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"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I make a handwritten to-do list and then see what thing on the list strikes me as the least difficult to do. And then I do it, and don't think about anything but that task until it's done. Sometimes having a concrete list helps the anxiety/depression pass, and sometimes it just makes my day less overwhelming, so I'm at least able to get through the easiest and/or most important tasks",
"response_post": "I make a handwritten to-do list and then see what thing on the list strikes me as the least difficult to do. And then I do it, and don't think about anything but that task until it's done. Sometimes having a concrete list helps the anxiety/depression pass, and sometimes it just makes my day less overwhelming, so I'm at least able to get through the easiest and/or most important tasks.",
"rp_id": "egr48zv",
"seeker_post": "Advice for when random depression hits at work. Yeah, basically the title. Does anyone have advice for dealing with anxiety and depression that hits randomly through the work day? It's been happening to me a lot now and I have a hard time pulling myself out of it.",
"sp_id": "as1geg"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry your situation at home is so difficult.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Do you have anyone in your life whom you trust enough to talk to about how you're feeling?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I'm sorry your situation at home is so difficult. Do you have anyone in your life whom you trust enough to talk to about how you're feeling?",
"rp_id": "d9gl1xo",
"seeker_post": "I feel so trapped and alone, I don't know what to do. I just feel cornered and I have no one to turn to. Life is just really bad right now and I have no family to lean on. They're emotionally abusive and my dad doesn't even want me anymore. It's really hard when you don't have a solid foundation at home.",
"sp_id": "5ai0le"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I do. It's like you're on pause, but your problems aren't..",
"response_post": "I do. It's like you're on pause, but your problems aren't..",
"rp_id": "dpuh414",
"seeker_post": "Anybody else just zone out when they're depressed?. It's like I'm not even there.",
"sp_id": "7d27yu"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I wish the best for you and I actually was on pill medication for this sort of stuff at a point, so if you got questions about that or anything in general maybe I can make use of myself and help someone out who needs it more than I do.Just know that theres people out there going through what your going through and I am here to at least give you assurance that you aren't alone in situations like this.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "feel the same way, I am single and have problems socially. So being alone makes my motivation worse and makes me really depressed. I am failing most of my classes this semester and don't seem to have motivation to make a rebound.I don't like it when people tend to say just force yourself to be motivated, but I am just lazy and hopeless at this point.",
"response_post": "I feel the same way, I am single and have problems socially. So being alone makes my motivation worse and makes me really depressed. I am failing most of my classes this semester and don't seem to have motivation to make a rebound. Just know that theres people out there going through what your going through and I am here to at least give you assurance that you aren't alone in situations like this. I don't like it when people tend to say just force yourself to be motivated, but I am just lazy and hopeless at this point. I wish the best for you and I actually was on pill medication for this sort of stuff at a point, so if you got questions about that or anything in general maybe I can make use of myself and help someone out who needs it more than I do.",
"rp_id": "dor647q",
"seeker_post": "I told my boyfriend today that i have been feeling really unmotivated this semester. And he tells me, Here's the thing, I take a pill. Taking a pill is not an option for you. Have you tried forcing yourself to be motivated?. I just told him thanks. I feel hurt, but I can't explain why or if I should even feel this way. I don't know.",
"sp_id": "78539v"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "After all, how pathetic is it to want something and be sad because we can't have it?",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Yeah, but at the same time, some of us also deny that that's the reason for our unhappiness.",
"response_post": "Yeah, but at the same time, some of us also deny that that's the reason for our unhappiness. After all, how pathetic is it to want something and be sad because we can't have it? The human condition is weird.",
"rp_id": "dmsyv35",
"seeker_post": "Anyone else scared?. Just thinking about how when I lay in bed alone I realize how scared i am of myself/ my brain.",
"sp_id": "6z5kio"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Sorry. I hope you find meaning in your days, OP. I've given up myself, but I really, really hate to see other people feel this way. Life is so hard. I things get better and easier for you.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Everything is pointless and hopeless I was born broken and forever unable to feel happiness please end me now I can't do this anymore. I had to let that out.",
"response_post": "Everything is pointless and hopeless I was born broken and forever unable to feel happiness please end me now I can't do this anymore. I had to let that out. Sorry. I hope you find meaning in your days, OP. I've given up myself, but I really, really hate to see other people feel this way. Life is so hard. I things get better and easier for you.",
"rp_id": "dqh9mwv",
"seeker_post": "I feel so sad. I feel so empty.. I know how I manage to make it through each day that passes. Somehow I make it, but all a blur.",
"sp_id": "7g8emj"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Yup waking up only to find everything is still gray and there's still work to be done.",
"rp_id": "e5oo0wa",
"seeker_post": "Looks like we're back to waking up and feeling suicidal. Hooray, my spirit has been successfully kept broken",
"sp_id": "9ecmd1"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I'm going through the same thing right now I can't convince my self to get ready and fix my life",
"response_post": "I'm going through the same thing right now I can't convince my self to get ready and fix my life it sucks.",
"rp_id": "doukx6v",
"seeker_post": "i have barely been to class in 2 weeks. i feel like a fucking failure. i have classes today and i just get the motivation. i want to fail out of school. i want to have to work full time instead. i just want to do anything. i hate myself so much",
"sp_id": "78g02b"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Thank you. That's so relatable.",
"rp_id": "dc4y0n9",
"seeker_post": "Where does my mental illness stop and my personality begin?. I hate my depression, but at the same time I am terrified of losing it. What would be left? My current life is the result of years of untreated depression and apathy, and that is what I have always been.",
"sp_id": "5mlrsg"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You should think about putting in a complaint. Someone who works in customer service should know how to be nice to people especially when it was a simple mistake.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You should think about putting in a complaint. Someone who works in customer service should know how to be nice to people especially when it was a simple mistake.",
"rp_id": "d9dn398",
"seeker_post": "Picked up the wrong drink at starbucks, barista sort of scolded me and I had to hold back tears. Sucks being on the brink of an emotional breakdown all day long. :( I said I was sorry.",
"sp_id": "5a4jtr"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "i just wish there was something we all could do..",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "i just wish there was something we all could do..",
"rp_id": "dy5nole",
"seeker_post": "A hundred feet under water and almost out of breath.. Aka that feeling of impending doom combined with complete isolation.",
"sp_id": "8fqm4v"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "There are people in this world who are extremely petty and evil minded. They definitely exist, in large numbers unfortunately. :( Some people *don't* have anything better to do than to mock or ridicule another person.",
"rp_id": "e557tlf",
"seeker_post": "Feeling contradictions. Does anyone else feels like sometimes people just hate and it's awful, yet there's another voice saying that no one thinks about you enough to hate you, that no one really cares?",
"sp_id": "9brlvw"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I get how you feel.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I constantly scroll though my social media feeds and realise how much of a loner I really am. Seeing everybody out partying and enjoying their great life and then me at home all alone and not one person to talk to. :(",
"response_post": "I get how you feel. I constantly scroll though my social media feeds and realise how much of a loner I really am. Seeing everybody out partying and enjoying their great life and then me at home all alone and not one person to talk to. :(",
"rp_id": "d3wp1l5",
"seeker_post": "I hate social media. I fucking hate facebook and snapchat, and get more lonely the more I browse them. Then just don't look at them... well I have a fear of missing out and it's such an integral part of our generation's lives...",
"sp_id": "4mmib8"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Can you give a bit more of context to your description?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Can you give a bit more of context to your description?",
