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0 | golden boy opinion one sleeper lost treasures animes there sexy comedy young man quest find nitch life blunders sort odd jobs somehow rather sexy girl ultimately falls really realizing it truly something easily miss name viewing itwill fall comedysilliness lies inside truly crime produced ova episodes pilot movie made however unique is im surprised survived produce many want good laugh high quality anime cgi free check anime out boy one day may save worldor maybe not |
0 | one really gives fuck thinking honestly one seems care much iim second option |
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1 | im rough patchi persistent depression anxiety persistent depression continuous severe sometimes flairs though get major depressive episodes im afraid starting another one those episode last almost year got beginning take medication im afraid happening again cant live kind pain past days really rough ive depending weed still taking medicine regularly maybe much supposed taking twice day take religiously morning didnt wake crying morning least thats worst kind day today im dull cant go anywhere really much ive wanted hurt again point want live |
0 | seen many wong karwais movies happy together fallen angels ashes time knew expect coming theatre cinematography would lush use space perspective would varied acting would superb least one characters would consumed ineffable loneliness are all precisely techniques make wong karwais art is expecting degree drawn film reviewers dismissed unfinished compelled characters seemed consumed ennuibr br i find interesting people utterly unmoved film vividly displays emotions settings many us take granted work ardently forget overwhelming sense grief stemming betrayed guilt aroused thought becoming better betrayer mundane yet profoundly intimate moments relationships need express oneself verbally utterly superfluous wong karwai attempts portray film achieves wellbr br too many americans consumed need every moment film filled stock dialogue witty banter disaffected sarcasm overwrought confessions seem pinnacle best american film offer wong karwai sees things differently instead character needing keep audience apprised every feeling perception belief wongs characters make feelings understandings known clearly facial gestures body positioning and yes silencebr br if viewers merely contemplate film standpoint character development action may disappointed offer willing let try intuit characters feeling may feel quite differently wong offer them |
0 | deadass wants kiss kiss u rn lips go date u mall go spencers hot topic plz |
1 | long history mental illness suicidal thoughts that interests diagnosed bipolar ii disorder first hospitalised diagnosed borderline personality disorder traits top upon second hospitalisation also tried and obviously failed attempt twice today different though today learnt new way make attempt looking one everyday week year since mind racing things need funeral afterdeath arrangements keep hitting block what happens fail again anyone tried failed attempt knows end feeling like loser even little worse before case even hangover uni work submit times easy hide fact would made attempts life way seem like case scared found forced hospital third time row looking advice get away it know rules thought could vent here done good job isolating everyone reaching nuisance sick therapy please ask is share perhaps start swan song |
0 | opening scene movie pretty incredible ive seen number scifi movies great special effects roommate looked opening sequence said plainly sensory overload plot movie pretty simple nice thing scifi movie lets audience figure technology instead wasting time subtly explain it creatures movie also interesting get really good look two thirds way through overall entertaining movie |
1 | feeling nothing worse feeling sadi want feel something ive never known like this want escape fucking prison cant brain this cause chemical imbalance makes want kill itself it please let feel something want want feel |
0 | without doubt one neil simons best plays turned movies full great characters memorable dialog johnathan silverman makes great screen version young eugenehe played matthew broderick stagethis first simons autobiographical trilogy followed wonderful biloxi blues closes tv movie broadway bound say movie flaws would maybe characters sometimes usually speak obvious dialog thats alright great dialog rent little gem sorry |
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1 | feeling welli tired going life like this know headed towards bad endat point it going tonight next week maybe next year so cant live feelings cant live constant agony selfdestructive behavior anyone talk to im miserable need help want actual face talk to text |
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0 | blythe danner judith ivey deliver wonderful performances jonathan silverman eugene recounts life s brighton beachbr br what makes film good relationships among characters backdrop extremely wonderful family valuesbr br bob dishy marvelous opportunity father clan gives restrained compelling performance patriarch familybr br his sons played jonathan silverman brian dillinger fabulous certain scenes silverman skating hopping im reminded jerry lewisbr br as danner ivey wonderful mannerisms intonation idealism jewish culture beautifully realized thembr br the cinematography wonderful beautiful brighton even inevitability war loomed film rich many typical problems faced families period sense jewish experience family going throughbr br a must see nostalgic buffs us believe strongly family values |
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1 | feel little less sadi posted couple days ago ended one best things ive done found someone helps feel alone still wanna die pretty regular basis ive got good people now wanna say thank getting day got lot messages helped got talk someone else openly redflag without feeling guilty trapped really nice wanted encourage help please know make difference |
0 | sometimes forget havent publicly told age not happening anytime soon tell pretty much anyone dm |
1 | im going hang myselfim tired cant stand alive anymore give up hopeless |
