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{ "emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry.", "emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "This is true for me as well.", "response_post": "I'm sorry. This is true for me as well. And they regularly remind me. I think we can get through it though. Actually, that's a lie. I hope you can get through it. I'm not going to be able too.....", "rp_id": "dqc6dzr", "seeker_post": "the people i can’t live without can easily live without me. realized this recently and its fucking killing me, they couldnt give less of a fuck about me and sometimes, they push me to the side so much i genuinely think they just see me as a waste of time, it makes me feel like such a useless burden.", "sp_id": "7fgw7h" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "i can relate", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "where are you from?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "i can relate. where are you from?", "rp_id": "d2gen3b", "seeker_post": "Lonely. I don't feel too good. feel non-existent, unimportant and disposable. It's like nobody cares enough to really see what's going on. Everybody expects me to be fine. I don't even know if it's depression speaking or I'm just really, really lonely right now.", "sp_id": "4gcsti" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Cognitive dissonance: when thoughts and actions diverge, you change your thoughts to match your actions. In this case, the action is initial actions you take or take because of your depression. We want to justify why we did that, so we come up with reasons to explain the behavior in terms that are wrong but palatable.", "rp_id": "e6hn6nb", "seeker_post": "Why does depression at times, feel Addicting?. Almost like a blissful state of This isn't so bad then, in time your slowly thrusted back into your numb colorless world", "sp_id": "9i6urj" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "If you wrote this, I think that means you still think someone on here would care. And you'd be right.", "rp_id": "e3m5lzs", "seeker_post": "no one gives a shit. ...nevermind...no one here would even care anyway. no one cares on facebook or anywhere else. fuck it. goodbye to this shitty fucking world", "sp_id": "94mt3w" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "You can and will do it.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Sorry. That sucks. But you can move on from this. Don't let them hold u back. You can and will do it.", "rp_id": "dbsidgy", "seeker_post": "I spent my 21st birthday alone. Sister sent me a text, Brother had to be reminded, Dad too, and he shouted us KFC. Never left the house, either. I'm not close with my family at all.", "sp_id": "5l2xtb" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "most of the time they might do it just to boost their ego or somethingn if you were to spill and explain to them whats wrong they wouldnt do anything i highly doubt they would honestly care its like always saying hello to a person you have known for many years like we just say it to say it we know. If they dont understand it they wont know how to help", "rp_id": "e82frfp", "seeker_post": "Why do people ask if you're alright or good?. Can't tell them the truth so what's the point", "sp_id": "9pjm4g" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I agree with him", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "people are so hard to live with I went though so many thinking I was the problem. But then I moved in with my SO and found out that I was just living with the wrong people", "response_post": "I agree with him, people are so hard to live with I went though so many thinking I was the problem. But then I moved in with my SO and found out that I was just living with the wrong people. freaking hard, but keep your head up, you are not the problem.", "rp_id": "e3v0q9c", "seeker_post": "If I keep having to move from the houses of people I stay with, I'm obviously the problem. It just seems easier to end it all, than trying to find another place to live or sifting through the mass of horrible things about me to find the one that's impacting those I live with. I feel terrible.. Why is living so difficult? Why am I so hard to live with? I didn't ask for any of this. I'm not attached enough to living to continue on in the face of such difficulty. I'm fucking trying my best.", "sp_id": "95rgi4" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "This seems like fishing for compliments", "response_post": "This seems like fishing for compliments...", "rp_id": "eeqxjme", "seeker_post": "society trends are making me feel really super depressed?. please share some insight as to snap out of it. I think im not pretty :(", "sp_id": "aivjx4" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "This a huge troll..check his post history.", "rp_id": "e06rv2l", "seeker_post": "im sad.. im so sad.because of my situation.im listening to music.", "sp_id": "8orcbj" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "You are not crazy, they just don't understand your emotional needs.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "People are generally selfish and inconsiderate. Different people have different ideas of what friendship is, or should be. You are not crazy, they just don't understand your emotional needs.", "rp_id": "drnotaq", "seeker_post": "Is anybody out there. I just feel really shitty and broken right now", "sp_id": "7lo282" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Your not worthless or a mistake. Your life matters a lot.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "hard to see our impact on society from a single moment in our lives. We downplay our contributions or sometimes we never even know that a small act of kindness affected someone. Or just being around helped them get the the day. Your not worthless or a mistake. Your life matters a lot.", "rp_id": "dyult2r", "seeker_post": ".. I feel that I belong in this world I feel that my existence is a mistake.", "sp_id": "8itw05" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "All my life I've scorned going to college because it held no value for me. I plan to become a traveling hermit and live in the wild with a tent or tarp. I consider myself a successful human being because I've cultivated my mind. I've figured things out. I've matured enough to manage my own personality (as in, not being one of those", "response_post": "You don't. All my life I've scorned going to college because it held no value for me. I plan to become a traveling hermit and live in the wild with a tent or tarp. I consider myself a successful human being because I've cultivated my mind. I've figured things out. I've matured enough to manage my own personality (as in, not being one of those if you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best people). Stick with what makes logical sense (you don't need to be successful in the graduating and having a high-paying job sense), not what people will validate, because they won't collectively validate everything that makes sense (namely, the idea in parentheses above: the same idea that you don't need to be successful; most people aren't going to validate that, so fuck them). If it makes logical sense that you don't need to be successful in their bullshit sense, go with that, regardless of whether people will back it up. Logic over worthless people's worthless validation.", "rp_id": "d36unrk", "seeker_post": "Why the fuck do I have to succeed?. Why can't I just be human for once.", "sp_id": "4jgumh" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I feel you're pain", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "When it comes to texting holding a conversation is like rocket science.", "response_post": "I feel you're pain OP. When it comes to texting holding a conversation is like rocket science.", "rp_id": "doq3o0a", "seeker_post": "I hate being socially inept.. I want to interact with my friends but I just can't hold a conversation no matter what it is... watching them give up on you because you're so dull is a very painful fate", "sp_id": "780vy8" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "yes, youre not them! But you are better in something. And that thing, is yours. So, you have to learn to appreciate yourself", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I do it. A lot of times", "response_post": "I do it. A lot of times. But you have to learn that you are special, and, yes, youre not them! But you are better in something. And that thing, is yours. So, you have to learn to appreciate yourself", "rp_id": "dmv6p99", "seeker_post": "do you compare yourself to others. i've been doing this and it makes me feel bad.", "sp_id": "6zets9" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Same its so hard to make one.", "response_post": "Same its so hard to make one.", "rp_id": "di1rjqq", "seeker_post": "I just want..... a