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he(24m) n i(22f) met in a group discussion for a project. he started text me and showed his interest towards me such asking my birthday, where do i live, what's my hobby and etc. i started have feelings towards him. but then.. idk if he lost his interest towards me, i felt like im annoying him if i text him first. :( | Crush |
Idk how instagram story algorithm works so i need help. When my crush views my story he appears at the bottom of the story order. Like it didn't used to be like this. Nowadays just appears the bottom like why? Even if he is not the first one to view my story | Crush |
I’m really quiet and not out going at all. I’m really boring and don’t have much of a personality so I don’t have many friends. How can I change that and become a person that people want to be around with? | Crush |
I don't usually do anything like this but I can't keep this in. It's been six years and I still love her. I think it's love but I can't tell, the line between a dazed, unhealthy, addiction and 'love' is hard to see.
It started, as I say, around 6 years ago (we're now both 15) it was valentines day and my class were making cards and handing them out; none of it was serious, just a bit of festive fun at that young age. We all had to give a card away and I don't know why but I decided to give mine to Erika (not real name). In retrospect I now see this is where my desire and need to want something I didn't have started. She ignored the card and just ate the chocolate and we laughed it off as we were only about 9. I believe this is where I started to pay real attention to her and quickly fell in love.
For a good few years I dropped small hints and we had conversations every now and again but nothing ever romantic was even considered until our first year of secondary school. At the time 12 year old me had no idea how to impress any girls, never mind specifically Erika, but I acted arrogant and rude and I ended up hurting her with some of the things I said. I carried on being this arrogant, selfish prick for a good year until I just let all my feelings lose and told her everything. Initially she acted as though she wanted to 'date' me (whatever that means when you're 12/13) but she reminded me of some of the awful things I said. We had a huge argument and we were furious at each other and ourselves, this all lasted about a month.
Then the world moved into lockdown and we messaged every now and again just for casual conversations and to reinforce the idea we were still somewhat friends. I started to mature and become nicer to people and I think she saw that, because in the summer of last year she messaged me a big 'rant' of her feelings and said how she 'regretted not getting with me' the year prior. My worried ass didn't pick up on the fact that she just said she liked me and it wasn't until about 6 months later when my sister (who is a minor friend of Erika's) said that she was admitting to liking me then.
We're both now in the penultimate year at school and we take our GCSEs next year and I really want to succeed but I can't focus on any studies because she is ALWAYS on my mind. She drives me crazy and I'd give the world if she'd only ask, but I'm far too afraid and knowing me it'll me another 6 years and too late.
I love her more than anything and it's valentines day again soon and every year I say I'll do something but this year I feel like I need to so I can clear my mind and put more focus on studying and I'll also know where I stand with her.
I chose to make a new account and make this anonymous because I'm that terrified of her finding out in the wrong way.
I love her but I need help, I need direction. | Crush |
I had been on one of those soul searching, eat -pray- love-isq trips.
I was burnt out, had a breakup and had a rebound who had found the love of their life. I was really in a bad place.
On this trip I met this foreigner from some far away country. I HAD A HUGE CRUSH ON them. we became acquaintances.
For someone who was sure they would never ever find love and who had 30000 thoughts per minute, half of which were about how it will be difficult to trust again and love again. This crush was a life saver.
It was a silly one. Heart fluttering, paying attention to everything they said. I knew the colour of their eye and their routine and I was smitten.
At the end of my trip i sent them a long mail telling them they gave me hope when I had none. This mail was also about how the place saved me. And I told them they didn't have to reply I was just telling them about my feelings. And that they matter and you may think you don't, but you do.
I never heard back.
I am still disappointed i didn't hear back even though i repeatedly told them they don't have to reply.
This was 2017
We are now in 2022
I feel like sending them a mail to check up on them and see what they are upto. Should I? Will it be awkward for them?
TLDR: had a crush on fellow travelers, sent long mail never heard back. Should I mail again after 4 years.? | Crush |
For me to crush on someone and they also crush on me at the same time, it would feel like destiny would’ve brought us together and it would be so wholesome, the thing is I’ve never had a girl crush on me before in my life and I see all those posts on about girls crushing on guys just makes me think like something is wrong like ik I’m not all that special to myself but I’ve crushed on girls who look simple to my friends but to me they were like a dream come true for me. | Crush |
I believe you when you said you were honest. You told me you weren’t into dating atm but had a date the other day? Yet when I said that’s someone did that to me before you said people like that suck. Baby you did the same thing! Deleted your number just wish you’d text me so I can tell you, you aren’t as perfect as I said you were! | Crush |
I got rejected a month ago and i skill like the idea of them. Lmao help me someone. It’s hard to accept. He’s so cold. | Crush |
Met this guy at work and he’s giving me signs he’s into me. Does it sound like he’s into me? He grabs my butt, my waist, he picks me up for drives a lot, we drive like 2 hours out and go to his favorite lake and places. He told me “it’s my job to protect you” and held my hand which was a big flag for me and we text a lot. Also we’re both guys. Do you think he’s into me? Grabbing my butt I can write off as a joke but holding my hand really makes me think he might be into me | Crush |
It’s my crushes birthday on Saturday and I want to wish her happy birthday but I don’t want to text her so I
want to say it to her in school tmrw but the only problem is that she doesn’t know that I know it’s her birthday on Saturday and I feel like it’ll be weird if I wish her happy birthday before it’s her birthday and I don’t even know how to get to that topic so I need help with that. please lmk if you guys have any suggestions or should I even wish her happy birthday but I don’t want to regret it when I’m done with school | Crush |
Also what does bi4 mean? | Crush |
we've been talking for a while and he has walked me to class a couple times i really want to know if he likes me | Crush |
I met this girl last year and we have been best friends for the past 6 months, and I think I am starting to catch feelings for her. I feel like she has kind of flirted with me but sometimes I feel like she isn’t interested. We have gone to school basketball games alone together before, and she always ends up acting different than she does around when she is with her friends. But a couple times where it may have been obvious or I say something that sounds kinda flirty, she will say, Haha never gonna happen, in kind of a joking voice. | Crush |
i like this guys. he’s a conservative and i am very much not. should i persue it? | Crush |
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It started off as friends. He introduced himself and instantly you both became friends. Then you realize you begin having feelings for him but it’s impossible because your best friend has been in loved with him for years. then a fake friend kept saying that you were ugly and how can he possibly like someone like you. But he demonstrated signs he liked you but it was too much to handle so you ignore him. He starts asking everyone what he did wrong and then moves schools. Then 5 years later he shows signs that he still cares and so do you. But yet again drama starts when people get involved. How do you move on from someone you fell in love with but never dated? | Crush |
Why? Lol ah. | Crush |
how do I take it further
back story: knew this guy since highschool, he went to my hs instantly hit it off and started being a thing, we were very young so we stopped and stayed friends. both went through our own relationships and now we are both single & in university (different universities and not that far apart)
now: we are good friends, call here and there and he makes some flirty remarks. we have talked about it broadly but we both don’t want a relationship now or for a while. I really like him but I don’t know how to grow it a bit more. I went up to his uni this weekend and wasn’t planning on seeing him but I called him just to see if he wanted to hangout for a bit and he offered for me and my friends to just sleep at his, he made me food and gave me a place to crash and talked with me until the morning.
