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No hope [24M]I seriously have no more hope. Is it even possible to feel this empty?

Ninguna esperanza [24M] En serio no tengo más esperanza.¿Es posible sentir esto vacío?

Would antidepressants be enough to kill someone ?If taken enough ? Could it work

¿Los antidepresivos serían suficientes para matar a alguien?Si se toma lo suficiente?

What "subling war"" have you had if at all? have u ever had some sort of sibling fight/drama/war/saga/soap opera?

¿Qué "guerra subliminante" has tenido si alguna vez has tenido algún tipo de pelea de hermanos/drama/guerra/saga/opera de jabón?

oh to be a butterfly fluttering my wings in the garden

oh ser una mariposa agitando mis alas en el jardín

.Scouts taught me a lot. I know how to make a noose.

.Scouts me enseñó mucho. Sé cómo hacer una soga.

Christmas backsliding into miseryTried to off myself ten months ago over gay unrequited love with my bestfriend, who had cut me out his life a year or so before. Felt like absolute shit but I climbed out of it; stopped drinking, lost 50 pounds, got my dream job working in Parliament (UK). But my issues with this guy have never gone away, even as I got healthier, mentally and physically. Now its Christmas and hearing about all my friends, who are all mutual, seeing him and his new girlfriend are killing me. Every Christmas Eve we all go to the pub 5 minutes from my house. Last night I knew he was there but couldn't go round to see him and its killed me. I'm tempted to go NYE and see him, try and show him I'm better again and become mates again. I know it probably won't work, but its that or slipping back under the quagmire of depression, cutting myself again or swallowing pills. Worst bit is I can see my depression on my family's faces, as they realise I'm slowly slipping back into misery, but I can't do anything about it. No idea what to do.

La Navidad retrocediendo en la miseriaIntenté quitarme a mí mismo hace diez meses por amor gay no correspondido con mi mejor amigo, que me había cortado la vida un año o así antes.Fui como una mierda absoluta pero salté de ella; dejé de beber, perdí 50 libras, conseguí mi trabajo de ensueño trabajando en el Parlamento (Reino Unido).Pero mis problemas con este tipo nunca se han ido, incluso cuando me puse más sano, mental y físicamente.Ahora es Navidad y escuchar acerca de todos mis amigos, que son todos mutuos, viendo que él y su nueva novia me están matando.Cada noche de Navidad todos vamos al pub a 5 minutos de mi casa.La última noche supe que estaba allí pero no podía ir a verlo y a mí me mató.Estoy tentado a ir a NYE y verlo, tratar de mostrarle que estoy mejor de nuevo y volver a ser compañeros.Sé que probablemente no funcionará, pero es eso o volver a caer bajo la depresión, cortarme de nuevo o tragar pastillas.

I just lost a friend I don’t know where he’s gone. we in McDonald’s and he’s disappeared. his happy meal is getting cold and his milkshake is melting, I don’t wanna start without him edit: never mind, he went to the toilet

Acabo de perder a un amigo que no sé dónde se ha ido. nosotros en McDonald’sy él ha desaparecido. su comida feliz se está enfriando y su batido se está derritiendo, no quiero empezar sin él editar: no importa, se fue al baño

I got rejected and feeling extremely downI confessed my feelings to this one girl and she rejected me in the worst way possible. I'm feeling very down, I just feel like I need someone to talk to. I have extremely deep thoughts at the moment and can't barely breath. I don't exactly know what this subreddit is used for, but I just need to talk.

Me rechazaron y me sentí extremadamente deprimidoConfesé mis sentimientos a esta chica y ella me rechazó de la peor manera posible.Me siento muy deprimido, sólo siento que necesito a alguien con quien hablar.Tengo pensamientos extremadamente profundos en este momento y apenas puedo respirar.No sé exactamente para qué se utiliza este subreddit, pero solo necesito hablar.

How are some of y’all doing drugs? Like I totally would if I had the money or even knew where to find it

¿Cómo es que algunos de ustedes están tomando drogas?Como lo haría totalmente si tuviera el dinero o incluso supiera dónde encontrarlo

I fucking hate seeing underage people selling fucking nudes and feet pics Cmon get a proper job. Have u not morals

Odio ver a gente menor de edad vendiendo desnudos y fotos de pies.Cmon consigue un trabajo adecuado.No tienes moral.

Is there another name for "having your interests and almost your whole personality change like every other day"? It's been a problem for a long time and I'm tired of calling myself a walking identity crisis. Hell, even my fucking accent changes slightly.

¿Hay otro nombre para "tener tus intereses y casi toda tu personalidad cambia como cada dos días"?Ha sido un problema durante mucho tiempo y estoy cansado de llamarme una crisis de identidad andante.Infierno, incluso mi maldito acento cambia ligeramente.

No friends, no girlfriend, no job, no real hobbies, no college education. I’m at the end of the road I’m afraid.The title pretty much says it all. Honestly there’s so much I could write about the reasons I don’t have these things in my life but it would take me a long time and I don’t want to waste your time by leaving a wall of text to painfully read through. First off, I’m 27 years old. Basically I’m just too lonely and broken and feel like there’s literally no hope for me in this life. I wouldn’t even know where to begin. I know I should focus on finding a job but honestly I’m too depressed to perform any kind of work efficiently. Every job I’ve applied to I’ve been rejected by, and the old jobs I used to have (5 years ago at this point) my colleagues pretty much saw me as the laughing stock of the work shift. I was there to be made fun of and perform the menial tasks the other workers weren’t willing to do. I was never truly appreciated. I don’t have any decent qualifications to my name or any achievements to be proud of. I haven’t had a friend wish me a happy birthday in pretty much all my life. Never experienced young love. Honestly even just thinking about it is painful. I don’t have any passion anymore. The passion I once had in my early twenties has slowly faded away as my twenties have gone on to the point where I am now where I could be facing my impending doom and not feel a thing. It’s over I’m afraid, without ever even beginning.

Sin amigos, sin novia, sin trabajo, sin hobbies reales, sin educación universitaria.Estoy al final del camino me temo.El título casi lo dice todo.Honestamente hay tanto que podría escribir sobre las razones por las que no tengo estas cosas en mi vida, pero me tomaría mucho tiempo y no quiero perder tu tiempo dejando un muro de texto para leerlo dolorosamente.En primer lugar, tengo 27 años de edad.Básicamente estoy demasiado solo y roto y siento que literalmente no hay esperanza para mí en esta vida.Ni siquiera sabría por dónde empezar.Sé que debería centrarme en encontrar un trabajo, pero honestamente estoy demasiado deprimido para realizar cualquier tipo de trabajo de manera eficiente.Cada trabajo que he aplicado a mí ha sido rechazado por, y los trabajos antiguos que solía tener (5 años atrás en este punto) mis colegas me vieron bastante bien como el hilarante cambio de trabajo.

Writing stuff outHey, not sure if I'm going to hit submit on this or not. If you're reading this I guess I did. I can't keep feeling like I do now. I have no energy, I don't want to do anything, I've worn out my ability to cry so now I'm just an empty numb shell waiting for it all to be over. There hasn't been a point in the last 2 years where I consciously thought I wanted to live life, at best I've been indifferent- maybe if there was a fire and someone was trapped inside I could run inside and help, and if I died at least it would be for a good cause, that kind of thinking. A few months ago stuff got a lot worse and I don't know why. I asked my doctor if he would run any tests and he said no, I asked to see a psychiatrist 8 weeks ago and I'm still waiting, I'm on antidepressants that I know aren't going to work because it's week 8 already but the last mental health person I talked to told me it was too soon to try something else so I'm just stuck day after day after day not wanting to carry on. A couple of times recently I've been really close. 2 weeks ago I went to buy a rope and stopped before I did it but I don't understand why, it wasn't a conscious decision or anything. I feel like I owe it to my mum to try speaking to a psychiatrist, and if that hasn't worked after a few weeks, if I feel like this again, I can just stop. It would suck making my mum upset but if she knew how i was feeling she would understand. Honestly the only thing keeping me from doing it right now is knowing I can just do it later if I don't seem to be getting any better, if I knew for a fact I had no chance of improving in the next month or two I would just kill myself now. I guess it's kind of like I'm finding an excuse to keep living a bit longer, because I know I shouldn't feel like this, but I know I don't have the strength to do this long term. Nothing really feels real any more, actions don't feel like they have consequences, and sometimes I have to deliberately think to myself that I'm really here in this moment, because it feels like I'm watching a memory. I want all the help I can get, I even tried to get admitted to hospital, but nobody has the time to care.

Si estás leyendo esto supongo que lo hice.No puedo seguir sintiendo que lo hago ahora.No tengo energía, no quiero hacer nada, he desgastado mi capacidad de llorar así que ahora sólo soy una cáscara entumecida vacía esperando que todo haya terminado.No ha habido un punto en los últimos 2 años en el que conscientemente pensé que quería vivir la vida, en el mejor de los casos he sido indiferente-tal vez si había un incendio y alguien estaba atrapado dentro podría correr dentro y ayudar, y si morí por lo menos sería por una buena causa, ese tipo de pensamiento.Hace unos meses las cosas se pusieron mucho peor y no sé por qué.Le pregunté a mi médico si haría alguna prueba y dijo que no, le pedí ver a un psiquiatra hace 8 semanas y todavía estoy esperando, estoy en antidepresivos que sé que no voy a trabajar porque ya es la semana 8, pero la última persona de salud mental que hablé me dijo que fuera a tratar de hacer algo antes de que me detuviera.

Feeling hopelessThey say that "it gets better". But it really doesn't feel this way. I have been largely unhappy for a while, but the fact that I don't have anyone in my life that I can speak to about my feelings makes me feel extremely hopeless. I've been doing my best to keep my head up, but it seems that the harder I try, the harder I fall back into depression. I can't help but feel resentful that hardly anything is working out in my favor in life. It feels like the universe is out to get me and make me feel as miserable as it can. I don't want to believe that that is happening, but that's what it feels like. And I feel extremely lost because I don't know who I can go to for help. I've been seeing a therapist but I'm not receiving enough emotional support from loved ones. I feel so trapped and I really don't know what to do. Sorry if this came across as whiny and/or annoying, but unfortunately I can't help but feel like this.

Sintiéndome desesperadoDicen que "se pone mejor".Pero realmente no me siento así.He sido muy infeliz por un tiempo, pero el hecho de que no tenga a nadie en mi vida con quien pueda hablar sobre mis sentimientos me hace sentir extremadamente desesperante.He estado haciendo todo lo posible para mantener la cabeza levantada, pero parece que cuanto más me esfuerzo, más me vuelvo a caer en la depresión.No puedo evitar sentir resentimiento porque casi nada está funcionando en mi favor en la vida.Se siente que el universo está fuera para conseguirme y hacerme sentir tan miserable como puede.No quiero creer que eso está sucediendo, pero eso es lo que se siente.Y me siento extremadamente perdido porque no sé a quién puedo acudir para pedir ayuda.He estado viendo a un terapeuta pero no estoy recibiendo suficiente apoyo emocional de seres queridos.Me siento tan atrapado y realmente no sé qué hacer.Lo siento si esto se me ha descubierto como una queja y/o molesto, pero desafortunadamente no puedo evitar sentirme así.

So I've come to a realization just now If i want to make something happen, i have to do it soon. I can't just be waiting for it to come to me like i think i can, and as scary as it might be for me to go after it, i have to if i ever want to have what i want and be happy

Así que he llegado a una realización justo ahora Si quiero hacer que algo suceda, tengo que hacerlo pronto.No puedo estar esperando a que llegue a mí como creo que puedo, y tan aterrador como podría ser para mí ir tras él, tengo que hacerlo si alguna vez quiero tener lo que quiero y ser feliz

I am going to kill myself in 25 daysTitle says it all. I'm done with living on this earth. I've had enough. I'm going.

Me voy a suicidar en 25 días.Título lo dice todo.He terminado con vivir en esta tierra.He tenido suficiente.Me voy.