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0 | one scary moviebr br brad pitt deserved oscar thisbr br a traveling novelist played david duchovny xfiles fame girlfriend pick two hitchhikersjuliette lewis brad pitt way california br br on way stop infamous serial killer murder scenes photography scenes upcoming book duchovnys character working on little know disturbed serial killer history country sitting right next car |
0 | yall ever meet someone start messaging theyre ok first turn absolutely insane yes pls tell abt delete k karma account cuz guy psychopath scared gonna look city cuz couple hours away change appearance case never gave personal info phone number family members names high school anything like first name age name city live damn tryna make friends always gotta backfire even changed way type account case hes still looking notices similarities crazy man paranoid longest time retrospect overreacting yeah never trying make reddit friends lol tried look username see saying anything think account got deleted something good thing anyways tell stories |
1 | today birthday cant live onhi reddit today birthday cant seem feel anything anymore count hours work get home get bed etternally without sleeping therapist im also taking meds for month everyday seems get worse im think life me im failure |
0 | remember windows xp pinball yeah played long time ago feel nostalgia |
1 | really care much life anymoreim full selfhatred im constantly lonely depressed ocd im constantly bombarded evil thoughts im single shitty job enough energy motivation pursue dreams anymore find solace jesus feel like enough sometimes want anymore thats all |
1 | wrote something down would combined enough kill mei overdosed times beforebut nothing seems ever work careful calculated stealing random pills relativescopied notes svelta mig tvr til rjr vikur fyrst gera etta allt tman maga paracetamolacetaminophel mg hjartamagnlacetylsalic acid mg quetiapin actavis mg dimenhydrinate mg prednisolone actavis mg wellbutrin veit ekki mg concerta veit ekki mg alprazolam mg tylenolibuprofen gr kkan kassar af sru sterkt fengi poki yfir hausinn herbergi ea elliarrdal |
1 | im alone homeless living tent woods eaten days conversation someone weeks sleep hours day due paranoia schizophrenia sleeping woods actually terrifying non stop anxiety feels like im going heart attack im edge time get moment relax breathe without worrying loneliness definitely worst part someone call literal fantasy fighting impossible im ready give up see point continuing see future this |
0 | free cuddles rona anyone preferably girls cuz im better girls guys too wants cuddle rona comment pls d requirements must pedophile must nice person must fully vaccinated must teen preferably girl guys allowed |
0 | idea whats idea be im gonna mercy shouldve picked mercyyyy im gonna kind support ended losing fault tears live |
0 | boyfriend requirements male optional strongly recommended alien required |
0 | number game truth dare im bored wanna talk anyone wanna number game truth dare dms anyone wants talk thats fine lol |
0 | theres cranefly room someone come get me im scared |
1 | wish people would stop telling life worth living try understand feelim asking encourage end it wish someone literally anyone would empathize minute say get it say understand hard keep living know wrong want die know need help know life purpose empty statements made people seem like actually care seeing angle ive chosen method added supplies need cart amazon chickened place order know really intention actually using it want comfort knowing need way out need people tell im right thing getting supplies go also wish someone would tell get even want feel better know easy wish someone would understand tired feel constantly waking face thought going another day enough wear out sure want posting this feel alone im scared myself im scared ordering things want time want anything want everything stop want over know anymore |
1 | im going die im awful failure cant improvethis first time reddit sorry mess things up think supposed use throwaway account stuff like this reference im nearly turning want turn im bad person ive failure while today day failed one thing want fail in year failed everything imaginable used student yet somehow im getting fs now ive gained lot weight worked out moved year today lost friends lot online friends ive removed all today made best friend hate me ones believed ones me today stopped friends ones ever felt comfortable venting around wanted return since theyve dealing mental health stuffthey used vent me stopped couple days ago started venting listened asked keep going pushed far hate me thought blocked email started vent there think could see it since thought blocked me didnt talked wished still friends the felt lonely guilty talked little wanting die said hated asked them want fail friend thing want fail in yet failed haete now ones left would care family feel like enough want live anymore thing stopping im sure die yet think figure out want friends anymore ill hurt too think improve since could have wouldve point recognize everything ive failure in yet gotten worse year cant vent anyone anymore im completely alone except family even though care me cant trust anymore im going die turn im failure every way imagineable now im even sure im writing since know cant helped genuinely want die now im awful |
1 | im tired tryingfuck this im sick always fucking bad guy genuinely feel like make every effort everything right im easy target people take shit me cant ever person people want fuck it god damn even fucking try long anyway always knew gonna happen im sick people world worth apart |
1 | social interactionthose days upvotes random strangers reddit attention get |
0 | glowstick cracks final defence yet day becomes crippled darkness steals seeping protective light wounds like depraved hole black mass scrambling fir get |
1 | canti know believe anymore anything know im miserable sick fighting it want done want disappear want feel anything anymore |
