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{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "So you sick af now or your liver is fucked or something?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "So you sick af now or your liver is fucked or something?", "rp_id": "eevydcu", "seeker_post": "I tried to kill myself. It did not work.. Really wish it worked oh well.", "sp_id": "ajj2al" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Every time I dare think I am moving up in any way I get beat down. In any field of life that I try to improve.", "response_post": "Every time I dare think I am moving up in any way I get beat down. In any field of life that I try to improve. Its just incredible.", "rp_id": "drimhto", "seeker_post": "Life has it's ups and downs, I get that.. But where the fuck are all my ups right now?", "sp_id": "7kwoxl" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I hear you brother/sister.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I recently stepped down from management position so I can work by myself. It's a bit better.", "response_post": "I hear you brother/sister. I recently stepped down from management position so I can work by myself. It's a bit better.", "rp_id": "dqdu5a5", "seeker_post": "My fellow sufferers who work in retail.... How we hangin' this holiday season? Me? Not so good. Like suicide not so good. Like nervous breakdown/ bodyslam someone not so good....", "sp_id": "7fr7ez" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I love Sertraline I got side effects from it so had to look elsewhere. I'm glad it's working for you though.", "response_post": ">I love Sertraline I got side effects from it so had to look elsewhere. I'm glad it's working for you though.", "rp_id": "ece9c9e", "seeker_post": "I love Sertraline. It's same important as parents for me", "sp_id": "a8vveo" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Thats not a good idea friend", "rp_id": "d8slh7s", "seeker_post": "will be swallowing all of my psych meds tonight!!!. good riddance to me. fuck living!!!!", "sp_id": "57jzki" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "My problem is the opposite, I'm skinny as a rail and short. Upon putting myself out there, I found that some people actually think I'm attractive.", "response_post": "I looked at your post history(sorry, I'm nosy) and what caught my eye was that you were upset that you feel girls don't find you attractive. The key there was you said you don't even bother talking to them. A fear of rejection is what keeps most people single, I think. Even just smiling at a girl when she walks by might make you feel better. If she gives you that, What do you want, weirdo? look, that's her insecurity, and those aren't the kind of people you want in your life anyways. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. My problem is the opposite, I'm skinny as a rail and short. Upon putting myself out there, I found that some people actually think I'm attractive. You're your own worst critic, so I sincerely doubt your just un-lovably ugly. And about your weight, treat it like an RPG, make a game of losing weight. You'll start to feel better about yourself the more you lose. It can be kind of fun to work on yourself, especially when you start to see results. I was talking to my parents the other day, and calorie counting apparently worked wonders on them. Do some research and see what's best for you, I'm no doctor. Hope this helps.", "rp_id": "dz36qqc", "seeker_post": "I hate my life so fucking much right now.. I hate myself so much. Why is life so difficult. Constant self loathing. just sitting by the computer all day. Doing nothing. I'm just a fat ugly virgin loser. I hate this life. I hate myself. I didn't ask to be born in the first place... Why am i expected to accept life as it is then? Ugh...", "sp_id": "8jx0gy" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "On the inside I may be screaming and balling my eyes out, but I physically let it out when I try. The only times I cry are when I have an extremely deep thought that hits me hard and ball out of nowhere for literally 5 seconds before I pull myself together. Another 5 seconds later like nothing even happened", "response_post": "Every day. Depression dulls your physical emotions. On the inside I may be screaming and balling my eyes out, but I physically let it out when I try. The only times I cry are when I have an extremely deep thought that hits me hard and ball out of nowhere for literally 5 seconds before I pull myself together. Another 5 seconds later like nothing even happened...", "rp_id": "dwctslw", "seeker_post": "how can you feel like always wanting to cry but can never actually cry. seriously how? i can never not feel like this lately", "sp_id": "87h9bi" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Sometimes the suffering gets too much, you know? I'm in a similar situation to you.", "response_post": "Sometimes the suffering gets too much, you know? I'm in a similar situation to you.", "rp_id": "d89gioy", "seeker_post": "Kill me.. Nothing helps. No one says anything positive. I'm just a waste of space. I know all my friends could get by without me just fine. No one cares about me. I wish I were dead..", "sp_id": "55ceyh" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Who are you?Why do you need to die?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "No. Who are you? Why do you need to die?", "rp_id": "dccjv8r", "seeker_post": "For a billionth time. Can I die? Just, just die already. Just fucking die.", "sp_id": "5nm51q" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Don't fuck up your education. I ended up getting kicked out of the Swedish equivalent of high school at 17 because I stopped attending classes as I progressivly got worse. I ended up getting a lot better the last two years but I'm now approaching my mid 20's with fuck all to show for, which has made me start feeling pretty bad again as I'm trying to play catchup. If i just finished that shit I could at least be at university now", "response_post": "Don't fuck up your education. I ended up getting kicked out of the Swedish equivalent of high school at 17 because I stopped attending classes as I progressivly got worse. I ended up getting a lot better the last two years but I'm now approaching my mid 20's with fuck all to show for, which has made me start feeling pretty bad again as I'm trying to play catchup. If i just finished that shit I could at least be at university now... fuck me.", "rp_id": "ddpqhxp", "seeker_post": "What advice would you give to a 16 year old who is lonely, struggles with depression and feels like they are wasting their youth sat at home all day?. Title pretty much covers it.", "sp_id": "5twivx" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I don't eat, I just drink soda.", "response_post": "I don't eat, I just drink soda.", "rp_id": "efi52ue", "seeker_post": "Do you eat when you're depressed?. I heard people overeat when they're depressed, I'm the exact oppisite I had a really bad depression for like a week and i ate like a half a sandwich a day for like a whole week", "sp_id": "alykmh" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Yep. At this point, I find that having opinions, especially controversial ones, are too tiring. What's even the point of getting worked up and angry?", "response_post": "Yep. At this point, I find that having opinions, especially controversial ones, are too tiring. What's even the point of getting worked up and angry?", "rp_id": "e3pvtfn", "seeker_post": "Anyone else not have opinions anymore. I just have nothing to say", "sp_id": "9536w9" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I want to sign up to that as well.", "response_post": "I want to sign up to that as well.", "rp_id": "dcg701g", "seeker_post": "Some one kill me please. Fuck this life fuck existence fuck everything fuck fuck", "sp_id": "5o1uev" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "please don't. I'm