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"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What happened on Nov 28th?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What happened on Nov 28th?",
"rp_id": "d92oy5x",
"seeker_post": "One week. Im gonna kill myself soon. Give me a reason not to. Il probably just shit on it though. Ive cried everyday since november 28, 2015. Please help me.",
"sp_id": "58r9r5"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "everyone deserves to feel the best that they can. you dont want to suffer anymore and someday you wont! feel free to pm me, i'd be happy to be your pen-pal through all this <3",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "i told my therapist that i was suicidal and he had to contact my mother and explain the basics of the situation. for self harm, im not sure exactly how/if the information would be disclosed by the therapist/counselor/psychologist to your parents.. but im assuming if you are physically hurting yourself to a GREAT EXTENT then yes, it would most likely be disclosed. im 18 now, and started seeing my on-campus(university) therapist and psychiatrist at the beginning of the school year, where i was 17. it sucks not being in control of your life, but what can you do, you know? if getting to see a therapist is an issue, i would recommend asking to talk to your doctor/pediatrician in private (during a normal check-up) and say tht youve had symptoms of depression/anxiety and you'd like to have some help talking to your parent about getting help. if it's not an issue of talking to your parent/guardian, then what's the worry? if you cant see a doctor, a school counselor could help you have this conversation with your parent! or even a supportive teacher that you trust. i went through a very similar situation when i was younger, and very much regret not being more persistent about getting help when i needed it. it mght not go away, and with school only getting harder and more stressful as you age,",
"response_post": "it *probably* depends on the state (edit: what state in the US). being 14, you are going to be tethered to your parent/guardian legally. the therapist/counselor/psychologist will be legally required to tell your guardians of anything that serves of specific risk. for example, i told my therapist that i was suicidal and he had to contact my mother and explain the basics of the situation. for self harm, im not sure exactly how/if the information would be disclosed by the therapist/counselor/psychologist to your parents.. but im assuming if you are physically hurting yourself to a GREAT EXTENT then yes, it would most likely be disclosed. im 18 now, and started seeing my on-campus(university) therapist and psychiatrist at the beginning of the school year, where i was 17. it sucks not being in control of your life, but what can you do, you know? if getting to see a therapist is an issue, i would recommend asking to talk to your doctor/pediatrician in private (during a normal check-up) and say tht youve had symptoms of depression/anxiety and you'd like to have some help talking to your parent about getting help. if it's not an issue of talking to your parent/guardian, then what's the worry? if you cant see a doctor, a school counselor could help you have this conversation with your parent! or even a supportive teacher that you trust. i went through a very similar situation when i was younger, and very much regret not being more persistent about getting help when i needed it. it mght not go away, and with school only getting harder and more stressful as you age, it's *really hard* to deal with all this emotional baggage. everyone deserves to feel the best that they can. you dont want to suffer anymore and someday you wont! feel free to pm me, i'd be happy to be your pen-pal through all this <3",
"rp_id": "duy7ld1",
"seeker_post": "What is it like to seek help as a minor. 14 years old and am depressed and have issues with anxiety and self harm. If i tried to seek help with a doctor what process would I go through and what would most likely happen. in the U.S. if it makes a difference",
"sp_id": "80tvsl"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "The good is worth it! Hang in there! You can get through this because you're stronger than this! You can make it through cause the good will be worth it! Lots of love!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "The good is worth it! Hang in there! You can get through this because you're stronger than this! You can make it through cause the good will be worth it! Lots of love!",
"rp_id": "dp3d78n",
"seeker_post": "Is the good even worth it?. idek anymore. Too much bad...",
"sp_id": "79mrmc"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You will be fine! I would suggest, sit down with a glass of water and do anything too intensive. Let us know how you feel later on. :)",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You will be fine! I would suggest, sit down with a glass of water and do anything too intensive. Let us know how you feel later on. :)",
"rp_id": "dq3q8pv",
"seeker_post": "Medication interaction??!!. So I'm on 100mg sertraline(zoloft) a day and have been for about a year. Today I had some candy and some were grapefruit flavour and I didn't realise..... Grapefruit reacts with sertraline(zoloft) and I'm freaking out.... Will I be okay???",
"sp_id": "7eb0dp"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Don't give up just yet!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I've had the same experience with them, but I think the problem was that I wasn't opening up to my therapist.",
"response_post": "I've had the same experience with them, but I think the problem was that I wasn't opening up to my therapist. Don't give up just yet!",
"rp_id": "damzzk9",
"seeker_post": "Mental health services can kiss my ass!!. They don't help with shit",
"sp_id": "5ftux8"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You can only drown your sorrows for so long before they explode outward - one way or another. I am happy to help any way I can.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "But 12 days ago I drank until I blacked out just trying to forget my feelings and forget everything until morning. My subconscious, drunk brain had other plans. I tried to hang myself from a bridge but luckily was too drunk to execute it. I ended up with broken bones in both my feet, a required 5 day stay in a hospital behavior and addiction unit, and no memory of what I had done or even ever feeling suicidal. 12 days sober and have accepted that I have a binge drinking problem.",
"response_post": "Currently? No. But 12 days ago I drank until I blacked out just trying to forget my feelings and forget everything until morning. My subconscious, drunk brain had other plans. I tried to hang myself from a bridge but luckily was too drunk to execute it. I ended up with broken bones in both my feet, a required 5 day stay in a hospital behavior and addiction unit, and no memory of what I had done or even ever feeling suicidal. 12 days sober and have accepted that I have a binge drinking problem. You can only drown your sorrows for so long before they explode outward - one way or another. I am happy to help any way I can.",
"rp_id": "dvgvj9e",
"seeker_post": "Anybody else trying to drink until they don't wake up tomorrow?. Shit i dont wanna experiecne another day tbh",
"sp_id": "83cv9p"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I just started smoking weed. Not to get high just to feel ok. And it's been working great!!! I still feel generally down, but without all the bullshit toxic thoughts and stuff.",
"rp_id": "dhe7mfc",
"seeker_post": "How to feel when everyone you care about would be better off without you. I think all my friends are tired of and hate me because of my mental disorders I think they'd be better off without me, alot of people would but they're all I have and I love them",
"sp_id": "6afwfg"
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{
"emotionalPortion": "I feel you. I just lost a battle on HS because of my stupid wifi connection and makes me want to die. Why am I so unlucky? Why always me and not others? I mean, it occasionally happens, but I struggle even on videogames now. It feels so fucking horrible to not be good in what you used to be good. Depression sucks. I feel you.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "just lost a battle on HS because of my stupid wifi connection and makes me want to die. Why am I so unlucky? Why always me and not others? I mean, it occasionally happens, but I struggle even on videogames now. It feels so fucking horrible to not be good in what you used to be good. Depression sucks. I feel you.",
"response_post": "I feel you. I just lost a battle on HS because of my stupid wifi connection and makes me want to die. Why am I so unlucky? Why always me and not others? I mean, it occasionally happens, but I struggle even on videogames now. It feels so fucking horrible to not be good in what you used to be good. Depression sucks. I feel you.",
"rp_id": "dszdi9l",
"seeker_post": "i lost a 1v1 and now i fell like commiting suicide why?. why am i like this i really need help after i fucking lost i just deleted every friend i had on discord and steam why? fucking why am i like this how do i help myself (im fine witht his getting no replys i needed to vent)",
"sp_id": "7rt4nt"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "been feeling it all the time for years now, its like tried so hard to make it better but it go away",
"response_post": "been feeling it all the time for years now, its like tried so hard to make it better but it go away",
"rp_id": "dyex4gb",
"seeker_post": "I feel it most of the time. Do you ever feel it? Like you just want to disappear in this world without someone knowing you disappear??",
"sp_id": "8gsqgy"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I used to be very hurt by that-- but now I just focus on how the relationship feels when we're in person. I may be the last to text but if we can get together and it feels like we haven't missed a beat-- I'm cool.",
"response_post": "I used to be very hurt by that-- but now I just focus on how the relationship feels when we're in person. I may be the last to text but if we can get together and it feels like we haven't missed a beat-- I'm cool.",
"rp_id": "d9fgo37",
"seeker_post": "I always send the last text message. No one gives a shit about me",