1 | someone cant get helpi friend female hispanic ive worried year alternates frequently depressed cheerful cutesy demeanor slightly overweight constantly overly worried appearance starving month eating perhaps one meal day family extremely unsupportive tells ugly childish stupid looks me suppose male try encourage much possible really great friend hate see stuck low selfesteem depression last night cut arms i believe first time ever leaving lot marks deep overly hazardous health another step towards suicidal behavior ive friends past year take lives ill anything power help her ive tried get see professional parents say exaggerating take see anyone really know help |
0 | another one films remember staying late watch tv scaring crap impressionable age dooming thereafter life horror movie obsession great movie stands living proof indeed realistic effects cgibr br set isolated base antarctica version seems almost pick original version the thing another world left off american scientists discover decimated norwegian base miles distant everyone dead half charred remains unidentifiable thing left smolder outside compound might offer answers may happened thing brought back american base and late scientists realize alive lethal thing thaws off killing anyone anything crosses path also absorbing them making whoever whatever wants film turns brilliant paranoia piece everyone suspect anyone thing one trusts anyone anymore gone strength security found human beings band together spite differences battle monster group splinters fear rules supreme thingbr br the gore effects absolutely amazing messily realistic could done without dogs head splitting open like banana peel thats animal lover picky kill humans want leave kitties puppies alone sanity reason disintegrate rapidly as one one humans taken shapeshifting alien power film lies paranoia although liked original version prefer one real threat lies within scarier fact cannot seen easily detected forced hiding wrath huge results horrificbr br this one carpenters best films right fog halloween actors give strong realistic performances special effects powerful stand main character film something lover horror genre miss it |
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0 | fellow teenagers want know everything alright much love you |
1 | ever wish someone would kill wouldnt itpurposefully running around late night shady places paying attention nearing roads almost accidentally getting hit car |
0 | today th birthday longer confines flair |
0 | although remade several times movie classic seeing first time creative dialog unique genius final scene deserves credit critics given it highly recommended one best comedies recent years |
1 | tired fighting tired feeling worthless tired struggling give up done waiting end feels like come ready die feels like forced stay here want set free want anymore |
1 | think timedo ever look way back first posts subreddit wonder people still alive really hope found way out think people time man makes really wonder truly god answers wishes prayers guide others path happiness |
0 | get political dont think women black people property anymore |
0 | theres shortage bad dialogue david bathsheba i quite hand slingshot the king israel darkness exposing enemy full marks dennis hooey delivering one straight face go sit concubines somehow doubt bored david ever told prophet nathan whatever say even tries old my kingdom understand me routine desperate housewife bathsheba one point probably tribute henry kings direction film bad despite pitfalls much first third provide maybe censorbaiting nature plot married man kills femme fatales husband gets away it king brings growing moral theological complexities phillip dunnes script rather upping sin sandals hokum conflicted david downhill slope abandoned vengeful god longer understands film back away awkward unanswerable questions loving deity would choose wreak vengeance innocent rather guilty even offers genuinely surprising criticism sexual inequality law failings husbands result punishment wivesbr br unlike king david sidelined king favour admittedly interesting saul david firmly centre drama despite interesting display shoulder twitching frankly gormless overlong closeup visiting site saul jonathans death gregory pecks performance grows stature david shrinks susan hayward pure hollywood pro raymond massey appropriately theatrical prophet why naturalistic got voice makes heavens quake kieron moores uriah intransigent unreconstructed chauvinist cant exactly blame david putting harms way despite threatening soft peddle film allow david moral get jail free card death surprisingly strong subdued design technicolor photography definitely cut ss biblical epicsbr br foxs new dvd good transfer including incredibly hokey candid behindthescenes short trailer brief shots deleted films sole battle scene |
0 | im constant suffering doctors say theres nothing wrong really annoying |
0 | depression ya teacher f worst hate cus gave even new could homework fullest strong feeling hates ya pls advice gains depression thx |
1 | redflag hotline called copsi often feel suffered suicidal thoughts entire life encouraged call redflag hotline ever felt need talk someone well did called cops cops couldnt find house dropped neighbors asking me cops finally find knocked door opened it several neighbors standing across street watching cops ems truck parked driveway cops wanted name police file cops said anyone could access file wanted get story thats that neighbors talking theres police record never ever ever call redflag hotline again regardless feel im suggesting dont call youre really danger youre calling need someone talk to dont surprised life really messed afterwards police come chat ps first didnt want give cops name threatened put cuffs arrest take station told was live small town neighbors really nosey local cops know am thinking moving shame feel tremendous calling redflag hotline left redflag called ironic |
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1 | hate cannot talk problems friends family say want help things start get real longer want listen mention suicide longer want there worst part whenif actually go it would first people say reached help want someone try understand feel come from want family understand least attempt understand anyone else feel way families comfortable listening you hate cannot talk |
