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why is it that i have follower none of whom acknowledge me
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i constantly have negative suicidal thought and i need it to stop
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni constantly have negative suicidal thought and i need it to stop\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
captainseebass sparkyma girlfriend trouble got some serious thinking to do
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ncaptainseebass sparkyma girlfriend trouble got some serious thinking to do\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
ellendeg ellen do my message not get to you if you didn t notice i m sad i try so hard to communicate wif u
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nellendeg ellen do my message not get to you if you didn t notice i m sad i try so hard to communicate wif u\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
my parent are incredibly strict i literally can not do shit all the kid have a meal plan that they must follow or else cant have anything other than the bare minimum in our room no going out with friend or really even having friend in the first place no getting a job or having money for any reason constant room search last week my room wa searched while i wa at school and my dad found my journal where i wrote that i wa gay he outed me to my entire family my dad started blowing up about how i never tell him anything and how selfish i am for keeping it to myself all i ever am is selfish being suicidal selfish you re ruining my dinner i wish i could get a gun in this country so i could blow my brain out in front of them im so fucking done with everything
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy parent are incredibly strict i literally can not do shit all the kid have a meal plan that they must follow or else cant have anything other than the bare minimum in our room no going out with friend or really even having friend in the first place no getting a job or having money for any reason constant room search last week my room wa searched while i wa at school and my dad found my journal where i wrote that i wa gay he outed me to my entire family my dad started blowing up about how i never tell him anything and how selfish i am for keeping it to myself all i ever am is selfish being suicidal selfish you re ruining my dinner i wish i could get a gun in this country so i could blow my brain out in front of them im so fucking done with everything\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
allstarninja my choice are limited since they blocked my hulu
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nallstarninja my choice are limited since they blocked my hulu\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i just want the pain to end i really want to die my life is not going anywhere i ve got no friend no future etc i m just so completely exhausted and sick of it all i wish i wasn t so sensitive but i just can t take this anymore
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni just want the pain to end i really want to die my life is not going anywhere i ve got no friend no future etc i m just so completely exhausted and sick of it all i wish i wasn t so sensitive but i just can t take this anymore\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i hate the constant stress i hate the nonstop work i hate the isolation i hate everything about college but i have realized that my working life will likely be no different work for most of my life dread work for the rest of it and repeat until i die i want to speed up the process and end my life but i can t leave my family in that much pain so i m just stuck in this hell with no escape i am on medication and seeing a therapist it help but it s not enough
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni hate the constant stress i hate the nonstop work i hate the isolation i hate everything about college but i have realized that my working life will likely be no different work for most of my life dread work for the rest of it and repeat until i die i want to speed up the process and end my life but i can t leave my family in that much pain so i m just stuck in this hell with no escape i am on medication and seeing a therapist it help but it s not enough\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
ogbenidipo iwa were gba we see the reason you are deep in depression you can t speak this way to your parent and expect to be healed of depression in actual fact it will sink you deep into depression
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nogbenidipo iwa were gba we see the reason you are deep in depression you can t speak this way to your parent and expect to be healed of depression in actual fact it will sink you deep into depression\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
redvinylgirl my mom ha it i wish you the best of luck
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nredvinylgirl my mom ha it i wish you the best of luck\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i hope everyone ha a wonderful life you all deserve good thing i m too tired
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni hope everyone ha a wonderful life you all deserve good thing i m too tired\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i cant give up smoking i tried but it s not easy
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni cant give up smoking i tried but it s not easy\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i ve always been this put together person in people s eye but in reality i m so close to the end i see no light at the end of the tunnel i have no passion motivation and anything that generates to being happy i don t know what to do i m in constant despair i don t really like opening up to anyone i know i just feel like there s nothing i can do to fix this
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve always been this put together person in people s eye but in reality i m so close to the end i see no light at the end of the tunnel i have no passion motivation and anything that generates to being happy i don t know what to do i m in constant despair i don t really like opening up to anyone i know i just feel like there s nothing i can do to fix this\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
abitofdarkness the thing about depression is that you dont feel sad you feel sick sick of life sick of yourself and sick of everyone and everything around you depression make you hate everything it make you angry it like being http t co spnyeolkd
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nabitofdarkness the thing about depression is that you dont feel sad you feel sick sick of life sick of yourself and sick of everyone and everything around you depression make you hate everything it make you angry it like being http t co spnyeolkd\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
didn t get shit done today i m so screwed
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndidn t get shit done today i m so screwed\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
school work talent cultural knowledge relationship health physical appearance there s always someone better than me and no matter how hard i try the result are mediocre nothin outstanding i shouldn t have existed everything i ve done amount to nothing
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nschool work talent cultural knowledge relationship health physical appearance there s always someone better than me and no matter how hard i try the result are mediocre nothin outstanding i shouldn t have existed everything i ve done amount to nothing\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
ohonefourthree this is me word for word my stomach is all fucked up suck
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nohonefourthree this is me word for word my stomach is all fucked up suck\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
the absence of the ability to just get over it is depression
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthe absence of the ability to just get over it is depression\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i just fucking hate myself the thing is that i just recently got to the point where everytime i look into the mirror i just like get so anxious so fast like idk anymore all these negative feeling flood me when i see myself i just wish i wa better at everything and i look fucking disgusting and i know everyone around me is just thinking that i cant even eat and sit or sleep somewhere without fearing people judge me also im afraid of getting fat cause it would ruin my image even further the voice in my head want me to stop eating i just cant anymore i wan na km
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni just fucking hate myself the thing is that i just recently got to the point where everytime i look into the mirror i just like get so anxious so fast like idk anymore all these negative feeling flood me when i see myself i just wish i wa better at everything and i look fucking disgusting and i know everyone around me is just thinking that i cant even eat and sit or sleep somewhere without fearing people judge me also im afraid of getting fat cause it would ruin my image even further the voice in my head want me to stop eating i just cant anymore i wan na km\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