Wife asked for divorce nearly a year ago still cant pull my self togetherShe left just before Christmas last year and I have yet to really pull my self out of the initial depression. After she left I started going out with friends got a new job and even started dating. but none of it felt like it had a point. In each situation I question why I'm doing what I am doing. Why am I even going to work whats the point of going out tonight that kinda thing. When it came to dating I felt I was Cheating on her. the guilt I felt After the first time I had sex was just horrible I remember just rolling over and pretending to sleep all the while hating my self. This is not me though before my wife i was a typical guy i slept with a lot of girls and it did not affect me. i only really would say i loved or cared about one other girl in my life. but even then i was 18 so when that ended i went right back into my teenage ways. I know what advice I get here wont work until that deep part of my brain is ready but I cant telll this to any of my friends or family. they are all caring people and would most likely devote to much time to my problems when they have their own to worry about. I would just feel selfish and a little pathetic putting this on them. which is also one reason I think I have not crossed the line to wanting to kill my self Yet. but really I just wanted a place to vent and I'm just hoping doing this takes a bit of weight off my shoulders. but any advice is more then welcome

La esposa pidió el divorcio hace casi un año todavía no puede tirar de mi uno mismo juntosElla dejó justo antes de Navidad el año pasado y todavía tengo que realmente sacar mi yo mismo de la depresión inicial.Después de que ella se fue empecé a salir con amigos consiguió un nuevo trabajo e incluso comenzó a salir.Pero nada de él se sentía como que tenía un punto.En cada situación me pregunto por qué estoy haciendo lo que estoy haciendo.Por qué estoy incluso voy a trabajar lo que es el punto de salir esta noche ese tipo de cosa.Cuando se trata de salir sentí que estaba engañando en ella.la culpa que sentí Después de la primera vez que tuve sexo fue simplemente horribleRecuerdo simplemente rodando y fingiendo dormir todo el tiempo que odio mi yo mismo.Este no es yo aunque antes de mi esposa yo era un tipo típico que me acosté con un montón de chicas y no me afectó.i sólo realmente diría que me encantó o cuidé de otra chica en mi vida.pero incluso entonces yo tenía 18 años, así que cuando eso terminó volví a mis maneras adolescentes.

Watch out for this user. There is this user with the username u/the-second-friday that has been stalking me and my friends' chats and has no disregard for minors. he sends hentai, has several alt accounts, and spams. please watch out for this user. Stay safe, guys and girls and non-binary folk. [His user page.](https://preview.redd.it/mnawv1g35zh51.png?width=1366&format=png&auto=webp&s=1d150af4a04d210703fcb4b12dca3a243b466491)

Cuidado con este usuario.Hay este usuario con el nombre de usuario u/the-second-friday que ha estado acosando a mí y los chats de mis amigos y no tiene desprecio por los menores.Él envía hentai, tiene varias cuentas alt, y spams.por favor, tenga cuidado con este usuario.Mantenga a salvo, chicos y chicas y folk no binario.[Su página de usuario.](https://preview.redd.it/mnawv1g35zh51.png?width=1366&format=png&auto=webp&s=1d150af4a04d210703fcb4b12dca3a243b466491)

Umm, what!? part 3 zappy tree. ​ Now it's rip and tear. Links to the other 2 posts 1: [https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/j7cuu5/umm\_what/](https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/j7cuu5/umm_what/) 2: [https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/j7d2ib/umm\_what\_part\_2\_electric\_boogaloo/](https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/j7d2ib/umm_what_part_2_electric_boogaloo/) PS: Give me suggestions on what the 4th post should be named.

Umm, qué?part 3 zappy tree.​ Ahora es rasgar y rasgar.Enlaces a los otros 2 posts 1:[https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/coments/j7cuu5/umm\_what/](https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/j7d2ib/umm\_what\_part\_2\_electric\_boogaloo/](https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/comments/j7d2ib/umm_what_part_2_electric_booagaloo/) PS: Déme sugerencias sobre lo que debe nombrarse el cuarto post.

So is every american president A rapest or a pedo now or what Like bruh yall need new candidates

Así es cada presidente americano un violador o un pedo ahora o lo que como Bruh Yall necesita nuevos candidatos

Mental BarrierHonestly I've stopped trying to get better; I've been sick coming up 8 years, learnt I was disabled in that time too, and I'm getting tired of waiting it out. For what? So I can just be dependant on my parents for the rest of my life, never achieving anything, because I'm slow instead of sick? There's no 'better' for me, only coping and I don't care for that anymore. I used to fantisize about dying in a natural disaster, or getting hit by a drunk driver- anything that I couldn't be blamed for, until I realised nothing was guaranteed to happen unless it was by my hand. After that the fantasies were about trains, bleeding out, pills. I've become more realistic since then and understand what's more plausible for me, and honestly I feel I'm ready. Mentally, I'm ready. But I just... dont act on it, for some reason. A handful of half-arsed OD attempts, sure, but nothing with a likelihood of success. There's a difficulty, feels like a near impossibility, of taking what's in my head and making it Real. At this point it's all I want, and I feel like even more of a failure for not doing it! I used to be so scared of admitting it, but I've told my doctors that I think of and want it, multiple times, and hey as long as you dont actually do it, not our problem! Since then I don't feel as afraid, because no one can be surprised when/if it happens. The only thing left is figuring out how to remove that barrier, bring what I want and thought about so much into actuality, but I have no idea how to and it makes me hate myself more. Every time I think of it and don't act feels like a personal failure.

Una barrera mentalHonestamente he dejado de tratar de mejorar; he estado enfermo por 8 años, he aprendido que estaba discapacitado en ese tiempo también, y me estoy cansando de esperarlo.¿Para qué?Así que puedo depender de mis padres por el resto de mi vida, nunca lograr nada, porque soy lento en vez de enfermo?No hay nada mejor para mí, sólo lo hago y ya no me preocupo por eso.Solía fantasear con morir en un desastre natural, o ser golpeado por un conductor borracho- cualquier cosa por la que no pudiera ser culpado, hasta que me di cuenta de que nada estaba garantizado a menos que fuera por mi mano.Después de eso las fantasías eran sobre trenes, desangrarme, píldoras.Me he vuelto más realista desde entonces y entiendo lo que es más plausible para mí, y honestamente siento que estoy listo.Mentalmente, estoy listo.¡Pero yo no actúo en esto, por alguna razón.Un puñado de intentos de sobredosis, seguro, pero nada con una probabilidad de éxito.

My girlfriend is being abused by her mother Firstly, I am 17 and she’s 16, let’s call her Kate. Not from the US, our justice system is more shit btw. We’ve been together for almost 7 months, and currently in a long distance relationship. At first, it was mostly us enjoying ourselves and showing each other our good fun sides only. Then our relationship became deeper and we started sharing everything to each other, even our most personal problems, though it is mostly her sharing and I comfort her as I was never used to the idea of someone caring about my problems. This is about her though. The last 2 weeks have been hell for us, and mostly for her. First of all, her family is genuinely insane. They’re a family of 6, mom and dad, her 14 year old brother, her younger sister, and her 7 year old brother. The oldest brother hates her. Her father hates her on and off, he has a mental condition that I don’t exactly know the name of, but one time he hates her guts and one time he likes her. Her mother, though, used to care about her a lot until the last few weeks, apparently she’s also got a loose screw and is very stressed. They’d say that Kate is a sl*t and basically verbally abused her for the past year. The last 2 weeks, have been hell like I said. She’d get hit by her mom every single day for the most dumb stuff. She does all her mother’s chores and cleans and cooks and everything. She gets physically abused for it, but she still tells me she loves her. Kate would make her food, then she’d throw shit at her because of little salt. She’d light the wood on fire, and her mom randomly burns her using it. Yesterday, her own mother told her to kill herself at night when everyone was sleeping so no one disturbs her. She brought her damn knifes and told her to choose. She came to me crying and I stayed with her that whole night, luckily nothing happened. Just today, her mother used a knife and wounded her leg. SHE FRICKING TOLD HER NOT TO BANDAGE IT SO SHE CAN SUFFER. AND KATE WAS FINE WITH IT. I am literally crying as I’m writing this. I told her, can you please bandage it, she refuses saying her mother would hit her more. She tells me her mother uses her as a venting tool to vent her stress away, and that she feels comfort by hurting her. And she’s okay with it, because her mom would abuse her siblings if she said anything or retaliated. I’m so sickened. This is not even everything that happened to her, she does way more shit everyday and Kate would come to me crying everytime. I’m so sick of this, my brain can’t handle it but I love her. Before you ask, I already told her to take legal action. She said she did once. Her family threatened her and forced her to drop the case. She literally would not go to a hospital no matter how many times I asked. She only went once because of her severe anemia, her reasoning being she doesn’t want them to investigate her wounds leading to the discovery of her abuse. What hurts me, is that she loves them even though they treat her like this. I don’t know what to do anymore. She completely gave up on changing this reality and is basically ok with it. It hurts me and drains me too much. What am I supposed to do. She won’t listen or do what I think she should do. I’m so useless. TLDR: Girlfriend is being abused severely by her mom and she’s ok with it, and I can’t do anything.

Mi novia está siendo abusada por su madre En primer lugar, yo tengo 17 años y ella tiene 16, vamos a llamarla Kate.No de los EE.UU., nuestro sistema de justicia es más mierda btw.Hemos estado juntos por casi 7 meses, y actualmente en una relación de larga distancia.Al principio, era sobre todo nosotros disfrutando de nosotros mismos y mostrándonos nuestros buenos lados solamente.Luego nuestra relación se hizo más profunda y empezamos a compartir todo entre nosotros, incluso nuestros problemas más personales, aunque es sobre todo su compartir y yo la consuela como nunca estaba acostumbrado a la idea de que alguien se preocupara por mis problemas.Esto es sobre ella.Sin embargo, las últimas 2 semanas han sido un infierno para nosotros, y sobre todo para ella.Primero que todo, su familia está realmente loca.Son una familia de 6, mamá y papá, su hermano de 14 años, su hermana menor, y su hermano de 7 años.El hermano más viejo la odia.Su padre la odia y la odia, pero su padre la odia en y fuera, tiene una condición mental que no conozco exactamente el nombre de ella, pero una vez odia sus entrañas y una vez le gusta.

Husband threatened divorceMy husband threatened to divorce me tonight because I work too much, even though I've been trying to be more balanced. Divorce was never supposed to be an option for us, I feel so betrayed. He says he might not if things get better, but how am I supposed to work on my marriage with the constant fear/threat of him deciding to leave me. Compared to that I know it's silly, but he also yelled and called me fat. I struggle with my appearance and always took encouragement from him saying I'm beautiful. How am I ever supposed to feel safe, loved, wanted in my marriage again? I don't think I would actually kill myself but it is crossing my mind - he would be happier without me, and I could stop being heartbroken and disappointing him all the time.

Marido amenazó con divorciarseMi marido amenazó con divorciarse de mí esta noche porque yo trabajo demasiado, aunque he estado tratando de ser más equilibrado.El divorcio nunca se suponía que fuera una opción para nosotros, me siento tan traicionado.Él dice que no podría si las cosas mejoran, pero cómo se supone que debo trabajar en mi matrimonio con el miedo constante / amenaza de él decidiendo dejarme.Comparado con que sé que es tonto, pero también me gritó y me llamó gordo.Luchaba con mi apariencia y siempre me animó diciendo que soy hermosa.¿Cómo se supone que me siento seguro, amado, querido en mi matrimonio de nuevo?No creo que me mataría realmente pero está cruzando mi mente - él sería más feliz sin mí, y podría dejar de ser descorazonado y decepcionarlo todo el tiempo.

There’s gotta be something watching meEvery time I home alone I always feel like I’m being watched and followed from something behind me it always happens at night but not during the day it feels like there’s cameras everywhere

Tiene que haber algo observándome Cada vez que estoy solo en casa siempre siento que me observan y me siguen desde algo detrás de mí siempre pasa de noche pero no durante el día se siente como si hubiera cámaras por todas partes.

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Early Christmas So I ordered a curved monitor during Black Friday, it was 32” and freesync and all that, and it just arrived yesterday, but I then saw that I accidentally ordered 2. So the next day I called my friend and told him to meet me outside our grade 12 classroom, and gave him the box with one of the monitors in it. And needless to say he was overwhelmed. So ya, that’s my Christmas story.

Así que pedí un monitor curvado durante el Viernes Negro, eran 32” y freesync y todo eso, y llegó ayer, pero luego vi que accidentalmente ordené 2.Así que al día siguiente llamé a mi amigo y le dije que se reuniera conmigo fuera de nuestra clase de grado 12, y le di la caja con uno de los monitores en ella.Y no hace falta decir que estaba abrumado.Así que ya, esa es mi historia de Navidad.