telling you. Just don't. Think about your loved one. Seek help from professionals. Try to rationalize everything.", "rp_id": "e6a3c3s", "seeker_post": ":/. really sick of this life I want to kill myself", "sp_id": "9h94rb" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Your friends probably know what going through and can help you. discourage help that you know you can get if you need to talk to someone then tell them. I know it can get hard and I hope your Day the worst.", "rp_id": "egi89r2", "seeker_post": "I don't want to fail everyone I know.. Too bad. You did. ( future self )", "sp_id": "ap7c4c" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "agree more", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "agree more, life is suffering sadly", "rp_id": "eb9sqy7", "seeker_post": "So little can go right... So much can go wrong. When something goes right I feel very little pleasure for a very ahort while and when something goes wrong im in extreme pain for months... Doesnt look worth to me", "sp_id": "a3wjfw" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Well everyday is a new day to start over", "rp_id": "e7261kk", "seeker_post": "I just wanna quit my life. How do I start over or delete", "sp_id": "9kvpuz" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "It's always sunny above the clouds", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "It's always sunny above the clouds", "rp_id": "dw0wn1x", "seeker_post": "I can't get out of bed.. Been in bed all day. I need positive words.", "sp_id": "85ve3y" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Are you on disability at all?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": ":( Are you on disability at all?", "rp_id": "d54ik50", "seeker_post": "My disabilities destroyed my life.. There's nothing I can do about it.", "sp_id": "4ruq3i" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Hey sorry things are blank for you", "emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Hey sorry things are blank for you just hold in there and try to find something unique about yourself or make something and give it a purpose in your life. motivation have to come from inside yourself alone it can be other places or times", "rp_id": "e43fgm3", "seeker_post": "I have nothing to live for. I have no hope. I have no motivation. I have a job. tired of feeling depressed. I want to give up.", "sp_id": "96uclb" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Not seasonal, but it gets worse in the winter", "response_post": "Not seasonal, but it gets worse in the winter", "rp_id": "dox8tdy", "seeker_post": "When does your seasonal depression begin?. If you suffer from seasonal depression -- when does it typically begin/end for you?", "sp_id": "78wlo4" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "What exactly do you need help with?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I don't really understand what you mean. What exactly do you need help with?", "rp_id": "e6d5kgy", "seeker_post": "Please help me. keep starting me off badly. Please just help.", "sp_id": "9hmab0" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Oh oh, I know! Youthful enthusiasm for life is great and when your world is like that, it's great! And you live life without reservation. Theeen you get older and wiser and sadder because life is hard and oddly enough that freedom you dreamed of having as a kid was actually what you had, weirdly enough, as a kid.", "rp_id": "ebesqcc", "seeker_post": "I’ve written.... I wouldn’t say poems I wouldn’t say much of anything but these are things that I’ve written while drunk and high on drugs but never have Read. But would like to get feedback onto it maybe figuring out how I feel deep inside.. Innocence in such an pure world", "sp_id": "a4irt2" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I love how nice people are to each other in this sub. It's really amazing, I wish I would see this type of support in real life more often", "response_post": "I love how nice people are to each other in this sub. It's really amazing, I wish I would see this type of support in real life more often.", "rp_id": "dtsz095", "seeker_post": "Please don't leave me. I don't want to be alone.", "sp_id": "7vgst4" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I guess people just are born or moulded into different mindsets and a lot of people unfortunately got a shitty one where they struggle to be happy", "response_post": "I guess people just are born or moulded into different mindsets and a lot of people unfortunately got a shitty one where they struggle to be happy", "rp_id": "dnv73e5", "seeker_post": "Do you ever think depression is actually just being more in tune with how shit life really is?. Like you can dress it up how you want, but it is it?", "sp_id": "740few" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "You know you did the right thing. Be proud of that.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "You know you did the right thing. Be proud of that.", "rp_id": "df7cuud", "seeker_post": "I had a girl who loved me to the moon. And I threw it away. If you want the details let me know in the comments. I'm too tired to write it all rn. Long story short: girl, lives 9000 km away. We met online. We got close. She ended up loving me, and i rished into a long distance online relationship. I knew that I'd be leaving for university soon, and I didn't want that move to hurt her. So I broke up with her. I thought I was helping her, you know. I didn't want her wrecked later, and I honest to god just wanted her to be happy. I thought if she found someone near her, she'd be happier. On the other hand: I basically lost 6 months of happiness. I had her. And now she's gone. She told me she moved on. And only now have I realized... I haven't. I still like her. I don't even know what kind of comments I want or get. Yes it's my fault. Completely mine. Do I regret it? No. She needs to be happy. But still.", "sp_id": "60lf29" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I know for me, speaking up for myself can be hard.", "response_post": "Good for you! I know for me, speaking up for myself can be hard. But it's a step in the journey!", "rp_id": "d50d07m", "seeker_post": "i fucking manned up and told my SO what my priorities were. i feel anxious like hell but it feels pretty good.", "sp_id": "4re82s" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Yep. Shame, guilt and regret are my primary emotions", "response_post": "Yep. Shame, guilt and regret are my primary emotions.", "rp_id": "d6p619p", "seeker_post": "Shame. Anyone just feel deeply ashamed to be you? I'm really ashamed of what I am I hate everything about myself and just feel like a freakshow for everyone and everything to laugh at.", "sp_id": "4ynw6b" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Yep and they never do", "response_post": "Yep and they never do", "rp_id": "dpehf1a", "seeker_post": "Does anybody go sleep and wish all their problems just vanish before they wake up?. It's the only thing left that gives me hope.", "sp_id": "7awu4o" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I wish you the best of luck, you got this.