friend...... is that too much to ask for? :/", "sp_id": "6dd839" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "it's the worst when they post the numerous facebook photos of them hanging out.", "response_post": "it's the worst when they post the numerous facebook photos of them hanging out.", "rp_id": "dpn6t9z", "seeker_post": "There's nothing like sitting alone watching all your friends leaving school to hang out and not even batting an eye at you. I just feel like shit now", "sp_id": "7c41xv" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "normal is an illusion, and nobody's life is as good as they say it is on facebook. escapism is fine, if it keeps you going.", "rp_id": "e452cwy", "seeker_post": "I've never and probably won't have a normal life. A life spent in escapism is a sad life indeed", "sp_id": "972h4i" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I'm sorry you're feeling this way.", "emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "how deeply did you cut yourself and with what?", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I have been doing it for many years", "response_post": "Ok, how deeply did you cut yourself and with what? If it is bleeding a lot, clean it up, run it under water, don't let the blood dry and go nasty. Pat it dry. Bandage it up, if you can. Also if you have some antiseptic cream, use some of that on it. Don't drink any more for now, maybe try and get some sleep or have a nice bath or shower or watch tv or something so you can calm down. Please see a professional- a doctor or a therapist or something. Self harm is very serious. I have been doing it for many years, and it is a difficult addiction to break out of. If you feel the urge to cut again, take a deep breath, count to 10. Write your feelings down or draw them out, even if you don't think you're a great artist or whatever. It will help to get the emotions out. Do you have a good friend you can talk to about it? Or a pet or even a stuffed toy? Talking helps. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Please let me know if you want to talk. You are a strong person <3", "rp_id": "d15o49u", "seeker_post": "Just cut myself for the first time. I've been drinking and i don't know how I feel", "sp_id": "4b2sb4" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I spent my new years eve alone as expected", "response_post": "Happy new year!:) I spent my new years eve alone as expected", "rp_id": "cyi68fi", "seeker_post": "Not a single person texted me Happy New Years.. Not a single fucking person. Feels bad man.", "sp_id": "3yzqcy" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I hope you can start to feel better soon", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "It depends what kind of things you usually enjoy doing, watching a of something you can really grip to is a option that can help. I hope you can start to feel better soon, even though sometimes it feels like you have no one, there are people out there who if they knew you were hurting would support you. why is great (:", "rp_id": "eben1dt", "seeker_post": "help me. anyone find anyways with getting yourself together after a breakup", "sp_id": "a4hp3u" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I feel you. If you ever want to talk, I'm here", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I feel you. If you ever want to talk, I'm here", "rp_id": "d9k2m6d", "seeker_post": "Random and unexpected triggers. You know what's a lot of fun with depression? When you're actually doing OK one day, no negative thoughts, maybe even feel kind of normal, and then out of nowhere some random thing triggers a crippling wave of despair and agony. I go from pretty decent to wanting to ram my goddamn head through a wall for the thoughts to get out of my head. I'm not sure I'll ever be normal...", "sp_id": "5axbtx" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I started by deactivating Facebook. All of it", "response_post": "I started by deactivating Facebook. All of it. Give the important people your number, and then just shut Facebook, messenger and insta down. Leave snap or texts for emergencies and basic social upkeep to let people know you're alive. You can even get extensions for your computer browser to block them. Do this for the sites you obsess over. Find a replacement hobby, make a list of things you need to do. Set a time for when you can check social media again so it isn't a never thing to your brain, just a 'you only have this many days left!' Sort of thing.", "rp_id": "ef3yncy", "seeker_post": "How do i take a break from social media?. kinda addicted to social media even though a lot of the people on there make me feel like shit. I spend about 2 hours a day on twitter. Some of the stuff people say on their makes me feel so bad i wanna end it. But i stop.", "sp_id": "ak96jy" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I usually do a random marathon run of something, whether it's games, work, hobby study or movies, cleaning etc (there is a whole lot more). Random work or hobby study are not my go-to but it depends on the situation and mood I'm inOnce you get into it's cathartic, but it's getting the ball rolling that is insanely difficult. I usually give up when I fall to start and sleep with anger but it goes away when I wake up", "response_post": "I usually do a random marathon run of something, whether it's games, work, hobby study or movies, cleaning etc (there is a whole lot more). Random work or hobby study are not my go-to but it depends on the situation and mood I'm in. Once you get into it's cathartic, but it's getting the ball rolling that is insanely difficult. I usually give up when I fall to start and sleep with anger but it goes away when I wake up.", "rp_id": "e1zgqqw", "seeker_post": "How do you deal with the anger?. I get days where angry at everything, mostly angry at myself for being an idiot and I just feel like hitting myself. I know how to handle this it.", "sp_id": "8wxggd" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Hi Talk2muchaa, Lik onus111 suggested, 'feeling like doing something' just does not happen. If you're deeply unhappy with a lack of activity in your life, you just need to force yourself to do it - That's the sad reality of it. HOWEVER, that doesn't mean that there aren't ways to make FORCING yourself 'easier' on your mind and less stressful. If you want to build a house consisting of a 1000 bricks, take 30 seconds a day to lay 3 bricks and in one year, you will have a house. You can't punish yourself for not building Rome in a day. You will go on Twitch and see streamers who are making millions... YouTubers who are making millions. I mean fuck, PewDiePie has 56 million subscribers. But that shit didn't happen in just one day. You need to break shit up into increments. Perhaps others don't have to do this. But it's the only way I've found to get anything done. If you want to learn a language, go on Duolingo. Set a '10 points per day' challenge. Yes, it's jack-shit in terms of work. It takes literally 2 minutes a day, BUT- it's something. Try and ignore your brain saying Increase the goal to 50 a day, we're getting fuck-all done because this will break your discipline and you'll go back to 0 a day. Consistently doing 10 a day for 11 days, is better than doing 50 a day for 2 days, burning out and stopping altogether. The key to beating depression-induced laziness is TINY, incremental steps. For example, I'm learning Calculus on Khan Academy. One. Lesson. A Day. That's right- the average Khan video is around 10 minutes. I do one video a day. I am slowly, but consistently learning. Each day I go over the notes from the previous day. The problem isn't volume- it's consistency.", "rp_id": "dlzesc7", "seeker_post": "Laziness or lack of motivation.. How have some of you battled depression related laziness?", "sp_id": "6vdc5g" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Not Hollywood per se, but Ned Vizzini suicide hit me hard. now live for real, Craig. I feel many similarities between him and me (same age, etc). A successful author but this disease is just too much sometimes", "response_post": "Not Hollywood per se, but Ned Vizzini suicide hit me hard. now live for real, Craig. Live. Live. Live. I feel many similarities between him and me (same age, etc). A successful author but this disease is just too much sometimes.", "rp_id": "dpkl90r", "seeker_post": "Depression and celebrities. Hey there everyone. I was just wondering how do people feel when they read a celebrity biography and they suffer from depression?", "sp_id": "7bteqe" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I can't get anything done if my bed isn't made. It's the first thing I do every morning.", "response_post": "I can't get anything done if my bed isn't made. It's the first thing I do every morning.", "rp_id": "dnpb3ft", "seeker_post": "Making my bed makes me feel like I have my life