Failing the Bar examAfter my third attempt at taking the bar, if I find that I failed, I'm going to end my life. I'm 300,000 dollars in debt, cannot find a job in the law field to save my life. I'm a doctor of laws and I'm working retail making like 13 bucks an hour. I cant afford to live on my own. I'm a burden on everyone around me. I think I'm mentally and emotionally handicapped, leading to my problems with people. I'm a total asshole, even though I try to be fun and friendly. My anxiety is so high, I think people hate me, so I end up being a prick. I've never had a romantic relationship longer than 3 months. I haven't had sex with anyone since July of 2015. I have had people try to get me in dating apps. I'm on them all. I've had other women approve my profile and told me it all the things I should do to make myself available for others to see me in my best light. I'm too old for someone who isn't as damaged as me. I'm too unattractive to feel wanted. I have swiped right tens of thousands of times, but I'm apparently so offputting that I cant get a match at all. I've had depression my whole life. I went to one of the hardest law schools in the country. I've done "great" things by most standards. I have lived a good life by most accounts. I cannot be happy as my depression is eating me alive. After failing the bar twice, I was urged to try again. After the heartbreak of failing twice, I see that there is no way out for me. If something wonderful doesn't happen by the first week of November, I will be resigned to my fate. This is probably the only place I will post publicly about it. I want to die. I dont have a reason to live any more. No love, no meaningful relationships, no light at the end of the tunnel. It doesn't get better. It only gets worse. I'll only get older and sadder. I'll only get fatter and balder. I'll only get lonelier and more angry. Better to do this now than to wait until it boils over and I hit someone else. I want to do something where no one will ever find my body, like ever. I'm obviously a coward, so how can I do this without getting eaten alive by wolves or drowning painfully? I dont want to traumatize my family or anyone with having to find my gross body. I just want to disappear forever. No body. No burial. I've already thought of the ocean, but I need it to be something that will render my body completely gone with no trace. E.g. I cant use a gun if someone could hear it, or go somewhere in which I could be found. Any thoughts or miracles appreciated.

Fallar en el examen de la barraDespués de mi tercer intento de tomar el bar, si encuentro que fallé, voy a terminar mi vida.Tengo 300.000 dólares en deuda, no puedo encontrar un trabajo en el campo de la ley para salvar mi vida.Soy un doctor de leyes y trabajo al por menor haciendo como 13 dólares la hora.No puedo permitirme vivir por mi cuenta.Soy una carga para todos los que me rodean.Creo que soy mental y emocionalmente discapacitado, lo que me lleva a mis problemas con la gente.Soy un completo idiota, aunque trato de ser divertido y amigable.Mi ansiedad es tan alta, creo que la gente me odia, así que acabo siendo un idiota.Nunca he tenido una relación romántica por más de 3 meses.No he tenido sexo con nadie desde julio de 2015.He tenido gente que intenta conseguirme aplicaciones de citas.Estoy en todas ellas.He tenido otras mujeres que aprueban mi perfil y me he dicho que todas las cosas que debería hacer para tener acceso a mi propia vida.

I don’t know why people think I’m so lame. Like, tomorrow I’m going to buy a packet of those frozen dinosaur-shaped chicken nuggets I tried last week and really enjoyed. Can’t wait.

No sé por qué la gente piensa que soy tan cojo.Como, mañana voy a comprar un paquete de esas pepitas de pollo congeladas con forma de dinosaurio que intenté la semana pasada y realmente disfruté.No puedo esperar.

Running away or taking a break?Here's the deal. I have no job, no money, I'm the scum of society, and now I have a $1000 on my shoulders from my last 6 hour ER visit. I've been in therapy for 5 years and I'm on shitty medication. I told my grandmother about this, she thinks I should take a trip to Hawaii to see my dad, (I'm in Utah). My dad is an avid Buddhist, who most likely put me to work on his property. She the work will get me out of my head. My therapist says, that's running away; And that my problems will follow me. But it's not like professional help has... Helped. What do you guys think?

¿Huyendo o tomando un descanso?Aquí está el trato.No tengo trabajo, no tengo dinero, soy la escoria de la sociedad, y ahora tengo un $1000 sobre mis hombros de mi última visita de 6 horas de Urgencias.He estado en terapia durante 5 años y estoy en medicación de mierda.Le dije a mi abuela sobre esto, ella piensa que debería tomar un viaje a Hawaii para ver a mi padre, (estoy en Utah).Mi padre es un budista ávido, que lo más probable es que me puso a trabajar en su propiedad.Ella el trabajo me sacará de mi cabeza.Mi terapeuta dice, eso es huir; Y que mis problemas me seguirán.Pero no es como la ayuda profesional ha... Ayudado.¿Qué piensan ustedes chicos?

Those goddamn mods didn’t let me post this before so let me try again. Are there any good crazy/controversial subreddits? I require ENTERTAINMENT.

Esos malditos mods no me dejaron publicar esto antes, así que permítanme intentarlo de nuevo.¿Hay algún buen loco / controversial subreddits? requiero ENTERTAINMENT.

Just the rantNot aloud to read sorry Sometimes I feel like I’m floating away, yet no one is to notice. I’m just drifting as far as possible. Maybe, just maybe I’d actually miss my life or maybe not and I’m fine with not knowing. But that shit don’t just happen, that’s not life. You live a long life, you struggle or you just don’t. Well, that’s not realistic and that’s not the reality we live in. You die no matter what, you could get; sick, old age or suicide. But tell me how can people just leave you alone, sometimes I feel nothing at all, and I like it. Sometimes I feel to much and it drives me crazy, like I can’t breath and I just need someone to hold me. But would that be enough for me, or is the real destiny or whatever, is to do the one thing you’re scared to do. But I could say, I could cry out; Anyone I don’t care who, whoever sees me drowning just hold me. Hold me tight, hold me like you’re never going to let go. Yet, I think people are blind to see the truth, until someone dies, it’s a reality that hits us humans and you don’t feel. You don’t feel that loss, you forget. No matter how much you tell yourself you miss them or how much you’ll miss them. Your life will go on the same, because you don’t want to die and the only way to actually feel something, to feel a loss so deep because you’ve loved them so much. Is going to end up driving you to kill yourself. And I want to die. I’m no therapist, yet you guys don’t know anything and I bet you just assume I’m fine, I am fine. Exactly, right? Yet you just don’t ask because I joke about it to many times, I don’t know why... maybe I’m not ready,, sounds so fucking hypocritical. But aren’t we all. All fucking hypocrites. Not so harsh now, but I had a feeling you guys all knew what was coming or what was wrong with me. Do you want me to hold you, do you want me to tell you how much I want you to live. No, I don’t... no matter how much you try to save me, maybe there’s nothing to save and I’m broken. I’m not angry, I’m not sad. Probably could change in the future, you could make me really happy and our hopes and dreams that we told will come true but I can’t help to think. I think about it all the time. I make up these thoughts in my head and I picture how it’ll happen, everyday. Even when I’m happy as fuck. It just hits me out of nowhere, I see myself dying and it’s fucked up if you’d ask me. Deep down you know your life would be better without me. A life without Tia would be great. Just think about the freedom, the not hurting me, and not feeling like you need to tell me to get lost. Tia get fucking lost, leave and just go ... why can’t I just go. I don’t know. Maybe it’s my breath just breathing and maybe it’s my heart just pumping. Am I really here, do you really see me or do you just see this girl who is annoying and happy. Even though this is not my real name. Doesn’t mean it’s not true.

A veces siento que estoy flotando lejos, pero nadie se da cuenta.Yo estoy a la deriva en la medida de lo posible.Tal vez, sólo tal vez realmente extrañaría mi vida o tal vez no y estoy bien con no saber.Pero esa mierda no sólo sucede, eso no es vida.Usted vive una vida larga, usted lucha o simplemente no.Bueno, eso no es realista y esa no es la realidad en la que vivimos.Usted muere no importa qué, usted podría conseguir; enfermo, vejez o suicidio.Pero dígame cómo puede la gente simplemente dejarlo solo, a veces no siento nada en absoluto, y me gusta.A veces me siento mucho y me vuelve loco, como si no pudiera respirar y solo necesito a alguien que me abrace.Pero eso sería suficiente para mí, o es el destino real o lo que sea, es hacer lo que uno tiene miedo de hacer.Pero podría decir, no puedo respirar y necesito a alguien que me retenga.

What does "ratio" mean People comment it under twitter posts and in tik tok comments. What does it mean

¿Qué significa "ratio"?La gente lo comenta en twitter y en tik tok comments.

Mobile Gaming and Console Gaming is bad Bow down to me console peasants. I'm a PC Gamer! P: Prostate C: Cancer

Juegos móviles y consola El juego es malo Inclínate hacia mí con consola campesines.I'm a PC Gamer!P: Próstata C: Cáncer

I just made my teacher die inside by drinking milk Background - My school went full remote due to the recent snowstorm in the new york area. My history teacher likes teacher to people instead of to our profile pics. I was exposed to covid and am currently quarantined, and have drinks in a cooler in my room, one of which is milk. Class started with the teacher begging us in class to turn on our cameras. Eventually one of my classmates randomly asked in the Google meets chat if we liked milk. This sparked discussion about how glorious milk is until our teacher jokingly threatened to take points off for talking about milk (he's a pretty chill dude but I wouldn't put it past him to actually do it). I remembered that I had milk in my cooler so I grabbed some, took a swig straight out of the jug, and my teacher proceeds to die inside.

Acabo de hacer que mi profesor muera por dentro bebiendo leche Fondo - Mi escuela fue completamente remota debido a la reciente tormenta de nieve en el área de Nueva York.A mi profesor de historia le gusta el profesor a la gente en lugar de a nuestras fotos de perfil.Me expusieron a covid y actualmente estoy en cuarentena, y tomar bebidas en un refrigerador en mi habitación, uno de los cuales es leche.Class comenzó con el profesor rogándonos en clase que encendiéramos nuestras cámaras.Eventualmente uno de mis compañeros de clase preguntó al azar en el chat de Google si nos gustaba la leche.Esta discusión desencadenó acerca de lo gloriosa que es la leche hasta que nuestra maestra amenazó en broma con quitar puntos por hablar de leche (él es un tipo bastante frío pero yo no diría que lo hiciera realmente).Recuerdo que tenía leche en mi refrigerador así que tomé algo, tomé un trago directamente de la jarra, y mi profesor procede a morir adentro.

So I just got imposter 8 times in a row in among us I don’t know if that’s a record but I guess I’m too good at the game

Así que acabo de obtener impostor 8 veces seguidas entre nosotros No sé si es un récord, pero supongo que soy demasiado bueno en el juego

My suicide noteThis is my suicide note to my parents and brothers. “I love you. I’m sorry. I’m going to a better place. Please don’t blame yourselves. I’ve been struggling for a long time. And now it’s my time to go. Things will be better without me. I’m sorry that I couldn’t fight any longer. I love you more then anything.” I hope this brings them some comfort. I’m leaving tonight. Bye.

Mi nota de suicidioEsta es mi nota de suicidio para mis padres y hermanos. “Te amo.Lo siento.Voy a un lugar mejor.Por favor, no se culpen a sí mismos.He estado luchando durante mucho tiempo.Y ahora es mi hora de ir.Las cosas serán mejores sin mí.Lo siento que no pueda luchar más.Te amo más que nada.”Espero que esto les traiga algo de consuelo.Me voy esta noche.Adiós.

AdviceHey, I'm a 15 year-old male that is honestly I don't know what I'm facing. I use to be happy I use to look at my life goals and think wow I'm gonna do it. But just recently as I became a sophomore and I start to realize the pieces aren't falling together. My life goal, or now dream, is to be an electrical engineer. But now I look and I'm still in geometry, I have no experience in work or math. No colleges will notice me or anything. I hate how I evaluate myself because of this system of school as if I'm suppose to go. Now I feel as if I'm going to be another pawn in this world that means nothing. A pawn that sits next to a desk all day answering phones. There's honestly no point in this world where your life is determined by other people's standards and ideologies. What's the whole point for me to continue on this life. My parents don't really care, my dad sees past me as I'm a mark of his mistake for leaving my mom. As for my mom, she only sees me as an atm machine from my dad. I'm the obscured child and no one notices me at all. I'm just a presence with no meaning or acknowledgement. The only thing that's keeping me going now is my girlfriend, which is honestly fucking sad, as now I realize nothing lasts forever. She just makes me happy and I don't want to hurt her by leaving this meaningless place because right now everything is going great for her. I don't know what to do. I mean I'm doing well in school but that doesn't even fucking matter am I right. It's honestly meaningless we'll all die soon for other people's benefit or loss but in the end we're just small insignificant beings on the pursuit of happiness which is a void that'll never be filled. I just really need to talk to someone or just some advice. I know this bullshit isn't as worse as other people but it'll help someone worthless as me.