m i have been dealing with depression anxiety panic attack for 0 year and also have adhd i kind of suck at everything i am failing my rd university almost have no social life have no girlfriend for year no job no goal and no achievement i have been trying to get my life together for year i quit alcohol and cannabis completely i am working out regularly forcing myself to socialize and learn new skill and trying to date failing miserably i am only successful at quitting drug which i can relapse anytime i suffer month of a year have some good day so what is the point of living if i won t be happy and achieve anything what kind of man i am who can not attract a woman and never be able to and why do i bother to live if i am failing every job i took and every university i went to i always feel lonely hate myself and can t look at the mirror anymore i am about to give up but i can t decide please answer objectively thanks
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nm i have been dealing with depression anxiety panic attack for 0 year and also have adhd i kind of suck at everything i am failing my rd university almost have no social life have no girlfriend for year no job no goal and no achievement i have been trying to get my life together for year i quit alcohol and cannabis completely i am working out regularly forcing myself to socialize and learn new skill and trying to date failing miserably i am only successful at quitting drug which i can relapse anytime i suffer month of a year have some good day so what is the point of living if i won t be happy and achieve anything what kind of man i am who can not attract a woman and never be able to and why do i bother to live if i am failing every job i took and every university i went to i always feel lonely hate myself and can t look at the mirror anymore i am about to give up but i can t decide please answer objectively thanks\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
ambermatson it s terrible isn t it don t expect many earthquake in euruope certainly not bad one
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nambermatson it s terrible isn t it don t expect many earthquake in euruope certainly not bad one\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i think i ve slept three full hour in the past it s not that i don t try to sleep or want to i do and so badly i m so exhausted right now i m crammed into a toddler bed cuddling my kid even laying here all i can think about is whether or not she wouldn t be better off with a different mother and i know i d never do that to her i never would or could she didn t ask to be in this world and i have no right to leave her in it especially with that kind of burden so why doe the thought keep whispering itself in the forefront of my mind even when i ve slept well why the fuck do i feel so terrible a if i ve been kicked in the stomach to the point of puking i feel like a failure in everything am i really at the point where i m supposed to celebrate my own mediocrity after accomplishing simple task that i m supposed to do should i be applauding myself for getting out of bed next i left my job to stay home with my kid just a month before the pandemic wa acknowledged no one could or did come to see me but i realized that even without the pandemic nobody really would have been there anyway she wa five month old then and in that time period nobody really wa there they didn t call didn t video chat didn t really ask how thing were or how i wa i wa crushed before the pandemic our event were cancelled i couldn t see my friend most of them i still haven t seen two year later we don t really talk either there s only one person outside of my immediate family that i ve called in month and it sting a few month ago we moved out of state and out here we have no friend no family i ve tried making friend over the internet especially through pursuing my roleplaying hobby but it feel like i keep fucking up trying to keep my emotion and attachment in check but inevitably i think my loneliness just bleeds through or i let myself open up too much and just fuck it up my emotion my entire self might a well be sodden playdoh i m desperate to keep it formed into what it should be what it i used to be but before long i m trying too hard to keep it in shape and it s left in a flattened half soggy mess of garbage every night i curl up in bed and have my stupid fucking brain remind me of how garbage i am of all the mistake i ve made and maybe i really would be better off just giving it up telling me there s no point to keep bothering others with my i don t know existence i guess mistake logically i know that s part of my problem it always ha been really i tried to keep everything together so other people wouldn t know what wa happening to me back then i had to take care of it and handle it on my own i have to be able to do everything and when i can t i feel worthless like a waste what am i even doing that someone else couldn t take the rein on and do better i ve been replaced plenty of time even my husband wa searching on grindr and posting on craigslist listing ad that included the fact that he wa married sending picture text telling me it wa my fault after i found out i m somehow to blame for it i haven t told anyone that typing it out feel slimey like three day old used dishwater it s another thing i have to handle myself because i could never actually admit to someone else that it happened just like i couldn t admit to anyone i know about what my ex did to me what happened when i wa a kid i told one person a therapist in honesty what happened and i remember her saying that if i kept being angry about it then i d turn out like that person who say that to an eight year old anytime i ve brought it up since then it wa never to admit how it s part of what still keep me awake over two decade later stupid electric meatball in my skull trying to convince me it matter trying to convince me i m going to keep going downhill and should just get ahead on what s inevitable anyway people can and would move on and maybe it d be better i wish it d stop with this shit my daughter said today that she love me i have to be doing something right don t i i don t know what to do to fix this i m just screaming into the void right now i want to sleep
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni think i ve slept three full hour in the past it s not that i don t try to sleep or want to i do and so badly i m so exhausted right now i m crammed into a toddler bed cuddling my kid even laying here all i can think about is whether or not she wouldn t be better off with a different mother and i know i d never do that to her i never would or could she didn t ask to be in this world and i have no right to leave her in it especially with that kind of burden so why doe the thought keep whispering itself in the forefront of my mind even when i ve slept well why the fuck do i feel so terrible a if i ve been kicked in the stomach to the point of puking i feel like a failure in everything am i really at the point where i m supposed to celebrate my own mediocrity after accomplishing simple task that i m supposed to do should i be applauding myself for getting out of bed next i left my job to stay home with my kid just a month before the pandemic wa acknowledged no one could or did come to see me but i realized that even without the pandemic nobody really would have been there anyway she wa five month old then and in that time period nobody really wa there they didn t call didn t video chat didn t really ask how thing were or how i wa i wa crushed before the pandemic our event were cancelled i couldn t see my friend most of them i still haven t seen two year later we don t really talk either there s only one person outside of my immediate family that i ve called in month and it sting a few month ago we moved out of state and out here we have no friend no family i ve tried making friend over the internet especially through pursuing my roleplaying hobby but it feel like i keep fucking up trying to keep my emotion and attachment in check but inevitably i think my loneliness just bleeds through or i let myself open up too much and just fuck it up my emotion my entire self might a well be sodden playdoh i m desperate to keep it formed into what it should be what it i used to be but before long i m trying too hard to keep it in shape and it s left in a flattened half soggy mess of garbage every night i curl up in bed and have my stupid fucking brain remind me of how garbage i am of all the mistake i ve made and maybe i really would be better off just giving it up telling me there s no point to keep bothering others with my i don t know existence i guess mistake logically i know that s part of my problem it always ha been really i tried to keep everything together so other people wouldn t know what wa happening to me back then i had to take care of it and handle it on my own i have to be able to do everything and when i can t i feel worthless like a waste what am i even doing that someone else couldn t take the rein on and do better i ve been replaced plenty of time even my husband wa searching on grindr and posting on craigslist listing ad that included the fact that he wa married sending picture text telling me it wa my fault after i found out i m somehow to blame for it i haven t told anyone that typing it out feel slimey like three day old used dishwater it s another thing i have to handle myself because i could never actually admit to someone else that it happened just like i couldn t admit to anyone i know about what my ex did to me what happened when i wa a kid i told one person a therapist in honesty what happened and i remember her saying that if i kept being angry about it then i d turn out like that person who say that to an eight year old anytime i ve brought it up since then it wa never to admit how it s part of what still keep me awake over two decade later stupid electric meatball in my skull trying to convince me it matter trying to convince me i m going to keep going downhill and should just get ahead on what s inevitable anyway people can and would move on and maybe it d be better i wish it d stop with this shit my daughter said today that she love me i have to be doing something right don t i i don t know what to do to fix this i m just screaming into the void right now i want to sleep\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
