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fastest way kill yourself seriously whether want socialism capitalism become taken extremes robs us civil liberties liberty internet thats it see people holding hands anymore want given free travel like promised never got any fastest way kill yourself parents treat like property rather individual seems pretty apparent want die already ever feel one big experiment run us see react superior being cant explain go sick many times go doctors get healed one suffered most

think anymoremy partner emotionally abusive marriage gone back her second time first time thought stronger helping friday knew happening messages got home told loved called day seemed like genuinely changed loved him said loved hurt one us apart stuff hich arrange get mom house cold dead empty like want end cant go back unhappy person him helped feel happy gone miss much miss children want die

want scream top lungs methis feeling crippling suffocating im better dead everyone

im dead inside whats left now die physicallymy biggest fear height im minutes jumping window please need someone talk to please

basically itbeen diagnosed borderline personality disorder told wait therapy waiting months apparently get six sessions tried kill overdose two weeks ago got scammed dumb life choices quit job early redflag attempt going start another job th march know im ready money rent council tax honestly feel like jumping bridge methods could try home want something permanent know do live north east england uk

think need say anything elsei fed want sleep broken hopeless hearing voices mentally exhausted

saw film entry santa fe film festival heavy film depiction completely dysfunctional family taken another level extreme might left depressed extreme funny sight gags dialogue along way lightened films overall tone relatively uplifting ending gave hope affected initial tragedy still walk theatre ready go fun party film stayed several daysbr br brought back memories ordinary people humor mixed tragedy thought acting excellent especially sigourney weaver emile hirsh character dealt tragedy times sad selfdefeating also times hilarious clever dialogue situations

hate menobody really seems want around one closest friends forgets text best friend basically said better without life boyfriend now ex broke day myself sexually assaults drinks never respects hes still me tempting reach know doesnt treat well instead reached ex see could get anything found could care less want trying start drug empire hoped posting subreddits getting validation well dms would give something look forward didnt adding one rats passed away fault mom dad think im sleeping couch difficult sleep room since quincy passed really fully made noose intend using it cutting doesnt work anymore usually coping strategies either hurt kms since sh doesnt appeal anymore want need kms dont want hospitalized again doesnt help tried order stuff online give something wake couldnt decide wanted tried reward w donuts months clean second longest ive years ive hurting myself somebody ate all mom didnt want change medicine doesnt think handle it dont even know meant that cant handle switching medicine cant handle meds sounds petty hate myself made promise three years ago still heavily suicidal crying sleep would kill myself matter life turn cant worth this ill likely go redflag closest ive dying since age started tldr everybody better without cant find something live for

im gonna black sleep fuck

anyone wanna chat im bored af anyone wanna chat im m

dark placeim real dark place right now want pain stop feeling hopelessness go away feel like world falling apart cant stop it yesterday got huge fight husband partially fault escalated suffers borderline personality disorder took kids left talked im home still tension today oldest acting bullying brothers punished spanking sent room looked venom told hated me later came gave hug said sorry heart still hurts feel like im failing marriage children best good enough depression anxiety im trying cope stopped taking pills made brain feel foggy im sorry im rambling im sitting bed bottle pills want go sleep

world favor hurts holds down one fights make right pick pieces happened me point keeps putting down second get again point

hot tea hot tea nowi sucking tea bag reason need know rasberry tea

consequences love really something special film hard put finger on love story sorts really one ive seen before several love themes running throughout film one mans love younger woman younger mans love older brother mafias love money costs intertwine story guessing rather knowing end cast superb sophia teasing barmaid straight facedness titta films central character simple yet affective camera work bounced everchanging soundtrack mixes lowfi trip hop lush orchestral pieces style film changes beautifully using several styles without ever getting cluttered love never looked diverse powerful tales told rumble towards various conclusions director married old new rich italian classic

anyone want chat idk like dm u do im probably gonna go sleep soon tho respond im probably sleeping

need help girls boy wants start crossdressing since live super rurally cant ship stuff house way get stuff ask female friend buy clothes pay clothes pay extra help thing dont want friendship weird questions would asked think itll go fine

haha theres red stuff coming wrists wonder happened

hate whenyoure looking painless methods kill yourself google shows bunch sites telling it assure you looking for