Consejo Oye, soy un hombre de 15 años que honestamente no sé a lo que me estoy enfrentando.Acostumbro a estar feliz de ver mis metas de vida y pensar que vaya a hacerlo.Pero recientemente, cuando me convertí en un estudiante de segundo año y empiezo a darme cuenta de que las piezas no están cayendo juntas.Mi meta de vida, o ahora sueño, es ser un ingeniero eléctrico.Pero ahora me veo y sigo en geometría, no tengo experiencia en trabajo ni matemáticas.Ningún colegio me notará ni nada.Odio cómo me evalue a mí mismo debido a este sistema de escuela como si se supone que vaya.Ahora me siento como si fuera a ser otro peón en este mundo que no significa nada.Un peón que se sienta al lado de un escritorio todo el día contestando teléfonos.Sin duda no tiene sentido en este mundo donde tu vida está determinada por los estándares e ideologías de otras personas.

Does anyone else feel so fking nostalgic after listening to music?! Like, I’m only 14, but every time I listen to music, I start remembering all my memories from when I was younger. I remember all my friends, all our times together, and like such deep feelings. I feel like I can see my entire life when the song hits just write. Anyone else feel like this?

¿Alguien más se siente tan nostálgico después de escuchar música?!Como, sólo tengo 14 años, pero cada vez que escucho música, empiezo a recordar todos mis recuerdos de cuando era más joven.Recuerdo a todos mis amigos, todos nuestros momentos juntos, y como sentimientos tan profundos.Siento que puedo ver toda mi vida cuando la canción llega a escribir.

Hey guys. u/nathan_blum and I are together! Poggers right! Just wanted to tell all my family here at r/teenagers. I did it guys! He’s perfect, funny and cute. Life is good. Fan art welcome! Pog u/nathan_blum I love you.

Hey guys.u/nathan_blum y yo estamos juntos!Poggers derecho!Sólo quería decir a toda mi familia aquí en r/teenagers.I lo hizo chicos!Él es perfecto, divertido y lindo.La vida es buena.El arte del fin bienvenida!Pog u/nathan_blum Te amo.

i am so mad happy rn like i just met this cute egirl tonite, we chilled around in a closed shopping center and later on went outside n cuddled and made out on a bench under a tree like holy hell fr felt like some cheesy romantic anime shit and i fuckin love it

Estoy tan loco feliz rn como acabo de conocer a esta linda egirl tonite, nos refrigeramos alrededor en un centro comercial cerrado y más tarde se fue fuera n abrazado y se hizo en un banco bajo un árbol como santo infierno fr se sentía como una mierda de anime romántico cursi y me encanta

Honestly, don't know what to title this.I'm 16 years old. I used to be smart, athletic, etc. I've been suffering from severe depression (albeit not officially diagnosed due to my parents unwilling to take me to the doctor) for about 6 years now. I always question what I am doing here. I do nothing productive, my grades are slipping, I find it hard to find the energy to go to school. I suffer from insomnia, and always have to wake up early the next day to go to school. I sit at home and play video games all day, usually alone so I can just listen to music as I play. My life has been great honestly, and that's why I hate myself so much more. I've had no problem finding girlfriends (although I've been cheated on 3 times in my 3 relationships). And while they are "high school" relationships, there was still feelings and other emotions involved. My parents have been great (albeit they are a bit insensitive). They provide for me well, they get me a lot of the things I want, they make sure I stay out of trouble. Just, they don't believe that for me, in my situation, I can be depressed, so I haven't talked to them in years about my situation. What also hurts me is the near daily talks about how my grades are slipping and I can pick it up cause they know I can do better. And all I can do is nod my head and tell them I'll try harder, even though I'm trying as hard as my mind will let me, and I know that I am just letting them down. I feel like I am a person who is generally ignored. A lot of times when I am talking to my friends in a group, they will communicate alongside themselves and if I try to talk, I generally get ignored. I'll usually repeat myself 2-3 times to see if anyone notices but many times I just get ignored again. I find myself raising my hand a lot in class for help but just being ignored by the teacher, whether they are talking with a student at the time and forget to check on me, or they just straight up think my questions are stupid. I feel as if many people find me being around them enjoyable. I have a temper, I joke around a lot, never really serious. I tease a lot..I don't really know why. One of my best friends passed away recently and that hit me hard. It hit me even harder that many people have been disrespecting him after his death. I routinely get harassed by people in my school, whether it being them calling me names (i.e Faggot, dip shit, retard, etc) and I only have one friend that I can truly say I could talk to but I don't ever talk to them cause I am afraid to disappoint. I've talked to the suicide hotline and honestly they weren't helpful at all. I got to talk but it never truly helped so I stopped calling. I have zero interests in pursuing any real job and I want to go pro in a video game I play but there is 0 chance of that happening due to my temper and it would stop me from ever making it on a team, plus the fact that I suffer from carpal tunnel. Another thing that has happened in my life is that I was forced into sexual situations with one of my exes, and physically abused if I didn't comply (scratching/nail digging mainly) and honestly nothing has made me feel more like a bitch then that relationship because I realized that I had a free out when she cheated on me but I still realized I liked her. I wanted to forgive her cause I believe people deserve second chances. And maybe the fact that I thought that she was the only girl I could get due to, in my opinion, shitty looks and bad personality. I'm planning on sneaking out tonight, taking a nice long walk outside where I know I will end up dying of hypothermia or just freezing in general. I think it would be nice to maybe walk and then watch some of The Office (great show by the way, it's stalled me from ending it a few days ago because I want to see the moment Jim and Pam get together). Freezing to death seems fitting due to it matching the cold, sinking feeling I constantly have in my chest. I don't plan on leaving any good byes, although I guess this could count as a signing off, to any friends or family. Maybe I'll tell one person tonight and see if they can convince me but quite honestly I just don't see myself enjoying my life at all for at least the next 10 or so years and would much rather just end it now instead of suffering 1 more year with these thoughts. I understand that I am young and that this is a harsh decision, but at this point I've cracked under the pressure of depression. Years of it eating at my thoughts, putting me down, causing me anxiety. It's enough, this has to stop. I put this off for way too long due to me being afraid of hurting others but at this point I need to realize that I am just going to grow up to be a fucking let down. TLDR; 16 year old bitch, good life, bad mental. Giving up. Nobody's going to read this or care. Signing off, Alex

Honestamente, no sé qué calificar de esto.Tengo 16 años.Yo solía ser inteligente, atlético, etc.He estado sufriendo de depresión severa (aunque no me diagnosticaron oficialmente debido a que mis padres no querían llevarme al médico) durante aproximadamente 6 años.Siempre cuestiono lo que estoy haciendo aquí.No hago nada productivo, mis notas están resbalando, me resulta difícil encontrar la energía para ir a la escuela.Sufro de insomnio, y siempre tengo que despertarme temprano al día siguiente para ir a la escuela.Me siento en casa y juego videojuegos todo el día, generalmente solo, así que puedo escuchar música mientras toco.Mi vida ha sido genial honestamente, y es por eso que me odio mucho más.No he tenido problemas para encontrar novias (aunque me han engañado 3 veces en mis 3 relaciones).Y mientras son relaciones de "escuela alta", todavía hay sentimientos y otras emociones involucradas.Mis padres han sido geniales (aunque son un poco insensibles).Ellos me proporcionan bien, me consiguen muchas de las cosas que quiero, me aseguran que tengo problemas.

It's happening! It's not just the Spanish I have recently seen the German and Italian Inquisition. It doesn't end with Spain, but it will end with Pain.

¡Está sucediendo!No es sólo el español que he visto recientemente la Inquisición alemana e italiana, no termina con España, sino que terminará con el Dolor.

Should I install instagram? Most of my friends have it, but I dont really much interest in it. I can talk to them through whatsapp or discord. So I leave it on your hands

¿Debo instalar instagram?La mayoría de mis amigos lo tienen, pero realmente no me interesa mucho.Puedo hablar con ellos a través de whatsapp o discordancia.Así que lo dejo en tus manos

hello i’m back long time no see , if u remember me from summer say hi

hola estoy de vuelta hace mucho tiempo que no te veo, si me recuerdas de verano decir hola

That's it.That's it. I cannot help myself. I just realized that I do not have friends. And I'm in depression. Nevertheless gf left me 6 months ago. I'm alone and I cannot stand up on my feet. I just want to sink. I don't know how to swim. It's probably fastest and easiest way to do that. I will took my last walk with depressed songs in the evening. I just want to thank you all who helped me in other posts. I managed to live to this day. Thank you! And good bye my friends I guess ?

Eso es todo.Eso es todo.No puedo evitarlo.Me acabo de dar cuenta de que no tengo amigos.Y estoy en depresión.Sin embargo, gf me dejó hace 6 meses.Estoy sola y no puedo ponerme de pie.Solo quiero hundirme.No sé nadar.Probablemente sea la manera más rápida y fácil de hacerlo.Voy a dar mi último paseo con canciones deprimidas por la noche.Solo quiero agradecer a todos los que me ayudaron en otros posts.Me las arreglé para vivir hasta este día.¡Gracias!Y adiós a mis amigos, supongo?

Why bother.I have hit rock bottom. Have you ever noticed that when that happens, when you truly fall apart, the people who you thought would be there for you just scatter? I have told 3 people of my intention to die, 2 of them health professionals. I have begged to be put into a mental health facility. Not one person has taken me seriously. I have lost the love of my life. Left me 2 months ago after 17 years. I find joy in nothing. Nothing. My mum doesnt want me to go into hospital because it means I will miss work. Who gives a fuck about work? Do you want me to live or not? My ex won't give a shit if I am dead. He has cut me off completely. I wake up every day and think "will today be any better?" It never is. Never. I just had a chat with Lifeline. Not even strangers give a shit. All scripted crap. In the end, we are well and truly Alone. I could die tonight and no one will even notice.

¿Por qué molestarse?He tocado fondo de roca.¿Alguna vez has notado que cuando eso sucede, cuando realmente te desmoronas, la gente que pensabas que estaría allí para ti simplemente se dispersa?He dicho a 3 personas de mi intención de morir, 2 de ellos profesionales de la salud.He rogado que me metan en un centro de salud mental.Ni una sola persona me ha tomado en serio.He perdido el amor de mi vida.Me he dejado hace 2 meses después de 17 años.Hallo alegría en nada.Nada.Mi madre no quiere que vaya al hospital porque significa que me perderé el trabajo.¿A quién le importa un carajo el trabajo?¿Quieres que viva o no?Mi ex no me importará una mierda si estoy muerto.Me ha cortado completamente.Me despierto todos los días y pienso "hoy será mejor?"Nunca lo es.Nunca lo es.Apenas tuve una charla con Lifeline.Ni siquiera a los extraños les importa una mierda.

What is the point?I have nothing to live for. I'm terrible person, I blame all my problems on the people around me and when they point out how retarded that is, I get mad. I hate my sister cause she is more happy then me. I hate my parents because they try and help me. I hate myself because i'm aware of how shitty of a person I am, I'm not going anywhere in life after I graduate, I don't even know if I will graduate. I have nothing, so why do I still bother?

¿Cuál es el punto?No tengo nada por lo que vivir.Soy una persona terrible, culpo todos mis problemas a la gente a mi alrededor y cuando señalan lo retrasado que es, me enojo.Odio a mi hermana porque es más feliz que yo.Odio a mis padres porque tratan de ayudarme.Me odio a mí mismo porque soy consciente de la mierda de una persona que soy, no voy a ninguna parte de la vida después de graduarme, ni siquiera sé si me graduaré.No tengo nada, así que ¿por qué sigo molestándome?

Thoughts about the new Ternion award It was added a few hours ago, and it costs 50'000 coins, the equivalent of 125 USD. That is a lot of money. I personally am not against Reddit for adding it, because it's their decision and they're forcing no one to buy it. It's just there. But a post that is so meaningful for someone to spend 125 dollars on it seems pretty rare. What is your opinion on the award?

Pensamientos sobre el nuevo premio Ternion Se agregó hace unas horas, y cuesta 50'000 monedas, el equivalente de 125 USD.Eso es mucho dinero.Yo personalmente no estoy en contra de Reddit por añadirlo, porque es su decisión y no están obligando a nadie a comprarlo.Es justo ahí.Pero un post que es tan significativo para alguien gastar 125 dólares en él parece bastante raro.¿Cuál es su opinión sobre el premio?