under control. I but at least it looks like I do.", "sp_id": "73cm60" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I love going to forest Parks and looking at all the plants and animals. It helps to a certain extent.", "response_post": "I love going to forest Parks and looking at all the plants and animals. It helps to a certain extent.", "rp_id": "djc424o", "seeker_post": "I saw a tree full of blooming pink flowers. It was beautiful.. I'm really trying hard to look around and see the good things that are in the world. My life might be in turmoil, my mentality negative, my hopes low... but still, to notice and recognize something as simple as a tree with flowers... that's special. I just wanted to share.", "sp_id": "6j5dru" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "you sit on the sidelines and watch everyone else pass you by", "response_post": "you sit on the sidelines and watch everyone else pass you by.", "rp_id": "djbxlvq", "seeker_post": "What do you do when you go so long without feeling alive?. I feel like all I need is a kick - some tiny stupid spark - to get going again. And it just never comes.", "sp_id": "6j6j5k" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I want you to stay alive and fucking nail it! You can do it, buddy!", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Shoot yourself in the face with kindness. Go and treat you some motherfucking chocolate and some fucking videogames and calm the holy fucking fuck down. This was a lot of fucking swearing but even fucking think about killing your damn self. You will leave some fucking people who will for fucking fuck sake miss you. So - as as friendly reminder - please kill you! You matter ! Never ever think about this again or even post this shit. I want you to stay alive and fucking nail it! You can do it, buddy!", "rp_id": "e727yjp", "seeker_post": "help. hey how do i shoot myself in the head without a gun thanks", "sp_id": "9kw2bx" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I planned on eating an apple a day and physically assaulting every person with a labcoat that I see on the streets and so far my plan has worked wonderfully! I slapped so many doctors!", "response_post": "Here is a good tip: When you get vegetables and fruit, make a small plan to when you will eat them. That way you won't feel overwhelmed and take the easy route. I planned on eating an apple a day and physically assaulting every person with a labcoat that I see on the streets and so far my plan has worked wonderfully! I slapped so many doctors!", "rp_id": "e2tyze3", "seeker_post": "I'm winning this battle today. I ordered groceries, pretty much all produce. I WILL NOT let them go bad. I'm doing laundry today. I'm showering today and brushing my hair. I just might even mow my back yard (not likely, but it's fun to dream) I'm not letting my depression best me today.", "sp_id": "90r0cp" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "There is hope out there, even if everything seems hopeless right now.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I used to think that no one would miss me much if I killed myself, but always remember the sound of my brothers voice when he found me with blood pouring from my arm.", "response_post": "the thing, though, your death be feasible. Your mom and sibling would spend the rest of their lives wondering if it was something they did or said that pushed you over the edge, or thinking about what they could have done differently to be there for you. One of both of them would likely spiral into a depression of their own. I used to think that no one would miss me much if I killed myself, but always remember the sound of my brothers voice when he found me with blood pouring from my arm. That something that you can just get over. Even leaving notes really help the pain for your family. Also consider the suffering of the people who found you. It could be an RA or a dorm mate. They would be traumatized for life, with severe PTSD from seeing a dead, decomposing body. That point would be too late for you to do anything, so we try not to let it go that far. get me wrong, I know where coming from, and not trying to make you feel bad for would be wrong. And clear from the fact that even thinking about these things that you have some reservations, so build on that. Take every little good thing that happens to you and imagine never feeling that way again, and imagine robbing the people you love of those feelings as well. Forgive me for being brash, but there is absolutely nothing delicate or glorious about suicide. The people who experience it secondhand go through ten times the suffering of the people who commit it. Please, for the sake of a stranger on the internet who cares about you, think again. There is hope out there, even if everything seems hopeless right now.", "rp_id": "du2oncc", "seeker_post": "Post-suicide Questions I Wanted to Ask. I started writing my letters today and I wondered how people would receive them if they were electronic. These letters arent really something I can handwrite in a timely manner without having the courage to keep writing. Do the police access the computer and shift through the belongings to find the letters or wouls I have to send them out myself to have them delivered? What happens to my belongings? If I lock myself in a nonshared dorm room and kill myself, how long would it take to find my body and who would be responsible for cleaning it up? Would it leave my family in debt? Would blowing my head off or hanging myself leave my body in a state where it's unusable for a funeral? I'm turning 20 in 2 months and I'm just too tired. Id like to finally be able to rest and not have to live a conitant life of fear and sadness. As much as I do not want to keep living this kind of life, I am too tired to keep pushing through any longer and I'd just like for my death to be somewhat feasible for my mom and sibling.", "sp_id": "7wrqdo" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "People know how to handle it. blame them.", "rp_id": "e2pfemq", "seeker_post": "My moms reaction. My mom knows I'm nearly suicidal and I suffer from OCD, Bi-Polar disorder, severe anxiety, and depression (yay) and her reaction to me ever telling her anything is either A. Do I need to take you to the hospital, or B. that's life. Bruh,", "sp_id": "90c9nh" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "One thing i can say that works for me when im feeling this way are youtube meditations called", "response_post": "Everyone suggests to exercise but its easier said than done when one feels this lethargic and hopeless. One thing i can say that works for me when im feeling this way are youtube meditations called solfeggio frequencies it subliminally lifts your mood and vibrations upon listening. Very cool amd its my go-to right now.", "rp_id": "djf1bbd", "seeker_post": "What helps you lighten up your mood when there's nothing you wanna actually do?. Do you just force yourself to exercise or something?", "sp_id": "6jklrv" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "If you still feel the need to talk, I'm here", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Me as well. Most of the time when its asked they just expect a", "response_post": "Me as well. Most of the time when its asked they just expect a good or a fine but if you are genuine they just seem uncomfortable... I would ask how you are doing, but it was provoked by this post lol. If you still feel the need to talk, I'm here :P", "rp_id": "e0r9cgu", "seeker_post": "I just want someone to ask me how I'm doing without me provoking the question.. That's it, that's all I have to say.", "sp_id": "8rh086" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Minor problems can become major very quickly. The earlier you start addressing your issues, the better your chance of recovery.", "rp_id": "dgr8dn8", "seeker_post": "am I the only one who feels like this?. I feel like I wanna be left alone and runaway, delete all social media , give up etc... but at the same time wants to be more involved and try to succeed but just for some reason i can't find the motivation..", "sp_id": "67kvji" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "People just tell you go to bed earlier. They can't fathom how much effort it takes to drag through every dull day", "response_post": "People just tell you go to bed earlier. They can't fathom how much effort it takes to drag through every dull day.", "rp_id": "e4qbqqh", "seeker_post": "I'm so tired. I'm so incredibly tired of living. Waking up every day and having to feed myself and take care of myself is so exhausting. I'm just tired of life", "sp_id": "99re7l" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "But I'm only fighting my problems because I'm scared that if I die I would hurt people", "response_post": "That's the million dollar question. But I'm only fighting my problems because I'm scared that if I die I would hurt people", "rp_id": "ebwzfol", "seeker_post": "People keep saying we should fight our problems no matter what. but why?? What's the purpose of doing that?", "sp_id": "a6qac1" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "there's always this tiny ray of hope that says just, JUST, hold on for a little longer.