0 | sad hours usually ignore emotions people really getting me im also great expressing emotions situation know jokes digging way brain |
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1 | title says worked hard starting graduated high school get place work live own obviously many many set backs life general incredibly unfair complex me worked hard so hard hopefully end journey two years living job enjoy found then work working myself ampxbbut get enjoy future climate change politics instability world right now makes fear able to live first world country soo much thankful for good food family good uni enjoy life lot life still taken hard work redflag things work out self confidence destroyed long ago working restoring yeahh afraid world go shit feel like hard work put worth it would wasted years per se good moments sure went lot get thereampxbany comfort truth speaking would much appreciated everything went through hard work world going fear may get enjoy it |
1 | im scared myselfthe thoughts keep getting worse know tell distracting try school work cant it want die really badly ive feeling way long idea called recently realized want die birthday yesterday turned wish never born body celebrate with body tell anything think parents care really wish did theyre mean me really hurts know im wanted where hurt said accident nobody helped me tried little want try more want done for think go anymore im scared feel like myself even know myself is think go much longer |
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1 | since posted hereeverything felt like could cope since last post gran died yesterday told idiot feeling way unrelated things thought dad finally done something nice dug vinyl basement ive talking past two years turns sister suddenly shown interest today feeling great me feel fucking stupid feeling again exactly last post like justified feel way thought could cope now thought id worked now im tired feeling stupid second best feel like matter anyone would difference dead |
1 | psych wards worse prisonwhen emergency psych ward never knew gonna get out terrifying life outside suddenly hold chance explain anyone not anyone cares came learn maybe shouldnt cared didnt value life meant would even less control it utensils gave spoons plastic knives forks dangerous locks bathrooms people walking shit time mirrors trapped knowing leave scary trapped even given chance end life yourself |
1 | im horrible person dont even deserve diebecause dying biggest wish thats it |
1 | need talkim wondering redflag im wondering options im wondering consequences it telling friends effect driving away telling family effect making life harder want tell somebody im thinking redflag would cool could swap stories somebody else needs talk guess pm me post story ill reply mine sure specifics would interesting help |
0 | post hits k likes finally get k karma im super happy huge milestone me havent reddit long guys made welcoming environment im glad part community |
0 | twitch subreddit bad tried making post asking help apparently violated rules stating reddit username looking tutorials hating twitch must soso idk please hate me opinion im saying this dumb |
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1 | therapist decided longer person therapy even though feel unsecure privacy safety dad told shoot myself plan using extension cord random electrical device find it tell life worth living please not heard all mentally tired exhausted dad told get gun shoot myself considering it |
1 | nono pleasures smiles relaxation recreation conversation loneliness interruption deed done more bullet shatters skull |
1 | helpso im finally deciding end tonight now anyone know much losartan mg enough anything successful medical injuries would deal with |
1 | life seem bit pointless anyone else rantive felt suicidal long remember managed keep lid past year since ive busy school personal issues yesterday friends and people love most told want nothing me reason it either love life also confessed loving back drunken mind reject explore university stay tied greatest days lives turned bad wont talk much anymore ive thinking redflag night wrote note relapsed bit listened sad songs read inspiring article commit redflag started realise matter on everything nothing become best profession become rich marry love life meet best friends great life eventually ill die will suffer next years mean nothing end anyway nothing means anything one day one remember life everything gave shit about everything slaved over everything worked hard for gone forever whats point anymore im probably going kill tonight im afraid afterlife go process hanging myself options right now sucks feel pain wash entire body every time press another button keyboard remember life meaningless still cant anything it damn |
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1 | accidentally wrote suicidal monologueive real bitch panic attack tonight kind went trance wrote this im afraid tell thoughts best friend need someone see them would gun im afraid poison practice see many ibuprofen pills swallow gives much time reconsider indecisive gun quick im good making fast irrational emotionally driven decisions know could kill bullet slitting wrists low success rate considering ive never succeeded anything whole life dont feel confident id succeed that could take pills maybe dont swallow many higher success rate ive looked barbiturates think thats marylin monroe used although illegal ordering online sounds scary difficult could never hang myself wont let someone find like thought scary gives chills im hoping gun face still tact back head feel eager throw away life like trash im romantic still want body found beautiful like fallen angel snow white think found remembered kill wont able see that ill gone dont get leave come back one life people may think back fondly anything mark painful memory everyones mind dont want painful memory lost loved one want love want make people feel loved want good things help people fuck sadness hard feel weak dont feel like guess could continue like dont know long handle doesnt get better dont know make get better |