you can be rich asf and still suffer from depression
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nyou can be rich asf and still suffer from depression\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
wondering why gamebattles is down http bit ly qzuuy
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nwondering why gamebattles is down http bit ly qzuuy\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
it been year 0 month and 9 day since i last self harmed i m really trying to keep the streak going but honestly i don t know if i can make it much longer i ve been thinking of suicide heavily the past few day and i m just so tired every aspect of my life all seemed to crash and burn within the same couple day and i m so tired of cry and hurting i just feel numb but at the same time i feel so much something that i have to scream i ve been trying to be better about being positive or telling myself to keep going but is it really worth it i spent all of last night thinking about killing myself and really what would happen i hope you all have a better day tomorrow
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit been year 0 month and 9 day since i last self harmed i m really trying to keep the streak going but honestly i don t know if i can make it much longer i ve been thinking of suicide heavily the past few day and i m just so tired every aspect of my life all seemed to crash and burn within the same couple day and i m so tired of cry and hurting i just feel numb but at the same time i feel so much something that i have to scream i ve been trying to be better about being positive or telling myself to keep going but is it really worth it i spent all of last night thinking about killing myself and really what would happen i hope you all have a better day tomorrow\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
d castillo ugh that s disconcerting
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nd castillo ugh that s disconcerting\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
happy sunday r anxiety it s everyone s favorite day of the week sunday the last hour before monday rear it head again let this thread be a space to set your intention share your goal and concern or just to check in about the week ahead
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhappy sunday r anxiety it s everyone s favorite day of the week sunday the last hour before monday rear it head again let this thread be a space to set your intention share your goal and concern or just to check in about the week ahead\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
depression tavor macht einfach nur m de
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndepression tavor macht einfach nur m de\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
y isnt it a sunny a yesterday
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ny isnt it a sunny a yesterday\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
mandayyy
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmandayyy\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
living at home rent free depression extra free
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nliving at home rent free depression extra free\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
littleruen il va partir en d pression la
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlittleruen il va partir en d pression la\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
ryleebeth ye im not very sad but weirdly enough shes lettin me go da party how confusing parent r lol
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nryleebeth ye im not very sad but weirdly enough shes lettin me go da party how confusing parent r lol\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
my son vinca is sick so i stay at home just three tense day at work and i am back on holiday with kid
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmy son vinca is sick so i stay at home just three tense day at work and i am back on holiday with kid\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
in genting now but i now at gohtong jaya using com
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nin genting now but i now at gohtong jaya using com\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i feel so lonely and empty nothing fill that hole i have to live in a fantasy in my head to try and get some love and appreciation but a soon a i come back to reality all of it is gone i want this life to end i can t take it anymore
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel so lonely and empty nothing fill that hole i have to live in a fantasy in my head to try and get some love and appreciation but a soon a i come back to reality all of it is gone i want this life to end i can t take it anymore\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
edit i realize maybe i write too much you don t need to read it to answer the question in a way i needed to vent also thats what a lot of this is but i can only put one flair i have heavy anxiety social and general i think it s called not sure i avoid going anywhere a much a i can i get very anxious around new people and absolutely hate it and then i also have anxiety about my health what if i am doing something wrong etc i had medication once that i would take if i had a panic attack but i don t have any more it wa a one time prescription after a visit to emergency care depression also cloud my life my anxiety make me depressed issue about my identity make me depressed and overall it s just awful everything feel so awful and it s hard to feel happy about anything even though where i am right now i asked to be i wa seperated from my bf cause of family moving stuff and i am with him again after month of being alone at my family place for month i wa looking forward to being here but i can t even be happy about it because my anxiety mainly it is because of work i have never had a job before and i am gon na start soon at a fast food place yeah i know amazing for someone like me i hate meeting new people everyday i am scared i wont be able to learn quick enough or retain information i really don t look forward to having to interact with people i am scared to be treated like an outcast i m trans and at the interview i let the interviewer call me she which i am not but it wa like whiplash is that the right word and i couldn t say anything now i have to correct him when i call back because i wa told to call back but i am scared because it feel like correcting someone on pronoun make a big deal i don t want it to be a big deal but some people take it so personally it s not something i want brought up all the time honestly i don t want to be a push over but i also don t want to be seen a too defensive another thing i am anxious about is my trip to work i will have to take public transport and i have huge fear of something bad happening to me that i can t relax when going anywhere and i am scared of being asked to come in on many day off and i don t like to say no but i also don t want to be asked to fill any shift whenever they want i said i am willing but honestly only day extra a week i am not doing day work no break thats awful i am scared i wont be able to make the decision i want and fall to pressure sorry if it s a lot to read and maybe i get off topic sometimes my mind is a mess i just want to know how some of you cope that work in job with a lot of customer interaction and people around i feel like i wont make it like i will screw up big time or have a panic attack and i will just walk out because i can t keep my anxiety under control i want to get help but i really have no money i want to find a better job but i have no experience in anything and everything that you don t need experience for is customer oriented or requires heavy lifting and i don t have the time either having to get a job asap because my bf is paying for our accommodation right now and i need to help out so i need to do this but i feel like it s gon na take a toll on me and i don t know what to do