"sp_id": "5aap5u"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "legend says if you add anime subtitles, its going to translate the abyss' love for you.",
"rp_id": "dy2rp7t",
"seeker_post": "I stared into the abyss and it made the abyss feel akward.. Not even the abyss likes me :|",
"sp_id": "8f9ht9"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You are seen! We care about you here.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You are seen! We care about you here. Its not always a booming because everyone is so sad themselves but we look out for eachother here",
"rp_id": "dd96fx6",
"seeker_post": "Why do I come on here just hoping someone will notice what I have to say, just to feel some sense of self worth.. I know, I'm pathetic and stupid for wanting to feel seen, but I can't help it...",
"sp_id": "5rozho"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm so happy for you! This is definitely a good sign.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I'm so happy for you! This is definitely a good sign.",
"rp_id": "ddx90mz",
"seeker_post": "Haven't had suicidal thoughts for a week now.. I feel... decent. I haven't thought about suicide even if my mind has been clouded with anxiety and I almost had a panic attack in the middle of class. I guess this is kind of a milestone. Let's just hope next week doesn't shit on me.",
"sp_id": "5uve45"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Hey man, wanna talk before you do that? I wanna know what's on your mind. I'm just curious and I actually DO care. Please just don't do something that's permanent for an issue that is temporary. Message me",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "wanna know what's on your mind. I'm just curious",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Hey man, wanna talk before you do that? I wanna know what's on your mind. I'm just curious and I actually DO care. Please just don't do something that's permanent for an issue that is temporary. Message me",
"rp_id": "e39cy2e",
"seeker_post": "tonight. I give up im done with this bs depression had for years. not gonna into detail about how i came to this decision as nobody really cares. killing myself tonight and my final decision bye.",
"sp_id": "92xxhd"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Hello, I can be friend",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Hello, I can be friend",
"rp_id": "dxqjsvv",
"seeker_post": "Need a friend right now. Don't have any though. Never have or will have any.",
"sp_id": "8dvryx"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I hate being told that. Do people think we haven't thought about it before?",
"rp_id": "dz179u4",
"seeker_post": "Think of all the reasons you have to live!. 1. My parents would be traumatized if I killed myself That's it. That is the single reason I have for living.",
"sp_id": "8jo5vw"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Remember what your mother did to you the other night?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Remember what your mother did to you the other night? That is what is going on, I imagine. Bed beckons but you won't find comfort there. Get out of the house, seek company. You won't be much fun but we are social animals, we are programmed to calibrate our mood meter with reference to others. Hang out with healthy people, your mood will lift somewhat. Isolate and it can go into free fall.",
"rp_id": "duwjqen",
"seeker_post": "oh no. I'm scared that I'm slowly falling back into this. I've been ridiculously irritable these past days and I haven't left my house nor want to leave it, all I want to do is to just lay in bed and isolate myself from everybody. Also I'm feeling the sudden desire to fall back and stay in the hole???? which is something that happened to me when I was depressed af a couple of months ago, I don't understand what's going on.",
"sp_id": "80guzt"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What trash music is on?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What trash music is on?",
"rp_id": "dypv0ly",
"seeker_post": "Here again. Drinking my tirst.. Im at a bar listening to trash music. Feel free to ask anything. Unlike the people here. Edit: Judging by the /r you can quess my mood",
"sp_id": "8i930o"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "happy birthday! hope you have a chance to celebrate yourself",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "happy birthday! hope you have a chance to celebrate yourself",
"rp_id": "edxek26",
"seeker_post": "It's my birthday but it's going to be the same just like any other day. Happy birthday to my birthday twins out there",
"sp_id": "afbvld"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You go from momentary relief to slipping and losing your footing while clawing your way back to the opposite direction you downward spiraled in, which may or may not avoid the eternal pit that yearns for an alternate option being sanctuary.",
"rp_id": "ds7fpcb",
"seeker_post": "Everyone who has attempted, did you get that feeling of absolute calm once you decided?. After I decided it's happening, I felt a calm close to euphoria. Went through my day, got everything ready, it was so calm in my mind, Wondering if anyone else did.",
"sp_id": "7o7ps5"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Sorry to hear you have been going through a rough time.Try to walk yourself through some of these exercises. They might help you better understand your emotions so that you can control them in the future.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What emotion are you experiencing right now? How do you identify it? What caused you to feel like this? What steps can you make to prevent this feeling?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Sorry to hear you have been going through a rough time. Emotions can be hard to control and anger can be an easy out. It lets you feel powerful, in control of things. In therapy they teach you to sit-down often and sort through your emotions. What emotion are you experiencing right now? How do you identify it? What caused you to feel like this? What steps can you make to prevent this feeling? Try to walk yourself through some of these exercises. They might help you better understand your emotions so that you can control them in the future.",
"rp_id": "ehijpb3",
"seeker_post": "This is all my fault.. all this hatred and anger its all me, I control my emotions and i pushed people away because of it. All this rage it makes me feel good, but at the same time it Why do i do this to myself? Become my own worst enemy.",
"sp_id": "avxkh3"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Take away any kind of emotional association you have and focus on your goals and just do it. Most people like going to the gym, but most people like to be unhealthy. Just do it.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What are your goals?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What are your goals? Take away any kind of emotional association you have and focus on your goals and just do it. Most people like going to the gym, but most people like to be unhealthy. Just do it.",
"rp_id": "egj1tha",
"seeker_post": "Is this a good way to hack my brain to go to gym? lol. GYM = pain I hate myself = I want to can I use this thinking to me to go to the GYM with the objective to myself? Is someone capable of such power? Haha",
"sp_id": "aqwidj"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "This is too real for me.",
"response_post": "This is too real for me.",
"rp_id": "dmrdwld",
"seeker_post": "How am I supposed to pick a career path, when my only interest is sleeping?. Just get me out of here. Kill me.",
"sp_id": "6yxz5l"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "the thing about suicide is that harder to do it yourself. Sometimes me and my friends wish we could die by accident so we have to take the responsibility of doing it ourselves. All the things that happen after to our or friends is a scary thought too. Those are things that make it hard for me to kill myself. Maybe you relate",
"rp_id": "e0tib0p",
"seeker_post": "I want to die but I'm scared.. Maybe it's just a physiological natural evolutionary thing that keeps living things alive but I don't like it. Of course there's also guilt.",
"sp_id": "8rqo6u"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Can you just get one of those packages of pre-washed spinach and add those to your sandwiches as a start?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Can you just get one of those packages of pre-washed spinach and add those to your sandwiches as a start? Take what you have working for you and try to cram as many nutrients in as possible. Spinach is a good choice because it's pretty nutrient dense as opposed to lettuce, and it's easy to add to stuff. You can even grab a can on minestrone (or any other type) soup, heat it up and dump a bunch of spinach into it to boost the vegetable content. My go to recently has been a spinach salad with goat cheese and balsamic vinaigrette dressing. Maybe some day I'll get fancy and add onions or peppers or whatever to make it a real salad, but at this point, it's better than the grilled cheese by itself or whatever else I'm eating. Baby steps, man. Baby steps.",
"rp_id": "dhqcclr",
"seeker_post": "Cooking/Nutrition for Depression. I'm having trouble keeping up with basic cooking. What are the easiest/healthiest meals I can have to keep my nutrition up? I've been eating so many plain turkey sandwiches.",
"sp_id": "6bxrwl"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "t's natural to be afraid of things changing. But when you feel ready to, these changes are for the better.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "When I felt this way, I came to the conclusion that I didn't know who I was without these feelings. I didn't know what I liked anymore, would I be empty without this sadness? That sort of thought process, it was a lot of fear that drove me away from help.",
"response_post": "When I felt this way, I came to the conclusion that I didn't know who I was without these feelings. I didn't know what I liked anymore, would I be empty without this sadness? That sort of thought process, it was a lot of fear that drove me away from help. It's natural to be afraid of things changing. But when you feel ready to, these changes are for the better.",
"rp_id": "dgldm2v",
"seeker_post": "why do i constantly cry for help and turn it down when i ACTUALLY get help. i feel like such an attention whore",
