evelyn has been. It dawns +on me how hard it must have been for her to watch what was + + ASSATA + +happening and then, calmly, put it into the record. I am amazed at +her control. She insists that a nurse be called to check me out. +"Did you hear that shit?" she asks me. +"Yeah, i heard it." +"I can't wait for the record to be transcribed. If they don't +erase it, i think we've got that dumb asshole right on the record. If +they don't erase it, then we can get the stupid moron off the case." +Evelyn is looking triumphant and defiant, like she has just put her +foot up somebody's butt. +"What the hell are you talking about?" i want to know. +"Didn't you hear him ? He said, right on the record, that he +thought you were guilty. He admitted he was prejudiced right on +the record. Didn't you hear him ?" +"I'm afraid i was otherwise occupied. What does it mean ?" +"It means we'll be able to get rid of his stupid ass. Anybody +else is bound to be better. This judge is out to hang you, and he'll +go to any limits to try and convict you. If we're forced to go to trial +in front of him, i'm afraid the only shot we'll have is in an appeals +court." +"I sure hope they don't erase the record." +Evelyn and i sit there speculating on the chances of the record +being changed. Evelyn thinks the judge is too dumb to even realize +what he said. I am afraid that the judge will review the transcript +and then have it changed. Evelyn thinks the judge is too racist and +too arrogant to be worried about the record. It turns out that she is +right. She files a motion, based on the transcript, to have the judge +relieved from the case. After what seems like forever, the judge is +removed and a new judge is assigned. +But before i went to trial on this case, the powers-that-be +decided that i must first be tried on a state kidnapping case in +brooklyn supreme kourt. I had been accused of kidnapping a drug +dealer for ransom on December 28, 1 972. Evelyn was my lawyer +and there were two codefendants. One was Rema Olugbala +(Melvin Kearney), a member of the Black Liberation Army and well +known to me. The other codefendant was a young brother by the +name of Ronald Myers. The pretrial motions were permeated by an +aura of paranoia. Mine. No one i knew had ever heard of Ronald +Myers, and no one understood why he had been targeted for this +particular frame-up. In fact, i wondered if he was some kind of +plant. It all seemed so strange. +Finally, we had a joint conference, which was arranged by a +court order. I asked Rema about Ronald Myers. Rema told me that +as far as he was concerned, Ron was just a brother who happened +to have the misfortune of being framed along with us: an un- + + suspecting victim. But everything in this case was so strange that i +couldn't figure it out. A joint legal conference was arranged be­ +tween Ronald Myers, his lawyer, a young Black lawyer by the name +of James Carroll, Evelyn, and me. Immediately upon seeing this +brother most of my suspicions disappeared. +He was nineteen but looked like he was about sixteen. He had +a quiet, soft, honest manner that i didn't think any police agent +could feign. He seemed to be just as perplexed and out of it as we +were. As i listened to him talk, i felt a kind of motherly protec­ +tiveness toward him. We were revolutionaries, supposedly prepared +for such things. For years we had been preaching about and de­ +nouncing pig conspiracies to kill and imprison Black political +activists. But looking at this soft-eyed young Black man, the thing +seemed that much more horrible. Those were very cynical days, and +we had developed very cynical attitudes to deal with it all. We had +become masters at telling bitter, angry jokes about justice and +equality and "democratic freedom." But s �ng this brother +awakened such a sense of righteous indignation in us so-called +veterans that we were all bitten by a sudden burst of energy. I pored +over the discovery material and the police records tirelessly. Rema +was tense, mysterious, and determined in his manner. We knew that +the state was out to get us and we were more determined than ever +not to let them. +The guards came and tore my cell apart. It was clear they were +looking for something, standing on chairs, kneeling on all fours; +they reminded me of bloodhound bitches. They seemed desperate. I +tried to speculate on what they were looking for. One of the Black +guards, who was halfway decent, was looking funny at me. Another +guard, who had always been hostile, looked smug. Shortly after +they left my cell, i tried to hook up with the wire to see what was +going on. Finally i got the news. Rema Olugbala was dead. He had +plunged to his death while trying to escape from the brooklyn +house of detention. The makeshift rope that he was using to lower +himself had broken. I felt too numb to do anything. Or say any­ +thing. Some of the sisters helped me piece my cage together. There +was nothing to say. Another Black man had died trying to be free. +Everything was boiling up inside me. I had to do something, and +most of my options seemed absurd. +It wasn't what i would like to have done. It didn't say half of +what i wanted to say. But i guess it was the best thing i could have +done at the moment. I wrote a poem. +For Rema Olugbala-Youngblood +They think they killed you. + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +But i saw you yesterday, +standing with your hands in your pockets +waiting for the real deal to go down. +I saw you smiling your "fuck it" smile, blood in your eyes, +your heart pumping freedom +Youngblood ! +They think they killed you. +But i saw you yesterday +in the playground. +Black skin, sweaty, shiny, +hurling your ball bomb into the hoop +right on target. +Won't be no game next time +cause you ain't hardly playing. +They think they killed you. +But i saw you yesterday +with your back against the wall, +muscles bulging against the chains, +eyes absorbing truth. +Lips speaking it. +Heart learning how to love. +Head learning who to hate. +Blood ready to flow +towards freedom. +Youngblood ! +Youngbloods ain't got no blood to waste +in no syringes, on no barroom floors, +in no strange lands +delaying other youngbloods' freedom. +We don't need no tired blood. +No anemic blood. No blood clots +in our new body. +They think they killed you. +But i saw you yesterday. +All them youngbloods +musta gave you a transfusion. +All that strong blood. +All that rich blood. +All that angry blood +flowing through your veins +toward tomorrow. + +The next time we went to kourt, i winced when i saw the +empty chairs. Slouching listlessly, i thought about Rema, com- + + pletely unaware of what was being said. There was talk about this +hearing and that hearing and this motion and another and none of +them made the slightest sense to me. But Evelyn was on the case, +letting nothing slide by, citing all of her objections "for the record." +I was bored to death, completely out of it, until the jury selection +process began. +There were two prosecutors: one exceedingly ugly lynch mob­ +looking fat guy and another thin, bearded wolfman-looking dude, +rather on the young side. I don't even remember their names. The +judge's name was William Thompson, and he was a Black man, +which surprised me. I guess they assigned the case to him because +they were so sure we would be convicted and they figured a Black +judge would, at least, give the illusion of justice. Thompson was +somewhat of a character, who rarely sat up on the bench but +constantly walked around the kourtroom. While he clearly could +not, by any stretch of the imagination, be accused of ruling in our +favor, and his political career would certainly not have been helped +by our being acquitted, nevertheless the kourtroom did not have +that out-and-out lynch-mob atmosphere we usually encountered. +The jury selection process really stood out in my mind. If +anyone can write a book about how a Black lawyer can pick a j ury +and eliminate hostile, racist, prejudiced j urors from the panel, then +Evelyn is surely the one to write the book. I was fascinated as i +watched her. She was all honey and pie as she started to voir dire +the j urors. At first, almost all of the white jurors began by saying +they had no prejudices. By the time Evelyn finished asking them +questions, we learned they had no Black friends or neighbors, +would object to their children marrying a Black person, or had +referred to Black people as niggers or some other derogatory name. +After a while, many of the whites asked to be excused before Evelyn +even asked them any questions. Most of them preferred to be +excused rather than have their feelings toward Black people, Black +militants, and Black Panthers questioned and explored. When you +think about the fact that the average Black defendant on trial gets +to ask prospective j urors only a few perfunctory questions, you can +see why so many Black people end up in jail. Even with Evelyn +putting everything she had into picking the j ury, it was a long uphill +struggle. But at the end, we managed to get four or five Black +people on the j ury, a remarkable accomplishment anywhere in +amerika, except for D.C. The prosecutor even had the nerve to ask +for extra peremptory challenges so he could bump some of the +jurors off the panel. +The hardest thing in the world for me was to keep my mouth + +ASSATA + + ASSATA +I 66 + +shut in the kourtroom, to sit quietly and suffer silently. Evelyn, well +aware of that fact, happily consented to my acting as co-counsel. +Although she remained skeptical about my ability to cross-examine +major witnesses, she agreed that it would be an excellent idea for +me to make the opening statement. Finally, after days of writing +under the dim nightlight in the cell, i delivered it. I was nervous as +hell, since i have never liked speaking in public, but i tried my best +to express to the jury some of what i was feeling: +Judge Thompson, Brothers and Sisters, men and women of the +jury. +I have decided to act as co-counsel, and to make this opening +statement, not because i have any illusions about my legal abilities, +but, rather, because there are things that i must say to you. I have +spent many days and nights behind bars thinking about this trial, +this outrage. And in my own mind, only someone who has been so +intimately a victim of this madness as i have can do justice to what i +have to say. And if you think that i am nervous, your senses do not +deceive you. It is only because i know that this moment can never +be lived again and that so much depends on it. I have to read»ns +opening statement to you because i am afraid that if i don't, i will +forget half of what i have to say. Please try to bear with me. +This will not be a conventional opening statement. First of all, +because i am not a lawyer, and what has happened to me, and what +has happened to Ronald Myers, does not exist in a vacuum. There +are a long series of events and attitudes that led up to us being here. +When we were sitting in this courtroom, during the jury selec­ +tion process, i listened to Judge Thompson tell you about the +amerikan system of justice. He talked about the presumption of +innocence; he talked about equality and justice. His words were +like a beautiful dream in a beautiful world. But i have been await­ +ing trial for two and one half years. And justice, in my eyesight, has +not been the amerikan dream. It has been the amerikan nightmare. +There was a time when i wanted to believe that there was justice in +this country. But reality crashed through and shattered all my +daydreams. While awaiting trial i have earned a Ph.D. in justice or, +rather, the lack of it. +I sat next to a pregnant woman who was doing ninety days for +taking a box of Pampers and watched on TV the pardoning of a +president who had stolen millions of dollars and who had been +responsible for the deaths of thousands of human beings. For what? +For peace with honor? Nixon was pardoned without ever standing +trial or being found guilty of a crime or spending one day in jail. +Who else could commit some of the most horrendous, destructive +crimes in history and get paid 200,000 tax dollars a year? Ford +stated that he pardoned Nixon because Nixon's family had suffered + + enough. Well, what about thousands of families whose sons gave +their lives in Vietnam? And what about the millions of people who +have been sentenced at birth to poverty, to live like animals and +work like dogs. What about the families who have sons and daugh­ +ters in prison, who cannot afford bail or even lawyers for their +children ? Where is justice for them? +What kind of justice is this? +Where the poor go to prison and the rich go free. +Where witnesses are rented, bought, or bribed. +Where evidence is made or manufactured. +Where people are tried not because of any criminal actions but +because of their political beliefs. +Where was the justice for men at Attica? +Where was the justice for Medgar Evers, Fred Hampton, +Clifford Glover? +Where was the justice for the Rosenbergs? +And where is the justice for the Native Amerkftns who we so +presumptuously call Indians ? +I am not on trial here because i am a criminal or because i have +committed a crime. I have never been convicted of a crime in my +life. Ronald Myers is not on trial because he has committed a crime. +He was nineteen years old when he turned himself in, after seeing +his picture in the newspapers. He thought that the police would +immediately see their mistake. I met Ronald Myers for the first time +about eight months ago in the lawyers' conference room. It was a +strange meeting, something i hope i'll never have to go through +again. I was shocked to see how young he was. And no matter what +the outcome of this trial, i will always feel a bitterness about what +has happened to Ronald Myers and what has happened to me. +I do not think that it's just an accident that we are on trial here. +This case is just another example of what has been going on in this +country. Throughout amerika 's history, people have been im­ +prisoned because of their political beliefs and charged with criminal +acts in order to justify that imprisonment. +Those who dared to speak out against the injustices in this +country, both Black and white, have paid dearly for their courage, +sometimes with their lives. Marcus Garvey, Stokely Carmichael, +Angela Davis, the Rosenbergs, and Lolita Lebron were all charged +with crimes because of their political beliefs. Martin Luther King +went to jail countless times for leading nonviolent demonstrations. +Why, you are probably asking yourself, would this government +want to put me or Ronald Myers in jail? In my mind, the answer to +that is very simple: for the same reason that this government has +put everyone else in jail who spoke up for freedom, who said give +me liberty or give me death. +During the voir dire process, we asked you about the word +"militant. " There was a reason for that. In the late sixties and the + +ASSATA + + ASSATA +I 68 + +early seventies, this country was in an upheaval. There was a strong +people's movement against the war, against racism, in the colleges, +on the streets, and in the Black and Puerto Rican communities. This +government, local police agencies, the FBI, and the CIA launched +an all-out war against people they considered militants. We are only +finding out now, because of investigations into the FBI and the +CIA, how extensive and how criminal their methods were and still +are. In the same way that witches were burned in Salem, this +government went on a witch-hunt for people they considered "mili­ +tant. " +Countless numbers of people were either killed or imprisoned. +The Berrigans, the Chicago 7, the Panther 2 1 , Bobby Seale, and +thousands of antiwar demonstrators were all victims of this witch­ +hunt justice. Maybe some of you are saying to yourselves, no +government would do that. Well, all you have to do is check out for +yourselves the history of this country and to look around and see +what is going on today. All you have to do is ask yourselves, who +controls the government? And who are the victims of that control? +Since you have been in this courtroom you have heard the +name Black Liberation Army mentioned over and over. Those of +you in the jury have been questioned as to what you havf read or +seen on television and what your opinions were about the BLA. +Most of you have stated that you thought the Black Liberation +Army was a militant organization. You have said that what you +have read or heard has come from the establishmentarian media. +The major TV and radio networks, the Times, the Post,and the +Daily News. I have read the same articles that you have read. I have +seen the same news programs that you have seen. When it comes to +the media, i have learned to believe none of what i hear and half of +what i see. But i can tell you, if i were just Jane Doe citizen and if i +did not know better, i would've read those articles and come to the +same conclusion: that JoAnne Chesimard, Ronald Myers, and all +other people called militants were a bunch of white-hating, cop­ +hating, gun-toting, crazed, fanatical maniacs-fighting for some +abstract, misguided cause. +But one percent of the people in this country control seventy +percent of the wealth. And it is that one percent, the heads of large +corporations, who control the policies of the news media and +determine what you and i hear on radio, read in the newspapers, see +on television. It is more important for us to think abol:tt where the +media gets its information. From the police department qr from the +prosecutor. No major newspaper or television station has ever +asked my lawyers or myself one question concerning anything. +People are tried and convicted in the newspapers and on television +before they ever see a courtroom. A person who is accused of +stealing a car becomes an international car theft ring. A man is + + accused of participating in a drunken brawl and the headlines read +"Crazed Maniac Goes Berserk. " +During the seventies, the media created a front-page headline, +guaranteed to sell newspapers: the Black Liberation Army. Accord­ +ing to them, the BLA was everywhere. Almost every other thing +that happened was attributed to the Black Liberation Army. Head­ +lines that are sensational sell newspapers. The media shape public +opinion and the results are often tragic. +Before you were sworn as jurors, you were asked about your +knowledge of what the Black Liberation Army is or what it stands +for. However, most of you did say you believed that the Black +Liberation A rmy was a "militant" organization. I would like to +talk about that for a moment. The Black Liberation Army is not an +organization: it goes beyond that. It is a concept, a people's move­ +ment, an idea. Many different people have said and done many +different things in the name of the Black Liberation Army. +The idea of a Black Liberation Army emerged from conditions +in Black communities: conditions of poverty, indecent housing, +massive unemployment, poor medical care, and inferior education. +The idea came about because Black people are not free or equal in +this country. Because ninety percent of the men and women in this +country's prisons are Black and Third World. Because ten-year-old +children are shot down in our streets. Because dope has saturated +our communities, preying on the disillusionment and frustration of +our children. The concept of the BLA arose because of the political, +social, and economic oppression of Black people in this country. +And where there is oppression, there will be resistance. The BLA is +part of that resistance movement. The Black Liberation Army +stands for freedom and justice for all people. +While big corporations make huge, tax-free profits, taxes for +the everyday working person skyrocket. While politicians take free +trips around the world, those same politicians cut back food stamps +for the poor. While politicians increase their salaries, millions of +people are being laid off. This city is on the brink of bankruptcy, +and yet hundreds of thousands of dollars are being spent on this +trial. I do not understand a govern"fent so willing to spend millions +of dollars on arms, to explore outer space, even the planet Jupiter, +and at the same time close down day care centers and fire stations. +I have read the Declaration of Independence, and i have great +admiration for this statement: +"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are +created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain +unalienable R ights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the +pursuit of Happiness. That to secure these rights, Governments are +instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent +of the governed. That whenever any Form of Government becomes + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +destructive of these ends, it is the R ight of the People to alter or +abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation +on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to +them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. " +These words are especially meaningful in the year of this +country's bicentennial. I would like to help make this a better world +for my daughter and for all the children of this world; for all the +men and women of this world. +But you understand that the BLA is not on trial here. I am on +trial here. Ronald Myers is on trial here. And the charge is kidnap­ +ping and armed robbery, where the so-called victim is a drug +pusher, a seller of heroin, a man called James Freeman. +We live in New York, and it is impossible not to see the horror, +the degradation, and the pain associated with heroin addiction. +Most of you have seen the staggering numbers of young lives +sucked into oblivion, into walking deaths by the use of drugs. Many +of you have seen helpless mothers watch their children turn into +nodding skeletons, whom they can no longer trust. And seen the +dreams, the potential of a whole generation of youngsters drain +away, down into the bottomless pit of a needle. And these victims +also have their victims: the countless number of people who have +been mugged, burglarized, and robbed by drug-made vampires, +who care about nothing else but their poison. +We will show you that James Freeman is a liar. We will show +you that the other prosecution witnesses are all friends, relatives, +lovers, or employees ofJames Freeman and that they are liars. You +will see for yourself that they have conspired and that they have +been coached. +Men and women of the jury, human lives are serious matters. I +have already told you that i have no faith in this system of justice, +and, believe me, i don't. I have seen too much. If there was such a +thing as justice, i wouldn 't be here talking to you now. You have +been chosen to be the representatives ofjustice. You and you alone. +You have said that you could try this case on the basis of evidence. +What i am saying now is not evidence. What the prosecutor says is +not evidence. You may or may not agree with my political beliefs. +They are not on trial here. I have only brought them up to help you +understand the political and emotional context in which this case +comes before you. +Although this court considers us peers, many of you have had +different backgrounds and different learning and life experiences. It +is important that you understand some of those differences. I only +ask that you listen carefully. I only ask that you listen, not only to +what these witnesses say, but to how they say it. +Our lives are no more precious or no less precious than yours. +We ask only that you be as open and as fair as you would want us +to be, were we sitting in the jury box determining your guilt or + + innocence. Our lives and the lives that surround us depend on your +fairness. Thank you. + +As the prosecution began its case, one witness after the other +took the stand. I don't remember how many there were, but they +were a never-ending parade. The trial was a circus. The carefully +planned, carefully rehearsed case of the FBI and local New York +police began to fall apart from the moment the witnesses were +cross-examined. The prosecution was so desperate to get a convic­ +tion in this case that they resorted to stupid, theatrical devices that +backfired. One witness, also a drug dealer, hobbled up to the +witness stand with the "aid" of a cane, looking like he was two +steps from the grave. When asked about the source of his "injuries," +he stated that he had received them several years ago at the time of +the "kidnapping." Both he and the prosecutor must have forgotten +that just a few days ago he had bebopped into the kourtroom to +pick me out in an identification hearing, looking perfectly healthy. +Under cross-examination, he was forced to admit that he had +entered the kourtroom just a few days before without any visible +limp and without the "aid" of his cane. He was the only witness +who claimed he could positively identify me, because i "had spent +weekends at his house." But he didn't know the color of my eyes. +The so-called major witness, James Freeman, the supposed +"victim," told a real tearjerker about his kidnapping and the forced +ingestion of drugs during it. The prosecution had lightly glossed +over the fact that Freeman was a convicted drug dealer. We knew he +was connected with the FBI in some way, but it was not until he was +cross-examined by James Carroll, Ronald Myers' lawyer, that the +real picture of collusion between him and the FBI came out. Free­ +man testified that he was a paid informant for the FBI. When asked +if he had been paid by the FBI to frame me, he said he "couldn't +talk about it." +At the end of the people's case, our motions for a verdict of +dismissal of the indictment were denied, and we put on our defense. +Evelyn and Martha Pitts, a good friend of mine, were working +around the clock. Since we could not afford to pay investigators, +they did all the leg work. Martha, a registered nurse, investigated +Freeman's claim of being drugged. Evelyn was running around like +crazy after kourt was over looking for witnesses to testify. Most of it +seemed futile to me, since i could not conceive of how one finds +defense witnesses in a frame-up. By the time we called our first +witness, Evelyn was looking smug and rubbing her hands together. + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +"We've got their ass this time," she grinned. "They didn't use +enough dirt to cover their tracks. " +And they didn't. Records subpoenaed from the state Liquor +Authority proved that the bar was owned by someone else, not by +the witness who had testified to be the owner. The real owner +testified that he had closed the bar before the alleged kidnapping, +that he had visited it every day during the period of time it has +hosted the "kidnapping," and had locked the door as he left and +had given no one permission to use it. The bar had been closed for +one year before the alleged crime. The irrefutable and obvious +conclusion was that, in fact, there was no bar, no "scene" of the +alleged crime, and, therefore, no crime. Subpoenaed medical rec­ +ords and expert medical testimony showed that Freeman's stomach +contained only a couple of aspirin, hardly supporting his testimony +that he had been drugged with some drugs he could not identify, +which he had been forced to swallow and which had left him +knocked out for several hours. +Sure enough, on December 8, 1 975 , after four months of trial, +the jury acquitted Ronald Myers and me. + + Chapter 1 2 + +hen i entered Manhattan +Community College i fully intended to major in busi­ +ness administration and then graduate into a job in +marketing or advertising. Instead, i took only one +business course. History, psychology, and sociology +interested me more than learning how to sell some­ +body something. +I had truly lucked up. I had gone back to school +at a time when struggle and activity were growing, +when Black consciousness and nationalism were on +the upswing. I had also lucked up on the school. +Manhattan Community College had a very high +percentage of Black and Third World students, more +than fifty percent. The level of activity was high, both +on campus and off. The Golden Drums, the Black +organization on campus, whose president was a prin­ +cipled, disciplined brother named Henry Jackson, +was pushing for more Black studies courses, Black +teachers, programs more responsive to the needs of +Black students, and cultural awareness. They gave all +kinds of programs on African dancing, drawing, and +more. By word of mouth or by the bulletin board, we +were turned on to concerts, plays, poetry readings, etc. +The Last Poets, a group of young Black poets, knocked +me out. I had always thought of poetry in a European +sense, but The Last Poets spoke in African rhythms, +chanted to the beat of African drums, and talked +about revolution. When we'd leave their place on +125th Street-i think it was called the Blue Guerrilla-we'd be so excited and fired up we didn't even +notice the long subway ride home. +If i was running myself ragged before i went back +to school, now i was flying. I was learning and chang- + +/ + +I 73 + + ASSATA +I 74 + +ing every day. Even my image of myself was changing, as well as my +concept of beauty. One day a friend asked me why i didn't wear my +hair in an Afro, natural. The thought had honestly never occurred +to me. In those days, there weren't too many Afros on the set. But +the more i thought about it, the better it sounded. I had always +hated frying my hair-burnt ears, a smokey straightening, and the +stink of your own hair burning. How many nights had i spent +trying to sleep on curlers, bound with scarves that cut into my head +like a tourniquet. Afraid to go to the beach, afraid to walk in the +rain, afraid to make passionate love on hot summer nights if i had +to get up and go to work in the morning. Afraid my hair would "go +back." Back to where? Back to the devil or Africa. The permanent +was even worse: trying to sit calmly while lye was eating its way into +my brain. Clumps of hair falling out. The hair on your head feeling +like someone else's. +And then i became aware of a whole new generation of Black +women hiding under wigs. Ashamed of their hair-if they had any +left. It was sad and disgusting. At the time, my hair was conked, +but the hairdresser said it was "relaxed." To make it natural, i +literally had to cut the conk off. I cut it myself and then stood +under the shower for hours melting the conk out. At last, my hair +was free. On the subway the next day, people stared at me, but my +friends at school were supportive and encouraging. People are right +when they say it's not what you have on your head but what you +have in it. You can be a revolutionary-thinking person and have +your hair fried up. And you can have an Afro and be a traitor to +Black people. But for me, how you dress and how you look have +always reflected what you have to say about yourself. When you +wear your hair a certain way or when you wear a certain type of +clothes, you are making a statement about yourself. When you go +through all your life processing and abusing your hair so it will +look like the hair of another race of people, then you are making a +statement and the statement is clear. I don't care if it's the curly +conk, latex locks, or whatever, you're making a statement. +It was a matter of simple statement for me. This is who i am +and this is how i like to look. This is what i think is beautiful. You +can spend a lifetime discovering African-style hairdresses, there are +so many of them, and so many creative, natural styles yet to be +invented. For me, it was important not just because of how good it +made me feel but because of the world in which i lived. In a country +that is trying to completely negate the image of Black people, that +constantly tells us we are nothing, our culture is nothing, i felt and +still feel that we have got to constantly make positive statements + + about ourselves. Our desire to be free has got to manitest itseit m +everything we are and do. We have accepted too much of a negative +lifestyle and a negative culture and have to consciously act to rid +ourselves of that negative influence. Maybe in another time, when +everybody is equal and free, it won't matter how anybody wears +their hair or dresses or looks. Then there won't be any oppressors +to mimic or avoid mimicking. But right now i think it's important +for us to look and feel like strong, proud Black men and women +who are looking toward Africa for guidance. +I wasn't in school but a hot minute when a brother in my math +class told me about the Golden Drums. After a couple of meetings i +was hooked. They addressed me as sister, were glad to see me at +meetings, worried about how I was making out in school, and were +really concerned about me as a person. +The subject of one of the many lectures scheduled by the +Drums was about a slave who had plotted and planned and fought +for his freedom. Right here in amerika. Until then my only knowl­ +edge of the history of Africans in amerika was about George +Washington Carver making experiments with peanuts and about +the Underground Railroad. Harriet Tubman had always been my +heroine, and she had symbolized everything that was Black resist­ +ance for me. But it had never occurred to me that hundreds of Black +people had got together to fight for their freedom. The day i found +out about Nat Turner I was affected so strongly it was physical. I +was so souped up on adrenalin i could barely contain myself. I +tore through every book my mother had. Nowhere could i find the +name Nat Turner. +I had grown up believing the slaves hadn't fought back. I +remember feeling ashamed when they talked about slavery in +school. The teachers made it seem that Black people had nothing to +do with the official "emancipation" from slavery. White people had +freed us. +You couldn't catch me without a book in my hand after that. I +read everything from J. A. Rogers to Julius Lester. From Sonia +Sanchez to Haki Madhubuti (Don L. Lee). I saw plays by Black +playwrights like Amiri Baraka and Ed Bullins. It was amazing. A +whole new world opened up to me. I was also meeting a lot of +sisters and brothers whose level of consciousness was much higher +than mine-Black people who had gained knowledge not only by +reading but by participating in the struggle, who talked about +Denmark Vesey, Gabriel Prosser, Cinque, as well as Nat Turner, +because they had gone out of their way to learn about our history +and our struggle. + +ASSATA +I 75 + + ASSATA + +Many of us have misconceptions about Black history in amerika. +What we are taught in the public school system is usually inaccu­ +rate, distorted, and packed full of outright lies. Among the most +common lies are that Lincoln freed the slaves, that the Civil War +was fought to free the slaves, and that the history of Black people in +amerika has consisted of slow but steady progress, that things have +gotten better, bit by bit. Belief in these myths can cause us to make +serious mistakes in analyzing our current situation and in planning +future action. +Abraham Lincoln was in no way whatsoever a friend of Black +people. He had little concern for our plight. In his famous reply to +editor Horace Greeley in August, 1862, he openly stated: +My paramount objective in this struggle is to save the Union, and is +not either to save or destroy slavery. If I could save the Union without +freeing any slave, I would do it and if i could save it by freeing some +and leaving others alone, I would also do that. + +Lincoln was elected president in 1 860. Immediately afterward, +South Carolina had a convention and unanimously voted to with­ +draw from the Union. Before he had even been inaugurated, Flor­ +ida, Georgia, Alabama, Mississippi, Louisiana, and Texas followed +suit. In his inaugural speech on March 4, 1 86 1 , Lincoln said that +slavery was legal under the constitution and that he had no right +and no intention to abolish slavery. He further promised to enforce +the Fugitive Slave Act, which permitted Southern slave owners to +"reclaim" their escaped slaves in Northern states. What the law +actually did was give any white man with a "certificate of +ownership" the right to kidnap any "free" Black man, woman, or +child in the North and force them into slavery. Because of this +position, Lincoln received a great deal of criticism from Black +abolitionists. Ford Douglas, a runaway slave who accompanied +Frederick Douglass on his anti-slavery tours in the West, blasted +Lincoln's position, saying, +In regard to the repeal of the Fugitive Slave Law, Abraham Lincoln +occupies the same position that the old Whig Party occupied in +185 2 . . . . Here, then, is Abraham Lincoln in favor of carrying out +that infamous Fugitive Slave Law, that not only strikes down the +liberty of every black man in the United States, but virtually the +liberty of every white man as well, for, under that law, there is not a +man in this presence who might not be arrested today upon the +simple testimony of one man, and, after an ex-parte trial, hurried off +to slavery and to chains. + + On April 12, 1 86 1 , Southern troops fired on Fort Sumter, +South Carolina, thus starting the Civil War. The response of the +Northerners was electrifying. Millions who had been indifferent or +lukewarm to the secession of the South jumped on the bandwagon +to defend the Union. But the enthusiasm was short-lived. They +already viewed Black workers in the North as competitors for their +jobs, and the white Northerners, for fear of losing even more jobs +to the Blacks, refused to enlist in sufficient numbers for the North +to win the war. When the draft law was enacted, tens of thousands +of white workers in New York City took to the streets and brutally +beat and murdered every Black person they could find. It has been +estimated that between four hundred and a thousand Blacks were +killed as a result of the so-called New York draft law riots. Draft +riots and the murder of Blacks also took place in other Northern +cities. +Lincoln had originally opposed Blacks fighting in the Civil +War, stating: +I admit that slavery is at the root of the rebellion, and at least its sine +qua non. . . . I will also concede that emancipation would help us in +Europe. . . . I grant, further, that it would help somewhat at the +North, though not so much, I fear, as you and those you represent +imagine . . . . And then, unquestionably, it would weaken the Rebels +by drawing off their laborers, which is of great importance; but I am +not so sure we could do much with the Blacks. If we were to arm +them, I fear that in a few weeks the arms would be in the hand of the +Rebels . (History of the Negro Race in America, Vol. II, p. 265.) + +Northern whites were more than happy at the prospect of +Black people fighting in the war. A popular verse published in the +newspapers of the day reflected the sentiment of many North­ +erners: +Some say it is a bumin' shame +To make the naygurs fight +An' that the trade 0 ' bein' kilt +Belongs but to the white; +But as for me upon me sowl, +So liberal are we here, +!'lI let Sambo be murthered in place 0 ' meself +On every day in the year. + +It was not until 1 8 63 that Lincoln in fact issued the Emancipa­ +tion Proclamation. But the document had very little immediate + +ASSATA + +I 77 + + ASSATA + +effect. It freed slaves only in the Confederate states; the slaves in +states loyal to the Union remained slaves. Lincoln clearly did not +believe Black people could live in the u.s. as equal citizens. In the +Lincoln-Douglas debates, he stated: +If all earthly power were given to me, I should not know what to do +as to the existing institution. My first impulse would be to free all +the slaves and send them to Liberia-to their own native land. But a +moment's reflection would convince me that, whatever of high hope +. . . there may be in this, in the long run its sudden execution is +impossible . . . . What then ? Free them all and keep them among us +as underlings? It is quite certain that this betters their condition? I +think I would not hold one in slavery at any rate, yet the point is not +clear enough for me to denounce people upon. What next? Free +them and make them politically and socially our equals? My own +feelings will not admit of this, and, if mine would, we well know that +those of the great mass of whites will not. + +Lincoln was a firm believer in the massive exportation of Black +people anywhere. In 1 8 65, at the end of the war, he asked General +Butler to explore the possibility of using the navy to remove Black +people to Haiti or to other areas in the Caribbean and South +America. +It's also important to understand that the Civil War was not +fought to free the slaves. It was a war between two economic +systems, a war for power and control of the u.s. by two separate +factions of the ruling class: rich, white Southern slave owners and +rich, white Northern industrialists. The battle was between a plan­ +tation slave economy and an industrial manufacturing economy. +An industrial revolution was taking place in the years before +the Civil War. Inventions such as the cotton gin, the telegraph, +steamships, and steam trains completely changed methods of man­ +ufacturing, transportation, mining, communications, agriculture, +and trade. The amount of goods produced was no longer deter­ +mined by the number of people working in the process but by the +capacity of the machines. Amerika was no longer a country that +produced raw materials for the manufacturing nations in Europe. +By 1 8 60, the census reports that 1,385,000 people were employed +in manufacturing and that one-sixth of the whole population was +directly supported by manufacturing. The number was much +higher when clerks, transportation workers, and merchants were +added. +As manufacturing centers began to grow, European immi­ +grants were imported as a source of cheap labor. More than five + + million entered the u.s. between 1 820 and 1 860. Although the +South had many cotton mills functioning, the factories were small +and their numbers grew slowly. In 1 850, the value of manufactured +goods produced in the Northern "free" states was four times the +output of the Southern "slave" states. And with the rise of industry +came the rise of economic crisis and the threat of industrial col­ +lapse. +Even though there had been economic crises in the past, +people had generally lived on farms and the economic depressions +didn't create such a great hardship for the masses. But with many +people living in cities, economic crises meant unemployment and +no way to pay for food, clothing, and shelter. The first big crash +came in 1 825, followed by further depressions in 1 829, 1 837, +1 847, and a severe depression in 1 856. The recession in 1 857 +almost completely destroyed the early labor movement. The poverty +in Northern and Southern cities was staggering. Rags, filth, squa­ +lor, hunger, and misery were words used to describe the ghettos of +the 1 800s. +To solve the problems in industrial cities, many called for +reforms such as the abolition of debtors' prison, an end to the laws +that kept white men who did not own property from voting, free +education, the right to strike, an end to child labor, establishment +of a ten-hour workday, and granting of land in the West to poor +people in the cities. Big business proposed the expansion of cap­ +italism and industry to other parts of the country. And this was +where Northern capitalists clashed with Southern slave owners. +Northern capitalists wanted new states to enter the Union as +"free" states. Slave owners wanted new states to enter as "slave" +states. To maintain a balance of power, the North and the South +had entered into several compromises. The main one was the +Missouri Compromise. Northern capitalists were afraid slave +owners would open factories and produce goods more cheaply +because they didn't have to pay for labor. White workers were afraid +of losing their jobs because of slavery. Southern plantation owners, +of course, wanted the system of slavery to expand across the coun­ +try. +All the differences between the North and the South were +economic, not moral. For capitalists to control the economy and +the political system, the slave system had to be defeated. +In 1 85 6, the newborn republican party ran Abraham Lincoln, +a former whig, as their first presidential candidate. He lost. In +1 8 60, he ran again with a strong, three-point platform: + +ASSATA + +I 79 + +/ + + ASSATA + +ISO + +1 . To shut slavery out of the territories. +2. To establish large protective tariffs. +3. To enact a homestead law giving a medium-size farm free to +anyone willing to till the land. + +The platform was designed to appeal to rich Northern capitalists, +poor white laborers, farmers, and abolitionists. For only a tiny +portion of the population was the abolition of slavery a moral issue, +and the overwhelming majority of the white people who supported +the abolition of slavery or who fought in the Union's army did so +because they believed it was in their interests, not for love or +concern for Black people. +I was gradually becoming more active. I began to control my life. +Before going back to college, i knew i didn't want to be an intellec­ +tual, spending my life in books and libraries without knowing +what the hell was going on in the streets. Theory without practice is +just as incomplete as practice without theory. The two have to go +together. I was determined to do both. +The major way i got hip to things was by listening to people. +The Black students going to Manhattan Community College be­ +longed to every type of organization. There were Black Muslims, +Garveyites, Malcolm X's Organization of Afro-American Unity +(OAAU), members of various community and cultural organiza­ +tions, and a few who were young turks of the NAACP. We got +together and talked about everything under the sun. I did a whole +lot more listening than talking, but i asked questions about any­ +thing i didn't understand. Sometimes the discussions and debates +got so heated that they lasted until eleven o'clock, when night +school ended and the building was being closed up. +One of the first organizations i checked out was a Garveyite +group that had a big hall on 125th Street. I had just read a book on +Marcus Garvey. In fact, i had only recently learned he existed. It +was a shame. Here he had headed up one of the strongest move­ +ments of Black people in amerika and i hadn't heard about him +until i was grown. One of the brothers who was studying there +invited me to a meeting. +The meeting was upstairs. There seemed to be hundreds of +chairs in the room. I arrived a little early and hardly anyone was +there. I spotted the brother who had invited me, and he introduced +me to the ten or fifteen people already there. We sat around in a +little group talking and waiting for the others to arrive. They never +came. It was obvious that everyone knew each other and had been + + coming to these meetings for a long time. After a while, a speaker +climbed the podium. He welcomed me to the meeting, then gave an +impassioned speech. One after another got up and gave speeches as +if they were talking to a roomful of people. The others applauded +loudly. I felt sad. They were such nice people, and so sincere, but +their circle had grown so small they were reduced to giving +speeches to each other. +No movement can survive unless it is constantly growing and +changing with the times. If it isn't growing, it's stagnant, and +without the support of the people, no movement for liberation can +exist, no matter how correct its analysis of the situation is. That's +why political work and organizing are so important. Unless you are +addressing the issues people are concerned about and contributing +positive direction, they'll never support you. The first thing the +enemy tries to do is isolate revolutionaries from the masses of +people, making us horrible and hideous monsters so that our +people will hate us. +All we usually hear about are the so-called responsible leaders, +the ones who are "responsible" to our oppressors. In the same way +that we don't hear about a fraction of the Black men and women +who have struggled hard and tirelessly throughout our history, we +don't hear about our heroes of today. +The schools we go to are reflections of the society that created +them. Nobody is going to give you the education you need to +overthrow them. Nobody is going to teach you your true history, +teach you your true heroes, if they know that that knowledge will +help set you free. Schools in amerika are interested in brainwashing +people with amerikanism, giving them a little bit of education, and +training them in skills needed to fill the positions the capitalist +system requires. As long as we expect amerika's schools to educate +us, we will remain ignorant. +The parents in the Ocean Hill-Brownsville section of +Brooklyn, like Black parents all around New York at that time, +were pushing for control of the schools in their communities. They +wanted a say in what their children were taught, in how their +schools were run, and in who was teaching their children. They +wanted the local school boards to have hiring-and-firing power over +teachers in their districts, but the city's board of education and the +American Federation of Teachers was against them. +A whole bunch of us from Manhattan Community College +loaded on the subway and took the train out to a demonstration +called by the Ocean Hill-Brownsville parents. As soon as we got off + +ASSATA + +/ + + ASSATA +I82 + +the train we ran into some students from CCNY. It seemed like the +whole train had been heading for the demonstration, and it was +just the kind of demonstration i like. +An energetic sea of Black faces. Proud, alive, angry, disciplined, +upbeat, and, most of all, with that sisterly, brotherly kinship i loved. +Several of the parents spoke to the crowd, along with the Black +principal the parents had insisted on hiring. A Black teacher, head +wrapped in a galee, talked about the importance of Black people +controlling our schools. She made sweeping gestures with her +bangled arms as she spoke. Everybody dug what she said. We were +all high on the atmosphere. It seemed like a kinetic dance was +boogying in the air. +When it was over, i hated to go home. There aren't too many +experiences that give you that good, satisfied feeling, that make you +feel so clean and refreshed, as when you are fighting for your +freedom. +Most of us felt that taking control of our neighborhoods was +the first step toward liberation. We sat in the subway station trip­ +ping. When a train did come, we just let it pass. First we would take +control of the schools; then we would take control of the hospitals; +then we would take control of the colleges, the housing, etc., etc. +We would have community-controlled employment, welfare cen­ +ters, and city, state, and federal agencies. +"Hold on for a minute," somebody said. "Where are ya'll +gonna get the money to run all that stuff?" +"We'll take community control of the banks," someone else +answered. +"You'd better take control of the army, too, because those +banks aren't gonna just let you take their money lying down." +"We'll take control of the political institutions in our com­ +munity. Then we'll take control of the congressional seats, the +senate seats, the city council seats, the mayor's office, and every +other office that we can take control of. We'll take control of the +political offices so we can allocate money to the people who need +it. " +"Y'all just wishing and hoping," someone said. "You can +control the social institutions and the political institutions, but +unless you control the economic and military institutions, you can +only go but so far." +Everybody just sort of got quiet, thinking. +"Well, what are we supposed to do, then ? Just sit back and do +nothing?" + + "Fighting for community control is just the first step. It can +only go so far. What you need is a revolution. " +Everybody started talking about what the brother had said. +We were all confused, but we were all enthused. That was the one +thing i dug about those days. We were alive and we were excited +and we believed that we were going to be free someday. For us, it +wasn't a matter of whether or not. It was a question of how. +We always started out talking about reform and ended up +talking about revolution. If you were talking about anything except +a few little jive crumbs here and there, reform was just not going to +get it. I was long past the day when i thought that reform could +possibly work, but revolution was a big question mark. I believed, +with all my heart, that it was possible. But the question was how. +I had heard a lot about the Republic of New Afrika and had +promised myself to check it out. The Provisional Government of the +Republic of New Afrika advocated the establishment of a separate +Black nation within the u.s., to be made up of what is now South +Carolina, Georgia, Alabama, Mississippi, and Louisiana. At the +time, i thought the group was kind of wild and far out, but i got 0/ +good feeling being around them and the idea of a Black nation +appealed to me. +The first time i attended a Republic of New Afrika event, i +drank in the atmosphere and enjoyed the easy audacity of it all. The +surroundings were gay and carnival-like. A group of brothers were +pounding out Watusi, Zulu, and Yoruba messages on the drums. +Groups of sisters and brothers danced to motherland rhythms until +their skins were glazed with sweat. Speeches were woven between +songs and poems. Vibrant sisters and brothers with big Afros and +flowing African garments strolled proudly up and down the aisles. +Bald-headed brothers, wearing combat boots and military uniforms +with leopard-skin epaulets, stood around with their arms folded, +looking dangerous. Little girls running and laughing, their heads +wrapped with galees, tiny little boys wearing tiny little dashikis. +People calling each other names like Jamal, Malik, Kisha, or +Aiesha. Sandlewood and coconut incense floated through the air. +Red, black, and green flags hung from the rafters alongside posters +of Malcolm and Marcus Garvey. Serious-looking young men, wear­ +ing jeans and green army field jackets, passed out leaflets. Exotic­ +looking sisters and brothers, decked out in red, black, and green, +sat behind felt-covered tables and sold incense, bead earrings, and +an assortment of other items. + +ASSATA +I 83 + + ASSATA + +"Peace, sister/' a voice said. "Do you wanna be a citizen?" +"What?" i asked, without the slightest notion of what she was +talking about. +"A citizen," she repeated. "Do you want to be a citizen of the +Republic of New Afrika ?" +"How do i become a citizen?" +"Easy. Just sign your name in the citizens' book." +"That's all?" +"Yeah. You want a name?" +"A name?" +"Yeah, sista, a name. If you want an African name, just ask +that brother over there to give you one." +The brother she pointed out was wearing a long bubba with +matching pants and a matching fez-type hat. He was wearing +various necklaces made of beads, bones, shells, and pieces of wood. +His left ear was pierced and his face was strained in concentration, +the veins in his forehead throbbing. +Without giving it a second thought, i went over to have my +name changed. The brother looked at me, asked me a couple of +questions which i don't remember, and then began shaking a +container furiously. He hurled out the contents, which turned out +to be shells, onto a soft cloth. After a long, concentrated stare at the +shells and after glancing back and forth at me, the brother decided +that my name was Ybumi Oladele. He spelled the name out to me +as i wrote it down, then i hurried over to the sister's table and +became a citizen of the Republic of New Afrika. Ybumi Oladele. I +liked the way it sounded. Soft and musical, kinda happy-sounding. +I filed my new name away in my pocketbook and continued suck­ +ing in the atmosphere, tripping out on the idea of a Black nation in +Babylon, a nation of Black people smack dab in the middle of the +belly of the beast. Imagining Black youth flourishing and being +nourished in Black schools, taught by teachers who loved them and +who taught them to love themselves. Controlling their lives, their +institutions, working together to build a humane society, ending +the long legacy of suffering Black people have endured at the hands +of amerika. My mind spaced out on the idea and in a minute i was +imagining red, black, and green buses, apartment buildings with +African motifs, Black television shows, and movies that reflected the +real quality of Black life rather than the real quality of white racism. +I imagined everything from cities called Malcolmville and New +Lumumba to a reception for revolutionary leaders around the +world at the Black House. Sure enough, i liked the idea of a Black +nation, but i didn't give it any serious consideration as a possible + + solution. Back then, the idea just seemed too farfetched. I guess, at +the time, having an African name seemed a little farfetched, too. I +told my friends about the name, talked about it for a few days, and +then promptly forgot about it. +It wasn't until years later-after college and more revolutionary +activism and marriage-that i began to seriously think about +changing my name. The name JoAnne began to irk my nerves. I +had changed a lot and moved to a different beat, felt like a different +person. It sounded so strange when people called me JoAnne. It +really had nothing to do with me. I didn't feel like no JoAnne, or no +Negro, or no amerikan. I felt like an African woman. From the time +i picked my hair out in the morning to the time i slipped off to +sleep with Mingus in the background, i felt like an African woman +and rejoiced in it. My big, abstract black and white inkblot-looking +painting was replaced by paintings of Black people and revolution­ +ary posters. My life became an African life, my surroundings took +on an African flavor, my spirit took on an African glow. From the +paintings on my walls to the big, fat pillows on my floor, from the +incense burning in the air to the music dancing through the rooms, +my whole life was moving to African rhythms. My mind, heart, +and soul had gone back to Africa, but my name was still stranded +in Europe somewhere. JoAnne was bad enough, but at least my +mother had given it to me. As for Chesimard, well, i could only +come to one conclusion. Somebody named Chesimard had been +the slavemaster of my ex-husband's ancestors. Chesimard, like +most other last names Black people use today, was derived from +massa. Black folks went from being Mr. johnson's Mary and Mr. +Jackson's Paul to being Mary Johnson and Paul Jackson. Some­ +times, before dozing off to sleep, i would lie in bed and think about +it, wondering how many slaves Chesimard had owned in Martini­ +que and how often he beat them. I would stare up at the ceiling +wondering how many Black women Chesimard had raped, how +many Black babies he had fathered, and how many Black people he +had been responsible for killing. +So the name finally had to go. I thought about Ybumi +Oladele, but there was one problem. I didn't know what the name +meant. My new name had to mean something really special to me. +At the time, there were little pamphlets being put out listing names +and their meanings, but i had a hard time finding one i liked. A lot +of the names had to do with flowers or songs or birds or other +things like that. Others meant born on Thursday, faithful, loyal, or +even things like tears, or little fool, or one who giggles. The + +ASSATA +I 85 + + ASSATA + +I 86 + +women's names were nothing like the men's names, which meant +things like strong, warrior, man of iron, brave, etc. I wanted a name +that had something to do with struggle, something to do with the +liberation of our people. I decided on Assata Olugbala Shakur. +Assata means "She who struggles," Olugbala means "Love for the +people," and i took the name Shakur out of respect for Zayd and +Zayd's family. Shakur means "the thankful." +At first, the Golden Drums society concentrated its efforts on Black +culture and history. But after a while we started to examine our role +as students. We didn't want to be tape recorders, recording what­ +ever information, facts, lies they gave us and then playing them all +back during examinations. We began to talk about an education +that was relevant to us as Black people, that we could take back to +our communities. We didn't want to learn Latin or classical Greek. +We wanted to learn things that we could use to help free our +people. +One of our first struggles centered on student government. +Most of us were from working-class or poor families and we +wanted a student government that was responsive to what we +needed. We didn't need a student government that was brownnos­ +ing the administration in return for favors and good grades. We +wanted a student government that supported a Black studies pro­ +gram, more Black faculty members, and other Black causes. As a +result, the Golden Drum Society and the Students for Democratic +Society (SDS) ran a joint ticket and won by a landslide. +It soon became evident that having control of the student +government wasn't enough. It had no real power. We would pass +resolutions and come up with proposals, which the administration +would promptly deny. The only power we had was over the student +government budget. Instead of inviting reactionary "scholars" or +politicians to speak, we invited the Young Lords or the Black +Panther Party or some other group who was saying something +relevant. +One of our proposals was for students to work during the +summer in remedial programs to improve the level of kids who had +trouble with reading and math. Our idea was to have a few kids +assigned to each student-teacher. In that way, each one would +receive the individual attention he or she needed. The academic +curriculum was to be supplemented with courses that would en­ +hance the students' sense of self-worth and give them more of a +sense of their history. Student-teachers would work with parents, +visit the kids' homes, and create a kind of day camp by offering + + sports, trips, crafts, etc. Several of the Black faculty members helped +us with the proposal. As soon as it was submitted it was rejected. +The administration claimed there was no money. A small +investigation into finances, aided by some concerned Black and +white faculty members, revealed that the president of the college +was living in a house rent-free, that taxpayers were also providing +him with chauffeur and maid services, and that student fees, which +had not been spent in previous years, were being invested on the +stock market. A rather strange financial picture was emerging. +After we made some of our investigation results known to the +administration, we were informed that the money for the project +had been found. +As a student-teacher i taught reading and math in the morning +and arts and crafts in the afternoon. The morning classes were tiny, +while the afternoon classes were larger, combining various morning +groups. The curriculum included Black history, dancing and drum­ +ming, physical education, arts and crafts, in addition to reading +and math. There was an excursion every Friday afternoon. +My mother thought my teaching reading and writing was a +joke. My spelling is terrible, and my skills in mathematics are +limited to two and two equaling four. To prepare myself for the +day's lesson, i had to study just as hard as the kids. My students +shocked the hell out of me. Through conversation, it was obvious +just how bright they were, yet they scored way below their grade +levels in reading and math. There was such a big contradiction +between the intelligence they exhibited in class and their test scores +that i didn't know where to begin. The books we had to work with +were Reader's Digest-like textbooks that i couldn't even imagine +using. I didn't even want to read those things and i knew sure as +hell that my students wouldn't want to use them. So every day, i +took the vocabulary out of those books and wrote a little story, +something i thought the students would find interesting, typed it on +a stencil, and ran it off. I brought all kinds of books to school for +them to read, and as long as they found the books interesting, those +students would read until the cows came home. I was learning just +as much as the kids. I found it oppressive playing teacher all the +time, so every day i rotated the thing around. Everybody got to be +teacher for a while. It was also great for discipline, since if some­ +body acted up in your class, you were free to act up in theirs. +Nobody wanted people to act up in their class so everyone was +more or less cool. +In order to teach, each one of us had to prepare our lesson and +know what we were talking about. One of the boys in the class + +ASSATA + +I87 + + ASSATA + +I88 + +worked so hard on his lessons that he would just lay me out. I don't +know where he is now or what he's doing, but if he isn't a teacher, +it's a damn shame, because he would have been a great one. He +would cut out pictures and even make up math games for us to play. +My class in the afternoon was usually exhausting. Clay, paint, +papier-mache over everything and everyone, especially me. The first +days of that class i wanted to do nothing but go somewhere and +have a good cry. On the first day of the arts and crafts class i had +nothing really prepared, so i asked everyone to draw themselves. +When i looked at the drawings i felt faint. All of the students were +Black, yet the drawings depicted a lot of blond-haired, blue-eyed +little white children. I was horrified. I went home and ransacked +every magazine i could find with pictures of Black people. I came in +early the next day and plastered the walls with pictures of Black +people. We talked about what was beautiful. We talked about all +the different kinds of beauty in the world and about all the different +kinds of flowers in the world. And then we talked about the +different kinds of beauty that people have and about the beauty of +Black people. We talked about our lips and our noses. We made +African masks out of clay and papier-mache, made African sculp­ +tures, painted pictures of Black people, of Black neighborhoods. +Over the summer i felt the classroom changing. The kids were +changing and so was i. We were feeling good about ourselves and +feeling good about being with each other. +I was so involved in working at the school that i had time for +little else. If one of the students didn't come to school, i was at his +or her house that very day wanting to know why. I would go home +and spend hours rewriting some story or preparing for the next day. +Half the time my mother would find me asleep with a book in my +hands and all the lights on. I loved working with the kids, and i +loved teaching. My mother helped me quite a lot and we grew closer +than we had ever been before. I thought about becoming a teacher +but decided against it. +For the first time, i became aware of what my mother had been +going through all those years trying to teach in New York schools. +Most of these principals are caught up in bureaucracy and they +force the teachers to be caught up in it too. They care more about +what the teachers have written in their plan books than what they +are actually teaching in the class. My mother was working in an +environment where white teachers often showed a hostile, conde­ +scending attitude toward Black children and where some teachers +thought of themselves as zookeepers rather than teachers. +As much as i loved working with kids, i knew that i could never + + participate in the board-of-education kind of teaching. I wasn't +teaching no Black children to say the pledge of allegiance or to +think George Washington was great or any other such bullshit. +That fall, the level of activity on campus surpassed anything +that we had dreamed of. Large numbers of students became in­ +volved in the antiwar movement. It seemed that there was no time +to catch up with all of the things that were happening. I would be at +the construction workers' demonstration one day and then march­ +ing with the welfare mothers the next. We got down with every­ +thing-rent strikes, sit-ins, the takeover of the Harlem state office +building, whatever it was. If we agreed with it, we would try to give +active support in some way. The more active i became the more i +liked it. It was like medicine, making me well, making me whole. I +was home. For the first time, my life felt like it had some real +meaning. Everywhere I turned, Black people were struggling, +Puerto Ricans were struggling. It was beautiful. I love Black people, +i don't care what they are doing, but when Black people are +struggling, that's when they are most beautiful to me. +As usual, i was speeding. My energy just couldn't stop danc­ +ing. I was caught up in the music of struggle, and i wanted to +dance. I was never bored and never lonely, and the brothers and +sisters who became my friends were so beautiful to me. I would +mention their names, but the way things are today, i'd only be +sending the FBI or the CIA to their doors. +There were a lot of communist groups on campus. I had no +idea at the time that there were so many different kinds of commu­ +nists and socialists. I had been so brainwashed i had thought that +all communists were the same, that there were Marxists, Leninists, +Maoists, Trotskyites, etc. Most of the so-called communists i met +weren't in any party at all, but just related to the philosophy of +communism. Most followed very different political lines and poli­ +cies, and it was difficult for them to sit down and agree on the time +of day, much less hatch up some "communist plot." +I was surprised to learn that there were all different types of +capitalist countries and different types of communist countries. I +had heard "communist bloc" and "behind the iron curtain" so +much in the media, that i had naturally formed the impression that +these countries were all the same. Although they are all socialist, +East Germany, Bulgaria, Cuba, and North Korea are as different as +night and day. All of them have different histories, different +cultures, and different ways of applying the socialist theory, al­ +though they have the same economic and similar political systems. +It has never ceased to amaze me how so many people can be tricked + +ASSATA + +I89 + + ASSATA + +into hating people who have never done them any harm. You +simply mention the word "communist" and a lot of these red, +white, and blue fools are ready to kill. +I wasn't against communism, but i can't say i was for it either. +At first, i viewed it suspiciously, as some kind of white man's +concoction, until i read works by African revolutionaries and stud­ +ied the African liberation movements. Revolutionaries in Africa +understood that the question of African liberation was not just a +question of race, that even if they managed to get rid of the white +colonialists, if they didn't rid themselves of the capitalistic eco­ +nomic structure, the white colonialists would simply be replaced by +Black neocolonialists. There was not a single liberation movement +in Africa that was not fighting for socialism. In fact, there was not a +single liberation movement in the whole world that was fighting for +capitalism. The whole thing boiled down to a simple equation: +anything that has any kind of value is made, mined, grown, pro­ +duced, and processed by working people. So why shouldn't work­ +ing people collectively own that wealth ? Why shouldn't working +people own and control their own resources? Capitalism meant +that rich businessmen owned the wealth, while socialism meant +that the people who made the wealth owned it. +I got into heated arguments with sisters or brothers who +claimed that the oppression of Black people was only a question of +race. I argued that there were Black oppressors as well as white +ones. That's why you've got Blacks who support Nixon or Reagan +or other conservatives. Black folks with money have always tended +to support candidates who they believed would protect their finan­ +cial interests. As far as i was concerned, it didn't take too much +brains to figure out that Black people are oppressed because of class +as well as race, because we are poor and because we are Black. It +would burn me up every time somebody talked about Black people +climbing the ladder of success. Anytime you're talking about a +ladder, you're talking about a top and a bottom, an upper class and +a lower class, a rich class and a poor class. As long as you've got a +system with a top and a bottom, Black people are always going to +wind up at the bottom, because we're the easiest to discriminate +against. That's why i couldn't see fighting within the system. Both +the democratic party and the republican party are controlled by +millionaires. They are interested in holding on to their power, while +i was interested in taking it away. They were interested in supporting +fascist dictatorships in South and Central America, while i wanted +to see them overthrown. They were interested in supporting racist, +fascist regimes in Africa while i was interested in seeing them +overthrown. They were interested in defeating the Viet Cong and i + + was interested in seeing them win their liberation. A poster of the +massacre at My Lai, picturing women and children lying clumped +together in a heap, their bodies riddled with bullets, hung on my +wall as a daily reminder of the brutality in the world. +Manhattan Community College had not one course on Puerto +Rican history. The Puerto Rican sisters and brothers who knew +what was happening became our teachers. I had hung out all my +life with Puerto Ricans, and i didn't even know Puerto Rico was a +colony. They told us of the long and valiant struggle against the +first Spanish colonizers and then, later, against the u.s. government +and about their revolutionary heroes, the Puerto Rican Five-Lolita +Lebron, Rafael Miranda, Andres Cordero, Irving Flores, and Oscar +Coll.azo, each of whom had spent more than a quarter of a century +behind bars fighting for the independence of Puerto Rico. Once you +understand something about the history of a people, their heroes, +their hardships and their sacrifices, it's easier to struggle with them, +to support their struggle. For a lot of people in this country, people +who live in other places have no faces. And this is the way the u.s. +government wants it to be. They figure that as long as the people +have no faces and the country has no form, amerikans will not +protest when they send in the marines to wipe them out. +I had begun to think of myself as a socialist, but i could not in +any way see myself joining any of the socialist groups i came in +contact with. I loved to listen to them, learn from them, and argue +with them, but there was no way in the world i could see myself +becoming a member. For one thing, i could not stand the conde­ +scending, paternalistic attitudes of some of the white people in +those groups. Some of the older members thought that because +they had been in the struggle for socialism for a long time, they +knew all the answers to the problems of Black people and all the +aspects of the Black Liberation struggle. I couldn't relate to the idea +of the great white father on earth any more than i could relate to the +great white father up in the sky. I was willing and ready to learn +everything i could from them, but i damn sure was not ready to +accept them as leaders of the Black Liberation struggle. A few +thought that they had a monopoly on Marx and acted like the only +experts in the world on socialism came from Europe. In many +instances they downgraded the theoretical and practical contribu­ +tions of Third World revolutionaries like Fidel Castro, Ho Chi +Minh, Augustino Neto, and other leaders of liberation movements +in the Third World. +Another thing that went against my grain was the arrogance +and dogmatism i encountered in some of these groups. +A member of one group told me that if i was really concerned + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +about the liberation of Black people i should quit school and get a +job in a factory, that if i wanted to get rid of the system i would have +to work at a factory and organize the workers. When i asked him +why he wasn't working in a factory and organizing the workers, he +told me that he was staying in school in order to organize the +students. I told him i was working to organize the students too and +that i felt perfectly certain that the workers could organize them­ +selves without any college students doing it for them. Some of these +groups would come up with abstract, intellectual theories, totally +devoid of practical application, and swear they had the answers to +the problems of the world. They attacked the Vietnamese for par­ +ticipating in the Paris peace talks, claiming that by negotiating the +Viet Cong were selling out to the u.s. I think they got insulted when +i asked them how a group of flabby white boys who couldn't fight +their way out of a paper bag had the nerve to think they could tell +the Vietnamese people how to run their show. +Arrogance was one of the key factors that kept the white left so +factionalized. I felt that instead of fighting together against a com­ +mon enemy, they wasted time quarreling with each other about +who had the right line. +Although i respected the work and political positions of many +groups on the left, i felt it was necessary for Black people to come +together to organize our own structures and our own revolutionary +political party. Friendship is based on respect. As long as much of +the white left saw their role as organizing, educating, recruiting, +and directing Black revolutionaries, i could not see how any real +friendship could occur. I felt, and still feel, that it is necessary for +Black revolutionaries to come together, analyze our history, our +present condition, and to define ourselves and our struggle. Black +self-determination is a basic right, and if we do not have the right to +determine our destinies, then who does ? I believe that to gain our +liberation, we must come from the position of power and unity and +that a Black revolutionary party, led by Black revolutionary leaders, +is essential. I believe in uniting with white revolutionaries to fight +against a common enemy, but i was convinced that it had to be on +the basis of power and unity rather than from weakness and unity at +any cost. + + TO MY M O MMA + +To my momma, +who has swallowed the amerikan dream +and choked on it. +To my momma, +whose dreams have fought each other­ +and died. +Who sees, +but cannot bear to see. +A volcano eating its own lava. +To my momma, who couldn't turn +hell into paradise +and blamed herself. +Who has always seen +reflected in her mirror +an ugly duckling. +To my momma, +who makes no demands of anyone +cause she don't think she can afford to. +Who thinks her money talks +louder than her womanhood. +To my butchfem momma, +who has al ways +taken care of business. +Who has never drifted +hazily to sleep +thinking, "he will take care of it." +Who has schemed so much +she sometimes schemes against herself. +To my s weet, shy momma. +Who is uneasy with people +cause she don't know how +to be phony, +and is afraid to be real. +Who has longed for sculptured gardens. +Whose potted plant +dies slowly on the window sill. + +ASSATA + +I93 + + ASSATA + +I94 + +We have all been infected +with a sickness +that can be traced back +to the auction block. +You must not feel guilty +for what has been done to us. +Only the strong go crazy. +The weak just go along. +And what i thought was cruelty, +I understand was fear +that hands, stronger than yours, +and whiter than yours, +would strangle my young life +into oblivion. +Momma, i am proud of you. +I look at you +and see the strength of our people. +I have seen you struggle +in the dark; +the world beating on your back, +dragging your catch +back to our den. +Pulling your pots and pans out +to cook it. +A mop in one hand. +A pencil in the other, +marking up my homework +with your love. +The injured have no blame. +Let it fall on those who injure. +Leave the past behind +where it belongsand come with me +toward tomorrow. +I love you mommy +cause you are beautiful, +and i am life that springs from you: +part tree, part weed, part flower. +My roots run deep. +I have been nourished well. + + Chapter 1 3 + +am at school when i hear about it. Electric +shocks are zooming down my back the way they do +when i am about to go temporarily insane. On the +train, headed uptown, i am ready to riot. I am having +daymares on the subway, imagining myself with a +long knife slashing slits in white sheets. Ku Klux Klan +blood is spilling. You wanna look like a ghost, you +wanna look like a ghost, my mind keeps chanting, +you wanna look like a ghost, well, i'll make you one. +Sitting on the subway, bloody fantasies. I look out of +my daymare. Nobody is moving. Everybody screams. +Everybody has a frozen face. The train is slowing +down. Everybody is tensely looking at the door. +125th Street. I am going to a riot. I want to kill +someone. +Martin Luther King has been murdered. +The street wakes me up. There is no blood yet. +Everybody is getting into position. The wind is blow­ +ing rumors. The people are waiting. The streets are +rumbling. The tanks are coming. The natives are rest­ +less. The tanks will quiet the natives. The tanks are +coming. I feel absurd and impotent. +Who am i going to attack ? Where is a George +Lincoln Rockwell? I am ready to kill him. He will get +a chance to utter exactly two syllables before i cut +him off. He isn't there. Only the rumors and the +rumble of the tanks and the waiting. The store win­ +dows are filled with shit. You can't exchange Martin +Luther King for shit in the store window. Smashing +windows will do me no good. I am beyond that. I +want blood. The tanks are waiting to crush the resist­ +ance, squelch the disturbance. It crosses my mind: i +want to win. I don't want to rebel, i want to win. The + +I95 + + ASSATA + +revolution will not be televised on the six o'clock news. I have to +get myself ready. Revolution. The word has me going. +I am back on the subway. Nobody is looking at anybody. I +think i have my period. Sweat is rolling down my legs. I go home. +My mother is glad to see me. She knows that i am half crazy. The +television is wet with crocodile tears. REBELLION, REBELLIO US +CHILDREN, TEMPER TANTR UMS, REBELLION, REVOL UTION. I like +the word. +The grim reapers are abuzz. Reports about the natives. They +are excited. This is the stuff that news is made of. We are looking +at each other. Impassioned speeches sizzle on their tongues, caus­ +ing sour ashes to fall from our mouths. We are just sitting there. I +am thinking about revolution. The tonic. Abstract. Revolution. I +am tired of watching us lose. They kill our leaders, then they kill us +for protesting. Protest. Protest. Revolution. If it exists, i want to +find it. Bulletins. More bulletins. I'm tired of bulletins. I want +bullets. + +While i was going to CCNY, after i graduated from Manhattan +Community College, i decided to get married. My husband was +politically conscious, intelligent, and decent, and our affair was +frantic, high-pitched, and charged with emotion. Somehow, i be­ +lieved that our shared commitment to the Black Liberation struggle +would result in a "marriage made in heaven." I spent most of my +time at school, meetings, or demonstrations and whenever i was at +home my head was usually stuck in some book. It was unthinkable +to allow more than five minutes on mundane things like keeping +house or washing dishes. To complicate matters, my husband's +ideas about marriage stemmed mostly from his parents' life, where +his mother was the homemaker and his father was the breadwinner. +Spaghetti was about the only thing i could cook, and he was +profoundly shocked to learn i had none of his mother's domestic +skills. After a while, it became clear to me that i was about as ready +to be married as i was to grow wings and fly. So after a confused +and unhappy year, we decided we made much better friends than +marriage partners and called it quits. +I decided to go to California. It was becoming increasingly +clear to me that, although it was important for students to partici­ +pate in the struggle, no revolution had ever been won by students +alone. Struggling around school issues had narrowed my perspec­ +tive and i was getting bogged down. I wanted to expand that +struggle to the Black community. At that time California, especially +the Bay area, was where everything was happening. Some of my + + favorite professors were going out West for the summer and they +offered to hook me up with a place to stay. As usual, i was flat +broke, but a good friend gave me the money to make the trip, with +a little spending change thrown in. +My friends found a place for me in Berkeley, the most radical, +progressive place i had ever been in. Revolutionary posters were +plastered all over the walls, along with "people's murals." The +fronts of banks and other official buildings were bricked up as a +result of the demonstrations and street fighting that followed the +People's Park struggles. Red stars and Mao's Red Book were sold +on street corners, and food cooperatives sold health food at cheap +prices. People's collectives were dedicated to surviving, struggling, +and teaching. I was impressed with the kinds of informal solutions +they had cooked up to deal with the problems they faced, and i +enrolled in the practical skills classes they gave (printing and layout, +first aid, etc.). +There were books and pamphlets in the San Francisco and +Berkeley bookstores i had never seen in New York, and for the first +time i read the theory of urban guerrilla warfare as outlined by Che +Guevara, Carlos Mariguella, and the Tupamaros. I had been more +aware of imperialism in Vietnam or Cambodia, and the extent of +u.s. imperialism in South and Central America surprised me. The +u.s. government had invaded more than fifteen countries there, not +once or twice but in some cases more than ten times, and the +guerrilla movements were waging armed struggle in most of them. +Reading about guerrilla warfare in South America and Vietnam +was one thing, but thinking in terms of guerrilla war inside the u.s. +was another. +Back then, people used the word "revolution" just because it +sounded hep. Half the time what they were really talking about was +change or some kind of vague progress. Some meant a separate +Black nation, and others dealt with Black revolution as part of an +overall revolution waged by whites, Hispanics, Orientals, Native +Americans, and Blacks. Malcolm said it meant bloodshed and +land. To me, the revolutionary struggle of Black people had to be +against racism, capitalism, imperialism, and sexism and for real +freedom under a socialist government. But the reality of achieving it +seemed a long way off. +In Berkeley and San Francisco, the revolution didn't seem too +far away. A lot of white radicals, hippies, Chicanos, Blacks, and +Asians were ready to get down. But i hadn't forgotten the hardhats +and the rednecks and the bible belt and the so-called middle +amerikans who had elected Nixon. I couldn't imagine the "new + +ASSATA + +I9 7 + + ASSATA + +left" talking to those people, much less orgamzmg them and +changing their minds. I decided the only way i would come up with +some answers was to keep on studying and struggling. I didn't +know how half of what i was studying would fit in, but i figured it +would all come in handy some day. I read about guerrilla warfare +and clandestine struggle without having the faintest idea that one +day i would go underground. It's kind of funny when i think about +it, because reading all that stuff probably has saved my life a million +times. +As part of my first aid skills class, i worked as an assistant to a +doctor who volunteered once a week at Alcatraz. At the time, +Alcatraz had been taken over by Native Americans who were +protesting against a long series of broken treaties, genocidal poli­ +cies, and racist exploitation. Alcatraz symbolized the strength and +dignity of Indian people as well as their resolve to fight to preserve +their cultural traditions. I enjoyed everything about going there +except the trip. The doctor was a motorcycle fanatic who insisted +on zooming across the Golden Gate Bridge on that thing, with me +hanging on for dear life. Once on the other side we would jump +into a rickety little boat with water in the bottom and limp across +the bay to the island. By the time we got there i felt as if i had done +a day's work. +The first thing that hit me was the spirit of the people. I felt the +tremendous pride, tremendous determination, and tremendous +calm from the time i landed on the island until the time i left. They +were Native Americans from all over North America, including +Canada, from different tribes and backgrounds. They were young +and old. Little babies wiggled in their mother's arms, and one old +man who had spent many years in Alcatraz prison said that when +he arrived on the island he had taken a sledgehammer and reduced +the cell he had once been locked in to rubble. The prison, one of +the most infamous and sadistic ever to exist, loomed in the back­ +ground. +There were many different Indian nations, each with its own +rich culture, religious traditions, history, and folklore. Everybody +was into learning and teaching each other their own history and +culture. It was a surprise to find out how many Native Americans +had been raised in cities and knew nothing about who they were. In +that respect, they were very similar to Black people. Most of them +were from the West Coast, and so i told them about the Indian +Museum and the Museum of Natural History in New York. Sud­ +denly, i stopped short. I wondered how i would feel going into some +museum and seeing the houses and stolen artifacts of my people + + stuck away in some exhibition hall. As i spoke i realized that most +of the "history" i had been taught about the Indians was probably +lies invented by the white man. +It wasn't until later, for instance, that i learned that scalping +was an old European custom. In the 1 700s, the state of Mas­ +sachusetts was paying the equivalent of $60 for a scalp and Pennsyl­ +vania paid $ 1 34. It wasn't until more than a hundred years later, in +response to the massive genocide at the hands of whites, that the +Indians themselves started scalping. None of the little museum +exhibits featuring tepees and feather headdresses had ever men­ +tioned how men, women, and children were mowed down at +Wounded Knee or how the u.s. army had purposely given the +Indians smallpox-infected blankets. As i listened to those sisters +and brothers at Alcatraz i realized that the true history of any +oppressed people is impossible to find in history books. +I will always be grateful for having had the opportunity to visit +Alcatraz. I will never forget the quiet confidence of the Indians as +they went about their lives calmly, even though they were under the +constant threat of invasion by the FBI and the u.s. military. They +didn't fit into any of my preconceived notions or the stereotyped +images shown on TV and in the movies. They were really open with +me and, after a while, we talked about the struggle in general. They +had many of the same problems we had: education, organizing the +people to struggle, and raising consciousness. They damn sure had +the same enemy, and they were doing as bad as we were, if not +worse. They told me to check out Akwasasne when i returned to +New York. It was a territory they had liberated on the border +between New York and Canada. I told them if they ever came to +New York they should visit me and check out Harlem. "Sure. +When are you going to liberate it?" they asked. +There were a million groups in the Bay area i wanted to check out. +There was so much activity i would have had to spend twenty-eight +hours a day just to keep up with it all. Someone i was studying with +arranged for me to hook up with the Brown Berets, a Chicano +group that had been started recently in California and Texas. It was +a brief meeting since the brother with whom i had the appointment +had to be on the move. He ran down to me some of the conditions +they were dealing with and some of the work they were doing. I had +always thought of the Chicano movement as a rural rather than an +urban one. Most of the information we had received was about the +Chicano farmworkers' struggle and people like Cesar Chavez fight­ +ing to organize them and abolish the unbearable living conditions + +ASSATA +I99 + + ASSATA +200 + +and slave wages they were forced to work for. I was not aware that +Chicanos in the city were fighting against unemployment, police +brutality, and inferior schools, just like Black people. In the same +way that the Black Panther Party was trying to organize and pol­ +iticize street gangs in Chicago, the Brown Berets wanted to pol­ +iticize Chicano street gangs in Los Angeles. The brother also told +me that they had been doing a lot of work around Los Siete de las +Razas, seven Chicano brothers who had been accused of killing a +San Francisco policeman. (They were later acquitted.) I wanted to +rap some more about this case because i was seeing the same +pattern everywhere-sisters and brothers being locked up all over +the country, accused of killing pigs or of conspiring to. The brother +had to run, though. We promised that we would hook up again, +but it never happened. +Next i wanted to check out the Red Guard, a group of young +revolutionary brothers and sisters who were struggling in +Chinatown, San Francisco. I was especially anxious to meet up +with them because it was so hard to get information about them +back East. The West Coast has the largest Asian population in the +country and i really wanted to get a good idea about what was +going on in the Asian communities. A lot of people think Asians do +not experience racism, that they are professionals and business +owners, unaware that many are poor and oppressed. +Finding the Red Guard was not at all easy. Half the people i +ran into had never heard of them, and the other half only had a +minimal knowledge of who they were and what they were all about. +Someone gave me an address and since i didn't have the faintest +idea where it was, i got a brother to drive me over to Chinatown to +look for their headquarters. We ended getting lost and never did +find the address. Instead, we ended up eating at a Chinese restau­ +rant and getting into a big debate. He couldn't understand why a +Black woman wanted to hook up with Chinese revolutionaries in +the first place: "ain't nobody gonna free Black folks but Black +folks"; "those Chinese don't give a damn about you and me. All +they care about is their own people and what's going on in China." +I told him that i thought there were a whole lot of us in the same +predicament and that the only way we were going to get out of it +was to come together and break the chains. The brother looked at +me as if i was spouting empty rhetoric. Some of the laws of +revolution are so simple they seem impossible. People think that in +order for something to work, it has to be complicated, but a lot of +times the opposite is true. We usually reach success by putting the + + simple truths that we know into practice. The basis of any struggle +is people coming together to fight against a common enemy. +When i finally did get around to meeting some brothers from +the Red Guard, it was quite by accident and somewhat embarrass­ +ing. I was hanging out in the park with a sister and some brothers +from the Black Students Union. We were exchanging experiences, +talking politics, and smoking reefer. The day was blue and beau­ +tiful and we just sat there lazing in the sun without a care in the +world, listening to some rock music that was playing in the back­ +ground. I had brought a whole pile of leaflets and newspapers from +New York to give to them. Everybody was feeling laid-back and +mellow when all of a sudden a bunch of pigs descended on a group +of hippies and proceeded to beat them mercilessly, kicking them +and hitting them with clubs. We were all so high, we just sat there +watching, like it was a movie or something. By the time we got our +voices together to cry out in protest, the pigs were carrying the +hippies off. +Two Asian brothers came up to us and pointed to the news­ +papers. +"You'd better get rid of those before the pigs see them," one +said. "More are on the way. If you've got any grass on you, you'd +better get out of here fast. " +We were a picture of confusion, stuffing sheets of paper under +shirts and into pocketbooks. The Asian brother led our half-dazed +procession out of the park. +"You need a lift?" +"Yeah, that's cool." +"To where?" +"Oh, anywhere. Anywhere from here," one of us answered. We +were too high to make any decisions. We piled into a rickety­ +looking jeep. They told us they would drive us over to Shattuck +Street and drop us off. As we were driving, everybody started to talk +about the pigs beating up on the hippies. The image was burning in +everyone's mind. +"That was a trip," drawled one of the BSU brothers. "Did you +see those pigs? I thought they were gonna kill those dudes." +I was still high, feeling too stunned and eerie to talk. +"That's why we need a revolution," the sister was saying. +"They just think they can do anything they want to." +"What started the shit?" somebody asked the Asian brothers. +"It was some hassle about some ID or something. They just +wanted to hassle somebody. You're lucky they didn't see you first." + +ASSATA +20I + + ASSATA +202 + +We were all silent for a minute, imagining ourselves being +beaten and carted off to jail. +"It's a good thing they didn't see those leaflets," the other +Asian brother said. "They would have hassled you for sure." +The sister, who was obviously angry, got off into a political +rap. Everybody kind of jumped into the conversation, talking about +the situation in the Black community, the Black students' struggle, +and the overall piggishness of amerika. Everybody was into the rap, +all of us presenting ourselves as political activists and revolution­ +anes. +"Are you guys in the movement?" one of the Asian brothers +asked us. Everybody jumped at the opportunity to say yes, giving +credentials and naming organizations. +"Right on," they said. +They told us they were Red Guard cadre and that they were +having some kind of forum on the revolution in China. In my +tongue-tied, confused state of marijuana intoxication, i tried to +communicate to them that i had been trying to get in touch with +their organization to check it out. The brother who had been doing +most of the talking reached down under the seat and handed me a +leaflet which had the date and time of the forum. +"Make sure you come and check us out," he said. "Put this +somewhere where you won't lose it," making direct reference to my +confused, disjointed state of consciousness. "You guys should +really be careful with that grass, especially when you've got leaflets +or newspapers on you. A lot of good comrades have been busted +like that." +"Yeah," said the other one. "You've got to be alert to deal with +this situation. You've got to be disciplined and ready to deal with +the enemy at all times." +The Red Guard brothers dropped us off and we thanked them +and said good-byes amid a hail of "Right ons" and "Power to the +people. " Carefully avoiding each other's eyes, we wandered +aimlessly, looking for someplace where we could plop down and +get our heads together. I was feeling guilty and stupid, silly and +politically backward. I was embarrassed to be bumbling down the +street in the middle of the day not in full control of my faculties, too +high to deal with reality, much less change it. I wondered what the +brothers from the Red Guard had thought of us, sitting there in a +stupor, having to be virtually led out of the park. It was obvious my +stuff was raggedy and that i needed to get my act together. If i +wanted to call myself a revolutionary i was going to have to earn the +title. I had heard somebody say that revolutionaries get high on + + revolution and that it was the best high in the world. "I'm gonna +check out that high," i said aloud. "Huh ? What did you say?" +"Nothing," i answered. "I was just talking out loud." "Oh," some­ +body said, "I can dig it." +We stopped off at a coffee shop and had some tea. Everybody +looked sheepish and lost in their own thoughts. Finally, we waved +our good-byes and made our separate ways. 1 walked back to where +i was staying, wondering what i was going to have to do to become +who i needed to become. Revolution is about change, and the first +place the change begins is in yourself. +The most important organization on my list to check out was the +Black Panther Party headquarters in Oakland. 1 had a whole lot of +respect for the Party and had been heavily influenced by it, as had +almost everyone around my age that i knew. Every time we heard +about Huey Newton and Bobby Seale standing up to the power +structure, we slapped five and said, "Yeah !" As far as i was con­ +cerned, the Panthers were "baaaaaad." The Party was more than +bad, it was bodacious. The sheer audacity of walking onto the +California senate floor with rifles, demanding that Black people +have the right to bear arms and the right to self-defense, made me +sit back and take a long look at them. And the more political i +became, the more i appreciated them. Panthers didn't try to sound +all intellectual, talking about the national bourgeoisie, the military­ +industrial complex, the reactionary ruling class. They simply called +a pig a pig. They didn't refer to the repressive domestic army or the +state repressive apparatus. They called the racist police pigs and +racist dogs. +One of the most important things the Party did was to make it +really clear who the enemy was: not the white people, but the +capitalistic, imperialistic oppressors. They took the Black libera­ +tion struggle out of a national context and put it in an international +context. The Party supported revolutionary struggles and govern­ +ments all over the world and insisted the u.s. get out of Africa, out +of Asia, out of Latin America, and out of the ghetto too. 1 had +gotten to know some of the Panthers in New York when they spoke +at the lectures we invited them to at Manhattan Community Col­ +lege. 1 made it my business to drop by some of the New York Black +Panther Party offices and offered to help them with this or that, +whatever needed to be done. 1 was happy to do it. 1 barely opened +my mouth. 1 just looked, listened, and worked. Some of the com­ +rades would ask why i didn't join. "I probably will, someday," i'd +always answer. + +ASSATA +203 + + ASSATA +204 + +When i heard on the radio that the New York Panthers had +been busted, i was furious. The so-called conspiracy charges were +so stupid that even a fool could see through them. The police +actually had the audacity to charge them with plotting to blow up +the flowers in the Botanical Garden. And the 2 1 were some of the +baddest, most politically educated sisters and brothers in the Party. +It was an insult. I thought about joining the Party right then, but i +had some other things i wanted to do and i needed a low profile in +order to do them. +As much as i dug the Party, i also had some real differences +with its style of work. As i opened the front gate of the Oakland +headquarters, i felt j ust as nervous about going inside as i did about +the Doberman pinschers running around the yard. A brother +opened the door and i nervously blurted out that i was from New +York and had come to check out the Party. He acted like he was +glad to see me and brought me into a room to meet some of the +other Panthers. A group of sisters and brothers were sitting around +the room, laughing and talking. They greeted me casually, passing +over a chair for me to sit in. Artie Seale was there and i had to +control myself to keep from gawking at her. I wondered how she +felt with her husband in jail, being railroaded and bound and +gagged in kourt. I recognized the names of others. It was strange to +be there in a room with those people. It was like sitting down on +the pages of a history book. +They asked me about New York, and i told them what was +happening with the Black students at Manhattan Community Col­ +lege, CCNY, and the Black student movement in general, the +antiwar movement, Black construction workers, and whatever +other work i was involved in at the time. I told them i had done +some work for the New York Panthers and ran off a list of the ones +i knew. Somebody asked my why i had never joined the Party. +Half stammering, i told them i had thought about it but had +decided not to. "Why ?" everybody wanted to know. It was hard for +me to say it because i felt so much love and respect for the sisters +and brothers seated there, but i knew i'd hate myself if i didn't say +what was on my mind: that i had been turned off by the way +spokesmen for the Party talked to people, that their attitude had +often been arrogant, flippant, and disrespectful. I told them i pre­ +ferred the polite and respectful manner in which civil rights work­ +ers and Black Muslims talked to the people rather than the +arrogant, fuck-you style that used to be popular in New York. I +said they cursed too much and turned off a lot of Black people who +would otherwise be responsive to what the Party was saying. + + When i had finished, i waited nervously, fully expecting them +to jump all over what i had said. To my profound surprise, nobody +did. Everybody agreed that if that was, in fact, how Party members +were relating to the people, they should change at once. One of the +sisters pointed out that there was a leadership crisis in the New +York chapter caused by the arrest and imprisonment of the Panther +2 1 . It was well known by everybody in the movement that the New +York police had kidnapped the most experienced, able, and intel­ +ligent leaders of the New York branch and demanded $ 1 00,000 +ransom for each one. One of the brothers explained that the Pan­ +thers were facing the same problem all over the country because of +persecution by the pigs. We spent the rest of the afternoon rapping +about the Black struggle in New York and in the u.s. in general. I +was deep in a discussion about strategy and tactics when Emory +Douglas came in. I was as happy as a bee in a pollen factory to meet +him. I dug his artwork a lot and had even taped a piece he had +written on revolutionary art to my closet door. We hit it off at once +and, when everybody finished rapping, he took me up to see how +the Black Panther newspaper was put together. +I was truly impressed by the Panthers in Oakland. After my +first visit, i dropped in at their offices regularly. I visited some of the +other branches in the area, talking to the people and asking my +usual ton of questions. I spent a couple of nights working at the +distribution center for the Party paper, which was located in the +Fulton district in San Francisco. It was a trip! The papers wouldn't +get picked up from the printer until late in the evening, and people +would work until the wee hours sorting them out and preparing +them for distribution to the Panther offices all around the country. +Panthers worked there, but the majority seemed to be sisters and +brothers from the neighborhood who had just dropped in to give +the Panthers a hand. A lot of young people were there and some +elderly sisters and brothers. As we wrapped the papers in bundles, +printed addresses, and counted out papers, we sang Panther songs +and marching chants. Every now and then, a few stepped outside to +sip a little bitter dog. This was supposedly a Panther invention +made of red port and lemon juice. It wasn't too bad, once i got used +to it, and by the time 1 A.M. came around, i loved it. Working on +the paper distribution didn't even seem like work-it was more like +a party. Somebody always gave me a lift home and i would fall into +a happy sleep feeling refreshed and renewed. +It was splashed across the papers, blaring on the radio, and yet i +still couldn't believe it. The face of the serious young man with the + +ASSATA +205 + + ASSATA +206 + +gun refused to leave my thoughts. I must have picked up the same +newspaper and put it down a hundred times. This shit was serious ! +Seventeen years old with a rifle under his raincoat. Seventeen years +old and taking freedom into his own hands. Seventeen years old +and defying the whole pig power structure in amerika. Seventeen +years old and dead. Tears i didn't even know i had poured out. I got +on the phone to find somebody who could explain it all. Who was +Jonathan Jackson? Who was the young man who came to free a +revolutionary Black prisoner, holding a district attorney and a pig +judge hostage, shouting, "We are the revolutionaries ! Free the +Soledad Brothers by 12:30"? Who was he?" +I had only vaguely heard of the Soledad Brothers. A brother +who knew all about the case broke it down to me. Three unarmed +Black prisoners were shot down in the yard by a white guard. A +grand jury ruled it "justifiable homicide." After the verdict, a white +guard was found dead. Three politically conscious Black prisoners +were charged with the murder and thrown into solitary. They all +faced the death penalty. John Clutchette, Fleeta Drumgo and +George Jackson were the brothers charged with the murder. George +Jackson, a brilliant revolutionary theorist and writer, was Jonathan +Jackson's brother. +I couldn't get the whole thing out of my head. Why were +grown men and women living while Jonathan Jackson lay dead ? +What kind of rage, what kind of oppression, and what kind of +country shaped that young man ? I felt guilt for being alive and well. +Where was my gun? And where was my courage? +I was dry-eyed when i attended the funeral. There were hun­ +dreds of people. We could barely get into the church. They set up a +loudspeaker outside so that people could hear the sermon. Black +Panthers, solemn and determined, marched in military formation. I +was so, so glad they were there. Black people need someone to +stand up for us or we will always be victims. I held my arms real +close to me, feeling a bit unraveled. Life for us gets so ugly. If i stay +a victim it will kill me, I thought. It was time for me to get my shit +together. I wanted to be one of the people who stood up. These +were serious times. +Angela Davis was running for her life. They had hooked her +up with Jonathan Jackson, charged her with kidnapping and +murder at the kourthouse, even though she was nowhere on the set. +They charged her with murder because they claimed that some of +the guns used belonged to her. She was one of the most beautiful +women i had ever seen. Not physically, but spiritually. I knew who +she was, because i had been keeping clippings of her in my file. She + + was the sister who got fired from her job teaching at a California +college because she told everybody she was a communist and if they +didn't like it, they could go to hell. +But i wasn't surprised. They will charge Black people with +anything, using any flimsy excuse. We were very glad they hadn't +caught her. I hoped they never would. The air was charged, every­ +thing was happening so fast, and i wasn't blind anymore. I was +seeing things straight, seeing them more clearly than ever before. I +had so many things to do. If you are deaf, dumb, and blind to +what's happening in the world, you're under no obligation to do +anything. But if you know what's happening and you don't do +anything but sit on your ass, then you're nothing but a punk. +I tried to explain how i felt to some of the people i knew. I +wanted to struggle on a full-time basis. They urged me to join the +Panther Party. I went over in my mind all the criticisms i had of the +party. They had said, "You'll be good for the Party, and the Party +will be good for you. The Party is only as strong as its people." It +made a lot of sense to me. For the first time in months i felt calm +and sure of what i was going to do. I told them that the first thing i +was going to do when i returned to New York was join the Party. +I thought about it all the way home. Of all the things i had +wanted to be when i was a little girl, a revolutionary certainly +wasn't one of them. And now it was the only thing i wanted to do. +Everything else was secondary. It occurred to me that even though i +wanted to become a revolutionary more than anything else in the +world, i still didn't have the slightest idea what i would have to do +to become one. + +ASSATA +207 + + Chapter 1 4 + +208 + +ou're the property of the feds now," one of +the marshals told me like he really believed it. "We're +taking you to MCC [the federal prison, manhattan +correctional center] where you'll stay while you stand +trial for bank robbery." It was January 5, 1976, fifteen +days after i had been acquitted on the kidnapping +charge in Brooklyn supreme kourt; i was still on +Rikers Island. He busied himself tying me up with +what seemed an endless amount of chains and +shackles. Another stupid-looking marshal told me +how sorry he was to see me again. He said i'd given +him hell the last time. I didn't even recognize him. He +said he had worked on the last, other bank robbery +trial and had gotten "chewed out" because i got preg­ +nant. "You were framed," i told him . He looked at me +all dumb, scratching his head. "Yeah, yeah. That's +right." I started to laugh. Even the other marhsals +started to crack up. "It's not so funny," he said. "I lost +my commendation that went down in my record." I +laughed even harder. +The only way i can describe MCC is modern gray, +with dabs of colored paint here and there. It's one of +those ugly inner-city fortress buildings, antinature, +antihuman, and cold to all the senses. There was no +fresh air because the entire building was air-con­ +ditioned, and the only natural light came in from +narrow glass slits cut into the side of the building and +wired with alarms. The guards looked like space age +robotons, with blue blazers, gray pants, walkie-talk­ +ies, and beepers. After i had been issued the standard +uniform for women (a yellow jumpsuit and tennis +shoes), i was led up to the women's section. To my +absolute surprise i was placed in "general popula- + + tion," given a key to my cage, and told that there was no "lock-in" +time. We were supposed to stand by the cell doors at various times +of the day to be counted. The women's section was a relatively small +area, comprising a central area for eating and recreation, a TV +room, and three split-level tiers. There were a few offices, one or +two rooms that served as classrooms, and that was it. The only +other place the women could go, once in a while, was to recreation +on the roof, which was covered with huge metal antihelicopter bars. +After spending more than a month in that confining little +place, the women were climbing the walls, and i'm sure the men felt +the same way. A few of the federal prisoners were big time, with +money and connections; they'd been arrested for more "sophisti­ +cated" crimes than the average state prisoner. But th� majority were +poor, Black, or Third World, just like in the state jails. But just like +in the street, money talks. A lot of the men on the honor floor, +which was on the same floor as the women, had money, and rumor +had it that they would send their favorite guards out to buy them +Chinese or Italian food or send them to the Jewish delicatessen, +depending on their mood. One drug dealer made frequent visits to +the women's section in the wee small hours for conjugal visits with +his wife. Since the men on the honor floor had contact with the +women, many tried to buy them by sending them huge quantities +of commissary items. Others tried to impress the women with tall +tales about how much they had ripped off or how big they were on +the street. 1 was sitting on the bench with this white guy, waiting for +them to take me to kourt one morning, and he was steady talking +one and two million dollar deals he had pulled off. He was some +kind of con artist, busted for stock fraud. "You shouldn't be here," +i told him. "You should be in the White House with all the other +big-time con artists." "I was trying," he said, "I was trying like +hell.�' +There were two sisters who i knew from Rikers. 1 was really +happy to see them both. Skeets was a strong, stand-up sister who +kept her mouth shut, minded her business, and didn't take any shit +from anybody. She was a real warmhearted person, generous and +open, and maintained a whole lot of humanity, even though she was +facing a hunk of time on a bank robbery case. 1 was shocked when i +ran into Charlie, who i had known on Rikers as Charlene. She had +changed completely. She was no longer the thin, round-faced young +sister i had known on the rock. It was as if she had aged overnight. +She had written some dynamite poetry and had been part of our +drama group. But this time she had been arrested for parole viola­ +tion on a technicality and just didn't give a damn about anything + +ASSATA + +209 + + ASSATA +2IO + +anymore. She was bitter and tired and her whole attitude can be +summed up in the two words that she frequently used: "Shove it." +She told me that her freedom depended on whether or not she +passed a high school equivalency test. Everybody encouraged her +to study, but she just didn't seem to care anymore. She said she was +tired of jumping through hoops and didn't give a damn what +happened. I understood how she felt, but i hated to see her so bitter +and so hurt and nowhere to go with it, nothing positive to apply it +to. I wanted to help her, but i didn't know how, and i was only +going to be there for a hot minute. The only thing that perked her +up was the struggle the women got into to improve medical care at +the jail. +At the time, the health situation was horrible. Women came in +off the street and were given no physical exam, no tests, no nothing. +They had trouble seeing gynecologists and having their most basic +needs met, medical or otherwise. Since we were a tiny minority of +the prison population, our needs were ignored. The women got +together and wrote complaints to the warden. Charlie was one of +the women who worked the hardest to get better medical condi­ +tions. It's kind of ironic when i think about it now. A little more +than a year later, i heard over the prison grapevine that Charlene +had died from undiagnosed cancer of the uterus. +The Queens bank robbery trial, which I was here for, was one +of the wildest trials i ever went through. We had just finished with +the Brooklyn kidnapping case and i was not at all looking forward +to going to trial again so soon. +For almost three years, now, Evelyn had worked on my cases +continuously. She had quit her job as a professor at New York +University Law School on the day I was arrested on the turnpike to +become my lawyer. One of the few cases she had accepted since my +arrest-mostly to earn some money-was ready for trial, and she +couldn't postpone it any longer. So i had to get someone else for +my trial. Some of the brothers and sisters recommended Stanley +Cohen to me. They said he was a good lawyer and would do a good +job on this kind of case. I was hesitant because i had always had +Black lawyers representing me. I felt that they would probably be +more understanding and more sensitive to the situation i was +dealing with. I'm not talking about any old Black lawyer, because +some of them make a whole lot of money and think like Richard +Nixon. I'm talking about those who are concerned with the plight +of Black people. +I was especially sensitive to the issue after months of listening +to some of the sisters at Rikers. They were so brainwashed they + + thought a white lawyer, any white lawyer, was better than a Black +lawyer. They also felt the same way about white doctors, white +dentists, white teachers, etc. "I ain't going to court with no Black +lawyer," they'd say. "I want me a white lawyer who is friendly with +the judge and ain't gonna make him mad." 1 tried to tell them that +it didn't matter what color their lawyer was, if the lawyer went +against the judge and really put up a fight for the client, the judge +was gonna get mad. Few, if any, Black defendants have ever been +freed because the judge liked their lawyer. If you had a dime for +every time a judge and a defense lawyer sat down to lunch and +discussed some Black client rotting away in jail, you'd be able to +stop working and live on the interest. +1 decided to talk with Cohen and see whether i thought he +would be good for the case. Stanley was a middle-aged, Jewish, +fiesty-Iooking man who somehow reminded me of W. C. Fields. He +had a dramatic streak in him and could change the tone and mood +of his voice from indignant to pleading in a matter of seconds. He +had a long list of acquittals in his record and told funny stories +about the strategies he used in this or that trial. He had once been a +member of the Communist party and continued to have progressive +politics. "Why do you like being a criminal lawyer?" i asked him. +"How can you stapd to fight in the kourt system, knowing how +much racism and injustice is involved ?" It was a loaded question, +put out there to see how he would answer it. 1 expected him to say +something like somebody had to do it, somebody had to make the +sacrifice. "I like to win," he said. "I do it because 1 like to win." 1 +liked him and decided i wanted him to defend me on the bank +robbery case. +Evelyn gave Stanley the transcripts from the time i was beaten +up in kourt by the u.s. marshals trying to photograph me, together +with all of the other documents in her file, and worked with him on +the trial strategy. Andrew Jackson had pled guilty, so i was on trial +alone. Everything was rush, rush, rush. The railroad train was +whistling and it could hardly wait to take me up the river. The new +judge assigned to the case wanted the case over with and he wanted +it over with fast. We wanted to question the prospective j urors +about their opinions, what they had seen and heard in the media, +etc. The judge was determined not to have a long voir dire, and so +we compromised. A questionnaire was made up asking some of the +questions we submitted and others that the prosecutor submitted. +After we went through the answers we were to pick or eliminate +jurors, asking additional questions as needed. Some of the answers +were so contradictory and such a study on the level of racism in + +ASSATA +2II + + ASSATA +2I2 + +amerika that it would take a book just to report on them. In one +hundred percent of the cases we were able to tell whether the +prospective juror was Black, white, or "other," just by reading the +answers. +The trial had a lighthearted feel to it. Everyone had kind of +decided that we would enjoy the fight and fight as hard as we could, +without worrying about whether we were gonna win or lose. I +don't think that there was a single one of us, with the possible +exception of Afeni Shakur, who really thought we were going to +win. Afeni, who was working as a legal assistant, kept telling me, +"We're going to win this one, Assata." But i sure as hell didn't +believe it. They had taken a bank picture of a woman robbing a +bank, printed my name under it as being positively identified, and +then placed that picture in newspapers, subway stations, and, i +think, even on the sides of buses. They had this picture posted in +every bank in New York. There was not a person in New York who +went to the bank, rode the subway, or walked the streets who had +not seen that photograph with my name printed under it a thou­ +sand times. There was no way of even counting how many times +that picture had been flashed on television, with the announcer +calling out my name. The public had been so saturated with that +image that i felt it was crazy to take this trial seriously. After +Stanley was familiar with some of the facts, i had asked him what +he thought my chances were. "I'd be lying if I told you that they +looked good. In reality, they look pretty lousy. But, I believe you, +and I'm going to fight for you. And, believe me, I like to fight." We +agreed that i would act as co-counsel on the case. "You're a lousy +lawyer," he would tell me every time we got into an argument over +some strategy, "but you're better than a lotta lawyers I know who +passed the bar." +The atmosphere was electric. The kourtroom was packed every +day with sisters and brothers who had come to watch the circus. I +couldn't stop staring. I have always said that the best thing about +being on trial is getting to see and smile at the spectators. Seeing so +many beautiful people in the kourtroom gave us the push . we +needed to get down and take care of business. I felt that way during +all of my trials, but this trial had an atmosphere that made it even +more special. People from all over the Black community dropped +by. The Muslim sisters and brothers brought their prayer rugs and +broke out into prayer in the hallway of the kourthouse. People +brought their children, explaining what was happening. One little +girl broke up the whole kourtroom when she asked out loud, "Is +that the fascist pig, Mommy?" pointing up at the judge. It was as if + + Black folks had just taken over the kourtroom, letting everybody +know that they were watching what was going down. +The first thing we did was ask for a lineup. The way i had been +"identified" was from a photo. The FBI had selected my pho­ +tograph from the "militant casebook." This book contained the +photographs of all the "militants" the FBI wanted to send to prison. +After they had gotten my photograph out of the "militant case­ +book," they put it in with a few other photographs of women. Of +course, mine, a mug shot, was the only one with numbers across +the front of it. The rest were normal. The FBI then showed this +group of pictures to the robbery witnesses and asked them to +identify someone who "somewhat resembled" or "bore a likeness" +to the woman who robbed the bank. Two of the people who were +in the bank signed affidavits saying that the photograph with the +numbers across it, my mug shot, looked somewhat like the woman. +The rest who had been in the bank at the time of the robbery made +no such identification. We told the judge we wanted a lineup +because we thought the initial identification of me as the bank +robber was suggestive and tainted. But before the judge had ar­ +ranged for the lineup, the prosecutor called one of the so-called +witnesses to testify. Since i was the only Black woman sitting in the +defendant's chair, of course he identified me. We protested the +procedure, but the judge admitted his testimony anyway. We finally +did arrange for a lineup, and, of course, the other so-called wit­ +nesses picked out another woman. +Since the photo identification part of the case was based on +nothing more than "all niggers look alike," the FBI tried to use +"scientific" evidence to gain a conviction. Their plan to superim­ +pose the bank surveillance photo over my photograph failed be­ +cause they had only one photo of me that was taken at the same +angle as the bank robbery picture. It was one of the photographs +taken when they assaulted me in the kourtroom before the trial +began when I refused to let them take my picture. The FBI had +blocked out the faces and hands of the marshals and FBI agents +choking and assaulting me. They had cropped the picture so that +the only thing the jury could see was my face. But my facial +expression in the photograph was one of such agony that it was +hard for them to convince the jury of anything else. +So the FBI came up with a brilliant idea. They brought in +some dude from the FBI who said he was an expert on identifying +photographs by examining them under a microscope. He was a real +pro, slick as grease. He had charts and diagrams and whatnot, and i +was worried to death that the jury would go for that crap. He + +ASSATA +2 I3 + + ASSATA +2 I4 + +sounded real good, until it came time for cross-examination. It +turned out that he was a specialist in paleontology and had spent a +lot of time studying rocks. He tried to claim that his expertise at +examining rocks made him able to identify people. Under cross­ +examination, all his carefully constructed "expertise" turned into a +pile of rocks, and this new technical breakthrough in crime fighting +proved to be nothing but a fraud. Because the prosecution had been +allowed to introduce this new, "scientific" evidence, the judge said +we had the right to find a photographic expert to rebut the testi­ +mony. Since i didn't have a dime, the kourt agreed to pay for it. The +day our photograph expert testified i slumped down in the seat. He +was a real straight-looking white guy who looked like he sub­ +scribed to Reader's Digest. But the guy had credentials in pho­ +tography a mile long, and you could tell from the way he talked +that he loved photography and that he was incensed over what the +FBI was trying to do. He explained to the jury the chemical process +of photography and that what the FBI agent said was absolutely +impossible. He said that if you look at a photograph under a +microsocpe all you will see is little dots. His testimony was so +correct and his facts so together that the prosecutor barely bothered +to cross-examine him. +The capper came when the manager of the bank came forward +to testify in my behalf. He said that i was definitely not the woman +who robbed the bank and that the robber was a different height +and weight from mine. We could see the prosecutor quietly creep +under his table. His last hope was the summation. +In his closing statement, he tried to make up for everything he +had not proved with the evidence. He painted me as an evil, +conniving monster. He told the jury that i was hiding the fact that i +had big fat arms like the woman who was shown robbing the bank, +that i was concealing my arms because i had not worn a sleeveless +dress in kourt (the trial was held in the middle of January). As he +was talking, i politely rolled up my sleeves right there in the +kourtroom, exposing my very thin arms. When he got to the final +part of his closing, he grew strangely confident. "Ladies and gen­ +tlemen of the jury, this woman is very clever, very conniving. She +has tried to deceive this jury in every way. But she made one +mistake, ladies and gentlemen, she made one fatal error." He then +held up a picture of the woman robbing the bank and, in the other +hand, he held up my mug shot picture. "She made one mistake," he +kept repeating. "She forgot to change her earrings. She has the +same earrings on." +The prosecutor was so dramatic. The scene was straight out of + + the movies. You could tell he had been watching the late show. Both +the woman in the bank and i had on hoop earrings. When Stanley +summed up, he just said, "Will all the women in the courtroom +who have on hoop earrings, please stand up?" Half the women rose +to their feet. +While the jury was out deliberating i paced back and forth in +the holding pen. "They're gonna convict me anyway," i told Afeni. +"They probably weren't even listening. "That jury isn't going to +convict you, Assata," Afeni replied. "Didn't you see the faces of +those jurors, especially the Black ones ?" It was true, i had seen +them look at me differently after the truth started coming out. And +i knew that the Black jurors in the deliberating room would make +all the difference in the world. If nothing else, they remind some of +the more racist whites that Black people are human beings. It's a +shame that too many Black people try to avoid jury duty, instead of +trying to slow down the railroad. A lot of times it's a matter of +simple economics. Black people often feel they can't afford to sit on +a jury, that the money they would lose would mean a sacrifice for +their family. And they are probably right. But their sitting on a jury +might mean that their neighbor's son or daughter doesn't end up +frying in the electric chair or rotting away behind bars. +A verdict had been reached. I could tell what it was before we +even entered the kourtroom. The pigs were upset, to put it mildly. +The female guard who escorted me to kourt every day seemed glad. +The jury read the verdict. Acquittal. The kourtroom broke into a +loud cheer. The judge just gave up calling for order. He had to wait +for the shouting to die down. It was a long time coming. All the +spectators were jumping around hugging each other. The marshals +led me out of the courtroom and handcuffed me. They brought me +back to Rikers Island where i was put into solitary confinement. + +ASSATA +2 I5 + + Chapter 1 5 + +2I6 + +bundle of energy walked +into the Black Panther Party office on Seventh Avenue. +If a light had been plugged into me, i'm sure i would +have lit up half of Harlem. I was fired up and raring to +go. When i joined the BPP, i was determined to give it +everything i had. +The officer of the day gave me a form to fill out. +He couldn't find the second sheet so i went back with +him to look for it. He was searching through a file +cabinet which was in a state of anti-order. It was a +complete mess. I offered to arrange it for him and the +brother consented. In a minute i was knee-deep in +paper, indexing and putting everything in alphabetical +order. After everybody's "security files" were filed, i cut +index markers out of a manila folder, thinking about +how lax security was. I had just walked in off the street +and they let me go through all the files. I explained the +new system to the brother, happy at least that the +experience gained from all those boring office jobs was +put to some revolutionary use. +That same evening i was on the bus to Phila­ +delphia. The Party had called for a constitutional +convention to write a new constitution that would +guarantee the rights of the poor and oppressed and +would be antiracist and antifascist. We were attending +the plenary session for the convention to be held later +in D.C. This session was a definite up. Everybody's +spirits were soaring. It took my breath away to see all +those revolutionaries get up and tell it like it was. I was +happy as a dog in boneville. My "hotel room" was a +pool table in the basement of a church. I slept better +than a princess on twenty mattresses. +When i got back to New York, i was assigned to + + the medical cadre. Joan Bird was my immediate supervisor. She had +been a nursing student and was one of the defendants in the New +York Panther 21 case. She was out on $100,000 bail and busy +working on the trial. She had been beaten, tortured, and hung +upside down out of a police station window. She had big, soft eyes, +nervous lips, and the face of someone who had been forced to grow +up too soon. She reminded me of someone who had led a very +sheltered life and then, all of a sudden, found herself in the cold, +cruel world. She was sort of shy, and i felt sorry for her because she +seemed to be under so much pressure. She took everything to heart; +nothing seemed to slide off her back. She worried about everything +and everyone. She was facing thirty years in prison, so i had to do +most of the medical cadre work, and she worried herself sick about +that. +The medical cadre was responsible for the health care of the +Panthers. We made medical and dental appointments for them and +taught them basic first aid so that they could help the people in +emergencies. Periodically, we set up a table on the street corner and +gave free TB tests or gave out information on sickle-cell anemia. It +was also my job to work with the Black medical students and +doctors who we were counting on to help us set up a free clinic in +Harlem. The Panther Party had bought a brownstone on 12 7th +Street, and as soon as it was renovated we planned to open a free +clinic there. +Every week all the medical cadre members from the Bronx, +Brooklyn, Harlem, Jamaica, and Corona branches met at the +Bronx Ministry of Information. On my first trip to the Ministry, i +carried a big stack of Panther newspapers. I was a lousy paper +seller, and most of the time i got some of my doing-good friends to +chip in and buy them. Then we'd give them away to the people. +The head of the medical cadre was Alaywa, and from the first +moment she gained my respect and admiration. She was serious +about everything that concerned Black people, but when it came to +their health she was a fanatic. She demanded that we take our jobs +seriously, and woe be to the medical cadre who showed up at the +weekly meeting with nothing on their progress reports. Alaywa had +a young daughter, but she nevertheless did the work of two people. +I got expelled from the Party, though, that first night after the +medical cadre meeting. When i came out of the meeting, my stack +of Panther papers was gone. I asked around, but no one had seen +them. Finally, Robert Bey, the head of the whole East Coast branch +of the Party, said that he had seen them. +"Where are they?" i asked. +"I threw them away." + +ASSATA +2 I7 + + ASSATA +2IB + +"What do you mean, you threw them away?" i asked, thinking +it was some kind of joke. +"I threw them away," he insisted. "Ya'll know that you're not +supposed to leave the papers out here on the desk. This will teach +you to put the papers up on the rack where they belong." +I explained that it was my first time coming up to the Ministry +and that i had no way of knowing the procedure. +"You should have asked," he replied arrogantly. "I threw them +away and that's that." +I was losing my patience. "Look, man, why don't you just give +me my papers so that i can get out of here. I don't have time to +stand here all night." +"I told you i threw the papers away, and that's that." +"Then you're either a liar or a fool," i shot back. He had made +me mad, gone and stepped on my last nerve. Then he tried to get all +bad, getting all up in my face, trying to defend his stupid arrogance. +I was in no mood for fooling around. I cursed him out royally and +walked out of the office. +The next day, when i walked into the Harlem office, Bashir, the +officer of the day, told me i would have to leave. "What do you +mean, leave ?" i asked. He said that he was sorry, but Robert Bey +had called and told him that i was no longer in the Party. I was +burnt. I got the Bronx Ministry and told them to put Bey on the +phone and proceeded to call him the unprincipled, arrogant idiot +he was. In addition to being cowardly, he hadn't even told me to my +face that i was expelled. I was so warm i wasn't even surprised when +he apologized and told me i was reinstated. I hate arrogance +whether it's white or purple or Black. Some people let power go to +their heads. They think that just because they have some kind of +title in front of their name you're supposed to bend over and kiss +them on the ass. The only great people i have met have been modest +and humble. You can't claim that you love people when you don't +respect them, and you can't call for political unity unless you +practice it in your relationships. And that doesn't happen out of +nowhere. That's something that has got to be put into practice every +day. +The first day i was assigned to the breakfast program i over­ +slept. To get there on time i had to get up at 4:30 in the morning. I +was the picture of shame and remorse as i came plodding into the +office. "Fancy meeting you here," the sister who i was supposed to +be helping said. "So nice of you to come." Later on that evening i +criticized myself for being late. "That's all right, sister," the brother + + who was leading the meeting said. "you can do penance by work­ +ing on the breakfast program for life." +"For life?" i repeated. +"Yep, you can show your sincerity to the hungry children of +Harlem by working on the breakfast for as long as you're in the +Party." +1 have always hated to get up in the morning, and the sheer +idea of getting up every day at 4:30 made me groan. But i thought +about the children i'd let down. Getting up early should be an easy +thing for a revolutionary. 