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "not really a form of depression, but it can definitely be a symptom of it. Feeling that you are worthless, a burden, a failure, are all very common to those suffering from depression. What separates it from simply having low self esteem, which many people do, are whether or not you have the other symptoms associated with depression. Things like lack of energy and interest, hopelessness about the future, difficulty sleeping/eating/focusing, suicidal thoughts; experiencing these things on a consistent basis for weeks/months/years is definitely indicative of some sort of depression. Take some time and think about how you feel and been causing it, Do some research into your thoughts and what others say about it. If you decide you need or want help, be afraid to reach out to others and communicate your troubles. I wish you the best of luck, you got this.", "rp_id": "ee3w7pf", "seeker_post": "I don't Know If This Is Normal Or Not. I always feel like i'm a loser and not worth people's time is that considered a form of depression ?", "sp_id": "ag61pp" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Honesty this is how I feel... I'm currently making a plan too... don't plan on being here for too much longer in all honesty", "response_post": "Honesty this is how I feel... I'm currently making a plan too... don't plan on being here for too much longer in all honesty", "rp_id": "db4sawk", "seeker_post": "I don't think most people would care if I killed myself. Maybe they'd be sad for a day but they'd probably move on...", "sp_id": "5i20sa" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Things will get better you really just have to waitCall +18002738255 if you feel really bad", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Do you see a therapist?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I promise it's not the answer. You're at a low point right now. Things will get better you really just have to wait. Call +18002738255 if you feel really bad. Do you see a therapist?", "rp_id": "d0eacce", "seeker_post": "Maybe suicide is the answer. People say it gets better. Well, for the past four years its been getting worse. What's the point of living if there's nothing worth living for? I'm thinking of finally going through with this.", "sp_id": "47nm79" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "My suicidal thoughts are getting worse on Zoloft. Im currently on 75mg. My doctor warned me it was a possibility. If that starts happening make sure you call your doctor asap. I take Lamictal and Buspar with the Zoloft.My combination of medication along with my bipolar disorder could be causing my side effects I'm not sure.", "response_post": "My suicidal thoughts are getting worse on Zoloft. Im currently on 75mg. My doctor warned me it was a possibility. If that starts happening make sure you call your doctor asap. I take Lamictal and Buspar with the Zoloft. My combination of medication along with my bipolar disorder could be causing my side effects I'm not sure.", "rp_id": "de9k9l7", "seeker_post": "Zoloft. I've been on 50mg daily zoloft since Thursday. Along with .25 MG xanax for anxiety and depression. What to expect?", "sp_id": "5we86k" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I think everyone has good characteristics to them. Everyone's good at something. Your mind won't buy it, I know, but there's a ton of stuff you've been doing longer successfully than anyone else has: your life, and everything in it. I don't know about you but I know you're good at something, not that you have a particular gifted talent but you do have a strong suit of some kind that you can hone in some way to your advantage. I believe everyone can find their if they try.", "rp_id": "d0kqm95", "seeker_post": "I'm going to be alone my entire life.. Even I don't to be with myself..", "sp_id": "48l95s" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I suppose it depends on how deep the pattern is, something that help some people is to use a calendar and write down things to do during which hours everyday in advance and try to force yourself to not break the schedule. Doesn't work for me but i know that it works for some people", "response_post": "I suppose it depends on how deep the pattern is, something that help some people is to use a calendar and write down things to do during which hours everyday in advance and try to force yourself to not break the schedule. Doesn't work for me but i know that it works for some people. The most important part i'd say is to find a goal to strive towards.", "rp_id": "d95dbna", "seeker_post": "It's a pattern!. How do I break it?", "sp_id": "593joa" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Being a wagecuck is hard I feel you", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Being a wagecuck is hard I feel you", "rp_id": "ebtgbvc", "seeker_post": "I have to go to work in 45 minutes. I tried calling off by lying about being sick but I find anyone to cover for me. I know how manage honestly.", "sp_id": "a68do7" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "What's making you want to?", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I feel like this sometimes.", "response_post": "What's making you want to? I feel like this sometimes.", "rp_id": "dmrfu9c", "seeker_post": "Hopefully I'll die in my sleep tonight. Won't happen, but a man can dream...", "sp_id": "6yzwfw" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "well maybe there's something that made u feel better for a while, so u felt like you're getting better. Find that shit, don't let your progress go for nothing. I'm rooting for u buddy", "rp_id": "efs6lh1", "seeker_post": "I started getting better after a long period of depression but now it's back. like nothing has changed fuck", "sp_id": "anbrl8" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Maybe try and cook some noodlesor rice at home for now. Oatmeal? Potatos? Beans? There should be something edible in your house that doesn't require you to go outside.", "rp_id": "e4yzy0z", "seeker_post": "Im starving.. I fell too anxious and depressed to eat :(. Its painful, my mother left money to buy pizza for us, but dressing up, taking a shower then driving 15 minutes to get pizza seems impossible.. Typo, feel instead fell.", "sp_id": "9aygym" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I know what you mean.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Seems like it'll never get better, it just gets worse even though it doesn't seem like it could get any worse.", "response_post": "I know what you mean. Seems like it'll never get better, it just gets worse even though it doesn't seem like it could get any worse. Sucks.", "rp_id": "dlwhmwg", "seeker_post": "I keep thinking I've hit rock bottom and then it gets even worse. so much for all that It gets better bullshit.", "sp_id": "6uz7za" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Only if it detects any sort of input. Computers are actually pretty stupid by themselves.", "rp_id": "dekf7na", "seeker_post": "I feel like a computer.. I feel like a computer. I feel like I've lost the ability to feel emotion, even boredom. I'm sitting here waiting for an idea for something to do to roll by.", "sp_id": "5xo8sa" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "yea I'm literally in the same boat. sometimes I find something I love and become so happy. but once I finish and remember real life, I just fall back into the rut.", "response_post": "yea I'm literally in the same boat. sometimes I find something I love and become so happy. but once I finish and remember real life, I just fall back into the rut.", "rp_id": "e2c7qid", "seeker_post": "Anyone else my age and depressed? I'm 16.. I have a normal life with a loving family. Yet I just don't want to exist anymore. School sucks and I feel it's futile. I want a relationship but am too scared and hate myself too much. I feel like I am ready to die, or just not exist.", "sp_id": "8yn5uc" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "What do you want someone to care about?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "What do you want someone to care about?", "rp_id": "dn48esu", "seeker_post": "How do you find someone who cares?. I've been wondering that for my entire lifetime...", "sp_id": "70m7ds" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Could you call child protective services?