"sp_id": "66rj6l"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I wouldn't want to give my depression to anyone else, it's too much to deal with myself and giving it to someone else would make me feel even lower.",
"rp_id": "d8xw629",
"seeker_post": "The fact that I'm stuck being ME until the day I die is disheartening. I wish I was someone else.",
"sp_id": "584skq"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "i like the statement, suffering is just part of life. i believe this to be true. i think we actually LEARN, not cognitively, but emotionally, that sometimes many of us just go thru these spells of suffering/depression. a solid 10 years here! just in the past 2 years am i starting to feel KINDA like a NORMAL person again",
"rp_id": "e5qgr87",
"seeker_post": "My 100% is a normal persons 25%. God fucking dammit life is so fucking exhausting. I'm struggling to just barely take care of myself and even that is pushing it. Jesus fuck I want to die",
"sp_id": "9eldaz"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You're not alone.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "The few really close friends I've had have all moved overseas, and moved on with their lives. I'm all alone in the city I grew up in. It's a surreal feeling. For each day that passes I feel more and more antisocial, and it only gets harder to reach out to people, and the more time I spend alone, the less I have to say to the people around me. It's a vicious circle and I don't know how to escape it.",
"response_post": "You're not alone. The few really close friends I've had have all moved overseas, and moved on with their lives. I'm all alone in the city I grew up in. It's a surreal feeling. For each day that passes I feel more and more antisocial, and it only gets harder to reach out to people, and the more time I spend alone, the less I have to say to the people around me. It's a vicious circle and I don't know how to escape it.",
"rp_id": "d8e5rpq",
"seeker_post": "I want to be someone's favorite. Though I've had many best friends, I've never been anyone's best friend. I have fallen deeply in love with a few people but no one has ever looked twice at me. I feel like the biggest, loneliest piece of shit in the whole universe. I'm just so fucking tired.",
"sp_id": "55sbfc"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I have that feeling too... but then I read it can be one of the symptoms of PTSD, so I really don't know what to think about it",
"response_post": "I have that feeling too... but then I read it can be one of the symptoms of PTSD, so I really don't know what to think about it",
"rp_id": "dklktht",
"seeker_post": "I have come to terms with the fact that I am unlovable. Just because I've accepted it doesn't make it hurt any less. I wish I want disabled, I wish I wasn't ugly, I wish I was at least average height, I wish I was confident. That, or I wish I was dead. I can't handle being this lonely any longer.",
"sp_id": "6oyohr"
} |
{
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"interpretationsPortion": "It seems I feel that way all the time too, but my anxiousness goes up and down.",
"response_post": "It seems I feel that way all the time too, but my anxiousness goes up and down.",
"rp_id": "eh6d6oh",
"seeker_post": "You know that last day of summer feeling?. That's how I feel everyday. Just sad, quiet, on my own. The fun is over, the sun is down, everyone has gone home, Im still outside and I'm not moving forward, I'm ignoring the future, I'm stuck in the present. It's always the last day of summer for me.",
"sp_id": "au372i"
} |
{
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"interpretationsPortion": "At some level I still think it is a choice. A million different choices. For me at least. On my bad days/weeks/months/years I am so paralyzed by anxiety and depression and apathy for living that I sleep all day and avoid everything. I avoid life. I want do die, but am too lazy to do anything about it. When I take initiative to do things, work on a project, clean stuff, I feel so much better. I loose myself in my task and all those heavy feelings of hopelessness stay away for awhile. Maybe it is just me, maybe I am just lazy. Idk, but that is my life experience.",
"response_post": "At some level I still think it is a choice. A million different choices. For me at least. On my bad days/weeks/months/years I am so paralyzed by anxiety and depression and apathy for living that I sleep all day and avoid everything. I avoid life. I want do die, but am too lazy to do anything about it. When I take initiative to do things, work on a project, clean stuff, I feel so much better. I loose myself in my task and all those heavy feelings of hopelessness stay away for awhile. Maybe it is just me, maybe I am just lazy. Idk, but that is my life experience.",
"rp_id": "d4ocv8f",
"seeker_post": "Someone just asked me if I'm choosing to be depressed.. Do you honestly think I want to feel this way?",
"sp_id": "4pv0b4"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "So many feels. Here to chat if you'd like. I'm going through a similar thing at the moment and it's tearing me apart.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I'm going through a similar thing at the moment and it's tearing me apart.",
"response_post": "So many feels. Here to chat if you'd like. I'm going through a similar thing at the moment and it's tearing me apart.",
"rp_id": "d2ydg4i",
"seeker_post": "I will always love you. Here's to another sleepless night. Here's to more tears. I sleep in the comfort of your flannel. It makes me feel safe. I'm reading and learning as much as I can to help you. I know you start your new job tomorrow, so good luck. Love always, thorwaway0909",
"sp_id": "4ihrzw"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I hope it works great for you though",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "If you mind me asking what is the dosage your on for them?",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "on it right now, but I be much help as I have been known to be treatment resistant and for me it does about the same as the rest as in it more so numbs me to all feeling but is not as strong as others in that way so i still sunk low quite a bit, but on like 7 or 8 different meds in the past 6 years so my experience mean to much",
"response_post": "on it right now, but I be much help as I have been known to be treatment resistant and for me it does about the same as the rest as in it more so numbs me to all feeling but is not as strong as others in that way so i still sunk low quite a bit, but on like 7 or 8 different meds in the past 6 years so my experience mean to much, I hope it works great for you though. If you mind me asking what is the dosage your on for them?",
"rp_id": "e4173mc",
"seeker_post": "Lexapro and Abilify. Has anyone been on this combination? If so can you give some insight?",
"sp_id": "96kkj0"
} |
{
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"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "That's every holiday for me bud.",
"rp_id": "drk206w",
"seeker_post": "Christmas spirit. Anyone else just not give a shit about Christmas? I used to love Christmas and get so excited about it. Now its just like any other day or even more I don't like it.",
"sp_id": "7l748p"
} |
{
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"interpretationsPortion": "Yeah. I'm afraid of a painful death. I'm afraid of dying itself. Does my consiousness just stop? Does it feel like before I was born? Is there something afterward? Both heaven and hell sound terrible. I don't want to stop having my body, it's like my home. But then at the same time I hate it here. Daily conversations are robotic and empty. People are rude and selfish. Everyone is obsessed with fast cars and big houses and parties... but none of it means anything. I'm just so tired. I want to run away and build my own hut in the forest.",
"response_post": "Yeah. I'm afraid of a painful death. I'm afraid of dying itself. Does my consiousness just stop? Does it feel like before I was born? Is there something afterward? Both heaven and hell sound terrible. I don't want to stop having my body, it's like my home. But then at the same time I hate it here. Daily conversations are robotic and empty. People are rude and selfish. Everyone is obsessed with fast cars and big houses and parties... but none of it means anything. I'm just so tired. I want to run away and build my own hut in the forest.",
"rp_id": "d5hy5z2",
"seeker_post": "Anyone else really fucking scared of death and what comes after but daily wishes to stop existing?. That's where I'm at, scared shitless about what could happen after (if anything happens at all) but still suicidal daily.",
"sp_id": "4ti7ew"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry you are feeling this way. We are here for you.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
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"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I'm sorry you are feeling this way. We are here for you.",
"rp_id": "e2lxib6",
"seeker_post": "I'm all the way down now. I can see all the way to the bottom...",
"sp_id": "8zwm58"
} |
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"response_post": "There are actually some studies that support this: depressed people are more likely to correctly assess probabilities and risk/reward in many situations. However, we also have documentable thought process issues, the primary being black and white thinking, all-or-nothing. So I don't think we get to claim to be the sane ones. ;)",
"rp_id": "dqh5k2h",
"seeker_post": "What if depressed people are the sane ones?. I think some people don't care about nothing in this life because they're conscious that nothing really matters and they are the ones who can see the real mediocrity that is the world. (Sorry for the grammar I'm italian)",
"sp_id": "7g7c4z"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Please please please let someone help you tell the people you care about, give them a chance to help or you will rip a void through their hearts. I don't know what your going through but I know you don't wish this pain upon anyone especially those you love. If I could carry this for you I would and my heart is already breaking just thinking about how you might feel. Don't do it.",