"rp_id": "ed5p4l9",
"seeker_post": "i dont even know anymore. i know its dramatic but i just cant fit anywhere and for the 16th year of my life all i want is for it to be over to not have to deal with feeling like this anymore",
"sp_id": "ac6925"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Keep your head up. Its not worth it.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I'm in the same boat. Actually just took way too many pills and hope i don't wake up. If I do then I guess it's not my time.",
"response_post": "I'm in the same boat. Actually just took way too many pills and hope i don't wake up. If I do then I guess it's not my time. Keep your head up. Its not worth it.",
"rp_id": "divp5ic",
"seeker_post": "What's even the point?. Life has almost become just too much for me to handle..I don't know what I'm living for anymore",
"sp_id": "6h3t9t"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "t's that simple, isn't it? That's exactly what makes it so wretched. Like you, I can be perfectly fine, everything going well and then, bam! I'm off the deep end with one slip of the tongue, one word, one internet scroll...one anything.",
"response_post": "It's that simple, isn't it? That's exactly what makes it so wretched. Like you, I can be perfectly fine, everything going well and then, bam! I'm off the deep end with one slip of the tongue, one word, one internet scroll...one anything.",
"rp_id": "db94obc",
"seeker_post": "Depression comes and goes for me.... I'll be having a good day and one thought ruins it all. I get pissed at a lot of things and I get angry easily...",
"sp_id": "5ik84d"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "sometimes it helps if a end goal or purpose. Also a pretty rude comment. You guys should talk. Hope you feel better",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "sometimes it helps if a end goal or purpose. Also a pretty rude comment. You guys should talk. Hope you feel better",
"rp_id": "dz4tgxo",
"seeker_post": "Boredom. How do you cope with boredom? Everything that I do bores me after awhile... and how do I deal with the feeling of loneliness? I never really cared that I'm usually by myself until my boyfriend defined me as a loner infront of his friend. Needless to say it hurts a lot...",
"sp_id": "8k4uto"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Chemically using calcium hydroxide. easy to go overboard, though. I have on several instances burned so deeply it destroyed nerve cut too, but generally stick with burns.",
"response_post": "Chemically using calcium hydroxide. easy to go overboard, though. I have on several instances burned so deeply it destroyed nerve cut too, but generally stick with burns.",
"rp_id": "dywrizh",
"seeker_post": "What do you do to feel alive?. I vary from cutting myself, drinking and doing drugs to exercise, strict diet and hard work.",
"sp_id": "8iyti5"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I believe your can dislike an individual's attitude or personality or health but the being itself has no cause for dislike (aside from physical appearance)",
"rp_id": "eam5lfd",
"seeker_post": "Anyone else dislike their mother?. Why the hell did she give birth to me?",
"sp_id": "a11v6x"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Well look, I see your confusion, but not really asking a question. not really giving yourself a chance to construct something that will give you a leg to stand on when it comes to your own consideration. asking these rhetorical questions, like, what? supposed to have kids? supposed to do something Those things are up to you, but if you find value in them then you keep looking for validation there. It sounds like trying to work backwards from what you think makes other lives worth living, what you think validates their lives. But a vexed approach. Those things may enrich a experience and situations, but they confer meaning and significance in and of a cart before the horse thing. We get value from lists of attributes, you just plug in these arbitrary conditions and get a happy human that lives an engaging life. And, more importantly, you fixate on those attributes and dream that those magical little things are what stand between you and your sense of fulfillment and worth. You have to start smaller and construct that sense of purpose and wellbeing piece by piece. You have to make little investments in your immediate world that contribute something to that.",
"rp_id": "e3we5pa",
"seeker_post": "Do you ever question the point of your life?. I do this a lot. I've asked myself the same question a million times already. I've wondered the purpose of my life for years now, and here I am, still asking this question. I don't belong here. I can't do anything right, I just suck at everything. I would kill myself, the only thing stopping me is my family. I don't want to hurt them, neither disappoint them, but it's their fault. They are held in this delusion that I'm somehow going to do something with my life. That won't happen. I'm an incompetent worthless pile of garbage, and either they fail to see it, or they do see it, and try to convince themselves otherwise. I obviously have no chance at finding a significant other, and I sure as hell am not having kids. That would just be selfish, to risk them inheriting my shitty genes and having to live with that for their lives. I can't even express in words how much I want to die sometimes. Life is too random, and there's too much luck involved. It's just a mess of who gets the luckiest, and what they can do with what they were blessed with.",
"sp_id": "95yibg"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I just want to go back to sleep but I because all been doing is sleeping. a nice escape I guess",
"response_post": "I just want to go back to sleep but I because all been doing is sleeping. a nice escape I guess",
"rp_id": "e5tttrz",
"seeker_post": "Took a depression nap earlier. Now I'm not tired, when I want to be",
"sp_id": "9f4n51"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I can't even be on Facebook anymore because of this. All the happy little lives while I enviously look on, suffering of course.",
"rp_id": "d3majvc",
"seeker_post": "I'm a Fucking failure and I hate myself.. That's really all there is to it. I can't handle the mornings. I wake up every day desperate to die.",
"sp_id": "4lam33"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I love this one. It's my favorite.",
"response_post": "I love this one. It's my favorite.",
"rp_id": "d8iq03q",
"seeker_post": "Found this short poem while looking through depression comics that made me chuckle, thought I'd share. Razors pain you; Rivers are damp; Acids stain you; And drugs cause cramp. Guns aren't lawful; Nooses give; Gas smells awful; You might as well live. It's called 'Resume' by Dorothy Parker, in case you're interested.",
"sp_id": "56bzia"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry that you feel this way, and if it means anything I hope you wake up tomorrow and things look up a bit",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I'm sorry that you feel this way, and if it means anything I hope you wake up tomorrow and things look up a bit",
"rp_id": "dpp7skx",
"seeker_post": "So Long and Goodnight, I'm drinking myself into oblivion. I'm more than half a bottle in to shutting down my fucked up brain. Good luck to you all.",
"sp_id": "7ce54e"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I lost myself a long time ago.",
"response_post": "I lost myself a long time ago.",
"rp_id": "eaaqnfg",
"seeker_post": "I feel so lost. I feel like I am losing myself.",
"sp_id": "9zfkry"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I hope you r ready to be happy and move on from this phase",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I hope you r ready to be happy and move on from this phase",
"rp_id": "da99o3u",
"seeker_post": "I'm ready. I've been dealing with this for long enough. I'm tired of feeling sad. I'm done.",
"sp_id": "5e2t2p"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm very sorry that happened to you - I know the pain of loving someone and not having them love you back",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "How long have you back feeling depressed for?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I'm very sorry that happened to you - I know the pain of loving someone and not having them love you back - How long have you back feeling depressed for?",
"rp_id": "d7svpa0",
"seeker_post": "friendzone. This girl I loved friendzoned me and my depression kick in, I haven't had it in a while but it's back. It clouds my mind and impairs my thinking, ad if being intoxicated. I don't want to die but I wouldn't mind if I did. I loved her.",
"sp_id": "53d2sh"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "What I found is that volunteering is a great stepping stone on the path to getting a job and being more comfortable around people. Volunteer gigs are pretty easy to find and land, and the people who also volunteer tend to be nice people as well. If that's something interesting to you, call up your local churches and ask about volunteering opportunities. As an added bonus, volunteering work looks good on some job applications.",
"response_post": "Getting a job is pretty stressful when you're feeling down. It doesn't help that sometimes finding a job, or the right job at least, is pretty stressful itself. What I found is that volunteering is a great stepping stone on the path to getting a job and being more comfortable around people. Volunteer gigs are pretty easy to find and land, and the people who also volunteer tend to be nice people as well. If that's something interesting to you, call up your local churches and ask about volunteering opportunities. As an added bonus, volunteering work looks good on some job applications.",
"rp_id": "dvq6vt4",