1 thought about those who had given their +lives for our struggle and decided it wasn't so hard after all. Later, +one of the sisters told me, "Don't worry. They'll just assign you to +the breakfast program every day until you're used to it and they can +count on you to be disciplined. The same thing happened to me." +1 was glad it had happened to others because i felt like such a +dumbbell. Got to try harder, i told myself. +Working on the breakfast program turned out to be an abso­ +lute delight. The work was so fulfilling. The Harlem branch had +breakfast programs in three different churches, and i rotated among +all three. From the first day i saw those kids, my heart went out to +them. They were such bright, open little people, each with his or +her own personality. 1 spent the first two weeks or so just getting +my cooking act together. One little girl came over to me and tapped +me on the back. +"There's something wrong with your pancakes." +"What's wrong with them ?" +"They don't taste good." +Making breakfast for a whole bunch of hungry kids in the +morning is no easy task, especially when you don't know how +many are coming or how much they're going to eat. There was one +little boy who i was convinced had a tapeworm. He put away so +much food it was unbelievable. One day i saw him stuff some food +into his pockets. +"Would you like some paper to wrap that in?" i asked him, +tearing off a piece of foil. +"I wasn't stealing." Tears welled up in his eyes. +"Of course you weren't. Everything is free here and you can +take as much as you want. But don't you want to wrap it up so your +pockets don't get all greasy ?" +"It's for my mother. We don't have no food and the stove is +broke." +"You can tell your mother that she can come down if she wants + +ASSATA +2Ig + + ASSATA +220 + +to, and you can take as much food home as you want to." A few of +the other kids were looking at us. "That goes for everyone. If you +want to take a sandwich or something with you, just let me know +and i'll give you some wrapping paper for it." After that i would try +to remember to ask if anybody wanted anything to go. Most of the +kids were interested. "Give me an egg sandwich to go." "I want two +sausages to go." We rarely met the parents. When a new kid joined +the program, the parents might drop by to check it out, but in +general they would only come to leave the kids or pick them up. +The breakfast program in East Harlem was the poorest. In the +middle of winter some of the kids were without hats, gloves, +scarves, and boots and wore just some skimpy coats or jackets. +When it was possible, we tried to hook them up with something +from the free clothing drive. Only once in a while, when everything +went smoothly and we were through early, did we get a chance to +spend some time with the children. Usually we were in a rush +making sure they got out to school on time. Some of the Panthers +wanted them to learn the ten-point program and platform and +others wanted to teach them Panther songs. 1 preferred talking to +them, sitting down with them and exchanging ideas. So we just sort +of combined these approaches. We were all dead set against cram­ +ming things in their heads or teaching them meaningless rote +phrases. The children were so naturally curious we had to take care +not to let the food burn while we answered their questions. +My closest friends in the Party were Dhoruba, Cetewayo, and +Jamal. They were all out on bail from the Panther 21 case. They +came over to my house and we sat for hours talking politics, the +Party, North Korea, and what was happening on 1 1 6th Street. 1 +learned more in one night than i learned in City College in a +month. They had a hard time dealing with me, though. 1 can be +stubborn as six mules and will argue anyone down until i'm +convinced one way or the other. Although i no longer hated white +people and no longer saw all of them as the enemy, i was still not +too fond of them. As far as i was concerned, it was the duty of Black +people to work in the Black community and it was the job of white +people to go into the white community and organize white people. +The brothers were in one hundred percent agreement with that. We +also agreed that it was necessary for Black, white, Hispanic, Native +American, and Oriental people to come together to fight. We +disagreed on who and what i should study. +Usually, after a disagreement, they suggested i read this or that, +often Marx, Lenin, or Engels. 1 preferred Ho Chi Minh, Kim II +Sung, Che, or Fidel, but i ended up having to get into Marx and + + Lenin just to understand a lot of the speeches and stuff Huey +Newton was putting out. It wasn't easy reading, but i was glad i did +it. It opened up my horizons a hell of a lot. I didn't relate to them as +the great white fathers or like some kind of gods, like some of the +white revolutionaries did. As far as i was concerned, they were two +dudes who had made contributions to revolutionary struggle too +great to be ignored. +The more i studied, the more critical i became of the political +education (PE) program in the Party. There were three different +political education classes: community classes, classes for BPP ca­ +dre, and PE classes for Panther leadership. In the community +classes, Panthers explained the ten-point program and the general +objectives and philosophy of the BPP as well as various articles that +appeared in the Black Panther newspaper. As far as i was con­ +cerned, these were the best PE classes the party ever gave. If the +teachers were good, the classes were interesting and fun. +With a few exceptions, PE classes for Party members turned +out to be j ust the opposite. We reviewed articles in the BPP paper, +read passages from Mao's R ed Book, and discussed certain +speeches and articles by various Party members. Most of the time +whoever was giving the class discussed whatever we were studying +and explained it, but without giving the underlying issues or +putting it into any historical context. The basic problem was not +whether the teacher was good or bad. The basic problem stemmed +from the fact that the BPP had no systematic approach to political +education. They were reading the Red Book but didn't know who +Harriet Tubman, Marcus Garvey, and Nat Turner were. They +talked about intercommunalism but still really believed that the +Civil War was fought to free the slaves. A whole lot of them barely +understood any kind of history, Black, African or otherwise. Huey +Newton had written that politics was war without bloodshed and +that war was politics with bloodshed. To a lot of Panthers, however, +struggle consisted of only two aspects: picking up the gun and +serving the people. +That was the main reason many Party members, in my opin­ +ion, underestimated the need to unite with other Black organiza­ +tions and to struggle around various community issues. A lot of the +sisters and brothers had joined because they were sick and tired of +the oppression they had been suffering. Most of them had never +been in the struggle before. Quite a few joined thinking the Party +was going to issue them a gun and direct them to go out and shoot +pigs. Most of these brothers and sisters had attended inferior +schools which either taught them lies or nothing at all. Education + +ASSATA +22I + + ASSATA +222 + +of every kind was sorely needed. Without an adequate education +program, many Panthers fell into a roboton bag. They repeated +slogans and phrases without understanding their complete mean­ +ing, often resulting in dogmatic and shortsighted practices. For +example, one day an African brother who was working with one of +the African liberation movements came into the office and gave us a +beautiful calendar put out by one of the African liberation groups. +It was baaad. It had beautiful pictures of African freedom fighters +and said something like "International support for African libera­ +tion." The first thing i did was hang it up. When i came to the office +the next day the calendar was gone. When i asked what had +happened to it, they said, "The calendar said 'international' and +we're not internationalists, we're intercommunalists." +I am convinced that a systematic program for political educa­ +tion, ranging from the simplest to the highest level, is imperative for +any successful organization or movement for Black liberation in +this country. The Party had some of the most politically conscious +sisters and brothers as members, but in some ways it failed to +spread that consciousness to the cadre in general. I also thought it +was a real shame the BPP didn't teach Panthers organizing and +mobilizing techniques. Some members were natural geniuses at +organizing people, but they were usually the busiest comrades with +the most responsibility. Part of the problem was that the Party had +grown so fast that there wasn't a lot of time to come up with step­ +by-step approaches to things. The other part of the problem was +that almost from its inception, the BPP was under attack from the +u.s. government. +At first i didn't feel the repression too deeply. I knew the Party +was under attack, but it felt like it wasn't so near, like it was +lingering in the background. What made me maddest was the +media treatment of the BPP, which gave the impression that the +Party was racist and violent. And it worked. The pigs would burst +into a Panther office, shoot first, and ask questions later. The press +always reported that the police had "uncovered" a large arsenal of +weapons. Later, when the "arsenal" turned out to be a few legally +registered rifles and shotguns, the press never printed a word. The +same thing goes on today. Nobody gets upset about white people +having guns, but let a Black person have a gun and something +criminal is going on. The only time white amerika is in favor of +Black people having guns is when we are using them to do amer­ +ika's dirty work. They've got a lot of Black people so scared they are +scared even to think about owning a gun. But the way the tide of +racism is rising in this country, Black people better be more scared + + to not have a gun than to have one. With the Ku Klux Klan and all +these other racists running around, Black people have got to be +suicidal if they don't own and know how to operate a gun. If you +don't own a gun now, you'd better rush out and buy one because in +a few years, the way this country is moving, it might be against the +law for Blacks to buy guns. +One of the best things about struggling is the people you meet. +Before i became involved, i never dreamed such beautiful people +existed. Of course, there were some creeps, but i can say without +the slightest hesitation that i have been blessed with meeting some +of the kindest, most courageous, most principled, most informed +and intelligent people on the face of the earth. l owe a great deal to +those who have helped me, loved me, taught me, and pulled my +coat when i was moving in the wrong direction. If there is such a +thing as luck, i've had an abundance of it, and the ones who have +brought it to me are my friends and comrades. My wild, big­ +hearted friends, with their pretty ways and pretty thoughts, have +given me more happiness that i will ever deserve. There was never a +time, no matter what horrible thing i was undergoing, when i felt +completely alone. Maybe it's ironic, i don't know, but the one thing +i do know is that the Black liberation movement has done more for +me than i will ever be able to do for it. +Becoming Zayd's friend was something really important. After i +joined the party he would drop by my house every so often. We +would listen to music and talk politics. I was forever teasing him +about being part of the leadership (he was Minister of Information) +since he was the only leader up at the Bronx Ministry, with the +exception of Afeni Shakur, i had any respect for. He would laugh at +my Robert Bey jokes, but he never once said a disparaging word +about any of the other comrades. I also respected him because he +refused to become part of the macho cult that was an official body +in the BPP. He never voted on issues or took a position just to be +one of the boys. When brothers made an unprincipled attack on +sisters, Zayd refused to participate. Whenever we hooked up for a +meeting at somebody's house, he was the first to volunteer to cook +dinner or, if dinner was already cooked, the first to roll up his +sleeves and wash the dishes. I knew this had to be especially hard +for him because he was small and his masculinity was always being +challenged in some way by the more backward, muscle-headed +men in the party. +Zayd always treated me and all the other sisters with respect. I +enjoyed his friendship because he was one of those rare men com- + +ASSATA +223 + + ASSATA +224 + +pletely capable of being friends with a woman without having +designs on her. We communicated on such an intense, honest level +that afterward i wondered if it had been real. And he was cultured. +When you say "cultured," most people think you're talking about +the opera and Amy Vanderbilt's etiquette book, but that's not what +i'm talking about. He was well versed and well educated about +every aspect of Black life. He could not only recite Langston Hughes +by heart and give a biographical rundown of Coltrane, Bessie +Smith, or James Cleveland, but he could also sit down and have an +intelligent conversation about dreambooks or Argo starch eaters. +After a while Zayd asked me to work with him on Party +projects. It was mostly dealing with white support groups who +were involved in raising bail for the Panther 21 members still in jail. +1 hated it. At the time, i felt that anything below 1 10th Street was +another country. All my activities were centered in Harlem and i +almost never left it. Doing defense committee work was definitely +not up my alley. 1 think that one of the reasons Zayd insisted on +bringing me to some of these events is that he knew how much i +hated them. 1 was the perfect angry Panther. 1 hated standing +around while all these white people asked me to explain myself, my +existence. 1 became a master of the one-line answer. +"What made you become a Panther?" +"Oppression. " +"What do you think about Huey Newton ?" +"He's a right-on Black revolutionary leader." +"What do you think white people should be doing?" +"Organizing other white people in their communities, supporting Black and Third World liberation struggles, and helping to +free the Panther 2 1 ." +Once a guy asked if i was really going to off the pigs. +"Not tonight." +1 couldn't get over how personal some of those people tried to +get even though i'd never seen them before. One came over to me +and asked if Zayd was my Panther husband. When i looked at her +as if she was crazy for asking me a question like that, she said, +giggling all over herself, "I mean, 1 mean, is he your cat?" Another +woman came over and stuck her hands all in my hair. "Oh, 1 just +had to touch your hair. It's so . . . kinky." +Zayd would be steady trying to convince the defense groups to +raise more money. He explained how important it was to have the +Panther 21 out on the street, organizing and educating people +about what was going on in amerika. Zayd was polite and under­ +standing and patient. After he gave his little speech, he would turn + + to me and ask, "What do you think about that, sister?" Rapping in +my best Panther cadence, i would say something like "Black people +have been oppressed for four hundred years. We are still being +oppressed. The Panther 21 don't need any moral support. They +need concrete support. They don't want to hear that you sym­ +pathize with them, they want to hear that you are willing and ready +to help liberate them." When we were finished, a second donation +would be given. +Zayd was usually cool and poised at these functions, except +once. We were at a meeting with the Computer People for Peace, a +group that was helping to raise the money to bail out Sundiata +Acoli. Zayd said Sundiata should be the next Panther to be bailed +out because his leadership qualities were sorely needed in the Party. +One guy kept interrupting him, implying that Zayd was pushing for +Sundiata's release because they were friends, that he was being +subjective and dealing from an emotional rather than a scientific, +objective analysis. Zayd's face underwent a complete change. I +could see that he was trying to control himself to keep from going +off on this dude. "What do you mean, I'm being subjective? Don't +you ever open your mouth to me to tell me I'm subjective as long as +you live. My brother Lumumba, my own flesh and blood, has also +been locked up for more than a year, and I haven't asked you for a +dime to bail him out." Lumumba Shakur was one of the Panther +2 1 . A complete hush came over the room. The computer people +said they would do everything they could to raise money for Sun­ +diata's bail, and that's' what they did. The only thing was that, once +the $ 1 00,000 cash bail was raised, pig judge Murtagh refused to +release him or any of the others. We were furious and helpless. +After a while, everything seemed strange to me. I was catching +all these weird vibrations and sensations. I couldn't quite put my +finger on it, but i could sense a whole lot of stuff going on. I felt like +i was standing on top of a river with currents swirling down +underneath the surface. All these strange things were starting to +happen. I would go to the laundromat and find a Black policeman +there who said he wanted to join the Party. Every once in a while i'd +turn around and see strange men following me. Even though i had +no money to pay my telephone bill and had long stopped paying it, +the telephone kept working and, after a while, i stopped receiving +any bills. +Politically, i was not at all happy with the direction of the Party. +Huey went on a nationwide tour advocating his new theory of +intercommunality. The essence of the theory was that imperialism +had reached such a degree that sovereign borders were no longer + +ASSATA +22 5 + + ASSATA +226 + +recognized and that oppressed nations no longer existed, only +oppressed communities, within and outside the u.s. The problem +was that somebody had forgotten to tell these oppressed commu­ +nities that they were no longer nations. Even worse, almost no one +understood Huey's long speeches explaining intercommunalism. +Huey Newton was not what you would call a good speaker. In fact, +he had a kind of high-pitched monotonous voice and his rambling +for three hours about the negation of the negation was sheer +disaster. People walked out in droves. Instead of criticizing what +was happening, most of the Party members defended it. When i said +that Huey needed speaking lessons they jumped down my throat. +When Huey changed his title from defense minister to the +ridiculous-sounding "Supreme Commander" and then to the even +more ridiculous "Supreme Servant," damn near nobody said a +word. That was one of the big problems in the Party. Criticism and +self-criticism were not encouraged, and the little that was given +often was not taken seriously. Constructive criticism and self-crit­ +icism are extremely important for any revolutionary organization. +Without them, people tend to drown in their mistakes, not learn +from them. +Because i was still a college student, i was often called on by +the BPP to do student work. I didn't mind working with students +to coordinate this or that, but i was deathly afraid of speaking in +public. But they insisted i had to learn in order to be effective on +campus. I had an old rickety tape recorder that was on its last legs. I +decided to use it to practice public speaking. On and on i went, bla, +bla, bla, into the microphone. The telephone rang. I put the mike +down, turned off the recorder, and rushed to the phone. "Hello, +JoAnne? Stop making tapes," the voice said. The phone clicked. I +stood there with the receiver in my hand. I had to get out of there. I +ran to get my coat. I needed some privacy to think. +Every day at the office, things were getting stranger and stran­ +ger. Rumors that the pigs were going to attack the office were +rampant. Convinced of the invasion, the leadership decided to +"secure" the office. The big storefront window was removed and +replaced by a wooden partition. Windows without glass were cut +into the wood, covered by little wooden doors. "What are all those +little holes for?" i asked. "To shoot out of," they told me. Piles of +sandbags were brought into the office. I didn't believe that shit! +Everybody was talking about defending the office. "Why do we +have to defend the office ?" i asked. They told me something about +executive mandate number three. It said Panthers were supposed to +defend the office against pig attacks. I was all in favor of self- + + defense, but i couldn't see giving my life up just to defend the office. +"It's the principle of the thing," they told me. +I didn't understand what principle they were talking about. +One of the basic laws of people's struggle was to retreat when the +enemy is strong and to attack when the enemy is weak. As far as i +was concerned, defending the office was suicidal. The pigs had +manpower, initiative, surprise, and gunpowder. We would just be +sitting ducks. I felt that the Party was dealing from an emotional +rather than a rational basis. Just because you believe in self-defense +doesn't mean you let yourself be sucked into defending yourself on +the enemy's terms. One of the Party's major weaknesses, i thought, +was the failure to clearly differentiate between aboveground politi­ +cal struggle and underground, clandestine military struggle. +An aboveground political organization can't wage guerrilla +war anymore than an underground army can do aboveground +political work. Although the two must work together, they must +have completely separate structures, and any links between the two +must remain secret. Educating the people about the necessity for +self-defense and for armed struggle was one thing. But maintaining +a policy of defending Party offices against insurmountable odds was +another. Of course, if the police just came in and started shooting, +defending yourself made sense. But the point is to try and prevent +that from happening. One day, in the not too distant future, any +Black organization that is not based on bootlicking and tomming +will be forced underground. And as fast as this country is moving to +the fascist far right, Black revolutionary organizations should start +preparing for the inevitability. Fascist governments do not permit +revolutionary or progressive opposition groups to exist, no matter +how peaceful or nonviolent they are. It doesn't matter whether the +fascist government simply outlaws the groups like in Nazi Germany +or mounts a counterintelligence campaign to destroy opposition +groups, like in the u.s. +It was growing more and more impossible to get work done. +Everything seemed to be in a continuous state of chaos. The Party +decided at one point to open a Saturday Liberation School for +children, and i was assigned to the project. I was really ecstatic +about it because i love working with children and i was really tired +of adults at the time. Being my usual reserved self, i threw every bit +of energy i had into the project. I collected books, materials, paints, +photographs, children's Black history stories, children's records, +etc. Two other comrades were assigned to the project. Everybody +pitched in and after a few weeks we had a whole pile of children +attending. Just as we got the program on its feet, i was called aside + +ASSATA +227 + + ASSATA +228 + +and taken into confidence. The Party had information that the pigs +were going to raid the office in about two weeks. "If the pigs were +going to attack the office, why would they bother to tell us?" I +asked. "We have our sources, sister," i was told. "Just like the pigs +have their sources, we have ours." I was skeptical, but i figured they +knew more about it than i did. In preparation for the coming attack +i was asked to prepare a child care place, a safe house for Panther +children. It sounded kind of wild, but i agreed to do it. In the back +of my mind i half thought they were testing me to see how i would +respond in a crisis. +I put the child care thing together. Two weeks came and went, +but there was no invasion. +In addition, a lot of things were going on that i was not too +happy about. Plans, priorities, and procedures changed daily, and +most of the time the changes were ill-conceived. Everything had an +arbitrary air to it, and i certainly did not have the feeling that we +were waging a step-by-step analytical struggle. There was little +internal conflict in either the Harlem branch or the New York +Chapter. For the most part Panthers were a friendly, open group of +people who really went out of their way to be kind and helpful and, +in spite of all the pressure and hardships they had to deal with, +managed to be principled and to fight as hard as they ktiew how for +our people. We had a bit of a leadership problem with Robert Bey +and Jolly, who were both from the West Coast. Bey's problem was +that he was none too bright and that he had an aggressive, even +belligerent, way of talking and dealing with people. jolly's problem +was that he was Robert Bey's shadow. Bey later became Huey +Newton's bodyguard, a job for which he was much more suited. +Cotton had come to Harlem from California. Everybody loved +him. He was everybody's main man. He had known Bunchy Carter, +Lil Bobby Hutton, the chief (David Hilliard), and, of course, the +rage (Eldridge Cleaver). Cotton had been sent to New York and put +in charge of fixing up the brownstone the Party had bought on +127th Street. According to the grapevine, Huey wanted to move +BPP headquarters to New York and Cotton was to prepare the +security for the house. He used to mosey over to the Harlem office +with a bottle of cheap pluck in his back pocket and tell war stories. +He would sip his wine and talk about what had gone down on the +coast. +The first time i went over to inspect the 127th Street house, +Cotton gave me a guided tour. He explained the whole futuristic +security plan. He was going to hook up the security system so that +if so much as a foot was put on the front steps of the building an + + alarm would alert the security officer inside. If it was the pigs, huge +floodlights would be turned on, blinding them. Thick metal doors +would glide into place and a lot of other fantastic things would +happen that i don't remember. I kept my mouth shut because i +knew absolutely nothing about security, but i silently wondered +why he didn't put in stuff that was more conventional, like a +closed-circuit TV. I had a special interest in the building since the +ground floor and the basement were designated to be the free health +clinic. At the time, the basement was a disaster, with no plumbing, +no heat, no electricity, and a mountain load of bricks, powder, and +debris. Cotton assured me that the basement would be fixed up +within six months. +Next he showed me Huey's room. It was the only room in the +house somewhat fixed up. He had put up wooden paneling. There +was a small table and a single bed which, he carefully explained to +me, was made up in military style, ready at all times for the +minister. I looked at him like he was crazy. Of all the things i could +imagine Huey doing, sleeping in that freezing house on that Spar­ +tan bed was not one of them. Cotton talked about Huey with this +eerie reverence that made me sick. And it sounded sure enough +weird, how Cotton talked about the minister's bed. +I visited the house on 127th Street many times over the next +few months. Hard as i tried, i could not find one shred of progress. I +came to the conclusion that Cotton was a big mouth and a drunk. +But everybody kept telling me how hard he was working, so i +figured he was working on something secret they had obviously +decided not to tell me about. +During one of my trips to the house, Cotton's assistant told me +he didn't feel well. I made an appointment with the doctor and +called to tell him the time. A few days later, when i came into the +office, everyone looked at me like i had committed some crime +against the people. +"What's wrong?" i asked. +"Cotton says that the brother who works for him is sick and +that you refused to do anything for him." +"What?" I was completely surprised. "That's not true." +"Cotton says that's what happened." +Fired up mad, i tried to get Cotton on the phone, but it was +out of order. It took me several days to get the thing straight, but +finally the assistant confirmed that i had made the doctor's ap­ +pointment for him but that he had neglected to keep it and had +gone home instead. I tried to figure out why Cotton had made such +a fuss. The only conclusion i could come to is that he was annoyed + +ASSATA +2 29 + + ASSATA +23 0 + +with me because i kept pushing him to get the clinic in order. +Several years later, after the Freedom of Information Act was passed, +it was revealed that Cotton had been working undercover for the +police. +Things seemed to be going from bad to worse. Although there +wasn't much dissension in the New York branch, there was beau­ +coup dissension and disunity on the national level. Every other +weekend somebody was going out to the West Coast to deal with +"contradictions." Everybody was uptight and miserable. And then +everything started to happen at once. First there was an article +stating that Huey was living in a $650-a-month apartment in +Oakland. The Harlem branch was shocked because, in those days, +that was a whole lot of rent and it contrasted sharply with the living +conditions of the Panthers in New York. Panthers who owned little +more than the clothes on their backs were out in the street in the +freezing cold weather selling papers, with big pieces of cardboard +in their shoes and with flimsy jackets that did nothing to hold back +the hawk. The party issued a statement that Huey was living in the +apartment for "security purposes," but a lot of Panthers were not at +all convinced. I wanted to believe the security story, but it didn't fit +my sense of logic. Then came the long series of expulsions, which +proved to be the last straw. +Many long-standing, loyal Panthers were being expelled by +Huey. One of the first to go in Huey's private purge was Geronimo +Elmer Pratt. Geronimo was widely respected, somewhat of a Pan­ +ther folk hero. When i heard about it, the first thing i did was go to +someone who would know and try to find out the real deal. +Although paranoid and upset, the person broke down the story to +me, just enough to let me know the expulsion was probably unjust. +I couldn't imagine Geronimo being an enemy of the people, any­ +more than i could imagine myself being one. Then came the +expulsions of the Panther 2 1 , supposedly for writing an open letter +to the Weathermen that was somewhat critical of BPP policies. I +had read the letter and could find nothing in it to merit such +extreme action, especially since it might prove prejudicial to their +ongoing trial. I was becoming more and more critical of what was +going on in the Party, but i loved it nevertheless and wanted to see it +functioning on the right track. +For the first time i questioned whether i could continue within +the Party. Almost every project i was working on was frustrated and +barely able to get off the ground. The Saturday liberation school, +the free health clinic, and a lot of the student work were all on hold. +I felt frustrated and a bit demoralized. This Party was a lot different + + from the Blank Panther Party i had fallen in love with. Gone were +the black berets and leather jackets (because of police harassment, +Panthers had been ordered not to wear the uniform, except for +special occasions). Gone were the Panther marches, the Panther +songs. Gone were the "Free Huey," "Free Bobby" songs sung to the +tune of "Wade in the Water." Gone were the big Panther buttons +and big Panther flags flapping in the wind. Everything felt different. +The easy, friendly openness had been replaced by fear and para­ +noia. The beautiful revolutionary creativity i had loved so much was +gone. And replaced by dogmatic stagnation. +It was around this time that Zayd and i had our big falling out. +I had made a list of the criticisms of the Party, along with a list of +things i thought were positive and a lot of suggestions i thought +might correct some of the problems the Party was facing. I called +Zayd and told him i needed to talk to him. When he arrived, i +bared my heart and soul to him. I must have talked for a good two +or three hours, raising all of the political and tactical concerns i +had. Zayd listened to everything i said without taking any position +one way or the other. Then he told me he had to leave and would +talk to me another time. I was furious. I felt he was acting in his role +as "leadership" and using our friendship to gain information about +how i thought, to gauge the level of dissension within the ranks. +Throughout my days in the Party i've always been outspoken and +blunt. Zayd and i had always been frank with each other, and i +interpreted his silence as a declaration that he supported and de­ +fended policies i considered unprincipled and politically incorrect. +After that, we didn't see or speak to each other for a long time. I +had no way of knowing the thin tightrope he was walking or the +pressure he was under. +Zayd was acting as peacemaker between Huey and the Panther +2 1 , furiously trying to get Huey to rescind his expulsion order. +Zayd felt that to take any position in reference to problems within +the Party might jeopardize his role and result in dire consequences +for the Panther 2 1 . Cetewayo and Dhoruba, who had not been +expelled because they were out on bail and had not signed the +letter, were also attempting to get the Panther 21 reinstated. They +were under a lot of pressure from both sides. Huey wanted them to +support the expulsion and the expelled Panthers wanted them to +criticize Huey's actions. Like Zayd, Cet and Dhoruba honestly +believed they could straighten out the madness. And were it not for +the FBI, they probably could have. Nobody back then had ever +heard of the counterintelligence program (COINTELPRO) set up +by the FBI. Nobody could possibly have known that the FBI had + +ASSATA +23 I + + ASSATA +23 2 + +sent a phony letter to Eldridge Cleaver in Algiers, "signed" by the +Panther 2 1 , criticizing Huey Newton's leadership. No one could +have known that the FBI had sent a letter to Huey's brother saying +the New York Panthers were plotting to kill him. No one could +have known that the FBI's COINTELPRO was attempting to de­ +stroy the Black Panther Party in particular and the Black Liberation +Movement in general, using divide-and-conquer tactics. The FBI's +COINTEL program consisted of turning members of organizations +against each other, pitting one Black organization against another. +Huey ended up suspending Cet and Dhoruba from the Party, +branded them as "enemies of the people," and caused them to go +into hiding, in fear for their very lives. No one had the slightest idea +that this whole scenario was carefully manipulated and orches­ +trated by the FBI. +When they brought the Black Panther newspaper to the office, +the one that branded Dhoruba, Cet, and Cet's wife, Connie Matt­ +thews Tabor, as enemies of the people, i refused to sell it and +attacked it as an outright lie. I had been so outspoken about my +criticisms that i knew it was just a matter of time before i, too, +would be expelled. Sick and disgusted, i decided it was time for me +to leave the Party. +Most of the Panthers understood why i left, and i stayed on +good terms with them. They would call me and ask if they could +drop by or sleep over at my crib. Almost daily i got a blow-by-blow +description of what was going on in the Party. The tension had +increased even more, the differences between the New York cadre +and the West Coast leadership growing even wider. I tried to stress +to the comrades what i saw to be the importance of everybody +sitting down and resolving their differences. No such thing oc­ +curred. In fact, a group came to my house jumping for joy. They +had split from the West Coast leadership. It really saddened me that +they had not been able to sit down together and mend their +differences. +After i left the Party, my life became more and more impossi­ +ble. Everywhere i went it seemed like i would turn around to find +two detectives following behind me. I would look out my window +and there, in the middle of Harlem, in front of my house, would be +two white men sitting and reading the newspaper. I was scared to +death to talk in my own house. When i wanted to say something +that was not public information i turned the record player up real +loud so that the buggers would have a hard time hearing. It was so +weird. I still hadn't received a telephone bill and months had gone +by since i'd paid the last one, yet the telephone was always working. + + Strange people visited my neighbors, asking questions. I hated to +move from my apartment because the rent was so cheap. I was +paying something like $65 a month and, if you could get used to +the fifth-floor walkup, it wasn't at all bad. It was one of those rent­ +controlled buildings right across the street from City College, where +i was enrolled. I had no choice but to leave. It was impossible to live +amid all those bugging devices. I decided to donate the apartment +to the Panthers and look for somewhere else to live, and to spend +time with some friends, passing a few days here and a few days +there, until i found another place. +One day, as i was zipping up the avenue, on my way home, a +friend called me over. +"What's up ?" i asked. +"Don't go home." +"What do you mean, don't go home ?" +"Your place is crawling with pigs. They're waiting for you." +I walked around for a while, trying to get my head together. +What could they do to me if i went home ? I hadn't done anything. I +thought about the Panther 2 1 . They hadn't done anything either. +Anyway, they can do anything they want. I thought about my crib. +Maybe they had been taping my voice and hooking up pieces of +conversation to make it seem like there was a conspiracy to do +something. Maybe they would charge me with harboring a fugitive +or with conspiracy to harbor a fugitive. Everybody said they were +tailing me so tough because they thought i would lead them to Cet, +Dhoruba, or some other comrade that had been forced into hiding. +Maybe they would try to interrogate me, beat and torture me until i +signed some phony confession or something. I decided one thing +right then and there. I definitely wasn't going home, and i definitely +wasn't answering anybody's questions about anything. I thought of +going to Evelyn's but i figured that as soon as i showed, the pigs +would be there waiting for me. I decided the best thing i could do +was lay low until i found out what was going on and could come to +some decision. + +ASSATA +233 + + Chapter 1 6 + +23 4 + +y initial image of the under­ +ground was pure fantasy. When Zayd talked about the +underground i actually pictured people in some base­ +ment, passing through some hidden bookcase door +and disappearing into thin air. I had pictured all kinds +of elaborate "I Spy" kinds of hookups, outrageous +disguises, false panels, stuff right out of "Mission: +Impossible." I was shocked when i ran into a brother i +knew in a supermarket. I knew the pigs were looking +for him. He had shaved all the hair off his face, but he +looked almost the same. I had to catch myself to keep +from calling out to him. I just kept walking, feeling +that, somehow, seeing me would make him nervous. +Even though i had always thought that someday i'd +probably be involved in clandestine struggle, i had +never given any serious thoughts to going under­ +ground. I had, more or less, thought of a clandestine +struggle in terms of leading a double life. I thought the +ideal way to struggle was to have a regular job or +whatever as a front and then go out at night or when­ +ever and do what needed to be done, careful to leave +no trails. I still think that is the best way, but you have +to anticipate being discovered and be prepared for +whatever might happen. +At the end of the sixties or the beginning of the +seventies, it seemed like people were going under­ +ground left and right. Every other week i was hearing +about somebody disappearing. Police repression had +come down so hard on the Black movement that it +seemed as if the entire Black community was on the +FBI's Most Wanted list. The repression had come +down so fast that many people had no chance whatsoever to get organized. I was kind of in limbo, slipping + + back and forth between above and below. As far as i could tell, i was +only wanted for questioning. I hadn't done anything and i didn't +feel that the situation was too grave. I had to be discreet and change +some of my habits, but i felt relatively free to move around +aboveground and underground without too much problem. I had +no intentions of answering anybody's questions, and so i figured i'd +j ust lay low until the heat was over. +There were so many things that needed to be done. Basically, i +was working with the railroad (support network) stations, trying to +find the basic necessities for people and trying to help them get to +where they wanted to go. It was a job that required real caution and +a lot of concentration on detail. Over a short period of time, i found +that my powers of observation had increased many times over. I had +to keep my eyes on everything that was going on, looking ahead +and, at the same time, glancing over my shoulder. The work was +interesting and well suited to my restless, active temperament. But i +found it kind of hard to change my way of relating to people. I had +always been open and trusting and i was finding it really hard to +change. It took my almost getting killed for me to develop a more +suspicious nature. +I was running into quite a few people, some of whom i knew +and others whom i didn't: different collectives, members of dif­ +ferent organizations, from different parts of the country. I was +surprised at how disorganized many people were, and i was all for +seeing them organize themselves in a much more disciplined man­ +ner. I was straining to understand some of the things i saw, but +people were moving so fast it was hard to keep track of what they +were dong. The whole situation was new to me and i guess all of us +were trying to make heads or tails out of it, trying to get a good +grip on what was happening and where we fit into it. +I had heard it on the radio, had seen some of the reports on lV. My +reaction was WOW! The tables were turning. As many Black people +as the New York Police Department murdered every year, someone +was finally paying them back. The media were filled with countless +adjectives: senseless, brutal, vicious, deadly, bloody, etc. On May +19, Malcolm X's birthday, two police had been machine-gunned on +Riverside Drive. I felt sorry for their families, sorry for their chil­ +dren, but i was relieved to see that somebody else besides Black +folks and Puerto Ricans and Chicanos was being shot at. I was sick +and tired of us being the only victims, and i didn't care who knew +it. As far as i was concerned, the police in the Black communities +were nothing but a foreign, occupying army, beating, torturing, and + +ASSATA +23 5 + + ASSATA + +murdering people at whim and without restraint. 1 despise vio­ +lence, but i despise it even more when it's one-sided and used to +oppress and repress poor people. But i was still in a state of shock, +the shit was so real. 1 mean, it was happening. Somebody was doing +what the rest of us merely had fantasies about. +1 had an early morning meeting. My friend went to the corner +to pick up the papers and something to munch on. He came back, +all excited. +"Look at this, sister. 1 think you should look at this." +"I don't want to look at anything right now. 1 want something +to eat. What did you buy to eat?" +""This is serious, sister. Will you come over and look at this ?" +"Man, i don't wanna read no paper, i'm starving," i said. +Nevertheless, i went over and picked up the papers. "Oh shit. Oh +shit!" was the only thing that would come out of my mouth. +Hungrily, i read every word of the article. 1 stared down at my +picture on the front page of the Daily News. The paper said i was +wanted for questioning in relation to the machine-gunning. "Shit!" +1 walked aimlessly around in circles. 1 couldn't believe it, but i was +looking at it. +"You've got to get out of here, sister," my friend said. +"Where am i supposed to go ?" +"I don't know, but we've got to get you out of here. Maybe you +can go and hook up with the people." +1 knew that i had to hook up with some people in the under­ +ground, but this was no time to go around hunting for people. +Strangely enough, i felt calm and i wanted to stay that way. 1 asked +my friend to go and get me a wig and some other things to enable +me to move around a little bit. While he went to get the things i +needed, i went though my address book and made mental notes of +the people who the pigs could easily trace me to. 1 had to stifle the +desire to call my mother and tell her that, at least for the moment, i +was relatively safe and that i loved her. +Once i got out into the street, i could feel the tension in my +body. 1 walked down the street searching for signs on people's faces. +1 walked a few blocks before i realized that not a soul in the world +was paying me any mind. 1 heard some feet running behind me and +swung around, only to find it was a bunch of children. 1 had +planned to go to my girlfriend's house and decided i'd still head +that way. She lived alone, in a quiet neighborhood, and i knew that +it would be damn near impossible for anyone to trace me to her. +Her life consisted almost completely of working and going to +school at night. + + 1 was a little nervous when i got to her door. Maybe i was + +doing the wrong thing, getting her hooked into all of this. Maybe +she would be angry at me for coming at all. 1 decided that i +wouldn't stay. 1 would just stop by to explain to her why i was late +and to tell her good-bye. She answered the door with a towel +wrapped around her head. +"What the hell took you so long?" +How did i begin ? A funny thing happened to me on the way to +your house? "There's something i've got to tell you," i began. "I just +stopped by to say good-bye. The police are looking for me. My +picture is plastered all over the Daily News. 1 don't believe this is +happening, but it is." +"I know. 1 know," she told me. "What 1 want to know is, what +took you so long to get here?" +1 stared at her, completely surprised. 1 didn't understand. If +she knew what happened, why was she expecting me? "I just +dropped by for a minute to let you know what happened and to let +you know that i'm okay. " +"Are you okay?" +1 told her that i was. +"Where are you going?" +1 told her that i was going to try to hook up with some people i +knew. +"Where do you have to go ? Do you have any money? Do you +know how to contact these people? Do you need any help ?" +1 told her that i had j ust found out what was happening and +that i was just going to have to play it by ear, slipping and sliding +for a while until i could make contact. +"Girl, are you crazy ? You militants ain't got no sense ! Would +you take that shit off your head and sit down so 1 can talk to you !" +She always referred to me and my comrades as "you militants." She +was a militant too, but at the moment she was not active, not out on +Front Street, as she called it. +"Do you have this address written down anywhere or this +phone number?" +"No, nobody even knows who you are or that we even know +each other." Luckily, i had never made a habit of writing too much +down, and since things had gotten so hot, i had put most of the +numbers that i had for contacts in code. 1 knew all of my friend's +numbers by heart, so that was no problem. 1 had never even called +her from the 1 3 8th Street phone at my last place. 1 told her that as +far as i knew there was no way i could be traced to her. +"Then relax, fool. It don't make no sense for you to be out + +ASSATA +23 7 + + ASSATA + +23 8 + +there in the street moving around right now. You've got to relax and +get your head together." +"Look," i told her. "I don't want to impose on you. This is my +thing, not yours, and i don't want to involve you in my stuff." +"Woman, will you please shut up ? This ain't your thing, this is +our thing. You done involved me in it already, and if I didn't want +to be bothered, I wouldn't have opened my door. I'm your friend +and I trust you and love you. I'll hide you out any old time. Where +did you think you were gonna hide out, anyway? On the moon?" +I stared at her in amazement. I had never really known her. A +real sister. Tough, critical, a bit too cynical, but a real stand-up +woman. +"Here," she said, handing me a knife and some onions and +potatoes, "make yourself useful. Even y'all militants got to eat." +I just sat there grinning. Grinning and peeling potatoes. Talk­ +ing and feeling really at home. +It's early in the morning. I have to move. The move has got to be +made with care since my picture has j ust been plastered all over the +newspapers. Wanted posters of me are everywhere, and somebody +had told me that the police have a photograph of me in the space +over the glove compartments of their cars. Carefully, i arrange my +disguise. It has been designed not to stand out, something that will +help me blend in with the other people who will be on the subway +early in the morning. I stare at myself in the mirror, debating +whether to look like a secretary or a maid. It's too early in the +morning for secretaries. I decide to look like a poor Black woman. +Thick, ugly stockings, run-over black oxfords, beat-up plastic +pocketbook, hand-me-down-Iooking plaid jacket, and, of course, +lord-have-mercy-Iooking wig. My puffy morning face, smudged +with a dab of awkward-looking eyebrow pencil and lipstick, are +perfect for the look. +I walk down to the subway, stopping to buy the paper. I +stand on the platform waiting for the train. I thumb the news­ +papers, making sure that no familiar photographs appear. I skim +the headlines to find the usual assortment of right-wing half-lies, +distortions, and scandal stories. The headlines, as usual, are offen­ +sive: "Commies Land in Outer Space." "Cops Nab Lightbulb +Bandit." "Hubby Ties Knot with Country Gal." Finally, the train +comes. I scan the cars as they pass, looking for the transit cop. +Seeing none, i move toward the front of the train. I plop down in a +vacant seat and immediately stick my head into the newspaper. +Carefully, i look around to see who is riding in the car with me. In + + an instant i'm reproaching myself for leaving too early in the +morning. I have an eerie feeling that something is wrong, but i can't +put my finger on it. The subway car has a twilight zone air to it. +With the exception of a few white men who look like they are going +to factory jobs, the rest are Black women. One has on a nurse's +uniform, another looks like she is going to church, hat and all, and +the rest of them look more or less like me. I keep staring at. them. +And it registers. Without one exception, every one of these sisters is +wearing a wig. It feels so spooky. I am hiding my beautiful, nappy +hair under this wig and hating it, hiding my stuff to save my life. I, +who have had to give up my headwraps and my big, beaded +earrings, my dungaree jackets, my red, black, and green poncho, +and my long African dresses in order to struggle on another level, +look out from under my wig at my sisters. Maybe we are all +running and hiding. Maybe we are all running from something, all +living a clandestine existence. Surely we are all being oppressed and +persecuted. I imagine the headlines: "Nigger Woman Nabbed for +Nappy Hair." "Afro Gal Has Tangled Hair." "Militant Mom Bares +All." It is really too much to comprehend. Such horrible things +have been done to us. A whole generation of Black women hiding +out under dead white people's hair. I have the urge to cry, but i +don't. It would draw attention. I keep from getting up until my stop +comes. I pray and struggle for the day when we can all come out +from under these wigs. + +ASSATA + +239 + + ASSATA + +C U RRENT EVENTS + +i understand that i am +slightly out of fashion. +The in-crowd wants no part of me. +Someone said that i am too sixties +Black. +Someone else told me i had failed to mellow. +It is true i have not +straightened back my hair. +Nor rediscovered maybelline. +And it is also true +that i still like African things, +like statues and dresses +and PEOPLE. +And it is also true +that struggle is foremost in my mind. +And i still rap about disciplinemy anger has not run away. +And i still can't stand ole +el dorado. +And i still can't dig no +one and one. +And i still don't dig no +roka fellas. +And i call a pig a pig. +And a party, to my thinking, +happens only once in a while. +Anyway, i'm really kind of happy +being slightly out of style. + + Chapter 1 7 + +ver the next few years, home +became a lot of places. I traveled quite a bit and met up +with some really beautiful people, people so beautiful +they restored my faith in humanity each time i passed +through their station. Like most of us back in those +days, i was new at this, learning about clandestine +struggle as i lived it. I didn't have many fixed ideas at +first about what i thought armed struggle within the +confines of amerika should be like. I had done a lot of +reading about it in other places, but i had no concrete +idea how to apply the lessons from those struggles to +the struggle of Black people within the United States. +It was clear that the Black Liberation Army +was not a centralized, organized group with a com­ +mon leadership and chain of command. Instead, +there were various organizations and collectives work­ +ing out of different cities, and in some of the larger +cities there were often several groups working indepen­ +dently of each other. Many members of the various +groups had been forced into hiding as a result of the +extreme police repression that took place during the +late sixties and early seventies. Some had serious cases, +some had minor ones, and others, like me, were just +wanted for "questioning." +Sisters and brothers joined these groups because +they were committed to revolutionary struggle in gen­ +eral and armed struggle in particular and wanted to +help build the armed movement in amerika. It was the +strangest feeling. People i used to run into at rallies +were now in hiding, sending messages that they +wanted to hook up. Sisters and brothers from just +about every revolutionary or militant group in the +country were either rotting away in prison or had been + +24 I + + ASSATA + +forced underground. Everyone i talked to was interested in taking +the struggle to a higher level. But the question was how. How to +bring together all those people scattered around the country into +an organized body that would be effective in struggling for Black +liberation. +It became evident, almost from the beginning, that consolida­ +tion was not a good idea. There were too many security problems, +and different groups had different ideologies, different levels of +political consciousness and different ideas about how armed strug­ +gle in amerika should be waged. On the whole, we were weak, +inexperienced, disorganized, and seriously lacking in training. But +the biggest problem was one of political development. There were +sisters and brothers who had been so victimized by amerika that +they were willing to fight to the death against their oppressors. +They were intelligent, courageous and dedicated, willing to make +any sacrifice. But we were to find out quickly that courage and +dedication were not enough. To win any struggle for liberation, you +have to have the way as well as the will, an overall ideology and +strategy that stem from a scientific analysis of history and present +conditions. +Some of the groups thought they could just pick up arms and +struggle and that, somehow, people would see what they were +doing and begin to struggle themselves. They wanted to engage in a +do-or-die battle with the power structure in amerika, even +though they were weak and ill prepared for such a fight. But the +most important factor is that armed struggle, by itself, can never +bring about a revolution. Revolutionary war is a people's war. And +no people's war can be won without the support of the masses of +people. Armed struggle can never be successful by itself; it must be +part of an overall strategy for winning, and the strategy must be +political as well as military. +Since we did not own the TV stations or newspapers, it was +easy for the news media to portray us as monsters and terrorists. +The police could terrorize the Black community daily, yet if one +Black person successfully defended himself or herself against a +police attack, they were called terrorists. It soon became clear to me +that our most important battle was to help politically mobilize, +educate, and organize the masses of Black people and to win their +minds and hearts. It was inconceivable that we could survive, much +less win anything, without their support. +Every group fighting for freedom is bound to make mistakes, +but unless you study the common, fundamental laws of armed +revolutionary struggle you are bound to make unnecessary mis- + + takes. Revolutionary war is protracted warfare. It is impossible for +us to win quickly. To win we have got to wear down our oppressors, +little by little, and, at the same time, strengthen our forces, slowly +but surely. I understood some of my more impatient sisters and +brothers. I knew that it was tempting to substitute military for +political struggle, especially since all of our aboveground organiza­ +tions were under vicious attack by the FBI, the CIA, and the local +police agencies. All of us who saw our leaders murdered, our +people shot down in cold blood, felt a need, a desire to fight back. +One of the hardest lessons we had to learn is that revolutionary +struggle is scientific rather than emotional. I'm not saying that we +shouldn't feel anything, but decisions can't be based on love or on +anger. They have to be based on the objective conditions and on +what is the rational, unemotional thing to do. +In 1857 the u.s. supreme kourt ruled that Blacks were only +three-fifths of a man and had no rights that whites were bound to +respect. Today, more than a hundred and twenty-five years later, we +still earn less than three-fifths of what white people earn. It was +plain to me that we couldn't look to the kourts for freedom and +justice anymore than we could expect to gain our liberation by +participating in the u.s. political system, and it was pure fantasy to +think we could gain them by begging. The only alternative left was +to fight for them, and we are going to have to fight like any other +people who have fought for liberation. +I wasn't one who believed that we should wait until our +political struggle had reached a high point before we began to +organize the underground. I felt that it was important to start +building underground structures as soon as possible. And although +i felt that the major task of the underground should be organizing +and building, i didn't feel that armed acts of resistance should be +ruled out. As long as they didn't impede our long-range plans, +guerrilla units should be able to carry out a few well-planned, well­ +timed armed actions that were well coordinated with aboveground +political objectives. Not any old kind of actions, but actions that +Black people would clearly understand and support and actions +that were well publicized in the Black community. + +ASSATA + +24 3 + + Chapter 1 8 + +244 + +fter my acquittal in the +Queens bank robbery case in Brooklyn Federal Court +on January 16, 1 976, i was brought back to new jersey, +placed in the basement of the middlesex county jail for +men, in solitary confinement, and held there for more +than a year until the jersey trial was over. Lennox +Hinds, then the head of the National Conference of +Black Lawyers, together with the other members of +the defense team, filed a civil suit against the state, +charging that my conditions were cruel and inhuman. +After a long, drawn-out court battle, both sides agreed +that a hearing officer should review my jail conditions +and make a ruling. The hearing officer was a man +named Ploshnik, who was appointed by the state. We +had no say whatsoever in who was appointed and, +therefore, expected the decision to be favorable to the +state. But he surprised everybody and ruled that my +conditions of imprisonment were indeed inhuman and +recommended that they be changed at once. But +through a series of appeals and legal maneuvers, the +state succeeded in keeping me confined in that base­ +ment. When the government finds it convenient to +follow its own laws and administrative procedures, it +does. And when it finds that these same laws are +inconvenient for their own purposes, it simply ignores +them. +I decided that i wanted Stanley Cohen and Evelyn +to work together on the case. This turned out to be a +mistake, since they were not exactly in love with each +other. Neither Stanley nor Evelyn was a new jersey +lawyer and we had to get a new jersey lawyer to be on +the case. Ray Brown was busy with other commit­ +ments and couldn't possibly do it. Stanley asked a + + young white new jersey lawyer named Stuart Ball, and, after some +reservations, he agreed to be the admitting lawyer. Stanley also +wanted a young lawyer, Lawrence Stern, to act as his assistant. Even +though Evelyn was involved in the defense and Lennox was handling the civil suit around my prison conditions, the Conference of +Black Lawyers assigned a young Black lawyer from Mississippi +named Lewis Myers to work on the case. I was delighted. Everyone +knew that the new jersey trial was the big one and that my chances +of receiving a fair trial were about slim to none. So the strategy was +to try to surround the defense team with as much resources and +expertise as possible. +It sounded like a good idea, but if there was ever a case of too +many cooks in the kitchen, this case was it. Almost from the +beginning the defense team was beset by personality conflicts. The +problems were magnified greatly by the fact that nobody was being +paid. The lawyers were having problems covering even their bare +expenses. It seemed like every other month one or another of the +lawyers was asking the j udge to be relieved from the case. +We were in dire need of experts. We needed to find a ballistics +expert and a forensic chemist, among others, to refute the state's +charges. We were also in desperate need of an investigator to locate +some of the doctors who had treated me while i was hospitalized +and other potential witnesses. We fought and harped on this point +until finally the judge, Theodore Appleby, issued an order that the +state pay for the experts. But once we got the order, we found that +we were in the same position that we started from. Without excep­ +tion, everybody that we went to for help turned us down. The types +of experts we needed almost always are police or are working for +police agencies. Because my case involved the murder of a police +officer, none of them would touch the case. The most crucial part of +the prosecutor's case was the "scientific testimony" alleging that i +had huge amounts of the dead state trooper's blood on me. We +wanted someone who knew what they were doing to go over every +inch of those clothes, to check out what was on them and also to +check out what had been done to them. But we could not find one +forensic chemist to work for us, let alone testify for us. If they had, +they would never again have been able to work in peace for any +police agency. People never hear about this side of a trial. But there +is no place a defendant in a criminal trial can go to find "experts" in +sciences commonly known as "police sciences." The police can +virtually write up a report saying anything they want, and there is +no way of refuting it. And there have been cases where "experts" +have been double agents: working for a defendant while secretly +working with the prosecutor. + +ASSATA + +245 + + ASSATA + +One of the amazing things was the number of student support­ +ers who gave their time and energy to help us. They volunteered to +index and organize past transcripts and, together with political +activists, did a survey of prospective jurors in Middlesex County. +Members of the defense committee published a bulletin to keep +people informed about what was happening in the case and also +did speaking engagements and fundraising. People circulated peti­ +tions and demonstrated in front of the kourtroom. They volun­ +teered to do typing, haddle the telephones, etc. Entertainers like +Harry Belafonte, Ossie Davis, and Ruby Dee performed at +fundraising benefits. Poets like June Jordan, Audre Lorde, and +Sonia Sanchez, among others, gave poetry readings. Political activ­ +ists like Angela Davis and Amiri Baraka worked hard to educate +the people about what was happening in new jersey. When Angela +Davis came to new jersey to do a speaking engagement on my +behalf, the new jersey prosecutor's office ambushed her and her +party, harassing them until the moment they left the state. She tried +to visit me at the jail, and not only did the j udge forbid her to visit +me but he stopped all of my other visits as well. +One of the most moving statements i have ever heard was a +speech Judge Bruce Wright made at a fundraising rally for me. +Judge Bruce Wright is a Black judge who was removed from the +criminal court bench in New York because he was too fair and +honest, and he did something that was unforgivable-he set poor +people's bail at amounts they could afford to pay. The kourts will +never be anything but a tool of repression until there are judges like +Bruce Wright presiding over Black people's trials. +There were many, many people who i never got to meet, even +though they worked so hard on my behalf. And even though i never +got a chance to thank all the Black people, white people, Third +World people, all the students, feminists, revolutionaries, activists, +etc., who worked on the case, i thank you now. +A lot of the pretrial conferences had to do with nothing more +than the defense making motions and the judge denying them. +Every time we went to kourt the judge made a point of reading into +the record that i had refused to stand up for him. He was one of +those racist white dogs who really believed he was massa. He really +took that "your honor" stuff seriously. If he could have made +people bow to him and kiss his hand he would have done it. He +claimed that he was a "stickler for the decorum of his courtroom." +Plenty of decorum but not a bit of justice. Stand for him ? It was out +of the question. He was a real died-in-the-wool craka. The kind +they could send to wipe out the "natives" in Africa, make Central + + America safe for United Fruit Company, or run a sterilization center +in Puerto Rico. +Stanley Cohen came to see me. He was excited and upbeat. His +good news was that he had found an investigator, an old friend of +his who owed him a favor. His friend had contacts with the new +jersey state police and thought they might be able to come up with +some information on Harper, the police officer who was the main +witness. He was also making progress in finding a forensic chemist. +We both felt that at least some of the scientific reports had been +fudged by the new jersey state troopers. We talked about this and a +million things before the visit ended. He was so positive. He said he +had a plan, something he wanted to check out, but he didn't want +to discuss it and raise my hopes prematurely. That was the last time +i saw Stanley Cohen. +A few days later i received a phone call. Stanley was dead. His +body had been found in his home with evidence of trauma. No­ +body, with the exception of the police and Stanley'S family, knows +to this day the cause of death. The newspapers stated Stanley died +of natural causes. But a friend of Stanley'S, a doctor, told me he had +talked to the coroner's office and had been given conflicting stories. +No one knows for sure how Stanley died and we probably never +will. The one thing we do know is that after his death, all the legal +papers on my case came up missing. Evelyn talked to Phyllis, +Stanley'S widow, and she gave her every legal paper she could find +that had something to do with my case, but the bulk of the material +was still missing. Finally, Evelyn found out that the New York City +police had my legal papers. "How did they get them?" i asked her. +"I don't even want to think about it," she answered. +1 could hardly believe all this was happening. It felt so strange. +The New York police claimed they had taken my legal papers from +Stanley'S house as evidence. "Evidence of what?" i asked Evelyn. +Apparently, my legal papers were the only property the New York +Police Department had removed from his house. It took more than +a month to get some of them back. Some were never recovered. +None of the notes about the investigator or the forensic chemist +were found. All the notes on trial strategy we had mapped out were +missing. It was weird. 1 thought of Stanley'S family and what they +must have been going through. The circumstances of his death were +so strange. 1 walked around with an empty feeling in my stomach +for a long time. +After Stanley'S death, William Kunstler joined the defense +team. The first thing the judge did after admitting Kunstler to the + +ASSATA + +247 + + ASSATA + +case was to rescind the order for state-paid experts, claiming the +lawyers had failed to move fast enough to get them. I became more +suspicious than before. I couldn't understand why Appleby, all of a +sudden, was so anxious we not have expert witnesses. It was ob­ +vious that without some financial help i would never be able to +afford expert witnesses. I didn't have a thin dime to my name. +Appleby's strategy was to completely intimidate the lawyers, to +harass them, threaten them until they became fearful of mounting +any significant opposition to the legal lynching that was supposed +to be my trial. Since there were no funds to pay for anything, the +defense committees and the lawyers were forced to launch a +fundraising campaign. The first time Bill Kunstler spoke in new +jersey, Appleby attempted to have him thrown off the case, charging +him with "improper conduct" and "conduct that was prejudicial to +the administration of justice." The improper conduct was giving a +lecture at Rutgers University during which he said that we needed +money for expert witnesses, that the conditions of my confinement +were detrimental to my aiding in my defense, and that under the +law i was presumed innocent until proven guilty. +Appleby's Order to Show Cause why Bill should not be +thrown off the case accomplished what it intended. Instead of +preparing for trial, the lawyers were forced to spend time and +energy preparing for the two-day hearing that would determine +whether or not Bill stayed on the case. Appleby finally decided Bill +would remain, but only after we had spent a month dealing with +that madness. The implication of the hearing was clear. Any at­ +tempt the lawyers made to defend me would be met with the +judge's hostility. Appleby threatened every single one of the lawyers +with contempt, not once or twice but regularly. Lew Myers at­ +tended a fundraising cocktail party at which Angela Davis spoke. +Someone sent a letter to the U.S. Treasury in Washington and, +approximately ten days later, he was under investigation by the +Internal Revenue Service. Evelyn was repeatedly harassed by Ap­ +pleby. Not one day went by when the so-called impartial judge +failed to show his hostility to the defense team. +The lawyers uncovered evidence that the offices across from the +courthouse that they and the defense team were using were bugged. +Motions for an investigation were denied. During a press con­ +ference, Lennox Hinds had the courage to call the trial exactly +what it was, "a legal lynching and a kangaroo kourt." Appleby +cited him for contempt and an effort was made to disbar him. Only +after he took his appeal to the highest kourt in new jersey was he + + permitted to continue practicing as a lawyer in the state of new +Jersey. +The trial began on January 1 7, 1 977, the same day Gary +Gilmore was shot in Utah. Gary Gilmore was the first person legally +executed since the death penalty was struck down by the u.s. +supreme kourt in the early 1 970s. His execution set the climate for +the trial. The judge had denied almost every one of our motions, +including my right to defend myself and act as co-counsel, a +change of venue, a motion to review Harper's police record, a +motion to introduce evidence that i had been victimized by the +government's counterintelligence program (COINTELPRO), etc. +Even though the National Jury Project had done a study of Mid­ +dlesex County and had found that eighty-three percent of the +people had heard about my case in the media and seventy percent +had already formulated an opinion about my guilt, the kourt +maintained that i could receive a fair trial. The judge said he would +question the jurors and make sure they were "fair and impartial." +Appleby took great pains to avoid asking potential jurors +whether they thought i was guilty, electing to ask them instead +whether they could "put their opinions aside." He carefully +avoided asking their opinions about me, the Black Liberation +Army, the Black Panther Party, Black militants, or anything else that +had been negatively and biasedly reported in newspapers. The trial +lawyers had no right to question jurors. Appleby's voir dire was +designed to make sure the most hypocritical, opinionated jurors +stayed on the jury. Here are two examples taken directly from the +transcript: +Q. And have you heard about this case ? +A. Yes, I have. +Q. From what source may you have heard about the case? +A. Newspapers. +. +Q. And have you discussed it with other people ? +A. Occasionally. +Q. And based upon whatever you may have heard from any +source whatsoever, do you feel that you have already in your own +mind formed an opinion as to the guilt or innocence of this defend­ +ant? +A. Well, to be perfectly honest, I think I would be a little biased. +Q. Let me ask you another question. In the event that you were +to be chosen to serve, do you feel that you could sit and listen to all +the evidence in the case and then judge it fairly and impartially and +apply the law that the judge gives to you and put aside completely + +ASSATA + +2 49 + + ASSATA +250 + +any previous opinions or conceptions or ideas about anything in the +case and then do you believe that you could render a fair verdict as to +the guilt or innocence of this defendant? +A. I think I could. +Q. Do you believe that you could? +A. I think so. + +Example number two: +Q. Do you feel that based upon whatever information you may +have accumulated about the case from any source whatsoever that +you have already formed an opinion in your mind as to the guilt or +innocence of this defendant? +A. I would think-yeah, I would think that she was guilty, yeah. +Q. You feel that she's guilty? +A. Yes. +Q. And let me ask you another question. In the event that you +might be selected to serve as a juror in this case, do you feel that you +could sit and listen to the evidence and judge it impartially, apply +the law the judge gives you, set aside this opinion that you have +already formed? +A. Yes, I probably could. +Q. And then still judge impartially whether she's guilty or +innocent? +A. Yeah. Depending on the evidence and all that. + +These were typical of the answers given. The judge refused to +remove the above two jurors for cause (on the basis of bias that +would prevent them from being fair and impartial jurors) and our +peremptory challenges were quickly exhausted. Remaining on the +final jury were two friends, one girlfriend, and two nephews of new +jersey state troopers. The so-called jury selection process was the +biggest farce in legal history. +About halfway through the so-called jury selection process i +was ready to call it a day. As bad as this jury sounded, it looked +even worse. I didn't want to participate. But almost everyone on the +defense team thought not participating was a mistake. "If you +don't, we'll never get anything on the record. You'll never even be +able to convince an appeal court of anything. You've got to get up +there and tell your side of the story. We can prove by the medical +testimony that you were shot in the back with your hand raised in +the air. We can prove that Harper shot first. We can prove �hat after +you were shot, your hand was paralyzed and, from the location of +his gunshot wound, it would have been impossible for you to have + + shot him with yOUT left hand. We can prove that Harper shot first. +We can prove this if you take the stand. We can prove . . . . " +I was tired of this case. I damn sure didn't believe that any +appeals kourt was going to free me or that any racist white, +prejudiced jury was either. It was obvious i didn't have one chance +in a million of receiving any kind of justice. The financial problems, +expert witness problems, personality problems among the lawyers, +in addition to rotting away in solitary confinement, had taken their +toll on me. Every day when i entered the kourtroom i felt like i was +entering the theater of the absurd. I wanted no part of it. The +lawyers said that i could create a political climate which, they +thought, would force the appeal court to give in if i participated in +the trial and put on the record the fact that i was innocent. They +were convinced that at the last minute the forensic chemist they +were trying to locate in Canada was going to come in and save the +day. I didn't put any stock in that, but i knew that keeping the +momentum going around what was happening was important. I +decided to remain and participate, even though it was killing me. +The trial went absurdly on. An all-white jury was selected, +based on the advice of Kunstler and the Jury Project, who decided +that even though the jurors seated in the panel were horrible, the +others were worse. Not only did the judge deny my motion to act as +co-counsel, he refused to permit the lawyers to read my opening +statement to the jury. The defense team's headquarters, located in +New Brunswick, was broken into, papers rummaged through and +stolen, and the judge refused to investigate, calling the motion +"frivolous. " The state's witnesses, almost all of whom were pigs, +got up and said whatever they were told to say. We had no expert +witnesses to refute or even evaluate their testimony. The main +witness, Harper, the state trooper i was supposed to have shot, +testified he had told an "untruth" on direct examination but denied +it was a lie. +I spent most of the trial looking up at the ceiling and hating +myself for sitting there in the first place. When the time came for +me to testify, i was shocked. I had thought i would be able to go +into everything-being a fugitive, how i became a fugitive, the +entire political scenario that led to being in the kourtroom. But +then they told me something about "opening the door." Opening +the door, it was explained, was like opening Pandora's box. If i gave +the political reasons for my being a fugitive, the prosecutor could +then introduce all kinds of prejudicial "evidence" that had nothing +to do with what happened on the turnpike in order to show my + +ASSATA +25I + + ASSATA +252 + +"criminal intent." If i "opened the door," the prosecutor would be +able to introduce manuals of guerrilla warfare and a whole stack of +other material they found in the car that had nothing to do with +this trial. In the absence of political witnesses (whose subpoenas +for their appearance the judge had refused to issue) who would +have testified about COINTELPRO's systematic attack on the Black +Liberation movement, and on Blacks in general, my testimony +would have been distorted. I wanted to back out completely, de­ +nounce the trial, but it was too late. The only way out was to testify, +get my side of what happened on the record, and avoid "opening +the door." The year of solitary confinement had made me almost +mute. As i testified, i held on to a small picture of my child. +When i sit back today and examine why i participated in that trial, i +think i must have been crazy. I guess i had been through too many +trials and gotten too many acquittals and let that stuff go to my +head. (Three other indictments had been dismissed. One in Queens +state supreme court, charging me with killing policemen, was dis­ +missed because the judge, after examining the grand jury minutes, +determined there was not even enough evidence for me to have been +indicted. The other two, one in Brooklyn supreme kourt and the +other in supreme kourt in New York County, were dismissed for +failure of the state to bring me to trial for six years after the +indictments had been returned.) +Participating in the new jersey trial was unprincipled and +incorrect. By participating, i participated in my own oppression. I +should have known better and not lent dignity or credence to that +sham. In the long run, the people are our only appeal. The only +ones who can free us are ourselves. + + Chapter 1 9 + +was transferred on April 8, 1 978 to the +maximum security prison for women in alderson, west +virginia, the federal facility designed to hold "the most +dangerous women in the country." 1 had been con­ +victed of no federal crime, but under the interstate +compact agreement any prisoner can be shipped, like +cargo, to any jail in u.s. territory, including the virgin +islands, miles away from family, friends, and lawyers. +Through the device of this agreement, Sundiata had +been transferred to marion prison in illinois, the +federal prison that was the most brutal concentration +camp in the country. +Alderson was in the middle of the west virginia +mountains, and it seemed as if the mountains formed +an impenetrable barrier between the prison and the +rest of the world. It had no airport, and to reach it, +days of travel were necessary. The trip to alderson was +so expensive and difficult that most of the women +received family visits only once or twice a year. +1 was housed in the maximum security unit (msu) +called davis hall. It was surrounded by an electronic +fence topped by barbed wire, which in turn was cov­ +ered by concertina wire (a razor-sharp type of wire +that had been outlawed by the Geneva Convention). It +was a prison within a prison. This place had a stillness +to it like some kind of bizarre death row. Everything +was sterile and dead. +There were three major groups in msu: the nazis, +the "niggah lovers," and me. I was the only Black +woman in the unit, with the exception of one other +who left almost immediately after i arrived. The nazis + +253 + + ASSATA + +2 54 + +had been sent to alderson from a prison in California, where they +had been accused of setting inmates on fire. They were members of +the aryan sisterhood, the female wing of the aryan brotherhood-a +white racist group that operates in California prisons and is well­ +known for its attacks on Black prisoners. +Hooked up with the nazis were the manson family women, +sandra good and linda "squeaky" froame. Sandra had been sen­ +tenced to fifteen years for threatening the lives of business ex­ +ecutives and government officials, and froame was serving a life +sentence for attempting to kill president gerald ford. They were like +the Bobbsey twins and clear out of their minds. +They called themselves "red" and "blue." Everyday "red" wore +red from head to toe and "blue" wore blue. They were so fanatic in +their devotion to charles manson that they wrote to him everyday, +informing him about everything that happened at msu. They waited +for his "orders," and you can be sure that if he told them to kill +someone they would die trying to do it. Also hooked up with the +nazis were the hillbilly prisoners: an obese sow who never bathed +and walked around barefoot and a tobacco-chewing butch who +acted like she was in the confederate army. There was one "indepen­ +dent" nazi who had fallen out with the others. She sported a huge +swastika embroidered on her jeans. +Luckily, Rita Brown, a white revolutionary from the George +Jackson Brigade, a group based on the West Coast, was among the +four or five "niggah lovers." She was a feminist and a lesbian, and +helped me to better understand many issues in the white women's +liberation movement. Unlike Jane Alpert, whom i had met in the +federal prison in New York, and whom i couldn't stand either +personally or politically, Rita did not separate the oppression of +women from the racism and classism of u.s. society. We agreed that +sexism, like racism, was generated by capitalist, imperialist govern­ +ments, and that women would never be liberated as long as the +institutions that controlled our lives existed. I respected Rita be­ +cause she really practiced sisterhood, and wasn't just one of those +big mouths who go on and on about men. +I'm sure that a lot of prison officials thought i'd never leave the +place alive. It was the perfect setup for a setup, and i dealt with the +situation seriously. I didn't look for trouble, but i let the nazis know +that i was ready to defend myself at any time, and that if they +wanted ass (like they say in prison) they would have to bring ass. I +made it clear to them that i hated them as much as they hated me, +and that if anybody's mother had to cry it would be theirs, not Ms. +Johnson. After a few run-ins, the nazis stayed out of my way. + + After i had been at alderson for a while, we learned that the +msu would be closed down because it had been declared uncon­ +stitutional. A phase-out stratification program was implemented +that enabled those in msu to leave it during the day and to partici­ +pate in the same activities permitted those in the general popula­ +tion. I got a job working on the general mechanic's crew, was +allowed recreation, attended classes, and was able to eat and visit +with the other women in general population. +Many of the sisters were Black and poor and from D.C., where +every crime is a violation of a federal statute. They were beautiful +sisters, serving outrageous sentences for minor offenses. Similar to +the situation that existed at the federal prison in New York, some +women could not afford to buy cigarettes without forgoing neces­ +sities, while others had money, contacts, wore fur coats, and lived +as if they were in a different prison. That small group of women had +been convicted of drug trafficking. Rumor had it that they per­ +formed the same services in prison as they had on the street, only +now they worked for the guards. +One day, as i was returning to davis hall, a middle-aged +woman with "salt-and-pepper" hair caught my eye. She had a +dignified, schoolteacher look. Something drew me towards her. As i +searched her face, i could see that she was also searching mine. Our +eyes locked in a questioning gaze. "Lolita ?" i ventured. "Assata?" +she responded. And there, in the middle of those alderson prison +grounds, we hugged and kissed each other. +For me, this was one of the greatest honors of my life. Lolita +Lebron was one of the most respected political prisoners in the +world. Ever since i had first learned about her courageous struggle +for the independence of Puerto Rico, i had read everything i could +find that had been written about her. She had spent a quarter of a +century behind bars and had refused parole unless her comrades +were also freed. After all those years she had remained strong, +unbent and unbroken, still dedicated to the independence of Puerto +Rico and the liberation of her people. She deserved more respect +than anyone could possibly give her, and i could not do enough to +demonstrate my respect. +In our subsequent meetings i must have been quite a pain in +her neck, falling all over myself to carry her tray, to get a chair for +her, or to do whatever i could for her. Lolita had been through hell +in prison, yet she was amazingly calm and extremely kind. She had +suffered years of isolation in davis hall in addition to years of +political and personal isolation. Until the upsurge of the movement +for Puerto Rican independence in the late 60s, she had received very + +ASSATA +2 55 + + ASSATA + +little support. Years had gone by without a visit. For years she had +been cut off from her country, her culture, her family, and had not +been able to speak her own language. Her only daughter had died +while she was in prison. +I supported Lolita a hundred percent, but there was one thing +about which we did not agree. At the time we met, Lolita was +somewhat anticommunist and antisocialist. She was extremely re­ +ligous and, i think, believed that religion and socialism were two +opposing forces, that socialists and communists were completely +opposed to religion and religious freedom. +After the resurgence of the Puerto Rican independence move­ +ment, Lolita was visited by all kinds of people. Some were pseudo­ +revolutionary robots who attacked her for her religious beliefs, +telling her that to be a revolutionary she had to give up her belief in +God. It apparently had never occurred to those fools that Lolita was +more revolutionary than they could ever be, and that her religion +had helped her to remain strong and committed all those years. I +was infuriated by their crass, misguided arrogance. +I had become close friends with a Catholic nun, Mary Alice, +while at alderson, who introduced me to liberation theology. I had +read some articles by Camillo Torres, the revolutionary priest, and i +knew that there were a lot of revolutionary priests and nuns in Latin +America. But i didn't know too much about liberation theology. I +did know that Jesus had driven the money changers out of the +temples and said that the meek would inherit the earth, and a lot of +other things that were directly opposed to capitalism. He had told +the rich to give away their wealth and said that "It is easier for a +camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter +into the Kingdom of God" (Matthew 19:24). I knew a little bit, but +i had too much respect for Lolita to open my mouth carelessly. I +decided to study liberation theology so that i could have an intel­ +ligent conversation with her. +I never got around to it, though. The maximum security unit +closed, and i was shipped back to new jersey. Lolita is free now, and +she is no longer isolated from what is going on in her part of the +world or in her church. I know that wherever she is, she is praying +and struggling for her people. + + Chapter 2 0 + +y mother brings my daugh­ +ter to see me at the clinton correctional facility for +women in new jersey, where i had been sent from +alderson. I am delirious. She looks so tall. I run up to +kiss her. She barely responds. She is distant and stand­ +offish. Pangs of guilt and sorrow fill my chest. I can see +that my child is suffering. It is stupid to ask what is +wrong. She is four years old, and except for these +pitiful little visits-although my mother has brought +her to see me every week, wherever i am, with the +exception of the time i was in alderson-she has never +been with her mother. I can feel something welling up +in my baby. I look at my mother, my face a question +mark. My mother is suffering too. I try to play. I make +my arms into an elephant's trunk stalking around the +visiting room jungle. It does not work. My daughter +refuses to play baby elephant, or tiger, or anything. +She looks at me like i am the buffoon i must look like. +I try the choo-choo train routine and the la, la, la +song, but she is not amused. I try talking to her, but +she is puffed up and sullen. +I go over and try to hug her. In a hot second she is +all over me. All i can feel are these little four-year-old +fists banging away at me. Every bit of her force is in +those punches, they really hurt. I let her hit me until +she is tired. "It's all right," i tell her. "Let it all out." +She is standing in front of me, her face contorted with +anger, looking spent. She backs away and leans +against the wall. "It's okay," i tell her. "Mommy un­ +derstands." "You're not my mother," she screams, the +tears rolling down her face. "You're not my mother +and I hate you." I feel like crying too. I know she is + +2 57 + + ASSATA + +confused about who i am. She calls me Mommy Assata and she +calls my mother Mommy. +1 try to pick her up. She knocks my hand away. "You can get +out of here, if you want to," she screams. "You just don't want to." +"No, i can't," i say, weakly. "Yes you can." she accuses. "You just +don't want to." +1 look helplessly at my mother. Her face is choked with pain. +"Tell her to try to open the bars," she says in a whisper. +"I can't open the door," i tell my daughter. "I can't get through +the bars. You try and open the bars." +My daughter goes over to the barred door that leads to the +visiting room. She pulls and she pushes. She yanks and she hits and +she kicks the bars until she falls on the floor, a heap of exhaustion. 1 +go over and pick her up. 1 hold and rock and kiss her. There is a +look of resignation on her face that i can't stand. We spend the rest +of the visit talking and playing quietly on the floor. When the guard +says the visit is over, i cling to her for dear life. She holds her head +high, and her back straight as she walks out of the prison. She +waves good-bye to me, her face clouded and worried, looking like a +little adult. 1 go back to my cage and cry until i vomit. 1 decide that +it is time to leave. + + TO MY DAUGHTER KAKUYA + +i have shabby dreams for you +of some vague freedom +i have never known. +Baby, +i don't want you hungry or thirsty +or out in the cold. +And i don't want the frost +to kill your fruit +before it ripens . +i can see a sunny place­ +Life exploding green. +i can see your bright, bronze skin +at ease with all the flowers +and the centipedes. +i can hear laughter, +not grown from ridicule. +And words, not prompted +by ego or greed or jealousy. +i see a world where hatred +has been replaced by love . +and ME replaced by WE. +And i can see a world +where you, +building and exploring, +strong and fulfilled, +will understand. +And go beyond +my little shabby dreams. + +ASSATA + +259 + + Chapter 2 1 + +2 60 + +y grandmother came all the +way from North Carolina. She came to tell me about +her dream. My grandmother had been dreaming all of +her life, and the dreams have come true. My grand­ +mother dreams of people passing and babies being +born and people being free, but it is never specific. +Redbirds sitting on fences, rainbows at sunset, con­ +versations with people long gone. My grandmother's +dreams have always come when they were needed and +have always meant what we needed them to mean. She +dreamed my mother would be a schoolteacher, my +aunt would go to law school, and, during the hard +times, she dreamed the good times were coming. She +told us what we needed to be told and made us believe +it like nobody else could have. She did her part. The +rest was up to us. We had to make it real. Dreams and +reality are opposites. Action synthesizes them. +I was extremely pleased that she had come. Her +air was confident and victorious. The rest of the family +prompted her to tell me her dream. +"You're coming home soon," my grandmother +told me, catching my eyes and staring down into +them. "I don't know when it will be, but you're com­ +ing home. You're getting out of here. It won't be too +long, though. It will be much less time than you've +already been here." +Excited, i asked her to tell me about her dream. +We were all talking, i noticed in a conspiratorial tone. +"I dreamed we were in our old house in Jamaica. I +don't know if you remember that house or not." +I assured her that i did. +"I dreamed tha! i was dressing you," she said, +"putting your clothes on." + + "Dressing me?" i repeated. +"Yes. Dressing you." +Fear ran up and down my back. "Was i little or grown?" +"You were grown up in my dream." +1 felt slightly sick. Maybe my grandmother dreamt about my +death. Maybe she dreamt that i was killed while trying to escape. +Why else would she be dressing me, if i wasn't dead? My grand­ +mother caught my drift of thought. +"No, you're all right. You're alive. It's just as plain as the nose +on your face. You're coming home. 1 know what I'm talking about. +Don't ask me to explain it anymore, because 1 can't. 1 just know +you're going to come home and that you're going to be all right." +1 drilled her for more details. Some she gave and some she +didn't. Finally, after i had asked a thousand questions, my grand­ +mother let all the authority show in her voice. "I know it will +happen, because 1 dreamt it. You're getting out of this place, and 1 +know it. That's all there is to it." +My grandmother sat looking at me. There was a kind of smile +on her face i can't describe. 1 knew she was serious. My grand­ +mother's dreams were notorious: her dreams came true. All her life +her uncanny senses have been like radar, picking up and identifying +all kinds of things that we don't even see. My family and i just sat +there vibing on each other. Talking and laughing, bringing up old +memories and telling funny stories. Calmness rolled down my +body like thick honey. +When i got back to my cell i thought about it all. No amount +of scientific, rational thinking could diminish the high that i felt. A +tingly, giddy excitement had caught hold of me. 1 had gotten drunk +on my family's arrogant, carefree optimism. 1 literally danced in my +cell, singing, "Feet, don't fail me now." 1 sang the "feet" part real +low, so i guess the guards must have thought i was bugging out, +stomping around my cage singing "feet," "feet." +"You can't win a race just by running," my mother told me +when i was little. "You have to talk to yourself." +"Huh ?" i had asked. +"You have to talk to yourself when you are running and tell +yourself you can win." +It had become a habit of sorts. Anytime i am faced with +something difficult or almost impossible, i chant. Over the years i +have developed different kinds of chants, but i always fall back on +the old one "i can, i can, yes, i can." +1 called my grandparents a day or two before i escaped. 1 +wanted to hear their voices one last time before i went. 1 was feeling + +ASSATA +Z6I + + ASSATA + +kind of mush and, so as not to sound suspicious, i told them i +wanted to hear some more about the family's history, tracing the +ties back to slavery. All too soon it was time to hang up. "Your +grandmother wants to say something else to you," my grandfather +told me. +"I love you," my grandmother said. "We don't want you to get +used to that place, do you hear? Don't you let yourself get used to +it. " +"No, grandmommy, I won't." +Every day out in the street now, i remind myself that Black +people in amerika are oppressed. It's necessary that I do that. +People get used to anything. The less you think about your oppres­ +sion, the more your tolerance for it grows. After a while, people +just think oppression is the normal state of things. But to become +free, you have to be acutely aware of being a slave. + + THE TRADITION + +Carry it on now. +Carry it on. +Carry it on now. +Carry it on. +Carry on the tradition. +There were Black People since the childhood of time +who carried it on. +In Ghana and Mali and Timbuktu +we carried it on. +Carried on the tradition. +We hid in the bush +when the slavemasters came +holding spears. +And when the moment was ripe, +leaped out and lanced the lifeblood +of would-be masters. +We carried it on. +On slave ships, +hurling ourselves into oceans. +Slitting the throats of our captors. +We took their whips. +And their ships. +Blood flowed in the Atlantic­ +and it wasn't all ours. +We carried it on. +Fed Missy arsenic apple pies. +Stole the axes from the shed. +Went and chopped off master's head. +We ran. We fought. +We organized a railroad. +An underground. +We carried it on. +In newspapers. In meetings. +In arguments and streetfights. +We carried it on. + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +In tales told to children. +In chants and cantatas. +In poems and blues songs +and saxophone screams, +We carried it on. +In classrooms. In churches. +In courtrooms. In prisons. +We carried it on. +On soapboxes and picket lines. +Welfare lines, unemployment lines. +Our lives on the line, +We carried it on. +In sit-ins and pray-ins +And march-ins and die-ins, +We carried it on. +On cold Missouri midnights +Pitting shotguns against lynch mobs. +On burning Brooklyn streets. +Pitting rocks against rifles, +We carried it on. +Against water hoses and bulldogs. +Against nightsticks and bullets. +Against tanks and tear gas. +Needles and nooses. +Bombs and birth control. +We carried it on. +In Selma and San Juan. +Mozambique. Mississippi. +In Brazil and in Boston, +We carried it on. +Through the lies and the sell-outs. +The mistakes and the madness. +Through pain and hunger and frustration, +We carried it on. +Carried on the tradition. +Carried a strong tradition. +Carried a proud tradition. + + Carried a Black tradition. +Carry it on. +Pass it down to the children. +Pass it down. +Carry it on. +Carry it on now. +Carry it on +TO FREEDOM ! + +ASSATA + + Postscript + +2.66 + +reedom. I couldn't believe that it had really +happened, that the nightmare was over, that finally the +dream had come true. I was elated. Ecstatic. But i was +completely disoriented. Everything was the same, yet +everything was different. All of my reactions were +super-intense. I submerged myself in patterns and tex­ +tures, sucking in smells and sounds as if each day was +my last. I felt like a voyeur. I forced myself not to stare +at the people whose conversations i strained to over­ +hear. +Suddenly, i was flooded with the horrors of prison +and every disgusting experience that somehow i had +been able to minimize while inside. I had developed +the ability to be patient, calculating, and completely +self-controlled. For the most part, i had been incapa­ +ble of crying. I felt rigid, as though chunks of steel and +concrete had worked themselves into my body. I was +cold. I strained to touch my softness. I was afraid that +prison had made me ugly. +My comrades helped a lot. They were so beau­ +tiful, natural, and healthy. I loved them for their kind­ +ness to me. It had been years since i had +communicated with anyone intensely, and i talked to +them almost compulsively. They were like medicine, +helping me to ease back into myself again. +But i had changed, and in so many ways. I was no +longer the wide-eyed, romantic young revolutionary +who believed the revolution was just around the cor­ +ner. I still appreciated energetic idealism, but i had +long ago become convinced that revolution was a +science. Generalities were no longer enough for me. +Like my comrades, I believed that a higher level of +political sophistication was necessary and that unity in +the Black community had to become a priority. We +could never afford to forget the lessons we had learned + + from COINTELPRO. As far as i was concerned, building a sense of +national consciousness was one of the most important tasks that lay +ahead of us. I couldn't see how we could seriously struggle without +having a strong sense of collectivity, without being responsible for +each other and to each other. +It was also clear to me that without a truly internationalist +component nationalism was reactionary. There was nothing revolu­ +tionary about nationalism by itself-Hitler and Mussolini were +nationalists. Any community seriously concerned with its own +freedom has to be concerned about other peoples' freedom as well. +The victory of oppressed people anywhere in the world is a victory +for Black people. Each time one of imperialism's tentacles is cut off +we are closer to liberation. The struggle in South Africa is the most +important battle of the century for Black people. The defeat of +apartheid in South Africa will bring Africans all over the planet +closer to liberation. Imperialism is an international system of ex­ +ploitation, and, we, as revolutionaries, need to be internationalists +to defeat it. + +Havana. Lazy sun against blue-green ocean. A beautiful city of +narrow, spider-web streets on one side of town and broad, tree-lined +avenues on the other. Houses with peeling paint and vintage u.s. +cars from the 40s and 50s. +It's a busy place, full of buses, people hurrying, kids in wine­ +or gold-colored uniforms walking leisurely down the streets swing­ +ing book bags. The first thing that hit me were the open doors. +Everywhere you go doors are open wide. You see people inside +their homes talking, working, or watching television. I was amazed +to find that you could actually walk down the streets at night alone. +Old people strolling slowly, carrying shopping bags, stop to +ask, "Que hay ? Que hay en la mercada?" "What are they selling in +the market?" Without a moment's hesitation they yell at kids to get +out of the street. They stand with their hands on their hips, acting +like they own the place. I guess they do. They're not afraid. +"Es mentira." my neighbors exclaim. "It's a lie." Que men­ +tirosa tu eres." "What a liar you are." My neighbors ask me what +the u.s. is like, and they accuse me of lying when i tell them about +the hunger and cold and people sleeping in the streets. They refuse +to believe me. How can that be in such a rich country ? I tell them +about drug addicts and child prostitutes, about crime in the streets. +They accuse me of exaggerating: "We know capitalism is not a +good system, but you don't have to exaggerate. Are there really + +ASSATA + + ASSATA +2 68 + +twelve-year-old drug addicts ?" +Even though they know about racism and the ku klux klan, +about unemployment, such things are unreal to them. Cuba is a +country of hope. Their reality is so different. I'm amazed at how +much Cubans have accomplished in so short a time since the +Revolution. There are new buildings everywhere-schools, apart­ +ment houses, clinics, hospitals, and day care centers. They are not +like the skyscrapers going up in midtown Manhattan. There are no +exclusive condominiums or luxury office buildings. The new build­ +ings are for the people. +Medical care, dental care, and hospital visits are free. Schools +at all educational levels are free. Rent is no more than about ten +percent of salaries. There are no taxes-no income, city, federal, or +state taxes. It is so strange to pay the price actually listed on +products without any tax added. Movies, plays, concerts, and +sports events all cost one or two pesos at the most. Museums are +free. +On Saturdays and Sundays the streets are packed with people +dressed up and ready to hang out. I was amazed to discover that +such a small island has such a rich cultural life and is so lively, +particularly when the u.s. press gives just the opposite picture. +I'm being introduced at a party. The hostess tells me that the +man is from El Salvador. I hold out my hand to shake his. A few +seconds too late, i realize he is missing an arm. He asks me what +country i come from. I'm so upset and ashamed i'm almost shak­ +ing. "Yo soy de los estados unidos, pero no soy yankee," i tell him. +A friend of mine had taught me that phrase. Every time someone +asked me where i was from i cringed. I hated to tell people i was +from the u.s. I would have preferred to say i was New Afrikan, +except that hardly anyone would have understood what that meant. +When i read about death squads in El Salvador or the bombing of +hospitals in Nicaragua, i felt like screaming. +Too many people in the u.s. support death and destruction +without being aware of it. They indirectly support the killing of +people without ever having to look at the corpses. But in Cuba i +could see the results of u.s. foreign policy: torture victims on +crutches who came from other countries to Cuba for treatment, +including Namibian children who had survived massacres, and +evidence of the vicious aggression the u.s. government had com­ +mitted against Cuba, including sabotage, and numerous assassina­ +tion attempts against Fidel. I wondered how all those people in the +states who tried to sound tough, saying that the u.s. should go in +here, bomb there, take over this, attack that, would feel if they knew + + that they were indirectly responsible for babies being burned to +death. I wondered how they would feel if they were forced to take +moral responsibility for that. It sometimes seems that people in the +states are so accustomed to watching death on "Eyewitness News," +watching people starve to death in Africa, being tortured to death +in Latin America or shot down on Asian streets, that, somehow, for +them, people across the ocean-people "up there" or "down there" +or "over there"-are not real. +One of the first questions on the minds of Blacks from the +states when they come to Cuba is whether or not racism exists. I +was certainly no exception. I had read a little about the history of +Black people in Cuba and knew that it was very different from the +history of Black people in the states. Cuban racism had not been as +violent or as institutionalized as u.s. racism, and the tradition of +the two races, Blacks and whites, fighting together for liberation­ +first from colonization and later from dictatorship-was much +stronger in Cuba. Cuba's first war for independence began in 1 868 +when Carlos Manuel De-Cespedes freed his slaves and encouraged +them to join the army in the fight against Spain. One of the most +important figures in that war was Antonio Maceo, a Black man, +who was the chief military strategist. Blacks played a crucial role in +Cuba's labor movement in the 1 950s. Jesus Menendez and Lazaro +Peiia led two key unions. And i knew that Blacks like Juan Almeda, +now Commandante of the Revolution, had played a significant role +in the revolutionary struggle to overthrow Batista. But i was most +interested in learning what had happened to Blacks after the tri­ +umph of the Revolution. +I spent my first weeks in Havana walking and watching. No­ +where did I find a segregated neighborhood, but several people told +me that where i was living had been all white before the Revolution. +Just from casual observation it was obvious that race relations in +Cuba were different from what they were in the u.s. Blacks and +whites could be seen together everywhere-in cars, walking down +streets. Kids of all races played together. It was definitely different. +Whenever i met someone who spoke English i asked their opinion +about the race situation. +"Racism is illegal in Cuba," i was told. Many shook their +heads and said, "Aqui no hay racismo." "There is no racism here." +Although i heard the same response from everyone i remained +skeptical and suspicious. I couldn't believe it was possible to elimi­ +nate hundreds of years of racism just like that, in twenty-five years +or so. To me, revolutions were not magical, and no magic wand +could be waved to create changes overnight. I'd come to see revolu- + +ASSATA + + ASSATA + +tion as a process. 1 eventually became convinced that the Cuban +government was completely committed to eliminating all forms of +racism. There were no racist institutions, structures, or organiza­ +tions, and i understood how the Cuban economic system under­ +mined rather than fed racism. +1 had assumed that Blacks would be working within the Revo­ +lution to implement the changes and to insure the continuation of +the nonracist policies that Fidel and the revolutionary leaders had +instituted in every aspect of Cuban life. A Black Cuban friend +helped me have a better understanding. He told me that Cubans +took their African heritage for granted. That for hundreds of years +Cubans had danced to African rhythms, performed traditional +rituals, and worshipped Gods like Shango and Ogun. He told me +that Fidel, in a speech, had told the people, "We are all Afro­ +Cubans, from the very lightest to the very darkest." +1 told him that i thought it was the duty of Africans everywhere +on this planet to struggle to reverse the historical patterns created +by slavery and imperialism. Although he agreed with me, he +quickly informed me that he didn't think of himself as an African. +"Yo soy Cubano." "I am Cuban." And it was obvious he was very +proud of being Cuban. He told me a story about a white Cuban +who had volunteered twice to fight in Angola. He had received +awards for heroism. "His case is not at all common in Cuba, but +there are some who have problems adjusting to change." +"What was his problem ?" 1 asked. "When the guy came home +he caused a big scandal with his family. His daughter wanted to +marry a Black man and he opposed the marriage. He said he +wanted his grandchildren to look like him. It was a big argument, +and his whole family got into it. This guy was so mixed up he went +crazy when his daughter called him a racist. He wanted to fight +everybody. He was out in the street, crying and kicking lamp posts. +He didn't know what to do. All the time he was in Angola fighting +against racism, he never thought about his own racism." +1 agreed with him that whites fighting against racism had to +fight on two levels, against institutionalized racism and against +their own racist ideas. "What happened to the man ?" i asked. +"Well, his daughter got married anyway, and his family con­ +vinced him to go to the wedding. Now, he baby-sits for his grand­ +children, and he says he's crazy about them, but the guy is still not +right in the head. Every time 1 see him, he's apologetic. 1 told him 1 +don't want his apologies. Let him apologize to his daughter and +her husband. As long as he supports the Revolution, 1 don't care +what he thinks. 1 care more about what he does. If he really + + supports the Revolution, then he's gonna change. And, even if he +never· changes, his kids are going to change� And his grandchildren +will change even more. That's what I care about." +The whole race question in Cuba was even more confusing to +me because all the categories of race were different. In the first +place, most white Cubans wouldn't even be considered white in the +u.s. They'd be considered Latinos. I was shocked to learn that a lot +of Cubans who looked Black to me didn't consider themselves +Black. They called themselves mulattoes, colorados, jabaos, and a +whole bunch of other names. It seemed to me that anyone who +wasn't jet black was considered a mulatto. The first time someone +called me a "mulatta," i was so insulted that if i had been able to +express myself in Spanish, we would have had a heated argument +right there on the spot. +"Yo no soy una mulatta. Yo soy una mujer negra, y orgullosa +soy una mujer negra," i would tell people as soon as I learned a +little Spanish. "I'm not a mulatto, but a Black woman, and I'm +proud to be Black." Some people understood where i was coming +from, but others thought i was too hung up on the race question. +To them, "mulatto" was just a color, like red, green, or blue. But, to +me, it represented a historical relationship. All of my associations +with the word "mulatto" were negative. it represented slavery, slave +owners raping Black women. It represented a privileged caste, +educated in European values and culture. In some Caribbean coun­ +tries, it represented the middle level of a hierarchical, three-caste +system-the caste that acted as a buffer class between the white +rulers and the Black masses. +I found it impossible to separate the word from its history. It +reminded me of a saying i had heard repeatedly since childhood: "If +you're white, you'r right. If you're brown, stick around. And, if +you're black, get back." I realized that in order to really understand +the situation i had to study Cuban history thoroughly. But, some­ +how, i felt that the mulatto thing hindered Cubans from dealing +with some of the negative ideas left over from slavery. +The Black pride movement had been very important in helping +Black people in the u.s. and in other English-speaking countries to +view their African heritage in a positive light. I had never heard of +any equivalent movement around mulatto pride and i couldn't +imagine what the basis for it would be. To me, it was extremely +important for all the descendants of Africans everywhere on this +planet to struggle to reverse the political, economic, psychological, +and social patterns created by slavery and imperialism. +The problem of racism takes on so many forms and displays so + +ASSATA +2 7I + + ASSATA + +many subtleties. It is a complicated problem that will require much +analysis and much struggle to resolve. Although, in some ways, +Cubans and I approached the problem from different angles, i felt +we shared the same goal: the abolition of racism all over the world. +I respected the Cuban government, not only for adopting nonracist +principles, but for struggling to put those principles into practice. + +I held my breath as i waited for my aunt to pick up the phone. +It had been five years since i had last spoken to her. Five years since +i had been able to contact my family. Hopefully, she hadn't +changed her number. A click. And then, at last, i heard her voice. I +was so happy. +"Anty," i almost +.' shouted. "It's me. Assata." +"Who?" +"Assata. " +"Who ?" +"It's me. Assata. I'm in Cuba. I'm in Cuba. Oh, i love you. It's +so good to hear your voice. How are you?" +The voice on the other end was my aunt's, but it was so cold i +could hardly believe it. "Oh. Really. Assata. Hm. Right. Well, I'm +fine." +"What's the matter, Anty? It's me. Assata. Are you all right?" +"I'm fine." +"Anty. Oh, i missed you so much. It's all right. Everything's +o.K. I'm fine. I'm fine. How's everybody? How's everybody there?" +Again the icy voice. "Everything is just fine. What do you +want?" +"What do i want? What do you mean, what do i want? I want +to talk to you. I love you. You sound so cold." +"Well . . . it . . . it . . . I . . . " There was a pause. And then, +"Say something so I'll know it's really you. Something only you and +I know." +Finally understanding, i said the first thing that popped into +my head. "Anty, panty, jack o'stanty." It was a stupid childhood +rhyme and nobody else could possibly know about it. I used to +taunt her with it when I was a kid. +"It is you. Oh, my God, it really is you," she screamed. "Wait. +Give me a second to catch my breath. How are you?" +"Fine," i said. "How's Mommy and Kakuya ?" +"Your mother's fine. Oh, she's gonna be so happy when I tell +her I've talked to you. Kakuya's fine, too. Your daughter is so big + + you won't recognize her. She's almost as tall as you are." +I told her i wanted to call my mother and Kakuya as soon as i +finished talking to her. +"No. You call her tomorrow. Let me call her first, so she really +knows its you. Where did you say you are?" +"Cuba. I'm calling from Cuba. I'm a political refugee here." +"Cuba ?" my aunt repeated. "Cuba ? Are you O.K. there ? I +mean, are you safe?" +"I think so," i told her. "I feel fine. It seems that way." +Talking to Kakuya and my mother the next day was like a +dream. "Hi," this little voice said into the phone. It was the most +beautiful voice i'd ever heard. I was nervous and happy. Sweating +buckets. +"How are you?" i asked my daughter. +"Fine. " +I felt like a pot boiling over. All the feelings i'd kept inside for +so long came gushing out. I had a million things i wanted to ask +her. A million things i wanted to say. +My mother and i made plans. She and my aunt and Kakuya +would come down as soon as possible. It seemed too good to be +true. And it was. +Month after month passed by. In order for Kakuya to get her +passport, she needed a birth certificate. My mother told me that for +ten years Elmhurst Hospital had refused to issue Kakuya a birth +certificate. Finally, after months of hassling, Evelyn had to go to +kourt to get a document proving that my daughter had been born. +Over the months that followed, i began to understand the kind +of hell that the police and the FBI had put my family through. After +i had escaped, the police had so persistently and brutally badgered +my mother that she had had a heart attack. What they had done to +Evelyn was beyond belief. I understood why Evelyn had reacted to +my call the way she did. At one time, Evelyn's office telephone had +ten intercepts on it. She and my mother had received phony notes in +my handwriting. They had received telephone calls with my voice +telling them to "come to the spot and bring some money." They +had found electric eyes and all kinds of other devices in and around +their houses. They had experienced strange break-ins where +nothing of value was taken. But they had survived. And grown +stronger in the process. +As the plane swooped down over Havana, it seemed that my +heart was beating on my ribs to get out. My stomach hurt. My +mouth was dry like cotton. It seemed like a million people poured + +ASSATA + +2 73 + + ASSATA + +2 74 + +off the plane before the tall little girl with the great big eyes started +down the ramp. I could see my mother, looking frail, yet so deter­ +mined. With my aunt behind her, looking triumphant. +How much we had all gone through. Our fight had started on +a slave ship years before we were born. Venceremos, my favorite +word in Spanish, crossed my mind. Ten million people had stood +up to the monster. Ten million people only ninety miles away. We +were here together in their land, my small little family, holding each +other after so long. There was no doubt about it, our people would +one day be free. The cowboys and bandits didn't own the world. + + Preface +As I began to give interviews and talks about my book “They Take +Our Jobs!” And 20 Other Myths about Immigration, published in 2007, +I became more and more convinced that a key, central issue that’s +hampering those of us who support immigrant rights is the absence +of a basic, fundamental ability to say “immigrant rights are human +rights.” Immigration simply should not be illegal. No politician or +talk-show commentator is going to risk saying this, but we have to. +I stand by my arguments about the myths I deconstruct in the +book (Immigrants DON’T take American jobs! Immigrants DO pay +taxes! Immigrants ARE learning English!), but I also, deep down, +think these arguments miss the point. Immigrants are human beings +who have arbitrarily been classified as having a different legal status +from the rest of the United States’ inhabitants. The only thing that +makes immigrants different from anybody else is the fact that they +are denied the basic rights that the rest of us have. There is simply +no humanly acceptable reason to define a group of people as +different and deny them rights. +How can we claim to oppose discrimination based on national +origin when our entire body of citizenship and immigration law is +founded on discrimination based on national origin? When people +ask me, “Why don’t they just apply for citizenship?” or “Why don’t +they just come here legally?” they are betraying a fundamental +ignorance of our immigration and citizenship laws. People don’t +apply for citizenship or don’t obtain proper documents to come +here, because the law forbids it. That’s right: the law forbids them to +come to the United States or to apply for citizenship. US +immigration law is based on a system of quotas and preferences. If +you don’t happen to be one of the lucky few who falls into a quota +or preference category, there is basically no way to obtain legal +permission to immigrate. If you are already in the United States +without proper documentation, you will never, ever be allowed to +apply for citizenship. + + Given the choice, nobody would risk his or her life walking +through the desert to enter the country illegally, and nobody would +risk the constant fear, discrimination, and threat of deportation that +comes from being undocumented. Of course, everybody who comes +to the United States would rather enter the country legally, and +everybody who is undocumented would rather be documented. If +only the law allowed them to do it! +The purpose of this book is to denaturalize illegality. I want to +show it as the social construction that it is. I want to show when, +why, and how it came to be, and how it came to be socially +accepted as a fact. I want to show how it works and what purpose it +serves. Or maybe whose purposes it serves. My goal is to unveil the +complex, inconsistent, and sometimes perverse nature of US +immigration law that makes some people illegal. + + Introduction +When people say, “What part of ‘illegal’ don’t you understand?” +they imply that they, in fact, understand everything about it. They +take illegality to be self-evident: there’s a law, you break the law, +that’s illegal. Obvious, right? +Actually, illegality is a lot more complicated than that. Laws are +made and enforced by humans, in historical contexts, and for +reasons. They change over time, and they are often created and +modified to serve the interests of some groups—generally the +powerful and privileged—over others. +Most of the citizens who brag that their ancestors came here “the +right way” are making assumptions based on ignorance. They +assume that their ancestors “went through the process” and +obtained visas, as people are required to do today. In fact, most of +them came before any legal process existed—before the concept of +“illegality” existed. +THE INVENTION OF ILLEGALITY +Illegality as we know it today came into existence after 1965. In the +decades before 1965, the media rarely depicted immigration in +negative terms. Nor did the public or Congress consider it a problem +in need of legislation. By the 1970s, though, the demonization of +immigrants—in particular, Mexican and other Latino immigrants— +and the issue of “illegal immigration” were turning into hot-button +issues.1 +There are some particular historical reasons for these changes. +Some are economic. The global and the domestic economies +underwent some fundamental structural changes in the late +twentieth century, changes we sometimes refer to as “globalization.” +Some analysts argued that globalization was making the world +“flat,” and that with the spread of connection, technology, and +communication, old inequalities would melt away.2 Others believed + + that new inequalities were becoming entrenched—that a “global +apartheid” being imposed, separating the Global North from the +Global South, the rich from the poor, the winners in the new global +economy from the losers.3 I’ll go more into depth about these +changes and show how they contributed to a need for illegality to +sustain the new world order. +The second set of changes is ideological and cultural. Like the big +economic shifts, ideological and cultural changes are a process; they +can’t necessarily be pinpointed to a particular date or year. I use +1965 as a convenience, because that’s when some major changes +were enacted in US immigration law that contributed to creating +illegality. But those changes responded to, and contributed to, the +more long-term economic and ideological shifts that were occurring. +In the cultural realm, overt racism was going out of fashion. Civil +rights movements at home and anti-colonial movements abroad +undercut the legitimacy of racial exclusion and discrimination. +While apartheid continued in South Africa through the 1980s, even +that lost its international legitimacy. In the United States, the Jim +Crow regime was dismantled and new laws and programs were +aimed at creating racial equality, at least on paper. By the new +century, people were beginning to talk about the United States as a +“postracial” society. At the same time, though, new laws hardened +immigration regimes and discrimination against immigrants in the +United States and elsewhere. +TRUE REFUGEES OF THE BORDER WARS +Before deeply delving into the dizzying and sometimes irrational +nature of immigration law, it’s helpful to consider what’s actually +happening on the ground. I had the opportunity to see firsthand the +human tragedy that’s resulted from the new immigration regime in +March 2010, when I participated in a weeklong humanitarian +delegation with the organization No More Deaths, one of several +that take direct action on the US-Mexico border. +Volunteers from these organizations attempt to provide +humanitarian aid to migrants by leaving water at stations along + + migrant trails and offering basic first-aid at camps in the desert, +among other things. My group, though, was taking testimonies on +the Mexican side of the border from migrants who had been caught +and deported. +During that week, I met several hundred deportees. They were +arrested for a crime no US citizen can commit: entering the United +States without official permission. Only people who are not US +citizens need official permission to enter US territory. +Nogales, Sonora, on the US-Mexico border, has the feel of a war +zone. Every few hours, a bus from the Wackenhut private security +service arrives on the US side of the border filled with would-be +migrants, mostly from Mexico’s poor southern regions. Most of them +were captured by the Border Patrol somewhere in the Arizona +desert. “They used to try to capture us near the border,” one +migrant told me wearily. “Now, they patrol two or three days’ walk +north of the border. They want to find us when we’re dehydrated, +exhausted, blistered, so we can’t run away.” +First, the drivers unload their belongings from underneath the +bus—a few backpacks, but mostly clear plastic Homeland Security +bags supplied by the Border Patrol. After about half an hour, the +migrants descend from the bus in small groups. Under armed guard, +the lucky ones retrieve their packages and shuffle back across the +border to be processed by Mexican authorities. Many have lost +everything on their trek through the desert, when they were +attacked by robbers, became separated from their group, got lost, or +fled from the Border Patrol. +Processing takes about fifteen minutes. The migrants receive a +slip of paper attesting to the fact that they are deportees. The paper +confirms their eligibility for the fragmentary social services that the +Mexican government and several Catholic church organizations +offer to migrants in Nogales: one phone call, a half-fare bus ride +home, three nights in a shelter, and, most generously, fifteen days of +free meals twice a day at the comedor, or soup kitchen, run by the +Proyecto Kino, supported by both the Mexican and several US +archdioceses of the Catholic church. + + After processing, the migrants emerge on the Mexican side of the +border. Taxi drivers and food vendors accost them as they stumble +out, dazed and bewildered. “Everybody wants to pretend to be a +migrant, to get services,” one provider told me. “You have to look at +their shoes. If they have shoelaces, they’re not migrants. Homeland +Security takes their shoelaces so they won’t. . .” He gestured slitting +his throat and laughed conspiratorially. So the migrants stumble +because their feet are raw and torn from walking through the desert, +and because they have no shoelaces in their tattered shoes. +If they’re lucky, one of the first people they’ll encounter is Sal, +with the Transportes Fronterizos (Border Transport) company, +contracted by the Mexican government to provide transportation +services for deportees. Sal is a deportee himself. In his twenties, he +speaks English with a perfect Chicano lilt. That’s not surprising: he +came to the United States with his parents when he was three and +grew up and graduated from high school in Arizona. “How did you +get deported?” I asked him, quickly realizing that we should +communicate in his preferred English, rather than Spanish. “You +don’t want to know,” he grimaced. “Jaywalking.” Was it racial +profiling? The police stopped him for crossing a street where there +was no crosswalk, asked him for his documents, and arrested him. +In Arizona, local police are empowered to enforce immigration laws. +Sal can tell migrants where to find free food and shelter, and how +to access the transportation services offered by Grupo Beta, the +Mexican government agency charged with removing migrants from +the border to prevent them from attempting to recross. He keeps his +booth open from 10 a.m. until 6 p.m., when the last bus leaves for +the shelter. Migrants who get deported after that have to sleep on +the streets. +Most migrants leave their homes in Mexico with identification +papers, money, and family members or other traveling companions. +Most are deported alone and can spend days or weeks trying to +determine the whereabouts of husbands, wives, children, or cousins. +Many have also lost their documents and their cash. The buses +arrive every few hours, all day and night. The migrants who are + + dumped and wander the streets of Nogales are the true refugees of +the border wars. +At the door of the Proyecto Kino soup kitchen, the long line for +breakfast starts forming around 8:30 a.m. Some migrants arrive by +bus from the shelters, others by foot after spending the night on the +street or in the cemetery. The hundred or so men line up on the +right, and the ten to twenty women and children, who get served +first, on the left. To get in when the comedor opens at 9 a.m. for the +first breakfast shift, all of them have to show their deportation +document. The paper that proves that they were hunted, captured, +and deported for not having the proper documents to enter the +United States now becomes their ticket to a free meal. +The services available to migrants are paltry compared to their +needs. “My wife, my grown daughters, and our two adopted +grandchildren are in California,” one man in his fifties told me +despairingly. He showed me the adoption papers. His daughter’s +children, aged two and three and both US citizens, were taken by +Child Protective Services when the daughter became a drug user. He +and his wife became their foster parents and then adopted them. “I +had to promise that I’d support them and care for them. How can I +do that if I can’t get back to them?” He asked to use my cell phone +to call his wife and then thrust the phone into my hand. “Talk to +her,” he urged me. “Tell her I’m here. Tell her I’m trying to get +back.” +A young man spent three days waiting outside the exit port. He +and his wife were separated during the deportation process. “Her +name is Brenda. She was wearing gray sweatpants and a green Tshirt,” he told everyone who would listen. As each bus arrived, he +stood waiting with a desperate hopelessness, watching the deportees +slowly trickle out, searching for her familiar face. +As part of No More Deaths, I could offer these people only a few +tokens of aid: a phone to call their relatives, donated clothes and +socks, a granola bar or rehydration drink. I could beg them to share +their stories with us, so that we could tell them back in the United +States and try to change our immigration policies. At the end of the + + day, we’d walk back to Nogales, Arizona, stepping lightly across the +border that had destroyed and divided their lives. +THE COURTS PLAY THEIR ROLE +In Tucson, Arizona, the Federal Court processes seventy migrants a +day through the Operation Streamline program. About 4 percent of +migrants who are captured are sent to Streamline, which began +functioning in Tucson in 2008 after beginning in Texas as a pilot +program in 2005. Between Tucson and Yuma, the other Arizona +district using the program, some thirty thousand migrants are +“Streamlined” every year. +Unlike most deportees, Streamlined migrants are charged with a +criminal offense and imprisoned. The daily hearings fall somewhere +between a kangaroo court and a slave auction. The migrants are +shackled hand, foot, and waist, and sit in rows taking up about half +of the courtroom. The judge calls them up in groups of ten or so, +and their harassed lawyers, who represent four or five defendants a +day, scramble to accompany them.4 Almost all of these migrants +were captured in the desert, and are blistered, exhausted, +disoriented, and dehydrated when they are placed in cells. They +describe being stripped of their belongings and their jackets and left +to shiver in T-shirts under the air conditioning, being placed seventy +or eighty people deep in cells designed for four or five. There is no +room even to sit, much less lie down; they receive only a small juice +box and a packet of cheese crackers in two days. +Ten migrants stand before the judge in their shackles, while +dozens of others look on. The lawyers hover beside their clients. The +judge asks: “Mr. ___, do you understand the charge against you and +the maximum penalty? Do you understand your right to a trial? Are +you willing to give up that right and plead guilty? Of what country +are you a citizen? On or about March 18 of this year, did you enter +into Southern Arizona from Mexico? Did you come to a port of +entry?” +Most answer that they are citizens of Mexico, though on the day I +attended the hearing, there were several Hondurans and + + Ecuadorians. A court interpreter repeats the questions in Spanish +simultaneously, and the defendants listen through headphones that +they can’t touch because their hands are shackled to their waists. +Their lawyers prompt them if they falter in their responses. Mostly, +they answer sí to everything, which the interpreter dutifully +translates as yes, except to the port-of-entry question, to which they +are supposed to answer no. Some answer dully, staring at the +ground; some respond in strong voices, looking up at the judge. A +few are dismissed because they don’t speak Spanish, and the court +has no interpreters for the indigenous languages of Mexico. A few +scorn the headphones and answer in English. +Occasionally, a defendant breaks the pattern. One answered yes +when asked if he came to a port of entry. The judge was visibly +unnerved. “You came to a port of entry?” she asked. “Let me ask the +question again. Did you come to a port of entry?” Again, the +defendant answered yes. She asked several more times before