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Could you call child protective services?", "rp_id": "d7qp6vk", "seeker_post": "my dad hits me. and he took away my xbox", "sp_id": "537kzt" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I basically did this and dug myself into a much deeper hole to climb out of.", "response_post": "No, I basically did this and dug myself into a much deeper hole to climb out of.", "rp_id": "d7v2ryn", "seeker_post": "Should I make everyone hate me before I die?. Maybe I don't even need to", "sp_id": "53pajy" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "You are not useless", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I used to think the same, but I have always been good at writing and research. I decided to start freelancing my services, and I do quite well for myself. It's no replacement to a full time job just yet, but I really enjoy the freedom and receiving positive client feedback", "response_post": "You are not useless. I used to think the same, but I have always been good at writing and research. I decided to start freelancing my services, and I do quite well for myself. It's no replacement to a full time job just yet, but I really enjoy the freedom and receiving positive client feedback. Everyone has something to offer, just have to make a start..", "rp_id": "dpudyu2", "seeker_post": "Friendless, jobless, skillless, useless... Anyone in the same boat?", "sp_id": "7cz467" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I'm pretty sure they're nation wide but lack the resources to really help many people though. Mental health care system is a joke, especially in the low/no income sector. Worth pursuing if you're in need. Just might take a little time and patience.", "response_post": "That depends on where you are in the world. Where I'm at in the USA, BHR (Behavioral Health Resources) would be the place to inquire. I'm pretty sure they're nation wide but lack the resources to really help many people though. Mental health care system is a joke, especially in the low/no income sector. Worth pursuing if you're in need. Just might take a little time and patience.", "rp_id": "d4ftgbe", "seeker_post": "Not sure if this is right place but I need some answers.. Does anyone know how to find therapists / councilors for very low income & no insurance?", "sp_id": "4ovbz0" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "check out the rhodiola book by gerbarg and brown and fish oil book by andrew stoll md", "rp_id": "dbvmty6", "seeker_post": "Help with depression. It's been 9 months and I have been battling depression and I'm giving up on the fight. I don't know how to make myself feel better. I hope one of you knows the answer", "sp_id": "5lh0vr" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Suicide is contagious. Don't let yourself become another victim.", "rp_id": "d12zomf", "seeker_post": "Five people in my school district have killed themselves in 2016.. It's really weighing on me.", "sp_id": "4ars61" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I would like to partake in the talent show Wait No I wouldn't.", "response_post": "I would like to partake in the talent show Wait No I wouldn't.", "rp_id": "efkqs4u", "seeker_post": "I have absolutely nothing original to contribute to or real life. I'm good at stringing meaningless, unoriginal words together sometimes on Not really talent show material", "sp_id": "amavjs" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I feel the same way you do", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I feel the same way you do and would also like an answer to this question part of me want to stop taking them and fall off the deep end again im tired of putting on an act for my family because if I show them how I feel the tell me I need more meds", "response_post": "I feel the same way you do and would also like an answer to this question part of me want to stop taking them and fall off the deep end again im tired of putting on an act for my family because if I show them how I feel the tell me I need more meds", "rp_id": "ee379lw", "seeker_post": "Is it supposed to be like this?. had depression since I was probably around 14. 38 now and I recall a time when I depressed. Off meds my bouts of deep depression were much sharper it seems. On meds it seems like everything is dulled. Perhaps my age (and the fact that just sick of everyday life in general) that seems to have dulled life experience, maybe the seemingly constant barrage of tragedies and heavy personal baggage, but it seems like my doctors are just barely keeping me functional. It feels like psychological life-support. My question is, is this what meds are supposed to be? Just little bumpers to keep you from falling off the deep end? Do people take meds and actually experience...happiness in their life? Now asked this question to people (whom I know also take meds) straight to their face and I get a distinct feeling like being lied to as they tell me that they know what I mean, or that happy because they have a great family or whatever. But what are these meds really supposed to DO?", "sp_id": "ag2rwr" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "are we the same person?", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "are we the same person?", "rp_id": "dvsbn6v", "seeker_post": "every day is the same. and its so boring and lonely", "sp_id": "84sy7n" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I hope your life gets better and that your day is fantastic, you really deserve it.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I know that it's a struggle because I go through the same thing every day - do you ever laugh but feel like it's just not reaching your eyes anymore? That's me every day. I can't say that it 100% for certain gets better, but it COULD get better and that's what really motivates me every day", "response_post": "Same here man. I hope your life gets better and that your day is fantastic, you really deserve it. I know that it's a struggle because I go through the same thing every day - do you ever laugh but feel like it's just not reaching your eyes anymore? That's me every day. I can't say that it 100% for certain gets better, but it COULD get better and that's what really motivates me every day.", "rp_id": "dmexip5", "seeker_post": "I've always been told that I'm a horrible liar, yet somehow I am able to fool everyone into thinking I'm okay.. I just wish somebody would notice that I'm really not.", "sp_id": "6xcakf" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Don't be hurt.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Don't be hurt. All dating sites are money scams in disguise. The success rate of finding an actual person on there is very low. Majority of OkCupid profiles are bots and fake accounts with stolen pictures.", "rp_id": "ddb71wx", "seeker_post": "Every day I waste a 1.99 on OkCupid boost, just to get no views.. And it really hurts me.", "sp_id": "5ryf0g" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Life is not what happens to you - it's how you react to it. If you feel sorry for yourself, and most depressed people do, it's because they decide that there is a payoff in doing it. It's showing sympathy for a person, and you're the person, because you aren't getting it from anyone else. It all comes down to what comes after that. You can give up and never try again, or you can take that feeling and extend it into the future: - Imagine feeling this way, and doing nothing about it, for a year. 5 years. 10 years. What has your life become? - Now imagine what your life would be like if you forced yourself to get of bed, brush your teeth, went to the store or coffee shop, talked to someone, helped someone, every day. Now imagine doing that for a year. 5 years. 