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nedit i realize maybe i write too much you don t need to read it to answer the question in a way i needed to vent also thats what a lot of this is but i can only put one flair i have heavy anxiety social and general i think it s called not sure i avoid going anywhere a much a i can i get very anxious around new people and absolutely hate it and then i also have anxiety about my health what if i am doing something wrong etc i had medication once that i would take if i had a panic attack but i don t have any more it wa a one time prescription after a visit to emergency care depression also cloud my life my anxiety make me depressed issue about my identity make me depressed and overall it s just awful everything feel so awful and it s hard to feel happy about anything even though where i am right now i asked to be i wa seperated from my bf cause of family moving stuff and i am with him again after month of being alone at my family place for month i wa looking forward to being here but i can t even be happy about it because my anxiety mainly it is because of work i have never had a job before and i am gon na start soon at a fast food place yeah i know amazing for someone like me i hate meeting new people everyday i am scared i wont be able to learn quick enough or retain information i really don t look forward to having to interact with people i am scared to be treated like an outcast i m trans and at the interview i let the interviewer call me she which i am not but it wa like whiplash is that the right word and i couldn t say anything now i have to correct him when i call back because i wa told to call back but i am scared because it feel like correcting someone on pronoun make a big deal i don t want it to be a big deal but some people take it so personally it s not something i want brought up all the time honestly i don t want to be a push over but i also don t want to be seen a too defensive another thing i am anxious about is my trip to work i will have to take public transport and i have huge fear of something bad happening to me that i can t relax when going anywhere and i am scared of being asked to come in on many day off and i don t like to say no but i also don t want to be asked to fill any shift whenever they want i said i am willing but honestly only day extra a week i am not doing day work no break thats awful i am scared i wont be able to make the decision i want and fall to pressure sorry if it s a lot to read and maybe i get off topic sometimes my mind is a mess i just want to know how some of you cope that work in job with a lot of customer interaction and people around i feel like i wont make it like i will screw up big time or have a panic attack and i will just walk out because i can t keep my anxiety under control i want to get help but i really have no money i want to find a better job but i have no experience in anything and everything that you don t need experience for is customer oriented or requires heavy lifting and i don t have the time either having to get a job asap because my bf is paying for our accommodation right now and i need to help out so i need to do this but i feel like it s gon na take a toll on me and i don t know what to do\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
suppose i should start revision and stop putting this morning session off tweet soon
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsuppose i should start revision and stop putting this morning session off tweet soon\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i feel like i m having a panic attack which i ve had before i m all alone and normally that would be very bad but this time is different i think i might be disassociating or something because i m restless like a panic attack and my heart is racing and my brain is off the rail but i m also completely emotionless i can t even make myself cry or smile or yell or anything anyone know what s happening any word of wisdom or love would be greatly appreciated because this is gon na be a long scary night for me i think
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni feel like i m having a panic attack which i ve had before i m all alone and normally that would be very bad but this time is different i think i might be disassociating or something because i m restless like a panic attack and my heart is racing and my brain is off the rail but i m also completely emotionless i can t even make myself cry or smile or yell or anything anyone know what s happening any word of wisdom or love would be greatly appreciated because this is gon na be a long scary night for me i think\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
mai asher 9 lynnestactia the guy look depressed depression is real
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmai asher 9 lynnestactia the guy look depressed depression is real\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
in today s society it seems like no one really care instead they re worried about lability litigation after something bad happens and want to shirk responsibility that being said would it be respectful to put my two week notice in before i commit suicide so they re ready for a replacement along with that it wouldn t be a big thing that would slow everyone else down i m thinking about putting in my notice i ve had everything in place and in order will service paid for everything beforehand etc i m just trying to make it easiest for the people who say they care about me along with my employer and co worker they won t be liable or responsible because they can t make me do anything
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nin today s society it seems like no one really care instead they re worried about lability litigation after something bad happens and want to shirk responsibility that being said would it be respectful to put my two week notice in before i commit suicide so they re ready for a replacement along with that it wouldn t be a big thing that would slow everyone else down i m thinking about putting in my notice i ve had everything in place and in order will service paid for everything beforehand etc i m just trying to make it easiest for the people who say they care about me along with my employer and co worker they won t be liable or responsible because they can t make me do anything\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
what the title say
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just got up i have to watch my lil bro s mom is at work
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i just let my everquest subscription lapse just don t play it anymore don t have the time
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni just let my everquest subscription lapse just don t play it anymore don t have the time\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i m on a very low dose of lexapro a i m trying to taper off my anxiety isn t cured but i do feel like it help to talk me out of panic pretty easily last night at am i got a sharp pain in my head and felt very weird for a couple second i immediately went into full blown panic and woke up today very spacey like i m dissociating ha this happened to anyone how do you snap out of it i literally thought i wa having a stroke but checked my bp and o and all wa well i used to be really bad with checking my vitals but i never use them anymore i also have herniated disc in my neck so i m not sure if that wa the cause or some freak incident
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni m on a very low dose of lexapro a i m trying to taper off my anxiety isn t cured but i do feel like it help to talk me out of panic pretty easily last night at am i got a sharp pain in my head and felt very weird for a couple second i immediately went into full blown panic and woke up today very spacey like i m dissociating ha this happened to anyone how do you snap out of it i literally thought i wa having a stroke but checked my bp and o and all wa well i used to be really bad with checking my vitals but i never use them anymore i also have herniated disc in my neck so i m not sure if that wa the cause or some freak incident\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
so much for th paper i just woke up from my nap
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nickdawson hope your knee feel better quickly though after having been on it all night
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theekween help people who suffer from depression anxiety loss of loved one heartbreaking or have witness something traumatic thelmaherbs
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some backstory i have crohn s disease but am currently in remission so physically and health wise i ve been doing well the combination of medication that i m on seem to be doing their job and overall i feel pretty good so over the last year and a half or so i ve developed this awful anxiety habit of being terrified that i m suddenly going to get sick and need to shit and not be able to find a bathroom when i m out and about and it s taken a toll on my everyday life i can not leave the house for work in the morning without returning the bathroom sometimes more time before i finally work up the courage to get out the door because i m terrified that somewhere along my minute commute i m going to feel the urge and not be able to get to a bathroom fast enough the thing is if i m just at home all day i likely will only have to shit probably once but if i even think about leaving the house i instantly have to go to the bathroom if i have plan i have to schedule my day around how much time im going to need to spend in the bathroom before i can leave i have to feel like i ve emptied out a much a possible before i can get in the car i don t even hang out with friend or date anybody anymore because the stress of this situation is just too much taking my kid to the beach or the park ugh if i m not 00 positive there will be a public restroom available there we aren t going and i hate that it s not only affecting me but thing like that are and will continue to affect my daughter if i don t get a grip on it soon another example of this is i have the opportunity to send her to a much better school and one of the thing that s holding me back is i m terrified of what morning drop off will look like that i don t think there s bathroom available for parent to access during those time the business around the school aren t open that early to access it start earlier so i ll have to leave earlier to drop her off thus leaving me le time to sit on the toilet before we head out etc etc it feel so stupid but to me it s so real i don t even know how to really put it all into word the anxiousness i feel about it it s such a weird thing that i don t really know how to talk to anyone about because i ve never met someone else with this kind of issue doe anyone else struggle with this i feel like i don t even remember what life felt like before i developed this weird anxiety around it my life feel like it revolves around knowing where the bathroom is sorry for the long post this wa kind of a looking for support asking for help needing to vent post thanks for reading if you got this far sorry i rambled on a bit i don t even know where to start