1 | bit since posted good working new job thought would last look good million reasons want stay bed anything something telling go work grind else something bad happen depressed reason work money pay rent barely hold sanity right feel existential dread coming |
0 | judge production hour version released vhs us choppy incomprehensible mess pleasure watching fulllength hour version available dvd uk spellbound deliberate pace growing sense menace mesmerizing amazing visual aural landscape ancient rome never seen before far authentic mostbr br director franco rossi justly celebrated miniseries odyssey miniseries equally powerful bekim fehmiu became screens best ulysses klaus maria brandauer may screens best nero now hoping someday see rossis version aeneid eneide broadcast italian tv br br i undecided version quo vadis powerful one polish miniseries different virtues many ways complement one another certainly either one towers hollywood campriot starring peter ustinov |
1 | im tiredevery day get fix it whatever is fix it job kids lives supposed like mine childhood supposed like mine supposed suffer broken guilt feel brought world mom breaking back died tried kill teen feels like mistake survived died got anyone else involved fucking mess mistake lived |
0 | finished drawing going post it realized pictures weekends rip its anything super impressive dumb little __ character use represent myself |
1 | suicidal heres personal story im even world think am think probably bestory part feel free skip tldr ive accused suicidal since high school friend mine committed redflag boarding school soon after accused suicidal ideation school wanted remove remaining sinners i atheist religious school prior foster care attacked daily abusive foster mother accused foster children conspiring made public grabs attention for foster parent apparent disabled children bullied school held back segregated classroom sat alone room till state shut program down brought back normal schooling segregated due bullying eventually sent religious boarding school foster parents started watching crime programs started reading biased psychology books got pretty weird ideas heads attacks children increased teenage masterbation sign psychopathywitchcraft bullied made loner therefore psychopath thing bullied affluent teachers found foster care rejecting religious doctrine made satanistwitch meditation to cope abuse type satanism anxious around violent attacks proved disorganized thinking and attacked violently humiliated punishment thinking going so catch bullied forcibly dressed geeky goodwill clothes meant trying look ridiculous attention people forcibly dressed them school tormented staff peers two specific bullies in school one eventually got expelled behavior often joked murdering me claims remember fabricate wild stories justify behavior example tried give food from younger aggressive brothers stash gave small portion homeless guy outside bus station going boarding school bully slapped down called fake christian main reason bullied aggressively competitive another reason fact christian often used excuse torment me punched lights out walked away bathroom see damage was came back sitting attractive girl asked crying brother chuckled told spazz myself laughed me eventually expelled younger brother caught dvd containing porn normal porn violation schools rules dean which often harassed abused powers make life living hell demanded come office answer crime biased towards brother the athlete school bully even gave condo room forced live childrens dorms complaints criminal bullying that catch im child fight im psychotic do said possession s law punish whomever found on told could punish whomever spirit told to called preacher two accused suicidal stated abuse power accusing people lead friends redflag which meant unlike going stand it hence sitting correcting them said friend committed redflag changing school policy teens previous mental health problems other sins would admitted school locked bedrest quarantine three days without food water bathroom break told parents caught porn threatened commit redflag really course one stuck me told teens christian allowing people bully till day adults people believe extreme social segregation order got job pizza parlour things looking younger brother showed demanding free pizza refused leave start try coercion get free pizza saying he give brother free pizza hes mentally ill hes bipolar fuck hell spaz you boss told leave soon people worked started bullying made demands else would lie acting mentally ill refused start sticking day clothes toilet shoes ended roof etc relationship coworker went south yelled work police called fired it affluent area ran screaming also attracted attention admit fight stupid nothing insane said said i cant believe slept chick over job hunting landlord owned slimey porn store apartment the apartment religious foster father forced into even shirt pushed car screaming me started demanding extra cash declined started making accusations like smoking apartment i never smoked still dont letting strangers ridiculous eventually called intercom called smartass told gun family refused pick phone later would claim never attempted contact them left town bounced around awhile met back one biological sisters moved condition got job week week later started realizing save enough started yelling needed get another job tried managing two job calendars without transportation hard second week came knife stating told boyfriend wanted stab i said slap her bf obsessed interpreting everything either us said extremely violent manslaughter happened family also minor lisp blamed on constantly misread every word people said violent terms eventually realized mistake tried make amends point angry life ended friends house girlfriend wanted threesome left circled back year later found evicted without notice friendlandlord wanted live father we yelling match that police called turned sour bounced around found homeless chicago police dhs homeless sweeps wealthier gentrifying neighborhoods partly due gentrification partly mayors plan get rid homeless campaign forced shelter us sign i homeless because cards filled out card torn lectured told get funding mental illness drugs alcohol checked redid card themselves knew forced shelterplus care program told feign sorts illnesses sent sistercenter