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "we're all here because we've been in the same place one time or another. I, myself, find it hard to believe that it gets better. But, there's always this tiny ray of hope that says just, JUST, hold on for a little longer. And since I've got nothing better to do, I obey.", "response_post": "Well, we're all here because we've been in the same place one time or another. I, myself, find it hard to believe that it gets better. But, there's always this tiny ray of hope that says just, JUST, hold on for a little longer. And since I've got nothing better to do, I obey.", "rp_id": "ecibpo9", "seeker_post": "I’m so lonely. Help. Please.. I know how to handle this", "sp_id": "a9czb8" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I feel the same way", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "unnerving to live in a world with so many talented people who do meaningful work and are achieving so much whereas I can do nothing but watch", "response_post": "I feel the same way. unnerving to live in a world with so many talented people who do meaningful work and are achieving so much whereas I can do nothing but watch", "rp_id": "dubutes", "seeker_post": "anyone else feel like they cant do anything?. I just feel like there's nothing that i'm good at. I want to be good at doing something but i have no skills when it comes to the things i wish i could do.", "sp_id": "7xwrph" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Care to extrapolate on some positive examples of your brain rewiring?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Care to extrapolate on some positive examples of your brain rewiring? The only experience I have with this is my weed addiction since I was 16 and now I'm 20 :/. Only smoked once this last week tho so things are looking up", "rp_id": "dcsd7ax", "seeker_post": "If you do something long enough, it rewires your brain. That's both of good and ill. I know certain habits and crutches just encourage the depressive and anxiety feelings. But as I try new things, new therapies, they become less scarry and more normalized. So there's always hope.", "sp_id": "5pmw4z" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "High school is incredibly strict. I suggest dropping out of any AP courses you may be in and taking early -college courses instead. They're much easier and by FAR more worthy of your time.", "rp_id": "ea0gskf", "seeker_post": "High school has robbed me of my freedom. My schedule is filled with being forced to study things I already know its painful. Last week I only had 2 hours where the sun was up and I did what I wanted, and Im not a bloody owl, Im being a prisoner in this endless cycle of bullshit.", "sp_id": "9ybl4m" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "If you did your best, then you fail. going to be ok, trust me", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "If you did your best, then you fail. going to be ok, trust me.", "rp_id": "dob16d4", "seeker_post": "Please tell me that it’s gonna be okay. Hi i just got rejected from a job trial because they said an introvert, quiet and look depressed please tell me i did good because i really tried my best.... now i feel like shit just going home with the pay. Im so disappointed in myself, so so disappointed.........", "sp_id": "763mty" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I look in the mirror and only see sad, dead eyes looking back.", "response_post": "I look in the mirror and only see sad, dead eyes looking back.", "rp_id": "dvz36bm", "seeker_post": "Anyone just take a moment to look at themselves in the mirror, and feel like there’s no one looking back?. so weird. Not feeling anything. Just looking and having no emotions showing, sucks.", "sp_id": "85owjb" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. The other day my mom made an abrupt prayer about hoping the family will survive, as in not die, this year of 2019. I hoped no one would commit suicide because I am already suicidal.", "response_post": "I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. The other day my mom made an abrupt prayer about hoping the family will survive, as in not die, this year of 2019. I hoped no one would commit suicide because I am already suicidal.", "rp_id": "eda6z6b", "seeker_post": "Tomorrow, you will feel better.. That's what I heard yesterday. Stop saying that!", "sp_id": "acr8tg" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Fuck today. Go back to bed!", "rp_id": "dpf9p7h", "seeker_post": "I know this doesn't matter much but.... Why in the seven hells is everyone so damned angry today?! I have done nothing to deserve it, yet... Maybe today has some bad karma. I hope all of you at least had a better day than me. If not, maybe tomorrow.", "sp_id": "7b56j0" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Iam hoping for the same thing", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I make stupid decisions when I drink. It was a great coping mechanism for my thoughts. Except, it actually wasn't. I have relapsed several times. If you are like me and make questionable decisions when drunk then at least that is how your life gets better. It is just getting to sobriety takes effort.", "response_post": "Iam hoping for the same thing. I make stupid decisions when I drink. It was a great coping mechanism for my thoughts. Except, it actually wasn't. I have relapsed several times. If you are like me and make questionable decisions when drunk then at least that is how your life gets better. It is just getting to sobriety takes effort.", "rp_id": "dfsoqh6", "seeker_post": "so hopefully with me not drinking i will get better. maybe my paxil will work.. maybe not who knows", "sp_id": "63b1w4" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Wish and hope work sorry sorry just brutal done everything you have to try again. Fail forward they say. Yes it sucks I know.....", "rp_id": "dz1zoy5", "seeker_post": "I wish something good would happen. not that I sat and waited. done everything I could think of, that was worth a try. not gonna be ok.", "sp_id": "8jrrc8" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "don't. This is just an advice, my way of looking at things. I believe that you are not surrounding yourself with the right people, but it's true that most of the times we don't really get to choose who we meet. Having a caring heart is nothing to be ashamed of, and it would be a pity if your kindness gets lost in the midst of the crowd just because you want to fit in. There are a lot of people like you, that I can assure you, so as long as you are at peace with your thoughts and with who you are I'd suggest you should keep on being yourself. Take care (:", "rp_id": "d5by51l", "seeker_post": "I feel like I have to adapt to people?. I feel like because I have a caring heart, I can't show it and have to adapt to other people's cold behaviour. What do I do?", "sp_id": "4ssn7z" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Then fuck it, you're not her responsibility anymore. You'll have to be in charge of your own happiness", "rp_id": "e5falcm", "seeker_post": "My wife left me because of my depression. That will surely help solve it.. God I need a therapist.", "sp_id": "9d2oko" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "What do you mean by", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "better is so subjective. Depending on your point of view, people are better in some areas than others and worse in other, obviously, or else we'd all be the same. What do you mean by better? Can you elaborate please?", "rp_id": "dqpzjm9", "seeker_post": "How do I deal with the feeling that someone is better then me?. Do I just accept it? Any tips?", "sp_id": "7hcxab" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I asked my therapist last week the same question and she promised that it would pass and get better. So to hoping she was telling the truth for both our sakes", "response_post": "I asked my therapist last week the same question and she promised that it would pass and get better. So to hoping she was telling the truth for both our sakes", "rp_id": "e9ne5vw", "seeker_post": "I want to die, but I don't want to die. Will this painful feeling of being torn ever be over?", "sp_id": "9wq5o8" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "How dare you steal my prized possession", "response_post": "How dare you steal my prized possession?!", "rp_id": "e688eid", "seeker_post": "“How are you?” “I’m F.I.N.E.”