"seeker_post": "i just stay at home all of the time. have a job and I have friends in real life. I feel like making me more ill and less able to be around people.",
"sp_id": "84k08e"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "It's always sunny above the clouds",
"rp_id": "dw0wn1x",
"seeker_post": "I can't get out of bed.. Been in bed all day. I need positive words.",
"sp_id": "85ve3y"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "You can't fix everything because that's impossible. No one would expect you to fix everything. You're only human ya know",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You can't fix everything because that's impossible. No one would expect you to fix everything. You're only human ya know",
"rp_id": "ddygmsz",
"seeker_post": "There's too much. I can't fix everything :( Can't fix anything at all recently",
"sp_id": "5v18u4"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I get it.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "At some point a few years ago I stopped being able to feel joy. Even when I'm feeling stable, I still don't feel *happy*. When I've described this to my therapist and psychiatrist, they challenge me on it --",
"response_post": "I get it. At some point a few years ago I stopped being able to feel joy. Even when I'm feeling stable, I still don't feel *happy*. When I've described this to my therapist and psychiatrist, they challenge me on it -- you talk about good things, don't you feel happy when those happen? -- but I know the difference. It is very much like an old, lost friend. I actually might use that metaphor in therapy this week.",
"rp_id": "eamrieq",
"seeker_post": "I feel like I miss an old friend I never had. Sorry if that doesn't make sense that's the best way I can think of putting it",
"sp_id": "a14pnt"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What kind of stuff do you like?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What kind of stuff do you like?",
"rp_id": "dg9mqs8",
"seeker_post": "Fucking stupid. Fuck High Schoolers and fuck everything else",
"sp_id": "65eako"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I've struggled with abandonment issues most of my life, my fiancee left me last year, my friends and family act like I don't exist and even though I brought that up in the one counselling session I've ever had, I still got turned down for counselling. I tried going private and still got the same result. What does it say when someone with abandonment issues gets turned away by a therapist? You can't tell someone that their therapist cares about them because you care about the kids you look after.",
"response_post": "I've struggled with abandonment issues most of my life, my fiancee left me last year, my friends and family act like I don't exist and even though I brought that up in the one counselling session I've ever had, I still got turned down for counselling. I tried going private and still got the same result. What does it say when someone with abandonment issues gets turned away by a therapist? You can't tell someone that their therapist cares about them because you care about the kids you look after.",
"rp_id": "ea50mi8",
"seeker_post": "My therapist discharged me. Lol. Not even my therapist wants me.",
"sp_id": "9ywiu1"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I always hated alcohol, but started drinking about a year ago.. I was way too drunk after two beers already, but nowadays I can down a 0,7l 16% in an hour and just feel the misery go away for a bit. I used to smoke weed, but that only made me lazier and more depressed. I now have an amphetamine addiction and recently tried meth for the first time neglecting my girlfriend, stealing from my dad just to be high alone... all to fill the void Drugs make everything worse, but sometimes I feel like they are the only things that put a little bit of excitement into my body.",
"response_post": "I always hated alcohol, but started drinking about a year ago.. I was way too drunk after two beers already, but nowadays I can down a 0,7l 16% in an hour and just feel the misery go away for a bit. I used to smoke weed, but that only made me lazier and more depressed. I now have an amphetamine addiction and recently tried meth for the first time neglecting my girlfriend, stealing from my dad just to be high alone... all to fill the void Drugs make everything worse, but sometimes I feel like they are the only things that put a little bit of excitement into my body.",
"rp_id": "e6pxcn5",
"seeker_post": "Alcoholism is taking over. blew my life savings on drugs before not trying to do it again. Not a lot of options at this point. Prescribed benzos for anxiety which really helps but at the same time constantly tempted to do more.. I want harder shit too but really trying to just be normal",
"sp_id": "9j9sm6"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Maybe someone who still loves the you that you hate.",
"rp_id": "efx0z2a",
"seeker_post": "I hate myself so fucking much. I don't know how to cope anymore.",
"sp_id": "anypgn"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I dont know what you are going through, but whatever it is, is it really THAT bad you feel the need to end your life?? Now just think about what all your friends and family will think once you are gone... they will be blaming themselves forever because they will feel like they are at fault because they didnt help you when you needed it most. Again idk what going through, but think of how many people are going through as worse or worse than you and still tough it out and make it through.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Are the problems you have permanent or out of your control? 2. Have you talked with all of your friends and family or a therapist?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "1. Are the problems you have permanent or out of your control? 2. Have you talked with all of your friends and family or a therapist? I dont know what you are going through, but whatever it is, is it really THAT bad you feel the need to end your life?? Now just think about what all your friends and family will think once you are gone... they will be blaming themselves forever because they will feel like they are at fault because they didnt help you when you needed it most. Again idk what going through, but think of how many people are going through as worse or worse than you and still tough it out and make it through.",
"rp_id": "e8slfwy",
"seeker_post": "In one week I will do it. Seven more days. I think that's enough time for me to figure out if there's any reason to live any longer. Got everything I need to do it. I feel... at peace...",
"sp_id": "9szvnw"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I day dream about death sometimes, but honestly I want to die but not just by myself or an accident. I want to die doing something good. I don't want my",
"response_post": "I day dream about death sometimes, but honestly I want to die but not just by myself or an accident. I want to die doing something good. I don't want my suicide to be just a loss of a life but more of a loss for a good cause. For example dieing while fighting for my country would be a good way.",
"rp_id": "d2et8b5",
"seeker_post": "Anybody else daydream something or somebody would just kill them?. For example crossing a road and thinking please can this car just run a red light and kill me.",
"sp_id": "4g4lty"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry it's so overwhelming right now. Someone loves you, they just don't know how to show it the right way, right now.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Can you talk about whats going on in your head?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Can you talk about whats going on in your head? Maybe if you get it out, it will be a little more sorted? I'm sorry it's so overwhelming right now. Someone loves you, they just don't know how to show it the right way, right now.",
"rp_id": "e5lfye8",
"seeker_post": "Can’t do it anymore. Too much going on in my head.. I handle it. I just want this to stop.",
"sp_id": "9e1e15"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "know this is your state of mind right now, but realize that it is a state of mind. You want to take some kind of action to change your circumstances and right now suicide seems like the only option.Maybe life can be better after all... Except you'd be having that thought as you're dying. That would be terrible. So you have to find some other way to turn things around.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "You know what kind of answer you'll get here. I know this is your state of mind right now, but realize that it is a state of mind. You want to take some kind of action to change your circumstances and right now suicide seems like the only option. That's because taking some kind of action to change your circumstances helps lift your brain out of its depression. Suddenly you don't feel completely hopeless. Maybe life can be better after all... Except you'd be having that thought as you're dying. That would be terrible. So you have to find some other way to turn things around.",
"rp_id": "d0elri3",
"seeker_post": "Maybe suicide is the answer. People say it gets better. Well, for the past four years its been getting worse. What's the point of living if there's nothing worth living for? I'm thinking of finally going through with this.",
"sp_id": "47nm79"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Saw mine coming a mile away. Suffering from anxiety and depression, and life circumstances kept becoming more and more difficult. Job was going to shit and stressing me out. Money was becoming a bigger and bigger problem at home. Was getting very little sleep between stress and my son not sleeping at night. One day it became too much. Started crying and having a panic attack. Didn't stop until I drank myself to sleep. The next day I was still struggling to function due to feeling incredibly and persistently overwhelmed. That was three years ag",