I cannot tell him how I feel, I don’t want to scare him off? What do I do? What do guys like in terms of how a girl acts I just don’t know how to be or how to get the wheels turning | Crush |
Backstory: We dated as teens, I had a crush on him beforehand it was a huge dream come true.
Present-day:
I reply to his snapchats (that he posts on public), he simply replies. The kind of lack of attention you give to someone that you don’t like or not giving because they are in a relationship.
I complimented him and he didn’t reply to it so I asked if he was seeing someone trying to figure out why he was being cold towards my compliment.
He replied no and he is working in his mental health. I left it at that, no emotions attached.
I tried texting again, the same things happens. So I asked if I was a bugger for texting him. And that I just wanted to reconnect with past friends because I was overseas. He replies that he’s been busy.
Before he didn’t read the message for weeks and still posted on snapchat. I didn’t know that I deserved that. He probably didn’t have time and probably did something better worth his time.
I am just so over it I recently texted him, still no interest in reading it again so I am ready to give up. I did want to invite him out but I think he gave enough signs that I should leave him alone even if it is unconscious from his end.
Guys of this sub-reddit, how do I proceed?
I still kinda want to invite him out on a platonic level, no strings attached, but I LOVE HIM. It’s saddening and depressing, left me very sad this morning. I still do have his number on whatsapp but I don’t want to overstep my limits. | Crush |
TLDR: I like a quiet person and want to get to know them but I’m also a quiet person
don’t have anyone else to talk to about it, so there’s this guy. He’s super quiet. I think I’ve only ever heard him talk once. I want to get to know him but it’s difficult because I am also a very quiet person.
If I end up not talking to him by the end of the term. I’m just going to ask him out, to get some closure and to shoot my shot.
He’s in most of my classes, but we hardly ever speak or get the chance to do so, which sucks. I could try going up to him and talking to him but I don’t know what to talk about and wouldn’t it be a little weird?? I don’t know
I wish I had someone to talk about this sort of thing with | Crush |
LET ME EXPLAIN:
so basically I had a huge crush on this guy over the summer and randomly we ended up hooking up one night when he was really drunk. He claims that he doesn’t remember anything from that night but I don’t know if he’s telling the truth or lying if I’m being honest. Like they say drunk actions are sober thoughts, which I don’t believe entirely, but I really just don’t know because it was so random.
but anyway, we never really talked much before that other than the occasional hi every time I saw him at a party and even after I told him we hooked up it was still just that. But we never really got to talk about it.
so for a Halloween party me and one of my good friends went to a party at his house. we were both super drunk and thought it be sooooo funny if we went in his room and played hide and seek and locked him out of his room. Obviously sober me looks back at this and realizes how stupid it was but we were both drunk. He doesn’t know my friend so he of course got pretty mad that we were in his room without his permission and he sort of just told us to get out and then asked us if we stole anything and I just explained to him that I was really sorry and we were just joking and we didn’t take anything.
I think the next day or at least the next time I saw him at that party we said hi to each other again and he sort of just goes “dont go in my room again super sus” and he kind of laughs about it but at the same time I kind of could tell he was serious. And I told him I was super sorry I totally understand y he’s mad and i told him i rlly dont want him to be mad at me. he sort of just repeats super sus and smiles at me, blows me a kiss, and then just leaves. so I still couldn’t tell if he was really mad about it but also I just wanted to talk to him about the whole situation including the fact that we hooked up which for some reason he constantly avoids.
so keep in mind I’ve never really talked to this man, we only added each other on Snapchat after we hooked up but after our hook up it’s not like we were talking and snapping constantly. The only time I ever really spoke to him is if I saw him at a party. out of nowhere yesterday he Snapchats me at night and it was just this picture of him holding up a piece sign with no text. I waited half an hour because I didn’t want to seem too desperate and I snapped him back in the same kind of position with the peace sign and just said hi. and the reason I’m freaking out is because it’s been a day and he hasn’t opened it at all, he probably just sent me that on accident and he’s probably thinking oh shit why did I do that she’s really weird and obsessed with me and now she’s gonna think I like her or I’m obsessed with her :(
all I really wanna do is be able to talk to him in person and just explain to him how sorry I am about the whole hiding his room thing and more importantly I want to talk to him about our hookup. because it just doesn’t make sense to me that I talk to him one time, never see talk to him after that, and then one random night at a party when he’s drunk the immediate reaction he has when he sees me is to ask me to come to his room? Like was the reason you asked me to come to your room was because you were drunk and that was you completely unfiltered and that was your immediate reaction when you saw me? Or is this just really a one time hook up that meant nothing? because maybe it meant nothing to him but I really like him and i just want to talk about this to him so i can b at peace and stop stressing. | Crush |
So I have had a crush on this guy for about a year now, and I'm really confused by what is happening between us. He's in a different year than me in school, so I've never talked to him except to ask him a question where he gave me a response. When I'm in his vision where he can see me and I look up at him or notice him, I usually see him looking at me. I might be wrong but it happens too often for me to make myself believe I'm imagining it for the sake of love. We also used to catch the same bus in the morning, and during this time he would usually stare at me each morning. This part I know is definite because I've seen it happen multiple times and my friends noticed it and told me as well. Is he just looking at me because he thinks I'm a creep for looking at him and he's trying to catch me doing it? This thought I have thought about a lot because he's extremely attractive and popular, could get any girl he wants, while I'm just average in all ways possible. Someone please break my heart and tell me he's not into me and to get over him so I can move on. | Crush |
she talk to for the first time what should i do? | Crush |
Ahm so…I know this boy. We met a few years ago but recently we got closer because my brother and his sister are going to live together (as friends) in college. My parents and his parents have been friends for a while now. (4 years or even more ig)
We recently found out that we have A LOT in common so his sister is always making yk “jokes” about “us” .
He goes to the same school as me.