. Fucked up, insecure, neurotic, and emotional.", "sp_id": "9gyd3j" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I get this problem to. Eventually I fall asleep but it's like I have to embarrass myself to sleep every night", "response_post": "I get this problem to. Eventually I fall asleep but it's like I have to embarrass myself to sleep every night.", "rp_id": "ds5n00b", "seeker_post": "It's one of those nights again... I'm having trouble falling asleep, remembering every single sad moment of my life.", "sp_id": "7nz1zc" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "We all are, in ways", "response_post": "We all are, in ways. And it's okay.", "rp_id": "dihq7mj", "seeker_post": "Useless, hopeless, worthless, pitiful, stupid, depressed, lonely, disgusting, incompetent, meaningless and weak ****. No trigger, just the realisation of who I am.", "sp_id": "6fd6q6" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "my ability to joke actually increased a lot after I started suffering from depression.", "response_post": "I think it's necessary to have a sense of humour. Usually it's a morbid humour :) my ability to joke actually increased a lot after I started suffering from depression.", "rp_id": "djx0dmk", "seeker_post": "I saw this on this sub but my turn to stop being a depressed teen.. And be a depressed adult instead.", "sp_id": "6luw0n" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Frequently. Because life isn't enough", "response_post": "Frequently. Because life isn't enough.", "rp_id": "drd9omw", "seeker_post": "Anyone else pretend they're some fictional character to get away from thinking about their real pathetic self?. I do all the time. I even have like this made up character that I always pretend is me. They have lots of positive traits and talents unlike me, haha.", "sp_id": "7k9od6" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Same. I get a weird feeling in my chest and it gets hard to focus. Which is weird because I loved it for 2 years before it started happening, I was known as a stoner and I loved being one.Now I try and avoid it. It gave me some amazing memories I'd love to relive but I just can't smoke without having the weird feeling happen, literally the smallest amount can make me feel weird.", "response_post": "Same. I get a weird feeling in my chest and it gets hard to focus. Which is weird because I loved it for 2 years before it started happening, I was known as a stoner and I loved being one. Now I try and avoid it. It gave me some amazing memories I'd love to relive but I just can't smoke without having the weird feeling happen, literally the smallest amount can make me feel weird.", "rp_id": "d5r7saq", "seeker_post": "Weed is beginning to not even help anymore. What do I do now. never mind. it's all irrelevant", "sp_id": "4umpyv" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "If you want, I'm willing to listen.But feeling alone is horribleLoneliness is a terrible thing.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Any reason this all happened to you?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Loneliness is a terrible thing. Even if you're alone, that's not necessarily a problem. But feeling alone is horrible... and this is the greatest time of the year for that. Any reason this all happened to you? If you want, I'm willing to listen.", "rp_id": "cyb5h9g", "seeker_post": "A great time to have an off day. It's 5 p.m. and I've only left my room for a cigarette and a bit of yogurt. I think the worst part might be that no one has actually come up to check on me.", "sp_id": "3y7111" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "But if you feel that you hit rock bottom, it can only go up from there.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "That is the question we all ask ourselves. But if you feel that you hit rock bottom, it can only go up from there.", "rp_id": "e9yalx4", "seeker_post": "Made it through another miserable day at work today without killing my self idk how I do it.. Will it ever get better?", "sp_id": "9y3vsn" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "im envious of the fact that you want hope", "rp_id": "dswoosk", "seeker_post": "I'm finally on medication and found a therapist who makes me feel hopeful for the first time in years. It has been a while since I've felt sincere hope.", "sp_id": "7rg50j" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Please don't do it. If I'm still here, you better stay too.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I feel the same. I do my best to push through every day and hope tomorrow will be better and it never is.", "response_post": "I feel the same. I do my best to push through every day and hope tomorrow will be better and it never is. Please don't do it. If I'm still here, you better stay too.", "rp_id": "da6k5j6", "seeker_post": "If I wanted to kill myself, no one would be here to stop me.. I'm constantly depressed and everyone is always busy.", "sp_id": "5dq5g1" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Im a really shy introverted person, but i had multiple people telling me that i came over as", "response_post": "There is also another factor that you sometimes dont notice, how you are perceived by others by body language. Im a really shy introverted person, but i had multiple people telling me that i came over as real angry threatening dude with a frown on my face and i never noticed this in my entire life. So, you need to be confident in yourself, showing through body language that you are a good guy to hang out with, i simply cant say how to do it, but thats one way to explain this.", "rp_id": "dxsfs6f", "seeker_post": "why do girls always reject me?. why do girls always reject me for some confident guy,do girls want me to become a maniac?stand outside there window with my pants down and dick hanging out waiting to rape them?,do girls want want me to rape them?", "sp_id": "8e504b" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Hey man, I'm there with yaHang in there man", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "My ex broke up with me in the fall and I'm still hurting over it. I know it sucks really hard, and I can't say it gets easier, but I know there a LOT of other people feeling the same thing", "response_post": "Hey man, I'm there with ya. My ex broke up with me in the fall and I'm still hurting over it. I know it sucks really hard, and I can't say it gets easier, but I know there a LOT of other people feeling the same thing, including me. Hang in there man, it's the most you can do.", "rp_id": "d2xd4qq", "seeker_post": "Being heartbroken sucks. I was dumped on the 1st of December 2015. Still healing. I go to school with my ex. See her every day. I feel so alone. I don't know . Sorry for wasting your time.", "sp_id": "4ie6uq" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Since kindergarten at the least. funny because I am a rather gentle person.", "response_post": "Since kindergarten at the least. funny because I am a rather gentle person.", "rp_id": "dq6kwhx", "seeker_post": "Does anyone else get really cruel thoughts spontaneously?. For example, I can just be at school and I look at a single person I don't know and just will imagine them either being killed or having a cruel scenario happening to them. I wouldn't do anything I imagine, but those thoughts are purely random and uncontrolled.", "sp_id": "7eovdf" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I feel yahJust know that you're not alone, and that being a", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I was a mistake too", "response_post": "I feel yah. I was a mistake too. Just know that you're not alone, and that being a mistake doesn't mean you're worth less than anyone else.", "rp_id": "drqck3b", "seeker_post": "I'm depressed. So 3 days before Christmas I found out that I was a mistake. My mother was on birth control and obviously it didn't work because I'm here. I ask myself, Why is my mom such a bitch to me?, I know why now.", "sp_id": "7lzs2q" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "So I propose that in order for you to prove things can't get better, give your life the absolute best shot you can give instead of giving up on it now. This way, you can prove to yourself and others that you're beyond saving, and the bridge will become a more reasonable option. It's a fucked up way of motivation, yes, but it motivates me", "response_post": "You've probably heard this before- that you should try improving your quality of life and see how that works. But I know how it can feel like nothing will ever change. So I propose that in order for you to prove things can't get better, give your life the absolute best shot you can give instead of giving up on it now. This way, you can prove to yourself and others that you're beyond saving, and the bridge will become a more reasonable option. It's a fucked up way of motivation, yes, but it motivates me", "rp_id": "doojal7", "seeker_post": "idk why im still alive. i guess ill jump