"response_post": "Saw mine coming a mile away. Suffering from anxiety and depression, and life circumstances kept becoming more and more difficult. Job was going to shit and stressing me out. Money was becoming a bigger and bigger problem at home. Was getting very little sleep between stress and my son not sleeping at night. One day it became too much. Started crying and having a panic attack. Didn't stop until I drank myself to sleep. The next day I was still struggling to function due to feeling incredibly and persistently overwhelmed. That was three years ago",
"rp_id": "d06tsfs",
"seeker_post": "Has anyone had an unanticipated nervous breakdown before? What were the warning signs?. Or did you realize it was happening from the beginning?",
"sp_id": "46odaq"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I know birthdays can be awful when depressed, as I've had my fair share.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What's been hurting you lately?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What's been hurting you lately? I know birthdays can be awful when depressed, as I've had my fair share.",
"rp_id": "d1ignhi",
"seeker_post": "Today's my 22nd birthday. I'm so over existing. I'm just so tired of everything. Everyone.",
"sp_id": "4cif1m"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": ">3 days?! > >Im gonna need 3 years bruh",
"rp_id": "ehigydr",
"seeker_post": "I want to die. Everything is too busy. Too many noises and I even keep up with my life I want to fade into nothing",
"sp_id": "avqxl5"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "People ask me why I'm zoned out most of the time. I'm not zoned out, I'm just in bot mode so I don't have to be attached to anything. It helps me supress the depressive thoughts but every night, it all just flows back in. I hate it.",
"response_post": "People ask me why I'm zoned out most of the time. I'm not zoned out, I'm just in bot mode so I don't have to be attached to anything. It helps me supress the depressive thoughts but every night, it all just flows back in. I hate it.",
"rp_id": "e65dnxb",
"seeker_post": "Anyone here suppress their emotion?. I feel like if i let myself get to emotional i might kill myself.",
"sp_id": "9giorz"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Sometimes I feel like I almost like being depressed... weird huh?",
"response_post": "Sometimes I feel like I almost like being depressed... weird huh?",
"rp_id": "ddxiihd",
"seeker_post": "I've came to the point where I feel like sadness is my comfort state.. Just that, I really don't know how to take that idea out of my head.",
"sp_id": "5uwyc4"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Same here, big exam Tuesday and i barely read anything. Usually i could get my ass out of bed to study but this year i just can't. Maybe go take a little or long walk, been doing it for three days now and at least i don't feel like shit. Your mileage may vary, tho",
"response_post": "Same here, big exam Tuesday and i barely read anything. Usually i could get my ass out of bed to study but this year i just can't. Maybe go take a little or long walk, been doing it for three days now and at least i don't feel like shit. Your mileage may vary, tho",
"rp_id": "dsz9zax",
"seeker_post": "I thought I was getting better. I've been in bed all day and literally haven't moved.",
"sp_id": "7rsfgh"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I feel you there and I am so sorry! Those people suck!",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I feel you there and I am so sorry! Those people suck!",
"rp_id": "dt7ayh7",
"seeker_post": "I was basically told by two people today that I need to lose weight.. Not feeling so great about myself today. First, my psychiatrist brought it to my attention this morning that gained 20lbs and that we should discuss this. She recommended a dietitian for me to see. Then my neighbor told me that I should start running with her in the mornings because how gonna get Totally unsolicited too. I bring anything up about weight or working out. I have a hard time feeling good about myself on a good day. Today, I just want to eat my feelings.",
"sp_id": "7ssbiu"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Hmu if you want to talk",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Hmu if you want to talk.",
"rp_id": "dft3h1y",
"seeker_post": "I'm just having a really bad time right now. Anyone want to be friends and vent with each other?. Pretty much the title. Im a 19/m from the UK.",
"sp_id": "63ba3y"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I feel like that everyday, my family just walks past me and says nothing. But I feel its blatant disrespect, as I could be using a light and come turn it off while using it... sucks. No one texts me, when I try to play games no wants to play. I have nothing as well, and I honestly want to go",
"response_post": "I feel like that everyday, my family just walks past me and says nothing. But I feel its blatant disrespect, as I could be using a light and come turn it off while using it... sucks. No one texts me, when I try to play games no wants to play. I have nothing as well, and I honestly want to go...",
"rp_id": "e260kt8",
"seeker_post": "I feel like I am slowly decaying in this house all alone and no one cares. Every day is the same. No one messages me. No one cares. I have nothing.",
"sp_id": "8xv7oy"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Yeah. The numbness is hard to get used to, it sucks. Sometimes it can be better than a roller coaster though.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Yeah. The numbness is hard to get used to, it sucks. Sometimes it can be better than a roller coaster though.",
"rp_id": "d68ixd6",
"seeker_post": "I feel like I'm underwater. I don't feel happy or sad, a little bothered but I just don't care. My limbs feel heavy and difficult to move. I don't want to move or do anything. It kind of scares me, then again that's life sometimes.",
"sp_id": "4wnx22"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What's the deal with the hotline thing?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I get the title but not the text box. What's the deal with the hotline thing?",
"rp_id": "dmtgws8",
"seeker_post": "My life is a parade of rejections and fuck ups and I just want it to end. Happy suicide prevention day, be sure to link a list of hotlines so you can pat yourself on the back and act sanctimonious.",
"sp_id": "6z9ack"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I kind of agree with you but doing all that requires an actual effort and energy",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Sometimes I'm just happy to get through the day. It's a vicious cycle of being unhappy with yourself and having zero motivation to change somethin",
"response_post": "I kind of agree with you but doing all that requires an actual effort and energy. Sometimes I'm just happy to get through the day. It's a vicious cycle of being unhappy with yourself and having zero motivation to change something.",
"rp_id": "dubf8r9",
"seeker_post": "Anyone else feel unlovable. All i want is hugs or to cuddle with someone just to be physically/emotionally close with someone. Not just to get fucked and thrown away.",
"sp_id": "7xq2gf"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I want you to be alive! :)",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I want you to be alive! :)",
"rp_id": "dmjdmaz",
"seeker_post": "No one wants me alive.. I just want to be cared, I'll never be cared, I'll never be liked. I'm tired of all the negativity. I'm done. Why should I be alive?",
"sp_id": "6xuiwl"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Sorry, it's hard. I hated it.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I hated it",
"response_post": "Sorry, it's hard. I hated it.",
"rp_id": "dn9pkff",
"seeker_post": "Huhu. Tired of being college. Im done.",
"sp_id": "71c0m3"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Can you reach out to her and tell the same thing to her that you told here right now? I",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Can you reach out to her and tell the same thing to her that you told here right now? I think it could help you. And her.",
"rp_id": "dkde6ch",
"seeker_post": "Kinda hope I dont wake up tomorrow. Had a fight with a friend, i was a dick.. now i cant escape this shit feeling no matter what i do. She thinks its her fault and i dunno what to do so i wanna die",
"sp_id": "6nyv8u"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Why even care what random people think of you?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Why even care what random people think of you? likely go crazy worrying about that stuff",
"rp_id": "ecu9os3",
"seeker_post": "I wish I didn't fucking break down in public two years ago.. Now I'll always be a bitch to society. I will never really be able to live a dignified life.",
"sp_id": "aar7pw"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Same. Just want to get away from all the bullshit",
"response_post": "Same. Just want to get away from all the bullshit",
"rp_id": "e7yyg44",
"seeker_post": "I just want to. get away, I want to live alone so badly",
"sp_id": "9p4av3"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Ask your school counselor what resources they can give you. Just go into the office, ask for the counselor, and see what they've got.",
"rp_id": "eh9cb6a",
"seeker_post": "My parents wont allow me to sick medical assistance because they think my depression is bs. Title. I'm 16, got no money. What to do?",