On friday he sat next to me for like 10 minutes and he was moving his legs just like mine (we were sitting on a table) and wearing all stars converse too. We were both listening to the same singer (we have the same music taste) and we were just there . We didn’t even talk but I felt a strong connection. He had lots of chairs , tables etc…(his friends were literally on a table next no mine) and he sat next to me.
I’m literally overthinking this since friday.
He doesn’t have classes this week due to a school project etc but next week he’ll be back and I just don’t know.
(ps: we don’t follow each other on social media but we know what’s each other’s instagram (we both have private accounts) . I could send him a request but I’m too shy to do it. Should I do it?)
Thank you :) | Crush |
So I have a crush on one of my sisters friends that we do not see much anymore cause of COVID. I have also seen her talking to a guy but i am not sure if anything is going on. But every time I see her I get butterfly’s and I can’t stop thinking about her. I need help to find a to get her to hangout with me or my sister so I can at least get her number. | Crush |
She has bpd (borderline personality disorder) and just talks about all of her problems with it and her ptsd of why she has it and I’m just there to listen and she said “thanks for listening, you feel like my own therapist” and idk how to feel about this. I mean I’m happy im making her feel better even if she doesn’t like me like that but idek. I asked her out after knowing her for like two days and she said she didn’t know me long enough and then she asked if it was a joke so I just played it off as that. So idk if she likes me or what. | Crush |
i \[15M\] have secret feelings for my stepsister \[23F\]... she is the nicest and also the hottest stepsister ever, and i'm taller than her . this halloween, she dressed in a red corset and nearly all my senses just exploded 😍😍 . i try not to come off obvious, and she thinks im just her little brother. but sometimes, she also treats me older than my age which makes me kind offff blush inside. i know, i know, it's a bit weird but i can't help it. | Crush |
Ive (15m) been in a boy's class long enough to be in love with him. We're not in the same hallway, we've never met, but we're both in a drama club. How do I give him my number without him knowing it was me? | Crush |
So I have a crush on a girl for 4 years and I want to ask her if she wants a relationship with me. we were at the same school last year but in the 4 years we were only in class together for a year and that was for one subject. we know each other but we never speak. Every time we saw each other we looked each other in the eye not that long but not that short either if you know what I mean:) . Now we can't see each other anymore, and i miss those times when we saw each other because i loved going to school just to see her and that already made me happy. that's why I want a relationship with her, but how do I start something like that? | Crush |
So. I have an insane crush, I’ve had crushes on people before but never this strong. He is a single person that I am next to positive he like boys in some aspect as well but he hides it because of religious family. Long story short I am positive I have a chance with him but I don’t want to put him in danger of his family.
But what I am wanting to ask is I have almost started imagining that he is here and I can almost feel his touch and here his words. It’s really strange because I’ve never felt this before so I wanted to know if this was normal? | Crush |
So when we went back to school I made this one guy friend and I like him and when we are in lunch he is always looking at me and I look at him back but he sits with a lot of girls and I’m scared that he likes one of them because he told me he liked someone and I think it’s one of them lately I have been talking to this other guy and my friend said that she thinks my guy friend is jealous because I’m talking to someone other than him. All my friends think me and my guy friend are dating and they ship me and him together and his own friend also dose it to. His friend asked me if I liked him but I didn’t say anything because what if he tells and my guy friend and he doesn’t like me back. My guy friend is so confusing he gives me mixed signals and at this point I don’t know what to do. I don’t know if I should text him or leave him alone. Please give me advice on what to do. | Crush |
And got friendzoned because someone also asked her AT THE SAME TIME and she picked them not me :( | Crush |
I had an event at my school that I invited him to and he came. But then he spent most of his time with two other girls and barely spoke to me. Now I'm wondering if he came for me or them. It's a bittersweet feeling because I haven't seen him in a while but I barely saw him today. | Crush |
Hey, I started talking to this girl days ago.we had eye contact before many Times when I see her I would just smile.One day when returning homee I found out she sent me a Friend request so I accepted it. I saw her storyyy which had one of my fav bands song So I replieedd nd WE talkeddd a lot .next day ,I Saw her looking to me so I approached we sat for hours talking. And we Always texttt she's so kind and introverted kinda socially awkward which made me like her a lot.the more we talk the more I Like her more.tbh, I didnt expect any of this to happen to me in a short timee. We talk endlessly now and whenever we are together her Friends r smiling and making fun of her. What Im uncertain of is if she likes Me back.Sometimes I think she do. Based on her reactions and the Way she Care about me.I Dont really wanna rush but i think im asking her out next week or should I wait Moree and what should I doo im socially awkward too.one day we'd talk a lot the other we would just look to eachother and Say random shit cuz we awkward. | Crush |
I have a little crush on a boy from my class. Actually he likes me but I don really want to fall for him. These days I can't stop thinking about him, Talking to him makes me happy. I really want to stop thinking about him. I think having crush on him is stressing me out and I couldn't properly concentrate on my class works. What should I do to end this crush on that guy??? | Crush |
If loving someone wholeheartedly is right then why i don't feel it right when she does the same thing with someone else? And if she's right then why am i wrong? Is there anything in the middle of right and wrong? | Crush |
He has a FUCKING GIRLFRIEND!!!! I'm so pissed like instead of eating lunch I got practice my instruments in the band room so him and another person started coming. A few days ago he said "nobody knows where I am 24/7.. except my girlfriend." I froze for like 2 second but acted normal. In the inside I'm totally pissed. | Crush |
I’ve had this crush on the same guy since 9th grade, now that we are seniors I want to make a move. We have always been in the same classes, but he is very shy and never talks with others in class. I don’t know what I should even say to him to have an insightful conversation. | Crush |
Does anyone have even an idea on how to find a crush!? I don't have a crush since weeks and I miss having one, any idea how can I find a crush? | Crush |
so theres this girl that i rlly like. and today we had to move classrooms cause we had a substitute teacher and when we got to the other classroom (keep in mind our class has few people and the classroom was huge) she chose to sit next to me ?? anyway, i just started reading cause im already caught up with my work and i out my headphones in to zone out but i just barely heard her ask "what're you reading?" which i just didnt know what to say so i just hoped she would think i didnt hear bc of my headphones then the teacher asked me to take a list to the office. then after that, i came back but one of my friends sat on my other side and basically ruined the vibe but i couldnt say that to him lol. BUT LIKE WAS SHE JUST TRYING TO SMALL TALK OR LIKE WTF CAUSE this could just be her being a normal human and asking a normal question and i could be looking wayyy too deep into it but like i just dk what to think | Crush |