heavily relied shelters referrals keep afloat whole deal called warehousesocial services pillmill specialized bum diplomas meaning get use medicaremedicaidgrant claims get ssdissi public benefits otherwise get threatened institutionalization the cycle police pick back cycle begins again left sisterprogram a mental health center abusive therapist called made fake redflag threat police arrived see fuss since joking around friends came in sro landlord also testified always seemed fine like social service mental health care agencies treated me like piece meat used gain access grants etc eventually one agencies got shut able record director social services admitting illness claims grants scam let leave without incident threatened send social security administration eventually left according social workers given option leave get fired fled california great deal abused people hoping quite foolishly still happy hippy land cool bros many us remembered seeing tv movies stupid know thinking could chill there stroke my second eventually found cool little place beach problems started one roommates lost job three times row drunk work started screaming lyrics songs am back porch police called eventually started dragging homeless tweakers sleep floor back porch money dragging recycling cans hopes making rent one roommates started using heroine again dragging druggies friends eating personal groceries helping cash savings one night stress bad bit shattered one teeth decided going evict them went much smoother though yes yelling occurred police called people actually apologized first time life score point california tried get tooth fixed current public insurance cover it switched one quick internet search went interview phone decided go regular check get referral dentist see whole hmo thing worked asking kind insurance plan got it ended back psychiatric office speaking another unqualified biased social worker interview went bad listen me refused help dentist issues even though theyre hmp dental program ties brought back feelings program chicago get feeling head three months later try calm taking hot shower slip fall i see white soap white tub wear glasses shower smacked head started seeing white flashes stars eventually pain reminded beaten school home started flashbacks called asking help due psychiatric emergency which recorded video knew trust system point oversight biased laughing hanging said im psychiatric emergency happened three days sat pain vomiting myself moments consciosness roommates home periods awake eventually police came told taken unless suicidal wasnt prompted immediately state falsely accused suicidal before asked insurance card weird took station er hours er whisked away mental hospital listened to quotedmined directly lied about told lack adls insight judgement treated inhumanely told sign voluntary status days else would petition court keep there fear confusion broke crying reporting everything family told accused of told confession allowed prove via emails informaiton flaws report mentioned thinking abuse suffered home got roommates stated never realized gone tried reporting abuses state appointed outpatient therapist refused make eye contact me refused listen exploitation claims told foster care thing blame rather aggressive looked online afterwards found degree psyd specialized blaming foster care ptsd tried reporting abuses suffered time police er hmo hospital stuck protecting reputation members told video witnesses contradicting reports matter time period turned reddit sympathy everyone said lying exaggerating called aggressive delusional refused blame exploitation abuse got fed called ssa complain and make requests told lying later confirmed accurate told right something must wrong head told recently gotten hospital stupid head fine called police checkup me police said fine decided take one guts told to chained bench mental health officers started accusing superquick succession trying trip laughing me kept straight face corrected whole time kept laughing accusing totally unreal took break came back told definitely suicidal placed permanent care liar psychotic lying them said going sent away life said suffered illnesses never even accused of claimed record lies awestruck asked passing officer speak admin mental health officer interrupted said leave we leave another minutes er said anything asked suicidal said no checked yes anyway finally mental hospital hours later deny suicidal ideation psychiatrist signed out although rn demanded stay needed sure stats psychiatrist looked confused said free go way rn lectured questioning authorities forced outpatient care via mental health law california included talk therapy told make reports abuse learn cope recent abuse one point told see good abusers exploiters she used adolf hitler example recorded another therapist told complacent abuse happens admit everything anyone acuses appease abusers hope would leave alone left hmo complaints hmo hospitals police etc met doubt aggression took year one one them allow hippa enforced corrections record police dropped internals affairs case oig said went interested came back reddit lambasted called psychotic delusional etc tldr antiredflag part so abused bullied exploited lied about victim blamed threatened etc completely damaged record feel suicidal never felt suicidal easy secret religious egotistical magical even special goals human history let explain goals always have goals always future even worst case scenario goals always important goals part defines you people accuse of look ive little rough patch babynonsense compared humans already gone through jungles deserts crossing deserts mountains wars genocide slavery even things like cannibalism braving certain death freezing cave humans lot durable lead believe combining knowledge humans survivors concept multiple sometimes changing goals define closest thing purposefulsoul combination history forward thinking powered knowledge even biggest pigheaded egotists change mind system would change one day many ways has days changing even faster like think quicker system messes up quicker realize errors till waiting game right spend time telling truth internet hopes people talk problems less abuse exploitation doubted try