"sp_id": "auo0t4"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I was diagnosed with moderate to severe depression while in undergrad. It's been a long journey but in essence I've gotten control of it through controlling risk factors (diet, sleep, exercise), as well as recognizing risk factors (such as social events). I've had a great support network too. There are times though that I can feel the dark clouds approaching but they're much easier to handle, and the lows are more evened out to what I guess would be considered a normal level.",
"response_post": "I was diagnosed with moderate to severe depression while in undergrad. It's been a long journey but in essence I've gotten control of it through controlling risk factors (diet, sleep, exercise), as well as recognizing risk factors (such as social events). I've had a great support network too. There are times though that I can feel the dark clouds approaching but they're much easier to handle, and the lows are more evened out to what I guess would be considered a normal level.",
"rp_id": "cxrsrql",
"seeker_post": "How did you (If you did) beat depression?. I'm curious to know how y'all did it.",
"sp_id": "3vwzh7"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Good luck!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Don't you have any friends in school by the way?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Good luck! Don't you have any friends in school by the way?",
"rp_id": "d7a2e98",
"seeker_post": "School. I start school Tuesday and all i can feel is this sense of dread of just being alone another year, but luckily its my last year. Even though its my last year i feel it's just too much to deal with. Things used to never be like this...",
"sp_id": "518boh"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Kind of like you're a walking zombie?",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "That's why I got off it, I felt that it helped with my emotions, by completely eliminating any emotions I could feel.",
"response_post": "Kind of like you're a walking zombie? That's why I got off it, I felt that it helped with my emotions, by completely eliminating any emotions I could feel.",
"rp_id": "dc2n9ep",
"seeker_post": "I feel absolutely nothing. 3 years of being on Zoloft and i feel nothing, no emotions of anysort ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. I sometimes think i shoud be feeling a certain way in certain situations. Its really affecting my life in the way of relationships. Has anyone else had a similar experience?",
"sp_id": "5md9ia"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I just turned 20. 20 more years is an awfully long time. It hurts to even think it's gonna last that long.",
"response_post": "I just turned 20. 20 more years is an awfully long time. It hurts to even think it's gonna last that long.",
"rp_id": "e952bq3",
"seeker_post": "Don't give up until you're 40.. Then kill yourself if you're still where you are and nothing has changed. Or join the military. It should give you some purpose. But whilst you're still young, don't give up. Yet.",
"sp_id": "9ufy75"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I've been trying to write a journal for the same reason. While it did seem helpful by letting me vent and understand myself better it ultimately didn't help me much so I stopped because it was very time consuming.",
"response_post": "I've been trying to write a journal for the same reason. While it did seem helpful by letting me vent and understand myself better it ultimately didn't help me much so I stopped because it was very time consuming.",
"rp_id": "edn1gcs",
"seeker_post": "Writing down how I feel.. I just started writing down in a journal, everything that I am feeling and trying to make myself figure out why feeling the way I do. I know if anyone else here has tried this but I hope it helps me.",
"sp_id": "ae7ui2"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Why do you think your weak?",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I ask myself the same thing. Do I really have a mental illness or is it all a sham to justify my weak pathetic demeanor?",
"response_post": "I ask myself the same thing. Do I really have a mental illness or is it all a sham to justify my weak pathetic demeanor? Why do you think your weak?",
"rp_id": "dvppmtd",
"seeker_post": "A lie. Maybe depression is just a lie and its my own excuse to stay weak. just dont know if depression is my problem or is it just me being weak..",
"sp_id": "84brt7"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "That word makes me confused. I don't understand it, so many people say they feel incredibly lonely, yet here I am, with the same sickness, not even comprehending what that weird word is supposed to mean.",
"response_post": "That word makes me confused. I don't understand it, so many people say they feel incredibly lonely, yet here I am, with the same sickness, not even comprehending what that weird word is supposed to mean.",
"rp_id": "d99caeb",
"seeker_post": "Loneliness.. Whatever that word makes you feel, let it out.",
"sp_id": "59k6qx"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I know hard to not dwell on what lost but imagine what you could gain without them. Your life is yours, not your let them rule it.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "ex for a reason, right?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "ex for a reason, right? I know hard to not dwell on what lost but imagine what you could gain without them. Your life is yours, not your let them rule it.",
"rp_id": "e11ohwk",
"seeker_post": "At work, feeling down,. at my second job. Which is pretty boring desk job. feeling really alone right now and stop thinking about my ex. Looking for anything to distract me",
"sp_id": "8srn9x"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry you're feeling lonely.Do you want to vent about any of that stuff here? I may not know what to say, but I promise I'll read it.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I'm sorry you're feeling lonely. Do you want to vent about any of that stuff here? I may not know what to say, but I promise I'll read it.",
"rp_id": "ed4juv3",
"seeker_post": "Struggling. Not liking anything at all lately stressed out from work, home, family, everything is a struggle and I hate feeling so lonely",
"sp_id": "ac19ez"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "For me, it's because I think I'm a broken bottle of poison. All I do is hurt those around me, so I keep away both spirit and body. Those who care enough to try and help fix me end up getting hurt, and in the end, I'm still just a vial of poison. All I'm capable of doing is hurting others. I'm guessing this type of mindset sorta leaked into everything I do, so I tell myself not only do they do not want to be with me, they are better off for it.",
"response_post": "For me, it's because I think I'm a broken bottle of poison. All I do is hurt those around me, so I keep away both spirit and body. Those who care enough to try and help fix me end up getting hurt, and in the end, I'm still just a vial of poison. All I'm capable of doing is hurting others. I'm guessing this type of mindset sorta leaked into everything I do, so I tell myself not only do they do not want to be with me, they are better off for it.",
"rp_id": "doc9yek",
"seeker_post": "Why does it feel like everyone would rather be with someone else?. Haven't had a real conversation in a while.",
"sp_id": "769adi"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Oh god yes. I know this feeling",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "There is nothing good about me. I got rejected by a guy a couple months ago that I was sure liked me too. He doesn't even know it but he made the best decision for himself. It would be the worst decision of his life if he started talking to me again. I'd feel so guilty letting somebody deal with my shit.",
"response_post": "Oh god yes. I know this feeling. There is nothing good about me. I got rejected by a guy a couple months ago that I was sure liked me too. He doesn't even know it but he made the best decision for himself. It would be the worst decision of his life if he started talking to me again. I'd feel so guilty letting somebody deal with my shit.",
"rp_id": "djozk5a",
"seeker_post": "I'm tired of being single, but i wouldn't wish myself on anyone.. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm boring. And I have no redeeming qualities. I should do the world a favor and just die already.",
"sp_id": "6ksayc"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Looking for people to talk to same as you",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Looking for people to talk to same as you",
"rp_id": "dkriw3j",
"seeker_post": "Day off and I have nothing to do. What are you all up to today?",
"sp_id": "6pqusi"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Don't sell your future short--you'll look back and realize there's a lot of crap in HS/college that you'll be glad to have behind you!!",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "That whole best years of your life thing, at least in my opinion, is a load of hogwash. Best years? Body going through changes? Trying to figure out your first relationships? Stuck in school all day? Drama everywhere? Restricted in everything you want to do? Inexperienced enough to not know what you really want to do? I could go on... HS sucks. With very few exceptions, the only people I know who consider HS the best years are people who are completely and totally miserable adults who are looking back with rose-colored glasses at a time when their parents paid for everything. College is better for most people, but the partying and crap is highly overrated once you're old enough to look back a bit. I don't know anyone who misses that stuff. But what are the best years? I think once you hit your mid-20s things really start to look up. Odds are, your career is at least starting to actually materialize, you aren't as emotionally immature anymore and things don't bother you like they used to, and generally speaking the odds are that things are more stable overall. Don't sell your future short--you'll look back and realize there's a lot of crap in HS/college that you'll be glad to have behind you!!",