off a bridge next week", "sp_id": "77tcfy" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "The fact that I'll die xD", "rp_id": "dd3bpjq", "seeker_post": "What is something that gives you hope?. For me, it is music. Something about it just washes all of my problems away, and makes me feel like I`m on top of the world. So, what about you?", "sp_id": "5qzaks" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I have always had a team, a prescribing doctor, therapist, and GP. Sometimes specifically a team that works together, sometimes just doctor's that kind of share notes but don't ever meet up", "response_post": "Just because you don't or can't have access to that level of mental health care does not mean your own mental illness is any less valid. I have always had a team, a prescribing doctor, therapist, and GP. Sometimes specifically a team that works together, sometimes just doctor's that kind of share notes but don't ever meet up. I am very lucky. Very few people get this level of treatment. Any number of genuine suicidal thoughts is too many. Everyone gets depressed, but when you stay there long enough to consider life actually painful to live you have depression. It can be really hard not to play mental illness Olympics. But someone else struggling more does not take away from your own struggle. Your feelings, your illness, are real. They're valid. They have NOTHING to do with anyone else's struggles. Just as theirs has nothing to do with you. Please please please remember that.", "rp_id": "dz20gz8", "seeker_post": "Sometimes I wonder if I really even have depression. I was diagnosed 2 or 3 years ago by my family doctor, who prescribed SSRIs \\(which I never took\\). My moods range from suicidal and self harming to just feeling out of sorts and not at peace with myself. Sometimes I go months without feeling like that, sometimes it seems to come about every few weeks and lasts for weeks at a time. I don't know, I sometimes compare myself to my boyfriend who has a team of psychologists and psychiatrists working to diagnose him, whereas I just went to my family doctor, filled in a questionnaire, and boom got labelled with depression. I wonder if I'm faking it or blowing my feelings out of proportion, especially comparing it to more serious cases of mental illness. Does anyone else ever feel this way? How do you deal with it?", "sp_id": "8jrn4f" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Yep same here. Tried a whole bunch of different ones over time", "response_post": "Yep same here. Tried a whole bunch of different ones over time.", "rp_id": "d4xssvu", "seeker_post": "Does anyone else find meditation completely useless?. I'm not denying it works for some, but as someone with depression and crippling anxiety it's basically a complete waste of time. Anyone else?", "sp_id": "4r2iri" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Feel free to Pm me", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Ive been through almost the same thing and overcame it", "response_post": "Feel free to Pm me Ive been through almost the same thing and overcame it", "rp_id": "d72b8g0", "seeker_post": "Drunk now. So I'm drunk while writing this on my phone but trying to make readable. This girl broke up with me back in late December. Before that happened I was pretty depressed but pretended I wasn't. That's basically what ruined things between us. Since the break up I've been trying to clean myself up. Every once and a while I get up and feel so sad that I want to kill myself. But like now, I'll just get drunk and pretend like I'm okay with this pain. I don't know. I feel so destroyed when people tell me to get over her when she was the one that showed how beautiful live could be. Fuck. I sound like such a romantic. I wish I could just force myself to make me a death trap. Thinking about my guinea pigs makes me want to live so that I can take care of them. I'm so fucking sad. Wish i was in a worse position because I feel like a shit head whining while other people are actually trying to live. Thank you bye", "sp_id": "509gwc" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I can't seem to eat healthy amounts of food. Either I overeat to the point of feeling like throwing up or I don't eat anything all day.Seems like the worse I'm feeling, the more extreme my eating habits become.", "response_post": "I can't seem to eat healthy amounts of food. Either I overeat to the point of feeling like throwing up or I don't eat anything all day. Seems like the worse I'm feeling, the more extreme my eating habits become.", "rp_id": "dpvs3h3", "seeker_post": "I just wanna eat eat eat, and eat until I explode right now.. I'm hungry as fuck, and uncomfortably depressed. Let me see if I can balance this shit out.", "sp_id": "7d7yp7" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Just do your best manjust keep trucking on.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "going through dark times (probably the worst of my entire life)", "response_post": "Just do your best man. going through dark times (probably the worst of my entire life), just keep trucking on.", "rp_id": "dq16nay", "seeker_post": ".... I desperately need aid in this instance of my depression, to handle it. I'm already in an severe episode and what's coming is different, it feels much darker. Please, help.", "sp_id": "7dxdm8" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Im so so sorry for your lose! big big hugs", "emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Im so so sorry for your lose! big big hugs", "rp_id": "dppako8", "seeker_post": "My dog just died, I feel like shit.. I miss him, the only thing that loved me unconditionally is now dead. I miss my smoke buddy I couldn't save him. I wish I could. I'm feel so lonely. All this plus my depression I don't what to do.", "sp_id": "7ca2nr" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "if you are so lonely it hurts it's still something.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "When I'm feeling down and there is literally no-one there to talk to it helps me to engage in come conversation in open hobbyists communities", "response_post": "Talk to someone online, it's sometimes much easier to get friendly with on the net, there are a lot of lonely people there. When I'm feeling down and there is literally no-one there to talk to it helps me to engage in come conversation in open hobbyists communities. Even having fun chat about anything at all (not a support/getting it out of your chests talk) can make all the difference when you don't have anyone else to talk with. The additional benefit is possibility to get motivated to do something new and interesting. It might not be a substitute for talking with a real friend (online or not) about your feelings but if you are so lonely it hurts it's still something.", "rp_id": "dcl49pb", "seeker_post": "what do you do when you need love and support but your family is neglective and you don't have any friends?. I feel so lonely it's hurts ....", "sp_id": "5opvlz" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I have this problem recurrently so I keep a wordpad document on my desktop of things that give me even the slightest bit of pleasure", "response_post": "I have this problem recurrently so I keep a wordpad document on my desktop of things that give me even the slightest bit of pleasure. If you want, I will PM that list to you.", "rp_id": "dgnidk6", "seeker_post": "The very last things that gave me pleasure are now indifferent to me. i want to die. internet and porn are not an option for me anymore. i've hit a complete apathy. why the fuck is this happening to me", "sp_id": "6740ou" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Pristiq improved my anhedonia a ton, but sent my anxiety through the roof. It's also anticholinergic, meaning I got side effects like dry mouth and weight gain. So if all you have is depression, it could be a good treatment, but you have to watch out for side effects", "response_post": "Pristiq improved my anhedonia a ton, but sent my anxiety through the roof. It's also anticholinergic, meaning I got side effects like dry mouth and weight gain. So if all you have is depression, it could be a good treatment, but you have to watch out for side effects.", "rp_id": "cy5iinn", "seeker_post": "Pristiq. Anyone have experience with Pristiq or Desvenlafaxine.", "sp_id": "3xkfdv" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "The point i was kinda getting at was looking at things in the big picture usually helps me", "response_post": "edited because it wasn't the most uplifiting :D. The point i was kinda getting at was looking at things in the big picture usually helps me", "rp_id": "drlth7p", "seeker_post": "I think I'm returning to being intimidated by women. And I just overcame this phobia at 25. Guess it didn't last long.", "sp_id": "7lf8br" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "It really doesn't. And I feel that the older I become, the less likely that things will actually get better. When I was younger and receiving medical help, there was still the general feeling that I'd eventually grow up and things would be sorted out.Having recently summing up the determination to see a shrink again, I get the feeling that nothing much can be done. I even wonder if I actually have depression. If my life is full of shit, am I really supposed to feel anything but misery?", "response_post": "It really doesn't. And I feel that the older I become, the less likely that things will actually get better. When I was younger and receiving medical help, there was still the general feeling that I'd eventually grow up and things would be sorted out. Having recently summing up the determination to see a shrink again, I get the feeling that nothing much can be done. I even wonder if I actually have depression. If my life is full of shit, am I really supposed to feel anything but misery?", "rp_id": "dfe1n5c", "seeker_post": "I'm just having a bad day. It will get better tomorrow/next week/ next month/ next term/ next year. Spoiler alert: It fucking doesn't", "sp_id": "61b1x6" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I totally agreeIt's nice to know you aren't alone.