So I’m in this Bible study thing called campus life and I go there with my cousin every week and there is this girl I really like. I don’t know her to well but I know that she is really nice and we already have one thing in common, campus life. I can never bring my self to approach her though and actually talk to her. I’ve only ever talked to her if it was part of a game we were doing or something like that. Any advice on what I should do? | Crush |
LOL I’m a female in college and like. I have this huge crush on a guy from my residence hall, and like he’s just so cute and he always says hi to me when we see eachother. Ofc I don’t wanna seem obsessed but it’s just like he’s so adorable agh. I guess I’m asking the guys; how would u prefer a girl to ask u out? I don’t want to come off as creepy or whatever 😭 I’ve had this crush for months but I’m so shy | Crush |
Ok so I had this person I liked and they liked me back and that person confessed to me saying that they like me and I said that I liked her back and we were going to date but all of a sudden she rejected me saying she just wanted to be friends with me what should I do...I feel really fucked up...I just don't know how to feel right now...what should I do about these feelings? | Crush |
I have a girl in my class I like, I don't know her that well tbh, but overall I use wanna ask for her snap. But I wanna do it in an indirect way so it's not super obvious. Any advice? | Crush |
(Im a guy)Hey, so today at school me and my crush were texting and randomly she texted me asking do you like me. And bc I'm the stupid 14 year old, I said no bc I knew that she like a different kid on our school football team, but anyways I said no and also that that was rlly random, and she said she thought I did bc I'm "mean to her", that's dumb and all. But she asked like 2 more times and I answered no every time🤦. But wait it gets worse, I asked if she liked me and she said hell no. And that was a sign to me that she didn't like me but I want your guy's thoughts on if she likes me. | Crush |
So there was this girl I connected online
A few years back . We connected to collaborate on a fun project to build our portfolios , during our meetings . I fell head over heels for her she’s was / is everything I ever wanted in a romantic partner and for a
Hot min , I thought we might click and things might work out , but she kinda grew
Distant and today I feel like she’s only in touch with me cause I might be helpful for work reasons someday . I’ve gotten close to other women now and then but no one comes close to her and I can’t get her off my mind . I know she doesn’t like me I just want to tell her how much I feel for her and how much I adore her , I’ve been holding back these feelings for so long . I have no hopes of anything working out I wanna move on . But I feel like I should tell her how I feel but a part of me feels I’ll just be annoying her and this just might be really embarrassing , but a part of my is dying to tell her . What should I do ? Should I tell her or just suppress my feelings . Part of me feels once I let it all out I’ll be able to move on . I’m sorry about the long text I hope this made sense . | Crush |
I recently met a girl she is in my high school she is the most wonderful girl she started talking to me about a month a ago. Me and her have a lot in common we like the same music,art, etc. She even knows my boss she works on his farm. I need help I recently had a field trip with her and she would not talk to me. She Gave me the cold shoulder but would talk to everyone else. But not me. She is very shy though but it was just weird seeing her talk to everyone and not talk to me. I asked if she wanted to take a picture with me at the field trip and she did. But I just idk I feel like she's sending me mixed signals. What should I do. I feel like I want to ask her did I do anything wrong that could of made her stop talking to me. All I want to do is get to know her more. But I feel like she is putting up a barrier for some reason. Since last month we hit it off well. We've been talking and even got her snapchat. She doesn't really look at it. That's also why am wondering did I say something wrong. Please help what should I do. | Crush |
I've had a crush on them for like a year and they rejected about two months ago. They're also demisexual though so... Should I give up? | Crush |
This morning I dreamt that I kissed my crush. Then I woke up. | Crush |
I don't want to make you feel bore, just wanted to share what's inside me a bit more;
I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable, remember that for you , i will always be available;
Wanted to hug you and have you in my arms forever, but never even touched you thinking that it might put you in anger;
Wished to hold your hands till my soul leaves my body, want you near always, even if you reject and choose somebody. | Crush |
My crush is super quiet, intact I only see her talk when she is with her friends, otherwise anywhere else she is dead silent.I always catch her looking at me, when she’s with her friends she whispers to them and looks at me, but when I look back at her she quickly looks down or away, the eye contact barley lasting like 3 seconds. Help I don’t know how to approach her | Crush |
TL;DR- i like a girl and she gives me mixed signals.
i met her while we were building our homecoming float, and instantly started a flirtatious-type vibe with her; which she reciprocated. sometime after this we hung out together at the homecoming football game and ate dinner together afterwards. the day after, we tore down the float, and afterwards i drove her to get some lunch and even dropped her off at home.
then the next football game came up, and she wanted me to go with her, but cancelled last minute because she was going to go to a birthday party (lame). then i see her the next day at a this charity thing (need it for service hours) at this, we hung out throughout the whole thing, it was fun! i even gave her my jacket because she was cold and she even wrote a heart on my hand with a marker.
after it was over, i asked her to lunch; i was rejected, she claimed that she couldnt go even after complaining throughout the day about how hungry she was and how she has nothing to do later. I WOULDNT OF EVEN ASKED IF IT WERENT FOR THOSE SIGNALS.
then she leaves me on delivered for an entire DAY and consitently leaves me on delivered for hours on end while ik she is snapping other people. (snapscore and snap map)
its also extremely difficult to get time to spend with her because i have no classes with her and dont see her outside of school unless theres a football game or some service project going on.
should i quit?
should i keep going?
should i go all out and ask her out on a fr date?
im stuck.... | Crush |
I prefer to dm someone about this anyone available to talk with | Crush |
So I finally had the talk with the guy I’ve been liking for the past year. ( if you read my previous posts you’ll know pretty much the whole story of what’s going on) Anyways he finally told me that he still likes me, but he wouldn’t be happy if we got together. He also said how I do make him really happy? So I’m confused. He said the main reason for him not wanting to date is my ability to not speak Spanish. He then also told me how he does get jealous with how I interact with our coworker, but then he said how it’s also his issue because he shouldn’t feel jealous because we aren’t together. He’s been crying out of guilt, which hurts to see. But what hurts the most is when he said that he wouldn’t be happy, because all I’ve ever done was to make sure that he’s happy…. He broke my heart guys. & it’s messed up because I can’t leave him cause he’s my bestfriend. | Crush |
So, there's a girl, umm, btw there are a lot of ways to describe a girl nowadays, here's how i describe her :- She is an angel, with world's best eyes and moonlike smile
And there's a boy, yeah me😅, funny, chubby, good at singing, sometimes a comedian and very shy😅
Good things:- She's single.. Till now.. And she is just a bus stop away from me
Not so good things:- we both have no freinds in common, neither we have met each other in real life... But.. But... But...One day, something special as well as quite disappointing happened
Once, me and my friends were going to school in our school bus which always stops at the bus stop where she is seen many times(according to my freinds) We all had chemistry test, but i didn't know that day will also mark as the beginning of some other chemistry in my life...