horny post second nvm theres nothing say im tired h time lemme happy

actually wrong redflagaside itd family course people cant help disturbed death redflag devastated think pain could cause others that live dont want to life constant struggle difficult fulfilled uphill battle alive daytoday basis extreme mental illnesses dont know id diagnosed therapy hasnt helped far carry relatively well therapist doesnt really investigate ask difficult questions dont think thinks theres anything wrong is objectively something wrong me im happy person im constant pain im pleasant person around irritable moody often terrible mood resting bitch face hell short fuse people dont keep plans care people much hardest time showing it struggle express pain way people understand getting worse dont think want continue life never normal healthy happy person never been

hhs antinestle memes start im happy got see themhow supposed live mean seriously know everyone stopped buying mcdonalds pepsi etc including myself world would better off even that boycott believe in hypothetically one wants fucking power say buy different brand guess what im minor income consume brand parents purchase know care important defeatism highly contagious im already depressed hell knowing childhood raised processed snacks contributed pounds pounds plastic production supply demand well family never letting chance recycle feel like piece garbage making much garbage cant fully blame corporations as much wish cannibalize leaders of us keeping business thinking theyre welcome stay make shit like burger kings unhappy meals gets nothing meme buy extra diabetic cholesterol supreme cheeto burger would mom asks want dinner refuses hear beg us eat vegetable mom cant boss around like that these kids want feed can world falling apart environmentally partially reluctance longer depend offending business im going sit strangling phone charger pass get freedom mom tells take trash third time week much waste groceries produce want stomach hurts even know right complain im too world better without me probably better without lot people murd

thigh highs hot everyone male female inbeetween god look good hilight human firgure look really good

interesting titleim killing tonight rules sub wont load phone feel nothing nowadays often happens odd flashbacks cartwheels bridges handsprings front lawn fathers house loved everything else pointless story everything awful first tome life truly understand nobody love me likely wont die tonight unfortunately definitely dont want anybodys help posting rant im journal space pills oclock forever impelling night everyone there

literally forever started prozac mg like month ago recently started upping dose mg recommendation doctorrecently feeling bit less exhausted depressed never feel optimistic think happiness end go back suicidal thoughts idea expect these anyone share experiences prozacantidepressants relief last forever

watched avatar movie shit disappointment immeasurable day ruined fuck would actually prefer show

previous post ok intending racist want shed light done past never said justifies cops actions heard people public like hes completely innocent man bills even proven counterfeit done this many past im intending racist never thought people would react like that im sorry

im suicidal im tell father need advicei suicidal thoughts six months now last one month tendency self harm increased exponentially left hand mess cuts look horrible even cuts scars previous ones im terrified myself though thankful god none deep enough cut artery even though horrifying urges kill know one thing want die im tell father im say

even fun sad dont know assume people feel way personally dont like jerk off makes feel like crap after get horny dont even like hub stay away too get horny want jerk chore stand sad horny anyone ever feel like this honestly even horny urge

almost died lol friend house rolled sidebyside get staples hit bar sidebyside upside pics message

want talk skype tarkanon voice ill delete hours im boredim american im years old retired im trip around world

anxietymy anxiety bad cant even go hang people get invited get nervous ignore everything stay room end blowing purpose also hate confrontation dont want disappoint saying cant make it many times say phone broke much pressure going getting conversation life fucked embarrassing im horrible person im lonely feel confident around people xanax also know ill never life get boyfriend worse smile cant fixed cosmetic surgery im honestly cursed especially everyone says person prettiest smile well me god give certain people ugly features people beautiful features fair basically ignore people im forced smile life prevents social media would never life use snapchat left huge part society participating social media really want kill myself im figuring logistics it wish knew happened died could feel confident im getting older zero money saved retirement im going die alone poor ugly im looking forward living rest life poor ugly alone id rather go still bit dignity smh thanks reading

haha yall theres fires live one miles away yea seriously im might lose everything thanks fucking idiot point im ready die

usual day start point place wisconsinbr br first all red tyrannical father forman family wwii veteran sits kitchen table reads newspaper overjoyed wife kitty serves breakfast comes skinny son eric sits table well father starts daily yelling usually involving placing foot erics behind insert reason here promiscuous angelfaced sister laurie home comes along red stops yelling kindly talks her making eric feel left familybr br once daily painful ritual over eric rushes basement friends already hanging out get see them becomes obvious eric redhead tomboy girlfriend nextdoor neighbor childhood friend donna pinciotti sanest people around meet steven hyde conspiracy theorist hates disco really care whats around long funny watch michael kelso kind guy thinks get life looks carrots grow trees jackie burkhardt one thinks prettiest girl around spoiled kid rich father and course cheerleader fez naive oversexed foreigner loves candy cant keep secret first simply hang out gossiping making fun kelso sit circle let real fun begin going something theyll regret laterbr br meanwhile red goes meets donnas weirdo parents bob midge hes rude mind think hes joking somewhere around leo aging hippie whos constantly confused makes word plays without even noticingbr br did imagine seemingly peaceful neighborhood awesome characters course seem clichd show takes clich new level throw wicked story lines sitcom offer sit enjoy one best tv shows ever one never two times thing is compared sitcoms cute funny purely hysterical get hooked let show let go bite hook and man see sitcom genre whole new prospective