10 years. NOW what is your life like?", "rp_id": "dy5q959", "seeker_post": ".... Is it ok for feel sorry for my self", "sp_id": "8fnk5b" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "If only everybody around me wouldn't lie every chance they could.", "response_post": "That's good. If only everybody around me wouldn't lie every chance they could.", "rp_id": "dao8ln6", "seeker_post": "Asking questions. I've had a really hard day. Blow after blow (and a parking citation on top of those blows.) Just a couple moments ago I decided to ask my friends what they admire about me. It helps. I'm weeping with knowledge that I'm not as terrible as I think.", "sp_id": "5fzilb" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I envy you. I can only sleep like 4 hours a day", "response_post": "I envy you. I can only sleep like 4 hours a day", "rp_id": "dt6aeph", "seeker_post": "I love being depressed.. so good. Not having a reason to go on and going to sleep every night wanting to die is all dreamed of. I really purposefully put this on myself. I love these feelings of emptiness :)", "sp_id": "7sl9h7" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I'm sort of the designated problem solver in my circle, so quite a few of my friends come to me for advice and sympathy. It's never, never a burden. Instead, it's an honor. They trust me with their secrets, their problems, and value my opinion enough to ask for it.I have found, it can sort ofI mean, here's the person they go to and they rely on when they need support... and that person needs support. Suddenly you're not Superman anymore and it can be a bit disconcerting", "response_post": "I'm not entirely certain what reaction you're getting, but I hope you'll give those around you a little slack if they can't be as openly receptive and caring as you need at first. I'm sort of the designated problem solver in my circle, so quite a few of my friends come to me for advice and sympathy. It's never, never a burden. Instead, it's an honor. They trust me with their secrets, their problems, and value my opinion enough to ask for it. Reverse the situation. Aren't you glad when someone comes to you? The thing is, not everyone is built for that. Especially, I have found, it can sort of weird people out when the Rock, the Stable One, the One Person In This Messed Up World Who Has Their Stuff Together needs help. I mean, here's the person they go to and they rely on when they need support... and that person needs support. Suddenly you're not Superman anymore and it can be a bit disconcerting. Perhaps try introducing A problem at a time, slowly, and seeing if they can get used to you also being a normal human with issues. Good luck!!", "rp_id": "e1ruepi", "seeker_post": "I seem to always be the first to try and help someone else with their problems, yet when I need help nobody seems to be around to be an open ear for me, I wish I had someone in real life who cared enough to listen to me and just let me spill everything out. Anyone else feel this way?", "sp_id": "8w0orm" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Know that I am here and you can PM me and we can be there for each other, for whatever it's worth.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I am in the exact same place. I've lost two jobs and two boyfriends in the last year (2 jobs in the last 6 months). My ex lives two blocks away and I see him every time I leave the house. I never see my friends. I live alone and money is running out.I can't imagine finding a new job (my background makes it impossible) or finding new love (I'm too old)", "response_post": "I am in the exact same place. I've lost two jobs and two boyfriends in the last year (2 jobs in the last 6 months). My ex lives two blocks away and I see him every time I leave the house. I never see my friends. I live alone and money is running out. I can't imagine finding a new job (my background makes it impossible) or finding new love (I'm too old). But you are not alone. Know that I am here and you can PM me and we can be there for each other, for whatever it's worth.", "rp_id": "d4c8ljy", "seeker_post": "it just keeps getting worse. please tell me what to do.. I was let go from my job. My boyfriend left me. I can't stop crying. Everything is just.... I want desperately to die. I can't keep up with this. I'm not strong enough. Please just tell me what I can do to feel better.", "sp_id": "4ofa91" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Despite these people not knowing you, we're all in this together. Keep your head up", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Sometimes you really need to be reminded of that other side and that you will in fact return to it. Don't make any big decisions when in the heat of the moment. Focus on other things (TV shows, artistic endeavours, school, etc) and return once you've cooled off. Good on you for reaching out for help, my friend. Despite these people not knowing you, we're all in this together. Keep your head up", "rp_id": "d0djxlk", "seeker_post": "what is the easiest way to kill myself. I have no reason to live so please help me", "sp_id": "47jmki" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Over thinking and running away from myself.Or everything because I don't know what would be better for me", "response_post": "Over thinking and running away from myself.Or everything because I don't know what would be better for me.", "rp_id": "eg43p4t", "seeker_post": "What do you want to stop?. I need everything to stop. People Life.", "sp_id": "aowluc" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "You are not a failure.. Keep up the fight.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "No. Not having a social life isn't a terminal diagnosis. Why kill yourself due to lack of social life if you could eventually obtain one? Life is not pass/fail. It's not about getting a certain grade for social life, or any other aspect of life for that matter. You are not a failure. Not having friends worsens depression, depression inhibits the ability to make friends. It's a cycle that needs to be broken, and I recommend getting medical help to tackle depression. Eventually you will get to a point where it is easier to make/maintain relationships, even if it that progress seems small at first. Keep up the fight.", "rp_id": "e10kvyw", "seeker_post": "Should you kill yourself if you have no social life?. Should you kill yourself if you have no social life?", "sp_id": "8sl68s" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "in the exact same boat, my ex just left me because of my depression, and I had told her how I had attempted before but had those thoughts since which was like 4 years ago but she freaked out and constantly kept thinking I was going to do something and now I never wanna tell people about any of my depression problems again.", "response_post": "in the exact same boat, my ex just left me because of my depression, and I had told her how I had attempted before but had those thoughts since which was like 4 years ago but she freaked out and constantly kept thinking I was going to do something and now I never wanna tell people about any of my depression problems again.", "rp_id": "e30xph0", "seeker_post": "I've opened up to 2 people in my life and I never saw either of them again. Makes me not want to ever open up to anybody, these people were my best friends at the time and now I won't open up ever again because that person will leave me too and I can't afford to lose any more people in my life.", "sp_id": "91uaxv" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Yeah. How I wish I had a good job to support my parents. How I wish I had a place on my own to focus on relationships. How I wish I was my love-interest's focus", "response_post": "Yeah. How I wish I had a good job to support my parents. How I wish I had a place on my own to focus on relationships. How I wish I was my love-interest's focus. So yeah most things don't come out as planed here either.", "rp_id": "d6ymqfp", "seeker_post": "'You never do anything right!!'