So, as soon as the bus stopped at the station, in a taxi.. Next to a lady, i saw someone sitting.. Yes yes yes!!!! It was "her" and the lady beside her was her mother.
I literally screamed like a 5 yr old child
My chemistry teacher, who was sitting just two seats away, thought i got mad studying chemistry whole night. My freinds were cheering me as if i was getting married that day... Haha
So, wasting no time, i put my head out of the window and tried to call her... But... But... But... Destiny is a joy killer! As soon as i try to call her, the crowd went on horning their vehicles (coz everyone were stucked in huge traffic) and within no time, lights went green and our bus moved away from the station.
The climax ends like this:- I passed in chemistry test, but failed in chemistry of love. | Crush |
so recently i developed a crush on this one girl whom i've been helping get over her ex. really nothing special, although the problem is, i know she has a lot of other friends who help her with this specific thing probably much more than i do and are also probably much closer to her, since we haven't even been talking for that long, and i have this gut feeling that im nothing special to her at all lol. i need to get close to her as a friend first in order to even consider making any type of move, and i don't think that's happened yet due to the amount of support she receives etc. at first i was like yeah it's okay i can try to make her more interested in me it isn't even that hard, which kind of did succeed perhaps? since she complimented my advice and called it "actually realistic" and also kind of stands out from the advice she receivers from the rest of her friends. although, there are a couple of things making that seem completely contradictory, such as:
1. the other friends of hers who help her have known her for much longer and they also hang out irl meanwhile she lives in the other side of the world for me
2. just today i found out that a lot of people have apparently told her she's hot
that's about it. the second thing to be exact hurt me a lot, it just makes me feel as if people are already trying to steal her from me and i havent even been able to get her yet. plus her friends make that 10 times worse lol. just an obstacle in the process of trying to become someone special to her, someone that she looks up to the most out of all of her friends. but i guess that's near impossible right?
maybe you'll tell me to give up already, since it probably doesn't even seem worth it. yeah well, i wish i could believe that too. but her personality is something i find more appealing than anything i've seen my whole life. (almost) as if i found my soulmate, after so many tries in the past. plus i just see so much potential based on how she handled the last relationship she was in, aka the one im trying to help her get over. she seems like the perfect person for me and i dont want to miss the opportunity.
anyway, what should i do exactly? thanks.
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my apologies if this was near incomprehensible | Crush |
If you read my previous post you can see what happen 😅 to the guy I used to like…
So My birthday is coming up soon, and I’m thinking of inviting my friend to celebrate it for the first time
So I did and some of my friend are coming and for no what reason I ended up asking they guy to also come to my birthday…. Which is fine right?
But now that I think about it I regret it and I feel bad bc some of my friend wouldn’t like him to be there and they might not be showing it but my friend are probably talking behind my back for inviting him 😅
And plus I was done with him but I still invite I’m I stupid or wott
But but he told me that he will let me know if he’s not busy and I have a feeling he prob won’t be coming soo ig….
What do you guys think about this situation? | Crush |
So, around april I started liking a girl, a really nice one who helped me out a lot. She had a boyfriend then, so I didnt do anything. When they broke up I asked her out, but she said that she didnt want to lose me as a friend.
Anyways that should'vd been the end, but wasnt. I'm still completely in love with her, and I know it can't get anywhere but I can't avoid it. Do you have any advice? | Crush |
hes!!! so!!! perfect!!!
god i dont even care that he likes someone else jsut being around him brightens my day. i dont know if this is creepy but i hope its not :') hes just so funny and nice and . god i wont shut up about how much he makes me laugh and smile heh | Crush |
This crush feels like little ants tunnelling though an old tree. I spend every spare moment daydreaming. I can feel the thunder and I know the lightning is about to strike. | Crush |
Ayo bro idek if I need advice or if I just wanna talk. I've liked this girl for the longest time and it's a long story that you'll find in my previous posts, but she likes me too, but things got complicated so we both decided to let things go. Neither of us has managed to let things go yet (it's been about a month) but we never talk to each other about it and find things out through my best friend.
Turns out my best friend likes her and it actually causes her (my best friend) physical and emotional pain when my crush talks to her about me. I've decided that I'm never letting this girl get between me and my best friend, but I REALLY like her and it's been really tough trying (and failing) to get over her. My best friend tells me about how she still likes me and misses me a lot, and me and her are still good friends so I care about her quite a bit. If she ever came up to me and asked if we could try again, I know my ultimate answer would have to be no because of my best friend, but I really dk if I have the willpower to look her in the eye and tell her no, or if I'll be weak and give in to my own personal desires and ruin the best friendship I have ever had for a simple crush (a very wonderful human being, but still bros before hoes amirite) Everything is telling me to shut this down but I honestly don't know if I can.
It sucks because I know that if ever my best friend and her were to be a thing (which is actually quite likely, they're really close) I would be 100% supportive and happy for them because they're two very important people to me and I want them to be happy in whatever way possible, but my best friend genuinely cannot do the same no matter how hard she tries (and she has tried) and I can't watch my best friend suffer like this, and at this point I'd much rather have my crush start liking my best friend. I can handle their collective happiness, I can't handle my best friend's anguish.
Edit ~ YOOOOOOO THEY'RE GOIN ON A DATE WHEYYYYYYYY | Crush |
Hey,
So I've got a crush on a girl. She goes in my school. My best friend has got a crush on her too but when i said too him that i've got a crush on her he didn't said to me that he has got a crush on her too. In Austria we say this is "ehrenlos".
So I think he has got better cards do get her. But theres my ex. My ex is my crushs best friend. I think i've got feelings for her too. Could you please help me... Should l do something or something else? Let me know. | Crush |
It was a January morning in 2019 when I woke up then suddenly had the urge to confess to my childhood crush/ friend & neighbor. Before, we lived in the same street, his house across mine. But all the people that lived in that street were forced to move out bcs they were gonna build new houses. So abt December 2018 I was on a different street from him.
That January morning I wanted to confess all of a sudden. Maybe I had the courage bcs he was far away from me and had less possible chances of bumping into him. After saying, "(his name), I like you". I didn't opened my phone the whole day.
The next morning I was excited to see his reply. But all I got was a 'SEEN' ! That made me feel worse. I panicked and deleted the message, but there was only the ' remove for you' and not the 'delete for all'!