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": ". That's why I visit this sub a lot.", "response_post": "I totally agree. That's why I visit this sub a lot. It's nice to know you aren't alone.", "rp_id": "d21yix2", "seeker_post": "Contact. There's a weird comfort in connecting with someone who you know is also struggling. It's almost like you stare at each other and immediately think, We are on the same team. It's pretty nice.", "sp_id": "4enza0" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "52 and never used street drugs but Id be first in line to try mushrooms if there was a trial or if they become legal. I think they should be handled with care tjo.", "rp_id": "e0g2yol", "seeker_post": "Wellbutrin XL and Psilocybin. I have been taking Wellbutrin for my depression. (150 mg. of XL) for about 3 months now. It seems to have helped, a little. So I'm wondering if I should ask my doctor to increase the dosage to see if it helps, a little more. Has this helped anyone else? If so, how can you tell how much of an increase you need? Will taking it at different times of the day help instead of an increase in dosage? Say 75 mg. in the AM and 75 mg. PM? Also, I am curious about micro dosing with Psilocybin for my depression (magic mushrooms). I've read a lot of interesting and positive results from people using it for depression. I'm curious if anyone with depression has experience with Psilocybin while also taking Wellbutrin, and if so what was the affect? Also, has anyone stopped taking their Wellbutrin completely, in exchange for micro dosing with Psilocybin?", "sp_id": "8q2zqr" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": ". I know come to Love my wife as much as I do but with time I began to learn more about her every day and now I trade the world for her. Being first always the best.", "response_post": "Life is a series of choices. Many of the people you involve yourself with are not your first choice either but life. If talking about romantically speaking then sure why would anybody be anybody first choice? The culmination of our personalities, looks, intelligence, sensitivity, etcetera, all create true love and attraction. I know come to Love my wife as much as I do but with time I began to learn more about her every day and now I trade the world for her. Being first always the best.", "rp_id": "ds40tcv", "seeker_post": "Does anyone else feel like they're no ones first choice?. Popped up in my head and don't go away...", "sp_id": "7nqz38" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "Hey, you tried and you should feel proud of that,", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I'm still trying to motivate myself to at least try because I'm so afraid of failure", "response_post": "Hey, you tried and you should feel proud of that, I'm still trying to motivate myself to at least try because I'm so afraid of failure..", "rp_id": "dceucre", "seeker_post": "Had 4 tests today, stayed up till 4 and got up at 6:30 to study and I failed all of them. I don't know why I even try anymore.", "sp_id": "5nv40e" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "same even though i said gonna do everything no one wanted me", "response_post": "same even though i said gonna do everything no one wanted me", "rp_id": "dv0rnsu", "seeker_post": "I have a project due tomorrow and nobody wanted me in their group. I'm either too slow for other people or my mind is too distracted to focus on anything productive.", "sp_id": "815nk6" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I find myself theorizing about suicide pretty often (never actually tried ) and I always wonder what would be the best way : I live in Italy so I can't get access to a gun hanging or cutting my wrist sound super painful and u read about the guys that have to clean after people trow themselves in front of trains and I don't want to be a dick", "response_post": "I find myself theorizing about suicide pretty often (never actually tried ) and I always wonder what would be the best way : I live in Italy so I can't get access to a gun hanging or cutting my wrist sound super painful and u read about the guys that have to clean after people trow themselves in front of trains and I don't want to be a dick", "rp_id": "ddustnt", "seeker_post": "When you've been suicidal for a long time, you start to understand that it's not that easy... I fucking want to kill myself but everytime I think about how I failed the previous time and how this method will be pointless. I miss the old me that would've tried to jump in front of a train. Kind of a funny thought relate ?", "sp_id": "5ujdpq" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "You did the right thing", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I've got only my mom since 11. I don't have an uncle or aunt who hang out with me. You can choose your friends and to me friends are more important. They kinda replaced my family. And it's horribly wrong when people ask you those questions I'm so mad right now fuck man That guy has 0 empathy.", "response_post": "You did the right thing. I respect that you got help to save yourself. Takes a lot of balls. You can't choose family. I've got only my mom since 11. I don't have an uncle or aunt who hang out with me. You can choose your friends and to me friends are more important. They kinda replaced my family. And it's horribly wrong when people ask you those questions I'm so mad right now fuck man That guy has 0 empathy. I know you mad af but after you calm down try to look forward and hold onto yourself. You don't need them to save you. They should be supporting you, if not then not. Don't give a shit about them. It's a beautiful world but some people have 0 empathy. I may sound cringe but empathy is something I learned with 3 or 4. I don't know what is going wrong with some people", "rp_id": "eftvg2k", "seeker_post": "Fuck the people who try to make you feel bad for wanting to go to the hospital for being suicidal.. I was questioned by a CPS worker by the words: do you feel about your siblings knowing that you went to the The intention was obvious and he was clearly trying to make me feel bad for choosing to go to the hospital because i was having a nervous breakdown and that i was suicidal. Even my parents tried to make me feel bad. What the hell is wrong with getting help? They just make you feel bad. Fuck family members theyre toxic asf", "sp_id": "anju17" }