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"response_post": "The most painless way is to keep living. Nothing is more painful than a beautiful life taken from us. Please please please let someone help you tell the people you care about, give them a chance to help or you will rip a void through their hearts. I don't know what your going through but I know you don't wish this pain upon anyone especially those you love. If I could carry this for you I would and my heart is already breaking just thinking about how you might feel. Don't do it.",
"rp_id": "e70fch1",
"seeker_post": "Need help. What are some painless ways to commit sucide?",
"sp_id": "9kneg3"
} |
{
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"interpretationsPortion": "I can get that, but the feeling's only temporary, isn't it? An hour or two maybe depending on what exactly, but still. Those things always run out and I find myself being broke not long later, having to lend or beg relatives, yadda yadda yadda. I hate it, but love it at the same time because that always seems to pay off. Sure, I don't have the right mindset for this thing - drugs are bad, and so on and so on but whatever works works. Just make sure it works and doesn't make it worse is my advice.",
"response_post": "I can get that, but the feeling's only temporary, isn't it? An hour or two maybe depending on what exactly, but still. Those things always run out and I find myself being broke not long later, having to lend or beg relatives, yadda yadda yadda. I hate it, but love it at the same time because that always seems to pay off. Sure, I don't have the right mindset for this thing - drugs are bad, and so on and so on but whatever works works. Just make sure it works and doesn't make it worse is my advice.",
"rp_id": "do5vgt0",
"seeker_post": "I'm not depressed since being on drugs actually they've made me happy.... Wired thing is now I just want to die happy.. happy days a",
"sp_id": "75fr37"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Are you doing well?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "missed you a lot! Are you doing well?",
"rp_id": "edfkx5w",
"seeker_post": "I gonna beat you down, depression.. And you all gonna do the same.",
"sp_id": "adbxfg"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I don't think that's weird at all. Just don't forget that you're still the same person you were before you changed how you think of yourself.",
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"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
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"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I don't think that's weird at all. Just don't forget that you're still the same person you were before you changed how you think of yourself.",
"rp_id": "du7oawq",
"seeker_post": "Is it weird to tie my identity up to my desired career choice (research and cures). Since I am too busy for a life, and thus things that go with it (like hiking,biking, traveling), is it ok to predicate my identity of a potential soon to be (and desired) job?",
"sp_id": "7xei0h"
} |
{
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"interpretationsPortion": "tried it personally. One friend told me whenever he does shrooms he depressed for at least a month afterwards.",
"response_post": "tried it personally. One friend told me whenever he does shrooms he depressed for at least a month afterwards. But bad trips are also a risk.",
"rp_id": "ebb4fol",
"seeker_post": "Mushroom Effectiveness?. I've read about mushrooms for depression and I'm tempted to try it. Has anyone here done this? Did it work? How long does the relief from depression last? Thanks",
"sp_id": "a433st"
} |
{
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"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "isn't this me in a bubble",
"rp_id": "d6gbq74",
"seeker_post": "Couldn't go through with killing myself, where do I go now?. As soon as i starting breathing in water, I decided I wanted to live. Now I'm here. What am I supposed to do with this meaningless existence? I try and try and try. I work hard at everything. It doesn't seem to matter, there is just a void always looming every single day of my life. I don't want to live, I don't want to die. Maybe Earth really is hell, except there is no heaven.",
"sp_id": "4wh9fy"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Happy birthday love, have a great one!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
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"response_post": "Happy birthday love, have a great one!",
"rp_id": "d3qz3ya",
"seeker_post": "Happy birthday to me. I guess. Looks like it's time to get drunk and lay on the couch. Again. Happy birthday to me",
"sp_id": "4lx388"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "i totally get that shit. seriously i doi was just asking, i was just wondering. maybe your one of the lucky ones meant to wait for their real love to come. giving my situation id of totally preferred that, then being torn apart with bad relationships causing all sorts of insecurities. being lonely sucks, but being broken any better.. be",
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"response_post": "i totally get that shit. seriously i do. i was just asking, i was just wondering. maybe your one of the lucky ones meant to wait for their real love to come. giving my situation id of totally preferred that, then being torn apart with bad relationships causing all sorts of insecurities. being lonely sucks, but being broken any better.. be",
"rp_id": "e4byhal",
"seeker_post": "I've done everything possible to prove I'm worth loving.. Yet here I am. Alone.",
"sp_id": "97wmo4"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Oh I know. In my opinion the true reason that you, me and about 90% of people with depression feels the way you portrayed in this post is because out of all those people who are",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
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"response_post": "Oh I know. In my opinion the true reason that you, me and about 90% of people with depression feels the way you portrayed in this post is because out of all those people who are support. no one really understands on a deep, emotional, and philosophical level how this disorder ruins your life and makes it miserably painful. The ONLY way you know is if you have experienced it yourself. Once you get truly depressed you enter the void. Some people are only in that void for some brief time, while clinically depressed people like ourselves live in this void. That support group doesn't speak our language. That's the fucking problem. They don't know the void. They can only read about the void, but they don't live in it. The support group approaches depression in the same way that males know what it's like to go through childbirth (no this is not a political push either way). It's just stating, THEY DONT but they can read all about it and try to imagine the pain, but they can never truly feel it. The subjective nature of emotions and life makes it beyond Fucking difficult to find people who know what you are truly talking about at your personal level.",
"rp_id": "dkd7pud",
"seeker_post": "Mental Health support. Mom says try harder. A doctor prescribes me pills. A councillor gives me kindergarten-level reading material and handouts. The internet gives me a phone number. Friends give me absence. The psychiatric ward gives me a doctor. But repeat after me... I have mental health support.",
"sp_id": "6nwda9"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "hile there's life, there's hope. Please PM me if you need support. I've been where you are. It sucks, but it can be overcome.LIFE is hard. But honey, there are people who love you. People who care way less about your college degree and debt than they do about your happiness. Look into your university's mental health services.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I am 31 yrs old and am in college myself. I dropped out during my first college career due to, you guessed it, mental health issues. College is hard.I've been depressed. I've been suicidal. The worst part is the sincere feeling that nothing will EVER get better. Well, I want to tell you that IT WILL",
"response_post": "I am 31 yrs old and am in college myself. I dropped out during my first college career due to, you guessed it, mental health issues. College is hard. LIFE is hard. But honey, there are people who love you. People who care way less about your college degree and debt than they do about your happiness. Look into your university's mental health services. Counseling is a sympathetic ear who will NEVER downplay things bringing you stress. I've been depressed. I've been suicidal. The worst part is the sincere feeling that nothing will EVER get better. Well, I want to tell you that IT WILL. While there's life, there's hope. Please PM me if you need support. I've been where you are. It sucks, but it can be overcome.",
"rp_id": "d7svqja",
"seeker_post": "im so tired. I just wanna be done, I have no hope, I have no future... hell I don't WANT a future... why can't I just be done?",
"sp_id": "53e7bc"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Trust me I am done with it too and you dont suffer alone bro so find comfort in that",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
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"response_post": "Trust me I am done with it too and you dont suffer alone bro so find comfort in that",
"rp_id": "dz4yput",
"seeker_post": "Our purpose is to suffer. And I'm fucking done with it",
"sp_id": "8k5jup"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
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"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
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"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Happiness won't come to you; you have to hunt for it.",
"rp_id": "dh28bdu",
"seeker_post": "I don't feel ok. I am acutely aware of my own heartbeat right now. I feel like I have nothing to live for anymore... I just wanna be happy",
"sp_id": "68xz8j"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "This may be a tough concept to accept, but you should be happy that other's have thatI wouldn't say you're wasting your time doing nothing.You shouldn't fear not finding love. 'Cause that's just not how it works. I wouldn't sayYou want to be with someone because you want to be with them, not because you fear being lonely. Give it time. Talk to your friends. Enjoy yourself.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