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nsome backstory i have crohn s disease but am currently in remission so physically and health wise i ve been doing well the combination of medication that i m on seem to be doing their job and overall i feel pretty good so over the last year and a half or so i ve developed this awful anxiety habit of being terrified that i m suddenly going to get sick and need to shit and not be able to find a bathroom when i m out and about and it s taken a toll on my everyday life i can not leave the house for work in the morning without returning the bathroom sometimes more time before i finally work up the courage to get out the door because i m terrified that somewhere along my minute commute i m going to feel the urge and not be able to get to a bathroom fast enough the thing is if i m just at home all day i likely will only have to shit probably once but if i even think about leaving the house i instantly have to go to the bathroom if i have plan i have to schedule my day around how much time im going to need to spend in the bathroom before i can leave i have to feel like i ve emptied out a much a possible before i can get in the car i don t even hang out with friend or date anybody anymore because the stress of this situation is just too much taking my kid to the beach or the park ugh if i m not 00 positive there will be a public restroom available there we aren t going and i hate that it s not only affecting me but thing like that are and will continue to affect my daughter if i don t get a grip on it soon another example of this is i have the opportunity to send her to a much better school and one of the thing that s holding me back is i m terrified of what morning drop off will look like that i don t think there s bathroom available for parent to access during those time the business around the school aren t open that early to access it start earlier so i ll have to leave earlier to drop her off thus leaving me le time to sit on the toilet before we head out etc etc it feel so stupid but to me it s so real i don t even know how to really put it all into word the anxiousness i feel about it it s such a weird thing that i don t really know how to talk to anyone about because i ve never met someone else with this kind of issue doe anyone else struggle with this i feel like i don t even remember what life felt like before i developed this weird anxiety around it my life feel like it revolves around knowing where the bathroom is sorry for the long post this wa kind of a looking for support asking for help needing to vent post thanks for reading if you got this far sorry i rambled on a bit i don t even know where to start\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i don t get it what did i ever do to anyone i doubt even some of the people that know me will feel bad or even start caring once they find out i m dead maybe they ll never even know and not notice my absence but why
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni don t get it what did i ever do to anyone i doubt even some of the people that know me will feel bad or even start caring once they find out i m dead maybe they ll never even know and not notice my absence but why\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
it s tuesday evening and i haven t been able to fall asleep in a few day because i can not stop replaying a sequence of event at work from last week i talked it out with my coworkers and i know that i wa in the right there wa nothing i could have done to get a better result and it s ok everything s cool let s move forward with our life k i would love for it to be that easy but that squishy asshole between my ear ha a very different perspective on the matter so we can t move forward we haven t earned that yet we have to spend an indeterminate amount of time meticulously dismantling and examining every minute detail of the incident my action and the reaction of everyone else involved buckle up and grab a barf bag folk it s about to get real whenever i have even a tiny stretch of free time the film reel in my head alternate between warp speed and slow motion depending on circumstance and timing every minute or so my brain get the ball rolling with really all the thing you could have done and that wa how you handled it idiot followed up with whoa you ve got nothing to worry about bae you handed that shit like a champ before circling back to what the fuck is wrong with you why why would you do something so heinously ridiculous this is why nobody want to be around you this shit right here and after that we get another no don t listen to that mess you are entitled to occupy space on this planet without apoligizing for your own existence but then that s hilarious see how far that attitude get you tomorrow after everyone ha had time to think about what happened and they realize what an immature out of touch self centered asshole you are have fun dying alone and unremembered and then every few minute the pattern repeat itself in an infinite loop of madness half assed self justification and shame this can go on for day sometimes week or month but it never permanently stop sometimes a certain song a smell a facebook memory or a half heard remark from across the room will launch my as back in time to tear myself to shred over an instance that ha been dead buried and forgotten by the rest of the human race except for me lather rinse repeat go fuck yourself wave of abject misery and self loathing interspersed with flash of contentment that might occasionally brighten thing up but it never really stop or get any better the best i can really hope for is the drop off in frequency that occurs after a few week or ideally i might forget about the incident entirely until i get hit with a trigger again at least
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nit s tuesday evening and i haven t been able to fall asleep in a few day because i can not stop replaying a sequence of event at work from last week i talked it out with my coworkers and i know that i wa in the right there wa nothing i could have done to get a better result and it s ok everything s cool let s move forward with our life k i would love for it to be that easy but that squishy asshole between my ear ha a very different perspective on the matter so we can t move forward we haven t earned that yet we have to spend an indeterminate amount of time meticulously dismantling and examining every minute detail of the incident my action and the reaction of everyone else involved buckle up and grab a barf bag folk it s about to get real whenever i have even a tiny stretch of free time the film reel in my head alternate between warp speed and slow motion depending on circumstance and timing every minute or so my brain get the ball rolling with really all the thing you could have done and that wa how you handled it idiot followed up with whoa you ve got nothing to worry about bae you handed that shit like a champ before circling back to what the fuck is wrong with you why why would you do something so heinously ridiculous this is why nobody want to be around you this shit right here and after that we get another no don t listen to that mess you are entitled to occupy space on this planet without apoligizing for your own existence but then that s hilarious see how far that attitude get you tomorrow after everyone ha had time to think about what happened and they realize what an immature out of touch self centered asshole you are have fun dying alone and unremembered and then every few minute the pattern repeat itself in an infinite loop of madness half assed self justification and shame this can go on for day sometimes week or month but it never permanently stop sometimes a certain song a smell a facebook memory or a half heard remark from across the room will launch my as back in time to tear myself to shred over an instance that ha been dead buried and forgotten by the rest of the human race except for me lather rinse repeat go fuck yourself wave of abject misery and self loathing interspersed with flash of contentment that might occasionally brighten thing up but it never really stop or get any better the best i can really hope for is the drop off in frequency that occurs after a few week or ideally i might forget about the incident entirely until i get hit with a trigger again at least\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
idk if anyone else get this i get anxiety poop sometimes but i also get anxiety vomit idk if it from excessive hyperventilating when i have an attack or just from the anxiety i get super nauseous and have no choice but to go vomit this can happen every night if it particularly bad doe anyone else get this i tried looking it up and i couldn t find much regarding vomiting when having a panic anxiety attack it the worst
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nidk if anyone else get this i get anxiety poop sometimes but i also get anxiety vomit idk if it from excessive hyperventilating when i have an attack or just from the anxiety i get super nauseous and have no choice but to go vomit this can happen every night if it particularly bad doe anyone else get this i tried looking it up and i couldn t find much regarding vomiting when having a panic anxiety attack it the worst\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
no gym yesteday they have a all new gym so i need a new induction good news is it s booked for wednesday woot
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i don t understand i got the dream girl and i m doing so good why do i still want to die why doe it still seem so appealing