speaking logic epistemology reason critical thinking evidence hopes one day world better place people survive did im claiming world gold rainbows im absolutely claiming perfect still ptsd episodes i even one today told telling story bs im saying hang there wait things out pick hobbies maybe ill even see california one day plan marching golden gate bridge holding antiredflag prosocialchange signs handing fliers asking people hurt themselves help change world instead theres anyone needs change system effected witnessed dirty underbelly professionals politicians academics deny said forgive accept forgiveness get change possible half life nurture overinternalize the crafty turn faults strengths were dust end never attribute malice attribute ignorance conditioning years renewed we want things improve ironically hate change people taught epistemology must seek give back much give much if one change one grow unwillingness change chosen limitation thank god missed train met wife next one when elders say if could again listen at end day king pawn go back box the mature expect utopia expect learn time makes fools perfectionist watch makers peace homeboy ego_by_proxy |
1 | life bad last years beg read this hello know subreddit existed im glad found it im sure heard story like many times before know else talk this quite long apologize well written knew sort life would much easier tell story years old since life borderline unbearable started fitting school resulted dropping out went another school year knowing anyone older everyone else making feel bad went psychologist found needed change therefore went vacation myself making music years later met love life reason knew the one pardon tackyness great time together year suddenly told work her absolutely broke heart moved home town get away her moved apartment people knew one night drinking myself came home talked one girls lived with ended sex month told pregnant going keep it think life could get worse point happened like before moved another city dont worry visit daughter every week live bergen norway met great people ive got good friends here things turned little better never money rent expensive live norway expensive bills addition barely survive money earn job winter realized havent felt happy since years old completely forgotten feels told parents this expected theres much do except lending money every which would never ask barely support themselves problems might seem big you assure get bad stream problems every little thing adds one drop cup smallest problems enough tilt me one thing theres girl really like class smart pretty share alot insterests taste music boyfriend years would never destroy relationship know likes makes confused last couple months shared time together stuff enjoy like playing super nintendo going concerts one day actually felt happy again one person makes life worth living boyfriend know problem cant solved way patiently waiting see decides break him hard hold day goes without thinking ending all thing stopping feel responsibility daughter reason also fading away get depressed seing friends graduate getting good jobs happy relationships good economy good lives general feel treated unfairly want feel happy again tldr long story life slowly becoming unbearable please take time read it desperate someone reply edit know why felt like adding link music httpwwwmyspacecomlunsjmusicplaylistslnsjsplaylist |
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0 | theres shortage bad dialogue david bathsheba i quite hand slingshot the king israel darkness exposing enemy full marks dennis hooey delivering one straight face go sit concubines somehow doubt bored david ever told prophet nathan whatever say even tries old my kingdom understand me routine desperate housewife bathsheba one point probably tribute henry kings direction film bad despite pitfalls much first third provide maybe censorbaiting nature plot married man kills femme fatales husband gets away it king brings growing moral theological complexities phillip dunnes script rather upping sin sandals hokum conflicted david downhill slope abandoned vengeful god longer understands film back away awkward unanswerable questions loving deity would choose wreak vengeance innocent rather guilty even offers genuinely surprising criticism sexual inequality law failings husbands result punishment wivesbr br unlike king david sidelined king favour admittedly interesting saul david firmly centre drama despite interesting display shoulder twitching frankly gormless overlong closeup visiting site saul jonathans death gregory pecks performance grows stature david shrinks susan hayward pure hollywood pro raymond massey appropriately theatrical prophet why naturalistic got voice makes heavens quake kieron moores uriah intransigent unreconstructed chauvinist cant exactly blame david putting harms way despite threatening soft peddle film allow david moral get jail free card death surprisingly strong subdued design technicolor photography definitely cut ss biblical epicsbr br foxs new dvd good transfer including incredibly hokey candid behindthescenes short trailer brief shots deleted films sole battle scene |
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0 | usual day start point place wisconsinbr br first all red tyrannical father forman family wwii veteran sits kitchen table reads newspaper overjoyed wife kitty serves breakfast comes skinny son eric sits table well father starts daily yelling usually involving placing foot erics behind insert reason here promiscuous angelfaced sister laurie home comes along red stops yelling kindly talks her making eric feel left familybr br once daily painful ritual over eric rushes basement friends already hanging out get see them becomes obvious eric redhead tomboy girlfriend nextdoor neighbor childhood friend donna pinciotti sanest people around meet steven hyde conspiracy theorist hates disco really care whats around long funny watch michael kelso kind guy thinks get life looks carrots grow trees jackie burkhardt one thinks prettiest girl around spoiled kid rich father and course cheerleader fez naive oversexed foreigner loves candy cant keep secret first simply hang out gossiping making fun kelso sit circle let real fun begin going something theyll regret laterbr br meanwhile red goes meets donnas weirdo parents bob midge hes rude mind think hes joking somewhere around leo aging hippie whos constantly confused makes word plays without even noticingbr br did imagine seemingly peaceful neighborhood awesome characters course seem clichd show takes clich new level throw wicked story lines sitcom offer sit enjoy one best tv shows ever one never two times thing is compared sitcoms cute funny purely hysterical get hooked let show let go bite hook and man see sitcom genre whole new prospective |