"rp_id": "e1hski0",
"seeker_post": "When does it get better?. I wasted the 'best years of my life' in highschool being depressed. Now I'm equally depressed in uni when I should be having even more fun partying and learning new things. What am I waiting for? Being even more depressed in an office job? It's too much..",
"sp_id": "8us7n9"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I think once out of this, look back thinking I could never be happy? And enjoy those times when they last.",
"rp_id": "e0j79h1",
"seeker_post": "Depression isn’t wanting to not exist, its more not wanting to exist feeling like this. And sometimes you just cant stop feeling like this.",
"sp_id": "8qdpfr"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "We have all kinds of urges, and I treat depression like that. Something to ignore most of the time, and constantly defy to prove myself that those thoughts are wrong. I have come to terms with it and am not wrestling with a monster anymore. I got him in a cage and he's my bitch. Woof. Woof",
"rp_id": "dldz11a",
"seeker_post": "It never goes away. It always runs in the background. You may be laughing with friends but it's always here. And when you think that it's finally over, it comes back worse than ever.",
"sp_id": "6sl06m"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "Tell them that you appreciate their support, but feel that you aren't sure if",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Tell them that you appreciate their support, but feel that you aren't sure if cheering up will help in your situation. They'll understand.",
"rp_id": "d99arst",
"seeker_post": "How do I tell someone that comments like cheer up aren't helpful?. I don't want to come off rude or anything. The seems that the person cares about me. I don't want to say anything mean to them or hurt them. I just want them to know that those comments really aren't helpful.",
"sp_id": "59kyhs"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "To answer your question, I'm actually feeling alright today. Had an existential crisis last night and probably would have ended up killing myself or at the very least cutting myself if it wasn't for my dog licking my hand as I layed in bed crying myself to sleep (she's NEVER an affectionate dog, it took me a minute to even realise that she was actually licking my hand and I wasn't imagining shit). Thanks, Charlie. Anyways, for me depression is like absolute insanity. It's not just sadness or feeling like killing myself every other week. Just pure insanity. The best example I can give is probably two years ago, seventh grade. That was probably the lowest I had ever been. Every night when I went to sleep, I'd stay up on my phone. Not because I wanted to be, because it kept me from going to sleep and having the same nightmares I had every night. And then I'd look at the time, which by now was probably about 12 AM, realise how absolutely sad and pathetic I was and turn on some emo music, usually being something like Set it Off's",
"response_post": "To answer your question, I'm actually feeling alright today. Had an existential crisis last night and probably would have ended up killing myself or at the very least cutting myself if it wasn't for my dog licking my hand as I layed in bed crying myself to sleep (she's NEVER an affectionate dog, it took me a minute to even realise that she was actually licking my hand and I wasn't imagining shit). Thanks, Charlie. Anyways, for me depression is like absolute insanity. It's not just sadness or feeling like killing myself every other week. Just pure insanity. The best example I can give is probably two years ago, seventh grade. That was probably the lowest I had ever been. Every night when I went to sleep, I'd stay up on my phone. Not because I wanted to be, because it kept me from going to sleep and having the same nightmares I had every night. And then I'd look at the time, which by now was probably about 12 AM, realise how absolutely sad and pathetic I was and turn on some emo music, usually being something like Set it Off's I'll Sleep When I'm Dead and listen to that as I (literally) sadistically laugh and cry myself to sleep. Some nights, that kind of stuff never happened. I'd have a peaceful sleep. Some nights I'd stay up all night debating whether I should text the suicide hotline, doing so, and it being no help whatsoever. So I'd get, maybe six hours of sleep at most. Before I'm woken up and have to get ready for school. How am I woken up? By my parents during the best part of my dream or the most peaceful part of my nightmare. Which already started my day off terribly. Then for an hour I'd be in the bathroom once again listening to emo music as I let the shower water run. My favourite songs to listen to were usually just about anything by Hollywood Undead. Not something a twelve year old should be listening to, sure. But it was a way to cope with my depression. As I listen to those songs, once again sadistically laughing at my own pain and often times end up cutting myself. I never cut myself deep, I was far to afraid of doing that. But... I enjoyed seeing the blood come out. I didn't cut for any sort of high or release of pain. It was sort of hard to explain. I was never addicted to cutting, I could stop or start whenever I wanted. Sometimes stopping for months at a time, but seeing the blood, made me feel happy. If you could have seen my eyes, especially when I cut myself, you wouldn't have seen any traces of a twelve year old. You'd see an insane person desperately trying to grasp on to the last straw of sanity, but nothing else. Some days I'd debate whether I should do a sort of murder-suicide thing. Or at the very least murder those who have caused me pain and suffering. Sometimes I'd have very and scarily elaborate plans on how I'd trick, kidnap, or kill my family. Things that you'd never expect from a twelve year old. But quite frankly, I might have physically been twelve, but my depression had probably aged and matured me way faster. The ride to school was probably the most traumatic for me. The ride was only about ten minutes (five minutes to school, five minutes in the carpool line). But those ten minutes were full of tests streaming down my face, me punching myself or ripping my hair out, or destroying my notebooks or pencils. Sometimes because I just really didn't want to go to school. Sometimes because my social anxiety got the best of me. Sometimes for reasons I don't even know. Me and my grandma would usually sit at the front of the school for about an hour or two, I'm sitting there trying to find a way to hurt myself because I'm angry, but don't want to let my anger out on her, and she's crying because she's absolutely lost on how to help me. I'd usually end up getting to school about a good three hours late. In school, I don't remember anything. Maybe it's because I was just walking around the school like a robot. Class for an hour, find your next class, repeat. In class, I'd have my head down in a book (not paying attention to the teacher whatsoever), I'd be mindlessly reciting the emo songs I listen to in my head, or I'd be talking to my friend AIDEN. (Yes, his name is in all caps). What I do definitely remember is hating all of my peers. Hell, I still hate them. It's not my hatred for them itself. It's just I can't stand how immature, idiotic, and stupid they were. Like who the hell goes around sticking Tide pods in their mouths for views on social media? Or who thinks it's funny to go around telling people to kill themselves because you heard your favourite edgy YouTuber say it and now you think it's hilarious to do so. Or why do you think it's cool and okay to curse every five seconds and use the N-word? Or why do you think that because you saw Kim Kardashian half naked in some photo shoot that you can show up to school with hardly any clothes on or sag and talk about fucking whores because your favourite rapper said it in their newest song? Act your own god damn age, quit trying to act like someone three times your age while being as immature as a kindergartener. More on AIDEN: AIDEN sort of just appeared out of nowhere. I don't know when or why I came up with him, I just sort of did. I'm not schizophrenic, he was 100% my own voice talking back to me in my head, but I enjoyed pretending to have someone to talk to. Someone who walked around with me everyday, knew exactly what I was thinking, and could relate to me all the time. Someone who (though was just my own voice), talked me out of suicide many times back in 7th grade. But slowly I started treating AIDEN a lot more like a real person. To the point where I could have easily been mistaken as someone with schizophrenia. At home I'd just go into my room and basically lock myself in. My door was never locked, my parents could come in and out as they pleased, but I would just hand out under the covers all day. I didn't want to see light, light didn't want to see me. I didn't bother with homework. I figured, I fail, I fail. I really had just given up with life at that point. The only reason why I hadn't killed myself was probably because I was too sad and lazy to bother trying. Occasionally I'd talk to AIDEN or watch YouTube or something, but most times I ended up listening to hypnosis. Hypnosis for me was like a way to escape real life. Like meditation, but instead of being left alone with my sad and depressing thoughts, I could listen to someone else. At first it was a nice little escape, but then it more or less because an addiction. An odd strange one that I'd never be able to explain to anyone, but an addiction none the less. I'd try to listen to hypnosis any time I could even if that meant going into my room away from family to listen to it. It kind of gave me the same high that