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basically earlier i took a hit of this old roach this guy gave me and it tasted bad so i extinguished it didn t know it wa that bad lol he s a guy i know long story short i don t know if it wa moldy so i washed my hand and opened the cap of the case it wa in and just quickly inspected it with my eye not touching it then i rubbed my eye and my felt felt weird lol am i just being anxious maybe i have dry eye i wa smoking some actual fucking normal weed too sigh you feel me random anxiety oof
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nbasically earlier i took a hit of this old roach this guy gave me and it tasted bad so i extinguished it didn t know it wa that bad lol he s a guy i know long story short i don t know if it wa moldy so i washed my hand and opened the cap of the case it wa in and just quickly inspected it with my eye not touching it then i rubbed my eye and my felt felt weird lol am i just being anxious maybe i have dry eye i wa smoking some actual fucking normal weed too sigh you feel me random anxiety oof\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
thomas pennec gna gna gna prot ger le autres gna gna pour vous pour nous gna gna gna on est oblig c est la loi gna gna gna aller au diable quelque chose d oblig qui fout le momes en d pression pa un seul putain d adulte aussi abruti soit il ne devrait l accepter point
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthomas pennec gna gna gna prot ger le autres gna gna pour vous pour nous gna gna gna on est oblig c est la loi gna gna gna aller au diable quelque chose d oblig qui fout le momes en d pression pa un seul putain d adulte aussi abruti soit il ne devrait l accepter point\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
literally and the depression that come before
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jamzeee i knowwwwww i sukkkk take care of my gurls
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beatccr i can t wait to read that one still waiting on my copy
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khensu i always feel like that too have an amazing day though xx
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about to shower which i hope will wake me up at last oh and the synth experiment yielded nothing last night
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i ve struggled with mental health issue since i wa in elementary school i ve gone through period where thing have been really bad and others where i m more normal i m doing really bad right now i m in law school and i don t have time for a breakdown but i feel like i m drowning i have class in hour but i ve been up all night cry i don t know what to do my psychiatrist just put me on wellbutrin along with my current medicine of prozac rexulti and buspar i m supposed to talk to my dean today about my mental health issue but i don t feel like i can get out of bed this is ridiculous and i feel like i m being lazy but i legitimately feel like i m suffocating i want to not exist sorry if this make no sense everyone i know is asleep right now and i needed to talk
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve struggled with mental health issue since i wa in elementary school i ve gone through period where thing have been really bad and others where i m more normal i m doing really bad right now i m in law school and i don t have time for a breakdown but i feel like i m drowning i have class in hour but i ve been up all night cry i don t know what to do my psychiatrist just put me on wellbutrin along with my current medicine of prozac rexulti and buspar i m supposed to talk to my dean today about my mental health issue but i don t feel like i can get out of bed this is ridiculous and i feel like i m being lazy but i legitimately feel like i m suffocating i want to not exist sorry if this make no sense everyone i know is asleep right now and i needed to talk\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
fucken a man lol tiring night at work hope to get this job for got bout the hill dang nabbit lol
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i hate window movie maker sony vega come back i cant download it anymore my brother banned me from downloading
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hollywoodheat i should have paid more attention when we covered photoshop in my webpage design class in undergrad
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argh cant stop yawning
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i really don t know how to put it into word but i ve been working on my anxiety for the past few year and over time my anxiety attack become le frequent but like today there are some day where my dream are filled with everything that give me anxiety work life issue etc then i wake up with chill having an anxiety attack i feel so strong for even working on my anxiety by myself in the first place but the time i have em dream i just want to give up and be shut out because of how much it throw my headspace off
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni really don t know how to put it into word but i ve been working on my anxiety for the past few year and over time my anxiety attack become le frequent but like today there are some day where my dream are filled with everything that give me anxiety work life issue etc then i wake up with chill having an anxiety attack i feel so strong for even working on my anxiety by myself in the first place but the time i have em dream i just want to give up and be shut out because of how much it throw my headspace off\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
geoffmartinez youre going to be in mexico on easter why
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having a major head ache this suck men arrrrrrrg
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depression is not a joke damn bangon pre
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don t want to live anymore i m tired of this i m tired of being in society and having to be with people just want to be left alone forever fuck everything i m a failure
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndon t want to live anymore i m tired of this i m tired of being in society and having to be with people just want to be left alone forever fuck everything i m a failure\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
yinkapost man fell into depression y all should relax
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aniita 0 yes i did that s a sad topic for me haha i am not going to the concert it s very far and probably very expensive
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working rite now but have a massive headache building and feeling very sick
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jvmediadesign i have pic of bucket kitty but i ll probably post it tomorrow now mean having to find cable and connection
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picked mich st to win it all from the get go wa feeling pretty good about that pick all the way up until tonight a s lost too
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mamasvan lol nope but i did have complete camerafail
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i ve been in therapy a few month cbt he mostly just advises me to try to stay in the present and mediate at first it seemed to help a little but the larger issue i have won t stop bothering me i make good money and i m not bad looking at all but i have basically zero friend and i haven t been on a date in over 0 year im and i ve been thinking about suicide a lot but i obviously can t tell my therapist or he ll get me emergency petitioned im really not sure what to do my anxiety and depression just seems to keep getting worse i can barely get myself to eat most day let alone exercise or try to talk to someone
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni ve been in therapy a few month cbt he mostly just advises me to try to stay in the present and mediate at first it seemed to help a little but the larger issue i have won t stop bothering me i make good money and i m not bad looking at all but i have basically zero friend and i haven t been on a date in over 0 year im and i ve been thinking about suicide a lot but i obviously can t tell my therapist or he ll get me emergency petitioned im really not sure what to do my anxiety and depression just seems to keep getting worse i can barely get myself to eat most day let alone exercise or try to talk to someone\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
just in case i d like to add a tw for health i went to the doctor office and had not been having such a nice morning day anxiety wise and my blood pressure came up higher than normal and ironically enough it had me more anxious than i wa this morning ha this ever happened to any of you guy and if so do you guy have any tip on how to relax
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\njust in case i d like to add a tw for health i went to the doctor office and had not been having such a nice morning day anxiety wise and my blood pressure came up higher than normal and ironically enough it had me more anxious than i wa this morning ha this ever happened to any of you guy and if so do you guy have any tip on how to relax\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i wish inwas dead i just cant take it anymore you stupid fucking redditors all you can give me is useless worthless nothing i hate you so much kill me kill ke kill me i beg of you the only thing that can validate you is to kill me ypu are worthless the only way you can regain honour is to kill me i am nothing