. Did that ever come across your head?", "sp_id": "4ztdjq" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "if you need someone to talk to, you can add my snap", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "i know music wont help this feeling, but i recommend high highs to low lows by lolo zouai. it helps me feel a little bit more refreshed.", "response_post": "if you need someone to talk to, you can add my snap emma.xlea i know music wont help this feeling, but i recommend high highs to low lows by lolo zouai. it helps me feel a little bit more refreshed.", "rp_id": "eegqnkk", "seeker_post": "Most of my life has been me chasing highs and lows just to feel something. Anything to stop feeling numb", "sp_id": "ahkzpu" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Neither, got drunk to try sleep but instead im going to be sleep deprived and hungover for christmas", "response_post": "Neither, got drunk to try sleep but instead im going to be sleep deprived and hungover for christmas :D", "rp_id": "ecggzjc", "seeker_post": "I can't sleep. I wish I could hear someone singing a lullaby to me", "sp_id": "a932r2" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Tell us more.", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Tell us more. Nothing said suggests so bad.", "rp_id": "eaa8iop", "seeker_post": "you can ignore this. Sorry, I was scrolling through the contacts of my phone to find someone who I could tell without becoming a burden, and I find anyone. The point is I just wanted to say nothing here for me. I know I should value my life, cherish the friends and things I have, and look to the future with hope and anticipation, but I Because at the end of the day, still be me, rotten to my core. And been this way for a long time. had people try to convince me not. But just for once I want to hear someone tell me to do it.", "sp_id": "9zm11s" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "How tall are you dude?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "How tall are you dude?", "rp_id": "dn8n9yo", "seeker_post": "Too short to join the army, too small for clothes, too awkward for jobs, too ugly for a girlfriend.. Too bad so sad, that's what I tell myself.", "sp_id": "7173a5" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Rock climbing! Marathons! Competitive quilting! You're so great at those three things!!! I envy you!!!!", "rp_id": "d0y0j4e", "seeker_post": "All they want me to do is write 3 things i enjoy doing for my job cv. I can't even think of one.. what do I enjoy doing? sleeping, feeling numb inside and sleeping. Dont understand how im expected to work if i cant function. you dont tell someone with two broken legs to get over it and fill out their cv.", "sp_id": "4a7g4v" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Can you open-up a bit to explain? What's the matter?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Can you open-up a bit to explain? What's the matter? Go on, if it's alright with you.", "rp_id": "e0bhu3o", "seeker_post": "Guys it really hurts. I just want it to stop", "sp_id": "8pgzxs" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Maybe it's a defense mechanism you created when you were a child? Maybe if you really searched, it's because on the inside you truly feel inferior?", "rp_id": "d8km9n8", "seeker_post": "I constantly feel morally and intellectually superior to everyone around me, but with no evidence to back up these feelings.. Like, I'll look around me as I sit in lectures or walk around the university campus and think to myself these people are just so stupid, they understand nothing, they're so shallow and empty-headed, and I feel 100% confident in being right, but then I'll try to logically think about why I'm superior (and I'm also 100% certain that I *am* superior), and I come up with nothing. In any quantifiable measure of superiority, I always fail. And yet, I can't shake this feeling that everyone else is inferior to me. I think maybe it's just a gut reaction because of how unhappy and depressed I am, but I don't know. I know that I probably sound like a complete asshole to anyone reading this, but it's how I honestly feel.", "sp_id": "56m7go" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "You know drugs and alcohol is just going to strengthen your emotions. You're just going to feel worse, but I'm sure you already know this..", "rp_id": "d9vy485", "seeker_post": "It won. I guess drugs and alcohol it is", "sp_id": "5cc9vc" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "What kind of connections do you want / need?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "What kind of connections do you want / need?", "rp_id": "dmycf2z", "seeker_post": "So much in life depends on having the right connections. Which includes making new connections..", "sp_id": "6ztcdh" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Please dont, you arent aloneThere will always be someone who will miss you and wont be able to forgive themselves for not preventing it", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Please dont, you arent alone. There will always be someone who will miss you and wont be able to forgive themselves for not preventing it", "rp_id": "daeufxi", "seeker_post": "I want to kill myself. I really do... idk how... I don't want it to hurt but anything has to be better than living a hopeless life owned by someone else", "sp_id": "5eqh4o" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Had the same job for five years? Never taken a sick day? Just been consistently employed for 5 years? Or old enough to even have a five year work history?", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Had the same job for five years? Never taken a sick day? Just been consistently employed for 5 years? Or old enough to even have a five year work history?", "response_post": "Not really sure what you're asking. Had the same job for five years? Never taken a sick day? Just been consistently employed for 5 years? Or old enough to even have a five year work history?", "rp_id": "ee80lzd", "seeker_post": "Is there anyone here who has been constantly going to work for at least 5 years?. If yes, then how the hell do you do it? I hate going to work. I'm quitting jobs soo often.", "sp_id": "agpfjm" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "whats happened anyway", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "starving yourself is slow painful and almost impossible op whats happened anyway", "rp_id": "dhir95f", "seeker_post": "I gave up. I keep making the same mistakes, so I decided to just kill myself by starving myself to death.", "sp_id": "6b029n" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I wish nothing but strength to you to keep on carrying on. This sub right here shows you're not alone in this struggle.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "This is also me, seemingly every goddamn fucking day, too", "response_post": "This is also me, seemingly every goddamn fucking day, too. We may never know how we ended up this way, but hopefully we can figure out how to come out the other end of it. I wish nothing but strength to you to keep on carrying on. This sub right here shows you're not alone in this struggle.", "rp_id": "dvz5owd", "seeker_post": "I hate it when depression becomes the new default. Like you have some good moments here and there, some times it lasts for hours or days, but then back with this really painful chronic depression. just tired, how did I end up this way...", "sp_id": "85pe7c" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Who doesn't?", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Who doesn't? [Except people with abusive families]", "response_post": "Who doesn't? [Except people with abusive families]", "rp_id": "dvw4j8i", "seeker_post": "Does anyone else fear for the loss of a loved one?. I keep having recurring dreams lately about losing everyone close to me. It is giving me terrible anxiety. How do you deal with that?", "sp_id": "85agap" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I just want to feel happy again. been treated like dirt by my father lately, he calls me an attention seeking snowflake.", "response_post": "I just want to feel happy again. been treated like dirt by my father lately, he calls me an attention seeking snowflake. He believe in me, I begged him for mercy, but he only told me to shut up and let me cry for 2 hours straight all alone.", "rp_id": "eak6965", "seeker_post": "Drunk and depressed. Does anyone