Later that day I learned from his brother (whom I'm close with), that he has girlfriend. For fudging sake, that's the reason why he didn't reply to my confession ! I felt embarrassed and decided to never cross his street.
But ofc there are school days and we would cross paths in pedestrians and gates to our village ! And there was this time that I was waiting for my ride to pick me up and while waiting I saw him! With his girlfriend! Him carrying her bag! Walking her out the gate. Me being surprised, acted like I was on the phone but was clearly checking them out lol.
I started to hang out less with his brother and friends , technically I was also busy with school work but this gave me a chance not to see him.
Then suddenly we met again, May this year... And had multiple interactions. This is getting long and kinda far from my topic so I'll just do it in another post :)) | Crush |
I've had a crush for about 4 years plus now (from 8th grade to now, and I'll be starting as a senior soon) but should just give up on it? She's (unfortunately) had a boyfriend for the past year and I don't see it stopping, but when we talk I also feel she would like me as a partner down the long run (or at least she seems interested in me) and I've expressed my feelings twice now, gotten friend zoned both times, so at this point??? What do I do, should I just give up hope, or just wait and see? | Crush |
So I (M19) haven't really been in a relationship before and this happened my late last year of high school but she (F18) sorta made it know to my friend that she sorta liked me. My friend and later friends would urge me to talk to her and stuff, (which I suck at talking and just staring conversations so it was hard)eventually my one friend started having us sorta double date and we would hang out, watch movies, and drive around but in the end I just took things to slow and she just sorta distanced her self from me. This sorta messed me up for a few months but I kinda got over her and we have hung out in the same friend groups only a few times and there dosnt seem to be and mean feeling. (She actually asked be one time a year later if I like sort or tall girls which I thought was wierd since she is a decently short girl)
It has been 2 years since that and I kinda missed it
Idk if there's even a chance because of how awkward I am and how bad i do conversations but I still sorta care about her still. | Crush |
Oh my gosh. I have a crush on this boy I go to church with and I’m stressing about what to do. I feel like I should tell him but I don’t wanna be shot down. What do I do?? | Crush |
Pretty much repost from r/crushadvice but yeah
My crush came out not straight, but I still shot it. Clearly I missed because she didn't like me back. Obviously... | Crush |
I started following her on Instagram. We never really talked much but I feel like I should shoot my shot with her. I don’t think she follows me so I tried to like all her pics at once and got no response.
Wwyd in my shoes? | Crush |
Recently ive been really depressed and just wanna kill myself every second, this is nothing new i just feel more shitty now then before. But typing with my crush realy makes my day but ever since i confessed my feelings she started to ghost me. I understand she doesn’t feel the same and ive been trying to move on but she’s the only thing that realy makes me happy and feel good about myself so i keep tagging her on tiktok on how i feel for her but she ignores them too and i stopped tagging her now but im thinking hey it’s summertime i got absolutely nothing to do shits boring so fuck it should i try to create contact or tag her? | Crush |
There is this girl who I have a crush on. I’ve been wanting to talk to her for a while to get to know her better, and to eventually confess to her that I like her. We already know each other a little bit and talk sometimes too. The problem is, I haven’t seen her for a few weeks. I also don’t know when I would see her again. I’m getting tired of keeping my feeling towards her bottled up and just want to get it over with. This is why I have been considering just messaging her and confessing I like her. However, I am nervous of how she may think of me differently from me just messaging her out of the blue that I like her, and how things could be awkward between us when I do see her again. I’m not worried about what she may message back though. She’s a very sweet and nice girl, and not the type to say “ew” or think I’m weird or anything like that. I’m wondering what others have to say about this. Should I wait and talk to her irl to form more of a connection with her before I confess? Or just message her and see how things go from there? | Crush |
So I've been talking to this girl for about 2 months straight now and I'm thinking to confess to her but I dont know how exactly I dont want to say directly cuz I feel like that would be too sudden especially that I haven't been In contant with her much +a big problem my only way of talking to her is thru messages and the next time that I can meet her is in mid september WHAT SHOULD I DO PLS ? | Crush |
You ever just sit there and listen to your crush and some girl talk for hours and not even acknowledge you, but still cheer him on to "go and get her " in pms . Like it hurts a lot but it if it makes hims happy then that's what I want. | Crush |
So I'm completely in love with a girl and I want to ask her to ask her out but she doesn’t know me really well. We are at the same school but I am going to leave that school after the holidays and I would like to ask her to go out. She is a nice and sweet girl. but if she doesn't want a relationship because she doesn't know me well, I understand that. | Crush |
there is this girl i really like and everyone says i like her there is some evidence like her talking about me alot acting nervous but also confident around me and when someone was going through a list of people she liked she said no to everyone then my name came up she smiled and shrugged.But shes kinda mean to me is that how she flirts or is she trying to tell me she doesnt like me. | Crush |
I'm 17, There's this one girl that I have been crushing on for the past 3 years...
I did confess, but got rejected instantly... The reason was she liked someone else, she even told me to wait for her but got jebaited. advice? | Crush |
so basically ive known this girl (17f) for a few months now through school. shes really pretty and popular amongst guys. i slowly developed a crush on her after talking to her more and getting to know her. she broke up with her ex just a few weeks into our friendship and we had this really deep and emotional talk where she cried abt breaking up. of course as a friend i comforted her and told her to follow her heart.
the thing is a few guys like her and she even rejected this guy twice already, her reason being shes not ready for anything now. knowing this fact, i kind of want to get closer to her and see where this friendship takes us but ive tried and nothing works:( could i get some advice?
ps i live in a country where we are more conservative, ie most girls wont say yes to going out with each other 1on1 unless youre dating so i guess thats off the table | Crush |
Any advice? | Crush |
there's this guy that I've been friends with for the past 4 years, but we got pretty close this year. tbh I kinda stopped talking over text with him nowadays cuz I thought he treated me like his streak, but when I meet him in person, he notices little things about me and is always nice. is he catching feelings for me or does he still think of me as a friend? how do i find out? | Crush |
I know my friend for 3 years now and 6 months ago I started falling in love with her but I tried to "block" my feelings because its my friend and I dont want to fall in love with her. But now im really in love I just cant resist.
Idk what to do about that. Its the best girl I know so far so I dont want to lose her by confessing my feelings.
Any advices are welcome.
Sry im not a native speaker so I make a lot of mistakes.