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"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "This may be a tough concept to accept, but you should be happy that other's have that something you lack. Be honest with yourself, do you see all of those relationships your friends have lasting for decades? Finding love is complex. I wouldn't say you're wasting your time doing nothing. I've seen this too many times, where people spend days after days trying to find the one. That just now how it works. Although it is true that if you don't look, you won't find in most cases. You shouldn't fear not finding love. 'Cause that's just not how it works. I wouldn't say love finds you either, that's also not how it works. I wouldn't ponder too much about not finding the one or love. Time will tell, it will come. During that time, try to be alright with yourself by being just yourself. You want to be with someone because you want to be with them, not because you fear being lonely. Give it time. Talk to your friends. Enjoy yourself.",
"rp_id": "d7heu08",
"seeker_post": "Depressed that I'll never find love.. My biggest fear is not finding love.I see all of my friends having girlfriends and stuff and I am sitting here and wasting my time doing nothing.I've had a few relationships but all of them crashed and burned.",
"sp_id": "5258xg"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
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"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "It's not a gift it's a fucking chore",
"rp_id": "eam6d2p",
"seeker_post": "Life is the greatest gift. Nah, even wrong sized socks would've been better.",
"sp_id": "a0wtf5"
} |
{
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"response_post": "happy birthday. i still feel birthdays are worth celebrating by ourselves.",
"rp_id": "ebwm6ww",
"seeker_post": "Today is my birthday. And no one cares; and really, why should anyone? I am universally hated and even besides that point, no one's obliged to congratulate another person's birth. I mean, everybody's born at one point. It's not an achievement to be proud of to say the least.",
"sp_id": "a6n95g"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I feel a similar way,",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I feel a similar way, when that happens I play chess or read something interesting. Sometimes nothing works and I just sit there",
"response_post": "I feel a similar way, when that happens I play chess or read something interesting. Sometimes nothing works and I just sit there...",
"rp_id": "dzkys1b",
"seeker_post": "Bored therefore depressed,depressed therefore bored. does anyone else feels that way?",
"sp_id": "8m3scd"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I mean you had the balls to ask her out in the first place , you got further than a lot of other people with their crushes because they are too scared to ask them. Just because she said no mean the end of the world bro, even though it might seem like that. Keep your head up",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
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"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I mean you had the balls to ask her out in the first place , you got further than a lot of other people with their crushes because they are too scared to ask them. Just because she said no mean the end of the world bro, even though it might seem like that. Keep your head up",
"rp_id": "e6vfjwa",
"seeker_post": "I had the worst depressive episode of my entire life... so I decided to ask my crush out. She said, just not looking for anything right now, I hope we can still be I love my why I decided to sleep for 20 straight hours and now I feel exactly the same",
"sp_id": "9jz3ut"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "We all are, and that's ok.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "We all are, and that's ok.",
"rp_id": "dinln7v",
"seeker_post": "Im a deeple confused and flawd person. And i hate myself for it everyday",
"sp_id": "6g51xw"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "It takes a week or two to build up in your system",
"rp_id": "daexafr",
"seeker_post": "Zoloft. How long does it take to fucking work and any past experience or current with it and how it was because I'm on day two Edit: Any side effects I should worry about like weight gain, being a zombie, or orgasm issues.",
"sp_id": "5esucy"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Are you on medication?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "IME supplements are worth nothing when it comes to serious brain fog. Are you on medication?",
"rp_id": "dn0vh5s",
"seeker_post": "How to over cognitive impairment from depression??. I used to be the smart kid in the class before I became depressed!! I would do the work but it would be easy because I payed so much attention in class. I did well in school exams (Not as well as I could have but better than average) and have been in and out of college since due to indecision and anxiety from my depression. Giving it another go and I am so stupid!! I can't pay attention to anything. How can I get rid of this grogginess and be as alert as I used to be? I know exercise should help, but what kinds and how much? And are there weird foods I should eat? (Heard turmeric and black pepper in smoothies? And omege 3 supplements)",
"sp_id": "704fau"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What now?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "That's it. You've discovered how things work. What now?",
"rp_id": "dmpci59",
"seeker_post": "why is life so terrible. everything seems so terrible you work everyday for a boss who makes more than you ever will and its all so you can then buy pointless stuff from other bosses who makes more than you ever will what a load of pointless garbage",
"sp_id": "6yqfx8"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Alright breathe. Its going to be okay. Your adrenaline is pumping and you're not thinking clearly. Take a moment step outside,I'm not sure what I can help you with but man...I can tell you one thing. Things sure do have a funny way of fixing itself or getting better even when you least expect it to. Keep your chin up.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
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"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Alright breathe. Its going to be okay. Your adrenaline is pumping and you're not thinking clearly. Take a moment step outside, get a snack or some thing to drink. Its going to be okay. Unfortunately, you didn't give any description so I'm not sure what I can help you with but man...I can tell you one thing. Things sure do have a funny way of fixing itself or getting better even when you least expect it to. Keep your chin up.",
"rp_id": "d0wuodf",
"seeker_post": "My suicidal thought is imploding on me and I AM EXTREMELY MOTIVATED to do it. I am afraid I will do something.... My hands are shaking... and my heart is physically hurting.",
"sp_id": "4a2ctm"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What was it that made you feel",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What was it that made you feel okay and has it ended?",
"rp_id": "d6etria",
"seeker_post": "In the last days, I've experienced how to be okay. Now it's over.. Hello, laziness and suicidal thoughts.",
"sp_id": "4xepgs"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You need to remember that word is bond. One thing that I'm trying really hard to do is to be a best friend to myself. Would i tell my best friend she's incapable of making her own life better? No. I would tell her... yeah you've been having a really hard time and that's understandable but you're strong and you're loved and you're amazing and you have a big heart and mind. You can do this and I'm going to be here for you the whole time.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You need to remember that word is bond. One thing that I'm trying really hard to do is to be a best friend to myself. Would i tell my best friend she's incapable of making her own life better? No. I would tell her... yeah you've been having a really hard time and that's understandable but you're strong and you're loved and you're amazing and you have a big heart and mind. You can do this and I'm going to be here for you the whole time.",
"rp_id": "drzr80g",
"seeker_post": "I'm uncapable of making my life better. Whatever I try i fuck up and it's even worse",
"sp_id": "7n7vyb"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Stop the weed it works for.skme people",
"rp_id": "dqasc1x",
"seeker_post": "When my account hits zero, that's when I'll kill myself. Just wasting my money on food and weed constantly. Who cares. I saw this coming. Soon there won't be any money for gas. No time for work. Just death.",
"sp_id": "7faqco"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Please Feelings can lie to us...perhaps time to fuel up with new thoughts?? You can do it!!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Please Feelings can lie to us...perhaps time to fuel up with new thoughts?? You can do it!!",
"rp_id": "doqtt88",
"seeker_post": "I feel empty inside. Isolated, boring, mentally unstable, ugly, weird. Wanna end my life.",
"sp_id": "783jdf"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I struggle to find one at times honestly. But I just keep putting one foot in front of the other kinda hopin that one day I will wake up and it will all be alright. However, each day that passes that hope that everything will be alright dims just a little bit more.",
"response_post": "I struggle to find one at times honestly. But I just keep putting one foot in front of the other kinda hopin that one day I will wake up and it will all be alright. However, each day that passes that hope that everything will be alright dims just a little bit more.",
"rp_id": "d9i1i2r",
"seeker_post": "What is your reason for living? Not your reason for not killing yourself, but your reason for living. I hope the distinction is clear.. I want to hear your ideas cause im all out",
"sp_id": "5an2jz"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "It might help to know not alone , had everything someone could ever want but no draw to anything for me no pleasure just emptiness",
"rp_id": "ecmu5tw",
"seeker_post": "I feel like I'm slowly spiralling again. and I'm so frustrated at myself I should be grateful for the life I have; the people I have but I feel nothing but a gnawing emptiness I want to be there for people I care about but I'm just such a mess and I'm exhausted.",