seen many wong karwais movies happy together fallen angels ashes time knew expect coming theatre cinematography would lush use space perspective would varied acting would superb least one characters would consumed ineffable loneliness are all precisely techniques make wong karwais art is expecting degree drawn film reviewers dismissed unfinished compelled characters seemed consumed ennuibr br i find interesting people utterly unmoved film vividly displays emotions settings many us take granted work ardently forget overwhelming sense grief stemming betrayed guilt aroused thought becoming better betrayer mundane yet profoundly intimate moments relationships need express oneself verbally utterly superfluous wong karwai attempts portray film achieves wellbr br too many americans consumed need every moment film filled stock dialogue witty banter disaffected sarcasm overwrought confessions seem pinnacle best american film offer wong karwai sees things differently instead character needing keep audience apprised every feeling perception belief wongs characters make feelings understandings known clearly facial gestures body positioning and yes silencebr br if viewers merely contemplate film standpoint character development action may disappointed offer willing let try intuit characters feeling may feel quite differently wong offer them

lets suspend belief moment lets stop pretending could might ought know how is ought be space human knowledge area probably primitive say middle ages maps compared todays satellite maps really clue considering just bbc tv docusimulation gets much better many big budget hollywood blockbusters incredible all show worth watching portrays cgi enhanced fictionalized account know solar system far probably fictionalizing cgiing whole thing way make palatable large public ever watched clips real space missions real space probes quality generally average poor comparison would looking chest xray and tells human body compare cgied cyborg moviewhich one would entertaining yet chest xray real cyborg flick fictionalized sfx actors good job none ill tell grandchildren about fair bbc docusimulation

im problemi want cut open dead

dont really wanna live past next birthdaymy birthday coming months ill turning every birthday depressing supposed die years ago nobody even cares im still anyways fact birthday literally ignored throughout whole life ive one decent birthday bittersweet memory lies anyways ive basically given life dont really see future me future envisioned years came crashing destroyed sense reality im also stuck right now parents basically holding hostage feel like loser failure lie people question ride bus dont job still live parents like im lazy stupid dont even know would first thing come mind things cars expensive housing state horrendously high actually problems parents psychotic easier explain ride bus save money gas say im living get enough money apartment fact job once car once apartment too lost things mental illness fucking stupid idiot im stuck parents wont let get job car mental help rather stay suffer homeless again ik im weak rather die point plus ive winging awhile planned dying years ago ever since failed first time future planned bf refer abusive ex severely damaged me lot people severely damaged me wheres punishment wheres damage ive tried think it feel fucking angry it guess caring stupid again also feel like reason killing time stupid last time killed myself ex abused shit felt worthless im scared life people everyday fine cant fucking normal im pathetic

everyone exists chaos level basically sum up amount chaos prone life whole universe something decides born learn live it neurotypicals rich people pretty people etc struggles yes absolutely struggles completely separate type chaos talking about talking type chaos exemplified people like me bad childhood mental illness bad genes etc etc etc ultimately learned cope much possibly can think people like me coping never enough never full month life severely suicidal least week it never true stability like people many areas life shambles cannot possibly change fundamental issues comes actually able happy daily basis people say change completely ignoring word fundamental bullshit people get lucky people try convince us could like kept itwell let tell something people optimistic person know even finish writing this probably smoke bowl watch netflix pass out rest assured suffering begins anew tomorrow always always shred optimism core preventing leaving shitty world yet enough stop constant mood swings listless problems seem face daily basis could look it another way long meds stop working again another psychiatrist leaves cannot this will cannot maybe find hopeful personally another slap face terribly aware unfair life yet able escapei hope browsing subreddit find actually one people manageable amount natural chaos eternal curse constantly managing convince am think finally figured

cant morehonestly feel like ive enough this feel alone many ways life seems grim cruel worth fighting even special life gift something given us force eventually return it death inevitable way avoid longer feel comfort thinking fragile life bullshit end feeling dread overwhelming cant believe ive using fiction cope reality believe simple characters screen words paper one barriers keeping ending all also want fall low enough drugs shit mind long way access since know dealers want cry right since want live deep inside im afraid die ill take chances hope whatever waiting worse this please someone there know even know self sometimes feel like attention feels wrong want know quickest painless method use know bullet head quick enough noose overdose would painful many types medical pills disposal knife neck also seems painful

rest family doesnt want get new covid vaccine live household mother father christian dont believe vaccines they still get complete buttholes wondering guys would choose would a get vaccine b get vaccine reason feel free elaborate comments look forward seeing answers