Ty | Crush |
Update: We’re going on a date tomorrow!! | Crush |
there’s a guy I like and I’m unsure if he likes me as well…
we know each other but talked about a year ago but stopped due to a argument.
the start of this year I think he has been “noticing” me a bit more like looking at me,his friend group all staring at me and on the bus I heard his friends say “just ask her” I’ve tried to talk to my friends about it but they really don’t care so if anybody could give me just a bit of advice I would really appreciate it! | Crush |
My (24F) crush (31M) has an alcohol addiction problem...he has been sober for the last 5-7 years but relapsed recently. So starting yesterday he will be in rehab for about 30 days. So he won't even have access to his phone to call/text me or anything. I'm trying not to be selfish and I am happy that he's getting the help he needs. But we were going to meet up soon, it's been 2 years since we last saw each other. We are just fwb so far but I am kinda hoping for more. I kinda want to be bf/gf, but I am a bit concerned about his problem and if he will recover from this. He is trying...but yeah. Also my mom/stepdad would not approve of him... | Crush |
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Crush seems painfully inadequate for the way I feel, but I just need to vent a little. advice is welcome.
I’ve recently accepted that the person I’m into is happily interested in someone else. We have history and I want this person to be happy, but I can’t help myself from feeling like a selfish asshole. The last thing I’d do is tell them how I feel, because the last thing anyone needs is my complicated feelings homewrecking their own good situation. I just so rarely like people that when I do, and I shouldn’t, I don’t know what to do. I see them all the time, too. It’s hard keeping up the facade that I’m not envious of the person they like, especially when they bring the person up all the time. I’m not even a particularly jealous person. But god, stupid fucking feelings make you think things you wouldn’t any other time. Is there anything that’s worked for any of you when it comes to getting over someone? Or is time the only option?
Feeling like an idiot, as always! | Crush |
i've been bestfriends with this girl for 6 years now and i've liked her for nearly the same amount of time. all my friends and our mutual friends kept telling me to ask her out already and that we were already basically dating with the things we would do together. yesterday after alot of anxiety i finally told her about my feelings and the response i got from her was that she has started to see another guy for about 1 month. she then said that nothing has changed for her and she still wants to be close with me but i don't know where to go from here. i still wanna be friends with her to but i also feel empty and i know that there will be pain. any advice from you people? | Crush |
I never met a girl like her. I think she challenges me because she is very similar to my personality.
She hit on me hard and early. I mean touching she even tried to invite herself to hang out with me.
I started to have a crush on her too and it made me feel insecure.
long story short when I started to pay attention to another girl as much as her she got super jealous she treated me like i am not there, then she started to act possessive then she gave up and started hitting on another guy she doesnt even like.
I backed away and we stopped talking.
I had a major fight with the other girl and when she knew about it she started to talk to me again even sometimes ignore the other guy.
Whats going on? I am leaving the city in two weeks and I do not even know if I should tell her | Crush |
Its been 7 years now living in a City when I first came into this city I don't have any friends but I found a friend here I won't tell his name but he was one year older than me he was quite cute and good looking his personality is really great he helped everyone but that was time where I was a fool I have never ever heard about love we were really close friends that time our parents often hang out a lot at parties evening dinners so we also often hang out there was a time when we even shared a bond of best friends let's say we have a friendship of 4 years one day he joke out like what if we had love relationship in the future I was like love what's that and he explained me and I said you and me I laughed and I said your like my brother I would never ever fall in love with you eww and he said the same that time I just love him as friends and just 4 years goes like playing, hanging out together etc he stand out for me whenever I need him he was my strength and after 4 years we stop meeting together talking together we even barely see ourself even though his house is next to mine,s house cause we were all grown up he hang with his friends I myself hang out with my friends too suddenly after many months he had an terrible accident where his brain was damaged when I heard I was like broken I literally cried for weeks he was hospitalized for several weeks and finally he recovered and I keep thinking about wow I didn't even know that I was so into him I thought its several months now I don't care much about him now but I can't sleep at night cause I can't stop thinking about him everyday every nights I kept thinking about him I asked my bestie what is this feeling and she said your truly in love with him but I thought we have been good friends for many years and may be I thinking too much but now I am curious about and when we met somehow someday he often asked me the question do you have anyone you like but I am still thinking do I really like him ( I know its like a fanfiction and Wattpad stories but I am opening my heart cause here is no one with me whom I can say my heart out give me suggestions out ) bye 🤭 | Crush |
It's been like a year since I have been on Reddit and I need advice. So me and my friend that I met this year like the same guy. She liked him b4 I did. But he doesn't like her, and likes me. I didn't even know until a few months later. I don't want to tell her that, cuz ik it will hurt her. But idk. We aren't gonna date or anything, at least not now. So.... WTF DO I DO? | Crush |
We are not besties, but we are good friends.We care about each other and we share some personal stuf too.However it kills me to see him flirting with other pretty girls.He is charming and always gets the attention of good looking woman.I am not that attractive, but i get called cute a lot.He likes to keep me close becuse he says i am a very nice girl and different from the rest.Yet to me sometimes it feels like he forgets that i even exist or that he will never see something special in me.He is an extrovert type, but he doest reveal much about himself, i am one of those very few people he feels comfortable to talk to about personal stuf.But i am very shy type and i have a very hard time opening up to him or talking about myself and letting him know me better because i fear his judgement or that he will start to find me boring
Please,some advices, how can i get more close to him! | Crush |
so i confessed to my crush and got rejected but i still wanna keep in contact but should i let her be cuz she’s probably gossiping about me coming in the wrong way and being down bad or a simp with her friends but i just cant get over her i just want the smallest contact thats good for me but should i do it? | Crush |
I confessed to my girl crush last december and she told me that she liked me before and that I was too “inconsistent” but I still chat with her like a friend even when I told her that I still had feelings for her. A couple of months passed by, she replies to my messages 2-3 days saying she got busy with family business. Right now I’m living in the US and she’s in the Philippines. There are many times when she chats with me for favors and asking help with something, I do it anyway to help her which only takes me seconds to reply. Last casual message that I sent her asking how she is doing right now, she didn’t even read it nor reply. A couple of days, when I sent her a message that I did her favor for her, she replied to me, “Thank you so much”.
honestly I’m confused right now
I literally only read that message and never reply. Should I talk to her about I feel right now? | Crush |
i have a stupid question. i liked this guy for a long time but he liked my best friend so i forced myself to get over him. a year has passed since then and he suddenly told me he liked me. i liked him before so i easily started liking him again when he confessed. we talked for a bit but then he stopped talking to me and idk the reason why. maybe he got bored of me but now i like him even more than i did a year ago. i got over him last time because i didn’t have to see him for a long time (corona lol). but we do a lot of extracurriculars together so i will be seeing him more often. this is stupid but any tips on how to get over him😅? i seriously want to move on and not care about him anymore. | Crush |
Let’s say hypothetically that there was a way to know if a certain someone reread your old dms. Why would said person do that? | Crush |
(20F) Two years ago I fell for a coursemate (21M) of mine. I never thought I would but he entered my life at a time when I was drawn to chaotic guys. And i fell hard. There were things he said to me that made me think he felt the same way. I think he did catch *some* feelings - it was fairly obvious. But it was also obvious he didn’t want a relationship with me - nor was he infatuated with me the way I was with him. It turned out he was still in love with his ex and he went back to her. This was a really difficult thing to deal with at the time, and I still continued to interact with him which was a huge mistake. He wasn’t good for me. Last year I realised that his place in my life wasn’t healthy for me and I sort of cut him out.