My stepmom is constantly guarding me against inviting female friends over (Even though I'm gay) for sexual reasons, and I was thinking... What if I brought over a bf and had sex... I think it would be really funny since she never said anything about other guys (Just to be clear this is purely theoretical)

Mi madrastra me protege constantemente contra invitar a las amigas (aunque soy gay) por razones sexuales, y estaba pensando... ¿Qué pasa si traje encima de un BF y tuve sexo... Creo que sería muy divertido ya que nunca dijo nada sobre otros chicos (Sólo para ser claro que esto es puramente teórico)

I only live for othersI really just want it all to end. I know I shouldn’t, I know I have been given so many good opportunities and that I am loved but I still want to just end it, I have a plan and everything. I can’t do this to the ones I love though. Plus I built what I call “Blocks”, things or people that will prevent me from doing it. I refuse to go therapy or tell anyone who knows me in real life about how I feel and how depression is affecting me. I would rather them think me as lazy than them failing to give me a reason to live because it’s my fault. Everyone’s been so nice, I’m the only fault.

Yo sólo vivo para los demásYo realmente sólo quiero que todo termine.Sé que no debería, sé que me han dado tantas buenas oportunidades y que soy amado pero todavía quiero terminarlo, tengo un plan y todo.No puedo hacer esto a los que amo sin embargo.Además construí lo que llamo “Bloques”, cosas o personas que me impedirán hacerlo.Me niego a ir a terapia o decirle a cualquiera que me conozca en la vida real sobre cómo me siento y cómo la depresión me está afectando.Prefiero que me piensen como perezoso que no me den una razón para vivir porque es mi culpa.Todo el mundo ha sido tan agradable, soy la única culpa.

Day 2: Electric Boogaloo I’ve been left on delivered for 2 days now. I suspect that maybe she’s just busy....I hope. Pain.

Día 2: Eléctrico Boogaloo Me han dejado en entrega por 2 días ahora. Sospecho que tal vez ella sólo está ocupado....Espero.Pain.

seeing people in relationships reminds me of how worthless I am as a personI really wish I was fucking dead. There's no point in me being alive when I'll just end up being alone forever. There's a park nearby where I can drive my car at a high speed into a big tree and finally end my life. I don't want to live anymore. There will always be someone in the world who can replace me. I'd rather kill myself than have to go through constant rejections. I don't give a shit about living past 30. I'd rather not have to live an entire life of being miserable. There is absolutely nothing in life that makes me want to keep on living.

Ver a la gente en las relaciones me recuerda lo inútil que soy como persona que realmente deseo estar muerta.No tiene sentido que esté viva cuando termine estando sola para siempre.Hay un parque cerca donde puedo conducir mi coche a alta velocidad hacia un árbol grande y finalmente terminar mi vida.No quiero vivir más.Siempre habrá alguien en el mundo que pueda reemplazarme.Prefiero matarme a tener que pasar por rechazos constantes.No me importa una mierda vivir más allá de los 30 años.Prefiero no tener que vivir una vida entera de ser miserable.No hay absolutamente nada en la vida que me haga querer seguir viviendo.

I'm pretty much doneEverything is going to be over soon. For a couple of years now, everything just kept getting worse and worse, now I've finally reached the limited. I don't know how to cope anymore, so I'm just going to give up. I'm just a loser to stupid and depressed to achieve anything in life, I'm also disabled which makes everything even worse. I just don't know anything anymore, there just isn't a light at the end of the tunnel...

Estoy bastante hechoTodo va a ser sobre soon.For un par de años ahora, todo sólo seguía empeorando y empeorando, ahora finalmente he alcanzado el limit.I no sé cómo hacer frente a más, así que sólo voy a renunciar.I'm sólo un perdedor a estúpido y deprimido para lograr cualquier cosa en la vida, también estoy discapacitado que hace todo incluso peor.I apenas no sé nada más, simplemente no hay una luz al final del túnel...

i dont feel like myself anymorei dont know whats happening at this point. i feel useless and stupid. My grades are a landslide. i know my parents hate me. i put on a face when i see my friends so they dont feel sad. whats happening? maybe dead is better. it wont just "get better", i know it wont.

No me siento como a mí mismo ya no sé lo que está pasando en este punto.Me siento inútil y estúpido.Mis calificaciones son un deslizamiento de tierra.Sé que mis padres me odian.Me pongo en una cara cuando veo a mis amigos para que no se sientan triste.qué está pasando?tal vez muerto es mejor.no sólo "mejorar", sé que no lo hará.

I don't know what to do anymoreI don't have any friends. My family treats me like shit, especially my mom who calls me names, hits me, and threatens to kill me. School stresses me out so much because I've always been so good at school but I've been getting bad grades because I'm so sleep deprived and I can't concentrate. I feel horrible about everything because I have so much but for some reason I can't appreciate it. I've been self harming since I was 9 and contemplating suicide since I was 7; I'm 16 now. I've attempted suicide twice but I was saved by strangers walking by and I hate how I'm still alive. Since I'm a teenager from a financially well off family I feel like I'm just being whiny or just being another angsty emo kid that's just going through some sort of phase. I'm not even technically diagnosed with depression or any mental illness. It would be better if I just died right now. Hardly anyone would notice. Most people wouldn't care and maybe even be happy that I'm gone. I don't know why I haven't already tried to kill myself again. Maybe I've been hoping that things will get better? I know it's stupid because nothing has gotten better so it probably never will.

No sé qué hacer, ya no tengo amigos.Mi familia me trata como una mierda, especialmente mi mamá que me llama nombres, me golpea y amenaza con matarme.La escuela me estresa tanto porque siempre he sido tan buena en la escuela, pero he estado recibiendo malas notas porque estoy tan privada del sueño y no puedo concentrarme.Me siento horrible por todo porque tengo tanto, pero por alguna razón no puedo apreciarlo.He estado autolesionándome desde los 9 años y contemplando el suicidio desde los 7 años; ahora tengo 16 años.He intentado suicidarme dos veces, pero me salvaron unos desconocidos caminando y odio cómo sigo vivo.Como soy adolescente de una familia financieramente bien alejada, me siento como si solo estuviera siendo un capricho o simplemente siendo otro niño emo angustioso que simplemente está pasando por una especie de fase.Ni siquiera estoy diagnosticado con depresión o cualquier enfermedad mental.

My cat died today. My best friend.Hey people. So as it says in title, I was fighting with depression for a few years now and I actually felt like I'm totally okay last few months. But today my cat died. My best friend, she would always wait by the door when I was about to arrive from work. She was always next to me when I was home, and now it's all so empty. I have trouble forming bonds. But the bond I formed with her was strong. I don't know how to keep on going. The worst thing is that I could be blamed for her death. I took her to vet because she lost weight. And she had some parasites that actually started a cancer in her body. Vet said that maybe she could have helped her if I'd brought her earlier. She always used to loose weight when she was in heat, so I tought that's why she lost some weight. But I was wrong and now she is dead. They had to put her to sleep forever. I can't stop thinking about how it would go if I took here to vet earlier. I only noticed she is getting worse a month ago. So since I'm living alone at 21 and paying for living and school while working I had to put some money together before going to vet's place. I can't stop blaming myself, and missing my little Tina. I always have this feeling that she is here. I look on my bed and see her, and a second later I realize it's just my imagination. She is gone. I love her so much, but I failed her. I really do hope she is at better place now. Waiting for me like she always used to when I was comming from work.

Mi gato murió hoy.Mi mejor amiga.Hola gente.Así que como dice en el título, yo estaba luchando con la depresión por unos años ahora y en realidad me sentí totalmente bien los últimos meses.Pero hoy mi gato murió.Mi mejor amiga, ella siempre esperaba junto a la puerta cuando estaba a punto de llegar del trabajo.Ella siempre estaba a mi lado cuando estaba en casa, y ahora está todo tan vacío.Tengo problemas para formar lazos.Pero el vínculo que formé con ella era fuerte.No sé cómo seguir adelante.Lo peor es que siempre podía ser culpada por su muerte.La llevé a la veterinaria porque perdió peso.Y tenía algunos parásitos que en realidad comenzaron un cáncer en su cuerpo.Vet dijo que tal vez ella podría haberla ayudado si la hubiera traído antes.Siempre solía perder peso cuando estaba en celo, así que me esforcé por eso que perdió algo de peso.Pero yo estaba equivocado y ahora ella está muerta.Tenía que ir a dormir para siempre.No puedo dejar de pensar en cómo iba a ir a veterinaria, así que sólo me di cuenta de que tenía un poco de peso en la escuela.

I saw a kid wearing an ahegao sweater while waiting for the bus Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler. Also if they see this then props to you for having the confidence to wear that to school.

Vi a un niño usando un jersey de ahegao mientras esperaba el autobús de relleno relleno relleno relleno relleno relleno relleno.También si ven esto, se adecua a usted para tener la confianza de llevar eso a la escuela.

Someone please encourage me to kill myself.I don't want you to tell me not to do it. Anything helps just tell me what your plan is, if you even have one. Or tell me I'm a fucking failure. I can't hold on anymore I need to speed this up. Depression makes it a slow and painful process. I want to die so bad but it's hard to just get myself to do it. People trying to help me just slows this down even more. Please please just tell me to do it.

Alguien por favor anímame a suicidarme.No quiero que me digas que no lo haga.Cualquier cosa ayuda a simplemente decirme cuál es tu plan, si incluso tienes uno.O dime que soy un maldito fracaso.No puedo aguantar más necesito acelerar esto.La depresión hace que sea un proceso lento y doloroso.Quiero morir tan mal, pero es difícil conseguir que lo haga.La gente que trata de ayudarme sólo me ralentiza aún más.Por favor, por favor, sólo dime que lo haga.

Close people suffering from my death is not enough of a reason for me not to, honestly.I don't want to fucking not kill myself because other would suffer from it. I don't want to continue this numb existence for others. I want actual concrete reasons that would make **ME** feel **BETTER** about living, not me feeling worse about dying. I want to have reasons for **ME** wanting to live further. I want to wake up one day and not think about the misery of being the one of fucking 400 TRILLION people that my parents could've given birth to. I want to look at it with gratitude instead. Life is a gift they say. Well, if I could fucking donate my soul to someone that actually wants to use it and truly live, I would. I would right fucking now. I didn't ask to be here. If I had a time machine I'd go back to when my parents met and I would prevent that from ever happening. I feel like a fucking mistake. I feel like I'm not worth the air that I'm breathing, the atoms that I'm occuping or even of just being here. It's not even just feeling alone anymore, the feeling is better described as if I were alone in a whole planet 100 times bigger than Earth and that its athmosphere is crushing me everyday a bit more until the day I'm completely broken. I feel like that obnoxious piece of sand inside the mechanism of a perfect clock. Fuck me.

La gente que sufre de mi muerte no es suficiente de una razón para no hacerlo, honestamente.No quiero joderme a mí mismo porque otros lo sufrirían.No quiero continuar con esta existencia entumecida para los demás.Quiero razones concretas reales que hagan que **ME** sienta **ME** sobre vivir, no me siento peor sobre morir.Quiero tener razones para **ME** querer vivir más.Quiero despertarme un día y no pensar en la miseria de ser una de las jodidas 400 TRILLONES a las que mis padres podrían haber dado a luz.Quiero mirarlo con gratitud en su lugar.La vida es un regalo que dicen.Bueno, si yo pudiera donar mi alma a alguien que realmente quiere usarla y vivir de verdad, lo haría.Yo lo haría ahora mismo.No pedí estar aquí.Si tuviera una máquina del tiempo a la que regresaría cuando mis padres se encontraran y yo evitaría que eso llegara a suceder.Me siento como un puto error.Siento que no me vale la pena el aire que estoy respirando, los átomos que estoy ocupando o incluso estar aquí.

So an African pastor is heading to his church Sunday morning So as he's walking through the jungle he hears growling. He turns around and sees a lion. He starts running and running until he gives up and gets on his knees and starts praying: God please dont let this lion eat me. The pastor stops praying because he couldn't hear the lion anymore. He turns around and sees the lion on his knees praying. The pastor says hey lion I didnt know you prayed and the lion says im saying Grace

Así que un pastor africano se dirige a su iglesia el domingo por la mañanaAsí que mientras camina por la selva oye gruñir.Se da la vuelta y ve a un león.Comienza a correr y a correr hasta que se rinde y se pone de rodillas y comienza a orar: Dios por favor no deje que este león me coma.El pastor deja de orar porque ya no podía oír al león.Se da la vuelta y ve al león de rodillas rezando.El pastor dice: Hey león no sabía que rezabas y el león dice im diciendo Gracia

Help with methodNo bullshit advice or sob stories please. I’m killing myself today and I want to know the most painless way. I’ve researched and found hanging to be the best choice but if it goes wrong it can be horrible. If you know a more painless easy way then please tell me and save me the agony of hanging. Before you comment, please read the first sentence.