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brother talks farts pooping excessively annoying like brings farts poops every conversation matter im with random stuff like could like fought guy hed like yeah youd prolly fart him im like thats high reach hed say propel ur fart comedy gold amirite today send coffee looks like poop pls stop big bro embarrassing hes lmao

self harmim curious recently self harmed first time month ago done found hard understand anyone else would it though distract mental pain though psychical pain dont get wrong thats partly dont anyone else way pretend theyre ending all thats do gives rush makes feel good especially thinking thats over im curious anyone else this

rather famous quote show fortress ill show ruin ultramarine probably

im like kids mentallity doesnt allow depressed

end sufferinghave anyone lost feeling meaningless live anyone anyone stopped feeling miserable longer period time suffering past years hoping feelings would disappear however happened im lossing hope better days im basically stuck misery

little success finding one free text therapy apps

n g h n n g h n got school tomorrow this

im beyond helpnothings ever helped me ive never gotten conversation article internet thinking redflag bad choice ive several meds handful mental health professionals either work made feel worse going years going get better because im trapped situation realistic resolution im tired hopeless anything help me broken far past recovery why ive never enough justify fucked head know even matters anymore hope is almost anyone says survived severe depression adds theyre still depressed suicidal just often plan follow come monday felt really lonely

nearly always youi hate good enough live day day trying find things look forward

anything make bearable tried killing many times want kill soon looking reason live reason way make life bearable solve problems which really really cannot right nowi friends cannot enjoy hobbies even bearable anymore desperately looking something make bearable instead killing myself need reason live reason

love cat pickle hate hes cute usually sweet hes kitten sleep lot goes trash gets head stuck potato chip bags make earrings small container jump rings desk theyre different colors around knocked over separate best could oh god thought gonna lose it ran directly window lost tooth got inside geckos tank literally broke lid got inside grabbed could anything else buy new lid chews tuning pegs bass scratched tiddy wore low cut shirt like head butting something hes attacking me literally pooped brothers box spring two days got him thing keeps occupied bubbles still love tho

im feeling extremely lonely cant find anyone enjoys much them give help

ready endi intrusive thought runs head throughout day at least ill dead soon ill dead weekend recently ex dogs came visit sine theyve ive called manipulator piece shit vareity different things obvious person isnt good im tired really considering taking benzos tn along bottle rum taking uber park something let find morning

theres new channel youtube want see gain traction channel justfixitlater really cool guys checked

need talk someone anyone pleasei need talk someone im many talk to got done slitting wrists deep could want more cant talk anyone cause im afraid understand want parents know someone please pm me help out please

friends turn to want alone anymoreis advice give make friends in person

things considered stand aside first time got involved could give description went down im going privacy reasons times able average person tell breakfast lunch dinner snacks given day years ago gets mixed head usually react badly anniversaries incidents involve blamed someone dying

assy mcgee outofcontrol hardnosed detective based countless examples late th century police dramas twist assy literally walking buttocksbr br the cheap lowbrow facade show belies cleverness hidden satire say assy devoid fart jokes toilet humor used sparingly enough elicit consistent laughs groans eyerolls title sequence program demonstrates clever subtle humor used throughout sequence consists panning photos city set jazzy s cop theme one photo police cruiser shown camera zooms front license plate holder vacant meaningless zoomin satirizes production typical ss cop drama and incidentally makes laugh every timebr br all typical characters included frustrated police chief cant control assy loyal minority partner acts foil assys recklessness regular cops detest assys means accounted hilarious satires typical police dramabr br the voice acting primarily performed larry murphy nothing less spectacular assys voicebreathy gruff bit drunken sluris clever unique ranks alongside alltime greats like stewie griffin family guy homer simpson simpsons though voice slurred diction somehow clear easy understand nice change adult swim program voices often require closed captioning understandbr br besides fantastic production voice acting script also hilarious assys no nonsense directness fuels humor particularly interactions citizens outside police forcebr br if access adult swim comedies assy mcgee certainly worth watching episode clocks mere minutes really little lose