Fast forward to now. I’m over it. He’s not in my life anymore. I barely see or speak to him. I still think about him sometimes but I don’t feel a longing for him and even when I see that he’s in a new relationship now it doesn’t really bother me. However, I recently ran into his best friend - (21M) someone I’ve always been acquainted with but never got to know as well.
His best friend knew everything about my huge crush on my course mate. But for some reason I felt so attracted to the best friend all of a sudden I’ve always found the best friend attractive but it was only recently that i started to want him. He seems more confident now and I’m also more attracted to guys like him than I used to be. I flirted a bit and he seemed flattered. I felt like to pursue the best friend, it would be odd because of how infatuated I used to be with my coursemate. What if he (the best friend) now sees himself as my second choice? But my friends convinced me to text him. They said it’s been two years and i “wouldn’t be doing anything wrong”. So I did. I asked him out via message. But I have yet to get a reply and it’s been over a day. now I keep thinking about how stupid this decision might have been. I’m starting to wonder if he feels insulted by the message considering how I used to feel about his friend (my coursemate). My coursemate is also probably weirded out by it and I keep imagining them talking about me as if I’m a loon because I’ve now gone after both of them.
I keep wondering if asking out my old crush’s best friend was a stupid thing to do. I keep wondering if I actually like his friend now and have nothing to be ashamed of, or if I subconsciously did it to hurt my old crush. Feelings are so hard to understand. | Crush |
I had a crush on this girl for a while now,and whenever we go out we communicate really well and everything is great , but she rarely replies to my texts, shes always active but rarely ever opens our chat to “seen” my texts….. is this a sign? Shes always nice to me irl | Crush |
I had a crush on a girl since I was a child, and it took me 17 years to tell her I love her.
My friends used to stalk her social medias and literally lie to me and tell me she goes out with random dudes everyday, and i of course did not believe any of that.
She told me she knew i had feelings for her when I caressed her hair while she "slept" on my leg while watching a horror movie, I NEVER do/did that (or anything like that) before.
I never had the courage to tell her about my feelings, but there are a couple of reasons why i told her; first one is that i thought i would lose her to someone else, and second is because I hated being lovesick every time she wasn't around.
I still can't stand it when she's not around, it's like she literally has a part of my heart with her. | Crush |
Y’all ever been in that situation? Both of you are mutually aware of your feelings for each other, but you’re just waiting for the other person to say it out loud.
I feel like I’m never going to do it, because in the off chance that he actually doesn’t feel the same way would be um, supremely humiliating.
I think he knows by now how I feel because our friends ship us, and I kinda get the feeling he does too. Should I just go ahead and say it? But what if I’m completely wrong and I’ve been misreading the whole situation…
Idk. | Crush |
So I've had a crush on this guy for around four years, and I've recently fallen out of contact with him, and I can't seem to get over him (To clarify, we never had each other's numbers or anything. When I say contact, I'm referring to hanging out in a group setting.)
I've been having non-stop dreams about him and it's getting pretty annoying because I know that I'm not going to have the chance to date him.
I'm finding it very difficult to let go of this crush especially after four years, so I'd appreciate it if my fellow Redditors could help me out here. Thanks :) | Crush |
Some brief backstory: Developed a crush on this girl at work since I started a new position and we have been working more closely and talking a lot more about a year ago. She's about 30 and I'm 24.
Anyway I have just kinda let it go and taken this as just a passing thing cause I feel like I get attached to people and can fall for someone way too easily.
Last night though I had a dream where we started dating and I introduced her to my parents. The night before I also had a dream about her and I going on a trip together. I've also had dreams about us being intimate and having sex.
Idk how tf to interpret this cause it seems like I'm thinking about her in my future a lot more which makes me wonder if this is more than just a crush? Or if it's just random dreams that I can't get out of my head...
Either way I'm definitely feeling something towards this girl and it's driving me crazy trying to figure it all out | Crush |
I told her. After months of wracking my brain trying to come up with a better alternative; trying to find a suitable moment; Suggesting we go somewhere together; hoping that she'd show interest in me as something more than a friend; looking for signs, speculating, and overanalyzing; I couldn't hold it in anymore. It was drowning me. I had to resort to this 8th grade shit. I went ahead and just told her how I felt about her. I told her that I cherish our friendship, but at some point I realized that I wanted more. I Told her that she makes my day; she's the ray of hope in an office full of stress and drama. That every moment spent with her is the happiest I've been in years, that even there and then - moment where I knew she would reject me - I felt giddy because of her. That whatever it is that we shared, is special to me, even if it's business as usual for her. That I didn't expect an answer from her and it was simply important for her to know about my feelings. And wherever our relationship went from there, she make her decision based on that knowledge. Whatever she decided - I would respect her choice and act accordingly.
I didn't have much hope
For a while she struggled to find the words. She really didn't need to speak. Her eyes said everything. She looked at me with pity. She told me that she really wished she could say something to me... anything really, to comfort me in some way, but she couldn't give me false promises. She said that we were both adults and that we need to handle things as such. She was trying give me a one last warm smile, but all she managed was a look of sympathy one would give a puppy that has been run over by a truck and needs to be put down.
Finally saying everything out loud felt cathartic for a while, it felt good. After a while the initial relief wore off and the reality started syncing in. The reality that I'll never be able to spend time with her in the same way. We'll never share a genuine laugh again. She won't talk to me about her hopes, fears, dreams and aspirations anymore. We'll never share happy moments and create memories. That we'll never do the things I imagined us doing together. That she'll find happiness at some point(and that's her right), but not with me. And that slowly, but surely our relationship, as special as it was for me, will fade from her memories.
I'm fucking crushed. I thought getting over my fear of rejection would be the hardest part, but this - this is much, much worse. | Crush |