the +lawyer convinced his client to answer no. Another defendant +became agitated when the judge began to question him. “I’m guilty! +I’m guilty!” he exclaimed. “I know you’re guilty,” responded the +judge impatiently. “But I still have to ask you these questions, and +you have to answer them.” +“How do you plead to illegal entry, guilty or not guilty?” was the +judge’s last question. Every prisoner answered dutifully, culpable— +guilty. Most were sentenced to time served and prepared to be +deported to Nogales, Mexico. They will leave the country that they +sacrificed so much to get to with a criminal record and the threat of +up to twenty years in jail if they enter again. They will be among +those arriving in Nogales, penniless, lost, and bewildered. +What we saw was only part of the picture. The trip to the border +can be as dangerous as the crossing and passage through the US +side. Every year, many thousands of migrants are kidnapped as they +travel through Mexico. Gangs and drug smugglers see migrants as +easy targets and count on the fact that the friends or relatives in the +United States who raised the thousands of dollars to fund their trip +will be able to generate more to pay for their ransom. As violence in +the border region increased, migrants made up many of the victims. + + If a ransom was not paid, or if migrants refused to work for the +gang, they might be killed, sometimes in massacres that claimed the +lives of dozens. +SOME BACKGROUND +The many competing interests at stake in the development of law, +policy, and ideology surrounding undocumentedness have led to a +perplexing and constantly shifting landscape. To understand the +changes of the late twentieth century, we need to understand how +the system worked before that. From the eighteenth and, especially, +the nineteenth centuries on, the United States benefited from its +place in the global industrial economy, and white people in the +United States benefited from their place in the racial order. A dual +labor market developed in which some workers began to become +upwardly mobile and enjoy the benefits of industrial society, while +others were legally and structurally stuck at the bottom. +This dual system was reproduced both domestically and +internationally, and race played a big role in it. Legal systems were +created to justify and sustain it. Globally, the system was expressed +through colonialism. Europeans colonized people of color around +the world and benefited from their forced labor and their resources. +In the United States, slavery played a big role in sustaining a dual +labor system, where whites could move up, but blacks could not. +The United States took some colonies, too, at the end of the +nineteenth century, like the Philippines, Cuba, and Puerto Rico. But +US companies and citizens also benefited from the dual labor system +when American companies like United Fruit established plantations +in Central America and produced bananas using cheap labor there. +They benefited when Brazilian slaveholders or German coffee +planters in Guatemala used forced labor in those countries to supply +cheap coffee for US markets. +Mexico played a big role in the dual labor market in the United +States, both domestically and internationally. US mining companies +operated in both countries from the late 1800s, and in both, they +employed an explicit dual wage system. Mexicans received a lower, + + “Mexican” wage, while white US citizens received a so-called gold +or US wage.5 +Inside the United States, Mexicans were welcomed as migrant +workers as American investment in the southwest grew after the +territory was taken from Mexico in 1848 and 1853. A reliance on +Mexican workers who contribute their labor to US economic +enterprises—but are denied access to the benefits that US law +affords its citizens—has underpinned the economy for over a +century. Over the course of time, different legal and structural +mechanisms have been used to maintain this system. Early on, it +was done by legally distinguishing immigrants from workers. +Immigrants were the Europeans who came to Ellis Island; workers +were the Mexicans and Chinese who built the railroads and planted +the food that sustained white settlement in the newly conquered +west of the country. They were not expected to settle, stay, or +become citizens. Citizenship, after all, was reserved for people +defined as white until after the Civil War. +US immigration law thus treated Mexicans not as potential +immigrants but as sojourners, temporary migrants who entered the +country to work, rather than as immigrants who intended to stay. +Anti-immigrant sentiment was directed against newly arrived +Europeans, not against Mexicans. Anti-Mexican racism was also +common, but it was directed against the supposed racial category of +Mexicans rather than their status or citizenship. +Until 1924, the new border between the United States and +Mexico was virtually unpoliced, and migration flowed openly. +Mexicans were exempted from the immigration restrictions passed +into law before 1965. Because they were not considered immigrants, +Mexicans were also permanently deportable and were, in fact, +singled out for mass deportations in the 1930s and 1950s. The +nonimmigrant status of Mexican workers over time underlies the +apparent paradox between the United States as a so-called country +of immigrants and its xenophobia and restrictive immigration +policies. + + The creation of citizenship by birth through the Fourteenth +Amendment was aimed at remedying the historic exclusion of +African Americans. But it also created the apparent paradox that +other nonwhites—like the Chinese—could become citizens through +birth. Congress quickly moved to remedy this by restricting the +entry of Chinese women in 1873 and all Chinese with the Chinese +Exclusion Act in 1882. California’s farms then became even more +dependent on Mexicans who, unlike the Chinese, could still be +counted on to leave after the harvest rather than remain in the +country and eventually become citizens. +In 1928, the Saturday Evening Post reported that there were some +136,000 farmers in California, 100,000 with farms of under 100 +acres, and 83,000 farming fewer than 40 acres. These small farmers +did not use hired labor during most of the year, but during the +harvest, required some 10 to 50 additional workers. “Fluid, casual +labor is for them a factor determining profits or ruin,” the Post +explained. +“Mexican labor fits the requirements of the California farm as no +other labor has done in the past. The Mexican can withstand the +high temperatures of the Imperial and San Joaquin valleys. He is +adapted to field conditions. He moves from one locality to another +as the rotation of the seasonal crops progresses. He does heavy field +work—particularly in the so-called ‘stoop crops’ and ‘knee crops’ of +vegetable and cantaloupe production—which white labor refuses to +do and is constitutionally unsuited to perform.” Mexican labor, the +author estimated, comprised from 70 to 80 percent of “casual” or +seasonal farm labor.6 +This informal system of rotating labor prevailed until the 1940s, +when it was supplemented by a government-run system that +continued until the mid-1960s, the Bracero Program. The Bracero +Program, which brought in over 4 million workers between 1942 +and 1964, was terminated in the context of civil rights organizing +that highlighted the discriminatory treatment of these guest +workers. But the economic structures that relied on these workers + + didn’t disappear, and neither did the workers; they just returned to +the old, informal system. +But, suddenly, the old system became illegal. The 1965 +immigration law, which coincided with the termination of the +Bracero Program, responded to the domestic and international +movements for racial equality by getting rid of the racial and +national quota system that had prevailed until then. It gave every +country an equal quota. And it included the countries of the Western +Hemisphere for the first time, considering Mexicans as potential +immigrants rather than just exploitable workers. +Given the structural realities of Mexican migrant labor, treating +Mexicans equally under the new law was actually a way to keep +exploiting them, but now, by calling them “illegal.” From 1965 on, +new laws made them more and more illegal and took more and +more rights away from them. +Although it may seem contradictory, restrictive immigration laws +actually contributed to a rise in both legal and “illegal” +immigration. Two immigration scholars point to a synergy between +the way the 1965 law privileged family members of US citizens and +legal residents—in many cases, exempting them from the new +quotas—and the barrage of laws after 1965 that progressively +restricted the rights of noncitizens. It wasn’t the new quota that led +to increased Mexican legal immigration after 1965, since the quota +drastically reduced the number of Mexicans allowed to immigrate. +Instead, it was the punitive aspects of that and subsequent laws that +increased the numbers of those who decided to become immigrants, +rather than sojourners.7 In other words, workers decided to stay, +bring their families, and become immigrants because the earlier, +seasonal pattern was becoming increasingly criminalized. +Some of the very organizations that were pushing to expand legal +and social rights in the United States in the 1960s continued to draw +a line at the border. The United Farm Workers union campaigned +against “illegal” workers in the 1970s.8 California Rural Legal +Assistance and the UFW supported the nation’s first employer +sanctions law—making it illegal for employers to hire + + undocumented workers—in 1971.9 The first attempt to implement +such sanctions at the national level was in 1973, at the initiative of +the AFL-CIO and the NAACP.10 (By the 1990s, all of these +organizations had changed their positions and opposed the +employer sanctions that were created by the 1986 Immigration +Reform and Control Act.) But employer sanctions turned out to be +just one more way to maintain a large, exploitable pool of workers +to fill agriculture’s most backbreaking jobs. The sanctions could be +suspended, as they were after Hurricane Katrina, when federal +contractors desperately needed migrant laborers to clean up and +rebuild the city of New Orleans. +Agriculture continues to employ large numbers of undocumented +workers in the twenty-first century, as farmers and their +organizations throughout the United States have publicly +acknowledged. Larry Wooten, the president of the North Carolina +Farm Bureau, explained at an agricultural summit in Atlanta in +2012 that “agricultural employers who advertise jobs—as is +required for those who are part of the federal guest worker program +—for nearly two months get little to no response. ‘We have no +choice,’ Wooten said. ‘We must use immigrants.’”11 +Since the 1980s, economic restructuring in the United States has +created some huge new demands for extra-legal workers who will +contribute to the economy for low wages and few benefits. Many +undocumented people today work at jobs that have been in-sourced. +While most of us are familiar with outsourcing—when jobs, from +manufacturing to call centers, are shifted overseas—in-sourcing is +less well known. The phrase can refer to a company’s decision to +carry out internally those tasks that were previously contracted out, +or it can mean that a company brings back a job that had been +outsourced abroad. Here, though, I’m referring to a particular kind +of in-sourcing: when a company closes down an operation in order +to move it somewhere else inside the United States where it will +have access to cheaper (often immigrant) workers, lower taxes, +fewer environmental or health and safety regulations, or other +financial incentives. + + Almost everybody in the United States benefits from that labor in +one way or another, because it underlies almost all of the goods and +services we use. Whether they work in agriculture or in-sourced +industries like meatpacking, or whether they work in landscaping, +newspaper delivery, or cleanup after environmental disasters, the +invisible labor of undocumented workers sustains the economy. +Moreover, the presence of these migrants also serves to create more +jobs. By living in the United States, by spending money and +consuming goods and services themselves, they sustain the jobs of +other workers. +The work that undocumented migrants do is essential to the +functioning of the economy and to the comfort of citizens. The +system is also, however, fundamentally unjust. By creating a +necessarily subordinate workforce without legal status, we maintain +a system of legalized inequality. It’s a domestic reproduction of a +global system. The border is used to rationalize the system globally; +it makes it seem right and natural that exploited workers in one +place should produce cheap goods and services for consumers in +another place. Illegality replicates the rationale domestically: it +makes it seem right and natural that a legally marginalized group of +workers should produce cheap goods and services for another group +defined as legally superior. +STATUS, RACE, AND THE NEW JIM CROWS +At the same time that these big economic shifts were occurring, +other political, social, and cultural changes were happening +globally. After World War II, overt racism and white supremacy +began to lose ground. Europe slowly and painfully let go of most of +its colonies, and the number of independent countries proliferated. +Almost all of the new independent countries were run by people of +color. In the United States, civil rights movements fought to +dismantle legalized discrimination. South Africa became an +international pariah and finally ended apartheid. +In an important book published in 2010, though, Michelle +Alexander argues that the racial caste system that United States has + + maintained since the days of slavery did not end with the passage of +civil rights legislation in the 1950s and ’60s. Rather, a new system +of legalized discrimination developed to replace the old Jim Crow +system. The new system, she writes, is mass incarceration. Black +people—and, as I argue here, Mexicans and other Latin Americans +as well—were systematically criminalized. Although, on the surface, +the system is color-blind, in fact, it targets people of color. But it +works better in this supposedly postracial age, because it never uses +race directly to discriminate. Instead, it criminalizes people of color +and then discriminates on the basis of their criminal status. +Most citizens who rail against the undocumented insist that their +opposition is based solely on technical, legal grounds: they oppose +people who broke the law. But becoming undocumented is a highly +racialized crime. Nationality itself has its origins in racial thinking +and still bases itself on birth and origin in ways that echo racialism. +The categories “Mexican” and “Latino” have been racialized in the +United States, and the category of illegality is heavily associated +with the category “Mexican,” whether this is understood as a +nationality, an ethnicity, or a race. In 2011, 93 percent of federal +immigration crimes were committed by noncitizens, and 89.3 +percent of them were committed by Hispanics.12 +Another way to look at the racialized nature of +undocumentedness is to compare the criminalization of immigrants +(especially Latino immigrants) in the post–civil rights era with the +criminalization of blacks. Alexander argues that laws passed and +implemented in the aftermath of the civil rights movement and +legislation that accompanied it effectively countered the gains made +in the 1950s and ’60s. “We have not ended racial caste in America,” +she writes, “we have merely redesigned it.”13 The new system, mass +incarceration, consists of “not only . . . the criminal justice system +but also . . . the larger web of laws, rules, policies, and customs that +control those labeled criminals both in and out of prison.” Once +caught in the web, former prisoners are in it forever. They “enter a +hidden underworld of legalized discrimination and permanent social +exclusion. . . . The current system of control permanently locks a + + huge percentage of the African American community out of the +mainstream society and economy.”14 +Alexander focuses not only on incarceration itself, but on what +happens after release. “Once [prisoners] are released, they are often +denied the right to vote, excluded from juries, and relegated to a +racially segregated and subordinated existence. . . . They are legally +denied the ability to obtain employment, housing, and public +benefits.”15 Possession of a felony conviction, then, replicates the +very legal restrictions that used to be enforced by Jim Crow. +In the ideology and culture of exclusion, as well as in the laws +and mechanics of its implementation, the arguments Alexander +makes about African Americans have a parallel in the situation of +immigrants. Like the African Americans that Alexander studies, +large portions of the Latin American immigrant population have +also been permanently criminalized and legally excluded. As with +African Americans, undocumented immigrants are criminalized by a +system that is superficially race-blind and defended on that basis. +Just as African Americans have become stigmatized in the post– +civil rights era through criminalization, so have immigrants. Before, +legal discrimination could be based explicitly on race. When racebased discrimination was outlawed, a new system emerged: turn +people of color into criminals. Then you can discriminate against +them because of their criminality, rather than because of their race. +A new legitimacy for discrimination was thus born.16 +Alexander meticulously details the ways in which criminal status +follows black people into every area of life. With minor drug +charges turned into felonies and defendants urged to plea bargain, +huge numbers of black men become permanent “felons”: +When a defendant pleads guilty to a minor drug offense, +nobody will likely tell him that he may be permanently +forfeiting his right to vote as well as his right to serve on a +jury. . . . He will also be told little or nothing about the +parallel universe he is about to enter, one that promises a +form of punishment that is often more difficult to bear than +prison time: a lifetime of shame, contempt, scorn, and + + exclusion. In this hidden world, discrimination is perfectly +legal. . . . Commentators liken the prison label to “the mark of +Cain” and characterize the perpetual nature of the sanction as +“internal exile.” Myriad laws, rules, and regulations operate to +discriminate against ex-offenders and effectively prevent their +reintegration into the mainstream society and economy. These +restrictions amount to a form of “civic death” and send the +unequivocal message that “they” are no longer part of “us.”17 +Like +convicted +felons—mostly +African +Americans—the +undocumented live in a strange world of internal exile or civic +death. While physically present, they are legally excluded by an +official status that has been ascribed to them. They can’t vote, serve +on a jury, work, live in public housing, or receive public benefits. +These exclusions apply equally to those, mostly blacks, with a +criminal record and those, mostly Mexican, who are undocumented. +Stigmatization and exclusion create a vicious circle of further +stigmatization and exclusion. +“In the era of colorblindness,” Alexander writes, “it is no longer +permissible to hate blacks, but we can hate criminals.”18 The same +argument could be made for Mexicans and criminalized immigrants. +Anti-immigrant blogs, commentaries, and general opinion frequently +emphasize the legalistic nature of their anti-immigrant sentiment: +“They broke the law!” But it’s a law that, in design and in fact, is +aimed at one, racially defined, sector of society. +Another aspect that links the criminalization of blacks and of +Hispanics is the enormous rise in detention and what some have +termed the “prison-industrial complex.”19 The Supreme Court +commented in 2010 on the dramatic changes in federal immigration +law over the previous ninety years. “While once there was only a +narrow class of deportable offenses and judges wielded broad +discretionary authority to prevent deportation, immigration reforms +over time have expanded the class of deportable offenses and +limited the authority of judges to alleviate the harsh consequences +of deportation.” As criminal convictions of people of color for minor +offenses have risen, so have the consequences of these convictions. + + Now, even legal permanent residents can be deported for minor +convictions, well after the fact.20 +PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER +This new criminalization of African Americans and Latinos relates to +their different places in a changing labor market. Alexander points +out that earlier racial caste systems (slavery and Jim Crow) served +to keep African Americans as an exploitable labor force. Now, the +criminalization of African Americans has coincided with their +removal from the labor force. With the collapse of the urban +manufacturing sector, their labor was no longer necessary. They +have become a surplus population, to be warehoused in the prison +system. +The criminalization of Mexican immigrants, however, underlies +their increasingly important role in the economy. The language and +ideology are similar: fear, marginalization, and exclusion are based +upon the supposed criminality of the objects of hatred and justified +with repeated invocations of the color-blind nature of modern US +society. But in the case of immigrants, the criminalization justifies +their location in the lowest ranks of the labor force. +Like Alexander, Nicholas De Genova argues that changes in the +law deliberately criminalized a group that could no longer be legally +defined by race. Illegality, he writes, is not “a mere fact of life, the +presumably transparent consequence of unauthorized border +crossing or some other violation of immigration law.” Instead, he +argues, laws themselves were written with the express purpose of +creating this new status of illegality, because it served the purpose +of keeping workers exploitable.21 +At an even deeper level, anti-undocumented sentiment plays into +deeply held beliefs and fears about the state, the nation, and +sovereignty. The world’s wealthy nations have created islands of +prosperity and privilege, and those who live in these islands have an +interest in preserving them—and in justifying their own access to +them. Illegality is the flip side of inequality. It serves to preserve the +privileged spaces for those deemed citizens and justify their + + privilege by creating a legal apparatus to sustain it. Heightened +panic about “illegality” coincides with growing global inequality +and the dependence of the privileged on the labor of the excluded. +The idea that countries are such discrete entities is inherently +flawed. As every Mexican is aware, the contemporary US-Mexico +border is an arbitrary product of the US invasion of Mexico from +1846 to 1848, and the subsequent demand that a huge segment of +Mexico’s territory be ceded to the United States. As the descendants +of the Mexican population living in what is now the southwestern +United States like to remind us, “We didn’t cross the border; the +border crossed us.” +Even since the creation of this new border, in the case of the +United States, Mexico, and Central America, the histories, +economies, politics, and militaries of these countries are so deeply +intermeshed that each would be totally different without its +relationship with the others. Without Mexican and Central American +labor, and the consumer goods and profits that come from that +labor, US prosperity would look entirely different. And without US +military, political, and economic intervention, Mexico and Central +America would be quite different as well. A person might be a +citizen of, and live inside the borders of, a single country. But the +social and economic systems that structure our lives go well beyond +the borders of any country. +Also worth considering, for a moment, is what it means to +criminalize movement or presence. While we are accustomed to a +global order in which nation-states define their sovereignty in part +by their ability to control movement in and out of their territories, +we should also be capable of critiquing this equation and imagining +different definitions of sovereignty. Is it necessary to rely on a legal +order that forces people to remain inside the political unit into +which they were born and makes unlawful their presence outside of +that political unit? With a bit of critical distance, the notion appears +more and more absurd. +OUTLINE OF THE BOOK + + The first chapter of this book, “Where Did Illegality Come From?” +seeks to unveil the beliefs and assumptions that have led us to +accept discrimination on the basis of a human invention that we call +“citizenship.” It places illegality in a long historical trajectory of +different ways that people—and, since 1492, especially Europeans— +have created an unequal world of privilege and marginalization. +The second chapter, “Choosing to Be Undocumented,” looks at +the origins of undocumented people and the different paths to +undocumented status. It looks on the ground at sending +communities in Mexico and Guatemala, and the historical and social +forces that lead people to migrate and lead them into +undocumentedness. +Chapter 3, “Becoming Illegal,” looks at the different ways that +people enter the United States without authorization or lose +authorization after entering legally. Some enter the country with +legal permission but fall out of that status, while others pay +thousands of dollars to coyotes (smugglers) to make a dangerous +and sometimes fatal trip across the desert. This chapter also +discusses how Operation Gatekeeper and other US border policy +choices have affected people’s lives and choices. +Chapter 4, “What Part of ‘Illegal’ Do You Understand?” explores +what exactly is considered illegal about people without documents. +It looks at what is actually prosecuted and how this has changed +over time, and at who is deported and why. It also examines the +contradictory and shifting legal landscape that structures migrants’ +lives. +Chapters 5 and 6 look at the world of work. What kinds of work +are undocumented people doing in the United States? How does +their work support the United States and the global economy? Who +benefits, and who is harmed, by the existence of undocumented +status? These chapters look into the jobs and the working conditions +of the undocumented, and how their status affects their rights in the +workplace and the functioning of the US economy as a whole. +Chapter 7 focuses on children and families. As the undocumented +population grew, its profile also changed. In earlier years, the + + undocumented were primarily single, working-age men. By the late +twentieth century, large numbers of children were undocumented or +had undocumented parents. How does status affect the lives of +children and families? What kinds of organizations have these youth +formed, and what are the prospects for their future? +The last chapter looks at solutions. If we do not want to live in a +society divided by status, with large numbers of “illegal” people, +what can we do to change the situation? I outline some of the socalled solutions that have been attempted, ranging from deportation +to border patrols to legalizations. I argue that current immigration +reform proposals do not address the problem of being +undocumented in a realistic way, and that only by challenging the +contradictions inherent in the category itself—that is, by declaring +that no human being is illegal—can the law adequately address +human rights and human needs. +When people ask me what I think we should do about +immigration reform, I tell them that I think the immigrant rights +movement had it right back in the 1980s when we insisted that “no +human being is illegal.” If discrimination on the basis of national +origin is illegal, then we need to acknowledge that our immigration +laws are illegal. Human rights—including the right to be recognized +as a person equal to other people—apply to everyone: no +exceptions. Let’s admit that our discriminatory laws are +unjustifiable. Let’s abolish the category “illegal” and give everyone +the right to exist. We would solve the problem of illegal +immigration with the stroke of a pen. +But I also understand that a lot of political and cultural change is +going to have to occur before such a policy change could enter the +realm of possibility. Thus, while we insist on unveiling and +challenging the roots of injustice and inequality, we need to also, +pragmatically and simultaneously, work to relieve its excesses +where we can, even if our larger goals seem distant. It’s important, +though, to keep sight of the larger goals as well and not adopt shortterm campaigns that work at cross-purposes to what we really +believe and seek to change. + + If we accept the argument that changes in the law deliberately +created illegality, and did so for the purpose of keeping Mexican +workers available, cheap, and deportable, then it should not be +unimaginable to propose drastically changing the law. Likewise, if +we understand that, with respect to Mexico, restrictive immigration +legislation has had virtually no effect on migration patterns, we +must be able to question the value of such legislation even in +achieving its avowed purpose. I hope that this book will contribute +to opening a new debate that goes well beyond so-called +comprehensive immigration reform to challenge the very concept of +undocumentedness or illegality in our society. + + CHAPTER 1 + +Where Did Illegality Come From? +Most of us think that we know what the word illegal means and +why some people fall into this category. It seems right and natural +to us that people should be divided by citizenship, and by +documents, into different categories with differential rights. +We assume that the world is naturally divided into countries and +that every human being somehow belongs in one country or +another. People are supposed to stay in the country that they were +born in, unless they can get special permission to enter another. +Each country expresses its sovereignty by deciding who is allowed +to enter into its territory and who is allowed access to citizenship. +So we rarely question the idea that countries should be able to +decide who can cross their borders and treat people differently +under the law depending on statuses that these same countries +assign them. +But there is nothing natural about this state of affairs. Countries, +sovereignty, citizenship, and laws are all social constructions: +abstractions invented by humans. What’s more, they are all fairly +recent inventions. Today, we use them to justify differences in legal +status. In this chapter, I will call into question the contemporary +concept of illegality by looking at how we came to accept this +particular kind of status difference as legitimate, even as we have +rejected other historical rationales for laws that inscribe inequality. +We assume that these social constructions have some kind of +independent reality or existence, but in fact they don’t: people +invented them to serve their own interests. There were historical +reasons that people created them, and it’s important to understand +those reasons in order to think critically about them. +Our current system of organizing the world into sovereign +countries made up of citizens (and, in almost all cases, noncitizens) +has roots in past ideas and categories, which have evolved over + + hundreds of years. The laws that make some immigration—and +thus, some people—��illegal” are recent creations, though they grow +out of older ideas. Once we carefully examine the history of these +concepts, they start to look more and more untenable. Rather than +the question we often hear, “What part of illegal don’t you +understand?” perhaps we need to ask, “What part of illegal do you +understand?” +There are several concepts that can help us to trace the roots of +illegality. First, we’ll look at ideologies of European domination that +spurred the continent’s expansion after 1492. Ideas about mobility, +and who has the right to move where, played an important role in +the ideologies of European superiority that justified conquests and +colonization. +Connected to ideas about mobility are ideas about the law. In +1894, French novelist Anatole France noted with irony “the majestic +equality of the laws, which forbid rich and poor alike to sleep under +the bridges, to beg in the streets, and to steal their bread.”1 Even if a +law looks like it treats everybody equally, laws only exist in social +contexts. If the social context is unequal or unfair, even a law that +purports to be equal might serve to cover up, or even reinforce, +existing inequalities. Recently, the discipline of critical legal studies +has developed this perspective, arguing that despite its pretensions, +the law is never neutral, but rather reflects power relationships in +society. As we talk about mobility, we’ll look at how Europeans used +laws to assert their superiority and their right to move, and to deny +others the right to freedom of movement, all the while asserting that +the rule of law must be held sacred. +We’ll also look at how, over the past one thousand years, +Europeans have used religion, race, and nationality—that is, +countries and citizenship—as organizing principles to divide people +into categories or castes. Each has been used hierarchically to justify +social inequalities and differential legal treatment of different +groups. Once status is inscribed in the law, this becomes an +automatic justification for inequality: “it’s the law!” + + Status has been used historically to justify forcing people defined +as inferior or outsiders to work for those defined as superior or +insiders. Low-status people are forced to work in society’s dirtiest, +hardest, and most dangerous jobs. +In today’s world, the connection of status to work is different. +Until recently, one of the main purposes of status was to create a +subject labor force through enslavement and other systems of forced +labor. In the twenty-first century, laws are still used keep certain +people working in low-wage, undesirable jobs. But the way status is +used to enforce labor has changed. Force became more subtle, and +work itself became redefined as a privilege. As twentieth-century +economic changes in the United States and abroad made it more and +more difficult for people to produce their own subsistence, overt +force became less and less necessary as a way of making people +work. Now, people work out of need. +Along with these structural changes came ideological changes. In +today’s ideology, work is a privilege reserved for those of superior +status, rather than a burden imposed on those of inferior status. Of +course, those of inferior status still work, and they still do the worst +jobs. But the system is upheld by laws that claim to prevent people +of inferior status from working. But the laws are only actually +enforced in more desirable sectors of the labor market; thus, people +labeled inferior are once again relegated to the worst jobs. Still, it’s +notable that the late twentieth century was the first time that laws +have claimed to try to reserve jobs for the privileged, rather than +force them upon the unprivileged. +These issues are interrelated in many ways. While we’ll address +them one by one, the discussion will also build an argument about +the arbitrary and historically specific nature of illegality and the +role it serves in the modern world. +DOMINATION AND MOBILITY +Some of the unspoken foundations that support the idea of illegality +today come to us thanks to Christopher Columbus and the European +expansion that followed in his wake. It might surprise readers to + + hear that many of the structures that have led to the current ways +that people are moving around the planet—or prevented from this +movement—date back to that same colonial expansion. +The “age of exploration” sent Europeans around the globe with +the aim of settling and ruling distant lands and peoples. They +developed an ideology to justify this exploration: an ideology that +granted full humanity, free will, intellect, and strength to white +Christians. To those who did not fall into that category, the +Europeans (who did not at that time think of themselves as +Europeans or even as white but rather primarily as Christians) +attributed irrationality, brutality, stupidity, and barbarity.2 +Along with these ideologies went ideas about movement: who +belonged where. Europeans, apparently, belonged everywhere. +Christians needed to spread their religion to heathens, European +governments needed to expand their realms and bestow the benefits +of their government to others, and settlers needed to fulfill their +pioneering spirit and manifest destiny by applying their will and +their capital to new lands and peoples. And they created countries, +governments, and laws to authorize themselves to do these things. +In the mind frame undergirding European exploration, nonEuropeans were not capable, nor had they the right, to make their +own decisions about residence or movement. It was up to Europeans +to forcibly relocate them to where they could best serve European +needs. Native Americans and Africans were both subject to +transportation—Native Americans to mines and haciendas (in +Spanish America) or simply off of lands that Europeans desired (in +British America), and Africans to those same lands, to work for +Europeans. +In the New Imperialism of the nineteenth century, Europeans +(who by now identified explicitly with that term) once more +demonstrated their will to move, to rule, and to displace. In the +Scramble for Africa, Britain, France, and Germany laid their claims +to the continent. The new United States followed its Manifest +Destiny and displaced Native Americans westward and onto +reservations, and then went on to appropriate colonies like Puerto + + Rico, Cuba, and the Philippines from the declining Spanish empire. +After abolishing slavery, the United States established legal systems +of segregation to prohibit African Americans from whites-only +spaces. Meanwhile, the new imperial powers transported indentured +Africans, East Indians, and Chinese to the Caribbean and the +American continent to work on their plantations, railroads, and +other enterprises. +In the intellectual spirit of the time, King Leopold of Belgium +offered a pseudoscientific justification for this European control of +migrations, explaining that “the races inhabiting [the southern +continents] are captives in the bonds of all powerful nature; they +will never break down the fences that sunder them from us. It is for +us, the favored races, to go to them.”3 Go to them, and then confine +them. As one white settler in Arizona proposed, the United States +should “[p]lace the Indians on reservations . . . establish military +posts along their limits, and shoot every Indian found off the +reservations.”4 +From apartheid South Africa to the Jim Crow South, white +Europeans during the twentieth century made it clear that the right +to decide who could move where was inherent to domination. In +1917, the United States created the Asiatic Barred Zone prohibiting +immigration by “Asiatics,” who were defined as “aliens ineligible to +citizenship” because of their race. Meanwhile, US forces were +demanding the opening of China and Japan to US migration, trade, +and business enterprise and, indeed, demanding the right of +extraterritoriality for its citizens there. As Woodrow Wilson declared +in 1907 (before he became president), “The doors of the nations +which are closed . . . must be battered down. Concessions obtained +by financiers must be safeguarded by ministers of state, even if the +sovereignty of unwilling nations be outraged in the process. +Colonies must be obtained or planted in order that no useful corner +of the world may be overlooked or left unused.”5 Although China +was not a colony, with the Treaty of Wanghia in 1844, the United +States insisted on American access to Chinese ports and, moreover, +that US citizens in China would be subject to US rather than Chinese + + law. In the words of Teemu Ruskola, not only were Americans +guaranteed the right to enter China, but “when Americans entered +China, American law traveled with them, effectively attaching to +their very bodies.”6 +Americans and Europeans currently assume that freedom to +travel is their birthright. “Over much of the world today citizens of +many countries can travel freely,” Jared Diamond asserts +confidently. “To cross the border into another country, either we +arrive unannounced and just show our passport, or else we have to +obtain a visa in advance but can then travel without restrictions.”7 +What he really means is that citizens of the former colonial powers +(and also, generally, postcolonial elites) can travel freely. These +same countries routinely deny entry to people, especially poor +people, from their former colonies. Freedom to travel, then, is still a +privilege reserved for those in control. +Americans and Europeans also rarely question their right to send +troops and establish governments in their former colonies. Iraq and +Afghanistan, they implicitly believe (like Puerto Rico, Cuba, +Nicaragua, Haiti, the Dominican Republic, Vietnam, and so on), +simply can’t govern themselves without a US and European +presence. People from all of those former colonies, however, also +need to have their mobility severely restricted. Countries like the +United States established themselves by driving out nonwhites or +non-Europeans or non-Christians, and establishing rule over +nonwhites, non-Europeans, and non-Christians in the Global South. +Now, they argue, they need to erect militarized borders to prevent +the descendants of those nonwhites from infiltrating, at the same +time that they continue to send their citizens to those countries as +occupying armies, aid workers, investors, tourists, or students. +FROM RELIGION TO RACE +Columbus and those who traveled with and after him were heirs to +a medieval Spanish tradition that used religion as the main principle +for organizing and categorizing people. Muslim Spain, from 711 to +1492, like many other medieval and earlier (and some later) + + empires, was based on the idea of convivencia, or religious tolerance, +among Muslim, Christian, and Jewish communities. Not so Christian +Spain. The reconquista, or reconquest, of the Iberian peninsula by +Christians drew on the spirit of the Crusades: to drive out and +destroy the infidels. +Spanish Christian ideas about religion were much more +essentialist than the way most people think about religion today. +Religion was thought to be defined by blood. The Spanish developed +elaborate theories of lineage based on what was called Christians’ +purity of blood. Jews’ and Muslims’ blood was considered to be +stained. Even if they converted to Christianity, they would continue +to bear the stain of their non-Christian ancestry. So-called New +Christians were viewed with suspicion and periodically repressed or +expelled. +Ideas about mobility—who belonged where—were based on +religion. The Spanish conquest in the Americas began the same year +—1492—that the last Muslims and Jews were driven out of the +Iberian Peninsula, and the Spaniards took their ideologies with +them. Spanish Christians were already transporting and enslaving +Africans with the rationale that they were not Christian. They +debated the humanity of the native peoples of the Americas, in the +end deciding that they were, in theory, capable of being converted +to Christianity and, therefore, not to be enslaved. +Capable of being converted or not, though, the indigenous +inhabitants clearly did not have pure blood. In the Americas, +Christian Spaniards’ struggle to assert, define, and justify their socalled purity of blood began to take on a more racial cast. The term +purity came to mean the absence of African or indigenous ancestry. +In the elaborate legal hierarchy of Spanish America, racialized +castes proliferated by the eighteenth century. Spaniards born in +Spain were the purest, because there was no chance that their +ancestry could have been compromised with indigenous or African +admixture. People of (supposedly) 100 percent Spanish ancestry +born in the New World occupied a space on a rung lower, and from + + there, the ranks descended all the way down to enslaved Africans +and tributary Indians, with multiple mixtures in between. +Emerging ideas about race were also part of an elaborate system +of legal status and access—or lack of access—to rights in society. +People defined as belonging to the lower races were prohibited from +spaces reserved for the privileged and subject to special taxes and +forced labor. Purity of blood could also be purchased. Suspicious or +inferior ancestry could be erased for a fee, thus strengthening the +relationship between race and social status.8 +British colonizers in North America were heirs to some of the +same broad European cultural mores as the Spanish, but their +colonial enterprise was also infused with a form of Protestant, +northern European ethno-nationalism exemplified in the “Black +Legend.” Promoted by British and Dutch thinkers and artists like +Theodore de Bry, the Black Legend depicted the cruelties of Spanish +conquest and attributed them to Spanish Catholicism and the +Spanish racialized character. British and Dutch colonialism, in +contrast, was conceived as a benign project.9 +Religion was a key factor for the British in defining who they +were as a people and justifying their right to conquer, dominate, +and exclude. Legal scholar Aziz Rana argues that, for the British, the +original “savages” were the Catholic Irish. The conquest of Ireland +served as a “test case” or “rehearsal” for subsequent British conquest +in the Americas. In Ireland, the British refined their rationale for +land expropriation. If the natives didn’t cultivate the land according +to British standards or did not accept British religious dictates, they +lost their rights to the land itself.10 +In the American colonies, British ideas about race grew from and +eventually came to supersede those about religion. In King Philip’s +War (1675), colonists slaughtered Native Americans, Christianized +or not.11 By the 1700s, white indentured servants were moving off +the plantations and being replaced by African slaves. As whites took +advantage of the economic rewards of freedom, they also began to +impose laws that protected their privileges and their access to slave +labor—the first racial laws that targeted free blacks solely on the + + basis of race. Thus, by the 1700s, free blacks had become “a +segregated and separate caste” in American society.12 +Just as religion became a palimpsest for race in the first centuries +of European colonialism, the race/religion complex likewise became +a palimpsest for what came to be called the nation. New ideas +evolved from, and were shaped by, what came before. When the +United States declared itself an independent nation, race was the +key factor in determining who belonged to the polity. Emerging +European nation-states, too, based their legitimacy on what +Benedict Anderson called “imagined communities” of peoples +connected primordially, ethnically—essentially, racially or by +blood.13 +FROM RACE TO NATION +Racially based ideas held considerable sway well into the twentieth +century, even as policies and ideologies came to replace race with +nation as the prime rationale for legal domination, discrimination, +and restrictions on mobility. The abolition of racially based slavery, +most analysts now agree, led to an upsurge in racially exclusive and +repressive policies and attitudes throughout the Americas. Not until +the late twentieth century, with Europe’s rejection of Nazism and +the dismantling of the racial regime in the United States, did overtly +racialist thought lose its legitimacy. Precisely in this recent period, +the use of nationality as an excuse for discrimination and +persecution rose to new prominence. It was not a new concept or +justification, but it emerged, perhaps, in full ideological flower, after +generations of germination. +What we think of as countries today—also known as nation-states +—first emerged in Europe several centuries ago. The idea of the +nation-state was that the country was the manifestation of a +historical unity or essence of the people that lived there—the +nation. Older, multicultural empires like the Russian, AustroHungarian, and Ottoman gave way by the twentieth century to a +proliferation of countries or states, each claiming to represent a +people or nation. + + In the United States, rights and access that used to be assigned on +the basis of religion or race were gradually transferred to citizenship +status. Racial restrictions on immigration and citizenship were +replaced by national restrictions. Historian John Torpey wrote that +gaining a monopoly over “legitimate means of movement” was +precisely how emerging nation-states established their claims to +sovereignty.14 +To examine the different components of this second shift—from +race to nation—let us look for a moment at the evolution of controls +on mobility in the United States. In the nineteenth-century United +States, private individuals and subnational localities held the right +to control freedom of movement, especially that of enslaved and +even free blacks. National membership was overtly based on race: +until 1868, citizenship was restricted to whites. The Dred Scott +decision in 1857 reiterated the primacy of race as a justification for +deprivation of rights, but also of individual rights to control +mobility. Until the civil rights acts of the 1960s, racial controls on +physical access and individual, local, or institutional controls on +access prevailed. School and bus segregation may be the best-known +examples, but sundown towns, in which blacks were allowed to +work but not remain after sunset, also hung on until 1968.15 +Explicitly national manifestations of control of movement +emerged in the late nineteenth century, imbued with racial ideas. +The first restrictive immigration laws in the United States conflated +race and nation. Chinese exclusion in 1882 was based on race: as +“racially ineligible to citizenship,” the Chinese should be excluded +from entering the country as well. The quota system that restricted +southern and eastern European immigration—and virtually +proscribed non-European immigration—starting in 1921, likewise +relied on racialized notions of nationality: Italian was as much a +race as an official citizenship status. +Even as national citizenship became more important in the early +twentieth century, race continued to play an important role in +determining status and access to rights. Hiroshi Motomura uses the +term “intending citizenship” to explain the privileges granted to + + white immigrants in the nineteenth century. Although not formally +citizens, by virtue of their race they were accorded privileges of +access to the benefits of society, including the right to vote and +virtually automatic naturalization. Aziz Rana elaborates by +distinguishing formal citizenship from “free citizenship”—the latter +available only to whites. Mexicans, after 1848, and blacks, after +1868, were accorded formal citizenship, but still denied the right to +vote, to own land, and to move freely.16 New immigrants from +Europe—Motomura’s “intended” citizens—were accorded all of +those rights, even when they were not yet formally citizens. Thus, +race frequently trumped nationality in determining access to rights. +As the twentieth century progressed, national citizenship more +and more joined race as a primordial legal identification and +determinant of status. For example, voting laws were changed to +prohibit noncitizens from voting. Instead of being considered +automatically part of the country on the basis of their whiteness, +European immigrants came to be considered foreign because of their +immigrant status.17 For the first time, white Europeans were treated +as legally other and subordinate, the way conquered and racially +differentiated peoples—African and Indian—had been since the first +days of British settlement. Noncitizens were also told that, like +Africans and Indians, they were no longer in charge of their own +mobility. State authorities now had the right to exclude or deport +them.18 +The 1924 immigration legislation illustrates some of the ways +that national citizenship was coming to stand in for race. Asians +were excluded as “aliens ineligible to citizenship” based on the same +legal ideas that had previously excluded African Americans. The +new legal category of national origins was invented for Europeans.19 +They were defined as implicitly belonging to the white race, but +having so-called nationalities or ethnicities that did not preclude +assimilation into the United States. Mexican and Chinese +nationalities, though, became legally defined as nonwhite. So while +race and nationality were separated for European Americans (i.e., a +person could be both white and Italian), they became one for Asians + + and Mexicans; their nationalities were essentially legislated to be +nonwhite races.20 +These legal changes complicated racial categories by overlaying +them with nation. If Chinese and Mexican became races, the very +meaning of race was changing fundamentally, its power giving way +to nation. If Congress and the courts had to resort more and more to +nationality as a pretext for the denial of rights, it was precisely +because racial justifications were being chipped away, at least in the +legal sphere. +During most of the twentieth century, legal subjection by race +and by immigration or citizenship status coexisted. By the end of the +twentieth century, though, differential legal treatment on the basis +of race had fallen from international favor. Formal abolition of +racial discrimination may not have created actual racial equality, +but it did dismantle and delegitimize legal structures of +discrimination, including racialized restrictions on freedom of +movement. Facilities formerly justified as separate-but-equal were +abolished, along with sundown towns. Federal antidiscrimination +law prohibited long-standing practices that denied access to jobs, +spaces, and benefits on the basis of race. +But just as the first round of antiracialist legislation after the Civil +War led to a surge in anti-immigrant legislation—aimed at racially +defined unwanteds—so did the second round after World War II. If +citizenship were to be granted to all by birth, as per the Fourteenth +Amendment, then race could no longer be explicitly used to deny +citizenship. So nationality stood in for it, and citizens of countries +like China lost their right to immigrate. If formal citizenship was to +be made real—if citizens could no longer be excluded from jobs, +landownership, voting, and other rights on the basis of race— +nationality could once again be mobilized as a method of exclusion. +In 1965, numerical immigration restrictions were applied for the +first time to the Western Hemisphere. Mexicans could no longer be +discriminated against for belonging to the Mexican race; now they +would be discriminated against for their nationality, their Mexican +citizenship, their lack of US citizenship, or their illegality. + + The status of illegality and its concomitant legal exclusion +affected more individuals by the early 2000s than did the Jim Crow +system in the US South at its height.21 Just as Jim Crow had +imposed discrimination on the basis of race, new legislation in the +late twentieth century increased discrimination against noncitizens +and especially those who challenged their exclusion from the +country by nonviolent direct action—that is, entering “illegally” or +overstaying a visa. A study of Hispanic immigrants in rural North +Carolina found that they felt that their lack of citizenship status, +rather than their ambiguous place in the black-white racial +hierarchy, was the main factor causing the discrimination they +experienced.22 +Recently, political scientist Jacqueline Stevens has suggested that +discrimination on the basis of citizenship is incompatible with the +notion of a liberal, egalitarian society, as much so as earlier laws +and institutions that discriminated on the basis of religion or race. +“The history of the United States, as for all countries, is one of a +struggle between the voices on behalf of rationality and equality, on +the one hand, and those urging the imposition of rigid distinctions +based on ancestry and religion,” she writes.23 The idea of birthright +citizenship—that people belong and should have rights only in the +place they happen to be born—is the epitome of a “rigid distinction +based on ancestry.” An immigration system that attempts to force +people to reside inside the national territory in which they were +born is in fact one of “global apartheid,” she insists.24 +Restricting freedom of movement, as in apartheid, is a way of +enforcing domination and maintaining inequality. This is true +whether the restriction is based on something defined as religion, +race, or the arbitrary fact of birthplace. On a global level, patrolled +borders prevent the poor of the world from escaping the poverty +they were born into and gaining access to the jobs, education, and +health and welfare that are reserved for those fortunate enough to +be born in the wealthy countries that border them. Global apartheid +is enforced with walls, stadium lights, and guns. And global +apartheid never talks about race, only nationality. + + THE USES OF ILLEGALITY +Throughout most of human history, both states and economic +enterprises have struggled to incorporate people into their +projects.25 A strikingly different characteristic of the contemporary +era is the extent to which access to states and to the right to work +has come to be seen as a privilege. In some ways, this change +reflects very real shifts in the functioning of states and economies, +but in other ways, the differences are more apparent than real. +People have always needed to work for their subsistence. Until +well into the twentieth century—and in some regions, into the +twenty-first—this has meant, primarily, that they have needed +access to land. Most people worked for themselves. Labor for others +generally happened as a result of force: when one group conquered +another, took control of land, or took prisoners of war, those +conquered could be forced to work for their conquerors, often as +slaves. “The use of socially marginalized communities for menial +tasks helped maintain a higher standard of living and greater +property ownership for settlers,” Rana wrote of the early United +States.26 While creating privilege for settlers was characteristic of +settler colonial societies, the creation and use of the socially +marginalized for labor was pretty much a universal of civilization. +Would-be employers initially had to rely on state power to force +people into working for them. Gradually, though, direct force was +no longer required. In the nineteenth century, industrialization and +colonialism separated more and more people worldwide from their +lands and left them no option except wage labor. As access to land +diminished, people started voluntarily moving to cities and seeking +to work for others. Some sectors of the labor force gained access to +the privileges and benefits of consumer society. Other sectors +remained marginalized, creating what sociologists have termed a +segmented or dual labor market. Even in the marginalized sectors, +though, a lack of alternatives rather than force became the prime +motivation for workers. Work, in fact, had become a privilege. +In her study of mass incarceration, Michelle Alexander notes that +coerced labor has given way to mass unemployment among black + + men. First slavery and then Jim Crow were designed to make blacks +work for the white-dominated economy. The dismantling of Jim +Crow, she argues, coincided with the collapse of the American +manufacturing sector and loss of the jobs that sustained African +American communities. She cites sociologist Loïc Wacquant, who +“emphasizes that the one thing that makes the current penal +apparatus strikingly different from previous racial caste systems is +that ‘it does not carry out the positive economic mission of +recruitment and disciplining of the workforce.’ Instead it serves only +to warehouse poor black and brown people for increasingly lengthy +periods of time, often until old age. The new system does not seek +primarily to benefit unfairly from black labor, as earlier caste +systems have, but instead views African Americans as largely +irrelevant and unnecessary to the newly structured economy.”27 +The newly structured economy may not need to benefit unfairly +from black labor, but it still needs to benefit unfairly from the labor +of some socially marginalized community. In the late twentieth +century, African Americans became less “cheap” because they +gained legal rights, gained access to social services, and organized +unions. Simultaneously, the sectors like manufacturing and +government that had employed them collapsed, contributing to high +unemployment among African Americans. But other sectors +—“downgraded manufacturing and expanded service sectors,” in +Nicolas De Genova’s study of Chicago—began to massively employ +immigrant and, especially, undocumented immigrant workers.28 +(Chapters 5 and 6, on the topic of working, go into more detail +about the kinds of work undocumented people do.) +Here, however, I’d like to emphasize how useful illegality has +been in the late twentieth-century reconfiguration of work from an +obligation to a privilege. Illegality is a way to enforce a dual labor +market and keep some labor cheap, in a supposedly postracial era. +Illegality uses lack of citizenship—that is, being born in the wrong +place—to make workers more exploitable. Once naturalized, the +status neatly hides the human agency that forces workers into this +marginalized status. It is not just coincidence that illegality has + + burgeoned in the postindustrial societies of the Global North at the +end of the twentieth century. It serves a crucial role in their +economies and ideologies. + + CHAPTER 2 + +Choosing to Be Undocumented +US citizens often wonder why immigrants in the United States don’t +“do it the right way” and obtain proper documents to authorize +their entry and presence in the country.1 They believe—usually +erroneously—that their own ancestors obtained proper visas prior to +coming to the United States and also know that if they intended to +travel or move to another country, they would assemble their +documents before attempting to travel. +When you get your US passport in the mail, it comes with a flyer +that says “With Your US Passport, the World Is Yours!” Holders of +the US passport are accustomed to simply arriving at the border of +another country, showing their passport, and easily crossing. Rarely, +they have to apply for a visa in advance. If they pay the fee and fill +out the application correctly, the visa is routinely granted. Holders +of US passports tend to believe that freedom to travel is their +birthright, a view reinforced by the literature that comes with their +passports. For the cost of a plane ticket, and occasionally a small +visa fee, they can leave the country they were born in any time they +want. +For most of the world’s population, though, freedom to travel is a +distant dream. They can’t leave the country of their birth because, +instead of that magical ownership of the world that comes with a US +passport, they are citizens of countries in Africa, Latin America, or +most of Asia. Many of them are also poor and people of color. They +can’t leave their countries because no other country will let them in. +Least of all, the United States. In today’s global apartheid, whole +countries—almost all of them in the First World—shut themselves +off to travelers, while assuming that their own citizens have the +right to travel anywhere they choose. Meanwhile, the citizens of +other countries—mostly in the Third World—are imprisoned in the + + country they are born in, because of the restrictions established by +those richer and more powerful. +From the comfort of their First World homes, many citizens of the +United States assume that anyone can get a visa to travel legally to +any country. If someone comes to and/or lives in the United States +without proper documentation, they assume it must be because they +simply failed to follow the correct procedure. If only there were +such a procedure to follow. +I’ve even heard a Massachusetts state legislator express this +assumption in a hearing on the question of allowing undocumented +students to be considered state residents for the purpose of paying +in-state tuition rates at public colleges and universities. He +interrogated a panel of students, members of the Student Immigrant +Movement who had come to testify in favor of the bill. All were +undocumented, and each one explained how and why he or she had +ended up with that status. +“What’s your status now?” the legislator asked them. “I’m +undocumented,” one Brazilian student answered, bewildered. “Why +don’t you start the process to become a citizen?” he continued. “I +can’t,” she explained. “Why not?” he asked, revealing his profound +ignorance of immigration law. Just as the law forbids most residents +of the Third World to travel here—by requiring visas, but refusing +to grant them—it also forbids virtually all people who are +undocumented to regularize their status. +SOME HISTORY +Structural factors, mostly related to the economy and labor needs, +have shaped migrations for centuries. Some of the largest sources of +out-migration to the United States today were recipients of inmigration only a few generations ago. The Caribbean islands in +particular fall into this category. Other places that now send large +numbers of migrants to the United States have long histories of +temporary, seasonal, and permanent out-migration. Mexico stands +out in this regard. + + Since the nineteenth century, nation-states have increasingly +attempted to regulate migration and control freedom of movement +across often newly established borders. US immigration policies +have changed frequently, creating a mesh of regulations and +statuses that even immigration lawyers and scholars find confusing. +Until 1890, there was no national immigration system or agency +in the United States. Individual states enforced existing immigration +laws until the establishment of the federally operated immigration +inspection station at Ellis Island in 1892. Certain categories of +people became excludable starting in 1875, and in 1891 the law +provided for deportation of an immigrant who became a public +charge within a year of arrival or was found to belong to a +prohibited or excluded group—like Chinese contract workers, +prostitutes, convicted criminals. After a year, though, those who had +entered “illegally”—that is, in violation of the laws that excluded +them—could no longer be deported. The 1903 Immigration Act +extended these periods of potential deportability to two years for +becoming a public charge, and three years for belonging to an +excludible class. In 1917, this was extended to five years.2 +It’s important to note that so-called illegal entry, up until this +time, referred to entry by persons belonging to a class of people who +were unilaterally denied entry: it had nothing to do with the way a +person entered. It was the 1907 Immigration Act that first made +entering without inspection itself a violation of the law. The 1907 +act formalized the inspection procedure, requiring every would-be +immigrant coming in by sea to pass through inspection, and made it a +misdemeanor for a ship owner to bring in anybody belonging to an +excluded class.3 The act did not apply to Mexicans. Inspection was +for immigrants, and immigrants were defined as people who arrived +by sea, not Mexicans, who crossed the southern border to work. +Likewise, Mexicans were exempted from the literacy requirement +and head tax imposed on immigrants in 1917, as long as they were +coming to work in agriculture. Mexicans weren’t even required to +enter through an official port or inspection point until 1919. + + For Europeans, a passport was first required for entry in 1918, +but even then, it was only for identification. Would-be immigrants +did not need to obtain prior permission in their home countries +before traveling to the United States, and they couldn’t be deported +for entering without inspection until 1924.4 In 1929, entry without +inspection became a misdemeanor, punishable with fines and jail +time.5 But there were still exceptions for Europeans. +A new process called registry for noncitizens who had entered +without inspection prior to this time allowed them—if they were +otherwise (i.e., racially) eligible to citizenship—to regularize their +status if they could demonstrate “that they had resided in the +country continuously since 1921, were not otherwise subject to +deportation, and were of ‘good moral character.’”6 In practice, the +registry helped Europeans who had evaded the 1919 inspection +requirement. The registry system set a precedent—that a period of +residence outweighed the technicalities of inspection, or lack of +inspection, upon entry. Later laws like the 1986 Immigration +Reform and Control Act and the twenty-first-century proposals for a +path to citizenship would revive that idea. +The 1924 Immigration Act created what was called the “quota +system,” putting numerical limits on immigration (still conceived as +European immigration) for the first time. Immigrants from Europe +now had to comply with quotas established based on the proportion +of immigrants from that country already present in the United +States. Non-Europeans didn’t get quotas. The Bureau of Labor +Statistics explained the intent of the law: “Immigrants of New World +countries or their descendants, aliens ineligible to citizenship or +their descendants, the descendants of slave immigrants, and the +descendants of American aborigines were specifically excluded from +the national-origins plan. In a broad sense, therefore, the problem +was to find the extent to which the various countries of Europe, as +now constituted, had contributed to the white population of the +country.”7 For the first time, Europeans could be excluded, not on +the basis of their individual characteristics, but because of the +country they came from. Somewhat paradoxically from today’s + + perspective, Mexican labor migration was unaffected by the +restrictive law. +Most Europeans who arrived in the United States prior to 1924 +did pretty much what immigrants from Mexico and Central America +did a few decades later: they gathered their families and their +belongings, put together the money they needed for the trip, and +embarked on their journey. They didn’t “do it the right way,” wait +in line, or follow a legal process, because there was no line or +process. +The records of Ellis Island are filled with the stories of individuals +like Irving Berlin, who went on to become an iconic American +songwriter, author of “I’m Dreaming of a White Christmas” and +“God Bless America.” The family of Israel Baline, age five, fled their +home in Russia after their village was attacked in a pogrom and +their house burned to the ground. They traveled “illegally” because, +in 1893, Russia (unlike most countries at the time) required a +passport for travel and exit; they “smuggled themselves from town +to town and country to country” until reaching Antwerp, Belgium, +where they boarded a ship bound for New York. On the ship’s +manifest, their last name was changed from Baline to Beilin, so they +entered the United States under a false name. (The name “Irving +Berlin” was introduced by a printer’s error when Israel produced his +first album at age nineteen.)8 Since the United States had only +minimal entry requirements for Europeans at the time, family +members were given a medical inspection by the US Public Health +Service to determine whether they had any infectious disease and a +legal inspection to determine whether they were likely to become +public charges. Only about 2 percent of would-be immigrants were +rejected as a result of these inspections. +Mae Ngai argues that with so few restrictions on immigration in +the nineteenth and early twentieth centuries, “there was no such +thing as ‘illegal immigration.’ The government excluded a mere 1% +of the 25 million immigrants who landed at Ellis Island before +World War I, mostly for health reasons. (Chinese were the +exception, excluded on grounds of ‘racial unassimilability.’) The + + statutes of limitations of one to five years meant that even those +here unlawfully did not live forever with the specter of +deportation.”9 +The 1924 law, in addition to establishing the quota system, +created the concept of illegality by making entry without inspection +illegal, and making deportability permanent by eliminating the +statute of limitations. Before 1924, what made a person deportable +was his or her membership in an excluded class; furthermore, after +the person had been in the country for a period of time, his or her +presence became legal despite prior excludability. Now, a person +who entered without inspection could be, technically, “illegal.”10 +Still, there were many ways for Europeans who didn’t “follow the +rules” to become legal. The 1929 registry law helped those who +entered before 1921. Between 1935 and the late 1950s, European +immigrants without documentation were allowed to adjust their +status by reentering through Canada to obtain legal permanent +residency. After 1940, immigrants who could show that their +families would suffer “serious economic detriment” could have their +deportation suspended. All of these provisions applied only to +European immigrants, since they were the only ones allowed to +immigrate under the 1924 exclusions. (Mexicans were still crossing +the border easily, but they were not considered immigrants.) Some +two hundred thousand Europeans without documents were able to +legalize their status using these means.11 +In 1965, the United States abandoned the differential quota +system, replacing it with a new one that imposed equal quotas on all +countries. This meant that, for the first time, Western Hemisphere +migrants—primarily Mexicans—were classified as immigrants. This +change essentially created illegal immigration from Mexico and +Central America, but without all of the loopholes and exceptions +that had allowed Europeans to adjust their status.12 +Donna Gabaccia’s research shows that media references to socalled illegal immigration closely followed restrictive legislation. + + The earliest references are to “illegal immigration,” which +referred to the movement of workers from China; they +appeared immediately after passage of the 1882 Chinese +exclusion. With the exclusion of all Asians and the restriction +of southern and eastern European migrations in the 1920s, +“illegal immigrant” became an intermittent fixture in the +pages of New York Times, where it usually meant stowaways, +persons who “jumped ship,” or the “immigrant bootleggers” +who supposedly smuggled in workers and “immoral” women. +Only after World War II (and a brief period when most stories +about “illegal immigrants” focused on European Jews entering +the British mandate in Palestine) did the term—understood by +then to mean “wetbacks” crossing the Rio Grande—become +attached firmly to workers from Mexico. And only after 1965 +did the term become common in a wide array of writings by +journalists, scholars, and Congressional representatives.13 +Today, of course, the term “illegal immigrant” has become +common currency. The rest of this chapter will look at two of the +largest sources of undocumented immigrants in the United States +today, Mexico and Guatemala. It will ask how people from those +countries came to migrate to the United States, and how and why +their migrations have become illegalized. +AN OVERVIEW OF UNDOCUMENTED MIGRATION +The undocumented population in the United States increased +rapidly between 1965, when the first restrictive measures were +passed against Mexican and other Latin American immigrants, and +the beginning of the twenty-first century. By 1980, there were from +2 to 4 million undocumented immigrants in the country, rising to +8.5 million in 2000 and reaching a peak of almost 12 million in +2007.14 +Notably, over half of those undocumented in 2011 had arrived +between 1995 and 2004, with only 14 percent arriving between +2005 and 2011.15 Thus, most undocumented people have been in + + the country for quite a while. The rise in the undocumented +coincided with an even greater rise in the overall Hispanic +population in the second half of the twentieth century. In 1970, the +9.6 million Hispanics in the United States made up 4.7 percent of +the population. Four decades later, the Hispanic population had +jumped to 50.5 million or 16 percent of the population.16 +Most of these have consistently been Mexicans. Estimates for the +undocumented Mexican population rose from 1.13 million in 1980 +to 2.04 million in 1990 and 4.68 million in 2000, rising to a high of +7.03 million in 2008 before stabilizing and declining to 6.8 million +in 2011. The Central American undocumented population also rose +after 1980, reaching 570,000 Salvadorans, 430,000 Guatemalans, +and 300,000 Hondurans in 2008. For Central Americans, the +numbers continued to increase after 2008: in 2011, there were +660,000 from El Salvador, 520,000 from Guatemala, and 380,000 +from Honduras. Together, Central Americans and Mexicans made up +three-quarters of the growth in the undocumented population +between 1980 and 2008.17 +Moreover, a significant proportion—over half—of Mexicans and +Central Americans who are here are undocumented. Fifty-eight +percent of Mexicans, 57 percent of Salvadorans, 71 percent of +Guatemalans, and 77 percent of Hondurans are undocumented. +“Never before have so many people been outside the law and never +before have the undocumented been so concentrated within such a +small number of national origins,” wrote Douglas Massey and Karen +Pren.18 Mexico and Central America are thus key pieces in the +puzzle of undocumentedness in the United States. +With this big picture in mind, we must start to untangle the +history of undocumented migration from Mexico and Central +America. +MEXICANS +The largest group of undocumented people in the United States +today comes from Mexico. Many are from the central-western +Mexican states that have been sending migrants northward for over + + a century, although increasingly migrants hail from heavily +indigenous regions in the south of the country that had seen little +out-migration before the 1990s. Almost 60 percent of the +undocumented, over 6 million people in 2010, were Mexican. Other +Latin Americans make up another 23 percent.19 Mexicans also make +up the largest foreign-born population in the United States, with +about 29 percent of the foreign-born or 12 million people.20 As +noted above, over half of Mexicans in the United States are +undocumented. +Surveys taken of Mexican migrants in Mexico (i.e., having +returned from the United States) show another side of the story: that +lots of undocumented people return home after being in the United +States. The Mexican Migration Project at Princeton University and +the University of Guadalajara surveyed eighty thousand return +migrants from twenty-one Mexican states, as well as migrants from +those communities who have settled in the United States. In Mexico, +the interviews show that 83 percent had entered the United States +illegally on their first trip, and 73 percent on their most recent trip. +In the United States, 77 percent responded that they had entered +illegally on their first trip, and 56 percent that they entered illegally +on their most recent trip. (The last response may be skewed by +individuals reluctant to reveal current illegal status.)21 +To understand why and how so many Mexicans have come to be +undocumented, it’s crucial to examine the history. +The border that divides the United States from Mexico, and that +large numbers of Mexicans and Central Americans cross each year +without authorization, was established by the Treaty of Guadalupe +Hidalgo in 1848 and adjusted by the Gadsden or La Mesilla +Purchase of 1853. Much of the US Southwest used to be Mexico. The +first Mexicans in the United States did not cross any border; rather, +the border crossed them. +Until 1924, the new border between the United States and +Mexico was virtually unpoliced, and migration flowed openly. +Mexicans worked in the mines and railroads of the Southwest and +migrated to the factories and urban centers in the Midwest. In 1908, + + US Bureau of Labor Statistics researcher Victor Clark reported that, +while “complete statistics of those who cross the frontier are not +kept,” an estimated sixty thousand to one hundred thousand +Mexicans crossed each year to work in the United States. “Except in +Texas and California, few Mexicans become permanent residents, +and even in those two states, a majority are transient laborers who +seldom remain more than six months at a time in this country.”22 +The many laws that were passed to try to control immigration +from the Civil War on did not apply to Mexicans, because Congress +did not consider them immigrants or potential immigrants at all. In +agriculture, Clark explained, “the main value of the Mexican . . . is +as a temporary worker in crops where the season is short. . . . +Mexicans are not likely to be employed the year round by small +farmers, because they are not entertained in the family like +American, German, Scandinavian, or Irish laborers of the North. Yet +they do not occupy a position analogous to that of the Negro in the +South. They are not permanent, do not acquire land or establish +themselves in little cabin homesteads, but remain nomadic and +outside of American civilization.”23 +RAILROADS AND MIGRATION +Railroads played a crucial role both in moving Mexicans to the +border and into the United States and in creating a demand for +Mexican labor. Mexico’s nineteenth-century rail system was +“designed, planned and constructed by Americans” and extended US +lines into Mexico to facilitate the transport of US manufactured +goods into Mexico. Thus, decisions about Mexico’s economy and +infrastructure were made in the United States, for the benefit of US +capitalists. The railroads also helped bring Mexicans to, and across, +the border.24 +As US capital moved south, it drew southerners northward. +Railroad concessions displaced over three hundred thousand +peasants in Mexico’s central plateau, creating one pool of potential +migrants. Many of them were recruited to work in new American +enterprises in the north of the country. Some went to work on the + + railroad itself; others in new American-owned mining and oil +operations. Mexico’s demographic patterns were fundamentally, and +irrevocably, altered with this shift of population to the North.25 In +Arizona, as the copper mines boomed in the last decades of the +nineteenth century, they sent labor contractors to scour Mexico for +workers being displaced from their lands. The first Mexican +mineworkers in Arizona were Sonorans who crossed the border, but +they were soon joined by central Mexicans who traveled north along +the new rail lines.26 +Victor Clark described how the railroads contributed to the +creation of a migrant labor force and the long-term social and +cultural changes that the railroads and the migrations brought: +In Mexico railways have given both the opportunity and the +inducement to emigration. Needing unskilled labor for their +construction and maintenance, they drew among the +agricultural population along their lines, at first for a few days +or weeks of temporary service between crops and later for +more extended periods. At first the true peon was averse to +leaving his home, and would not work where he could not +sleep under his own roof, but gradually he became bolder and +more worldly-wise and could be prevailed upon to work for a +month or so a hundred miles or more up and down the line. +He became accustomed to having silver in his pocket +occasionally and found it would exchange for things he had +not heretofore thought of having for his personal use. He +became attached to cash wages in about the same degree that +he became detached from his home surroundings. Employers +in the more primitive parts of Mexico say that at present the +people will not work for money so long as they have food in +their cabins. When they first leave home they will work only +long enough to provide themselves with food and shelter for a +few days in advance. But the railways, bringing a greater +variety of wares at lower prices, have made possible the +attractive shop of the railway town, and this market for +money has made the latter a more desirable commodity in the + + eyes of the peon. . . . The railways have thus attracted labor +and have held it more and more permanently from a +constantly widening area along their lines. A general officer of +the National Railroad of Mexico stated that his company had +brought north about 1,500 laborers to work on the upper +section of the road within a year, and that practically all of +them had ultimately crossed over into Texas.27 +Newcomers were met at the entry point and offered “fair wages.”28 +US aid and investment, then, directly uprooted Mexican peasants, +recruited them into a migrant labor stream, and initiated the social +and cultural changes that led them to leave their homes and work +for cash in distant lands. It was US influence deep inside Mexico +that set into motion the process of out-migration. +A TYPICAL SENDING COMMUNITY: ARANDAS, JALISCO +By 1933, economist Paul S. Taylor found that a tradition of +migration had become well established in the Mexican sending +community of Arandas in Jalisco. The ongoing migration, he wrote, +was “but a modern and expanded phase” of a process that had +begun decades before.29 +First, the railroad arrived. The Mexico City–El Paso rail line, +which passed through Jalisco, recruited workers from the adjacent +countryside. Then US railroad and mining companies began to send +employment agents into Mexico’s interior to contract potential +migrants and deployed station agents on the border to recruit +arriving workers. +The earliest migrants from Arandas had heard rumors about the +availability of work in the United States from former prisoners, local +men who had been arrested and sent to fight in ongoing military +campaigns against the Yaqui Indians in Sonora. They traveled by +rail to El Paso, where an employment agency contracted them for +railroad work in Independence, Kansas. On their next venture, +agents in El Paso sent them to Fresno, California, again to work on +the railroad.30 + + Mexican employment agents also visited Arandas to recruit +laborers. One former migrant told Taylor that a railroad +construction recruiter offered him free passage to the border.31 “In +1913, an agent [Mexican] from the Santa Fé railroad came to +Arandas and took three or four of us by auto to the railroad, and +north. I did not pay anything to go to the frontier; they paid all,” +one source from the village told Taylor, adding that “American +contratistas, representing railroads and mines, had been all through +the region twenty-odd years ago.”32 +Taylor emphasizes that the migration was spurred by US actions. +When Congress passed the Literacy Act for immigrants in 1917, +railroad, agricultural, and mining corporations raised a howl of +protest and insisted that an open border was essential in order to +obtain the labor they needed.33 In response, Congress quickly +exempted Mexicans from the literacy requirement. Migration ebbed +and flowed directly in response to employment demands in the +United States.34 When they needed workers, employers turned to +Mexico. When they didn’t—as in 1929, when Depression-era +unemployment began to rise—the State Department instructed +consular officers to increase their enforcement of the “likely to +become a public charge” restriction on would-be immigrants and +refuse to grant entry visas to Mexicans unlikely to find work.35 +Emigrants from the small community of Arandas worked in +twenty-four states in the United States by the 1930s, and in a wide +variety of industries ranging from automobile factories to +agriculture to coal mining, though the railroad was by far the +largest employer.36 Most came to the border without papers and +were automatically granted entry. After 1928, the American +consular service began to encourage prospective migrants to obtain +permits from a consulate before arriving at the border, though this +was still not required.37 +Some also crossed without inspection, either paying a small sum +to a professional or simply wading across the river at a spot distant +from any border post. By 1931, though, the word had spread that + + the consular service was not granting papers, that deportations were +rising and employment contracting.38 +BORDER PATROL AND SEGREGATION +Although the 1924 law did not include any restrictions on +immigration from the Western Hemisphere, it did create a new +border police force, the Border Patrol. In the early years, according +to historian Aristide Zolberg, “its mission was to prevent the entry +of alcohol rather than people, so that in effect, the border remained +an informal affair.”39 The force also sought to deter prohibited +Chinese attempting to enter through Mexico. +Was it a paradox that the Border Patrol was created in the 1920s, +just when agribusiness, with its need for migrant labor, was rapidly +expanding in the Southwest? Several scholars argue that in fact the +system worked well for farmers who needed migrant workers. +Mexican workers could still cross the border easily, but because they +became more deportable, the new laws also made them more +exploitable. “Agribusinessmen kicked, winked, screamed, lobbied, +and cajoled for border patrol practices that allowed unrestricted +access to Mexican workers while promoting effective discipline over +the region’s Mexicano workforce.”40 Deportability was part of that +discipline. Local officials served farmers’ interests by carrying out +deportation raids in cases of union organizing or, sometimes, just +before payday.41 +The need to patrol the border was mitigated in some ways by the +fact that the (mostly) men who crossed into the United States +carried the border with them, even before the Border Patrol was +created. Many had worked under segregated conditions for US +enterprises inside Mexico. In Mexico, workers did “Mexican work” +and received a “Mexican wage”; they lived in segregated housing.42 +These segregated conditions were replicated in the United States. +“Recruited laborers whether destined for northern Mexico or for the +United States, travel in parties, under a boss, or ‘cabo’ who holds the +tickets,” wrote Victor Clark in 1908. Then, after “crossing a virtual + + open border, Mexican workers were again housed in company +towns, confined to ‘Mexican work,’ treated to dual wages, and +segregated socially . . . the workers’ experiences in Mexico +continued in the United States.”43 +Thus, the most important border was the internal or racial one +that kept Mexicans and Americans socially separated from each +other, even as they labored in a single, integrated economy on both +sides of the political boundary that separated the countries. Gilbert +González concludes that “rather than interpreting segregation as a +means of keeping people out of the ‘mainstream’ or of +‘marginalizing’ them to the social and economic periphery, +segregation was the method of integrating Mexican immigrants and +their families into the heart of the American economy. . . . +Segregated settlements brought a variation of the border to the +employers’ doorsteps.”44 +Mexican workers’ theoretical deportability became real in 1929, +as the country entered the Great Depression. On the pretext that +they were likely to “become a public charge” as employment +opportunities evaporated, both Mexicans and Mexican Americans +were rounded up for deportation. A “frenzy of anti-Mexican +hysteria” justified roundups of entire Mexican neighborhoods and +hundreds of thousands were deported with little attention to legal +niceties.45 +THE BRACERO PROGRAM +With the ending of the Depression and the coming of World War II, +agricultural interests confronted a new labor shortage. The US +government responded with the Bracero Program, administered +jointly by the US and Mexican governments from 1942 to 1964, +which recruited millions of Mexicans to migrate north for a season +or more.46 Over the period, 4.5 million contracts were signed, +representing some 2 million workers (many went more than once). +The program cemented US agribusiness’s reliance on migratory +Mexican workers to the present day. + + The four central-western states of Jalisco, Guanajuato, +Michoacán, and Zacatecas comprised 45 percent of the participants. +“Here,” argues historian Michael Snodgrass, “is where a culture of +Mexican migration first took root in the early twentieth century.” +Because of demand from both would-be migrants and local officials, +the Mexican government established its processing centers in +Guanajuato and Jalisco. Workers from “depressed mining villages +and drought-stricken farm towns” flocked to the program.47 +Alongside Bracero migrants, others from the same region +migrated on their own, undocumented, but not unwelcome. “It was +easy then,” Snodgrass explains. “When he headed north for the first +time in 1955, the first English expression that Gerardo López +learned was ‘go ahead,’ the words a Border Patrol agent spoke while +encouraging his entry.”48 Aristide Zolberg, who was stationed in El +Paso for military service in the mid-1950s, commented that +“informality” prevailed regarding border crossings. “You were more +likely to be stopped crossing the Juarez Bridge if you looked like an +American in military service than like a Mexican seeking work.”49 +Former migrants from the highlands of Jalisco recalled that the +program resurrected networks that had been established in the +1920s, only to be temporarily interrupted in the 1930s. Other parts +of Jalisco, like the sugar region, had no prior history of migration. +Now, though, union leaders began to demand Bracero contracts for +their members during the tiempo muerto from May to December, +which conveniently coincided with California’s harvest season. +Thus, new areas were drawn into the “culture of migration.”50 +Remittances became Mexico’s third-largest source of foreign +exchange by the 1950s. While renewing old flows and creating new +ones, the Bracero Program also redefined the destinations of +Mexican migrants: now almost all of them were recruited directly +into farm labor.51 +The program also deepened the structures and culture of +migration, including extralegal migration, in western Mexico.52 A +whole industry of smugglers or “coyotes” emerged, who worked +with US-based labor contractors to supply undocumented workers to + + farmers.53 Some famers preferred to avoid the bureaucracy and +protections involved with the official system. Others lived in states +like Texas that the Mexican government blacklisted from the +program because of labor violations. By the time the program ended +in 1964, it had outlived its demand because the extralegal system +that had grown alongside it had grown large and strong enough to +fulfill the country’s farm labor demand.54 +Legal scholar Daniel Kanstroom argues that the program +legitimized “a particularly instrumentalist view of Mexican +immigrant workers.” Employers, the law, and the population in +general had long seen Mexicans as different from other immigrants +—as essentially temporary and disposable. The Bracero Program +institutionalized this position for the post–World War II period. +Mexicans in the United States were automatically assumed to be +temporary and perhaps without papers. In other words, Mexicans’ +status was inherently “legally tenuous.”55 +The Bracero Program was also accompanied by a “massive +bilateral deportation policy” that increased deportations to some +seven hundred thousand by the early 1950s. “The wetback is a +person of legal disability who is under jeopardy of immediate +deportation if caught. He is told that if he leaves the farm, he will +be reported to the [Immigration and Naturalization Service (INS), +which] will surely find him if he ventures into town or out onto the +roads,” reported the President’s Commission on Migratory Labor in +1951.56 +Still, both farmers and government tacitly admitted that the line +between legality and illegality was a fine one, and that “wetbacks” +were an essential component of the system.57 In one incident in +early 1954, as workers massed on the border seeking to cross in +Mexicali, the INS urged them to the edge of town, where they +crossed “illegally.” “Instead of sending them back to Mexico, +however, US Border Patrol officials trotted them to the US side of +the official crossing and directed them to touch a toe onto the +Mexican side. . . . When this was done, US Labor Department + + officials gave the migrants contracts to sign, which completed their +transformation from illegal immigrants to guestworkers.”58 +Just a few months later, the Eisenhower administration initiated +Operation Wetback, a massive, military-style sweep of Mexican and +Mexican American neighborhoods aimed at deporting en masse +those deemed to be in the country “illegally.” Over a million were +deported. Like the deportations of the 1930s, Operation Wetback +snared many individuals, including US citizens, simply for being +ethnically Mexican. +Attorney General Herbert Brownell distinguished between “the +illegal Mexican migrants known as ‘wetbacks,’ and the legal +Mexican nationals known as ‘braceros.’ . . . The illegals, who cross +the border furtively in violation of the laws and regulations of both +the United States and Mexico cause serious social and economic +problems for the United States.”59 Yet the operation illustrated the +symbiotic relationship between the Bracero Program and +undocumented workers. Even as it was being carried out, Bracero +recruitment continued unabated, and the INS offered numerous +methods for farmers to legalize the workers they needed, a process +termed “drying out the wetbacks.”60 As Kanstroom points out, “The +remarkably symmetrical relationship between labor recruitment and +the deportation system is illustrated by the fact that, up to 1964, the +number of braceros, nearly 5 million, was almost exactly the same +as the number of deportees.”61 +After Operation Wetback, deportations dropped again as the +number of Bracero-contracted workers grew alongside the number +of work-permitted or green-card entrants. The green card had its +origins in the Alien Registration Act of 1940 in the context of World +War II, requiring all noncitizens to register at a local post office, +which would then mail them the card. The Security Act of 1950 +created the green card as we know it today. Still, for Mexicans, since +there were no numerical restrictions, “obtaining residency [i.e., the +green card] required little more than a letter verifying employment +and a trip to a US consulate.”62 During the 1960s and early 1970s, + + some forty thousand Mexicans living south of the border held green +cards that enabled them to commute to work in the United States. +THE 1965 IMMIGRATION LAW AND THE INVENTION OF +ILLEGALITY +During the two major waves of deportation/repatriation of Mexicans +before 1965—during the Depression of the 1930s and in the mid1950s—undocumentedness as we know it today was not the +rationale used to justify deportation. As entry to the country was +restricted on the grounds of indigence or the probability of +becoming a public charge, the vague “likely to become a public +charge” accusation was harnessed to justify the deportations of +Mexicans during the Depression.63 During the 1950s, many people +mounted arguments against both illegal immigrants—then accorded +the insulting moniker wetback—and the Bracero Program, +regardless of the fact that one was technically legal and the other +illegal. Even as Operation Wetback targeted the supposedly illegal, +the INS offered multiple methods for legalization. Mexican +American organizations like LULAC and the American GI Forum +campaigned equally against both the Bracero Program and the +“wetback tide,” both of which they believed to be harmful to the +efforts of Mexican Americans to assimilate into white US society.64 +The Immigration and Nationality Act of 1965 for the first time +ever placed numerical limits on Mexican migration, just as the +Bracero Program was being shut down. Suddenly, legal migration +for Mexicans, after so many years of being encouraged, was closed +off. But the demand for Mexican labor, and Mexican workers’ need +for jobs, continued. A smaller guest-worker program, the H-2 +program, remained and was expanded over the following decades, +but came nowhere near to filling the demand. +The abolition of the Bracero Program was supposed to create +better, more equal treatment for Mexicans in the United States, in +keeping with the civil rights movements of the era, including a +growing farm-worker movement. It failed miserably. Unlike the +European countries, which legalized their guest workers when they + + ended similar programs around the same time, the United States +simply illegalized its Mexican workers. “In essence, in 1965 the +United States shifted from a de jure guestworker program based on +the circulation of bracero migrants to a de facto program based on +the circulation of undocumented migrants.”65 +The visa cap for Mexicans was far below the number who had +been migrating as braceros in previous years. Thus, the law +“intensified the institutional framework that further enabled the +codification of Mexicans as ‘illegals.’” And the newly created +problem of illegality became the rationale for a huge increase in +apprehensions and deportations.66 The number of Mexican migrants +who lacked the green card and were therefore deportable rose from +88,823 in 1961 to over a million a year by the mid-1970s.67 +Still, writes Oscar Martínez, “because of leniency on the part of +US authorities at the time, undocumented commuters found it rather +easy to cross the border.”68 As the Mexican government pointed out, +many of the undocumented were part of a “seasonal, temporary, +and circular” migration.69 With the “relatively open” border +between 1965 and 1985, “85 percent of undocumented entries were +offset by departures, yielding a relatively modest net increment to +the US population.”70 Still, Douglas Massey wrote that “never before +have so many immigrants been placed in such a vulnerable position +and subject to such high levels of official exclusion and +discrimination.”71 +The US government acknowledged the contradictions of this new +situation in 1986, when the Immigration Reform and Control Act +(IRCA) allowed Mexicans in the country illegally to regularize their +status. The concept was not new; earlier European immigrants +became exempt from deportation and were allowed to become +citizens after they had established roots in the country. Some 2.3 +million Mexican immigrants (and 700,000 non-Mexicans) were able +to become legal under the IRCA’s provisions.72 To do so, though, +they needed documents: documents proving their continuous +presence in the country since 1982, or documents demonstrating +that they had been involved in seasonal agricultural work. A small + + industry grew manufacturing false documents. The ever-fuzzy line +between legal and illegal remained, as many were able to legalize +illegally with fraudulent documents. +When the IRCA was passed, the Department of Agriculture +estimated that some 350,000 undocumented migrants were working +in agriculture and would be eligible for Seasonal Agricultural +Worker (SAW) status. However, some 1.3 million applied—almost +as many as applied for status under the four-years-of-continuousresidence provisions. In California, with an estimated two hundred +thousand undocumented agricultural workers, some seven hundred +thousand applied. By early 1992, the INS had approved 88 percent +of these applications, or over a million nationwide.73 But +independent studies carried out in Mexico, among migrants who had +applied for the SAW provision, showed that only 60–70 percent of +those who applied were actually eligible.74 +Thus, the IRCA contributed to what could perhaps be called +illegal legalizations—people using false documents attesting to their +status as agricultural workers to apply for, and obtain, legal status +in the United States—and what Philip Martin called “documented +illegal aliens.” In an article in the New York Times, Robert Suro +claimed there had been “fraud on a huge scale.”75 Yet fraud or no +fraud, people became officially legal. Moreover, the whole process +may have actually spurred further undocumented immigration by +“spreading work authorization documents and knowledge about +them to very poor and unsophisticated rural Mexicans and Central +Americans, encouraging first-time entrants from these areas.”76 +The 1986 law also for the first time made it illegal to employ a +worker without proper documents. Employer sanctions created an +enormous and costly illegal infrastructure that migrants had to +navigate to obtain false documents in order to work, but did little to +reduce the numbers of undocumented workers. Moreover, the law +left employers virtually immune to prosecution, and with even +greater ability to exploit their now more legally vulnerable +workers.77 + + The 1986 IRCA was ostensibly aimed at ending illegality by +legalizing many resident Mexicans and discouraging new arrivals +through increased border controls and employer sanctions that +criminalized work. However, it had exactly the opposite effect. +Mexicans who obtained legal status under the amnesty were able to +leave the more marginalized sectors of the labor market. But these +traditional sectors, like agriculture, plus newly emerging sectors +(discussed in Chapters 5 and 6) only increased their demand for +workers. Some developed new strategies of subcontracting to evade +the law. Meanwhile undocumented migrants, once in the country, +began to extend their stays and send for their families, since the +long-standing circular migration patterns were disrupted by the +border militarization.78 +Until the 1990s, what migration scholars call the “traditional” or +central-west region of Mexico, including Jalisco, had been the +source of the majority of migrants.79 Since the 1990s, the proportion +from that region has shrunk considerably and that from the southsoutheast region has increased. Migrants from the traditional +sending regions were primarily Spanish-speaking mestizos.80 Since +the 1980s, though, a series of blows, including the 1982 peso crisis, +the debt crisis that followed it, and neoliberal restructuring in the +1990s and components of the North American Free Trade +Agreement in 1994, have severely affected indigenous communities +in southern Mexico. Over a million families lost their land as a result +of these changes. The result was that new areas started their own +massive out-migration to the North, greatly diversifying the Mexican +population in the United States.81 +CASE STUDY: THE HERNáNDEZ CRUZ FAMILY +One family’s story can illustrate the various and contradictory ways +that people become illegal in the contemporary United States. +Consider the case of the Hernández Cruz family of Irapuato, Mexico. +The father, Juan Miguel Hernández Pérez, began the family’s +migration tradition in the middle of the century, when he was +recruited to work in the Bracero Program. But if the program + + created a legal means to initiate a migrant stream from 1942 to +1964, the termination of the program did not end either the demand +for migrants’ labor nor their desire to work in the United States. +When Juan Miguel’s son Juan Hernández Cruz left Irapuato to work +in the fields of California in 1981, “he was following his father’s +footsteps but, unlike his father, who had been a registered worker +under the Bracero Program, Juan would be crossing as an +unauthorized migrant.”82 +Juan Hernández Cruz’s younger sister, Samantha, followed her +brother in 1988, bringing their seriously ill mother with her. First +they tried to enter without inspection, crossing “through the back +hills of San Ysidro many times without success.” Finally, “the coyote +suggested they get false papers instead. . . . By using someone else’s +papers, altered to include their photos, they found it easy to cross +via the San Ysidro US Port of Entry.” +Meanwhile, Juan was working to regularize his and his sister’s +status using the Seasonal Agricultural Worker provision of the 1986 +IRCA. “Through friends, they were connected with a farmer in the +United States who signed all the documents they required for $800 +each. They both received a letter that they had worked on a farm for +the required number of years and were both granted permanent +residency.”83 Legally, but on the basis of false documents. +The ins and outs of this family’s immigration history are more +typical than unusual for Mexican migrants. Their story, and the long +history behind it, helps to explain why Mexicans supposedly choose +to come to the United States “illegally.” From the railroads, to the +various maneuvers in US immigration policy over the past century, +to the current neoliberal regime in Mexico, structural factors have +created what is today called Mexican illegality.84 +GUATEMALAN MAYANS: A HISTORY OF MIGRATION +Central Americans, coming primarily from Honduras, El Salvador, +and Guatemala, comprise the second-largest group of undocumented +people in the United States. My focus here is on one group of +Central Americans, indigenous rural Mayans from Guatemala’s + + highlands. The history of today’s Mayan migration to the United +States began over five hundred years ago. +While we have little evidence about Mayan migration patterns +prior to the Spanish conquest in the 1500s, patterns of coerced and +voluntary migration clearly characterized the colonial period. The +Spanish concentrated the indigenous in new communities to better +implement political, religious, and economic control. They imposed +various systems of coerced labor that forced people out of their +communities for weeks or months at a time to work in colonial +mines, plantations, and factories. Mayans also fled from their +communities to avoid forced labor demands.85 +The coffee plantation system that grew in Guatemala after +independence led to new forced labor demands and displacements. +Historians have documented the fearful violence involved with +dispossessing large numbers of indigenous peoples from their lands +and forcing them into labor on the new plantations. They estimate +that one in five of the highland Indian population migrated +seasonally to work in the coffee fields in the 1880s.86 The numbers +increased after the overthrow of the brief revolutionary experiment +in the 1950s: Christopher Lutz and George Lovell calculate some +two hundred thousand Mayan labor migrants a year in the 1950s, +three hundred thousand in the 1960s, and five hundred thousand in +the 1970s.87 +Guatemalan Indian activist Rigoberta Menchu described her +initiation into migration to coffee and cotton plantations as a child. +Migration to work was simply a fact of life, not to be questioned. +From when I was very tiny, my mother used to take me down +to the finca, wrapped in a shawl on her back. She told me that +when I was about two I had to be carried screaming into the +lorry because I didn’t want to go. . . . It sometimes took two +nights and a day from my village to the coast. . . . By the time +we got to the finca we were totally stupefied; we were like +chickens coming out of a pot. We were in such a state, we +could hardly walk to the finca. I made many trips from the + + altiplano to the coast, but I never saw the countryside we +passed through. . . . I saw the wonderful scenery and places +for the first time when we were thrown out of the finca and +had to pay our own way back on the bus . . . . +I remember that from when I was about eight to when I +was about ten, we worked in the coffee crop. And after that +we worked on the cotton plantations further down the coast, +where it was very, very hot. . . . That was our world. I felt +that it would always be the same, always the same. It hadn’t +ever changed . . . . +The lorries belonged to the fincas, but they were driven by +the recruiting agents, the caporales. These caporales are in +charge of about forty people, or more or less what the lorry +holds. When they get to the finca, the caporal becomes the +overseer of this group. . . . The overseers stay on the fincas. . . +. They are in charge. When you’re working, for example, and +take a little rest, he comes and insults you. . . . They also +punish the slow workers . . . .88 +Every finca in Guatemala has a cantina, owned by the +landowner, where the workers get drunk on alcohol and all +kinds of guaro, and pile up debts. They often spend most of +their wages. They drink to get happy and to forget the +bitterness they feel at having to leave their villages in the +Altiplano and come and work so brutally hard on the fincas for +so little.89 +Menchu’s testimony suggests that, like the Mexican peasants +described earlier, Guatemalan highlanders were not seeking to leave +their homes to work for pay. It took generations of forced +recruitment to create this migration tradition. +Interestingly, human rights advocate Daniel Wilkinson found that +the Mayan descendants who live on the plantations today know +little of the violence that went into the making of this history. +“People knew where their families had come from, but they didn’t +know—or didn’t care to recall—much more about what had brought + + them to the plantations.”90 Wilkinson, like others who study +Guatemala, emphasizes the silences that surround people’s +understanding of their realities. Decades—or centuries—of genocide +and terror have shaped the culture of Guatemala’s highland +indigenous communities. People may have few tools to understand +the forces behind their oppression, and they have learned over and +over that trying to protest or change their situation only invites +further repression. +The civil war—or more accurately, dirty war—against highland +Maya communities during the 1970s and ’80s was one result of +people in the highlands trying to challenge their poverty and +dispossession. It led to the destruction of hundreds of villages, and +perhaps a million internally displaced and one hundred thousand to +two hundred thousand refugees who fled the country, many across +the border to Mexico. Others were forced from their homes into +model villages under army control. +Thus, historians of the Maya have argued that migration has been +a “ubiquitous feature of Maya life” that became central to Mayan +history and identity. Ever since the arrival of the Spanish +conquerors, and in accelerated ways since the 1800s, political, legal, +military, and economic structures have directly enforced migration +or simply made it impossible to survive without it.91 +“An absent community or family member may be in one of +several places: on the coast picking coffee (returning home within a +month, with wages); in the capital working as a domestic, merchant, +or worker (sending money home to the family, returning +periodically or permanently, such as after a stint or a marriage +proposal from home); in another municipio selling firewood, +animals, or agricultural products (returning once or twice a month +for business and domestic activities); and, increasingly, allá lejos (in +the United States), sending US dollars home on a regular basis.”92 +Both in its structural aspects and in its cultural aspects, today’s +migration is just a new phase in a process that is rooted in hundreds +of years of history.93 + + CASE STUDY: GUATEMALANS IN PROVIDENCE +Among the undocumented Mayans of Providence, Rhode Island, +Patricia Foxen found a very different conception than what most +citizens understand about illegality. Rather than imagining +themselves as autonomous individuals making a decision to break +the law, they, like Rigoberta Menchu, understand their migration as +a requirement imposed upon them by outsiders, which they have no +right or opportunity to question. +The coyotes that offer to take them across the border may be +considered smugglers under US law, but to the Mayans Foxen +studied, they were no different from the labor contractors who had +been forcibly recruiting them—legally—for generations. Instead of +going to the Pacific coast to work on plantations, now they were +being sent to la costa del Norte to work in jewelry factories. One +woman told Foxen that “the coyote is the same as the contratista +(labor contractor) on the coast: he should know when there is work +over there, and should not be sending people if there is no work.” +Others told her that they went to Providence “because that is where +the coyotes sent them.”94 In many cases, contratistas themselves +became coyotes, relying on their existing networks and standing and +just expanding their geographic scope.95 “As did their forefathers +centuries ago,” Lutz and Lovell write, “Guatemalan Mayas continue +to migrate in order to survive.”96 +Once in the United States, understandings and worldviews +shaped by their history in Guatemala continue to inform +immigrants’ understanding of their current realities. One Mayan in +Providence explained to Foxen that “the migra here, it is like, as +they said, the guerrillas over there. . . . If la migra is looking for one +of us, we all run, run escaping, it is like the guerrilla.” Likewise in +Guatemala, one campesino (peasant farmer) told her that “he had +heard that the INS had not yet arrived in Providence, though they +were said to be close (thus likening them to the army or +guerrillas).”97 + + Foxen also notes a “total confusion surrounding understandings +about the legality and illegality of different types of documentation” +that stems from the population’s long history of the law being used +against them.98 Some of her informants had paid hundreds of +dollars to a notario for a temporary work permit. These notarios +often had no legal credentials, but played on a semantic confusion, +since in Latin America the term often refers to a lawyer. The notarios +would file a fraudulent asylum application, which would +nonetheless entitle the migrant to a temporary, legal work permit, +until their asylum hearing, which would generally result in +deportation. Foxen encountered frequent references to people +obtaining “papeles legalmente falsificados”—legally falsified +documents—a further example of the impenetrable character of the +law from the perspective of the immigrants.99 +Describing his experience as a court interpreter for Guatemalan +migrants after an immigration raid at a meatpacking plant in +Postville, Iowa, Erik Camayd-Freixas explained that workers there +had simply followed recruiters’ and employers’ instructions, and had +not knowingly chosen to break any law. +“Do you know what this number is?” asked the lawyer, +pointing to the social security number on his I-9 employment +form. “I don’t know,” said the man. “Who put it there?” “At +the plant, they helped me fill out the papers ’cause I can’t +read or write Spanish, much less English.” “Do you know +what a social security number is?” the lawyer insisted. “No,” +said the man. “Do you know what a social security card is?” +“No.” “Do you know what it’s used for?” “I don’t know any of +that. I’m new in this country,” said the man, visibly +embarrassed.100 +Like their ancestors and their contemporaries, these migrants had +simply gone where the recruiters had taken them to work. +A New York Times reporter interviewed Guatemalan and other +Central American migrants on Mexico’s southern border in early +2013. “Few had even heard about the debate to overhaul + + immigration laws and possibly open a pathway to citizenship for +immigrants living illegally in the United States,” he commented. +“Instead, the prevailing force seems to be deteriorating conditions at +home.”101 +For at least five hundred years, Guatemala’s highland Mayan +populations have been buffeted, or coerced, by the winds of the +global economy. They have been slaughtered, displaced, massacred, +and enslaved. They have had to leave their homes and their families +to do the hardest, dirtiest, and lowest work for the benefit of others. +They have been discriminated against socially and legally. For +centuries, they have been forced to migrate and suffered poor +working conditions and legalized discrimination. Their migration to +the United States is only the latest phase of this long history. Their +technical illegality in the United States is but a small part of a +system that has worked to control their movement and their labor +for hundreds of years. + + CHAPTER 3 + +Becoming Illegal +There are two main ways to become undocumented in the United +States. About half of the undocumented population enters without +inspection. They may have attempted to obtain a visa and been +denied. More likely, they either knew that such an attempt was +hopeless or did not even know that such a process existed and didn’t +try at all. So they crossed somehow, usually by land but sometimes +by sea, through a border that may have been unmarked, invisible, or +at least unpatrolled. Thus, they were not inspected by any official +from Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) when they +entered. This means that while they may have many kinds of +identification documents, they have none that specifically authorizes +their entry into the United States. +The other portion of the undocumented population entered with +inspection, usually with a visa of some sort or with a Border +Crossing Card. One US government estimate calculates that between +30 percent and 60 percent of the undocumented became so through +visa overstays, meaning that though they were initially authorized +entry, they neglected to leave in the designated time frame.1 +Millions of Mexicans obtain tourist visas every year, and the +number has been rising steadily, from about 4 million a year at the +beginning of the 2000s to almost 13 million in 2010.2 However, the +vast majority of Mexicans who obtain tourist visas do not overstay +their visas and become “illegal.” Most Mexicans who are +undocumented became so by crossing the border without inspection, +and most people who become undocumented through visa overstays +are not Mexican. +Under today’s immigration laws, citizens of most countries must +request a visa in their home country before traveling to the United +States. Europeans, as always, are privileged: the Visa Waiver +Program allows most of them to enter as tourists (but not to work) + + without a visa. Some Mexicans are eligible for Border Crossing +Cards that allow them to travel for a specified period of time in the +border region. Border Crossing Cards are like tourist or visitors’ +visas: they authorize entry into the United States, but they don’t +authorize the holder to work. People who enter with these kinds of +permission can become undocumented if they either overstay their +visa or violate its terms in some other way, including, for Border +Card holders, leaving the twenty-five-mile border zone. Because +nonimmigrant visas are temporary permits with specific conditions +attached to them, ordinary activities that are not in themselves +illegal can still constitute visa violations. In some cases, there are +lies or questionable and illegal activities involved in obtaining the +visa itself. +In 2011, 159 million nonimmigrant visitors entered the United +States with some kind of legal permission. Thirty-three percent or +53.1 million of them were I-94 card holders, meaning that they +either had obtained a nonimmigrant (temporary) visa or were +admitted under the Visa Waiver Program. The largest source of I-94 +admissions was Mexico, with 33 percent of the total. (The next +largest source was United Kingdom, with only 8.6 percent.) Eightyseven percent of these visa holders had visitors’ or tourist visas that +allowed them to travel for business or pleasure. The others held +student, temporary worker, or other kinds of visas.3 Some one +hundred thousand were H-2 guest workers, some 80 percent of them +Mexican. Most of the other two-thirds of inspected entries were +Mexicans and Canadians with Border Crossing Cards.4 +For all categories of nonimmigrant travel, then—as visitors or +temporary workers with a visa, with a Border Crossing Card, or as +undocumented entries—Mexicans constitute the largest numbers. Of +the 11.5 million or so undocumented immigrants in 2006, some 4– +5.5 million had entered with visitor or tourist visas, and another +250,000–500,000 entered with Border Crossing Cards. The other 6– +7 million entered without inspection.5 +ILLEGAL VISAS + + Although evading ICE inspection points and the Border Patrol is a +common method of illegal entry, it’s not the only one. The head of +Customs and Border Protection (CBP) explained to researcher +Lynnaire Sheridan that before resorting to a dangerous crossing +through the desert, migrants could attempt to borrow, purchase, or +steal an authentic US passport or permanent resident card. Absent +that possibility, they might obtain a false document or alter a +document themselves by inserting their own photograph. If they +could not access any documents, they might hide in a vehicle and +cross at night.6 The professional cross-border smugglers Sheridan +interviewed offered a rather similar assessment. They told her that +the safest way to cross was to obtain a tourist visa or, if that was not +possible, to use a valid visa belonging to a family member. A bit +riskier was the use of false or altered documents. The most +dangerous method was to attempt to cross without being seen, +generally in isolated areas with little Border Patrol presence.7 +Sheridan interviewed many families that had crossed illegally +multiple times. They corroborated this assessment. They listed their +preferred options as, first, crossing with a tourist visa and +overstaying it; second, using someone else’s documents; third, using +false documents; and last, attempting to cross without being +discovered. If the latter was the only option, they emphasized that +the more isolated the area, the more dangerous the crossing. +Cost was also a factor. The safest options were the most +expensive. Sometimes families would pay more to have their young +children, for example, cross with false papers (perhaps +accompanying adults with valid documents), while the adults would +opt for a dangerous clandestine crossing.8 +Another method of crossing the border is with a temporary work +visa, generally through the H-2A (agricultural) or H-2B +(nonagricultural) programs. (There are other categories of +temporary work visas, but most require specific types and levels of +skills and don’t apply in most situations.) But with the H-2 program, +as with the Bracero Program before it, paperwork and requirements +are so bureaucratic and onerous that many employers and potential + + workers find the program not worth the effort.9 There is also a lot of +room for illegal and unfair maneuvering within the H-2 system. +US employers begin by requesting authorization to recruit H-2 +workers from the Department of Labor. Once an employer receives +authorization, they generally turn to a US contracting agency, which +in turn contracts with a Mexican recruiting agency to find available +workers. Opportunities for abuse within the system abound. +The complexity of the H-2 program and the gap between the +overwhelming demand on both sides and the small number of visas +actually available make the program ripe for fraud and exploitation. +“Illegality” enters the system in numerous ways, as uncovered by a +2010 United States Government Accountability Office (GAO) report. +In six cases that the GAO reviewed, “employers charged their H-2B +workers fees that were for the benefit of the employer or charged +excessive fees that brought employees’ wages below the hourly +federal minimum wage. These charges included visa processing fees +far above actual costs, rent in overcrowded apartments that +drastically exceeded market value, and transportation charges +subject to arbitrary ‘late fees.’ Workers left the United States in +greater debt than when they arrived. In one case, these fees reduced +employees’ paychecks to as little as $48 for a 2-week period.” In +eight cases, “employers were alleged to have submitted fraudulent +documentation to Labor, USCIS, and State to either exploit their H2B employees or hire more employees than needed. Employers and +recruiters misclassified employee duties on Labor certification +applications to pay lower prevailing wages; used shell companies to +file fraudulent labor certification applications for unneeded +employees, then leased the additional employees to businesses not +on the visa petitions; and preferentially hired H-2B employees over +American workers in violation of federal law.”10 +Eighty percent of H-2A and H-2B visa requests in Mexico are +processed at the US consulate in Monterrey. The director of the +Mexican Oficina de Atención al Migrante in that city has filed +complaints about “hundreds of cases of fraud” in which +unscrupulous agents charge would-be migrants illicit fees in + + exchange for promises of access to the coveted visa.11 “In practice, +nobody can hope to obtain one of these visas if they don’t use the +intermediaries. Otherwise how will they find out about the +opportunities that exist?”12 From the perspective of the Mexican +worker, working through the H-2 program might be almost +indistinguishable from crossing without inspection to work. Both +involve relying on shady networks for information, paying +exorbitant fees, and working under poor conditions and at wage +rates that are frequently “illegal” as well as exploitative. +In 2004, the Farm Labor Organizing Committee or FLOC, a farmworkers’ union in the United States, negotiated an agreement with +North Carolina growers that allowed the workers to bypass the +contractors. The organization opened an office in Monterrey to +monitor the recruitment process there. On September 9, 2007, the +director of the FLOC office, Santiago Rafael Cruz, was found tied up, +tortured, and murdered. The union suspected that local labor +contractors were behind the murder. As FLOC president Baldemar +Velázquez explained, “FLOC’s agreement eliminated the extortion of +illegal fees from workers by criminal elements. They have been +unhappy with the union taking away their goldmine. We disrupted +not only the recruiters working for growers in North Carolina, but +all the recruiters who recruit workers for all the other states: from +Florida and Georgia, through South Carolina and Virginia, all the +way up to Pennsylvania and New York.” Labor journalist Dan +LaBotz added that “FLOC’s presence in Mexico meant that the +racketeers were losing hundreds of thousands of dollars in +exorbitant fees and bribes.”13 +The chains reach deep into Guatemala. Some twelve hundred +workers recruited by Mexican agency Job Consultoría paid from +$1,000 to $3,000 for supposed access to a visa. In Amatitlán, +Guatemala, 370 men and their families attacked local resident Pablo +Roberto Valencia in late 2011 when they learned that the money +they had given him to pay for their visas had disappeared.14 +According to the Southern Poverty Law Center, workers generally + + arrive in the United States with debts between $500 and $10,000 +owed—illegally—to recruiters.15 +While these workers do enter with visas that authorize their +presence and permit them to work in the United States, the process +that connects them with these visas violates US, Mexican, and +sometimes other countries’ laws. It frequently involves threats, +violence, extortion, and debt peonage. These violations are +generally met with impunity, however. In fact, the violations are +built into the system itself; they are integral to its functioning and to +the arrival of officially legal H-2 workers to the United States. +GETTING TO THE BORDER +Although the majority of uninspected border crossers are Mexican, +others are Central and South Americans. Today, Central Americans +often travel a perilous land journey from their homes across one or +more countries and through Mexico. A century ago, excluded people +like the Chinese entered through Mexico, because of the openness of +that border. +While the number of Mexicans crossing illegally has declined in +recent years, the number of Central Americans has been steadily +increasing. The economic crisis in the United States meant that some +sectors, like construction, that had traditionally attracted Mexican +migrants, were not hiring. Some experts have also suggested that +increased deportation rates, violence along the border, and a +declining birthrate in Mexico have contributed to a slowing of +Mexican crossings.16 +In Central America, though, economic stagnation and horrific +levels of violence, especially in Guatemala, El Salvador, and +Honduras, have meant that the numbers crossing into the United +States continue to increase. Somewhere between 150,000 (according +to the Mexican government) and 400,000 (according to advocacy +organizations) undocumented migrants were entering Mexico each +year as of 2010, mostly from Central America.17 In 2011, 46,997 +non-Mexicans, mostly Central Americans, were detained at the +border; in 2012, the figure more than doubled, to 94,532.18 While + + still much fewer than the 188,467 Mexicans detained during the +2011–2012 fiscal year, the trend was clear: the number of Mexicans +was decreasing, while that of Central Americans was increasing.19 +Although in even smaller numbers, South Americans also cross +the border by land, first traveling by plane to Mexico. In +Montevideo, one travel agency offered a choice of a tourist visa and +a ticket to New York or a ticket to Mexico and a connection to a +coyote who would arrange an illegal land crossing, depending on +how much the traveler was willing to pay.20 Similarly in Brazil, +travel agents sell package deals that include airfare to Mexico City, +a guide to Tijuana, and a coyote for crossing the border. In New +York, Maxine Margolis found that only 3 percent of Brazilians in her +sample had crossed the Mexican border, but in Framingham, +Massachusetts, another study found that 43 percent had. Wealthier +Brazilians were more likely to be able to obtain the tourist visa, +while those who were poorer and less educated were more likely to +have to resort to the Mexican route.21 +When US consulates in the Dominican Republic began to reduce +the number of tourist visas they granted, informal visa brokers +began to offer their clients other, more expensive routes. Migrants +were sent to Puerto Rico by boat or to Mexico to cross the land +border. A market sprang up in forged or false papers. Samuel +Martinez noted that while Dominicans saw some modes of entry as +preferable to others, the relative illegality was not their prime +concern. It was just how the system worked: rich people got +preferred access to visas; poor people had to pay huge sums for the +same privilege. “‘Legal’ and ‘illegal’ modes of entry are viewed by +Caribbean people more as bureaucratic obstacles to circumvent than +as immutable law,” he concluded.22 +Eugenia Georges’ research on emigration from the Dominican +Republic noted the same pattern of poorer immigrants having to +take more costly and dangerous routes. In the town she studied, +richer residents—those who owned land or businesses—could +usually get tourist visas and fly directly to the United States, since, +as property owners, they could convince US consular officials that + + they would return home after their tourist excursions. Poorer, +landless Dominicans had to resort to the more expensive, riskier, +indirect route via Mexico.23 +In the case of Central Americans, almost all of those trying to +migrate are poor, and their journey through Mexico is a perilous +one. In 2001, Mexico—under pressure from the Bush administration +—began to implement what it called “Plan Sur” to secure its +southern border, while Guatemala countered with “Venceremos +2001” to control exit traffic from its own country. The militarization +of this border mirrored what had begun a decade earlier on the USMexico border, and the results were also similar. Official statistics +showed migration numbers slowing. But migrants and human rights +organizations pointed out that these statistics were deceptive. Many +migrants shifted away from the newly enforced and militarized +checkpoints into more remote areas. As crossing became more +difficult and more dangerous, it also became more criminalized, as +gangs, drug traffickers, and professional smugglers became +involved.24 Deportations also rose, but much more slowly than the +migrant stream. Between January and November 2010, the Mexican +National Institute of Migration (INAMI) deported 49,143 Central +Americans: 19,876 Hondurans, 8,263 Salvadorans, 20,354 +Guatemalans, and 646 Nicaraguans.25 Another 40,971 Central +Americans were detained in Mexico in 2012.26 +Many Central Americans attempt to cross Mexico by stowing +away on the freight trains that run from Chiapas on the MexicoGuatemala border up to Mexico City and then on to the US border. +The journey can take days or weeks, as migrants slip from train to +train. Up to fifteen hundred Central Americans attempt to board La +Bestia or the Beast—also known as “The Train of Death”—every day. +Thousands have been killed or maimed in the process.27 +Because migrants carry money for their trip and because most of +them have relatives working in the United States who are helping to +pay for them and can be extorted for ransom money, the kidnapping +of migrants has become a regular occurrence on their trip through +Mexico. In just six months between September 2008 and February + + 2009, the Mexican National Human Rights Commission uncovered +cases of almost 10,000 migrants kidnapped.28 From April to +September 2010, the commission found 11,333 kidnapping cases. +“This figure reflects the fact that there have not been sufficient +government efforts to lower the rates of kidnapping affecting the +migrant population,” the commission declared. Most of the cases +discovered by the commission were Hondurans (44.3 percent), +followed by Salvadorans, Guatemalans, Mexicans, and small +numbers of Cubans, Nicaraguans, Colombians, and Ecuadorians.29 +Although various social actors—including Mexican police and +other government officials—participate in kidnapping and extortion +networks, their modus operandi is similar: migrants are captured +and tortured to force them to reveal contacts in their home country +or in the United States. The kidnappers then call these relatives or +friends and demand payment, threatening to kill the migrant if they +don’t comply.30 The majority of kidnappings take place along the +train route or on the trains themselves. +Kidnapping is only part of the story. A Mexican church-based +human rights coalition decried a broad spectrum of “human rights +violations committed by public servants and federal, state, and +municipal police. This criminalization of undocumented migration +sets the stage for physical, psychological, and sexual aggression, and +human trafficking.”31 +The emergence of the Zetas cartel in 2002 greatly worsened the +situation just as the numbers of Central American migrants passing +through Mexico was increasing. According to Mexico’s Assistant +Attorney General’s Office for Special Investigations on Organized +Crime, “its main activities include extortion and sale of protection +services, carrying out assassinations, holding and selling drugs, +piracy, gasoline sales, and the capture and ransom of hostages.” +According to victims, the Zetas are the main perpetrators of migrant +kidnappings.32 +The Zetas use a strategy of displacing and taking control of +small communities. They terrorize and extort the local + + population and co-opt individuals who belong to gangs or +small local bands, training them to carry out actions like +surveillance of trains, apprehension of migrants, transferring +and overseeing migrants in safe houses, making telephone +calls for the purpose of extortion, and receiving the ransom. +These delinquent groups, made up mostly of young people, +are popularly known as the “Zetitas.” In every kidnapping +case they also commit serious crimes like assassination, sexual +exploitation, and human trafficking. In its first two years, the +Zetas cartel succeeded in establishing itself all along the +routes traveled by migrants.33 +As the flow of Central American migrants increased, so did cases +of kidnapping, especially after 2007.34 In one notorious case, in +August 2010, seventy-two migrants from El Salvador, Honduras, +Guatemala, Ecuador, and Brazil were victims of a massacre as they +passed through Tamaulipas on their way to the border. Their +captors—members of a drug gang, possibly the Zetas—demanded +that they pay ransom or agree to work as couriers. When the +migrants refused, they were slaughtered. A lone survivor managed +to reach a nearby military base and tell the story of what had +transpired. A year later, a young member of the Zetas confessed to +the crime.35 In another massacre, in May 2012, forty-nine mutilated +bodies of supposed migrants were found dumped along a highway +near Monterrey. ���Because of the number of people, it appears that +they could be passengers from a bus full of illegals; it could be a +case in which organized delinquents [i.e., drug cartels] were +extorting the coyote, since they have now taken over this illegal +business,” a Mexican government representative explained.36 +According to the Human Rights Coalition report, “Migrants are +typically captured on the trains themselves, or while waiting along +the tracks. Groups of heavily armed persons approach the migrants, +force them onto pickup trucks, and take them to safe houses. The +kidnappings are carried out with unremitting brutality. In the ‘safe +houses’ where they are held they suffer all kinds of tortures, cruel + + and inhuman treatment, and physical and psychological +punishments, until their family in the United States (or in Central +America) collects the money for their ransom.”37 +Mexican government officials have also been heavily implicated +in these abuses. The Mexican INAMI and state security forces carry +out “migration verification operations” on the trains, sometimes +using electric shock instruments. They detain some migrants, +leaving others in the hands of the gangs or armed groups.38 +While it might be tempting to simply blame this violence against +migrants on Mexican actors, the situation really can’t be separated +from its larger context: the criminalization of migrants by the +United States, and its pressure on Mexico to enforce similar policies. +While Mexico has publicly denounced US anti-immigrant policies, +its government has also collaborated in many ways. US policies +create a political context—illegality—that legitimizes abuses against +migrants. The Bishop of Saltillo in northern Mexico articulated what +many Mexicans and Central Americans believe: “My conclusion is +that the Mexican government’s migration policies are aimed at +preventing migrants from crossing into the United States. It is +abundantly clear that the impunity enjoyed by organized crime, like +that previously enjoyed by gangs, is a policy of terror.”39 A policy of +terror that thrives in and serves the climate of criminalization of +immigrants in their destination. +ON THE BORDER +Crossing the US-Mexico border used to be a rather mundane affair, +as described in earlier chapters. With politicians pandering to (and +fanning the flames of) the rising anti-immigrant climate inside the +United States in the early 1990s, the border changed dramatically. +Operation Hold the Line in El Paso in 1993 and Operation +Gatekeeper in California in 1994 began today’s still-ongoing +obsession with the border.40 In September 1993, the Border Patrol +chief of the El Paso Sector, Silvestre Reyes, launched his new policy, +a “highly visible show of force along a 20-mile section of the +boundary dividing El Paso from Ciudad Juárez. Inspections at + + official ports of entry also intensified. The strategy represented a +radical departure from the prior Border Patrol strategy of pursuing +and apprehending unauthorized immigrants after they had crossed +the boundary into the El Paso area.” Apprehensions quickly fell in +this sector, not because overall border crossings declined, but +because migrants simply shifted to new crossing points.41 +Likewise, Operation Gatekeeper in California succeeded in +deflecting migrant traffic away from the sixty-six-mile stretch +known as the San Diego Sector of the border. Operation Gatekeeper +included construction of a wall, massive deployment of Border +Patrol agents along the border, stadium lighting, vehicles, sensors, +and other equipment. Beginning at the Imperial Beach Station in the +west and moving east, the Border Patrol hoped to bring the entire +San Diego Sector “under full control” within five years.42 As in +Texas, “control” did not mean that migrants stopped coming; they +simply moved to other, much more treacherous entry points. +In 2009, the American Civil Liberties Union and Mexico’s +National Human Rights Commission on accused the US government +of causing thousands of deaths at the border. “This report is the +sounding of an alarm for a humanitarian crisis that has led to the +death of more than 5,000 human beings,” they declared. The crisis +was a direct result, they said, of US decisions: “The deaths of +unauthorized migrants have been a predictable and inhumane +outcome of border security policies on the US-Mexico border over +the last fifteen years.” The new policies implemented by Gatekeeper, +militarizing the more populated San Diego Sector, “intentionally +forc[ed] undocumented immigrants to extreme environments and +natural barriers that the government anticipated would increase the +likelihood of injury and death.”43 To reach safety, migrants had to +hike for miles over treacherous desert terrain, enduring the extreme +heat of the days and cold of the nights. Few were able to carry +enough water. As the death rate rose precipitously, “the chief cause +of death shifted . . . from traffic fatalities to deaths from +hypothermia, dehydration, and drowning.”44 + + The Arizona-based Coalición de Derechos Humanos has tallied +the dead in the Arizona sector since 2000. Basing its figures on +recovered remains, the organization noted that at least 100 to 300 +have died each year, with the highest number, 282, being reached +in 2006. Since many remains are not recovered, the actual death +rates are considerably higher. The organization attributes the slight +decline after that (down to 179 in 2011–2012) to lower numbers of +total crossings.45 A GAO investigation in 2006 found that bordercrossing deaths had doubled in the past decade, to a high of 472 in +2006. Three-quarters of the increase was due to rising death rates in +the Tucson sector, and most were due to heat-related exposure.46 +The Pima County, Arizona, medical examiner’s office took custody +of the remains of 1,915 migrants who died in the desert between +2001 and 2010.47 The Border Patrol’s own figures corroborated the +high (492) in fiscal year 2005 and show that despite a slight drop +after that, numbers rose again, to 483 in fiscal year 2012.48 +Even as the total number of people crossing may have declined +after 2006, the process became increasingly dangerous. The Arizona +Daily Star noted that the ratio of known deaths per apprehensions +rose from three per one hundred thousand in 1998 to thirty-nine in +2004 and eighty-eight in 2009. “That means the risk of dying is +more than twice as high today compared with five years ago and +nearly 30 times greater than in 1998,” the newspaper reported at +the end of 2009. “Border-county law enforcement, Mexican +Consulate officials, Tohono O’odham tribal officials and +humanitarian groups say the increase in fencing, technology and +agents has caused illegal border crossers to walk longer distances in +more treacherous terrain, increasing the likelihood that people will +get hurt or fatigued and left behind to die.”49 +In response to the growing death rate and the outcry it provoked, +the Border Patrol initiated the Border Safety Initiative in 1998 and +formed BORSTAR to train agents in search, trauma, and rescue. The +goal was to address the humanitarian crisis created by the United +States’ own new border policies. Border Patrol agents did provide +life-saving aid to hundreds of migrants in the years since the + + program was initiated. But “while the Tucson Sector BORSTAR unit +routinely provided search, rescue, and medical intervention to +undocumented immigrants under harsh conditions, the number of +times it responded was insignificant in comparison to the volume of +Border Patrol law enforcement activities.”50 Soon, other, +independent church-based and grassroots organizations began to +form to try to respond to the issue. +CONCLUSION +The laws that allow or disallow entry into the United States are and +have always been arbitrary and discriminatory. One set of laws, +primarily for Europeans and for the wealthy, allows freedom of +travel. Another set, for Latin Americans and the poor, creates a +labyrinth of enticements and obstacles. +The Las Americas Premium Outlets complex on the US side the +Tijuana–San Ysidro crossing just south of San Diego symbolizes the +contradiction. Looming over the border, the 125 outlet stores +beckon to tourists from the Mexican side, offering them a consumer +mecca if they cross to shop. “The big fence surrounding the outlets +and the Mexican flag [just beyond the complex, on the other side of +the border] was a bit distracting,” wrote one US reviewer on the +popular website Yelp.com.51 Between the mall and the flag are the +imposing border wall and the security apparatus that sustains it, +reminding Mexicans that their welcome is decidedly conditional. +Myriad historical and economic factors draw and sometimes force +migrants from their homes into the US economy. Many of these +factors are the result of deliberate decisions implemented by US +employers, investors, and government. At the same time, +increasingly convoluted webs of laws, restrictions, and +discrimination ensure that migrants remain in a subject position, +exploitable and exploited. Today, the system works by drawing or +forcing them into a status deemed illegality. +The borders that divide immigrants from the United States are +not just physical. Once inside the country—whether by means of a +traumatic border crossing or a simple visa overstay—people without + + documents live behind another kind of border, a baffling and +sometimes terrifying border that separates them from those around +them and the country and society in which they live. These internal +borders are the subject of the next chapter. + + CHAPTER 4 + + What Part of “Illegal” Do You Understand? +Arbitrary and precarious. If life for poor people in Mexico and +Central America seems to be filled with precarious status and +arbitrary events to which they must simply adapt in order to +survive, life in the United States continues the pattern. Why do some +government agencies welcome the undocumented, while others +ignore them, and still others threaten, imprison, and deport them? +What really determines their status, and why does it seem to change +so frequently and unpredictably? How can they plan for the future +or prepare, when everything seems so capricious? +THE BLURRINESS OF CATEGORIES +In the minds of most citizens, the terms “legal” and “illegal” are +clearly defined and clearly distinguished categories. In real life, +though, there is a large gray area between the two ostensibly +opposite poles. Most people who are undocumented live ordinary +lives and are not immediately distinguishable from immigrants with +documents or from citizens. Yet in some ways, hidden to the +outside, documented world, their lives are very different. As Jose +Antonio Vargas puts it, “Everyday life for an undocumented +American means a constant search for loopholes and back doors.”1 +Most of the approximately 11 million undocumented people in +the United States have been here for quite a while. As noted earlier, +only 14 percent arrived in the country after January 1, 2005, +meaning that 86 percent have been in the country for over seven +years.2 While the law may consider them alien, most of them are +people who have deep roots in the United States. +Mexicans are overrepresented among those deported: Mexicans +make up 58 percent of the undocumented population, but 70 +percent of those deported are Mexican.3 Apparently, being Mexican +makes you somehow more undocumented, in the eyes of society and +of law enforcement, than others. Since undocumentedness is a + + socially imposed status, then how you are seen by those in authority +is in fact what brings it into being. +Many individuals have experienced being both documented and +undocumented. Laws have changed, as in 1986 when many +undocumented people were offered the chance to legalize. +Individuals who entered the country legally may fall out of status if +they violate the terms of their visa in some way, while, more rarely, +those who are undocumented may find a way to regularize their +status. +The 1986 Immigration Reform and Control Act, the country’s +most recent attempt at some sort of supposedly comprehensive +immigration reform, exemplified the arbitrary nature of immigration +law. In order to qualify for legalization, migrants must have resided +in the country continuously since January 1, 1982. This cutoff date +meant that the large numbers of Central American immigrants who +arrived later were excluded. Of the 500,000 to 850,000 Salvadorans +in the country in 1986, only 146,000 qualified.4 The American +Baptist Churches v. Thornburgh (or ABC) Settlement Agreement in +1990 reopened thousands of political asylum cases, offering a new +chance for legal residence for undocumented Salvadorans and +Guatemalans. But the process was agonizingly slow, and tens of +thousands of Central Americans remained in limbo through the +1990s, renewing their work permits every eighteen months as their +cases languished. +The Immigration Act of 1990 (IMMACT)—among many other +provisions—created the new category of Temporary Protected Status +(TPS), offering temporary protection and work authorization to +immigrants from countries affected by war or natural disaster. +Salvadorans were granted TPS, based on the state of civil war in the +country that made it impossible for them to return. Guatemalans, +despite the war in their country, were not included. TPS for +Salvadorans was extended several times, but ended in 1995 after a +peace agreement ended the war. At that time, some 1 million +Salvadorans lived in the United States. Half of them were legal +immigrants, and between 90,000 and 190,000 had been protected + + by TPS.5 (Some 200,000 applied originally, but many failed to +complete the repeated renewal process.)6 When TPS ended, many +Salvadorans returned to the stalled asylum process. +The 1997 Nicaraguan Adjustment and Central America Relief Act +(NACARA) was an attempt to address the backlog in asylum cases +by offering permanent residency to certain asylum seekers. But +NACARA too left many Guatemalans and Salvadorans in limbo, as it +favored Cuban and Nicaraguan petitioners and continued to be +plagued with backlogs. In 2001, the INS estimated that it could take +“up to 20 years” to process the pending, almost three hundred +thousand Central American applications.7 Between 1999 and 2003, +the approval rate for Salvadoran and Guatemalan asylum applicants +hovered between 7 percent and 11 percent, not much higher than +the low rate in the 1980s that had led to the ABC lawsuit. For +applicants from other countries, the rate was 33 percent to 44 +percent.8 Salvadorans and Guatemalans, in the words of Cecilia +Menjívar and Leisy Abrego, “have faced being granted only +temporary permits, seemingly interminable applications, reapplications, long waiting times for their applications to be +processed, and the threat of imminent deportation.” Neither fully +legal nor illegal, they exist in a state of “permanent temporariness” +or “liminal legality.”9 +Menjívar describes the experiences of many undocumented +Central American immigrants: +Occasionally they are granted temporary relief from +deportation with multiple and confusing deadlines for +applications and renewals of permits and convoluted +application procedures (e.g., fees, forms, photos, fingerprints, +proofs of residence, and innumerable caveats and conditions). +Indeed, so much work is involved in preparing these +applications and information is so difficult to obtain that a +veritable industry has developed among document preparers, +notaries, and other entrepreneurs (some of whom are not +particularly well qualified) to fulfill the needs of Central + + Americans applying for the different dispensations. This +situation creates enormous anxiety, as each deadline +accentuates these immigrants’ precarious situation, which for +many has gone on for over two decades.10 +Immigration law revisions have continued the pattern of creating +new ways of punishing illegality, while concomitantly creating +sometimes unexpected and apparently arbitrary new avenues for +legalization. A new Temporary Protected Status for Salvadorans +(2001) and Haitians (2011) offered undocumented people from +those countries a temporary respite, but with the knowledge that it +could just as easily be rescinded in the future. President Obama’s +June 2012 announcement of Deferred Action for Childhood Arrivals +(DACA) granted some youth a similar two-year reprieve during +which they could receive temporary documents, including +permission to work, but with no prediction about what their status +would be at the end of those two years. +Many migrants hope that someday a legal avenue will be opened +for them to regularize their status, as occurred in 1986, and do +everything possible to improve their chances for obtaining legal +status if and when the opportunity arises. Thus, once in the United +States, they are constantly torn between laws they feel they have no +choice but to violate (for instance, laws that prohibit them from +working) and a desire to prove themselves as law abiding and +deserving of legal status. +For this reason, many thousands of undocumented immigrants +apply for and receive Individual Taxpayer ID Numbers (ITINs) that +allow them to file income tax returns each year. They readily appear +in court when cited for traffic violations or the more serious charge +of driving without a license. Yet they continue to work and drive +without official authorization to do so. +SOCIAL SERVICES +The social service network is often a maze of complexity even for +citizens and contributes to the arbitrariness that undocumented + + status entails. Undocumented immigrants are eligible for some types +of benefits, while both the undocumented and temporary +immigrants with legal documents are restricted from others. Since +1996, even legal permanent residents are excluded from many +services. Disentangling what an immigrant is legally eligible for is a +complex task. Furthermore, as people often live in mixed-status +families, different services may be available to different members. +Regulations for welfare, Medicaid, and other types of social services +have struggled to parse the categories and decide exactly what +“lawfully present” means when determining eligibility. Several +pages of the 2011 edition of the United States Code are needed to +explain the various legal statuses and determine which qualify a +person for different types of benefits.11 +The complexity reveals both the legal and moral difficulty of +identifying individuals by status and the confusing questions that +undocumented immigrants face. Why does one government agency +want to help them, while another wants to harm them? Can they be +punished for accepting services that are offered to them? +To further confuse the issue, most social service providers are +trained and eager to make sure that people obtain access to the +services for which they are eligible. Undocumented immigrants may +be overwhelmed with phone calls and urgings to accept certain +benefits, while finding it impossible to access others that are even +more urgently needed. (Of course, this is true for citizens as well.) +The patchwork reflects competing interests in the passage of laws +and the interests of agencies, but, like status itself, presents a +bewildering panorama to those in need. +Immigrants may learn that pregnant women are eligible for the +federal Women, Infants, and Children (WIC) food supplementation +program, but not for the Supplemental Nutrition Assistance Program +(SNAP). One (US-born) child might be eligible for SNAP, while +another (foreign-born) child in the same family is not. +Undocumented children can go to Head Start and to public schools, +but their eligibility for public higher education varies by state. The +Affordable Care Act explicitly excludes the undocumented from + + eligibility, but hospital emergency rooms are still required to +provide care for them. They are not eligible for publicly funded +housing, but can live in such housing if it’s shared with a qualified +family member who is not undocumented. +Because they are ineligible for most publicly funded social +services, and because they are generally reluctant to claim even +those services for which they may be eligible, the undocumented +tend to place fewer costs on the public coffers than would be +expected, given their low incomes. In a careful study of the fiscal +impact of undocumented immigration, the Center for Immigration +Studies concluded that “the primary reason they create a fiscal +deficit is their low education levels and resulting low incomes and +tax payments, not their legal status or heavy use of most social +services.”12 +FRAUDULENT DOCUMENTS +Almost all people who are undocumented in fact possess a spectrum +of valid and fraudulent papers. They may hold a birth certificate, +driver’s license, or passport from their home country, but lack a visa +authorizing their presence in the United States or perhaps hold an +expired visa. +There are many degrees of fraudulence and many methods for +trying to gain access to the documents people need for everyday life. +One of the first documents an undocumented immigrant needs upon +arrival in the United States is a Social Security card. A thriving +underground business in false (and often poorly made) Social +Security cards preys on the newly arrived. For a few hundred +dollars, the forgers simply place the immigrant’s name—or a false +name—along with a random number on a card designed to +approximate an actual card. +Since the E-Verify program has become more common in the past +decade, more undocumented people are finding that they need a +Social Security number with a correctly matched name. Sometimes, +an immigrant can borrow a name and number from a friend or + + relative. Or, for a much higher fee, a forger will sell an immigrant +an actual person’s name and Social Security number. +Puerto Rico has been an especially lucrative source for valid birth +certificates and Social Security numbers with Spanish names. A +person might sell his own documents, those of a child or elder who +is not working, or even those of a person who has died. Or the +documents could be stolen. The buyer—often an undocumented +immigrant in the continental United States—most often just wants a +valid Social Security number that matches the name on the card so +that he or she can work. In some cases, though, the fraud moves +into more aggressive theft, where a person will use the documents +to apply for social services that are available only to citizens or to +obtain tax refunds, loans, or credit in the other person’s name.13 +In 2010, the Puerto Rican government responded to the situation +by invalidating all Puerto Rican birth certificates and requiring +everyone born in Puerto Rico to obtain a new, more secure +document. Many were skeptical that this would end the problem. +One Puerto Rican citizen explained drily, “Money buys everything. . +. . Anyone will do anything for money.”14 +There’s a big difference between using a false number and +identity theft. In a case of identity theft, an individual attempts to +access someone’s bank account, credit card, or other property to +benefit from it. Using a false Social Security number—even if it +happens to belong to someone else—does not give you access to +anything that actually belongs to that person. Rather, when an +employer pays payroll taxes using the false number, the IRS flags +the discrepancy and simply transfers the Social Security payments +into its Earnings Suspense File.15 The person to whom the number +actually belongs is not affected in any way. In recognition of the +ubiquity—and the harmlessness—of the use of false Social Security +numbers, the Obama administration clarified that using a false +Social Security number would not count against a young person +applying for DACA. +Marrying for documents is another strategy that ranges from +legal to illegal, with myriad shades of gray in between. Some + + marriages may be arranged as financial transactions between +strangers solely in hopes of obtaining documents. This practice is +illegal, and ICE prosecutes people who obtain legal residency +through this kind of arranged marriage. But not all marriages of +convenience are fraudulent. No laws govern the amount of love a +person must feel in order to marry; most people who marry do so +for a spectrum of reasons ranging from the emotional to the +extremely practical. There is nothing illegal about marrying for +security, money, prestige, or power. +DRIVING +During the 1980s and ’90s, most states had no rules preventing the +undocumented from obtaining a driver’s license and driving legally. +This changed after 9/11, when suddenly driver’s licenses were +turned into a matter of national security. Millions of people who +had been driving legally, with legitimate licenses, found that driving +had become illegal. +The REAL ID Act of 2005, passed as part of the recommendations +made by the 9/11 Commission, attempted to set a national standard +for driver’s license issuance. Among other things, the act required a +birth certificate or passport with a visa that demonstrated that the +person was in the country legally. The license would then serve as +an electronically readable, federally approved identification card. +The Department of Homeland Security would set the standard and +approve the cards, essentially turning the state-issued driver’s +license into a national identity card. +The act was slated to go into full effect in 2008, but full +implementation was postponed several times. By the end of 2012, +most states were in compliance. Once fully implemented, a driver’s +license from a state not in compliance would not be considered valid +identification for travel, opening a bank account, applying for +benefits or Social Security, or entry into federal buildings. +Driving is such a basic necessity for adult life in most of the +United States that numerous methods have emerged for +undocumented immigrants to obtain a license. Like a Social Security + + card, a false driver’s license can be purchased. A new industry +mushroomed, making false driver’s licenses. Some people used +licenses from their own countries—legal or falsified. Others traveled +to New Mexico or Washington State—two states that still allowed +the undocumented to obtain a license—and claimed residence there. +In Utah, the legislature created a “driver privilege card” in 2005 +for those unable to obtain a driver’s license because they had no +Social Security card. The privilege card cannot serve as official +identification, but it does certify that the holder has passed a driving +test and entitles him or her to drive. Other states, concerned with +the safety problems posed by the proliferation of unlicensed drivers, +experimented with other kinds of driving permits that would evade +the REAL ID Act. Some allowed noncitizens to use a license from +their own country for a limited period of time while in the United +States. +Even immigrants legally authorized to work are not always able +to obtain the license they need. Part of the problem is legislators’ +simple ignorance of the amazing complexity of immigration law and +status. The state of Texas, for example, passed legislation in 2007 +requiring that, in order to obtain a commercial driver’s license, an +applicant must be a citizen, a legal permanent resident, an asylee, or +a refugee, or else provide an I-94 form proving that they crossed the +border legally. But there are many immigrants who are legally +present and have work authorization but don’t fit into those +categories. +A large number of Central Americans in Texas have Temporary +Protected Status, which authorizes their continued presence and +allows them to work even if they were formerly undocumented. +Other undocumented immigrants may have received authorization +to work while they pursue an asylum case. These statuses do not, +however, grant them a permanent status like resident, asylee, or +refugee. Nor do they retroactively create an I-94 form making their +initial entry legal. They give recipients other legal documentation. +When the legislature passed the Transportation Code, however, it +failed to take these other categories into account and thus made it + + impossible for these state residents to obtain or keep their +licenses.16 +In the case of the driver’s license, a fraudulent document is not +generally of much use. Police are trained and motivated to +recognize a fake license, unlike employers, who are usually content +to do the minimal inspection required by law. Many undocumented +immigrants simply drive without one. The consequences, like so +much about immigration law and enforcement, are arbitrary. +Depending on the state, or even the community within a state, an +undocumented, unlicensed driver who is stopped by police might +receive warning or a small fine, or might lose his or her car or be +imprisoned and deported. If a jurisdiction is participating in a +federal program like ICE 287(g) or Secure Communities, which +requires officials to share data on those arrested with ICE, a routine +court appearance might end in incarceration and deportation. In +2010, the New York Times estimated that 4.5 million undocumented +people were driving, mostly without licenses. That year, some thirty +thousand of those stopped for common traffic violations—or even +being involved in an accident in which they were not at fault—were +deported.17 +Some law enforcement agents support the hard-line position. +Republican state senator Chip Rogers of Georgia took a get-tough +attitude in promoting the draconian driving laws in that state. +“There are certain things you can’t do in the state of Georgia if you +are an illegal immigrant,” he said proudly. “One of them is, you +can’t drive.”18 In Los Angeles, however, the police chief joined +Mayor Antonio Villaraigosa and the police commission in +overturning a rule impounding the car of anyone found driving +without a license. The police union protested vociferously, but the +conservative city attorney backed the change.19 +Law enforcement agencies have frequently had very mixed +reactions to federal efforts to toughen immigration policies. In +Framingham, Massachusetts, the police pulled out of the 287(g) +Program two years after adopting it. The police chief, Steven Carl, +“said he signed up two years ago exclusively to tap into federal + + databases to investigate crime, and balked when federal officials +wanted him to detain immigrants, transport them and even testify in +immigration court. Carl said that could hurt the police’s relationship +in the community, where 26 percent are immigrants. ‘It doesn’t +benefit the police department to engage in deportation and +immigration enforcement,’” he explained.20 +In contrast, when Massachusetts governor Deval Patrick +announced his intention to withdraw Massachusetts from the federal +Secure Communities program, the chief of police of Milford, a town +not far from Framingham and, like the latter, home to large +numbers of immigrants, had the opposite reaction. “It takes an +important tool away from police officers, who are trying to perform +a difficult job,” the police chief said. “We need to make it clear to +(people) who are here improperly, and those who are engaged in +employing them, that we need to take this issue seriously.”21 +WHAT EXACTLY IS ILLEGAL? +It’s illegal to cross the border without inspection and/or without +approval from US immigration authorities. As we’ve seen above, +about half of the undocumented population entered the country +illegally (as opposed to entering with inspection and permission, but +overstaying or violating the terms of their visas). Entering the +country illegally is a crime, and a person who does so can be subject +to up to six months in prison. Entering the country again after being +deported is a more serious crime—a felony—punishable by up to +two years in prison. Simply being in the country without +authorization, though, is not in itself a crime but rather a civil +violation, remedied by removal (either voluntary departure or +deportation) rather than a criminal penalty. Unlawful presence +becomes a criminal offense only “when an alien is found in the +United States after having been formally removed or after departing +the US while a removal order was outstanding.”22 +Even when a would-be immigrant is apprehended at the time of +unlawful entry, neither criminal nor civil immigration charges have +generally been pressed. Because the standards for criminal + + prosecution are much higher than for immigration proceedings, the +government has every incentive to keep immigration violations out +of the criminal court system. The immigration court system has a +backlog of hundreds of thousands of cases, which means that an +immigrant sent into that system will likely be subject to a lengthy— +and expensive—detention. +Many immigrants who are apprehended are offered voluntary +departure or voluntary return, meaning that the person leaves the +country without being officially deported. There is no order of +removal, but the person tacitly admits to removability, that is, to +being present without authorization. Under voluntary departure, the +person is given a time limit and permitted to arrange his or her own +departure. Mexicans apprehended at the border are usually granted +voluntary removal, which means that they are bused back to the +border and deposited on the Mexican side.23 For many immigrants, +especially those who have little likelihood of winning an +immigration case, voluntary departure is the preferred route, +although many who depart voluntarily soon attempt to reenter. +Immigrants apprehended in the interior or those apprehended at +the border who do not accept voluntary departure, who are accused +of other crimes or infractions, or who are flagged for other reasons +may instead be subject to formal (involuntary) removal or +deportation. In this case, they must appear before a judge who +orders their deportation.24 Those who are removed are not deemed +guilty of any crime, and removal is not considered a punishment. +Once a person is formally removed, however, attempted reentry +becomes a felony, and unlawful presence too becomes criminalized. +For most of the twentieth century, voluntary departures—mostly +by people apprehended by the Border Patrol and returned (usually +to Mexico) without an official deportation order—were far more +numerous than removals. Since 2006, the number of voluntary +departures has plummeted, from over a million a year down to only +323,000 in 2011, while the number of removals (mostly people +apprehended in the interior) has risen steadily, surpassing 50,000 a + + year for the first time in 1995 and then rising quickly to almost +400,000 a year since President Obama was elected in 2008.25 +Some attribute the decline in border apprehensions to increased +enforcement. The Border Patrol, they point out, grew from nine +thousand agents in 2001 to twenty thousand by the end of 2009, +and twenty-one thousand by 2012, while the Customs and Border +Protection budget rose from about $6 billion in 2004 to about $11 +billion in 2009. (The Border Patrol accounted for about $1.4 billion +of that.) The border wall grew and employed increasingly +sophisticated technology. The purpose of all this so-called +“enforcement” was to discourage potential border crossers from +even trying. Maybe it was working, some argued. Others, though, +attribute the decline to the economic downturn in the United States, +arguing that fewer people are trying to cross the border, as demand +for their labor has declined.26 +Meanwhile, the number apprehended by ICE Enforcement and +Removal Operations inside the country skyrocketed, principally as +the result of the Obama administration’s emphasis on programs for +interior enforcement.27 This meant that many more people with +jobs, lives, and community ties in the United States were being +uprooted and deported. Through 2005, only about 5 percent of +Mexicans deported had been in the United States for over a year. In +2010, two years into President Obama’s first term, over a quarter of +those deported had been in the United States for over a year; in +2011, it was almost half.28 Meanwhile, in 2010, ICE requested $5.5 +billion in discretionary funds for the following year, the majority of +which was designated for detention and deportation.29 Enforcing +illegality was an expensive operation. +WHO BENEFITS FROM ILLEGALITY? +Although illegality resides inherently in the realm of law, it has +significant economic implications, as discussed in the next two +chapters. Employers of low-wage labor benefit from the illegal +status of some workers, as do consumers of low-cost goods and +services. State and local budgets face costs that result from the + + economic marginalization of the undocumented, while federal +programs like Social Security benefit handsomely from payments +into the system by undocumented workers who will never be +eligible for benefits. +Illegality also has significant benefits for the prison system, in +particular, the new and mushrooming private prison system. +Immigration enforcement creates jobs in the prison industry, which +in 2011 employed eight hundred thousand people and cost some +$74 billion a year.30 +But beyond the economic costs and benefits to different sectors of +society, there are other, intangible benefits. Politicians and talkshow hosts have zeroed in on the issue to whip up audiences and +support. +Anti-immigrant +sentiment +and, +especially, +the +demonization of the undocumented can bring votes and attention. +What Leo Chavez calls the “Latino threat narrative” overlaps with +anti-undocumented sentiment, as “Mexican immigration, the +Mexican-origin population, and Latin American immigration in +general [came] to be perceived as a national security threat” in the +1990s.31 The threat narrative, Chavez explains, has been expressed +so repeatedly that its components have become culturally accepted. +Mexican immigrants are “illegal aliens” or criminals, the narrative +suggests. They want to create a “Quebec” (i.e., a culturally and +linguistically distinct region), invade the country, or reconquer the +Southwest. They refuse to learn English or assimilate, procreate too +rapidly, and threaten national security.32 +In addition to attracting votes or increasing ratings, the Latino +threat narrative serves the more subtle purpose of channeling +national anxieties about social inequality; environmental crisis; +economic downturn; lack of access to jobs, housing, health care, and +education; deteriorating social services; and other real issues facing +the US population away from their real causes. Those who benefit +from the status quo would rather have people blame immigrants +than fight for real social and economic change. +DETENTION + + According to the American Civil Liberties Union, the detention of +immigrants has reached “crisis proportions.” “Over the last 15 years, +the detention system more than quintupled in size, growing from +less than 6,300 beds in 1996 to the current capacity of 33,400 beds. +In 2010, the Department of Homeland Security (DHS) held 363,000 +immigrants in detention in over 250 facilities across the country.”33 +Meanwhile, ICE’s detention operations budget jumped from $864 +million in 2005 to over $2 billion in 2012.34 According to Amnesty +International, the use of detention for immigration violations +contradicts international rights law against arbitrary detention. +“Everyone has the right to liberty, freedom of movement, and the +right not to be arbitrarily detained,” Amnesty explained.35 +Immigrant detention sends people into a Kafkaesque netherworld. +Immigration court is a separate entity from the criminal justice +system; it is an administrative court. This means that the whole +body of law designed to protect those accused of crimes and +guarantee them a fair trial does not apply. (An immigrant accused of +a crime does receive those rights in criminal court, however.) In the +immigration detention system, prisoners have few rights and often +lack the means to find out what rights they do have or make use of +these rights. For example, immigrants have the right to be +represented by an attorney, but not at public expense. Many +detainees don’t know that they have the right to representation, +don’t know how to obtain representation, and/or can’t afford it. For +those who do go through deportation hearings, 84 percent lack +representation.36 +Some detained migrants will choose voluntary departure because +it leaves their names clear for a legal entry sometime in the future. +Many are unaware of legal provisions that might authorize them to +remain in the country and have no way to find out about them, +since they have no way to obtain legal counsel. Some choose +voluntary departure to escape lengthy detention, even if they are +convinced that their case to stay could be won if they were to finally +obtain a hearing. Unlike those detained on criminal charges, +immigrants have generally been ineligible to be released on bail.37 + + If they do not choose (or are not offered) voluntary departure, +detainees have the right to a hearing before an immigration judge to +determine whether they can obtain legal permission to remain in +the country. Some detainees may be eligible for political asylum; +others, for parole or prosecutorial discretion based on the lack of a +criminal record, family relationships to citizens or permanent +residents, hardship that would be caused to citizens or permanent +residents (e.g., to their children who are citizens) by their removal, +or other reasons. But without a lawyer to argue their case, +immigrant detainees may have no idea what kinds of arguments +could work in their favor. +Moreover, the deportation procedures for those who reject +voluntary departure are often quite lengthy. While the proceedings +crawl along, the petitioner remains in detention. A study by +Amnesty International found that “immigrants and asylum seekers +may be detained for months or even years as they go through +deportation procedures that will determine whether or not they are +eligible to remain in the United States.” The average was ten +months, but some individuals remained in detention for up to four +years before a decision was reached.38 If the judge who hears the +case rules against them, they will be deported and barred from legal +reentry, usually for ten years. +A new twist in this system emerged at the border in 2005 with +Operation Streamline, described in the introduction, which takes +migrants caught at the border out of the civil immigration system +and lodges criminal border-crossing charges against them. After a +criminal conviction, they are generally sentenced to time served and +returned to ICE for civil removal procedures. The program has been +expanded along the border, so that by 2012 every border sector +participated, with some referring all of those apprehended for +criminal prosecution. Tens of thousands of migrants who would +have been returned to Mexico are now instead detained, tried, and +incarcerated at government expense. While Streamline aims to rush +dozens of cases through each court every day, the size of the +program—some fifty-five thousand prosecutions a year—still means + + that the government requires a large amount of short-term space for +incarceration.39 +Since 2005, the federal government has spent $5.5 billion on +private prison contracts for criminal immigration cases, over $1.4 +billion in 2011 alone.40 At the end of 2011 there were sixty-three +thousand Streamline cases in pretrial detention and twenty-five +thousand convicted and incarcerated.41 District Court Judge Sam +Sparks of the Western District of Texas protested that “[t]he +expenses of prosecuting illegal entry and reentry cases (rather than +deportation) on aliens without any significant criminal record is +simply mind boggling. The US Attorney’s policy of prosecuting all +aliens presents a cost to the American taxpayer that is neither +meritorious nor reasonable.”42 +Streamline and the overall increase of federal prosecution of +immigration violations turned immigration cases into the top federal +crime by 2011.43 Immigration is a highly racialized crime: as +immigration charges began to take up more and more of the federal +criminal caseload, it meant the courts were prosecuting and +convicting more and more Latinos. Hispanics made up more than +half of those arrested on federal charges in 2011.44 +Streamline and other criminal prosecutions account for only a +fraction of immigration arrests. Most of the 391,953 immigrants +removed were apprehended in the interior through ICE enforcement +and apprehension operations, and their removal was ordered by +immigration judges without any involvement of the criminal justice +system. Some of those arrested by ICE enforcement operations inside +the country, though, come into ICE custody with current or prior +criminal charges. +The intersection of criminal law with civil immigration law +creates a web of complexity in which many immigrants and their +attorneys become entangled. Increasingly, criminal charges are +resolved through plea bargains rather than contested in court. In a +plea bargain, the accused agrees to plead guilty to a lesser but still +criminal charge in exchange for receiving a lighter sentence, +frequently a suspended sentence or probation rather than jail time. + + Strikingly, more than 96 percent of those arrested on federal charges +pled guilty in 2011.45 +For an immigrant, though, a criminal conviction on even a minor +charge can render him or her deportable. Legal permanent residents +(green card holders) may also find themselves in immigration +detention if they are convicted of a crime. Or if they are discovered +by immigration authorities to have previously been convicted of a +crime that is a deportable offense. Or even if they are discovered to +have been convicted of a crime that was not a deportable offense at +the time, but later became one. Even decades-old minor drugpossession convictions have become grounds for deportation. +The public defenders that most poor immigrants rely on in +criminal cases generally have little knowledge of immigration law or +the possible implications of a guilty plea. One attorney told the +American Immigration Lawyers Association (AILA): “On the one +hand . . . the immigration matter should not affect the criminal case, +and, from an intellectual purity standpoint, that makes a lot of +sense. But [for the client], that makes no sense at all. It’s part of +their circumstances. . . . I have to be aware of that, and I need to +give advice based upon what their circumstances are.” Public +defenders, AILA explained, rarely have the time or resources to +research the immigration implications of their advice to their +clients. Most are juggling twice as many cases as are allowed by the +American Bar Association. Less than a third worked with +immigration attorneys in their cases involving immigrants, even +though their decisions could directly affect their clients’ +immigration status.46 +RAMPING UP THE NUMBERS +In early 2010, James Chaparro, director of ICE Detention and +Removal Operations (DRO), wrote an internal memo—later +obtained by the Washington Post—noting that while the number of +removals of criminals so far that year had been satisfactory, the +agency’s numbers in removing “non-criminal aliens” were too low. +“As of February 15, 2010, DRO removed or returned 60,397 non- + + criminal aliens which is an average of 437 removals/returns per +day. The current non-criminal removal rate projections will result in +159,740 removals at the close of the fiscal year. Coupling this with +the projections in criminal removals only gives us a total of just over +310,000 overall removals—well under the Agency’s goal of +400,000.” For the first time, the agency had explicitly acknowledged +having an established target.47 +Chaparro insisted that field agents increase the average daily +population in ICE detention facilities to 32,600 and “[i]ncrease the +number of Tier One Non-Criminal Fugitive alien arrests along with +Tier Two arrests (Re-Entry/Reinstatement) in every field office.” He +recommended that each office process thirty to sixty noncriminal +cases per day in a “surge” aimed at meeting deportation quotas.48 +Basically, the memo instructed ICE officers to increase the detention +and deportation of noncriminals and of “criminals” whose only +offense was reentry into the country, in the interest of meeting the +annual deportation goal.49 +Another program that helped ICE increase its numbers in the +Obama years was Secure Communities. Introduced by the Bush +administration and piloted in a number of cities around the country +in late 2008, Secure Communities requires law enforcement +agencies in participating jurisdictions to automatically share with +ICE the fingerprints of anybody arrested. If ICE flags the individual +as potentially deportable, the agency issues a detainer. When the +person is released, he or she is turned over to ICE. The Obama +administration initially stated that participation was voluntary, but +later announced that the program would be required nationwide by +2013. Eighty-three percent of those who come into ICE custody +through Secure Communities are sent to ICE detention centers. +Ninety-three percent are Latino. +Promoters touted the program as a way to “remove dangerous +criminals from your community.”50 However, only about half of +those deported through Secure Communities fit the profile of a +criminal—that is, had been convicted of a crime other than a traffic +or immigration violation. The only violation for 45 percent of those + + deported was being “present without admission”—that is, being +undocumented. Only half of those deported received a hearing +before an immigration judge to determine their deportability. The +other half were simply deported under ICE administrative +procedures or pressured into taking voluntary departure. By late +2011, 226,694 immigrants had come into ICE custody through +Secure Communities.51 +DETENTION, INC. +In addition to ICE itself, there are powerful interests supporting the +detention industry, ranging from private prison companies to +elected officials who see prisons as a boost to local economies. The +Immigration and Naturalization Service (precursor to today’s ICE) +started to contract out its detainees to private prisons in the early +1980s when the detention system started to exceed its capacity of +beds. By 1989, the agency was holding about two thousand people a +day, with five hundred in private facilities.52 Over the past three +decades, immigration violations served as a reliably increasing +source of revenue for private prisons.53 As ICE detention rates +doubled to the current rate of four hundred thousand a year in the +first decade of the twenty-first century, the proportion of +immigration detainees held in privately run detention facilities also +rose, from one-quarter to one-half.54 Private prisons specialize +disproportionately in detaining immigrants, who tend to be young, +healthy, and nonviolent, and therefore among the cheapest and the +most profitable inmates to house.55 +The first private prison company, the Corrections Corporation of +America (CCA, founded in 1983), was poised to benefit from and +promote the increases in criminal sentencing and immigrant +detention in the 1990s. According to Travis Pratt, professor of +criminology at Arizona State University, who studied the private +prison industry’s lobbying campaigns, “The private prisons industry +has a very, very heavy lobby in most states and the federal +government to increase sanctions for a number of offenses. They’ve + + been doing this for a very long time. It’s a multi-million-dollar +lobbying effort. . . . And they’ve been exceptionally successful— +longer sentences for more types of offenses means more inmates, +more inmates means they have to be housed somewhere, which +translates to greater profits for that industry. They have a very clear +agenda there, and they’ve been unapologetic about it. They haven’t +hidden that at all.”56 Between 2002 and 2012, private prison +companies had spent over $45 million in campaign contributions +and lobbying.57 +The GEO Group (founded in 1984) currently runs 109 facilities in +the United States, the United Kingdom, Australia, and South Africa, +with 75,000 beds in the United States; CCA has 60 in the United +States that can hold 90,000 inmates, and Management and Training +Corporation (MTC), founded in 1987, runs 22 prisons in the United +States with 29,500 beds.58 CCA is the fifth-largest corrections +system in the country, following the federal government and three +states.59 In 2010, GEO and CCA together earned revenues of over +$2.9 billion.60 They have spent millions of dollars lobbying over the +past decade.61 +The private prison industry has a vested interest in increasing +both the criminalization of immigrants and the drug wars that +criminalize African Americans. “Our growth is generally dependent +upon our ability to obtain new contracts to develop and manage +new correctional and detention facilities,” CCA explained to its +shareholders. “The demand for our facilities and services could be +adversely affected by . . . the decriminalization of certain activities +that are currently proscribed by our criminal laws.” In particular, +CCA warned, “any changes with respect to drugs and controlled +substances or illegal immigration could affect the number of persons +arrested, convicted, and sentenced, thereby potentially reducing +demand for correctional facilities to house them.”62 Company +officials were optimistic, though, that ICE would continue to supply +“a significant portion of our revenues.” 63 +The Justice Policy Institute concluded in 2011 that “[w]hile +private prison companies may try to present themselves as just + + meeting existing ‘demand’ for prison beds and responding to current +‘market’ conditions, in fact they have worked hard over the past +decade to create markets for their product. As revenues of private +prison companies have grown over the past decade, the companies +have had more resources with which to build political power, and +they have used this power to promote policies that lead to higher +rates of incarceration.”64 +One avenue they have used is the American Legislative Exchange +Council (ALEC), a “conservative, free-market orientated, limitedgovernment group,” in the words of staff director Michael Hough.65 +Legislators pay $50 a year to join, while companies pay tens of +thousands of dollars for a seat at the table, giving ALEC a total +budget of over $6 million a year. ALEC’s main focus is on drafting +model legislation. Because it does not officially lobby, it doesn’t +have to disclose its activities. Because it’s a nonprofit, corporations +can deduct their donations to the organization.66 +“Is it lobbying when private corporations pay money to sit in a +room with state lawmakers to draft legislation that they then +introduce back home? [ALEC senior director of policy Michael] +Bowman, a former lobbyist, says, ‘No, because we’re not advocating +any positions. We don’t tell members to take these bills. We just +expose best practices. All we’re really doing is developing policies +that are in model bill form.’”67 +At an ALEC meeting in late 2009, Arizona senator Russell Pearce +first presented his proposal for what became the state’s radical antiimmigrant Senate Bill 1070, and a draft for the model legislation +was outlined. S.B. 1070 required immigrants to carry proof of their +documentation at all times and required local law enforcement +officials to detain immigrants unable to produce such documents. +After it became law in April 2010, S.B. 1070 became the prototype +for anti-immigrant legislation passed in Georgia, Alabama, Indiana, +South Carolina, and Utah in the following years. +Two representatives of CCA, which clearly stood to benefit from +the bill, sat at the table where the text was agreed upon. “Asked if +the private companies usually get to write model bills for the + + legislators, Hough said, ‘Yeah, that’s the way it’s set up. It’s a publicprivate partnership. We believe both sides, businesses and +lawmakers should be at the same table, together.’” 68 +ALEC and CCA influence was evident not only in the shaping of +the legislation, but in the response among legislators: “As soon as +Pearce’s bill hit the Arizona statehouse floor in January . . . thirtysix co-sponsors jumped on, a number almost unheard of in the +capitol. . . . Two-thirds of them either went to that December +meeting or are ALEC members.” Furthermore, a report continued, +“thirty of the 36 co-sponsors received donations over the next six +months, from prison lobbyists or prison companies—Corrections +Corporation of America, Management and Training Corporation and +The Geo Group.” Two of Arizona governor Jan Brewer’s top advisers +were former lobbyists for private prison companies.69 Referring to +the passage of S.B. 1070, the president of GEO Group stated, “I can +only believe the opportunities at the federal level are going to +continue apace as a result of what’s happening. Those people +coming across the border and getting caught are going to have to be +detained and that for me, at least I think, there’s going to be +enhanced opportunities for what we do.”70 Indeed, CCA and GEO +Group doubled their revenues from the immigration detention +business between 2005 and 2012.71 +Depressed communities can see private prisons as engines of +economic opportunity. One such area is Pinal County, Arizona. CCA +is the largest employer in the county, where five facilities hold up to +three thousand detainees a day.72 “The expanding prison +populations have allowed small towns to carry budget surpluses in a +state that has otherwise been pummeled by the recession,” explains +journalist Chris Kirkham. “Prison communities have largely avoided +the dire economic straits suffered by Arizona communities in every +direction, where the housing bust and subsequent foreclosure crisis +have ravaged local government coffers.” +The Pinal County town of Florence, with a population of 7,800, +also houses 17,000 detainees. Flush with state revenues from the +prison industry—$5.2 million in 2011—the town has been able to + + offer services and build infrastructure like skate parks, dog parks, +and sports fields. Deputy town manager Jess Knudson bragged that +Florence was “one of the few towns in Arizona that has been able to +stay in the black with this recession.” For Florence, as well as +neighboring Eloy and other Arizona communities, “boosting the +prison population has emerged as a primary economic development +strategy.” The county too has a financial incentive—$2 per day per +prisoner, which adds up to over a million dollars a year—and +County Sheriff Paul Babeu has been a champion for ramped-up +immigrant detentions.73 +In rural Irwin County in Georgia, the privately run Irwin +Detention Center was the county’s top employer. As the prison +population dwindled in 2009, the county teamed up with the +company that ran the prison to seek a contract with ICE. +Paradoxically, said a report in the Nation, “even as Georgia and +Alabama passed harsh new immigration laws last year designed to +keep out undocumented immigrants . . . politicians from both states +were lobbying hard to bring immigrant detainees in. ICE succumbed +to the pressure, sending hundreds of detainees to the financially +unstable facility in Georgia that promised to detain immigrants +cheaply.”74 +CONCLUSION +Undocumented people face a veneer of ordinary life undergirded by +permanent uncertainty. In the film El Norte, Nacha, a more seasoned +undocumented Mexican woman, tries to convince Rosa, a newly +arrived Guatemalan, to sign up for English classes, free and offered +by the government. Rosa worries that the school will turn her in to +immigration, and Nacha reassures her that it won’t. “Don’t try to +understand the gringos,” she laughs. “It will drive you crazy.” Since +the situation and the policies are essentially incomprehensible, the +best an undocumented person can do is try to survive day by day +and hope for the best. + + CHAPTER 5 + + Working (Part 1) +You won’t have your names when you ride the big airplane +All they will call you will be “deportees”. . . +Is this the best way we can grow our big orchards? +Is this the best way we can grow our good fruit? +—“Plane Wreck at Los Gatos (Deportee),” 1948 +Words by Woody Guthrie; music by Martin Hoffman1 +As we have seen, work has been central to the Mexican experience +in the United States since the nineteenth century, and Mexican +workers have been critical to the growth of the US economy. Prior +to 1965, racism and the law—including government-run guestworker programs like the Bracero Program—enabled and justified +unequal treatment for Mexican workers. +After 1965, when the Bracero Program ended and numerical +restrictions were placed on Mexican immigration, new systems and +rationales were needed to maintain the supply of cheap Mexican +labor. Undocumentedness took on a new importance in the labor +market, replacing earlier methods of legally compartmentalizing +Mexican labor. The undocumented were channeled into the same +types of jobs that Mexicans had long occupied. Reflecting the new +significance of undocumentedness, the 1986 Immigration Reform +and Control Act (IRCA) was both the first legislative attempt in the +country’s history to address this issue and the first immigration +legislation to specifically address the issue of work, making it illegal +for employers to hire workers who lacked documents. +At first glance, this may seem paradoxical. If undocumented +Mexican labor was so necessary, why make it illegal? But IRCA +made it illegal with a large wink. Employers were required to obtain +proof of eligibility to work from new hires, but they were not +required to evaluate the documents they were shown. They could be +punished for knowingly hiring undocumented workers, but usually +only received a small fine. IRCA, it turned out, was more for show + + than for changing the country’s labor structure. It was a bumbling +intervention that succeeded in making migrant workers more +vulnerable, while actually contributing to increasing the numbers of +the undocumented. +Though they comprise a small proportion of the overall +workforce (about 5 percent), workers without documents continue +to occupy crucial niches in the economy.2 This chapter and the next +will look at how undocumentedness became an important factor in +the labor market and what kinds of jobs undocumented people fill. +MAKING WORK ILLEGAL +Although the 1965 immigration law made it illegal for many +Mexicans to enter or remain in the United States, it did not +specifically prohibit undocumented people from working, nor did it +forbid employers to hire them. The 1952 immigration law known as +the McCarran-Walter Act had made it illegal to “conceal” or +“harbor” a person who was undocumented, but not to employ them. +The law included the so-called “Texas Proviso”—to satisfy Texas +business interests that depended on undocumented Mexican workers +—stipulating that employment “shall not be deemed to constitute +harboring.” Thus, in the words of the Immigration and +Naturalization Service general counsel, “there was no prohibition at +all on employment of illegal aliens.”3 +The idea of criminalizing employment gained ground toward the +end of the century. Senator Peter Rodino introduced the first +national employer sanctions bill in 1973, but it failed to pass in the +Senate. In 1986, though, employer sanctions were a key element of +the new IRCA. Many progressive organizations including the AFLCIO, the NAACP, and the Leadership Council on Civil Rights, a +national coalition of 185 civil rights organizations and the country’s +“premier coordinating mechanism for civil rights advocacy before +Congress and the executive branch,” all supported the idea, +although the Leadership Council was “sharply divided.”4 A century +earlier, the AFL had openly excluded nonwhites from membership. + + Now it joined civil rights organizations in advocating for +discrimination based on citizenship. +In 1990, the NAACP reversed its position after an acrimonious +debate. The AFL-CIO did the same in 2000. Those favoring the +sanctions argued that citizenship should determine rights. The +presence and the hiring of undocumented people, they claimed, +lowered the floor and made it harder for blacks or for American +workers to obtain decent employment. If it became more difficult +for the undocumented to work, they reasoned, employers would +have to improve conditions and employ citizen workers. “If you +withdraw those sanctions, then you open the door and you flood +this state with a multitude of undocumented aliens who will take +the jobs of blacks and other minorities,” one NAACP branch +president explained.5 +For Latino organizations, though, employer sanctions are a civil +rights issue, and discrimination based on status is both harmful to +workers in general and conducive to racial discrimination. (It is +notable that to be heard in the public sphere, immigrant rights +advocates must often frame their arguments in terms of racial +discrimination—showing, for example, that anti-immigrant policies +contribute to racial profiling—since the idea that humans deserve +equal rights regardless of citizenship status is practically untenable +in today’s climate.) Armed with a March 1990 GAO report that +found a “widespread pattern of discrimination,” especially against +Latinos and Asians who were thought to look “foreign,” Latino +organizations launched a campaign to press the Leadership Council +and the NAACP to withdraw their support for the sanctions. Both +organizations eventually did so.6 +Opponents reversed the argument about the sanctions protecting +citizen workers from a feared flood of the undocumented. Instead, +they insisted that the sanctions themselves lowered the floor for +everyone. By making a large group of workers more vulnerable to +exploitation—because they have little recourse under the law— +sanctions enable employers to lower wages and working conditions, +with little fear that workers will protest or organize. Thus, the + + sanctions paradoxically make undocumented immigrants a more +desirable workforce, because the sanctions make them more +desperate and more willing to accept substandard working +conditions. +Nicholas De Genova argues that, while billed as “employer” +sanctions, the system actually targeted the workers, not the +employers. Potential workers had to purchase false documents, and +a new industry emerged to produce them. Employers still hired +them, but now they were triply vulnerable: to the document +industry, to the employer, and to the possibility of arrest and +deportation. Rather than punishing employers—who were routinely +given warnings prior to inspections of their hiring records or subject +to token fines, at most—the law instead placed new burdens and +new penalties on the workers.7 +During the Bush administration, workplace raids became the +major public face of immigration enforcement. These were highprofile operations that let government authorities bask in the public +impression they created that they were getting tough on +immigration. The Michael Bianco, Inc., factory in New Bedford, +Massachusetts, in March 2007; the Agriprocessors plant in Postville, +Iowa, in May 2008; Swift (at multiple sites) and Smithfield (North +Carolina) meatpacking plants in December 2006 and January 2007; +and Howard Industries electronics plant in Laurel, Mississippi +(August 2008), were the sites of just a few of the many raids. +Immigration authorities would descend upon the workplace and +round up workers, arresting hundreds. The largest were the Swift +raids, where over twelve hundred workers were arrested in a sweep +of six plants. +Barack Obama publicly criticized the raids when he was a +candidate for president, proclaiming during his convention speech +that “I don’t know anyone who benefits when a mother is separated +from her infant child.” But he also defended enforcement of +sanctions, continuing to decry the effects when “an employer +undercuts American wages by hiring illegal workers.”8 As a senator, +he pressed for E-Verify, a federal program designed to electronically + + detect fraudulent documents and prevent the hiring of the +undocumented. +As president, Obama pursued a policy during his first term that +some have termed “silent raids.” Instead of descending on the +workplace and making arrests, the new policy used audits. ICE +would require a business to turn over employment eligibility forms +for all of its workers. “Since January 2009,” the Wall Street Journal +reported in May 2012, “the Obama administration has audited at +least 7,533 employers suspected of hiring illegal labor and imposed +about $100 million in administrative and criminal fines—more +audits and penalties than were imposed during the entire George W. +Bush administration.”9 With the audits, workers are not deported. +But they do lose their jobs. +UNDOCUMENTED JOBS +Most undocumented people work in three specific types of jobs, all +of which tend to be low wage and low status, offer few if any +benefits, have difficult or unstable schedules, and offer little job +security. They may be seasonal or involve night shifts. The work is +generally heavy, unpleasant, dirty, and even dangerous. +Agricultural jobs, especially in plantation and other large-scale +enterprises, have always occupied a special low status and employed +many legally excluded workers. As large-scale agriculture spread +through the Southwest in the twentieth century, migrant Mexican +workers became the primary labor force. Today, 42 percent of +agricultural workers work as migrants—that is, they follow the +crops. Seventy-five percent of farm workers were born in Mexico, +with 2 percent born in Central America and 23 percent in the United +States.10 Only about 4 percent of undocumented immigrants work in +agriculture, but they make up somewhere between 25 percent and +90 percent of all agricultural workers.11 The National Agricultural +Worker Survey conducted by the US Department of Labor has +consistently found approximately 50 percent of agricultural workers +as undocumented over the past twenty years.12 Some analysts, such +as Rob Williams of the Migrant Farmworker Justice Project, believe + + that the percentage is even higher, up to 90 percent or more, since +many people when interviewed will not admit to being +undocumented.13 The seasonal and back-breaking nature of farm +work, along with dangerous, often unregulated conditions and low +pay, make these jobs unattractive to potential workers who have the +advantage of citizenship. Most farm workers only find work for +about thirty weeks of the year and earn $12,500 to $15,000 +annually.14 +Second, undocumented people work at jobs that have been insourced or relocated within the United States, as companies attempt +to resurrect the kinds of conditions they enjoyed before unionization +and government regulation began to cut into their profits. A major +example is the meatpacking industry, which closed down unionized +plants in major urban areas to relocate in the rural Midwest. As +these jobs became more unattractive—because they were relocated +to areas where workers did not want to move and because they +downgraded working conditions and pay—the plants too began to +recruit heavily among undocumented immigrants. +Many of these in-sourced jobs differ from agricultural work +because they are year-round instead of seasonal. Their rise coincides +with a growing long-term, not seasonal migration of undocumented +workers and a growing shift from the historic seasonal migration +areas of California and the Southwest into the Midwest and +especially the South. Despite poor wages and working conditions, +many immigrants consider these jobs a step up from agriculture.15 +Another type of in-sourcing has occurred in the construction +industry, which employs almost one in five undocumented +immigrants—about a million in the first decade of the twenty-first +century.16 During the long construction boom between 1970 and +2006, total employment more than doubled to 7.7 million before +declining sharply in the housing-led recession.17 The thriving +construction industry in urban centers like Nevada and post-Katrina +New Orleans attracted large numbers of undocumented immigrants. +Third, new job categories in the service sector have emerged in +recent decades. Fast-food service, newspaper delivery, and + + landscaping are three areas with exploding demand for low-paid, +contingent workers. Changing lifestyles including increased pressure +on the middle class, rising expectations for consumption, and the +entry of women into the workforce have created whole new sectors +of the economy that have relied heavily on undocumented workers. +Steve Striffler notes, “Latinos are becoming virtually synonymous +with food preparation and cleanup in our nation’s restaurants. To +find a meal that has not at some point passed through the hands of +Mexican immigrants is a difficult task.”18 Chicken, for example, +boomed in popularity in the 1980s and ’90s, as it was transformed +from a low-profit farm product that was generally sold whole or in +parts to a highly processed—and highly profitable—manufactured +commodity in forms like nuggets and fingers. And who does the +processing in the new plants that have created our contemporary +incarnation of chicken? In large numbers, and across the country, it +is Mexican and Central American workers, many of them +undocumented. +AGRICULTURE +As fruit and vegetable agriculture spread in California at the end of +the nineteenth century, farmers sought a labor force that would be +as tractable and exploitable as African slaves had been in the South, +or even better, one that would be there only when needed for the +labor-intensive seasons. “A California farm spokesman in 1872 +observed that hiring seasonal Chinese workers who housed +themselves and then ‘melted away’ when they were not needed +made them ‘more efficient . . . than negro labor in the South +[because] it [Chinese labor] is only employed when actually needed, +and is, therefore, less expensive’ than slavery.”19 +When the Chinese Exclusion Act of 1882 eliminated that option a +decade later, agriculturalists turned to Mexicans. Seasonal farm +labor increased rapidly over the course of the century as farming +centralized. Worker mobility, writes Don Mitchell, was built into the +system. He quotes Harry Drobish of the California Relief +Administration, who wrote in 1935 that “the nature of crop + + plantings . . . compels labor mobility.”20 However, as Mitchell +argues, Drobish attributed to “nature” what was actually a result of +economic structure. Human decisions and policies, not nature, +underlay the development of California’s agricultural system.21 +A report to Truman’s Commission on Migratory Labor in 1951 +noted the shift away from small farms relying on family labor and +the rapid growth of large farms making heavy use of migrant labor. +Earlier, most farms used no hired workers or one or two permanent +employees. By 1951, more and more were using large numbers of +seasonal workers.22 +American workers didn’t want these jobs. As the commission +reported, “The American farm worker is still legally and morally +responsible to feed his family every day.” With seasonal work, “it is +almost impossible for him to meet American standards of life.”23 But +employers had little use for permanent workers: “When the work is +done, neither the farmer nor the community wants the wetback +around.”24 Furthermore, agricultural employers preferred a kind of +“feudal” relationship that they could only enjoy with migrants. They +“do not care for workers who may voice complaints in regard to +working conditions, housing, or sanitary facilities. They want only +those people who will go quietly about their work and make no +comments or objections. They want the Mexican worker who has +just come across the border and is strange to our language and ways +of life. They find that the Mexican who has been in this country for +some time and become acquainted with our free customs is no +longer suited to the economic and social status of a stoop laborer.”25 +The Bracero Program, starting in 1942, was a building block in +the establishment of the California agricultural system based on a +highly exploitative labor process.26 Migratory labor was “the +essential labor force” at the basis of this system.27 And not only +migratory labor: frequently and cyclically, these migratory workers +were undocumented. As geographer Don Mitchell shows, the +existence of a large pool of “officially invisible” undocumented +workers was crucial to the functioning of the Bracero Program and +tacitly acknowledged by those administering and benefiting from it. + + Farmers could request Bracero contract workers even as they +enjoyed a surplus of available (but officially invisible) +undocumented migrants. This permanently renewed oversupply of +labor “was not a privilege big California growers wanted to +relinquish lightly.”28 +As Mitchell illustrates, there was never a labor shortage in +California agriculture. California agribusiness depended on workers +who were cheap, temporary, and exploitable, and on government +policies that ensured their continued access to these workers both as +braceros and as undocumented migrants.29 +“For growers, a productive, living landscape required that +workers become more and more mere vessels of labor power . . . +[and] less and less living, breathing people.”30 The Bracero system +contributed simultaneously to “the destabilization of working +people” and “the stabilization of the profitable landscape: it saved +the crops—precisely because it destroyed lives.”31 As geographer +Richard Walker points out, the enormous prosperity of California’s +agriculture should—or at least could—have improved the lives of +workers as well. It didn’t. “Low-wage labor has been systematically +built into labor relations and the reproduction of capital. . . . The +low wages of farm labor are an important factor in the continuing +profitability of California agribusiness.”32 +With the end of the Bracero Program in 1964, undocumented +workers came to the fore as the migrant agricultural labor force. The +program was phased out gradually between 1965 and 1967, so that +it ended completely just as the limit of 120,000 immigrants per year +from the Western Hemisphere—the first numerical limit ever—went +into effect.33 As described in chapter 2, by 1965 the program was no +longer necessary because the flow of undocumented workers was +large enough to fulfill the needs of agribusiness.34 Seasonal +migration continued unabated, except that now even former +braceros migrated without documents.35 Some scholars termed the +post-1965 system of undocumented migration a “de facto guestworker program.”36 + + The special provisions for farm workers in the Immigration +Reform and Control Act (IRCA) of 1986 highlighted the special need +for undocumented—“illegal”—workers in agriculture. To apply for +legal status, most migrants (mostly Mexicans) had to prove that they +had been in the United States continuously since 1982. This +provision rested on the same rationale that previous legalizations (of +Europeans) had relied upon: that length of residence could outweigh +technical irregularities in means of arrival and justify legalization. +However, the provisions for agricultural workers were different: +instead of requiring the four years of continuous residence, the act +offered legal status to migrant farm workers who had simply been +employed in agriculture for at least ninety days during the 1985– +1986 season. (Or, as shown earlier, who could provide false +documents stating that this was the case.) The law made this +exception precisely because it acknowledged agriculture’s reliance +on these migrant workers. +The employer sanctions provision of IRCA contributed to a shift +away from direct employment and to the use of Farm Labor +Contractors. The use of FLCs increased from about one-third of +farms hiring migrant labor in the mid-1980s to over half in the early +1990s.37 This system allowed employers to evade legal +responsibility for the workers they relied on. As Philip Martin +concludes, “FLCs are practically a proxy for the employment of +undocumented workers and egregious or subtle violations of labor +laws.”38 He noted that while the US manufacturing sector shrank in +the 1980s, the agricultural sector expanded, as farmers continued to +be confident of their ability to rely on low-wage labor. Immigrant +workers earning below poverty-level wages subsidized the +expansion of an agribusiness model that increased poverty at the +same time that it increased profits.39 +The IRCA contributed to the growth of the FLC system in three +ways. Employer sanctions encouraged farmers to seek third parties +to take the risks of employing laborers. Many former migrant +workers, now legalized under the SAW Program, took advantage of +their new status to become FLCs. Finally, the rise of the FLC system + + coincided with the shift from Mexico’s traditional sending regions to +new, indigenous areas in southern Mexico and Guatemala, in which +the FLCs served as important recruiters and intermediaries.40 +A temporary labor force that will simply move on when the work +dwindles at the end of the season may seem ideal from an +employer’s perspective. For the workers, though, such a life is +characterized by poverty, uncertainty, and long periods of +unemployment. The Economist in 2010 noted the parallels between +today’s Mexican migrants and the desperate “Okies” who migrated +during the Depression in their struggle to find work, comparing a +contemporary Mexican migrant family, the Vegas, to the Joads in +John Steinbeck’s Grapes of Wrath: +Often they take the same roads on which the “Okies” travelled +en masse in the 1930s as they fled the depressed dust bowl of +Oklahoma, Texas and Arkansas to seek a living in California. +These Okies are forever etched into America’s psyche. . . . +Joads then and Vegas now are pushed by the same need, +pulled by the same promise. Now as then, there is no clearing +house for jobs in the fields, so the migrants follow tips and +rumours. Often, like the Joads, they end up in the right places +at the wrong times. Felix Vega and three of his group, +including his wife, were dropped off in Oxnard, famous for its +strawberries. But they arrived out of season, so they slept on +the streets, then in a doghouse, then in somebody’s car. For +two months they did not bathe and barely ate. Finally, they +found jobs picking strawberries and made their first money in +America.41 +In the summer of 2010, the United Farm Workers decided to +confront the myth that “they [immigrants] take our jobs” directly. +The union organized a campaign called “Take Our Jobs,” inviting +citizens and green-card holders to apply for agricultural work. The +campaign got an extra publicity boost when comedian Stephen +Colbert took up the challenge and then testified to Congress about +the experience. Three months into the campaign, the union + + announced that its website, takeourjobs.org, had been visited by 3 +million people; 8,600 had expressed an interest in a job in +agriculture, but only 7 had actually followed through. “These +numbers demonstrate that there are more politicians and fingerpointers interested in blaming undocumented farm workers for +America’s unemployment crisis than there are unemployed +Americans who are willing to harvest and cultivate America’s food,” +the Farm Workers concluded.42 +In 2010 the US Department of Agriculture published an analysis +of the probable impact of increased immigration enforcement on the +US agricultural sector. The report cited the common figure that over +half of the agricultural labor force consisted of undocumented +Mexican workers.43 A reduction in undocumented migrant labor +would lead to rising labor costs, the report concluded, and different +scenarios, depending on the characteristics of the crop. Where the +potential +existed, +mechanization +would +spread. +Where +mechanization was not an option, farmers would face market loss +due to higher costs. Finally, new research in mechanization and +rising consumer prices would likely result. It is notable that in no +case did the report foresee improved working conditions or rising +employment of domestic workers in agriculture.44 +“The US fruit and vegetable industry competes in a global +economy with producers from other countries who often have much +lower wages. With increasing trade, competitive pressures are +greater than ever. In summer 2009, the Federal minimum wage was +$7.25 per hour and the minimum wage in California was $8.00 per +hour, while the minimum wage in Mexico ranged from $3.49 to +$4.16 per day, depending on the region,” the report explained.45 It’s +no surprise that so many of the fruits and vegetables we find in the +supermarket are labeled “Product of Mexico.” +Labor’s share made up 42 percent of the variable production +costs for fruit and vegetable farms, and labor is the “single largest +input cost” for many crops. Moreover, said the USDA report, “most +[farm workers] will move on to nonagricultural employment within +a decade of beginning to work in the fields.”46 Thus, agribusiness + + interests see a continuing supply of (undocumented) migrant +workers as essential to their continued production and have lobbied +heavily for a century to ensure that this supply continues to be +available to them. As another USDA report put it bluntly: “The +supply of farmworkers for the US produce industry depends on a +constant influx of new, foreign-born labor attracted by wages above +those in the workers’ countries of origin, primarily Mexico. +Immigration policy helps to determine whether the produce +industry’s labor force will be authorized or unauthorized.”47 +The State of Kansas sought in 2012 to develop a system of its +own to legalize undocumented farm workers.48 Georgia’s farmers +panicked in the summer of 2011, when a new law made it a felony +for an undocumented person to apply for work. The Georgia +Department of Agriculture wrote that “[n]on-resident immigrant +laborers, those of legal and illegal status, harvest crops, milk cows, +gin cotton and maintain landscapes. Georgia farmers and +agribusiness employers widely attribute the need for these workers +due to the fact that local citizens do not generally possess or care to +develop the specialized skills associated with agriculture and, +further do not regularly demonstrate the work ethic necessary to +meet the productivity requirements of the farm business.”49 A +majority of Georgia farm employers hired laborers for a limited +period of one to three months, another reason that citizen workers +are reluctant to take these jobs.50 +One season after the passage of Georgia’s new law, 26 percent of +farmers answered that they had lost income because of the lack of +available labor for their farms. For some specialty crops like laborintensive fruits and vegetables (blueberries, cabbage, cantaloupe, +cucumbers, eggplant, peppers, squash, tobacco, and watermelon), +over 50 percent were in that situation.51 Fifty-six percent said they +had trouble finding qualified workers.52 “A major response theme +for this question was that the work is too physically demanding and +difficult for US citizens (non-immigrants). Respondents believe that +only immigrant workers are willing to do the tasks needed in their +operations.”53 + + Productivity was also an issue. “Producers expressed great +concern with the quality of work from domestic workers.” +According to data provided by one onion producer, “A migrant +worker was twice as productive as a non-migrant worker in planting +Vidalia onions.”54 As one Georgia farmer remarked, “American +workers are not interested in getting dirty, bloody, sweaty, working +weekends & holidays, getting to work at 4 a.m. 2 mornings a week +& at 6 a.m. 5 mornings a week.”55 +Experiments with criminal offenders who are out on probation— +and required to work as a condition of their probation—backed up +the farmer’s opinion. One crew leader “put the probationers to the +test . . . assigning them to fill one truck and a Latino crew to a +second truck. The Latinos picked six truckloads of cucumbers +compared to one truckload and four bins for the probationers. ‘It’s +not going to work,’ [the crew leader] said. ‘No way. If I’m going to +depend on the probation people, I’m never going to get the crops +up.’”56 +As Philip Martin explains, most workers won’t spend more than +ten years working in agriculture. “As it is currently structured, fruit +and vegetable agriculture requires a constant inflow of workers from +abroad who are willing to accept seasonal farm jobs.”57 Farm labor +is so marginal, strenuous, and low paid, that if workers achieve legal +status, they quickly move into other sectors. Thus “farmers and their +political allies . . . oppose simply legalizing unauthorized workers, +which would enable them to get nonfarm jobs. Instead, farmers +agree to legalization only in exchange for large guest-worker +programs that give employers considerable control of foreign +workers.”58 +Sixty years ago the folk singer–songwriter Woody Guthrie asked +somewhat rhetorically, “Is this the best way we can grow our big +orchards? Is this the best way we can grow our good fruit?” In the +ensuing half-century, the United States has only deepened its +“modern agricultural dilemma.” It has devised a vast and +multifaceted agricultural system that depends upon desperate +workers for its survival. True, for many Mexicans—from the Bracero + + days to the present—low-wage, temporary, migrant labor in the +United States offers a viable or even hopeful alternative to poverty +at home. But this merely means that the US agricultural system +depends upon the existence of a lot of extremely poor people in +Mexico.59 +While modern large-scale agricultural systems produce vast +amounts of food, they have also created large-scale problems: “high +capital costs; environmental deterioration of farmland through +erosion, salinization, compaction, and chemical overload; pesticide +and chemical fertilizer pollution of lakes, streams, and groundwater; +unhealthy working conditions for farm workers, farmers, and farm +families; dependence on an extremely narrow and destabilizing +genetic base in major crops; dependence on nonrenewable mineral +and energy resources; the destruction of rural communities; and the +increasingly concentrated control of the nation’s food supply.”60 +Other critiques examine the consumption side: the increasing +reliance on overprocessed, high-sugar, and fatty foods, fast food and +junk food, and the lifestyle diseases like heart disease and diabetes +that have resulted.61 +As we in the United States confront the problems in our +agricultural and food production system, the problem of labor +scarcity and continued reliance on impoverished, undocumented +workers has to be central to the discussion. Given the way the +agricultural system currently works, farm labor is so precarious and +so harsh that only displaced migrants, the majority of them +rendered illegal by US laws, are willing and able to carry it out. +Paradoxically, most of these migrants were in fact displaced from +centuries-old systems of subsistence agriculture in Mexico by +precisely the same agricultural modernization that now demands +their labor elsewhere. A truly comprehensive approach to +immigration reform would look at these interlocking economic and +structural systems, not merely make more narrow changes in +immigration law. +We must recognize the basic irrationality, immorality, and +unsustainability of the food production system. Farmers + + overwhelmingly oppose the harsh state-level immigration laws that +make it more difficult for them to find the seasonal workers they +need. In the short term, simply making it legal for immigrants to +work in agriculture would address the needs of both farmers and +immigrant farm workers who are undocumented. The larger +problems await a longer-term and more profound reform of the +global agricultural system. We can begin by acknowledging that our +access to relatively cheap and abundant food in the United States +exists because of the hard labor of poor Mexicans, in their country +and in our own. + + CHAPTER 6 + + Working (Part 2) +If the US agricultural system has relied on Mexican labor as it +developed over many decades, meat processing and construction are +two industries that shifted to heavy use of Mexican and Central +American—and, in particular, undocumented—immigrants at the +end of the twentieth century. This shift coincided with the trend of +outsourcing, when manufacturing plants began to shift their laborintensive production abroad. Manufacturing employment declined +from a high of 20 million in 1979 to 11 million in 2012.1 +Meatpacking and construction couldn’t exactly be moved abroad. +But meatpacking could be moved out of heavily unionized urban +centers like Chicago into the rural Midwest. Construction boomed in +new regions, with employment doubling between 1970 and 2006 to +a high of 7.7 million.2 Both industries increasingly employed +immigrant, and undocumented, workers. +CONSTRUCTION +While the manufacturing sector was shrinking in the last decades of +the twentieth century, construction was expanding. But this industry +was also changing profoundly. Unionization plummeted, from 40 +percent in the 1970s to only 14 percent in 2011. Unions lost ground +especially in the high-growth area of residential construction, which +was being buoyed by low interest rates and subprime loans through +the first decade of the new century. But as employment rose, +working conditions and wages deteriorated. Immigrants and +especially undocumented workers increased their presence in the +workforce.3 The low wages of undocumented workers helped +contribute to the housing bubble by making building costs +artificially cheap.4 +In Las Vegas, the population doubled to almost 2 million between +1990 and 2007, and the share of immigrants in the city’s population +also doubled during the same time span from 9 percent to 19 +percent. Many of the newcomers worked in hotel construction and + + tourism-related services in the booming city: half of the state’s +construction workers were Latino immigrants. By 2008, Nevada had +the largest percentage of undocumented workers of any state, 12 +percent.5 +Houston’s 1970s oil boom likewise spurred a jump in +construction. “The record-breaking construction of office buildings, +shopping centers, storage facilities, apartment projects, and +suburban homes in the 1970s and early 1980s created an insatiable +demand for Mexican immigrant labor. Undocumented workers from +rural and urban Mexico became a preferred labor force, especially +among construction employers who paid low wages and offered +poor working conditions.”6 The Greater Houston Partnership +estimated that 14 percent of Houston’s construction workforce was +undocumented in 2008, more than any other job category.7 +In Texas as a whole, one in thirteen workers—about a million +total—labored in the construction industry as of 2013. Half of them +are undocumented. A study by the Workers Defense Project in +Austin showed that 41 percent of Texas construction workers are +subject to payroll fraud, including being illegally classified as +independent contractors instead of employees. Employers use this +method to evade their legal responsibilities for payroll taxes, +minimum wages, working conditions, and benefits. Working +conditions are so dangerous that one in five construction workers in +the state will require hospitalization for job-related injuries. “More +construction workers die in Texas than in any other state,” the study +discovered.8 +In New Orleans, only days after Hurricane Katrina hit, the federal +government waived employer sanctions provisions, allowing +employers to hire workers without documents. Soon after, it waived +prevailing federal wage standard requirements for contractors +working on federally funded reconstruction projects. These +exemptions set the stage for an influx of low-paid, undocumented +workers.9 US census figures showed that some one hundred +thousand Hispanics moved into the Gulf Coast after Katrina. +Hispanics made up half of the labor force working in reconstruction, + + and half were undocumented. Undocumented workers formed “the +backbone of post-Hurricane Katrina reconstruction,” reported USA +Today.10 Curiously, while the workers remained undocumented, it +was ostensibly not illegal for them to work, at least during the first +month and a half, because of the employer sanctions waiver. +Overall, undocumented workers made up a quarter of the +workforce in New Orleans in the months following the hurricane.11 +Almost 90 percent were already in the United States and moved to +New Orleans from other areas, primarily Texas (41 percent) and, to +a lesser extent, Florida (10 percent).12 Unsurprisingly, +undocumented workers faced lower wages and poorer working and +living conditions than those with documents. +When Hurricane Ike hit southeastern Texas in 2008, +undocumented immigrants performed a significant portion of the +cleanup work. “All across southeast Texas, roofs need repair, debris +must be discarded and towns hope to rebuild. Hurricane Ike’s +destruction is sparking one of the largest rebuilding efforts the state +has seen in decades, but at the same time is highlighting a thorny +facet of the region’s labor force: A lot of the recovery work will be +done by illegal immigrants,” reported the Houston Chronicle.13 +When the housing boom went bust after 2008, strangely, +statistics showed that construction wages began to rise. What was +actually happening was that the lower-paid newcomers were the +first to lose their jobs, so that the rise in wages was more apparent +than real. Individual workers weren’t receiving better wages; there +were just fewer construction workers employed overall.14 +MEATPACKING +Like construction, meatpacking is an industry that is very difficult to +outsource. In some ways, the work process in meatpacking more +resembles that of other large manufacturing plants than it does +construction, in which most workers are employed by small +companies and contractors. But while industries like textiles or +electronics can transport the raw materials and the finished +products over long distances to save on the costs of production, this + + strategy is not practical for dealing with a perishable, bulky, and +sometimes cantankerous product. So like construction, meatpacking +has relied on bringing immigrant workers to the point of +production, rather than sending production to countries where it is +cheaper. +Lance Compa summarizes how in-sourcing happened in +Nebraska, in a process repeated throughout the Midwest: +From its founding as a territory in 1854 until the late +twentieth century, Nebraska was mostly populated by white +Americans of European origin, joined by a minority of +African-Americans. Omaha was always an important +meatpacking center because of its proximity to livestock and +feedlots. Immigrant workers from southern and eastern +Europe made up most of the meatpacking labor force in the +early twentieth century. In the 1940s and ’50s, the children of +these immigrants, along with African-American coworkers in +key roles, formed strong local unions of the United +Packinghouse Workers. As happened in the industry generally, +in the 1980s and 1990s, many meatpacking businesses closed +plants that provided good wages and benefits. Following +closures, company owners often relocated plants to rural +areas. In Omaha, some companies later reopened closed +factories employing low wage, new immigrant workforces +without trade union representation.15 +Wages in meatpacking fell 45 percent between 1980 and 2007. +The downgrading of meatpacking jobs proved “devastating to the +standard of living for workers in an industry that once sustained a +blue-collar middle class.”16 As both wages and working conditions +deteriorated, immigrant workers became the mainstay of the labor +force. By the late 1990s, fully a quarter of meatpacking workers +were estimated to be undocumented. 17 +In the climate of heightened calls for immigration enforcement, +the meatpacking industry attracted attention. In 1999, the INS +launched Operation Vanguard in Nebraska, subpoenaing the + + employment records of every meatpacker in the state. After +reviewing all 24,000 employee records received, the agency +identified 4,700 cases in which the employee’s legal status was in +doubt. It presented employers with the list and required all of the +“suspects” to appear for interviews with the agency. It seemed clear +to the meatpackers that “INS’s intention was not to apprehend +potentially unauthorized employees, but to ‘chase off’ those workers +who were present in illegal status.”18 +In chasing them off, the operation succeeded. Only one thousand +of the workers dared to appear for their interviews. The others +simply left their jobs. Overnight, the state’s meatpacking industry +lost 13 percent of its workforce. Meanwhile, of the one thousand +interviewed, thirty-four were determined to be unauthorized to +work and were arrested and deported. “Meatpacking company +officials . . . believe that a substantial number of these employees +[who disappeared] were authorized to work but chose not to appear +because of the intimidation inherent in any such interview (for +example, from questions such as ‘are you or any members of your +family not authorized to be present in the United States?’).” The +Nebraska Cattlemen’s Association estimated that its members lost $5 +million and the state economy as a whole lost $20 million as the +result of the operation.19 +Operation Vanguard ended in 2000, but in 2006 a new +enforcement effort began, focused on workplace raids. On December +12, 2006, ICE agents descended on six Swift meatpacking plants in +Iowa, Minnesota, Nebraska, Texas, Colorado, and Utah, arresting +thirteen hundred of the company’s seven thousand day-shift +workers. Swift was also part of the industry pattern of shifting from +urban to rural, and employing large numbers of new Latin American +immigrants, many of them undocumented. In several Swift plants, +researchers drew a direct connection to the Bracero Program. Two +small communities in the Mexican states of Michoacán, Villachuato +and La Huacana, which had begun to send recruits northward as +braceros, had now become major sources of migrants to Swift +plants. These workers were later joined by Central Americans. In + + Swift’s Cactus, Texas, plant, most of the workers were Maya Quiche +Guatemalans, many of them undocumented.20 +In an eerie replay of previous roundups and deportations of +Mexicans like Operation Wetback, ICE agents relied on appearance +to determine who to detain. One American citizen of Mexican origin +at Swift’s Nebraska plant recounted that “when they said all the US +citizens come over to this place, I went up there and I stood right by +my boss. My boss showed his driver’s license and then he was free +to go. I showed my driver’s license and my voting registration card +and that was not enough. He [the ICE agent] said, no, you need +either your passport or citizenship certificate.”21 Most of those +arrested in the raids were charged not with the civil violation of +unauthorized presence in the country, but with criminal charges of +fraudulent use of Social Security numbers and/or identity theft. +The raids affected more than just those arrested, as family +members and others were afraid to show up to work in the +aftermath. The Center for Immigration Studies looked at what +happened in the devastated plants over the following months. All +managed to replace the hundreds of workers who were arrested, but +none improved working conditions or wages, and none shifted back +to employing US citizens. The companies scoured the United States +for workers willing to accept the jobs, and most of the lost workers +were eventually replaced by immigrants from Burma and different +parts of Africa who held refugee status and thus had legal +authorization to work.22 +THE POSTVILLE RAID +Another devastating raid took place at the Agriprocessors plant in +Postville, Iowa, in May 2008. Agriprocessors represented a cross +between in-sourcing and a new industry. Although meatpacking in +general was an old industry that was moving into new rural areas, +kosher processing had been a local, small-scale industry before the +late twentieth century. “In the 1980s, before the Postville plant had +opened, almost all fresh kosher meat had been sold through local +butchers. It came in raw quarters from slaughterhouses that were + + rented out by rabbis, and it rarely made it beyond major cities on +the coasts.” 23 +The Rubashkin family changed all that. Locating their new plant +in the small town of Postville, Iowa, they proposed to turn kosher +meat into a nationally available, mass-produced product. “The +Rubashkins created a world in which it was possible to buy fresh +kosher beef and poultry in ordinary supermarkets across the +country, even in places that had few Jews. . . . The changes brought +about by the Rubashkins did something more than expand the reach +of kosher meat. They brought an entirely new customer base to +kosher food: the secular Jews and even non-Jews who never would +have stopped at a butcher shop. The expansion also allowed +Orthodox communities in places that had never had them.”24 +Agriprocessors also differed from other meatpackers in choosing +the tiny town of Postville as its location. Most meatpackers moved +to medium-sized towns of thirty thousand to sixty thousand when +they left the urban centers. Postville, with a population of fourteen +hundred, was “a town with no stoplights, no fast-food restaurants +and a weekly newspaper that for years featured the ‘Yard of the +Week.’”25 Most of the workers were recruited from two small +villages in Guatemala. Over 75 percent of the workers were +undocumented, and some were minors.26 Working conditions at the +plant were abysmal. +“One of those workers—a woman who agreed to be identified by +the pseudonym Juana—came to this rural corner of Iowa a year ago +from Guatemala,” said one newspaper account. Since then, she has +worked 10-to-12-hour night shifts, six nights a week. Her cutting +hand is swollen and deformed, but she has no health insurance to +have it checked. She works for wages, starting at $6.25 an hour and +stopping at $7, that several industry experts described as the lowest +of any slaughterhouse in the nation.”27 +In May 2008, ICE agents descended on the plant and arrested 389 +of its 900 workers, most of them Guatemalan. As their lengthy saga +of incarceration and deportation began, the rest of the town’s +immigrant population panicked. “Within weeks, roughly 1,000 + + Mexican and Guatemalan residents—about a third of the town— +vanished. It was as if a natural disaster had swept through, leaving +no physical evidence of destruction, just silence behind it.”28 +The Agriprocessors raid in May 2008 was “the largest single-site +operation of its kind in American history.”29 Because one of the +court interpreters, Erik Camayd-Freixas, wrote a detailed protest +about the irregularity of the procedures, which circulated widely on +the Internet and was later submitted to Congress, the public +obtained access to an unusually complete picture of the process. +According to Camayd-Freixas’s account, “The arrest, prosecution, +and conviction of 297 undocumented workers from Postville was a +process marred by irregularities at every step of the way.” The +government charged the workers en masse, and without any +evidence whatsoever, of the criminal charge of “aggravated identity +theft.” Prosecutors then coerced them into a plea bargain for a lesser +but still criminal charge of misuse of a Social Security number.30 +The Guatemalan workers knew that they were in the country +without legal permission. But that’s a civil violation, not a crime. +The only punishment should have been removal. Through their own +networks, most of the undocumented immigrants know that they +have few rights in the immigration court system. Most of them had +no idea what the criminal charges meant, and when pressured to +accept a plea bargain, most of them did so. Many acquiesced out of +desperation, since as the sole support for their families, they could +not afford to remain in detention awaiting trial. They believed they +would quickly be deported. Instead, they had signed up for a fivemonth prison sentence. +Camayd-Freixas described the heart-wrenching scenes as courtappointed lawyers tried to explain the criminal charges and advise +those arrested. One conversation illustrates the utter disconnect +between the world of the workers and the legal system they were +caught in. +The client, a Guatemalan peasant afraid for his family, spent +most of that time weeping at our table, in a corner of the +crowded jailhouse visiting room. How did he come here from + + Guatemala? “I walked.” What? “I walked for a month and ten +days until I crossed the river. . . . I just wanted to work a year +or two, save, and then go back to my family, but it was not to +be. . . . The Good Lord knows I was just working and not +doing anyone any harm.” This man, like many others, was in +fact not guilty. “Knowingly” and “intent” are necessary +elements of the [criminal] charges, but most of the clients we +interviewed did not even know what a Social Security number +was or what purpose it served. This worker simply had the +papers filled out for him at the plant, since he could not read +or write Spanish, let alone English. But the lawyer still had to +advise him that pleading guilty was in his best interest. He +was unable to make a decision. “You all do and undo,” he +said. “So you can do whatever you want with me.” To him we +were part of the system keeping him from being deported +back to his country, where his children, wife, mother, and +sister depended on him. He was their sole support and did not +know how they were going to make it with him in jail for 5 +months. None of the “options” really mattered to him. Caught +between despair and hopelessness, he just wept. He had failed +his family, and was devastated. I went for some napkins, but +he refused them. I offered him a cup of soda, which he +superstitiously declined, saying it could be “poisoned.” His +Native American spirit was broken and he could no longer +think. He stared for a while at the signature page pretending +to read it, although I knew he was actually praying for +guidance and protection. Before he signed with a scribble, he +said: “God knows you are just doing your job to support your +families, and that job is to keep me from supporting mine.”31 +Like Swift, Agriprocessors looked to other sources of +marginalized, immigrant workers in the wake of the raid. “In one of +its most desperate moves, Agri recruited 170 people from the +Micronesian island of Palau—whose status as a former US +protectorate means its citizens can work legally in the United States. +In September 2008, the Palauans traveled 72 hours and 8,000 miles + + on planes and buses before arriving in Postville with little more than +flip-flops and brightly colored shorts and tops.”32 +Six months later, the plant closed. It was later sold and reopened, +and like other plants in the industry, implemented the E-Verify +system. However, as a journalist found in 2011, +few Iowan-born locals work there. Ridding this small +community of its illegal workforce, far from freeing up jobs +for American-born citizens, has resulted in closed businesses +and fewer opportunities. Even nearly four years later, many +homes still remain empty, and taxable retail sales are about +40 percent lower than they were in 2008. +In order to staff its still low-paying jobs with legal +immigrants, the new owner of the plant has recruited a +hodgepodge of refugees and other immigrants, who often +leave the town as soon as they find better opportunities, +creating a constant churn among the population. The switch +to a legal workforce has made the community feel less stable, +some locals say, and it’s unclear if Postville will again become +a place where immigrants will put down roots, raise children, +and live in relative harmony with their very different +neighbors.33 +Years later, a researcher in Guatemala met with families that had +been deported, including sixteen US-born, US citizen children. The +children, Aryah Somers reported, were “growing up in extreme +poverty, with little schooling and scant medical care. . . . The kids +are undernourished and barely literate in either Spanish or English.” +Their parents planned to send them back to the United States once +they are ten or twelve years old and able to travel alone.34 +While the Obama administration scaled down the Bush-era policy +of workplace raids, the E-Verify system expanded rapidly. E-Verify +was created in 1997 under the auspices of the 1996 Illegal +Immigration Reform and Immigrant Responsibility Act (IIRIRA) and +requires participating employers to check each new hire against a +set of federal databases to ensure that the individual is either a + + citizen or an immigrant specifically authorized to work in the +United States. The system was initially voluntary, but in 2007, the +Office of Management and Budget required all federal government +agencies to screen all new hires through the system and, in 2009, +required certain federal contractors and subcontractors to use it for +existing employees as well as new hires. Several states, beginning +with Arizona in 2007, have mandated that all employers in the state +utilize E-Verify.35 Other states have tried to restrict its use.36 S. 744, +the comprehensive immigration reform bill supported by President +Obama and passed by the Senate in June 2013, would make the +system mandatory for all employers nationwide. (As this book goes +to press, the bill seems to have little chance of passing in the House +or becoming law.) +But the experience of the meatpacking industry shows that +eliminating undocumented workers, either through workplace raids +or through the use of E-Verify, has not increased employment +opportunities for citizens. Instead, it has destabilized businesses and +communities, created temporary flows of refugees, and brought +harm to innumerable immigrants, citizens, and businesses with +benefit to none. Many argue against the use of E-Verify because the +GAO found it to be plagued with errors and false alarms, as amply +illustrated by several GAO investigations between 2005 and 2011.37 +While it’s quite true that the program has mistakenly ensnared large +numbers of work-authorized immigrants and naturalized citizens, +that is not the only or even the main reason to oppose it. Even if the +program worked perfectly, its impact on individuals, businesses, +communities, and the economy would only be to cause harm.38 +NEW JOBS: LANDSCAPING +Other sectors that employ significant numbers of undocumented +workers are the mostly unregulated, small-scale niches in the service +sector like landscaping, nanny services, and newspaper delivery. +The first two are sectors where employment has grown in recent +decades, while in the latter it has shrunk. But all three have been +refuges for undocumented workers, in part because they involve low + + pay; insecurity and lack of benefits; difficult hours; and isolated, +heavy, and sometimes dangerous working conditions. These poor +working conditions parallel the working conditions in industries +that have been outsourced (manufacturing) and in-sourced +(meatpacking, construction). The cheap products provided by +outsourcing and in-sourcing, along with the cheap services provided +by these new service industries, have contributed to rising +consumption and illusions of affluence in the United States. +The landscaping industry has grown steadily since the 1970s, +hand in hand with the construction industry. Newly built homes, +businesses, and public buildings created a fresh demand for +landscaping services. Landscaping companies responded to the +increased demand by creating new products and services, which +soon came to be considered essential.39 +Two additional, interrelated changes in the past decades have +contributed to the increase in demand for landscaping services. +First, the ranks of the super-rich who hire landscaping companies to +maintain their palatial grounds have increased. Second, middle- and +upper-middle-class suburban families that once might have +maintained their own yards are now too busy and are contracting +out services that they or their children used to provide. As the +industry grew, the new jobs were filled by immigrants, especially +undocumented immigrants. +One of many companies to expand and transform in the new era +belonged to Nikita Floyd. The Washington Post described its +trajectory: +In the early 1990s, Floyd had fewer than a dozen employees, +all of them black. Today, 73 percent of the Washington area’s +landscaping workers are immigrants, along with 51 percent of +office cleaners and 43 percent of construction workers. . . . +Floyd’s 20 wintertime workers are all men from El Salvador, +except for two black women who manage the office. In the +summer, he employs twice as many men, all immigrants. +Floyd’s experience illustrates immigrants’ impact. Once just a +guy with a lawnmower, he runs a business with annual sales + + of more than $2.5 million. He credits immigrant employees +for his business’s growth and pays about $10 an hour, with no +work and no pay in inclement weather. It’s grueling labor in +the winter; a man can spend the day stabbing a spade into +frozen dirt or be asked to shimmy up a tree with a chainsaw +in one hand and no netting below.40 +Like the farm and meatpacking associations discussed earlier, the +California Landscape Contractors Association is strongly opposed to +the criminalization of immigrant work and implicitly acknowledges +its industry’s reliance on the undocumented. Calling for legalization, +the association notes that “[t]he status quo is untenable, as it puts +employers in a strange ‘don’t ask, don’t tell’ situation where they +can never be sure of their workforce.” The industry operates under a +continuous labor shortage, the association explains: +The landscaping industry relies heavily on an immigrant labor +force. Landscaping is physically demanding work. It is +performed in hot, cold, and sometimes rainy weather. Some +landscaping jobs are seasonal. American-born workers +increasingly are not attracted to such jobs. Because +landscaping work involves outdoor manual labor, it is to some +extent young person’s work. Yet America has an aging +workforce. At the same time, the landscape industry is +growing and therefore has a need for more workers, partly +because this same aging population tends to enlarge the +market for landscaping services. Immigrants, who tend to be +young, address this unmet need for younger workers in the +landscape industry.41 +NEW JOBS: NANNIES +Landscaping is not the only personal-service job that has +proliferated with the use of undocumented immigrants in recent +decades. A number of high-profile public figures have been +embarrassed when reporters uncovered their use of undocumented +domestic workers. Lawyer Zoe Baird, who had worked for the Carter + + administration and the Department of Justice, was withdrawn as +President Bill Clinton’s nominee for attorney general when it was +revealed that she had employed undocumented workers as +chauffeur and nanny. Then Clinton’s second choice, Kimba Wood, +was withdrawn for the same reason.42 When Mitt Romney was +running in the Republican primary in 2007, in large part on an antiimmigrant platform, the Boston Globe published an investigation +showing that undocumented workers maintained the 2.5-acre lot +around his home in Belmont, Massachusetts.43 California Republican +gubernatorial candidate and former eBay CEO Meg Whitman fired +her nanny of nine years during the campaign when she allegedly +first learned that she was undocumented.44 And Bernard Kerik +stepped down from his nomination as chief of the Department of +Homeland Security in 2004 when it was learned that he too had +hired a nanny who lacked documents.45 +But not only the super-rich hire nannies, landscapers, and house +cleaners. In 2001, sociologist Pierrette Hondagneu-Sotelo described +the proliferation of services in the previous twenty years that had +transformed middle-class life in heavily immigrant Los Angeles. At +the time she was writing, Los Angeles was still in the vanguard; a +decade later, what she described had become commonplace +throughout the United States. +She writes: +When you arrive at many a Southern California hotel or +restaurant, you are likely to be first greeted by a Latino car +valet. The janitors, cooks, busboys, painters, carpet cleaners, +and landscape workers who keep the office buildings, +restaurants, and malls running are also likely to be Mexican or +Central American immigrants, as are many of those who work +behind the scenes in dry cleaners, convalescent homes, +hospitals, resorts, and apartment complexes. . . . Only twenty +years ago, these relatively inexpensive consumer services and +products were not nearly as widely available as they are +today. The Los Angeles economy, landscape, and lifestyle + + have been transformed in ways that rely on low-wage, Latino +immigrant labor.46 +The number of gardeners and domestic workers in Los Angeles +doubled between 1980 and 1990.47 +The inexpensive nature of these services—in part because of the +often undocumented immigrant labor that provided them—helped +to sustain an illusion of upward mobility for people in the working +and middle classes.48 This illusion overlays other changes in the US +economy over the past fifty years, as the rapid expansion of the +middle class that began in the post–World War II era slowed and +then reversed in the 1970s, to be replaced by growing economic +inequality. Paradoxically, Hondagneu-Sotelo found that increasing +social inequality led to greater numbers of people employing +domestic help. The middle class works harder to maintain its +standard of living and must increasingly rely on low-cost services +provided by the more impoverished.49 Formerly, domestic workers +were found mostly in the employ of upper-middle-class +suburbanites. By the 1980s, employers came to include “apartment +dwellers with modest incomes, single mothers, college students, and +elderly people living on fixed incomes. They live in tiny bungalows +and condominiums, not just sprawling houses.” Even Latina +domestic workers found themselves employing other immigrant +women to clean, cook, and care for their children, while they +provided those same services to their wealthier clients.50 +Tellingly, Los Angeles was the vanguard. In the 1990s, “when +Angelenos, accustomed to employing a full-time nanny/housekeeper +for about $150 or $200 a week, move[d] to Seattle or Durham, they +[were] startled to discover how ‘the cost of living that way’ quickly +escalate[d]. Only then [did] they realize the extent to which their +affluent lifestyle and smoothly running household depended on one +Latina immigrant woman.”51 As the Latino immigrant population +spread from the Southwest to other parts of the country, access to +the services it provided also became more widespread.52 + + Business Review reported, “[N]annies [are] a growth industry in +slow economy.” With more parents working, and child care +expensive or unavailable, the nanny industry fills the gap.53 The +Arizona Republic reported, “[U]nconventional work schedules, +increased awareness and flexible care options have ignited growth +in the nanny industry. At the same time, parents have a desire for +more personalized care.”54 +The New York Times commented on the widespread nature of the +so-called nanny problem with regard to the Zoe Baird case: “As +everyone learned before a conveniently childless candidate ended +the search for an Attorney General, the hiring of illegal caregivers is +an endemic labor practice, among paralegals and secretaries as well +as $250,000-a-year executives, in cities like New York, Los Angeles +or Miami—points of entry to the United States as well as centers of +immigrant population. Cities with a baby sitter or nanny labor force +tend to lack even the fragile, faint day-care networks that exist in +other parts of the country.”55 +NEWSPAPER DELIVERY +Newspaper delivery, of course, has been around for a long time. But +today’s newspaper delivery system is something entirely new. No +longer does a neighborhood kid walk or bike through the streets +tossing papers into his neighbors’ yards. Today, 81 percent of paper +deliverers are adults, and a large proportion of them are +undocumented immigrants. A look at the structure of the industry +will help explain why.56 +In many areas of the country, newspapers are delivered through a +system of independent contractors—the same system construction +companies use to evade their legal responsibilities as employers. The +newspaper publisher works with a contracting company, which in +turn hires workers who must sign a contract confirming that they +are not employees but independent contractors. In Connecticut, all +fourteen respondents to a survey of newspaper publishers in the +state confirmed that they used this system. 