high school dropout suffering depression anxiety lonely fuckim life look worse me dropped high school last year due mental health issues school ultimately unable address school behaviorallychallenged children lot really fucking scary people it towered threatened albeit subtly almost every single day could go normal high school would reject me believe tried teachers overworked underpaid lot bullying issues went unresolved one day enough broke crying told really really wanted drop out told you least live oddly enough went home told mom shit suggested homeschooling research found requirements really lax easily abused so there homeschooled reality though nothing play video games watch anime day mind understandable reason dropped out inexcusable sit nothing free time now year later filled even less selfesteem left school constantly suicidal thoughts chronically unable improve myself could make argument could get ged good there probably correct thats im worried about see real life friends want make some hospitalized recently due telling therapist wanted kill myself hospital another kid dropped everyone shat it constantly saying hes gonna end prison never gonna wife job etc saw cry moment got hit much builtup anxiety suicidal ideation returned now stronger ever whos gonna want date high school dropout gonna get well paying nonminimum wage job going make good friends fuck all kill now

plan nnn november starts hours me im gonna nut nonstop dont nut left buy time nut regenerates ill already enough willpower fap checkmate

let go depressed get things around house even take care matter currently many medications work mention made gain weight highest poundage ever been never felt disgusted someone people younger already achieved much including family members friends way catch up job will energy carrots give feel good enough receive think live like always grasping straws fumbling scared feel pain die do damage done horrific irreversibly broken time go

really enjoyed movie dvd collection baseball movies reminded great sport truly is whether america japan

im finally emotionally better place im still want stay still may commit redflag please read understandi work restaurant industry graphic designer wasnt able get recent samples work poo hit rotating oscillator im sure restaurant business isnt going rebound fast everyone thinks many people think going go away things go back normal im sure think damage done im sure future there even things bounce back im sure ill getting call come back severe emotional issues adhd bipolar asd couple facebookinstigram posts mentiong needing samples work may screwed that ive idea wanted samples get work side goes on im told make look like im coming back ive since deleted them im scared ill end shelving groceries walmart heb kroger homeless mean medication id making minimum wage thats enough money eat cheap maybe pay bill id still sleeping street medication mentally ive preparing fact may walk everything own live street medication help id rather die go back im mentally prepared to want it push comes shove will living dead treatment actually feelings now im going back ever thank reading edited punctuation

wow even better expected best animated astrix movie ever feels good hear roger carel voice astrix again surely recommend everyone likes comic books astrix suggest go see french version cause surely best hear original cast know roger carel played astrix nearly forty years think marvelous job song cline dion end fits rally good end credits music good drawings good actors wonderful word masterpiece go see it regret this

im tiredits hard keep fighting have somehow thought id made darkest parts havent live place making depression worse day day theres always something going wrong theres never break all matter try gets worse thought finally managed catch break going able slowly dig way out so much slower tolerable willing trade small resolve left get this knowing could try fix later relapsed self harm eating disorder snowballed depression kicked ass told worth it stood chance getting out gone stupid believed would help me naively fell bullshit got hopes up sent crashing earth soulshattering speeds last chance know way place thats killing me exhausted options family made clear want help help tried get better tried myself fighting wanted digging tooth nail giving pride could make work fell apart cant again ive hopes raised shattered many times past fourteen months cannot handle rollercoaster emotion turmoil longer cant ive tried talk people it theyre busy tonight im depressing ive tried get feeling out nothing working feel empty hollowed full nothingness cannot live like this want alive

lately depressed treated medicines psychiatrist psychologist tired feel diredflaged time lack motivations life could please tell live for god family happy money everything counts judge asking help bc know anymore happy used excited person life want sleep one day wake again so please help showing life special maybe could inspiration me thank lot need help opinion please

ya know probably would really good woman personality feminine basically problem acne

trying talk first time girl likehello idk really post this thing im timid depressive rejected last girl ive tried said shy im trying move forward hard get stuck much every relationship anyways want new crush feel like im shy ive never talked see college spaces common im planning approach say hello see often university seem interesting me would glad get know better name is always overthink first approach let way much time something get depressed uhmm guys think good enough sorry formats english too

really want cat live something so like ive wanting pet long literally since really really young apartment doesnt allow dogs grew older mental health issues started getting worse got psychiatrist decision get therapy dog apartment allows therapy dogs last moment decided wanted cat instead match energy less stress apartment building staff really want kitten im suicidal nowadays need something live problem first kittens expensive parents dont type money kk second all dad saying apparently theres room apartment clearly hes complaining fur left around im literally going clean doesnt clean house mom to concerned dont think im going able get cat im really really upset im crying right now anyone advice could give im really desperate