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni wish inwas dead i just cant take it anymore you stupid fucking redditors all you can give me is useless worthless nothing i hate you so much kill me kill ke kill me i beg of you the only thing that can validate you is to kill me ypu are worthless the only way you can regain honour is to kill me i am nothing\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i am prone to sinus infection and my nose is clogged and i had a slight earache a few day ago and chalked it up to a sinus infection i went to my cousin baby reveal and then i thought after the party what if i gave her covid she is a nurse and is around people with covid but wear ppe she also ha three booster shot and had covid before i can not get the thought of maybe infecting her and it will harm her pregnancy i am cry so hard because she tried so hard to have a baby and i m worried me disregarding my sinus infection a an allergy might of done something i can not sleep and i am going to throw up from the anxiety
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni am prone to sinus infection and my nose is clogged and i had a slight earache a few day ago and chalked it up to a sinus infection i went to my cousin baby reveal and then i thought after the party what if i gave her covid she is a nurse and is around people with covid but wear ppe she also ha three booster shot and had covid before i can not get the thought of maybe infecting her and it will harm her pregnancy i am cry so hard because she tried so hard to have a baby and i m worried me disregarding my sinus infection a an allergy might of done something i can not sleep and i am going to throw up from the anxiety\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
gemhostofficial jwu po from depression nap
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dontcha just love microsoft corrupted open xml document
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orangeflowers me too it scary not the clutter but the unclean pain keep me awake lately but shld start subsiding in a wk or so
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the past three day ive experimented with milligram klonipin everyday it made me see life from a different view ive never been able to talk to people talk on the phone make eye contact talk to a girl and im in constant edge the klonopin ha helped durastucally today i applied for three job called place asking to hire and wa able to make confident eye contact can i be on klonipin long term it help so much i really believe i have the world worst anxiety my brain is on like turbo mode all day without it
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthe past three day ive experimented with milligram klonipin everyday it made me see life from a different view ive never been able to talk to people talk on the phone make eye contact talk to a girl and im in constant edge the klonopin ha helped durastucally today i applied for three job called place asking to hire and wa able to make confident eye contact can i be on klonipin long term it help so much i really believe i have the world worst anxiety my brain is on like turbo mode all day without it\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
the maine please out me to sleep i have test in the morning
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yesterday wa a bad day found bernie mac died last year where wa i
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nyesterday wa a bad day found bernie mac died last year where wa i\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
hope all is well this is my first time posting but would like to first take the time to say that i have been actively reading in this sub for the better half of a year since my generalized anxiety started to take over my life a little backstory i am m 0 lb and went to texas tech throughout college i wa on a pretty strong dose of add med 0mg vyvanse which if none of you have taken add med is like the pinnacle of add med at the highest dose i literally felt like god when i wa on them i say this because i would drink a lot on them do cocaine i wa in a frat vyvanse wa amazing because you literally could never get drunk also i wa incredibly fit even though i drank so much i would work out all the time but never wanted to eat but i wa shredded i wa also super social and had this crazy fucking sex drive not lying i could stay rock hard for easy two hour and would be told to stop because the girl wa too worn out not tryna to sound cool but i am trying to paint this picture of how powerful this drug wa but after about year of that i graduated back in may and everything went downhill i started to have severe panic attack a rapid heartbeat crazy high blood pressure which sent me to the hospital finally went to the doctor and she said first that ny old doctor should lose her license forever prescribing me that high of a dose and that since i had taken the vyvanse for so long and binge drinking i have completely drained my brain of any serotonin diagnosis severe generalized anxiety disorder initially wa put on lexapro but that shit gave me really scary suicidal ideation especially coming from someone that had never once even considered that an idea i have moved to celexa mg then 0mg then 0mg finally now 0mg which is what i have been at for month and it ha been amazing i am perfectly fine i had discussed initially with my doctor that eventually i would want to get back on add med because i do have pretty bad add and wa about to enter nursing school she told me that once we get the anxiety under control then we can get add med so about month ago i wa anxiety free some minor episode of just feeling anxious but no panic attack and she had given me 0 mg xanax for emergency use which kill those few and far between episode immediately month ago i wa finally prescribed focalin mg ir x a day and wellbutrin sr 0mg x daily right when i wake up so i currently take 0mg celexa day focalin mg ir day welbutrin sr 0mg day everything is perfect except for one problem now i can not finish sexually and it is hard to keep an erection like i don t even think about sex anymore which suck because i am good looking have no issue with woman tinder bumble hinge but this is a serious issue because i am normally overly sexual sorry for the long rant but i wanted you all to have the best understanding possible of what is going on and if anyone can relate i am meeting with my doctor next week to discus but am just sad because in the past week different woman have asked me why i can t stay hard finish which hand down the most embarrassing thing because they all think it is because of them i would also like to say that i regularly work out am very fit lean build and do like to drink when i am with these woman the drinking just make it so much more fun for me so idk if the drinking ha any effect on this issue i haven t tried not drinking which i will test tonight when i see one of them thank you again for reading this far tl dr sex issue on celexa wellbutrin and focalin i do drink when i am having these issue but drinking make the sex so much more enjoyable lol
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhope all is well this is my first time posting but would like to first take the time to say that i have been actively reading in this sub for the better half of a year since my generalized anxiety started to take over my life a little backstory i am m 0 lb and went to texas tech throughout college i wa on a pretty strong dose of add med 0mg vyvanse which if none of you have taken add med is like the pinnacle of add med at the highest dose i literally felt like god when i wa on them i say this because i would drink a lot on them do cocaine i wa in a frat vyvanse wa amazing because you literally could never get drunk also i wa incredibly fit even though i drank so much i would work out all the time but never wanted to eat but i wa shredded i wa also super social and had this crazy fucking sex drive not lying i could stay rock hard for easy two hour and would be told to stop because the girl wa too worn out not tryna to sound cool but i am trying to paint this picture of how powerful this drug wa but after about year of that i graduated back in may and everything went downhill i started to have severe panic attack a rapid heartbeat crazy high blood pressure which sent me to the hospital finally went to the doctor and she said first that ny old doctor should lose her license forever prescribing me that high of a dose and that since i had taken the vyvanse for so long and binge drinking i have completely drained my brain of any serotonin diagnosis severe generalized anxiety disorder initially wa put on lexapro but that shit gave me really scary suicidal ideation especially coming from someone that had never once even considered that an idea i have moved to celexa mg then 0mg then 0mg finally now 0mg which is what i have been at for month and it ha been amazing i am perfectly fine i had discussed initially with my doctor that eventually i would want to get back on add med because i do have pretty bad add and wa about to enter nursing school she told me that once we get the anxiety under control then we can get add med so about month ago i wa anxiety free some minor episode of just feeling anxious but no panic attack and she had given me 0 mg xanax for emergency use which kill those few and far between episode immediately month ago i wa finally prescribed focalin mg ir x a day and wellbutrin sr 0mg x daily right when i wake up so i currently take 0mg celexa day focalin mg ir day welbutrin sr 0mg day everything is perfect except for one problem now i can not finish sexually and it is hard to keep an erection like i don t even think about sex anymore which suck because i am good looking have no issue with woman tinder bumble hinge but this is a serious issue because i am normally overly sexual sorry for the long rant but i wanted you all to have the best understanding possible of what is going on and if anyone can relate i am meeting with my doctor next week to discus but am just sad because in the past week different woman have asked me why i can t stay hard finish which hand down the most embarrassing thing because they all think it is because of them i would also like to say that i regularly work out am very fit lean build and do like to drink when i am with these woman the drinking just make it so much more fun for me so idk if the drinking ha any effect on this issue i haven t tried not drinking which i will test tonight when i see one of them thank you again for reading this far tl dr sex issue on celexa wellbutrin and focalin i do drink when i am having these issue but drinking make the sex so much more enjoyable lol\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