57 Likewise in the Boston + + area, the Wall Street Journal, New York Times, and Boston Globe are +all distributed by a single company, which hires contractors to +deliver all three in a given area. +As independent contractors, workers may not receive the +minimum wages and may not be eligible for workers’ compensation +or unemployment benefits. (States and courts have varied as to how +they treat these cases, but newspaper publishers overwhelmingly +insist that their deliverers are contractors, not employees.) In a case +where independent contractors sued and appealed for class status in +a class action suit, the US District Court–Southern District of +California described the job in the following terms: +Plaintiffs deliver the North County Times to the homes of +subscribers. Each morning, the newspaper carriers arrive at +one of several distribution centers in San Diego County. The +carriers arrive at different times. Although they generally +arrive between 1:00 a.m. and 4:00 a.m., some arrive earlier or +later. The arrival time varies depending on the day of the +week. +The carriers are contractually obligated to deliver the +assembled newspapers by 6:00 a.m. each weekday and 7:00 +a.m. on Saturday and Sunday. +Upon arrival, the carriers are responsible for assembling +the newspapers. Some assemble the papers at the distribution +center—those that use the distribution center pay a rental fee +—and others assemble the papers elsewhere. Assembling the +newspapers may involve folding or inserting the following: +newspaper inserts, sections, pre-prints, samples, supplements +and other products at NCT’s direction. The carriers pay for +their own rubber bands and plastic bags used to assemble the +papers. Some carriers buy the rubber bands and bags from +Defendant, and others purchase them elsewhere. The carriers +also pay for their own gas and automobile expenses they incur +delivering the newspapers.58 + + Contractors sign up to deliver papers 365 days a year, starting no +later than 4 a.m. every day. They cannot miss a day unless they can +arrange for their own replacement, must own a car, and have a +valid driver’s license. They have to maintain and buy gas for the car, +driving hundreds of miles a week. All for less than minimum wage. +During winter weather emergencies, when public transportation is +shut down and the governor of Massachusetts calls a state of +emergency, closing public offices and begging residents to stay at +home and businesses to remain closed until the plows can clear the +streets, independent contractors receive a curt message with their +newspapers. “SNOW IS EXPECTED . . . WE WILL BE WORKING. IC’S +ARE EXPECTED TO DELIVER THEIR ROUTES. PLAN +ACCORDINGLY: BE EARLY; DO NOT ALLOW YOUR CAR TO BE +BLOCKED IN; EXPECT TO HAVE TO SHOVEL OUT.”59 +It’s a job, in other words, made for an undocumented immigrant. +CONCLUSION +Overall, the rise in undocumented workers over the past several +decades has gone along with a rise in the invisible, exploited labor +that they perform. The generally unacknowledged work that they do +is a crucial underpinning to the standard of living and consumption +enjoyed by virtually everyone in the United States. But, clearly, an +economic system that keeps a lot of people unemployed and another +group trapped in a legal status that restricts them to the worst kinds +of jobs does not really benefit everyone. +Some have argued that the influx of undocumented workers +depresses the labor market, lowers wages for less educated workers, +and creates more competition for jobs at the lower end of the pay +scale. Labor economist George Borjas has made this argument most +persuasively, and many commentators who argue that we should +restrict immigration base their arguments on his work.60 +Other economists, however, have found that the low-wage labor +of undocumented immigrants actually increases the wages and +employment of even low-paid citizen workers. By increasing +productivity, low-paid undocumented workers can increase capital + + available for investment, hiring, and wages. Because undocumented +workers add to the population, their consumption stimulates the +economy.61 One recent study tried to document the expected +economic impact of deportation versus legalization of the +undocumented population of Arizona. The study found that +legalization would be far more beneficial and deportation far more +costly for American citizens. +Undocumented immigrants don’t simply “fill” jobs; they +create jobs. Through the work they perform, the money they +spend, and the taxes they pay, undocumented immigrants +sustain the jobs of many other workers in the US economy, +immigrants and native-born alike. Were undocumented +immigrants to suddenly vanish, the jobs of many Americans +would vanish as well. In contrast, were undocumented +immigrants to acquire legal status, their wages and +productivity would increase, they would spend more in our +economy and pay more in taxes, and new jobs would be +created.62 +Two recent films, one a feature film and one a documentary, +demonstrate this effect. A Day without a Mexican imagines that +California awakens one morning to a strange fog, which has caused +everyone of Mexican origin to vanish. Non-Mexicans stumble +through their lives trying to fill in the gaps and realizing along the +way how utterly dependent their economy and daily lives are on +Mexican immigrants. In a moving scene at the end, after the fog lifts +and the Mexicans reappear, the Border Patrol comes across a group +in the wilderness at night. Flashing their lights, a patrolman asks, +“Are you guys Mexican?” When the migrants confirm, the patrollers +break into welcoming applause. +The film 9500 Liberty looks at a case in which the fantasy of A +Day without a Mexican became a reality. In Prince William County, +Virginia, a local ordinance in 2007 required police to stop and +question anyone they suspected of being undocumented. Although +the ordinance was eventually repealed, the acrimonious anti- + + immigrant mobilization surrounding it as well as fear of its +implementation caused many immigrants to leave. As businesses +closed, schools and neighborhoods emptied, and the housing market +collapsed, the white citizen majority in the county became more +dubious about the supposed benefits of expelling the undocumented. +Although the current system benefits many people in the United +States, we must also recognize its fundamental injustice and think +seriously about how it works and what steps could make it more +just. If immigrants are being exploited by the current system, and if +undocumentedness is one of the concepts that sustains inequality +and unjust treatment, then we need to question undocumentedness +itself. +The system benefits most Americans materially, given that +Americans—even poor Americans—consume an extraordinary +proportion of the planet’s resources. Only 4 percent of the world’s +children are American, but they consume 40 percent of the world’s +toys.63 Despite the fact that many Americans are unemployed, in +debt, and struggle to pay for health care and put food on their +plates, they still consume more than their share. They do so because of +the economic chain that links them to workers who are legally +marginalized, either because they work in other countries or +because they work illegally inside the United States. +Undocumentedness has everything to do with work and the +economy. It is a key component of the late-twentieth-century global +system. Every so-called industrialized country—or more accurately, +deindustrializing country—relies on the labor of workers who are +legally excluded to maintain its high levels of consumption. Like the +United States, these countries rely on the legal conveniences of +borders, countries, and citizenship to impose different rules for +different people and maintain a legally excluded working class. +This system also creates fantastic profits for the few. But a fairer +economic system would distribute the planet’s resources more +equally. If we can understand undocumentedness as a mechanism +for creating and perpetuating economic inequality, it will be easier +for us to reject it outright. + + CHAPTER 7 + +Children and Families +Although the need to work—and the availability of work—has +played a central role in the rise of both immigration and +undocumentedness in the past half-century, every worker is also a +human being. Like everyone else, undocumented workers have +children and families. The undocumented population and those +personally affected through family relations by undocumentedness +include much more than the single, working-age male. As border +enforcement has increased over the past two decades and the +circular, seasonal migration of workers has shifted to long-term +family settlement, more and more children have been affected by +issues of status. +Some children are undocumented themselves, while others live in +mixed-status families, with one or both parents, siblings, or other +relatives who are undocumented. Still others have temporary and +unstable statuses. Some children, whether citizens or undocumented +themselves, lose parents or other family members to deportation, +while others cross the border illegally to reunite with parents they +had lost to migration. Virtually all parents who come to the United +States do so because they want better lives for their children; the US +law claims to protect the best interests of children. But immigration +law makes these children’s lives tenuous and unpredictable. +About 17 percent of all Hispanics and 22 percent of all Hispanic +youth ages sixteen to twenty-five are unauthorized immigrants, +according to Pew Hispanic Center estimates in 2009. These +percentages refer to all Hispanics, whether native-born or +immigrant. Among immigrants, the numbers are, of course, much +higher. Some 41 percent of all foreign-born Hispanics and 58 +percent of foreign-born Hispanic youths are estimated to be +unauthorized immigrants.1 + + Other youth fall into in-between categories, like asylum +applicants or those who have received Temporary Protected Status, +wherein their presence is currently legal, but in an unstable status +that could easily be revoked—what Cecilia Menjívar termed “liminal +legality.”2 President Obama’s DACA program of 2012 created +another temporary status, allowing certain undocumented youth a +two-year respite from illegality, but with no guarantee of what +would occur at the end of the two years. While immensely popular +among Latinos (Romney called it a “big gift” to Hispanic voters), +DACA did little to address the underlying problem of +undocumentedness.3 +The immigration system in general is designed to deprive +undocumented adults of most rights, but, in some cases, laws +designed to protect children transcend status and are applied +equally to all children. Laws and policies thus struggle between two +contradictory aims: to punish violations of immigration status or to +protect the rights of children and their need to be with their parents. +In the case of US citizen children of undocumented parents, the goal +of keeping children together with their parents can contradict the +goal of removing the parent, and the goal of promoting the best +interests of the children conflicts with the laws that punish their +parents for their status. In some cases, judges have ruled that a +child’s best interest requires that he or she remain in the United +States and have terminated parental rights of parents who are +deported. In other cases, immigration laws prevent children from +entering the United States to reunite with their parents. +Undocumented youth can also be deported and face legal +discrimination that prevents them from working, going to college, +and receiving public benefits. +From being virtually invisible in the public sphere only a decade +ago, undocumented youth, especially those who have grown up in +the United States, have stepped to the forefront in organizing for +immigrant rights. Their activism openly challenges the antiimmigrant propaganda and may be changing the way the citizen +public views the undocumented. + + YOUNG AND ALONE +The past two decades have witnessed a dramatic surge of young +people fleeing their homes in Mexico and Central America and +attempting the treacherous border crossing alone. They may be +seeking to escape violence, gangs, or abuse at home, or they may be +making a desperate attempt to reunite with parents who left them to +journey to the United States. They face all of the hazards that adults +face, and more. +Undocumented youth, especially Central Americans fleeing civil +wars, began crossing the border alone in the 1980s. At the time, the +immigrant detention system had no provisions or capacity to deal +specifically with detained youth: they were simply imprisoned with +and treated as adults. During 1990, the INS reported that eighty-five +hundred minors had been apprehended crossing the border without +documents, 70 percent of them unaccompanied. Most were Mexican +and were quickly returned to Mexico under an agreement with that +government. Non-Mexicans, though, were detained in immigration +facilities, some for lengthy periods, awaiting immigration hearings.4 +A series of lawsuits and court decisions starting in 1985 led +finally, in 1997, the then-INS to develop special policies for detained +minors. Under the Flores v. Meese settlement of that year, the INS +developed separate standards for children that took their age and +needs into account. Children would be released, if possible, to a +sponsor; they would be placed in the least restrictive setting +possible, and the agency would implement appropriate standards for +their treatment. +A US government study in 2001 explained that most juveniles the +INS encountered were still of Mexican origin and generally held for +only a few hours before being returned voluntarily to Mexico. The +study emphasized that the Border Patrol worked to ensure that +juveniles were returned to family members or to Mexican +government officials rather than being “simply dropped off across +the border.”5 Most of the children who ended up in US custody, +therefore, were Central American. The numbers taken into custody +(rather than returned) increased rapidly over the first decade of the + + new century, from the low thousands to up to ten thousand a year.6 +The system scrambled to keep up with the influx. +After 2002, when the INS was replaced by ICE under the new +Department of Homeland Security, responsibility for detained +children was transferred to the Department of Health and Human +Services and the Office of Refugee Resettlement.7 And in 2003, the +ORR created the Division of Unaccompanied Children’s Services +(DUCS) to handle the placement of undocumented minors.8 +The treatment of children in detention improved with the +involvement of the social service agencies. Rather than being +housed indefinitely with adult criminals, children were sent to +special facilities where they had access to educational and social +services, and most were released within weeks to family members in +the United States (many of them undocumented themselves). +Facilities must provide “classroom education, health care, +socializing/recreation activities, vocational training, mental health +services, case management, and, when possible, assist with family +reunion.”9 According to the New York Times, “It is not unusual for +youths to recall the detention shelters . . . as some of the best times +in their battered lives.”10 +Still, in 2006, a study found that detained minors “fall into the +bewildering inner workings of the immigration and asylum system.” +Despite the changes in detention provisions, immigration law did +not distinguish between children and adults, and until 2004, the +courts simply treated any child, no matter how young, as an adult.11 +In 2012, yet another study found that children who are detained for +immigration violations “enter a disjointed, labyrinthine system in +which they may interact with numerous agencies within several +federal government departments, as well as with a host of +government contractors.”12 +The automatic repatriation of Mexican children was challenged in +2008 when Congress passed the William Wilberforce Trafficking +Victims Protection and Reauthorization Act. The act responded to +concerns that US deportation policies were contributing to the +exploitation and abuse of children. It stated that a child could not be + + repatriated if he or she was victim of human trafficking or had a +viable asylum claim and did not voluntarily agree to be repatriated. +This meant that rather than immediately returning Mexican +children, ICE was supposed to evaluate each case individually.13 +Still, in 2009, 70 percent of children in ORR custody came from +Central America, primarily El Salvador, Guatemala, and Honduras, +as most Mexican children were still simply deported.14 +The number of Mexican children crossing the border alone has +remained steady or fallen over the past few years, along with +crossings by Mexican adults. The number of young unaccompanied +minors from Central America, in contrast, has risen dramatically, +doubling from 2011 to 2012. “The rush of young illegal border +crossers began last fall but picked up speed this year” reported the +New York Times in August 2012.15 During 2012, more than fourteen +thousand youth, most of them Central American, had been taken +into ORR custody. In just the first three months of 2013, seven +thousand more crossed, suggesting that the record increases were +continuing.16 +Central America’s political and economic crises—exacerbated by +US military involvement and trade policies—virtually guarantee that +children will continue to try to escape. “Almost all of the children’s +migration arose out of longstanding, complex problems in their +home countries—problems that have no easy or short-term +solutions.”17 According to the Women’s Refugee Commission, which +interviewed 150 young unaccompanied border-crossers, most are +fleeing gangs, drug traffickers, and violence at home. “They are +willing to risk the uncertain dangers of the trip north to escape +certain dangers they face at home.”18 +“The conditions in Central America have deteriorated to such a +point that, when the Women’s Refugee Commission asked the +children if they would risk the dangerous journey north through +Mexico all over again now that they had direct knowledge of its +risks, most replied that they would. They said that staying in their +country would guarantee death, and that making the dangerous +journey would at least give them a chance to survive. Many of them + + expressed a longing for their homelands, stating that they would not +have left but for fear for their lives.”19 +The government was unprepared for the influx and was initially +unable to abide by the 1997 standards. “Children were held for up +to two weeks in CBP short-term hold facilities. These facilities are +not designed for long-term detention or to hold children. The lights +stay on 24 hours a day, and there are no showers or recreation +spaces. During the influx, they were sometimes so overcrowded that +children had to take turns just to lie down on the concrete floor.” +The ORR began to open “emergency surge centers” where it could +hold detained youth.20 +The numbers arriving at the US border reveal only part of the +magnitude of the problem, since the Mexican government also +reported a doubling in the numbers of detentions of Central +American children traveling through that country in 2012.21 +Perhaps only half of the children who leave Central America even +make it to the US border. Along the way, they face the same hazards +that older migrants face: injury or death on the train, kidnapping, +rape, torture, coercion. +It is clear that conditions for children detained crossing the +border have greatly improved in the past decade. It’s also clear, +though, that a situation in which tens of thousands of children flee +their homelands in Mexico and Central America each year is a +desperate one. It’s not enough to suggest that those countries need +to solve their own problems. The United States has a long history of +military, political, and economic involvement in the region, +including overthrowing and establishing governments. It continues +to provide economic and military support for policies and programs +that is has designed and approved. These policies and programs +provide enormous profits and cheap products for US citizens and +corporations, while exacerbating the very social crises that underlie +the out-migration. Those of us in the United States need to seek +deeper solutions that go beyond offering humane treatment and +social services to these children after they cross the border. + + LOSING THEIR PARENTS +Even children who are American citizens are at risk of losing +undocumented parents to deportation. Although the Obama +administration announced early on that immigration detention and +deportation would focus on individuals who had committed crimes +or were a threat to national security, deportations increased +dramatically under his watch, to four hundred thousand a year. +Almost all of those deported were, like most undocumented +immigrants, members of communities with jobs, homes, and +families. Their lives intersected every day with those of US citizens. +In many cases, they were the parents of US citizens. +As with the number of children crossing the border, the number +of children losing their parents to deportation has also been rising. +From 1998 to 2007, some 8 percent of those removed from the +country were parents of US citizens; in 2011, it was 22 percent of a +much larger number of removals. During the first half of 2011, over +forty-six thousand parents of US-citizen children were deported. The +Applied Research Center estimated that as of 2011, there were over +five thousand US citizen children living in foster care because their +parents were either in immigration detention or had been deported. +Some were put up for adoption as incarcerated or deported parents +lacked the resources to enforce their parental rights.22 +The term “anchor baby” is frequently thrown around in these +discussions, with the implication that giving birth to a child in the +United States gives the parent some special rights or privileges. It +doesn’t. The child, as a US citizen, has the right to all of the benefits +that citizenship offers, including a US passport, freedom to remain +in or leave the country, and access to work and social services. The +undocumented status of the parent, however, is not ameliorated in +any way by the existence of the so-called anchor baby. Parents of +citizens can be, and are, deported on a regular basis. +The Obama administration’s 2010 and 2011 Morton Memos on +prosecutorial discretion, issued by ICE director John Morton to +revise agency policy, acknowledged the hardships caused for +children when their parents were detained or deported. The first + + memo suggested that ICE “should not expend detention resources on +aliens who are known to be suffering from serious physical or +mental illness, or who are disabled, elderly, pregnant, or nursing, or +demonstrate that they are primary caretakers of children or an infirm +person.” Unfortunately, the new guidelines did not significantly +reduce the numbers of parents separated from their children by +ICE.23 The 2011 memo went somewhat further, specifically +mentioning that one factor that ICE should take into consideration +when deciding whether to prosecute a case was the immigrant’s +relationship to US citizens. Still, this was one on a list of suggestions +rather than a specific mandate.24 +Behind the statistics are the stories: a crying baby taken from +her mother’s arms and handed to social workers as the mother +is handcuffed and taken away, her parental rights terminated +by a U.S. judge; teenage children watching as parents are +dragged from the family home; immigrant parents +disappearing into a maze-like detention system where they +are routinely locked up hundreds of miles from their homes, +separated from their families for months and denied contact +with the welfare agencies deciding their children’s fate.25 +Consider the case of Sandra Molina, an undocumented immigrant +from Guatemala. She married an immigrant with legal status, who +became a citizen in 2009. They had two children, both US citizens. +When her husband became a citizen, they decided that Sandra +should return to Guatemala so that he could sponsor her to come +legally to the United States. Even in the case of the spouse of a US +citizen, however, there is no guarantee that legal permission will be +granted. In Sandra’s case, it was denied, even though she had no +criminal record or other apparent obstacle to legal entry. +She then attempted to cross the border illegally to reunite with +her family, but was caught and returned to Guatemala. Now, legal +entry became even more complicated. Reentry after deportation is a +felony, punishable with jail time, and one of the Obama +administration’s priorities for deportation is those who reentered + + after being deported. In Mexico, Sandra “says she feels so hopeless +about her life that she has thought about ending it. ‘I just want to be +forgiven,’ she said, sobbing on the phone. ‘I feel I am about to go +crazy, I miss my children so much. They are all I have. I cannot go +on without them.’ Back home in Stamford, her children are suffering +too. The youngest cried constantly, the eldest became angry and +withdrawn. Though their plight is documented in thick files that +include testimony from psychologists and counselors about their +need for their mother, appeals for humanitarian relief were +denied.”26 +The case of an undocumented Ecuadorian immigrant who was +detained with her fifteen-year-old son illustrates the contradictions +as different government agencies pursue conflicting goals. The +mother had lived in the United States for four years and had a oneyear-old daughter born here. She sent for her fifteen-year-old son, +who was detained crossing the border and placed in DUCS custody. +Following DUCS policy, she was called and her son was released to +her. “I received a call to come pick him up,” she explained from her +prison cell, “so I left my daughter with my friend who lived next +door, and took a bus to Arizona to get him. I picked up my son and +we went straight to the bus. At the bus station, I was approached by +some officers and they detained both of us. I have been here for nine +months without seeing my baby girl. She was only one year old +when I left her with my friend. I don’t know what is happening with +her.”27 +When parents disappear into the immigration system like this, +they run the risk of losing custody of their children.28 Courts may +terminate parental rights after parents are deported or detained. In +the criminal justice system, prisoners have guaranteed certain rights +and access to services. Immigrant detainees, though, fall into a sort +of constitutional and legal netherworld. The circumstances of their +detention often make it impossible for them to comply with +requirements for retaining custody of their children. Relatives who +could care for a child in the parent’s absence may be afraid to +identify themselves because they too are undocumented. From the + + perspective of child welfare services, the system of detention and +deportation can create insuperable obstacles to the goal of enabling +parents to care for their children.29 “In the child welfare system, +immigrant parents are at risk of losing their children without the +same constitutional due process protections in place that other +parents receive.”30 An unknown number of those children are being +put up for adoption against the wishes of their parents, who, once +deported, are often helpless to fight when a US judge decides that +their children are better off here. +In a 2007 case, an undocumented Guatemalan woman was +arrested during a raid at the chicken plant where she worked in +Missouri. While she was in detention, her six-month-old son was +taken from her custody and put up for adoption. The judge ruled +that “smuggling herself into a country illegally and committing +crimes in this country is not a lifestyle that can provide any stability +for a child.” Her parental rights were terminated and the infant was +adopted. Although the Missouri Supreme Court overturned the +judge’s decision in 2011, that ruling was in turn overturned by a +judge who ruled that she had “effectively abandoned her son.” The +mother was deported, leaving the child with his adoptive parents in +Missouri.31 +LEARNING TO BE UNDOCUMENTED +Other undocumented children, some of the most politically active +today, were brought or sent here by their parents at a young age. +The United States is now raising a generation of children without +documents, and the legal proposals to address their status, ranging +from in-state tuition to the DREAM (Development, Relief, and +Education for Alien Minors) Act, reveal the discomfort that their +existence poses. “They are Americans in their heart, in their minds, +in every single way but one: on paper,” President Obama declared.32 +As one undocumented student put it, “I breathe, eat, and live in +America and have done so since I can remember.”33 The president’s +remarks remind us that a person’s birthplace is an almost entirely + + arbitrary fact. Should it really be used to determine his or her +subsequent life chances? +Children, of course, don’t usually know much about status and +immigration law unless their parents choose to explain the status +issue to them. Generally their main interaction with state authority +is through school, and since 1982, schools have been required to +treat all children equally, regardless of status. In that year, the US +Supreme Court’s Plyler v. Doe decision struck down a Texas law that +allowed local school districts to deny entry to children who lacked +legal documentation and withheld state funds for their education if +local districts did choose to enroll them. The court ruled that to +deny children access to education not only violated the Equal +Protection Clause of the Fourteenth Amendment, but would impose +an unwarranted, lifetime hardship on them and bring no benefit to +the state.34 Thus, children may never confront the issue of +documentation in their daily lives. +Most citizens become aware of the importance of identification +documents when they are teenagers and apply for a driver’s license +or for their first formal job. For the first time, they may be required +to dig up a birth certificate or a Social Security card to prove their +citizenship status. Jose Antonio Vargas, an undocumented +immigrant from the Philippines, described the shock that many +undocumented youth experience when they first become aware that +there is something about their legal status that divides them from +their peers. Vargas joined and propelled a growing movement +among undocumented youth to break the silence, come out of the +shadows, and openly challenge the system that excludes them. +In the summer of 2011, Vargas published a daring exposé of his +own life story in the New York Times Magazine. He began by +recounting how his mother sent him, at age twelve, to live with his +grandparents in Mountain View, California, and how he struggled to +learn English and excel at school. +One day when I was 16, I rode my bike to the nearby D.M.V. +office to get my driver’s permit. Some of my friends already +had their licenses, so I figured it was time. But when I handed + + the clerk my green card as proof of U.S. residency, she flipped +it around, examining it. “This is fake,” she whispered. “Don’t +come back here again.” +Confused and scared, I pedaled home and confronted [my +grandfather] Lolo. I remember him sitting in the garage, +cutting coupons. I dropped my bike and ran over to him, +showing him the green card. “Peke ba ito?” I asked in Tagalog. +(“Is this fake?”) My grandparents were naturalized American +citizens—he worked as a security guard, she as a food server +—and they had begun supporting my mother and me +financially when I was 3, after my father’s wandering eye and +inability to properly provide for us led to my parents’ +separation. Lolo was a proud man, and I saw the shame on his +face as he told me he purchased the card, along with other +fake documents, for me. “Don’t show it to other people,” he +warned.35 +The Philippines offers a particularly convoluted case of the +meaning of immigration, citizenship, and documents, since it was a +US colony for the first half of the twentieth century and Filipinos +were unilaterally deemed to be US nationals who could travel freely +to the mainland until 1934. (The category “national” was created +early in the twentieth century to apply to people who lived in newly +acquired US territories in the Caribbean and the Pacific. They were +essentially stateless people, with no country and no citizenship.) +Tens of thousands of Filipinos were recruited legally to the United +States through nursing and military exchange programs after that, +while the United States maintained an enormous military presence +there. Vargas’s migration was a product of this history, as well as +the twists and turns of US immigration law. +In the Philippines, Vargas’s great aunt married a Filipino +American who was serving in the US military, starting a family +chain of migration. Using the family preferences built into the law, +she petitioned for her brother and his wife (Vargas’s grandparents), +who entered the country on immigrant visas in 1984 and later +became naturalized citizens. The grandfather then petitioned for his + + two children. Citizens, however, can only sponsor children who are +unmarried. Vargas’s mother was single; she and her husband had +separated almost a decade earlier. But fearing that immigration +would consider the petition fraudulent based on her previous +marriage, the grandfather decided to withdraw it. +Then the family entered the netherworld of false documents, +obtaining a doctored passport and green card (resident alien visa) +and sending twelve-year-old Jose with a coyote—who, he was told, +was his uncle—to live with his grandparents in 1993. The boy never +knew of the extra-legal nature of these arrangements or that there +was anything unauthorized about his presence in the United States. +Vargas’s experience coming of age, symbolized by his rebuff at +the DMV, falls within what sociologist Roberto Gonzalez describes +as the “transition to adulthood” for many undocumented youth. As +Gonzalez explains, becoming an adult also involves a “transition to +illegality” as “public schooling and US immigration laws collide to +produce a shift in the experiences and meanings of illegal status for +undocumented youth at the onset of their transition to +adulthood.”36 These youth, while treated equally under the law +during their childhood, are excluded from the rites of passage that +lead most American youth to the adult world. They are left in a +“developmental limbo.�� The extremely low economic status of most +undocumented families pushes young people to assume more +financial responsibility than their documented peers, —but they are +not, officially, allowed to work. At the same time, they are cut off +from other stages in the transition to majority like learning to drive, +registering to vote, undertaking postsecondary education, or +opening a bank account.37 It comes as a shock that the society that +nurtured them suddenly closes its doors. One student wrote, “I did +not think to question the pledge of allegiance or the history that was +being taught to us. . . . Looking back, I should have questioned the +allegiance I pledged every morning to a country that rejected me.”38 +YOUTH ACTIVISM + + This generation of undocumented youth coming of age in today’s +United States is historically unprecedented. Most undocumented +adults are individuals who were raised in another country and came +here as adults. They knew life in their country of birth, and they +came here of their own volition (but, of course, under historical +circumstances that they did not choose). Their experience of life in +the United States is that of being undocumented. +Their children, who may be undocumented as well, have a +completely different life experience. They were raised and attended +schools in this country, where they were repeatedly told that this is +a nation of immigrants, a country that treats everybody equally. +They were taught that if they worked hard, they could attend +college and get a good job. They were taught that they had rights, +because that’s what the schools teach children in this country. They +learned about Thoreau’s “Civil Disobedience” and about Martin +Luther King Jr. and struggles for racial justice and equality. At +home, they were taught that their parents brought them here so that +they could have a better life. +When Carola Suárez-Orozco, Marcelo Suárez-Orozco, and Irina +Todorova studied several generations of immigrant youth and their +experiences in US schools, they found that the immigrants of the +first generation are the highest achievers. They are acutely aware of +the sacrifices their parents made to provide more opportunities for +them, and “these parental sacrifices propel many immigrant +students to launch themselves wholeheartedly into their educational +journey.”39 +Learning that they are undocumented and what that means is an +unexpected and unacceptable shock to many of these children. They +never felt or knew that they were any different from their +classmates. Consider these testimonies from students: “It’s almost +like I am tied down to the ground with a ball and chain because I +don’t have citizenship”; “It’s like someone giving you a car, but not +putting any gas in it”; “They say you can accomplish whatever you +want or set your mind to, but they don’t say that it’s just for +some.”40 + + Just as this new generation of undocumented youth was finishing +high school, the 1996 Welfare Reform Act and IIRIRA made it +almost impossible for them to go to college. By prohibiting them +from receiving public financial aid and depriving them of state +residency, the acts effectively shut the door to higher education.41 +These youth have been at the forefront of organizing for +immigrants’ rights over the past decade. Access to higher education +has been one focal organizing point for high-achieving students. At +the state level, they fought for the right to be considered state +residents and to attend public colleges and universities. At the +national level, they fought for the DREAM Act, which would give +them educational rights and also put them on a path to citizenship. +In Texas, Republican governor Rick Perry signed the first in-state +tuition law in 2001, allowing undocumented students to be +considered state residents for tuition purposes. California passed a +similar law later the same year, and other states followed. As of +mid-2013, fourteen states offered in-state tuition to qualified +students who were undocumented.42 +Some arguments about in-state tuition were strictly economic. +Proponents explained that it would increase state revenues by +allowing more individuals to enroll in state colleges and +universities, while opponents feared that letting in the +undocumented would reduce the seats available to citizen students. +The number of students able to take advantage of these provisions +has been small: as of 2005, there were 1,620 in the University of +California and California State University systems and 5,100 in +Texas, including the community college system, which accounted +for about 80 percent of undocumented students.43 The +Massachusetts Taxpayers Foundation estimated that such a law +would allow some 350 students a year to enroll in that state, again +with the majority going to community colleges.44 +In-state tuition has been a state-level struggle. Only the federal +government could address the larger issue of status. The DREAM +Act, proposed and defeated or abandoned numerous times at the +federal level, would create a path to citizenship for certain + + undocumented youth. The different versions of the act vary slightly +on specifics, but in general they address a population that has come +to be known as the “DREAMers”: young people between the ages of +sixteen and thirty who were brought to the United States by their +parents before they reached the age of sixteen—that is, as children +—who may have crossed the border (or remained in the country) +“illegally,” but not through their own will or decision. The act +would extend provisional legal status to such youth for six years. If +they attend college or serve in the military for two years, their +provisional status could be converted into a path to citizenship.45 +(Other individuals and organizations object to the military service +provision, arguing that it is trying to create a de facto military draft +for young Latinos, since most would not be able to afford college +tuition even at in-state rates.)46 +The Migration Policy Institute estimated in 2010 (based on 2006– +2008 figures) that there were 2.1 million undocumented youth who +were potential beneficiaries of the DREAM Act. Almost a million of +these were under the age of eighteen.47 +The DREAM Act was reintroduced repeatedly in both the US +Senate and the House starting in 2001, and included in S. 2611, the +Comprehensive Immigration Reform Act approved by the Senate in +2006 (later defeated in the House of Representatives), and S. 744, +the Border Security, Economic Opportunity, and Immigration +Modernization Act passed by the Senate in 2013. +Many advocates saw the rights of DREAMers as a front line in a +larger struggle over the meaning of undocumentedness. By placing a +sympathetic face—a high-achieving high school student—together +with the term and the status of undocumented, they sought to +challenge the better-known image associating the status with +criminality. +Still, there was significant debate in the movement over this +tactic. By emphasizing the innocence of students who were brought +to the United States as young children with no choice in the matter, +did the campaign tacitly accept the guilt of these students’ parents, +who had made the decision? Were the students being held up as + + exceptional, deserving, undocumented individuals, thus implying +that other undocumented people were not deserving? +While some were wary of the way the DREAM Act seemed to +skim off and privilege the most publicly acceptable portion of the +undocumented population, most organizations believed that it was +an opening to challenge the very concept of undocumentedness. +Undocumented youth who grew up in the United States do not fit +the profile that many citizens hold of the “illegal immigrant.” Many +of these youth feel motivated to take advantage of their relative +privilege as English-speaking, assimilated, and educated members of +US society to fight publicly against anti-immigrant and antiundocumented sentiment. +The DREAM Act both responded to and created an outlet for a +huge upsurge in organizing by undocumented youth. Claudia +Anguiano, who studied the history of undocumented student +activism in depth, outlined three phases. From 2001 to 2007, “selfidentification strategies were used to create a collective group +identity that countered the negative dehumanizing typecast of +‘illegal aliens’ by identifying DREAMers as exceptional students.” +During the following two years, “self-representation strategies +worked to unite undocumented youth through the creation of +national coalitional organizations and through self-identification as +undocumented and unafraid.” Finally, during 2010, “activists utilized +strategies of self-reliance and self-identified as unapologetic +DREAMers. The strategies of intervention included the use of civil +disobedience tactics to petition for the legislation.”48 +In 2009, DREAMers founded the organization United We Dream +to coordinate nationally and use the tactic of coming out or telling +their own stories as a political weapon. “Leaders realized that +encouraging young people to recount the stories of their lives in +hiding and of their thwarted aspirations could be liberating for +them, and also compelling for skeptical Americans.”49 Taking +inspiration from the gay rights movement, many have themselves +and encouraged others to come out and hold public coming-out +ceremonies. Jose Antonio Vargas suggested, in his defiantly titled + + essay “Not Legal, Not Leaving,” that “we are living in the golden age +of coming out.”50 Coming out can be a personal liberation, but it is +also part of a larger project to insist on social and legal acceptance, +which means fundamentally changing the legal structures of +belonging in the country and challenging the beliefs that underlie +and justify anti-immigrant sentiment. +DREAM activist Gaby Pacheco accompanied much of this process. +Pacheco, like Jose Antonio Vargas and so many others, learned that +she was undocumented when she went to apply for her learner’s +permit. She had come from Ecuador to Miami with her parents +when she was about to start third grade. She began to organize for +the rights of undocumented students in 2004, founding Students for +Immigrant Rights in Florida and working with the Florida +Immigrant Coalition and Presente.org. “From four of us that used to +meet to try to pass the DREAM Act, we now have 16 chapters +throughout Florida. Students Working for Equal Rights is part of the +United We Dream network, which is led by students and represents +26 states,” she explained.51 +In January 2010, Pacheco joined three other immigrant Florida +students for a fifteen-hundred-mile march to Washington, DC, part +of the ongoing and increasingly public campaign to press for the +rights of the undocumented. “They said they had concluded that the +exposure to immigration agents on the walk was not much greater +than what they faced in their daily lives. ‘We are aware of the risk,’ +[one participant] said . . . ‘We are risking our future because our +present is unbearable.’” ICE declined to comment on the issue.52 +“Coming out didn’t endanger me; it had protected me,” wrote +Vargas. “A Philippine-born, college-educated, outspoken mainstream +journalist is not the face the government wants to put on its +deportation program.” He also wanted to use his case to publicize +the arbitrary nature of immigration enforcement. “Who flies under +the radar, and who becomes one of those unfortunate 396,906 [who +are deported]? Who stays, who goes, and who decides?”53 +A year after coming out, he recounted his attempt to find out +what ICE planned to do about him. + + After months of waiting for something to happen, I decided +that I would confront immigration officials myself. Since I live +in New York City, I called the local ICE office. The phone +operators I first reached were taken aback when I explained +the reason for my call. Finally I was connected to an ICE +officer. +“Are you planning on deporting me?” I asked. +I quickly found out that even though I publicly came out +about my undocumented status, I still do not exist in the eyes +of ICE. Like most undocumented immigrants, I’ve never been +arrested. Therefore, I’ve never been in contact with ICE. +“After checking the appropriate ICE databases, the agency +has no records of ever encountering Mr. Vargas,” Luis +Martinez, a spokesman for the ICE office in New York, wrote +me in an e-mail. +I then contacted the ICE headquarters in Washington. I +hoped to get some insight into my status and that of all the +others who are coming out. How does ICE view these cases? +Can publicly revealing undocumented status trigger +deportation proceedings, and if so, how is that decided? Is ICE +planning to seek my deportation? +“We do not comment on specific cases,” is all I was told.54 +Amid increasingly visible activism and sympathetic media +coverage, Congress took up the DREAM Act again at the end of +2010. Although it passed the House of Representatives, advocates +could not muster enough votes to overcome a Senate filibuster. +Most Republicans opposed the DREAM Act in the 2010 vote, even +some who had supported previous attempts. The House was about +to be turned over to a Republican majority. For some DREAMers, it +was time to shift away from a legislative strategy. “In a meeting +after the vote with Senator Harry Reid of Nevada, the majority +leader, Ms. [Gaby] Pacheco said she grabbed him and whispered in +his ear. ‘You know the president has the power to stop deporting +us,’ she said. ‘You know you could tell him to do this.’ Startled, Mr. +Reid gave her a hug and walked away.” In early 2011, United We + + Dream decided to change its focus to the president. At the National +Council of La Raza meeting in Washington in July, when Obama +tried to explain that he could not bypass Congress to push for +immigrants’ rights, DREAMers “erupted in shouts: ‘Yes you can! Yes +you can!’”55 +Meanwhile, Obama’s June 2011 Morton Memo specifically +included DREAMers as a category meriting “prosecutorial +discretion,” essentially advising that ICE refrain from prosecuting +them for immigration violations. (See chapter 8 for a more detailed +discussion of prosecutorial discretion.) DREAMers saw this as a +concession and an opening for further action. +In March 2012, Florida Republican—and potential vice +presidential candidate—Marco Rubio announced that he was +preparing to propose his own version of the DREAM Act. While +reluctant to address specifics, Rubio emphasized that unlike +previous versions of the act, his would not open a path to +citizenship for undocumented youth. “I think that one of the debates +that we need to begin to have is a difference between citizenship +and legalization . . . You can legalize someone’s status in this +country with a significant amount of certainty about their future +without placing them on a path toward citizenship, and I think that +is something that we can find consensus on,” Rubio explained. +DREAM Act supporter and Democratic senator Harry Reid declared +scornfully that this was a “watered-down version” that he would do +“everything in his power” to oppose.56 +Still, Democrats worried about ceding momentum—and possibly +Latino votes—to the Republicans during an election year. +DREAMers praised Rubio’s step, and they continued to challenge +Obama to take presidential action. In May, they presented the +administration with a letter signed by over ninety law professors +outlining legal precedents and steps that the president could take to +halt deportations of undocumented youth.57 +“[Rubio’s] plan puts Obama in a box,” the Washington Post +reported. “Democrats are reluctant to see Rubio’s efforts as anything +other than a political gambit to repair his party’s tarnished image + + with Hispanics and boost his own profile as a potential vicepresidential pick or future White House contender. But if Obama +does not at least try to work with Rubio, he could risk losing a +centerpiece of his appeal to Hispanic voters—that he is their fiercest +ally in Washington and that the GOP is to blame for lack of action +on fixing the country’s immigration ills.”58 +In June, Obama regained the initiative for the Democrats when +he announced his DACA program. +DACA +Much smaller than a comprehensive immigration reform, smaller +even than the DREAM Act, DACA offered a two-year respite to +young people who, Obama said, were American “in every single +way but one: on paper.” “We’re a better nation than one that expels +innocent young kids,” he explained.59 While his announcement was +celebrated by many young undocumented immigrants and +organizations that advocate for immigrant rights, it did not make +those young people “American,” and like the DREAM Act, it +implicitly raised questions about the very nature of status and +illegality that were uncomfortable for both DREAMers and their +opponents. +DACA followed the DREAM Act in addressing people thirty and +under who had arrived in the United States before age sixteen and +had lived here continuously since 2007 and were in school, high +school graduates, or veterans. (Vargas, who had just turned thirtyone, was thus excluded.) Unlike the DREAM Act, however, DACA +did not open up a path to citizenship. It was limited to relief from +deportation for two years and, during those two years, permission to +work. +The Pew Hispanic Center estimated that up to 1.4 million youth +would be eligible for DACA, half of them under eighteen and half +eighteen to thirty and either enrolled in school or high school +graduates. Seventy percent of these were from Mexico. Together, +DACA candidates represented just over 10 percent of undocumented +immigrants in the United States.60 + + During the first month (August 16 to September 15), US Citizen +and Immigration Services (USCIS) received 82,361 applications.61 A +month later, the agency announced that 179,794 DACA applications +had been received, and 4,591 approved.62 By April 2013, the USCIS +reported a total 488,782 received, and 472,004 approved. The vast +majority of applicants were from Mexico (354,002), followed by El +Salvador (18,949), Honduras (12,603), and Guatemala (11,817).63 +Grace Meng from Human Rights Watch pointed out that DACA +was aimed at only a certain sector of immigrant youth. “The +program’s idea of ‘American’ is unlikely to include the children who +picked the oranges for your juice or the tomatoes on your +hamburgers,” she explained. The children of migrant farm workers, +she points out, are more likely to be out of school—they drop out at +four times the national average—and less likely to have the +documentation of continuous presence required to qualify for DACA. +It is clear, Meng writes, that +the program of deferred action was not designed for child +farmworkers who, like many immigrants throughout U.S. +history, live very different lives than middle-class, suburban +kids. . . . It’s not surprising that the Obama administration +designed a program for the best and the brightest immigrant +children. But the fact that deferred action will probably +exclude many farmworker children underscores how much +immigration law is out of sync with the reality of an economy +that depends on unauthorized immigrants.64 +By proposing an immigration reform—whether one as farreaching as the DREAM Act or one as limited as DACA—for this +restricted group of people, policymakers and advocates suggested +that this group—and, implicitly but inevitably, not other groups— +deserved access to some sort of legal status. By recognizing these +young people as American, the implication was that other +undocumented people were not American, but rather irredeemably +foreign. If these young people were defined as innocent—because +they were brought to the United States by their parents before they + + were old enough to make an independent decision—then their +parents, who made the decision and brought them, were by +implication guilty. +When Senators Robert Menendez (D-New Jersey), Dick Durbin +(D-Illinois), and Harry Reid (D-Nevada) introduced a recent version +of the DREAM Act in May 2011, they presented it in precisely those +terms. The act, Reid claimed, was for “children brought to this +nation by their parents through no fault of their own.” “We should +not punish children for their parents’ past decisions,” Menendez +added. Senator Ben Cardin (D-Maryland) agreed that “we should not +hold innocent children responsible for the sins of their parents.”65 +Many children found it difficult to accept the logic that +counterpoised their own innocence with their parents’ guilt. As one +DREAMer protested, “I was brought to this country by a very +courageous woman. She’s my hero. She’s my mother. She left +everyone and everything she knew behind in order for her to give +me a better life. . . . I’m not going to blame her. . . . I thank her for +bringing me here.”66 +Referring to the internal border that separates the undocumented +from the rest of US society, another DREAMer wrote, +Is it possible that DACA is also perpetuating this internal +border? DACA passed largely due to the pressure that was +being put on politicians and President Obama by DREAMers. +But, I began to question, what else could have influenced the +passing of DACA? The strong movement of DREAMers started +getting exposure to the general public of the country and the +movement made many people question why these students . . +. were being punished. DREAMers began to make this internal +border visible to the country. . . . In order for the United +States to keep perpetuating undocumentedness as an +unwanted and illegal “thing,” they chose to help us in a way +that keeps us in the same state of second-class citizenship with +a nicer title and stops the general public from continuing to +ponder this question. . . . Undocumentedness allows the +country to keep its cheap labor and discriminate against non- + + whites. And, with undocumented students out of the +immediate picture of undocumentedness, the continual +perpetuation of undocumented people as outsiders can +continue to thrive.67 +Many argued that DACA was a first step rather than a solution. +“‘By having this relief and having access to greater resources we can +begin to push harder for relief for the entire community,’ said +Lorella Praeli, advocacy director of the group United We Dream. +‘This fight for DREAMers in our community has never been about +ourselves. . . . It’s been about our families.’”68 Just a month after the +2012 election, United We Dream agreed upon a new platform +demanding “an inclusive pathway to citizenship.” A New York Times +reporter described the meeting: +Their decision to push for legal status for their families was +intensely emotional. When they were asked at a plenary +session how many had been separated by deportation from a +parent or other close family member, hundreds of hands went +up. They were critical of Mr. Obama for deporting more than +1.4 million people during his first term. +“When Obama is deporting all these people, separating all +of our families, I’m sick and tired of that,” said Regem Corpuz, +a 19-year-old student at the University of California, Los +Angeles, who was born in the Philippines. +“Our families’ dreams were to get a better future,” said +Ulises Vasquez of Sonoma County, Calif., “but our future is +with our families together.” +At the meeting, several parents followed their children’s lead and +held a coming-out ceremony to tell their stories publicly for the first +time.69 +Other contradictions plagued DACA as well. Presidential +candidate Mitt Romney announced that, if elected, he would +immediately halt the program upon taking office, though he said he +would not revoke the status of those who had already been + + approved. With Obama’s election, the program seemed secure at +least for the two years initially announced. But many of those who it +was designed to help found themselves caught in the multiple +contradictions of the immigration system, which DACA could not +transcend. +For many young immigrants, the very documents they needed to +supply to prove that they fulfilled the program’s requirements were +precisely those that they lacked. As the New York Times asked, “How +do you document an undocumented life?” Particularly difficult were +work records. For those who worked off the books and were paid in +cash, no records documented the transactions. For those who used +false Social Security numbers, submitting the evidence incriminated +them in another crime. Moreover, employers were reluctant to +unearth or provide records that could implicate them, too, in legal +problems.70 +Furthermore, DACA did not affect the actions of ICE, which was +pursuing deportation cases against a significant number of potential +recipients. Instead, it placed two branches of the Department of +Homeland Security against each other: while USCIS administered +DACA, ICE attorneys were still charged with pursuing deportation +cases. With 325,000 cases pending in its backlogged system, ICE +found itself prosecuting—and even deporting—young people, even +as USCIS was reviewing or approving their applications for deferred +action.71 +Obama also disappointed many DREAMers when he announced +that DACA recipients would be excluded from federal health-care +programs under the Affordable Care Act (including Medicaid and +federal subsidies for purchasing private insurance), even though +immigrants deemed “lawfully present” were eligible. The New York +Times noted ironically that “immigrants granted such relief [i.e., +Deferred Action] would ordinarily meet the definition of ‘lawfully +present’ residents. . . . But the administration issued a rule in late +August that specifically excluded the young immigrants from the +definition of ‘lawfully present.’”72 + + The Department of Homeland Security left it up to individual +states to decide whether people with DACA status could obtain a +driver’s license or receive state-level benefits like in-state tuition at +state colleges and universities. Arizona’s governor declared that +DACA youth were not eligible for driver’s licenses, while +Massachusetts became the first state to make them eligible for instate tuition. In Michigan, the Secretary of State’s office announced +that DACA youth would not be able to obtain a driver’s license. “We +rely on the federal government to tell us who is here legally; we +don’t determine that,” the office explained. “So far, the federal +government has not provided information to the states indicating +that DACA grants that legal status.” As one Michigan DACA +recipient put it wryly, “I’m caught in this situation where I can go to +work, I can go to school, I’m legal here, but I can’t go to work and +can’t go to school.”73 +As President Obama celebrated his victory in the 2012 election, +he highlighted immigrant youth. “We believe in a generous +America, in a compassionate America, in a tolerant America open to +the dreams of an immigrant’s daughter who studies in our schools +and pledges to our flag, to the young boy on the south side of +Chicago who sees a life beyond the nearest street corner, to the +furniture worker’s child in North Carolina who wants to become a +doctor or a scientist, an engineer or an entrepreneur, a diplomat or +even a president,” the president proclaimed stirringly. +“Obama was very clearly referencing the immigrant youth who +he’s supported with his backing of the DREAM Act and deferred +action,” said Julianne Hing, Colorlines immigration reporter. “But it +should be noted that his support came largely because immigrant +youth have put his feet to the fire and relentlessly demanded more +humane treatment of undocumented youth and their families.”74 +The Senate’s comprehensive immigration reform bill (S. 744) passed +in June 2013 included the most generous version yet of the DREAM +Act, but as the bill subsequently stalled in the House, the future for +immigrant youth remained as uncertain as ever. + + CHAPTER 8 + +Solutions +In order to talk about solutions, we have to understand the real +roots and nature of the problem. Many politicians and others who +see immigration control as an issue of security and sovereignty +imagine that hordes of poor people of color are seeking to +appropriate the resources of this land that we now call the United +States. This formulation of the problem is a precise reversal of the +actual European settlement of the country, from the perspective of +the Native Americans. +It is also a mirror image of the United States’ relationship with +the countries—primarily Mexico, Central America, and other Latin +American countries—from which the undocumented come. In every +case, the products and profits accumulated in the sending countries +are a major source of the abundance and affluence in the United +States. A quick review of any supermarket or clothing or electronics +store reveals the Third World and often Latin American origins of +many of the products we consume. More invisible are the mines, oil +wells, multinationals, and profits behind the products. But the flow +of resources is undeniable. +The history that is drummed into the heads of US schoolchildren +insists that the “country of immigrants” was founded and built by +Europeans. The invisible underside of this narrative is the imperial +narrative of conquest and dispossession that continued until the end +of the nineteenth century and upon which the new “country of +[white] immigrants” was built. +The country-of-immigrants narrative is very much a narrative of +race. Immigrants were conceived as white Europeans (the only +people allowed to naturalize), and their presence and comfort +depended upon the labor of people who were legally excluded from +the polity. Throughout the nineteenth and much of the twentieth +centuries, Mexicans, like African Americans prior to 1868, were + + accepted as a necessary evil for their labor and considered +unthreatening to the white nature of the country that viewed them +as exploitable workers rather than as potential citizens. The history +of reliance on Mexican labor coupled with the refusal to grant rights +to Mexican workers is a long one indeed. +The Treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo and the Gadsden Purchase (La +Mesilla Purchase of 1853) offered US citizenship to Mexican citizens +resident in the territories newly taken. By specifying “Mexican +citizens,” the laws excluded the Native American population +resident in the area. And by offering citizenship to Mexicans at a +time when citizenship was restricted to whites, the laws implied that +Mexicans would be considered white. In the midcentury, then, “it +was possible . . . to be both white and Mexican in the United +States.”1 However, as Katherine Benton-Cohn explains in her +detailed study of four Arizona border towns, Mexican nationality +became racialized as nonwhite during the nineteenth century +through work. Where Mexicans were workers, rather than +landholders, they came to be legally defined as racially Mexican and +disqualified from citizenship. +“Where Mexicans owned ranches and farms, racial categories +were blurry and unimportant. But in the industrial copper-mining +town of Bisbee, Mexican workers were segregated economically by +their lower pay (‘Mexican wage’) and geographically by new townplanning experiments. To most non-Mexican residents of Bisbee, +Mexicans were peon workers or potential public charges, not +neighbors or business partners, not co-workers or co-worshipers, +and certainly not potential marriage partners.” In these areas, where +Mexicans became defined as racially Mexican through their laboring +status, “‘American’ increasingly equaled ‘white,’ and so ‘Mexican’ +came to mean the opposite of both.”2 +Nicolas De Genova notes the “longstanding equation of Mexican +migration with a presumably temporary, disposable (finally, +deportable) labor migration predominated by men (who were +predominantly single or left wives and children behind).”3 The 1911 +Dillingham US Immigration Commission argued that “while + + [Mexicans] are not easily assimilated, this is of no very great +importance as long as most of them return to their native land. In +the case of the Mexican, he is less desirable as a citizen than as a +laborer.”4 “One way or the other, then,” De Genova concludes, “US +policy would ensure that ‘most of them’ proved to be sojourners.”5 +The laws that restricted citizenship to whites did not restrict the +right to work to whites. On the contrary, Congress has repeatedly +created new categories of nonwhite people who were specifically +cast as workers. (Slave laborers comprised the original worker-butnot-potential-citizen category.) Deportability became a crucial factor +in cementing the association between Mexican-ness as a race and +legal status as a temporary worker. The threat of deportation +worked to institutionalize the fragile character of Mexicans’ claims +to rights in the land where they came, invited, to work. It could be +used to accommodate the changing needs of employers, and it could +also be used to discourage union organizing or other forms of social +protest.6 Until the 1960s, racial justifications seemed sufficient for +legal discrimination against Mexicans. +MAKING IMMIGRATION ILLEGAL +After the 1960s, when race was finally rejected as a rationale for +excluding people from access to public spaces, citizenship, or entry +into the United States, new forms of legal and legalized exclusion +took its place. The last two major immigration reforms, in 1965 and +1986, turned Mexican migrant workers into “illegal” workers and +used that legal status to justify discrimination. They also, +paradoxically, helped to greatly increase both the immigrant and +the undocumented population. +The 1965 law is generally seen as a civil rights triumph. One +typical account explains that it “ended discrimination” and +“represented a significant watershed in US immigration history and +particularly in its explicit reversal of decades of systematically +exclusive and restrictive immigration policies.” Immigration +scholars agree that the climate of the civil rights movement of the +1960s set the context for the 1965 immigration reform.7 + + Despite this generous interpretation, the 1965 law was actually +“distinctly and unequivocally restrictive” when it came to Mexican +migrants.8 Through the 1950s and early 1960s, hundreds of +thousands of Mexicans were crossing the border as braceros or +alongside the braceros each year. Then the Bracero Program was +ended and Mexican immigration was suddenly capped. By 1976, a +cap of twenty thousand immigrant visas a year was enforced. The +seasonal, circular migration of Mexicans over many decades that +had attracted little national attention suddenly became “a yearly +and highly visible violation of American sovereignty by hostile +aliens who were increasingly framed as invaders and criminals.”9 +If the new restrictions were intended to lower migration from +Latin America, they failed miserably. Instead, all types of +immigration from Latin America rose after 1965: temporary and +permanent, legal and illegal. Legal immigration from Latin America +grew from about 450,000 between 1950 and 1960 to over 4 million +between 1990 and 2000, while the number of undocumented Latin +Americans living long term in the United States grew from almost +none in 1965 to close to 10 million in the first decade of the new +century.10 +Further “unintended consequences” flowed from the greatly +increased border enforcement of the 1990s and 2000s. As border +crossing became more difficult, more dangerous, and more +expensive, seasonal migrants began to change their patterns and +stay on in the United States, sometimes bringing their families as +well. The undocumented population grew rapidly in those decades, +not because more immigrants were arriving, but because fewer were +leaving. “It was thus a sharp decline in the outflow of +undocumented migrants, not an increase in the inflow of +undocumented migrants, that was responsible for the acceleration of +undocumented population growth during the 1990s and early +2000s, and this decline in return migration was to a great extent a +product of US enforcement efforts.”11 +Starting in 1990, a series of laws made life even more difficult for +noncitizens, including green-card holders (legal permanent + + residents). Family reunification privileges favored citizens over legal +permanent residents. In 1996, legal permanent residents were +barred from receiving most social services, while the Antiterrorism +and Effective Death Penalty Act made noncitizens deportable for a +wide range of crimes, even if they had been committed in a distant +past. Then, in 2001, the USA-PATRIOT Act made deportation and +arrest possible for virtually any noncitizen, based only upon the US +Attorney General’s decision.12 +In response to the increasingly punitive climate for noncitizens, +more immigrants chose to naturalize. As new citizens, they were +now able to take advantage of the family preferences created by the +1965 law and petition for their family members, thus contributing +to an increase in overall immigration.13 +STRUCTURAL CAUSES OF INCREASED MIGRATION +While US legislative changes played a large role in increasing both +documented and undocumented immigration, the enormous +political and economic convulsions that wracked Latin America in +the post-1965 era and the shifts in the global economy were also +important. Political movements for social change were crushed as a +wave of extraordinarily repressive right-wing dictatorships spread +through the continent. Supply-side economics and structural +adjustment programs tore apart social safety networks and spurred +export-oriented extraction and production. The new policies +disrupted traditional economies while creating expectations and +hopes that couldn’t be fulfilled at home. Meanwhile, both +consumption and inequality shot up in the United States, creating +massive demand for cheap immigrant workers. Globalizing +technologies and migration chains transformed the possibility of +migration from remote to realistic. The forces behind the rise in +Latin American, especially Mexican and Central American, +migration were multiple indeed. +Even as US politicians railed about illegal immigration and +border control, they pursued policies that served to increase migrant +flows. Policies imposed on Latin America that destroy subsistence + + farming and degrade agricultural work, and limit employment +opportunities and social services, set the stage for out-migration. +Policies at home that create demand for low-wage, immigrant +workers and establish recruitment networks structure the +destinations of migrant flows. These are precisely the policies that +the United States has implemented. +Over the past century, the United States has consistently +promoted export-oriented economies in Latin America based on +foreign investment. It has opposed and overthrown Latin American +governments that have tried to take control of or redistribute their +countries’ resources. During recent decades, US policies promoting +neoliberal austerity measures and market fundamentalism have had +noxious effects on Latin American society. They undermine +subsistence agriculture, employment, and the social safety network, +while increasing structural and individual violence in Latin America. +The United States has used international institutions, military +interventions, trade agreements, and corporate privilege to arrive at +a situation in which it, with 4 percent of the world’s population, +consumes between 25 percent and 50 percent of the planet’s major +resources, while simultaneously creating an enormous demand for +low-wage, informal, and seasonal labor. Thus, the United States +continues to set the stage for large migrations from Latin America.14 +Perhaps the advocates of border control believe that while the +open border worked in the past, these structural changes have made +it untenable in today’s world. A focus on securing—or more +accurately, militarizing—the border, though, only serves to +reinforce the structural conditions behind migration. As Jacqueline +Stevens argues, “Illegitimate regimes benefit from the restrictive +immigration policies of their neighbors. In most countries run by +tyrants, emigration is not curtailed by the regimes themselves, +which often lack the resources to police wide swaths of their +borders. Rather, neighboring countries fearing the incursion of +political and economic refugees take care of this.”15 +In the case of the United States and Latin America, Stevens’s +argument must be refined. It is not pure coincidence that poor and + + violent countries in Latin America coexist alongside the +overconsuming United States. Deliberate US policies, from invasions +and occupations to military aid to loans and investments, have +created the Latin American polities and economies and the +disparities that are now the roots of today’s migrations. Attempts to +seal the border only reinforce the very inequalities that contribute +to migration. +CHALLENGING DISCRIMINATION +The campaigns to strengthen immigration law and make it harsher +are fairly well known and have been related to the successive +punitive measures against undocumented immigrants since the +1980s. But organizations that defended the rights of immigrants +and, in particular, the undocumented also grew in the last decades +of the twentieth century.16 +While nativism has been part of US society and culture since the +country was founded, specifically anti-undocumented sentiment and +movements date to the post-1965 and especially the post-1986 +period. The Republican Party first mentioned immigration +enforcement in its 1980 national platform and in 1984 first +“affirmed the right of the United States to control its boundaries and +voiced concern about illegal immigration.” The Democratic Party +first mentioned illegal immigration in its 1996 platform.17 Popular +movements for the defense of the rights of the undocumented also +grew this period. +Mexican American rights organizations like LULAC have taken +mixed stances on the undocumented and even on immigrants in +general over the course of the twentieth century. Mexican +Americans sought to claim their rights by demonstrating their +patriotism and distancing themselves from new arrivals, even as +their communities, friends, and families included both documented +and undocumented new immigrants.18 Even the United Farm +Workers union, made up primarily of immigrants, was hesitant to +defend the rights of the undocumented. + + However, Mexican American rights, immigrant rights, and the +rights of the undocumented have also been intertwined. The +Chicano movement of the 1960s and ’70s rejected the emphasis on +patriotism and assimilation of earlier generations, and insisted on a +cultural nationalism that united people of Mexican origin, regardless +of status. (The movement adopted the name Chicano to emphasize +the indigenous roots of Mexicans and the difference in their +historical experience from that of European immigrants.) “Chicano +families became the new underground railroad,” explained Alma +Martínez evocatively, referring to the ties that bound US-born +Chicanos to new, including undocumented, immigrants.19 Even as +politicians and the media raised their voices against the +undocumented, networks and organizations grew to defend their +rights. +In the 1980s, growing numbers of Central American refugees +joined the ranks of what had previously been primarily a Mexican +phenomenon. The sanctuary movement, growing primarily out of +Central American refugee organizations and Anglo religious +congregations, sought to aid Salvadoran and Guatemalan refugees in +the United States without legal status. Some organizations were +made up of refugees themselves, like the Central American Refugee +Center (CARECEN, later changed to Central American Resource +Center), founded in 1983. These and other organizations concerned +with the rights of Salvadoran (and to a lesser extent, Guatemalan) +refugees were the first to bring the question of the rights of the +undocumented into the public sphere. They also emphasized how +US intervention was behind much of the violence that was causing +people to flee Central America. +A series of lawsuits focused specifically on the right to asylum, +reflecting these organizations’ concern with the situation of Central +American refugees. Orantes-Hernandez v. Meese and Perez-Funes v. +District Director both required the INS to strengthen Central +Americans’ right to seek and obtain asylum in the mid-1980s. +Finally, in 1990, American Baptist Church v. Thornburgh required the +INS to reopen asylum cases that had been unfairly denied. The + + organizations pushing the lawsuits also worked to end US military +aid to El Salvador. Their focus was on the Central American crisis +and its victims, more than on the issue of undocumentedness per se. +THE FIRST COMPREHENSIVE REFORM +The 1986 Immigration Reform and Control Act (IRCA) was +comprehensive in the same way that twenty-first-century proposals +for comprehensive reform were. It combined enforcement—in the +form of employer sanctions and increased border security—with +legalization or amnesty. The rationale was that by legalizing some +of the undocumented population, encouraging others to leave +(through employer sanctions that would make it more difficult for +them to work), and making it more difficult for further +undocumented people to enter the country, the numbers of the +undocumented should be significantly reduced. +IRCA had complicated implications for the undocumented. For +those who could document presence since 1982 or eligibility for +Special Agricultural Worker Status, the chance to obtain legal status +was priceless. (As discussed earlier, the law also created a black +market of falsified papers trying to document eligibility.) The +employer sanctions provisions of the law, however, created a new +system for marginalizing and discriminating against the +undocumented. By offering legal status to some, but not all of the +undocumented, IRCA (like the DREAM Act and DACA) invited even +more pernicious racism against those it left out. +The National Network for Immigrant and Refugee Rights was +established in 1986, growing out of a coalition that coalesced in +1985 to organize a National Day of Justice for Immigrants and +Refugees in opposition to legislative proposals for employer +sanctions for the hiring of undocumented workers, which was +incorporated in the 1986 IRCA. Following the passage of the law, +new organizations like the New York Immigrant Coalition and the +Massachusetts Immigrant and Refugee Advocacy Coalition formed +both to help undocumented immigrants gain legal status and to + + challenge discriminatory aspects of the enforcement of employer +sanctions (and sometimes the notion of employer sanctions itself). +Despite its supposed comprehensiveness, IRCA did not live up to +its claims. Around 1.7 million immigrants became legalized through +IRCA provisions, which succeeded in reducing the total +undocumented population by that number. However, the gradual +net inflow of undocumented people did not seem to change much. +As Karen Woodrow and Jeffrey Passel explain, “The entire decrease +in the undocumented population from 3.1 million in 1986 to 1.9 +million in 1988 is attributable to . . . formerly undocumented +immigrants changing their status to legal residents under the +provisions of the IRCA.”20 In other words, the law led to neither an +increased outflow nor a reduced inflow of undocumented +immigrants. In fact, “after this group [those who legalized] is taken +into account, our research suggests that the remaining +undocumented population may actually have increased between +June 1986 and June 1988. . . . Thus IRCA has not cut off the flow of +new undocumented immigrants to the United States.”21 +The AFL-CIO supported employer sanctions in 1986. But as Jeff +Stansbury wrote a few years later, “The IRCA is not a border-control +law,” rather, it is “a worker-control law.” In the words of Asian Law +Caucus staff attorney Bill Tamayo, “The new law has codified the +existence of a cheap and highly exploitable class of labor, largely +non-white and non-English-speaking, with little rights, if any.” And +employers lost no time in using the law as a weapon against workers +who tried to organize unions.22 In 2000, the AFL-CIO reversed its +stance and called for a repeal of employer sanctions.23 AFL-CIO +executive vice president Linda Chavez-Thompson explained, +“Employers often knowingly hire workers who are undocumented, +and then when workers seek to improve working conditions +employers use the law to fire or intimidate workers.”24 +Proponents of employer sanctions argued that by making it more +difficult for undocumented immigrants to find work, the law would +discourage them from migrating to begin with. For Mexicans +contemplating migration, though, employer sanctions did not + + appear to loom very large. In one important study of Mexican +sending communities in 1990, “Interviewees made it clear that +having a job in the United States is far more important to them than +any law the US Congress might pass: If they have a solid job +prospect, they will migrate, with or without papers. Our field +studies suggest that the robust growth in employment opportunities +in the United States in the second half of the 1980s has been at least +as important in fueling the current wave of emigration as the effects +of Mexico’s lingering economic crisis.”25 +THE ANTI-IMMIGRANT 1990S +In the 1990s, explicitly anti-undocumented or anti-illegal +mobilization took off, especially in California, where Proposition 13 +in 1978 had decimated state finances. Under Governor Pete Wilson, +“illegal” immigrants became a convenient scapegoat.26 Proposition +187 in 1994 was the first of many state- and nationwide efforts to +impose austerity on the backs of the most vulnerable. Nicknamed +“Save Our State,” it sought primarily to bar the undocumented from +receiving public services. The text of the proposed law began by +stating: “The People of California find and declare as follows: That +they have suffered and are suffering economic hardship caused by +the presence of illegal aliens in this state. That they have suffered +and are suffering personal injury and damage caused by the criminal +conduct of illegal aliens in this state. That they have a right to the +protection of their government from any person or persons entering +this country unlawfully.”27 Wilson “made undocumented +immigration the cornerstone of his 1994 re-election campaign.”28 +Proposition 187’s language and rationale became widespread in the +anti-undocumented movement in subsequent years. +Many of Proposition 187’s provisions were never enacted, being +tied up or rejected in the courts. However, as California goes, so +goes the nation. After the Democrat Bill Clinton became president in +1993, Wilson connected anti-immigrant with anti-Washington +bombast, claiming that the federal government had failed to protect +the country’s borders. Wilson’s attacks helped to push Clinton to the + + right on border enforcement, as Clinton sought to woo California’s +apparently increasingly anti-immigrant electorate.29 +Anti-“illegal” rhetoric mirrored and intertwined with a growing +anti-black, anti–civil rights backlash in multiple ways. It replaced +explicitly racialized language with a two-pronged attack against +people of color. First, starting with the 1980 election, conservatives +“repeatedly raised the issue of welfare, subtly framing it as a context +between hardworking blue-collar whites and poor blacks who +refused to work.”30 Second was rhetoric about law and order.31 +“The shift to a general attitude of ‘toughness’ toward problems +associated with communities of color began in the 1960s. . . . By the +late 1980s, however, not only conservatives played leading roles in +the get-tough movement, spouting the rhetoric once associated only +with segregationists. Democratic politicians and policy makers were +now attempting to wrest control of the crime and drug issues from +Republicans by advocating stricter anti-crime and anti-drug laws— +all in an effort to win back the so-called ‘swing voters’ who were +defecting to the Republican Party.”32 +By the end of 1993, “politicians began tripping over one another +to take a tough stance on boundary enforcement and unauthorized +migration.”33 In 1994, President Clinton implemented Operation +Gatekeeper to bring the border “under control” and undercut Pete +Wilson’s protagonism by taking the lead on border enforcement as +the elections approached.34 In 1996, Clinton pressed for punitive +Welfare Reform and Immigration Reform laws that enacted federally +much of what California had tried to do at the state level. With +these laws, Clinton made both welfare reform and law and order +centerpieces of the Democratic Party program, and linked the antiblack and the anti-immigrant aspects of these policies. In the panic +following the 9/11 attacks, the USA-PATRIOT Act of 2001 and the +subsequent creation of the Department of Homeland Security in +2003 strengthened both institutional controls against potential and +current immigrants, as well as the ideological climate of antiimmigrant sentiment. + + Joseph Nevins argues that the government’s increasing attention +to border enforcement in the 1990s actually served to create the +supposed immigration crisis. Through its sensationalist rhetoric and +justifications, as well as its ostentatious enforcement policies, the +state helped to convince the population that such a crisis indeed +existed.35 +Republicans were torn between their traditional allies in the +business community—who had little incentive to join the +anti-“illegal” hysteria—and the new right-wing populism. Texas +went the opposite direction from California in the 1990s. “In Texas, +the economy was booming; the suburbs of Dallas, Houston, Austin, +and San Antonio were exploding; and thousands of illegal +immigrants sat astride two-by-fours, nail guns in hand, building +those neighborhoods. So, then-governor Bush and his man Karl Rove +crafted a different strategy from their California colleagues: +Hispanic-friendly. The result? In 1998, George W. Bush crushed his +Democratic opponent, getting nearly half the Hispanic vote—a +triumph that placed him on the path to the presidency one year +later.”36 In 2001, Texas Republican governor Rick Perry’s decision +to sign the nation’s first in-state tuition law in 2001 represented the +crest of the pro-immigrant wave. +A decade later Texas Republicans had gone the way of their +California colleagues. Texas Republicans promoted a redistricting +plan and voter identification law that federal courts struck down as +discriminatory. As late as 2010, Perry declared that a law like +Arizona’s S.B. 1070 “would not be the right direction for Texas.”37 +By 2012, however, he was defending Arizona. “No state should be +held hostage to a federal government that refuses to enforce the +laws of the land. . . . The people of Arizona took action consistent +with federal law and in direct response to the failure of this +administration to secure our nation’s borders. The absence of federal +action on immigration enforcement directly spoils the integrity of +our nation’s laws.”38 Moreover, Perry was pushing for a Texas +version of this legislation, banning sanctuary cities that would + + prevent local law enforcement agencies from enforcing federal +immigration law.39 +“COMPREHENSIVE” VERSUS “ENFORCEMENT ONLY” +IN THE NEW CENTURY +In January 2004, president and candidate George W. Bush had +lauded the country’s immigrant history in a speech whose audience +included representatives of LULAC and other Hispanic +organizations. Bush acknowledged the country’s need for migrant +workers and expressed great sympathy for the undocumented: +Reform must begin by confronting a basic fact of life and +economics: Some of the jobs being generated in America’s +growing economy are jobs American citizens are not filling. +Yet these jobs represent a tremendous opportunity for workers +from abroad who want to work and to fulfill their duties as a +husband or a wife, a son or a daughter. Their search for a +better life is one of the most basic desires of human beings. +Many undocumented workers have walked mile after mile, +through the heat of the day and the cold of the night. Some +have risked their lives in dangerous desert border crossings or +entrusted their lives to the brutal rings of heartless human +smugglers. Workers who seek only to earn a living end up in +the shadows of American life, fearful, often abused and +exploited. When they’re victimized by crimes they’re afraid to +call the police or seek recourse in the legal system. They are +cut off from their families far away, fearing if they leave our +country to visit relatives back home they might never be able +to return to their jobs. +Thus, Bush proposed offering temporary legal status to all +undocumented workers in the country. Although he emphasized +that the status would be temporary—initially for three years, but +renewable—he also emphasized that those who wanted to apply for +citizenship should also be allowed to do so.40 + + Several congressional proposals for so-called comprehensive +immigration reform were launched in the first decade of the new +century: John McCain and Ted Kennedy’s Secure America and +Orderly Immigration Act (S. 1033) in 2005; John Cornyn and Jon +Kyl’s Comprehensive Enforcement and Immigration Reform Act (S. +1438), also in 2005; Arlen Specter’s Comprehensive Immigration +Reform Act (S. 2611), which passed the Senate in 2006; and finally +the Comprehensive Immigration Reform Act or Secure Borders, +Economic Opportunity and Immigration Reform Act of 2007 (S. +1348), which drew on the earlier three and was promoted by +Senators McCain, Kennedy, and Kyl, as well as then-president Bush. +The right-wing reaction against the concept they termed amnesty +gained political traction and contributed to the failure of these +measures, even though all of them incorporated strong antiimmigrant +measures +euphemistically +called +enforcement +components. Rarely was it pointed out that the combination of +legalization and enforcement pioneered in 1986 had been followed +by a huge increase in the size of the undocumented population. The +proposals were generally critiqued from the right rather than from +the left. Comprehensive reform, willy-nilly, had become the rallying +cry of political liberals and supporters of immigrant rights. +While these comprehensive approaches stalled, the House passed +an extraordinarily punitive piece of legislation that epitomized what +came to be called the enforcement-only approach, H.R. 4437, the +Border Protection, Antiterrorism, and Illegal Immigration Control +Act of 2005. This vote became a catalyst for a new level of +immigrant rights mobilization, the huge demonstrations in the +spring and especially on May 1, 2006. +NEW PROTESTS IN THE NEW CENTURY +The major academic study of the 2006 demonstrations points out +that they dwarfed even the largest protest movements in the +country’s history, which only occasionally reached a half-million +protesters. “In a short span of twelve weeks between mid-February +and early May 2006, an estimated 3.7 million to 5 million people + + took to the streets in over 160 cities across the United States to rally +for immigrant rights.”41 The protests were also unique in being +carried out within the political system but primarily by people +legally excluded from the polity—the undocumented. +Local activist organizations, hometown associations, and unions +as well as Spanish media and the Catholic Church played important +roles in disseminating publicity and motivating participants. “Radio +show hosts and DJs on popular Spanish-language radio stations +across the country endorsed the marches and encouraged listeners +to attend. In addition, the two main Spanish-language networks, +Univisión and Telemundo, promoted it through public service +announcements broadcast during popular evening newscasts, +regular reporting on the preparations for the marches and +interviews with march organizers during newscasts, and frequent +informal banter during talk-show and variety show formats, even +incorporating the subject into the plotlines of their telenovelas, or +soap operas.”42 National-level organizations took a backseat as +different coalitions mobilized in different cities.43 The culmination +of these many protests was on May 1, when a coordinated daywithout-an-immigrant protest brought walkouts and business +closings throughout the country to illustrate the importance of +immigrants to the economy and their role in citizens’ daily lives. +Another thing the immigrant and undocumented communities +had in their favor were the reformers in the labor movement who +pushed for more pro-immigrant, and pro-undocumented positions. +In the fall of 2003, the AFL-CIO, UNITE-HERE, and the SEIU +sponsored the first Immigrant Workers Freedom Ride. +Undocumented immigrant workers took off from 101 cities around +the United States, headed for Washington, DC, where they lobbied +and demanded legislative change, and to New York, where they +held public rallies.44 One study suggests that the Immigrant Workers +Freedom Ride three years earlier helped bring groups together and +lay the groundwork for the 2006 mobilizations.45 +To the extent that the protests aimed to prevent H.R. 4437 from +becoming law, they succeeded: the Senate declined to consider the + + proposal and, in fact, passed its own, comprehensive reform bill +later in May 2006 (which was then rejected by the House). +Some analysts believe that it was Bush’s immigration agenda and +the battles over comprehensive immigration reform that led to the +Republican losses in Congress in 2006. After Obama’s victory in +2008, backlash came in the form of the Tea Party movement, +outflanking the Republicans to the libertarian and anti-immigrant +right. The Republicans are currently torn between appealing to the +fast-growing population of Hispanic voters—who have traditionally +voted Democratic—and playing to the far right anti-immigrant +sentiment fanned by talk radio and the Tea Party. Thirty-five +percent of Hispanics voted for Bush in 2000, and over 40 percent +did so in 2004, when Hispanic Republican support peaked.46 In +2008, with Barack Obama running against John McCain and Sarah +Palin, the Hispanic Republican vote sank to 31 percent. In 2012, as +candidate Mitt Romney took an outspokenly anti-immigrant +position, this went still lower to 27 percent. Meanwhile, the +Hispanic vote rose to 10 percent of the total, up from 9 percent in +2008 and 8 percent in 2004.47 +CONSULTING FIRMS AND THE CULTURAL BATTLE +Rinku Sen argues that despite the successes of 2006, a cultural +battle for the rights of the undocumented was lost in the rise of +xenophobia after 9/11. Fox News, talk radio, reality TV, and other +media and entertainment sources offer the public epic battles +between “criminal aliens” and beleaguered law enforcement in what +Sen calls a “racialized cultural fight over the nation’s identity.”48 +Sen especially critiques the immigrants’ rights organizations that +have sought and followed the advice of consultants and +“mainstreamed” their messages so as to tacitly accept, rather than +challenge, common anti-immigrant sentiments. Many large +organizations have relied on consulting firms like Westen Strategies +that use surveys and focus groups to determine what messages will +resonate with different sectors of the American public. + + The firm’s founder, psychologist Drew Westen, urged advocates +to concede to the public’s antipathy for immigrants considered +illegal, rather than to challenge that stance. Advocates should aim +for the center, he argued, by avoiding talk of immigrants’ rights and +instead relying on some key phrases that would resonate with those +less sympathetic. His surveys found that the phrases “comprehensive +immigration reform” and “fixing a broken immigration system” +went over especially well with these centrist voters. An effective +message, Westen discovered, begins with “taking tough measures to +secure our borders,” continues with “cracking down on illegal +employers,” and finally ends with “requiring those who came here +without our permission to get in line, work hard, obey our laws, and +learn our language.”49 His firm works with and has been +commissioned by major immigrants’ rights organizations like the +Migration Policy Institute, the Center for American Progress, and +Reform Immigration for America. Indeed, Westen’s key phrases +began to enter every politician’s immigration proposals. +The Democratic Party also constructed its twenty-first-century +agenda based on survey and focus group research about what +messages would resonate with the American public. A study the +party commissioned by Democracy Corps and Greenberg Quinlan +Rosner Research as the 2008 election approached argued that +immigration is “especially important in Congressional battleground +districts and states where views on illegal immigration are more +negative. Failing to show real determination to get this problem +under control costs incumbent Democrats votes.” +Like Westen, the authors recommended “acknowledgment of the +problem, pragmatic and tough ideas to stem the flow of illegal +immigration with a path to citizenship laden with the kinds of +requirements that anyone should meet if they are to attain the +honor of being an American citizen.” Their bullet points included +the following: +Attack [then-president] Bush for losing control of the +problem; enforcement at both the border and with employers + + [sic]; opposition to non-essential benefits; and responsibility +and a path to citizenship. +A large majority of voters support a path to citizenship if +we are serious about having to qualify for citizenship: +expelling anyone who has committed a crime, others pay a +fine and taxes, learn English, and get in the back of the queue. +But if voters hear only the part about a path to citizenship +without the responsibilities, they do not support this—and +punish incumbent Democrats. But if Democrats “get it” and +are very serious about getting the problem under control, +including benefits, their leaders can get support for solving +this problem.50 +As a candidate, Obama echoed this position when he outlined +what he believed comprehensive immigration reform should look +like and vowed to press for its passage. “I can guarantee . . . that we +will have in the first year an immigration bill that I strongly support +and that I’m promoting. And I want to move that forward as quickly +as possible,” he stated in May 2008.51 “We need immigration reform +that will secure our borders, and punish employers who exploit +immigrant labor; reform that finally brings the 12 million people +who are here illegally out of the shadows by requiring them to take +steps to become legal citizens,” he told the National Association of +Latino Elected Officials in June.52 A large coalition of immigrant +rights organizations favored this idea of a comprehensive reform, +despite its punitive aspects, and supported the Obama candidacy +and presidency. +Obama continued to reiterate this refrain once in office. “The +way to fix our broken immigration system is through commonsense, comprehensive immigration reform,” he declared at a Cinco +de Mayo celebration in 2010, seeming to take his cue directly from +Westen. “That means responsibility from government to secure our +borders, something we have done and will continue to do. It means +responsibility from businesses that break the law by undermining +American workers and exploiting undocumented workers—they’ve + + got to be held accountable. It means responsibility from people who +are living here illegally. They’ve got to admit that they broke the +law and pay taxes and pay a penalty, and learn English, and get +right before the law—and then get in line and earn their +citizenship.’”53 +He continued to sound the same themes after winning the 2012 +election: +When I say comprehensive immigration reform . . . I think it +should include a continuation of the strong border security +measures that we’ve taken, because we have to secure our +borders. I think it should contain serious penalties for +companies that are purposely hiring undocumented workers +and taking advantage of them. And I do think that there +should be a pathway for legal status for those who are living +in this country, are not engaged in criminal activity, are here +simply to work. It’s important for them to pay back taxes, it’s +important for them to learn English, it’s important for them to +potentially pay a fine, but to give them the avenue whereby +they can resolve their legal status here in this country, I think +is very important.”54 +A core of mainstream immigrant rights organizations linked to +the Democratic Party continues to push for this kind of a +comprehensive reform. Organizations like the New Democrat +Network, the National Council of La Raza, National Association of +Latino Elected and Appointed Officials, We Are America Alliance, +Mi Familia Vota Educational Fund, and Democracia USA are +sometimes identified as the inside-the-beltway organizations. They +emphasize the potential of the growing Latino vote, the need to +incorporate new voters into the Democratic Party, and the need of +the party to reach out to its new constituency through the project of +comprehensive reform. +A few advocates and organizations opposed the focus-group +approach. Oscar Chacón, executive director of the National Alliance +of Latin American and Caribbean Communities, or NALAAC, + + rejected the “comprehensive” consensus arguing that “this is +oppressive language—punitive and restrictive.” The 2008 +Democracy Corps report was “nothing but an effort by D.C. groups +to justify their views with a public opinion survey.” The Democrats +were “accept[ing] more and more of the premises of the antiimmigrant lobby.” “We should be trying to change the way people +think about the situation . . . instead of finding a way to make antiimmigrant sentiments tolerable,” Chacón urged.55 +Once Obama took office, the idea of a comprehensive reform died +a quiet death. The Obama administration moved instead on the +enforcement side, promoting and imposing the Secure Communities +and E-Verify programs. Secure Communities, a Bush-era program +that empowered local police forces to share data on arrests with +ICE, grew from a small, voluntary pilot program to one Obama +insisted would be imposed nationwide by 2013. E-Verify likewise +grew from a small-scale, voluntary program to one required for +companies holding government contracts—about 170,000 of them, +employing some 4 million workers—and encouraged for all.56 +The immigrant rights organizations that had worked for Obama +were disappointed when the first years of his presidency seemed to +pander to the anti-immigrant right rather than pay them back for +their support of his candidacy. Finally, in 2010, a crumb was +thrown to immigrant rights supporters: prosecutorial discretion. +Memoranda by Immigration Commissioner John Morton, in 2010 +and 2011 (described in chapter 7), instructed agents of ICE to +exercise “prosecutorial discretion” with regard to immigration +violations. The term refers to law enforcement agencies’ right to +choose which cases to pursue and when to allow violators relief +from prosecution. Acknowledging that ICE could not possibly deport +all of the millions of people in the United States without +authorization, Morton instructed ICE to prioritize national security, +border security, and public safety in selecting its targets. Immigrants +who had committed no crimes beyond immigration violations, had +US citizens who were dependent upon them, and posed no risk to + + national security or public should, in general, be eligible for such +discretion.57 +One complicating factor in this new set of priorities was that +while entry without inspection is a civil immigration violation, “reentry after removal” is defined as a felony. The new rules defined +entry without inspection as a low-priority violation, but a second +attempt to enter without inspection made a person a felon and thus +a high priority for removal. In fact, of 391,953 aliens removed by +ICE in 2011, over half (203,571) had no criminal violations. Of the +188,382 who did have a criminal conviction, about 60 percent were +guilty of either minor drug offenses, driving offenses, or +immigration offenses.58 For fiscal year 2012, ICE proudly +announced that it had hit a new record with 409,849 removals. +Slightly over half of those removed (225,000) had been convicted of +felonies or misdemeanors, though the vast majority of these, as +usual, were for immigration or traffic offenses. Only about 7,000 +were guilty of violent crimes.59 +Toward the end of 2011, ICE began a case-by-case review of over +three hundred thousand pending removal cases in order to +determine which ones merited dismissal under the new guidelines. +As 2012 progressed, however, immigrant advocates became +concerned at the small and diminishing numbers of cases that were +determined to be eligible for dismissal. By the middle of 2012, only +a few thousand of the tens of thousands of cases reviewed had been +approved for dismissal.60 Prosecutorial discretion seemed to be +delivering much less than it had promised. +With the 2012 campaign in full swing, Obama finally offered his +signature DACA program. DACA opened some important doors, as +discussed in chapter 7, and may have contributed to the return of +comprehensive immigration reform to the 2013 Congressional +agenda. The reforms being debated in 2013, though, continued to +follow the consulting firms’ emphasis on enforcement followed by a +punitive path to citizenship or perhaps even something less than +citizenship. + + CAN WE ABANDON “ENFORCEMENT”? +The more that US authorities have tried to control or stop Mexican +border crossing over the course of the twentieth century, the more +people have come. Absolute numbers have increased despite the +illegalizing of many border crossings. Despite increasingly harsh +measures aimed at reducing or eliminating illegal crossings, these +too have increased and sometimes decreased, as with those by +Mexicans in recent years, due to factors unrelated to measures +aimed explicitly at border control. +The past few decades have demonstrated that the more the +United States tries to militarily control the border, the more out of +control it gets. The huge growth in organized crime, drug +smuggling, drug and smuggling cartels, kidnappings, and violent +and unnecessary death at the border is the result of misguided +policies attempting to impose control. +Supporters of the idea of border control often argue that without +draconian measures to deter migrants, floods of Mexicans and other +Latin Americans would overwhelm the border and the country. They +forget, perhaps, that during the many decades in which the border +was relatively open, there were no floods. The number of +undocumented immigrants in the United States began its precipitous +rise after the country began to try to seal the border, in large part +because instead of leaving after a season of work, migrants felt +compelled to stay, since they realized that returning would be +difficult. +Recent trends demonstrate the extent to which structural factors +still govern migrant flows. The slowing and even reversal of +migration from Mexico and the concomitant rise in numbers +migrating from Central America, particularly from Honduras, +suggest that factors other than border policies are the ones that +really affect migrant streams. Border policies can shape where +people try to cross, how much it will cost, and how many will die in +the process, but they seem to have little effect on the numbers of +people crossing. + + DEEPER QUESTIONS +If the United States can’t close the border, and if comprehensive +immigration reform is such a flawed approach, what can we do? +By now, we have become accustomed to the notion that +controlling the border is a basic prerequisite for security, safety, and +sovereignty. So accustomed, that we rarely question this idea. +The drive for so-called enforcement—through militarizing the +border, criminalizing the undocumented, detention, deportation, +and a punitive path to citizenship based on paying society back for +some supposed wrong inflicted—grows from some of the beliefs +outlined in the first chapter of this book. The entire immigration +apparatus is based on the presumption that we know where people +belong and we need to legislate their mobility. +It’s also based on some unquestioned assumptions about countries. +It is not OK for a public park, a town, a county, or a state to +discriminate regarding who is allowed to enter its space. But it’s OK +for a country to do that. It’s not OK to treat people differently based +on their religion, race, gender, or many other characteristics. But it’s +OK to treat people differently based on where they were born or +their nationality (which is generally determined by where a person +is born). US immigration laws do just that: discriminate, on the basis +of nationality, regarding who is allowed to be where. +If we really want to address the problem of undocumentedness, +or so-called “illegal” immigration, we need to look more in depth at +why the United States made some immigration illegal to begin with. +I hope that I have shown that the drive to illegalize immigration +was wrongheaded from the start. It’s just the latest stage in a +centuries-long process of legislated inequality, a process both global +and domestic. +Rather than what currently passes for comprehensive reform, +some organizations are pushing for what they call a “cultural +strategy” that challenges the nationalist—and racist—underpinnings +of popular views of immigrants. The new generation of +undocumented youth—the DREAMers discussed in chapter 7—has +taken this approach. Rinku Sen emphasizes that their goal goes + + beyond gaining their own access to citizenship: the bigger aim is to +challenge the anti-immigrant culture. “Young, savvy with social +media, and artistically inclined, DREAMers have compensated for +their lack of political power by telling their stories in many forms +and venues.” With their stories, they sought to reframe the entire +debate.61 +The Applied Research Center launched its Drop-the-I-Word (i.e., +illegal) campaign in 2010 in another attempt to challenge the terms +of the mainstream debate about immigration that directly +contradicted Westen’s advice. Arguing that the very term “illegal” +(or “illegal immigrant”) “opens the door to racial profiling and +violence and prevents truthful, respectful debate on immigration,” +and that “no human being is illegal,” supporters challenged +politicians, the media, and others to stop using it.62 By 2013, +numerous mainstream news outlets had shifted their usage. “Illegal +immigrant isn’t always accurate because it implies that somebody +illegally immigrated when it fact a lot of people who are here +illegally are here because their documentation expired after they +came,” the Associated Press explained when its new style guide +recommended against using the term.63 The New York Times and Los +Angeles Times soon followed suit.64 +In December 2012, Mexican American columnist Ruben +Navarrette penned a controversial column in which he chastised +DREAMers—and implicitly, others who are explicitly challenging +the official terms of the debate—for acting “like spoiled brats.” +“They don’t ask, they demand,” Navarrette complained. “These kids +want it all . . . what some seem to really want is the golden ticket: +US citizenship.” They are “drunk on entitlement,” he wrote, and will +“alienate supporters.”65 +At my own university, Salem State, in Massachusetts, a group +supporting undocumented students engaged in a similar debate a +few years ago. Should the university openly admit and support +students who were undocumented? Or should it quietly open some +back doors? One local high school guidance counselor cautioned us +that the anti-immigrant climate at her school was so virulent that + + she preferred to counsel students individually and would not +recommend that we hold a public event at her school. A faculty +member worried that if we raised the issue publicly, it would +imperil our undocumented students. Another retorted: “Do you +know of any historical example where social change has come about +by people keeping quiet?” +That question has stayed with me over the years and seems to +surface again and again, as in Navarrette’s column. There are those +who truly believe that the best way to help the undocumented is +through backroom deals that may bring some benefits for some +people without addressing the larger structural issues of unequal +international relations, an economy based on the use of labor kept +cheap through legal marginalization, restrictive immigration +policies, discrimination, and inequality before the law. History +shows, though, that whether we are trying to change foreign policy, +domestic and global economic structures, or laws that discriminate, +Frederick Douglass was closer to the truth when he argued that +change “must be a struggle. Power concedes nothing without a +demand. It never did and it never will.”66 +Although the cultural strategy is a very important way to raise +awareness and open a real debate about immigration policy, we also +need to address the root global and economic factors that have +contributed to today’s problems. In the most immediate terms, we as +a society created illegal immigration by making immigration illegal. +In larger terms, we created illegal immigration by fostering a global +system that bases the prosperity for the few on the exploitation of +the many and enforcing it, in the modern era, through borders and +exclusive citizenship. It’s up to us to change it. + + THE PROBLEM WITH SASS + +This is a book by a grown-ass woman written for other grown-ass women. +This is a book for women who expect to be taken seriously and for men who +take grown women seriously. This is a book for women who know shit is +fucked up. These women want to change things but don’t know where to +begin. +To be clear, I’m not really into self-help books, so I don’t have one of +those catchy three-step plans for changing the world. What I have is anger. +Rage, actually. And that’s the place where more women should begin—with +the things that make us angry. +When it comes to Black women, sometimes Americans don’t recognize +that sass is simply a more palatable form of rage. Americans adore sassy +Black women. You know, those caricatures of finger-waving, eye-rolling +Black women at whom everyone loves to laugh—women like Tyler Perry’s +Madea, Mammy in Gone with the Wind, or Nell from that old eighties sitcom +Gimme a Break! These kinds of Black women put white folks at ease. +In my first terrible job after college, my boss, an older white woman, told +me that the students at the predominantly Black school at which we worked +had deemed her an honorary Black woman. When I looked at her with +question marks in my eyes, she said, “You know, they mean the way I talk to +them and roll my neck,” and demonstrated it for me. I went on back to my +desk. +Years after that, I was doing a summer abroad in South Korea. My +Malaysian roommate, who had seen many episodes of the old nineties sitcom +Family Matters, told me that she loved Black women because we were + + sassy like Harriette and Laura Winslow, the main Black female characters on +that show. To her, these stereotypical portrayals made Black folks seem +understandable, even though to me, her descriptions felt like we were exotic +others. She loved it, she said, when Black women put their hands on their +hips and swiveled their necks in protest. Not wanting to offend this woman +who I otherwise really liked, I simply said, “We’re not all like that.” She +looked disappointed. +I am fat, Black, and Southern. But this is not a sassy Black girl’s tale. +Black women turn to sass when rage is too risky—because we have jobs to +keep, families to feed, and bills to pay. Black women who hold their +communities together also hold our broader American community together. +But it’s unclear whether we are really being taken seriously. +Owning anger is a dangerous thing if you’re a fat Black girl like me. +Angry Black Women get dismissed all the time. We are told we are +irrational, crazy, out of touch, entitled, disruptive, and not team players. The +story goes that Angry Black Women scare babies, old people, and grown +men. This is absurd. And it is a lie. If you have the nerve to be fat and angry, +then you are treated as a bully even if you are doing nothing aggressive at all. +The truth is that Angry Black Women are looked upon as entities to be +contained, as inconvenient citizens who keep on talking about their rights +while refusing to do their duty and smile at everyone. Don’t you just hate +when folks yell at you to “Smile!”? I told the last man who said that shit to +me, “You smile!” +Some years ago, I ran into a former student on the college campus where I +was teaching. Erica was a brilliant Black girl who wrote great papers and +asked really smart questions. As we were standing around with a group of +others, chatting, she said, “I loved having you as my professor. Your lectures +were filled with rage. But it was, like, the most eloquent rage ever.” I +immediately felt defensive. What did she mean by rage? “I’m not angry,” I +told her. “I’m passionate.” By then, I was wary of the Angry Black Woman +stereotype. Even though I was only in my mid-twenties at the time, I had +already experienced many years of white people doing that thing they do to +articulate Black women—always asking us “Why are you so angry?” I hated +the accusation from others, usually white people, because it was unfair, a + + way to discredit the legitimacy of the things Black women say by calling +them emotional and irrational. But Erica was a Black girl. She fixed me with +a telltale look that only another Black woman can give you, a look that said, +Girl, be for real. And then she said, “Brittney, you know you’re angry.” I felt +exposed. I couldn’t even say anything. She had seen through the veneer, seen +the lie I was telling. It was devastating. And life-changing. +I was angry. As hell. And I was fooling no one. +Black women have the right to be mad as hell. We have been dreaming of +freedom and carving out spaces for liberation since we arrived on these +shores. There is no other group, save Indigenous women, that knows and +understands more fully the soul of the American body politic than Black +women, whose reproductive and social labor have made the world what it is. +This is not mere propaganda. Black women know what it means to love +ourselves in a world that hates us. We know what it means to do a whole lot +with very little, to “make a dollar out of fifteen cents,” as it were. We know +what it means to snatch dignity from the jaws of power and come out +standing. We know what it means to face horrific violence and trauma from +both our communities and our nation-state and carry on anyway. But we also +scream, and cry, and hurt, and mourn, and struggle. We get heartbroken, our +feelings get stepped on, our dreams get crushed. We get angry, and we +express that anger. We know what it means to feel invisible. +* * * +I know what it means to feel invisible. To be picked on, bullied, +misunderstood, and dismissed. But when Erica called me out on my anger, it +was clear that she saw me in a way that I wasn’t particularly interested in +being seen. She helped me to realize that my anger could be a powerful force +for good. She had called my rage eloquent. Clear. Expressive. To the point. +In her estimation, it had made me a good teacher, and it had inspired her and +other students. +Over and over again, Black girls have called me out and demanded that I +get my shit together, around my rage, around my work in the world, and +around my feminism. Those Black girl callouts, or “homegirl interventions,” + + as I call them in this book, have come from my grandmama, my mama, and +my girls. And they have saved my life. +America needs a homegirl intervention in the worst way. So in this book, I +am doing what Black women do best. I’m calling America out on her bullshit +about racism, sexism, classism, homophobia, and a bunch of other stuff. +And I’m using feminism to stage this homegirl intervention. I’m here for +picket signs, pussy hats (as long as there are plenty of brown ones in the +mix), and patchouli. My picket signs are as likely to say FUCK THE POLICE as +they are to say FUCK THE PATRIARCHY. Black-girl feminism is all the rage, and +we need all the rage. Feminism can give us a common language for thinking +about how sexism, and racism, and classism work together to fuck shit up for +everybody. +Like many other feminists, I used to carry around Audre Lorde’s book +Sister Outsider like it was the feminist bible. Her essay “The Uses of Anger: +Women Responding to Racism” taught me that rage is a legitimate political +emotion. She writes, “Focused with precision, it can become a powerful +source of energy serving progress and change.” +Here’s the thing: My anger and rage haven’t always been “focused with +precision.” The process, of both becoming a feminist and becoming okay +with rage as a potential feminist superpower, has been messy as hell. We +need to embrace our messiness more. We need to embrace the ways we are +in process more. Very often Black girls don’t get the opportunity to be in +process. So just know that you don’t have to have everything figured out to +read and enjoy this book. +For more than a decade, since Erica named for me my superpower— +eloquent rage—I’ve been trying to figure out how to focus it with precision. +When I watch the Williams sisters—Venus and Serena—use their power +on a tennis court, I feel like they are a case study in how to use rage with +precision. Born six months after Venus and nine months before Serena, I feel +like I grew up with the Williams sisters. When they first began to win major +tournaments in the late 1990s, sportscasters derisively referred to the “power +tennis” they played. These strong, athletic Black girls had serves with speeds +of more than 120 miles per hour and they scared the shit out of white girls. + + Until they learned how to use their power, it often became a liability, causing +them to make lots of mistakes on and off the court. +But in the nearly twenty years since they have come to dominate tennis, +both sisters have figured out how to corral all that power into precise serves +and shots that are nearly unmatched. They have created this kind of alchemy +that uses their physical strength and strategic prowess on the court, together +with all the racial slurs and insults they have endured over the years—being +called the N-word, being called ugly, being told their bodies were too manly +—to create something that looks magical to the rest of us. Watching Venus +play, particularly on grass courts, is like watching a Black girl perform in a +ballet. She is an elegant player. Watching Serena play, particularly when +she’s beating white women, is like watching eloquent rage personified. Her +shots are clear and expressive. Her wins are exultant. Her victories belong to +all of us, even though she’s the one who does all the work. +That’s kind of how it feels to be a Black woman. Like our victories +belong to everyone, even though we do all the work. But here’s the thing—if +I can master any force in my life and slay it like Serena slays tennis balls on +the court, then I’m happy to share the wealth. + + CAPITAL B, CAPITAL F + +It took nothing short of a homegirl intervention to turn me into a feminist. It +was my senior year at Howard University, and I’d managed to go through +much of college without having even one boyfriend on campus. As much as +Howard offered an explicit education in the workings of racism and white +supremacy, its lessons about sexism were far more subtle. I felt like +something was wrong with me. The boys wanted me to run their student +government campaigns, or they wanted to verbally joust with me, but they +didn’t want to date me. On high self-esteem days, I simply thought it was +because they were dumb. On bad self-esteem days, I thought it was because I +was fat. (Fat is of course relative, because if I could be my college size +again…) I hadn’t considered that sexism had anything to do with it, that +young men had been socialized to desexualize outspoken women. I reveled in +being unconquerable, because that’s an important trait for Black girls +surviving abusive father figures to have. I didn’t realize that living life in a +patriarchy, even in a beautiful Black one, meant that I had to at least appear +conquerable if I wanted to get chose. +One day, on campus, I proclaimed with the confidence of a twenty-yearold who knows just enough to be dangerous, that “feminism is white +women’s shit. At most, I’m a womanist.” I had heard someone else invoking +Alice Walker’s definition of womanism, and it sounded good enough to me. +The thing is: my defection from feminism wasn’t a principled defection. I +hadn’t read Walker’s definition at all. But I had spent a lifetime having +slightly awkward friendships with the white girls with whom I grew up, and I +had escaped after high school to the Blackness of Howard to recover from + + all of it. I’ll talk more about my complicated relationship with white women +in the next chapter, but suffice it to say that I was ready to lay the entirety of +my feminist inheritance—the work of women like Sojourner Truth, Anna +Julia Cooper, Ida B. Wells, and the women of the Combahee River +Collective—on the altar next to all the blond hair that I had mentally burned +in effigy after high school. This is what I like to call doing the most, but +achieving the least. And, luckily, one of my homegirls saw through my +bullshit and staged a friendly but serious intervention. +My friend Tracey heard me making such ignorant pronouncements about +feminism and hemmed me up in the dorms later. “Here,” she said, handing me +a book. “Read this, because you were talking kinda crazy earlier about +feminism.” This wasn’t our first discussion about the f-word. She had also +asked me a few months earlier if I wanted to “come to Blackburn [the student +center] to hear bell hooks?” “Who is bell hooks?” I had asked, vaguely +remembering that I had encountered her name in a book on gender and +equality that I had bought during my days on my high school’s debate team. +“Oh, she writes all this feminist stuff, but she talks real crazy, so it should be +interesting,” Tracey had said, chuckling. +“Talking crazy” in our college parlance could be either an indictment or a +compliment. It was a way to denote those moments of flirtation with ideas +that skirted the line between being profound and being absolutely +nonsensical. For instance, there was the day that the Honors Office Crew (the +Blerds of my day) entertained the idea of whether women might evolve into +being able to impregnate themselves, if it happened to be true that clitorises +were really just small penises. My good Christian self was both scandalized +by the mention of clitorises and penises (and evolution!) but also deeply +curious and seduced by the questions themselves. I vacillated between +wondering whether my friends were going to hell, and tiptoeing into the deep +with them because I secretly loved the irreverence of it all. It felt like any +day in the Howard Honors office could lead to a personal evolution of bigbang proportions. +* * * + + Listening to years of “talking crazy” among the crew had made me fall in +love with ideas in a substantive way. For instance, the Crew put me on to TaNehisi Coates back in the early 2000s when he wrote for the Washington +City Paper. His pieces were must-reads, and when we saw him hanging out +on campus, we whispered to each other, stanning ever so slightly. Once, I +remember Coates popping his head into a room of Howard student leaders in +the Blackburn Center and scowling at us, unimpressed. We were probably +having a heated debate about the fate of Black America, and apparently, we +weren’t saying anything earth shattering. I’m pretty sure I scowled back. +Still, it was cool as hell to run into thinkers on campus whose work I’d +read on the regular. I became a Ph.D. because I wanted that kind of life, one +where “talking crazy”—playing with ideas that skirted the line between the +radical and the absurd, the sacred and the profane—was the order of the day. +So I knew that in Tracey’s indictment of hooks’s propensity to “talk crazy” +there was also an endorsement, a belief that she was worth hearing. Curious +about just exactly what kind of crazy talk hooks might engage in, I followed +Tracey to the panel. +I don’t remember much about hooks’s talk. Perhaps we had arrived late. I +do remember that she seemed unimpressed and perhaps agitated, most likely +with the conservative gender politics that shaped Howard during my time +there. But hooks’s feminist “crazy talk” was my first experience with the +kinds of provocations that can be life-changing. And it was quite different +from the dismissive “crazy talk” that had me in the hot seat with my homegirl. +I think Tracey had just assumed, naturally, that I would be a feminist, +given my fierce sense of selfhood and my willingness to drag anyone who +stepped to me with what I deemed a bad argument. She therefore looked at +me both curiously and incredulously when I dared to insist otherwise. I took +the book, a collection of academic essays on feminist theory. She instructed, +“I think you’ll really like this essay on multiple jeopardies by Deborah +King.” Sufficiently chastised, I agreed to read the piece she had chosen. +While I was not especially interested in being a feminist, I was even less +interested in having a raggedy analysis, of being critically uninformed, and +of getting caught out there, assed out and looking ignorant. So I sat down that +same night, turned to the essay Tracey had suggested, and tried to get clearer + + on what exactly feminism was and how it might apply to me. King wanted us +to see the effects of oppressions on Black women’s lives as what she called +“multiplicative.” Our class position, sexual identity, and many other vectors +of power shaped our identity in the world, and more specifically, these things +determined how many boots there were on our collective necks. +That essay didn’t turn me into a feminist, because it felt a bit too academic +for me to read without the benefit of a classroom context to work out the +ideas. But I did begin to care deeply about Black women’s legacy of activism +and ask more questions about what historical Black women had said about +issues of racism and sexism. Over the next few years, I would have the +opportunity, via some dope-ass Black feminist professors and because of the +work of Hip Hop feminist Joan Morgan, to name and own a feminism for +myself. But what mattered to me most, what lingers for me now, was the +thoughtfulness and care of another Black girl’s friendship. +Friendships with Black girls have always saved my life. I give the side +eye to any Black woman who doesn’t have other Black women friends, to +any woman who is prone to talk about how she relates better to men than to +women, to anyone who goes on and on about how she “doesn’t trust +females.” If you say fuck the patriarchy but you don’t ride for other women, +then it might be more true that the patriarchy has fucked you, seducing you +with the belief that men care more about your well-being than women do. +It isn’t true. +I came up in an era when Black girls loudly proclaimed that they didn’t +have friends. They had associates. It has always rung false to me, maybe +because the introverted parts of me had absolutely no interest in spending +sustained time fake-grinning at people with whom I couldn’t be my whole +self. I wanted friends to snicker, giggle, and pass notes with, to share secrets +with. I wanted people who would have my back. I worry about a world in +which Black girls on their way to becoming women are taught to distrust +women. I worry about a world in which Black women who are raising boys +cultivate distrust for girls by looking upon every girl who shows interest in +their sons with distrust. We wonder why young men hate women and, +sometimes, the sad truth is that their mamas and aunts and sisters act as an + + arm of the patriarchy by parroting the refrain that “girls simply can’t be +trusted.” +It’s hard for Black girls to be friends with each other. But there is wonderworking power in the homegirl hem-up, the particular way that Black women +friends gather you and save your life by telling you lovingly to get your shit +together. It took me a really long time to find my tribe, though. I always knew +I needed Black girls to make it, and I longed for their friendship in +substantial ways throughout childhood. But, more often than not, I was +rebuffed. We live in a world that tells women to distrust other women. And +those of us who do dare to love other women hard are taught to distrust our +impulses, to see that love as queer and wrong. +I have had more than a few crushes on my homegirls, mostly intellectual +and always deeply emotional, and sometimes perhaps a bit sexual. In middle +school, when I finally found my first real-deal, pass-notes-in-class, rushhome-after-school-to-talk-on-the-phone-for-several-more-hours Black-girl +bestie, I was elated. And a bit surprised. Neisha had sidled up to me one day +at the end of seventh grade, as we were walking out the doors toward the +buses after school, and said, “We’re gonna have to stick together next year.” +Up until that point, I didn’t totally know how I felt about her. She was both +smart and cool; I had smart on lock, but couldn’t find my own cool even if +someone had handed it to me in a paper bag. +Neisha and I had come to know each other better a few weeks earlier on +our seventh-grade honors trip to South Louisiana, a place that seemed a +world away from our more rural, North Louisiana experience. On the trip, +we bonded over an episode of Martin, featuring his next-door neighbor +Sheneneh and her homegirls Bonquisha and Keylolo. Together with Reina, a +Black girl whom I had known since I was eight, when we ended up in Girl +Scouts together, the three of us—the only Black girls on the trip—stuck +together. For some reason, perhaps because of the insecurities that plague all +girls at age twelve, occasionally Neisha and Reina would devolve into +mean-girl behaviors with me as the target. Just happy to have Black girls for +friends, I pretended not to hear the commentary they made behind my back, +about how corny I was, or how naïve I was. One day, in eighth grade, after +Neisha and I became actual besties, I heard her walking behind me in the + + hall, whispering to someone about why I had worn hot-pink scrunch socks +instead of white tights with the cute skirt I rocked to school that day. My +feelings were hurt; I pretended like I simply didn’t hear her. A confrontation +would surely have ended our friendship. +One of the final outings of the Louisiana Heritage Tour in 1993 was a trip +to New Orleans’ Audubon Zoo, the biggest zoo in our state. Our teachers had +given strict instructions that we were to use the buddy system. Neisha, Reina, +and I, together with James (the only Black boy on the trip), decided we +would navigate the zoo together. None of us had been especially tight before +we had boarded the buses that Monday, but by that Thursday afternoon, the +trip to the plantation, one in which tour guides acted shy about admitting that +enslaved people had lived and worked there, had brought us together. +Apparently my endless chatter, or my inability to be as appropriately cool +and detached as twelve-year-old me should have been, got on the nerves of +Reina and Neisha for the last time. At some point, I turned around and they +had ditched me, abandoning the buddy system and leaving me to find my way +back to the bus. Looking around frantically, I spotted them several yards up +ahead, snickering and giggling to themselves as they assumed they had gotten +away with their mean joke. Not wanting to be lost, I followed slowly behind, +keeping them in sight so that I wouldn’t be late to the bus. But since they +wanted to be away from me, I didn’t catch up to them either. I walked along, +humiliated that I needed them to find my way back and afraid to call out their +behavior for fear that the friends I had finally found would no longer be my +friends. I wondered what it was that I had done to make them hate me. I +arrived back at the bus a few moments after they did, but we never spoke +about how they had left me in the middle of a “jungle” without backup. I +knew I wasn’t ready to ditch them and go it alone again, so there was no +point in making a scene. +A few weeks later, apparently Neisha had reassessed her view of me, +deciding that we would in fact “need each other” next year. Post–thirty-yearold me wishes I had had the nerve to tell her to shove it, but I really did need +her, and she really did need me. We were overachieving Black girls in +predominantly white classrooms, and what that trip to learn about our +heritage had taught us was that our story bound us together and didn’t allow + + us the privilege of building friendships based on shared affinity and +personality alone. Black girls had to stick together. +* * * +So stick we did. We exchanged phone numbers and then spent the summers +between seventh and eighth and eighth and ninth grades giggling on the phone +endlessly, talking about boys and having phone romances with boys that we +connected to through an endless string of three-way calls. Two summers +before, it was my white bestie, Mandy, whom I’d called to tell when my +period showed up a few days before the start of sixth grade. But sharing the +secrets of growing into my Black womanhood with my white bestie, when +our social lives were increasingly racially segregated, made for an +unsustainable friendship by the end of middle school, causing Mandy and I to +grow apart. By the summer of ’93, it was my Black bestie Neisha I’d called +to talk about the harrowing events of the night before, when my mother’s +live-in boyfriend, angry over their impending breakup, beat her, forcing me to +choose between grabbing a knife and calling the police. I was thankful that I +had a Black girl to call, and I realized that if circumstances had been +different, I wouldn’t have told Mandy at all. Neisha’s family was different +from mine. She had a married mama and daddy and two big brothers who +lived in the house with her. Still, I felt like she would understand more. And +she did. She listened and offered support. Perhaps that is why my mother, +slightly embarrassed and incensed with me for telling her business, let it +ride. Black girls of every age need other Black girls who can hold their +truths. +I was deep in the throes, that summer, of my girlhood crush on Ronnie +Groves, a nerdy Black boy who was two years older and who had beaten me +in Bible Quiz at Vacation Bible School two summers prior. My head and +diary were filled with hopes and wishes that he would be my first kiss. I was +surprised and unprepared for the moment when I found myself fantasizing +about kissing Neisha, having picked up from the ether, rather than from any +particular conversation, that girls didn’t kiss girls. +* * * + + Up until college, I had only ever encountered one lesbian, a woman named +Wendy, whom all the adults in my life seemed to like and respect and smile at +when she was around, but as soon as she was out of earshot, they would +whisper about how she “went the other way.” Wendy rocked a Jheri Curl, +drove a long green car, and always had on shades, which she wore, looking +back on it, like armor. I simply thought she looked a little mysterious. She +had a pretty smile and a friendly demeanor, but it was clear to me that she +existed on the outskirts of our small, tightly knit community because she was +“different.” +Liking girls didn’t seem like a viable possibility for me. Fantasies of +kissing Neisha weren’t frequent, but the closer I felt to her, the more I +imagined what physically expressing that closeness might look like. +Thankfully (or perhaps not), my mother paid for monthly subscriptions to all +the great teen magazines of the nineties: Sassy, Teen, Seventeen, and YM. YM +was my fave and Sassy, the most feminist of them all, was my least fave. +Wokeness has been a process for me. So I turned to the monthly advice +columns every month and read questions that readers would write into the +mag about sex. +My boyfriend and I were messing around one day and he was inside +me a little bit. Am I still a virgin? +While I found that question quite scandalous, I was relieved when I read +this question: +Sometimes I think about what it would be like to kiss another girl. +Does this mean I’m gay? +“No,” the columnist replied. +Your body is changing and you are having lots of feelings. It’s +perfectly normal in the sexual development process to fantasize +about members of the same sex. But don’t worry about it. You’re +probably not gay, and you’ll figure it out in time. + + The magazines worked to assure girls that they were most probably +straight, subtly making it clear that queerness was not desirable. But back +then, conversations about queerness and gender fluidity hadn’t trickled down +to my Louisiana middle school. You were one or the other, in or out, gay or +straight. Relieved and assured of my straightness, I placed Neisha, my one +real close Black friend, in the friend-only category and went back to crushing +on cute-ass Ronnie Groves. The thing I know today, after many cycles of +homegirls, many more years of girl crushes, and a life of straight sexual +activity, is that one can’t truly be a feminist if you don’t really love women. +And loving women deeply and unapologetically is queer as fuck. It is erotic +in the way that Audre Lorde talks about eroticism. It’s an opening up, a +healing, a seeing and being seen. Good sex is all these things, too. My +friendships with women have never been overtly sexual, but a good many of +them have been what bell hooks in her book Communion: The Female +Search for Love called romantic, in the soul-inspiring way that someone +being thoughtful about loving you and showing up for you is romantic. Often +those connections have what hooks called “an erotic dimension … that acts +as an energetic force, enhancing and deepening ties.” There is no room in my +life for shallow or basic connections. +Feminism helped me to be okay with what it means to love women in the +womanish and womanist ways that Alice Walker famously talked about +—“sexually and non-sexually.” These days, on what one of my homegirls has +deemed #ThottieThursdays, it has become customary for my girls and I to +sext one another slyly seductive pics of our asses, or thighs, or cleavages, +sometimes bare, or sometimes clothed in the perfect way that all our curves +are accentuated. And the tacit agreement is that we share to be affirmed, in +our sexiness, in our beauty, and in our glory. When this particular group of +homegirls first started with their shameless flirting and body commentary, I +used to blush furiously, not knowing where this kind of engagement fit for me, +a straight girl. But for this same me, who has been single, alone, and often +lonely for most of my grown womanhood, ofttimes the flirtations and sexy +comments from the homies are the only compliments I get. +One of the biggest battles that second-wave feminists of the seventies had +with third-wave feminists of the nineties was over the place of sex and + + beauty in feminism. Second wavers critiqued high heels and lipstick as +oppressive expectations of the patriarchy. Third-wave white girls brought +heels and fly red lips back into the mix. Black feminists gave the side eye to +white girls and their feminist waves, because looking fierce and fly has +always been a part of the Black-girl credo. (And also because Black +feminism didn’t fit neatly within the historical trajectory of waves.) Our +embrace of femininity was its own armor in a world where white women +said that Black women should never be called ladies. If I have to pick a side, +I’d say I’m second wave enough to put middle fingers up to the patriarchy +and I’m third wave enough to affirm that beauty and the desire to be wanted +still matter. When you go for months or years without a dude (or any love +interest) ever noticing you, you can begin to feel invisible. And feminist +principles about how the patriarchy has made us beholden to beauty culture +do nothing to assuage the desire we all have to be seen and affirmed. +The old adage is that all feminists are lesbians. So what if that’s true? +Here’s the thing, and there’s really no straight way to say this. Black +feminism is and has always been a fundamentally queer project. Straight +chicks gotta make their peace with that, and hopefully without too much +struggle. +I would venture to say that most tried-and-true feminist chicks are open to +the possibility of their own queerness, because desire is fluid and because +the boundaries and labels matter so much less when you get down to the real +work of what it means to love Black women in a world that hates us all. One +time, when I revealed to one of my girls that I was post-thirty but still hadn’t +figured out how to have an orgasm that I didn’t give myself, she looked at me +with a look of incredulity and thinly veiled disgust at the dudes I had slept +with and said, “Shit. I’ll fuck you.” She was only half-joking. I didn’t take +her up on her offer, but I did realize that I needed to seriously invest in my +own pleasure, or else I was in for a homegirl intervention of a very different +sort. Deep and abiding love can be sisterly and it can be erotic, and +sometimes it can be and needs to be all these things at the same damn time. +On more than one occasion, I’ve had a male lover say to me, upon finding +out I’m a feminist, “Are you a lesbian? Are you sure?” Rather than being +reactionary and defensive, perhaps straight women need to become less + + invested in the project of straightness altogether. Let me be clear. I’m not +telling you who to sleep with. I’m also not telling you that all feminists want +to or should want to sleep with women. I am saying that far too many women +leave behind the freedom feminism offers because they want to stay on +patriarchy’s dick, which is to say they want to secure their straightness and +their options for getting chosen. +I love a penis attached to a man who knows how to use it, but I’m +uninterested in femme-style battle royales over dick. That’s just so basic. +Who has time? Feminism wouldn’t be feminism if it didn’t encode a healthy +skepticism about the politics of getting dick. And feminism wouldn’t be +feminism if it didn’t celebrate the power of pussy. It might be trite but it’s +true. To be clear, and not transphobic, feminism is also not about the +elevation of particular body parts. My trans-women comrades have taught me +that you don’t have to have a vagina to have a pussy. And my lesbian +homegirls have extolled to me the virtues of the “D” their own lesbian +partners are throwing down. The larger point is that however dope fellatio +may be, fellating the patriarchy is no way to win. +If Black women don’t figure out how to love other Black women (cis and +trans, queer and straight, and everything in between), it will be the death of +us. This toxic behavior of not fully knowing how to love other Black women +shaped my earliest Black-girl friendship with Neisha, and shaped many of +my other friendships for years to come. I put up with Neisha’s mean-girl +behavior almost until the end of high school. But one summer night, after a +minor spat but after many years of holding in my wounded feelings, I snapped +and tried to fight her, only to have Reina hold me back. It’s the first and last +time I’ve ever come that close to letting a Black woman catch these hands. +Sometimes the sisterhood hurts. +This toxicity that dogs Black women in friendships almost ruined my +college friendship with Tracey, too. Inexplicably, a few months after pulling +my card about feminism, she stopped talking to me. Months later, she said I +had become “too intense,” which I read to mean too close, too attuned, too +involved, too much. The subtext, though neither of us ever spoke it out loud, +was that I was doing “gay shit” and it made her uncomfortable. Perhaps I +was. I never imagined kissing Tracey, never wanted to sleep with her. But I + + loved her, deeply, because it’s the only way I know how to love Black +women. I loved her because she loved me enough to check me when my +feminist analysis was raggedy. But Neisha had taught me not to stay in +friendships out of fear of being alone, so I endured the homegirl breakup with +my chin up as much as I could, which is to say, not very much. One day my +roommate Alicia came home and caught me crying big hot tears over this +latest friendship failure. Yet again, I had done too much and managed to run +off the closest Black friend that I had. “Sometimes, Miss Bertney, (Alicia’s +nickname for me), it’s not that people don’t love you, it’s that they don’t have +the same capacity to love as you do. Most people are doing the best they +can.” Alicia’s words felt wise and true, and they helped me to pick my face +up and move on. Months later, Tracey apologized, saying to me, “You simply +loved me, and I didn’t know how to take it. I hope we can repair our +friendship.” Intimacy between Black women matters on its own terms, and it +isn’t a threat to the other kinds of relationships we want to have in our lives. +So many Black women of my generation want access to the suburban +fantasy marriage more than almost anything else. All I had imagined for my +personal life at age twenty was that I would get married, have three kids, and +enjoy taking care of a family. It’s laughable now since I don’t particularly +like children, unless they belong to people I love. I had nuclear-family +dreams because I had bought into the notion that the way I grew up—in a +single-parent home, with a mismatched family of aunties and uncles and +cousins and grandparents bringing up the rear—was not optimal. So part of +my success story involved having it all—the house, the car, the career, the +pretty man, and the kids. It’s fine to want all those things. But it’s dangerous +to get them in a context where you have no analysis of how and why those are +your desires. Feminism helped me to think more robustly about where I had +gotten the idea that my upbringing was wrong or lacking. (Moynihan was one +place. The church was another. And I’ll say more about both of these later.) +And feminism helped me to recognize that there were other versions of a life +to want. +When my patriarchal nuclear fantasy didn’t happen and the privileges of +straightness eluded me and a whole generation of overachieving Black +women, it is my girls who have celebrated my successes, showered me with + + compliments, taken me out on dates, traveled the world with me, supported +me through big life decisions, and showed up when disasters struck. One of +feminism’s biggest failures is its failure to insist that feminism is, first and +foremost, about truly, deeply, and unapologetically loving women. +* * * +Beyoncé gets this lesson about feminism better than most. And she has been +one of the biggest victims of this failure to love women among Black +feminists. Until the release of her magnum opus, Lemonade, an album so selfconsciously about the interior lives, struggles, and emotions of Black women +that even most of Bey’s haters had to bow down, I have never seen so much +vitriol, particularly among Black feminist women, as I have seen in their +reactions to Beyoncé. Never. +They simply didn’t believe that the pretty, light-skinned, affluent, superstar +Black girl could really love other Black girls. For most of us, her +#prettyprivilege conjured up the mean girls we encountered at twelve and +thirteen—that age when we all felt deeply misunderstood, and were prone to +be mean to others while being the target of other mean girls ourselves. Of +course we are no longer adolescents, but something about seeing Beyoncé +shine makes that particular truth go right out the window. We could call it the +defenestration of feminist common sense. It’s as if the girls who were bullied +finally have the chance to be the mean girls, and, where Beyoncé is +concerned, they have embraced that role with gusto and absolutely no sense +of irony. +Beyoncé is my feminist muse. +She didn’t start out that way. Back in 1997, she was just one of the +members in a girl group that I loved, singing the soundtrack to my senior year +of high school. Three years later, when two of the original group members +left, I swore that Beyoncé was the cause and refused to buy any more +Destiny’s Child albums. But I’ve always been terrible at holding a grudge, +and by the time Bey dropped her first solo album during the fall of my first +year of graduate school, I was back on board. Over the next decade she +became Beyoncé the multi-talented mega-superstar that we know today, +largely by keeping Black girls supplied with anthems for every possible life + + event. She was girl power personified, so I didn’t necessarily need or expect +her to have a critique of the patriarchy or a formal membership to the +feminists club. (BTW, for all you card-pullers, no such club exists.) +By then, she was inspiring all of my best feminist theorizing. When I heard +the 2006 club track “Get Me Bodied,” I definitely did an “old-school dance” +or two, as the song entreated, but I also thought about feminist body politics, +and what it might mean for a Black girl to really get in her body, love it, and +stay there. When I heard her “Upgrade U,” I cringed when she sang, “I can do +for you what Martin did for the people, ran by the men” (both because of the +bad grammar and the even worse politics), but perked up when she said, “but +the women keep the tempo.” I have thought long and hard about what it means +for women’s bodies to keep the tempo of social movements. Some of my best +academic theorization around feminism has come from pondering what kind +of space Bey might be making for the particular ways in which Black women +can be and can lead. +At some point, a journalist named Jane Gordon asked her directly whether +she was a feminist. Many Black women musicians had been asked this +question before Bey. Erykah Badu and Queen Latifah readily come to mind. +Both denied identification with the term, citing an affinity for “humanism” in +Erykah’s case, and a love for Black men in Latifah’s. +Beyoncé replied: +I think I am a feminist, in a way. It’s not something I consciously +decided I was going to be; perhaps it’s because I grew up in a +singing group with other women, and that was so helpful to me. It +kept me out of so much trouble and out of bad relationships. My +friendships with my girls are just so much a part of me that there are +things I am never going to do that would upset that bond. I never +want to betray that friendship because I love being a woman and I +love being a friend to other women. +When I heard Beyoncé articulate friendships with Black women as the core +of what feminism was for her, it felt to me like she got the core essence of +what this is all about. I love being a woman and being a friend to other + + women should be feminism’s tagline. If this isn’t true for you, you aren’t a +feminist. I’m not much on pulling people’s feminist cards, but some shit we +should just be able to say. +Eventually Beyoncé went on to adopt Chimamanda Adichie’s position on +feminism in a song called “Flawless” on her 2013 self-titled album, in which +she quoted from a YouTube clip of Adichie’s TED Talk: “Feminism refers to +the social, political, and economic equality of women.” Adichie’s own +failure in early 2017 to understand that transwomen are deserving of this +social, political, and economic equality perhaps makes her a problematic +feminist icon for many of us. When asked about transwomen, Adichie +struggled, in an interview, to acknowledge that they are women. Instead, she +said, “there are women, and then there are transwomen.” And while it is +okay to acknowledge that all kinds of women, whether white, Black, +Indigenous, Latina, Asian, cis, gender nonconforming, trans, queer, bi, or +straight might have different experiences, it’s not cool to act as though +transwomen are in some entirely separate category from the more general +category of woman. That is something that feminism needs to be clear on— +that it isn’t feminism if all women’s concerns, particularly the most +marginalized women’s concerns, aren’t taken seriously. +When I think about why Beyoncé matters so much to me as a feminist, it is +the first definition that always resonates, the one that she seemed hesitant to +articulate, the label she seemed ambivalent about adopting. Her feminism of +deeply connected relationships is one that escapes notice in our rush to make +sure our feminism names every ism and every intersectional category in its +articulation. It doesn’t matter if we get the rhetoric right, though, if we still +keep treating other women wrong. +Some would argue that Beyoncé hasn’t helped with that. On that very +same feminist track “Flawless,” the chorus insists “bow down bitches” over +an infectious Houston Hip Hop beat. Immediately, I watched Black feminist +chicks losing their minds, citing their outrage over having someone as +powerful as Beyoncé telling them to bow down. +This outrage felt rooted +in willful ignorance and emotional dishonesty. I’m glad that Hip Hop has +always been a part of my feminist journey, because I take Joan Morgan’s call +for “a feminism brave enough to fuck with the grays” as bible. You can be + + deeply invested in loving other Black women, but still need to proclaim +sometimes that bitches need to bow down. One, I don’t take bitches to be +gender-specific. Call that a feminist disruption of the sexism inherent in the +English language. And two, if I had had Beyoncé’s anthems as a twelve- or +thirteen-year-old, on more than a few occasions, I might have wanted to tell +Reina and Neisha to bow down. +Loving Black girls is complicated, but loving oneself in a world where +there is always someone ready to do you harm is even harder. I’m not trying +to resolve the contradiction of proclaiming you love Black women one day +and potentially telling them to bow down the next. I’m asking us to sit with +the pain and offense that make that space necessary. I’m asking us to sit with +the mean-girl tendencies we all have, with the ways that we hurt each other +and don’t show up for each other. I’m asking us to sit with the Beyoncé +conundrum that exists for all of us. At least she had the courage to own the +messiness of it. +And that’s why feminism needed Beyoncé. Because she has been more +truthful about how hard it is for Black women to get on the same page than +any of us professional feminists have ever been. After Beyoncé, feminism +was no longer something reserved for Black girls with college degrees and +Ph.D.’s. Suddenly feminism wasn’t just the province of Black girls who’d +read bell hooks. Armed with feminist narratives in the digital age, this Black +girl who’d built a singing career instead of going to college could be a +feminist, too. And she would use her considerable cultural power to spread +the gospel of feminism to the masses. +I wasn’t prepared for the ways many of my Black feminist comrades +resented her for it. bell hooks, the scholar and thinker who made it possible +for Black girls like me to write books like this, called Bey a “terrorist.” She +was responding to Bey’s image on the cover of Time magazine, a very blond, +damn-near white rendition of Bey, in which her image approximated white +womanhood in ways that felt a little too close for comfort. I think hooks read +Bey as flirting with whiteness and passing for white in ways that were +fundamentally anti-Black and not affirming for women of color. I wish that +she had said that, rather than throwing around the very loaded language of +“terrorist” all willy-nilly. Another group of Black feminists got together and + + proclaimed Bey’s feminism “bottom-bitch feminism,” the kind of faux +feminism that they felt accompanied the politics of sex work. +The rage was eloquent, to say the least. It spilled out in think piece after +think piece after think piece, attempting to beat back the march of Beyoncé’s +feminism, like it was the bubonic plague come to wipe out centuries of effort +from Black women activists. The rage was eloquent, but it wasn’t righteous. +And mostly it read as just plain wrong to me. Black women with unchecked +rage and emotional work left undone can do real harm. +Our feminist origin stories matter. When I watched Black women deem +this girl a brand instead of a human being, a stealthy rhetorical move that +enabled them to distance themselves from her and then drag her for filth +without compunction, it read to me like grown Black women using the power +of feminism to punch down (or up) at the mean girls who they resented in +childhood. I’m no therapist, but I’m a Black girl’s Black girl, and I know +Black-girl pain when I see it. Many of us who couldn’t access pretty +privilege, those of us who weren’t popular or cool, those of us nerdy girls +who stayed to ourselves, wrote stories and dreamed of lives as writers, grew +up and found a home in feminism, a place where we were seen, a place +where others were as mad about injustice as we were. +But for many of us, the first real injustices that mattered to us, that ripped +our hearts out, weren’t the failings of our parents’ relationships, or the boys +we crushed on who didn’t love us, but the Black girls who we wanted to see +us and befriend us instead either ignored or bullied us. I believe Bey +conjures up all that shit, and that feminist analysis gives us the language to +bludgeon her with our pain while feeling as if we are doing so in the cause of +justice. +There is never just cause to beat a Black woman like she stole something +when she is very clearly taking the pieces of her life and trying to build +something magnificent. Misdirected rage is a dangerous thing … a deadly +thing. But the power of Black feminism, of any good analytic frame, really, is +in its ability to clarify what the stakes are. +What would it mean to ask the question, Why is Beyoncé drawn to +feminism? If this feminist world we proclaim is so dope, why wouldn’t a +Black girl like her want to be part of this work, too? And if her husband Jay + + Z’s recently released confessional album 4:44 is any indicator, perhaps +feminism helped Bey find her power when she was confronted with an +unfaithful partner. Feminism has certainly been a soothing reminder of my +badassery every time I’ve been forced to mend my own broken heart. +Something about the thoughtfulness and intentionality with which she has +publicly grappled with her feminist journey makes it feel authentic to me. +Yes, my willingness to believe the best about Beyoncé comes from my +insistence on believing the best I can about Black women. It is not a small +thing to have the world’s biggest pop star on our squad. There are still far too +many young women who are hesitant to claim their feminism for us to be +snobs about who gets to be included. +Recently, I had to stage a homegirl intervention of my own for a young +sister struggling with the meaning of feminism. The young woman, a student +at Howard, had emailed to ask if I would come to her research presentation +on my campus. Of course, I obliged her. During her presentation about her +research on Black girls, I sat brimming with pride at her professionalism but +also curiosity about the conspicuous absence of Black feminist theorists from +her presentation. Afterward I asked her about that choice. “Well, Dr. Cooper, +I’m not sure about feminism.” “Why?” I asked, even though I suspected some +of what her answer might be. “It just seems like Black women are trying to +force white women to accept and include them. I’m still not over how those +suffragists treated Ida B. Wells at that march in 1913.” She was right. A +group of white suffragists had tried to force Wells to march in back during a +1913 suffrage march. Wells patently refused, though, and found a way to +march with her state delegation. +As I sat and talked with the student who had far more sophisticated +reasons for rejecting feminism than I had when I was a student, I wondered +yet again about why it is so easy for Black women to ignore how important +feminism is to our lives. I began by reminding her of the obvious: despite +white women’s racism, Ida B. Wells felt she had a right to be at the suffrage +march. Black women care about feminism because sexism and patriarchy +affect our lives, too. +Then I shared with her some things I’ve learned on my journey to +feminism. First, I’m not merely a feminist who happens to be Black. I’m a + + Black Feminist, capital B, capital F. That means I learned my feminism from +Black women, and my feminist theory and praxis is situated in the particular +ways Black women have understood, thought about, and written about the +problems of racism and sexism across space and time. My feminism begins +not with Susan B. Anthony and Elizabeth Cady Stanton showing out at Seneca +Falls, but with Maria Stewart, a Black lady abolitionist, who was schooling +audiences of men and women, Black and white, in Boston in the 1830s. When +Sister Stewart asked her audience, “How long shall the fair daughters of +Africa be compelled to bury their minds and talents beneath a load of iron +pots and kettles?” I see in her question an insistence on prioritizing the wellbeing of Black women and girls. When she then steps to Black women and +says, “We have been possessed of by far too mean and cowardly a +disposition, though I highly disapprove of an insolent and impertinent one,” I +see her grappling with the ways that rage has been our constant companion. I +see her challenging Black women to make that rage count. And while I think +Black women have every right to an attitude problem, I get Stewart’s point. +She concludes by telling Black women, “Do you ask the disposition I would +have you possess?