Ayuda con el métodoSin consejos de mierda o historias tristes por favor.Me estoy matando hoy y quiero saber la manera más indolora.He investigado y encontrado que colgar para ser la mejor opción, pero si sale mal puede ser horrible.Si usted sabe una manera fácil más indolora entonces por favor dime y guardarme la agonía de colgar.Antes de comentar, por favor lea la primera frase.

I need to clean myself up but im too overstimulated mentally So i have a lot of mental illnesses that make ne overstimulated easy, plus i have more nerves than others, so i feel a lot more than others (ex: my hair feels like spider legs on my neck constantly) Im so overstimulated right now and its partially due to being sweaty but getting into a shower sounds like hell rn because of having things constantly hitting me If any teen who has issues like this too please help? None of my family really understand so i cant go to them. Also please dont tell me im dirty i showered on thursday its just a hot day today

Necesito limpiarme, pero estoy demasiado sobreestimulado mentalmente.Así que tengo muchas enfermedades mentales que hacen que ne sobreestimulada fácil, además tengo más nervios que otros, así que siento mucho más que otros (por ejemplo: mi cabello se siente como patas de araña en mi cuello constantemente) Estoy sobreestimulada ahora mismo y es parcialmente debido a estar sudoroso, pero entrar en una ducha suena como infierno debido a tener cosas constantemente golpearme Si cualquier adolescente que tiene problemas como este también por favor ayude?Ninguna de mi familia realmente entender así que no puedo ir a ellos.También por favor no me digas im dirthi duchado el jueves es sólo un día caliente hoy

Doing it tomorrow or this weekend.First, you have to even afford to off yourself because just existing sentences you to owing thousands of dollars. I owe thousands. A professional license I can't afford to renew, my car (taxes..even though I own it, tag renewel and inspection). That's 2k right there. I am so SICK i could puke. I can't keep up with this life. I can't afford to live. My bank account is -19 and I don't even know why. So yeah, I'M NOT LIVING THIS FUCKED UP HELL anymore. I owe for my belongings and even what I went to college for. I have NO MONEY. I am absolutely NO DOUBT ending it in the next few days. Life is SLAVERY AND HELL. I AM 39. AND KIDS, IT NEVER GETS BETTER.

Hacerlo mañana o este fin de semana.Primero, incluso tienes que permitirte a ti mismo porque sólo las oraciones existentes que debe miles de dólares.Yo debo miles.Una licencia profesional que no puedo permitirme renovar, mi coche (impuestos..a pesar de que soy dueño de él, renovar etiqueta e inspección).Eso es 2k allí.Estoy tan SICKi podría vomitar.No puedo mantenerme al día con esta vida.No puedo permitirme vivir.Mi cuenta bancaria es -19 y ni siquiera sé por qué.Así que sí, ya no estoy viviendo esta mierda.Ya no debo por mis pertenencias e incluso por lo que fui a la universidad.No tengo ningún dinero.No soy absolutamente DOUBT terminarlo en los próximos días.

Explaining Mike Mike is one of my OCs, I made a post showing some facts and trivia about him. This post is trying to explain the existence of Mike himself and his biology. Ask me everything about him and I'll answer it

Explicando que Mike Mike es uno de mis OCs, hice un post mostrando algunos hechos y trivialidades sobre él.Este post está tratando de explicar la existencia de Mike mismo y su biología.Pregúntame todo sobre él y lo responderé.

I think I want to end myself (21 M)Been suffering from clinical depression for a few years. Mental health care wasn't a thing where I grew up, and it was only in the last couple of years that I started seeing counselors/psychologists (?). It worked for a while, but then some days is just more difficult than others. Tonight's one of those days. Life's been pretty average. Good friends, not too broke and so on. Unfortunately, there have been a few situations in my life that I wished had gone differently. Some of them are prolly my fault for how I approached them, but others just seemed out of my control. And on nights like these, these situations and memories just replay themselves over and over in my head, in a fucking spiral. I feel trapped. I don't know what to do other than kill myself. I don't have anyone to talk to, at least not at the level I want to. Despite having good friends, I feel lonely. And that doesn't help the depression. Fuck everything.

Creo que quiero terminar conmigo mismo (21 M)He estado sufriendo de depresión clínica durante unos años.El cuidado de la salud mental no fue una cosa en la que crecí, y fue sólo en los últimos dos años que empecé a ver consejeros/psicólogos (?).Funcionó durante un tiempo, pero luego algunos días es sólo más difícil que otros.Uno de esos días de la noche.La vida ha sido bastante promedio.Buenos amigos, no demasiado rotos y así sucesivamente.Desafortunadamente, ha habido algunas situaciones en mi vida que deseaba que hubieran ido diferente.Algunos de ellos son culpa mía por cómo me acerqué a ellos, pero otros simplemente parecían fuera de mi control.Y en noches como estas, estas situaciones y recuerdos simplemente se repiten una y otra vez en mi cabeza, en una jodida espiral.Me siento atrapado.No sé qué hacer que no me mate a mí mismo.No tengo a nadie con quien hablar, al menos no al nivel que quiera.A pesar de tener buenos amigos, me siento solo.Y eso no ayuda a la depresión.

So alone and ready to goSo I thought since everything is going to hell in a handbasket why not have a space for my own thoughts. Life as it is has become at times unbearable.Were it not for my youngest son I would have quit ages ago.But now he is almost up and running,ready to fly the nest.In a very few weeks he will move in with friends and ready to stand on his own two feet. Acording to my taxes we lived on £5600 last year.As of yesterday that has halved.So now we have £110 a week for the both of us.After paying rent,council tax,electric,fuel,internet and TV licence we have £28 left to feed,clothe ,pay for bus fares ect. of course this has put me in a position like so many others.Hunger is a constant companion. I have sold everything that could be sold,pictures,bedding,my bed,my clothes ,which were far too big anyway as I lost 4 stone on the austerity diet.I abhor the idea of going to the food bank.My ex tells my kids I am a lazy scrounger despite having worked almost all the time while raising 5 children.Only after moving us to a remote part of Scotland did I stop working.I had a nine month old baby when we moved there and the nearest village was 8 miles away.I do not drive .Yet I still made a garden,kept a cosy home,grew food,kept chickens ect. Eventually for various reasons I had a complete breakdown ,leaving him saved my life and after working hard managed to restore my confidence,got healthy and raised a compassionate,smart and well educated boy. But now I am out of strength,only holding on to make sure he is going to get of to a good start and have a support net of friends. Some days I have hope that things might change.I volunteer and do unpaid jobs but having spent most of my life raising children and supporting my ex in building his company I have no qualifications I have skills,my garden is lush and fertile,my IT skills good,I speak several languages and am good at many things.But without paperwork and being told that at 48 I am to old for many jobs ,unpaid work is my lot. I got nothing from my ex apart from several e-mail telling me how worthless I am.He sent letters to my father in law,brother in law and also used the children in a most abhorrent way to further destroy what little confidence I had left. So I am looking at my future and only see destitution and poverty.He can keep his bloody money ,his cars,his companies,his face tax returns.Karma will surely one day kick in I hope. I still get enjoyment from the beauty of the world surrounding me but hunger and worry have leached away any hope for a better future. I mourn the loss of those I love the most,lies,manipulation and cruelty...........the loss of those I thought of as loved ones almost family hurt me the most. So now I simply wait.Having sourced Nembutal,antiemetics and several barbiturates ,I feel that at the very least I have a choice to end my life with dignity at my own hand and a time of my own choosing. The picture shows me several weeks ago,it was a good day.I still had hope but then I came to know yet more stories my ex had spread and I can not describe the feeling of sorrow that not a single one of those I love cared to find out the truth. Maybe I am worthless and simply can not see it? But looking at my youngest son raised by myself without much of his influence I did at least do one thing right.He is a good and smart person.Although quiet ,he has a big heart. I used to have dreams,a home,going to college after the kids were grown a share of the years of work I put in to support my ex in building his wealth. Now I go through skips to stretch our food.I have nothing left to sell and no money to start fresh.Though having found a place to rent I can not afford the moving costs nor furniture,clothing let alone bus fares or education. I am so very very tired.And I will not beg for crumbs any longer.

Así que solo y listo para irAsí que pensé ya que todo se va al infierno en una cesta de mano por qué no tener un espacio para mis propios pensamientos.La vida como es se ha vuelto a veces insoportable.No lo había dejado para mi hijo menor hace años.Pero ahora está casi en marcha, listo para volar el nido.En muy pocas semanas se mudará con amigos y listo para estar de pie en sus propios pies.Concordando con mis impuestos vivimos en £5600 el año pasado.A partir de ayer que se ha reducido a la mitad.Así que ahora tenemos £110 a la semana para los dos.Después de pagar el alquiler, impuesto council, eléctrico, combustible, Internet y licencia de televisión tenemos £28 para alimentar, ropa, pagar las tarifas de autobús ect.Por supuesto esto me ha puesto en una posición como tantos otros.El hambre es un compañero constante.He vendido todo lo que se podía vender, fotos, cama, ropa, ropa de autobús ect.Por supuesto esto he puesto en una posición como muchos otros.

Todays my birthday Today i turned 13! As part of many celebrations, i joined the r/teenagers subreddit. Also whats being a teenager like?

Hoy mi cumpleaños ¡Hoy cumplí 13 años!Como parte de muchas celebraciones, me uní al subreddit de r/adolescentes.¿Cómo es ser un adolescente?

My gf wants to go out all the time but I'm lazy and likes to stay home what do I do (I'm girl she's a girl let's get that out of the way) Now she wanted yesterday to go out to the movies after we were just at the beach all since the morning, but I told her i prefer staying home and watching a movie on Netflix with her, I just don't like going out all the time, she got mad at me and told me I don't care about her feelings which is not true, I'd like some advice on my situation here

Mi gf quiere salir todo el tiempo pero soy perezoso y le gusta quedarse en casa lo que hago (soy una chica que es una chica vamos a sacar eso del camino)Ahora ella quería ayer salir al cine después de que estábamos en la playa todo desde la mañana, pero le dije que prefiero quedarme en casa y ver una película en Netflix con ella, simplemente no me gusta salir todo el tiempo, ella se enojó conmigo y me dijo que no me importa sus sentimientos que no es verdad, me gustaría un consejo sobre mi situación aquí

There is literally almost no downsides of me dying.So, why not to just try then? But of course my death might cause pain to my parents and such, but they deserve it in every way honestly.

Literalmente no hay ningún inconveniente en que yo muera.Entonces, ¿por qué no simplemente intentarlo entonces?Pero por supuesto mi muerte podría causar dolor a mis padres y demás, pero ellos lo merecen en todos los sentidos honestamente.

No Emergency But I'm WorriedHey All, Long time lurker, first time poster. Over the years I've commented on a few posts, shared a few of my own strategies and generally helped when I felt I could. This however is my first time on the podium. I'm 25 and I've been suicidal on and off for like 11 years. I know all the tricks and have even gotten myself to the point where I can feel an episode coming and prepare properly. Anyway, in a month I loose a seasonal job and, with some other break up and lack of success stuff, I can feel some real dark periods are like 2 weeks away. This time something weird is happening. I'm not scared. Normally the idea I might finally off myself fills me with dread as my brain completes the checklist of consequences. The anxiety bubbles and I just freak out. Recently though? It feels great. I will be in an anxious situation and thinking about leaving is like breathing out after holding it for hours. It's like I'm finally getting permission to relax where I couldn't before. I'm not burdened ideas of hurting my family, friends and peers; my brain just accepts it and moves on. These days the thought of suicide is the most Zen thing in the world. I'm not in any immediate danger. This won't happen next week, but I've fought this thing a bunch of times and I think I'm starting to make peace with the fact my last fight might be coming. Is this a weird thing? Like has anyone else been in a similiar place before? Let me know. P.S. This community is awesome. During my darkest episodes it was amazing just to see that other people were thinking in the same way as me. Let's keep this shit up.

No EmergencyPero estoy preocupadoHey All, Long time lurker, afiche de primera vez.A lo largo de los años he comentado algunos posts, he compartido algunas de mis propias estrategias y, en general, he ayudado cuando sentí que podía.Esta es mi primera vez en el podio.Tengo 25 años y he sido suicida durante 11 años.Conozco todos los trucos e incluso he llegado al punto en que puedo sentir un episodio venir y prepararme adecuadamente.En cualquier caso, en un mes pierdo un trabajo estacional y, con algunas otras rupturas y falta de éxito, puedo sentir que algunos períodos oscuros reales están como a 2 semanas de distancia.Esta vez algo raro está sucediendo.No estoy asustado.Normalmente la idea de que podría salir de mí mismo me llena de miedo mientras mi cerebro completa la lista de consecuencias.La ansiedad se desata y me asusto.Sin embargo, recientemente?Se siente genial.Estaré en una situación ansiosa y pensaré en dejar de lado mi mente es como respirar durante horas.Es como si finalmente me estuviera permitiendo relajarme donde no podía.