cutting, smoking, drugs, or porn give other people. Even though it was just hypnosis, it really did become unhealthy. Before I knew it, it was time for me to go to bed. And then the whole cycle would repeat itself over and over and over and over and over again. It was the same routine, same schedule, same insanity over and over again. This sounds like more is going on than just depression, right? Like some other underlying mental illness. But this is all depression and a bit of social anxiety. No MPD, no schizophrenia, no bipolar disorder, I'm not a psychopath or sociopath. This was all thanks to my depression. No one actually knew how bad my mental state was. I never told anyone. I was diagnosed with depression and put on meds, but if anyone really knew how bad it was, I likely truly would have been put in a mental health hospital. This is where the most insane part was, since being on my meds, I'm a lot more stable. But I miss being the way I was. Even though they were supposed to, my meds didn't help my depression. It really just made me more stable. Now without AIDEN or cutting myself or the enjoyment of listening to emo music as I sadistically laugh and cry at the same time, I just feel empty. Though I was completely fucked up, it was still fun a times to laugh at how much I hate myself and my life. Now I can't do those things anymore. It's like being insane was a big part of me and my depression. The insanity itself was taken away, but the depression was still left. Now there's just a big, empty, dark hole.",
"rp_id": "e5bqhow",
"seeker_post": "How do you feel. What is life with depression? Tell me your story",
"sp_id": "9cleeq"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "the thing about puppies is that they'll always love you no matter what, give her lots of attention and love while you can",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "the thing about puppies is that they'll always love you no matter what, give her lots of attention and love while you can",
"rp_id": "czg1maf",
"seeker_post": "Puppy got canineparvo virus. Things aren't looking good for her, I feel like shit.",
"sp_id": "4377at"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Nah, I feel glad for them. Sometimes envious, too, but I don't hate them.",
"rp_id": "deirfwf",
"seeker_post": "Does anyone else resent happy people?. They all laugh, smile and have a good time and I just don't get it. It truly does feel like miserable and smart or stupid and happy",
"sp_id": "5xj31k"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Some people will keep trying, and they cling onto hope. Others give up and accept they will never be able to function like normal people. Some will vent and turn into incels. Others just quietly feel sorry for themselves. And honestly, every single one of those options is perfectly okay, because no one can blame you for how society fucked up mental illness.",
"rp_id": "e49lpp0",
"seeker_post": "I have no future. So I just realized that because my depression and anxiety don't let me work or study or have social interactions, and I've been with 10 Psychiatrists and 6 psychologists and I'm still like this I have no future, so what do I do now?",
"sp_id": "97ndrq"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "The way you wrote that was very poetic. Continue the story...",
"rp_id": "dre6t6s",
"seeker_post": "Anyone else feel like a junkie trapped in their room going through withdrawals. I physically cringe when i think about the things i am avoiding, draw the curtains close, avoid family in the house, starve myself, toss and turn but don't get up, nap but don't sleep. The horror continues",
"sp_id": "7kfivw"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I know you're getting down voted, but I don't want you to focus on that. The guilt is worse than the depression. Not only do you feel terrible, but then you're made to feel guilty for feeling so. (Doesn't any one understand that if we could help it, we would??). I get it. Chin up. :)",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I know you're getting down voted, but I don't want you to focus on that. The guilt is worse than the depression. Not only do you feel terrible, but then you're made to feel guilty for feeling so. (Doesn't any one understand that if we could help it, we would??). I get it. Chin up. :)",
"rp_id": "d9xrghi",
"seeker_post": "guilt mixed with depression best life u can ever get ;). i'm already derpessed for a long time and a few years ago a new element come in (guilt) yay ! my life is perfect waw",
"sp_id": "5cm7vz"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "but though I suck at human contact my inbox is open if you just want to chat.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I feel your pain.I'm painfully lonely at times too, and bare minimum we can relate to that.",
"response_post": "This is why communities like this are amazing. We're all at our lowest, and sometimes our worst. We can't judge in the end, at least, I can say so for myself. I feel your pain. Always wanting to be alone with my pain but having it magnified for it. It cuts in a way no knife can reach. I know anytime you post here everyone jumps in with this, but though I suck at human contact my inbox is open if you just want to chat. I'm painfully lonely at times too, and bare minimum we can relate to that.",
"rp_id": "di3oq9n",
"seeker_post": "The loneliness literally hurts. I guess I just long for companionship so much that I feel like I'm in pain I'm so lonely. And my stupid brain won't allow me to go out and meet people because I'm so depressed. Who would want someone like this.... I can't take it.",
"sp_id": "6dlldx"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "It'll take time but it's all worth it. Allow yourself to rebuild.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I'm still rebuilding right now. But I don't have this dark ugly building that overshadowed me. Now I can start thinking what the fuck I need to do in order for my new building to be beautiful the way I want it.",
"response_post": "Your foundation needs to fall down before you can start rebuilding. Have you started the plans the blueprint? List everything on a paper or make a note in your head what you need to do to make things better. I'm still rebuilding right now. But I don't have this dark ugly building that overshadowed me. Now I can start thinking what the fuck I need to do in order for my new building to be beautiful the way I want it. It'll take time but it's all worth it. Allow yourself to rebuild.",
"rp_id": "dir2ilp",
"seeker_post": "It could be only worse.. Life never gets better. Try to accept it.",
"sp_id": "6gkpdp"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Helping someone else is often an achievement. - Even if we don't actually help them, we go to the effort to actually do something, with effort, thought, compassion and eagerness to do good. - When everything is hard to do, because C R I P P P I N G D E P R E S S I O N, let us count very victory no matter how small it may feel. Achievements help us to feel a little less shitty - we did a thing! Yay But also when we help others we help ourselves. - We remind ourselves to be positive, we read commends and upboat new ideas, where we may even add them to our own ideology. - To learn about the struggles of others we feel indifferent which is comforting - maybe we arnt as weird and broken as we tell ourselves? TL:DR; I'm rambling because I'm bored and high. Shoot me. Please, ty Also indifferent is the opposite of different right lol tbqh rn fam cbf googling soz yolo",
"rp_id": "dwol6gf",
"seeker_post": "Satisfaction from helping others. realised that when I have to much alone time is when I start to think things over and get awful anxiety or feelings of depression. So therefore if anyone would like a chat or just someone to listen to them here",
"sp_id": "88zsii"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "instead focus on the quality moments you have with them that make you happy.",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I used to feel like that too. Now I've understood that acquaintances and friends can be won and lost overtime.",
"response_post": "I used to feel like that too. Now I've understood that acquaintances and friends can be won and lost overtime. You make friends, you lose some, you keep in touch with others. Don't expect anything from them; instead focus on the quality moments you have with them that make you happy.",
"rp_id": "e40uumn",
"seeker_post": "Attachment problems. I'm so sick of myself putting loads of energy into people and then they just push me to the side and forget me. But it's my problem because I get too attached but it just hurts so much",
"sp_id": "96j01w"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Have you talked to them about not wanting their help?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "Have you talked to them about not wanting their help?",
"rp_id": "dteemnj",
"seeker_post": "I don't want to not be depressed. My life would be even less eventful without it. I hate that my parents are trying to help me.",
"sp_id": "7tq2r2"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "You are in a difficult life situation and you seem to be a young guy. Does your family knows you are having a hard time in college?",
"interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "You are in a difficult life situation and you seem to be a young guy.",
"response_post": "You are in a difficult life situation and you seem to be a young guy. Does your family knows you are having a hard time in college?",
"rp_id": "dvve0kf",
"seeker_post": "I slept my entire week away. I've slept 12+ hours everyday this week and missed all my classes, didn't hand in an assignment and I don't care. I think I'm going to fail two classes this semester. I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't see myself finishing my degree.",