… Sue for your rights and privileges. Know the reason you +cannot attain them. Weary them with your importunities. You can but die if +you make the attempt; and we shall certainly die if you do not.” This is my +Black feminism—the kind that is gonna channel all this rage to either get free +or die trying. +Second, I have too much feminist shit to do to spend my time hating white +women. Any time a white woman says something wrong in the public sphere +these days, there is an army of Black feminist writers at the ready with think +pieces that can snatch her wig and have her picking her face up off the floor +months later. Going after white women online will get you lots of clicks and +likes. But you’ll feel exhausted at the end and, often, white women’s attitudes +won’t have changed one iota. I’m not saying white women don’t do +treacherous shit. Far too often they are straight-up enemies to the work of +ending patriarchy and racism. But we still can’t let white women become the +center of a conversation that isn’t about them. I have had other Black +feminists drag me (or try to) when I have said this. They have said I’m caping +for white girls. Have you met me? Black feminism is not a reactionary + + project. It is not about the damage that white girls do. Not solely or +primarily. Black feminism is about the world Black women and girls can +build, if all the haters would raise up and let us get to work. When I talk +about owning eloquent rage as your superpower, it comes with the clear +caveat that not everyone is worth your time or your rage. Black feminism +taught me that. My job as a Black feminist is to love Black women and girls. +Period. +The third thing Black feminism taught me is that I was once willing to let a +Black nationalist–centered politic, largely narrated to me by Black men, have +me put my own political needs and concerns on the back burner to center +their needs and concerns. It’s odd in this political moment that Black +feminists resent white women more than Black men because when I think of +the harms I’ve dealt with and who has caused the most pain, done the most +emotional and physical violence, it is always always always Black men. +They have done the shooting, the cheating, the beating, and the devaluing. Yet +when a young Black man gets killed by police, my ass is in the street +proclaiming that “Black lives matter.” When Black women get killed, Black +men never manage to plan such marches in solidarity with us. Though our +bros ain’t loyal, we insist on showing up for them. In a world where capital +“B” Blackness matters as much as it does, I’m not sure that this obviously +contradictory approach to our feminist politics will change. Where brothers +are concerned, shit is and will always be complicated. +After laying all this out, I realized that I sounded like a feminist evangelist +and that perhaps I had hemmed the girl up a little too hard. So I backed up, +and simply urged the young Howardite not to leave her intellectual and +political heritage at the door because of the ways white women often act. She +listened to me, but she still looked skeptical as hell. I guess I deserved it for +all the talking crazy I did way back when. +This is why I worry about a Black feminist politic that spends all its time +tearing down Black girls who aren’t deemed radical enough on the one hand +and white girls and their relationship to racism on the other. Stewart didn’t +say we shouldn’t give white folks the business. She said the opposite. But +she also reminds us that Black women and girls should be at the center. My +Black feminism keeps my eyes on the prize, the prize being Black women and + + girls. My Black feminism insists that we center them, that we talk about them, +that we build a world for and with them, that we fight alongside them. Black +feminist rage can change this world, but it can also destroy us if we are not +careful. It’s just that powerful. It’s powerful because the power of a good +political analysis is that it can be a masterful cloak for the emotional work +we haven’t done. +Look, I know the world is not Black and white. But for Black women, our +relationships to white women and Black men are still the primary definers of +our feminism. Being in solidarity with the Latina chick or the Asian +American chick in the struggle feels not uncomplicated but sensible. It’s +dealing with all the feelings around white girls and black boys that get us all +caught up. And in the midst of that predicament Black girls are always the +compass, pointing us to the North. That is the most important lesson that +Black feminism taught me. That a Black girl—my homegirl—saved my life. +She did it by lovingly calling me out (or rather calling me in, as the kids say) +on my bullshit. We need each other to survive. + + STRONG FEMALE LEADS + +I have a complicated relationship with white women. As clear as I am about +needing Black women as a matter of survival, I feel far less sure about the +need to be in solidarity with white women. And no other relationship causes +me to reckon with that fact more than the political rise and fall of Hillary +Rodham Clinton. I have been a spectator to her political career since 1992, +when her husband became the first Democratic president in my lifetime. I +was twelve years old when he took office, and my conflicted, complicated +feelings about Hillary Clinton are deeply rooted in the very relationships +with white girls that shaped my early adolescence, which happened +simultaneously with her entrance on the national stage. But first, let me tell +you why things with me and white girls are the way they are. +On the one hand, if my television viewing preferences are any indicator, I +love white women, especially those who run shit. My Netflix queue is +populated with shows that feature “Strong Female Leads”: Gilmore Girls, +The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt, Girlboss, and Grace and Frankie. I can +be found on any given day watching reruns of Madame Secretary, Rizzoli & +Isles, or Veep on regular television. And Rachael Ray gets as much credit for +my cooking style as anything my mother and my grandmother ever taught me. I +know I just committed country Southern Black-girl blasphemy, but I long ago +swapped out those delicious cans of flavor-infused, heart-clogging used +grease for a bottle of EVOO (extra virgin olive oil). +On the other hand, I haven’t had a white girl for a friend since 1998, the +year I graduated high school. The last white girl to visit a place where I lived +was my friend Michelle, who famously stepped into my room one day and + + put my Luster’s Pink Oil Moisturizer in her blond hair and claimed it gave +her texture and body. We both giggled about it, her in delight at using Black +haircare products and me at the absurdity of this white girl, my friend, putting +my pink oil in her white-girl hair. Real friends can share cross-cultural +intimacies like that. +But until the Netflix-user algorithm clued me in, I had no idea that I had a +predilection for watching white girls run the world. How can an avowed +Black feminist be in love with imagined worlds in which white girls are at +the center of everything? +It all started with The Baby-Sitters Club. Well, really, it all started with +Tami Brown, a poor, mousy-brown haired white girl who could have fit the +description of Ramona Quimby in Beverly Cleary’s Ramona books, which I +loved. Tami screamed the words “dirty nigger!” to me on the playground at +recess. When I was eight years old, I only registered “nigger,” a word I had +heard my father use before among his friends, as an insult because it spewed +forth from the beet-red, angry, scrunched-up face of this white girl. She +delivered it with such force that my body recoiled from the shock of it, even +though I wasn’t fully aware what she meant. That night, I came home and +asked, “Mama, what does the word ‘nigger’ mean?” Before my mother +answered, her face winced in pain. I had never seen that look before, but I +registered that she hated hearing and knowing that her daughter had been +called such a thing. Mama stopped stirring the pot on the stove, looked at me +intently, and replied, “An ignorant person! A nigger is an ignorant person.” +Tami Brown may have been ignorant, but she had just initiated me into a +world of racial knowing of the worst sort. +White girls were still kind of new to me. I had only recently started +spending any significant time with them socially, after my first-grade teacher +discovered that I was an advanced reader. That meant I could no longer stay +in my disproportionately Black, middle-ability-track elementary school +classroom. I was moved to the predominantly white upper-ability classroom. +Mandy, whom I met in second grade, was my best friend. She was nice to me +and we ended up playing together at recess every day. Mandy invited me to +skating parties and church cookouts. But then there was Tami, who looked at +me as though my skin was shit-stained brown. + + My newfound congress with white girls brought me great joy. One day +Mandy mentioned that she was part of a cool club called the Brownies, so I +came home and told my mama I wanted to be one. After having worked all +day, she honored the whim of her seven-year-old, hustled back out the door, +packed me into the backseat of her Chevy Chevette, and drove me over to the +school cafeteria for the Brownie meeting. The school was completely dark, +because her seven-year-old had the wrong location. We drove back home, +dug the flyer out of the trash can, found the proper location, and then drove +across town to get me all signed up for Girl Scouts. As a hardworking single +mom, my mother’s commitment to getting me to that meeting taught me that +she was invested in my doing positive activities that would enable me to +become a self-possessed and confident Black girl. She was also probably +just a bit worried about whether I would make real friends given this new +social world in the higher-track classes. Girl Scouts became my proper +introduction to the social lives of Southern white girls, the deliciousness of +s’mores, and the wonders of going to sleepaway camp. +These new friendships also alienated me from any Black friends I might +have had; I quickly became the object of ridicule among my black +classmates, who accused me of “acting white.” I was not yet fully clear on +what all the shifts in my friend demographic meant, but Tami made it plain. +There was a word, an angry, hateful, stigmatizing word that named the +difference between me and my new white friends. +I tried to make sense of this whole new world through the very vehicle +that had brought me into contact with so much whiteness in the first place—a +love of books. By the end of third grade, I had plowed through Judy Blume’s +Fudge series, all of the Ramona Quimby books, and every hardcover chapter +book that arrived at my house from the Weekly Reader Children’s Book Club. +I escaped happily into fictional worlds populated by nice, adventurous, +friendly white girls. I don’t know that I chose these books because the girls +were white. There were so few books about Black girls to choose from. The +few books about Black people that I had, my aunt Colleen had boxed up and +shipped to me from the Black-owned bookstore in Dallas, Texas, where she +lived. A country girl in a small town, I associated access to books about my +own experience with life in the big city. In the books to which I had regular + + access, the worlds of white girls were middle-class, nuclear, and +uncomplicated, which is, fairly or unfairly, how I imagined their lives. +That spring, when the circular arrived for the book fair, I noticed one of +the Baby-Sitters Club titles listed on the flyer and felt immediately drawn to +it. I marked it down and asked my mom for money to buy it, along with some +sticker books and other goodies at the fair. She obliged. When it came to +books, my mother always obliged. +When I made it to the book fair, I beelined for book #8, Boy-Crazy +Stacey, the first book I read in the series. Book #8 began a five-year love +affair with the five thirteen-year-old Connecticut girls that comprised the +BSC. Like thousands of other girls, I became a card-carrying member of the +Scholastic, Inc. Baby-Sitters Club and received a real-life printed +membership card and welcome packet in the mail with a letter penned by +Ann M. Martin, the series author. In the fifth grade I tried to start my own +baby-sitters club before I realized that I really didn’t have any babies to sit +and before I realized, quite frankly, that my single working mama would not +take too kindly to this “venture” of mine, since it would probably amount to +extra work for her. Regretfully, I reached into the makeshift loose-leaf paper +“envelope” I had stapled together and refunded each girl her fifty cents in +club dues. +Each month when my allowance arrived, just in time for my mother’s and +my monthly sojourn to the closest mall thirty miles away, I would set aside +my four dollars and change to purchase the newest book in the series. I loved +that it was a series, because I didn’t have to let go of the characters at the end +of each book. +As an only child, I considered the core members of the BSC—Kristy, +Mary Anne, Claudia, Stacey, and Dawn—my friends in my head. Eventually, +they took on two junior members, eleven-year-olds Mallory and Jessi. +Interestingly, Jessi was African American, but I was never too pressed to +read about her. I already knew what it felt like to be the only one in a friend +group of white girls, and Ann Martin never quite captured that experience. +But what I loved about these girls was the authenticity of their friendship. +They were young, smart, and enterprising. They didn’t all think alike, but they +did things together. They weren’t the mean girls or the cool kids, but they had + + their sacred friendship unit and they honored it. In the safety of that friendship +unit, every girl was her full, best, awesome self. They fought sometimes, but +always made up. And in the end, no matter what, they rode for each other. +I longed for that kind of close female comradeship. I craved it. As thankful +as I was for sleepovers and friends to play with at school, none of my +friendships ever felt like the Baby-Sitters Club. White girls for me existed in +real life somewhere on a continuum from Mandy, the best of them, to Tami, +the worst of them. When, in 2010, my homegirl and I created a blogging crew +called the Crunk Feminist Collective it occurred to me, after we were up and +running and functioning well, that my first act in adulthood, after getting my +first real job, was to basically create a Black-girl adult version of the BabySitters Club! The project we undertook together wasn’t baby-sitting, but the +essential concept was the same—a group of young women who came +together around a shared thing that we all did, to change our little corner of +the world for the better. Black feminism taught me my feminism, and Hip Hop +taught me my crunk, but the Baby-Sitters were the first to help me imagine +what the contours of loving female friendships could look like. +These days, any show, past or present, that demonstrates authentic loving +friendships between strong women (including mothers and daughters) is +always at the top of my list—Gilmore Girls, Grace and Frankie, The +Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, Sex and the City, Living Single. +I realize now that I was mostly interested in understanding the very +different lives of these older, Northern, sophisticated white girls who, +because they were fictional, were different enough from the Southern white +girls I knew and safe enough for me to admire and love without hurt or +shame. At least that’s the explanation that makes sense to thirtysomethingyear-old me. What I remember is loving these fictional white girl characters, +even as I learned the perils and possibilities of what it meant to live closely +with white girls in real life. My Baby-Sitters Club years were populated +with racial slights from the white girls I called friends. Never overt, these +incidents communicated that I was mostly liked, often tolerated, but +invariably different. +In the fourth grade, I sat at my desk one morning as my friend Candy, a +member of the core group of girls I played with at recess, came around + + handing out invitations to her birthday party. When she came to my desk, she +said, “I’m sorry I can’t invite you to my party, Brittney, but my daddy doesn’t +like Black people.” I remember how her light brown hair swung from side to +side as she said it. +Later that year, when I starred in and coproduced our Black History +Month play, The Rosa Parks Story (an idea I got from one of those Black +history books Aunt Colleen had sent), Candy raised her hand first when the +teacher asked for volunteers to play Martin Luther King. Her mother brought +her to school with a bottle of brown makeup, which Candy smeared all over +her own face. She then gave an enthusiastic rendition of King’s “I Have a +Dream” speech. Her mom was in the audience; her dad was not. +In fifth grade, I watched my friends and their families tie yellow ribbons +on trees around town to commemorate Operation Desert Storm, the first Gulf +War. A few months later, when we were all treated to the video of Rodney +King being brutally beaten by four LAPD officers, no one at school +mentioned it. I was left to discuss it in the blackness of my own home. In one +of our deep playground conversations, which at tween ages revolved around +everything from how it was to get your period to debating whether white and +Black people could date, Mandy told me that her daddy said “everybody +should stick with their own kind.” +Still, she was my friend. Particularly in the sixth grade when she saved me +in gym. We were sitting there talking about Judy Blume books, and I had just +finished reading Deenie, a book that I had gotten for a few cents on an +afternoon excursion to Fran’s Book Nook with my aunt Punkin, who went +there regularly to restock her endless supply of romance novels. Sometimes, +on her way, she would swoop by after school in her old brown 1977 Toyota +Celica, pick me up, and let me ride with her. At Christmas time, when Aunt +Colleen came home from the city, she and Aunt Punkin would trade romance +novels. +I had also devoured and loved Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret, +probably because as a Black girl raised in the Baptist Church, I spent a lot of +time thinking about God, whether He was really as scary as the preacher said +He was every Sunday, wondering whether the world really would end before + + I got up enough courage to get “saved,” and wondering just who God was +and how God thought. +Mandy was having no parts of Deenie. “Ew,” she said when I mentioned +it. “That book talks about touching yourself and stuff.” “Yes, it’s called +masturbation,” I said loudly to her and our friends on the top row of the +bleachers. Mandy’s face turned red and she ducked, telling me to keep it +down. I had no idea that I had committed a cardinal teenage sin, that it was a +thing to be embarrassed about, not to be discussed in mixed company. That is +probably because even though I read the descriptions, I still wouldn’t figure +out masturbation properly until I was in college. And I didn’t live in a house +with older siblings who might have discussed these things. Mandy looked out +for a sister that day, because getting caught talking about masturbation is only +second in disaster potential to getting caught doing it. +On her birthday that year, we had a sleepover at her house and went to the +dollar movies to see Fried Green Tomatoes. Late that evening, upon our +return, all the girls were styling each other’s hair, but no one was allowed to +touch mine. A cardinal rule of Black girls is that when your mama has sat up +all night styling your hair, you don’t let anybody else touch it. So I played in +theirs, learning about the difference in textures and that you didn’t need to +pull a comb through a white girl’s hair with nearly as much force as it took to +pull a comb through a Black girl’s kinks and curls. +White girls were exceedingly tender-headed, and it took me a few tries +before Mandy stopped saying “Ouch, not so hard.” That ability, to have a +world that is centered on the prerogatives of white femininity, to command +someone to stop pulling and tugging so hard upon request, is so far from the +truth of so many Black girls’ lives. A delicate, fine-toothed comb is no match +for the average Black girl’s hair. We require wide-toothed combs that are +sturdy and strong and can hold our thick tresses firmly and gently at the same +time, without breaking them or hurting us. For many of us are tender-headed, +too. By the way, we require the same things from our lovers, our mothers, +and the country in which we reside. This is not a one-comb-fits-all nation. +Before the natural hair revolution reemerged in the early 2000s and +chided us for relaxing and combing the hell out of our springy, gravitydefying Black-girl hair, most of us sat between our mamas’ knees and took it. + + We endured the endless hours of washing, detangling, drying, oiling, parting, +twisting, and plaiting our hair into respectable styles so that we could look +like we belonged to somebody. And it was precisely because this process +took hours that we were not ever allowed to let anybody touch our hair. But +the process of our mothers and aunties and big sisters and grandmothers +lovingly tugging our hair into place is often the first lesson Black girls learn +about the inherently tough conditions we face, about how much effort it will +take to prepare us to face a waiting world, about where our safe havens are +and always will be—in community with women. Who you let put their +fingers in your head is sacred. +The politics of Black women’s hair matters. It matters in a world where, +as I learned at Mandy’s party, the comb never slips through our hair quite so +easily as it slips through theirs. +Later that spring, when my classmate Layla had her pool party, the great +hair divide was on full display. We were in the pool in her backyard, playing +Marco Polo and water tag and all manner of other games. I was under +express orders not to get my hair wet, because chlorine and permed hair +don’t mix. As I clung to the edges of the pool, both because I couldn’t swim +and because I was trying to limit the amount of water that seeped inside my +swim cap, my friends’ mothers whispered to each other by the side of the +pool, “I don’t understand why it’s that serious. It’s just hair. Kids should just +get to be kids.” Of course, my mama wasn’t there to defend herself because +she had to work. +Still, my efforts proved futile and my hair got wet anyway. When Mama +walked in under the judging eyes of the white moms hanging by the pool, I +said, “I’m sorry for getting my hair wet, Mama. I tried not to.” To which she +replied, “We’ll just have to wash it.” She didn’t make a big deal about it, and +I was grateful, but washing and styling my hair was a several hours’ long +ordeal, and surely not the way my mother had intended to spend her Friday +night at the end of a long week. +A few years later, another white girl friend, one with whom I exchanged +notes and enjoyed a friendly classroom competition for grades, came up to +me and asked, “Can I touch your hair?” Today, I would give her every side +eye I have and a firm “no,” but back then, I let her touch it. Her reply: “It’s so + + soft. I thought it would feel more like a Brillo pad.” Her daddy, she once +whispered to me, didn’t much care for Black people either. +These, though, were my friends. And this was the deep stew of Southern +1990s adolescence that shaped my own conception of girlhood. Effectively +shunned by most of the other Black girls who didn’t yet have the tools to +understand their Black-girl magic or to make space for mine, I would have +had no friends but for these white girls who invited me to sleepovers, pool +parties, and the movies. +But so much of what it meant to be a Black girl among white girls, was to +be a spectator and coconspirator in their construction of me as the other, as +not quite like them. By escaping into the world of my beloved baby-sitter +friends and later into the world of Elizabeth and Jessica, the Sweet Valley +Twins, I could be a spectator and an imagined participant without risk. In this +fictive world, I imagined race was only incidental and I got to revel in the +shared tween and teen shenanigans of other girls, unencumbered by social +difference. +To be clear, I did not fully consent to my own othering. I read every Black +book my aunt sent, played with the paper dolls of Josephine Baker that +arrived in one of the books, and diligently hunted for every book in Mildred +Taylor’s Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry trilogy. On Saturday mornings, we +cleaned the house while Video Soul and Soul Train played on the TV and, on +lazy Saturday evenings, Luther Vandross, Johnny Gill, and Alexander O’Neal +blasted from my mother’s stereo system. +In sixth grade, my mama thought it would be fun to take me to my first +concert. It featured MC Lyte (for me), Miki Howard (for her), David +Peaston, and Surface. The Hip Hop of the nineties, which I loved, had its fair +share of strong female leads, dope sistas who were kicking butt and taking +names. These women were unbowed by the male-centered nature of Hip Hop +culture. Hip Hop is all about loud, rowdy, and raunchy testosterone-driven +narratives. These women thrived both because of and in spite of the culture. +If you ask me the most memorable figures in the soundtrack to my girlhood +and adolescence, my personal Hip Hop mixtape would be primarily female. +My first favorite Hip Hop group was J.J. Fad, a bubblegum-pop girl group, +whose 1988 hit “Supersonic” had an infectious beat that I still remember + + hearing for the first time as a seven-year-old in the passenger seat of my big +cousin’s blue Pontiac Sunbird on a country summer excursion to the corner +store. J.J. Fad was gimmicky, but when I heard them for the first time, I paid +attention to girls who rhymed. +For the concert my mother, who always took more interest in my +appearance (thankfully) than I did, had hustled me over to Cato Fashions for +an outfit. Once I reached tween age, every school year my mother would go +to Cato and put a few outfits on layaway for me, so I could look fresh at the +start of school. But this was a special treat. I remember that I had a cute top +and these awesome baggy purple pants that felt cool and cute, and kind of +like Hip Hop. I was ready when MC Lyte came out and lit up the stage. +A pioneering MC in Hip Hop, Lyte is the exemplar of a “strong female +lead.” She is, to this day, a confident lyricist who tells it like it is while +coming off as supremely unbothered by any haters who would dare to step to +her. Between Lyte, Queen Latifah, Da Brat, and, later, Lauryn Hill, Missy +Elliot, Lil’ Kim, and Foxy Brown, I was blessed to come of age in the era of +the female emcee. Despite my lack of Black girl friends, listening to Black +music, Hip Hop and R&B, made me know that I was a real Black girl even if +none of the other Black girls around me saw it. Like Ashley Banks, the little +sister on Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, I had a massive crush on Tevin Campbell +and squealed when my mama surprised me with a cassette tape of his debut +album T.E.V.I.N. Black girls frequently teased me for “talking white” and +“acting white” but I still remember the exhilaration of seeing MC Lyte +command a stage for the first time, watching Queen Latifah check sexist +dudes in the “U.N.I.T.Y.” video, and learning all the words to Da Brat’s +“Funkdafied.” +Most of my love of Black girl pop icons and Black music lived out of +sight of anyone but my mother. That tucking away of my Black-girlness, even +as I simultaneously tucked away my awareness of my friends’ whiteness, was +a survival skill that I honed, in part, by reading and immersing myself in the +stories of white girls’ lives. Before we fully learn to love ourselves, all +people of color in the United States learn that we are supporting characters +and spectators in the collective story of white people’s lives. The stories we +watch and read ask us to put aside their whiteness and relate to their very + + “universal” human struggles around conflict with the world, the self, and +others. The problem is that only the experiences of white people are treated +as universal. Meanwhile, Black movies, shows, and books are typically seen +as limited and particular. +By escaping regularly into the saccharine world of fictional white +girlhood, I could find respite from grappling with the enormously +complicated and devastating meanings of Rodney King, Anita Hill, Clarence +Thomas, and the L.A. Riots, even as all of these formative narratives about +the precarity of Blackness and Black womanhood were happening around +me. +And this brings me back to the moment that I, along with the rest of +America, got our first taste of Bill and Hillary Clinton. When the Arkansas +governor burst onto the political stage in 1992, it seemed pretty clear that +there was something unique about him. His charm was then, as now, +legendary. +When I wasn’t in the fictive world of Stonybrook, Connecticut, or the +raucous world of early nineties Hip Hop, I was devouring teen magazines. +Those magazines had begun to cover a political couple from Arkansas that +they referred to as “Billary.” Before there were corny celebrity portmanteaus +like Bennifer and Brangelina, there was Billary. But Billary was not in the +least celebratory. It was a derisive dig at Hillary Clinton’s political +ambitions and her attempt to move away from the traditional first-lady role of +being a decorous appendage to the president. I wasn’t that interested in +politics, but I found the wordplay clever. I watched as Hillary Clinton built a +name for herself, mostly by ignoring her charismatic husband’s notoriously +womanizing ways. As the news of Bill Clinton’s affair with Gennifer +Flowers made headlines, I learned that men don’t lose presidencies over +cheating on their wives. Moreover, Hillary Clinton was an ambitious wife +who made a failed bid for an office in the West Wing during her husband’s +first term. Americans admired her loyalty to her husband, almost as much as +they despised her political ambitions. I also learned that if wives have the +nerve to have ambitions beyond wifehood, the public chastening and +disciplining is even more severe. + + So much of Hillary Clinton’s career in the public eye reads like a modern +version of Shakespeare’s Taming of the Shrew. Oddly enough, two of my +favorite movies, both of which emerged just as Hillary Clinton ran for and +won her Senate seat in New York, are remakes of Shrew. And I love both the +white version, 10 Things I Hate About You (1999), and the Black version, +Deliver Us From Eva (2003). I love them because I always identified with +the strong female leads at the center of these stories. Hillary Clinton’s +personal and professional life has been shaped by the consequences she has +faced for being an ambitious and untamed woman. Though I believe she and +Bill enjoy a great friendship and a political partnership, his multiple +infidelities and his flaunting of them in public have certainly had the effect, if +not the intent, of disciplining his wife into the role of supportive, loyal +spouse. And for playing that role with aplomb, Hillary Clinton garnered the +respect of many women across race and class lines. My mother told me after +the Monica Lewinsky scandal: “I like Hillary. She’s handling this in such a +classy way.” +By that November, as the Clintons were on their way to the White House +and a historic number of women on their way to Congress, the press had +declared 1992 the Year of the Woman. Still, when Hillary made her failed +bid for the West Wing office so she could push the agenda of universal +health-care coverage, she was roundly lambasted, publicly hated, and again +culturally disciplined into silence. But she put the world on notice that, as +Beyoncé might say, “I’m not just his little wife.” I have always lingered over +stories of women who lead, women who know what they want out of this +world, and women who demand that others respect them and recognize their +magic. +When Hillary decided to run for president in 2008, I had initially planned +to vote for her. Before my admiration for Michelle and Barack Obama and, +frankly, my racial loyalty caused me to ascend the Hope train, I could think of +no more qualified person to be our first female president. When again she +chose to run in 2016, my fervor for her was renewed. This was despite the +fact that she had called thirteen-year-old Black children “superpredators” in +support of her husband’s 1994 crime bill. I was thirteen when she said it, just +like her daughter. And despite the fact that in 2008 she seemed to entertain + + the notion that someone shooting Barack Obama would put her in line for the +nomination. And despite the fact that her husband made a bunch of entitled +and thinly veiled racist statements to the people of South Carolina when they +backed Barack Obama in ’08. +My relationship with white girls is and remains complicated. And in the +public parts of my life, for good or ill, white women’s racism has never kept +me from admiring them, befriending them, or supporting them. This has been +true for multiple generations of Black women, especially in the South. I +understand Hillary Clinton at the nexus of these competing narratives of my +own womanhood and girlhood—my complicated relationship with white +women, my innate admiration for strong women, and my hard-won +understanding of the similarities between how Black and white communities +constrict and resent women who seek power. +The latter lesson I learned during my junior year at Howard University, +when I decided to run for student-body president. Coincidentally, that was +the same year that Hillary Clinton took office as a U.S. senator. I felt that, as +an overachiever my whole life and an enthusiastic joiner ever since Mandy +told me about Girl Scouts in the second grade, running the student body was a +natural progression of my many years leading and serving in student +organizations in high school and college. Debate team, Young Lawyers +Association, and Future Business Leaders. +I took this joiner sensibility right into college, where I eagerly embraced +all kinds of student associations, honors clubs, and various positions in the +expansive student government network that comprises Howard University. In +my junior year, I decided that I was ready for the big time—president of the +Howard University Student Association (HUSA). Together with my running +mate, Mark, I threw my hat in the ring. At Howard, the only historically +Black college located in the nation’s capital, student government campaigns +are simulations of real life. Candidates spend in the thousands of dollars for +fancy campaign logos and posters and splashy events to attract attention. +Naïve and idealistic, I had yet to learn at age twenty that elections are as +much about popularity as about policy. In the cheerleader-jock-nerd nexus of +my high school, I understood and steered clear of this. I was the girl who +worked out much of what I experienced in the real world by escaping into the + + world of books and ideas. At Howard, no one knew the student handbook, +the intercollege student government structure, or the minutiae of policies and +procedures better than I did. Knowing all of these policies and procedures +would equip me, I thought, to lead people. +On the day that my running mate and I went to meet with the university +president, I laid out my ambitious agenda. President Swygert looked at me, +as if amused, and said, “You have to get elected first.” I was taken aback. I +didn’t fully understand the comment. It felt dismissive, condescending, and +insulting. Didn’t he know who I was? I had never at that point failed at any +major endeavor in my life, and I didn’t plan to fail at this one. Still, although +it was before the age of Facebook, he had scribbled the proverbial writing +on my wall. +As the election season progressed, my polling teams (yes, polling teams) +would go out across the campus and canvass dorms on my behalf. They +always began with two questions: Who do you think has the best command of +the issues? and Who do you plan to vote for? Invariably, the response to +Question One would be “Brittney and Mark.” The response to Question Two +would be “Stefanie and Alex,” our erstwhile opponents, who would +eventually emerge victorious. +Completely nonplussed by this information, I was even more taken aback +by the other kinds of feedback my teams brought back with them. Students +said I needed to be more feminine. I should wear stud earrings rather than my +signature hoops. To this day, I only occasionally deviate from hoops. I +needed to style my permed hair more effectively and wear suits and heels. I +was awkward, overweight, and far more interested in books and politics than +in makeup and hairstyles. I didn’t even really know where to begin. Wholly +naïve to the world of political campaigns, I could not understand people who +thought I knew the issues better than anyone, but planned to vote for someone +else. But that is what they did. Stefanie and Alex won in a landslide against +us and another ticket. I should have known how it would go on election day +when a known campus busybody sent a passive-aggressive message to me +through one of my friends that my jeans, campaign T-shirt, and sneakers +didn’t “look presidential.” + + My spirit crushed and my eyes open to the intimate cruelty of politics, I +was not a gracious loser. I did not call to congratulate the winners. I skipped +class the next day, ashamed to show my failure of a face on campus, opting +instead to sulk in the darkness of the movies. And I spent much of my senior +year disillusioned with a campus that I felt had betrayed me despite several +years of committed service. +But many of the failures were mine. Mind you, it never even occurred to +me to canvass dorms with my team. The thought of soliciting strangers for +votes still gives me anxiety! (Clearly I shouldn’t have been running.) It was +dramatic and devastating in the way that first failures for overachievers tend +to be. It was a painful opportunity to see myself through the mirror of others +and find my reflection wanting. Over the course of my twenties, it became a +lesson in figuring out what things about myself I would retain and what things +I wanted to change. I learned first and foremost, though, that if people can’t +trust you, you can’t lead them. Second, I learned that electoral politics +weren’t the thing for me. Perhaps that’s petty, but living a life being evaluated +by other people’s impressions of me felt like too much. The third thing I +learned is that it wasn’t just about qualifications, or competence, or +commitment, but about helping people feel connected. As a bit of an introvert +and not much of a people person, I had failed to make the connection. +Stefanie, my opponent, did. Students could relate to her. They found her to be +genuine, rather than haughty or uptight. I was used to being one of the +smartest people in the room and I acted like it, primarily as a defense +mechanism. +I didn’t see Hillary Clinton’s loss in the 2016 election coming. Like most +Americans, and most of the polling numbers, I assumed that we had arrived +at a place where America was ready for a female president, especially one +as hypercompetent as Clinton. In the late hours of November 8, 2016, when it +became clear that she would lose, I was nothing short of heartbroken. +Perhaps I should have been less optimistic. +The writing was on the wall. For more than twenty years, journalists have +written essays about the reasons people hate Hillary Clinton. Every time I +heard or read one of those pieces, I winced, remembering acutely how it felt +to be deemed overqualified but simultaneously disliked and distrusted. + + The things that made others distrust Hillary Clinton were the things that +made me like her. Something about her social awkwardness, her detailoriented policy-wonk tendencies, and her devotion to the long game of +racking up qualifications through intentional résumé building feels familiar, +because it is the very same strategy of every high-achieving Black woman I +know. Often Black women are cast as cold and unfeeling for having these +qualities. But the hustling spirit that I saw in Hillary Clinton resonated with +the oft-repeated Black proverb: You have to work twice as hard to get half as +far. Black women and girls are forced to navigate the unreasonably high +expectations that go along with proverbs like this throughout their lives. I’ll +come back to that later. But I believe that there is no other group of women +who can understand just how devastating Hillary Clinton’s loss was than +Black women. What might feel like a singular and stunning defeat for her is +one that Black women learn to live with every day—the sense that you are a +woman before your time, that your brilliance and talents are limited by the +historical moment and the retrograde politics within that moment in which +you find yourself living. Black women, from slavery to freedom, know that +struggle so much more than any white person ever will. +Hillary appealed to the parts of me that care far less about impressing +people than about figuring out the nuts and bolts of the kind of thinking that +will actually help people. She appealed to the parts of me that despise the +insincerity and superficiality of small talk. She appealed to the parts of me +that come alive in intimate settings when I have the chance to connect with +real people. My ability to empathize with a woman whose life and political +commitments diverge significantly from my own is rooted in the ways I +learned in early childhood to understand and negotiate the complex humanity +of white women even before I learned to negotiate my own. I learned to like +and value certain white women, despite their racism, long before I learned +how to prioritize and value my own Black-girl magic. +So, yes, I think patriarchy had something to do with Hillary, whom Barack +Obama called the most qualified person ever to run for the job, losing the +election to a man who probably struggles to spell the word “competent.” The +fact that 53 percent of white women voted against her bears all the marks of +the internecine ways that patriarchy pits women in an endless competition + + with one another. Throughout the election season, I witnessed so many white +women, on both the right and the left, rolling their eyes and saying “ewwww” +and “ugghh” every time Hillary Clinton came up in conversation. Somewhere +in the midst of the time I spent being friends with white girls, I missed their +penchant for doing mean-girl shit to each other. Everything about the ways +that white women endlessly analyzed and picked Hillary apart felt like it +came from the mean-girl playbook that we all learn in middle school. +Perhaps it’s sexist of me to reduce legitimate political analyses down to +mean-girl infighting, but the political distrust and disdain for Hillary Clinton +is as outsized as the vitriol that some Black feminists reserve for Beyoncé. +Look. It’s not just Black and white women who I think keep replaying +middle-school angst. Working-class white men’s overidentification with +Donald Trump, a man who clearly despises them, is the stuff of middleschool fantasy, too. Perhaps it is difficult to hear that electoral contests still +are what they’ve always been: popularity contests. And popularity is dictated +by all of the worst forms of social privilege—we are conditioned to like the +people who are pretty, charming, handsome, rich, and well-connected. +Donald Trump sure ain’t pretty, but he is rich and well-connected, and that +means that lots of white men who will never be either of these things secretly +identify with him. That’s all I’m saying—that so many of the emotional +impulses that shape our engagements with powerful public figures have to do +with the shit we went through in middle school. I really wish people would +just go to therapy. +The young and woke ones on the Black left also refused to give too much +credence to patriarchy’s influence on the election. Many of these Black folks, +some of them new and first-time voters and some of them old-school +contrarians, saw Hillary Clinton as a shill for the neoliberal, establishment +Democrats, a racist doing her husband’s bidding, a woman unworthy of being +a poster child for feminist anything. It seemed reasonable to them to protest +every imperial fault of the American Republic on Hillary Clinton’s back. +Meanwhile, these same folks lined up behind Bernie Sanders, a socialist +who had radical things to say about money, but not much else. I never +believed the Bernie hype. Perhaps it’s problematic identity politics, but I left +white-savior narratives alone a long time ago. Bernie’s Johnny-come-lately + + race analysis, which he hastily put together after young Black women bumrushed him onstage at a rally, felt as opportunistic to me as Hillary’s belated +engagement with the politics of race. It didn’t matter to me that Bernie had +participated in the civil rights movement and, frankly, his close proximity to +that degree of racial animus made his absence of racial analysis more than +fifty years later even more egregious. Moreover, I found it especially terrible +that when it came to racial politics, many young progressives, across racial +lines, were far more willing to train their hatred on Hillary Clinton, a white +woman, than on Bernie Sanders, a white man. White women have absolutely +been accomplices to the American project of white supremacy, but their +husbands, brothers, fathers, and sons have always been the masterminds. Let +us never forget that. +Having grown up in a world where white women were frequently a mixed +bag, I couldn’t technically disagree with assessments of Clinton as a racist +and a neoliberal big-money politician. My problem was that every politician +on the left since Bill Clinton has been exactly this kind of politician. I didn’t +understand how people, knowing how patriarchy works, expected the first +woman president in a deeply masculinist and patriarchal democracy to break +the mold. People demanded nothing short of political purity from a woman +fighting for a position in a system that has been stained bright red with the +blood of countless marginalized groups from the beginning. Women are to be +pure and unsullied, maternal, nurturing, and the conscience of the Republic. +Clinton was maternal to her one child only, and not much interested in any of +those other qualities. And many Americans, including the young of all races +who have grown up with patriarchal expectations as barely detectable +background noise, hated Clinton for all the ways in which she did not +conform to these dictates. At the same time, a curious thing was happening +among young Black feminists and progressives, who hated Hillary Clinton +because she was entirely too white. These folks focused on her race and +class politics exhaustively, and treated her gender and her long life as a +woman in politics as though it were incidental rather than central to the +narrative. +Even before I embraced feminism, the Howard campus election taught me +that patriarchy is always on its job. Other things like race, class, and sexual + + orientation, might be central. But gender always matters. The angst I felt over +being deemed simultaneously too good and not good enough set me on the +path to feminism. For the first time, on a campus that was committed to all +Black everything, I ran headlong into the politics of gender. Yes, my +opponent, a woman, won. But in addition to her clear talent for politics and +her doing an admittedly really great job as student body president, she also +met respectable standards of femininity that I hadn’t even truly been aware +existed. On the day of the campus election, she wore a dark-colored suit and +heels. I had no knowledge of the social mores of “looking presidential.” +Never before had my clothing and appearance been policed in this way, other +than by my mother. My insistence on a uniform of jeans and tennis shoes was, +I’m sure, a subconscious rebellion against this very same mother who, to this +day, owns neither a pair of jeans nor a pair of sneakers. Never before had I +encountered a world where the merit of my ideas didn’t rule the day. Even in +high school, though top grades and impressive college admissions didn’t +protect me from racism, the racists did not win. Never before had I been +made to care so much about how my existence and manner of moving through +the world made other people feel. +I wrote my first ever op-ed about my experience for the campus +newspaper. Before Rebecca Solnit gifted us the term “mansplaining,” several +brothers approached me on campus, having read my article, wanting to know +how the demand that I wear lipstick and smaller earrings was any different +from the unspoken edict that they shave their cornrows or locs. True enough, +Howard, like many other Black colleges, had (and has) a culture of +respectability when it comes to what constitutes professional attire. The +politics of respectability is predicated on extremely conservative ideas about +what a proper race man and a proper race woman are and should look like. I +watched, over the course of four years, as many young men in the School of +Business cut their dreadlocks just in time for senior year and the waiting job +market. Still, I offered every brother that stepped to me a withering glare and +asked, “Do you really think this is the same thing?” The stakes weren’t the +same. Respectability politics rooted in sexist ideas suggested that I wasn’t +qualified to be president because I wasn’t feminine enough and was not +enough of a lady. Because my male colleagues were straight men, their + + masculinity was not called into question. No one had said that they weren’t +masculine enough to be president. I didn’t have the language for that then. +My lack of answers to these questions left me with a sinking feeling in my +gut that even though I was more than halfway through college, I didn’t have +even half of the answers I needed about my life as a Black woman. I wasn’t a +feminist yet, but my unquestioned commitment to a race-only politic was like +sand slowly slipping through the fingers of my tightly clenched Black-power +fist. +I also never questioned my femininity because, even though I’ve never +been hyperfeminine, I am most at home in the company of other women. Ever +since the days of Girl Scouts and the Baby-Sitters Club, I have been a girl’s +girl. My understanding of my girlhood and my womanhood has always been +forged in relationship to other women and girls, black and white. At Howard, +I ran squarely up against the intersection of race and gender, racism and +sexism, in ways that I could not foresee. The kind of Black womanhood that +Howard valued in its leaders during my time there in the early 2000s was a +womanhood different from my own. Opinionated, outspoken, and far too +serious, I didn’t temper my mouth with cute hairstyles or clothes. I didn’t +know I needed to. +White women taught me about racism; Black institutions, like Howard and +the Black Church, gave me a primer on sexism. My relationship to both are, +consequently, complicated. Of course white women weren’t my only +examples of strong female leads. My life had been intimately shaped by +strong women leading. In the intimate world that shaped me, Black women— +my grandmother, my mother, and my three aunts—ran everything. They +cooked the meals, worked the jobs, paid the bills, managed the kids, +extinguished fires, told off racist teachers, and put out bad lovers; parted, +greased, and plaited hair every night and every morning; sewed, washed, and +ironed clothes; taught us to pray, picked a mean switch for a good whuppin; +and drew the boundaries of every Black child’s world with a simple look. +But the world of girls and women outside my home was white. In graduate +school I read the Combahee River Collective, a group of Black feminist +activists from the 1970s who gave me a new understanding of “identity +politics,” a term they invented. I had learned early how to disidentify with + + whiteness but never fully how to inhabit, embrace, and identify with my +particular Black-girl magic. They argued in their famous “Black Feminist +Statement,” written in 1977, that “our politics evolve from a healthy love for +ourselves, our sisters and our community which allows us to continue our +struggle and work.” So they adopted what they called “identity politics,” a +belief that “the most profound and potentially radical politics come directly +out of our own identity.” These politics of identity were radically different +from the dis-identity politics that had shaped my youth. These were Black +women speaking a language of liberation, of self-possession, that I didn’t +even know I needed. +I like strong female leads, Black and white alike. I want to be strong. +Badass women have to be strong. But I don’t ever want to be strong in ways +that are inauthentic, dishonest, and dangerous to my health and well-being. +Black feminism taught me that in the battle with white women over racism +and with Black men over sexism, I can never go wrong in picking myself. But +I’m grown and I know the choices are never so black and white. I love, +embrace, and keep company with Black men who have yet to fully or even +remotely reckon with their sexism, because those Black men are my father +figures, brothers, cousins, friends, and lovers. Similarly, I can, in limited +instances, admire and offer support to white women who have not yet fully +reckoned with their racism. I can also admit that the struggle to take down the +patriarchy will be a very limited endeavor if white women aren’t a part of it. +I do wish white feminists would embrace the notion, however, that in this +new feminist movement we are all trying to build, they aren’t automatically +our choice for “strong female lead.” + + THE SMARTEST MAN I NEVER +KNEW + +Every time I hear calls from young radical activists to “burn it all down and +start again,” I feel more fear and distress than possibility. While there are a +fair number of Black women across history who have believed in +revolutionary violence, the posture of burning shit down feels decidedly +masculinist to me. Our nation’s story is one of men using violence—against +Native folks, against Black folks, and against women—to build and fund a +grand “experiment in democracy.” Very often, when we think about the way +the United States likes to wield its “big stick” abroad, through military might, +we forget that this project is inherently phallic. Picking on countries full of +people of color with less money and resources is also a racist and imperial +project. Lots of young activists of color that I know point to this. They point +to the way police occupy Black communities like our military forces occupy +places abroad. But militarism isn’t just racist. It’s also patriarchal, sexist, +and masculinist. Far too many Black men crib from this same playbook, +believing setting fire to white men’s institutions while laying claim to land +and women is what freedom looks like. +My mother’s father was a military man, a World War II vet. For many +black men, joining the military was their only viable option to make +something of themselves in a world where they couldn’t finish school and +couldn’t go on to college. The men in my family lived down South, the place +from which other Black people fled during the Great Migration. There were +no good factory jobs in these rural small towns near the Mississippi Delta to + + create economic opportunity for those who didn’t go North. The military +provided a salary and a pension. It also provided an avenue for Black men to +become the kind of normative, proud, self-supporting men that are valorized +in a patriarchy. In my grandfather’s case, his time in the military also gave +him bragging rights. According to the big white leather family Bible that sat +on the coffee table next to my grandmother’s weekly subscription to Jet +magazine, Grandfather Henry saw action at Normandy. He came back from +the war with an injury that he lived with until his death twenty-five years +later. At some point, after he returned from the war, he married my +grandmother, a young woman sixteen years his junior. Depending on who +tells the story, my grandfather’s personality had many faces. My mother’s +older sisters remember him as a mischievous and fun-loving father who piled +them all into the pickup truck and took them down to the jook joint, leaving +them to play in the truck for hours while he went in and gambled with his +friends. My grandmother told me stories of the fights they’d have, most likely +after he came back drunk from the jook. “Yes, I fought him,” she’d say, +reveling in her ability to stand toe-to-toe with her man. But she also spoke of +the PTSD he carried. “Cooper (which is what she called him), could not +sleep on white sheets. My God, he would carry on if I ever tried to make him +sleep on white sheets.” One can only imagine the horrors those white sheets +conjured for a WWII vet born in 1911. My mother, the baby of the family, +remembered her father in his old age as a gentle giant with huge hands that +she’d hold as they walked around the yard to “help him get his exercise.” +It’s not too far a leap to think that her love for her own father, a volatile +but loving family man, shaped the kinds of men my mother came to love when +she was grown enough or thought she was. Bob was also a military man, +several years older, tall, dark, handsome, charming, and gentle. Just the kind +of man that makes mothers scared for their daughters. My grandmother +warned my mother away, telling her that Bob was “no good” for her. As is +the custom of daughters, my mother thought my grandmother didn’t know +what she was talking about. +So Mama let Bob shoot his shot. She obliged him, and things went along +like a dream until, as she mentioned later, in that way that Black women can +say everything while saying so little: “He didn’t treat me right.” As a younger + + woman, I wanted to know what that meant. As a grown woman who’s lived a +little bit of life, the broad outlines feel clear. The details matter less. My +mother, a pretty, charming, smart, and ambitious girl in her first year of +college, left Bob and pursued her bliss. At eighteen her bliss was another +older man, himself home from a stint in the military. Charming and smart, +Mann swiftly took up the space Bob had left. Bob, a Vietnam vet who would +later tell my mother that his “head was all screwed up from the War,” viewed +it as a betrayal of the sort that deserved retribution. +On a Saturday afternoon in March, Bob came upon my mother and Mann +sitting in a car across the street from Big Mama’s (Mann’s mother’s) house. +A young woman from the neighborhood would later tell my mother that she +saw Bob coming and ran toward the car, waving her arms wildly in the +rearview mirror, trying to get my mother’s attention. Mann somehow saw +Bob coming and gestured for his nine-year-old nephew David to go into the +house. David heard a pop, pop, pop as soon as he made it inside the door. +Outside, Bob shot my mother three times and Mann once. +My mother awoke in the hospital to her older sister Linda asking her if she +knew where she was and whether she understood what had happened. Mama +had blocked out the shooting, but she knew enough to tell her sister “Bob shot +me.” In the manner of rural Southern boys, my mother’s big brother had +ridden around all night with a shotgun and a willingness to kill. Bob called, +wanting to know if my mother was alive. Lil’ Mama, my mother’s +grandmother, simply said to my mother as she lay in the hospital bed fighting +for her life, “Baby, you didn’t do nothing wrong.” +It has been nearly thirty-eight years since a grown man, drunk on his own +sense of entitlement, attempted to murder my mother. According to several +years of reports by the Violence Policy Center, in this, the second decade of +the twenty-first century, eight Black women per week, more than one per day, +are murdered, usually with guns, and usually by a Black male they know. +More than one thousand women of all races are murdered each year, in +similar incidents, usually by men of their own race. It has been said before, +but it is worth saying again: Toxic masculinity kills. +At eighteen years old and in good health, my mother, thankfully, +recovered. A few weeks later, she found out that she was pregnant, with + + Mann’s baby. With me. The first time she heard my heartbeat, big and strong, +she felt like she was floating on air, renewed in her decision to bring her +pregnancy to term. All three of us—my mother, my father, and me—had +survived the shooting. Put another way, we had survived a Black man +attempting to murder us. +Because my mother now had a baby to support, she did not return to +college for her sophomore year. She recovered from the shooting, gave birth +to me in late 1980, and started her career at a local company at the beginning +of 1981. My father struggled, using alcohol to medicate his pain and trauma, +in the same way that his father—my grandfather Claudie, also known as Big +Daddy—had done. On weekends, Mann got drunk and came home to fight my +mother. Many years after his passing, his sister—my aunt Mattie—told me, +“He loved your mother. That was the only way he knew to show it. That was +all he’d ever seen.” Inadvertently, she had revealed something of the +dynamics between Big Mama and Big Daddy, dynamics that I had been +oblivious to as a child, because I knew Big Daddy only as the lovable town +drunk. I saw him far more frequently posted up under a tree, in the projects, +with a brown paper bag in his pocket, than I ever saw him at Big Mama’s +house. I call it her house because I never remember seeing him there. And +whenever I ran into him, Big Daddy always gave me the biggest smile, happy +to see me. Many of my friends and I, with grandparents who grew up in the +aftermath of World War II, repeat to each other the stories our parents handed +down to us in hushed voices, of how their parents got drunk and caroused all +weekend, and then came home and took their anxieties, fears, and frustrations +out on each other. The women sometimes got brutally beaten or killed, but +sometimes they gave as good as they got. +This had been the script of both my grandfathers, Henry and Claudie. It +was the script my mother had to work with when she chose whom to love. It +was the script of both of the men she loved as a young woman. Of my father, +my mother has said, “Your dad and I would work all week trying to build +something. And then in one weekend, he could go out and destroy everything +we had worked that week to build.” This is the father I remember, the +weekend bringer of chaos and destruction, not the faithful, sober builder who +showed up Monday through Friday, not the man who my mother made ride + + shotgun with her to drop me off each morning at daycare because I cried too +much when she left me. +Men aren’t born destroyers. Many men imbibe scripts of toxic masculinity +almost from birth. And on their way to becoming men, they enact those toxic +scripts in the lives of the women around them. It’s important to remember that +this conclusion is not inevitable. But that’s the thing that will drive you mad +when you lose someone tragically—wondering about the inevitability of the +outcome. +It was a Saturday morning on the fourteenth of April, at around 5:00 A.M., +when the phone rang in our house. It was exactly ten years and two weeks +after Bob had shot my parents. I heard my mama on the phone saying, “How +am I gonna tell this girl…?” I knew something bad had happened, but didn’t +know what or to whom. Ever the straight shooter, my mama asked me to get +up, and when we sat down in the living room, she said simply, “Somebody +shot and killed your dad last night.” I was in the fourth grade, and by that time +I was well acquainted with my daddy being shot. He had been shot when I +was in the second grade, and again when I was in the third grade. Both of +those times, and the time with Bob, he had survived. This time, he had not. I +sat on the sofa, digging my toes into our bright blue carpet, shaking my head, +trying to make sense of the senseless. “We should get over to Big Mama’s +house. She’s not doing too well,” my mom said. We got dressed hurriedly, +climbed in the car, and drove the couple of miles down the road to Big +Mama’s house. +Inside, Big Mama’s face was racked with grief, and she kind of rocked +from side to side. Aunt Lil’, my daddy’s baby sister, was distraught. “Mann +never liked Friday the thirteenth. He never did,” she was saying to no one in +particular. But, apparently, my daddy had violated one of his own edicts by +being out of the house on that Friday night. Over the weeks and years to +come, a few more bits and pieces of the story would trickle in. My daddy had +been at his girlfriend’s house. A man—perhaps the landlord, perhaps a +former lover—came by angry about money, waving a gun around, threatening +her and her children. My daddy intervened and ended up dead, shot in the +head. For the second time, my daddy had become the victim of another man’s +vendetta against the special woman in his life. + + Each and every time men try to deflect conversations about intimate +partner violence in Black communities by talking about how “men are +victims of abuse, too,” I want to hit them myself. Patriarchy and toxic +masculinity (together with alcoholism and militarism) turned my father into a +violent man. But patriarchy also killed him. +In the nine shared years of our story together, years framed entirely by the +gratuitous violence of men, I struggled to know this man, my father, this +mischievous brother called “Mann” by his family, who was a bit +superstitious, a bit of a romantic, a wild dancer, and a man willing to take a +bullet more than once for a woman he loved. The father I knew harassed and +terrorized my mother and me. He regularly upended and disrupted our lives, +demanding much but giving little. The man I knew as my dad did not square +in any way with the Mann who was beloved by his family. +In the eighth grade, my substitute teacher, Mr. Roebuck, happened to be a +good friend of my mother’s and a minor local celebrity who deejayed at the +local radio station. Soul Roe was his DJ name. In that way that Southern +Black people have with each other, I went up to him after class and said, “I +think you know my mother.” And like Black Southerners are wont to do, Mr. +Roebuck scaffolded me into a whole local genealogy, assessing, rather +quickly, “who my people were.” “I knew your daddy, too,” he told me. I had +no idea what he might say next, because I couldn’t imagine what good thing +he might have to say about my daddy. “He was a really smart guy,” Mr. +Roebuck told me, to my great surprise. “I saw him walking down the street +one day and gave him a ride. He talked to me about starving children in +Africa and all kinds of things, not the kind of things you would think a cat +walking along the side of the road would be thinking about.” I had heard my +father’s sisters’ stories, about how he was smart as a whip, about how he did +Lil’s homework, about how he never had to study for tests. I’ve never met a +test I didn’t have to study for. But other people outside the family thought my +dad, the same man who had come late one night and slashed all the tires on +my mother’s car, was smart. Like really smart, to the point that it was worth +remarking on. Mr. Roebuck was subbing in my gifted and talented class, and +for the first time, he introduced me to the idea that my daddy might have +bequeathed to me more than grief, that my father, and not just my mother, + + might have had something to do with the precocity and intelligence that +everyone in my family bragged on me for having. +Several months after my conversation with Mr. Roebuck, I tumbled back +into grief, unable, as had I been able to do at age nine, to tuck in the fear of +violence and death that were the natural aftermath of losing a parent. I could +not reconcile the thoughtful, empathetic man that Mr. Roebuck had picked up +along the side of the road with the man who used to ring our old green rotary +phone incessantly, making it impossible to spend an evening at home in +peace. The man Soul Roe knew, who had empathy and concern for everybody +else’s children—Africa’s children, his girlfriend’s children—didn’t seem to +have any empathy or tangible concern for his own daughter. +My father wanted me to know him. Well acquainted with his violence, I +felt I knew him as much as I would ever need to know him. After an evening +of drunken reveling, it was customary for him to call and demand that my +mother “put Brittney on the phone.” “She doesn’t want to talk to you, Mann,” +my mother would say while I shook my head. Listening from the other end, +I’d hear “No, I haven’t turned her against you.” And after he refused to hang +up, “Here,” Mama would say, handing me the phone, “talk to your daddy.” +“Why don’t you want to talk to me?” he’d ask, hoping I would provide some +evidence of my mother’s campaign to “turn me against him.” There had been +no such campaigns. “Because you hurt Mama,” I’d say. “Do you love me?” +Daddy asked me once. “No, because you hurt Mama.” I didn’t even think +twice about telling my daddy I didn’t love him. How could I love him? I’d +seen him inflict pain with my own two eyes. Small and powerless, I’d heard +him slamming my mother into doors, even while I screamed and cried from +the other room for him to stop. “Well, I love you,” he said, sounding quite +sober. Then he demanded that my mother drop me off to spend the day with +him so that I would know him. That day he gave me as much peanut butter +and jelly mixed together in a green bowl as I wanted to eat. When my mother +came to pick me up, he didn’t fight her. But other times, he did. Seeing me +was frequently a pretext for seeing her. But people are never the sum total of +the wrongs that they do. Men aren’t born monsters. +The only time I ever thought I loved my dad was when I went to see him +one of the times after he’d been shot. He was walking around with a cane, + + sober and genuinely happy to see me. He smiled and I smiled back, these +smiles and faces mirror images of each other. On the ride back home, I told +Mama, “Maybe I love my daddy.” She said nothing. Her position on my dad +was always that everything regarding him was better left unsaid. She left me +to form my own opinions. I don’t remember whether it was the second-grade +shooting or the third-grade shooting (that’s how I mark the time) when he got +shot, as my mother told me, “in the lower stomach.” Years later, my aunt +Mattie clarified that one of his testicles had been shot off. But she told me my +dad had attended the court date for the shooter. During his remarks to the +judge, Daddy said, “Don’t lock him up. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst +enemy.” There was that radical empathy again, that fairly sophisticated sense +that locking up a man for a drunken street fight that had gotten out of control +didn’t, in fact, constitute justice. Losing a testicle, my dad had suffered a +violent and material blow to his own masculinity, but still he didn’t equate +carceral solutions with justice. +At thirteen, four years after the gun finally won and Mr. Roebuck +disrupted my particular memories of my father as mostly a monster, these +competing narratives bubbled over, haunting me each night. My mother made +a way, despite limited income, to put me in therapy. Twice a week, the +summer after eighth grade, I would go to sit on the sofa with Dr. Rick, a +middle-aged white man with glasses, a beard, and a long chin. At some point, +Dr. Rick assessed that the cause of my anger, the thing keeping me up nights +and making me anxious, was that I needed to know my father better. The few +good memories of my father that I have—the time he walked me to the store +and bought me Bubble Yum, or the time he sat me on his shoulders and took +me for a walk while he whistled a tune—had been overshadowed by all the +negative memories. Dr. Rick sent me on a fact-finding mission to gather +pictures of my dad (which I didn’t have), and to figure out some of my dad’s +story. Talking to family friends, I started to put the pieces together, trying to +connect the version of the story that I had to the version of the story that +others told. +Aunt Mattie, my dad’s oldest sister and the keeper of the family history, +happily welcomed me for a visit, armed with old pictures, letters, and + + stories. In a letter dated “24 March ’75,” my dad wrote to her, from his post +in Germany: +This is a beautiful place over here. I seen towns sitting on top of +mountains and towns sitting way down in the valley under the +mountains. +After checking in on everyone in the family and sending his hellos, my +dad, at eighteen, mischievously concludes, +Have you seen Margie yet. When you see her tell her to write and tell +Patricia to write. I don’t care if she is engaged. (smile) +And he signs it, +Bye now from your BIG LITTLE BROTHER. +At thirteen, the beautiful turn of phrase and the imagery of my dad sitting +in Germany, perhaps on a mountainside somewhere as I imagined it back +then, thinking about the bits of world he’d seen, stuck with me. Years later, he +would affectionately refer to my mother as “Schatzi,” the German word for +“treasure” or “sweetheart.” +During my first year as a professor, I traveled to Heidelberg, Germany, for +a conference called “Toward an International History of Lynching.” I was +giving a paper about Ida B. Wells’s antilynching work, reflecting on Black +women’s long history of standing up to the United States for the wars it has +waged on Black people, and on Black men in particular. Sitting in the +window seat as the plane descended into Germany, I marveled at the +beautiful, idyllic towns sitting on top of verdant green mountains, and looked +curiously off in the distance at other towns tucked in the valleys below. For a +brief moment, I got to see the world through my daddy’s eyes. +I remember all the gifts my daddy ever gave to me: two fancy yellow +bows with ribbons for my hair, a green purse for my fourth birthday, two +half-dollar coins that I still have. And a picture of my sister, his other + + daughter, whom I didn’t meet until adulthood. This momentary glimpse of his +view of the world—when he was still young and excited about what was +possible—felt like an inheritance, like a part of my story, whose provenance +I could verify. My dad didn’t leave a will, but through this letter I inherited a +slice of beauty, a slice of his joy, before being a Black boy in a world that +hated Black boys hardened his heart and limited his capacity for kindness. +* * * +I am always struck by the ways other people’s stories about my father tend to +highlight his empathy and kindness for others. I wonder about a world in +which you can be kind to everyone but the people who belong to you. And, in +that regard, my father’s capacity for empathy for the “starving children of +Africa” reflects this conundrum of American empathy. On the one hand, my +father had a deep thoughtfulness that I would not necessarily assume he +would have as a Black man from semirural Louisiana. At the same time, he +cared more for these Black children abroad than he cared for his own +children, whom he never financially or emotionally supported. +In the spring of 2014, the Nigerian rebel group Boko Haram kidnapped +more than two hundred school girls in Chibok and absconded with them to an +obscure and impenetrable part of the country, where they would no doubt be +coerced into being wives for the male rebels. On social media +#BringBackOurGirls trended and then President Obama offered aid to the +Nigerian government. Michelle Obama tweeted a picture of herself holding a +sign that said “#BringBackOurGirls.” While Black women in the States +organized solidarity actions like “Rock a Gele for Our Girls,” folks on the +left began to bellyache about the perils of U.S. military intervention. Many +Black men argued that intervening would be militarist and imperialist, and +that the woke position of any of us committed to radical politics should of +course be against U.S. military intervention. Many on the left had hoped that +the Obama years would bring less rather than more U.S. military incursions +abroad. U.S. imperialism is a uniquely troubling evil, even in these days of a +waning empire. And as the argument went among some Black men on the left, +even two hundred-plus kidnapped, raped, and forcefully impregnated Black +teen girls did not warrant U.S. military intervention. + + In the months prior to the kidnapping of the Chibok girls, President Obama +had launched his My Brother’s Keeper initiative, which was aimed at +creating mentorship programs and leadership opportunities solely for young +boys of color. Enraged that he would leave Black girls out of his signature +racial justice initiative, I joined other Black women in organizing an open +letter to the president, calling him out on his exclusion of Black girls. If our +president, a self-proclaimed feminist who lived in the White House with +three generations of Black women, couldn’t bring himself to use his pulpit to +fight for Black women, then all hope felt lost. +Are Black girls ever worth fighting for? I wonder this sometimes as a +feminist who still secretly hopes for a man who will fight for her honor. I +wonder this, more specifically, as a fat feminist who has been in one too +many rooms where brothers have gone on the attack, misreading my large +body as unduly aggressive, often resorting to using their own bodies as +physical intimidation, only to have other men in the room do and say nothing. +It has never been fully clear to me whether I was left on my own out of +resentment, passivity, or some twisted belief that it would be sexist to stand +up for a feminist, especially a physically large one who seems infinitely +capable of defending herself. I have learned to defend myself because I’ve +never been able to rely on a man to do it for me. That doesn’t mean I’ve +never wanted a man to do it for me. It strikes me that if my daddy had lived, +he might have cared deeply about the Chibok girls. The fact of his empathy is +no guarantee that he would have figured out how to care for and father his +own daughters any better than he did when we were children. +One of my all-time favorite quotes, one that has largely been attributed to +civil rights preaching luminary Rev. Vernon Johns is, “If you see a good fight, +get in it.” Is the fight for the lives, safety, and sense of well-being of Black +girls a good fight? I think so. Does it have to be a violent fight? I hope not. +But far too many brothers have walked away from the fight for Black +women’s lives, citing lack of interest, lack of urgency, or dogma. The +feelings of disinterest and the faulty belief that Black girls aren’t engaged in +an urgent struggle for their lives infuriates but does not surprise me. Sexism, +like every other “ism,” is a willful refusal to not see what is right in front of +you. + + The dogmatic commitment to not fighting for Black women and girls +confounds me. On principle, many in Black communities believe that there is +never a compelling reason to stand up in unequivocal defense of Black girls. +Though patriarchy is clearly a structural problem, often there is a refusal to +confront it, because to do so makes it seem like Black women are “picking +on” Black men. Naming the terrible things Black men have done to Black +women gets too frequently read as man-bashing and hatred. But as I have said +before, “We can neither heal nor fix that which we will not confront.” Dogma +isn’t just dangerous. It’s deadly. Our politics and beliefs should serve us; we +should not serve them. Now I know that this position is also dangerous. I’m +not advocating for a self-serving, navel-gazing politic that bends and shifts +for our convenience. I’m advocating for people-centered politics that hold +the safety and protection of the least of these—among them Black women and +girls—as a value worth fighting for. I’m asking what it will take to have a +politics that puts Black women and girls (cis, trans, and everything in +between) at the center and keeps them safe. What does that look like? +Because I sure as hell know what it doesn’t look like. +When the Chibok girls were kidnapped, I wanted our Black president to +use the force and resources of the U.S. military to go in there and bring our +girls back. I wanted this same president to use the bully pulpit granted to him +by the American people to proclaim that Black Lives Matter and, more +specifically, the lives of Black women and girls matter. He struggled to do +any of this, only coming around to cite the myriad contributions of Black +women in a speech given in the fall of 2015. Those leftist radical +pontificators who reside in a utopian place I like to call “Wokeland” called +my position—this desire and advocacy for intervention on the part of Black +women—imperialist. Black womanhood is not a politically pure category by +any stretch. Any evil act we can think of, we can of course find some Black +woman who has committed it. +But, structurally, it is absolutely untenable to suggest that Black women +are imperialists and colonizers. In the context of the United States, our +reproductive capacities were conscripted to build the capital base for the +assertion of the U.S. empire. After slavery, our bodies and the children they +produced were tethered to multiple generations of low-wage work and + + poverty, providing staffing for the perpetuation of the U.S. underclass. The +desire for protection and safety is not an imperial desire. Asking the leaders +of your country and the members of your race to fight for you (if you’re +Black) is not a colonizing act. They are demands for recognition of +citizenship and humanity. +Black women know intimately what the process of U.S. militarism does to +Black men … what military-style policing does to Black communities. We +know what it means for the military to become the only viable option that so +many of our people have had for access into the middle class. Every +opportunity I get, I stridently discourage the young men in my family from +treating the military as their pathway out. Far too often, in these days of +endless war and in wars past, it sends or has sent back to us men with war +raging in their hearts and ringing in their ears. Those men, who cannot cut +through the madness of the violence they’ve seen and in which they’ve been +forced to engage, see Black girls and women as targets—as objects for +violent sexual release, as punching bags, as emotional chopping blocks. +* * * +When I was five, Bob came back. He had spent a few years in prison for his +crimes against my parents. We were leaving Grandmother’s house when +Rebo, my grandmother’s first cousin, flagged us down to say that “Bob is out, +and he’s been looking for you.” A few minutes later, Bob drove past, +recognized my mother, and pulled over, waving her to his car. Rebo, who +was more like an aunt to my mother and her siblings, looked nervous and my +mama looked shook. She said nothing, but then she didn’t have to. Five-yearolds understand brute emotions like fear. I didn’t know who Bob was or why +it felt so cloudy and dark in the car when the sun was shining so brightly +outside. I didn’t ask questions, though. By then, my own father had caused +enough chaos for me to know what danger looked, smelled, and felt like. +Frantically, my mother rushed back to town and drove directly to Cherry’s +Gun Shop. Inside Cherry’s, a young white woman behind the counter showed +my mother a small handgun. “It’s two-fifty,” she said. My mom just shook her +head, piled me into the car, and took me home while she actively figured out +plan B. + + By the time we made it the couple of miles to our place in the projects, +she had arranged for me to go to my next-door neighbor’s, to stay with my +bestie, Lawrence, and his parents. Before she left, she kneeled in the front +yard so that we were eye to eye and told me, “Bob is a bad man. I’m going to +the courthouse to see the judge so he can’t bother me.” I nodded. My mother +has always had a policy of radical honesty with me, even when I was too +young to understand all the ins and outs. I went inside to play with Lawrence, +hoping that the judge could do something to keep the bad man away. +What does it mean to build a world in which Black women and Black +girls are safe? Jail clearly didn’t keep Bob away from my mother and me, +and the restraining order didn’t keep him away forever, either. Moreover, +despite my desire for Barack Obama to send our troops to rescue the Chibok +girls, the U.S. military apparatus causes harm both at home and abroad. +Black men often parrot this logic of the U.S. nation-state, engaging either in +the politics of doing harm or the politics of doing nothing. And we—Black +girls, Black women—are not saved. +How, then, shall we live? What do Black men, who have in the aggregate +been the purveyors of so much harm, owe to Black women? Black men took +those Black girls in Chibok. Black on different terms than we understand +Black manhood in the United States, but Black men nonetheless. That is why +it felt so egregious to hear radical, progressive Black men in the United +States talk about all the reasons why those little girls were not worthy of U.S. +intervention. A Black man shot my mother. Four different Black men shot my +father. One of those Black men killed him. Two different Black men put their +hands on my mother. One of those men was my father. +I’m a Black girl, a grown Black girl, who wants the men in my life, and +men who are bystanders in critical moments, to fight for my honor. I want +them to have the protective impulse that my mother’s big brother had the night +she was almost killed. I want men to have the impulse my uncle Carl Lee, my +daddy’s brother, had the afternoon that he chased Daddy around the living +room to stop him from putting hands on my mother. My uncle Carl Lee +reminds me of the character Carl Lee Hailey in the movie A Time to Kill: +When two white racists in Mississippi kidnapped and raped Carl Lee’s +beautiful little girl, that Black man took his shotgun and took them out. I’ve + + seen enough gun violence not to actually desire men to act this way, but I +appreciated his moral clarity. They had harmed his daughter and thrown her +in a ditch to die as though she were disposable. He had to take them out. I +want Black men to feel that impulse of protection for Black girls everywhere, +even when those Black girls aren’t their daughters, but especially when they +are. +I’m a Black woman who wants to live in a nation that believes it has a +responsibility to Black women, as citizens and as people, to make the world +safe for them. I’m a Black feminist who cannot reconcile my desire for men +to fight for my honor with my general abhorrence for violence. I’m a feminist +who cannot reconcile my desire for U.S. military intervention in Chibok with +my utter hatred of guns. I’m a feminist who cannot reconcile my desire for my +nation-state to intervene on my behalf with the woke analysis feminism has +bequeathed me about the perils of getting in bed at any level with the logics +of patriarchy and militarism. For these things might protect you one minute +and kill you the next. I am my mother’s daughter, and I have been taught +always, always to stand up and fight honorably for myself. I am also the +daughter of my father, Mann, who brought more relief in his absence than +with his presence, who taught me that there was more security in his leaving +than in his staying, a man whose lack of respect for boundaries made me +chronically afraid at levels that were no less nerve-racking than the acuteness +of the fear Bob induced. +Now I am a grown woman trying to build a life where I can get in bed +every night with a man who knows that my desire for him to hold me down +does not in any guise mean that I want him to put his foot on my neck. I am a +grown woman who feels like these obvious things have to be said explicitly. +I am too afraid to say these things that need to be said, because the +consequence of my demands might be another man leaving me, and my father +taught me that my needs weren’t compelling enough to make a man stay. I am, +then, a grown woman who struggles mightily to trust what it might mean for a +man to stay, to show up, to catch me when I fall, acquainted as I am with the +relief that comes when they finally, simply, go. The leaving feels like the +tanks are finally pulling out. But also like I am on my own. So when the good +brothers come to stay, looking so much like the enemy, when they come in + + talking sweetly and meaning it, being loving and meaning it, occupying your +thoughts and taking up space, it feels just like that—like an occupation. +Now that I’m grown, my mother speaks more freely about what these men +who shaped her youth meant to her. Of my father, she says, looking off into +the distance, “He was a terrorist.” My father controlled our lives through +constant surveillance and random acts of violence designed to reinforce his +control, power, and ownership. But my mother felt like she owed my father +loyalty because she felt guilty for “getting him shot.” And perhaps because +she had learned how costly disloyalty could be. Of Bob she says, “He was a +fatal attraction” to whom she was attracted, in her words, “because of low +self-esteem.” Eventually my mother met and married a lovely man, my +stepfather, to whom she has been married for more than two decades. Much +like these other men, my stepdad, a preacher whom I affectionately call Rev, +told me about his own reckoning with the ways his father had been physically +abusive toward his mother. “I resolved that I would never put my hands on a +woman,” Rev told me once. All of these men, my father, my stepfather, and +Bob, had to contend with the models handed down to them. But only Rev +seemed to come to the right conclusion. My mother, for her part, always felt +like her ability to make better romantic choices came from learning to love +herself. I’m sure that’s part of the story. But it’s certainly not all of it. +Self-help gurus, pastors, and poets love to point to Black women’s “low +self-esteem” as the cause for all Black-girl problems. Just learn to love +yourself, we are told. But patriarchy is nothing if not the structurally induced +hatred of women. If every woman and girl learned to love herself fiercely, +the patriarchy would still be intact; it would demand that she be killed for +having the audacity to think she was somebody. Individual blame isn’t enough +to solve the problem. +How are Black girls supposed to grow up to be Black women in love +with themselves in a country built on the structural negation of Black +women’s humanity and personhood? Too much of the conversation about +patriarchy in Black communities pivots on Black women’s low self-esteem. +Black women are often admonished to make better choices. But my mother +left Bob when he didn’t treat her right. She almost lost her life for it. The +deadliest time for a woman in an abusive relationship is when she decides to + + leave. Still, despite almost being killed, when things got to be too terrible +with my father, she left him, too. From where I sit, my mama made the right +choice to leave every time it became clear that her man wasn’t going to treat +her right. The abuse had nothing to do with her choices and everything to do +with the ways we don’t demand that men stop being violent. +Mama says she prayed about when to leave my daddy, asking for the Holy +Spirit to show her, a twenty-three-year-old woman, the right time to end +things. We should not have to rely on supernatural acts of God to keep +women safe. And though my mother is clearly my hero, she deserved better +options and more help. Young women encountering violent men today +deserve those options, too. It’s not enough to teach women how not to attract +violent men. We have to spend our time teaching young men how not to be +violent men and partners. +Surely Mann and Bob did not hold themselves in high esteem. On the day +that my daddy finally, peaceably, retreated from our home, he didn’t even +look me in the eye. He couldn’t. His abdication of responsibility was +egregious, yes. But the humiliation of learning that you have taken so much +that no one in your home wants anything you have to give is surely an +unbearable feeling. The violence that men do demoralizes them, too. +Having a structural analysis of the logics of patriarchy doesn’t let Mann +and Bob off the hook. War narrows the frame of masculine possibility and +tethers it irreparably to violence. In every part of their lives, young men need +access to conversations about what it means to be a man in ways that are not +rooted in power, dominance, and violence. We owe it to ourselves to imagine +what a post-patriarchal Black masculinity might look like. And, frankly, until +we have that conversation, men will continue to kill Black women (cis and +trans). And they will continue to kill each other. +Perhaps we could start with empathy, though. This is the thing about my +father’s story that always strikes me—he was a deeply empathetic man, +caring greatly about the injustices in the world around him. Social scientists +have spoken of a phenomenon that they call the “racial empathy gap,” in +which people, regardless of race, believe that Black people experience less +physical pain than white people experience. This racial empathy gap + + influences everything from harsher sentences for crime to differential +prescribing practices for pain medication based on race. +It strikes me that among Black men and Black women, perhaps there is a +gender empathy gap. There is certainly a broader gender empathy gap, in +which women are perceived to experience less pain than men and are treated +for pain less aggressively than men. Professors Diane Hoffman and Anita +Tarzian have found that women frequently receive inadequate treatment for +pain, and often that psychological and emotional pain receive less treatment +than physical pain. The presence of both a racial empathy gap and a gender +empathy gap doesn’t bode well for Black women, even though they haven’t +been a direct focus of these pain-management studies. Because Black women +are viewed as preternaturally strong, our pain often goes unnoticed both in +the broader world and in our own communities. Black men frequently don’t +acknowledge our vulnerability, don’t seem to think we need defending, and +don’t feel a political responsibility to hold Black women (who aren’t their +mothers or sisters or daughters) up and honor them. There seems to be no +empathic register for understanding the sheer magnitude of the physical and +emotional pain that systems of racism, capitalism, and patriarchy inflict on +Black women every day. Black men grow up believing and moving through +the world politically as though they have it the toughest, as though their pain +matters most, as though Black women cannot possibly be feeling anything +similar to the dehumanization and disrespect they have felt. That it might, in +many cases, be worse for us seems to many men a preposterous supposition. +My father, for instance, showed far more empathy for the man who shot +him than he ever showed for the woman whom he claimed to love the most. +Patriarchy numbs men’s collective pain sensors, and it causes Black men to +not see Black women as worthy of care and concern. To be clear, showing +care and concern for the women you want to sleep with or the women who +are related to you is not the same as having an overarching commitment to +Black women’s political, social, and personal well-being as a justice +project. +Lest I be mistaken, though, Black men didn’t invent patriarchy. Patriarchy +is America’s daddy issue. America rules the world through war, the same +way patriarchs rule families with an iron fist and a Janus-faced promise of + + either violence or benevolence, depending on which day you catch them, and +how well you bow down and do their bidding. Our government does not just +wage war abroad. It wages war in Black communities at home, controlling +Black folks through surveillance and violence, demanding their submission +and compliance. When submission and compliance is not freely offered, the +state murders Black men, women, and children, citing the rule of law. The +War on Drugs is only the most obvious example of a war that the U.S. +government declared and waged on Black communities. That particular war, +and the ways it targeted Black men and destroyed Black families, often +rendered Black women the spoils of war. And we have been treated as such, +as trophies for men to tote around as evidence of their power and greatness. +White men who waged war paraded narratives of Black women before the +American public in the 1980s, calling them “welfare queens” and “crack +addicts” and using hatred of Black women to curry favor with the American +public. Black men, demoralized by wars both at home and abroad, took +possession of the one thing that was left—the women, treating us as their own +kind of trophies, pretty objects that bolstered their social capital while +commanding or compelling no responsibility from them for, and to, us. +In his famous 1967 sermon, “Beyond Vietnam,” Martin Luther King +preached about the “giant triplets of racism, extreme materialism, and +militarism.” He preached about the “brutal solidarity” that brought together +white men and Black men who wouldn’t even “live on the same block” back +home. King didn’t name patriarchy as a founding evil of the U.S. nation-state, +but that brutal solidarity that men experienced across race as they went to +war cannot be understood outside of a Western patriarchal fantasy that +seduces so many brothers whose definition of freedom is a desegregated +patriarchy. Black men didn’t just experience racial equality on the battlefield; +they experienced gender equality, too. After Truman desegregated the armed +forces in time for the Korean Conflict, Black men got to engage in American +carnage as equal citizens—not as Black or white, but simply as men. (I’m +sure that’s how a military brochure might put it.) But what King didn’t live +long enough to think about was what it would look like for a whole +generation of men, Black men in particular, to come back from that war. The +Vietnam War was a Pyrrhic victory not only because of its dubious status as a + + victory abroad, but also because it dropped Black men back off in the same +racist hoods they left, this time not only with PTSD, but also with the same +limited access to patriarchy and the power of white men that they learned to +crave. +So many Black men escaped the racist wars of segregation and +criminalization being waged in their own backyards by agreeing to fight +America’s many racist wars of aggression abroad. That is a perverse model +of both masculinity and freedom, and it is Black women and girls who have +paid the highest price for it. But Black men have paid the price, too. My +daddy was certainly a casualty of war, of the wars Black people wage on +each other, when there are no proper outlets for the living out of our dreams +or the expression of our rage. Those wars are wars of mundane but +devastating violence enacted on those who live in closest proximity to us. It +is our own country that uses war as a tool to compel violent submission from +those people in other places that we claim to care about. But unchecked +violence does not just topple empires. It also devastates men. Both Bob and +Mann lost the girl they loved and left a lifetime of resentment, pain, and anger +in their wake because they chose to live out the lie that surveillance, control, +occupation, and terror are acceptable ways to treat the people they claimed +to love, when the truth is that these acts are never acceptable for anyone at +all. + + BAG LADY + +On the very day that Sandra Bland was pulled over in Waller County, Texas, +just a stone’s throw away from the entrance to her alma mater, Prairie View +A&M University, I was on an Amtrak train on a daylong round trip to +Harvard University. Bland, a twenty-eight-year-old Chicago resident, was +completing a drive to Texas to begin her dream job at Prairie View. +I had been called to come to the Harvard–Smithsonian Center for +Astrophysics to speak to young scientists about the importance of employing +intersectional perspectives in STEM research. Intersectionality, or the idea +that we are all integrally formed and multiply impacted by the different ways +that systems of white supremacy, capitalism, and patriarchy affect our lives, +was a mostly foreign notion to these young scientists. Intersectional education +happens primarily in the kinds of college classrooms that cause conservative +politicians to lose their shit on the regular. Intersectionality is considered +fluffy, liberal, radical, and certainly not scientific. Intersectionality is not +only not objective, it sneers at claims to objectivity, arguing that none of us is +purely objective. We all come with a perspective and an agenda. We all have +investments. We all have skin in the game. +As I stood at the podium doing my thing in that Harvard classroom, no one +could tell that my fervent desire was to find somewhere to curl up and weep. +I had spent the better part of the four-hour train ride arguing via text message +with a high-school sweetheart who had managed to swoop back in with a +load of new-school promises that I had recently discovered he had no +intention of keeping. On the brink of thirty-five at that point, my career was +going exceedingly well, and I thought it the responsible thing to do to begin to + + turn my attention toward building a family. When I’m not railing at the +patriarchy and reconsidering whether a traditional marriage is for me, I +spend my time reading romance novels. My favorite romance story plot is +always about young lovers who lose touch, reconnect, and then live happily +ever after. On this particular summer morning, I was learning for the last time +that this would not be my story. I was officially all out of childhood and +teenage sweethearts (and there had been a few) with whom to try to make this +fantasy work. +About one hour before I arrived, I sent my last curse-filled text to my ex, +an equally curse-filled text to my homegirl, who had been offering sympathy, +outrage, and possible revenge plots throughout the entire scenario, and then +tried to calm my spirit and plaster a smile on my face so I could go explain to +this group of eager students the intersectional conundrums that shaped my +regular Black-girl life. I couldn’t fall apart like I wanted to because, well, +I’m a Black girl, and we don’t get the luxury of doing frivolous shit like that. +This was an invitation to speak at Harvard, after all. Business always comes +first, broken hearts later. Black women’s historian Darlene Clark Hine +coined a term for the performance I was putting on. She called it the “culture +of dissemblance,” this enigmatic way that Black women in the late-nineteenth +and early-twentieth centuries moved through the world, often doing race +work of the type I was doing that day, giving the appearance of being open +while fully obscuring the operations of their inner lives from public view. +While I was busy dissembling, Sandra Bland was in another part of the +world completing what amounts to a return migration back to the South from +Chicago, the very city that two generations earlier had seen so many Black +people fleeing North to escape the pervasive, quotidian horror of Southern +state-sanctioned racial violence. She was just a few hundred yards from +completing her journey when she ran into a twenty-first century specter of a +violence that we all hoped was long gone. When she made it to University +Drive, the street that runs into the campus of Prairie View, a Waller County +police officer began following her. She thought he wanted to pass, so she +pulled over. He pulled over behind her, and was apparently planning to write +her a citation for “failure to signal a lane change.” She could almost see the +university from where she was sitting. She was that close to her dream job. + + Instead, officer Brian Encinia decided to harass, assault, and arrest Bland +because she refused to be servile during the traffic stop. She did not berate +the officer but she did let him know she wasn’t pleased that he had pulled her +over on a bullshit charge. Incensed by her lack of deference and her seeming +lack of fear, Encinia grabbed his Taser, opened the door, reached into the +vehicle, and yanked Sandra Bland out of her car, while yelling at her, “I will +light you up.” A local bystander stopped to tape the incident, and Bland, who +was a great supporter of the Black Lives Matter movement, thanked the +bystander for taping. She narrated that the officer had just slammed her head +into the ground and cuffed her wrists so tightly, she thought they might break. +A Black woman officer can be heard off-camera telling a struggling Bland, +“Well, you shoulda thought about that.” +Bland spent the weekend trying to arrange for someone to bring the $500 +needed to bail her out of jail. Five hundred dollars is such a small amount, +but the cost is prohibitively high in a world where Black women between the +ages of eighteen and sixty-four have been estimated to have only about $100 +of net wealth. Not only do most Black women not have $500 to spare in case +of emergencies, but many don’t have networks of family or friends with that +kind of money to spare either. +On Monday morning, July thirteenth, at around 9:00 A.M., Sandra Bland +was found dead. The official narrative is that she hanged herself by placing a +trash bag around her neck. I don’t know what happened to Bland in that jail +cell. It’s easier to believe—and entirely plausible—that rogue police +officers murdered her. In March 2016, Brian Encinia was fired and charged +with misdemeanor perjury for giving a false account of what happened at the +traffic stop. In June 2017, local prosecutors dropped all charges; Encinia +surrendered his law enforcement license and agreed that he would never +work in law enforcement again. +Caring for Black women’s actual lives means sitting with the acuteness of +our fragility. We break, too. Police at the White House killed Miriam Carey +in 2013. She was a mother suffering from severe postpartum depression, +who, it seems, took a wrong turn at the White House gates with her baby +daughter strapped into the backseat. She was killed in a hail of bullets while +her baby daughter sat helpless. Tanisha Anderson of Cleveland, Ohio, + + experienced a mental health crisis, which caused her children to contact +police for help to assist their mother in taking her medicine. Instead an +officer handcuffed her, and when she began to struggle, he restrained her by +putting a knee in her back, effectively smothering her while her children +watched. The county medical examiner ruled her death a homicide, and the +police department settled with the family for over two million dollars. The +system’s response to seeing us bend is to break us entirely. +For Black girls, many of us teeter on that brink. If one more thing goes +wrong, we feel like we just can’t make it. We go to church like Bland, a +church girl herself. There, preachers tell us, “Your blessing is just around the +bend. Keep pressing.” On March 1, 2015, Bland uploaded a video to her +vlog Sandy Speaks. She admitted to struggling with depression and PTSD, +and spoke out against the stigma and shame that many who struggle with +depression feel. She apologized for not having vlogged regularly, and told +her listeners, “I’m just a human.” And then she mentioned that though she had +missed church that morning, she watched a bit of the service, and the +morning’s message had been about faith. +* * * +Just four months later, that same faith caused Bland to press her way to Texas +for her dream job. Through Sandy Speaks, Bland talked about everything +from her recent struggles with depression after losing a pregnancy to her +outrage over the police killings of unarmed Black people and her support for +the Black Lives Matter Movement. Unlike the race women of old, Sandy +Bland did not dissemble. She shared her private struggles right alongside her +political views. +On the morning of July 10, 2015, Sandra Bland and I were two Black +women chasing our dreams, even in the aftermath of our heartbreak. I know +exactly what it feels like to pack all of my belongings into the car and drive +more than a thousand miles to the gates of a university that holds my career +hopes and dreams. I’ve done it more than once. And I know how much I +relied on my faith in God and myself to travel every mile. +It’s classic for writers to spend time waxing eloquent about the +possibilities and perils of life’s metaphoric journeys, and the roads we either + + do or don’t travel. But the dangers that attend Black people’s actual travels +are not in any guise metaphoric. Reminiscent of earlier periods of racial +terror for African Americans, traffic stops have again become the pretext for +the reckless taking of Black life by police. In April 2015, South Carolina +police officer Michael Slager killed Walter Scott after stopping him for a +broken taillight. Slager was charged with murder and brought to trial. Though +a local barber who was walking through the area shot clear video of Slager +shooting an unarmed Scott as he was running away, a judge declared a +mistrial in December 2016 after a local jury failed to return a verdict. In May +2017, Slager pled guilty to federal charges that he violated Scott’s civil +rights. He is now serving time in federal prison. In August 2016, after Korryn +Gaines, a twenty-three-year-old mother from Baltimore, fail-ed to pay a +traffic citation, members of the police force arrived at her house to serve her +a warrant for failure to appear in court. The standoff ended when police +kicked in Gaines’s door, shot and killed her, and shot her five-year-old son. +And in July 2016, a Minnesota police officer shot and killed Philando +Castile, after Castile requested permission to pull out his gun and concealedweapons permit for the officer’s inspection during a traffic stop for a broken +taillight. The officer was acquitted of all charges, despite damning dash cam +video suggesting that Castile did nothing wrong. +Because traffic stops are frequently a life-or-death matter for Black +people, stopping traffic has become one of the primary modes of protest for +the Black Lives Matter movement (BLM). The shutdown of major interstate +highways began in August 2014, after a police officer shot eighteen-year-old +Michael Brown and left his dead body lying in the street for four and a half +hours. In the weeks that followed, across the country from St. Louis to +Atlanta to Oakland, protestors began to form human barriers across major +highways while holding signs and chanting, “Black Lives Matter,” and +“Hands Up, Don’t Shoot.” +Charlene Carruthers, national director of the Black Youth Project 100, has +said “When people disrupt highways and streets, it is about disrupting +business as usual. It’s also about giving a visual that folks are willing to put +their bodies on the line to create the kind of world we want to live in.” +Feminist activist Naomi Wolf once said, “For a protest to be effective, you + + have to stop traffic.” Carruthers understands the stakes of Black people +putting their bodies on the line to stop traffic as a kind of visual prophecy of +the world we want to see, a world where we all can go to our destinations +safely and soundly or no one can. When they put their bodies on the line, they +dramatize the danger for all people who are stuck in traffic. +Black women have long been aware of what it means to be stuck in traffic, +confined to the intersections of social discourses that bypass us on their way +to futures to which we don’t have access. In the late 1980s, legal scholar +Kimberlé Crenshaw named this seemingly shared quality of Black women’s +lives intersectionality. Intersectionality makes clear the ways that systems of +power interact in Black women’s lives to restrict social mobility and to +hinder us from moving unencumbered through the social sphere. Pulled over +at a traffic stop, peering intently down University Drive to the destiny she +had created for herself, Sandra Bland was yanked into a future that precisely +mirrored the violent Black past that we are presently—and collectively— +obsessed with escaping. She was right there. Right there. At the intersection +of destiny, dreams, and death. Death won, assisted in its victory by those +with real power. +Five months before she was killed by police, Korryn Gaines was pulled +over in Baltimore County for a traffic stop. She had replaced the front license +plate on her car with a cardboard sign that read “free traveler.” The back +plates had a similar cardboard sign that read, “Any government official who +compromises this pursuit to happiness and right to travel will be held +criminally responsible and fined, as this is a natural right and freedom.” I +know to “regular,” “law-abiding” folks, Korryn sounds crazy. Hers is a kind +of brazenness the world tries to beat out of Black girls before they reach +adulthood. For many who are apologists for state violence, her declaration of +her freedom and her rights sounded like an invitation to harassment. But let’s +do this young Black woman, one who had undoubtedly heard of Sandra +Bland’s story, the courtesy of suspending our disbelief. She chose to be +eccentric, defiant, outrageous, and, dare I say, visionary in a world where +Black women and girls don’t often get to do any of these things without lethal +consequences. + + There is a thin line between clarity and craziness, and sometimes clarity +can be crazy-making. For there is a profound argument in the particular terms +through which Korryn Gaines chose to elaborate her freedom project. She +argued, by way of a makeshift license plate, that the pursuit of happiness and +the right to travel are natural rights, rights that are endemic to any declaration +of freedom. The struggle by Black people to obtain the free and full exercise +of their natural rights and continual forms of structural opposition to these +rights have been a fundamental feature of what it means to be Black in +America. To get bogged down or distracted by the policy and procedure +elements of her approach is to miss the soundness of her conclusions. By +declaring her rights to travel, to freedom, and to happiness to be natural +rights, Korryn Gaines invoked a very particular political discourse about the +origin of our natural rights. If freedom to travel and freedom to be happy are +civil rights or legal rights, they exist entirely at the whim and fancy of the +U.S. government. If however, these matters are natural rights, they are not +bound by the exigencies of policy and procedure. The problem is not that +Korryn Gaines believed these ideas about herself, but rather that she chose to +make them explicit. +How can this Black woman’s notions of freedom, her audacity in trying to +live free, seem so preposterous and exasperating and so utterly reasonable +and exhilarating at the same time? More than any of us, she seemed to have a +clear vision of what freedom for Black women looked like—the ability to get +in a vehicle of your choosing, strap your babies safely into the backseat, and +make your way to the place where you were trying to go. This conception of +freedom, the ability to travel unencumbered to the places where you need to +go, is something Black women have been fighting for since they first +encountered America. I think of twenty-one-year-old Ida B. Wells who, in +1883, was violently removed from the ladies’ car of a train in Memphis, +Tennessee, because “colored women” were not allowed to sit there. Because +segregation laws were not yet cemented, Wells tried to flout the unspoken +mandate to segregate, so that she could read her newspaper in the much nicer +ladies’ car in peace. Instead, the conductor and two other passengers tried to +drag her to her “place” in the colored car. She chose to get off the train +instead. + + This long history of Black women enduring violent harassment while they +are on their way somewhere—anywhere—makes Korryn Gaines’s demands +to be recognized and respected as a “free traveler” far less preposterous. I’m +also struck by the intimacy of these encounters, the moment when, as Bland +and Wells experienced, suddenly a white man is putting his hands on you, +yanking you violently away from your intended journey. I wonder about what +Ida Wells might have been reading, about what Sandy Bland and Korryn +Gaines might have been bumping on the radio, about what thoughts might +have streamed through their consciousness as they were on their way +somewhere, anywhere. At twenty-one, Wells had her fair share of young men +jockeying for her affections. I wonder if her thoughts moved somewhere +between her love life, her love of pretty dresses, and the injustices she was +undoubtedly reading about in the paper. +The tragic consequences of these traffic and train encounters make clear +that intersectionality has intimate consequences. What does it look like for +Black women to move freely through space when we are always confronting +the precariousness of life at the intersections of race and gender, of class and +mental health, of love and dreams? Erykah Badu once famously cautioned +Black women about the costs of carrying around too much baggage: “Bag +lady, you gone miss yo’ bus. You can’t hurry up cause you got too much +stuff.” Badu then coolly advises, “Pack light.” But, of course, that is not +entirely our choice. +Black women did not agree to or apply for the job of baggage handlers for +the nation. With histories as forced laborers and forced breeders, so much of +our employment history in this country has simply not been up to us. Our +lives are strewn about with structurally deposited baggage. If we assume the +radical position that it isn’t ours to carry, we are called lazy. Degenerate. +Angry. Irresponsible. The nation waves its fingers at us in accusation, +demanding that we take the weight. And, often, we accede to these demands, +taking the weight against our will, but taking it nonetheless. Black women +take it upon ourselves to challenge stereotypes, to raise respectable children, +to build homes, communities, and churches despite our chronic condition of +underemployment. We are masters of wresting sustenance from insufficiency. + + We combat structurally imposed trauma much as Erykah Badu demanded of +both herself and us—by taking responsibility for the weight we carry. +I don’t even have to go all the way back to Ida B. Wells in the 1880s to be +appalled by the amount of social and structural baggage foisted upon the +backs of Black women. The 1980s was hell on the social image of Black +women, who were vilified and demonized as money-grubbing welfare +queens and drug-abusing crack fiends birthing crack babies that the system +couldn’t handle. Oprah Winfrey as Miss Sofia in Steven Spielberg’s 1985 +screen adaptation of Alice Walker’s The Color Purple uttered one of the +most memorable and damning lines about the terrible burdens that America +(and Black men) had heaped upon Black women. “All my life, I had to fight,” +she told Celie after her husband Harpo tried to beat her in an assertion of +male dominance. There’s a reason why Black women my age can recite lines +from The Color Purple at will. The film is iconic because it dared, +following Alice Walker’s lead, to suggest to America that Black women +were the heroes and not the villains of the American national story. It dared +to suggest to a watching world that the baggage we carry is not of our own +stitching. And while we Black girls always recite these lines to