FUCK SCHOOL SCHOOL IS BUILT FOR MONEY HOARDING NOT MAKING YOUR LIFE BETTER I WANT TO BE A DROP OUT BECAUSE IM NOT SUPPORTING THESE MONEY HOARDERS

La escuela de la puta escuela está construida para el dinero no hacer tu vida mejor quiero ser una salida porque no estoy apoyando a estos aperos de dinero

Class of 2021 Seniors If you're a high school senior who's graduating this spring and want a graduation announcement, I can design one for you! Feel free to DM me for more information if interested.

Class of 2021 Seniors Si eres un senior de secundaria que se está graduando esta primavera y quieres un anuncio de graduación, ¡puedo diseñar uno para ti!Siéntete libre de darme DM para más información si te interesa.

42m not doing it tonight anyways...I don't so much want to kill myself as much as I just wish I was dead most of the time. Like many of us say, so many others have it worse but damn if life doesn't hurt sometimes no matter who you are. Dealing with stupid midlife shit can be as frustrating as puberty. I'm not going to do it tonight but damn I am so exhausted with it all lately and have been thinking of it a lot. Anyways, here's to hanging on one more day I guess...

42m no hacerlo esta noche de todos modos ... No quiero tanto para matarme a mí mismo tanto como sólo deseo que estaba muerto la mayor parte del tiempo.Como muchos de nosotros dicen, tantos otros lo tienen peor, pero maldita sea si la vida no duele a veces no importa quién eres.Tratar con mierda estúpida de la mediana edad puede ser tan frustrante como la pubertad.No voy a hacerlo esta noche, pero maldita sea estoy tan exhausto con todo esto últimamente y han estado pensando en ello mucho.De todos modos, aquí está a colgar en un día más supongo que...

I have no money and I have to dieI have £3 in my bank account I’ve dropped out of uni but still in my student house I’m not employed any more I need money my landlord I have to pay my rent right now but I can’t I have no money I can’t I don’t have an overdraft and they won’t give me one I can’t borrow from my parents it’s too much money I’ve been having an anxiety attack for an hour I don’t know what to do I haven’t tried to kill my self this month but I have to it has to work otherwise what do I do I dint know

No tengo dinero y tengo que morir Tengo £3 en mi cuenta bancaria He abandonado la universidad, pero todavía en mi casa de estudiantes No estoy empleado más que necesito dinero Mi propietario Tengo que pagar mi alquiler ahora mismo, pero no puedo tener ningún dinero No puedo No tengo un descubierto y no me dan uno No puedo pedir prestado de mis padres Es demasiado dinero He estado teniendo un ataque de ansiedad durante una hora No sé qué hacer No he tratado de matar a mi mismo este mes, pero tengo que trabajar de lo contrario ¿qué hago yo sé

I woke up to my phone falling off my bed 😳 i was listening to white noise on earbuds while I sleep

Me desperté a mi teléfono cayendo de mi cama estaba escuchando ruido blanco en los auriculares mientras duermo

2 frostys in 2 minutes my teacher just said that he once bet a student he couldn't eat 2 frostys in 2 minutes and if he could he would get him a new one, he tried and got brain freeze and had to go to the nurse, I said "why would he do that that is literally impossible" and he said "yeah that's why it was funny"

2 helados en 2 minutos mi profesor acaba de decir que una vez apostó a un estudiante que no podía comer 2 helados en 2 minutos y si podía él le conseguiría uno nuevo, intentó y se congeló el cerebro y tuvo que ir a la enfermera, le dije "por qué iba a hacer eso es literalmente imposible" y él dijo "sí, es por eso que era divertido"

I unlocked the DLC emotions, guys Obviously everyone on r/teenagers initially only has “depressed” and “horny,” but I’ve finally unlocked the 3 DLC ones! “Anxious,” “bored” and “violently angry!” Gonna try these out later, anyone wanna come?

Desbloqueé las emociones DLC, chicos Obviamente todo el mundo en r / adolescentes inicialmente sólo ha "deprimido" y "horny", pero finalmente he desbloqueado los 3 DLC! "Ansioso", "aburrido" y "violentamente enojado!"Gonna probar estos más tarde, ¿alguien quiere venir?

I just lost another Auntie within a month. They shouldn't be gone when I'm still here...My Auntie went, and now my great Auntie is passed as well. I'm not built for this, and I got no business being here when they're not. I got 20 tramadol is right here, and some southern comfort to wash it down, but I can't bring myself to do it. Why can I not take the the plunge?

Acabo de perder a otra tía dentro de un mes.No deberían haberse ido cuando todavía estoy aquí...Mi tía se fue, y ahora mi tía abuela también ha pasado.No estoy hecha para esto, y no tengo nada que hacer aquí cuando no lo están.Tengo 20 tramadol está aquí, y un poco de comodidad sureña para lavarlo, pero no puedo hacerlo. ¿Por qué no puedo tomar la zambullida?

Does life feel like a nightmare to you?OK so.., the other day..., I felt like I was having a nervous break down,.. because I love my family and I'm responsible for taking care of them.., I do have a dad but he's been away since I was 15 I'm 23 right now..., but let me get to point.., I don't know why but I feel dead on the inside and have no motivation at all to do anything I hate it!, it feels like a nightmare to live because..., I got on probation.., because of some Jackass scammed my family out of car,.., and I took them heat.., I was lucky that I didn't go to jail because of their scheme, selling us a stolen car,.. which I took the blame for..., and now am on probation because I couldn't pay the fees.. So now I have to waste my time doing community service for unpaid.. work!, and am only working a few hours at my other job where I get paid and its not enough.., I have a lot chest pain almost everyday and almost feel like I'm going to a seizure or nervous break down everyday, because I can't fully support my family and take care of them.., I really just want to end my life and say goodbye to life.., but I have hope that things will change.. has anyone been in a situation like this and how did they get out?.

¿La vida se siente como una pesadilla para usted?OKso.., el otro día..., me sentí como si estuviera teniendo una ruptura nerviosa abajo,.. porque amo a mi familia y soy responsable de cuidar de ellos.., tengo un padre pero él ha estado lejos desde que tenía 15 ahora mismo tengo 23..., pero déjame llegar al punto.., no sé por qué pero me siento muerto en el interior y no tengo ninguna motivación para hacer nada que lo odio!, se siente como una pesadilla para vivir porque..., me puse en libertad condicional.., debido a que algunos Jackass estafaron a mi familia fuera del coche,.., y les tomé calor.., tuve suerte de que no fui a la cárcel debido a su plan, vendernos un coche robado,... que tomé la culpa por..., y ahora estoy en libertad condicional porque no podía pagar los honorarios.., así que ahora tengo que perder mi tiempo haciendo servicio comunitario por trabajo no remunerado!, y estoy trabajando sólo unas horas en mi otro trabajo donde me pagan y no lo suficiente..

omfg I just woke up with the worse case of strep throat my tonsils are like the size of golf balls I can barely breath through my nose it hurts so bad to swallow the only thing I can eat without hurting is apple sauce ugh and I only got 5 hours of sleep on a not school day wtf

omfg Acabo de despertar con el peor caso de estreptococos garganta mis amígdalas son como el tamaño de las bolas de golf Apenas puedo respirar a través de mi nariz me duele tanto tragar lo único que puedo comer sin lastimar es salsa de manzana ughy sólo tengo 5 horas de sueño en un día no escolar wtf

I took 360 tablets of 14mg of iron about 16 hours ago, is it lethal?I just want this shit to end... but I'm worried it hasn't worked. It's been about 16 hours now and I feel a little weird but OK. WTF is happening???!??!!!! BTW: I'm male, 5ft 4 and 43kg

Tomé 360 tabletas de 14mg de hierro hace unas 16 horas, ¿es letal?Sólo quiero que esta mierda termine... pero me preocupa que no haya funcionado.Ya han pasado cerca de 16 horas y me siento un poco raro pero OK.WTF está sucediendo???!?!!!!BTW: Soy hombre, 5 pies 4 y 43kg

This is Important please read (More important then first world problems) So can we boys talk about how dick pics are not Worth a single fucking dime maybe if you would stop sending them for free and instead request money for it like woman it would be Worth more than 0.01$

Esto es importante por favor lea (Problemas más importantes que el primer mundo) Así que podemos los chicos hablar de cómo las fotos de polla no valen ni un solo centavo tal vez si dejaras de enviarlas gratis y en lugar de pedir dinero para ella como la mujer que valdría más de 0.01$

It's cute that people think about the literal meaning when they see the phrase "hopeless romantic" it's not what you think haha go google it

Es lindo que la gente piense en el significado literal cuando ven la frase "romantico desesperanzado" no es lo que usted piensa jaja go go googleit

I wish I could live, but I don't want to suffer anymoreLife is suffering, life is solitude, life is a long painful wait for the sweet oblivion from where we all once came from. There is no solution, but at least there is a way out.

Ojalá pudiera vivir, pero no quiero sufrir másLa vida es sufrimiento, la vida es soledad, la vida es una larga espera dolorosa para el dulce olvido de donde venimos todos una vez.No hay solución, pero al menos hay una salida.

just copped r/teenagers merch ready to get beat the fuck up when i go back to school 😎

Sólo mercha de r/adolescentes listo para ser golpeado de una puta vez cuando vuelvo a la escuela

When I was 13-16, my mom forbade me from talking to girls to "protect me from the pain of rejection." She used the then-recent Myspace suicide story as justification. Ulitimately, I hated being forbidden from talking to girls so much that I was driven to suicide.Did my mom see some sort of suicidal inclination in me or does she just hate teenage girls?

Cuando tenía 13-16 años, mi mamá me prohibió hablar con las niñas para "protegerme del dolor del rechazo".Usó como justificación la historia de suicidio de Myspace, que era la más reciente.Por lo general, odiaba que me prohibieran hablar con las niñas tanto que me condujeran al suicidio.¿Vio mi mamá algún tipo de inclinación suicida en mí o simplemente odia a las adolescentes?

Hey guys today’s my final day of free time I’m going back to school thanks guys for the memes and other stuff now I have to go the the depths of hell to learn where fucking X is bye

Hey chicos hoy es mi último día de tiempo libre Voy a volver a la escuela gracias chicos por los memes y otras cosas ahora tengo que ir a las profundidades del infierno para aprender donde mierda X es adiós

Bought my method and back up method, now it's just to choose a dayI went out today on my lunch break and purchased some chlorine bleach, ammonia, and a package of razor blades as backup. The store clerk probably thought I had some cleaning to do. In reality, I do have cleaning to do, just not the kind that she thinks. I want to cleanse the earth of my ridiculous and pointless existence on it. I'm so very, very tired. I really tried to hold out until my set date of September 9th, 2019, but the way my life continues to go, I don't want to wait that long anymore. I've had it. Nothing changes. Nothing goes on. Ten years stuck in this town, of worthless men, of stagnation and doubt, sorrow, hopelessness, watching my family thrive and prosper, and me, just mired down. If I had to describe myself, I would be the girl in the Goo Goo Dolls song "Black Balloon". "I go on as you get colder..." I'm 30 years old and I've never moved out of my parental home. I suspect I have a terribly co-dependent relationship with my mom, but that's besides the point. I fucking hate my job. I work in customer service and all day long all I hear is people yelling at me, venting their anger and rage at the company on me, calling me out my name, telling me what a horrible company I work for, threatening my livelihood. That and taking calls constantly, never being able to catch up, and the endless frustration of being trapped in a job I fucking despise. I honestly hate hearing my own name now, I just cringe when I hear it because I wonder what i've done wrong to make them want to ask me something. Then they tell me that Saturdays are now mandatory. The one thing I had to look forward to...my weekends, my "me" time to detox. I've been late to work four times this week because I just can't bring myself to get up and go back to that place. I find myself fantasizing about different ways to kill myself when I talk to people on the phone. When I get off work the only thought in my head is just to go home and find something to make the pain stop. But it's kind of a joke, because I have to get up in the morning and take it all over again. The only one that bothers me is the wrist cutting, but I plan on using that as a back up method in case the other one fails. And if you do it in the dark in a hot bath they say it's not so bad. I have no social interaction. I decided I was better off not having any friends so now if I do go out, I make sure to keep my interactions superficial. The only men that want me just use me for sex. New years eve, a guy I've known for years and trusted groped me endlessly at a show he invited me to, I had to knee him to get him off of me. He never apologized. I know I'm just a piece of meat to men, I understand it. Being used doesn't bother me anymore, I just don't care. But at least ask first. My life never changes. It never gets better. I just go round and round in an endless repetition of bullshit, lost hope, dead dreams and wasted chances. I'm so tired of living this life. It's not what I wanted. I just feel so trapped with no way out of anything-my living situation, my work, my town. My own mind. Thinking of my family used to stop me, now I really just hope that they can get over my suicide and live their own lives at some point after I'm gone. I love them very much. I love them enough to not cause them pain at watching me struggle and throw the rest of my life away. If I haven't changed in 30 years, I likely won't in the next 80, and I think they're beginning to understand that now. I hope they forgive me. It's going to happen at some point in March. I have two weddings to attend, one of which I'm a bridesmaid in. I wouldn't want to ruin the beginnings of someone else's happiness, so I'm just left figuring out a date. I feel happy knowing that's all I have left to do other than write out a few notes and mix up the chemicals. I hope my family likes my funeral playlist and respects my wishes for the flowers I want.