else just feel the need to get drunk and high in their rooms alone?", "sp_id": "a0t5c5" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I don't have any answers for the girl bit, but getting active in political and activist organizations could help work toward the desired utopia. Maybe you can meet some people with similar interests?", "rp_id": "dmhu9f0", "seeker_post": "All I want is to live in a utopia. Every day I want to take a pretty girl on a date. Just repeatedly do that every day.", "sp_id": "6xq3jd" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I'm really sorry for this.", "emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I'm going through something similar and I have pretty much given up all hope that I am the same as my peers. I am definitely not. I feel as if everyday is a struggle for self acceptance even by myself. Everyday is a day where I am buffeted by my own worthlessness. I try my best, I do. I try my very best to get through. Every day is a drag, but at least its a drag and not a standstill. After a while I forget people exist, really. It's just me and my depression. I don't need any more love from my peers after some time.", "response_post": "I'm really sorry for this. I'm going through something similar and I have pretty much given up all hope that I am the same as my peers. I am definitely not. I feel as if everyday is a struggle for self acceptance even by myself. Everyday is a day where I am buffeted by my own worthlessness. I try my best, I do. I try my very best to get through. Every day is a drag, but at least its a drag and not a standstill. After a while I forget people exist, really. It's just me and my depression. I don't need any more love from my peers after some time.", "rp_id": "dtyw3xe", "seeker_post": "Why am I not good enough to be loved by anyone?. Why? tried so hard and nothing ever works", "sp_id": "7waihc" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Wanna talk about it?", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Yeah also feel numb often.", "response_post": "Yeah also feel numb often. Wanna talk about it?", "rp_id": "dxrczcd", "seeker_post": "Numb.. Just numb. Not sad. Not happy. Just numb.", "sp_id": "8e07qg" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I'll offer some advice and help!", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Tell us more about your predicament", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "The sadness will not last forever. Tell us more about your predicament and I'll offer some advice and help!", "rp_id": "e1i5aef", "seeker_post": "‘The sadness will last forever’. I feel so lonely and empty and nothing is working", "sp_id": "8uu3xd" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I've struggled with abandonment issues most of my life, my fiancee left me last year, my friends and family act like I don't exist and even though I brought that up in the one counselling session I've ever had, I still got turned down for counselling. I tried going private and still got the same result.", "response_post": "I've struggled with abandonment issues most of my life, my fiancee left me last year, my friends and family act like I don't exist and even though I brought that up in the one counselling session I've ever had, I still got turned down for counselling. I tried going private and still got the same result. What does it say when someone with abandonment issues gets turned away by a therapist? You can't tell someone that their therapist cares about them because you care about the kids you look after.", "rp_id": "ea50mi8", "seeker_post": "My therapist discharged me. Lol. Not even my therapist wants me.", "sp_id": "9ywiu1" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "strong explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "Do you not have insurance through your parents' plan? What type of school are you going to?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Do you not have insurance through your parents' plan? What type of school are you going to? If it's a big enough school, it will for sure have resources available for students struggling with mental health issues. Definitely look to take advantage of what they might have to offer.", "rp_id": "e04pt4i", "seeker_post": "What to do when you dont have money for a psychologist?. I dont work... I am starting college, and I really wanted to consult with someone, but i dont have money, and a psychologist isnt that cheap, so the question really and is not just for me what does a person do when it doesnt have money for a psychologist?", "sp_id": "8omvko" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "So far it hasn't gotten better for me, I've just come to accept it. Things that when I was younger would've made me cry or get really mad now just miff me.", "response_post": "So far it hasn't gotten better for me, I've just come to accept it. Things that when I was younger would've made me cry or get really mad now just miff me. For example today I found out that I got ripped off over $130 because of an irrevocable clerical error - that's about 1/3rd of what I make in a week, and I should be furious because this kind of thing happens far too often. But what good will that do me?", "rp_id": "d3gripr", "seeker_post": "Does it ever get better?. It's like two steps forward, ten steps back. It's exhausting.", "sp_id": "4kp9b2" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Literally everyone has. This isn't some unique depression thing that isolates you like a lot of things about depression. Everyone has something about them they don't like, most people don't like what they see in the mirror", "response_post": "Literally everyone has. This isn't some unique depression thing that isolates you like a lot of things about depression. Everyone has something about them they don't like, most people don't like what they see in the mirror, and still a lot fucking despise what they see.", "rp_id": "db8hfpk", "seeker_post": "Have any of you looked in a mirror,. and hated what you saw?", "sp_id": "5ii6v9" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Congratulations!", "emotionalStrength": "strong emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Congratulations! Paycheck incoming. Netflix account incoming. Porn subscri- No?", "rp_id": "d4dtdh7", "seeker_post": "Finally working. After waiting for sometime for a call back I'm finally going to be working after a longer then I wanted vacation. never thought a simple thing could be so uplifting.", "sp_id": "4omg7m" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "i skipped one class today because i don't really get much out of the class, but i forgot that there was 5% of the grade for in-class activities, so i'll probably not skip any more classes", "response_post": "i skipped one class today because i don't really get much out of the class, but i forgot that there was 5% of the grade for in-class activities, so i'll probably not skip any more classes", "rp_id": "df8q8s9", "seeker_post": "Feel like trash, skipped classes today because I just couldn't get myself out of bed. I'm tired and depression is kicking my ass. I really really wish I could get professional help", "sp_id": "60pllq" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I'm kind of the same way. My life sucks, I see no light in the proverbial tunnel but I rather be alive to see how the world turns out than leave my life for nothingness.", "response_post": "I'm kind of the same way. My life sucks, I see no light in the proverbial tunnel but I rather be alive to see how the world turns out than leave my life for nothingness. Disclaimer, I believe that there's no life after death. If you've ever been unconscious you know what I'm talking about, one moment you're awake, the next you wake up somewhere else with no sense of time gaining passed. That but forever is death to me, there's simply nothing, it just ends completely. I rather suffer than cease to exist.", "rp_id": "d4mkh7n", "seeker_post": "I hate