each other in +a humorous context, it is mostly humorous because just underneath the +surface, the truth of what we say in jest leaps at us with the clarity of an +Alvin Ailey performance. If you hear one sister saying to another, “Don’t do +it, Miss Celie,” you better move out the way, ’cause somebody is liable to +get cut. +Black women powerbrokers of the 1990s undertook a full-scale rescue +mission to resuscitate the culturally devastated image of Black womanhood +handed to us in the 1980s. In the 1990s, during my tween and adolescent +years, I watched women my mother’s age explode the Black women’s chick +lit and self-help industries. Books by Iyanla Vanzant and Susan L. Taylor +were a staple in my household. Together with books by (and about) Oprah, +Maya Angelou, Terry McMillan, the telltale pink Women’s Devotional Bible +(with which every Black girl of a certain age is familiar), and copies of +Essence and Ebony magazines, I watched my mama fashion a clearly Blackwoman, girl-centered household for the two of us. These books and +magazines acted as therapy for my working-class single mom who couldn’t + + afford to sit on someone’s sofa once a week to discuss her problems. She had +a daughter to feed and bills to pay. This bookshelf and coffee-table therapy +gave birth to two unspoken mantras that shaped our life together: “Take care +of business” and “Daughter, heal thyself.” +My mother used the explosion of a body of literature that spoke to Black +women’s interior lives to get hers together. After the abuse she suffered +during my childhood, my mother, tired of being used and abused, began the +process of healing herself in my tween and teen years. Years later, she would +tell me, “I wanted better for you, and if I wanted better for you, then I had to +want better for myself.” I watched my mom read Iyanla’s Yesterday, I Cried +and In the Meantime. And I watched as she intently listened, when a rare day +off permitted her to, to Iyanla on The Oprah Winfrey Show. I was a keen +observer of my mother, and I knew she connected to this material even though +I did not always understand why. I liked to read Essence and Ebony but +didn’t much care for the rest of it. I saw my mother’s admiration for Susan +Taylor’s monthly “In the Spirit” column. I read it and thought it sounded +good, but too heavy and fluffy for my Black-girl tastes. My mother was a +woman, as Alice Walker once said of her character Meridian, “in the process +of changing her mind.” I watched my mother change her mind about her worth +and value and then reflect that shift in her romantic choices. She freed herself +from a cycle of abuse and, in so doing, saved her own life. +I believe wholeheartedly in the internal spiritual work that Black women +must do to save our own lives. But I also wonder whether our spiritual work +is a match for the structural systems that would crush us alive. Audre Lorde +famously said, “If I didn’t define myself for myself, I would be crunched into +other people’s fantasies for me and eaten alive.” But what do we do with this +push for self-definition and self-recognition in a system that would crush us +anyway? It crushed Sandra Bland. It crushed Korryn Gaines. It has crushed +untold numbers of trans Black women, who have been killed simply for +having the audacity to live their truth. +My own mother modeled the importance of taking care of one’s spirit as a +means of saving oneself. This was the model of Black womanhood that +shaped my coming-of-age, and it still shapes how I move through the world +as a grown woman. In the Oprah-Iyanla-Susan era, my mother would always + + say to me, when I came home crying about being bullied by mean girls at +school, “The only behavior you can change is your own. What behavior can +you change so you can avoid this kind of attention?” Even if in the end the +“behavior” I changed was my own mind-set, such that the taunts didn’t bother +me as much, the point was that my mother believed in my moving through the +world with a spirit of self-possession. She raised me to be a Black girl who +believes (sometimes stridently) in her own mind and her own counsel. Akin +to that, I believe that each of us is responsible for doing our own emotional +work. We can’t hope to have healthy relationships of any type if we are +unwilling to own our shit. +I am struck by the manner in which my mother’s ability to show up to and +heal her own life was made possible in the particular world of the 1990s, a +brief moment where Black women were allowed to see themselves and their +full set of possibilities. The last decade of the twentieth century found the +nation discovering for the first time what Black business owners and +corporations had long known—that Black women were a target demographic +for cosmetics, self-help literature, and chick lit. In 1991, Maybelline +launched its “Shades of You” campaign, becoming the first mainstream +cosmetics line to explicitly focus on women of color. Consumer culture +scholar and professor Robert Weems has marked this as a “watershed” event, +which led to a proliferation of more than a dozen Black women–focused +cosmetic lines in a two-year period. Today, I have my pick of cosmetic +products that can match and complement my dark brown skin tone, but in my +adolescent years, such products were just coming into existence. Weems +suggests that so much of Black people’s experience of citizenship has been +tied to consumerism; so when Black women became a mainstream target +demographic in the 1990s, they experienced new levels of cultural visibility +that expanded to other arenas like books and movies. +Terry McMillan reached blockbuster success with her 1992 novel +Waiting to Exhale. My mother and I then hustled to the public library on a +Saturday morning to pick up her earlier novels Mama and Disappearing +Acts. Or rather, she picked up Terry McMillan novels, and I checked out +Mildred Taylor books like Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry and Let the Circle +Be Unbroken. Oprah officially reigned as the queen of daytime television, + + providing a platform for Iyanla Vanzant to dig into the inner lives of +struggling Black women and call forth a healing. And Susan Taylor’s +oversight of Essence magazine with both her “In the Spirit” column and her +mind/body/spirit approach to presenting Black women’s issues created a +felicitous set of social conditions for Black women to come to voice in ways +that were more personal than political. +Suddenly, Black women professionals were talking about the personal +stakes of being Black women in a world that didn’t love us. Oprah and +Iyanla, for instance, talked little about racism, sexism, and poverty. But they +spoke a lot about the terrible choices we make when we have low selfesteem and don’t love ourselves. I wonder if Sandra Bland watched episodes +of Iyanla, Fix My Life as she struggled to overcome her depression. Now +that I’m grown, I regularly pick up O, The Oprah Magazine, looking for tips +to fix my own life. As a twentysomething, I ran across a column on +narcissism in O magazine, and that column named for me the emotional abuse +I endured for so many years from an old boyfriend. Reading those words +helped me to stop hoping that he would ever change, because narcissists +never do. Those words gave me the language to free myself from that +relationship, to know that I deserved better. +I struggle, then, with how to simultaneously hold the competing truths that +shape Black women’s public and private lives. On the one hand, I have made +many a bad decision, tolerating bad friends and even worse dudes, because I +didn’t love myself as well as I should have. Therefore, I merely accepted +what others offered, even when it was so much less than what I am worth. +That is the truth. And my process of learning that truth was deeply personal +and has been deeply transformative. +On the other hand, individual transformation is neither a substitute for nor +a harbinger of structural transformation. Holding oneself in perpetually low +esteem is a structurally induced condition. Patriarchy propagates a whole +series of narratives about Black women that are designed to make us hate +ourselves. Melissa Harris-Perry argues that Black women carry a great +amount of shame because of our inability to fully inhabit the American +dream. In 1965, when Senator Daniel Patrick Moynihan argued that Black +communities were caught in a tangle of pathology because our communities + + had a disproportionate number of female-led households, his conclusions had +both affective and social dimensions. His 1965 report, “The Negro Family: +The Case for National Action,” offered social and political recommendations +focused on ways to help Black men become breadwinners again so they +could assume their “rightful” place at the head of Black families. But the +affective goal of his infamous Moynihan Report was to shame Black women +for the very mundane magic involved in our making a way out of no way. +That shame persists well into the twenty-first century, when more than 70 +percent of Black households are female-led. Black women have +proportionally higher rates of abortion than any other group. There is no +shame in having an abortion. I consider the right to choose the conditions +under which one becomes a parent to be one of the most important social +values. But I believe that decades of discourse about poor Black women and +unwed Black mothers being “welfare queens” who unfairly take more from +the system than they put in has shamed many Black women into not bearing +children that they otherwise might consider having. The idea that only +middle-class, straight, married women deserve to start families is both racist +and patriarchal. +The fact that our society honestly believes that poor women don’t have the +right to start families because they may require public assistance obscures +the variety of ways that middle-class families do receive public assistance. +White families have been the primary beneficiaries of both public and +corporate welfare in the form of redlining policies that drove down property +values in Black neighborhoods, making those neighborhoods undesirable for +businesses, families, and schools. They have been beneficiaries of favorable +bank-loan terms to help them purchase safe, affordable, quality housing. They +are the beneficiaries of marital and housing tax breaks and the +disproportionate beneficiaries of the dwindling number of quality public +schools that we have left. +Public discourse on the right paints a picture of brazen Black and Brown +teenagers and unmarried mothers having baby after baby that they can’t +support to game the system. In fact, the discourse about Korryn Gaines after +she was killed was that she was a bad Black mother who used her son as a +human shield against the cops. But she told her five-year-old to document + + what was happening to her, teaching him how to train her smartphone’s video +camera on her as she talked. Less outrage was reserved for the police who +decided that shooting her son who, thankfully, survived was a reasonable +price to pay for apprehending his mother, who had committed the crime of +failing to pay a traffic ticket. When I talk to Black women in my community, +many of them feel shame and guilt about not being respectable Black women +in traditional two-parent homes. +In middle school, there were only two Black girls in my school’s gifted +and talented program, my friend Holly and me. We took to each other quickly +because Black girls find each other as a means to survive. We were both +working-class girls raised by single moms. I insisted on being a good girl, +while Holly was definitely a rebel. By her junior and my senior year of high +school, Holly was pregnant. Neither of us were strangers to teen pregnancy +in our community. Black girls in my community had been getting pregnant +since I was in the sixth grade. +So when Holly got pregnant, I was concerned and a little sad, but not +surprised. She fit the cautionary tale that I was steadfastly trying to avoid, +because I am the daughter of a teen mom. After many years we lost contact +and reconnected via Facebook. By then, she had had five children and was +on her way to baby number six. +One day, we inboxed just to catch up and she told me of the multiple +degrees in nursing she had secured and how proud she was of her family. I +was proud of her and also feeling just a bit lonely. Yes, Holly’s path to +family was risky, but she had made it. And I had toed the line and followed +the rules, a little too well, perhaps. Now I find myself in my thirties with few +prospects of having children in a traditional two-parent family. In fact, my +late thirties are beset with the heaviness of receding childbearing options. +Still, Holly said to me in the inbox, “I’m trying. I don’t want to be another +statistic.” The irony is that I traded being one kind of Black woman statistic +for another. I’m now among the scores of professional Black women who are +unmarried. This, too, is seen as a failure—as just more evidence of the +pervasive social undesirability of Black women. +With her six children by multiple fathers and her multiple nursing degrees +to boot, Holly challenged every stereotype I might have been invested in + + believing. And when my doctor, at my behest, began to walk me through the +process and the cost of retrieving and freezing my eggs, I began to wonder if +maybe I had done something wrong. Many Black women like me are so +obsessed with the idea of not having babies too early that frequently it ends +up being too late. No statistic can adequately capture Holly’s story; she +didn’t let respectability politics have the last word. +Black women pay the highest costs for investing in respectability politics. +First, it breeds distrust between middle-class striving women and poor +women of color. We (middle-class women) are taught that those women, who +were once “fast-tailed girls” make us all look bad. I never thought about poor +women as making me look bad, because my community of women was +working-class. And my mother often reminded me when I became a bit too +frivolous with her money: “Child, we are poor.” Like many, many Americans +and most Black folks I know, we lived paycheck to paycheck. And given the +dubious origins of my birth, my family certainly wouldn’t have been invited +to Jack and Jill. But I knew very early on that I didn’t want to be like the girls +in my middle school, saddled with children I couldn’t support and doomed to +a lifetime of low-wage work with little opportunity for advancement. +These are the narratives that working-class “good” girls buy into in order +to make our way out of the hood. The goal to “not be like them” animates our +drive and our hustle. But now that I’m grown, I no longer believe that Black +women should imbibe shame and blame for all the creative ways that we +build families and lives, arrange fulfilling partnerships, and work to maintain +safe homes and steady employment. +I spent my twenties and most of my thirties waiting on a partner to show +up before I would ever consider children, because I never wanted to be a +single mother. I bought into the idea that making good choices around +education and career would entitle me to a broader set of options in every +part of my life. But the world doesn’t work that way for Black women. In my +college, the female-to-male ratio was 3 to 2. Even assuming that everyone +had hooked up in heterosexual pairings, one-third of Black girls were +automatically going to be assed out. When I graduated from Howard without +having even one boyfriend there, it didn’t dawn on me that I was one of the +33 percent. The optimism of my twenties would not let me consider that these + + numbers would not improve over the course of my life. My friends and I +didn’t realize the structural clusterfuck that shaped Black partnering options +until we were already in the thick of things. I’ll say more about all that in the +chapter titled “Love in a Hopeless Place.” But suffice it to say that we +thought, as all young people do, that we had endless time, that our chosen +boos would arrive, and that our advanced degrees would bring us into a +world of men with advanced degrees and earning potential, too. It hasn’t +worked out that way for a great many of us. +In my thirties I became an unwilling member of the Sisterhood of Fibroid +Havers. Black women disproportionately struggle with fibroid tumors, and +the medical science continues to offer little explanation. After my fibroid +surgery, a successful outpatient procedure that I thought would buy me a little +more time, my doctor, a lovely Black woman gynecologist, told me, “More +than likely, your fibroids will return. You have a uterus that makes fibroids.” +Perhaps the saddest part of being reminded of the dreaded biological clock +was having to tell my mother that, since I had no partner in sight, I might not +be able to give her grandchildren. For the first time, I began to wonder +whether I should have been less regimented and more reckless in my +twenties, when I was younger and had eggs to spare. Black women deserve +more options than these extremes—that the same choices we make to not ruin +our lives as young people become the choices that make us miserable twenty +years later. +Part of what friendship has meant in my thirties is supporting my +homegirls in their thirties and forties who have limited partnering options, +and even fewer options for starting families. The intimate consequences of +all these good-ass choices we have made are relentlessly brutal. Yes, folks +are quick to say: Adopt. Freeze your eggs. Try in vitro. But with what +money? Black women in prime child-rearing age have negligible net wealth. +Many of these single women, as first-generation middle-class with loads of +educational debt and without a two-income household, have no way to fund a +creative family structure. The weight of the absence—of the partners who +didn’t show up, of the children you didn’t get to have, of the uterus robbed by +fibroids—is a burden none of us was properly prepared to bear. + + How much of this baggage can we reasonably be expected to carry? On +that July morning that I found myself at Harvard, I walked off the train +carrying more baggage than I walked onto it with. Life (and, more to the +point, bullshit like heartbreaks and racism and sexism) bequeaths to us +baggage. The end of that relationship was my last shot at a serious +relationship before I reached advanced maternal age. He couldn’t appreciate +the urgent consequences of what was clearly routine fuckery for him. At any +point, he could turn things around and have a child. I could not. That’s how +male privilege is set up. +This is why songs like “Bag Lady,” which point out this baggage to us and +act like we are holding all of it of our own accord, are summarily unhelpful. +The unfair part is that folks are far more concerned with policing how Black +women carry the baggage than with reducing the load hoisted upon us in the +first place. When I read fluffy self-help literature or attend church services +where usually male preachers tell usually female parishioners that our social +conditions are largely a result of our personal failings and individual bad +choices, I often want to throw the book or walk out of the service. But while +I have, in fact, walked out of service, I have, thus far, refrained from +throwing books. Those who preach this sermon, whether in print or from the +pulpit, think they are “empowering” Black women to address the conditions +we face. +But “empowerment” is a tricky word. It’s also a decidedly neoliberal +word that places the responsibility for combating systems on individuals. +Neoliberalism is endlessly concerned with “personal responsibility” and +individual self-regulation. It tells us that in a free market, devoid of any +regulation or accountability at the top, what happens to those on the bottom is +entirely our fault. Did we have enough drive? Enough vision? Enough hustle +to change our condition? The politics of personal empowerment suggests to +us that if we simply “free our minds, then our asses will follow.” I’m not +convinced that this is true. Why? Have you ever noticed that people who +have real “power”—wealth, job security, influence—don’t attend +“empowerment” seminars? Power is not attained from books and seminars. +Not alone, anyway. Power is conferred by social systems. Empowerment and + + power are not the same thing. We must quit mistaking the two. Better yet, we +must quit settling for one when what we really need is the other. +Those who feel “empowered” talk about their personal power to change +their individual condition. Those with actual power make decisions that are +of social and material consequence to themselves and others. Sandra Bland +used her faith to empower her to cope with her depression and pursue her +dreams; she met the limits of her narratives of faith and empowerment on the +shoulder of University Drive, and subsequently in a Waller County jail cell. +Empowerment looks like cultivating the wisdom to make the best choices we +can out of what are customarily a piss-poor set of options. Power looks like +the ability to create better options. The powerlessness and capriciousness of +being repeatedly jammed up at the personal and political crossroads of one’s +intersections while a watching world pretends not to see you there, needing +help, is how it feels to be a Black woman on an ordinary day. +Individual solutions to collective problems cannot work, no matter how +personally empowering they may feel. I could have been Sandra Bland, +because I have certainly “mouthed off” to an officer on more than one +occasion. I could have been Holly, but for a few different choices and +opportunities. And I am my mother’s child, a daughter who believes +wholeheartedly that my first patient is always me. I refuse, however, to be +America’s bag lady, resigned to hauling around a load of cultural refuse +heaped on me by the nation. First our country tried to rob us of seats on the +bus. One generation of our foremothers, women like Claudette Colvin, Rosa +Parks, and Pauli Murray, fought for us to have a seat of our own choosing. +Now our generation struggles even to catch the bus, weighed down as we are +by the lies about our worth, our dignity, and our worthiness. Claudette Colvin +was an unwed pregnant teen when she was arrested for refusing to give up +her seat on a bus in 1955. Rosa Parks was a married, respectable officer of +the NAACP when she was arrested for refusing to give up her seat. Pauli +Murray was a masculine-performing queer Black woman when she was +arrested for refusing to give up her seat. Every kind of Black woman has a +stake in the proverbial “bus.” +Every kind of Black woman has fought for our right to be free to travel in +pursuit of dreams and destiny. One way to start shedding the baggage is to + + start telling our truths, to start opening the bags and exposing the lies that +weigh us down. The weight of the nation is not ours to carry. + + GROWN-WOMAN THEOLOGY + +The summer before I left home for graduate school, I drove down to the rural +Louisiana countryside to sit on the porch with my grandma. As I took the four +steps up to the house, face scowling at the hot Louisiana sun beating down on +my brow, my Gram squinted at me, called me by my nickname, and declared, +“It’s time for you to start having sex!” +I’m sure my eyes bugged out of my head, as the horror dawned upon me +that this wasn’t going to be any old regular visit to the country. There was an +accusation in her words, as though this was something my twenty-two-yearold self should have been doing forever. For the record, I had in fact had a +bit of sex by age twenty-two; for my twenty-second birthday my homegirl, +horrified at my post-college near-virginal status, took me to a sex shop and +purchased a vibrator for me. There was a classic Black woman read in my +grandmother’s words, an unspoken “If that’s true, I can’t tell.” Of course she +couldn’t! I was steeped in all kinds of Christian guilt about the little bit of +sex that I had had and the copious amounts of vibrating I had done. That, +coupled with the asshole I had chosen for a first partner, meant that I wasn’t +having particularly joyful or enthusiastic sex, and most times I was in +sanctified denial about my desire to be sexual in the first place. +I made it onto the porch and sat down to listen to my good Christian +seventy-five-year-old grandmother, a lady given to elaborate hats and +bejeweled suits on the Sundays she didn’t usher at church, extol the virtues of +sex to unmarried me. “Back in my day, we did it,” she said. I squirmed. Who +ever wants to know this about their grandma? “Don’t ever let anybody tell +you we didn’t. We went up in the woods and did it, but we did it.” By the + + time I was born, Grandmama had been a widow for ten years. She and my +grandfather got married and then had their children. In the way that none of us +is ever inclined to think about the sex lives of our grandparents, it never even +occurred to me to ask about whether my grandmother had waited until +marriage to have sex or to consider the sexual practices of young Black folks +in the 1940s. +Comically, she explained to me that I should have sex, but only if my +partner was willing to wear “one of those combos.” What the hell is a +combo? I wondered. Condoms. Her colorful descriptions and gestures made +it clear that she meant “condoms!” Grandmama had not been able to hear +well since her teen years, when some kind of fever damaged her ears. So, +when someone said “condom,” she heard “combos.” When I heard combos, I +thought of the hilarious conversations I had had years earlier with my highschool boyfriend about exactly what combos of birth control we would use +so I wouldn’t ruin all my overachieving Black-girl life goals, if I ever gave +in and gave him some. For my Gram, access to birth control mattered greatly. +She told me that she would have opted for only two children rather than the +six she’d had (and raised and loved) if birth control had been widely +available to Black women in the 1950s and 1960s in rural Louisiana. “But +we couldn’t get the stuff,” she told me. In her own way, I think my +grandmama let me know that the women’s movement was a win for Black +women, too, because in the twenty-first century, it meant her granddaughter +could have a wonderful sex life without bearing children, until she chose to. +My grandmother had already developed a pragmatic blend of both +feminism and Christianity that worked in the context of her life, as a poor +rural Southern Black woman born two years before the Great Depression. I +was still far too much of a Christian zealot to be either pragmatic or feminist. +My grandmother didn’t have all the language for these differing ideological +positions, but she had good sense. She looked at me with those laser eyes that +Black mamas use to see right through you, and commanded me to “start +having sex.” She meant real, good sex. Sex that left you with telltale signs +that you had been touched right and handled with care. I didn’t exude +sexuality. I didn’t exude grown womanhood. I did not look like a Black girl +comfortable in my own skin. Because I wasn’t. + + I was trapped in a raging battle between my spirit and my flesh. The +evangelical teachings of the Baptist churches in which I grew up insisted that +our flesh—our bodies and their longings and impulses—were sinful, +dangerous, and unhealthy. We were admonished each week to bring our +unruly flesh in submission to our “spirit man.” Having heard this every +Sunday of my life I did not understand how my grandmother, our beloved +family matriarch, could dare advocate that I let my flesh win. Clearly, I +wasn’t ready for the grown-woman theology that this holy woman offered to +me that day. Frankly, I thought she had gotten ahold of some terrible theology, +and I was determined to live my life as a good evangelical should. I had life +goals and desires for success that my provincial grandmother, who once told +me to go to the local college and then “get a good clerical job,” clearly did +not understand. Sex messed with your head, boys were fun, but trouble, and a +baby before you wanted one, could ruin your life. This was my credo in +triplicate. +Dismissing grandmother’s words was easy. I felt that my theology, +informed indirectly by the advent of the “True Love Waits” purity campaigns +of the 1990s, and my ability to recite by rote all the Bible verses condemning +sex before marriage made my spiritual perspective more sophisticated, more +informed, more correct. I had imbibed a set of social ideas about Black +girlhood and womanhood rooted in the fear of being a failure and the social +shame of becoming a statistic. I nearly worshipped my mother, but I didn’t +want to be a teen mother as she had been. I wanted to finish college, +something my birth had prevented her from doing. By the time grandmother +sat me down for the talk, I was twenty-two, had completed two college +degrees, and was on my way to a Ph.D. program. By local standards, I had +already made it. +In 1993, the year that I turned thirteen, Lifeway Bookstores, the publishing +arm of the Southern Baptist Convention, made their intervention in the “sex +sells” culture wars with their True Love Waits sexual abstinence campaign. +Christians wanted to talk about sex, too, even if only to suggest that no one +should be having it. That is, unless they were of age, straight, married, and +preferably Christian. For clarification, even though I was Southern and +Baptist, my church and most Black churches in the South were not in fact part + + of the Southern Baptist Convention (SBC). Those were the white Baptists— +the ones who were pro-slavery and pro-segregation. In fact, the SBC did not +issue a formal apology for slavery until 1995. +The purity discourse that emerged from Southern white evangelicalism is +not separable from the racialized discourse of sexuality and purity that these +same Christians have shaped for the whole of American history. The +regulation of sexuality by white Christians in the United States has always +been about the propagation of a socially acceptable and pristine nuclear +family worthy of having the American dream, a family that was heterosexual, +middle class, and white. Because my social circles were mostly white, I had +a front-row seat to the incursion of True Love Waits programs among my +white classmates. +Peppered among their discussions about youth mission trips to Mexico +were conversations about promise rings, purity pledges, and True Love Waits +classes. My church had a makeshift youth group that met irregularly and a +teen Sunday School class, which I attended faithfully. There was no purity +talk beyond bringing the flesh into submission. There were no mission trips +or classes devoted to sex ed. What my community also had was a teen +pregnancy problem—it was not uncommon for Black girls to get pregnant in +my middle school or my high school. I can remember only one white teen +mom in high school (although I am sure there were a few others), and +absolutely none in middle school. For me, the equation was simple. In +communities where they talked about sexual abstinence and “waiting,” they +didn’t have a teen pregnancy problem. In my community, where no such +conversations were had, teen pregnancy was rampant. +These messages about success, whiteness, abstinence, and Christianity +converged for me. Black kids accused me of acting white, but the white kids I +knew loved Jesus (like I did), did well in school (like me), and got to have +interesting discussions and experiences at church (which I didn’t). I have +already mentioned the particular challenges of growing up a nerdy Black girl +in a predominantly white school system. One way that I internalized white +supremacy in my honors classes, which were 95 percent white and in which +the kids were overwhelmingly Christian, was to associate the success I +sought with the kind of whiteness and morality that shaped my classmates’ + + lives. White privilege works by making the advantages white people have +invisible while making the supposedly “poor” choices of people of color +hypervisible. For instance, on the surface, it simply looks like white people +have better access to education, jobs, and housing because they make better +choices or because they work harder. And, conversely, it looks like Black +people have less access to these same things because they are lazy. In fact, in +most opinion polls, white people believe that Black people don’t work as +hard as they do. And what is perhaps most interesting is that white people +believe this myth as much today as they believed it in the racially volatile +1960s. +Held up as an exceptional Black student, I was conditioned to believe in +the myth of my own exceptionalism, to see other Black students’ struggles to +succeed as a result of their own terrible choices. But white children in my +school district weren’t inherently smarter. They were reared in homes where +their parents had been college educated and where they had access to +enrichment programs and private tutors. I also associated discourses around +sex and sexuality with this narrative of choice. At thirteen or fourteen, I +didn’t recognize that even if the doctrine of abstinence is ineffective at +curtailing early parenthood, youth who have opportunities to talk about sex, +to travel to conferences and go on mission trips, at least know that there is a +world beyond their front door, a world they can’t get to if they end up as +parents before getting out of high school. These kinds of opportunities to +travel and explore were scarce in my working-class community, where most +Black folks had limited resources. But my close proximity to middle-class +white youth put me in a position to culturally eavesdrop on my white friends, +even though I didn’t have the experiences they had. I knew the possibilities of +those experiences existed. What I learned from watching white kids who +were set up to succeed while Black kids were set up to fail, even in matters +of intimacy, was that sexual self-regulation was critical to my success. It took +me being a grown woman to recognize all the ways that systems of white +supremacy regulate our intimate lives, too. +Black girls and Black women, particularly those who have had any +sustained encounter with Christianity, are often immobilized by the +hyperregulation of their sexuality from both the church and the state. These + + messages about excessive and unregulated Black flesh that converge from +both the nation-state and the church form a double helix of sexual ideas that +form the core of cultural ideas about Black sexuality. These messages +constitute a critical strand in a sticky social web that immobilizes Black +women caught at the intersections of race, class, gender, and lack of access to +normative modes of sexual behavior. Black feminist scholar Patricia Hill +Collins refers to this sticky web as a matrix of domination, a sociological +term for the way social systems of power converge to impede Black +women’s agency and structural well-being. Far too often the result of trying +to extract ourselves from these webs, which immobilize us until all of the life +is drained from us, is that we leave critical pieces of ourselves behind. +Black women are often robbed of our agency to build healthy intimate lives. +These systems don’t crush every Black woman, but they do retain pieces of +flesh, bone, and spirit. +When you are free enough to run away, you run. It makes no earthly sense +to go back and do battle with the system for the fragments of yourself that +remain. We are taught to be grateful that we “made it,” no matter what we had +to leave behind. +This is why Black women’s self-help literature is obsessed with the +question of “how to be whole again.” +For my grandmother, my very successful regulation of my sexual desires +read like a wholly unhealthy inhabitation of my own Black woman body. I +was a fully grown woman, but my theology and thought process around sex +was adolescent and retrograde. Grandmama pushed me to articulate a +version of my selfhood that would force me to bring my whole self to the +table and prioritize my pleasure. +“Girl,” Grandmama said while gesturing mischievously toward her nether +regions, “I had good stuff.” (I repeat: No one ever wants to know this about +their grandmother.) She wanted me to own the fact that my “stuff” was “good +stuff,” too. My grandmother’s indecent proposal constituted a critical and +intimate dissent from the wholesale American demonization of Black +women’s sexuality. To justify enslaving, raping, and breeding Black women +and girls, white Americans created a mythos around Black women’s +sexuality. They cast us as sexually insatiable, unrapeable, licentious, and + + dirty. Today, Black women still experience much handwringing around +owning our sexuality. Calling her sexuality and her sexual body parts good in +the face of these unrelenting social messages suggests that my grandmother +had wrested her own sexual subjectivity from the fearsome clutches of +Christianity and white supremacy. Or maybe she simply didn’t buy in all the +way. She, of course, couldn’t resist a little inappropriate body commentary +as Southern grandmothers are wont to do, telling me “You need to lose a little +weight, so he won’t have to lift it [my tummy] up to get to it [my stuff].” +The problem is that I still inherently saw my “stuff” as bad, as the source +of a temptation so mighty that it could derail my relationship with God and +my life goals all at the same time. This is no way to teach sex education to +teens, and it is a completely absurd way for grown-ass women to think about +sex. Most Christian theology infantilizes women in just this manner. It makes +us think that because we are all children of God, God only ever sees us as +children. And, as a result, we’ll be grown women afraid of embracing our +sexuality, approaching it with the ingrained trepidation we learned in our +teenage years. I rebuke this foolishness. I am God’s child, as I think every +human being is. But God knows I’m grown. +The politics of fear and endless rules that we use to (try to) control +teenagers is unhealthy but understandable. Advocating that teens delay sex is +ultimately about maximizing their life chances by helping them make choices +that will benefit them and the future families they hope to build. We could, of +course, do a better job of telling teens to do something other than wait. It +turns out that my “simple equation” that abstinence would solve teen +pregnancy was totally wrong. In places where abstinence is the only form of +sex education, teen pregnancy rates are alarming. In places where access to +contraception and proper information about birth control is available, teen +pregnancy rates have decreased astronomically. What the poor Black girls in +my school needed was not the True Love Waits campaign, but rather good +information about sex, emotional maturity, and birth control. What was true +for my grandmother in the 1950s was true for my Black girl peers in the +1990s: “They just couldn’t get the stuff.” +Telling grown-ass women that all sex outside of marriage is an affront to +God is absolutely ludicrous. Healthy consensual touch is nothing short of + + holy. But the indoctrination is real, especially if you are invested in being a +“good girl,” especially if your goal in life is to not “repeat the cycle,” to not +“become a statistic.” These are the kinds of social messages that Black +women and girls get about their bodies and the potentially enormous public +and personal costs of their sexuality. My mother once mentioned that when +she found herself pregnant with me at age eighteen, at her grandmother’s +insistence she had to go up in front of the church and ask for the +congregation’s forgiveness for getting pregnant out of wedlock. She was +ashamed and infuriated because, as she said, “other girls were doing it. They +just hadn’t gotten caught.” +The theology my grandmother offered to me (one very different from her +mother’s), a theology for grown Black women, was one predicated on +dissent from a set of biblical truths and social mores that shamed women, +cast female sexuality as bad, dirty, and evil, and suggested that marriage was +the only proper context through which women could express their sexual +selves. Widowed at the age of forty-two, my grandmother chose to never +remarry. She told me that same day, “I would never want to marry again, +because I don’t ever want some man telling me what groceries I can and +can’t buy.” That was all she said about marriage—that she understood it as +men being able to dictate to women how to spend money and how to run a +household. Living her own life and being able to raise at least some of her +children independent of my grandfather’s influence had shown my +grandmother that having a male head of household was not, in fact, desirable. +In her forthright rejection of conservative evangelicalism on the matter of +sex, she modeled for me that Black women had the right to dissent from +theologies that didn’t serve them well. Black women had the right to a say +about their finances, their bodies, the number of children they bore, and the +kind of sex they wanted to have. What she offered to me that day was +permission to choose for myself. +I wish I could say that I stepped off my grandmother’s porch a new +woman, ready to own and explore her sexuality. But all her fussing about +what I needed to be doing proved no match for the years of shaming and +moral panic about sex that I experienced both inside and outside of my +community. Four years after that conversation, I came home from church after + + a particularly guilt-compelling sermon, bagged up all my romance novels, +astrology books and manuals, and my vibrator, and threw them in the +dumpster. The presence of these items in my apartment were tacit licenses for +me to engage and indulge in sinful living, and surely God was not pleased +with that. These days, I’m sure that between peals of laughter, God is sitting +somewhere, saying, “Girl, bye. I didn’t tell you to throw away all those +books and that perfectly good vibrator.” Live. Learn. +What does it mean when our spiritual and theological systems impede +healthy living? This is a question that Black women should begin to ask +forthrightly. They should insist fervently on answers among themselves and +from their spiritual leaders. We do a kind of violence to ourselves when we +shut down our sexuality. It’s not so much that I should have had more sex, +although I wish I had in my twenties. It’s that there are things we come to +know about our bodies, our impulses, our likes, our dislikes and desires, +when we fully engage the sexual part of ourselves. We go around missing +critical knowledge about who we are, or might be, when we act as though +sex isn’t foundational to who we are. +Also, what does it mean when our theological systems impede our access +to a healthy and robust set of spiritual and political practices—practices that +should give us life? Let me be a bit mischievous (like my grandmother) and +offer you a brief feminist interpretation of one of my favorite Bible stories. In +the Black Church, single Black women love to talk about how they are just +waiting on God to send their Boaz. By Boaz, they are referring to the Old +Testament story in the Book of Ruth. Ruth’s husband (Naomi’s son) had died, +and Naomi decided to return to her hometown of Bethlehem. Ruth went with +her. To support the two of them, Ruth went to work in the fields, and she was +noticed by a well-respected, rich man in town named Boaz, a distant relative +of Naomi. Naomi wanted to make sure Ruth could get married again so she +would have a partner and a community to provide for her. So the two of them +hatched a plot for Ruth to proposition Boaz. Naomi told Ruth to take a bath, +get dressed up, and put on some perfume. After Boaz had gotten good and +drunk at the barley harvest, Ruth was supposed to go into his tent and, as the +Bible says, “lie at his feet” to let him know she was available for marriage. + + As the story goes, Boaz woke up and found Ruth there, and he decided to +marry her right on the spot. +Now, think about it. Does this story make any damn sense? A young +woman finds a rich, fine-ass man she wants to marry. So she gets all dressed +up, waits for him to get drunk, sneaks (stalkerishly) into his tent, and then lies +at his feet?! I don’t believe it. Not when there is well-documented evidence +that the word “feet” in the Old Testament was often a euphemism for genitals! +Christian women want their Boaz, but they reject every single part of the +process to get him. Ruth and Naomi plotted to trick Boaz into marrying her. +Ruth kicked it to him first. She didn’t wait on Boaz to ask her out on a date. +And I personally think that Ruth did all manner of sexual acts to drunken +Boaz in the tent (the kind of shit that made him get up out of his sleep and say +“I gotta marry this girl”). But even if you think Ruth simply “lay at his feet” +all night, that’s a serious sexual proposition. +With the blessing of her elders, Ruth mapped out what she wanted and +went after it. She didn’t let cultural conventions about chastity, purity, and +patriarchy keep her from asking for what she wanted. She also seemed to +have a very forthright and embodied sense of her sexuality to help her along. +In short form, I’m saying, “Girl, if you want your Boaz, put on your pretty +dress and perfume and get your cranial maneuvers together. And then go into +the tent and handle your business. But maybe get Boaz’s consent before you +pop up like that, though.” +On her porch that day, my grandmother taught me what it meant for grown +women to have an intergenerational gathering and make meaning out of the +texts and scripts we have about our lives together. My grandmother did for +me what Naomi did for Ruth. She tried to empower me to fight for my +happiness by helping me to not be limited by script and convention. She +modeled the ways that Black women can build a life for themselves. And +sometimes that comes with a willingness to cast aside fear and say no to +what others think is best for you, so you can find the courage to say yes to +yourself. +There are so many ways that Black women need to free themselves from +the strictures of conservative Christian theology. Notice that I didn’t say to +abandon Jesus and the church if it’s important to you. I haven’t. But I’m no + + longer checking my thinking cap at the door. For years, I let Christian +preachers convince me that the story of Ruth and Boaz pivoted upon a weird +cultural ritual in which men get drunk and then women lie down next to them +all night, only to wake up with a marriage proposal the next morning. That +shit is just absurd. +We believe a lot of other absurd theologies, too. Many Black Christian +girls are seduced by white evangelicalism, because, hell, it seems to be +working out so well for white people. I mean, white Jesus helps white +people to win a lot. But when my grandmother showed me that I could take a +different approach to my theology, that it could be a push and pull, a debate, +and even an ongoing set of arguments with God, she freed me up from my +investment in being a Christian Goody Two-Shoes. I don’t even believe God +wants that. The God of Christianity seems to love people who are engaged in +all manner of scandals, affairs, and murders. But I digress. We also have an +absurd theology of discrimination against LGBTQ people. And far too many +churches still believe that women can’t be preachers or pastors. The thing we +would all do well to remember is that conservative Christian theology was +used to enslave Black people. We can use our theology to oppress people or +to liberate them. That’s our choice. +Sometimes this means that we have to reject the kind of Christian teaching +that sets up a false binary between flesh and spirit, mind and body, and +sacred and secular. To be Black in the United States is to be taught our flesh +is dirty and evil. A liberatory theology for us cannot set us at war with our +very bodies. A liberatory theology for women cannot set us at war with the +desires for touch, companionship, and connection that well up like deep +springs in our spirits. When we hear about how “the heart is deceitful above +all things,” which is an actual verse, it teaches us to suppress our deepest +longings, to not trust our own thoughts and our own counsel. For people who +have been enslaved and oppressed because of their race, or gender, or +sexuality, such interpretations are dangerous. +I am a professionally trained textual critic, but the Bible isn’t any old +regular text. It is a text endued with thousands of years of political, social, +and cultural power. That means that to wrest a theology for my grown Black +woman life from it, I had to bring my fully embodied, unapologetic self to it. + + My grandmother didn’t teach me anything about how to understand the +biblical text more critically. She taught me what it meant not to jump out of +my own skin just because the Bible said I should be at war on the inside. She +offered to me a fully embodied theology of grown Black womanhood that +day, one with its compass set toward freedom. One in which I should +embrace the fundamental goodness of all my stuff, both sexual and otherwise. +I had to become a fully grown Black woman to receive it, though. In my holy +hubris, I had dismissed her as provincial and out-of-pocket. How did she +know, in her sanctified country-ness, that sexual pleasure and the freedom to +pursue it would be critical to a healthy sense of self? She modeled for me +one of the core things Black church girls would do well to remember about +Jesus: He fully embodies both the divine and the human. If we spent as much +time thinking about how he lived as we do worshipping how he died, our +faith would demand that we prioritize a better integration of flesh and spirit, +of humanity and divinity, than we do. +The second thing we need to remember is this: The primarily white male +theologians who created the systematic theology of evangelical Christianity +were trying to make sense of a theology that fit their own lives and their own +worldview. This is why so many white Christians can read the Bible and still +vote Republican. Because for them, nothing about the Bible challenges the +fundamental principles of white supremacy or male domination. +Interpreting the biblical text conservatively has a political function. This +political function differs depending on whether you’re white or Black. +Conservative biblical interpretation became the hallmark of the rise of the +religious right, a political force that rose in response to desegregation in the +South, and Lyndon Johnson’s perceived betrayal of Southern Democrats. +Conservative biblical interpretation in Black churches has conversely risen +in response to the political evils engineered by the white religious right. +White male Christian conservatives used conservative biblical interpretation +to pioneer a religious right wing to shore up the machinations of white +supremacy in government policy. Black religious conservatives adopted +conservative biblical interpretation to inoculate themselves against the +massive devastation of these same social policies. Although the social +desires (or political goals) of these religious communities are wholly + + oppositional, the biblical interpretation methods are the same. Obviously, +that can’t work. If Black women are honest, it hasn’t been working for us for +a long time. +Perhaps it’s time for us to read some other sacred texts alongside the +Bible. My grandmother’s words are a sacred text to me—a sacred text of +country Black girlhood. My mother’s words are a sacred text to me—a +sacred text of grown Black womanhood. The words of Sojourner Truth, and +Alice Walker, and Zora Neale Hurston, and Audre Lorde, and Patricia Hill +Collins, and Anna Julia Cooper, and Beyoncé and my homegirls are all +sacred texts to me. Black feminism has been a liberatory theology for me in +its own right. It has made space for me to bring my spiritual self into the +academy and my academic, intellectual self into the spiritual parts of my life. +What Black feminism and my grandmother have taught me is that Black +women are experts on their own lives and their own well-being. Grandmama +taught me that all the sacrifices I was making for middle-class aspirations +weren’t entirely worth it. That if I made it but I was lonely and miserable, +then that was a failure, not a win. +When I first wrote on the Crunk Feminist Collective blog about searching +for a new, more liberatory theology of sexuality, the comments section was a +nightmare. Many of our readers were not here for the kind of Black feminist +theology I was offering. Related to but distinct from womanist theology, what +I call Black feminist theology is something that can help sisters who are +damn near ready to leave the church just so they can act like grown women +with full sex lives in peace. My Black feminist theology is not just focused +on what happens in the church, but rather is a call to those of us who are +Black feminists to remember that lots of Black women are still quite +religious. We need a way to reconcile our feminist politics and our spiritual +lives, not only at church or mosque, but at the office, too. Still, a lot of folks +at our blog weren’t trying to hear it. Some sisters called me “Beelzebub.” +Seriously. They told me my words were poisonous. One said I had a +“reprobate mind” and had been given over to Satan. These angry commenters +all agreed that I was not allowing myself to be led by the Holy Spirit. All of +those sisters, many of whom had been celibate for years and years, were +scared as hell. What if I was right? This is not about right and wrong, though. + + This is about what freedom means. This is about not standing by idly or, even +worse, participating as white evangelicals and their enthusiastic Black +counterparts hand to us a theology that does the dirty work of racism, +patriarchy, and homophobia. Even when Black people were enslaved and it +was illegal for them to “read the word for themselves” (as Black Christians +love to say), they knew that God was nothing if not freedom. I believe that +because of all the oppressions that we’ve experienced, Black girls have +unique visions of freedom. I believe those visions are God-given, however +you understand God, even if you simply worship, to paraphrase Alice +Walker, the “God you found in yourself.” Freedom is my theological +compass, and it never steers me wrong. +Recently, a twenty-three-year-old Black woman who worked at a +university where I had flown in to deliver a talk gave me a ride to the airport. +My talk was about what it would mean to move beyond respectability, the +subject of my first book, Beyond Respectability: The Intellectual Thought +of Race Women, and how to embrace a feminist politic that was insistent, +loud, demanding, ratchet, and unapologetic. On the hour-long drive into the +airport, my Black girl chauffeur told me “I hate to make you work, but since I +have you in the car, I’m wondering…” Anybody who flies to places and +speaks for a living often dreads this encounter of being trapped in the car +with a stranger and their questions. But I give Black girls a lot of rope, so I +listened. “Well,” she began, “how have you found that Black men respond to +this discussion about feminism?” +There it was—the question that haunts so many Black girls. “Will +feminism fuck up my love life?” She went on to offer some context for the +behavior of Black men on her campus who were decidedly race-first in their +analysis. But I got the subtext—“Will any brother ever love me if I go down +this path? Cuz it’s not looking too promising.” She was a church girl with +very religious parents. I took the opportunity to share with her some of my +struggles to reconcile faith and feminism. She and I talked about approaching +the Bible not as a rule book, but perhaps as a cultural library of texts that +recount the journeys of a series of ancient human beings with God, an +approach I learned from reading theologian and writer Brian McLaren. When + + I floated this “radical” idea, she immediately shot back, “But what about +repentance, though?” +By this she meant what about the demand that we must always atone for +our sins, and always seek to “turn from our wicked ways.” Drawing on +McLaren’s work, I explained to her, “Repentance to me means ‘re-think.’ +That’s literally what it means. To think again and to think in a different +direction.” +It was one of those encounters steeped in serendipity, one of those +opportunities to talk to a younger version of myself and to share the things I +wish someone had said to me when I was twenty-three, anxious as shit, and +freaked the hell out. “But, what will my mother say?” she asked. We talked +about how to navigate one’s own needs as a grown woman, even when they +diverge in critical ways from the desire of so many Black girl overachievers +to please the women who raised us. I told this Black girl that if I could tell +my younger self anything, it would be to “chill out.” That is what my +grandmother had been trying to tell me. +And that’s what my grandmother cosmically sent a homegirl to tell me +years later when I was finally ready to listen. Yet again, I required a +homegirl hem-up. Robin and I had become friends at just about the moment +when I was exhausted from trying not to show up to my own life. Even after +the Great Porch Intervention, I went on with these bouts of sexual self-torture +for years, declaring celibacy, falling off the wagon, and then declaring it once +again. By the time I finished with my Ph.D. program and arrived at my first +job, I was sexually frustrated in the worst way and desperate for a new way +to think. During a conversation with Robin, I shared that it had been several +years since I had had any sex at all. Appalled at the absurdity of my quest for +“holiness,” she pinned me with a Black-girl look that said I was being +foolish and told me, “God knows you want to get some.” God knows I did. +So I did. +I don’t know what changed. Maybe, with all of my schooling complete, I +felt like I really had made it. Maybe my twenty-eight-year-old body would no +longer be denied. Maybe I had been looking for permission and I was ready +to listen. Robin’s resistance to the crazy-making sexual politics of the church +helped, too. She was brave enough to see past all the ways that church and + + culture told Black women “no.” She was brave enough to go in search of her +own “yeses.” Brave enough to trust that God does, in fact, have some yeses +for grown-ass women. Brave enough, like my grandmother was, to recognize +that all the stuff we’re made of God calls “good.” Because of her, I braved +the roiling waters of my own heart and decided to, for once, stand on my own +side. Spiritual attitude adjustment complete, I set out on a quest for the good +stuff. + + ORCHESTRATED FURY + +Respectability politics died the day Michelle Obama showed up to her last +official engagement as First Lady with a thrown-together ponytail-bun +combination and a facial expression fit for a funeral. She looked flawless as +always. She also looked fed up and ready to go. Respectability politics, the +belief that Black people can overcome many of the everyday, acute impacts +of racism by dressing properly and having education and social comportment +is, first and foremost, performed as a kind of sartorial prerogative. What I +mean is that your fashion choices are subject to great scrutiny. Black people +are taught to care how they look and how their children look. If you see a +little Black girl out in public with her hair unkempt—her parts +unintentionally jagged, her edges unsmoothed, her ponytails askew, or her +hair ornaments not in their proper place—you can be assured that there is +some Black woman somewhere asking, “Who does that baby belong to?” +Black women’s hairstyles are their own cultural vocabulary, which +change depending on mood, life circumstance, and who exactly will be +seeing us on any given day. Mrs. Obama’s hairstyle was the kind you put +together after you’d been up all night packing and it’s time to get your shit, +leave the keys on the counter, and go. It’s not public hair. It is not hair given +to inaugural pomp and circumstance. It is everyday Black-girl hair. We learn +this complex hair vocabulary as we sit perched, often for hours, between the +knees of mothers, aunties, and hairstylists, trained and untrained, from +babyhood forward. +Every night, my mother painstakingly parted my hair and greased my +scalp, and then plaited or rolled my hair for ease of styling in the morning. + + The next morning, I would sit between her legs while she parted my hair into +three or four neat sections, affixed rubber bands to the tops of each section, +and then twisted my ponytails. She finished by tying ribbons at the tops and +snapping barrettes on the ends. At the end of each day, she would fuss and +scold when I came home with those same barrettes missing and ponytails +askew and unraveled after “ripping and running and not being careful” at +recess. At age twelve, when my mother finally decided it was time for me to +get a perm, my hairdresser, Mrs. Earline, asked my mother “Are you sure?” +And, later, when Mom came to pick me up with my newly permed, silky +tresses, Mrs. Earline said, “I prayed over this baby’s head. When I didn’t see +any hair on the comb as I worked it through, I knew the Lord was saying it +was going to be alright.” Maintaining my head of long, thick hair was a +community project. +At age fifteen, when I accompanied my mother and her three sisters to see +the movie premiere of Waiting to Exhale, I knew what it meant, then, when +Bernadine, after being newly separated from her cheating husband, went to +the hairdresser and asked her stylist to chop off nearly every inch of her +beautiful, luxurious mane. Even though I didn’t have the emotional maturity to +understand the devastation of losing a marriage, I knew how much effort it +took to grow that length and thickness of hair and keep it beautiful. I knew +how much Black women and girls envied having long, thick hair in a world +where white women’s ability to grow and regrow hair like weeds was the +standard of beauty. Chopping it all off meant she was going through +something exceedingly terrible. +My social media and text feeds lit up the moment we got a good look at +Mrs. Obama’s last inauguration hairdo. Throughout her two terms as first +lady, and particularly in the second term, Mrs. Obama’s public hair was +always long and flowing, with unique kinds of cuts and styles. Black women +were culturally obsessed with both her fashion choices and her hair. Was it +permed or was it natural? Was she rocking bangs? Who was her stylist and +what were they doing to give her hair all that bounce and body? How were +Malia and Sasha wearing their hair? These questions are all forms of cultural +assessment that Black women and girls do with other Black women and girls. +Though sometimes it can morph into mean-girlness, in Mrs. Obama’s case, + + our running cultural commentary about her hair was one of seeing her and +feeling seen. It meant that there were Black girls in the White House with +hair—challenges, and woes, and triumphs—just like us. So when I saw her +hair on her last day, it was clear that she had not spent hours in a stylist’s +chair getting her ’do done just right. Presumably, she would have wanted to +be a fashion stunner for her final formal public appearance. Instead, this bona +fide fashion icon showed up to the inauguration of Donald Trump with a +quick and convenient on-the-go ’do, and what looked like a good church +dress she had pulled from the closet. Certainly, she may simply have been +gracious in letting Melania have her moment. But there was also something +about the refusal to perform the public standard—a standard that Mrs. Obama +had herself set—that marked an unceremonious ending. +Her hair was a signal to the world that what we were about to witness +was some bullshit. She knew it. We knew it. “Do y’all see this shit?” that +hair asked of all of us who were watching or deliberately not watching our +complicated American homeland being placed in the hands of a mentally +unwell fascist. Like the rest of us, she might have to accept it, but she didn’t +have to like it. The “I-refuse-to-be-botheredness” of that ponytail evinced +rage of both the eloquent and the elegant varieties. It wasn’t so much about +the actual hairstyle. A bun or ponytail can be elegant and appropriate. It was +the combination of this kind of informal updo with a dress that was pretty, but +also unremarkable, that signaled a kind of pulling back, a disengagement, +with the American public. Mrs. Obama didn’t throw her middle fingers up at +the system that had just elected Donald Trump. However, the subtlety in her +refusal of pomp and circumstance belied a deep disdain for the way in which +the American people had rejected her work, and that of President Obama, by +installing his nemesis—a man who had started a whole movement +questioning his citizenship—in the White House. +Respectability politics are at their core a rage-management project. +Learning to manage one’s rage by daily tamping down that rage is a response +to routine assaults on one’s dignity in a world where rage might get you +killed or cause you to lose your job. Mrs. Obama had to learn this lesson +quickly, and on the national stage, after being accused and publicly +caricatured as an Angry Black Woman when Mr. Obama ran for his first term. + + She chose to channel her energy into slaying the American public in another +way, by offering an impeccable standard of fashion to a watching world. +Sometimes that is what Black women do when we can’t give in to the +murderous levels of rage we feel at the indignities we experience. We can’t +kill. But we can slay. +Rage is a fundamentally more reasonable response to America’s cultural +investment in the disrespect of Black women than being respectable. That’s +why it’s damn near impossible for rage and respectability to reside in the +same place. On her last day, Mrs. Obama didn’t sublimate the rage over +Trump and his wife to the province of the slay. She simply refused. Rage is a +kind of refusal. To be made a fool of, to be silenced, to be shamed, or to +stand for anybody’s bullshit. It is a refusal of the lie that Black women’s +anger in the face of routine, everyday injustice is not legitimate. Black +women’s rage is a way of looking these mischaracterizations in the face and +responding, “You got me all the way fucked up.” +This is what I heard—what I felt—when I saw Mrs. Obama’s ponytail. +Having had her anger hyperpoliced since 2007, when her husband announced +his candidacy, on her very last day on the job Mrs. Obama became, as +comedy writer Damon Young might say, “fuck-deficient.” Since the definition +of respectability politics is that you absolutely give a fuck (because you have +to) about what white folks and everybody else thinks, respectability politics +and fuck-deficiency pretty much cannot coexist in the same body. +Audre Lorde, the first writer to offer a Black feminist theory of anger, +famously argued in “The Uses of Anger: Women Responding to Racism,” the +essay that I always keep close at hand, that “Women of Color in america have +grown up within a symphony of anger, at being silenced, at being unchosen, at +knowing that when we survive, it is in spite of a world that takes for granted +our lack of humanness, and which hates our very existence outside of its +service. And I say symphony rather than cacophony because we have had to +learn to orchestrate those furies so that they do not tear us apart.” Black +women’s rage is a kind of orchestrated fury. Lorde went on to say, “We have +had to learn to move through them and use them for strength and force and +insight within our daily lives. Those of us who did not learn this difficult +lesson did not survive. And part of my anger is always libation for my fallen + + sisters.” Michelle Obama’s negotiation of Trump’s inauguration, the manner +in which she both expressed her disdain but kept it respectful at the same +time, was nothing short of symphonic. +Black folks codified the ideology of respectability in the decades +following Reconstruction after the federal government, helped along by +indifferent white Northerners, left newly freed Black folks in the South to +fend for themselves against the terroristic whims and fancies of angry white +Southerners, who were still licking their wounds over their Civil War loss. +Women and men like Anna Julia Cooper, Mary Church Terrell, W.E.B. Du +Bois, and Booker T. Washington reasoned that if Black folks learned to work +hard, educate themselves, and stay out of trouble, white people would see +that we were good, respectable people, human beings, worthy of both +citizenship and protection. Initially, respectability politics was a survival +strategy in the face of the massive potential for violence. It was a +conservative strategy but an imminently reasonable one for nineteenth- and +early twentieth-century Blacks faced with high rates of illiteracy, housing and +job insecurity, and cyclical influxes to the North of Black folks looking to +make a better life. Showing these Black people how to present a respectable +image became a key strategy in securing their survival in hostile and violent +conditions. +The problem with all provisional strategies, particularly when they begin +to work for the exceptional few, is that they rise to the level of ideology. +Soon, Black folks began to blame other Black people for bringing the race +down. The Respectables, as I like to call them, claimed that our refusal to +practice chastity and piety and avoid crime led to our low esteem among +white people. Taken to its extreme form, respectability politics will net you +Black people who don’t love Black people. Ben Carson and Clarence +Thomas are the chiefs among these anti-Black Judas types. +But the Obamas themselves practiced and subscribed to a mild, everyday +politics of respectability, too. During an infamous commencement address at +historically Black Bowie State University in 2013, the First Lady critiqued +the propensity among Black youth who had been taken in by the lure of +celebrity. “Today, instead of walking miles every day to school, they’re +sitting on couches for hours, playing video games, watching TV. Instead of + + dreaming of being a teacher or a lawyer or a business leader, they’re +fantasizing about being a baller or a rapper.” This is the language of +respectability. It comes from the same place as Sunday sermons that wag +fingers at young men to pull up their pants. It comes from the same place as +Barack Obama’s unique penchant for telling Black men to be good fathers to +their children, a message he never felt compelled to share with +predominantly white audiences. The ways the Obamas engaged Black +audiences during their time in the White House were filled with what we +might call the everyday respectability politics of our parents and +grandparents, who implored us: “Act like you got some sense,” and “Don’t +make me have to come up to that school.” +The Respectables’ credo is two-fold: You have to be twice as good to get +half as far, and Never let ’em catch you slippin’. (But the Respectables +ideally would say this in completely proper English, without my Hip Hop– +era remix.) This sounds like good sense. It sounds like Black people taking +on the very high levels of personal responsibility that those on the right love +to talk about so much. But it doesn’t acknowledge that when you are twice as +good, white folks will resent you for being better. And all human beings +deserve at least a few slips. It’s inhuman to demand otherwise. +When we saw the Obamas exit their caravan and walk down the streets of +Washington, D.C., smiling and waving on January 20, 2009, these guiding +principles reached great commandment status. We felt our ancestors smiling. +We felt new possibilities taking shape for our children. For once, America +had let us win. The project of respectability had triumphed. It had proven that +if Black people would simply get educated, be upstanding and respectable, +and work hard, they could be absolutely anything—even president. +But the respectability project was particularly burdensome for Michelle +Obama. She was policed and critiqued from head to toe by every community +—white, Black, and in-between. When she turned inward to focus on her +children, a safe stance that made her more palatable to broad American +audiences, white feminists expressed disdain for her embrace of the “momin-chief” role, calling it antifeminist. They conveniently forgot that their +ancestors had long claimed ladyhood uniquely for themselves, refusing, to the +great chagrin of Black women, to acknowledge that sisters of a darker hue + + were ladies, too. However, Black women refused to cede the volatile turf of +American ladyhood to white women, taking to public outlets to remind white +women that it was a privilege for a Black woman to be able to just focus on +raising her kids. This battle to define ladyhood for ourselves, and to access +its protections, was longstanding. I think again of Ida B. Wells being ejected +from the ladies’ car after she had refused to sit in the smoky, filthy, +segregated colored car of the train. A few years later, Anna Julia Cooper +wrote about needing to use the bathroom at a train station. When she +approached the door, each was marked with a sign, one reading “for ladies,” +and the other “for colored.” Which sign should she, a consummate colored +lady, choose? +To be a Black woman is to be always confronted with these kinds of +profane distinctions, to be asked to choose between your race and your +gender. Black social life in the nineteenth century was marked for Black +women by a lack of access to the protections of ladyhood, and by a steadfast +refusal among white people to even make gender distinctions among Black +people. Those ideas shaped the way in which Michelle Obama was both +perceived and policed. There was a minor public outcry when she took her +official White House portrait in a sleeveless dress. And there was the time +U.S. Congressman Jim Sensenbrenner referred to her as having a big butt. +One of the perks of being a lady is not being subject to people’s lewd, thinly +veiled sexual commentaries. Michelle Obama enjoyed no such perks. It also +bears noting that white people’s regulation of Black women’s bodies in the +public sphere is one reason that Black people have been obsessed with +outward appearance. Michelle Obama’s ascent to ladyhood, despite these +persisting obstacles, conquered that offensive history, proving that Black +women could be the arbiters of American femininity and style, too. +Meanwhile, Melania Trump represented everything that Mrs. Obama did +not. During the 2016 campaign, not only were Mrs. Trump’s educational +credentials in question and her open brand of sexuality deemed antithetical to +respectable American ladyhood, but in her Republican National Convention +speech, she plagiarized Michelle Obama. Yet this is the couple that the +American people chose to succeed the Obamas in the White House. +Meanwhile, Melania Trump was allowed to float above criticism, even + + though she initially refused to live in the White House and to take on the +social demands of First Ladyhood. Had Michelle Obama dared to be so +resistant, we would never have heard the end of the insults and bellyaching +of the American public. But Mrs. Trump is the beneficiary of America’s +silence. +Of course, on Inauguration Day, Michelle Obama was put out with this +whole state of affairs. Being compelled by law and custom to hand the mantle +over to someone who tried to obtain it by biting your beats is almost too +much to bear. But it also is perhaps the most symbolic evidence of the failure +of the project of African American respectability. +A Black woman, descended from enslaved people, became the First Lady +of a country that historically used Black women’s bodies merely to +reproduce noncitizens. One of the most unique things about Black women’s +experiences in this country is that we are the only group of people whose +bodies have ever been legally mandated as the place that reproduced +noncitizens. Indigenous women were never striving for their children to have +American citizenship, but rather sovereignty on their own terms. And Latina +immigrant women who are unfairly maligned for giving birth to children on +American shores are hated precisely because they, too, can pass on the rights +of citizenship to their children, even if they have been denied access to it +themselves. It is Black American women whose bodily history is bound up +with the burden of reproducing the condition of unfreedom for our children. +It, therefore, meant something—possibly even everything—to have a Black +woman, descended from these Black women, to ascend to the highest role our +nation designates for women (since the presidency still eludes us.) +But by January 20, 2017, as Melania Trump stepped to the podium in her +baby-blue suit, that project had proved itself unsustainable. African +American respectability might bring us to the highest office in the land, but it +could not ensure any level of long-term respect for Black humanity, Black +womanhood, Black manhood, or Black childhood. During the Obama +administration unarmed Black men, Black women, and Black children had all +been murdered by the police, while most of the offending officers never lost +their jobs or freedom. So it made sense that Mrs. Obama showed up looking +somber, as if she were attending a funeral. + + Maybe Michelle Obama hasn’t divested from respectability politics +forever. Truth be told, they have served her well. But a well-timed diss can +let you know the limitations of a way of thinking or mode of being in the +world. If you weren’t looking for it carefully, Lady Obama’s class and social +position might have allowed you to miss her microresistance. In myriad ways +Black women daily resist messages that try to shame us into submission or +otherwise steal and kill our joy. That dissent doesn’t just happen on national +stages. Sometimes it goes down in the everyday spaces that Black women +frequent, spaces that are rife with misogynoir (a term that specifically refers +to hatred of Black women) and that are tasked with the work of disciplining +Black women and girls into respectable ladyhood. +My mother was the first to teach me this lesson. She had come to pick me +up after I had spent six weeks attending the Upward Bound summer program +at a local Black college. This federally funded summer experience for +working-class youth was the closest most of us rural and semirural Southern +Black children would ever get to going to summer sleepaway camp. For six +weeks, we stayed on campus in the dorms, being exposed to what college life +might look like, while we spent our days doing math and science enrichment, +attending cultural experiences like plays and poetry readings, and taking +long-distance field trips. Those programs mattered to single moms like my +own, who had big dreams for their children but very few resources. +Together, Mama and I sat at the final Upward Bound banquet, a +celebration of our achievements that summer, listening to a local preacher +giving the keynote address. He was in the middle of his sermon text, a classic +passage from Proverbs, when my mother began shaking her head: “The Bible +says ‘train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not +depart from it.’ Some of your children are acting up, and the Word says that +means y’all aren’t doing your jobs.” A chorus of “amens” rose up around the +room, affirming this conventional “wisdom.” But my mother’s head continued +to shake. Eventually, a clear but quiet “no,” formed on her lips. The head +shaking drew eyes to our table, so much so that the preacher stopped, looked +at her, and said, “You don’t agree?” “No.” She shook her head again. He said +to her, surprised, “Well, that’s alright.” Murmurs went up around the room, as +other mothers looked at my mother curiously, some with disapproval, some + + with surprise, and maybe, hopefully, at least a few, in relief. Satisfied that +her disagreement had been registered, my mother nodded her head, letting +him continue. +Later, in the car on the way home, my mom explained, “That verse says, +‘When they are old, they won’t depart from it.’ Y’all aren’t old yet.” Blaming +Black mothers for having normal boundary-testing teenagers didn’t sit well +with my mother, a single mom herself. Her act of solidarity with the other +single mothers in the room mattered all the more because my mother was +raising a veritable, rule-following, Bible-toting Goody Two-Shoes. But she +refused the carrot of thinking herself better than other folks because her own +child didn’t have the behavior problems or classroom demeanor of some of +the other children. Mama knew she was an underdog in a room full of +underdogs, and like she has told me on more than one occasion, “I always +root for the underdog.” +Too often, Black leaders think rooting for Black folks means shaming them +into respectability. Southern Black male preachers are masters of +propagating sexist common sense to achieve respectable outcomes. On more +Sundays than a few, their rhetoric shames single Black mothers for failing to +raise their children in traditional nuclear families. But my mother was the +first to teach me that we don’t have to accept nonsense simply because it is +common. I learned that day that sometimes you have to say no, even in a room +where everyone else is offering sacrificial “yeses.” Those “yeses” were a +sacrifice because assenting to one’s own public shaming is not an affirmation +any Black woman can ever afford. Saying yes to a religious narrative about +bad Black mothering that props up an even more pernicious state-based +narrative that pathologizes Black mothers costs too much. A Black male +preacher asking Black mothers to collude in their own denigration is unholy. +Black church ladies love the Bible verse that says, “Let all things be done +decently and in order.” My mother was out of order in every respectable +sense. She had challenged a preacher—in public. She challenged his biblical +interpretation in a culture that believes preachers have a direct, anointed line +to God. She dissented from him openly, forthrightly, and unapologetically. +This, too, was eloquent rage—against the theological and social machine of +respectability. This, too, was orchestrated fury, in the form of a symphonic + + disruption—a refusal to let “the man of God” use rhetoric to beat up on +vulnerable women trying to make a way in the world for themselves and their +children. My mama didn’t turn over any tables in the temple like her Jesus +might have done, but she did cause just enough of a disruption to make clear +that an injustice was being done. Eloquent rage isn’t always loud, but it is +always effective. +Fourteen and a bit nonplussed by my mother’s decision to make a scene, I +didn’t even know you could do something as bold as challenge a preacher. In +Southern Black communities, the Great Chain of Being goes something like +God, Black Male Preachers, and the Rest of Us. But sometimes the only thing +that is in order is to act out of order. To turn up, show out, and disrupt. That +preacher was touting a particular order of things, a hierarchy of shame that +placed Black women on the bottom. Inherent within his remarks was an +indictment of the kinds of Black families in the audience. These were +working-class Black people raising children in one of the poorest states in +the union. These Black families weren’t two-parent, middle-class Black +families. There were a few fathers, but mostly there were mothers, +grandmothers, aunties, and younger siblings in that room. +Here was the Moynihan Report rearing its ugly head again. Black mothers, +according to Moynihan, were the source of our deepest, most faulty +conditions. The roots of Black social wrongness ran deep. They ran to the +womb, to the mothers, to the maternal labor that birthed us and made space +for us. Parroting the logic of Moynihan, and many Black sociologists who +had come before, this preacher argued that the reason that Black children +were out of line was that fathers were absent and mothers weren’t mothering +well. My mother insisted on a different story. And she was willing to be +disruptive in order to make that story heard. +This is what anti-Blackness looks like. This is what misogynoir sounds +like. The rub is that these mansplaining men think they are helping. Moynihan +thought his report would help. The preacher thought his sermon would help. +But this is the kind of help that will kill you. In the absence of actual +structural resources to ameliorate social problems, sermonic shaming and +policy blaming is the opposite of help. It constitutes harm. It sounds eerily +similar to the kind of shame and blame that undergirds social-welfare policy + + in the United States. Dog-whistle policies about welfare moms and Hip Hop +anthems about greedy baby mamas and sermons about mothers who don’t +take care of their children all share a common through line—that Black +women aren’t shit, that they need to be corralled, controlled, and contained. +The logic of otherwise disparately placed men—in public policy, in Hip +Hop, and in the church—converges on the truth that if Black women would +just be better mothers, the state wouldn’t be so taxed, our communities would +not be in such a shambles, and brothers wouldn’t be so short in the pockets. +That’s a huge minefield of structurally induced hatred to navigate. +What’s even more terrible is that we don’t just ask Black women to +traverse this difficult terrain. Black girls encounter the daily violence of this +hateful cultural landscape, too. Remember, there were girls like me, on the +way to becoming women, listening on that day, too, to a narrative of what +proper ladyhood looked like. I was too invested in being a “good girl” to +ever have thought to disrupt the preacher’s message myself. But my mother +had been a bad girl in many ways, a rebel and a teen mom who liked slightly +older bad boys. That’s how I got here. +Though good behavior has its place, it’s the disruptive girls, the loud, +rowdy, attitudinal Black girls, and the defiant, quiet, insolent Black girls who +expose every day exactly what this system is made of. In September 2015, a +school resource officer in South Carolina confronted a high-school student +named Shakara for failure to put away her cell phone as she sat at her desk +during math class. To be clear, the term “school resource officer” is a just a +fancy name for police officers in schools, doing the kinds of jobs that used to +be reserved for principals and school counselors. Although she sat quietly at +her desk, Shakara held the phone tightly in her hand, defying her teacher’s +orders to put it away. +At the behest of the Black male teacher, a white male police officer named +Ben Fields arrived and began hassling Shakara. She neither ignored him nor +responded to him. Instead, Shakara sat quietly, looking straight ahead, +exercising her right to remain silent. An arrest would be forthcoming anyway. +Very rarely are Black girls read in ways that recognize what their fear might +look like. Fields saw only insubordination, and he responded with +escalation, grabbing Shakara with such force that he tipped the desk over + + while she was still seated inside it. From that position, he yanked her body +violently out of the desk, creating such momentum that, as he dislodged her +body, she collided violently with the wall. +Shakara’s classmates looked terrified, even as one lone distressed +teenager, a girl named Niya Kenny, stood up and yelled, “What the fuck?! +What the fuck?! This can’t happen.” Niya encouraged her classmates to tape +the incident, and later, said, “I was screaming, ‘What the F___? What the +F____?’ Is this really happening? I was praying out loud for the girl.” +Cussing and praying. Mixing the profane and sacred together. No one can +cuss you out more eloquently than a Black woman can. It might be a +stereotype, but it’s also a truth. We cuss out of rage, and we pray that the +cussing will be enough to get all the rage out. We curse those who trespass +against us, and we pray usually that the rage won’t win. We curse systems, +and we pray for divine help to overcome those very same systems. This is +why it is so egregious for preachers to use biblical texts to shame Black +women and girls into complying with a system that hates them. Most Black +girls and women come to lean on that same holy language for divine help +when the system shows up to smash them into a million pieces. Rage and +respectability can’t exist in the same space. But cussing and praying +absolutely can. These forms of expression, themselves tethered to those +spaces between disrespect and respectability, hold Black women together +when the violence we encounter would otherwise rip us apart. +Shakara and Niya were both arrested for the dubious charge of “disturbing +schools.” More than a year later, the charges were dropped, but not before +students at the high school held protests in favor of the school resource +officer getting his job back. Many of the children who protested were Black, +because Black children learn early that the best way to survive in a broken +system is to go along to get along. If Shakara hadn’t persisted in her small but +mighty act of rebellion, we might never have seen just how violent the world +is toward Black girls who don’t immediately comply. Shakara’s rage was +quiet. But it was no less eloquent, no less clear. +Many, many Black folks, the ones who daily tell their children, “Don’t +make me come up to that school,” were incensed at Shakara. “Why didn’t she +just put the phone away?” They asked similar questions when, months earlier, + + Sandra Bland was threatened with tasing and then arrested after challenging a +dubious citation by a Texas police officer. +Because respectability is a rage-management project, those invested in +Black respectability are often deeply uncomfortable with Black rage. +Respectability tells us that staying alive matters more than protecting one’s +dignity. Black rage says that living without dignity is no life at all. This rage +is dangerous because it can’t be reasoned with, can’t be forced to accept the +daily indignities of racism, and more than likely will fight back, rather than +fleeing or submitting. The consequence of all these antirespectable choices +range from violence to death. Ask Sandra Bland.… My anger is always +libation for my fallen sisters. +To be clear, Black living and Black surviving matters. We can’t be +dogmatic about the rightness or wrongness of embracing rage or choosing +safety. It would be irresponsible for me to tell people to embrace rage and +all its consequences when I daily put on a respectable outfit and drive in a +solidly middle-class car to a solidly middle-class job. Perfecting the art of +respectability in the right moments helped me to make it this far. But the more +access I have to halls of power, to places where decisions get made, the +more rage I feel. I know how to “count the costs” of my rage, but I wonder if +we’ve learned how to count the costs of our respectability. It makes us +emotionally dishonest. It makes us unable to see each other. It causes us to +sympathize with the dignity vampires, come to take everything from us while +claiming we brought it on ourselves. +Grown Black people resented Shakara’s youthful rebellion. Underneath +the resentment, clearly people were horrified at the violence. But the view +was, “We already know how they will treat us. So we can never give them a +reason.” Never let them catch you slippin’. Luckily, Niya’s mother had more +vision than much of the shortsighted public discourse. After Niya was +arrested for “disturbing schools,” her mother said, “Looking at the video, +who was really disturbing the school? Was it my daughter? Or was it the +officer who came into the classroom and did that to the young girl?” +Shakara’s silence in the face of such violence, and Niya’s loud wailing of +distress and disruption came to help us. These Black girls asked us to be +emotionally honest about how fucked up this world is. They gave us an + + opportunity, if we would only get in touch with our rage, with the +righteousness of it, to imagine a world in which two grown men could figure +out a dignified and reasonable way to get a teenage girl to put away her +phone. Suppressed rage will cause us to accept gratuitous violence as a +necessary evil. Expressed rage offers us an opportunity to do better. +Two grown men, one Black and one white, one a teacher and one an +officer, colluded that day to terrorize two Black girls, and a room full of +mostly Black students, into submission. And only the power of Black girls +refusing to bow down to this unprincipled show of force alerted the nation to +the problem of how Black girls get treated in schools. After she was +arrested, Niya left school in pursuit of her GED. Because Shakara was in the +foster-care system, her anonymity was protected and it’s not clear what +happened to her. Niya became another of the disproportionate number of +Black girls who are suspended every year compared to their white +counterparts. Her contact with the legal system also means that her act of +solidarity made her one more Black student forced into what Monique +Morris has called the “school-to-confinement pathways” that dog Black girls +for the entirety of their educational lives. +Rage is costly. And its costs are directly proportional to the amount of +power any given woman or girl has when she chooses to wield it. +But Black women’s rage also builds movements. Black Lives Matter. This +is the most eloquent statement of rage to come out of Black communities in a +generation. Three Black women began proclaiming this simple truth on July +13, 2013, after George Zimmerman was acquitted of killing Trayvon Martin. +The entire narrative of the Zimmerman trial had become a story about Black +women and rage. Much of the trial decision seemed to rely on the testimony +of Trayvon Martin’s good friend Rachel Jeantel. He had been on the phone +with Rachel just as Zimmerman started to stalk him around the neighborhood. +Rachel heard the initial moments of the confrontation before her phone went +dead. And when she took the stand on Trayvon’s behalf, Rachel was all hood +solidarity and unpolished Black-girl attitude. Her rage over the killing of her +friend was apparent, but because she had a speech impediment, and little +investment in taking the stand to relive the trauma of hearing her friend be +murdered, the inelegance of her speech made her rage seem less eloquent. + + But it was abundantly, expressly clear that she was mad at losing her friend, +and mad at the farce of a trial that eventually acquitted Zimmerman. All us +Black girls who love bigheaded Black boys as friends and brothers and +cousins were mad. +That very same night, Patrisse Cullors, Alicia Garza, and Opal Tometi got +together on social media and began proclaiming “#BlackLivesMatter.” Those +words became even more salient on August 9, 2014, when Ferguson, +Missouri, police officer Darren Wilson picked a fight with Michael Brown +and his friend Dorian Johnson as they walked in the middle of the street +within a small apartment complex on Canfield Drive. Wilson pulled his gun +and shot Mike Brown multiple times, claiming afterward that Brown tried to +grab his gun. After residents stood vigil for four and a half hours as Mike +Brown’s body lay in the street, the next iteration of the movement was born. +Individualized acts of eloquent rage have limited reach. But the +collective, orchestrated fury of Black women can move the whole world. +This is what the Black Lives Matter movement has reminded us. There is +something clarifying about Black women’s rage, something essential about +the way it drills down to the core truth. The truth is that Black women’s anger +is not the problem. “For it is not the anger of Black women,” Lorde tells us, +“which is dripping down over this globe like a diseased liquid. It is not [our] +anger which launches rockets … missiles, and other agents of war and +death.” “Anger,” she said, “is an appropriate response to racist attitudes.” +#AudreLordeTaughtMe +We live in a nation that does everything to induce our rage while +simultaneously doing everything to deny that we have a right to feel it. +American democracy is as much a project of suppressing Black rage as it is +of legitimizing and elevating white rage. American democracy uses calls for +civility, equality, liberty, and justice as smoke screens to obscure all the +ways in which Black folks are treated uncivilly, unequally, illiberally, and +unjustly as a matter of course. Had Darren Wilson been just a bit more +“civil,” Mike Brown might very well be alive. +The lie we are told is that white rage and white fear are honest emotions +that preserve the integrity of American democracy. More often than not, we +keep learning that white rage and white fear are dishonest impulses that lead + + us toward fascism. White rage and white fear are reactions to perceptions +among white people that their power might be slipping away. Black rage and +Black fear are fundamentally more honest, because they are reactions to the +violence of white supremacy. When Black women are the collective arbiters +and organizers of Black rage, it is inherently more inclusive. By proclaiming +that Black Lives Matter, the leaders of the Movement for Black Lives +(M4BL) have been insisting that the American democratic project become as +inclusive as it claims to be. White supremacist gaslighting insists that what +the statement really means is “only Black lives matter.” But that is willful +ignorance on the part of folks who refuse to see that the conditions that +prompted the proclamation in the first place were conditions that tried to +assert that Black lives didn’t matter, that they were disposable, and that +Black communities didn’t deserve justice. Black women, therefore, stood up +and said, “We matter.” Too. Also. I simply refuse to believe that white +people don’t know this. +Whether we are at work, at church, at school, in court, in the halls of +government, or in the streets, the rage of Black women and girls does the +necessary work of pushing American democracy forward, of exposing its +flaws, of dramatizing its injustices, of taking its violent beatings. Black +women’s rage isn’t always healthy, particularly when we turn it on ourselves +or on our children. But when we turn it outward and focus it on the powers +that would crush us into submission and give back to us a mangled image of +ourselves, Black women’s rage is a kind of power that America would do +well to heed if it wants to finally live up to its stated democratic aims. + + WHITE-GIRL TEARS + +The problem with the 2016 presidential election is simple: White feminists +did not come get their people. Who are the people of white feminists? Other +white women. Until the election of Donald Trump, very few Americans, +beyond political scientists and analysts, paid attention to the fact that white +women have a long history of voting predominantly for Republican +candidates in presidential elections. In fact, in 2016, 3 percent fewer white +women voted for Trump than those who had voted for Mitt Romney in 2012. +That’s a significant political shift in one election cycle. But when we woke +up on November 9, 2016, to discover that white women were not interested +in forming a president in their own image, suddenly we began to train our +eyes more heavily on white women, trying to understand what the hell was +going on. +As I made clear earlier, I have always known of white women’s great +capacity to be treacherous. But I did not know that they suffered a far more +acute version of a problem that white feminists have for decades diagnosed +Black women with having: For white women, their race comes before their +gender. See, this tendency to put race before gender does not surprise me +with Black women. We grow up in a world that only secondarily +acknowledges our girlhood and our womanhood. We grow up being denied +the protections of femininity that are always afforded to white women. And +because anti-Blackness is so palpable, it’s easy if you aren’t paying attention +to miss the very sexist ways that racism can present itself. Most racial +stereotypes of Black women—that they are sexually insatiable, unrapeable, +and prone to having a bunch of babies they can’t take care of, are gendered + + stereotypes. But most of us don’t learn to identify the problem as one rooted +in racism and sexism. This is a problem that Black feminist organizers and +intellectuals have been attuned to since the very beginning. But I simply +didn’t know that white feminists had a version of this problem, too. Namely, +white women’s voting practices tell us that they vote with the party that +supports their racial issues, even though this means voting with a party that +hates women as a matter of public policy. +On the day after Trump’s inauguration, white women took over America, +to the tune of more than three million protestors. It is the biggest feminist +action ever recorded. But it was hard to see the outraged cries of all these +white women, many of whom had failed to get their people, as anything other +than a public profusion of white-lady tears. White girls usually cry whitelady tears after they have done something hella racist and then been called +out by the offended party for doing so. To shift blame and claim victimhood, +they start to cry. The world falls apart as people rush to their defense. All +knowledge of the fact that they are the ones who caused the problem escapes +the notice of everyone except the person or people they disrespected. It’s a +phenomenon that Black folks know well. +Recently, at a campus lecture I gave, a young Black man told me of an +incident where a white female student who he thought was a friend called +him a nigger. When he expressed deep offense at her racism, she started +crying. He wanted to report her to campus authorities, but felt that given his +race, size, and stature, he would not be believed. He felt he would be cast as +the aggressor. So he walked away and let it go. +I, too, have experienced white women become aggressively angry at +public lectures when I give talks. Recently, I received an award from a +national women’s organization for my work as a feminist activist. In my +remarks, I spoke briefly about the ways the Clinton crime bill had harmed +Black communities and men in my own family. As I walked off stage, an +older white feminist, a judge, shook with anger as she disagreed with my +analysis of the crime bill. I told her that perhaps my analysis could have been +more precise, but that the gist of my point about Clinton and the explosion of +the prison industrial complex was in fact, correct. She moved further into my +personal space, as her face became red, and her voice shook. All of these are + + cues of physical aggression, and if you’re Black, they are signs that +somebody is ready to fight. She didn’t cry, but I certainly wanted to make her +cry. The comfort she felt in physically advancing on a stranger and expecting +not to have any clapback for it is a comfort and a privilege that only white +women have. +What that white lady judge didn’t know is that I eat white-lady tears for +breakfast, lunch, and dinner. So it made sense that on the day of the Women’s +March I skipped it and went to my girl’s spot for a very Black brunch in +Brooklyn. Watching white women take it to the streets to protest an election +outcome that was a result of white women’s powerful voting bloc felt like an +exercise in white-lady tears if I ever saw one, and I knew I couldn’t be +trusted to act right amidst a sea of pink pussy hats and white women +struggling to understand what intersectionality means. +But I felt conflicted. On the one hand, I wanted to be in the streets helping +women make feminist history. It feels really important in this moment to make +clear that feminism is a multiracial project. Feminism doesn’t belong to +white women. When cries arose in the weeks following the election for a +Million Women’s March, I was skeptical and annoyed. Black women had +already had such a march in 1997. Though the organizers of this march +scrambled and recovered, rebranding the event the Women’s March and +placing several women of color at the helm, I decided that I would sit this +particular march out. My conflict arose, though, because even though I want +white women to learn with a quickness about the many other modes of +womanhood that exist outside of white womanhood, I also understand the +power of a unified front. +The election of Trump, a man who had admitted on tape to sexually +assaulting women, women who were presumably white, suggests that 2016 is +the moment white women ran squarely up against the limits of white-lady +tears as a form of political capital. White-lady tears might seem not to be a +big deal, but they are actually quite dangerous. When white women signal +through their tears that they feel unsafe, misunderstood, or attacked, the +whole world rises in their defense. The mythic nature of white female +vulnerability compels protective impulses to arise in all men, regardless of +race. + + I think here of the white-girl rapper travesty that is Iggy Azalea. This +Australian white girl built her career by mimicking the accent and cadence of +Black girls in Atlanta, Georgia. She was helped along in this regrettable +experiment in cultural appropriation by Atlanta rapper T.I. In late 2014, Iggy +Azalea dismissed Black female rapper Azealia Banks’s claims that America +appropriates Black culture by engaging in what Banks called “cultural +smudging.” In the midst of the racial uproars of 2014—the killing of Michael +Brown and Tamir Rice and the refusal of the Ferguson, Missouri, prosecutor +to indict Officer Darren Wilson—Banks had called out Iggy for profiting off +of Black culture but not speaking out about Black pain. When, days later, +Banks followed up in an interview about this longstanding problem of +cultural appropriation—think jazz, rock ’n’ roll, blues, and blue-eyed soul— +Iggy dismissed Banks as a bully who had little success because of her +attitude. Rap legend Q-Tip, from A Tribe Called Quest, stepped in to give +Iggy a history lesson on Twitter. It was not long before rapper T.I. defended +his protégé Iggy by saying that many Black people had a “paranoid, ‘All +White People Wanna Steal Our Shit’” mentality. Clearly T.I.’s arguments are +reductive and ludicrous. Black people have every right to be upset about the +long history of cultural appropriation in this country. The fact that Iggy’s +career took off at a moment in Hip Hop when Black girls could barely find a +record deal (Nicki Minaj being the exception) suggests that our fears and +anger about white girls taking up space to which they are not entitled are +well-founded. +During these same years, we have endured everyone from Miley Cyrus to +Taylor Swift to Katy Perry parroting the sounds and idioms of Hip Hop in +their music, while disrespecting Black women in the process. There was the +time that Katy Perry rocked corn rows with her front edges gelled down (a +hair style that is undeniably specific to Black women) in the music video for +her song “This Is How We Do” while pursing her lips, with her head cocked +to the side, to impersonate what she thinks attitudinal, edgy Black girls look +and sound like. Then there was the time Taylor Swift crawled between the +legs of several Black girls twerking in her video “Shake It Off.” Let me also +note that phrases like “this is how we do” and “shake it off” are themselves +Black cultural sayings, indigenous to the Hip Hop generation. + + Miley Cyrus even infamously invited Black women with huge posteriors +on stage to twerk with her when she was trying to emerge from the good-girl +gloss of her old Disney character Hannah Montana. Using the logic of white +supremacy to her advantage, she figured that the closer she put her skinny, noass-having self to Black women’s thick and voluptuous bodies, the easier it +would be for people to accept her as a sexually active, slightly vulgar, grown +woman. Black women’s bodies became critical to this performance of grown +womanhood because Miley knew (at least implicitly) that Black women’s +bodies are already coded as hypersexual and excessively vulgar, and this +was everything she wanted to be. +Of late, Cyrus says she has moved away from Hip Hop because, as she +told John Norris at Billboard, “It was too much ‘Lamborghini, got my Rolex, +got a girl on my cock’—I am so not that.” Now that Hip Hop had rescued her +from the stultifying demands to perform pure, chaste white Southern +femininity, she was ready to throw it out like a used-up washrag. Of course, +Hip Hop had been misogynist for more than three decades when Cyrus +thought to use it to add an edge to her image. The ability to take on and peel +off the parts of Black culture that you like at will is exactly what is meant by +the term “white privilege.” And while culture sharing is fine, white people +have proven that they have a problem sharing. White people don’t share. +They take over. They colonize. They claim shit as their own and then accuse +others of being territorial and retrograde for pointing out these aggressive +borrowing practices that shape white culture. It’s wrong to use Black +aesthetics, Black cultural vernaculars, and Black dance in your videos +without any kind of citation or homage. +Beyond the culture wars, there’s a whole political infrastructure designed +to protect the sanctity of white women’s fears and tears. White women’s +complicity and participation in state violence toward Black people has a +long and sordid history. In 1892, after the local lynching of three Black men, +Memphis journalist Ida B. Wells wrote an editorial calling out white men for +the lynching. She wrote, “Nobody in this section of the community believes +that old threadbare lie that Negro men rape white women. If Southern men +are not careful, a conclusion might be reached which will be very damaging +to the moral reputation of their women.” One of the lynched men, Thomas + + Moss, was Wells’s good friend; he was married with a family, and he was a +respected businessman. He and his business partners had, in fact, been +lynched for running a successful grocery store that competed with a local +white grocer. Once Wells saw the economic logics at play, she stopped +believing the myth propagated by white supremacists, that Black men were +running amok raping white women. +Wells also sought to call out the complicity of white women in this racial +terror propagated against Black men. Not only weren’t they victims, but they +were often engaging in consensual, though illicit, sexual relationships with +Black men. Sometimes these women would cry rape when they were caught +in the act. Sometimes the white men in their lives would cry rape for them. +These white women’s tears proved deadly for Black men and Black +communities. Meanwhile, the white men who were outraged over the rape of +white women often raped Black women with impunity. Black men, too, were +often victims. In a world where telling a white woman “no” could lead to as +many consequences as telling her “yes,” surely the social conditions were not +ripe for any Black body to freely consent to interracial liaisons. +Conveniently enough, white men didn’t begin to propagate the myth of +Black male rapists until after the Civil War. During the war, when they left +their wives and daughters on plantations with these same Black men, there +were few to no accusations of sexual assault. But after the war, suddenly (we +are to believe), white men’s outsized outrage and paranoia over the safety of +white women was about actual crimes Black men were committing rather +than about white men’s deep and unbridled rage over losing power. By +turning the nation’s attention to supposed misdeeds by Black men, white men +misdirected attention from the copious amounts of rape they were committing +against Black women. Disregard for the bodily autonomy of Black women +grew in direct proportion to the social valuation of white femininity. Though +this had also been true during slavery, after the Civil War white men used +white femininity as an excuse to terrorize newly freed men and women +through lynching and rape. +White women’s tears are dangerous. Ida B. Wells was run out of Memphis +for challenging white women’s (and men’s) lies about rape, and her +newspaper’s office was burned to the ground. White men sent a threatening + + message that they would kill her if she returned to Memphis from her travels +up North. Her story demonstrates the extent to which white men were willing +to go to protect and promote the narrative of vulnerable white femininity. But +it also makes clear just how bothered white men were by the prospect of +white women potentially sleeping with Black men. Not only were white men +willing to lynch Black men to keep them in line but, in the case of Wells, they +were also willing to murder Black women in order to prop up their fantasy +about racially pure sexual desire. The desire of white men to regulate white +women’s intimate desires placed Black people in a clusterfuck of white +terror. +Since the nineteenth century, white feminists have critiqued the ways +white men have attempted to sexually regulate their bodies. They have +decried the demands for sexual chastity, purity, and monogamy that American +culture has presumed to be white women’s civic duty. But often the critique +stops there. White women never make the leap toward solidarity. That +solidarity would be rooted in the fact that the terms and limits of Black +women’s and white women’s sexual agency (while certainly not equal in the +scope of terror and violence) are both bound up with the project of white +supremacy. Far too frequently, white women’s notions of antiracist solidarity +is defined solely by their willingness to date Black men. I’m coming back to +that momentarily. +It is in light of these histories that everyone should be able to understand +the complex reactions that Black communities had to allegations against Bill +Cosby. The allegations that he raped and sexually assaulted nearly fifty +women, most of them white, between the 1960s and the 2000s, were an open +secret that most of us deliberately chose to ignore until the cries of his +victims got louder and louder. Cosby has denied these allegations. When I +initially began hearing about these alleged assaults, my first thought was that +Cosby was yet another Black man who secretly found white women more +sexually desirable than his gorgeous Black wife, Camille. That was +disappointing, but as race-man types go, also rather clichéd. As more and +more stories emerged, however, I returned to my default position—I believe +women when they say they are raped. No matter their race. That is a hard + + position to hold, given what Ida B. Wells taught us about the racial and +sexual politics of the post-Reconstruction era. +Postslavery, Black manhood was framed primarily in terms of being a +sexual threat to the purity of white womanhood. To find out that there are +very compelling reasons to believe that Bill Cosby raped dozens of white +women, and began doing so during the racially volatile 1960s, has been hard +for many African Americans to accept. If the allegations are true, that would +make Cosby as much of a monster as many white people love to think all +Black men are. When he was tried in June 2017 for sexually assaulting +Andrea Constand, a judge declared a mistrial after a jury failed to reach a +verdict. However, the mistrial in his case is no more an assurance of +innocence than such mistrials are when the victims are Black men killed by +white cops. Too often, the rampant racism of the criminal justice system is +used as an excuse for the heinous misogyny and sexism of Black men. +I’m no fair-weather feminist, though. Rape is rape. Sexism is sexism. No +matter who commits it. I gave up The Cosby Show, a show I loved and had +continued to watch, even after Cosby became a moralizing grandfatherly +fuckboy who shamed single Black mothers, derided the Black poor, and +mocked Black naming practices. In his infamous 2004 Pound Cake Speech, +Cosby said, “Women having children by five, six different men. Under what +excuse, I want somebody to love me, and as soon as you have it, you forget to +parent. Grandmother, mother, and great grandmother in the same room, +raising children, and the child knows nothing about love or respect of any +one of the three of them.” His speech is filled with this shame-and-blame +rhetoric, demonizing Black mothers. But I am so used to Black men who +blame Black women for our communities’ social problems, and to Black +elders who believe wholeheartedly in respectability politics, that it seemed a +small price to pay to continue to watch The Cosby Show. As long as Black +women were the targets of Cosby’s ire, I could ignore it and continue to +enjoy reruns of my favorite sitcom after a long, stressful day. I’m used to +brothers being not quite right and even all the way wrong in their dealings +with us. I’m used to seeing their proverbial slips showing and loving them +anyway. But after it came to light that he might be a vicious sexual predator, +any racial solidarity between us fell away. To be clear, I would have made + + the same choice if the vast majority of his accusers had been Black. Some +are. But the fact remains that even I sprang into action more readily when I +read all of these white women’s accounts of his actions, in ways that I had +not felt the urgency to do when the targets of his rage were Black. Black +men’s disdain for Black women is so common that it didn’t even occur to me +to stop watching his show. White women’s tears are powerful. +I wish, however, that white feminists specifically weren’t so deliberately +oblivious about their privileged status. Fickle feminism won’t get us +anywhere. Even as Black feminists rallied to denounce Cosby’s (alleged) +despicable conduct and crimes, there was little to no outrage among white +feminists when Daniel Holtzclaw, an Oklahoma police officer of Asian and +white American descent, was accused of raping thirteen Black women, and +was subsequently found guilty of eight of the rapes, in late 2015. While +Cosby’s accusers commanded mainstream news coverage, Holtzclaw’s +victims received embarrassingly little media coverage. If, by contrast, a +Black police officer had been found guilty of raping multiple white women, +this would have been a media circus. This was Ida Wells’s point. The +alleged vulnerability of white women misdirected critical attention away +from the ways in which white men were, in fact, brutalizing and raping Black +women and girls. Today, most rapes are intraracial, but white women’s +perceived vulnerability to crimes at the hands of Black men does untold +amounts of harm to Black communities and, in particular, to Black women +and children. +When George Zimmerman stalked and killed Trayvon Martin, who was +walking home from the corner store in a suburban Florida neighborhood, +Zimmerman claimed to be suspicious because Trayvon, a seventeen-year-old +Black kid wearing a hoodie, was looking at the houses as he walked home. A +Black kid in a hoodie must surely be scoping out these houses, where some +white families lived, in order to commit a crime. At Zimmerman’s trial, the +jury consisted of five white women and one woman of color. As I watched +the trial, I wondered which brand of white womanhood would prevail. +Would these women act out of their socially constructed fear of Black men in +hoodies or would they “transcend” race and identify with Sybrina Fulton, +Trayvon’s mother, in the unjust loss of her child? After jurors failed to + + convict Zimmerman on the grounds that he had the right to “stand his ground,” +it became clear that to the jurors, Trayvon Martin wasn’t Sybrina Fulton’s +baby boy. He was a walking embodiment of white women’s worst nightmare. +After the trial, Juror B-37, a white woman, gave an interview to Anderson +Cooper. Cooper asked the juror why Zimmerman might have found Trayvon +to be suspicious, and she responded: +He said he was looking in houses as he was walking down the road. +Kind of just not having a purpose to where he was going. He was +stopping and starting. But I mean, that’s George’s rendition of it, but I +think the situation where Trayvon got into him being late at night, dark +at night, raining, and anybody would think anybody walking down the +road stopping and turning and looking, if that’s exactly what happened, +is suspicious. And George said that he didn’t recognize who he was. +Note several things about the juror’s answer. She fully agreed with +George Zimmerman, that it was reasonable to see Trayvon Martin, a kid +walking home in the rain, talking on his phone, as suspicious. As she put it, +“anybody would think” this way. By anybody, she means any white body. +Even if that were true, the larger question is whether any of us would have +stopped, followed him, and then shot him to death after doing so. That is the +only question. The jurors put themselves fully in George Zimmerman’s shoes. +They could not find any empathy for the teenage boy walking home with +snacks. These women’s acquittal of Zimmerman suggested that their primary +social priority is white safety, even if it means authorizing lethal force +against Black folks who aren’t studying them or their white suburban lives in +the least. After the Zimmerman trial, white feminists did not call out these +jurors. During the trial they did not call on them to exercise integrity, check +their white privilege, or act from a place of empathy. White feminism has +worked hard to make the world safer for white women, but it has stridently +refused to call out the ways that white women’s sexuality and femininity is +used not just as a tool of patriarchy but also as a tool for the maintenance of +white supremacy. + + Less than two months before Donald Trump clinched the presidency, a +white police officer from Tulsa, Oklahoma, named Betty Shelby shot and +killed Terence Crutcher, a forty-year-old unarmed Black man, during a traffic +stop. When Shelby shot Crutcher, who was outside of his vehicle at her +request, his hands were in the air. As police helicopters covered the scene, +they could be heard saying that he looked like “a bad dude.” While Shelby’s +partner used his Taser to subdue Crutcher, who officers say wasn’t following +commands, Shelby pulled out her gun and shot him, hitting him in the lung. +Like many other white police officers who have killed unarmed Black +people, her only defense was “I feared for my life.” Her fear became a lethal +weapon against Terence Crutcher, who was carrying no weapons of his own. +Yet again, white feminists did not write think pieces or organize panels +asking their white sistren to interrogate the lethal and anti-Black +consequences of this “fear.” At trial, Betty Shelby was found not guilty of +manslaughter, and she went back to work for the Tulsa Police Department. +When Black men show out, Black feminists call that shit out. In fact, we +viciously dragged men and women in our own communities who tried to hold +on to Bill Cosby and The Cosby Show. Black folks of a certain generation +were hella resentful about being asked to give up watching such shows as an +act of solidarity. For those of us born before 1990, the Huxtables were the +first high-achieving, reasonably functional Black family that we got to see on +TV. For most of the seasons during which it aired, it was a top-ranked +sitcom. This meant that the Cosbys were a Black family that all Americans +could relate to. I loved the Huxtables, particularly the youngest daughter, +Rudy, who was near my age. But I gave them up, because after knowing of +Bill Cosby’s alleged crimes it was hard to watch him without remembering +that I was watching a violent monster. Black women have been some of Bill +Cosby’s most vocal critics. We didn’t just leave white women to fend for +themselves. We came and got our people. +When evidence surfaced that actor Nate Parker and his writing partner +and friend Jean Celestin were accused of running a train on a white woman +without her consent when they were in college, Black feminists expressed +outrage, boycotted Parker’s ironically titled film, The Birth of a Nation, and +demanded that he atone in a thoughtful way for any harm he might have + + caused this young woman, who eventually committed suicide. Parker and +Celestin were both tried for sexual assault. Parker was acquitted while +Celestin was initially found guilty. Later that verdict was thrown out. Parker +maintained his innocence, but Black women, who are disproportionately +victims of sexual assault, continued to empathize with the young woman and +to hold Parker’s and Celestin’s feet to the fire. Black feminists were roundly +blamed for the film being a flop in theaters. Still the position of Black +feminists remains clear: first, do no harm. +No comparable outrage emerges from white feminists when Black women +are under attack. Meanwhile, Black women pay a high price for our +commitment to feminism in a culture that reveres our men, precisely because +their extreme social vulnerability is on display. We are called divisive, manhating, combative, unfeminine. All the usual shit. Those of us who are +straight are often chastised for our outspokenness by being denied +partnership. White feminists often struggle to even conceptualize Black +female vulnerability, let alone to call out white men for harming Black +women. When the various forms of structural challenges that Black women +experience come to light, the response from white feminists is, more often +than not, anemic. +White women and Black men share a kind of narcissism that comes from +being viewed as the most vulnerable entities within their respective races. +Black people hesitate to call out Black men for male privilege because they +have experienced such devastation at the hands of a white supremacist +system. And white women frequently don’t recognize that though women are +oppressed around the world, whiteness elevates the value of their femininity +and allows them to get away with shit that women of color pay royally for. +Many Black men struggle to acknowledge that they experience male +privilege. Some years ago, an internet writer published a Black male +privilege checklist, modeled after Peggy McIntosh’s white privilege +checklist. Every time I have posted the Black male checklist, the level of +bellyaching, backtracking, minimizing, and obscuring that Black men do is +unmatched. Yes, it is true that Black men experience what famed Black +feminist theorist Patricia Hill Collins has called a “subjugated masculinity.” +This means, like I discussed about Mann and Bob, that they are frustrated + + patriarchs. For instance, only male privilege could make Barack Obama do +the shit he did around My Brother’s Keeper, a point I made previously. Only +male privilege could eclipse the struggles of Black girls out of the view of a +man who is a father to two daughters. +Perhaps the frustrated patriarch explanation can shed some light on why +the Bill Cosby case is so appalling. His copious alleged sexual assaults of +women play out a troubling script of a Black man obsessed with dominating +and subjugating white women. There is racialized sexism at play in Bill +Cosby’s apparent choice of victims. The desire to violate predominantly +white female victims at the height of the 1960s, when Cosby was one of the +most powerful and visible Black male stars, suggests that, if these charges +are true, his desire for power was tied uniquely to the ability to subjugate +white women. There was a full one-hundred-year period between the end of +slavery and the first allegations of Bill Cosby raping white women. That +means there was a one-hundred-year period between the emergence of a +narrative about dangerous Black male rapists and the instantiation of one +who was serial in his brutality. For one hundred years, Black men had never +gotten away with it. They were killed, mostly for rapes they didn’t commit. +A history with those contours, a Black masculinity shaped in a toxic stew +of white male rage and white-lady tears, might emerge with a perverted +notion of freedom. Yes, it is true that the Cosby case is so extreme that it +certainly does not reflect the everyday realities of most Black men. But most +white people aren’t members of the KKK, either. The most extreme versions +of a pathology often have much to teach us about the less extreme forms those +pathologies can take. If this were an episode of Criminal Minds, we could +perhaps admit that if it is true that Cosby assaulted all these women, then +white women became the target of his seething but sublimated Black male +rage. The desire to dominate and humiliate white women is a logical +extension of a racialized toxic masculinity, predicated on the idea that +freedom is synonymous with white patriarchy. And white patriarchy inheres +in both the dominating and the possessing of white women. Look, if it is true +that Cosby committed even a portion of these crimes, it’s not clear to me +whether his hatred of white women was because he really wanted to be with +one or because he simply despised what they had meant for the project of + + Black manhood. That kind of work is best left up to the psychoanalysts. What +I know is that rape is about power, and if a Black man has been serially +raping white women for nearly fifty years, this is a violent patriarchal form +of hitting back at white supremacy. +In 1968, Black Panther Party leader Eldridge Cleaver wrote an infamous +book called Soul On Ice, where he delved—scarily—into the psychosexual +politics of Black men’s relationships to white and Black women. He wrote, +“The white man made the Black woman the symbol of slavery and the white +woman the symbol of freedom. Every time I embrace a Black woman I’m +embracing slavery, and when I put my arms around a white woman, well, I’m +hugging freedom.