lizhenry we haven t heard from her or sha
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nlizhenry we haven t heard from her or sha\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
darn it i woke up with a great idea for a lime article and i forgot what it wa
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ndarn it i woke up with a great idea for a lime article and i forgot what it wa\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i shouldn t post here or anywhere else but i have nothing else so firstly i want to apologize i m sorry that you have to read this first off because it s all nonsense and also because it may be stupid or weird since english isn t my first language i have nothing no family no friend no job i m stuck in my apartment because i m a coward psychiatrist tell me i have agoraphobia but i don t think it s true i m just a waste of time space and money there s no need for me to still be here i ve tried multiple time to end it all when my family were still here i got caught and sent to psychiatric ward and now it s a neighbor who knew my dad he keep coming again and again to see if i m ok i m wasting his time a well like i waste your time writing this i don t even know why i need to do this it s not like i want any help nor i need any help maybe i just want to leave something somewhere testify about loneliness and mental illness i m already shameful just thinking about somebody will see this and witness how i m such a stupid human being just complaining about nothing playing the victim although i m not long time ago i thought i wa a victim tho my dad did thing to me people at school bullied me i wa thinking like that my mindset wa fxcked up now that i ve rethink about it all i see is the problem wa and still is me i can t blame others over what i did i don t wish this to my worst enemy this void that keep devoting me taking more and more space making me disappear slowly again i m sorry about all that and thanks to this sub if that post is not removed if you re in this state i hope you ll get better soon i don t know you but you re worth it don t let anybody tell you otherwise and never give up on thing you like or that make you feel good
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni shouldn t post here or anywhere else but i have nothing else so firstly i want to apologize i m sorry that you have to read this first off because it s all nonsense and also because it may be stupid or weird since english isn t my first language i have nothing no family no friend no job i m stuck in my apartment because i m a coward psychiatrist tell me i have agoraphobia but i don t think it s true i m just a waste of time space and money there s no need for me to still be here i ve tried multiple time to end it all when my family were still here i got caught and sent to psychiatric ward and now it s a neighbor who knew my dad he keep coming again and again to see if i m ok i m wasting his time a well like i waste your time writing this i don t even know why i need to do this it s not like i want any help nor i need any help maybe i just want to leave something somewhere testify about loneliness and mental illness i m already shameful just thinking about somebody will see this and witness how i m such a stupid human being just complaining about nothing playing the victim although i m not long time ago i thought i wa a victim tho my dad did thing to me people at school bullied me i wa thinking like that my mindset wa fxcked up now that i ve rethink about it all i see is the problem wa and still is me i can t blame others over what i did i don t wish this to my worst enemy this void that keep devoting me taking more and more space making me disappear slowly again i m sorry about all that and thanks to this sub if that post is not removed if you re in this state i hope you ll get better soon i don t know you but you re worth it don t let anybody tell you otherwise and never give up on thing you like or that make you feel good\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
one le follower tonight
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\none le follower tonight\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
theengteacher dammit getting to know this corner very well
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ntheengteacher dammit getting to know this corner very well\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
miss om aww i know i felt like that yesterday at work
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nmiss om aww i know i felt like that yesterday at work\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
hyperbets i hope this doesn t last too long i feel miserable
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhyperbets i hope this doesn t last too long i feel miserable\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
i have irrational fear of a home invasion being attacked by a stranger for context even thing like elderly woman with cane walking behind me sends me into panic mode me and my fianc just bought our first home together after renting for year instead of me being able to rest after a long day of moving i am instead laying awake because the house is settling every 0 second and i keep thinking it s an intruder coming to kill me this ha been going on for two hour my heart keep pounding out of my chest randomly and i keep getting so frozen with fear that i hold my breath my mind is working overtime playing escape plan confrontation scenario on repeat so i can t relax this is so fucking irrational i hate it i ve been this way a long a i can remember but ugh i know why house creek i also know this home is older which is something i love about it during the day but i can not seem to think logically about this every pop creek and bang is sending me into panic mode and i don t have any remedy i m sick of being constantly on alert for no reason this is an extremely safe neighborhood and i should not need to be this worried over nothing some night are better than others but why do i even have to go through this at all i apologize for the rant but i am so exhausted and i just want to sleep but i keep getting snapped awake
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni have irrational fear of a home invasion being attacked by a stranger for context even thing like elderly woman with cane walking behind me sends me into panic mode me and my fianc just bought our first home together after renting for year instead of me being able to rest after a long day of moving i am instead laying awake because the house is settling every 0 second and i keep thinking it s an intruder coming to kill me this ha been going on for two hour my heart keep pounding out of my chest randomly and i keep getting so frozen with fear that i hold my breath my mind is working overtime playing escape plan confrontation scenario on repeat so i can t relax this is so fucking irrational i hate it i ve been this way a long a i can remember but ugh i know why house creek i also know this home is older which is something i love about it during the day but i can not seem to think logically about this every pop creek and bang is sending me into panic mode and i don t have any remedy i m sick of being constantly on alert for no reason this is an extremely safe neighborhood and i should not need to be this worried over nothing some night are better than others but why do i even have to go through this at all i apologize for the rant but i am so exhausted and i just want to sleep but i keep getting snapped awake\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i went to the psychiatrist and he recommended drop of clonazepam mg every day before i go to college the place my anxiety is the worst im really afraid because i never took any medicine any advice
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni went to the psychiatrist and he recommended drop of clonazepam mg every day before i go to college the place my anxiety is the worst im really afraid because i never took any medicine any advice\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
haylieofficial every night
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nhaylieofficial every night\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]
thogden ever heard of a club known a notts county depression seems to never end
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\nthogden ever heard of a club known a notts county depression seems to never end\n### LABEL:\nis depression" ]
i still don t understand how to setup subversion for a website
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[ "Classification of TEXT into LABEL: is depression , is not depression\n### TEXT:\ni still don t understand how to setup subversion for a website\n### LABEL:\nis not depression" ]