the direction my life is going right now, but I love it to be alive. Just wanted to say it...", "sp_id": "4po2yr" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I met my mother and some trans people.", "rp_id": "d4acmqf", "seeker_post": "I have never met any one thats depressed.. I wonder if we are all really good at hiding it, or just bad at noticing other people who are depressed. also what are you guys doing this summer? stay inside and hide as per usual?", "sp_id": "4o43ko" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "One of my friends got better.Honestly I was kind of shocked. I mean, I guess we all dream of someday getting better, but I'd never really heard of that actually happening before.I feel like a worthless failure mentioning my own life. We used to bond over talking about how awful mental illness can be, and I felt like she was a light in the darkness, someone who was weathering the storm with me and who truly understood my pain. Now I feel ashamed because she's moved on and I haven't.", "response_post": "One of my friends got better. Like, not just temporarily felt better, but like, actually got completely *better*. Honestly I was kind of shocked. I mean, I guess we all dream of someday getting better, but I'd never really heard of that actually happening before. She lost a ton of weight, got into a happy relationship, and has half a dozen dogs. And she's *normal* now. Like, not depressed or anxious anymore. She's happy. I'm really happy for her, not just because she's my friend and I'm glad she's not suffering anymore (although that's part of it), but also because it means that getting better really is possible and it's not just some made up dream. But at the same time I feel really awful and sad when I talk to her, because when I hear about how wonderfully her life is going now and how great she's doing, I feel like a worthless failure mentioning my own life. We used to bond over talking about how awful mental illness can be, and I felt like she was a light in the darkness, someone who was weathering the storm with me and who truly understood my pain. Now I feel ashamed because she's moved on and I haven't. I feel like bringing up how I feel now would only make her feel guilty and awkward. It feels like as my friends start to get better and move on with their lives while I remain stuck here making no progress, there's no longer any place for me.", "rp_id": "d5slrmb", "seeker_post": "Has anyone here gotten better and stayed better?. As far as I've been able to tell, no matter if you get better or not, depression will always just come back. Temporary problem, my ass.", "sp_id": "4us4zc" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "Do you want to talk about it?", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Okay... Do you want to talk about it?", "rp_id": "dyo9k5u", "seeker_post": "Tired. enough todaying for today. Im done.", "sp_id": "8i1u6v" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "You arent. I can only speak for myself here but I sometimes get stable enough to motivate myself to lessen my consume of electronics and be productiveHowever those ups usually dont last long cause its easy to trigger me into collapsing again.", "response_post": "You arent. I can only speak for myself here but I sometimes get stable enough to motivate myself to lessen my consume of electronics and be productive instead and read, tidy up and continue learning the language ive been working on. However those ups usually dont last long cause its easy to trigger me into collapsing again. The only way out is gettin a potent therapist or the right pills I guess", "rp_id": "e3np7fj", "seeker_post": "im in a contsant cycle of going from''i want to improve myself'' to ''fuck life i just want to sit home be miserable and do nothing''. i hope im not the only one feeling this way", "sp_id": "94to2s" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "I'm with you. Let's take it one day at a time.", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "weak explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "What can we do today that will help?", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "I'm with you. Let's take it one day at a time. What can we do today that will help?", "rp_id": "dd9uxhr", "seeker_post": "The next 2 days are going to be hell.... ...and then it will probably take me a fucking week to recover. It's horrible indeed when an unexpected episode hits but right now I feel like forseeing it is worse. Ugh.", "sp_id": "5rsrzt" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "weak interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I feel the same.", "response_post": "I feel the same. I wish I could see all the people in public who feel this way because I bet a lot of the people like you or me who feel like this could be friends because we understand something about eachother that no one who felt that way understands.", "rp_id": "eemqrfq", "seeker_post": "Alone. I feel like I fit in any group,like in school or work nor my family, alone and I belong to any. just me in my own world and everyone is turning around.", "sp_id": "aicmmf" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "I know exactly how you feel. I can't get myself to study or do any work. Sometimes it really makes me worry about my future, and other times I think", "response_post": "I know exactly how you feel. I can't get myself to study or do any work. Sometimes it really makes me worry about my future, and other times I think Am I even planning on staying here that long?", "rp_id": "e5t02dc", "seeker_post": "zero motivation. go to classes the last two times i see the point anymore in fact i see the point in anything anymore i just wanna be here", "sp_id": "9f0jbu" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "Is this supposed to be a joke? I apologize if it isn't.. just sort of seems that way to me", "rp_id": "ecpbg9o", "seeker_post": "Help me find a will.... My penis is small, not even prostitues will fuck me for money. 34 and a virgin and my penis is really small and everyone calls me a nerd. probably going to kill myself i have much going for me. I wish I had a big dick...", "sp_id": "aa5i06" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "getting an interview is hardest part and you achieved that! good luck!", "emotionalStrength": "weak emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "no interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "None", "response_post": "getting an interview is hardest part and you achieved that! good luck!", "rp_id": "e7vv4at", "seeker_post": "I have a job interview. I'm about to have an interview. I'm horribly nervous and pessimistic but it is an accomplishment after months of being unable to go outside and feeling like shit. I really hope things go okay.", "sp_id": "9oqaib" }

{ "emotionalPortion": "None", "emotionalStrength": "no emotional reaction", "explorationStrength": "no explorational reaction", "explorationsPortion": "None", "interpretationStrength": "strong interpretational reaction", "interpretationsPortion": "Don't know if it helps in the long run but apps with binaural beats might help. They worked the first time for me, but my body got used to it later on.", "response_post": "Don't know if it helps in the long run but apps with binaural beats might help. They worked the first time for me, but my body got used to it later on.", "rp_id": "e244boa", "seeker_post": "Just want one fucking night of decent sleep. My brain keeps torturing itself while asleep... this is like the 4th night in a row woken up in the middle of the night sweating and on the verge of a panic attack. The one tonight was about insecurity and not having the ability to stand up for what I was passionate about. Not that I want to but that I strong enough too. Idk why this always happens. My concious mind I can usually handle okay, but my sub-concious mind absolutely wrecks me. Anyone else deal with this or have any tips?", "sp_id": "8xm604" }