hate subconscious dreams dreams ever seem remember incredibly lucid dreams girls like problem didnt feel real whenever get one im always wondering real wake up awful recent one last night details little hazy ill best remember im crush friends forget really important afterwards go house group disperses crush waiting parents come get her starts telling medical episode recently highly likely condition causes death basically lie april point tells scared know do moves were couch way put around slump over point basically lying top me says stuff remember wake up apparently hugging myself theyre usually sad normally theyre pretty happy cool overly realistic im loser whos never girlfriend before know talk girls guess ive felt really empty really quarantine going on able see anyone go school helped well thats now stay safe everyone

dont knowthree kids wife behind bills mortgage things turned off never ending pile shit find anything spending much time thinking things make mistake fuck something up run business first year rough wasnt thought assumed id help dont even know writing thing doesnt matter cry whenever look kids faces sat van three hours last night wanting go home went sleep cant avoid them want better everything overwhelming pleaded help able get wife understand unable fix situation failing many ways

person feel bad foris father lives alone sisters talk him cant keep going im mentally emotionally physically destroyed loneliness guilt regret sometimes selfish happy happy least pain cease

weird compelling film topic atom bombs created los alamos nm usa used japan latter part world war ii huge course deeply disturbing films plot takes lot heavy issues actors carry much creative tension never seen film much interested admit read book smoking bed conversations bruce robinson robinson wrote story screenplay think film better expected reading robinsons point view conversations it see thought got derailed think paul newman pretty good somehow bottom miscast hes hollywood one point big meanlooking guy storms newmans office striking presence immediately thought playing character newman playing lead plays head scientist also fairly good somehow brilliant enough portray huge angst goes part immense responsibility creation ultimate machine death destruction one effective characters seems composite personality played john cusack oddly affecting throughout end character whose fate really hits home made think vividly fate japanese people hiroshima nagasaki

boring sad tonight take life handsi little say alot say last time remember happy three weeks ago cuddling somebody thought cared me passions evaporated past years hope self actualization disappearing them adult always close grandma dad deadbeat piece shit never around grandfather dead death albeit close cousins mom like part died past year improved much joined wonderful fraternity excelled uni got ideal weight cleaned diet hell started dating stopped while lost virginity found attractive etc everything seemed fucking great first breakup happened realized empty without relationships cue meaningless sex realizing sex fucking worthless without affection got back uni well far lost weight shit hit fan started dating girl seemed wonderful like cared me told promiscuous past behind her sex good told next date night spent cuddling really care much wanted sex needed get experience slept again understandably hurt like mofo really liked though ive breakups actualy loved person before frustrated prospect relationship thing enjoyed gone ehhh like field enjoy enough really happy recently ive undergone bulemic behavior time spent losing weight changing lifestyle healthy gone feels like everything shambles rambling one thing another bulemia straw thats breaking camels back eating simultaneously thing makes feel good makes feel horrible mentally physically went store tonight get rd pint ice cream nobody smiled nobody said hi none brothers time talk me ive noose closet while pup miss me love little self tonight take life hands end it ampxb titles reference favorite russian poem lermontov