"sp_id": "a9uofm"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Please maybe someday soon something will go right, happen for me but maybe for you",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Please maybe someday soon something will go right, happen for me but maybe for you",
"rp_id": "eczkoag",
"seeker_post": "I’m going to kill myself in a week. I just thought someone should know",
"sp_id": "abdhg8"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "The thing that makes me sad about death is that once you do it, you can't undo it. Like once you do it no one can ever talk to you again, your thoughts, ideas, feelings all vanish. I guess all of that doesn't matter anyways in the big picture, but it still makes me sad. And think about it. I don't know how old you are, but all the time and resources that went into raising you and feeding you and just growing. I feel it's a shame to waste so much. However, on the other side of the coin, you won't have to sustain yourself anymore... I'm just making this worse, aren't I?",
"rp_id": "dan77xa",
"seeker_post": "Goodbye. Edit: still alive for now, because of you guys ^^",
"sp_id": "5fun0r"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Could you provide more details? How is jealousy negatively impacting your relationships, specifically?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Could you provide more details? How is jealousy negatively impacting your relationships, specifically?",
"rp_id": "dgzwedu",
"seeker_post": "Jealousy sucks. Jealousy is going to ruin my relationships because I fear that I'll lose what's close to me. I don't know how to deal with it.",
"sp_id": "68ntyn"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Do you want to talk about what's going on?",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Do you want to talk about what's going on?",
"rp_id": "d95cv9e",
"seeker_post": "I wanna kill myself. Fuck. Shit. Fuck my life.",
"sp_id": "59324f"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Beautiful, I wish I could help you feel better.I hope you can get a new one soon.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Beautiful, I wish I could help you feel better. I would even offer a bed with me but unfortunately your Irish self isn't near me. I hope you can get a new one soon. I can just picture you in a nice big 4 poster bed with curtains.",
"rp_id": "dskrp1t",
"seeker_post": "Can't even get out of bed anymore. Had to sleep in someone elses seeing as I had to throw mine out.....I have to sign on to the dole today and the thought of it is making me want to shoot myself",
"sp_id": "7pxetk"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I am so scared of being alone it hurts",
"response_post": "I am so scared of being alone it hurts",
"rp_id": "df8vtno",
"seeker_post": "I hate being alone with my brain.... It's worst when trying to sleep. When active I can distract myself. But lay down to sleep and the darkness overtakes my mind. I think of all the harms, hurts and failures. Fuck.",
"sp_id": "60mmf6"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Lay down with your neck on the tracks. Maybe a tarp over your body so they're less likely to notice?",
"rp_id": "dcsc0te",
"seeker_post": "Someone jumped in front of a train near my house and I can't help feeling jealous.. I wish I could be that brave.",
"sp_id": "5pklsj"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Hi, I hope you are doing okay today. If you have never scene anyone, I would recommend a therapist like a LCSW (licensed social worker).Have a good one",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "In my experience, the type of care you get is less important than the connection you feel with the provider. So I over think it too hard. Instead, put that energy towards finding the right person. Which means calling lots of places, talking to a lot of people and listening to your gut.",
"response_post": "Hi, I hope you are doing okay today. If you have never scene anyone, I would recommend a therapist like a LCSW (licensed social worker). In my experience, the type of care you get is less important than the connection you feel with the provider. So I over think it too hard. Instead, put that energy towards finding the right person. Which means calling lots of places, talking to a lot of people and listening to your gut. Have a good one",
"rp_id": "ehcioxh",
"seeker_post": "How do I know how to decide between seeing a therapist or a psychologist or a life coach ?? Please help. I am a 22 year old male, I work 2 part time jobs, I suffer from depression and loneliness and social anxiety and low self esteem, I don't know what to do with my life and what to do with myself. Which category should I seek help from ?",
"sp_id": "atkzmx"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Can I ask why you have depression?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Can I ask why you have depression?",
"rp_id": "d2ai88c",
"seeker_post": "low self-worth. can be depression the cause of low self-worth? depression, loneliness, boredom, my self-worth is going down fucking fast. :S i want a girl",
"sp_id": "4fo785"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I feel ya, I have strict deadlines at work but still can't bring myself to do it sometimes. Which means I'm working overtime to get the work done eventually and that in turn is making me more stressed out :(",
"response_post": "I feel ya, I have strict deadlines at work but still can't bring myself to do it sometimes. Which means I'm working overtime to get the work done eventually and that in turn is making me more stressed out :(",
"rp_id": "dtaqzx5",
"seeker_post": "My depression makes it so hard to be productive at work. I've been sitting here for over an hour and written one sentence for this assignment, and I'm getting behind on other responsibilities. I hate it when people say get really into work as a way to distract yourself. No. My job is uninteresting and boring. It doesn't help.",
"sp_id": "7t5rjz"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "There are many, even easy, skills you can learn. You just need to find the ones that are fun to you!I hope that are enough and dont give up too easily!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "There are many, even easy, skills you can learn. You just need to find the ones that are fun to you! Some examples: Yoga \\(good to relax I've heard\\), Skateboarding \\(some cool moves and tricks\\), Origami \\(I think it is fascinating\\), collecting stuff \\(idk if you are into it or if there is anything you want to collect\\), magic tricks \\(are always cool\\), learning how to code/design video games \\(something i definetly wanna do\\), breakdance \\(or any other dance you like\\), climbing or just hiking \\(watching some beautiful landscapes\\), playing Video Games , planting some flowers \\(ooor food?\\) , strength training \\(its healthy I guess, and finishing those exercises releases endorphins i think aaaand that is very good if you are depressed\\) I hope that are enough and dont give up too easily! \\(Btw, I dont really have hobbies myself tho\\)",
"rp_id": "dzkua8e",
"seeker_post": "Jack of no trades, Master of nothing. I am what the title says, a fucking wholesome loser...............",
"sp_id": "8m4w5a"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "> there is always a way to fix it! No there isn't.",
"rp_id": "d4at5rg",
"seeker_post": "I ruined the only thing that made me happy and I don't think I want to go on. I know how I want to end it when I eventually will.",
"sp_id": "4o9lpg"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Don't do it. Whatever there is ailing you, you know it's hard but you can overcome it. You're a human being. You sent people to space and conquered the animal kingdom. You can conquer depression.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Don't do it. Whatever there is ailing you, you know it's hard but you can overcome it. You're a human being. You sent people to space and conquered the animal kingdom. You can conquer depression.",
"rp_id": "dan6x99",
"seeker_post": "Goodbye. Edit: still alive for now, because of you guys ^^",
"sp_id": "5fun0r"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I know the feel, I just know why",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I know the feel, I just know why",
"rp_id": "edf40nm",
"seeker_post": "Sorry, but I absolutely hate myself. Just needed to express this, to someone. Loneliness, you know?",
"sp_id": "ad9x5z"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Simply because it is an answer.As a two-time suicide survivor and multiple abuse survivor, I know I can't fault anyone for doing what they do. It sucks to have someone kill themselves, but there was so much pain and suffering that they couldn't bare it any longer. I know, I've seen that demon more than once.",
"response_post": "Simply because it is an answer. When people put definitive statements out there, they are also putting out there it is not the answer for them and for normal society. As a two-time suicide survivor and multiple abuse survivor, I know I can't fault anyone for doing what they do. It sucks to have someone kill themselves, but there was so much pain and suffering that they couldn't bare it any longer. I know, I've seen that demon more than once.",
"rp_id": "e4f1rnr",
"seeker_post": "Suicide is not the answer...well.... Then why do more and more people do it? Lmao.",
"sp_id": "98d3rr"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Does your limp make you depressed or is there more?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Ok, you walk with a limp and that probably sucks. Still, a lot of things you can do. I'm sure it's not as off-putting as you feel it is. Does your limp make you depressed or is there more?",
"rp_id": "d6o2f0l",
"seeker_post": "7 Years.... My Mother informed me that yesterday was the seven year anniversary of my first knee surgery. It's been seven years since I've been able to walk without a limp. Who would ever want someone so broken both physically and mentally?",
"sp_id": "4yj4y5"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I can relate to what you're feeling.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What's making you feel this way?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I can relate to what you're feeling. It's very easy to be disgusted by yourself when people are either berating you or not acknowledging your presence. What's making you feel this way?",
"rp_id": "d8yndf6",