Compré mi método y el método de copia de seguridad, ahora es sólo para elegir un día que salí hoy en mi descanso del almuerzo y compré un poco de cloro blanqueado, amoníaco, y un paquete de cuchillas de afeitar como respaldo.El empleado de la tienda probablemente pensó que tenía algo de limpieza que hacer.En realidad, tengo que hacer limpieza, simplemente no la clase que ella piensa.Quiero limpiar la tierra de mi existencia ridícula y sin sentido en ella.Estoy muy, muy cansado.Realmente traté de aguantar hasta mi fecha establecida del 9 de septiembre de 2019, pero la forma en que mi vida continúa, no quiero esperar tanto tiempo más.Lo he tenido.Nada cambia.Nada pasa.Diez años atascado en esta ciudad, de hombres inútiles, de estancamiento y duda, tristeza, desesperanza, viendo a mi familia prosperar y a mí, simplemente me adorme.Si tuviera que describirme a mí mismo, yo misma, yo misma sería la chica en la canción Goo Goo Dolls, de estancamiento y duda.

What if they find out I'm faking it?I'm terrified of how I'm feeling. A bit of a background: I had gotten to a pretty dark place almost a year ago. My wife (I'm in my early 40s) pleaded to me to get help, and I did. I went on meds which, at first, intensified my suicidal thoughts but the dosage was upped and I felt I was getting better. I also started with a therapist --I've been doing cognitive behavioral therapy with her and that seems to have helped. In fact, you could say that I was on a total upswing... ... until now. I feel like I'm spiraling out of control with my feelings. Work was tolerable before but now it's not. (My manager got laid off a month ago and I don't get along with my replacement supervisor or team.) I feel like there's no future for me where I work, and I'm frightened of going back out into the rest of the world to get a new job to only suffer more rejection. Work wasn't the best, but at least it was safe. Now -- not so much anymore. And I feel the days getting shorter. Daylight Saving Time ends this Sunday and the clocks fall back - meaning it gets darker an hour earlier. And it causes anxiety when I look at my day and see how little I've accomplished before the sun sets. I don't know how I'll cope. The worst thing? I volunteer with a youth group. Have been for a while. The kids are great and they've looked up to me. I've been an adult they can talk to who isn't a parent and who won't be judgmental. Some of them have gone through some tough times and have confided in me because I've been a constant who can help them. And I feel so fake because I try to help them see the big picture -- that everything will be okay. That there is hope. That they have their lives ahead of them to make good choices and thrive. And they believe me. Yet I'm feeling no hope and no future for me. What if they find out that I'm faking it? I don't know if there's any answer to this. I just needed to let this out I guess. Thanks for reading...

¿Qué pasa si se enteran de que estoy fingiendo?Estoy aterrorizado de cómo me siento.Un poco de un fondo: había llegado a un lugar bastante oscuro hace casi un año.Mi esposa (estoy en mis 40 años) me suplicó que me ayudara, y lo hice.Fui a los medicamentos que, al principio, intensificaron mis pensamientos suicidas pero la dosis fue aumentada y sentí que estaba mejorando.También empecé con un terapeuta --he estado haciendo terapia cognitiva conductual con ella y eso parece haber ayudado.De hecho, usted podría decir que estaba en un aumento total... hasta ahora.Me siento como si estuviera fuera de control con mis sentimientos.El trabajo era tolerable antes, pero ahora no lo es.(Mi gerente se despidió hace un mes y no me llevo bien con mi supervisor o equipo de reemplazo.)Me siento como que no hay futuro para mí donde trabajo, y ahora no me asusta volver al resto del mundo para sufrir más rechazo.

Tonight is the nightIt's been some harsh 22 years. Ups and downs, but the last downs really made me lose hope that I'll ever be normal. Need to wait until sundown. Goodbye.

Esta noche es la nocheHa sido duro 22 años.Altibajos, pero los últimos descensos realmente me hicieron perder la esperanza de que alguna vez seré normal.Necesito esperar hasta la puesta del sol.Adiós.

Im sorry.Im sorry but Im done. Im over this. I just cant anymore. there is nothing to live for. no one wants me to live. people just push me aside. i am nothing. ive been to scared and im over it i know i'll end up doing it sooner or later. so im sorry.

Lo siento.Lo siento, pero estoy hecho.Estoy sobre esto.No puedo más.No hay nada para vivir.Nadie quiere que yo viva.La gente simplemente me empuja a un lado.No soy nada.He estado asustado e im sobre él.Sé que terminaré haciéndolo tarde o temprano.así que lo siento.

Girls always complain about ugly guys liking them, and it’s lowering my self esteem Why couldn’t I be an attractive man. Fucking I’m a waste of sperm

Las chicas siempre se quejan de los chicos feos que les gustan, y es bajar mi autoestima ¿Por qué no podría ser un hombre atractivo.

I asked my four year old sister if she appreciated anything I do She said no

Le pregunté a mi hermana de cuatro años si apreciaba cualquier cosa que hiciera. Ella dijo que no.

Mass Effect is better than Star Wars This will strike a nerve but I most say without Mass Effect I never would have gotten into Star Wars and Battlestar Galactica. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDu_EIAsmDw

Mass Effect es mejor que Star WarsEsto va a causar nervios, pero la mayoría digo que sin Mass Effect nunca habría entrado en Star Wars y Battlestar Galactica.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDu_EIAsmDw

I'm trapped.I'm not suicidal, I just want to die. I don't want to, and cannot kill myself, but I don't want to continue life and I feel trapped in this mind of constant misery with no way to escape. I don't know why I'm typing this because I don't want help, I've already given up and I know I'm fucked.

Estoy atrapado.No soy suicida, sólo quiero morir.No quiero, y no puedo suicidarme, pero no quiero continuar la vida y me siento atrapado en esta mente de constante miseria sin manera de escapar.No sé por qué estoy escribiendo esto porque no quiero ayuda, ya me he dado por vencido y sé que estoy jodido.

Posting songs I like day 20 https://youtu.be/ivhWTvrgPzc This song is just legendary, you may think this is stupid, it is. This is one of the biggest spanish youtubers and a very famous cover. https://youtu.be/Weu9nKN1EAs This is a heavier song to make contrast. And because Im pretty happy today; Im going to post 3 songs. https://youtu.be/dQw4w9WgXcQ I mean, sorry, I couldnt resist it. It still is a great song

Publicar canciones me gusta el día 20 https://youtu.be/ivhWTvrgPzc Esta canción es simplemente legendaria, puede que pienses que esto es estúpido, lo es.Este es uno de los más grandes yutubers españoles y una portada muy famosa.https://youtu.be/Weu9nKN1EAs Esta es una canción más pesada para hacer contraste.Y porque estoy muy feliz hoy; voy a publicar 3 canciones.https://youtu.be/dQw4w9WgXcQ Quiero decir, lo siento, no pude resistirme.

Day 7 of offering to do your homework I’m weird I know.

Día 7 de ofrecer para hacer su tarea Soy raro lo sé.

My life doesnt have a meaningIdk I feel like my life is meaningless with no reason. I dont know what to do

Mi vida no tiene un significadoIdk Siento que mi vida no tiene sentido sin razón.No sé qué hacer

I've been thinking of suicide constantly nowadaysI'm 20 and a junior in college who basically fucked up his entire life. I made the stupid decision of doing my 2 first two years of college at community college even though I attended a school that was basically made to prepare me for university. Back then, I was retarded that I didn't even realize this so I thought it would be fine doing CC, but now I see that really I just made those previous 4 years of high school a completely moot. Also I wanted to use these 2 years I had at Community College to try to get better at art in order to get into my University's animation major, but of course I didn't do that either. Instead, I wasted so much time doing dumb shit like binge eat, gaining 40+ pounds, and blowing all my savings on junk food. I never interacted with any of peers at CC, so I have no career connections and honestly it isn't going much better at the University I transferred to. So with the portfolio review for animation program coming up in about 3 months and my skills still not at the level where they need to be. Not to mention being overweight, having no connections/friends, and still struggling with eating addiction I've basically realized that I've fucked up my life beyond repair. I could've gone to a great school and not been this way but instead I was too stupid to realize what I a good thing my high school was doing for me. And the sad part was is that I was actually a pretty good student in high school, if I just studied a little harder things could've gone great for me. But now, I graduated from Community College with a 3.1 gpa and no valuable career prospects to get an internship this summer. I either have a year or two left in the university I'm currently attending, and with not that many options left I have honestly debated about driving up to my city's bridge and throwing myself off of it. It just seriously feels there's really no hope left for me, and that I've fucked up beyond repair. What am I going to tell my parents when they see that I'm not getting any jobs or internships, they're going to know that something went wrong.

He estado pensando constantemente en el suicidio hoy en día tengo 20 años y un estudiante que básicamente jodió toda su vida.He tomado la estúpida decisión de hacer mis 2 primeros dos años de universidad en la universidad comunitaria, a pesar de que asistí a una escuela que básicamente me preparó para la universidad.En ese entonces, me retrasé de que ni siquiera me di cuenta de esto, así que pensé que estaría bien hacer CC, pero ahora veo que realmente acabo de hacer que esos 4 años anteriores de escuela secundaria un completamente discutible.También quería usar estos 2 años que tuve en Community College para tratar de mejorar en el arte con el fin de entrar en el mayor de animación de mi Universidad, pero por supuesto que no lo hice tampoco.En lugar de eso, perdí mucho tiempo haciendo tonterías como comer bunge, ganar más de 40 libras y gastar todos mis ahorros en comida chatarra.Nunca interactué con ninguno de mis compañeros en CC, así que no tengo conexiones profesionales y honestamente no va mucho mejor en la universidad a la que me transferí.Así que con la revisión de cartera para el programa de animación que viene en 3 meses y mis habilidades todavía no en el nivel donde necesitan estar.

Thinking about ending itim 20, about to fail out of university, for the past year ive thought about killing myself every single day Im a polisubstance abuser who can't stop taking everything. These past 2 weeks I have been blacked out/in psychosis the whole time from an enormous PCP binge. and the previous year I have been abusing OTC cough medicine among basically every other drug every day. I feel mentally slow, ive started stuttering, I have forgotten how to do basic stuff, and I have no real/meaningful memories from the past year, just nothing at all. Monday this week I was going to kill myself but fell asleep beside the tracks instead of on them after a huge oral dose of pcp, I called the suicide hotline 2 times and close friends but I still cant get the thought out of my head. I will update in a day or 2 on my situation. I wonder if ill finally get a rest

Pensando en acabar con itim 20, a punto de fracasar en la universidad, durante el último año he pensado en suicidarme todos los días.Soy un abusador de la poliubstancia que no puede dejar de tomar todo.Estas últimas 2 semanas he estado inconsciente/en psicosis todo el tiempo de un enorme atracón de PCP.y el año anterior he estado abusando de la medicina para la tos de OTC entre básicamente todas las otras drogas todos los días.Me siento mentalmente lento, he empezado a tartamudear, he olvidado cómo hacer cosas básicas, y no tengo recuerdos reales/significativos del año pasado, nada en absoluto.El lunes esta semana iba a matarme pero me quedé dormido junto a las huellas en vez de en ellos después de una enorme dosis oral de PCP, llamé a la línea directa de suicidio 2 veces y amigos cercanos, pero todavía no puedo sacar la idea de mi cabeza.