thoughts feelings every day wall detailed text inbound hey guys going long one going read way end might want get comfy would first like disclose immediate distress sort making plans snuff anytime soon least yet ive lurking subreddit little now ive got say actually refreshing see people getting helpful answers comfort rather typical know feel classic help there even better people spam redflag hotlines number everywhere look im knocking redflag hotline anything like that helps someone immediate crisis power them knocking friends really know better help distressed state like that personally redflag hotline never effective parrot back things im telling add im sorry must tough everything say offense mirror effective people need someone listen thats okay im need well bit point ive seen others getting things chest guess thats im right now things ive seen people post similar thoughts others not one similar things intent taking immediate action quite people basically accepted likely going die redflag one people already method mind one messy mostly painless make easy clean authorities find body likely thing eventually get sick given familys medical history father brain cancer got treatment got witness slow decline new wife leaving she one destroyed relationship first place nursing home possibly dementia one thins lot cancer survivors talk toll takes loved ones medical costs constant treatments doctor visits spite strong person withering away shell former self ive already decided something similar happens me start putting plan motion loved ones assuming even still alive taken care of going way nah takes courage however something conflicted by long mother father alive cant put that circumstances went far en extreme would ever even consider that slowly developed toxic trait wish harm loved ones find wishing would go freak accident would pass away sleep something effect longer world could finally give permission take life thoughts feelings like make feel like real piece shit course past couple years distanced away acquaintances even closest friends hoping think little bit less and less day way reason end taking life hurt badly forget wrote it said person dies once first time physical body twice name spoken aloud last time last fleeting thought crosses someones mind last time know mean well friends is things say annoys hell me professional help there situation wouldve gotten long time ago thats things though took long time realize this want help already takes much motivation te bare minimum get by im going go someone ive never met develop trusting relationship break barriers put brick brick tell entire uncensored life story theyre going tell slowly start working things like thought process give pills keep among things work next years life away pray major catastrophe happen mean time die yay besides really much go far religious beliefs afterlife feel like magic words pills could put would magically make believe santa clause god change views world matter know probably thinking that point seen way certain situations play out way sociological constructs work cant really unsee it past ive told people things run mind daily basis im told need grow thats life quite frankly never asked begin with thinking way im ungrateful selfish immature person fuck that no whats selfish people claim would miss shit like that go says months time without talking eachother staying here thoughts feelings suffering worth minutes interaction eachother interactions even give second thought go sleep night im selfish one right ive come realize humans one shittiest things happen earth know good ones there humansare cutthroat species ever exist one going friend unless something gain use you nice something people edge bets society taught way theyre suppose act behind closed doors kind remarks love hospitality vanishes cant okay find comfort fact way society is future ahead me one riddled bullshit always struggling make ends meet im tired trying giving all pushing feelings thoughts putting happy face draining always struggling make ends meet im tired best never enough started new job month half ago keep saying iwas great im good everything do hire new person thats fill pick extra shifts okay thought lets see goes im pretty sure know going lets see low behold sudden getting shifts would normally get later find lot experience already front desk agent hotel im basically getting two days night audit lady off rest basically played ear helping house keepers shit like that matter put little euphemisms such busy work sure might lending hand makes jobs little easier helps cut time take clean rooms im part time guy now matter job im doing try try again amazing work ethic always time im great customers im professional time personal engaging guess understand always second choice know happy even job right now swift kick balls finally found something like doing im always pushed aside people makes feel like failure cant even thought adequate basic level jobs like front desk agent holiday inn express making hour half decent job always picks people me trying best applying never good enough places decide give chance take in point highlight day getting work watching bit youtube take ungodly amount counter sleep aids pass out theres something love much warm fuzzy feeling get kick in fighting bit enjoy finally kick in really wish could give life someone would actually use it someone would actually enjoy it way intend going out maybe call authorities right it get time organs able donated need them way death could give someone new lease life hell ever robbery something someone tried mug id everything power get killed ive even thought something horrible ended dying result loved ones miss much even bring that putting weight moms shoulders especially would bury child mother guy decided shootout police gun full blanks redflag cop also messy even though job would go home sit dinner table remember shot guy earlier today one deserves live weight shoulders stupid decisions want go sleep wake up slowly forgotten everyone elses lives go normal maybe even better perhaps someone scientific mindset imagine death like going sleep never wake again believe afterlife reincarnation heaven hell anything effect think trying imagine anything death would like trying remember birth time spent womb speaking biological son barely knows existence tried there mother see good father man god fine dandy though since found someone ended two kids married him signed rights full custody best regardless bringing churchgoing godfearing christian didnt loving siblings something wanted did stable family father figure couldve actually taught things things could never do lot friends think want know older strongly disagree honestly thats best disrupt natural order things make suggestions get told tell raise child made right decision seeing watch grow sidelines place polar opposite person spiritual beliefs hanging around hes happy thats whats import me hes happy without me take chance confusing fucking things up theres much could type make damn bit difference im ready end time im terrified it reasons know best guess would death permanent thing cant comprehend existing like explaining earlier really like reason fear it since going happen us eventually embrace it made far wall text would like thank patience so another day life suicidal nutcase someone take comfort knowing alone way feeling thinking maybe afraid say aloud type out know word right way even anonymity bunch strangers reddit applies you best say take one day time think many ahead end eventually

posting reasons english language broken stop feeling depressed day cough tough though dont rhyme pony bologna

dad wants monitor boy sister security camera room two flights stairs up im getting new room painting today dad starts bringing security cameras core details title defense if sister changes room when im course looking camera another way getting close underage nudity defense change closet got temperature light gun you point walls floors check temperatures one closet degrees celsius also wants least two get angles room creaking door open heat stroke going impossible best part isthe room two flights stairs climb anything regular cameras oh dark out wanna go outside two flights stairs check us no hard him soshould get one and hes even legal