"sp_id": "857ps1"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "This was the reason I stopped taking Zoloft. In hindsight it was still better than the depression so I might go back on it soon.",
"response_post": "This was the reason I stopped taking Zoloft. In hindsight it was still better than the depression so I might go back on it soon.",
"rp_id": "d6t73iv",
"seeker_post": "Just started taking Zoloft today; antsy as fuck. I cannot sit or lay still!!! Is this normal and/or will it go away?",
"sp_id": "4z4xk4"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry to know you've in such a bad place.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I've been in that same place some time ago....",
"response_post": "I'm sorry to know you've in such a bad place. I've been in that same place some time ago.... Wanna talk about it?",
"rp_id": "do1obbp",
"seeker_post": "Jesus christ I wanna kill myself so much. Not necessary looking for help just wanted to put it out there",
"sp_id": "74wr8i"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Who hurted you?What happened??",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "What happened?? Who hurted you?",
"rp_id": "dr0hzdh",
"seeker_post": "I'm so tired of it all. I try to accept the situation, and all I do is accept defeat.... :( Help. Nothing does. Love and relationships don't help. Nothing does. Help. :(",
"sp_id": "7ipvg1"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "The possibile outcomes of trying to fix everything that went wrong. If I can't, I'll kill myself, and if I can, (over 50% of it), then I'll live. I haven't tried yet, but I'm gonna try it soon.",
"response_post": "The possibile outcomes of trying to fix everything that went wrong. If I can't, I'll kill myself, and if I can, (over 50% of it), then I'll live. I haven't tried yet, but I'm gonna try it soon.",
"rp_id": "dw4i8h2",
"seeker_post": "For people who don't want to live anymore. Whats the reason that you are still alive.. For me its the fear of death. I have tried it 2 times before almost an year but now its something I really fear.",
"sp_id": "86d61w"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "HOW ABOUT GUYS NEED LUBE!! Up top! Ew!!",
"rp_id": "dyg65fz",
"seeker_post": "Guys need hugs too.. Or maybe it's just me. It makes me feel loved.",
"sp_id": "8h0ysa"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "One day at a time. No one is truly left with nothing, there must be something or someone that is worth another tomorrow",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "One day at a time. No one is truly left with nothing, there must be something or someone that is worth another tomorrow.",
"rp_id": "dudouzx",
"seeker_post": "please help. I really think i lost my motivation to live today, im so scared, i dont want to do it but i have nothing left",
"sp_id": "7y53e1"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "Same here. Alone in my room at night is the only time I can openly display what I feel all the time and hide from everyone. It's sad but freeing at the same time, y'know? For me, catharsis at its finest.",
"response_post": "Same here. Alone in my room at night is the only time I can openly display what I feel all the time and hide from everyone. It's sad but freeing at the same time, y'know? For me, catharsis at its finest.",
"rp_id": "czepkbw",
"seeker_post": "My breakdowns are mostly at night/before I'm planning to sleep. At daytime there are at least some things that keep me distracted, but at night, it's only me and my shitty thoughts. I can't remember the last time I fell asleep with a confident/happy feeling.",
"sp_id": "430qmd"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I see the point either! All I feel is pain, I feel happiness, I feel anything that sadness. I want to live this kind of life, so hard that even on my free time I wish that things could be better, I wish I could live a better life but I I was one of the unlucky people that needs to go through this while others are enjoying their free time.",
"response_post": "I see the point either! All I feel is pain, I feel happiness, I feel anything that sadness. I want to live this kind of life, so hard that even on my free time I wish that things could be better, I wish I could live a better life but I I was one of the unlucky people that needs to go through this while others are enjoying their free time. Lifes hard as it is, but with depression a drag. You never know when get that next panic attack or feeling of loneliness.",
"rp_id": "dqmmeg3",
"seeker_post": "I can't even function. I don't feel alive and I don't feel human. Even with the medication everyday feels like a pre-calculated mess that I have zero control of. I don't feel like I'm living when my parents get to live through me. Why bother to exist.",
"sp_id": "7gxzyr"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "What's up?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "If you're worrying about being depressed, I'd say. What's up?",
"rp_id": "dwzqvgv",
"seeker_post": "How do you know if you are depressed?. It's just that I've been in a sort of malaise for the past while. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.",
"sp_id": "8ajbjq"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I am sorry. I don't know what to say.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I am sorry. I don't know what to say.",
"rp_id": "dh0rhza",
"seeker_post": ".... Why did you make my friend kill herself",
"sp_id": "68rigt"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "I'm really sorry you feel that way mate.",
"emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "I was getting better around last November after 2 years of being a shut in. I got a job, moved out and on with my life, and was doing good. I started to decline about 4 months ago. I'm back to where I was. I moved back. No more job. No more new friends. The only thing that keeps me going is that this right now won't be forever. It's for now and it's so debilitating. I leave my bed to use the restroom, grab something to eat back in bed, and thats it for last week at my just getting here lowest points.I'm lucky to have had a decade of therapy to make me feel like I know it tho. Doesn't change the feeling at all but gives me a shred of hope to hang onto.",
"response_post": "I was getting better around last November after 2 years of being a shut in. I got a job, moved out and on with my life, and was doing good. I started to decline about 4 months ago. I'm back to where I was. I moved back. No more job. No more new friends. The only thing that keeps me going is that this right now won't be forever. It's for now and it's so debilitating. I leave my bed to use the restroom, grab something to eat back in bed, and thats it for last week at my just getting here lowest points. And over time the time spent like this will get shorter and the time spent on that high curve will go longer and farther. I don't feel that in any way. I'm lucky to have had a decade of therapy to make me feel like I know it tho. Doesn't change the feeling at all but gives me a shred of hope to hang onto. I'm really sorry you feel that way mate. Some people don't do well with that kinda energy but there are a lot who will not care too and help you with their energy. My dad is neutral and doesn't care, but can't really help. My mother won't even be around me when I'm down. Even told me she can't stand it. Just having the 2 people I have right now for when I am down tho helps me a lot. Pm me if you ever wanna chat about whatever. Your energy doesn't affect mine.",
"rp_id": "e1md4z0",
"seeker_post": "I feel like everyone will be better off without my negative energy around them. My depression relapsed after a year and its even worse this time around.",
"sp_id": "8vaxvt"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "hey, do you need someone to talk to?",
"emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "hey, do you need someone to talk to?",
"rp_id": "eaw8oox",
"seeker_post": "I'm Really Fucking Sad. I'm angry and tired and I want a friend. I cant reach out to anyone. I've tried and it always ends up worse for me and the other person. I'm just really really sad.",
"sp_id": "a280dv"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "None",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "hey, think of it this way, better than chickening out of suicide that you'll prolly regret not being able to do right?",
"rp_id": "e530ar2",
"seeker_post": "I had a job interview, but I chickened out.. My other self kept telling me that I was just gonna embarrass myself and unable do the job. Of course I listened, but somehow I neither feel regret nor glad. Don't know whether it was the right move. Well, guess I'll have to search for another job....",
"sp_id": "9bh2jq"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "Are you just into pain?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "I always wondered, why are people so obsessed with prolonging their lives?? Are you just into pain?",
"rp_id": "e3feure",
"seeker_post": "Why do people want to live?. It feels like a sentence more than a privilege, even though I know very privileged. Your whole life is fucking predetermined for you and then you are lied to your whole child hood. No one even sounds that happy and yet people still have children... lifes fucking unfair.",
"sp_id": "93rb4k"
} |
{
"emotionalPortion": "None",
"emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction",
"explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction",
"explorationsPortion": "maybe you could order something for delivery?",
"interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction",
"interpretationsPortion": "None",
"response_post": "maybe you could order something for delivery?",
"rp_id": "dt8owca",
"seeker_post": "Help. I’ve only gone to get meals 3 times in the last 3 days.. Hungry but just get out of my dorm",
"sp_id": "7szkjz"
} |