… I will not be free until the day I can have a white woman +in my bed and a white man minds his own business. Until that day comes, my +entire existence is tainted, poisoned, and I will still be a slave—and so will +the white woman.” Thus, Cleaver concludes a few pages later, “I became a +rapist.” Infuriatingly, he recounts, “To refine my technique and modus +operandi, I started out by practicing on black girls in the ghetto … and when +I considered myself smooth enough, I crossed the tracks and sought out white +prey.” “Rape,” Cleaver argues, “was an insurrectionary act. It delighted me +that I was defying and trampling upon the white man’s law, upon his system +of values, and that I was defiling his women—and this point, I believe, was +the most satisfying to me because I was very resentful over the historical fact +of how the white man has used the black woman. I felt I was getting +revenge.” Does anyone else need a shower? +Now that you’re back, let’s talk about it. First, I know that many of you +reading this are wondering what the fifty-year-old sexist ramblings of a +racial madman have to do with racial and sexual attitudes today. Does the +phrase “Make America Great Again” mean anything to you? So much of the +racial animus that is shaping this current moment in American politics is a +relitigation of the 1950s and 1960s. Often, in the polling data that shaped the +Trump campaign, white Americans cited the 1950s as America’s best +decade. And perhaps the Leave It To Beaver years were really great—if you +were white! The civil rights movement was not yet in full swing. The +women’s liberation movement had not yet begun. White men ruled, and white +ladies looked pretty on TV. So going back to this moment is necessary to + + understand the kinds of racialized masculinity that white and Black men are +negotiating in this moment. Also, far too often, we think history doesn’t +matter, but half the time that I spend with Black men talking about feminism +makes me think I’m in some Black Power skit conjured up from 1973. +After reading Eldridge Cleaver’s psychotic rambling, Bill Cosby’s +alleged crimes make far more sense. Both men became the self-fulfilling +prophecies of white supremacy’s worst lies about Black male sexuality. +White folks needed monsters to justify their hatred, and white supremacy plus +patriarchy created just the kind of primordial stew that could bring forth such +creatures. We all have a political and ethical duty to reject the monsters +white supremacy created, but we can’t forget that white patriarchy itself is +the biggest bang of them all. There is also a more hurtful truth that Eldridge +Cleaver points us to in his frightening candor. He spoke of a deep-seated and +collective hatred among Black men for Black women. White women +represented freedom, while Black women represented slavery. Black women +were the literal site for the reproduction of slavery. +Part of the reason no one delved fully into the racial politics of Cosby’s +alleged sex crimes is because they point us back to a key source of enmity +between Black men and Black women, and Black women and white women +—they force us to ask questions about interracial relationships that we would +all rather shy away from speaking honestly about. But Ida B. Wells’s critique +of the sexual politics of racism shows us why interracial dating (between +white and Black people) and interracial rape are conversations that +intrinsically go together. Rape is tied to questions of power and consent, but +interracial dating is tied to questions of power and freedom. +I believe wholeheartedly in the right of all consenting adults to choose the +kinds of partnerships that are best for them, but I’m tired of the lie that +relationships and love are not political. The struggle of queer folks to build +families in the ways they desire demonstrate that love is political. I’m tired +of the lie that desire is a pure social category, unhampered by the politics of +race and gender. +Case in point: Jesse Williams, a biracial Black actor and one of the stars +and heartthrobs of Grey’s Anatomy, has a huge following among Black +women. At the 2016 BET Awards, Williams gave a speech that went viral + + after he won the Humanitarian Award. He affirmed the Black Lives Matter +movement, the many victims of police brutality, and the movement’s largely +female leadership. He also called out white cultural appropriation, saying, +“We’re done watching and waiting while this invention called ‘whiteness’ +uses and abuses us, burying black people out of sight and out of mind while +extracting our culture, our dollars, our entertainment like oil—black gold, +ghettoizing and demeaning our creations then stealing them, gentrifying our +genius and then trying us on like costumes before discarding our bodies like +rinds of strange fruit.” It was a perfect moment of a celebrity using his +platform for good. I’m not even into light-skinned men, but in that moment, +Jesse Williams was bae. +A few months later, Williams and his wife, whom he had saluted during +the speech, announced they were divorcing. Much like having a Black wife +had done wonders for Obama’s credibility with Black America, Jesse +Williams having a Black, regular-pretty, slightly thick and curvy wife also +made Black women love him more. But when divorce reports surfaced, some +tabloids suggested that Williams had been cheating with a white female +costar. Though those news reports were never confirmed, the mere thought of +it made Williams’s stock go down quickly among Black women. The divorce +we could understand. Marriage is hard. But the potential white girl—that +was damn-near unforgivable. For once, Williams represented a Black man +who had made it, who had great politics, and who had chosen a Black +woman for a life partner. To most Black women, that choice matters. +Often when Black men show a vocal preference for white women, and +Black women “feel some type of way about it,” as millennials like to say, we +are told that we are tripping over what is simply a matter of preference! My +good friend Dr. Yaba Blay often says, “There is a thin line between +preference and pathology.” When Black men evince a preference for dating +white women, solely or primarily, this crosses the line into the pathological. +Conversely, there are Black men who have sophisticated structural analyses +of white supremacy and of their oppressed conditions as Black men, but treat +their intimate choices through a faulty color-blind lens in which Black +women, in particular, are asked to view the whiteness of their choice of + + partner as merely incidental to a larger narrative of love that transcends +racial boundaries. This is bullshit. +I’m tired of Black men who are race men everywhere but in the bedroom. +I’m tired of Black men who buy into the lie that their choice of white female +partners shouldn’t concern anyone but them. That thinking is ahistorical. +Courtesy of white supremacy, Black women have always had to care whom +Black men were dating. Black and white people have never had the luxury of +apolitical romance. Yet, when Black women give either the overt or internal +eye roll to the polished (seemingly), got-it-together brother walking down the +street with the white chick on his arm, we are cast as bitter and angry. Maybe +we should just start admitting that we are angry at seeing some of our best +and brightest brothers choose white women for partners. There. I said it. +Because it is we, Black women, who labor under the historical narrative of +having our bodies cast as the unique and singular site for unfreedom. That’s a +heavy load to bear in a country that romanticizes freedom and justice for all. +Of course, we are resentful of brothers whose freedom dreams are +personified by the ability to date and fuck white women with ease. +I’m tired of meeting white women with no race analysis who marry Black +men and make these men feel like their race—their Blackness—is not a +primary thing that defines them. For many Black men, the best-case scenario +is that they can create a part of their lives where they are not solely defined +by Black manhood. The worst-case scenario is that they think white +womanhood is some kind of come-up from the abjection of Black +womanhood. +This is why I don’t have any problem with Black women who choose to +partner with people who are not Black. The logic of reverse racism won’t +work here, for any of you who were planning on trying it. In the chapter +“Love in a Hopeless Place,” I lay out the challenges that Black girls face in +trying to find partners. There is a real numbers problem that Black women +confront, even though they are the least likely to marry someone who isn’t +Black. This kind of racial loyalty often circumscribes Black women’s +intimate options in ways that cause us to be alone forever. Moreover, if +dating-site statistics are to be believed, Black women are the least likely of +any demographic (Latina and Asian women, white, Black, Latino, and Asian + + men) to receive responses to their dating profiles. This cultural and intimate +hatred of Black women is a feminist issue, one that all feminists, Black and +non-Black alike, should care about. +In Kate Weigand’s book Red Feminism, she tells a fascinating story about +Black women who participated in the Communist Party (CP) in the 1930s. In +1934, Black women organizers asked the Party leadership to outlaw +interracial marriages among members. Many of the Black men had married or +begun dating white women, but white men weren’t showing comparable +interest in dating or marrying Black women. The Party’s leadership +appointed Abner Berry, a Black party leader who was married to a white +woman, to deal with the crisis. In typical Black-man fashion, he called Black +women’s demands to outlaw interracial marriage “counterrevolutionary.” But +he did institute organizing sessions on the triple oppressions of race, class, +and gender that Black women faced. Apparently, the party members also +tried to teach white male communists how to dance so they would be more +comfortable approaching Black women at parties. +These are not new problems. In many ways, prospects in heterosexual +dating are far more dismal today than they were eighty years ago. But in the +1930s, radical left organizers framed Black women’s limited intimate +options as a structural problem. They didn’t fall into the neoliberal trap of +framing everything as a simple matter of individual choice. They also seemed +to understand that if they were going to use Black women’s labor to build +movements for social change, they had a responsibility to care about the +quality of Black women’s personal lives. We have far less clarity today +about the ways that Black women’s intimate lives, whether they are in +straight or queer partnerships, should be a part of our political frameworks. +I absolutely know that love doesn’t adhere to racial lines. (Even I have a +white-boys-who-could-get-it list.) But the choice of whom to love is +political. And if white feminists were honest, they would recognize that their +feminism actually does demand that they interrogate the political dimensions +of their intimate engagements. Those white women married to white men +overwhelmingly expressed their solidarity with Donald Trump, clearly +placing racial solidarity and agreement with white supremacy over any kind +of gender solidarity. Those white women who have partnered with Black + + men must reckon with what that choice means, in light of histories where +white women are cast as the stuff of which racial freedom dreams are made. +White women and, specifically, white feminists have to reckon with their +complicity and often full participation in this set of social narratives about +Black sexuality that has been exceedingly dangerous to the well-being of +Black lives. +A woke white feminism would recognize that even as they rebel against +the sexual strictures of white patriarchy, through movements to reclaim the +term “slut” and so forth, they have a duty to recognize that white men’s +desires to regulate their sexual lives is predicated not just on controlling +white women’s bodies, but also on criminalizing Black men and denigrating +Black women. The movement to defund Planned Parenthood, an organization +that provides critical health care to many poor women of color, has nothing +to do with the desire of white men on the right for Black and Latina women to +have more babies. Rather, these men seek to control reproduction itself +because they want to control the life possibilities of all women. So much of +right-leaning social policy in the 1980s and 1990s was predicated on white +men controlling white women’s bodies by uplifting the purity and sanctity of +white femininity and simultaneously maligning Black womanhood and Black +femininity. +I’ve already mentioned the way the term “welfare queens” has been used +on the right to summarily vilify Black women. But the idea of the “welfare +queen” is itself a myth, created for nefarious purposes. In 1976, Ronald +Reagan began telling stories about a completely fabricated group of system +abusers that he called “welfare queens.” He named a non-existent social +phenomenon based on a singular incident of abuse of welfare benefits by one +woman in Chicago in the 1970s. But white people who resented the racial +and class progress of the 1960s found a convenient target in hating allegedly +undeserving Black women, who all got subsumed under the category of +welfare queens. From the first time he deployed the term in his 1976 +presidential campaign, until 1996, when Bill Clinton passed his infamous +welfare reform bill, white male politicians on both the right and the semi-left +used cultural enmity toward Black women to mobilize a conservative +backlash against the 1960s. + + A decade later, two cases cemented the enduring power of the Black male +rapist myth from one hundred years earlier. In 1986, William Horton, a +prisoner who was serving a life sentence for robbery and murder in +Massachusetts, was allowed to participate in a weekend prison furlough +program. He failed to return, and ten months later raped and beat a white +woman from suburban Maryland while her husband was bound and gagged +and forced to listen. During the 1988 presidential race, the George H. W. +Bush campaign ran incendiary television ads that conveniently renamed +William Horton “Willie Horton” and cast him as a monster that liberal +Michael Dukakis, the Democratic nominee, had let out of jail. +A year later, a white woman was brutally raped and beaten in Central +Park, and five young Black and Latino men were arrested for the crime. After +more than a decade in jail, all five young men were exonerated by DNA +evidence. Donald Trump took out a full-page ad in 1989 in several New +York newspapers, including The New York Times, calling for New York to +bring back the death penalty so these young men could be executed. In 2014, +he called the $41 million settlement the five men were awarded “the heist of +the century.” One month before he was elected president, he doubled down in +a CNN interview, saying that the young men had all “admitted they were +guilty.” They were teenagers at the time, and their testimony had been +coerced. Moreover, DNA evidence correctly identified the actual perpetrator +of the crime back in 2002. In the interim years between their arrest and the +overturning of their convictions, the presumed guilt of the Central Park Five +contributed to a powerful narrative exploited by politicians on the right and +the left, everyone from Reagan to Bush I to Bill Clinton about the need to “get +tough on crime” and put away “Black male superpredators,” whom the +Clintons (both Bill and Hillary) argued began terrorizing communities at as +early as thirteen years of age. +With his 1994 crime bill and his 1996 welfare reform package, Clinton, +with the help of a Republican Congress, sounded a late-twentieth-century +death knell for Black social progress, all rooted in an insidious narrative +about the danger of Black sexuality—it turned Black men into rapists and +Black women into baby machines. In this narrative, white women were +everything Black women were not—socially responsible, well-behaved, + + marriageable. Therefore, they were the kind of women that Black men should +desire but of which they should never ever understand themselves to be +worthy. +The obsession with curtailing reproductive freedom in this country is +about forcing white women to be hyperproductive in service of reproducing +a white Republic. As of 2014, most children born in the United States are not +white. This important demographic shift has only heightened anxiety about +declining birth rates among white families. God, the right would have us +believe, wants America to remain white. The only way that can happen is for +heterosexual white people to keep getting married and reproducing. +When Ida B. Wells gave the written side eye to the white-girl tears of her +day, she was hoping that maybe by doing so, those folks listening could attune +their ear to the fervent cries of Black women being raped by white men all +over the country. But Wells learned something that every Black girl learns at +some point. When white girls cry, every other girl’s tears cease to matter. +However, what the Trump era has come to teach white women is that +uncritical solidarity with patriarchy is tantamount to sticking your head in a +lion’s mouth. Too many white women thought they could vote for Trump +while sticking everyone else with the consequences. In the battle over power, +when white men run the world, white-lady tears have diminishing returns. +This fact alone should inspire an army of white feminists to arm themselves +with boxes of Kleenex, march into the world of white women, and start doing +the painful work of trying to change their sisters’ minds. + + NEVER SCARED + +In the summer of 2008, The New Yorker featured a cover called “The Politics +of Fear.” The cover depicted an Afro-wearing, gun-toting Michelle Obama +and her husband, presidential candidate Barack Obama, clad in a turban, in +the Oval Office, engaging in a conspiratorial fist bump under a picture of +Osama Bin Laden. Created by Barry Blitt, the cover, according to the +magazine, sought to “satirize the use of scare tactics and misinformation in +the presidential election to derail Barack Obama’s campaign.” Americans on +the right expressed angst about whether Michelle Obama was a militant +Angry Black Woman and whether her husband, whose father had been +Muslim, was himself a sympathizer with those who erroneously used Islam to +justify terroristic acts. The cover was roundly condemned. Blitt had gambled +that coming face-to-face with their ugliest and most entrenched ideas about +the Obamas, about Black men and women, and about Muslims would force +American conservatives to realize the absurdity of these belief systems. It +did not. The cover seemed to reinscribe rather than to resist the stereotypes, +since it trusted that white Americans would be able to acknowledge their +own problematic assumptions about race. +In 2015, at her Tuskegee University commencement speech, Mrs. Obama +responded specifically to this cover, which she argued was rooted in the +“fears and misperceptions of others.” Those fears and misperceptions +brought up questions about her, such as “Was I too loud, or too angry or too +emasculating?” She said that the cover “knocked [her] back a bit,” and made +her wonder “just how are others seeing me?” The anti-Blackness at the heart +of white fear is predicated on a misrecognition of the humanity of Black + + people. Whether that misrecognition is willful or unwitting matters less than +its harmful outcomes. Impact matters more than intent. +Donald Trump is the logical extension of white America’s most fantastical +and distorted ideas about people of color and their power in the Americas. +Despite Barack Obama’s eventual wins in 2008 and 2012, the fear that Blitt +captured in his cover presaged a rise of populist resentment against the +Obamas specifically, and Blacks and Muslims in general, that would come +roaring back fiercely. In the 2016 elections, white fear ruled the day. Trump +used fear to prime the pumps of white American racial resentment by fanning +the flames of the birther myth against Barack Obama, claiming that Obama +was not a native-born American citizen. For years Trump stoked the fires of +the birther myth, continuing even after Canadian-born Ted Cruz became his +primary opposition in the 2016 Republican primaries. Donald Trump deftly +used the narrative of national belonging to make some groups, namely white +male voters (across class lines), feel visible, heard, and affirmed. All voters +should have access to candidates that make them feel recognized, but there’s +a problem when your notion of recognition is predicated on someone else’s +exclusion. There’s a problem when visibility becomes a zero-sum game, +where making one group’s demands visible renders every other group’s +political concerns obscure. Only white supremacy demands such exacting +and fatalistic math. +Trying to make sense of the 2016 election outcome, Toni Morrison named +the problem one of white fear. “The sad plight of grown white men, +crouching beneath their (better) selves, to slaughter the innocent during traffic +stops, to push black women’s faces into the dirt, to handcuff black children. +Only the frightened would do that. Right?” she inquires of us. “So scary are +the consequences of a collapse of white privilege that many Americans have +flocked to a political platform that supports and translates violence against +the defenseless as strength. These people are not so much angry as terrified, +with the kind of terror that makes knees tremble.” +I once read that the root of all anger is fear, particularly a fear of those +things we cannot control. White rage is deeply connected to a fear of losing +privilege and status in a browning American empire. When your entire +worldview is predicated on being on top, sinking from the top even a little + + bit can feel like an annihilation. My fluffy friends, those who have had many +more years of therapy than I have had, are quick to tell me that feelings and +emotions are not to be judged and that there are no right and wrong feelings. +Feelings just are. But I am as judgmental as I can possibly be of white fear. It +is an illegitimate political emotion that has done no good that I can think of, +and more harm than it is humanly possible to tally. To say it in terms that the +“all lives matter” crowd might understand, all fears matter, but some fears +are treated as though they matter more. +To be Black is to grow up in a world where white feelings can become +dangerous weapons. If you’re Black, white fear is frequently lethal. I’m +willing to concede my skepticism toward feelings as a potential personality +flaw, but my approach to life is to view feelings as employees that can’t be +trusted—which is to say, my feelings are subject to intense +micromanagement. I have to be clear about how I want my feelings to work +for me. I set up strict parameters and rules about how they should be +engaged, the lines they can’t cross, and I am quick to put my feelings in a time +out when I feel they are getting out of hand. Frankly, I resent others who +allow their feelings to roam around unmanaged, demanding everybody’s +attention. +My feelings, for their part, go on strike against me all the time, showing up +with picket signs that scream truths I’d rather not hear, all while demanding +that I renegotiate terms. But if you are Black and hope to live to adulthood, +micromanaging your feelings is necessary for survival. Your feelings can’t go +on strike in the workplace. You can’t karate chop every white retail service +person who follows you around a store, is rude to you on the phone, or takes +their good sweet time bringing your food to the table. You also can’t karate +chop the well-meaning white friend who moves to reassure you that “it +wasn’t racial. Clearly they’re just jerks.” +I think I am a micromanager of feelings because my Black mama didn’t +play that. Pouting, angry tears, and back talk were strictly not allowed in our +house. The image of children stomping up the stairs and slamming doors after +getting mad at their parents was some shit reserved for white families on TV. +I was convinced as a child that if I ever tried such a thing in my mother’s +house, she already had a burial site picked out for me. Always sensitive and + + quick to cry after being scolded, I tried mightily to hold back tears lest I hear +my mother saying, “Suck up all that crying before I really give you something +to cry about.” Unlike many Black children in my community, my mother +wasn’t fond of giving whippings. Those were few and far between for me. +But the specter of the switch or the belt was always there—for me and for +every Black kid I knew. That was what my community understood good +parenting to be. Unmanaged emotions were one swift way to arrange a +summit for your rear end and the belt. No one had time for my intense Blackgirl emotions. +Black children learn early that our fears are not, and cannot be, the first +order of business in a family trying to survive. When I was seven, and +starting the third grade, my mother asked me one day, “If I get you a key to the +house, do you feel like you can come home on the bus after school every day +and stay by yourself until I get home from work?” “No,” I told her, “I would +just like to keep going to daycare.” The look on my mom’s face, a mix of +disappointment, distress, and a bit of disdain, told me that “No” had not been +the right answer. It wasn’t really a question. +Skyrocketing childcare costs continue to disadvantage Black families, +particularly in households like mine, headed by a single breadwinner mother. +According to the Institute for Women’s Policy Research, 60.9 percent of all +Black families are headed by a single mother who is the breadwinner for the +family. Another 20 percent of Black households rely on a married mother as +the breadwinner. In every state in the United States, there are more single +than married Black mothers. In every state in the United States, there are +more married white mothers than single ones. In twenty-four states, the cost +of childcare exceeds the cost of rent, and in many states the cost of childcare +exceeds the 10 percent income-affordability threshold established by federal +agencies. In my hometown, childcare currently costs 8 percent of a family’s +budget, that is, if they make enough to meet cost-of-living standards. And if +you live in a big city, forget about it. In the 1980s, my mother was an hourly +employee for a local construction firm. Childcare costs surely exceeded the +affordability threshold. +At age seven, my latchkey status became official. I was just going to have +to “be a big girl,” get over my fear of monsters in the closet and boogie men + + under the bed, and do my mama a solid. To manage both our fears, my mother +insisted that I call her as soon as I walked into the house and closed and +locked the door behind me. I was not allowed to go outside until she came +home. And when darkness came earlier and earlier at the end of each fall, I +would turn on all the lights, walk into all the rooms, and make sure no one +who shouldn’t be there was there. I don’t know if latchkey adulthood is a +thing, but since I have lived alone for the entirety of my adult life, I do often +still turn on all the lights when I arrive home and walk into all the rooms to +make sure there are no intruders. Part of what being a latchkey kid taught me +is that overcoming fear is first and foremost about having the courage to look +under the bed. +Black girls learn that managing our fears is the key to our families’ ability +to survive and thrive. At the beginning of third grade, I conquered my fear of +being home alone for the greater good of my family. By the beginning of +fourth grade, my mother had saved enough even on her limited income to +purchase a modest ranch-style home for the two of us. She didn’t tell me then, +but perhaps this was the plan all along. Either her money could go to +childcare, or it could go toward an investment in our future. Nearly thirty +years after my mother was making these kinds of choices, working moms of +color too often still have to choose between housing security and child care. +In order for my mother’s plan to work, I had to do my seven-year-old-Blackgirl part and refuse to let whatever boogie monsters were under my bed not +have the final say. What might it mean to start from the perspective of a Black +girl’s fears and build a world that is safe for her? In hindsight, I can see the +material difference it made when I agreed with my mom that I was “big girl” +enough to stay home. No matter who you are, the stakes of giving in to your +fears are high. +One of my Sunday school teachers told us that F.E.A.R.s are just +“fantasies, expecting a reality.” Years later, a different teacher told us that +fears are just “false expectations appearing real.” Black Christianity +demands that we regularly confront our fears and identify the falsities that +shape them. From childhood forward, you are told to memorize the words of +2 Timothy 1:7: “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of +love, and of a sound mind.” This verse was to be kept in the spiritual arsenal + + for moments when anxiety and fear began to encroach on your sense of peace. +When you felt anxious, you were supposed to speak back to your fears, +reminding them that fear does not come from a divine place. We were +learning that our fears, like our feelings in general, were not facts. No matter +the clever acronym, fear was rooted in falsity and fantasy. Fear was always a +thing to be managed by increasing our faith. +In fact, I do believe fear and faith can coexist. But what I appreciate is +that the Black Church demands a continual reckoning with what is true and +what is false. Often religious traditions, invested as they are in what many +think of as the mythic and fantastical, are not given credit for being invested +in anything real. But the Black Church is one of the historic structuring +institutions for the social life of Black people, and it has always known that +part of Black survival is about having the best tools to assess what is and is +not a real threat. In other words, the Black Church doesn’t have the luxury of +acting like white supremacy, sexism, and homophobia aren’t real. These +structural forces take Black lives every day, sometimes through violent +deaths, sometimes after a lifetime of privation. Because of the commitment of +Black churches to running food pantries and tax workshops for the elderly +and trying to meet the needs of impoverished folks in their local +communities, they know well that some of the material realities Black people +face are scary. As I said in the “Grown Woman Theology” chapter, churches +have an exceedingly long way to go in combating matters of homophobia and +sexism. And, frankly, modern-day Black churches also have to reckon with +all the ways in which they have walked away from the clarity of King’s +generation about the role the church should play in ending white supremacy. +Still, it was at church that I learned how to have a healthy relationship with +my fears, anxieties, and fantasies. +White fear is not subject to any such cultural or religious scrutiny. In fact, +white fears are routinely treated as fact rather than fantasy. When the police +shot John Crawford in August 2014 in a Walmart in Beavercreek, Ohio, those +who called 911 said he was walking around the store pointing the gun at +people. Later the man who made that call retracted his statement, but his +retraction came too late. Video footage confirms that John Crawford simply +perched the air rifle, which he had picked up at the store, on his shoulder as + + he shopped. In this instance, white fear of the fantastical threat of Black men +caused the police to take John Crawford’s life. Three months later, two +police officers rolled up on and shot Tamir Rice, a twelve-year-old kid +playing with a toy gun in a park near his neighborhood. The cops who shot +Tamir without even giving him a chance to put down the gun or identify it as +a toy claimed to have feared for their lives. None of these officers was +charged and convicted; their fears were treated as facts. In other words, +white fears rest on the presumption that they are rooted in fact; everyone who +is nonwhite is treated as though their fears are the stuff of fantasy. +In April 2017, a Texas police officer shot and killed fifteen-year-old +Jordan Edwards as he and his brothers were frantically driving away from a +party where other young people had started shooting. That officer, Roy +Oliver, was fired and charged with murder. He subsequently pled not guilty. +But Jordan Edwards is still dead. Fear—over having your life or a loved +one’s life snatched away by those sworn to protect and serve—is at least one +of the emotions that animates the cry of “Black Lives Matter.” Most white +people fixate on the anger and rage that feels palpable at Black Lives Matter +protests. They view this rage with a studied indifference and a willful +ignorance that is about not seeing or validating Black people’s fear and right +to be afraid. In the era of Fox News and fake news, the Black Lives Matter +movement has been branded a “hate group” on par with the Ku Klux Klan. +One online interlocutor characterized the political program of BLM as a +desire for “Black supremacy.” Black supremacy is not a thing, if you were +wondering. But the same folks who believe in the possibility of Black +supremacy also have a problem with Black Entertainment Television, Black +History Month, and T-shirts that proclaim that Black Girls Rock. I refuse to +spend my time trying to help these kinds of basic-ass white people. +White fear is the cultural refuse of white supremacy. Strewn about and +never properly disposed of, it becomes an environmental hazard for those of +us who must live in the neighborhoods (metaphoric and otherwise) where +white folks choose to dump all their shit. If I’m being generous (and I’m not +required to be generous), I can understand why shifting power relations in a +world where white folks have always been unequivocally dominant could +have them all in their feelings. The problem is that, with the exception of + + former president Barack Obama and a few well-placed Black millionaires +and billionaires, Black people don’t have any appreciable levels of +institutional power. The U.S. Senate currently has three Black senators. +That’s the most it’s ever had, and we are nearly two decades into the twentyfirst century. In 2013, the median net wealth for white families was over +$141,000. For Black families, it was $11,000. According to a joint study by +the Institute for Policy Studies and the Corporation for Enterprise +Development, it would take Black people 228 years to catch up to the amount +of net wealth that white people currently possess. White people fear a +fantastical rise of racial power that they have made damn-near structurally +impossible for Black people to achieve. +Letting fear rule is dangerous if you’re a regular person. If you have levels +of privilege and power unmatched in the modern world, being ruled by fear +is catastrophic for those with less power than you. Fear of Black people is +one of the grandest delusions of white supremacy. It’s the reason why even +police officers of color—Black, Asian, and Latino—are often quick on the +trigger when they are policing Black men. In Charlotte, North Carolina, on +September 20, 2016, a Black officer shot Keith Lamont Scott as he was +sitting in his car waiting on his grandchild to get off the school bus. The +officer said Scott looked suspicious and that he feared for his life. Scott had +no weapon. A Latino officer shot Philando Castile. White fear of Black +people is not limited to white Americans. It is rooted in the ideology of white +supremacy, a virus that infects us all. That Black lives are at the mercy of +those emboldened and sanctioned by the state to enact the worst of their +fantasies upon us is enough to make us lose faith in the whole damn system. +Curiosity is often the first casualty of the politics of fear. Sometimes the +things we fear most are our questions. More specifically, we fear the +questions to which we don’t have answers. When we are afraid, we stop +asking questions and start seeking short-term solutions. The work of my +hands is the work of teaching students how to ask more and better questions. +It is the work of rescuing curiosity from the clutches of fear. What kind of +world can (white) fear really create? What is the end game of white +supremacy? And what would it mean to start from the fears of the +marginalized and build a world that is safe for them? + + Though I grew up in a religious household, my mother and stepfather +encouraged my questions. But I was so obsessed with getting the right answer +that often my natural skepticism took a back seat to my overachiever +impulses. Having a carefully ordered world is important for working-class +Black girls trying to make it out of the neighborhood and on to bigger and +better. And sometimes the hood and the structures that beget it don’t make +time for Black kids with questions. At some point, it became more important +to me to pass the tests, get the right SAT scores, write perfect literary +analyses of novels, and produce scholarship-winning essays for college than +to nurture my endless curiosity. +It was years of extended access to the classroom that helped me overcome +my fear of asking questions. If we cannot or will not ask questions, then we +are far, far from the path to freedom. Orderly knowledge systems appeal to +that part of me that is always seeking a clear and linear path forward. But, of +course, life is not given to linearity. I already told y’all that I’m a +micromanager of emotions, and sometimes our questions show up in the form +of feelings. Part of learning to manage our feelings is learning to confront our +questions. +One way that we’ve seen questions arrive in the form of feelings is in the +generalized white anxiety and distrust of President Obama. Rather than +digging deep to find the question at the core of the anxiety, too many white +people let the feeling become an indicator of Obama’s fitness and right to +lead. The question—“Can I, a white person, trust a Black man to lead this +country?”—was left unasked by too many. There are also liberal white folks +who went into the voting booth believing they could. But they stopped after +asking the question one time. Voting once or even twice for a Black man is +not enough to undo years of anti-Black social conditioning. Fear and feelings, +especially about racism, have to be managed constantly. White supremacy +does not fall through singular acts of white resistance and magnanimity. +There are assuredly people who voted for Obama in 2008 and then voted for +Trump in 2016. This is because their support for Obama was predicated on +him emerging as some sort of Magical Black Jesus figure. When he couldn’t +meet such ridiculous expectations, many white folks returned to their comfort +zone. + + Every time I write about the emotional lives of white people, some white +person sends me an email or a tweet and tells me, “How dare you act like +you know what white folks are thinking?!” Haven’t white folks learned that +Black folks know them far better than they know themselves? Our survival is +predicated on our willingness to study you, your impulses, your hard +expressions, your laughter (and whether it reaches your eyes), your gifts, and +your lies. Black survival means being endlessly obsessed with figuring out +the depths to which white folks will fall to maintain a position of dominance. +Sometimes Black survival requires that we be the wet nurses and +handmaidens for an endless project of white navel-gazing. In order to save +our own lives, we have to be brutally honest about what the worst of white +folks, as Kiese Laymon calls them, are capable of, even if no one else will. +Politicians on the right know that the kind of work we do in college +classrooms—the work of inquiry and deep questioning, the work of nurturing +curiosity, the work of exposing the myths and fantasies that inform students’ +fears—can create an informed and powerful citizenry. The students who sit +in college classrooms like mine today can become powerful leaders in the +fight against racism, sexism, and homophobia two decades from now. +Politicians seek to quash all possibility of this kind of work. Recently I found +out that I had been placed on a “professor watchlist” for a national nonprofit +organization whose mission is to remove “liberal bias” from the college +classroom. What they mean by “liberal bias” is that they don’t want a Black +woman standing in a classroom, teaching college students that racism is real, +sexism is a problem, homophobia is repugnant, and capitalism and the elitism +it begets are worthy of our deepest skepticism. This is not knowledge, they +say. It’s my “racial agenda” governing how I run my classroom. By letting me +know that they are watching me, they are hoping to scare me. But this is why +I’m “never scared,” as we say in the crunk South. This doesn’t mean I’m +never afraid. Being never scared has a cultural inflection to it that is about +defiance, and about a refusal to be cowed into submission. To be black is to +know you are being watched—at all times—anyway. +This is, in fact, the conundrum of being a Black woman in the academy; +that we are simultaneously hypervisible and invisible. Patricia Hill Collins +once called the constant surveillance that attends to our movement in the + + ivory tower the politics of containment. Being under the presence of the +white gaze is supposed to elicit different behavior from me—namely to +curtail whatever illicit behaviors that I am automatically presumed to be +engaging in. Moving through the world as though under the constant gaze of +white folks is something Black people with middle-class aspirations are +taught from a young age to perfect. To repeat part two of the Respectables’ +Credo: “Never let them catch you slippin’.” Be perfect. Never fuck up. +And my response is, “Fuck all that.” Sometimes you have to have the +clarity that Ida B. Wells had when she told white people the truth about +themselves and their lynching lies. She knew she was poking the hornet’s +nest, but it was a “Give me liberty or give me death” moment. Now, look. +Any given day in my college classroom is never that dramatic. Mostly I don’t +go in thinking my life is on the line. But with the uptick in open-carry permits +on college campuses, and white men’s penchant for taking out their anger, +frustration, entitlement, and anxiety on innocent bystanders, the stakes of +telling the truth are becoming higher and higher. Right-wing organizations are +not above using threats and intimidation to corral and suffocate modes of +knowledge production that challenge the politics of fear. They insist that I be +scared. But what they don’t know is that I’ve been slaying boogie men since +age seven. White folks are not entitled to my fear. +When I was in graduate school, it was customary that when Black students +ran into each other on our predominantly white Southern campus, we would +stop, embrace, and chat it up, so happy were we to see other friendly Black +faces in what could sometimes be a hostile environment. But, frequently, if +there were more than three of us together, white faculty or students might +walk by and passive-aggressively say, “Oh what are y’all over here doing? +Plotting the revolution?” Our running joke whenever more than three of us +were gathered was to yell, “Disperse, disperse! You know they can’t handle +it.” The joke was that we kept right on talking, out in the open, even though +we knew we were conspicuous. It was our way of giving a middle finger to +our very real fear of institutional surveillance and containment. +There is something deeply profane about the politics of white fear and, for +this reason, the sacred is not the only register in which Black folks should +respond to it. Because fear is an emotion viscerally experienced in the body, + + Black expressive culture that engages the body is one of the places where we +work out shit that we can’t make sense of any other way. Southern bootyshake music, the kind of stuff you can twerk to, is the place where I find the +most productive synergy between the sacred and the profane, the place where +I feel the most bodily freedom to let all my emotions—particularly the +uncomfortable ones like anger and fear—hang out and find free expression. +In both the Blues and Southern Hip Hop, Black folks have explicitly thrown +off the vestiges of respectability politics to say the shit that needs to be said. +But I’m a child of Hip Hop, not the Blues, and when I need to work out my +feelings in a bodily fashion, it is to Hip Hop that I turn, to Crunk to be exact. +Crunk music, that brand of Hip Hop indigenous to Atlanta, and to the +South more generally, gives me the lyrical and bodily vocabulary to stand up +to our collective cultural bullies with my middle fingers up. Whether it’s the +Youngbloodz yelling, “If you don’t give a damn, we don’t give a FUCK!” or +Bone Crusher reminding his foes that he “ain’t never scared,” crunkness has +always been the soundtrack to my resistance. It has kept me supplied in the +lyrical defiance necessary to look white supremacy in the face and emerge +victorious. +Rejecting the politics of fear is a primary sensibility if you were born into +the Age of Hip Hop. This has been true ever since rap group N.W.A became +famous and targeted for their song “Fuck Tha Police.” Defiant and unafraid, +these young men rapped about being regular victims of police harassment and +brutality and they rejected the politics of deference that many police feel is +compulsory. Refusing to be nice to an officer, especially when he pulls you +over on a ludicrous charge is not, in fact, against the law. Incivility is not +illegal. The police know that, which is why they are jerks to Black citizens +on the regular. I was only seven years old when N.W.A told the police +exactly what they thought of them; thus, I was a little young to need or +resonate with their defiant sensibility. Nearly thirty years after N.W.A +became our generational prophets of Black rage, these same rage-inducing +conditions persist. +This is why grown-ass Black women need Beyoncé. With me, it always +comes back to Beyoncé. While her pop anthems gave me all the feminist +good feelings in my twenties, Grown Woman Beyoncé, the Beyoncé that has + + emerged since her 2013 eponymous album, is on something different. Like I +mentioned before, Black feminists had all the feelings about Bey telling +bitches to “bow down” on her song “Flawless.” But every time I think about +this Trump presidency, about the magnitude of the destruction it is heaping on +communities of color, I’m grateful for every angry anthem Bey ever made. +This kind of give-no-fucks anthem has been put here for such a prophetic time +as this—a time in which white supremacists feel bold enough to try it. And +because my personal mantra has long been “Be unapologetic,” I can be found +on any given day twerking (or trying my damnedest to twerk) to “I Ain’t +Sorry,” one of my favorite tracks on her blockbuster visual album Lemonade. +“Formation,” the debut track on Lemonade, is an invitation to a Black-girl +conjuring session. In the song, the High Priestess of Hip Hop Culture tells us, +“Okay ladies. Now, let’s get in formation.” She is calling us into very +particular formations—the kinds of collective gatherings that can shift the +culture, that can combat white supremacy, and sexism, and homophobia, the +kinds of spaces that can use Black-girl magic to change the world. When +Beyoncé tells all the fly chicks to get in formation, she is asking us to get our +shit together so we can do the work that needs to be done. And the stakes are +high as hell, because Black people are being killed. So, she reminds us, +“Slay, trick. Or you get eliminated.” Now that might be a reference to some +kind of dance competition. But it’s also a revision of “Never let them catch +you slippin’.” Be the best. Be exceptional. Or get eliminated. +The video for “Formation” pays homage to post-Katrina New Orleans and +ends with Bey using the weight of her body to sink a New Orleans police +cruiser into the flood’s waters. Putting middle fingers up to the state that +incarcerates the most people per capita anywhere on the globe, and including +an image of a Black boy dancing for his life while staring down a line of +police in riot gear, is a bold fuck-you to the forces that seek to snuff out +Black lives. I fucks with Grown Woman Beyoncé, even more than I fucked +with her during my girlhood, because Lemonade gives us a portrait of a +Black woman reckoning with her rage, in both its intimate and its structural +dimensions. +But I also love the political vision that emerges from the visual album that +accompanies Lemonade. That political vision centers its hope in the + + collective magic, the indefatigable stamina, and the enduring power of Black +women and girls. When Beyoncé used her own body to sink that police +cruiser, she reminded us of all the ways Black women are willing to put their +lives on the line to combat state violence. The sacrifices that Black women +and girls make create more opportunities and possibilities for our +communities. Getting into formation with other like-minded folks is one way +we can help our fears not to win. In those formations, we can find joy, +support, and strategies to help us overcome. When Black girls get in +formation, the nation should follow. + + LOVE IN A HOPELESS PLACE + +My grandmother had this way of beginning conversations with me in the +middle. Perhaps you figured that out from the impromptu sex talk. She’d start +conversations with an accusation. On the regular, she told me, “You need to +stop being so mean! Then you could get a boyfriend!” After saying this, she’d +cut her roaming eyes at me, scolding, assessing, and reading me. It was as +though she had been waiting on an opportunity to tell me about myself. Who +says my goal in life is to get a boyfriend, Grandmama?! And if by “mean,” +you mean “serious,” about my business, and inhospitable to bullshit, well, +wonder where I got that from?! Fuming internally, I just shook my head, +frustrated at this unsolicited intrusion and unwelcome advice. How could I +tell Grandmama that my lack of a boyfriend wasn’t because of a lack of +desire on my part? From what I could ascertain, absolutely nobody wanted +me. She started these conversations with me during my vacations home from +college, which was just about the same time I realized that education and +smarts weren’t necessarily a pathway to finding a bae. +My grandmama had never understood why I wanted to go thousands of +miles away, “upstate” as Southerners call it, to college. “Stop studyin’ +yourself!” she’d admonish every time she caught seven- or eight-year-old me +zoned out in a world of my own thoughts. “All those books gone run ya +crazy,” she’d pronounce emphatically. Maybe she was right. My love for +books had taken me miles and miles away. To the world of beautiful Black +boys at Howard. I wasn’t the first in my family to attend college, but my goal +was to be the first to graduate. That meant I had to keep my head in the books +and my legs closed. Neither my mother nor my grandmother ever preached + + such a sermon to me. But they didn’t have to. Ambition was its own +motivation. I couldn’t let knuckleheaded boys come along and ruin my life +chances. At least, this is what I told myself. But staying in the books and then +later focusing on my career wasn’t in the least bit hard when literally no one +was trying to date me. +How could I tell my grandmother that? That I didn’t have half the swag +she’d apparently had at my age. That brothers didn’t want me. And that it +wasn’t a figment of my imagination. On two separate occasions at Howard, +first with King and then with Rob, classmates had looked me in my face and +said, “You’re so unattractive.” I had dared on both occasions to beat each of +them in an argument. When they were left without anything of substance to +say, they both did what men learn to do when they can’t dominate a woman +intellectually—they berate her physically. But I wasn’t a feminist yet. I didn’t +know then that this is one way patriarchy shows up. I cried in front of Rob, +despite myself, which only made him despise me more. By the time it +happened with King, I was less taken aback. Still, I had been humiliated by +two men who figured out the easiest way to rob me of my sense of victory. +They made me feel unlovable. +I hadn’t wanted either of them and had cared little about their romantic +assessments of me. Still, I winced upon learning that being smart had made +me ugly to them. They were willing to say it, but I wondered what other +romantic suitors had come to similar conclusions. Just how undesirable was +I? Maybe this is why college had been a romantic drought for me. Maybe I +was what the Combahee River Collective called smart-ugly: “We discovered +that all of us, because we were ‘smart’ had also been considered ‘ugly,’ i.e., +‘smart-ugly.’ ‘Smart-ugly’ crystallized the way in which most of us had been +forced to develop our intellects at great cost to our ‘social’ lives. The +sanctions in the Black and white communities against Black women thinkers +is comparatively much higher than for white women, particularly ones from +the educated middle and upper classes.” The women of Combahee put a +language to the way that patriarchy and the men who love it separate women +into categories of smart and pretty. Or friendable and fuckable. The girls who +manage to be the perfect combination of both have access to some juju that I +still haven’t figured out. + + On another occasion, a guy friend asked me one night while we were +working on a campus project, “Brittney, why don’t you have a boyfriend?” +He had a girlfriend, so I knew this wasn’t some awkward roundabout attempt +of his to kick it to me. I sat, searching for an answer but coming up with none. +Really, I wanted to reply, “I don’t know. Can you tell me why?” It was an +odd question, one that I didn’t have an answer for then, one that I don’t have +an answer for now. That question haunted me, for the rest of college, for the +entirety of my twenties, and for a good portion of my thirties. +What is wrong with me? +My grandmother said I was too mean, but surely some of my overly +serious demeanor was a mask, an armor designed to keep men from seeing +my innermost feelings. How could I take off the armor when there were no +guarantees that men would recognize and, more to the point, want the real +me? And what was wrong with being a woman who preferred the company +of her own thoughts much of the time? On plenty of occasions, men, white +and Black alike, have yelled at me to “Smile!” when they catch me going +about my day zoned off in my own world. Grandmama had tried to warn me +from childhood that “studyin’ myself” would cause trouble. But I didn’t +listen, never making the connection that such practices made me seem like the +stereotype—angry and unapproachable. It mattered less that white folks think +unsmiling Black women are plotting the revolution. I revel in denying them +smiles. But it felt costly to know that brothers were using similar assessments +—that women who weren’t smiling were women who had no interest in +romance. Simpletons. Or, as we might call such brothers today, basics. +Grandmama began sounding the alarm about my singleness long before the +rest of the family did. But when I hit age thirty with no appreciable +prospects, the Cooper women staged an intervention. During Christmas, both +my mother and my aunt Colleen pulled me to the side—separately—to say, +“You’re so hard on men.” Apparently, they’d seen one too many a feminist +rant on Facebook. Face hot with indignation, I looked at them both pointedly, +and said, “This is the woman you raised me to be.” “I know,” they both told +me, in conversations that echoed each other so much I wondered if they had +planned it. Despite their fierce investments in being independent, none of +these women who raised me had ever struggled with getting or keeping a + + man. Their critiques made it seem as if I had learned all the wrong things +from them. There was an art to “letting a man be a man” and not making him +feel intimidated, my mother told me, as she recounted strategies for how to +date a man who made less money while not offending his ego. Who has time? +Or, better yet, interest? At what point is it fair to ask men to act like grown +human beings? +But there is no one more insistent than a mother with a grandbaby agenda. +Despite the fact that I have arranged my whole life so that I don’t “end up” a +single mother like my mother was for most of my life, her current refrain has +become, “You could have a baby. You don’t have to get married.” What is +this blasphemy that my good Christian, pastor’s wife of a mother is speaking? +With every rant she reads on my Facebook page about how brothers need to +decolonize their minds, divest from the patriarchy, and cease and desist with +the bullshit, my mother can feel her future grandmother status slipping from +her grasp, all of it going the way of the few viable eggs that my post-thirtyfive body has left. My aunt, on the other hand, the one who has remained +single by choice for her entire life, wants me to be lucky in love and to have +a partner to go on adventures with. Her partner looks slightly like radio host +Tom Joyner and drives a Mercedes convertible. These two perpetual +teenagers use this fact to aid and abet their entrance to all the grown-andsexy post-fifty parties that they go to around town. +If I could loosen up and stop being so mean and ornery, which is +Southern-speak for one who takes herself way too seriously, then maybe men +could warm up to my charms. All the Cooper ladies mean well, but, on +feminist principle, I have to reject any advice that blames sisters for the lack +of partnering options. So if it ain’t our fault, then whose fault is this shitty +state of affairs? +Real talk? I blame Bill Clinton. +I mentioned earlier that some of the baggage Black women carry has to do +with the devastating moment when we realize how much our choices around +love and marriage are limited by a fucked-up set of social circumstances. I +blame Bill Clinton for those social circumstances, and let me tell you why. It +is his two terms in office that are most singularly responsible for the +structural devastation of Black intimacy and the piss-poor state of Black + + love, generally, among all of us born after 1980. The presidential election of +2016 became a referendum on Hillary Clinton’s support of the Violent Crime +Control and Law Enforcement Act of 1994, which her husband signed into +law during his first term as president. At the time, Hillary championed her +husband’s tough-on-crime legislation, parroting an upsurge in rhetoric about +the rise of a class of teenage “superpredators.” Criminologist John DiIulio, +who, at that time, taught at Princeton, began arguing that given skyrocketing +rates of violent crimes committed by teens between the mid-1980s and the +mid-1990s, the country had a problem on its hands. The number of young +Blacks and Latinos would continue to grow, and with them a crime problem +the likes of which the country had never seen. Lawmakers concluded that the +solution was to lock them up. +When Bill Clinton signed the 1994 crime bill into law, effecting policy at +the federal level, it created a ferment of tough-on-crime policies in forty-five +states. The crime bill also funded massive increases in police officers across +the country. Most striking were laws that allowed juveniles to be tried as +adults for violent crimes, and laws that allowed juvenile offenders to receive +automatic life sentences for certain crimes. +Moreover, this rhetoric about violent Black male teenagers shaped the +social context of my Black male counterparts during our adolescent years. +Black boys were being expelled at higher rates than their white male +counterparts. Today, Black school-age boys are expelled three times as often +as white school-age boys. And black boys in the late nineties were part of the +first major wave of the school-to-prison pipeline in which schools pursued +zero-tolerance policies for fighting. This meant that Black youth were +frequently suspended or expelled and sometimes arrested either for fighting +or for truancy. Black male teenagers, boys who were not yet men, became +bona fide enemies of the state, the primary targets in law enforcement’s war +on drugs and crime. The war on Black boys and men was not new. But it +reached a fever pitch just as my generation was coming of age. +In the many years since, none of DiIulio’s predictions have come true. He +and other white male criminologists stoked the most base fears of white +America, and his erroneous conclusions devastated the social, economic, and +intimate prospects of a whole generation of Black folks—my generation of + + Black folks. These crime policies took greatest effect just as people born in +the late 1970s and early 1980s began reaching adolescence and young +adulthood. Late Gen Xers, cusp Millennials or “Xennials” (like myself), and +Millennials proper began to use the language of Black men as an +“endangered species” to name the epidemic levels of casualty and outmigration of Black men into prisons that we witnessed. We believed the myth +that there were more Black men in jail than in college. There never were, but +the numbers were always far too close for comfort. And, of course, there +were more Black women than Black men in college. Howard’s ratio in the +early 2000s was 3:2, and that was pretty good among college populations. +These days, DiIulio is notably repentant, having admitted to being wrong. +Now he spends a great deal of time trying to help the very communities that +were hurt by the whack social science that he used to swear by. Twenty years +later, it amounts, for him, to a heavy, if sincere, shoulder shrug. For those of +us young Black people who weathered the storm, the consequences have +been far more severe, far more sinister. I have spent many a Christmas +holiday traveling to even smaller rural areas of Louisiana than the one I grew +up in to visit the many men in my family who have been victimized by the +politics of mass incarceration. I have watched them attempt to father +children, to maintain partnerships, and to hold on to hope from behind bars. I +have seen the endless cotton fields that they spend their days gazing out upon, +in the Podunk backwoods of Louisiana, much like the view that many of our +ancestors must have gazed upon 150 or more years ago. And, for those of us +making life go on while critical parts of our family units were locked away, I +have watched children spiral and struggle, and partners keep vigil, and +mothers labor on makeshift altars in prayer, waiting on men they love to +come home. +I have also been forced to play a numbers game in the name of love that +has increasingly diminished returns for every year that you don’t win. And by +winning, I mean finding someone to spend your life with. I wish I were +mature enough, feminist enough, not to think of marriage or the securing of +lifelong partnership as a win, or of the absence of these things as a loss, but I +do. Despite myself. Sometimes I run the numbers in my head, but this, too, is +a double-edged sword. When I see the abysmal state of Black love by the + + numbers, it’s hard to blame myself, but it’s hard to have any sense of hope +either. +Only 49 percent of Black women with college degrees marry men with +some post-secondary education. Fifty-eight percent of married Black women +college graduates marry men with an overall lower level of education than +they have. Moreover, more than 60 percent of Black women college +graduates between the ages of twenty-five and thirty-five, peak childbearing +years, have never been married. Compare that number with a mere 38 +percent of white women for whom this is true. +According to the Pew Research Center, 36 percent of all Black folks +above the age of twenty-five had never been married in the year 2012. In +1960, that number was 9 percent. For white people, those numbers were 16 +percent and 8 percent, respectively. So while the numbers doubled for our +white counterparts, they quadrupled for African Americans. The rates of +Black men and Black women who have never been married are roughly equal +at 36 percent and 35 percent, respectively. But it is Black women who have +experienced a far sharper decline in marriageability over the last fifty years. +In 1960, 12 percent of Black men over age twenty-five had never been +married. And 8 percent of Black women over age twenty-five had never been +married. Today the number has tripled for Black men, but more than +quadrupled for Black women. Black women who have never married +outnumber Black men who have never married at a rate of 100 to 92. +Most women across races list stable employment as a primary factor in +whom they choose as a mate. It’s not even about a brother needing to be rich. +But can he at least have a job and the ability to pay his own bills? When the +Pew Research Center accounted for employment status using census data, +they found that there are “51 employed Black men for every 100 young Black +women.” Decades earlier, the numbers were far more equal: There were +nearly 90 employed Black men for every 100 young Black women. Here’s +the rub: “Among never-married white, Hispanic, and Asian American young +adults, the ratio of employed men to women is roughly equal—100 men for +every 100 women.” To add insult to this clear injury, Black folks attach far +more importance to marriage than white folks do, and yet we get married far +less. Fifty-eight percent of Black folks believe that couples should marry if + + they plan to spend their lives together. Only 44 percent of white people +believe the same thing. +And we haven’t even begun to talk about what singleness means for Black +women economically. In 2010, the Insight Center for Community Economic +Development found that single Black women in the prime working ages of +thirty-six to forty-nine have a median net wealth of $5. Five whole dollars. +Single white women in this same cohort had a net wealth of $42,600. But for +every sister who has wished at rent time for a partner with whom to split +costs, those numbers get met with our most ardent “Tell us something we +don’t know.” +Given the WTF nature of these statistics, it is absolutely high time that we +stop blaming Black women for what is clearly a structural problem. This shit +simply is not our fault. Social structures have intimate consequences, and +rates of incarceration, employment, and education shape partnering options. +Understanding the piss-poor state of Black relationships cannot be reduced to +a conversation about individual moral failings. It’s not that white folks are +less screwed up than we are. It’s that they have far more chances to get it +right. White people have more access to marriage and partnership because +they have more access to absolutely everything else: jobs, housing, safety, +and wealth. In my small town, white girls started getting married right out of +college. By the time I came home for the ten-year reunion, more of my white +classmates were married than not. For my Black women classmates, the +situation was exactly the opposite. In the ensuing years, many of these same +white girls have gotten divorced. Most of them are seriously dating or have +remarried. Most of the Black girls still haven’t married husband number one. +Having fewer chances to succeed means that you have far fewer chances to +fail. It also means that the stakes are ridiculously high every single time a +potentially good brother walks through the door. +Those stakes show up when you put up with a man who doesn’t treat you +right for longer than you should because fear of being alone feels like too +much to bear. For Black women, those stakes show up when we date brothers +far outside our economic league because we fear being called “bougie,” +“uppity,” and “elitist” if we don’t want to give a broke brother a chance. +During my first year as a professor, I was out having dinner alone at the local + + Panera Bread. I frequently take myself out to dinner because, as a single +person who doesn’t have a typical office job, it often happens that I can go +days without seeing anyone of consequence. On this particular night, I was +out in my small Southern college town having dinner alone to beat back the +loneliness awaiting me at my house. One of the servers came over to sweep +the area near me and dropped a note at my booth, calling me cute and asking +me for my number on the back of a receipt. Though I had not imagined a +brother working for close to minimum wage at Panera to be my best +partnering option, my politics demanded that I put aside elitism. He was cute. +I said yes. +He took me on a nice date a few days later and seemed interesting and +passionate. Because he drove a jalopy, I picked him up and dropped him off +at his father’s house, where he lived. A few days after that, he asked to come +over to my house for a movie night in. When he got there, he said, looking +around, pointedly assessing my apartment, “You got a real nice place here.” I +could see his plans for premature cohabitation starting to take shape. After +movies and mediocre sex, the first sex I had had in nearly five years, I never +talked to him again. I’m feminist enough to date a brother who makes less +money than me. I’m not feminist enough to be any man’s plan for a come-up. +When I told my mother about him later, she said, “Well, at least he will +work.” Apparently, this had become the standard—a mere willingness to +work. And Black men have clear and vocal resentment toward Black women +who want brothers with a little money. Kanye made famous these lines: “I +ain’t saying she a golddigger, but she ain’t messin’ with no broke niggas.” +From the age of twenty to twenty-nine, I was celibate with the exception +of a couple of singular and very brief encounters. That is nearly a decade +without being touched, desired, complimented, or engaged at any significant +intimate level. Dude from Panera got lucky because, at some level, I was not +sure when I would again have the opportunity. Among my friends, my years +of celibacy aren’t anywhere near record-setting. At some point, after you’ve +gone years without a man so much as smiling your way or admiring your +looks, you begin to feel invisible. You begin to doubt your own gaze. +Recognition is a human need, and there is something fundamentally violent +about a world that denies Black women recognition on a regular basis. Even + + though you look in the mirror and see someone attractive staring back at you, +the fact that no one else ever seems to notice fucks with your head. The selfhelp books that you read before bed tell you that needing external validation +is a weakness. You meditate on this while you sleep, but wake craving touch +despite yourself. This thirst for compliments is probably why no one is +giving them to you. They can see how desperate you are. Desperation is +unattractive. You spiral. But what you never do is win. Statistics and +analyses about how the patriarchy is beating down your door ain’t got +nothing on the fervent, insistent desire to get chose. +Black women are eternal optimists. The numbers about absolutely +everything except getting diabetes and high blood pressure are never in our +favor. We are, therefore, usually unbowed in the face of a dismal social +prognosis. If you’re an overachieving Black girl who is used to winning +more than losing, on a good day, you imagine that you can bend the odds to +your will. On a bad day, you can know the numbers aren’t in your favor and +still obsess (over wine and Oreos) about why you aren’t part of the 51 +percent who have a fighting chance. Undaunted by the numbers, the fixing +commences. We read the relationship books, go to therapy, dating workshops, +and the annual church singles conference trying to fix ourselves and each +other to prepare for ever-elusive opportunities at love. I can ashamedly +admit that I was one of the millions of Black women who made comedian +Steve Harvey a best-selling author when I ran out and purchased his book Act +Like a Lady, Think Like a Man. And up until about the year 2012 or so, I +saw every single Tyler Perry movie. +Don’t make me hand over my feminist card, please. A sister was +desperate. It wasn’t that I had abandoned my analysis of patriarchy. By day, I +stepped into classrooms all over campus challenging women and men alike +to get on board with feminism. But every night I came home to a pile of +lesson planning and an empty apartment. It had become exceedingly clear that +my feminist analysis wasn’t gonna keep me warm at night or get me laid at +all. I needed a regular old straight man, not one with a fancy analysis, to clue +me in to how dudes think and what makes them tick. I didn’t grow up in the +house with men, and I always felt at a disadvantage compared to my few +friends who did grow up with father figures in their homes. I saw Tyler + + Perry’s movies and Harvey’s book as an opportunity to delve into the +emotional lives of Black men. Call it research. I needed to know: What did +brothers want? When Harvey said every man had a need to profess his love, +provide for his mate, and protect her, I recognized this as patriarchal bullshit. +For certain. Single for the entirety of my adult life, I had long been +confronting things that went bump in the night and providing for myself. And I +was proud of my self-sufficiency. My mama taught me to be. But a man +professing his love—I needed to know what made them do that. This was +valuable insight I needed if I was gonna play the game because, as things +stood, I was playing the game quite badly. +For instance, one thing that Harvey proclaimed that I think is true: If a +brother hasn’t got his career together and has no clear path toward achieving +his professional goals, it’s hard for that brother to focus on a relationship. It +doesn’t matter what feminism has to teach us about the structural realities of +unemployment and underemployment for Black men. We live in a society that +says real men provide. And if you are a man who doesn’t feel good about his +own prospects, then it’s hard to think about building with and providing for a +partner. Even among those of us feminist chicks who have a more expansive +view of these matters, we still want brothers who can share the weight and +spend a little money on us sometime. +Recently, I had a lovely first date with a guy named Mike, whom I had met +on a dating site. When the check came, I pulled out my wallet to split the bill. +One, I’m a feminist and I had kind of pressed Mike to move things offline and +into the real world. But if he had actually made me pay, that probably would +have been the end of things. Luckily, that night, patriarchy worked in my +favor. Mike balked, pushed my hand away, and lightly scolded me, saying, “I +don’t know what kinda niggas you been dating, but the man always pays.” At +that exact moment, I decided that Mike could get it. +Fast-forward eighteen months later: Mike, a lovely, sweet, thoughtful man +comes by for our weekly evening of my home-cooked meals and +conversation and cuddle time. We can’t see each other too much more than +this because he works every available hour and most weekends in order to +make a salary that will allow him to financially support himself and his two +children. Single, childless, and elated to have the consistent company of a + + decent man for the first time in my adult life, I remind him that he needs to +take me out on a date. It’s been months since I last dragged him to a showing +of a new romcom. “I know,” he says. And I drop it. I’m still trying to find the +balance between advocating for myself and not being a nag. At thirty-five, +most men have children. If they are decent human beings, they take care of +those children, and this means that children and their economic and relational +needs are always the priority. Like me, Mike grew up without his dad. And, +like so many Black men who grew up with the structural shame of the +Moynihan Report and its denigration of absentee Black fathers, Mike is +trying to be superdad. For my part, I feel a mix of admiration and jealousy. +This is the first time I am witnessing up close a man making the sacrifices to +be a present father. I only knew what it looked like watching my mother do it. +I bring up this super-dad thing to Mike as we are leaving a showing of +Southside With You, a movie that I loved because of the romance and that he +loved because he’s a Barack stan. We are discussing the scene where +Michelle implores Barack to forgive his father for abandoning him. I know +Mike has all the sensitive spots about his father having left him as a child. +But since movies are (I am hoping) a great way to broach relationship topics +that are hard to discuss, I dive in. “It’s interesting that brothers our age who +didn’t have fathers have tried to overcompensate for it with their own kids by +becoming super dads,” I tell him. “It’s interesting because the lesson you +learned from your fathers leaving is that you should be better, more dedicated +fathers. But none of you thinks anything about learning to be better partners.” +He looks at me questioningly: “What do you mean?” “Well, the reason your +fathers left is often because they didn’t know or care to learn how to be good +partners to your mothers. I just find it interesting that for a whole generation +of you, y’all don’t ever think critically about what you should do differently +about the partnership piece. So many brothers still resent the mothers of their +children, but they insist on being fathers regardless.” He says, “Hmmm. I’ll +have to think about it.” And I let the conversation drop, because giving a +patriarchy 101 lecture on date night would be tantamount to cock-blocking +myself. And this good feminist still needs dick. To put it how Maya Angelou +once defined feminism, “It’d be stupid not to be on my own side.” + + But it occurs to me, as I feign flexibility in the face of canceled dates +because of the kids and a reduction in date nights because of economic +pressures, that I have no idea how it feels to be a man’s number-one priority. +After the love was gone, my daddy left, too. And now that I’m dating +someone else’s daddy, insisting that my needs come first is selfish. But for +the first time in my life, I’m at least on the list of priorities. My happiness +and my needs are a consideration. This is what I tell my therapist. That what +I want more than anything is to know what it feels like to be a consideration. +Mike laps at my big-girl body and grabs my booty like he’s been waiting all +his life to find it. That counts for something, too. +Black men’s cultural anxiety about the place of money in relationships is +real and palpable. Another brother I dated once asked me, “What do you +want in a relationship?” “Well,” I told him with an S on my chest, “I don’t +need a man to give me money or pay my rent or buy me things. I can do that +myself.” “What do you want, then?” he asked rather testily. “I want a +partner, someone who shows up for me, offers emotional support, and +someone to share my life with.” “Oh,” he said, with no hint of irony, “you +want me to be gay!” This is why we can’t have nice things. +Black men’s refusal to own their feelings about how capitalism, +patriarchy, and white supremacy leave them shit out of luck on the regular +does more harm than good. Scapegoating gay brothers because the +heteropatriarchy ain’t trying to help straight brothers come up is not the +move. And when projecting vulnerability onto gay men doesn’t work, too +many brothers heap their fear, anxiety, and resentment on Black women. +Kanye made millions blaming Black women for desiring men to have some +level of economic stability. This anxiety about unstable economic prospects +is not new. Black women have been talking about the ways Black men show +their asses about this since the 1940s. In 1947, Pauli Murray, a famous civil +rights attorney, wrote an article in Negro Digest titled “Why Negro Girls +Stay Single.” She lamented that education was “a social handicap if [the +educated woman] wanted marriage.” But men didn’t date educated women, +Murray asserted, “because it would be too great a threat to their security.” +Patriarchy had made Black men feel like they should be “the lords of +creation, the breadwinners and warriors of our time and all time.” But given + + economic realities that limited educational and economic opportunities, the +men of Murray’s day were mostly stunting while trying to cover up the fact +that they were “as frightened and insecure as modern women are.” +Fear can distort your view of the facts. Despite the fact that Black women +outpace Black men educationally, Black men still have far more net wealth +than Black women do. The way patriarchy is set up, men always have more +wealth and social status. And this means that marriage has long been the path +to economic stability for women of all races. Yet it is Black women who get +branded as welfare queens by the government and as gold-digging baby +mamas by Black men. At some point, brothers gotta own their shit here. They +have to own their fear. They have to own that they have always gauged their +nearness to patriarchal dominance by measuring both how far beneath white +men they fall and how far above Black women they rise. Sisters climbing the +social ladder is scary for so many brothers, but it doesn’t have to be. +About ten years ago, independent, self-supporting women were in vogue +in Black popular culture. Everyone from rapper Webbie to R&B singers NeYo and Jamie Foxx released odes to the independent woman, whom they +loved and celebrated because she didn’t need a man and had her own money. +These brothers seemed to be rejecting Kanye West’s anxiety by celebrating +the fact that a woman “who got her own” didn’t need so much from them. It +was a useful intervention, albeit brief. Most brothers I encountered were +deeply suspicious of independent women. One brother I dated sat on my +couch one night denigrating “all you independent, don’t-need-a-man types.” +When I pointed out the contradiction of hating women who were independent +and hating women who were “gold diggers” (and therefore by definition, too +dependent), all I got was a Kanye shrug. +When I was a kid and an angsty teen nerd experiencing my first crushes +and my first loves, I believed that Black men loved Black women. If the love +songs my mama played on the stereo on Saturday evenings were any +indicator, they saw us as gorgeous, magical, and worthy of their best ploys to +win our affections. Whether I was listening to my mama’s old Luther +Vandross tapes or playing Boyz II Men songs on repeat, I understood what it +meant for men to profess their love for women in their music. They sang +about sex, too, but they also sang about heartbreak, betrayal, unrequited love, + + and the joy of falling in love. In high school, I lived for the moments when my +crushes asked me to slow dance at parties. By the time I reached my late +twenties, slow dancing had gone the way of the rotary phone and love songs +had turned into male bitch fests. There is a decided difference between Carl +Thomas singing “I wish I never met her at all” and Chris Brown singing +“These hoes ain’t loyal.” Sometimes I wish I could ask Black men “What did +we do to make you hate us so much?” +I know I sound old, begging for love songs and slow dances. Perhaps I’m +asking too much to demand emotional vulnerability and maturity from Black +men, and at least a smidgen of integrity from those brothers who have access +to cultural and religious pulpits. But can we tell the truth about it? Is there a +way to say, without sounding like somebody’s grandma, that three decades of +turning the disrespect of Black women into a global art form via Hip Hop +might have some intimate and emotional costs for Black folks? Is there a way +to do that without letting white supremacy off the hook for creating the very +social conditions that caused these problems in the first place? Where did all +this resentment come from? What did Black women ever do to warrant this +level of hatred? Where the fuck is the love? +It’s seriously so much easier to just blame Bill Clinton. +Late one night, I trekked to Harlem for a series of Emotional Justice +conversations that my good friend Esther Armah hosted in an attempt to get +Black women and men to be vulnerable with each other in pursuit of mutual +healing. I listened to a bunch of ostensibly in-touch, together-brothers +dialogue about their feelings, hurts, and traumas and the ways that the failure +to think this through in relationships had caused them to do harm to various +women. Like many sisters, I sat in the audience all in my feelings, grateful for +once that maybe there were a few brothers out there willing to share the +weight and do some of the emotional labor of building strong Black +relationships. Still, the audience that night was 90 percent Black women. +There is no justice in that. There can be no justice when brothers fail to show +up to have the tough conversations. +There are a few critical shifts that I think we can make that will move us +closer together. First, we need to pursue intimate solidarity with one +another. Solidarity and allyship matter as much in the bedroom as they matter + + in the revolution. Hip Hop generation brothers love to talk about how their +ideal mates are “ride-or-die chicks” who are down for anything. If there is at +all a healthy or just version of ride-or-die Black relationships, it is rooted in +the concept of being allies and coconspirators. It is rooted in a notion of +partnership and solidarity. The way we love each other, or fail to, is a lifeand-death situation. Black families and Black communities can’t thrive +without love in abundance. We need intimate solidarity with one another. +Method Man said it this way in the original ride-or-die anthem: “You’re all +that I need, I’ll be there for you. If you keep it real with me, I’ll keep it real +witchu.” This is what intimate solidarity and just Black Love look like— +acknowledging that we need each other, committing to showing up for each +other, and committing to radical honesty and realness with each other. +Second, Black men have to stop heaping all of their anger and resentment +over the way that patriarchy has failed them on the backs of Black women. +Far too many brothers conceptualize freedom as the sharing of power with +white men. And every time a bid for power fails, it is sisters who get shit +upon and who are asked to pick up the broken pieces. This has to change. +More to the point, if you feel like your manhood is rooted in failure, how can +you possibly love yourself? So much of the discourse of the failure of Black +intimacy is about the ways that Black women just need to love themselves. +But when we look more closely, very often it is brothers who are oozing +wounds of self-hatred and low self-esteem. Any man who treats women as +ornamental clearly believes that outward decoration will hide inner +deficiency. They have therapists for that. +Third, straight Black men have to stop letting homophobia and misogyny +impede healthy possibilities for love. Seeing the desire for partnership as +gay is teenage-boy logic and it should have no place in the emotional lives of +grown men. Homophobia and misogyny will be the death of Black love. +Being vulnerable doesn’t make one gay or straight, and continuing to invest +in a view of romantic relationships that is set up for Black folks to lose isn’t +especially smart. When Black love succeeds in a system that hates us all, +there is something profoundly queer about that. Queer Black folks have +survived precisely because they have refused to let traditional ideas about + + what love and relationships should look like dictate what is possible for +them. +Partnership, and all of the practices that are necessary to achieve it, +disrupt the social hierarchies that currently structure Black intimacy. +Partnership demands that we meet each other on equal footing. Partnership +stops placing the entire onus on Black men to profess, protect, and provide. +That’s too much weight to carry. We all need someone to speak up for us, to +look out for us, and to share resources to help us make it. We bring all our +strengths and our weaknesses to the table. We agree that no matter what we +ride for each other. We decide that we are coconspirators in a project of +Black love. We agree to do the work we need to do to be together. We center +a justice practice as a love language. We commit to being intimately and +relationally just with one another. +If my grandmother could see this lay of the land, I think she would say, +“You young folks study yourselves way too much!” In other words, we +overthink everything and take it all so deadly seriously. We have to figure out +how to commit to the fierce pursuit of joy with one another. There was a boy +whom I thought I loved, a Southern country boy intellectual, who seemed like +the prototype of the kind of man I thought I should marry. Randy was the kind +of dude who could quote Black feminist theorists like bell hooks and Patricia +Hill Collins off the dome. We were intellectual kindred spirits. He had a +reputation for being a ladies’ man, though, and once when we were honest +enough to joke about it, he said to me, “I’m a feminist. I love women.” During +one conversation, in the spring of 2008, when it looked like Barack Obama +would have a real chance of clinching the Democratic nomination, I had +lunch with Randy. He said, “I don’t understand why Michelle Obama hasn’t +quit her job yet.” Looking curiously at him, I asked, “Well, why would she? +He isn’t the nominee yet.” And in the parlance of a church boy, he said, “Yes, +but surely it’s time for her to get fully on board with his vision.” In that +moment I knew that, while Randy was a feminist intellectually, his first +impulse emotionally was to expect a high-powered career woman like +Michelle Obama to quit her job, to support her husband going after his +dreams. That wasn’t feminist. Lots of men have feminist rhetoric down, but +many of them haven’t done the emotional work of showing up for a woman + + with dreams and visions of her own. I learned in that moment that marrying a +feminist dude wasn’t the goal. Instead, I learned to look for men who +genuinely like and value women as people. +Years later, though, I saw the girl Randy did marry. A lovely woman with +a career of her own, who prioritized supporting his career. None of this +surprised me. But the thing I also discovered was that she made him laugh +uproariously on the regular. I realized that even though my assessments about +the legitimacy of his feminist politics were right, and our intellectual kinship +mattered, in the end he chose a partner with whom he could find +unadulterated joy. And in this, too, is a lesson. Given the hard realities that +Black folks face in finding their way to one another, Black love is nothing if +it is not simultaneously a conduit to Black joy. The lessons seem to be: Find +someone who makes you laugh. Find someone who doesn’t allow you to take +yourself too seriously. Find someone who brings you joy. And please, please +bring back slow dancing. + + FAVOR AIN’T FAIR + +Survivor’s guilt shows up in a really odd way among Black radical +intellectuals. The ongoing narrative in Black social justice and academic +spaces is that working-class Black neighborhoods—the hood, the ghetto, the +projects—are revolutionary. One activist told me during a training for +organizers that it was the job of Black professionals, those of us who had +“made it,” to return to the live in the hood. +I lived for four of my first five years in the projects. I remember it. And +while the projects in the small-town South are not at all comparable to the +horror stories I hear coming out of urban ghettos, I have no intention of +returning. And I don’t have any guilt about it. The activist who insisted that I +should want to return is himself first-generation middle class. His parents +grew up in the hood, and he suffered from a serious case of FOMO. His +solution was that we should all, therefore, return. +I, on the other hand, witnessed exactly what the daily grind looked like for +my mother, who had the nerve to have middle-class aspirations as she +slowly, methodically worked her way from a place in the projects to a +modest apartment to a house. When I was about four, my mom, dad, and I +went to the A&P grocery store. My mom, still in her work clothes, looked +bone tired. As the groceries sailed down the conveyor belt, my dad stood at +the other end. When time came to pay, only my mother reached for her wallet. +I looked at Daddy, expecting, thinking, waiting on him to contribute. He +looked at me sheepishly, almost shrugging, as my mother paid for the +groceries alone. Why hadn’t my daddy helped my mommy? + + In the months to come, Daddy bounced, strutting out the door one sunny +morning, with a white towel slung over the shoulder of his bare torso, after +my mother summoned the courage to tell him “It’s over.” He left without +incident, refusing even to catch my eye as I sat on the sofa, witnessing his +exit. +I asked my mother what motivated her to want to get out of the projects, +even though all of her friends still lived there. She said simply, “I saw +people going to sleep all around me. I wanted better for you.” Concentrated +poverty meant that seeing ambulances and hearing police sirens were a +regular occurrence. One evening, one of mama’s friends showed up holding a +bloody T-shirt in a bag. Her brother had been stabbed and, though he would +be fine, she had gone to the hospital to collect his belongings. I knew her +brother, and I was horrified to see the bloody contents of that bag dangling +from her hands while she stood in our living room. +There is often little peace and quiet and even less space to think when +violence can show up in your living room at any given time. I told the young +activist who began to belligerently insist on his revolutionary hood housing +program that asking Black women to move back into violent, underresourced spaces didn’t seem particularly revolutionary to me. His +revolution was rooted in a male-centered conception of men politicking in +the ghetto. But Black women’s revolutions are always about safety, food, and +education for women, children, and the elderly. No matter where the sisters +are, we are always making meals, raising children, and keeping things +together. When we do make it out, we make it out in the simple hopes that it +will be a little easier to keep things together now. Guilting Black folks, +particularly Black women, for pursuing safety, care, and possibility for their +children is not a freedom project. +When my mother announced casually while putting away laundry in our +apartment, “We’re getting a house,” I jumped on her back, hugging her, +shrieking for joy. This was a big deal, even though she was playing it cool. +When we pulled up to the house, I vaguely remembered that I had seen +Chip Brown, the little brother of Tami Brown (the girl who had called me +“nigger”), peering out from the screen door of this very house, the year +before when my school bus passed through the neighborhood. After they had + + moved out, my mother’s realtor had come and cried, she’d told my mother, +over the mess they’d made of the place. On the Saturdays leading up to our +move, I helped wash the walls at our new house while Mama climbed on the +kitchen counters, unscrewed all the old cabinets, stripped the old varnish +from them, and replaced it with a shiny new coat. During breaks, I rolled my +eight-year-old body on the new blue carpet, thinking it felt so nice compared +to the dingy brown carpet in the apartment we were leaving. +Those were the triumphs. But the stress showed up, too, in the form of my +mother’s perpetually upset stomach, her painful and chronic ingrown toenails +that there was no money to fix, and the kind of strictness that occurs when you +don’t have time for your child to do anything but toe the line. My mother +believed in old-school parenting, which meant she didn’t believe it was her +job to entertain me. “That is why you have a room full of books and toys,” +she would pointedly remind me every time I complained too much about +being bored. Getting Mama to play board games with me, or to let me play in +her hair and call her by her first name were treats reserved for special days. +I became an exceptional student, because it was the only job I had. My +mother went to work to make a life for us, and I went to school and made A’s. +A’s made my mother proud, and I was a classic overachieving only child, +deeply adult-identified and invested in keeping my mother happy. Getting A’s +was not rewarded. That was the expectation. When it became clear to my +community—family members, teachers, church congregation—that I was an +exceptionally smart child, the refrain of my interactions with these adults +became “Get your lesson, girl! Keep your head in them books! If you put God +first, you can go anywhere and be anything.” I loved all the positive attention, +and brought home all the A’s I could to keep it going. +Being singled out as exceptional by the adults at home and school created +its own set of problems among my peers. I became a target of other Black +children in the community, who accused me of “talking too proper” and +“acting white.” From their vantage point, I was trying to be special and +different, in ways that they either could not be or did not want to be. One +Saturday, two girls from down the street came to visit. We weren’t friends +entirely, but we were cool. It was almost as if Dominique and Trecie had +been given a dare to come knock on my door and see what would happen. I + + let them in and took them to my very girly room, with the pink-and-blue doll +wallpaper and peach bedspread, the Barbie dolls and Baby-Sitters Club +books, the notebooks and papers where I played school with said dolls, +strewn about. Out of sheer Southern politeness, we engaged in banal chatter, +with it all feeling entirely odd to me. These girls were not my friends. Why +were they at my house? Finally, after this performance had gone on for a few +minutes, Dominique looked at me with pity and said, “You really do want to +be white, don’t you?” +“Well, no,” I stumbled, taken aback, offering a none-too-impressive +response. Dominique humored me, nodding as I talked. She still thought I +was weird, though. They had caught me at home on a weekend in a place +where I wasn’t used to being attacked. At school, where my guard was +always up, when I was taunted, I usually shouted back “Does being smart +make you white?” Witty retorts were not my specialty. After a few more +minutes of awkwardness, Dominique and Trecie left. Meanwhile, an +opportunity to connect with some Black girls for friends had slipped away +yet again. I sat in my room, wondering what was wrong with the kind of +Black girl I chose to be, and also thinking they were supremely ignorant for +believing that a love of books and standard English meant I wanted to be +white. +Year upon year of being called white only strengthened my resolve for an +exit strategy. My mother hated that I was so bothered. She came home and +talked to me about an article she had read that said we all have different +ways of talking, depending on the audience. I eagerly sucked up this +information, hoping that I didn’t secretly really want to be white. But +somehow, other Black girls didn’t recognize the Tevin Campbell and Boyz II +Men–loving Black girl in me. On particularly bad days, my mama would give +me the Black mama pep talk. “Those kids ain’t ’bout nothing. You stay +focused. And if you keep on living, one of these days, you’ll see how they +turn out, versus how you turn out.” +She was right, of course. Our paths were largely set by the time we were +nine. My teacher, Mrs. Gaulden, one of only a very few Black teachers that I +had, insisted that I be tested for the Gifted and Talented program. When the +results came in and she was told that I had failed, she insisted they rescore + + my test. They had, in fact, made an error. I was indeed gifted and talented +and, therefore, worthy of small, special classes and extracurricular +experiences. Many of my classmates, especially those without benefit of Mrs. +Gaulden, received no such special care, cultivation, or opportunities. +Many of those children continued to labor under the assumption that white +people, and we Blacks who supposedly wanted to be white, had a monopoly +on smartness. Nothing about our deeply segregated school system ever +challenged their ideas. And, of course, my weak retorts to the daily taunts did +not ever rise to the level of a piercing systemic critique. I came to believe +that I was special, unique, and exceptional. Of course, I wanted to be among +smart Black overachieving kids. This is why I set out for Howard at the first +opportunity. But making it out of Ruston, Louisiana, meant that I had to +believe the lie of my own exceptionalism—that my classmates had fewer +opportunities because they didn’t try hard enough and because they were +trying to be too cool for school. +At one point in high school, my godsister April joined in on taunting me. +We had grown up together, my mother the best of friends with her mother and +her aunts. April grew up in the “old projects” while I lived a few blocks +away in the “new projects.” The only thing that really distinguished them was +that the new projects had lighter bricks and metal screen doors, while the old +projects had wooden ones. By high school, April had her crew, and I had +mine. No one knew we had grown up as damn near kin, that we used to sleep +in the same bed together while the adults went down to a club called The +Limb to dance the night away. One aunt always stayed behind and threatened +us late into the night, telling us, “Take your asses to bed before I come in +there and whup somebody!” +On this day, I watched as April giggled at me as other girls, her friends, +tossed barbs my way, berating everything from the way I talked to my long, +straight hair. “She need a perm,” one of them taunted as April giggled. +During my daily debriefing with my mother, I mentioned that some girls at +school said I needed a perm. “They’re just jealous,” my mother said. Back +then, I had an enviable head of long, thick, Black-girl hair that was great for +styling. But I was mostly oblivious to it, since I much preferred to have my +head in a book than in a stylist’s chair. I mentioned the names of the girls + + taunting me, thinking nothing of including April. It had been years since we’d +spent weekends having sleepovers while our parents were out on the town. +My mother called her aunt and told it. And April, I heard, got the dressingdown of her life, as every single auntie let her know that “not only do you not +need to be picking on Brittney, but you need to be trying to do what she +doing.” Apparently, being fussed out was effective. The very next time this +scenario went on in the hallway, I looked her in the eye, anticipating the +barbs, but she was curiously, noticeably, silent. I was relieved. I hadn’t +really planned to rat her out, but I appreciated the affirmation that the adults +in her life gave me: “You need to be doing what Brittney is doing.” +Being excluded and being exceptional are the frequent prerequisites for a +bad case of self-righteousness. Because I was a classic good girl, I naturally +thought myself more devout and more Godly than my classmates, and when +that is combined with an evangelical orientation to the world, it’s a problem. +I approached knowing God the same way I approached getting A’s. Follow +the rules, and success will come to you. The more I excelled, the more I +chalked it up to God’s blessing and “favor” on my life. Black church folks +love to talk about how “blessed and highly favored they are.” It is the kind of +explanation that comes to stand in, far too often, for structural inequality. +Favor ain’t fair. Or so the saying goes. So I came to understand my success +in that way, too. In my early twenties, a preacher at my local church went so +far as to prophesy blessings of God’s favor over my life. I had been put here +to make a special impact, he pronounced one evening during a Bible study +class. +Here’s the thing: I’m still a Christian. So I will never discount God’s +favor and the way it has shown up in my life. This is a challenge for +mainstream feminism, because much of it is still a deeply secular project. So +many Black women I know, even those who don’t go to church very much, +still have deep spiritual and religious lives. Most Black feminists I know +have some version of a God-concept. For those of us who watched our +mamas work themselves damn near to death to raise up powerful daughters +like us, attributing it to sheer strength of will and hard work is an American +fable that doesn’t suit us. Liberal white folks tell themselves these kinds of +stories—that they made it because of their own ingenuity and will. But most + + Black girls have enough humility to see ourselves as walking miracles who, +as Audre Lorde famously said, “were never meant to survive.” I want to be +clear that God has a place in how I think about justice and feminism, but I +hate God-explanations for structural problems. I learned the limits of these +kinds of explanations clearly when I returned to reckon with my old +classmates at the ten-year high school reunion. +There was no way I was missing the reunion. This was my victory lap, +and I was just petty enough to take it. I was a few months shy of completing +my doctorate and had fulfilled the promise of my senior designation in the +yearbook: “most likely to succeed.” My friend Reina, one of the two mean +girls from middle school, accompanied me. We had grown up around the +corner from each other, ours a friendship borne of necessity, since we were +two of three Black girls routinely taking honors courses together. It wasn’t so +much that we got along back then as we needed each other to get along. We +had weathered the storm of our teenage years, and, with the angst and +competition behind us, we had become real friends. We were a team on +reunion night. Racial politics back home being what they are, there came a +moment at the end of the homecoming football game (think Friday Night +Lights) when the entire class decided to go out for a drink. Once we reach +adulthood in the small town where I went to high school, Black and white +folks don’t really socialize at the same watering holes together to any great +degree. Reina and I stood in the bleachers, watching our classmates split by +race. We looked at each other, wondering which group we should choose. +The Black kids hadn’t been our friends, but the very Republican evangelical +whiteness of our classmates wasn’t as palatable as it had been a decade +before. We figured we might as well throw our lot in with the Blacks. +So, we went to a local restaurant for drinks. I threw back a couple of +shots of Tequila and started dancing to a Hip Hop song blaring over the +speakers. A new dance was out, and as is the custom of folks who are getting +grown, we were trying to figure out who could, in fact, “do tha stanky leg.” +Lashay looked at me and said, “I want Brittney to do it!” It was a gentle, +mocking challenge, one designed to literally have me prove my Blackness +once and for all, by standing up and dancing for the group. This bullshit + + again. Seriously? “I’m not that drunk,” I told Lashay. Ten years had helped +my comeback game moderately. +But since she had, I reasoned, started it, I refused to let it go. As our food +came, I said to the table, “It’s just so interesting that I’m here. Because the +narrative was that I wanted to be white back in the day.” Lashay nodded. +“That is true. People did say that.” Lavonne jumped in, hoping to keep the +peace and not fuck up the vibe, saying, “Awww, you know we were just +jealous.” Jealous? Jealous?! Jealous. There was that word again. And I was +as incredulous about it then as I had been years before, when my mama +offered it as an explanation for the actions of April and her friends. +April didn’t make it to the ten-year reunion. She had died suddenly of +natural causes, a few days after giving birth to her daughter, during the fall of +my freshman year of college. Thankfully, we’d made our peace the summer +before I left when I ran into her at Wendy’s, where she worked. She was a +few months’ pregnant and I was heading off to college. Somehow, we both +moved along the trajectories that my town seems to set up for Black girls. +Either you become an exceptional achiever, or you settle into a life of lowwage work and children. Exceptionalism or struggle should not be the only +pathways available to Black people. When my mother talked about watching +“where those girls would end up,” I know she had not, in fact, been thinking +of April. April saw me, smiled, and said, “Hey, Brittney.” I smiled back. +Childhood beefs were squashed, and we were both moving into our +respective paths of womanhood. +Jealousy was the one emotion that I had never ever expected to hear. It +had never occurred to me that the Black children in my school knew there +was something wrong with a system that singled out a few exceptional +children and gave them the keys to the kingdom. I took a moment. Then I +replied, “Man, I’m not holding on to it. We were all victims of a fucked-up +system. It chose particular kids and gave them everything. And it was set up +to make us think that the white kids were so much smarter, while really it was +simply that they got more attention, more resources, and more opportunities. I +don’t blame y’all for that. These people in this town are racist.” Lavonne +nodded her head. And we went back to drinking. + + Out in the car, Reina looked at me and said, “I don’t agree at all with how +you handled that. You let them off the hook! And they made our childhoods +miserable!” I had. And they had. Though Reina and I had grown up in the +same neighborhood, with single mamas hustling to make a living for us, we +resolved the trauma very differently. For a long time she took their +internalized anti-Blackness as evidence that there was little room for her in +Black communities. She gravitated toward white friends, multicultural +Christianity, and conservative values. I went to Howard, found thousands of +the overachieving, nerdy Black kids I’d been looking for, and healed because +I began to experience a world in which smart Black folks just made sense. I +was able to see my childhood, the bullying, and small-mindedness as a +function of retrograde racial politics that became magnified in the context of +a small town in the semirural deep South. More than that, I had learned the +pitfalls of using a respectability framework to explain the achievement gap in +our communities. Before going away to college, I thought other Black +children were lazy, unmotivated, and ignorant, and I ultimately concluded that +they had gotten what they deserved. But at the reunion, Lavonne offered me +new insight. When she framed their childhood disdain toward me as jealousy, +what I heard, more precisely, was an awareness of an injustice. Black +children know when they are being left behind, devalued, and overlooked. +Black communities have always been aware of the prickly politics of +racial exceptionalism. W.E.B. Du Bois famously advocated for Black +communities to train what he called the “Talented Tenth,” an exceptional +core of leaders who would get access to education and resources and bring +them back to everyone else. More progressive Black thinkers have long +rejected the elitism of Talented Tenth–based leadership models. These +models favor Black folks who are polished, articulate, and easily able to +acclimate to white environments. There was the pressing danger of Talented +Tenth types returning to their home communities and looking down upon +everyone else as unsophisticated, unintelligent, and self-destructive. But +while Du Bois thought of this as a pragmatic strategy in a world where white +people were not invested in being broadly inclusive, many of the Blacks who +came to have this kind of access felt entitled to it. Thus, part of the +consciousness-raising process on the radical Black left has been to be deeply + + suspicious of anything that looks like class-based entitlement. Moreover, +young radical brothers, like the one who tried to convince me to move back +to the hood, located their radicalism in the completion of Du Bois’s strategy. +It had failed because too many of us refused to go back. All would be well if +the educated few would return and lend their talents to the struggling Black +masses. But liberation is never so simple as getting it and bringing it back. +Any educated sister who sends a considerable chunk of her paycheck home to +the folks who haven’t yet made it out will tell you that we leave and return to +the places that made us, many times over the course of a lifetime. +Still, our guilt over leaving people behind nips at our heels, at every new +station that we reach. For instance, whenever there is a convening at an +academic conference, invariably some young radical person will get on the +mic to ask, “Who isn’t in the room? Who are we excluding?” These questions +matter, but they can also be deeply annoying because very often they are a +performance of middle-class angst. These people know full well who won’t +be at the conference before they ever sign up to come to it. How do we +balance the impulse to think that having degrees equips us to speak for +people in their absence with the fact that the degrees in most cases actually +do mean we have something of value to contribute that we might not +otherwise have had? My grandmother, who never finished high school, +stayed on me to “get my lesson,” because she knew there was something of +value in the books I so loved to read. She knew it, and those of us who have +read those books know it, too. Why do we patronize people by acting like +our access to more education didn’t actually teach us anything of value? +That’s a patronizing lie we have to stop telling, for it serves no one and +insults the very folks who made the sacrifices for us to get here. +On one too many occasions I have had social justice–oriented folks chide +me for being elitist while they were diligently grinding their way through +graduate programs at institutions far more elite than the ones I have attended. +Part of what I am saying is that the anxiety about being inclusive is itself a +middle-class Black anxiety, a fear we have of getting too big for our britches, +so to speak. Some of us handle our guilt by blaming it on God and His +mysterious and divine favor and intentions. Others romanticize the very +conditions they have spent their whole lives escaping. How do we deal with + + our guilt when we are the ones who achieved in a system that is intentionally +set up for most Black folks to fail? +I don’t know that I have the answer to that question. But I do know that we +annoy the hell out of each other with assertions of our connections to various +hoods, and blocks, and working-class communities. An accusation that one is +elitist is like the sounding of the death knell to any activist or scholar +committed to the struggle. It’s akin to somebody rolling up and dissing your +mama. But there is a gender dynamic to it. When I have experienced these +kinds of accusations from other Black feminist women, typically, it’s meangirl shit and jealousy masquerading as a radical critique. When Black men do +it to Black women, it is a way to deny Black women the authority of being +legitimate theorists or decision makers within Black communities. The +absurdity of this is that most of us are only 1.5 generations, at most, into the +Black middle class. The vast majority of educated Black folks aren’t that far +removed from the mythic “Cousin Pookie” whom Obama was obsessed with +forcing off the sofa and into the voting booth. But President Obama’s +invocation of “Cousin Pookie,” a stereotype signaling disengaged and +disaffected young Black men, was an intentional bid for street cred through +an appeal to a cultural narrative accessible primarily to Black folks. +President Obama wanted us to believe that he knew a Cousin Pookie or two +himself. The ability to claim proximity to such folks is just one way that elite +and middle-class Blacks index their continued insider status in working-class +Black communities. It’s highly problematic, mostly because it’s performative, +and not just on Obama’s part. In other words, this kind of fronting doesn’t +help anybody. The sisters I know remain connected to their working-class +roots because the extra money we do make is often used to help somebody +back home make the rent or car note, pay for Ma’Dear’s light bill or +medications, or just give whoever needs it a few extra dollars to tide them +over till the next payday. Black women’s consistent philosophy is “If we eat, +everybody eats.” If I’m not struggling, no one in my family struggles either. It +is precisely this thinking that leads to Black women my age having a median +net wealth of $5. +Favor isn’t fair. So we should have what womanist theologians call a +“hermeneutic of suspicion”—a healthy skepticism—of the institutions and + + opportunities that would make of us exceptions. Relying on the favor of God +to open doors for us is not a plan for systemic change or justice at any broad +level. And using the favor of God to justify the machinations of a system that +routinely forecloses opportunities for Black women’s thriving ain’t +revolutionary, either. In fact, if this framework of favor goes unchecked it +lays the groundwork for an unholy trinity between the church, neoliberalism, +and racial respectability politics. Black preachers point to the work of +currying favor with God by obeying all the rules the Bible sets out because, +to them, God’s favor is more powerful than any systemic obstacle. At their +best, Christian invocations of favor are used as a resource in the fight against +routine injustices that harm Black people and deny them access to +opportunity. One problem, though, is that this approach to currying favor with +God is individual. Second, it is wholly dependent upon the dictates of +respectability politics to work. +God apparently grants favor first and foremost to those who follow the +rules—those who tithe 10 percent of their income, those who don’t have sex +before marriage, those who attend church and Sunday school faithfully, those +who don’t think sinful thoughts, those who don’t struggle with addictions of +any sort, those who strive for perfection, and those who are always on their +best behavior. It turns out that schools favor those who follow these rules, +too. In shorter form, success comes to those who take personal +responsibility for their lives. But following the rules shouldn’t be the +guarantor of rights or dignity. +Black children and Black people are told that if they simply follow the +rules, they can make it into the middle class, where the hope is that they will +experience some level of stability. When this respectability formula links up +with Christian dogma about God’s favor, one comes to believe that their +access to a stable social life, with the ability to pay their bills, have secure +and affordable housing, healthy and affordable meals, good public schools, +and a bit of discretionary income is a function of God’s blessing and favor. +Those who rely on God’s favor to secure what the system cannot provide +unwittingly admit that they know the system is a fraud. They know things are +not set up for Black folks to win. But since God wants us to win as long as + + we do right, then theology becomes a substitute for demanding that the system +be more just. +In this way the church, as I mentioned in my discussion of grown-woman +theology, has become complicit in the broader project of neoliberalism, +which is marked by a social abdication of responsibility to create systems +that help the vast majority of citizens achieve some notion of the good life. +Instead, neoliberalism turns our attention to individual self-regulation, and +notions of personal empowerment, as the pathway to having anything in life. +And yet, again, what we teach and preach in churches allows “God” +language to do the dirty work of the system, namely, pretending to empower +us while ultimately blaming our lack of social options on some flaw in our +character or misstep in our conduct. +I very much had to resist the narrative that I made it because I acted right. +Racist teachers humiliated me and tried to break my spirit, even when I acted +right. Acting right, which far too often means “acting white,” didn’t protect +me from what Carol Anderson calls the “white rage” of my classmates when +they realized that I actually would graduate at the top of the class, and atop +all of them. And plenty of Black children who acted right still didn’t have the +levels of opportunity I had. +Part of the work of justice for those of us who made it out of terribly +fucked-up conditions is rejecting the myth of our own exceptionalism. That is +the thing I tried to do at the table in the conversation with my classmates. I +tried to find common cause with them, despite the traumas they enacted on +me. Black people can do terrible harm to each other when we aren’t clear +who the enemy is. But in finding common cause I also wanted to avoid doing +harm to my community, to not participate in the narrative that stripped +children who were just like me of having real educational opportunity, +simply because they didn’t, for instance, show an early facility for reading. I +wanted to forgive my childhood tormentors, and at the same time to put some +of the fancy educational analysis that I’d had the benefit of receiving to good +and just use. +The idea that the pathway to freedom is found in better choices is bullshit. +Take, for instance, the latest research on the racial wealth gap. Any time I’m +in racial justice organizing spaces at least one brother demands the mic so + + that he can tell us that “What Black people need to do is support Black +businesses. If we would just pool all our resources and stop spending money +on Jordans and hair weaves, we could have real wealth to invest in our +communities.” The research says differently. Black people at every level +spend less money than white folks in similar economic circumstances. It turns +out that the entire respectability formula for raising Black socioeconomic +status is a fail. Going to college, raising children in a two-parent home, +working full-time, and spending less do not make it possible for Black +people to close the wealth gap that they have with white people. White +people have more money because their ancestors made money from owning +our ancestors. When white people die, other white people gain wealth. When +black folks die, they often leave debt behind. +When my grandmother died a decade ago, the bank let us know that she +had a safe-deposit box. We went expecting that there would be an insurance +policy, a will, and other information about her assets. Instead we found an +unceremonious collection of thirty-year-old receipts from the phone +company. Grandmama took pride in paying her bills, and in owing “nary a +debt.” That was her legacy; that she died owing no one anything. So many +Black folks aren’t that lucky, and death often means loved ones inherit the +debt of those who’ve passed on. In every generation, the vast majority of +Black people must start over trying to build wealth. Sometimes they can only +do that after they’ve resolved the debts others have left for them to handle. +In order for people to make healthier, more sustainable choices that will +support their thriving, they have to have better options. But the Hail Mary +politics of divine favor (i.e., using favor like a Hail Mary) ain’t about having +more options, but rather about what happens when you have far too few of +them. The hood is marked by a lack of access to reasonable options. It +always annoys me to find out that the woke, radical, pro-Black, feminist +position is uncritical valorization of the hood. Let me say this: If the people +on the block had the answers, the revolution would have long since come. +Disproportionate numbers of our people are locked in the structural +hopelessness that attends concentrated poverty. Many of them dissent from +that hopelessness every day by making a way anyway, by using their own +ingenuity and will to create options for themselves where none exist. + + Being asked to do more with less is inhumane. Frequently, social +scientists point to the resilience of children from difficult backgrounds. One +time, in a meeting on my campus, in a discussion about the hardships children +of color face, a white woman remarked dismissively, “Oh, but children are +resilient!” Celebrating the resilience of poor folks is a perverse way of +acknowledging the unreasonable demands placed upon people who already +are struggling to make it. In fact, in this moment, when a broad-scale +conservative backlash threatens to absolutely gut the social safety net, +“resilience” is a dangerous word. The logic of relying on people’s resilience +goes something like, “Let’s see just how much we can take away from you +before you break.” That shit is evil. We can celebrate and recognize the +awesome ways that Black humanity and possibility show up without drinking +the Kool-Aid. +My mother is my shero. I’m the biggest beneficiary of her ingenuity and +tenacity. But I don’t mistake the model my mother carved for me for a +liberation plan for all Black people. Nor is it reasonable to blame all the +folks who didn’t do what she did for their own social condition. You can’t +judge the effectiveness of a system by the success of its exceptional actors, +from the president on down. +So, what do we do when the woke position demands that we cosign ways +of thinking that actually don’t make any sense? My entire life, my community +encouraged me to leave and make something of myself. As soon as I achieved +the highest possible credentials, suddenly lots of brothers, some with degrees +and many more who didn’t finish school, started popping up, mansplaining +that “Even though you might be more educated than me, that doesn’t mean you +have more knowledge than me.” Some of the smartest folks I’ve ever known +didn’t have college degrees. As I’ve said, my daddy was the smartest man I +never knew. I can throw a rock and hit an educated fool. But this suspicion of +education and its benefits is part of a broader culture of American antiintellectualism that we simply must reject. From age four to age twenty-eight, +save one year, I was a student. Ten of those years were spent in pursuit of +higher education. This counts for something. The one year that I wasn’t a +student, I worked at a public school. If I had already learned everything I + + would need to know in my community of origin, then all of the Black folks in +that community would not have encouraged me to reach for the skies. +Thus, when I see other radicals with elite access valorizing their hoods, I +recognize it as misapplied survivor’s guilt and a deep desire to retain one’s +street cred and authenticity. Whenever we’re together, highly educated folks +start doing this dance of talking about how we really need to appreciate what +the hood taught us. I’ve done some of this dance myself, and much of it I +believe in. Theorizing all the possibilities of resistance in crunk music and +ratchet television is good, important cultural work, rooted in the workingclass sensibilities of the South. Appreciating the epistemological +frameworks, the ways of knowing and making sense of the world that my +grandmother and my mother bequeathed to me is radical work that upends the +politics of the academy as the only place where anyone is saying anything of +value. But. The ignobility of academe doesn’t make the hood noble. +I gained the tools to do better analytic work and ask better questions in the +university. I became a feminist in a Ph.D. program. Hell, I learned the word +epistemology in a Ph.D. program. But, more than all of that, I learned to heal +from the anti-Black trauma and bullying that was the entirety of my childhood +at college. The first day I stepped into Professor Lawrence Jackson’s honors +composition classroom was the first day of my life that I wasn’t presumed to +be the smartest Black person in my classroom. Suddenly I was in the middle +of 360 degrees of Black brilliance and, briefly, I was shook. Who was I, if +“smart Black girl” fit fully 60 percent of the people on campus? Suddenly I +was no longer the only one, a truth I gulped down while I looked around the +room at all the other eager students listening to Dr. Jackson’s lecture about +why the map of the world made Africa look so much smaller than +everywhere else when, really, it was larger. +The trap and the burden of being exceptional is that your entire identity is +wrapped up in being the only one. The stories of infighting and +competitiveness among Blacks that we tell when we get together have +everything to do with building an identity based on being the exception. It +took exactly one day at a Black college to break me of such thinking. It was +both scary and exhilarating, but I came to understand the racial politics of +U.S. public schools in my college and grad-school classrooms. Those + + frameworks gave me what I needed to go back and see that my classmates +and I had been victims of a system that pitted us against each other as a +justification for its own logic of white dominance and Black exceptionalism. +American democracy is not interested in acknowledging that a Barack +Obama can be found in every Black community. I have met brilliant Black +boys at every step of my journey. Many of them were languishing in poor +schools and even worse neighborhoods. Just like there are many, many white +men who make viable candidates for the presidency, the same is true for +Black communities. The only difference is structural levels of access, not +levels of talent or intellect. I would not have known that if I had not left my +community. +And, despite what I know now, I still remember the loneliness of being a +Black-girl nerd longing for community for most of my childhood. I forgive +my bullies, but I don’t want to live in any sustained community with them. +Over the years, most of the specific incidents of harm have faded. But +whenever I run into one of my old tormentors around town, typically I know +because my stomach twists and turns into knots, recoiling at slights that have +long since passed. That’s a truth to sit with, too: The harm is no less harmful +simply because we know what caused it. Structural violence is rooted in the +need to maintain hierarchies, but far too often its most gut-wrenching acts are +enacted horizontally, by our peers, not by those positioned above us. Real +radicalism implores us to tell the whole ugly truth, even when it’s +inconvenient. To own the hurt and the pain. To own our shit, too. To think +about it systemically and collectively, but never to diminish the import of the +trauma. +Survivor’s guilt is about as useful as white guilt, which is to say, not +useful at all. My mama worked too hard and my community prayed too much +for me to feel guilty about making it. But I have copious amounts of rage at +the systems that refused to nurture the talents of the kids who looked like me. +And more than that, I have a great sense of responsibility. I’m not planning to +go back home to live, because where I’m from is no place for a radical +feminist Black girl who likes to challenge preachers in her spare time. But I +am responsible in big and small ways for making that place and places like it +better, more equitable and more just. I’m thankful for favor, such as it is, but I + + refuse to mistake favor for freedom. Knowing more than the folks with less +education than you, doesn’t mean you know everything. In some cases, it +doesn’t even mean you know the best things or the right things. But education +is powerful. That is ancestral wisdom that our folks fought for us to have. We +don’t serve them well by acting like we don’t know anything worth knowing. +Going off to college and to grad school turned me into a picket-sign carrying, +Jesus-loving radical feminist. I stand by the notion that the ideas I learned in +those places, and that all the things Black feminism has taught me, can help +our folks get free. And for all who would disagree I would say, simply, +“Ain’t no future in our frontin’.” + + JOY + +The term “feminist killjoys” is well-earned. Sometimes, in the bid for +rightness, feminists and hyperwoke folks can take the joy out of everything. I +actually think it’s irresponsible to wreck shop in people’s world without +giving them the tools to rebuild. It’s fine to quote Audre Lorde to people and +tell them, “The master’s tools will never dismantle the master’s house.” The +harder work is helping people find better tools to work with. We have to +smash the patriarchy, for sure. And we have to dismantle white supremacy, +and homophobia, and a whole bunch of other terrible shit that makes life +difficult for people. Rage is great at helping us to destroy things. That’s why +people are so afraid of it. +But part of what I’ve been trying to say is that rage can help us build +things, too. The clarity that comes from rage should also tell us what kind of +world we want to see, not just what kind of things we want to get rid of. I’m +not interested in a feminist project that only works to tear down things. Black +women know that justice is rarely found in the rubble. If your rage can do +anything for you, I hope it can do for you what it has done for me—help us to +build the world we want to see. +And since, as you know by now, I’m a church girl, I want to end this book +in the way that I’ve watched Black preachers end church services my entire +life. I want to offer you a benediction. My stepdad, a Baptist preacher and the +first pastor I ever had, told us that we should never leave church without the +benediction. Those good words spoken at the end imbued us with power to +go out and live out the things we had just learned about. +So here goes … + + * * * +May you have joy. +Joy, as I have heard countless Black preachers say, is different from +happiness, because happiness is predicated on “happenings,” on what’s +occurring, on whether your life is going right, and whether all is well. Joy +arises from an internal clarity about our purpose. My purpose is justice. And +the fight for justice brings me joy. +In your president’s favorite book of the Bible, Two Corinthians, these +words appear: “We are hard-pressed on every side, but not crushed; +perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, +but not destroyed.” In shorter form, the Black Church would say, “Joy—the +world didn’t give it to me, and the world can’t take it away.” Maintaining the +capacity for joy is critical to the struggle for justice. Things are still as +fucked up at the end of this book as they were at the beginning. But we can’t +let the messed-up state of the world steal our joy. +It is critical in reinvigorating our capacity for new visions. When we lack +joy, we have a diminished capacity for self-love and self-valuing and for +empathy. If political struggle is exercise for the soul, joy is the endorphin +rush such struggles bring. +* * * +May you have gut-busting belly laughter, every day. +Laughing with my girls brings me joy. Traveling around the world, +migrating down South to my mama’s sofa, watching Food Network for hours, +reading trashy romance novels and watching sappy romcoms—all of these +things bring me joy. (Yes, I know they reinforce the patriarchy. You win +some, you lose some.) +* * * +May you ask more and better questions. +Homegirl interventions leave me with more questions than answers. But +usually they leave me with far better questions than I began with. May your +curiosity be unceasing. + + * * * +May your rage be a force for good. +What you build is infinitely more important than what you tear down. +When the struggle feels unwinnable, may you never forget this one thing: +* * * +You got this. We got this. + + INTRODUCTION + +HARRIET ]ACOBS'S LINDA: Incidents in the Life of a Slave +Girl, seven years concealed in Slavery, Written by Herself (1861), +the best-known nineteenth-century African-American woman's +autobiography, makes a marked contribution to American history and letters by having been written, as ]acobs stressed, "by +herself.": Many other narratives by women who had been enslaved (for example, Sojourner Truth) had been dictated to +amanuenses whose roles diluted the authenticity of the texts.' ]acobs not only wrote her own book, but as an abolitionist and ardent reader, she knew the literary genres of her time. Describing +an African-American family whose members cleave to one another against great odds, she skillfully plays on her story's adherence to and departure from the sentimental conventions of +domestic fiction. In so doing, she used its difference to a +woman's advantage. Her self-consciously gendered and thoroughly feminist narrative criticizes slavery for corrupting the +morals and the families of all it touched, whether rich or poor, +white or black. She lays the groundwork for the analysis of black +womanhood.' +Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl makes three important +points convincingly: It shows, first, the myriad traumas owners +and their agents inflicted upon slaves. Bloody whippings and +rapes constituted ground zero of the enslaved condition, but in +addition, slaves were subject to a whole series of soul-murdering +psychological violations: destruction of families, abandonment +of children, sexual harassment, verbal abuse, humiliation, contempt. Jacobs details the physical violence so common in her +Southern world, but she especially stresses the assault on slaves' +psyches. Second, she denounces the figure of the "happy darky." +As a slave and later as an abolitionist, she was frequently conIX + + x + +INTRODUCTION + +fronted with this favorite American myth, which she knew to be +false. In answer to this proslavery argument, she enumerates the +miseries of the enslaved; in chapter 13 she shows precisely how +Northerners were gulled into believing black people liked being +enslaved." Third, and most courageously, Jacobs insists that enslaved people-here, black women-cannot be judged by the +same standards as the free. Jacobs expounds the conditions of enslavement that deprived people of autonomy, denying them influence over their own and their children's destinies. While her +enslaved friends and family took advantage of every possible +loophole" within the fabric of an evil system, working the system +allowed them only a modicum of self-determination. Because +they literally belonged to other people, slaves lacked the power +to protect their morals, their bodily integrity, or their children. +In sum, Jacobs delineates a system in which the enslaved and +their enslavers (aided and abetted by Northern sympathizers) +were totally at odds or, as she says, at war." As she sees it, there +could be no identity of interest between the two parties to the +peculiar institution, even though lives and bloodlines frequently +intersected. The frequent occurrence of similar names-for example, Margaret Horniblow (Harriet's first owner) and Molly +Horniblow (Harrier's grandmother)-may confuse the reader +but attest to these very intersections. +Harriet Ann Brent Jacobs was born in about 1813 in Edenton, +North Carolina.' Her younger brother and best friend, John S. +Jacobs, was born two years later. Their parents, Delilah and Elijah" Jacobs, were enslaved, but they lived together as a family +with Delilah's mother, Molly Horniblow. Horniblow, the +daughter of a South Carolina planter who emancipated her during the Revolutionary War and sent her to freedom outside the +United States, had been captured, returned to American territory, and fraudulently reenslaved after her father's death. The +head chef at the Horniblow Inn in Edenton, Molly Horniblow +managed to earn and save money as a caterer even while enslaved. Her industry and clientele made her well known, well respected, and well connected in Edenton, and even before being + + INTRODUCTION + +XI + +freed again at the age of fifty, she had accrued as much standing +as possible by one who was neither white nor free. +As a slave, Horniblow could not marry, yet her daughter +Delilah and her husband Elijah lived with Molly as a married +couple: Delilah even wore a wedding ring, which she left to her +daughter Harriet. Horniblow's effective marital status, on the +other hand, remains a mystery, as does the never mentioned existence or identity of her own children's father. These silences-in +the historical record, in Harriet Jacobs' s / ncidents in the Life ofa +Slave Girl, and in John S. jacobs's "A True Tale of Slavery"speak volumes, given Horniblow's seemingly hypocritical attachment to the feminine ideal of chastity. Her insistence on +premarital sexual purity, a condition which often eluded even +free poor and working-class white women, would wreak havoc +in her enslaved granddaughter's emotional life. +Neither Harriet nor John recalled much about their mother, +who died when Harriet was about six and John about four years +old, although Harriet later praised Delilah as "noble and womanly" in nature." Their father, Elijah, the best house carpenter in +the region, hired himself out from his base at home. Both Harriet +and John recalled their father as a man of independent mind, +whose slave status embittered and depressed him. John was convinced that his father died young-in 1826-precisely because he +was enslaved: "My father, who had an intensely acute feeling of +the wrongs of slavery, sank into a state of mental dejection, +which, combined with bodily illness, occasioned his death when +I was eleven years of age."IO +By dint of their skills, values, connections, and ancestry, the +entire Jacobs family had much in common with Edentori's elite. +However, their African descent, legal status as slaves, and extreme vulnerability placed them firmly on the wrong side of a +towering color bar. Molly Horniblow and her grandchildren experienced the ambiguities of their allegiances differently. The +grandchildren admired, but could not share, her heartfelt Christian piety. The grandmother counted on the existence of conscience in the slaveowning class, another faith beyond her +grandchildren's reach. She sought decent treatment through per- + + Xl! + +INTRODUCTION + +sonal entreaty; they both followed the route of permanent escape. Horniblow's son ]oseph shared her grandchildren's hatred +of slavery; he ran away twice, the second time intending to leave +the United States for good. Punning on the common term for +whipping, he told his brother that he meant to "get beyond the +reach of the stars and stripes of America."!' +The Jacobses lived on the left bank of the Chowan River +where it empties into Albemarle Sound. Connected through internal waterways with Hampton Roads, Virginia, and the Chesapeake Bay during the eighteenth and early nineteenth centuries, +Edenton served as an administrative center for its own Chowan +and surrounding counties and as northeastern North Carolina's +main port. In 1820, the population numbered 1261, of whom 634 +were white, 499 enslaved, and 67 free black.'! During Harriet's +and John's youth, Edenton was still vibrant enough as a trading +center that the town's leading families would station members in +the New York area. The TredweIls and Blounts in Brooklyn, +New York, who made the jacobses' later residence there unsafe, +belonged to Edenton's merchant families. During the midnineteenth century, Edenton lost importance as the Albemarle +Sound silted up and North Carolina's economy shifted away +from the heavily slaveholding and agricultural East Coast toward +the diversified farming and industry located in the Piedmont farther inland. +In 1819 and 1820 Edenton rated two visits from President +James Monroe; in 1820 the town offered him a banquet, prepared +by none other than Molly Horniblow, the region's finest chef, at +the Horniblow Inn, the local elite's gathering place. +The inn sat on the main street, across an alley from the courthouse. Between the inn, the jail, and the courthouse stood the +whipping post, where slaves were disciplined and blood flowed. +John S. Jacobs recalled seeing "men and women stripped, and +struck from fifteen to one hundred times and more. Some whose +backs were cut to pieces were washed down with strong brine or +brandy ..." He described one instrument of torture, the oak +backing paddle, the blade of which was full of small holes that +pulverized the body and left "the flesh like a steak." He him- + + INTRODUCTION + +Xlll + +self had dressed the back of a woman whose back he "solemnly +declare[d] ... had not a piece of skin left on it as wide as my +finger."!' +The Edenton elite, small and inbred, was closely connected +through ties of ownership and sentiment to the Jacobses and included the heads of the Sawyer, Tredwell, and Norcom families. +Drs. Matthias Sawyer (d. 1835) and James Norcom (1778-1850) +were longtime business and professional partners. An 1808 inventory of the value of their joint practice revealed a net worth +of $8000, half of which consisted of outstanding debts." The +financial precariousness of medicine, combined with doctors' +ostentatious standard of living, kept them constantly on the +lookout for financial advantage. Both Sawyer and Norcom operated plantations that (usually) contributed to their income and +where Harriet and John had occasion to work. During this same +period, Samuel Tredwell Sawyer (1800-1863)15 and John Norcorn (1802-?), attended the Edenton academy together; the +younger Norcom followed in his father's footsteps by graduating from the University of Pennsylvania with a medical degree. +Samuel Tredwell Sawyer attended but dropped out of William +and Mary College. With his family connections, neither his limitations as a scholar nor his feckless dandyism impeded his flourishing as a lawyer;" +After her mother's death in 1819, Harriet went to the home of +her owner, Miss Margaret Horniblow. Harriet Jacobs recalled +Margaret Horniblow as a kind mistress "almost like a mother to +me."?" During her six years with Margaret Horniblow, Harriet +learned to read, sew, and generally to carry herself as a lady, a +bearing others remarked upon for the rest of her life. +Reflecting the extreme vulnerability of enslaved people to the +fates of those who owned them, Margaret Horniblow's death in +1825 made Harriet the slave of Horniblow's sister's three-yearold daughter, also the daughter of James Norcom, who became +her de facto owner. The following year, Harrier's father died, +leaving the child with only her grandmother as protector. Molly +Horniblow's stature and residence in the center of town did pose +a counterweight to Norcorn's power over his young female + + XIV + +INTRODUCTION + +slave. Harriet realized that both the town's gossip mill and her +grandmother's standing offered her limited but tangible protection. +When her own mistress died in 1828, fifty-year-old Molly +Horniblow, too, fell to James Norcom and was put up for sale at +auction. On account of her age and stature, the sight of +Molly Horniblow on the auction block scandalized the good citizens of Edenton, but her sale, entirely legal, went through. According to Incidents, an older white woman bought Molly +Horniblow, emancipated her, and made Molly the owner of her +own older son, Mark Ramsey. John S. jacobs's