{ "emotionalPortion": ". Best of wishes man", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": ". I was in a group where I felt really bad because all of them were really judgemental and not close at all. After some time I've started hanging out with a group where I feel really motivated, they're crazily fun and accept me.", "response_post": "I know it isn't always possible, but you could try and hang out with other kind of people. I was in a group where I felt really bad because all of them were really judgemental and not close at all. After some time I've started hanging out with a group where I feel really motivated, they're crazily fun and accept me. Best of wishes man :)", "rp_id": "czcoa0q", "seeker_post": "The only person who noticed that something was wrong was I guy I just met.. I was at a party with my friends at one of their friends places. I became EXTREMELY depressed after having a couple drinks. Basically I wanted my life to be over. I was ready to walk outside and get hit by a car. I became very isolated. None of my friends came to my side or even seemed to notice me. But the host of the party came outside and asked me if everything was alright. It was completely insulting that these people I've known for over 10 years didn't come to my side. It was a guy who I knew less than 5 hours who noticed something was wrong...", "sp_id": "42qa60" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I had a dream a while back that someone had a gun pointed to my head and I told them to to pull the trigger because they would be doing me a favor", "response_post": "I had a dream a while back that someone had a gun pointed to my head and I told them to to pull the trigger because they would be doing me a favor.....", "rp_id": "dqycy0p", "seeker_post": "I dream of suicide. It's all I can think about at the moment.", "sp_id": "7ifnxl" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Is there something enjoyable that you can get out of bed for?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Hi there, I hope you're feeling less ill now. Is there something enjoyable that you can get out of bed for? Perhaps a coffee date with a friend taking the same class as you? The walk to class may be less daunting, plus said friend may even lend you notes for the sessions that you've missed.", "rp_id": "d8c7b5m", "seeker_post": "Stuck in a rut. I was ill for 2 weeks, couldn't get in to college. I'm ok now but I just don't have the willpower to get out of bed. I need to go in but I'm just too anxious over it.", "sp_id": "55n4rw" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "I'm right with you", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "for years. I bought a VR headset because I needed to use vacation from work. I only put it on for 10 min in 7 days off. I just slept and watched the odd video. I wish I had the energy to feel what I used to from games. It was my only real escape.", "response_post": "I'm right with you, for years. I bought a VR headset because I needed to use vacation from work. I only put it on for 10 min in 7 days off. I just slept and watched the odd video. I wish I had the energy to feel what I used to from games. It was my only real escape.", "rp_id": "dz01y7k", "seeker_post": "Doing literally anything feels like an ordeal.. All I do is sit on the computer or lay in bed because that's all that doesn't feel painfully hard to do. I can't do anything or move on with my life.", "sp_id": "8jhdd8" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "It's hard for me to believe my family because of all the lies ans omissions they have made in the past.", "response_post": "It's hard for me to believe my family because of all the lies ans omissions they have made in the past. I just learned to be more gaurded and pessimistic.", "rp_id": "dc95yki", "seeker_post": "Fuck life I want tô die. That is it Everybody lies and if they dont lie i feel like they are because thats what they usually do so fuck this shit Fuck girls even more they just make things worst", "sp_id": "5n6rva" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Thanks, my depression is cured.", "response_post": "Thanks, my depression is cured.", "rp_id": "e2738c9", "seeker_post": "Life is not worth living if there's nothing to enjoy. Fuck anyone who says otherwise", "sp_id": "8xwvhq" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "You aren't alone here.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "What's going on?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "You aren't alone here. What's going on?", "rp_id": "d6cqa19", "seeker_post": "it's too much. i can't take it anymore", "sp_id": "4x58ff" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "They're no different to anyone else, they have their own battles to overcome just like we have ours with depression, etc.", "rp_id": "d7xc5vw", "seeker_post": "Learning disabilities.. How do you guys feel about people with learning disabilities?", "sp_id": "53yfdc" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I'm going to sound mean, but I get so tired of hearing this. If you like someone, say something. Don't just like them for years and years, then get upset or feel bad when they get with someone or someone asks them out. I know it's scary and rejection hurts and a million other things, but if you don't say anything, how in the world will someone know your feelings for them? Plus, if she was really your friend, if you asked her out or something, and she stopped talking to you or humiliated you for that, then she wasn't a good friend, anyway, and you'd be better off without her. And you shouldn't try to decide if you're good or not for someone else, only they know that.", "rp_id": "dpgs7tg", "seeker_post": "I was gonna as my crush that I’ve liked for 5 yrs to prom..then I find out she already has a date. I wish I a worthless irrelevant piece of shit", "sp_id": "7b3xas" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "i feel this exact way every single day isolated, like this world works for some people but i am not able to function in it due to defect of my own and that maybe for me", "response_post": "Its my very first time here or any other thread or resource, this is why ill pursue a hand in this issue so thank you. It is the first i read literally and it made me realize im on the right track thinking about support. i feel this exact way every single day isolated, like this world works for some people but i am not able to function in it due to defect of my own and that maybe for me my birth was an error. Its been 5 years or so since i can detect the actual time i started this trajectory and since i lost my job and my life. Traded a career in healthcare for a career in bag chasing.", "rp_id": "e6qo22r", "seeker_post": "Wrong Planet?. Does anyone else feel like they just were not designed for this world? Does anyone feel like they can love so many people, but that no one who will live you. Because broken and abnormal?", "sp_id": "9je5wx" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "You can do it too. I know it sounds like I'm just some happy guy who doesn't really understand, because I alwaysk ind afeel like that. The words are so simple,Do you need somebody to talk to?", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "You know I felt like that last night. Like I was actually trying to find efficient ways to kill myself because I had to do shit from 7:15-6,All I know is that last night, if I had the oppurtunity I would be dead.", "response_post": "You know I felt like that last night. Like I was actually trying to find efficient ways to kill myself because I had to do shit from 7:15-6, but here I am. You can do it too. I know it sounds like I'm just some happy guy who doesn't really understand, because I alwaysk ind afeel like that. The words are so simple, you can do it too. All I know is that last night, if I had the oppurtunity I would be dead. Do you need somebody to talk to? GOD I fucking hate how generic all this shit is. I just need you to know that I mean this shit.", "rp_id": "czn4fsk", "seeker_post": "i just spent the last hour or so crying my ass off.. my upper lip's gone stiff and numb. i feel like throwing up. i don't feel like i can survive tomorrow.", "sp_id": "443e82" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "There aren't that many threads here though. Sometimes it just depends on the time it's being posted (or the title).", "rp_id": "dhweodz", "seeker_post": "Writer with a quick question. Hi! I'm a journalist, looking to interview relatively recent grads on their experience losing the counseling services that had access to in college. PM me if you're interested - I can provide more details. I'd love to chat.", "sp_id": "6cp3k4" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Yep, for me, I go from crying my eyes out and feeling sad as hell to suddenly a 'wtf, I'm too tired to care' numb state.", "response_post": "Yep, for me, I go from crying my eyes out and feeling sad as hell to suddenly a 'wtf, I'm too tired to care' numb state.", "rp_id": "e5sbxao", "seeker_post": "Too tired to be depressed?. Anyone else just so tired and bored of being deeply sad that just a chore and rather just lay there and feel nothing but some bursts of sadness and then just complete blankness?", "sp_id": "9ey3bw" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Try it. It feels like", "rp_id": "dxnrjcw", "seeker_post": "Does anyone else feel nothing at all constantly?. My therapist wants me to think more positively, but I don't know how. I genuinely feel nothing at all 24/7.", "sp_id": "8djtha" }
{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "It's more of a learning experience, is what it sounds like to me. No one is laughing at you, I don't think your brain is laughing either. It just a phase that you're going through. Hope that helps.", "rp_id": "dct9bxu", "seeker_post": "I am done in.. This is my 5th relapse. What's the point. My life just revolves around hoping I don't have a relapse. Then I do. I put my loved ones through hell. Is this living? Is god having a laugh? Or is it my brain having a laugh at my expense.", "sp_id": "5prjnv" }