"seeker_post": "No one can relate. No one. You are all innocent good people. I'm so alone in this. No one can relate to me. I don't belong here. I'm feeling terrible every day all day. Help. Something. I'm crying on my floor like always. I am so tired of living. It's so hard. The worst thing is that I don't feel like you. I don't feel apathy. I feel constant disgust over myself. I can't stand it",
"sp_id": "58a2mh"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I've tried doing that myself for my goals, doctors didn't like it since I'm a diabetic and therefore ended up in hospital with a huge hypo. :'( Atleast it ended the misery of daily life for a few days I guess....... The daily to do list in itself is good advice in any conditions though! Do this OP, it'll work better than the long term goal.",
"rp_id": "dhfpuay",
"seeker_post": "If I don't find a job by the May 31, I'm out.. I'm keeping this here as a reminder. If I'm still unemployed by May 30, I'm ending my life. I think it's a good idea, because either outcome will be good for me. I just have to force myself out of this state of perpetual idleness, anything's better than that.",
"sp_id": "6am7av"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "addicted to self sabotage fuck it",
"rp_id": "eavv09m",
"seeker_post": "My therapist: don’t drink or do drugs Me the next week: so I drank and got high. Love a daily dose of self-sabotage",
"sp_id": "a250v8"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You really shouldn't be ashamed to cry in front of your mom. I understand it's embarrassing sometimes but hopefully she will understand how hard it is for you. She's seen you cry before, she knows you're human.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You really shouldn't be ashamed to cry in front of your mom. I understand it's embarrassing sometimes but hopefully she will understand how hard it is for you. She's seen you cry before, she knows you're human.",
"rp_id": "eerl5qp",
"seeker_post": "How can I tell my mom that I have depression and why without crying?. Crying near people is the worst",
"sp_id": "aizt0j"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry your mental illness is having an affect like this, but the first step is admitting you want help which you've done so good job! I'll be rooting for you.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Talk with your teachers, ask how you can get caught up and back in the swing of things. Most teachers would be happy to have you reach out, plus by being in communication with them, they'll be there to help keep your motivation up. Work out a plan for each class on how to raise grades, maybe see if you can stay before or after school with one of them to have them monitor you while you work. I hate to say this, but school academics come over sports. If time mangement is becoming hard, maybe ask if you can lower yourself from captian position. Freshmen year is easiest for most, so you might want to get help now to save yourself from only deciding to change say in junior year. I'm sorry your mental illness is having an affect like this, but the first step is admitting you want help which you've done so good job! I'll be rooting for you.",
"rp_id": "dw4rqrc",
"seeker_post": "Can someone help me. I had a 3.7 gpa, captain of my freshman football team and life was smooth. Now I’m in the 2nd semester my gpa has gone to 2.0 and im unmotivated to do anything. I don’t know what’s wrong or how to fix it.. I let anyone find out.",
"sp_id": "86g273"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Take baby steps you can easily accomplish and grow from there. I hope you have a great day tomorrow and if you ever need some support, just send me a PM hugs in the meantime",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Music had always affected my moods depending on what I listen to. When I need a boost of happiness or motivation I like to listen to Alexander desplat or Hans zimmer or James horner. Honestly, I am just a huge orchestra person and, since it doesn't have lyrics, I can pretend it's the soundtrack to my life and feel more courageous to get moving. There's also another Reddit user (I wish I could remember where or who it was) but they suggested doing at least one thing whenever you get up to go pee or get water. Then, you can push it to doing two things when you feel more motivated. Please be kind and have patience with yourself. Depression is an ongoing war with many battles.",
"response_post": "Music had always affected my moods depending on what I listen to. When I need a boost of happiness or motivation I like to listen to Alexander desplat or Hans zimmer or James horner. Honestly, I am just a huge orchestra person and, since it doesn't have lyrics, I can pretend it's the soundtrack to my life and feel more courageous to get moving. There's also another user (I wish I could remember where or who it was) but they suggested doing at least one thing whenever you get up to go pee or get water. Then, you can push it to doing two things when you feel more motivated. Please be kind and have patience with yourself. Depression is an ongoing war with many battles. Celebrate your wins and don't berate yourself when you're not doing as well as you wish. Take baby steps you can easily accomplish and grow from there. I hope you have a great day tomorrow and if you ever need some support, just send me a PM hugs in the meantime",
"rp_id": "dt5rjca",
"seeker_post": "such a catch 22. I have to *do* things to feel better, but I don't feel well enough to drum up the energy to *do* them. My whole life is an exercise in saying 'I should be doing... x/y/z...but nope'.",
"sp_id": "7slkva"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Do you want to talk about it? (I realized that sentence kinda sounds sarcastic wasn't meant to be)",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Do you want to talk about it? (I realized that sentence kinda sounds sarcastic wasn't meant to be)",
"rp_id": "dkddxlr",
"seeker_post": "Crazy thoughts. Planning to end it all soon .",
"sp_id": "6nzbf1"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Definitely. I want my ex back more than anything, we broke up over a year ago, she's got a kid with someone else now and it hurts a lot, but it was my fault. I wasn't the nicest person to be around sometimes, I did a lot of good in the relationship, but a lot of bad too. I'm not proud of it, I'm ashamed of it, I regret it all, I hate myself over the things I've done. I think that's what makes the breakup worse, knowing that it was my fault, that I could have saved it if I had just stayed on my medication. I keep trying to convince myself she broke my heart, but I broke both mine and hers through my actions. Still doesn't make it any less painful and I wish I could just end it all right now.",
"response_post": "Definitely. I want my ex back more than anything, we broke up over a year ago, she's got a kid with someone else now and it hurts a lot, but it was my fault. I wasn't the nicest person to be around sometimes, I did a lot of good in the relationship, but a lot of bad too. I'm not proud of it, I'm ashamed of it, I regret it all, I hate myself over the things I've done. I think that's what makes the breakup worse, knowing that it was my fault, that I could have saved it if I had just stayed on my medication. I keep trying to convince myself she broke my heart, but I broke both mine and hers through my actions. Still doesn't make it any less painful and I wish I could just end it all right now.",
"rp_id": "e8ya8cl",
"seeker_post": "Anyone else feel like they don't deserve a partner?. Sometimes I think about the baggage I carry with me and feel sorry for whoever gets stuck with a guy like me.",
"sp_id": "9torvz"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You try to make things better. And try. And try.",
"rp_id": "dir4l7d",
"seeker_post": "What if... What if you don't want to die but things aren't going to get better?",
"sp_id": "6gl8x6"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I try to cope by trying to keep my own goals from the past that were broken, alongside those i may make in the current time, intact for myself. Whether or not that can happen or if it's meant to be for me, i don't and honestly can't know, unless and until i get there from still trying. I am living, but not alive -- there is a difference; I'm trying to find completion for that void. I try to accept myself and my flaws -- even some of the current ones i want gone as i progress towards that. I still fight myself over that and/or other things at times. But i still try to accept and understand. I just keep going. For the sake of something i still believe in somewhere out there that might be befitting of me, as i want it. If it's there, i must get to it -- i must have it. At the same time, i must better myself until i am who and what I've always wanted to be, both in and out. The sense of failure and futility are always there -- i just keep trying to keep them level and not overwhelm me. I try to do things for myself i thought i had from others. Things i would truly want done to me by others. But there's nobody. I got used to it. Despite still wanting the opposite in my own humble way. I just think of what who might actually still exist out there, think and feel if i weren't doing this, willingly, to keep pushing. I keep trying to believe that regardless, i deserve things my way. After everything especially. That it can't all be for naught. I've yet to see that. That's why I'm still going for the future. Even if its path got shattered long-ago, many-a-time.",
"response_post": "I try to cope by trying to keep my own goals from the past that were broken, alongside those i may make in the current time, intact for myself. Whether or not that can happen or if it's meant to be for me, i don't and honestly can't know, unless and until i get there from still trying. I am living, but not alive -- there is a difference; I'm trying to find completion for that void. I try to accept myself and my flaws -- even some of the current ones i want gone as i progress towards that. I still fight myself over that and/or other things at times. But i still try to accept and understand. I just keep going. For the sake of something i still believe in somewhere out there that might be befitting of me, as i want it. If it's there, i must get to it -- i must have it. At the same time, i must better myself until i am who and what I've always wanted to be, both in and out. The sense of failure and futility are always there -- i just keep trying to keep them level and not overwhelm me. I try to do things for myself i thought i had from others. Things i would truly want done to me by others. But there's nobody. I got used to it. Despite still wanting the opposite in my own humble way. I just think of what who might actually still exist out there, think and feel if i weren't doing this, willingly, to keep pushing. I keep trying to believe that regardless, i deserve things my way. After everything especially. That it can't all be for naught. I've yet to see that. That's why I'm still going for the future. Even if its path got shattered long-ago, many-a-time. I hope this helps.",