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1 | think ityou know loved much carried entire year owe much tried commit redflag last month took lot pills ive called paranoid blamed bipolar suggesting friends knew something didnt know right seeing guy lied encouraged anyway friend told last month said ever something like hed personally beat death care false hope kept going gone i still love her always given me since worth think time love would never ever blame her kept alive long |
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1 | starting feel like endive married years give take last wife affair guy try leave move on keeps coming back guilt decided go back lost jobs day thanksgiving lucky enough land two interviews get offer day thanksgiving least today told offer rescinded signed anything yet dealing suicidal thoughts number years aside lack funds dealing personal issues also fulltime student working towards degree years left earn it lost motivation still continue study complete assignments live area job market great could due holidays sure made plan wrote notes tried even talk think getting closer finally ending all son pretty much focusing future even moved back moms finish final year school mother keeps telling im fighter survivor get anything fight years old yeah young spent life working taking care wife could get degree left days later came back months left mom got cancer motives guy claims keeps wanting end side relationship healthy previous job became toxic group employees like guy me accused affair playing favorites making work environment hostile primary person reported someone worked with least month longer made comments asking still favorite prior never reciprocated smiling going day entire department turned scared making wild claims false even started looking work immediately grounds borderline sexual misconduct pursuing career cybersecurity could affect future things like made feel like secret clearance jobs required trustworthy employee going grasp panicked another complaint came department saying texted someone outside work called beautiful got mad reciprocated office full women healthcare environment felt like management everyone suddenly buying it point coo told if feel need go one making stay here said blue investigation spoke people outside work even got legal advice much could done without evidence proof slandered completely cut ties everyone felt like toxic untrustworthy environment made matters worse let go not cultural fit difficult understand things went wrong fault way keep telling nothing needed apologize for every day passes get calls anyone interviews etc makes feel like given sign give up little money unemployment keep roof head long wife left coming back help me little family struggling themselves idea cope much last jobs toxic like was maybe sign dunno |
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0 | love show watch reruns every day even though seen like time eachbr br its two sisters holly amanda bynes val jennie garth live new york holly goes live val dad transferred japan val perfect life boyfriend perfect apartment upper east sidebr br the show basically shows problems vall holly go through main problem guys also responsible life choicesbr br holly total free spirit val complete opposite organized plan anything kind personbr br the characters henry vince gary lauren tina |
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1 | good move noi ended contact best friend starting today order get better matter many times tells otherwise accept gay male around even thought him puts extreme turmoil could bad move correct way get mind throwing life away maybe give months realize decent individual deserve treated less ive considered redflag due many problems one alone logical thinker able follow through easy starting new life new people would awesome |
0 | carl brashear cuba gooding jr born sharecroppers deep south joins navy whereupon tells father back father gives old radio brashear leaves navy bus valuable thing unemotional father taught was never quit recommendation white commander powers boothe admires drive guts gets sent navy diving school bayonne nj endures harassment pals uniform trainer chief navy master diver billy sunday robert de niro commanding officer called pappy hal holbrook has almost many loose screws old car want make drop out prejudice quite fiercethe dangers diving prove setback loses leg due accident board ship despite setback tells wife train achieve objective help billy sunday now joined commiseration sufferings train able become first black navy diver artificial limb despite skepticism highly mocking doubtful captain navy department hearing washington dc determine meets criteria inspirational movie showing determination overcome odds |
1 | struggle constantly laughsmile every months seconds sounds right life even once |
1 | even feel like personthe older get realize im meant alive cant anything normal theres excuse it cant talk people like normal person does cant even work dumb jobs without fucking every aspect it belong less less every year cant believe used good smart kid im even worth anything way die without mom feeling sad id gone im freaking sad |
1 | im going crazyplease help me think im going crazy need someone talk to dont anyone help nt want risk put stationry mental hospital phone call would help much |
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1 | slept hours want relapse cannot stop thinking abt got raped everytbint bad parente abuse me hooked drugs going kill myself cannot |
1 | dont wanna die dont wanna live eitheri dont see point |
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