exam zoom school holiday im starting develop violent behaviour towards person thought good idea

tired struggleive therapy medication since much adolescents spent drug induced zombie graduated binge drinking consuming mg thc day form edibles career almost encourages substance abuse anyone looking would dream job im tired go days without sleep sleep solid hours medication working therapy nothing always unhappy ive set date improve check out

see reasonso yeah first time wright thoughts depending life redflag down real name max im years old live small city germany called trier look like normal person nothing special pretend im fine year now im supposed job get life right road germany still live motto arbeit macht frei work makes free even were allowed say this sure live it anything less worth hoboshit people pretend want help tell lie look think theyre better you someone kills pretend knew thing someone goes rampage blame media question innocence victims say life get better really see light end tunnel im tired people need help psychological trashcan react pissed need talk im tired wasting mind worth it know life unfair honestly feel sympathy start shooting revenge teacher look away bosses also everybody looks away comes confrontation someone finally gets revenge unfair shit loneliness hate went trough hes villain brought far live like never happened continue bullshit say follow picture justice know mother would life worth living thats reason cant it often think killing solution voice says cut open gets louder day day also thought taking brought far me like said want mother live thoughts son something like this father touched back like game know happened school pure terror stole stuff again got hit often stopped counting tried convince teachers im neonazi nearly successful teachers said could tell something happened did respond supposed do one helped me brother help me teachers help principle didnt life fight me want live rules darwinism know change thing im bad guy played many egoshooter listened metal thats spare energy put life end

parent help hey guys teen suffering adhd wondering comfront parents it dont believe exists got medically tested back since then parents refuse give medication tell real problem starting make feel like garbage pile help appreciated

wishing someone elsei know break cycle im desperate someone tell im awful person cant tell anyone thats exactly would think me even bothering write here utter desperation feel alone core day die thought just well cant put words im sorry ill stop posting now

test ctei wondering wonder severe depression related brain injuries football

mean perfect breeding ground humans meant like covid bacteria stoff sorry beys

really temporary problempeople say redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem ongoing years still think fixed cant even imagine life without feeling constantly lonely tired frustrated

feeling like worst version personlike title says feeling like absolute worm feel like ruin hurt everyone come contact with remembering words parents second grade youre mean person ones ever gonna wanna friend feeling ruin hurt everyone sad hours also quite bit drunk shfjekskfjd

nono pleasures smiles relaxation recreation conversation loneliness interruption deed done more bullet shatters skull

im confused right normally lot black eyes yesterday did woke morning saw mirror something different realized black eyes gone ive since suddenly disappear fuck

timeim going lay train tracks today thanks support

girl dont know well yet said thank hung like said rlly fun thank you good time ive never someone say b girls maybe try one cause thought super sweet made attracted

last dayhey im going kill right post nothing theyre point alive anymore im sorry dont another post means im dead im sorry posting btw

im going see favorite band end august think im donemy favorite band slipknot coming hometown august rd im fortunate enough opportunity see friend day passes however ill really nothing left live look forward to going wait till halloween favorite holiday even doesnt seem worth anymore ive struggling major depressive disorder suicidal thoughts almost years never worse recently make money job good friend others dont go school im dumb girl like going away college doesnt want relationship thinks school would get way figured seeing favorite band perform one last time would perfect memory go on anyways im sorry long read thank stopped read it means lot

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anyone else wish could hire hit man themselvesthrowaway account fyi dont want live anymore im m std havent gotten diagnosed cause im scared sucks know would never kill myself would destroy family wish could pay professional assassin kill within months something dont want see coming want shot back head without knowing it poof dead fml

yall ever listen one song up yall know song im talking about bro shit like idk sad fuck song hits heart peaceful like omg low key feel relaxed calm

feeling suicidal stop playing safecurrently unemployed married going years together kids dogs cat ongoing depression anxiety job search feeling pretty worthless ive thinking ending all read skimmed post sub someone said paraphrasing have ever dated guy want know like got thinking ive trying live life based messing existing life trying get back somewhere around was maybe right approach mean really thinking killing myself got lose completely crazy would even opportunity live much fear time wish would go away

society entitled anything scrap suffer eeek meager living also society how dare decide like life sucide wrongsociety hypocritical cant tell people sucide wrong try force stay alive expecting accept crappy life is someone want that life worth effort struggle everyone hell gain working crappy jobs jerking another years get cancer die want