"rp_id": "e15owpn",
"seeker_post": "Thinking of the future. When I think of the future, I feel so worthless. I feel like I will never achieve anything great after finishing university. It makes me feel more depressed about being alive. How do you cope with the future?",
"sp_id": "8t9alh"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I feel you. When I wasn't diagnosed but was obviously depressed (looking back now) I was in denial and felt ashamed. I always said",
"response_post": "I feel you. When I wasn't diagnosed but was obviously depressed (looking back now) I was in denial and felt ashamed. I always said I feel depressed and not I am depressed",
"rp_id": "e66mrx6",
"seeker_post": "Anyone ever feel weird saying you're depressed when you've never been clinically diagnosed. I'm pretty sure I have depression. However there's this constant fear that if I tell someone they won't believe me. If I tell my friends or family I'm depressed. I'll think they just won't believe you just because I should be happy because of how my life looks.",
"sp_id": "9gs9zm"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Hi Friend, Someone will always it worse. This is true.Don't let the fear of being not down to Earth shackle you my friend.I truly feel that your reactions to other's lives highlights your ability to empathize and live. Harvest that energy for its beauty and not its sadness. Stay strong.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Hi Friend, Someone will always it worse. This is true. But, I think that you should draw strength from the fact not that others have it worse, but that you know there is better. I certainly understand the feeling of the teeter totter between living in hell and trying too hard. Don't let the fear of being not down to Earth shackle you my friend. Reach out and grab for what makes you feel alive, because there is far more uncertainty in sitting back and watching. I truly feel that your reactions to other's lives highlights your ability to empathize and live. Harvest that energy for its beauty and not its sadness. Stay strong.",
"rp_id": "dbet2nq",
"seeker_post": "I'm just fucking scared. I've always been out of pretty much every loop for one reason or another that was out of my control, and I feel like I am a victim of natural selection and nothing more. I can't see anything in my future, as there was quite literally nothing in my past. I am so goddamn scared. People say that it will be alright if you try, but everybody is trying, and I've been functioning under the fact that no matter how bad I do, someone has it worse, and the opposite holds true, and now I'm part of the standard deviation. I guess I always felt that if I tried too hard I wouldn't be 'down to earth', but the way things are now, I feel down to hell. I just want to have a chance, but thats too much to ask as technically I've been left with nothing except to mooch, and react to other people's lives. And be a fucking parasite beyond that. Fuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.",
"sp_id": "5jb8d7"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Tell us. We'll listen.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What happened?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What happened? Tell us. We'll listen.",
"rp_id": "e42f1tu",
"seeker_post": "I got what I wanted. Why doesn’t it make me happy?. I still feel like a stupid piece of shit. not enough. still a fuck yo and at fault for everything.",
"sp_id": "96pjkq"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "'m not entirely certain what reaction you're getting, but I hope you'll give those around you a little slack if they can't be as openly receptive and caring as you need at first.Perhaps try introducing A problem at a time, slowly, and seeing if they can get used to you also being a normal human with issues. Good luck!!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Aren't you glad when someone comes to you?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I'm not entirely certain what reaction you're getting, but I hope you'll give those around you a little slack if they can't be as openly receptive and caring as you need at first. I'm sort of the designated problem solver in my circle, so quite a few of my friends come to me for advice and sympathy. It's never, never a burden. Instead, it's an honor. They trust me with their secrets, their problems, and value my opinion enough to ask for it. Reverse the situation. Aren't you glad when someone comes to you? The thing is, not everyone is built for that. Especially, I have found, it can sort of weird people out when the Rock, the Stable One, the One Person In This Messed Up World Who Has Their Stuff Together needs help. I mean, here's the person they go to and they rely on when they need support... and that person needs support. Suddenly you're not Superman anymore and it can be a bit disconcerting. Perhaps try introducing A problem at a time, slowly, and seeing if they can get used to you also being a normal human with issues. Good luck!!",
"rp_id": "e1ruepi",
"seeker_post": "I seem to always be the first to try and help someone else with their problems, yet when I need help nobody seems to be around to be an open ear for me, I wish I had someone in real life who cared enough to listen to me and just let me spill everything out. Anyone else feel this way?",
"sp_id": "8w0orm"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "My parents were the type who didn't believe in mental illness, it was just me being lazy and antisocial. Until I left home for college, I never thought I had mental problems, I just thought I was just a shitty person who couldn't do anything. At least to me, recognizing the illness and accepting that something is wrong was the beginning of recovery and bettering myself.",
"response_post": "My parents were the type who didn't believe in mental illness, it was just me being lazy and antisocial. Until I left home for college, I never thought I had mental problems, I just thought I was just a shitty person who couldn't do anything. At least to me, recognizing the illness and accepting that something is wrong was the beginning of recovery and bettering myself.",
"rp_id": "e5qkvzh",
"seeker_post": "Has anyone doubted your condition and tell you that you’re not ill, so don’t believe what the doctors tell you?. affecting me. I often blame myself for being lazy, stupid, slow, incompetent and having a lousy work attitude.",
"sp_id": "9epnjm"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What's stupid about them specifically, if I may ask?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What's stupid about them specifically, if I may ask?",
"rp_id": "drn55ma",
"seeker_post": "Stupid. I wish I was stupid so I could make friends, and laugh with their stupidity!",
"sp_id": "7lll46"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "As long as it's not directly physically hurting another person you should always do whatever makes you happy. And if it's suicide then that's not wrong. For some people suicide is the answer.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What? As long as it's not directly physically hurting another person you should always do whatever makes you happy. And if it's suicide then that's not wrong. For some people suicide is the answer. To act like every single person ever will one day find a reason to want to live is ignorant and idiotic at best. Is there a chance you will? Of course. But to many people it's not worth continuing to live with something that they've dealt with for years at a chance of having it magically get cured.",
"rp_id": "cycdd2e",
"seeker_post": "A close friend told me that I should do what I want and I'd be much happier.. My first thought was suicide.",
"sp_id": "3yam0n"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Cutting the topside of my arms hurt and bled but they clotted pretty quickly. Please use a sterile blade if you're going to cut yourself, and don't go any deeper than just the surface skin. Take it from me as someone who has used self-harm, an infection is not the sort of pain that helps with emotional relief! I also recommend other methods, there are plenty out there that can cause some pretty gnarly pain but are far, far safer than cutting. Are there any taps in your house that have overly hot water? Boiling water shouldn't be used as it will scald and is just as prone to infection and other nasties as cutting, so just try clenching a fist under the regular hot water for a few seconds. On the other end of the scale I found the grabing an ice cube and squeezing as tight as I could helped! I thought it would just make my hand feel numb, but it creates a localised, sharp unbearable sensation that works wonders to distract me.",
"response_post": "Cutting the topside of my arms hurt and bled but they clotted pretty quickly. Please use a sterile blade if you're going to cut yourself, and don't go any deeper than just the surface skin. Take it from me as someone who has used self-harm, an infection is not the sort of pain that helps with emotional relief! I also recommend other methods, there are plenty out there that can cause some pretty gnarly pain but are far, far safer than cutting. Are there any taps in your house that have overly hot water? Boiling water shouldn't be used as it will scald and is just as prone to infection and other nasties as cutting, so just try clenching a fist under the regular hot water for a few seconds. On the other end of the scale I found the grabing an ice cube and squeezing as tight as I could helped! I thought it would just make my hand feel numb, but it creates a localised, sharp unbearable sensation that works wonders to distract me.",
"rp_id": "d57gsmy",
"seeker_post": "i need to bleed. which area is the most painful yet least dangerous to cut? i can handle physical pain, but i need this emotional anguish to go away.",
"sp_id": "4s8m0e"
} |